1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:01,667 Previously on The Good Doctor... 2 00:00:01,668 --> 00:00:03,769 You don't want me to do anything. 3 00:00:03,770 --> 00:00:06,472 I spend every minute of every day with you. 4 00:00:06,473 --> 00:00:10,576 Since you feel that our time together is something to be endured, 5 00:00:10,577 --> 00:00:13,369 I decided to make that easier for you. 6 00:00:14,547 --> 00:00:16,081 Your daughter's beautiful. 7 00:00:16,082 --> 00:00:18,016 Needs you to get better so you can hold her. 8 00:00:18,017 --> 00:00:19,718 I read about the CHILL study. 9 00:00:19,719 --> 00:00:22,621 She's a good candidate. I'll take full responsibility for her. 10 00:00:22,622 --> 00:00:24,223 Tell him he's going to be fine. 11 00:00:24,224 --> 00:00:25,435 I can't. 12 00:00:25,437 --> 00:00:29,194 The majority of COVID patients who go on a ventilator never come off. 13 00:00:29,196 --> 00:00:30,396 Put on a mask. Now. 14 00:00:30,397 --> 00:00:32,525 It's COVID. We've both been exposed. 15 00:00:33,057 --> 00:00:35,267 My mother had a necklace. 16 00:00:35,268 --> 00:00:36,802 See if I can find it. 17 00:00:36,803 --> 00:00:38,123 Things will be okay. 18 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:51,200 Good morning. 19 00:00:53,586 --> 00:00:55,443 Morning, Shaun. 20 00:00:57,390 --> 00:00:59,071 I wish you were here. 21 00:01:00,360 --> 00:01:01,694 Me, too. 22 00:01:10,903 --> 00:01:12,840 Morning, Dalisay. 23 00:01:12,842 --> 00:01:14,673 Woke up with a temp of 104. 24 00:01:14,674 --> 00:01:17,108 I need heated, humidified oxygen on a high-flow cannula. 25 00:01:17,109 --> 00:01:19,177 Mom, slow down. Just let her examine you. 26 00:01:19,178 --> 00:01:21,500 Why, so she can find out exactly what I just told her? 27 00:01:22,682 --> 00:01:25,038 Reznick. You're back. 28 00:01:26,035 --> 00:01:28,437 Got sick, got better, got tested twice. 29 00:01:28,438 --> 00:01:29,938 Always the overachiever. 30 00:01:29,939 --> 00:01:32,761 Dr. Reznick, her pulse ox is 90. 31 00:01:34,411 --> 00:01:35,611 We need to admit you. 32 00:01:36,560 --> 00:01:38,113 Is my mom gonna be okay? 33 00:01:40,850 --> 00:01:42,452 Don't worry. I'm gonna be fine. 34 00:01:43,886 --> 00:01:46,727 Just please water my tomato plants, 35 00:01:46,729 --> 00:01:49,758 give Darcy a big hug, and tell her Nana loves her so much 36 00:01:49,759 --> 00:01:51,639 and can't wait to play with her again real soon. 37 00:01:52,929 --> 00:01:54,129 Okay, Mom. 38 00:02:01,689 --> 00:02:02,989 Nice hesitation. 39 00:02:02,991 --> 00:02:04,963 Why not just suggest he get my house appraised? 40 00:02:08,478 --> 00:02:11,188 Sorry. It took a while to find it. 41 00:02:11,190 --> 00:02:12,390 Thank you. 42 00:02:13,249 --> 00:02:15,675 Being able to hold this and keep it with me... 43 00:02:16,252 --> 00:02:17,452 It's a connection. 44 00:02:20,857 --> 00:02:22,625 Like she's still here with me. 45 00:02:54,456 --> 00:02:56,959 It's stuff, Claire. It's meaningless now. 46 00:02:58,295 --> 00:03:01,123 Each one of these tells an interrupted story, 47 00:03:01,596 --> 00:03:04,097 a voicemail that'll never be heard, 48 00:03:04,099 --> 00:03:07,034 a shopping list for a home-cooked meal that'll never be made. 49 00:03:07,036 --> 00:03:08,526 Beautiful. 50 00:03:08,528 --> 00:03:11,793 Cook spaghetti carbonara for a dead guy's family, and the grief is gone. 51 00:03:13,012 --> 00:03:15,291 Are you here to mock me or to help me? 52 00:03:16,379 --> 00:03:17,579 Why are you here? 53 00:03:30,641 --> 00:03:32,151 "Donald Sulkin." 54 00:03:35,698 --> 00:03:36,898 We're reducing the pressure 55 00:03:36,899 --> 00:03:38,166 of air going into his lungs 56 00:03:38,167 --> 00:03:39,782 and watching his oxygen level. 57 00:03:42,269 --> 00:03:44,579 So far, so good. O2 steady. 58 00:03:44,581 --> 00:03:45,781 Okay. 59 00:03:47,144 --> 00:03:50,846 Yes. But his end tidal CO2 is falling. 60 00:03:50,847 --> 00:03:52,428 What... What does that mean? 61 00:03:52,430 --> 00:03:55,152 It's not as bad as his O2 falling, but still not good. 62 00:03:56,878 --> 00:03:58,471 Turn the pressure support back up. 63 00:04:01,223 --> 00:04:05,704 End tidal CO2 is very low, not improving. 64 00:04:05,706 --> 00:04:06,906 What's going on? 65 00:04:09,200 --> 00:04:12,601 I think he has a blood clot in his lung, 66 00:04:12,602 --> 00:04:14,636 interfering with his gas exchange. 67 00:04:14,637 --> 00:04:17,005 Give him a bolus of heparin, start him on a drip. 68 00:04:17,006 --> 00:04:18,374 Let's get him to the cath lab. 69 00:04:18,375 --> 00:04:20,383 - Let's go. - What's going on? 70 00:04:21,978 --> 00:04:23,178 Where are you taking him? 71 00:04:25,181 --> 00:04:26,381 Dr. Andrews? 72 00:04:26,883 --> 00:04:28,283 Dr. Murphy? 73 00:04:28,284 --> 00:04:29,484 Martin. 