1 00:00:23,816 --> 00:00:26,318 [electricity crackling] 2 00:00:26,402 --> 00:00:29,029 [boy] You are never more alive than when you’re a teenager. 3 00:00:29,113 --> 00:00:30,322 [electricity zapping] 4 00:00:30,406 --> 00:00:32,241 Your brain is flush with chemicals 5 00:00:32,324 --> 00:00:36,620 that can turn your life into a story of epic proportions. 6 00:00:36,704 --> 00:00:39,165 An A-minus feels like the Pulitzer, 7 00:00:39,248 --> 00:00:42,877 a lonely Saturday night is an eternity of solitude, 8 00:00:42,960 --> 00:00:47,047 and your lab partner becomes the great love of your life. 9 00:00:47,131 --> 00:00:49,759 And yet, by the start of my senior year, 10 00:00:49,842 --> 00:00:52,219 nothing interesting or remarkable 11 00:00:52,303 --> 00:00:54,096 had ever happened to me. 12 00:00:54,180 --> 00:00:57,308 -I was grateful for my life. -[laughs] 13 00:00:57,391 --> 00:00:59,935 I had my best friends-- all two of them... 14 00:01:00,019 --> 00:01:01,020 Relax. You got this. 15 00:01:01,103 --> 00:01:02,354 ...parents who met 16 00:01:02,438 --> 00:01:04,565 and fell in love when they were my age, 17 00:01:04,648 --> 00:01:06,525 and my writing. 18 00:01:06,609 --> 00:01:09,153 [reading] 19 00:01:17,953 --> 00:01:19,371 But a platform was pointless 20 00:01:19,455 --> 00:01:21,957 unless I actually had something to say. 21 00:01:22,041 --> 00:01:23,709 And I didn’t, 22 00:01:23,793 --> 00:01:26,921 because nothing worth writing about had ever happened to me. 23 00:01:28,255 --> 00:01:29,256 [closes laptop] 24 00:01:29,340 --> 00:01:32,635 Then, on the day I found out about the job, 25 00:01:32,718 --> 00:01:34,220 something finally happened. 26 00:01:40,309 --> 00:01:42,311 [chattering] 27 00:01:47,358 --> 00:01:48,859 [sighs] 28 00:02:05,543 --> 00:02:07,086 [man] Hi, guys. Thanks for swinging by. 29 00:02:07,169 --> 00:02:09,505 Come on in. You want us both? 30 00:02:09,588 --> 00:02:10,965 Yes, both of you would be great. 31 00:02:11,048 --> 00:02:12,466 Come on. 32 00:02:14,426 --> 00:02:16,595 [man] Grace just transferred here from East River, 33 00:02:16,679 --> 00:02:19,348 where she spent two years writing for the Gazette. 34 00:02:19,431 --> 00:02:22,726 You both possess remarkable depth for writers your age. 35 00:02:23,811 --> 00:02:27,064 Which is why I think that you two will make 36 00:02:27,147 --> 00:02:30,150 a truly dynamic editor-in-chief duo. 37 00:02:31,026 --> 00:02:32,069 No. What? 38 00:02:32,862 --> 00:02:34,655 Uh, one more time? 39 00:02:34,738 --> 00:02:37,199 I don’t want to be an editor. 40 00:02:37,283 --> 00:02:38,492 But thank you. 41 00:02:40,536 --> 00:02:41,537 Um... 42 00:02:41,620 --> 00:02:43,622 Hey. 43 00:02:43,706 --> 00:02:45,875 -Why’d you say no? -What? 44 00:02:45,958 --> 00:02:48,127 Why’d you say no? 45 00:02:48,210 --> 00:02:50,629 Why do you care? What? 46 00:02:50,713 --> 00:02:51,922 Why do you care? 47 00:02:52,006 --> 00:02:54,300 Uh... I don’t. 48 00:02:54,383 --> 00:02:57,553 It’s just a good opportunity for a writer, I guess. 49 00:02:57,636 --> 00:02:59,471 I just don’t get why you would say no. 50 00:02:59,555 --> 00:03:02,182 All right, well, don’t let it keep you up at night. 51 00:03:08,898 --> 00:03:11,400 [sighs] Oh, shit. 52 00:03:11,483 --> 00:03:12,818 What? 53 00:03:14,320 --> 00:03:16,447 I just missed my bus. 54 00:03:17,865 --> 00:03:19,700 Can’t walk? 55 00:03:19,783 --> 00:03:22,036 Um... no, I mean, I can. 56 00:03:22,119 --> 00:03:23,454 It’s just far. 57 00:03:23,537 --> 00:03:26,832 Uh, that’s why I take the bus. 58 00:03:40,179 --> 00:03:41,931 My house is up there. 59 00:03:43,265 --> 00:03:46,268 I have a car. I can give you a ride if you want. 60 00:03:47,561 --> 00:03:49,021 Yeah? 61 00:03:50,522 --> 00:03:52,066 Thanks. 62 00:03:57,821 --> 00:03:59,990 Hey, so you like "Nehradah"? 63 00:04:01,951 --> 00:04:04,036 Neruda. 64 00:04:04,119 --> 00:04:06,538 Oh. [laughs] 65 00:04:06,622 --> 00:04:08,832 Oh. Um... 66 00:04:08,916 --> 00:04:10,584 Yeah, well, I only read a stanza, 67 00:04:10,668 --> 00:04:13,629 but I thought it was really beautiful. 68 00:04:14,797 --> 00:04:16,382 You think so? 69 00:04:18,759 --> 00:04:20,511 Yeah. Do you not? 70 00:04:21,929 --> 00:04:23,597 No, I just think that’s what people say 71 00:04:23,681 --> 00:04:26,767 when they read a poem that they don’t understand. 72 00:04:30,938 --> 00:04:32,439 Hmm. 73 00:04:32,523 --> 00:04:34,066 [sniffs] 74 00:04:39,363 --> 00:04:40,781 [Grace] Finish it. 75 00:04:42,366 --> 00:04:44,660 And let me know if you still feel the same way. 76 00:04:48,706 --> 00:04:50,207 [bicycle bell dings] 77 00:04:50,290 --> 00:04:52,584 [train horn blowing in distance] 78 00:04:52,668 --> 00:04:54,837 Huh. It’s a cool place. 79 00:04:56,171 --> 00:04:58,799 How come you walk to school if you have a car? 80 00:04:58,882 --> 00:05:00,300 I don’t like driving. 81 00:05:00,384 --> 00:05:02,594 -Do you have a license? -Yeah. 82 00:05:02,678 --> 00:05:06,181 ["Take Care" by Beach House playing over speakers] 83 00:05:06,265 --> 00:05:10,352 ♪ I’d take care of you ♪ 84 00:05:10,436 --> 00:05:12,146 It’s a good song. 85 00:05:12,229 --> 00:05:17,067 ♪ If you ask me to ♪ 86 00:05:19,695 --> 00:05:21,947 [song continues faintly] 87 00:05:24,658 --> 00:05:25,868 [engine and music stop] 88 00:05:25,951 --> 00:05:28,203 [birds chirping] 89 00:05:37,629 --> 00:05:40,340 You live in a house like this, but you don’t have a car? 90 00:05:40,424 --> 00:05:44,470 -I guess my grades aren’t good enough for a car, so... -Hmm. 91 00:05:47,264 --> 00:05:48,432 Thanks a lot. 92 00:05:56,356 --> 00:05:57,775 Uh... 93 00:05:58,942 --> 00:06:00,319 Well, I’ll see you tomorrow? 94 00:06:02,571 --> 00:06:03,739 Okay. 95 00:06:07,284 --> 00:06:10,287 Henry. What’s up, Suds? 96 00:06:10,370 --> 00:06:12,122 You, uh, just get back or something? 97 00:06:12,206 --> 00:06:13,749 [Suds] Mmm, no. Just leaving. 98 00:06:13,832 --> 00:06:15,334 I’m late. 99 00:06:15,417 --> 00:06:17,044 So, uh, who’s the girl? 100 00:06:17,127 --> 00:06:19,588 -What girl? -[Suds] The one that drove Henry home. 101 00:06:19,671 --> 00:06:22,216 A girl drove you home? [chuckles] 102 00:06:22,299 --> 00:06:24,718 [Suds] She left her car here and walked away. 103 00:06:24,802 --> 00:06:25,803 [whispers] Run. 104 00:06:25,886 --> 00:06:27,721 Yeah, when are you gonna move back out again? 105 00:06:27,805 --> 00:06:30,641 Ignore her. She’s declared war on love. 106 00:06:30,724 --> 00:06:33,143 No, just on cheating assholes. 107 00:06:33,227 --> 00:06:35,062 Will you see him today? Oh, my God. 108 00:06:35,145 --> 00:06:36,271 He’s my attending, Mom. 109 00:06:36,355 --> 00:06:37,981 I’ll see him several times today. 110 00:06:38,065 --> 00:06:40,818 So, how was the first day back? 111 00:06:40,901 --> 00:06:42,986 Good. Yeah. It was good. 112 00:06:43,070 --> 00:06:44,738 Did you get it? 113 00:06:44,822 --> 00:06:46,532 [Henry] Uh... 114 00:06:46,615 --> 00:06:47,866 -Yeah. -[mother] Oh. 115 00:06:47,950 --> 00:06:49,785 [Suds] Yeah, you did. [chuckles] 116 00:06:49,868 --> 00:06:50,869 Congratulations, sweetie. 117 00:06:50,953 --> 00:06:52,788 Nice work. 118 00:06:52,871 --> 00:06:55,457 [Suds] Okay, got to go. Love you, guys. 119 00:06:55,541 --> 00:06:57,751 So, who’s the girl? 120 00:06:57,835 --> 00:07:00,129 ["Take Care" by Beach House playing over speakers] 121 00:07:02,381 --> 00:07:06,802 ♪ I’d take care of you ♪ 122 00:07:08,846 --> 00:07:13,142 ♪ If you’d ask me to ♪ 123 00:07:15,018 --> 00:07:21,692 ♪ In a year or two ♪ 124 00:07:22,860 --> 00:07:24,695 ♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪ 125 00:07:31,702 --> 00:07:34,121 [Henry] "I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose, 126 00:07:34,204 --> 00:07:38,167 topaz or arrow of carnations that propagate fire. 127 00:07:38,250 --> 00:07:40,711 I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, 128 00:07:40,794 --> 00:07:43,172 in secret, between the shadow and the soul." 129 00:07:43,255 --> 00:07:45,174 "...the shadow and the soul." 130 00:07:45,257 --> 00:07:47,301 "I love you like the plant that does not bloom, 131 00:07:47,384 --> 00:07:49,386 but carries within itself, hidden, 132 00:07:49,469 --> 00:07:51,096 the light of those flowers." 133 00:07:51,180 --> 00:07:54,141 "...thanks to your love, lives darkly in my body..." 134 00:07:54,224 --> 00:07:56,894 "...a certain solid fragrance that has risen from the earth. 135 00:07:56,977 --> 00:08:00,564 I love you without knowing how or when or from where. 136 00:08:00,647 --> 00:08:03,692 I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride, 137 00:08:03,775 --> 00:08:05,402 in which there is no you nor I, 138 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:09,239 so close that your hand upon my chest is mine. 139 00:08:09,323 --> 00:08:12,826 So close that your hand upon my chest is mine. 140 00:08:12,910 --> 00:08:14,828 [sighs] 141 00:08:16,288 --> 00:08:19,208 So close that your eyes close as I dream." 142 00:08:20,709 --> 00:08:24,379 -I have no idea what you said, but it worked. -What? 143 00:08:24,463 --> 00:08:27,424 I think the newspaper’s gonna be a really good thing for her. 144 00:08:28,967 --> 00:08:33,555 We will have four issues-- the first in November, the last in June. 145 00:08:33,639 --> 00:08:36,516 The first three are garden-variety periodicals: 146 00:08:36,600 --> 00:08:40,020 hard-hitting news, sports, features, the like. 147 00:08:40,103 --> 00:08:42,773 But the last one, that’s where we get creative. 148 00:08:42,856 --> 00:08:44,983 With the help of the group, Henry will choose a theme, 149 00:08:45,067 --> 00:08:47,653 and you will have carte blanche to explore that theme 150 00:08:47,736 --> 00:08:49,279 as you see fit. 151 00:08:49,363 --> 00:08:52,282 That last issue will be this team’s legacy, 152 00:08:52,366 --> 00:08:54,910 an opportunity to share your accrued wisdom 153 00:08:54,993 --> 00:08:57,371 with the students behind you. 154 00:08:57,454 --> 00:08:59,998 I’m not just talking about the four years that you’ve spent 155 00:09:00,082 --> 00:09:01,750 within the walls of this building. 156 00:09:01,833 --> 00:09:04,461 I am talking bigger than that. 157 00:09:04,544 --> 00:09:10,008 I am talking about the totality of your 17 years on this planet. 158 00:09:10,092 --> 00:09:12,469 Last but not least, Grace here joins us 159 00:09:12,552 --> 00:09:15,138 from our neighboring school, East River Preparatory, 160 00:09:15,222 --> 00:09:19,434 and will lend Henry a helping hand with all things editorial. 161 00:09:19,518 --> 00:09:23,438 Now, here’s what Kyle and his team did for last year’s final issue. 162 00:09:23,522 --> 00:09:26,525 Um, I’m sorry. Uh, Kyle sucks. 163 00:09:26,608 --> 00:09:28,902 [laughter] [teacher] Very constructive, La. 164 00:09:28,986 --> 00:09:31,530 Well, okay, um... 165 00:09:31,613 --> 00:09:34,616 the final issue last year did kind of suck. 166 00:09:34,700 --> 00:09:36,952 [quiet laughter] 167 00:09:38,036 --> 00:09:39,871 [sighs] All right. 