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Previously on "Station 19"...
Andy: There's no way out.
I'm trapped.

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You're not well.
You can't ‐‐
Exactly.

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That's why I'm gonna
save my daughter's life.

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Andy: Tía Sandra sent me
a birthday card every year

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from age 10 to 15.

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He kept those from me.

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I thought my parents
were happy.

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And now I think
maybe she killed herself.

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Where's my girlfriend?

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You have
a girlfriend?
Sasha!

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Actually knew what
you were doing.
It was pretty hot.

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I think you should
move out.

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[ Laughing ]
What?

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[ Groaning ]
Dr. Shepherd ordered
morphine as needed.

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I‐I need it!
I need it!

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Did my mom...

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Andy.

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[ Gasps ]

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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Mami?

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What are you...

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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Sandra.

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[ Hyperventilating ]

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Sandra: Hey.

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Hey.

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How's the eulogy coming?

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It's not.
[ Chuckles ]

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Yeah.

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Change of scenery
might help.

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Come on.
It's time for the clapout.

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[ Inhales deeply ]

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[ Exhales sharply ]

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♪♪

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[ Siren wailing in distance ]

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[ Indistinct conversations ]

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♪♪

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Wow, this is unreal.

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God,
do I miss my wife.

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I'm sorry.

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Sorry.
No, no, it's fine.

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Robert and I chose
to separate.

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You and Miranda
did not.

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Hey, Roz.
Hey.

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W‐‐ Hey.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

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Now, what are you guys
doing ‐‐

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The boys wanted
to see their mom.

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Tuck: I know Auntie Roz
is only staying with us

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while you and Mom
are quarantining at work,

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but can she ‐‐
Can she move in with us?

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[ Laughter ]

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Alright, what did you
bribe them with?

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What can I say?
My auntie games is on point.

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[ Andy laughs ]
19.

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Hey.

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Thank you guys for getting up
an hour early.

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I ‐‐
It means a lot to me.

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Oh, Mom!
Miranda!

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My boys!

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What ‐‐ Oh.

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Benjamin Warren,
you are a sight for sore eyes.

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And back and feet.
[ Chuckles ]

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I miss you.

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I miss you.

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Oh, Rosalind,
thank you.

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No, thank you.

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‐Uh, how we doing on time?
‐We're about there.

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‐Thank you, Dr. Bailey.
‐We love you, Bailey.

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‐You're the best.
‐You guys, you guys, it's time.

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[ Cheers and applause ]

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Thank you
for all you do!

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[ Cheers and applause continue ]

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Thanks, Dr. Bailey!

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Thank you so much!

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We love you guys!

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We love you!

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♪♪

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[ Davie's "Roll With Me" plays ]

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Wait, you're giving them
our toilet paper?

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Our toilet paper?

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You're giving them
your toilet paper?

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You're never gonna find
your own place, are you?

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I'm looking.

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I am!

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♪ But I'm too madly
in love with you ♪

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[ Doorbell rings ]

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Oh, hi, honey.

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Hi, Mom.
Hi, Mom.

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Oh, I'm so glad
to see you.

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Oh, my God.
So many groceries.

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Vic: I know.
Thank you.

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Is that toilet paper?

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♪♪

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♪ So, I'm gonna
bet it all on you ♪

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Whoa, whoa, bud, bud.
You forgetting something?

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He doesn't like
when we wear the face mask

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because he can't
read lips.

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Yeah,
I don't make the rules.

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I think it's horse crap,
if you ask me.

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Yeah, that's what they said
about seatbelts at first, too.

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[ Chuckles ]
Inara, he's here.

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♪ Roll with me, roll with me ♪

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♪ Oh, baby, roll with me ♪

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Hi.
Hey. Hi.

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You need anything?

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Just you.

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Uh, I mean that we all wish
you could hang out with us.

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Marcus is dying to show you
his train set.

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♪ Roll with me, roll with me ♪

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Why am I signing?
I don't know.

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♪ Roll with me, roll with me ♪

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♪ Ooh, ooh‐ooh,
ooh, ooh‐ooh ♪

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♪ Ooh‐ooh‐ooh, ooh, ooh‐ooh ♪

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♪ Ooh, ooh‐ooh,
ooh, ooh‐ooh ♪

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Alright, we're here today

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to teach you the basics
of wildfire training.

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In the case of a wildland fire
anywhere on the West Coast,

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we call on you to help back up
the fire companies.

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Questions?
Yes?

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Yeah, what fire station
you work at?

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My cousin, he works at, uh,
SFD ‐‐ What is it? ‐‐ 23.

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Name's Barnes.

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Yeah,
he's a good firefighter.

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Yeah,
you work with him?

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We work for a company
called Mavis.

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It's a private
fire company.

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[ Chuckles ]
The hell does that mean?

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Means we get paid more
than your cousin.

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What it means
is that private clientele

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hire us
to protect their property.

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Now, what we're gonna
teach you today

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is called an anchor, flank,
and pinch drill.

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It's the most useful tactic
you will learn today.

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A reminder that
the virtual memorial service

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for Captain Herrera will
take place this afternoon.

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I can't believe after all
the crap we went through

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to get him his
Line of Duty funeral,

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we have to do it
on the frickin' Internet.
Agreed.

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Tell me again why we can't
just wait until after lockdown.

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I mean,
he was cremated anyway.

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'Cause we don't know when
"after lockdown's" gonna be.

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Can't be more than
a couple weeks, right?

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Yeah, you just keep
telling yourself that.

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Sorry!
Sorry I'm late!

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Miller, Miller, you touch it,
you clean it.

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Thanks for the reminder,
Dad.

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[ Laughter ]

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[ Laughs mockingly ]

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Six feet apart.
Come on.

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Come on.
We live together.

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Temporarily.
Just don't be mad, Dad.

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Wow. Okay, look ‐‐ look, guys,
it's not that hard.

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19 is your household,

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so you don't have to wear masks
in here,

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but you do still have to
keep your distance.

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That is a great segue.

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Hughes, when are you gonna
get your crap out of my place?

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[ Klaxons sound ]

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Dispatch: Aid car requested
to Black Ball Hill rest area.

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You guys are lucky
I'm not your dad,

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'cause if I was,
you'd show more respect.

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Larson, six feet.

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Have a good day, Dad!
Love you.

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So, Sasha offered to stay
with me, help out with Pru.

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Also known as
moving in with you?

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No. We are just
quarantining together.

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That's it.
Okay.

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[ Siren wailing in distance ]
[ Chuckles ]

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What?
No, man, it's your story.

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You tell it
the way you want to.

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[ Chuckles ]

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Herrera, you, um ‐‐
you need anything today?

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All good.

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[ Andy breathing heavily ]

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Don't touch me.

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I'm not this ‐‐
I'm not this ‐‐

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This ‐‐ This ‐‐
This isn't real.

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Andrea, this is real,
and I know it's awful.

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I didn't want to ‐‐
but you kept calling.

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No, no.
You called and you called

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and you said you wanted
to know the truth.

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Sweetheart.
My sweet girl.

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This is the truth.

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Just hear her out.

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Just hear her out,
honey.

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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♪♪

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[ Door closes ]

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I know this is a lot.
No.

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It's probably too much.
No, no, no, no, no.

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Andrea!
Andrea!

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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Travis: Ooh.

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Oh.

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How...

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How does one even date
during a pandemic?

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Same way as before.

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You just text each other
for weeks

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until someone
stops responding.

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This guy's profile
just says "snakes."

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Oh, do you think that
means he's interested
in snakes as a hobby,

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or is he interested
in snake‐like men?

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Does it matter?

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[ Siren chirps ]

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♪♪

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One of you
call in a burn?

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Yeah.
One of us did.

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Well, I'm sorry, you
shouldn't be messing
around with health stuff.

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Well, then maybe
you shouldn't have come.

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Vic: Did you call us?
You hurt?

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Uh, no.
Billie is.

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Okay, can you put your mask on
for me, please?

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We broke down on our way back
from...my mom's house.

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[ Chuckles ]
Mom's house, huh?

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All of you?

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Uh, yeah.

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Wouldn't be breaking quarantine
to party, would you?

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Yeah, your parents know
you're out here?

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Where are your masks?
They're in the car.

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I mean, you weren't even wearing
them in the car, either.

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Well, you know what?
We work together, so...

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Travis: Yeah.
Which makes us a bubble.

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What is your name?
Uh, Kayden.

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It's my car.

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Okay. Hey, come here.
What happened?

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Oh, I thought maybe
the car overheated,

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so I opened up the radiator cap,
and, um...

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Ooh. Ouch.
Okay.

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Well, next time, wait for
the car to cool down first.

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What's your name again?
Billie.

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Billie. Sweet.
I'm Vic.

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You boys haven't been drinking,
have you?

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Oh, I'm not a boy.

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Billie's nonbinary.

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Oh. Got it.
Sorry about that.

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My bad.
I'm Travis.

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He/him. Sometimes she.
[ Snaps fingers ]

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I'm gonna ‐‐ Should I ‐‐
I'm gonna check the car.

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The purpose of the anchor point
is to prevent the fire

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from burning around the end
of the control line,

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possibly outflanking
the suppression crew,

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which is you guys.

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Alright?

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Good job.

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Let's take five.

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Stay where
I can see you.

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I hate this crap.

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What? Drills?

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No.

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Working
with criminals.

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You know they're human beings
who made mistakes

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and now have the opportunity
to learn a skill

257
00:09:49,672 --> 00:09:51,216
that will help
the society they hurt?

258
00:09:51,216 --> 00:09:54,052
Yeah, I guess you would have to
look at it that way, huh?

