1 00:00:01,335 --> 00:00:02,403 It's just a migraine. 2 00:00:02,536 --> 00:00:04,438 Honey, until we're completely sure... 3 00:00:05,973 --> 00:00:07,375 Is the pain a tight band or pulsating? 4 00:00:07,508 --> 00:00:09,343 Good question. 5 00:00:09,477 --> 00:00:12,012 Pulsating, light bothers me, nausea. 6 00:00:12,146 --> 00:00:13,914 I get these all the time. 7 00:00:14,048 --> 00:00:15,216 You said you didn't feel a, uh... 8 00:00:15,349 --> 00:00:16,117 What'd you call it? A... 9 00:00:16,250 --> 00:00:17,618 An aura. I know, but... 10 00:00:17,751 --> 00:00:20,554 Exactly how often do you get these symptoms? 11 00:00:20,688 --> 00:00:23,457 I just ask, since your boyfriend doesn't seem to recognize them. 12 00:00:25,459 --> 00:00:26,460 (CHUCKLES LIGHTLY) 13 00:00:27,728 --> 00:00:29,397 (BOTH CHUCKLE) 14 00:00:29,530 --> 00:00:32,166 Zane and I have only known each other for eight days. 15 00:00:32,300 --> 00:00:33,467 It moved fast. 16 00:00:39,307 --> 00:00:41,175 Ellie, did you feel your foot twitch? 17 00:00:41,942 --> 00:00:42,910 No. 18 00:00:52,620 --> 00:00:53,487 Positive Babinski. 19 00:00:54,355 --> 00:00:55,256 What does that mean? 20 00:00:55,389 --> 00:00:56,490 It's not a migraine. 21 00:00:59,593 --> 00:01:01,495 (THEME MUSIC PLAYING) 22 00:01:24,185 --> 00:01:25,819 DR. REZNICK: Oh, that. 23 00:01:25,953 --> 00:01:28,289 I was performing due diligence on my new roommate, 24 00:01:28,422 --> 00:01:29,657 who might be a violent maniac, 25 00:01:29,790 --> 00:01:31,592 and look what I found in his closet. 26 00:01:31,725 --> 00:01:33,361 It's cute. 27 00:01:33,494 --> 00:01:34,528 You moved in with two suitcases. 28 00:01:34,662 --> 00:01:36,063 You only have four pairs of underwear. 29 00:01:36,197 --> 00:01:37,398 How the hell did a parrot make the cut? 30 00:01:38,199 --> 00:01:39,300 I'm a Parrothead. 31 00:01:39,433 --> 00:01:41,269 A Jimmy Buffett enthusiast. 32 00:01:41,402 --> 00:01:42,603 The Margaritaville guy? 33 00:01:42,736 --> 00:01:44,372 Well, he has other, far better songs, 34 00:01:44,505 --> 00:01:45,706 but yes, the Margaritaville guy. 35 00:01:45,839 --> 00:01:47,074 It brings me luck. 36 00:01:47,208 --> 00:01:48,942 Scary to think what your life would be like without it. 37 00:01:49,843 --> 00:01:50,578 Can I have it back? 38 00:01:52,846 --> 00:01:54,648 It's fun getting to know you better. 39 00:01:54,782 --> 00:01:56,417 Worth every damn bit of sacrifice. 40 00:02:04,158 --> 00:02:06,093 (GROANS, WINCES) 41 00:02:06,227 --> 00:02:09,062 I was demonstrating a torch lift this morning, and, bang. 42 00:02:09,997 --> 00:02:11,365 "Ballet master." 43 00:02:11,499 --> 00:02:12,900 You're a dancer? 44 00:02:13,033 --> 00:02:15,936 God, no. I'm like the CEO. 45 00:02:16,069 --> 00:02:18,105 At my age, I'd be the Betty White of the troupe. 46 00:02:18,239 --> 00:02:18,972 Is she a dancer? 47 00:02:21,008 --> 00:02:23,143 I don't know much about, uh, culture. 48 00:02:23,277 --> 00:02:24,011 (CHUCKLES LIGHTLY) 49 00:02:25,279 --> 00:02:27,815 I assume I just sprained something, right? 50 00:02:27,948 --> 00:02:30,318 Uh, we will need neuro and abdominal exams, 51 00:02:30,451 --> 00:02:31,519 X-rays for fractures, 52 00:02:31,652 --> 00:02:32,953 CBC for infection, 53 00:02:33,086 --> 00:02:34,888 cultures to rule out a spinal abscess... 54 00:02:35,022 --> 00:02:37,491 You're new, aren't you? 55 00:02:39,827 --> 00:02:41,595 Uh, it's my second week here. 56 00:02:44,365 --> 00:02:47,100 It's actually only my first day seeing patients. 57 00:02:47,235 --> 00:02:48,236 Am I your first? 58 00:02:48,869 --> 00:02:49,803 Yes. 59 00:02:49,937 --> 00:02:52,005 Sorry. But, yes. 60 00:02:52,606 --> 00:02:53,607 Well... 61 00:02:55,243 --> 00:02:55,976 That's impressive. 62 00:02:57,511 --> 00:02:59,213 Whoever's supervising you must really trust you. 63 00:03:03,784 --> 00:03:04,685 I'm not sure that's true. 64 00:03:08,088 --> 00:03:09,523 They won't let me join their stupid gym 65 00:03:09,657 --> 00:03:11,859 because I had high blood pressure. 66 00:03:11,992 --> 00:03:13,427 How am I supposed to lower it if I can't work out? 67 00:03:13,561 --> 00:03:15,128 200 over 105. 68 00:03:15,263 --> 00:03:16,464 That is quite high. 69 00:03:16,597 --> 00:03:17,931 I just told you it was high. 70 00:03:20,301 --> 00:03:21,702 Are you a smoker? 71 00:03:21,835 --> 00:03:23,971 Yeah. Pack or two a day. 72 00:03:24,104 --> 00:03:25,005 More if I feel crappy. 73 00:03:25,138 --> 00:03:26,640 And... 74 00:03:28,509 --> 00:03:29,777 Do you have diabetes? 75 00:03:29,910 --> 00:03:32,145 You're reading those questions out of a book? 76 00:03:32,280 --> 00:03:34,014 Yes. Have you ever done this before? 77 00:03:39,152 --> 00:03:40,321 I told you. You have to trust them. 78 00:03:40,454 --> 00:03:41,589 I don't. 79 00:03:41,722 --> 00:03:43,557 Then act like you do. 80 00:03:46,159 --> 00:03:47,160 Go away. 81 00:03:54,268 --> 00:03:57,505 JORDAN: Nothing more romantic than spending one of your first dates in an ER. 82 00:03:57,638 --> 00:04:00,441 Well, stressful experiences release oxytocin. 83 00:04:00,574 --> 00:04:02,643 Same hormone that creates emotional bonds. 84 00:04:02,776 --> 00:04:04,345 This might actually cement their relationship. 85 00:04:06,347 --> 00:04:07,281 (COMPUTER BEEPS) 86 00:04:07,415 --> 00:04:08,549 Next to the hippocampus. 87 00:04:09,383 --> 00:04:10,951 Is that a tooth? 88 00:04:11,919 --> 00:04:13,554 Dermoid cyst. Cool. 89 00:04:14,555 --> 00:04:16,657 She's having a seizure. 90 00:04:16,790 --> 00:04:18,592 Secure her airway. Push two milligrams Ativan. 