168 00:09:39,955 --> 00:09:41,748 [students chattering quietly] 169 00:09:44,918 --> 00:09:46,920 Um, hey, so I don’t know what your thoughts... 170 00:09:47,004 --> 00:09:48,797 So, I’m not writing. 171 00:09:50,257 --> 00:09:53,135 If you have something to say, you can just say it yourself, 172 00:09:53,218 --> 00:09:56,388 and I’ll help with, like, editing and design and... 173 00:09:56,471 --> 00:09:58,015 I handle design. 174 00:09:59,641 --> 00:10:01,351 Well, everything other than design then. 175 00:10:01,435 --> 00:10:04,980 But just not... just not writing. 176 00:10:05,063 --> 00:10:06,940 And I’m assistant editor, 177 00:10:07,024 --> 00:10:08,859 because apparently you worked very hard for this, 178 00:10:08,942 --> 00:10:11,069 so it should be all yours. 179 00:10:12,738 --> 00:10:14,656 [Henry] Looks like Cora’s into you again. 180 00:10:14,740 --> 00:10:16,033 Yo, what is the deal with her? 181 00:10:16,116 --> 00:10:18,618 She’s making eyes at me, laughing at all my jokes, 182 00:10:18,702 --> 00:10:21,496 and it’s like this air pocket that’s, like, 183 00:10:21,580 --> 00:10:24,708 connecting us, and it’s just filled with, like, marshmallows, 184 00:10:24,791 --> 00:10:28,920 gummy bears, and freakin’ bubble gum and sparklies, 185 00:10:29,004 --> 00:10:30,589 and it’s just like, if I eat it, 186 00:10:30,672 --> 00:10:33,842 I’m gonna get another cavity like last year, and I can’t. 187 00:10:33,925 --> 00:10:35,052 Hmm, good metaphor. 188 00:10:35,135 --> 00:10:37,054 Thank you. I appreciate it. 189 00:10:37,137 --> 00:10:38,388 Hey, Grace. Hankard. 190 00:10:38,472 --> 00:10:39,848 I, um... This is our bus! 191 00:10:39,931 --> 00:10:41,641 ...actually didn’t get a chance to tell you, 192 00:10:41,725 --> 00:10:43,393 I finished that poem. 193 00:10:43,477 --> 00:10:46,146 And, um... yeah. 194 00:10:46,229 --> 00:10:47,647 I still think it’s beautiful, 195 00:10:47,731 --> 00:10:50,692 but not in the, uh, normal kind of bullshit way. 196 00:10:50,776 --> 00:10:53,111 Um, which, uh, which I think is also 197 00:10:53,195 --> 00:10:55,238 kind of what the poem’s about, ’cause, you know, 198 00:10:55,322 --> 00:11:00,077 Neruda’s love for her doesn’t come from, like, uh... [sighs] 199 00:11:00,160 --> 00:11:03,163 sunshine and roses and cliché stuff. 200 00:11:03,246 --> 00:11:06,875 You know, it comes from, um, her... flaws 201 00:11:06,958 --> 00:11:09,878 and her imperfections, like, darker places. 202 00:11:09,961 --> 00:11:11,630 [La] Hankard! Uh, comes from... 203 00:11:11,713 --> 00:11:13,507 [boy] Come on, you flirt! 204 00:11:13,590 --> 00:11:15,425 ...I guess who she has the potential to be 205 00:11:15,509 --> 00:11:18,387 and not just who she is. 206 00:11:20,847 --> 00:11:22,557 So, I don’t know. 207 00:11:22,641 --> 00:11:25,060 So, beautiful in that kind of way, you know. 208 00:11:27,437 --> 00:11:29,398 You’re gonna miss your bus again. 209 00:11:31,274 --> 00:11:33,110 [singsongy] I see you. 210 00:11:33,193 --> 00:11:34,903 [rock song playing] What’s he doing? 211 00:11:34,986 --> 00:11:37,406 [song fades] 212 00:11:37,489 --> 00:11:40,367 Um, you think I could get another ride? 213 00:11:42,369 --> 00:11:44,079 Sure. 214 00:11:44,162 --> 00:11:48,500 ♪ I’d take care of you ♪ 215 00:11:50,585 --> 00:11:55,090 ♪ If you’d ask me to ♪ 216 00:11:57,134 --> 00:11:58,510 [car door closes] 217 00:11:58,593 --> 00:12:01,221 Thanks for letting me drive myself home again. 218 00:12:08,645 --> 00:12:11,440 [Henry] Where do you go to? Why do you go? 219 00:12:11,523 --> 00:12:15,360 What are your colors? What are your moods? 220 00:12:15,444 --> 00:12:19,281 To see you, I turn. To know you, I burn. 221 00:12:19,364 --> 00:12:21,199 [brakes squeak outside] 222 00:12:35,380 --> 00:12:37,466 [car door closes, engine starts] 223 00:12:58,778 --> 00:13:00,113 [sighs heavily] 224 00:13:00,197 --> 00:13:01,990 [Cora speaking Spanish] 225 00:13:03,366 --> 00:13:05,911 -Okay. Bye. -[LA whispering] Oh, my God, 226 00:13:05,994 --> 00:13:07,621 it kills me when she speaks Spanish. 227 00:13:07,704 --> 00:13:10,248 Don’t you want to say, "What’s up?" Why? So she can ghost me again? 228 00:13:10,332 --> 00:13:12,000 I mean... See you, guys. 229 00:13:12,083 --> 00:13:13,543 Uh, see you. 230 00:13:14,711 --> 00:13:15,754 Bye. Uh-huh. 231 00:13:15,837 --> 00:13:17,005 [Cora] Bye. 232 00:13:18,548 --> 00:13:20,258 [sighs] Fuck. 233 00:13:20,342 --> 00:13:21,384 Meh. 234 00:13:21,468 --> 00:13:24,638 Meh. Meh-meh. 235 00:13:26,515 --> 00:13:28,767 [music playing faintly over earbuds] 236 00:13:32,812 --> 00:13:34,231 [sighs] 237 00:13:36,399 --> 00:13:40,153 What was that little "meh-meh" thing? 238 00:13:40,237 --> 00:13:43,657 Uh... oh, um... um... 239 00:13:43,740 --> 00:13:44,866 [laughs] 240 00:13:44,950 --> 00:13:46,576 I just-- we-- when we’re just, 241 00:13:46,660 --> 00:13:48,537 um, I guess, annoyed, we just do that. 242 00:13:48,620 --> 00:13:50,205 I don’t know. Mmm. 243 00:13:50,288 --> 00:13:51,748 Um... 244 00:13:53,458 --> 00:13:55,794 Uh, you think you’d give me a ride today, maybe? 245 00:14:02,217 --> 00:14:05,053 Hey, do you want to come in and hang out or something? 246 00:14:07,597 --> 00:14:09,766 I can’t today. 247 00:14:09,849 --> 00:14:11,017 Okay. 248 00:14:11,101 --> 00:14:12,644 Um... 249 00:14:12,727 --> 00:14:14,854 I’ll just see you tomorrow then, so... Okay. 250 00:14:22,028 --> 00:14:24,155 Henry? 251 00:14:24,239 --> 00:14:25,865 Hmm? 252 00:14:26,950 --> 00:14:29,369 Meet me here at 6:00. 253 00:14:29,452 --> 00:14:30,704 Okay. 254 00:14:30,787 --> 00:14:33,039 Yeah, I can meet-- I’ll meet you there at 6:00. 255 00:14:33,123 --> 00:14:34,583 Yeah. 256 00:14:34,666 --> 00:14:36,459 Bring a loaf of bread. 257 00:14:40,714 --> 00:14:42,424 [brakes squeak outside] 258 00:14:42,507 --> 00:14:44,718 [vehicle door opens, closes] 259 00:14:46,761 --> 00:14:47,762 [car door opens] 260 00:14:51,933 --> 00:14:54,686 -[Henry] What happened to your car? -[Grace] It’s back at my house. 261 00:14:54,769 --> 00:14:57,230 Did you drive it back and then you walked here? 262 00:14:57,314 --> 00:14:58,815 We don’t need it. 263 00:15:01,109 --> 00:15:03,194 -[insects trilling] -[birds chirping] 264 00:15:51,826 --> 00:15:54,037 [water dripping] 265 00:16:02,337 --> 00:16:03,338 Come on. 266 00:16:03,421 --> 00:16:05,715 [cane thumping steadily] 267 00:16:08,635 --> 00:16:11,054 It was a cotton mill in the 1800s, 268 00:16:11,137 --> 00:16:13,264 and then... 269 00:16:13,348 --> 00:16:18,186 they made plastic bottles until it shut down in 1989, I think. 270 00:16:34,411 --> 00:16:37,163 [cane thumping steadily] 271 00:16:37,247 --> 00:16:38,331 You have to be quiet. 272 00:17:16,411 --> 00:17:18,913 -[Henry] Whoa. -Shh. 273 00:17:18,997 --> 00:17:21,124 You’ll scare them away. 274 00:17:25,336 --> 00:17:26,546 [whispers] Come here. 275 00:17:29,549 --> 00:17:31,634 [water sloshing] 276 00:17:32,677 --> 00:17:34,179 [sighs] 277 00:17:53,698 --> 00:17:55,742 [both chuckle] 278 00:18:01,539 --> 00:18:03,249 [chuckles] 279 00:18:14,844 --> 00:18:17,263 Have you ever had a girlfriend? 280 00:18:17,347 --> 00:18:19,307 [chuckles] Uh, no. 281 00:18:19,390 --> 00:18:21,267 Uh, not really. 282 00:18:22,018 --> 00:18:23,269 Why not? 283 00:18:24,437 --> 00:18:26,689 Uh... You ever had a boyfriend? 284 00:18:27,732 --> 00:18:28,983 [chuckles] No. 285 00:18:30,443 --> 00:18:31,694 So what’s the deal? 286 00:18:31,778 --> 00:18:33,530 I don’t know. 287 00:18:33,613 --> 00:18:35,323 [laughs] 288 00:18:35,406 --> 00:18:36,699 Um... 289 00:18:38,159 --> 00:18:39,786 I’m not really good at this stuff. 290 00:18:39,869 --> 00:18:42,872 Well, I thought you were a writer. 291 00:18:42,956 --> 00:18:45,458 Uh... yeah, I mean, exactly. 292 00:18:45,542 --> 00:18:47,252 I could probably go home right now 293 00:18:47,335 --> 00:18:50,630 and write you something about why I’ve never had a girlfriend, 294 00:18:50,713 --> 00:18:52,674 like an essay or whatever. 295 00:18:52,757 --> 00:18:55,969 Oh, so you just have to edit everything. 296 00:18:56,052 --> 00:18:57,262 No, it’s not editing. 297 00:18:57,345 --> 00:19:01,224 It’s just, writing, I think, sometimes helps me... 298 00:19:01,307 --> 00:19:04,978 understand myself, I guess, ’cause... 299 00:19:05,061 --> 00:19:07,480 a lot of times, I don’t really know how I feel about something 300 00:19:07,564 --> 00:19:09,399 until I really sit down and think about it. 301 00:19:09,482 --> 00:19:13,319 But, I mean, you haven’t shared much either. 302 00:19:14,988 --> 00:19:16,906 [sighs] 303 00:19:16,990 --> 00:19:18,491 [cane thumps] 304 00:19:18,575 --> 00:19:21,202 [water sloshes] 305 00:19:21,286 --> 00:19:22,787 [sighs] 306 00:19:24,539 --> 00:19:27,375 I did some of my physical therapy in a pool. 307 00:19:29,043 --> 00:19:30,503 Nine months ago, 308 00:19:30,587 --> 00:19:32,922 the car swerved coming around a bend 309 00:19:33,006 --> 00:19:36,634 and hit the rock barrier and the car flipped. 310 00:19:36,718 --> 00:19:39,971 Not that it really even matters. 311 00:19:49,606 --> 00:19:51,357 When I look at that, 312 00:19:51,441 --> 00:19:54,193 it reminds me 313 00:19:54,277 --> 00:19:58,907 that people are just the ashes of dead stars. 314 00:20:00,575 --> 00:20:03,953 We’re just a collection of atoms that... 315 00:20:04,037 --> 00:20:06,581 come together for a brief period of time, 316 00:20:06,664 --> 00:20:10,251 and then... we fall apart. 317 00:20:13,463 --> 00:20:16,507 When all of this is over, 318 00:20:16,591 --> 00:20:20,929 and we’re dispersed back into nothingness... 319 00:20:21,012 --> 00:20:23,014 we have a clean slate. 320 00:20:24,682 --> 00:20:27,143 It’s like having all of your sins wiped away. 321 00:20:28,269 --> 00:20:30,980 Sure you don’t want to write for the paper? 322 00:20:35,068 --> 00:20:37,737 What sins do you need wiped away? 323 00:21:12,605 --> 00:21:14,565 [Grace] I used to be a vandal. 324 00:21:15,733 --> 00:21:16,776 [Henry] You did this? 325 00:21:17,986 --> 00:21:19,821 When I was 14. 326 00:21:21,864 --> 00:21:23,908 What is that, like, Latin? 327 00:21:25,535 --> 00:21:27,870 What’s it mean? [inhales deeply] 328 00:21:30,373 --> 00:21:34,043 I’m tired. I’m gonna... head home. 329 00:21:34,127 --> 00:21:35,378 [sniffs] Uh... 330 00:21:38,006 --> 00:21:39,173 Do you want me to... 331 00:21:39,257 --> 00:21:41,801 Can you find your way back? 332 00:21:41,884 --> 00:21:44,554 Yeah. Uh... 333 00:21:44,637 --> 00:21:46,389 But are you all right? Yeah, fine. 334 00:21:46,472 --> 00:21:49,100 Uh, thanks for hanging out. 335 00:21:49,892 --> 00:21:51,394 Um... 336 00:21:52,687 --> 00:21:55,148 Yeah, sure. Anytime. 