- Previously on "The Bold Type"...
- Wow. - I don't know.
I mean, I miss my old ones.
I got a double mastectomy three months ago.
These don't feel like me.
I don't feel like me, and I-- I just really wish I did.
- I'm glad we got stuck together today.
- He is my employee. - And you like him.
- How am I gonna do this job and have a baby?
- I love you, and I'm here, and we'll make it happen.
- So you two are back together? - We are working on it.
- "Miles Shaw." Didn't you date him in college?
- Where were we? - Hmm.
- You got fired, Kat.
Either you pay the full mortgage,
or we are gonna rent this place out.
- Or you could just move in with me.
- I might take you up on that.
- Since we're talking about the apartment,
there are some rules.
Utilities are split evenly, groceries are fair game,
and if my door is shut, knock, okay?
- Will do. - Reliable Buddy 2.0?
- Speaking of which,
I used it for the first time last night since my surgery.
- Wow. - Jane, that's awesome.
- Bet I know who sparked it. - Yeah, Scotty.
- No. - He reawakened that libido.
- Hmm, resurrected your lady boner.
- No, not Scott, my employee. - Okay.
- I just have been feeling more like myself lately.
- That's good. - How about you?
How are you feeling,
since you're gonna be leaving this place?
- Honestly pretty emotional, you know?
It's kind of weird.
I feel like my entire existence is in this apartment.
[bubble wrap pops]
- That was an accident.
- She's having a moment. - Let me have my moment.
That couch--
oh man, I bought that couch after my first promotion.
Named her Connie.
And we binged "The L Word" together
when I was figuring out my sexuality.
And this table...
Basically ran my campaign right here.
And now I'm storing all of it. [sighs]
[bubble wrap pops]
Sutton, it's enough. - Can you stop?
- I just feel like if we have bubble wrap,
we should be using it.
- Okay, we are gonna use it
'cause there's one more thing we haven't wrapped.
- Ah, yes. - Hey, Kat?
[giggles]
[bubble wrap pops]
- [screams]
[both laugh]
[pop music]
- ♪ All the time, they're right beside me ♪
- Where's "The New Yorker"? The one with the yellow cover?
- I don't know. - Oh, here it is.
This article by your college boyfriend,
"In the Knick of Time," did you read it?
- A little bit. - It's descriptive.
- Well, he's a very talented writer.
- "The moment I saw her, I fell in love all over again.
"And when she smiled, showing her vulnerability,
I wanted to devour all her pain."
Was he writing about you?
- We were separated, Ian.
And he's a writer.
That's what writers do.
- And yet you keep it in your nightstand--why?
- I--I actually don't even know why.
We should talk about this later.
- Yeah, sure thing.
[melancholy music]
♪
- Sutton? Babe, are you still here?
Oh, good. You haven't left yet.
I got something for you. Open it.
- Oh, okay.
[gasps] It's a baby book.
- Yeah.
- With baseballs.
We're not gonna find out the sex for a while, you know?
- I know, I know, but boy, girl, nonbinary--
they will be required to love the Yankees.
- Well, as long as I can keep loving the Phillies.
- Okay. [both laugh]
- Open it. Look at the first page.
We get to fill that one out today.
- Oh. "Baby's first ultrasound."
I love it.
[whispers] Thank you.
[funky music]
♪
[phone pings]
- Whoa, excuse me. Excuse me, this is my--
- Go-- - Sorry.
Thank you, sorry.
- Yeah, no, it's--it's a crowded elevator, so yeah.
- Yeah. - [clears throat]
So did you have a good weekend?
- I did. You?
- Yeah, it was mostly uneventful, but...
- "Mostly"?
- Yeah, well, I--I did get a few things working
that weren't before, so...
- Well, that's good. - Yeah, it is.
- Can I leave some flyers here with you?
I know how many people you see each day.
I figure you can pass them on.
- Of course. - Here you go.
- Oh, a domestic violence shelter.
That's awesome. - It is.
- I thought you worked in finance.
