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I got it.
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Open it!
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SHIRLEY: Mr. Dudley says
this is a master key,
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so it's supposed
to open any door in the house.
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What do you think is in there?
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- (LOCK RATTLES)
- What if it's a cotton candy machine?
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That'd be something.
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Or a pony?
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SHIRLEY: Not a pony.
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(SQUEAKS AND RATTLES)
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This isn't working.
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It could be a pony.
Something was moving.
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I saw the shadow under the door.
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Hello?
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If there's a pony in there, it's dead.
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(BANGS LOUDLY)
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Where's the friggin' key?
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- Don't say that word.
- NELL: You say it.
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I want to see what's in there, too.
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Daddy, we need more keys!
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It's an emergency!
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(FOOTSTEPS FADE)
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(FLOORBOARDS CREAK)
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You're not funny, Luke.
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(PLAYER CLICKS)
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(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)
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STEVE: I am home.
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(BIRDS CHIRPING)
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I am home, I thought,
and stopped in wonder at the thought.
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I am home.
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I am home.
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(DOOR CLOSES)
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- LEIGH: Hey.
- Hey.
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How was it?
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- It was great. Kelly says hi.
- (CHUCKLES)
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Her boys are huge.
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You were missed.
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I was gonna cook.
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I know, but she wants fries.
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- All the fries. Nothing but fries.
- (CHUCKLES SOFTLY)
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How's writing?
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Slow. It's... Really slow.
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- How much since I left?
- (SIGHS) Two...
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Pages.
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Ouch.
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I always said, I'm never gonna
do a follow-up to Hill House,
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and I think this is why.
I... It's just...
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Eat.
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It's the best cure for writer's block.
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(SCOFFS) Don't use those words.
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Fries, nothing but fries.
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Read me something.
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"Certainly, there are places
which attach to themselves
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"an atmosphere of holiness
and goodness.
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"It might also be said
that some houses
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"are born bad."
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"Born bad"?
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Too much?
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Hmm. It depends. Where are you?
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Dad and I just got to the house,
and, um,
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we know Luke bought
the gasoline, and...
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Oh, honey...
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We're about to go inside.
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You don't have to do this, you know?
You said yourself,
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- you're never gonna publish it.
- I do, though. (SIGHS)
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To... See it, to really see it.
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- (SIGHS)
- Here.
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(CHUCKLING) You feel that?
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- Mmm-hmm.
- That little girl in there,
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who's getting ready to join this family,
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one day, she's gonna
ask about her grandfather
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and about her Uncle Luke,
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and what happened in that house.
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She's gonna hear
all sorts of stories and speculation,
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like you did when
you were little, but...
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Whose voice did you need?
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Whose story did you
need to hear the most?
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She needs to hear this from you.
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This is for little Eleanor.
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(CRICKETS CHIRPING)
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(SIGHS)
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STEVE: This house, which seemed
somehow to have formed itself,
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flying together
in its own powerful pattern
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under the hands of its builders...
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Reared its great head back against
the sky without concession to humanity.
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It was a house without kindness,
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never meant to be lived in,
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not a fit place for people, or for love,
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or for hope.
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- You smell that?
- Yeah.
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Gasoline.
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All right.
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If he's here,
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I think I know where to find him.
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(LOUD BANGING)
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Dad...
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- HUGH: It's okay. Come on.
- (BANGING CONTINUES)
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Uh... (PANTING)
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Look at me.
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(GASPS)
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STEVE: Fear.
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Look at me.
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STEVE: Fear is
the relinquishment of logic,
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the willing relinquishing
of reasonable patterns.
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We yield to it or we fight it.
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But we cannot meet it halfway.
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(CANE TAPPING)
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Okay.
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STEVE: I am home.
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"I am home," I thought,
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and stopped in wonder at the thought.
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I am home.
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I am home.
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Now, to climb.
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Luke! Luke!
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STEVE: Dad.
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That... That door
has always been locked.
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HUGH: Yeah.
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Only when it wants to be.
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Take off the hinges.
How hard can it be?
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HUGH: But I tried everything.
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Maybe with the two of us...
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Dad!
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Ah, Steve, wait!
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(EXHALES DEEPLY)
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You okay?
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Yeah, I just need a break.
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Why don't you come to bed?
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Get some sleep.
Hill House will be there in the morning.
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I know it's... It's hard.
It's too much right now.
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- (EXHALES)
- Why don't you put this down,
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come to bed,
and leave the ghosts where they belong?
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That's... That's not the problem.
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Where are you now?
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Well, we... We went into the house.
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And then we went to the Red Room.
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And then the...
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The door opened
and I saw Luke, and then...
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Luke died.
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(STAMMERING) No.
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He... He was alive on the floor.
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And... And then, the door closed,
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and...
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And then, he died.
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You have to say it.
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You gotta finally say it, Steve.
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- (SIGHS) That's the problem.
- I know.
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The door closed, and then I...
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I... I, uh... I can't say
what happened.
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It's still too soon.
Why don't you come to bed?
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- Get some sleep...
- No, Leigh... Leigh, I mean, I... I...
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I can't say what happened
after the door closed.
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I... I don't remember.
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I mean, how I got out of the house.
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I... I... I don't remember
coming back to California.
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I... I don't remember us...
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Reconciling.
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Or finding out you were pregnant.
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(SIGHS) Well, of course you don't.
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Because you haven't written it yet.
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I mean, is anything real
before you write it, Steve?
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The things you write about are real.
Those people are real,
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their feelings are real,
their pain is real,
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but... Not to you, is it?
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Not until you chew it up
and you digest it
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and you shit it out
on a piece of paper.
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And even then,
it's a pale imitation at best.
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You take other people's lives
and love and loss and pain,
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and you eat it, Steve.
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You are an eater.
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You eat it and you shit it out,
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and then, and only then,
is it real for you.
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Normal people's lives
are flesh and blood and muscle and bone,
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but not yours, darling. Oh, no.
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Your life is plastic.
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You are a plastic parasite.
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(GASPS) A plastic hack,
aren't you, honey?
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So, of course you don't remember
how you healed our marriage
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or made our baby,
because you haven't really seen it,
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have you?
You haven't shat it out in prose.
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I... I was always a supporting player
in your story, if we're honest.
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I would feed you and fuck you
and pay the bills
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while you squinted over some novel
that nobody was gonna read or publish,
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but I paid you to write them, didn't I?
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I picked up the check for your dreams,
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and I said goodbye to mine,
and not even that was enough.
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Don't lie to me, honey. I wasn't real.
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If I was real, you never
would have walked out that door,
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but I wasn't, and you did,
and now this one...
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This...
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Little one...
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She won't be real, either.
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- (PULSE BEATS)
- LEIGH: Oh.
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She's kicking.
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Oh, she's hungry.
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She must be an eater like her dad.
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If she is, my love,
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if she eats me from the inside,
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and I burst like a blister,
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will you lose your mind...
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Like your mother?
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NELL: Steve.
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(GASPING)
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Luke.
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Luke. Oh, God.
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Oh, my God.
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No, no, no.
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Luke.
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Come on.
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(BREATHING HEAVILY)
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(WHOOSHES)
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(GASPS)
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Mom.
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(GRUNTS)
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LUKE: I... I couldn't help her.
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- Look, listen, I know I fucked up, okay?
- (INDISTINCT CHATTER)
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But I... I didn't...
I didn't use, I didn't,
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and... And I'm so fucking cold,
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and my... (SHIVERS) My arms and legs
are so stiff, I just... I...
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I... I need... I need a bed.
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Like a couch.
I'll sleep on the goddamn floor.
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Just... Please.
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Please, please, please,
let me come back, please.
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- (SHIVERING)
- (POLICE SIREN BLARING IN DISTANCE)
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Hey.
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What do you think?
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It's the perfect place
to get clean for a few days.
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We're already paid up,
and they even have room service, Luke.
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You know, everybody's always
given up on me my whole life.
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But not you, Luke. Not you.
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You saved me.
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(CHUCKLES) But I, um, I didn't.
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I mean, you...
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You, uh... You took the money
and you ran away.
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- (CHUCKLES) I never found you.
- No.
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No, I came here.
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I got us this hotel room.
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And I found you
at the pay phone, remember?
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Right.
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- (LAUGHS)
- Why did you follow me?
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You never did tell me the real truth.
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I think it's 'cause
you're sweet on me.
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A little bit.
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00:16:03,796 --> 00:16:05,128
I have something for us.
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00:16:11,762 --> 00:16:14,470
One last time,
just to get well before we get clean.
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00:16:14,557 --> 00:16:16,844
No, um, I'm 90 days clean.
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Ninety-two, actually.
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00:16:18,394 --> 00:16:19,851
Yeah, but that's not clean.
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00:16:22,231 --> 00:16:24,644
You can 12-step it
and collect your chips,
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00:16:24,734 --> 00:16:27,477
but you're never clean,
never really clean,
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00:16:27,904 --> 00:16:30,521
because one day that needle's
going back in your arm.
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You have an appointment
with that needle.
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You're expected.
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00:16:35,995 --> 00:16:37,987
(STAMMERS) No, that's...
No, that's not true.
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00:16:38,080 --> 00:16:39,537
I know what you're thinking.
256
00:16:40,458 --> 00:16:43,041
You're thinking
this is what I did with your money.
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I mean, Steve's money. Let's be real.
258
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You're thinking
that I put it in my arm in some alley,
259
00:16:49,592 --> 00:16:50,924
and maybe I died there.
260
00:16:52,094 --> 00:16:53,881
In the puke and the piss.
261
00:16:54,430 --> 00:16:57,969
And the alley rats are
chewing on me right now.
262
00:16:58,601 --> 00:17:00,012
Little yellow teeth...
263
00:17:01,312 --> 00:17:02,894
Punching through the jelly...
264
00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:06,890
Of my pretty eyes, right?
265
00:17:07,944 --> 00:17:09,685
(JOEY SIGHS)
266
00:17:10,738 --> 00:17:11,774
God, that's good.
267
00:17:16,160 --> 00:17:17,367
Come with me, Luke.
268
00:17:19,121 --> 00:17:20,121
No.
269
00:17:23,209 --> 00:17:24,290
No, I won't.
270
00:17:25,419 --> 00:17:27,035
Baby, you already did.
271
00:17:33,302 --> 00:17:35,794
(GASPING)
272
00:17:36,472 --> 00:17:37,633
Oh, Gordon was right.
273
00:17:41,060 --> 00:17:43,268
If you look long enough
at the wallpaper,
274
00:17:44,438 --> 00:17:45,974
you can see that little girl.
