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This program me contains strong language and
scenes that some viewers may find upsetting

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Back in the desert again.

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Two minutes!

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Two minutes!

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Let's do this, brothers!

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Collaboration with our brothers in
arms, the Americans,

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has gone on for years,

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doing operations all over the globe.

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We have laid down our lives for the
greater good,

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and in every conflict that we've
been in,

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the Brotherhood comes first.

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That's how deep the SF blood runs.

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Don't give up!

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Suffer in silence!

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In this series...

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...an elite team of ex Special Forces
soldiers...

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Keep pushing!

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Let's go!

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...from the UK and USA...

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Go!

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...have combined their skills to
create the toughest course yet...

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Watch the right.

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Get in there, now! Let's go!

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...bringing together the most
gruelling elements

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of Special Forces selection...

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Come on!

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...from both sides of the Atlantic.

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America's bringing something to the
table.

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This is the culmination of the best
fighting forces in the world.

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Yes!

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I'm going to Vegas, baby.

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Joining the DS as chief instructor
is extra Recon Marine, Rudy Reyes...

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Incoming. Get out, get out!

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...with 15 years' experience fighting
in multiple war zones.

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I pride myself on being hard to
kill.

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Taliban, Al-Qaeda, mujaheddin...

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SHOUTING

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...many have tried to kill me, but I
took them down.

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Get off your knees.

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Hurry up!

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Also joining the DS is ex US Navy
SEAL Remi Adeleke...

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Go, go, go!

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...with over 13 years serving his
country.

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I want the recruits to learn through
pain.

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This was your warm-up.

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Now, we're going to get to the real
game.

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And believe me, they're going to
learn a lesson through pain.

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Let's go, mountain goats!

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Each recruit must go beyond the
physical...

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Hit the target!

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Oh, my head.

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...to come face to face with their
true character.

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You buffoon!

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You better not stop again or I'm
dropping your arse!

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No other test asks as much...

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Keep working, keep working.

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Do not give up.

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...or means as much...

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Be proud of yourself. Own it.

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Good man.

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Give me some. Thank you.

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...to the few who will make it
through.

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Good job. Both of you, excellent.
Thank you, staff.

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Welcome to the slaughterhouse,
little lambs.

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It's the start of the second phase
of selection.

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I can't even bring myself to say how
my feet are hurting.

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May back's gone, my knee's gone.

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My arm's sore, proper.

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And of the 20 recruits, who began...

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...all 20 remain.

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How old are you, Nic, if you don't
mind me asking?

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How old am I? Yeah. 40.

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We pick up the old aches and strains
as we're a little bit older, innit?

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It just creeps up on you, doesn't
it?

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You get so disheartening.

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That's what I kind of worried about,
like,

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I'm going to be up against some
young whippersnapper. That's it.

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Recruits!

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Out on the parade square!

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Let's go.

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Parade square.

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Good to go.

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All right. Phase 2.

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We started with 20, we still have
20.

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There's not room for 20 recruits.

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I expected someone to give up.

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Voluntarily withdraw,

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so as to separate the wheat from the
chaff.

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Pressure is going to be applied.

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So, it's absolutely critical...

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...when you find your mind wandering,
get it back to centre.

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That is the only way you're going
to continue alignment.

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All right?

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We're going to leave this parade
square right now

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and cover down in the vehicles.
Let's go. Move fast.

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To earn the title, Recon Marine,

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I had to believe that no matter
what,

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I was going to absolutely pass
selection.

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Let's go!

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Let's go!

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But you can't just believe in
yourself,

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you must believe in your team-mates.

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Let's go!

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If you cannot do that, you are
useless to a Special Forces team.

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Tighten it up!

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Before they get
to their first task...

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Team unity!

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...the recruits must run in the
searing midday heat

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with 35 pounds in their Bergens.

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Backpacks off, and then, sit on
them.

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I don't want to hear any talking.

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In SF, we put our lives in each
other's hands over and over again

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and that's what each and every
single one of you will do today,

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you understand? ALL: Yes, staff.

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Pay attention.

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Eyeballs up!

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SHOUTING

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CONTESTANT: Here we go.

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Working in pairs...

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...one will free fall off the top of a
50-foot cliff.

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At the bottom, their partner must
be ready to break their fall.

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Hands on head.

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Stand by!

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Go!

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Brake too early and they risk
hitting the cliff.

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Brake too late and they risk
plummeting to the ground.

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CONTESTANT WHISPERS: Fuck.

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Do you trust me? I trust you. Good.

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What I want you to do is get your
harnesses on.

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Do it in a proper way.

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ALL: Yes, staff.

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Go, now.

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Two minutes! Move it.

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Step to me, number 20.

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No, no, no. Fucking hell, I'm not
shaking your hand.

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Recruit number 20, Leo...

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When the person, the body, reaches
there,

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you're going to brake.

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...is partnered with brakeman number
15, Nic.

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Think about it. Take control, now.

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I feel like I'm in OK shape for 40
years of age.

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There you go.

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I just want to know what I'm capable
of and who the person is in my head.

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HAPPY, 15? Yes, staff.

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Lower yourself down. There you go.

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Now, lock off, lock off.

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OK, there's your step.

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Nice and composed.

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Take control, take control.

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Got it!

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Now, take the tension.

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Stand by!

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Enjoy the ride.

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Go!

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Let it go, let it go, let it go.

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You brake when you need to.

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Brake, brake, brake!

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Got it got? Staff.

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You all right? How was that?
Brilliant.

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Did you feel like you feel safe, he
had control of you?

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Yeah, I trusted him.

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Yeah.

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OK, so, overall, that was a fucking
good effort. Thank you, staff.

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Well done. Thanks, staff.

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Disappear over there and chat about
it. Go. Cheers.

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That was a good one.

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It just went... Like, urgh!

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No, no, no. Arms through here.

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I think that's right. Oh, fuck,
I've done it wrong.

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I've done it wrong, sorry. It's all
right. Up, up, up.

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Right, arms through here. How about
you take your helmet off, first?

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I think that'll be helpful. Yes,
staff.

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Not you, you fucking halfwit.

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Seven, hurry up!

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Krypton Factor, you ain't fucking
winning, are you?

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No, staff.

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Next up, number nine, Vince, will be
braking for number seven, justyn.

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I don't mind heights.

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However, it can sometimes take the
kind of wind out of me,

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being too high.

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I'm brave, I'm strong, I'm a
warrior, I'm a conqueror.

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I'm brave... Shut up.

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I'm learning to, like, not let that
voice in my head that says,

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"You're not good at this", to take
oven

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justyn? Yeah. Are you OK? I don't
know.

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However, it can be a bit tricky
sometimes.

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I don't know what I'm doing.

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Yeah.

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Come over here.

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Fuck me! Have you got roller boots
on? No, staff.

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Fucking calm down.

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You're about to take somebody's
life in your hands. Calm down!

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Yes, staff. Seriously, relax.

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Go on, then. Feet, that's it.

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Keep your legs straighter.

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Keep your legs straighter.

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That's it. Go on, let more go, let
more go.

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That's it. Nice and confident.

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Now...now, wait, wait, hold.

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It's all right. It's all right.
just chill. Yeah.

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Look at where you're going to put
your feet. Yeah.

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Go on, then. Do that. I don't know
where.

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You do, just naturally step one foot
back.

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That's it, that's it. Now, stand up
on that. There you go.

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And now, the next foot. Yeah.

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Right, now, you're into the abseil
stance.

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Get that... There we go. Keep the
fucking arm there. That's it.

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This is the dangerous bit, right
now.

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Of all the things that go wrong,
it's always this one.

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So, don't be the fucking person that
does it. Yes, staff.

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We have control!

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Hands on your head!

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Stand by!

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Lean back. Enjoy, enjoy.

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Go!

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Brake, brake!

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JUSTYN GROANS

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How do you feel? How was that?
Scary, staff.

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You recovered well. Yes, staff.
So, overall, it worked.

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A few things you need to iron out
there between the two of you.

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Yes, staff. All right? Go and change
your underpants. Away you go.

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Come on.

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You all right? Well done.