259
00:09:54,052 --> 00:09:55,720
Why would I have to
look at it that way?

260
00:09:55,720 --> 00:09:57,180
Come on, man.

261
00:09:57,180 --> 00:09:59,599
Half these dudes are in here
for selling plants, but you ‐‐

262
00:09:59,599 --> 00:10:03,061
you steal Schedule II narcotics
off an aid car?

263
00:10:03,061 --> 00:10:04,813
What?
You thought I didn't know?

264
00:10:04,813 --> 00:10:05,980
Come on, man.
Everybody talks.

265
00:10:05,980 --> 00:10:08,399
And everybody knows.

266
00:10:08,399 --> 00:10:11,111
My only question is,
how'd you manage not to
get locked up in here?

267
00:10:12,904 --> 00:10:14,155
Nelligan: Are you sure?

268
00:10:14,155 --> 00:10:16,199
Could you do the test
just to be sure?

269
00:10:16,199 --> 00:10:19,160
Mr. Nelligan, the COVID tests
are in short supply right now,

270
00:10:19,160 --> 00:10:20,954
so we have to limit them
to people with symptoms.

271
00:10:20,954 --> 00:10:22,622
You know, I think
I feel my throat

272
00:10:22,622 --> 00:10:24,290
closing up
just a tiny bit.

273
00:10:24,290 --> 00:10:27,168
[ Chuckles ] Well, then I
suggest you walk three blocks

274
00:10:27,168 --> 00:10:28,586
down the road
to Grey‐Sloan.

275
00:10:28,586 --> 00:10:30,922
And risk getting it
from someone there?

276
00:10:30,922 --> 00:10:34,092
Mr. Nelligan, it's the same
as I told you last week.

277
00:10:34,092 --> 00:10:36,177
The best thing you can do
is stay home,

278
00:10:36,177 --> 00:10:37,971
wear a mask
if you do go outside,

279
00:10:37,971 --> 00:10:39,931
and stay six feet away
from anyone else, okay?

280
00:10:39,931 --> 00:10:40,974
Fine.
Fine.

281
00:10:40,974 --> 00:10:42,684
I don't know
what I pay taxes for

282
00:10:42,684 --> 00:10:45,103
if I can't get a test
during a pandemic.

283
00:10:47,730 --> 00:10:49,440
[ Door closes ]

284
00:10:49,440 --> 00:10:51,025
[ Andy breathing heavily ]

285
00:10:51,025 --> 00:10:54,362
Andrea.
Andrea.

286
00:10:54,362 --> 00:10:55,822
I'm sorry.

287
00:10:55,822 --> 00:10:57,115
I should have
told you ‐‐

288
00:10:57,115 --> 00:10:58,575
That my mother
is alive?

289
00:10:58,575 --> 00:11:00,118
That she faked
her own death?

290
00:11:00,118 --> 00:11:01,703
That she
let me believe ‐‐

291
00:11:01,703 --> 00:11:03,288
Oh, my God, this is ‐‐
You called me a lot of times.

292
00:11:03,288 --> 00:11:04,330
You said
you wanted to talk.

293
00:11:04,330 --> 00:11:05,957
You said your father
had lied to you.

294
00:11:05,957 --> 00:11:07,292
You said
you found my letters.

295
00:11:07,292 --> 00:11:08,501
I thought she had
killed herself!

296
00:11:08,501 --> 00:11:10,920
I‐I wanted to see you.
I‐I missed you.

297
00:11:10,920 --> 00:11:13,131
I wanted to know why you left me
after she died,

298
00:11:13,131 --> 00:11:14,757
why I never
saw you again, why ‐‐

299
00:11:14,757 --> 00:11:15,967
I missed you, Tía.

300
00:11:15,967 --> 00:11:17,260
I know,
but how could I?

301
00:11:17,260 --> 00:11:19,304
How could I see you when ‐‐
What could I have said?

302
00:11:19,304 --> 00:11:20,638
What could I have said
that would be true?

303
00:11:20,638 --> 00:11:21,848
Did my dad know?

304
00:11:21,848 --> 00:11:23,892
Did he know
she was alive?

305
00:11:23,892 --> 00:11:26,227
That's not my story
to tell, Andy.

306
00:11:26,227 --> 00:11:28,188
Your mother is here.

307
00:11:28,188 --> 00:11:29,689
She came a long way
to talk ‐‐

308
00:11:29,689 --> 00:11:31,232
She came a long way?

309
00:11:31,232 --> 00:11:32,984
You want me
to give her credit?

310
00:11:32,984 --> 00:11:34,235
After 20 years?

311
00:11:34,235 --> 00:11:36,696
After 20 years,
she came ‐‐

312
00:11:36,696 --> 00:11:37,739
[ Hyperventilating ]

313
00:11:37,739 --> 00:11:41,492
Andy. Andy, honey.

314
00:11:41,492 --> 00:11:48,958
♪♪

315
00:11:48,958 --> 00:11:51,836
Andrea, talk to her.

316
00:11:51,836 --> 00:11:54,589
You deserve to know
the whole story,

317
00:11:54,589 --> 00:11:56,549
even if she doesn't deserve
to tell it.

318
00:11:56,549 --> 00:11:59,052
♪♪

319
00:12:00,887 --> 00:12:03,473
Vic: I dunno, I just feel like
I need to vibe with a guy

320
00:12:03,473 --> 00:12:05,433
if I'm gonna risk my life
to make out with him.

321
00:12:05,433 --> 00:12:06,976
Who said I was planning
on making out?

322
00:12:06,976 --> 00:12:08,144
Oh, so you have
zero intention

323
00:12:08,144 --> 00:12:09,562
of actually sleeping
with any of these guys?

324
00:12:09,562 --> 00:12:11,731
We will cross
that bridge...

325
00:12:11,731 --> 00:12:13,233
when it becomes
impossible not to.

326
00:12:13,233 --> 00:12:14,984
[ Laughs ]

327
00:12:14,984 --> 00:12:17,737
Anyway, it's like
going to the gym.

328
00:12:17,737 --> 00:12:21,407
You stretch before and then...
wipe everything down after.

329
00:12:21,407 --> 00:12:22,408
[ Laughs ]

330
00:12:22,408 --> 00:12:23,826
Speaking of which,
actually,

331
00:12:23,826 --> 00:12:26,621
what is going on
with Herrera and Sullivan?

332
00:12:26,621 --> 00:12:27,997
Oh, my God.

333
00:12:27,997 --> 00:12:29,749
What? What?
Who is it?

334
00:12:29,749 --> 00:12:31,251
Who is it?

335
00:12:31,251 --> 00:12:33,836
Car fire at
Black Ball Hill rest area.

336
00:12:33,836 --> 00:12:35,129
That's those kids.

337
00:12:35,129 --> 00:12:36,756
What the hell
did they do?

338
00:12:36,756 --> 00:12:39,175
[ Tires screech ]

339
00:12:39,175 --> 00:12:46,057
♪♪

340
00:12:46,057 --> 00:12:47,684
[ Billie screams ]

341
00:12:50,061 --> 00:12:51,813
[ Screams ]

342
00:12:51,813 --> 00:12:56,192
♪♪

343
00:12:56,192 --> 00:12:57,902
[ Screams ]

344
00:13:04,325 --> 00:13:06,286
[ Klaxons sound ]
So, should I do it?

345
00:13:06,286 --> 00:13:07,370
What?
Let Sasha quarantine with me.

346
00:13:07,370 --> 00:13:08,538
You mean
move in with you?

347
00:13:08,538 --> 00:13:10,123
Look, I have a baby,
alright?

348
00:13:10,123 --> 00:13:12,458
I have a whole tiny human
with a very big cry

349
00:13:12,458 --> 00:13:13,710
and a great many a need,

350
00:13:13,710 --> 00:13:16,546
and it's just the two of us
locked up together, man.

351
00:13:16,546 --> 00:13:19,132
And frankly, firefighting is
way easier than childrearing,

352
00:13:19,132 --> 00:13:20,300
and Sasha wants to help.

353
00:13:20,300 --> 00:13:22,260
So, I should just
let her help, right?

354
00:13:22,260 --> 00:13:23,803
Yeah, okay.

355
00:13:23,803 --> 00:13:26,139
But you actually like her,
right?

356
00:13:26,139 --> 00:13:28,308
Yeah, sure.
Yes, yes.

357
00:13:28,308 --> 00:13:29,767
[ Laughs ]
Laughing's not helpful.

358
00:13:29,767 --> 00:13:30,643
That doesn't help.

359
00:13:30,643 --> 00:13:32,186
[ Laughs ]

360
00:13:33,563 --> 00:13:35,315
[ Siren wailing ]
[ Laughs ]

361
00:13:35,315 --> 00:13:36,941
Hey. We told you
to wait for a tow.

362
00:13:36,941 --> 00:13:38,192
He tried to fix it.

363
00:13:38,192 --> 00:13:39,527
He thought he could fix it,
and it ‐‐ it ‐‐

364
00:13:39,527 --> 00:13:41,112
It blew up?
Okay.

365
00:13:41,112 --> 00:13:42,363
Billie, was anyone else hurt?
It blew up.

366
00:13:42,363 --> 00:13:44,157
Why did it blow up?!
Billie, were they hurt?

367
00:13:44,157 --> 00:13:46,576
They ran. I‐I don't know.
I don't know. They ran.

368
00:13:46,576 --> 00:13:48,369
Why did they run?
[ Sniffs ]

369
00:13:48,369 --> 00:13:51,330
Billie, are you just scared,
or are you on something?