337 00:21:56,607 --> 00:21:58,234 [panting sharply] 338 00:21:58,317 --> 00:22:01,070 ["Heart Skipped a Beat" by The xx playing] 339 00:22:01,154 --> 00:22:02,238 [sighs] 340 00:22:07,452 --> 00:22:08,953 [vase breaks] 341 00:22:14,751 --> 00:22:18,087 ♪ Please don’t say we’re done When I’m not finished ♪ 342 00:22:18,171 --> 00:22:21,382 ♪ ’Cause I could give So much more ♪ 343 00:22:22,633 --> 00:22:26,429 ♪ Make you feel Like never before ♪ 344 00:22:26,512 --> 00:22:29,557 ♪ Welcome, they said Welcome to the floor ♪ 345 00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:31,726 ♪ It’s been a while And you’ve found... ♪ 346 00:22:31,809 --> 00:22:33,144 Why are you still up? 347 00:22:33,227 --> 00:22:36,105 Um, just working on this. 348 00:22:39,025 --> 00:22:41,652 Is that the one Mom and Dad got you on your birthday? 349 00:22:41,736 --> 00:22:43,863 Mm-hmm. 350 00:22:43,946 --> 00:22:46,407 Don’t-- hey. It’s still drying. 351 00:22:46,491 --> 00:22:47,909 Touchy, touchy, Henry. 352 00:22:47,992 --> 00:22:49,952 ♪ Sometimes I still Need you ♪ 353 00:22:50,036 --> 00:22:51,788 ♪ Sometimes I still need you ♪ 354 00:22:51,871 --> 00:22:53,331 ♪ Sometimes I still Need you... ♪ 355 00:22:53,414 --> 00:22:57,710 It is an odd hobby for a 17-year-old boy. 356 00:22:57,794 --> 00:23:00,630 ♪ Sometimes I still need you ♪ 357 00:23:09,013 --> 00:23:11,349 Did you know that, uh, heartbreak triggers 358 00:23:11,432 --> 00:23:14,519 the same areas of the brain as physical pain? 359 00:23:19,857 --> 00:23:22,485 When I think about him leaving me, 360 00:23:22,568 --> 00:23:26,948 my brain sends a distress signal to my nervous system. 361 00:23:27,031 --> 00:23:28,282 [sobs quietly] 362 00:23:28,366 --> 00:23:31,869 And it elevates my blood pressure and my heart rate, 363 00:23:31,953 --> 00:23:33,663 giving me chest pains. 364 00:23:33,746 --> 00:23:36,833 [sobs] Okay. 365 00:23:36,916 --> 00:23:38,751 ♪ And I was struggling To get in... ♪ 366 00:23:38,835 --> 00:23:39,961 [sobs] 367 00:23:40,044 --> 00:23:41,754 It’s happening right now. 368 00:23:41,838 --> 00:23:44,298 [sobs] Do you want me to go get Mom? 369 00:23:44,382 --> 00:23:45,675 Oh, God, no, please. 370 00:23:45,758 --> 00:23:47,468 [sniffling] Jesus. 371 00:23:47,552 --> 00:23:48,719 [groans] 372 00:23:53,391 --> 00:23:55,601 [sobbing] 373 00:24:03,609 --> 00:24:06,612 [students talking faintly, voices echoing] 374 00:24:08,197 --> 00:24:09,615 [teacher] Henry. Um... 375 00:24:09,699 --> 00:24:10,992 What’s next? Yeah. 376 00:24:11,075 --> 00:24:12,952 Um, uh, okay. 377 00:24:13,035 --> 00:24:16,539 Um, I was thinking we all could kind of just put out 378 00:24:16,622 --> 00:24:18,791 a few ideas of themes for the final issue. 379 00:24:18,875 --> 00:24:20,251 No time like the present. 380 00:24:20,334 --> 00:24:24,130 How about a trippy Alice in Wonderland theme? 381 00:24:24,213 --> 00:24:26,132 You know, like, we all dropped acid 382 00:24:26,215 --> 00:24:27,884 and went down the rabbit hole. 383 00:24:27,967 --> 00:24:30,219 Now, that’s tight. I could work with that. 384 00:24:30,303 --> 00:24:31,846 [exhales sharply] 385 00:24:31,929 --> 00:24:32,930 Grace? 386 00:24:34,891 --> 00:24:35,892 What? 387 00:24:35,975 --> 00:24:37,476 [teacher] Any ideas? 388 00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:38,811 I don’t know. 389 00:24:38,895 --> 00:24:40,563 [teacher] None? 390 00:24:40,646 --> 00:24:42,648 Yeah, that’s what "I don’t know" means. 391 00:24:45,151 --> 00:24:46,903 Can I go to the bathroom? I have to pee. 392 00:24:46,986 --> 00:24:48,988 Of course. 393 00:24:51,908 --> 00:24:53,576 [La] Just ask her what’s going on. 394 00:24:53,659 --> 00:24:54,994 No, I don’t know. 395 00:24:55,077 --> 00:24:57,622 I feel like I don’t know her like that yet. 396 00:24:57,705 --> 00:24:59,707 I don’t know. You should follow her. 397 00:25:01,042 --> 00:25:02,251 What? Yeah. 398 00:25:02,335 --> 00:25:04,253 Don’t you want to see where she goes? 399 00:25:04,337 --> 00:25:06,839 [chuckles] Oh. What if she’s hanging out with her boyfriend? 400 00:25:06,923 --> 00:25:09,050 [stifled laugh] 401 00:25:10,468 --> 00:25:11,719 [laughs] Oh, no. 402 00:25:11,802 --> 00:25:13,387 I’m not gonna stalk her. 403 00:25:21,812 --> 00:25:24,065 -[insects trilling] -[birds chirping] 404 00:26:30,631 --> 00:26:32,091 [quietly] Maybe I was looking for you. 405 00:26:32,174 --> 00:26:35,511 Clearly, I wasn’t going to see you. 406 00:26:35,594 --> 00:26:37,972 It just felt strange, 407 00:26:38,055 --> 00:26:41,350 wanting to tell you... [echoes, fades] 408 00:26:43,602 --> 00:26:45,229 [footsteps through grass] 409 00:26:56,282 --> 00:26:57,533 [typing] 410 00:27:41,077 --> 00:27:43,829 -[phone clicks] -[sighs] 411 00:27:43,913 --> 00:27:46,082 [Henry] Would you be down to talk over maybe 412 00:27:46,165 --> 00:27:49,001 some theme ideas or something? Whatever you pick is fine. 413 00:27:50,836 --> 00:27:51,962 Okay. 414 00:27:54,006 --> 00:27:57,635 Should we just, like... I just run my final selections by you then, or-- 415 00:27:57,718 --> 00:27:59,678 I mean, it really doesn’t matter to me. 416 00:27:59,762 --> 00:28:01,639 I just got a new feature in from Jade, 417 00:28:01,722 --> 00:28:03,474 so I was just gonna edit that. 418 00:28:05,935 --> 00:28:07,269 [quietly] Oh. 419 00:28:08,062 --> 00:28:10,731 [birds chirping] 420 00:28:10,815 --> 00:28:11,857 [phone chimes] 421 00:28:18,906 --> 00:28:20,658 [sighs quietly] 422 00:28:20,741 --> 00:28:22,159 [phone clicks] 423 00:28:22,243 --> 00:28:26,414 I’d like to match those, but instead I will match this. 424 00:28:26,497 --> 00:28:28,124 Hey, Dad, can I use the car? 425 00:28:28,207 --> 00:28:30,334 Uh, sure, sure. Where to? 426 00:28:31,544 --> 00:28:33,379 Um... [laughs] 427 00:28:33,462 --> 00:28:34,880 I don’t know. Nowhere, really. 428 00:28:34,964 --> 00:28:37,216 So, where are you going? 429 00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,510 It’s not a cross-examination. [laughs] 430 00:28:39,593 --> 00:28:41,720 I mean, it feels like that. 431 00:28:41,804 --> 00:28:44,140 Well, you’re asking us to lend you our car, 432 00:28:44,223 --> 00:28:46,142 and we’re asking a simple question in return. 433 00:28:46,225 --> 00:28:49,645 Okay, um, I’m just-- I don’t know. I’m just gonna go to Muz’s. 434 00:28:49,728 --> 00:28:51,939 Now can I have the keys? You’re not even using it. 435 00:28:52,940 --> 00:28:54,525 You’re entitled to your privacy. 436 00:28:54,608 --> 00:28:57,236 If you don’t want us to know something, say so. 437 00:28:57,319 --> 00:28:59,196 But don’t insult us with a lie. 438 00:28:59,280 --> 00:29:01,657 It’s beneath you. 439 00:29:01,740 --> 00:29:03,325 Just-- You can Uber. 440 00:29:03,409 --> 00:29:05,411 What? I can’t Uber. I don’t have a credit card. 441 00:29:05,494 --> 00:29:07,955 Well, then you’re gonna have to walk. 442 00:29:08,038 --> 00:29:10,541 [sighing] 443 00:29:18,215 --> 00:29:20,509 [lights buzzing] 444 00:29:23,512 --> 00:29:25,764 [Grace panting sharply] 445 00:29:30,019 --> 00:29:31,729 [grunts] 446 00:29:31,812 --> 00:29:33,939 [panting] 447 00:29:44,617 --> 00:29:45,951 [grunts] 448 00:29:51,790 --> 00:29:53,584 [grunts] 449 00:29:53,667 --> 00:29:56,003 Fuck! [shouts] 450 00:30:01,926 --> 00:30:04,136 [sobbing quietly] 451 00:30:08,474 --> 00:30:09,892 [panting] 452 00:30:09,975 --> 00:30:13,062 [sobbing echoes] 453 00:30:13,145 --> 00:30:15,272 [groaning] 454 00:30:20,194 --> 00:30:21,445 [phone clicks] 455 00:30:21,529 --> 00:30:23,489 [typing] 456 00:30:40,381 --> 00:30:42,675 [typing] 457 00:30:45,678 --> 00:30:46,679 [phone clicks] 458 00:30:46,762 --> 00:30:48,264 [sighs] 459 00:30:50,683 --> 00:30:52,768 [murmuring] 460 00:30:55,980 --> 00:30:57,690 Hi. Hey. What’s up? 461 00:30:57,773 --> 00:30:59,525 So, I couldn’t sleep last night, 462 00:30:59,608 --> 00:31:01,735 so I was searching through Mrs. Klein’s syllabus, 463 00:31:01,819 --> 00:31:06,198 and I noticed a very interesting trend. 464 00:31:09,118 --> 00:31:10,619 Uh... 465 00:31:13,247 --> 00:31:14,373 Look at them. Okay. 466 00:31:16,041 --> 00:31:18,919 [Henry] Um, yeah. 467 00:31:19,003 --> 00:31:21,589 They’re, um, all about young people? 468 00:31:21,672 --> 00:31:24,049 [Grace] And they all involve suicide. 469 00:31:24,133 --> 00:31:26,468 Romeo and Juliet off themselves. 470 00:31:26,552 --> 00:31:27,761 Werther shoots himself. 471 00:31:27,845 --> 00:31:29,597 Holden contemplates suicide. 472 00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,516 Conrad tries to kill himself by slashing his wrists. 473 00:31:34,226 --> 00:31:36,520 This is what you were up thinking about last night? 474 00:31:36,604 --> 00:31:37,896 Yeah. 475 00:31:39,690 --> 00:31:41,567 Is that normal? Oh, Jesus. 476 00:31:41,650 --> 00:31:43,861 What? Well, I... [sighs] 477 00:31:43,944 --> 00:31:45,237 You... 478 00:31:46,447 --> 00:31:49,950 You, uh, like, seemed down this week, 479 00:31:50,034 --> 00:31:52,661 so that’s a little scary, I guess. Okay. 480 00:31:54,788 --> 00:31:56,373 How do I explain this? 481 00:31:56,457 --> 00:31:58,917 Um... okay. 482 00:31:59,001 --> 00:32:02,838 Think about what it means to be a teenager. Okay? 483 00:32:02,921 --> 00:32:05,716 Your parents pressure you to succeed. 484 00:32:05,799 --> 00:32:09,678 Your friends pressure you to do shit you don’t want to do. 485 00:32:09,762 --> 00:32:11,805 Social media pressures you to hate your body. 486 00:32:11,889 --> 00:32:16,352 It’s hard, even if you’re a well-adjusted kid from a good family. 487 00:32:16,435 --> 00:32:17,686 Okay. 488 00:32:17,770 --> 00:32:20,773 So, now imagine you can’t be with the person that you love, 489 00:32:20,856 --> 00:32:23,150 like Romeo and Juliet or Werther, 490 00:32:23,233 --> 00:32:25,152 or you lose the person that you love, 491 00:32:25,235 --> 00:32:27,154 like Holden or Conrad. 492 00:32:27,237 --> 00:32:29,990 There’s a reason why, when every author, 493 00:32:30,074 --> 00:32:33,202 from Shakespeare to Salinger, writes about young people, 494 00:32:33,285 --> 00:32:37,039 they can’t avoid the truth, that... 495 00:32:37,122 --> 00:32:40,334 being young is so painful, 496 00:32:40,417 --> 00:32:44,630 it’s almost, like, too much to feel. 497 00:32:45,839 --> 00:32:47,716 Yeah, are you, like... 498 00:32:49,468 --> 00:32:50,678 suicidal or... 499 00:32:50,761 --> 00:32:52,846 No. God. I mean... 500 00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:55,891 Look, I’m not gonna kill myself. 501 00:32:55,974 --> 00:33:01,271 But have I thought about what it would be like to just not be here anymore? 502 00:33:01,355 --> 00:33:02,606 Yeah. 503 00:33:02,690 --> 00:33:06,318 And I don’t say that casually, but I do say it 504 00:33:06,402 --> 00:33:11,407 because hiding that shit and not saying it makes it worse. 505 00:33:11,490 --> 00:33:12,533 It should be talked about. 506 00:33:12,616 --> 00:33:14,618 All of our shit should be talked about. 507 00:33:14,702 --> 00:33:15,786 Mmm. 508 00:33:17,162 --> 00:33:20,999 The teenage years are... limbo. 509 00:33:21,083 --> 00:33:25,045 You’re somewhere between being a kid and an adult, 510 00:33:25,129 --> 00:33:28,465 and the world, uh, tells you to be mature 511 00:33:28,549 --> 00:33:30,718 and express yourself, but the minute that you do, 512 00:33:30,801 --> 00:33:32,052 it tells you to shut up. 513 00:33:33,554 --> 00:33:37,433 The thing is, adults are just scarred kids who were lucky enough 514 00:33:37,516 --> 00:33:40,102 to make it out of limbo alive. 