[ Alabama Shakes'"This Feeling" plays ]
♪ I just kept hoping
♪ The way would become clear
♪♪
♪ I spent all this time
♪ Tryna play nice
♪ And fight my way here
♪♪
♪ See, I've been having mea real hard time ♪
♪ But it feels so nice
♪ To know I'm gonna be
♪ All right [ Exhaling ]
♪♪
♪ So, I just kept dreamin' [ Footsteps approach ]
Tough shift?
♪ Yeah, I just kept dreamin' [ Chuckles ]
♪ It wasn't very hard Hasn't even started yet.
Oof.[ Chuckles ]
Yeah,you know it's bad when
you're alreadyhating the world
and you haven't evengone in yet.
♪ I spent all this time
I, uh...
♪ Tryna figure out why
I saw the video.
[ Exhales sharply ]
It's messed up.
[ Sighs ]
So, I'm usually
the person that findsthe good in all the bad.
I -- I'm the silver liningschick who cracks a joke
even at the darkestof times
to bring everyone elseback up, but...
Pretty hard to seethe silver lining in that.
Yeah.
You know, I'm pretty good atsilver linings myself.
Yeah?
Alright,show me what you got.
Okay.
Let's go.
[ Laughs ]Hm?
I feel like I shouldn'teven tell you this.
Oh, my God, now youhave to tell me!
Okay, um...
I've been jogging up and downthis trail all morning
on the off-chance thatI might see you.
♪♪
Uh...
♪ I just kept goin'
[ Both laugh ]
No, it's not --No, it's not -- it --
Not so mucha silver lining...Yeah.
...as it isan adorable confession.
[ Laughs ] Okay.
But -- [ Laughs ]Okay.
But it made you smile.Yeah.
[ Chuckles ]
♪ I spent all this time
I haven't sleptfor 48 hours.
♪ Tryin' to find my way here
But I went for a runbecause
the first time youasked me out, I, um --
I was too scaredto say yes.
♪ Please don't takethis feeling ♪
So, I guess...
S-So you decidedto stalk me instead?
Yeah, I guess so.Like -- Okay. Got it.
It worked!Yeah, I guess it did.
[ Laughing ] Right?
♪ I have found at last
♪ Please don't take my feeling
♪ I have found at last
Andy: Okay.Ooh.
It's not Carina'sFrench toast, but...
Mmm!
...it's the only thing I knowhow to make for breakfast.
That looks amazing.
Mm.
I -- [ Laughs ]
[ Gasps ] Oh!
Um, Maya asked me to step infor her for the week.
Step in?
As acting captain.
Doesn't the departmentusually send a sub
for bereavement leave?
Well, due to COVIDand pods and stuff,
they said one ofthe lieutenants could do it.
And so she asked me.
And...you've goneall quiet.
No, no. No.
No.
It's good.
I'm happy for you.
Yeah?Yes.
You were made for this.
Plus, couldn't hurt to besleeping with the boss, right?
No, no special treatment.Mnh-mnh.
Just like when I wasyour captain.
Well, maybe a littlespecial treatment.
Oh![ Both laugh ]
Marsha: Oh, you're the best. Thanks, kids.
We're so happy thatyou're feeling better.
Ooh, so tell me something juicy.
I want some gossip.
Uh, there's not, uh --not really anything to report.
Mnh-mnh.
Well, w-what about you two?
When is that gonna happen, huh?
[ Chuckles ]
Oh!What?
Don't you want to make a dying woman happy?
No, you're not --you're not dying, okay?
Not yet.
Some good news might help my odds.
[ Laughs ]
You havea very gentle touch.
Oh. [ Chuckles ]
Well, we finally gotthe smaller swabs, so...
Hm. You know,it's not the size,
it's how you use it.
Okay, guys, this isbordering on inappropriate.
You saw The Running Guy,didn't you?
I don't know.Okay.
So, Emmett,here's the thing.
Vic has a new crush,
and it's a firefighterat another station.
Uh-huh.And she won'ttell me who it is.
I am keeping this oneclose to the vest.
Chest?What's the saying?
I think it's playing itclose to the --
Doesn't matter.Who's the guy?
No! No, there's nothingeven to tell.
The only thing we've done ismake eyes at each other
over our masks andsome light finger brushing.