370
00:13:51,330 --> 00:13:52,331
Huh?

371
00:13:52,331 --> 00:13:53,958
Billie?
Billie!

372
00:13:55,793 --> 00:13:57,587
Ladder 19,
this is Aid Car 19.

373
00:13:57,587 --> 00:13:58,880
I have an 18‐year‐old male

374
00:13:58,880 --> 00:14:01,132
with full thickness burns
from a car explosion,

375
00:14:01,132 --> 00:14:03,593
three other teenagers MIA,
possibly injured,

376
00:14:03,593 --> 00:14:05,470
possibly high,
definitely stupid.

377
00:14:05,470 --> 00:14:07,430
Copy, Hughes.
We're four minutes out.

378
00:14:07,430 --> 00:14:09,724
Get the patient in the aid car
and ready to go when we arrive.

379
00:14:09,724 --> 00:14:11,434
[ Siren wailing ]

380
00:14:11,434 --> 00:14:14,103
Dispatch,
I need four more aid cars

381
00:14:14,103 --> 00:14:16,230
at Black Ball Hill
rest area.

382
00:14:18,483 --> 00:14:20,568
Tell me again
what my dad said to you

383
00:14:20,568 --> 00:14:23,237
before he went up
that ladder.

384
00:14:23,237 --> 00:14:24,614
He said, "Tell Andrea
everything I did ‐‐"

385
00:14:24,614 --> 00:14:26,491
"Everything I did,
I did because I loved her."

386
00:14:26,491 --> 00:14:27,700
Right?

387
00:14:30,286 --> 00:14:32,080
Are you gonna put it
in the eulogy?

388
00:14:34,749 --> 00:14:35,958
Elena:
Don't you want to sit?

389
00:14:35,958 --> 00:14:37,293
Did my father beat you?

390
00:14:37,293 --> 00:14:40,379
Did he ‐‐
Did he torture you?

391
00:14:40,379 --> 00:14:42,590
Was ‐‐ Was he a monster
and I just never knew it?

392
00:14:42,590 --> 00:14:46,219
No. I was overwhelmed
from the minute you were born.

393
00:14:46,219 --> 00:14:48,471
I‐I was in over my head.
I‐I...

394
00:14:48,471 --> 00:14:51,724
I never planned to be a mother,
but I loved you.

395
00:14:51,724 --> 00:14:54,018
I‐I love you.

396
00:14:54,018 --> 00:14:55,895
I just wanted
to fight fires,

397
00:14:55,895 --> 00:14:57,313
and I know that you
get that, m'ija.

398
00:14:57,313 --> 00:14:58,856
Can you not
call me that?

399
00:14:58,856 --> 00:15:00,358
Papi calls me that.

400
00:15:02,318 --> 00:15:05,780
I got pregnant,
and I thought I was wrong.

401
00:15:05,780 --> 00:15:07,406
I was told I was wrong.

402
00:15:07,406 --> 00:15:09,784
I was told that I would
love being a mother.

403
00:15:09,784 --> 00:15:12,703
Elena: I was told that
the minute I held you in my arms

404
00:15:12,703 --> 00:15:15,665
that I would forget about
every dream I had before you,

405
00:15:15,665 --> 00:15:16,749
but that didn't happen.

406
00:15:16,749 --> 00:15:20,211
You were born,
and I loved you,

407
00:15:20,211 --> 00:15:22,130
but I also resented you,

408
00:15:22,130 --> 00:15:24,590
and I resented your father

409
00:15:24,590 --> 00:15:27,635
for getting to do the one thing
we both wanted to do.

410
00:15:27,635 --> 00:15:29,262
I was so depressed.

411
00:15:29,262 --> 00:15:33,182
I became unstable,
self‐loathing, angry, violent.

412
00:15:33,182 --> 00:15:34,892
And that was
a different time.

413
00:15:34,892 --> 00:15:37,061
No one ever talked about
mental health back then,

414
00:15:37,061 --> 00:15:38,479
especially not
for mothers.

415
00:15:38,479 --> 00:15:41,482
I felt hopeless.
I felt like a failure.

416
00:15:41,482 --> 00:15:44,193
I wanted to die because
there was no way out.

417
00:15:44,193 --> 00:15:46,654
There was not a way out
that wouldn't destroy you.

418
00:15:46,654 --> 00:15:48,614
But I loved you.

419
00:15:48,614 --> 00:15:50,700
I still love you, Andy.

420
00:15:50,700 --> 00:15:52,493
W‐Where ‐‐
Where did you go?

421
00:15:52,493 --> 00:15:55,329
I went to New York,
where my cousins lived.

422
00:15:55,329 --> 00:15:58,332
I fought fires for two years,
and then I injured out.

423
00:15:58,332 --> 00:16:00,042
I need you to understand

424
00:16:00,042 --> 00:16:03,296
that this is the biggest shame
of my life.

425
00:16:03,296 --> 00:16:06,048
Biggest shame.

426
00:16:06,048 --> 00:16:08,050
But not
your biggest regret.

427
00:16:10,052 --> 00:16:11,470
[ Exhales sharply ]

428
00:16:11,470 --> 00:16:14,724
You...
You aren't sorry.

429
00:16:14,724 --> 00:16:16,726
You're not ‐‐
You're not sorry, are you?

430
00:16:16,726 --> 00:16:18,477
Of course I am.
But you ‐‐ But you
haven't said that.

431
00:16:18,477 --> 00:16:19,979
You've said a lot of things
tonight,

432
00:16:19,979 --> 00:16:21,731
but you haven't said,
"I'm sorry for leaving you

433
00:16:21,731 --> 00:16:22,899
and letting you think
I was dead."

434
00:16:22,899 --> 00:16:24,275
Well, I didn't know ‐‐

435
00:16:24,275 --> 00:16:25,484
You didn't know
that faking your own death

436
00:16:25,484 --> 00:16:26,944
would make me think
you were dead?!

437
00:16:26,944 --> 00:16:29,155
I didn't fake anything,
Andrea!

438
00:16:30,573 --> 00:16:33,367
I just left.

439
00:16:33,367 --> 00:16:35,077
Your father
did the rest.

440
00:16:36,662 --> 00:16:38,372
[ Siren wailing ]

441
00:16:43,669 --> 00:16:45,922
[ Radio chatter ]

442
00:16:48,299 --> 00:16:50,843
Montgomery, go and search
the perimeter.

443
00:16:50,843 --> 00:16:53,012
Hey, we treated a small burn
from a radiator cap earlier

444
00:16:53,012 --> 00:16:54,680
and then left them
waiting for a tow truck.

445
00:16:54,680 --> 00:16:56,849
They must have poured gas
in the radiator.

446
00:16:56,849 --> 00:16:58,434
Let's put water on that ‐‐

447
00:16:58,434 --> 00:16:59,894
[ Fire whooshes ]

448
00:16:59,894 --> 00:17:02,313
[ Wind whistling ]

449
00:17:02,313 --> 00:17:03,981
There it goes!

450
00:17:03,981 --> 00:17:05,650
[ Indistinct shouting ]

451
00:17:05,650 --> 00:17:08,653
Anchor, flank, and pinch!
Don't let that fire grow!

452
00:17:08,653 --> 00:17:10,821
Dispatch, we have a car fire
that's spread to some trees.

453
00:17:10,821 --> 00:17:12,990
I'm gonna need
three more engines.

454
00:17:12,990 --> 00:17:14,742
Knock down that fire, Banks!
Come on!

455
00:17:14,742 --> 00:17:17,119
Sully.
We're getting called in.

456
00:17:17,119 --> 00:17:18,788
Wildfire?
Black Ball Hill.

457
00:17:18,788 --> 00:17:20,373
Hey, yo, can we come?

458
00:17:20,373 --> 00:17:22,541
Nah. This is
the big leagues, Banks.

459
00:17:22,541 --> 00:17:24,794
You stay here and keep
practicing with your toy hoses.

460
00:17:24,794 --> 00:17:26,754
Sullivan: You know,
you don't have to mock them.

461
00:17:26,754 --> 00:17:28,422
I know Banks
is a pain in the ass,

462
00:17:28,422 --> 00:17:29,799
but he'll be
a good firefighter.

463
00:17:29,799 --> 00:17:32,426
Yeah, for Convict Work Crew
Number One.

464
00:17:32,426 --> 00:17:35,096
Nothing wrong with that.
We rely on these guys.

465
00:17:35,096 --> 00:17:36,973
Then why does the state pay them
next to nothing, huh?

466
00:17:36,973 --> 00:17:38,558
Well, that's just
how it is.

467
00:17:38,558 --> 00:17:40,434
It's rehabilitation.

468
00:17:40,434 --> 00:17:43,104
Nah.
It's capitalism, Sully.

469
00:17:43,104 --> 00:17:44,855
They're cheap labor
while they're here,

470
00:17:44,855 --> 00:17:46,440
but you know damn well
Seattle Fire

471
00:17:46,440 --> 00:17:47,942
ain't gonna hire them
when they get out.

472
00:17:47,942 --> 00:17:50,570
Hey. That's another thing
you have in common with them.

473
00:17:50,570 --> 00:17:53,531
[ Laughs ]

474
00:17:53,531 --> 00:17:55,658
Warren, grab some brush rolls
off of Engine 19

475
00:17:55,658 --> 00:17:57,034
so they can extend the line
on the left flank.

476
00:17:57,034 --> 00:17:58,202
Copy.
Grabbing brush rolls.

477
00:17:58,202 --> 00:17:59,912
Travis: Captain!
[ Grunts ]

478
00:18:00,746 --> 00:18:01,998
Miller, go!

