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Mm.

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Kinda overcooked the eggs.

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Not used to a gas stove.
Sorry.

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Last thing I want
is food right now.

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Ah, lightweight.

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You know, I outdrank you
at least two to one.

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Never mind
I was rolling on Molly.

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I'm a cheap date.

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I'll take the coffee, though.

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You're a doctor?

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Well, Dr. Browne...

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I had fun last night.

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Me too.

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And that unenthusiastic response
answers my question.

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"Wanna meet up again?"

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I'll get out of here.

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Hey, Shaun ‐‐

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I have a question
for Dr. Glassman.

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Uh, he's, uh, in the shower.

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Do you want to come on ‐‐
When did his shower begin?

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Just ‐‐ He just got in.

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His showers
are at least nine minutes.

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I'd be late to work.

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I'll wait.
This is important.

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Is there something
I can help with?

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The florist told me
the pink roses express passion

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and the purple Peruvian lilies
convey devotion,

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but I feel both passion
and devotion for Carly.

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You could give her both.

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Please ask Dr. Glassman
to text me the answer

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as soon as he gets
out of the shower.

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Well... what's
Carly's favorite color?

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'Cause flowers
don't really have meaning.

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That's just a tactic
to boost sales.

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Purple.

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There you go.

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Hi, Shaun.

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I'd like to have sex tonight.

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Would you?

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Yes.

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39‐year‐old male,
multi‐car accident,

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blunt abdominal injuries,

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including ruptured spleen
and lacerated liver.

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What's his G. C. S.?
Nine.

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Intraperitoneal free fluid
in the right upper quadrant.

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We need an O. R., stat.

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Page Melendez.

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We were at
our engagement photoshoot.

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I thought
it was just a migraine.

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I get them sometimes
with the flashing lights.

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Then she started
slurring her words.

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I was trying to tell him

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that I couldn't feel
or move my left side.

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The only thing that got me
through was Tony telling me,

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"Okay, it will be."

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How long before your symptoms
began to subside?

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About half an hour.

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By the time we got here,
all I had was a mild headache.

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I think you had
a transient ischemic attack.

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A mini‐stroke.

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A stroke?
Mini.

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Jeanie's 25.

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Which is why we'll need
an MRI, cardiac echo, and labs

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before...
we know for sure.

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Melendez:
Cauterize that bleed.

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That's it for the liver.

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What's his mean
arterial pressure?

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67.

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What was that place
with the deviled oysters

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you took Dr. Lim to?

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Oh, Mia's in town.

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As some of you may be aware,

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Dr. Lim and I are
no longer together.

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It's called Half Shell.

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Downtown, off Second.

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Remove the packing.

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Look at the aorta.

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Likely a laceration
from the accident.

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We'll need to dissect
further to determine the
extent of the damage.

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B.P.'s skyrocketing.

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He's just suffered
massive blood loss.

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He's under anesthesia.
He should be hypotensive.

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Pulmonary embolism?

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Push beta‐blockers.

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That‐‐ That'd kill him.

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He's tachycardic
and hyperthermic.

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I think he must be on something.

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MDMA mixed with anesthesia?

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Give him a low dose
of nitroglycerin

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and calcium channel blockers.

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B.P.'s dropping.

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It's working.

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Push the full dose.
Close him up.

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We're gonna have to
wait for the MDMA to
leave his bloodstream.

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We'll get a better look
at the aorta via imaging.

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Good call.

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I need to use the restroom.

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Hang in there, Jeanie.
Just a couple more minutes.

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You should ask me
what I'm going to do tonight.

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Um... okay.

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But just to make it feel

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more like
an actual conversation...

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Nothing much.

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I've got a yoga class and a date
with Ben & Jerry tonight.

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How about you, Shaun?

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I'm having sex with Carly.

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Whoa.

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It's my first time.

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Mazel tov.

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It took us 22 days to kiss,

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nine more to hold hands ‐‐

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although, we don't really
hold hands when we hold hands ‐‐

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and another six to touch
more than one thing at a time.

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But now I'm ready.

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That's a lot of foreplay.

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I've been reading about
the four stages of arousal ‐‐

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Fair warning ‐‐
the first time for most people

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is kind of awful.

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Your first time was awful?

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Not an appropriate question
to ask a colleague.

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Although, there's an exception
to every rule.

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Which books did your lover
read to prepare?

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No clots, no bleeds,
no occlusions, no P. F. O.

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W‐‐

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She didn't have a stroke.

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She's having a seizure.

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Pushing diazepam.

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She had to use the restroom.

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Her bladder is distended.

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Whatever it's pressing against
must be causing these attacks.

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CT shows
she has two pelvic lesions,

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and labs show elevated levels
of catecholamines.

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The pain meds we gave her could
have distended her bladder,

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which is abutting
one of the tumors,

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setting off her second attack.

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But what set off the first one?

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Sexual intercourse.

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The other tumor appears
to be within her clitoris.

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Progressive impact may have
destabilized it over time.

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And now she's at risk
of having more seizures.

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Sex could kill this woman.

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He's stable, and the MDMA
is out of his system.

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We're good to go back in
and graft the aorta.

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We're just getting caught up
with blood loss

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and fluid resuscitation.

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An endovascular stent
is minimally invasive.

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It is a better option
than a graft.

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But a stent could clot off
because we won't be able
to give blood thinners.

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His liver is still
a bleeding risk.

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Let's take our chances
with the stent.

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We can be in and out
and have him back in the ICU,

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where we can focus
on his recovery.

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I do not want to proceed
without consent.

