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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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- I don't plan to be here
for three weeks.
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I plan to be here
for three months.
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But I want a nice home
in which to live.
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Brilliant.
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- What am I gonna find out
about myself?
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That's the biggest thing,
is to see if I am the man
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that I think I am.
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Oh, yeah. That is a bull trout.
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- My boat is a high risk.
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This could be a decision
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that costs me
the whole experience.
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It's tippy as hell.
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Hey, bear!
[bear growls]
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- if I don't succeed,
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have I just put
a speed bump in life?
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Come on! Come on!
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[laughing]
yeah!
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Unbelievable!
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♪ ♪
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narrator: In "alone's"
most terrifying location yet,
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ten participants face
the deadliest predator
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in north america...
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- There here is, right there.
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- Grizzly bears. Hey, bear!
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- There's a lot
of grizzly here.
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I'm gonna have to live
with them.
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- Go on! Get!
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- Every second
we're on the land,
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we're being hunted.
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- Holy [bleep], mountain lion.
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- He's circling
around my shelter.
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Narrator:
Bone-chilling cold...
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- Winter is coming.
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- You combine the wind
with the rain and the cold,
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this place could make
the arctic look easy.
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- Oh, [bleep].
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Narrator:
And complete isolation.
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- You cannot hide
from yourself,
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mentally and emotionally.
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- Ahh!
- There's no place to go.
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- I am suffering
from loneliness.
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Narrator: Who will survive?
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- Yes! Yes!
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- This could be the end.
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- I don't want to tap,
but I don't want to die either.
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- You have to suffer
before you can succeed.
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- [retches]
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narrator:
The last one standing wins.
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- At what point
do I touch the button?
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- hmm, I'm gonna set that
over here
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'cause that'll definitely dry.
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Smoking the underwear
might not be all bad.
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One more try
at warming my butt up,
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and then I'll have
my cup of tea.
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All right.
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It's mostly my butt
that's cold.
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today is--it's a windy day.
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It's not a day
to think about fishing,
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so we will get back
to working on the shelter.
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Cool, so I guess the best
analogy for this, then,
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is that we've basically
framed the house,
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and now we get to shingle.
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We're gonna go around
and collect
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all of the big sheets of bark
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that are just lying
on the forest floor.
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all over is this fir.
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When it dies, it leaves
these big huge sheets of bark,
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which is pretty awesome.
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So when I say shingle,
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this is what I mean.
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- the one limitation that I've
probably most often run into
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in sort of these long-term
living situations
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would be my size,
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and it is an advantage
in the sense that, you know,
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you can function on a fairly
low number of calories,
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lower than perhaps
bigger people require.
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However, it does limit
how much you can carry,
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how many trips you need to do.
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You know,
you need to do five trips
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when someone else can do two.
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It limits how much
physical activity
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you can really knock out
in a day.
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these shingles
will have to overlap,
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but we start at the bottom
and go all the way around,
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and then we do
another layer halfway up,
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and then we put pine duff on
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to fill in
any of the fragments,
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provides a little bit
of insulation.
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there's so many reasons
I want to make a pit house.
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They are incredibly efficient
at keeping in heat,
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and I cannot play
fattest-man-wins game.
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I need a house where,
when I'm in it,
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no extra calories
are being burned
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because if you have
a lot of wind on your fire,
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it just eats through firewood.
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Oof.
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All right,
so if I sit on the stair,
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you can sort of see
the skylight and the interior.
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And then this is
our next big project:
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The fireplace and chimney.
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That's definitely in the cards,
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but that is a bloody fantastic
day's work.
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That's what that is.
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♪ ♪
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- here it comes.
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♪ ♪
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lovely.
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♪ ♪
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get some vitamin d released
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in this tiny patch of skin.
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♪ ♪
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it's amazing.
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I feel like I'm back in hawaii,
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yet a lot colder and windier.
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♪ ♪
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it's been five days since
I've had any meat at all,
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and I want to fish,
but the wind is relentless.
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I can't get my set lines
to stay out
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because the waves just
push them right back to shore.
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I need to get
my line out further,
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so I have an idea for a pier.
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The longest driftwoods
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that I see on my beach
are about 30 feet,
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so my plan is to build
something where I can
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just walk out at least 25 feet
and drop a line.
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That offers me potential
in bad weather.
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I can go out
on my pier anytime,
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and I need deep water
come winter
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because the fish
are gonna push off.
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They're not gonna stay
in the shallows.
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very nice.
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Nice for a pier-sized peg.
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♪ ♪
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I want to utilize engineering
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instead of just building
with logs
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and trying to tie that
together with cordage,
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so I want to put together
kind of a dovetail peg system.
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one done! I like it.
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Next!
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[as arnold schwarzenegger]
get to the chopper!
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[shouts as arnold]
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my son does a better
arnold impression.
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♪ ♪
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I have a wonderful family
of seven,
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my wife and five kids.
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When I'm successful
at this challenge
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and I get the money,
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we can set sail, literally.
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My wife has the idea
that we'll buy a boat
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and we'll hit the seas.
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That would be awesome.
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♪ ♪
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I reckon that's deep enough
to catch a fish.
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All right.
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I'll give you one guess
which way the wind's blowing.
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Let's straighten it out.
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Nope.
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It just comes right off
of those snow-covered
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glacier mountains.
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I'm debating on waiting
another day for the winds
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and waves to calm down
to set this.
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That's the logical thing to do.
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♪ ♪
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- can you see it behind me,
over my shoulder?
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I can't tell,
but it's back there.
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Right about here.
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Maybe here? No. Here.
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You can see my boat
in the background.
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Sweetness.
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♪ ♪
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I've been working
on building a boat.
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It's floating great,
seems pretty solid,
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but it's not stable.
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It's very tippy,
so I built outriggers
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so I have something
coming off the boat
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that gives stability.
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So it's another point
of contact on the water,
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so if you lean one way
or lean the other,
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you have now multiple holds
touching the water,
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and they give you kickback,
and they hold you up.
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All right.
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You ready
for the finished product?
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♪ ♪
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I built these outriggers
just like I built the boat,
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so I have a frame,
a fir frame,
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and I have ribs that are
of alder, green alder,
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and thankfully,
I had scrap tarp material
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to cover it with.
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Let's go get on the water.
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♪ ♪
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I think boats are a high-value
and a high-risk entity.
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It is very dangerous
to be out here,
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but if this works
and it's dependable and safe,
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I think
it's gonna give me an edge
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because I can get to places
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where the fish are migrating
or moving through,
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so I'm not just limited
to the bank.
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Oh!
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♪ ♪
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yeah!
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♪ ♪
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we're stable.
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We're cruising.
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Yes, yes, yes.
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♪ ♪
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whoo!
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♪ ♪
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yes, yes, yes, yes.
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♪ ♪
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big success.
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Love it.
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♪ ♪
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that was awesome.
I'm gonna enjoy this moment.
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I haven't showered
since I've been out here.
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I want to get in the water
so bad and clean myself.
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♪ ♪
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I love this lifestyle,
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living by the earth
and the land.
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Oof!
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The pride and the fulfillment
when things work,
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when your shelter works,
when your boat works,
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when your bow drill works.
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♪ ♪
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it gives you so much joy,
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and I want to keep living it.
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Whoo!
[laughs]
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♪ ♪
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oh, that's refreshing.
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♪ ♪
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oh.
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Holy, [bleep].
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There's a grizz
walking down the beach.
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♪ ♪
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hey, bear! No!
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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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- hey, bear!
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♪ ♪
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hey, bear!
[clapping]
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hey!
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He hasn't even stopped.
He's still walking this way.
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♪ ♪
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hey, bear! No!
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♪ ♪
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I can't believe
I'm [bleep] naked,
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and a bear is freaking
right there.
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I'm gonna have fire
some bangers.
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[popping]
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♪ ♪
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nothing.
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It's not good.
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Hey, bear! No!
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♪ ♪
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man, I just got my boat done,
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and I don't want him
to shred it.
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♪ ♪
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hey, bear!
270
00:13:52,232 --> 00:13:54,199
No!
271
00:13:54,301 --> 00:13:56,134
♪ ♪
272
00:13:56,236 --> 00:13:57,202
no!
273
00:13:57,304 --> 00:14:02,440
♪ ♪
274
00:14:02,542 --> 00:14:05,210
[bleep]. He's coming.
275
00:14:05,312 --> 00:14:09,214
[popping]
276
00:14:09,316 --> 00:14:15,153
♪ ♪
277
00:14:15,255 --> 00:14:18,289
come on.
278
00:14:18,391 --> 00:14:20,191
Get out of here.
279
00:14:20,293 --> 00:14:22,293
♪ ♪
280
00:14:22,395 --> 00:14:23,194
hey, bear! No!
281
00:14:23,296 --> 00:14:29,234
♪ ♪
282
00:14:29,336 --> 00:14:31,302
hey, bear!
283
00:14:31,404 --> 00:14:33,204
I'm over here!
284
00:14:33,306 --> 00:14:35,874
[claps]
285
00:14:35,976 --> 00:14:38,209
nothing I seem to do
seems to scare him off.
286
00:14:38,311 --> 00:14:40,245
♪ ♪
287
00:14:40,347 --> 00:14:42,247
hey, bear!
288
00:14:42,349 --> 00:14:45,183
[clapping]
289
00:14:45,285 --> 00:14:46,217
♪ ♪
290
00:14:46,319 --> 00:14:47,185
hey, bear!
291
00:14:47,287 --> 00:14:49,320
♪ ♪
292
00:14:49,422 --> 00:14:51,189
ah, [bleep]! Hey!
293
00:14:51,291 --> 00:14:53,191
[claps]
294
00:14:53,293 --> 00:14:55,226
♪ ♪
295
00:14:55,328 --> 00:14:58,162
hey, bear!
