1 00:00:04,471 --> 00:00:07,206 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:07,408 --> 00:00:15,014 ¶ ¶ 3 00:00:21,155 --> 00:00:23,956 - I can't wait to have this place try and break me. 4 00:00:24,024 --> 00:00:25,824 narrator: For the first time on "Alone," 5 00:00:25,892 --> 00:00:27,559 ten participants fight to survive 6 00:00:27,627 --> 00:00:28,894 in the hunting ground 7 00:00:28,962 --> 00:00:31,697 of the world's largest land predator. 8 00:00:31,765 --> 00:00:33,432 - Oh, my God. Where'd he go? 9 00:00:33,500 --> 00:00:34,499 Those are bear. 10 00:00:34,568 --> 00:00:36,701 - I heard a big animal. 11 00:00:36,770 --> 00:00:39,705 - Hey, bear. - Oh, no. [bleep]. 12 00:00:39,773 --> 00:00:41,573 - Sometimes you eat the bear, 13 00:00:41,642 --> 00:00:43,976 sometimes the bear eats you. 14 00:00:44,044 --> 00:00:45,844 narrator: Battling merciless conditions... 15 00:00:45,912 --> 00:00:48,046 - This is some hard core bushwhacking. 16 00:00:48,115 --> 00:00:51,649 - Why does it have to be such a struggle every night? 17 00:00:51,718 --> 00:00:52,918 - I hit it, I hit it, I hit it. 18 00:00:52,987 --> 00:00:55,720 - I feel more alive every day I'm out here. 19 00:00:55,790 --> 00:00:58,123 - Ah. - Here comes the rain again. 20 00:00:58,192 --> 00:01:01,793 - Labrador, you're not gonna make it easy for us, are you? 21 00:01:01,862 --> 00:01:02,928 narrator: In complete isolation... 22 00:01:02,997 --> 00:01:05,396 - The most dangerous thing out here is myself. 23 00:01:05,466 --> 00:01:07,399 - Look at that. 24 00:01:07,601 --> 00:01:08,333 - The cold ground 25 00:01:08,536 --> 00:01:10,068 is just pulling all the warmth from me. 26 00:01:10,137 --> 00:01:13,872 - How many days can this go on? - Very, very hungry. 27 00:01:13,940 --> 00:01:14,740 - I feel like I'm hitting a wall. 28 00:01:14,942 --> 00:01:17,075 narrator: Last one standing wins. 29 00:01:17,144 --> 00:01:19,277 - Only gonna get harder the longer you stay out here. 30 00:01:19,346 --> 00:01:26,985 ¶ ¶ 31 00:01:32,026 --> 00:01:33,625 - The weather here changes really fast. 32 00:01:33,694 --> 00:01:34,626 - I'm gonna get hammered here. 33 00:01:34,695 --> 00:01:36,828 - I'm frickin' getting soaked. 34 00:01:36,897 --> 00:01:39,565 - Whoo-hoo, second day. I got game. 35 00:01:39,767 --> 00:01:41,233 - I'm not a weekend warrior. 36 00:01:41,301 --> 00:01:44,303 I've got 50 years of preparing to do this kind of thing. 37 00:01:44,371 --> 00:01:45,504 ¶ ¶ 38 00:01:45,573 --> 00:01:47,239 - I heard a big animal. 39 00:01:47,307 --> 00:01:51,643 If I can get a bear, that's basically the golden ticket. 40 00:01:51,712 --> 00:01:53,245 - Oh, [bleep], that's a bear... 41 00:01:53,314 --> 00:01:54,846 ¶ ¶ 42 00:01:54,915 --> 00:01:57,449 [bleep], let's move over in this direction. 43 00:01:57,651 --> 00:01:59,785 - Shot my first squirrel. 44 00:01:59,853 --> 00:02:01,854 [whispering] I just spooked a grouse. 45 00:02:02,056 --> 00:02:03,988 [normal voice] I hit it, I hit it, I hit it. 46 00:02:04,057 --> 00:02:06,992 There's two of them. That is a game changer, man. 47 00:02:08,328 --> 00:02:13,665 ¶ ¶ 48 00:02:13,733 --> 00:02:15,400 [helicopter whirring overhead] 49 00:02:15,468 --> 00:02:17,202 - Oh-ho-ho-ho. 50 00:02:17,404 --> 00:02:19,404 ¶ ¶ 51 00:02:19,472 --> 00:02:20,271 There it goes. 52 00:02:20,340 --> 00:02:22,407 ¶ ¶ 53 00:02:22,610 --> 00:02:24,008 "Alone," day one. 54 00:02:24,077 --> 00:02:25,277 I just need to let this sink in for a minute. 55 00:02:25,346 --> 00:02:27,546 [chuckles] 56 00:02:27,615 --> 00:02:29,281 What am I even doing here? 57 00:02:29,349 --> 00:02:31,283 [laughs] 58 00:02:31,351 --> 00:02:32,884 ¶ ¶ 59 00:02:32,953 --> 00:02:34,219 - I can't believe I get to do this. 60 00:02:34,288 --> 00:02:35,420 ¶ ¶ 61 00:02:35,489 --> 00:02:39,224 Me, here, Labrador, 62 00:02:39,426 --> 00:02:41,293 by myself. 63 00:02:41,361 --> 00:02:42,894 ¶ ¶ 64 00:02:42,963 --> 00:02:46,365 - Utter disbelief that I am allowed to be here. 65 00:02:46,433 --> 00:02:47,632 So thankful. 66 00:02:47,701 --> 00:02:50,235 This is living life amplified. 67 00:02:50,304 --> 00:02:56,508 ¶ ¶ 68 00:02:56,576 --> 00:02:57,376 - Now it's just me. 69 00:02:57,578 --> 00:02:59,311 Let's get to work. 70 00:02:59,379 --> 00:03:06,851 ¶ ¶ 71 00:03:06,920 --> 00:03:11,656 It's raining now, so let's prospect 72 00:03:11,725 --> 00:03:13,791 for a shelter location. 73 00:03:13,860 --> 00:03:15,594 The landscape here is spectacular-- 74 00:03:15,663 --> 00:03:17,795 very thick brush and woods. 75 00:03:17,864 --> 00:03:20,666 Things to kind of keep in mind, 76 00:03:20,734 --> 00:03:22,934 there were flash floods here 77 00:03:23,003 --> 00:03:25,537 not too long ago, so I want to pick a good spot 78 00:03:25,739 --> 00:03:27,272 so I don't get washed away. 79 00:03:27,341 --> 00:03:28,740 ¶ ¶ 80 00:03:28,809 --> 00:03:31,076 I know that doing less work 81 00:03:31,144 --> 00:03:34,146 and accomplishing the same goal is worthwhile. 82 00:03:34,214 --> 00:03:37,082 I know that picking a good location for my shelter 83 00:03:37,151 --> 00:03:39,985 is worthwhile because that's gonna be home for me. 84 00:03:42,289 --> 00:03:45,891 So that's about three inches of insulation from the ground. 85 00:03:45,959 --> 00:03:48,160 Primitive survival has been something 86 00:03:48,228 --> 00:03:50,695 very much incorporated in my life for over ten years. 87 00:03:50,764 --> 00:03:52,698 I did six years in the military, 88 00:03:52,766 --> 00:03:53,498 in the Canadian Armed Forces, 89 00:03:53,567 --> 00:03:54,833 where I would specialize 90 00:03:54,902 --> 00:03:56,968 in cold-weather warfare and survival. 91 00:03:57,037 --> 00:03:58,970 So I'm confident about building shelters 92 00:03:59,039 --> 00:04:03,041 and making fires in wet, cold environments. 93 00:04:03,243 --> 00:04:05,911 Being in the military, I know what I'm capable of, 94 00:04:05,979 --> 00:04:07,912 and I'm very methodical with what I do. 95 00:04:07,982 --> 00:04:10,849 I think I have a leg up in the competition 96 00:04:10,918 --> 00:04:12,517 because I'm a general-practice doctor 97 00:04:12,586 --> 00:04:15,053 with a high inclination 98 00:04:15,122 --> 00:04:17,856 towards emergency medicine and wilderness medicine. 99 00:04:18,058 --> 00:04:20,992 I have a previous injury, so what I'm gonna do 100 00:04:21,061 --> 00:04:23,594 is I'm gonna make an improvised splint and wrap. 101 00:04:23,664 --> 00:04:24,796 With my medical training, 102 00:04:24,998 --> 00:04:26,798 anything that you can pull me out for, 103 00:04:26,867 --> 00:04:27,532 I'll treat before you get to me. 104 00:04:27,600 --> 00:04:30,001 So no pulse and no bleed 105 00:04:30,070 --> 00:04:32,270 means that's the correct way to put a tourniquet. 106 00:04:32,339 --> 00:04:33,071 ¶ ¶ 107 00:04:33,273 --> 00:04:35,140 Becoming a doctor is expensive. 108 00:04:35,209 --> 00:04:38,543 500K would mean being able to pay off my student loans, 109 00:04:38,746 --> 00:04:39,878 and then the rest would go 110 00:04:40,080 --> 00:04:42,814 into helping renovations for my mom's home. 111 00:04:42,883 --> 00:04:45,283 That would be good for her health. 112 00:04:45,352 --> 00:04:45,951 Thanks, Mom. 113 00:04:46,019 --> 00:04:46,885 I think I can do this 114 00:04:46,953 --> 00:04:49,154 because I'm a little bit of a masochist. 115 00:04:49,223 --> 00:04:52,757 I love the type of person you become after the struggle. 116 00:04:52,826 --> 00:04:54,960 I'm a doctor, and I'm a soldier, 117 00:04:55,162 --> 00:04:58,563 so I have a hell of a lot of mental fortitude. 118 00:04:58,766 --> 00:05:00,965 I plan on going day 90-plus. 119 00:05:01,034 --> 00:05:03,301 I'm gonna be out there as long as possible. 120 00:05:03,370 --> 00:05:05,237 ¶ ¶ 121 00:05:05,439 --> 00:05:06,838 All right. 122 00:05:06,907 --> 00:05:09,007 Definitely a potential spot over here. 123 00:05:10,844 --> 00:05:12,243 I should probably set up that tarp. 124 00:05:12,313 --> 00:05:15,646 ¶ ¶ 125 00:05:15,716 --> 00:05:17,782 My advantage for this season 126 00:05:17,851 --> 00:05:19,784 is my mental approach to things 127 00:05:19,853 --> 00:05:22,987 just because of what I have to do 128 00:05:23,056 --> 00:05:25,523 on a day-to-day basis, trying to save lives. 129 00:05:25,592 --> 00:05:26,925 And the same thing goes 130 00:05:26,994 --> 00:05:29,660 for people with military background as well. 131 00:05:29,730 --> 00:05:30,795 You have to make very concise, 132 00:05:30,864 --> 00:05:33,798 thought-out, and effective decisions. 133 00:05:33,867 --> 00:05:35,534 Everything that I'm gonna be doing 134 00:05:35,736 --> 00:05:37,268 will be very "intentful." 