515 00:33:40,185 --> 00:33:41,520 Which is why... 516 00:33:43,188 --> 00:33:47,776 the theme of our last issue should be "Teenage Limbo." 517 00:33:51,113 --> 00:33:52,531 [quietly] Yeah. 518 00:33:54,491 --> 00:33:57,369 -[mouse clicking] -[La] Henry’s sister is studying to become a neurosurgeon, 519 00:33:57,453 --> 00:34:01,290 and she explained that the teenage brain goes through an upgrade 520 00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:05,002 before it matures to an adult brain. 521 00:34:05,085 --> 00:34:10,424 So, the upgrade is like an explosion of connections and synapses 522 00:34:10,507 --> 00:34:11,842 as we figure out what’s right. 523 00:34:11,925 --> 00:34:13,802 [gasps] 524 00:34:13,886 --> 00:34:15,053 Or wrong. [sighs] 525 00:34:15,137 --> 00:34:17,055 What we like, what we don’t like. 526 00:34:17,139 --> 00:34:19,183 You know, who we want to be. 527 00:34:19,266 --> 00:34:21,185 -[mouse clicking] -Each page of the issue 528 00:34:21,268 --> 00:34:25,314 is the brain refining itself, figuring itself out, 529 00:34:25,397 --> 00:34:29,693 until eventually it’s out of limbo. 530 00:34:29,777 --> 00:34:31,737 So dope. 531 00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:34,490 [quietly] Yeah. Dope. 532 00:34:34,573 --> 00:34:36,784 [claps] All right. Sweet. 533 00:34:36,867 --> 00:34:41,997 Um... so I think we could kind of just 534 00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:46,084 start a-- kind of a discussion, like what are we confused about, 535 00:34:46,168 --> 00:34:48,670 what, uh, maybe scares us. 536 00:34:48,754 --> 00:34:52,132 Um, like, are there things maybe 537 00:34:52,216 --> 00:34:54,176 you keep inside that you’re afraid to... 538 00:34:55,302 --> 00:34:56,595 Um... 539 00:34:58,514 --> 00:35:00,349 Do you have something? 540 00:35:02,100 --> 00:35:03,519 Um... 541 00:35:05,229 --> 00:35:08,482 Well, yeah, I mean, I do, but I was gonna... 542 00:35:08,565 --> 00:35:11,735 I think I was gonna write it, uh, which... 543 00:35:11,819 --> 00:35:13,153 Hmm. 544 00:35:14,530 --> 00:35:17,199 [Henry smacks lips] Um... 545 00:35:19,159 --> 00:35:20,661 [chuckles] 546 00:35:23,580 --> 00:35:26,583 Uh, when Mike Johnson killed himself a couple years ago, 547 00:35:26,667 --> 00:35:27,751 um... 548 00:35:28,919 --> 00:35:31,755 I realized that I still had, um, this... 549 00:35:33,257 --> 00:35:36,009 Hustler magazine that he gave me when we were, like, 13 550 00:35:36,093 --> 00:35:38,929 that, uh, he stole from his dad’s collection. 551 00:35:39,012 --> 00:35:40,430 And, um... 552 00:35:43,809 --> 00:35:44,977 [laughs] I don’t know. 553 00:35:45,060 --> 00:35:47,646 I feel really stupid admitting this, 554 00:35:47,729 --> 00:35:51,400 but, um, kind of freaked me out. 555 00:35:51,483 --> 00:35:54,486 Like, I couldn’t really sleep at night 556 00:35:54,570 --> 00:35:57,573 with this magazine in my drawer. 557 00:35:57,656 --> 00:36:01,368 Um, like it was just kind of... 558 00:36:01,451 --> 00:36:04,037 like, haunted or something. 559 00:36:04,121 --> 00:36:05,581 Um... 560 00:36:07,499 --> 00:36:11,670 And basically, it just was kind of too important to throw away, 561 00:36:11,753 --> 00:36:13,547 but it was also too weird to keep, 562 00:36:13,630 --> 00:36:19,428 so I went to the tree by the art park, 563 00:36:19,511 --> 00:36:24,474 one where he, uh, hung himself, 564 00:36:24,558 --> 00:36:29,730 and I, um, just buried it there. 565 00:36:32,774 --> 00:36:34,359 And, um... 566 00:36:36,403 --> 00:36:38,322 Yeah. Um... 567 00:36:39,823 --> 00:36:42,284 I don’t know. It was weird, ’cause for the first time, 568 00:36:42,367 --> 00:36:45,412 I was old enough to understand the gravity of death, 569 00:36:45,495 --> 00:36:49,750 but I was also, um, you know, young enough 570 00:36:49,833 --> 00:36:53,837 that it all came down to just a stupid, like, porn magazine. 571 00:36:59,885 --> 00:37:02,137 [sighs] 572 00:37:02,220 --> 00:37:03,847 [Grace] I’m proud of you for sharing that. 573 00:37:03,931 --> 00:37:06,683 It must have been hard for you. 574 00:37:06,767 --> 00:37:08,393 Thanks. 575 00:37:08,477 --> 00:37:09,978 Hey, why’d you give up writing? 576 00:37:10,062 --> 00:37:12,230 You’ve obviously got a lot of ideas. 577 00:37:13,565 --> 00:37:18,111 Somebody really important to me... died. 578 00:37:19,404 --> 00:37:20,697 And, um... 579 00:37:22,032 --> 00:37:25,285 and I was asked to write something, to say something, 580 00:37:25,369 --> 00:37:29,623 like a eulogy, because everyone knew that I was the writer, 581 00:37:29,706 --> 00:37:34,086 and, you know, told me how beautiful my words were, but... 582 00:37:37,547 --> 00:37:41,677 Nothing came. I just couldn’t find the words. 583 00:37:44,096 --> 00:37:45,347 [chuckles] 584 00:37:46,598 --> 00:37:48,600 What? 585 00:37:48,684 --> 00:37:50,936 Uh, oh, no, it’s just funny. 586 00:37:51,019 --> 00:37:54,314 Um, ’cause, you know, I can’t find the words when I talk, 587 00:37:54,398 --> 00:37:57,484 and you can’t find the words when you write. 588 00:37:57,567 --> 00:38:00,195 That just made me laugh. 589 00:38:00,278 --> 00:38:02,447 [laughs] You know what I mean? 590 00:38:02,531 --> 00:38:04,866 ["Where’s My Love" by SYML playing] 591 00:38:04,950 --> 00:38:07,119 ♪ Cold bones ♪ 592 00:38:08,161 --> 00:38:09,579 ♪ Yeah, that’s my love... ♪ 593 00:38:11,581 --> 00:38:15,293 [laughs] Thank you, anyways. Yeah, yeah. I feel like it’s... 594 00:38:15,377 --> 00:38:18,296 [laughs] You don’t have to drink it. It’s not that I don’t want it. 595 00:38:18,380 --> 00:38:20,298 Yeah, sure... Yeah. 596 00:38:20,382 --> 00:38:22,259 ♪ Ooh, does she know ♪ 597 00:38:22,342 --> 00:38:25,178 ♪ That we bleed the same... ♪ 598 00:38:25,262 --> 00:38:27,180 [Henry] You want to see a movie this weekend? 599 00:38:27,264 --> 00:38:29,141 [Grace] I don’t think I can. 600 00:38:29,224 --> 00:38:30,559 ♪ Ooh... ♪ 601 00:38:30,642 --> 00:38:32,019 [Henry] You got other plans? 602 00:38:32,102 --> 00:38:35,105 [Grace] No, I just have a ton of stuff to do. 603 00:38:35,188 --> 00:38:37,274 [bird calling in distance] 604 00:38:37,357 --> 00:38:39,026 [Henry] So, you used to run track? 605 00:38:39,109 --> 00:38:41,278 [Grace] Yeah, I was a sprinter. 606 00:38:41,361 --> 00:38:44,614 [Henry] Oh, what else did you do in your previous life? 607 00:38:44,698 --> 00:38:46,033 [Grace] Oh, God. [sighs] 608 00:38:46,116 --> 00:38:50,370 Lit magazine, yearbook staff, student government... 609 00:38:50,454 --> 00:38:52,372 [chuckles] beer pong champion. 610 00:38:55,125 --> 00:38:58,587 [Henry] Um, first football game is Friday night, if you want to go. 611 00:38:58,670 --> 00:39:00,255 Not that I care, but it’s fun. 612 00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:02,883 We usually pregame, and everyone goes. 613 00:39:02,966 --> 00:39:05,385 [Grace] That sounds fun, but I can’t. 614 00:39:05,469 --> 00:39:06,803 Another time though. 615 00:39:08,847 --> 00:39:11,558 What would you say is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done? 616 00:39:11,641 --> 00:39:13,518 [Henry] Um, probably when I put my finger 617 00:39:13,602 --> 00:39:15,729 in an electric pencil sharpener in first grade. 618 00:39:15,812 --> 00:39:18,231 It didn’t go, um, super well. 619 00:39:18,315 --> 00:39:21,109 [Grace laughs] What did you think was gonna happen? 620 00:39:21,193 --> 00:39:23,403 [Henry] I guess I thought it would trim my fingernail. 621 00:39:23,487 --> 00:39:24,988 ♪ In the night ♪ 622 00:39:25,072 --> 00:39:26,907 [laughs] 623 00:39:26,990 --> 00:39:31,078 ♪ Ooh, does she know That we bleed the same? ♪ 624 00:39:34,414 --> 00:39:35,582 ♪ Ooh... ♪ 625 00:39:35,665 --> 00:39:37,501 [Grace] I used to be good at socializing. 626 00:39:37,584 --> 00:39:39,628 I mean, I used to do it all the time. 627 00:39:39,711 --> 00:39:41,129 [Henry] What changed? 628 00:39:41,213 --> 00:39:44,132 [Grace] I guess I stopped seeing the point. 629 00:39:44,216 --> 00:39:48,136 Sometimes it’s just easier to slip into your own dark abyss 630 00:39:48,220 --> 00:39:50,555 and forget the world exists. 631 00:39:50,639 --> 00:39:52,224 ♪ Did she run away... ♪ 632 00:39:52,307 --> 00:39:54,309 [Henry] Yeah, I see her in you sometimes, 633 00:39:54,392 --> 00:39:58,605 like, these, um, flashes of this girl that you used to be. 634 00:39:58,688 --> 00:40:01,858 Um, but was she an act and you’re more yourself now, 635 00:40:01,942 --> 00:40:04,027 or is the Grace that I know an act 636 00:40:04,111 --> 00:40:06,947 until you feel comfortable being yourself again? 637 00:40:08,573 --> 00:40:10,867 [Grace] I don’t know. People change. 638 00:40:10,951 --> 00:40:14,955 There’s no way you’re the same person you were when you were 14. 639 00:40:15,038 --> 00:40:17,582 [singers vocalizing] 640 00:40:24,840 --> 00:40:26,633 [song fades] 641 00:40:26,716 --> 00:40:28,510 Hey, um... 642 00:40:30,137 --> 00:40:31,138 What? 643 00:40:33,598 --> 00:40:37,102 All right, so Heslin is having his annual Halloween party tomorrow night. 644 00:40:37,185 --> 00:40:39,229 And it doesn’t have to be a big thing. 645 00:40:39,312 --> 00:40:41,189 Doesn’t have to be a date or whatever. 646 00:40:41,273 --> 00:40:42,816 No, that’s not why. 647 00:40:42,899 --> 00:40:44,317 I think it could... That’s not why. 648 00:40:44,401 --> 00:40:47,779 ...maybe be, um, just fun. 649 00:40:47,863 --> 00:40:50,615 It’d be good to-- good for you, 650 00:40:50,699 --> 00:40:55,537 kind of get back to doing old Grace things. Um... 651 00:40:55,620 --> 00:41:01,376 Oh, is the new Grace not good enough for you or... 652 00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:04,629 No. No, no. That’s not what I meant. 653 00:41:04,713 --> 00:41:07,257 Um, no. I think, um... 654 00:41:07,340 --> 00:41:09,634 Hey, hey. 655 00:41:09,718 --> 00:41:11,469 Let’s go. 656 00:41:14,097 --> 00:41:16,308 -Yeah? -Yeah. 657 00:41:26,610 --> 00:41:28,111 Your keys. [keys clink] 658 00:41:29,613 --> 00:41:30,906 Can I come in? 659 00:41:33,742 --> 00:41:35,243 You don’t have to go somewhere? 660 00:41:36,411 --> 00:41:41,249 No, I’m not going to where I go today, so... 661 00:41:44,169 --> 00:41:45,378 Okay, yeah. No, totally. Yeah? 662 00:41:45,462 --> 00:41:47,589 Yeah, come in. [chuckles] 663 00:41:52,385 --> 00:41:53,720 Give me two. [door opens] 664 00:41:53,803 --> 00:41:57,015 I’ll take three. But you get three first. Here. 665 00:41:57,098 --> 00:41:58,600 Hey, guys. What’s up? Hey, Henry. 666 00:41:58,683 --> 00:42:00,101 Hey. [door closes] 667 00:42:00,185 --> 00:42:02,103 Join us, bud. Uh, can’t right now. 668 00:42:02,187 --> 00:42:04,105 But this is Grace. 669 00:42:06,608 --> 00:42:08,318 [all] Hi! 670 00:42:08,401 --> 00:42:09,986 Oh. It’s Grace! 