296
00:14:58,265 --> 00:14:59,197
Hello!
297
00:14:59,299 --> 00:15:01,199
♪ ♪
298
00:15:01,301 --> 00:15:05,003
[popping]
299
00:15:13,546 --> 00:15:16,014
I think he's out of here.
300
00:15:17,651 --> 00:15:20,985
Holy [bleep]. That was insane.
301
00:15:22,522 --> 00:15:27,191
I need to get clothes on.
302
00:15:27,294 --> 00:15:33,998
♪ ♪
303
00:15:40,941 --> 00:15:43,741
the bear encounter today
definitely got me
304
00:15:43,843 --> 00:15:45,209
taking it
a little more seriously.
305
00:15:45,312 --> 00:15:47,078
♪ ♪
306
00:15:47,180 --> 00:15:51,015
he didn't really care about me
yelling, throwing rocks.
307
00:15:51,117 --> 00:15:52,984
Even the bear bangers,
he was pretty indifferent.
308
00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:57,689
I'm in his territory,
and I'm the foreigner here,
309
00:15:57,791 --> 00:15:59,857
and he just put me
in my place.
310
00:15:59,960 --> 00:16:03,661
Literally, if it decided
for some reason--
311
00:16:03,763 --> 00:16:05,430
it was hungry,
it was stressed,
312
00:16:05,532 --> 00:16:06,564
it was distressed--
313
00:16:06,666 --> 00:16:07,665
there's nothing stopping it.
314
00:16:07,767 --> 00:16:10,401
If it wanted to
at that moment,
315
00:16:10,503 --> 00:16:12,003
your life is gone.
316
00:16:13,273 --> 00:16:20,011
♪ ♪
317
00:16:33,259 --> 00:16:33,992
- [sighs]
318
00:16:40,767 --> 00:16:43,768
no fish this morning,
but luckily,
319
00:16:43,870 --> 00:16:47,005
I've still got
plenty of smoked trout.
320
00:17:00,420 --> 00:17:03,521
Just look at that.
321
00:17:03,623 --> 00:17:06,524
All these nice, thin strips.
322
00:17:06,626 --> 00:17:08,993
It is so unbelievably good.
323
00:17:14,901 --> 00:17:17,001
It doesn't need any seasoning
or anything.
324
00:17:20,273 --> 00:17:26,878
♪ ♪
325
00:17:26,980 --> 00:17:31,983
I've never wired together
a stick door before.
326
00:17:32,685 --> 00:17:35,186
So it's all a little new to me.
327
00:17:35,288 --> 00:17:37,889
♪ ♪
328
00:17:37,991 --> 00:17:41,859
I've got a real cabin.
I want a real door.
329
00:17:41,961 --> 00:17:44,462
Psychologically,
I don't want to feel like
330
00:17:44,564 --> 00:17:46,197
I'm on a camping trip.
331
00:17:46,299 --> 00:17:47,799
Oh, yeah.
332
00:17:47,901 --> 00:17:49,801
I want someplace
that feels like home,
333
00:17:49,903 --> 00:17:52,737
something that has
permanence to it.
334
00:17:52,839 --> 00:17:55,473
I just feel like
it's gonna help me
335
00:17:55,575 --> 00:17:57,875
stick around long-term.
336
00:17:57,977 --> 00:18:02,580
Now I need to make some hinges
for the wall,
337
00:18:02,682 --> 00:18:04,715
which is not easy considering
338
00:18:04,818 --> 00:18:07,785
I don't have any way
to drill a hole,
339
00:18:07,887 --> 00:18:11,189
so I'm going to get
creative with that.
340
00:18:11,291 --> 00:18:13,024
♪ ♪
341
00:18:13,126 --> 00:18:16,794
in typical fashion,
I had not preplanned anything.
342
00:18:16,896 --> 00:18:19,197
I just know I want
a door on hinges.
343
00:18:19,299 --> 00:18:20,798
♪ ♪
344
00:18:20,900 --> 00:18:25,336
then I realized
that I could use my saw
345
00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:26,737
to cut a notch
346
00:18:26,840 --> 00:18:28,739
and continually widen
that notch
347
00:18:28,842 --> 00:18:30,608
to create
almost, like, a hole,
348
00:18:30,710 --> 00:18:34,345
but it would work for a hinge.
349
00:18:34,447 --> 00:18:36,013
It's like that?
350
00:18:42,989 --> 00:18:45,089
I was able to find
some alder branches around
351
00:18:45,191 --> 00:18:48,759
that have 90-degree bends
that I wired onto the door.
352
00:18:48,862 --> 00:18:51,796
Alder is very strong
for its size,
353
00:18:51,898 --> 00:18:53,564
and it has a little bit
of flex to it,
354
00:18:53,666 --> 00:18:56,200
so it's not going to break.
355
00:18:56,302 --> 00:18:57,535
♪ ♪
356
00:18:57,637 --> 00:19:00,004
it's not the most elegant...
357
00:19:03,443 --> 00:19:05,743
But I have a door.
358
00:19:05,845 --> 00:19:07,612
As I'm putting
all this together,
359
00:19:07,714 --> 00:19:10,681
I'm constantly thinking, like,
360
00:19:10,783 --> 00:19:12,783
"what if my wife
was out here?"
361
00:19:12,886 --> 00:19:14,852
well, she would want it
neat and clean,
362
00:19:14,954 --> 00:19:16,587
and she would want a place
to hang things.
363
00:19:16,689 --> 00:19:18,189
She would want something nice.
364
00:19:18,291 --> 00:19:19,757
♪ ♪
365
00:19:19,859 --> 00:19:22,193
all right.
I'm gonna make a door latch.
366
00:19:22,295 --> 00:19:24,695
♪ ♪
367
00:19:24,797 --> 00:19:26,998
I'm thinking
I can make a latch
368
00:19:27,100 --> 00:19:31,202
that will go in and turn
and lock behind the logs.
369
00:19:31,304 --> 00:19:38,176
♪ ♪
370
00:19:38,278 --> 00:19:40,278
yeah.
371
00:19:40,380 --> 00:19:42,013
There we go.
372
00:19:44,684 --> 00:19:46,717
Did I spend way too long on it?
373
00:19:46,819 --> 00:19:48,986
Absolutely I did,
but here is my door.
374
00:19:51,591 --> 00:19:53,257
Knock, knock. Can I come in?
375
00:19:53,359 --> 00:19:57,295
Okay. Cool.
376
00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:57,995
Look at that.
377
00:20:03,836 --> 00:20:06,204
It's actually
pretty [bleep] kickass.
378
00:20:06,306 --> 00:20:14,011
♪ ♪
379
00:20:22,722 --> 00:20:26,824
- it was about 10:00
last night.
380
00:20:26,926 --> 00:20:29,260
I don't know why I woke up,
for some reason.
381
00:20:29,362 --> 00:20:30,294
That's rare.
382
00:20:30,396 --> 00:20:33,364
But dead calm.
383
00:20:33,466 --> 00:20:35,866
No wind. No waves.
384
00:20:35,969 --> 00:20:40,004
It stayed that way all night
until about 6:30.
385
00:20:41,674 --> 00:20:43,608
And then it just
started blowing,
386
00:20:43,710 --> 00:20:44,742
and the waves started crashing,
387
00:20:44,844 --> 00:20:48,746
so I think we're just
gonna go for it.
388
00:20:48,848 --> 00:20:51,449
That means
we're putting the pier in,
389
00:20:51,551 --> 00:20:54,185
wind or waves be damned.
390
00:20:54,287 --> 00:21:01,158
♪ ♪
391
00:21:02,128 --> 00:21:05,896
I've got to get off
this shoreline to catch fish.
392
00:21:05,999 --> 00:21:09,667
I'm running down
on my last bit of body fat.
393
00:21:09,769 --> 00:21:11,035
If I get the pier planks
on it,
394
00:21:11,137 --> 00:21:13,671
that should be enough
to hold everything in place,
395
00:21:13,773 --> 00:21:15,439
and then I can
shimmy out there
396
00:21:15,541 --> 00:21:16,674
and set a set line.
397
00:21:16,776 --> 00:21:18,209
Then we'll start
catching fish.
398
00:21:18,311 --> 00:21:20,578
♪ ♪
399
00:21:20,680 --> 00:21:22,313
it's a 1,000 foot deep lake.
400
00:21:22,415 --> 00:21:23,814
Glacier-fed,
401
00:21:23,916 --> 00:21:26,183
so the temperature
is insanely cold.
402
00:21:26,286 --> 00:21:29,987
♪ ♪
403
00:21:38,264 --> 00:21:44,302
♪ ♪
404
00:21:44,404 --> 00:21:46,203
[exhales deeply]
405
00:21:46,306 --> 00:21:50,174
♪ ♪
406
00:21:50,276 --> 00:21:51,342
[grunts]
407
00:21:51,444 --> 00:21:53,210
[exhales sharply]
408
00:21:53,313 --> 00:21:55,146
♪ ♪
409
00:21:55,248 --> 00:21:57,248
oh.
410
00:21:57,350 --> 00:22:02,153
[grunting]
411
00:22:02,255 --> 00:22:03,187
[bleep].
412
00:22:03,289 --> 00:22:05,990
♪ ♪
413
00:22:10,396 --> 00:22:13,164
what the [bleep]?
414
00:22:13,266 --> 00:22:15,199
[bleep].
415
00:22:15,301 --> 00:22:22,006
♪ ♪
416
00:22:26,245 --> 00:22:27,211
damn.
417
00:22:27,313 --> 00:22:31,816
♪ ♪
418
00:22:31,918 --> 00:22:35,986
I made a mistake,
which led to a failure.