135 00:05:37,337 --> 00:05:39,804 ¶ ¶ 136 00:05:39,873 --> 00:05:43,675 Definitely not the prettiest, but... 137 00:05:43,877 --> 00:05:45,276 I think it'll do what I need it to. 138 00:05:45,345 --> 00:05:52,984 ¶ ¶ 139 00:06:13,907 --> 00:06:14,906 - [whispering] I can't believe it. 140 00:06:15,108 --> 00:06:19,010 There's a harbor seal right over my shoulder. 141 00:06:21,448 --> 00:06:23,982 That's so cool. 142 00:06:36,596 --> 00:06:38,663 It's a beautiful place. 143 00:06:38,732 --> 00:06:40,799 Let's get a fishing rod set up. 144 00:06:41,001 --> 00:06:42,934 I'm a commercial fisherman in Alaska. 145 00:06:43,003 --> 00:06:44,936 I've been doing that just shy of a decade. 146 00:06:45,005 --> 00:06:47,872 It's very, very physical, 20 hours a day, 147 00:06:47,941 --> 00:06:49,341 every single day, 100 days straight. 148 00:06:49,543 --> 00:06:50,542 And I love it. 149 00:06:50,744 --> 00:06:52,877 It's like Christmas for me. 150 00:06:52,946 --> 00:06:53,812 You just never know what you're gonna get. 151 00:06:53,881 --> 00:06:56,681 I was drawn to Alaska for freedom. 152 00:06:56,884 --> 00:06:58,950 I work very hard for four months. 153 00:06:59,019 --> 00:07:02,421 And then I go on solo backpack adventures 154 00:07:02,623 --> 00:07:03,688 in the backcountry. 155 00:07:03,757 --> 00:07:06,758 No big surprise to see one now. 156 00:07:06,827 --> 00:07:10,028 And I truly enjoy the struggle. 157 00:07:10,230 --> 00:07:12,830 I don't view pain or suffering as a negative thing. 158 00:07:12,899 --> 00:07:15,300 I think it's growth and opportunity. 159 00:07:15,369 --> 00:07:17,035 It's a worm. 160 00:07:17,103 --> 00:07:20,505 I've never pushed myself past 30 days solo. 161 00:07:20,573 --> 00:07:22,440 I'm here to do that. 162 00:07:22,509 --> 00:07:24,176 It'll all be okay. 163 00:07:24,378 --> 00:07:27,846 I'm leaving a lot of people behind, especially my mother. 164 00:07:27,915 --> 00:07:30,114 I'm going to miss her tremendously, 165 00:07:30,184 --> 00:07:34,852 but I feel that my entire life has led to this moment. 166 00:07:34,921 --> 00:07:37,989 I started fishing when I was three. 167 00:07:38,058 --> 00:07:39,390 Harvested my first white-tailed buck by myself 168 00:07:39,459 --> 00:07:41,792 when I was 11. 169 00:07:41,862 --> 00:07:43,928 I want to see how far I can go, 170 00:07:43,997 --> 00:07:46,398 and this is an opportunity to push myself, 171 00:07:46,466 --> 00:07:47,265 see my edge. 172 00:07:47,334 --> 00:07:48,132 ¶ ¶ 173 00:07:49,002 --> 00:07:52,337 It's a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful morning. 174 00:07:52,539 --> 00:07:53,872 Super thankful. 175 00:07:53,940 --> 00:07:58,743 Hopefully get a lot of work done today. 176 00:07:58,812 --> 00:08:02,880 Before we start, I'm quite thirsty. 177 00:08:02,949 --> 00:08:04,883 I'm gonna go ahead and try to find a spot 178 00:08:05,085 --> 00:08:07,619 to get a fire started, get some water boiling. 179 00:08:07,687 --> 00:08:09,888 I've seen signs of beaver. 180 00:08:09,957 --> 00:08:12,824 Certainly, there's giardia in this water. 181 00:08:12,892 --> 00:08:14,292 Gonna have to boil it thoroughly. 182 00:08:14,360 --> 00:08:19,831 ¶ ¶ 183 00:08:20,033 --> 00:08:23,234 There's camp, been sleeping under a tarp. 184 00:08:23,303 --> 00:08:25,904 ¶ ¶ 185 00:08:25,972 --> 00:08:28,306 So, like I say, just temporary for now. 186 00:08:28,374 --> 00:08:29,840 ¶ ¶ 187 00:08:29,910 --> 00:08:31,910 My strategy for the first few days 188 00:08:31,979 --> 00:08:34,846 is to get some kind of shelter started. 189 00:08:34,915 --> 00:08:37,782 So gonna have to have water quickly 190 00:08:37,851 --> 00:08:39,985 and find a way to get fire going. 191 00:08:45,525 --> 00:08:46,791 And then food. 192 00:08:46,860 --> 00:08:48,860 Always have the bow in the hand 193 00:08:48,928 --> 00:08:51,062 in case you come across something. 194 00:08:51,131 --> 00:08:54,065 Get those things established, and I'm confident 195 00:08:54,134 --> 00:08:57,202 that I can stay for an appreciable amount of time. 196 00:08:57,404 --> 00:09:00,272 ¶ ¶ 197 00:09:00,474 --> 00:09:03,274 No, no, no. 198 00:09:03,343 --> 00:09:05,010 [groans] 199 00:09:08,482 --> 00:09:10,681 There it is. 200 00:09:10,750 --> 00:09:12,416 That's all I had for a tinder. 201 00:09:12,485 --> 00:09:14,619 This is a mistake. 202 00:09:14,688 --> 00:09:18,423 I left it out here in the rain. 203 00:09:18,625 --> 00:09:20,492 Well, whoop-de-do-pee. 204 00:09:20,560 --> 00:09:23,027 Back to square one. 205 00:09:23,096 --> 00:09:27,298 So we're just gonna wander around, looking for dry... 206 00:09:27,367 --> 00:09:31,569 ¶ ¶ 207 00:09:31,638 --> 00:09:35,707 Labrador routinely sees 208 00:09:35,775 --> 00:09:38,242 massive, massive rain systems. 209 00:09:38,312 --> 00:09:41,980 ¶ ¶ 210 00:09:42,049 --> 00:09:43,514 And it's quite difficult to get a fire started 211 00:09:43,583 --> 00:09:44,983 in these conditions. 212 00:09:48,655 --> 00:09:51,122 I am worried my mistake 213 00:09:51,191 --> 00:09:54,526 is going to be extremely detrimental to my experience. 214 00:09:54,594 --> 00:09:56,728 Here's a few wood chips, 215 00:09:56,930 --> 00:09:59,864 about the driest ones I could find. 216 00:09:59,932 --> 00:10:03,201 I think I might also grab the sawdust. 217 00:10:03,270 --> 00:10:03,735 Oh, boy. 218 00:10:03,803 --> 00:10:05,269 There's the rain. 219 00:10:05,338 --> 00:10:08,873 ¶ ¶ 220 00:10:08,942 --> 00:10:11,275 We're going to try our first attempt. 221 00:10:11,344 --> 00:10:13,812 ¶ ¶ 222 00:10:14,014 --> 00:10:17,015 Gonna try to make some real fine shavings 223 00:10:17,217 --> 00:10:21,219 and something real, real dry to go along with this. 224 00:10:21,288 --> 00:10:23,989 ¶ ¶ 225 00:10:26,492 --> 00:10:29,427 Well, now that... 226 00:10:29,629 --> 00:10:31,229 lit for just a second. 227 00:10:31,298 --> 00:10:38,003 ¶ ¶ 228 00:10:43,844 --> 00:10:48,313 Hoping I can dry it out just enough. 229 00:10:48,381 --> 00:10:52,650 ¶ ¶ 230 00:10:52,719 --> 00:10:53,918 Well, it's getting to the point 231 00:10:53,986 --> 00:10:55,920 where it's almost not bright out anymore. 232 00:10:55,989 --> 00:10:59,190 I'm gonna spend all day trying to make a fire. 233 00:10:59,392 --> 00:11:00,591 ¶ ¶ 234 00:11:00,661 --> 00:11:02,060 Things are getting serious. 235 00:11:02,129 --> 00:11:04,261 It's pretty likely I could not get a fire started. 236 00:11:04,330 --> 00:11:07,198 ¶ ¶ 237 00:11:07,400 --> 00:11:09,467 [sighs] 238 00:11:09,536 --> 00:11:11,202 That's terrifying. 239 00:11:11,404 --> 00:11:14,405 ¶ ¶ 240 00:11:14,474 --> 00:11:16,007 [flint scraping] 241 00:11:20,346 --> 00:11:26,985 ¶ ¶ 242 00:11:30,424 --> 00:11:32,957 [flint scraping] 243 00:11:33,160 --> 00:11:35,293 - I'm gonna spending all day trying to make a fire. 244 00:11:35,361 --> 00:11:37,295 ¶ ¶ 245 00:11:37,363 --> 00:11:38,229 [sighs] 246 00:11:38,298 --> 00:11:42,167 ¶ ¶ 247 00:11:42,369 --> 00:11:44,235 Come on. 248 00:11:44,304 --> 00:11:46,036 ¶ ¶ 249 00:11:46,106 --> 00:11:50,775 That's just an exercise in futility at this point. 250 00:11:50,843 --> 00:11:53,444 That's just embarrassing myself. 251 00:11:53,513 --> 00:11:56,014 So, quite thirsty. 252 00:11:59,186 --> 00:12:01,385 I hope I don't get real dizzy or anything crazy 253 00:12:01,454 --> 00:12:03,254 in the night. 254 00:12:03,323 --> 00:12:05,924 ¶ ¶ 255 00:12:06,126 --> 00:12:10,195 Silly mistakes out here can cost you everything. 256 00:12:10,397 --> 00:12:11,996 ¶ ¶ 257 00:12:12,065 --> 00:12:15,200 So we're gonna try to learn from our mistakes. 258 00:12:15,268 --> 00:12:19,070 Boy, I bet everybody's gonna see this and wonder, why-- 259 00:12:19,139 --> 00:12:23,274 why did this guy make it and so many others did not? 260 00:12:23,343 --> 00:12:24,209 ¶ ¶ 261 00:12:24,411 --> 00:12:26,878 Well... 262 00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:29,280 sure hope I can stick around to show you. 263 00:12:29,349 --> 00:12:35,987 ¶ ¶ 264 00:13:02,715 --> 00:13:04,315 - This is a good look for me. 265 00:13:04,383 --> 00:13:07,385 [spits] 266 00:13:07,453 --> 00:13:08,719 Oh, I'm sorry. 267 00:13:08,789 --> 00:13:10,989 Just spit bunchberry all over you. 268 00:13:14,594 --> 00:13:16,527 It's windy as hell. 269 00:13:16,596 --> 00:13:19,998 I'm headed up the hill. 270 00:13:21,001 --> 00:13:24,001 And I am looking for anything that's food. 271 00:13:24,070 --> 00:13:27,138 I'm gonna get tired of bunchberries real quick. 272 00:13:27,206 --> 00:13:30,008 It's also important for my body to get some proteins. 273 00:13:30,877 --> 00:13:36,014 Got a little small-game arrow nocked. 274 00:13:39,619 --> 00:13:41,485 Coming home with something. 275 00:13:41,554 --> 00:13:45,290 [imitating bird call] 276 00:13:45,358 --> 00:13:46,757 ¶ ¶ 277 00:13:46,827 --> 00:13:48,893 The farm I live on is 325 acres. 