1 00:00:01,784 --> 00:00:03,307 - Previously on "The Bold Type"... 2 00:00:03,351 --> 00:00:04,613 - Wow. - I don't know. 3 00:00:04,656 --> 00:00:06,180 I mean, I miss my old ones. 4 00:00:06,223 --> 00:00:08,747 I got a double mastectomy three months ago. 5 00:00:08,791 --> 00:00:10,445 These don't feel like me. 6 00:00:10,488 --> 00:00:14,188 I don't feel like me, and I-- I just really wish I did. 7 00:00:14,231 --> 00:00:16,320 - I'm glad we got stuck together today. 8 00:00:16,364 --> 00:00:18,322 - He is my employee. - And you like him. 9 00:00:18,366 --> 00:00:20,759 - How am I gonna do this job and have a baby? 10 00:00:20,803 --> 00:00:23,675 - I love you, and I'm here, and we'll make it happen. 11 00:00:23,719 --> 00:00:26,548 - So you two are back together? - We are working on it. 12 00:00:26,591 --> 00:00:30,073 - "Miles Shaw." Didn't you date him in college? 13 00:00:30,117 --> 00:00:33,859 - Where were we? - Hmm. 14 00:00:33,903 --> 00:00:35,165 - You got fired, Kat. 15 00:00:35,209 --> 00:00:36,340 Either you pay the full mortgage, 16 00:00:36,384 --> 00:00:38,081 or we are gonna rent this place out. 17 00:00:38,125 --> 00:00:39,430 - Or you could just move in with me. 18 00:00:39,474 --> 00:00:40,518 - I might take you up on that. 19 00:00:42,216 --> 00:00:44,653 - Since we're talking about the apartment, 20 00:00:44,696 --> 00:00:45,741 there are some rules. 21 00:00:47,177 --> 00:00:49,223 Utilities are split evenly, groceries are fair game, 22 00:00:49,266 --> 00:00:51,268 and if my door is shut, knock, okay? 23 00:00:51,312 --> 00:00:54,228 - Will do. - Reliable Buddy 2.0? 24 00:00:54,271 --> 00:00:55,794 - Speaking of which, 25 00:00:55,838 --> 00:00:58,536 I used it for the first time last night since my surgery. 26 00:00:58,580 --> 00:01:01,235 - Wow. - Jane, that's awesome. 27 00:01:01,278 --> 00:01:04,368 - Bet I know who sparked it. - Yeah, Scotty. 28 00:01:04,412 --> 00:01:06,805 - No. - He reawakened that libido. 29 00:01:06,849 --> 00:01:08,459 - Hmm, resurrected your lady boner. 30 00:01:08,503 --> 00:01:12,811 - No, not Scott, my employee. - Okay. 31 00:01:12,855 --> 00:01:17,207 - I just have been feeling more like myself lately. 32 00:01:17,251 --> 00:01:18,730 - That's good. - How about you? 33 00:01:18,774 --> 00:01:20,210 How are you feeling, 34 00:01:20,254 --> 00:01:22,256 since you're gonna be leaving this place? 35 00:01:22,299 --> 00:01:25,781 - Honestly pretty emotional, you know? 36 00:01:25,824 --> 00:01:27,217 It's kind of weird. 37 00:01:28,305 --> 00:01:30,133 I feel like my entire existence is in this apartment. 38 00:01:30,177 --> 00:01:32,179 [bubble wrap pops] 39 00:01:32,222 --> 00:01:33,484 - That was an accident. 40 00:01:33,528 --> 00:01:35,312 - She's having a moment. - Let me have my moment. 41 00:01:37,532 --> 00:01:38,620 That couch-- 42 00:01:40,056 --> 00:01:41,753 oh man, I bought that couch after my first promotion. 43 00:01:41,797 --> 00:01:42,841 Named her Connie. 44 00:01:42,885 --> 00:01:44,278 And we binged "The L Word" together 45 00:01:44,321 --> 00:01:46,584 when I was figuring out my sexuality. 46 00:01:46,628 --> 00:01:49,239 And this table... 47 00:01:49,283 --> 00:01:51,154 Basically ran my campaign right here. 48 00:01:51,198 --> 00:01:54,418 And now I'm storing all of it. [sighs] 49 00:01:55,811 --> 00:01:57,595 [bubble wrap pops] 50 00:01:57,639 --> 00:02:00,207 Sutton, it's enough. - Can you stop? 51 00:02:00,250 --> 00:02:01,599 - I just feel like if we have bubble wrap, 52 00:02:01,643 --> 00:02:02,731 we should be using it. 53 00:02:02,774 --> 00:02:04,602 - Okay, we are gonna use it 54 00:02:04,646 --> 00:02:07,779 'cause there's one more thing we haven't wrapped. 55 00:02:07,823 --> 00:02:10,608 - Ah, yes. - Hey, Kat? 56 00:02:10,652 --> 00:02:11,783 [giggles] 57 00:02:11,827 --> 00:02:12,784 [bubble wrap pops] 58 00:02:12,828 --> 00:02:13,785 - [screams] 59 00:02:13,829 --> 00:02:17,963 [both laugh] 60 00:02:18,007 --> 00:02:19,748 [pop music] 61 00:02:19,791 --> 00:02:23,447 - ♪ All the time, they're right beside me ♪ 62 00:02:23,491 --> 00:02:26,146 - Where's "The New Yorker"? The one with the yellow cover? 63 00:02:31,542 --> 00:02:34,632 - I don't know. - Oh, here it is. 64 00:02:34,676 --> 00:02:37,766 This article by your college boyfriend, 65 00:02:37,809 --> 00:02:40,551 "In the Knick of Time," did you read it? 66 00:02:40,595 --> 00:02:43,641 - A little bit. - It's descriptive. 67 00:02:43,685 --> 00:02:48,646 - Well, he's a very talented writer. 68 00:02:48,690 --> 00:02:52,781 - "The moment I saw her, I fell in love all over again. 69 00:02:52,824 --> 00:02:55,958 "And when she smiled, showing her vulnerability, 70 00:02:56,001 --> 00:02:59,483 I wanted to devour all her pain." 71 00:03:02,486 --> 00:03:04,532 Was he writing about you? 72 00:03:11,452 --> 00:03:13,802 - We were separated, Ian. 73 00:03:13,845 --> 00:03:16,370 And he's a writer. 74 00:03:18,850 --> 00:03:21,679 That's what writers do. 75 00:03:21,723 --> 00:03:24,726 - And yet you keep it in your nightstand--why? 76 00:03:27,598 --> 00:03:31,341 - I--I actually don't even know why. 77 00:03:31,385 --> 00:03:33,387 We should talk about this later. 78 00:03:33,430 --> 00:03:35,693 - Yeah, sure thing. 79 00:03:35,737 --> 00:03:38,696 [melancholy music] 80 00:03:38,740 --> 00:03:41,351 ♪ 81 00:03:41,395 --> 00:03:44,354 - Sutton? Babe, are you still here? 82 00:03:46,487 --> 00:03:47,531 Oh, good. You haven't left yet. 83 00:03:47,575 --> 00:03:49,925 I got something for you. Open it. 84 00:03:49,968 --> 00:03:52,319 - Oh, okay. 85 00:03:55,931 --> 00:03:57,715 [gasps] It's a baby book. 86 00:03:57,759 --> 00:03:59,021 - Yeah. 87 00:03:59,064 --> 00:04:00,979 - With baseballs. 88 00:04:01,023 --> 00:04:03,504 We're not gonna find out the sex for a while, you know? 89 00:04:03,547 --> 00:04:06,681 - I know, I know, but boy, girl, nonbinary-- 90 00:04:06,724 --> 00:04:09,423 they will be required to love the Yankees. 91 00:04:09,466 --> 00:04:11,294 - Well, as long as I can keep loving the Phillies. 92 00:04:11,338 --> 00:04:13,470 - Okay. [both laugh] 93 00:04:13,514 --> 00:04:15,559 - Open it. Look at the first page. 94 00:04:15,603 --> 00:04:17,474 We get to fill that one out today. 95 00:04:17,518 --> 00:04:19,520 - Oh. "Baby's first ultrasound." 96 00:04:21,957 --> 00:04:23,437 I love it. 97 00:04:27,092 --> 00:04:28,877 [whispers] Thank you. 98 00:04:28,920 --> 00:04:31,880 [funky music] 99 00:04:31,923 --> 00:04:33,838 ♪ 100 00:04:33,882 --> 00:04:34,883 [phone pings] 101 00:04:40,976 --> 00:04:44,893 - Whoa, excuse me. Excuse me, this is my-- 102 00:04:44,936 --> 00:04:46,460 - Go-- - Sorry. 103 00:04:46,503 --> 00:04:48,592 Thank you, sorry. 104 00:04:48,636 --> 00:04:52,466 - Yeah, no, it's--it's a crowded elevator, so yeah. 105 00:04:52,509 --> 00:04:53,815 - Yeah. - [clears throat] 106 00:04:57,993 --> 00:04:59,908 So did you have a good weekend? 