91 00:04:23,196 --> 00:04:23,931 (ELEVATOR BELL DINGS) 92 00:04:26,133 --> 00:04:27,100 Thank you for trusting us enough... 93 00:04:27,234 --> 00:04:28,836 Please report. 94 00:04:28,969 --> 00:04:31,705 Uh, 58-year-old male dancer with back pain. 95 00:04:31,839 --> 00:04:34,074 I ruled out red flags like osteomyelitis 96 00:04:34,207 --> 00:04:36,243 and kidney infection, but I did find evidence 97 00:04:36,377 --> 00:04:39,046 of a mild L2 compression fracture with moderate wedging 98 00:04:39,179 --> 00:04:40,714 and evidence of impingement on the neural canal. 99 00:04:40,848 --> 00:04:43,116 You want to start beta blockers? 100 00:04:43,250 --> 00:04:45,419 Me? Yeah. I think my patient's a stroke risk. 101 00:04:45,553 --> 00:04:46,754 BP's 200 over 105. 102 00:04:48,489 --> 00:04:50,424 It was the same at her gym earlier? 103 00:04:59,533 --> 00:05:00,601 Can you raise your arms? 104 00:05:02,370 --> 00:05:04,905 Okay. Now try to squeeze my hands. 105 00:05:05,038 --> 00:05:06,440 I just did all these tests with her. 106 00:05:06,574 --> 00:05:08,308 I thought you were gonna give me stuff to lower my blood pressure. 107 00:05:08,442 --> 00:05:09,810 That would kill you. 108 00:05:09,943 --> 00:05:11,545 Now push against my hands. 109 00:05:12,746 --> 00:05:13,881 If she's in danger of having a stroke... 110 00:05:14,014 --> 00:05:15,383 She's not. She's already having one. 111 00:05:15,516 --> 00:05:17,451 Smoking on estrogen put her at high risk. 112 00:05:17,585 --> 00:05:19,753 Loss of circadian blood pressure variation confirms it. 113 00:05:21,589 --> 00:05:22,322 Stick out your tongue. 114 00:05:25,426 --> 00:05:26,360 We gotta get a CTA. 115 00:05:26,494 --> 00:05:28,962 No. We're treating with IV tPA. 116 00:05:29,096 --> 00:05:31,231 Don't we need to locate the clot? We just did. 117 00:05:31,365 --> 00:05:33,801 Right deviation means a right vertebral artery occlusion. 118 00:05:36,670 --> 00:05:38,472 Oh. You can close your mouth now. 119 00:05:44,612 --> 00:05:48,315 CLAIRE: Her seizure and coma were caused by a dermoid cyst. 120 00:05:48,449 --> 00:05:51,485 It's a pocket of tissue with bits of teeth, hair, and fat. 121 00:05:51,619 --> 00:05:53,387 She likely got it before she was born. 122 00:05:53,521 --> 00:05:55,322 What can you do? 123 00:05:55,456 --> 00:05:57,391 The less invasive option is to put in a drain 124 00:05:57,525 --> 00:05:58,759 to release some pressure, 125 00:05:58,892 --> 00:06:00,894 treat with anti-seizure meds and steroids, 126 00:06:01,028 --> 00:06:03,597 then basically watch to see if the swelling goes down. 127 00:06:03,731 --> 00:06:05,399 And the more invasive? 128 00:06:05,533 --> 00:06:06,299 Surgical removal. 129 00:06:07,868 --> 00:06:08,969 But the cyst is deep inside 130 00:06:09,102 --> 00:06:11,338 and wrapped around major arteries, 131 00:06:11,472 --> 00:06:14,842 so it is more likely to fix the problem, 132 00:06:14,975 --> 00:06:18,311 but it carries risk of stroke or paralysis. 133 00:06:19,713 --> 00:06:20,714 (SIGHS) 134 00:06:21,749 --> 00:06:23,751 We need a decision quickly. 135 00:06:23,884 --> 00:06:25,185 Ellie's sister is on the paperwork, 136 00:06:25,318 --> 00:06:27,254 but we haven't been able to reach her. 137 00:06:27,387 --> 00:06:29,823 Do you know where the parents live or any other siblings? 138 00:06:36,997 --> 00:06:38,832 He might still be on a business trip, but, uh... 139 00:06:40,901 --> 00:06:41,902 (SIGHS) 140 00:06:42,035 --> 00:06:42,836 you can try her husband. 141 00:06:52,813 --> 00:06:55,215 If we can't reduce the swelling, 142 00:06:55,348 --> 00:06:56,850 she will have permanent brain damage. 143 00:07:04,992 --> 00:07:05,859 Is that him? 144 00:07:09,963 --> 00:07:13,233 Brendan, we need you to make a decision. 145 00:07:14,001 --> 00:07:15,335 Yeah, yeah. 146 00:07:15,469 --> 00:07:17,437 I'm... I'm not sure that I'm the right one to... 147 00:07:20,874 --> 00:07:21,875 I mean, right now, 148 00:07:24,512 --> 00:07:25,513 I hate her. 149 00:07:28,982 --> 00:07:29,883 You don't. 150 00:07:30,951 --> 00:07:31,885 You're angry. 151 00:07:32,520 --> 00:07:33,521 You're hurt. 152 00:07:34,755 --> 00:07:35,756 Because you love her. 153 00:07:46,299 --> 00:07:47,300 (INAUDIBLE) 154 00:07:47,434 --> 00:07:49,570 58-year-old male dancer with back pain. 155 00:07:52,205 --> 00:07:55,442 Moderate vertebral wedging and impingement on the neural canal. 156 00:07:55,576 --> 00:07:57,578 Yes. I think an L2 compression fracture. 157 00:08:00,347 --> 00:08:03,483 Prescribe anti-inflammatories, a brace, and PT, 158 00:08:03,617 --> 00:08:04,618 then discharge him. 159 00:08:08,055 --> 00:08:08,922 Do you wanna re-check anything? 160 00:08:15,128 --> 00:08:15,929 No. 161 00:08:24,738 --> 00:08:26,907 (MONITOR BEEPING) 162 00:08:27,040 --> 00:08:29,943 Remember to floss your brain after every meal, people. 163 00:08:32,445 --> 00:08:33,180 CLAIRE: Aspirating. 164 00:08:34,782 --> 00:08:35,783 Do you think we should be doing this? 165 00:08:37,484 --> 00:08:39,052 I know we have to legally, 166 00:08:39,186 --> 00:08:41,121 but maybe her husband isn't the one who knows her best, 167 00:08:41,822 --> 00:08:43,256 knows what she wants. 168 00:08:43,390 --> 00:08:44,825 Better than the guy who met her last weekend. 169 00:08:44,958 --> 00:08:46,159 Arachnoid knife. 170 00:08:46,293 --> 00:08:49,663 Mmm, that guy, she's in love with him. Apparently. 171 00:08:49,797 --> 00:08:51,031 Well, maybe she loves them both. 172 00:08:51,164 --> 00:08:52,700 Aren't you a romantic! 173 00:08:52,833 --> 00:08:53,567 Watch for perforators. 