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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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30.
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- Down.
- Oh my God.
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Unreal.
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Soon as you let
your guard down,
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something takes
advantage of it.
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I got to get this stored
in a different cache.
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[grunts]
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♪
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Yeah!
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Look at that big
freaking coney.
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I'm all for storing
as many fish
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as we can possibly get
because winter's here.
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♪
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I can now go out
and I can find animal sign.
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[bleep].
No activity at all.
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It's going to be OK.
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I am going to be OK.
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Look how chewed away
this half of fish is.
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Been taking the risk
for the last couple days
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that a wolverine
or a bear won't come.
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I'm not taking
the risk anymore.
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Right now I'm going
to secure this.
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There's a little anxiety.
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The snow is starting to
stick because I don't know
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how bad winter is going to be.
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Behind, like, that, I think.
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But I know I'm staying for it.
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[weapon clicks]
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[tense music]
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♪
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I'm not tapping out.
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I'd rather die.
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♪
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Here goes nothing.
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Whoa!
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Yes!
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Oh, [bleep].
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♪
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This is the harshest
location possible.
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We're 125 miles in
the Arctic Circle.
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Ah!
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Never had an environment
make me feel like
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like a complete amateur
before.
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Everything is
against us out here.
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Mother Nature went
and bitch slapped me.
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Looks like I've got grizzlies
and wolves as my neighbors.
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Holy crap.
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They're just
hunting the shoreline.
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Mother Nature is about
to dim the lights on us.
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We're heading into
total darkness.
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Hey, bear.
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The cold in the dark is
going to sap people's souls.
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Really makes you
wonder if it's worth it.
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There is no camera crew.
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There's no support system.
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I'm completely alone.
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Yeah!
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People go in one way--
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Stop bleeding.
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and they come out
entirely different.
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Ahh!
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This is the most
difficult survival
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challenge in the world.
- Ooh! Ooh! Ooh!
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$500,000.
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That's completely
life-changing money.
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It's beautiful!
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Whoever can
thrive the longest--
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Anything out here
ought to be afraid of me.
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whoever can push
through it wins.
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I hope I made the right
choice coming out here.
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♪
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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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I'm making a range
hood-style smoke flap
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in my shelter
out of moose skin.
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It'll trap and conduct
the smoke out the chimney,
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making it safe to be
in the rest of the house.
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♪
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[groans]
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[in British accent]
Upon my return,
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we shall finish
this fish juice.
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Until then, fare thee well.
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Stay safe.
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[in American accent]
Who are you talking to?
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[in British accent]
Why, you, sir.
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You there in the green cloak.
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[in American accent] There's no
one here in a green cloak.
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[in British accent]
It's not green.
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Red, then.
Whatever.
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Doesn't matter when
it's on a peasant.
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[in American accent] Are you
saying peasants don't matter?
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[in British accent]
Of course, I'm not.
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Peasants matter to
me a great deal.
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I need as many of them as
I can get on my estate.
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[in American accent]
Sir, you are positively
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medieval in your
manners.
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[in British accent]
The times are medieval.
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Must I not be medieval then?
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Bring me a hare or a rabbit.
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[in American accent] Sir,
there's only hares here.
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[in British accent]
I don't want the hairs.
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I want the meat.
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[in American accent]
Sir, I mean hare as in
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the animal hare.
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[in British accent] I've eaten
animal hair before,
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and it's disgusting.
It stuck in my teeth.
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[in American accent]
Sir, H-A-R-E.
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[in British accent]
I can spell, peasant.
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Get to work or I'll stone you.
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My range hood
is going for now.
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There is smoke in here,
but not that bad.
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I guess I'm ready to go
check the snare line.
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First, I've got to hang up my
jerky so the mice don't get it.
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[tense music]
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Last night,
I had a piece of jerky.
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It was stuffed up in a
rafter directly over my head.
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And during the night,
a mouse climbed up on it
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and fell off on my head,
and then screwed around
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in a panic on my sleeping bag.
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Mice are totally out
of control right now.
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So it's pretty
snowy this morning.
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It's looking Arctic-y.
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And I have some jerky,
so just going to eat
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this while I go do stuff.
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♪
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My teeth are so sore
from jerky, so very sore.
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♪
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I think not
everybody would have
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so many problems
chewing on the jerky,
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but I've got problematic teeth.
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And I could eat four times
as much fish right now,
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but I'm rationing it
because I want it to last.
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So if I'm going to stay
out here for a long time,
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I need fresh meat.
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Nothing in the snares.
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No fresh tracks.
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[sigh]
Crap.
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I'm going to just
walk for a while.
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I can't sit inside
the shelter anymore.
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I'm almost over here to
where I killed the moose.
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♪
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And it's been a while since
the last time I was out here.
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I do see something really cool.
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I have found some
of the moose bones.
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That is so cool.
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Now I can mess around
on some projects.
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♪ ♪
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There's a lot going
on in my head.
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And the big question that
I'm dealing with out here
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is, what's next for my family?
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We've moved 37 or 38 times
since we've been married.
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I know it affects my
kids, and they've picked
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up a lot of stress from it.
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They have not had the
normal, solid context
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of just being in a home
and going to school
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and growing up that way.
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Totally chewed up
by wolves or a bear.
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And that's why I want
to win this,
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because I want the money.
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I want to build
a house, still be
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able to do our
humanitarian aid work,
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which I think is very
important for my kids.
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If you only have a
certain amount of money,
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you've got to spend it
on one or the other.
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But I'd like to have
this money
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so that I can have a home
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to put my family in,
so that my children,
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when they think of home,
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they always have a place
to picture.
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♪
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Got some.
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Now, they look kind of gruesome
and bad, but I got some.
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♪ ♪
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Ooh, is the sun coming out?
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Ooh, the sun is coming out.
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I did the hand skin
test this morning,
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and I am lacking
in hydration, for sure.
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You know, that's when you
pinch your skin on your hand.
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And if it goes right
back, you're hydrated.
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If it doesn't, that
means you're dehydrated.
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And it just kind of hung out
there where I pinched it,
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so not good, not good at all.
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So I'm going
to heat up my broth,
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get some hydration in me.
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♪
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Oh, man.
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Stupid how tired I feel
just from lack of water.
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♪
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I wonder how my fellow
contestants are doing.
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♪ ♪
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Lock in a little of the heat,
how we warm up our soup.
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How I warm up my soup.
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I don't know why I'm
on this we thing.
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I guess it's just--
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guess I'm just alone.
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♪
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As hard as I am on myself,
I haven't once gone to bed
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hungry, and I'm still here.
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So I may not be great
at what I'm doing,
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but I'm stubborn
enough to keep trying,
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and that's the important
thing, and that's
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what I need to remember.
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OK.
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I need to cut firewood.
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♪
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[saw scraping]
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♪
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[groans]
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Got a pain right below my rib.
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[groans]
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♪
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It's obvious my body
is degrading because I
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can't feed it properly.
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Pain-wise, it's not,
like, agonizing,
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but it's uncomfortable.
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[groans]
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My body is so
depleted right now.
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I feel the weakest that
I've felt in my entire life.
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♪
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I can ignore the signs of
my body if I want something,
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and I want to win this so bad.
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I'm trying to
stay positive, but damn it,
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I feel my body weakening
and I'm getting scared.
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I still have fight in me.
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I'm going to keep on fighting.
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I'm not done yet,
and that's all that matters.
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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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All right.
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Woke up and got
hungry a little bit,
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so I'm digging in
my stash right now.
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And I realized how kind
of insane this is.
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I have a fish head on my bed,
and I'm just cutting at it
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like it's a normal thing.
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♪ ♪
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It should be good.
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All right, let's cook it.
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If you ain't
keeping white fish heads
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and burbot heads at the foot
of your bed that y'all can cut
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into on a whim when you get a
midnight snack craving,
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then you ain't even living yet.
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Come on.
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"Alone," you are
something else, man.
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What have you done to me?
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You know, I'm very tempted
to go peek at that gill net.
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I mean, I don't know
what time it is,
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but I think I'm going
to strap on a camera
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and go right now
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because there could be
a damn fish in there.
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♪
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I think these fish
come in there,
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and they're in there, like, all
night, twisting and turning.
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And then I sometimes
lose some because
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I don't check it often enough.
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♪
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[wolves howling]
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♪
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I'm hearing wolves
howling over here.
262
00:13:02,517 --> 00:13:09,379
♪
263
00:13:09,379 --> 00:13:13,172
They're not that far this way.
264
00:13:13,172 --> 00:13:20,034
♪
265
00:13:20,172 --> 00:13:23,206
That's kind of spooky.
266
00:13:25,517 --> 00:13:27,448
Hopefully,
those wolves don't come
267
00:13:27,448 --> 00:13:31,275
through here tonight
and get too worried
268
00:13:31,275 --> 00:13:34,448
about all my damn fish.
269
00:13:34,448 --> 00:13:36,896
[wolves howling]
270
00:13:36,896 --> 00:13:40,310
Out here, it's like
one day at a time, man.
271
00:13:40,310 --> 00:13:43,793
And if you can grind
through, then eventually,
272
00:13:43,931 --> 00:13:45,344
you'll make it to the end.
273
00:13:45,344 --> 00:13:49,172
And that's what
I did in school.
274
00:13:49,172 --> 00:13:50,793
Boy.
275
00:13:50,793 --> 00:13:55,172
Yeah, this thing's going
to be iced up tomorrow.
276
00:13:55,172 --> 00:13:57,275
♪
277
00:13:57,413 --> 00:13:59,000
School was hell.