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He won't regain consciousness
for another couple of hours.

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We shouldn't wait that long.

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Get it from his wife.
She's on her way here now.

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We can remove the tumors,

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but it means
we also have to remove

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most of your vagina
and clitoris.

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You can still have children.

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Via C‐section. It won't affect
your uterus or ovaries.

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What about sex?

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You won't be able
to have intercourse

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or experience an orgasm.

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I‐It doesn't make sense.

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I've been sexually active
for five years.

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Never had any attacks.

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We suspect the tumor's
been dormant for some time.

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What if I don't have
the surgery?

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What are the odds
of another attack?

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There are many variables
involved,

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including frequency, duration,
sexual position, penis size ‐‐

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About 2%.

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Each time?

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Each time.

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On average, couples have sex
52 times per year,

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which means
in the next three years,

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your chance of having
a life‐threatening attack

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is well over 95%.

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I think we'll take our chances.

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Morgan: You should talk it over
between yourselves,

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perhaps with a counselor ‐‐

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I understand the situation.

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I don't want the surgery.

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I'll catch up.

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Hey.

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Hey.

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Missed you
at the research meeting.

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I was in surgery.
Craniotomy.

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Now I have two consults,
a meeting with a donor,

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and a hospital chair meeting.

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Well, don't forget
to eat something.

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Ah, food is for the weak.

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So is waiting for this elevator.

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Are we okay?

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Yeah.

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Sorry, I'm just busy.

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00:11:07,314 --> 00:11:08,858
Park: We're recommending
the stent.

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00:11:08,858 --> 00:11:12,271
It risks clotting, but it's also
less invasive than the graft.

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00:11:12,271 --> 00:11:14,982
The graft would be
a more permanent repair,

201
00:11:14,982 --> 00:11:17,651
but there's greater chance
of surgical complications.

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00:11:21,070 --> 00:11:22,956
I have to trust you, right?

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00:11:28,212 --> 00:11:30,130
Is Dad gonna be okay?

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00:11:30,130 --> 00:11:31,840
Oh, absolutely, darling.

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00:11:34,259 --> 00:11:36,178
We're gonna take good care
of your dad.

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00:11:36,178 --> 00:11:38,097
He'll be home
before you know it, okay?

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00:11:38,097 --> 00:11:39,431
Okay.

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00:11:42,184 --> 00:11:43,184
Thank you.

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00:11:45,020 --> 00:11:47,523
If we send her home
without the surgery, she'll die.

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We don't know that.

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00:11:49,108 --> 00:11:52,528
And taking away sex
from a young couple in love?

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00:11:53,271 --> 00:11:54,522
That's devastating.

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00:11:54,522 --> 00:11:56,399
So's death.

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00:11:56,399 --> 00:11:58,901
How much time does a couple
actually spend having sex?

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19 minutes per week,
including foreplay.

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00:12:03,857 --> 00:12:06,318
The rest ‐‐
that's the real relationship.

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00:12:06,318 --> 00:12:08,820
Forget the act itself.

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00:12:08,820 --> 00:12:10,488
Sex is crucial to the happiness

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00:12:10,488 --> 00:12:12,407
and satisfaction
of a relationship.

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Sex is destructive.

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It turns people into liars
and cheaters and idiots.

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00:12:17,662 --> 00:12:19,039
It might start relationships,

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00:12:19,039 --> 00:12:21,333
but more often than not,
it rips them apart.

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She got devastating news

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and made an emotional decision
without thinking it through.

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The least we can do
is get her counseling.

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Was she offered counseling
when you gave her the diagnosis?

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Briefly, but she was still
reeling from the ‐‐

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Then it's over.

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When she's stable,
discharge her.

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00:12:35,013 --> 00:12:36,013
Thank you.

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00:12:41,135 --> 00:12:45,222
Yeah, the pink heart
and purple star...

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How are you feeling?

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00:12:46,849 --> 00:12:49,060
Hi, Doctor.
He's doing great.

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00:12:49,060 --> 00:12:50,645
Hi.
I'm Dr. Browne.

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You had a tear in your aorta,

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but we stabilized it
with a stent.

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Until we can give you
blood thinners,

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you'll be at risk of a clot,

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00:12:59,905 --> 00:13:02,699
so we'll be
monitoring you closely.

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00:13:02,699 --> 00:13:06,036
But right now, everything is
looking absolutely perfect.

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00:13:06,036 --> 00:13:07,078
Oh!

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00:13:07,078 --> 00:13:08,580
Gentle.

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00:13:10,206 --> 00:13:11,666
See, Cupcake?

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00:13:11,666 --> 00:13:13,668
It's all good.

246
00:13:13,668 --> 00:13:15,921
Why didn't you come home
last night?

247
00:13:15,921 --> 00:13:18,173
Daddy had a sleepover
at Uncle Jeff's.

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00:13:18,173 --> 00:13:20,842
He got a new turtle.
You can see it next time.

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00:13:29,868 --> 00:13:31,453
Your blood pressure
is responding well

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00:13:31,453 --> 00:13:32,788
to the alpha‐blockers.

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00:13:32,788 --> 00:13:34,289
We'll run labs.

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If they're normal, you can be
discharged in the morning.

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00:13:35,749 --> 00:13:36,917
Thank you.

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00:13:39,570 --> 00:13:41,489
You'll want to be aware
at all times

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of where
the closest hospital is.

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Every time you have intercourse,

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you'll be endangering
your fiancée's life.

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00:13:50,490 --> 00:13:52,242
I‐I'm aware of that.