419
00:22:36,089 --> 00:22:40,491
Forgot to put that joist,
that little pressure joist,
420
00:22:40,593 --> 00:22:43,994
at the top of those leans,
421
00:22:44,097 --> 00:22:47,865
forcing the middle one tighter
so it wouldn't fall out.
422
00:22:47,967 --> 00:22:50,234
And it fell out.
I bumped it, and it fell out.
423
00:22:50,336 --> 00:22:52,570
I knew it.
424
00:22:52,672 --> 00:22:53,704
I picked it up, and I knew it,
425
00:22:53,806 --> 00:22:55,039
but I was already down
to nothing,
426
00:22:55,141 --> 00:22:58,209
so I forced it, and I should've
stopped, got dressed.
427
00:22:58,311 --> 00:23:00,277
♪ ♪
428
00:23:00,380 --> 00:23:01,212
it's silly.
429
00:23:01,314 --> 00:23:03,180
♪ ♪
430
00:23:03,282 --> 00:23:05,449
silly.
431
00:23:05,551 --> 00:23:06,851
I think the biggest fear
432
00:23:06,953 --> 00:23:09,920
we face, usually,
is the fear of failure,
433
00:23:10,022 --> 00:23:13,090
and I think that holds
a lot of people back.
434
00:23:13,192 --> 00:23:16,727
If you don't accept failure
as a part of your journey,
435
00:23:16,829 --> 00:23:18,462
then you'll never
find success.
436
00:23:18,564 --> 00:23:20,164
I appreciate the failure
437
00:23:20,266 --> 00:23:22,733
because that's the only lesson
you're actually gonna learn,
438
00:23:22,835 --> 00:23:24,402
and I know
how to handle failure,
439
00:23:24,504 --> 00:23:25,870
to be optimistic.
440
00:23:25,972 --> 00:23:28,672
Do you give up
after your first failure?
441
00:23:28,775 --> 00:23:30,207
I don't.
I don't give up at all.
442
00:23:30,309 --> 00:23:32,576
♪ ♪
443
00:23:32,678 --> 00:23:37,014
so I've got some work to do...
444
00:23:38,551 --> 00:23:42,186
Before I do that again.
445
00:23:42,288 --> 00:23:48,993
♪ ♪
446
00:24:05,478 --> 00:24:07,011
- I'll be so happy.
447
00:24:09,449 --> 00:24:11,015
I'll stay forever.
448
00:24:14,921 --> 00:24:17,688
Pretty much, if I have a bed
and a dry spot,
449
00:24:17,790 --> 00:24:20,691
I'm in general
pretty damned happy,
450
00:24:20,793 --> 00:24:23,527
so I'm gonna attempt
to make the bed.
451
00:24:23,629 --> 00:24:24,662
We'll start with the frame.
452
00:24:24,764 --> 00:24:28,532
This post is just
the right height.
453
00:24:28,634 --> 00:24:30,768
I'm gonna lash this all down
454
00:24:30,870 --> 00:24:32,203
so they don't move around
all the time.
455
00:24:32,305 --> 00:24:34,171
♪ ♪
456
00:24:34,273 --> 00:24:36,574
good.
457
00:24:36,676 --> 00:24:39,043
I have been in the outdoors,
458
00:24:39,145 --> 00:24:42,580
rather immersed in it,
from the time I was a child.
459
00:24:42,682 --> 00:24:43,681
I'm originally from wyoming,
460
00:24:43,783 --> 00:24:46,183
from a tiny town
called lander.
461
00:24:46,285 --> 00:24:47,918
♪ ♪
462
00:24:48,020 --> 00:24:50,554
so I'm sure that you have
noticed my accent
463
00:24:50,656 --> 00:24:52,890
is not exactly from wyoming.
464
00:24:52,992 --> 00:24:56,861
I have lived now in England
for 11 years,
465
00:24:56,963 --> 00:24:58,796
long enough to sound funny
in both places.
466
00:24:58,898 --> 00:25:00,998
I don't sound american
to americans.
467
00:25:01,100 --> 00:25:04,034
I do not sound british
to british people either.
468
00:25:04,136 --> 00:25:06,570
They're not quite sure
what I am or where I'm from,
469
00:25:06,672 --> 00:25:08,205
but it's not fooling anyone.
470
00:25:08,307 --> 00:25:09,907
♪ ♪
471
00:25:10,009 --> 00:25:14,044
everything is golden,
and then we cover the bed
472
00:25:14,146 --> 00:25:16,647
in grass and then pine boughs,
and then we have a bed.
473
00:25:16,749 --> 00:25:18,849
It's a usable bed
at this point.
474
00:25:18,951 --> 00:25:20,985
It just needs
the squishy bit put on now.
475
00:25:23,222 --> 00:25:24,989
Yeah.
476
00:25:28,261 --> 00:25:34,999
♪ ♪
477
00:25:40,473 --> 00:25:43,774
I feel--I feel odd.
478
00:25:43,876 --> 00:25:45,509
Actually, it's been
a really long time
479
00:25:45,611 --> 00:25:48,546
since I felt this feeling,
480
00:25:48,648 --> 00:25:51,682
but I think I'm potentially
481
00:25:51,784 --> 00:25:54,184
a little bit homesick
right now.
482
00:25:54,287 --> 00:25:55,853
♪ ♪
483
00:25:55,955 --> 00:25:59,657
and I'm not 100% sure,
for me, what that means.
484
00:25:59,759 --> 00:26:02,192
Like, what home
am I longing for?
485
00:26:02,295 --> 00:26:04,161
♪ ♪
486
00:26:04,263 --> 00:26:07,531
I need to, I think, acknowledge
the fact that I miss something
487
00:26:07,633 --> 00:26:12,469
from back in my other life,
488
00:26:12,572 --> 00:26:14,171
my life before "alone."
489
00:26:14,273 --> 00:26:17,441
[laughs]
490
00:26:17,543 --> 00:26:21,178
[humming soft melody]
491
00:26:21,280 --> 00:26:26,350
♪ ♪
492
00:26:26,452 --> 00:26:32,423
♪ I am just ♪
493
00:26:32,525 --> 00:26:37,461
♪ a lonely soul ♪
494
00:26:37,563 --> 00:26:42,466
♪ so where, I ask ♪
495
00:26:42,568 --> 00:26:47,237
♪ shall I call my ♪
496
00:26:47,340 --> 00:26:52,009
♪ home? ♪
497
00:26:56,315 --> 00:26:58,015
[chuckles]
498
00:27:05,391 --> 00:27:08,192
[dramatic music]
499
00:27:08,294 --> 00:27:14,999
♪ ♪
500
00:27:29,415 --> 00:27:31,215
- good morning.
501
00:27:31,317 --> 00:27:34,685
[yawns]
502
00:27:34,787 --> 00:27:37,655
I had some food dreams
last night.
503
00:27:37,757 --> 00:27:38,989
Oh, that's terrible.
This early?
504
00:27:41,193 --> 00:27:43,160
Ay.
505
00:27:43,262 --> 00:27:46,597
[scoffs]
506
00:27:46,699 --> 00:27:49,433
I was in a football tournament,
507
00:27:49,535 --> 00:27:52,002
and they had a room...
508
00:27:52,872 --> 00:27:55,172
That everybody could go to
and just...
509
00:27:55,274 --> 00:27:58,409
[laughs]
510
00:27:58,511 --> 00:28:01,145
eat all they wanted.
511
00:28:01,247 --> 00:28:04,014
Aww.
512
00:28:06,252 --> 00:28:08,552
[yawns]
513
00:28:08,654 --> 00:28:11,822
so I'm trying to block it out,
514
00:28:11,924 --> 00:28:15,192
try and get some food
of my own out here.
515
00:28:15,294 --> 00:28:20,531
♪ ♪
516
00:28:20,633 --> 00:28:21,832
mom told me before I left,
517
00:28:21,934 --> 00:28:23,834
the last thing was to look
at the moon,
518
00:28:23,936 --> 00:28:27,738
and know I'm looking
at the same thing.
519
00:28:27,840 --> 00:28:29,206
We'll be looking
at the same time.
520
00:28:29,308 --> 00:28:30,941
♪ ♪
521
00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:33,844
I really want to make
my mom and dad proud.
522
00:28:33,946 --> 00:28:35,479
They've always loved
and supported me.
523
00:28:35,581 --> 00:28:38,582
They're my biggest fans.
524
00:28:38,684 --> 00:28:40,184
I want to do well for them.
525
00:28:40,286 --> 00:28:42,186
♪ ♪
526
00:28:42,288 --> 00:28:44,788
oh, yeah.
527
00:28:44,890 --> 00:28:47,191
I've got a lot of faith
in this boat.
528
00:28:47,293 --> 00:28:49,927
♪ ♪
529
00:28:50,029 --> 00:28:53,764
this boat is amazing.
I love it. It's solid.
530
00:28:53,866 --> 00:28:56,767
The outriggers
are working perfect.
531
00:28:56,869 --> 00:28:59,470
I feel like
I can go anywhere now,
532
00:28:59,572 --> 00:29:01,205
so I'm gonna go for it.
533
00:29:01,307 --> 00:29:03,474
♪ ♪
534
00:29:03,576 --> 00:29:06,009
going for a white fish.
535
00:29:09,281 --> 00:29:14,985
♪ ♪
536
00:29:15,087 --> 00:29:18,989
my dad and I used to fish
bull trout in oregon.
537
00:29:21,961 --> 00:29:24,528
Spent a lot of hours
trolling with my dad,
538
00:29:24,630 --> 00:29:27,731
days and days of my life.
539
00:29:27,833 --> 00:29:28,999
I'd love to be trolling
with him.
540
00:29:33,339 --> 00:29:35,205
I got a hit.