278
00:13:59,000 --> 00:14:00,827
The fact that I
finished high school
279
00:14:00,827 --> 00:14:03,172
was amazing because
I wanted to quit.
280
00:14:03,310 --> 00:14:07,379
I mean,
I almost just bailed out.
281
00:14:07,517 --> 00:14:08,758
In fact, I remember
a day where I
282
00:14:08,758 --> 00:14:12,586
was going to drive
to northern Minnesota
283
00:14:12,724 --> 00:14:16,965
with a canoe on top of my car
and just freaking disappear.
284
00:14:16,965 --> 00:14:19,172
Nothing.
285
00:14:19,172 --> 00:14:20,758
What a bummer.
286
00:14:20,758 --> 00:14:24,172
I hope those
coneys keep coming.
287
00:14:24,172 --> 00:14:25,689
Man.
288
00:14:25,827 --> 00:14:29,620
And I thought, damn, I can
get away from these people
289
00:14:29,620 --> 00:14:31,206
in the wilderness, man.
290
00:14:31,206 --> 00:14:34,482
I can get away from people
in general out there.
291
00:14:34,620 --> 00:14:37,275
There's no place for me
safer than in the middle
292
00:14:37,275 --> 00:14:40,896
of a deep, dark, nasty forest
in the middle of the night
293
00:14:40,896 --> 00:14:45,310
because nobody is going to be
out there trying to hurt me.
294
00:14:45,310 --> 00:14:48,103
Sounds like a damn good
place to be most of the time.
295
00:14:48,103 --> 00:14:49,482
♪
296
00:14:49,482 --> 00:14:51,137
Clear night out.
297
00:14:51,137 --> 00:14:53,482
Crystal clear.
298
00:14:56,517 --> 00:14:57,965
Oh my God.
299
00:14:57,965 --> 00:15:00,758
Oh my God, dude.
300
00:15:00,758 --> 00:15:02,655
I was going to
look at the stars,
301
00:15:02,655 --> 00:15:05,724
and I have my
glasses in my pocket.
302
00:15:05,862 --> 00:15:09,068
That part that was cracked
right there, and now--
303
00:15:09,068 --> 00:15:11,758
now they're really screwed.
304
00:15:11,896 --> 00:15:14,103
[exhales]
305
00:15:14,103 --> 00:15:18,344
I've got to go fix
my glasses now because I sure
306
00:15:18,344 --> 00:15:21,724
can't hunt without glasses.
307
00:15:21,724 --> 00:15:24,586
[wolves howling]
308
00:15:24,724 --> 00:15:27,172
Damn.
309
00:15:27,172 --> 00:15:29,413
Going pretty bonkers tonight.
310
00:15:29,551 --> 00:15:36,241
♪
311
00:15:36,241 --> 00:15:37,620
Hunting mice.
312
00:15:37,620 --> 00:15:42,551
♪
313
00:15:42,689 --> 00:15:45,275
The nights are getting
so much longer,
314
00:15:45,275 --> 00:15:49,068
but I sleep less and less.
315
00:15:49,068 --> 00:15:51,551
It's just,
laying still for that long,
316
00:15:51,689 --> 00:15:52,896
your kidneys start to hurt.
317
00:15:52,896 --> 00:15:55,310
Your lower back
can start to hurt.
318
00:15:55,310 --> 00:15:58,103
He may not come back out.
319
00:15:58,103 --> 00:16:00,344
He's going to stay back
behind the firewood
320
00:16:00,344 --> 00:16:02,448
where I can't shoot him.
321
00:16:02,448 --> 00:16:04,827
But I mean, I'm not tapping
out because of pain.
322
00:16:04,827 --> 00:16:06,379
That'll never happen.
323
00:16:06,379 --> 00:16:07,620
♪
324
00:16:07,620 --> 00:16:09,034
Run around, little mousey.
325
00:16:12,655 --> 00:16:15,275
♪
326
00:16:15,275 --> 00:16:18,103
I ate fish, so now
it's time to remake
327
00:16:18,103 --> 00:16:20,137
my glasses out of willow.
328
00:16:20,275 --> 00:16:24,551
I want to try heating
up this paracord
329
00:16:24,551 --> 00:16:27,137
and then dripping
the burning dots
330
00:16:27,137 --> 00:16:29,724
along the edge of the
lenses to try to seal
331
00:16:29,724 --> 00:16:31,172
them in there that way.
332
00:16:31,172 --> 00:16:34,517
It'll be like welding it.
333
00:16:34,517 --> 00:16:36,827
Yeah, that's strong.
334
00:16:36,965 --> 00:16:40,793
And then I've got
to attach the arms.
335
00:16:40,793 --> 00:16:42,103
♪
336
00:16:42,241 --> 00:16:46,413
We've got glasses again.
337
00:16:46,413 --> 00:16:49,413
Ehhhhh.
338
00:16:49,413 --> 00:16:50,862
[laughs]
339
00:16:50,862 --> 00:16:55,931
♪
340
00:16:55,931 --> 00:16:58,793
Most nights, I'm thinking
too many things at once,
341
00:16:58,931 --> 00:17:01,965
and I come up with actually
a lot of good ideas.
342
00:17:01,965 --> 00:17:04,034
Well-- yeah, so.
343
00:17:21,517 --> 00:17:23,482
Ahh.
344
00:17:23,482 --> 00:17:27,655
♪
345
00:17:27,655 --> 00:17:29,965
Oh, man.
346
00:17:30,103 --> 00:17:33,965
I've been up for hours.
347
00:17:34,103 --> 00:17:39,172
My left kidney is
freaking screaming at me.
348
00:17:39,172 --> 00:17:44,413
Hurts so bad, no matter
what position I get in.
349
00:17:44,413 --> 00:17:48,931
I don't know what's going
on, but oh my God, it hurts.
350
00:17:49,068 --> 00:17:54,827
It's like there's just a knife
just, like, plunged into it.
351
00:17:54,827 --> 00:17:58,275
I just don't want to cause
long-term damage, you know?
352
00:17:58,275 --> 00:18:00,103
Oh my God.
353
00:18:00,241 --> 00:18:02,758
Oh my God.
354
00:18:02,758 --> 00:18:05,172
It's horrible.
355
00:18:05,172 --> 00:18:08,586
Oh, [bleep].
356
00:18:13,620 --> 00:18:16,586
[dramatic music]
357
00:18:16,586 --> 00:18:18,793
Last night, I was up
all night long with what
358
00:18:18,793 --> 00:18:21,655
I suspect is kidney pain.
359
00:18:21,655 --> 00:18:27,931
It feels like it's work
to hold my body upright.
360
00:18:28,068 --> 00:18:31,068
My core is, like...
[groans].
361
00:18:31,068 --> 00:18:33,689
That's weird.
362
00:18:33,689 --> 00:18:34,689
Oh, come on, core.
363
00:18:34,689 --> 00:18:35,689
Get strong.
364
00:18:35,689 --> 00:18:37,517
We can do this.
365
00:18:37,517 --> 00:18:40,344
♪
366
00:18:40,344 --> 00:18:42,965
I'm going to go
take a bird walk.
367
00:18:43,103 --> 00:18:45,172
Hopefully, like,
find a bird and maybe,
368
00:18:45,172 --> 00:18:47,551
like, be able to shoot a bird.
369
00:18:47,551 --> 00:18:49,172
♪
370
00:18:49,172 --> 00:18:52,827
I've never in my life
had pain like this.
371
00:18:52,827 --> 00:18:57,034
It's like a knife is being
stuck into my kidney.
372
00:18:57,034 --> 00:19:01,896
Oh, where are you,
little game birds?
373
00:19:01,896 --> 00:19:03,586
Fly up, little birdies.
374
00:19:03,724 --> 00:19:07,137
Let me see you.
375
00:19:07,137 --> 00:19:09,206
Yeah, I didn't think so.
376
00:19:09,344 --> 00:19:11,551
Think I'll keep walking.
377
00:19:11,551 --> 00:19:14,965
The pain is so bad,
my brain is spinning.
378
00:19:14,965 --> 00:19:17,413
Ooh, [bleep].
379
00:19:17,413 --> 00:19:19,000
Did I not boil water?
380
00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:20,862
Did I eat something
I shouldn't have?
381
00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:22,448
You know,
what is happening that I
382
00:19:22,586 --> 00:19:25,448
have this agony inside of me?
383
00:19:25,586 --> 00:19:28,413
Oh, come on, body.
384
00:19:28,413 --> 00:19:31,241
I need you to hang on.
385
00:19:31,241 --> 00:19:37,275
I might be causing serious
damage if I don't get help.
386
00:19:37,275 --> 00:19:41,344
Oh my God.
387
00:19:41,482 --> 00:19:44,172
This sucks.
388
00:19:44,310 --> 00:19:45,517
[sighs]
389
00:19:45,517 --> 00:19:52,172
♪
390
00:19:52,172 --> 00:19:53,379
It [bleep] hurts.
391
00:19:53,517 --> 00:19:56,827
[exhales]
392
00:19:56,965 --> 00:19:59,068
♪
393
00:19:59,206 --> 00:20:03,000
This is harder than I
thought it was going to be.
394
00:20:03,000 --> 00:20:04,793
[exhales]
395
00:20:04,793 --> 00:20:11,758
♪
396
00:20:11,896 --> 00:20:17,103
It's the right decision,
even if it hurts.
397
00:20:17,103 --> 00:20:20,724
It's the right decision.
398
00:20:20,862 --> 00:20:28,137
♪
399
00:20:28,137 --> 00:20:32,758
This is Sarah, and I am
officially tapping out today.