275
00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:51,644
It's the little girl
with the runny-egg eyes.
276
00:17:53,531 --> 00:17:55,443
(GASPS, GRUNTS)
277
00:17:55,533 --> 00:17:57,570
(PANTING)
278
00:17:58,244 --> 00:18:01,703
- (BANGING ON DOOR)
- STEVE: Luke! Luke!
279
00:18:03,833 --> 00:18:05,620
HUGH: But I've tried everything.
280
00:18:06,544 --> 00:18:08,661
- Maybe with the two of us...
- Dad!
281
00:18:08,754 --> 00:18:09,915
(LUKE GROANS)
282
00:18:10,673 --> 00:18:12,193
- HUGH: Ah, Steve, wait!
- (DOOR SLAMS)
283
00:18:14,385 --> 00:18:15,466
(LUKE GRUNTS)
284
00:18:23,644 --> 00:18:24,760
(GASPS)
285
00:18:31,485 --> 00:18:33,818
- (POUNDING IN DISTANCE)
- (FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING)
286
00:18:38,659 --> 00:18:39,659
SHIRLEY: Luke.
287
00:18:42,997 --> 00:18:43,997
Dad?
288
00:18:49,253 --> 00:18:50,253
HUGH: Up here!
289
00:18:55,176 --> 00:18:56,176
THEO: Dad!
290
00:18:56,385 --> 00:18:57,592
HUGH: Up here! Hurry!
291
00:19:00,931 --> 00:19:01,967
THEO: Dad!
292
00:19:17,531 --> 00:19:18,531
Dad.
293
00:19:19,116 --> 00:19:20,152
Dad!
294
00:19:20,910 --> 00:19:22,742
Oh, my God. Shirley!
295
00:19:22,828 --> 00:19:24,785
(PANTING)
296
00:19:26,624 --> 00:19:27,624
(GASPS)
297
00:19:33,214 --> 00:19:35,046
- (INDISTINCT CHATTER)
- (PIANO PLAYING)
298
00:19:36,842 --> 00:19:38,208
BARTENDER: This is for you.
299
00:19:42,598 --> 00:19:43,805
I didn't order that.
300
00:19:49,230 --> 00:19:50,391
Oh, um...
301
00:19:53,109 --> 00:19:55,146
Tell him thanks, but I... I'm...
302
00:20:00,408 --> 00:20:01,819
Do you want me to pour it out?
303
00:20:03,744 --> 00:20:04,744
Tell you what,
304
00:20:04,829 --> 00:20:08,664
what's the weirdest thing
you guys have on the happy hour menu?
305
00:20:08,749 --> 00:20:10,661
Like, the thing no one ever orders.
306
00:20:21,095 --> 00:20:22,256
(CHUCKLES)
307
00:20:36,944 --> 00:20:40,733
So I'm minding my own business
over there, and, uh, all of a sudden...
308
00:20:40,823 --> 00:20:42,735
I had to repay you for the drink.
309
00:20:43,492 --> 00:20:45,449
MAN: So you sent me a plate of, uh...
310
00:20:45,536 --> 00:20:48,370
Boneless Caribbean jerk wings.
311
00:20:48,456 --> 00:20:51,949
Serves me right for not being
able to spot a ring at 10 yards.
312
00:20:52,585 --> 00:20:53,871
No way that's 10 yards.
313
00:20:54,879 --> 00:20:56,211
I'm sorry.
314
00:20:56,297 --> 00:20:58,337
You're the first person I've seen
at this convention
315
00:20:58,382 --> 00:21:01,216
that doesn't look like
they're also shopping for a coffin.
316
00:21:01,302 --> 00:21:04,136
Yeah, these things can get
a little Adam's Family.
317
00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:07,805
I never really thought about it,
but you send someone a drink...
318
00:21:07,892 --> 00:21:10,509
- Without their consent.
- And it's socially acceptable.
319
00:21:10,603 --> 00:21:13,516
- But you send someone an appetizer...
- Without their consent.
320
00:21:13,606 --> 00:21:16,098
And yeah, it's really, really weird.
321
00:21:16,233 --> 00:21:17,233
I feel like a jerk.
322
00:21:17,610 --> 00:21:18,976
A boneless jerk.
323
00:21:19,403 --> 00:21:20,403
(LAUGHING)
324
00:21:20,738 --> 00:21:23,025
I'm sorry, I'm just trying to be funny.
325
00:21:23,449 --> 00:21:25,156
It's been a minute, I guess.
326
00:21:25,367 --> 00:21:27,700
Can I sit here while I eat these?
327
00:21:28,454 --> 00:21:30,390
- You don't have to eat them.
- MAN: Oh, sure, I do.
328
00:21:30,414 --> 00:21:32,531
I will keep it professional.
Hand to God.
329
00:21:32,625 --> 00:21:35,083
We can chat, um,
embalming technique.
330
00:21:35,336 --> 00:21:37,202
That's what these things are for, right?
331
00:21:37,296 --> 00:21:38,707
No funny stuff.
332
00:21:39,548 --> 00:21:40,868
- Embalming only.
- (MAN CHUCKLES)
333
00:21:43,677 --> 00:21:44,884
All right. (EXHALES)
334
00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:48,759
The bartender actually said
that these are not too bad.
335
00:21:49,642 --> 00:21:50,758
His words.
336
00:21:55,981 --> 00:21:57,938
- (SHIRLEY CHUCKLING)
- (GROANS)
337
00:21:59,777 --> 00:22:01,797
SHIRLEY: I guess that's the thing
about starting your own home,
338
00:22:01,821 --> 00:22:03,357
they just never tell you.
339
00:22:03,447 --> 00:22:06,690
It's not like buying a house,
not even a little.
340
00:22:06,784 --> 00:22:09,242
I didn't sleep for... Two years.
341
00:22:09,328 --> 00:22:10,944
And mine was pre-owned, too.
342
00:22:11,872 --> 00:22:13,033
For real?
343
00:22:13,123 --> 00:22:15,115
I didn't hear last call.
344
00:22:15,209 --> 00:22:16,495
Oh, me neither.
345
00:22:18,879 --> 00:22:19,879
Well, I guess that's it.
346
00:22:21,382 --> 00:22:22,839
You were true to your word.
347
00:22:23,467 --> 00:22:24,548
MAN: I always am.
348
00:22:24,969 --> 00:22:27,052
- (CHUCKLES)
- Very well behaved.
349
00:22:27,137 --> 00:22:29,049
I seldom am.
350
00:22:29,139 --> 00:22:31,927
- Um, on that note...
- Oh, no.
351
00:22:32,017 --> 00:22:34,225
- Don't do it.
- MAN: I'm not. I'm just saying,
352
00:22:34,311 --> 00:22:36,039
- since we missed last call...
- You're gonna do it.
353
00:22:36,063 --> 00:22:38,225
I've got all the makings
of a mean martini in my room
354
00:22:38,315 --> 00:22:40,477
if you want a nightcap.
355
00:22:44,655 --> 00:22:45,655
(MAN SIGHS)
356
00:22:48,742 --> 00:22:51,075
I did really good
right up until the end there.
357
00:22:51,161 --> 00:22:53,278
You did. The one-yard line.
358
00:22:54,206 --> 00:22:55,868
- Such a guy.
- MAN: I can't help it.
359
00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:57,411
It's taken 60 million years
360
00:22:57,501 --> 00:22:59,993
to develop the carnivorous biped
you see before you.
361
00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:04,716
Thank you, anyway.
362
00:23:04,842 --> 00:23:08,006
It was nice to meet you,
and I enjoyed the conversation,
363
00:23:08,095 --> 00:23:09,586
but I'm gonna say goodnight.
364
00:23:12,433 --> 00:23:13,799
(SIGHS)
365
00:23:19,398 --> 00:23:20,434
(CLEARS THROAT)
366
00:23:20,524 --> 00:23:21,890
(FOOTSTEPS RETREATING)
367
00:23:27,990 --> 00:23:29,982
(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING)
368
00:23:34,330 --> 00:23:35,866
MAN: That's not what you said, though.
369
00:23:37,041 --> 00:23:38,452
You looked at my ring,
370
00:23:38,542 --> 00:23:40,829
and then I said the thing
about the carnivorous biped,
371
00:23:40,920 --> 00:23:41,920
and you said...
372
00:23:43,756 --> 00:23:45,918
"Let's see what kind
of martini it makes."
373
00:23:47,259 --> 00:23:50,343
We walked out of the bar,
crossed the lobby, into the elevator,
374
00:23:50,429 --> 00:23:52,295
and you had that martini, didn't you?
375
00:23:53,557 --> 00:23:56,015
How old was Jayden then? Six?
376
00:23:57,311 --> 00:23:58,472
And Allie was...
377
00:23:58,562 --> 00:24:01,020
Two.
378
00:24:02,107 --> 00:24:04,064
It had been diapers
and bills for years,
379
00:24:04,151 --> 00:24:06,768
and you had just bought the business,
and it was in the red
380
00:24:07,237 --> 00:24:08,273
and life was...
381
00:24:08,364 --> 00:24:10,401
- Loud.
- It was hungry, too.
382
00:24:10,783 --> 00:24:12,524
It was so hungry, it was screaming.
383
00:24:13,243 --> 00:24:15,576
The bills were screaming
and the children were screaming
384
00:24:15,704 --> 00:24:19,038
and your husband just...
Drifted out of focus, didn't he?
385
00:24:20,250 --> 00:24:24,210
And you were so far away from home
for the first time in so long.
386
00:24:24,296 --> 00:24:25,412
Stop it.
387
00:24:25,798 --> 00:24:29,587
How long had it been since you'd been
just a tiny bit reckless?
388
00:24:31,387 --> 00:24:33,587
You looked at my wedding ring
right before you answered.
389
00:24:34,473 --> 00:24:37,181
It was gross. You were married
and you were pushy...
390
00:24:37,267 --> 00:24:38,267
Don't lie.
391
00:24:40,270 --> 00:24:41,602
That ring closed the deal.
392
00:24:41,689 --> 00:24:43,555
You went upstairs with me
because of the ring,
393
00:24:43,649 --> 00:24:44,935
because the ring meant...
394
00:24:47,236 --> 00:24:49,398
You had as much to lose as I did.
395
00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:52,652
And that was a calculation,
Mrs. Harris.
396
00:24:54,827 --> 00:24:56,534
You don't know me.
397
00:24:56,620 --> 00:24:59,078
Well, that was the whole point.
Just a fling.
398
00:24:59,164 --> 00:25:01,326
People have them all the time,
but not you.
