1 00:00:04,438 --> 00:00:07,206 [tense music] 2 00:00:07,308 --> 00:00:15,014 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:21,122 --> 00:00:24,923 narrator: In "alone's" most terrifying location yet, 4 00:00:25,026 --> 00:00:27,393 ten participants face the deadliest predator 5 00:00:27,495 --> 00:00:29,828 in north america. 6 00:00:29,930 --> 00:00:31,830 - There he is, right there. - Grizzly bears. 7 00:00:31,932 --> 00:00:33,699 - Hey, bear! - Got a lot of grizzlies here. 8 00:00:33,801 --> 00:00:34,299 I'm going to have to live with them. 9 00:00:34,402 --> 00:00:36,068 - Go on, get! 10 00:00:36,170 --> 00:00:38,637 - Every second we're on the land, we're being hunted. 11 00:00:38,739 --> 00:00:40,706 - Holy [bleep], a mountain lion. 12 00:00:40,808 --> 00:00:41,740 - He's circling around my shelter. 13 00:00:41,842 --> 00:00:43,409 Narrator: Bone-chilling cold... 14 00:00:43,511 --> 00:00:45,144 - Winter is coming. 15 00:00:45,246 --> 00:00:46,945 - When you combine the wind with the rain and the cold, 16 00:00:47,048 --> 00:00:49,314 this place could make the arctic look easy. 17 00:00:49,417 --> 00:00:50,749 - Ah, [bleep]. 18 00:00:50,851 --> 00:00:52,718 Narrator: And complete isolation. 19 00:00:52,820 --> 00:00:54,520 - You cannot hide from yourself, 20 00:00:54,622 --> 00:00:56,155 mentally and emotionally. 21 00:00:56,257 --> 00:00:57,523 - Ah! 22 00:00:57,625 --> 00:00:58,657 - There's no place to go. 23 00:00:58,759 --> 00:01:00,559 - I am suffering from loneliness. 24 00:01:00,661 --> 00:01:02,261 Narrator: Who will survive? 25 00:01:02,363 --> 00:01:04,463 - Yes! Yes! 26 00:01:04,565 --> 00:01:07,099 - This could be the end. 27 00:01:07,201 --> 00:01:08,901 - I don't want it to tap, but I don't want to die either. 28 00:01:09,003 --> 00:01:11,270 - You have to suffer before you can succeed. 29 00:01:11,372 --> 00:01:12,805 - [retches] 30 00:01:12,907 --> 00:01:15,808 narrator: The last one standing wins. 31 00:01:15,910 --> 00:01:18,310 - At what point do I push the button? 32 00:01:18,412 --> 00:01:19,011 [bear growls] 33 00:01:21,549 --> 00:01:24,183 [soft dramatic music] 34 00:01:24,285 --> 00:01:26,285 ♪ ♪ 35 00:01:26,387 --> 00:01:28,187 [wind howling] 36 00:01:28,289 --> 00:01:33,992 ♪ ♪ 37 00:01:39,266 --> 00:01:46,004 ♪ ♪ 38 00:01:49,009 --> 00:01:52,744 - this land is as wild as any in north america. 39 00:01:52,847 --> 00:01:55,814 Chilko lake is extremely rugged. 40 00:01:55,916 --> 00:01:57,449 Landslides, rockslides, fires, winds, 41 00:01:57,551 --> 00:01:59,051 cold, hypothermia, snow. 42 00:01:59,153 --> 00:02:01,620 I mean like, there's a reason no one lives out here. 43 00:02:01,722 --> 00:02:05,057 - Bye-bye, people. I am alone. 44 00:02:05,159 --> 00:02:08,093 - The higher elevation is going to be a huge factor. 45 00:02:08,195 --> 00:02:10,729 We're going to have to deal with subzero temperatures, 46 00:02:10,831 --> 00:02:13,198 heavy snowfall, and extreme winds. 47 00:02:13,300 --> 00:02:14,500 ♪ ♪ 48 00:02:14,602 --> 00:02:17,302 - it has officially begun. 49 00:02:17,404 --> 00:02:18,170 [bleep] crazy. 50 00:02:18,272 --> 00:02:19,204 [laughs] 51 00:02:19,306 --> 00:02:20,939 ♪ ♪ 52 00:02:21,041 --> 00:02:22,774 - you're not at the top of the food chain here. 53 00:02:22,877 --> 00:02:25,777 Black bears, cougar, wolves, moose, 54 00:02:25,880 --> 00:02:26,812 but then the big one is grizzlies. 55 00:02:26,914 --> 00:02:29,014 I mean, if you come up on a grizzly, 56 00:02:29,116 --> 00:02:31,750 the next thing you know, you're in a world of hurt. 57 00:02:31,852 --> 00:02:33,452 - The chilko region is a massive, 58 00:02:33,554 --> 00:02:34,853 salmon-spawning ground, 59 00:02:34,955 --> 00:02:38,924 and there is just tons of grizzly bears. 60 00:02:39,026 --> 00:02:41,426 - Bear tracks, definitely within the last 24 hours. 61 00:02:41,529 --> 00:02:43,195 So they're out there. 62 00:02:43,297 --> 00:02:44,763 ♪ ♪ 63 00:02:44,865 --> 00:02:46,765 - "alone" is the ultimate benchmark. 64 00:02:46,867 --> 00:02:49,768 With nothing but ten permitted items, 65 00:02:49,870 --> 00:02:52,871 we have to build a life and survive. 66 00:02:52,973 --> 00:02:54,907 - I don't think there's anything more real 67 00:02:55,009 --> 00:02:57,543 than what we're about to do. It's all on me. 68 00:02:57,645 --> 00:02:59,178 It's just me and the wild. 69 00:02:59,280 --> 00:03:02,614 - Everybody is here because they have the physical skills, 70 00:03:02,716 --> 00:03:04,550 but in survival, it's mental. 71 00:03:04,652 --> 00:03:06,985 - There goes my last contact. 72 00:03:09,356 --> 00:03:10,989 Holy [bleep]. 73 00:03:13,227 --> 00:03:13,992 It's on. 74 00:03:16,463 --> 00:03:18,297 My heart is beating. 75 00:03:18,399 --> 00:03:20,999 I am so excited. 76 00:03:22,469 --> 00:03:25,003 Day one, minute one. 77 00:03:27,575 --> 00:03:30,576 And so it begins. [laughs] 78 00:03:30,678 --> 00:03:33,011 holy crap. I'm on "alone." 79 00:03:34,515 --> 00:03:35,714 it's hard to believe. 80 00:03:35,816 --> 00:03:37,983 It almost brings tears to my eyes. 81 00:03:41,522 --> 00:03:43,989 I'm so glad to be here. 82 00:03:47,761 --> 00:03:51,463 My girlfriend, brittany, and my kids 83 00:03:51,565 --> 00:03:53,732 have sacrificed so much 84 00:03:53,834 --> 00:03:56,001 so that I can come here and do this. 85 00:03:58,639 --> 00:04:00,005 I won't waste their sacrifice. 86 00:04:01,408 --> 00:04:02,741 [tense music] 87 00:04:02,843 --> 00:04:04,776 - so I found me some coyote tracks, 88 00:04:04,878 --> 00:04:06,078 wanted to show you what they look like. 89 00:04:06,180 --> 00:04:08,847 I've been doing this kind of stuff since I was born. 90 00:04:08,949 --> 00:04:10,816 When most kids were riding skateboards, 91 00:04:10,918 --> 00:04:12,784 me and my brother were sneaking off 92 00:04:12,886 --> 00:04:13,619 to the neighbor's pond to catch fish. 93 00:04:13,721 --> 00:04:17,189 Wyoming white-tailed jackrabbit. 94 00:04:17,291 --> 00:04:18,223 ♪ ♪ 95 00:04:18,325 --> 00:04:20,892 my strongest skill set is big game hunting. 96 00:04:20,995 --> 00:04:23,929 I've been hunting bears for quite some time. 97 00:04:24,031 --> 00:04:24,863 I think I can safely say I have more experience 98 00:04:24,965 --> 00:04:26,398 with bears than anybody on this season. 99 00:04:26,500 --> 00:04:28,066 Looking pretty mean. 100 00:04:28,168 --> 00:04:31,003 You need to respect them, but you cannot fear them. 101 00:04:31,105 --> 00:04:32,771 If you fear a grizzly, they're going to know it, 102 00:04:32,873 --> 00:04:36,008 and that never works in your favor. 103 00:04:37,511 --> 00:04:38,510 - Hey. - [giggles] 104 00:04:38,612 --> 00:04:41,013 - the reason I'm doing this is for the money. 105 00:04:41,115 --> 00:04:44,082 I've got an eight-year-old daughter that I adopted. 106 00:04:44,184 --> 00:04:46,885 I have a great girlfriend. She has a son of her own, 107 00:04:46,987 --> 00:04:50,022 and we have identical twin girls together. 108 00:04:50,124 --> 00:04:53,392 That money is going to allow me to spend more time 109 00:04:53,494 --> 00:04:54,826 with my children. 110 00:04:54,928 --> 00:04:56,728 It is going to be a very tough season, 111 00:04:56,830 --> 00:04:58,997 but my number one goal is to win, 112 00:04:59,099 --> 00:05:02,200 and there's nothing out there I can't overcome. 113 00:05:02,303 --> 00:05:04,002 ♪ ♪ 114 00:05:06,106 --> 00:05:09,207 shelter, hunting and fishing. Those are my three goals. 115 00:05:09,310 --> 00:05:10,742 ♪ ♪ 116 00:05:10,844 --> 00:05:12,978 if I can do those three successfully, 117 00:05:13,080 --> 00:05:15,347 then all I have to do is overcome the loneliness, 118 00:05:15,449 --> 00:05:17,816 and I'll succeed. 119 00:05:17,918 --> 00:05:20,986 I'm not going to do too much more exploring. 120 00:05:21,889 --> 00:05:23,422 I've got to start thinking about dinner. 121 00:05:23,524 --> 00:05:25,190 I've seen two grouse. 122 00:05:25,292 --> 00:05:26,825 ♪ ♪ 123 00:05:26,927 --> 00:05:28,827 I've got to find me a good throwing stick, 124 00:05:28,929 --> 00:05:31,196 in case I come across another one of them. 125 00:05:31,298 --> 00:05:32,397 ♪ ♪ 126 00:05:32,499 --> 00:05:35,334 I want to do it better than anybody has in the past, 127 00:05:35,436 --> 00:05:36,802 110 days plus. 128 00:05:36,904 --> 00:05:39,805 To win this thing, you need willpower 129 00:05:39,907 --> 00:05:41,940 because the suck is definitely coming, 130 00:05:42,042 --> 00:05:43,542 and the only way you're going to get through it 131 00:05:43,644 --> 00:05:45,310 is with enough willpower. 132 00:05:45,412 --> 00:05:47,279 Look at this. 133 00:05:47,381 --> 00:05:48,380 That's bear. 134 00:05:48,482 --> 00:05:51,183 [breathing deeply] 135 00:05:51,285 --> 00:05:52,818 ♪ ♪ 136 00:05:52,920 --> 00:05:54,720 this is grizzly central. Every log I look at, 137 00:05:54,822 --> 00:05:57,756 every round log has been torn into. 138 00:05:57,858 --> 00:06:02,194 The bears tear into it looking for food. 139 00:06:02,296 --> 00:06:04,029 ♪ ♪ 140 00:06:04,131 --> 00:06:06,865 we are in one of the highest grizzly bear populations 141 00:06:06,967 --> 00:06:08,900 in north america. It's not a matter of if. 142 00:06:09,002 --> 00:06:11,203 I know I'm going to encounter grizzlies here. 143 00:06:11,305 --> 00:06:13,538 ♪ ♪ 144 00:06:13,640 --> 00:06:15,874 shelter is a big priority. 