1 00:00:02,100 --> 00:00:04,634 AINJIL: Talking about 2 00:00:06,266 --> 00:00:08,100 the night that everything happened, 3 00:00:08,100 --> 00:00:11,433 sometimes it feels like it happened so long ago. 4 00:00:15,800 --> 00:00:18,266 And sometimes it feels 5 00:00:18,266 --> 00:00:20,567 like it happened to somebody else. 6 00:00:20,567 --> 00:00:23,934 [distant, indistinct screaming] 7 00:00:26,900 --> 00:00:28,867 But most days, 8 00:00:28,934 --> 00:00:30,934 it feels like it just happened yesterday. 9 00:00:35,100 --> 00:00:38,567 Real evil absolutely exists. 10 00:00:38,567 --> 00:00:43,367 The worst kind of evil is when it comes from somebody 11 00:00:43,367 --> 00:00:46,066 you thought you could trust. 12 00:00:46,133 --> 00:00:50,266 So you're asking me if 13 00:00:50,266 --> 00:00:52,934 I think that 14 00:00:54,767 --> 00:00:57,734 William is evil? 15 00:00:59,967 --> 00:01:02,166 I think he's the definition of it. 16 00:01:12,800 --> 00:01:16,667 I had sustained eight gunshot wounds from an AK-47. 17 00:01:16,667 --> 00:01:20,567 The areas in which I was shot 18 00:01:20,634 --> 00:01:24,266 was two in the right leg, upper thigh, 19 00:01:24,333 --> 00:01:26,734 two in the left leg, also upper thigh, 20 00:01:28,400 --> 00:01:31,333 one in the groin area, 21 00:01:33,567 --> 00:01:35,467 one in my left arm, upper left arm, 22 00:01:37,567 --> 00:01:38,834 one in my chest, 23 00:01:40,667 --> 00:01:43,834 and one in my right hand. 24 00:01:46,467 --> 00:01:49,634 I don't think he anticipated that I would survive. 25 00:01:51,667 --> 00:01:56,867 The loss lives in you like a scream you can't scream, 26 00:01:58,066 --> 00:01:59,433 all the time. 27 00:02:03,367 --> 00:02:06,667 [The Paper Chase's "What's So Amazing About Grace?" plays] 28 00:02:06,734 --> 00:02:08,867 [strings continue playing sinister tune] 29 00:02:08,867 --> 00:02:13,467 [static crackling] 30 00:02:13,467 --> 00:02:15,467 -[knock at door] -[creaking] 31 00:02:15,467 --> 00:02:25,867 -[banging on door] -[creaking] 32 00:02:25,867 --> 00:02:27,367 [water dripping] 33 00:02:27,367 --> 00:02:30,567 -[banging on door] -[creaking] 34 00:02:30,567 --> 00:02:33,333 [sinister chord strikes] 35 00:02:43,467 --> 00:02:44,967 I don't need to look at that. 36 00:02:47,567 --> 00:02:52,467 I've seen that photo enough times to where it's 37 00:02:52,533 --> 00:02:55,233 ingrained and burned in my memory. 38 00:02:57,767 --> 00:02:59,567 I think a lot of people might look at the photo 39 00:02:59,567 --> 00:03:02,367 and say like, "Oh yeah, how do you not know that guy's crazy? 40 00:03:02,367 --> 00:03:06,767 He looks crazy," like yeah, he's acting crazy. 41 00:03:06,767 --> 00:03:09,333 That's what he wants you to see. 42 00:03:10,367 --> 00:03:13,166 That's all part of 43 00:03:14,166 --> 00:03:18,467 the manipulation that, you know, he got very good at. 44 00:03:18,467 --> 00:03:20,767 It's worked for him in the past -- it absolutely has. 45 00:03:20,767 --> 00:03:22,033 It worked on me. 46 00:03:23,567 --> 00:03:29,166 He was -- seemed like he had plans in life 47 00:03:29,166 --> 00:03:31,166 and things that he wanted and things that 48 00:03:31,233 --> 00:03:33,367 he wanted to achieve. 49 00:03:33,433 --> 00:03:35,367 It paints a picture. 50 00:03:35,367 --> 00:03:39,567 And I think that was something that he was always really good 51 00:03:39,634 --> 00:03:43,867 at, was showing you what you wanted to see and not 52 00:03:43,867 --> 00:03:45,834 necessarily who he really was. 53 00:03:48,100 --> 00:03:50,000 I hate him so much, 54 00:03:50,000 --> 00:03:52,967 I don't ever want to admit that I cared. 55 00:03:52,967 --> 00:03:54,467 So I don't like talking about it. 56 00:03:54,467 --> 00:03:56,967 I don't like acknowledging 57 00:03:56,967 --> 00:03:59,367 that there was ever a moment in my life 58 00:03:59,433 --> 00:04:01,066 that I wanted to be with him. 59 00:04:19,266 --> 00:04:22,967 So back in 2003, I was living in Las Vegas, 60 00:04:23,033 --> 00:04:26,000 and I was in my early 20s 61 00:04:26,000 --> 00:04:31,567 and pursuing a career in tattooing. 62 00:04:31,567 --> 00:04:34,567 Things were starting to go in a direction where I was really 63 00:04:34,567 --> 00:04:36,367 starting to make it on my own. 64 00:04:36,367 --> 00:04:41,467 My roommate at the time had met William out at a party and had 65 00:04:41,467 --> 00:04:43,734 invited him back to our apartment. 66 00:04:45,300 --> 00:04:49,467 My initial impression of him when my roommate introduced me 67 00:04:49,533 --> 00:04:53,066 to him was that he was very good-looking. 68 00:04:53,066 --> 00:04:56,166 -It's nice to meet you. -You too. 69 00:04:56,233 --> 00:05:00,867 I think a lot of what kind of spurred my interest in him 70 00:05:00,934 --> 00:05:03,867 in the beginning was, you know, we -- it did really 71 00:05:03,867 --> 00:05:05,967 feel like we had a lot in common. 72 00:05:06,033 --> 00:05:09,667 He was actually quite artistically talented, as well. 73 00:05:09,734 --> 00:05:13,767 So there was a lot of things to talk about that were familiar 74 00:05:13,834 --> 00:05:15,266 and easy to talk about. 