I'm sorry,finger brushing?
Yeah!
How very"Pride and Prejudice" of you.
Yes! Yes. See?Thank you! Thank you.
It's, uh --It's Victorian.
Uh, Georgian.Whatever!
It's annoying,is what it is.I like it.
No, it's...
You don't even know.Oh, after you, Captain.
By all means.[ Sighs ]
Come on, Gibson.[ Chuckles ]
I'm not the captain.
She just asked me to bein charge while she's gone.
Jack: Yeah, no, okay.What?
I-I just think it'sinteresting, that's all.
That, you know,we're both lieutenants,
yet she decided to putyou in charge
while onbereavement leave.Oh.
I just thinkit's interesting.You think -- Uh, well,
you want meto explain it to you?
Okay.See, Bishop likes me
more than she likes you.
Oh. Ohh!Yeah, uh...
Y-Yeah, no, you know what?That's actually helpful.
So thank you.
And, uh,just to remind you.
The whole reasonBishop's out is 'cause
her girlfriend's brothergot murdered.
So maybe let's not makethis a competition.
And now I feel like an ass.
[ Sighs ]
Andy: Hey.
Huh!Warren, hey, uh --
I didn't think you'dbe here today.
Oh.I called in a sub.
I-I need to be here.
I-I needto help people.
I-I get that.I'm the same way.
But are you sureyou shouldn't...
Please don't say it....be at home?
Look, my -- my kidsdidn't know DeLuca.
And they just losttheir grandmother.
They don't need all my extragrief up in their space.
Yeah, I-I was justgonna ask Bishop
if I could beon desk duty.
Bishop's on bereavementwith Carina.
Right, right.
S-So you're --Acting captain.
[ Sighing ] Alright,you're on desk duty.
Go ahead.
Hey, head intothe barn for testing.
♪♪
Hey.
I know this looks crazy.
Not any crazier thanfinding you
lying in the hallwayat 3:00 a.m.
I can't getcomfortable anywhere.
You want to give the bedor the couch another shot?
Too soft.
Hm?
When something is too softand nice and comfortable
right now, it makes mewant to cry,
and I can't cry anymorebecause it's exhausting
and it gives me a headache,and I'm already so tired,
but I can't fall asleep,and sleeping is the only thing
that will turn offthe crazy guilt
screaming in my brain.
So I'm in the showerto try to fall asleep.
Carina...none of thisis your fault.
Hm.
You want to scream?
Would that make youfeel better?
Okay.
Then scream.
♪♪
Your brother died,Carina.
You're allowed towake up the neighbors.
He didn't die.
He was murdered.
Scream.
[ Groans ]
[ Sighs heavily ]
[ Weakly ] Ahh.
[ Sobbing ]Andrea.
[ Sighs ]
♪♪
[ Crying ] T-Too soft.
Too soft, too soft.
Okay, I'm sorry.Sorry.
♪♪
[ Sighs shakily ]
♪♪
Well, how about you?Uh, are you, uh, dating?
Well, I mean,I tried to.
I had a few online drinkswith a few guys.
And then the whole"Let mebe your daddy" thing
happened and --Yeah.
Yeah, that would make menever want to have sex again.
[ Chuckles ]Yeah.
You know, um,Alicia found a picture of
some guy's junk on my phonebefore I came out to her.
Oh, wow.
It wasn't yours,so we're good.
[ Chuckles ]Uh, I-I told her that
it was probably justone of the guys from school
playing a dumb prank.
Like, you know,"locker room" crap.
I thought I was done for.
I packed my bags,ready for her to kick me out.
She believed it.
Wow.
I find that, um,people are actually really good
at lying to themselves whenit's for self-preservation.
[ Buzzer ]
Hey, is that --
My dad.
Are you gonna --
Why is my dad here?
Maybe he's hereto come out.
[ Knocking on glass ]
Travis!
You gonna let me in?
Put your mask on, Dad.
Oh, mask for masc?Please stop.
♪♪
[ Buzzer ]
Oh.
From your mother.
[ Door closes ]
Why are you here, Dad?
I'm gonna --I'm just gonna --
Yeah.Yeah.
Good to see you.
[ Mouthing words ]
You've never even seenwhere I work, Dad.
[ Door closes ]Spare the dramatics,Travis.
I just brought cookies.