145 00:06:15,976 --> 00:06:17,609 I don't not want to spend too many nights 146 00:06:17,711 --> 00:06:18,977 with this number of grizzlies 147 00:06:19,079 --> 00:06:22,214 without a shelter that can semi-keep them out. 148 00:06:22,316 --> 00:06:24,649 ♪ ♪ 149 00:06:24,752 --> 00:06:25,984 that's definitely a grizzly bear. 150 00:06:27,187 --> 00:06:28,453 One. 151 00:06:28,555 --> 00:06:30,288 It's pretty damn fresh. 152 00:06:30,391 --> 00:06:32,190 Not a good sign. 153 00:06:32,292 --> 00:06:35,894 ♪ ♪ 154 00:06:35,996 --> 00:06:38,563 a grizzly bear is capable of consuming you. 155 00:06:38,665 --> 00:06:40,799 He can just simply end you, 156 00:06:40,901 --> 00:06:42,200 and it can happen in a split second. 157 00:06:42,302 --> 00:06:43,735 ♪ ♪ 158 00:06:43,837 --> 00:06:49,007 it just hit me how alone I really am. 159 00:06:52,413 --> 00:06:55,213 [dramatic music] 160 00:06:55,315 --> 00:07:01,987 ♪ ♪ 161 00:07:11,331 --> 00:07:11,997 [bird cries] 162 00:07:14,968 --> 00:07:18,003 - got a little game trail coming down this way, 163 00:07:18,105 --> 00:07:20,005 running right down the middle of this little ridge. 164 00:07:30,984 --> 00:07:32,984 I'm not looking for anything in particular. 165 00:07:33,086 --> 00:07:35,921 I'm just looking to see what I have to work with. 166 00:07:36,023 --> 00:07:39,991 You always hope that you get lucky with a site, 167 00:07:40,093 --> 00:07:43,028 but it doesn't do any good to hope for the best. 168 00:07:43,130 --> 00:07:44,896 You have what you have, and that's what you're going 169 00:07:44,998 --> 00:07:46,998 to have for the rest of the time you're here. 170 00:07:48,602 --> 00:07:52,003 Ooh, look at that. Nice. 171 00:07:55,409 --> 00:07:57,342 The first forage. 172 00:07:57,444 --> 00:07:59,010 [gentle music] 173 00:07:59,112 --> 00:08:02,881 putting food on the table is my primary concern. 174 00:08:02,983 --> 00:08:05,150 My body type is not built to hold weight. 175 00:08:05,252 --> 00:08:08,186 The weight that I've put on is going to fall off quickly, 176 00:08:08,288 --> 00:08:10,755 and once that happens, I'm not going to have those reserves. 177 00:08:10,858 --> 00:08:12,457 So it's going to be very important 178 00:08:12,559 --> 00:08:13,792 that I know the plants, 179 00:08:13,894 --> 00:08:15,861 that I can hunt all the birds, grouse, 180 00:08:15,963 --> 00:08:19,331 and that I'm able to catch enough fish. 181 00:08:19,433 --> 00:08:21,466 Pretty good haul. 182 00:08:21,568 --> 00:08:23,001 I'm under no illusions 183 00:08:23,103 --> 00:08:27,806 that it's going to be easy to be out here alone. 184 00:08:27,908 --> 00:08:29,741 It's going to be the most difficult thing 185 00:08:29,843 --> 00:08:31,009 I've ever attempted in my life. 186 00:08:33,680 --> 00:08:35,981 - Whoa! Dad's got it. - Yes. 187 00:08:36,083 --> 00:08:37,816 - I was a wildlife [indistinct] for ten years. 188 00:08:37,918 --> 00:08:39,985 I've trapped every animal in idaho. 189 00:08:41,889 --> 00:08:43,822 You can't learn that stuff from a book. 190 00:08:43,924 --> 00:08:47,125 That's experience. That's what I bring. 191 00:08:47,227 --> 00:08:51,463 I'm primarily a video creator with a focus on primitive 192 00:08:51,565 --> 00:08:52,764 and traditional archery. 193 00:08:52,866 --> 00:08:54,533 Bow building is my passion. Deadly. 194 00:08:54,635 --> 00:08:56,835 I want to do this because 195 00:08:56,937 --> 00:08:59,070 it's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 196 00:08:59,172 --> 00:09:01,339 I don't feel like I need to provide anything to anyone. 197 00:09:01,441 --> 00:09:03,108 This is for me. 198 00:09:03,210 --> 00:09:05,744 There's things that you can only learn about yourself 199 00:09:05,846 --> 00:09:08,179 when you face challenges like this. 200 00:09:08,282 --> 00:09:09,080 Whoo! 201 00:09:09,182 --> 00:09:11,082 That's what I'm looking forward to. 202 00:09:11,184 --> 00:09:14,019 My family is the biggest thing that I'm going to miss, 203 00:09:14,121 --> 00:09:18,657 but for me, the way to them is through this thing. 204 00:09:18,759 --> 00:09:20,058 The prize money would be great. 205 00:09:20,160 --> 00:09:22,561 We could set up a couple of college funds for the kids, 206 00:09:22,663 --> 00:09:24,129 and it'd pay off our house. 207 00:09:24,231 --> 00:09:27,198 This will be far longer than I've ever been gone before, 208 00:09:27,301 --> 00:09:30,602 and as time goes on, it's just I'm going to want to see them. 209 00:09:30,704 --> 00:09:32,904 But I can't imagine a scenario 210 00:09:33,006 --> 00:09:35,273 that's going to cause me to tap that button. 211 00:09:35,375 --> 00:09:36,007 - Bye, dad. 212 00:09:40,781 --> 00:09:43,014 - I haven't found anything that... 213 00:09:44,918 --> 00:09:47,752 Looks like a place that I would want to hunt. 214 00:09:47,854 --> 00:09:51,990 This stuff is just thick and uninviting. 215 00:09:58,599 --> 00:10:01,433 Ah, [bleep]. Some grouse. 216 00:10:01,535 --> 00:10:04,202 [suspenseful music] 217 00:10:04,304 --> 00:10:11,009 ♪ ♪ 218 00:10:31,264 --> 00:10:33,198 dinner! 219 00:10:33,300 --> 00:10:35,200 ♪ ♪ 220 00:10:35,302 --> 00:10:37,002 [exhales] 221 00:10:44,378 --> 00:10:46,011 beautiful birds. 222 00:10:49,483 --> 00:10:52,183 [thoughtful music] 223 00:10:52,285 --> 00:10:57,722 ♪ ♪ 224 00:10:57,824 --> 00:10:59,457 the thing that separates the people 225 00:10:59,559 --> 00:11:00,725 that are gonna tap early 226 00:11:00,827 --> 00:11:03,595 from the people that stay out here 227 00:11:03,697 --> 00:11:06,731 is fortitude, mental toughness 228 00:11:06,833 --> 00:11:08,933 because it's going to get hard. 229 00:11:09,036 --> 00:11:11,436 The people that go out thinking that they have 230 00:11:11,538 --> 00:11:12,904 it all figured out, 231 00:11:13,006 --> 00:11:16,274 that have a huge ego about what they can do, 232 00:11:16,376 --> 00:11:17,776 good luck 233 00:11:17,878 --> 00:11:19,244 because you're going to get humbled. 234 00:11:20,080 --> 00:11:23,214 It looks like a fine meal in the making right there. 235 00:11:23,316 --> 00:11:25,083 ♪ ♪ 236 00:11:25,185 --> 00:11:27,585 being in grizzly country is definitely going to affect 237 00:11:27,688 --> 00:11:28,820 the way that I do everything. 238 00:11:28,922 --> 00:11:30,789 I have to maintain a separate cook site 239 00:11:30,891 --> 00:11:32,857 because if a bear starts associating 240 00:11:32,959 --> 00:11:34,592 food with the place that you're living, 241 00:11:34,695 --> 00:11:36,461 you're going to have problems, 242 00:11:36,563 --> 00:11:38,797 but I don't live my life 243 00:11:38,899 --> 00:11:40,865 in fear of things that might happen. 244 00:11:40,967 --> 00:11:43,401 When I'm out there and something comes up, 245 00:11:43,503 --> 00:11:45,003 I'll deal with it. 246 00:11:46,339 --> 00:11:48,440 [twigs snap] 247 00:11:48,542 --> 00:11:50,341 the [bleep] was that? 248 00:11:50,444 --> 00:11:53,211 [tense music] 249 00:11:53,313 --> 00:11:58,316 ♪ ♪ 250 00:11:58,418 --> 00:12:00,185 got me all jumpy. 251 00:12:00,287 --> 00:12:03,288 ♪ ♪ 252 00:12:03,390 --> 00:12:05,724 holy [bleep]. 253 00:12:05,826 --> 00:12:07,992 Mountain lion. [whispering] oh, my god. 254 00:12:12,332 --> 00:12:14,999 Oh, my god. 255 00:12:22,409 --> 00:12:25,210 [tense music] 256 00:12:25,312 --> 00:12:31,983 ♪ ♪ 257 00:12:36,556 --> 00:12:38,623 - [whispering] oh, my god. 258 00:12:38,725 --> 00:12:41,192 That is a [bleep] mountain lion. 259 00:12:41,294 --> 00:12:49,000 ♪ ♪ 260 00:13:06,386 --> 00:13:07,986 [leaves rustle] 261 00:13:25,338 --> 00:13:27,005 [twigs snap] 262 00:13:29,409 --> 00:13:32,010 [jacket rustling] 263 00:13:44,224 --> 00:13:45,190 [bleep]. 264 00:13:45,292 --> 00:13:52,997 ♪ ♪ 265 00:13:55,235 --> 00:13:57,001 damn it. 266 00:13:58,805 --> 00:14:01,005 Ah, I thought I could get him to tree. 267 00:14:03,276 --> 00:14:04,008 [sighs] 268 00:14:06,580 --> 00:14:09,013 that was freaking awesome. 269 00:14:09,416 --> 00:14:10,982 Holy [bleep]. 270 00:14:13,386 --> 00:14:15,420 [desolate music] 271 00:14:15,522 --> 00:14:17,956 that was a mistake. 272 00:14:18,058 --> 00:14:22,393 I tried to slip back to my tent and get my bow, 273 00:14:22,495 --> 00:14:23,795 and when I did that, 274 00:14:23,897 --> 00:14:25,997 he took that as an opportunity to leave. 275 00:14:27,067 --> 00:14:31,102 What I should have done was rushed him right then, 276 00:14:31,204 --> 00:14:34,005 and he'd went up a tree and I could have killed that cat. 277 00:14:35,475 --> 00:14:37,008 Man, that was cool. 278 00:14:39,980 --> 00:14:44,282 I hope I see him again with my bow in my hand. 279 00:14:44,384 --> 00:14:45,984 God dang it. 280 00:14:51,524 --> 00:14:54,192 [soft dramatic music] 281 00:14:54,294 --> 00:15:00,999 ♪ ♪ 282 00:15:04,704 --> 00:15:07,305 - freaking awesome. I'm ready. 283 00:15:07,407 --> 00:15:09,440 Get out of here! 284 00:15:09,542 --> 00:15:11,609 [boat engine humming] 285 00:15:11,711 --> 00:15:13,311 there they go. There they go. 286 00:15:13,413 --> 00:15:15,013 They're going. 287 00:15:16,349 --> 00:15:18,182 Super crazy. 288 00:15:18,285 --> 00:15:20,852 [sighs] 289 00:15:20,954 --> 00:15:24,188 first impressions: Really freaking beautiful. 290 00:15:24,291 --> 00:15:26,424 ♪ ♪ 291 00:15:26,526 --> 00:15:28,593 my baggage over here. 292 00:15:28,695 --> 00:15:31,195 All right. Let's get started. 293 00:15:31,298 --> 00:15:34,966 ♪ ♪ 294 00:15:35,068 --> 00:15:38,603 during boot camp, they talk about drop shock, 295 00:15:38,705 --> 00:15:39,671 and I get it. I get it. 296 00:15:39,773 --> 00:15:43,007 Definitely crazy. [chuckles] 297 00:15:46,246 --> 00:15:47,211 whoa. 298 00:15:47,314 --> 00:15:51,215 ♪ ♪ 299 00:15:51,318 --> 00:15:53,151 [laughing] 300 00:15:53,253 --> 00:15:55,453 yeah! 301 00:15:55,555 --> 00:15:57,989 Look at that right there. 