1 00:00:57,160 --> 00:00:58,960 Sometimes I hate waking up. 2 00:01:07,440 --> 00:01:09,840 You can pretend that things aren't your fault... 3 00:01:11,960 --> 00:01:13,560 that you're not a bad person... 4 00:01:16,680 --> 00:01:17,720 but deep down, 5 00:01:18,320 --> 00:01:19,840 you always know that you are. 6 00:01:22,200 --> 00:01:24,320 That morning, when I woke up in the bath, 7 00:01:24,840 --> 00:01:26,240 I felt like a new person. 8 00:01:29,120 --> 00:01:30,320 We were together again. 9 00:01:44,600 --> 00:01:45,440 Alyssa? 10 00:01:46,720 --> 00:01:48,600 Hello? 11 00:01:50,760 --> 00:01:52,040 Hello? 12 00:01:57,280 --> 00:01:58,280 Morning. 13 00:01:59,920 --> 00:02:00,760 Morning. 14 00:02:03,560 --> 00:02:04,400 You look nice. 15 00:02:15,240 --> 00:02:16,640 I'm not your nan, James. 16 00:02:19,160 --> 00:02:20,720 There's no one here. The guy's gone. 17 00:02:21,800 --> 00:02:23,560 I'm sure we can use his phone. 18 00:02:24,120 --> 00:02:25,200 I don't think he'd mind. 19 00:02:53,400 --> 00:02:55,200 Bonnie? 20 00:02:56,320 --> 00:02:57,240 Are you awake? 21 00:03:00,520 --> 00:03:02,160 I'm not wearing any clothes. 22 00:03:02,640 --> 00:03:03,480 Okay. 23 00:03:04,480 --> 00:03:06,160 The mechanic's on her way. 24 00:03:06,600 --> 00:03:07,440 Already? 25 00:03:08,320 --> 00:03:09,600 Uh... 26 00:03:11,640 --> 00:03:13,680 Yeah. Will you be ready to leave soon? 27 00:03:15,200 --> 00:03:16,040 Yes. 28 00:03:16,560 --> 00:03:20,120 I'm so sorry to ask, but could we borrow some cash for the car? 29 00:03:21,000 --> 00:03:22,480 I promise we'll pay you back. 30 00:03:29,280 --> 00:03:32,000 - Is there someone else in there? - Oh, my God. 31 00:03:33,560 --> 00:03:35,600 She had sex with the man. 32 00:03:35,680 --> 00:03:38,360 - What? - The owner from last night. 33 00:03:40,040 --> 00:03:41,600 Thank you. Like I said... 34 00:03:59,400 --> 00:04:01,280 Why would she have sex with him? 35 00:04:02,240 --> 00:04:05,360 Her boyfriend died. She's got low self-esteem. 36 00:04:05,840 --> 00:04:09,080 People do all kinds of shit when they feel bad about themselves. 37 00:04:11,240 --> 00:04:12,720 You two pissed anyone off? 38 00:04:12,800 --> 00:04:13,920 What? 39 00:04:14,000 --> 00:04:16,840 That... is not an accident. 40 00:04:17,400 --> 00:04:19,240 Probably that guy at the car pound. 41 00:04:19,760 --> 00:04:20,600 Or Bonnie. 42 00:04:21,520 --> 00:04:23,200 - What? - I'm joking. 43 00:04:30,600 --> 00:04:31,640 Where now? 44 00:04:31,720 --> 00:04:34,080 Um... turn left. 45 00:04:43,480 --> 00:04:45,240 Are you feeling okay, Bonnie? 46 00:04:45,320 --> 00:04:47,480 I think I drank too much last night. 47 00:04:49,640 --> 00:04:50,720 Where are we going? 48 00:04:51,720 --> 00:04:52,720 My sister's. 49 00:04:55,520 --> 00:04:57,080 You didn't mention your sister. 50 00:04:57,160 --> 00:04:58,520 You didn't ask. 51 00:04:59,040 --> 00:05:01,760 Where does she live? The middle of fucking nowhere? 52 00:05:02,320 --> 00:05:03,560 It's, like, 20 minutes. 53 00:05:06,560 --> 00:05:07,640 How did you sleep? 54 00:05:09,440 --> 00:05:10,280 Okay. 55 00:05:11,000 --> 00:05:13,080 - We know what you did. - Alyssa. 56 00:05:13,160 --> 00:05:15,120 - What? - The man. 57 00:05:15,200 --> 00:05:16,480 The motel man. 58 00:05:18,160 --> 00:05:20,480 - He bought me a drink. - You don't have to tell us. 59 00:05:20,560 --> 00:05:21,640 Then what? 60 00:05:23,320 --> 00:05:25,440 - No one's judging you. - What? 61 00:05:25,520 --> 00:05:26,960 You just slept with him. 62 00:05:27,960 --> 00:05:31,480 I don't care. You had your reasons. We've all done stuff we regret. 