541
00:29:35,307 --> 00:29:36,440
♪ ♪
542
00:29:36,542 --> 00:29:40,210
fish today, baby. Fish today.
Come on, fish. Let's do it.
543
00:29:40,312 --> 00:29:41,745
♪ ♪
544
00:29:41,847 --> 00:29:45,315
holy [bleep].
I might have done it.
545
00:29:45,417 --> 00:29:47,184
Yes! Yes, yes!
546
00:29:47,286 --> 00:29:49,419
♪ ♪
547
00:29:49,522 --> 00:29:51,989
dang it! [bleep]! Ah!
548
00:29:58,364 --> 00:30:02,199
Ahh! So close.
549
00:30:02,301 --> 00:30:07,004
♪ ♪
550
00:30:09,275 --> 00:30:10,908
♪ ♪
551
00:30:11,010 --> 00:30:13,677
my dad is what got me
into this lifestyle.
552
00:30:13,779 --> 00:30:14,344
He introduced me
at a young age
553
00:30:14,446 --> 00:30:15,579
to the outdoors,
554
00:30:15,681 --> 00:30:17,881
into hunting, into fishing,
555
00:30:17,983 --> 00:30:20,584
eating wild game,
being outdoors, camping.
556
00:30:20,686 --> 00:30:24,822
And I loved it. This is life!
557
00:30:24,924 --> 00:30:27,825
I've been out here
for at least three hours.
558
00:30:27,927 --> 00:30:31,195
I've had four bites,
no hook-ups, no fish.
559
00:30:31,297 --> 00:30:32,930
♪ ♪
560
00:30:33,032 --> 00:30:35,766
I connect with my body
through this lifestyle.
561
00:30:35,868 --> 00:30:37,768
I connect with my mind
and my heart
562
00:30:37,870 --> 00:30:40,537
more than any other
living situation
563
00:30:40,639 --> 00:30:41,205
I've ever had in my life.
564
00:30:41,307 --> 00:30:42,940
♪ ♪
565
00:30:43,042 --> 00:30:47,010
it's physically, emotionally,
intellectually,
566
00:30:47,112 --> 00:30:50,013
socially more stimulating
than the alternative.
567
00:31:13,272 --> 00:31:15,706
♪ ♪
568
00:31:15,808 --> 00:31:20,210
yes!
It came off right in the boat.
569
00:31:20,312 --> 00:31:22,145
Ha, ha!
570
00:31:22,248 --> 00:31:23,747
Hey.
571
00:31:23,849 --> 00:31:27,184
Hey, I'll take it.
I'll take it. Yes!
572
00:31:27,286 --> 00:31:28,385
♪ ♪
573
00:31:28,487 --> 00:31:30,520
oh, thank you, fish.
574
00:31:30,623 --> 00:31:32,189
God, I needed a fish today.
575
00:31:32,291 --> 00:31:35,425
♪ ♪
576
00:31:35,527 --> 00:31:37,194
I needed a fish today.
577
00:31:37,296 --> 00:31:39,863
♪ ♪
578
00:31:39,965 --> 00:31:43,033
I am gonna invest
all in right now on fish
579
00:31:43,135 --> 00:31:44,735
because I think that's
the best use of my calories.
580
00:31:44,837 --> 00:31:46,370
That's the best use
of my time.
581
00:31:46,472 --> 00:31:50,173
I'm gonna go fish.
582
00:31:50,276 --> 00:31:52,209
All right, just need to catch
one a day for the next 80 days.
583
00:31:52,311 --> 00:31:53,911
♪ ♪
584
00:31:54,013 --> 00:31:56,747
this boat is not gonna have
a single focus.
585
00:31:56,849 --> 00:31:57,748
I am gonna troll
out of this boat.
586
00:31:57,850 --> 00:31:59,750
I'm gonna jig
out of this boat.
587
00:31:59,852 --> 00:32:00,884
I'm gonna anchor up
in this boat.
588
00:32:00,986 --> 00:32:03,387
I'm gonna set fish traps
at 20 feet, 30 feet,
589
00:32:03,489 --> 00:32:04,888
50 feet, 100 feet.
590
00:32:04,990 --> 00:32:06,990
I'm gonna spend
a lot of time in this boat.
591
00:32:08,527 --> 00:32:10,193
Let's go eat some fish.
592
00:32:10,296 --> 00:32:18,001
♪ ♪
593
00:32:22,675 --> 00:32:26,443
- I've heard what a great smoke
594
00:32:26,545 --> 00:32:29,012
this kinnikinnick is.
595
00:32:29,481 --> 00:32:31,715
And I don't smoke,
596
00:32:31,817 --> 00:32:34,918
but I figured
I'd give it a shot,
597
00:32:35,020 --> 00:32:39,556
so I'm gonna take
this random piece of driftwood,
598
00:32:39,658 --> 00:32:41,792
and I'm just gonna make a pipe
599
00:32:41,894 --> 00:32:44,928
or attempt to make
a little pipe out of it,
600
00:32:45,030 --> 00:32:48,332
and I've got two cameras
just in case I cut myself.
601
00:32:48,434 --> 00:32:50,200
Double the fun.
602
00:32:50,302 --> 00:32:51,835
♪ ♪
603
00:32:51,937 --> 00:32:54,471
mentally,
the biggest strategy for me
604
00:32:54,573 --> 00:32:55,939
is keep my hands busy,
605
00:32:56,041 --> 00:32:59,810
keep building things,
keep working on things,
606
00:32:59,912 --> 00:33:01,812
and that will keep
my mind distracted
607
00:33:01,914 --> 00:33:04,214
away from what's going on
back home.
608
00:33:04,316 --> 00:33:05,682
♪ ♪
609
00:33:05,784 --> 00:33:08,485
I guess I got to bore down
a hole
610
00:33:08,587 --> 00:33:13,190
with which to put tobaccy.
611
00:33:13,292 --> 00:33:15,859
♪ ♪
612
00:33:15,961 --> 00:33:19,429
there's probably better options
than to stab
613
00:33:19,531 --> 00:33:21,198
right through my quad.
614
00:33:21,300 --> 00:33:23,100
♪ ♪
615
00:33:23,202 --> 00:33:26,870
I have to not allow myself
to think about those things
616
00:33:26,972 --> 00:33:29,973
because if I think
about my wife and my son
617
00:33:30,075 --> 00:33:33,777
and make that the pinnacle
of why I'm out here
618
00:33:33,879 --> 00:33:37,814
and really push
to succeed for them,
619
00:33:37,916 --> 00:33:40,450
then my constant thoughts
about them
620
00:33:40,552 --> 00:33:42,753
will make me miss them
621
00:33:42,855 --> 00:33:45,422
and will distract me
from surviving.
622
00:33:45,524 --> 00:33:47,924
Not a bad little pipe.
623
00:33:48,027 --> 00:33:50,994
Let's get that kinnikinnick out
and pack it up.
624
00:33:51,663 --> 00:33:54,598
I need to be mentally strong
625
00:33:54,700 --> 00:33:57,834
because I have been presented
626
00:33:57,936 --> 00:34:01,405
with a once-in-a-lifetime
opportunity.
627
00:34:01,507 --> 00:34:02,439
It's pretty crumbly.
628
00:34:02,541 --> 00:34:04,007
And if I don't win,
629
00:34:04,109 --> 00:34:06,743
I feel like I'd be doing
a disservice to my family.
630
00:34:06,845 --> 00:34:11,615
That $1/2 million
would allow me
631
00:34:11,717 --> 00:34:13,517
to pay off
all of our bills
632
00:34:13,619 --> 00:34:15,185
and have money left over.
633
00:34:15,287 --> 00:34:16,820
♪ ♪
634
00:34:16,922 --> 00:34:19,790
that would allow me
to work even less
635
00:34:19,892 --> 00:34:22,192
and spend even more time
with my family.
636
00:34:22,294 --> 00:34:26,997
♪ ♪
637
00:34:32,404 --> 00:34:35,138
that's not bad.
638
00:34:35,240 --> 00:34:37,007
Huh!
639
00:34:41,580 --> 00:34:45,015
All right. What's up next?
640
00:34:47,252 --> 00:34:54,991
♪ ♪
641
00:35:07,506 --> 00:35:09,306
[squirrel chittering]
642
00:35:09,408 --> 00:35:11,608
- there he is.
643
00:35:11,710 --> 00:35:15,011
[mimicking squirrel chittering]
644
00:35:17,483 --> 00:35:19,516
[squirrel chitters]
645
00:35:19,618 --> 00:35:20,984
we say hello every morning.
646
00:35:24,223 --> 00:35:24,988
So...
647
00:35:29,928 --> 00:35:32,963
If you believe
that you can talk to animals,
648
00:35:33,065 --> 00:35:37,334
meaning communicate your
thought energy in your sound
649
00:35:37,436 --> 00:35:40,737
or in your voice,
650
00:35:40,839 --> 00:35:43,406
do you think
that if you mean no harm,
651
00:35:43,509 --> 00:35:44,474
they can read that?
652
00:35:44,576 --> 00:35:47,911
I'd like to believe so.
653
00:35:48,013 --> 00:35:50,447
I'd like to believe
I'm sending good vibes out
654
00:35:50,549 --> 00:35:53,183
to the local wildlife.
655
00:35:54,219 --> 00:35:56,753
Unfortunately, the vibes that
I'm sending out to the grouse
656
00:35:56,855 --> 00:36:00,056
and the hare is
that I want to eat them,
657
00:36:00,159 --> 00:36:02,993
and therefore, they're like,
"I'm gonna avoid that man."
658
00:36:04,196 --> 00:36:07,497
I tried asking the eagle this
morning to bring me a fish,
659
00:36:07,599 --> 00:36:09,199
but he didn't turn around.