- I did, but I left
after my sister was abused by her husband.
- Oh, I'm really sorry.
- She's okay now thanks to shelters like this.
I just wanna make a difference, you know?
- Yeah, actually I--I do know.
Hey, do you mind if I talk to Darby about your work?
Maybe promote the shelter? - Yeah, please.
Every little bit helps. That's great, yeah.
- Okay. - Thanks.
- Yeah, of course.
- This too. Thank you so much.
- [sighs] - Oh, hey, Georgia.
Everything go well with the shoot?
- Yeah, everything was great. - You sure?
- It wasn't the shoot.
The stylist I hired for my son's graduation
just ditched me for a spread in "Vogue."
- Oh, no. - Yeah.
Do you freelance? - Yeah.
As long as it doesn't interfere with this, it's no problem.
- Great, because it's in two days,
and my son needs some help as well.
- Well, let's up your fashion game and his.
I already have your sizes, so I can start pulling.
How about your son? - Size four.
[chuckles] He's a rising first grader.
- Oh, it's a kindergarten graduation.
- I'll text you my address. We can meet after work.
- That sounds perfect. - Great, isn't it?
- It's so great.
[upbeat music]
♪
- Here you go. - Oh, thanks, Kat.
- Yeah.
You know Penny Davenport? - Mm-hmm.
- She runs a domestic violence shelter, and I think
she'd be a great person to speak at one of our events.
- That's a good idea. - Thank you.
- I've got to run to a meeting. Thanks, Kat.
- Yeah, also...
I feel like we should be livestreaming
these speaking events
and posting them to "The Belle" website.
That way, we're reaching thousands of women
instead of just the people that are here.
- Mm-hmm.
- I mean, you could even do,
like, a more intimate interview series,
like a--well, like a podcast, maybe.
Women here talk to me all the time when I'm just working,
and they have super interesting stories and ideas.
And it could be a casual interview
from across the bar.
- With you.
- Yeah. - Okay.
What makes you think you're the right person to do this?
- Well, I mean, I used to run social media at "Scarlet,"
which was basically curating content for women by women.
It's what I do--or did.
- How about you record one episode?
And if I don't like it, then--
- Then, I mean, I won't bring it up again.
Promise. - Okay.
- Thank you.
- [gasps] A podcast?
Oh, my gosh. That's awesome.
- Yeah, I mean, it's an oversaturated market,
and I don't really know what I'm doing,
but my parents are shrinks, and I feel like
shrinking people is kind of like interviewing people.
- Kat, you were made for this job.
Ooh, you could call it "Kat's Got Your Tongue"
or "Kat-aclysm."
- Or something without a pun?
- You could ask Alex for advice.
Get it? "Ask Alex"?
- That's actually a pretty good idea.
What's going on with Jane?
- I think that her sex drive is getting in the way of work,
or, should I say, her ability to work with Scotty Too Hotty.
- Wowie, so we are finally admitting there's a problem.
- Okay, fine. There is a problem.
- Hmm, I have one word for you, Jane--Raya.
- Yeah!
- I could have a suitable fix for you
in, like, less than an hour.
- No, I can't. Dating, I just...
Dating is gonna make me think about Ryan,
and I'm--I'm not ready to do that.
- Okay, well, look,
it does kind of sound like your body is ready.
And that's very different from dating, so
unless you wanna accidentally hook up with your employee...
- Okay, okay, fine. I will Raya.
- [gasps]
[pop music]
♪
Hi. - Hey.
- Hey, Doctor. - How are you?
- Good. - Great.
- It says here that this is your first baby.
- Yes. - Wow, congratulations.
- Thank you. - All right.
I'll have you lie back, and just tuck up your shirt,
tuck down your pants.
- Sure.
- I apologize in advance. Our gel warmer is on the fritz,
so this is gonna be a little bit cold.
- Okay. - All right.
- Ooh, that is cold. [both laugh]
- How does everything look?
- Is the machine on the fritz too?
- I'm gonna have you sit up again, please.
