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[MAN ON PA]
Dr. Branson, please call 5914.
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Dr. Branson, please call 5914.
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[METAL SCREECHING]
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[PHONE RINGING]
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[GIRL] It's like, every time you turn
on the TV or look at a magazine,
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it's, "Oh, my God,
this cake is so delicious."
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And, like, your reward or something.
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And then, you turn the page,
and there's some sad, fat "before" girl,
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and she's all, "I hate myself."
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And then, the thin "after" girl goes,
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"I did this diet, and now I'm happy,
and everyone loves me."
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What about the chocolate cake?
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It's like they're trying
to drive us crazy.
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[GIRL SIGHS] "Society's to blame."
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The world is so unfair. I have to die."
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There's no point in blaming everybody.
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Live with it.
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Ellen, do you think there's a way
you can express that
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without discounting Penny's feelings?
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- [CHUCKLES]
- ["FALSE JEOPARDY" PLAYING]
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♪ It's not the end ♪
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- ♪ It's not the end ♪
- [SCOFFS]
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♪ It's false jeopardy ♪
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[SONG CONTINUES]
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♪ I won't be let down ♪
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♪ It's not the end, it's not the end ♪
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Bitch.
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Told you you'd lose.
You owe me a carton of Camels.
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[CHUCKLES]
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♪ Just try and be sure ♪
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♪ It's not the end, it's not the end ♪
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♪ It's false jeopardy ♪
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[SONG CONTINUES]
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♪ I won't be let down ♪
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♪ It's not the end, it's not the end ♪
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♪ It's not the end
It's not the end ♪
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[DOORBELL RINGS]
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Oh, my God. Look at you.
Your parents are gonna kill you.
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No more trips to TJ, Rosa.
I think they put cement in your lips.
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Your mom said,
"Take the room in the garage."
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There's a room in the garage now?
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Every time I come home, you have
a new face and there's more house.
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- It was gonna be your mother's office.
- She's not my mother.
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[ELLEN GRUNTING, PANTING]
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[GRUNTING CONTINUES]
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- [KNOCKING ON DOOR]
- [ROSA] Dinner is half an hour!
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- Your father and mother are eating out.
- Okay.
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- [ELLEN] Are you on that dating app again?
- [GIRL] No. Come on, what?
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- You know what I'm doing. Come on.
- Oh.
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- Yeah.
- Yeah.
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- All right, go. Get ready.
- [EXHALES]
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- All right, ready?
- Mm-hmm.
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280 for the pork,
350 for the buttered noodles,
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125 for the buttered beans,
150 for the roll, and 50…
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No, 75 for butter.
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- You got it. All of it. Dang.
- [SIGHS] Yes.
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Oh, my God.
It's like you have calorie Asperger's.
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- I mean, hold the applause.
- You're a pro.
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Okay, wait. Now, so how many…
how many calories you think boogers have?
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Ay, don't say that.
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What? She probably knows.
You know, right?
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- Not just the beans, the meat.
- I'd say snot's pretty low.
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Maybe, like, five to ten,
depending on the size of the pickin's.
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- The meat.
- Mm-hmm.
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- And you are both being disgusting.
- [SNICKERS]
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"The meat."
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[LAUGHING]
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You know, you used to have a jar
that you kept all your boogers in?
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- No, I didn't.
- You absolutely did.
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- You probably did.
- Hello!
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- Stop. No, I didn't.
- Sorry we couldn't pick you up.
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[SIGHS] Work.
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[CHUCKLES] Mmm. Did you get settled in?
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[WOMAN] So, Jack is very upset with you.
He's very worried.
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Why doesn't Jack tell me himself?
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Your father would rather
you and I have this talk, okay?
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Right.
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It's not that he doesn't care.
He cares too much.
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You don't know.
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[SIGHS] The doctor said you were defiant
and a bad influence on the other girls.
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Is this what it's gonna be now?
Are you proud of yourself?
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I'm maintaining.
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I have to weigh you.
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The agreement was you could live here
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as long as you kept up
your end of the bargain.
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- You wanna go back to your mother's?
- Mom moved to Phoenix with Olive.
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Yeah, that's what I mean. Phoenix.
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We can put you on the bus,
first thing tomorrow.
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[SIGHS] Jesus.
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- I had that cold, and I…
- I don't wanna hear it. Get on.
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- It's not at zero.
- Stop. Stop it. Get on.
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[SIGHS] God.
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Okay.
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Turn towards me.
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[CAMERA CLICKS]
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Do you see that?
Do you see what you look like?
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Yeah.
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Do you think that's beautiful?
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No.
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So, what are you gonna do about it?
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Jesus Christ. We can't do this again.
I can't do this again.
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[KICKS SCALE]
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- [MAN SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]
- [DOOR SQUEAKING]
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[FAINT ARGUING]
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[KNOCKING]
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[ARGUING CONTINUES]
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You have a car now, right?
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Yeah.
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[WHISPERS] What?
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[CRICKETS CHIRPING]
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You're using me to burn off
half a pack of lifesavers or some shit.
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- The view is best at the top.
- Jesus, Mary, and Joseph.
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Hey, look. Don't tell anyone, okay?
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[LAUGHS]
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- A butterfly tattoo?
- Yeah.
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Were you drunk?
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- No. Butterflies are classic.
- They're retarded.
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Okay, I'm sorry I didn't have
your artistic eye to advise me,
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so I got a retarded butterfly.
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I mean, it's pretty.
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Dad and Susan are gonna kick me out,
or drag me to that treatment.
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- Okay, so eat.
- I eat.
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You know
that I love you like a full sister,
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but you look like absolute crap.
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And every time I ask you why you do this,
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I always get
some stupid non-answer from you.
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At least, I'm a cheap date.
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That stuff goes further
on an empty stomach.
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[SIGHS]
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I've got it under control.
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Nothing bad's gonna happen.
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How many people
do you think are down there?
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Like, two million?
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I bet a bunch of them who are about to die
just said the exact same thing.
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- That's not breakfast.
- Neither is coffee. Dad home?
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He had an early meeting.
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Hey.
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You have a choice.
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There's one last person
that we want you to see, a specialist.
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- It wasn't easy getting an appointment…
- I think I will call my mom.
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- I should at least try Phoenix.
- We spoke to your mother last night.
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She says it's not a good time
for her to take this on.
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But she sends hugs.
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[SOFT GUITAR MUSIC PLAYING]
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[MUSIC STOPS]
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Now, you know me, I enjoy people,
but your mother is selfish.
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Do you think we wanted to stay
in the Valley? North Hollywood. [SCOFFS]
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But… with this and school for you
and Kelly, only thing we can afford.
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Not that I… love the Westside.
You can never find parking.
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[SIGHS] Well, at least on our side,
we have Pier 1, which I love.
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Over there at the Grove,
all you have is Cost Plus World Market.
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I mean, all that is just junk.
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You too? Was it hard
getting an appointment?
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We were on the waiting list
for six months.
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[SUSAN] Six months?
Ooh, it wasn't that long for us.
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I guess word is out
about his success rate.
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So, I hear that his methods
are a little unconventional.
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They're quite radical. But we've tried
everything else. Renfrew, Maudsley.
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Maudsley? Ooh, you're brave.
Was that a nightmare?
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It took a long time getting used to it.
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- Does that really work?
- No, I'm just thirsty.
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[TURNS OFF FAUCET]
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How old are you, anyway? Your mom said
you had to drop out of college.
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Twenty. And she's not my mom.
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Twenty, wow.
And you're some kind of artist?
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Your… Well, that lady said
you're kind of famous.
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She's nuts.
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But you had, like, a crazy fan
or something.
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Susan, my stepmom, has a reality problem.
You get one letter, you have a crazy fan.
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Seriously? She made it sound like
you had a stalker or something.
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Yeah. Not even.
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She said she was taking
the anti-depressants,
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but she'd been flushing them
down the toilet.
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She was afraid
they would make her gain weight.
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And I know, she has a right to lash out.
Her mother Judy, she is a bipolar lesbian.
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- That is not why…
- Judy has had several breakdowns,
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hospitalizations.
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Poor Ellen had to call us one time
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because her mother was writing
her own bible on the walls.
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Judy came out when Ellen was 13.
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The child is going through puberty,
and overnight, she's got two moms?
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Traumatic. It has got to have something
to do with the weight and…
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Sounds rough.
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But looking for one reason is
a losing battle. It's never that simple.
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Absolutely. I say that to her father
all the time. He blames himself.
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Now, I think throwing Ellen
into the deep end, real life…
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might do her some good.
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My family was on welfare.
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- We had nothing.
- Okay, thank you. I think I got it.
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- [MAN] You do a lot of sit-ups.
- [ELLEN] Not that many.
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It wasn't a question. That's where
you get these bruises on your spine.
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Your stepmom always talk that much?
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You know how sharks have
to keep swimming or they'll die?
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She's kinda like that with talking.
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Take a deep breath.
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- [INHALES DEEPLY]
- Let it out.
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[EXHALES]
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- Again.
- [BREATHES DEEPLY]
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And one more.
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[BREATHES DEEPLY]
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When was the last time
you got your period?
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God.
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Um…
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It must have been… [MUTTERS]
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A long time ago.
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I don't feel… that unhealthy, you know?
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[CHUCKLES] If I wanna be thin,
don't they say that that's better?
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I'll outlive the normies.
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- You like this? The furry?
- What? No, I'm not…
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Lanugo. Your body's trying
to keep you warm by making more hair.
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But you know that, right?
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I talk to kids like you all day,
every day.
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So, I know that you are,
as a rule, full of shit.
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You're not thin. You scare people.
And I'm guessing you like that.
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But the way that you're going,
one day, you won't wake up.
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And I'm not going to treat you
if you aren't interested in living.
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Good speech.
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If I'm going to help you,
you have to agree to a few things.
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- What?
- No talk about food.
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I'm not interested.
It's boring and not very helpful.
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And your parents can't talk
about it either.
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- You're on your own, understand?
- Yes.
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You'll agree to a minimum
of six weeks in-patient.
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I don't need more in-patient.
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Then find another doctor.
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- [SUSAN] Well?
- [ELLEN] He wants to admit me on Monday.
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He said that? He said he'll admit you?
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This is great! What exactly did he say?
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Is Dad coming?
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Uh, you know, we didn't have much time
to talk, but he's on his way home.
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Dad's coming?
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Mm…
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- He's on his way, but he said not to wait.
- So, he's not coming.
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Hey, what happened to that sweet girl
that I met at Transitions?
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- The Mexican.
- Angel?
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- Mm-hmm.
- Her mom's from El Salvador.
237
00:16:20,813 --> 00:16:22,314
You know what I mean.
238
00:16:23,357 --> 00:16:25,818
You two seemed very close. And I just…
239
00:16:26,860 --> 00:16:29,405
I want you to know
that it's fine if you were.
240
00:16:32,658 --> 00:16:33,826
[BOTH LAUGHING]
241
00:16:33,909 --> 00:16:36,161
- Thank you, Susan.
- Jesus, Mom.
242
00:16:36,245 --> 00:16:39,456
Just because her mom is gay
does not mean that she's gay.
243
00:16:39,540 --> 00:16:41,542
You know, you can get married now.
244
00:16:41,625 --> 00:16:45,004
I'm not saying you are.
I'm just saying, you know, if you…
245
00:16:46,255 --> 00:16:47,798
if you have that kind of turmoil,
246
00:16:47,881 --> 00:16:50,968
then you might feel
like you don't deserve to eat.
247
00:16:51,051 --> 00:16:52,261
Pussy, you mean.
248
00:16:53,637 --> 00:16:55,472
[BOTH LAUGHING]
249
00:17:04,940 --> 00:17:08,736
Are you done? I've got a special dessert.
250
00:17:08,819 --> 00:17:11,864
Yup, all done. Thanks.
251
00:17:13,532 --> 00:17:17,161
Well, I'm so sorry Dad couldn't be here
for your lesbian coming out party.
252
00:17:17,244 --> 00:17:20,372
It really sucks.
I mean, I believe it, but…
253
00:17:20,456 --> 00:17:21,957
No, I'm… I'm fine.
254
00:17:24,877 --> 00:17:27,713
Will you try… this time?
255
00:17:28,797 --> 00:17:32,968
I mean, maybe this doctor is really great.
Can you please just try this time?
256
00:17:33,052 --> 00:17:34,094
[FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING]
257
00:17:35,262 --> 00:17:36,263
[SUSAN] Ta-da!
258
00:17:36,346 --> 00:17:37,514
[SUSAN CHUCKLES]
259
00:17:40,267 --> 00:17:41,393
[SUSAN] Isn't it funny?
260
00:17:41,477 --> 00:17:43,312
[CHUCKLES]
261
00:17:43,395 --> 00:17:44,521
It's a cake.
262
00:17:46,440 --> 00:17:49,318
[MAN ON RADIO] With the syrup
and the nuts, it was literally heaven.
263
00:17:49,401 --> 00:17:51,361
Life in these arctic temperatures
is measured
264
00:17:51,445 --> 00:17:53,489
by the briefest moments of light…
265
00:18:00,496 --> 00:18:04,750
- This is it? You're sure?
- Yeah, this is the address.
266
00:18:07,002 --> 00:18:08,462
Oh, hi.
267
00:18:09,546 --> 00:18:10,923
- Oh, that's okay.
- Please.
268
00:18:11,006 --> 00:18:14,051
- So I can get my points.
- Okay.
269
00:18:17,054 --> 00:18:20,015
- So, what's your name?
- Ellen.
270
00:18:21,183 --> 00:18:26,939
Anna. Bulimia nervosa.
Although, more nervosa than bulimia now.
271
00:18:27,022 --> 00:18:27,856
[CHUCKLES]
272
00:18:27,940 --> 00:18:29,358
That's Kendra.
273
00:18:34,655 --> 00:18:39,368
Here you go. Welcome to Threshold.
I'll, uh… I'll go get Lobo.
274
00:18:40,410 --> 00:18:42,621
Lobo!
275
00:18:42,704 --> 00:18:45,707
This is… very nice, homey.
276
00:18:47,209 --> 00:18:48,335
Hey.
277
00:18:48,418 --> 00:18:51,088
Uh, hi, are you Lobo?
278
00:18:51,171 --> 00:18:54,258
[BRITISH ACCENT] Lucus. Like "mucus."
279
00:18:54,341 --> 00:18:56,218
[CHUCKLES]
280
00:18:56,301 --> 00:18:58,554
But I prefer "Luke." Lobo is a dame.
281
00:18:58,637 --> 00:19:01,723
- A dame?
- A broad, a skirt.
282
00:19:02,766 --> 00:19:05,644
Raymond Chandler is my muse
since I got here.
283
00:19:05,727 --> 00:19:07,980
To the hardscrabbled streets
of LA, that is.