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00:13:52,242 --> 00:13:54,285
We both are.

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00:13:54,285 --> 00:13:56,329
But it's Jeanie's body.
It's her decision.

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00:13:56,329 --> 00:13:58,832
I'm just... trying
to be supportive.

262
00:13:58,832 --> 00:14:00,166
I don't think you are.

263
00:14:00,166 --> 00:14:02,001
You're being selfish.

264
00:14:02,001 --> 00:14:03,086
She's risking her life,

265
00:14:03,086 --> 00:14:04,504
and you're keeping
your mouth shut

266
00:14:04,504 --> 00:14:05,672
so you can keep getting laid.

267
00:14:06,565 --> 00:14:09,360
You do think I'm making
the right decision?

268
00:14:11,528 --> 00:14:13,364
Yes.

269
00:14:13,364 --> 00:14:14,490
I do.

270
00:14:24,708 --> 00:14:26,252
Thanks.

271
00:14:32,283 --> 00:14:34,911
He really is gonna be fine.

272
00:14:34,911 --> 00:14:36,496
I know. Thank you.

273
00:14:38,164 --> 00:14:39,332
You okay?

274
00:14:42,561 --> 00:14:44,980
I think he's cheating on me.

275
00:14:44,980 --> 00:14:47,357
His brother lives
in Willow Glen,

276
00:14:47,357 --> 00:14:50,861
the other side of the city
from where he had his accident.

277
00:14:50,861 --> 00:14:53,280
What did he say about it?

278
00:14:53,280 --> 00:14:57,075
That he had a breakfast meeting
with a client.

279
00:14:57,075 --> 00:14:59,912
Not unlike the excuse he used
last time he cheated.

280
00:15:01,931 --> 00:15:04,017
Him denying it
was the worst part.

281
00:15:04,017 --> 00:15:06,019
Made me doubt myself.

282
00:15:06,019 --> 00:15:09,606
You know, was I just
a paranoid, jealous wife,

283
00:15:09,606 --> 00:15:11,232
throwing out wild accusations?

284
00:15:16,404 --> 00:15:21,034
Your husband has just had
a serious car accident,

285
00:15:21,034 --> 00:15:23,244
and you're very stressed.

286
00:15:24,996 --> 00:15:27,790
Right now, all you should be
thinking about is...

287
00:15:27,790 --> 00:15:29,083
getting him better.

288
00:15:32,211 --> 00:15:33,421
You're right.

289
00:15:36,257 --> 00:15:37,842
Thank you.

290
00:15:37,842 --> 00:15:39,260
Not at all.

291
00:15:45,224 --> 00:15:46,809
Would you like
to take my top off?

292
00:15:46,809 --> 00:15:48,770
Yes.

293
00:16:02,158 --> 00:16:04,243
Would you like me
to take your shirt off?

294
00:16:04,243 --> 00:16:06,287
No.

295
00:16:06,287 --> 00:16:09,165
I would like to do it myself.

296
00:16:09,165 --> 00:16:10,625
Even better.

297
00:16:24,694 --> 00:16:26,057
Okay.

298
00:16:27,725 --> 00:16:29,018
I've got it.

299
00:16:34,816 --> 00:16:35,817
I‐I got it.
Okay.

300
00:16:50,415 --> 00:16:52,417
Mm.

301
00:16:52,417 --> 00:16:53,543
Do you want to slow down?

302
00:16:55,670 --> 00:16:57,422
Do you want to stop?

303
00:17:03,261 --> 00:17:06,556
I'd like to go watch some TV.

304
00:17:28,864 --> 00:17:30,782
So, eh, you weren't feeling it?

305
00:17:30,782 --> 00:17:31,576
I was definitely feeling it.

306
00:17:31,576 --> 00:17:33,202
She ‐‐ Mm.

307
00:17:33,202 --> 00:17:34,912
I don't know.

308
00:17:34,912 --> 00:17:36,455
I think you're confused.

309
00:17:36,455 --> 00:17:38,290
I think ‐‐
I think it's emotional

310
00:17:38,290 --> 00:17:40,083
and it's hormonal,
and ‐‐ and ‐‐ and maybe ‐‐

311
00:17:40,083 --> 00:17:41,752
I wasn't confused.

312
00:17:43,420 --> 00:17:44,713
She had a tattoo.

313
00:17:44,713 --> 00:17:46,673
It was half a heart.

314
00:17:46,673 --> 00:17:49,218
I don't understand why someone
would get an incomplete tattoo.

315
00:17:49,218 --> 00:17:51,178
She shouldn't have something
that's incomplete

316
00:17:51,178 --> 00:17:53,388
on her body that I can see.

317
00:17:55,449 --> 00:17:57,159
You sure it was the tattoo?

318
00:17:57,159 --> 00:17:57,911
Yes.

319
00:17:57,911 --> 00:17:59,703
It is a...

320
00:17:59,703 --> 00:18:04,249
very disturbing tattoo
that makes no sense.

321
00:18:04,249 --> 00:18:07,086
Maybe it's not about the tattoo.

322
00:18:07,086 --> 00:18:08,671
I mean...

323
00:18:08,671 --> 00:18:11,465
maybe it's about intimacy?

324
00:18:11,465 --> 00:18:14,140
Letting another person into
your life ‐‐ that's a big deal.

325
00:18:14,140 --> 00:18:15,874
I know. Trust me.

326
00:18:15,874 --> 00:18:19,557
There are gonna be things
about her that you love

327
00:18:19,557 --> 00:18:22,317
and things about her
that you don't.

