1 00:00:04,405 --> 00:00:07,172 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:07,274 --> 00:00:14,246 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:14,682 --> 00:00:16,849 - I am officially tapping out. 4 00:00:16,951 --> 00:00:19,718 No amount of glory is worth harming yourself 5 00:00:19,820 --> 00:00:22,521 to the level that starvation can do. 6 00:00:22,623 --> 00:00:25,557 - Yes! Oh, thank you, fish. 7 00:00:25,659 --> 00:00:27,893 I am all in right now on fish. 8 00:00:27,995 --> 00:00:29,995 I'm going to spend a lot of time on this boat. 9 00:00:30,097 --> 00:00:32,965 - There's so many reasons I want to make a pit house. 10 00:00:33,067 --> 00:00:36,702 They are incredibly efficient at keeping in heat. 11 00:00:36,804 --> 00:00:38,637 - I'm not living up to what I want 12 00:00:38,739 --> 00:00:41,540 to live up to as a survivalist. 13 00:00:41,642 --> 00:00:43,709 I am officially tapping out. 14 00:00:43,811 --> 00:00:45,844 Family is more important then my ego. 15 00:00:45,946 --> 00:00:48,180 I want to be driven by what's in my heart. 16 00:00:48,282 --> 00:00:55,988 ♪ ♪ 17 00:01:05,066 --> 00:01:08,834 narrator: In "alone's" most terrifying location yet, 18 00:01:08,936 --> 00:01:11,336 10 participants face the deadliest predator 19 00:01:11,439 --> 00:01:13,806 in north america. 20 00:01:13,908 --> 00:01:15,274 - There he is right there. - Grizzly bears. 21 00:01:15,376 --> 00:01:16,642 - Hey, bear! 22 00:01:16,744 --> 00:01:17,676 - There's a lot of grizzly here. 23 00:01:17,778 --> 00:01:18,310 I'm gonna have to live with them. 24 00:01:18,412 --> 00:01:19,678 - Go on, get! 25 00:01:19,780 --> 00:01:21,413 - Every second we're on the land, 26 00:01:21,515 --> 00:01:22,581 we're being hunted. 27 00:01:22,683 --> 00:01:24,683 - Holy [bleep], mountain lion. 28 00:01:24,785 --> 00:01:26,552 - It's circling around my shelter. 29 00:01:26,654 --> 00:01:27,386 Narrator: Bone chilling cold. 30 00:01:27,488 --> 00:01:28,921 - Winter is coming. 31 00:01:29,023 --> 00:01:30,856 You combine the wind with the rain and the cold, 32 00:01:30,958 --> 00:01:33,258 this place could make the arctic look easy. 33 00:01:33,360 --> 00:01:34,660 Oh [bleep]. 34 00:01:34,762 --> 00:01:36,628 Narrator: And complete isolation. 35 00:01:36,730 --> 00:01:38,464 - You cannot hide from yourself, 36 00:01:38,566 --> 00:01:40,165 mentally and emotionally. 37 00:01:40,267 --> 00:01:41,467 - Ahh! 38 00:01:41,569 --> 00:01:42,601 - There's no place to go. 39 00:01:42,703 --> 00:01:44,536 - I am suffering from loneliness. 40 00:01:44,638 --> 00:01:46,271 Narrator: Who will survive? 41 00:01:46,373 --> 00:01:48,440 - Yes, yes! 42 00:01:48,542 --> 00:01:51,043 - This could be the end. 43 00:01:51,145 --> 00:01:52,878 - I don't want to tap, but I don't want to die either. 44 00:01:52,980 --> 00:01:55,280 - You have to suffer before you can succeed. 45 00:01:55,382 --> 00:01:56,748 - [retching] 46 00:01:56,851 --> 00:01:59,718 narrator: The last one standing wins. 47 00:01:59,820 --> 00:02:02,287 - At what point do I push the button? 48 00:02:02,389 --> 00:02:05,157 [dramatic music] 49 00:02:05,259 --> 00:02:11,997 ♪ ♪ 50 00:02:24,378 --> 00:02:28,013 [birds chirping] 51 00:02:41,762 --> 00:02:43,996 - [whispering] I just shot a buck. 52 00:03:31,378 --> 00:03:34,179 [tense music] 53 00:03:34,281 --> 00:03:40,986 ♪ ♪ 54 00:04:25,332 --> 00:04:29,167 oh, my god. 55 00:04:29,270 --> 00:04:31,169 Oh... 56 00:04:31,272 --> 00:04:33,338 ♪ ♪ 57 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:36,174 [breathes deeply] 58 00:04:36,277 --> 00:04:43,015 ♪ ♪ 59 00:04:52,326 --> 00:04:55,160 oh, my god. 60 00:04:55,262 --> 00:04:56,261 ♪ ♪ 61 00:04:56,363 --> 00:04:58,163 I killed it. 62 00:04:58,265 --> 00:05:00,165 Yeah! 63 00:05:00,267 --> 00:05:05,203 ♪ ♪ 64 00:05:05,306 --> 00:05:07,973 mm. Whew! 65 00:05:08,075 --> 00:05:10,542 Hunting is something that I've done my whole life. 66 00:05:10,644 --> 00:05:12,744 But I've always had support, 67 00:05:12,846 --> 00:05:15,013 I've always been able to bring things. 68 00:05:15,115 --> 00:05:18,650 But to do it completely on your own, self-supported, 69 00:05:18,752 --> 00:05:20,452 just from what the land provides, 70 00:05:20,554 --> 00:05:22,154 that's a different story. 71 00:05:22,256 --> 00:05:28,994 ♪ ♪ 72 00:05:30,464 --> 00:05:32,998 backstraps tonight! 73 00:05:33,100 --> 00:05:35,467 I'm going to go ahead and drop the guts right here, 74 00:05:35,569 --> 00:05:38,870 and then drag him away. 75 00:05:38,972 --> 00:05:41,306 Cut those hind quarters off and take those. 76 00:05:41,408 --> 00:05:42,507 [dramatic music] 77 00:05:42,609 --> 00:05:43,742 this location is different 78 00:05:43,844 --> 00:05:46,678 because there is a major predator here. 79 00:05:46,780 --> 00:05:48,613 So I have to get this thing gutted, 80 00:05:48,716 --> 00:05:49,715 I have to get it quartered out, 81 00:05:49,817 --> 00:05:52,751 I have to get the usable, good meat, 82 00:05:52,853 --> 00:05:54,820 because the last thing that I want to do 83 00:05:54,922 --> 00:05:58,557 is have to deal with a bear coming in here 84 00:05:58,659 --> 00:06:01,159 and wanting to take this kill. 85 00:06:01,261 --> 00:06:02,427 ♪ ♪ 86 00:06:02,529 --> 00:06:06,565 I don't have my pack, so I have to start shuttling the meat 87 00:06:06,667 --> 00:06:09,201 in stages back to the shelter. 88 00:06:09,303 --> 00:06:12,471 [panting] 89 00:06:12,573 --> 00:06:16,007 oh, man, first load done. 90 00:06:19,380 --> 00:06:22,180 [dramatic music] 91 00:06:22,282 --> 00:06:29,988 ♪ ♪ 92 00:06:36,764 --> 00:06:37,996 - checking myself here real quick. 93 00:06:51,945 --> 00:06:54,413 I don't remember having any gray in my beard 94 00:06:54,515 --> 00:06:56,014 before this started. 95 00:07:01,388 --> 00:07:03,288 Maybe a little. 96 00:07:03,390 --> 00:07:05,424 [tense music] 97 00:07:05,526 --> 00:07:07,726 I haven't seen any deer. 98 00:07:07,828 --> 00:07:10,529 But every morning, I pick 100 onions, 99 00:07:10,631 --> 00:07:13,532 rose hips, and cranberries. 100 00:07:13,634 --> 00:07:15,000 I'm just working on foraging 101 00:07:15,102 --> 00:07:18,170 'cause that stuff's gonna go away when the snow comes. 102 00:07:18,272 --> 00:07:22,207 ♪ ♪ 103 00:07:22,309 --> 00:07:25,510 mmm, mmm. 104 00:07:25,612 --> 00:07:28,180 Plants, man, they provide. 105 00:07:28,282 --> 00:07:29,581 ♪ ♪ 106 00:07:29,683 --> 00:07:32,384 oh, there's my onion friends. 107 00:07:32,486 --> 00:07:34,152 Be with you shortly. 108 00:07:34,254 --> 00:07:37,322 ♪ ♪ 109 00:07:37,424 --> 00:07:39,157 cranberry hole. 110 00:07:39,259 --> 00:07:41,460 ♪ ♪ 111 00:07:41,562 --> 00:07:44,162 tiny, but sure are tasty. 112 00:07:44,264 --> 00:07:45,997 ♪ ♪ 113 00:07:50,204 --> 00:07:54,005 these cranberries have been in this hole for almost 3 weeks. 114 00:07:55,409 --> 00:07:57,309 Still are good. 115 00:07:57,411 --> 00:07:59,744 [tense music] 116 00:07:59,847 --> 00:08:03,682 it's calories over comfort right now. 117 00:08:03,784 --> 00:08:05,550 Every spare minute I have has to go 118 00:08:05,652 --> 00:08:07,152 to trying to acquire calories. 119 00:08:07,254 --> 00:08:09,688 ♪ ♪ 120 00:08:09,790 --> 00:08:12,424 moderation, eat 'em in moderation. 121 00:08:12,526 --> 00:08:14,159 I have to pick onions. 122 00:08:14,261 --> 00:08:15,660 ♪ ♪ 123 00:08:15,762 --> 00:08:17,462 I don't know when they disappear. 124 00:08:17,564 --> 00:08:19,397 Unfamiliar with the land. 125 00:08:19,500 --> 00:08:21,166 All right, let's go. 126 00:08:21,268 --> 00:08:23,969 ♪ ♪ 127 00:08:24,071 --> 00:08:27,472 if they disappear and I don't have 1,000 or more, 128 00:08:27,574 --> 00:08:31,910 that's a big shame on me. 129 00:08:32,012 --> 00:08:34,980 It's almost like harvesting out of the garden, 130 00:08:35,082 --> 00:08:37,983 which I would be doing right now if I was at home. 131 00:08:39,820 --> 00:08:42,287 I'd really like to start community farms 132 00:08:42,389 --> 00:08:45,757 in rural alaska. 133 00:08:45,859 --> 00:08:48,560 I want to use the money that I could win 134 00:08:48,662 --> 00:08:51,763 to expose people to wilderness 135 00:08:51,865 --> 00:08:54,866 and wild places and intact ecosystems. 136 00:08:54,968 --> 00:08:57,936 Two thirds of our planet lives in urban areas, 137 00:08:58,038 --> 00:09:00,772 which is fine, but it's hard to get a population 138 00:09:00,874 --> 00:09:03,542 that care about wild places like this 139 00:09:03,644 --> 00:09:05,176 if they've never been in it. 140 00:09:05,279 --> 00:09:06,578 ♪ ♪ 141 00:09:06,680 --> 00:09:08,079 so, for me, winning the money 142 00:09:08,181 --> 00:09:13,418 means being able to start my dream of a school or a camp. 143 00:09:13,520 --> 00:09:15,720 I want to build that. 144 00:09:15,822 --> 00:09:18,657 I like this foraging business, man. 145 00:09:18,759 --> 00:09:22,294 Sitting on my ass picking calories. 