1 00:00:00,239 --> 00:00:01,508 Previously on "S.W.A.T..." 2 00:00:01,532 --> 00:00:03,817 - *** Raymont Harris - CHILD: 3 00:00:03,841 --> 00:00:06,534 was accidentally shot by team leader Buck Spivey. 4 00:00:06,558 --> 00:00:08,254 I spent my life serving this city, 5 00:00:08,278 --> 00:00:09,988 and I undid everything I had accomplished 6 00:00:10,012 --> 00:00:11,181 with a single mistake. 7 00:00:11,205 --> 00:00:13,405 We're looking to launch a private security firm. 8 00:00:13,429 --> 00:00:14,593 I've struggled a bunch since leaving SWAT. 9 00:00:14,617 --> 00:00:16,075 I mean, this could be big for me. 10 00:00:16,099 --> 00:00:17,582 All right, let's do this. 11 00:00:17,606 --> 00:00:19,046 Where does Buck fit into all this? 12 00:00:19,070 --> 00:00:20,540 He can't be the name or face of this company. 13 00:00:20,564 --> 00:00:21,615 You can. 14 00:00:21,639 --> 00:00:22,816 Concert promoter's pissed. 15 00:00:22,840 --> 00:00:24,406 He hasn't been able to reach Buck all day. 16 00:00:24,430 --> 00:00:26,810 So what happens to Buck? 17 00:00:28,971 --> 00:00:30,597 Most times, I... 18 00:00:31,215 --> 00:00:34,885 I work stuff out by talking to my family or friends. 19 00:00:36,812 --> 00:00:38,188 I know they have my back. 20 00:00:39,231 --> 00:00:41,091 And that keeps me grounded. 21 00:00:44,566 --> 00:00:46,067 But... 22 00:00:47,398 --> 00:00:49,843 ...today's the first time I felt like I really needed this. 23 00:00:51,354 --> 00:00:53,078 Because of what happened. 24 00:00:53,533 --> 00:00:54,848 Yeah. 25 00:00:55,247 --> 00:00:56,917 That really sucked. 26 00:00:57,416 --> 00:00:59,319 Maybe it'd be easier if we talk about it, 27 00:00:59,343 --> 00:01:00,877 from the beginning. 28 00:01:04,615 --> 00:01:06,282 It started with Hondo. 29 00:01:09,986 --> 00:01:11,464 We're sorry. 30 00:01:11,488 --> 00:01:13,889 The voice mailbox you've reached is full. 31 00:01:17,027 --> 00:01:18,371 Everything okay, babe? 32 00:01:18,395 --> 00:01:21,307 Yeah, a pipe burst overnight at the community center. 33 00:01:21,331 --> 00:01:23,676 Got to get in and see how bad the damage is. 34 00:01:23,700 --> 00:01:25,537 You got a sump pump you keep handy? 35 00:01:25,561 --> 00:01:27,180 Oh, I'm fresh out, boo. 36 00:01:27,204 --> 00:01:29,348 I swear that place is gonna drive me to bankruptcy. 37 00:01:29,372 --> 00:01:30,562 It's always something. 38 00:01:30,586 --> 00:01:31,792 Yeah, I know the feeling. 39 00:01:32,086 --> 00:01:33,152 What's up? 40 00:01:33,176 --> 00:01:34,554 I just can't get a hold of Buck. 41 00:01:34,578 --> 00:01:36,022 Your old team leader? 42 00:01:36,046 --> 00:01:38,057 - Something wrong? - No one's seen him in a few days. 43 00:01:38,081 --> 00:01:39,425 And Deacon mentioned something was off about him, 44 00:01:39,449 --> 00:01:41,294 and now he's not answering anybody's calls. 45 00:01:41,318 --> 00:01:43,134 - Quick trip to Vegas maybe? - I don't know. 46 00:01:43,158 --> 00:01:44,856 He's fell off the grid like this a couple times before 47 00:01:44,880 --> 00:01:46,666 when something was wrong, 48 00:01:46,690 --> 00:01:48,257 so I'm just gonna stop by his place and check in. 49 00:01:48,967 --> 00:01:50,221 I think you should. 50 00:01:50,880 --> 00:01:52,328 - Love you. - Bye. 51 00:02:06,309 --> 00:02:08,321 All right, Buck keeps a spare key around back. 52 00:02:08,345 --> 00:02:11,081 That's what got me in the last time I was worried about him. 53 00:02:12,416 --> 00:02:13,560 Buck? 54 00:02:14,368 --> 00:02:15,911 You home? 55 00:02:17,822 --> 00:02:19,454 Check the rooms and the garage. 56 00:02:19,478 --> 00:02:20,924 Yeah. 57 00:02:29,091 --> 00:02:30,210 No sign of him. 58 00:02:30,234 --> 00:02:31,979 Car's gone, too. 59 00:02:32,678 --> 00:02:35,970 Man, I know Buck likes to throw a few back, but this is... 60 00:02:36,654 --> 00:02:37,866 it's a lot. 61 00:02:40,663 --> 00:02:42,197 His phone's dead. 62 00:02:43,281 --> 00:02:45,979 Found these in the bedroom. Sleeping pills. 63 00:02:46,875 --> 00:02:48,361 Rest of the rooms look like this one? 64 00:02:48,386 --> 00:02:49,663 Yeah. 65 00:02:49,687 --> 00:02:51,398 Looks like the last couple of calls 66 00:02:51,422 --> 00:02:53,144 went to an Owen Bennett yesterday. 67 00:02:53,168 --> 00:02:55,246 Yeah. That's our business partner at the private security firm. 68 00:02:55,270 --> 00:02:57,337 There's only one other call to a 1-800 number. 69 00:02:58,663 --> 00:03:00,040 You have reached 70 00:03:00,064 --> 00:03:01,961 the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, 71 00:03:01,985 --> 00:03:04,128 also servicing the Veteran's Crisis Line. 72 00:03:04,843 --> 00:03:07,948 If you are in emotional distress or suicidal crisis 73 00:03:07,972 --> 00:03:09,583 or are concerned about someone who might be, 74 00:03:09,607 --> 00:03:11,223 we're here to help. 75 00:03:11,247 --> 00:03:13,453 - Please remain on the... - How long was the call? 76 00:03:13,477 --> 00:03:16,123 It says one minute, which means it could've been less. 77 00:03:16,147 --> 00:03:18,357 - He might've just called and hung up. - Gun safe's empty, too. 78 00:03:18,381 --> 00:03:19,760 Get a hold of the rest of 20-Squad. 79 00:03:19,784 --> 00:03:21,061 We got to track Buck down now. 80 00:03:21,085 --> 00:03:22,863 - How do you plan on doing that? - I'm not sure. 81 00:03:22,887 --> 00:03:24,164 But I got a real bad feeling 82 00:03:24,188 --> 00:03:25,799 we don't have time to get it wrong. 83 00:03:25,823 --> 00:03:33,828 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 84 00:04:01,980 --> 00:04:04,292 Dad used to hate it our when Captain McClintock 85 00:04:04,316 --> 00:04:05,748 made him do these sessions. 86 00:04:05,772 --> 00:04:07,944 - Why's that? - He thought they were B.S. 87 00:04:07,969 --> 00:04:11,599 That anyone who needed therapy wasn't fit to be a cop. 88 00:04:11,623 --> 00:04:14,299 He used to tell me, "How can you trust somebody to have your back 89 00:04:14,323 --> 00:04:16,404 when they don't even have their own issues squared away?" 90 00:04:16,428 --> 00:04:18,640 I see hundreds of officers every year, Luca. 91 00:04:18,664 --> 00:04:19,979 Do you feel that way about them? 92 00:04:20,003 --> 00:04:22,496 No. I mean, I get why we do it now. 93 00:04:23,274 --> 00:04:25,123 Especially after a day like today. 94 00:04:28,257 --> 00:04:31,004 Well, Buck was old school like my pops. 95 00:04:31,944 --> 00:04:34,813 He didn't like talking to the cop shrink, either. 96 00:04:37,082 --> 00:04:38,720 Maybe it would've helped him. 97 00:04:39,471 --> 00:04:41,891 Has what happened today given you second thoughts 98 00:04:41,915 --> 00:04:44,198 about getting back into the field? 99 00:04:44,222 --> 00:04:46,958 Nah, I can't wait to get back out there. 100 00:04:47,471 --> 00:04:50,569 But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried. 101 00:04:50,593 --> 00:04:51,942 Hmm. 102 00:04:53,065 --> 00:04:54,611 I mean, what if I can't? 103 00:04:56,795 --> 00:04:58,459 I already failed one fitness test. 104 00:04:58,483 --> 00:05:00,659 I thought it was because of my hip. 105 00:05:03,628 --> 00:05:04,734 What if it's really... 