671 00:42:10,070 --> 00:42:11,529 -Yeah. -Yeah. You actually came in. 672 00:42:11,613 --> 00:42:13,198 We’ve only seen your car up until now. 673 00:42:13,281 --> 00:42:14,282 [chuckles] 674 00:42:24,334 --> 00:42:27,212 Just gonna pick up this stuff here. 675 00:42:43,270 --> 00:42:45,355 [sighs heavily] 676 00:42:46,898 --> 00:42:48,275 -[music begins loudly] -[grunts] 677 00:42:48,358 --> 00:42:49,693 [volume decreases] 678 00:42:49,776 --> 00:42:52,279 ["Die 4 You" by Perfume Genius playing over speakers] 679 00:42:54,823 --> 00:42:57,909 ♪ Oh, my love... ♪ 680 00:42:57,993 --> 00:42:59,452 [Grace] How did this break? 681 00:43:01,329 --> 00:43:02,872 Oh, um... 682 00:43:02,956 --> 00:43:05,166 I broke that, actually. 683 00:43:06,126 --> 00:43:08,044 Uh, it’s called Kintsukuroi. 684 00:43:08,128 --> 00:43:11,298 It’s kind of this old-school Japanese art form 685 00:43:11,381 --> 00:43:14,301 where you mend back broken pottery with seams of gold. 686 00:43:18,638 --> 00:43:20,557 ♪ Oh, my love ♪ 687 00:43:24,352 --> 00:43:26,771 ♪ Take your time ♪ 688 00:43:28,898 --> 00:43:29,899 [sighs] 689 00:43:29,983 --> 00:43:32,986 ♪ See it through ♪ 690 00:43:38,533 --> 00:43:39,534 [sighs] 691 00:43:41,578 --> 00:43:42,912 [song fades] 692 00:43:42,996 --> 00:43:46,207 ["Take Care" by Beach House playing over speakers] 693 00:43:52,380 --> 00:43:55,508 ♪ I’d take care of you... ♪ 694 00:43:55,592 --> 00:43:58,053 Wait, uh, is this... 695 00:43:59,763 --> 00:44:02,307 Oh, it’s the song that you like to play in your car. 696 00:44:05,477 --> 00:44:06,478 Are you okay? 697 00:44:06,561 --> 00:44:09,230 ♪ In a year or two... ♪ 698 00:44:09,314 --> 00:44:11,483 Why are you-- why are you playing this? 699 00:44:11,566 --> 00:44:13,902 I mean, I don’t know. I like it. I... 700 00:44:13,985 --> 00:44:16,237 Kind of reminds me of us, I guess. 701 00:44:16,321 --> 00:44:18,448 [stammers] 702 00:44:31,544 --> 00:44:33,004 Hey. Hey. 703 00:44:33,088 --> 00:44:34,798 I’m sorry I played that. I didn’t know. 704 00:44:34,881 --> 00:44:36,424 I thought... [stammers] I don’t know. 705 00:44:36,508 --> 00:44:38,718 We listen to it all the time in the car together. 706 00:44:38,802 --> 00:44:40,762 Okay, but it’s not our song, okay? 707 00:44:40,845 --> 00:44:42,347 Okay. It’s not for you and me. 708 00:44:42,430 --> 00:44:44,224 Okay. Who’s it for? What is it? 709 00:44:44,307 --> 00:44:46,434 [sniffles] Dom. 710 00:44:46,518 --> 00:44:49,062 [sobbing] He was my boyfriend. 711 00:44:49,145 --> 00:44:52,941 He was driving the car, and I fucked up my knee, but he... 712 00:44:53,024 --> 00:44:56,277 Oh. I’m sorry. I didn’t... 713 00:44:56,361 --> 00:44:59,114 [panting] 714 00:44:59,197 --> 00:45:01,199 I understand if you don’t want to, like-- 715 00:45:01,282 --> 00:45:03,076 if you don’t want to do anything with me-- 716 00:45:11,835 --> 00:45:13,503 [sobbing] 717 00:45:18,466 --> 00:45:19,843 Hey. 718 00:45:19,926 --> 00:45:21,845 Can you let me drive you home? No, please. 719 00:45:21,928 --> 00:45:23,555 Please stop, Henry. Why? 720 00:45:23,638 --> 00:45:25,932 Because I’m fucked up, okay? Come on. What’s wrong? 721 00:45:26,015 --> 00:45:28,226 Can I drive you home? Yes. No. Please. 722 00:45:28,309 --> 00:45:30,019 Please? Come on. Why? No. 723 00:45:30,103 --> 00:45:31,980 I’m messed up. It’s okay. I don’t care. 724 00:45:32,063 --> 00:45:34,107 No, it’s not! 725 00:45:34,190 --> 00:45:37,819 It’s not when you realize that I’m not one of your fucking vases, okay? 726 00:45:46,411 --> 00:45:48,830 [electricity crackling, whooshing] 727 00:45:59,174 --> 00:46:01,759 [chattering, muted] 728 00:46:08,600 --> 00:46:10,351 [Henry] You guys think this needs to be here? 729 00:46:10,435 --> 00:46:11,686 -[La] No. -[Henry] You’re right. 730 00:46:11,769 --> 00:46:13,313 I don’t feel like we needed it anyway. 731 00:46:13,396 --> 00:46:14,898 It doesn’t make sense. Seriously? 732 00:46:14,981 --> 00:46:18,026 Hey, guys. Are you going to Heslin’s tonight? 733 00:46:18,109 --> 00:46:20,111 Yeah. Maybe. 734 00:46:20,195 --> 00:46:22,155 We might come through. Cool. 735 00:46:22,238 --> 00:46:23,948 Well, I hope you do. 736 00:46:24,032 --> 00:46:25,033 Hmm. 737 00:46:28,369 --> 00:46:30,121 What time is Elks picking us up? 738 00:46:31,122 --> 00:46:33,541 Um, I do not know. I’m not going, so... 739 00:46:33,625 --> 00:46:36,336 No. No, no, no. [chuckles] No, we’re going. 740 00:46:36,419 --> 00:46:39,547 A little beautiful creature, who might be a part of the fairy kingdom like myself, 741 00:46:39,631 --> 00:46:42,091 just invited me to her magical, enchanted forest. 742 00:46:42,175 --> 00:46:45,178 And I’m gonna take this opportunity to fly. 743 00:46:45,261 --> 00:46:46,804 Meh. 744 00:46:46,888 --> 00:46:48,848 "Meh" yourself. 745 00:46:48,932 --> 00:46:50,975 Don’t dip out ’cause of that chick. 746 00:46:51,059 --> 00:46:52,060 What? 747 00:46:52,143 --> 00:46:54,646 I need you there for moral support. 748 00:46:54,729 --> 00:46:57,357 No, it’s not ’cause of her. I’m not feeling well, that’s all. 749 00:46:57,440 --> 00:46:59,859 Oh, my God. Wow. 750 00:46:59,943 --> 00:47:02,237 Elks has Kush. 751 00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:04,489 [sighs] 752 00:47:04,572 --> 00:47:06,533 What kind of Kush? 753 00:47:06,616 --> 00:47:08,868 -[dance music playing loudly] -[chattering] 754 00:47:16,584 --> 00:47:19,212 Take it easy, bro. Easy in, easy out. 755 00:47:19,295 --> 00:47:21,548 It’s a marathon, not a sprint. 756 00:47:21,631 --> 00:47:23,049 [coughs] 757 00:47:23,132 --> 00:47:25,260 Yeah, I know. [shudders] 758 00:47:25,343 --> 00:47:27,428 Hey. What’s up? 759 00:47:27,512 --> 00:47:30,723 She’s already talking to someone else. 760 00:47:30,807 --> 00:47:35,019 Man, I knew I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up. Man, she’s just playing me. 761 00:47:35,103 --> 00:47:36,854 Go. [shudders] 762 00:47:36,938 --> 00:47:39,065 Go. Go. I need to ease into it, bro. 763 00:47:39,148 --> 00:47:40,149 Why? 764 00:47:40,233 --> 00:47:41,985 [girl, singsongy] Henry Page. 765 00:47:42,068 --> 00:47:44,988 I cannot. I can’t. [chuckles] 766 00:47:45,071 --> 00:47:46,406 Bye, Henry. 767 00:47:46,489 --> 00:47:48,533 [girl] ...comes sprinting in, his hands are over his face, 768 00:47:48,616 --> 00:47:51,286 and he just pukes. He just pukes everywhere. 769 00:47:51,369 --> 00:47:52,537 No one knew what to do. 770 00:47:52,620 --> 00:47:54,414 It was between this tiny little crevice 771 00:47:54,497 --> 00:47:55,832 between the wall and the fridge-- 772 00:47:55,915 --> 00:47:57,875 I’m just gonna get some water. What? 773 00:47:57,959 --> 00:47:59,419 I’m just gonna get some water. 774 00:47:59,502 --> 00:48:01,462 Are you okay? Yeah, I’m good. 775 00:48:01,546 --> 00:48:03,715 [dance music continues] 776 00:48:22,609 --> 00:48:24,861 -[dance music playing] -[chattering] 777 00:48:46,966 --> 00:48:48,343 Got you this. 778 00:48:48,426 --> 00:48:50,428 Thank you. Yeah. 779 00:48:52,764 --> 00:48:54,557 [chuckles softly] 780 00:48:54,641 --> 00:48:56,517 What? 781 00:48:57,727 --> 00:48:59,646 You look, um... 782 00:49:00,897 --> 00:49:02,398 Thotty? 783 00:49:02,482 --> 00:49:05,026 I was gonna say hot. 784 00:49:08,279 --> 00:49:10,907 Well, it’s my costume from last year. 785 00:49:13,534 --> 00:49:15,078 Are you doing okay? 786 00:49:17,163 --> 00:49:21,042 Yeah. In this moment, I’m... I’m okay. 787 00:49:23,127 --> 00:49:25,338 I think you’re the most confusing human being 788 00:49:25,421 --> 00:49:27,799 I’ve ever met. [chuckles] 789 00:49:27,882 --> 00:49:31,803 And I think I’m just the most confused human being 790 00:49:31,886 --> 00:49:34,514 you’ve ever met and that confuses you. 791 00:49:34,597 --> 00:49:36,432 [laughs] 792 00:49:36,516 --> 00:49:38,184 Yeah, well... 793 00:49:40,061 --> 00:49:43,189 I’m, uh, pretty trashed right now, 794 00:49:43,272 --> 00:49:46,567 so I guess I’m even more confused. [chuckles] 795 00:49:47,985 --> 00:49:50,071 [both chuckle] 796 00:49:51,364 --> 00:49:54,242 ["Piece Of Your Heart" by Meduza playing over speakers] 797 00:49:54,325 --> 00:49:57,578 ♪ I’m turning you up to getting Down, down, down... ♪ 798 00:49:57,662 --> 00:49:59,414 Hey, I’ve been looking for you. 799 00:49:59,497 --> 00:50:01,874 Oh, yeah? Yeah. 800 00:50:02,959 --> 00:50:05,211 Uh, so last year, I, uh... 801 00:50:05,294 --> 00:50:06,879 I get it. 802 00:50:06,963 --> 00:50:09,465 It was weird. 803 00:50:09,549 --> 00:50:11,592 We can just be friends. 804 00:50:12,844 --> 00:50:14,178 Cool. 805 00:50:17,473 --> 00:50:19,684 I hooked up with a lot of girls last summer. 806 00:50:19,767 --> 00:50:22,729 [scoffs] Okay. 807 00:50:22,812 --> 00:50:26,607 Yeah, uh, I was just really confused after we... 808 00:50:27,984 --> 00:50:29,068 you know. 809 00:50:29,152 --> 00:50:31,696 I know. I don’t know. 810 00:50:31,779 --> 00:50:34,824 I tried to, uh, figure that out, I guess. 811 00:50:34,907 --> 00:50:36,492 But... 812 00:50:36,576 --> 00:50:40,413 I realized that I didn’t feel anything for any of them. 813 00:50:40,496 --> 00:50:44,792 I don’t necessarily know how to, um, label myself, but... 814 00:50:46,753 --> 00:50:49,172 I know what I feel when you’re in front of me. 815 00:50:50,506 --> 00:50:53,259 It’s like, uh, we are-- 816 00:50:53,342 --> 00:50:56,053 or, uh, we be. 817 00:50:57,930 --> 00:51:00,433 Then let’s just be. 818 00:51:00,516 --> 00:51:02,393 ♪ And if it’s physical ♪ 819 00:51:02,477 --> 00:51:04,979 ♪ Keep it subliminal ♪ 820 00:51:05,062 --> 00:51:07,273 ♪ Show me what you want ♪ 821 00:51:07,356 --> 00:51:09,692 ♪ Show me a piece Of your heart ♪ 822 00:51:09,776 --> 00:51:11,652 ♪ A piece of your love ♪ 823 00:51:11,736 --> 00:51:15,448 ♪ I’m calling you up to getting Down, down, down... ♪ 824 00:51:15,531 --> 00:51:17,533 [song fades] 825 00:51:20,828 --> 00:51:22,955 ["Vulnerable" by Tinashe playing over speakers] 826 00:51:23,039 --> 00:51:25,541 ♪ These niggas ain’t nothing On you, baby ♪ 827 00:51:25,625 --> 00:51:26,959 ♪ You got it, got it ♪ 828 00:51:27,043 --> 00:51:31,380 ♪ The way you run shit And make it rain so well ♪ 829 00:51:31,464 --> 00:51:32,548 ♪ My Birkin bag... ♪ 830 00:51:32,632 --> 00:51:34,217 [laughs] Oh, no. 831 00:51:34,300 --> 00:51:35,718 I can’t dance. No. 832 00:51:35,802 --> 00:51:37,053 ♪ Oh, yeah ♪ 833 00:51:37,136 --> 00:51:38,679 ♪ These niggas ain’t ’Bout it, ’bout it ♪ 834 00:51:38,763 --> 00:51:41,641 ♪ These niggas ain’t nothing On you, baby ♪ 835 00:51:41,724 --> 00:51:43,059 ♪ You got it, got it ♪ 836 00:51:43,142 --> 00:51:47,313 ♪ The way you run shit And make it rain so well ♪ 837 00:51:47,396 --> 00:51:49,273 ♪ My Birkin bag My pinky ring ♪ 838 00:51:49,357 --> 00:51:51,609 ♪ Coattail ♪ 839 00:51:51,692 --> 00:51:53,653 ♪ Oh, yeah ♪ 840 00:51:53,736 --> 00:51:55,571 ♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ 841 00:51:55,655 --> 00:51:57,657 -♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ -♪ No, no ♪ 842 00:51:57,740 --> 00:51:59,951 ♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ 843 00:52:00,034 --> 00:52:01,661 -♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ -♪ Don’t ♪ 844 00:52:01,744 --> 00:52:03,162 ♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ 845 00:52:03,246 --> 00:52:05,706 -♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ -♪ Don’t ♪ 846 00:52:05,790 --> 00:52:07,667 ♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ 847 00:52:07,750 --> 00:52:09,794 -♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ -♪ Don’t ♪ 848 00:52:09,877 --> 00:52:11,546 ♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪ 849 00:52:11,629 --> 00:52:13,339 ♪ Don’t stop Looking at me ♪ 850 00:52:13,422 --> 00:52:14,423 ♪ Don’t stop... ♪ 851 00:52:14,507 --> 00:52:16,425 [panting] 852 00:52:24,684 --> 00:52:27,103 Wait, wait. Wait, wait, wait. Hold on. 853 00:53:05,975 --> 00:53:07,518 [sighs] 854 00:53:15,109 --> 00:53:17,236 I hope you don’t have high expectations... 