146 00:09:22,396 --> 00:09:24,296 Keep doing it. 147 00:09:24,398 --> 00:09:27,165 [dramatic music] 148 00:09:27,267 --> 00:09:34,005 ♪ ♪ 149 00:09:40,514 --> 00:09:42,514 - close up of my face. 150 00:09:42,616 --> 00:09:44,983 Look at those cheek bones. 151 00:09:48,455 --> 00:09:49,988 Seriously sunken in. 152 00:09:51,425 --> 00:09:52,991 Look at that brow. 153 00:09:54,628 --> 00:09:56,494 Look at that skull structure. 154 00:09:56,597 --> 00:09:57,729 You think that that's not, 155 00:09:57,831 --> 00:10:03,001 like cro-magnon or like early human? 156 00:10:04,438 --> 00:10:06,338 Those high ridges. 157 00:10:06,440 --> 00:10:07,405 [exhales sharply] 158 00:10:07,507 --> 00:10:09,574 it's a tough skull. 159 00:10:09,676 --> 00:10:13,311 Trust me, it's a tough skull. 160 00:10:13,413 --> 00:10:15,380 [dramatic music] 161 00:10:15,482 --> 00:10:16,181 it's getting dark. 162 00:10:16,283 --> 00:10:18,717 ♪ ♪ 163 00:10:18,819 --> 00:10:21,152 I'm gonna head up and check my lines. 164 00:10:21,254 --> 00:10:22,954 ♪ ♪ 165 00:10:23,056 --> 00:10:27,158 I would like to believe there's a fish on my line. 166 00:10:27,260 --> 00:10:29,628 ♪ ♪ 167 00:10:29,730 --> 00:10:31,162 tell you what, I miss my family. 168 00:10:31,264 --> 00:10:32,664 ♪ ♪ 169 00:10:32,766 --> 00:10:34,666 the struggle for me is the value 170 00:10:34,768 --> 00:10:36,768 that I place on my responsibility 171 00:10:36,870 --> 00:10:40,171 to be a dad, since I didn't have a dad. 172 00:10:40,273 --> 00:10:41,706 ♪ ♪ 173 00:10:41,808 --> 00:10:44,476 when you don't have that resource, 174 00:10:44,578 --> 00:10:46,678 especially for boy stuff, 175 00:10:46,780 --> 00:10:50,582 you kind of learn from another kid. 176 00:10:50,684 --> 00:10:52,817 But there was no heart in it. 177 00:10:52,919 --> 00:10:55,687 That's what I think is interesting for me. 178 00:10:55,789 --> 00:10:58,723 Not having a dad that has a passion. 179 00:10:58,825 --> 00:11:01,826 I feel like my passion is my family. 180 00:11:01,928 --> 00:11:05,163 Maybe that's because of my own upbringing. 181 00:11:05,265 --> 00:11:07,332 ♪ ♪ 182 00:11:07,434 --> 00:11:08,166 super exciting. 183 00:11:08,268 --> 00:11:10,535 ♪ ♪ 184 00:11:10,637 --> 00:11:13,171 we all come from a struggle. 185 00:11:13,273 --> 00:11:17,175 At some point, we all struggle, no matter where we come from. 186 00:11:17,277 --> 00:11:20,211 ♪ ♪ 187 00:11:20,313 --> 00:11:21,179 big fish. 188 00:11:21,281 --> 00:11:25,283 ♪ ♪ 189 00:11:25,385 --> 00:11:26,384 easy, big fella. 190 00:11:26,486 --> 00:11:28,319 [suspenseful music] 191 00:11:28,422 --> 00:11:32,157 come on, come on. 192 00:11:32,259 --> 00:11:35,160 ♪ ♪ 193 00:11:35,262 --> 00:11:38,129 [bleep]! 194 00:11:38,231 --> 00:11:40,298 No! 195 00:11:40,400 --> 00:11:40,999 [dramatic music] 196 00:11:45,238 --> 00:11:46,171 ♪ ♪ 197 00:11:46,273 --> 00:11:47,172 [bleep]! 198 00:11:47,274 --> 00:11:51,176 ♪ ♪ 199 00:11:51,278 --> 00:11:52,010 [bleep]. 200 00:11:55,248 --> 00:11:57,315 Damn it. 201 00:11:57,417 --> 00:11:59,517 [dramatic music] 202 00:11:59,619 --> 00:12:01,152 that was a huge bull trout. 203 00:12:01,254 --> 00:12:02,287 ♪ ♪ 204 00:12:02,389 --> 00:12:04,155 my jacket's wet. 205 00:12:04,257 --> 00:12:06,925 ♪ ♪ 206 00:12:07,027 --> 00:12:10,295 I saw that it was just barely hooked on the nose. 207 00:12:10,397 --> 00:12:11,529 [tense music] 208 00:12:11,631 --> 00:12:14,165 son of a--[bleep]. Dang it. 209 00:12:14,267 --> 00:12:16,101 ♪ ♪ 210 00:12:16,203 --> 00:12:19,270 I saw him slip off right when he got in the shallow water. 211 00:12:19,372 --> 00:12:21,706 God dang it. 212 00:12:21,808 --> 00:12:24,175 All right, we're gonna set it again. 213 00:12:24,277 --> 00:12:26,578 ♪ ♪ 214 00:12:26,680 --> 00:12:29,447 that's a meal for a few days. 215 00:12:29,549 --> 00:12:31,716 That's so many calories. 216 00:12:31,818 --> 00:12:34,819 I could start to replenish stored fat. 217 00:12:34,921 --> 00:12:38,156 It's just such a blast to your time spent. 218 00:12:38,258 --> 00:12:39,591 ♪ ♪ 219 00:12:39,693 --> 00:12:43,528 so I've got to figure this out. 220 00:12:43,630 --> 00:12:45,296 Can't let that happen again. 221 00:12:45,398 --> 00:12:48,166 [dramatic music] 222 00:12:48,268 --> 00:12:56,007 ♪ ♪ 223 00:13:03,950 --> 00:13:06,985 - I just got back to camp with the last load. 224 00:13:10,257 --> 00:13:12,857 [sighs] 225 00:13:12,959 --> 00:13:16,661 I don't think I've ever-- I know I've never-- 226 00:13:16,763 --> 00:13:20,598 I've never reacted like that to-- 227 00:13:20,700 --> 00:13:22,934 to killing a deer or an animal. 228 00:13:23,036 --> 00:13:28,173 But there's--I don't know, being out here and... 229 00:13:28,275 --> 00:13:30,909 ♪ ♪ 230 00:13:31,011 --> 00:13:34,579 being--having the fish situation be what it is 231 00:13:34,681 --> 00:13:38,550 where it's just, like, staying 232 00:13:38,652 --> 00:13:41,085 maybe just a day or two ahead, 233 00:13:41,188 --> 00:13:43,521 you know, that's all I can do is stay a day or two ahead. 234 00:13:43,623 --> 00:13:47,425 It's just, it was kind of-- 235 00:13:47,527 --> 00:13:48,393 that was worrying me. 236 00:13:48,495 --> 00:13:50,695 That was stressful. 237 00:13:50,797 --> 00:13:53,698 And to have all of that just poof, 238 00:13:53,800 --> 00:13:57,168 lifted off your shoulders is like... 239 00:13:57,270 --> 00:14:01,506 ♪ ♪ 240 00:14:01,608 --> 00:14:03,308 that is a beautiful sight. 241 00:14:03,410 --> 00:14:05,276 [tense music] 242 00:14:05,378 --> 00:14:07,178 [sighs] man. 243 00:14:07,280 --> 00:14:08,146 ♪ ♪ 244 00:14:08,248 --> 00:14:11,516 I have to get all this stuff cut into strips. 245 00:14:11,618 --> 00:14:14,652 Gotta keep it from spoiling. 246 00:14:14,754 --> 00:14:16,154 Gotta keep a bear from taking it. 247 00:14:16,256 --> 00:14:18,223 ♪ ♪ 248 00:14:18,325 --> 00:14:20,158 backstrap. 249 00:14:20,260 --> 00:14:23,394 ♪ ♪ 250 00:14:23,496 --> 00:14:25,163 that's the rib meat. 251 00:14:25,265 --> 00:14:26,264 ♪ ♪ 252 00:14:26,366 --> 00:14:28,166 tenderloin. 253 00:14:28,268 --> 00:14:29,434 ♪ ♪ 254 00:14:29,536 --> 00:14:31,169 that's dinner tonight. 255 00:14:31,271 --> 00:14:33,571 Heart. 256 00:14:33,673 --> 00:14:34,572 That's always the first thing. 257 00:14:34,674 --> 00:14:37,008 You gotta eat the heart first. 258 00:14:37,110 --> 00:14:40,178 I've got to take it all back there and hang it now. 259 00:14:40,280 --> 00:14:41,012 ♪ ♪ 260 00:14:41,114 --> 00:14:44,015 there is a real risk of having meat 261 00:14:44,117 --> 00:14:46,918 hanging in your shelter where there's bears around. 262 00:14:47,020 --> 00:14:49,787 I want to make sure that it's up off the ground 263 00:14:49,890 --> 00:14:53,157 and protected, because that is my future. 264 00:14:53,260 --> 00:14:55,860 ♪ ♪ 265 00:14:55,962 --> 00:14:58,296 never had to haul meat so far without a pack. 266 00:14:58,398 --> 00:15:01,165 [tense music] 267 00:15:01,268 --> 00:15:09,007 ♪ ♪ 268 00:15:13,246 --> 00:15:15,179 [grunts] 269 00:15:15,282 --> 00:15:21,986 ♪ ♪ 270 00:15:24,591 --> 00:15:28,293 yeah, that'll work for now. 271 00:15:28,395 --> 00:15:30,995 Revamp it later. 272 00:15:32,933 --> 00:15:36,301 Man, that deer heart is gonna be good tonight. 273 00:15:36,403 --> 00:15:37,936 [dramatic music] 274 00:15:38,038 --> 00:15:42,573 the first meal of any deer or elk that I ever kill, 275 00:15:42,676 --> 00:15:44,842 I always eat the heart first. 276 00:15:44,945 --> 00:15:47,178 It's just kind of a significant thing to me. 277 00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:48,579 ♪ ♪ 278 00:15:48,682 --> 00:15:51,282 buck heart fried in buck fat. 279 00:15:51,384 --> 00:15:54,285 Man, oh, man. 280 00:15:54,387 --> 00:15:56,554 [tense music] 281 00:15:56,656 --> 00:16:00,158 there's the end of the heart. 282 00:16:00,260 --> 00:16:02,260 ♪ ♪ 283 00:16:02,362 --> 00:16:04,162 oh, my god. 284 00:16:04,264 --> 00:16:06,130 ♪ ♪ 285 00:16:06,232 --> 00:16:07,999 mmm. 286 00:16:11,504 --> 00:16:14,005 Oh, my god, that's good. 287 00:16:15,241 --> 00:16:17,775 Whew! 288 00:16:17,877 --> 00:16:20,011 That may be the best thing I ever ate. 289 00:16:23,516 --> 00:16:24,983 Thank you, young buck. 290 00:16:27,487 --> 00:16:29,120 Thank you, thank you. 291 00:16:29,222 --> 00:16:30,989 Mmm. 292 00:16:33,360 --> 00:16:36,160 [dramatic music] 293 00:16:36,262 --> 00:16:43,001 ♪ ♪ 294 00:16:52,379 --> 00:16:56,014 [rain pattering] 295 00:16:57,283 --> 00:16:59,517 - mm... 296 00:16:59,619 --> 00:17:01,986 Having a slow, slow morning. 297 00:17:04,591 --> 00:17:07,992 It's windy and rainy, cold. 298 00:17:10,030 --> 00:17:13,531 Kind of set it out where my goal is, like, 100 days, 299 00:17:13,633 --> 00:17:15,666 so I'm 23% of the way there. 