107 00:04:59,951 --> 00:05:02,345 - I did. You? 108 00:05:02,389 --> 00:05:06,349 - Yeah, it was mostly uneventful, but... 109 00:05:06,393 --> 00:05:07,959 - "Mostly"? 110 00:05:08,003 --> 00:05:11,049 - Yeah, well, I--I did get a few things working 111 00:05:11,093 --> 00:05:14,575 that weren't before, so... 112 00:05:14,618 --> 00:05:18,318 - Well, that's good. - Yeah, it is. 113 00:05:23,714 --> 00:05:25,934 - Can I leave some flyers here with you? 114 00:05:25,977 --> 00:05:27,631 I know how many people you see each day. 115 00:05:27,675 --> 00:05:29,590 I figure you can pass them on. 116 00:05:29,633 --> 00:05:32,157 - Of course. - Here you go. 117 00:05:32,201 --> 00:05:34,377 - Oh, a domestic violence shelter. 118 00:05:34,421 --> 00:05:35,639 That's awesome. - It is. 119 00:05:35,683 --> 00:05:37,467 - I thought you worked in finance. 120 00:05:37,511 --> 00:05:38,947 - I did, but I left 121 00:05:38,990 --> 00:05:40,992 after my sister was abused by her husband. 122 00:05:41,036 --> 00:05:43,386 - Oh, I'm really sorry. 123 00:05:43,430 --> 00:05:46,476 - She's okay now thanks to shelters like this. 124 00:05:46,520 --> 00:05:49,044 I just wanna make a difference, you know? 125 00:05:49,087 --> 00:05:51,655 - Yeah, actually I--I do know. 126 00:05:51,699 --> 00:05:53,831 Hey, do you mind if I talk to Darby about your work? 127 00:05:53,875 --> 00:05:55,877 Maybe promote the shelter? - Yeah, please. 128 00:05:55,920 --> 00:05:57,661 Every little bit helps. That's great, yeah. 129 00:05:57,705 --> 00:05:59,837 - Okay. - Thanks. 130 00:05:59,881 --> 00:06:02,579 - Yeah, of course. 131 00:06:02,623 --> 00:06:05,234 - This too. Thank you so much. 132 00:06:09,064 --> 00:06:11,632 - [sighs] - Oh, hey, Georgia. 133 00:06:11,675 --> 00:06:12,894 Everything go well with the shoot? 134 00:06:12,937 --> 00:06:14,678 - Yeah, everything was great. - You sure? 135 00:06:14,722 --> 00:06:16,854 - It wasn't the shoot. 136 00:06:16,898 --> 00:06:19,422 The stylist I hired for my son's graduation 137 00:06:19,466 --> 00:06:21,206 just ditched me for a spread in "Vogue." 138 00:06:21,250 --> 00:06:23,557 - Oh, no. - Yeah. 139 00:06:23,600 --> 00:06:24,906 Do you freelance? - Yeah. 140 00:06:26,473 --> 00:06:27,517 As long as it doesn't interfere with this, it's no problem. 141 00:06:27,561 --> 00:06:29,214 - Great, because it's in two days, 142 00:06:29,258 --> 00:06:30,607 and my son needs some help as well. 143 00:06:30,651 --> 00:06:32,870 - Well, let's up your fashion game and his. 144 00:06:32,914 --> 00:06:35,873 I already have your sizes, so I can start pulling. 145 00:06:35,917 --> 00:06:38,572 How about your son? - Size four. 146 00:06:38,615 --> 00:06:40,704 [chuckles] He's a rising first grader. 147 00:06:40,748 --> 00:06:43,707 - Oh, it's a kindergarten graduation. 148 00:06:43,751 --> 00:06:45,579 - I'll text you my address. We can meet after work. 149 00:06:45,622 --> 00:06:47,450 - That sounds perfect. - Great, isn't it? 150 00:06:47,494 --> 00:06:49,626 - It's so great. 151 00:06:49,670 --> 00:06:52,803 [upbeat music] 152 00:06:52,847 --> 00:06:55,545 ♪ 153 00:06:55,589 --> 00:06:57,242 - Here you go. - Oh, thanks, Kat. 154 00:06:57,286 --> 00:06:59,680 - Yeah. 155 00:06:59,723 --> 00:07:01,899 You know Penny Davenport? - Mm-hmm. 156 00:07:01,943 --> 00:07:04,728 - She runs a domestic violence shelter, and I think 157 00:07:04,772 --> 00:07:07,252 she'd be a great person to speak at one of our events. 158 00:07:07,296 --> 00:07:08,819 - That's a good idea. - Thank you. 159 00:07:08,863 --> 00:07:10,647 - I've got to run to a meeting. Thanks, Kat. 160 00:07:10,691 --> 00:07:13,258 - Yeah, also... 161 00:07:13,302 --> 00:07:15,173 I feel like we should be livestreaming 162 00:07:15,217 --> 00:07:16,348 these speaking events 163 00:07:16,392 --> 00:07:18,046 and posting them to "The Belle" website. 164 00:07:18,089 --> 00:07:20,527 That way, we're reaching thousands of women 165 00:07:20,570 --> 00:07:21,919 instead of just the people that are here. 166 00:07:21,963 --> 00:07:23,051 - Mm-hmm. 167 00:07:23,094 --> 00:07:24,966 - I mean, you could even do, 168 00:07:25,009 --> 00:07:27,577 like, a more intimate interview series, 169 00:07:27,621 --> 00:07:30,754 like a--well, like a podcast, maybe. 170 00:07:30,798 --> 00:07:33,931 Women here talk to me all the time when I'm just working, 171 00:07:33,975 --> 00:07:36,891 and they have super interesting stories and ideas. 172 00:07:36,934 --> 00:07:40,285 And it could be a casual interview 173 00:07:40,329 --> 00:07:41,286 from across the bar. 174 00:07:41,330 --> 00:07:42,592 - With you. 175 00:07:42,636 --> 00:07:45,639 - Yeah. - Okay. 176 00:07:45,682 --> 00:07:48,163 What makes you think you're the right person to do this? 177 00:07:48,206 --> 00:07:50,774 - Well, I mean, I used to run social media at "Scarlet," 178 00:07:50,818 --> 00:07:55,213 which was basically curating content for women by women. 179 00:07:55,257 --> 00:07:57,868 It's what I do--or did. 180 00:07:59,827 --> 00:08:02,177 - How about you record one episode? 181 00:08:02,220 --> 00:08:03,787 And if I don't like it, then-- 182 00:08:03,831 --> 00:08:06,137 - Then, I mean, I won't bring it up again. 183 00:08:06,181 --> 00:08:07,878 Promise. - Okay. 184 00:08:11,882 --> 00:08:13,014 - Thank you. 185 00:08:14,798 --> 00:08:16,974 - [gasps] A podcast? 186 00:08:17,018 --> 00:08:18,976 Oh, my gosh. That's awesome. 187 00:08:19,020 --> 00:08:20,891 - Yeah, I mean, it's an oversaturated market, 188 00:08:20,935 --> 00:08:22,197 and I don't really know what I'm doing, 189 00:08:23,372 --> 00:08:24,025 but my parents are shrinks, and I feel like 190 00:08:25,461 --> 00:08:26,506 shrinking people is kind of like interviewing people. 191 00:08:27,550 --> 00:08:29,030 - Kat, you were made for this job. 192 00:08:30,248 --> 00:08:31,728 Ooh, you could call it "Kat's Got Your Tongue" 193 00:08:31,772 --> 00:08:34,644 or "Kat-aclysm." 194 00:08:34,688 --> 00:08:36,037 - Or something without a pun? 195 00:08:36,080 --> 00:08:37,647 - You could ask Alex for advice. 196 00:08:37,691 --> 00:08:39,780 Get it? "Ask Alex"? 197 00:08:39,823 --> 00:08:41,042 - That's actually a pretty good idea. 198 00:08:43,348 --> 00:08:45,046 What's going on with Jane? 199 00:08:46,482 --> 00:08:49,006 - I think that her sex drive is getting in the way of work, 200 00:08:49,050 --> 00:08:53,271 or, should I say, her ability to work with Scotty Too Hotty. 201 00:08:53,315 --> 00:08:57,580 - Wowie, so we are finally admitting there's a problem. 202 00:08:57,624 --> 00:08:59,756 - Okay, fine. There is a problem. 203 00:08:59,800 --> 00:09:02,846 - Hmm, I have one word for you, Jane--Raya. 204 00:09:02,890 --> 00:09:03,891 - Yeah! 205 00:09:05,109 --> 00:09:05,153 - I could have a suitable fix for you 206 00:09:06,067 --> 00:09:06,546 in, like, less than an hour. 207 00:09:07,590 --> 00:09:09,157 - No, I can't. Dating, I just... 208 00:09:09,200 --> 00:09:12,073 Dating is gonna make me think about Ryan, 209 00:09:12,116 --> 00:09:15,163 and I'm--I'm not ready to do that. 210 00:09:15,206 --> 00:09:16,686 - Okay, well, look, 211 00:09:17,905 --> 00:09:18,732 it does kind of sound like your body is ready. 