278 00:13:48,961 --> 00:13:52,963 I run a serious prescribed fire program. 279 00:13:53,032 --> 00:13:54,498 It's been really interesting to burn the farm 280 00:13:54,568 --> 00:13:57,234 and see what comes back. 281 00:13:57,303 --> 00:13:58,770 The areas that we've managed have become really beautiful. 282 00:13:58,838 --> 00:14:00,971 We blend regenerative agriculture 283 00:14:01,040 --> 00:14:03,841 with prescribed fire and natural ecosystems. 284 00:14:03,910 --> 00:14:06,110 A lot of my neighbors think I'm crazy 285 00:14:06,179 --> 00:14:08,045 for doing what I'm doing, but I'm a creative person. 286 00:14:08,114 --> 00:14:10,048 The way that I think about things is not always 287 00:14:10,250 --> 00:14:12,917 the way that a lot of other people think about them. 288 00:14:12,986 --> 00:14:15,853 This is a Kalahari Bushmen tracking technique. 289 00:14:15,922 --> 00:14:17,455 You go left, right, left, right, left, right 290 00:14:17,523 --> 00:14:18,589 on down the trail. 291 00:14:18,658 --> 00:14:19,857 It helps keep them a rhythm. 292 00:14:19,926 --> 00:14:21,525 Once they get the rhythm of the animal, 293 00:14:21,594 --> 00:14:23,594 they can track very fast. 294 00:14:23,663 --> 00:14:25,129 I was born in South Africa, 295 00:14:25,332 --> 00:14:27,798 and my family immigrated to the States when I was small. 296 00:14:27,867 --> 00:14:30,001 Shortly after my parents divorced, 297 00:14:30,069 --> 00:14:32,136 my father went back to doing his fieldwork 298 00:14:32,205 --> 00:14:35,206 in various places--Kenya, Tanzania, and South Africa. 299 00:14:35,275 --> 00:14:39,811 And I spent all of my summers with my father in the bush. 300 00:14:40,013 --> 00:14:42,480 So I spent a lot of time watching animals 301 00:14:42,682 --> 00:14:43,881 before I ever took one. 302 00:14:43,950 --> 00:14:45,550 It's made me a more patient hunter 303 00:14:45,752 --> 00:14:46,951 and a more observant hunter. 304 00:14:47,020 --> 00:14:49,620 And, so, when I decided to start taking animals, 305 00:14:49,689 --> 00:14:51,489 I found that I excelled at it. 306 00:14:51,558 --> 00:14:53,157 There you have it, y'all. 307 00:14:53,226 --> 00:14:57,495 My sweetheart, Ashley, is back at home waiting for me. 308 00:14:57,564 --> 00:14:59,096 I will miss my family, 309 00:14:59,165 --> 00:15:00,831 but I know they're in my corner and they'll support me 310 00:15:00,901 --> 00:15:04,234 because I have what it takes to win it. 311 00:15:04,304 --> 00:15:05,003 - Bye! 312 00:15:09,776 --> 00:15:12,010 - Terrain is so tough in here. 313 00:15:15,648 --> 00:15:17,115 I mean, there's places 314 00:15:17,183 --> 00:15:19,917 where you can't see your hand in front of your face. 315 00:15:19,986 --> 00:15:22,786 I feel my legs wearing out 'cause I haven't had 316 00:15:22,855 --> 00:15:26,123 any food today but some bunchberries. 317 00:15:26,192 --> 00:15:30,594 I hear squirrels everywhere, but they're up in the trees. 318 00:15:30,664 --> 00:15:33,531 Certain times of day, they... 319 00:15:33,599 --> 00:15:36,067 come down on the ground. 320 00:15:36,135 --> 00:15:38,536 My approach is to be an observer in the woods. 321 00:15:38,738 --> 00:15:42,006 [animals chattering softly] 322 00:15:47,947 --> 00:15:49,747 You can be the best shot in the world, 323 00:15:49,816 --> 00:15:51,682 and you can have the best bait, 324 00:15:51,751 --> 00:15:53,818 or you can make the best trap. 325 00:15:53,886 --> 00:15:54,552 If it's not in the right place, 326 00:15:54,754 --> 00:15:56,988 it does absolutely no good. 327 00:16:20,513 --> 00:16:23,014 I'm so sorry. 328 00:16:27,720 --> 00:16:29,988 How about that right there? 329 00:16:34,394 --> 00:16:36,661 Get some! 330 00:16:36,729 --> 00:16:38,062 That's what I'm talking about. 331 00:16:38,131 --> 00:16:41,732 It's a good shot, too. I didn't mess his guts all up. 332 00:16:41,801 --> 00:16:44,335 Thank you, buddy. I'm so sorry. 333 00:16:44,537 --> 00:16:47,005 I'm so, so sorry. 334 00:16:48,942 --> 00:16:50,208 Looks like we're having squirrel stew. 335 00:16:50,410 --> 00:16:53,410 ¶ ¶ 336 00:16:53,479 --> 00:16:56,080 I really wish... 337 00:16:56,149 --> 00:16:58,549 that my father was still alive to see me do this. 338 00:16:58,618 --> 00:17:00,818 He was a huge inspiration. 339 00:17:00,887 --> 00:17:04,888 He was not the best dad in the world. 340 00:17:04,957 --> 00:17:06,958 He cared a lot more about his dreams, 341 00:17:07,026 --> 00:17:08,625 the conservation of the planet, the animals 342 00:17:08,694 --> 00:17:10,561 than the actual family unit. 343 00:17:10,629 --> 00:17:13,230 Oh, that looks amazing. 344 00:17:13,299 --> 00:17:14,898 ¶ ¶ 345 00:17:14,967 --> 00:17:16,834 But it allowed me to spend my summers 346 00:17:16,902 --> 00:17:18,836 in some really incredible places 347 00:17:18,905 --> 00:17:21,505 working on his field biology programs. 348 00:17:21,574 --> 00:17:22,506 Going in the stew, too. 349 00:17:22,575 --> 00:17:23,908 He taught me a lot, 350 00:17:23,977 --> 00:17:26,444 and I really wish that he was still around 351 00:17:26,513 --> 00:17:28,980 for me to show him 352 00:17:29,048 --> 00:17:31,248 that I was listening when he was talking. 353 00:17:31,317 --> 00:17:35,119 ¶ ¶ 354 00:17:35,187 --> 00:17:37,989 Go ahead and get the part I'm not too fond of over with. 355 00:17:40,726 --> 00:17:43,995 Eyeballs and brains and tongue. 356 00:17:44,530 --> 00:17:46,798 Yep, there it is. 357 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:49,200 Pretty big brain for a tiny little critter. 358 00:17:49,402 --> 00:17:52,803 ¶ ¶ 359 00:17:52,872 --> 00:17:55,206 It's not as bad as you might think. 360 00:17:55,408 --> 00:18:02,013 ¶ ¶ 361 00:18:05,952 --> 00:18:08,085 I keep looking over my shoulder because... 362 00:18:08,154 --> 00:18:11,689 the wind's kind of coming this way off the water now. 363 00:18:11,757 --> 00:18:13,824 Anything that smells this grub 364 00:18:13,893 --> 00:18:14,825 is gonna approach me from that direction, 365 00:18:14,894 --> 00:18:17,995 and that's where the thick edge is, too. 366 00:18:19,565 --> 00:18:21,365 Probably best just to... 367 00:18:21,434 --> 00:18:23,000 keep an eye out. 368 00:18:34,447 --> 00:18:37,315 [dramatic music] 369 00:18:37,383 --> 00:18:40,985 ¶ ¶ 370 00:18:54,000 --> 00:18:57,001 - I'm gonna let the image just get all... 371 00:19:02,408 --> 00:19:04,008 There we go. 372 00:19:04,076 --> 00:19:07,345 I mean, I can't even take a selfie in real life. 373 00:19:07,413 --> 00:19:10,014 [chuckles] 374 00:19:10,083 --> 00:19:12,984 And yet, here I am with a bevy of camera equipment. 375 00:19:15,888 --> 00:19:18,622 Very sorry for whoever has to see this. 376 00:19:18,691 --> 00:19:20,558 Right, so we got the trap set. 377 00:19:20,627 --> 00:19:22,293 This is our bait stick here. 378 00:19:22,361 --> 00:19:24,495 ¶ ¶ 379 00:19:24,697 --> 00:19:27,565 Got yourself a dead mouse. 380 00:19:27,767 --> 00:19:28,966 I'm a tree house carpenter, 381 00:19:29,035 --> 00:19:33,170 and I am also a professional alpaca shearer. 382 00:19:33,239 --> 00:19:35,839 There's probably less than a hundred of us in the U.S. 383 00:19:35,908 --> 00:19:38,309 that do it full-time professionally. 384 00:19:38,377 --> 00:19:39,510 ¶ ¶ 385 00:19:39,578 --> 00:19:42,112 Hunting, fishing-- 386 00:19:42,181 --> 00:19:44,582 those were things that no one taught me how to do 387 00:19:44,650 --> 00:19:46,117 when I was growing up, 388 00:19:46,319 --> 00:19:48,586 but it was something that I was always passionate about 389 00:19:48,655 --> 00:19:49,987 and that I was interested in 390 00:19:50,056 --> 00:19:52,924 and something that I take very seriously now. 391 00:19:53,126 --> 00:19:55,926 But more than anything, the big X factor I have 392 00:19:55,995 --> 00:19:58,996 is the time that I spent alone at sea. 393 00:19:59,064 --> 00:20:01,598 I crossed the Pacific Ocean in my sailboat. 394 00:20:01,667 --> 00:20:03,467 That journey took 90 days. 395 00:20:03,670 --> 00:20:05,936 When you're out in sea, 396 00:20:06,005 --> 00:20:07,872 you have absolutely nobody to rely on. 397 00:20:08,074 --> 00:20:10,541 You don't know how your brain and your body 398 00:20:10,743 --> 00:20:12,076 is going to react to that 399 00:20:12,144 --> 00:20:14,211 until you've put yourself in those situations. 400 00:20:14,280 --> 00:20:17,815 The fact that I have, I think, makes me uniquely qualified. 401 00:20:17,883 --> 00:20:20,217 I haven't seen the sun in, like... 402 00:20:20,286 --> 00:20:21,419 ¶ ¶ 403 00:20:21,487 --> 00:20:23,086 Eight, nine days. 404 00:20:23,155 --> 00:20:27,425 $500,000 would be an absolute game changer for me. 405 00:20:27,493 --> 00:20:28,826 Oh, look at that. 406 00:20:29,028 --> 00:20:31,162 I work very physically demanding jobs. 407 00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:33,964 When you work in blue collar, you have a shelf life. 408 00:20:34,033 --> 00:20:34,832 It would also allow me to help my family 409 00:20:35,034 --> 00:20:37,835 in ways that I've dreamed of for years. 