106 00:05:06,577 --> 00:05:08,011 up here, you know? 107 00:05:09,584 --> 00:05:11,920 That's not so easy to fix. 108 00:05:12,384 --> 00:05:15,219 Is losing SWAT something you're afraid of? 109 00:05:16,088 --> 00:05:18,296 For as long as SWAT's existed, 110 00:05:18,320 --> 00:05:20,637 there's always been a Luca on the team. 111 00:05:22,434 --> 00:05:23,807 Without it... 112 00:05:26,164 --> 00:05:27,727 I don't know who I am. 113 00:05:32,677 --> 00:05:34,317 Maybe that's how Buck felt, too. 114 00:05:38,363 --> 00:05:40,083 Hey, what's the word, Hondo? 115 00:05:40,107 --> 00:05:41,923 Buck's been AWOL for 48 hours 116 00:05:41,947 --> 00:05:43,910 and we think he might be having suicidal thoughts. 117 00:05:44,916 --> 00:05:47,579 Put the word out with patrols, some of his old metro buddies. 118 00:05:47,603 --> 00:05:49,144 They're gonna reach out if they locate him. 119 00:05:49,168 --> 00:05:51,137 - Hopefully, it's not too late. - What? What's that supposed to mean? 120 00:05:51,161 --> 00:05:53,183 Buck's not here and we don't know where he's headed. 121 00:05:53,207 --> 00:05:54,343 Yeah, well, that's why we need to find him. 122 00:05:54,368 --> 00:05:55,412 We will. Buck will be fine. 123 00:05:55,436 --> 00:05:56,840 One thing's for sure: we ain't gonna find Buck 124 00:05:56,864 --> 00:05:58,473 just standing around here, so let's plan this out. 125 00:05:58,497 --> 00:06:00,885 All right, Chris and I can go talk to Owen. 126 00:06:00,909 --> 00:06:02,238 Last two calls he made were to him. 127 00:06:02,262 --> 00:06:03,884 Tan, I want you to check and see if Buck stopped 128 00:06:03,908 --> 00:06:05,295 at any of his favorite haunts around town. 129 00:06:05,319 --> 00:06:06,473 - You know the places. - Yeah. 130 00:06:06,497 --> 00:06:08,268 Street and I will try to find Buck's ex-wife Jenny, 131 00:06:08,292 --> 00:06:09,445 see if he reached out to her. 132 00:06:09,469 --> 00:06:11,586 Luca, you sit on his house in case he comes home. 133 00:06:11,610 --> 00:06:12,987 All right, be careful. We think Buck is armed 134 00:06:13,011 --> 00:06:14,450 and he may be drinking. 135 00:06:14,474 --> 00:06:15,620 That's a scary combination. 136 00:06:15,644 --> 00:06:17,355 And keep your phones close. Rocker and Becker's teams 137 00:06:17,379 --> 00:06:19,124 are up today, but we're on call in case 138 00:06:19,148 --> 00:06:20,358 anything else pops off in the city. 139 00:06:20,382 --> 00:06:21,860 - Let's get it done. - Okay. 140 00:06:22,717 --> 00:06:24,046 Got your voice mail. 141 00:06:24,070 --> 00:06:25,096 It sounded urgent. 142 00:06:25,120 --> 00:06:26,364 Did Buck stop by here today? 143 00:06:26,388 --> 00:06:29,077 Yeah. To resign from the company. 144 00:06:29,101 --> 00:06:30,470 - When? - A few hours ago. 145 00:06:30,494 --> 00:06:32,304 It was strange. He apologized. 146 00:06:32,328 --> 00:06:34,743 Said that he's been letting me and the company down, 147 00:06:34,767 --> 00:06:37,309 that he needed to resign and get out of our way. 148 00:06:37,333 --> 00:06:38,877 Yeah, his work has been slipping, but I would've got him 149 00:06:38,901 --> 00:06:40,521 back on track, talked him out of quitting. 150 00:06:40,545 --> 00:06:42,213 I tried. But he insisted. 151 00:06:42,237 --> 00:06:44,015 Did he say anything about what he was doing 152 00:06:44,039 --> 00:06:45,183 or where he was going? 153 00:06:45,207 --> 00:06:46,251 No, nothing. 154 00:06:46,589 --> 00:06:47,966 Work aside, 155 00:06:47,991 --> 00:06:49,521 Buck's a friend. 156 00:06:49,934 --> 00:06:51,245 Is he okay? 157 00:06:53,647 --> 00:06:55,416 Hondo, Jim. 158 00:06:55,440 --> 00:06:56,536 Long time. 159 00:06:56,560 --> 00:06:57,996 It's nice to see you, Jenny. 160 00:06:58,020 --> 00:06:59,444 Did something happen to Buck? 161 00:07:00,695 --> 00:07:02,334 You say that like it wouldn't be a surprise. 162 00:07:02,358 --> 00:07:04,012 Well, would it be? 163 00:07:04,036 --> 00:07:05,336 He's been drinking, a lot. 164 00:07:05,361 --> 00:07:08,101 Avoiding us, not answering calls. 165 00:07:08,126 --> 00:07:10,293 How bad is it, honestly? 166 00:07:10,318 --> 00:07:12,250 Jenny, we're worried that he might hurt himself. 167 00:07:13,349 --> 00:07:14,526 Have you seen him lately? 168 00:07:14,550 --> 00:07:15,894 Did he reach out at all? 169 00:07:15,918 --> 00:07:17,796 He stopped by a couple of nights ago, 170 00:07:17,820 --> 00:07:19,704 but I wasn't home. 171 00:07:19,728 --> 00:07:21,600 He left me a vinyl record: 172 00:07:21,624 --> 00:07:23,401 "Got to Give It Up" by Marvin Gaye. 173 00:07:23,425 --> 00:07:24,870 Whenever we heard that song, 174 00:07:24,894 --> 00:07:27,305 he'd pull me up and we'd start dancing. 175 00:07:27,329 --> 00:07:29,026 Bars, restaurants, down the middle 176 00:07:29,050 --> 00:07:30,892 of the ice cream aisle at the store. 177 00:07:31,810 --> 00:07:33,979 That was a different Buck, though, different times. 178 00:07:34,003 --> 00:07:35,814 He's just going through a rough patch right now. 179 00:07:39,734 --> 00:07:41,611 You really don't know, do you? 180 00:07:43,512 --> 00:07:45,757 After Buck left SWAT, 181 00:07:45,781 --> 00:07:49,111 we tried to reconcile, save our marriage. 182 00:07:49,869 --> 00:07:51,515 He'd always had his struggles, 183 00:07:51,539 --> 00:07:54,848 but it got worse after the Raymont Harris shooting. 184 00:07:54,872 --> 00:07:57,194 Anxiety, depression, 185 00:07:57,218 --> 00:07:58,489 mood swings. 186 00:07:58,513 --> 00:08:00,234 Sometimes he couldn't sleep at all 187 00:08:00,258 --> 00:08:02,325 unless he got blackout drunk. 188 00:08:03,042 --> 00:08:04,634 You've heard of sleepwalking? 189 00:08:06,602 --> 00:08:10,815 Some nights, he'd try to arrest me in his sleep. 190 00:08:11,038 --> 00:08:14,185 Accidentally bounced my head on the nightstand a couple times. 191 00:08:16,724 --> 00:08:19,159 I couldn't stay around anymore. 192 00:08:20,295 --> 00:08:23,274 I tried to get him to talk to somebody, get some help. 193 00:08:23,519 --> 00:08:25,397 But he was too worried about how it would look, 194 00:08:25,421 --> 00:08:27,098 the great Buck Spivey seeming weak. 195 00:08:29,798 --> 00:08:31,242 I still hate that sound. 196 00:08:31,267 --> 00:08:33,504 Yeah, I can't say we're a big fan of it either right now. 197 00:08:33,529 --> 00:08:35,340 Barricade with hostages. 198 00:08:35,364 --> 00:08:37,393 Rocker and Becker can't respond. We're up. 199 00:08:37,417 --> 00:08:39,177 - Thanks. - Hondo. 200 00:08:39,201 --> 00:08:42,172 Call me if you find him, either way. 201 00:08:43,145 --> 00:08:44,372 I will. 202 00:08:46,508 --> 00:08:48,853 All right, Luca, I got unis out looking for him, 203 00:08:48,877 --> 00:08:50,455 a BOLO on his truck. 204 00:08:50,479 --> 00:08:53,258 I'll let you and Hondo know as soon as I spot him. 205 00:08:53,282 --> 00:08:54,934 Keep me updated on your end. 206 00:08:55,935 --> 00:08:57,162 Alicia Baldwin. 207 00:08:57,186 --> 00:08:58,839 Commander Robert Hicks. 208 00:08:58,863 --> 00:09:01,633 Lawyer? 