660
00:36:09,301 --> 00:36:16,006
♪ ♪
661
00:36:43,268 --> 00:36:49,339
♪ ♪
662
00:36:49,441 --> 00:36:51,441
I have an idea.
663
00:36:51,543 --> 00:36:52,876
For pier number one,
664
00:36:52,978 --> 00:36:55,879
I chose just to block it
like lincoln logs
665
00:36:55,981 --> 00:36:58,815
and then put a middle brace
between it,
666
00:36:58,917 --> 00:37:01,551
but I realized
that was my fail point,
667
00:37:01,653 --> 00:37:04,454
and my initial h is pegged.
668
00:37:04,556 --> 00:37:05,922
It's fantastic, solid,
669
00:37:06,024 --> 00:37:10,193
so I decide to peg
my supports into the main.
670
00:37:10,295 --> 00:37:12,028
♪ ♪
671
00:37:12,130 --> 00:37:16,766
we're on mission set
right now, which is find food.
672
00:37:16,868 --> 00:37:18,802
So do everything we can
to get food,
673
00:37:18,904 --> 00:37:22,205
and that includes
beat the elements.
674
00:37:22,307 --> 00:37:25,442
♪ ♪
675
00:37:25,544 --> 00:37:27,210
all right. It's time.
676
00:37:27,312 --> 00:37:34,985
♪ ♪
677
00:37:44,296 --> 00:37:46,196
beautiful.
678
00:37:46,298 --> 00:37:49,466
♪ ♪
679
00:37:49,568 --> 00:37:50,800
when you're in the wild
680
00:37:50,902 --> 00:37:52,802
and you're in
a survival situation,
681
00:37:52,904 --> 00:37:54,871
if you don't have the ability
to pivot
682
00:37:54,973 --> 00:37:58,608
when things don't go
the way you planned,
683
00:37:58,710 --> 00:37:59,943
then it's gonna be a struggle,
684
00:38:00,045 --> 00:38:02,345
and that's where I think
creative problem-solving
685
00:38:02,447 --> 00:38:04,214
comes into play.
686
00:38:04,316 --> 00:38:06,783
♪ ♪
687
00:38:06,885 --> 00:38:09,586
this is a huge
stepping-stone for me,
688
00:38:09,688 --> 00:38:11,788
to be able to walk out 25 feet
689
00:38:11,890 --> 00:38:14,724
because I know
there's gonna be fish.
690
00:38:14,826 --> 00:38:16,192
This is where
I start thriving.
691
00:38:16,295 --> 00:38:19,162
♪ ♪
692
00:38:19,264 --> 00:38:23,166
oh, wow.
693
00:38:23,268 --> 00:38:24,000
Awesome.
694
00:38:28,407 --> 00:38:31,207
[dramatic music]
695
00:38:31,310 --> 00:38:38,014
♪ ♪
696
00:38:55,300 --> 00:38:58,601
- seaweed.
697
00:38:58,704 --> 00:39:01,004
I'll start small, just eat one.
698
00:39:05,210 --> 00:39:08,311
Hmm.
699
00:39:08,413 --> 00:39:10,013
It's crunchy.
700
00:39:17,756 --> 00:39:21,591
Yeah, it doesn't taste good.
Mm-mm.
701
00:39:21,693 --> 00:39:24,194
It's time to get back to work.
702
00:39:24,296 --> 00:39:25,729
♪ ♪
703
00:39:25,831 --> 00:39:28,798
I'm having
zero success fishing.
704
00:39:28,900 --> 00:39:30,767
I need to really finish
the fish basket.
705
00:39:30,869 --> 00:39:34,070
Since I can't catch
a larger trout,
706
00:39:34,172 --> 00:39:37,073
I can hopefully get some
smaller fish with this basket
707
00:39:37,175 --> 00:39:39,976
and maybe cook those up
and make a stew out of those.
708
00:39:40,078 --> 00:39:42,612
I'm gonna wrap this
with cordage just to make sure
709
00:39:42,714 --> 00:39:46,583
it stays the shape that I want.
710
00:39:46,685 --> 00:39:48,852
A fish basket has two baskets,
711
00:39:48,954 --> 00:39:50,954
a smaller basket
inside of a larger basket.
712
00:39:51,056 --> 00:39:54,858
It's a cone shape,
and once they swim into it,
713
00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:55,725
they can't figure out
how to turn around
714
00:39:55,827 --> 00:39:57,394
and swim back out
the same hole
715
00:39:57,496 --> 00:39:58,862
that they came in.
716
00:39:58,964 --> 00:40:00,730
Yeah, I think that's gonna be
all right there.
717
00:40:00,832 --> 00:40:02,932
I'm not really
that far into it,
718
00:40:03,034 --> 00:40:04,567
and I've already lost
quite a bit of weight,
719
00:40:04,669 --> 00:40:06,903
so I have to get some food.
720
00:40:07,005 --> 00:40:10,840
I have to find a better way
to get a fish.
721
00:40:10,942 --> 00:40:13,777
This lake is just
extremely difficult.
722
00:40:13,879 --> 00:40:15,478
I can't get my line
out far enough.
723
00:40:15,580 --> 00:40:17,480
My lures aren't working.
724
00:40:17,582 --> 00:40:18,915
I have to get food soon.
725
00:40:19,017 --> 00:40:23,153
If I don't,
I can't keep enough weight on.
726
00:40:24,156 --> 00:40:26,856
There's so much I wanted to do
and make while I was here,
727
00:40:26,958 --> 00:40:30,460
but I feel like I'm forced
to get things done
728
00:40:30,562 --> 00:40:32,195
so that I can get food.
729
00:40:32,297 --> 00:40:38,468
♪ ♪
730
00:40:38,570 --> 00:40:39,736
I knew coming in here
731
00:40:39,838 --> 00:40:42,071
that I move so fast
through life
732
00:40:42,174 --> 00:40:45,842
that my thoughts don't really
get to catch up with me.
733
00:40:45,944 --> 00:40:47,210
Ah, it's gonna have
to have a rock on it.
734
00:40:47,312 --> 00:40:48,878
♪ ♪
735
00:40:48,980 --> 00:40:52,449
I think that if you want
to clear your mind
736
00:40:52,551 --> 00:40:54,017
and sort things out,
737
00:40:54,119 --> 00:40:57,187
the wilderness is definitely
the place to do that.
738
00:40:57,289 --> 00:40:58,788
♪ ♪
739
00:40:58,890 --> 00:41:00,190
I need to it to be
out there way farther.
740
00:41:00,292 --> 00:41:01,858
♪ ♪
741
00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:04,761
all I keep thinking about
is my family.
742
00:41:04,863 --> 00:41:07,597
My children are
so worried about me.
743
00:41:07,699 --> 00:41:10,033
It's like they're my parents.
744
00:41:10,135 --> 00:41:12,802
I think because of the things
that I went through,
745
00:41:12,904 --> 00:41:14,904
been through a lot of ups
and downs
746
00:41:15,006 --> 00:41:18,041
and some very rough
situations in my life,
747
00:41:18,143 --> 00:41:20,810
and I think they just don't
want to see me get hurt,
748
00:41:20,912 --> 00:41:23,480
but all of those
different situations,
749
00:41:23,582 --> 00:41:24,747
I just learned to adapt.
750
00:41:24,850 --> 00:41:29,185
Okay, the fish basket
is submerged.
751
00:41:29,287 --> 00:41:30,420
♪ ♪
752
00:41:30,522 --> 00:41:32,789
I'm very resilient.
753
00:41:32,891 --> 00:41:34,123
Nothing is gonna
knock me off my path.
754
00:41:34,226 --> 00:41:36,993
I'm just gonna pick myself up,
and I'm gonna keep going.
755
00:41:37,095 --> 00:41:39,996
And I always come back
even stronger than I was.
756
00:41:41,366 --> 00:41:41,998
[stomach growls]
757
00:41:45,270 --> 00:41:52,008
♪ ♪
758
00:42:12,097 --> 00:42:14,998
- that's the benefit to having
a mustache like a walrus.
759
00:42:16,868 --> 00:42:19,002
It filters everything
out of your water.
760
00:42:19,504 --> 00:42:21,004
All the large stuff.
761
00:42:24,776 --> 00:42:27,010
The only problem
is kissing the wife.
762
00:42:31,983 --> 00:42:33,983
Maybe I'll shave my beard off
when I go home.
763
00:42:37,255 --> 00:42:43,993
♪ ♪
764
00:42:48,667 --> 00:42:49,999
let's go see if there's a fish.
765
00:42:57,676 --> 00:43:01,210
Oh, my god. Think I got a fish!
766
00:43:01,313 --> 00:43:03,313
♪ ♪
767
00:43:03,415 --> 00:43:05,014
look at that.
768
00:43:11,256 --> 00:43:18,261
♪ ♪
769
00:43:18,363 --> 00:43:20,196
easy, fella.
770
00:43:20,298 --> 00:43:22,332
♪ ♪
771
00:43:22,434 --> 00:43:23,199
that's a rainbow.
772
00:43:23,301 --> 00:43:25,301
♪ ♪
773
00:43:25,403 --> 00:43:27,737
rainbow trout.
774
00:43:27,839 --> 00:43:31,207
It's promising.
That's what that is.
775
00:43:31,309 --> 00:43:38,014
♪ ♪
776
00:43:40,719 --> 00:43:43,853
cooking up
this tiny little guy.
777
00:43:43,955 --> 00:43:46,189
So we're gonna eat
every single piece of him,
778
00:43:46,291 --> 00:43:48,191
for sure.
779
00:43:48,293 --> 00:43:50,259
♪ ♪
780
00:43:50,362 --> 00:43:51,194
I'm excited.
781
00:43:51,296 --> 00:43:53,863
♪ ♪
782
00:43:53,965 --> 00:43:56,165
it's not gonna take much
to get this guy done.