302 00:15:58,591 --> 00:16:01,426 It is a little bull moose. 303 00:16:01,528 --> 00:16:03,828 That's freaking cool. 304 00:16:03,930 --> 00:16:05,530 They look like a log, like a branchy log, 305 00:16:05,632 --> 00:16:06,898 and then it turned its head, 306 00:16:07,000 --> 00:16:10,001 and I thought it was like a bird flapping wings. 307 00:16:11,571 --> 00:16:13,204 But it's a freaking moose. 308 00:16:13,306 --> 00:16:16,574 ♪ ♪ 309 00:16:16,676 --> 00:16:18,476 that is such a sweet greeting. 310 00:16:18,578 --> 00:16:21,446 I'm so pumped. Home. 311 00:16:21,548 --> 00:16:24,015 I am officially home. 312 00:16:25,485 --> 00:16:26,751 I live in st. Croix, 313 00:16:26,853 --> 00:16:30,021 beautiful sunny u.S. Virgin islands. 314 00:16:30,123 --> 00:16:32,790 There's never a day where I can't go to the beach. 315 00:16:32,892 --> 00:16:36,127 My wife and I teach primitive skills. 316 00:16:36,229 --> 00:16:39,464 When I first started getting into these primitive skills, 317 00:16:39,566 --> 00:16:40,765 it was immediately like, 318 00:16:40,867 --> 00:16:42,033 "oh, this is the rest of my life," 319 00:16:42,135 --> 00:16:44,602 and it was something that I put myself in entirely. 320 00:16:44,704 --> 00:16:45,770 I lived in a primitive shelter 321 00:16:45,872 --> 00:16:48,072 for seven years through the winters. 322 00:16:48,174 --> 00:16:51,476 I spent an entire year using nothing but stone tools 323 00:16:51,578 --> 00:16:53,044 as my cutting implement. 324 00:16:53,146 --> 00:16:57,548 I understand how to exchange the modern distractions 325 00:16:57,650 --> 00:16:58,983 for the ability to listen. 326 00:16:59,085 --> 00:17:02,120 When you're successful at a challenge like this, 327 00:17:02,222 --> 00:17:03,988 it's because you're listening. It's because you're open. 328 00:17:04,090 --> 00:17:05,957 You're not trying to force your ideas on things. 329 00:17:06,059 --> 00:17:08,726 I see this in a lot of ways as a vision quest. 330 00:17:08,828 --> 00:17:10,862 I want to reach deep inside myself 331 00:17:10,964 --> 00:17:14,365 and see what else is there and to evolve. 332 00:17:14,467 --> 00:17:16,667 It never gets old. 333 00:17:16,770 --> 00:17:18,169 You ready for daddy to go or no? 334 00:17:18,271 --> 00:17:19,070 - No. 335 00:17:19,172 --> 00:17:21,339 - Mommy, you ready for daddy to leave? 336 00:17:21,441 --> 00:17:22,540 - No. - No? 337 00:17:22,642 --> 00:17:23,708 - Daddy, you ready to leave? 338 00:17:23,810 --> 00:17:24,776 No, not really, but you know what? 339 00:17:24,878 --> 00:17:26,811 Daddy will never feel ready to leave. 340 00:17:26,913 --> 00:17:30,014 I want this experience to change me. 341 00:17:30,116 --> 00:17:33,584 I'm excited to see how I deal with the hardships 342 00:17:33,686 --> 00:17:34,786 because I have the skill set, 343 00:17:34,888 --> 00:17:37,989 and I have the mentality that can do it. 344 00:17:43,830 --> 00:17:46,030 I knew it was taking a huge chance 345 00:17:46,132 --> 00:17:50,001 not bringing a fire striker, like, enormous chance. 346 00:17:51,037 --> 00:17:56,007 Feeling a little defeated because it's not there. 347 00:17:57,010 --> 00:17:59,577 But I've been doing primitive fire-making 348 00:17:59,679 --> 00:18:02,013 for more than 20 years now. 349 00:18:02,115 --> 00:18:03,948 That's something that I feel confident enough in, 350 00:18:04,050 --> 00:18:05,383 and then that's gonna save me the extra item 351 00:18:05,485 --> 00:18:06,984 to bring with me. 352 00:18:07,087 --> 00:18:08,719 [as british narrator] will he get the fire to start? 353 00:18:08,822 --> 00:18:11,255 Will all of the naysayers be correct? 354 00:18:11,357 --> 00:18:13,191 Stay tuned! 355 00:18:13,293 --> 00:18:14,192 ♪ ♪ 356 00:18:14,294 --> 00:18:15,460 [normal voice] my expectations are always 357 00:18:15,562 --> 00:18:17,995 higher than my ability. 358 00:18:18,631 --> 00:18:19,764 As my ability gets better, 359 00:18:19,866 --> 00:18:22,800 my expectations soon outstrip them, 360 00:18:22,902 --> 00:18:24,202 and that is what's driven me in life, 361 00:18:24,304 --> 00:18:26,003 so close! 362 00:18:26,573 --> 00:18:28,806 Constantly reassessing 363 00:18:28,908 --> 00:18:31,409 and constantly improving on my skills. 364 00:18:31,511 --> 00:18:33,010 Oh, thank goodness. 365 00:18:42,222 --> 00:18:42,987 Fire! 366 00:18:44,491 --> 00:18:45,990 [trills tongue loudly] 367 00:18:46,426 --> 00:18:48,893 [dramatic music] 368 00:18:48,995 --> 00:18:51,762 not really sure which way to explore first. 369 00:18:51,865 --> 00:18:56,000 This is all about learning the land today. 370 00:18:57,637 --> 00:19:01,005 Before busting out my shelter. 371 00:19:02,609 --> 00:19:04,208 See what around my sch-pot. 372 00:19:04,310 --> 00:19:07,145 ♪ ♪ 373 00:19:07,247 --> 00:19:09,013 hmm. 374 00:19:10,483 --> 00:19:12,984 A big old bear poop. 375 00:19:14,487 --> 00:19:15,987 Some hair, some berries. 376 00:19:22,262 --> 00:19:25,863 ♪ ♪ 377 00:19:25,965 --> 00:19:28,065 I've been through bear territory before. 378 00:19:28,168 --> 00:19:29,033 I've camped a few nights, but this is the first time 379 00:19:29,135 --> 00:19:31,435 where I've planned on an extensive stay 380 00:19:31,538 --> 00:19:33,938 in grizzly habitat. 381 00:19:34,040 --> 00:19:37,008 They live here. This is definitely their spot. 382 00:19:37,810 --> 00:19:40,011 Getting needlessly dangerous here, 383 00:19:40,113 --> 00:19:46,317 so I suppose I should go and make my way back to camp. 384 00:19:46,419 --> 00:19:49,187 [tense music] 385 00:19:49,289 --> 00:19:51,355 ♪ ♪ 386 00:19:51,457 --> 00:19:54,292 [thunder rumbling] 387 00:19:54,394 --> 00:19:57,295 [rain pattering] 388 00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:59,197 [thunder cracks] 389 00:19:59,299 --> 00:20:06,003 ♪ ♪ 390 00:20:50,416 --> 00:20:53,284 [dramatic music] 391 00:20:53,386 --> 00:20:56,187 [wind howling] 392 00:20:56,289 --> 00:21:03,294 ♪ ♪ 393 00:21:03,396 --> 00:21:05,997 [birds chirping] 394 00:21:11,471 --> 00:21:13,004 - my morning drink. 395 00:21:20,980 --> 00:21:23,414 I just drained the grit out through my teeth. 396 00:21:23,516 --> 00:21:26,183 [slow tempo music] 397 00:21:26,286 --> 00:21:33,991 ♪ ♪ 398 00:21:34,527 --> 00:21:36,193 that's enough for now. 399 00:21:36,296 --> 00:21:38,195 ♪ ♪ 400 00:21:38,298 --> 00:21:40,064 [burps] 401 00:21:40,166 --> 00:21:43,301 swallowed some weird little caterpillar looking things. 402 00:21:43,403 --> 00:21:44,201 Extra protein. 403 00:21:44,304 --> 00:21:46,537 ♪ ♪ 404 00:21:46,639 --> 00:21:49,073 would you look at that view? 405 00:21:49,876 --> 00:21:52,009 Got this epic mountain in front of me, 406 00:21:52,111 --> 00:21:58,015 a lake that looks like caribbean freaking blue water. 407 00:21:58,117 --> 00:22:00,985 This is one of the most beautiful places I've been. 408 00:22:01,921 --> 00:22:06,991 This is home, for long as I can stand it. 409 00:22:07,994 --> 00:22:11,896 ♪ glorious mountain, how much you must know ♪ 410 00:22:11,998 --> 00:22:14,865 my passions are music and the wilderness. 411 00:22:14,967 --> 00:22:17,435 I'm in a pagan folk band and a metal band. 412 00:22:17,537 --> 00:22:19,403 [heavy metal music] 413 00:22:19,505 --> 00:22:20,871 [indistinct singing] 414 00:22:20,973 --> 00:22:23,874 so my focus goes to those two things along 415 00:22:23,976 --> 00:22:27,078 with whatever I can do to pay the bills. 416 00:22:27,180 --> 00:22:28,913 I feel like I've been preparing for this experience 417 00:22:29,015 --> 00:22:31,615 for years, just doing the things I enjoy. 418 00:22:31,718 --> 00:22:34,719 I got tons of plant knowledge, 419 00:22:34,821 --> 00:22:36,454 a lot of bushcrafting knowledge 420 00:22:36,556 --> 00:22:38,255 and fisherman knowledge. 421 00:22:38,358 --> 00:22:40,324 Great catch. 422 00:22:41,060 --> 00:22:43,761 My fiancée just came back from her first ultrasound. 423 00:22:43,863 --> 00:22:47,131 My fiancée is pregnant with twins. 424 00:22:47,233 --> 00:22:50,868 The $500,000 prize money would allow me to give my family 425 00:22:50,970 --> 00:22:54,472 and twins that are on the way a good life. 426 00:22:54,574 --> 00:22:55,973 I think the mental game 427 00:22:56,075 --> 00:22:58,609 is one of the most important things of "alone," 428 00:22:58,711 --> 00:22:59,577 and I've got the mental game. 429 00:22:59,679 --> 00:23:02,079 I can control those thoughts 430 00:23:02,181 --> 00:23:03,614 that are going to make you want to press the button. 431 00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:06,117 I'm going out there to win it. 432 00:23:06,219 --> 00:23:08,586 Anytime I feel like quitting or I'm cold or I'm starving, 433 00:23:08,688 --> 00:23:09,787 I'm just going to think about 434 00:23:09,889 --> 00:23:12,123 what that money would do for my family. 435 00:23:12,225 --> 00:23:13,891 Bye! 436 00:23:13,993 --> 00:23:15,993 That's all the fire I'll need to keep going. 437 00:23:17,930 --> 00:23:20,998 The main reason I brought these overalls... 438 00:23:26,172 --> 00:23:30,007 Is that you guys wouldn't have to see my ass crack as much. 439 00:23:31,477 --> 00:23:34,011 See? No cracking. 440 00:23:34,514 --> 00:23:36,981 [compelling music] 441 00:23:37,083 --> 00:23:39,183 all right. I'm going to do a little exploring. 