399
00:25:01,458 --> 00:25:04,872
I mean, the whole thing
was so not you.
400
00:25:04,962 --> 00:25:08,626
But God, who would have guessed
how good at it you were.
401
00:25:08,716 --> 00:25:12,426
You got dressed and you flew home,
and it was like nothing happened.
402
00:25:12,511 --> 00:25:14,047
You got away with it.
403
00:25:14,138 --> 00:25:15,424
(CRYING) I'm a good wife.
404
00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:18,472
I'm a good... Mother.
405
00:25:19,518 --> 00:25:20,518
I'm a good person.
406
00:25:21,186 --> 00:25:22,643
Well, you never did it again.
407
00:25:23,147 --> 00:25:24,513
Never.
408
00:25:25,315 --> 00:25:26,931
But you never told him, did you?
409
00:25:27,860 --> 00:25:29,021
Fuck you.
410
00:25:29,111 --> 00:25:31,569
And even then,
knowing everything we did,
411
00:25:31,655 --> 00:25:34,318
every single delicious thing
we did in that hotel room,
412
00:25:34,408 --> 00:25:36,445
your anger at Theo and Kevin...
413
00:25:36,535 --> 00:25:37,571
Fuck you.
414
00:25:37,661 --> 00:25:39,823
So righteous.
415
00:25:41,999 --> 00:25:43,831
And yet you don't want to look at it,
do you?
416
00:25:45,419 --> 00:25:46,705
You did this thing.
417
00:25:48,422 --> 00:25:50,316
You did it, and you liked it,
and you just decided not to look at it.
418
00:25:50,340 --> 00:25:52,172
Now, that's you all over.
419
00:25:54,470 --> 00:25:56,132
Shirley never wants to look.
420
00:25:57,723 --> 00:25:59,180
But Shirley has to look.
421
00:26:01,101 --> 00:26:03,093
(ORGAN MUSIC PLAYING)
422
00:26:11,028 --> 00:26:12,269
Is everything all right?
423
00:26:14,114 --> 00:26:16,527
I think she's just
a little overwhelmed.
424
00:26:18,952 --> 00:26:20,568
She knows something most people don't.
425
00:26:22,498 --> 00:26:25,832
The instant someone dies,
they learn everything.
426
00:26:27,127 --> 00:26:29,961
Every secret thing.
427
00:26:32,049 --> 00:26:33,049
And when I die,
428
00:26:33,926 --> 00:26:35,838
I'm gonna wake up in that hotel room
429
00:26:35,928 --> 00:26:39,046
and have to watch
every single thing she did.
430
00:26:40,224 --> 00:26:43,968
And that scares her so bad,
she hopes she'll die first.
431
00:26:47,648 --> 00:26:48,684
Oh, that's all right.
432
00:26:50,234 --> 00:26:51,234
Here.
433
00:26:52,236 --> 00:26:53,236
Come with me.
434
00:26:55,322 --> 00:26:56,322
It's okay.
435
00:26:57,574 --> 00:26:58,574
I fixed her.
436
00:27:00,244 --> 00:27:02,657
I ripped out her organs and eyeballs,
437
00:27:02,746 --> 00:27:05,705
and I sucked out the blood
and the shit,
438
00:27:05,791 --> 00:27:07,908
and plugged her holes
so she wouldn't leak.
439
00:27:08,752 --> 00:27:11,210
And wired her jaw
so she couldn't scream.
440
00:27:12,214 --> 00:27:15,332
And I painted her face
and her hands, and...
441
00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:19,252
Set her eyelids on spikes
so they wouldn't stare.
442
00:27:20,013 --> 00:27:23,677
And I hung flowers full of smell
and posed her like a dreamer,
443
00:27:23,767 --> 00:27:27,636
and now, she is fixed and pretty.
444
00:27:30,524 --> 00:27:34,313
But underneath, she is a horror.
445
00:27:35,070 --> 00:27:37,938
Yeah, we pickle it and paint it,
but it's still death.
446
00:27:38,782 --> 00:27:39,782
And rot.
447
00:27:40,075 --> 00:27:41,236
And ruin.
448
00:27:42,953 --> 00:27:44,615
But she is pretty.
449
00:27:46,957 --> 00:27:47,957
Isn't she?
450
00:28:13,358 --> 00:28:15,315
(STRANGLED SCREAMING)
451
00:28:15,485 --> 00:28:16,521
NELL: Shirley.
452
00:28:18,572 --> 00:28:19,572
(GASPING)
453
00:28:21,366 --> 00:28:22,447
(STEVE GRUNTS)
454
00:28:23,327 --> 00:28:24,363
What the hell?
455
00:28:24,953 --> 00:28:25,953
We need help.
456
00:28:26,330 --> 00:28:27,491
This isn't real.
457
00:28:27,873 --> 00:28:29,489
- It's a dream.
- It's real.
458
00:28:30,751 --> 00:28:31,751
He's dying.
459
00:28:33,587 --> 00:28:34,623
Come on, Luke!
460
00:28:35,881 --> 00:28:36,881
SHIRLEY: Luke...
461
00:28:37,466 --> 00:28:38,466
STEVE: Come on.
462
00:28:46,433 --> 00:28:48,425
TRISH: Tell me something
only I will ever know.
463
00:28:48,810 --> 00:28:49,810
STEVE: Luke!
464
00:28:49,978 --> 00:28:51,094
THEO: When I was a child...
465
00:28:53,023 --> 00:28:54,980
When I was a child,
my mother spanked me
466
00:28:55,067 --> 00:28:57,434
for throwing a rock
through a greenhouse roof.
467
00:28:59,863 --> 00:29:01,525
It was the only time she ever.
468
00:29:03,075 --> 00:29:04,235
She had designed it, you see,
469
00:29:04,284 --> 00:29:06,276
and she was getting ready
to show it to a client,
470
00:29:06,370 --> 00:29:08,282
and because I threw the rock...
471
00:29:10,791 --> 00:29:12,874
For the only time in my life,
she hit me.
472
00:29:14,419 --> 00:29:15,455
Just once.
473
00:29:15,545 --> 00:29:18,003
That was all she could take,
and then never again.
474
00:29:20,008 --> 00:29:23,251
But a simple rock
through some glass taught me so much
475
00:29:23,345 --> 00:29:24,345
about my mother.
476
00:29:26,056 --> 00:29:27,137
It taught her, too.
477
00:29:28,517 --> 00:29:31,476
I thought about it for a long time,
remembering the spanking.
478
00:29:32,396 --> 00:29:35,935
But remembering
also the lovely crash...
479
00:29:39,653 --> 00:29:41,861
And after thinking
about it very seriously,
480
00:29:43,407 --> 00:29:44,648
I went out and did it again.
481
00:29:51,331 --> 00:29:52,331
(SIGHS)
482
00:29:55,210 --> 00:29:56,621
TRISH: What's that about?
483
00:30:01,258 --> 00:30:05,218
I... Can't... Recall.
484
00:30:05,304 --> 00:30:07,170
There was a reason for this, and...
485
00:30:09,099 --> 00:30:10,099
I don't remember.
486
00:30:22,321 --> 00:30:23,528
I don't feel anything.
487
00:30:24,781 --> 00:30:26,818
- That's okay, none taken.
- No, I don't...
488
00:30:28,076 --> 00:30:30,033
I don't feel anything else.
489
00:30:31,872 --> 00:30:33,238
Because you're normal.
490
00:30:35,959 --> 00:30:37,951
Tell me something
only I will ever know.
491
00:30:39,046 --> 00:30:40,582
You keep saying that.
492
00:30:41,131 --> 00:30:42,292
We all do.
493
00:30:43,300 --> 00:30:46,509
Tell me something
only I will ever know
494
00:30:46,595 --> 00:30:48,336
or what will you remember me by.
495
00:30:49,306 --> 00:30:50,306
Where have you been?
496
00:30:50,390 --> 00:30:53,349
Nothing of the least importance
has ever belonged to me.
497
00:30:54,061 --> 00:30:55,142
Can you help?
498
00:30:56,021 --> 00:30:57,137
And I did.
499
00:30:58,648 --> 00:31:01,186
A girl in the wall
bricked into a corner
500
00:31:01,276 --> 00:31:02,858
so no one could get in.
501
00:31:04,488 --> 00:31:05,729
That's all for now.
502
00:31:06,698 --> 00:31:08,155
You're gonna wake up.
503
00:31:15,082 --> 00:31:16,323
What is it?
504
00:31:17,793 --> 00:31:19,034
My sister.
505
00:31:20,379 --> 00:31:21,460
What about her?
506
00:31:22,255 --> 00:31:23,496
She's in trouble.
507
00:31:25,300 --> 00:31:26,836
She'll be fine.
508
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,256
Wait, uh, wait.
509
00:31:30,764 --> 00:31:32,346
- Why?
- It feels wrong.
510
00:31:33,016 --> 00:31:34,177
(TRISH SIGHS)
511
00:31:37,479 --> 00:31:38,686
(TRISH CHUCKLES)
512
00:31:38,772 --> 00:31:39,979
Nothing.
513
00:31:40,482 --> 00:31:42,599
It's just a touch without the rest.
514
00:31:43,318 --> 00:31:45,355
Just you and me.
515
00:31:46,321 --> 00:31:47,528
See?
516
00:31:49,950 --> 00:31:51,066
You're normal.
517
00:31:52,577 --> 00:31:53,909
This is normal.
518
00:31:54,788 --> 00:31:56,825
I was... I was feeling so much.
519
00:31:56,915 --> 00:31:59,407
And then I was...
And then I was feeling nothing.
520
00:31:59,501 --> 00:32:01,788
And then I was...
I just can't remember.
521
00:32:04,089 --> 00:32:05,546
What were you feeling before?
522
00:32:06,466 --> 00:32:07,707
I was feeling...
523
00:32:08,385 --> 00:32:09,385
Fear...
524
00:32:10,804 --> 00:32:11,804
And...
525
00:32:12,514 --> 00:32:13,514
And guilt.
526
00:32:15,684 --> 00:32:18,301
Fear and guilt are sisters.
527
00:32:22,482 --> 00:32:23,893
I knew a man once
528
00:32:24,317 --> 00:32:25,808
who knew those sisters well.
529
00:32:27,028 --> 00:32:29,236
They kissed his eyelids as he slept,
530
00:32:29,322 --> 00:32:32,360
and every morning,
he went just a little more mad.
531
00:32:33,743 --> 00:32:36,281
So he built a wall
to keep it all outside,
532
00:32:37,038 --> 00:32:38,870
but those two sisters,
533
00:32:39,499 --> 00:32:40,910
they were in there with him.