212 00:09:20,037 --> 00:09:20,734 And that's very different from dating, so 213 00:09:22,474 --> 00:09:23,867 unless you wanna accidentally hook up with your employee... 214 00:09:23,911 --> 00:09:28,263 - Okay, okay, fine. I will Raya. 215 00:09:28,306 --> 00:09:29,394 - [gasps] 216 00:09:29,438 --> 00:09:32,354 [pop music] 217 00:09:32,397 --> 00:09:34,182 ♪ 218 00:09:34,225 --> 00:09:35,009 Hi. - Hey. 219 00:09:35,966 --> 00:09:37,402 - Hey, Doctor. - How are you? 220 00:09:37,446 --> 00:09:38,926 - Good. - Great. 221 00:09:38,969 --> 00:09:42,320 - It says here that this is your first baby. 222 00:09:42,364 --> 00:09:44,235 - Yes. - Wow, congratulations. 223 00:09:44,279 --> 00:09:46,107 - Thank you. - All right. 224 00:09:46,150 --> 00:09:48,762 I'll have you lie back, and just tuck up your shirt, 225 00:09:48,805 --> 00:09:49,937 tuck down your pants. 226 00:09:49,980 --> 00:09:52,766 - Sure. 227 00:09:52,809 --> 00:09:56,334 - I apologize in advance. Our gel warmer is on the fritz, 228 00:09:56,378 --> 00:09:58,336 so this is gonna be a little bit cold. 229 00:09:58,380 --> 00:10:00,730 - Okay. - All right. 230 00:10:02,689 --> 00:10:05,082 - Ooh, that is cold. [both laugh] 231 00:10:12,481 --> 00:10:14,091 - How does everything look? 232 00:10:14,135 --> 00:10:17,834 - Is the machine on the fritz too? 233 00:10:17,878 --> 00:10:20,881 - I'm gonna have you sit up again, please. 234 00:10:29,106 --> 00:10:32,370 There's no heartbeat. 235 00:10:32,414 --> 00:10:34,111 I'm so sorry. 236 00:10:34,155 --> 00:10:36,766 [solemn music] 237 00:10:42,250 --> 00:10:45,949 - Statistically, 10% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. 238 00:10:45,993 --> 00:10:47,864 It's not your fault. 239 00:10:47,908 --> 00:10:49,474 And just because it's happened once 240 00:10:49,518 --> 00:10:51,128 doesn't mean it's gonna happen again. 241 00:10:51,172 --> 00:10:54,218 - ♪ Stuck here in the in-between ♪ 242 00:10:54,262 --> 00:10:57,221 ♪ 243 00:10:57,265 --> 00:11:00,224 - Okay, so what now? 244 00:11:00,268 --> 00:11:02,183 - So now you two wait. 245 00:11:02,226 --> 00:11:05,099 It should take up to about 48 hours or so. 246 00:11:05,142 --> 00:11:06,535 Because it's early in the pregnancy, 247 00:11:06,578 --> 00:11:08,493 it's gonna feel like heavy cramping 248 00:11:08,537 --> 00:11:10,147 followed by a heavy period. 249 00:11:10,191 --> 00:11:14,064 In fact, you probably want to use these pads. 250 00:11:14,108 --> 00:11:16,545 - ♪ Break down here 251 00:11:16,588 --> 00:11:19,548 ♪ 252 00:11:19,591 --> 00:11:21,158 - I'm sorry. 253 00:11:21,202 --> 00:11:22,899 I'm gonna give you two a minute, okay? 254 00:11:22,943 --> 00:11:26,424 - ♪ Whoa, oh, whoa, oh 255 00:11:26,468 --> 00:11:28,905 ♪ 256 00:11:28,949 --> 00:11:32,256 ♪ Breathe 257 00:11:32,300 --> 00:11:37,087 ♪ Still, I have to tell myself to breathe ♪ 258 00:11:37,131 --> 00:11:39,307 - I just need Darby to like one episode. 259 00:11:39,350 --> 00:11:41,613 - I saw you rise all the way to the top of "Scarlet." 260 00:11:41,657 --> 00:11:42,963 You don't do anything half-assed, 261 00:11:43,006 --> 00:11:44,834 and this podcast is gonna be no exception. 262 00:11:44,878 --> 00:11:46,923 - Well, thanks. I appreciate it. 263 00:11:46,967 --> 00:11:49,317 Just--I'm trying to find some direction, you know? 264 00:11:49,360 --> 00:11:51,449 I mean, this podcast feels like the right step, so... 265 00:11:51,493 --> 00:11:53,060 - Okay, mics. 266 00:11:53,103 --> 00:11:57,281 If I were you, I would go with ProFrequency. 267 00:11:57,325 --> 00:12:01,938 It's got a little less sensitive condenser mic, 268 00:12:01,982 --> 00:12:03,897 but better for a busy environment. 269 00:12:03,940 --> 00:12:05,899 - Like a bar. - Exactly. 270 00:12:05,942 --> 00:12:07,639 - Okay. All right, so... 271 00:12:07,683 --> 00:12:08,858 - Hey. - Thank you. 272 00:12:08,902 --> 00:12:10,207 - You're welcome. - Oh. 273 00:12:10,251 --> 00:12:12,122 - I'm trying to start a podcast. 274 00:12:12,166 --> 00:12:14,864 - Oh, congratulations. - Thank you. 275 00:12:14,908 --> 00:12:16,083 [lowers voice] Hello, 276 00:12:17,475 --> 00:12:18,912 and welcome to "The Belle Podcast" with Kat Edison. 277 00:12:18,955 --> 00:12:22,480 - [vocalizes] - Our first guest is-- 278 00:12:22,524 --> 00:12:25,657 - Uh...your card's been declined. 279 00:12:25,701 --> 00:12:27,659 - Oh, really? - Yeah. 280 00:12:27,703 --> 00:12:30,314 - It's probably a mistake, so... 281 00:12:30,358 --> 00:12:31,620 [phone buzzes] 282 00:12:31,663 --> 00:12:36,016 Um, I probably just forgot to... 283 00:12:36,059 --> 00:12:37,408 - Do you-- I can just grab it for you. 284 00:12:37,452 --> 00:12:38,888 - No, no, no, no. 285 00:12:38,932 --> 00:12:41,151 - I'll hold onto these. 286 00:12:50,030 --> 00:12:52,075 - Hey, you want some chamomile? 287 00:12:55,557 --> 00:12:58,125 I could order some food. 288 00:12:58,168 --> 00:13:00,127 Watch a movie, stay in together. 289 00:13:04,479 --> 00:13:05,959 Chicken soup? 290 00:13:06,002 --> 00:13:07,438 Not that you're sick, 291 00:13:07,482 --> 00:13:10,877 but I just thought that comfort food might help you. 292 00:13:15,272 --> 00:13:17,622 Hey. 293 00:13:17,666 --> 00:13:20,582 You haven't said anything since we left the doctor's office. 294 00:13:20,625 --> 00:13:24,325 How are you feeling? 295 00:13:24,368 --> 00:13:26,457 - Like you said, I'm not sick, you know? 296 00:13:26,501 --> 00:13:30,374 And I feel fine, so... 297 00:13:30,418 --> 00:13:33,160 I was supposed to meet Kat and Jane at The Belle. 298 00:13:33,203 --> 00:13:37,686 Maybe I'll--I'll do that. - Are you sure? 299 00:13:37,729 --> 00:13:40,080 - Yeah, I can't sit here for 48 hours. 300 00:13:40,123 --> 00:13:43,213 - Well, it could be less. - If it is, I'll come home. 301 00:13:43,257 --> 00:13:46,434 - Okay, I was gonna cancel the meeting I had, 302 00:13:46,477 --> 00:13:49,654 but since you're gonna see the girls, I'll keep it. 303 00:13:49,698 --> 00:13:52,005 But if you need me-- - I'll call you. 304 00:13:52,048 --> 00:13:53,310 - Yeah. 305 00:13:55,747 --> 00:13:57,575 - I love you. - I love you. 306 00:13:57,619 --> 00:14:00,535 [melancholic music] 307 00:14:00,578 --> 00:14:07,324 ♪ 308 00:14:09,065 --> 00:14:12,068 - The doctor said it could happen anytime 309 00:14:12,112 --> 00:14:13,591 in the next two days. 310 00:14:13,635 --> 00:14:17,682 - Sutton. - We're so sorry. 