1 00:00:04,204 --> 00:00:07,172 Oh, God. Okay. 2 00:00:07,207 --> 00:00:09,408 Do I have to touch them? 3 00:00:10,910 --> 00:00:12,611 Yeah. 4 00:00:12,679 --> 00:00:14,313 I -- I want to see. 5 00:00:16,416 --> 00:00:17,616 Ooh. 6 00:00:25,992 --> 00:00:28,460 Can you guys see that? There it is. 7 00:00:30,964 --> 00:00:35,367 This person, you can see what he's thinking. 8 00:00:35,402 --> 00:00:38,937 You know he's a monster, you know he's evil. 9 00:00:38,972 --> 00:00:41,173 You can tell by his facial expression. 10 00:00:41,207 --> 00:00:47,179 I feel like until this man is dead, I'm not free of him, ever. 11 00:00:47,213 --> 00:00:49,214 Even though I'm strong now, 12 00:00:49,249 --> 00:00:54,119 him looking at me makes me feel like that little girl. 13 00:00:54,154 --> 00:00:57,389 I just feel, um... 14 00:00:57,424 --> 00:01:00,025 I don't feel strong anymore. 15 00:01:00,060 --> 00:01:01,193 And I kind of want to stare at 16 00:01:01,227 --> 00:01:03,295 these pictures until I don't feel that way. 17 00:01:14,407 --> 00:01:16,341 I just want to look at him and tell him to go to hell, 18 00:01:16,376 --> 00:01:20,412 you're a piece of trash. 19 00:01:20,447 --> 00:01:21,947 Just because you're miserable 20 00:01:21,981 --> 00:01:24,616 didn't give you the right to ruin other people's lives. 21 00:01:26,786 --> 00:01:28,287 You know what? 22 00:01:28,321 --> 00:01:31,757 The longer I look at him, he's not scary. 23 00:01:31,791 --> 00:01:34,193 This picture, he looks like a little punk. 24 00:01:34,227 --> 00:01:36,161 And in this picture, he looks like a little punk 25 00:01:36,196 --> 00:01:37,729 trying to pretend he's not a little punk. 26 00:01:37,764 --> 00:01:42,267 So, to be honest, thank you for showing me these. 27 00:01:42,302 --> 00:01:45,637 This is gonna help me, I think. 28 00:01:45,672 --> 00:01:47,473 Yeah, I'm done. 29 00:01:47,507 --> 00:01:49,408 I'm not scared of him anymore. 30 00:01:49,442 --> 00:01:51,343 What can he do? 31 00:01:51,377 --> 00:01:53,078 What can he do? 32 00:01:53,113 --> 00:01:56,715 I feel empowered holding these pictures now. 33 00:01:56,783 --> 00:01:58,584 Can I rip these up? 34 00:01:58,618 --> 00:02:02,087 He's gone. He's just -- He's gone, he's gone. 35 00:02:02,122 --> 00:02:04,223 He's gone. He's gone. And... 36 00:02:04,257 --> 00:02:06,959 if I was allowed to set a fire right here, 37 00:02:06,993 --> 00:02:09,795 I would, um, because I feel like ripping him up, 38 00:02:09,829 --> 00:02:11,730 you can still see him -- look? 39 00:02:11,798 --> 00:02:15,567 See, I'm trying to rip him up, and he's still looking at me. 40 00:02:15,602 --> 00:02:17,269 Monster. 41 00:02:17,303 --> 00:02:19,571 Evil. Demon. 42 00:02:22,175 --> 00:02:23,408 Goodbye. 43 00:02:25,512 --> 00:02:30,149 If you never believed in evil before, and you hear about this, 44 00:02:30,183 --> 00:02:31,650 you have to believe in it now. 45 00:02:36,623 --> 00:02:39,224 [The Paper Chase's "What's So Amazing About Grace?" plays] 46 00:02:39,259 --> 00:02:42,261 [strings continue playing sinister tune] 47 00:02:42,295 --> 00:02:47,366 [static crackling] 48 00:02:47,400 --> 00:02:49,168 [knock at door] [creaking] 49 00:02:49,202 --> 00:02:54,306 [banging on door] 50 00:02:54,340 --> 00:02:59,511 [creaking] 51 00:02:59,546 --> 00:03:02,281 [water dripping] 52 00:03:02,315 --> 00:03:04,883 [banging on door] [creaking] 53 00:03:04,918 --> 00:03:06,418 [sinister chord strikes] 54 00:03:13,459 --> 00:03:17,196 I was in my early 20s, just got out of a bad relationship, 55 00:03:17,230 --> 00:03:20,332 when a good friend of mine told me she had the perfect 56 00:03:20,366 --> 00:03:23,202 guy for me and that I just couldn't miss this opportunity 57 00:03:23,236 --> 00:03:24,436 to meet him. 58 00:03:24,470 --> 00:03:27,573 And the guy that she introduced me to was 59 00:03:27,607 --> 00:03:28,674 Patrick Fowler. 60 00:03:30,977 --> 00:03:32,978 She was like, "He's just such a good guy. 61 00:03:33,012 --> 00:03:35,280 "You're never gonna find another guy like this." 62 00:03:35,315 --> 00:03:37,482 And I'm like, "Well how do you know him?" 63 00:03:37,517 --> 00:03:40,419 "Oh, he's my ex," and I'm like, 64 00:03:40,453 --> 00:03:43,422 "Well, if he's so great, why aren't you with him?" 65 00:03:43,456 --> 00:03:45,624 We were just growing different ways. 66 00:03:45,658 --> 00:03:49,828 "We were young, and there's just too much -- too much history 67 00:03:49,862 --> 00:03:51,496 "there, but he's a great dad, 68 00:03:51,531 --> 00:03:55,167 he's a great guy, and I really think you two would get along." 69 00:03:55,201 --> 00:03:57,135 I promise you're gonna love him. 70 00:03:57,170 --> 00:03:59,805 She wouldn't give up. 71 00:03:59,906 --> 00:04:02,207 And I just thought at the time 72 00:04:02,242 --> 00:04:05,911 that she was just being a friend looking out for me. 73 00:04:05,945 --> 00:04:09,214 But I think in actuality, she knew for a fact he was abusive, 74 00:04:09,249 --> 00:04:12,417 knew for a fact he was crazy. 75 00:04:12,452 --> 00:04:16,088 She used me to get away from him. 76 00:04:17,390 --> 00:04:20,158 But I didn't really know that part at the time. 77 00:04:20,193 --> 00:04:25,998 So when I met him, he lived up to everything she said. 78 00:04:26,032 --> 00:04:28,000 He's like, "So tell me about yourself, 79 00:04:28,034 --> 00:04:31,036 you know, I heard you have kids," and just asked all 80 00:04:31,070 --> 00:04:32,070 the right questions. 81 00:04:32,105 --> 00:04:34,273 I know you gotta get back to your kid, 82 00:04:34,307 --> 00:04:36,541 but I'm really looking forward to getting to know you 83 00:04:36,576 --> 00:04:37,509 a lot better. 84 00:04:37,543 --> 00:04:39,011 CHRISTINA: I asked the same questions, 85 00:04:39,045 --> 00:04:41,280 but it was almost like Patrick 86 00:04:41,314 --> 00:04:44,850 avoided answering questions specific to him. 87 00:04:44,884 --> 00:04:46,952 I just feel like I talked about me all night. 88 00:04:46,986 --> 00:04:49,321 - I want to know more about you. - I'm just boring. 89 00:04:49,355 --> 00:04:52,124 CHRISTINA: He would always kind of, "Well this is about you, 90 00:04:52,158 --> 00:04:55,193 you're important, you can learn about me later." 91 00:04:55,228 --> 00:04:58,630 Well, maybe I can dig a little something out of you. 92 00:04:58,665 --> 00:05:00,332 So that means I get to see you again? 93 00:05:00,366 --> 00:05:04,069 I just feel like he didn't want me to know him. 94 00:05:04,103 --> 00:05:07,906 He wanted to know me, because then it would be easier to 95 00:05:07,940 --> 00:05:11,276 manipulate and control like evil people do, 96 00:05:11,311 --> 00:05:14,346 but at the time, I did not view it that way. 97 00:05:14,380 --> 00:05:17,449 I felt loved and seen and beautiful and 98 00:05:17,483 --> 00:05:22,421 appreciated and the center of his attention, and that's what, 99 00:05:22,455 --> 00:05:25,123 in the moment, I thought was the perfect man. 100 00:05:27,226 --> 00:05:29,061 I don't like to visualize him. 101 00:05:31,431 --> 00:05:32,998 I almost started crying. 102 00:05:33,032 --> 00:05:34,366 I seen his face, and it's just 103 00:05:34,400 --> 00:05:39,404 like... ooh, scared the crap out of me. Oh! 104 00:05:41,407 --> 00:05:42,474 [exhales heavily] 105 00:05:42,508 --> 00:05:44,876 I don't talk about him a lot, 106 00:05:44,911 --> 00:05:46,745 so... 107 00:05:46,813 --> 00:05:50,482 us talking is just, like, bringing stuff back. 108 00:05:50,516 --> 00:05:52,818 [sniffles] [exhales heavily] 109 00:05:52,885 --> 00:05:56,488 Sorry. I didn't expect this. 110 00:05:58,458 --> 00:06:00,025 I think it triggers me, because I 111 00:06:00,059 --> 00:06:01,626 just wish I would have said no. 112 00:06:15,675 --> 00:06:17,409 My childhood was really rough. 