209 00:09:01,657 --> 00:09:03,435 I've been told you have a situation, 210 00:09:03,459 --> 00:09:04,836 so I'll cut to the chase. 211 00:09:04,860 --> 00:09:06,738 I'm here to see Sergeant Daniel Harrelson. 212 00:09:07,071 --> 00:09:08,206 Regarding what? 213 00:09:08,656 --> 00:09:10,308 I'm here on behalf of my client, 214 00:09:10,332 --> 00:09:11,977 who values anonymity and total privacy. 215 00:09:12,001 --> 00:09:14,713 I've been instructed to only speak with Sergeant Harrelson. 216 00:09:14,737 --> 00:09:16,448 Well, he's out on the job right now 217 00:09:16,472 --> 00:09:18,169 and he won't be back for quite some time. 218 00:09:18,193 --> 00:09:20,376 Oh, I'll just wait for him here if you don't mind. 219 00:09:21,043 --> 00:09:22,287 This isn't a Starbucks. 220 00:09:22,962 --> 00:09:24,545 Even so. 221 00:09:31,887 --> 00:09:33,465 Hey, you're first with metro on the scene. 222 00:09:33,489 --> 00:09:35,233 Burrows. So what's the situation? 223 00:09:35,257 --> 00:09:36,501 Looks like a robbery gone bad. 224 00:09:36,525 --> 00:09:39,039 One armed suspect inside, about ten hostages, 225 00:09:39,063 --> 00:09:40,236 at least one wounded. 226 00:09:40,260 --> 00:09:42,207 Unis didn't get a good look. As soon as they arrived, 227 00:09:42,231 --> 00:09:43,608 suspect took a couple shots at them, 228 00:09:43,632 --> 00:09:44,876 barricaded the front, pulled the blinds. 229 00:09:44,900 --> 00:09:46,752 - He make any demands? - Nothing coherent. 230 00:09:46,776 --> 00:09:48,425 Guy's high as hell. I'm guessing meth. 231 00:09:48,449 --> 00:09:50,315 So unstable and unpredictable. 232 00:09:50,339 --> 00:09:51,549 Hondo and Street just got here. 233 00:09:51,573 --> 00:09:52,817 They're gearing up on the four side. 234 00:09:52,841 --> 00:09:53,985 All right, let's get eyes inside, 235 00:09:54,009 --> 00:09:56,411 find our best entry, get these hostages out alive. 236 00:10:14,556 --> 00:10:16,441 25-David to 20-David. 237 00:10:16,465 --> 00:10:19,402 I got six hostages in a back room on the two side. 238 00:10:19,426 --> 00:10:21,271 Suspect's got a wound to his left leg. 239 00:10:21,716 --> 00:10:22,881 He's on the move. 240 00:10:23,147 --> 00:10:24,516 I've got eyes now. 241 00:10:24,540 --> 00:10:26,451 Suspect's in the dining area, the one side. 242 00:10:26,475 --> 00:10:28,633 I count eight more hostages in the one-four corner 243 00:10:28,657 --> 00:10:30,697 of the dining room; that makes 14 total. 244 00:10:32,481 --> 00:10:34,758 I see the wounded hostage. Doesn't look good. 245 00:10:34,782 --> 00:10:36,294 Then we need to move fast. 246 00:10:45,086 --> 00:10:47,372 LAPD! Get on the ground now! 247 00:10:47,755 --> 00:10:49,530 Street, Chris, coming your way. 248 00:10:50,432 --> 00:10:53,211 Don't move! 249 00:10:53,235 --> 00:10:56,014 - Give me your hands. - Code 4. 250 00:10:56,038 --> 00:10:57,638 Suspect in custody. 251 00:11:00,567 --> 00:11:01,778 Heard from Hondo. 252 00:11:01,803 --> 00:11:04,337 We're a Code 4 on the hibachi grill shooter. 253 00:11:04,980 --> 00:11:06,951 - Friend of yours? - Hardly. She couldn't have 254 00:11:06,975 --> 00:11:08,593 picked a worse possible day to show up, though. 255 00:11:08,617 --> 00:11:10,007 I haven't had a spare moment 256 00:11:10,032 --> 00:11:11,263 to figure out what the hell she wants. 257 00:11:11,288 --> 00:11:12,860 Well, I did some digging. 258 00:11:12,884 --> 00:11:15,168 She's not just some ambulance chaser. 259 00:11:15,192 --> 00:11:16,469 She's a power hitter. 260 00:11:16,493 --> 00:11:18,758 She's a junior partner at Cordero-Lask. 261 00:11:18,782 --> 00:11:20,173 Someone's paying her 800 bucks an hour 262 00:11:20,197 --> 00:11:21,790 just to sit on her ass? 263 00:11:21,814 --> 00:11:23,294 Something doesn't add up. 264 00:11:23,318 --> 00:11:25,401 Then how about we check her math? 265 00:11:28,617 --> 00:11:32,516 So, what on earth could Cordero-Lask want 266 00:11:32,541 --> 00:11:33,803 with Metro SWAT? 267 00:11:33,827 --> 00:11:36,189 My business is strictly with Sergeant Harrelson. 268 00:11:36,213 --> 00:11:37,608 But you know he isn't here. 269 00:11:37,632 --> 00:11:39,692 Well, still, my client is insistent 270 00:11:39,716 --> 00:11:41,649 on resolving this matter quickly, so I'll wait. 271 00:11:41,673 --> 00:11:43,815 I'm about two seconds from kicking you out of here. 272 00:11:43,839 --> 00:11:45,534 Have I done something wrong? 273 00:11:45,558 --> 00:11:47,094 I'm here to speak with Sergeant Harrelson, 274 00:11:47,118 --> 00:11:48,670 not SWAT or the LAPD. 275 00:11:48,694 --> 00:11:52,505 You go after one of my officers, you go after all of SWAT. 276 00:11:53,196 --> 00:11:56,809 Alicia, is this super secret task of yours 277 00:11:56,833 --> 00:12:00,302 going to involve litigation for Sergeant Harrelson or SWAT? 278 00:12:01,138 --> 00:12:03,841 No. This is a personal matter, 279 00:12:03,865 --> 00:12:06,640 one my client would prefer to keep out of the press. 280 00:12:06,664 --> 00:12:08,097 Well, it would've been a lot easier 281 00:12:08,121 --> 00:12:10,046 if you just said that in the beginning. 282 00:12:15,945 --> 00:12:17,385 We're still interviewing hostages, 283 00:12:17,409 --> 00:12:18,598 but already got bad news. 284 00:12:18,622 --> 00:12:19,718 The restaurant shootout 285 00:12:19,742 --> 00:12:21,686 started as a botched robbery with two gunmen. 286 00:12:21,710 --> 00:12:23,281 The other shooter fled before LAPD arrived. 287 00:12:23,305 --> 00:12:25,142 So there's a second shooter still out there. 288 00:12:25,166 --> 00:12:26,656 - Any I.D.? - None yet. 289 00:12:26,680 --> 00:12:28,186 I got my guys reviewing security footage, 290 00:12:28,210 --> 00:12:29,306 running down leads. 291 00:12:29,330 --> 00:12:30,917 I'll loop SWAT back in when we have anything. 292 00:12:30,941 --> 00:12:31,977 Okay. 293 00:12:32,001 --> 00:12:33,653 Tell me something good, Luca. 294 00:12:33,677 --> 00:12:35,154 Think I got something here at Buck's place. 295 00:12:35,178 --> 00:12:37,356 I just found some paperwork to a storage unit. 296 00:12:37,380 --> 00:12:38,925 Got off the phone with the manager. 297 00:12:38,949 --> 00:12:40,893 He said Buck's car is parked there right now. 298 00:12:40,917 --> 00:12:43,196 - Where is it? - Near Downtown. I just told Hondo. 299 00:12:43,220 --> 00:12:45,206 Text the address. We'll meet you there. 300 00:12:50,660 --> 00:12:52,828 Buck's truck. 301 00:12:55,632 --> 00:12:57,043 No Buck. 302 00:12:57,067 --> 00:12:58,733 What's his storage unit number? 303 00:12:58,757 --> 00:13:00,221 Unit A308. 304 00:13:01,797 --> 00:13:03,865 I see it. Right here. 305 00:13:11,627 --> 00:13:13,495 Tan, open it up. 306 00:13:22,131 --> 00:13:23,478 He's got to be some place close. 307 00:13:23,502 --> 00:13:24,885 All right, Luca, Tan, check the office. 308 00:13:24,909 --> 00:13:27,477 See if the manager saw him go anywhere. Go. 309 00:13:32,086 --> 00:13:33,727 This receipt is from this morning. 310 00:13:34,338 --> 00:13:37,055 You ever known Buck to drop $300 on a bottle before? 311 00:13:37,079 --> 00:13:40,390 No. He never spent a penny over 15 bucks for a haircut. 