Right. Travis.Dramatics.
Travis the drama queen.
Hey, you know, um,could you come over and help
your mother and I installsecurity on our computer?
Craziest thing happened.
My Facebook page seemsto have gotten hacked.
Someonestole my picture.
Did they?
Yeah, who knows where that'sgonna wind up.
Yeah.[ Chuckles ] Huh.
So this is how we'regonna talk about it?
You're gonna make up a lieabout why I saw a shirtless pic
of you ona gay dating app?
I don't know whatyou think you saw --
[ Klaxons sound ]
Dispatch: Ladder 19, Aid Car 19 requested to
2018 East Olive Avenue.Here, Dad.
Maybe those cookies will helpwash down all that shame.
[ Klaxons continue ]
Montgomery, was that,uh, your dad?
He seems kinda --Gay?
Whoa, Probie, Probie.Probie sits in the probie seat.
Come on, Gibson.
Probie sits inthe probie seat, man.
I'm sorry, but...
How it's done.
♪♪
[ Sighs ]
[ Door closes ]
[ Siren wailing ]
[ Horn honking ]
I have to go to Italy.
What?I have to tell my dad,
and I think the best wayto do it is in person.
Carina, take a breath.Let's talk this through.
Because I don't know howhe's gonna react to the news,
and I just need to be there incase he goes crazy or something.
Okay, there are no flightsto Italy right now.
The border is closedthere and here.
And even ifyou could get there,
we're in a pandemic,remember?
[ Sighs ] I --
Okay, yeah, I have --Ah!
Okay, I feel like there'sso much that I have to do,
and I don'teven know how!
Okay, what do --what do you want?
What do you need?What can I do?
I-I-I have to organizethe funeral, I have to --
I have to contacthis landlord,
I have to call the bankto sort out
all the detailsand paperwork.
I have -- I have to tellmy dad.
But what I want to do right nowis scream.
I want to screamuntil my throat hurts
more than my headand my stomach and my chest.
I just want to scream so thatsome of this pressure goes away.
So scream. Do it.Let it out.
I can't.
[ Breathing heavily ]
I c-- I can't.I can't.
I can't.
♪♪
[ Siren wailing ]
"The pressure which isnormally found on
a water distribution systemis known" --
Residual pressure.
Can -- Can wejust not do this now?
You asked me to help you studyfor the lieutenant's exam.
I-I did.But that was before
Chief Gregorycalled me.
He says, althoughhe does condone
what Sullivan and I didfor Jada and Shanice,
and the charges weretechnically dropped,
brass is concerned with
my decisionto fight for change.
[ Sighs ]You mean your decision
to suethe police department.
Mm-hmm.Well, yeah.I can see why.
Gregory thinks I haveto choose between
getting justicefor Joyce
and applyingfor a promotion.
And he won'tvouch for you?
No. And if he did,would they listen?
[ Muffled dance music thumping ]
♪♪
What is this place?
I'm gonna guess,uh, dance academy?
No. No, I grew up withdance academy kids.
This is...
Brother John:Fear is what tethers us
to this Earth.
I do not subscribeto fear!
If I believe I can fly,I can fly!
[ Cheering ]
Yep.
This is a cult.
♪♪
[ Dance music thumping ]
Sir, you're not a bird.You're a guy.
[ Sighs ]
Alright.Just get out the bag.
Shouldn't we waitfor PD?
Are --
Copy that.
Brother John:Our society is designed
to raise uson fear and shame,
on the suppressionof our humanity,
on our connectedness.
But when we come togetherand unlearn all that poison,
anything is possible.
I can feel that.
The vibration.
Do you feel that?!
Can you feelthat vibration?!
Oh, it's Marky Mark dayat the dance cult. Fun.
My children, we haveunlearned the weight
of shame and fear.
Do you feel howpowerful we are now?
Our collective vibrationis what will give me wings.
I-I don't carehow much energy
these people aregiving you.
If you jump offthat roof,
there's a good chanceyou won't survive.
You don't understand
what Brother John'sdoing here.
You don't understandhow trapped you arein your own mind.
Our minds are free!
Free or on drugs?
We don't do drugs.Mm.
We're high onthe freedom of thought.
We're high onthe magic of humanity
that was beatenout of us as children.
Right.We're high on breath --
Okay, let metell you something.