75 00:05:16,867 --> 00:05:19,667 I learned really quickly that he was in the Navy. 76 00:05:19,667 --> 00:05:23,867 He was in Las Vegas visiting family while he was on leave. 77 00:05:23,934 --> 00:05:27,000 We had a conversation about his application 78 00:05:27,000 --> 00:05:28,367 to join the Navy. 79 00:05:28,433 --> 00:05:31,266 There was a question on the application form that 80 00:05:31,266 --> 00:05:33,166 asked, why do you want to join the Navy? 81 00:05:33,166 --> 00:05:35,767 He told me that he wrote, um, 82 00:05:35,834 --> 00:05:37,367 "Because I want to kill people." 83 00:05:42,467 --> 00:05:46,166 And he turned that application back over to the recruiter, 84 00:05:46,233 --> 00:05:50,367 and I believe the recruiter read his answer and kind of looked 85 00:05:50,367 --> 00:05:52,867 at him and said, "Well, you joined the wrong branch." 86 00:05:54,600 --> 00:05:57,166 He kind of played it off like it was a joke, like, well, 87 00:05:57,233 --> 00:06:00,834 I didn't know what else to say. It seemed funny to him. 88 00:06:02,367 --> 00:06:04,467 Back then, I just kind of laughed it off, 89 00:06:04,467 --> 00:06:09,467 despite the fact that it was kind of uncomfortable to hear. 90 00:06:09,467 --> 00:06:13,000 It didn't feel particularly funny to me. 91 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:14,867 But, you know, looking back on it now, 92 00:06:14,867 --> 00:06:16,734 I know it wasn't a joke. 93 00:06:18,200 --> 00:06:20,467 I think he meant it. I know he meant it. 94 00:06:37,667 --> 00:06:41,767 I don't think I was necessarily thinking about, 95 00:06:41,834 --> 00:06:46,033 you know, the real meat of what comes with a marriage. 96 00:06:47,500 --> 00:06:51,867 When you're 20-something years old, you know, I think you've 97 00:06:51,934 --> 00:06:54,767 got it in your head that I've got complete control 98 00:06:54,834 --> 00:06:57,033 of my life -- I was very naive. 99 00:06:58,367 --> 00:07:01,967 I was excited that, you know, I had the opportunity to see 100 00:07:01,967 --> 00:07:06,266 him more often and build this relationship, you know? 101 00:07:06,333 --> 00:07:07,433 You know, I said... 102 00:07:09,000 --> 00:07:11,000 "Yes," I mean, 103 00:07:11,000 --> 00:07:12,634 what's the worst that could happen? 104 00:07:19,400 --> 00:07:23,367 It was only really a few weeks after I had gone out 105 00:07:23,367 --> 00:07:29,667 and visited him in Jacksonville that he calls me up, and he was 106 00:07:29,734 --> 00:07:32,467 like, "Hey, I'm on my way back to Vegas. 107 00:07:32,467 --> 00:07:34,066 I got discharged." 108 00:07:36,266 --> 00:07:39,166 I was like, "Well, how did that happen?" 109 00:07:41,100 --> 00:07:45,967 And he said, "I told 'em that I was hallucinating and that I had 110 00:07:46,033 --> 00:07:47,567 "spiders crawling on my arm. 111 00:07:47,567 --> 00:07:50,066 "So I grabbed a razor blade and I cut up my arms, 112 00:07:50,133 --> 00:07:51,834 you know, so that they would think I was crazy." 113 00:07:53,967 --> 00:07:56,867 AS AINJIL: What are you talking about? 114 00:07:56,867 --> 00:07:58,433 AINJIL: And I remember being, like, 115 00:07:59,600 --> 00:08:03,066 shocked, like just absolutely shocked 116 00:08:03,133 --> 00:08:05,166 that he was able to 117 00:08:05,233 --> 00:08:10,266 so effortlessly deceive the military. 118 00:08:10,333 --> 00:08:11,834 I'll see you soon. 119 00:08:12,900 --> 00:08:18,367 AINJIL: I think he knew what sounded crazy. 120 00:08:18,433 --> 00:08:22,967 I think he knew if I play at this character, it's so off 121 00:08:22,967 --> 00:08:26,233 the wall, people are gonna think I'm out of my mind. 122 00:08:28,266 --> 00:08:32,667 And I found out, you know, that it was 123 00:08:32,667 --> 00:08:36,066 a routine that he was very good at. 124 00:08:36,066 --> 00:08:38,567 He lied as easily as he told the truth, 125 00:08:38,634 --> 00:08:40,634 which made him very believable. 126 00:08:42,767 --> 00:08:44,667 Looking back on all of it now, 127 00:08:44,667 --> 00:08:49,066 these extremes that he went to, to get out of his commitment to 128 00:08:49,066 --> 00:08:52,867 the military and to come back and be with me, 129 00:08:52,867 --> 00:08:56,634 it's a huge warning sign, that degree of obsession. 130 00:09:05,100 --> 00:09:08,066 As soon as he got back, I mean, 131 00:09:08,133 --> 00:09:11,166 we were just thrown into 132 00:09:11,166 --> 00:09:13,533 chaos with his behavior. 133 00:09:15,000 --> 00:09:18,567 It was literally that very night, he got arrested 134 00:09:18,567 --> 00:09:19,967 for his first DUI. 135 00:09:22,300 --> 00:09:27,367 All of a sudden, we're having to help him out of 136 00:09:27,433 --> 00:09:29,367 this situation that he's put himself in. 137 00:09:29,367 --> 00:09:32,667 Now he needs to get out of jail. 138 00:09:36,200 --> 00:09:39,367 You just got back, and now I feel, like, 139 00:09:39,433 --> 00:09:42,166 this immense sense of responsibility to 140 00:09:43,266 --> 00:09:46,266 take care of you, to babysit you. 141 00:09:48,767 --> 00:09:52,467 And now he's likely not gonna have means to travel, 142 00:09:52,467 --> 00:09:55,166 you know, even to and from work. 143 00:09:55,233 --> 00:09:58,266 In my head, I kind of convinced myself that it might be hard 144 00:09:58,266 --> 00:10:00,066 for a couple of months, but, you know, 145 00:10:00,066 --> 00:10:01,867 eventually he'll get the swing of things. 