174 00:08:55,135 --> 00:08:56,269 I've been polyamorous for years. 175 00:09:02,342 --> 00:09:05,512 When I was monogamous, I was jealous, possessive, egotistical. 176 00:09:05,646 --> 00:09:07,715 Our patient wasn't honest. That's not cool. 177 00:09:07,848 --> 00:09:08,548 But other than that... 178 00:09:08,682 --> 00:09:09,683 (INHALES DEEPLY) 179 00:09:11,484 --> 00:09:13,821 Good margins all around. 180 00:09:13,954 --> 00:09:15,989 Let's dry up the field and close her up. 181 00:09:19,526 --> 00:09:21,228 I never would've guessed I was your first patient. 182 00:09:22,630 --> 00:09:23,864 Felt more like the fourth. 183 00:09:26,233 --> 00:09:28,368 By the way, did I detect an accent? 184 00:09:28,501 --> 00:09:30,370 No. 185 00:09:30,503 --> 00:09:34,007 I mean, I had one, but I worked really hard to lose it. 186 00:09:34,141 --> 00:09:36,009 No one ever notices it anymore. 187 00:09:37,110 --> 00:09:38,011 Eastern Europe? 188 00:09:39,546 --> 00:09:40,280 Brooklyn. 189 00:09:41,514 --> 00:09:42,549 Williamsburg. 190 00:09:42,683 --> 00:09:45,018 I grew up Hasidic, speaking Yiddish. 191 00:09:45,152 --> 00:09:46,887 I left it a long time ago. 192 00:09:47,020 --> 00:09:49,089 You left the... the religion? 193 00:09:49,222 --> 00:09:51,024 The religion, the culture, 194 00:09:51,625 --> 00:09:52,660 my family. 195 00:09:55,763 --> 00:09:57,397 Must not have been easy, growing up that way, 196 00:09:58,331 --> 00:09:59,066 knowing you were 197 00:10:00,533 --> 00:10:01,268 a doctor. 198 00:10:03,570 --> 00:10:04,304 Excuse me? 199 00:10:05,372 --> 00:10:07,841 My generation, you could get bashed. 200 00:10:07,975 --> 00:10:09,042 You could get thrown in jail. 201 00:10:10,110 --> 00:10:11,444 We had to learn codes, 202 00:10:11,578 --> 00:10:13,446 how to read each other. 203 00:10:13,580 --> 00:10:14,848 You should thank your lucky stars 204 00:10:14,982 --> 00:10:16,516 you get to live your life the way you want it. 205 00:10:20,587 --> 00:10:22,422 I don't know what you went through. 206 00:10:22,555 --> 00:10:25,058 Please don't pretend to know what I went through. 207 00:10:29,897 --> 00:10:30,864 Sir? 208 00:10:30,998 --> 00:10:31,965 My gut... 209 00:10:32,565 --> 00:10:33,566 (GROANS) 210 00:10:39,406 --> 00:10:40,140 Code blue! 211 00:10:43,043 --> 00:10:44,712 The surgery seemed successful, 212 00:10:44,845 --> 00:10:47,547 but we need to monitor for seizures over the next 24 hours. 213 00:10:49,216 --> 00:10:50,183 ENRIQUE: Is this high enough? 214 00:10:50,317 --> 00:10:51,852 Um, a little to the left. 215 00:10:51,985 --> 00:10:53,887 No. To the right. Yeah. 216 00:11:00,728 --> 00:11:02,095 You never said anything was wrong. 217 00:11:05,232 --> 00:11:07,835 Can we have the room for a moment? 218 00:11:07,968 --> 00:11:09,502 I'm sorry, but we really need to check... 219 00:11:09,636 --> 00:11:11,104 You're worried about talking in front of them? 220 00:11:11,805 --> 00:11:12,806 Embarrassing me? 221 00:11:18,578 --> 00:11:20,147 I didn't think anything was wrong. 222 00:11:21,581 --> 00:11:22,716 (SIGHS) 223 00:11:22,850 --> 00:11:23,817 When I met Zane, 224 00:11:26,286 --> 00:11:27,955 it made me realize something was missing. 225 00:11:31,959 --> 00:11:34,261 Or, at least, I think that's what I'm feeling. 226 00:11:34,394 --> 00:11:35,328 ENRIQUE: You mind tilting your chin up? 227 00:11:35,462 --> 00:11:36,196 ELLIE: I'm sorry. 228 00:11:39,232 --> 00:11:40,333 Why couldn't you just talk to me? 229 00:11:43,003 --> 00:11:44,537 Or... Or leave me? 230 00:11:46,639 --> 00:11:47,607 I don't know. 231 00:11:55,648 --> 00:11:56,383 Were you happy? 232 00:11:58,351 --> 00:11:59,152 With him? 233 00:12:06,860 --> 00:12:07,861 (SCOFFS) 234 00:12:09,863 --> 00:12:11,031 I guess I should go. 235 00:12:14,467 --> 00:12:15,202 Brendan? 236 00:12:19,106 --> 00:12:20,073 Who are these people? 237 00:12:23,143 --> 00:12:24,177 Ellie, do you know where you are? 238 00:12:25,045 --> 00:12:25,913 Why am I in the hospital? 239 00:12:26,046 --> 00:12:27,047 (BREATHING SHAKILY) 240 00:12:36,456 --> 00:12:38,892 SHAUN: Suprarenal aortic aneurysm. 241 00:12:39,026 --> 00:12:41,194 It ruptured as he was being discharged. 242 00:12:41,328 --> 00:12:42,529 Clamping aorta now. 243 00:12:42,662 --> 00:12:43,596 How much blood is he down? 244 00:12:43,730 --> 00:12:45,232 We suctioned out two liters 245 00:12:45,365 --> 00:12:47,801 and gave six units on the rapid infuser. 246 00:12:47,935 --> 00:12:49,937 SHAUN: The aneurysm caused his back pain. 247 00:12:50,070 --> 00:12:51,204 Dr. Wolke missed it. 248 00:12:53,440 --> 00:12:54,741 I did an abdominal exam. 249 00:12:54,875 --> 00:12:56,743 Aneurysms are very hard to catch. 250 00:12:56,877 --> 00:12:58,411 Experienced doctors miss them all the time. 251 00:12:58,545 --> 00:12:59,546 Potts scissors. 252 00:12:59,679 --> 00:13:02,883 The aneurysm is 6.5 centimeters. 253 00:13:04,084 --> 00:13:05,452 Dr. Wolke should have felt it. 254 00:13:08,889 --> 00:13:11,724 It felt like normal musculature. 255 00:13:11,859 --> 00:13:13,060 I'm so sorry. 256 00:13:13,193 --> 00:13:14,761 We'll never know what you felt. 257 00:13:14,895 --> 00:13:17,430 There's no way to know if you, or any doctor, for that matter, 258 00:13:17,564 --> 00:13:18,498 would have detected this. 259 00:13:19,867 --> 00:13:21,734 I would have. 260 00:13:21,869 --> 00:13:24,271 He asked me if I wanted to double-check. 261 00:13:24,404 --> 00:13:26,506 If I had, I would've caught the aneurysm before the rupture. 262 00:13:26,639 --> 00:13:27,640 Stop it. 263 00:13:31,511 --> 00:13:32,812 He made a mistake. 