328
00:18:22,317 --> 00:18:24,778
And there are certain things,
like the tattoo,

329
00:18:24,778 --> 00:18:26,907
you ‐‐ you can't change.

330
00:18:26,907 --> 00:18:29,494
Because...

331
00:18:29,494 --> 00:18:31,872
because...

332
00:18:31,872 --> 00:18:33,373
well, it's worth it.

333
00:18:36,078 --> 00:18:38,790
She can get the tattoo removed.

334
00:18:38,790 --> 00:18:41,668
She can't get
the tattoo removed, Shaun.

335
00:18:41,668 --> 00:18:44,129
I don't think
it's about the tattoo.

336
00:18:44,904 --> 00:18:47,565
We are backed up.

337
00:18:47,565 --> 00:18:48,566
Sorry, Shaun.

338
00:18:54,839 --> 00:18:55,840
Okay.

339
00:18:59,051 --> 00:19:00,470
Carly:
Everything looks good.

340
00:19:00,704 --> 00:19:02,722
Could've just checked them
on the E. M. R.

341
00:19:02,722 --> 00:19:03,931
I know.

342
00:19:04,265 --> 00:19:05,475
How's it going with Shaun?

343
00:19:06,193 --> 00:19:08,696
He tends to overshare
with coworkers.

344
00:19:08,696 --> 00:19:09,949
Yes, he does.

345
00:19:09,949 --> 00:19:12,285
And he was oversharing
up until this morning,

346
00:19:12,285 --> 00:19:14,747
so I'm guessing
the Night of a Thousand Stars

347
00:19:14,747 --> 00:19:16,249
didn't go as planned?

348
00:19:16,249 --> 00:19:18,211
We're fine, thanks.

349
00:19:18,211 --> 00:19:19,740
Of course.

350
00:19:19,740 --> 00:19:22,374
You waited three weeks
for a kiss. You're a saint.

351
00:19:22,374 --> 00:19:24,084
That didn't sound
like a compliment.

352
00:19:25,272 --> 00:19:28,109
I like Shaun,
and I love that he's dating,

353
00:19:28,109 --> 00:19:29,695
but I can't help thinking

354
00:19:29,695 --> 00:19:31,489
that the kind of person
who'd go out with Shaun

355
00:19:31,489 --> 00:19:34,243
might be seeing him
more as a project than a person.

356
00:19:34,243 --> 00:19:36,495
And I'd rather not see him
get his heart broken.

357
00:19:38,978 --> 00:19:42,107
Last week,
two techs called in sick.

358
00:19:42,107 --> 00:19:45,727
I had to diagnose and file
over 200 slides.

359
00:19:45,727 --> 00:19:47,188
But when I told Shaun,

360
00:19:47,188 --> 00:19:48,941
he came down and he helped me
get through them

361
00:19:48,941 --> 00:19:50,849
until 3:00
in the morning.

362
00:19:50,849 --> 00:19:55,437
I am not going out with Shaun
because I have a martyr complex.

363
00:19:55,802 --> 00:19:57,221
I'm going out with him
'cause he's a great guy

364
00:19:57,221 --> 00:19:59,308
who treats me well.

365
00:19:59,308 --> 00:20:01,352
And the condescending notion
that someone needs

366
00:20:01,352 --> 00:20:04,419
an ulterior motive
to be interested in him

367
00:20:04,419 --> 00:20:07,744
means you're the one who isn't
seeing him as a person.

368
00:20:18,906 --> 00:20:21,959
Your craniotomy ended an hour
before the research meeting.

369
00:20:21,959 --> 00:20:23,961
You didn't miss the meeting
'cause you were in surgery.

370
00:20:23,961 --> 00:20:25,879
I think you missed the meeting
because I was gonna be there.

371
00:20:25,879 --> 00:20:29,007
I'm busy. I can show you
my calendar if you'd like.

372
00:20:29,007 --> 00:20:31,218
You dumped me. I should be
the one avoiding you.

373
00:20:31,218 --> 00:20:32,344
What's going on?

374
00:20:33,220 --> 00:20:35,306
Are you having second thoughts?

375
00:20:35,306 --> 00:20:37,308
No. I'm not.

376
00:20:44,147 --> 00:20:46,858
Why are you willing to die
for sex?

377
00:20:50,755 --> 00:20:53,841
Sex creates...

378
00:20:53,841 --> 00:20:56,260
vulnerability,

379
00:20:56,260 --> 00:20:58,388
lets you be open,

380
00:20:58,388 --> 00:21:01,182
honest with each other,

381
00:21:01,182 --> 00:21:03,393
share your biggest fears.

382
00:21:03,393 --> 00:21:06,479
Sometimes, you shouldn't share.

383
00:21:06,479 --> 00:21:09,148
Sometimes, you have to
just accept, right?

384
00:21:09,148 --> 00:21:11,234
Wrong.

385
00:21:11,234 --> 00:21:14,237
What you have to accept, that's
not for anyone else to say.

386
00:21:14,971 --> 00:21:18,558
If you don't tell your partner
everything that you're feeling,

387
00:21:18,558 --> 00:21:21,937
thinking, worrying about,

388
00:21:21,937 --> 00:21:25,982
then you aren't fully connected.

389
00:21:32,515 --> 00:21:34,725
Close your eyes.

390
00:21:34,725 --> 00:21:37,269
Yes, this is one of those
dumb sensory exercises,

391
00:21:37,269 --> 00:21:38,479
but just go with it.

392
00:21:43,898 --> 00:21:47,689
Now tell me one of your favorite
memories with your fiancée.