146 00:10:03,266 --> 00:10:05,567 We'll find some way of making it work out. 147 00:10:06,967 --> 00:10:09,634 Come on. Let's get you home. 148 00:10:12,266 --> 00:10:16,667 I hoped that there was some part of him that was somewhat 149 00:10:16,734 --> 00:10:20,767 capable of being the person that I had originally met, 150 00:10:20,767 --> 00:10:23,667 that seemed so well put together 151 00:10:23,667 --> 00:10:27,834 and with a lot going for him. 152 00:10:30,867 --> 00:10:32,767 I think I... 153 00:10:32,767 --> 00:10:34,567 really desperately wanted 154 00:10:36,166 --> 00:10:38,166 other people to see whatever it was that 155 00:10:38,166 --> 00:10:40,367 I saw in the beginning. 156 00:10:53,200 --> 00:10:56,667 So one evening, I come home from work, 157 00:10:56,734 --> 00:11:00,667 and I'm made aware of 158 00:11:00,734 --> 00:11:04,567 the fact that, at some point, he had decided that it would be 159 00:11:04,567 --> 00:11:07,867 a good idea to try and break into 160 00:11:07,867 --> 00:11:10,166 an apartment at the complex. 161 00:11:14,266 --> 00:11:18,867 And he somehow obtained and used a chainsaw 162 00:11:18,934 --> 00:11:20,934 to try and cut down the door. 163 00:11:22,567 --> 00:11:25,767 I don't even know how somebody gets it 164 00:11:25,767 --> 00:11:28,567 into their head that they're -- 165 00:11:30,266 --> 00:11:32,266 maybe that they're gonna break in somewhere, 166 00:11:32,333 --> 00:11:34,667 but to do so with a chainsaw? 167 00:11:39,567 --> 00:11:42,767 After the arrest, the charges were officially 168 00:11:42,834 --> 00:11:44,467 malicious destruction of property. 169 00:11:46,567 --> 00:11:50,266 When he got out, and we finally had the opportunity 170 00:11:50,333 --> 00:11:52,467 to actually talk about what happened, 171 00:11:52,467 --> 00:11:54,000 it was the same excuse that I had heard, 172 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:56,767 like, a million times. 173 00:11:56,767 --> 00:12:00,266 "I was [bleep] up, I was high, I was drunk." 174 00:12:00,266 --> 00:12:02,967 AS AINJIL: That is not an excuse. 175 00:12:02,967 --> 00:12:06,166 He was very good at convincing me of that, like that it wasn't 176 00:12:06,166 --> 00:12:10,467 his fault, because he was drunk or he was on drugs 177 00:12:10,533 --> 00:12:13,100 or because he couldn't remember. 178 00:12:13,100 --> 00:12:15,266 I needed to be more 179 00:12:15,266 --> 00:12:18,967 understanding or empathetic. 180 00:12:19,033 --> 00:12:23,667 As ridiculous and stupid 181 00:12:23,667 --> 00:12:26,266 as the whole scenario was, 182 00:12:26,333 --> 00:12:30,166 and as foreboding as it ended up being, 183 00:12:30,166 --> 00:12:33,066 I had no reason to think that 184 00:12:36,000 --> 00:12:40,767 any kind of incident involving a chainsaw 185 00:12:40,767 --> 00:12:42,533 was ever gonna happen again. 186 00:12:54,100 --> 00:12:56,767 At the time, I had a cat. 187 00:12:56,767 --> 00:13:00,367 So on the last trip back to our old apartment, 188 00:13:01,667 --> 00:13:05,100 me and my sister had gone back to pick up Monkey, my cat. 189 00:13:05,100 --> 00:13:09,934 And we went in, and she didn't come out. 190 00:13:11,266 --> 00:13:13,767 And so we're looking around for her, and we don't see her. 191 00:13:13,834 --> 00:13:16,667 And slowly, we're starting to realize her stuff isn't here, 192 00:13:16,667 --> 00:13:19,934 like her litter box, her cat bowl, her toys. 193 00:13:21,767 --> 00:13:23,567 We decided, well, we're gonna make some 194 00:13:23,634 --> 00:13:24,867 flyers really quick. 195 00:13:24,867 --> 00:13:27,166 We'll put them up around the apartment complex. 196 00:13:28,867 --> 00:13:31,867 We never got a phone call. We never heard anything. 197 00:13:34,667 --> 00:13:37,767 When my cat went missing, it was devastating. 198 00:13:37,834 --> 00:13:39,767 I loved that cat very much. 199 00:13:39,767 --> 00:13:42,667 She was, um... [short laugh] 200 00:13:42,734 --> 00:13:45,667 She was my first best friend when I was, uh -- 201 00:13:45,667 --> 00:13:47,233 when I moved out here. 202 00:13:52,600 --> 00:13:59,567 Sometime later, in the course of yet another massive argument 203 00:13:59,634 --> 00:14:02,266 that he and I were in the middle of... 204 00:14:02,333 --> 00:14:04,266 There's so much wrong here! 205 00:14:04,266 --> 00:14:07,667 ...in the exchange of saying hurtful, awful things 206 00:14:07,667 --> 00:14:11,767 to each other, he fires at me, 207 00:14:11,767 --> 00:14:15,066 "I took your cat out into the desert, and I shot her. 208 00:14:15,066 --> 00:14:17,100 "And then I went, and I grabbed all of her things, 209 00:14:17,100 --> 00:14:19,166 and I threw it in the dumpster." 