74 00:04:30,540 --> 00:04:32,754 This is isotonic saline, salt water. 75 00:04:32,755 --> 00:04:34,362 It's 4 degrees Celsius. 76 00:04:34,991 --> 00:04:37,217 I'll run this into your bloodstream 77 00:04:38,227 --> 00:04:41,698 until your body temperature drops to 34 degrees Celsius. 78 00:04:42,665 --> 00:04:46,468 The paralytic I gave you will stop you from shivering 79 00:04:46,469 --> 00:04:49,419 while the cold slows your heart, your brain, 80 00:04:49,943 --> 00:04:51,873 all metabolic functions. 81 00:04:51,875 --> 00:04:53,241 All the energy saved there 82 00:04:53,242 --> 00:04:55,076 will go towards healing your lungs. 83 00:04:59,209 --> 00:05:00,998 Your baby's waiting for you. 84 00:05:14,705 --> 00:05:16,632 Pete, follow him. 85 00:05:16,633 --> 00:05:19,768 Pete! Follow him! He's got the axe. 86 00:05:19,769 --> 00:05:21,269 I was getting shot at. 87 00:05:21,270 --> 00:05:23,439 Well, stay low, reload, and head for the temple. 88 00:05:23,440 --> 00:05:24,699 Stop messing around. 89 00:05:24,701 --> 00:05:27,476 AG24, what's up with you? You okay? 90 00:05:27,477 --> 00:05:30,364 Yeah, yeah, I'm hunting for the legendary Tusk of Ganesh 91 00:05:30,366 --> 00:05:33,515 at 3:00 in the morning because everything's just super. 92 00:05:33,516 --> 00:05:37,052 Can't go out, I can't sleep, I can't go to work. 93 00:05:37,053 --> 00:05:39,254 Welcome to COVID. Everything sucks. 94 00:05:39,255 --> 00:05:41,957 Great. Good... Good pep talk. 95 00:05:41,958 --> 00:05:43,892 You all sleeping in an empty bed? 96 00:05:44,111 --> 00:05:45,311 Yeah. 97 00:05:47,096 --> 00:05:49,364 It's like I killed a puppy or something. 98 00:05:49,365 --> 00:05:51,299 Hey, Pete. Pete, heads up. 99 00:05:51,300 --> 00:05:53,586 The fortress is a perfect place for an am... 100 00:05:53,588 --> 00:05:55,227 Okay. Pete's dead. 101 00:05:55,838 --> 00:05:56,972 You should apologize. 102 00:05:56,973 --> 00:05:58,173 Just play the game. 103 00:05:58,174 --> 00:05:59,741 Not saying you have to mean it. 104 00:05:59,742 --> 00:06:01,142 Just saying you should apologize. 105 00:06:01,143 --> 00:06:02,711 That's... That's great. 106 00:06:02,712 --> 00:06:04,045 Be a hypocrite. 107 00:06:04,046 --> 00:06:05,146 You married? 108 00:06:05,147 --> 00:06:06,815 I'm 15. 109 00:06:06,816 --> 00:06:10,271 Oh, well, thank you for a lifetime of wisdom. 110 00:06:10,273 --> 00:06:13,321 My girlfriend was pissed at me for something I didn't even do, 111 00:06:13,322 --> 00:06:15,555 but I said sorry, and now we're back together. 112 00:06:16,633 --> 00:06:18,200 Maybe I'm a hypocrite, but 113 00:06:18,202 --> 00:06:20,042 at least I'm a hypocrite with a girlfriend. 114 00:06:35,011 --> 00:06:37,197 Up and at 'em. We gotta be downtown by noon. 115 00:06:37,199 --> 00:06:40,381 Oh, yeah, we're late for the protest. 116 00:06:40,382 --> 00:06:42,039 Gotta get this state opened up... 117 00:06:42,752 --> 00:06:44,753 Well, pulse ox is 82. 118 00:06:44,754 --> 00:06:46,445 Everything else looks okay. 119 00:06:46,447 --> 00:06:49,104 Sure, other than my steadily declining oxygen levels, 120 00:06:49,106 --> 00:06:50,693 I am the picture of health. 121 00:06:52,529 --> 00:06:54,563 Let's start making signs. Oh. 122 00:06:54,844 --> 00:06:56,044 I'm thinking... 123 00:06:57,634 --> 00:07:00,435 "Don't tread on my right to kill you." 124 00:07:00,436 --> 00:07:02,403 Mmm. How about, 125 00:07:02,404 --> 00:07:05,177 "Give me liberty and give me death"? 126 00:07:10,713 --> 00:07:11,913 I need to go. 127 00:07:18,137 --> 00:07:19,688 Nothing. 128 00:07:19,689 --> 00:07:22,707 We haven't had a patient named Sulkin in over 10 years. 129 00:07:23,259 --> 00:07:25,426 Being dead doesn't change 130 00:07:25,427 --> 00:07:27,543 because your loved one gets a memento back. 131 00:07:28,831 --> 00:07:30,526 And fixating on dead people 132 00:07:31,400 --> 00:07:32,600 it's not a life. 133 00:07:35,905 --> 00:07:38,874 How can anyone not be answering their phone right now 134 00:07:38,875 --> 00:07:40,676 if they're not an essential worker? 135 00:07:40,677 --> 00:07:43,864 Well, what nonessential worker are you trying to reach? 136 00:07:43,866 --> 00:07:45,066 Lea. 137 00:07:46,148 --> 00:07:48,083 People don't go out anymore, 138 00:07:48,084 --> 00:07:49,184 but they do still go to the bathroom. 139 00:07:49,185 --> 00:07:50,886 This is the second time in an hour 140 00:07:50,887 --> 00:07:52,784 she hasn't picked up, Claire. 141 00:07:54,456 --> 00:07:57,195 We keep learning more things about this disease. 142 00:07:57,197 --> 00:07:58,397 It's... 143 00:07:59,513 --> 00:08:00,713 It's... 144 00:08:01,366 --> 00:08:02,898 I don't know. 145 00:08:02,899 --> 00:08:04,476 It's not right. 146 00:08:15,211 --> 00:08:16,611 We love you, Grandma. 147 00:08:18,114 --> 00:08:20,789 Mom, I'm so sorry. 