["Gypsy" by Stevie Nicks]
♪ So I'm back to the velvet underground ♪
♪ Back to the floor that I love ♪
♪ To a room with some lace Some paper flowers ♪
♪ Back to the gypsy that I was ♪
♪ To the gypsy that remains ♪
♪ Faces freedom With a little bit of fear ♪
♪ I have no fear, I have only love ♪
♪ But she was just a wish ♪
♪ She was just a wish ♪
♪ And lightning struck only once ♪
♪ And your gypsy, your gypsy ♪
[lighter clicking]
[exhaling sharply]
[dog whining]
We'll go out in a sec, Stevie, I promise, okay?
[Frances] Oh, shit.
Can I get some?
Yeah, but we're out of milk.
-[Frances] Ask a neighbor. -Go fuck yourself.
[Sidney] Um, put the seat up this time.
[knock on door]
I got it.
[Frances] Thanks for coming. I'm totally out.
No problem. I'm kind of in a rush here.
[Frances] Yeah, let me get my cash.
So you're Frances' hookup.
-And you're? -His landlord.
For a few days.
[Frances] Sidney's in the band with me.
[Tom] Thanks, dude.
Can I get his number?
Maybe I want to buy from him instead.
Oh, and FYI, Ambien really brings out your dark side.
-I hope I didn't-- -[Sidney] It's cool, dude.
[Frances] Do you have a towel?
Just use mine.
[cell phone swooshes]
-[train brakes screech] -[cell phone chimes]
-[conductor] Tickets, please? -[Michael grunts]
Babe, your pass.
[conductor] Thank you.
I still don't feel good about this afternoon.
I think we should reschedule.
If we're both in the room,
Dolly's gonna think it's a much bigger deal than it is.
Okay, but text me directly afterwards, okay?
Of course.
[man] Grand Central, final stop.
Please check for your personal belongings.
Final stop, Grand Central Station.
I miss you already.
[phone swooshes]
[man and woman laugh]
[breathing heavily]
[moaning]
Oh, and you don't have to be jealous anymore.
Why?
Of Sam. He blocked me on Instagram,
and... I don't know, at first I thought
it was just Emily and her bitchy ways,
but then I realized he must have seen the photo of us.
What photo?
Don't be mad. I know I said I deleted it, but...
It's mostly just fans of Vagabonds,
and a lot of comments about how hot you are.
And I can't argue with that.
Well, wait, are you sure?
I mean, how do you even know he saw the pic?
Come on, it would totally set him off.
My sexuality and all that shit.
You sure you can't come over?
I have an appointment.
Therapy. Happy?
Do you talk about me?
Maybe.
-Bye. -Bye.
[car horn honks]
[Larin] Jean, there's a woman asking for you in the front.
-Oh, yeah? -Says she's Allison's mom.
I've been trying to get in touch with her for the past 48 hours,
and I know she usually comes here on Wednesdays.
Well, she often changes the schedule, so she's not actually coming today.
[woman] Has she reached out?
Look, Margaret, um...
I can confirm that Allison is my patient,
but I can't really divulge any details, by law.
This is an extenuating circumstance, don't you think?
-Are you guys in touch? -What do you mean?
She's been living with me the last few months.
-Living with you? I thought-- -Yeah.
-What about Tom? -Who's Tom?
It's a friend of hers she mentioned once.
Well, we had a fight, much worse than usual.
And I've been feeling incredibly guilty
because she left, and I haven't heard from her,
and I figured I've been giving her money to come see you four times a week,
so you must know more than me.
Look, like I said, our sessions are completely confidential, so...
I'm so worried that I upset her to the point where she might
get back involved with drugs again.
Yeah, I understand your concern.
When I hear from her,
I can promise you I will have her contact you.
How are you feeling?
I was sorry to hear about your health.
I'm fine, what do you mean?
Nothing.
[papers rustling]
[phone ringing]
[voice mail beeps]
Allison, this is Jean.
Uh, can you call me when you get this?
Thanks.
[Larin] Hey, what was Allison's mother doing here?