400
00:20:32,758 --> 00:20:39,862
♪ ♪
401
00:20:43,275 --> 00:20:45,413
[sighs]
402
00:20:45,413 --> 00:20:52,482
♪ ♪
403
00:20:52,482 --> 00:20:55,068
I was having some
what I thought was
404
00:20:55,068 --> 00:20:57,068
a muscular pain in my back.
405
00:20:57,068 --> 00:20:59,931
But last night, I realized
it wasn't muscular.
406
00:21:00,068 --> 00:21:01,965
It was more kidney-related.
407
00:21:01,965 --> 00:21:04,206
♪
408
00:21:04,206 --> 00:21:08,034
I'm normally a suck it up
and ignore the medical issue
409
00:21:08,034 --> 00:21:12,310
kind of person, but I made
a promise to my husband
410
00:21:12,448 --> 00:21:14,482
that I would tap out
one day before I
411
00:21:14,620 --> 00:21:17,034
break physically or mentally.
412
00:21:17,034 --> 00:21:20,275
And I can't afford
to have organ issues.
413
00:21:20,275 --> 00:21:24,310
That would be breaking, and
I'm going to keep this promise.
414
00:21:24,448 --> 00:21:28,896
♪
415
00:21:28,896 --> 00:21:32,172
It's extremely
hard to leave here.
416
00:21:32,310 --> 00:21:35,413
My spirit says
I can keep fighting.
417
00:21:35,551 --> 00:21:39,379
I just don't think
my body can.
418
00:21:39,379 --> 00:21:41,965
This has been
the most challenging thing
419
00:21:41,965 --> 00:21:46,172
I've ever done,
challenging physically,
420
00:21:46,172 --> 00:21:50,413
mentally, emotionally,
spiritually.
421
00:21:50,413 --> 00:21:52,448
But I feel like
there's a certain
422
00:21:52,448 --> 00:21:54,862
inner strength I found.
423
00:21:54,862 --> 00:21:57,103
You know, I was out
here for 42 days,
424
00:21:57,241 --> 00:21:59,482
and that's an accomplishment.
425
00:21:59,482 --> 00:22:02,758
You can't do that if you
don't have any skills.
426
00:22:02,896 --> 00:22:03,965
♪
427
00:22:03,965 --> 00:22:06,793
I slayed some demons out here.
428
00:22:06,793 --> 00:22:09,586
The voice that has been
following me around
429
00:22:09,586 --> 00:22:13,689
and screaming in my ears about
not ever being good enough,
430
00:22:13,827 --> 00:22:16,206
you know, to have
that down to a whisper
431
00:22:16,206 --> 00:22:19,620
is an amazing, amazing
thing when it's been yelling
432
00:22:19,620 --> 00:22:21,241
in my head for my entire life.
433
00:22:21,241 --> 00:22:22,827
♪ ♪
434
00:22:22,827 --> 00:22:25,689
I truly feel like I'm
walking out a better person,
435
00:22:25,689 --> 00:22:27,965
and not just for me,
but for everybody
436
00:22:28,103 --> 00:22:32,724
around me, especially my
daughter and granddaughter.
437
00:22:32,724 --> 00:22:36,310
I'm excited to go
and lift them up.
438
00:22:36,310 --> 00:22:39,689
It's not just about
lifting myself up anymore.
439
00:22:39,689 --> 00:22:40,689
I'm thinking bigger picture.
440
00:22:40,689 --> 00:22:43,137
♪
441
00:22:43,137 --> 00:22:45,586
I am starting to see that
I am a beautiful person,
442
00:22:45,724 --> 00:22:47,793
and I am worthy.
443
00:22:47,793 --> 00:22:53,103
I wish it was constant,
but I'm learning.
444
00:22:53,241 --> 00:22:57,448
I may not be all the way there
but definitely getting closer.
445
00:22:57,586 --> 00:23:00,068
♪
446
00:23:02,448 --> 00:23:05,310
[tense music]
447
00:23:05,310 --> 00:23:12,413
♪ ♪
448
00:23:35,827 --> 00:23:38,068
[laughs]
449
00:23:53,827 --> 00:24:00,931
♪
450
00:24:05,310 --> 00:24:06,689
There's an old
saying, you know?
451
00:24:06,689 --> 00:24:08,793
Take what you need
and use what you take.
452
00:24:08,931 --> 00:24:11,137
And you know, if you're going
to survive off the land,
453
00:24:11,137 --> 00:24:12,413
you've got to respect
the land.
454
00:24:12,551 --> 00:24:14,896
And you know,
don't abuse it, and the land
455
00:24:14,896 --> 00:24:17,172
will always provide for you.
456
00:24:17,172 --> 00:24:20,758
Always.
457
00:24:20,758 --> 00:24:21,758
Well, well, well.
458
00:24:21,758 --> 00:24:23,206
Yeah.
459
00:24:23,344 --> 00:24:24,448
A hind beaver foot.
460
00:24:24,586 --> 00:24:26,793
[laughs]
Take the whole pile.
461
00:24:26,793 --> 00:24:29,413
That's going to be much.
462
00:24:29,413 --> 00:24:31,413
Food cache, just wish we
had more to cache here.
463
00:24:31,413 --> 00:24:33,655
That'd be an ideal situation.
464
00:24:33,793 --> 00:24:37,862
♪
465
00:24:37,862 --> 00:24:39,310
Yes, sir.
466
00:24:49,551 --> 00:24:52,379
I don't want to eat all the
beaver right now because just
467
00:24:52,517 --> 00:24:54,137
trying to extend my
food supply right now
468
00:24:54,137 --> 00:24:56,758
is the biggest challenge.
469
00:24:56,758 --> 00:24:58,344
This beaver's much
smaller than I want.
470
00:24:58,344 --> 00:25:01,103
It's a little papoose, but
I'm not seeing anything else,
471
00:25:01,241 --> 00:25:02,448
and it's all I've
got at the moment.
472
00:25:02,586 --> 00:25:04,896
♪
473
00:25:04,896 --> 00:25:07,482
I'm just waiting for that ice
to get safe enough to walk on
474
00:25:07,482 --> 00:25:09,310
so I could get more fish.
475
00:25:09,448 --> 00:25:10,310
I've got a feeling.
476
00:25:10,310 --> 00:25:12,310
Probably be a couple days.
477
00:25:12,310 --> 00:25:15,517
All right.
478
00:25:15,517 --> 00:25:18,482
[groans]
Here we are.
479
00:25:20,689 --> 00:25:22,379
See what we've got here.
480
00:25:22,517 --> 00:25:23,379
Oh my gosh.
481
00:25:23,517 --> 00:25:25,379
See?
482
00:25:25,379 --> 00:25:27,034
Look at all that luscious fat.
483
00:25:27,172 --> 00:25:28,551
That's just from the paw alone.
484
00:25:28,551 --> 00:25:35,620
♪
485
00:25:46,931 --> 00:25:49,689
There's only three sayings
that I really do believe in.
486
00:25:49,689 --> 00:25:53,517
Pain is only weakness leaving
the body,
487
00:25:53,517 --> 00:25:57,137
when the going gets tough,
the tough get going.
488
00:26:06,655 --> 00:26:09,241
That's all that's left,
these little claws.
489
00:26:09,241 --> 00:26:10,931
A fantastic dinner.
490
00:26:11,068 --> 00:26:15,482
Yes, sir.
491
00:26:22,448 --> 00:26:24,758
[dramatic music]
492
00:26:24,758 --> 00:26:31,827
♪
493
00:26:39,827 --> 00:26:43,586
♪
494
00:26:43,586 --> 00:26:49,068
Looks like the
start of a good day.
495
00:26:49,206 --> 00:26:51,862
The first order of
business, as always,
496
00:26:51,862 --> 00:26:54,448
have a look at the snares.
497
00:26:54,448 --> 00:27:01,448
♪
498
00:27:01,586 --> 00:27:04,413
Nothing here and nothing there.
499
00:27:04,551 --> 00:27:05,793
Have a little peep down here.
500
00:27:05,793 --> 00:27:13,413
♪
501
00:27:13,413 --> 00:27:16,310
Next stop, food cache.
502
00:27:16,448 --> 00:27:18,551
It's time to rock up
to my food cache
503
00:27:18,689 --> 00:27:20,931
and enjoy some
delicious beaver meat.
504
00:27:21,068 --> 00:27:26,310
♪
505
00:27:26,310 --> 00:27:27,310
I've got nothing
else to eat anyway,
506
00:27:27,310 --> 00:27:29,689
so I've got no other choice.
507
00:27:33,517 --> 00:27:36,517
All around my cache setup here.
508
00:27:39,965 --> 00:27:41,344
I'm not going to take
it all at the moment.
509
00:27:41,344 --> 00:27:43,620
I'll just take
so much to guarantee
510
00:27:43,758 --> 00:27:46,379
that I keep moving forward.
511
00:27:55,241 --> 00:27:58,241
[groaning]
512
00:28:02,896 --> 00:28:05,551
Some of these rocks are heavy.
513
00:28:12,413 --> 00:28:14,241
I'm not seeing my beaver meat.
514
00:28:14,379 --> 00:28:15,275
No way.
515
00:28:15,413 --> 00:28:17,034
This has got to be a trick.
516
00:28:17,172 --> 00:28:19,586
There's no way anything
can get in there.
517
00:28:19,586 --> 00:28:25,620
♪
518
00:28:25,620 --> 00:28:26,689
That's got to be a trick.
519
00:28:26,827 --> 00:28:29,034
There's no effing way.