113 00:06:17,443 --> 00:06:19,578 I didn't have good family. 114 00:06:19,612 --> 00:06:22,347 I would have done anything to get out of there. 115 00:06:23,282 --> 00:06:25,317 But I had no family to turn to, 116 00:06:25,351 --> 00:06:28,286 no friends to turn to, no savings account. 117 00:06:28,321 --> 00:06:33,191 And it was just me as a single mom with my special needs son. 118 00:06:33,225 --> 00:06:37,362 When I met Patrick, he was like, "Well, 119 00:06:37,397 --> 00:06:39,965 why don't you just come move in with me?" 120 00:06:39,999 --> 00:06:41,299 He lived with his mom. 121 00:06:41,401 --> 00:06:44,202 And when I spoke with her about it, I let her know that 122 00:06:44,237 --> 00:06:46,104 my plan was to save money as 123 00:06:46,139 --> 00:06:47,606 quick as possible and get out of there, 124 00:06:47,640 --> 00:06:49,741 made very clear that I was just there to save up, 125 00:06:49,809 --> 00:06:51,243 get on my feet, and get on out. 126 00:06:52,545 --> 00:06:54,880 But once I started living there, 127 00:06:54,914 --> 00:06:58,950 it was impossible to save money at all. 128 00:07:01,454 --> 00:07:03,855 We would just be normal, sitting there, 129 00:07:03,890 --> 00:07:05,657 having a good day, nice summer day, 130 00:07:05,691 --> 00:07:10,796 windows open -- my son, his two daughters, and his stepdaughter. 131 00:07:10,863 --> 00:07:14,332 - I'm bored. - You bored, huh? 132 00:07:14,367 --> 00:07:15,801 All of a sudden, he goes, say, "Hey, you guys, 133 00:07:15,902 --> 00:07:17,135 "I have a great idea. 134 00:07:17,170 --> 00:07:18,770 Why don't we go to Chuck E. Cheese?" 135 00:07:18,905 --> 00:07:21,106 - Who wants to go? - Me! 136 00:07:21,140 --> 00:07:23,875 Hang on a minute. 137 00:07:23,910 --> 00:07:26,545 We had $40 to our name. 138 00:07:26,579 --> 00:07:29,781 Four kids and two adults -- This is expensive. 139 00:07:29,882 --> 00:07:32,250 I'm sorry, guys, not today. 140 00:07:32,285 --> 00:07:34,252 So I'd be like, "No, we can't do that." 141 00:07:34,287 --> 00:07:36,421 And the kids, all of a sudden, who were just having 142 00:07:36,456 --> 00:07:38,490 a great day, now they're mad, 143 00:07:38,524 --> 00:07:40,192 because they want to go to Chuck E. Cheese, 144 00:07:40,226 --> 00:07:42,928 and now it's all on me again. 145 00:07:42,962 --> 00:07:45,330 Patrick would get the kids to beg me. 146 00:07:45,364 --> 00:07:47,432 "You never let us do anything." 147 00:07:47,467 --> 00:07:49,801 And I felt like he did it because he knew 148 00:07:49,902 --> 00:07:54,439 that if I told the kids no, I'd feel guilty, so... 149 00:07:54,474 --> 00:07:57,209 We ended up going. - Please? 150 00:07:57,243 --> 00:07:59,211 Okay, go get ready. 151 00:08:00,313 --> 00:08:02,948 But every time we did something, it was my money. 152 00:08:02,982 --> 00:08:05,717 I paid for it -- Going out to eat -- my money. 153 00:08:05,785 --> 00:08:09,321 Going to the museum -- my money. Swimming -- my money. 154 00:08:09,355 --> 00:08:10,789 What the hell? 155 00:08:10,890 --> 00:08:14,192 You know I'm trying to save up for my own place. 156 00:08:14,227 --> 00:08:16,728 CHRISTINA: Patrick convinced me to do so many things with 157 00:08:16,762 --> 00:08:18,964 the money that I would have never done that 158 00:08:18,998 --> 00:08:21,433 I just -- I could never get that 159 00:08:21,467 --> 00:08:24,736 dollar amount saved up to get out, ever. 160 00:08:24,804 --> 00:08:27,072 Lighten up, okay? You need to have some fun. 161 00:08:27,106 --> 00:08:30,242 CHRISTINA: At the time, I just thought it was playful. 162 00:08:30,276 --> 00:08:32,477 I just thought, oh, that's what dads do when you're 163 00:08:32,512 --> 00:08:34,112 in a relationship and you have kids. 164 00:08:34,146 --> 00:08:36,214 He wants to spend the money, but he wants to spend it on 165 00:08:36,249 --> 00:08:37,716 the kids. That's so sweet. 166 00:08:37,783 --> 00:08:40,352 That's such a great attribute to have. 167 00:08:40,386 --> 00:08:42,787 That's such a good dad. 168 00:08:42,822 --> 00:08:45,790 Now I know it was a part of his manipulation. 169 00:08:46,926 --> 00:08:49,528 Looking back, I definitely feel like this was Patrick's way 170 00:08:49,562 --> 00:08:52,497 of taking control of my finances, because he knew 171 00:08:52,532 --> 00:08:56,568 I wanted out of that house, and he knew the only 172 00:08:56,602 --> 00:08:58,770 thing keeping me there was the finances. 173 00:09:10,616 --> 00:09:13,285 When I met his sister-in-law and his brother came to town, 174 00:09:13,319 --> 00:09:14,553 that was the very first time that 175 00:09:14,587 --> 00:09:19,324 I started noticing his just disdain for women. 176 00:09:19,358 --> 00:09:22,727 He had a brother that lived out of town -- him, his wife, 177 00:09:22,762 --> 00:09:24,329 and they had one roommate. 178 00:09:24,363 --> 00:09:26,264 They were gonna be coming to visit. 179 00:09:26,299 --> 00:09:28,700 So we're sitting there watching TV in the living room. 180 00:09:28,768 --> 00:09:31,136 His brother's wife starts complaining, her back hurts. 181 00:09:31,170 --> 00:09:33,738 So she sits down on the floor next to the roommate. 182 00:09:33,806 --> 00:09:36,908 She was sitting Indian-style on the floor, 183 00:09:36,943 --> 00:09:39,077 and the roommate of his brother's wife 184 00:09:39,111 --> 00:09:40,946 laid his head in her lap. 185 00:09:42,381 --> 00:09:43,582 Patrick flipped out. 186 00:09:43,616 --> 00:09:46,051 You whore! What the hell are you doing? 187 00:09:46,085 --> 00:09:48,954 Patrick jumped up, and the first thing he said was, 188 00:09:48,988 --> 00:09:51,389 "Get the [bleep] out of my mom's house, you whore." 189 00:09:51,424 --> 00:09:52,924 You gonna let him touch you like that? 190 00:09:52,959 --> 00:09:55,727 CHRISTINA: She's like, "What is your problem, Patrick?" 191 00:09:55,761 --> 00:09:57,796 And she's like, "You're not gonna talk to me like that. 192 00:09:57,997 --> 00:10:00,131 You will respect me. I am the wife of your brother." 193 00:10:00,166 --> 00:10:02,767 Okay, you need to watch who you're talking to like that. 194 00:10:03,903 --> 00:10:06,104 Then Patrick's like, "I knew you were no good. 195 00:10:06,138 --> 00:10:07,739 "You tricked my brother into marrying you. 196 00:10:07,807 --> 00:10:10,675 You took my brother away from me, you raggedy bitch." 197 00:10:11,644 --> 00:10:14,012 And he looked like the devil. 198 00:10:14,046 --> 00:10:16,414 His eyes were just piercing. 199 00:10:16,449 --> 00:10:19,718 All I could see was his teeth and his nostrils 200 00:10:19,752 --> 00:10:22,487 snarling and spit flying out of his mouth. 201 00:10:22,521 --> 00:10:24,322 Patrick looks right at his brother and says, "Your wife is 202 00:10:24,357 --> 00:10:26,658 a whore, and I'm gonna whoop her ass." 203 00:10:26,692 --> 00:10:28,927 You gonna let this bitch whore disrespect you in Mama's house 204 00:10:28,961 --> 00:10:31,229 like that? - Settle down. 205 00:10:31,263 --> 00:10:33,431 His brother gets in his face and tells him, 206 00:10:33,466 --> 00:10:36,968 "You ain't doing nothing to my wife." 207 00:10:37,003 --> 00:10:39,804 She playing you. You know she a whore. 208 00:10:43,476 --> 00:10:45,744 CHRISTINA: That made me feel extremely uneasy. 209 00:10:45,811 --> 00:10:50,982 I was baffled and in shock, because I had 210 00:10:51,017 --> 00:10:53,151 never seen him act like that before. 