She wanted to book a family session.
They're working hard on their relationship.
She hasn't heard of a phone?
Yeah, I guess she lives nearby and wanted to talk it through in person.
-[Gary] Allison wasn't present? -No.
She been keeping up with her meetings?
Yeah, she's committed to her recovery.
I told you.
Okay.
[Jean] So...
Allison?
Allison.
[gasps]
[saw buzzing]
[chattering]
Hi. I'm looking for Tom.
He moved out, can't you tell?
Do you know where I might find him?
[laughing] Don't ask, don't tell.
It's a joke. Smile, lady.
Yeah, well, I was, uh...
I was actually looking for a girl who used to live here.
-Allison? -Yeah, have you seen her?
Nah, she ain't been here for a while.
You got a name, Curious George?
You know what? Um...
Don't worry, thanks.
[door opens]
-Mommy! -See, she's still here.
-[Jean] Hey, sweetie. -Hi, Mommy.
A lovely girl, just lovely.
So, we worked on a checklist.
She tested high on the scale for ADHD.
Yeah, I've looked at that test, and those variables seem--
Yeah, I've heard the criticisms,
but I'm trained to see what parents tend to want to gloss over.
Something else to consider, children who exhibit ADHD tendencies
are six times more likely to express gender variance.
I've been reading up on gender dysphoria, so...
Well, as you know, then...
this may become about her sexuality, but for now,
definitely just keep allowing her to express herself.
How are things at home?
Good.
I mean, yeah, great.
Marriage relations are good?
Yes.
Anyone working longer hours, changes in routine?
Well, my husband is working on a project
that is a little more demanding than usual.
What about you?
You're the primary caregiver.
Are there any changes in your behavior, mood, personal conflicts?
Nothing out of the ordinary.
Good, well...
I am going to recommend that Dolly try a period of medication.
I just figured I'd get the prescription filled.
I didn't say I was gonna actually start giving it to her.
I want to get a second opinion,
because I don't think she needs to be medicated--
I think you'll find every doctor's gonna say the same thing.
We'll just make sure.
Do you want to speak to the doctor yourself?
I mean, it feels like you don't trust me.
I didn't say that. Don't put words into my mouth.
I do think that you're convinced
that if you can take care of her learning issues,
then that'll solve other things that you're concerned about.
No, I'm not saying that at all. I just want to stay on top of her grades,
and that seems like the only thing we can control here.
But we can't. Dolly isn't like you.
Not as a student, not in the way that she dresses,
and that's okay.
I'm not sure where all this is coming from.
It feels like you have a lot of pent-up anger on the issue.
Hey, don't analyze me right now, okay?
Daddy, I'm brushed. Can you tuck me in?
Yes, of course I can. Come on, sweetie.
[Sam] I have something I wanted to show you.
At first I wasn't sure what I should do.
She was such a part of me, it made sense she left a mark.
So it's a phoenix.
The phoenix bird periodically burns itself to death,
and then reemerges from the ashes.
Emily thought it made sense, the symbolism, since I'm rebuilding.
I'm glad things are going so well with Emily.
-Are you? -Yeah.
Of course, what do you mean?
I figured it out.
-Sam-- -No.
You want me to be hooked on Sidney.
Keeps me sick and needing you.
Makes you powerful.
Look, Sam, I, um...
I know things ended on a strange note in our last session,
but I was just pushing you to challenge your feelings.
I mean, that's my job, to help you.
You know, I wanted to believe Sidney was a curse.
This... virus, this terrible thing.
But I've started to see things differently.
She was a gift.
In fact, without her, I never would have gotten to you.
And you helped me change, which brought me back to Emily,
where I actually belong.
That's good.
Remember what you told me when she stole Stevie?
Anything that connected me to Sidney was time to let go.
But there's still one thing I need to let go of.
You.
You are the last remaining thing that connects me to Sidney.
And I’m finally in a really good place and making major life decisions.
And as I look ahead, I was never someone who saw myself
in therapy forever, you know?
Wait, Sam. Sidney's just one of our topics in here,
a better way to understand you.