479
00:18:03,457 --> 00:18:04,542
Almost there.

480
00:18:06,877 --> 00:18:08,462
Dispatch,
where's that other aid car?

481
00:18:14,552 --> 00:18:16,721
[ Sirens wailing ]

482
00:18:18,264 --> 00:18:20,558
[ Brakes screech ]

483
00:18:20,558 --> 00:18:23,686
Warren, I've got some ember cast
on my right flank.

484
00:18:23,686 --> 00:18:25,521
I need you to bring a couple
of those brush rolls

485
00:18:25,521 --> 00:18:26,856
and a water thief
to the side.

486
00:18:26,856 --> 00:18:28,608
Copy.
Go, go, go!

487
00:18:31,485 --> 00:18:33,613
Montgomery, let's go!
Let's go! Come on!

488
00:18:33,613 --> 00:18:35,364
This is Billie,
18‐year‐old NB

489
00:18:35,364 --> 00:18:36,741
with partial thickness burns
on both forearms

490
00:18:36,741 --> 00:18:38,117
and smoke inhalation.

491
00:18:38,117 --> 00:18:39,410
I just put them
on oxygen.

492
00:18:39,410 --> 00:18:41,370
Hemodynamically stable.
No loss of consciousness.

493
00:18:41,370 --> 00:18:44,457
Possible ‐‐ probable ‐‐
drugs involved.

494
00:18:44,457 --> 00:18:46,083
The other two are still
out there somewhere.

495
00:18:46,083 --> 00:18:47,251
19'll find them.

496
00:18:47,251 --> 00:18:54,634
♪♪

497
00:18:54,634 --> 00:18:56,427
[ Radio chatter, siren wails ]

498
00:18:58,846 --> 00:19:00,681
This is just wrong.

499
00:19:00,681 --> 00:19:02,933
What? You suddenly
grew a conscience?

500
00:19:04,644 --> 00:19:06,729
Fowler, I had an injury
on the job,

501
00:19:06,729 --> 00:19:08,689
and I developed
an addiction,

502
00:19:08,689 --> 00:19:11,651
which explains why I briefly
became someone I didn't like.

503
00:19:11,651 --> 00:19:13,486
Now, you're someone else
I don't like.

504
00:19:13,486 --> 00:19:16,072
But as far
as I can tell...

505
00:19:16,072 --> 00:19:17,990
you were just born
that way.

506
00:19:17,990 --> 00:19:20,660
[ Laughs ]

507
00:19:24,705 --> 00:19:25,748
Ah.

508
00:19:25,748 --> 00:19:27,333
Cheer up, Sully.

509
00:19:27,333 --> 00:19:29,752
Don't call me Sully.

510
00:19:29,752 --> 00:19:32,004
See this big house?

511
00:19:32,004 --> 00:19:34,048
This is why they pay us
the big bucks.

512
00:19:37,510 --> 00:19:38,803
[ Siren wailing ]

513
00:19:38,803 --> 00:19:40,971
Vic: Grey‐Sloan, this is Hughes
on Aid Car 19.

514
00:19:40,971 --> 00:19:43,182
I have an 18‐year‐old male with
extensive full thickness burns.

515
00:19:43,182 --> 00:19:45,101
TBSA estimate
greater than 70%.

516
00:19:45,101 --> 00:19:46,477
Hypotensive
and intubated.

517
00:19:46,477 --> 00:19:47,937
Nurse:
Hughes, I'm sorry,

518
00:19:47,937 --> 00:19:49,313
but we aren't taking
any non‐COVID emergencies.

519
00:19:49,313 --> 00:19:50,356
Pressure's dropping!

520
00:19:50,356 --> 00:19:51,524
See, that's not
gonna work for me

521
00:19:51,524 --> 00:19:53,067
because I have
a barbecued teenager here

522
00:19:53,067 --> 00:19:54,318
and you're
the closest burn center.

523
00:19:54,318 --> 00:19:55,653
Very sorry, but ‐‐
Okay, cool.

524
00:19:55,653 --> 00:19:57,196
See ya soon.
Bye.

525
00:19:57,196 --> 00:19:59,990
Pushy!
I like it!

526
00:19:59,990 --> 00:20:02,284
Andy: Bishop, I've got
a spot fire to my right

527
00:20:02,284 --> 00:20:04,620
about 50 yards
outside the burn.

528
00:20:07,248 --> 00:20:08,916
Fowler: Just don't
open the door, babe.

529
00:20:11,752 --> 00:20:13,129
No, no.

530
00:20:13,129 --> 00:20:14,463
He's gonna set it
on the porch,

531
00:20:14,463 --> 00:20:16,841
then he'll walk away,
then you can go get it.

532
00:20:16,841 --> 00:20:18,384
Andy:
That spot is starting to run.

533
00:20:18,384 --> 00:20:20,219
It might hook our location.
Warren!

534
00:20:20,219 --> 00:20:21,470
No. No.

535
00:20:21,470 --> 00:20:24,014
No, you do not have to boil it
before you eat it.

536
00:20:24,014 --> 00:20:25,683
Gibson, I need you over here!

537
00:20:25,683 --> 00:20:27,560
[ Beeping ]

538
00:20:27,560 --> 00:20:32,314
♪♪

539
00:20:32,314 --> 00:20:33,399
[ Engine starts ]

540
00:20:33,399 --> 00:20:34,608
The hell?

541
00:20:34,608 --> 00:20:36,152
Sullivan!

542
00:20:36,152 --> 00:20:37,903
Hey!

543
00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:39,155
Cruz,
we're gonna need water.

544
00:20:39,155 --> 00:20:41,532
Hand lay a two and a half
down to that hydrant.

545
00:20:41,532 --> 00:20:44,201
Dispatch, did you ask
for a private company ‐‐

546
00:20:45,494 --> 00:20:46,579
Disregard.

547
00:20:48,664 --> 00:20:50,624
Bishop.

548
00:20:50,624 --> 00:20:51,709
Where do you
need me?

549
00:20:51,709 --> 00:20:57,047
♪♪

550
00:20:57,047 --> 00:20:58,591
North side.

551
00:20:58,591 --> 00:21:00,259
Lay a hose line around the flank
of that spot fire

552
00:21:00,259 --> 00:21:02,219
and pinch it off.
Alright. Copy that.

553
00:21:02,219 --> 00:21:09,935
♪♪

554
00:21:09,935 --> 00:21:11,437
[ Coughing ]

555
00:21:15,024 --> 00:21:17,526
Captain, I have eyes
on one of the other kids.

556
00:21:17,526 --> 00:21:19,153
Maya: Good.
Keep working on that fire.

557
00:21:19,153 --> 00:21:21,238
That's the best way to protect
him until we can evac.

558
00:21:21,238 --> 00:21:26,494
♪♪

559
00:21:26,494 --> 00:21:29,121
My father told me
you were very sick.

560
00:21:29,121 --> 00:21:32,792
I always assumed you had some
illness that couldn't be cured.

561
00:21:35,252 --> 00:21:37,463
I guess you did.
Just not the kind I thought.

562
00:21:37,463 --> 00:21:39,340
You know, when fathers
leave their children,

563
00:21:39,340 --> 00:21:41,050
no one blames it
on mental illness,

564
00:21:41,050 --> 00:21:42,676
no one
calls them monsters.

565
00:21:42,676 --> 00:21:45,012
They just turn to the mother
who's left alone

566
00:21:45,012 --> 00:21:46,639
and is expected
to do both jobs.

567
00:21:46,639 --> 00:21:48,641
Which is what you did
to my dad.

568
00:21:48,641 --> 00:21:50,726
I told you, I was not
in the right mind ‐‐
Well, which one was it?

569
00:21:50,726 --> 00:21:52,186
Were you mentally ill,
or were you not?

570
00:21:52,186 --> 00:21:54,188
I don't know.
I was depressed.

571
00:21:54,188 --> 00:21:55,940
I was exhausted.

572
00:21:55,940 --> 00:21:57,900
And sometimes suicidal.

573
00:21:57,900 --> 00:21:59,652
I was never diagnosed
or medicated ‐‐

574
00:21:59,652 --> 00:22:01,821
You were just happier
once I was out of your life.

575
00:22:01,821 --> 00:22:04,615
No. I was devastated.

576
00:22:04,615 --> 00:22:08,244
And I missed you
desperately.

577
00:22:08,244 --> 00:22:11,121
And, yes...

578
00:22:11,121 --> 00:22:13,541
I felt free.

579
00:22:13,541 --> 00:22:16,460
When ‐‐ When you left...

580
00:22:16,460 --> 00:22:19,421
did he tell you he was gonna
say you were dead?

581
00:22:19,421 --> 00:22:21,715
No. He asked me,
"What am I supposed to tell

582
00:22:21,715 --> 00:22:24,093
a 9‐year‐old girl about
why her mother left her?"

583
00:22:24,093 --> 00:22:26,887
And I said,
"I don't know.

584
00:22:26,887 --> 00:22:28,389
Tell her I'm dead."

585
00:22:28,389 --> 00:22:30,182
But I didn't mean it,

586
00:22:30,182 --> 00:22:32,935
just like I didn't mean
to leave you that day forever.
But you did!

587
00:22:32,935 --> 00:22:34,854
You left.

588
00:22:38,023 --> 00:22:40,526
And my father
made the decision

589
00:22:40,526 --> 00:22:42,695
that it would be less painful
for me to grieve you

590
00:22:42,695 --> 00:22:46,365
than to know
you abandoned me.