534
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:42,960
Even there.
535
00:32:46,506 --> 00:32:48,919
Fear and guilt.
536
00:32:49,551 --> 00:32:51,668
That silly man thought
his wall would keep them out,
537
00:32:51,761 --> 00:32:54,674
but there was
just enough room for him...
538
00:32:56,641 --> 00:32:57,641
and them.
539
00:33:01,396 --> 00:33:03,479
So he was trapped behind that wall.
540
00:33:04,524 --> 00:33:06,356
Afraid and guilty.
541
00:33:07,194 --> 00:33:11,108
And his voice left him,
and he scratched and whimpered,
542
00:33:11,656 --> 00:33:14,364
and his fingers were shredded
on his own bricks
543
00:33:14,451 --> 00:33:17,114
until his scratches
just sounded like...
544
00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:19,453
Rats in a wall.
545
00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:24,617
He felt small.
546
00:33:26,630 --> 00:33:27,996
So small.
547
00:33:30,759 --> 00:33:31,920
But that was his dream.
548
00:33:32,886 --> 00:33:35,253
And when he woke up, he was tall.
549
00:33:37,265 --> 00:33:38,472
So tall.
550
00:33:41,144 --> 00:33:42,476
- For always.
- (SIGHS)
551
00:33:46,358 --> 00:33:47,519
(SIGHS) Wait.
552
00:33:48,902 --> 00:33:50,859
Fear and guilt are sisters, Theodora.
553
00:33:51,696 --> 00:33:53,983
But when you wake up,
they'll leave you be.
554
00:33:55,033 --> 00:33:56,033
For always.
555
00:33:58,036 --> 00:33:59,823
- Wait.
- Shh.
556
00:34:00,997 --> 00:34:01,997
Enjoy me.
557
00:34:03,500 --> 00:34:04,536
I'm loving you.
558
00:34:05,168 --> 00:34:06,454
This is love.
559
00:34:07,420 --> 00:34:09,002
(VOICES WHISPERING INDISTINCTLY)
560
00:34:09,130 --> 00:34:10,130
No.
561
00:34:10,215 --> 00:34:12,172
No, no... (GASPS)
562
00:34:12,300 --> 00:34:13,300
No.
563
00:34:13,385 --> 00:34:14,385
NELL: Theo.
564
00:34:15,387 --> 00:34:16,594
(THEO GASPS)
565
00:34:21,851 --> 00:34:23,012
(GASPING)
566
00:34:28,900 --> 00:34:30,357
He's not breathing.
567
00:34:32,904 --> 00:34:34,270
Oh, my God.
568
00:34:34,364 --> 00:34:35,524
Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop.
569
00:34:37,534 --> 00:34:38,534
Come on.
570
00:34:42,038 --> 00:34:43,324
- Go.
- SHIRLEY: Check his pulse.
571
00:34:43,415 --> 00:34:45,407
No, no. No, no, no.
572
00:34:46,251 --> 00:34:47,833
I... I can't feel it.
573
00:34:47,919 --> 00:34:49,581
SHIRLEY: Don't you fucking dare, Luke!
574
00:34:49,671 --> 00:34:51,458
- Don't you fucking dare!
- Okay.
575
00:34:51,548 --> 00:34:53,540
(SHIRLEY PANTING)
576
00:35:37,177 --> 00:35:38,668
(SIGHS)
577
00:35:43,266 --> 00:35:46,509
(GASPS) Sweetheart.
578
00:35:48,605 --> 00:35:49,605
You're awake.
579
00:35:50,273 --> 00:35:52,731
Oh, I've missed you so, so much.
580
00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:56,940
- Mom.
- Mmm-hmm.
581
00:36:02,494 --> 00:36:04,201
Um, where are we?
582
00:36:04,871 --> 00:36:07,989
We're home, my love.
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)
583
00:36:09,084 --> 00:36:10,746
My little boy.
584
00:36:11,419 --> 00:36:14,912
You know, when I was a little girl
about your age,
585
00:36:15,674 --> 00:36:18,007
I was driving in the car
with your grandmother,
586
00:36:19,177 --> 00:36:24,718
and we passed a house adorned
with a forest of red roses.
587
00:36:25,558 --> 00:36:27,720
And I fell in love with that house,
588
00:36:28,395 --> 00:36:31,012
and with houses, all at once.
589
00:36:31,856 --> 00:36:33,848
I can live there forever, I thought.
590
00:36:34,275 --> 00:36:36,688
No one will ever
find me there, either.
591
00:36:37,195 --> 00:36:39,528
Behind all those roses.
592
00:36:39,614 --> 00:36:43,528
And just to be sure,
I will plant oleanders by the road.
593
00:36:44,661 --> 00:36:46,903
I will light a fire
in the cool evenings
594
00:36:46,996 --> 00:36:49,989
and toast apples in my own hearth.
595
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:55,119
I will raise white cats
and sew white curtains...
596
00:36:55,213 --> 00:36:57,455
And sometimes
I will come out of the door
597
00:36:57,549 --> 00:37:01,543
to go to the store to buy
cinnamon and tea and thread.
598
00:37:02,846 --> 00:37:05,759
People will come to me
to have their fortunes told,
599
00:37:06,391 --> 00:37:09,384
and I will brew love potions
for sad maidens.
600
00:37:10,437 --> 00:37:11,437
I will have a...
601
00:37:12,731 --> 00:37:13,731
Robin.
602
00:37:14,899 --> 00:37:16,060
I will have a robin.
603
00:37:17,694 --> 00:37:20,277
I almost named you Robin.
604
00:37:22,115 --> 00:37:23,697
Your dad even agreed.
605
00:37:24,200 --> 00:37:25,611
Robin Crain.
606
00:37:27,829 --> 00:37:30,071
But when I looked at you
for the first time...
607
00:37:31,750 --> 00:37:33,207
You were Luke.
608
00:37:33,668 --> 00:37:35,000
You just were.
609
00:37:36,671 --> 00:37:37,671
Oh.
610
00:37:38,256 --> 00:37:40,088
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY) I almost forgot.
611
00:37:47,849 --> 00:37:49,260
Your big boy hat.
612
00:37:52,103 --> 00:37:53,139
LUKE: No, I, um...
613
00:37:53,938 --> 00:37:54,938
No, no.
614
00:37:55,565 --> 00:37:57,397
We were going to have a tea party,
615
00:37:57,484 --> 00:38:00,898
with... With big boy hats
and cups of stars, and we're...
616
00:38:01,905 --> 00:38:04,363
We're so glad you're finally here.
617
00:38:04,657 --> 00:38:05,657
Go.
618
00:38:08,036 --> 00:38:09,993
OLIVIA: Why would you
want your brother to go?
619
00:38:10,079 --> 00:38:11,445
He just got here.
620
00:38:12,957 --> 00:38:13,957
Have a seat.
621
00:38:14,250 --> 00:38:15,250
Don't.
622
00:38:16,753 --> 00:38:18,585
OLIVIA: Aren't you happy
to see your brother?
623
00:38:20,465 --> 00:38:21,465
Am I dead?
624
00:38:24,552 --> 00:38:25,668
No.
625
00:38:26,888 --> 00:38:28,004
You're awake.
626
00:38:28,306 --> 00:38:30,013
And I'm so sorry, honey.
627
00:38:30,850 --> 00:38:32,557
You were having such a nightmare.
628
00:38:32,977 --> 00:38:35,560
When you see
your child have a nightmare,
629
00:38:35,647 --> 00:38:37,434
the feeling you get,
630
00:38:37,524 --> 00:38:39,106
you just wanna take it on yourself.
631
00:38:39,192 --> 00:38:44,404
Just pull it from those eyes
and let it jump on to you.
632
00:38:44,489 --> 00:38:47,573
Instead leap up from their minds
like a spider made of tar.
633
00:38:47,659 --> 00:38:50,072
And you would... You would welcome it,
634
00:38:50,495 --> 00:38:54,660
you would open your body
and your skull and take it all in.
635
00:38:54,749 --> 00:38:59,744
Take any sadness or sickness
and eat it if you had to,
636
00:38:59,838 --> 00:39:01,704
if it meant they wouldn't feel it.
637
00:39:01,798 --> 00:39:05,508
You know, they say God is love.
638
00:39:06,427 --> 00:39:07,543
But he can't be.
639
00:39:07,637 --> 00:39:12,598
Because anyone who would allow
her child... Her child...
640
00:39:14,060 --> 00:39:16,677
a single moment of actual suffering...
641
00:39:17,188 --> 00:39:19,100
No, doesn't know a thing of love.
642
00:39:19,858 --> 00:39:22,020
God has nothing on a mother.
643
00:39:26,364 --> 00:39:28,981
I'm... I'm sorry, Mom, but I...
644
00:39:29,367 --> 00:39:31,700
No, don't you apologize to me.
645
00:39:32,537 --> 00:39:35,200
It wasn't your fault, never once.
646
00:39:35,748 --> 00:39:37,660
You were perfect.
647
00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:39,537
But I... I wasn't.
648
00:39:39,669 --> 00:39:41,877
- I'm... I'm not.
- OLIVIA: You were.
649
00:39:42,380 --> 00:39:43,380
And you are.
650
00:39:43,756 --> 00:39:44,963
It's the world, my love.
651
00:39:45,049 --> 00:39:48,213
It isn't and it wasn't, and you
never should have been fed to it
652
00:39:48,303 --> 00:39:49,544
like you were.
653
00:39:52,765 --> 00:39:54,256
Yes, have a seat.
654
00:39:54,559 --> 00:39:55,559
Don't.
655
00:39:57,937 --> 00:40:01,647
Your brother has been having
a nightmare, young lady.
656
00:40:01,733 --> 00:40:03,190
Just like you.
657
00:40:03,484 --> 00:40:04,545
Don't you want him to wake up?
658
00:40:04,569 --> 00:40:05,569
Go.
659
00:40:05,737 --> 00:40:07,273
Why... Why does she keep saying that?
660
00:40:07,655 --> 00:40:09,146
Honey. Honey...
661
00:40:09,741 --> 00:40:11,903
Just... Just look at me. Look at me.
662
00:40:13,202 --> 00:40:14,363
This is a gift.
663
00:40:14,913 --> 00:40:15,949
For us all.
664
00:40:16,539 --> 00:40:19,498
Not if I'm dead. I... I...
I don't want to be dead.
665
00:40:19,584 --> 00:40:21,075
But you want to be in here.
666
00:40:21,169 --> 00:40:23,206
- No, I... I don't.
- OLIVIA: Yeah, you do.