You taught me really well.
I'm taking responsibility.
But as long as you're in my life, she is, too.
I don't think you should quit therapy, Sam.
We still have a lot of work to do.
I'll always have work to do.
But I want to enjoy my life, not just talk about all the issues.
Honestly, it'll probably be good for you, too.
We still have a few minutes.
I'm good, that's okay.
I'd like to finish this conversation, Sam--
[gasping]
[breathing heavily]
Yes, hi, um...
I'm looking for Melissa Saugraves.
Does she still work there?
Okay, do you know where?
Thank you, thank you.
There's something I wanted to tell you.
-What, what is it? -Promise you won't judge me?
-No, I won't. -Yes, you will.
Okay, fine, tell me anyway.
-I am sort of dating someone. -Really, who?
Well, that's the thing, it's Daryl.
Wow. Oh, my God. Well, what happened?
Well, he broke up with that high school hooker of his,
and we were hanging out more.
We just had to go over some stuff for the divorce, and...
it's actually been so nice.
I am not getting ahead of myself, though.
That's very evolved of you.
Seriously, I'm really happy for you.
Thank you. I actually haven't told anyone.
Oh, um...
Uh, Greek salad, dressing on the side, please.
Lamb gyro, please.
[vendor] Greek salad. Lamb Gyro.
[laughs] I'm just worried people are gonna judge me.
He cheated on me, and I--
Well, honestly, I'm realizing...
you should never judge something you don't understand.
So I'm happy for you.
Oh, hey, I'm looking for Allison. Have you guys seen her?
You're her mom, right?
No, no. She hasn't been here in a few days.
Sorry.
Okay.
[children chattering]
[woman] You should be ready by now.
[chattering]
[Dolly] But it's not fair!
[Michelle] If something were to go wrong, that would be very dangerous.
But Peter Pan flies.
There'd be no magic if he doesn't fly.
[Jean] Hey, what's going on?
One of the chains holding the harness up broke.
We don't have time to fix it.
Oh, well, I can take it to the shop. I don't mind.
-The apparatus is so old. -It's not worth the risk.
-We can pretend. -I don't want to pretend.
Hold on. Here, come here, sweetie.
Listen, calm down, okay?
It's okay, I'm gonna fix it, okay? Mommy's got a plan, all right?
Now you just go and rehearse with your friends,
my little sweet Peter Pan, okay?
[sighs]
Busted.
And here I thought you were the rare, well-adjusted career mom.
Oh, shut up.
I'm just happy to see that you have a wild side, Jean.
[laughs] Maybe we can actually be friends.
Yeah, it's more anxious than rebellious these days, but hey.
Well, if you ever need,
I basically have a pharmacy on me at all times.
[clears throat]
-Hey. -So, um,
I've been going over it.
-What? -The rumor.
And how nobody here will look at me in the fucking eye and what Scott said.
-All of it. -Okay.
And you're the one that told everyone about Texas.
[Alexis] Michael, I--
Just admit it, Alexis.
Do you have any idea how fucking angry that makes me?
You have put me in an impossible position here,
and you lied to me to my face, and I thought I was being really nice,
you know, including you in the case, and taking you to Texas, and--
I can explain. That is--
I don't want you to.
I know why it happened.
Do you?
I care about you, and I don't feel fucking good about it.
But nothing is going to happen between us.
I need you to know that and understand that.
And if you do, then you should come back to my desk.
I understand.
[shower running]
[phone ringing]
[sighs]
My mom will be here in a second.
All right, I'll be down soon.
-[slapping sound] -[panting]
-[doorbell rings] -[knock on door]
[sighs]
-Hi, Mom. -Hello.
You're early.
No, look, I'm right on time, actually.
[kisses]
You look tired, haven't you been sleeping?
Nice to see you, too. Come on in.
What? That's not a criticism. I'm concerned that you look tired.
You can tell me if I look tired.
[Jean sighs]
Where's my grandchild?
Oh, she's upstairs finishing her homework.
Can I get you something to drink?