520
00:28:29,034 --> 00:28:34,482
♪
521
00:28:34,482 --> 00:28:38,724
There's no way.
522
00:28:38,724 --> 00:28:41,103
I'm sick to my stomach.
523
00:28:41,103 --> 00:28:46,379
♪
524
00:28:46,379 --> 00:28:48,931
I find that hard to believe.
525
00:28:48,931 --> 00:28:52,793
I don't believe it.
526
00:28:52,793 --> 00:28:57,000
I hardly see it proper.
527
00:29:01,310 --> 00:29:02,655
I'm not kidding you.
528
00:29:02,655 --> 00:29:04,482
I am not
kidding you.
529
00:29:04,482 --> 00:29:09,137
It's all gone.
530
00:29:09,137 --> 00:29:13,551
Holy [bleep].
531
00:29:13,551 --> 00:29:15,724
It can't be.
532
00:29:15,724 --> 00:29:21,000
♪
533
00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:24,000
Even the tail is gone,
the little tail.
534
00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:29,379
♪ ♪
535
00:29:32,344 --> 00:29:34,689
Not a sign of anything.
536
00:29:34,827 --> 00:29:41,862
♪
537
00:29:49,379 --> 00:29:52,000
I'm in a critical state.
538
00:29:52,137 --> 00:29:53,724
This is probably
the worst state
539
00:29:53,724 --> 00:29:55,551
I've been in since I got here.
540
00:29:55,551 --> 00:29:57,758
Not a freaking thing.
541
00:29:57,758 --> 00:30:00,000
The only safe place I had left.
542
00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:01,620
I'm completely out of food.
543
00:30:01,620 --> 00:30:03,827
And now looks like I
might even have to fast.
544
00:30:09,482 --> 00:30:11,448
It's freaking devastating.
545
00:30:14,241 --> 00:30:21,275
♪
546
00:30:27,137 --> 00:30:29,310
Here goes for a project.
547
00:30:29,310 --> 00:30:34,758
I'm making gorge hooks,
fish,
548
00:30:34,758 --> 00:30:38,379
from rib bones.
549
00:30:38,379 --> 00:30:40,620
I'm going to try to bust it up.
550
00:30:45,862 --> 00:30:51,241
Let's see if I can get
edge bits like this.
551
00:30:51,241 --> 00:30:54,689
♪ ♪
552
00:30:54,689 --> 00:30:57,896
Gorge hooks are basically
like a big splinter,
553
00:30:58,034 --> 00:31:02,034
and they go inside
the bait straight ways,
554
00:31:02,172 --> 00:31:03,965
and the fish swallows it.
555
00:31:03,965 --> 00:31:06,413
And then the sharp point
catches in the fish's throat,
556
00:31:06,413 --> 00:31:08,551
and they turn sideways.
557
00:31:08,551 --> 00:31:15,034
♪
558
00:31:15,034 --> 00:31:20,862
I'm excited about this one,
really excited about this one.
559
00:31:20,862 --> 00:31:22,068
I hope it works.
560
00:31:22,068 --> 00:31:25,551
You guys know how many
hooks I have left?
561
00:31:25,689 --> 00:31:27,137
Four steel hooks.
562
00:31:27,275 --> 00:31:29,275
Four.
563
00:31:29,275 --> 00:31:31,965
If these work, there's no
limit to the fishing I can do.
564
00:31:32,103 --> 00:31:35,931
♪
565
00:31:35,931 --> 00:31:37,344
This one's different.
566
00:31:37,344 --> 00:31:40,413
I'm going to make this one
in a crescent moon design.
567
00:31:40,551 --> 00:31:45,620
♪
568
00:31:45,758 --> 00:31:49,620
This is cool.
569
00:31:49,620 --> 00:31:54,448
Here's our half-moon shape,
crescent moon shape
570
00:31:54,448 --> 00:31:56,448
with a hole in the middle.
571
00:31:56,448 --> 00:31:57,724
The wire leader's
going to go to that,
572
00:31:57,862 --> 00:32:01,413
and then it's got two
really sharp ends there.
573
00:32:01,551 --> 00:32:02,793
We'll deploy these tonight.
574
00:32:02,931 --> 00:32:05,448
Man, I hope these work.
575
00:32:05,586 --> 00:32:08,344
But right now, I'm ready
to go check the snare line.
576
00:32:08,344 --> 00:32:13,655
♪
577
00:32:13,793 --> 00:32:18,862
Well, I'm just out on my
snare line, chewing on jerky.
578
00:32:19,000 --> 00:32:20,413
All right.
579
00:32:20,413 --> 00:32:24,517
I had five snares
set up in here.
580
00:32:24,655 --> 00:32:26,655
My thoughts are always
running along the lines of,
581
00:32:26,655 --> 00:32:29,068
how long will this season go?
582
00:32:29,068 --> 00:32:33,103
And that's why I need to stock
up on as much food as I can.
583
00:32:33,103 --> 00:32:34,896
OK.
584
00:32:34,896 --> 00:32:37,517
I see one empty snare.
585
00:32:37,517 --> 00:32:38,551
When I first heard
where it was going to be,
586
00:32:38,689 --> 00:32:39,551
it's all scary.
587
00:32:39,689 --> 00:32:40,551
Ooh!
588
00:32:40,689 --> 00:32:42,103
Deep Arctic!
589
00:32:42,103 --> 00:32:44,517
And I'm like,
this could be a short season.
590
00:32:44,517 --> 00:32:46,206
Two empty snare.
591
00:32:46,206 --> 00:32:48,206
Well, I'm convinced that it's
going to be the opposite.
592
00:32:48,344 --> 00:32:49,862
I think it's going
to be a long season.
593
00:32:50,000 --> 00:32:52,827
I think it's going to
easily go past 70 days.
594
00:32:52,965 --> 00:32:55,000
Three empty snare.
595
00:32:55,000 --> 00:32:57,034
There's tough people
on this season.
596
00:32:57,172 --> 00:32:58,620
William is tough.
597
00:32:58,620 --> 00:33:00,448
Jake is tough.
598
00:33:00,448 --> 00:33:03,965
And I think Dub is
ridiculously tough.
599
00:33:04,103 --> 00:33:07,586
I bet you that dude
sticks in a long time.
600
00:33:07,724 --> 00:33:11,344
So I'm going to keep pressing
through this and do my best.
601
00:33:11,344 --> 00:33:14,000
Gonna check a snare up in here.
602
00:33:14,137 --> 00:33:16,793
I've got one back
in this brush.
603
00:33:22,551 --> 00:33:23,413
Ooh!
604
00:33:23,551 --> 00:33:25,000
Ooh, ooh.
605
00:33:28,896 --> 00:33:30,241
Guys, almost last snare.
606
00:33:30,241 --> 00:33:32,000
I've got a hare,
but it's still alive.
607
00:33:32,000 --> 00:33:33,241
I've got to get a stick
and get over there.
608
00:33:33,241 --> 00:33:35,655
♪ ♪
609
00:33:35,655 --> 00:33:38,103
All right, buddy.
610
00:33:38,241 --> 00:33:40,344
[grunts]
611
00:33:40,482 --> 00:33:42,275
Yeah, OK.
612
00:33:42,275 --> 00:33:44,896
Come on.
613
00:33:44,896 --> 00:33:45,896
Awesome!
614
00:33:45,896 --> 00:33:46,931
I got one!
615
00:33:46,931 --> 00:33:48,586
I got food for today.
616
00:33:48,724 --> 00:33:50,896
And that's a big one too.
617
00:33:50,896 --> 00:33:53,586
That's a big hare.
618
00:33:53,724 --> 00:33:55,379
So grateful.
619
00:33:55,517 --> 00:33:59,344
♪
620
00:33:59,344 --> 00:34:03,344
Getting this hare really
encourages me because it
621
00:34:03,482 --> 00:34:05,034
directly affects my longevity.
622
00:34:05,034 --> 00:34:06,724
♪
623
00:34:06,724 --> 00:34:09,379
If I were only
eating hare, I would
624
00:34:09,517 --> 00:34:12,172
be concerned because
you can starve
625
00:34:12,310 --> 00:34:15,344
to death eating lean meat.
626
00:34:15,344 --> 00:34:17,758
There we go.
627
00:34:17,896 --> 00:34:20,344
I'm going to skin
its head and eat it.
628
00:34:20,344 --> 00:34:22,793
It's called protein
starvation.
629
00:34:22,793 --> 00:34:25,758
Your body needs
the oils and the fats
630
00:34:25,758 --> 00:34:27,793
more out here
in this cold weather
631
00:34:27,793 --> 00:34:32,068
especially than it needs all
the protein from that meat.
632
00:34:32,206 --> 00:34:35,241
But the great fact is that
I have this moose lard,
633
00:34:35,241 --> 00:34:37,655
and I think that will
be a good balance
634
00:34:37,655 --> 00:34:40,068
to keep me with
enough fat to process
635
00:34:40,068 --> 00:34:41,655
the proteins from the hare.
636
00:34:41,655 --> 00:34:44,724
And I think that way, I could
have a ton of longevity.
637
00:34:44,862 --> 00:34:49,931
So as I was holding it, you
could hear its heartbeat--
638
00:34:50,068 --> 00:34:53,344
pap, pap, pap, pap, pap,
pap, pap-- slow down.
639
00:34:53,344 --> 00:34:55,896
To me, that's a big
moment because life is
640
00:34:55,896 --> 00:34:59,758
so precious, like every life.
641
00:34:59,758 --> 00:35:01,896
♪
642
00:35:02,034 --> 00:35:05,413
I just honor life right now.