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Well done. Really well done. Thank
you for having me.

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RUDY: Ropework is very serious.

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Fucking hell. How come you got
paired with him?

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He's 7ft taller than you and about
20st heavier.

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I'd much rather be at the top,
staff.

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You might well fucking be, if you
get this wrong.

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RUDY: If you miss a turn, it can be
fatal.

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Now, step down.

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This is not a sport.

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This is not a game.

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This is life and death.

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Let gg!

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Hands off, hands off!

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Brake, brake, brake!

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Do anything wrong? Staff.

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Relax. Staff.

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It's a massive responsibility,

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having another operator's life in
your hands.

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Argh! Come on, come on, come on. You
can do it!

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Brake, brake, brake!

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SHE GROANS

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And they absolutely must believe in
themselves.

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Calm down, calm down.

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The shock and awe that we rain down
on the recruits, it's for a reason.

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You did it.

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To get them into a combat stress
head space,

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so that we can see their character.

251
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You look like the bottle of milk.

252
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Why are you so white? It was scary.
Well done.

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Thank you for saving my life.
You're welcome.

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You all right? Yeah...

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"staff.

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Next!

257
00:12:51,488 --> 00:12:53,722
Relax. Staff.

258
00:12:53,747 --> 00:12:54,893
You all right? Yeah.

259
00:12:54,918 --> 00:12:56,743
How are you feeling? Yeah,
confident, mate?

260
00:12:56,768 --> 00:12:59,052
I ain't your fucking mate. Sorry,
staff.

261
00:12:59,077 --> 00:13:00,293
You will be sorry.

262
00:13:00,318 --> 00:13:03,253
You know why you're calling me mate?
Cos you're shitting your pants.

263
00:13:03,278 --> 00:13:05,722
You're not fucking relaxed. You're
not thinking.

264
00:13:05,747 --> 00:13:09,293
Next to brake is one of the youngest
recruits on the course,

265
00:13:09,318 --> 00:13:11,773
number two, Dylan,

266
00:13:11,798 --> 00:13:14,493
partnered with number 13, Sarah.

267
00:13:15,848 --> 00:13:17,852
Clasping your hands together and
lean.

268
00:13:17,877 --> 00:13:20,213
Clasping your hands together like
that.

269
00:13:20,238 --> 00:13:22,543
I'd definitely say I'm people
pleaser.

270
00:13:22,568 --> 00:13:24,213
The vibe you get off being liked

271
00:13:24,238 --> 00:13:26,573
than disliked is such a better
feeling.

272
00:13:26,598 --> 00:13:28,932
Relax, go on. Come close to it.
Yeah.

273
00:13:28,957 --> 00:13:31,333
Hands together. Lock your fucking
hands.

274
00:13:31,358 --> 00:13:33,722
Fuck sake! I'm going to take you off
this in a minute. Yes.

275
00:13:33,747 --> 00:13:35,443
I will always do my best.

276
00:13:35,468 --> 00:13:38,133
If I'm not good at something, I'll
try and try and try.

277
00:13:38,158 --> 00:13:39,903
Take a breath.

278
00:13:39,928 --> 00:13:42,182
Take a fucking deep breath, now.

279
00:13:42,207 --> 00:13:43,363
You need to calm down.

280
00:13:43,388 --> 00:13:46,543
You are about to take somebody's
fucking life in your hand.

281
00:13:46,568 --> 00:13:49,543
Relax! You're like a hyperactive cat
on steroids.

282
00:13:53,518 --> 00:13:55,413
I feel like I'm ready, staff. You're
ready?

283
00:13:58,747 --> 00:14:00,333
So, the person is falling.

284
00:14:00,358 --> 00:14:02,613
You're looking for a point to break.

285
00:14:02,638 --> 00:14:04,013
You have to let them fucking run.

286
00:14:04,038 --> 00:14:05,722
Don't panic cos you'll fuck them up.

287
00:14:05,747 --> 00:14:08,133
They'll be doing this and banging
into the side of the rocks.

288
00:14:08,158 --> 00:14:09,413
Hands on your head!

289
00:14:11,438 --> 00:14:13,052
Stand by.

290
00:14:13,077 --> 00:14:14,213
Go!

291
00:14:17,108 --> 00:14:19,052
Let go of the rope!

292
00:14:19,077 --> 00:14:21,013
No! Oh, my God.

293
00:14:26,747 --> 00:14:29,722
You fucking broke too early. That's
why she started to go upside down.

294
00:14:29,747 --> 00:14:32,083
Then, you let it go, and then, you
just went into ratchet.

295
00:14:32,108 --> 00:14:33,852
I had to fucking grab the rope.

296
00:14:33,877 --> 00:14:35,213
Let it run through, gently.

297
00:14:35,238 --> 00:14:37,493
Get your hands on it. Calm down!

298
00:14:37,518 --> 00:14:39,463
Calm down!

299
00:14:39,488 --> 00:14:41,373
Yes, staff.

300
00:14:41,398 --> 00:14:42,773
That could've been a disaster.

301
00:14:42,798 --> 00:14:44,773
She'd have probably broke her
fucking neck.

302
00:14:44,798 --> 00:14:45,852
Take a breath.

303
00:14:45,877 --> 00:14:47,213
HE MUMBLES

304
00:14:47,238 --> 00:14:48,653
Sorry? It was hard for me, that.

305
00:14:48,678 --> 00:14:50,693
Come here. Taking someone else's
life in my hands.

306
00:14:50,718 --> 00:14:52,443
Listen, this is what we're building
up to.

307
00:14:52,468 --> 00:14:53,802
Everything you're going to do now,

308
00:14:53,827 --> 00:14:55,623
you're going to have people's lives
in your hands.

309
00:14:55,648 --> 00:14:57,982
Do you understand that? Yes, staff.
Get that into your head.

310
00:14:58,007 --> 00:15:00,333
That could've gone fucking badly
wrong, couldn't it?

311
00:15:00,358 --> 00:15:02,903
You need to get a grip of your
fucking emotions, OK?

312
00:15:02,928 --> 00:15:05,623
Go away together. Get over there and
fucking sort it out.

313
00:15:05,648 --> 00:15:08,052
Talk together. Go, disappear,
disappear, disappear.

314
00:15:08,077 --> 00:15:10,013
I'm so sorry. We're fine, we're
fine.

315
00:15:12,288 --> 00:15:13,693
WHISPERS: Fucking hell.

316
00:15:15,318 --> 00:15:17,732
WHISPERS: Get your head together,
yeah? Yeah, man. All right?

317
00:15:17,757 --> 00:15:19,413
You're all right. Come on. Move on.

318
00:15:19,438 --> 00:15:20,493
We're good.

319
00:15:20,518 --> 00:15:22,903
I'm here. You're good. We're good.

320
00:15:22,928 --> 00:15:24,052
We're good.

321
00:15:24,077 --> 00:15:26,653
RUDY: Number two, shake it off.

322
00:15:26,678 --> 00:15:29,453
If you want to redeem yourself, take
control.

323
00:15:29,478 --> 00:15:31,802
We've still got ten more clays on
this course.

324
00:15:31,827 --> 00:15:34,213
Just keep going, all right?

325
00:15:34,238 --> 00:15:37,213
Yes, staff. Are we understood? Yes,
staff. Go.

326
00:15:37,238 --> 00:15:39,493
Put on your Bergens. Get ready to
move out.

327
00:15:48,518 --> 00:15:51,453
DYLAN: Fucking idiot, man. I totally
lost my shit.

328
00:15:51,478 --> 00:15:53,732
It's completely fucked my head up.

329
00:15:53,757 --> 00:15:55,293
Yeah, it'll get there, mate.

330
00:16:13,578 --> 00:16:15,163
I was hallucinating last night.

331
00:16:15,188 --> 00:16:17,163
I thought there was a snake
underneath my bed.

332
00:16:17,188 --> 00:16:19,473
I was like, "What the fuck was
that?"

333
00:16:19,498 --> 00:16:21,073
He'd just released his cock.

334
00:16:22,107 --> 00:16:23,473
Yeah. Coming out.