300 00:17:15,769 --> 00:17:18,569 Every day is just one more percent. 301 00:17:18,671 --> 00:17:23,674 I put that goal out there, mm, 302 00:17:23,777 --> 00:17:26,010 but food, I need food to get there. 303 00:17:35,889 --> 00:17:37,755 I need to get some passive fishing going, 304 00:17:37,857 --> 00:17:41,292 so I think I'm gonna build a fish trap. 305 00:17:41,394 --> 00:17:43,995 [wind whistling] 306 00:17:46,900 --> 00:17:49,300 before I get to work, it's breakfast time. 307 00:17:49,402 --> 00:17:51,702 [tense music] 308 00:17:51,805 --> 00:17:54,172 all right, shelter, see you tonight. 309 00:17:54,274 --> 00:17:56,841 ♪ ♪ 310 00:17:56,943 --> 00:18:02,713 my little breakfast cranberries, have a few. 311 00:18:02,816 --> 00:18:06,150 Gonna stop by ol' cranberry hole. 312 00:18:06,252 --> 00:18:08,686 ♪ ♪ 313 00:18:08,788 --> 00:18:09,854 this fish trap, I'm pretty excited 314 00:18:09,956 --> 00:18:14,392 about catching fish for me passively, 24/7. 315 00:18:14,494 --> 00:18:16,160 Lots of excitement. 316 00:18:16,262 --> 00:18:20,131 ♪ ♪ 317 00:18:20,233 --> 00:18:20,998 ooh. 318 00:18:24,504 --> 00:18:27,171 Something has been here. 319 00:18:27,273 --> 00:18:28,306 ♪ ♪ 320 00:18:28,408 --> 00:18:30,174 something big. 321 00:18:30,276 --> 00:18:33,411 ♪ ♪ 322 00:18:33,513 --> 00:18:36,414 tore up my fire pit. 323 00:18:36,516 --> 00:18:39,217 Ate my cranberries. 324 00:18:39,319 --> 00:18:40,985 Hey, bear! 325 00:18:52,499 --> 00:18:55,833 I think we had a bear. 326 00:18:55,935 --> 00:18:59,003 That ain't to squirrel moving those rocks. 327 00:19:00,507 --> 00:19:02,473 Ate half my cranberries. 328 00:19:02,575 --> 00:19:05,009 Oh. Any good ones left? 329 00:19:07,080 --> 00:19:10,314 Smell them and see if I can smell the bear's breath. 330 00:19:10,416 --> 00:19:12,950 [tense music] 331 00:19:13,052 --> 00:19:17,655 I'm worried about bears, but I need to get calories. 332 00:19:17,757 --> 00:19:20,158 I am building a fish trap today. 333 00:19:20,260 --> 00:19:23,661 ♪ ♪ 334 00:19:23,763 --> 00:19:26,430 god, it'd be sweet if this works. 335 00:19:26,533 --> 00:19:29,167 Some passive fishing. 336 00:19:29,269 --> 00:19:31,636 ♪ ♪ 337 00:19:31,738 --> 00:19:33,571 last year there was a land slide 338 00:19:33,673 --> 00:19:35,673 that blocked the chilko river, 339 00:19:35,775 --> 00:19:37,675 so now it's made it inaccessible 340 00:19:37,777 --> 00:19:39,744 for the salmon to reach the lake. 341 00:19:39,846 --> 00:19:42,880 Got a little system going here, guys. 342 00:19:42,982 --> 00:19:44,549 Migratory bears are showing up to get fish, 343 00:19:44,651 --> 00:19:47,118 and there ain't fish there. 344 00:19:47,220 --> 00:19:50,721 Now they're hungry and they're moving through your territory. 345 00:19:50,823 --> 00:19:52,723 Those bears probably scare me the most 346 00:19:52,825 --> 00:19:55,326 'cause they're the least predictable. 347 00:19:55,428 --> 00:19:57,228 Oh, that smell. 348 00:19:57,330 --> 00:19:59,997 Hey, bear! 349 00:20:04,737 --> 00:20:06,304 I just caught wind of something. 350 00:20:06,406 --> 00:20:07,638 [dramatic music] 351 00:20:07,740 --> 00:20:08,940 it's a little unnerving to know, 352 00:20:09,042 --> 00:20:12,410 like, what are they gonna turn to, skunk cabbage? 353 00:20:12,512 --> 00:20:14,145 "alone" contestants? 354 00:20:14,247 --> 00:20:15,947 These bears aren't gonna come here and turn around and say, 355 00:20:16,049 --> 00:20:17,448 "oh, the fish aren't here" and back out of here. 356 00:20:17,550 --> 00:20:18,616 They're gonna stay here, 357 00:20:18,718 --> 00:20:20,418 and they're gonna get desperate. 358 00:20:20,520 --> 00:20:24,422 Ah it looks fantastic. 359 00:20:24,524 --> 00:20:26,724 There's the entrance, 360 00:20:26,826 --> 00:20:29,627 this comes out and there's the trap. 361 00:20:29,729 --> 00:20:34,932 Fish go right in, can't get out. 362 00:20:35,034 --> 00:20:40,004 I'm gonna tie it on and go get it in the water. 363 00:20:41,641 --> 00:20:43,307 It's gonna be a producer, man. 364 00:20:43,409 --> 00:20:46,177 [tense music] 365 00:20:46,279 --> 00:20:50,748 ♪ ♪ 366 00:20:50,850 --> 00:20:54,151 - here we go, setting the fish trap. 367 00:20:54,254 --> 00:21:00,992 ♪ ♪ 368 00:21:07,634 --> 00:21:10,735 I have no idea how deep it is. 369 00:21:10,837 --> 00:21:16,007 All right, trap, catch some fish, please. 370 00:21:19,379 --> 00:21:21,012 Fish trap in. 371 00:21:25,385 --> 00:21:28,619 That's my buoy. 372 00:21:28,721 --> 00:21:32,523 It didn't sink. We're good, man. 373 00:21:32,625 --> 00:21:35,293 Let's get the boat put away. 374 00:21:35,395 --> 00:21:38,162 [dramatic music] 375 00:21:38,264 --> 00:21:45,002 ♪ ♪ 376 00:21:51,110 --> 00:21:54,011 - is there a point in getting out of my sleeping bag? 377 00:21:57,216 --> 00:22:00,017 Mm. 378 00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:05,990 My lips are okay and I can still smile so it's alright. 379 00:22:07,627 --> 00:22:08,859 My shirt needs a wash though. 380 00:22:08,961 --> 00:22:10,594 The reason I want to move into the pit house, 381 00:22:10,697 --> 00:22:12,563 'cause then I can wash clothing 382 00:22:12,665 --> 00:22:13,731 even when the weather is nasty 383 00:22:13,833 --> 00:22:16,000 and then I can dry it over the fire. 384 00:22:17,570 --> 00:22:19,704 Yep, really, really ready, 385 00:22:19,806 --> 00:22:22,173 really ready to move into my house. 386 00:22:22,275 --> 00:22:28,546 ♪ ♪ 387 00:22:28,648 --> 00:22:29,847 all right, before I move in, 388 00:22:29,949 --> 00:22:33,684 I need to get this fireplace area sorted. 389 00:22:33,786 --> 00:22:35,886 With the tarp over the smoke hole, 390 00:22:35,988 --> 00:22:36,854 I'm not really sure how this is gonna work out 391 00:22:36,956 --> 00:22:40,157 ventilation-wise, so this is kind of a test. 392 00:22:40,259 --> 00:22:46,997 ♪ ♪ 393 00:22:50,570 --> 00:22:54,171 so far it's a smoke house. 394 00:22:54,273 --> 00:22:57,842 ♪ ♪ 395 00:22:57,944 --> 00:22:59,610 it's pulling all the air in from over there, 396 00:22:59,712 --> 00:23:02,012 just bringing the smoke inside. 397 00:23:03,983 --> 00:23:06,550 I have to figure out a way to temporarily open 398 00:23:06,652 --> 00:23:09,286 part of the smoke hole up top. 399 00:23:09,389 --> 00:23:10,888 Let me just go-- 400 00:23:10,990 --> 00:23:14,558 I'm gonna grab a pole and see if I can do that. 401 00:23:14,660 --> 00:23:16,427 It's not calm here very often. 402 00:23:16,529 --> 00:23:20,664 It's very, very windy, 403 00:23:20,767 --> 00:23:24,735 and I have drafts around my door. 404 00:23:24,837 --> 00:23:27,738 So when the wind comes from the north, 405 00:23:27,840 --> 00:23:32,777 my fireplace does not function well. 406 00:23:32,879 --> 00:23:35,179 Potentially that actually made it worse. 407 00:23:35,281 --> 00:23:39,683 ♪ ♪ 408 00:23:39,786 --> 00:23:43,754 this isn't working. I can't move in. 409 00:23:43,856 --> 00:23:46,824 This is not gonna be good for my lungs. 410 00:23:46,926 --> 00:23:48,626 Smoke inhalation over a long periods of time 411 00:23:48,728 --> 00:23:52,797 can make you feel utterly rubbish. 412 00:23:52,899 --> 00:23:55,733 It's low level carbon monoxide poisoning. 413 00:23:55,835 --> 00:23:59,170 But I can't completely not have a fire. 414 00:23:59,272 --> 00:24:06,010 ♪ ♪ 415 00:24:07,380 --> 00:24:10,181 [dramatic music] 416 00:24:10,283 --> 00:24:16,987 ♪ ♪ 417 00:24:26,399 --> 00:24:27,998 - good morning. 418 00:24:29,035 --> 00:24:33,003 It's about five degrees colder today, noticeable. 419 00:24:33,739 --> 00:24:34,772 I'm gonna drink some hot water 420 00:24:34,874 --> 00:24:39,009 for my morning wake up, hot like coffee. 421 00:24:41,247 --> 00:24:44,348 [slurps] 422 00:24:44,450 --> 00:24:46,984 wow, that's warm. 423 00:24:49,622 --> 00:24:52,990 Holy warm. That's really hot. 424 00:24:58,898 --> 00:25:02,333 Might as well go back in for seconds, though. 425 00:25:02,435 --> 00:25:04,001 Just dumb enough. 426 00:25:05,238 --> 00:25:07,671 [slurps] 427 00:25:07,773 --> 00:25:11,308 yep, just as hot as the first time. 428 00:25:11,410 --> 00:25:14,445 [tense music] 429 00:25:14,547 --> 00:25:15,179 all right, back to work. 430 00:25:15,281 --> 00:25:17,414 ♪ ♪ 431 00:25:17,517 --> 00:25:18,249 first thing's first. 432 00:25:18,351 --> 00:25:20,551 Let's remedy the fishing situation 433 00:25:20,653 --> 00:25:23,153 so we don't lose another fish. 434 00:25:23,256 --> 00:25:24,822 ♪ ♪ 435 00:25:24,924 --> 00:25:30,661 I'm just gonna evenly space these around it, 436 00:25:30,763 --> 00:25:34,965 and just keep sectioning it down 437 00:25:35,067 --> 00:25:40,170 until we get to the desired size of the net we want. 438 00:25:40,273 --> 00:25:42,172 ♪ ♪ 439 00:25:42,275 --> 00:25:44,008 awesome. 