Previously on This Is Us...
Our kid is 12 weeks early.
Two and a half pounds.
He's hooked up to all those IVs and machines.
We've actually... we've been thinking
about relocating... out to California.
You know, to be there for Kate, to help out with the baby.
Kevin, if having kids is something you need
to make your life complete, you have to tell me.
If I have to choose between a life with you
and a life with kids, it's no contest.
I choose you.
For the past 20 years I have stood by your side
through every flight of fancy,
and for the first time... the first time...
I have a flight of fancy,
and I am not going to give that up.
I am not going to bend.
It's time to go see her, Tess.
I'm not ready.
Oh, did you bring the Pin the Tail on the Donkey
from my office? Thank you.
I promised I'd bring it.
We're all going to see Randall's mother.
Hey, come on, girls, let's make breakfast.
There's my big, strong two-week-old.
Oh, you're doing so good, Jack.
So well, doing so well.
He's young and impressionable.
- Don't. - Good morning.
I brought some coffee.
- Thank you. - Thank you.
Yours is decaf, 'cause I didn't think that
little Jack should have any caffeine in his breast milk.
Well, the doctor said it's fine, as long as I time the caffeine
between feedings.
- Well, better safe than sorry. - Mm-hmm.
Did I show you this apartment
that Miguel is seeing for us today?
- Look at those Spanish tiles. - Yeah.
I think we're really gonna love living out here.
And we love that you're moving out here.
Do we really have to do it this way?
I mean, this just takes forever.
Yeah, but you actually get to taste the coffee this way.
Yeah. Here, try it.
Mmm... Oh, my gosh! It-it tastes like coffee.
- Shut up. You know it tastes better. - It does.
See, this is what I want right here, you know.
I mean, who could spend 20 minutes doing
pour-over coffee if there was a screaming baby in the house?
Right?
You want to talk about it some more?
No. No, I'm... look, I'm kidding.
I'm kidding.
Total ki... get over here. Come here.
I want to see if pour-over coffee breath
- is better than regular coffee breath. - Okay.
Oh, shoot.
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- Hey. - Hey, babe.
I came as soon as I could.
- Miguel's picking up the kids. - It's okay.
- I'm fine. - Mm.
My arm really hurts, though.
Mm, but they gave me stuff for it.
I'm on so many pain meds,
I feel really loopy.
- Hmm. - Okay.
Jack, I just looked down for one second
'cause Kate wanted peaches and the peaches fell out
- of the bag. - Hey, hey, it's okay.
Doesn't matter.
What did the doctor say?
Mm...
he said I broke my arm in two places.
Mm. My MRI looked good.
But he wants to keep me overnight
to, you know, monitor me
and just be extra cautious.
All right, little man.
Let's see if you can breathe on your own.
Come on, buddy, come on, buddy.
Come on.
He's doing it.
Yeah, blood oxygen levels are steady.
His lungs are functioning well without the ventilator.
What you are looking at is some top-notch breathing.
- Mm-hmm. - Oh, my God. I've never been
so proud of somebody for doing something so basic.
This is great.
This is great, this is exactly what
we want to see at 30 weeks developmentally.
Now, Jack is still very new at this,
which means that we all have to monitor him closely.
So let's go over how we do that.
Oh, hold on one second.
I just... want to...
peanuts from the plane...
I know it's in here somewhere.
I have a little notebook.
Here we go. Sorry, sorry.
I just don't want to forget anything.
All right, when it comes to Baby Jack's breathing,
it's all about minding our As and Bs.
"A" stands for apnea,
"B" stands for bradycardia.
And how do you spell that last word?
- Brady... - Mom?
Dr. Green could get called away at any second,
so I think that we should just
keep the questions and maybe the spell-check until the end.
- Okay. - All right.
Breathing doesn't come naturally to Jack just yet.
He needs to remember to do it, okay?
And sometimes he'll forget.
Now, when he does forget,
that's called apnea.
Which leads to bradycardia, or "bradying,"
or an extremely low heart rate.
- Jesus. - No, I know it sounds scary.
And when that happens, you're gonna hear
all sorts of beeping and alarms,
which can make it even scarier.