335
00:16:23,498 --> 00:16:25,243
He's alive, he's back.

336
00:16:26,378 --> 00:16:28,082
Desert cobra.

337
00:16:28,107 --> 00:16:32,163
I feel fucking done, me.
Well, it is what it is, innit?

338
00:16:32,188 --> 00:16:35,043
You're not going
to be good at everything, are you?

339
00:16:39,708 --> 00:16:42,043
You know, there were
a couple of surprises.

340
00:16:42,068 --> 00:16:44,882
Number two — I think
he's got a lot of talent.

341
00:16:44,907 --> 00:16:48,553
His attitude for putting out
is very good, but he's too nervous.

342
00:16:48,578 --> 00:16:50,962
He looked like he was about
to break down.

343
00:16:50,987 --> 00:16:54,473
I saw him...
I mean, a complete soup sandwich.

344
00:16:54,498 --> 00:16:57,683
I showed him how to do a diamond
grip. And he was like this.

345
00:16:57,708 --> 00:17:00,913
Yeah. He could not calm down, mate.
It was a cluster fuck.

346
00:17:00,938 --> 00:17:04,553
He has some type of
underlying issue.

347
00:17:04,578 --> 00:17:06,913
He has something going on.

348
00:17:06,938 --> 00:17:09,913
So, so far, we've got number two.
Yeah. Anybody else?

349
00:17:09,938 --> 00:17:11,832
Nobody's really paying attention.

350
00:17:11,857 --> 00:17:14,163
All you got to do is just beast them
a little bit.

351
00:17:14,188 --> 00:17:16,603
Shake out the dead wood now. Mm.

352
00:17:16,628 --> 00:17:18,603
Is everybody checking
each other's bags?

353
00:17:18,628 --> 00:17:21,243
Yeah. Make sure you do.
Even if you think your bag's ready,

354
00:17:21,268 --> 00:17:24,243
check each other's bags.
Double-check.

355
00:17:24,268 --> 00:17:27,762
Everybody out. Working kit on the
parade square.

356
00:17:27,787 --> 00:17:31,832
Shoe laces done up. Water bottles.

357
00:17:31,857 --> 00:17:33,473
Common sense also as well, guys.

358
00:17:50,188 --> 00:17:53,243
Number two, lift your head up,
bring your hands to your side.

359
00:17:53,268 --> 00:17:55,473
Stop fidgeting around.

360
00:17:57,298 --> 00:18:00,353
Lift your head up, number two.
What the fuck did I just say?

361
00:18:02,907 --> 00:18:05,243
You know what <i>—</i> screw it.

362
00:18:05,268 --> 00:18:09,553
Everybody, cos of number two,
bear-crawl to the gate. Now.

363
00:18:15,708 --> 00:18:17,993
I can't see. I can't see.

364
00:18:19,068 --> 00:18:20,603
LET'S go!

365
00:18:20,628 --> 00:18:23,323
Tighten it up! Tighten it up!

366
00:18:24,857 --> 00:18:27,483
So, the reason why we apply pressure

367
00:18:27,508 --> 00:18:30,193
is because we want the recruits

368
00:18:30,218 --> 00:18:32,553
to understand what's in here.

369
00:18:32,578 --> 00:18:34,913
Get in the vehicle!
There we go.

370
00:18:34,938 --> 00:18:37,243
If their preconceived limits
are incorrect,

371
00:18:37,268 --> 00:18:39,512
there is so much more within you.

372
00:18:39,537 --> 00:18:41,603
You just have to believe it.

373
00:18:41,628 --> 00:18:44,762
You know, I've had mostly just
a lapse of concentration.

374
00:18:44,787 --> 00:18:47,483
All I do was swat a fucking fly.

375
00:18:47,508 --> 00:18:49,793
And you just have to keep pushing,

376
00:18:49,818 --> 00:18:52,153
even when you feel
you can't push any more.

377
00:18:52,178 --> 00:18:54,553
When you feel you can't push
any more, push more out.

378
00:18:56,657 --> 00:19:00,203
The recruits have been taken
three miles west of base

379
00:19:00,228 --> 00:19:03,163
to an area known as
Ash Sharqiyah.

380
00:19:03,188 --> 00:19:04,842
Right. Ditch your Bergens.

381
00:19:08,068 --> 00:19:13,043
Right. About turn. Leopard-crawl
to the next DS. Go.

382
00:19:14,428 --> 00:19:16,762
If you start dropping back,
we're going to start taking

383
00:19:16,787 --> 00:19:19,483
your numbers, because I'm sick
to death of these loafing,

384
00:19:19,508 --> 00:19:21,323
thinking you're on fucking holiday.

385
00:19:21,348 --> 00:19:25,043
The DS will beast the recruits
in the desert, weeding out

386
00:19:25,068 --> 00:19:27,403
the weakest and
forcing them to quit.

387
00:19:27,428 --> 00:19:29,842
Bear crawls! Off your knees!

388
00:19:29,867 --> 00:19:33,403
They must race to a series
of RV points,

389
00:19:33,428 --> 00:19:35,842
changing exercise at each DS.

390
00:19:37,938 --> 00:19:39,762
Asses down!

391
00:19:39,787 --> 00:19:44,073
It won't stop until one recruit
hands in their arm armband.

392
00:19:47,867 --> 00:19:51,793
My unit, Recon Battalion,
led the invasion to Iraq.

393
00:19:51,818 --> 00:19:52,962
Let's go!

394
00:19:52,987 --> 00:19:56,273
We fought for almost a month
straight day and night...

395
00:19:56,298 --> 00:19:58,993
Funny, huh? Let's go. You can do it.

396
00:19:59,018 --> 00:20:01,793
Up from the sand! Let's work.

397
00:20:01,818 --> 00:20:05,273
"Fighting in 130—degree heat with
a freaking chemical suit on.

398
00:20:05,298 --> 00:20:10,403
I want you walking like this the
whole time — now! Down!

399
00:20:10,428 --> 00:20:14,842
Moving through sand, it is so hard.
It feels like every step

400
00:20:14,867 --> 00:20:16,243
Sapping your strength.

401
00:20:16,268 --> 00:20:17,283
Let gg!

402
00:20:17,308 --> 00:20:19,323
It all starts here.

403
00:20:19,348 --> 00:20:21,603
Three and five. Bunny hop!

404
00:20:21,628 --> 00:20:23,603
Get your arses down!

405
00:20:23,628 --> 00:20:28,793
Self—belief — it's the only way
to prepare the mind, body and spirit

406
00:20:28,818 --> 00:20:34,353
for these bone-numbing fatigue
of combat operations.

407
00:20:35,537 --> 00:20:36,793
Let's go!

408
00:20:36,818 --> 00:20:39,123
11, on your back! Crab crawl.

409
00:20:39,148 --> 00:20:43,153
Falling behind is number 11,
JJ-

410
00:20:43,178 --> 00:20:46,993
What are you doing, seven?
And number seven, justyn.

411
00:20:47,018 --> 00:20:50,793
Seven, give me your band.
You done? No, sir.

412
00:20:50,818 --> 00:20:52,603
Then go.

413
00:20:52,628 --> 00:20:55,683
Growing up, it was pretty tough,

414
00:20:55,708 --> 00:20:58,123
being many different things —
being black, being gay,

415
00:20:58,148 --> 00:20:59,762
being the Christian.

416
00:20:59,787 --> 00:21:02,323
Down. Keep going

417
00:21:02,348 --> 00:21:06,683
It's made me build like a tougher
exterior and a tough skin.

418
00:21:06,708 --> 00:21:08,433
Duck—walks from here.

419
00:21:08,458 --> 00:21:10,283
Your knees do not touch the deck.

420
00:21:11,708 --> 00:21:13,283
Watch your back...

421
00:21:13,308 --> 00:21:14,793
What the fuck are you doing?

422
00:21:14,818 --> 00:21:17,793
Go back and duck-walk right.

423
00:21:17,818 --> 00:21:20,323
My brother and my dad — they were
both ex-marines

424
00:21:20,348 --> 00:21:21,923
and tough and all that —

425
00:21:21,948 --> 00:21:25,563
when I told them
about being on the course,

426
00:21:25,588 --> 00:21:27,043
were... They was like...