There's no heartbeat.
I'm so sorry.
[solemn music]
- Statistically, 10% of pregnancies end in miscarriage.
It's not your fault.
And just because it's happened once
doesn't mean it's gonna happen again.
- ♪ Stuck here in the in-between ♪
♪
- Okay, so what now?
- So now you two wait.
It should take up to about 48 hours or so.
Because it's early in the pregnancy,
it's gonna feel like heavy cramping
followed by a heavy period.
In fact, you probably want to use these pads.
- ♪ Break down here
♪
- I'm sorry.
I'm gonna give you two a minute, okay?
- ♪ Whoa, oh, whoa, oh
♪
♪ Breathe
♪ Still, I have to tell myself to breathe ♪
- I just need Darby to like one episode.
- I saw you rise all the way to the top of "Scarlet."
You don't do anything half-assed,
and this podcast is gonna be no exception.
- Well, thanks. I appreciate it.
Just--I'm trying to find some direction, you know?
I mean, this podcast feels like the right step, so...
- Okay, mics.
If I were you, I would go with ProFrequency.
It's got a little less sensitive condenser mic,
but better for a busy environment.
- Like a bar. - Exactly.
- Okay. All right, so...
- Hey. - Thank you.
- You're welcome. - Oh.
- I'm trying to start a podcast.
- Oh, congratulations. - Thank you.
[lowers voice] Hello,
and welcome to "The Belle Podcast" with Kat Edison.
- [vocalizes] - Our first guest is--
- Uh...your card's been declined.
- Oh, really? - Yeah.
- It's probably a mistake, so...
[phone buzzes]
Um, I probably just forgot to...
- Do you-- I can just grab it for you.
- No, no, no, no.
- I'll hold onto these.
- Hey, you want some chamomile?
I could order some food.
Watch a movie, stay in together.
Chicken soup?
Not that you're sick,
but I just thought that comfort food might help you.
Hey.
You haven't said anything since we left the doctor's office.
How are you feeling?
- Like you said, I'm not sick, you know?
And I feel fine, so...
I was supposed to meet Kat and Jane at The Belle.
Maybe I'll--I'll do that. - Are you sure?
- Yeah, I can't sit here for 48 hours.
- Well, it could be less. - If it is, I'll come home.
- Okay, I was gonna cancel the meeting I had,
but since you're gonna see the girls, I'll keep it.
But if you need me-- - I'll call you.
- Yeah.
- I love you. - I love you.
[melancholic music]
♪
- The doctor said it could happen anytime
in the next two days.
- Sutton. - We're so sorry.
- I'm fine.
And--and Richard--he's being amazing as always, so...
I'm gonna go home and rest after this.
I just wanted you guys to know, and now you do, so...
[phone buzzes]
Oh, shit.
I forgot about this styling job I took.
I'm supposed to pull clothes after work.
- I thought you said you were gonna go home after this.
- Maybe you should rest.
- Oh, yeah, I'm--I'm gonna call Timothy when I leave
and see if he wants a side gig.
No work. I promise.
So who's gonna be keeping me posted on this double date?
I'm gonna need the play-by-play.
- I'll document it.
Oh, I'm gonna live tweet the whole thing.
- ♪ Ooh, dress cleaner that a Sunday ♪
♪ I'm goody good like gelato ♪
- But it is way too scary, so I will not watch it again.
- Oh, wow. - Yeah.
[both laugh]
- Favorite book of last year? - Oh, okay.
"Trick Mirror." You know it?
- Yeah, I couldn't put it down.
Of course, I was on a cruise with my parents,
so it could've been an avoidance tactic.
Yeah, yeah. - No.
- A dark and stormy for Kevin, and a vodka soda for Jane.
- Thank you.
You know, you don't have to bartend here, right?
- Oh, yeah, I know.
Just wanna make sure you have everything you need.
- Hmm, good friend. - She's the best.
Are you guys gonna join us? - Yeah.
We're just waiting on our drinks,
but we'll be over in a minute.