440 00:25:45,444 --> 00:25:47,177 It's a good start. 441 00:25:47,280 --> 00:25:49,880 ♪ ♪ 442 00:25:49,982 --> 00:25:54,852 fishing, it was almost what's for breakfast. 443 00:25:54,954 --> 00:25:57,788 I would say I'm in one of the worst of times. 444 00:25:57,890 --> 00:26:00,157 I'm not catching any or killing any food. 445 00:26:00,259 --> 00:26:01,959 ♪ ♪ 446 00:26:02,061 --> 00:26:04,161 this is the longest I've ever gone without eating. 447 00:26:04,263 --> 00:26:08,699 ♪ ♪ 448 00:26:08,801 --> 00:26:15,005 well, task one has been completed. 449 00:26:19,445 --> 00:26:20,544 I'm happy with it. 450 00:26:20,646 --> 00:26:24,181 It should serve its purpose. 451 00:26:24,283 --> 00:26:26,183 Perfect. 452 00:26:26,285 --> 00:26:28,285 It works. 453 00:26:28,387 --> 00:26:31,989 [wind whistling] 454 00:26:35,361 --> 00:26:38,429 [waves crashing] 455 00:26:38,531 --> 00:26:41,165 get to test out our net. 456 00:26:41,267 --> 00:26:42,766 ♪ ♪ 457 00:26:42,868 --> 00:26:45,169 I'm always optimistic about tomorrow. 458 00:26:45,271 --> 00:26:45,836 ♪ ♪ 459 00:26:45,938 --> 00:26:48,806 but I find myself very thin 460 00:26:48,908 --> 00:26:52,910 and concerned at how much weight I've lost. 461 00:26:53,012 --> 00:26:57,681 I know that physically I'm in a dangerous place. 462 00:26:57,783 --> 00:26:58,983 All right, I think I got a fish. 463 00:27:01,053 --> 00:27:06,156 I don't know how big it is, but it's moving the line. 464 00:27:06,258 --> 00:27:09,393 Oh, wow. 465 00:27:09,495 --> 00:27:14,198 [bleep] here we go. 466 00:27:14,300 --> 00:27:16,166 Whoo-hoo. 467 00:27:16,268 --> 00:27:19,003 ♪ ♪ 468 00:27:21,507 --> 00:27:22,473 there was a bull trout 469 00:27:22,575 --> 00:27:28,012 with this 12-inch rainbow in his mouth on the hook. 470 00:27:29,382 --> 00:27:31,015 I'll take it. 471 00:27:33,586 --> 00:27:36,420 You can see his teeth marks. 472 00:27:36,522 --> 00:27:39,289 So this guy was food. 473 00:27:39,392 --> 00:27:41,525 That's crazy. 474 00:27:41,627 --> 00:27:44,495 It means the fish are back. 475 00:27:44,597 --> 00:27:47,665 I'm sure happy to see 'em. 476 00:27:47,767 --> 00:27:50,000 It means we're still in the game. 477 00:27:53,372 --> 00:27:56,173 [dramatic music] 478 00:27:56,275 --> 00:28:03,013 ♪ ♪ 479 00:28:11,323 --> 00:28:13,991 - [panting] 480 00:28:21,801 --> 00:28:24,435 well, there's no flies on it, so good, 481 00:28:24,537 --> 00:28:26,003 I'm just gonna leave it. 482 00:28:28,507 --> 00:28:31,041 It's kind of a race now. 483 00:28:31,143 --> 00:28:34,778 I have got to get my deer meat dry so I can preserve it. 484 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:39,016 I'm gonna have to build a smoke house. 485 00:28:39,118 --> 00:28:41,785 Here's what I'm thinking, let's do a log cabin style. 486 00:28:41,887 --> 00:28:45,856 It's going to make it stronger, simpler. 487 00:28:45,958 --> 00:28:48,692 I have to build a smoker that's pretty sturdy. 488 00:28:48,794 --> 00:28:50,527 And I know I can't build something 489 00:28:50,629 --> 00:28:52,796 that's going to stop a bear. 490 00:28:52,898 --> 00:28:54,998 I mean, they're so incredibly powerful. 491 00:28:55,101 --> 00:28:57,968 But I can build one that'll slow one down long enough 492 00:28:58,070 --> 00:29:01,171 for me to hopefully come outside and deal with it. 493 00:29:01,273 --> 00:29:03,707 ♪ ♪ 494 00:29:03,809 --> 00:29:05,509 man, I'm glad I brought this saw. 495 00:29:05,611 --> 00:29:08,078 It was a last-minute item. 496 00:29:08,180 --> 00:29:10,781 I don't have the advantage of cold weather like they have 497 00:29:10,883 --> 00:29:12,850 with other big game kills in past seasons, 498 00:29:12,952 --> 00:29:15,919 where you can just leave whole quarters out here. 499 00:29:16,021 --> 00:29:19,890 In order for this meat to dry out enough to keep, 500 00:29:19,992 --> 00:29:21,859 you have to reduce the moisture content so low 501 00:29:21,961 --> 00:29:25,929 that bacteria and things like that won't grow. 502 00:29:26,031 --> 00:29:30,434 I think my shoulder is gonna feel this tomorrow. 503 00:29:30,536 --> 00:29:33,971 I gotta get this done. 504 00:29:34,073 --> 00:29:37,040 Ideally what you want to do is dry those quarters, 505 00:29:37,143 --> 00:29:39,543 and it creates a rind on the outside and protects them. 506 00:29:39,645 --> 00:29:41,779 In relatively warm weather, 507 00:29:41,881 --> 00:29:44,548 they'll be good just hanging for days. 508 00:29:44,650 --> 00:29:45,783 Stringing this wire in there 509 00:29:45,885 --> 00:29:49,453 so I'll have a place to hang that meat. 510 00:29:49,555 --> 00:29:51,155 Gonna chink the cracks. 511 00:29:51,257 --> 00:29:55,659 ♪ ♪ 512 00:29:55,761 --> 00:29:59,496 all right. I'm gonna do the roof. 513 00:29:59,598 --> 00:30:01,165 Now I just need some moss. 514 00:30:01,267 --> 00:30:04,668 ♪ ♪ 515 00:30:04,770 --> 00:30:06,003 I think once I get all this done, 516 00:30:06,105 --> 00:30:09,173 I'm gonna have to start just chilling a little bit. 517 00:30:09,275 --> 00:30:10,874 ♪ ♪ 518 00:30:10,976 --> 00:30:12,509 I have some little projects that don't really 519 00:30:12,611 --> 00:30:15,979 require a big expenditure. 520 00:30:16,081 --> 00:30:19,149 I've been working hard, burning a lot of calories. 521 00:30:19,251 --> 00:30:20,651 ♪ ♪ 522 00:30:20,753 --> 00:30:23,787 but I have to protect this meat. 523 00:30:23,889 --> 00:30:26,156 I'm not about to give this up to a bear. 524 00:30:26,258 --> 00:30:28,225 ♪ ♪ 525 00:30:28,327 --> 00:30:29,993 all right. 526 00:30:38,804 --> 00:30:41,438 This thing is gonna be perfect size 527 00:30:41,540 --> 00:30:43,006 to fit all this meat. 528 00:30:45,477 --> 00:30:47,177 I just need a fire. 529 00:30:47,279 --> 00:30:49,613 ♪ ♪ 530 00:30:49,715 --> 00:30:51,748 started with some of this pine, 531 00:30:51,851 --> 00:30:55,419 and then I'll put that alder on there. 532 00:30:55,521 --> 00:30:59,423 Oh, look at that. Bam. 533 00:30:59,525 --> 00:31:00,290 Now, that's just cool. 534 00:31:00,392 --> 00:31:04,161 [dramatic music] 535 00:31:04,263 --> 00:31:11,001 ♪ ♪ 536 00:31:15,241 --> 00:31:22,012 ♪ ♪ 537 00:31:30,456 --> 00:31:31,955 - so not gonna lie. 538 00:31:32,057 --> 00:31:37,494 Yesterday after the rain when I got up that morning, 539 00:31:37,596 --> 00:31:38,862 I had left my pot lidless, 540 00:31:38,964 --> 00:31:43,000 and it had collected that 2 inches of water. 541 00:31:43,102 --> 00:31:45,502 It wasn't very light out when I was drinking out of it. 542 00:31:45,604 --> 00:31:46,536 And when it did get light, 543 00:31:46,639 --> 00:31:50,307 I swear there were squirrel turds in my water. 544 00:31:50,409 --> 00:31:51,808 Not gonna lie. 545 00:31:51,911 --> 00:31:55,779 I think I drank squirrel poo yesterday. 546 00:31:55,881 --> 00:31:57,447 Hopefully there's nothing wrong with it. 547 00:31:57,549 --> 00:31:59,149 But I didn't get sick. 548 00:31:59,251 --> 00:32:00,317 ♪ ♪ 549 00:32:00,419 --> 00:32:02,719 what to do today? 550 00:32:02,821 --> 00:32:05,756 Well, I'm getting lighter by the day, 551 00:32:05,858 --> 00:32:10,761 so I got to build up my caloric intake. 552 00:32:10,863 --> 00:32:14,731 Plan is to build a fishing rod and reel. 553 00:32:14,833 --> 00:32:16,833 Being able to cast out quite a ways, 554 00:32:16,936 --> 00:32:20,170 might be able to pull a bull trout a day. 555 00:32:20,272 --> 00:32:23,540 ♪ ♪ 556 00:32:23,642 --> 00:32:26,109 that's gonna fit into there. 557 00:32:26,211 --> 00:32:30,447 I think that the fishing rod and reel might change things, 558 00:32:30,549 --> 00:32:32,916 put more gas in my tank. 559 00:32:33,018 --> 00:32:35,152 Trying to, you know, open this belt up some more. 560 00:32:35,254 --> 00:32:36,787 ♪ ♪ 561 00:32:36,889 --> 00:32:39,890 so after seeing the size of the bull trout, 562 00:32:39,992 --> 00:32:43,794 I think it's advisable to use the 15-pound test, 563 00:32:43,896 --> 00:32:47,531 if I'm gonna throw that big minnow lure on. 564 00:32:47,633 --> 00:32:49,800 I need that extra fat back. 565 00:32:49,902 --> 00:32:53,236 Otherwise, it's gonna be a daily battle. 566 00:32:53,339 --> 00:32:55,906 All right. 567 00:32:56,008 --> 00:33:00,811 I think we should do a double wrap to a single. 568 00:33:00,913 --> 00:33:03,747 I definitely don't want to go anywhere. 569 00:33:03,849 --> 00:33:05,482 My desire is to stay here the longest. 570 00:33:05,584 --> 00:33:08,518 That's what I want to do. 571 00:33:08,620 --> 00:33:11,521 But I always miss my family. 572 00:33:11,623 --> 00:33:13,523 Let's see how well it winds. 573 00:33:13,625 --> 00:33:15,659 I miss cooking them dinner. 