312 00:13:41,971 --> 00:13:43,781 Motor oil. Fresh. 313 00:13:43,906 --> 00:13:45,651 This is where he kept his Harley. 314 00:13:45,675 --> 00:13:46,914 I never knew he rode one. 315 00:13:46,939 --> 00:13:48,661 Uh, he didn't, really. It was a collectible 316 00:13:48,686 --> 00:13:50,764 he liked working on. '46 Knucklehead. 317 00:13:51,708 --> 00:13:53,605 He was tinkering with that thing constantly. 318 00:13:53,630 --> 00:13:54,984 Said it helped him de-stress. 319 00:13:55,679 --> 00:13:58,588 So, he's drinking, driving a bike he's not used to riding. 320 00:13:58,613 --> 00:14:00,524 If he crashes with some car, it's just gonna look 321 00:14:00,549 --> 00:14:02,116 like another drunk driving accident. 322 00:14:03,025 --> 00:14:04,243 Let's go. 323 00:14:12,636 --> 00:14:14,496 Losing a loved one is never easy. 324 00:14:15,438 --> 00:14:17,617 Yeah, well, uh, 325 00:14:17,642 --> 00:14:20,198 I've had plenty of experience with that by now. 326 00:14:20,776 --> 00:14:22,395 One way or another, 327 00:14:22,558 --> 00:14:24,103 people always leave. 328 00:14:25,274 --> 00:14:26,459 I'm sorry. 329 00:14:26,807 --> 00:14:29,329 - It's okay. I can deal with it. - How? 330 00:14:29,353 --> 00:14:31,297 How do you deal with it? 331 00:14:31,506 --> 00:14:33,815 By putting it on a shelf. 332 00:14:35,832 --> 00:14:38,243 Coming back to it later when I'm ready. 333 00:14:38,495 --> 00:14:40,053 Mm, that sounds like... 334 00:14:40,077 --> 00:14:41,489 Compartmentalization? 335 00:14:42,325 --> 00:14:44,436 Yeah, I, uh, I skimmed enough of the DSM 336 00:14:44,461 --> 00:14:47,173 to know it's a common coping strategy. 337 00:14:47,604 --> 00:14:48,963 It comes with risks. 338 00:14:49,626 --> 00:14:50,729 Do you know what happens 339 00:14:50,753 --> 00:14:52,570 when you don't deal with those issues 340 00:14:52,594 --> 00:14:54,703 and the mental boxes you put your feelings in 341 00:14:54,727 --> 00:14:55,922 start to overflow? 342 00:14:55,946 --> 00:14:57,490 According to the manual, 343 00:14:58,172 --> 00:15:01,105 anxiety, depression, addiction. 344 00:15:01,129 --> 00:15:02,769 Or worse. 345 00:15:02,793 --> 00:15:05,588 You could find yourself in Buck's shoes. 346 00:15:10,687 --> 00:15:13,155 Buck always called me on my birthday. 347 00:15:16,834 --> 00:15:18,945 Every year. He never missed it. 348 00:15:18,969 --> 00:15:21,181 My own mother, she forgot more than once. 349 00:15:22,113 --> 00:15:23,683 Today 350 00:15:23,707 --> 00:15:25,491 was the first time I thought, 351 00:15:27,368 --> 00:15:29,161 "What's it gonna be like 352 00:15:30,496 --> 00:15:32,582 when I don't get that call ever again?" 353 00:15:36,587 --> 00:15:39,213 Commander, I need a word with you in private. 354 00:15:39,990 --> 00:15:41,167 Not now. 355 00:15:41,632 --> 00:15:43,175 My office. 356 00:15:46,830 --> 00:15:48,762 - Who was that? - We'll deal with her later. 357 00:15:48,786 --> 00:15:50,373 What's the latest on Buck? 358 00:15:50,397 --> 00:15:52,912 Buck dropped $300 on a bottle of scotch today, sir. 359 00:15:52,936 --> 00:15:54,871 He didn't use cash. We got to find him soon. 360 00:15:56,147 --> 00:15:57,897 You want me to track his credit cards. 361 00:15:57,921 --> 00:16:00,034 So we can locate him in case he makes another purchase. 362 00:16:00,058 --> 00:16:01,388 It's not exactly by the book. 363 00:16:01,412 --> 00:16:04,413 Well, throw out the book. For Buck. 364 00:16:07,951 --> 00:16:09,700 Did you ever work with a Sergeant Geremias 365 00:16:09,724 --> 00:16:10,754 out of Rampart? 366 00:16:11,258 --> 00:16:12,330 No. 367 00:16:13,389 --> 00:16:16,959 I worked patrol with him way back. 368 00:16:17,861 --> 00:16:20,338 Funniest guy to ever don the uniform. 369 00:16:20,363 --> 00:16:22,841 He was always laughing and joking about something. 370 00:16:22,886 --> 00:16:24,798 Nobody saw it coming. 371 00:16:24,948 --> 00:16:27,293 Killed himself in his garage two years ago. 372 00:16:27,538 --> 00:16:28,581 His wife found him. 373 00:16:29,096 --> 00:16:31,607 It was his son's fifth birthday. 374 00:16:34,424 --> 00:16:36,703 I've been to too many cops' funerals already. 375 00:16:36,728 --> 00:16:39,273 I'll find a way to cut corners and track his credit cards. 376 00:16:39,298 --> 00:16:40,742 You bring Buck home. 377 00:16:43,170 --> 00:16:44,748 RHD just got a line 378 00:16:44,773 --> 00:16:46,156 on the second shooter from the restaurant robbery. 379 00:16:46,181 --> 00:16:47,882 Rocker and Becker's squads are still tied up 380 00:16:47,907 --> 00:16:50,185 at the barricade at K-town. 20-Squad's got this. 381 00:16:50,560 --> 00:16:52,972 All right, RHD identified the second shooter 382 00:16:52,997 --> 00:16:54,574 as Aaron Darby. 383 00:16:54,599 --> 00:16:56,411 LKA is an apartment in Arleta. 384 00:16:56,436 --> 00:16:58,362 Any relation to the dude Street and I pancaked earlier? 385 00:16:58,387 --> 00:16:59,497 Tweaker twins. And they've got 386 00:16:59,522 --> 00:17:00,499 matching records for drug possession. 387 00:17:00,524 --> 00:17:02,235 Bet the restaurant was a cash grab 388 00:17:02,260 --> 00:17:03,342 for their next big score. 389 00:17:03,367 --> 00:17:04,508 Yeah. We're gonna make sure this is 390 00:17:04,533 --> 00:17:05,925 their last score for a long time. 391 00:17:08,479 --> 00:17:10,362 Hey. I talked to Hicks. 392 00:17:10,387 --> 00:17:12,199 We'll know the moment Buck uses his credit card. 393 00:17:12,224 --> 00:17:14,202 For now, we stay focused on the job. 394 00:17:14,227 --> 00:17:15,518 We keep it loose. 395 00:17:28,318 --> 00:17:29,796 LAPD! 396 00:17:29,821 --> 00:17:31,028 - Give me a two! - Two! 397 00:17:31,053 --> 00:17:32,163 - Two! Two! - Two, two, two, two, two! 398 00:17:32,469 --> 00:17:33,701 - Clear! - Clear! 399 00:17:33,725 --> 00:17:35,122 Give me a two! 400 00:17:35,146 --> 00:17:36,616 Kitchen clear! 401 00:17:36,640 --> 00:17:37,784 This is 20-David to Command. 402 00:17:37,808 --> 00:17:39,114 All clear. No sign of Darby. 403 00:17:39,138 --> 00:17:40,899 I got something. Bullet holes. 404 00:17:40,923 --> 00:17:43,456 Looks like the shots came from the other side of the wall. 405 00:17:43,480 --> 00:17:44,657 There were no reports of shots fired. 406 00:17:44,681 --> 00:17:46,424 May have happened a while ago. 407 00:17:47,633 --> 00:17:50,263 Any record of a female occupant at this address? 408 00:17:50,287 --> 00:17:51,598 No, only Darby. 409 00:17:51,622 --> 00:17:53,600 - What? - I.D. lists this address. 410 00:17:53,624 --> 00:17:55,335 Just a different unit in the building. 411 00:17:55,359 --> 00:17:56,436 Purse looks stolen. 412 00:17:56,460 --> 00:17:58,410 Darby could still be hiding next door. Let's move. 413 00:18:07,950 --> 00:18:10,131 20-David to Command. We got signs of forced entry. 414 00:18:10,156 --> 00:18:11,830 Gunshots from the adjacent unit. 415 00:18:11,855 --> 00:18:13,077 Suspect may be inside. 416 00:18:13,102 --> 00:18:14,585 Making entry. 417 00:18:19,530 --> 00:18:20,750 Clear! 418 00:18:21,058 --> 00:18:22,158 Closet clear. 