- Okay. - Okay, hmm.
- So you have a Vertical, which means you're an editor?
- And apparently it also means I have clingy friends.
- Yeah? - [laughs]
♪
- ♪ Hitting on the edges
- Sorry, but...
- Should we start with your son?
- He is the man of the hour, so why not?
- I had so much fun shopping for him today.
So I was thinking we could do, like, a father-son thing.
Play in that same color palette.
- So cute. Yeah.
Oh, my husband has a suit like this.
I'm sure he'd love that. - Great.
- Aww.
- So...so did you always want kids?
- I did, but that didn't make it any easier.
Three rounds of IUI, two of IVF.
Almost started thinking it wasn't gonna happen for us.
- But it did.
How was your pregnancy?
- Morning sickness the first trimester,
bed rest at the end.
You know, but it was all worth it
when I held my son for the first time.
Ah, I see you're married. Are you planning to have kids?
- Um...
My husband and I just got married,
so we're taking it slow.
- What do you think of bow ties?
- Ah, yes.
Um...
- Oh. - [chuckles]
Right?
- That would look great.
♪
- ♪ Dirty, dirty secret
♪ Our pretty lie
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh
♪ Without disguise
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh
♪ And I've got a taste of danger, getting off ♪
- Your place is really nice. - Yeah, okay.
- ♪ Pretty lies
♪ Dirty little secret
♪ Oh, oh, dirty little secret ♪
- [sighs, stammers]
Wait. - What?
- I'm sorry. - What?
Is everything okay? - Yeah, sorry.
It's not you. I just...
I--I think I need to take things slow.
- Of course. Whatever you need.
- Um...
Maybe we should do this another night.
- No worries--I'll call you. - Yeah.
Great. Yeah.
It's just--it's over there. - Yeah.
[solemn music]
♪
["Easy" by Alison Wonderland playing]
♪
- ♪ Time feels slower inside of my head ♪
♪
♪ Can I paint a picture
♪ Of the world that I see instead? ♪
♪ And I know it's
♪ They say I'm not really that bad ♪
♪
♪ But I think too much
- Hey. - Hey.
[both laugh]
- Feels weird to be back at Safford.
- Yeah, I mean, I figured this would be a lot less...
- Out in the open? - Exactly.
- Yeah. - So I wanna help you.
- Whoa.
- Turns out "Scarlet" has a bunch
of extra podcast mics just laying around.
- Huh. - Hmm.
- You want me to steal "Scarlet" property?
- More like borrow it. - Right.
- You know, I loan you my mixer.
As long as you drop it to me early in the morning,
no one will be none the wiser, you know?
- Alex, I appreciate it,
but I'm not gonna get you fired so I can record a podcast.
But thanks.
- You're sure? - Yeah.
- Okay.
So then, what are you gonna do?
- Well, my paycheck hasn't cleared yet,
and I accidentally--
I paid three months of storage space up front,
which is why my account overdrafted,
but I'm gonna have some cash in a couple days.
And I--I mean, most of that is gonna go to rent,
and my phone bill, and overdraft fees,
but it's all good.
- How much was the storage space?
- $300 a month.
- 300--wow, that's a huge monthly expense
on a bartender's salary.
Can you cancel it?
- Well, where would I put my stuff?
- Well, you can sell it. - I can't do that.
I already lost "Scarlet," and my apartment,
and my 401[k], and...
[somber music]
The only thing I do know is that
I can't lose anything else,
so selling my stuff is just not an option.
♪
[funky music]
♪
- Everything was great.
I mean, he was sweet, and cute, and...
[sighs] I don't know.
We just started hooking up, and I...
I couldn't go through with it.
- Well, I think it makes sense.
You haven't been with anyone since Ryan, and change is hard.
I get it.
Just think of this guy as a warm-up, you know?
There are plenty more on Raya. I could get right on it.
Just say the word.
- Yeah, can we just focus on Sutton?
- Yeah.
- I can't imagine having to wait this long.
- I know, but at least we're here to cheer her up.