210 00:14:21,667 --> 00:14:26,100 And, you know, in the moment, I -- 211 00:14:26,100 --> 00:14:29,266 I really thought, what an awful thing to say to me. 212 00:14:29,266 --> 00:14:31,066 I didn't believe it. 213 00:14:31,066 --> 00:14:32,867 Why would you say something like that to me? 214 00:14:32,867 --> 00:14:34,967 You are sick! 215 00:14:35,033 --> 00:14:37,567 AINJIL: Like, I really thought that he was 216 00:14:37,634 --> 00:14:40,166 trying to say something to me 217 00:14:40,166 --> 00:14:44,266 that was so cruel and mean that he knew 218 00:14:44,333 --> 00:14:46,467 would just absolutely break my heart 219 00:14:46,467 --> 00:14:49,767 instead of focusing on, wait, did -- 220 00:14:49,767 --> 00:14:52,166 did you really do this? 221 00:14:59,200 --> 00:15:02,000 I didn't really become convinced that this is what 222 00:15:02,000 --> 00:15:05,433 happened to the cat until after everything happened. 223 00:15:06,867 --> 00:15:08,367 That was the sign. 224 00:15:08,433 --> 00:15:12,367 That moment was a sign that, you know, that I had missed, 225 00:15:12,367 --> 00:15:15,367 exactly how cruel and heartless 226 00:15:15,367 --> 00:15:18,734 and monstrous he really was. 227 00:15:24,667 --> 00:15:28,166 So one evening, I was in bed. 228 00:15:28,166 --> 00:15:30,767 I believe it was around midnight or so. 229 00:15:30,767 --> 00:15:36,166 And, you know, William had come home and pretty much walked 230 00:15:36,166 --> 00:15:37,967 straight into the house, up the stairs, 231 00:15:37,967 --> 00:15:41,367 and crawled directly into bed. 232 00:15:41,367 --> 00:15:45,367 And I don't think it was more than really a few moments later 233 00:15:45,433 --> 00:15:47,867 that I hear a knock at the door. 234 00:15:47,934 --> 00:15:49,767 [knocking noises] 235 00:15:49,834 --> 00:15:51,967 So I get up and answer the door, 236 00:15:52,033 --> 00:15:56,233 and I'm face-to-face with a police officer. 237 00:15:59,467 --> 00:16:02,967 I knew immediately that that officer was there for him. 238 00:16:02,967 --> 00:16:08,467 They were investigating a break-in at a couple of 239 00:16:08,533 --> 00:16:10,967 townhouses down from ours. 240 00:16:10,967 --> 00:16:12,667 He had tried to break into the house by 241 00:16:12,667 --> 00:16:14,734 shattering the glass door. 242 00:16:16,767 --> 00:16:19,467 The woman who lived there was 243 00:16:19,467 --> 00:16:21,667 a young lady, like, living by herself. 244 00:16:21,667 --> 00:16:24,000 And I believe she had managed to call the police. 245 00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:28,166 And that had ultimately scared him off. 246 00:16:28,233 --> 00:16:32,066 So obviously, they wanted to speak to him. 247 00:16:33,000 --> 00:16:35,867 He said that he was drunk. 248 00:16:35,934 --> 00:16:38,567 AS WILLIAM: Sorry, officers, I've been drinking a bit. 249 00:16:38,634 --> 00:16:42,867 And he didn't remember what house was ours. 250 00:16:42,867 --> 00:16:45,467 And he thought it was locked, so he just broke 251 00:16:45,467 --> 00:16:47,133 the back glass door. 252 00:16:48,800 --> 00:16:52,433 And I remember thinking, that's ridiculous. 253 00:16:53,700 --> 00:16:55,634 It never made any sense to me. 254 00:16:56,367 --> 00:16:58,166 Am I under arrest? 255 00:17:00,166 --> 00:17:02,233 AINJIL: He didn't come home drunk. 256 00:17:03,200 --> 00:17:07,166 He kind of came into the house almost like 257 00:17:08,700 --> 00:17:09,967 running in to hide. 258 00:17:12,567 --> 00:17:16,834 And they arrested him and took him right then and there. 259 00:17:18,200 --> 00:17:20,667 [handcuffs clicking] 260 00:17:20,734 --> 00:17:24,567 But I knew he was lying, but I wasn't there. 261 00:17:24,567 --> 00:17:26,667 I couldn't prove otherwise. 262 00:17:26,734 --> 00:17:30,767 I just knew that it wasn't the truth. 263 00:17:30,767 --> 00:17:34,166 I believe that he knew exactly what he was doing, 264 00:17:34,166 --> 00:17:36,367 and he went there for a purpose. 265 00:17:36,367 --> 00:17:39,166 What that purpose was, I couldn't say, 266 00:17:39,166 --> 00:17:43,567 but I guarantee that it was... 267 00:17:45,100 --> 00:17:48,867 it was nothing good and likely could have been a lot worse. 268 00:17:52,300 --> 00:17:55,233 Once I knew that he had been arrested again, 269 00:17:57,000 --> 00:18:01,133 I was done, I was over it. 270 00:18:02,166 --> 00:18:03,667 It was never gonna change. 271 00:18:03,667 --> 00:18:05,767 I didn't know how long it was gonna take, 272 00:18:05,834 --> 00:18:08,066 but my real intentions 273 00:18:08,066 --> 00:18:11,734 were to start to prepare myself to leave. 274 00:18:23,700 --> 00:18:25,667 I started spending more time with my coworkers, 275 00:18:25,667 --> 00:18:29,367 and during that time, 276 00:18:29,367 --> 00:18:32,567 I had met Jonathan Lestelle, 277 00:18:32,567 --> 00:18:34,467 whom we called Caine. 278 00:18:36,266 --> 00:18:38,266 We all had so much in common with him. 279 00:18:38,266 --> 00:18:42,767 You know, he grew up kind of a misfit kid the same 280 00:18:42,834 --> 00:18:45,867 way we all did, he loved Halloween. 281 00:18:45,867 --> 00:18:49,567 Obviously, it's my favorite holiday. 282 00:18:49,567 --> 00:18:54,567 And before very long, we definitely got very personal 283 00:18:54,567 --> 00:18:56,667 about the state of our marriages. 