667
00:40:24,255 --> 00:40:26,793
You... You've been
knocking on that door
668
00:40:27,508 --> 00:40:29,591
for years and years and years.
669
00:40:29,677 --> 00:40:30,884
We could hear you.
670
00:40:31,137 --> 00:40:33,299
Knocking louder all the time.
671
00:40:33,389 --> 00:40:35,005
And finally, here you are.
672
00:40:35,934 --> 00:40:37,175
- Please.
- Don't.
673
00:40:37,268 --> 00:40:39,351
- No, I have to get... I have to get...
- (GASPS)
674
00:40:39,896 --> 00:40:40,896
Please!
675
00:40:41,481 --> 00:40:43,768
(GASPING, COUGHING)
676
00:40:47,028 --> 00:40:48,028
SHIRLEY: Oh, God.
677
00:40:49,530 --> 00:40:51,362
Luke! Hey, can you hear me?
678
00:40:51,449 --> 00:40:54,066
SHIRLEY: His pulse is weak.
THEO: We gotta get him to a hospital.
679
00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:55,304
I thought you were gone, man.
680
00:40:55,328 --> 00:40:56,409
I thought you were gone.
681
00:40:56,496 --> 00:40:57,577
She saved me.
682
00:40:59,207 --> 00:41:00,994
SHIRLEY: You... You just woke up.
683
00:41:01,417 --> 00:41:02,603
- No.
- SHIRLEY: You were gone.
684
00:41:02,627 --> 00:41:04,789
She saved me.
685
00:41:09,676 --> 00:41:11,338
I feel a little clearer just now.
686
00:41:14,263 --> 00:41:15,263
We have.
687
00:41:15,974 --> 00:41:17,806
- Nell?
- NELL: All of us have.
688
00:41:18,351 --> 00:41:21,435
- (LUKE GROANS)
- It wouldn't have changed anything.
689
00:41:22,230 --> 00:41:23,437
I need you to know that.
690
00:41:24,649 --> 00:41:26,311
- Nell...
- NELL: The rest is confetti.
691
00:41:26,401 --> 00:41:27,401
Hey.
692
00:41:27,568 --> 00:41:29,730
So many times, and we didn't know it.
693
00:41:30,863 --> 00:41:31,863
All of us.
694
00:41:32,073 --> 00:41:33,073
Nellie?
695
00:41:33,241 --> 00:41:35,699
No, not a heart.
696
00:41:36,160 --> 00:41:37,492
- Nell?
- A stomach.
697
00:41:38,454 --> 00:41:39,454
Nell?
698
00:41:39,789 --> 00:41:40,789
We have.
699
00:41:41,499 --> 00:41:44,333
- All of us have.
- I... I don't think she can hear us.
700
00:41:45,586 --> 00:41:47,703
NELL: So many times,
and we didn't know it.
701
00:41:48,881 --> 00:41:51,464
All right, we need to
get Luke out of here.
702
00:41:51,551 --> 00:41:54,464
- We need to get him to a hospital.
- (COUGHING)
703
00:41:54,554 --> 00:41:55,920
I don't get it.
704
00:41:56,389 --> 00:41:58,301
All this time,
we tried to get into this room,
705
00:41:58,391 --> 00:42:00,178
and now we can't get the fuck out.
706
00:42:00,727 --> 00:42:02,559
I feel like I've been here before.
707
00:42:03,062 --> 00:42:04,062
We have.
708
00:42:06,232 --> 00:42:07,232
All of us have.
709
00:42:08,985 --> 00:42:10,897
So many times, and we didn't know it.
710
00:42:12,822 --> 00:42:13,822
All of us.
711
00:42:15,324 --> 00:42:16,324
(SIGHS)
712
00:42:17,994 --> 00:42:19,360
I feel a bit clearer now.
713
00:42:21,372 --> 00:42:22,954
Everything's been out of order.
714
00:42:23,583 --> 00:42:24,583
Time, I mean.
715
00:42:26,878 --> 00:42:31,043
I thought for so long
that time was like a line, that...
716
00:42:32,508 --> 00:42:34,670
That our moments were laid out
like dominoes,
717
00:42:34,761 --> 00:42:35,842
and that they...
718
00:42:36,971 --> 00:42:39,588
Fell, one into another.
719
00:42:39,682 --> 00:42:41,048
And on it went,
720
00:42:41,142 --> 00:42:44,681
just days tipping,
one into the next, into the next,
721
00:42:45,229 --> 00:42:47,516
in a long line between the beginning...
722
00:42:49,859 --> 00:42:50,859
And the end.
723
00:42:52,987 --> 00:42:54,774
But I was wrong. (CHUCKLES)
724
00:42:56,365 --> 00:42:57,731
It's not like that at all.
725
00:42:59,368 --> 00:43:03,203
Our moments fall around us like rain.
(LAUGHS)
726
00:43:03,790 --> 00:43:05,873
Or... The snow.
727
00:43:08,753 --> 00:43:10,619
Or confetti. (CHUCKLES)
728
00:43:13,382 --> 00:43:14,543
You were right.
729
00:43:15,676 --> 00:43:17,087
We have been in this room.
730
00:43:18,096 --> 00:43:19,883
So many times, and we didn't know.
731
00:43:21,390 --> 00:43:22,390
All of us.
732
00:43:24,977 --> 00:43:26,058
Mom says...
733
00:43:28,898 --> 00:43:31,311
That a... That a house is like a body...
734
00:43:32,652 --> 00:43:33,893
And that every house...
735
00:43:35,696 --> 00:43:36,812
Has eyes.
736
00:43:38,783 --> 00:43:39,783
And bones.
737
00:43:41,202 --> 00:43:42,238
And skin.
738
00:43:45,540 --> 00:43:46,656
And a face.
739
00:43:49,919 --> 00:43:51,000
(SIGHS)
740
00:43:52,672 --> 00:43:54,880
This room is like
the heart of the house.
741
00:43:57,677 --> 00:43:59,293
No, not a heart, a stomach.
742
00:44:04,559 --> 00:44:06,391
It was your dance studio, Theo.
743
00:44:09,230 --> 00:44:10,391
It was my toy room.
744
00:44:11,691 --> 00:44:13,808
It was a reading room for Mom.
745
00:44:15,361 --> 00:44:16,977
A game room for Steve.
746
00:44:17,405 --> 00:44:19,237
A family room for Shirley.
747
00:44:19,699 --> 00:44:20,699
A tree house.
748
00:44:20,825 --> 00:44:23,033
How do you spell "No Girls Allowed"?
749
00:44:23,786 --> 00:44:25,948
NELL: But it was always the Red Room.
750
00:44:26,289 --> 00:44:27,621
How do you take your tea?
751
00:44:27,707 --> 00:44:31,701
NELL: It put on different faces
so that we'd be still and quiet.
752
00:44:33,671 --> 00:44:35,162
While it digested.
753
00:44:37,967 --> 00:44:41,335
I'm like a small creature
swallowed whole by a monster.
754
00:44:42,471 --> 00:44:45,885
And the monster feels
my tiny little movements inside.
755
00:44:55,151 --> 00:44:56,483
You have to live.
756
00:44:59,530 --> 00:45:03,069
(SIGHS) I don't...
I don't know how to do this without you.
757
00:45:03,242 --> 00:45:04,653
I learned a secret.
758
00:45:06,454 --> 00:45:07,740
There's no without.
759
00:45:09,040 --> 00:45:10,372
I am not gone.
760
00:45:12,585 --> 00:45:15,578
I'm scattered into so many pieces,
761
00:45:16,505 --> 00:45:18,497
sprinkled on your life like...
762
00:45:19,383 --> 00:45:20,544
New snow.
763
00:45:24,180 --> 00:45:26,422
There's so much
I want to say to you all.
764
00:45:28,017 --> 00:45:29,929
I'm so sorry
our last words were in anger.
765
00:45:30,561 --> 00:45:31,722
They weren't our last.
766
00:45:33,606 --> 00:45:34,722
SHIRLEY: I'm sorry.
767
00:45:35,524 --> 00:45:36,856
I'm sorry that I didn't...
768
00:45:38,027 --> 00:45:39,027
Answer the phone.
769
00:45:40,071 --> 00:45:41,071
But you did.
770
00:45:42,365 --> 00:45:43,697
So many times.
771
00:45:45,201 --> 00:45:47,989
I'm sorry if I didn't listen,
and I'm sorry...
772
00:45:48,079 --> 00:45:50,241
NELL: It wouldn't have changed anything.
773
00:45:50,581 --> 00:45:51,822
I need you to know that.
774
00:45:54,001 --> 00:45:55,913
Forgiveness is warm.
775
00:45:57,088 --> 00:45:58,579
Like a tear on a cheek.
776
00:46:00,591 --> 00:46:02,298
Think of that and of me
777
00:46:03,177 --> 00:46:04,713
when you stand in the rain.
778
00:46:05,513 --> 00:46:06,549
Hmm?
779
00:46:07,556 --> 00:46:09,138
I loved you completely.
780
00:46:11,269 --> 00:46:12,805
And you loved me the same.
781
00:46:13,604 --> 00:46:14,604
That's all.
782
00:46:16,857 --> 00:46:18,314
The rest is confetti.
783
00:46:21,821 --> 00:46:22,937
(NELL CHUCKLES)
784
00:46:42,508 --> 00:46:44,500
(GASPS)
785
00:46:44,802 --> 00:46:45,802
(EXHALES)
786
00:46:59,942 --> 00:47:02,309
(SIGHS, SWALLOWS)
787
00:47:12,747 --> 00:47:14,830
"The first was young Miss Grattan
788
00:47:15,291 --> 00:47:16,953
"She tried not to let him in
789
00:47:17,585 --> 00:47:19,451
"He stabbed her with a corn knife
790
00:47:20,004 --> 00:47:21,586
"That's how his crimes begin
791
00:47:22,131 --> 00:47:23,872
"The next was Grandma Grattan
792
00:47:24,175 --> 00:47:26,212
"So old and tired and gray
793
00:47:26,802 --> 00:47:28,418
"She f'it off her attacker
794
00:47:29,388 --> 00:47:31,095
"Until his strength gave way
795
00:47:31,766 --> 00:47:33,723
"The next was Grandpa Grattan
796
00:47:34,310 --> 00:47:35,972
"A-settin' by the fire
797
00:47:36,479 --> 00:47:38,641
"He came up close behind him
798
00:47:39,482 --> 00:47:41,724
"And strangled him with wire
799
00:47:43,152 --> 00:47:45,109
"The last was Baby Grattan
800
00:47:45,488 --> 00:47:47,070
"All in his trundle bed
801
00:47:47,698 --> 00:47:50,031
"He stove him in the short ribs
802
00:47:50,201 --> 00:47:52,158
"Until that child was dead
803
00:47:52,703 --> 00:47:54,695
"And then he spit tobacco juice
804
00:47:55,331 --> 00:47:57,914
"All on his golden head."