284
00:19:08,063 --> 00:19:09,189
- Oh. [LAUGHS]
- Wow.
285
00:19:09,273 --> 00:19:14,236
- I'm from London, originally.
- London? How interesting.
286
00:19:14,319 --> 00:19:16,697
Did you come all this way for Dr. Beckham?
287
00:19:16,780 --> 00:19:20,367
By way of Jersey. It's a sordid tale.
288
00:19:20,450 --> 00:19:24,288
- But he's the best, so…
- Well, Ellen's from Los Angeles.
289
00:19:24,371 --> 00:19:27,708
- How interesting.
- Not really.
290
00:19:29,710 --> 00:19:31,503
[CHUCKLES]
291
00:19:37,092 --> 00:19:40,679
[AMERICAN ACCENT]
Well… see you around, sweetheart.
292
00:19:46,518 --> 00:19:47,561
[CHUCKLES]
293
00:19:48,687 --> 00:19:49,730
God.
294
00:19:50,772 --> 00:19:54,067
He seemed nice, funny.
295
00:19:54,151 --> 00:19:57,613
Here we go. Nothing fancy. That's Pearl.
296
00:19:57,696 --> 00:20:00,449
Anna's in here too,
when she's not running around.
297
00:20:02,826 --> 00:20:05,454
We usually have six patients,
298
00:20:05,537 --> 00:20:07,539
but, right now, we have seven
because of Luke.
299
00:20:07,623 --> 00:20:09,374
- He's down the hall.
- I like your pants.
300
00:20:10,584 --> 00:20:13,170
Oh. Thanks.
301
00:20:13,253 --> 00:20:16,215
I, uh… like your ponies.
302
00:20:16,298 --> 00:20:18,258
Thanks. [CHUCKLES]
303
00:20:21,011 --> 00:20:22,596
Sorry.
304
00:20:23,639 --> 00:20:24,890
It's gross.
305
00:20:24,973 --> 00:20:29,853
Oh, this girl from the last place I was in
had a permanent tube in her stomach.
306
00:20:29,937 --> 00:20:31,730
She refused to chew.
307
00:20:31,813 --> 00:20:34,107
Ew. I chew.
308
00:20:35,609 --> 00:20:40,072
So, I'm gonna have to search this.
Any knives or X-Actos I should know about?
309
00:20:40,155 --> 00:20:42,866
- Are you cutter?
- Nope, not that on-trend.
310
00:20:44,826 --> 00:20:47,454
- Some of these girls are cutters?
- Oh, yeah.
311
00:20:47,537 --> 00:20:49,373
We have a lot of overachievers in here.
312
00:20:52,709 --> 00:20:55,545
- I'm gonna have to take these.
- It's just a multivitamin.
313
00:20:55,629 --> 00:21:00,384
It's a vitamin bottle.
Could be diet pills, speed, laxatives…
314
00:21:00,467 --> 00:21:04,763
And we don't have time to test
for everything. We'll give you a vitamin.
315
00:21:04,846 --> 00:21:06,932
And can I have your phone, please?
316
00:21:09,268 --> 00:21:12,020
Do you have any other
electronic devices? iPad?
317
00:21:12,104 --> 00:21:15,315
My iPad doesn't even have wireless.
I just use it to draw.
318
00:21:15,399 --> 00:21:19,111
Dr. Beckham says you should draw
on paper until he says different.
319
00:21:19,194 --> 00:21:23,407
- God, what did you say to him?
- I just explained the situation.
320
00:21:24,908 --> 00:21:27,327
Okay. Um…
321
00:21:27,411 --> 00:21:30,080
I should let you get settled, right?
322
00:21:30,163 --> 00:21:33,458
Uh, is Dr. Beckham here?
I'd like to just pop in before I go.
323
00:21:33,542 --> 00:21:36,712
He's only here in the morning
and usually stops by after dinner.
324
00:21:37,754 --> 00:21:40,382
I just thought you should know
about her tricks.
325
00:21:40,465 --> 00:21:43,051
Oh. We know all the tricks.
326
00:21:43,135 --> 00:21:45,053
[PEARL]
That's why we don't have any doors.
327
00:21:45,137 --> 00:21:48,932
They know we'd jog around the room
all day if nobody could see us.
328
00:21:49,016 --> 00:21:51,226
It'd be like the Rexie Olympics
up in here.
329
00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:56,898
Okay. Call us if you need anything,
and, um… we'll see you soon, okay?
330
00:21:56,982 --> 00:21:58,900
- Be good.
- Okay.
331
00:21:58,984 --> 00:22:02,362
Not too good. Not perfect.
332
00:22:02,446 --> 00:22:03,280
Got it.
333
00:22:05,282 --> 00:22:06,491
I got it.
334
00:22:19,421 --> 00:22:22,674
Pearl usually gives the tour,
but, obviously, she's not going anywhere.
335
00:22:22,758 --> 00:22:25,218
So, Luke is your guy.
336
00:22:25,302 --> 00:22:30,682
- Ellen, Luke.
- We've met. Onward.
337
00:22:33,268 --> 00:22:38,690
This, as you can see, is a living room.
338
00:22:38,774 --> 00:22:41,568
We meet here twice a day
for "Bitch and Bawl."
339
00:22:41,651 --> 00:22:42,694
What?
340
00:22:42,778 --> 00:22:44,446
It's what we call our group therapy.
341
00:22:44,529 --> 00:22:47,866
- Well, it's what I call group therapy.
- And what's the deal with levels?
342
00:22:47,949 --> 00:22:50,452
I prefer to think of them
as draconian points
343
00:22:50,535 --> 00:22:52,412
earned for good behavior.
344
00:22:52,496 --> 00:22:56,166
Like when you were little
and you had chores, if you had chores.
345
00:22:56,249 --> 00:22:59,586
This is the torture chamber,
also known as the dining room.
346
00:22:59,669 --> 00:23:01,296
Chores, uh, which I never had
347
00:23:01,379 --> 00:23:03,632
because that would assume
I had parents who gave a shit…
348
00:23:03,715 --> 00:23:07,677
- So, you do chores to get points?
- Among other things, yes.
349
00:23:07,761 --> 00:23:11,306
And Lobo and the other nurses
and counselors can give them
350
00:23:11,389 --> 00:23:12,974
or take them away at will.
351
00:23:13,058 --> 00:23:15,185
Amass enough points, level up.
352
00:23:15,268 --> 00:23:18,688
Earn extra privileges, like, you can
go out of the house on your own.
353
00:23:18,772 --> 00:23:22,442
I'm actually currently deciding
on where to go on my next outing.
354
00:23:22,526 --> 00:23:28,031
So far, I've eaten at nine of the places
on Jonathan Gold's essential 100 list.
355
00:23:28,115 --> 00:23:30,992
Jonathan Gold is my muse.
356
00:23:31,076 --> 00:23:33,328
Raymond Chandler was your muse
a few minutes ago.
357
00:23:33,411 --> 00:23:39,000
I know. Isn't that fantastic?
Nobody can keep up with me.
358
00:23:39,084 --> 00:23:40,752
Onward.
359
00:23:40,836 --> 00:23:43,964
So, welcome
to our new house member, Ellen.
360
00:23:44,047 --> 00:23:45,632
- Hi.
- Hi, Ellen.
361
00:23:45,715 --> 00:23:46,550
[LUKE] Hello.
362
00:23:46,633 --> 00:23:49,386
So, how this works…
This is just an end of day check-in.
363
00:23:49,469 --> 00:23:51,680
The morning sessions
are a little more focused.
364
00:23:51,763 --> 00:23:55,892
This is just to talk about struggles
and our victories and…
365
00:23:55,976 --> 00:23:58,937
any other issues you might be having
here in the house.
366
00:23:59,938 --> 00:24:00,981
Let's start with Pearl.
367
00:24:04,860 --> 00:24:05,944
Struggle…
368
00:24:07,404 --> 00:24:14,661
I got tubed today,
and, uh… you know, it hurts.
369
00:24:14,744 --> 00:24:16,997
Now, I feel all…
370
00:24:18,373 --> 00:24:19,374
…hot.
371
00:24:21,334 --> 00:24:24,713
I can't stop thinking
about how many calories are in that drip.
372
00:24:24,796 --> 00:24:27,090
- They won't say.
- Fifteen hundred.
373
00:24:29,593 --> 00:24:32,262
I looked it up.
I was tubed a couple times.
374
00:24:32,345 --> 00:24:33,471
Ellen, we try not to crosstalk.
375
00:24:33,555 --> 00:24:37,142
We don't talk about numbers
or weight or anything like that.
376
00:24:37,225 --> 00:24:39,352
- Sorry.
- [PEARL] Fifteen hundred?
377
00:24:39,436 --> 00:24:43,732
[WOMAN] How are you feeling
right now, Pearl? It's okay.
378
00:24:43,815 --> 00:24:46,109
I don't know. Just…
379
00:24:49,571 --> 00:24:52,115
that it's hard getting better.
380
00:24:52,199 --> 00:24:55,994
And I'm guessing that you're worried
about how you're gonna be burning it off,
381
00:24:56,077 --> 00:24:57,829
especially when everybody's here
watching you?
382
00:24:59,039 --> 00:25:00,498
Do you know why you feel that way?
383
00:25:02,792 --> 00:25:07,255
- Because I… have an addiction?
- In a way, yes.
384
00:25:07,339 --> 00:25:09,925
When the exercise and the rituals kick in
385
00:25:10,008 --> 00:25:13,428
and… the cyclical thoughts
about weight take over,
386
00:25:13,511 --> 00:25:15,555
everything else goes away.
387
00:25:15,639 --> 00:25:18,558
And starving yourself
can make you feel euphoric,
388
00:25:18,642 --> 00:25:21,645
like a drug addict or an alcoholic.
389
00:25:22,854 --> 00:25:25,523
It's not about "thin enough," right?
390
00:25:25,607 --> 00:25:28,068
There's no "thin enough."
It doesn't exist.
391
00:25:28,151 --> 00:25:33,198
What you crave is the numbing
of the thing that you don't wanna feel.
392
00:25:33,281 --> 00:25:34,950
And we give you a lot of rope here.
393
00:25:35,033 --> 00:25:40,747
It's scary, but only you can decide…
to see what's good, to be alive.
394
00:25:40,830 --> 00:25:42,874
- You understand?
- Kind of.
395
00:25:44,251 --> 00:25:47,045
- I'm trying.
- Yeah, you are.
396
00:25:49,130 --> 00:25:50,382
Talk to me, brother.
397
00:25:50,465 --> 00:25:54,844
My victory was leading
a fantastic house tour…
398
00:25:54,928 --> 00:25:56,054
and earning another point,
399
00:25:56,137 --> 00:25:59,975
which means I get to go to Guelaguetza,
Oaxacan restaurant,
400
00:26:00,058 --> 00:26:03,687
number 26 on Mr. Gold's essential 100.
401
00:26:03,770 --> 00:26:10,318
And affordable, which is also essential.
Ballet companies don't pay you a fortune.
402
00:26:10,402 --> 00:26:13,613
That's great.
Talk to me about your struggles.
403
00:26:13,697 --> 00:26:16,783
Don't know, really. I guess
I'm obsessing about my injury
404
00:26:16,866 --> 00:26:19,995
and… if I'll be able to perform
when I get get out of here.
405
00:26:20,078 --> 00:26:23,498
- But I've got a goal. So, that's good.
- You have a couple of goals.
406
00:26:23,581 --> 00:26:26,584
Eating Oaxacan and getting healthy
so you can dance again.
407
00:26:26,668 --> 00:26:29,838
Damn straight.
I've got goals coming out my wazoo.
408
00:26:32,090 --> 00:26:32,924
Ellen?
409
00:26:35,093 --> 00:26:37,470
Struggle, um…
410
00:26:39,222 --> 00:26:41,016
Coming here.
411
00:26:41,099 --> 00:26:43,935
I mean,
accepting that I have to come here.
412
00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:47,355
So, maybe your victory
is that you're here.
413
00:26:48,606 --> 00:26:49,524
Hmm?
414
00:26:51,443 --> 00:26:52,485
Yeah, maybe.
415
00:26:58,491 --> 00:26:59,326
[SIGHS]
416
00:27:08,418 --> 00:27:11,212
Did Luke explain about meals?
417
00:27:11,296 --> 00:27:14,632
No. By the time we got to that,
he was onto some musical thing.
418
00:27:14,716 --> 00:27:17,761
- [LUKE] ♪ Sugar blues ♪
- That.
419
00:27:17,844 --> 00:27:22,390
♪ Everybody's singin' the sugar blues ♪
420
00:27:22,474 --> 00:27:24,726
- ♪ Sugar blues ♪
- Luke.
421
00:27:27,896 --> 00:27:29,898
- [LUKE WHIMPERS]
- Eat what you want.
422
00:27:29,981 --> 00:27:33,401
If you have special food,
like Kendra here does, that's fine.
423
00:27:33,485 --> 00:27:35,070
- We'll get it for you.
- That's it?
424
00:27:35,153 --> 00:27:39,657
No, you're definitely judged.
When you eat, points magically appear.
425
00:27:39,741 --> 00:27:42,285
What he means is, if you're maintaining
or moving towards your goal,
426
00:27:42,369 --> 00:27:43,370
you go up a level.
427
00:27:43,453 --> 00:27:45,205
- How you do it is up to you.
- Really?
428
00:27:45,288 --> 00:27:47,791
Yeah, but no one leaves the table
at mealtime,
429
00:27:47,874 --> 00:27:49,876
and bathrooms are locked
for 30 minutes after.
430
00:27:49,959 --> 00:27:52,295
And there's no point pretending to eat
431
00:27:52,379 --> 00:27:55,465
or throwing up into the plants
or whatever.
432
00:27:55,548 --> 00:27:58,593
It smells, and it doesn't end up
on the scale.
433
00:27:58,676 --> 00:27:59,761
Got it.
434
00:28:01,596 --> 00:28:03,681
- Thank you, Lobo.
- De nada.
435
00:28:04,891 --> 00:28:08,686
- All right. Who wants to say grace?
- Oh, sorry.
436
00:28:12,482 --> 00:28:13,983
[LUKE CLEARS HIS THROAT]
437
00:28:14,067 --> 00:28:16,778
- [LUKE] Dear Jesus…
- Take us to church.
438
00:28:16,861 --> 00:28:22,742
Allah, Oprah, My Little Pony,
or whoever your personal savior is…
439
00:28:22,826 --> 00:28:26,454
help us to give our bodies what they need
to grow strong and beautiful
440
00:28:26,538 --> 00:28:30,959
because every single person
at this table deserves to live.
441
00:28:31,042 --> 00:28:33,128
- Mm.
- Amen.
442
00:28:33,211 --> 00:28:34,212
[LUKE] Bon appétit.