But there's actually a very simple solution
when that happens... just...
give him a little tap.
- Tap. - Okay? It startles him
just a little to remind him to breathe.
Will the nurses respond if he stops breathing, though?
Oh, yeah. Yeah,
- a nurse will be here immediately. - Okay.
- But if you're sitting here... - Mm-hmm.
...just go ahead and tap him yourself.
- Okay, and what about...? - Is it dangerous
for him if he starts to bray...
- Bradying. - Bradying. Brady.
No. No, not at all.
- Not if he's dealt with swiftly. - Hmm.
- Okay, so does it matter... - You know what?
I got to go, um...
but we will talk later. This is good.
This is very good.
I...
Siri,
how do you spell "bradycardia"?
- Hello? - Dad.
- Hey, Dad. - Hey, there's my Fab Four.
Hey, Dej, we should probably hit the road soon if we're gonna
make it to your debate tournament in Newark.
- Hi. - Hi.
Uh, I have back-to-back
beginner's ballet classes, so Zoe and Kevin
are gonna come watch the girls while I'm gone.
- Great. - Are you staying here tonight
when you get back?
Oh, I, um... maybe.
Just waiting for Jae-Won to tell me tomorrow's schedule.
Hey, Dej, I'm gonna go get your backpack.
Okay.
Did you know Deja joined the debate team?
It's news to me.
Yesterday was the first I'd heard of it.
Same.
Randall, the other night I-I said some things
- that I didn't... - No, we both did.
Do you think we can talk when Deja and I get back later?
Figure out how we're gonna make our way through this?
Yeah.
You remember, uh...
few months back when we finally did that escape room together?
Oh, that was a disaster.
Deja and Tess hated it, Annie got claustrophobic.
Yeah, but then... right before
all three girls went into full meltdown mode...
We found the door.
I'm not seeing the door here, Randall.
- Yeah. - I want to give her the flowers.
- You can give her the chocolates. - No, Kev.
Hey, guys. Hi.
- Come on, come on inside. - It looks worse
- than it is. - Come on.
- Thank you so much for picking them up. - Of course.
- Hey, bud. - Yeah. Let me know if you
- need anything else, okay? - Okay. Thanks, man.
I'll give you guys some privacy.
How are you guys?
Your face looks really messed up.
Kevin.
That's okay.
I bet it looks pretty messed up.
Hmm.
Nobody's given me a mirror,
which is probably for the best.
Mom, wh-why are you talking like that, all slow?
'Cause I'm on medicine, bud.
Makes my arm not hurt,
but it also makes me really sleepy.
It's okay.
Hey, guys, can you give me a second to talk
- to your dad alone, please? - Go, uh, go wait outside.
- Okay? - Okay.
- I love you guys.
- Go ahead. - Love you.
I love you.
Go ahead. I'll be right out.
Jack, you got to take them home.
They're really scared.
No, come on, I'm-I'm not gonna leave you here overnight.
I... it's one night.
Please.
Okay.
If that's what you want.
Mm-hmm. It is.
So... your first debate meet.
Hey, how'd you get interested in debate anyway?
I don't know.
Just happened, I guess.
Hmm.
When did you and Beth stop knowing
how to have a conversation with each other?
- What are you ta... - Randall.
Come on, I know what it's like to live in a house
where people are pissed off at each other all the time.
Do the other girls feel it, too?
Not Annie, she's too young,
but Tess,
she does for sure.
Hello, hello, hello?
Cool uncle and hot aunt in the hizzy!
- Who's home? Anybody? - Hi!
- Hello? - Hey.
- Hey! - Hey, guys. Thanks so much
for coming to hang out with the girls today.
- Anytime. It'll be fun, right? - I think so. Yeah.
You know, I haven't seen you since L.A. How have you been?
Uh, I'm good, really good. Thank you, yeah.
And wildly sober, so you have
- nothing to worry about... - That's great, Kev. That's so good.
Thank you, guys. Thank you, guys, so much.
- That was weird. - Yeah.
Uh, she typically has at least one really mean
- zinger for me. - Hey, guys, I need your help.