427
00:21:27,068 --> 00:21:29,363
"What are you getting
yourself into?"

428
00:21:29,388 --> 00:21:31,073
This is not summer camp.

429
00:21:31,098 --> 00:21:32,762
Not Disneyland.

430
00:21:32,787 --> 00:21:36,153
You signed up for
a selection course.

431
00:21:36,178 --> 00:21:38,642
It's called putting the fuck out.

432
00:21:38,667 --> 00:21:40,433
GROANING

433
00:21:40,458 --> 00:21:44,842
Number 15, Nic, is pushing up
through the middle of the pack.

434
00:21:44,867 --> 00:21:48,642
I remember back as a teenager
going through puberty.

435
00:21:48,667 --> 00:21:52,003
I was a very angry person and angry
at the world

436
00:21:52,028 --> 00:21:54,642
and angry at the hand
I'd been dealt.

437
00:21:54,667 --> 00:21:55,953
Grab yourself!

438
00:21:57,388 --> 00:22:01,123
I hated what used to stare
back at me in the mirror.

439
00:22:01,148 --> 00:22:03,642
That's when I started
hitting the gym.

440
00:22:03,667 --> 00:22:06,793
If I wasn't hurting the next day,
I hadn't trained enough.

441
00:22:08,588 --> 00:22:11,793
The recruits have been beasted
for over an hour.

442
00:22:11,818 --> 00:22:13,592
It pays to be a winner!

443
00:22:20,308 --> 00:22:22,083
What are you fucking doing?

444
00:22:23,148 --> 00:22:24,793
What the fuck are you doing?

445
00:22:26,428 --> 00:22:28,153
All right, fuck off over there.

446
00:22:29,867 --> 00:22:33,680
I think if I have leave,
in that moment I think I'll probably

447
00:22:33,705 --> 00:22:35,470
be relieved of all the pain,

448
00:22:35,495 --> 00:22:37,961
but I think I'll feel proud of

449
00:22:37,986 --> 00:22:40,321
knowing that I played the good fight
and I played by the book

450
00:22:40,346 --> 00:22:41,911
and I gave my all.

451
00:22:41,936 --> 00:22:44,361
Take what you learned
and apply it in your life.

452
00:22:44,386 --> 00:22:48,191
I don't want you to feel bad.
I don't want you to feel miserable.

453
00:22:48,216 --> 00:22:50,441
You understand that? Yes, staff.

454
00:22:51,986 --> 00:22:56,651
Number seven, justyn, is the first
recruit to leave the course,

455
00:22:56,676 --> 00:22:59,441
bringing the task to an end.

456
00:22:59,466 --> 00:23:01,911
19 recruits remain.

457
00:23:03,426 --> 00:23:05,720
You think you can pull the wool
over our eyes?

458
00:23:05,745 --> 00:23:07,361
You think you can bullshit us?

459
00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:09,720
You think, because you're not
going to give in your armband

460
00:23:09,745 --> 00:23:12,441
that we don't notice it?
We know who you are.

461
00:23:12,466 --> 00:23:14,911
We know who's digging out
and we know who isn't.

462
00:23:14,936 --> 00:23:16,441
And you know as well.

463
00:23:16,466 --> 00:23:18,271
Fucking disgraceful.

464
00:23:38,585 --> 00:23:42,921
Why do it? Why put why put deodorant
on over, like,

465
00:23:42,946 --> 00:23:45,321
umpteen amounts of layers of sweat?

466
00:23:45,346 --> 00:23:47,841
I... I live in hope.

467
00:23:50,146 --> 00:23:54,721
Of the 20 recruits who began
the course, 19 remain.

468
00:24:01,666 --> 00:24:03,401
Well, gents...

469
00:24:03,426 --> 00:24:05,201
He's fucking... I'm telling you.

470
00:24:05,226 --> 00:24:07,761
Mission accomplished. First one.
Popped my cherry.

471
00:24:07,786 --> 00:24:09,610
I popped it for you.

472
00:24:09,635 --> 00:24:11,430
Thank you. Thank you.

473
00:24:11,455 --> 00:24:15,121
Don't worry, mate. They'll come
thick and fast soon. Trust me.

474
00:24:15,146 --> 00:24:17,971
They're coming, mate. Roger.
All right. Let's hang it up.

475
00:24:23,505 --> 00:24:26,440
Is your hands all right?
Completely...

476
00:24:26,465 --> 00:24:28,791
Yeah, it's not good, is it?
What did you do it on?

477
00:24:28,816 --> 00:24:31,891
What challenge?
No, it's been playing up before.

478
00:24:31,916 --> 00:24:34,201
Before I sort of come in here.

479
00:24:34,226 --> 00:24:36,560
And I got it under... I got all the
swelling down

480
00:24:36,585 --> 00:24:38,511
and it's just cos... Look, I'm
pressing. Argh.

481
00:24:38,536 --> 00:24:41,201
When I'm pressing down on that,
that's when it happened.

482
00:24:41,226 --> 00:24:44,841
What can we do? Take it easy. Ha-ha.

483
00:24:44,866 --> 00:24:46,201
Take it easy!

484
00:24:51,226 --> 00:24:54,721
So, how are you?

485
00:24:54,746 --> 00:24:58,281
I'm in a lot of pain here with this.
Are you?

486
00:24:58,306 --> 00:25:00,151
Nursing an old boxing injury,

487
00:25:00,176 --> 00:25:02,201
Number 11,1],

488
00:25:02,226 --> 00:25:05,841
visits Chief Medical Officer
Saleyha.

489
00:25:05,866 --> 00:25:07,641
It could be a small fracture.

490
00:25:07,666 --> 00:25:09,690
You're going to need an X-ray.

491
00:25:09,715 --> 00:25:13,560
And so that means that
I am medically withdrawing you.

492
00:25:13,585 --> 00:25:16,201
That's it? Once...
Whether I get an X-ray,

493
00:25:16,226 --> 00:25:18,610
I can't come back, obviously?

494
00:25:18,635 --> 00:25:21,971
Concerned that a fractured hand
could be permanently damaged

495
00:25:21,996 --> 00:25:26,440
if he were to continue, the DS
have no option but to medically

496
00:25:26,465 --> 00:25:29,161
withdraw him from the course.

497
00:25:29,186 --> 00:25:32,411
Good on you for still pushing
through, pushing through the pain

498
00:25:32,436 --> 00:25:33,801
and trying your best.

499
00:25:33,826 --> 00:25:36,771
Allow this to be something
that is a launching pad

500
00:25:36,796 --> 00:25:39,331
into the next chapter.
It's been a positive thing for me.

501
00:25:39,356 --> 00:25:42,081
Definitely. Well done. Cheers,
buddy. Thank you. Thanks a lot.

502
00:25:42,106 --> 00:25:45,051
Be strong. Do the right thing.
All right? Cheers.

503
00:25:45,076 --> 00:25:48,690
Number 11,1], is the second recruit
to leave.

504
00:25:48,715 --> 00:25:51,440
Now just 18 remain.

505
00:25:51,465 --> 00:25:53,331
So, Foxy, you do the hon ours.

506
00:25:53,356 --> 00:25:55,871
Yeah, yeah. We lost another recruit.

507
00:25:57,306 --> 00:25:58,721
All right.

508
00:25:58,746 --> 00:26:01,051
Second phase. Day four.

509
00:26:01,076 --> 00:26:03,721
What did you all see?
What did you all think?

510
00:26:03,746 --> 00:26:08,131
My positives today —
15 was very good.

511
00:26:08,156 --> 00:26:11,081
Strong. I was...
I was really impressed with him.

512
00:26:11,106 --> 00:26:13,411
He wasn't the front,

513
00:26:13,436 --> 00:26:17,131
but he was putting in 110%,
I'll give him that. Yeah.

514
00:26:17,156 --> 00:26:19,051
Number two.

515
00:26:19,076 --> 00:26:21,360
Brakeman test.

516
00:26:21,385 --> 00:26:23,690
He hadn't got a clue where he
was going, what was going on.