643
00:35:05,413 --> 00:35:07,275
Life is special.
644
00:35:07,275 --> 00:35:11,517
Life is very special.
645
00:35:11,655 --> 00:35:14,310
And I'm alive.
646
00:35:14,310 --> 00:35:17,517
I'm alive in the Arctic.
647
00:35:17,517 --> 00:35:19,482
And I've still got it.
648
00:35:19,482 --> 00:35:20,724
I'm still dangerous.
649
00:35:20,724 --> 00:35:22,931
I'm still good to go.
650
00:35:22,931 --> 00:35:29,965
♪
651
00:35:31,448 --> 00:35:35,793
Because of the hare, I'm
filled with a most comfortable
652
00:35:35,793 --> 00:35:40,034
feeling at this moment.
653
00:35:40,862 --> 00:35:44,068
But I've worked in a lot
of different countries,
654
00:35:44,206 --> 00:35:47,862
and I realized how many
people live in fear, you know?
655
00:35:47,862 --> 00:35:51,896
So many of you,
656
00:35:51,896 --> 00:35:56,689
you know that I'm
a humanitarian aid worker,
657
00:35:56,689 --> 00:35:58,517
but I guess
I've never taken the time
658
00:35:58,517 --> 00:36:02,586
to explain exactly what
that is and what that means.
659
00:36:02,586 --> 00:36:04,000
Like, here's my motivation.
660
00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:07,620
When I was a kid,
I grew up in a lot of fear.
661
00:36:07,620 --> 00:36:09,586
There was a lot of things
I was told about, you know,
662
00:36:09,586 --> 00:36:10,655
the government.
663
00:36:10,655 --> 00:36:11,896
I remember going
to bed every night
664
00:36:12,034 --> 00:36:14,931
thinking that SWAT team
would steal all of us
665
00:36:15,068 --> 00:36:17,517
kids away in the
middle of the night.
666
00:36:17,655 --> 00:36:20,724
♪
667
00:36:20,724 --> 00:36:24,103
And then one of my great
fears was realized.
668
00:36:24,103 --> 00:36:27,551
My brother,
who I was super close with--
669
00:36:27,551 --> 00:36:29,965
we did everything together--
670
00:36:29,965 --> 00:36:34,000
he was shot by a gang while
he was delivering pizza
671
00:36:34,137 --> 00:36:36,793
one night to pay for college.
672
00:36:36,931 --> 00:36:39,310
♪
673
00:36:39,310 --> 00:36:40,862
He lived.
674
00:36:41,000 --> 00:36:45,206
But I remember standing on the
street corner the next morning,
675
00:36:45,206 --> 00:36:48,275
seeing where he'd been shot,
and there was so much blood
676
00:36:48,413 --> 00:36:52,034
on the street,
like buckets of blood.
677
00:36:52,034 --> 00:36:57,482
And I sensed the end
of life right there.
678
00:36:57,482 --> 00:37:01,379
I sensed that it's meaningless
unless there's something
679
00:37:01,379 --> 00:37:02,758
more than fear to live in.
680
00:37:02,758 --> 00:37:04,793
♪ ♪
681
00:37:04,793 --> 00:37:07,862
So a chance came up
to go on a missions trip
682
00:37:08,000 --> 00:37:09,206
through my church.
683
00:37:09,206 --> 00:37:12,034
We went to Ukraine,
and there were orphanages.
684
00:37:12,172 --> 00:37:13,448
And all the folks
from the church
685
00:37:13,448 --> 00:37:14,896
were doing their programs,
and I was there,
686
00:37:15,034 --> 00:37:16,482
and I would help out.
687
00:37:16,620 --> 00:37:21,068
But I began to see something
take place there in a way
688
00:37:21,068 --> 00:37:22,931
I'd never seen before.
689
00:37:23,068 --> 00:37:26,965
I began to see people
loving others
690
00:37:27,103 --> 00:37:30,172
less fortunate than themselves.
691
00:37:30,310 --> 00:37:33,379
Those orphans were living in
fear, and as people loved them,
692
00:37:33,517 --> 00:37:35,172
the fear went away.
693
00:37:35,172 --> 00:37:37,344
And I knew there was something
there that I had to pursue
694
00:37:37,344 --> 00:37:38,931
with everything I had.
695
00:37:38,931 --> 00:37:41,413
And God found me there.
696
00:37:41,551 --> 00:37:45,655
So I go to places,
war zones sometimes,
697
00:37:45,793 --> 00:37:50,413
countries where people
don't have as much.
698
00:37:50,413 --> 00:37:52,379
People judge me all the time.
699
00:37:52,379 --> 00:37:54,448
They think it's--
they think I do shady
700
00:37:54,448 --> 00:37:55,482
stuff in other countries.
701
00:37:55,620 --> 00:37:56,862
No.
702
00:37:56,862 --> 00:37:58,448
I just can't talk about
everything that we do.
703
00:37:58,448 --> 00:38:01,137
Because in some countries,
you wouldn't believe it,
704
00:38:01,137 --> 00:38:04,344
but it's illegal to help.
705
00:38:04,344 --> 00:38:07,379
I want to see fear go
away from somebody's eyes
706
00:38:07,379 --> 00:38:10,758
like it went away from
mine when love found me.
707
00:38:10,758 --> 00:38:14,379
♪
708
00:38:14,379 --> 00:38:18,620
So now you know Timber
a little better.
709
00:38:18,758 --> 00:38:22,034
That's me in a nutshell.
710
00:38:22,034 --> 00:38:29,034
♪
711
00:38:40,379 --> 00:38:43,000
I'm telling you, to lose that
beaver meat is devastating.
712
00:38:43,137 --> 00:38:44,758
But it's not the
trouble that'll get you.
713
00:38:44,896 --> 00:38:45,758
And that's out here too.
714
00:38:45,896 --> 00:38:46,965
It's not trouble.
715
00:38:46,965 --> 00:38:49,724
It's how you deal with trouble.
716
00:38:53,793 --> 00:38:59,413
It's how you handle trouble is
going to make a big difference.
717
00:38:59,413 --> 00:39:01,310
When the going gets tough,
the tough get going,
718
00:39:01,310 --> 00:39:02,310
and that's true, you know?
719
00:39:02,310 --> 00:39:04,310
You've got to-- that's just it.
720
00:39:04,310 --> 00:39:07,000
You've got to-- just got to go.
721
00:39:07,137 --> 00:39:08,793
So all is good.
722
00:39:08,931 --> 00:39:11,724
Never cry over spilled milk.
723
00:39:16,620 --> 00:39:17,758
The beaver's gone.
724
00:39:17,758 --> 00:39:21,000
I think my best
option right now--
725
00:39:26,827 --> 00:39:29,241
First order of
business, I'm making
726
00:39:29,241 --> 00:39:33,000
an ice ladder to get out to
the heavier ice in the center.
727
00:39:35,275 --> 00:39:37,862
Look at that.
728
00:39:37,862 --> 00:39:39,241
Whoo-hoo!
729
00:39:39,241 --> 00:39:43,758
♪
730
00:39:43,896 --> 00:39:48,931
Get some fish back
on the menu, boy.
731
00:39:48,931 --> 00:39:50,344
This is quite risky.
732
00:39:50,344 --> 00:39:51,931
I don't know how
thick the ice is, but--
733
00:39:58,655 --> 00:40:00,206
I've got to do
whatever I can
734
00:40:00,206 --> 00:40:04,068
to get fish quick because I
can't fast for too many days.
735
00:40:04,206 --> 00:40:07,448
I'm in a critical state,
and this is my best chance
736
00:40:07,448 --> 00:40:11,827
to get some oily, greasy food.
737
00:40:11,827 --> 00:40:15,137
Yes, sir.
Yes, sir.
738
00:40:15,275 --> 00:41:22,137
♪
739
00:41:22,275 --> 00:41:25,241
This would be a blessing.
740
00:41:27,689 --> 00:41:34,724
♪
741
00:41:42,172 --> 00:41:49,172
♪
742
00:41:55,068 --> 00:42:01,758
♪
743
00:42:05,758 --> 00:42:08,551
[dramatic music]
744
00:42:08,551 --> 00:42:11,344
♪
745
00:42:11,344 --> 00:42:12,344
[loud clattering]
746
00:42:12,344 --> 00:42:13,793
Oh my God.
747
00:42:13,931 --> 00:42:15,172
Isn't that lucky?
748
00:42:15,172 --> 00:42:16,172
Oh my God.
749
00:42:16,172 --> 00:42:17,586
Oh!
750
00:42:22,655 --> 00:42:25,862
Oh, that is so lucky.
751
00:42:25,862 --> 00:42:28,310
I'm going to go over and
cook him now pretty soon.
752
00:42:28,448 --> 00:42:29,310
I feel blessed.
753
00:42:29,448 --> 00:42:30,931
I really do.
754
00:42:31,068 --> 00:42:32,655
You would never,
ever, ever-- you
755
00:42:32,655 --> 00:42:34,482
can't beat the smile off
my face with a hammer
756
00:42:34,482 --> 00:42:36,517
here right now.
757
00:42:36,517 --> 00:42:38,275
This is a fantastic day.
758
00:42:38,275 --> 00:42:40,310
Whoo!
759
00:42:40,310 --> 00:42:42,517
And now I'm going to
have a fantastic meal.
760
00:42:42,517 --> 00:42:44,551
Thank you, Lord.
761
00:42:44,551 --> 00:42:47,310
Oh, it's time of need again.
762
00:42:47,310 --> 00:42:48,379
Thank you.
763
00:42:48,379 --> 00:42:51,448
Thank you,
thank you, thank you.