393
00:21:48,290 --> 00:21:52,044
Last summer,
we went camping in Yosemite.

394
00:21:52,044 --> 00:21:53,712
We decided to rough it

395
00:21:53,712 --> 00:21:56,506
by only packing PB&J sandwiches.

396
00:21:56,506 --> 00:21:58,717
The first night,
a bear rips into our tent

397
00:21:58,717 --> 00:22:00,385
and devours them.

398
00:22:00,385 --> 00:22:02,596
And the next night, of course,
we had this hole in our tent,

399
00:22:02,596 --> 00:22:08,143
and the mosquitos
just ate us alive.

400
00:22:08,143 --> 00:22:11,696
And the bug spray
that we thought we packed?

401
00:22:11,696 --> 00:22:13,031
It was sunscreen.

402
00:22:13,031 --> 00:22:15,033
And then
when it started pouring,

403
00:22:15,033 --> 00:22:18,745
we turned to each other
at the same time and we said,

404
00:22:18,745 --> 00:22:20,372
"Denny's."

405
00:22:21,139 --> 00:22:23,100
And that's when I knew
I wanted to marry her.

406
00:22:23,100 --> 00:22:24,100
Great.

407
00:22:26,812 --> 00:22:30,149
That was a memory of something
you got through together,

408
00:22:30,149 --> 00:22:32,359
not about the time
you had a threesome in Miami.

409
00:22:34,028 --> 00:22:35,112
It was New Orleans.

410
00:22:36,447 --> 00:22:38,657
The threesome was
in New Orleans, not Miami.

411
00:22:38,657 --> 00:22:41,202
And it was way better
than the bear trip.

412
00:22:42,444 --> 00:22:45,531
But I wasn't gonna tell
my fiancée's doctor about it.

413
00:22:45,531 --> 00:22:48,826
Sex... makes you real
with someone.

414
00:22:48,826 --> 00:22:49,952
Sex makes you stupid.

415
00:22:52,705 --> 00:22:55,082
I had the perfect man.

416
00:22:55,082 --> 00:22:59,462
He was... smart
and funny.

417
00:22:59,462 --> 00:23:02,089
He squeezed the sponge
after washing the dishes.

418
00:23:04,985 --> 00:23:08,655
Then one night, I‐I met some guy
and I had a few drinks,

419
00:23:08,655 --> 00:23:10,574
and, um...

420
00:23:10,574 --> 00:23:13,660
I got all tingly
and got really stupid.

421
00:23:13,660 --> 00:23:15,329
Never saw him again.

422
00:23:17,372 --> 00:23:18,749
Or my boyfriend.

423
00:23:20,284 --> 00:23:24,913
Sex can make us feel
incredibly close to someone ‐‐

424
00:23:24,913 --> 00:23:27,124
honest,

425
00:23:27,124 --> 00:23:28,626
vulnerable.

426
00:23:30,785 --> 00:23:35,124
But sex is not the goal.

427
00:23:35,124 --> 00:23:38,169
All the rest
of those things are.

428
00:23:42,122 --> 00:23:44,459
She's the love of my life.

429
00:23:44,459 --> 00:23:46,753
And I always thought
that we were strong

430
00:23:46,753 --> 00:23:49,172
and that we can overcome
anything together.

431
00:23:50,940 --> 00:23:53,067
But without sex...

432
00:23:54,786 --> 00:23:57,205
...I don't know if...

433
00:23:57,205 --> 00:23:58,748
if we have enough.

434
00:24:02,169 --> 00:24:03,628
Okay.

435
00:24:07,249 --> 00:24:09,084
Then you need to lie to her.

436
00:24:13,297 --> 00:24:15,632
Nurse said you'd be here
an hour ago.

437
00:24:15,632 --> 00:24:18,302
Yeah, well,
you're not my only patient.

438
00:24:20,095 --> 00:24:21,555
Look, I get it.

439
00:24:21,555 --> 00:24:24,349
This is about as awkward
as it gets.

440
00:24:25,642 --> 00:24:26,894
Yes, it is.

441
00:24:29,605 --> 00:24:31,398
You know, I almost died
in that accident.

442
00:24:36,320 --> 00:24:39,531
When I woke up, all I could
think about was my wife...

443
00:24:39,531 --> 00:24:41,950
and my little girl...

444
00:24:41,950 --> 00:24:44,786
and how much of an ass I'd been
and how hurt they'd be.

445
00:24:47,372 --> 00:24:49,416
So, why is it
that once I get out of here,

446
00:24:49,416 --> 00:24:52,336
I'm gonna keep cheating on them?

447
00:24:52,336 --> 00:24:54,755
I can't help it.

448
00:24:54,755 --> 00:24:58,967
No matter how much remorse
or guilt...

449
00:24:58,967 --> 00:25:01,428
I feel like I always give in.

450
00:25:01,428 --> 00:25:02,679
Then you should leave them.

451
00:25:02,679 --> 00:25:04,473
I can't.

452
00:25:04,473 --> 00:25:05,557
I love them.

453
00:25:08,143 --> 00:25:10,187
How messed up is that, right?

454
00:25:15,150 --> 00:25:17,653
But I think you know.

455
00:25:17,653 --> 00:25:20,072
Yeah, well, I don't cheat.

456
00:25:20,072 --> 00:25:22,741
I saw you checking me out
in the bar.

457
00:25:22,741 --> 00:25:24,326
My left hand,

458
00:25:24,326 --> 00:25:27,746
just making sure I was married.