419 00:18:31,061 --> 00:18:32,628 Get out of here. 420 00:18:34,264 --> 00:18:35,806 I'll call it in. 421 00:18:48,773 --> 00:18:49,912 Victor. 422 00:18:51,547 --> 00:18:53,157 Victor? 423 00:18:53,597 --> 00:18:56,535 What was it about that stuffed animal that caught your eye? 424 00:18:58,321 --> 00:19:00,143 It reminded me of a teddy bear 425 00:19:00,168 --> 00:19:02,208 that I got my niece a couple years ago. 426 00:19:03,490 --> 00:19:04,818 Yeah, she loved that thing. 427 00:19:04,842 --> 00:19:07,140 Called it her Rexy Bear. 428 00:19:08,398 --> 00:19:10,698 And all I could do was picture my niece 429 00:19:10,722 --> 00:19:12,902 lying in that baby's place. 430 00:19:13,937 --> 00:19:16,991 And think about how badly I wanted to kill 431 00:19:17,015 --> 00:19:20,304 the bastard who did that to that mom and kid. 432 00:19:20,328 --> 00:19:21,654 It's completely normal to feel that way 433 00:19:21,678 --> 00:19:23,979 given what you witnessed today. 434 00:19:25,888 --> 00:19:28,109 And we could tell by the way their bodies were... 435 00:19:29,305 --> 00:19:33,274 that the mom died trying to protect her little girl. 436 00:19:35,559 --> 00:19:37,660 My girlfriend Bonnie... 437 00:19:37,947 --> 00:19:41,049 we talk about getting married, having kids. 438 00:19:42,285 --> 00:19:44,086 But on days like this, I... 439 00:19:47,043 --> 00:19:48,879 We see a lot of heinous crap. 440 00:19:49,091 --> 00:19:51,423 And I can brush most of it off, but... 441 00:19:52,094 --> 00:19:53,592 what we saw today, 442 00:19:54,992 --> 00:19:56,637 that's gonna stay with me. 443 00:19:56,662 --> 00:19:59,198 Have you thought about exploring these feelings with Bonnie? 444 00:19:59,765 --> 00:20:01,894 I don't want to put that on her. 445 00:20:01,918 --> 00:20:03,482 You know, it's not fair to dirty her up 446 00:20:03,506 --> 00:20:05,241 with the worst stuff I see on this job. 447 00:20:05,265 --> 00:20:07,241 So how do you usually cope? 448 00:20:07,265 --> 00:20:10,901 On bad days, usually go to my gym after work. 449 00:20:10,926 --> 00:20:13,737 Play pickup ball till I can't feel my legs. 450 00:20:14,170 --> 00:20:15,547 I can't really explain it, but it works. 451 00:20:15,572 --> 00:20:18,340 That's healthier than other options. 452 00:20:21,036 --> 00:20:23,105 Do you want to talk about Buck? 453 00:20:24,541 --> 00:20:25,624 Not really. 454 00:20:26,355 --> 00:20:28,377 I think I'll save that for the gym. 455 00:20:48,981 --> 00:20:51,150 Just trying to get the blood off. 456 00:20:51,515 --> 00:20:53,652 Last I checked, soap works better than steel. 457 00:20:53,923 --> 00:20:55,557 Yeah. 458 00:20:59,849 --> 00:21:01,035 All that... 459 00:21:02,179 --> 00:21:03,287 for what? 460 00:21:03,672 --> 00:21:07,175 So, uh, some junkie can score some cash? 461 00:21:08,358 --> 00:21:09,789 We should've been in that house sooner. 462 00:21:09,814 --> 00:21:12,444 Darby killed that family long before we even knew his name. 463 00:21:12,469 --> 00:21:14,398 Nobody could've stopped it. 464 00:21:14,423 --> 00:21:16,150 No one? Not even a neighbor? 465 00:21:16,193 --> 00:21:20,280 Or a coworker or-or a loved one or-or the friggin' mailman? 466 00:21:20,304 --> 00:21:24,028 Someone had to see or hear something. Someone! 467 00:21:24,052 --> 00:21:26,352 We can't save everybody, Street. 468 00:21:27,311 --> 00:21:30,072 Buck drilled that into me from day one. 469 00:21:33,369 --> 00:21:34,902 I know. Me, too. 470 00:21:40,824 --> 00:21:42,826 How did we miss this? 471 00:21:43,112 --> 00:21:46,091 How did we miss how much he was hurting? 472 00:21:46,556 --> 00:21:49,014 He was too proud to show us any signs. 473 00:21:49,038 --> 00:21:52,715 Was he? Or did we just not want to see it 474 00:21:52,739 --> 00:21:56,749 'cause we don't want to deal with-with our stuff head-on? 475 00:21:56,773 --> 00:21:58,697 Straight out of the academy, we are taught 476 00:21:58,721 --> 00:22:01,470 not to wear our emotions on our sleeves. 477 00:22:02,197 --> 00:22:04,075 The last thing you want is some bad guy 478 00:22:04,100 --> 00:22:06,030 to see fear in your eyes while you're on a beat. 479 00:22:06,055 --> 00:22:08,037 That is how you become a target. 480 00:22:09,665 --> 00:22:12,690 Over time, you just get really good at hiding everything. 481 00:22:15,811 --> 00:22:17,856 Sometimes too good, I guess. 482 00:22:19,183 --> 00:22:20,823 I just lost my brother. 483 00:22:21,544 --> 00:22:24,323 I can't handle losing Buck now, too. 484 00:22:25,661 --> 00:22:28,831 That is why we have to find him. 485 00:22:33,003 --> 00:22:35,581 Sergeant Harrelson, need a minute of your time. 486 00:22:35,605 --> 00:22:36,739 I don't have a minute. 487 00:22:37,172 --> 00:22:38,924 No one around here seems to. 488 00:22:39,148 --> 00:22:42,127 My client would like to make a donation on your behalf. 489 00:22:42,152 --> 00:22:44,097 - A donation? - Mm-hmm. 490 00:22:44,122 --> 00:22:45,476 - To who? - To SWAT, 491 00:22:45,501 --> 00:22:47,225 or to a charity of your choice. 492 00:22:47,449 --> 00:22:48,826 Who is the client? 493 00:22:48,851 --> 00:22:50,496 I've been instructed not to say. 494 00:22:50,521 --> 00:22:52,398 All right, you tell your client to soldier up 495 00:22:52,423 --> 00:22:53,981 and make the decision himself. 496 00:22:54,777 --> 00:22:57,979 It's a one million dollar donation. 497 00:23:00,607 --> 00:23:03,753 Okay. What's this really about? 498 00:23:03,778 --> 00:23:06,790 I can't say, but I can guarantee 499 00:23:06,815 --> 00:23:09,261 that this gesture comes from the best of places. 500 00:23:09,286 --> 00:23:10,763 Hey, Hondo? 501 00:23:10,788 --> 00:23:12,466 We got something. Can I talk to you? 502 00:23:12,875 --> 00:23:14,452 I'm sorry. I can't accept. 503 00:23:14,477 --> 00:23:15,855 Not until I know who the client is and why 504 00:23:15,880 --> 00:23:18,625 they are allegedly willing to drop seven figures. 505 00:23:18,650 --> 00:23:21,129 - Trevor, see her out. - We just got a hit 506 00:23:21,154 --> 00:23:23,299 on Buck's credit card at a diner out in Castaic. 507 00:23:23,324 --> 00:23:24,601 You got a number for the place? 508 00:23:24,626 --> 00:23:26,738 Yeah, just sent it to you. 509 00:23:27,149 --> 00:23:28,827 All right, Deacon's the closest. 510 00:23:28,852 --> 00:23:31,018 Get him the address, tell him to get there ASAP, 511 00:23:31,043 --> 00:23:33,062 - and I'll meet him as soon as I can. - Yeah. 512 00:23:36,366 --> 00:23:38,400 Okay. 513 00:23:40,956 --> 00:23:43,293 Uh, Mr. Spivey, there's a phone call for you. 514 00:23:43,317 --> 00:23:45,384 What? That's, uh... that's got to be a mistake. 515 00:23:45,408 --> 00:23:46,652 No one knows I'm here. 516 00:23:46,676 --> 00:23:47,718 He said it's important. 517 00:23:48,827 --> 00:23:50,537 Okay. Thanks. 518 00:23:51,381 --> 00:23:53,426 Hello? 519 00:23:53,450 --> 00:23:55,372 Buck. I'm so glad to hear your voice. 520 00:23:55,986 --> 00:23:57,728 Hondo, what do you want? 521 00:23:57,753 --> 00:23:59,328 I'm just calling to check in on you. 522 00:23:59,353 --> 00:24:01,016 Yeah, it's, uh, not a good time. 523 00:24:01,041 --> 00:24:02,067 Listen. 