574 00:33:15,761 --> 00:33:17,294 I miss hanging out with my boys. 575 00:33:17,396 --> 00:33:18,795 Miss my wife. 576 00:33:18,897 --> 00:33:23,700 I need to stay positive and stay healthy. 577 00:33:23,802 --> 00:33:26,169 I want to see this through for them. 578 00:33:26,271 --> 00:33:28,872 ♪ ♪ 579 00:33:28,974 --> 00:33:32,442 I'll tell you right now, if the fish keep coming, 580 00:33:32,544 --> 00:33:36,179 I am not going anywhere. 581 00:33:36,281 --> 00:33:37,581 ♪ ♪ 582 00:33:37,683 --> 00:33:40,150 can't get me out of this game. 583 00:33:40,252 --> 00:33:42,986 No, sir. 584 00:33:51,663 --> 00:33:54,998 Okay. Here's what's happening. 585 00:33:59,471 --> 00:34:02,773 When you're out here 586 00:34:02,875 --> 00:34:09,613 going through this type of situation, 587 00:34:09,715 --> 00:34:12,983 you pay attention to your body, 588 00:34:13,085 --> 00:34:19,156 and about 2 hours ago, I started feeling nauseous. 589 00:34:19,258 --> 00:34:22,426 ♪ ♪ 590 00:34:22,528 --> 00:34:23,927 so we're gonna just see. 591 00:34:24,029 --> 00:34:28,165 Just gonna let it play out and see what happens. 592 00:34:28,267 --> 00:34:32,602 ♪ ♪ 593 00:34:32,704 --> 00:34:36,173 that water I drank concerns me. 594 00:34:36,275 --> 00:34:37,441 ♪ ♪ 595 00:34:37,543 --> 00:34:41,745 but that would be crazy. 596 00:34:41,847 --> 00:34:43,747 I mean, it's squirrel poo, I guess. 597 00:34:43,849 --> 00:34:48,652 But I don't know what a nut, mushroom, 598 00:34:48,754 --> 00:34:51,154 seed-eating squirrel would carry. 599 00:34:51,256 --> 00:34:53,457 ♪ ♪ 600 00:34:53,559 --> 00:34:56,159 probably nothing, though. 601 00:34:56,261 --> 00:35:03,333 ♪ ♪ 602 00:35:03,435 --> 00:35:06,570 probably nothing. 603 00:35:06,672 --> 00:35:12,175 Just a symptom of starvation. 604 00:35:12,277 --> 00:35:15,278 ♪ ♪ 605 00:35:15,380 --> 00:35:19,583 mm. [sighs] 606 00:35:19,685 --> 00:35:21,151 this, too, shall pass, I guess. 607 00:35:21,253 --> 00:35:23,687 ♪ ♪ 608 00:35:23,789 --> 00:35:27,157 I need to get my fire going again. 609 00:35:27,259 --> 00:35:30,193 ♪ ♪ 610 00:35:30,295 --> 00:35:31,995 [sighs] 611 00:35:44,243 --> 00:35:46,009 [groans] 612 00:35:52,251 --> 00:35:53,383 [groans] 613 00:35:53,485 --> 00:35:56,153 [coughing, retching] 614 00:35:56,255 --> 00:36:00,991 ♪ ♪ 615 00:36:06,231 --> 00:36:11,001 ♪ ♪ 616 00:36:12,304 --> 00:36:15,005 [groaning] 617 00:36:19,378 --> 00:36:21,178 [belches, sighs] 618 00:36:21,280 --> 00:36:24,181 [bleep]. 619 00:36:24,283 --> 00:36:26,550 [groans] 620 00:36:26,652 --> 00:36:29,986 well, that's [bleep] special. 621 00:36:33,392 --> 00:36:34,991 Son of a [bleep]. 622 00:36:41,500 --> 00:36:43,333 Now I have the shakes. 623 00:36:43,435 --> 00:36:45,168 That's awesome. 624 00:36:45,270 --> 00:36:48,338 ♪ ♪ 625 00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:51,641 that concerns me. 626 00:36:51,743 --> 00:36:53,944 I can be as optimistic as I want 627 00:36:54,046 --> 00:36:59,149 and as stubborn as I want, but this is troubling. 628 00:36:59,251 --> 00:37:01,952 ♪ ♪ 629 00:37:02,054 --> 00:37:05,222 I know my body, and my health is important to me. 630 00:37:05,324 --> 00:37:07,691 [grunting] 631 00:37:07,793 --> 00:37:12,028 and I'm not interested in battling 632 00:37:12,130 --> 00:37:17,767 whatever it is that's going on in my body right now... 633 00:37:17,869 --> 00:37:19,169 With also being on a starvation diet. 634 00:37:19,271 --> 00:37:21,771 ♪ ♪ 635 00:37:21,873 --> 00:37:23,907 it's more important to me to be healthy, 636 00:37:24,009 --> 00:37:30,814 so I do apologize if I let anybody down that... 637 00:37:30,916 --> 00:37:35,452 But I'm not gonna get sick or put my body 638 00:37:35,554 --> 00:37:39,656 in any harm for anything. 639 00:37:39,758 --> 00:37:46,429 So I wish I could have gone longer, 640 00:37:46,531 --> 00:37:50,166 but 24 days is my limit. 641 00:37:50,269 --> 00:37:55,205 ♪ ♪ 642 00:37:55,307 --> 00:37:59,009 [beeping] 643 00:38:01,213 --> 00:38:03,013 hi. 644 00:38:04,249 --> 00:38:05,015 Um... 645 00:38:07,586 --> 00:38:11,187 I'm officially tapping out. 646 00:38:11,290 --> 00:38:12,188 I'm done. 647 00:38:12,291 --> 00:38:13,990 [spits] 648 00:38:16,428 --> 00:38:19,329 I'm out. I'm done. 649 00:38:19,431 --> 00:38:21,298 Just like that. 650 00:38:21,400 --> 00:38:24,167 [solemn music] 651 00:38:24,269 --> 00:38:31,007 ♪ ♪ 652 00:38:33,578 --> 00:38:36,646 - you seeing this weather? 653 00:38:36,748 --> 00:38:40,150 This is the day when it happens. 654 00:38:40,252 --> 00:38:41,785 ♪ ♪ 655 00:38:41,887 --> 00:38:45,155 the second I tap out, it starts snowing. 656 00:38:45,257 --> 00:38:51,828 ♪ ♪ 657 00:38:51,930 --> 00:38:55,532 - how you doing, nate? - Um, I'm all right. 658 00:38:55,634 --> 00:38:56,599 Emotionally, I'm all right. 659 00:38:56,702 --> 00:39:00,503 I've got waves of nausea still. 660 00:39:00,605 --> 00:39:02,772 My body's in a process now 661 00:39:02,874 --> 00:39:05,475 where I think it's slowed everything down, 662 00:39:05,577 --> 00:39:08,044 including heating itself. 663 00:39:08,146 --> 00:39:12,682 So it's enough for me to know my priority is my health, 664 00:39:12,784 --> 00:39:14,150 and I'm not gonna compromise it. 665 00:39:14,252 --> 00:39:16,419 ♪ ♪ 666 00:39:16,521 --> 00:39:18,888 my family rely on me. 667 00:39:18,990 --> 00:39:23,059 And I have to remember that it's not about me. 668 00:39:23,161 --> 00:39:26,563 So I have to stay healthy, and I have to recognize that. 669 00:39:26,665 --> 00:39:29,165 And I'm conscious of my body. 670 00:39:29,267 --> 00:39:30,633 ♪ ♪ 671 00:39:30,736 --> 00:39:33,570 life, when you're mission-focused, 672 00:39:33,672 --> 00:39:35,672 it's like a train on a track. 673 00:39:35,774 --> 00:39:39,843 And I've just been on the tracks. 674 00:39:39,945 --> 00:39:41,878 I've been so mission-focused on the homestead 675 00:39:41,980 --> 00:39:45,715 and getting my family in a comfortable place 676 00:39:45,817 --> 00:39:47,384 that I've neglected other places, 677 00:39:47,486 --> 00:39:50,653 my family, my kids. 678 00:39:50,756 --> 00:39:54,157 I gotta give my kids more of me. 679 00:39:54,259 --> 00:39:55,158 ♪ ♪ 680 00:39:55,260 --> 00:39:59,696 this provided me a station stop on my train. 681 00:39:59,798 --> 00:40:03,400 It forced me to stop and take a break 682 00:40:03,502 --> 00:40:05,702 and look at my life 683 00:40:05,804 --> 00:40:08,438 and remember what's most important. 684 00:40:08,540 --> 00:40:10,173 And that's what I did. 685 00:40:10,275 --> 00:40:15,311 ♪ ♪ 686 00:40:15,414 --> 00:40:18,181 [dramatic music] 687 00:40:18,283 --> 00:40:24,988 ♪ ♪ 688 00:40:35,400 --> 00:40:36,699 - good morning. 689 00:40:36,802 --> 00:40:40,003 Let's read my personal rules list. 690 00:40:40,872 --> 00:40:45,408 Carry bow always for potential game/threat 691 00:40:45,510 --> 00:40:47,577 any time you're out. 692 00:40:47,679 --> 00:40:51,781 Be aware. That's a good rule. 693 00:40:51,883 --> 00:40:55,652 Wear gloves any time I'm using a blade. 694 00:40:55,754 --> 00:40:58,121 Keep track of all critical gear. 695 00:40:59,191 --> 00:41:03,993 And last but not least, don't push the [bleep] tap button. 696 00:41:06,631 --> 00:41:09,299 Trying to keep that one going. 697 00:41:09,401 --> 00:41:13,102 [tense music] 698 00:41:13,205 --> 00:41:16,439 sounds pretty calm out there, so I think I'm gonna get up 699 00:41:16,541 --> 00:41:18,174 and go try some fishing. 700 00:41:18,276 --> 00:41:19,809 ♪ ♪ 701 00:41:19,911 --> 00:41:21,411 wonder if there's any fish hunkering down 702 00:41:21,513 --> 00:41:23,179 in my fish trap yet. 703 00:41:23,281 --> 00:41:24,113 ♪ ♪ 704 00:41:24,216 --> 00:41:27,717 it's worth checking my fish trap, right? 705 00:41:27,819 --> 00:41:30,153 Maybe something's hiding out in there. 706 00:41:30,255 --> 00:41:32,021 ♪ ♪ 707 00:41:32,123 --> 00:41:35,859 I definitely expected to have some fish in me by now, 708 00:41:35,961 --> 00:41:39,162 'cause back home, I'm a pretty big fisherman. 709 00:41:39,264 --> 00:41:42,832 ♪ ♪ 710 00:41:42,934 --> 00:41:46,769 but out here, it's, like-- it's different. 711 00:41:46,872 --> 00:41:49,506 I haven't been able to catch one fish. 712 00:41:49,608 --> 00:41:52,175 Please have fish in there. 713 00:41:52,277 --> 00:41:54,644 ♪ ♪ 714 00:41:54,746 --> 00:41:58,214 you don't have no fish in there. 715 00:41:58,316 --> 00:42:00,183 [sighs] 716 00:42:00,285 --> 00:42:02,552 oh, well. 717 00:42:02,654 --> 00:42:05,154 Gonna try something different. 718 00:42:05,257 --> 00:42:07,957 ♪ ♪ 719 00:42:08,059 --> 00:42:10,994 it's funny, when I was gearing up to come out here, 720 00:42:11,096 --> 00:42:15,999 I wanted lure fishing to be my last resort fishing. 721 00:42:16,101 --> 00:42:20,036 I didn't want it to be, like, my main fishing thing. 722 00:42:20,138 --> 00:42:24,173 So it's kind of funny to find myself in this situation. 