442 00:23:39,285 --> 00:23:41,452 ♪ ♪ 443 00:23:41,554 --> 00:23:42,887 pretty pleased so far. 444 00:23:42,989 --> 00:23:44,989 I think my spot has got a lot of potential. 445 00:23:46,626 --> 00:23:48,559 Plants everywhere, berries. 446 00:23:48,661 --> 00:23:51,729 I haven't tried fishing yet. 447 00:23:51,831 --> 00:23:54,198 Look, there's a snack right over here. 448 00:23:54,300 --> 00:23:55,933 ♪ ♪ 449 00:23:56,035 --> 00:23:58,836 whether my job is losing 100 pounds and starving 450 00:23:58,938 --> 00:24:01,439 or having success fishing and hunting, 451 00:24:01,541 --> 00:24:03,474 this is my job now. 452 00:24:03,576 --> 00:24:06,010 I have twins on the way, 453 00:24:06,112 --> 00:24:09,213 so I don't really have the option of going home. 454 00:24:09,315 --> 00:24:11,015 ♪ ♪ 455 00:24:28,267 --> 00:24:29,767 oh, yeah. 456 00:24:29,869 --> 00:24:32,470 Now I have some material to forge a knife. 457 00:24:32,572 --> 00:24:35,206 [tense electronic music] 458 00:24:35,308 --> 00:24:37,842 ♪ ♪ 459 00:24:37,944 --> 00:24:40,211 all right. Guess we'll pull that iron out. 460 00:24:40,313 --> 00:24:43,747 ♪ ♪ 461 00:24:43,850 --> 00:24:46,116 if I can't bring a fixed blade with me 462 00:24:46,219 --> 00:24:49,186 'cause I chose the multi-tool, then I just have to forge one. 463 00:24:49,288 --> 00:24:50,988 ♪ ♪ 464 00:24:51,090 --> 00:24:53,858 get the fire really hot and get a nice bed of coals, 465 00:24:53,960 --> 00:24:57,027 and then I pull it out when it gets red hot. 466 00:24:57,129 --> 00:24:59,196 And then hammer it with the back of my axe on a rock. 467 00:24:59,298 --> 00:25:02,433 ♪ ♪ 468 00:25:02,535 --> 00:25:03,801 maybe when it's done, 469 00:25:03,903 --> 00:25:07,171 I can prison shank a musk ox like roland. 470 00:25:07,273 --> 00:25:09,006 [laughs] 471 00:25:10,877 --> 00:25:12,176 I got a little backyard forge at home, 472 00:25:12,278 --> 00:25:15,212 and I've made some knives and jewelry and stuff like that. 473 00:25:15,314 --> 00:25:20,050 ♪ ♪ 474 00:25:20,152 --> 00:25:22,686 it's just a long, slow process without proper tools, 475 00:25:22,788 --> 00:25:24,788 but the fact that I found metal 476 00:25:24,891 --> 00:25:27,558 was just like, oh, it was so perfect. 477 00:25:27,660 --> 00:25:29,126 I couldn't believe it, man. 478 00:25:29,228 --> 00:25:31,996 I don't think anybody has ever forged a knife on "alone." 479 00:25:36,502 --> 00:25:40,204 [suspenseful music] 480 00:25:40,306 --> 00:25:47,011 ♪ ♪ 481 00:25:49,382 --> 00:25:51,982 [birds chirping] 482 00:25:58,291 --> 00:25:59,990 - [groans] 483 00:26:02,228 --> 00:26:04,595 [groans] 484 00:26:04,697 --> 00:26:06,997 I had a pretty miserable night. 485 00:26:09,569 --> 00:26:12,536 I had to sleep off and on. 486 00:26:12,638 --> 00:26:14,004 I didn't sleep really good. 487 00:26:15,942 --> 00:26:18,609 I'm pretty sure I'm sleeping upside down. 488 00:26:18,711 --> 00:26:20,177 I know I'm sleeping on a lump. 489 00:26:20,279 --> 00:26:25,049 I've seen fresh grizzly tracks just 300 yards from my camp. 490 00:26:25,151 --> 00:26:29,887 This is not the place to be. So today is moving day. 491 00:26:29,989 --> 00:26:33,991 I know where I'm going. I just got to get there. 492 00:26:36,529 --> 00:26:39,296 [stark ambient music] 493 00:26:39,398 --> 00:26:41,465 [wind howling] 494 00:26:41,567 --> 00:26:42,866 as hungry as I may be 495 00:26:42,969 --> 00:26:45,169 and as hungry as I know I'm going to get, 496 00:26:45,271 --> 00:26:47,404 the predators are first and foremost on my mind right now. 497 00:26:47,506 --> 00:26:49,807 I want a shelter. 498 00:26:49,909 --> 00:26:52,076 Once I'm able to move into my shelter, 499 00:26:52,178 --> 00:26:55,212 hunting and fishing then becomes number one on my list. 500 00:26:55,314 --> 00:26:56,747 ♪ ♪ 501 00:26:56,849 --> 00:26:59,750 I intend to build a log lean-to, 502 00:26:59,852 --> 00:27:02,519 a log cabin that's lean in one way. 503 00:27:02,622 --> 00:27:03,921 The main reason is bears. 504 00:27:04,023 --> 00:27:05,789 I just don't want to sleep underneath a tarp 505 00:27:05,891 --> 00:27:07,858 with grizzly bears around, you know? 506 00:27:07,960 --> 00:27:09,093 It's gonna give me a little bit of comfort 507 00:27:09,195 --> 00:27:12,129 and a little self-assurance that the bear is at least 508 00:27:12,231 --> 00:27:14,198 going to have to work at it before he can get in there. 509 00:27:14,300 --> 00:27:17,001 ♪ ♪ 510 00:27:17,103 --> 00:27:20,471 I've been doing this kind of stuff all my life. 511 00:27:20,573 --> 00:27:22,039 Definitely blue-collar. 512 00:27:22,141 --> 00:27:25,042 The only job I've ever really held is a roughneck. 513 00:27:25,144 --> 00:27:28,012 A roughneck works on the rigs that drill for oil. 514 00:27:28,114 --> 00:27:31,582 It's a very physical job, a lot of manual labor. 515 00:27:31,684 --> 00:27:33,651 You're working 12 hours day 516 00:27:33,753 --> 00:27:36,453 nonstop moving very heavy iron, 517 00:27:36,555 --> 00:27:37,755 very heavy equipment, 518 00:27:37,857 --> 00:27:38,989 and it can be extremely dangerous. 519 00:27:39,992 --> 00:27:42,660 Then, on top of that, at the very minimum, 520 00:27:42,762 --> 00:27:44,461 you will be away from your family 521 00:27:44,563 --> 00:27:46,196 for half of the year. 522 00:27:46,298 --> 00:27:47,831 ♪ ♪ 523 00:27:47,933 --> 00:27:50,100 but as I grew older and grew smarter, 524 00:27:50,202 --> 00:27:52,436 I started realizing what was really important in life, 525 00:27:52,538 --> 00:27:55,005 and it wasn't work. 526 00:27:55,875 --> 00:27:58,342 I gave up my career in the oil field 527 00:27:58,444 --> 00:27:59,843 and doing so, 528 00:27:59,945 --> 00:28:03,013 it's been extremely tough financially. 529 00:28:03,949 --> 00:28:06,717 But never one have I ever regretted it. 530 00:28:06,819 --> 00:28:09,119 I love my family with all my heart, 531 00:28:09,221 --> 00:28:11,388 and I've been fortunate enough to have this opportunity. 532 00:28:11,490 --> 00:28:13,991 I have to succeed. 533 00:28:15,461 --> 00:28:17,461 I can move in there, 534 00:28:17,563 --> 00:28:19,863 give you a peek inside. 535 00:28:19,965 --> 00:28:21,765 It's not the prettiest, but I got it done 536 00:28:21,867 --> 00:28:23,767 as efficiently as I possibly could. 537 00:28:23,869 --> 00:28:26,870 The shelter gives me peace of mind. 538 00:28:26,972 --> 00:28:28,939 It's gonna protect me from grizzly bears 539 00:28:29,041 --> 00:28:32,009 or other predators and keep the rain off me. 540 00:28:33,379 --> 00:28:35,479 Home sweet home. 541 00:28:35,581 --> 00:28:38,215 [tense ambient music] 542 00:28:38,317 --> 00:28:43,987 ♪ ♪ 543 00:28:52,264 --> 00:28:56,700 ♪ ♪ 544 00:28:56,802 --> 00:28:58,769 - I just walked out to the beach, 545 00:28:58,871 --> 00:29:02,106 and the smoke is finally clearing up, 546 00:29:02,208 --> 00:29:06,577 so I'm going to show you these amazing, amazing mountains. 547 00:29:06,679 --> 00:29:09,613 [whispering] oh, my goodness. 548 00:29:09,715 --> 00:29:11,982 [normal voice] this is so cool. 549 00:29:13,986 --> 00:29:17,821 But the way the wind is coming up off that lake, 550 00:29:17,923 --> 00:29:19,990 I think that I'm going to move the shelter. 551 00:29:21,827 --> 00:29:23,994 Right now, it's too close to the beach. 552 00:29:24,797 --> 00:29:27,998 So I'm going to go see what's here. 553 00:29:28,400 --> 00:29:30,400 [wind howling] 554 00:29:30,503 --> 00:29:33,437 [thoughtful music] 555 00:29:33,539 --> 00:29:35,539 this is pretty steep, 556 00:29:35,641 --> 00:29:38,008 but it's definitely doable. 557 00:29:38,110 --> 00:29:42,012 I can get up there and walk the edge and look down. 558 00:29:46,619 --> 00:29:48,452 There's just so much to do. 559 00:29:48,554 --> 00:29:49,787 I'm from pennsylvania, 560 00:29:49,889 --> 00:29:52,055 and we get plenty of cold and snow, 561 00:29:52,158 --> 00:29:56,994 so building permanent shelter is of course a priority. 562 00:29:57,997 --> 00:30:01,064 Everything that I do, I've taught myself. 563 00:30:01,167 --> 00:30:05,435 I've taught myself to be a hunter and to fish and trap, 564 00:30:05,538 --> 00:30:07,004 and now I teach it. 565 00:30:07,106 --> 00:30:09,773 I own and operate a retail sporting goods store 566 00:30:09,875 --> 00:30:11,542 and training center where I teach 567 00:30:11,644 --> 00:30:13,277 youth about the outdoors. 568 00:30:13,379 --> 00:30:13,944 Look at you. 569 00:30:14,046 --> 00:30:15,445 I have a strong skill set 570 00:30:15,548 --> 00:30:16,413 in predator hunting. 571 00:30:16,515 --> 00:30:17,881 That's pretty crazy. 572 00:30:17,983 --> 00:30:19,917 I'm chasing a north american super slam, 573 00:30:20,019 --> 00:30:23,554 which is the 29 large north american animals, 574 00:30:23,656 --> 00:30:25,923 with my bow, in hopes to be 575 00:30:26,025 --> 00:30:27,758 one of the very few women that have done so. 576 00:30:27,860 --> 00:30:31,461 I am leaving behind my two children, 577 00:30:31,564 --> 00:30:32,462 my daughter, who is 25, 578 00:30:32,565 --> 00:30:34,731 and my son, who is 22. 579 00:30:34,834 --> 00:30:36,934 My end goal for this experience 580 00:30:37,036 --> 00:30:40,003 is to prove that, as a woman, I can do this. 581 00:30:40,105 --> 00:30:42,739 I've always worked in male-dominated industries. 582 00:30:42,842 --> 00:30:45,075 I had to be confident in myself 583 00:30:45,177 --> 00:30:47,811 so that the men that I worked with would respect me. 584 00:30:47,913 --> 00:30:51,748 I can win this. I feel very confident. 