524 00:24:02,092 --> 00:24:04,270 Just stay right there. 525 00:24:04,294 --> 00:24:06,339 And I'll come see you, and we can have that meal we've been 526 00:24:06,363 --> 00:24:07,352 trying to schedule. 527 00:24:07,376 --> 00:24:09,761 Rain check, okay? I, uh, I got to go. 528 00:24:09,785 --> 00:24:11,517 No, wait. Buck, wait. 529 00:24:13,376 --> 00:24:17,189 Buck... are you thinking about killing yourself? 530 00:24:22,979 --> 00:24:26,740 Look, I never blamed you, Hondo, for anything. 531 00:24:27,183 --> 00:24:28,575 I hope you know that. 532 00:24:30,767 --> 00:24:32,830 No, Buck. Buck! 533 00:24:36,917 --> 00:24:37,981 Thanks, Gia. 534 00:24:38,005 --> 00:24:39,378 You're welcome. 535 00:24:49,335 --> 00:24:51,056 I was just hoping we were wrong... 536 00:24:53,005 --> 00:24:54,272 Buck was fine. 537 00:24:57,777 --> 00:24:59,565 I didn't want it to be real. 538 00:25:02,860 --> 00:25:04,987 But deep down, I suppose, I, uh... 539 00:25:06,519 --> 00:25:08,196 I knew he was struggling. 540 00:25:08,220 --> 00:25:10,632 Denial is easier than confrontation. 541 00:25:11,751 --> 00:25:13,280 Confronting people is part of the job description. 542 00:25:13,304 --> 00:25:14,606 Mine, too. 543 00:25:14,630 --> 00:25:16,905 But this wasn't just anybody. 544 00:25:16,929 --> 00:25:19,030 It was somebody you loved and respected. 545 00:25:20,697 --> 00:25:23,028 I was afraid of damaging my relationship with Buck. 546 00:25:23,052 --> 00:25:26,416 I thought he might hate me if I brought it up, 547 00:25:26,441 --> 00:25:28,468 and he'd think I was calling him weak. 548 00:25:30,904 --> 00:25:33,839 I just don't get how he fell so far so fast. 549 00:25:37,356 --> 00:25:39,123 I mean, what did I miss? 550 00:25:42,374 --> 00:25:43,859 The Raymont Harris shooting? 551 00:25:46,385 --> 00:25:47,738 His divorce? 552 00:25:51,030 --> 00:25:52,263 The chronic pain? 553 00:25:55,360 --> 00:25:57,662 Not being on SWAT anymore? 554 00:26:02,541 --> 00:26:04,087 And the loneliness. 555 00:26:04,844 --> 00:26:08,957 No one moment can lead to self-harm. 556 00:26:08,981 --> 00:26:12,260 It's a buildup of many issues over time. 557 00:26:12,284 --> 00:26:14,222 Physical and emotional traumas. 558 00:26:14,247 --> 00:26:15,773 Buck saw more than his fair share of trauma. 559 00:26:15,797 --> 00:26:17,587 - That's for damn sure. - You all do. 560 00:26:17,611 --> 00:26:20,569 Look at what you and your team experienced today. 561 00:26:20,979 --> 00:26:24,029 A one-year-old with a gunshot wound to her face, 562 00:26:24,053 --> 00:26:27,346 a mom trying to protect her, shot multiple times in the back. 563 00:26:27,393 --> 00:26:30,154 I can't even think of anything more awful. 564 00:26:30,447 --> 00:26:32,880 Traumatic incidents like that are part of the reason 565 00:26:32,904 --> 00:26:37,137 why cops have elevated rates of PTSD, depression... 566 00:26:37,161 --> 00:26:38,877 And suicide. 567 00:26:41,233 --> 00:26:43,411 I know we're more likely to kill ourselves 568 00:26:43,436 --> 00:26:45,204 than to die in the line of duty. 569 00:26:47,547 --> 00:26:48,966 But how do we fix it? 570 00:26:51,470 --> 00:26:55,222 I wish I had a simple answer for that, but there just isn't one. 571 00:26:59,999 --> 00:27:02,010 Deacon got to the diner within minutes, 572 00:27:02,034 --> 00:27:03,660 but there was no sign of Buck. 573 00:27:03,684 --> 00:27:05,313 He must have left right after he hung up. 574 00:27:05,337 --> 00:27:07,968 I don't know. Maybe I screwed up by calling him. 575 00:27:07,992 --> 00:27:10,105 He'd used his credit card. He was already on his way out. 576 00:27:10,129 --> 00:27:12,609 This way, he knows we're looking for him and we care. 577 00:27:12,633 --> 00:27:14,658 Or it might make him go through with it faster. 578 00:27:15,114 --> 00:27:16,929 These are the places Buck used his credit card 579 00:27:16,953 --> 00:27:18,409 in the last 24 hours: 580 00:27:18,433 --> 00:27:21,096 the diner in Castaic, a gas station in Stevenson Ranch 581 00:27:21,120 --> 00:27:22,478 and a liquor store in North Hollywood. 582 00:27:22,502 --> 00:27:23,907 Okay, the storage spot was right here. 583 00:27:23,931 --> 00:27:26,201 Looks like he got the booze, picked up his bike, 584 00:27:26,225 --> 00:27:27,882 filled his tank on the way to Castaic. 585 00:27:27,906 --> 00:27:29,621 Hey, I just got off the phone with Jenny. 586 00:27:29,645 --> 00:27:31,973 Castaic Diner was Buck's favorite breakfast spot. 587 00:27:31,997 --> 00:27:33,341 I knew I recognized it. 588 00:27:33,365 --> 00:27:34,739 They stopped there every time they went camping. 589 00:27:34,763 --> 00:27:37,212 At Castaic Lake. That's where Buck loves fishing. 590 00:27:37,236 --> 00:27:39,014 Castaic's only, like, 15 miles from that diner. 591 00:27:39,038 --> 00:27:40,615 You think that's where he's headed? 592 00:27:40,639 --> 00:27:43,104 Get the coordinates to Deac. Street and I will meet him. 593 00:27:44,365 --> 00:27:45,754 You got to be kidding. 594 00:27:45,778 --> 00:27:47,549 A BOLO hit on Aaron Darby 595 00:27:47,573 --> 00:27:48,924 at his cousin's place in City Terrace. 596 00:27:48,948 --> 00:27:51,048 Rocker and Becker's squads still in K-Town. 597 00:27:51,072 --> 00:27:52,654 20-Squad's still up. 598 00:27:53,052 --> 00:27:54,896 All right, grab whoever's available downstairs 599 00:27:54,920 --> 00:27:56,020 to fill up the squad. 600 00:27:56,044 --> 00:27:58,034 - Let's go get this bastard. - What about Buck? 601 00:27:59,191 --> 00:28:01,580 We just got to have faith that Deac's gonna find him. 602 00:28:09,308 --> 00:28:10,730 - LAPD! - Go! 603 00:28:11,971 --> 00:28:14,063 Stay down! Where's Darby?! 604 00:28:14,087 --> 00:28:15,794 Get down! 605 00:28:17,112 --> 00:28:19,310 Chris, upstairs. Move! 606 00:28:23,989 --> 00:28:25,723 LAPD! 607 00:28:30,489 --> 00:28:31,978 24-David! Shots fired. 608 00:28:32,002 --> 00:28:34,420 Suspect's outside, heading eastbound on foot. 609 00:28:44,002 --> 00:28:46,041 25-David in pursuit! 610 00:29:00,586 --> 00:29:03,732 26-David. Suspect over the wall into the alley. Lost visual. 611 00:29:03,756 --> 00:29:06,019 Stay on him. I'm on my way. 612 00:29:17,644 --> 00:29:19,211 He jumped out in front of me. 613 00:29:20,528 --> 00:29:22,369 Don't give me another reason to pull this trigger. 614 00:29:23,203 --> 00:29:25,020 Give me your hands. 615 00:29:29,209 --> 00:29:30,659 Deacon, what do you got? 616 00:29:30,683 --> 00:29:32,083 I found Buck. 617 00:29:33,886 --> 00:29:35,230 I'm gonna engage. 618 00:29:35,255 --> 00:29:36,533 I'll send you the coordinates now. 619 00:29:36,558 --> 00:29:37,758 Be there as fast as we can. 620 00:29:45,971 --> 00:29:47,772 How's it going, Buck? 621 00:29:51,437 --> 00:29:53,415 Had better days, Deac. 622 00:29:54,025 --> 00:29:55,235 I hear that. 623 00:29:55,908 --> 00:29:57,619 Me, too. 624 00:30:00,028 --> 00:30:02,009 Something happen today that make you want to hurt yourself? 625 00:30:02,033 --> 00:30:03,381 That's close enough. 626 00:30:07,753 --> 00:30:09,749 I remember you talking about this place. 627 00:30:10,623 --> 00:30:11,835 It's beautiful. 