459
00:25:32,584 --> 00:25:34,962
You're just as big a cheater
as me, Dr. Browne.

460
00:25:39,925 --> 00:25:42,511
My, uh, leg...

461
00:25:42,511 --> 00:25:43,720
it's ‐‐ it's cold.

462
00:25:56,268 --> 00:25:57,978
No pulse.

463
00:25:57,978 --> 00:25:59,271
Your stent has formed a clot.

464
00:25:59,271 --> 00:26:00,271
We need an angio, stat!

465
00:26:03,383 --> 00:26:05,010
Everything okay?

466
00:26:05,010 --> 00:26:07,345
You haven't said a word
since "Pass the salt."

467
00:26:09,555 --> 00:26:11,182
It's about Shaun, isn't it?

468
00:26:14,027 --> 00:26:15,737
Two weeks ago,

469
00:26:15,737 --> 00:26:18,490
you asked me to give him
romantic advice,

470
00:26:18,490 --> 00:26:20,075
which I didn't want to do.

471
00:26:20,075 --> 00:26:22,828
And then he comes into my office
for romantic advice,

472
00:26:22,828 --> 00:26:24,371
and you kick him right out.

473
00:26:24,371 --> 00:26:26,457
It's because
you're helping him too much.

474
00:26:26,457 --> 00:26:28,208
He is completely dependent
on you.

475
00:26:28,208 --> 00:26:29,543
For good reason.

476
00:26:29,543 --> 00:26:31,712
He hasn't spoken to his parents
since he was 14.

477
00:26:31,712 --> 00:26:33,589
The only person
he cared about...

478
00:26:33,589 --> 00:26:35,883
died right in front of his eyes.

479
00:26:35,883 --> 00:26:40,012
Aaron, I know
how much you love him.

480
00:26:40,012 --> 00:26:43,849
How you hate to see him
struggle, fail, get hurt.

481
00:26:45,392 --> 00:26:47,644
But you need to let him.

482
00:26:47,644 --> 00:26:50,105
And he'll be okay.

483
00:26:50,105 --> 00:26:53,400
Because he has someone else
in his life now.

484
00:26:53,400 --> 00:26:55,152
Just like you do.

485
00:26:57,813 --> 00:27:02,235
Placing guide wire
through the needle.

486
00:27:02,235 --> 00:27:03,361
Placing catheter.

487
00:27:05,130 --> 00:27:07,090
So, how do you know this guy?

488
00:27:07,090 --> 00:27:08,591
You knew he was on MDMA,

489
00:27:08,591 --> 00:27:10,260
you've been avoiding him
since he arrived,

490
00:27:10,260 --> 00:27:12,887
and... I checked
on his accident.

491
00:27:12,887 --> 00:27:14,431
It was a half mile
from your place.

492
00:27:17,017 --> 00:27:18,768
I was with him
the night before the accident,

493
00:27:18,768 --> 00:27:19,978
but it's not relevant.

494
00:27:19,978 --> 00:27:21,479
It hasn't affected my judgement.

495
00:27:21,479 --> 00:27:22,814
Yes, it has.

496
00:27:22,814 --> 00:27:24,357
If you hadn't been avoiding him,

497
00:27:24,357 --> 00:27:25,757
we could've
caught the clot earlier.

498
00:27:28,462 --> 00:27:30,714
I figure you've been
going through something lately.

499
00:27:32,174 --> 00:27:33,551
Something
that's really hurt you.

500
00:27:35,886 --> 00:27:38,848
And maybe it's making you turn
to things you normally wouldn't.

501
00:27:39,966 --> 00:27:41,717
But some of the guys you meet
are gonna be trouble,

502
00:27:41,717 --> 00:27:43,219
some are gonna be married,
some are gonna ‐‐

503
00:27:43,219 --> 00:27:44,887
He took a vow, not me.

504
00:27:50,134 --> 00:27:51,594
That's the exact attitude
someone had

505
00:27:51,594 --> 00:27:53,012
when they helped ruin my life.

506
00:27:54,313 --> 00:27:55,481
There's the clot.

507
00:27:58,776 --> 00:28:00,444
Activating angio jet.

508
00:28:03,505 --> 00:28:04,674
It's too big to bust.

509
00:28:04,674 --> 00:28:05,967
We have to open him up.

510
00:28:07,803 --> 00:28:10,389
You said to accept things
I don't like, but Jeanie said

511
00:28:10,389 --> 00:28:12,432
I have to share everything,
and I don't know ‐‐
Shaun. Shaun.

512
00:28:12,432 --> 00:28:13,976
Shaun, stop, stop, stop.

513
00:28:14,942 --> 00:28:17,153
I have to go home.

514
00:28:17,153 --> 00:28:20,156
I can walk you to your car.
Is it very far?

515
00:28:20,156 --> 00:28:22,408
I think this discussion
will take at least 15 minutes,

516
00:28:22,408 --> 00:28:23,951
so maybe you can drive me?

517
00:28:23,951 --> 00:28:25,578
We have to set boundaries, okay?

518
00:28:25,578 --> 00:28:27,163
We have to set some limits.

519
00:28:27,163 --> 00:28:29,832
You can't just come over
6:30 in the morning,

520
00:28:29,832 --> 00:28:31,584
uh, uh, for flower advice.

521
00:28:31,584 --> 00:28:33,878
You can't just pop into
my office anytime you want.

522
00:28:33,878 --> 00:28:35,212
Is this because of Debbie?

523
00:28:35,212 --> 00:28:35,963
No.

524
00:28:35,963 --> 00:28:36,963
Yes.