63 00:05:35,720 --> 00:05:37,440 I'm really hot. Can I open up the window? 64 00:05:39,760 --> 00:05:41,520 Why don't you take off your polo neck? 65 00:05:42,200 --> 00:05:43,200 I think I'm gonna be si... 66 00:05:45,560 --> 00:05:48,320 Jesus! She must have had a skinful last night. 67 00:05:49,440 --> 00:05:50,760 This was my chance. 68 00:05:51,200 --> 00:05:52,480 I had to say something. 69 00:05:52,560 --> 00:05:53,400 Uh... 70 00:05:54,520 --> 00:05:55,800 Speaking of last night... 71 00:05:57,240 --> 00:05:58,080 What about it? 72 00:05:59,680 --> 00:06:02,000 Well, how do you feel? 73 00:06:04,520 --> 00:06:09,080 I feel like we're literally watching a stranger be sick into a ditch. 74 00:06:10,120 --> 00:06:10,960 Okay. 75 00:06:11,040 --> 00:06:12,840 So I probably don't want to talk about it. 76 00:06:12,920 --> 00:06:13,760 Okay. 77 00:06:20,960 --> 00:06:22,760 God! How long is she gonna take? 78 00:06:23,760 --> 00:06:24,880 Are we in a rush? 79 00:06:25,320 --> 00:06:27,680 - I need to get back today. - What? 80 00:06:28,720 --> 00:06:29,560 Yeah. 81 00:06:30,480 --> 00:06:32,240 I didn't know I was gonna say that. 82 00:06:34,040 --> 00:06:34,920 Well... 83 00:06:35,680 --> 00:06:36,920 we can't just leave her. 84 00:06:37,480 --> 00:06:39,400 She helped us out with the car and everything. 85 00:06:40,080 --> 00:06:43,000 Okay, whatever. I just wish that she'd hurry up. 86 00:06:51,120 --> 00:06:52,440 I think she's finished. 87 00:07:15,800 --> 00:07:17,200 Are you feeling better, Bonnie? 88 00:07:17,280 --> 00:07:18,680 I need to go to a chemist. 89 00:07:46,480 --> 00:07:49,160 Do you think it's a bit weird she didn't mention her sister? 90 00:07:53,720 --> 00:07:54,600 I think it is. 91 00:07:55,880 --> 00:07:57,680 She could've just stayed there last night. 92 00:08:00,200 --> 00:08:01,120 Isn't it a bit weird... 93 00:08:01,200 --> 00:08:02,080 - James. - Yeah? 94 00:08:02,160 --> 00:08:05,520 She's weird. She does weird things. It's not that interesting. 95 00:08:07,280 --> 00:08:09,760 Sometimes, even when I'm not looking at James, 96 00:08:09,840 --> 00:08:11,400 I know what his face is doing. 97 00:08:12,960 --> 00:08:14,960 Right now, it's all anxious and sad. 98 00:08:15,400 --> 00:08:17,880 - Alyssa. - We should get money. 99 00:08:19,240 --> 00:08:20,240 For Bonnie. 100 00:08:20,320 --> 00:08:21,160 Yep. 101 00:08:21,560 --> 00:08:24,120 I wondered if Alyssa just needed some time. 102 00:08:28,040 --> 00:08:29,040 And space. 103 00:08:31,320 --> 00:08:33,000 I should never have kissed him. 104 00:08:36,160 --> 00:08:37,960 - Morning. - Yes. 105 00:08:38,040 --> 00:08:39,120 How can I help you? 106 00:08:41,440 --> 00:08:42,600 I need painkillers. 107 00:08:43,280 --> 00:08:44,280 The strongest ones. 108 00:08:45,120 --> 00:08:47,400 Right. Can you tell me what they're for? 109 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:48,840 Why? 110 00:08:49,840 --> 00:08:51,760 - Sorry? - Why do you need to know? 111 00:08:51,840 --> 00:08:53,720 Because that's my job. 112 00:08:55,840 --> 00:08:56,680 Back pain? 113 00:08:58,360 --> 00:09:00,400 Yeah. It's very bad. 114 00:09:06,160 --> 00:09:08,160 Yeah. There you go. 115 00:09:08,240 --> 00:09:10,600 Uh... no more than six in 24 hours, 116 00:09:10,680 --> 00:09:12,800 and you need to eat before you take them. 117 00:09:14,040 --> 00:09:16,480 - Fine. - If you don't, you'll be sick. 118 00:09:16,560 --> 00:09:17,480 Already been sick. 119 00:09:20,240 --> 00:09:21,200 Are you okay? 120 00:09:22,480 --> 00:09:23,360 What? 121 00:09:24,520 --> 00:09:25,680 You're bleeding. 