284 00:18:58,400 --> 00:19:02,667 He was very unhappy in his marriage, as was I. 285 00:19:02,667 --> 00:19:05,767 His situation in his marriage was quite different. 286 00:19:05,834 --> 00:19:07,533 He did have a young son. 287 00:19:08,700 --> 00:19:12,266 I would try and be a friend and give him advice. 288 00:19:12,266 --> 00:19:16,033 And, you know, he would do the same for me. 289 00:19:23,767 --> 00:19:26,867 At some point, I remember thinking something was up. 290 00:19:26,867 --> 00:19:28,967 He was a little quiet. 291 00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:31,467 He looked at me and said, "I have something 292 00:19:31,467 --> 00:19:34,867 I gotta tell you, and I don't know how to say it." 293 00:19:36,166 --> 00:19:39,967 I said, "Well, if you're having a hard time saying it, 294 00:19:40,033 --> 00:19:41,834 like, we can text it." 295 00:19:44,467 --> 00:19:49,233 So picked up his phone and sent me a text. 296 00:19:51,567 --> 00:19:55,967 And I picked up my phone, and the text I got 297 00:19:55,967 --> 00:19:57,233 from him said, 298 00:19:59,100 --> 00:20:00,433 "I'm in love with you." 299 00:20:04,166 --> 00:20:08,066 And I remember taking a moment, 300 00:20:10,600 --> 00:20:12,166 looking at him and telling him, 301 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:16,367 "I'm in love with you, too." 302 00:20:19,266 --> 00:20:23,100 He kind of looked at me with real seriousness, 303 00:20:23,100 --> 00:20:25,367 and, uh... 304 00:20:25,433 --> 00:20:28,533 said, "What are we going to do?" 305 00:20:30,867 --> 00:20:36,767 And we decided together that we knew that we needed to tell 306 00:20:36,834 --> 00:20:38,367 our significant others that 307 00:20:40,467 --> 00:20:42,367 we no longer wanted to be in the marriage, 308 00:20:44,100 --> 00:20:47,367 and, um, that we weren't going to move 309 00:20:47,367 --> 00:20:50,000 forward with anything between the two of us 310 00:20:50,000 --> 00:20:53,066 until we had done so. 311 00:21:05,900 --> 00:21:08,066 I was going through like a hundred different scenarios 312 00:21:08,066 --> 00:21:10,867 and a hundred different sentences 313 00:21:10,867 --> 00:21:13,000 to try and start the conversation. 314 00:21:13,000 --> 00:21:16,166 As I'm sitting there, he took me 315 00:21:16,166 --> 00:21:17,767 completely by surprise 316 00:21:19,100 --> 00:21:23,166 and turned to me and said, "I have something that 317 00:21:23,166 --> 00:21:24,533 I wanna talk to you about." 318 00:21:27,000 --> 00:21:32,867 And he said to me, you know, "I felt for a really long time 319 00:21:32,867 --> 00:21:36,967 that the spark of our marriage has been dwindling." 320 00:21:36,967 --> 00:21:41,367 I have to say I am really unhappy, 321 00:21:43,100 --> 00:21:44,567 and I don't think this is working. 322 00:21:46,266 --> 00:21:49,066 And I remember nodding my head and saying, "Okay, 323 00:21:49,133 --> 00:21:50,867 I feel the same." 324 00:21:50,867 --> 00:21:54,767 And at the exact moment that I'm sitting there thinking, 325 00:21:54,834 --> 00:21:57,667 like, I want out, how do I tell him I want out? 326 00:21:57,667 --> 00:21:59,667 He tells me he wants out. 327 00:21:59,734 --> 00:22:01,934 Give me a few days to get my stuff out of the house, 328 00:22:03,100 --> 00:22:04,367 and it's all yours. 329 00:22:04,433 --> 00:22:09,767 Our ultimate breakup was just -- it was so... 330 00:22:10,767 --> 00:22:16,266 easy, it was really 331 00:22:16,266 --> 00:22:20,467 more of a perfect scenario than I could have hoped for. 332 00:22:20,533 --> 00:22:22,867 And I really had no reason to think 333 00:22:22,867 --> 00:22:25,233 that he wasn't being sincere. 334 00:22:37,266 --> 00:22:39,767 This is a photo of Caine. 335 00:22:39,767 --> 00:22:42,567 Actually, my favorite photo, in fact. 336 00:22:42,567 --> 00:22:48,367 He was an amazing friend and an incredible person 337 00:22:48,433 --> 00:22:52,367 just all around -- very gifted, 338 00:22:52,433 --> 00:22:56,767 artistic, adventurous, talented -- very talented. 339 00:22:56,767 --> 00:23:00,467 People talk about, you know, fairytale love stories, 340 00:23:00,533 --> 00:23:03,066 and we really were living that. 341 00:23:03,066 --> 00:23:06,266 Maybe that's why everything was so -- 342 00:23:06,333 --> 00:23:09,166 so magical throughout our time together, because it was -- 343 00:23:09,166 --> 00:23:11,634 it was nothing like what I knew. 344 00:23:12,967 --> 00:23:15,634 It was like I'd known him all my life. 345 00:23:31,800 --> 00:23:33,567 In July of 2008 346 00:23:33,567 --> 00:23:36,934 we found out we were expecting. 347 00:23:39,066 --> 00:23:43,867 As happy as we were to find out that we were pregnant, we were 348 00:23:43,867 --> 00:23:48,433 also very nervous, because the reality set in. 349 00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:51,266 It was only gonna be a matter of 350 00:23:52,567 --> 00:23:56,100 of a couple of months, maybe, before I started to show. 351 00:23:56,100 --> 00:24:00,533 Not long after finding out, I got a call from William. 352 00:24:02,767 --> 00:24:05,967 And I picked up the phone and I said, "Hello." 