764
00:42:51,586 --> 00:42:53,379
I'm going to do the
happy dance this time.
765
00:42:53,379 --> 00:42:54,793
Yeah!
I'm going to.
766
00:42:54,793 --> 00:42:56,206
Whoo-hoo!
767
00:42:56,206 --> 00:42:57,206
Oh my God.
768
00:42:57,206 --> 00:42:58,206
Officially out of food.
769
00:42:58,206 --> 00:43:00,034
Like, I was out.
770
00:43:00,172 --> 00:43:01,517
I was completely out.
771
00:43:01,517 --> 00:43:03,931
I mean, the beaver, that was--
772
00:43:04,068 --> 00:43:06,103
that was the plan.
773
00:43:06,103 --> 00:43:09,103
And when you go up
and your beaver's gone,
774
00:43:09,103 --> 00:43:13,172
well, there goes the plan.
775
00:43:13,310 --> 00:43:16,379
Now I'm going to drink
the water out of my pot.
776
00:43:27,344 --> 00:43:28,620
[laughs]
777
00:43:28,620 --> 00:43:30,724
This is huge.
778
00:43:30,862 --> 00:43:32,793
It can buy me some time so
I'll be able to hopefully
779
00:43:32,793 --> 00:43:34,862
get some fish.
780
00:43:38,827 --> 00:43:41,103
Oh, beautiful,
beautiful grouse.
781
00:43:41,103 --> 00:43:42,689
Now, I've got to show you this.
782
00:43:42,689 --> 00:43:43,896
All right.
783
00:43:43,896 --> 00:43:45,310
So this right here
is the gross crop.
784
00:43:45,310 --> 00:43:47,137
It was in his throat.
785
00:43:47,275 --> 00:43:49,586
People back home in
Labrador, you blow it
786
00:43:49,724 --> 00:43:51,172
up and tie the other end over.
787
00:43:51,172 --> 00:43:53,379
And you know, people hang
them on their Christmas tree.
788
00:43:53,517 --> 00:43:56,034
They hang them up along
their window sills.
789
00:43:56,172 --> 00:43:57,344
See here now?
790
00:43:57,344 --> 00:44:01,689
I'm going to-- [blowing]
791
00:44:01,689 --> 00:44:04,482
You blow it up there
and tie it over.
792
00:44:04,482 --> 00:44:07,448
It's much nicer
with needles in it.
793
00:44:07,448 --> 00:44:10,758
[humming]
794
00:44:10,896 --> 00:44:15,551
♪
795
00:44:15,551 --> 00:44:18,482
Is that amazing, or what?
796
00:44:18,482 --> 00:44:19,586
Yeah, look at this.
797
00:44:19,724 --> 00:44:23,379
Good old raw, grouse liver.
798
00:44:23,517 --> 00:44:24,586
Get that down there.
799
00:44:24,586 --> 00:44:28,551
Oh, stomach's
going to love that.
800
00:44:28,551 --> 00:44:29,965
Ahh.
801
00:44:29,965 --> 00:44:37,000
♪
802
00:44:50,103 --> 00:44:52,172
[belches]
803
00:44:52,310 --> 00:44:54,896
Dude,
I'm going to puke.
804
00:44:54,896 --> 00:44:56,517
[retching]
Ooh.
805
00:44:56,517 --> 00:45:03,655
♪
806
00:45:06,068 --> 00:45:08,448
Stop feeling like this, dude.
807
00:45:08,448 --> 00:45:13,862
♪ ♪
808
00:45:13,862 --> 00:45:17,724
[retching]
809
00:45:17,862 --> 00:45:20,517
Oh, [bleep] my life.
810
00:45:20,655 --> 00:45:27,689
♪
811
00:45:29,586 --> 00:45:31,172
All right.
812
00:45:31,172 --> 00:45:36,068
I just opened up my door for
the first time in a long time.
813
00:45:36,206 --> 00:45:38,448
And then I've got to
tell you guys some stuff
814
00:45:38,586 --> 00:45:42,034
been going on here.
815
00:45:42,034 --> 00:45:48,827
I've been sick,
really sick, for three days.
816
00:45:48,827 --> 00:45:51,896
I barely left bed.
817
00:45:51,896 --> 00:45:57,517
I go check my burbot lines,
I come back here,
818
00:45:57,517 --> 00:45:58,724
and I go back to bed.
819
00:45:58,862 --> 00:46:01,413
That's all I've done.
820
00:46:01,413 --> 00:46:03,896
And I'll probably do
the same thing today.
821
00:46:04,034 --> 00:46:10,517
So going to check the gill
net, that sort of thing.
822
00:46:10,655 --> 00:46:12,827
My stomach is feeling
pretty rotten.
823
00:46:12,827 --> 00:46:14,206
It's all bubbly.
824
00:46:14,206 --> 00:46:17,517
I had really, really bad
diarrhea for three days.
825
00:46:17,655 --> 00:46:21,931
I don't know what I did, if
it was food poisoning or what,
826
00:46:21,931 --> 00:46:25,551
but this is physically
and mentally draining.
827
00:46:25,689 --> 00:46:28,931
Dude, when I was sick,
I have some freaking
828
00:46:28,931 --> 00:46:33,344
reindeer moss hanging on
my wall for a long time.
829
00:46:33,344 --> 00:46:35,931
So I boiled it,
like, four times,
830
00:46:35,931 --> 00:46:39,379
and then I ate that
whole damn pot.
831
00:46:39,379 --> 00:46:41,620
My stomach stopped
hurting a bit.
832
00:46:41,620 --> 00:46:43,206
The carbs might have
helped, or maybe they
833
00:46:43,206 --> 00:46:45,241
soaked up some of the toxins.
834
00:46:45,379 --> 00:46:46,482
I ate some charcoal.
835
00:46:46,620 --> 00:46:48,827
That might have helped
a little bit too.
836
00:46:48,827 --> 00:46:49,827
Who knows?
837
00:46:49,827 --> 00:46:51,655
Just trying to make it through.
838
00:46:51,793 --> 00:46:56,655
♪
839
00:46:56,655 --> 00:46:59,448
Another empty gill net.
840
00:46:59,448 --> 00:47:02,172
[groans]
841
00:47:02,172 --> 00:47:06,206
Damn, man, these days.
842
00:47:06,344 --> 00:47:08,586
♪
843
00:47:08,586 --> 00:47:11,793
It's freaking rough
out here, you guys.
844
00:47:11,793 --> 00:47:15,482
On every "Alone:
they say that, but--
845
00:47:15,620 --> 00:47:20,000
[laughs]
they're not kidding, man.
846
00:47:20,000 --> 00:47:22,482
They are not kidding.
847
00:47:22,482 --> 00:47:24,103
This is hell out here.
848
00:47:24,241 --> 00:47:26,482
♪
849
00:47:26,482 --> 00:47:30,689
This is like a damn survival
battlefield out here.
850
00:47:30,689 --> 00:47:31,689
♪ ♪
851
00:47:31,689 --> 00:47:32,689
You're hungry.
852
00:47:32,689 --> 00:47:33,758
You're tired.
853
00:47:33,896 --> 00:47:35,793
You may not be sleeping
at all.
854
00:47:35,931 --> 00:47:37,172
And you're worried
every single night
855
00:47:37,310 --> 00:47:38,551
that you're going to
have a grizzly bear
856
00:47:38,551 --> 00:47:42,724
come knock your door down.
857
00:47:42,724 --> 00:47:46,241
It is hard.
858
00:47:46,379 --> 00:47:50,448
Just cooking
up some sort of fish,
859
00:47:50,586 --> 00:47:53,413
whatever the hell I can find.
860
00:47:53,413 --> 00:47:56,379
I know that burbot is on top.
861
00:47:58,586 --> 00:48:00,034
I'm forcing down food.
862
00:48:00,034 --> 00:48:01,344
I won't stop eating because
I'm not going to let
863
00:48:01,344 --> 00:48:05,517
myself get too far gone.
864
00:48:05,517 --> 00:48:07,758
Really cold hands.
865
00:48:07,758 --> 00:48:12,586
I'm worried I'm going
to run out of energy.
866
00:48:12,586 --> 00:48:17,586
I've got a long ways to
go to win this thing.
867
00:48:17,586 --> 00:48:19,206
♪
868
00:48:19,206 --> 00:48:23,724
Soon as I eat this,
I'm going back to bed.
869
00:48:23,862 --> 00:48:25,413
I'm a little upset
right now, to be honest,
870
00:48:25,413 --> 00:48:27,275
because I don't know
if I could pull through
871
00:48:27,413 --> 00:48:29,655
this unscathed.
872
00:48:29,655 --> 00:48:36,724
♪
873
00:48:41,310 --> 00:48:43,931
Here we go.
874
00:48:50,206 --> 00:48:52,620
Please don't make me sick.
875
00:48:52,758 --> 00:48:59,620
♪
876
00:48:59,758 --> 00:49:02,482
Oh, [bleep].
877
00:49:02,482 --> 00:49:04,517
Wish I hadn't seen that.
878
00:49:04,655 --> 00:49:06,724
♪
879
00:49:06,724 --> 00:49:10,137
Oh, I really wish
I hadn't just seen that.
880
00:49:10,137 --> 00:49:13,896
Oh, [bleep] me.
881
00:49:13,896 --> 00:49:15,206
Dude.
882
00:49:15,344 --> 00:49:18,793
[bleep].
883
00:49:23,275 --> 00:49:26,034
Oh, [bleep] me.