585 00:30:51,851 --> 00:30:53,584 Unless I get attacked by a bear, 586 00:30:53,686 --> 00:30:55,986 I don't think I'm tapping out. 587 00:31:00,593 --> 00:31:03,660 There's this big, open spot. 588 00:31:03,762 --> 00:31:05,796 I have trees to block that wind, 589 00:31:05,898 --> 00:31:07,831 but I'm still not too far from the water. 590 00:31:07,933 --> 00:31:11,735 So, yeah, I think it looks like a good spot. 591 00:31:11,837 --> 00:31:14,738 It's going to take me awhile, but... 592 00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:16,607 Maybe I'll leave my shelter down there 593 00:31:16,709 --> 00:31:17,441 and get started on one up here. 594 00:31:17,543 --> 00:31:21,211 [suspenseful music] 595 00:31:21,313 --> 00:31:24,147 ♪ ♪ 596 00:31:24,250 --> 00:31:26,783 I'm going to build an a-frame to help keep the snow off 597 00:31:26,886 --> 00:31:29,820 because the snow is going to be so wet. 598 00:31:29,922 --> 00:31:32,022 I know it's going to be really heavy. 599 00:31:32,124 --> 00:31:33,924 It's very warm here right now, but the cold nights 600 00:31:34,026 --> 00:31:36,994 just kind of remind you that winter is coming. 601 00:31:38,097 --> 00:31:41,932 I want to build something small to contain heat, 602 00:31:42,034 --> 00:31:44,301 and knowing that there's so many grizzly bears 603 00:31:44,403 --> 00:31:45,736 in the area, 604 00:31:45,838 --> 00:31:47,804 I want to build something sturdy. 605 00:31:47,907 --> 00:31:50,007 Grizzly bears are a serious threat. 606 00:31:50,109 --> 00:31:53,010 That's a very large animal coming at you very fast. 607 00:31:53,112 --> 00:31:56,546 They're 8 to 10 feet tall and 800 to 1,800 pounds, 608 00:31:56,649 --> 00:31:58,548 covering 60 feet a second. 609 00:31:58,651 --> 00:31:59,750 They're going to be on you 610 00:31:59,852 --> 00:32:01,585 before you even know what happened. 611 00:32:01,687 --> 00:32:03,186 So it keeps me on high alert. 612 00:32:03,289 --> 00:32:04,988 ♪ ♪ 613 00:32:05,090 --> 00:32:08,191 not going to reach now. Got to move that one closer. 614 00:32:08,294 --> 00:32:09,960 ♪ ♪ 615 00:32:10,062 --> 00:32:12,863 I've always been the hunter, never the hunted, 616 00:32:12,965 --> 00:32:16,800 but I'm confident in my survival skills. 617 00:32:16,902 --> 00:32:19,736 My ultimate goal is to prove to myself 618 00:32:19,838 --> 00:32:22,205 what I'm made of and what I can do. 619 00:32:22,308 --> 00:32:24,308 ♪ ♪ 620 00:32:24,410 --> 00:32:27,010 all right, so... 621 00:32:28,480 --> 00:32:30,013 I got the frame up. 622 00:32:30,983 --> 00:32:33,050 I just want to get it up and get moved down here, 623 00:32:33,152 --> 00:32:38,088 so when I'm here I can make additions or change things. 624 00:32:39,158 --> 00:32:42,459 I feel like things are going to start to work out better. 625 00:32:42,561 --> 00:32:45,195 [soft dramatic music] 626 00:32:45,297 --> 00:32:52,002 ♪ ♪ 627 00:32:55,808 --> 00:32:57,908 - [laughs] oh, wait, don't time, chad. 628 00:32:58,010 --> 00:33:01,111 "where we going?" we're going over there, chad. 629 00:33:01,213 --> 00:33:04,548 I don't know where we're going, actually, but I'm excited. 630 00:33:04,650 --> 00:33:08,385 Oh, yeah. Old chaddy, chad. 631 00:33:08,487 --> 00:33:09,786 Chad is my camera. 632 00:33:09,888 --> 00:33:12,422 He's not just this inanimate object. 633 00:33:12,524 --> 00:33:14,024 We're personal now. 634 00:33:14,126 --> 00:33:18,528 Jorge is the smaller camera, but still good quality. 635 00:33:18,630 --> 00:33:21,498 Gary and gordo are gopro. 636 00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:24,001 So today is a shelter day. 637 00:33:24,103 --> 00:33:27,771 I'm going to be hungry as hell, but time expenditure 638 00:33:27,873 --> 00:33:28,772 will be worth it, especially if I can do 639 00:33:28,874 --> 00:33:31,808 the bulk of the material collection today. 640 00:33:31,910 --> 00:33:36,213 Another blow down area. Let's avoid that. 641 00:33:36,315 --> 00:33:39,983 ♪ ♪ 642 00:33:53,499 --> 00:33:56,166 [bear breathing heavily] 643 00:33:56,268 --> 00:33:57,000 [bleep]. 644 00:34:00,672 --> 00:34:03,407 Whoa, bear. Move off, bear. 645 00:34:03,509 --> 00:34:05,308 [bear grunts softly] 646 00:34:05,411 --> 00:34:07,444 holy [bleep]. 647 00:34:07,546 --> 00:34:10,113 You keep moving, mama. 648 00:34:10,215 --> 00:34:12,015 Hey, you keep moving, mama. You take those cubs with you. 649 00:34:18,424 --> 00:34:20,190 I'm not your food. 650 00:34:20,292 --> 00:34:24,327 ♪ ♪ 651 00:34:24,430 --> 00:34:25,996 don't you stop. 652 00:34:28,233 --> 00:34:30,333 Whoa. 653 00:34:30,436 --> 00:34:32,002 That was close. 654 00:34:34,273 --> 00:34:39,342 ♪ ♪ 655 00:34:39,445 --> 00:34:42,012 that was crazy. 656 00:34:43,248 --> 00:34:44,014 Whoo. 657 00:34:45,951 --> 00:34:48,752 You know, I felt pretty good until she turned. 658 00:34:48,854 --> 00:34:51,788 So she--they were walking down this way, 659 00:34:51,890 --> 00:34:55,725 and then somewhere in here they smelled me. 660 00:34:55,828 --> 00:34:57,727 And she snorted a little bit, like, 661 00:34:57,830 --> 00:34:59,096 she gave a little grunt, like--[grunts] 662 00:35:00,165 --> 00:35:03,433 and then they turned and they started coming up this way 663 00:35:03,535 --> 00:35:05,769 and actually got closer. 664 00:35:05,871 --> 00:35:08,205 They were, like, exactly right in there. 665 00:35:08,307 --> 00:35:12,809 ♪ ♪ 666 00:35:12,911 --> 00:35:16,213 right there it looks like. Right in here. 667 00:35:16,315 --> 00:35:18,949 ♪ ♪ 668 00:35:19,051 --> 00:35:20,717 looks like a track, yeah. Definitely, right here. 669 00:35:20,819 --> 00:35:22,686 Look, there's the back part of the paw. 670 00:35:22,788 --> 00:35:25,388 Here is the front part of the paw. 671 00:35:25,491 --> 00:35:27,190 Wee. That was close. 672 00:35:27,292 --> 00:35:31,328 ♪ ♪ 673 00:35:31,430 --> 00:35:34,197 [dramatic music] 674 00:35:34,299 --> 00:35:40,303 ♪ ♪ 675 00:35:40,405 --> 00:35:43,206 [birds chirping] 676 00:35:43,308 --> 00:35:50,013 ♪ ♪ 677 00:35:55,287 --> 00:35:56,987 - [bleep]. 678 00:36:04,863 --> 00:36:06,196 I'll never get him with a rock. I suck. 679 00:36:06,298 --> 00:36:08,465 ♪ ♪ 680 00:36:08,567 --> 00:36:09,866 I'm pretty damn hungry. 681 00:36:09,968 --> 00:36:12,068 My body is going through a shock right now. 682 00:36:12,171 --> 00:36:15,405 There's no doubt about it, but it's a choice I made. 683 00:36:15,507 --> 00:36:17,007 I put food aside, 684 00:36:17,109 --> 00:36:20,010 and I made a conscious effort to build shelter. 685 00:36:20,913 --> 00:36:22,612 I gotta start going after some fish. 686 00:36:22,714 --> 00:36:25,048 So I need to make some lures. 687 00:36:25,817 --> 00:36:27,884 I'm allowed to bring a toothbrush. 688 00:36:27,986 --> 00:36:31,988 I got smart, and I brought a silver toothbrush 689 00:36:33,725 --> 00:36:34,991 with a hole drilled in the end. 690 00:36:36,828 --> 00:36:40,463 Now I thought is, I could cut this off, 691 00:36:40,566 --> 00:36:42,999 get another hole in it... 692 00:36:46,738 --> 00:36:49,206 And maybe I could use it as a lure. 693 00:36:49,308 --> 00:36:50,440 ♪ ♪ 694 00:36:50,542 --> 00:36:52,809 I've been torn whether I was making the right decision, 695 00:36:52,911 --> 00:36:54,711 putting all my effort into a shelter 696 00:36:54,813 --> 00:36:56,880 because I am going very hungry, 697 00:36:56,982 --> 00:36:59,916 but you just have to adapt and overcome. 698 00:37:00,018 --> 00:37:02,752 That's all you can do. You adapt or you tap. 699 00:37:02,854 --> 00:37:04,187 I'm going to find out what works. 700 00:37:04,289 --> 00:37:06,389 ♪ ♪ 701 00:37:06,491 --> 00:37:07,991 and there's my lure. 702 00:37:09,695 --> 00:37:11,995 That wind is really blowing now. 703 00:37:12,798 --> 00:37:15,031 I have to fish on this rocky point. 704 00:37:15,133 --> 00:37:18,001 Anywhere from shore, I'm just going to lose the lure. 705 00:37:24,743 --> 00:37:27,010 The wind is not making it easy. 706 00:37:31,617 --> 00:37:33,984 Ah. It goes around my hand. 707 00:37:38,223 --> 00:37:38,989 [bleep]. 708 00:37:42,594 --> 00:37:43,994 This is a complete failure. 709 00:37:45,030 --> 00:37:49,933 The wind is so strong it actually pulled my line 710 00:37:50,035 --> 00:37:53,003 so hard that the lure never goes into the water. 711 00:37:55,474 --> 00:37:56,906 If I can't get fish, 712 00:37:57,009 --> 00:38:00,477 my odds of succeeding out here are very slim. 713 00:38:00,579 --> 00:38:01,478 I need to start eating. 714 00:38:01,580 --> 00:38:04,014 [soft dramatic music] 715 00:38:04,116 --> 00:38:08,051 I didn't understand how hard it is to be hungry 716 00:38:08,153 --> 00:38:10,920 and how much it slows me down and how much it hurts me 717 00:38:11,023 --> 00:38:13,657 and how much it takes an emotional toll on me. 718 00:38:13,759 --> 00:38:16,293 [stammers] it's wearing down on me. 719 00:38:16,395 --> 00:38:17,193 I know it is. 720 00:38:17,296 --> 00:38:18,728 ♪ ♪ 721 00:38:18,830 --> 00:38:21,898 six years ago, I had a heart attack, 722 00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:24,534 and my heart is not as strong as it used to be. 723 00:38:24,636 --> 00:38:27,203 [tarp rustling in the wind] 724 00:38:27,306 --> 00:38:32,542 ♪ ♪ 725 00:38:32,644 --> 00:38:34,210 and that's a concern for me. 726 00:38:34,313 --> 00:38:37,580 ♪ ♪ 727 00:38:37,683 --> 00:38:40,183 at night it beats really hard. 728 00:38:40,285 --> 00:38:46,323 ♪ ♪ 729 00:38:46,425 --> 00:38:47,957 I don't know why. 730 00:38:48,060 --> 00:38:50,193 I'm sure it's got something to do with going hungry. 