591
00:22:46,365 --> 00:22:48,117
[ Conor coughing ]

592
00:22:50,077 --> 00:22:51,745
I need
a fire shelter here!

593
00:22:51,745 --> 00:22:52,913
Sullivan: I got it!

594
00:22:52,913 --> 00:22:54,290
Robert?

595
00:22:54,290 --> 00:22:55,457
Keep your eyes on the fire,
Herrera.

596
00:22:55,457 --> 00:22:56,542
I got it.

597
00:22:56,542 --> 00:22:58,419
[ Coughing ]

598
00:22:58,419 --> 00:22:59,837
You're gonna be okay.

599
00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:07,511
Hold it close to the ground,
and do not move no matter what.

600
00:23:07,511 --> 00:23:09,221
You hear me?!
Yeah.

601
00:23:09,221 --> 00:23:14,393
♪♪

602
00:23:14,393 --> 00:23:19,315
♪♪

603
00:23:24,528 --> 00:23:26,864
[ Conor coughing ]

604
00:23:26,864 --> 00:23:29,158
♪♪

605
00:23:29,158 --> 00:23:31,785
Herrera, we got this.
Go help him.

606
00:23:34,622 --> 00:23:36,457
It's okay.
It's okay.

607
00:23:36,457 --> 00:23:39,126
Bishop, I have one male
with second‐degree burns,

608
00:23:39,126 --> 00:23:40,377
possibly in shock.
Maya: Copy.

609
00:23:40,377 --> 00:23:42,004
We have an aid car
standing by.

610
00:23:42,004 --> 00:23:43,088
Frankie.
Frankie.

611
00:23:43,088 --> 00:23:44,048
Frankie?
Frankie, is that your name?

612
00:23:44,048 --> 00:23:45,549
No, no, I'm ‐‐
I'm Conor.

613
00:23:45,549 --> 00:23:47,343
Conor, my name is Andy.
Where else does it hurt?

614
00:23:47,343 --> 00:23:49,178
I don't ‐‐ I don't ‐‐ W‐We ‐‐
We just wanted to be together

615
00:23:49,178 --> 00:23:50,512
for one night,
you know, one party.

616
00:23:50,512 --> 00:23:52,431
Prom's been canceled.
Graduation's been canceled.

617
00:23:52,431 --> 00:23:54,475
Okay.
They're mailing us
our freaking diplomas!

618
00:23:54,475 --> 00:23:56,018
12 years of school,
and we're missing everything!

619
00:23:56,018 --> 00:23:57,227
It's okay. It's okay.
It's okay.

620
00:23:57,227 --> 00:23:58,312
Hey, take a deep breath
for me.

621
00:23:58,312 --> 00:23:59,521
Okay,
what's your name again?

622
00:23:59,521 --> 00:24:01,941
Conor Jaxtimer.
Have you found Frankie yet?

623
00:24:01,941 --> 00:24:03,317
Sullivan:
Let's get him up.

624
00:24:03,317 --> 00:24:05,027
Bishop, there's another kid
out here.

625
00:24:05,027 --> 00:24:06,528
Let's get you up.
His name is Frankie.

626
00:24:06,528 --> 00:24:09,198
Come on.
Let's go find him.

627
00:24:09,198 --> 00:24:11,158
Gibson, any sign
of the fourth kid?

628
00:24:11,158 --> 00:24:12,743
Jack: Not yet.
Will update.

629
00:24:12,743 --> 00:24:15,120
[ Siren chirps ]
[ Conor coughing ]

630
00:24:16,538 --> 00:24:17,748
[ Grunting ]
Come on.

631
00:24:19,500 --> 00:24:21,085
Wait, wait, wait.
You have to find Frankie.

632
00:24:21,085 --> 00:24:22,252
He's got a bunch
of health problems.

633
00:24:22,252 --> 00:24:23,671
He didn't want to come out
and party.

634
00:24:23,671 --> 00:24:24,463
I forced him to.

635
00:24:24,463 --> 00:24:25,673
Come on.

636
00:24:25,673 --> 00:24:27,383
Frankie, hey!

637
00:24:27,383 --> 00:24:29,885
Frankie,
can you hear me?!

638
00:24:29,885 --> 00:24:32,012
Frankie,
I'm here to help you!

639
00:24:32,012 --> 00:24:34,390
[ Weakly ] Help!
Frankie!

640
00:24:34,390 --> 00:24:36,600
Frankie, call out
if you can hear me.

641
00:24:36,600 --> 00:24:38,227
Help!

642
00:24:42,481 --> 00:24:43,399
I got him!

643
00:24:46,735 --> 00:24:48,821
I was running,
and then I tripped.

644
00:24:48,821 --> 00:24:50,322
There was so much smoke.
It's okay.

645
00:24:50,322 --> 00:24:51,490
It's okay.
I'm gonna help you now.

646
00:24:51,490 --> 00:24:52,658
This is Warren.

647
00:24:52,658 --> 00:24:54,118
I'm gonna need a stretcher
and a med bag.

648
00:24:56,704 --> 00:24:59,581
Frankie, have you, uh ‐‐ have
you had a surgery recently?

649
00:24:59,581 --> 00:25:01,500
Yeah.
Am I bleeding?

650
00:25:01,500 --> 00:25:03,419
[ Whimpering ]

651
00:25:03,419 --> 00:25:06,338
Oh, man!
My dad's gonna freak out!

652
00:25:09,258 --> 00:25:10,718
Hey, Hughes!
We're not taking any ‐‐

653
00:25:10,718 --> 00:25:13,220
No, I know you're not taking
any non‐COVID cases right now,

654
00:25:13,220 --> 00:25:15,431
but you are taking this teenager
with full thickness burns

655
00:25:15,431 --> 00:25:17,016
from head to toe
from a car explosion.

656
00:25:17,016 --> 00:25:17,975
I intubated him
on the scene.

657
00:25:17,975 --> 00:25:19,518
He's hypotensive
and tachycardic,

658
00:25:19,518 --> 00:25:20,936
and you are the best,
so you are taking him,

659
00:25:20,936 --> 00:25:22,104
because if you send us away,
he dies

660
00:25:22,104 --> 00:25:23,897
and that makes you
a murderer.

661
00:25:23,897 --> 00:25:24,690
Okay.
Okay.

662
00:25:24,690 --> 00:25:26,483
Okay, trauma one.

663
00:25:26,483 --> 00:25:28,068
You were right
to bring him here.
Yeah, I know that.

664
00:25:28,068 --> 00:25:29,695
Oh, uh, the next kid
that comes in, Billie,

665
00:25:29,695 --> 00:25:31,780
make sure no one calls them
"he" or "she," okay?

666
00:25:31,780 --> 00:25:34,158
Wait, there's more?
Yeah, don't murder any of
the burned teenagers, Dr. Hunt!

667
00:25:34,158 --> 00:25:35,409
[ Groans ]

668
00:25:35,409 --> 00:25:36,535
Let's go.

669
00:25:39,747 --> 00:25:42,249
I hate teenagers.

670
00:25:42,249 --> 00:25:44,752
I hated teenagers even
when I was a teenager.

671
00:25:44,752 --> 00:25:47,212
'Cause they're so stupid?
'Cause they're so stupid.

672
00:25:47,212 --> 00:25:49,006
Yeah, well, their brains
aren't fully formed yet,

673
00:25:49,006 --> 00:25:50,424
so it's not entirely
their fault.

674
00:25:50,424 --> 00:25:52,676
It's like hating a puppy
for being cute.

675
00:25:52,676 --> 00:25:55,387
You know, they can't help
what they are, so...

676
00:25:55,387 --> 00:25:58,432
I hate that they're gonna
miss prom and graduation.

677
00:25:58,432 --> 00:26:00,142
High school sucks enough
without a pandemic

678
00:26:00,142 --> 00:26:01,643
to take away all the parts
that don't suck.

679
00:26:01,643 --> 00:26:02,478
Oh, yeah.

680
00:26:03,937 --> 00:26:05,981
Hey, Vic.
Huh?

681
00:26:05,981 --> 00:26:07,858
Whatever happened
to hot doctor lover?

682
00:26:07,858 --> 00:26:10,194
Oh, just doctor,
not lover.

683
00:26:10,194 --> 00:26:11,361
Still hot, though.

684
00:26:11,361 --> 00:26:13,238
Yeah.
Yeah.

685
00:26:13,238 --> 00:26:15,324
Oh, wait, who did you see
on that app?

686
00:26:17,159 --> 00:26:18,660
Wha‐‐ Travis?

687
00:26:18,660 --> 00:26:20,204
I'm gonna disinfect
the front.

688
00:26:21,622 --> 00:26:24,833
[ Crying ] I'm not just
some dumb kid, I swear.

689
00:26:24,833 --> 00:26:26,251
I was almost valedictorian,

690
00:26:26,251 --> 00:26:28,504
if I hadn't missed so much
school for my health stuff.

691
00:26:28,504 --> 00:26:30,798
I hadn't even left the house
since we went into lockdown.

692
00:26:30,798 --> 00:26:33,258
I just wanted
to see my friends.
Frankie. Frankie.

693
00:26:33,258 --> 00:26:35,260
I have a couple of kids
about your age,

694
00:26:35,260 --> 00:26:36,512
and if one of them
was hurt,

695
00:26:36,512 --> 00:26:38,722
even if it was because
they did something stupid,

696
00:26:38,722 --> 00:26:40,766
all I would want is for them
to get better.

697
00:26:40,766 --> 00:26:41,850
Everyone makes mistakes.

698
00:26:41,850 --> 00:26:43,602
[ Gasping ] Okay.