723 00:42:24,276 --> 00:42:27,010 ♪ ♪ 724 00:42:36,788 --> 00:42:41,824 trying not to get mad, but it's hard. 725 00:42:41,927 --> 00:42:44,294 Hard not to get mad when things don't work 726 00:42:44,396 --> 00:42:46,462 all the time. 727 00:42:46,565 --> 00:42:48,431 Normally, I love fishing. 728 00:42:48,533 --> 00:42:51,834 It's relaxing, it's fun, 729 00:42:51,937 --> 00:42:56,172 but fishing out here just frustrates me, man. 730 00:42:56,274 --> 00:42:57,974 ♪ ♪ 731 00:42:58,076 --> 00:43:01,578 but so much rather be doing this than my old job. 732 00:43:01,680 --> 00:43:03,947 I mean, there's no comparison. 733 00:43:04,049 --> 00:43:08,017 Breathing in fiberglass, building trailers all day. 734 00:43:08,119 --> 00:43:11,254 My dad thought I should bring a photo of my old work. 735 00:43:11,356 --> 00:43:12,889 He was like, 736 00:43:12,991 --> 00:43:16,392 "that'll give you more incentive to not leave." 737 00:43:16,494 --> 00:43:18,361 totally right, man. 738 00:43:18,463 --> 00:43:19,762 But I'm a fighter, 739 00:43:19,864 --> 00:43:23,166 and I'm gonna hang on as long as I can. 740 00:43:23,268 --> 00:43:26,002 ♪ ♪ 741 00:43:30,308 --> 00:43:31,174 I got one. 742 00:43:31,276 --> 00:43:38,314 ♪ ♪ 743 00:43:38,416 --> 00:43:39,616 come on, baby. 744 00:43:39,718 --> 00:43:43,987 Come on in. Come on in, baby. 745 00:43:50,261 --> 00:43:52,261 Yes. Yes. 746 00:43:52,364 --> 00:43:54,430 [bleep] yes! 747 00:43:54,532 --> 00:43:57,567 Beautiful rainbow trout. 748 00:43:57,669 --> 00:44:01,004 Thank you for your life, fish. 749 00:44:02,307 --> 00:44:05,174 Thank you. 750 00:44:05,276 --> 00:44:09,479 Oh, yes. 751 00:44:09,581 --> 00:44:13,983 Finally, a decent meal. 752 00:44:17,522 --> 00:44:20,289 Oh, that's so exciting. 753 00:44:20,392 --> 00:44:23,426 [tense music] 754 00:44:23,528 --> 00:44:25,395 caught my first fish. 755 00:44:25,497 --> 00:44:30,166 [celebratory shout] 756 00:44:30,268 --> 00:44:31,567 ♪ ♪ 757 00:44:31,670 --> 00:44:34,370 oh, I'm gonna eat fish today. 758 00:44:34,472 --> 00:44:36,305 That's so awesome. 759 00:44:36,408 --> 00:44:38,374 Thank you, gods. 760 00:44:38,476 --> 00:44:40,176 Thank you, chilko. 761 00:44:40,278 --> 00:44:42,712 ♪ ♪ 762 00:44:42,814 --> 00:44:44,013 it's time to get this sucker rolling. 763 00:44:48,119 --> 00:44:51,988 I can't tell you how excited I am to eat a sizable fish. 764 00:44:54,559 --> 00:44:57,794 Gonna be tasty, my friend. 765 00:44:57,896 --> 00:45:00,897 I'm gonna have my first protein out here. 766 00:45:00,999 --> 00:45:05,735 It's a morale booster, and hopefully it's a turn 767 00:45:05,837 --> 00:45:09,172 in my ability to get food out here. 768 00:45:09,274 --> 00:45:10,173 ♪ ♪ 769 00:45:10,275 --> 00:45:13,309 that's gonna be a decent meal, right there. 770 00:45:13,411 --> 00:45:15,178 Super stoked. 771 00:45:15,280 --> 00:45:17,046 ♪ ♪ 772 00:45:17,148 --> 00:45:19,882 I gotta say, it kind of sucks to be constantly, like, 773 00:45:19,984 --> 00:45:24,954 stressed about my surroundings while cooking, 774 00:45:25,056 --> 00:45:27,423 'cause these grizzly bears will just walk right up 775 00:45:27,525 --> 00:45:29,692 and take what's yours, 776 00:45:29,794 --> 00:45:32,061 'cause they know they're big and bad. 777 00:45:32,163 --> 00:45:35,431 So I try to make a lot of noise while I'm cooking fish. 778 00:45:35,533 --> 00:45:41,003 Oh, yeah! Fish, baby! 779 00:45:44,743 --> 00:45:48,010 Smells like breakfast over here. 780 00:45:49,748 --> 00:45:52,014 I normally scrape out the spine. 781 00:45:54,819 --> 00:45:57,987 But out here, I'm eating that black stuff. 782 00:46:02,160 --> 00:46:06,896 I'm sure it's got some kind of nutrients in it that I want. 783 00:46:06,998 --> 00:46:10,533 All right. Here comes my dad's favorite part, 784 00:46:10,635 --> 00:46:13,770 the sucking out of the eyes. 785 00:46:13,872 --> 00:46:16,272 Here it goes, dad. This one's for you. 786 00:46:16,374 --> 00:46:19,008 Let me see! 787 00:46:21,079 --> 00:46:23,780 That was something my dad used to do when I was a kid. 788 00:46:23,882 --> 00:46:26,716 When we'd catch trout and cook them up, 789 00:46:26,818 --> 00:46:29,085 he would suck out the eyes and yell, 790 00:46:29,187 --> 00:46:32,421 "let me see," which of course would freak me out as a kid. 791 00:46:32,524 --> 00:46:34,657 But now I do it for him. 792 00:46:34,759 --> 00:46:38,461 Well, hello, little trout brain. 793 00:46:38,563 --> 00:46:41,297 Do you mind if I eat you? 794 00:46:41,399 --> 00:46:44,167 [dramatic music] 795 00:46:44,269 --> 00:46:51,007 ♪ ♪ 796 00:46:56,881 --> 00:47:00,650 - going to wash my hair with hot water. 797 00:47:00,752 --> 00:47:02,985 Hope I get smell of smoke off me. 798 00:47:05,590 --> 00:47:08,991 Oh, man, that feels lovely. 799 00:47:11,229 --> 00:47:12,728 Yeah. 800 00:47:12,831 --> 00:47:13,462 Sometimes the little things in life 801 00:47:13,565 --> 00:47:15,998 make everything better. 802 00:47:17,235 --> 00:47:19,468 ♪ ♪ 803 00:47:19,571 --> 00:47:21,838 I'm so tired of the wind. 804 00:47:21,940 --> 00:47:25,708 The wind direction is southwest in the fall. 805 00:47:25,810 --> 00:47:28,110 It's from the north in the winter. 806 00:47:28,213 --> 00:47:32,448 If it's from the north most of the time this time of year, 807 00:47:32,550 --> 00:47:34,150 I'm in a real pickle. 808 00:47:34,252 --> 00:47:36,752 ♪ ♪ 809 00:47:36,855 --> 00:47:38,554 so all right. We're gonna push today. 810 00:47:38,656 --> 00:47:41,991 We're finishing the fireplace. 811 00:47:42,260 --> 00:47:43,960 [grunts] 812 00:47:44,062 --> 00:47:46,996 so I'm gonna keep on with the rocking all the way up 813 00:47:47,098 --> 00:47:51,934 to where I think approximately where the posts will be. 814 00:47:52,036 --> 00:47:55,605 Yeah. I think that'll help a lot with the smoke. 815 00:47:55,707 --> 00:47:58,174 So we are gonna set that in sand. 816 00:47:58,276 --> 00:48:00,810 ♪ ♪ 817 00:48:00,912 --> 00:48:02,378 try to actually make the chimney narrow 818 00:48:02,480 --> 00:48:04,380 a little bit here. 819 00:48:04,482 --> 00:48:07,617 See if that helps. 820 00:48:07,719 --> 00:48:11,153 I need a nice, long-ish big one. 821 00:48:11,256 --> 00:48:13,322 ♪ ♪ 822 00:48:13,424 --> 00:48:16,058 that's spot-on. 823 00:48:16,160 --> 00:48:18,761 Fireplace and the chimney, they're incredibly important. 824 00:48:18,863 --> 00:48:21,964 Fall is probably coming to a close here, 825 00:48:22,066 --> 00:48:25,902 and winter is coming, and it is gonna get colder, 826 00:48:26,004 --> 00:48:27,803 and I want to have a fireplace with a chimney, 827 00:48:27,906 --> 00:48:30,573 and all sealed up so that when it is cold 828 00:48:30,675 --> 00:48:31,974 and the weather is atrocious, 829 00:48:32,076 --> 00:48:35,177 we can sit all nice and toasty warm in our house. 830 00:48:35,280 --> 00:48:40,383 ♪ ♪ 831 00:48:40,485 --> 00:48:42,985 and we can go there. 832 00:48:45,490 --> 00:48:50,459 Is that tightened? Yeah? 833 00:48:50,561 --> 00:48:52,995 We happy? We're happy. 834 00:48:53,998 --> 00:48:56,899 I think I might just steal some of these rocks 835 00:48:57,001 --> 00:48:58,734 just to make the chimney, because they're really 836 00:48:58,836 --> 00:49:01,437 unnecessary where they are right now. 837 00:49:01,539 --> 00:49:04,740 I have a well-managed, 838 00:49:04,842 --> 00:49:08,577 but fairly strong component of ocd. 839 00:49:08,680 --> 00:49:10,846 I have very specific routines. 840 00:49:10,949 --> 00:49:14,984 And to feel like I have not completed a thing 841 00:49:15,086 --> 00:49:18,888 makes it very difficult for me to move on from that. 842 00:49:18,990 --> 00:49:23,559 So that makes "alone" an absolute juggling act, 843 00:49:23,661 --> 00:49:26,262 both mentally and physically. 844 00:49:26,364 --> 00:49:27,730 That works. 845 00:49:27,832 --> 00:49:31,400 Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da. 846 00:49:31,502 --> 00:49:33,602 This is the inside. 847 00:49:33,705 --> 00:49:35,972 When all of this rock heats up, 848 00:49:36,074 --> 00:49:38,941 it's gonna reflect a lot of heat back into the house, 849 00:49:39,043 --> 00:49:41,344 you know, overnight even after the fire dies down 850 00:49:41,446 --> 00:49:43,446 or even dies out. 851 00:49:43,548 --> 00:49:46,983 And here is the chimney. 852 00:49:50,355 --> 00:49:53,155 [tense music] 853 00:49:53,257 --> 00:49:59,996 ♪ ♪ 854 00:50:05,970 --> 00:50:08,904 oh, I can tell there's a much better draw now. 855 00:50:09,007 --> 00:50:12,942 The flames are staying lit of their own accord. 