410 00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:39,970 I come from a family of farmers, 411 00:20:40,039 --> 00:20:42,839 and there's not a lot of money in farming. 412 00:20:42,908 --> 00:20:45,042 I have a girlfriend that loves me, 413 00:20:45,111 --> 00:20:47,978 and I'm gonna to miss all of those people a lot. 414 00:20:48,047 --> 00:20:49,714 But I'm doing this because I think I can win. 415 00:20:49,782 --> 00:20:52,116 It's gonna be hard on my body. 416 00:20:52,185 --> 00:20:55,319 But if I can do ten years' financially worth of work 417 00:20:55,388 --> 00:20:57,054 in 90 days, 418 00:20:57,123 --> 00:20:59,857 I'm willing to push my body to its absolute limits 419 00:20:59,925 --> 00:21:02,994 in order to make that happen for me. 420 00:21:06,399 --> 00:21:07,798 ¶ ¶ 421 00:21:07,867 --> 00:21:10,934 My survival strategy is to build 422 00:21:11,004 --> 00:21:15,272 a bombproof shelter and shoot a black bear. 423 00:21:15,341 --> 00:21:17,007 ¶ ¶ 424 00:21:17,076 --> 00:21:20,811 I'm building kind of like a modified lean-to 425 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:24,014 with a big front and a little window. 426 00:21:24,083 --> 00:21:25,349 I want to be able to get some light coming in 427 00:21:25,418 --> 00:21:26,283 during the day. 428 00:21:26,352 --> 00:21:27,885 ¶ ¶ 429 00:21:27,954 --> 00:21:30,954 So these spruce trees-- we're gonna strip 430 00:21:31,024 --> 00:21:35,226 all the boughs off and slide them underneath 431 00:21:35,294 --> 00:21:40,030 and layer them like tiles, one laid on top of the other, 432 00:21:40,099 --> 00:21:42,566 which will hopefully help keep some of the rain 433 00:21:42,634 --> 00:21:43,901 from getting through, 434 00:21:43,969 --> 00:21:46,303 and that'll provide insulation as well. 435 00:21:46,372 --> 00:21:47,838 ¶ ¶ 436 00:21:47,907 --> 00:21:50,307 This is how you thatch a roof, guys. 437 00:21:50,376 --> 00:21:51,375 ¶ ¶ 438 00:21:51,444 --> 00:21:53,243 Pretty cool, eh? 439 00:21:53,313 --> 00:21:54,779 ¶ ¶ 440 00:21:54,981 --> 00:21:57,048 Side walls are gonna be mostly moss 441 00:21:57,250 --> 00:22:01,852 with logs kind of stacked up to compress the moss. 442 00:22:01,921 --> 00:22:04,254 Moss is a better insulator than logs. 443 00:22:04,323 --> 00:22:06,991 ¶ ¶ 444 00:22:29,748 --> 00:22:31,882 I'm sleeping in here tonight. 445 00:22:31,951 --> 00:22:33,984 Almost like sleeping on a Christmas tree 446 00:22:36,555 --> 00:22:39,489 Welcome to my home. 447 00:22:39,558 --> 00:22:42,993 And most important... 448 00:22:44,297 --> 00:22:50,434 ¶ ¶ 449 00:22:50,636 --> 00:22:52,302 Dog and my girlfriend. 450 00:22:52,371 --> 00:22:54,505 [chuckles] 451 00:22:54,574 --> 00:22:56,240 Now it feels like home. 452 00:22:56,309 --> 00:23:02,179 ¶ ¶ 453 00:23:02,381 --> 00:23:03,314 Awesome. 454 00:23:03,382 --> 00:23:10,988 ¶ ¶ 455 00:23:46,359 --> 00:23:49,994 - [sighing] 456 00:23:52,365 --> 00:23:55,299 So thankful. 457 00:23:55,501 --> 00:23:57,001 [exhales deeply] 458 00:23:58,771 --> 00:24:02,506 Real positive way to start the day. 459 00:24:02,575 --> 00:24:04,641 Now it's nice and dry. 460 00:24:04,710 --> 00:24:07,244 Let's get us a shelter built. 461 00:24:07,313 --> 00:24:10,113 ¶ ¶ 462 00:24:10,182 --> 00:24:13,984 The thought in my mind for a more permanent shelter 463 00:24:14,053 --> 00:24:17,188 is just a rudimentary, super-simple A-frame. 464 00:24:17,390 --> 00:24:18,856 ¶ ¶ 465 00:24:18,924 --> 00:24:21,659 So now what we're doing, is we've got 466 00:24:21,727 --> 00:24:23,994 this paracord stretched out 467 00:24:24,196 --> 00:24:28,866 to determine at what height I want my lodgepole 468 00:24:28,934 --> 00:24:30,267 so that I can stand up in the tent. 469 00:24:30,336 --> 00:24:31,469 ¶ ¶ 470 00:24:31,671 --> 00:24:34,538 I am not a bush crafter. 471 00:24:34,740 --> 00:24:36,674 I'm not a shelter builder. 472 00:24:36,876 --> 00:24:39,210 I live to hunt. I live to fish. 473 00:24:39,412 --> 00:24:42,946 ¶ ¶ 474 00:24:43,015 --> 00:24:45,081 But I'm gonna enjoy the entire process, 475 00:24:45,150 --> 00:24:49,286 because there was a time where I saw the negative. 476 00:24:49,354 --> 00:24:52,957 ¶ ¶ 477 00:24:53,159 --> 00:24:55,358 I was a salary guy, getting paid for 40 hours, 478 00:24:55,427 --> 00:24:57,427 working 120. 479 00:24:57,497 --> 00:24:58,962 I wasn't sleeping. 480 00:24:59,031 --> 00:25:01,298 I'd fall asleep standing up in the shower. 481 00:25:01,366 --> 00:25:02,566 ¶ ¶ 482 00:25:02,768 --> 00:25:06,637 And then on January 8, 2011, 483 00:25:06,706 --> 00:25:09,840 there was a 17-vehicle pileup. 484 00:25:09,909 --> 00:25:12,242 I got hit head-on by an 18-wheeler. 485 00:25:12,311 --> 00:25:15,579 ¶ ¶ 486 00:25:15,647 --> 00:25:17,314 I walked away unscathed. 487 00:25:17,382 --> 00:25:19,716 ¶ ¶ 488 00:25:19,785 --> 00:25:22,119 Paramedics couldn't believe it. 489 00:25:22,187 --> 00:25:25,322 It just made me realize there's a lot more to life. 490 00:25:25,390 --> 00:25:27,257 All right. 491 00:25:27,326 --> 00:25:30,728 ¶ ¶ 492 00:25:30,930 --> 00:25:33,263 Well, that's good enough there for now. 493 00:25:33,332 --> 00:25:35,399 ¶ ¶ 494 00:25:35,601 --> 00:25:37,801 I am acutely aware 495 00:25:37,870 --> 00:25:41,071 it could be tremendously worse. 496 00:25:41,139 --> 00:25:45,275 All right, I'm getting daggone hungry, I tell you. 497 00:25:45,344 --> 00:25:47,410 ¶ ¶ 498 00:25:47,479 --> 00:25:49,279 Let's go fishing. 499 00:25:49,348 --> 00:25:53,884 ¶ ¶ 500 00:25:53,952 --> 00:25:57,021 As far as fishing goes, I'm super lucky 501 00:25:57,223 --> 00:26:00,290 that I have chased fish literally around the planet. 502 00:26:00,359 --> 00:26:01,892 ¶ ¶ 503 00:26:01,961 --> 00:26:04,962 Sure fish better when you got some confidence. 504 00:26:05,030 --> 00:26:06,964 So I think that there are certain skills, 505 00:26:07,033 --> 00:26:10,634 such as reading water, that may be beneficial. 506 00:26:10,703 --> 00:26:11,902 It just feels like any cast 507 00:26:11,971 --> 00:26:15,005 could really produce something memorable. 508 00:26:18,711 --> 00:26:21,244 [inhales sharply] Fish on. 509 00:26:21,314 --> 00:26:22,713 ¶ ¶ 510 00:26:22,782 --> 00:26:24,314 Well, that fish sure is a fight. 511 00:26:24,383 --> 00:26:25,783 ¶ ¶ 512 00:26:25,851 --> 00:26:27,918 My goodness, these are strong fish. 513 00:26:27,986 --> 00:26:32,790 They sure have a propensity to head shake. 514 00:26:32,992 --> 00:26:35,192 Try to get over here in the quiet water. 515 00:26:35,394 --> 00:26:41,197 ¶ ¶ 516 00:26:41,266 --> 00:26:42,265 Oh. 517 00:26:42,334 --> 00:26:44,267 Oh, dear. 518 00:26:44,336 --> 00:26:46,003 ¶ ¶ 519 00:26:50,476 --> 00:26:52,275 [dramatic music] 520 00:26:52,344 --> 00:26:56,013 ¶ ¶ 521 00:27:02,287 --> 00:27:06,223 Can't get it coaxed in they're going to where I could get it. 522 00:27:06,292 --> 00:27:13,998 ¶ ¶ 523 00:27:15,434 --> 00:27:17,234 Thank you. 524 00:27:17,436 --> 00:27:19,236 Thank you. 525 00:27:19,438 --> 00:27:20,237 Thank you. 526 00:27:20,305 --> 00:27:22,239 Oh. 527 00:27:22,308 --> 00:27:23,240 [sighs] 528 00:27:23,442 --> 00:27:26,010 Fantastic. 529 00:27:27,512 --> 00:27:28,845 Oh, what a fight. 530 00:27:28,914 --> 00:27:32,582 I can't believe what a fight that was. 531 00:27:32,651 --> 00:27:33,384 We're running out of light. 532 00:27:33,586 --> 00:27:36,386 It's getting late... 533 00:27:36,455 --> 00:27:38,589 but we got a fish. 534 00:27:38,791 --> 00:27:41,325 We got a beautiful brook trout. 535 00:27:41,393 --> 00:27:42,326 We have... 536 00:27:42,528 --> 00:27:44,461 [exhales sharply] 537 00:27:44,663 --> 00:27:46,196 We have something to eat. 538 00:27:46,398 --> 00:27:53,003 ¶ ¶ 539 00:28:18,831 --> 00:28:21,765 - All right, the last shelter task 540 00:28:21,833 --> 00:28:24,701 for today is to dig the fire pit. 541 00:28:24,770 --> 00:28:28,371 So it's gonna start around here, 542 00:28:28,440 --> 00:28:30,007 end around here. 543 00:28:33,112 --> 00:28:36,580 And I want it to be at least the depth of this stick. 544 00:28:36,648 --> 00:28:38,315 So let's start digging. 545 00:28:38,383 --> 00:28:41,719 ¶ ¶ 546 00:28:41,921 --> 00:28:43,920 Coming from a military background 547 00:28:43,989 --> 00:28:45,456 that operates in a very cold environment, 548 00:28:45,658 --> 00:28:47,991 I know what components 549 00:28:48,060 --> 00:28:51,128 and what concepts make really warm shelters. 