731 00:38:50,295 --> 00:38:53,997 ♪ ♪ 732 00:39:03,075 --> 00:39:06,009 something to think about. I'm going to get some sleep. 733 00:39:11,516 --> 00:39:15,185 [suspenseful music] 734 00:39:15,287 --> 00:39:21,991 ♪ ♪ 735 00:39:29,534 --> 00:39:32,001 - it's just breaking day. 736 00:39:32,771 --> 00:39:33,837 This thing is so open right now. 737 00:39:33,939 --> 00:39:38,007 It looks like the weather is turning better. 738 00:39:41,580 --> 00:39:42,846 But it's so open right now 739 00:39:42,948 --> 00:39:45,882 that if we did get another storm with wind 740 00:39:45,984 --> 00:39:47,984 and rain come through while it's like this, 741 00:39:48,086 --> 00:39:51,454 it would blow rain all under here and I'd get soaked. 742 00:39:51,556 --> 00:39:53,690 So I've got to get that-- 743 00:39:53,792 --> 00:39:55,125 I've got to get this thing walled in 744 00:39:55,227 --> 00:39:59,996 and a little bit more secure before the next storm comes in. 745 00:40:00,799 --> 00:40:02,766 But I might try to do some fishing 746 00:40:02,868 --> 00:40:07,003 before I start working on the shelter. 747 00:40:07,839 --> 00:40:10,206 I built a fishing rod and reel. 748 00:40:10,308 --> 00:40:11,441 ♪ ♪ 749 00:40:11,543 --> 00:40:13,576 there's no deep water off of my beach that I can see. 750 00:40:13,678 --> 00:40:16,780 I mean, it's a good 30 yards 751 00:40:16,882 --> 00:40:18,982 to where it even starts to drop off. 752 00:40:19,084 --> 00:40:21,050 And so the reel should be much more efficient 753 00:40:21,153 --> 00:40:25,221 and much more effective to cast to that deeper water. 754 00:40:25,323 --> 00:40:25,989 I like it. 755 00:40:26,558 --> 00:40:29,793 [soft dramatic music] 756 00:40:29,895 --> 00:40:31,861 when I was working for fish and game, 757 00:40:31,963 --> 00:40:36,699 I was gone for 150 days a year sometimes. 758 00:40:36,802 --> 00:40:39,002 I know there's fish here, somewhere. 759 00:40:40,872 --> 00:40:43,740 So leaving the family wasn't difficult 760 00:40:43,842 --> 00:40:46,009 because it's not an uncommon thing. 761 00:40:46,878 --> 00:40:49,212 I might move down to a the deeper spot. 762 00:40:49,314 --> 00:40:50,480 ♪ ♪ 763 00:40:50,582 --> 00:40:54,184 but this is different. 764 00:40:54,286 --> 00:40:55,318 ♪ ♪ 765 00:40:55,420 --> 00:40:59,189 solitude is not something that I'm accustomed to. 766 00:40:59,291 --> 00:41:01,391 ♪ ♪ 767 00:41:01,493 --> 00:41:03,193 I miss my family. 768 00:41:03,295 --> 00:41:05,895 ♪ ♪ 769 00:41:05,997 --> 00:41:08,865 this will be the longest I've ever been gone, 770 00:41:08,967 --> 00:41:11,668 but I know that they can handle everything, 771 00:41:11,770 --> 00:41:15,205 and I'll be back when it's time. 772 00:41:15,307 --> 00:41:17,540 ♪ ♪ 773 00:41:17,642 --> 00:41:19,676 holy [bleep]. I got one. 774 00:41:19,778 --> 00:41:22,011 Come on, come on, come on. Come on. 775 00:41:23,415 --> 00:41:25,014 Come on, come on. 776 00:41:27,219 --> 00:41:28,985 Oh, yes. 777 00:41:32,390 --> 00:41:34,691 Whoo! Oh, my god. 778 00:41:34,793 --> 00:41:37,193 Oh, my god. I can't believe that. 779 00:41:37,295 --> 00:41:39,796 ♪ ♪ 780 00:41:39,898 --> 00:41:45,301 oh, my god. That feels freaking amazing. 781 00:41:45,403 --> 00:41:46,202 Holy [bleep]. 782 00:41:46,304 --> 00:41:49,939 ♪ ♪ 783 00:41:50,041 --> 00:41:55,845 so there's my little lure that I made the other day 784 00:41:55,947 --> 00:42:00,183 out of a rusty bottle top and some paracord. 785 00:42:00,285 --> 00:42:04,921 ♪ ♪ 786 00:42:05,023 --> 00:42:07,557 and there's the very first fish that it caught, 787 00:42:07,659 --> 00:42:11,227 and my first fish of the trip. 788 00:42:11,329 --> 00:42:13,396 I am so... 789 00:42:13,498 --> 00:42:15,565 Unbelievably happy. 790 00:42:15,667 --> 00:42:19,669 That is--man, that's awesome. 791 00:42:19,771 --> 00:42:21,004 Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 792 00:42:25,744 --> 00:42:28,011 I think I'll have some breakfast. 793 00:42:30,415 --> 00:42:33,182 [tense music] 794 00:42:33,285 --> 00:42:40,990 ♪ ♪ 795 00:42:42,928 --> 00:42:44,427 - sitting in the middle of the berry patch. 796 00:42:44,529 --> 00:42:45,995 They're just a little 797 00:42:47,465 --> 00:42:48,998 kinnikinnick berry. 798 00:42:50,135 --> 00:42:52,802 So I'm going to start picking these a little at a time. 799 00:42:52,904 --> 00:42:54,571 Just kind of munching on them right now. 800 00:42:54,673 --> 00:42:56,005 I'm not going to eat too many. 801 00:42:57,542 --> 00:43:00,009 But I have so much to do. 802 00:43:01,846 --> 00:43:04,013 I'm going to pick at these a little bit. 803 00:43:07,786 --> 00:43:09,986 I don't really love the little seeds. 804 00:43:12,691 --> 00:43:14,824 Anyway, I just want to show you. 805 00:43:14,926 --> 00:43:17,694 I'm not going to sit here and eat on camera. 806 00:43:17,796 --> 00:43:20,997 So anyways, kinnikinnick berries. 807 00:43:22,634 --> 00:43:26,202 Okay. Packing up to move. 808 00:43:26,304 --> 00:43:32,008 ♪ ♪ 809 00:43:32,110 --> 00:43:36,012 it is so windy today. This is going to be crazy. 810 00:43:38,350 --> 00:43:39,983 Here we go. 811 00:43:44,556 --> 00:43:45,922 Okay. Tarp, stay there. 812 00:43:46,024 --> 00:43:49,192 With the rest of my stuff before you stress me out. 813 00:43:49,294 --> 00:43:50,159 ♪ ♪ 814 00:43:50,261 --> 00:43:53,062 the walk I am not looking forward to, 815 00:43:53,164 --> 00:43:58,201 but once I get there, it's going to be so worth it. 816 00:43:58,303 --> 00:44:00,203 ♪ ♪ 817 00:44:00,305 --> 00:44:02,205 I'm up. 818 00:44:02,307 --> 00:44:06,743 ♪ ♪ 819 00:44:06,845 --> 00:44:09,012 this is going to be such a hard walk. 820 00:44:10,382 --> 00:44:13,182 It's just crazy. 821 00:44:13,284 --> 00:44:20,990 ♪ ♪ 822 00:44:23,928 --> 00:44:26,996 if I can express how grateful I am to be here. 823 00:44:28,233 --> 00:44:29,999 [grunts] 824 00:44:31,369 --> 00:44:33,136 oh, my goodness. 825 00:44:33,238 --> 00:44:34,203 Ooh! 826 00:44:34,305 --> 00:44:35,972 ♪ ♪ 827 00:44:36,074 --> 00:44:39,809 my strongest skill, I think, is adaptability. 828 00:44:39,911 --> 00:44:42,078 I've had to adapt to different homes 829 00:44:42,180 --> 00:44:45,481 in different settings and scenarios my entire life. 830 00:44:45,583 --> 00:44:47,717 So I feel very confident 831 00:44:47,819 --> 00:44:50,887 that I can maintain the mindset 832 00:44:50,989 --> 00:44:53,756 that I need and hang in there until the end. 833 00:44:53,858 --> 00:44:57,326 So this is actually going to be the back 834 00:44:57,429 --> 00:44:58,928 of the shelter. 835 00:44:59,030 --> 00:45:02,598 The fireplace is going to go here with a chimney, 836 00:45:02,701 --> 00:45:04,467 and I chose that because the wind 837 00:45:04,569 --> 00:45:05,735 comes from that direction 838 00:45:05,837 --> 00:45:08,504 and it's going to blow right through. 839 00:45:08,606 --> 00:45:10,940 It's really, really small, 840 00:45:11,042 --> 00:45:15,478 but I can stand up and I'm not in a wind tunnel. 841 00:45:15,580 --> 00:45:18,114 It's time to settle in. 842 00:45:18,216 --> 00:45:23,553 Yeah, wintertime, I definitely need to get this buttoned up 843 00:45:23,655 --> 00:45:25,521 because I plan on being here. 844 00:45:25,623 --> 00:45:28,191 This is just the beginning. 845 00:45:28,293 --> 00:45:33,996 ♪ ♪ 846 00:45:50,381 --> 00:45:51,581 I'm just kind of 847 00:45:51,683 --> 00:45:53,449 trying to not think about it, 848 00:45:53,551 --> 00:45:55,551 rolling around a lot, but 849 00:45:55,653 --> 00:45:57,186 I'm starting to feel nauseous. 850 00:45:57,288 --> 00:46:01,157 ♪ ♪ 851 00:46:01,259 --> 00:46:02,191 [groans] 852 00:46:02,293 --> 00:46:05,428 ♪ ♪ 853 00:46:05,530 --> 00:46:07,363 I'm not sure what it is, 854 00:46:07,465 --> 00:46:10,199 maybe the berries. 855 00:46:10,301 --> 00:46:12,568 ♪ ♪ 856 00:46:12,670 --> 00:46:15,004 oh, my god. I feel so yucky. 857 00:46:33,391 --> 00:46:35,992 [retches, coughs] 858 00:46:43,468 --> 00:46:47,336 - [retches, coughs] 859 00:46:47,438 --> 00:46:50,006 [spits, coughs] 860 00:46:50,275 --> 00:46:51,007 okay. 861 00:46:52,343 --> 00:46:54,010 [sighs] man. 862 00:47:05,490 --> 00:47:08,191 [suspenseful music] 863 00:47:08,293 --> 00:47:15,998 ♪ ♪ 864 00:47:17,268 --> 00:47:19,202 [sighs] 865 00:47:19,304 --> 00:47:25,241 ♪ ♪ 866 00:47:25,343 --> 00:47:26,008 all right. 867 00:47:28,246 --> 00:47:29,912 [coughs] 868 00:47:30,014 --> 00:47:32,415 I'm going to roll around here a little bit more 869 00:47:32,517 --> 00:47:36,185 and see how I feel. 870 00:47:36,287 --> 00:47:42,992 ♪ ♪ 871 00:47:51,269 --> 00:47:53,169 [retches] 872 00:47:53,271 --> 00:47:55,004 [coughs] 873 00:47:55,440 --> 00:47:57,340 [coughs, retches] 874 00:47:57,442 --> 00:47:59,208 [coughs, spits] 875 00:47:59,310 --> 00:48:05,348 ♪ ♪ 876 00:48:05,450 --> 00:48:06,983 [groans softly] 877 00:48:08,853 --> 00:48:09,986 it's just frustrating at this point. 878 00:48:11,623 --> 00:48:13,222 To be positive is difficult. 879 00:48:14,292 --> 00:48:16,759 You only have a limited amount of time to get your shelter up 880 00:48:16,861 --> 00:48:20,196 and get your snares set and fish. 881 00:48:20,298 --> 00:48:22,164 ♪ ♪ 882 00:48:22,267 --> 00:48:23,199 [grunts] 883 00:48:23,301 --> 00:48:27,403 ♪ ♪ 884 00:48:27,505 --> 00:48:29,005 don't dare lay down. 885 00:48:30,008 --> 00:48:32,909 When I used to think about the possibility 886 00:48:33,011 --> 00:48:36,012 of coming on this show, I thought, you know, 887 00:48:36,114 --> 00:48:39,348 I've survived my whole life basically on my own, 888 00:48:39,450 --> 00:48:42,718 and I thrived. 