443
00:28:36,589 --> 00:28:37,465
Oh, yeah.
444
00:28:39,300 --> 00:28:43,221
Oh, my God.
This is so fucking good. Oh, my God.
445
00:28:47,517 --> 00:28:48,393
Pearl?
446
00:28:53,189 --> 00:28:56,609
You freaked her out with the 1500 thing.
I mean, it's not your fault…
447
00:28:56,693 --> 00:28:58,820
- I didn't mean…
- Oh, no, no, no. It's not your fault.
448
00:28:58,903 --> 00:29:00,238
I mean, don't stress.
449
00:29:01,573 --> 00:29:04,993
- How many in-patients have you done?
- Four.
450
00:29:05,076 --> 00:29:09,622
Six. The rest of these guys,
they have no idea.
451
00:29:11,291 --> 00:29:16,171
I mean, Pearl's not actually just upset
about the tube. She might get kicked out.
452
00:29:16,254 --> 00:29:20,425
Seriously? I mean, she looks pretty sick.
453
00:29:20,508 --> 00:29:23,261
No, Dr. Beck says that hospitals
are for sick people.
454
00:29:23,344 --> 00:29:25,054
We're here to get over that shit.
455
00:29:28,183 --> 00:29:29,476
Ice cream's my favorite.
456
00:29:29,559 --> 00:29:32,270
- It comes up the easiest.
- How do you know you got it all?
457
00:29:32,353 --> 00:29:34,522
When your barf is clear
and it doesn't burn anymore.
458
00:29:34,606 --> 00:29:38,193
Oh. I wish I could barf.
I'm only good at the binging part.
459
00:29:40,612 --> 00:29:44,866
- You purge?
- I tried. It's not my thing.
460
00:29:44,949 --> 00:29:47,285
So, how do you get rid of it
if you can't barf?
461
00:29:47,368 --> 00:29:49,287
- It's gross.
- Tell me.
462
00:29:49,370 --> 00:29:51,414
[CHATTERING CONTINUES]
463
00:29:56,169 --> 00:30:01,716
Your ponies wouldn't want you to cry.
Hello Kitty wouldn't want you to cry.
464
00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:03,718
[SOBBING]
465
00:30:03,802 --> 00:30:08,139
The unicorn on the stairs
wouldn't want you to cry.
466
00:30:13,895 --> 00:30:15,396
[KNOCKING ON DOOR]
467
00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:17,398
[BECKHAM] Hey, there.
468
00:30:17,482 --> 00:30:19,818
- Settling in?
- Yeah.
469
00:30:21,152 --> 00:30:24,322
- Where's everyone else?
- May I?
470
00:30:25,782 --> 00:30:26,741
Okay.
471
00:30:29,661 --> 00:30:31,079
Anna went to the movies.
472
00:30:32,789 --> 00:30:33,957
Points.
473
00:30:35,667 --> 00:30:37,418
Cool.
474
00:30:37,502 --> 00:30:41,339
I'm having your family come in
for a group session tomorrow afternoon.
475
00:30:41,422 --> 00:30:43,007
It's standard when I see new patients.
476
00:30:43,091 --> 00:30:45,343
If it's productive,
we'll do it from time to time.
477
00:30:46,511 --> 00:30:47,595
Okay.
478
00:30:48,888 --> 00:30:51,516
- Even my mom?
- Even Mom.
479
00:30:52,851 --> 00:30:53,726
Wow.
480
00:30:53,810 --> 00:30:56,187
I told her it takes me longer
to drive in from the Valley
481
00:30:56,271 --> 00:30:57,772
than it does to fly from Phoenix.
482
00:31:02,485 --> 00:31:03,528
Okay, kiddo.
483
00:31:04,863 --> 00:31:06,114
Glad you're here.
484
00:31:09,742 --> 00:31:10,785
I didn't mean it.
485
00:31:12,245 --> 00:31:16,624
I… I mean, I didn't mean
for my drawings to do what they did.
486
00:31:17,917 --> 00:31:20,753
- What?
- On Tumblr.
487
00:31:20,837 --> 00:31:25,758
I know Susan told you what happened,
and… it'll come up, I bet.
488
00:31:27,135 --> 00:31:28,177
Right.
489
00:31:29,596 --> 00:31:32,515
I was just doing
what all my teachers told me to do.
490
00:31:32,599 --> 00:31:34,058
Draw what you know?
491
00:31:34,142 --> 00:31:37,186
- Yeah.
- I hear you.
492
00:31:37,270 --> 00:31:41,649
Just keep it for yourself, for now, okay?
493
00:31:43,067 --> 00:31:43,902
Okay.
494
00:31:45,486 --> 00:31:46,404
Good night.
495
00:31:54,537 --> 00:31:58,833
[RUSTLING, CLATTERING]
496
00:32:22,690 --> 00:32:24,484
[WHISPERING] Oh. Sweaty.
497
00:32:24,567 --> 00:32:28,780
I ran home from the movies.
Don't tell anyone.
498
00:32:28,863 --> 00:32:30,114
[WHISPERING] Okay.
499
00:32:30,198 --> 00:32:31,699
[CHUCKLES]
500
00:32:31,783 --> 00:32:33,910
- What movie did you see?
- Oh, um…
501
00:32:33,993 --> 00:32:36,996
They were playing Shaun of the Dead
at the New Beverly with Zombieland.
502
00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:38,790
- No way.
- Yeah.
503
00:32:40,041 --> 00:32:41,793
Emma Stone's kinda fat.
Don't you think?
504
00:32:41,876 --> 00:32:44,504
Oh, no, I think she's just big-boned.
505
00:32:45,797 --> 00:32:47,632
She's, like, at least, a size six.
506
00:32:49,842 --> 00:32:53,054
- Anyway, 'night.
- 'Night.
507
00:33:05,274 --> 00:33:07,193
Mutually assured destruction.
508
00:33:08,319 --> 00:33:09,779
[CHUCKLES] Right.
509
00:33:14,867 --> 00:33:17,620
I'm breaking 120 today, dolls.
510
00:33:17,704 --> 00:33:23,126
- Is that going up or down?
- Up. Eighty-nine when I came in.
511
00:33:23,209 --> 00:33:25,503
Eighty-nine? How tall are you?
512
00:33:28,881 --> 00:33:30,842
You're a beautiful unicorn.
513
00:33:32,135 --> 00:33:34,846
- You, cheer captain, come on.
- All right.
514
00:33:36,014 --> 00:33:37,015
Let's do this.
515
00:33:40,810 --> 00:33:44,188
Megan's been gaining. She's flipping out.
516
00:33:44,272 --> 00:33:48,609
But, I mean, she wants to,
I think, for her baby.
517
00:33:48,693 --> 00:33:52,572
- She… She's pregnant?
- Oh, nobody said?
518
00:33:52,655 --> 00:33:55,074
- Jesus, I didn't even think about…
- I know.
519
00:33:55,158 --> 00:33:58,036
That's why Luke calls her "the unicorn."
520
00:33:58,119 --> 00:34:02,540
She gets her period once and gets pregnant
off some guy she barely knows.
521
00:34:05,543 --> 00:34:06,878
I'm never having a baby.
522
00:34:08,463 --> 00:34:09,547
No way.
523
00:34:10,590 --> 00:34:13,384
[PHONE RINGING]
524
00:34:13,468 --> 00:34:14,469
Where are you?
525
00:34:17,055 --> 00:34:19,682
That's probably Dad, right?
526
00:34:19,766 --> 00:34:22,894
- Making some excuse.
- Yeah, annoying.
527
00:34:24,062 --> 00:34:27,273
- I heard them fighting this morning.
- Great.
528
00:34:28,316 --> 00:34:29,192
That's great.
529
00:34:37,200 --> 00:34:40,119
Oh, my God.
530
00:34:40,203 --> 00:34:42,038
Oh, my God.
531
00:34:42,121 --> 00:34:43,122
Mom…
532
00:34:44,540 --> 00:34:46,417
You… You look like a ghost.
533
00:34:48,628 --> 00:34:49,587
It's okay.
534
00:34:51,589 --> 00:34:52,590
Why?
535
00:34:55,635 --> 00:34:57,678
Mom, it's okay, it's okay.
536
00:34:57,762 --> 00:34:59,472
My God.
537
00:35:01,557 --> 00:35:04,602
- No dad?
- I'm sorry, work.
538
00:35:06,437 --> 00:35:08,606
Well, he has to support his family…
539
00:35:08,689 --> 00:35:12,443
and pay alimony, still,
and the medical bills and…
540
00:35:12,527 --> 00:35:13,444
Understood.
541
00:35:14,946 --> 00:35:17,281
Bet you didn't expect
this much "gynergy" today.
542
00:35:18,449 --> 00:35:21,869
I do think this is a record number
of mothers for one patient.
543
00:35:25,581 --> 00:35:29,460
Okay, I want everybody to understand
nobody's on trial here.
544
00:35:31,129 --> 00:35:33,047
I just want to get a sense of the family.
545
00:35:36,759 --> 00:35:39,053
Well, until recently, Ellen lived with us.
546
00:35:39,137 --> 00:35:42,473
She moved in with her father
18 months ago.
547
00:35:42,557 --> 00:35:45,601
We thought it might be good for her
to heal that relationship.
548
00:35:45,685 --> 00:35:48,604
He's shown little interest
in who Ellen really is.
549
00:35:48,688 --> 00:35:51,315
He's only interested
in who he wants her to be.
550
00:35:51,399 --> 00:35:55,278
Ellen is an artist.
She's extremely bright and sensitive.
551
00:35:55,361 --> 00:35:58,781
She was never going to go into Chinese
552
00:35:58,865 --> 00:36:00,867
- or computers or what have you.
- What?
553
00:36:00,950 --> 00:36:03,286
Is that what you think
your dad wants for you?
554
00:36:05,705 --> 00:36:10,501
I don't know. I guess… I think he just
wants me to be able to make a living.
555
00:36:10,585 --> 00:36:14,297
- Exactly. Is that a crime?
- No crimes, remember?
556
00:36:14,380 --> 00:36:18,134
The point is, Ellen's father
never saw who she was.
557
00:36:18,217 --> 00:36:19,760
He left when she was very young…
558
00:36:19,844 --> 00:36:22,763
Yeah, because you were sleeping
with your best friend over there.
559
00:36:22,847 --> 00:36:25,474
- No, that's not why the marriage ended.
- There's a better reason?
560
00:36:25,558 --> 00:36:27,768
We are not here
to defend our relationship.
561
00:36:27,852 --> 00:36:30,188
When are you going to come up
with a different narrative, Susan?
562
00:36:30,271 --> 00:36:31,981
- [SUSAN] What narrative?
- [JUDY] What narrative?
563
00:36:32,064 --> 00:36:33,608
- Susan…
- [SUSAN] No, this is the truth.
564
00:36:33,691 --> 00:36:36,736
- Jack didn't wanna have sex.
- Well, he likes it with me just fine.
565
00:36:36,819 --> 00:36:39,447
- Twice a week, like clockwork.
- Oh, my God.
566
00:36:39,530 --> 00:36:41,824
[SUSAN] Besides, he's not the one
who abandoned her.
567
00:36:41,908 --> 00:36:43,951
We did not abandon Ellen.
We moved to Phoenix.
568
00:36:44,035 --> 00:36:46,704
They threw her out.
They put her bags on the street.
569
00:36:46,787 --> 00:36:50,708
Because we'd been dealing
with Ellen's illness alone for years.
570
00:36:50,791 --> 00:36:53,669
I didn't abandon my daughter.
I love her more than life.
571
00:36:53,753 --> 00:36:57,048
I just didn't know what to do.
She's dying right in front of us.
572
00:37:00,343 --> 00:37:02,637
What's going on with you right now?
573
00:37:10,353 --> 00:37:11,395
I'm sorry…
574
00:37:14,357 --> 00:37:16,400
that I'm not a person anymore.
575
00:37:16,484 --> 00:37:17,652
I'm a problem.
576
00:37:22,823 --> 00:37:25,159
- And it's all my fault.
- Fuck fault.
577
00:37:26,452 --> 00:37:31,916
Fault and blame have no place here.
Only how you wanna live, moving forward.
578
00:37:31,999 --> 00:37:33,084
Who you wanna be.
579
00:37:40,091 --> 00:37:44,136
How about you, Kelly?
What do you think of all this?
580
00:37:45,429 --> 00:37:47,181
Um… I, uh…
581
00:37:48,307 --> 00:37:49,850
[INHALES DEEPLY]
582
00:37:49,934 --> 00:37:52,019
I feel kind of angry, I guess.
583
00:37:53,938 --> 00:37:56,023
I just… I just don't really…
Really get it.
584
00:37:56,107 --> 00:37:58,526
You know, just… eat.
585
00:38:00,361 --> 00:38:03,489
I don't know. It's just like… It's not
her life that she's just missing out on.
586
00:38:03,572 --> 00:38:04,407
It's…
587
00:38:05,908 --> 00:38:07,410
[EXHALES]
588
00:38:07,493 --> 00:38:10,288
It's my life, too.
You know, I don't get to have…
589
00:38:11,872 --> 00:38:12,790
a sister.
590
00:38:16,585 --> 00:38:20,715
You know, I look at pictures
of my prom and stuff, and…
591
00:38:22,550 --> 00:38:25,094
and all I think of is, like,
"Oh, that's when…
592
00:38:25,177 --> 00:38:27,346
"Ellen was in the hospital," or…
593
00:38:27,430 --> 00:38:29,849
"That's when she fainted on the bus."
594
00:38:29,932 --> 00:38:30,808
[BECKHAM] All right.
595
00:38:32,101 --> 00:38:35,062
And all of my friends,
they think that she's some kind of freak.
596
00:38:35,146 --> 00:38:38,316
- Like, a freak who killed a girl.
- Because of the blog?
597
00:38:38,399 --> 00:38:40,401
- Tumblr.
- [KELLY] Yeah, and that's bad enough,
598
00:38:40,484 --> 00:38:44,113
but now, people wanna be like her
and look like her
599
00:38:44,196 --> 00:38:46,115
and go through what she's going through.
600
00:38:46,198 --> 00:38:48,409
Nobody died
because of Ellen's artwork, okay?
601
00:38:48,492 --> 00:38:51,537
There's plenty of stuff out there
for people to fetishize.
602
00:38:51,620 --> 00:38:55,207
But that certainly didn't help,
to have notoriety for starving…
603
00:38:55,291 --> 00:38:56,417
But that's what I'm saying.
604
00:38:56,500 --> 00:38:58,419
- Ellen has talent.
- [SUSAN] I didn't say she doesn't.
605
00:38:58,502 --> 00:39:01,714
[JUDY] But if you hadn't made her
take her artwork away from her audience,
606
00:39:01,797 --> 00:39:02,923
she might have found her voice.