550 00:28:51,196 --> 00:28:53,997 One of them is sleeping high and having your pit low. 551 00:28:54,066 --> 00:28:55,999 That way, you're not sleeping in a cold gap. 552 00:28:56,068 --> 00:28:58,068 That reduces your chance of getting frostbite, 553 00:28:58,137 --> 00:29:01,205 and it increases your ability to rewarm yourself. 554 00:29:01,407 --> 00:29:02,873 ¶ ¶ 555 00:29:02,941 --> 00:29:05,075 So having that pit way beneath you, 556 00:29:05,277 --> 00:29:07,878 having that heat rise to exactly where you're sleeping 557 00:29:08,080 --> 00:29:10,280 just increases your chance of being warm. 558 00:29:10,349 --> 00:29:13,483 ¶ ¶ 559 00:29:13,552 --> 00:29:15,686 As the time passes, 560 00:29:15,754 --> 00:29:16,820 it's gonna be super important 561 00:29:17,022 --> 00:29:20,223 'cause it's getting colder really fast. 562 00:29:20,292 --> 00:29:21,625 ¶ ¶ 563 00:29:21,827 --> 00:29:23,760 I guess this is actually turning 564 00:29:23,829 --> 00:29:26,430 into a form of a Dakota fire pit. 565 00:29:26,632 --> 00:29:30,901 I'm gonna have one inlet 566 00:29:30,969 --> 00:29:32,769 that goes right to the base of the fire, 567 00:29:32,838 --> 00:29:35,572 and one outlet towards the middle 568 00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:37,640 to help with the smoke. 569 00:29:37,709 --> 00:29:39,910 And I'll be able to put my pot 570 00:29:40,112 --> 00:29:42,846 somewhere around here, have that flames feed it, 571 00:29:42,915 --> 00:29:45,449 and funnel all that smoke out that way-- 572 00:29:45,517 --> 00:29:47,984 a ground chimney. 573 00:29:48,053 --> 00:29:50,520 And I'll fortify that with some of the river clay, 574 00:29:50,589 --> 00:29:52,189 to make it fire safe. 575 00:29:52,391 --> 00:29:59,196 ¶ ¶ 576 00:29:59,265 --> 00:30:00,197 Oops. 577 00:30:00,399 --> 00:30:01,331 ¶ ¶ 578 00:30:01,400 --> 00:30:03,400 Look at that. 579 00:30:03,602 --> 00:30:06,203 [breathing heavily] 580 00:30:06,405 --> 00:30:08,205 ¶ ¶ 581 00:30:08,407 --> 00:30:10,607 Now to... 582 00:30:10,809 --> 00:30:13,276 build up the wall a little bit. 583 00:30:13,345 --> 00:30:19,749 ¶ ¶ 584 00:30:19,819 --> 00:30:22,286 I want it to be about a foot thick. 585 00:30:22,354 --> 00:30:23,687 ¶ ¶ 586 00:30:23,889 --> 00:30:26,290 Just kind of hammer it into place. 587 00:30:26,358 --> 00:30:27,157 ¶ ¶ 588 00:30:27,359 --> 00:30:29,226 Trying to get rid of some of those air gaps. 589 00:30:29,295 --> 00:30:35,832 ¶ ¶ 590 00:30:35,901 --> 00:30:39,569 My girlfriend asked me, in my mind... 591 00:30:39,638 --> 00:30:43,440 how long would I stay for? 592 00:30:43,642 --> 00:30:45,775 Like, what's my goal? 593 00:30:45,845 --> 00:30:47,710 I didn't really have an answer for her. 594 00:30:47,779 --> 00:30:49,846 I want it to be hard, you know? 595 00:30:49,915 --> 00:30:51,448 I didn't come out here to do what I know 596 00:30:51,650 --> 00:30:54,051 and just have it easy. 597 00:30:54,119 --> 00:30:57,587 I want to try things that I have never done before. 598 00:30:57,656 --> 00:30:59,590 I want to grow from this. 599 00:30:59,792 --> 00:31:02,258 I want to know myself better. 600 00:31:02,327 --> 00:31:05,262 ¶ ¶ 601 00:31:05,331 --> 00:31:06,997 All right. 602 00:31:07,065 --> 00:31:09,199 I'm gonna fire it up a little bit, let it warm. 603 00:31:09,401 --> 00:31:13,336 ¶ ¶ 604 00:31:13,405 --> 00:31:15,205 There we go. 605 00:31:15,407 --> 00:31:16,406 ¶ ¶ 606 00:31:16,608 --> 00:31:18,274 Thank you very much. 607 00:31:18,343 --> 00:31:24,347 ¶ ¶ 608 00:31:24,416 --> 00:31:25,215 All right, guys. 609 00:31:25,417 --> 00:31:27,483 ¶ ¶ 610 00:31:27,552 --> 00:31:29,286 This is officially home. 611 00:31:29,354 --> 00:31:35,993 ¶ ¶ 612 00:31:53,912 --> 00:31:56,646 - So today we're gonna try to make 613 00:31:56,715 --> 00:32:00,984 a streamer using some of our... 614 00:32:02,187 --> 00:32:05,989 Green hair that we dyed for this trip before it fades... 615 00:32:07,259 --> 00:32:09,526 And... 616 00:32:09,728 --> 00:32:10,994 some of that squirrel tail. 617 00:32:13,465 --> 00:32:14,998 Let's see here. 618 00:32:16,335 --> 00:32:18,935 All right. 619 00:32:19,004 --> 00:32:21,471 We'll just try one for now, and if it works, 620 00:32:21,540 --> 00:32:23,073 we'll cut all of it off. 621 00:32:23,141 --> 00:32:26,009 I'll go home bald if I have to if it gets me trout. 622 00:32:30,482 --> 00:32:31,548 So let's see. 623 00:32:31,750 --> 00:32:33,216 Ooh, this is gonna be hard. 624 00:32:33,285 --> 00:32:35,885 ¶ ¶ 625 00:32:35,955 --> 00:32:38,422 Ain't like a mirror, everything's backwards. 626 00:32:38,490 --> 00:32:40,023 When I was told 627 00:32:40,091 --> 00:32:41,425 that we were gonna be on a fly-only river... 628 00:32:41,627 --> 00:32:44,828 Is that mostly green? 629 00:32:44,897 --> 00:32:46,963 I immediately started thinking of ways 630 00:32:47,032 --> 00:32:48,298 that I could make effective fly patterns. 631 00:32:48,366 --> 00:32:49,967 ¶ ¶ 632 00:32:50,169 --> 00:32:53,236 [chuckles] I'm literally cutting myself a bald patch. 633 00:32:53,305 --> 00:32:54,905 ¶ ¶ 634 00:32:55,107 --> 00:32:56,239 I'm fortunate enough to still have my hair, 635 00:32:56,308 --> 00:33:00,910 and so I thought, "Why not dye my hair a couple colors?" 636 00:33:00,979 --> 00:33:03,246 The pink's gonna be the hard stuff to get. 637 00:33:03,315 --> 00:33:07,183 ¶ ¶ 638 00:33:07,252 --> 00:33:08,251 Ah. 639 00:33:08,320 --> 00:33:09,453 ¶ ¶ 640 00:33:09,655 --> 00:33:11,788 Not pink anymore, really. 641 00:33:11,856 --> 00:33:13,790 Pink didn't hold its color very well. 642 00:33:13,858 --> 00:33:15,192 It was bright when I first did it. 643 00:33:15,394 --> 00:33:17,260 ¶ ¶ 644 00:33:17,328 --> 00:33:17,995 But... 645 00:33:20,732 --> 00:33:24,801 None too the worse for wear. 646 00:33:24,870 --> 00:33:27,404 Plenty more where that came from... 647 00:33:27,472 --> 00:33:29,206 so far at least. 648 00:33:29,408 --> 00:33:32,809 ¶ ¶ 649 00:33:32,878 --> 00:33:34,677 My mother always used to tell me, 650 00:33:34,746 --> 00:33:36,546 "Be happy with what you have". 651 00:33:36,748 --> 00:33:40,283 Got my paracord sheathing... 652 00:33:40,486 --> 00:33:44,287 squirrel tail... 653 00:33:44,356 --> 00:33:46,289 my hair... 654 00:33:46,358 --> 00:33:48,224 my hair... 655 00:33:48,293 --> 00:33:49,892 my hooks. 656 00:33:49,961 --> 00:33:51,828 We didn't grow up with a lot of money, 657 00:33:51,897 --> 00:33:53,764 so trying to do a lot with very little 658 00:33:53,966 --> 00:33:56,500 is something that I grew up doing. 659 00:33:56,568 --> 00:33:58,234 Get my squirrel fur. 660 00:33:58,303 --> 00:34:02,439 ¶ ¶ 661 00:34:02,641 --> 00:34:05,375 Lay it in with my fur 662 00:34:05,577 --> 00:34:07,444 or some of my fur. 663 00:34:07,513 --> 00:34:09,312 Lay that in like so. 664 00:34:09,380 --> 00:34:11,514 ¶ ¶ 665 00:34:11,583 --> 00:34:13,249 Grab the green hair... 666 00:34:13,318 --> 00:34:14,317 ¶ ¶ 667 00:34:14,386 --> 00:34:16,186 Lay that in. 668 00:34:16,388 --> 00:34:17,320 ¶ ¶ 669 00:34:17,389 --> 00:34:19,722 And we have... 670 00:34:19,792 --> 00:34:22,192 the world's ugliest streamer fly. 671 00:34:22,394 --> 00:34:23,593 ¶ ¶ 672 00:34:23,662 --> 00:34:25,928 Taking that into this arena 673 00:34:25,997 --> 00:34:29,265 hopefully gives me a little bit of an edge. 674 00:34:29,334 --> 00:34:31,468 ¶ ¶ 675 00:34:31,536 --> 00:34:33,003 See if this works. 676 00:34:41,346 --> 00:34:43,346 Yes, sir. 677 00:34:43,415 --> 00:34:45,549 Little trout. 678 00:34:45,751 --> 00:34:47,984 Little trout, little trout. 679 00:34:57,362 --> 00:34:58,227 [grunts] 680 00:34:58,296 --> 00:34:59,996 No, sir. 681 00:35:03,368 --> 00:35:04,500 Whoo. 682 00:35:04,569 --> 00:35:07,003 Let's get a couple more. 683 00:35:08,574 --> 00:35:10,006 Another nice fish. 684 00:35:11,443 --> 00:35:14,177 Very nice fish. 685 00:35:14,245 --> 00:35:18,315 Well, we got some bites on my ugly little homemade fly. 686 00:35:18,383 --> 00:35:22,185 ¶ ¶ 687 00:35:22,254 --> 00:35:24,253 [grunts] 688 00:35:24,322 --> 00:35:26,523 ¶ ¶ 689 00:35:26,725 --> 00:35:29,326 So far, I am crushing it. 690 00:35:29,528 --> 00:35:30,994 Feeling good. 691 00:35:31,062 --> 00:35:33,196 Trying to win us a damn half a million, baby. 692 00:35:33,398 --> 00:35:35,999 ¶ ¶ 693 00:35:40,472 --> 00:35:43,206 [dramatic music] 694 00:35:43,408 --> 00:35:47,010 ¶ ¶ 695 00:36:05,497 --> 00:36:08,999 [indistinct chatter] 696 00:36:10,435 --> 00:36:13,003 - Oh, yeah. Whoo! 697 00:36:15,440 --> 00:36:17,007 [cheering] 698 00:36:21,379 --> 00:36:23,380 Yes! Yes! 699 00:36:23,582 --> 00:36:24,914 Look at this fish. 700 00:36:24,983 --> 00:36:27,384 Oh, my God, look at how beautiful this fish is. 701 00:36:27,586 --> 00:36:29,319 [breathing heavily] 702 00:36:29,387 --> 00:36:31,454 Holy crap. 703 00:36:31,522 --> 00:36:33,256 That's incredible! 704 00:36:33,458 --> 00:36:34,390 Incredible! 