211 00:10:53,185 --> 00:10:55,587 I'm -- I'm so, so sorry. 212 00:10:57,390 --> 00:11:01,593 At the time, I felt like Patrick was just acting 213 00:11:01,627 --> 00:11:05,764 like this out of jealousy like a little kid. 214 00:11:06,866 --> 00:11:09,601 Looking back, Patrick views women as property. 215 00:11:20,413 --> 00:11:22,580 When me and Patrick first got together, 216 00:11:22,615 --> 00:11:27,185 he was very touchy feely and endearing, holding my hand. 217 00:11:27,219 --> 00:11:29,921 I just thought he was affectionate. 218 00:11:29,955 --> 00:11:33,525 But as time went on, I no longer seen it as affectionate. 219 00:11:33,559 --> 00:11:35,226 I seen it as an obsession. 220 00:11:37,196 --> 00:11:39,064 In bed at night, 221 00:11:39,098 --> 00:11:40,398 when we lay down to go to sleep, 222 00:11:40,433 --> 00:11:43,034 he'd wrap his arms around me and a leg. 223 00:11:43,069 --> 00:11:45,603 It went from an enduring cuddle to almost 224 00:11:45,638 --> 00:11:47,706 a suffocating hold. 225 00:11:49,275 --> 00:11:51,042 If I moved, 226 00:11:51,077 --> 00:11:53,545 he'd wake up and squeeze me so tight, and I'd say, 227 00:11:53,579 --> 00:11:56,314 "You're hurting me," and he'd wake up 228 00:11:56,348 --> 00:11:58,149 a little bit, loosen it up, "Where are you going?" 229 00:11:58,184 --> 00:12:01,086 - What's the problem? - I have to go the bathroom. 230 00:12:01,120 --> 00:12:03,788 Nah, you're good. 231 00:12:03,889 --> 00:12:06,758 He would literally tell me I was not allowed to get up 232 00:12:06,826 --> 00:12:08,793 and go pee, so I wiggled 233 00:12:08,961 --> 00:12:12,130 out of his arms, and I went pee, and when I came back in there, 234 00:12:12,164 --> 00:12:13,331 he's sitting up. 235 00:12:17,303 --> 00:12:18,603 "Where have you been? 236 00:12:18,637 --> 00:12:22,540 Um, you've been gone for hours," I'm like "No, I've been gone 237 00:12:22,575 --> 00:12:24,375 "for, like, three whole minutes. 238 00:12:24,410 --> 00:12:27,412 I peed, I washed my hands, and I came back." 239 00:12:27,446 --> 00:12:30,014 I swear, these bitches all the same. 240 00:12:30,049 --> 00:12:33,551 And then all of a sudden, "whore" started coming out. 241 00:12:33,586 --> 00:12:35,453 "Whore, whore," and he would just repeat it. 242 00:12:35,488 --> 00:12:37,055 "You're all bitches and whores." 243 00:12:38,624 --> 00:12:40,992 I was in a complete state of shock. 244 00:12:41,026 --> 00:12:42,727 That was the first time I've ever 245 00:12:42,762 --> 00:12:46,030 heard him say anything, like, derogatory towards me. 246 00:12:46,065 --> 00:12:48,533 Did you just call me a whore? 247 00:12:48,567 --> 00:12:51,369 When I got upset with him, and he seen I was upset, 248 00:12:51,403 --> 00:12:53,938 he would, "Oh, I'm so sorry, 249 00:12:54,006 --> 00:12:56,307 "I'm just not used to being in a relationship. 250 00:12:56,342 --> 00:12:57,942 "I just love you so much. 251 00:12:57,977 --> 00:13:00,612 I need to make sure you're okay at all times." 252 00:13:00,646 --> 00:13:03,214 And he held me again. 253 00:13:03,249 --> 00:13:05,183 I could not sleep for the rest of that night. 254 00:13:05,217 --> 00:13:08,119 I felt like I was in a full blown panic and anxiety attack 255 00:13:08,154 --> 00:13:11,489 for the next two days -- He wasn't holding me to hold 256 00:13:11,524 --> 00:13:14,692 me anymore -- Patrick was now holding me to confine me. 257 00:13:20,432 --> 00:13:22,467 Things just started getting eerie. 258 00:13:22,501 --> 00:13:24,702 That's the way that I describe it. 259 00:13:24,770 --> 00:13:26,938 I wasn't allowed to be alone at all. 260 00:13:26,972 --> 00:13:28,740 If I went to take out the trash, 261 00:13:28,808 --> 00:13:32,377 he was in the window, staring at me eerily. 262 00:13:32,411 --> 00:13:34,212 I wasn't allowed to sit down at 263 00:13:34,246 --> 00:13:36,948 the table and eat a meal without holding his hand. 264 00:13:36,982 --> 00:13:38,883 I get up to go to the bathroom. 265 00:13:38,918 --> 00:13:42,020 It's, "Where are you going?" That's not normal. 266 00:13:44,757 --> 00:13:47,792 I felt Patrick was definitely unreasonably obsessed 267 00:13:47,860 --> 00:13:52,096 with me, and, um, I didn't understand why. 268 00:13:53,532 --> 00:13:55,934 One time, I wanted to wind down like most women do 269 00:13:55,968 --> 00:13:57,001 in a hot bath. 270 00:13:57,036 --> 00:14:00,205 I'm laying in the bathtub, enjoying myself. 271 00:14:00,239 --> 00:14:02,440 I got my, you know, candles lit, thinking I'm 272 00:14:02,474 --> 00:14:05,176 finally alone. 273 00:14:05,211 --> 00:14:08,780 And I look at the doorway, and I see, like, feet, 274 00:14:08,881 --> 00:14:10,582 that shadow of the two feet. 275 00:14:12,785 --> 00:14:14,319 So I'm like, "Who is that?" 276 00:14:14,353 --> 00:14:16,254 No response. The kids are gone. 277 00:14:16,288 --> 00:14:18,723 It's late. Everybody's sleeping, so 278 00:14:18,757 --> 00:14:20,225 that has to be Patrick. 279 00:14:21,627 --> 00:14:24,596 Patrick. Patrick, is that you? 280 00:14:24,630 --> 00:14:27,632 And it gave me this eerie feeling. 281 00:14:27,666 --> 00:14:32,470 Patrick, I can see you, stop. 282 00:14:32,504 --> 00:14:34,505 CHRISTINA: Still see the pacing under the crack of the door with 283 00:14:34,540 --> 00:14:36,574 the light shining under, and I'm like, 284 00:14:36,609 --> 00:14:39,043 "Who is that?" No response. 285 00:14:41,180 --> 00:14:43,081 I get up, I put on a towel, I open the door. 286 00:14:43,115 --> 00:14:44,716 He's standing there. 287 00:14:46,018 --> 00:14:48,386 Jesus. What are you doing? 288 00:14:49,889 --> 00:14:51,122 Aren't you finished yet? 289 00:14:51,156 --> 00:14:54,392 He's like, "Why are you taking so long?" 290 00:14:54,426 --> 00:14:55,727 I said, "I just got in here. 291 00:14:55,761 --> 00:14:57,495 "Why are you standing here? 292 00:14:57,529 --> 00:14:58,863 "You've been standing there for 293 00:14:58,898 --> 00:15:01,599 like six minutes not answering me." 294 00:15:01,634 --> 00:15:04,135 He just kept staring at me, and I'm like, "Okay, well, 295 00:15:04,169 --> 00:15:05,403 "I'll be out there in a few minutes. 296 00:15:05,437 --> 00:15:07,205 I'm gonna finish taking this bath." 297 00:15:07,239 --> 00:15:08,539 And I just shut the door in his face. 298 00:15:08,574 --> 00:15:12,076 I'll be done in a little while. 299 00:15:16,982 --> 00:15:18,516 I finished taking my bath. 300 00:15:20,486 --> 00:15:22,020 He just grabs me by the back of 301 00:15:22,054 --> 00:15:24,455 my head and starts kissing me, really rough. 302 00:15:24,490 --> 00:15:26,391 He rips my towel down, 303 00:15:26,425 --> 00:15:28,293 and he had sex with me. 304 00:15:31,630 --> 00:15:33,364 He raped me, 305 00:15:33,398 --> 00:15:36,401 and this is the first time I've ever... 306 00:15:36,435 --> 00:15:38,369 said that out loud. 307 00:15:38,404 --> 00:15:40,038 Patrick raped me. 308 00:15:41,573 --> 00:15:45,576 From that moment on, I was afraid of that man. 309 00:15:45,644 --> 00:15:49,113 I felt that Patrick, he now seen me as his belonging. 310 00:15:50,382 --> 00:15:53,952 But I stayed, because I felt trapped. 311 00:15:53,986 --> 00:15:55,653 I had nowhere to go. 312 00:15:55,688 --> 00:15:58,456 I have no family, no money, nowhere to go. 313 00:15:58,490 --> 00:16:00,391 What am I supposed to do? 314 00:16:00,426 --> 00:16:02,193 And I know that can be hard to understand 315 00:16:02,227 --> 00:16:04,629 from people that have never went through this before, 316 00:16:04,663 --> 00:16:08,866 and all I can say to you is be grateful instead of judgmental. 