607
00:39:03,007 --> 00:39:06,510
[SUSAN] Ellen took it down herself
after that young woman died
608
00:39:06,594 --> 00:39:08,888
because she knew
it was the right thing to do.
609
00:39:08,971 --> 00:39:11,098
- [OLIVE] You are so full of shit, Susan.
- [SUSAN] What?
610
00:39:11,182 --> 00:39:12,892
[OLIVE]
Do you even hear what Judy is saying?
611
00:39:12,975 --> 00:39:14,018
[SUSAN] A young women died.
612
00:39:14,101 --> 00:39:16,187
- No, no, no.
- Meet me in the car.
613
00:39:18,731 --> 00:39:20,608
[DOORS OPENING]
614
00:39:20,691 --> 00:39:24,862
I'm sorry, we just…
We just can't take you with us right now.
615
00:39:24,945 --> 00:39:26,155
[DOORS CLOSING]
616
00:39:27,573 --> 00:39:29,450
- We're gonna miss our plane.
- Okay, all right.
617
00:39:29,533 --> 00:39:30,951
- All right?
- Okay.
618
00:39:31,035 --> 00:39:34,455
Ellen… be strong, okay?
619
00:39:39,251 --> 00:39:40,169
[DOORS OPENING]
620
00:39:43,381 --> 00:39:44,382
[DOORS CLOSING]
621
00:39:45,674 --> 00:39:47,968
Hey, I'm really sorry
if I got you in any sort of trouble…
622
00:39:48,052 --> 00:39:52,723
- Please, no, I'm sorry. I hate that…
- No, no, no, it's… it's whatever.
623
00:39:52,807 --> 00:39:54,016
You can forget it.
624
00:39:56,602 --> 00:39:59,522
[CHUCKLES] What a shit-show.
625
00:39:59,605 --> 00:40:01,690
[BOTH LAUGHING]
626
00:40:01,774 --> 00:40:05,486
You really need to get better so you never
have to see those people ever again.
627
00:40:05,569 --> 00:40:07,655
[TAKES DEEP BREATH]
628
00:40:14,328 --> 00:40:15,496
If you die…
629
00:40:17,206 --> 00:40:18,332
I will kill you.
630
00:40:23,629 --> 00:40:24,672
[INHALES DEEPLY]
631
00:40:24,755 --> 00:40:26,507
Okay. I'll see you.
632
00:40:32,054 --> 00:40:32,930
See ya.
633
00:40:34,765 --> 00:40:36,725
[DOORS OPENING]
634
00:40:40,729 --> 00:40:42,064
[DOORS CLOSING]
635
00:40:50,739 --> 00:40:51,782
[KNOCKING ON DOOR]
636
00:40:52,783 --> 00:40:55,202
- Dinner.
- I'm staying up here.
637
00:40:56,203 --> 00:40:59,957
You don't have to eat, but the rule
is that everyone has to sit down.
638
00:41:28,319 --> 00:41:29,737
[SNIFFS]
639
00:41:29,820 --> 00:41:31,614
[GROANS]
640
00:41:31,697 --> 00:41:32,865
[EXHALES]
641
00:41:39,163 --> 00:41:41,248
[LUKE] Have you been thinking
about baby names?
642
00:41:41,332 --> 00:41:42,166
Not yet.
643
00:41:42,249 --> 00:41:45,669
I have a whole list of favorites
that you can have.
644
00:41:45,753 --> 00:41:48,339
I was actually considering a new moniker.
645
00:41:48,422 --> 00:41:52,468
- What about Dean or Tex?
- When I get out of the first trimester.
646
00:41:52,551 --> 00:41:54,386
[LUKE] Do you want to get out
of the first trimester?
647
00:41:54,470 --> 00:41:57,014
- Jesus, Luke.
- Stay out of this, Mia.
648
00:41:57,097 --> 00:42:01,185
This is between us rexies.
She knows what I'm talking about.
649
00:42:01,268 --> 00:42:07,233
I don't know. I'm terrified.
It just feels so… out of control.
650
00:42:07,316 --> 00:42:09,610
But it's kind of a miracle, you know?
651
00:42:09,693 --> 00:42:14,532
'Cause I didn't think anything
was working down there. So, maybe…
652
00:42:16,075 --> 00:42:17,785
I'm supposed to have this baby.
653
00:42:20,913 --> 00:42:21,956
And I want to.
654
00:42:23,499 --> 00:42:26,877
I just want to think about something
besides me for once.
655
00:42:26,961 --> 00:42:28,212
[LUKE] Amen, sister.
656
00:42:28,295 --> 00:42:31,715
- [PEARL] We should have a baby shower.
- No, I don't wanna jinx it.
657
00:42:31,799 --> 00:42:34,552
- No, please. A shower would be so cute.
- Yeah, no.
658
00:42:37,221 --> 00:42:38,556
All right, fine. Maybe.
659
00:42:38,639 --> 00:42:41,600
- If I get past 12 weeks.
- Yay!
660
00:42:42,643 --> 00:42:47,064
Well, we're gonna help you make it past.
Every bite you take feeds the miracle.
661
00:42:48,983 --> 00:42:49,900
[CHUCKLES]
662
00:42:49,984 --> 00:42:51,652
[MEGAN] Pass the potatoes.
663
00:42:53,988 --> 00:42:55,114
- Oh, my God…
- Are you sure?
664
00:42:55,197 --> 00:42:56,615
- I don't know.
- Here they are.
665
00:42:56,699 --> 00:42:58,242
- Just don't talk.
- Here they are.
666
00:42:58,325 --> 00:43:01,453
- Miracle potatoes.
- [LUKE] Miracle, miracle potatoes.
667
00:43:01,537 --> 00:43:03,080
- I like that.
- [MEGAN] Pretty good.
668
00:43:03,163 --> 00:43:05,040
[LAUGHS]
669
00:43:05,124 --> 00:43:07,334
How about the newbie? How you doin'?
670
00:43:09,211 --> 00:43:10,254
Finished.
671
00:43:14,925 --> 00:43:18,262
- What happened?
- She had family therapy today.
672
00:43:19,513 --> 00:43:21,265
- Oh.
- Makes sense.
673
00:43:21,348 --> 00:43:22,391
Mm-hmm.
674
00:43:22,474 --> 00:43:26,061
Hey. I missed dinner.
675
00:43:26,145 --> 00:43:27,730
I found your barf stash.
676
00:43:31,400 --> 00:43:35,321
Keep this to yourself
and I'll get you some laxatives.
677
00:43:35,404 --> 00:43:38,115
- I don't… I don't use…
- Come on, I know you want them.
678
00:43:39,158 --> 00:43:41,910
You think I haven't seen
that thing that you do?
679
00:43:41,994 --> 00:43:43,454
What thing?
680
00:43:43,537 --> 00:43:44,538
[SIGHS]
681
00:43:46,790 --> 00:43:50,628
Making sure your arm doesn't get bigger
than, what, a silver dollar?
682
00:43:53,714 --> 00:43:54,715
Deal.
683
00:44:20,699 --> 00:44:21,909
Cigarette for dinner.
684
00:44:23,285 --> 00:44:25,537
- That's not gonna get you points.
- Not in the mood.
685
00:44:27,289 --> 00:44:28,123
Okay.
686
00:44:31,919 --> 00:44:34,963
And who in hell made you
house den mother?
687
00:44:35,047 --> 00:44:37,424
You walk around here
like you've got it all figured out.
688
00:44:37,508 --> 00:44:39,176
Well, if you're so fixed and special,
689
00:44:39,259 --> 00:44:41,136
why don't you go back
to New Jersey or London
690
00:44:41,220 --> 00:44:42,513
or wherever the fuck you're from?
691
00:44:42,596 --> 00:44:46,558
I am going back,
as soon as my BMI's closer to my age.
692
00:44:46,642 --> 00:44:48,727
But right now,
I'd rather try and help people
693
00:44:48,811 --> 00:44:50,479
than mope about feeling sorry for myself.
694
00:44:50,562 --> 00:44:52,439
You have no idea how I'm feeling.
695
00:44:52,523 --> 00:44:55,609
- I never said I did.
- And what? You wanna help people?
696
00:44:55,692 --> 00:44:57,236
What are you, a doctor now?
697
00:44:57,319 --> 00:45:00,697
- You feel pretty proud of yourself?
- Yeah, I am, actually.
698
00:45:00,781 --> 00:45:03,534
I'm moving the needle
in the right direction.
699
00:45:03,617 --> 00:45:05,160
Sorry if that scares you.
700
00:45:05,244 --> 00:45:07,996
But people actually go home sometimes
and have a life,
701
00:45:08,080 --> 00:45:10,290
even people with fucked-up families.
702
00:45:12,126 --> 00:45:15,671
Yeah. There goes
that fucking excuse again, huh?
703
00:45:23,095 --> 00:45:23,971
[SCOFFS]
704
00:46:08,390 --> 00:46:10,309
[KNOCKING ON DOOR]
705
00:46:11,727 --> 00:46:12,561
Enter.
706
00:46:14,646 --> 00:46:15,814
Hey.
707
00:46:18,275 --> 00:46:22,529
- Hey.
- Don't be all pleased with yourself.
708
00:46:22,613 --> 00:46:26,408
Wow. I never thought I'd meet anyone
more defensive than I am.
709
00:46:26,492 --> 00:46:27,451
And yet…
710
00:46:28,952 --> 00:46:30,287
So, you've been here awhile.
711
00:46:32,039 --> 00:46:33,040
Six months.
712
00:46:34,708 --> 00:46:38,003
- Is that you?
- Hard to believe, I know.
713
00:46:38,086 --> 00:46:42,508
I didn't mean that… [SCOFFS]
Yeah, I can tell that it's you.
714
00:46:42,591 --> 00:46:44,718
Incredible.
715
00:46:44,801 --> 00:46:48,597
You know what it's like to be 19
and feel like you've already peaked?
716
00:46:48,680 --> 00:46:49,806
Um, a relief.
717
00:46:49,890 --> 00:46:50,891
[CHUCKLES]
718
00:46:52,017 --> 00:46:57,981
No. I loved it.
I could push it and push it.
719
00:46:58,065 --> 00:47:01,568
And then I broke
and went batshit, obviously.
720
00:47:02,861 --> 00:47:06,073
But my knee's getting better,
and my company director says
721
00:47:06,156 --> 00:47:09,660
he'll have a place for me
as soon as I get my act together, so…
722
00:47:09,743 --> 00:47:12,287
- It's my drawing.
- Yeah.
723
00:47:13,539 --> 00:47:16,708
I printed it off your Tumblr,
like, a year ago.
724
00:47:16,792 --> 00:47:19,711
That's why I acted like such a spaz
when you first got here.
725
00:47:19,795 --> 00:47:21,547
- You're like my…
- You're muse?
726
00:47:21,630 --> 00:47:22,673
Shut up.
727
00:47:25,425 --> 00:47:27,844
I just figured, somebody so talented,
728
00:47:27,928 --> 00:47:30,931
I had to be brilliantly charming
to get you to like me.
729
00:47:31,014 --> 00:47:34,434
- Well, you overshot.
- I'm aware.
730
00:47:35,477 --> 00:47:38,647
In my defense, though,
I've been running on empty for so long
731
00:47:38,730 --> 00:47:43,026
that when I actually eat now,
I get this crazy burst of energy.
732
00:47:43,110 --> 00:47:47,239
- That's why you're so weird.
- I'm always weird. That's why I'm…
733
00:47:48,657 --> 00:47:49,700
assertive.
734
00:47:51,034 --> 00:47:58,417
How do you do it? Eat.
I mean, I see you, and I just… I get…
735
00:47:58,500 --> 00:48:03,755
I get all panicky even thinking about it,
like, the world is gonna fall apart.
736
00:48:03,839 --> 00:48:08,552
I feel that way. But you know,
feel the fear and do it anyway.
737
00:48:08,635 --> 00:48:11,263
Yeah, but aren't you scared
you won't be able to stop?
738
00:48:11,346 --> 00:48:13,682
- That you're just gonna…
- Be like one of those guys
739
00:48:13,765 --> 00:48:17,102
who has to be lifted out of his bed
with a crane?
740
00:48:17,185 --> 00:48:20,188
Yeah, but Dr. Beck says
that's not gonna happen, so…
741
00:48:20,272 --> 00:48:24,026
- Yeah, but he has to say that.
- Well, he's pretty straight-up.
742
00:48:24,109 --> 00:48:26,695
Plus, I'm not gonna lie.
I'm really fuckin' hungry.
743
00:48:26,778 --> 00:48:27,738
[LAUGHS]
744
00:48:27,821 --> 00:48:30,157
Like, two years worth of hungry.
745
00:48:32,075 --> 00:48:36,204
Whenever I can't sleep, I draw food.
746
00:48:36,288 --> 00:48:38,957
Oh, yeah? Like… what?
747
00:48:39,041 --> 00:48:42,169
- Do you know what a Goo Goo Cluster is?
- Oh, my God.
748
00:48:43,378 --> 00:48:46,757
Yeah, greatest candy bar ever.
749
00:48:46,840 --> 00:48:51,678
- Peanuty, marshmallowy greatness.
- [LAUGHS]
750
00:48:51,762 --> 00:48:55,599
Oh, it's 240 calories there,
110 from fat.
751
00:48:55,682 --> 00:48:57,851
Whoa. Calorie Asperger's.
752
00:48:57,934 --> 00:48:58,935
[SCOFFS]
753
00:48:59,019 --> 00:49:03,148
- Maybe.
- My last meal would be a whole box of 'em.
754
00:49:03,231 --> 00:49:07,277
Oh, yeah?
How would you eat them? Show me.
755
00:49:09,071 --> 00:49:10,614
[SCOFFS]
756
00:49:10,697 --> 00:49:11,740
You wish.
757
00:49:13,742 --> 00:49:16,703
Um, right. Well, I'd better…
758
00:49:16,787 --> 00:49:18,121
Right, right, right. Yes.
759
00:49:19,373 --> 00:49:21,708
- See you tomorrow?
- Where else would I be?
760
00:49:23,126 --> 00:49:23,960
Good night.
761
00:49:26,171 --> 00:49:27,172
[SIGHS]
762
00:49:28,465 --> 00:49:29,299
Epic.
763
00:49:34,680 --> 00:49:36,223
Step on.
764
00:49:36,306 --> 00:49:38,725
- Unless you wanna face the other way.
- No, I'm good.
765
00:49:40,143 --> 00:49:42,479
I didn't sew rocks into my panties,
if you're worried.
766
00:49:43,480 --> 00:49:44,523
I'm not.
767
00:49:54,199 --> 00:49:55,200
Step off.
768
00:49:57,619 --> 00:49:59,621
Wow, that's bad.
769
00:50:02,249 --> 00:50:05,252
You know what the body burns
after there's no more fat?