783
00:43:56,267 --> 00:43:59,235
♪ ♪
784
00:43:59,337 --> 00:44:01,204
wonderful.
785
00:44:01,306 --> 00:44:06,376
♪ ♪
786
00:44:06,478 --> 00:44:08,211
that was his tail.
787
00:44:08,313 --> 00:44:14,984
♪ ♪
788
00:44:16,254 --> 00:44:18,254
told you.
789
00:44:18,356 --> 00:44:19,188
Every piece.
790
00:44:19,290 --> 00:44:22,558
♪ ♪
791
00:44:22,661 --> 00:44:24,861
all the way down to the lips.
792
00:44:24,963 --> 00:44:27,964
I know who I am,
and I don't have any doubt
793
00:44:28,066 --> 00:44:32,135
about my capability
to succeed in a challenge.
794
00:44:32,237 --> 00:44:34,537
Wow.
795
00:44:34,639 --> 00:44:37,106
That was a fast, fast meal.
796
00:44:37,208 --> 00:44:41,177
I'm just an out-of-the-box
thinker and problem-solver.
797
00:44:41,279 --> 00:44:43,846
Perfect.
798
00:44:43,948 --> 00:44:47,150
And I'll figure out
a way to succeed,
799
00:44:47,252 --> 00:44:50,987
and I don't have that quit
in me when there's a struggle.
800
00:44:57,395 --> 00:45:00,196
[dramatic music]
801
00:45:00,298 --> 00:45:07,003
♪ ♪
802
00:45:17,415 --> 00:45:18,715
[insect buzzes]
803
00:45:18,817 --> 00:45:21,551
- oh, yeah,
bug right in the eye,
804
00:45:21,653 --> 00:45:23,119
right when I'm about to talk.
805
00:45:23,221 --> 00:45:23,986
Mm.
806
00:45:25,924 --> 00:45:28,524
While I'm waiting
for my boiled water to cool,
807
00:45:28,626 --> 00:45:30,693
I'm gonna put the one final
808
00:45:30,795 --> 00:45:33,663
most important touch
on the cabin,
809
00:45:33,765 --> 00:45:36,199
and that is
our family initials.
810
00:45:36,301 --> 00:45:38,801
♪ ♪
811
00:45:38,903 --> 00:45:42,271
so I'm gonna put that
on the ridge beam,
812
00:45:42,373 --> 00:45:44,207
j, j, o, a.
813
00:45:44,309 --> 00:45:46,542
♪ ♪
814
00:45:46,644 --> 00:45:48,811
we put that on everything.
815
00:45:48,913 --> 00:45:50,780
That's inscribed
on our wedding bands.
816
00:45:50,882 --> 00:45:54,183
My wife inscribed it
on my ax handle.
817
00:45:54,285 --> 00:45:55,418
♪ ♪
818
00:45:55,520 --> 00:45:57,687
it's on everything.
819
00:45:57,789 --> 00:46:02,225
Now the o is going to be
the fun one,
820
00:46:02,327 --> 00:46:04,193
all curve.
821
00:46:04,295 --> 00:46:07,296
♪ ♪
822
00:46:07,398 --> 00:46:08,197
that's better.
823
00:46:08,299 --> 00:46:13,503
♪ ♪
824
00:46:13,605 --> 00:46:16,005
now the cabin is complete.
825
00:46:17,575 --> 00:46:20,443
Julia, jordon, odin, aura,
826
00:46:20,545 --> 00:46:21,644
the initials of my wife,
827
00:46:21,746 --> 00:46:25,014
myself, my son,
and my daughter.
828
00:46:27,252 --> 00:46:31,187
♪ ♪
829
00:46:31,289 --> 00:46:34,190
[sighs]
830
00:46:34,292 --> 00:46:37,994
♪ ♪
831
00:46:44,502 --> 00:46:47,570
I just had a moment
832
00:46:47,672 --> 00:46:49,405
thinking about my daughter,
833
00:46:49,507 --> 00:46:53,342
and it gets easier
834
00:46:53,444 --> 00:46:55,344
as time goes on,
835
00:46:55,446 --> 00:46:59,749
but I still have
836
00:46:59,851 --> 00:47:03,186
waves of grief
that come over me.
837
00:47:03,288 --> 00:47:08,991
♪ ♪
838
00:47:11,663 --> 00:47:14,564
now, I'm a very private person.
839
00:47:14,666 --> 00:47:17,033
I don't have a lot of friends.
840
00:47:17,135 --> 00:47:20,403
I don't talk to a lot of people
about personal things,
841
00:47:20,505 --> 00:47:23,773
and very few people
842
00:47:23,875 --> 00:47:29,011
know the details
of what I'm about to say.
843
00:47:35,854 --> 00:47:38,754
My daughter was born
with a heart defect,
844
00:47:38,857 --> 00:47:40,756
and by the time
she was two weeks old,
845
00:47:40,859 --> 00:47:44,527
she had had two
open heart surgeries.
846
00:47:44,629 --> 00:47:46,696
When she was six months old,
847
00:47:46,798 --> 00:47:48,531
she had another
open heart surgery
848
00:47:48,633 --> 00:47:51,734
that lasted over ten hours,
849
00:47:51,836 --> 00:47:54,570
and every six months
after that,
850
00:47:54,672 --> 00:47:56,806
she had catheter procedures
851
00:47:56,908 --> 00:47:59,008
where they would balloon
her arteries.
852
00:48:00,144 --> 00:48:04,680
Her long-term prognosis
was good through childhood,
853
00:48:04,782 --> 00:48:09,452
and yet
we unexpectedly lost her
854
00:48:09,554 --> 00:48:11,187
before she turned four.
855
00:48:11,289 --> 00:48:13,522
♪ ♪
856
00:48:13,625 --> 00:48:17,293
but the most painful things
857
00:48:17,395 --> 00:48:18,461
to deal with,
858
00:48:18,563 --> 00:48:21,297
the most painful memory
859
00:48:21,399 --> 00:48:25,334
are the echoes
860
00:48:25,436 --> 00:48:27,470
of the good times
861
00:48:27,572 --> 00:48:29,205
that are no longer there.
862
00:48:29,307 --> 00:48:30,439
♪ ♪
863
00:48:30,541 --> 00:48:32,708
it wasn't her passing.
864
00:48:32,810 --> 00:48:35,912
It wasn't the trauma
of surgeries.
865
00:48:36,014 --> 00:48:38,214
It was the good times
that are no longer there.
866
00:48:38,316 --> 00:48:39,548
♪ ♪
867
00:48:39,651 --> 00:48:43,319
she was the most dynamic,
868
00:48:43,421 --> 00:48:44,553
most vibrant,
869
00:48:44,656 --> 00:48:48,457
most amazing spark of light
870
00:48:48,559 --> 00:48:51,193
that you could imagine.
871
00:48:51,296 --> 00:48:52,561
♪ ♪
872
00:48:52,664 --> 00:48:53,696
that is the most private part,
873
00:48:53,798 --> 00:48:56,198
the most intimate detail
of who I am.
874
00:48:56,301 --> 00:49:00,569
♪ ♪
875
00:49:00,672 --> 00:49:05,207
and I'm willing to sit here...
876
00:49:05,310 --> 00:49:08,477
♪ ♪
877
00:49:08,579 --> 00:49:12,515
and tell it to a camera
878
00:49:12,617 --> 00:49:15,184
to be seen by who knows...
879
00:49:15,286 --> 00:49:17,753
♪ ♪
880
00:49:17,855 --> 00:49:22,258
because that little girl
was that magical,
881
00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:25,294
that special
882
00:49:25,396 --> 00:49:28,764
that her tale
883
00:49:28,866 --> 00:49:32,201
should be known
throughout the world.
884
00:49:32,303 --> 00:49:36,572
♪ ♪
885
00:49:36,674 --> 00:49:38,207
she was our little wildflower.
886
00:49:38,309 --> 00:49:40,443
♪ ♪
887
00:49:40,545 --> 00:49:42,211
she bloomed so bright.
888
00:49:42,313 --> 00:49:44,280
♪ ♪
889
00:49:44,382 --> 00:49:46,015
so vibrant.
890
00:49:49,854 --> 00:49:52,989
And then spring was gone,
and so was she.
891
00:49:59,397 --> 00:50:00,997
I love you, aura.
892
00:50:18,416 --> 00:50:21,183
[dramatic music]
893
00:50:21,285 --> 00:50:27,990
♪ ♪
894
00:50:34,999 --> 00:50:37,199
- checked my fish basket out.
Nothing in it.
895
00:50:37,301 --> 00:50:38,768
♪ ♪
896
00:50:38,870 --> 00:50:41,003
so I'm just gonna
throw it back out there.
897
00:50:59,323 --> 00:51:00,990
Interesting.
898
00:51:06,931 --> 00:51:08,397
Apparently, every day,
we're gonna do something
899
00:51:08,499 --> 00:51:09,999
a little different.
900
00:51:12,336 --> 00:51:14,003
There we go.
901
00:51:16,307 --> 00:51:18,207
All right.
902
00:51:18,309 --> 00:51:20,109
♪ ♪
903
00:51:20,211 --> 00:51:22,878
I think fish basket would be
more successful in, like,
904
00:51:22,980 --> 00:51:26,015
a pond or, like,
my little creeks at home.
905
00:51:27,652 --> 00:51:28,984
This giant lake, I don't know.
906
00:51:30,021 --> 00:51:33,422
But there's one thing
that is certain for me,
907
00:51:33,524 --> 00:51:35,724
and that is berries,
908
00:51:35,827 --> 00:51:36,992
and they're gonna be
going away.
909
00:51:37,895 --> 00:51:40,563
I can notice every day
that they are,
910
00:51:40,665 --> 00:51:41,764
but I really need to make sure
911
00:51:41,866 --> 00:51:44,733
that I'm getting
as many of these as I can
912
00:51:44,836 --> 00:51:47,470
because it's really
what's keeping me
913
00:51:47,572 --> 00:51:48,904
fed most of the day now.
914
00:51:49,006 --> 00:51:51,340
You can see that
they're starting to fall off
915
00:51:51,442 --> 00:51:52,875
onto the ground,
916
00:51:52,977 --> 00:51:55,211
and then some are drying up
at the top.
917
00:51:55,313 --> 00:51:57,079
♪ ♪
918
00:51:57,181 --> 00:52:00,883
it's funny how some people
need to have other people
919
00:52:00,985 --> 00:52:04,186
in their life
or it affects them terribly.
920
00:52:04,288 --> 00:52:05,788
♪ ♪
921
00:52:05,890 --> 00:52:09,191
and other people
can exist without it.
922
00:52:09,293 --> 00:52:10,593
♪ ♪
923
00:52:10,695 --> 00:52:12,895
they're starting to turn black.
924
00:52:12,997 --> 00:52:15,798
I think for most of my life
I've felt alone
925
00:52:15,900 --> 00:52:18,467
because most of the people
in my life
926
00:52:18,569 --> 00:52:20,002
had always left anyways.
927
00:52:21,906 --> 00:52:25,207
Like, my marriage,
he was never there.
928
00:52:25,309 --> 00:52:28,010
He was always running off and
doing things with his friends
929
00:52:28,112 --> 00:52:31,280
and wanted me to basically
take care of everything,
930
00:52:31,382 --> 00:52:32,948
so I did.
931
00:52:33,050 --> 00:52:36,852
That was no fun
because I worked all the time.
932
00:52:36,954 --> 00:52:38,387
I had to 'cause he wanted
this giant life,
933
00:52:38,489 --> 00:52:40,556
and so I built it.
934
00:52:40,658 --> 00:52:42,958
And when the kids moved out,
935
00:52:43,060 --> 00:52:44,994
he decided he didn't want
to be there either.
936
00:52:48,933 --> 00:52:52,201
And make me able to deal
with being alone.
937
00:52:52,303 --> 00:52:53,469
♪ ♪
938
00:52:53,571 --> 00:52:55,738
I function okay alone.
939
00:52:55,840 --> 00:52:57,740
Well, I got a half a can,
thankfully.
940
00:52:57,842 --> 00:53:01,210
So that's not bad
for one little spot.
941
00:53:01,312 --> 00:53:03,112
♪ ♪
942
00:53:03,214 --> 00:53:07,816
that's just what I need to do
all the time now, every day.
943
00:53:07,919 --> 00:53:11,654
I need to make sure
that I'm doing something
944
00:53:11,756 --> 00:53:15,991
to prepare
for the upcoming days.
945
00:53:17,261 --> 00:53:23,999
♪ ♪
946
00:53:32,910 --> 00:53:36,579
- I really thought about going
for a walk,
947
00:53:36,681 --> 00:53:39,949
but really crazy windy day,
948
00:53:40,051 --> 00:53:41,817
and I don't know what it's
gonna bring for weather.
949
00:53:41,919 --> 00:53:43,586
It's hard to tell.
Clouds are moving fast,
950
00:53:43,688 --> 00:53:47,990
and the winds are just howling.
951
00:53:50,461 --> 00:53:51,427
Look at these ducks.
952
00:53:51,529 --> 00:53:52,561
These ducks don't care
953
00:53:52,663 --> 00:53:55,998
about a little wind and wave.
954
00:53:57,034 --> 00:54:00,836
They're headed somewhere,
and you know their feet
955
00:54:00,938 --> 00:54:03,005
are going a million miles
an hour right now.
956
00:54:05,009 --> 00:54:09,211
Just chugging along,
but they've got each other.
957
00:54:09,313 --> 00:54:16,986
♪ ♪
958
00:54:26,063 --> 00:54:30,466
when I began this journey,
I was determined to win
959
00:54:30,568 --> 00:54:31,900
or at least go as far
960
00:54:32,003 --> 00:54:35,004
as I possibly could
before my body gave out.
961
00:54:36,140 --> 00:54:39,875
I came here because this is
the ultimate challenge.
962
00:54:39,977 --> 00:54:42,811
It's the ultimate test
of a survivalist.
963
00:54:42,913 --> 00:54:45,814
It's the ultimate test
of willpower.
964
00:54:45,916 --> 00:54:48,851
It's the ultimate test
of your mind,
965
00:54:48,953 --> 00:54:51,186
your body,
and your spiritual connection.
966
00:54:51,289 --> 00:54:52,788
♪ ♪
967
00:54:52,890 --> 00:54:56,992
and I knew that
the only way to succeed
968
00:54:57,094 --> 00:55:00,863
was to forget about home,
to forget about my wife,
969
00:55:00,965 --> 00:55:04,800
my son, and to forget
about my daughter
970
00:55:04,902 --> 00:55:07,202
and to immerse myself
into this life.
971
00:55:07,305 --> 00:55:10,806
♪ ♪
972
00:55:10,908 --> 00:55:14,209
and I've found
that I can't do that.
973
00:55:14,312 --> 00:55:16,011
♪ ♪
974
00:55:16,113 --> 00:55:19,214
they are woven into the fabric
of my heart and my soul.
975
00:55:19,317 --> 00:55:20,316
♪ ♪
976
00:55:20,418 --> 00:55:22,751
I find myself
977
00:55:22,853 --> 00:55:25,921
continually thinking
of my daughter,
978
00:55:26,023 --> 00:55:28,924
and I realize that
I'm actually going through
979
00:55:29,026 --> 00:55:31,994
the same grieving process
that I am at home.
980
00:55:33,631 --> 00:55:35,698
But the difference is, at home
981
00:55:35,800 --> 00:55:38,667
I can look
into the eyes of my wife,
982
00:55:38,769 --> 00:55:40,969
I can look
into the eyes of my son,
983
00:55:41,072 --> 00:55:44,440
and I see a part of her there,
and that soothes me,
984
00:55:44,542 --> 00:55:46,542
and that comforts me.
985
00:55:46,644 --> 00:55:48,210
And I don't have that here.
986
00:55:48,312 --> 00:55:55,984
♪ ♪
987
00:56:03,260 --> 00:56:06,195
[beeping]
988
00:56:06,297 --> 00:56:09,865
♪ ♪
989
00:56:09,967 --> 00:56:14,203
this is jordon.
I am officially tapping out.
990
00:56:14,305 --> 00:56:21,009
♪ ♪
991
00:56:25,950 --> 00:56:30,986
I'm ready to head back
and be with my family.
992
00:56:31,822 --> 00:56:35,724
It is a very,
very difficult decision.
993
00:56:35,826 --> 00:56:39,528
You know, if I was here,
and it was cold,
994
00:56:39,630 --> 00:56:40,662
and my shelter burned down,
995
00:56:40,765 --> 00:56:42,364
or there was
a medical emergency,
996
00:56:42,466 --> 00:56:43,632
or I was starving,
997
00:56:43,734 --> 00:56:46,435
everyone would understand
and say,
998
00:56:46,537 --> 00:56:49,471
"hey, he's got to go,"
999
00:56:49,573 --> 00:56:51,940
but I'm okay with saying,
1000
00:56:52,042 --> 00:56:54,943
"this is who I am,
and this is my time to leave,"
1001
00:56:55,045 --> 00:56:58,013
and to leave for my family
and to leave for myself.
1002
00:56:59,283 --> 00:57:01,850
♪ ♪
1003
00:57:01,952 --> 00:57:06,121
I am naturally
such a competitive person.
1004
00:57:06,223 --> 00:57:10,659
I figured that I would have
to be dragged from the show.
1005
00:57:10,761 --> 00:57:12,795
I never thought
that my boundary
1006
00:57:12,897 --> 00:57:15,898
was gonna come
in an emotional form,
1007
00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:19,568
but one of my biggest
takeaways from this
1008
00:57:19,670 --> 00:57:21,470
is that I'm not missing out.
1009
00:57:21,572 --> 00:57:23,839
There are parts of me
1010
00:57:23,941 --> 00:57:27,409
that sometimes longs
for the adventures
1011
00:57:27,511 --> 00:57:29,545
as a younger man,
1012
00:57:29,647 --> 00:57:31,547
but then I come out here,
1013
00:57:31,649 --> 00:57:34,550
and I realize very quickly
1014
00:57:34,652 --> 00:57:36,885
I don't get the same thrill
1015
00:57:36,987 --> 00:57:40,823
out of experiencing
these things by myself.
1016
00:57:40,925 --> 00:57:42,591
The real excitement
comes from sharing
1017
00:57:42,693 --> 00:57:45,761
those moments with my family.
1018
00:57:45,863 --> 00:57:49,832
All this time
seeking to be alone,
1019
00:57:49,934 --> 00:57:52,201
and yet maybe I don't want
to be alone.
1020
00:57:52,303 --> 00:57:56,004
♪ ♪
1021
00:57:59,410 --> 00:58:03,212
[dramatic music]
1022
00:58:03,314 --> 00:58:09,985
♪ ♪
1023
00:58:12,122 --> 00:58:14,523
- jordon, thank you for sharing
your story with us today.
1024
00:58:14,625 --> 00:58:16,725
You have dealt with tragedy,
1025
00:58:16,827 --> 00:58:18,794
and yet you are
the happiest person,
1026
00:58:18,896 --> 00:58:21,897
and I think that happiness
has got to do
1027
00:58:21,999 --> 00:58:25,767
with this authentic connection
with your family.
1028
00:58:25,870 --> 00:58:27,769
- My wife and son
are everything to me,
1029
00:58:27,872 --> 00:58:30,906
and so possibly winning
$1/2 million,
1030
00:58:31,008 --> 00:58:33,876
all I could think about
was paying off our house
1031
00:58:33,978 --> 00:58:36,912
and any bills
and basically allowing me
1032
00:58:37,014 --> 00:58:38,847
to work less
to spend time with my family.
1033
00:58:38,949 --> 00:58:41,550
- I know, for a lot of people
on the show,
1034
00:58:41,652 --> 00:58:42,851
one of the hardest things is,
1035
00:58:42,953 --> 00:58:44,686
you know, being alone,
but it's more than that.
1036
00:58:44,788 --> 00:58:46,755
It's being alone
with your thoughts.
1037
00:58:46,857 --> 00:58:48,524
- I spent a lot of time
in my life alone
1038
00:58:48,626 --> 00:58:50,926
and doing adventures alone,
1039
00:58:51,028 --> 00:58:53,896
and I thought that I was
really gonna be rekindling
1040
00:58:53,998 --> 00:58:56,732
some of that adventurous spirit
coming out here,
1041
00:58:56,834 --> 00:58:59,201
and going into this,
my strategy
1042
00:58:59,303 --> 00:59:03,071
was really to focus on myself
and my survival tasks at hand
1043
00:59:03,173 --> 00:59:05,841
and not even allow myself
to think about my family.
1044
00:59:05,943 --> 00:59:08,043
- Things like fishing,
just standing there
1045
00:59:08,145 --> 00:59:10,479
for hours and hours, I mean,
it's hard in those moments
1046
00:59:10,581 --> 00:59:12,114
to keep your mind busy.
1047
00:59:12,216 --> 00:59:15,017
- Yeah, and I think that's
when it hit me the hardest.
1048
00:59:15,119 --> 00:59:16,785
It's different when
you're talking about grieving
1049
00:59:16,887 --> 00:59:18,554
because it's a lot harder
to control
1050
00:59:18,656 --> 00:59:20,556
when those moments hit you.
1051
00:59:20,658 --> 00:59:21,723
Once you start doing things
1052
00:59:21,825 --> 00:59:24,927
like picking berries
or fishing,
1053
00:59:25,029 --> 00:59:27,863
your hands may be busy,
but your mind is idle
1054
00:59:27,965 --> 00:59:31,066
and free to wander
to those darker places,
1055
00:59:31,168 --> 00:59:35,437
and I came to the realization
that I actually needed
1056
00:59:35,539 --> 00:59:36,772
my wife and my son.
1057
00:59:36,874 --> 00:59:38,473
They're part
of my coping mechanism
1058
00:59:38,576 --> 00:59:39,942
of dealing with grief.
1059
00:59:40,044 --> 00:59:43,011
Being out there
and trying to process it alone
1060
00:59:43,113 --> 00:59:45,881
was so much more difficult
than I ever imagined.
1061
00:59:45,983 --> 00:59:48,750
The joy of being out here,
of being outdoors,
1062
00:59:48,852 --> 00:59:51,553
of making things
and troubleshooting
1063
00:59:51,655 --> 00:59:54,423
and all that kind of stuff,
1064
00:59:54,525 --> 00:59:55,891
that joy is fading.
1065
00:59:55,993 --> 00:59:58,860
- You compared your time
on "alone" to gambling.
1066
00:59:58,963 --> 01:00:02,030
- Yeah, it really felt
like a gamble in a way
1067
01:00:02,132 --> 01:00:06,034
because you don't know
how the fishing is going to be.
1068
01:00:06,136 --> 01:00:09,037
You don't know how the game
hunting is going to be.
1069
01:00:09,139 --> 01:00:13,175
Maybe bring my bow just in case
I scare up any grouse.
1070
01:00:14,144 --> 01:00:17,145
You also don't know how
your competitors are doing.
1071
01:00:17,247 --> 01:00:19,548
You're thinking everyone else
has a better fishing hole
1072
01:00:19,650 --> 01:00:20,916
or better hunting grounds.
1073
01:00:21,018 --> 01:00:22,551
- I mean, that was a struggle
for you, right?
1074
01:00:22,653 --> 01:00:25,654
- It absolutely was, you know?
1075
01:00:25,756 --> 01:00:27,055
Here I am on choko lake
thinking
1076
01:00:27,157 --> 01:00:31,059
that the fishing is easy,
and that wasn't the case.
1077
01:00:31,161 --> 01:00:33,762
- You spent a ton of time
on that log, your fishing pier,
1078
01:00:33,864 --> 01:00:35,998
and tell us about
that incredible moment
1079
01:00:36,100 --> 01:00:39,001
when you hooked that trout
and dragged it to shore.
1080
01:00:39,103 --> 01:00:42,404
- I was in utter disbelief
when I hooked that fish.
1081
01:00:42,506 --> 01:00:44,172
[laughing]
yeah!
1082
01:00:44,274 --> 01:00:45,974
Yeah!
1083
01:00:46,076 --> 01:00:51,747
And I was in such shock,
and to finally get that fish
1084
01:00:51,849 --> 01:00:53,915
made me feel
like I did something
1085
01:00:54,018 --> 01:00:56,685
that is actually contributing
to survival,
1086
01:00:56,787 --> 01:00:58,053
and I could not wait
to eat it.
1087
01:00:58,155 --> 01:00:59,988
- Oh, yeah, your joy at the end
of that was just great.
1088
01:01:00,090 --> 01:01:04,760
I totally knew how that fell.
Just, like, so exciting.
1089
01:01:04,862 --> 01:01:06,595
- Whoo!
- Tell me about the importance
1090
01:01:06,697 --> 01:01:08,764
of those small victories
for you.
1091
01:01:08,866 --> 01:01:10,365
- Those small victories
were everything.
1092
01:01:10,467 --> 01:01:12,801
Look what I found.
1093
01:01:12,903 --> 01:01:15,737
So just finding a couple
of gooseberries
1094
01:01:15,839 --> 01:01:16,938
underneath the leaves
or finding
1095
01:01:17,041 --> 01:01:20,475
the perfect alder branch
to make the door handle,
1096
01:01:20,577 --> 01:01:22,711
any little win felt like
1097
01:01:22,813 --> 01:01:25,414
it was just another
check mark of,
1098
01:01:25,516 --> 01:01:26,581
hey, I'm making it.
1099
01:01:26,684 --> 01:01:27,582
I'm getting there.
- Yeah.
1100
01:01:27,685 --> 01:01:29,451
- The remains of the flowers
1101
01:01:29,553 --> 01:01:30,919
look like little suns,
1102
01:01:31,021 --> 01:01:33,922
and that is enough
to make me smile this morning.
1103
01:01:34,024 --> 01:01:36,024
- Now, let's talk about
your permanent shelter.
1104
01:01:36,126 --> 01:01:40,796
- I had a strong plan going in
to make a solid shelter
1105
01:01:40,898 --> 01:01:43,565
and feel like
I actually have a home.
1106
01:01:43,667 --> 01:01:44,866
- Feels good to be in there
1107
01:01:44,968 --> 01:01:46,134
when other things
could be going wrong.
1108
01:01:46,236 --> 01:01:48,570
- Yeah, it's kind of like
when you come home from work,
1109
01:01:48,672 --> 01:01:49,738
and you put down your wallet
1110
01:01:49,840 --> 01:01:52,174
and your keys
in that one spot.
1111
01:01:52,276 --> 01:01:55,143
I wanted to be able to walk
into my shelter and feel like
1112
01:01:55,245 --> 01:01:58,480
I had a place for everything
and everything in its place.
1113
01:01:58,582 --> 01:02:00,882
Spot for my hat at night.
1114
01:02:00,984 --> 01:02:03,318
That's something
that kept me mentally healthy
1115
01:02:03,420 --> 01:02:04,286
during that time.
1116
01:02:04,388 --> 01:02:06,054
- Yeah, totally.
1117
01:02:06,156 --> 01:02:08,056
I always have to have a shelf
of treasures and whatever.
1118
01:02:08,158 --> 01:02:09,491
It doesn't even matter if it's,
like, a pile of leaves.
1119
01:02:09,593 --> 01:02:10,892
I have to have, like, my--
1120
01:02:10,994 --> 01:02:13,628
to feel that kind of sense
of, you're at home,
1121
01:02:13,731 --> 01:02:15,764
and it feels good
to be in there
1122
01:02:15,866 --> 01:02:17,499
when other things
could be going wrong.
1123
01:02:17,601 --> 01:02:18,700
- Exactly.
[both laugh]
1124
01:02:18,802 --> 01:02:21,436
- jordon, your story
is inspiring.
1125
01:02:21,538 --> 01:02:22,771
Thank you for setting
1126
01:02:22,873 --> 01:02:25,707
such a beautiful example
for us to follow.
1127
01:02:25,809 --> 01:02:27,209
- Thank you.
I'm very, very lucky.
1128
01:02:27,311 --> 01:02:30,645
♪ ♪
1129
01:02:30,748 --> 01:02:32,481
- holy [bleep].
Those are bears.
1130
01:02:32,583 --> 01:02:34,149
Hey!
[air horn blares]
1131
01:02:34,251 --> 01:02:37,986
- I need to get some food.
Definitely seeing some grouse.
1132
01:02:39,790 --> 01:02:43,458
- Oh, [bleep]. Hornets.
Ah, [bleep].
1133
01:02:43,560 --> 01:02:44,860
- Some fresh deer sign.
1134
01:02:44,962 --> 01:02:46,795
That gives me
a little bit of confidence
1135
01:02:46,897 --> 01:02:47,996
that we're gonna have
some deer here.
1136
01:02:50,267 --> 01:02:57,005
♪ ♪