264 00:13:32,946 --> 00:13:34,581 He might have. 265 00:13:34,714 --> 00:13:35,883 But you did, too. 266 00:13:36,016 --> 00:13:38,451 No. You told me to back off. 267 00:13:38,585 --> 00:13:40,253 I didn't tell you to abdicate responsibility. 268 00:13:46,093 --> 00:13:49,129 When a First Year asks if you want to re-check their work, 269 00:13:49,262 --> 00:13:51,264 your answer should always be "yes." 270 00:13:54,134 --> 00:13:56,136 The fact they're asking is a warning sign. 271 00:14:00,040 --> 00:14:01,174 I didn't know that. 272 00:14:10,583 --> 00:14:12,019 It's called retrograde memory loss. 273 00:14:12,152 --> 00:14:13,653 Luckily, it seems to have been temporary. 274 00:14:13,786 --> 00:14:14,521 She's lucid again. 275 00:14:16,323 --> 00:14:18,892 We're running an MRI and lab tests 276 00:14:19,026 --> 00:14:20,627 to see what caused it. 277 00:14:20,760 --> 00:14:23,130 Thank you for, uh, telling me. I know I'm just the... 278 00:14:24,764 --> 00:14:25,498 You care. 279 00:14:28,969 --> 00:14:32,439 Maybe things with Ellie and I weren't always perfect, but... 280 00:14:32,572 --> 00:14:33,306 It was exciting. 281 00:14:35,542 --> 00:14:36,309 When I was with her... 282 00:14:38,411 --> 00:14:40,113 Never felt that way before. 283 00:14:40,247 --> 00:14:41,949 I took care of her when she was sick. 284 00:14:43,016 --> 00:14:44,017 I never strayed. 285 00:14:44,151 --> 00:14:45,518 It wasn't about the things we did. 286 00:14:45,652 --> 00:14:46,686 It was... It was about 287 00:14:48,588 --> 00:14:49,356 being with her. 288 00:14:52,559 --> 00:14:54,327 She stuck by me when I needed her. 289 00:14:56,196 --> 00:14:58,331 Last year, I was... I was drinking way too much. 290 00:15:03,870 --> 00:15:05,338 It's hard to imagine being without her. 291 00:15:06,539 --> 00:15:07,840 I just can't imagine being without her. 292 00:15:16,683 --> 00:15:17,951 She's stable. 293 00:15:18,085 --> 00:15:20,687 Q-hour neuro exams and monitor for signs of elevated ICP. 294 00:15:20,820 --> 00:15:21,955 ("MARGARITAVILLE" RINGTONE PLAYING) 295 00:15:22,089 --> 00:15:26,559 ** Wastin' away again in Margaritaville 296 00:15:26,693 --> 00:15:29,096 I believe you're getting a call, Dr. Park. 297 00:15:29,229 --> 00:15:32,932 ** Searchin' for my lost shaker of salt ** 298 00:15:33,066 --> 00:15:35,368 (DECLINES CALL) You're a Parrothead. Wear it proud. 299 00:15:37,737 --> 00:15:39,472 Can we just agree to have some limits? 300 00:15:39,606 --> 00:15:41,441 Maybe not everything I own is fair game. 301 00:15:41,574 --> 00:15:42,375 Mmm, no. 302 00:15:43,843 --> 00:15:45,245 Perfect. 303 00:15:45,378 --> 00:15:46,813 Trust me, it'll be worth every damn bit of sacrifice. 304 00:15:50,650 --> 00:15:52,319 I've said that twice now. 305 00:15:52,452 --> 00:15:53,320 You've said a lot of things twice. 306 00:15:53,453 --> 00:15:54,454 You have limited creativity. 307 00:15:54,587 --> 00:15:55,722 Truth is, it wasn't creative at all. 308 00:15:55,855 --> 00:15:57,590 It's from Jimmy Buffett's Cheeseburger In Paradise, 309 00:15:57,724 --> 00:15:59,892 one of his Big 8. So big, even I know it. 310 00:16:00,027 --> 00:16:01,594 You, sir, are no Parrothead. 311 00:16:05,532 --> 00:16:06,833 Mia does woodwork as a side hustle. 312 00:16:06,966 --> 00:16:08,301 She made it for me on our first trip to Hawaii. 313 00:16:08,435 --> 00:16:09,502 Lovely. 314 00:16:09,636 --> 00:16:10,737 Wait, no, that's not right. 315 00:16:10,870 --> 00:16:12,172 "Pathetic"? 316 00:16:12,305 --> 00:16:14,607 And do you toss away all mementos of past friends and jobs? 317 00:16:14,741 --> 00:16:16,176 If a job cheated on me, I might wanna move on. 318 00:16:17,877 --> 00:16:19,212 When's the last time you dated someone? 319 00:16:19,346 --> 00:16:20,913 When's the last time you acted like a human being? 320 00:16:21,048 --> 00:16:22,782 So, years? 321 00:16:22,915 --> 00:16:25,285 Yeah, I definitely found the right word. 322 00:16:25,418 --> 00:16:26,419 See you at home. 323 00:16:34,894 --> 00:16:35,828 You can't sleep? 324 00:16:37,264 --> 00:16:39,666 You want some warm milk? 325 00:16:39,799 --> 00:16:41,934 My mother has, like, 18 prescriptions for this. 326 00:16:42,069 --> 00:16:44,137 Some of them are actual prescriptions. 327 00:16:44,904 --> 00:16:46,005 I can sleep 328 00:16:46,139 --> 00:16:48,275 but need to figure out how to supervise better. 329 00:16:49,609 --> 00:16:51,811 How many of these are you planning to read tonight? 330 00:16:51,944 --> 00:16:54,181 Just the relevant sections of each. 331 00:16:54,314 --> 00:16:57,550 Tech bros are always watching TED Talks on leadership. 332 00:16:57,684 --> 00:16:58,718 That could be quicker than those books. 333 00:17:03,590 --> 00:17:06,526 How about tomorrow, we have a date night? 334 00:17:06,659 --> 00:17:09,762 Why would we need a date night 335 00:17:09,896 --> 00:17:12,031 if we're in a relationship and living together? 336 00:17:12,165 --> 00:17:14,167 Because it'll be fun. 337 00:17:14,301 --> 00:17:15,868 I'll schedule date night for tomorrow. 338 00:17:16,002 --> 00:17:17,970 Great. Think of something for us to do. 339 00:17:21,974 --> 00:17:24,377 There is one thing that helps most people sleep 340 00:17:24,511 --> 00:17:26,746 that my mother did not tell me about. 341 00:17:28,815 --> 00:17:29,549 (TYPING) 342 00:17:32,119 --> 00:17:34,020 What makes a great manager? 343 00:17:34,154 --> 00:17:36,656 Some say it's all about planning. 344 00:17:36,789 --> 00:17:39,226 Others, charismatic leadership. 345 00:17:39,359 --> 00:17:40,360 A third group... 