Well, I won't say no to an aperitif.
One thing I really don't understand.
Why don't you and Michael hire a full-time housekeeper?
I like my privacy.
Well, it's hard to live in chaos.
[Jean] Cheers.
What are you so anxious about?
I'm not, I'm fine, Mom.
[scoffs]
You might be good at fooling others, but I know you, Jeanie.
I'm not trying to fool anyone.
I mean, just think if you had to live in that one-bedroom apartment.
I like that apartment.
Oh, I know, I'm still paying for it.
Can you keep your voice down, please?
Yes, yes.
I know it's the secrets that you think won't kill you
that always do, though.
Remember that.
-[Dolly] Grandma, Grandma! -Oh!
Dolly, what did we say about the iPad? That's enough.
Sweetheart, is it possible you have grown since your birthday party?
-Yes, I'm nine now. -[Nancy] Oh, gosh.
[Michael] Hello, Nancy. Lovely to see you, as usual.
You're so damn handsome.
And he just gets better with age, doesn't he?
Mom, do you want one a little more well done?
No, no, this is just fine.
I mean, you know that I prefer vegetables anyway.
Very cruel to eat animals.
Well, sweetheart, are you ready for your big night?
[Dolly] I think so.
Have you been working on your curtsy?
What's a curtsy?
[Nancy] What actresses do at the end of the performance...
during the curtain call.
[Dolly] We hold hands and bow.
Which is perfectly acceptable these days.
Oh, I just remembered, when Jean tried out to be,
what was that, Cinderella, yeah.
Well, she didn't get the part. She only made chorus.
Oh, she was so angry.
She had it in for the girl who made it. I mean, it was rage.
I remember thinking, this is a serious child.
And then, just like that...
she became absolutely infatuated with her, didn't you?
That's not how the story went at all, Mom.
I wasn't angry. I don't know what you're talking about.
I never heard you wanted to be Cinderella.
[Jean] I didn't.
[Nancy] No, when Jeanie sets her mind to something, she's fierce.
Well, I know that. She's unstoppable.
[Nancy] And then, if she doesn't get it, whoo!
She can't quite swallow it.
Like when she was rejected by Stanford.
[chuckling]
You know, you still have never replaced that ceramic elephant you broke.
I didn't know you wanted to go to Stanford, either.
You know what? That was a long time ago.
And I really don't think we need to go down memory lane right now.
[sighs]
-Are you sure? -Yeah.
As short as you like.
-Okay. -Wait!
Thanks so much, Mommy, I love you.
Baby, I love you, too. So much.
All right.
[Dolly giggling]
-[Dolly] Yay! -[Jean] Do you like it?
[both laughing]
Hey, even if it was just as a "fuck you" to your mom, I'm proud of you.
That's not why I did it, not entirely.
If there really was a Neverland, would you go?
Is that a serious question?
Well, I'd be curious for a little bit, but...
it always ends up the same.
Just routine.
Yeah, we kid ourselves if we think that anyone or anyplace is gonna...
offer an escape.
I made an appointment with Dr. Rothman again.
Is it anything specific?
No, just-- just good to check in.
I mean, I only stopped 'cause I got busy.
-[shower running] -[Jean sobbing]
[chattering]
[cheering]
Oh, good!
So, she'll run up these steps, against this backdrop,
and it'll look like she's flying.
[Blair] What a lifesaver, brilliant!
-I guess it works. -It's a great idea, Jean.
Thanks, I guess I just have a wild imagination.
-Do you have any fairy dust, too? -I wish.
-[woman] Should we try it? -Yeah.
-[woman] Where's Dolly? -Um, I'll go find her. Hold on one sec.
[phone swooshes, dinging]
[sighs]
[tapping on window] Jean!
-Hey, Holly. -Hey, are you picking up your mom?
Uh, yeah.
Oh, I'm grabbing my sister. How funny.
Is she getting in now?
Oh, there she is. Okay, I'll see you at school.
Perfect.
[knocks on window]
Hey.
You drive a mom car.
It's my sister's. Get in.