699
00:26:43,602 --> 00:26:45,145
Even valedictorians.

700
00:26:49,316 --> 00:26:50,984
Andy: Captain,
we're done mopping up.

701
00:26:50,984 --> 00:26:52,778
We've cold‐trailed
the entire perimeter.

702
00:26:52,778 --> 00:26:54,613
Maya: Good work, Lieutenant.
Let's pack it up.

703
00:26:54,613 --> 00:26:55,823
Vic: Leaving Grey‐Sloan.

704
00:26:55,823 --> 00:26:56,782
We still doing
Friday Night Lights?

705
00:26:56,782 --> 00:26:57,908
Affirmative.
See you there.

706
00:26:57,908 --> 00:26:59,618
Sasha's sexy,
funny, and smart,

707
00:26:59,618 --> 00:27:01,411
in addition
to being great with Pru.

708
00:27:01,411 --> 00:27:03,789
I'm alone, she's alone.

709
00:27:03,789 --> 00:27:05,999
Having a quarantine buddy that's
also good at changing diapers,

710
00:27:05,999 --> 00:27:07,918
man, it's ‐‐
it's a win‐win.

711
00:27:07,918 --> 00:27:09,837
[ Laughs ]
You laugh again,
I'm gonna hit you.

712
00:27:09,837 --> 00:27:12,214
You know that.
It's just usually I'm the one
in this friendship

713
00:27:12,214 --> 00:27:14,174
making terrible
relationship decisions.

714
00:27:14,174 --> 00:27:15,968
It's fun being
on the other side.

715
00:27:15,968 --> 00:27:18,220
So, what,
I‐I should do it?

716
00:27:18,220 --> 00:27:19,847
[ Chuckling ] I don't know, man.
Do you love her?

717
00:27:19,847 --> 00:27:21,223
Love her?
[ Chuckles ]

718
00:27:21,223 --> 00:27:22,599
We've only been dating
six weeks.

719
00:27:22,599 --> 00:27:24,810
I'm not talking
about Sasha.

720
00:27:24,810 --> 00:27:27,354
[ Radio chatter ]

721
00:27:27,354 --> 00:27:29,147
Trying not to.

722
00:27:29,147 --> 00:27:31,316
You know what to do.
Do I?

723
00:27:31,316 --> 00:27:32,651
[ Laughs ]

724
00:27:32,651 --> 00:27:34,611
All that laughing,
it hurts my feelings, man.

725
00:27:34,611 --> 00:27:36,363
[ Laughing ] Seriously.

726
00:27:36,363 --> 00:27:38,198
I'm laughing,
but I'm hurting on the inside.

727
00:27:38,198 --> 00:27:40,576
[ Siren chirps ]
Man: Alright, 19,

728
00:27:40,576 --> 00:27:42,578
let's bring some joy
to the people.

729
00:27:42,578 --> 00:27:47,499
♪ It feels like there's
no more fight in you ♪

730
00:27:47,499 --> 00:27:49,418
[ Horn blares ]

731
00:27:49,418 --> 00:27:54,673
♪ But I see the daylight
breaking through ♪

732
00:27:54,673 --> 00:27:56,717
♪ Yeah ♪

733
00:27:56,717 --> 00:28:01,013
♪ When there's no more strength
to carry on ♪

734
00:28:01,013 --> 00:28:03,515
[ Siren wails ]

735
00:28:03,515 --> 00:28:08,937
♪ I know the storm
will soon be gone ♪

736
00:28:08,937 --> 00:28:15,861
♪ And someday we'll be
on the other side ♪

737
00:28:15,861 --> 00:28:18,947
♪ It won't be long ♪

738
00:28:18,947 --> 00:28:22,659
♪ It won't be long ♪

739
00:28:22,659 --> 00:28:28,624
♪ Change will come, yeah ♪

740
00:28:28,624 --> 00:28:32,669
♪ I know that it won't be long ♪

741
00:28:32,669 --> 00:28:36,298
♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

742
00:28:36,298 --> 00:28:39,635
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
♪ A change is gonna come,
come, come ♪

743
00:28:39,635 --> 00:28:43,221
♪ Yeah ♪

744
00:28:43,221 --> 00:28:46,642
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
♪ A change is gonna come,
come, come ♪

745
00:28:46,642 --> 00:28:49,770
♪ Yeah ♪

746
00:28:49,770 --> 00:28:53,023
♪ A change is gonna come ♪

747
00:28:53,023 --> 00:28:55,025
[ Chuckles softly ]

748
00:28:55,025 --> 00:28:57,945
He said something else ‐‐
your dad.

749
00:28:57,945 --> 00:29:00,405
I guess I didn't think
to mention it before

750
00:29:00,405 --> 00:29:03,617
because I was so worried about
remembering the other thing.

751
00:29:03,617 --> 00:29:08,747
He said he handpicked us all ‐‐
all of us at 19.

752
00:29:08,747 --> 00:29:12,292
And he said that
[Chuckles]

753
00:29:12,292 --> 00:29:14,002
even though we weren't
all the best recruits

754
00:29:14,002 --> 00:29:16,922
that he saw something
in all of us

755
00:29:16,922 --> 00:29:18,840
that he knew would work
as a family.

756
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:25,514
♪♪

757
00:29:28,767 --> 00:29:33,105
I got my first period
the day before my 12th birthday.

758
00:29:33,105 --> 00:29:37,734
I thought
I had pooped myself.

759
00:29:37,734 --> 00:29:41,863
Ah, no one told me what
to expect or when to expect it.

760
00:29:41,863 --> 00:29:43,240
I just woke up one day,

761
00:29:43,240 --> 00:29:45,242
and there was
this dark brown stuff

762
00:29:45,242 --> 00:29:47,244
all over the sheets
and in my underwear.

763
00:29:47,244 --> 00:29:50,664
I was mortified.

764
00:29:50,664 --> 00:29:52,791
I balled up all the bedding
and all my clothes

765
00:29:52,791 --> 00:29:54,710
and shoved them
in the washing machine

766
00:29:54,710 --> 00:29:56,628
and poured so much
detergent in there

767
00:29:56,628 --> 00:30:00,298
that the machine jammed
and overflowed with suds.

768
00:30:02,092 --> 00:30:06,138
Papi came home from a shift
that morning and yelled so loud.

769
00:30:08,724 --> 00:30:10,642
[ Exhales sharply ]

770
00:30:10,642 --> 00:30:12,811
But then when he realized
what happened, he said,

771
00:30:12,811 --> 00:30:16,064
"M'ija, you stay here.

772
00:30:16,064 --> 00:30:18,942
I'm going to the store.

773
00:30:18,942 --> 00:30:20,902
I'll clean this up
when I get back."

774
00:30:23,030 --> 00:30:24,239
Ugh.

775
00:30:24,239 --> 00:30:27,075
He came back with
[Chuckles]

776
00:30:27,075 --> 00:30:31,496
13 different brands
and sizes of pads.

777
00:30:31,496 --> 00:30:34,041
And then he sat me down

778
00:30:34,041 --> 00:30:37,044
and explained what was
happening to my body.

779
00:30:39,588 --> 00:30:44,676
He didn't judge me
or act disgusted.

780
00:30:44,676 --> 00:30:46,928
But he cried.

781
00:30:46,928 --> 00:30:51,141
He cried through
the entire thing.

782
00:30:51,141 --> 00:30:53,226
I always remembered
those tears

783
00:30:53,226 --> 00:30:55,437
streaming
down his cheeks.

784
00:30:55,437 --> 00:30:58,106
And all this time,
I thought he was just sad

785
00:30:58,106 --> 00:31:00,609
that his little girl
was growing up.

786
00:31:00,609 --> 00:31:03,028
Until just now.
[ Scoffs softly ]

787
00:31:03,028 --> 00:31:07,282
I realized he was crying

788
00:31:07,282 --> 00:31:10,660
because he knew my mother
was out there somewhere,

789
00:31:10,660 --> 00:31:14,206
choosing
not to be my mother.

790
00:31:20,337 --> 00:31:24,257
He came to get me.
[ Sniffles ]

791
00:31:24,257 --> 00:31:27,094
When 9/11 happened.

792
00:31:27,094 --> 00:31:29,638
I guess you were
about 12.

793
00:31:29,638 --> 00:31:33,683
He came to New York
to help firefighters.

794
00:31:33,683 --> 00:31:36,269
He showed up on my cousin's
doorstep one night

795
00:31:36,269 --> 00:31:39,147
covered in white ash,
demanding to see me.

796
00:31:41,274 --> 00:31:45,320
He got on his knees, sobbed
and begged me to come home.

797
00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:48,323
He said he would
take all the blame,

798
00:31:48,323 --> 00:31:50,867
that he just wanted you
to have your mother.

799
00:31:53,495 --> 00:31:55,997
I went to New York.
I went to go get him.

800
00:31:55,997 --> 00:31:58,375
We ‐‐
We came home together.

801
00:31:58,375 --> 00:32:01,628
♪♪

802
00:32:01,628 --> 00:32:03,547
I'm sorry.

803
00:32:03,547 --> 00:32:07,717
♪♪

804
00:32:07,717 --> 00:32:10,512
I'm ‐‐ I'm sorry
I was not a good mother.

805
00:32:10,512 --> 00:32:11,888
I'm sorry I couldn't.

806
00:32:11,888 --> 00:32:14,599
I'm ‐‐ I'm sorry
I caused you so much pain.

807
00:32:14,599 --> 00:32:18,228
Please tell Tía Sandra
to call me.

808
00:32:18,228 --> 00:32:21,606
She sent me birthday cards
every year of my life.