353 00:24:07,667 --> 00:24:11,734 And he said, "Are you pregnant?" And I said, "Yes." 354 00:24:17,166 --> 00:24:22,467 Almost right away, he started harassing and being 355 00:24:22,467 --> 00:24:27,467 aggressive and just cruel over the phone. 356 00:24:27,533 --> 00:24:29,867 AS WILLIAM: I will destroy him 357 00:24:29,867 --> 00:24:31,867 and everything you built! 358 00:24:31,867 --> 00:24:33,667 AINJIL: I think one of the things that hurt 359 00:24:33,667 --> 00:24:37,100 the absolute worst was that it was all 360 00:24:37,100 --> 00:24:39,667 he can do to keep 361 00:24:39,667 --> 00:24:42,233 from coming down and shooting me in the stomach. 362 00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:46,066 I was very shocked. 363 00:24:46,133 --> 00:24:49,000 I didn't expect him to 364 00:24:49,000 --> 00:24:53,266 really, um, lash out the way that he did. 365 00:24:53,266 --> 00:24:55,333 You will regret this. 366 00:24:58,467 --> 00:25:01,567 I really, kind of, resolved myself to the idea 367 00:25:01,634 --> 00:25:05,166 that he's just saying these hurtful things to be hurtful. 368 00:25:08,367 --> 00:25:10,834 I never thought for a second that he was being literal. 369 00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:22,834 This is a photo of Caine and me. 370 00:25:24,166 --> 00:25:26,266 This was our first Halloween together. 371 00:25:26,333 --> 00:25:28,967 We were in the best place. 372 00:25:28,967 --> 00:25:31,634 We both actually wanted to go as Freddy Krueger. 373 00:25:33,300 --> 00:25:34,533 Caine had 374 00:25:35,867 --> 00:25:40,000 just gotten his divorce granted. 375 00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:42,166 Everything was moving forward exactly how 376 00:25:42,233 --> 00:25:46,934 we had intended it to -- the next step was to 377 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:51,567 start the process for my divorce. 378 00:25:51,567 --> 00:25:54,967 I was definitely starting to show here. 379 00:25:54,967 --> 00:25:56,433 This photo was taken 380 00:25:57,967 --> 00:26:02,000 just maybe just over 48 hours 381 00:26:02,000 --> 00:26:06,333 before our whole world changed. 382 00:26:07,867 --> 00:26:10,367 We had no idea. 383 00:26:10,433 --> 00:26:12,734 There weren't gonna be any more photos after this. 384 00:26:17,367 --> 00:26:22,166 Shortly before Halloween, I get a call from William. 385 00:26:22,166 --> 00:26:24,567 [phone ringing] 386 00:26:24,567 --> 00:26:27,867 And, you know, it was a -- 387 00:26:27,934 --> 00:26:31,667 it was a very friendly phone call. 388 00:26:31,734 --> 00:26:33,266 "Hey, how are you doing? 389 00:26:33,266 --> 00:26:37,867 I just wanted to call and wish you a happy Halloween." 390 00:26:38,867 --> 00:26:43,066 I don't recall being particularly concerned with 391 00:26:43,066 --> 00:26:46,367 the fact that he was really asking a lot of questions. 392 00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:52,333 Everything he needed to know to do what he did, 393 00:26:54,800 --> 00:27:00,634 the information that he needed, he got out of that phone call. 394 00:27:07,100 --> 00:27:10,767 By the Halloween weekend, I was 18 weeks along. 395 00:27:10,834 --> 00:27:13,734 The baby had started kicking and had started moving. 396 00:27:15,266 --> 00:27:17,567 After having dinner and winding down with 397 00:27:17,567 --> 00:27:20,467 a movie, we decided to, uh, go to bed. 398 00:27:21,900 --> 00:27:24,467 And a few seconds later, we started to hear 399 00:27:24,467 --> 00:27:27,867 what sounded like power tools -[chainsaw revving] 400 00:27:27,867 --> 00:27:30,367 in the hallway outside of our apartment. 401 00:27:30,367 --> 00:27:34,367 [chainsaw revving] 402 00:27:34,433 --> 00:27:37,100 So we -- we jumped out of bed 403 00:27:37,100 --> 00:27:39,033 and went to go -- went to go investigate. 404 00:27:41,166 --> 00:27:45,867 We saw...we saw a chainsaw coming through the door. 405 00:27:47,867 --> 00:27:50,266 I remember him telling me to call 911. 406 00:27:53,200 --> 00:27:58,166 And Caine yelled out, "Who the [bleep] is there?" 407 00:28:00,166 --> 00:28:01,667 I didn't know what to do. 408 00:28:04,967 --> 00:28:08,166 And he came towards me, and... 409 00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:16,433 [heavy exhale] 410 00:28:21,266 --> 00:28:23,133 And as... 411 00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:29,367 as a bullet started coming into our apartment, 412 00:28:29,367 --> 00:28:35,166 he tried to push me out of the way. 413 00:28:35,166 --> 00:28:40,967 [audio recording, Ainjil screaming] 414 00:28:40,967 --> 00:28:42,433 As I was falling back, 415 00:28:45,467 --> 00:28:48,166 I just remember feeling like I was being punched 416 00:28:48,233 --> 00:28:49,734 all over my body 417 00:28:52,900 --> 00:28:56,667 before hitting the ground. -[gunshots popping] 418 00:28:56,667 --> 00:28:58,533 And I remember the... 419 00:29:01,500 --> 00:29:04,233 the bullet fire just kept coming. 420 00:29:05,166 --> 00:29:08,367 [gunshots blasting] 421 00:29:10,300 --> 00:29:11,734 And then... 422 00:29:14,767 --> 00:29:16,734 And then it was so quiet. 