122 00:09:25,760 --> 00:09:26,760 No, I'm not. 123 00:09:27,520 --> 00:09:28,840 Has someone hurt you? 124 00:09:30,800 --> 00:09:32,040 Do you need help? 125 00:09:32,120 --> 00:09:32,960 What? 126 00:09:35,720 --> 00:09:37,360 There's a refuge near here. 127 00:09:37,920 --> 00:09:39,080 Can I just pay? 128 00:09:39,160 --> 00:09:40,200 Is he outside? 129 00:09:40,960 --> 00:09:42,760 Where is he? You can tell me. 130 00:09:45,160 --> 00:09:46,800 - He's in the motel. - What motel? 131 00:09:49,760 --> 00:09:52,920 Look, I'm a feminist, okay? 132 00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:08,760 Thank you. 133 00:10:10,880 --> 00:10:12,040 Is there a toilet here? 134 00:10:13,000 --> 00:10:14,040 It's just... 135 00:10:50,240 --> 00:10:53,040 - Wonder what's going on. - You should go and check on her. 136 00:10:54,240 --> 00:10:56,200 - I think she wanted to be alone. - She's been ages. 137 00:10:56,280 --> 00:10:57,280 She's hungover. 138 00:10:58,520 --> 00:11:00,080 Probably having a flapjack or something. 139 00:11:00,160 --> 00:11:01,080 In a chemist? 140 00:11:01,160 --> 00:11:04,760 They do healthy ones made out of prunes, and seeds, and things. 141 00:11:04,840 --> 00:11:06,840 Just go and check on her! 142 00:11:08,160 --> 00:11:09,000 What? 143 00:11:10,400 --> 00:11:12,760 I was starting to remember what Alyssa could be like. 144 00:11:19,320 --> 00:11:20,760 Why can't you ask nicely? 145 00:11:29,040 --> 00:11:31,360 I think maybe there's something wrong with me. 146 00:12:07,920 --> 00:12:09,080 - Morning. - Morning. 147 00:12:11,040 --> 00:12:12,360 Uh, where is she? 148 00:12:12,960 --> 00:12:13,840 Who? 149 00:12:14,440 --> 00:12:17,080 The woman. My friend, I saw her walk in here. 150 00:12:17,840 --> 00:12:20,240 I don't know what you're talking about. No one's come in. 151 00:12:20,840 --> 00:12:22,720 - But I just saw... - Shame on you. 152 00:12:35,920 --> 00:12:38,120 - What? - Bonnie's disappeared. 153 00:12:38,200 --> 00:12:39,640 She's actually vanished. 154 00:12:40,200 --> 00:12:41,520 - Really? - Yeah. 155 00:12:42,360 --> 00:12:43,360 - Really? - Yes. 156 00:12:43,440 --> 00:12:44,760 I need to eat some food. 157 00:12:45,920 --> 00:12:46,800 Now. 158 00:13:06,000 --> 00:13:07,960 - It's quite early for lunch. - Yeah. 159 00:13:08,640 --> 00:13:10,000 Did you not have breakfast? 160 00:13:10,080 --> 00:13:12,440 Uh... no. 161 00:13:13,640 --> 00:13:15,400 Do you want to put the plates down? 162 00:13:18,600 --> 00:13:20,640 I never knew if Alyssa was aware of it, 163 00:13:20,720 --> 00:13:23,840 but she could make a room feel colder than it actually was. 164 00:13:26,080 --> 00:13:27,840 I used to really like food. 165 00:13:37,720 --> 00:13:39,480 This is for you. 166 00:13:41,000 --> 00:13:41,880 Thank you. 167 00:13:48,040 --> 00:13:49,480 This is called a Lazy Susan. 168 00:13:49,920 --> 00:13:52,880 I often found that tension could be diffused with facts. 