770
00:50:05,335 --> 00:50:08,964
Muscle. Organ tissue.
771
00:50:09,047 --> 00:50:11,508
Pretty soon, you're gonna be
flopping around like a boneless fish.
772
00:50:13,510 --> 00:50:16,513
Thanks for that.
Yeah, I'm scared straight.
773
00:50:20,350 --> 00:50:21,852
Anna, you're next!
774
00:50:21,935 --> 00:50:24,104
[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING ON TV]
775
00:50:24,187 --> 00:50:26,481
[GROWLING]
776
00:50:26,565 --> 00:50:27,899
I want a baby dragon.
777
00:50:35,031 --> 00:50:37,242
- Megan?
- Huh?
778
00:50:37,325 --> 00:50:40,203
- What do you think?
- It's good.
779
00:50:40,287 --> 00:50:41,747
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
780
00:50:41,830 --> 00:50:42,914
Okay, I'll finish it.
781
00:50:45,542 --> 00:50:47,043
[WHISPERING] I told her not to.
782
00:50:50,380 --> 00:50:51,882
You feel anything?
783
00:50:54,176 --> 00:50:55,010
Not yet.
784
00:50:56,052 --> 00:51:01,516
I like what you said before…
about thinking more about somebody else.
785
00:51:01,600 --> 00:51:02,642
Yeah.
786
00:51:04,394 --> 00:51:09,816
I think that's what being a mom
is supposed to be about… you know?
787
00:51:09,900 --> 00:51:13,487
- Putting the kid first.
- Yeah.
788
00:51:13,570 --> 00:51:17,073
Yeah, it's not like I know
what I'm talking about, but…
789
00:51:17,157 --> 00:51:19,743
No, I… I think you do.
790
00:51:22,245 --> 00:51:24,748
- You're gonna be a good mom.
- [LUKE] ♪ Sugar blues ♪
791
00:51:24,831 --> 00:51:29,503
- Thank you.
- ♪ Everybody's singing the sugar… ♪
792
00:51:30,504 --> 00:51:31,338
Huh.
793
00:51:35,550 --> 00:51:37,177
Good evening, ladies.
794
00:51:37,260 --> 00:51:39,095
- Good evening.
- Hi, Luke.
795
00:51:39,179 --> 00:51:41,723
- [PLASTIC RUSTLING]
- Oh, wh…
796
00:51:41,807 --> 00:51:44,559
- What is…? What's that noise?
- [PLASTIC RUSTLING]
797
00:51:44,643 --> 00:51:48,814
You hear that?
It's so weird. I feel like there's, uh…
798
00:51:48,897 --> 00:51:51,149
Oh…
799
00:51:51,233 --> 00:51:52,692
Oh.
800
00:51:57,113 --> 00:51:58,865
You know you want it.
801
00:51:58,949 --> 00:52:00,617
Shh!
802
00:52:00,700 --> 00:52:03,370
Okay, don't make it a sex thing.
803
00:52:03,453 --> 00:52:06,206
It is a sex thing. Don't pretend it's not.
804
00:52:07,207 --> 00:52:08,041
Ready?
805
00:52:10,085 --> 00:52:11,336
Oh…
806
00:52:12,796 --> 00:52:14,923
[LAUGHS]
807
00:52:15,006 --> 00:52:16,132
Oh, there it is.
808
00:52:17,175 --> 00:52:19,469
- I… I can't.
- You can.
809
00:52:19,553 --> 00:52:25,725
Chew, swallow.
The world will not implode, I swear.
810
00:52:26,852 --> 00:52:29,855
Come on, do it.
811
00:52:29,938 --> 00:52:30,939
Do it.
812
00:52:33,733 --> 00:52:34,734
Do it.
813
00:52:37,779 --> 00:52:38,905
[SNIFFING]
814
00:52:40,490 --> 00:52:43,285
- God.
- Right?
815
00:52:43,368 --> 00:52:44,661
- Hmm.
- Touch it.
816
00:52:44,744 --> 00:52:47,414
We can hear you, freak.
817
00:52:47,497 --> 00:52:52,377
- Yeah, freak, don't be so gross.
- Come on, just a little. Get it on you.
818
00:52:52,460 --> 00:52:55,088
Come on, get it on you.
819
00:52:58,216 --> 00:52:59,050
[CHUCKLES]
820
00:53:00,927 --> 00:53:02,971
Right? Okay.
821
00:53:03,054 --> 00:53:06,766
Now, a little bite… for me.
822
00:53:07,934 --> 00:53:09,895
- For you?
- Mm-hmm.
823
00:53:09,978 --> 00:53:13,315
I didn't even like you
until five minutes ago, so, like…
824
00:53:13,398 --> 00:53:16,651
- Maybe just, you know, not…
- You like me.
825
00:53:16,735 --> 00:53:18,278
- You like me.
- Shut up.
826
00:53:18,361 --> 00:53:19,988
- She likes me.
- Shut up.
827
00:53:20,071 --> 00:53:23,199
- Don't press your luck.
- She likes me. You like me.
828
00:53:23,283 --> 00:53:24,743
- Take a bite.
- Can we be done?
829
00:53:24,826 --> 00:53:27,913
- You like me. Come on. Have a little bite.
- Okay, seriously, back off!
830
00:53:31,291 --> 00:53:32,334
God…
831
00:53:35,378 --> 00:53:37,172
[CHUCKLES] Coward.
832
00:53:39,174 --> 00:53:41,551
Tomorrow, you bite.
833
00:53:50,769 --> 00:53:52,479
Luke just made me touch chocolate.
834
00:53:52,562 --> 00:53:54,439
[CHUCKLES]
835
00:53:54,522 --> 00:53:58,068
- He's so weird.
- He's totally weird sometimes.
836
00:54:01,446 --> 00:54:03,531
[INHALES DEEPLY]
837
00:54:05,825 --> 00:54:10,080
I think the baby just moved.
Smell that. Yeah, get in on that.
838
00:54:10,163 --> 00:54:13,667
- Is anybody watching this movie?
- Nobody cares about dragons.
839
00:54:13,750 --> 00:54:16,169
[BECKHAM] How are you doing
after family therapy?
840
00:54:16,252 --> 00:54:18,630
It's pretty much how it always is
when my folks are together.
841
00:54:18,713 --> 00:54:21,007
- Minus your dad.
- Like I said.
842
00:54:22,217 --> 00:54:25,220
But I don't feel as bad
as I thought I was going to.
843
00:54:25,303 --> 00:54:26,388
Why do you think that is?
844
00:54:27,806 --> 00:54:29,724
I'm getting to know
some of the people in the house.
845
00:54:30,934 --> 00:54:33,186
Some of them actually seem
like they're doing okay.
846
00:54:33,269 --> 00:54:36,940
- I hope so.
- No, I mean, really okay.
847
00:54:38,566 --> 00:54:42,612
Like they might get lives
and be semi-interesting people.
848
00:54:42,696 --> 00:54:46,324
Did you just say
something vaguely optimistic?
849
00:54:46,408 --> 00:54:47,701
I did say "semi"…
850
00:54:49,244 --> 00:54:50,787
but… yeah.
851
00:54:54,958 --> 00:54:57,168
- So, the family…
- Can I be honest?
852
00:54:57,252 --> 00:55:01,131
I've talked about my dad,
all that family stuff.
853
00:55:02,340 --> 00:55:04,551
I have issues. Whatever.
854
00:55:05,552 --> 00:55:08,054
Talk is not helping.
855
00:55:08,138 --> 00:55:09,681
I think you're right.
856
00:55:10,724 --> 00:55:14,144
- Really?
- Generally, I just need a few facts.
857
00:55:14,227 --> 00:55:16,021
And we're never doing
family therapy again.
858
00:55:16,104 --> 00:55:20,817
It doesn't seem to be useful here.
That was a shit-show.
859
00:55:20,900 --> 00:55:21,776
[LAUGHS]
860
00:55:21,860 --> 00:55:24,821
- Yeah, that's what my sister said.
- I liked her.
861
00:55:24,904 --> 00:55:28,491
- Yeah, me too. We get along great.
- I could tell.
862
00:55:28,575 --> 00:55:32,495
She was the only one who had something
to say that wasn't entirely self-serving.
863
00:55:32,579 --> 00:55:33,580
Yeah.
864
00:55:36,499 --> 00:55:39,544
- Now, I'm gonna be honest with you.
- Uh-oh.
865
00:55:41,171 --> 00:55:44,257
- I'm not crazy about your name.
- What?
866
00:55:44,340 --> 00:55:47,218
"Ellen" doesn't suit you.
It's too old-fashioned.
867
00:55:48,428 --> 00:55:51,097
- I've never really liked it.
- So, change it.
868
00:55:51,181 --> 00:55:52,849
I can't just change it.
869
00:55:54,893 --> 00:55:55,935
I can't, right?
870
00:55:56,019 --> 00:55:58,646
Just tell people to call you
by a different name.
871
00:55:58,730 --> 00:56:01,191
Or, if you wanna make it legal,
you can fill out a form online
872
00:56:01,274 --> 00:56:02,609
in about ten minutes.
873
00:56:04,235 --> 00:56:05,653
I was thinking "Ellie."
874
00:56:06,696 --> 00:56:10,366
- Ooh…
- That's no good. No.
875
00:56:10,450 --> 00:56:12,077
How about…
876
00:56:13,286 --> 00:56:14,496
"Eli"?
877
00:56:23,421 --> 00:56:24,464
Call me "Eli."
878
00:56:26,925 --> 00:56:28,343
[BOTH LAUGH]
879
00:56:28,426 --> 00:56:31,179
- You get your iPad?
- Oh, yeah.
880
00:56:31,262 --> 00:56:33,848
The world opens up
beyond your wildest dreams
881
00:56:33,932 --> 00:56:35,308
when you put on some LBs.
882
00:56:35,391 --> 00:56:36,267
[SCOFFS]
883
00:56:36,351 --> 00:56:38,103
- Eli?
- Yeah.
884
00:56:38,186 --> 00:56:40,396
Don't tell me you're gay now, too.
885
00:56:40,480 --> 00:56:44,359
The male population cannot take
another quality defection.
886
00:56:44,442 --> 00:56:47,570
- Most definitely not gay.
- Thank God.
887
00:56:47,654 --> 00:56:53,576
No, "Eli" is a… new name for me.
888
00:56:53,660 --> 00:56:55,912
Ellen… Eli…
889
00:56:55,995 --> 00:57:00,333
Hm, I like it. It's very… George Sand.
890
00:57:00,416 --> 00:57:02,168
[BOTH LAUGH]
891
00:57:03,962 --> 00:57:06,756
You're dazzling. You know that, Eli?
892
00:57:08,383 --> 00:57:14,222
So, I'm officially inviting Eli
to my dinner out tomorrow night.
893
00:57:14,305 --> 00:57:16,724
As part of my reward,
I can take anyone I want.
894
00:57:16,808 --> 00:57:19,060
Um, I'm not really restaurant ready,
but thanks.
895
00:57:19,144 --> 00:57:23,982
It can be your pick. It doesn't even have
to be on Mr. Gold's essential 100.
896
00:57:24,065 --> 00:57:26,192
No, you should take someone
who bites and chews…
897
00:57:26,276 --> 00:57:28,486
We can walk there.
898
00:57:28,570 --> 00:57:34,409
All the way to Hollywood or wherever,
and you don't have to eat.
899
00:57:37,495 --> 00:57:38,538
Can I run?
900
00:57:40,165 --> 00:57:45,920
- I don't run, psycho. My knee, remember?
- Well, can you walk fast?
901
00:57:46,004 --> 00:57:48,465
[LUKE] I read that it doesn't matter
how fast you walk.
902
00:57:48,548 --> 00:57:50,800
It's distance.
You burn the same amount of calories.
903
00:57:50,884 --> 00:57:53,678
- That's bullshit.
- Will you just slow down a little?
904
00:57:53,761 --> 00:57:55,513
I'm not even going that fast.
905
00:57:55,597 --> 00:57:56,764
Um…
906
00:57:56,848 --> 00:58:00,310
I will have the number 12
with the rice and the egg roll.
907
00:58:00,393 --> 00:58:02,187
Mm-hmm.
908
00:58:02,270 --> 00:58:03,813
Can I have the Tom Tum Kai soup?
909
00:58:03,897 --> 00:58:05,940
- It comes with your entrée.
- Oh, that's all…
910
00:58:06,024 --> 00:58:08,401
She'll have the number 12, too,
with the egg roll.
911
00:58:08,485 --> 00:58:09,402
No.
912
00:58:09,486 --> 00:58:10,862
- Yes.
- No.
913
00:58:10,945 --> 00:58:13,990
She'll have the number 12, too,
with the egg roll.
914
00:58:15,366 --> 00:58:17,744
- And to drink?
- We'll have two Tsingtao.
915
00:58:18,995 --> 00:58:19,829
Your ID?
916
00:58:22,790 --> 00:58:24,459
[LUKE SIGHS, CHUCKLES]
917
00:58:24,542 --> 00:58:30,256
I… I don't wanna put you
on the spot or anything, um…
918
00:58:30,340 --> 00:58:31,591
but we're from the hospice.
919
00:58:34,093 --> 00:58:35,136
For cancer.
920
00:58:38,181 --> 00:58:40,058
Um…
921
00:58:40,141 --> 00:58:43,853
- I'm sorry. I can't serve you without ID.
- It's just, um…
922
00:58:44,854 --> 00:58:46,272
This is our first date.
923
00:58:48,358 --> 00:58:51,528
It's maybe our only date. I just…
924
00:58:52,779 --> 00:58:55,198
I don't know. I wanted it to be special.
925
00:59:04,374 --> 00:59:06,376
[QUIETLY] Thank you very much.
926
00:59:09,087 --> 00:59:11,214
[BOTH LAUGHING]
927
00:59:11,297 --> 00:59:14,801
We can pick a different disease
for different restaurants.
928
00:59:14,884 --> 00:59:16,678
You're so sick.
929
00:59:16,761 --> 00:59:18,346
- We both are, actually.
- Yeah.
930
00:59:22,392 --> 00:59:25,645
I put it in there
so nobody would ask questions.
931
00:59:25,728 --> 00:59:29,315
- Thank you. Thank you so much.
- [LUKE] Yeah.
932
00:59:30,483 --> 00:59:31,359
[LAUGHS]
933
00:59:32,402 --> 00:59:33,820
♪ Oh… ♪
934
00:59:33,903 --> 00:59:36,030
- You are so…
- ♪ Oh… ♪
935
00:59:37,240 --> 00:59:39,325
- Are you…?
- ♪ Oh… ♪
936
00:59:39,409 --> 00:59:40,910
[BOTH LAUGHING]
937
00:59:41,995 --> 00:59:44,247
You are so wrong.