517
00:26:23,715 --> 00:26:25,360
He was shitting himself.

518
00:26:25,385 --> 00:26:28,051
Yeah, he puts too much
pressure on himself.

519
00:26:28,076 --> 00:26:30,440
He is enthusiastic.

520
00:26:30,465 --> 00:26:32,331
He's emotionally gassed, in't he?

521
00:26:32,356 --> 00:26:33,490
Yeah, he is.

522
00:26:33,515 --> 00:26:36,281
That emotion is just draining him.

523
00:26:36,306 --> 00:26:38,131
All right. Let's bring him in.

524
00:26:38,156 --> 00:26:40,801
Yeah. Sound good?
Yeah, good to go.

525
00:26:40,826 --> 00:26:42,081
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

526
00:26:42,106 --> 00:26:43,360
All right.

527
00:26:46,356 --> 00:26:48,161
Number two!

528
00:26:49,515 --> 00:26:51,051
I'm in trouble, aren't I?

529
00:26:53,106 --> 00:26:54,851
Fucking up.

530
00:26:56,946 --> 00:26:58,490
Let's go!

531
00:27:04,436 --> 00:27:06,281
Come on, over here.

532
00:27:27,236 --> 00:27:28,521
Sit.

533
00:27:38,746 --> 00:27:40,961
How are you feeling?

534
00:27:42,156 --> 00:27:43,721
I feel OK, staff.

535
00:27:44,906 --> 00:27:48,690
How do you think you were
performing these last three days?

536
00:27:48,715 --> 00:27:52,440
I think I've performed to the best
of my capability, staff.

537
00:27:54,106 --> 00:27:58,051
How did you feel during
the break and fall task?

538
00:28:00,186 --> 00:28:03,851
I suffer with a lot of anxiety
and that. I were...

539
00:28:05,186 --> 00:28:09,001
I've lost it under pressure,
staff, today.

540
00:28:09,026 --> 00:28:12,801
I thought..."She's got a family.

541
00:28:12,826 --> 00:28:15,570
"What if I fuck up now?"
And I just completely...

542
00:28:15,595 --> 00:28:17,931
...couldn't stop getting that
out of my head.

543
00:28:17,956 --> 00:28:20,601
She's alive, but...
..fucked up big time.

544
00:28:20,626 --> 00:28:22,440
You didn't fuck up.

545
00:28:22,465 --> 00:28:26,240
You just let the situation get
the better of you.

546
00:28:27,626 --> 00:28:30,320
I mean, you were worried
about something that didn't happen

547
00:28:30,345 --> 00:28:33,360
and you were worrying about
something that hadn't happened.

548
00:28:33,385 --> 00:28:36,360
I know what family means to people.
Family is a massive part,

549
00:28:36,385 --> 00:28:38,161
isn't it, of people's lives?

550
00:28:38,186 --> 00:28:40,521
You've got a great relationship
with your parent?

551
00:28:41,876 --> 00:28:43,801
Yeah, obviously...

552
00:28:43,826 --> 00:28:45,801
|—| do with...my dad.

553
00:28:45,826 --> 00:28:48,851
But four-four years ago...

554
00:28:48,876 --> 00:28:52,931
So, my little sister and my mum,

555
00:28:52,956 --> 00:28:55,240
they just...on 22nd May...

556
00:28:55,265 --> 00:28:58,131
...they just went out to
an Ariana Grande concert.

557
00:28:58,156 --> 00:29:00,931
And you know,

558
00:29:00,956 --> 00:29:04,931
next thing, obviously,
they all finished and stuff,

559
00:29:04,956 --> 00:29:08,041
and a terrorist attack...
a bomb went off.

560
00:29:09,706 --> 00:29:11,651
The next thing, me and my dad...

561
00:29:11,676 --> 00:29:14,240
...went up in my little car,
because he'd had a glass of wine,

562
00:29:14,265 --> 00:29:15,801
not knowing what to expect.

563
00:29:17,106 --> 00:29:21,081
My dad's running up to random women
in the street,

564
00:29:21,106 --> 00:29:23,411
shouting like, "Michelle,
is that you?"

565
00:29:23,436 --> 00:29:25,291
He just completely lost it.

566
00:29:25,316 --> 00:29:28,721
And my little sister comes running
out and she's just like,

567
00:29:28,746 --> 00:29:29,881
"Mum's gone."

568
00:29:29,906 --> 00:29:31,411
You know, "Mum's gone."

569
00:29:31,436 --> 00:29:34,651
I went, "She'll come...
We'll find her. We'll find her."

570
00:29:34,676 --> 00:29:37,701
And unfortunately,
Mum got caught in the head.

571
00:29:39,405 --> 00:29:42,460
She was pronounced dead the next
day.

572
00:29:42,485 --> 00:29:44,741
And that's your new reality.

573
00:29:44,766 --> 00:29:47,871
I had become a man straight away

574
00:29:47,896 --> 00:29:49,901
because my dad was a broken man

575
00:29:49,926 --> 00:29:53,260
and my sister needed looking after,

576
00:29:53,285 --> 00:29:55,741
so I just adopted this persona,

577
00:29:55,766 --> 00:29:58,151
this happy, smiling...

578
00:29:58,176 --> 00:30:00,510
"We can do it.
Look at how our family is."

579
00:30:00,535 --> 00:30:03,510
And we thrive, staff,
we really do.

580
00:30:03,535 --> 00:30:05,821
You know, I have to say that
that's...

581
00:30:05,846 --> 00:30:07,791
That's hon our able. Strong.

582
00:30:07,816 --> 00:30:10,340
You stepped up in the midst
of tragedy.

583
00:30:10,365 --> 00:30:12,031
You didn't shut down.

584
00:30:12,056 --> 00:30:13,181
Yeah.

585
00:30:13,206 --> 00:30:15,421
You got a lot of potential.

586
00:30:16,256 --> 00:30:18,260
You know, it's been noted.

587
00:30:18,285 --> 00:30:20,901
Your work rate is good.

588
00:30:20,926 --> 00:30:22,821
You got a lot of resilience
within you.

589
00:30:22,846 --> 00:30:24,510
You got a lot of character.

590
00:30:25,926 --> 00:30:28,390
But try and overlay the shit
that you've learned

591
00:30:28,415 --> 00:30:33,061
through some shit times and apply
them in some of the things

592
00:30:33,086 --> 00:30:35,390
that we're going
to be throwing at you.

593
00:30:35,415 --> 00:30:37,311
Yes, staff. Make sure I will.

594
00:30:39,206 --> 00:30:40,821
Guard!

595
00:30:40,846 --> 00:30:42,781
DOOR OPENS

596
00:30:49,365 --> 00:30:51,111
Come on.

597
00:30:51,136 --> 00:30:52,111
Just walk.

598
00:30:59,485 --> 00:31:01,031
Tough, huh? Yeah.

599
00:31:01,056 --> 00:31:02,590
Poor bastard. Yeah.

600
00:31:04,415 --> 00:31:09,061
Cos I lost my mum, I lost the main
part, the key to our family.

601
00:31:09,086 --> 00:31:10,701
Put your hands against the wall.

602
00:31:12,526 --> 00:31:15,541
And I owe her to be
the best person I can be.

603
00:31:19,526 --> 00:31:22,590
So I will keep striving
for the moon.

604
00:31:22,615 --> 00:31:25,340
You know, I will keep working
hard every day...

605
00:31:25,365 --> 00:31:27,981
Fucking hard, that conversation.

606
00:31:28,006 --> 00:31:32,701
...and be a strong person
for my family.

607
00:31:34,566 --> 00:31:36,901
It's a weight off your shoulders,
innit?

608
00:31:36,926 --> 00:31:38,590
It's nothing to worry about now.

609
00:31:38,615 --> 00:31:41,751
You can just crack on and get back
to smashing it like you always do.

610
00:31:41,776 --> 00:31:43,390
Exactly.

611
00:31:43,415 --> 00:31:44,981
As always, but I appreciate it.

612
00:31:59,816 --> 00:32:02,191
Have you had a dump yet?