317 00:16:08,901 --> 00:16:10,635 You don't have to understand me. 318 00:16:10,669 --> 00:16:16,107 Just respect what I'm saying and don't down me for it. 319 00:16:25,150 --> 00:16:26,751 [phone buzzing] 320 00:16:26,785 --> 00:16:28,386 I get a random phone call. 321 00:16:28,420 --> 00:16:29,754 Hello? 322 00:16:29,788 --> 00:16:31,990 And I don't recognize the number. 323 00:16:32,024 --> 00:16:34,625 But I answered it anyway, and there was a lady on the other 324 00:16:34,660 --> 00:16:38,262 end, and she asked for me by name, and that freaked me out. 325 00:16:38,297 --> 00:16:39,430 Yes, this is she. 326 00:16:39,465 --> 00:16:41,132 I said, "Who is this?" 327 00:16:41,166 --> 00:16:43,601 She said, "This is Mr. Fowler's probation officer. 328 00:16:43,635 --> 00:16:45,236 Do you have a few moments to talk?" 329 00:16:45,270 --> 00:16:49,273 Probation. Probation for what? 330 00:16:49,308 --> 00:16:53,711 I was told by the probation officer that Patrick had failed 331 00:16:53,746 --> 00:16:56,080 to register on the sex offender registry, 332 00:16:56,115 --> 00:16:59,717 which I didn't even know he needed to do that, because he 333 00:16:59,785 --> 00:17:04,288 had sexually assaulted a minor or child under the age of 16. 334 00:17:05,424 --> 00:17:07,492 I went in complete shock. 335 00:17:07,559 --> 00:17:11,029 And the first thing I said is, "What are you talking about?" 336 00:17:11,063 --> 00:17:12,497 She said, "Do you have children?" 337 00:17:12,531 --> 00:17:14,065 I said, "Yes, I do." 338 00:17:14,099 --> 00:17:15,767 She told me right then and there that 339 00:17:15,801 --> 00:17:17,468 I had to come in and meet her, 340 00:17:17,503 --> 00:17:19,637 that Patrick wasn't allowed around children. 341 00:17:21,673 --> 00:17:26,411 And then she let me know, he just got out of jail. 342 00:17:27,546 --> 00:17:29,580 He was incarcerated this last time 343 00:17:29,615 --> 00:17:32,750 for domestic violence on his ex. 344 00:17:32,785 --> 00:17:36,120 My whole world kind of just crumbled, this was my friend, 345 00:17:36,188 --> 00:17:38,256 and she told me he was never abusive, 346 00:17:38,290 --> 00:17:40,558 and I just felt like a knife through the heart, 347 00:17:40,592 --> 00:17:44,962 like I felt so unbelievably betrayed by this girl. 348 00:17:44,997 --> 00:17:46,497 Goodbye. 349 00:17:50,569 --> 00:17:52,737 I got played from the very beginning. 350 00:17:55,174 --> 00:17:59,277 I was so mad that I kinda just hung up on her, 351 00:17:59,311 --> 00:18:01,179 and I went up to him, 352 00:18:01,213 --> 00:18:03,081 and I said, "You're on probation?" 353 00:18:03,115 --> 00:18:06,784 Patrick, why is there a probation officer 354 00:18:06,819 --> 00:18:10,455 calling me, saying you're a sex offender? 355 00:18:10,489 --> 00:18:14,959 CHRISTINA: Patrick told me that it wasn't like they were making it seem. 356 00:18:14,993 --> 00:18:16,494 He was a teenager, too, it was 357 00:18:16,528 --> 00:18:20,031 a girl in the neighborhood that had a crush on him. 358 00:18:20,065 --> 00:18:24,235 She lied to him about his age, and he thought she was of age, 359 00:18:24,269 --> 00:18:27,105 and the girl came on to him 360 00:18:27,139 --> 00:18:29,807 and then said that she lied and said his hands 361 00:18:29,842 --> 00:18:33,511 were down her pants, so he basically was the victim. 362 00:18:33,579 --> 00:18:38,449 The world was against him. He didn't do anything wrong. 363 00:18:38,484 --> 00:18:40,551 Gonna believe that probation officer over me? 364 00:18:40,586 --> 00:18:44,388 Patrick's probation officer said that she needed to, 365 00:18:44,423 --> 00:18:47,391 for me and him to come out to the probation office. 366 00:18:47,426 --> 00:18:49,093 He tried to intimidate me. 367 00:18:49,128 --> 00:18:52,797 Um, he got in my face, I better say what I'm told, 368 00:18:52,931 --> 00:18:55,766 I better do what I'm told, or -- he was like, 369 00:18:55,834 --> 00:18:57,468 "Or you'll be sorry." 370 00:18:57,503 --> 00:19:01,606 I mean it. I swear, you better not make things worse. 371 00:19:01,640 --> 00:19:04,108 The light and life was out of his eyes. 372 00:19:04,143 --> 00:19:06,410 He just seemed like a different person. 373 00:19:06,445 --> 00:19:07,478 I didn't even do anything. 374 00:19:07,513 --> 00:19:09,280 - All I did was-- - Shut up! 375 00:19:09,314 --> 00:19:12,583 CHRISTINA: I had an opportunity again to maybe escape, 376 00:19:12,618 --> 00:19:15,286 but he scared me out of taking it. 377 00:19:15,320 --> 00:19:20,358 He would whisper in my ear, "Say one thing I dare you." 378 00:19:20,392 --> 00:19:22,393 That's a threat. 379 00:19:22,427 --> 00:19:25,163 So I said nothing. 380 00:19:26,298 --> 00:19:28,299 I went in there, and I just lied. 381 00:19:38,544 --> 00:19:40,945 That night, I had just had enough. 382 00:19:40,979 --> 00:19:43,548 I didn't want to sleep being held down that night. 383 00:19:43,582 --> 00:19:46,517 I wanted to get away from him, and I was gonna make 384 00:19:46,552 --> 00:19:47,685 an attempt finally. 385 00:19:48,887 --> 00:19:50,421 My son's at a friend's house. 386 00:19:50,455 --> 00:19:53,524 I packed up a bag, and he's like, "You ain't going nowhere." 387 00:19:53,559 --> 00:19:54,525 And I just looked at him. 388 00:19:54,560 --> 00:19:57,128 I'm like, "Okay, we'll see." 389 00:19:57,162 --> 00:19:59,463 I don't think he thought I would leave. 390 00:19:59,498 --> 00:20:00,731 And then all of a sudden... 391 00:20:00,799 --> 00:20:02,700 [gasps] 392 00:20:02,768 --> 00:20:04,936 Snatches me up and carries me off. 393 00:20:04,970 --> 00:20:07,171 I'm screaming for people to help me. 394 00:20:07,206 --> 00:20:09,040 Help! Someone help me! 395 00:20:09,074 --> 00:20:11,676 CHRISTINA: But we were in a horrible neighborhood where 396 00:20:11,710 --> 00:20:13,778 you see stuff like that every day. 397 00:20:13,812 --> 00:20:15,813 Please let me go! 398 00:20:15,981 --> 00:20:19,584 And the community's approach is to not get involved. 399 00:20:19,618 --> 00:20:21,018 No. No. 400 00:20:23,055 --> 00:20:25,056 It was petrifying -- In that moment, 401 00:20:25,090 --> 00:20:27,992 I just felt like I'm nothing. 402 00:20:29,094 --> 00:20:31,362 Like I am absolutely nothing. 403 00:20:34,199 --> 00:20:36,000 No, no, please. 404 00:20:36,034 --> 00:20:37,235 CHRISTINA: He didn't say one word. 405 00:20:37,269 --> 00:20:38,469 He didn't look at me, 406 00:20:38,503 --> 00:20:41,305 he didn't speak to me, anything, he just drug me back to 407 00:20:41,340 --> 00:20:43,341 the house, and then when we got there, 408 00:20:43,375 --> 00:20:44,775 he put me in the bedroom... - No! 409 00:20:44,876 --> 00:20:46,177 and wouldn't let me leave. 410 00:20:48,413 --> 00:20:49,747 He put a chair in front of the door 411 00:20:49,815 --> 00:20:52,083 and told me, "You ain't going anywhere anyway." 412 00:20:53,452 --> 00:20:55,653 That night was a game changer, because that was 413 00:20:55,687 --> 00:20:58,022 the first time that I didn't just feel like 414 00:20:58,056 --> 00:20:59,123 I couldn't leave. 415 00:20:59,157 --> 00:21:01,792 I knew for a fact, I can't leave. 416 00:21:09,334 --> 00:21:12,203 I did feel like Patrick was actually to the point 417 00:21:12,237 --> 00:21:14,105 where he was going to -- 418 00:21:14,139 --> 00:21:16,207 Something was gonna happen really soon. 419 00:21:16,241 --> 00:21:19,810 I didn't know when or what or how. 420 00:21:19,845 --> 00:21:21,612 I didn't know the extent of it. 421 00:21:21,647 --> 00:21:24,782 I just knew it was gonna be something life-altering for me. 422 00:21:25,917 --> 00:21:27,318 And it wasn't gonna be good. 423 00:21:29,154 --> 00:21:32,323 So one day, my son was in the bedroom. 