423 00:29:21,166 --> 00:29:23,367 And I remember laying there 424 00:29:23,433 --> 00:29:25,734 with my head to the side 425 00:29:28,367 --> 00:29:29,867 and... 426 00:29:32,567 --> 00:29:34,467 smelling what smelled like fireworks. 427 00:29:34,467 --> 00:29:36,266 Like... 428 00:29:39,266 --> 00:29:40,467 like two dozen fireworks 429 00:29:40,533 --> 00:29:42,934 had just been let off in our apartment. 430 00:29:45,567 --> 00:29:49,767 And I remember feeling very warm 431 00:29:49,767 --> 00:29:51,634 and... 432 00:29:54,100 --> 00:29:55,567 very tired. 433 00:29:55,634 --> 00:29:59,867 And I -- I just wanted to close my eyes, 434 00:29:59,934 --> 00:30:01,734 and I wanted to fall asleep. 435 00:30:20,467 --> 00:30:23,467 And I realized that I had... 436 00:30:24,767 --> 00:30:29,467 I had called 911, and I didn't know 437 00:30:29,533 --> 00:30:31,567 where my phone was, but I was -- 438 00:30:31,567 --> 00:30:35,233 I was still on the line, somebody was still on the line. 439 00:30:38,667 --> 00:30:41,266 So it was all I could do to try calling back out to her, 440 00:30:41,266 --> 00:30:42,767 letting her know that I was there. 441 00:30:48,266 --> 00:30:50,066 And she stayed on the phone with me 442 00:30:53,066 --> 00:30:55,000 until I could hear the sirens making 443 00:30:55,000 --> 00:30:56,233 their way to our apartment. 444 00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:01,266 And I remember 445 00:31:01,266 --> 00:31:05,467 the paramedics coming in, and the whole time, 446 00:31:05,467 --> 00:31:07,233 all I could think was, uh, 447 00:31:09,066 --> 00:31:11,166 [sniffles] 448 00:31:11,166 --> 00:31:14,467 they're here, somebody's here, we're gonna be okay. 449 00:31:14,467 --> 00:31:16,634 It's okay. We're gonna be okay. 450 00:31:20,867 --> 00:31:24,367 And I remember a detective said 451 00:31:27,100 --> 00:31:30,467 that witnesses had seen a red Honda Civic 452 00:31:30,467 --> 00:31:33,567 leaving the parking lot. 453 00:31:33,567 --> 00:31:37,467 And I knew -- I knew right then and there. 454 00:31:37,533 --> 00:31:40,367 I said, like, "My God, 455 00:31:40,433 --> 00:31:43,467 "it's... 456 00:31:43,467 --> 00:31:45,734 it's my ex-husband." 457 00:31:58,600 --> 00:32:00,667 I think I woke up the next morning, 458 00:32:00,667 --> 00:32:03,467 and there was a nurse there. 459 00:32:03,467 --> 00:32:07,834 And I, uh -- I said, 460 00:32:10,767 --> 00:32:13,567 "Wait, you have to tell me 461 00:32:13,567 --> 00:32:15,233 "where... 462 00:32:17,100 --> 00:32:19,767 "where my fiance is. 463 00:32:23,100 --> 00:32:25,033 He would have come in with me." 464 00:32:28,767 --> 00:32:31,634 And she said, uh... 465 00:32:38,100 --> 00:32:40,934 She said, "Baby, nobody came in with you. 466 00:32:43,667 --> 00:32:45,433 It's just you." 467 00:32:56,200 --> 00:33:01,133 And I knew that meant that Caine was dead. 468 00:33:04,967 --> 00:33:07,266 I said, "Well, then, you -- you have to get the doctor, 469 00:33:07,266 --> 00:33:08,734 "because I'm pregnant. 470 00:33:11,667 --> 00:33:13,934 We need to check on the baby." 471 00:33:23,567 --> 00:33:25,467 I named him Shadow. 472 00:33:25,467 --> 00:33:28,767 This is the first and only series 473 00:33:28,767 --> 00:33:33,066 of sonograms that we got of Shadow. 474 00:33:35,166 --> 00:33:41,066 I was so excited to bring these photos home and show him, 475 00:33:41,066 --> 00:33:45,066 like, I -- we can actually see the baby. 476 00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:50,033 We were really super proud of what, um... 477 00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:56,734 of what we were gonna have together. 478 00:34:08,867 --> 00:34:10,266 The doctor, she was like, 479 00:34:10,333 --> 00:34:12,834 "Don't -- don't try to get up, don't move." 480 00:34:14,400 --> 00:34:16,533 I know now that she knew 481 00:34:18,667 --> 00:34:19,867 that... 482 00:34:21,867 --> 00:34:23,333 the baby hadn't made it. 483 00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:31,667 But I think it was really all she could do for me to... 484 00:34:33,066 --> 00:34:36,667 to nod her head and bring in the ultrasound machine 485 00:34:36,734 --> 00:34:42,166 and... and show me that 486 00:34:45,467 --> 00:34:46,734 he was there, 487 00:34:50,000 --> 00:34:51,734 but there was no heartbeat. 488 00:34:52,967 --> 00:34:54,834 And, uh... 489 00:35:00,066 --> 00:35:02,433 just like that, I lost my whole family. 490 00:35:05,166 --> 00:35:07,066 William murdered my child. 491 00:35:14,166 --> 00:35:15,634 Waking up 492 00:35:17,100 --> 00:35:18,967 to finding out that you were 493 00:35:23,166 --> 00:35:26,133 more alone than you've ever been in your entire life, 494 00:35:31,266 --> 00:35:33,533 I don't think that feeling ever really leaves. 495 00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:38,967 Once they felt that I was healed enough, I was gonna have 496 00:35:38,967 --> 00:35:41,867 to go into the maternity ward, and they were gonna have 497 00:35:41,867 --> 00:35:43,066 to induce labor. 