613
00:32:02,216 --> 00:32:05,631
Dump is like...
too much credit to it,

614
00:32:05,656 --> 00:32:08,751
but a little slithering snake
came out. Nice.

615
00:32:08,776 --> 00:32:10,991
Thank fuck. Four clays in.

616
00:32:12,295 --> 00:32:15,350
The recruits are nearing the end
of phase two,

617
00:32:15,375 --> 00:32:20,470
living in a remote forward operating
base in the heart of the desert.

618
00:32:20,495 --> 00:32:22,470
INSECTS BUZZ
So many flies in here.

619
00:32:22,495 --> 00:32:24,020
Oh, my God.

620
00:32:24,045 --> 00:32:26,350
That's grim.

621
00:32:26,375 --> 00:32:29,501
Can you rub my crack?
You need to get in your crack?

622
00:32:29,526 --> 00:32:30,791
Get in there.

623
00:32:30,816 --> 00:32:32,431
LAUGHTER

624
00:32:32,456 --> 00:32:36,020
Go on, sort me out.
You can reach your own butt crack.

625
00:32:45,136 --> 00:32:47,661
The last 20 years, we have not
been fighting an enemy

626
00:32:47,686 --> 00:32:49,711
that wears a uniform.

627
00:32:49,736 --> 00:32:52,301
World War ll, Korea,
even Vietnam...

628
00:32:52,326 --> 00:32:53,941
Modern warfare,

629
00:32:53,966 --> 00:32:57,511
we're fighting guerrillas that can
blend, hide and deceive

630
00:32:57,536 --> 00:32:59,071
within the local population.

631
00:32:59,096 --> 00:33:00,861
Let's go!

632
00:33:00,886 --> 00:33:02,631
Tighten it up!

633
00:33:02,656 --> 00:33:06,400
Sometimes you have a fraction
of a second to ascertain

634
00:33:06,425 --> 00:33:07,831
enemy or friendly.

635
00:33:09,736 --> 00:33:13,551
It's the final task of phase two
of selection, and the DS

636
00:33:13,576 --> 00:33:16,941
have brought the recruits
to a simulated enemy compound.

637
00:33:18,425 --> 00:33:21,121
Here they will test who
has the self-belief

638
00:33:21,146 --> 00:33:24,791
to make life-and-death decisions
in the heat of battle.

639
00:33:29,966 --> 00:33:33,661
When deployed to a combat area
of operation,

640
00:33:33,686 --> 00:33:36,831
we receive rules of engagement.

641
00:33:36,856 --> 00:33:38,661
These are a set of standards.

642
00:33:38,686 --> 00:33:41,631
They protect you.
They protect your team.

643
00:33:41,656 --> 00:33:45,301
And they also protect the civilians
that live here.

644
00:33:45,326 --> 00:33:48,230
On operations,
things come at you very fast.

645
00:33:48,255 --> 00:33:52,661
It's life—and—death, split-second
decisions,

646
00:33:52,686 --> 00:33:55,480
and you have to make
the right decision.

647
00:33:55,505 --> 00:33:56,991
Safety catch!

648
00:33:57,016 --> 00:33:58,121
Two rounds.

649
00:34:00,045 --> 00:34:05,991
24 hours ago, the recruits were
trained in the rules of engagement.

650
00:34:06,016 --> 00:34:10,020
Relax. What you have in your hand
is the document that gives you

651
00:34:10,045 --> 00:34:13,301
the right to fire the weapon.
There's no room for hesitation.

652
00:34:13,326 --> 00:34:15,191
We have to decide,
is that the terrorist,

653
00:34:15,216 --> 00:34:16,480
is that not the terrorist?

654
00:34:16,505 --> 00:34:19,150
If you believe you are under
threat...

655
00:34:19,175 --> 00:34:21,431
...shoot to kill.

656
00:34:21,456 --> 00:34:23,350
Faster. Let's go.

657
00:34:23,375 --> 00:34:26,230
Heading into the compound
is number two, Dylan.

658
00:34:29,096 --> 00:34:32,381
The recruits must make their way
through the compound.

659
00:34:32,406 --> 00:34:33,711
Which way are we going?

660
00:34:33,736 --> 00:34:35,591
Can you handle that weapon?

661
00:34:35,616 --> 00:34:37,431
To simulate a real battle zone,

662
00:34:37,456 --> 00:34:40,150
they will come under fire
from the DS

663
00:34:40,175 --> 00:34:42,100
and will be expected
to shoot back.

664
00:34:43,456 --> 00:34:44,591
Good decision.

665
00:34:44,616 --> 00:34:48,991
They will then face an enemy who
will either attack or surrender.

666
00:34:49,016 --> 00:34:52,871
And the recruits must make a
decision whether to shoot to kill

667
00:34:52,896 --> 00:34:54,591
or hold their fire.

668
00:34:54,616 --> 00:34:58,511
Make a decision when you go
for it! Make a decision!

669
00:34:58,536 --> 00:35:00,150
Down!

670
00:35:03,125 --> 00:35:05,381
Relax. Staff.

671
00:35:05,406 --> 00:35:07,270
Right, listen to me.

672
00:35:07,295 --> 00:35:09,741
So you came in. What did
you see? What was going on?

673
00:35:09,766 --> 00:35:13,511
Enemy with a gun pointing at me,
so I chose to fire.

674
00:35:13,536 --> 00:35:15,841
OK, no problem.
So you came into here.

675
00:35:15,866 --> 00:35:17,100
Somebody came out with a gun,

676
00:35:17,125 --> 00:35:19,461
so I chose the decision
to shoot straight away.

677
00:35:19,486 --> 00:35:21,150
Do you think that was the right
decision?

678
00:35:21,175 --> 00:35:23,461
Yes, because he came at me
with a gun, staff.

679
00:35:23,486 --> 00:35:24,791
You sure about that? 100%, staff.

680
00:35:24,816 --> 00:35:27,511
Sure he wasn't just scared? No, he's
got a gun pointing at me, staff.

681
00:35:27,536 --> 00:35:29,381
Are you sure about that?
100%, staff.

682
00:35:29,406 --> 00:35:31,741
So you're 100% sure you did
the right thing? Yes, staff.

683
00:35:31,766 --> 00:35:34,150
So am I. Well done.
You made a good decision.

684
00:35:34,175 --> 00:35:36,100
Thank you, staff. All right.
Good effort.

685
00:35:36,125 --> 00:35:37,991
When I say go, disappear up
that sand bank there

686
00:35:38,016 --> 00:35:40,921
and then off to the right. Go.

687
00:35:40,946 --> 00:35:44,511
Number two, Dylan, successfully
completes the task.

688
00:35:45,946 --> 00:35:48,181
Get low, get low. Lower. Lower.

689
00:35:48,206 --> 00:35:50,280
Move, move. Move.

690
00:35:50,305 --> 00:35:51,871
SHOUTING
GUNSHOTS

691
00:35:51,896 --> 00:35:53,311
Let's move!

692
00:35:53,336 --> 00:35:54,671
What the fuck you firing at?

693
00:35:56,175 --> 00:35:58,741
In modern warfare, there's a code
of conduct.

694
00:35:58,766 --> 00:36:00,071
Come on, make a decision.

695
00:36:00,096 --> 00:36:03,591
An enemy is fighting you,
you fight and you kill them.

696
00:36:03,616 --> 00:36:05,431
Make a decision!

697
00:36:05,456 --> 00:36:10,561
The enemy that surrenders
is no longer a threat.

698
00:36:10,586 --> 00:36:13,711
You must treat them with dignity
and respect.

699
00:36:13,736 --> 00:36:16,071
Checking through, checking through.
What's going on?

700
00:36:16,096 --> 00:36:17,230
Where are we going to go?

701
00:36:17,255 --> 00:36:20,511
Of all the combat missions I've
have done, what I'm most proud of

702
00:36:20,536 --> 00:36:24,311
is, I was taking fire in the middle
of night looking for enemy...

703
00:36:24,336 --> 00:36:26,591
We're going left, we're going left!

704
00:36:26,616 --> 00:36:27,791
...running towards the gunfire.

705
00:36:27,816 --> 00:36:29,230
Let's move!