311 00:14:17,726 --> 00:14:19,554 - I'm fine. 312 00:14:19,597 --> 00:14:24,080 And--and Richard--he's being amazing as always, so... 313 00:14:24,124 --> 00:14:25,342 I'm gonna go home and rest after this. 314 00:14:26,866 --> 00:14:28,650 I just wanted you guys to know, and now you do, so... 315 00:14:28,693 --> 00:14:31,000 [phone buzzes] 316 00:14:31,044 --> 00:14:32,219 Oh, shit. 317 00:14:32,262 --> 00:14:34,003 I forgot about this styling job I took. 318 00:14:34,047 --> 00:14:37,267 I'm supposed to pull clothes after work. 319 00:14:37,311 --> 00:14:39,704 - I thought you said you were gonna go home after this. 320 00:14:39,748 --> 00:14:41,445 - Maybe you should rest. 321 00:14:41,489 --> 00:14:44,274 - Oh, yeah, I'm--I'm gonna call Timothy when I leave 322 00:14:44,318 --> 00:14:47,277 and see if he wants a side gig. 323 00:14:47,321 --> 00:14:49,584 No work. I promise. 324 00:14:49,627 --> 00:14:53,283 So who's gonna be keeping me posted on this double date? 325 00:14:53,327 --> 00:14:54,632 I'm gonna need the play-by-play. 326 00:14:54,676 --> 00:14:56,286 - I'll document it. 327 00:14:56,330 --> 00:14:58,462 Oh, I'm gonna live tweet the whole thing. 328 00:14:58,506 --> 00:15:01,509 - ♪ Ooh, dress cleaner that a Sunday ♪ 329 00:15:01,552 --> 00:15:03,163 ♪ I'm goody good like gelato ♪ 330 00:15:03,206 --> 00:15:06,166 - But it is way too scary, so I will not watch it again. 331 00:15:06,209 --> 00:15:07,602 - Oh, wow. - Yeah. 332 00:15:07,645 --> 00:15:09,343 [both laugh] 333 00:15:09,386 --> 00:15:12,259 - Favorite book of last year? - Oh, okay. 334 00:15:12,302 --> 00:15:15,305 "Trick Mirror." You know it? 335 00:15:15,349 --> 00:15:17,177 - Yeah, I couldn't put it down. 336 00:15:17,220 --> 00:15:19,440 Of course, I was on a cruise with my parents, 337 00:15:19,483 --> 00:15:21,137 so it could've been an avoidance tactic. 338 00:15:21,181 --> 00:15:22,834 Yeah, yeah. - No. 339 00:15:22,878 --> 00:15:26,360 - A dark and stormy for Kevin, and a vodka soda for Jane. 340 00:15:26,403 --> 00:15:27,448 - Thank you. 341 00:15:28,797 --> 00:15:30,277 You know, you don't have to bartend here, right? 342 00:15:30,320 --> 00:15:31,713 - Oh, yeah, I know. 343 00:15:31,756 --> 00:15:34,063 Just wanna make sure you have everything you need. 344 00:15:34,107 --> 00:15:37,414 - Hmm, good friend. - She's the best. 345 00:15:37,458 --> 00:15:39,851 Are you guys gonna join us? - Yeah. 346 00:15:39,895 --> 00:15:41,636 We're just waiting on our drinks, 347 00:15:41,679 --> 00:15:43,116 but we'll be over in a minute. 348 00:15:43,159 --> 00:15:45,379 - Okay. - Okay, hmm. 349 00:15:48,599 --> 00:15:52,473 - So you have a Vertical, which means you're an editor? 350 00:15:52,516 --> 00:15:55,650 - And apparently it also means I have clingy friends. 351 00:15:55,693 --> 00:15:57,347 - Yeah? - [laughs] 352 00:16:00,524 --> 00:16:03,179 ♪ 353 00:16:03,223 --> 00:16:05,181 - ♪ Hitting on the edges 354 00:16:05,225 --> 00:16:06,530 - Sorry, but... 355 00:16:06,574 --> 00:16:08,141 - Should we start with your son? 356 00:16:08,184 --> 00:16:10,317 - He is the man of the hour, so why not? 357 00:16:10,360 --> 00:16:12,232 - I had so much fun shopping for him today. 358 00:16:12,275 --> 00:16:16,192 So I was thinking we could do, like, a father-son thing. 359 00:16:16,236 --> 00:16:18,151 Play in that same color palette. 360 00:16:18,194 --> 00:16:20,196 - So cute. Yeah. 361 00:16:20,240 --> 00:16:21,458 Oh, my husband has a suit like this. 362 00:16:21,502 --> 00:16:24,853 I'm sure he'd love that. - Great. 363 00:16:24,896 --> 00:16:27,203 - Aww. 364 00:16:27,247 --> 00:16:31,599 - So...so did you always want kids? 365 00:16:31,642 --> 00:16:35,211 - I did, but that didn't make it any easier. 366 00:16:35,255 --> 00:16:38,475 Three rounds of IUI, two of IVF. 367 00:16:38,519 --> 00:16:40,912 Almost started thinking it wasn't gonna happen for us. 368 00:16:40,956 --> 00:16:44,264 - But it did. 369 00:16:44,307 --> 00:16:46,483 How was your pregnancy? 370 00:16:46,527 --> 00:16:48,268 - Morning sickness the first trimester, 371 00:16:48,311 --> 00:16:50,400 bed rest at the end. 372 00:16:50,444 --> 00:16:51,706 You know, but it was all worth it 373 00:16:51,749 --> 00:16:54,752 when I held my son for the first time. 374 00:16:54,796 --> 00:16:58,365 Ah, I see you're married. Are you planning to have kids? 375 00:16:58,408 --> 00:16:59,844 - Um... 376 00:16:59,888 --> 00:17:01,585 My husband and I just got married, 377 00:17:01,629 --> 00:17:04,936 so we're taking it slow. 378 00:17:04,980 --> 00:17:06,547 - What do you think of bow ties? 379 00:17:06,590 --> 00:17:07,809 - Ah, yes. 380 00:17:07,852 --> 00:17:10,942 Um... 381 00:17:10,986 --> 00:17:14,163 - Oh. - [chuckles] 382 00:17:14,207 --> 00:17:16,600 Right? 383 00:17:16,644 --> 00:17:18,733 - That would look great. 384 00:17:18,776 --> 00:17:19,908 ♪ 385 00:17:19,951 --> 00:17:21,344 - ♪ Dirty, dirty secret 386 00:17:21,388 --> 00:17:26,262 ♪ Our pretty lie 387 00:17:26,306 --> 00:17:27,959 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh 388 00:17:28,003 --> 00:17:33,182 ♪ Without disguise 389 00:17:33,226 --> 00:17:35,489 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh 390 00:17:35,532 --> 00:17:39,319 ♪ And I've got a taste of danger, getting off ♪ 391 00:17:39,362 --> 00:17:43,279 - Your place is really nice. - Yeah, okay. 392 00:17:43,323 --> 00:17:46,500 - ♪ Pretty lies 393 00:17:46,543 --> 00:17:48,545 ♪ Dirty little secret 394 00:17:48,589 --> 00:17:52,245 ♪ Oh, oh, dirty little secret ♪ 395 00:17:52,288 --> 00:17:54,290 - [sighs, stammers] 396 00:17:54,334 --> 00:17:55,465 Wait. - What? 397 00:17:55,509 --> 00:17:57,467 - I'm sorry. - What? 398 00:17:57,511 --> 00:17:59,817 Is everything okay? - Yeah, sorry. 399 00:17:59,861 --> 00:18:02,907 It's not you. I just... 400 00:18:02,951 --> 00:18:07,477 I--I think I need to take things slow. 401 00:18:07,521 --> 00:18:11,220 - Of course. Whatever you need. 402 00:18:11,264 --> 00:18:12,656 - Um... 403 00:18:12,700 --> 00:18:15,659 Maybe we should do this another night. 404 00:18:18,662 --> 00:18:20,664 - No worries--I'll call you. - Yeah. 405 00:18:20,708 --> 00:18:21,752 Great. Yeah. 406 00:18:24,233 --> 00:18:27,018 It's just--it's over there. - Yeah. 407 00:18:27,062 --> 00:18:30,021 [solemn music] 408 00:18:30,065 --> 00:18:35,723 ♪ 409 00:18:41,859 --> 00:18:43,774 ["Easy" by Alison Wonderland playing] 410 00:18:43,818 --> 00:18:46,081 ♪ 411 00:18:46,125 --> 00:18:50,172 - ♪ Time feels slower inside of my head ♪ 412 00:18:50,216 --> 00:18:52,000 ♪ 413 00:18:52,043 --> 00:18:54,307 ♪ Can I paint a picture 414 00:18:54,350 --> 00:18:58,789 ♪ Of the world that I see instead? ♪ 415 00:18:58,833 --> 00:19:01,227 ♪ And I know it's 416 00:19:01,270 --> 00:19:04,795 ♪ They say I'm not really that bad ♪ 417 00:19:04,839 --> 00:19:06,841 ♪ 418 00:19:06,884 --> 00:19:09,104 ♪ But I think too much 419 00:19:09,148 --> 00:19:11,324 - Hey. - Hey. 420 00:19:11,367 --> 00:19:13,978 [both laugh] 421 00:19:16,155 --> 00:19:19,070 - Feels weird to be back at Safford. 422 00:19:19,114 --> 00:19:22,117 - Yeah, I mean, I figured this would be a lot less... 423 00:19:22,161 --> 00:19:25,120 - Out in the open? - Exactly. 