628 00:30:12,624 --> 00:30:15,255 It's a bit of a hike to get up here. 629 00:30:16,261 --> 00:30:18,341 I know this routine, Deac. 630 00:30:19,298 --> 00:30:22,095 Build an empathy, rapport, influence. 631 00:30:22,388 --> 00:30:24,689 The Behavioral Change Stairway? 632 00:30:26,585 --> 00:30:28,452 I taught it to you. 633 00:30:30,770 --> 00:30:32,487 Do you have a weapon? 634 00:30:32,897 --> 00:30:34,691 What do you think? 635 00:30:38,250 --> 00:30:40,818 I need to know why you want to kill yourself. 636 00:30:41,687 --> 00:30:43,906 Well, because, Deac, 637 00:30:43,930 --> 00:30:47,068 eventually, a man just outlives his usefulness, 638 00:30:47,704 --> 00:30:50,195 and then there's just no point. 639 00:30:51,625 --> 00:30:53,010 No point to what? 640 00:30:53,034 --> 00:30:56,467 To pretending anymore, Deac, just to any of it. 641 00:31:00,011 --> 00:31:01,635 Buck, there's always a point. 642 00:31:03,615 --> 00:31:06,350 I'm here. Let's just... let's just work this out together. 643 00:31:07,692 --> 00:31:09,036 I've made up my mind, Deac. 644 00:31:10,518 --> 00:31:13,063 You should go home to Annie and the kids. 645 00:31:13,652 --> 00:31:16,320 This is happening, and I don't want you to see it. 646 00:31:22,489 --> 00:31:23,865 Go home, Deac. 647 00:31:26,594 --> 00:31:28,613 I know things are bad right now. 648 00:31:28,637 --> 00:31:29,970 I know, and I-I just, I... 649 00:31:30,991 --> 00:31:32,887 I think I can help you if you just talk to me. 650 00:31:32,911 --> 00:31:36,075 Deac, I've been saying it for the last 30 minutes, man. 651 00:31:36,099 --> 00:31:37,343 I'm done talking. 652 00:31:37,367 --> 00:31:39,211 I'm just done talking, all right? 653 00:31:39,235 --> 00:31:40,979 Please just go. 654 00:31:41,003 --> 00:31:42,204 Please just... 655 00:31:45,827 --> 00:31:47,628 You called in the cavalry? 656 00:31:48,512 --> 00:31:50,356 - Stop! - Hey, hey. 657 00:31:50,813 --> 00:31:52,901 If you're here to tell me that I'm making a big mistake, 658 00:31:52,925 --> 00:31:54,536 don't bother, all right? You're wasting your time. 659 00:31:54,560 --> 00:31:55,891 Buck, you are worth our time. 660 00:31:55,915 --> 00:31:58,024 No, I'm not worth your time. 661 00:31:59,031 --> 00:32:00,542 I used to be. 662 00:32:00,566 --> 00:32:01,923 You know, but now I'm just... 663 00:32:01,947 --> 00:32:04,746 I'm a, I'm a shell of myself, guys. 664 00:32:04,770 --> 00:32:07,038 I mean, come on. You see it. 665 00:32:09,355 --> 00:32:11,466 You brought us into 20-Squad. 666 00:32:12,205 --> 00:32:14,630 And it was you that taught us you don't leave a man behind. 667 00:32:14,654 --> 00:32:16,491 We're not gonna, we're not gonna start that today. 668 00:32:16,515 --> 00:32:18,794 Oh, my 20-Squad's finished. It's not me anymore. 669 00:32:18,818 --> 00:32:20,431 Of course it is, Buck. You're still one of us, man. 670 00:32:20,455 --> 00:32:22,831 No, no, Hondo, I'm not one of you. 671 00:32:23,288 --> 00:32:25,956 I'm not one of you guys anymore. 672 00:32:28,012 --> 00:32:30,339 I was, I was barely keeping it together 673 00:32:30,363 --> 00:32:32,934 before I... before I shot Raymont. 674 00:32:34,519 --> 00:32:36,645 I lost, I lost my Jenny. 675 00:32:36,669 --> 00:32:37,910 I lost SWAT. 676 00:32:38,606 --> 00:32:40,949 I-I can't, I can't sleep. 677 00:32:40,973 --> 00:32:43,685 My knees, my back, on fire. 678 00:32:44,070 --> 00:32:45,621 Every day. 679 00:32:45,645 --> 00:32:48,992 Everything just feels so... just heavy. 680 00:32:50,070 --> 00:32:52,454 I can't even count the nights that I just 681 00:32:52,652 --> 00:32:55,697 hope and I pray that the lights up here would just go out, 682 00:32:55,721 --> 00:32:58,209 you know, just so that the pain would just go away. 683 00:33:00,253 --> 00:33:01,870 I'm tired, man. I'm sick of it. 684 00:33:01,894 --> 00:33:04,940 I'm sick of hoping and I'm sick of waiting for this. 685 00:33:04,964 --> 00:33:06,731 There's ways of getting better, man, and you know that. 686 00:33:08,934 --> 00:33:10,545 I don't, I don't care. 687 00:33:11,055 --> 00:33:12,547 I don't care if there are, man. 688 00:33:12,571 --> 00:33:15,884 I'm just... I'm done. 689 00:33:15,908 --> 00:33:17,265 I'm done, Hondo. 690 00:33:17,289 --> 00:33:19,221 I know you're in a lot of pain. 691 00:33:19,245 --> 00:33:22,173 And that's why you can't see how losing you is gonna hurt us. 692 00:33:22,197 --> 00:33:23,977 You've been fine without me. 693 00:33:24,002 --> 00:33:25,594 You'll be fine. 694 00:33:25,618 --> 00:33:26,895 I won't. 695 00:33:27,552 --> 00:33:28,796 Buck, 696 00:33:28,990 --> 00:33:32,184 if you didn't come into my life, I don't know where I'd be. 697 00:33:32,208 --> 00:33:34,704 I-I d... I don't even know if I'd be alive right now. 698 00:33:37,169 --> 00:33:40,793 Buck, you are the closest thing I ever had to a father. 699 00:33:45,131 --> 00:33:46,882 What about Lila and Matthew? 700 00:33:47,550 --> 00:33:49,217 What am I gonna tell them when they ask how their uncle died? 701 00:33:49,241 --> 00:33:50,452 What am I supposed to say? 702 00:33:50,476 --> 00:33:51,943 You think that's a conversation I want to have? 703 00:33:54,127 --> 00:33:56,893 So much of what we have achieved is because of you. 704 00:33:58,250 --> 00:33:59,938 Don't do this to us. 705 00:34:00,453 --> 00:34:02,864 Don't make us live in a world without you. 706 00:34:42,962 --> 00:34:44,339 I'm sorry. 707 00:34:44,363 --> 00:34:46,731 Oh, it's okay. 708 00:34:49,902 --> 00:34:51,045 I've set Buck up 709 00:34:51,070 --> 00:34:52,715 with a colleague, Dr. Kurt Derrian. 710 00:34:52,740 --> 00:34:54,818 He's a former cop turned psychologist. 711 00:34:54,842 --> 00:34:56,689 He'll get Buck and where he's coming from. 712 00:34:56,713 --> 00:34:57,809 Sounds perfect. 713 00:34:57,833 --> 00:34:58,869 Buck all set at home? 714 00:34:58,893 --> 00:35:00,781 Well, the team's gonna be staying with him in shifts, 715 00:35:00,805 --> 00:35:02,375 - keeping him company. - Good. 716 00:35:02,399 --> 00:35:04,836 It's a long road ahead, but we'll get him the help he needs. 717 00:35:05,015 --> 00:35:07,285 Chris is first up for her psych debrief. 718 00:35:07,310 --> 00:35:08,932 I'll see you for yours in about an hour. 719 00:35:08,957 --> 00:35:10,617 Yes, you will. 720 00:35:13,611 --> 00:35:15,196 Finally. 721 00:35:15,221 --> 00:35:17,720 Othella Baker. 722 00:35:17,744 --> 00:35:19,820 Wait a minute. You're her client? 723 00:35:19,844 --> 00:35:20,995 I have to say, Sergeant, 724 00:35:21,019 --> 00:35:23,585 I have never in my life had so much trouble 725 00:35:23,609 --> 00:35:25,309 giving away a million dollars. 726 00:35:25,333 --> 00:35:28,459 Okay, I am really confused. What is going on here, exactly? 727 00:35:28,985 --> 00:35:32,196 I was convinced I was gonna die last week, 728 00:35:32,663 --> 00:35:34,919 when that gunman had me on the hotel rooftop. 729 00:35:34,944 --> 00:35:36,043 Mm-hmm. 730 00:35:36,068 --> 00:35:37,279 And then you saved me. 731 00:35:37,304 --> 00:35:38,581 It was a team effort. 