424 00:21:32,357 --> 00:21:35,526 He's playing with a handheld video game, and Patrick keeps 425 00:21:35,594 --> 00:21:37,094 telling him, "Put it down. It's time to eat. Put it down. 426 00:21:37,129 --> 00:21:38,629 It's time to eat." - Put the game down. 427 00:21:38,664 --> 00:21:42,199 It's time for breakfast. I said it's time to eat. 428 00:21:42,234 --> 00:21:44,335 Just let me finish! 429 00:21:44,369 --> 00:21:50,174 My son has autism, and when Patrick took the game away 430 00:21:50,208 --> 00:21:52,076 and said it's breakfast time, 431 00:21:52,110 --> 00:21:54,245 my son had a meltdown. 432 00:21:54,279 --> 00:21:55,613 Give me the game! 433 00:21:55,647 --> 00:21:57,448 Don't talk to him like that. 434 00:21:57,482 --> 00:22:00,785 I snatched it back from Patrick and gave it to my son 435 00:22:00,886 --> 00:22:02,620 and told him, "Don't you ever touch my son 436 00:22:02,654 --> 00:22:04,155 or his stuff again." 437 00:22:04,189 --> 00:22:07,325 He looked at me, he said, "You stupid bitch." 438 00:22:07,359 --> 00:22:09,493 I'll talk to him however I want. 439 00:22:09,528 --> 00:22:11,395 Next thing I know, 440 00:22:11,430 --> 00:22:13,230 Patrick grabbed me by my throat, 441 00:22:13,265 --> 00:22:17,201 picked me up in the air, and slammed me on the bed. 442 00:22:17,235 --> 00:22:18,169 No. 443 00:22:18,203 --> 00:22:19,470 CHRISTINA: I told him, "Don't hurt me. 444 00:22:19,504 --> 00:22:21,872 "Don't do this, Patrick, don't do this. 445 00:22:21,907 --> 00:22:23,974 You can choose not to be this man." 446 00:22:24,009 --> 00:22:26,310 He raised his hand back, and he just punched me. 447 00:22:26,345 --> 00:22:28,446 He held me down and punched me, closed fisted, 448 00:22:28,480 --> 00:22:32,316 in my face, at least 10 to 12 times. 449 00:22:33,385 --> 00:22:36,320 The last thing that I remember was 450 00:22:36,355 --> 00:22:38,155 Patrick ran out the house and ran away. 451 00:22:40,258 --> 00:22:42,326 I was kind of in and out of it, 452 00:22:42,361 --> 00:22:44,762 and I got my phone, and I called my mom. 453 00:22:46,198 --> 00:22:49,500 And next thing I knew, my mom was there 454 00:22:49,534 --> 00:22:51,435 to get me and take me to the hospital. 455 00:22:53,438 --> 00:22:56,507 The only thing that I could think of is, it's now or never. 456 00:22:56,541 --> 00:22:58,409 This is my time to get out. 457 00:23:08,286 --> 00:23:11,055 Patrick was on the run, at large. 458 00:23:11,089 --> 00:23:12,256 Police couldn't find him. 459 00:23:12,290 --> 00:23:13,624 They couldn't even find any leads. 460 00:23:13,658 --> 00:23:15,459 They had no idea where to even look. 461 00:23:16,895 --> 00:23:20,030 And he began to call me while I was in the hospital bed. 462 00:23:20,065 --> 00:23:21,966 [phone buzzing] 463 00:23:22,033 --> 00:23:24,468 At first it would be, "I just need to see you. 464 00:23:24,503 --> 00:23:26,604 I just want you. I just can't live without you." 465 00:23:26,638 --> 00:23:28,939 I'm like, "You know what? [Bleep] you. I'm done. 466 00:23:28,974 --> 00:23:31,575 I'm away from you. Don't you ever call me again." 467 00:23:31,610 --> 00:23:33,110 I don't want to see you again. 468 00:23:33,145 --> 00:23:35,246 Patrick kept calling me, and I kept 469 00:23:35,280 --> 00:23:37,715 saying no, and then it switched from that 470 00:23:37,783 --> 00:23:39,984 to, well, I'm gonna kill you. 471 00:23:40,018 --> 00:23:42,119 You're gonna do what? 472 00:23:42,154 --> 00:23:43,187 Then he called me, and he'd be like, 473 00:23:43,221 --> 00:23:45,222 "You know, it'd be a shame if something happened 474 00:23:45,257 --> 00:23:48,759 to your mother" -- Click, hung up on me. 475 00:23:48,794 --> 00:23:50,661 He knows where my mom lives. 476 00:23:50,695 --> 00:23:52,763 My son is at my mom's house. 477 00:23:52,831 --> 00:23:55,166 I just sat there crying. Then he called me again. 478 00:23:55,200 --> 00:23:58,702 "So, have you decided that you're ready to talk now?" 479 00:23:58,770 --> 00:24:01,906 And he's like, "I just need to see you 480 00:24:01,940 --> 00:24:04,809 "one time, please. I'll do anything. 481 00:24:04,876 --> 00:24:07,912 "I'll turn myself in if you just agree 482 00:24:07,946 --> 00:24:10,448 to come and have one last conversation with me." 483 00:24:10,482 --> 00:24:13,451 Okay, I'll come if it stops all of this. 484 00:24:15,454 --> 00:24:19,023 All I could think about is, is this a trap? 485 00:24:19,057 --> 00:24:22,893 Is he setting me up to where nobody will know where I am. 486 00:24:22,928 --> 00:24:24,995 Nobody will be able to find me. 487 00:24:25,030 --> 00:24:28,332 And he just said he was gonna kill me. 488 00:24:28,366 --> 00:24:30,534 Is he just trying to lure me in? 489 00:24:30,569 --> 00:24:34,338 And I just decided that with weighing my options, 490 00:24:34,372 --> 00:24:36,106 I was unsafe either way, 491 00:24:36,141 --> 00:24:38,943 and I was tired of the unknown. 492 00:24:38,977 --> 00:24:40,978 The police are telling me they can't find him. 493 00:24:41,012 --> 00:24:42,313 They have no leads. 494 00:24:42,347 --> 00:24:44,648 I just wanted it to be over. 495 00:24:44,683 --> 00:24:46,050 I wanted it to end. 496 00:24:46,084 --> 00:24:47,751 I wanted the torment to end. 497 00:24:47,786 --> 00:24:50,120 I couldn't live like this anymore. 498 00:24:52,491 --> 00:24:55,326 He promised me if I communicated with him, 499 00:24:55,360 --> 00:24:56,560 he would turn himself in. 500 00:24:59,197 --> 00:25:01,165 He gave me the address. 501 00:25:01,199 --> 00:25:03,100 I was petrified. 502 00:25:03,134 --> 00:25:04,802 Every step I took, 503 00:25:04,836 --> 00:25:07,471 it was like when you're pulling petals off a flower. 504 00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:09,773 He loves me, he loves me not. I'm gonna die, I'm gonna live. 505 00:25:09,841 --> 00:25:11,575 I'm gonna die. I'm gonna live. 506 00:25:13,411 --> 00:25:16,380 My thought was, as soon as the door opened, 507 00:25:16,414 --> 00:25:19,316 I was gonna get punched in the face or stabbed 508 00:25:19,351 --> 00:25:21,352 and wake up, tied up somewhere. 509 00:25:22,621 --> 00:25:25,489 But instead, when I opened the door, he hugged me 510 00:25:25,524 --> 00:25:26,924 and started crying. 511 00:25:26,958 --> 00:25:29,193 Christina. I'm sorry. 512 00:25:29,227 --> 00:25:32,029 He wanted to make sure that we were still together. 513 00:25:32,063 --> 00:25:34,465 I just felt like, let me let him get it out. 514 00:25:34,499 --> 00:25:37,501 Let me let him get whatever he needs in his crazy head 515 00:25:37,536 --> 00:25:40,104 so he will walk out this door and turn himself in. 516 00:25:40,138 --> 00:25:41,739 Well, I think we can make it work. 517 00:25:41,806 --> 00:25:43,574 But you made me a promise. 518 00:25:43,608 --> 00:25:45,476 I definitely pretended we were good again. 519 00:25:45,510 --> 00:25:48,012 I told him, I promised you I'd come and have a conversation 520 00:25:48,046 --> 00:25:50,581 with you, and that you were supposed to turn yourself in. 521 00:25:50,615 --> 00:25:52,550 Come on in. Let's talk about it. 522 00:25:52,584 --> 00:25:56,453 And he was like, "The only way I'll turn myself in and I'll 523 00:25:56,488 --> 00:26:00,891 believe that you're gonna wait for me is if you get pregnant." 