938
00:59:50,545 --> 00:59:52,046
- [LUKE] Hmm?
- Mm-hmm.
939
00:59:52,130 --> 00:59:54,966
- Bite.
- I don't like egg rolls.
940
00:59:55,049 --> 00:59:56,509
Who doesn't like egg rolls?
941
00:59:56,593 --> 00:59:59,679
Chew and spit if you wanna be lame,
but you look thinner.
942
00:59:59,762 --> 01:00:01,431
If I taste it, will you leave me alone?
943
01:00:01,514 --> 01:00:04,475
If you taste everything,
I will leave you alone.
944
01:00:06,519 --> 01:00:09,814
Oh, yeah. So good.
945
01:00:09,897 --> 01:00:11,232
- Yeah.
- Mm.
946
01:00:13,109 --> 01:00:15,612
- Mm!
- Right? It's good, right?
947
01:00:15,695 --> 01:00:17,822
Uh-huh. Mm.
948
01:00:17,905 --> 01:00:19,949
- Swallow that egg roll.
- Blegh!
949
01:00:20,033 --> 01:00:21,159
Oh…
950
01:00:23,328 --> 01:00:24,203
Oh!
951
01:00:25,913 --> 01:00:30,209
Jesus Christ.
That was a thing of great beauty.
952
01:00:31,336 --> 01:00:34,005
- That's super hot.
- I know. It's what I was going for.
953
01:00:35,089 --> 01:00:38,968
So, I find out I can pull
the patient ID thing all the way up my arm
954
01:00:39,052 --> 01:00:40,595
and hide it underneath my T-shirt,
955
01:00:40,678 --> 01:00:45,224
and I just get out past
the nurse's station, I just walk out.
956
01:00:45,308 --> 01:00:48,144
- Where were you even going?
- The beach?
957
01:00:48,227 --> 01:00:49,854
[BOTH LAUGHING]
958
01:00:49,937 --> 01:00:51,731
I don't even know.
959
01:00:51,814 --> 01:00:54,651
But there I am,
just jogging down Wilshire Boulevard.
960
01:00:55,860 --> 01:00:57,987
I'm a full-on crazy person,
961
01:00:58,071 --> 01:01:02,367
and I'm jogging at the light…
when my mom drives up.
962
01:01:02,450 --> 01:01:05,870
- She was on the way to the hospital.
- Oh, my God.
963
01:01:05,953 --> 01:01:06,954
You don't like it?
964
01:01:08,373 --> 01:01:09,374
[LAUGHING]
965
01:01:11,000 --> 01:01:13,127
No, I do. It's just, um…
966
01:01:13,211 --> 01:01:17,215
She… She just gets a bit nauseous
because of, um…
967
01:01:18,633 --> 01:01:20,385
the chemo.
968
01:01:20,468 --> 01:01:24,180
But it tastes really good.
The beer really helps.
969
01:01:25,556 --> 01:01:29,435
- I'll get you another one, no charge.
- Thank you very much.
970
01:01:31,813 --> 01:01:34,273
- Yes.
- Oh, my God.
971
01:01:34,357 --> 01:01:36,984
- No charge.
- Oh, my God, we're going to hell.
972
01:01:37,068 --> 01:01:38,861
Yeah. [LAUGHS]
973
01:01:38,945 --> 01:01:40,446
[LAUGHS]
974
01:01:42,448 --> 01:01:46,577
- Did he try to kiss you?
- Ew! Does he even like girls?
975
01:01:46,661 --> 01:01:47,995
No.
976
01:01:50,289 --> 01:01:51,874
I don't know.
977
01:01:53,584 --> 01:01:55,878
[GIGGLING]
978
01:01:59,424 --> 01:02:01,467
[GIRL] What I'm trying to say is,
979
01:02:01,551 --> 01:02:04,679
why does she get to leave the house
when she's only level two?
980
01:02:04,762 --> 01:02:07,765
- It was Luke's night out.
- Yeah, but Ellen got to go.
981
01:02:07,849 --> 01:02:08,975
It's "Eli" now.
982
01:02:11,144 --> 01:02:14,105
It might make you feel better to know
that Dr. Beck scheduled a special trip
983
01:02:14,188 --> 01:02:15,940
for you guys in a couple of days.
984
01:02:16,023 --> 01:02:18,735
- Tell me it's not the Holocaust Museum.
- No.
985
01:02:18,818 --> 01:02:22,697
My mother took me there to make me
feel shitty, you know, about starving.
986
01:02:26,492 --> 01:02:27,827
It's okay. We're Jewish.
987
01:02:35,042 --> 01:02:38,296
Damn, Dr. Beck.
Are you trying to turn me straight?
988
01:02:38,379 --> 01:02:39,589
[WOLF WHISTLES]
989
01:02:39,672 --> 01:02:41,257
That's a different program.
990
01:02:41,340 --> 01:02:43,426
- Hi, everyone.
- Hey!
991
01:02:43,509 --> 01:02:47,305
Okay, so this place we're going, I had
to pull some strings to get us in there,
992
01:02:47,388 --> 01:02:48,848
so you have to behave.
993
01:02:48,931 --> 01:02:50,516
Tell us. I can't stand it.
994
01:02:51,642 --> 01:02:52,810
Tell us!
995
01:02:52,894 --> 01:02:54,812
[ALL CHANT] Tell us! Tell us!
996
01:02:54,896 --> 01:02:57,148
Tell us! Tell us! Tell us!
997
01:02:57,231 --> 01:02:59,233
[WATER RUNNING]
998
01:03:00,818 --> 01:03:02,111
I don't like this.
999
01:03:02,195 --> 01:03:05,656
I'm definitely getting a Holocaust vibe,
doc.
1000
01:03:05,740 --> 01:03:09,285
- It's okay, I promise.
- I don't believe you.
1001
01:03:23,466 --> 01:03:24,801
What is it?
1002
01:03:27,553 --> 01:03:28,596
Art.
1003
01:03:36,062 --> 01:03:38,564
Somebody tell me why we're here!
1004
01:03:44,862 --> 01:03:46,113
Because we're alive.
1005
01:03:47,698 --> 01:03:49,742
- ["WATER" PLAYING]
- Very good.
1006
01:03:49,826 --> 01:03:56,249
♪ Water leave ♪
♪ Through the valleys you wore down ♪
1007
01:03:56,332 --> 01:03:58,334
♪ Wear me down ♪
1008
01:04:01,921 --> 01:04:04,340
♪ Drown me in the water ♪
1009
01:04:05,550 --> 01:04:07,552
♪ Drown me in the sea ♪
1010
01:04:09,095 --> 01:04:12,473
♪ Lose me in the dark ♪
♪ Drag me to the deep ♪
1011
01:04:12,557 --> 01:04:16,477
♪ Let your water wash over me ♪
1012
01:04:23,734 --> 01:04:26,362
♪ Water ♪
1013
01:04:27,488 --> 01:04:30,241
♪ Water rise ♪
1014
01:04:31,909 --> 01:04:34,161
♪ Find a woman ♪
1015
01:04:34,245 --> 01:04:38,749
♪ And dance through the moon's light ♪
1016
01:04:38,833 --> 01:04:40,751
♪ Leave me the rain ♪
1017
01:04:40,835 --> 01:04:43,963
♪ Drown me in the water ♪
1018
01:04:44,046 --> 01:04:46,257
♪ Drown me in the sea ♪
1019
01:04:47,758 --> 01:04:51,137
♪ Lose me in the dark ♪
♪ Drag me to the deep ♪
1020
01:04:51,220 --> 01:04:54,557
♪ Let your water wash over me ♪
1021
01:04:54,640 --> 01:04:56,809
♪ Wash ♪
1022
01:04:58,352 --> 01:04:59,854
♪ Wash ♪
1023
01:05:01,772 --> 01:05:03,733
♪ Wash ♪
1024
01:05:23,794 --> 01:05:26,547
♪ Drown me in your water ♪
1025
01:05:26,631 --> 01:05:28,925
♪ Drown me in the water ♪
1026
01:05:30,051 --> 01:05:31,594
♪ Drown me in the sea ♪
1027
01:05:33,721 --> 01:05:36,015
♪ Drown me in the water ♪
1028
01:05:37,391 --> 01:05:39,644
♪ Drown me in the sea ♪
1029
01:05:40,811 --> 01:05:43,022
♪ Drown me in the water ♪
1030
01:05:44,148 --> 01:05:46,275
♪ Drown me in the sea ♪
1031
01:05:49,779 --> 01:05:51,572
Here you go.
1032
01:05:51,656 --> 01:05:53,199
You're shaking like a chihuahua.
1033
01:06:15,429 --> 01:06:16,889
I know what you're trying to do.
1034
01:06:19,225 --> 01:06:22,979
Life's beautiful and all that… shit.
1035
01:06:24,814 --> 01:06:26,983
And that upsets you because…?
1036
01:06:28,275 --> 01:06:29,735
[SCOFFS]
1037
01:06:29,819 --> 01:06:31,028
Because it is.
1038
01:06:34,365 --> 01:06:40,913
I mean, I… I know it can be,
but I… I can't stop.
1039
01:06:42,248 --> 01:06:48,546
And I don't even know why.
I just… I just can't.
1040
01:06:48,629 --> 01:06:54,176
Yeah, that's bullshit.
That voice that says you can't.
1041
01:06:54,260 --> 01:06:57,346
Every time you hear that voice,
I want you to tell it to fuck off.
1042
01:06:58,723 --> 01:07:03,352
- Fuck off, voice!
- [LUKE] Yeah! Fuck off!
1043
01:07:03,436 --> 01:07:05,771
- [ANNA] Fuck you, voice!
- [KENDRA] Fuck you, voice!
1044
01:07:05,855 --> 01:07:07,606
- Fuck you, voice!
- Fuck off!
1045
01:07:08,733 --> 01:07:10,359
Fuck!
1046
01:07:10,443 --> 01:07:13,320
- [APPLAUSE]
- [LUKE] Yeah! Whoo!
1047
01:07:13,404 --> 01:07:14,739
[ANNA] Yeah! Yeah!
1048
01:07:14,822 --> 01:07:16,198
Fuck off.
1049
01:07:16,282 --> 01:07:19,285
[ALL SHOUTING]
1050
01:07:27,251 --> 01:07:30,004
- That's what they always say.
- I know.
1051
01:07:30,087 --> 01:07:32,214
- What are you… ooh!
- I'll go blueberry.
1052
01:07:32,298 --> 01:07:33,424
I didn't say…
1053
01:07:33,507 --> 01:07:34,467
[LAUGHS]
1054
01:08:11,545 --> 01:08:13,547
Try not to look too pleased
with yourself.
1055
01:08:13,631 --> 01:08:15,633
[LAUGHS]
1056
01:08:22,389 --> 01:08:25,601
- [LUKE] Mm-hmm.
- [LAUGHTER]
1057
01:08:25,684 --> 01:08:27,353
"Cassidy." That's her name.
1058
01:08:30,356 --> 01:08:32,149
Um…
1059
01:08:32,233 --> 01:08:37,154
It's a girl, and today
she is 12 weeks and one day old.
1060
01:08:37,238 --> 01:08:39,949
- [GASPS] Oh, my God!
- Oh, my God.
1061
01:08:43,035 --> 01:08:45,704
Can we have the baby shower now?
1062
01:08:45,788 --> 01:08:50,417
[SIGHS] Yes, but I…
Just don't be a spaz about it, okay?
1063
01:08:50,501 --> 01:08:52,211
- [PEARL] Okay. Sorry.
- Don't go…
1064
01:08:52,294 --> 01:08:54,296
She's gonna have ponies everywhere.
1065
01:08:54,380 --> 01:08:55,548
Ta-da!
1066
01:08:55,631 --> 01:08:57,633
- [ALL CHEER]
- [LUKE] Oh, yeah.
1067
01:08:57,716 --> 01:08:58,759
Amazing.
1068
01:09:03,180 --> 01:09:05,474
I mean, that's one sassy unicorn.
1069
01:09:06,517 --> 01:09:08,060
I can't believe you drew that for her.
1070
01:09:09,895 --> 01:09:11,981
- You're welcome.
- It's awesome.
1071
01:09:13,357 --> 01:09:16,360
Um, I love you guys and thank you.
1072
01:09:16,443 --> 01:09:17,820
[ALL] Cheers.
1073
01:09:17,903 --> 01:09:20,865
[ALL CHATTER, LAUGH]
1074
01:09:38,424 --> 01:09:39,341
Whee!
1075
01:09:39,425 --> 01:09:40,718
[LAUGHS]
1076
01:09:40,801 --> 01:09:42,511
- It's so crazy.
- It's so high.
1077
01:09:42,595 --> 01:09:44,388
- I'm actually quite terrified.
- Oh, my God.
1078
01:09:44,471 --> 01:09:46,223
- Fifty feet up.
- Here we go.
1079
01:09:46,307 --> 01:09:49,268
Whoa. Whoa! [LAUGHS]
1080
01:09:49,351 --> 01:09:53,272
- All right, now it's your turn.
- No, I'd better not.
1081
01:09:53,355 --> 01:09:56,108
- Fucking knee.
- That knee.
1082
01:09:59,195 --> 01:10:00,237
Yup.
1083
01:10:15,002 --> 01:10:16,003
Sorry.
1084
01:10:19,006 --> 01:10:21,217
Did somebody bad touch you
as a kid or something?
1085
01:10:22,676 --> 01:10:25,221
- It's a big rexie thing.
- No.
1086
01:10:26,972 --> 01:10:28,641
Not really.
1087
01:10:28,724 --> 01:10:31,894
Hmm. Let's talk about that "really."
1088
01:10:35,648 --> 01:10:36,899
Just normal shit.
1089
01:10:39,401 --> 01:10:42,488
The second you get boobs,
it's like open season.
1090
01:10:44,240 --> 01:10:48,118
You guys are pretty disgusting that way.
1091
01:10:48,202 --> 01:10:50,788
We could at least
have some manners about it.
1092
01:10:50,871 --> 01:10:53,582
Not rub up against you guys
on the bus.
1093
01:10:53,666 --> 01:10:55,251
Oh, bus rubbing.
1094
01:10:56,627 --> 01:11:02,424
Titty grabbing… gross dirty talk…
night stalking…
1095
01:11:02,508 --> 01:11:06,136
You're all basically just a bunch
of portable holes for men to fuck.
1096
01:11:07,429 --> 01:11:09,139
Hmm.
1097
01:11:09,223 --> 01:11:11,725
Yeah, that's what I'm saying.
1098
01:11:11,809 --> 01:11:14,979
So… have you… done it?
1099
01:11:15,980 --> 01:11:19,275
Or… was it just too appalling?
1100
01:11:23,279 --> 01:11:24,780
Entirely too appalling.
1101
01:11:27,116 --> 01:11:28,534
Ever had an orgasm?