If you don't putyour mask back on,
you're gonna behigh on COVID.
Can you believethese idiots?
Dr. Warren Sterman.I live down the road a bit.
I'm the one who called.
Oh, youcalled.So, is anyone hurt?
Not yet.But look at 'em.
Okay. Alright.[ Sighs ]
We need to getsomeone up there.
Oh, pick me.Please.
Winner winner,chicken dinner.
Ugh, these people are notliving in reality.
You can'ttalk sense to them.
They just believewhatever
their whack-job gurutells them.
Brother John: Join us!
All are welcome.
Let your fearsmelt away.
Feed on our vibrations.
Well, I would,but I had a big breakfast.
[ Laughs ]
Do you mind telling mewhat you're doing up there?
I'm demonstratingfaith.
Faith in my people.
Faith in my family.
Faith that allthe work we do here
has driven us to this day.Dispatch, this is Ladder 19Incident Commander.
Where is PD?
No, sir. No. Bleach is notan effective remedy.
It -- Uh --
Okay then.Hey, excuse me!
Excuse me!Can you help?
Uh, w-what happened, sir?
[ Grunts ]
It's pretty bad.
Okay.
Uh, looks likeit got you good.
Uh, how'd you do it?
I was so stupid.
I-I've cut fabricthousands of times.
But today I was distracted,and then the phone rang,
and the fabric cutter justwent right over my finger.
Well, have a seat.Yeah.
[ Whimpers ]
Okay.
Can I takea look at that?
Yeah.[ Door closes ]
Let's see here.
Aah![ Grunts ]
Okay, well, you don'thave nerve damage.
But you're gonna needa hand surgeon.
Are you sure?
Are you sure you can't justfix it here?
I'm a surgeon,but I'm not the one
that you want to beseeing about this.Really?
You're -- You'rea surgeon?
Well, how lucky am I?
I'm a general surgeon.But I don't specialize in --
No, well, I-I makemy living playing piano,
and I really needthis finger.
Well, then, you really needto get to a hospital.
Now hold pressurewhile I call ahead.
N-No, uh, I'm severelyimmunocompromised.
I...
I live with HIV.
Please, there hasto be another option
than goingto the hospital.
I thought I readthat -- that Seattle Fire
has some kind ofmobile surgery unit or...
Yeah, it's, uh --it's no longer in commission.
My friendlost his partner.
They went to the hospitalfor chest pains,
and three days later,he was on a ventilator.
And three days after that,he was gone.
So, no, I can't.I can't go there.
I-I'll just --I'll just put ice on it
and, um,hope that it heals.
Uh, thank you.
I -- I'm sorryto bother you.
Well, no, wait.Wait, wait.
Um...
I -- I canhelp you.
Okay, just, uh...
Just promise you won'ttell anyone.
Oh. Oh!
Pinky swear.
♪♪
Did you sleep?
No, but I tried.
In the shower.Like a lunatic.
Well, I got everythingsorted out
with the funeral home.
You called them?
I called everyone.
I did the whole list.I did all the things.
Thank you.
[ Refrigerator door opens ]
No one has everdone that for me.
[ Clatter,refrigerator door closes ]
Any chance you couldcall my dad for me too?
[ Inhales sharply ]
[ Exhales sharply ]
I wish I could.
Mm-hmm.That's one you gotto do on your own.
I know.
I'm so scaredto tell him.
I know.
[ Sniffles ]
I'm gonna try again.
To sleep?
To scream.
[ Carina breathes shakily ]
[ Siren wailing,dance music thumping ]
Sullivan: Man,this thing is heavy.
Travis: Been a while sinceyou moved a bag, huh?
[ Vic chuckles ]
Here we go.
Vic: Don't worry.They can't touch us in uniform.
Yeah, that's whatpisses me off.
Sullivan: Miller,we need them.
We have towork with them.
♪♪
[ Panting ]
♪♪
[ Goggles clatter ]
Damn it!
♪♪
Hey, man.I'm Jack.
Brother Jack!
Welcome!
Dance with me.
Uh, yeah, you do not wantto see me dance, trust me.
Ah-ha-ha!
Shame!
Where does that shamecome from?
Hey, brother,
if that shame is too heavy,just sit down.
Absorb this energy.
How about you comesit over here with me?