855 00:53:18,779 --> 00:53:21,407 ’cause I’m probably pretty rusty. 856 00:53:23,326 --> 00:53:26,454 Well, I hope you don’t have high expectations either, 857 00:53:26,537 --> 00:53:29,957 ’cause I’ve never done this before. 858 00:53:32,335 --> 00:53:34,170 Do you have a condom? 859 00:53:34,253 --> 00:53:35,671 Yeah. Yeah. 860 00:53:36,589 --> 00:53:37,757 I should get it? Get it. 861 00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:39,133 Get it, okay. 862 00:54:01,447 --> 00:54:05,368 [Henry grunts, sighs] 863 00:54:06,744 --> 00:54:08,663 Oh. Oh, God. [laughs] 864 00:54:08,746 --> 00:54:10,915 Let me do it. Okay. 865 00:54:10,998 --> 00:54:12,750 I’m sorry. I laugh when I’m nervous. 866 00:54:12,833 --> 00:54:16,295 Do you want me to do it? Yeah. Sure. 867 00:54:18,881 --> 00:54:20,800 [grunts] 868 00:54:20,883 --> 00:54:22,969 [sighs] 869 00:54:26,681 --> 00:54:28,265 [both panting] 870 00:54:28,349 --> 00:54:30,851 [both grunt] 871 00:54:30,935 --> 00:54:33,104 [panting] 872 00:54:35,481 --> 00:54:37,692 Henry, Henry, Henry, Henry. Yeah? 873 00:54:39,026 --> 00:54:40,778 Don’t try to be good at it, okay? 874 00:54:40,861 --> 00:54:43,239 Just be here with me. 875 00:54:44,448 --> 00:54:45,658 [quietly] Okay. 876 00:54:47,284 --> 00:54:48,369 [light switch clicks] 877 00:54:50,371 --> 00:54:52,456 [birds chirping] 878 00:55:04,468 --> 00:55:05,803 [gasps] 879 00:55:13,352 --> 00:55:14,854 [sobbing] 880 00:55:19,025 --> 00:55:21,277 [birds chirping] 881 00:55:27,742 --> 00:55:29,869 [line ringing] 882 00:55:33,456 --> 00:55:35,624 -[Grace] Leave your message. -[beep] 883 00:55:35,708 --> 00:55:38,252 Um, hey, Grace. Um, just want to say hi, 884 00:55:38,335 --> 00:55:40,588 and that, um... 885 00:55:41,672 --> 00:55:43,424 you know, despite my lack of experience, 886 00:55:43,507 --> 00:55:46,302 um, hope that, uh, last night just kind of meant 887 00:55:46,385 --> 00:55:49,930 a tiny fraction to you as it meant to me. 888 00:55:50,014 --> 00:55:52,808 And, yeah, um... 889 00:55:52,892 --> 00:55:56,187 Then also, I promise if we ever get the chance to do it again, um-- 890 00:55:56,270 --> 00:55:57,730 [laughs] I mean, ’cause not that-- 891 00:55:57,813 --> 00:55:59,940 I’m not presumptuous enough to think that we will, 892 00:56:00,024 --> 00:56:02,401 but, like, if we do, then, uh, you know, 893 00:56:02,485 --> 00:56:03,986 I promise that it’ll be better. 894 00:56:04,070 --> 00:56:07,114 Uh, no, that I’ll be better. 895 00:56:07,198 --> 00:56:09,950 [chuckles] Um, ’cause, uh, you know, 896 00:56:10,034 --> 00:56:12,953 um, practice does make, uh, perfect. 897 00:56:13,037 --> 00:56:15,456 So, uh, yeah. 898 00:56:15,539 --> 00:56:16,832 Bye-bye. 899 00:56:17,958 --> 00:56:20,044 [sighs] Oh, fuck, that was dumb. 900 00:56:21,087 --> 00:56:23,339 [crickets chirping] 901 00:56:32,515 --> 00:56:34,767 [groaning] 902 00:56:37,311 --> 00:56:38,896 [phone chimes] 903 00:56:40,856 --> 00:56:42,149 [clicks] 904 00:56:51,075 --> 00:56:52,243 [text message swooshes] 905 00:56:59,416 --> 00:57:01,043 [typing] 906 00:57:08,092 --> 00:57:09,760 [sighs] 907 00:57:11,220 --> 00:57:14,765 ["A Great Design" by Black Marble playing over speakers] 908 00:57:14,849 --> 00:57:16,767 What? 909 00:57:16,851 --> 00:57:18,936 Surprise. How did this happen? 910 00:57:20,563 --> 00:57:22,356 It was just time. 911 00:57:23,774 --> 00:57:25,192 Shit. All right. 912 00:57:25,276 --> 00:57:27,653 Um, where are we going? 913 00:57:28,904 --> 00:57:30,322 You’ll see. 914 00:57:39,206 --> 00:57:43,169 ♪ Monochrome It’s a Saturn world ♪ 915 00:57:43,252 --> 00:57:46,672 ♪ Lying beneath the rings ♪ 916 00:57:46,755 --> 00:57:50,885 ♪ And they tell me We don’t have a long time ♪ 917 00:57:50,968 --> 00:57:53,179 ♪ Till our decline ♪ 918 00:57:57,224 --> 00:58:00,436 ♪ All the grown men Are set in their ways ♪ 919 00:58:00,519 --> 00:58:04,190 ♪ Shining in the street ♪ 920 00:58:04,273 --> 00:58:08,360 ♪ And they tell me We don’t have a long time ♪ 921 00:58:08,444 --> 00:58:10,863 ♪ A great design ♪ 922 00:58:13,866 --> 00:58:15,201 [song fades] 923 00:58:15,284 --> 00:58:17,286 [ship horn blowing in distance] 924 00:58:30,841 --> 00:58:32,384 [sighs] 925 00:58:34,470 --> 00:58:37,556 We used to come here all the time before he died. 926 00:58:40,100 --> 00:58:41,769 I loved this drive. 927 00:58:41,852 --> 00:58:44,271 I want to be able to love it again. 928 00:58:49,902 --> 00:58:52,863 I needed you here. 929 00:58:54,198 --> 00:58:56,116 I needed your support. 930 00:59:07,544 --> 00:59:08,921 Hold this. 931 00:59:20,057 --> 00:59:22,434 [Henry] Is this from the factory? 932 00:59:22,518 --> 00:59:24,436 What does it mean? 933 00:59:24,520 --> 00:59:26,897 [Grace] "Save me, and I will save you." 934 00:59:29,483 --> 00:59:31,110 That was us. 935 00:59:47,876 --> 00:59:49,795 I want to move on. 936 00:59:55,634 --> 00:59:58,762 ["We Stayed Up All Night" by Tourist feat. Ardyn playing] 937 01:00:04,768 --> 01:00:07,479 ♪ So let’s pretend ♪ 938 01:00:07,563 --> 01:00:09,064 ♪ That we have no weight... ♪ 939 01:00:09,148 --> 01:00:11,650 I’m telling you, Sharma... [laughs] 940 01:00:11,734 --> 01:00:14,153 ...dropped his glasses right into the toilet. 941 01:00:14,236 --> 01:00:16,196 He nearly flushed them down there. [laughter] 942 01:00:16,280 --> 01:00:19,033 But he fished them out, ’cause he got the same glasses on. 943 01:00:19,116 --> 01:00:21,535 ♪ We’re young, have time... ♪ 944 01:00:21,618 --> 01:00:23,370 No, I sw-- I... 945 01:00:24,663 --> 01:00:26,290 Can I join you guys? 946 01:00:26,373 --> 01:00:30,044 ♪ Out we run ♪ 947 01:00:33,297 --> 01:00:34,631 Okay. Okay, got it? 948 01:00:34,715 --> 01:00:36,467 Yeah, that was very helpful. Okay, good. 949 01:00:36,550 --> 01:00:37,926 Thank you. You’re welcome. 950 01:00:38,010 --> 01:00:40,304 [Sharma] Hey, with all the news that’s fit to print, 951 01:00:40,387 --> 01:00:41,680 your first issue! 952 01:00:41,764 --> 01:00:44,391 Congratulations! [cheering] 953 01:00:47,478 --> 01:00:48,771 Well... Hmm. Yeah. 954 01:00:49,772 --> 01:00:52,649 ♪ I won’t give it up tonight ♪ 955 01:00:52,733 --> 01:00:55,444 ♪ I won’t give it up Tonight ♪ 956 01:00:55,527 --> 01:00:58,072 ♪ I won’t give it up tonight ♪ 957 01:00:58,155 --> 01:01:01,825 ♪ I won’t give it up Tonight ♪ 958 01:01:01,909 --> 01:01:03,827 [song fades] 959 01:01:03,911 --> 01:01:06,038 [birds chirping] 960 01:01:08,791 --> 01:01:10,292 Stay here. 961 01:01:12,878 --> 01:01:15,464 Whose car is that? Stay here, Henry. 962 01:01:20,844 --> 01:01:22,554 [Grace] Aren’t you supposed to remember that? 963 01:01:22,638 --> 01:01:23,972 [woman] No, I don’t remember that! 964 01:01:24,056 --> 01:01:26,850 [Grace] I don’t want-- No, no. Go! Go! 965 01:01:26,934 --> 01:01:28,644 [woman sobs] 966 01:01:45,452 --> 01:01:47,746 [tires screeching] 967 01:01:52,501 --> 01:01:53,502 [door opens] 968 01:01:54,753 --> 01:01:55,796 Hey. 969 01:01:58,632 --> 01:02:00,050 That your mom? 970 01:02:01,343 --> 01:02:03,220 No. 971 01:02:03,303 --> 01:02:06,432 Yeah. It doesn’t... matter. 972 01:02:06,515 --> 01:02:08,434 You all right? 973 01:02:08,517 --> 01:02:10,144 I’m fine. Can we go? 974 01:02:19,153 --> 01:02:20,863 [brakes squeak] 975 01:02:20,946 --> 01:02:22,698 [both sigh] 976 01:02:26,076 --> 01:02:28,078 So do you live with your dad? 977 01:02:29,663 --> 01:02:31,081 [sighs] [chuckles] I mean, 978 01:02:31,165 --> 01:02:33,333 I just feel like I don’t know anything about your family. 979 01:02:33,417 --> 01:02:36,003 Well, yeah. Well, okay, you know enough. 980 01:02:38,255 --> 01:02:39,631 Something obviously just happened, 981 01:02:39,715 --> 01:02:41,467 so I don’t know how I’m supposed to help you-- 982 01:02:41,550 --> 01:02:42,843 You don’t. You don’t help me. 983 01:02:42,926 --> 01:02:44,928 I didn’t ask for your help, so stop trying to help me. 984 01:02:45,012 --> 01:02:46,930 Stop trying to fix me, all right? 985 01:03:03,280 --> 01:03:04,531 [Sharma] Oh, look at this. 986 01:03:04,615 --> 01:03:07,117 It’s a lollygagging convention in here. 987 01:03:07,201 --> 01:03:08,243 Let’s go, people. 988 01:03:08,327 --> 01:03:09,703 We have three more issues to plan. 989 01:03:09,786 --> 01:03:12,080 I’d love to see a little focus, please. 990 01:03:12,164 --> 01:03:14,833 Henry, where’s your partner in crime? 991 01:03:15,834 --> 01:03:17,544 I don’t know. 992 01:03:17,628 --> 01:03:18,962 She sick? 993 01:03:20,589 --> 01:03:21,924 I don’t know. 994 01:03:23,008 --> 01:03:25,260 Today’s the anniversary of her accident. 995 01:03:25,344 --> 01:03:28,222 Oh, dear. I, um... I didn’t know that. 996 01:03:29,640 --> 01:03:33,477 Yeah. East River had a candlelight vigil for her boyfriend. 997 01:03:33,560 --> 01:03:34,561 [line ringing] 998 01:03:34,645 --> 01:03:36,230 -[chattering] -[line continues ringing] 999 01:03:36,313 --> 01:03:38,398 Does she drive? Does she have her license? 1000 01:03:38,482 --> 01:03:40,567 Should we be... [continues indistinctly] 1001 01:03:40,651 --> 01:03:42,903 You’re probably right about that. 1002 01:03:44,029 --> 01:03:45,948 -[Grace] Leave your message. -[beep] 1003 01:03:46,031 --> 01:03:47,616 I would think so. Would you? 1004 01:03:47,699 --> 01:03:48,575 Yeah. [sighs] 1005 01:03:48,659 --> 01:03:49,868 I don’t know. Muck around. 1006 01:03:49,952 --> 01:03:51,578 Muck around a little more. Muck. 1007 01:03:51,662 --> 01:03:53,705 What? Stop it. No. Ow. 1008 01:03:53,789 --> 01:03:55,958 Stop. Muck around. 1009 01:03:58,544 --> 01:04:00,379 Hankard. Hankard. Yo, where you going? 1010 01:04:11,014 --> 01:04:13,100 [panting] 1011 01:04:18,480 --> 01:04:21,024 [thunder rumbling] 1012 01:04:21,942 --> 01:04:23,110 [door opens] 1013 01:04:26,238 --> 01:04:28,407 Henry? 1014 01:04:28,490 --> 01:04:29,491 That you? 1015 01:04:29,575 --> 01:04:31,451 Yeah. 1016 01:04:31,535 --> 01:04:32,995 Come on in. 1017 01:04:33,078 --> 01:04:35,330 [thunder rumbling] 1018 01:04:36,707 --> 01:04:39,209 I must have fallen asleep in front of the tube. 1019 01:04:41,128 --> 01:04:43,088 I’m Martin, by the way. 1020 01:04:43,171 --> 01:04:44,548 [sportscast playing on TV] 1021 01:04:44,631 --> 01:04:45,799 Oh. 1022 01:04:47,259 --> 01:04:49,428 This is my wife Sarah. 