424 00:19:25,164 --> 00:19:28,732 - Yeah. - So I wanna help you. 425 00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:32,083 - Whoa. 426 00:19:32,823 --> 00:19:33,911 - Turns out "Scarlet" has a bunch 427 00:19:34,782 --> 00:19:36,827 of extra podcast mics just laying around. 428 00:19:36,871 --> 00:19:38,264 - Huh. - Hmm. 429 00:19:38,307 --> 00:19:39,961 - You want me to steal "Scarlet" property? 430 00:19:40,004 --> 00:19:42,311 - More like borrow it. - Right. 431 00:19:42,355 --> 00:19:43,834 - You know, I loan you my mixer. 432 00:19:43,878 --> 00:19:45,793 As long as you drop it to me early in the morning, 433 00:19:45,836 --> 00:19:47,708 no one will be none the wiser, you know? 434 00:19:47,751 --> 00:19:49,318 - Alex, I appreciate it, 435 00:19:49,362 --> 00:19:54,062 but I'm not gonna get you fired so I can record a podcast. 436 00:19:54,105 --> 00:19:55,716 But thanks. 437 00:19:55,759 --> 00:19:59,110 - You're sure? - Yeah. 438 00:19:59,154 --> 00:20:00,199 - Okay. 439 00:20:03,811 --> 00:20:07,293 So then, what are you gonna do? 440 00:20:07,336 --> 00:20:10,252 - Well, my paycheck hasn't cleared yet, 441 00:20:10,296 --> 00:20:12,123 and I accidentally-- 442 00:20:12,167 --> 00:20:14,822 I paid three months of storage space up front, 443 00:20:14,865 --> 00:20:16,171 which is why my account overdrafted, 444 00:20:16,215 --> 00:20:19,043 but I'm gonna have some cash in a couple days. 445 00:20:19,087 --> 00:20:22,133 And I--I mean, most of that is gonna go to rent, 446 00:20:22,177 --> 00:20:24,266 and my phone bill, and overdraft fees, 447 00:20:24,310 --> 00:20:26,007 but it's all good. 448 00:20:26,050 --> 00:20:28,270 - How much was the storage space? 449 00:20:28,314 --> 00:20:30,011 - $300 a month. 450 00:20:30,054 --> 00:20:32,970 - 300--wow, that's a huge monthly expense 451 00:20:33,014 --> 00:20:35,321 on a bartender's salary. 452 00:20:35,364 --> 00:20:37,888 Can you cancel it? 453 00:20:37,932 --> 00:20:40,021 - Well, where would I put my stuff? 454 00:20:40,064 --> 00:20:44,199 - Well, you can sell it. - I can't do that. 455 00:20:44,243 --> 00:20:47,855 I already lost "Scarlet," and my apartment, 456 00:20:47,898 --> 00:20:51,293 and my 401[k], and... 457 00:20:51,337 --> 00:20:54,209 [somber music] 458 00:20:54,253 --> 00:20:58,082 The only thing I do know is that 459 00:20:58,126 --> 00:20:59,301 I can't lose anything else, 460 00:20:59,345 --> 00:21:02,870 so selling my stuff is just not an option. 461 00:21:02,913 --> 00:21:05,438 ♪ 462 00:21:05,481 --> 00:21:08,441 [funky music] 463 00:21:08,484 --> 00:21:09,790 ♪ 464 00:21:09,833 --> 00:21:11,052 - Everything was great. 465 00:21:11,095 --> 00:21:16,536 I mean, he was sweet, and cute, and... 466 00:21:16,579 --> 00:21:18,146 [sighs] I don't know. 467 00:21:18,189 --> 00:21:20,801 We just started hooking up, and I... 468 00:21:20,844 --> 00:21:22,542 I couldn't go through with it. 469 00:21:22,585 --> 00:21:24,152 - Well, I think it makes sense. 470 00:21:25,414 --> 00:21:26,807 You haven't been with anyone since Ryan, and change is hard. 471 00:21:26,850 --> 00:21:28,069 I get it. 472 00:21:28,112 --> 00:21:30,245 Just think of this guy as a warm-up, you know? 473 00:21:30,289 --> 00:21:33,944 There are plenty more on Raya. I could get right on it. 474 00:21:33,988 --> 00:21:35,468 Just say the word. 475 00:21:35,511 --> 00:21:38,297 - Yeah, can we just focus on Sutton? 476 00:21:38,340 --> 00:21:39,950 - Yeah. 477 00:21:39,994 --> 00:21:42,083 - I can't imagine having to wait this long. 478 00:21:42,126 --> 00:21:44,346 - I know, but at least we're here to cheer her up. 479 00:21:44,390 --> 00:21:45,826 - Yeah. - Hey. 480 00:21:45,869 --> 00:21:47,218 What are you guys doing here? 481 00:21:47,262 --> 00:21:50,570 - We brought coffee and bagels. - Oh. 482 00:21:50,613 --> 00:21:54,530 - Yeah. Shouldn't you be in bed? 483 00:21:54,574 --> 00:21:57,533 - Did it already happen? - No, it didn't. 484 00:21:57,577 --> 00:21:59,492 No. both: Oh. 485 00:21:59,535 --> 00:22:01,494 - What's with the clothes? 486 00:22:01,537 --> 00:22:06,107 - Oh, I went shopping. - Huh, retail therapy. 487 00:22:06,150 --> 00:22:07,413 - Kind of, except it wasn't for me. 488 00:22:07,456 --> 00:22:09,110 It was for Georgia and her son. 489 00:22:09,153 --> 00:22:11,547 - But I thought that you were gonna have Timothy do that 490 00:22:11,591 --> 00:22:13,288 so you could go home and rest. 491 00:22:13,332 --> 00:22:15,072 - You know, I was going to, and then I was like, 492 00:22:15,116 --> 00:22:18,293 "Wait a minute. Tuxedos for five-year-old boys? 493 00:22:18,337 --> 00:22:19,250 How could I not?" 494 00:22:20,469 --> 00:22:21,949 So I'm on my way to meet the little guy now. 495 00:22:21,992 --> 00:22:23,124 I should probably get going. 496 00:22:23,167 --> 00:22:24,343 - Hold on. - Hey. 497 00:22:26,475 --> 00:22:29,348 Are you okay? - Yeah. 498 00:22:29,391 --> 00:22:31,524 I mean, you know, this pad's a little thick, 499 00:22:31,567 --> 00:22:33,134 but other than that, I'm fine. 500 00:22:33,177 --> 00:22:38,139 - Okay, 'cause I mean, you're gonna go style a kid 501 00:22:38,182 --> 00:22:39,880 while you're waiting to miscarry. 502 00:22:39,923 --> 00:22:44,406 It's just... - Yeah. 503 00:22:44,450 --> 00:22:45,973 That's crazy. - No. 504 00:22:46,016 --> 00:22:48,149 - No, I know it's crazy. It is. 505 00:22:48,192 --> 00:22:50,934 But I have to do it because... 506 00:22:50,978 --> 00:22:53,415 Because I don't feel anything. 507 00:22:53,459 --> 00:22:54,982 - What do you mean? 508 00:22:56,505 --> 00:22:57,985 - I just keep waiting 509 00:22:58,028 --> 00:22:59,552 for this tidal wave of emotions to hit me, 510 00:22:59,595 --> 00:23:05,340 and I'm not angry, or mad, or sad, or any of the things 511 00:23:05,384 --> 00:23:07,255 that you're supposed to be about a miscarriage. 512 00:23:07,298 --> 00:23:10,650 I just--I feel numb, and I really don't wanna feel numb, 513 00:23:10,693 --> 00:23:13,609 so I'm gonna go dress this little boy, 514 00:23:13,653 --> 00:23:16,917 and then, you know, maybe then... 515 00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:18,484 - You'll feel something. 516 00:23:18,527 --> 00:23:21,487 [tense music] 517 00:23:21,530 --> 00:23:25,926 ♪ 518 00:23:25,969 --> 00:23:28,189 - So you wanna know why I keep the magazine? 519 00:23:28,232 --> 00:23:29,930 - Yes, I do. 520 00:23:29,973 --> 00:23:34,674 - I like to read the story. - Why? 521 00:23:34,717 --> 00:23:38,025 - Because it's romantic. - It's romantic? 522 00:23:38,068 --> 00:23:40,157 It's an account of you two having sex. 523 00:23:40,201 --> 00:23:43,639 - It's an account of how a man sees a woman. 524 00:23:43,683 --> 00:23:45,989 - Oh, Jacqueline, are you serious? 525 00:23:46,033 --> 00:23:50,690 - Look, we are working hard in therapy and at home 526 00:23:50,733 --> 00:23:52,343 to try to communicate better. 