I have to pick an outfit for yearbook photos.
- Cool. - Oh, I am all over it.
- Okay. - Okay.
Can I come?
Well, this is clearly a two-person job, Annie.
You simply must come. Ah.
Have fun.
I can't decide between, like, five outfits.
Don't worry, I got you.
Aunt Zoe, I want to show you my new paints.
Do you think we would like living in Atwater Village?
Miguel found this place that has the cutest coffee shop
on the corner, and it's five minutes away from you guys.
I guess. And what about Santa Monica?
I know that you love the ocean.
Yeah, but isn't that, like, an hour away?
I mean, we're moving here to help you.
I want to be able to just... pop over.
Do you think he's warm enough?
- Yeah. - 'Cause, you know, I could ask for...
I think he's fine.
Okay.
They just haven't taken his temperature for a little bit,
and we're supposed to take his temperature regularly
when he's out of the Isolette,
- so... - Okay, I'll put him back.
I'm-I'm probably just being a little overcautious.
And you think I'm not being overly cautious?
No. That's not what I'm saying, sweetheart.
I just, I have in my notes
that we're suppo...
Nurse?
Nurse!
We need help over here!
Hey.
Hey. Hey.
There you go. It's okay.
He's okay. I tapped him.
He's fine, see?
- Everything okay? - Yeah.
He was bradying, and I tapped him
the way that Dr. Green told us to, and I think he's okay
'cause the alarm shut off.
- Yup, he's breathing just fine. - Yeah?
Way to go, Grandma.
No, I mean, I didn't really do anything.
I would have tapped him.
But I wanted to make sure the nurses were coming.
I know you would have done that, of course.
No, but when I hold him,
it regulates his breathing,
but I put him down because you were driving me crazy.
Um, I'm gonna just, uh...
I'm gonna head back to your house, and I'll, um,
take Audio to the dog park.
Mom and I were supposed to build an obstacle course for Hammy.
Well, Hammy looks tired. I don't, I don't think
he should be doing any obstacles, Kev.
Mom and I were supposed to watch Hook tonight.
Okay, well, you can... we can watch it tomorrow.
But it's due back to Blockbuster tomorrow.
Well, we'll just, we'll re-rent it, pal.
Blockbuster's not going anywhere.
Randall said she might have brain damage.
What?
Come on, guys, your mom, she doesn't have brain damage.
All right, here, clear-clear the table.
Dinner... is served.
Ew.
What is this?
Corn sandwiches.
I used to eat these all the time before I met your mom.
You're really lucky you met her.
Ha, ha, very funny.
Try one.
Go on, try it.
It's good, right?
And it's good for you, you know,
'cause corn.
We were supposed to have lasagna before Mom got run over.
She didn't get run over, Kev. She's fine.
Then why couldn't she come home?
Because they're just being extra cautious.
Cautious that she doesn't have brain damage?
- Kev, she doesn't have... - Do you even think Mom'll be
able to understand Hook when she gets home?
Yes, she will be able to understand Hook.
Now, all of you, eat your dinner.
- Hey, who wants ice cream? - Mm-hmm.
Yeah? Okay.
Tess? Yo. Hey. We're making brownies downstairs
if you want to... Oh, my God, what happened in here?
It's like a Forever 21 exploded.
I'm still trying to pick an outfit for yearbook photos.
I thought you and Zoe landed on something.
We did, but I hate it. I hate all my clothes.
Okay, well, why don't you tell your mom?
I'm sure she'll take you shopping.
She's too busy teaching all the time and fighting with my dad.
They fighting?
Not like yelling fighting,
but I can tell.
So I'm trying not to bother them with my stuff.
Okay.
I get that, but you know what,
um, well, you wouldn't be bothering me
with your stuff, you know?
What do you got?
Tess, come on, look, I got a lot more going on
up here than people give me credit for.
Come on, hit me.
Do you remember when I told you I was gay?
Mm-hmm. Via text. It was very modern of you.
I thought coming out to you guys
would be the hardest part,
but instead
I just have a million more questions about myself.
Like, what clothes make me feel like "the real me"?
What books should I be reading? What movies should I be seeing?