809
00:32:21,606 --> 00:32:25,569
My dad didn't give them to me,
but she tried.

810
00:32:25,569 --> 00:32:27,279
Which you never did.

811
00:32:31,700 --> 00:32:33,076
[ Door slams ]

812
00:32:40,625 --> 00:32:41,960
[ Brakes squeak ]

813
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:44,546
Sullivan,
you are so done!

814
00:32:44,546 --> 00:32:47,048
You better pray the department
brings your junkie ass back,

815
00:32:47,048 --> 00:32:48,049
because you are s‐‐
Fowler.

816
00:32:48,049 --> 00:32:49,759
We train convicts.

817
00:32:49,759 --> 00:32:51,052
We use them as free labor,

818
00:32:51,052 --> 00:32:53,180
and then when they get out,
we don't give them a job.

819
00:32:53,180 --> 00:32:54,556
You think that's right?
I think it is what it is!

820
00:32:54,556 --> 00:32:55,974
And I take the truck
down the hill

821
00:32:55,974 --> 00:32:57,017
and I help
put out a wildfire!

822
00:32:57,017 --> 00:32:58,435
You think that's wrong?!

823
00:32:58,435 --> 00:33:00,187
Man, right or wrong
is not the point.

824
00:33:00,187 --> 00:33:01,563
I disagree!
The point is it gets you fired!

825
00:33:01,563 --> 00:33:03,064
You disagree?

826
00:33:03,064 --> 00:33:04,816
I'm saying right or wrong
is the point.

827
00:33:04,816 --> 00:33:07,194
It's always the point.

828
00:33:07,194 --> 00:33:09,154
[ Scoffs ]

829
00:33:09,154 --> 00:33:11,239
So I'm good
with being fired.

830
00:33:11,239 --> 00:33:12,908
[ Bag thuds ]

831
00:33:12,908 --> 00:33:18,121
♪♪

832
00:33:18,121 --> 00:33:23,335
♪♪

833
00:33:23,335 --> 00:33:25,253
[ Shower running ]

834
00:33:25,253 --> 00:33:26,713
Well, I guess Miller and I
aren't friends anymore.

835
00:33:26,713 --> 00:33:28,298
I'm naked!

836
00:33:28,298 --> 00:33:30,258
In three weeks, the entire world
turned upside down.

837
00:33:30,258 --> 00:33:31,384
Miller kicked me out,

838
00:33:31,384 --> 00:33:33,053
and then two days later,
a pandemic hit.

839
00:33:33,053 --> 00:33:34,137
My parents aren't working

840
00:33:34,137 --> 00:33:35,555
for the first time
in my entire life.

841
00:33:35,555 --> 00:33:37,641
We're about to memorialize
our captain on a video chat.

842
00:33:37,641 --> 00:33:39,893
And you saw something crazy
on a gay dating app,

843
00:33:39,893 --> 00:33:42,437
and you won't even gossip
with me about what it is.

844
00:33:42,437 --> 00:33:43,980
Okay, I need
like one thing ‐‐

845
00:33:43,980 --> 00:33:45,815
one thing in my life
to be normal right now,

846
00:33:45,815 --> 00:33:47,901
and if it's not you, I don't
know what the hell it is.

847
00:33:50,070 --> 00:33:52,072
It was my dad.

848
00:33:52,072 --> 00:33:54,032
I was swiping
for gay sex,

849
00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:56,993
and I saw a picture of my dad
with his shirt off,

850
00:33:56,993 --> 00:33:58,995
wearing only chinos
and a belt.
No.

851
00:33:58,995 --> 00:34:04,042
And his profile said...

852
00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:05,502
"Let me be your daddy."

853
00:34:10,632 --> 00:34:12,634
Are you sure it was him?
I gave him the belt.

854
00:34:12,634 --> 00:34:14,552
You g‐‐ Oh, God! Oh!

855
00:34:14,552 --> 00:34:15,845
It's fine.
[ Laughs ]

856
00:34:15,845 --> 00:34:17,013
Okay, you know what?
Oh, God!

857
00:34:17,013 --> 00:34:18,265
No, alright, it's fine.
Stop!

858
00:34:18,265 --> 00:34:19,266
No, it's fine.
No, no, it's fine.

859
00:34:19,266 --> 00:34:20,267
You know what?
You're into men.

860
00:34:20,267 --> 00:34:21,643
Great. Awesome.
Live your life.

861
00:34:21,643 --> 00:34:24,771
But don't stay married
to my mom.
What?

862
00:34:24,771 --> 00:34:26,898
Yeah.
Yeah.

863
00:34:26,898 --> 00:34:29,109
Sure. Yeah. That.

864
00:34:29,109 --> 00:34:33,196
And the lifetime of shame
and internalized homophobia

865
00:34:33,196 --> 00:34:34,990
that he inflicted on you,
right?

866
00:34:37,534 --> 00:34:38,702
There's also that.

867
00:34:38,702 --> 00:34:40,620
Yeah.

868
00:34:40,620 --> 00:34:42,497
[ Laughs ]

869
00:34:46,084 --> 00:34:47,711
Move in with me.

870
00:34:47,711 --> 00:34:51,006
Not temporarily.
Just move in with me.

871
00:34:51,006 --> 00:34:53,174
And let's be the one normal
thing in each other's lives.

872
00:34:53,174 --> 00:34:54,426
Yeah?
Yeah.

873
00:34:54,426 --> 00:34:55,427
Yeah?!
Yeah.

874
00:34:55,427 --> 00:34:56,678
Yeah!
Oh, I love you! Yes!

875
00:34:56,678 --> 00:34:58,513
Oh! No, no, Vic!

876
00:34:58,513 --> 00:35:01,433
Oh, you're naked, too!
Ohhh, let me be your daddy.

877
00:35:01,433 --> 00:35:02,684
No! What?!
Yeah.

878
00:35:02,684 --> 00:35:04,686
Ohh!
Ohh!

879
00:35:04,686 --> 00:35:07,689
[ The Rescues' "If We Make It
Through the Night" plays ]

880
00:35:07,689 --> 00:35:15,572
♪♪

881
00:35:15,572 --> 00:35:19,159
Captain Herrera was the only
father figure I had

882
00:35:19,159 --> 00:35:21,703
for any real amount
of time.

883
00:35:21,703 --> 00:35:25,624
You know I asked him for advice
before I proposed to Andy?

884
00:35:25,624 --> 00:35:29,169
I thought he didn't know.
I didn't tell him who.

885
00:35:29,169 --> 00:35:33,131
I just said, "There's this girl,
and I love her.

886
00:35:33,131 --> 00:35:34,883
What do I do?"

887
00:35:34,883 --> 00:35:39,512
And he said, "Son, if you
think this girl loves you

888
00:35:39,512 --> 00:35:41,640
and you can
make her happy,

889
00:35:41,640 --> 00:35:45,185
then do what your heart
tells you."

890
00:35:45,185 --> 00:35:48,396
Point is, my heart is stupid,
so don't listen to me.

891
00:35:48,396 --> 00:35:50,190
If you think you and Sasha
moving in together

892
00:35:50,190 --> 00:35:53,234
is a good idea,
then I'm sure it is.

893
00:35:53,234 --> 00:35:55,987
Oh, hey, Miller, uh,
I'm moving in with Travis.

894
00:35:55,987 --> 00:35:58,198
So I will come
and get my crap tomorrow.

895
00:35:58,198 --> 00:36:00,283
Sorry for taking so long.

896
00:36:00,283 --> 00:36:04,871
♪ How close we came
to sayin' goodbye ♪

897
00:36:04,871 --> 00:36:06,498
Just do it.
[ Laughs ]

898
00:36:06,498 --> 00:36:08,041
Do it.

899
00:36:08,041 --> 00:36:09,709
I'm sorry.
It's fine.

900
00:36:09,709 --> 00:36:10,919
That was just too...

901
00:36:10,919 --> 00:36:13,171
It's fine.
I need ‐‐

902
00:36:13,171 --> 00:36:15,256
[ Sighs ]

903
00:36:15,256 --> 00:36:17,717
[ Laughs ]

904
00:36:17,717 --> 00:36:20,136
♪ I will die tryin' ♪

905
00:36:20,136 --> 00:36:22,555
I know what
I have to do now.

906
00:36:22,555 --> 00:36:28,019
♪ If we make it
through the night ♪

907
00:36:30,814 --> 00:36:31,773
Sullivan.
Hey.

908
00:36:31,773 --> 00:36:33,274
Hey.

909
00:36:33,274 --> 00:36:34,693
Thanks for
the assist today.

910
00:36:34,693 --> 00:36:40,156
Yeah, um, I know I'm not
part of 19 anymore,

911
00:36:40,156 --> 00:36:43,118
but I wanted
to be here for Andy.

912
00:36:43,118 --> 00:36:44,369
If that's okay with you.

913
00:36:47,622 --> 00:36:50,792
I hate what you did, and I hate
that you did it on my watch.

914
00:36:50,792 --> 00:36:52,836
I hate that you put
our 19 family at risk

915
00:36:52,836 --> 00:36:54,212
and the PRT in jeopardy.

916
00:36:54,212 --> 00:36:55,505
And I especially hate

917
00:36:55,505 --> 00:36:57,674
that you may never
be a firefighter again,

918
00:36:57,674 --> 00:36:59,968
because you are
a good firefighter

919
00:36:59,968 --> 00:37:02,303
and the Department
needs you.

920
00:37:02,303 --> 00:37:05,306
I respected you as a mentor,
and you let me down.