527 00:23:52,387 --> 00:23:56,173 And this is me telling you why I kept the article. 528 00:24:01,570 --> 00:24:06,662 I felt seen. 529 00:24:06,706 --> 00:24:09,665 [eerie music] 530 00:24:09,709 --> 00:24:12,538 ♪ 531 00:24:12,581 --> 00:24:15,541 [hip-hop music] 532 00:24:15,584 --> 00:24:17,107 ♪ 533 00:24:17,151 --> 00:24:19,414 - Hey, I'm so glad you called. 534 00:24:19,458 --> 00:24:20,981 I really appreciate your donations. 535 00:24:21,024 --> 00:24:23,984 - Yeah. - Wow, this is fantastic. 536 00:24:24,027 --> 00:24:25,507 - Yeah, the first one helped me 537 00:24:25,551 --> 00:24:27,683 through a really difficult board room presentation. 538 00:24:27,727 --> 00:24:31,513 I was actually wearing this when I got my first promotion. 539 00:24:31,557 --> 00:24:35,212 - Actually, this would be perfect for Thelma. 540 00:24:35,256 --> 00:24:37,171 Yeah, she's just been with us for about three weeks, 541 00:24:37,214 --> 00:24:39,129 and she just got her first interview as a receptionist. 542 00:24:39,173 --> 00:24:40,740 - That's awesome. - Yeah. 543 00:24:40,783 --> 00:24:42,089 - Would you let me know how it goes? 544 00:24:42,132 --> 00:24:45,048 - Yes, definitely. Thank you, Kat. 545 00:24:45,092 --> 00:24:47,529 - It's nothing. - No. 546 00:24:47,573 --> 00:24:50,271 You're helping to make a woman who is reinventing her life 547 00:24:50,314 --> 00:24:52,578 and herself feel confident again. 548 00:24:52,621 --> 00:24:56,233 That's not nothing, Kat. It's actually everything. 549 00:24:57,757 --> 00:24:59,541 Thanks for this. - Yeah. 550 00:25:10,378 --> 00:25:14,295 Hey, Alex, can you meet me at my place after work? 551 00:25:14,338 --> 00:25:15,514 I need your help with something. 552 00:25:20,823 --> 00:25:23,783 [funky music] 553 00:25:23,826 --> 00:25:28,570 ♪ 554 00:25:28,614 --> 00:25:30,964 - Hey, I'm gonna need another hour on this, 555 00:25:31,007 --> 00:25:32,705 but the story's really good. 556 00:25:32,748 --> 00:25:36,491 - Great, yeah. Take whatever time you need. 557 00:25:36,535 --> 00:25:39,407 - You okay? - Yeah, I'm fine. 558 00:25:43,411 --> 00:25:46,588 Um...it's--it's complicated. 559 00:25:46,632 --> 00:25:47,807 - Try me. 560 00:25:51,767 --> 00:25:53,464 - Okay. 561 00:25:56,555 --> 00:26:00,428 Well, you know how I told you that my mom died? 562 00:26:00,471 --> 00:26:01,777 It was from breast cancer. 563 00:26:01,821 --> 00:26:06,477 She had the BRCA1 mutation, and so do I. 564 00:26:06,521 --> 00:26:10,569 - I read your pieces about it. - Yeah. 565 00:26:10,612 --> 00:26:12,919 But what I haven't written about yet is 566 00:26:12,962 --> 00:26:14,355 that a couple months ago, 567 00:26:14,398 --> 00:26:17,358 I got a preventative double mastectomy. 568 00:26:20,666 --> 00:26:22,624 [sighs] 569 00:26:22,668 --> 00:26:25,584 I'm really happy that I had the surgery. 570 00:26:25,627 --> 00:26:27,934 I just thought that once it was done, 571 00:26:27,977 --> 00:26:32,112 I would feel like myself again, 572 00:26:32,155 --> 00:26:35,115 and I don't. 573 00:26:35,158 --> 00:26:36,943 And my friends have been amazing, 574 00:26:36,986 --> 00:26:41,382 but they have their own problems to worry about. 575 00:26:41,425 --> 00:26:44,777 So I guess sometimes, I just feel alone. 576 00:26:44,820 --> 00:26:49,651 - When my dad died, I felt the same way, 577 00:26:49,695 --> 00:26:55,396 so I joined a grief support group. 578 00:26:55,439 --> 00:26:57,659 It helped. 579 00:26:57,703 --> 00:27:02,403 Your people are out there. You just need to find them. 580 00:27:02,446 --> 00:27:03,796 - Yeah. 581 00:27:03,839 --> 00:27:06,799 [ambient music] 582 00:27:06,842 --> 00:27:11,412 ♪ 583 00:27:11,455 --> 00:27:13,980 - [laughs] Whoa, okay. 584 00:27:14,023 --> 00:27:16,504 Now I see why you needed so much storage space. 585 00:27:16,547 --> 00:27:17,853 - I know. It's a lot. 586 00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:22,858 - What changed your mind? 587 00:27:22,902 --> 00:27:24,686 - I just-- 588 00:27:24,730 --> 00:27:27,428 I just wanted to do something that matters, you know? 589 00:27:27,471 --> 00:27:29,691 And I really believe that if I can convince The Belle 590 00:27:29,735 --> 00:27:32,955 to give me this podcast, then I can. 591 00:27:32,999 --> 00:27:38,787 So now I just have to sell all this stuff, 592 00:27:38,831 --> 00:27:42,835 and I feel like I can't do it by myself. 593 00:27:42,878 --> 00:27:46,186 - Well, the hardest part is just the start. 594 00:27:46,229 --> 00:27:47,840 - Yeah. 595 00:27:47,883 --> 00:27:49,580 - Why don't we just start with the furniture? 596 00:27:49,624 --> 00:27:50,581 - Yes. - Yes. 597 00:27:50,625 --> 00:27:51,582 This is a-- - Love that. 598 00:27:51,626 --> 00:27:53,541 - Whoa, this is kind of broken. 599 00:27:53,584 --> 00:27:54,716 You're not gonna get much for this. 600 00:27:54,760 --> 00:27:56,544 We could list it for, like, 20 bucks. 601 00:27:56,587 --> 00:27:58,894 - 20 bucks? - Yeah. 602 00:27:58,938 --> 00:27:59,939 - It's a nice table. 603 00:28:03,769 --> 00:28:06,032 - This is kind of hard, isn't it, Kat? 604 00:28:06,075 --> 00:28:08,034 - Kind of, yeah. 605 00:28:08,077 --> 00:28:12,212 - Look, the more you do it, the easier it gets. 606 00:28:12,255 --> 00:28:13,866 Trust me--when I was 12, 607 00:28:13,909 --> 00:28:15,519 we had to move to a smaller space 608 00:28:15,563 --> 00:28:19,959 in a better school district, and I left a lot behind, 609 00:28:20,002 --> 00:28:25,138 in particular, a desk with tons of Pokémon stickers on it. 610 00:28:25,181 --> 00:28:26,748 - Pokémon. - [laughs] 611 00:28:26,792 --> 00:28:30,099 Hey, I'm not ashamed. It's a--it comes back around. 612 00:28:30,143 --> 00:28:33,624 Anyway, I loved this desk. It helped me become a writer. 613 00:28:33,668 --> 00:28:35,670 And when it was time to say good-bye, 614 00:28:35,714 --> 00:28:37,498 I--I just couldn't. 615 00:28:37,541 --> 00:28:38,542 I freaked out. 616 00:28:38,586 --> 00:28:40,936 But my mom had me explain 617 00:28:40,980 --> 00:28:44,766 why every sticker was so important. 618 00:28:46,637 --> 00:28:50,772 Turns out that sharing... 619 00:28:52,818 --> 00:28:53,993 Actually helped. 620 00:28:56,604 --> 00:28:58,562 So tell me about old Wobbles here. 621 00:28:58,606 --> 00:29:01,087 Why is it so wobbly? 622 00:29:01,130 --> 00:29:04,655 Come on, I know there's a story behind it. 623 00:29:04,699 --> 00:29:06,266 - It was actually the first piece of furniture 624 00:29:06,309 --> 00:29:09,704 that I put together all by myself. 625 00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:12,925 I wanted to do it alone, and I did. 626 00:29:12,968 --> 00:29:13,969 I mean, yeah, 627 00:29:15,275 --> 00:29:18,060 there were a couple of pieces left over, but... 628 00:29:18,104 --> 00:29:21,020 - A couple? - Stop. 629 00:29:21,063 --> 00:29:22,630 [phone buzzes] 630 00:29:27,113 --> 00:29:29,115 - It's okay, sweetie. She's really nice. 631 00:29:29,158 --> 00:29:32,945 You're gonna like her a lot. Oh, it's okay. 632 00:29:32,988 --> 00:29:34,250 [solemn music] 633 00:29:34,294 --> 00:29:37,558 It's okay. 634 00:29:37,601 --> 00:29:41,214 ♪ 635 00:29:41,257 --> 00:29:43,738 Leo, this is Sutton. 