When will I finally decide to tell my friends?
What you got?
I-I've never been through what you're going through right now.
I mean, I once had to kiss Topher Grace in this indie film
that I did, but that wasn't like...
Tess, I'm not gonna sit here and
pretend like I know how you're feeling, okay, 'cause I don't,
but, you know, this whole idea of not really knowing
who you are deep down inside, that's my life story.
Please.
No, wait, hold on, hear me out, though.
Um...
I'll tell you what, one thing that I have learned,
um...
I don't think we figure out exactly who we are all at once.
I think it happens over a long period of time,
just, like, piece by piece, you know?
Like, um... Okay, take, me for instance.
A couple years ago, I get close with your dad,
and I find a piece of myself in that.
And then I meet your aunt, and I, and I find
another piece of myself.
Honey, I think that's sort of how it works, you know.
I think we go through this life slowly but surely,
just collecting these little pieces of ourselves
that we can't really live without until,
you know, eventually, we have enough of them to where we...
we feel whole.
And you think that'll happen for me?
Nah, probably not. I mean, you're not that special.
Do I think it will happen for you?
I know it will happen for you.
Tess Pearson,
you, my niece, have
so many years ahead of you to find all of your pieces.
Now, was that corny, or did I just...
did I nail it?
- No? Laid it on too thick? - You nailed it.
I nailed it. Yes!
I felt pretty strong there at the end, yeah.
Release. Turn in. Big finish. And bend down.
Beautiful, beautiful. And finish.
Beautiful.
And great class, ladies.
All right, next week we'll focus on jetés, right?
And hopefully hear the next chapter
in the saga of Diane's neighbor's yappy dog.
Hey, Beth.
Tanya's got strep.
Do you think you could cover her Sunday a.m. class?
- Oh, sure. - Great.
You can do it with your eyes closed.
It's literally just four moms with no rhythm
trying to drop ten pounds they'll never drop.
You sure this is the right address?
This neighborhood looks a little rough.
Yup. This is it.
Uh...
where's the school?
Oh, there's no school.
There's no debate team either.
I think arguing with random strangers
about weird stuff is stupid.
Oh. Okay. So where are we?
You remember a while back when you took me
to your dad's building because you wanted me
to sign my adoption papers?
Yeah.
Remember when... you told me you had everything
you were gonna say planned out?
- Yeah? - Yeah, well...
you're not the only one in the world who can
drag somebody on a long car ride
just to give them a big speech at a meaningful location.
I lived in this house for eight months
when my mom was in rehab.
Oh, wow.
Deja, I didn't know you...
Not now, I'm doing a speech.
Now, there were houses where the parents
drank more or...
they hit harder, but, um...
this house...
this was Mr. and Mrs. Johnson's house.
This is where they kept you hungry.
Now, they would load up on foster kids,
as many as they can get,
just for the government stipend
and they would blow
all the money they got...
on scratcher tickets.
Anyway... every single night,
we would split a can of soup
four ways, five ways.
And just watch Mr. Johnson scratch his way
through... $30 worth
of those stupid scratcher tickets.
One night he didn't even bother to buy the soup.
So...
I stole one of his tickets when he was...
getting up to grab a beer.
And if we won,
we were going to sneak out to buy
burgers and fries and...
dip 'em in the, the chocolate Frosties.
Have you ever done that?
No?
It's the best.
It's so good.
But, of course...
we didn't win.
Nobody ever won at that house.
'Cause most people don't win, Randall.
But you did.
You won the lottery. You won it twice.
Once when you got adopted and again when you met Beth.
I don't know what's going on between you two,
but you got to get it together.
You owe it to the world...
that let you win the lottery twice.
Now come on.
This speech made me want a burger.
Get me whatever you're having with an iced tea.
All right? Got to make a quick call.
Randall, hey, I've got
- your schedule for Monday. - Hey, Jae-Won.
I know my swearing in is coming up,
but I need to ask you something.
And after I do, I need you to take a deep breath
and then answer me calmly.
Hit me.
Okay, um...
what would happen...
if I resigned?
What?
What do you mean, resigned?