498 00:35:50,066 --> 00:35:54,066 So the doctor came in 499 00:35:55,166 --> 00:35:59,367 and told me to start pushing, 500 00:35:59,367 --> 00:36:03,634 and it was very quick. 501 00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:07,967 So when the baby came out, uh, 502 00:36:08,033 --> 00:36:09,834 they, uh... 503 00:36:11,066 --> 00:36:12,734 you know, they let me hold him, 504 00:36:16,100 --> 00:36:17,533 and... 505 00:36:19,367 --> 00:36:21,467 I, uh, I remember holding him, 506 00:36:21,533 --> 00:36:23,333 and, um... 507 00:36:26,367 --> 00:36:28,934 you know, rolling his little hand between my fingers. 508 00:36:31,767 --> 00:36:34,567 He was truly perfect, 509 00:36:34,634 --> 00:36:36,367 and, um... 510 00:36:39,767 --> 00:36:42,133 you know, he was -- he was a baby. 511 00:36:45,400 --> 00:36:47,834 And then as soon as I had him, they were taking him away, 512 00:36:52,266 --> 00:36:53,533 because he was evidence. 513 00:36:59,100 --> 00:37:00,767 Our baby was evidence. 514 00:37:03,867 --> 00:37:07,233 And that was -- that was the last time I got to see him. 515 00:37:14,200 --> 00:37:15,867 After that, it wasn't over. 516 00:37:15,867 --> 00:37:21,066 And I struggle with how to say this, 517 00:37:21,133 --> 00:37:25,433 but, um, I -- I pushed out a bullet. 518 00:37:29,567 --> 00:37:33,266 And I can still feel the exact moment of the metal rolling 519 00:37:33,333 --> 00:37:37,100 against my thigh -- that was the bullet that -- 520 00:37:37,100 --> 00:37:38,934 that ultimately killed our child. 521 00:37:49,266 --> 00:37:52,567 They had charged him with attempted murder, 522 00:37:52,567 --> 00:37:55,533 felony battery with a deadly weapon, 523 00:37:56,967 --> 00:38:01,066 murder, and murder of an unborn quick child. 524 00:38:04,100 --> 00:38:06,667 I learned from the detectives what had happened. 525 00:38:06,734 --> 00:38:11,266 He had... obviously come to our home 526 00:38:11,333 --> 00:38:14,967 in the middle of the night and, um... 527 00:38:16,767 --> 00:38:20,467 had, as we knew, 528 00:38:20,533 --> 00:38:23,567 had attempted to saw through 529 00:38:23,634 --> 00:38:25,367 the door with the chainsaw. 530 00:38:28,500 --> 00:38:33,467 Our door handle to the apartment was shot off, 531 00:38:33,533 --> 00:38:37,467 and he was firing through the hole of the door handle 532 00:38:37,467 --> 00:38:40,333 into the apartment, really just, uh... 533 00:38:41,166 --> 00:38:42,934 just spraying the apartment. 534 00:38:44,367 --> 00:38:47,767 Everybody agrees that the catalyst was finding out 535 00:38:47,767 --> 00:38:49,233 that I was pregnant. 536 00:38:51,066 --> 00:38:54,867 I truly believe that he left there that night thinking that 537 00:38:54,867 --> 00:38:56,667 he had killed all of us. 538 00:38:58,300 --> 00:39:01,667 I don't think he anticipated 539 00:39:01,734 --> 00:39:04,834 that I would survive and that 540 00:39:06,767 --> 00:39:08,467 I would be alive to point the finger. 541 00:39:23,100 --> 00:39:26,166 There's no execution date. 542 00:39:26,233 --> 00:39:29,066 Until that time, it's never gonna be over. 543 00:39:29,133 --> 00:39:33,467 And until that time, there's always gonna be 544 00:39:33,467 --> 00:39:35,467 a huge part of me that -- that... 545 00:39:35,467 --> 00:39:39,667 is angry and -- and afraid. 546 00:39:41,867 --> 00:39:45,066 I don't think that I will ever really have a moment of peace 547 00:39:45,066 --> 00:39:48,066 with this until I know that he is not breathing the same 548 00:39:48,133 --> 00:39:50,066 air that I breathe. 549 00:39:50,066 --> 00:39:54,266 To this day, there's still a lot of lingering scars. 550 00:39:54,266 --> 00:39:59,867 Some of them are quite visible, and some of them are invisible. 551 00:40:02,200 --> 00:40:05,133 So you're asking me if 552 00:40:06,266 --> 00:40:07,834 I think that 553 00:40:09,467 --> 00:40:12,367 William is evil. 554 00:40:14,467 --> 00:40:16,767 I think he's the definition of it. 555 00:40:25,700 --> 00:40:29,567 My life today, I... 556 00:40:29,567 --> 00:40:34,767 I can say with all sincerity, is -- it's really beautiful. 557 00:40:34,834 --> 00:40:37,867 I'm -- I really am very lucky 558 00:40:37,867 --> 00:40:40,767 to be where I'm at today, to meet 559 00:40:40,834 --> 00:40:43,266 somebody that I love, 560 00:40:43,333 --> 00:40:45,166 and to 561 00:40:46,567 --> 00:40:48,367 be married with a family. 562 00:40:50,367 --> 00:40:54,467 He took everything from me, 563 00:40:55,967 --> 00:40:58,934 but I got a lot of it back. 564 00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:04,066 Different, but I'm really happy 565 00:41:04,133 --> 00:41:06,934 to be so fortunate, truly. 566 00:41:10,767 --> 00:41:13,266 ♪ 567 00:41:13,333 --> 00:41:15,100 That's the eyes of evil right there. 568 00:41:15,100 --> 00:41:16,767 He murdered the two people in the world 569 00:41:16,767 --> 00:41:18,433 that trusted him the most. 570 00:41:19,367 --> 00:41:20,867 Knowing that if I said something 571 00:41:20,867 --> 00:41:21,967 maybe they still would be here. 572 00:41:21,967 --> 00:41:23,934 That was really hard. 573 00:41:27,100 --> 00:41:28,367 It would tough.