524 00:26:00,926 --> 00:26:03,561 You're not going nowhere until we talk this out. 525 00:26:04,529 --> 00:26:06,730 He would lock the door and tell me 526 00:26:06,798 --> 00:26:09,266 that I better not try to run. 527 00:26:09,301 --> 00:26:11,468 He trapped me there for two straight days. 528 00:26:16,975 --> 00:26:18,609 CHRISTINA: That night, he did not turn himself in. 529 00:26:18,643 --> 00:26:21,812 He tried to get me pregnant that whole night. 530 00:26:23,381 --> 00:26:25,749 I just felt disgusted with myself. 531 00:26:25,817 --> 00:26:28,919 Then the next day, 532 00:26:28,954 --> 00:26:31,121 he kissed me and hugged me, 533 00:26:31,156 --> 00:26:33,524 and he walked into that police station. 534 00:26:34,993 --> 00:26:37,962 When I went home, I scrubbed 535 00:26:37,996 --> 00:26:42,232 my private areas until they went raw. 536 00:26:43,802 --> 00:26:46,870 I took a Brillo pad, and I scrubbed, 537 00:26:46,905 --> 00:26:49,406 and I just wanted to get him off me. 538 00:26:51,509 --> 00:26:54,545 I felt like a piece of meat, and, um... 539 00:26:56,348 --> 00:27:00,718 I stopped being intimate after that for a long time. 540 00:27:00,785 --> 00:27:04,088 It made me feel disgusting. 541 00:27:08,526 --> 00:27:10,361 And I think I'm having a panic attack, 542 00:27:10,395 --> 00:27:12,930 because I all of a sudden can't breathe, 543 00:27:12,964 --> 00:27:14,264 and it's freaking me out, 544 00:27:14,299 --> 00:27:15,466 so I want to tell you instead 545 00:27:15,500 --> 00:27:16,767 of trying to pretend to be strong 546 00:27:16,935 --> 00:27:19,536 like you asked me to, because I can't breathe. 547 00:27:19,571 --> 00:27:21,505 [gasping] 548 00:27:21,539 --> 00:27:22,940 PRODUCER: Let's get some air. 549 00:27:22,974 --> 00:27:26,110 Yeah, I can't breathe right now. 550 00:27:26,144 --> 00:27:29,513 My apologies. 551 00:27:29,547 --> 00:27:31,281 I can't breathe. 552 00:27:32,317 --> 00:27:34,051 Yeah, please. I need... 553 00:27:45,764 --> 00:27:47,564 Once I found out I wasn't pregnant, 554 00:27:47,599 --> 00:27:49,500 I found a really nice house, 555 00:27:49,534 --> 00:27:51,535 me and my son. 556 00:27:51,569 --> 00:27:55,406 I just felt like -- like the sun was shining on us. 557 00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:59,243 What I was being told from the victim witness 558 00:27:59,277 --> 00:28:01,178 advocates and everybody else 559 00:28:01,212 --> 00:28:04,748 was that he was going to be getting at least 5 to 10 years, 560 00:28:04,816 --> 00:28:06,850 and then all of a sudden it was, "Oh, 561 00:28:06,885 --> 00:28:08,085 "he took a plea deal. 562 00:28:08,119 --> 00:28:11,755 "He's just gonna do these couple of years, and he's not 563 00:28:11,790 --> 00:28:14,058 "getting a felony, and he's getting good time, 564 00:28:14,092 --> 00:28:16,293 and he'll be -- He can have probation," 565 00:28:16,327 --> 00:28:19,129 and I'm like, I thought he'd be gone forever... 566 00:28:19,164 --> 00:28:25,703 until the letters started coming. 567 00:28:29,340 --> 00:28:33,410 One time, me and my son went to the zoo, and when we got home 568 00:28:33,445 --> 00:28:37,214 from the zoo, my son likes to check the mail. 569 00:28:37,248 --> 00:28:40,184 He grabs the mail out and brings it to me. 570 00:28:40,218 --> 00:28:42,319 - Mom. - Thanks. 571 00:28:42,353 --> 00:28:43,287 CHRISTINA: and I pick it up, 572 00:28:43,321 --> 00:28:45,522 and it doesn't say Patrick's name on it. 573 00:28:45,557 --> 00:28:48,358 Um, it was from a different inmate, 574 00:28:48,393 --> 00:28:50,961 but I'm like, I don't know this person. 575 00:28:50,995 --> 00:28:54,531 I opened it up, and the first thing it said was, 576 00:28:54,566 --> 00:28:56,700 "I know what your house looks like. 577 00:28:56,768 --> 00:28:59,203 I'm watching you, always watching." 578 00:29:01,573 --> 00:29:04,808 And I flip it over, and then there's a drawing, 579 00:29:04,909 --> 00:29:06,944 and I'm looking at it. I'm like, wait a minute. 580 00:29:06,978 --> 00:29:08,545 This is my damn house. 581 00:29:10,215 --> 00:29:13,817 He knows exactly where I live. 582 00:29:13,885 --> 00:29:15,919 I've come to find out that it was an inmate 583 00:29:15,954 --> 00:29:18,455 he was incarcerated with got released, 584 00:29:18,490 --> 00:29:21,959 and he sent him to look for me. 585 00:29:21,993 --> 00:29:24,161 It was just, like, his way of letting me know, 586 00:29:24,195 --> 00:29:25,729 even when I'm in jail, 587 00:29:25,764 --> 00:29:27,164 you are not safe for me. 588 00:29:27,198 --> 00:29:28,866 [phone ringing] 589 00:29:28,900 --> 00:29:30,033 I crumbled it up and threw it away 590 00:29:30,068 --> 00:29:32,136 and tried to just pretend I'd never seen it. 591 00:29:32,170 --> 00:29:34,371 [phone ringing] 592 00:29:34,405 --> 00:29:37,207 But I started receiving letters. 593 00:29:37,242 --> 00:29:39,076 I would get one once a week 594 00:29:39,110 --> 00:29:42,079 for, like, two or three weeks, and then all of a sudden, 595 00:29:42,113 --> 00:29:43,981 they were coming every other day, 596 00:29:44,015 --> 00:29:45,983 and they did not stop. 597 00:29:46,017 --> 00:29:48,485 [phone ringing] 598 00:29:49,621 --> 00:29:50,554 Hello? 599 00:29:50,588 --> 00:29:52,756 And then he started calling me, 600 00:29:52,791 --> 00:29:55,225 and he would threaten me on the phone calls. 601 00:29:55,260 --> 00:29:56,593 Patrick, is that you? 602 00:29:56,628 --> 00:29:58,128 CHRISTINA: "Don't hang up this phone call. 603 00:29:58,163 --> 00:30:00,297 You know I know where you are." 604 00:30:00,331 --> 00:30:04,001 He started talking a lot again about babies 605 00:30:04,035 --> 00:30:06,136 and marriage and said, "Okay, 606 00:30:06,171 --> 00:30:08,572 you have to go and get your wedding dress." 607 00:30:08,606 --> 00:30:11,508 I don't understand. Stop calling me! 608 00:30:11,543 --> 00:30:13,010 He got mad and said, "You're going 609 00:30:13,044 --> 00:30:15,412 to go look for a dress right now." 610 00:30:15,446 --> 00:30:18,515 And I'm like, oh, crap, I need to get this done. 611 00:30:18,550 --> 00:30:20,818 He's gonna send whoever to come get me. 612 00:30:20,985 --> 00:30:22,953 And that's when my tail between my legs, 613 00:30:22,987 --> 00:30:25,789 and I would just go do what I was told to do. 614 00:30:25,890 --> 00:30:30,027 I just felt complete despair and devastation. 615 00:30:30,061 --> 00:30:32,930 I knew for certain that if I didn't 616 00:30:32,964 --> 00:30:35,933 play along, when he got out, I was dead. 617 00:30:35,967 --> 00:30:37,434 Okay, I'll do it. 618 00:30:46,678 --> 00:30:48,412 Hey, hon, can you get the salt and pepper? 619 00:30:49,447 --> 00:30:51,348 That day, I was up in 620 00:30:51,382 --> 00:30:54,384 the kitchen, about to cook my son some breakfast. 621 00:30:54,419 --> 00:30:56,053 It was a beautiful day outside. 622 00:30:56,087 --> 00:30:58,021 Turned some music on. 623 00:30:58,056 --> 00:30:59,389 We were dancing around the kitchen. 624 00:30:59,424 --> 00:31:02,526 He's helping me scramble eggs, and I hear a knock 625 00:31:02,560 --> 00:31:04,595 at the side door. - Just a minute! 626 00:31:06,297 --> 00:31:07,497 Can you get some plates? 627 00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:11,068 I opened that door, 628 00:31:11,102 --> 00:31:13,937 and I saw Patrick just standing there. 629 00:31:16,441 --> 00:31:19,509 I felt like all the blood was rushing to my head. 630 00:31:20,778 --> 00:31:23,614 I felt like I was gonna pass out. 631 00:31:23,648 --> 00:31:27,918 He walked in, and it was very eerie and silent. 