884
00:49:26,172 --> 00:49:29,655
Right there
885
00:49:29,655 --> 00:49:34,034
is worm inside
my burbot fillet.
886
00:49:34,034 --> 00:49:37,275
♪
887
00:49:37,413 --> 00:49:41,310
And--
888
00:49:41,448 --> 00:49:46,689
you know what's crazy is,
889
00:49:46,689 --> 00:49:51,310
I'm thinking about eating
the rest of the burbot.
890
00:49:51,310 --> 00:49:55,000
I don't like wasting the
best-tasting fish I have
891
00:49:55,137 --> 00:49:58,620
because I found a worm in it
when I can just boil the hell
892
00:49:58,758 --> 00:50:03,206
out of it and
probably not get sick,
893
00:50:03,206 --> 00:50:07,448
"probably" being
a very important word.
894
00:50:07,586 --> 00:50:10,448
[bleep] man.
895
00:50:10,448 --> 00:50:12,448
But if I go through
another bout of sickness,
896
00:50:12,448 --> 00:50:14,206
then I'm probably gone.
897
00:50:14,206 --> 00:50:17,862
My body can't
handle that again.
898
00:50:17,862 --> 00:50:21,103
The day I caught
that burbot just
899
00:50:21,241 --> 00:50:25,896
so happened to be the day I
started to feel like holy hell.
900
00:50:25,896 --> 00:50:29,517
That's the day
I started eating it.
901
00:50:29,517 --> 00:50:30,758
OK.
902
00:50:30,758 --> 00:50:32,689
We're just going to
lay off that burbot.
903
00:50:32,689 --> 00:50:39,758
♪
904
00:50:44,862 --> 00:50:47,379
Tell you guys what, man.
905
00:50:47,379 --> 00:50:48,793
♪
906
00:50:48,793 --> 00:50:54,793
The tapping urge
907
00:50:54,793 --> 00:51:00,758
starts really small,
and it builds.
908
00:51:00,896 --> 00:51:06,172
It builds on itself until
it's all you can think about.
909
00:51:06,172 --> 00:51:10,793
♪ ♪
910
00:51:10,793 --> 00:51:15,793
And it will not stop.
911
00:51:15,793 --> 00:51:17,655
I totally get
why people tap out
912
00:51:17,655 --> 00:51:19,241
when there's something
wrong with their stomachs
913
00:51:19,241 --> 00:51:20,413
on this show.
914
00:51:20,413 --> 00:51:21,862
It's brutal, man.
915
00:51:22,000 --> 00:51:24,275
You can't do anything.
916
00:51:24,275 --> 00:51:27,068
And it only gets worse
the further along it gets.
917
00:51:27,068 --> 00:51:29,965
Like, the more
you don't get water,
918
00:51:30,103 --> 00:51:34,482
the more you don't get food,
the worse your body's getting.
919
00:51:34,482 --> 00:51:37,103
♪
920
00:51:37,103 --> 00:51:40,896
It would be so easy
to push the button
921
00:51:40,896 --> 00:51:45,620
and just go home
and end it
922
00:51:45,758 --> 00:51:48,620
because this hurts.
923
00:51:48,758 --> 00:51:54,620
And I'm not sure how much
more of this I can take.
924
00:51:54,620 --> 00:51:57,103
I don't like this feeling, man.
925
00:51:57,241 --> 00:52:01,931
I never thought it
would be able to creep
926
00:52:01,931 --> 00:52:05,379
into my consciousness
the way that it has.
927
00:52:05,517 --> 00:52:09,413
It had me thinking
about tapping so much.
928
00:52:09,551 --> 00:52:13,931
It's like there's one
little hole that says, ooh,
929
00:52:13,931 --> 00:52:15,586
you can tap.
930
00:52:15,586 --> 00:52:17,827
And then, like,
a finger goes in the hole,
931
00:52:17,965 --> 00:52:20,206
and it tears the hole bigger.
932
00:52:20,206 --> 00:52:22,413
Tap, tap, tap, tap, tap, tap.
933
00:52:22,413 --> 00:52:24,241
Please, tap, tap, tap, tap.
934
00:52:24,241 --> 00:52:26,896
It all starts pouring through,
and then more and more and more
935
00:52:27,034 --> 00:52:29,034
and more, more and more.
936
00:52:29,034 --> 00:52:32,068
And then before you know
it, you're surrounded.
937
00:52:32,068 --> 00:52:34,655
Everything is a reason to tap.
938
00:52:34,655 --> 00:52:36,310
♪ ♪
939
00:52:36,310 --> 00:52:39,482
I don't know how much more
time I got in me, man.
940
00:52:39,482 --> 00:52:46,586
♪ ♪
941
00:53:00,793 --> 00:53:02,758
Man, this would be so
cool if we have a fish
942
00:53:02,896 --> 00:53:06,344
on these old gorge hooks.
943
00:53:06,482 --> 00:53:08,379
[fire crackling]
944
00:53:08,517 --> 00:53:14,931
It is cold outside,
but it's very warm in here.
945
00:53:14,931 --> 00:53:15,965
Going to show you
a couple little
946
00:53:15,965 --> 00:53:18,965
projects that I'm working on.
947
00:53:18,965 --> 00:53:21,758
See, I've got two little boys.
948
00:53:21,758 --> 00:53:23,172
They'll definitely want
Daddy to bring them
949
00:53:23,172 --> 00:53:28,068
home something
hand-carved, so I'm making
950
00:53:28,206 --> 00:53:29,620
these little furry foxes.
951
00:53:29,620 --> 00:53:34,620
This is a little fox face.
952
00:53:34,620 --> 00:53:36,862
And I've got
two little heads finished.
953
00:53:36,862 --> 00:53:39,103
I'm going to cut this one off.
954
00:53:39,241 --> 00:53:42,482
My sons,
they've had a hard life.
955
00:53:42,482 --> 00:53:45,000
Because of this
humanitarian work,
956
00:53:45,137 --> 00:53:49,103
they've had to say goodbye
permanently to many friends
957
00:53:49,103 --> 00:53:53,206
that they've made in
various countries.
958
00:53:53,344 --> 00:53:56,137
They accept a lot
of what's going on.
959
00:53:56,137 --> 00:53:58,551
These little tails
in the holes.
960
00:53:58,551 --> 00:54:01,482
But I want to find a
way to live this life
961
00:54:01,620 --> 00:54:04,689
that doesn't hurt them.
962
00:54:04,689 --> 00:54:06,275
My nine-year-old son,
Levi, made me promise.
963
00:54:06,275 --> 00:54:07,517
He's like, Daddy,
promise you won't
964
00:54:07,655 --> 00:54:10,482
tap out because you miss me.
965
00:54:10,482 --> 00:54:13,103
I said OK.
966
00:54:13,103 --> 00:54:14,896
So that was a fun
little project,
967
00:54:14,896 --> 00:54:18,517
and I think they
turned out pretty good.
968
00:54:18,517 --> 00:54:21,724
Man, I'm getting skinny.
969
00:54:21,724 --> 00:54:23,586
Good Lord.
970
00:54:23,724 --> 00:54:24,758
Wow.
971
00:54:24,758 --> 00:54:26,793
♪
972
00:54:26,793 --> 00:54:29,793
I'm getting so skinny
that it's almost scary.
973
00:54:29,793 --> 00:54:31,241
♪
974
00:54:31,379 --> 00:54:34,620
I'm eating, but I'm still
just burning so many
975
00:54:34,620 --> 00:54:36,000
more calories than I'm eating.
976
00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:37,862
How is that possible?
977
00:54:38,000 --> 00:54:39,724
I don't know.
978
00:54:39,862 --> 00:54:42,655
I'm going to go have a
look at the fish lines.
979
00:54:42,655 --> 00:54:45,758
Man, I'm hoping
some fish bites.
980
00:54:45,896 --> 00:54:48,724
Oh, it looks like
the mink is out here.
981
00:54:48,862 --> 00:54:51,517
Yep, there he is.
982
00:54:51,517 --> 00:54:53,724
Ooh, the line has moved.
983
00:54:53,724 --> 00:54:56,551
This fish line has
a gorge hook on it,
984
00:54:56,551 --> 00:54:57,724
and it's pulled straight.
985
00:54:57,724 --> 00:55:00,137
♪ ♪
986
00:55:00,137 --> 00:55:02,793
I hope like crazy
there's a fish on there.
987
00:55:02,793 --> 00:55:05,034
That'd be so cool.
988
00:55:05,034 --> 00:55:09,275
♪
989
00:55:09,413 --> 00:55:11,689
There's something on there.
990
00:55:11,827 --> 00:55:13,068
There's something.
991
00:55:13,068 --> 00:55:14,482
There's something.
There's something.
992
00:55:14,482 --> 00:55:15,862
I think it's a fish.
993
00:55:15,862 --> 00:55:17,689
I don't think it's a log.
994
00:55:17,689 --> 00:55:18,689
Oh, yeah.
995
00:55:18,689 --> 00:55:19,689
I got a fish!
996
00:55:19,689 --> 00:55:21,103
I got a fish on a gorge hook!
997
00:55:21,103 --> 00:55:22,896
I got a fish on the gorge hook!
998
00:55:22,896 --> 00:55:24,586
Don't get off!
Don't get off!
999
00:55:24,724 --> 00:55:26,793
Yeah!
Yeah!
1000
00:55:26,931 --> 00:55:28,000
Yeah!
1001
00:55:28,137 --> 00:55:30,034
Guys, I got a fish
on a piece of bone,
1002
00:55:30,172 --> 00:55:32,379
on a piece of moose bone!
1003
00:55:32,517 --> 00:55:33,551
Ha-ha!