889 00:48:42,820 --> 00:48:44,053 But when you're in the wilderness 890 00:48:44,155 --> 00:48:48,157 and you're feeling unwell, it's just not that simple. 891 00:48:48,259 --> 00:48:49,992 [groans] 892 00:48:51,362 --> 00:48:52,194 I feel terrible. 893 00:48:52,297 --> 00:48:55,431 ♪ ♪ 894 00:48:55,533 --> 00:48:58,000 I don't know what to do. 895 00:48:58,903 --> 00:49:04,340 I'm starting to think, "can I do this?" 896 00:49:04,442 --> 00:49:07,209 [dramatic music] 897 00:49:07,312 --> 00:49:14,283 ♪ ♪ 898 00:49:14,385 --> 00:49:16,986 [birds chirping] 899 00:49:20,625 --> 00:49:23,192 - boy, am I starting to stink. 900 00:49:23,294 --> 00:49:26,429 Holy cow. 901 00:49:26,531 --> 00:49:28,998 Yeah. That's no good. 902 00:49:36,074 --> 00:49:39,008 This is the progress I made on my knife last night. 903 00:49:40,979 --> 00:49:45,982 I think I'm about done with the shaping of it. 904 00:49:46,084 --> 00:49:48,951 At some point, you just got to accept it's as good 905 00:49:49,053 --> 00:49:51,988 as it's going to get with a rock, pliers and an ax. 906 00:49:52,757 --> 00:49:54,991 Mountain fix blade is almost done 907 00:49:57,795 --> 00:49:59,996 or should I call it the troll shiv? 908 00:50:01,799 --> 00:50:04,900 I think I'll call it the troll shiv. 909 00:50:05,003 --> 00:50:08,371 So the other thing I was working on last night, 910 00:50:08,473 --> 00:50:10,206 my bone nose ring. 911 00:50:10,308 --> 00:50:12,675 ♪ ♪ 912 00:50:12,777 --> 00:50:14,510 it's starting to get to the point 913 00:50:14,612 --> 00:50:16,212 where I can get it to fit. 914 00:50:16,314 --> 00:50:18,547 ♪ ♪ 915 00:50:18,649 --> 00:50:21,450 it needs a little spit lube. 916 00:50:21,552 --> 00:50:22,985 I have a pierced nose, 917 00:50:23,087 --> 00:50:24,854 but you're not allowed to take jewelry out here. 918 00:50:24,956 --> 00:50:27,723 So I figured I would whittle down a bone 919 00:50:27,825 --> 00:50:30,559 and keep the nose ring hole open. 920 00:50:30,661 --> 00:50:32,728 Hold on, I know this is gross. 921 00:50:32,830 --> 00:50:34,463 I found it under an eagle's nest. 922 00:50:34,565 --> 00:50:36,065 It was a bigger bone, 923 00:50:36,167 --> 00:50:39,802 and I carved a chunk off of it and whittled it down, 924 00:50:39,904 --> 00:50:42,138 filed it until it was nice and smooth. 925 00:50:42,240 --> 00:50:44,006 Oh. 926 00:50:45,476 --> 00:50:47,009 There it is, folks. 927 00:50:51,416 --> 00:50:53,015 Bone nose ring. 928 00:50:58,956 --> 00:51:04,794 ♪ I stay busy with lots of lots of projects ♪ 929 00:51:04,896 --> 00:51:09,231 ♪ forging knives and making nose rings ♪ 930 00:51:09,333 --> 00:51:12,001 ♪ waa ♪ 931 00:51:17,508 --> 00:51:20,209 [suspenseful music] 932 00:51:20,311 --> 00:51:27,983 ♪ ♪ 933 00:51:36,861 --> 00:51:39,995 - wind blowing like crazy all night long. 934 00:51:40,631 --> 00:51:42,965 Yup. Maybe the wind will die 935 00:51:43,067 --> 00:51:46,001 and I'll go fishing, but it doesn't sound like it. 936 00:51:46,104 --> 00:51:49,738 But if I can't fish, I still can work on my fireplace. 937 00:51:49,841 --> 00:51:53,008 I can work on building a cook shack. 938 00:51:53,511 --> 00:51:57,313 I can build a door, 939 00:51:57,415 --> 00:51:58,481 carve a spoon. 940 00:51:58,583 --> 00:52:02,985 I got lots of stuff to do. No shortage of stuff to do. 941 00:52:05,823 --> 00:52:07,690 It just the things I really need to do 942 00:52:07,792 --> 00:52:10,726 are the hardest, and that's get food. 943 00:52:10,828 --> 00:52:12,795 I'm going to get up this morning 944 00:52:12,897 --> 00:52:14,864 and take my bow down, walk the beach, 945 00:52:14,966 --> 00:52:16,999 see if I can't find one of them grouse. 946 00:52:20,471 --> 00:52:24,206 [compelling music] 947 00:52:24,308 --> 00:52:24,907 ♪ ♪ 948 00:52:25,009 --> 00:52:26,876 the hunger is getting to me, 949 00:52:26,978 --> 00:52:29,745 and I know the only way to get through it 950 00:52:29,847 --> 00:52:32,214 is to stay busy and keep after it. 951 00:52:32,316 --> 00:52:34,517 ♪ ♪ 952 00:52:34,619 --> 00:52:36,919 there's grouse everywhere. 953 00:52:37,021 --> 00:52:38,687 All it's going to take is a little ingenuity 954 00:52:38,789 --> 00:52:39,989 to get these grouses in my pot. 955 00:52:42,894 --> 00:52:46,195 Holy [bleep]. Dinner just flew over there. 956 00:52:46,297 --> 00:52:49,331 ♪ ♪ 957 00:52:49,433 --> 00:52:51,200 here, mr. Grouse. 958 00:52:51,302 --> 00:52:53,302 ♪ ♪ 959 00:52:53,404 --> 00:52:54,203 where are you? 960 00:52:54,305 --> 00:52:59,575 ♪ ♪ 961 00:52:59,677 --> 00:53:02,011 my heart is pounding so hard. 962 00:53:03,414 --> 00:53:05,014 [clears throat] 963 00:53:06,484 --> 00:53:07,983 I don't feel right. 964 00:53:10,321 --> 00:53:12,354 Oh, [bleep]. 965 00:53:12,456 --> 00:53:13,989 Something's wrong. 966 00:53:16,327 --> 00:53:18,194 Oh, [bleep]. 967 00:53:18,296 --> 00:53:20,129 ♪ ♪ 968 00:53:20,231 --> 00:53:22,398 ow. 969 00:53:22,500 --> 00:53:25,201 [breathing heavily] 970 00:53:25,303 --> 00:53:28,370 ♪ ♪ 971 00:53:28,472 --> 00:53:32,007 oh. Hang in there. 972 00:53:33,344 --> 00:53:35,211 Oh, [bleep]. 973 00:53:35,313 --> 00:53:39,648 ♪ ♪ 974 00:53:39,750 --> 00:53:41,183 [crying] I'm having chest pains. 975 00:53:41,285 --> 00:53:43,185 It hurts. 976 00:53:43,287 --> 00:53:47,156 ♪ ♪ 977 00:53:47,258 --> 00:53:48,924 [groans] 978 00:53:49,026 --> 00:53:52,194 I feel a heart attack. I don't know what's wrong. 979 00:53:52,296 --> 00:53:54,163 ♪ ♪ 980 00:53:54,265 --> 00:53:55,331 [groans] 981 00:53:55,433 --> 00:53:57,199 [heart pounding] 982 00:53:57,301 --> 00:54:00,436 ♪ ♪ 983 00:54:00,538 --> 00:54:01,637 oh, I don't want to tap, 984 00:54:01,739 --> 00:54:03,205 but I don't want to die, either. 985 00:54:03,307 --> 00:54:05,341 [sobbing] 986 00:54:05,443 --> 00:54:07,243 get--ow. [bleep]. 987 00:54:07,345 --> 00:54:09,011 [sniffles] 988 00:54:09,113 --> 00:54:11,013 go away. Go away. Go away. Go away. Go away. Go away. 989 00:54:13,251 --> 00:54:14,183 Go away. 990 00:54:14,285 --> 00:54:16,318 ♪ ♪ 991 00:54:16,420 --> 00:54:19,855 [groaning softly] 992 00:54:19,957 --> 00:54:24,260 I promised I would tap if I got chest pains. 993 00:54:24,362 --> 00:54:25,995 I promised. 994 00:54:27,798 --> 00:54:30,866 Oh, I don't want to tap. I just--[bleep]. 995 00:54:30,968 --> 00:54:33,269 I don't want to die either. I've got to go. 996 00:54:33,371 --> 00:54:35,704 I need help. 997 00:54:35,806 --> 00:54:40,309 I'm so sorry, brittney. [sniffles] 998 00:54:40,411 --> 00:54:42,011 I'm so sorry. 999 00:54:43,447 --> 00:54:46,015 [crying, groaning] 1000 00:54:47,785 --> 00:54:49,551 no, please, please, please don't die. 1001 00:54:49,654 --> 00:54:51,453 Please don't die. [sniffles] 1002 00:54:51,555 --> 00:54:53,722 I hurt. I hurt. I hurt. 1003 00:54:53,824 --> 00:54:54,990 I don't know how to work this phone. 1004 00:55:04,235 --> 00:55:06,001 [groans] 1005 00:55:09,874 --> 00:55:11,807 please don't have a heart attack, please. 1006 00:55:11,909 --> 00:55:14,343 Please don't have a heart attack, please. 1007 00:55:14,445 --> 00:55:16,545 Please. Please. 1008 00:55:16,647 --> 00:55:20,149 [groaning] please. I swear. 1009 00:55:20,251 --> 00:55:22,484 I swear. 1010 00:55:22,586 --> 00:55:25,988 [groans] [phone beeping] 1011 00:55:28,459 --> 00:55:31,527 [sniffles, groaning] 1012 00:55:31,629 --> 00:55:32,995 this is tim. I need help. 1013 00:55:35,633 --> 00:55:36,999 I'm having severe chest pains. 1014 00:55:39,637 --> 00:55:41,804 My heart is beating real hard. 1015 00:55:41,906 --> 00:55:44,006 I think I might be having a heart attack. 1016 00:55:46,344 --> 00:55:48,010 I'm scared. 1017 00:55:50,281 --> 00:55:54,216 ♪ ♪ 1018 00:55:54,318 --> 00:55:56,885 I'm going to live through this. I'm going to live through this. 1019 00:55:56,987 --> 00:55:58,587 I don't give a [bleep] what the [bleep] happens. 1020 00:55:58,689 --> 00:56:00,756 I'm going to live through this. 1021 00:56:00,858 --> 00:56:02,191 I'm going to make it home to my family. 1022 00:56:02,293 --> 00:56:06,528 ♪ ♪ 1023 00:56:06,630 --> 00:56:08,664 please don't die. Don't die. 1024 00:56:08,766 --> 00:56:11,200 Don't die. Don't die. Don't die. 1025 00:56:11,302 --> 00:56:14,336 ♪ ♪ 1026 00:56:14,438 --> 00:56:16,138 [groans softly] 1027 00:56:16,240 --> 00:56:18,207 oh. 1028 00:56:18,309 --> 00:56:24,179 ♪ ♪ 1029 00:56:24,281 --> 00:56:27,449 [crying] 1030 00:56:27,551 --> 00:56:29,818 I have severe chest pains 1031 00:56:29,920 --> 00:56:32,054 and my heart has been beating really hard. 1032 00:56:32,156 --> 00:56:33,489 - I'm going to get you to put one of these under tongue. 1033 00:56:33,591 --> 00:56:35,424 It's just regular aspirin. 1034 00:56:35,526 --> 00:56:38,193 [soft ambient music] 1035 00:56:38,295 --> 00:56:42,865 ♪ ♪ 1036 00:56:42,967 --> 00:56:46,535 - I made the right choice. I know I did. 1037 00:56:46,637 --> 00:56:48,771 I know what this pain is. 1038 00:56:48,873 --> 00:56:51,039 It was identical to my heart attack, 1039 00:56:51,142 --> 00:56:55,210 and this pain will end my life if I don't get help. 1040 00:56:55,312 --> 00:56:56,812 ♪ ♪ 1041 00:56:56,914 --> 00:56:58,814 my main purpose in life is happiness. 