706
00:36:29,255 --> 00:36:32,181
An old man appears out of
the hut with an AK.

707
00:36:32,206 --> 00:36:35,431
My machine gunner says,
"Sarge, shall I light him up?"

708
00:36:35,456 --> 00:36:37,431
Go. Make a decision!

709
00:36:37,456 --> 00:36:40,350
Make a decision!
Make a decision!

710
00:36:40,375 --> 00:36:43,461
He can't see us.
We're completely invisible.

711
00:36:43,486 --> 00:36:45,791
And I'm saying, "Hold! Hold!"

712
00:36:45,816 --> 00:36:46,900
SHOUTING

713
00:36:46,925 --> 00:36:48,461
Make a decision!

714
00:36:52,486 --> 00:36:54,461
Stop!

715
00:36:54,486 --> 00:36:57,110
We do not pull the trigger.

716
00:36:57,135 --> 00:37:00,230
A second later, two little girls
come running out,

717
00:37:00,255 --> 00:37:02,641
running to the old man and
holding his legs.

718
00:37:05,696 --> 00:37:07,230
What the fuck just happened?

719
00:37:07,255 --> 00:37:10,280
You never had a scenario
which is to save somebody?

720
00:37:10,305 --> 00:37:13,150
You fucking killed everything
that moved!

721
00:37:13,175 --> 00:37:16,671
Go and fucking think about that as
you run up that hill and disappear.

722
00:37:27,255 --> 00:37:28,541
SHOUTING

723
00:37:28,566 --> 00:37:30,591
Let's go. Let's go, fast. Faster.

724
00:37:30,616 --> 00:37:31,951
Let's go, let's go.

725
00:37:31,976 --> 00:37:36,311
Still to be tested
is number 15, Nic.

726
00:37:36,336 --> 00:37:38,181
SHOUTING

727
00:37:38,206 --> 00:37:40,751
What I hope to find out about myself
from the course

728
00:37:40,776 --> 00:37:42,751
is to find out who I truly am.

729
00:37:42,776 --> 00:37:45,071
Let's go. This way. Come on.
What's happening?

730
00:37:45,096 --> 00:37:46,391
There's a lot of self-doubt.

731
00:37:46,416 --> 00:37:47,791
Keep going forward. Let's go.

732
00:37:47,816 --> 00:37:51,431
I want to see what
other people see in me.

733
00:37:51,456 --> 00:37:52,751
LET'S go!

734
00:37:52,776 --> 00:37:55,081
We're getting shot.
Come on, come on.

735
00:37:55,106 --> 00:37:56,150
What's happening?

736
00:37:56,175 --> 00:37:59,261
I just want to know
what I'm capable of.

737
00:37:59,286 --> 00:38:01,641
Which way? Which way are
we going?

738
00:38:01,666 --> 00:38:03,641
That fucking tunnel. Let's go,
let's move.

739
00:38:03,666 --> 00:38:05,431
Let's make a fucking decision!

740
00:38:05,456 --> 00:38:07,391
Make a decision!

741
00:38:07,416 --> 00:38:08,871
SHOUTING

742
00:38:10,206 --> 00:38:11,511
Stop!

743
00:38:13,896 --> 00:38:16,230
So you came in. What did you see?
What happened?

744
00:38:16,255 --> 00:38:18,591
You saw the person. I saw a
person with a gun,

745
00:38:18,616 --> 00:38:21,150
but it wasn't pointing at me.
And that's why you didn't fire.

746
00:38:21,175 --> 00:38:24,261
Yes, staff. That's a good decision,
really, isn't it? It is, staff.

747
00:38:24,286 --> 00:38:26,641
Then why didn't you make
a good decision back there?

748
00:38:26,666 --> 00:38:29,541
He was stood there with a rifle.
He was shooting at us.

749
00:38:29,566 --> 00:38:31,871
Is that a threat or not a threat?
It is, staff. Yes.

750
00:38:31,896 --> 00:38:33,591
So why didn't you shoot him?

751
00:38:35,106 --> 00:38:37,751
Er... You know what, you're lucky.
You're at the fucking front.

752
00:38:37,776 --> 00:38:40,110
I was behind you,
and I'm fucking dead.

753
00:38:40,135 --> 00:38:42,551
You failed it, didn't you?
Take that body arm our off

754
00:38:42,576 --> 00:38:44,230
and put it down there.

755
00:38:49,135 --> 00:38:50,801
All right, Nicky, boy.

756
00:38:50,826 --> 00:38:52,441
Fucking rough, innit?

757
00:38:52,466 --> 00:38:54,801
Could you not pull the trigger
anyway?

758
00:38:54,826 --> 00:38:57,801
No, I don't think I could.
In my job, you just don't..

759
00:38:57,826 --> 00:39:00,391
You don't rush in and
do something like you.

760
00:39:00,416 --> 00:39:01,671
You risk-assess it.

761
00:39:01,696 --> 00:39:04,110
It was always going to be
more challenging for you.

762
00:39:04,135 --> 00:39:06,621
You know, you save lives.
You don't take lives.

763
00:39:06,646 --> 00:39:09,551
Do you understand?
So, yeah, it'd be weird

764
00:39:09,576 --> 00:39:12,230
if you didn't mess it up, in a way,
isn't it?

765
00:39:12,255 --> 00:39:14,721
Yeah. Cos that's what you do.

766
00:39:16,466 --> 00:39:18,751
Of the 18 recruits,

767
00:39:18,776 --> 00:39:22,621
only nine successfully passed
the task.

768
00:39:22,646 --> 00:39:25,831
Right. What was the purpose
of the exercise?

769
00:39:28,616 --> 00:39:30,910
Anybody?
Courage of conviction.

770
00:39:30,935 --> 00:39:33,271
Some of you just saw a red mist

771
00:39:33,296 --> 00:39:36,081
and fucking shot anything
that moved.

772
00:39:36,106 --> 00:39:38,391
Some of you just did fuck—all.

773
00:39:38,416 --> 00:39:40,081
Learn from it.

774
00:39:40,106 --> 00:39:42,341
Get out of my sight. Disappear.

775
00:39:42,366 --> 00:39:43,671
Go. Go.

776
00:39:59,776 --> 00:40:01,191
CLATTER I NG

777
00:40:01,216 --> 00:40:02,721
You all right, mate?

778
00:40:02,746 --> 00:40:04,521
Yeah. Yeah.

779
00:40:05,976 --> 00:40:07,311
HE GROANS

780
00:40:07,336 --> 00:40:09,671
Is it the whole pressure
thing?

781
00:40:09,696 --> 00:40:11,391
Yeah, it just don't feel
natural to me,

782
00:40:11,416 --> 00:40:13,191
go in all guns blazing.

783
00:40:19,906 --> 00:40:21,671
Number 15.

784
00:40:21,696 --> 00:40:22,831
Number 15.

785
00:40:30,906 --> 00:40:33,160
Pick up the fucking pace.

786
00:40:33,185 --> 00:40:34,831
Close the gate behind you.

787
00:40:37,366 --> 00:40:39,701
Put your hands on this wall
straight ahead.

788
00:40:39,726 --> 00:40:43,521
After struggling on the last task,
number 15, Nic, is summoned

789
00:40:43,546 --> 00:40:44,881
to see the DS.

790
00:40:58,823 --> 00:41:00,318
Sit.

791
00:41:11,263 --> 00:41:12,798
DOOR CLANGS SHUT

792
00:41:21,183 --> 00:41:24,077
I've watched you, 15. Yes, staff.

793
00:41:24,102 --> 00:41:27,207
You're jacked, you're strong.

794
00:41:27,232 --> 00:41:30,997
I expected a lot more physical
performance out of you.

795
00:41:31,022 --> 00:41:33,928
I thought you'd be
performing better.

796
00:41:33,953 --> 00:41:35,928
But that got me thinking.

797
00:41:35,953 --> 00:41:39,568
Obviously, there's
other things going on.

798
00:41:39,593 --> 00:41:42,718
Performance isn't just physical.
Staff.

799
00:41:45,022 --> 00:41:47,358
Today you had a little wobble,
didn't you?