1102
01:11:28,617 --> 01:11:30,077
[LAUGHS]
1103
01:11:30,160 --> 01:11:32,329
- Um… God!
- Sorry.
1104
01:11:32,413 --> 01:11:35,249
- You don't have to answer that.
- Personal.
1105
01:11:35,332 --> 01:11:39,837
It's different for guys, you know.
It's… It's very different.
1106
01:11:39,920 --> 01:11:42,881
There it is… bobbing at you.
1107
01:11:42,965 --> 01:11:44,133
[LAUGHS]
1108
01:11:44,216 --> 01:11:48,345
Just bobbing,
begging to be manhandled.
1109
01:11:48,429 --> 01:11:49,930
[GROANS]
1110
01:11:50,014 --> 01:11:52,224
That's… That's way too much information.
1111
01:11:52,308 --> 01:11:55,561
Not right now, but it could be.
1112
01:11:57,062 --> 01:11:58,439
I just…
1113
01:11:58,522 --> 01:12:00,190
- Okay.
- I…
1114
01:12:01,608 --> 01:12:04,737
I need to do my research. And you…
1115
01:12:07,197 --> 01:12:11,827
…need to be touched by someone
who actually cares about you.
1116
01:12:14,163 --> 01:12:14,997
Luke…
1117
01:12:39,897 --> 01:12:41,357
I'm falling in love with you.
1118
01:12:43,442 --> 01:12:47,529
- God! Luke, really? I…
- I'm sorry.
1119
01:12:47,613 --> 01:12:50,949
- No, sorry, it's just…
- No, you're right.
1120
01:12:51,033 --> 01:12:53,786
It'll be like slapping
two bags of bones together anyway.
1121
01:12:55,287 --> 01:12:58,540
- We should go back inside.
- Hey! What the fuck?
1122
01:12:59,875 --> 01:13:01,752
What the fuck what?
1123
01:13:01,835 --> 01:13:04,546
Suddenly, you decide
this is a physical thing,
1124
01:13:04,630 --> 01:13:06,632
and I'm caught by surprise,
1125
01:13:06,715 --> 01:13:09,927
and now you're just gonna go pout
and make this my fault?
1126
01:13:10,010 --> 01:13:12,721
All right, I'm sorry.
Obviously, it was a bad idea.
1127
01:13:12,805 --> 01:13:16,809
I just thought, if you knew
I wanted it to be good or different…
1128
01:13:16,892 --> 01:13:18,894
And you're falling in love with me?
1129
01:13:18,977 --> 01:13:22,564
Okay, I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to unleash the Kraken.
1130
01:13:22,648 --> 01:13:26,819
- I've known you for, like, three weeks.
- Well, I've known you for two years.
1131
01:13:26,902 --> 01:13:29,363
Your drawing,
the way you see things…
1132
01:13:29,446 --> 01:13:32,658
Yeah? Oh, okay.
1133
01:13:32,741 --> 01:13:38,664
This rexie girl, who saw my stuff
on Tumblr, liked the way I saw… so much,
1134
01:13:38,747 --> 01:13:43,043
that when she slit her wrists,
she left me the fucking note.
1135
01:13:44,795 --> 01:13:46,422
And you know what her parents did?
1136
01:13:47,881 --> 01:13:52,511
They sent me pictures…
so I'd really know what I'd done.
1137
01:13:57,015 --> 01:13:58,767
People say they love you…
1138
01:14:00,144 --> 01:14:01,186
but what they mean is,
1139
01:14:01,270 --> 01:14:05,899
they love how loving you
makes them feel about themselves.
1140
01:14:05,983 --> 01:14:11,071
Or… [SNIFFLES] Or they love
what they can take from you.
1141
01:14:11,155 --> 01:14:14,867
I don't even know where to start
with that. That's all kinds of wrong.
1142
01:14:16,452 --> 01:14:17,494
I'm done.
1143
01:14:18,495 --> 01:14:23,125
Okay, all right, you win!
All right? You're the queen of darkness.
1144
01:14:24,460 --> 01:14:25,878
Hey, come on!
1145
01:14:36,847 --> 01:14:39,224
[PANTING]
1146
01:14:39,308 --> 01:14:41,768
[GRUNTING]
1147
01:14:51,612 --> 01:14:53,739
[MEGAN CRIES OUT]
1148
01:14:53,822 --> 01:14:55,908
[MEGAN SCREAMING]
1149
01:14:58,202 --> 01:15:00,537
- Megan!
- Megan?
1150
01:15:00,621 --> 01:15:03,081
Megan! Megan, it's Luke! Let me in!
1151
01:15:04,791 --> 01:15:06,460
- [LOBO GRUNTS]
- [KEYS RATTLE]
1152
01:15:06,543 --> 01:15:09,463
[MEGAN WAILS]
1153
01:15:17,387 --> 01:15:20,390
[MEGAN SOBS] I thought I was safe.
1154
01:15:21,725 --> 01:15:23,602
[LOBO] I know, I know.
1155
01:15:25,729 --> 01:15:27,481
It's gonna be okay.
1156
01:15:27,564 --> 01:15:29,900
[MEGAN SOBS]
1157
01:15:29,983 --> 01:15:31,235
[LOBO] I know. I'm sorry.
1158
01:15:32,778 --> 01:15:34,988
Guys, go back to bed.
1159
01:15:35,072 --> 01:15:37,115
[MEGAN SCREAMS]
1160
01:15:53,090 --> 01:15:55,384
Can you push a baby out
by throwing up too hard?
1161
01:15:57,010 --> 01:16:01,807
Yeah, that's exactly how it happens.
Don't be an idiot.
1162
01:16:05,352 --> 01:16:06,937
Good morning.
1163
01:16:07,020 --> 01:16:08,313
- Good morning.
- Hi.
1164
01:16:10,691 --> 01:16:11,984
How's Megan?
1165
01:16:12,067 --> 01:16:17,489
[SIGHS] She's at the hospital.
She's fine now, physically.
1166
01:16:19,992 --> 01:16:22,411
She's not sure she wants
to come back here…
1167
01:16:23,870 --> 01:16:25,080
which I understand.
1168
01:16:26,456 --> 01:16:27,666
Can we visit her?
1169
01:16:29,167 --> 01:16:33,005
Not yet, but I think, in a few days,
that's exactly what she needs.
1170
01:16:33,088 --> 01:16:34,006
I wanna go home.
1171
01:16:36,049 --> 01:16:37,134
I bet you do.
1172
01:16:39,136 --> 01:16:45,017
Listen. Bad things are going to happen.
That's not negotiable.
1173
01:16:46,268 --> 01:16:48,854
What is, is how you deal with it.
1174
01:16:56,111 --> 01:16:57,112
Would you read this?
1175
01:16:58,530 --> 01:17:00,365
- Do I have to?
- No.
1176
01:17:02,200 --> 01:17:03,201
Okay.
1177
01:17:13,587 --> 01:17:16,048
'"Courage' by Anne Sexton.
1178
01:17:19,176 --> 01:17:22,220
It is in the small things that we see it.
1179
01:17:22,304 --> 01:17:27,059
The child's first step,
as awesome as an earthquake.
1180
01:17:27,142 --> 01:17:31,271
The first time you rode a bike,
wallowing up the sidewalk.
1181
01:17:31,355 --> 01:17:35,859
The first spanking, when your heart
went on a journey all alone.
1182
01:17:35,942 --> 01:17:40,906
When they called you 'crybaby'
or 'poor' or 'fatty' or 'crazy'…
1183
01:17:40,989 --> 01:17:43,241
and made you into an alien…
1184
01:17:43,325 --> 01:17:45,744
"you drank their acid
and you concealed it."
1185
01:17:50,457 --> 01:17:55,420
[CLEARS THROAT] "Later, if you faced
the death of bombs and bullets…"
1186
01:17:56,421 --> 01:17:58,715
you did not do it with a banner.
1187
01:17:58,799 --> 01:18:01,802
You did it with only a hat
to cover your heart.
1188
01:18:02,969 --> 01:18:06,598
You did not fondle the weakness inside you
though it was there.
1189
01:18:09,726 --> 01:18:12,979
"Your courage was a small coal
that you kept swallowing."
1190
01:18:18,402 --> 01:18:19,236
[SIGHS]
1191
01:18:22,531 --> 01:18:24,324
So, Megan did decide to go home.
1192
01:18:29,913 --> 01:18:31,665
Anybody wanna talk about that?
1193
01:18:35,585 --> 01:18:38,547
It's her fault. She was purging.
1194
01:18:41,049 --> 01:18:45,470
I think Megan wanted her baby.
I really think she did.
1195
01:18:45,554 --> 01:18:49,725
- We shouldn't have had the shower.
- No, I don't think it was that.
1196
01:18:53,770 --> 01:18:55,147
Eli, you and Luke found her.
1197
01:18:57,733 --> 01:18:58,984
That must have been hard.
1198
01:19:02,154 --> 01:19:03,989
That baby was never gonna make it.
1199
01:19:07,409 --> 01:19:11,413
- Where is Luke, anyway?
- He's at the doctor for his knee.
1200
01:19:15,667 --> 01:19:16,668
Eli?
1201
01:19:19,504 --> 01:19:20,630
Eli.
1202
01:19:22,966 --> 01:19:24,426
[BECKHAM] What's going on with you?
1203
01:19:25,677 --> 01:19:26,762
Nothing.
1204
01:19:27,971 --> 01:19:31,183
Lobo tells me you're about a day away
from getting the tube.
1205
01:19:32,642 --> 01:19:33,810
You've been making progress,
1206
01:19:33,894 --> 01:19:36,855
but you can't stay at Threshold
if you drop any more weight.
1207
01:19:40,025 --> 01:19:43,195
I just think it's so weird
that you know everything about me…
1208
01:19:44,488 --> 01:19:46,198
and I don't know anything about you.
1209
01:19:48,116 --> 01:19:51,119
Okay, what do you wanna know?
1210
01:19:52,537 --> 01:19:54,414
- Do you have a wife?
- No.
1211
01:19:55,540 --> 01:19:58,960
- Do you have kids?
- No.
1212
01:19:59,044 --> 01:20:01,546
So, what's your damage?
1213
01:20:01,630 --> 01:20:03,882
Short version, my work.
1214
01:20:05,091 --> 01:20:09,930
It takes up all my time,
and I… I like it that way.
1215
01:20:11,765 --> 01:20:14,601
Women generally wanna spend time
with somebody they date.
1216
01:20:15,685 --> 01:20:18,104
Sounds like
you're avoiding intimacy, doctor.
1217
01:20:19,231 --> 01:20:20,315
[LAUGHS]
1218
01:20:21,358 --> 01:20:23,276
Yeah, I guess it does.
1219
01:20:26,696 --> 01:20:30,492
Lobo also tells me
that you and Luke aren't speaking.
1220
01:20:30,575 --> 01:20:32,994
It seemed like you and Luke
had something good going.
1221
01:20:33,078 --> 01:20:35,705
Whatever. He's totally gay.
1222
01:20:35,789 --> 01:20:39,334
That would be easier, right?
Then you could write him off.
1223
01:20:41,044 --> 01:20:44,089
- Does he talk to you about me?
- You know I can't answer that.
1224
01:20:52,514 --> 01:20:55,892
- I just don't see the point.
- In what?
1225
01:20:59,646 --> 01:21:00,772
[BECKHAM SIGHS]
1226
01:21:04,109 --> 01:21:05,610
There is no point.
1227
01:21:07,070 --> 01:21:10,407
Or at least, big picture,
we don't get to know what it is.
1228
01:21:10,490 --> 01:21:15,036
Why we live, why Megan lost the baby,
why that girl killed herself.
1229
01:21:15,120 --> 01:21:18,498
- You're not reassuring me, doctor.
- I can't reassure you.
1230
01:21:19,541 --> 01:21:22,919
This idea you have
that there's a way to be safe…
1231
01:21:23,003 --> 01:21:24,880
it's childish and cowardly.
1232
01:21:26,006 --> 01:21:29,801
It stops you from experiencing anything,
including anything good.
1233
01:21:29,885 --> 01:21:31,845
You don't think I feel bad enough already?
1234
01:21:33,138 --> 01:21:34,723
I know I'm messed up…
1235
01:21:36,224 --> 01:21:39,561
but you're supposed to teach me
how not to be.
1236
01:21:39,644 --> 01:21:41,813
You know how.
1237
01:21:41,897 --> 01:21:46,818
Stop waiting for life to be easy.
Stop hoping for somebody to save you.
1238
01:21:46,902 --> 01:21:49,863
You don't need
another person lying to you.
1239
01:21:49,946 --> 01:21:51,948
Things don't all add up.
1240
01:21:53,241 --> 01:21:55,785
But you're resilient.
1241
01:21:55,869 --> 01:22:00,123
Face some hard facts
and you could have an incredible life.
1242
01:22:02,709 --> 01:22:04,336
That's your pearl of wisdom?
1243
01:22:06,546 --> 01:22:08,048
Grow a pair?
1244
01:22:09,549 --> 01:22:13,678
That's a more concise way
of putting it. Yeah.
1245
01:22:17,057 --> 01:22:18,183
Unbelievable.
1246
01:22:19,893 --> 01:22:21,394
[SCOFFS] Fuck you.
1247
01:22:25,857 --> 01:22:29,444
- What's going on?
- Beck's messed up, you know that?
1248
01:22:29,527 --> 01:22:33,114
We all buy the hype,
but nobody here is getting any better.
1249
01:22:33,198 --> 01:22:36,910
- That's not true.
- Yeah? Megan's screwed.
1250
01:22:36,993 --> 01:22:39,663
Anna has a treasure chest of puke
under her bed.
1251
01:22:39,746 --> 01:22:42,165
You live in fucking Ponyland.
1252
01:22:42,248 --> 01:22:45,377
I'm about to get the tube,
and he doesn't even care.
1253
01:22:49,923 --> 01:22:50,966
Shit.
1254
01:22:52,175 --> 01:22:58,556
I need another surgery. That's it for me
and the illustrious Jersey Ballet.
1255
01:22:58,640 --> 01:22:59,849
Seriously?
1256
01:23:02,018 --> 01:23:06,189
Yeah. Come on, put your bag down.
Let's go get another cancer beer.
1257
01:23:06,272 --> 01:23:08,692
I can't. Sorry. I'm actually out of here.
1258
01:23:08,775 --> 01:23:10,151
Did you hear what I said?
1259
01:23:11,695 --> 01:23:15,156
I'm finished. And you're leaving?
1260
01:23:18,034 --> 01:23:19,995
I can't.
1261
01:23:20,078 --> 01:23:23,039
What, you think I didn't guess
my knee was fucked?
1262
01:23:24,332 --> 01:23:27,669
And now that I'm done
doing the one thing that makes me feel,
1263
01:23:27,752 --> 01:23:29,004
you're my next thing.