805
00:47:58,167 --> 00:47:59,248
OLIVIA: Stay away.
806
00:48:10,262 --> 00:48:12,879
He's just too cute, Liv.
807
00:48:13,265 --> 00:48:14,265
Away.
808
00:48:14,975 --> 00:48:17,137
Forgive a girl for being lonely.
809
00:48:19,271 --> 00:48:21,604
Nothing's sadder than a cold bed.
810
00:48:22,483 --> 00:48:25,226
But all those wedding beds go cold.
811
00:48:28,989 --> 00:48:30,321
Don't they, loves?
812
00:48:41,585 --> 00:48:44,293
(CHUCKLING SOFTLY)
813
00:48:45,172 --> 00:48:48,961
Journeys end in lovers' meeting.
814
00:48:51,303 --> 00:48:52,339
(SIGHS HAPPILY)
815
00:48:53,806 --> 00:48:56,765
I have spent
an all but sleepless night.
816
00:48:58,269 --> 00:49:01,433
I have told lies
and made a fool of myself.
817
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:05,353
And the very air tastes like wine.
818
00:49:07,236 --> 00:49:08,852
Everyone is home.
819
00:49:10,614 --> 00:49:12,230
You've changed so much.
820
00:49:19,790 --> 00:49:21,497
For my heart.
821
00:49:22,334 --> 00:49:24,451
How long has it been
since you were here?
822
00:49:24,545 --> 00:49:26,332
Longer than I intended.
823
00:49:26,922 --> 00:49:29,960
It was too hard
to see you here, this way.
824
00:49:30,301 --> 00:49:32,293
But I still...
825
00:49:34,096 --> 00:49:36,088
- Had you with me.
- OLIVIA: No, love.
826
00:49:36,682 --> 00:49:39,140
That wasn't me, that was just you.
827
00:49:40,561 --> 00:49:41,802
What were you doing...
828
00:49:42,646 --> 00:49:43,853
All this time away?
829
00:49:48,527 --> 00:49:49,563
HUGH: I was...
830
00:49:50,196 --> 00:49:51,528
Holding a door.
831
00:49:55,784 --> 00:49:58,492
Holding a door closed.
832
00:50:00,247 --> 00:50:03,115
I had my back against it
833
00:50:03,501 --> 00:50:05,959
and my arms out wide,
834
00:50:06,045 --> 00:50:08,287
because I knew
there were monsters on the other side,
835
00:50:08,380 --> 00:50:10,212
and they wanted
what was left of our family.
836
00:50:10,508 --> 00:50:12,716
And I held it so hard,
837
00:50:12,843 --> 00:50:16,211
I... I didn't have arms
left for the kids.
838
00:50:16,972 --> 00:50:18,679
The monsters got through anyway.
839
00:50:18,766 --> 00:50:20,348
That's what monsters do.
840
00:50:21,477 --> 00:50:22,968
- But not here.
- HUGH: No.
841
00:50:23,062 --> 00:50:24,394
Especially here.
842
00:50:25,272 --> 00:50:27,138
They're... They're out there,
843
00:50:27,233 --> 00:50:28,565
in... In the woods.
844
00:50:28,651 --> 00:50:32,395
They're out there, and we're in here,
and the children are finally safe.
845
00:50:32,863 --> 00:50:34,320
But, no. No. They're...
846
00:50:35,699 --> 00:50:36,815
They're... They're not.
847
00:50:37,785 --> 00:50:38,821
They're dying.
848
00:50:38,953 --> 00:50:39,953
They're waking.
849
00:50:40,829 --> 00:50:43,162
- No.
- (SNIFFLES) You kept them from me.
850
00:50:43,999 --> 00:50:45,365
To keep them safe.
851
00:50:46,043 --> 00:50:47,830
You kept them from the truth.
852
00:50:48,879 --> 00:50:50,086
To keep you safe.
853
00:50:50,673 --> 00:50:52,414
Their... Their image of you.
854
00:50:55,427 --> 00:50:56,427
I woke up...
855
00:50:57,763 --> 00:50:59,299
At the foot of these stairs,
856
00:51:00,474 --> 00:51:01,931
and I started walking.
857
00:51:03,769 --> 00:51:04,930
No more headaches.
858
00:51:05,396 --> 00:51:08,980
No pain, no day, no night,
no now, no then.
859
00:51:10,526 --> 00:51:12,734
And I would dream while I walked.
860
00:51:14,613 --> 00:51:15,729
I dreamed of you.
861
00:51:16,156 --> 00:51:18,614
I dreamed of you
and the children's laughter.
862
00:51:19,118 --> 00:51:20,484
And then I'd remember...
863
00:51:21,704 --> 00:51:23,491
That you took them from me.
864
00:51:23,956 --> 00:51:27,540
You took them and you hurt them, Hugh.
865
00:51:28,043 --> 00:51:30,035
- And they suffered.
- HUGH: They did.
866
00:51:30,462 --> 00:51:31,498
They all do.
867
00:51:32,840 --> 00:51:35,298
And even if they're...
They're broken or addicted
868
00:51:35,426 --> 00:51:38,043
or joyless or, yes, even if they die,
869
00:51:38,429 --> 00:51:40,716
we have to watch it all
because we're parents.
870
00:51:41,599 --> 00:51:44,057
And that's the deal we make.
871
00:51:44,435 --> 00:51:47,018
Whatever that life is, we bear witness.
872
00:51:47,146 --> 00:51:49,513
- It's a horror.
- HUGH: It doesn't have to be.
873
00:51:49,690 --> 00:51:52,398
I saw our daughter
dance at her wedding.
874
00:51:52,484 --> 00:51:54,692
Her smile was like a light,
875
00:51:54,778 --> 00:51:56,861
and it was reflected
in everyone's faces.
876
00:51:56,947 --> 00:51:58,734
And I recognized that light.
877
00:51:59,783 --> 00:52:02,116
Because it was ours. We did that.
878
00:52:02,244 --> 00:52:04,361
We loved each other so well
879
00:52:04,455 --> 00:52:06,822
that it spread out into the universe
880
00:52:06,957 --> 00:52:09,745
and it created a new star.
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)
881
00:52:10,961 --> 00:52:13,920
(SIGHS) Stars die.
882
00:52:15,090 --> 00:52:17,423
The night sky is full of dead stars.
883
00:52:18,052 --> 00:52:19,918
They explode to death.
884
00:52:20,179 --> 00:52:22,887
And if you could reach up
with some great hand
885
00:52:22,973 --> 00:52:27,092
and pull them down
just before they burst, you would.
886
00:52:27,269 --> 00:52:28,269
Yes, I would.
887
00:52:28,354 --> 00:52:29,470
We're all safe now.
888
00:52:30,564 --> 00:52:33,682
This is our forever house.
889
00:52:33,817 --> 00:52:35,274
It always was.
890
00:52:35,527 --> 00:52:38,645
Nothing bad will ever
touch them ever again.
891
00:52:38,739 --> 00:52:40,321
Nothing good will, either.
892
00:52:42,409 --> 00:52:43,570
Open that door.
893
00:52:43,994 --> 00:52:45,826
I know you can open that door.
894
00:52:46,830 --> 00:52:50,494
I know you love the people
in that room more than anything.
895
00:52:50,584 --> 00:52:52,541
I won't let you take them away again.
896
00:52:53,379 --> 00:52:54,415
They'll die.
897
00:52:54,546 --> 00:52:56,754
Liv, they will die if they stay.
They're dying now.
898
00:52:56,840 --> 00:52:58,126
Our babies are dying.
899
00:52:59,760 --> 00:53:00,760
Let them go.
900
00:53:01,053 --> 00:53:03,761
You have always said that our job
was to send them sailing.
901
00:53:03,847 --> 00:53:05,447
- That was a dream.
- Out into the world.
902
00:53:05,474 --> 00:53:07,261
- OLIVIA: A dream.
- Into the world.
903
00:53:07,518 --> 00:53:08,518
Let them go.
904
00:53:08,644 --> 00:53:10,886
I'll be alone again! (SOBS)
905
00:53:15,776 --> 00:53:18,018
HUGH: If it wasn't
for the kids in that room,
906
00:53:18,112 --> 00:53:20,695
I would've laid down with you.
907
00:53:21,115 --> 00:53:22,526
I would have followed you...
908
00:53:24,660 --> 00:53:26,276
Right into the darkness.
909
00:53:27,746 --> 00:53:29,078
But those kids, Liv...
910
00:53:32,584 --> 00:53:35,372
- But those kids in that room...
- (OLIVIA WHIMPERS)
911
00:53:36,380 --> 00:53:38,963
If you open that door right now...
912
00:53:40,926 --> 00:53:44,545
I will make a promise to you
that I will keep forever.
913
00:53:46,181 --> 00:53:47,297
Open the door.
914
00:53:48,892 --> 00:53:49,892
Please.
915
00:53:50,102 --> 00:53:51,934
Let me fix this. (SIGHS)
916
00:53:56,567 --> 00:53:57,567
Journeys end...
917
00:53:58,485 --> 00:54:00,727
In lovers' meeting. (CHUCKLES)
918
00:54:03,449 --> 00:54:06,613
You had that engraved on my watch,
919
00:54:06,744 --> 00:54:07,744
do you remember?
920
00:54:08,036 --> 00:54:09,243
But I was wrong.
921
00:54:10,414 --> 00:54:11,871
That's the secret, isn't it?
922
00:54:11,957 --> 00:54:14,700
(CHUCKLES) Journeys don't end.
923
00:54:16,044 --> 00:54:17,330
Not if you love someone.
924
00:54:17,921 --> 00:54:19,037
They don't end at all.
925
00:54:20,758 --> 00:54:22,215
Isn't that wonderful?
926
00:54:25,137 --> 00:54:26,503
LUKE: Once upon a time,
927
00:54:27,389 --> 00:54:29,972
the world was just play.
928
00:54:30,058 --> 00:54:31,765
(JAGGED BREATHING)
929
00:54:31,852 --> 00:54:32,888
And all...
930
00:54:33,854 --> 00:54:35,311
All we had...
931
00:54:36,190 --> 00:54:37,190
The five of us...
932
00:54:37,274 --> 00:54:38,594
No, no, no, no, no, stay with me.