1042 00:56:58,916 --> 00:57:00,749 The only thing that matters is family. 1043 00:57:00,851 --> 00:57:03,051 So when you experience something 1044 00:57:03,154 --> 00:57:06,855 that makes you think you might never see them again, 1045 00:57:06,957 --> 00:57:09,992 it's your family you think about the most. 1046 00:57:16,534 --> 00:57:19,201 [soft dramatic music] 1047 00:57:19,303 --> 00:57:26,008 ♪ ♪ 1048 00:57:27,244 --> 00:57:30,813 - tim, thanks for talking to me about your time on "alone." 1049 00:57:30,915 --> 00:57:32,648 I know you just got out of the hospital. 1050 00:57:32,750 --> 00:57:33,882 Your experience is really fresh. 1051 00:57:33,984 --> 00:57:36,752 So let's talk about what happened on day six. 1052 00:57:36,854 --> 00:57:37,453 First, can you give me some background 1053 00:57:37,555 --> 00:57:39,054 on your health condition? 1054 00:57:39,156 --> 00:57:43,759 - Six years ago, I suffered a very massive heart attack 1055 00:57:43,861 --> 00:57:44,927 that nearly killed me, and in the end, 1056 00:57:45,029 --> 00:57:49,631 it resulted in only having 35% heart function left. 1057 00:57:49,733 --> 00:57:51,500 - Wow. - I knew coming in here 1058 00:57:51,602 --> 00:57:53,402 that it might be a factor. 1059 00:57:53,504 --> 00:57:54,770 I can literally feel 1060 00:57:54,872 --> 00:58:00,576 my heart beating in my head and my neck. 1061 00:58:00,678 --> 00:58:01,877 - And the doctors cleared you? 1062 00:58:01,979 --> 00:58:04,947 - You talk to your doctor about it, and I did, 1063 00:58:05,049 --> 00:58:07,749 and you ask him, you know, all the, "can I do this? 1064 00:58:07,852 --> 00:58:08,884 "should I do this? You know, I'm going 1065 00:58:08,986 --> 00:58:10,552 to go out there and starve. Should I do that?" 1066 00:58:10,654 --> 00:58:11,987 and every doctor is like, "no. 1067 00:58:12,089 --> 00:58:15,924 No, you shouldn't do that." - any person says no too. 1068 00:58:16,026 --> 00:58:17,960 - You know, but he's, "well, look, I understand. 1069 00:58:18,062 --> 00:58:19,828 If you're going to do it, you know, here's the risk. 1070 00:58:19,930 --> 00:58:21,697 Here's the things you need to watch out for. 1071 00:58:21,799 --> 00:58:22,664 You know, here's what could happen." 1072 00:58:22,766 --> 00:58:25,033 - so tell me about your strategy 1073 00:58:25,135 --> 00:58:27,870 of building your shelter rather than finding food first. 1074 00:58:27,972 --> 00:58:29,938 - Well, I knew that doing both at the same time 1075 00:58:30,040 --> 00:58:31,974 would be pretty lengthy. I had seen bear sign. 1076 00:58:32,076 --> 00:58:34,743 I was worried about bears. I had no protection. 1077 00:58:34,845 --> 00:58:36,211 I've seen a lot of people come on, 1078 00:58:36,313 --> 00:58:38,947 and they don't wind up having a really good shelter for 14, 1079 00:58:39,049 --> 00:58:42,050 sometimes even 20 days, and I didn't want that. 1080 00:58:42,152 --> 00:58:43,752 You know, the hunger is going to come no matter what, 1081 00:58:43,854 --> 00:58:45,721 so I figure, "let's face it head-on. 1082 00:58:45,823 --> 00:58:46,688 Let's get it on, get it over with." 1083 00:58:46,790 --> 00:58:49,091 by day three, I was really hungry. 1084 00:58:49,193 --> 00:58:53,028 I had gone, like, 72 hours with absolutely no food at all, 1085 00:58:53,130 --> 00:58:56,565 but it was a risk that I took and maybe in hindsight, 1086 00:58:56,667 --> 00:58:58,000 you know, maybe the wrong one. 1087 00:58:58,102 --> 00:59:01,203 - How did that play on your emotions and your mind? 1088 00:59:01,305 --> 00:59:02,838 - [sighs] 1089 00:59:02,940 --> 00:59:04,540 a lot harder than I thought it would. 1090 00:59:04,642 --> 00:59:06,875 Oh, god, please be an onion. 1091 00:59:06,977 --> 00:59:08,343 I wasn't prepared for the mental effects 1092 00:59:08,445 --> 00:59:10,045 of going hungry. 1093 00:59:10,147 --> 00:59:12,447 For lack of better term, it just caused a depression. 1094 00:59:12,550 --> 00:59:14,116 Shelter is my nemesis. 1095 00:59:14,218 --> 00:59:15,617 - There's a lot of people on the show, they go hungry, 1096 00:59:15,719 --> 00:59:16,885 and I don't think people at home 1097 00:59:16,987 --> 00:59:19,888 they understand what that actually does to you. 1098 00:59:19,990 --> 00:59:20,822 - And I didn't understand until I went through it. 1099 00:59:20,925 --> 00:59:23,559 Going hungry for even three or four days 1100 00:59:23,661 --> 00:59:25,561 really messes with your head. 1101 00:59:25,663 --> 00:59:27,029 Keep thinking about my family. 1102 00:59:27,131 --> 00:59:31,967 Keep imagining that they're sad and terribly missing me. 1103 00:59:32,069 --> 00:59:33,802 You know, those people that just sit on the couch, 1104 00:59:33,904 --> 00:59:36,939 watch this show and mock all those people 1105 00:59:37,041 --> 00:59:40,609 that tap out prior to day 30, I was one of them. 1106 00:59:40,711 --> 00:59:42,911 - Mm. - I have been humbled, 1107 00:59:43,013 --> 00:59:44,780 and it was a struggle for me to push through, 1108 00:59:44,882 --> 00:59:48,584 and that morning when the chest pain came, 1109 00:59:48,686 --> 00:59:49,718 that's when I got really scared 1110 00:59:49,820 --> 00:59:51,653 because it's the exact same pain 1111 00:59:51,755 --> 00:59:54,256 I had when I had my heart attack. 1112 00:59:54,358 --> 00:59:57,826 Oh, [bleep]. 1113 00:59:57,928 --> 00:59:58,694 There ain't a doctor around the corner. 1114 00:59:58,796 --> 01:00:00,662 I'm not going to get help right away. 1115 01:00:00,764 --> 01:00:02,030 I was afraid I was going to die. 1116 01:00:02,132 --> 01:00:06,134 Oh, I don't want to tap, and I don't want to die either! 1117 01:00:06,236 --> 01:00:09,972 - I was the first out there to respond to you, and, wow, 1118 01:00:10,074 --> 01:00:11,873 I can't imagine what you were going through, tim. 1119 01:00:11,976 --> 01:00:14,710 I mean, one, it's hard to tap out of this show. 1120 01:00:14,812 --> 01:00:15,611 I know you didn't want to do that. 1121 01:00:15,713 --> 01:00:17,846 None of us do, and so tell me 1122 01:00:17,948 --> 01:00:19,881 how you were feeling when we first arrived. 1123 01:00:19,984 --> 01:00:21,416 - By the time you guys had gotten there, 1124 01:00:21,518 --> 01:00:22,718 I still didn't know. 1125 01:00:22,820 --> 01:00:24,686 I just didn't know what to do. It hurt. 1126 01:00:24,788 --> 01:00:27,990 - It's a good call, tim. - Yeah, I-- 1127 01:00:29,226 --> 01:00:30,325 [crying] 1128 01:00:30,427 --> 01:00:32,661 I wanted to bring home the money for my family so bad 1129 01:00:32,763 --> 01:00:34,997 that I could not help but think, 1130 01:00:35,099 --> 01:00:39,868 "what if you're wrong, and it's not the heart attack? 1131 01:00:39,970 --> 01:00:43,338 It's not even a risk of a heart attack." 1132 01:00:43,440 --> 01:00:44,906 I made a mistake. 1133 01:00:45,009 --> 01:00:47,075 Even though I know all logic was telling me, 1134 01:00:47,177 --> 01:00:50,779 "get out of here. Get help," but in the back of my head, 1135 01:00:50,881 --> 01:00:56,284 I'm tapping out on day six for nothing, 1136 01:00:56,387 --> 01:00:58,186 but I knew... 1137 01:00:58,288 --> 01:00:59,721 ♪ ♪ 1138 01:00:59,823 --> 01:01:02,691 I made a promise, if I had heart pain, 1139 01:01:02,793 --> 01:01:05,961 I would tap out, no questions asked. 1140 01:01:06,063 --> 01:01:10,432 You know, it ended my dreams of winning this thing, 1141 01:01:10,534 --> 01:01:13,201 but I get to go home. 1142 01:01:13,303 --> 01:01:15,037 ♪ ♪ 1143 01:01:15,139 --> 01:01:17,139 - tim, thank you so much for sharing your story with me. 1144 01:01:17,241 --> 01:01:22,044 I know it didn't end the way that you wanted, but, you know, 1145 01:01:22,146 --> 01:01:25,480 you reminded us all about what it is to keep your word, 1146 01:01:25,582 --> 01:01:27,949 and I thank you for that. 1147 01:01:28,052 --> 01:01:31,720 - I am bummed that it ended so extremely early, 1148 01:01:31,822 --> 01:01:34,322 but I know I did the right thing, 1149 01:01:34,425 --> 01:01:36,058 and in the end, 1150 01:01:36,160 --> 01:01:40,195 I am extremely grateful to have had this opportunity. 1151 01:01:40,297 --> 01:01:43,632 ♪ ♪ 1152 01:01:43,734 --> 01:01:44,700 - holy [bleep]. Those are bears. 1153 01:01:44,802 --> 01:01:47,035 - Get out of here! [air horn blares] 1154 01:01:47,137 --> 01:01:49,705 - grizzly bear can kill a human with one paw swipe. 1155 01:01:49,807 --> 01:01:52,674 - Hey, bear! - They're everywhere. 1156 01:01:52,776 --> 01:01:54,543 - It doesn't get any more real. 1157 01:01:54,645 --> 01:01:56,645 It's just you and nature. 1158 01:01:56,747 --> 01:01:58,013 - That just stepped it up a notch. 1159 01:01:58,115 --> 01:02:00,582 - One in ten chance for half a million dollars. 1160 01:02:00,684 --> 01:02:01,750 What's your breaking point? 1161 01:02:01,852 --> 01:02:03,952 - Something horrible is happening. 1162 01:02:04,054 --> 01:02:07,155 - One simple slip-up could send me out of here. 1163 01:02:07,257 --> 01:02:08,090 - Doh! 1164 01:02:08,192 --> 01:02:10,392 - There's a point this is not worth it. 1165 01:02:10,494 --> 01:02:12,327 - It's bloody cold. 1166 01:02:12,429 --> 01:02:13,962 - I'm struggling. 1167 01:02:14,064 --> 01:02:16,898 - This is a cold like I've never experienced before. 1168 01:02:17,000 --> 01:02:19,735 - That was most dangerous thing I've done yet. 1169 01:02:19,837 --> 01:02:21,169 - I feel like I'm gonna to pass out. 1170 01:02:21,271 --> 01:02:22,204 [groans] 1171 01:02:22,306 --> 01:02:25,006 ♪ ♪