921
00:37:07,892 --> 00:37:09,602
I let myself down.

922
00:37:11,688 --> 00:37:14,649
And I'm sorry.

923
00:37:14,649 --> 00:37:15,900
For all of it.

924
00:37:18,862 --> 00:37:20,029
Then we're good.

925
00:37:26,161 --> 00:37:27,495
[ Knock on door ]

926
00:37:27,495 --> 00:37:28,663
Come in.

927
00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:34,252
[ Sighs ]

928
00:37:34,252 --> 00:37:36,713
You look sharp.

929
00:37:36,713 --> 00:37:39,674
Thanks...Dad.

930
00:37:39,674 --> 00:37:40,967
[ Both laugh ]

931
00:37:40,967 --> 00:37:42,093
I'm sorry.

932
00:37:42,093 --> 00:37:43,887
Wow!

933
00:37:43,887 --> 00:37:46,139
Gibson made me do it.

934
00:37:46,139 --> 00:37:47,515
That's not cool.

935
00:37:50,143 --> 00:37:53,104
[ Sniffles, sighs ]

936
00:37:53,104 --> 00:37:56,024
You ready?

937
00:37:56,024 --> 00:37:57,942
Yeah.

938
00:37:57,942 --> 00:37:59,444
Yeah. I am.

939
00:38:03,615 --> 00:38:05,700
[ Sighs ]

940
00:38:05,700 --> 00:38:07,911
[ Leah Nobel's
"Last One To Know" plays ]

941
00:38:07,911 --> 00:38:13,166
♪ Don't hide from me ♪

942
00:38:13,166 --> 00:38:16,419
♪ I wanna be the one
you run to ♪

943
00:38:16,419 --> 00:38:19,130
♪ Try and disappear ♪

944
00:38:21,299 --> 00:38:24,302
♪ But I'm the one
who really sees you ♪

945
00:38:24,302 --> 00:38:28,306
♪ Watch you up on the fence ♪

946
00:38:28,306 --> 00:38:31,309
♪ When you coming down? ♪

947
00:38:31,309 --> 00:38:36,314
If you're watching this,
my dad was probably your hero.

948
00:38:36,314 --> 00:38:39,275
He was mine.

949
00:38:39,275 --> 00:38:42,487
He was a great firefighter

950
00:38:42,487 --> 00:38:45,573
but an even better Captain.

951
00:38:45,573 --> 00:38:48,743
He brought the best
out of everyone

952
00:38:48,743 --> 00:38:51,538
by demanding nothing less.

953
00:38:51,538 --> 00:38:55,208
He was a natural leader,

954
00:38:55,208 --> 00:38:57,919
as anyone who's ever
worked with him knows.

955
00:38:57,919 --> 00:39:02,590
He built great firefighters,
future Captains.

956
00:39:04,551 --> 00:39:07,178
Maybe even future Chiefs.

957
00:39:07,178 --> 00:39:10,682
But beyond that, he was
the best father he could be,

958
00:39:10,682 --> 00:39:15,186
and that wasn't easy to do,
especially on his own.

959
00:39:15,186 --> 00:39:19,607
My dad was faced with
some pretty terrible choices

960
00:39:19,607 --> 00:39:21,651
when I was a kid.

961
00:39:21,651 --> 00:39:24,779
But he did what he thought
was best for me at the time.

962
00:39:24,779 --> 00:39:27,156
Every time.

963
00:39:27,156 --> 00:39:31,744
He chose to protect me
above all else.

964
00:39:31,744 --> 00:39:37,542
And while he may have
made mistakes...

965
00:39:37,542 --> 00:39:40,169
I have no doubt
he'd make them all again

966
00:39:40,169 --> 00:39:41,796
if he thought
it was best for me.

967
00:39:41,796 --> 00:39:43,923
It wasn't easy growing up
without my mom

968
00:39:43,923 --> 00:39:46,384
and without siblings,

969
00:39:46,384 --> 00:39:50,013
but what I've come to realize
is my dad did his best

970
00:39:50,013 --> 00:39:51,764
to give me family.

971
00:39:51,764 --> 00:39:54,392
He created a home at Station 19.

972
00:39:54,392 --> 00:39:57,562
And everyone under his roof
was his kid.

973
00:39:57,562 --> 00:39:59,689
[ Laughs ]

974
00:39:59,689 --> 00:40:02,108
So he may have spent years

975
00:40:02,108 --> 00:40:04,819
protecting me from pain
and burying his own,

976
00:40:04,819 --> 00:40:09,824
but he did his best to give me
the gift of a group of people

977
00:40:09,824 --> 00:40:14,621
who I feel closer to than
any blood brother or sister.

978
00:40:14,621 --> 00:40:17,874
He did his best.

979
00:40:17,874 --> 00:40:20,460
He did his best by me.

980
00:40:20,460 --> 00:40:22,420
He loved me.

981
00:40:22,420 --> 00:40:24,422
He stayed.

982
00:40:24,422 --> 00:40:27,258
He stayed with me
every minute he could

983
00:40:27,258 --> 00:40:31,346
until he had to leave me
to save me one last time.

984
00:40:31,346 --> 00:40:34,057
♪ When you coming down? ♪

985
00:40:36,184 --> 00:40:39,270
♪ When you coming down? ♪

986
00:40:39,270 --> 00:40:42,023
Oh, my God.
I didn't believe you.

987
00:40:42,023 --> 00:40:43,316
I told you
you were crazy.

988
00:40:43,316 --> 00:40:46,027
Well, in fairness to you,
I was acting crazy.

989
00:40:46,027 --> 00:40:48,738
You okay?

990
00:40:48,738 --> 00:40:51,199
Yes and no.

991
00:40:51,199 --> 00:40:55,870
I guess...knowing the truth
is better than wondering.

992
00:40:55,870 --> 00:40:59,290
But again, I'm ‐‐ I'm sorry
I wasn't here for you.

993
00:40:59,290 --> 00:41:00,708
No, no.

994
00:41:02,502 --> 00:41:05,129
I took morphine
when I woke up.

995
00:41:05,129 --> 00:41:09,676
I needed it.
But now I'm afraid.

996
00:41:09,676 --> 00:41:13,179
I'm afraid it's gonna make me
crave more of it.

997
00:41:13,179 --> 00:41:15,682
I'm afraid I won't be able
to control it.

998
00:41:15,682 --> 00:41:18,267
I need to focus
on my recovery.

999
00:41:18,267 --> 00:41:21,729
I spoke to Dr. Shepherd,
and she suggested I, uh...

1000
00:41:21,729 --> 00:41:23,523
take some space.

1001
00:41:25,650 --> 00:41:27,235
From ‐‐ From me?

1002
00:41:27,235 --> 00:41:29,654
It's just 90 days,

1003
00:41:29,654 --> 00:41:31,447
just to get to
the meetings, okay,

1004
00:41:31,447 --> 00:41:34,909
just to work the steps
and get some solid recovery.

1005
00:41:34,909 --> 00:41:38,079
You're not supposed to make
any big life changes

1006
00:41:38,079 --> 00:41:39,372
when you're
in early sobriety.

1007
00:41:39,372 --> 00:41:42,125
I knew that,
and I‐I was barely sober.

1008
00:41:42,125 --> 00:41:44,627
And you ‐‐ you were
about to lose your dad.

1009
00:41:44,627 --> 00:41:47,005
We had no business
getting married.

1010
00:41:48,840 --> 00:41:51,175
So ‐‐ So, you regret it?

1011
00:41:51,175 --> 00:41:53,386
[ Chuckles ] No!

1012
00:41:53,386 --> 00:41:57,015
No. And I never will.

1013
00:41:57,015 --> 00:42:00,893
But if I want to stay clean,
we need some time apart.

1014
00:42:05,648 --> 00:42:07,400
90 days.

1015
00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:08,860
Yeah.
Totally ‐‐

1016
00:42:08,860 --> 00:42:10,570
Totally separated.

1017
00:42:10,570 --> 00:42:13,906
Separated but together,
if I want to stay clean.

1018
00:42:13,906 --> 00:42:16,242
And do you?
I do.

1019
00:42:16,242 --> 00:42:20,163
I want to live a long,
long life

1020
00:42:20,163 --> 00:42:22,165
and love you
every minute of it.

1021
00:42:25,877 --> 00:42:29,922
♪ I can't be
the last one to know ♪

1022
00:42:29,922 --> 00:42:33,468
♪ I can't be the last one ♪

1023
00:42:33,468 --> 00:42:36,846
♪ The distance runs deep ♪

1024
00:42:36,846 --> 00:42:39,640
I love you, Dad.

1025
00:42:39,640 --> 00:42:42,435
We all do.

1026
00:42:42,435 --> 00:42:46,647
And if there's one thing
I wish I could tell you,

1027
00:42:46,647 --> 00:42:50,568
it's that I am grateful for you,

1028
00:42:50,568 --> 00:42:54,947
because you did your job
so well.

1029
00:42:57,575 --> 00:43:02,038
♪ And I can't be
the last one to know ♪

1030
00:43:02,038 --> 00:43:05,750
♪ I can't be the last one ♪

1031
00:43:10,004 --> 00:43:12,507
[ Bell tolling ]

1032
00:43:12,507 --> 00:43:15,760
♪♪

1033
00:43:15,760 --> 00:43:19,222
♪♪

1034
00:43:19,222 --> 00:43:23,476
♪ When you coming down? ♪

1035
00:43:30,191 --> 00:43:38,574
♪♪

1036
00:43:38,574 --> 00:43:46,749
♪♪

1037
00:43:46,749 --> 00:43:55,091
♪♪