148 00:08:21,383 --> 00:08:23,118 I love you. 149 00:08:23,119 --> 00:08:25,485 And I want you to know that we'll be okay. 150 00:08:25,487 --> 00:08:26,687 We love you. 151 00:08:54,483 --> 00:08:55,911 He's gone. 152 00:09:18,741 --> 00:09:19,941 She's gone. 153 00:09:30,753 --> 00:09:31,953 They're gone. 154 00:10:08,337 --> 00:10:10,149 It's not always fun. 155 00:10:11,669 --> 00:10:14,059 Whatever you're talking about, no, it isn't. 156 00:10:16,244 --> 00:10:17,484 But what are you talking about? 157 00:10:18,012 --> 00:10:19,212 Do you love Mia? 158 00:10:21,015 --> 00:10:22,492 Of course I do. 159 00:10:22,494 --> 00:10:24,031 What do you love about her? 160 00:10:28,857 --> 00:10:32,713 I love that she loves our son. 161 00:10:33,862 --> 00:10:35,567 I love how she talks to him, 162 00:10:35,569 --> 00:10:38,158 how she knows what he's thinking, knows what he needs. 163 00:10:38,160 --> 00:10:39,527 I thought so. 164 00:10:39,529 --> 00:10:40,768 You thought what? 165 00:10:40,769 --> 00:10:42,287 You love Kellan. 166 00:10:48,743 --> 00:10:50,392 Hello. Are you okay? 167 00:10:50,394 --> 00:10:52,179 I'm sorry I didn't pick up when you called. 168 00:10:52,180 --> 00:10:53,581 I didn't wanna upset you. 169 00:10:53,582 --> 00:10:55,282 It didn't work. I had a sore throat, 170 00:10:55,283 --> 00:10:58,085 so I got tested for COVID, and I'm negative. 171 00:10:58,086 --> 00:11:00,308 COVID tests have a high percentage of false negatives. 172 00:11:00,310 --> 00:11:01,822 Shaun, I feel fine now. 173 00:11:01,823 --> 00:11:03,491 That doesn't mean you don't have COVID. 174 00:11:03,492 --> 00:11:04,692 I need to go to work. 175 00:11:16,740 --> 00:11:19,152 How are you adjusting to your new specialty? 176 00:11:19,741 --> 00:11:21,862 It's great. Love being an internist. 177 00:11:21,864 --> 00:11:23,232 Well, I'm convinced. 178 00:11:24,913 --> 00:11:28,033 Dealing with conscious people isn't really your thing. 179 00:11:28,583 --> 00:11:29,783 I'm fine. 180 00:11:30,984 --> 00:11:33,030 You're rude, abrasive, 181 00:11:33,032 --> 00:11:37,076 and now you've gotta hold people's hands and be nice. 182 00:11:39,494 --> 00:11:40,861 It's a huge adjustment, 183 00:11:40,862 --> 00:11:42,262 and I find it completely draining. 184 00:11:42,263 --> 00:11:43,463 You happy? 185 00:11:46,405 --> 00:11:50,019 There's a lot of different approaches to "nice." 186 00:11:51,540 --> 00:11:56,431 Otherwise, I wouldn't have lasted 40 years as a nurse. 187 00:11:57,866 --> 00:11:59,244 You'll find your own. 188 00:12:02,851 --> 00:12:04,294 Or maybe you won't. 189 00:12:08,523 --> 00:12:10,691 Overall, everything's looking up. 190 00:12:10,692 --> 00:12:12,493 Fewer patients coming in. 191 00:12:12,494 --> 00:12:14,319 When they do, we're getting better at... 192 00:12:17,928 --> 00:12:19,128 Hey, buddy. 193 00:12:19,130 --> 00:12:20,570 I'm sorry I keep missing your calls. 194 00:12:21,970 --> 00:12:23,270 I've got this patient. 195 00:12:23,271 --> 00:12:25,673 You know the mom of the baby I told you about? 196 00:12:25,674 --> 00:12:27,941 I basically put her into suspended animation, 197 00:12:27,943 --> 00:12:30,163 but it doesn't seem to be helping. 198 00:12:30,165 --> 00:12:31,779 When are you coming to Phoenix? 199 00:12:31,780 --> 00:12:33,547 I still don't know. 200 00:12:33,548 --> 00:12:36,414 You're going to make my graduation party, though, right? 201 00:12:37,486 --> 00:12:38,919 I don't think so. 202 00:12:38,920 --> 00:12:40,320 This patient needs... You? 203 00:12:40,321 --> 00:12:42,556 No one else can take care of her? 204 00:12:42,557 --> 00:12:44,806 I kind of went out on a limb on this one. 205 00:12:44,808 --> 00:12:47,154 Oh, well, if you made a commitment, then... 206 00:13:03,848 --> 00:13:06,213 Your husband has blood in his NG tube. 207 00:13:06,214 --> 00:13:08,749 He's developed heparin-induced thrombocytopenia. 208 00:13:08,750 --> 00:13:10,050 We need to stop the heparin. 209 00:13:10,051 --> 00:13:12,653 But doesn't that put him at risk for another clot? 210 00:13:12,654 --> 00:13:14,755 Yes, if he's not on the heparin, 211 00:13:14,756 --> 00:13:16,456 he could have a stroke, 212 00:13:16,457 --> 00:13:18,759 and if he's on it, he could have a fatal internal bleed, 213 00:13:18,760 --> 00:13:20,193 and he still has an infection, 214 00:13:20,194 --> 00:13:21,862 so we can't stop the antibiotics 215 00:13:21,863 --> 00:13:23,130 or he'll get sepsis and die. 216 00:13:23,131 --> 00:13:24,945 All you do 217 00:13:24,947 --> 00:13:28,579 is tell me new ways that my husband might die. 218 00:13:28,581 --> 00:13:30,938 Every time I talk to you, there's another way. 219 00:13:30,939 --> 00:13:32,643 I mean, do you even know what you're doing? 220 00:13:32,645 --> 00:13:34,742 What is the point of you? You're useless. 221 00:13:34,743 --> 00:13:36,944 We understand your frustration. 