Away from the ledge.
Buckner: Sir, you need tocome down right now!
[ Crowd jeering ]Or what?
You'll shoot me?
Aw, man!
The systems our world hasput into place
to instill fearand control.
And we eat it up!
We do, man.
We've been fed thatsince childhood.
Right.Right?
Yeah.Fear for breakfast.
Fear for lunch.Fear for dinner.
Like sugary cereal.
Frosted Fear-i-o's!
[ Cheers and laughter ]
Brother Jack.Jack: Yeah?
You're not dancing.Trust me,you really don't --
Come on, shake offsome of that shame.
I don't dance.Come on!
I d-- Okay, okay!Okay.
I'm dancing.Okay?
Louder.
How do youdance louder?
Ask that little boy versionof yourself.
"How do I dance...louder?!"
I don't know what you'retalking about, man.
I don't know how to dance --Okay! Okay!
Okay. Okay.
I'm dancing louder.Okay?
I'm dancing louder.See? See?
Dancing louder.
Yeah! Louder! Ha!
I feel a connection to you,Brother Jack.
Good. Feel it over here.A soul connection, man.
I feel you.[ Members gruntingrhythmically ]
I've been you.
Alone.
Um, okay.Afraid.
You're lost.
Hey.Yeah?
When was the last timeyou felt loved?
Actually, wait.Better question.
When was the last time
you felt safe to love?
I...
Ah!Okay, alright.
Okay, alright.
Travis: This might bethe best day of my life.
Yeah, I'm gonna need himto remember this.
What the hell is wrongwith these people?
[ Man speaking gibberish ]
Is that guyhyperventilating?
Maybeit's on purpose.
I mean,they seem...happy.
Calamana-skrinatchka-dancala!
[ Thud ]Him less so.
I'm tired, man.Can we sit?
You still haven't answeredmy question, Brother Jack.
What was the question?
I ask becauseI see your pain.
It's so much betteron the other side.
You can be onthat other side, too.No, no, there's no --
There's no pain.There's no pain, okay?
Look, as long as we stay onthis side of the edge,
I'm good.
Why stay on the roof
when you can dancein the stars?
We must continueharvesting.
Okay, what arewe harvesting, exactly?
Energy.
We got to get backto that spiritual self.
When we all do,
we could fill the airwith such high vibration
that when I jump,I willfly.
Please don't jump, man.Dude!
Come on, John.
This guy's stillplanning to fly,
so, uh, getthat bag ready.
Sir, why don't you justtake a breather.
Oh!That was a pretty hard fallyou took back there.
[ Whimpers ]And it looks like
you dislocated your shoulder,for starters.
That's got to hurt.Pain is onlyin the flesh.
Yep. Well, that's whatI meant by "hurt."
Oh, must keepvibrating!
Okay,you can keep vibrating.
Just let us help youwhile you do it, okay?
♪♪
Oh, my God.
No. Oh, God.
Did he just lick me?Yeah. Don't move.
Don't move.Don't blink.
Don't...breathe!Just stop.[ Siren wails ]
Aah![ Car doors closing ]
Wait.
Wait, wait,wait, wait.
What?Just, uh --
Just -- Just give methe pack.
Heads up!
♪♪
Jerry:This damn virus.
Reminds me of the '80s.
You, uh -- You lived throughthe AIDS crisis?
[ Chuckles ]
I went to college atthe Manhattan School of Music.
My first time away from home,first time in a big city.
It was such freedom.[ Chuckles ]
I felt I could float.
But then...
the plague came.
"Gay-Related Immune Deficiency,"they called it.
GRID.Everyone panicked.
The queer communitywas isolated.
I lost friend after friendafter friend.
And I'd worked so hardto live out loud,
and suddenly,I was back in the fear.
And the shame.
Afraid to get closeto anyone.
Afraid to evenlive my life.
Kinda like now.
No one knowshow it's spread,
and there's so muchmisinformation,
and the politiciansrefusing to even
acknowledgethat it's real.
Suddenly,I'm 22 again.
And scared to death.
[ Clears throat ]
Gideon: Calamana!
Vic: Dude.Skrinatchka!
Hey, dude. Come on.Let's just --
Dancala!Dude. Dude!
You could --Sir.
Come on,we're just trying
to give you somemedical attention, okay?