856 00:50:13,044 --> 00:50:17,313 Fantastic. It means that I can go and move in here. 857 00:50:17,415 --> 00:50:20,149 [dramatic music] 858 00:50:20,251 --> 00:50:26,989 ♪ ♪ 859 00:50:29,761 --> 00:50:31,894 - moved everything out of the tarp 860 00:50:31,996 --> 00:50:36,932 and into the pit house, which is where I now am. 861 00:50:37,035 --> 00:50:40,436 Feels really nice to have worked in here all day, 862 00:50:40,538 --> 00:50:42,905 and just crawl in bed. 863 00:50:43,007 --> 00:50:46,675 Not have to faff about with going back and forth 864 00:50:46,778 --> 00:50:49,478 between two different shelters. 865 00:50:49,580 --> 00:50:51,781 This is my new reality. 866 00:50:51,883 --> 00:50:55,451 In my adult life, this is the first time 867 00:50:55,553 --> 00:50:56,952 I have had my own home. 868 00:50:57,055 --> 00:51:00,890 I have never lived anywhere where it was just me. 869 00:51:00,992 --> 00:51:03,526 It's me inside and out, and it's solely mine. 870 00:51:03,628 --> 00:51:05,694 If I wanted to do projects, 871 00:51:05,797 --> 00:51:07,730 I could do projects till 2:00 a.M. 872 00:51:07,832 --> 00:51:09,865 There's no one to keep awake but me. 873 00:51:09,967 --> 00:51:13,769 It's warm enough in here to actually stand up, 874 00:51:13,871 --> 00:51:16,005 take all of my clothing off normally. 875 00:51:16,107 --> 00:51:21,210 Crawl up into my sleeping bag on my nice raised bed. 876 00:51:21,312 --> 00:51:24,246 Uh, yeah. 877 00:51:24,348 --> 00:51:30,386 So...Okay. 878 00:51:30,488 --> 00:51:31,987 Good night, camera. 879 00:51:37,361 --> 00:51:39,161 [dramatic music] 880 00:51:39,263 --> 00:51:47,002 ♪ ♪ 881 00:51:53,411 --> 00:51:54,810 - good morning. 882 00:51:54,912 --> 00:51:58,380 That was probably the most restless night 883 00:51:58,483 --> 00:52:00,382 of sleep I've had. 884 00:52:00,485 --> 00:52:03,986 That wind is brutal. 885 00:52:04,088 --> 00:52:06,922 It's a good indicator for what's to come for winter, 886 00:52:07,024 --> 00:52:09,158 so I want to make sure that I get this door done. 887 00:52:09,260 --> 00:52:11,927 ♪ ♪ 888 00:52:12,029 --> 00:52:14,797 the cold weather is coming, so I definitely need 889 00:52:14,899 --> 00:52:17,166 to get this buttoned up pretty good here. 890 00:52:17,268 --> 00:52:18,334 ♪ ♪ 891 00:52:18,436 --> 00:52:19,702 man, this wind. 892 00:52:19,804 --> 00:52:22,438 It's not usually windy right here. 893 00:52:22,540 --> 00:52:23,272 I hope that that's not 894 00:52:23,374 --> 00:52:24,974 what this winter is going to be like. 895 00:52:25,076 --> 00:52:28,777 I think I'll just make that door a triangle shape, 896 00:52:28,880 --> 00:52:30,913 so at nighttime I can put up against it. 897 00:52:31,015 --> 00:52:33,883 And I'd really like to have that frame nailed, 898 00:52:33,985 --> 00:52:36,785 'cause I'm gonna be moving it all the time. 899 00:52:36,888 --> 00:52:38,420 Let's see if there were any other nails 900 00:52:38,523 --> 00:52:40,389 that I could salvage. 901 00:52:40,491 --> 00:52:42,391 He did have a nail. 902 00:52:42,493 --> 00:52:47,296 And so did that guy. 903 00:52:47,398 --> 00:52:49,732 [tense music] 904 00:52:49,834 --> 00:52:53,536 the longer I'm here, my life back home 905 00:52:53,638 --> 00:52:55,738 weighs so heavy on my mind. 906 00:52:55,840 --> 00:52:58,741 My life changed so much 4 years ago. 907 00:52:58,843 --> 00:53:01,477 Someone had broke into my little store 908 00:53:01,579 --> 00:53:04,713 and stole a lot of stuff, 909 00:53:04,815 --> 00:53:06,782 and so I suffered a really big loss. 910 00:53:06,884 --> 00:53:08,651 At the same time, my marriage was ending 911 00:53:08,753 --> 00:53:10,986 and my son went away to college. 912 00:53:11,088 --> 00:53:13,956 Everything that I knew, being a mother, and a wife, 913 00:53:14,058 --> 00:53:18,694 and my store just kind of came to a screeching halt. 914 00:53:18,796 --> 00:53:21,597 So I thought, "what am I gonna do? 915 00:53:21,699 --> 00:53:22,898 I don't know who I am anymore." 916 00:53:23,000 --> 00:53:26,168 it was like someone kicked me in the stomach. 917 00:53:26,270 --> 00:53:26,835 ♪ ♪ 918 00:53:26,938 --> 00:53:28,437 this is a good, solid frame 919 00:53:28,539 --> 00:53:31,407 using those old nails. 920 00:53:31,509 --> 00:53:34,343 That's pretty cool. 921 00:53:34,445 --> 00:53:37,179 Now pine again. 922 00:53:37,281 --> 00:53:39,782 ♪ ♪ 923 00:53:39,884 --> 00:53:42,151 I think I'll just start filling that in. 924 00:53:42,253 --> 00:53:45,421 ♪ ♪ 925 00:53:45,523 --> 00:53:46,789 I'm very purpose-driven. 926 00:53:46,891 --> 00:53:51,927 And to just exist without a great purpose 927 00:53:52,029 --> 00:53:53,762 wasn't something that I was gonna be able to do. 928 00:53:53,864 --> 00:53:57,099 So I just started doing what I loved. 929 00:53:57,201 --> 00:54:01,070 So it became my quest to teach the next generation hunting, 930 00:54:01,172 --> 00:54:05,174 hide tanning, and why it's beneficial to our environment. 931 00:54:05,276 --> 00:54:07,843 ♪ ♪ 932 00:54:07,945 --> 00:54:10,679 if I wouldn't have started to do something 933 00:54:10,781 --> 00:54:12,748 that I felt so passionate about, 934 00:54:12,850 --> 00:54:14,750 I would have been in really bad shape. 935 00:54:14,852 --> 00:54:16,819 I think maybe that's how I have to feel 936 00:54:16,921 --> 00:54:20,623 about this challenge that I have taken on. 937 00:54:20,725 --> 00:54:23,626 Being on "alone," I can do this. 938 00:54:23,728 --> 00:54:27,763 There's no reason that I can't. 939 00:54:27,865 --> 00:54:29,898 I'm just gonna put that wire up there. 940 00:54:30,001 --> 00:54:35,104 And then it will just kind of hang right there. 941 00:54:35,206 --> 00:54:39,308 So at nighttime it will help block that wind a little bit. 942 00:54:39,410 --> 00:54:42,177 [dramatic music] 943 00:54:42,280 --> 00:54:48,984 ♪ ♪ 944 00:55:00,831 --> 00:55:03,365 - look at that. That is just gorgeous. 945 00:55:03,467 --> 00:55:07,169 [shimmering tones] 946 00:55:07,271 --> 00:55:14,009 ♪ ♪ 947 00:55:14,445 --> 00:55:16,178 a double rainbow. 948 00:55:16,280 --> 00:55:21,183 ♪ ♪ 949 00:55:21,285 --> 00:55:23,285 [sighs] 950 00:55:23,387 --> 00:55:24,753 [tranquil music] 951 00:55:24,855 --> 00:55:27,156 I don't know what I did to deserve this. 952 00:55:27,258 --> 00:55:29,792 ♪ ♪ 953 00:55:29,894 --> 00:55:33,329 look at that. That is just unbelievable. 954 00:55:33,431 --> 00:55:35,664 It's right there. 955 00:55:35,766 --> 00:55:39,902 Can almost reach out and grab it. 956 00:55:40,004 --> 00:55:42,905 This is something that I've always wanted to do. 957 00:55:43,007 --> 00:55:46,709 I've always wanted to see if all of these skills 958 00:55:46,811 --> 00:55:48,577 that I've spent my life developing 959 00:55:48,679 --> 00:55:49,845 could actually see me through 960 00:55:49,947 --> 00:55:55,351 a real-life wilderness survival situation. 961 00:55:55,453 --> 00:55:57,453 Nature is amazing. 962 00:55:57,555 --> 00:56:00,889 And it's a test of will 963 00:56:00,991 --> 00:56:04,760 when you grind against having not enough to eat, 964 00:56:04,862 --> 00:56:07,363 and in total isolation from your family. 965 00:56:07,465 --> 00:56:09,898 Those things suck. 966 00:56:10,000 --> 00:56:13,802 But suck is the price you pay to be out here. 967 00:56:13,904 --> 00:56:16,939 You don't get that sitting on your couch. 968 00:56:17,041 --> 00:56:19,441 I don't know if I've ever seen one so spectacular 969 00:56:19,543 --> 00:56:21,243 and so close-looking. 970 00:56:21,345 --> 00:56:23,812 Beautiful. 971 00:56:23,914 --> 00:56:27,750 I've studied stoic philosophy for years. 972 00:56:27,852 --> 00:56:30,819 And you can know these things logically. 973 00:56:30,921 --> 00:56:35,624 But until you go through a time of struggle, 974 00:56:35,726 --> 00:56:37,793 you can't know it in your soul. 975 00:56:37,895 --> 00:56:42,664 Right now, that deer is everything to me. 976 00:56:42,767 --> 00:56:45,000 But it's not going to last forever. 977 00:56:45,102 --> 00:56:50,806 I want to win this thing, but that is a long way away. 978 00:56:50,908 --> 00:56:53,008 Maybe there's a pot of gold at the end. 979 00:56:58,382 --> 00:57:01,150 [dramatic music] 980 00:57:01,252 --> 00:57:07,990 ♪ ♪ 981 00:57:09,627 --> 00:57:10,893 - nate, thanks for joining me. 982 00:57:10,995 --> 00:57:12,694 - Thanks for having me. It's good to be here. 983 00:57:12,797 --> 00:57:14,563 - You were a corpsman in the navy, 984 00:57:14,665 --> 00:57:16,131 which is essentially a medic. 985 00:57:16,233 --> 00:57:19,134 You seem to really understand your body and what it needed. 986 00:57:19,236 --> 00:57:22,037 You know, when did you realize that you were near your limit? 987 00:57:22,139 --> 00:57:25,073 - I always had an idea. I mean, I've been thin before. 