I can't believe you showed up like this.
Well, maybe I'm not gonna let you off the hook so easily anymore.
What does that mean?
It means you can't keep playing the same game, Diane.
So what happened with Sam?
Everything okay?
Depends what you mean by okay.
He's fucking engaged.
-What? -To Emily.
-Oh, wow, surprising. -Yeah, I know, right?
And it's just a band-aid, it's so fucking obvious.
Yeah, you're probably right.
But you can't control what he does, and maybe...
maybe he really loves her.
He doesn't.
-Well, you don't know that. -Yeah, I do.
Well, what I can't understand is why you're so upset.
I mean, you've said yourself you're not interested in him, right?
I'm not.
So let him make his own choices, with Emily, or whoever.
I mean, you're out there, living your life,
not giving a shit about what he thinks.
Well, you have no idea what my life's like.
I only know what you tell me.
I know nothing about yours. Absolutely nothing.
That's not true.
Take me to your niece's play, then.
Look, I have a complicated relationship with my mother and my sister.
It's just not the right time for me right now.
Of course.
Everyone's just moving on with their lives, and I'm just left alone.
And now, even Sam, I mean, he's fucking gone, too.
I mean, why am I here?
Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with me?
You're some fucking stranger who comes in,
get coffee whenever you fucking feel like it.
I mean, you keep saying I fuck with people?
But you're clearly the one fucking with me.
Hey, hey, don't-- don't say that.
It's not true.
Sorry.
You're right.
I wish I could be more transparent, but...
it's difficult for me to let people in sometimes.
Why don't you come over to my place next week?
Would you like that?
That'll be good for both of us.
Yeah, I'd like that.
[car door opening]
[chuckles]
Need a ride?
Well, if it's not too inconvenient, yes.
-Who was that, Jean? -Who? Just a friend, Mom.
Right, of course.
Look, why don't you go into the auditorium?
I'm just gonna go and check on Dolly backstage.
All right. Save you two seats?
Hey, this is Sam. Leave a message.
[voice mail beeps]
Hi, uh, I've been thinking a lot, and I would really like to see you again.
So call me back when you get this, please.
Thanks, Sam.
-[train rumbling] -[horn blaring]
[cell phone buzzes]
[Jean] It was like that for a brief moment.
All time had stopped, and I was outside myself.
I felt completely out of control, like I couldn't see anymore,
couldn't feel anymore, and all I had was myself.
If I didn't find a way to manage my own fear,
find a way to save myself, no one ever would.
The roller coaster would never stop.
I heard you saved the day.
Something like that.
Ah!
[audience applauding]
-[woman in audience] Aww. -[scattered laughing]
Shh.
-Sweet. -[Dolly] What's your name?
Wendy Moira Angela Darling. What is your name?
-Peter Pan. -[audience laughing]
-Is that all? -Doesn't matter.
-I mean... -What did you do to her hair?
I cut it.
But your mother must get letters.
Don't have a mother.
-[boy gasps] -[laughing]
I'm glad you think it's so funny.
-[Michael] Shh. -Stop.
-[Michael] Okay. -God, you never change.
Clearly, neither do you.
[audience laughing]
[Nancy] Excuse me.
I've lost my shadow. Can you help me find it?
Let's just try to enjoy our girl, okay?
[audience laughing]
[audience cheering and applauding]
I love you.
[Jean] Great job.
-[Michael] Hey, great job! -Where's Dolly?
Oh, there she is, honey!
-Sweetie! -[Dolly] Mama!
You did such a good job.
You remembered all your lines.
[Michael] You were amazing!
[kisses]
Amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing. Look, Mom and I got you flowers.
Hold on one second.
[voice mail] Jean, it's me, Allison.
Please call me back. 646-555-0174.
Please, I really need to talk to you. Soon, please.
[cell phone buzzing]
Oh, hey, Gary.
[Gary] Jean, I've been trying to reach you.
Yeah, I was just watching Dolly's play.
The police just called.
Your patient, Allison Adams, she's been reported missing.
Have you heard from her?
No, I haven't.