346 00:17:42,562 --> 00:17:45,232 Your temporary memory loss was caused by some fat 347 00:17:45,365 --> 00:17:46,999 that leaked from your cyst. 348 00:17:47,134 --> 00:17:49,001 We can remove it via a craniotomy, 349 00:17:49,136 --> 00:17:52,172 but there is a real risk of more memory loss. 350 00:17:52,305 --> 00:17:53,506 Maybe permanently. 351 00:17:55,208 --> 00:17:56,709 What will I lose? 352 00:17:56,843 --> 00:17:58,445 The time prior to the surgery. 353 00:17:58,578 --> 00:18:00,747 Days, weeks, possibly months. 354 00:18:01,648 --> 00:18:03,015 But if we don't operate soon, 355 00:18:03,150 --> 00:18:04,517 the risk of brain damage only grows. 356 00:18:05,518 --> 00:18:06,519 (BREATHING SHAKILY) 357 00:18:07,154 --> 00:18:08,155 I can't do it. 358 00:18:14,227 --> 00:18:16,763 I don't even know what I want right now, 359 00:18:16,896 --> 00:18:20,200 but I do know that I don't want the decision about my marriage 360 00:18:20,333 --> 00:18:21,601 forced on me by an operation. 361 00:18:26,139 --> 00:18:27,106 Please, 362 00:18:27,974 --> 00:18:29,209 find another answer. 363 00:18:39,819 --> 00:18:41,454 You are not very good at your jobs, 364 00:18:41,588 --> 00:18:42,889 and I'm not very good at teaching you, 365 00:18:43,022 --> 00:18:45,592 so we are going to focus on one step at a time. 366 00:18:45,725 --> 00:18:47,627 You will master each skill separately. 367 00:18:47,760 --> 00:18:49,729 I've made a list of 400 skills. 368 00:18:49,862 --> 00:18:51,764 I didn't have the time to finish it last night because... 369 00:18:53,433 --> 00:18:56,236 Dr. Wolke, you will be focusing on physical exams. 370 00:18:56,369 --> 00:18:58,871 You'll find a list of the seven post-op tests to be conducted on Carl. 371 00:18:59,005 --> 00:19:00,940 Dr. Jackson, you will find relevant seminars 372 00:19:01,073 --> 00:19:02,742 on conquering nerves in the workplace. 373 00:19:02,875 --> 00:19:04,577 What are good activities for a date? 374 00:19:05,077 --> 00:19:06,346 Uh... 375 00:19:06,479 --> 00:19:07,814 What does she like? 376 00:19:07,947 --> 00:19:10,149 Cars, coding, Zelda: Breath of the Wild, 377 00:19:10,283 --> 00:19:12,885 Sauvignon Blanc, Skittles, RuPaul's Drag Race, 378 00:19:13,019 --> 00:19:14,321 camping... 379 00:19:14,454 --> 00:19:16,189 I had a very romantic time camping in Big Sur. 380 00:19:16,323 --> 00:19:17,590 This is for tonight. 381 00:19:20,460 --> 00:19:21,494 I haven't gone on many dates. 382 00:19:25,365 --> 00:19:27,099 But everyone loves movies. Hmm. 383 00:19:40,613 --> 00:19:42,249 Healing nicely. 384 00:19:42,382 --> 00:19:43,850 No redness or swelling. 385 00:19:45,051 --> 00:19:46,619 I'm gonna palpate around it now. 386 00:19:48,120 --> 00:19:48,855 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 387 00:19:51,524 --> 00:19:53,760 Look, I need to apologize. 388 00:19:53,893 --> 00:19:55,928 For bringing up your personal life the other day. 389 00:19:59,332 --> 00:20:01,000 No. 390 00:20:01,133 --> 00:20:02,702 You have nothing to apologize to me for. 391 00:20:05,972 --> 00:20:09,809 So, what's next on your list? 392 00:20:09,942 --> 00:20:12,645 Checking for signs of infection inside your abdomen. 393 00:20:15,748 --> 00:20:16,649 Open your eyes wider. 394 00:20:22,555 --> 00:20:23,823 You have signs of jaundice. 395 00:20:26,092 --> 00:20:27,460 I think your liver's failing. 396 00:20:28,261 --> 00:20:29,228 (SIGHS) 397 00:20:34,501 --> 00:20:36,569 SHAUN: The liver is being damaged by a new aneurysm. 398 00:20:36,703 --> 00:20:39,372 How? A genetic predisposition or... 399 00:20:39,506 --> 00:20:41,207 More likely, when we fixed the first one, 400 00:20:41,341 --> 00:20:42,675 we increased the pressure upstream. 401 00:20:43,810 --> 00:20:45,345 Can we stent the celiac? 402 00:20:45,478 --> 00:20:46,679 Anatomy's too tricky. 403 00:20:48,214 --> 00:20:49,582 Aortic to celiac bypass? 404 00:20:49,716 --> 00:20:52,452 We'd just risk a new aneurysm forming upstream. 405 00:20:52,585 --> 00:20:54,587 Maybe, but it solves the problem in front of us. 406 00:20:54,721 --> 00:20:56,423 He'll die without an intervention. 407 00:20:56,556 --> 00:20:58,190 He'll probably die either way. 408 00:21:03,229 --> 00:21:06,433 Let's all take the time to research alternate solutions. 409 00:21:06,566 --> 00:21:09,602 If we can't come up with something better in 24 hours, 410 00:21:09,736 --> 00:21:10,870 we proceed with the bypass. 411 00:21:28,555 --> 00:21:30,923 She's saying no for emotional reasons. 412 00:21:32,925 --> 00:21:35,061 So the answer isn't medical. 413 00:21:35,194 --> 00:21:35,928 It's emotional. 414 00:21:40,367 --> 00:21:43,202 We think Zane should talk to Ellie. 415 00:21:43,336 --> 00:21:44,704 No. 416 00:21:44,837 --> 00:21:46,573 I don't want him anywhere near her. 417 00:21:46,706 --> 00:21:48,741 To convince her to do the craniotomy. 418 00:21:51,277 --> 00:21:52,745 From you, it's self-serving. 419 00:21:53,380 --> 00:21:54,113 From Zane... 420 00:21:56,148 --> 00:21:57,484 Wait. If she doesn't want it... 421 00:21:57,617 --> 00:21:59,786 You said you can't imagine life without her. 422 00:22:02,054 --> 00:22:04,591 If you meant that, you'd risk anything to keep her alive. 423 00:22:05,758 --> 00:22:07,259 Including her memories of you. 424 00:22:20,072 --> 00:22:20,807 (CHUCKLES) 425 00:22:22,008 --> 00:22:24,143 Well done, Shaunie. 426 00:22:24,611 --> 00:22:25,612 (SIGHS) 427 00:22:27,647 --> 00:22:29,649 I really needed this. 428 00:22:29,782 --> 00:22:31,350 The system update yesterday? 429 00:22:31,484 --> 00:22:33,352 Went bananas. 