988 00:57:25,176 --> 00:57:28,577 My experience as a wrestler-- I know, I've been fasting, 989 00:57:28,679 --> 00:57:29,878 and I've lost a lot of weight 990 00:57:29,980 --> 00:57:31,713 and been below 3 percent body fat in the past. 991 00:57:31,816 --> 00:57:35,617 So I knew my limitations in my mind. 992 00:57:35,719 --> 00:57:36,718 But I also have a stubborn side, 993 00:57:36,821 --> 00:57:38,987 which likes to take on that challenge 994 00:57:39,089 --> 00:57:43,292 and push myself as far as I can possibly push myself. 995 00:57:43,394 --> 00:57:44,059 And I pushed it. 996 00:57:44,161 --> 00:57:45,394 I pushed past it until I got sick. 997 00:57:45,496 --> 00:57:48,697 [coughing, retching] 998 00:57:48,799 --> 00:57:49,832 and then that was the end for me, 999 00:57:49,934 --> 00:57:51,800 where I knew I had gone beyond my red line 1000 00:57:51,902 --> 00:57:54,002 where I was comfortable taking my body. 1001 00:57:56,106 --> 00:57:58,874 - I learned a lot of new ideas watching you out there. 1002 00:57:58,976 --> 00:58:02,544 Your creative problem-solving was brilliant. 1003 00:58:02,646 --> 00:58:03,745 Let's talk about that pier. 1004 00:58:03,848 --> 00:58:06,949 That was an engineering masterpiece. 1005 00:58:07,051 --> 00:58:08,784 - I mean, I went through a whole bunch of different 1006 00:58:08,886 --> 00:58:10,118 design ideas and how to put it together. 1007 00:58:10,221 --> 00:58:12,821 But ideally, I didn't want to use any of my cordage for it, 1008 00:58:12,923 --> 00:58:14,957 'cause I knew it would take a lot of cordage 1009 00:58:15,059 --> 00:58:17,960 to hold something together like that in those waves. 1010 00:58:18,062 --> 00:58:22,331 So I just decided to peg it and build it that way. 1011 00:58:22,433 --> 00:58:24,166 What the [bleep]? 1012 00:58:24,268 --> 00:58:25,901 [bleep]. 1013 00:58:26,003 --> 00:58:27,936 I mean, I failed a bunch of times on the shoreline 1014 00:58:28,038 --> 00:58:31,974 before I tried to carry the second attempt out. 1015 00:58:32,076 --> 00:58:35,010 But, I mean, for me, failure, that's the process. 1016 00:58:35,112 --> 00:58:37,646 - Yeah. It's the only way you can make something work, 1017 00:58:37,748 --> 00:58:39,515 is by making a ton of mistakes. 1018 00:58:39,617 --> 00:58:40,749 - Right. - How did it feel 1019 00:58:40,851 --> 00:58:42,050 to finally have that pier in place? 1020 00:58:42,152 --> 00:58:45,954 - I was super excited, 'cause I had put so much into it. 1021 00:58:46,056 --> 00:58:48,156 And I saw so much potential in fishing beyond it. 1022 00:58:48,259 --> 00:58:49,758 Perfect. 1023 00:58:49,860 --> 00:58:51,827 - You found some really creative ways 1024 00:58:51,929 --> 00:58:53,695 to make yourself more comfortable out there. 1025 00:58:53,797 --> 00:58:56,832 That bed spring mattress was awesome. 1026 00:58:56,934 --> 00:58:58,667 - I've had two spine surgeries in my life. 1027 00:58:58,769 --> 00:59:02,104 So my back is a concern of mine. 1028 00:59:02,206 --> 00:59:04,740 It's great normally, but the second you start losing weight 1029 00:59:04,842 --> 00:59:06,542 you start to lose a lot of the fat pad 1030 00:59:06,644 --> 00:59:07,943 that you're used to having. 1031 00:59:08,045 --> 00:59:09,945 And that's your comfort when you're lying down. 1032 00:59:10,047 --> 00:59:12,481 So I figured the best way to remedy that would be 1033 00:59:12,583 --> 00:59:15,117 to make a suspension bed. 1034 00:59:15,219 --> 00:59:16,418 Oh! 1035 00:59:16,520 --> 00:59:17,753 - That thing was sick. 1036 00:59:17,855 --> 00:59:19,755 It must have been just so nice and, like-- 1037 00:59:19,857 --> 00:59:22,224 - changed everything. - I bet it did. 1038 00:59:22,326 --> 00:59:23,725 [laughter] 1039 00:59:23,827 --> 00:59:24,793 so let's talk about your mental game. 1040 00:59:24,895 --> 00:59:26,695 "alone" can be a real challenge for people, 1041 00:59:26,797 --> 00:59:28,864 not just physically but mentally. 1042 00:59:28,966 --> 00:59:30,999 How did you think that your military training 1043 00:59:31,101 --> 00:59:33,669 and your experience was gonna help you on the show? 1044 00:59:33,771 --> 00:59:34,870 - I think my military experience, 1045 00:59:34,972 --> 00:59:39,007 or just my experience over the last 3 decades, 1046 00:59:39,109 --> 00:59:40,676 it involves deployments and being away from family. 1047 00:59:40,778 --> 00:59:42,544 I've been there before, so I know 1048 00:59:42,646 --> 00:59:46,014 that my separation from home 1049 00:59:46,116 --> 00:59:47,749 and that trusting my wife will take care of the house, 1050 00:59:47,851 --> 00:59:49,384 and not having to worry about my kids, 1051 00:59:49,486 --> 00:59:50,619 and stuff like that, 1052 00:59:50,721 --> 00:59:52,554 that alleviates a lot of stress. 1053 00:59:52,656 --> 00:59:55,157 Challenge is can you be alone? 1054 00:59:55,259 --> 00:59:57,426 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:59:57,528 --> 00:59:59,861 oh, I think I can be. 1056 00:59:59,964 --> 01:00:01,863 But this game is just a little bit different 1057 01:00:01,966 --> 01:00:03,732 when it comes to that, 'cause you are isolated. 1058 01:00:03,834 --> 01:00:05,434 You don't have that conversation piece, 1059 01:00:05,536 --> 01:00:06,902 except with yourself. 1060 01:00:07,004 --> 01:00:09,571 So it really does force you to search yourself 1061 01:00:09,673 --> 01:00:11,473 and try to figure things out. 1062 01:00:11,575 --> 01:00:12,741 So it wasn't that I had 1063 01:00:12,843 --> 01:00:13,976 a tremendous advantage in that sense. 1064 01:00:14,078 --> 01:00:17,879 It's just that I've been through the process before. 1065 01:00:17,982 --> 01:00:20,015 But what I found was the hardest part was that, 1066 01:00:20,117 --> 01:00:22,618 when I was in the military and separated from family, 1067 01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:24,720 I didn't have a choice. - Mm. 1068 01:00:24,822 --> 01:00:25,420 - It was an obligation and I was there. 1069 01:00:25,522 --> 01:00:27,823 I couldn't just go home. 1070 01:00:27,925 --> 01:00:29,825 And being out here, you had that freedom. 1071 01:00:29,927 --> 01:00:31,526 I had the opportunity to get on the radio 1072 01:00:31,629 --> 01:00:33,829 or the phone and say, "hey. 1073 01:00:33,931 --> 01:00:35,597 I'm gonna go back to where I'm comfortable." 1074 01:00:35,699 --> 01:00:37,633 so that was a challenge for me. 1075 01:00:37,735 --> 01:00:39,935 Almost completely convinced myself 1076 01:00:40,037 --> 01:00:44,339 that it was perfectly fine to tap out this morning. 1077 01:00:44,441 --> 01:00:45,974 What a weird day. 1078 01:00:46,076 --> 01:00:48,644 - There's a lot of long, dark nights in our shelters. 1079 01:00:48,746 --> 01:00:50,012 - The rainy days were the hardest. 1080 01:00:50,114 --> 01:00:53,382 You're in your thoughts and in your head most of it. 1081 01:00:53,484 --> 01:00:54,416 It was a struggle. 1082 01:00:54,518 --> 01:00:55,350 When you're out there, 1083 01:00:55,452 --> 01:00:56,718 you start to put things in perspective. 1084 01:00:56,820 --> 01:00:58,553 I know that if I talked to my wife, 1085 01:00:58,656 --> 01:00:59,821 she'd be like, "you're done." 1086 01:00:59,923 --> 01:01:02,924 my life's just always been this fast-paced 1087 01:01:03,027 --> 01:01:05,727 mission completion and stay focused on the tasks. 1088 01:01:05,829 --> 01:01:07,629 And I never really take time to pause 1089 01:01:07,731 --> 01:01:09,097 and think about what's going on. 1090 01:01:09,199 --> 01:01:12,000 You know, you just make quick decisions and try to adjust. 1091 01:01:12,102 --> 01:01:17,873 So this really slowed me down and let me take pause 1092 01:01:17,975 --> 01:01:19,841 and think about my life and what's going on. 1093 01:01:19,943 --> 01:01:21,877 - Nate, it was a real pleasure meeting you. 1094 01:01:21,979 --> 01:01:23,879 I learned so much from your journey out there. 1095 01:01:23,981 --> 01:01:26,214 Thanks for sharing it with us. All the best. 1096 01:01:26,316 --> 01:01:27,449 - Thanks. 1097 01:01:27,551 --> 01:01:29,151 - Man, it's freezing. 1098 01:01:29,253 --> 01:01:31,153 [bleep]. 1099 01:01:31,255 --> 01:01:33,522 ♪ ♪ 1100 01:01:33,624 --> 01:01:35,691 - I think I'd like to start 1101 01:01:35,793 --> 01:01:38,160 bringing rocks up for the fireplace. 1102 01:01:38,262 --> 01:01:39,261 ♪ ♪ 1103 01:01:39,363 --> 01:01:41,296 oh, [bleep]. 1104 01:01:41,398 --> 01:01:42,264 - Oh, [bleep]. 1105 01:01:42,366 --> 01:01:44,399 There are bear tracks right through camp. 1106 01:01:44,501 --> 01:01:45,767 That little bastard. 1107 01:01:45,869 --> 01:01:48,804 I have to be prepared to engage a bear. 1108 01:01:48,906 --> 01:01:51,640 - Oh, there he is. Right there. [bleep]. 1109 01:01:51,742 --> 01:01:53,809 Get out of here! [air horn blares] 1110 01:01:53,911 --> 01:01:56,178 there is a point that this is not worth it. 1111 01:01:56,280 --> 01:02:00,982 ♪ ♪