636 00:29:43,782 --> 00:29:46,175 She picked out some clothes for your party. 637 00:29:46,219 --> 00:29:50,658 ♪ 638 00:29:50,701 --> 00:29:53,835 - Nice to meet you, Leo. 639 00:29:53,879 --> 00:29:59,710 I heard that you are graduating from kindergarten. 640 00:29:59,754 --> 00:30:01,582 How do you feel about dressing like your daddy? 641 00:30:01,625 --> 00:30:03,062 Does that sound cool? - Yeah. 642 00:30:03,105 --> 00:30:04,324 - Yeah? Okay. 643 00:30:04,367 --> 00:30:09,590 Let's see if this jacket fits. Mm-hmm. 644 00:30:09,633 --> 00:30:12,854 Oh, wow. You look so handsome. 645 00:30:12,898 --> 00:30:15,857 And it's a perfect fit. How do you feel? 646 00:30:15,901 --> 00:30:18,207 - Important. Thanks, Sutton. 647 00:30:18,251 --> 00:30:21,558 - Oh. Aw. 648 00:30:23,647 --> 00:30:26,346 Ow. [groans] 649 00:30:26,389 --> 00:30:28,696 - Are you okay? - Yes. 650 00:30:28,739 --> 00:30:30,002 I'm just having some stomach pain. 651 00:30:30,045 --> 00:30:33,005 I should probably... 652 00:30:33,048 --> 00:30:34,920 I should probably go. 653 00:30:40,534 --> 00:30:42,101 - Thanks for coming over. 654 00:30:42,144 --> 00:30:43,580 - Is that your queer prom dress? 655 00:30:43,624 --> 00:30:46,670 - Yeah. - I love that dress. 656 00:30:46,714 --> 00:30:50,196 - Me too. You know what's crazy? 657 00:30:50,239 --> 00:30:51,806 That night at the Wild Susan, 658 00:30:51,850 --> 00:30:53,025 and the fact that we couldn't save it-- 659 00:30:54,504 --> 00:30:56,724 that's the whole reason why I ran for city council. 660 00:30:56,767 --> 00:30:58,857 It feels like that was so long ago. 661 00:30:58,900 --> 00:30:59,945 - Yeah. 662 00:31:02,817 --> 00:31:03,992 So much has changed since then. 663 00:31:04,036 --> 00:31:05,951 - I know. That's why I called you. 664 00:31:05,994 --> 00:31:09,955 I know we've been checking in on Sutton a lot lately, 665 00:31:09,998 --> 00:31:14,960 and things have been kind of crazy and intense, 666 00:31:15,003 --> 00:31:17,963 but I just wanna check in on you and make sure you're okay. 667 00:31:18,006 --> 00:31:20,269 Because I feel like I pushed you, 668 00:31:20,313 --> 00:31:24,926 and if you're not ready to move on from things with Ryan-- 669 00:31:24,970 --> 00:31:28,190 - It's not that. [sighs] 670 00:31:28,234 --> 00:31:32,803 I mean, yeah, 671 00:31:32,847 --> 00:31:35,806 Ryan was supposed to be my person. 672 00:31:35,850 --> 00:31:38,766 I was so focused on getting better 673 00:31:38,809 --> 00:31:41,290 that I think I just buried the pain of our breakup, 674 00:31:41,334 --> 00:31:44,076 and I--I haven't dealt with it. 675 00:31:47,862 --> 00:31:49,951 But the other night wasn't even about that. 676 00:31:52,693 --> 00:31:56,001 It was about these things, and I just-- 677 00:31:56,044 --> 00:31:59,091 I'm not comfortable with them. 678 00:31:59,134 --> 00:32:02,921 And I--I want so badly to be, but I'm not. 679 00:32:02,964 --> 00:32:08,187 And I just--when Kevin tried to touch me there, 680 00:32:08,230 --> 00:32:11,059 I just--I freaked out. 681 00:32:11,103 --> 00:32:13,801 [exhales] 682 00:32:13,844 --> 00:32:15,977 - I'm sorry. I had no idea. 683 00:32:16,021 --> 00:32:20,112 - I didn't either. Oh. 684 00:32:20,155 --> 00:32:24,768 But now that I do, I think I need help. 685 00:32:24,812 --> 00:32:30,426 - Well, whatever you need, I got you. 686 00:32:30,470 --> 00:32:32,820 - [chuckles] 687 00:32:32,863 --> 00:32:35,388 That's the thing-- is you can't help. 688 00:32:35,431 --> 00:32:37,825 Not with this. 689 00:32:37,868 --> 00:32:40,001 I think I need 690 00:32:40,045 --> 00:32:43,657 people who have been in my situation before. 691 00:32:45,050 --> 00:32:49,271 Which is why I wrote a piece about it, 692 00:32:49,315 --> 00:32:51,970 to see if maybe I could find people like me. 693 00:32:52,013 --> 00:32:54,711 And I called a meeting at The Belle 694 00:32:54,755 --> 00:32:56,365 at 9:00 a.m. tomorrow. 695 00:32:56,409 --> 00:33:00,717 We'll see if people show up. - I think they will. 696 00:33:00,761 --> 00:33:04,156 I hope they will. - Me too. 697 00:33:04,199 --> 00:33:06,288 - Hey, will you give me a hug at least? 698 00:33:06,332 --> 00:33:07,811 - [scoffs] Duh. 699 00:33:07,855 --> 00:33:09,378 - Come on. - [laughs] 700 00:33:09,422 --> 00:33:11,815 - Baby, get over here. 701 00:33:14,949 --> 00:33:17,952 - I love you. - I love you. 702 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:20,302 Oh, the last piece is all yours, yeah. 703 00:33:20,346 --> 00:33:22,478 - What? - [exhales] 704 00:33:22,522 --> 00:33:23,827 - But you love that couch. 705 00:33:23,871 --> 00:33:26,265 - I know, but I had to sell her. 706 00:33:26,308 --> 00:33:29,050 Sorry. Excuse us. 707 00:33:29,094 --> 00:33:31,139 Bye, Connie. 708 00:33:31,183 --> 00:33:33,446 Have a great life. - Bye, girl. 709 00:33:33,489 --> 00:33:34,838 - Oh. 710 00:33:35,883 --> 00:33:39,191 - Ian, you home? - I'm in the bedroom. 711 00:33:40,105 --> 00:33:41,149 - Ian? 712 00:33:41,193 --> 00:33:42,716 ♪ 713 00:33:47,199 --> 00:33:51,333 What is all of this? 714 00:33:51,377 --> 00:33:54,293 - I do see you, Jacqueline, 715 00:33:54,336 --> 00:33:57,296 as sexy, and exciting, 716 00:33:57,339 --> 00:33:58,862 and the love of my life. 717 00:34:00,951 --> 00:34:02,257 You see, I'm not a writer. 718 00:34:02,301 --> 00:34:06,087 I don't have the words to explain how I see you, 719 00:34:06,131 --> 00:34:08,785 not in the way that Miles does. 720 00:34:08,829 --> 00:34:13,051 - Ian-- - But I am a photographer. 721 00:34:13,094 --> 00:34:15,357 And I want to show you 722 00:34:15,401 --> 00:34:19,013 what I see when I look at you. 723 00:34:20,971 --> 00:34:25,889 Because you are everything to me. 724 00:34:25,933 --> 00:34:28,892 [tender music] 725 00:34:28,936 --> 00:34:31,069 ♪ 726 00:34:31,112 --> 00:34:33,897 - Well... 727 00:34:33,941 --> 00:34:38,511 For someone who's not a wordsmith, 728 00:34:38,554 --> 00:34:39,903 that was pretty good. 729 00:34:50,479 --> 00:34:53,221 - Beautiful. 730 00:34:53,265 --> 00:35:00,185 ♪ 731 00:35:12,980 --> 00:35:14,503 - Does it hurt? 732 00:35:14,547 --> 00:35:18,159 - Yeah, but I'll be fine. 733 00:35:20,161 --> 00:35:21,858 - Can I get you anything? 734 00:35:21,902 --> 00:35:25,601 - Oh, I'm so sorry. 735 00:35:25,645 --> 00:35:27,560 - It's not your fault. 