430 00:22:33,486 --> 00:22:34,787 I've been flooded with complaints. 431 00:22:35,555 --> 00:22:36,456 Total nightmare. 432 00:22:38,525 --> 00:22:40,159 How's work? Did the videos help? 433 00:22:40,292 --> 00:22:41,293 Yes. 434 00:22:44,196 --> 00:22:44,964 Tell me more. 435 00:22:46,733 --> 00:22:50,102 One of my patients developed a secondary aneurysm. 436 00:22:50,236 --> 00:22:52,639 Now I need to find a surgical fix by tomorrow. 437 00:22:52,772 --> 00:22:54,240 Otherwise, he will probably die. 438 00:22:54,373 --> 00:22:55,808 I brought Skittles. 439 00:22:58,845 --> 00:23:00,580 Shouldn't you be at the hospital? 440 00:23:00,713 --> 00:23:02,715 Yes. After you go to bed, 441 00:23:02,849 --> 00:23:04,684 I plan to go back and do research. 442 00:23:06,018 --> 00:23:08,821 Shaunie, go to the hospital. 443 00:23:08,955 --> 00:23:10,823 No, we made this schedule. 444 00:23:12,892 --> 00:23:14,026 Someone else needs you. 445 00:23:15,294 --> 00:23:16,563 More than I need you. 446 00:23:16,696 --> 00:23:19,466 It's a hospital. 447 00:23:19,599 --> 00:23:20,900 It's filled with sick people. 448 00:23:21,033 --> 00:23:23,803 But tomorrow, will someone need you 449 00:23:23,936 --> 00:23:25,204 to come up with a way to save their life? 450 00:23:25,337 --> 00:23:27,106 Mmm, maybe. 451 00:23:30,710 --> 00:23:32,845 Probably not tomorrow. 452 00:23:35,381 --> 00:23:36,148 Okay. 453 00:23:38,184 --> 00:23:39,085 Mmm-hmm. 454 00:23:41,721 --> 00:23:42,722 (SIGHS) 455 00:23:43,690 --> 00:23:47,026 I am canceling date night. 456 00:23:47,794 --> 00:23:48,761 That's rude. 457 00:23:48,895 --> 00:23:49,862 Oh, well. 458 00:23:58,370 --> 00:23:59,371 Then 459 00:24:00,540 --> 00:24:01,641 I should 460 00:24:02,875 --> 00:24:03,943 go to the hospital. 461 00:24:04,410 --> 00:24:05,377 Mmm-hmm. 462 00:24:14,754 --> 00:24:15,888 They're prepping Ellie for surgery. 463 00:24:17,123 --> 00:24:18,390 Any last-minute questions? 464 00:24:22,428 --> 00:24:23,362 What should I do? 465 00:24:26,533 --> 00:24:27,500 Forgive her. 466 00:24:29,035 --> 00:24:31,838 Under the right circumstances, every human will stray. 467 00:24:31,971 --> 00:24:33,405 We're not hardwired for monogamy. 468 00:24:34,941 --> 00:24:35,942 I'm guessing you're not married. 469 00:24:37,343 --> 00:24:38,911 I'm not saying that it's wrong to feel angry. 470 00:24:40,212 --> 00:24:41,213 She wasn't honest with you. 471 00:24:44,116 --> 00:24:45,852 The alternative to forgiving her 472 00:24:45,985 --> 00:24:46,919 is losing someone that you love. 473 00:24:51,724 --> 00:24:52,725 Then what? 474 00:24:55,261 --> 00:24:57,830 If she comes back to me just because she forgets him, 475 00:24:58,464 --> 00:24:59,198 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 476 00:25:00,900 --> 00:25:02,001 my marriage wouldn't be honest. 477 00:25:09,876 --> 00:25:10,843 I have an idea. 478 00:25:13,846 --> 00:25:16,315 We could remove more proximal aorta 479 00:25:16,448 --> 00:25:17,784 and extend the graft. 480 00:25:17,917 --> 00:25:20,452 And rebuild the celiac trunk with what? 481 00:25:21,020 --> 00:25:22,021 Dacron? 482 00:25:22,154 --> 00:25:23,322 Branches are too complex. 483 00:25:25,091 --> 00:25:27,193 This Lancet article on polymer materials 484 00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:29,128 doesn't work. 485 00:25:29,261 --> 00:25:31,463 But thin-film nitinol? 486 00:25:41,273 --> 00:25:42,274 (WHISPERING) Did we break him? 487 00:25:47,847 --> 00:25:50,482 We have the material. 488 00:25:53,853 --> 00:25:55,221 It's his veins. 489 00:26:05,331 --> 00:26:06,899 Hey! Oh, I'm sorry. 490 00:26:07,033 --> 00:26:09,001 Did we reestablish personal boundaries? 491 00:26:10,536 --> 00:26:14,006 This morning's presentation's on who's not moving on? 492 00:26:15,107 --> 00:26:16,575 Exhibit A. 493 00:26:16,709 --> 00:26:19,178 Canoodling on a very romantic hillside with... 494 00:26:19,311 --> 00:26:20,913 With my gay best friend. Can you leave? 495 00:26:21,914 --> 00:26:22,915 Exhibit B. 496 00:26:24,216 --> 00:26:27,553 A XXL Rob Gronkowski jersey. 497 00:26:27,687 --> 00:26:29,155 Just the latest fashion style 498 00:26:29,288 --> 00:26:30,723 from a woman who hates the Patriots? 499 00:26:30,857 --> 00:26:31,791 Or an ex-boyfriend's... 500 00:26:31,924 --> 00:26:33,726 Not an ex. I hooked up with Gronk. 501 00:26:33,860 --> 00:26:34,694 Seemed worth preserving. 502 00:26:38,097 --> 00:26:39,265 Rob? Or one of his brothers? 503 00:26:41,500 --> 00:26:42,234 Props. I guess. 504 00:26:42,969 --> 00:26:45,371 Exhibit infinitum. 505 00:26:45,504 --> 00:26:47,406 Two ticket stubs to Quantum of Solace. 506 00:26:47,539 --> 00:26:50,142 Now, you once called Daniel Craig "James Blonde," 507 00:26:50,276 --> 00:26:52,478 and yet, 11 years later, these were in your drawer, 508 00:26:52,611 --> 00:26:56,015 on top of an instruction manual for a 2019 cellphone, 509 00:26:56,148 --> 00:26:58,250 which means you dug them out within the last year. 510 00:26:58,384 --> 00:27:00,352 Why? I can only assume you are currently 511 00:27:00,486 --> 00:27:02,054 once again hooking up with the James Blonde fan. 512 00:27:03,055 --> 00:27:04,456 How could you possible deduce... 513 00:27:04,590 --> 00:27:05,491 I also read your e-mails. 514 00:27:06,959 --> 00:27:08,127 You've been sleeping with an ex 515 00:27:08,260 --> 00:27:09,628 without asking for any commitment. 516 00:27:09,762 --> 00:27:11,698 It's just sex. It's not keeping me from anything. 