1023 01:04:49,511 --> 01:04:51,346 Hi. [Henry] Hello. 1024 01:04:52,264 --> 01:04:55,100 [groans, coughs] 1025 01:04:55,183 --> 01:04:58,103 Grace has talked a lot about you. 1026 01:04:58,186 --> 01:04:59,730 Says you’ve been a good friend. 1027 01:04:59,813 --> 01:05:03,025 Yeah, I just wanted to make sure that she was okay, 1028 01:05:03,108 --> 01:05:04,818 ’cause I didn’t talk to her today. 1029 01:05:04,901 --> 01:05:06,695 Um, and, you know, 1030 01:05:06,778 --> 01:05:09,823 given what day it is, I... I, uh... 1031 01:05:11,283 --> 01:05:15,454 Well, she should be home pretty soon. 1032 01:05:15,537 --> 01:05:17,497 You can wait upstairs if you want. 1033 01:05:19,541 --> 01:05:22,961 Um, well, thank you. It was good meeting you guys. 1034 01:05:23,045 --> 01:05:25,255 [Martin] Yeah. Nice meeting you, Henry. Yeah. 1035 01:06:29,444 --> 01:06:31,029 [Grace] So now you know. 1036 01:06:35,617 --> 01:06:38,662 Do you live here? [sniffles] Yeah. 1037 01:06:40,747 --> 01:06:44,751 I moved in a month before the accident to get away from my mom. 1038 01:06:44,835 --> 01:06:49,423 She was drinking a lot, and she was in really bad shape. 1039 01:06:49,506 --> 01:06:50,924 But you’re still here. 1040 01:06:51,007 --> 01:06:55,262 Where else was I supposed to go, my mom’s boyfriend’s couch? 1041 01:06:55,345 --> 01:06:56,555 [sniffles] 1042 01:06:56,638 --> 01:06:58,724 [sighs] 1043 01:07:02,310 --> 01:07:03,854 You went back for that? 1044 01:07:03,937 --> 01:07:05,480 [sniffles] 1045 01:07:10,652 --> 01:07:12,863 [panting] 1046 01:07:16,658 --> 01:07:18,076 Do you even wash his clothes? 1047 01:07:18,160 --> 01:07:20,620 ’Cause you wear his clothes, right? 1048 01:07:21,913 --> 01:07:23,874 I’m doing the best that I can. 1049 01:07:23,957 --> 01:07:26,752 You’re doing the best you can, but you’re living in his fucking room? 1050 01:07:28,295 --> 01:07:30,297 We grew up together. 1051 01:07:31,548 --> 01:07:34,176 He was... he was my family. 1052 01:07:34,259 --> 01:07:36,178 [stammers] 1053 01:07:36,261 --> 01:07:38,263 I’m not asking you to let him go. 1054 01:07:39,639 --> 01:07:42,434 I’m giving you all that I can. 1055 01:07:42,517 --> 01:07:46,104 And this... confusion and this craziness 1056 01:07:46,188 --> 01:07:47,397 is what that looks like. 1057 01:07:47,481 --> 01:07:51,067 And you can’t handle it, but I never expected you to. 1058 01:07:52,194 --> 01:07:54,780 What else could I possibly give you? 1059 01:07:55,864 --> 01:07:57,365 What else can you give me? 1060 01:07:57,449 --> 01:07:59,701 Are you fucking... 1061 01:07:59,785 --> 01:08:01,578 Oh, this is crazy. This is crazy. 1062 01:08:01,661 --> 01:08:03,121 Just stop. No, you stop! 1063 01:08:03,205 --> 01:08:04,706 Stop leading me on! I just-- 1064 01:08:04,790 --> 01:08:07,167 I didn’t start dating you out of nowhere or something. 1065 01:08:09,294 --> 01:08:10,796 I told you to leave me alone. 1066 01:08:10,879 --> 01:08:12,964 Yeah, but then you told me not to. 1067 01:08:14,591 --> 01:08:15,759 Well, because I don’t know. 1068 01:08:15,842 --> 01:08:16,843 Because I don’t know. 1069 01:08:16,927 --> 01:08:17,928 I know. I don’t know. 1070 01:08:18,011 --> 01:08:19,137 I’m confused, Henry. 1071 01:08:19,221 --> 01:08:20,847 I don’t know. I know! 1072 01:08:20,931 --> 01:08:24,434 I’ve known since, like, the very beginning that I love you. 1073 01:08:26,770 --> 01:08:29,356 I can’t pretend to be better because that’s what you want. 1074 01:08:29,439 --> 01:08:31,775 You said you wanted to get better. I do. 1075 01:08:34,361 --> 01:08:36,154 I’m not ready yet. I’m not-- 1076 01:08:36,238 --> 01:08:37,614 I do, but I’m not ready yet. 1077 01:08:37,697 --> 01:08:38,990 Well, I... 1078 01:08:40,951 --> 01:08:43,078 I don’t care. All right? 1079 01:08:44,496 --> 01:08:45,997 Yes, you do. I... No, I don’t. 1080 01:08:46,081 --> 01:08:47,666 I don’t care. 1081 01:08:47,749 --> 01:08:50,377 Seriously, I want you exactly the way you are. 1082 01:08:52,963 --> 01:08:55,590 But you just got to let me in and talk to me. 1083 01:08:57,342 --> 01:08:58,760 I love you. 1084 01:09:11,606 --> 01:09:14,025 -[thunder rumbling] -[rain continues] 1085 01:09:25,370 --> 01:09:27,455 Why do you kiss me like that? 1086 01:09:30,041 --> 01:09:31,418 Like what? 1087 01:09:34,921 --> 01:09:37,007 Like you’re in love with me. 1088 01:09:40,802 --> 01:09:43,221 It’s the only way I know how. 1089 01:10:07,329 --> 01:10:09,414 [crickets chirping] 1090 01:10:32,062 --> 01:10:34,606 -[door opens, slams] -[TV playing quietly] 1091 01:10:34,689 --> 01:10:36,274 [mother] Plate’s for you in the oven, toots. 1092 01:10:36,358 --> 01:10:38,401 -[father] Henry? -What? 1093 01:10:40,195 --> 01:10:42,614 What’s wrong? [sighs] Nothing. 1094 01:10:43,782 --> 01:10:45,784 What’s wrong? Nothing. 1095 01:10:45,867 --> 01:10:47,494 Come here. Come on. 1096 01:10:47,577 --> 01:10:50,997 We just want to know what’s going on. 1097 01:10:51,081 --> 01:10:52,540 Is it Grace? 1098 01:10:52,624 --> 01:10:54,626 It’s just regular shit that regular people go through 1099 01:10:54,709 --> 01:10:56,002 that you are not gonna understand. 1100 01:10:56,086 --> 01:10:58,213 Oh, come on. We’re not regular people? 1101 01:11:00,966 --> 01:11:03,510 No. No. Are you fucking kidding me? 1102 01:11:03,593 --> 01:11:05,804 Your relationship’s been perfect since you were my age. 1103 01:11:09,224 --> 01:11:10,725 I got this. No, no, no, no, no. 1104 01:11:10,809 --> 01:11:12,268 We should go. Mom. 1105 01:11:12,352 --> 01:11:14,771 He’s right. You don’t understand. 1106 01:11:14,854 --> 01:11:16,231 I got it. 1107 01:11:30,578 --> 01:11:32,539 Did you guys break up? Yeah. 1108 01:11:34,040 --> 01:11:37,043 I mean, I don’t even know if we were actually together. 1109 01:11:37,127 --> 01:11:38,837 Maybe it’s just a bump in the road. 1110 01:11:38,920 --> 01:11:40,880 No, she doesn’t want me. 1111 01:11:40,964 --> 01:11:42,465 What happened? 1112 01:11:43,717 --> 01:11:47,262 [sniffles] She’s in love with someone else. 1113 01:11:47,345 --> 01:11:49,139 Oh, shit. 1114 01:11:56,021 --> 01:11:57,272 [quietly] Okay. 1115 01:12:00,734 --> 01:12:03,194 [sighs] You want the good news or the bad news? 1116 01:12:03,278 --> 01:12:04,279 Neither. 1117 01:12:04,362 --> 01:12:07,699 Well, the bad news is it’s gonna hurt. 1118 01:12:07,782 --> 01:12:10,285 Your brain has gotten used to a steady stream 1119 01:12:10,368 --> 01:12:12,954 of dopamine and oxytocin. Here we go again. 1120 01:12:13,038 --> 01:12:15,373 Yeah, I know. I’m sorry, but that’s what causes 1121 01:12:15,457 --> 01:12:18,209 all those blissed-out feelings of love. 1122 01:12:18,293 --> 01:12:21,796 And now it’s replaced with stress hormones. 1123 01:12:21,880 --> 01:12:24,007 They’re gonna make you feel like garbage. 1124 01:12:24,090 --> 01:12:28,053 Headaches, tight muscles, tight chest. 1125 01:12:28,136 --> 01:12:31,097 Your body’s craving those feel-good chemicals. 1126 01:12:32,557 --> 01:12:34,225 It’s basically withdrawal. 1127 01:12:34,309 --> 01:12:36,019 Oh, awesome. 1128 01:12:36,102 --> 01:12:38,521 Yeah. Yeah. 1129 01:12:43,151 --> 01:12:47,614 Yesterday was the first day I didn’t think about him. 1130 01:12:50,533 --> 01:12:54,204 And tomorrow I’m going on my first date. 1131 01:13:01,419 --> 01:13:03,755 Henry. Hmm? 1132 01:13:05,548 --> 01:13:09,719 Love-- it’s a chemical reaction that comes and goes. 1133 01:13:10,804 --> 01:13:15,183 Here’s the good news: so is heartbreak. 1134 01:13:15,266 --> 01:13:17,185 Your brain adjusts. 1135 01:13:17,268 --> 01:13:20,647 Your body chemistry changes back to normal. 1136 01:13:23,441 --> 01:13:24,984 It’s all a waste of time. 1137 01:13:25,068 --> 01:13:27,237 [quietly] Oh, no. 1138 01:13:29,114 --> 01:13:30,406 Hey. 1139 01:13:32,700 --> 01:13:35,453 Would you take it all back if you could? 1140 01:13:39,040 --> 01:13:40,542 You can’t. 1141 01:13:42,544 --> 01:13:44,546 She’s a part of you now. 1142 01:13:46,047 --> 01:13:48,091 [crickets chirping] 1143 01:14:20,123 --> 01:14:21,124 [lighter clicks] 1144 01:14:36,097 --> 01:14:38,641 [night birds chirping] 1145 01:14:43,646 --> 01:14:44,647 [both] Are you trying to... 1146 01:14:44,731 --> 01:14:46,774 Are you gonna copy me this whole time? Okay. 1147 01:14:46,858 --> 01:14:50,320 [Cora] No, but I actually have a real question. Wait. 1148 01:14:50,403 --> 01:14:51,946 You can’t do that. What’s over there? 1149 01:14:52,030 --> 01:14:53,031 [chuckles] I did it. 1150 01:14:53,114 --> 01:14:54,490 [laughs] I did it. 1151 01:14:55,783 --> 01:14:57,535 [La] Where you going? 1152 01:14:57,619 --> 01:14:59,454 Um... I don’t know. 1153 01:14:59,537 --> 01:15:01,623 Just don’t want to watch this. 1154 01:15:02,916 --> 01:15:04,542 Wow. 1155 01:15:04,626 --> 01:15:06,920 You just can’t be happy for anybody else. Boo. 1156 01:15:07,003 --> 01:15:08,880 Don’t even-- don’t do that. [laughs] 1157 01:15:08,963 --> 01:15:10,131 Don’t do that. 1158 01:15:18,056 --> 01:15:19,140 [phone chimes] 1159 01:15:23,061 --> 01:15:24,062 [phone clicks] 1160 01:15:39,869 --> 01:15:40,870 Whoa. 1161 01:15:43,998 --> 01:15:45,250 -[man] Watch it! -[horn honks] 1162 01:15:45,333 --> 01:15:47,877 Oh! [girl] Whoa, did you see that? 1163 01:15:59,722 --> 01:16:01,975 [water dripping] 1164 01:16:04,435 --> 01:16:07,272 [Grace sobbing] 1165 01:16:07,355 --> 01:16:08,356 Grace? 1166 01:16:14,445 --> 01:16:16,155 [panting] Are you okay? I need to-- 1167 01:16:16,239 --> 01:16:18,199 -I need to tell you. -What? What do you need? 1168 01:16:18,283 --> 01:16:19,284 I need to tell you. 1169 01:16:19,367 --> 01:16:22,036 -What? -I need to say it, Dom. 1170 01:16:22,120 --> 01:16:23,204 I need to say it, Dom. 1171 01:16:23,288 --> 01:16:24,414 [sobbing] Okay, say it. 1172 01:16:24,497 --> 01:16:25,957 It should have been me. 1173 01:16:26,040 --> 01:16:28,167 It should have been me. [sobbing] 1174 01:16:28,251 --> 01:16:29,585 It should have been me. 1175 01:16:29,669 --> 01:16:31,629 No. No. It should have been me. 1176 01:16:31,713 --> 01:16:33,423 Yes, you fucking asshole! 1177 01:16:33,506 --> 01:16:35,258 It was my fault! 1178 01:16:35,341 --> 01:16:36,801 No, it wasn’t, Grace. Yes, it was. 1179 01:16:36,884 --> 01:16:39,512 -No, it wasn’t. -You told me to stop teasing you. 1180 01:16:39,595 --> 01:16:40,596 You told me. 1181 01:16:40,680 --> 01:16:43,266 [sobbing] You told me, and I didn’t listen. 1182 01:16:43,349 --> 01:16:45,268 I didn’t listen. It’s okay. 1183 01:16:45,351 --> 01:16:46,936 I just wanted to make you laugh. 1184 01:16:47,020 --> 01:16:49,480 -It’s okay. It’s okay. -But you told me to stop. 1185 01:16:49,564 --> 01:16:51,232 Oh, I’m sorry. It’s all right. 1186 01:16:51,316 --> 01:16:53,943 I’m sorry. I’m sorry! 1187 01:16:54,027 --> 01:16:55,778 It’s okay. It’s okay. 1188 01:16:55,862 --> 01:16:58,114 [sobbing] 1189 01:16:58,197 --> 01:16:59,824 It’s okay. 1190 01:17:01,617 --> 01:17:03,703 [sobbing continues] 1191 01:17:08,207 --> 01:17:10,376 [panting] 1192 01:17:24,140 --> 01:17:25,808 [sobs] 1193 01:17:29,312 --> 01:17:30,813 [sniffles] 1194 01:17:34,650 --> 01:17:38,404 I felt him swerve. 