No! Sir --
Sir, please getyour hands off me.
Sir, back away now.
Okay, come on.
Wicklund:Hey, Miller.
Vic: Feel better?Come on.
Hey, listen, I just wantto say I'm sorry.
Okay? What Schneider didthat day --
But youdidn't stop it.
You saw what he was doing,you stood there,
and you let it happen.
It all happened so fast.I'm sorry.
I-I reported himlater.
Look, I'm not even talkingabout what they did to me.
It's those girls.
If we hadn't gonein that building,
those girlswould be gone.
You dounderstand that,right?
I do.
He's suspended, okay?
Pending investigation.
Well,congratulations, man.
You picked the bad appleout of the barrel.
♪♪
[ Sighs ]
You showered.
Mm.I was already there,
and I couldn't sleep,so, um...
I didn't want to call you whenI was in the car with Andrea
because I knew you wouldtalk me out of it.
And tell me to makemy brother stop.
Tell me thatit was dangerous.
And you did.
And you were right.
And I still think --I feel like this is --
Why?Why didn't I stop him?
This is --This is all my fault.
This is -- I --My brother is dead
because I'm an idiot.
Hey, hey, hey,hey, hey.
Listen to me.None of this is your fault.
Whose fault is it,then?
Who am I supposedto blame?
Who?Blame me!
We have to getsome of this off of you.
I will take it.Blame me.
I should have gottento you sooner.
I should have been there.Blame me.
Maya, this isnot your fault.
Then why is it yours?
Because Ilet himon that train!
Idid that.
I -- I --Hey.
Give me the guilt, okay?Give me the -- the blame.
Give me the partthat stings the most.
Okay, let me hold on to itfor a -- a little while.
And when you're feelinga little stronger,
you canhave it all back.
[ Inhales deeply ]I promise.
♪♪
Too soft.I'm sorry.
Mm.[ Sniffles ]
♪♪
Brother John: A mancan't dance on his rooftop
on a beautiful day?Okay, we're shuttingthe music down.
What do youwant to do?
[ Sighs ]I want to let
my lieutenant trya little longer
to get him down.
Dr. Sterman:Watch out for this guy.
He may look nuts,
but he's a charmerand he's dangerous.
Oh.Gibson will be okay.
He's pretty charminghimself.
[ Microphone feedback,static crackling ]
John, please,just take a step back.
The energy is full.It's almost time.
John, please.You're gonna get hurt.
Is that a good reasonnot to do something?
So that youdon't get hurt?
You run awayfrom danger.
John,I'm a firefighter.
My job is literallyto run into danger.
But real danger...you run from.
[ Microphone feedback ]
♪♪
Everyone here has learnedthe same lessons as you, Jack.
All my children came to meso bruised and alone
from a lifetime of pain.
Brother Jack,you have the look in your eye
that so manyof my followers do.
You crave family.
You crave stewardship.
Love.
I'm good, man.I have love.
You're an orphan.
Well, guess what?[ Members gasp ]
I'm an orphan, too.
That's why I builtthis family.
You don't like being alone,do you, Jack?
Scary, isn't it?
♪♪
But look at my children.
See how full they are.
John, please,just take one step back.
Please.
Just one.
I'll take a stepif you talk to me.
Okay, okay.
Tell me about your heart.Are you lonely?
Yeah, some-- sometimes.Yeah.
I'm gonna needmore than that.
Okay, okay, okay!
I-I just, uh --I just moved in
with this -- this womanand her son,
and she's great, but...
But you're scared?
Scared to open up?Scared to feel?
Scared to lose?
What are their names?
Inara and Marcus.
♪♪
And you can't fully loveInara and Marcus, can you?
No, I -- I can,I just...
We all haveemotional injuries
from our lives thatprevent us from loving.
If you cut the fearfrom your heart,
you canlove them.
I want to show youwhat love looks like.
I want you to know whatfearlessness feels like.
♪♪
No, don't!