222 00:13:36,945 --> 00:13:39,079 COVID targets so many organs. 223 00:13:39,080 --> 00:13:40,781 Technically, this is your fault. Shaun. 224 00:13:40,782 --> 00:13:42,550 Martin never left the apartment, 225 00:13:42,551 --> 00:13:44,017 but he still caught COVID. 226 00:13:44,018 --> 00:13:45,819 You must have exposed him to it. 227 00:13:45,820 --> 00:13:48,017 On the other hand, we are doing 228 00:13:48,019 --> 00:13:50,019 all that we can to... That's enough. That's enough. 229 00:13:55,630 --> 00:13:57,230 We're all going through crap, 230 00:13:57,231 --> 00:13:59,399 but that woman's husband may be dying. 231 00:13:59,400 --> 00:14:00,635 She's allowed to lash out. 232 00:14:01,502 --> 00:14:02,702 You aren't. 233 00:14:14,288 --> 00:14:15,488 Hey. 234 00:14:22,556 --> 00:14:23,756 I'm sorry. 235 00:14:43,778 --> 00:14:44,978 Why? 236 00:14:47,622 --> 00:14:48,822 What? 237 00:14:50,065 --> 00:14:51,759 What are you sorry about? 238 00:14:54,996 --> 00:14:56,830 Everything. Mmm. 239 00:14:56,831 --> 00:14:59,153 Uh, the fight and 240 00:15:00,314 --> 00:15:03,804 you sleeping in the other room and you ignoring me... 241 00:15:03,806 --> 00:15:07,772 So you're sorry because of the way I've been acting. 242 00:15:08,242 --> 00:15:09,443 I'm apologizing. 243 00:15:09,444 --> 00:15:10,827 I don't think you are. 244 00:15:11,342 --> 00:15:13,472 I don't get it. Uh, you won. 245 00:15:14,766 --> 00:15:16,300 I... I don't know what you want. 246 00:15:16,301 --> 00:15:18,835 We... We can't have a difference of opinion? 247 00:15:18,836 --> 00:15:21,104 No, not when we disagree 248 00:15:21,105 --> 00:15:23,674 on whether you've been mean to me or not. 249 00:15:23,675 --> 00:15:25,214 You've been mean to me. 250 00:15:41,840 --> 00:15:43,327 Three tours. 251 00:15:43,328 --> 00:15:45,191 Helicopter pilot. 252 00:15:46,395 --> 00:15:47,951 Oh, he's got a medal in that one. 253 00:15:49,381 --> 00:15:51,646 Hey, look at this, same guy again. 254 00:15:51,648 --> 00:15:54,371 Funny. Almost as if they were in the same unit or something. 255 00:15:54,372 --> 00:15:56,122 Greg Lavin... 256 00:15:59,607 --> 00:16:02,310 ...died here. COVID, one month ago. 257 00:16:09,126 --> 00:16:10,671 Hello. Enid Lavin? 258 00:16:11,525 --> 00:16:13,824 Hi. This is Dr. Claire Browne 259 00:16:13,825 --> 00:16:16,107 from San Jose Saint Bonaventure. 260 00:16:16,109 --> 00:16:17,610 I'm so sorry for your loss. 261 00:16:17,612 --> 00:16:18,912 I just wanted you to know that 262 00:16:18,914 --> 00:16:20,823 we have found something of your father's. 263 00:16:21,620 --> 00:16:24,454 A memento of his service. Dog tags. 264 00:16:25,169 --> 00:16:27,671 No, not his. 265 00:16:27,672 --> 00:16:30,001 A man by the name of Donald Sulkin. 266 00:16:32,510 --> 00:16:33,710 Donald Sulkin. 267 00:16:39,140 --> 00:16:40,340 Thank you. 268 00:16:42,854 --> 00:16:43,987 That's odd. 269 00:16:43,988 --> 00:16:45,188 Yeah. 270 00:16:45,867 --> 00:16:48,892 How does your father carry someone else's dog tags 271 00:16:48,893 --> 00:16:51,664 for 50 years, and you have never even heard of them? 272 00:17:05,735 --> 00:17:06,935 How are you feeling? 273 00:17:08,546 --> 00:17:09,746 My son 274 00:17:10,615 --> 00:17:12,724 plans to move to Montana. 275 00:17:15,633 --> 00:17:18,497 Take my granddaughter 1,000 miles away. 276 00:17:19,910 --> 00:17:22,520 The schools are better, air's cleaner. 277 00:17:24,295 --> 00:17:26,340 So the upside of all this is... 278 00:17:27,832 --> 00:17:29,950 I don't have to move to Montana. 279 00:17:33,033 --> 00:17:34,788 Is that why you haven't okayed us 280 00:17:34,790 --> 00:17:36,659 putting you on a ventilator if you need one? 281 00:17:39,858 --> 00:17:42,091 I know what ventilators do to people. 282 00:17:47,485 --> 00:17:49,621 Do you remember Dr. Pitcairn? 283 00:17:51,181 --> 00:17:52,381 Pitstain. 284 00:17:53,906 --> 00:17:55,106 Exactly. 285 00:17:56,604 --> 00:17:58,435 Remember when I was a first-year resident? 286 00:18:00,097 --> 00:18:02,409 One of two women, only woman of color. 287 00:18:03,300 --> 00:18:05,135 I'd been warned he'd make my life hell. 288 00:18:05,136 --> 00:18:07,070 And sure enough, second week, 289 00:18:07,071 --> 00:18:09,101 Pitstain starts tearing into me 290 00:18:09,103 --> 00:18:11,614 about the spacing of my sutures being inconsistent, 291 00:18:12,755 --> 00:18:15,045 and I'm about to fall apart in front of everybody, 292 00:18:15,046 --> 00:18:17,228 but then you stepped in. 293 00:18:18,641 --> 00:18:20,684 Brought up some charting error he'd made. 294 00:18:20,685 --> 00:18:22,259 A tiny blip of a mistake. 295 00:18:23,488 --> 00:18:25,907 He never capitalized "STAT." 296 00:18:26,860 --> 00:18:29,538 The whole point is for it stand out. 297 00:18:29,540 --> 00:18:32,601 Well, you put him back on his heels in front of everybody. 