Like from city council, if I decided
I couldn't go through with accepting the position.
Oh, God, I knew I should have taken that job at MSNBC
- when I had the chance. - Jae-Won.
I'm not saying it's happening.
I just need to know what would happen.
Will you talk me through it, please?
Just step by step.
You'd need to do it in writing.
Things would break quickly.
Um, there'd be an emergency special election
paid for by the taxpayers who just paid for the last election.
It would basically confirm the worst fears
of everyone who put their faith in an outsider
with zero experience in government or politics.
Got it.
Thank you for educating me.
Randall... you're not really thinking about...
Got to run, Jae-Won.
Yeah. Oh, I love these.
- These are great. - Yeah.
Oh, I... oh, well, thank you.
- You're welcome. - Mm-hmm.
Um... the brownies smell like they're almost done.
You want to go check?
- I'll meet you in there. Okay. - Okay.
What?
You know, my mom didn't want kids at first either.
- Is that right? - Mm-hmm.
Yup. Not for a really long time, anyway.
And then she, uh...
she was amazing at it.
She used to do this thing, she would...
she would write these really dumb jokes
on the, the banana peels
of the bananas that she would pack for our lunches...
...when we were kids... did I ever tell you that?
- No. - Yeah. Yeah.
Uh, five days a week. Three jokes.
Every day, I mean...
that's...
that's next-level, right?
I guess all I'm saying is, I think sometimes,
you know, people think they know what they want...
but then time goes by
and things just, they change.
Hmm.
Watching you with the girls, Zoe, you...
You're amazing with them.
And I think, maybe...
uh...
I'd be pretty good at it, too.
Aunt Zoe.
I got to...
- go check on the brownies. - Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Hey, man.
- Hey. - Didn't expect you to still be here.
Where's Beth?
Thank you so much for meeting me on such short notice.
No problem.
I'm honored to meet the new councilman's wife.
So I'd love to hear more about you.
It'll help me find exactly what you're looking for.
Okay. Well, as you know, my husband will be
working down here full-time, and...
the commute from our house in Jersey's already killing him.
He hasn't even been sworn in yet.
We thought we could make it work,
but it's pretty clear that we can't.
So here we are.
Here we are.
I think you will really love Philly.
- Let's go see some places. - Great.
Yeah, come in.
We can't sleep.
I had a nightmare about Mom.
She looked like Freddy Krueger
and her face was wrapped in bandages.
And then he woke us up and told us
all about it and freaked us out.
Okay.
Okay, this is ridiculous.
Put your shoes, jackets on. Let's go see Mom.
- Hi. - Hi.
How's the baby?
He's good. He slept for most of the day.
Toby just got to the hospital, so I'm just gonna...
take a shower and I'll head back.
- Hey, Bug? - Hmm?
I'm sorry if I, uh...
overstepped.
Or if the idea of us
moving out here makes you feel...
No.
You knew exactly what to do today.
You always know exactly what to do.
- That's not true. - Yeah, it is.
It is, and...
I just feel like I'm never going to be
as good a mom as you.
Also not true.
I need you to know,
the way that I react to you sometimes, it's...
it's on me.
It's my own insecurities.
I don't know how the hell I'm ever gonna live up to you.
You know, you...
you have this magical quality.
Just being you.
And you always made us feel really safe.
I want you to be here.
For me.
But-but even more for Jack.
You know?
I want my son to...
grow up with the Rebecca Pearson-level magic, too.
I think that's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me.
Mom.
Aw...
- Well, good. - Thank you.
Mom, can I just apologize in advance for, uh,
being triggered by everything you're gonna say
and treating you like a punching bag for the next
year or two, 'cause...
That's fine.
It's what I'm here for.
Well, I am juicing tonight.
Way too many brownies for me.
Kevin.
We need to talk about this.
Uh, yeah, I know.
You want to be a dad.
Maybe not now but someday.
Uh... I mean, maybe, yeah.
I don't know. I don't know.
And you should be a dad, Kevin.
You...
you should raise 500 perfectly symmetrical kids.
You'll be amazing at it.
And I want...
I want you to have that. I...
I want you to have everything you want.
But I don't want that.