732 00:35:38,606 --> 00:35:40,072 There was a lot of us out there chipping in. 733 00:35:40,097 --> 00:35:42,320 But it was your hand that grabbed me, 734 00:35:42,706 --> 00:35:44,384 kept me from falling. 735 00:35:44,408 --> 00:35:48,421 You know that corny saying, "Wake up and smell the roses"? 736 00:35:49,987 --> 00:35:52,425 Well, I do that now. 737 00:35:52,983 --> 00:35:55,362 One big whiff every morning, 738 00:35:55,573 --> 00:35:57,764 and it makes my whole damn day. 739 00:35:58,890 --> 00:35:59,934 I want to pay it forward. 740 00:35:59,959 --> 00:36:01,069 You really don't have to do that. 741 00:36:01,094 --> 00:36:03,003 I know, but I'm going to anyway. 742 00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:06,451 Now, I just need the name of a worthy charity 743 00:36:06,475 --> 00:36:08,331 that you believe in. 744 00:36:11,321 --> 00:36:12,755 What's up, guys? 745 00:36:16,740 --> 00:36:18,785 You missed all the fun. 746 00:36:18,810 --> 00:36:21,288 There was three inches of water when I got here. 747 00:36:21,313 --> 00:36:24,292 Baby, I had plenty of fun today myself. 748 00:36:26,020 --> 00:36:27,297 Mmm. 749 00:36:29,726 --> 00:36:31,136 Mmm. 750 00:36:31,161 --> 00:36:32,505 How's Buck? 751 00:36:33,366 --> 00:36:34,592 He's all right. 752 00:36:35,059 --> 00:36:36,427 For now. 753 00:36:37,895 --> 00:36:39,839 Here, let me help you out. 754 00:36:40,348 --> 00:36:43,777 It's gonna be about five grand to fix the water damage. 755 00:36:43,801 --> 00:36:45,111 Five grand, huh? 756 00:36:45,135 --> 00:36:48,025 No idea how I'm gonna raise the funds for it. 757 00:36:48,049 --> 00:36:49,991 Maybe a cook-off or something. 758 00:36:50,015 --> 00:36:52,519 I do make a mean chili gumbo. 759 00:36:56,674 --> 00:36:58,491 Would a half a million dollars do it? 760 00:36:58,642 --> 00:37:00,618 Oh, yeah. I think that'll cover most of it. 761 00:37:00,643 --> 00:37:02,623 Baby, I am so serious. 762 00:37:02,648 --> 00:37:03,925 - About what? - Tomorrow, 763 00:37:03,950 --> 00:37:07,096 you are gonna get a check from an anonymous donor 764 00:37:07,121 --> 00:37:10,567 for $500,000 765 00:37:10,592 --> 00:37:11,936 to this community center. 766 00:37:12,262 --> 00:37:14,274 It's gonna allow you to do everything 767 00:37:14,298 --> 00:37:16,076 you've been talking about for these kids. 768 00:37:16,100 --> 00:37:17,769 Are you for real right now? 769 00:37:17,793 --> 00:37:19,746 As real as a heart attack. 770 00:37:19,770 --> 00:37:21,147 Uh, wait a minute. 771 00:37:22,139 --> 00:37:23,328 Who's giving us this money? 772 00:37:23,352 --> 00:37:25,393 She made me promise I wouldn't tell anybody. 773 00:37:25,417 --> 00:37:27,354 - "She"? - Okay, oops, I've already said too much. 774 00:37:27,378 --> 00:37:29,221 You ain't getting nothing else out of me. 775 00:37:29,245 --> 00:37:31,157 Okay. 776 00:37:31,181 --> 00:37:33,883 You better not be playing with me here. 777 00:37:34,830 --> 00:37:36,279 How the hell did this happen? 778 00:37:36,347 --> 00:37:38,058 A million-dollar donation is coming, 779 00:37:38,083 --> 00:37:39,527 courtesy of someone SWAT helped. 780 00:37:39,957 --> 00:37:43,370 And half of it's going to the LAPD Suicide Prevention Fund. 781 00:37:43,394 --> 00:37:45,772 And the other half is coming right here. 782 00:37:47,034 --> 00:37:48,499 Oh, my God. 783 00:37:49,867 --> 00:37:52,044 There was a time when I was lost, 784 00:37:52,637 --> 00:37:54,448 and Buck helped me get back on track. 785 00:37:55,298 --> 00:37:58,184 You're doing the same thing for the kids who come through here. 786 00:37:59,051 --> 00:38:01,095 You're giving 'em a sense of purpose, 787 00:38:01,512 --> 00:38:02,764 of belonging. 788 00:38:03,247 --> 00:38:04,524 It's important. 789 00:38:04,548 --> 00:38:06,044 I know. 790 00:38:06,068 --> 00:38:08,350 Maybe what you're doing will make it easier for them 791 00:38:08,374 --> 00:38:10,159 than it is for some of us. 792 00:38:12,489 --> 00:38:14,457 Oh. 793 00:38:18,195 --> 00:38:20,990 Honestly, I'm not a big fan of debriefings. 794 00:38:23,267 --> 00:38:25,274 People tend to come to me with their problems, 795 00:38:25,298 --> 00:38:26,601 not the other way around. 796 00:38:26,625 --> 00:38:28,548 Who listens when you have a problem? 797 00:38:28,572 --> 00:38:30,166 My wife. 798 00:38:32,795 --> 00:38:34,263 God. 799 00:38:36,088 --> 00:38:38,174 Growing up Catholic, you, uh... 800 00:38:38,562 --> 00:38:40,426 you learn to roll with the punches. 801 00:38:40,918 --> 00:38:42,486 You don't complain. 802 00:38:42,511 --> 00:38:44,456 So it's okay for others to unload their feelings 803 00:38:44,501 --> 00:38:45,945 but not you? 804 00:38:46,336 --> 00:38:48,604 Seems like a bit of a double standard. 805 00:38:51,270 --> 00:38:52,980 Everything I say... 806 00:38:54,440 --> 00:38:56,242 stays in this room? 807 00:38:56,266 --> 00:38:57,610 Of course. 808 00:39:05,022 --> 00:39:06,661 Seeing Buck today... 809 00:39:08,211 --> 00:39:09,580 terrified me. 810 00:39:09,605 --> 00:39:11,883 The fear of losing someone you care about 811 00:39:11,908 --> 00:39:13,476 can be paralyzing. 812 00:39:16,747 --> 00:39:18,047 No. 813 00:39:20,511 --> 00:39:22,176 It terrified me, 814 00:39:23,794 --> 00:39:25,513 because, in that moment, 815 00:39:27,077 --> 00:39:31,547 I understood exactly where Buck was coming from. 816 00:39:35,539 --> 00:39:36,899 I, uh... 817 00:39:37,835 --> 00:39:40,871 I hit a low point last year. 818 00:39:43,814 --> 00:39:45,116 There were... 819 00:39:46,156 --> 00:39:48,286 money problems and... 820 00:39:49,632 --> 00:39:51,289 family problems. 821 00:39:53,570 --> 00:39:55,001 And I was working... 822 00:39:57,834 --> 00:39:59,255 I was working my tail off. 823 00:40:02,019 --> 00:40:04,468 I was exhausted all the time. 824 00:40:09,046 --> 00:40:10,391 And, uh... 825 00:40:14,544 --> 00:40:15,980 I just felt like 826 00:40:16,460 --> 00:40:20,067 I was failing everyone a-around me. 827 00:40:23,039 --> 00:40:24,550 Like I was failing myself. 828 00:40:31,768 --> 00:40:33,245 One day, I... 829 00:40:34,498 --> 00:40:36,799 I looked at my gun. 830 00:40:40,296 --> 00:40:41,596 I saw a way out. 831 00:40:41,620 --> 00:40:43,549 I just thought it would be easier, 832 00:40:44,394 --> 00:40:45,760 it'd be... 833 00:40:46,022 --> 00:40:49,058 better for everyone around me, somehow. 834 00:40:51,734 --> 00:40:54,310 Do you still think about taking your life, David? 835 00:40:56,640 --> 00:40:57,818 No. 836 00:40:58,041 --> 00:41:00,586 I don't. Not once... since then. 837 00:41:00,611 --> 00:41:02,011 No. 838 00:41:06,409 --> 00:41:08,410 And seeing Buck like that... 839 00:41:10,814 --> 00:41:13,249 ...in that dark place... 840 00:41:17,583 --> 00:41:20,353 ...made me realize how much I have to lose. 841 00:41:21,629 --> 00:41:25,258 I admire the courage it took for you to tell me that. 842 00:41:32,181 --> 00:41:33,516 Do you think... 843 00:41:36,519 --> 00:41:38,813 You think maybe we can make this a... 844 00:41:40,543 --> 00:41:42,775 a semi-regular thing? 845 00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:44,151 I'd like that.