298 00:18:33,362 --> 00:18:34,562 You gave me time, 299 00:18:35,867 --> 00:18:37,517 to regain my composure. 300 00:18:39,400 --> 00:18:41,525 He never got to see me cry. 301 00:18:44,642 --> 00:18:47,561 Please, if it comes to it, 302 00:18:47,563 --> 00:18:49,079 give me a little time again. 303 00:18:51,783 --> 00:18:52,983 To help you. 304 00:19:14,906 --> 00:19:16,722 No, no, no! 305 00:19:20,558 --> 00:19:22,145 I don't know what to do. 306 00:19:22,146 --> 00:19:24,736 I love Lea, and I wanted her to love... 307 00:19:24,738 --> 00:19:26,653 Okay, okay. I'll be... I'll be right down. 308 00:19:26,655 --> 00:19:27,855 Okay? 309 00:19:35,359 --> 00:19:36,527 I don't know what to do. 310 00:19:36,528 --> 00:19:38,729 I... I love Lea, 311 00:19:38,730 --> 00:19:41,392 and I wanted her to love me back, 312 00:19:41,394 --> 00:19:44,234 and now she does, but we can't be together. 313 00:19:44,235 --> 00:19:47,301 How can loving someone who loves you back make things worse? 314 00:19:48,514 --> 00:19:49,714 Well, that's a... 315 00:19:50,842 --> 00:19:52,303 That's a good question. 316 00:19:53,444 --> 00:19:55,850 Let's start with what's making things worse. 317 00:19:56,948 --> 00:19:58,148 I think... 318 00:19:59,068 --> 00:20:02,138 I think I may be... cranky. 319 00:20:02,660 --> 00:20:04,994 I've never been cranky before. 320 00:20:05,222 --> 00:20:06,557 I don't like it. 321 00:20:06,558 --> 00:20:08,592 I think I miss Lea. 322 00:20:08,593 --> 00:20:11,305 I think I'm worried that she has COVID. 323 00:20:11,307 --> 00:20:14,431 So you're going crazy because you can't see someone. 324 00:20:15,466 --> 00:20:17,754 What am I supposed to do? 325 00:20:17,756 --> 00:20:21,215 Should I not talk to Lea until the pandemic is over? 326 00:20:21,606 --> 00:20:22,949 Well, that's an option. 327 00:20:23,585 --> 00:20:24,951 Is that what you want? 328 00:20:24,953 --> 00:20:27,922 No, no, I don't... I don't want that at all. 329 00:20:28,212 --> 00:20:31,748 But I don't want to feel like this, either. 330 00:20:31,749 --> 00:20:33,704 I want this to be over. 331 00:20:35,711 --> 00:20:38,540 Well, we all want it to be over, Shaun. 332 00:20:39,891 --> 00:20:42,292 I mean, we're... we're sick of ourselves, we're sick of each other, 333 00:20:42,293 --> 00:20:44,928 or we're pining for someone we can't be with. 334 00:20:44,929 --> 00:20:46,605 We're confused. We're uncomfortable. 335 00:20:47,298 --> 00:20:48,966 And on top of everything else, 336 00:20:48,968 --> 00:20:51,493 we're scared that the world will never be the same again. 337 00:20:53,514 --> 00:20:55,271 I mean, I don't know, Shaun. 338 00:20:55,272 --> 00:20:57,733 I don't have a map for this kind of thing. 339 00:20:59,176 --> 00:21:00,921 Best I can say is... 340 00:21:02,871 --> 00:21:04,071 be kind. 341 00:21:05,907 --> 00:21:07,908 Be kind to yourself. Be kind 342 00:21:08,986 --> 00:21:10,186 to everyone. 343 00:21:12,189 --> 00:21:13,389 'Cause what else is there? 344 00:21:33,422 --> 00:21:35,409 ♪ Turn around ♪ 345 00:21:35,411 --> 00:21:38,580 ♪ Every now and then ♪ ♪ I get a little bit lonely ♪ 346 00:21:38,582 --> 00:21:41,012 ♪ And you're never coming 'round ♪ 347 00:21:41,013 --> 00:21:42,881 ♪ Turn around ♪ 348 00:21:42,882 --> 00:21:44,748 ♪ Every now and ♪ ♪ then I get a little bit tired ♪ 349 00:21:44,749 --> 00:21:46,584 Oh. Hi. 350 00:21:46,585 --> 00:21:48,920 ♪ Of listening to ♪ ♪ the sound of my tears ♪ 351 00:21:48,921 --> 00:21:50,754 Oh, this is a nice song. 352 00:21:50,755 --> 00:21:52,756 ♪ Every now and then I ♪ ♪ get a little bit nervous... ♪ 353 00:21:52,757 --> 00:21:54,522 I hate this song. 354 00:21:54,524 --> 00:21:56,659 Good. I was being kind. 355 00:21:58,363 --> 00:22:00,198 Martin hates it, too. 356 00:22:00,199 --> 00:22:03,467 It was... It was the first conversation we had, 357 00:22:03,468 --> 00:22:06,337 talking about how weird this song is. 358 00:22:06,338 --> 00:22:09,140 Who is Bright Eyes, and why is it so important 359 00:22:09,141 --> 00:22:10,774 that they turn around? 360 00:22:10,775 --> 00:22:12,776 ♪ Turn around, bright eyes ♪ 361 00:22:12,777 --> 00:22:14,378 ♪ Every now and then I fall apart ♪ 362 00:22:14,379 --> 00:22:16,114 Now it just reminds me of him. 363 00:22:16,115 --> 00:22:19,483 ♪ And I need you now tonight ♪ 364 00:22:19,484 --> 00:22:21,663 ♪ And I need you more than ever ♪ 365 00:22:21,665 --> 00:22:22,865 You're probably right. 366 00:22:24,319 --> 00:22:26,324 That he got COVID from me. 367 00:22:26,325 --> 00:22:29,194 ♪ We'll be holding on forever ♪ 368 00:22:30,762 --> 00:22:31,962 It's hard 369 00:22:33,598 --> 00:22:36,000 to think of someone you love 370 00:22:36,001 --> 00:22:37,613 when you can't be with them. 371 00:22:39,138 --> 00:22:42,640 ♪ Your love is like a ♪ ♪ shadow on me all of the time ♪ 372 00:22:42,641 --> 00:22:44,242 ♪ All of the time ♪ 373 00:22:44,243 --> 00:22:47,946 He seems to have a posterior tibial artery thrombosis. 