933
00:54:38,734 --> 00:54:41,397
All we had was... Play.
934
00:54:41,987 --> 00:54:43,569
Luke. Luke. Luke.
935
00:54:43,655 --> 00:54:45,817
Stay awake! Stay with...
936
00:54:53,749 --> 00:54:54,865
I'll start the car.
937
00:54:54,958 --> 00:54:56,665
- Is he breathing?
- Yeah.
938
00:54:57,336 --> 00:54:58,372
Come on.
939
00:55:00,172 --> 00:55:01,172
(GRUNTS)
940
00:55:11,225 --> 00:55:12,306
(SEAT BELT CLICKS)
941
00:55:12,935 --> 00:55:15,097
SHIRLEY: Sacred Heart's closest.
THEO: I can navigate.
942
00:55:15,187 --> 00:55:16,769
Are you guys coming with us or...
943
00:55:16,855 --> 00:55:17,855
Go ahead.
944
00:55:18,357 --> 00:55:20,599
There's one more thing
your brother and I have to do.
945
00:55:20,692 --> 00:55:22,132
- We'll see you there.
- STEVE: What?
946
00:55:22,194 --> 00:55:24,026
We'll meet you at the hospital.
947
00:55:25,864 --> 00:55:27,355
(ENGINE STARTS)
948
00:55:42,631 --> 00:55:43,747
(SIGHS)
949
00:55:45,175 --> 00:55:47,462
Probably best you didn't
say anything to them.
950
00:55:51,557 --> 00:55:54,846
Dad... What did I see?
951
00:56:09,074 --> 00:56:11,066
(CAR APPROACHING)
952
00:56:33,640 --> 00:56:34,640
Olivia?
953
00:56:39,062 --> 00:56:40,062
Liv?
954
00:56:50,365 --> 00:56:52,357
(YOUNGER HUGH SCREAMS)
955
00:57:08,634 --> 00:57:09,841
(CRYING)
956
00:57:15,432 --> 00:57:17,424
(SOBBING)
957
00:57:22,731 --> 00:57:25,644
What... What happened?
958
00:57:28,904 --> 00:57:29,904
Why are you here?
959
00:57:29,988 --> 00:57:31,069
Did you see?
960
00:57:32,783 --> 00:57:33,864
What happened?
961
00:57:34,409 --> 00:57:38,119
I... I... I don't know.
962
00:57:39,706 --> 00:57:42,870
We were looking for... (SIGHS)
963
00:57:51,468 --> 00:57:54,586
- Oh, my God.
- YOUNGER HUGH: I can fix this.
964
00:57:57,474 --> 00:57:58,474
I can fix it.
965
00:58:06,149 --> 00:58:07,149
Hugh...
966
00:58:07,317 --> 00:58:10,276
- I can fix it.
- MR. DUDLEY: Put her down.
967
00:58:10,904 --> 00:58:12,691
No, I can fix this.
968
00:58:13,782 --> 00:58:14,943
You... You can't.
969
00:58:23,667 --> 00:58:24,999
Why is this happening?
970
00:58:27,337 --> 00:58:28,953
Why are you even here?
971
00:58:29,047 --> 00:58:32,085
We need to get you help.
We need to get the police.
972
00:58:32,175 --> 00:58:33,416
Why are you here?
973
00:58:34,469 --> 00:58:38,634
Our... Our daughter snuck out of
a vent tonight, and we thought maybe...
974
00:58:42,519 --> 00:58:43,600
Oh...
975
00:58:46,314 --> 00:58:47,314
MRS. DUDLEY: No.
976
00:58:47,399 --> 00:58:50,233
(GASPS) No. No, no, no...
977
00:58:50,318 --> 00:58:53,777
(SOBBING) No. No. Oh, no.
978
00:58:55,240 --> 00:58:56,401
No...
979
00:58:57,200 --> 00:58:58,532
Both of their children.
980
00:58:59,536 --> 00:59:00,777
All of their children.
981
00:59:02,622 --> 00:59:04,454
(SOBBING CONTINUES)
982
00:59:04,875 --> 00:59:06,411
She wasn't in her bed.
983
00:59:08,420 --> 00:59:09,420
I didn't know.
984
00:59:10,839 --> 00:59:11,875
I didn't know.
985
00:59:12,257 --> 00:59:13,257
ABIGAIL: Mommy?
986
00:59:17,846 --> 00:59:19,838
(MRS. DUDLEY GASPS)
987
00:59:21,224 --> 00:59:22,224
Abby?
988
00:59:23,560 --> 00:59:24,560
Abby?
989
00:59:24,686 --> 00:59:26,222
(PANTING)
990
00:59:29,274 --> 00:59:30,936
Abby! Abby!
991
00:59:31,610 --> 00:59:32,610
What happened?
992
00:59:33,195 --> 00:59:34,436
Who hurt you, baby girl?
993
00:59:52,631 --> 00:59:53,631
Honey?
994
00:59:56,384 --> 00:59:58,626
I'm having the strangest dream.
995
01:00:16,154 --> 01:00:17,941
YOUNGER HUGH: I'm gonna burn it.
996
01:00:21,660 --> 01:00:23,697
I'm gonna burn this house
to the ground.
997
01:00:27,999 --> 01:00:29,115
Stand over it.
998
01:00:30,585 --> 01:00:34,420
Make sure that every room,
every wall, every splinter is immolated.
999
01:00:35,966 --> 01:00:38,174
Burn this house
and its hills to the dirt.
1000
01:00:40,387 --> 01:00:41,673
Then I'll salt the earth.
1001
01:00:43,390 --> 01:00:44,390
You won't.
1002
01:00:46,184 --> 01:00:47,766
(SIGHS) Horace, he can't.
1003
01:00:49,938 --> 01:00:51,224
She's still here.
1004
01:00:56,403 --> 01:00:59,146
I'll... Carry her body
back to the woods.
1005
01:00:59,239 --> 01:01:00,239
I'll...
1006
01:01:01,283 --> 01:01:03,991
Bury her by the cottage
in the garden that she loved.
1007
01:01:07,664 --> 01:01:08,700
And when she's buried
1008
01:01:09,791 --> 01:01:12,204
and it's done, we'll...
We'll say nothing.
1009
01:01:13,879 --> 01:01:16,747
You understand, Hugh?
We'll say nothing.
1010
01:01:18,049 --> 01:01:20,507
She barely left our house
her whole life.
1011
01:01:21,386 --> 01:01:23,753
We kept her out of the world
to keep her safe.
1012
01:01:25,765 --> 01:01:28,428
And we're the only ones
who would even know to...
1013
01:01:29,936 --> 01:01:31,017
To mourn her.
1014
01:01:34,566 --> 01:01:36,649
We won't say anything about Olivia.
1015
01:01:38,904 --> 01:01:40,440
We won't. (SIGHS)
1016
01:01:42,949 --> 01:01:44,030
That wasn't her.
1017
01:01:44,576 --> 01:01:45,576
We know that.
1018
01:01:45,702 --> 01:01:49,537
No, we know
what really happened here tonight.
1019
01:01:50,707 --> 01:01:51,823
And your kids,
1020
01:01:52,751 --> 01:01:55,289
they don't need to hear anything else.
1021
01:01:55,879 --> 01:01:58,872
Or remember their mother in any way
1022
01:01:58,965 --> 01:02:00,752
but the way that she truly was.
1023
01:02:02,969 --> 01:02:04,710
And we can protect that for you.
1024
01:02:07,140 --> 01:02:08,140
If...
1025
01:02:10,268 --> 01:02:11,268
If what?
1026
01:02:12,854 --> 01:02:14,516
MRS. DUDLEY: If you keep this house.
1027
01:02:15,106 --> 01:02:16,106
Keep us on.
1028
01:02:17,692 --> 01:02:19,149
Keep everyone else away.
1029
01:02:20,070 --> 01:02:22,938
Don't let it take anyone else,
never again.
1030
01:02:23,615 --> 01:02:24,651
Let it starve.
1031
01:02:27,035 --> 01:02:28,242
But leave it here.
1032
01:02:30,288 --> 01:02:31,449
So I can see her.
1033
01:02:33,917 --> 01:02:35,124
MR. DUDLEY: This house,
1034
01:02:35,543 --> 01:02:39,127
it's full of precious,
precious things,
1035
01:02:39,798 --> 01:02:41,664
and they don't all belong to you.
1036
01:02:43,134 --> 01:02:44,375
It's dangerous.
1037
01:02:46,554 --> 01:02:47,554
For both of you.
1038
01:02:47,681 --> 01:02:50,298
MRS. DUDLEY: I don't care.
This is where she is now.
1039
01:02:50,976 --> 01:02:52,092
I'm her mother.
1040
01:02:52,394 --> 01:02:54,010
I won't leave her here alone.
1041
01:02:56,398 --> 01:02:58,355
I will not. (CRYING)
1042
01:03:00,986 --> 01:03:01,986
Please, Hugh.
1043
01:03:08,702 --> 01:03:09,702
Please.
1044
01:03:25,635 --> 01:03:26,635
(SIGHS)
1045
01:03:41,192 --> 01:03:42,478
(SIGHS)
1046
01:03:57,751 --> 01:03:58,912
(STEVE SIGHS)
1047
01:04:00,378 --> 01:04:02,040
I wish you would have told me.
1048
01:04:06,092 --> 01:04:08,254
You didn't tell your sisters
what you saw.
1049
01:04:09,095 --> 01:04:10,095
Why not?
1050
01:04:12,265 --> 01:04:14,928
Some things... Can't be told.
1051
01:04:16,061 --> 01:04:17,142
You live them...
1052
01:04:18,063 --> 01:04:19,063
Or you don't.
1053
01:04:19,689 --> 01:04:21,146
But they can't be told.
1054
01:04:24,194 --> 01:04:25,194
I'm sorry.
1055
01:04:26,112 --> 01:04:27,112
No.
1056
01:04:29,074 --> 01:04:30,155
I'm sorry, Dad.
1057
01:04:32,160 --> 01:04:33,901
HUGH: This is all yours now.
1058
01:04:36,581 --> 01:04:37,617
The house.
1059
01:04:39,667 --> 01:04:40,667
And the promise.
1060
01:04:44,714 --> 01:04:45,875
I want you to know...
1061
01:04:46,883 --> 01:04:47,883
You...
1062
01:04:48,426 --> 01:04:49,758
And your sisters...
1063
01:04:50,595 --> 01:04:51,595
And your brother...
1064
01:04:53,181 --> 01:04:54,797
Were the best part of my...
1065
01:04:55,892 --> 01:04:56,892
My...