- Yeah. - Hey.
What are you guys doing here?
- We brought coffee and bagels. - Oh.
- Yeah. Shouldn't you be in bed?
- Did it already happen? - No, it didn't.
No. both: Oh.
- What's with the clothes?
- Oh, I went shopping. - Huh, retail therapy.
- Kind of, except it wasn't for me.
It was for Georgia and her son.
- But I thought that you were gonna have Timothy do that
so you could go home and rest.
- You know, I was going to, and then I was like,
"Wait a minute. Tuxedos for five-year-old boys?
How could I not?"
So I'm on my way to meet the little guy now.
I should probably get going.
- Hold on. - Hey.
Are you okay? - Yeah.
I mean, you know, this pad's a little thick,
but other than that, I'm fine.
- Okay, 'cause I mean, you're gonna go style a kid
while you're waiting to miscarry.
It's just... - Yeah.
That's crazy. - No.
- No, I know it's crazy. It is.
But I have to do it because...
Because I don't feel anything.
- What do you mean?
- I just keep waiting
for this tidal wave of emotions to hit me,
and I'm not angry, or mad, or sad, or any of the things
that you're supposed to be about a miscarriage.
I just--I feel numb, and I really don't wanna feel numb,
so I'm gonna go dress this little boy,
and then, you know, maybe then...
- You'll feel something.
[tense music]
♪
- So you wanna know why I keep the magazine?
- Yes, I do.
- I like to read the story. - Why?
- Because it's romantic. - It's romantic?
It's an account of you two having sex.
- It's an account of how a man sees a woman.
- Oh, Jacqueline, are you serious?
- Look, we are working hard in therapy and at home
to try to communicate better.
And this is me telling you why I kept the article.
I felt seen.
[eerie music]
♪
[hip-hop music]
♪
- Hey, I'm so glad you called.
I really appreciate your donations.
- Yeah. - Wow, this is fantastic.
- Yeah, the first one helped me
through a really difficult board room presentation.
I was actually wearing this when I got my first promotion.
- Actually, this would be perfect for Thelma.
Yeah, she's just been with us for about three weeks,
and she just got her first interview as a receptionist.
- That's awesome. - Yeah.
- Would you let me know how it goes?
- Yes, definitely. Thank you, Kat.
- It's nothing. - No.
You're helping to make a woman who is reinventing her life
and herself feel confident again.
That's not nothing, Kat. It's actually everything.
Thanks for this. - Yeah.
Hey, Alex, can you meet me at my place after work?
I need your help with something.
[funky music]
♪
- Hey, I'm gonna need another hour on this,
but the story's really good.
- Great, yeah. Take whatever time you need.
- You okay? - Yeah, I'm fine.
Um...it's--it's complicated.
- Try me.
- Okay.
Well, you know how I told you that my mom died?
It was from breast cancer.
She had the BRCA1 mutation, and so do I.
- I read your pieces about it. - Yeah.
But what I haven't written about yet is
that a couple months ago,
I got a preventative double mastectomy.
[sighs]
I'm really happy that I had the surgery.
I just thought that once it was done,
I would feel like myself again,
and I don't.
And my friends have been amazing,
but they have their own problems to worry about.
So I guess sometimes, I just feel alone.
- When my dad died, I felt the same way,
so I joined a grief support group.
It helped.
Your people are out there. You just need to find them.
- Yeah.
[ambient music]
♪
- [laughs] Whoa, okay.
Now I see why you needed so much storage space.
- I know. It's a lot.
- What changed your mind?
- I just--
I just wanted to do something that matters, you know?
And I really believe that if I can convince The Belle
to give me this podcast, then I can.
So now I just have to sell all this stuff,
and I feel like I can't do it by myself.
- Well, the hardest part is just the start.
- Yeah.
- Why don't we just start with the furniture?
- Yes. - Yes.
This is a-- - Love that.
- Whoa, this is kind of broken.
You're not gonna get much for this.
We could list it for, like, 20 bucks.