800
00:41:47,383 --> 00:41:51,077
I did. I just let things get
in my head and just that self-doubt.

801
00:41:51,102 --> 00:41:54,238
It's obvious that you have
this shield

802
00:41:54,263 --> 00:41:56,848
that prevents you from being present

803
00:41:56,873 --> 00:41:59,718
and then that turns
into becoming timid.

804
00:41:59,743 --> 00:42:03,077
But this is no freakin' cakewalk.
This is no picnic out here.

805
00:42:03,102 --> 00:42:04,848
It's designed that way for a reason.

806
00:42:06,463 --> 00:42:08,928
Where are you at in your head
at the moment

807
00:42:08,953 --> 00:42:10,877
with this course right now?

808
00:42:12,063 --> 00:42:13,408
I don't know.

809
00:42:13,433 --> 00:42:17,038
Just being here and being
surrounded by a group of people

810
00:42:17,063 --> 00:42:18,957
is very...

811
00:42:18,982 --> 00:42:20,718
...challenging for me.

812
00:42:22,232 --> 00:42:23,718
Why do you think that is?

813
00:42:24,873 --> 00:42:27,877
From a very young age,
I felt different.

814
00:42:29,183 --> 00:42:30,568
I felt...

815
00:42:32,423 --> 00:42:35,077
...a boy trapped in the wrong body.

816
00:42:36,313 --> 00:42:39,488
And that became progressively worse

817
00:42:39,513 --> 00:42:41,798
once I started puberty. Mmm.

818
00:42:41,823 --> 00:42:44,957
And there was a fear of growing up

819
00:42:44,982 --> 00:42:47,598
with two sisters,
and knowing what was ahead.

820
00:42:47,623 --> 00:42:51,158
I remember being as young
as probably five, six years old.

821
00:42:51,183 --> 00:42:53,488
I would beat my chest every night,

822
00:42:53,513 --> 00:42:56,238
and hoping and praying
that I'd never wake up with breasts.

823
00:42:56,263 --> 00:43:00,207
Eventually, I was able
to do something about it.

824
00:43:00,232 --> 00:43:04,598
And nine years ago, I went
through gender reassignment surgery,

825
00:43:04,623 --> 00:43:08,368
and I wish I could have done
something about it a lot sooner

826
00:43:08,393 --> 00:43:11,518
or, even better,
being born correctly.

827
00:43:11,543 --> 00:43:15,848
But I'm trying to make the best
of the hand that I've been dealt.

828
00:43:17,673 --> 00:43:20,368
What's your... What career path
have you chosen?

829
00:43:20,393 --> 00:43:21,798
I'm a firefighter.

830
00:43:21,823 --> 00:43:25,038
How long
have you been a firefighter?

831
00:43:25,063 --> 00:43:27,038
20 years now, staff.

832
00:43:27,063 --> 00:43:29,848
How long of that were you
a female firefighter?

833
00:43:29,873 --> 00:43:31,318
12 years.

834
00:43:32,673 --> 00:43:34,648
That's pretty impressive

835
00:43:34,673 --> 00:43:37,087
to think that you've got
through that,

836
00:43:37,112 --> 00:43:39,757
even after the huge change.

837
00:43:39,782 --> 00:43:41,648
Do you know what I'm saying?

838
00:43:41,673 --> 00:43:44,488
I can't change my past, you know.
I can rip up photographs

839
00:43:44,513 --> 00:43:46,207
of my previous life.

840
00:43:46,232 --> 00:43:48,877
But it's still there in my head.

841
00:43:48,902 --> 00:43:53,288
I always look at other men
and think, you know...

842
00:43:53,313 --> 00:43:56,848
I just don't believe in myself.
I just don't think I'm there yet.

843
00:43:58,112 --> 00:44:01,207
I think a lot of your disbelief

844
00:44:01,232 --> 00:44:04,398
stems from constantly thinking back

845
00:44:04,423 --> 00:44:07,207
and looking at stuff
that's happened in the past.

846
00:44:07,232 --> 00:44:10,238
And...presume you're here
to prove to yourself

847
00:44:10,263 --> 00:44:13,368
that you can move forward?
Very much so, staff.

848
00:44:13,393 --> 00:44:15,648
You CAN do it.

849
00:44:15,673 --> 00:44:17,957
Yeah, I just turned 40.

850
00:44:17,982 --> 00:44:21,478
And, you know, it feels like I'm
still waiting for my life to begin.

851
00:44:22,862 --> 00:44:25,757
Maybe you were feeling that
you were not authentic,

852
00:44:25,782 --> 00:44:28,648
but there's nothing fake
about what goes on here.

853
00:44:28,673 --> 00:44:31,238
The purpose of this is
to reveal character.

854
00:44:32,503 --> 00:44:36,928
And it seems that you have character
because you're a very strong person.

855
00:44:36,953 --> 00:44:39,518
I mean, what you've done with your
life already is quite amazing,

856
00:44:39,543 --> 00:44:41,368
all right?

857
00:44:41,393 --> 00:44:44,238
Some of the DS wasn't sure
if you'd still be around.

858
00:44:44,263 --> 00:44:48,648
I'd like to see you freaking
shit—can those doubts.

859
00:44:48,673 --> 00:44:51,087
Because you've got a lot more
in the tank

860
00:44:51,112 --> 00:44:53,448
and you will get a lot more out
of this,

861
00:44:53,473 --> 00:44:56,568
but you've got to stick
with it. Staff.

862
00:44:56,593 --> 00:44:58,368
Just one day at home.

863
00:44:58,393 --> 00:44:59,648
Yeah, exactly.

864
00:45:01,473 --> 00:45:03,168
Guard.

865
00:45:03,193 --> 00:45:04,728
Thank you, staff.

866
00:45:04,753 --> 00:45:06,398
DOOR OPENS

867
00:45:14,032 --> 00:45:15,168
Go here.

868
00:45:21,112 --> 00:45:23,837
I quite like him. Me too.

869
00:45:23,862 --> 00:45:27,448
I think you're exactly right.
He's got a lot more in the tank.

870
00:45:27,473 --> 00:45:29,678
Hands on the wall, please.

871
00:45:32,193 --> 00:45:33,448
Thank you, staff.

872
00:45:33,473 --> 00:45:36,007
I didn't even know about the word
transgender back then.

873
00:45:36,032 --> 00:45:38,678
It was just something that I felt
I needed to do.

874
00:45:38,703 --> 00:45:41,038
You know, it's a lot of pain
and heartache

875
00:45:41,063 --> 00:45:45,398
that I've had to go through to be
the person that I truly am.

876
00:45:47,112 --> 00:45:48,757
But it was worth it in the end.

877
00:45:50,112 --> 00:45:52,837
Now I can pass other men
on the street.

878
00:45:54,553 --> 00:45:56,837
You know, people say,
"All right, mate?"

879
00:45:56,862 --> 00:45:59,168
And it's a nice feeling to know

880
00:45:59,193 --> 00:46:01,887
that I've accomplished
what I needed to do.

881
00:46:01,912 --> 00:46:04,198
How was today for you?

882
00:46:04,223 --> 00:46:05,837
Good.

883
00:46:05,862 --> 00:46:08,887
You have to take a moment
to reflect on what you've done.

884
00:46:08,912 --> 00:46:13,198
So, my external now matches my
internal, and it's a nice feeling.

885
00:46:14,862 --> 00:46:16,168
What an experience.

886
00:46:16,193 --> 00:46:19,198
It's like bucket—list thing, innit?

887
00:46:19,223 --> 00:46:22,087
Cos it's that mad, right?

888
00:46:22,112 --> 00:46:23,678
HE WHISTLES

889
00:46:30,862 --> 00:46:32,558
SHOUTING

890
00:46:33,633 --> 00:46:35,918
Mind-set is everything.

891
00:46:35,943 --> 00:46:39,608
You must compartmentalise
your pain and fear.

892
00:46:39,633 --> 00:46:41,837
If you do not have that ability...

893
00:46:42,862 --> 00:46:44,248
...you will not survive.

894
00:47:16,912 --> 00:47:19,248
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