♪ Higher, your lovehas set me free ♪
♪ Now nothing's out of reach
♪ Higher, higher
♪ Ooh
♪ I run the days intothe night ♪
♪ I feel my heartis going rogue here ♪
♪ But I kinda love it
♪ Yeah, I will go
[ All gasp ]
[ Crowd murmuring ]
[ Cheering ]♪ Higher
♪ Your love has set me free
♪ Now nothing's out of reach
♪ Higher, higher
♪ Higher
♪ I'm stronger now, I'm free
♪ I'm who I wanna be
♪ Higher, higher
♪ This ain't nogive or take, no ♪
♪ I've learnedfrom my mistakes, ohh ♪
♪ I'm so much stronger now
♪ This ain't no give or take
♪ I've learnedfrom my mistakes ♪
♪ I'm so muchstronger now, ohh ♪
What do you want?
I'm sorry, Miller, but I got toask him a few questions.
He's got warrants for --
Montgomery,switch with me.
Yeah.
He'll take careof you.
Sir, there's been reportsof suspicious activity coming --
Can you meet usat Grey-Sloan?
Talk to him after we'vegot him assessed.
We got to go.
Sure. Yeah.Okay.
Hey.
Can I, uh,ride with him?
Join me, Brother Jack.
You two bond up there?
We got a lot in common.
[ Siren wailing ]
Grey-Sloan,this is Aid Car 19.
We're headed towards you witha 50-year-old male
with abdominal pain,possible internal bleeding.
Aren't we all bleedinginternally, in many ways?
[ Chuckles ]
You shouldn't talk.
[ Laughs ]
[ Coughs ]
Were you trying to die?
I was trying to fly.
But you must have knownthat you were gonna fall.
But I didn't fall.
I leapt.
And for that momentof pure freedom,
it was worth it.
♪♪
Sullivan: [ Groans ]
You okay?
Ugh, my back.
Does probie needa little IcyHot?
[ Chuckles ] Alright.
Talk to me when you've had asmany hot saves as me.
Ooh.[ Chuckles ]
We have to workwith them, Miller.
Every day.
Uh, yeah.Yeah, I know that.
Well, then you needto fix your face.
Have you ever thought thatthe reason why things
haven't changed for usis because we're so quick
to fix our faces?
Well, it is what it is.They need us, we need them.
Look, if you can't workwith them, just --
I can workwith them just fine.
I just don't think I haveto fix my face to do it.
Nobody asks Batmanto fix his face.
I'm sorry.Are you Batman?
Yeah. I am, in this uniform.We all are.
We're heroes.
And heroes don't have tofix their faces.
Jerry: You're, uh -- You'reworried about the rule-breaking.
No, I'm -- I'm good.
But even better, you'regood.
You should have full function ofthat finger in about a month.
You're not good.
I know the look.
You've lost peoplefrom the virus?
Of course you have.
You're a doctor,a first responder.
So's my wife.
Oh, but she didn't --
N-No, no.Thank God.
But, uh...her mother.
I'm sorry.
And a few days ago,a friend of mine.
He was a doctor, too.But not from the virus.
He was, uh --he was murdered.
Wait, not --not that handsome young man
who was chasingthat sex predator?
Oh!I saw that on the news.
I said a prayer.
You hate to lose anyone,of course,
but someonethat attractive?
[ Chuckles ]
Oh, I'm so sorry,I shouldn't joke.
It's just howI've learned to cope.
And I've hadto cope a lot.
With this pandemicand the one back then.
You see, you feel like you'redrowning in your own grief.
You barely get a chanceto catch your breath,
and then you'repulled back down.
Thrashing, not knowingwhich way is up.
You forgethow to breathe.
Or even that you should.
But there's that one thing,that life preserver
that will keep you afloatfor just a few minutes
so you cansave your energy.
And you hang on tothat life preserver
and let it keep you aliveun-until you're
no longer at sea.
I'd imagineyours is medicine.
Helping old fools like me.[ Chuckles ]
Mine is music.
So thank you for patchingmy life preserver.
♪♪
[ Door opens ]
[ Door closes ]
[ Line ringing]
Papa. Ciao.
[ Speaking Italian ]
[ Sighs ]
Okay.
Okay. Okay.
Si. Ciao.
He heard.
What?
He heard that Andrea diedtwo days ago.
And he didn't call me.
♪♪
What?What are we doing?
Okay, Maya,I'm not a child.
I don't needa fire truck ride to feel --
[ Siren wails ]Maya!
Scream.
What?Scream!
I can't.Do it!
No, I can't --[ Screams ]
I c-- I can't do it.