374 00:22:47,947 --> 00:22:49,313 What... That... That sounds bad. 375 00:22:49,314 --> 00:22:51,950 It is. It's a blockage in the artery, 376 00:22:51,951 --> 00:22:54,504 causing ischemia to his lower extremity tissues 377 00:22:54,506 --> 00:22:55,706 due to lack of... 378 00:22:56,521 --> 00:22:58,322 I want to be kind to you, I want to explain, 379 00:22:58,323 --> 00:23:00,191 but it's a very long explanation, 380 00:23:00,192 --> 00:23:02,093 and I don't have time for you to get mad and upset... 381 00:23:02,094 --> 00:23:03,894 Just go help my husband. 382 00:23:04,137 --> 00:23:05,337 Okay. 383 00:23:06,981 --> 00:23:08,486 Your numbers are falling. 384 00:23:09,901 --> 00:23:11,101 I know. 385 00:23:11,670 --> 00:23:13,199 You need a ventilator. 386 00:23:14,039 --> 00:23:15,239 I know. 387 00:23:19,011 --> 00:23:22,341 There's a pocket in my purse. 388 00:23:22,881 --> 00:23:24,081 Reach into it. 389 00:23:30,822 --> 00:23:34,251 "Game 7, 2003, American League Championship." 390 00:23:34,253 --> 00:23:36,900 Grady let Pedro go one inning too long. 391 00:23:38,597 --> 00:23:41,902 The Sox handed the series to the damn Yankees. 392 00:23:43,568 --> 00:23:46,145 My son and I cried in each other's arms. 393 00:23:48,673 --> 00:23:51,136 I've kept them with me ever since. 394 00:23:53,318 --> 00:23:56,575 It's like Jimmy's always with me. 395 00:24:02,654 --> 00:24:03,854 You're not alone. 396 00:24:13,014 --> 00:24:14,750 You're stuck with all of us. 397 00:25:24,871 --> 00:25:27,229 Can you take your earbuds out, please? 398 00:25:34,699 --> 00:25:37,261 I don't think that I've done anything wrong, 399 00:25:38,420 --> 00:25:41,601 but I may be wrong about that. I suspect that I am. 400 00:25:49,381 --> 00:25:52,382 I haven't been thinking straight lately. 401 00:25:53,918 --> 00:25:55,852 What with everything going on at the hospital, 402 00:25:55,853 --> 00:25:59,250 people are dying, and I'm... here. 403 00:26:00,621 --> 00:26:02,556 And that makes me feel weak. 404 00:26:04,096 --> 00:26:07,732 And then I feel scared, and that makes me feel 405 00:26:08,586 --> 00:26:09,786 even more weak. 406 00:26:11,382 --> 00:26:16,359 And then I feel relieved and safe 407 00:26:16,878 --> 00:26:18,266 that I'm here, 408 00:26:23,115 --> 00:26:25,477 and that makes me feel like a coward. 409 00:26:35,843 --> 00:26:37,043 Thank you. 410 00:26:39,981 --> 00:26:41,081 "Thank you"? 411 00:26:41,082 --> 00:26:44,285 I just needed an honest moment. 412 00:26:46,721 --> 00:26:47,921 Something 413 00:26:49,098 --> 00:26:54,289 to let me know that you actually need me. 414 00:26:58,399 --> 00:26:59,599 And... 415 00:27:01,268 --> 00:27:02,468 I'm sorry. 416 00:27:07,521 --> 00:27:08,721 Mmm. 417 00:27:13,438 --> 00:27:14,739 I'm sorry, too. 418 00:27:33,936 --> 00:27:35,170 Hi, buddy. 419 00:27:35,172 --> 00:27:36,372 Hey, Dad. 420 00:27:37,839 --> 00:27:39,039 I'm sorry. 421 00:27:39,592 --> 00:27:41,174 I shouldn't have gotten angry 422 00:27:41,175 --> 00:27:42,577 about you not coming to Phoenix. 423 00:27:43,645 --> 00:27:44,845 It wasn't fair. 424 00:27:45,613 --> 00:27:46,813 Thank you. 425 00:27:50,051 --> 00:27:51,785 Did your mother put you up to this? 426 00:27:53,174 --> 00:27:54,464 She was right. 427 00:27:55,037 --> 00:27:57,644 I don't even really care about the party that much. 428 00:27:58,459 --> 00:27:59,793 Then what was the issue? 429 00:28:01,556 --> 00:28:03,429 We don't have to talk about that. 430 00:28:03,430 --> 00:28:05,149 I wanna know what's bothering you. 431 00:28:07,691 --> 00:28:10,777 I... I know your job is important, 432 00:28:11,566 --> 00:28:15,537 but sometimes I just wanna know 433 00:28:15,539 --> 00:28:17,870 you care about me more than you care about the job. 434 00:28:29,251 --> 00:28:31,204 When your mom got pregnant, 435 00:28:32,694 --> 00:28:34,274 I was so nervous. 436 00:28:35,235 --> 00:28:37,437 Suddenly, everything was real. 437 00:28:37,439 --> 00:28:39,190 Suddenly, I had a commitment. 438 00:28:39,841 --> 00:28:41,939 And I wasn't sure I was ready. 439 00:28:44,572 --> 00:28:46,039 And then you were born. 440 00:28:46,863 --> 00:28:49,543 And in that moment, I mean, that moment, 441 00:28:49,544 --> 00:28:51,470 everything changed. 442 00:28:51,472 --> 00:28:54,353 I was instantly head-over-heels in love with you. 443 00:28:55,402 --> 00:28:57,236 You were my best friend. 444 00:28:57,238 --> 00:29:00,132 And, uh, I held you, 445 00:29:01,043 --> 00:29:04,039 and the words just came out. I said, "Hi, buddy." 446 00:29:05,580 --> 00:29:08,739 I'd never called anyone "buddy" before in my life. 447 00:29:09,731 --> 00:29:10,931 But 448 00:29:12,048 --> 00:29:13,481 you were my buddy. 