1066
01:04:59,270 --> 01:05:02,684
(INHALES DEEPLY)
Never been prouder of anything.
1067
01:05:04,943 --> 01:05:06,525
Anything, ever.
1068
01:05:12,075 --> 01:05:13,282
Take care of each other.
1069
01:05:14,119 --> 01:05:15,781
(SIGHS) Dad?
1070
01:05:15,870 --> 01:05:17,430
YOUNGER HUGH: And be kind
to each other.
1071
01:05:19,457 --> 01:05:20,538
If nothing else...
1072
01:05:21,918 --> 01:05:22,918
Be kind.
1073
01:05:25,922 --> 01:05:29,165
I was so lucky to be your dad.
1074
01:05:52,949 --> 01:05:53,985
(SIGHS)
1075
01:06:47,086 --> 01:06:49,078
(INDISTINCT CHATTER OVER PA)
1076
01:06:51,591 --> 01:06:53,503
(MONITOR BEEPING)
1077
01:06:58,306 --> 01:06:59,306
STEVE: Home.
1078
01:07:02,477 --> 01:07:03,934
"I am home," I thought...
1079
01:07:05,563 --> 01:07:07,555
and stopped in wonder at the thought.
1080
01:07:09,609 --> 01:07:10,609
I am home.
1081
01:07:11,736 --> 01:07:12,943
I am home.
1082
01:07:14,864 --> 01:07:15,864
Now, to climb.
1083
01:07:19,994 --> 01:07:23,362
I've been so wrong about so much.
1084
01:07:26,626 --> 01:07:29,164
I've lived with ghosts
since I was a kid.
1085
01:07:30,922 --> 01:07:33,209
Since before I knew
they were even there.
1086
01:07:34,175 --> 01:07:36,883
Ghosts are guilt, ghosts are secrets,
1087
01:07:36,970 --> 01:07:39,132
ghosts are regrets and failings.
1088
01:07:42,308 --> 01:07:43,344
But most times...
1089
01:07:45,186 --> 01:07:47,269
Most times, a ghost is a wish.
1090
01:07:51,359 --> 01:07:53,521
Like a marriage is a wish.
1091
01:07:57,907 --> 01:08:01,617
A marriage can be like a house,
and a marriage can be haunted,
1092
01:08:01,703 --> 01:08:03,239
and I let that happen to us.
1093
01:08:03,371 --> 01:08:05,738
And I'm so sorry, Leigh.
1094
01:08:06,082 --> 01:08:07,082
You're scaring me.
1095
01:08:09,043 --> 01:08:11,126
I have something
that I have to tell you.
1096
01:08:13,464 --> 01:08:14,625
And I'm going to.
1097
01:08:15,883 --> 01:08:19,376
But I need you to remember,
while I do, that I love you,
1098
01:08:20,388 --> 01:08:21,388
my sweet...
1099
01:08:22,015 --> 01:08:23,015
Friend.
1100
01:08:24,183 --> 01:08:25,219
My best friend.
1101
01:08:26,603 --> 01:08:29,141
I'm asking you to love me
1102
01:08:30,523 --> 01:08:34,642
hard for the next few minutes,
and it might be the hardest
1103
01:08:35,445 --> 01:08:36,902
that you've ever had to love me,
1104
01:08:37,488 --> 01:08:40,276
but I know it'll be okay,
because it's us.
1105
01:08:41,659 --> 01:08:42,659
So...
1106
01:08:43,995 --> 01:08:47,363
I'm gonna jump.
And I'm asking you to hold my hand...
1107
01:08:48,875 --> 01:08:49,956
While I'm falling.
1108
01:08:54,005 --> 01:08:55,005
Okay?
1109
01:08:59,260 --> 01:09:00,260
Okay.
1110
01:09:02,805 --> 01:09:04,797
(IF I GO, I'M GOIN' PLAYING)
1111
01:09:07,060 --> 01:09:08,060
Years ago...
1112
01:09:09,395 --> 01:09:11,352
Six years ago...
1113
01:09:12,523 --> 01:09:14,765
I went to that conference in Chicago.
1114
01:09:16,486 --> 01:09:18,523
- (SHIRLEY CONTINUES INAUDIBLY)
- STEVE: I wish...
1115
01:09:18,613 --> 01:09:19,979
I'd loved you better.
1116
01:09:21,616 --> 01:09:24,233
And let you see me clearly,
without disguise.
1117
01:09:25,370 --> 01:09:27,111
I wish I'd been a better husband.
1118
01:09:29,082 --> 01:09:30,789
I wish I'd been a better son.
1119
01:09:31,542 --> 01:09:33,659
(SIGHS) I wish I'd been
a better brother.
1120
01:09:33,753 --> 01:09:35,415
(SONG PLAYING) This house
1121
01:09:35,505 --> 01:09:36,746
What are you saying, Steve?
1122
01:09:36,839 --> 01:09:38,580
She's holding secrets
1123
01:09:38,675 --> 01:09:41,167
I'm saying, I built a wall
around a big part of my life,
1124
01:09:41,260 --> 01:09:42,876
and I hid behind that wall,
1125
01:09:43,012 --> 01:09:46,505
and I thought that wall kept us both
safe. But walls don't work that way.
1126
01:09:47,725 --> 01:09:50,058
Walls never work that way.
1127
01:09:50,186 --> 01:09:51,302
What about these?
1128
01:09:52,105 --> 01:09:53,105
Oh, trash.
1129
01:09:55,858 --> 01:09:58,396
(SONG PLAYING) Just in case
1130
01:09:59,654 --> 01:10:01,737
I have to leave
1131
01:10:03,950 --> 01:10:09,992
I will go if you ask me to
1132
01:10:11,624 --> 01:10:14,412
I will stay...
1133
01:10:14,585 --> 01:10:16,793
I think the truck's full.
Is that everything?
1134
01:10:17,171 --> 01:10:18,252
Yeah, I'm ready.
1135
01:10:19,382 --> 01:10:24,502
(SONG PLAYING)
If I go, I'm going shameless
1136
01:10:25,096 --> 01:10:27,463
Let my hunger take me there
1137
01:10:27,557 --> 01:10:30,721
STEVE: And all of that,
the guilt and the grief
1138
01:10:30,810 --> 01:10:34,474
and the secrets and the walls
and the ghosts, right now,
1139
01:10:35,189 --> 01:10:36,555
my only wish...
1140
01:10:39,777 --> 01:10:42,144
My only wish is to come home.
1141
01:10:43,030 --> 01:10:44,896
(SONG PLAYING) This house
1142
01:10:45,658 --> 01:10:46,658
Please.
1143
01:10:46,743 --> 01:10:48,735
(SONG PLAYING) She's quite the talker
1144
01:10:49,871 --> 01:10:52,488
She creaks and moans
1145
01:10:52,582 --> 01:10:54,448
(SIGHS) I just want to fix this.
1146
01:10:54,542 --> 01:10:55,582
(SONG PLAYING) Keeps me up
1147
01:10:57,962 --> 01:11:01,046
And the photographs
1148
01:11:01,466 --> 01:11:04,174
Know I'm a liar
1149
01:11:05,511 --> 01:11:07,343
Theyjust laugh
1150
01:11:07,472 --> 01:11:08,508
STEVE: Fear.
1151
01:11:09,015 --> 01:11:10,881
As I burn her down
1152
01:11:10,975 --> 01:11:13,718
STEVE: Fear is
the relinquishment of logic,
1153
01:11:13,811 --> 01:11:16,849
the willing relinquishing
of reasonable patterns.
1154
01:11:16,981 --> 01:11:19,769
(SONG PLAYING)
I will go if you ask me to
1155
01:11:21,277 --> 01:11:22,563
I will stay...
1156
01:11:22,653 --> 01:11:23,933
MR. DUDLEY: (CRYING) We're here.
1157
01:11:25,281 --> 01:11:28,149
We're here, Clara.
1158
01:11:29,744 --> 01:11:30,744
We made it. (SOBS)
1159
01:11:30,828 --> 01:11:33,115
(SONG PLAYING)
If I go, I'm going on fire
1160
01:11:34,791 --> 01:11:37,499
Let my anger take me there
1161
01:11:37,585 --> 01:11:40,123
STEVE: But so, it seems, is love.
1162
01:11:40,713 --> 01:11:42,124
(GASPS)
1163
01:11:44,467 --> 01:11:50,555
(SONG PLAYING) And the shingles, man
They're shaking
1164
01:11:52,767 --> 01:11:57,432
The back door's burning through
1165
01:11:57,522 --> 01:12:00,185
STEVE: Love is
the relinquishment of logic...
1166
01:12:00,316 --> 01:12:02,854
(SONG PLAYING) This old house
She's quite the keeper
1167
01:12:02,944 --> 01:12:05,812
STEVE: The willing
relinquishing of reasonable patterns.
1168
01:12:05,947 --> 01:12:08,610
(SONG PLAYING)
Quite the keeper of you
1169
01:12:08,783 --> 01:12:11,150
STEVE: We yield to it or we fight it.
1170
01:12:12,245 --> 01:12:13,861
But we cannot meet it halfway.
1171
01:12:17,416 --> 01:12:21,376
Without it, we cannot
continue for long to exist sanely
1172
01:12:21,504 --> 01:12:24,247
under conditions of absolute reality.
1173
01:12:26,551 --> 01:12:29,043
Hill House, not sane,
1174
01:12:29,637 --> 01:12:32,425
stands against its hills,
holding darkness within.
1175
01:12:34,475 --> 01:12:38,310
It has stood so for a hundred years
and might stand a hundred more.
1176
01:12:38,729 --> 01:12:44,316
(SONG PLAYING)
I will go if you ask me to
1177
01:12:44,402 --> 01:12:45,483
STEVE: Within...
1178
01:12:46,112 --> 01:12:47,819
Walls continue upright...
1179
01:12:49,031 --> 01:12:50,317
Bricks meet neatly...
1180
01:12:51,409 --> 01:12:52,616
Floors are firm...
1181
01:12:54,620 --> 01:12:56,361
And doors are sensibly shut.
1182
01:13:00,001 --> 01:13:01,537
Silence lay steadily
1183
01:13:01,627 --> 01:13:04,665
against the wood
and stone of Hill House.
1184
01:13:05,756 --> 01:13:10,046
(SONG PLAYING)
If I go, I'm going crazy
1185
01:13:10,136 --> 01:13:11,968
STEVE: And those who walk there...
1186
01:13:14,265 --> 01:13:15,506
Walk together.
1187
01:13:25,276 --> 01:13:26,716
(PEACEFUL
INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING)