1 00:00:04,438 --> 00:00:07,206 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:07,308 --> 00:00:14,880 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:14,982 --> 00:00:15,814 - I don't plan to be here for three weeks. 4 00:00:15,916 --> 00:00:17,850 I plan to be here for three months. 5 00:00:17,952 --> 00:00:19,218 But I want a nice home in which to live. 6 00:00:19,320 --> 00:00:20,853 Brilliant. 7 00:00:20,955 --> 00:00:22,054 - What am I gonna find out about myself? 8 00:00:22,156 --> 00:00:24,390 That's the biggest thing, is to see if I am the man 9 00:00:24,492 --> 00:00:25,591 that I think I am. 10 00:00:25,693 --> 00:00:28,527 Oh, yeah. That is a bull trout. 11 00:00:28,629 --> 00:00:29,461 - My boat is a high risk. 12 00:00:29,563 --> 00:00:31,797 This could be a decision 13 00:00:31,899 --> 00:00:33,399 that costs me the whole experience. 14 00:00:33,501 --> 00:00:33,999 It's tippy as hell. 15 00:00:39,607 --> 00:00:41,473 Hey, bear! [bear growls] 16 00:00:41,575 --> 00:00:42,808 - if I don't succeed, 17 00:00:42,910 --> 00:00:45,344 have I just put a speed bump in life? 18 00:00:45,446 --> 00:00:47,413 Come on! Come on! 19 00:00:47,515 --> 00:00:49,314 [laughing] yeah! 20 00:00:49,417 --> 00:00:53,185 Unbelievable! 21 00:00:53,287 --> 00:00:59,191 ♪ ♪ 22 00:01:00,161 --> 00:01:03,929 narrator: In "alone's" most terrifying location yet, 23 00:01:04,031 --> 00:01:07,433 ten participants face the deadliest predator 24 00:01:07,535 --> 00:01:09,568 in north america... 25 00:01:09,670 --> 00:01:10,536 - There here is, right there. 26 00:01:10,638 --> 00:01:12,638 - Grizzly bears. Hey, bear! 27 00:01:12,740 --> 00:01:13,672 - There's a lot of grizzly here. 28 00:01:13,774 --> 00:01:14,306 I'm gonna have to live with them. 29 00:01:14,408 --> 00:01:15,741 - Go on! Get! 30 00:01:15,843 --> 00:01:17,443 - Every second we're on the land, 31 00:01:17,545 --> 00:01:18,577 we're being hunted. 32 00:01:18,679 --> 00:01:19,711 - Holy [bleep], mountain lion. 33 00:01:19,814 --> 00:01:21,747 - He's circling around my shelter. 34 00:01:21,849 --> 00:01:23,449 Narrator: Bone-chilling cold... 35 00:01:23,551 --> 00:01:25,017 - Winter is coming. 36 00:01:25,119 --> 00:01:26,919 - You combine the wind with the rain and the cold, 37 00:01:27,021 --> 00:01:28,287 this place could make the arctic look easy. 38 00:01:28,389 --> 00:01:30,722 - Oh, [bleep]. 39 00:01:30,825 --> 00:01:32,724 Narrator: And complete isolation. 40 00:01:32,827 --> 00:01:34,526 - You cannot hide from yourself, 41 00:01:34,628 --> 00:01:35,694 mentally and emotionally. 42 00:01:35,796 --> 00:01:37,663 - Ahh! - There's no place to go. 43 00:01:37,765 --> 00:01:40,566 - I am suffering from loneliness. 44 00:01:40,668 --> 00:01:42,267 Narrator: Who will survive? 45 00:01:42,369 --> 00:01:43,469 - Yes! Yes! 46 00:01:43,571 --> 00:01:46,038 - This could be the end. 47 00:01:46,140 --> 00:01:48,907 - I don't want to tap, but I don't want to die either. 48 00:01:49,009 --> 00:01:51,276 - You have to suffer before you can succeed. 49 00:01:51,378 --> 00:01:52,845 - [retches] 50 00:01:52,947 --> 00:01:55,814 narrator: The last one standing wins. 51 00:01:55,916 --> 00:01:58,183 - At what point do I touch the button? 52 00:01:58,285 --> 00:02:04,990 ♪ ♪ 53 00:02:24,745 --> 00:02:26,578 - hmm, I'm gonna set that over here 54 00:02:26,680 --> 00:02:29,281 'cause that'll definitely dry. 55 00:02:29,984 --> 00:02:31,984 Smoking the underwear might not be all bad. 56 00:02:33,754 --> 00:02:36,655 One more try at warming my butt up, 57 00:02:36,757 --> 00:02:39,992 and then I'll have my cup of tea. 58 00:02:59,313 --> 00:03:00,012 All right. 59 00:03:00,114 --> 00:03:03,215 It's mostly my butt that's cold. 60 00:03:03,317 --> 00:03:04,550 ♪ ♪ 61 00:03:04,652 --> 00:03:06,785 today is--it's a windy day. 62 00:03:06,887 --> 00:03:07,953 It's not a day to think about fishing, 63 00:03:08,055 --> 00:03:11,924 so we will get back to working on the shelter. 64 00:03:12,026 --> 00:03:14,793 Cool, so I guess the best analogy for this, then, 65 00:03:14,895 --> 00:03:17,496 is that we've basically framed the house, 66 00:03:17,598 --> 00:03:19,698 and now we get to shingle. 67 00:03:19,800 --> 00:03:22,568 We're gonna go around and collect 68 00:03:22,670 --> 00:03:24,803 all of the big sheets of bark 69 00:03:24,905 --> 00:03:28,207 that are just lying on the forest floor. 70 00:03:28,309 --> 00:03:33,445 ♪ ♪ 71 00:03:33,547 --> 00:03:36,014 all over is this fir. 72 00:03:37,151 --> 00:03:41,420 When it dies, it leaves these big huge sheets of bark, 73 00:03:41,522 --> 00:03:43,422 which is pretty awesome. 74 00:03:43,524 --> 00:03:48,393 So when I say shingle, 75 00:03:48,495 --> 00:03:50,195 this is what I mean. 76 00:03:50,297 --> 00:03:52,164 ♪ ♪ 77 00:03:52,266 --> 00:03:54,933 - the one limitation that I've probably most often run into 78 00:03:55,035 --> 00:03:56,401 in sort of these long-term living situations 79 00:03:56,503 --> 00:03:58,036 would be my size, 80 00:03:58,138 --> 00:04:02,040 and it is an advantage in the sense that, you know, 81 00:04:02,142 --> 00:04:04,876 you can function on a fairly low number of calories, 82 00:04:04,979 --> 00:04:07,946 lower than perhaps bigger people require. 83 00:04:08,048 --> 00:04:10,616 However, it does limit how much you can carry, 84 00:04:10,718 --> 00:04:12,784 how many trips you need to do. 85 00:04:12,886 --> 00:04:13,585 You know, you need to do five trips 86 00:04:13,687 --> 00:04:15,787 when someone else can do two. 87 00:04:15,889 --> 00:04:18,724 It limits how much physical activity 88 00:04:18,826 --> 00:04:21,193 you can really knock out in a day. 89 00:04:21,295 --> 00:04:23,795 ♪ ♪ 90 00:04:23,897 --> 00:04:26,064 these shingles will have to overlap, 91 00:04:26,166 --> 00:04:27,866 but we start at the bottom and go all the way around, 92 00:04:27,968 --> 00:04:30,569 and then we do another layer halfway up, 93 00:04:30,671 --> 00:04:31,737 and then we put pine duff on 94 00:04:31,839 --> 00:04:33,805 to fill in any of the fragments, 95 00:04:33,907 --> 00:04:36,208 provides a little bit of insulation. 96 00:04:36,310 --> 00:04:38,043 ♪ ♪ 97 00:04:38,145 --> 00:04:40,045 there's so many reasons I want to make a pit house. 98 00:04:40,147 --> 00:04:44,850 They are incredibly efficient at keeping in heat, 99 00:04:44,952 --> 00:04:49,187 and I cannot play fattest-man-wins game. 100 00:04:49,290 --> 00:04:52,791 ♪ ♪ 101 00:04:52,893 --> 00:04:56,728 I need a house where, when I'm in it, 102 00:04:56,830 --> 00:04:58,997 no extra calories are being burned 103 00:04:59,099 --> 00:05:01,600 because if you have a lot of wind on your fire, 104 00:05:01,702 --> 00:05:04,136 it just eats through firewood. 105 00:05:04,238 --> 00:05:07,005 Oof. 106 00:05:07,808 --> 00:05:11,977 All right, so if I sit on the stair, 107 00:05:12,079 --> 00:05:16,748 you can sort of see the skylight and the interior. 108 00:05:16,850 --> 00:05:20,485 And then this is our next big project: 109 00:05:20,587 --> 00:05:22,587 The fireplace and chimney. 110 00:05:22,690 --> 00:05:25,824 That's definitely in the cards, 111 00:05:25,926 --> 00:05:28,393 but that is a bloody fantastic day's work. 112 00:05:28,495 --> 00:05:29,194 That's what that is. 113 00:05:29,296 --> 00:05:37,002 ♪ ♪ 114 00:05:54,355 --> 00:05:56,188 - here it comes. 115 00:05:56,290 --> 00:06:02,994 ♪ ♪ 116 00:06:12,272 --> 00:06:13,205 lovely. 117 00:06:13,307 --> 00:06:14,539 ♪ ♪ 118 00:06:14,641 --> 00:06:17,542 get some vitamin d released 119 00:06:17,644 --> 00:06:19,211 in this tiny patch of skin. 120 00:06:19,313 --> 00:06:22,314 ♪ ♪ 121 00:06:22,416 --> 00:06:23,215 it's amazing. 122 00:06:23,317 --> 00:06:26,585 ♪ ♪ 123 00:06:26,687 --> 00:06:29,554 I feel like I'm back in hawaii, 124 00:06:29,656 --> 00:06:33,992 yet a lot colder and windier. 125 00:06:37,264 --> 00:06:39,064 ♪ ♪ 126 00:06:39,166 --> 00:06:43,001 it's been five days since I've had any meat at all, 127 00:06:43,103 --> 00:06:47,773 and I want to fish, but the wind is relentless. 128 00:06:47,875 --> 00:06:50,075 I can't get my set lines to stay out 129 00:06:50,177 --> 00:06:52,778 because the waves just push them right back to shore. 130 00:06:52,880 --> 00:06:54,613 I need to get my line out further, 131 00:06:54,715 --> 00:06:57,482 so I have an idea for a pier. 132 00:06:57,584 --> 00:06:58,850 The longest driftwoods 133 00:06:58,952 --> 00:07:02,921 that I see on my beach are about 30 feet, 134 00:07:03,023 --> 00:07:04,923 so my plan is to build something where I can 135 00:07:05,025 --> 00:07:08,794 just walk out at least 25 feet and drop a line. 136 00:07:08,896 --> 00:07:12,731 That offers me potential in bad weather. 137 00:07:12,833 --> 00:07:14,766 I can go out on my pier anytime, 138 00:07:14,868 --> 00:07:17,769 and I need deep water come winter 139 00:07:17,871 --> 00:07:18,804 because the fish are gonna push off. 140 00:07:18,906 --> 00:07:20,205 They're not gonna stay in the shallows. 141 00:07:20,307 --> 00:07:23,241 ♪ ♪ 142 00:07:23,343 --> 00:07:25,510 very nice. 143 00:07:25,612 --> 00:07:27,212 Nice for a pier-sized peg. 144 00:07:27,314 --> 00:07:29,614 ♪ ♪ 145 00:07:29,716 --> 00:07:31,716 I want to utilize engineering 146 00:07:31,819 --> 00:07:33,919 instead of just building with logs 147 00:07:34,021 --> 00:07:36,121 and trying to tie that together with cordage, 148 00:07:36,223 --> 00:07:40,192 so I want to put together kind of a dovetail peg system. 149 00:07:40,294 --> 00:07:43,395 ♪ ♪ 150 00:07:43,497 --> 00:07:47,165 one done! I like it. 151 00:07:47,267 --> 00:07:49,000 Next! 152 00:07:51,972 --> 00:07:55,373 [as arnold schwarzenegger] get to the chopper! 153 00:07:55,476 --> 00:07:57,008 [shouts as arnold] 154 00:08:00,848 --> 00:08:03,215 my son does a better arnold impression. 155 00:08:03,317 --> 00:08:04,783 ♪ ♪ 156 00:08:04,885 --> 00:08:06,451 I have a wonderful family of seven, 157 00:08:06,553 --> 00:08:08,820 my wife and five kids. 158 00:08:08,922 --> 00:08:10,422 When I'm successful at this challenge 159 00:08:10,524 --> 00:08:12,557 and I get the money, 160 00:08:12,659 --> 00:08:14,893 we can set sail, literally. 161 00:08:14,995 --> 00:08:18,463 My wife has the idea that we'll buy a boat 162 00:08:18,565 --> 00:08:20,465 and we'll hit the seas. 163 00:08:20,567 --> 00:08:22,200 That would be awesome. 164 00:08:22,302 --> 00:08:24,836 ♪ ♪ 165 00:08:24,938 --> 00:08:28,006 I reckon that's deep enough to catch a fish. 166 00:08:33,313 --> 00:08:34,379 All right. 167 00:08:34,481 --> 00:08:37,015 I'll give you one guess which way the wind's blowing. 168 00:08:44,491 --> 00:08:45,991 Let's straighten it out. 169 00:08:49,229 --> 00:08:50,896 Nope. 170 00:08:50,998 --> 00:08:53,365 It just comes right off of those snow-covered 171 00:08:53,467 --> 00:08:55,934 glacier mountains. 172 00:08:56,036 --> 00:08:58,703 I'm debating on waiting another day for the winds 173 00:08:58,805 --> 00:09:01,006 and waves to calm down to set this. 174 00:09:04,678 --> 00:09:08,213 That's the logical thing to do. 175 00:09:08,315 --> 00:09:15,987 ♪ ♪ 176 00:09:24,932 --> 00:09:26,998 - can you see it behind me, over my shoulder? 177 00:09:39,780 --> 00:09:42,013 I can't tell, but it's back there. 178 00:09:44,384 --> 00:09:47,986 Right about here. 179 00:09:52,492 --> 00:09:53,992 Maybe here? No. Here. 180 00:09:56,830 --> 00:09:58,229 You can see my boat in the background. 181 00:09:58,332 --> 00:10:00,198 Sweetness. 182 00:10:00,300 --> 00:10:02,834 ♪ ♪ 183 00:10:02,936 --> 00:10:04,869 I've been working on building a boat. 184 00:10:04,972 --> 00:10:08,440 It's floating great, seems pretty solid, 185 00:10:08,542 --> 00:10:09,808 but it's not stable. 186 00:10:09,910 --> 00:10:13,878 It's very tippy, so I built outriggers 187 00:10:13,981 --> 00:10:15,480 so I have something coming off the boat 188 00:10:15,582 --> 00:10:16,948 that gives stability. 189 00:10:17,050 --> 00:10:19,851 So it's another point of contact on the water, 190 00:10:19,953 --> 00:10:21,987 so if you lean one way or lean the other, 191 00:10:22,089 --> 00:10:24,022 you have now multiple holds touching the water, 192 00:10:24,124 --> 00:10:26,992 and they give you kickback, and they hold you up. 193 00:10:28,295 --> 00:10:30,662 All right. 194 00:10:30,764 --> 00:10:32,197 You ready for the finished product? 195 00:10:32,299 --> 00:10:34,032 ♪ ♪ 196 00:10:34,134 --> 00:10:36,701 I built these outriggers just like I built the boat, 197 00:10:36,803 --> 00:10:39,938 so I have a frame, a fir frame, 198 00:10:40,040 --> 00:10:41,873 and I have ribs that are of alder, green alder, 199 00:10:41,975 --> 00:10:44,409 and thankfully, I had scrap tarp material 200 00:10:44,511 --> 00:10:46,511 to cover it with. 201 00:10:46,613 --> 00:10:48,213 Let's go get on the water. 202 00:10:48,315 --> 00:10:54,052 ♪ ♪ 203 00:10:54,154 --> 00:10:58,757 I think boats are a high-value and a high-risk entity. 204 00:10:58,859 --> 00:11:00,992 It is very dangerous to be out here, 205 00:11:01,094 --> 00:11:05,730 but if this works and it's dependable and safe, 206 00:11:05,832 --> 00:11:06,564 I think it's gonna give me an edge 207 00:11:06,667 --> 00:11:08,967 because I can get to places 208 00:11:09,069 --> 00:11:10,769 where the fish are migrating or moving through, 209 00:11:10,871 --> 00:11:13,138 so I'm not just limited to the bank. 210 00:11:13,240 --> 00:11:15,206 Oh! 211 00:11:15,308 --> 00:11:17,175 ♪ ♪ 212 00:11:17,277 --> 00:11:19,210 yeah! 213 00:11:19,312 --> 00:11:21,312 ♪ ♪ 214 00:11:21,415 --> 00:11:23,348 we're stable. 215 00:11:23,450 --> 00:11:25,283 We're cruising. 216 00:11:25,385 --> 00:11:27,185 Yes, yes, yes. 217 00:11:27,287 --> 00:11:30,155 ♪ ♪ 218 00:11:30,257 --> 00:11:32,190 whoo! 219 00:11:32,292 --> 00:11:39,397 ♪ ♪ 220 00:11:39,499 --> 00:11:41,199 yes, yes, yes, yes. 221 00:11:41,301 --> 00:11:44,269 ♪ ♪ 222 00:11:44,371 --> 00:11:45,170 big success. 223 00:11:45,272 --> 00:11:46,204 Love it. 224 00:11:46,306 --> 00:11:47,972 ♪ ♪ 225 00:11:48,075 --> 00:11:50,942 that was awesome. I'm gonna enjoy this moment. 226 00:11:51,044 --> 00:11:54,012 I haven't showered since I've been out here. 227 00:11:54,114 --> 00:11:57,215 I want to get in the water so bad and clean myself. 228 00:11:57,317 --> 00:12:01,453 ♪ ♪ 229 00:12:01,555 --> 00:12:03,755 I love this lifestyle, 230 00:12:03,857 --> 00:12:07,125 living by the earth and the land. 231 00:12:07,227 --> 00:12:08,259 Oof! 232 00:12:08,361 --> 00:12:09,928 The pride and the fulfillment when things work, 233 00:12:10,030 --> 00:12:12,530 when your shelter works, when your boat works, 234 00:12:12,632 --> 00:12:14,199 when your bow drill works. 235 00:12:14,301 --> 00:12:15,533 ♪ ♪ 236 00:12:15,635 --> 00:12:18,603 it gives you so much joy, 237 00:12:18,705 --> 00:12:20,338 and I want to keep living it. 238 00:12:20,440 --> 00:12:22,207 Whoo! [laughs] 239 00:12:22,309 --> 00:12:24,442 ♪ ♪ 240 00:12:24,544 --> 00:12:26,211 oh, that's refreshing. 241 00:12:26,313 --> 00:12:29,147 ♪ ♪ 242 00:12:29,249 --> 00:12:30,014 oh. 243 00:12:32,352 --> 00:12:33,785 Holy, [bleep]. 244 00:12:33,887 --> 00:12:35,186 There's a grizz walking down the beach. 245 00:12:35,288 --> 00:12:40,291 ♪ ♪ 246 00:12:40,393 --> 00:12:42,994 hey, bear! No! 247 00:12:48,401 --> 00:12:51,202 [dramatic music] 248 00:12:51,304 --> 00:12:59,010 ♪ ♪ 249 00:13:03,350 --> 00:13:04,215 - hey, bear! 250 00:13:04,317 --> 00:13:07,452 ♪ ♪ 251 00:13:07,554 --> 00:13:11,122 hey, bear! [clapping] 252 00:13:11,224 --> 00:13:12,991 hey! 253 00:13:13,093 --> 00:13:16,194 He hasn't even stopped. He's still walking this way. 254 00:13:16,296 --> 00:13:17,295 ♪ ♪ 255 00:13:17,397 --> 00:13:20,198 hey, bear! No! 256 00:13:20,300 --> 00:13:22,700 ♪ ♪ 257 00:13:22,803 --> 00:13:24,702 I can't believe I'm [bleep] naked, 258 00:13:24,805 --> 00:13:27,705 and a bear is freaking right there. 259 00:13:27,808 --> 00:13:29,007 I'm gonna have fire some bangers. 260 00:13:30,277 --> 00:13:32,210 [popping] 261 00:13:32,312 --> 00:13:36,181 ♪ ♪ 262 00:13:36,283 --> 00:13:38,283 nothing. 263 00:13:38,385 --> 00:13:41,286 It's not good. 264 00:13:41,388 --> 00:13:43,188 Hey, bear! No! 265 00:13:43,290 --> 00:13:45,557 ♪ ♪ 266 00:13:45,659 --> 00:13:47,659 man, I just got my boat done, 267 00:13:47,761 --> 00:13:49,194 and I don't want him to shred it. 268 00:13:49,296 --> 00:13:50,228 ♪ ♪ 269 00:13:50,330 --> 00:13:52,130 hey, bear! 270 00:13:52,232 --> 00:13:54,199 No! 271 00:13:54,301 --> 00:13:56,134 ♪ ♪ 272 00:13:56,236 --> 00:13:57,202 no! 273 00:13:57,304 --> 00:14:02,440 ♪ ♪ 274 00:14:02,542 --> 00:14:05,210 [bleep]. He's coming. 275 00:14:05,312 --> 00:14:09,214 [popping] 276 00:14:09,316 --> 00:14:15,153 ♪ ♪ 277 00:14:15,255 --> 00:14:18,289 come on. 278 00:14:18,391 --> 00:14:20,191 Get out of here. 279 00:14:20,293 --> 00:14:22,293 ♪ ♪ 280 00:14:22,395 --> 00:14:23,194 hey, bear! No! 281 00:14:23,296 --> 00:14:29,234 ♪ ♪ 282 00:14:29,336 --> 00:14:31,302 hey, bear! 283 00:14:31,404 --> 00:14:33,204 I'm over here! 284 00:14:33,306 --> 00:14:35,874 [claps] 285 00:14:35,976 --> 00:14:38,209 nothing I seem to do seems to scare him off. 286 00:14:38,311 --> 00:14:40,245 ♪ ♪ 287 00:14:40,347 --> 00:14:42,247 hey, bear! 288 00:14:42,349 --> 00:14:45,183 [clapping] 289 00:14:45,285 --> 00:14:46,217 ♪ ♪ 290 00:14:46,319 --> 00:14:47,185 hey, bear! 291 00:14:47,287 --> 00:14:49,320 ♪ ♪ 292 00:14:49,422 --> 00:14:51,189 ah, [bleep]! Hey! 293 00:14:51,291 --> 00:14:53,191 [claps] 294 00:14:53,293 --> 00:14:55,226 ♪ ♪ 295 00:14:55,328 --> 00:14:58,162 hey, bear! 296 00:14:58,265 --> 00:14:59,197 Hello! 297 00:14:59,299 --> 00:15:01,199 ♪ ♪ 298 00:15:01,301 --> 00:15:05,003 [popping] 299 00:15:13,546 --> 00:15:16,014 I think he's out of here. 300 00:15:17,651 --> 00:15:20,985 Holy [bleep]. That was insane. 301 00:15:22,522 --> 00:15:27,191 I need to get clothes on. 302 00:15:27,294 --> 00:15:33,998 ♪ ♪ 303 00:15:40,941 --> 00:15:43,741 the bear encounter today definitely got me 304 00:15:43,843 --> 00:15:45,209 taking it a little more seriously. 305 00:15:45,312 --> 00:15:47,078 ♪ ♪ 306 00:15:47,180 --> 00:15:51,015 he didn't really care about me yelling, throwing rocks. 307 00:15:51,117 --> 00:15:52,984 Even the bear bangers, he was pretty indifferent. 308 00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:57,689 I'm in his territory, and I'm the foreigner here, 309 00:15:57,791 --> 00:15:59,857 and he just put me in my place. 310 00:15:59,960 --> 00:16:03,661 Literally, if it decided for some reason-- 311 00:16:03,763 --> 00:16:05,430 it was hungry, it was stressed, 312 00:16:05,532 --> 00:16:06,564 it was distressed-- 313 00:16:06,666 --> 00:16:07,665 there's nothing stopping it. 314 00:16:07,767 --> 00:16:10,401 If it wanted to at that moment, 315 00:16:10,503 --> 00:16:12,003 your life is gone. 316 00:16:13,273 --> 00:16:20,011 ♪ ♪ 317 00:16:33,259 --> 00:16:33,992 - [sighs] 318 00:16:40,767 --> 00:16:43,768 no fish this morning, but luckily, 319 00:16:43,870 --> 00:16:47,005 I've still got plenty of smoked trout. 320 00:17:00,420 --> 00:17:03,521 Just look at that. 321 00:17:03,623 --> 00:17:06,524 All these nice, thin strips. 322 00:17:06,626 --> 00:17:08,993 It is so unbelievably good. 323 00:17:14,901 --> 00:17:17,001 It doesn't need any seasoning or anything. 324 00:17:20,273 --> 00:17:26,878 ♪ ♪ 325 00:17:26,980 --> 00:17:31,983 I've never wired together a stick door before. 326 00:17:32,685 --> 00:17:35,186 So it's all a little new to me. 327 00:17:35,288 --> 00:17:37,889 ♪ ♪ 328 00:17:37,991 --> 00:17:41,859 I've got a real cabin. I want a real door. 329 00:17:41,961 --> 00:17:44,462 Psychologically, I don't want to feel like 330 00:17:44,564 --> 00:17:46,197 I'm on a camping trip. 331 00:17:46,299 --> 00:17:47,799 Oh, yeah. 332 00:17:47,901 --> 00:17:49,801 I want someplace that feels like home, 333 00:17:49,903 --> 00:17:52,737 something that has permanence to it. 334 00:17:52,839 --> 00:17:55,473 I just feel like it's gonna help me 335 00:17:55,575 --> 00:17:57,875 stick around long-term. 336 00:17:57,977 --> 00:18:02,580 Now I need to make some hinges for the wall, 337 00:18:02,682 --> 00:18:04,715 which is not easy considering 338 00:18:04,818 --> 00:18:07,785 I don't have any way to drill a hole, 339 00:18:07,887 --> 00:18:11,189 so I'm going to get creative with that. 340 00:18:11,291 --> 00:18:13,024 ♪ ♪ 341 00:18:13,126 --> 00:18:16,794 in typical fashion, I had not preplanned anything. 342 00:18:16,896 --> 00:18:19,197 I just know I want a door on hinges. 343 00:18:19,299 --> 00:18:20,798 ♪ ♪ 344 00:18:20,900 --> 00:18:25,336 then I realized that I could use my saw 345 00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:26,737 to cut a notch 346 00:18:26,840 --> 00:18:28,739 and continually widen that notch 347 00:18:28,842 --> 00:18:30,608 to create almost, like, a hole, 348 00:18:30,710 --> 00:18:34,345 but it would work for a hinge. 349 00:18:34,447 --> 00:18:36,013 It's like that? 350 00:18:42,989 --> 00:18:45,089 I was able to find some alder branches around 351 00:18:45,191 --> 00:18:48,759 that have 90-degree bends that I wired onto the door. 352 00:18:48,862 --> 00:18:51,796 Alder is very strong for its size, 353 00:18:51,898 --> 00:18:53,564 and it has a little bit of flex to it, 354 00:18:53,666 --> 00:18:56,200 so it's not going to break. 355 00:18:56,302 --> 00:18:57,535 ♪ ♪ 356 00:18:57,637 --> 00:19:00,004 it's not the most elegant... 357 00:19:03,443 --> 00:19:05,743 But I have a door. 358 00:19:05,845 --> 00:19:07,612 As I'm putting all this together, 359 00:19:07,714 --> 00:19:10,681 I'm constantly thinking, like, 360 00:19:10,783 --> 00:19:12,783 "what if my wife was out here?" 361 00:19:12,886 --> 00:19:14,852 well, she would want it neat and clean, 362 00:19:14,954 --> 00:19:16,587 and she would want a place to hang things. 363 00:19:16,689 --> 00:19:18,189 She would want something nice. 364 00:19:18,291 --> 00:19:19,757 ♪ ♪ 365 00:19:19,859 --> 00:19:22,193 all right. I'm gonna make a door latch. 366 00:19:22,295 --> 00:19:24,695 ♪ ♪ 367 00:19:24,797 --> 00:19:26,998 I'm thinking I can make a latch 368 00:19:27,100 --> 00:19:31,202 that will go in and turn and lock behind the logs. 369 00:19:31,304 --> 00:19:38,176 ♪ ♪ 370 00:19:38,278 --> 00:19:40,278 yeah. 371 00:19:40,380 --> 00:19:42,013 There we go. 372 00:19:44,684 --> 00:19:46,717 Did I spend way too long on it? 373 00:19:46,819 --> 00:19:48,986 Absolutely I did, but here is my door. 374 00:19:51,591 --> 00:19:53,257 Knock, knock. Can I come in? 375 00:19:53,359 --> 00:19:57,295 Okay. Cool. 376 00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:57,995 Look at that. 377 00:20:03,836 --> 00:20:06,204 It's actually pretty [bleep] kickass. 378 00:20:06,306 --> 00:20:14,011 ♪ ♪ 379 00:20:22,722 --> 00:20:26,824 - it was about 10:00 last night. 380 00:20:26,926 --> 00:20:29,260 I don't know why I woke up, for some reason. 381 00:20:29,362 --> 00:20:30,294 That's rare. 382 00:20:30,396 --> 00:20:33,364 But dead calm. 383 00:20:33,466 --> 00:20:35,866 No wind. No waves. 384 00:20:35,969 --> 00:20:40,004 It stayed that way all night until about 6:30. 385 00:20:41,674 --> 00:20:43,608 And then it just started blowing, 386 00:20:43,710 --> 00:20:44,742 and the waves started crashing, 387 00:20:44,844 --> 00:20:48,746 so I think we're just gonna go for it. 388 00:20:48,848 --> 00:20:51,449 That means we're putting the pier in, 389 00:20:51,551 --> 00:20:54,185 wind or waves be damned. 390 00:20:54,287 --> 00:21:01,158 ♪ ♪ 391 00:21:02,128 --> 00:21:05,896 I've got to get off this shoreline to catch fish. 392 00:21:05,999 --> 00:21:09,667 I'm running down on my last bit of body fat. 393 00:21:09,769 --> 00:21:11,035 If I get the pier planks on it, 394 00:21:11,137 --> 00:21:13,671 that should be enough to hold everything in place, 395 00:21:13,773 --> 00:21:15,439 and then I can shimmy out there 396 00:21:15,541 --> 00:21:16,674 and set a set line. 397 00:21:16,776 --> 00:21:18,209 Then we'll start catching fish. 398 00:21:18,311 --> 00:21:20,578 ♪ ♪ 399 00:21:20,680 --> 00:21:22,313 it's a 1,000 foot deep lake. 400 00:21:22,415 --> 00:21:23,814 Glacier-fed, 401 00:21:23,916 --> 00:21:26,183 so the temperature is insanely cold. 402 00:21:26,286 --> 00:21:29,987 ♪ ♪ 403 00:21:38,264 --> 00:21:44,302 ♪ ♪ 404 00:21:44,404 --> 00:21:46,203 [exhales deeply] 405 00:21:46,306 --> 00:21:50,174 ♪ ♪ 406 00:21:50,276 --> 00:21:51,342 [grunts] 407 00:21:51,444 --> 00:21:53,210 [exhales sharply] 408 00:21:53,313 --> 00:21:55,146 ♪ ♪ 409 00:21:55,248 --> 00:21:57,248 oh. 410 00:21:57,350 --> 00:22:02,153 [grunting] 411 00:22:02,255 --> 00:22:03,187 [bleep]. 412 00:22:03,289 --> 00:22:05,990 ♪ ♪ 413 00:22:10,396 --> 00:22:13,164 what the [bleep]? 414 00:22:13,266 --> 00:22:15,199 [bleep]. 415 00:22:15,301 --> 00:22:22,006 ♪ ♪ 416 00:22:26,245 --> 00:22:27,211 damn. 417 00:22:27,313 --> 00:22:31,816 ♪ ♪ 418 00:22:31,918 --> 00:22:35,986 I made a mistake, which led to a failure. 419 00:22:36,089 --> 00:22:40,491 Forgot to put that joist, that little pressure joist, 420 00:22:40,593 --> 00:22:43,994 at the top of those leans, 421 00:22:44,097 --> 00:22:47,865 forcing the middle one tighter so it wouldn't fall out. 422 00:22:47,967 --> 00:22:50,234 And it fell out. I bumped it, and it fell out. 423 00:22:50,336 --> 00:22:52,570 I knew it. 424 00:22:52,672 --> 00:22:53,704 I picked it up, and I knew it, 425 00:22:53,806 --> 00:22:55,039 but I was already down to nothing, 426 00:22:55,141 --> 00:22:58,209 so I forced it, and I should've stopped, got dressed. 427 00:22:58,311 --> 00:23:00,277 ♪ ♪ 428 00:23:00,380 --> 00:23:01,212 it's silly. 429 00:23:01,314 --> 00:23:03,180 ♪ ♪ 430 00:23:03,282 --> 00:23:05,449 silly. 431 00:23:05,551 --> 00:23:06,851 I think the biggest fear 432 00:23:06,953 --> 00:23:09,920 we face, usually, is the fear of failure, 433 00:23:10,022 --> 00:23:13,090 and I think that holds a lot of people back. 434 00:23:13,192 --> 00:23:16,727 If you don't accept failure as a part of your journey, 435 00:23:16,829 --> 00:23:18,462 then you'll never find success. 436 00:23:18,564 --> 00:23:20,164 I appreciate the failure 437 00:23:20,266 --> 00:23:22,733 because that's the only lesson you're actually gonna learn, 438 00:23:22,835 --> 00:23:24,402 and I know how to handle failure, 439 00:23:24,504 --> 00:23:25,870 to be optimistic. 440 00:23:25,972 --> 00:23:28,672 Do you give up after your first failure? 441 00:23:28,775 --> 00:23:30,207 I don't. I don't give up at all. 442 00:23:30,309 --> 00:23:32,576 ♪ ♪ 443 00:23:32,678 --> 00:23:37,014 so I've got some work to do... 444 00:23:38,551 --> 00:23:42,186 Before I do that again. 445 00:23:42,288 --> 00:23:48,993 ♪ ♪ 446 00:24:05,478 --> 00:24:07,011 - I'll be so happy. 447 00:24:09,449 --> 00:24:11,015 I'll stay forever. 448 00:24:14,921 --> 00:24:17,688 Pretty much, if I have a bed and a dry spot, 449 00:24:17,790 --> 00:24:20,691 I'm in general pretty damned happy, 450 00:24:20,793 --> 00:24:23,527 so I'm gonna attempt to make the bed. 451 00:24:23,629 --> 00:24:24,662 We'll start with the frame. 452 00:24:24,764 --> 00:24:28,532 This post is just the right height. 453 00:24:28,634 --> 00:24:30,768 I'm gonna lash this all down 454 00:24:30,870 --> 00:24:32,203 so they don't move around all the time. 455 00:24:32,305 --> 00:24:34,171 ♪ ♪ 456 00:24:34,273 --> 00:24:36,574 good. 457 00:24:36,676 --> 00:24:39,043 I have been in the outdoors, 458 00:24:39,145 --> 00:24:42,580 rather immersed in it, from the time I was a child. 459 00:24:42,682 --> 00:24:43,681 I'm originally from wyoming, 460 00:24:43,783 --> 00:24:46,183 from a tiny town called lander. 461 00:24:46,285 --> 00:24:47,918 ♪ ♪ 462 00:24:48,020 --> 00:24:50,554 so I'm sure that you have noticed my accent 463 00:24:50,656 --> 00:24:52,890 is not exactly from wyoming. 464 00:24:52,992 --> 00:24:56,861 I have lived now in England for 11 years, 465 00:24:56,963 --> 00:24:58,796 long enough to sound funny in both places. 466 00:24:58,898 --> 00:25:00,998 I don't sound american to americans. 467 00:25:01,100 --> 00:25:04,034 I do not sound british to british people either. 468 00:25:04,136 --> 00:25:06,570 They're not quite sure what I am or where I'm from, 469 00:25:06,672 --> 00:25:08,205 but it's not fooling anyone. 470 00:25:08,307 --> 00:25:09,907 ♪ ♪ 471 00:25:10,009 --> 00:25:14,044 everything is golden, and then we cover the bed 472 00:25:14,146 --> 00:25:16,647 in grass and then pine boughs, and then we have a bed. 473 00:25:16,749 --> 00:25:18,849 It's a usable bed at this point. 474 00:25:18,951 --> 00:25:20,985 It just needs the squishy bit put on now. 475 00:25:23,222 --> 00:25:24,989 Yeah. 476 00:25:28,261 --> 00:25:34,999 ♪ ♪ 477 00:25:40,473 --> 00:25:43,774 I feel--I feel odd. 478 00:25:43,876 --> 00:25:45,509 Actually, it's been a really long time 479 00:25:45,611 --> 00:25:48,546 since I felt this feeling, 480 00:25:48,648 --> 00:25:51,682 but I think I'm potentially 481 00:25:51,784 --> 00:25:54,184 a little bit homesick right now. 482 00:25:54,287 --> 00:25:55,853 ♪ ♪ 483 00:25:55,955 --> 00:25:59,657 and I'm not 100% sure, for me, what that means. 484 00:25:59,759 --> 00:26:02,192 Like, what home am I longing for? 485 00:26:02,295 --> 00:26:04,161 ♪ ♪ 486 00:26:04,263 --> 00:26:07,531 I need to, I think, acknowledge the fact that I miss something 487 00:26:07,633 --> 00:26:12,469 from back in my other life, 488 00:26:12,572 --> 00:26:14,171 my life before "alone." 489 00:26:14,273 --> 00:26:17,441 [laughs] 490 00:26:17,543 --> 00:26:21,178 [humming soft melody] 491 00:26:21,280 --> 00:26:26,350 ♪ ♪ 492 00:26:26,452 --> 00:26:32,423 ♪ I am just ♪ 493 00:26:32,525 --> 00:26:37,461 ♪ a lonely soul ♪ 494 00:26:37,563 --> 00:26:42,466 ♪ so where, I ask ♪ 495 00:26:42,568 --> 00:26:47,237 ♪ shall I call my ♪ 496 00:26:47,340 --> 00:26:52,009 ♪ home? ♪ 497 00:26:56,315 --> 00:26:58,015 [chuckles] 498 00:27:05,391 --> 00:27:08,192 [dramatic music] 499 00:27:08,294 --> 00:27:14,999 ♪ ♪ 500 00:27:29,415 --> 00:27:31,215 - good morning. 501 00:27:31,317 --> 00:27:34,685 [yawns] 502 00:27:34,787 --> 00:27:37,655 I had some food dreams last night. 503 00:27:37,757 --> 00:27:38,989 Oh, that's terrible. This early? 504 00:27:41,193 --> 00:27:43,160 Ay. 505 00:27:43,262 --> 00:27:46,597 [scoffs] 506 00:27:46,699 --> 00:27:49,433 I was in a football tournament, 507 00:27:49,535 --> 00:27:52,002 and they had a room... 508 00:27:52,872 --> 00:27:55,172 That everybody could go to and just... 509 00:27:55,274 --> 00:27:58,409 [laughs] 510 00:27:58,511 --> 00:28:01,145 eat all they wanted. 511 00:28:01,247 --> 00:28:04,014 Aww. 512 00:28:06,252 --> 00:28:08,552 [yawns] 513 00:28:08,654 --> 00:28:11,822 so I'm trying to block it out, 514 00:28:11,924 --> 00:28:15,192 try and get some food of my own out here. 515 00:28:15,294 --> 00:28:20,531 ♪ ♪ 516 00:28:20,633 --> 00:28:21,832 mom told me before I left, 517 00:28:21,934 --> 00:28:23,834 the last thing was to look at the moon, 518 00:28:23,936 --> 00:28:27,738 and know I'm looking at the same thing. 519 00:28:27,840 --> 00:28:29,206 We'll be looking at the same time. 520 00:28:29,308 --> 00:28:30,941 ♪ ♪ 521 00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:33,844 I really want to make my mom and dad proud. 522 00:28:33,946 --> 00:28:35,479 They've always loved and supported me. 523 00:28:35,581 --> 00:28:38,582 They're my biggest fans. 524 00:28:38,684 --> 00:28:40,184 I want to do well for them. 525 00:28:40,286 --> 00:28:42,186 ♪ ♪ 526 00:28:42,288 --> 00:28:44,788 oh, yeah. 527 00:28:44,890 --> 00:28:47,191 I've got a lot of faith in this boat. 528 00:28:47,293 --> 00:28:49,927 ♪ ♪ 529 00:28:50,029 --> 00:28:53,764 this boat is amazing. I love it. It's solid. 530 00:28:53,866 --> 00:28:56,767 The outriggers are working perfect. 531 00:28:56,869 --> 00:28:59,470 I feel like I can go anywhere now, 532 00:28:59,572 --> 00:29:01,205 so I'm gonna go for it. 533 00:29:01,307 --> 00:29:03,474 ♪ ♪ 534 00:29:03,576 --> 00:29:06,009 going for a white fish. 535 00:29:09,281 --> 00:29:14,985 ♪ ♪ 536 00:29:15,087 --> 00:29:18,989 my dad and I used to fish bull trout in oregon. 537 00:29:21,961 --> 00:29:24,528 Spent a lot of hours trolling with my dad, 538 00:29:24,630 --> 00:29:27,731 days and days of my life. 539 00:29:27,833 --> 00:29:28,999 I'd love to be trolling with him. 540 00:29:33,339 --> 00:29:35,205 I got a hit. 541 00:29:35,307 --> 00:29:36,440 ♪ ♪ 542 00:29:36,542 --> 00:29:40,210 fish today, baby. Fish today. Come on, fish. Let's do it. 543 00:29:40,312 --> 00:29:41,745 ♪ ♪ 544 00:29:41,847 --> 00:29:45,315 holy [bleep]. I might have done it. 545 00:29:45,417 --> 00:29:47,184 Yes! Yes, yes! 546 00:29:47,286 --> 00:29:49,419 ♪ ♪ 547 00:29:49,522 --> 00:29:51,989 dang it! [bleep]! Ah! 548 00:29:58,364 --> 00:30:02,199 Ahh! So close. 549 00:30:02,301 --> 00:30:07,004 ♪ ♪ 550 00:30:09,275 --> 00:30:10,908 ♪ ♪ 551 00:30:11,010 --> 00:30:13,677 my dad is what got me into this lifestyle. 552 00:30:13,779 --> 00:30:14,344 He introduced me at a young age 553 00:30:14,446 --> 00:30:15,579 to the outdoors, 554 00:30:15,681 --> 00:30:17,881 into hunting, into fishing, 555 00:30:17,983 --> 00:30:20,584 eating wild game, being outdoors, camping. 556 00:30:20,686 --> 00:30:24,822 And I loved it. This is life! 557 00:30:24,924 --> 00:30:27,825 I've been out here for at least three hours. 558 00:30:27,927 --> 00:30:31,195 I've had four bites, no hook-ups, no fish. 559 00:30:31,297 --> 00:30:32,930 ♪ ♪ 560 00:30:33,032 --> 00:30:35,766 I connect with my body through this lifestyle. 561 00:30:35,868 --> 00:30:37,768 I connect with my mind and my heart 562 00:30:37,870 --> 00:30:40,537 more than any other living situation 563 00:30:40,639 --> 00:30:41,205 I've ever had in my life. 564 00:30:41,307 --> 00:30:42,940 ♪ ♪ 565 00:30:43,042 --> 00:30:47,010 it's physically, emotionally, intellectually, 566 00:30:47,112 --> 00:30:50,013 socially more stimulating than the alternative. 567 00:31:13,272 --> 00:31:15,706 ♪ ♪ 568 00:31:15,808 --> 00:31:20,210 yes! It came off right in the boat. 569 00:31:20,312 --> 00:31:22,145 Ha, ha! 570 00:31:22,248 --> 00:31:23,747 Hey. 571 00:31:23,849 --> 00:31:27,184 Hey, I'll take it. I'll take it. Yes! 572 00:31:27,286 --> 00:31:28,385 ♪ ♪ 573 00:31:28,487 --> 00:31:30,520 oh, thank you, fish. 574 00:31:30,623 --> 00:31:32,189 God, I needed a fish today. 575 00:31:32,291 --> 00:31:35,425 ♪ ♪ 576 00:31:35,527 --> 00:31:37,194 I needed a fish today. 577 00:31:37,296 --> 00:31:39,863 ♪ ♪ 578 00:31:39,965 --> 00:31:43,033 I am gonna invest all in right now on fish 579 00:31:43,135 --> 00:31:44,735 because I think that's the best use of my calories. 580 00:31:44,837 --> 00:31:46,370 That's the best use of my time. 581 00:31:46,472 --> 00:31:50,173 I'm gonna go fish. 582 00:31:50,276 --> 00:31:52,209 All right, just need to catch one a day for the next 80 days. 583 00:31:52,311 --> 00:31:53,911 ♪ ♪ 584 00:31:54,013 --> 00:31:56,747 this boat is not gonna have a single focus. 585 00:31:56,849 --> 00:31:57,748 I am gonna troll out of this boat. 586 00:31:57,850 --> 00:31:59,750 I'm gonna jig out of this boat. 587 00:31:59,852 --> 00:32:00,884 I'm gonna anchor up in this boat. 588 00:32:00,986 --> 00:32:03,387 I'm gonna set fish traps at 20 feet, 30 feet, 589 00:32:03,489 --> 00:32:04,888 50 feet, 100 feet. 590 00:32:04,990 --> 00:32:06,990 I'm gonna spend a lot of time in this boat. 591 00:32:08,527 --> 00:32:10,193 Let's go eat some fish. 592 00:32:10,296 --> 00:32:18,001 ♪ ♪ 593 00:32:22,675 --> 00:32:26,443 - I've heard what a great smoke 594 00:32:26,545 --> 00:32:29,012 this kinnikinnick is. 595 00:32:29,481 --> 00:32:31,715 And I don't smoke, 596 00:32:31,817 --> 00:32:34,918 but I figured I'd give it a shot, 597 00:32:35,020 --> 00:32:39,556 so I'm gonna take this random piece of driftwood, 598 00:32:39,658 --> 00:32:41,792 and I'm just gonna make a pipe 599 00:32:41,894 --> 00:32:44,928 or attempt to make a little pipe out of it, 600 00:32:45,030 --> 00:32:48,332 and I've got two cameras just in case I cut myself. 601 00:32:48,434 --> 00:32:50,200 Double the fun. 602 00:32:50,302 --> 00:32:51,835 ♪ ♪ 603 00:32:51,937 --> 00:32:54,471 mentally, the biggest strategy for me 604 00:32:54,573 --> 00:32:55,939 is keep my hands busy, 605 00:32:56,041 --> 00:32:59,810 keep building things, keep working on things, 606 00:32:59,912 --> 00:33:01,812 and that will keep my mind distracted 607 00:33:01,914 --> 00:33:04,214 away from what's going on back home. 608 00:33:04,316 --> 00:33:05,682 ♪ ♪ 609 00:33:05,784 --> 00:33:08,485 I guess I got to bore down a hole 610 00:33:08,587 --> 00:33:13,190 with which to put tobaccy. 611 00:33:13,292 --> 00:33:15,859 ♪ ♪ 612 00:33:15,961 --> 00:33:19,429 there's probably better options than to stab 613 00:33:19,531 --> 00:33:21,198 right through my quad. 614 00:33:21,300 --> 00:33:23,100 ♪ ♪ 615 00:33:23,202 --> 00:33:26,870 I have to not allow myself to think about those things 616 00:33:26,972 --> 00:33:29,973 because if I think about my wife and my son 617 00:33:30,075 --> 00:33:33,777 and make that the pinnacle of why I'm out here 618 00:33:33,879 --> 00:33:37,814 and really push to succeed for them, 619 00:33:37,916 --> 00:33:40,450 then my constant thoughts about them 620 00:33:40,552 --> 00:33:42,753 will make me miss them 621 00:33:42,855 --> 00:33:45,422 and will distract me from surviving. 622 00:33:45,524 --> 00:33:47,924 Not a bad little pipe. 623 00:33:48,027 --> 00:33:50,994 Let's get that kinnikinnick out and pack it up. 624 00:33:51,663 --> 00:33:54,598 I need to be mentally strong 625 00:33:54,700 --> 00:33:57,834 because I have been presented 626 00:33:57,936 --> 00:34:01,405 with a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 627 00:34:01,507 --> 00:34:02,439 It's pretty crumbly. 628 00:34:02,541 --> 00:34:04,007 And if I don't win, 629 00:34:04,109 --> 00:34:06,743 I feel like I'd be doing a disservice to my family. 630 00:34:06,845 --> 00:34:11,615 That $1/2 million would allow me 631 00:34:11,717 --> 00:34:13,517 to pay off all of our bills 632 00:34:13,619 --> 00:34:15,185 and have money left over. 633 00:34:15,287 --> 00:34:16,820 ♪ ♪ 634 00:34:16,922 --> 00:34:19,790 that would allow me to work even less 635 00:34:19,892 --> 00:34:22,192 and spend even more time with my family. 636 00:34:22,294 --> 00:34:26,997 ♪ ♪ 637 00:34:32,404 --> 00:34:35,138 that's not bad. 638 00:34:35,240 --> 00:34:37,007 Huh! 639 00:34:41,580 --> 00:34:45,015 All right. What's up next? 640 00:34:47,252 --> 00:34:54,991 ♪ ♪ 641 00:35:07,506 --> 00:35:09,306 [squirrel chittering] 642 00:35:09,408 --> 00:35:11,608 - there he is. 643 00:35:11,710 --> 00:35:15,011 [mimicking squirrel chittering] 644 00:35:17,483 --> 00:35:19,516 [squirrel chitters] 645 00:35:19,618 --> 00:35:20,984 we say hello every morning. 646 00:35:24,223 --> 00:35:24,988 So... 647 00:35:29,928 --> 00:35:32,963 If you believe that you can talk to animals, 648 00:35:33,065 --> 00:35:37,334 meaning communicate your thought energy in your sound 649 00:35:37,436 --> 00:35:40,737 or in your voice, 650 00:35:40,839 --> 00:35:43,406 do you think that if you mean no harm, 651 00:35:43,509 --> 00:35:44,474 they can read that? 652 00:35:44,576 --> 00:35:47,911 I'd like to believe so. 653 00:35:48,013 --> 00:35:50,447 I'd like to believe I'm sending good vibes out 654 00:35:50,549 --> 00:35:53,183 to the local wildlife. 655 00:35:54,219 --> 00:35:56,753 Unfortunately, the vibes that I'm sending out to the grouse 656 00:35:56,855 --> 00:36:00,056 and the hare is that I want to eat them, 657 00:36:00,159 --> 00:36:02,993 and therefore, they're like, "I'm gonna avoid that man." 658 00:36:04,196 --> 00:36:07,497 I tried asking the eagle this morning to bring me a fish, 659 00:36:07,599 --> 00:36:09,199 but he didn't turn around. 660 00:36:09,301 --> 00:36:16,006 ♪ ♪ 661 00:36:43,268 --> 00:36:49,339 ♪ ♪ 662 00:36:49,441 --> 00:36:51,441 I have an idea. 663 00:36:51,543 --> 00:36:52,876 For pier number one, 664 00:36:52,978 --> 00:36:55,879 I chose just to block it like lincoln logs 665 00:36:55,981 --> 00:36:58,815 and then put a middle brace between it, 666 00:36:58,917 --> 00:37:01,551 but I realized that was my fail point, 667 00:37:01,653 --> 00:37:04,454 and my initial h is pegged. 668 00:37:04,556 --> 00:37:05,922 It's fantastic, solid, 669 00:37:06,024 --> 00:37:10,193 so I decide to peg my supports into the main. 670 00:37:10,295 --> 00:37:12,028 ♪ ♪ 671 00:37:12,130 --> 00:37:16,766 we're on mission set right now, which is find food. 672 00:37:16,868 --> 00:37:18,802 So do everything we can to get food, 673 00:37:18,904 --> 00:37:22,205 and that includes beat the elements. 674 00:37:22,307 --> 00:37:25,442 ♪ ♪ 675 00:37:25,544 --> 00:37:27,210 all right. It's time. 676 00:37:27,312 --> 00:37:34,985 ♪ ♪ 677 00:37:44,296 --> 00:37:46,196 beautiful. 678 00:37:46,298 --> 00:37:49,466 ♪ ♪ 679 00:37:49,568 --> 00:37:50,800 when you're in the wild 680 00:37:50,902 --> 00:37:52,802 and you're in a survival situation, 681 00:37:52,904 --> 00:37:54,871 if you don't have the ability to pivot 682 00:37:54,973 --> 00:37:58,608 when things don't go the way you planned, 683 00:37:58,710 --> 00:37:59,943 then it's gonna be a struggle, 684 00:38:00,045 --> 00:38:02,345 and that's where I think creative problem-solving 685 00:38:02,447 --> 00:38:04,214 comes into play. 686 00:38:04,316 --> 00:38:06,783 ♪ ♪ 687 00:38:06,885 --> 00:38:09,586 this is a huge stepping-stone for me, 688 00:38:09,688 --> 00:38:11,788 to be able to walk out 25 feet 689 00:38:11,890 --> 00:38:14,724 because I know there's gonna be fish. 690 00:38:14,826 --> 00:38:16,192 This is where I start thriving. 691 00:38:16,295 --> 00:38:19,162 ♪ ♪ 692 00:38:19,264 --> 00:38:23,166 oh, wow. 693 00:38:23,268 --> 00:38:24,000 Awesome. 694 00:38:28,407 --> 00:38:31,207 [dramatic music] 695 00:38:31,310 --> 00:38:38,014 ♪ ♪ 696 00:38:55,300 --> 00:38:58,601 - seaweed. 697 00:38:58,704 --> 00:39:01,004 I'll start small, just eat one. 698 00:39:05,210 --> 00:39:08,311 Hmm. 699 00:39:08,413 --> 00:39:10,013 It's crunchy. 700 00:39:17,756 --> 00:39:21,591 Yeah, it doesn't taste good. Mm-mm. 701 00:39:21,693 --> 00:39:24,194 It's time to get back to work. 702 00:39:24,296 --> 00:39:25,729 ♪ ♪ 703 00:39:25,831 --> 00:39:28,798 I'm having zero success fishing. 704 00:39:28,900 --> 00:39:30,767 I need to really finish the fish basket. 705 00:39:30,869 --> 00:39:34,070 Since I can't catch a larger trout, 706 00:39:34,172 --> 00:39:37,073 I can hopefully get some smaller fish with this basket 707 00:39:37,175 --> 00:39:39,976 and maybe cook those up and make a stew out of those. 708 00:39:40,078 --> 00:39:42,612 I'm gonna wrap this with cordage just to make sure 709 00:39:42,714 --> 00:39:46,583 it stays the shape that I want. 710 00:39:46,685 --> 00:39:48,852 A fish basket has two baskets, 711 00:39:48,954 --> 00:39:50,954 a smaller basket inside of a larger basket. 712 00:39:51,056 --> 00:39:54,858 It's a cone shape, and once they swim into it, 713 00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:55,725 they can't figure out how to turn around 714 00:39:55,827 --> 00:39:57,394 and swim back out the same hole 715 00:39:57,496 --> 00:39:58,862 that they came in. 716 00:39:58,964 --> 00:40:00,730 Yeah, I think that's gonna be all right there. 717 00:40:00,832 --> 00:40:02,932 I'm not really that far into it, 718 00:40:03,034 --> 00:40:04,567 and I've already lost quite a bit of weight, 719 00:40:04,669 --> 00:40:06,903 so I have to get some food. 720 00:40:07,005 --> 00:40:10,840 I have to find a better way to get a fish. 721 00:40:10,942 --> 00:40:13,777 This lake is just extremely difficult. 722 00:40:13,879 --> 00:40:15,478 I can't get my line out far enough. 723 00:40:15,580 --> 00:40:17,480 My lures aren't working. 724 00:40:17,582 --> 00:40:18,915 I have to get food soon. 725 00:40:19,017 --> 00:40:23,153 If I don't, I can't keep enough weight on. 726 00:40:24,156 --> 00:40:26,856 There's so much I wanted to do and make while I was here, 727 00:40:26,958 --> 00:40:30,460 but I feel like I'm forced to get things done 728 00:40:30,562 --> 00:40:32,195 so that I can get food. 729 00:40:32,297 --> 00:40:38,468 ♪ ♪ 730 00:40:38,570 --> 00:40:39,736 I knew coming in here 731 00:40:39,838 --> 00:40:42,071 that I move so fast through life 732 00:40:42,174 --> 00:40:45,842 that my thoughts don't really get to catch up with me. 733 00:40:45,944 --> 00:40:47,210 Ah, it's gonna have to have a rock on it. 734 00:40:47,312 --> 00:40:48,878 ♪ ♪ 735 00:40:48,980 --> 00:40:52,449 I think that if you want to clear your mind 736 00:40:52,551 --> 00:40:54,017 and sort things out, 737 00:40:54,119 --> 00:40:57,187 the wilderness is definitely the place to do that. 738 00:40:57,289 --> 00:40:58,788 ♪ ♪ 739 00:40:58,890 --> 00:41:00,190 I need to it to be out there way farther. 740 00:41:00,292 --> 00:41:01,858 ♪ ♪ 741 00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:04,761 all I keep thinking about is my family. 742 00:41:04,863 --> 00:41:07,597 My children are so worried about me. 743 00:41:07,699 --> 00:41:10,033 It's like they're my parents. 744 00:41:10,135 --> 00:41:12,802 I think because of the things that I went through, 745 00:41:12,904 --> 00:41:14,904 been through a lot of ups and downs 746 00:41:15,006 --> 00:41:18,041 and some very rough situations in my life, 747 00:41:18,143 --> 00:41:20,810 and I think they just don't want to see me get hurt, 748 00:41:20,912 --> 00:41:23,480 but all of those different situations, 749 00:41:23,582 --> 00:41:24,747 I just learned to adapt. 750 00:41:24,850 --> 00:41:29,185 Okay, the fish basket is submerged. 751 00:41:29,287 --> 00:41:30,420 ♪ ♪ 752 00:41:30,522 --> 00:41:32,789 I'm very resilient. 753 00:41:32,891 --> 00:41:34,123 Nothing is gonna knock me off my path. 754 00:41:34,226 --> 00:41:36,993 I'm just gonna pick myself up, and I'm gonna keep going. 755 00:41:37,095 --> 00:41:39,996 And I always come back even stronger than I was. 756 00:41:41,366 --> 00:41:41,998 [stomach growls] 757 00:41:45,270 --> 00:41:52,008 ♪ ♪ 758 00:42:12,097 --> 00:42:14,998 - that's the benefit to having a mustache like a walrus. 759 00:42:16,868 --> 00:42:19,002 It filters everything out of your water. 760 00:42:19,504 --> 00:42:21,004 All the large stuff. 761 00:42:24,776 --> 00:42:27,010 The only problem is kissing the wife. 762 00:42:31,983 --> 00:42:33,983 Maybe I'll shave my beard off when I go home. 763 00:42:37,255 --> 00:42:43,993 ♪ ♪ 764 00:42:48,667 --> 00:42:49,999 let's go see if there's a fish. 765 00:42:57,676 --> 00:43:01,210 Oh, my god. Think I got a fish! 766 00:43:01,313 --> 00:43:03,313 ♪ ♪ 767 00:43:03,415 --> 00:43:05,014 look at that. 768 00:43:11,256 --> 00:43:18,261 ♪ ♪ 769 00:43:18,363 --> 00:43:20,196 easy, fella. 770 00:43:20,298 --> 00:43:22,332 ♪ ♪ 771 00:43:22,434 --> 00:43:23,199 that's a rainbow. 772 00:43:23,301 --> 00:43:25,301 ♪ ♪ 773 00:43:25,403 --> 00:43:27,737 rainbow trout. 774 00:43:27,839 --> 00:43:31,207 It's promising. That's what that is. 775 00:43:31,309 --> 00:43:38,014 ♪ ♪ 776 00:43:40,719 --> 00:43:43,853 cooking up this tiny little guy. 777 00:43:43,955 --> 00:43:46,189 So we're gonna eat every single piece of him, 778 00:43:46,291 --> 00:43:48,191 for sure. 779 00:43:48,293 --> 00:43:50,259 ♪ ♪ 780 00:43:50,362 --> 00:43:51,194 I'm excited. 781 00:43:51,296 --> 00:43:53,863 ♪ ♪ 782 00:43:53,965 --> 00:43:56,165 it's not gonna take much to get this guy done. 783 00:43:56,267 --> 00:43:59,235 ♪ ♪ 784 00:43:59,337 --> 00:44:01,204 wonderful. 785 00:44:01,306 --> 00:44:06,376 ♪ ♪ 786 00:44:06,478 --> 00:44:08,211 that was his tail. 787 00:44:08,313 --> 00:44:14,984 ♪ ♪ 788 00:44:16,254 --> 00:44:18,254 told you. 789 00:44:18,356 --> 00:44:19,188 Every piece. 790 00:44:19,290 --> 00:44:22,558 ♪ ♪ 791 00:44:22,661 --> 00:44:24,861 all the way down to the lips. 792 00:44:24,963 --> 00:44:27,964 I know who I am, and I don't have any doubt 793 00:44:28,066 --> 00:44:32,135 about my capability to succeed in a challenge. 794 00:44:32,237 --> 00:44:34,537 Wow. 795 00:44:34,639 --> 00:44:37,106 That was a fast, fast meal. 796 00:44:37,208 --> 00:44:41,177 I'm just an out-of-the-box thinker and problem-solver. 797 00:44:41,279 --> 00:44:43,846 Perfect. 798 00:44:43,948 --> 00:44:47,150 And I'll figure out a way to succeed, 799 00:44:47,252 --> 00:44:50,987 and I don't have that quit in me when there's a struggle. 800 00:44:57,395 --> 00:45:00,196 [dramatic music] 801 00:45:00,298 --> 00:45:07,003 ♪ ♪ 802 00:45:17,415 --> 00:45:18,715 [insect buzzes] 803 00:45:18,817 --> 00:45:21,551 - oh, yeah, bug right in the eye, 804 00:45:21,653 --> 00:45:23,119 right when I'm about to talk. 805 00:45:23,221 --> 00:45:23,986 Mm. 806 00:45:25,924 --> 00:45:28,524 While I'm waiting for my boiled water to cool, 807 00:45:28,626 --> 00:45:30,693 I'm gonna put the one final 808 00:45:30,795 --> 00:45:33,663 most important touch on the cabin, 809 00:45:33,765 --> 00:45:36,199 and that is our family initials. 810 00:45:36,301 --> 00:45:38,801 ♪ ♪ 811 00:45:38,903 --> 00:45:42,271 so I'm gonna put that on the ridge beam, 812 00:45:42,373 --> 00:45:44,207 j, j, o, a. 813 00:45:44,309 --> 00:45:46,542 ♪ ♪ 814 00:45:46,644 --> 00:45:48,811 we put that on everything. 815 00:45:48,913 --> 00:45:50,780 That's inscribed on our wedding bands. 816 00:45:50,882 --> 00:45:54,183 My wife inscribed it on my ax handle. 817 00:45:54,285 --> 00:45:55,418 ♪ ♪ 818 00:45:55,520 --> 00:45:57,687 it's on everything. 819 00:45:57,789 --> 00:46:02,225 Now the o is going to be the fun one, 820 00:46:02,327 --> 00:46:04,193 all curve. 821 00:46:04,295 --> 00:46:07,296 ♪ ♪ 822 00:46:07,398 --> 00:46:08,197 that's better. 823 00:46:08,299 --> 00:46:13,503 ♪ ♪ 824 00:46:13,605 --> 00:46:16,005 now the cabin is complete. 825 00:46:17,575 --> 00:46:20,443 Julia, jordon, odin, aura, 826 00:46:20,545 --> 00:46:21,644 the initials of my wife, 827 00:46:21,746 --> 00:46:25,014 myself, my son, and my daughter. 828 00:46:27,252 --> 00:46:31,187 ♪ ♪ 829 00:46:31,289 --> 00:46:34,190 [sighs] 830 00:46:34,292 --> 00:46:37,994 ♪ ♪ 831 00:46:44,502 --> 00:46:47,570 I just had a moment 832 00:46:47,672 --> 00:46:49,405 thinking about my daughter, 833 00:46:49,507 --> 00:46:53,342 and it gets easier 834 00:46:53,444 --> 00:46:55,344 as time goes on, 835 00:46:55,446 --> 00:46:59,749 but I still have 836 00:46:59,851 --> 00:47:03,186 waves of grief that come over me. 837 00:47:03,288 --> 00:47:08,991 ♪ ♪ 838 00:47:11,663 --> 00:47:14,564 now, I'm a very private person. 839 00:47:14,666 --> 00:47:17,033 I don't have a lot of friends. 840 00:47:17,135 --> 00:47:20,403 I don't talk to a lot of people about personal things, 841 00:47:20,505 --> 00:47:23,773 and very few people 842 00:47:23,875 --> 00:47:29,011 know the details of what I'm about to say. 843 00:47:35,854 --> 00:47:38,754 My daughter was born with a heart defect, 844 00:47:38,857 --> 00:47:40,756 and by the time she was two weeks old, 845 00:47:40,859 --> 00:47:44,527 she had had two open heart surgeries. 846 00:47:44,629 --> 00:47:46,696 When she was six months old, 847 00:47:46,798 --> 00:47:48,531 she had another open heart surgery 848 00:47:48,633 --> 00:47:51,734 that lasted over ten hours, 849 00:47:51,836 --> 00:47:54,570 and every six months after that, 850 00:47:54,672 --> 00:47:56,806 she had catheter procedures 851 00:47:56,908 --> 00:47:59,008 where they would balloon her arteries. 852 00:48:00,144 --> 00:48:04,680 Her long-term prognosis was good through childhood, 853 00:48:04,782 --> 00:48:09,452 and yet we unexpectedly lost her 854 00:48:09,554 --> 00:48:11,187 before she turned four. 855 00:48:11,289 --> 00:48:13,522 ♪ ♪ 856 00:48:13,625 --> 00:48:17,293 but the most painful things 857 00:48:17,395 --> 00:48:18,461 to deal with, 858 00:48:18,563 --> 00:48:21,297 the most painful memory 859 00:48:21,399 --> 00:48:25,334 are the echoes 860 00:48:25,436 --> 00:48:27,470 of the good times 861 00:48:27,572 --> 00:48:29,205 that are no longer there. 862 00:48:29,307 --> 00:48:30,439 ♪ ♪ 863 00:48:30,541 --> 00:48:32,708 it wasn't her passing. 864 00:48:32,810 --> 00:48:35,912 It wasn't the trauma of surgeries. 865 00:48:36,014 --> 00:48:38,214 It was the good times that are no longer there. 866 00:48:38,316 --> 00:48:39,548 ♪ ♪ 867 00:48:39,651 --> 00:48:43,319 she was the most dynamic, 868 00:48:43,421 --> 00:48:44,553 most vibrant, 869 00:48:44,656 --> 00:48:48,457 most amazing spark of light 870 00:48:48,559 --> 00:48:51,193 that you could imagine. 871 00:48:51,296 --> 00:48:52,561 ♪ ♪ 872 00:48:52,664 --> 00:48:53,696 that is the most private part, 873 00:48:53,798 --> 00:48:56,198 the most intimate detail of who I am. 874 00:48:56,301 --> 00:49:00,569 ♪ ♪ 875 00:49:00,672 --> 00:49:05,207 and I'm willing to sit here... 876 00:49:05,310 --> 00:49:08,477 ♪ ♪ 877 00:49:08,579 --> 00:49:12,515 and tell it to a camera 878 00:49:12,617 --> 00:49:15,184 to be seen by who knows... 879 00:49:15,286 --> 00:49:17,753 ♪ ♪ 880 00:49:17,855 --> 00:49:22,258 because that little girl was that magical, 881 00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:25,294 that special 882 00:49:25,396 --> 00:49:28,764 that her tale 883 00:49:28,866 --> 00:49:32,201 should be known throughout the world. 884 00:49:32,303 --> 00:49:36,572 ♪ ♪ 885 00:49:36,674 --> 00:49:38,207 she was our little wildflower. 886 00:49:38,309 --> 00:49:40,443 ♪ ♪ 887 00:49:40,545 --> 00:49:42,211 she bloomed so bright. 888 00:49:42,313 --> 00:49:44,280 ♪ ♪ 889 00:49:44,382 --> 00:49:46,015 so vibrant. 890 00:49:49,854 --> 00:49:52,989 And then spring was gone, and so was she. 891 00:49:59,397 --> 00:50:00,997 I love you, aura. 892 00:50:18,416 --> 00:50:21,183 [dramatic music] 893 00:50:21,285 --> 00:50:27,990 ♪ ♪ 894 00:50:34,999 --> 00:50:37,199 - checked my fish basket out. Nothing in it. 895 00:50:37,301 --> 00:50:38,768 ♪ ♪ 896 00:50:38,870 --> 00:50:41,003 so I'm just gonna throw it back out there. 897 00:50:59,323 --> 00:51:00,990 Interesting. 898 00:51:06,931 --> 00:51:08,397 Apparently, every day, we're gonna do something 899 00:51:08,499 --> 00:51:09,999 a little different. 900 00:51:12,336 --> 00:51:14,003 There we go. 901 00:51:16,307 --> 00:51:18,207 All right. 902 00:51:18,309 --> 00:51:20,109 ♪ ♪ 903 00:51:20,211 --> 00:51:22,878 I think fish basket would be more successful in, like, 904 00:51:22,980 --> 00:51:26,015 a pond or, like, my little creeks at home. 905 00:51:27,652 --> 00:51:28,984 This giant lake, I don't know. 906 00:51:30,021 --> 00:51:33,422 But there's one thing that is certain for me, 907 00:51:33,524 --> 00:51:35,724 and that is berries, 908 00:51:35,827 --> 00:51:36,992 and they're gonna be going away. 909 00:51:37,895 --> 00:51:40,563 I can notice every day that they are, 910 00:51:40,665 --> 00:51:41,764 but I really need to make sure 911 00:51:41,866 --> 00:51:44,733 that I'm getting as many of these as I can 912 00:51:44,836 --> 00:51:47,470 because it's really what's keeping me 913 00:51:47,572 --> 00:51:48,904 fed most of the day now. 914 00:51:49,006 --> 00:51:51,340 You can see that they're starting to fall off 915 00:51:51,442 --> 00:51:52,875 onto the ground, 916 00:51:52,977 --> 00:51:55,211 and then some are drying up at the top. 917 00:51:55,313 --> 00:51:57,079 ♪ ♪ 918 00:51:57,181 --> 00:52:00,883 it's funny how some people need to have other people 919 00:52:00,985 --> 00:52:04,186 in their life or it affects them terribly. 920 00:52:04,288 --> 00:52:05,788 ♪ ♪ 921 00:52:05,890 --> 00:52:09,191 and other people can exist without it. 922 00:52:09,293 --> 00:52:10,593 ♪ ♪ 923 00:52:10,695 --> 00:52:12,895 they're starting to turn black. 924 00:52:12,997 --> 00:52:15,798 I think for most of my life I've felt alone 925 00:52:15,900 --> 00:52:18,467 because most of the people in my life 926 00:52:18,569 --> 00:52:20,002 had always left anyways. 927 00:52:21,906 --> 00:52:25,207 Like, my marriage, he was never there. 928 00:52:25,309 --> 00:52:28,010 He was always running off and doing things with his friends 929 00:52:28,112 --> 00:52:31,280 and wanted me to basically take care of everything, 930 00:52:31,382 --> 00:52:32,948 so I did. 931 00:52:33,050 --> 00:52:36,852 That was no fun because I worked all the time. 932 00:52:36,954 --> 00:52:38,387 I had to 'cause he wanted this giant life, 933 00:52:38,489 --> 00:52:40,556 and so I built it. 934 00:52:40,658 --> 00:52:42,958 And when the kids moved out, 935 00:52:43,060 --> 00:52:44,994 he decided he didn't want to be there either. 936 00:52:48,933 --> 00:52:52,201 And make me able to deal with being alone. 937 00:52:52,303 --> 00:52:53,469 ♪ ♪ 938 00:52:53,571 --> 00:52:55,738 I function okay alone. 939 00:52:55,840 --> 00:52:57,740 Well, I got a half a can, thankfully. 940 00:52:57,842 --> 00:53:01,210 So that's not bad for one little spot. 941 00:53:01,312 --> 00:53:03,112 ♪ ♪ 942 00:53:03,214 --> 00:53:07,816 that's just what I need to do all the time now, every day. 943 00:53:07,919 --> 00:53:11,654 I need to make sure that I'm doing something 944 00:53:11,756 --> 00:53:15,991 to prepare for the upcoming days. 945 00:53:17,261 --> 00:53:23,999 ♪ ♪ 946 00:53:32,910 --> 00:53:36,579 - I really thought about going for a walk, 947 00:53:36,681 --> 00:53:39,949 but really crazy windy day, 948 00:53:40,051 --> 00:53:41,817 and I don't know what it's gonna bring for weather. 949 00:53:41,919 --> 00:53:43,586 It's hard to tell. Clouds are moving fast, 950 00:53:43,688 --> 00:53:47,990 and the winds are just howling. 951 00:53:50,461 --> 00:53:51,427 Look at these ducks. 952 00:53:51,529 --> 00:53:52,561 These ducks don't care 953 00:53:52,663 --> 00:53:55,998 about a little wind and wave. 954 00:53:57,034 --> 00:54:00,836 They're headed somewhere, and you know their feet 955 00:54:00,938 --> 00:54:03,005 are going a million miles an hour right now. 956 00:54:05,009 --> 00:54:09,211 Just chugging along, but they've got each other. 957 00:54:09,313 --> 00:54:16,986 ♪ ♪ 958 00:54:26,063 --> 00:54:30,466 when I began this journey, I was determined to win 959 00:54:30,568 --> 00:54:31,900 or at least go as far 960 00:54:32,003 --> 00:54:35,004 as I possibly could before my body gave out. 961 00:54:36,140 --> 00:54:39,875 I came here because this is the ultimate challenge. 962 00:54:39,977 --> 00:54:42,811 It's the ultimate test of a survivalist. 963 00:54:42,913 --> 00:54:45,814 It's the ultimate test of willpower. 964 00:54:45,916 --> 00:54:48,851 It's the ultimate test of your mind, 965 00:54:48,953 --> 00:54:51,186 your body, and your spiritual connection. 966 00:54:51,289 --> 00:54:52,788 ♪ ♪ 967 00:54:52,890 --> 00:54:56,992 and I knew that the only way to succeed 968 00:54:57,094 --> 00:55:00,863 was to forget about home, to forget about my wife, 969 00:55:00,965 --> 00:55:04,800 my son, and to forget about my daughter 970 00:55:04,902 --> 00:55:07,202 and to immerse myself into this life. 971 00:55:07,305 --> 00:55:10,806 ♪ ♪ 972 00:55:10,908 --> 00:55:14,209 and I've found that I can't do that. 973 00:55:14,312 --> 00:55:16,011 ♪ ♪ 974 00:55:16,113 --> 00:55:19,214 they are woven into the fabric of my heart and my soul. 975 00:55:19,317 --> 00:55:20,316 ♪ ♪ 976 00:55:20,418 --> 00:55:22,751 I find myself 977 00:55:22,853 --> 00:55:25,921 continually thinking of my daughter, 978 00:55:26,023 --> 00:55:28,924 and I realize that I'm actually going through 979 00:55:29,026 --> 00:55:31,994 the same grieving process that I am at home. 980 00:55:33,631 --> 00:55:35,698 But the difference is, at home 981 00:55:35,800 --> 00:55:38,667 I can look into the eyes of my wife, 982 00:55:38,769 --> 00:55:40,969 I can look into the eyes of my son, 983 00:55:41,072 --> 00:55:44,440 and I see a part of her there, and that soothes me, 984 00:55:44,542 --> 00:55:46,542 and that comforts me. 985 00:55:46,644 --> 00:55:48,210 And I don't have that here. 986 00:55:48,312 --> 00:55:55,984 ♪ ♪ 987 00:56:03,260 --> 00:56:06,195 [beeping] 988 00:56:06,297 --> 00:56:09,865 ♪ ♪ 989 00:56:09,967 --> 00:56:14,203 this is jordon. I am officially tapping out. 990 00:56:14,305 --> 00:56:21,009 ♪ ♪ 991 00:56:25,950 --> 00:56:30,986 I'm ready to head back and be with my family. 992 00:56:31,822 --> 00:56:35,724 It is a very, very difficult decision. 993 00:56:35,826 --> 00:56:39,528 You know, if I was here, and it was cold, 994 00:56:39,630 --> 00:56:40,662 and my shelter burned down, 995 00:56:40,765 --> 00:56:42,364 or there was a medical emergency, 996 00:56:42,466 --> 00:56:43,632 or I was starving, 997 00:56:43,734 --> 00:56:46,435 everyone would understand and say, 998 00:56:46,537 --> 00:56:49,471 "hey, he's got to go," 999 00:56:49,573 --> 00:56:51,940 but I'm okay with saying, 1000 00:56:52,042 --> 00:56:54,943 "this is who I am, and this is my time to leave," 1001 00:56:55,045 --> 00:56:58,013 and to leave for my family and to leave for myself. 1002 00:56:59,283 --> 00:57:01,850 ♪ ♪ 1003 00:57:01,952 --> 00:57:06,121 I am naturally such a competitive person. 1004 00:57:06,223 --> 00:57:10,659 I figured that I would have to be dragged from the show. 1005 00:57:10,761 --> 00:57:12,795 I never thought that my boundary 1006 00:57:12,897 --> 00:57:15,898 was gonna come in an emotional form, 1007 00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:19,568 but one of my biggest takeaways from this 1008 00:57:19,670 --> 00:57:21,470 is that I'm not missing out. 1009 00:57:21,572 --> 00:57:23,839 There are parts of me 1010 00:57:23,941 --> 00:57:27,409 that sometimes longs for the adventures 1011 00:57:27,511 --> 00:57:29,545 as a younger man, 1012 00:57:29,647 --> 00:57:31,547 but then I come out here, 1013 00:57:31,649 --> 00:57:34,550 and I realize very quickly 1014 00:57:34,652 --> 00:57:36,885 I don't get the same thrill 1015 00:57:36,987 --> 00:57:40,823 out of experiencing these things by myself. 1016 00:57:40,925 --> 00:57:42,591 The real excitement comes from sharing 1017 00:57:42,693 --> 00:57:45,761 those moments with my family. 1018 00:57:45,863 --> 00:57:49,832 All this time seeking to be alone, 1019 00:57:49,934 --> 00:57:52,201 and yet maybe I don't want to be alone. 1020 00:57:52,303 --> 00:57:56,004 ♪ ♪ 1021 00:57:59,410 --> 00:58:03,212 [dramatic music] 1022 00:58:03,314 --> 00:58:09,985 ♪ ♪ 1023 00:58:12,122 --> 00:58:14,523 - jordon, thank you for sharing your story with us today. 1024 00:58:14,625 --> 00:58:16,725 You have dealt with tragedy, 1025 00:58:16,827 --> 00:58:18,794 and yet you are the happiest person, 1026 00:58:18,896 --> 00:58:21,897 and I think that happiness has got to do 1027 00:58:21,999 --> 00:58:25,767 with this authentic connection with your family. 1028 00:58:25,870 --> 00:58:27,769 - My wife and son are everything to me, 1029 00:58:27,872 --> 00:58:30,906 and so possibly winning $1/2 million, 1030 00:58:31,008 --> 00:58:33,876 all I could think about was paying off our house 1031 00:58:33,978 --> 00:58:36,912 and any bills and basically allowing me 1032 00:58:37,014 --> 00:58:38,847 to work less to spend time with my family. 1033 00:58:38,949 --> 00:58:41,550 - I know, for a lot of people on the show, 1034 00:58:41,652 --> 00:58:42,851 one of the hardest things is, 1035 00:58:42,953 --> 00:58:44,686 you know, being alone, but it's more than that. 1036 00:58:44,788 --> 00:58:46,755 It's being alone with your thoughts. 1037 00:58:46,857 --> 00:58:48,524 - I spent a lot of time in my life alone 1038 00:58:48,626 --> 00:58:50,926 and doing adventures alone, 1039 00:58:51,028 --> 00:58:53,896 and I thought that I was really gonna be rekindling 1040 00:58:53,998 --> 00:58:56,732 some of that adventurous spirit coming out here, 1041 00:58:56,834 --> 00:58:59,201 and going into this, my strategy 1042 00:58:59,303 --> 00:59:03,071 was really to focus on myself and my survival tasks at hand 1043 00:59:03,173 --> 00:59:05,841 and not even allow myself to think about my family. 1044 00:59:05,943 --> 00:59:08,043 - Things like fishing, just standing there 1045 00:59:08,145 --> 00:59:10,479 for hours and hours, I mean, it's hard in those moments 1046 00:59:10,581 --> 00:59:12,114 to keep your mind busy. 1047 00:59:12,216 --> 00:59:15,017 - Yeah, and I think that's when it hit me the hardest. 1048 00:59:15,119 --> 00:59:16,785 It's different when you're talking about grieving 1049 00:59:16,887 --> 00:59:18,554 because it's a lot harder to control 1050 00:59:18,656 --> 00:59:20,556 when those moments hit you. 1051 00:59:20,658 --> 00:59:21,723 Once you start doing things 1052 00:59:21,825 --> 00:59:24,927 like picking berries or fishing, 1053 00:59:25,029 --> 00:59:27,863 your hands may be busy, but your mind is idle 1054 00:59:27,965 --> 00:59:31,066 and free to wander to those darker places, 1055 00:59:31,168 --> 00:59:35,437 and I came to the realization that I actually needed 1056 00:59:35,539 --> 00:59:36,772 my wife and my son. 1057 00:59:36,874 --> 00:59:38,473 They're part of my coping mechanism 1058 00:59:38,576 --> 00:59:39,942 of dealing with grief. 1059 00:59:40,044 --> 00:59:43,011 Being out there and trying to process it alone 1060 00:59:43,113 --> 00:59:45,881 was so much more difficult than I ever imagined. 1061 00:59:45,983 --> 00:59:48,750 The joy of being out here, of being outdoors, 1062 00:59:48,852 --> 00:59:51,553 of making things and troubleshooting 1063 00:59:51,655 --> 00:59:54,423 and all that kind of stuff, 1064 00:59:54,525 --> 00:59:55,891 that joy is fading. 1065 00:59:55,993 --> 00:59:58,860 - You compared your time on "alone" to gambling. 1066 00:59:58,963 --> 01:00:02,030 - Yeah, it really felt like a gamble in a way 1067 01:00:02,132 --> 01:00:06,034 because you don't know how the fishing is going to be. 1068 01:00:06,136 --> 01:00:09,037 You don't know how the game hunting is going to be. 1069 01:00:09,139 --> 01:00:13,175 Maybe bring my bow just in case I scare up any grouse. 1070 01:00:14,144 --> 01:00:17,145 You also don't know how your competitors are doing. 1071 01:00:17,247 --> 01:00:19,548 You're thinking everyone else has a better fishing hole 1072 01:00:19,650 --> 01:00:20,916 or better hunting grounds. 1073 01:00:21,018 --> 01:00:22,551 - I mean, that was a struggle for you, right? 1074 01:00:22,653 --> 01:00:25,654 - It absolutely was, you know? 1075 01:00:25,756 --> 01:00:27,055 Here I am on choko lake thinking 1076 01:00:27,157 --> 01:00:31,059 that the fishing is easy, and that wasn't the case. 1077 01:00:31,161 --> 01:00:33,762 - You spent a ton of time on that log, your fishing pier, 1078 01:00:33,864 --> 01:00:35,998 and tell us about that incredible moment 1079 01:00:36,100 --> 01:00:39,001 when you hooked that trout and dragged it to shore. 1080 01:00:39,103 --> 01:00:42,404 - I was in utter disbelief when I hooked that fish. 1081 01:00:42,506 --> 01:00:44,172 [laughing] yeah! 1082 01:00:44,274 --> 01:00:45,974 Yeah! 1083 01:00:46,076 --> 01:00:51,747 And I was in such shock, and to finally get that fish 1084 01:00:51,849 --> 01:00:53,915 made me feel like I did something 1085 01:00:54,018 --> 01:00:56,685 that is actually contributing to survival, 1086 01:00:56,787 --> 01:00:58,053 and I could not wait to eat it. 1087 01:00:58,155 --> 01:00:59,988 - Oh, yeah, your joy at the end of that was just great. 1088 01:01:00,090 --> 01:01:04,760 I totally knew how that fell. Just, like, so exciting. 1089 01:01:04,862 --> 01:01:06,595 - Whoo! - Tell me about the importance 1090 01:01:06,697 --> 01:01:08,764 of those small victories for you. 1091 01:01:08,866 --> 01:01:10,365 - Those small victories were everything. 1092 01:01:10,467 --> 01:01:12,801 Look what I found. 1093 01:01:12,903 --> 01:01:15,737 So just finding a couple of gooseberries 1094 01:01:15,839 --> 01:01:16,938 underneath the leaves or finding 1095 01:01:17,041 --> 01:01:20,475 the perfect alder branch to make the door handle, 1096 01:01:20,577 --> 01:01:22,711 any little win felt like 1097 01:01:22,813 --> 01:01:25,414 it was just another check mark of, 1098 01:01:25,516 --> 01:01:26,581 hey, I'm making it. 1099 01:01:26,684 --> 01:01:27,582 I'm getting there. - Yeah. 1100 01:01:27,685 --> 01:01:29,451 - The remains of the flowers 1101 01:01:29,553 --> 01:01:30,919 look like little suns, 1102 01:01:31,021 --> 01:01:33,922 and that is enough to make me smile this morning. 1103 01:01:34,024 --> 01:01:36,024 - Now, let's talk about your permanent shelter. 1104 01:01:36,126 --> 01:01:40,796 - I had a strong plan going in to make a solid shelter 1105 01:01:40,898 --> 01:01:43,565 and feel like I actually have a home. 1106 01:01:43,667 --> 01:01:44,866 - Feels good to be in there 1107 01:01:44,968 --> 01:01:46,134 when other things could be going wrong. 1108 01:01:46,236 --> 01:01:48,570 - Yeah, it's kind of like when you come home from work, 1109 01:01:48,672 --> 01:01:49,738 and you put down your wallet 1110 01:01:49,840 --> 01:01:52,174 and your keys in that one spot. 1111 01:01:52,276 --> 01:01:55,143 I wanted to be able to walk into my shelter and feel like 1112 01:01:55,245 --> 01:01:58,480 I had a place for everything and everything in its place. 1113 01:01:58,582 --> 01:02:00,882 Spot for my hat at night. 1114 01:02:00,984 --> 01:02:03,318 That's something that kept me mentally healthy 1115 01:02:03,420 --> 01:02:04,286 during that time. 1116 01:02:04,388 --> 01:02:06,054 - Yeah, totally. 1117 01:02:06,156 --> 01:02:08,056 I always have to have a shelf of treasures and whatever. 1118 01:02:08,158 --> 01:02:09,491 It doesn't even matter if it's, like, a pile of leaves. 1119 01:02:09,593 --> 01:02:10,892 I have to have, like, my-- 1120 01:02:10,994 --> 01:02:13,628 to feel that kind of sense of, you're at home, 1121 01:02:13,731 --> 01:02:15,764 and it feels good to be in there 1122 01:02:15,866 --> 01:02:17,499 when other things could be going wrong. 1123 01:02:17,601 --> 01:02:18,700 - Exactly. [both laugh] 1124 01:02:18,802 --> 01:02:21,436 - jordon, your story is inspiring. 1125 01:02:21,538 --> 01:02:22,771 Thank you for setting 1126 01:02:22,873 --> 01:02:25,707 such a beautiful example for us to follow. 1127 01:02:25,809 --> 01:02:27,209 - Thank you. I'm very, very lucky. 1128 01:02:27,311 --> 01:02:30,645 ♪ ♪ 1129 01:02:30,748 --> 01:02:32,481 - holy [bleep]. Those are bears. 1130 01:02:32,583 --> 01:02:34,149 Hey! [air horn blares] 1131 01:02:34,251 --> 01:02:37,986 - I need to get some food. Definitely seeing some grouse. 1132 01:02:39,790 --> 01:02:43,458 - Oh, [bleep]. Hornets. Ah, [bleep]. 1133 01:02:43,560 --> 01:02:44,860 - Some fresh deer sign. 1134 01:02:44,962 --> 01:02:46,795 That gives me a little bit of confidence 1135 01:02:46,897 --> 01:02:47,996 that we're gonna have some deer here. 1136 01:02:50,267 --> 01:02:57,005 ♪ ♪