517 00:27:11,831 --> 00:27:14,066 What's more likely to prevent someone from moving on? 518 00:27:14,200 --> 00:27:16,703 A parrot in a drawer or an ex in your bed? 519 00:27:16,836 --> 00:27:19,471 I'm at least getting something hot from the situation. 520 00:27:19,605 --> 00:27:20,907 You're just wallowing in failure. 521 00:27:24,811 --> 00:27:26,445 So, if your bag's empty, 522 00:27:26,578 --> 00:27:28,114 I'm naked and have to go to the bathroom. 523 00:27:37,089 --> 00:27:38,825 It's called a Y-shaped vein graft. 524 00:27:38,958 --> 00:27:40,827 Your aorta is damaged from the aneurysm 525 00:27:40,960 --> 00:27:42,261 right where it branches off. 526 00:27:42,394 --> 00:27:45,297 We're gonna find a vein in your leg that's similar in size, 527 00:27:45,431 --> 00:27:48,267 cut it out, and use it to replace the damaged artery. 528 00:27:48,400 --> 00:27:49,135 How bad is it? 529 00:27:50,302 --> 00:27:51,503 This is an excellent solution. 530 00:27:51,637 --> 00:27:52,671 If it works. 531 00:27:54,173 --> 00:27:55,875 What are the actual chances that it doesn't, 532 00:27:56,743 --> 00:27:57,744 that I'm gonna die? 533 00:27:59,145 --> 00:27:59,979 I don't want to give a number. 534 00:28:00,112 --> 00:28:01,113 (EXHALES) 535 00:28:02,114 --> 00:28:03,115 I mean, I can't. 536 00:28:04,951 --> 00:28:06,786 I literally can't. There are too many factors. 537 00:28:06,919 --> 00:28:07,854 I can call in Dr. Murphy... 538 00:28:07,987 --> 00:28:09,188 I don't need to hear numbers. 539 00:28:10,022 --> 00:28:11,190 How bad is this? 540 00:28:18,064 --> 00:28:19,031 Bad. 541 00:28:22,034 --> 00:28:23,035 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 542 00:28:25,137 --> 00:28:26,138 Thank you. 543 00:28:31,677 --> 00:28:34,180 Whatever happens, you're gonna be an incredible doctor. 544 00:28:35,982 --> 00:28:38,150 And I am honored to have been your first patient. 545 00:28:46,592 --> 00:28:47,326 I screwed up. 546 00:28:49,361 --> 00:28:51,163 (BREATH TREMBLING) That first exam, 547 00:28:52,832 --> 00:28:53,599 I felt something. 548 00:28:56,803 --> 00:28:58,737 I should have known it was an aneurysm. 549 00:29:00,539 --> 00:29:02,008 We could have saved you before it got bad. 550 00:29:04,844 --> 00:29:05,845 Why... 551 00:29:09,048 --> 00:29:10,449 You were my first patient. 552 00:29:12,584 --> 00:29:13,585 (SIGHS) 553 00:29:18,224 --> 00:29:19,758 I need you to do something for me. 554 00:29:21,861 --> 00:29:23,195 I need you to pray. 555 00:29:25,531 --> 00:29:27,199 You must know a prayer for the sick. 556 00:29:31,037 --> 00:29:32,271 I'm not a believer anymore. 557 00:29:33,139 --> 00:29:34,206 Neither am I. 558 00:29:35,641 --> 00:29:36,608 But... 559 00:29:37,709 --> 00:29:38,710 (SIGHS) 560 00:29:56,128 --> 00:29:57,229 (PRAYING IN YIDDISH) 561 00:30:20,086 --> 00:30:21,087 (MONITOR BEEPING) 562 00:30:31,397 --> 00:30:33,065 Ellie, do you know these men? 563 00:30:34,366 --> 00:30:35,267 Of course. 564 00:30:35,734 --> 00:30:36,668 Brendan. 565 00:30:39,771 --> 00:30:40,506 And... 566 00:30:43,575 --> 00:30:45,311 And are you a friend of Brendan's? 567 00:30:46,112 --> 00:30:47,113 (CHUCKLES SOFTLY) 568 00:30:48,180 --> 00:30:49,281 Something like that. 569 00:31:05,764 --> 00:31:07,366 A lot has happened in the last week. 570 00:31:09,768 --> 00:31:13,305 So before you went under, the doctors made a video. 571 00:31:15,174 --> 00:31:17,910 It's sort of, uh, a message 572 00:31:18,044 --> 00:31:19,345 from your old self to your new one. 573 00:31:20,346 --> 00:31:21,313 (CHUCKLES) 574 00:31:23,249 --> 00:31:24,216 Um... 575 00:31:29,188 --> 00:31:30,322 I just want you to know 576 00:31:31,890 --> 00:31:32,891 that I love you. 577 00:31:52,678 --> 00:31:53,812 ENRIQUE ON PHONE: Tell me about the day you met. 578 00:31:54,546 --> 00:31:56,382 (CHUCKLES) 579 00:31:56,515 --> 00:32:01,120 I was in the middle of an art exhibit in SoMa, 580 00:32:01,253 --> 00:32:04,723 and I noticed this guy, and he was 581 00:32:04,856 --> 00:32:09,261 looking at all the same paintings I had been looking at. 582 00:32:09,395 --> 00:32:11,863 DR. LIM: Need another 6-0 loaded backhand for the arterial stump. 583 00:32:13,132 --> 00:32:13,865 (MONITOR BEEPING STEADILY) 584 00:32:16,202 --> 00:32:17,303 Graft is secure. 585 00:32:17,436 --> 00:32:18,737 Take off the Satinsky clamp. 586 00:32:25,511 --> 00:32:27,913 Good perfusion to his lower body. 587 00:32:28,047 --> 00:32:30,249 (ALARM BEEPING) JORDAN: Heart rate's spiking. 588 00:32:30,382 --> 00:32:33,052 There's no ST elevations. 589 00:32:34,253 --> 00:32:36,122 (MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY) 590 00:32:36,255 --> 00:32:38,224 BP's tanking. Did he thrombose the graft? 591 00:32:41,060 --> 00:32:43,729 Distal anastomosis is pulsatile. 592 00:32:43,862 --> 00:32:47,766 But there is blood pooling in the left lower quadrant. 593 00:32:47,899 --> 00:32:48,634 The right, too. 594 00:32:51,303 --> 00:32:52,404 He's bleeding everywhere but the graft. 595 00:32:54,106 --> 00:32:55,374 ASHER: It's DIC. 596 00:32:55,507 --> 00:32:56,575 Send a stat ROTEM and coag profile... 597 00:32:56,708 --> 00:32:57,443 (ALARM BLARING) 598 00:32:59,178 --> 00:33:01,113 Start compression, give epinephrine, and get the defib. 599 00:33:10,422 --> 00:33:11,790 Set it to 120. 120. 600 00:33:11,923 --> 00:33:12,924 (DEFIBRILLATOR WHIRS) Clear. 601 00:33:13,059 --> 00:33:13,792 (DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS) 602 00:33:14,760 --> 00:33:15,494 Compressions. 603 00:33:16,295 --> 00:33:17,296 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 604 00:33:19,465 --> 00:33:20,432 No response. 605 00:33:23,069 --> 00:33:25,237 Go to monophasic at 360. 