632 00:31:27,952 --> 00:31:29,486 There were no words. 633 00:31:30,855 --> 00:31:33,323 And we just stood there, staring at each other. 634 00:31:34,626 --> 00:31:36,960 And we just stood there for a minute -- to me, 635 00:31:36,995 --> 00:31:39,229 it felt like hours, 636 00:31:39,264 --> 00:31:41,531 and then my whole body started shaking. 637 00:31:41,566 --> 00:31:45,969 He put his arm around me, kissed me on the forehead, 638 00:31:47,005 --> 00:31:50,507 and then he whispered in my ear, "Are you scared of me?" 639 00:31:52,944 --> 00:31:55,112 And I feel like all the blood left my body, 640 00:31:55,179 --> 00:31:58,081 like I must have been pale as a ghost. 641 00:31:58,116 --> 00:31:59,783 I... 642 00:31:59,951 --> 00:32:02,819 took a good deep breath, and I told him, "No, 643 00:32:02,921 --> 00:32:05,455 I'm just so excited to see you." 644 00:32:05,490 --> 00:32:07,758 Why your hands shaking? 645 00:32:07,792 --> 00:32:09,626 I'm just surprised. 646 00:32:09,661 --> 00:32:12,062 CHRISTINA: I didn't want him to know that I was scared. 647 00:32:12,096 --> 00:32:13,397 I had to play along. 648 00:32:13,431 --> 00:32:15,766 I had to play happy little housewife. 649 00:32:16,801 --> 00:32:19,169 I was just making breakfast. 650 00:32:20,204 --> 00:32:21,505 It made me want to die. 651 00:32:22,974 --> 00:32:24,241 I'd rather been dead. 652 00:32:37,522 --> 00:32:40,524 He wasn't even released an entire month 653 00:32:40,558 --> 00:32:43,293 before things went bad. 654 00:32:46,764 --> 00:32:48,932 I turned to alcohol. 655 00:32:48,967 --> 00:32:52,035 Not proud of it at all. 656 00:32:52,070 --> 00:32:55,138 I was drunk every day. 657 00:32:55,173 --> 00:32:58,475 I'm in the kitchen, and I just started 658 00:32:58,509 --> 00:33:03,547 slamming a couple shots, and he comes out there, and he sees me. 659 00:33:03,581 --> 00:33:05,248 You getting drunk again? 660 00:33:05,283 --> 00:33:07,284 CHRISTINA: And he walks up behind me, and he starts, 661 00:33:07,318 --> 00:33:09,453 "You're a whore!" 662 00:33:09,487 --> 00:33:11,922 And I just ignored him. 663 00:33:11,956 --> 00:33:15,192 How many guys you' been with when I was locked up? Huh? 664 00:33:15,226 --> 00:33:17,060 The next thing I know, 665 00:33:19,364 --> 00:33:21,298 I'm on the ground. 666 00:33:21,332 --> 00:33:22,165 [grunts] 667 00:33:22,200 --> 00:33:23,266 He was squeezing my throat. 668 00:33:23,301 --> 00:33:25,369 I'm punching him and trying to rip his hands 669 00:33:25,403 --> 00:33:29,006 off of my throat, and I can't. 670 00:33:29,040 --> 00:33:32,009 And I just kept telling him, "Please don't hurt me, baby. 671 00:33:32,043 --> 00:33:34,478 I love you," and I didn't love him. 672 00:33:34,512 --> 00:33:37,814 But I knew -- I felt like telling him that would calm him. 673 00:33:37,949 --> 00:33:39,516 He finally stopped slamming me. 674 00:33:39,550 --> 00:33:41,184 I slipped out, 675 00:33:41,219 --> 00:33:42,786 and I ran to the living room, and he grabbed 676 00:33:42,854 --> 00:33:43,987 the butcher knives. 677 00:33:44,022 --> 00:33:45,489 I heard the drawer open, and I can -- 678 00:33:45,523 --> 00:33:50,193 I'll never forget this sound. Shhh! Ever. 679 00:33:50,228 --> 00:33:52,796 It was so loud, because it was so quiet. 680 00:33:54,499 --> 00:33:56,099 Then he comes in the living room, 681 00:33:57,402 --> 00:33:58,735 and I'm just standing there, 682 00:34:00,438 --> 00:34:02,439 begging him, 683 00:34:02,473 --> 00:34:04,241 please don't do this. 684 00:34:04,275 --> 00:34:07,144 Please don't hurt me. You love me. 685 00:34:08,846 --> 00:34:10,313 Patrick. Stop. 686 00:34:10,348 --> 00:34:11,982 Please, you don't want to do this. 687 00:34:12,016 --> 00:34:13,116 You're the one making me do this. 688 00:34:13,151 --> 00:34:15,052 But I'm not doing anything. 689 00:34:15,086 --> 00:34:18,855 The next thing I know, he comes heavy with a knife. 690 00:34:18,890 --> 00:34:20,991 He puts one to my throat in front of me. 691 00:34:21,025 --> 00:34:23,727 So I'm here, he has me grabbed by the back of the head, 692 00:34:23,761 --> 00:34:25,429 and the knife's here, 693 00:34:25,463 --> 00:34:27,497 and he's looking at me, and he's telling me, 694 00:34:27,532 --> 00:34:29,866 this is all your fault. 695 00:34:29,901 --> 00:34:33,136 And then he says, "We all die tonight." 696 00:34:33,171 --> 00:34:36,473 He turned me over right there, put me on my hands and knees. 697 00:34:37,608 --> 00:34:40,744 One hand here, and he had a knife here. 698 00:34:40,812 --> 00:34:46,249 He kissed on my neck, and he tells me, "You ready?" 699 00:34:46,284 --> 00:34:48,418 "You ready?" 700 00:34:48,453 --> 00:34:50,220 And I'm just sitting there thinking what do I do? 701 00:34:50,254 --> 00:34:51,621 What do I do? 702 00:34:56,928 --> 00:35:00,997 He kissed my ear, and he said, "I'll never not love you. 703 00:35:01,032 --> 00:35:02,499 See you in the afterlife." 704 00:35:04,135 --> 00:35:05,168 And he takes the knife. 705 00:35:05,203 --> 00:35:07,337 I hear him go. [gasps] 706 00:35:07,371 --> 00:35:09,306 I just shoved my body back as 707 00:35:09,340 --> 00:35:13,110 hard as I could into his groin area. 708 00:35:13,144 --> 00:35:14,611 It hurt him a little bit. 709 00:35:14,645 --> 00:35:17,747 I slid out through his legs, and I just took off running. 710 00:35:31,996 --> 00:35:34,131 I got a phone call, and when I answered it, 711 00:35:34,165 --> 00:35:36,433 it was the district attorney's office, 712 00:35:36,467 --> 00:35:39,002 and they were requesting me for to come 713 00:35:39,036 --> 00:35:40,871 to an in-person meeting. 714 00:35:40,905 --> 00:35:43,340 WOMAN: Thank you for coming in, Christina. 715 00:35:43,374 --> 00:35:46,109 The first thing I heard is, "Okay. We'll cut to the chase. 716 00:35:46,144 --> 00:35:47,811 "Patrick accepted a plea deal. 717 00:35:47,912 --> 00:35:50,347 He got two years. That's it." 718 00:35:50,381 --> 00:35:52,782 Are you out of your minds? 719 00:35:52,950 --> 00:35:56,153 That's what my life is worth? Two years? 720 00:35:56,187 --> 00:35:58,288 The shock -- bam, hit me. 721 00:35:58,322 --> 00:36:00,590 I heard nothing else they said to me. 722 00:36:00,625 --> 00:36:01,458 Charlie Brown. 723 00:36:01,492 --> 00:36:03,493 Wha what? what? what? what? What? what? what? what? 724 00:36:03,528 --> 00:36:07,130 I'm just looking around at all of them with disdain. 725 00:36:07,165 --> 00:36:08,732 I didn't feel protected. 726 00:36:08,766 --> 00:36:11,568 I felt like the last time he was incarcerated, 727 00:36:11,602 --> 00:36:14,171 for the same thing, for abuse of me, 728 00:36:14,205 --> 00:36:17,541 he was allowed to stalk me from behind bars. 729 00:36:17,575 --> 00:36:19,776 I'm sorry, miss, but he'll do time, 730 00:36:19,911 --> 00:36:21,912 and that's what we needed to make sure of. 731 00:36:21,946 --> 00:36:24,814 I sat straight up, 732 00:36:24,882 --> 00:36:27,717 and I leaned forward like this, and I looked them 733 00:36:27,785 --> 00:36:30,720 dead in their eyes, and I told them, 734 00:36:30,788 --> 00:36:34,291 "Remember me. Remember my face. 735 00:36:34,325 --> 00:36:38,128 "Remember my name, and remember my son's smile, 736 00:36:38,162 --> 00:36:40,797 "because you're releasing a monster. 737 00:36:40,898 --> 00:36:44,334 "I've done all I can do except for be in the morgue. 