705 00:36:34,459 --> 00:36:36,259 Oh! [smooches] 706 00:36:36,328 --> 00:36:38,528 Thank you. 707 00:36:38,596 --> 00:36:41,464 Beautiful, beautiful.... 708 00:36:41,533 --> 00:36:45,001 beautiful brook trout. 709 00:36:46,805 --> 00:36:49,005 We're eating like kings tonight. 710 00:36:50,409 --> 00:36:55,945 ¶ ¶ 711 00:36:56,014 --> 00:36:58,881 I like to kill and clean my fish right away. 712 00:36:58,950 --> 00:37:03,753 Whether we have feathers, fur, or scales, 713 00:37:03,822 --> 00:37:06,356 we can all feel pain and suffering. 714 00:37:06,558 --> 00:37:08,992 That remains true. 715 00:37:11,829 --> 00:37:14,964 I found survival and bushcraft... 716 00:37:15,033 --> 00:37:17,500 at a time in my life where I didn't feel 717 00:37:17,569 --> 00:37:19,235 super safe and strong. 718 00:37:19,304 --> 00:37:22,772 ¶ ¶ 719 00:37:22,841 --> 00:37:23,974 I grew up in an alcoholic home 720 00:37:24,176 --> 00:37:26,910 and all the things that kind of come with that. 721 00:37:27,112 --> 00:37:30,980 Fear and pain was part of my everyday life, 722 00:37:31,049 --> 00:37:33,717 but the outdoors made me feel strong and safe. 723 00:37:33,919 --> 00:37:34,784 So I latched on to it really hard 724 00:37:34,853 --> 00:37:37,187 and really threw myself into it. 725 00:37:37,389 --> 00:37:39,589 ¶ ¶ 726 00:37:39,791 --> 00:37:41,724 I'm incredibly proud of myself 727 00:37:41,793 --> 00:37:44,794 for just getting to this point... 728 00:37:44,996 --> 00:37:47,596 and it's been a super-long journey. 729 00:37:47,666 --> 00:37:49,865 So, even if your life path 730 00:37:49,934 --> 00:37:52,268 goes against the grain of society... 731 00:37:52,337 --> 00:37:53,737 ¶ ¶ 732 00:37:53,939 --> 00:37:55,538 No matter what your passions are, 733 00:37:55,606 --> 00:37:57,207 if you chase them... 734 00:37:57,409 --> 00:37:59,609 ¶ ¶ 735 00:37:59,811 --> 00:38:00,943 You can do incredible things, 736 00:38:01,012 --> 00:38:03,213 and you can accomplish beautiful things. 737 00:38:03,415 --> 00:38:06,949 ¶ ¶ 738 00:38:07,018 --> 00:38:09,285 Being a part of this is a really cool thing. 739 00:38:09,354 --> 00:38:10,820 ¶ ¶ 740 00:38:10,889 --> 00:38:12,555 I have no idea how long I'll last. 741 00:38:12,758 --> 00:38:14,957 I have no idea if I'll win. 742 00:38:15,026 --> 00:38:17,694 And that's okay, 'cause getting to this point 743 00:38:17,763 --> 00:38:20,229 is beyond my wildest dreams. 744 00:38:20,299 --> 00:38:21,998 ¶ ¶ 745 00:38:24,503 --> 00:38:26,369 This trout... 746 00:38:26,437 --> 00:38:29,005 is so good. 747 00:38:32,311 --> 00:38:34,010 Holy cow. 748 00:38:37,582 --> 00:38:38,982 So fatty, so oily. 749 00:38:43,388 --> 00:38:44,988 So delicious. 750 00:39:01,406 --> 00:39:04,741 [wind blowing] 751 00:39:04,943 --> 00:39:05,875 Like, I feel like I'm killing it. 752 00:39:05,944 --> 00:39:10,280 Like, I'm getting firewood and good shelter. 753 00:39:10,348 --> 00:39:13,983 You know, hunting and fishing, and, like, I feel accomplished. 754 00:39:15,687 --> 00:39:19,555 But I can't shake this, like... 755 00:39:19,624 --> 00:39:23,226 this want to be with them. 756 00:39:23,295 --> 00:39:27,897 ¶ ¶ 757 00:39:27,966 --> 00:39:29,832 Be with my girlfriend that farts all the time, 758 00:39:29,901 --> 00:39:32,702 and my dog that bites me all the time. 759 00:39:32,771 --> 00:39:34,570 Nibbles, they're-- they're nibbles. 760 00:39:34,639 --> 00:39:36,238 She's a puppy. [chuckles] 761 00:39:36,307 --> 00:39:38,241 But... 762 00:39:38,443 --> 00:39:39,776 it's hard. 763 00:39:39,844 --> 00:39:42,312 I don't know what to do about it. 764 00:39:42,380 --> 00:39:48,985 ¶ ¶ 765 00:40:08,740 --> 00:40:10,339 - Well, good morning, y'all. 766 00:40:10,409 --> 00:40:12,609 It is another... 767 00:40:12,677 --> 00:40:15,478 clear, cold, sunny morning 768 00:40:15,547 --> 00:40:18,547 here at Moss House. 769 00:40:18,616 --> 00:40:19,816 I'm feeling good today, 770 00:40:19,884 --> 00:40:21,818 feeling good about the shelter. 771 00:40:21,886 --> 00:40:23,686 Feeling hungry this morning, man. 772 00:40:23,755 --> 00:40:25,555 I need something in my stomach. 773 00:40:25,623 --> 00:40:27,957 So we're gonna go hunt. 774 00:40:28,025 --> 00:40:30,226 Have a little wander, see what we can find. 775 00:40:30,295 --> 00:40:38,001 ¶ ¶ 776 00:40:40,037 --> 00:40:42,905 This landscape is very unfamiliar to me. 777 00:40:42,974 --> 00:40:45,174 So hunting's just gonna be opportunistic. 778 00:40:45,243 --> 00:40:47,310 Wah. 779 00:40:47,378 --> 00:40:53,983 ¶ ¶ 780 00:40:55,453 --> 00:40:56,986 Oh, [bleep]. 781 00:41:03,061 --> 00:41:07,263 Looks like we've got some bear dung on the trail. 782 00:41:07,332 --> 00:41:09,999 ¶ ¶ 783 00:41:12,404 --> 00:41:15,004 ¶ ¶ 784 00:41:20,344 --> 00:41:21,611 So... 785 00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:24,214 exactly what I wanted to see. 786 00:41:24,416 --> 00:41:27,283 ¶ ¶ 787 00:41:27,352 --> 00:41:28,685 [chuckles] 788 00:41:28,753 --> 00:41:31,754 I can taste that bear already. 789 00:41:31,823 --> 00:41:34,757 Getting a black bear means going 790 00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:37,560 from a constant deficit of calories 791 00:41:37,762 --> 00:41:41,230 to an overwhelming surplus. 792 00:41:41,299 --> 00:41:42,565 ¶ ¶ 793 00:41:42,633 --> 00:41:43,966 But at the same time, 794 00:41:44,035 --> 00:41:45,835 we're dealing with a group of black bears 795 00:41:46,037 --> 00:41:48,905 that are very large, quite aggressive, 796 00:41:49,107 --> 00:41:51,908 and are trying to stock up for the winter. 797 00:41:51,977 --> 00:41:55,645 And bears aren't the easiest thing to kill. 798 00:41:55,713 --> 00:41:56,979 You got to have some grit 799 00:41:57,048 --> 00:42:00,517 to take a shot at a black bear from 20 yards 800 00:42:00,719 --> 00:42:02,785 with a primitive long bow. 801 00:42:02,854 --> 00:42:04,253 That's not for the faint of heart. 802 00:42:04,322 --> 00:42:11,995 ¶ ¶ 803 00:42:17,868 --> 00:42:20,202 That's a $500,000 view right there. 804 00:42:20,272 --> 00:42:23,206 [laughs] 805 00:42:23,408 --> 00:42:26,009 ¶ ¶ 806 00:42:31,816 --> 00:42:34,984 And blue skies, a blessing. 807 00:42:35,886 --> 00:42:38,888 Man, I feel so grateful right now. 808 00:42:38,957 --> 00:42:40,990 Every day I get to be out here is a blessing. 809 00:42:45,563 --> 00:42:49,298 [distant rustling] 810 00:42:49,367 --> 00:42:54,304 ¶ ¶ 811 00:42:54,506 --> 00:42:55,304 What the heck? 812 00:42:55,373 --> 00:43:00,376 ¶ ¶ 813 00:43:00,444 --> 00:43:02,011 Oh, [bleep]. 814 00:43:08,520 --> 00:43:11,253 [dramatic music] 815 00:43:11,322 --> 00:43:12,989 ¶ ¶ 816 00:43:16,394 --> 00:43:19,195 ¶ ¶ 817 00:43:19,264 --> 00:43:20,997 [bleep]. 818 00:43:26,404 --> 00:43:33,009 ¶ ¶ 819 00:43:42,286 --> 00:43:44,287 [bleep]. 820 00:43:44,355 --> 00:43:46,555 ¶ ¶ 821 00:43:46,625 --> 00:43:49,158 [sighs] Two inches too low. 822 00:43:49,360 --> 00:43:52,028 Damn. 823 00:43:52,096 --> 00:43:56,498 Okay, now I need to go find my blunt-tip arrow.. 824 00:43:56,567 --> 00:43:57,767 which could take a while 825 00:43:57,835 --> 00:44:00,703 'cause it went through the trees. 826 00:44:00,771 --> 00:44:03,239 Probably shouldn't have taken it. 827 00:44:03,308 --> 00:44:05,174 ¶ ¶ 828 00:44:05,376 --> 00:44:06,309 [bleep]. 829 00:44:06,377 --> 00:44:07,510 ¶ ¶ 830 00:44:07,578 --> 00:44:11,781 Grouse--there it is. 831 00:44:11,849 --> 00:44:13,983 With her that high in the tree... 832 00:44:16,187 --> 00:44:18,988 It just seems like a surefire way to lose an arrow. 833 00:44:23,994 --> 00:44:27,530 Oh, but she's so close. She's right there. 834 00:44:27,598 --> 00:44:29,999 Oh, it's a tough choice. 835 00:44:33,671 --> 00:44:36,338 But I have to try, right? 836 00:44:36,408 --> 00:44:37,206 I have to try. 837 00:44:37,408 --> 00:44:45,014 ¶ ¶ 838 00:44:53,424 --> 00:44:55,224 [bird squawking] 839 00:44:55,293 --> 00:44:56,558 [bleep]. 840 00:44:56,627 --> 00:44:59,295 [sighs] Missed again. 841 00:44:59,363 --> 00:45:03,833 ¶ ¶ 842 00:45:03,902 --> 00:45:06,636 Looking pretty hard for my lost arrows, 843 00:45:06,704 --> 00:45:08,771 I haven't found any of 'em. 844 00:45:08,840 --> 00:45:11,040 You shoot out into this stuff here, 845 00:45:11,109 --> 00:45:13,309 they just kind of disappear under this pillow moss. 846 00:45:13,377 --> 00:45:14,911 ¶ ¶ 847 00:45:14,979 --> 00:45:18,247 I mean, it's so hard to find your arrows. 848 00:45:18,316 --> 00:45:19,982 ¶ ¶ 849 00:45:20,051 --> 00:45:23,452 As of right now, I feel like I'm burning daylight 850 00:45:23,521 --> 00:45:25,521 and good solid daylight, 851 00:45:25,590 --> 00:45:26,456 so I want to get back. 852 00:45:26,658 --> 00:45:28,991 But that was a bummer. 853 00:45:31,663 --> 00:45:34,931 That grouse cost me dearly. 