I know. That's... I'm...
Look, I made my choice, okay?
I told you...
I know.
I think you made the wrong choice.
You think I'm gonna change.
And I'm not.
You're really never gonna want to...
Hi. Um, I'm Jack Pearson.
We're here to see my wife Rebecca Pearson.
Visiting hours don't start until 6:00 a.m.
Okay, see, we're-we're not visitors.
We're her family. And...
Well, my kids, Th-they don't...
they don't do so well without their mom.
We could've made it one night.
Hi.
I'm sorry, I don't... I don't know what that is.
Um, look, my wife,
she's not used to being without us either.
But she sent us home earlier
because she was trying to be strong for us.
Because, you know, that's just... that's who my wife is.
She's strong for us, but...
You know, we, we don't really work too good without her.
You know,
it's...
It's like a car.
You know, um, you-you got your...
your antilock brakes, your suspension, your-your exhaust pipes.
But, you see, my wife, she's-she's the engine.
And the rest of us, we're-we're s...
Well, we're useless without the engine.
Do you... do you understand what I'm saying?
Not really.
I'm at the end of a 24-hour shift.
Honestly, I'm only hearing random words.
Go ahead. Just keep your voices down
until visiting hours start.
Okay. Come on. Thank you.
Let's move.
So, maybe we'll see you around.
Or not. Thank you.
Hey.
Classes run late?
No, I had to run an errand.
How'd your day go?
My day?
Uh, it's a funny story.
There was no debate.
Deja wanted to show me her old foster home.
What?
Yeah, had a whole talk planned for me and everything.
It was very me.
She's worried about us.
Apparently, she and Tess can feel it.
Oh. I hate that.
Yeah, me, too.
I'm gonna resign, Beth.
- Randall... - It's just a job.
At the end of the day, it's just a job.
I won the lottery, baby.
Oh, that's what Deja called it.
Me landing you.
- Smart kid. - Yeah, she is.
I thought I could figure out a way to do this
that wouldn't hurt us.
But I wasn't realistic.
- I bit off more than I could chew. - You're not gonna resign, Randall.
We're moving to Philadelphia.
No.
I won't make us uproot our lives.
And I won't let you give up on your dream.
I'm not giving up on my dream.
Randall, I found the door.
I'm gonna open my own dance studio.
In Philly.
I want to cut the ribbon on a place of my very own,
one that I can run the way that I want to.
But city council doesn't pay enough.
- How are we gonna afford... - We scale back.
We bet on us.
We have a lot tied up in this house.
You want to sell this house?
But, baby, we got married in this house.
- We raised our family in this house. - I know.
And it served us well for a long time.
With what you want to do, we're gonna...
we're gonna have to get a much smaller place.
Well...
guess it'll be easier for me to find you then.
We don't work when we're apart.
But, together...
baby,
together, we set the world on fire.
Hi, Mom.
Hey, you.
Ooh, coffee.
Hey, baby.
Hey.
Mm.
You okay?
You want coffee?
Yeah.
Man, Kevin's house is huge.
Thanks for calling.
I got the, uh...
sidewalk chalk.
I just talked to Jack,
and they're on their way.
I'm glad you decided to come.
Of course.
Come on in.
Good to see you, too, bud.
Oh. Hey, Uncle Randall.
Thank you.
Hey, where's your dad?
Uh, he went to go get takeout.
He realized we didn't have any food.
Classic Kevin.
Knock, knock, knock. Look who's here.
- Hi. - Hey.
- Hey. Where is he? - My God,
- do you have enough luggage? - Well, I had no choice.
- Hi. - Mwah. I'm here indefinitely.
- Indefinitely? - Indefinitely.
Wait, Kev, you don't think you're living here, do you?
With no room service? No, thank you.
- But don't you worry about a thing. - Careful.
I will be here all the time.
Look how handsome you are.
Hey, Tobes, you got any, uh, Perrier?
We're parched. We're parched.
We got thirsty.
All right.
I'm gonna go say hi.
Oh, um, where is...?
He's already in there.
Hi, Mom.
It's Randall.
Your son, Randall.
Hey, Nicky.
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