606 00:33:25,371 --> 00:33:26,105 (DEFIBRILLATOR WHIRS) Clear. 607 00:33:28,240 --> 00:33:29,241 (DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS) 608 00:33:32,944 --> 00:33:33,945 (EKG FLATLINING) 609 00:33:37,749 --> 00:33:38,484 (FLATLINE CONTINUES) 610 00:33:42,988 --> 00:33:43,855 Why aren't you shocking again? 611 00:33:45,324 --> 00:33:47,359 He's in asystole. 612 00:33:48,860 --> 00:33:49,861 Dr. Lim? 613 00:33:55,201 --> 00:33:55,967 (DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS) 614 00:33:57,103 --> 00:33:58,070 (FLATLINE CONTINUES) 615 00:33:59,371 --> 00:34:00,372 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 616 00:34:03,909 --> 00:34:05,043 Dr. Wolke. 617 00:34:06,078 --> 00:34:07,045 He's dead. 618 00:34:09,581 --> 00:34:10,482 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 619 00:34:18,124 --> 00:34:20,025 DR. LIM: Time of death, 7:23 p.m. 620 00:34:20,159 --> 00:34:21,160 (EKG SWITCHES OFF) 621 00:34:23,162 --> 00:34:23,895 (BREATH TREMBLING) 622 00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:29,501 Take as much time as you need. 623 00:34:30,802 --> 00:34:31,537 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 624 00:35:12,244 --> 00:35:13,111 I was in love with him. 625 00:35:14,045 --> 00:35:15,947 All those moments I had, 626 00:35:16,081 --> 00:35:19,351 meeting at the gallery, the conversations... 627 00:35:22,521 --> 00:35:23,789 I don't remember any of them. 628 00:35:26,358 --> 00:35:27,326 But they were real. 629 00:35:29,695 --> 00:35:30,962 And they brought up feelings. 630 00:35:34,065 --> 00:35:37,636 Ones I don't remember having for a really long time. 631 00:35:47,613 --> 00:35:49,648 But all they made me think of was you, Brendan. 632 00:35:51,750 --> 00:35:53,419 Hearing how I met Zane just reminded me 633 00:35:53,552 --> 00:35:56,622 how you and I met at Chelsey's party, 634 00:35:56,755 --> 00:35:58,424 and you showed up in that ugly bomber jacket. 635 00:35:59,825 --> 00:36:02,127 And Zane taking me to the hospital 636 00:36:02,261 --> 00:36:04,363 reminded me how you nursed me for months 637 00:36:04,496 --> 00:36:05,797 when I broke my femur in Aspen. 638 00:36:07,266 --> 00:36:08,400 And the whole time... 639 00:36:11,803 --> 00:36:13,339 I just couldn't stop thinking about 640 00:36:13,472 --> 00:36:14,406 how much I must have hurt you. 641 00:36:23,949 --> 00:36:24,683 And I... 642 00:36:26,318 --> 00:36:27,619 I don't know 643 00:36:28,620 --> 00:36:29,688 if you can forgive me. 644 00:36:33,959 --> 00:36:35,327 But I love you. 645 00:36:44,770 --> 00:36:46,638 And I... I want to come home. 646 00:36:58,784 --> 00:36:59,651 Well, you're wrong. 647 00:37:05,291 --> 00:37:06,892 That bomber jacket was really cool. 648 00:37:09,495 --> 00:37:10,496 (LAUGHS) 649 00:37:11,463 --> 00:37:12,464 (SNIFFLES) 650 00:37:13,665 --> 00:37:14,666 (CRYING) 651 00:37:53,171 --> 00:37:54,172 He died. 652 00:37:58,544 --> 00:38:01,447 I tried stepping back. 653 00:38:01,580 --> 00:38:04,550 I tried brainstorming. 654 00:38:07,218 --> 00:38:07,953 And he died. 655 00:38:14,092 --> 00:38:17,729 I don't know what people are thinking or feeling. 656 00:38:17,863 --> 00:38:19,731 I can't communicate what I need. 657 00:38:20,766 --> 00:38:22,968 And more patients will die. 658 00:38:28,306 --> 00:38:33,111 You don't think your ASD had anything to do with your patient's death, do you? 659 00:38:33,244 --> 00:38:34,145 Because it didn't. 660 00:38:35,046 --> 00:38:36,648 It did. 661 00:38:36,782 --> 00:38:39,785 Asher wasn't sure about his abdominal exam. 662 00:38:41,387 --> 00:38:42,754 I should have known that. 663 00:38:43,655 --> 00:38:45,056 Shaun, you're gonna do 664 00:38:46,425 --> 00:38:50,228 most things better than anyone else, 665 00:38:50,362 --> 00:38:53,765 and there are days when you're gonna fail, like everyone else. 666 00:38:55,200 --> 00:38:56,768 Today might be one of those days. 667 00:38:59,070 --> 00:38:59,805 So... 668 00:39:03,642 --> 00:39:04,776 What do you do then? 669 00:39:08,279 --> 00:39:09,280 (SIGHS DEEPLY) 670 00:39:11,116 --> 00:39:11,850 You go home, 671 00:39:13,452 --> 00:39:14,686 you be with the people you love. 672 00:39:17,723 --> 00:39:18,957 You take comfort in that, 673 00:39:19,090 --> 00:39:21,259 and then you wake up tomorrow and start all over again. 674 00:39:32,203 --> 00:39:32,971 (SIGHS DEEPLY) 675 00:39:47,318 --> 00:39:49,287 You can go home. 676 00:39:51,523 --> 00:39:52,524 I just 677 00:39:55,661 --> 00:39:56,995 don't wanna be alone right now. 678 00:40:38,704 --> 00:40:39,771 (SIGHS) 679 00:40:39,905 --> 00:40:41,439 I opened a Bumble account today. 680 00:40:41,573 --> 00:40:42,574 Mmm. 681 00:40:46,177 --> 00:40:47,913 I swiped right three times today. 682 00:40:53,351 --> 00:40:55,353 Gronk's jersey didn't have a tag in the back. 683 00:40:56,588 --> 00:40:57,455 It's symbolic. 684 00:40:59,658 --> 00:41:01,893 You have any idea how much the real one will be worth one day? 685 00:41:02,828 --> 00:41:03,795 Fair enough. 686 00:41:08,567 --> 00:41:12,270 ** Wastin' away again in Margaritaville 687 00:41:14,139 --> 00:41:16,975 ** Searchin' for my lost shaker of salt 688 00:41:20,411 --> 00:41:25,383 ** Some people claim that there's a woman to blame 689 00:41:25,517 --> 00:41:26,885 ** But I know 690 00:41:28,687 --> 00:41:30,822 ** It's my own damn fault ** ** Damn fault ** 691 00:42:05,791 --> 00:42:06,958 I'm glad you're here with me. 692 00:42:07,626 --> 00:42:08,627 So am I. 693 00:42:30,816 --> 00:42:32,550 (CLOSING THEME MUSIC PLAYING)