- 20 bucks? - Yeah.
- It's a nice table.
- This is kind of hard, isn't it, Kat?
- Kind of, yeah.
- Look, the more you do it, the easier it gets.
Trust me--when I was 12,
we had to move to a smaller space
in a better school district, and I left a lot behind,
in particular, a desk with tons of Pokémon stickers on it.
- Pokémon. - [laughs]
Hey, I'm not ashamed. It's a--it comes back around.
Anyway, I loved this desk. It helped me become a writer.
And when it was time to say good-bye,
I--I just couldn't.
I freaked out.
But my mom had me explain
why every sticker was so important.
Turns out that sharing...
Actually helped.
So tell me about old Wobbles here.
Why is it so wobbly?
Come on, I know there's a story behind it.
- It was actually the first piece of furniture
that I put together all by myself.
I wanted to do it alone, and I did.
I mean, yeah,
there were a couple of pieces left over, but...
- A couple? - Stop.
[phone buzzes]
- It's okay, sweetie. She's really nice.
You're gonna like her a lot. Oh, it's okay.
[solemn music]
It's okay.
♪
Leo, this is Sutton.
She picked out some clothes for your party.
♪
- Nice to meet you, Leo.
I heard that you are graduating from kindergarten.
How do you feel about dressing like your daddy?
Does that sound cool? - Yeah.
- Yeah? Okay.
Let's see if this jacket fits. Mm-hmm.
Oh, wow. You look so handsome.
And it's a perfect fit. How do you feel?
- Important. Thanks, Sutton.
- Oh. Aw.
Ow. [groans]
- Are you okay? - Yes.
I'm just having some stomach pain.
I should probably...
I should probably go.
- Thanks for coming over.
- Is that your queer prom dress?
- Yeah. - I love that dress.
- Me too. You know what's crazy?
That night at the Wild Susan,
and the fact that we couldn't save it--
that's the whole reason why I ran for city council.
It feels like that was so long ago.
- Yeah.
So much has changed since then.
- I know. That's why I called you.
I know we've been checking in on Sutton a lot lately,
and things have been kind of crazy and intense,
but I just wanna check in on you and make sure you're okay.
Because I feel like I pushed you,
and if you're not ready to move on from things with Ryan--
- It's not that. [sighs]
I mean, yeah,
Ryan was supposed to be my person.
I was so focused on getting better
that I think I just buried the pain of our breakup,
and I--I haven't dealt with it.
But the other night wasn't even about that.
It was about these things, and I just--
I'm not comfortable with them.
And I--I want so badly to be, but I'm not.
And I just--when Kevin tried to touch me there,
I just--I freaked out.
[exhales]
- I'm sorry. I had no idea.
- I didn't either. Oh.
But now that I do, I think I need help.
- Well, whatever you need, I got you.
- [chuckles]
That's the thing-- is you can't help.
Not with this.
I think I need
people who have been in my situation before.
Which is why I wrote a piece about it,
to see if maybe I could find people like me.
And I called a meeting at The Belle
at 9:00 a.m. tomorrow.
We'll see if people show up. - I think they will.
I hope they will. - Me too.
- Hey, will you give me a hug at least?
- [scoffs] Duh.
- Come on. - [laughs]
- Baby, get over here.
- I love you. - I love you.
Oh, the last piece is all yours, yeah.
- What? - [exhales]
- But you love that couch.
- I know, but I had to sell her.
Sorry. Excuse us.
Bye, Connie.
Have a great life. - Bye, girl.
- Oh.
- Ian, you home? - I'm in the bedroom.
- Ian?
♪
What is all of this?
- I do see you, Jacqueline,
as sexy, and exciting,
and the love of my life.
You see, I'm not a writer.
I don't have the words to explain how I see you,
not in the way that Miles does.
- Ian-- - But I am a photographer.
And I want to show you
what I see when I look at you.
Because you are everything to me.
[tender music]
♪
- Well...
For someone who's not a wordsmith,
that was pretty good.
- Beautiful.