[ Screams ]
[ Sobs ]
[ Both screaming ]
[ Screaming continues ]
[ Both panting ]
♪♪
[ Whispering indistinctly ]
You know, you could'vehad my back out there.
Bumped me back tothe probie seat.
Put me on bag.
I'm just doingmy job, Sullivan.
Sullivan?
I'm sorry,is that not your name?
It's Robert.
At least that's what you calledme in bed this morning.
Okay, stop it.
I'm just trying tofinish this report.
Alright.[ Sighs ]
Andy, look at me.
Okay, when we're at work,I'm not Andy.
I'm Herrera.
You -- You saidno special treatment.
Okay.
But you're gonna have tomake it up to me at home.
Captain Herrera.
Reporter: Expect a high near 52 degrees...
Looks like Father Bust-A-Moveis gonna make it.
Oh, good!
He'll liveto dance another day.
Spread your feet apart.
I'm gonna need to apply pressure to your fingers.
I don't want you to move.
Can -- Can youjust change it?
Do you have any weapons or sharp objects on your person?
[ Channel changes ]
You want to run throughsome test questions?
I decidedI'm not applying.
What? Why?
A crazed cult dudeputs a cop in a vise grip,
and they call him "sir."Okay.
I pull a kidnapped girlout of a burning building,
and they shove my headinto the pavement.
Yeah, yeah,but so what?
Look, you've known that's howit is your entire life.
Exactly.You have to apply, Miller.
Youhave to changethings, right?
Why? Why is it always uswho have to change things
or fix our faces?
Because it is.
And you still thinkthat by getting a seat
at the table, thatI'm gonna change anything?
Look at Gregory.Look at Sullivan.
No shade,but what has changed?
Yep.They say change
the system from the inside,and then you're inside,
and you're partof the system.
The only part of this jobthat's not corruptible,
the reason why I left,like, a cushy corporate life --
it's the helping people part.
You know?
So I'm -- I'm gonnahelp Joyce.
And if that means that I haveto put my career
on the back burner, thenthat's what I'm gonna do.
Well, okay, then.
Fair enough.
I can't believea dude licked me today.
[ Chuckles ]
It's not funny.
I can't believeI'm kinda jealous.
♪♪
Ruiz, Ruiz, Ruiz, Ruiz...
Okay.
[ Line ringing]
Theo: Hello?
Hi. It's Vic.
Hughes.It's -- It's Vic Hughes.
From Station 19.
Hey, what's up?
Hi. Uh, so, I got your numberfrom the sub sheet, but --
You need a sub?
What? No.
No, sorry, did I, uh --
Did I catch you ata bad time, or...?
Uh, kinda, yeah.
Yeah, I'm -- I'm sorry,
I'm actually about to meet someone.
Got it.Okay, um...
S-Sorry for the violation.
That was just...
Okay. Bye.
[ Knocking ]
Hi. Can I speak to, uh,Vic Hughes of Station 19?
[ Buzzer ]
Hi.Hi.
♪ When you're numbto the touch ♪
Silver lining.
Sorry to just show up --
Uh, whenis your next swab?
For, uh, COVID.
When do youget tested again?
Tuesday.Perfect. Me too.
♪ This too shall pass
♪ It won't always be the same So...see you...
Wednesday?Yeah.
Yeah.
♪ And every single scarthat you claim ♪
♪ Is a stone in the pathto this place ♪Oh! [ Laughs ]
Thanks.
♪ And every single choicethat you made ♪
Alright.
♪ Has led you this way,so lay your head on me ♪
♪ Lay your head on me
Victorian.
♪ Lay your head on me
Inara: Jack?
Is everything okay?
♪ Someday we will be fine
♪ Staring down the long night
♪ Waiting for the sunrise
♪ It's okay, it's all right
I'm taking a leap.[ Laughs ]
♪ I've been therein your place ♪
♪ It's okay, it's all right
♪ Just lay your head on me [ Cheering]
[ Laughs]♪ Lay your head on me
[ Laughs ]
♪ Lay your head on me
What do you think?
♪ Lay your head on me
Think that I could, uh,be your mom's boyfriend?
Oh, say yes, Marcus!
Say yes, yes!
♪ Don't be afraid, love
[ Laughter ]
Aww!
Oh. [ Laughs ]
♪♪