525
00:28:40,791 --> 00:28:44,003
And I agree with her.

526
00:28:44,003 --> 00:28:46,047
It was different when it was
just the two of us,

527
00:28:46,047 --> 00:28:47,924
but now we have people
in our lives ‐‐

528
00:28:47,924 --> 00:28:49,676
both of us.

529
00:28:49,676 --> 00:28:51,344
We have to make them
the priority.

530
00:28:52,882 --> 00:28:56,469
Does this mean
we can't talk anymore?

531
00:28:56,469 --> 00:28:58,638
No, of course we can talk.
Of ‐‐

532
00:28:59,846 --> 00:29:02,182
It's just that there's a time
and a place for everything.

533
00:29:02,182 --> 00:29:05,477
And this is
the wrong time and place?

534
00:29:11,274 --> 00:29:12,775
Yeah.

535
00:29:20,440 --> 00:29:23,318
7:00 a. m. Tuesday.
Pancakes.

536
00:29:26,351 --> 00:29:28,771
I liked it better

537
00:29:28,771 --> 00:29:31,440
when it was just the two of us.

538
00:29:40,783 --> 00:29:42,702
125 over 78.

539
00:29:42,702 --> 00:29:44,203
Looks good.

540
00:29:57,916 --> 00:29:59,834
Nice bug spray.

541
00:29:59,834 --> 00:30:02,296
SPF 50.

542
00:30:02,296 --> 00:30:03,839
Not much went right that trip.

543
00:30:06,397 --> 00:30:08,174
But...

544
00:30:08,174 --> 00:30:12,053
the more things went wrong,

545
00:30:12,053 --> 00:30:13,638
the closer I felt to you.

546
00:30:15,932 --> 00:30:17,642
We'll get through this, too.

547
00:30:21,681 --> 00:30:24,059
I don't know.

548
00:30:25,261 --> 00:30:28,806
Sex has always been...

549
00:30:28,806 --> 00:30:29,932
our language.

550
00:30:31,554 --> 00:30:35,266
Our way of sharing who we are
with each other.

551
00:30:35,266 --> 00:30:36,934
And if we lose that...

552
00:30:39,395 --> 00:30:41,814
...what if
we don't have enough?

553
00:30:41,814 --> 00:30:45,192
We'll still have...

554
00:30:45,192 --> 00:30:47,319
honesty,

555
00:30:47,319 --> 00:30:48,988
intimacy,

556
00:30:48,988 --> 00:30:50,990
love,

557
00:30:50,990 --> 00:30:52,700
three kids.

558
00:30:52,700 --> 00:30:53,951
Two boys and a girl.

559
00:31:02,279 --> 00:31:03,446
I love you more than sex.

560
00:31:05,282 --> 00:31:07,117
I love you more than sex, too.

561
00:31:19,949 --> 00:31:24,119
Does... this mean
you're getting the surgery?

562
00:31:26,330 --> 00:31:27,790
Yeah.

563
00:31:32,622 --> 00:31:34,290
Park: 90 minutes
without a pulse in his leg.

564
00:31:34,290 --> 00:31:35,625
He's at high risk for necrosis.

565
00:31:35,625 --> 00:31:37,543
Prosthetic successfully
sutured to aorta.

566
00:31:37,543 --> 00:31:39,545
Almost done with
the distal right anastomosis.

567
00:31:39,545 --> 00:31:41,464
Careful not to narrow the artery
during suturing.

568
00:31:41,464 --> 00:31:42,632
Mm‐hmm.

569
00:32:00,884 --> 00:32:03,553
Blood flow restored.
Good arterial pulse.

570
00:32:03,553 --> 00:32:05,430
Good job catching that clot,
Dr. Browne.

571
00:32:05,430 --> 00:32:07,350
If we'd waited any longer,
we'd have to amputate.

572
00:32:08,979 --> 00:32:10,188
Thank you.

573
00:32:10,188 --> 00:32:12,732
It... was a team effort.

574
00:32:15,816 --> 00:32:18,693
Andrews: Making incision
at the vaginal wall.

575
00:32:18,693 --> 00:32:20,529
Murphy, develop margins
at the lesion.

576
00:32:20,529 --> 00:32:21,696
Shaun: Forceps.

577
00:32:21,696 --> 00:32:23,490
Nicely done.

578
00:32:23,490 --> 00:32:25,700
How you turned your patient
around.

579
00:32:25,700 --> 00:32:27,869
It was nice
when Tony told Jeanie

580
00:32:27,869 --> 00:32:29,329
he loved her more than sex.

581
00:32:31,206 --> 00:32:32,374
He was lying.

582
00:32:33,790 --> 00:32:36,084
I told him that if he cared
about her at all, he had to.

583
00:32:38,003 --> 00:32:39,171
Maybe it was the truth.

584
00:32:41,098 --> 00:32:45,102
It can be true
without him knowing it's true.

585
00:33:02,053 --> 00:33:03,304
What's wrong?

586
00:33:03,995 --> 00:33:07,708
Dr. Glassman told me
I have to accept things,

587
00:33:07,708 --> 00:33:10,210
but Jeanie said
to be open and honest.

588
00:33:10,210 --> 00:33:12,170
I agree with Jeanie ‐‐

589
00:33:12,170 --> 00:33:14,339
whoever she is.

590
00:33:14,339 --> 00:33:16,258
It's your tattoo.

591
00:33:16,258 --> 00:33:17,634
Thank God.

592
00:33:17,634 --> 00:33:19,553
I thought you hated my boobs
or something.