♪
- Does it hurt?
- Yeah, but I'll be fine.
- Can I get you anything?
- Oh, I'm so sorry.
- It's not your fault.
[solemn music]
- [crying]
["Just The Way I Am" playing]
♪
- ♪ I like lingerie, silk and lace ♪
♪ And waking up alone
♪ Don't mind the taste of chardonnay ♪
♪ I'd rather sip merlot
♪ Sometimes I go out
♪ And shut it down
♪ Do just what I want
♪ Be just who I wanna be
- Hi.
- Yeah. - Hi.
- ♪ There ain't no one else
♪ Whoo
♪ Knows me like myself
- You know, it's too bad that it's only for Belle members,
or I would offer myself up as your first guest.
- Totally, and if it weren't a "Belle" podcast,
I would absolutely take you up on that.
- You wouldn't, would you?
- Mm, no, but it's not 'cause you're not great.
It's just 'cause I have another guest in mind.
- Well, there's no way that she's better than me.
- She runs a domestic violence shelter.
- Wow, well, don't I feel like an ass.
- You're not an ass. You're the best, actually,
'cause without you, none of this would've happened.
- Oh. - I actually got you something.
I know that you don't have your desk anymore,
but you do have a laptop.
And I hear that all the cool kids
put stickers on their laptops now, so...
- ♪ 'Cause I'm aware of where this could go ♪
- Whoa, Pokémon stickers. [squeals]
- [laughs] - Thank you.
This is so awesome. You have no idea.
- ♪ To leave you lonely
♪ Got no regrets, no sorry ♪
[phone chimes]
♪ I can't help myself
♪ It's just the way I am
♪ Stubborn, but still you want me ♪
♪ But don't wait up for apologies ♪
♪ Take it or leave me, baby ♪
♪ I can't help myself
- Jane Sloan? - Yeah?
- I read your article. I'm Erica.
- Hi.
- I had my preventative mastectomy six months ago.
I know what you're going through.
I think I can help. - Yeah.
Are you here for Jane?
- Yeah, hi. I'm Portia.
- Nice to meet you. - This is my friend, Erin.
- Hi--Jane. - I'm Erica.
- ♪ It's just the way I am
- Honey, I'm home. - [laughs]
Are you gonna do that every time?
- Maybe. How was your day?
Did you find your people? - Yeah, I think I did.
- That's good.
- [gasps] Oh, my God.
Is that Connie? - Yeah, it is!
- Oh, my God!
- I always thought it would look great in here,
and so I tracked down the buyer.
- You did? - Mm-hmm.
- So now she'll be here
to comfort you through whatever's next.
- Thanks. - You're welcome.
- Oh, you're literally the best.
- [laughs] - And also kind of insane.
[phone buzzes]
Oh. - Oh, it's Sutton.
- Okay. - We should probably go.
- Come on. Yeah, let's go.
- ♪ If I could, I wouldn't want you ♪
♪ But it's getting late now and I can't stop ♪
♪ It's so easy till there's no way out ♪
- Is there anything you need?
- How are you feeling, baby?
- ♪ Fools falling in the dark like crazy ♪
- [sighs] I feel...
- ♪ Nothing you can do will save me now ♪
- Hey, it's okay to feel sad.
- I know.
- ♪ Break my broken
- Oh, God.
[crying]
- ♪ Give me all you got, all you got ♪
♪ Break my broken heart
- I just don't know what's wrong with me.
- What?
Hey, what are you talking about?
- There is nothing wrong with you.
- ♪ I'm still breathing
- Hey, whatever you are feeling right now,
it's okay.
- Yeah. But, like...
What if I feel relieved?
'Cause I think I do.
I think I feel relieved that I'm not having this baby.
- ♪ Break my broken heart
- Okay.
- I can't believe I just said that out loud.
[exhales]
Does that make me a terrible person?
- No, of course not. - No way.
Mm-mm. - [sighs]
- It's okay.
- ♪ So what's one more scar
♪ Break my
♪ Broken heart