169 00:13:52,960 --> 00:13:55,080 So you can pass the food round more easily. 170 00:13:55,920 --> 00:13:58,320 - They're actually... - Fuck's sake, James. 171 00:13:58,840 --> 00:13:59,920 Not always, though. 172 00:14:03,120 --> 00:14:04,000 What? 173 00:14:04,720 --> 00:14:06,880 - Look, is something up with you? - Alyssa. 174 00:14:08,640 --> 00:14:10,080 You can tell us if you want. 175 00:14:10,600 --> 00:14:12,360 And then we can all go home. 176 00:14:12,440 --> 00:14:13,720 My boyfriend was murdered. 177 00:14:15,400 --> 00:14:16,240 Shit. 178 00:14:16,960 --> 00:14:17,920 Yeah. 179 00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:19,400 - Sorry. - Are you? 180 00:14:20,000 --> 00:14:22,120 - Yeah. - Why? 181 00:14:23,240 --> 00:14:25,520 Because it's what you say. 182 00:14:25,600 --> 00:14:27,400 When someone gets murdered? 183 00:14:27,480 --> 00:14:28,680 I think so. 184 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:36,040 Both my parents are dead. 185 00:14:36,120 --> 00:14:37,200 Were they murdered? 186 00:14:37,280 --> 00:14:39,600 Can you stop saying the word "murdered" please? 187 00:14:40,040 --> 00:14:40,960 Are you okay? 188 00:14:41,880 --> 00:14:43,600 I'm fine. I just need some water. 189 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:45,680 - Are you coming back? - What? 190 00:14:46,560 --> 00:14:47,520 Nothing. 191 00:14:57,840 --> 00:14:59,080 This is my dad. 192 00:15:02,480 --> 00:15:04,360 My parents don't speak to me anymore. 193 00:15:19,760 --> 00:15:22,040 There's definitely something wrong with me. 194 00:15:22,840 --> 00:15:23,680 What's wrong? 195 00:15:23,760 --> 00:15:26,600 - Are we actually near your sister's? - We're close. 196 00:15:27,440 --> 00:15:29,880 Can we get some takeaway boxes, please? 197 00:16:03,040 --> 00:16:05,560 - Alyssa, what is the matter? - Nothing is the matter, James. 198 00:16:05,640 --> 00:16:07,480 - Why did you kiss me? - What? 199 00:16:07,560 --> 00:16:11,040 - Is it 'cause you felt sorry for me? - No, James, I don't wanna talk about this. 200 00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:12,840 Is it because of everything that happened to me? 201 00:16:12,920 --> 00:16:15,520 No. For God's sake, James, not everything is about you. 202 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:16,880 Why? Because it has to be about you? 203 00:16:17,440 --> 00:16:20,560 You can't... You can't kiss someone and then be mean. 204 00:16:20,640 --> 00:16:22,200 It's confusing. 205 00:16:22,760 --> 00:16:24,160 Why? Are you 12? 206 00:16:24,240 --> 00:16:25,680 You dumped me, James. 207 00:16:26,280 --> 00:16:29,480 You dumped me in a letter, like a Victorian. 208 00:16:29,560 --> 00:16:31,280 - Wait. No. - No? 209 00:16:31,360 --> 00:16:32,760 - No. - That's not what happened? 210 00:16:32,840 --> 00:16:35,680 No, it is, but... I didn't mean it. It's just... 211 00:16:35,760 --> 00:16:36,680 What? 212 00:16:38,680 --> 00:16:40,040 Your mum... 213 00:16:40,640 --> 00:16:41,560 made me. 214 00:16:44,960 --> 00:16:45,840 What? 215 00:16:46,560 --> 00:16:47,720 She... 216 00:16:48,760 --> 00:16:50,440 She came to the hospital. 217 00:16:51,440 --> 00:16:53,640 She made me write you a letter. 218 00:16:57,320 --> 00:16:58,160 Right. 219 00:17:09,920 --> 00:17:10,840 Looking for something? 220 00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:15,760 Where is it? 221 00:17:15,840 --> 00:17:17,240 - What's your name? - No. 222 00:17:23,080 --> 00:17:26,200 My name is Kevan. With an "A". 