738 00:36:45,436 --> 00:36:47,504 "And you're gonna let him out? 739 00:36:47,538 --> 00:36:49,072 "He will kill me. 740 00:36:49,106 --> 00:36:51,541 "And if he can't find me -- Lord, have mercy 741 00:36:51,576 --> 00:36:55,478 "on whatever poor soul he tricks into letting 742 00:36:55,513 --> 00:36:59,416 "them in their life, because if he can't find and kill me, 743 00:36:59,450 --> 00:37:03,420 he's going to kill somebody. He's obsessive." 744 00:37:03,454 --> 00:37:05,622 You find me dead in a couple years, 745 00:37:05,656 --> 00:37:07,023 it's gonna be your fault. 746 00:37:07,058 --> 00:37:08,758 CHRISTINA: They promised me that 747 00:37:08,893 --> 00:37:11,294 absolutely, when he would be getting released, 748 00:37:11,329 --> 00:37:12,596 I would be notified. 749 00:37:12,630 --> 00:37:15,065 There would be no surprises, no shock factor. 750 00:37:15,099 --> 00:37:16,533 We promise you this, and... 751 00:37:16,567 --> 00:37:21,538 [sighs] um... 752 00:37:21,572 --> 00:37:23,106 didn't happen that way. 753 00:37:31,015 --> 00:37:35,819 It was somewhere in March 2016. 754 00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:41,424 Um, flowers blooming, grass cut smell, windows open. 755 00:37:41,459 --> 00:37:43,760 It's bliss for me, and... 756 00:37:45,529 --> 00:37:49,566 I turn on the TV, and I see him, and then it's all gone. 757 00:37:49,600 --> 00:37:51,801 REPORTER: Fowler is accused of killing his girlfriend, 758 00:37:51,869 --> 00:37:54,871 Jessica Ellenberger, and her daughter, Madyson Marshel. 759 00:37:54,905 --> 00:37:57,407 He told police he and Jessie got into a fight. 760 00:37:57,441 --> 00:38:02,612 He felt she disrespected him, so he stabbed her 26 times. 761 00:38:04,215 --> 00:38:06,549 CHRISTINA: He had been out of prison for three weeks, 762 00:38:06,584 --> 00:38:08,184 and within three weeks, 763 00:38:08,252 --> 00:38:10,920 just like I told them, he will kill somebody within 764 00:38:10,955 --> 00:38:12,022 30 days. 765 00:38:12,056 --> 00:38:14,024 It was three weeks. 766 00:38:14,058 --> 00:38:16,259 REPORTER: Mr. Fowler stated that while this 767 00:38:16,294 --> 00:38:19,562 was going on, Miss Marshall was screaming for her mother. 768 00:38:19,597 --> 00:38:21,998 That's when he stabbed Mady twice. 769 00:38:22,033 --> 00:38:23,166 And I turn it up, 770 00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:25,535 and it says, the first thing I heard, 771 00:38:25,569 --> 00:38:27,570 brutally murdered in her home 772 00:38:29,140 --> 00:38:31,608 alongside her daughter, 773 00:38:31,642 --> 00:38:33,443 and then they put up a picture of... 774 00:38:34,779 --> 00:38:37,314 Mady, um... 775 00:38:37,348 --> 00:38:39,015 I was standing, 776 00:38:39,050 --> 00:38:41,518 and I just dropped to my knees. 777 00:38:41,552 --> 00:38:43,353 REPORTER: According to the criminal complaint, 778 00:38:43,387 --> 00:38:46,356 Fowler told police he watched as each of them 779 00:38:46,390 --> 00:38:49,759 took their last breath, and he thought of killing himself. 780 00:38:54,532 --> 00:38:57,801 CHRISTINA: She was brutally stabbed over 20 times, 781 00:38:57,868 --> 00:39:01,237 and I'm like, he did it, he did it, 782 00:39:01,272 --> 00:39:04,274 he did it, it was him, he did it, and I couldn't stop. 783 00:39:04,308 --> 00:39:05,508 I just -- he did it, he did it. 784 00:39:05,576 --> 00:39:06,776 He killed her, he killed her. 785 00:39:06,844 --> 00:39:08,712 Why did he kill her? 786 00:39:08,779 --> 00:39:11,147 And I didn't even know he was released. 787 00:39:11,182 --> 00:39:13,783 I'm thinking he's still in prison. 788 00:39:13,818 --> 00:39:14,617 They didn't call me. 789 00:39:14,652 --> 00:39:16,586 I didn't get the automated call. 790 00:39:16,620 --> 00:39:20,256 I had no clue that I was in danger. 791 00:39:20,291 --> 00:39:22,192 So then my thought is, oh, my God, 792 00:39:22,226 --> 00:39:24,327 I could be dead right now if he would have found me. 793 00:39:24,362 --> 00:39:25,729 But I moved. 794 00:39:25,763 --> 00:39:28,031 REPORTER: Fowler used Mady's coloring books to start 795 00:39:28,065 --> 00:39:31,334 the house on fire, and after setting it on fire, 796 00:39:31,369 --> 00:39:34,270 he walked out the front door, taking Easter candy from 797 00:39:34,305 --> 00:39:35,772 the house with him. 798 00:39:35,906 --> 00:39:38,808 He killed her the same way he said he was gonna kill me. 799 00:39:38,876 --> 00:39:40,076 He stabbed her to death. 800 00:39:40,111 --> 00:39:43,179 He said he was gonna -- He said he was gonna stab 801 00:39:43,214 --> 00:39:46,082 me to death, stab my son, and then kill himself. 802 00:39:48,185 --> 00:39:50,220 So it was just like... 803 00:39:50,254 --> 00:39:51,988 that should be me. 804 00:39:52,022 --> 00:39:54,791 I should be dead. Not her. 805 00:39:56,227 --> 00:39:59,996 If I could trade places with her, I would. 806 00:40:01,298 --> 00:40:02,932 I would trade places with her in 807 00:40:02,966 --> 00:40:07,170 a heartbeat so that her daughter could live. 808 00:40:08,372 --> 00:40:11,274 I don't understand, I don't understand 809 00:40:11,308 --> 00:40:14,010 how somebody can be such a monster. 810 00:40:14,044 --> 00:40:17,814 Evil is real, and it's inside of people. 811 00:40:22,019 --> 00:40:23,553 He's an animal. 812 00:40:34,298 --> 00:40:35,698 MAN: We, the jury, find the defendant, 813 00:40:35,732 --> 00:40:37,233 Patrick Fowler guilty. 814 00:40:37,268 --> 00:40:40,703 REPORTER: Patrick Fowler gives a blank stare to the judge after 815 00:40:40,771 --> 00:40:42,238 the guilty decision comes 816 00:40:42,273 --> 00:40:45,508 just minutes after the jury reviews a video of Fowler 817 00:40:45,543 --> 00:40:47,710 confessing to the crimes. 818 00:40:47,778 --> 00:40:52,081 FOWLER: I grabbed a knife, and a monster came out of me. 819 00:40:52,116 --> 00:40:53,383 What? 820 00:40:53,417 --> 00:40:57,020 FOWLER: I grabbed a knife, and a monster came out of me. 821 00:40:57,054 --> 00:40:59,622 Oh, my God, he said it. 822 00:41:03,994 --> 00:41:05,728 I've never seen that footage. 823 00:41:07,565 --> 00:41:09,666 He admitted he's a monster. 824 00:41:11,335 --> 00:41:15,405 He said, "I let the monster come out." 825 00:41:15,439 --> 00:41:17,640 That's exactly how I felt. 826 00:41:17,675 --> 00:41:20,009 I felt like 827 00:41:20,044 --> 00:41:22,479 he was fighting the monster, 828 00:41:22,513 --> 00:41:24,347 and he let the monster win. 829 00:41:24,381 --> 00:41:27,450 It was his choice to let the monster win. 830 00:41:27,485 --> 00:41:28,785 I can't believe that. 831 00:41:30,354 --> 00:41:31,688 Unbelievable. 832 00:41:33,991 --> 00:41:36,192 I wish I would have seen that a long time ago 833 00:41:36,227 --> 00:41:38,595 instead of being scared to watch all the footage. 834 00:41:40,397 --> 00:41:42,165 It gives me some type of peace of mind, 835 00:41:42,199 --> 00:41:45,335 because I know he knows what he did. 836 00:41:45,369 --> 00:41:48,204 I know he knows that he's a monster. 837 00:41:53,944 --> 00:41:56,246 Patrick still haunts me in my dreams. 838 00:41:56,280 --> 00:42:00,316 I have nightmares once or twice a month. 839 00:42:00,351 --> 00:42:03,386 I'm not gonna have nightmares about him anymore. 840 00:42:03,420 --> 00:42:04,721 He admitted it. 841 00:42:06,323 --> 00:42:07,724 That's my final step. 842 00:42:08,859 --> 00:42:11,160 He admitted he's a monster, 843 00:42:11,195 --> 00:42:12,762 and I'm really glad that I came here 844 00:42:12,796 --> 00:42:14,597 and seen it, because I would have never seen it. 845 00:42:16,400 --> 00:42:18,968 Patrick Fowler is a coward. 846 00:42:19,003 --> 00:42:22,438 Patrick Fowler is a monster by choice, 847 00:42:22,506 --> 00:42:25,241 and Patrick Fowler is exactly where he needs to be.