736 00:35:27,603 --> 00:35:31,477 [solemn music] 737 00:35:31,520 --> 00:35:34,828 - [crying] 738 00:35:43,271 --> 00:35:46,318 ["Just The Way I Am" playing] 739 00:35:46,361 --> 00:35:48,233 ♪ 740 00:35:48,276 --> 00:35:50,670 - ♪ I like lingerie, silk and lace ♪ 741 00:35:50,713 --> 00:35:52,367 ♪ And waking up alone 742 00:35:52,411 --> 00:35:54,326 ♪ Don't mind the taste of chardonnay ♪ 743 00:35:54,369 --> 00:35:56,197 ♪ I'd rather sip merlot 744 00:35:56,241 --> 00:35:57,285 ♪ Sometimes I go out 745 00:35:57,329 --> 00:35:58,286 ♪ And shut it down 746 00:35:58,330 --> 00:35:59,940 ♪ Do just what I want 747 00:35:59,983 --> 00:36:02,638 ♪ Be just who I wanna be 748 00:36:02,682 --> 00:36:04,118 - Hi. 749 00:36:04,162 --> 00:36:05,337 - Yeah. - Hi. 750 00:36:05,380 --> 00:36:07,339 - ♪ There ain't no one else 751 00:36:07,382 --> 00:36:09,210 ♪ Whoo 752 00:36:09,254 --> 00:36:12,474 ♪ Knows me like myself 753 00:36:12,518 --> 00:36:15,564 - You know, it's too bad that it's only for Belle members, 754 00:36:15,608 --> 00:36:18,263 or I would offer myself up as your first guest. 755 00:36:18,306 --> 00:36:20,265 - Totally, and if it weren't a "Belle" podcast, 756 00:36:20,308 --> 00:36:23,006 I would absolutely take you up on that. 757 00:36:23,050 --> 00:36:24,094 - You wouldn't, would you? 758 00:36:25,357 --> 00:36:26,967 - Mm, no, but it's not 'cause you're not great. 759 00:36:27,010 --> 00:36:28,490 It's just 'cause I have another guest in mind. 760 00:36:28,534 --> 00:36:33,408 - Well, there's no way that she's better than me. 761 00:36:33,452 --> 00:36:36,368 - She runs a domestic violence shelter. 762 00:36:36,411 --> 00:36:39,022 - Wow, well, don't I feel like an ass. 763 00:36:39,066 --> 00:36:41,503 - You're not an ass. You're the best, actually, 764 00:36:41,547 --> 00:36:45,377 'cause without you, none of this would've happened. 765 00:36:45,420 --> 00:36:49,119 - Oh. - I actually got you something. 766 00:36:49,163 --> 00:36:52,471 I know that you don't have your desk anymore, 767 00:36:52,514 --> 00:36:53,994 but you do have a laptop. 768 00:36:54,037 --> 00:36:55,996 And I hear that all the cool kids 769 00:36:56,039 --> 00:36:57,693 put stickers on their laptops now, so... 770 00:36:57,737 --> 00:37:01,001 - ♪ 'Cause I'm aware of where this could go ♪ 771 00:37:01,044 --> 00:37:05,310 - Whoa, Pokémon stickers. [squeals] 772 00:37:05,353 --> 00:37:08,313 - [laughs] - Thank you. 773 00:37:08,356 --> 00:37:11,011 This is so awesome. You have no idea. 774 00:37:11,054 --> 00:37:12,578 - ♪ To leave you lonely 775 00:37:12,621 --> 00:37:15,102 ♪ Got no regrets, no sorry ♪ 776 00:37:15,145 --> 00:37:16,277 [phone chimes] 777 00:37:16,321 --> 00:37:18,192 ♪ I can't help myself 778 00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:20,107 ♪ It's just the way I am 779 00:37:20,150 --> 00:37:23,415 ♪ Stubborn, but still you want me ♪ 780 00:37:23,458 --> 00:37:27,375 ♪ But don't wait up for apologies ♪ 781 00:37:27,419 --> 00:37:30,596 ♪ Take it or leave me, baby ♪ 782 00:37:30,639 --> 00:37:32,162 ♪ I can't help myself 783 00:37:32,206 --> 00:37:36,036 - Jane Sloan? - Yeah? 784 00:37:36,079 --> 00:37:38,386 - I read your article. I'm Erica. 785 00:37:38,430 --> 00:37:39,431 - Hi. 786 00:37:40,780 --> 00:37:42,129 - I had my preventative mastectomy six months ago. 787 00:37:42,172 --> 00:37:44,131 I know what you're going through. 788 00:37:44,174 --> 00:37:48,788 I think I can help. - Yeah. 789 00:37:48,831 --> 00:37:50,050 Are you here for Jane? 790 00:37:50,093 --> 00:37:51,443 - Yeah, hi. I'm Portia. 791 00:37:51,486 --> 00:37:53,183 - Nice to meet you. - This is my friend, Erin. 792 00:37:53,227 --> 00:37:55,751 - Hi--Jane. - I'm Erica. 793 00:37:55,795 --> 00:37:57,449 - ♪ It's just the way I am 794 00:37:57,492 --> 00:38:00,190 - Honey, I'm home. - [laughs] 795 00:38:00,234 --> 00:38:02,323 Are you gonna do that every time? 796 00:38:02,367 --> 00:38:05,152 - Maybe. How was your day? 797 00:38:05,195 --> 00:38:07,807 Did you find your people? - Yeah, I think I did. 798 00:38:07,850 --> 00:38:09,504 - That's good. 799 00:38:11,724 --> 00:38:15,249 - [gasps] Oh, my God. 800 00:38:15,293 --> 00:38:18,078 Is that Connie? - Yeah, it is! 801 00:38:18,121 --> 00:38:20,428 - Oh, my God! 802 00:38:20,472 --> 00:38:22,212 - I always thought it would look great in here, 803 00:38:22,256 --> 00:38:23,518 and so I tracked down the buyer. 804 00:38:23,562 --> 00:38:25,303 - You did? - Mm-hmm. 805 00:38:25,346 --> 00:38:26,478 - So now she'll be here 806 00:38:26,521 --> 00:38:28,654 to comfort you through whatever's next. 807 00:38:28,697 --> 00:38:30,743 - Thanks. - You're welcome. 808 00:38:30,786 --> 00:38:33,833 - Oh, you're literally the best. 809 00:38:33,876 --> 00:38:36,183 - [laughs] - And also kind of insane. 810 00:38:36,226 --> 00:38:38,446 [phone buzzes] 811 00:38:38,490 --> 00:38:42,102 Oh. - Oh, it's Sutton. 812 00:38:42,145 --> 00:38:43,277 - Okay. - We should probably go. 813 00:38:43,321 --> 00:38:46,236 - Come on. Yeah, let's go. 814 00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:50,371 - ♪ If I could, I wouldn't want you ♪ 815 00:38:50,415 --> 00:38:54,506 ♪ But it's getting late now and I can't stop ♪ 816 00:38:54,549 --> 00:38:56,377 ♪ It's so easy till there's no way out ♪ 817 00:38:56,421 --> 00:38:58,771 - Is there anything you need? 818 00:38:58,814 --> 00:39:01,513 - How are you feeling, baby? 819 00:39:01,556 --> 00:39:05,299 - ♪ Fools falling in the dark like crazy ♪ 820 00:39:05,343 --> 00:39:07,388 - [sighs] I feel... 821 00:39:07,432 --> 00:39:10,696 - ♪ Nothing you can do will save me now ♪ 822 00:39:10,739 --> 00:39:15,483 - Hey, it's okay to feel sad. 823 00:39:15,527 --> 00:39:18,356 - I know. 824 00:39:18,399 --> 00:39:20,401 - ♪ Break my broken 825 00:39:20,445 --> 00:39:21,794 - Oh, God. 826 00:39:21,837 --> 00:39:24,797 [crying] 827 00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:28,366 - ♪ Give me all you got, all you got ♪ 828 00:39:28,409 --> 00:39:31,673 ♪ Break my broken heart 829 00:39:31,717 --> 00:39:34,502 - I just don't know what's wrong with me. 830 00:39:34,546 --> 00:39:35,590 - What? 831 00:39:35,634 --> 00:39:37,244 Hey, what are you talking about? 832 00:39:37,287 --> 00:39:38,550 - There is nothing wrong with you. 833 00:39:38,593 --> 00:39:41,857 - ♪ I'm still breathing 834 00:39:41,901 --> 00:39:45,644 - Hey, whatever you are feeling right now, 835 00:39:45,687 --> 00:39:47,907 it's okay. 836 00:39:47,950 --> 00:39:53,303 - Yeah. But, like... 837 00:39:53,347 --> 00:39:56,219 What if I feel relieved? 838 00:39:56,263 --> 00:39:58,570 'Cause I think I do. 839 00:39:58,613 --> 00:40:01,311 I think I feel relieved that I'm not having this baby. 840 00:40:01,355 --> 00:40:04,576 - ♪ Break my broken heart 841 00:40:04,619 --> 00:40:07,274 - Okay. 842 00:40:07,317 --> 00:40:10,669 - I can't believe I just said that out loud. 843 00:40:10,712 --> 00:40:14,455 [exhales] 844 00:40:14,499 --> 00:40:18,459 Does that make me a terrible person? 845 00:40:18,503 --> 00:40:21,375 - No, of course not. - No way. 846 00:40:21,419 --> 00:40:23,769 Mm-mm. - [sighs] 847 00:40:23,812 --> 00:40:25,205 - It's okay. 848 00:40:25,248 --> 00:40:27,294 - ♪ So what's one more scar 849 00:40:27,337 --> 00:40:29,383 ♪ Break my 850 00:40:29,427 --> 00:40:35,171 ♪ Broken heart