449 00:29:16,453 --> 00:29:19,039 I may make mistakes over and over again, 450 00:29:19,040 --> 00:29:20,607 but don't ever think 451 00:29:20,608 --> 00:29:23,001 you're not the most important thing in my life. 452 00:29:27,903 --> 00:29:29,883 So, basically, you're saying 453 00:29:29,884 --> 00:29:31,677 your love for me is like chemical, right? 454 00:29:36,591 --> 00:29:37,791 Yeah. 455 00:29:53,196 --> 00:29:54,608 Thank you for your call. 456 00:29:54,609 --> 00:29:56,710 Your husband is still unconscious. Bye. 457 00:29:56,711 --> 00:29:58,250 Whoa, whoa. How is he? 458 00:29:58,613 --> 00:29:59,946 How was the surgery? 459 00:29:59,947 --> 00:30:02,282 Dr. Andrews will explain, 460 00:30:02,283 --> 00:30:05,189 but I'd rather not say anything more. 461 00:30:05,191 --> 00:30:08,645 The last two times I gave you bad news, you yelled at me. 462 00:30:08,647 --> 00:30:10,798 Bad news? What... What is the bad news? 463 00:30:11,115 --> 00:30:12,315 Oh. 464 00:30:16,591 --> 00:30:17,791 Okay. 465 00:30:18,014 --> 00:30:20,300 We amputated Martin's foot and ankle. 466 00:30:20,301 --> 00:30:22,936 We are now trying to reintroduce anticoagulation 467 00:30:22,937 --> 00:30:24,304 so he won't have more clots, 468 00:30:24,305 --> 00:30:26,259 but he will be at risk for more bleeding. 469 00:30:34,961 --> 00:30:36,161 Thank you. 470 00:30:37,619 --> 00:30:41,673 Mmm, are you sure you understand? 471 00:30:41,675 --> 00:30:43,957 He's still on a ventilator, 472 00:30:43,958 --> 00:30:45,805 and he... he lost a foot. 473 00:30:45,807 --> 00:30:48,409 You were very upset yesterday. 474 00:30:49,402 --> 00:30:51,409 Yesterday, I thought he was dying. 475 00:30:52,809 --> 00:30:54,277 But today he's alive. 476 00:30:55,122 --> 00:30:56,924 So, thank you. 477 00:31:01,198 --> 00:31:02,398 You're welcome. 478 00:31:05,579 --> 00:31:07,108 Can I hang up now? 479 00:31:07,986 --> 00:31:09,721 Yes. Yeah, thank... 480 00:31:14,086 --> 00:31:16,655 I figured you're bored of just hearing my voice, so... 481 00:31:17,164 --> 00:31:18,765 I brought a mutual friend. 482 00:31:20,685 --> 00:31:22,225 The risks are minimal, 483 00:31:22,227 --> 00:31:24,724 and... whatever time you have, 484 00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:27,706 some of it should be with your family. 485 00:31:56,993 --> 00:32:00,000 Yes, I'm trying to track down a Donald Sulkin. 486 00:32:00,001 --> 00:32:01,935 Nope, no one here by that name. 487 00:32:01,936 --> 00:32:03,554 Okay, sorry to bother you. 488 00:32:05,179 --> 00:32:08,415 Your plan is to call every D. Sulkin in North America, 489 00:32:08,643 --> 00:32:10,497 all to return a set of dog tags? 490 00:32:14,905 --> 00:32:17,445 You've reached Diana Sulkin, please... 491 00:32:19,220 --> 00:32:21,215 You want a happy ending for this guy. 492 00:32:21,981 --> 00:32:23,459 'Cause you and I didn't have one. 493 00:32:24,519 --> 00:32:26,626 Because we'll never know how our story could've ended. 494 00:32:26,627 --> 00:32:28,294 Hello? 495 00:32:28,295 --> 00:32:29,629 Is Donald Sulkin there? 496 00:32:29,630 --> 00:32:31,397 Sorry... This doesn't change anything. 497 00:32:31,398 --> 00:32:33,133 This can't change anything. 498 00:32:33,134 --> 00:32:35,401 You're wrong. It changes things. 499 00:32:35,402 --> 00:32:37,126 It makes me feel... 500 00:32:38,039 --> 00:32:40,062 something besides sad. 501 00:32:40,757 --> 00:32:43,509 And I need that. I need to not feel sad. 502 00:32:43,510 --> 00:32:44,978 'Cause everything sucks. 503 00:32:44,979 --> 00:32:46,880 Everything hurts like hell. 504 00:32:46,881 --> 00:32:49,115 People are sick with... with COVID, 505 00:32:49,116 --> 00:32:50,650 with cancer, with grief, 506 00:32:50,651 --> 00:32:52,418 and we can't help them. 507 00:32:52,419 --> 00:32:54,520 People are dying, and we can't help them, 508 00:32:54,521 --> 00:32:56,771 and what is worse, you're not there! 509 00:33:06,817 --> 00:33:08,443 It has to hurt. 510 00:33:09,349 --> 00:33:10,549 A lot. 511 00:33:11,172 --> 00:33:12,372 For a while. 512 00:33:13,373 --> 00:33:15,475 When your mom died, you did everything you could 513 00:33:15,476 --> 00:33:16,905 to not feel anything. 514 00:33:17,178 --> 00:33:18,499 At all. 515 00:33:18,501 --> 00:33:21,445 But this time, you're facing it. 516 00:33:21,983 --> 00:33:23,183 You're grieving. 517 00:33:24,852 --> 00:33:26,052 You're healing. 518 00:34:03,991 --> 00:34:05,191 It's time. 519 00:34:06,894 --> 00:34:08,853 No. Not today. 520 00:34:09,831 --> 00:34:11,031 Today. 521 00:34:24,697 --> 00:34:26,160 We love you, Mom. 522 00:34:29,150 --> 00:34:30,350 I'm sorry. 