854 00:45:34,999 --> 00:45:37,466 I burned two arrows trying to get it, 855 00:45:37,535 --> 00:45:39,936 so that's not good. 856 00:45:40,138 --> 00:45:44,207 If I'm out of arrows, that's my black bear... 857 00:45:44,409 --> 00:45:45,274 gone. 858 00:45:45,343 --> 00:45:52,982 ¶ ¶ 859 00:46:09,700 --> 00:46:10,766 All right, let's take a look 860 00:46:10,835 --> 00:46:14,971 at how our fat reserves are doing. 861 00:46:15,039 --> 00:46:19,175 Oh, they're dwindling quite quickly, actually. 862 00:46:19,377 --> 00:46:20,843 [bleep]. 863 00:46:20,911 --> 00:46:23,579 I thought I put on enough for a while, 864 00:46:23,781 --> 00:46:26,983 but it looks like not really. 865 00:46:29,587 --> 00:46:32,188 Man, that really is... 866 00:46:32,257 --> 00:46:34,123 a lot. 867 00:46:34,325 --> 00:46:36,325 Wow. 868 00:46:36,394 --> 00:46:38,995 That's insane. 869 00:46:39,063 --> 00:46:42,664 Well, you can always do the "Alone" diet plan, 870 00:46:42,733 --> 00:46:46,602 just lots of work and no food. 871 00:46:46,670 --> 00:46:48,004 You'll get [bleep] jacked. 872 00:46:51,876 --> 00:46:54,010 Can't do that for a very long. It hurts. 873 00:46:55,746 --> 00:46:58,548 I feel like it's gonna rain. 874 00:46:58,750 --> 00:47:00,482 And if it's gonna rain... 875 00:47:00,552 --> 00:47:02,985 I need more firewood. 876 00:47:05,356 --> 00:47:11,827 ¶ ¶ 877 00:47:11,896 --> 00:47:13,696 We learn the most about ourselves 878 00:47:13,765 --> 00:47:14,897 when we're put into hard times, 879 00:47:14,966 --> 00:47:17,300 when we're put into difficult situations. 880 00:47:17,368 --> 00:47:20,969 ¶ ¶ 881 00:47:21,038 --> 00:47:22,104 That's when you'll start to learn more things 882 00:47:22,173 --> 00:47:24,240 about how you operate, how you think, how you work. 883 00:47:24,309 --> 00:47:27,576 ¶ ¶ 884 00:47:27,645 --> 00:47:28,911 No matter who you are 885 00:47:28,979 --> 00:47:31,246 and no matter how long you last here, 886 00:47:31,315 --> 00:47:33,516 you will not come out the same person that you went in as. 887 00:47:33,718 --> 00:47:35,250 You are going to change... 888 00:47:35,319 --> 00:47:38,587 ¶ ¶ 889 00:47:38,656 --> 00:47:41,256 Hopefully for the better. 890 00:47:41,325 --> 00:47:45,528 ¶ ¶ 891 00:47:45,730 --> 00:47:48,998 [distant animal chattering] 892 00:47:50,401 --> 00:47:57,006 ¶ ¶ 893 00:48:09,754 --> 00:48:10,485 [whispering] I hear a squirrel. 894 00:48:10,554 --> 00:48:14,290 [chattering continues] 895 00:48:14,358 --> 00:48:17,360 ¶ ¶ 896 00:48:17,428 --> 00:48:19,228 Here we go. 897 00:48:19,297 --> 00:48:26,002 ¶ ¶ 898 00:48:32,509 --> 00:48:35,244 [dramatic music] 899 00:48:35,313 --> 00:48:40,983 ¶ ¶ 900 00:48:47,792 --> 00:48:50,993 [chattering continues] [bleep]. 901 00:48:55,400 --> 00:48:58,400 ¶ ¶ 902 00:48:58,469 --> 00:48:59,201 Oh, over there. 903 00:48:59,404 --> 00:49:06,008 ¶ ¶ 904 00:49:11,682 --> 00:49:13,348 [normal voice] Got him. 905 00:49:13,417 --> 00:49:16,285 Yeah, he's dead. 906 00:49:16,487 --> 00:49:19,488 [exhales deeply] 907 00:49:19,557 --> 00:49:21,223 Thank you, ol' dude. 908 00:49:21,292 --> 00:49:22,290 [sniffs] 909 00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:23,993 I'm sorry. 910 00:49:39,376 --> 00:49:41,010 Well... 911 00:49:42,579 --> 00:49:44,013 [chuckles] Got him. 912 00:49:45,649 --> 00:49:48,651 And although it does... 913 00:49:48,719 --> 00:49:50,519 feel good to be able to pro-- 914 00:49:50,587 --> 00:49:52,788 to provide for myself, 915 00:49:52,856 --> 00:49:55,390 I do hate having to kill these guys. 916 00:49:55,459 --> 00:49:57,059 I don't know why. 917 00:49:57,128 --> 00:49:59,194 I don't know if it's just 'cause they're small or what, 918 00:49:59,263 --> 00:50:01,597 but... 919 00:50:01,665 --> 00:50:03,265 I don't like killing them. 920 00:50:03,334 --> 00:50:10,006 ¶ ¶ 921 00:50:18,015 --> 00:50:21,617 I'm really sad when I kill these things. 922 00:50:21,686 --> 00:50:23,218 I don't know what's going on. 923 00:50:23,287 --> 00:50:27,089 ¶ ¶ 924 00:50:27,158 --> 00:50:30,625 The killing of anything should never be taken lightly. 925 00:50:30,694 --> 00:50:33,429 I don't know if it's something 926 00:50:33,631 --> 00:50:35,764 to be celebrated either. 927 00:50:35,833 --> 00:50:38,633 Be thankful, be grateful, but... 928 00:50:38,702 --> 00:50:41,236 you know, don't throw a party. 929 00:50:41,305 --> 00:50:42,838 ¶ ¶ 930 00:50:42,906 --> 00:50:45,240 It's not fun watching something die. 931 00:50:45,309 --> 00:50:50,179 ¶ ¶ 932 00:50:50,247 --> 00:50:53,782 I generally don't have a problem with killing things, 933 00:50:53,851 --> 00:50:56,251 as long as it's done respectfully. 934 00:50:56,320 --> 00:50:57,253 ¶ ¶ 935 00:50:57,321 --> 00:50:59,188 But right now it's really bothering me. 936 00:50:59,390 --> 00:51:01,857 ¶ ¶ 937 00:51:02,059 --> 00:51:05,194 I don't know if that is the alone factor. 938 00:51:05,396 --> 00:51:06,928 ¶ ¶ 939 00:51:06,997 --> 00:51:09,865 I feel like if I was here with someone, 940 00:51:10,067 --> 00:51:12,267 this wouldn't weigh that heavily on me. 941 00:51:12,336 --> 00:51:15,070 ¶ ¶ 942 00:51:15,139 --> 00:51:18,273 But when you're alone with only your thoughts... 943 00:51:18,342 --> 00:51:21,544 ¶ ¶ 944 00:51:21,612 --> 00:51:24,013 It's all very heavy. 945 00:51:26,416 --> 00:51:29,285 [sniffles] 946 00:51:29,353 --> 00:51:36,992 ¶ ¶ 947 00:51:44,902 --> 00:51:47,836 It's pretty tough not getting that grouse. 948 00:51:47,905 --> 00:51:52,641 So we're gonna go find a spruce bough 949 00:51:52,709 --> 00:51:55,177 to make into a fishing pole. 950 00:51:55,246 --> 00:51:59,314 Calling that other one a pole is a little bit generous. 951 00:51:59,383 --> 00:52:00,649 [chuckles] 952 00:52:00,717 --> 00:52:02,851 I need to make a real pole. 953 00:52:02,920 --> 00:52:05,387 I'm not looking for something super long, 954 00:52:05,456 --> 00:52:07,790 maybe seven feet. 955 00:52:07,992 --> 00:52:09,591 And I'm gonna strip it down at the base 956 00:52:09,660 --> 00:52:10,926 so it's a little bit lighter. 957 00:52:10,994 --> 00:52:13,261 maybe I can get a one-handed cast with it. 958 00:52:13,330 --> 00:52:20,002 ¶ ¶ 959 00:52:25,009 --> 00:52:29,077 My family moved to the U.S. when I was nine. 960 00:52:29,147 --> 00:52:32,815 We moved from a small industrial town in England, 961 00:52:32,883 --> 00:52:35,618 to Florida to start a new life 962 00:52:35,686 --> 00:52:38,287 and for new opportunities. 963 00:52:38,355 --> 00:52:39,622 ¶ ¶ 964 00:52:39,690 --> 00:52:42,558 I was chubby, was red faced, 965 00:52:42,627 --> 00:52:44,293 and had a British accent... 966 00:52:44,361 --> 00:52:45,828 ¶ ¶ 967 00:52:46,030 --> 00:52:47,696 Which is great when you're an adult, but... 968 00:52:47,898 --> 00:52:50,833 [chuckles] When you're a little kid, 969 00:52:50,901 --> 00:52:53,435 anything that marks you as different 970 00:52:53,638 --> 00:52:56,305 is gonna pick you apart. 971 00:52:56,373 --> 00:52:57,239 ¶ ¶ 972 00:52:57,308 --> 00:53:00,042 I found my refuge, or solace, in the woods. 973 00:53:00,110 --> 00:53:03,579 That was the place where I felt most myself, 974 00:53:03,781 --> 00:53:06,315 and I never lost that love. 975 00:53:06,383 --> 00:53:07,716 ¶ ¶ 976 00:53:07,785 --> 00:53:12,454 So we're gonna take the grommets 977 00:53:12,522 --> 00:53:14,456 from the tarp here 978 00:53:14,525 --> 00:53:16,592 and make them into... 979 00:53:16,661 --> 00:53:20,996 into guides for the fly line. 980 00:53:27,071 --> 00:53:30,806 We'll just pull out the bit of plastic around it, 981 00:53:31,008 --> 00:53:35,277 and then you've got a nice little ring. 982 00:53:35,345 --> 00:53:36,745 Ta-da! 983 00:53:36,814 --> 00:53:39,548 All right, so we got our rod done, 984 00:53:39,616 --> 00:53:42,217 gonna go test it out. 985 00:53:42,286 --> 00:53:48,991 ¶ ¶ 986 00:54:09,046 --> 00:54:12,247 Try this out, hopefully get some protein. 987 00:54:12,316 --> 00:54:18,387 ¶ ¶ 988 00:54:18,455 --> 00:54:20,255 Oh, my goodness. 989 00:54:20,324 --> 00:54:22,658 [laughing] 990 00:54:22,726 --> 00:54:25,661 It's working. Hell, yeah. 991 00:54:25,863 --> 00:54:27,262 [chuckles] Let's get another one. 992 00:54:27,331 --> 00:54:30,198 ¶ ¶ 993 00:54:30,267 --> 00:54:31,467 Oh. 994 00:54:31,535 --> 00:54:34,203 Yes. [chuckles] 995 00:54:34,405 --> 00:54:35,337 ¶ ¶ 996 00:54:35,406 --> 00:54:37,339 He's a beauty. 997 00:54:37,407 --> 00:54:40,275 [chuckles] 998 00:54:40,344 --> 00:54:42,010 Oh, man. 999 00:54:42,079 --> 00:54:44,213 I'm feeling good today. Feeling good about this. 1000 00:54:44,415 --> 00:54:47,149 ¶ ¶ 1001 00:54:47,351 --> 00:54:48,016 Oh, man. 1002 00:54:48,085 --> 00:54:51,152 I'm expecting one every cast now. 1003 00:54:51,221 --> 00:54:55,157 I'm missing my family more than I ever have in my life. 1004 00:54:55,359 --> 00:54:57,559 Okay. 1005 00:54:57,762 --> 00:54:59,428 Little guy. I'll take him. 1006 00:54:59,630 --> 00:55:02,630 But to win $500,000 1007 00:55:02,700 --> 00:55:03,699 would help my family in ways 1008 00:55:03,901 --> 00:55:07,102 that I've dreamed of for years. 