1264
01:23:31,381 --> 01:23:33,758
[SCOFFS]
1265
01:23:33,842 --> 01:23:38,388
I know that that's not a plan.
It's not a good one, anyway.
1266
01:23:40,432 --> 01:23:43,560
But I need you… Eli.
1267
01:23:57,198 --> 01:23:59,701
[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]
1268
01:23:59,784 --> 01:24:01,953
Okay. Thank you. Bye.
1269
01:24:03,371 --> 01:24:04,456
- Thank you.
- Sure.
1270
01:24:12,338 --> 01:24:13,923
[GRUNTS]
1271
01:24:23,058 --> 01:24:24,309
[BECKHAM] There is no point.
1272
01:24:25,602 --> 01:24:27,312
That girl killed herself.
1273
01:24:29,355 --> 01:24:30,899
You look like a ghost.
1274
01:24:33,234 --> 01:24:34,444
[KELLY] If you die…
1275
01:24:36,196 --> 01:24:38,073
I will kill you.
1276
01:24:38,156 --> 01:24:39,199
[WOMAN] You okay, honey?
1277
01:24:40,617 --> 01:24:44,287
I… I just got up too fast. Sorry.
1278
01:24:45,830 --> 01:24:47,207
You need to eat, girl.
1279
01:24:47,290 --> 01:24:52,504
I'm fine. But thank you.
I just need to get home.
1280
01:25:38,466 --> 01:25:39,801
What kind of place is this,
1281
01:25:39,884 --> 01:25:42,720
where your patients can just walk off
like that and nobody stops her?
1282
01:25:42,804 --> 01:25:45,932
The problem with treatment
for some of these kids…
1283
01:25:46,015 --> 01:25:48,143
is that we won't let them hit bottom.
1284
01:25:48,226 --> 01:25:52,772
It's too hard to watch.
But for Eli, the bottom is critical.
1285
01:26:06,828 --> 01:26:11,291
How is there even less of you?
What did that doctor do to you?
1286
01:26:11,374 --> 01:26:12,375
Hi, Mom.
1287
01:26:13,376 --> 01:26:15,837
- Is this all you've got?
- Yeah.
1288
01:26:15,920 --> 01:26:18,715
All right.
Well, everybody's waiting for you.
1289
01:26:18,798 --> 01:26:22,343
- "Everybody"?
- Horses. They're very sweet beasts.
1290
01:26:23,845 --> 01:26:25,263
[HORSE SNORTS]
1291
01:26:26,306 --> 01:26:29,184
Olive and I were worried that it wasn't
gonna work out with that doctor.
1292
01:26:29,267 --> 01:26:31,811
- Well, he had such an attitude.
- Oh, God complex.
1293
01:26:31,895 --> 01:26:33,855
- Totally dismissive.
- And Susan…
1294
01:26:33,938 --> 01:26:38,193
- I mean, he really let her attack us.
- He just wanted everybody to be honest.
1295
01:26:38,276 --> 01:26:39,527
I don't like to speak negatively,
1296
01:26:39,611 --> 01:26:42,113
but that woman's never said an honest word
in her life.
1297
01:26:42,197 --> 01:26:44,199
Of course, your father doesn't go home.
Can you imagine?
1298
01:26:44,282 --> 01:26:46,618
She fought really hard to get me
into Threshold House.
1299
01:26:46,701 --> 01:26:48,244
Yeah, look how well that turned out.
1300
01:26:49,329 --> 01:26:52,749
And how about the way she talked
about your mother's breakdowns?
1301
01:26:52,832 --> 01:26:56,753
They were transformational for me.
Everybody should have more breakdowns.
1302
01:26:59,505 --> 01:27:01,633
You didn't feel that way about them
when they happened.
1303
01:27:08,014 --> 01:27:11,809
Dr. Beckham called here earlier.
He thought you might turn up.
1304
01:27:11,893 --> 01:27:15,563
- He did? What did you say?
- Well, that you'd decided to leave.
1305
01:27:15,647 --> 01:27:18,566
He wanted to make sure you were okay.
1306
01:27:18,650 --> 01:27:21,945
A boy wanted to speak with you. Luke?
1307
01:27:22,028 --> 01:27:25,240
[SIGHS]
1308
01:27:25,323 --> 01:27:29,035
Is this somebody special?
1309
01:27:29,118 --> 01:27:30,495
I don't know. He…
1310
01:27:31,496 --> 01:27:34,624
He's my friend, kind of…
1311
01:27:36,042 --> 01:27:37,669
It all got fucked up.
1312
01:27:45,927 --> 01:27:49,097
In the morning,
Olive would like you to work with Freya.
1313
01:27:51,599 --> 01:27:52,642
The horse?
1314
01:27:53,685 --> 01:27:56,604
Olive has grown tremendously out here.
You'll thank me.
1315
01:27:56,688 --> 01:28:00,525
But isn't that kind of like a conflict?
Her giving me therapy?
1316
01:28:00,608 --> 01:28:05,446
Freya does all the work.
I'm just a conduit.
1317
01:28:05,530 --> 01:28:07,699
- Oh.
- Yeah, she's just a conduit.
1318
01:28:08,741 --> 01:28:13,788
There's no electricity, but I think…
It's not so cold. You'll be okay.
1319
01:28:15,123 --> 01:28:18,584
- You're gonna sleep, anyway.
- Yeah, I'm tired.
1320
01:28:18,668 --> 01:28:22,964
There's a bedpan here.
So, if you need it…
1321
01:28:23,047 --> 01:28:25,466
It's better than stumbling around
in the dark.
1322
01:28:25,550 --> 01:28:26,592
Okay.
1323
01:28:27,677 --> 01:28:32,056
- People pay money to stay here?
- It's rustic. They love it.
1324
01:28:45,945 --> 01:28:48,197
- Ellen…
- "Eli."
1325
01:28:48,281 --> 01:28:51,617
You know, "Ellen" was
your great-grandmother's name.
1326
01:28:51,701 --> 01:28:53,328
I bet she didn't like it either.
1327
01:28:56,831 --> 01:29:02,128
You know, I… had a premonition
before you came.
1328
01:29:02,211 --> 01:29:05,923
- Really?
- You were a baby.
1329
01:29:06,007 --> 01:29:09,093
I didn't hold you enough.
I didn't bond with you.
1330
01:29:10,553 --> 01:29:14,349
And, of course, that's true.
I didn't know about postpartum depression.
1331
01:29:15,683 --> 01:29:19,103
- I don't think that's it.
- Well, anyway…
1332
01:29:22,690 --> 01:29:26,486
I spoke to Jean Williamson about it.
Do you remember her?
1333
01:29:26,569 --> 01:29:30,823
- The pastor?
- No, she wrote The Pure Way of Light.
1334
01:29:30,907 --> 01:29:33,326
She's very interested in Olive's work
1335
01:29:33,409 --> 01:29:38,956
and has been… a great comfort to me
around your illness.
1336
01:29:39,040 --> 01:29:40,041
And she…
1337
01:29:41,751 --> 01:29:46,506
feels that it would be healing
for the both of us
1338
01:29:46,589 --> 01:29:50,510
if you allowed me to feed you.
1339
01:30:00,978 --> 01:30:05,441
- It's rice milk. I made it myself.
- Like a baby?
1340
01:30:06,609 --> 01:30:09,237
Well, like a mother and a child.
1341
01:30:10,530 --> 01:30:15,660
I could hold you and rock you,
and you could go to sleep.
1342
01:30:17,453 --> 01:30:18,621
Uh, I don't know.
1343
01:30:20,081 --> 01:30:24,168
No, I know. I know it's odd.
1344
01:30:25,878 --> 01:30:26,712
But…
1345
01:30:27,713 --> 01:30:31,926
Well, as she said it, I felt real clarity
that that's what we need.
1346
01:30:34,303 --> 01:30:35,429
Can I think about it?
1347
01:30:38,307 --> 01:30:39,892
Yeah, okay.
1348
01:30:47,233 --> 01:30:48,067
There's, uh…
1349
01:30:49,986 --> 01:30:54,115
not much left of you to lose.
You know that?
1350
01:30:55,283 --> 01:30:58,119
- Dr. Beckham made that clear.
- I know.
1351
01:30:59,996 --> 01:31:01,539
Hmm.
1352
01:31:01,622 --> 01:31:05,084
He said it's your choice,
whether you come back or not.
1353
01:31:06,669 --> 01:31:10,673
But I could tell that he was afraid
that you're gonna die.
1354
01:31:12,842 --> 01:31:16,762
Ellen, my… my baby.
1355
01:31:16,846 --> 01:31:18,306
[VOICE BREAKS] I…
1356
01:31:18,389 --> 01:31:19,515
I know.
1357
01:31:20,808 --> 01:31:22,393
I'm sorry.
1358
01:31:24,687 --> 01:31:25,730
And…
1359
01:31:27,440 --> 01:31:29,317
I just want you to know that…
1360
01:31:31,152 --> 01:31:32,653
I accept it if…
1361
01:31:34,113 --> 01:31:36,741
If death is what you want,
I accept it now.
1362
01:31:39,160 --> 01:31:42,747
I accept it, but um… I love you.
1363
01:31:44,749 --> 01:31:46,751
I just… I can't keep fighting you.
1364
01:31:49,045 --> 01:31:50,087
All right.
1365
01:31:51,756 --> 01:31:52,798
Okay.
1366
01:31:54,634 --> 01:31:55,468
Mom?
1367
01:31:57,053 --> 01:31:57,887
Yeah?
1368
01:32:02,475 --> 01:32:03,851
Feed me, please.
1369
01:32:05,895 --> 01:32:06,979
Yeah.
1370
01:32:09,899 --> 01:32:10,942
Yeah.
1371
01:32:12,735 --> 01:32:13,778
Okay.
1372
01:32:17,698 --> 01:32:18,741
Okay.
1373
01:32:24,830 --> 01:32:27,833
Can you hold this? Hold on.
1374
01:32:29,919 --> 01:32:33,547
Okay. Do you mind if I put your feet down?
1375
01:32:34,799 --> 01:32:37,760
Okay. Are you comfortable?
1376
01:32:37,843 --> 01:32:40,596
- Okay.
- [SNIFFLING]
1377
01:32:44,934 --> 01:32:46,811
- Yeah? Okay.
- Yeah.
1378
01:32:53,776 --> 01:32:55,528
[ELLEN SOBS]
1379
01:32:58,114 --> 01:33:00,491
♪ Hush little baby ♪
1380
01:33:00,574 --> 01:33:02,285
- [SNIFFLING]
- ♪ Don't say a word ♪
1381
01:33:04,745 --> 01:33:08,916
♪ Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird ♪
1382
01:33:10,001 --> 01:33:13,337
♪ And if that mockingbird don't sing ♪
1383
01:33:16,132 --> 01:33:19,468
♪ Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring ♪
1384
01:33:20,594 --> 01:33:25,433
♪ And if that diamond ring turns brass ♪
1385
01:33:27,476 --> 01:33:30,604
♪ Mama's gonna buy you a looking glass ♪
1386
01:35:05,533 --> 01:35:06,659
[GROANS]
1387
01:35:16,544 --> 01:35:17,962
[SIGHS]
1388
01:35:20,214 --> 01:35:21,257
Okay.
1389
01:35:37,982 --> 01:35:41,527
You need to get out of the sun.
You're frying.
1390
01:35:47,241 --> 01:35:48,576
There's a tree.
1391
01:36:00,296 --> 01:36:02,006
[JUDY] I just want you to know that…
1392
01:36:03,799 --> 01:36:05,259
I accept it.
1393
01:36:06,385 --> 01:36:09,346
- [ELLEN] I just don't see the point.
- [BECKHAM] There is no point.
1394
01:36:10,806 --> 01:36:12,266
[KELLY] Can you please
just try this time?
1395
01:36:16,562 --> 01:36:19,273
[SUSAN] Not too good. Not perfect.
1396
01:36:20,608 --> 01:36:22,776
[SIGHS] Pretty.
1397
01:36:25,362 --> 01:36:27,323
[VOICES WHISPERING]
1398
01:36:29,200 --> 01:36:31,869
[KELLY] I don't get to have a sister.
1399
01:36:39,627 --> 01:36:42,838
You're dazzling. You know that?
1400
01:36:44,757 --> 01:36:45,841
I do not.
1401
01:37:19,500 --> 01:37:20,543
Shit.
1402
01:37:23,128 --> 01:37:24,171
Hey.
1403
01:37:25,589 --> 01:37:26,757
I need you to look.
1404
01:37:41,981 --> 01:37:43,983
Oh, my God. Is that me?
1405
01:37:53,200 --> 01:37:54,201
That's me.
1406
01:38:01,875 --> 01:38:05,629
Your courage is a small coal
that you keep swallowing.
1407
01:38:28,986 --> 01:38:30,529
[COUGHING]
1408
01:38:39,330 --> 01:38:40,289
[SIGHS]
1409
01:39:14,031 --> 01:39:15,115
[CHUCKLES]
1410
01:39:19,870 --> 01:39:20,954
Not dead.
1411
01:39:21,038 --> 01:39:22,998
[BREATHES HEAVILY]
1412
01:39:28,879 --> 01:39:31,924
["FOLLOW THE SUN" PLAYING]
1413
01:39:51,026 --> 01:39:53,821
♪ Follow ♪
1414
01:39:53,904 --> 01:39:57,741
♪ Follow the sun ♪
1415
01:39:57,825 --> 01:40:01,745
♪ And which way the wind blows ♪
1416
01:40:01,829 --> 01:40:04,498
♪ When this day is done ♪
1417
01:40:06,917 --> 01:40:10,254
♪ And breathe ♪
1418
01:40:10,337 --> 01:40:13,924
♪ Breathe in the air ♪
1419
01:40:14,007 --> 01:40:17,970
♪ Cherish this moment ♪
1420
01:40:18,053 --> 01:40:21,098
♪ Cherish this breath ♪
1421
01:40:23,809 --> 01:40:24,935
I'm gonna be okay.
1422
01:40:29,398 --> 01:40:32,735
Whatever. You do this again,
I'm gonna punch you in the vagina.
1423
01:40:32,818 --> 01:40:34,236
[BOTH LAUGH]
1424
01:40:45,330 --> 01:40:47,416
- You sure?
- Yeah.
1425
01:40:47,499 --> 01:40:48,333
Okay.
1426
01:40:50,544 --> 01:40:51,378
Okay.
1427
01:40:53,297 --> 01:40:56,467
♪ So follow ♪
1428
01:40:56,550 --> 01:40:59,219
♪ Follow the sun ♪
1429
01:41:00,345 --> 01:41:04,266
♪ And which way the wind blows ♪
1430
01:41:04,349 --> 01:41:07,644
♪ When this day is done ♪