523 00:34:34,655 --> 00:34:35,855 It's okay. 524 00:34:37,547 --> 00:34:38,747 Mom... 525 00:34:39,768 --> 00:34:41,127 I love you. 526 00:34:42,373 --> 00:34:43,573 Good-bye. 527 00:35:08,271 --> 00:35:10,207 ♪ When the day that lies ahead of me ♪ 528 00:35:12,326 --> 00:35:15,384 ♪ Seems impossible to face ♪ 529 00:35:17,908 --> 00:35:20,511 ♪ And when someone else instead of me ♪ 530 00:35:22,055 --> 00:35:24,813 ♪ Always seems to know the way ♪ 531 00:35:24,815 --> 00:35:26,295 She's been waiting patiently 532 00:35:26,788 --> 00:35:27,988 to learn her name. 533 00:35:29,954 --> 00:35:31,154 Aria. 534 00:35:32,890 --> 00:35:34,492 I'm going to call her Aria. 535 00:35:35,626 --> 00:35:38,196 ♪ My, just one look at you ♪ 536 00:35:40,063 --> 00:35:42,298 ♪ And I know it's gonna be ♪ 537 00:35:45,236 --> 00:35:46,603 ♪ A lovely day ♪ 538 00:35:46,604 --> 00:35:48,005 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day ♪ 539 00:35:48,873 --> 00:35:51,275 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day ♪ 540 00:35:51,276 --> 00:35:55,345 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day, ♪ ♪ lovely day, lovely day ♪ 541 00:35:55,346 --> 00:35:57,013 ♪ A lovely day ♪ 542 00:35:57,014 --> 00:36:00,984 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day, ♪ ♪ lovely day, lovely day ♪ 543 00:36:00,985 --> 00:36:05,989 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day, ♪ ♪ lovely day, lovely day ♪ 544 00:36:05,990 --> 00:36:10,494 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day, ♪ ♪ lovely day, lovely day ♪ 545 00:36:10,495 --> 00:36:12,752 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day ♪ 546 00:36:12,754 --> 00:36:13,954 Honey! 547 00:36:14,699 --> 00:36:16,266 ♪ A lovely day ♪ 548 00:36:16,267 --> 00:36:20,237 ♪ Lovely day, lovely day, ♪ ♪ lovely day, lovely day ♪ 549 00:36:20,238 --> 00:36:21,439 ♪ Lovely day ♪ 550 00:36:27,942 --> 00:36:29,973 You know, my mom used to talk about you. 551 00:36:31,287 --> 00:36:32,487 A lot. 552 00:36:34,150 --> 00:36:36,232 She told me what you did in the earthquake, 553 00:36:37,422 --> 00:36:38,622 the price you paid. 554 00:36:41,535 --> 00:36:43,479 She said you can rest easy 555 00:36:43,894 --> 00:36:45,094 if you've got that 556 00:36:45,831 --> 00:36:47,879 "tough Reznick" in your corner. 557 00:36:51,676 --> 00:36:55,605 I'm thinking she didn't exactly phrase it that way, did she? 558 00:36:55,606 --> 00:36:58,008 No. She didn't. 559 00:37:13,428 --> 00:37:14,824 Donald Sulkin? 560 00:37:15,317 --> 00:37:16,825 How can I help you? 561 00:37:16,827 --> 00:37:18,850 I'm Dr. Claire Browne. 562 00:37:20,687 --> 00:37:23,901 Greg Lavin died at my hospital last month. 563 00:37:25,806 --> 00:37:27,006 Greg... 564 00:37:29,730 --> 00:37:33,560 Um, he had this with him when he passed. 565 00:37:47,444 --> 00:37:49,505 I gave these to Greg at the end of the war. 566 00:37:53,423 --> 00:37:54,623 We were... 567 00:37:57,562 --> 00:37:58,762 friends. 568 00:38:03,073 --> 00:38:04,273 Thank you. 569 00:38:05,509 --> 00:38:06,709 Thank you. 570 00:38:29,693 --> 00:38:31,234 That was beautiful. 571 00:38:33,705 --> 00:38:36,322 That room is filled with stories that were cut short. 572 00:38:37,842 --> 00:38:39,042 Like ours. 573 00:38:42,213 --> 00:38:43,413 But you, 574 00:38:44,149 --> 00:38:46,415 you have an amazing story ahead. 575 00:38:47,974 --> 00:38:49,361 I can't wait to see it. 576 00:39:13,578 --> 00:39:14,858 You can come home? 577 00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:17,240 I can come home. 578 00:39:17,892 --> 00:39:19,092 But... 579 00:39:20,151 --> 00:39:21,351 But? 580 00:39:24,121 --> 00:39:25,321 Do you love me? 581 00:39:26,316 --> 00:39:27,764 Of course I love you. 582 00:39:29,297 --> 00:39:30,871 What do you love about me? 583 00:39:33,798 --> 00:39:36,509 I love that you love our son. 584 00:39:37,825 --> 00:39:39,875 I love watching you two talk. 585 00:39:40,662 --> 00:39:44,113 I love the way Kellan lights up when he's with you. 586 00:39:45,968 --> 00:39:47,411 I love you, too. 587 00:39:48,889 --> 00:39:50,474 For all the same reasons. 588 00:39:51,795 --> 00:39:53,659 And we both wanna be there for Kellan. 589 00:39:54,084 --> 00:39:55,284 And we are. 590 00:39:57,266 --> 00:39:58,466 But... 591 00:40:00,917 --> 00:40:03,649 You and I don't need to be together to do that. 592 00:40:16,512 --> 00:40:18,089 Are you okay if... 593 00:40:21,979 --> 00:40:25,012 Maybe it's time we stopped coming here. 594 00:40:25,483 --> 00:40:26,929 You're ready to move on? 595 00:40:27,618 --> 00:40:28,818 No. 596 00:40:29,954 --> 00:40:31,765 But he'll still be with us, right? 597 00:40:31,959 --> 00:40:33,319 Wherever we are. 598 00:40:37,002 --> 00:40:38,327 He changed me. 599 00:40:43,501 --> 00:40:45,103 That's not gonna go away. 600 00:41:01,773 --> 00:41:05,187 I have everything I need to stay overnight, 601 00:41:05,189 --> 00:41:07,897 including this... Negative for COVID. 602 00:41:09,235 --> 00:41:11,795 I know negative tests are unreliable, 603 00:41:11,796 --> 00:41:13,891 but it's my third in three days.