1009 00:55:07,170 --> 00:55:09,638 My parents have no retirement income whatsoever, 1010 00:55:09,706 --> 00:55:11,573 and they're pushing on 70. 1011 00:55:11,776 --> 00:55:14,176 So, to win this competition 1012 00:55:14,244 --> 00:55:17,246 would be the greatest gift that I could work towards. 1013 00:55:17,314 --> 00:55:18,180 Oh! 1014 00:55:18,248 --> 00:55:20,516 I'm gonna have to dig deeper in myself 1015 00:55:20,718 --> 00:55:22,250 than I've ever dug before. 1016 00:55:22,319 --> 00:55:24,186 ¶ ¶ 1017 00:55:24,255 --> 00:55:25,253 Oh, man! 1018 00:55:25,323 --> 00:55:29,191 [laughing] 1019 00:55:29,393 --> 00:55:32,995 ¶ ¶ 1020 00:55:39,603 --> 00:55:42,204 Now, that... [chuckles] 1021 00:55:42,273 --> 00:55:45,007 [laughs] 1022 00:55:47,611 --> 00:55:49,211 That's a lovely meal. 1023 00:55:49,413 --> 00:55:56,985 ¶ ¶ 1024 00:56:06,029 --> 00:56:08,997 I put the ten little ones straight in the pan. 1025 00:56:11,902 --> 00:56:15,304 I put the big one up above the fire... 1026 00:56:15,372 --> 00:56:17,005 to smoke. 1027 00:56:19,042 --> 00:56:22,010 That's enough food for me right here, for sure. 1028 00:56:23,380 --> 00:56:25,848 ¶ ¶ 1029 00:56:25,916 --> 00:56:27,248 I'm gonna work on my spoon for a bit. 1030 00:56:27,317 --> 00:56:28,851 ¶ ¶ 1031 00:56:29,053 --> 00:56:32,120 I was a bullied kid, but because of that, 1032 00:56:32,189 --> 00:56:36,591 I really started to develop my bushcraft knowledge, 1033 00:56:36,660 --> 00:56:38,861 and that changed my life. 1034 00:56:39,063 --> 00:56:41,463 It's one of the reasons why I'm out here. 1035 00:56:41,532 --> 00:56:43,665 It's kind of like... 1036 00:56:43,734 --> 00:56:47,135 pride in your own toughness... 1037 00:56:47,204 --> 00:56:48,670 because that's really what it comes down to, right? 1038 00:56:48,739 --> 00:56:51,406 I mean, there's been people 1039 00:56:51,475 --> 00:56:53,008 on this show... 1040 00:56:54,945 --> 00:56:58,413 Who were very, very, very skilled... 1041 00:56:58,482 --> 00:57:00,081 who maybe... 1042 00:57:00,150 --> 00:57:03,752 weren't quite as tough as they thought they were. 1043 00:57:03,821 --> 00:57:07,489 But I don't feel like it's been... 1044 00:57:07,558 --> 00:57:10,292 particularly tough yet. 1045 00:57:10,360 --> 00:57:15,564 ¶ ¶ 1046 00:57:15,766 --> 00:57:16,565 And I have to catch myself 1047 00:57:16,633 --> 00:57:19,234 and remind myself that... 1048 00:57:19,303 --> 00:57:20,502 ¶ ¶ 1049 00:57:20,571 --> 00:57:22,304 You know, it's coming. 1050 00:57:22,372 --> 00:57:23,572 ¶ ¶ 1051 00:57:23,774 --> 00:57:25,974 Enjoying each day as a gift, 1052 00:57:26,176 --> 00:57:29,244 that's kind of been my mantra out here so far. 1053 00:57:29,313 --> 00:57:31,513 ¶ ¶ 1054 00:57:31,581 --> 00:57:33,248 Every day is a gift. 1055 00:57:33,317 --> 00:57:37,453 ¶ ¶ 1056 00:57:37,655 --> 00:57:40,255 I'm not going anywhere. 1057 00:57:40,324 --> 00:57:43,992 ¶ ¶ 1058 00:57:47,531 --> 00:57:50,265 [dramatic music] 1059 00:57:50,334 --> 00:57:54,002 ¶ ¶ 1060 00:58:03,814 --> 00:58:06,814 Tonight I spent a lot of time 1061 00:58:06,884 --> 00:58:09,985 thinking about the squirrel I shot. 1062 00:58:11,755 --> 00:58:14,423 And there's something that feels 1063 00:58:14,625 --> 00:58:17,425 really inherently wrong, 1064 00:58:17,495 --> 00:58:18,994 for me, about that. 1065 00:58:21,898 --> 00:58:23,565 My whole life, I've been running 1066 00:58:23,634 --> 00:58:26,001 from a troubled childhood. 1067 00:58:28,372 --> 00:58:30,238 And... 1068 00:58:30,307 --> 00:58:31,506 I... 1069 00:58:31,575 --> 00:58:33,642 it makes me really sad 1070 00:58:33,844 --> 00:58:36,711 for the only relationship I have 1071 00:58:36,780 --> 00:58:38,846 with the living things around me 1072 00:58:38,916 --> 00:58:42,384 is hurting them and causing them harm. 1073 00:58:42,453 --> 00:58:44,519 I don't like that. 1074 00:58:44,588 --> 00:58:47,789 And I had this realization 1075 00:58:47,992 --> 00:58:50,058 that my favorite moments throughout my life 1076 00:58:50,127 --> 00:58:54,262 have never been the moments spent alone in the woods, 1077 00:58:54,331 --> 00:58:57,599 they've always been the moments spent with Catherine and Pip. 1078 00:58:57,667 --> 00:59:00,402 So that made me realize... 1079 00:59:00,470 --> 00:59:01,937 my whole life 1080 00:59:02,139 --> 00:59:05,007 all I wanted is a little family, and I have it. 1081 00:59:07,945 --> 00:59:11,279 So I don't know what I'm chasing out here. 1082 00:59:11,348 --> 00:59:17,986 ¶ ¶ 1083 00:59:28,565 --> 00:59:29,898 As you kill things, 1084 00:59:29,967 --> 00:59:33,968 you think about the fragility of life... 1085 00:59:34,037 --> 00:59:38,006 and how it's not guaranteed by any means. 1086 00:59:41,912 --> 00:59:45,314 And I have this life that I love... 1087 00:59:45,516 --> 00:59:46,782 so very much, 1088 00:59:46,984 --> 00:59:48,450 and, like, this beautiful little family 1089 00:59:48,518 --> 00:59:49,985 that I've created. 1090 00:59:52,922 --> 00:59:55,857 And the happiest moments of my entire life 1091 00:59:56,060 --> 01:00:00,595 have been the moments I've shared with them. 1092 01:00:00,664 --> 01:00:02,998 And by being out here alone... 1093 01:00:05,469 --> 01:00:07,602 I'm missing out... 1094 01:00:07,671 --> 01:00:10,872 on a bunch of those moments, 1095 01:00:10,940 --> 01:00:13,008 and I'll never get those moments back. 1096 01:00:18,282 --> 01:00:19,548 Yeah. 1097 01:00:19,616 --> 01:00:20,983 I'm ready to go home. 1098 01:00:34,364 --> 01:00:35,564 [sniffs] 1099 01:00:35,632 --> 01:00:38,233 [satellite phone beeping] 1100 01:00:38,302 --> 01:00:40,635 ¶ ¶ 1101 01:00:40,704 --> 01:00:44,239 This is Jacques. I'm tapping out. 1102 01:00:44,308 --> 01:00:51,379 ¶ ¶ 1103 01:00:51,448 --> 01:00:53,781 That feels good. 1104 01:00:53,850 --> 01:00:55,249 I think I made the right decision. 1105 01:00:55,318 --> 01:01:02,991 ¶ ¶ 1106 01:01:10,734 --> 01:01:12,200 I get to go home to these two. 1107 01:01:12,402 --> 01:01:13,402 ¶ ¶ 1108 01:01:13,604 --> 01:01:15,269 Get to go see them. 1109 01:01:15,338 --> 01:01:19,007 ¶ ¶ 1110 01:01:22,613 --> 01:01:24,012 - Hey, Jacques. - Hey. 1111 01:01:27,550 --> 01:01:29,818 - What's going on? 1112 01:01:30,020 --> 01:01:34,222 - I'm ready to let this place be in peace. 1113 01:01:34,291 --> 01:01:36,157 Yeah. 1114 01:01:36,226 --> 01:01:38,960 I came out here to test myself and to see what I was made of, 1115 01:01:39,028 --> 01:01:40,962 and I'm proud of what I've been able to do. 1116 01:01:41,031 --> 01:01:44,098 I've proven to myself I can take care of myself, 1117 01:01:44,167 --> 01:01:47,502 but every moment I'm out here is a moment I'm missing 1118 01:01:47,571 --> 01:01:49,004 with the people I love. 1119 01:01:52,375 --> 01:01:54,309 [sighs] 1120 01:01:54,377 --> 01:01:58,646 ¶ ¶ 1121 01:01:58,715 --> 01:02:00,315 I had a traumatic childhood. 1122 01:02:00,383 --> 01:02:02,650 ¶ ¶ 1123 01:02:02,719 --> 01:02:06,254 And I ran to the outdoors 1124 01:02:06,323 --> 01:02:10,258 because I thought that it'd be the answer to all my problems. 1125 01:02:10,327 --> 01:02:11,859 ¶ ¶ 1126 01:02:11,928 --> 01:02:14,529 But I have everything I ever wanted 1127 01:02:14,731 --> 01:02:16,531 waiting for me back home. 1128 01:02:16,733 --> 01:02:18,533 And so I'm really excited 1129 01:02:18,602 --> 01:02:20,802 because I feel like... 1130 01:02:21,004 --> 01:02:22,270 for the first time in a long time... 1131 01:02:22,339 --> 01:02:23,805 ¶ ¶ 1132 01:02:23,874 --> 01:02:26,274 I'm not running away from something. 1133 01:02:26,343 --> 01:02:27,743 ¶ ¶ 1134 01:02:27,945 --> 01:02:29,745 I'm running towards something... 1135 01:02:29,947 --> 01:02:30,946 something really good and pure, 1136 01:02:31,148 --> 01:02:34,215 and that is Catherine and my life back home. 1137 01:02:34,284 --> 01:02:35,416 ¶ ¶ 1138 01:02:35,486 --> 01:02:38,086 And I feel whole, 1139 01:02:38,154 --> 01:02:40,488 and I feel like I'm going back a better person, 1140 01:02:40,557 --> 01:02:43,291 a more thankful person. 1141 01:02:43,359 --> 01:02:44,993 ¶ ¶ 1142 01:02:48,298 --> 01:02:50,765 ¶ ¶ 1143 01:02:50,834 --> 01:02:53,634 - I just heard a grouse land outside. 1144 01:02:53,703 --> 01:02:55,837 There he is. [object thuds] 1145 01:02:55,905 --> 01:02:57,305 - There's just beaver sign all over. 1146 01:02:57,373 --> 01:02:59,440 ¶ ¶ 1147 01:02:59,510 --> 01:03:00,375 It's freakin' nuts. 1148 01:03:00,444 --> 01:03:02,510 - Holy [bleep]. 1149 01:03:02,579 --> 01:03:03,311 That's a bear track. 1150 01:03:03,379 --> 01:03:07,983 ¶ ¶