593
00:33:19,553 --> 00:33:20,679
It's incomplete.

594
00:33:21,487 --> 00:33:25,849
Didn't you have enough money
to pay for a full heart?

595
00:33:25,849 --> 00:33:27,435
I got this in high school.

596
00:33:27,435 --> 00:33:28,645
It's incomplete.

597
00:33:41,042 --> 00:33:42,418
Not anymore.

598
00:33:44,679 --> 00:33:46,181
I got you.

599
00:34:08,562 --> 00:34:09,980
Shaun?

600
00:34:11,941 --> 00:34:14,610
Dr. Glassman was right.

601
00:34:14,610 --> 00:34:16,529
It's not the tattoo.

602
00:34:31,568 --> 00:34:34,030
We were able to restore
blood flow to his legs.

603
00:34:34,030 --> 00:34:35,156
He's gonna be just fine.

604
00:34:36,574 --> 00:34:38,159
Thank you so much,
Dr. Browne.

605
00:34:40,195 --> 00:34:42,698
Now that he's out of the woods,

606
00:34:42,698 --> 00:34:46,076
you don't need to feel guilty
about questioning him.

607
00:34:46,076 --> 00:34:49,997
All the pain, paranoia,
and self‐doubt...

608
00:34:49,997 --> 00:34:52,624
you deserve to know the truth.

609
00:34:52,624 --> 00:34:54,084
He's just gonna deny it.

610
00:34:56,312 --> 00:34:58,189
Then you need to insist.

611
00:35:17,380 --> 00:35:20,300
Our relationship
was a stupid idea.

612
00:35:20,300 --> 00:35:22,594
Which made ending it
a smart idea.

613
00:35:22,594 --> 00:35:24,971
Simple, binary...

614
00:35:24,971 --> 00:35:26,139
and naive.

615
00:35:29,421 --> 00:35:31,924
I really underestimated
how hard this would be.

616
00:35:36,383 --> 00:35:38,969
Yes, I've been having
second thoughts.

617
00:35:38,969 --> 00:35:40,804
I'm not saying we should
get back together ‐‐

618
00:35:40,804 --> 00:35:42,181
What are you saying?

619
00:35:44,812 --> 00:35:46,439
I don't know.

620
00:35:48,098 --> 00:35:49,183
Good.

621
00:35:51,685 --> 00:35:55,814
It's... good to know
that it's not easy.

622
00:35:57,682 --> 00:35:59,042
It's good to know
that it mattered.

623
00:36:11,900 --> 00:36:15,403
Intimacy isn't about a tattoo.

624
00:36:15,403 --> 00:36:18,656
And it's not about
touching or kissing

625
00:36:18,656 --> 00:36:21,493
or... even sex.

626
00:36:22,903 --> 00:36:27,491
It's about sharing
your biggest fears.

627
00:36:29,366 --> 00:36:30,409
Yes.

628
00:36:32,452 --> 00:36:33,954
What are you scared of?

629
00:36:37,283 --> 00:36:39,869
I love being a pathologist.

630
00:36:42,207 --> 00:36:44,577
But every day
I walk into the lab,

631
00:36:44,577 --> 00:36:47,121
I am filled with doubt.

632
00:36:47,121 --> 00:36:49,373
Am I smart enough?
Am I capable enough?

633
00:36:49,373 --> 00:36:52,627
Do I really deserve to be here?

634
00:36:52,627 --> 00:36:56,881
How long until someone walks in
and exposes my fraud

635
00:36:56,881 --> 00:36:59,133
and has me removed
from the premises?

636
00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:03,331
Eventually,
those thoughts retreat.

637
00:37:03,331 --> 00:37:04,666
Until the next morning,

638
00:37:04,666 --> 00:37:07,168
when they all come crashing
back into my brain.

639
00:37:09,789 --> 00:37:12,543
That and pigeons.

640
00:37:12,543 --> 00:37:14,753
They freak me out.

641
00:37:14,753 --> 00:37:16,380
Hmm.

642
00:37:20,876 --> 00:37:22,586
My biggest fear...

643
00:37:25,422 --> 00:37:27,716
...is that I'll be alone.

644
00:37:31,169 --> 00:37:34,422
If I don't get over this,
you'll leave.

645
00:38:02,994 --> 00:38:04,755
We don't have to have sex.

646
00:38:07,524 --> 00:38:10,819
Can we just hold each other
for a little bit?

647
00:38:14,638 --> 00:38:16,932
I think I'd like that.

648
00:38:55,538 --> 00:38:56,622
Shaun?

649
00:39:09,201 --> 00:39:10,411
Sash...

650
00:39:10,411 --> 00:39:11,454
Sash!

651
00:39:30,903 --> 00:39:32,196
You should go.

652
00:39:33,612 --> 00:39:35,239
I don't know. Maybe.

653
00:39:35,239 --> 00:39:37,992
It can wait
till tomorrow morning.

654
00:39:37,992 --> 00:39:41,370
Eh, you were right.

655
00:39:41,370 --> 00:39:43,706
Everything you said was right.

656
00:39:43,706 --> 00:39:46,125
But this is different.

657
00:39:48,260 --> 00:39:49,720
Shaun needs you.

658
00:40:57,079 --> 00:40:58,122
Hey.

659
00:41:06,125 --> 00:41:08,085
Your mom called from Wyoming.

660
00:41:09,972 --> 00:41:13,642
Your dad's been diagnosed
with pancreatic cancer.

661
00:41:13,642 --> 00:41:15,811
He may only have
a few days left.