223 00:17:27,200 --> 00:17:28,480 What's going on? 224 00:17:28,560 --> 00:17:29,480 You can tell me. 225 00:17:30,520 --> 00:17:31,920 Did something happen to you? 226 00:17:32,680 --> 00:17:35,000 I... I understand, okay? 227 00:17:35,360 --> 00:17:36,200 I get it. 228 00:17:36,720 --> 00:17:38,000 How can you get it? 229 00:17:38,080 --> 00:17:40,320 - I know what you're going through. - You've never met me. 230 00:17:40,400 --> 00:17:41,640 I know women like you. 231 00:17:42,240 --> 00:17:43,160 There's no one like me. 232 00:17:45,640 --> 00:17:48,800 I didn't call the police because I didn't want to get you in trouble. 233 00:17:48,880 --> 00:17:51,000 Give me... my gun. 234 00:17:51,080 --> 00:17:53,280 Okay, you listen to me. 235 00:17:53,920 --> 00:17:56,280 Violence is not the answer. 236 00:17:58,040 --> 00:17:59,000 What if it is? 237 00:18:00,120 --> 00:18:01,800 - It isn't. - What if it is? 238 00:18:01,880 --> 00:18:03,120 It isn't. 239 00:18:04,880 --> 00:18:06,560 What if it is? 240 00:18:06,640 --> 00:18:08,120 Let's just calm down here. 241 00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:11,720 - Has anyone ever killed someone you loved? - No. 242 00:18:11,800 --> 00:18:15,240 Do you ever wake up in the night feeling like your skin's been screaming 243 00:18:15,320 --> 00:18:17,320 'cause it misses someone so much? 244 00:18:18,560 --> 00:18:19,400 I'm asking. 245 00:18:19,480 --> 00:18:20,640 No. 246 00:18:20,720 --> 00:18:22,240 Then you don't get it. 247 00:18:24,120 --> 00:18:26,360 - Give me... the gun. - I... 248 00:18:26,440 --> 00:18:27,720 Give me the gun! 249 00:18:30,440 --> 00:18:31,880 What? 250 00:18:33,520 --> 00:18:35,240 Please can you let me say sorry? 251 00:18:38,560 --> 00:18:39,400 Okay. 252 00:18:44,520 --> 00:18:45,600 I said "okay". 253 00:18:49,440 --> 00:18:50,280 Say it. 254 00:18:51,960 --> 00:18:53,200 Go on. Say sorry. 255 00:18:55,160 --> 00:18:57,760 Say sorry, and then I can say it's okay, and everything's all right. 256 00:18:57,840 --> 00:18:59,600 That's what you want, isn't it? 257 00:18:59,680 --> 00:19:01,440 That was exactly what I wanted. 258 00:19:02,760 --> 00:19:03,640 No. 259 00:19:03,720 --> 00:19:05,680 It's not okay. It's just how it is. 260 00:19:08,440 --> 00:19:11,040 - It wasn't just you. - What's that supposed to mean? 261 00:19:11,120 --> 00:19:12,400 Who had a bad time. 262 00:19:13,040 --> 00:19:14,520 It's not a competition. 263 00:19:14,600 --> 00:19:16,840 - I nearly died. - Oh, apparently, it is. 264 00:19:16,920 --> 00:19:18,920 I nearly died! 265 00:19:29,360 --> 00:19:30,240 I know. 266 00:19:31,720 --> 00:19:32,640 I was there. 267 00:19:37,320 --> 00:19:38,680 I'm not the answer, James. 268 00:19:42,480 --> 00:19:43,480 She was right. 269 00:19:45,640 --> 00:19:46,480 It was over. 270 00:19:50,440 --> 00:19:51,680 What about Bonnie? 271 00:19:52,360 --> 00:19:53,200 Fuck Bonnie. 272 00:20:01,960 --> 00:20:03,560 Don't call the police. 273 00:20:05,800 --> 00:20:07,960 If you do, I'll come back, and I'll kill you. 274 00:20:08,040 --> 00:20:09,000 I won't. 275 00:20:15,200 --> 00:20:16,160 What happened? 276 00:20:18,640 --> 00:20:19,560 I was scared. 277 00:20:20,560 --> 00:20:21,400 You're scary. 278 00:20:21,920 --> 00:20:22,760 Okay. 279 00:20:24,520 --> 00:20:25,360 Good.