1195 01:17:40,323 --> 01:17:42,408 And I knew, in that fraction of a second, 1196 01:17:42,492 --> 01:17:44,327 that we were gonna crash. 1197 01:17:48,915 --> 01:17:53,002 And my last thought before it happened was, "Shit." 1198 01:17:56,756 --> 01:18:01,177 The last thought I was about to have in my entire life was, "Shit." 1199 01:18:07,475 --> 01:18:08,851 I didn’t think about Dom. 1200 01:18:08,935 --> 01:18:11,604 I didn’t even think about him. 1201 01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:12,897 [sobs] 1202 01:18:14,941 --> 01:18:17,902 Does that make me a bad person, Henry? 1203 01:18:19,779 --> 01:18:22,532 No. [sobs] 1204 01:18:22,615 --> 01:18:24,033 Makes you a person. 1205 01:18:26,911 --> 01:18:29,414 I wonder what he was thinking about. 1206 01:18:30,540 --> 01:18:33,126 I wonder what his last thought was. 1207 01:18:36,921 --> 01:18:39,257 He was thinking about you, Grace. 1208 01:18:41,551 --> 01:18:42,844 Guarantee it. 1209 01:18:47,390 --> 01:18:48,891 [sniffles] 1210 01:18:54,021 --> 01:18:56,107 [water continues dripping] 1211 01:19:04,782 --> 01:19:06,993 [cane thumping] 1212 01:19:46,199 --> 01:19:47,575 [sniffles] 1213 01:20:19,315 --> 01:20:20,733 [sniffles] 1214 01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:39,919 I was gonna marry him in that dress. 1215 01:21:11,117 --> 01:21:13,536 [electricity crackling, whooshing] 1216 01:21:24,505 --> 01:21:26,632 [gearshift clicks] [engine idling] 1217 01:21:30,636 --> 01:21:32,930 No, you keep it. It’s cold out. 1218 01:22:15,348 --> 01:22:17,933 [students chattering] 1219 01:22:18,017 --> 01:22:19,477 [Sharma] Quick announcement, everyone. 1220 01:22:19,560 --> 01:22:21,812 If I might have everyone’s attention for a moment, please. 1221 01:22:21,896 --> 01:22:23,939 -[chattering stops] -Thank you. 1222 01:22:24,023 --> 01:22:27,818 So, I wanted to let you know that Grace Town has decided 1223 01:22:27,902 --> 01:22:29,403 to take some time off from school 1224 01:22:29,487 --> 01:22:31,405 to deal with some personal issues. 1225 01:22:31,489 --> 01:22:35,618 And, um, when she returns, she’d prefer to focus on her studies 1226 01:22:35,701 --> 01:22:37,536 rather than the newspaper. 1227 01:22:37,620 --> 01:22:39,246 I’m sure we’ll all miss her very much, 1228 01:22:39,330 --> 01:22:40,706 but, uh, it does sound like 1229 01:22:40,790 --> 01:22:43,542 this is the best decision for her at this time. 1230 01:22:43,626 --> 01:22:45,711 I know this news might come as a disappointment, 1231 01:22:45,795 --> 01:22:48,214 but I want you to know that I have the utmost faith 1232 01:22:48,297 --> 01:22:49,423 in this group of people 1233 01:22:49,507 --> 01:22:52,385 [echoing, fading] to produce three stellar issues. 1234 01:22:58,265 --> 01:23:00,434 [birds chirping] 1235 01:23:01,852 --> 01:23:04,021 -[electricity crackling] -[Henry] When you’re a teenager, 1236 01:23:04,105 --> 01:23:07,108 the chemicals in your brain drive you to make decisions 1237 01:23:07,191 --> 01:23:09,985 that rip you away from the safety of your childhood 1238 01:23:10,069 --> 01:23:13,280 and drag you into the wilderness of adulthood. 1239 01:23:14,573 --> 01:23:17,034 A friend once told me that adults are just 1240 01:23:17,118 --> 01:23:18,953 scarred kids who were lucky enough 1241 01:23:19,036 --> 01:23:21,664 to make it out of teenage limbo alive. 1242 01:23:22,623 --> 01:23:24,458 I urge you to go outside 1243 01:23:24,542 --> 01:23:27,211 and look at the world through that prism. 1244 01:23:27,294 --> 01:23:30,923 Look at your parents, your older siblings. 1245 01:23:31,006 --> 01:23:34,051 Look at strangers you pass on the street. 1246 01:23:34,135 --> 01:23:38,556 Look at them and imagine that, at one point in their lives, 1247 01:23:38,639 --> 01:23:40,808 they too walked these halls. 1248 01:23:40,891 --> 01:23:44,228 They too felt the unbearable loneliness, 1249 01:23:44,311 --> 01:23:47,106 the absolute unbearable powerlessness 1250 01:23:47,189 --> 01:23:50,651 and darkness of being young. 1251 01:23:50,735 --> 01:23:52,361 Number two! 1252 01:23:52,445 --> 01:23:54,613 [students cheering] 1253 01:23:54,697 --> 01:23:55,865 This is three. 1254 01:23:55,948 --> 01:23:58,451 [students cheering] 1255 01:23:58,534 --> 01:24:03,038 [Henry] We tend to think of scars as ugly or imperfect... 1256 01:24:06,834 --> 01:24:09,837 as things we want to hide or forget. 1257 01:24:16,051 --> 01:24:17,887 But they never go away. 1258 01:24:23,768 --> 01:24:25,978 -[typing] -As I write this, 1259 01:24:26,061 --> 01:24:27,646 my last editorial... 1260 01:24:27,730 --> 01:24:30,149 [reading] 1261 01:24:33,819 --> 01:24:36,238 I finally understand 1262 01:24:36,322 --> 01:24:40,576 that scars are not reminders of what’s been broken, 1263 01:24:40,659 --> 01:24:44,288 but rather of what’s been created. 1264 01:24:45,831 --> 01:24:47,750 [school bell ringing] 1265 01:24:47,833 --> 01:24:49,752 [chattering] 1266 01:25:15,236 --> 01:25:17,988 Hey. Hey. 1267 01:25:18,072 --> 01:25:19,198 [quietly] Let’s... 1268 01:25:22,076 --> 01:25:24,662 Congratulations. 1269 01:25:24,745 --> 01:25:25,996 Yeah, you too. 1270 01:25:26,080 --> 01:25:27,873 Thank you. Yeah. 1271 01:25:30,209 --> 01:25:32,211 Where are you off to next year? 1272 01:25:32,294 --> 01:25:35,172 I’m gonna go to Bennington. 1273 01:25:35,256 --> 01:25:36,465 It’s a school in Vermont. 1274 01:25:36,549 --> 01:25:37,883 It’s good for writing. Nice. 1275 01:25:37,967 --> 01:25:38,968 What are you doing? 1276 01:25:39,051 --> 01:25:42,471 Uh, I’m taking a year off. 1277 01:25:43,931 --> 01:25:46,225 Just continuing therapy. 1278 01:25:47,601 --> 01:25:49,103 Oh. 1279 01:25:51,146 --> 01:25:53,858 Yeah, I was never gonna be ready until I was... 1280 01:25:55,150 --> 01:25:56,902 ready, you know? 1281 01:25:57,945 --> 01:25:58,988 Of course you know. 1282 01:25:59,071 --> 01:26:00,573 Yeah. 1283 01:26:01,907 --> 01:26:04,994 I have to go find my words again. 1284 01:26:05,077 --> 01:26:06,495 Yeah. 1285 01:26:08,455 --> 01:26:09,748 You will. 1286 01:26:15,296 --> 01:26:16,881 I just want to say... 1287 01:26:30,811 --> 01:26:35,482 you are an extraordinary collection of atoms, Henry Page. 1288 01:26:54,209 --> 01:26:57,755 [breathes deeply] 1289 01:27:37,461 --> 01:27:38,754 [sighs] 1290 01:27:38,837 --> 01:27:41,090 ["Take Care" by Beach House playing] 1291 01:27:57,856 --> 01:28:00,025 [laughter] 1292 01:28:00,109 --> 01:28:01,110 Hey, is that Hankard? 1293 01:28:01,193 --> 01:28:02,319 Hankard! Hankard! 1294 01:28:02,403 --> 01:28:04,029 Let’s go. 1295 01:28:04,113 --> 01:28:05,698 Um, I think I’m gonna walk. 1296 01:28:05,781 --> 01:28:07,282 Gonna walk? 1297 01:28:07,366 --> 01:28:09,034 Hey, whoa. 1298 01:28:09,118 --> 01:28:10,828 I’m gonna walk too. 1299 01:28:13,247 --> 01:28:19,920 ♪ Feel this burning Love of mine ♪ 1300 01:28:22,256 --> 01:28:25,426 ♪ It’s no good Unless it’s real... ♪ 1301 01:28:25,509 --> 01:28:28,637 It’s a long walk. Want some company? 1302 01:28:28,721 --> 01:28:30,055 Yeah, I do. 1303 01:28:30,139 --> 01:28:32,683 ♪ Wild-eyed turning ♪ 1304 01:28:32,766 --> 01:28:37,688 ♪ Till we’re running from it ♪ 1305 01:28:39,314 --> 01:28:43,902 ♪ I’d take care of you ♪ 1306 01:28:45,779 --> 01:28:50,284 ♪ If you’d ask me to ♪ 1307 01:28:52,327 --> 01:28:58,333 ♪ In a year or two ♪ 1308 01:28:59,960 --> 01:29:01,503 ♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪ 1309 01:29:29,740 --> 01:29:33,619 ♪ You say swimming in the lake ♪ 1310 01:29:33,702 --> 01:29:38,290 ♪ We’ll come across a snake ♪ 1311 01:29:40,334 --> 01:29:44,338 ♪ It is real And then it’s fake ♪ 1312 01:29:44,421 --> 01:29:47,549 ♪ Feel its heartbeat ♪ 1313 01:29:47,633 --> 01:29:50,803 ♪ Feel what you heat ♪ 1314 01:29:50,886 --> 01:29:57,267 ♪ Far so fast It feels too late ♪ 1315 01:29:57,351 --> 01:30:02,064 ♪ I’d take care of you ♪ 1316 01:30:03,899 --> 01:30:08,320 ♪ If you’d ask me to ♪ 1317 01:30:10,405 --> 01:30:16,411 ♪ In a year or two ♪ 1318 01:30:17,871 --> 01:30:19,623 ♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪ 1319 01:30:35,597 --> 01:30:40,269 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1320 01:30:40,352 --> 01:30:43,564 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1321 01:30:43,647 --> 01:30:46,191 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1322 01:30:48,527 --> 01:30:53,198 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1323 01:30:53,282 --> 01:30:56,493 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1324 01:30:56,577 --> 01:30:59,830 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1325 01:31:01,415 --> 01:31:06,170 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1326 01:31:06,253 --> 01:31:09,464 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1327 01:31:09,548 --> 01:31:13,093 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1328 01:31:14,469 --> 01:31:19,183 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1329 01:31:19,266 --> 01:31:22,477 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1330 01:31:22,561 --> 01:31:25,689 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1331 01:31:27,441 --> 01:31:32,154 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1332 01:31:32,237 --> 01:31:35,490 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1333 01:31:35,574 --> 01:31:38,702 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1334 01:31:40,495 --> 01:31:45,292 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1335 01:31:45,375 --> 01:31:48,503 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1336 01:31:48,587 --> 01:31:51,256 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1337 01:31:53,300 --> 01:31:58,222 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1338 01:31:58,305 --> 01:32:01,516 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1339 01:32:01,600 --> 01:32:04,478 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1340 01:32:06,480 --> 01:32:11,276 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1341 01:32:11,360 --> 01:32:14,529 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1342 01:32:14,613 --> 01:32:17,616 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1343 01:32:19,534 --> 01:32:24,289 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1344 01:32:24,373 --> 01:32:27,584 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1345 01:32:27,668 --> 01:32:30,837 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1346 01:32:32,339 --> 01:32:37,261 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1347 01:32:37,344 --> 01:32:40,555 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1348 01:32:40,639 --> 01:32:43,350 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1349 01:32:45,560 --> 01:32:50,274 ♪ I’ll take care of you ♪ 1350 01:32:50,357 --> 01:32:53,527 ♪ Take care of you ♪ 1351 01:32:53,610 --> 01:32:55,612 ♪ That’s true ♪ 1352 01:32:55,696 --> 01:32:57,948 [song fades]