1004
00:55:38,206 --> 00:55:42,034
Now if you can see,
that bone, the wire
1005
00:55:42,034 --> 00:55:44,000
is going down his throat,
and that bone is sticking
1006
00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:45,482
out the side of his throat.
1007
00:55:45,620 --> 00:55:48,413
There was no way in the world
he was getting off of that.
1008
00:55:51,068 --> 00:55:52,896
That's the coolest thing ever.
1009
00:55:52,896 --> 00:55:55,862
I just caught this fish
on a piece of moose bone.
1010
00:55:55,862 --> 00:55:58,275
Rah!
1011
00:55:58,275 --> 00:56:02,172
♪
1012
00:56:02,172 --> 00:56:03,655
It's been a great day.
1013
00:56:03,793 --> 00:56:06,241
I'm happy living out here
wild and free
1014
00:56:06,379 --> 00:56:08,620
like a wild beast.
1015
00:56:08,620 --> 00:56:10,310
When the wind howls like this
1016
00:56:10,448 --> 00:56:12,620
and the cold north wind
blows in,
1017
00:56:12,620 --> 00:56:15,689
it stirs my blood!
1018
00:56:15,827 --> 00:56:20,448
I'm thinner than I need to
be, but I'm not too thin.
1019
00:56:20,448 --> 00:56:24,896
I'm hungrier than I want to
be, but I'm not too hungry.
1020
00:56:24,896 --> 00:56:26,896
I'm just having a good time.
1021
00:56:26,896 --> 00:56:28,551
♪
1022
00:56:28,689 --> 00:56:30,896
And that's what my wife
told me right before I left.
1023
00:56:30,896 --> 00:56:33,172
She said, just have fun.
1024
00:56:33,310 --> 00:56:36,758
Get drunk on the wilderness
like you like to do.
1025
00:56:36,758 --> 00:56:38,551
And I did that today.
1026
00:56:38,551 --> 00:56:42,551
Ahh!
1027
00:56:46,793 --> 00:56:49,413
This is my north country!
1028
00:56:52,413 --> 00:56:53,620
Ha-ha!
1029
00:56:53,620 --> 00:56:57,482
Wa-pshh!
1030
00:56:57,482 --> 00:56:59,862
Now this is "Alone."
1031
00:56:59,862 --> 00:57:03,379
Now it's the real deal.
1032
00:57:03,517 --> 00:57:06,931
Now we get cracking.
1033
00:57:06,931 --> 00:57:09,793
Ahh!
1034
00:57:13,862 --> 00:57:16,586
[dramatic music]
1035
00:57:16,586 --> 00:57:23,517
♪
1036
00:57:23,655 --> 00:57:25,655
I don't know what the hell's
going on with my gill net
1037
00:57:25,655 --> 00:57:28,103
right here.
1038
00:57:28,241 --> 00:57:32,172
There's got to be a
fish in there, right?
1039
00:57:32,310 --> 00:57:34,896
Yeah, there's a fish in there.
1040
00:57:34,896 --> 00:57:40,103
♪
1041
00:57:40,103 --> 00:57:42,931
Yes!
1042
00:57:42,931 --> 00:57:46,034
♪
1043
00:57:46,172 --> 00:57:51,793
Probably the last day
for this gill net.
1044
00:57:51,793 --> 00:57:54,965
Then we'll be ice fishing.
1045
00:58:01,724 --> 00:58:06,931
I don't know how big these
things are supposed to get,
1046
00:58:06,931 --> 00:58:10,172
but that's freaking huge, man.
1047
00:58:10,310 --> 00:58:12,965
Oh my God.
1048
00:58:12,965 --> 00:58:15,344
Look at the size of that thing.
1049
00:58:17,137 --> 00:58:19,068
Count our blessings, man.
1050
00:58:19,206 --> 00:58:20,620
We got a big fish today.
1051
00:58:20,620 --> 00:58:26,241
That's-- at this rate, it's
probably, like, a week of food.
1052
00:58:26,241 --> 00:58:29,241
♪ ♪
1053
00:58:29,241 --> 00:58:34,655
It's nice,
cleaning fish with the snow.
1054
00:58:34,655 --> 00:58:38,137
Man, you finally don't
have dirt all over them.
1055
00:58:38,275 --> 00:58:40,689
To make it through
this, you've got
1056
00:58:40,689 --> 00:58:44,379
to be, like, stubborn as hell.
1057
00:58:44,517 --> 00:58:46,724
I had a rough childhood.
1058
00:58:46,724 --> 00:58:48,517
I got picked on a lot.
1059
00:58:48,517 --> 00:58:54,206
But to be frank, I don't
think I would change a thing.
1060
00:58:54,344 --> 00:58:57,172
If you don't have those
hardships and those turmoils,
1061
00:58:57,172 --> 00:58:59,862
you could end up weak.
1062
00:59:00,000 --> 00:59:02,448
I don't think
I turned out weak.
1063
00:59:02,448 --> 00:59:04,965
And wouldn't trade
any one of those punches
1064
00:59:05,103 --> 00:59:07,655
and any one of those insults
or remarks for anything.
1065
00:59:07,655 --> 00:59:12,344
♪
1066
00:59:12,344 --> 00:59:14,965
Yeah, I'm excited.
1067
00:59:14,965 --> 00:59:16,965
You know that feeling you
get when you're, like--
1068
00:59:16,965 --> 00:59:20,827
after you've been sick for a
few days and you're recovered
1069
00:59:20,965 --> 00:59:23,551
and you just finally
feel normal again?
1070
00:59:25,586 --> 00:59:28,655
I feel pretty good.
1071
00:59:31,517 --> 00:59:34,827
Just throw it in the cooler.
1072
00:59:42,689 --> 00:59:44,275
Jeez.
1073
00:59:44,275 --> 00:59:49,482
[bleep].
1074
00:59:49,482 --> 00:59:55,620
♪ ♪
1075
00:59:55,758 --> 00:59:59,758
A mouse has been
eating and defecating--
1076
00:59:59,758 --> 01:00:00,965
defecating.
1077
01:00:00,965 --> 01:00:02,586
That's the nicest word
I've used all day.
1078
01:00:02,586 --> 01:00:08,655
Usually I just say [bleep]
[bleep] all over my fish.
1079
01:00:08,793 --> 01:00:11,793
I'm not sure
what to do with it.
1080
01:00:11,793 --> 01:00:15,482
[bleep], man.
1081
01:00:15,620 --> 01:00:17,655
Come on, bro.
1082
01:00:17,655 --> 01:00:24,310
♪
1083
01:00:24,310 --> 01:00:29,724
They got this pike
about ruined,
1084
01:00:29,862 --> 01:00:33,344
because they've been, like,
1085
01:00:33,344 --> 01:00:38,413
inside of it, eating like
crazy and just crapping
1086
01:00:38,551 --> 01:00:42,827
all over inside of it.
1087
01:00:42,965 --> 01:00:46,655
Look at that.
1088
01:00:46,793 --> 01:00:50,793
That's all mouse crap in there.
1089
01:00:50,793 --> 01:00:54,620
[bleep] man, what a nightmare.
1090
01:00:54,620 --> 01:00:58,137
This fish here, that pike is--
1091
01:00:58,275 --> 01:01:00,275
I can't-- I'm not
going to eat that pike,
1092
01:01:00,275 --> 01:01:03,586
man, because it's
probably what got me sick.
1093
01:01:03,724 --> 01:01:06,241
That's why I've been sick for
a week is because of this,
1094
01:01:06,379 --> 01:01:09,000
because of this mouse crap.
1095
01:01:09,137 --> 01:01:10,551
I've been eating--
I've been eating it.
1096
01:01:10,551 --> 01:01:13,206
I'm sure of it.
1097
01:01:13,206 --> 01:01:16,206
It's like in it,
and it's been--
1098
01:01:16,206 --> 01:01:19,275
and it's been in there,
seeping into the meat
1099
01:01:19,413 --> 01:01:21,896
for days and days.
1100
01:01:22,034 --> 01:01:24,655
I just can't.
1101
01:01:24,655 --> 01:01:26,241
That's such a bummer.
1102
01:01:26,241 --> 01:01:28,275
That was my last pike.
1103
01:01:28,275 --> 01:01:31,724
My entire food
stash is trashed.
1104
01:01:31,724 --> 01:01:35,896
Man, it's like,
look at how they've
1105
01:01:35,896 --> 01:01:38,586
chewed all right
there, all right there,
1106
01:01:38,724 --> 01:01:39,758
and then all that dark stuff.
1107
01:01:39,896 --> 01:01:40,758
That's all mouse crap.
1108
01:01:40,896 --> 01:01:42,379
All that, it's all mouse crap.
1109
01:01:42,517 --> 01:01:44,172
Everything.
1110
01:01:44,172 --> 01:01:46,793
I mean, how can I eat that?
1111
01:01:46,931 --> 01:01:48,448
I mean, I can--
1112
01:01:48,586 --> 01:01:53,206
I can cut this tail;
that I can save.
1113
01:01:53,206 --> 01:01:56,034
I've literally been eating
mouse crap that I thought
1114
01:01:56,172 --> 01:02:00,931
was dirt, and here I am.
1115
01:02:01,068 --> 01:02:07,172
The future of my life
is in the hands of a shrew.
1116
01:02:07,310 --> 01:02:13,344
That's a day's worth of food,
maybe a little more, spared.
1117
01:02:13,344 --> 01:02:15,000
Everything, man.
1118
01:02:15,137 --> 01:02:17,793
Every piece of freaking
food you got out here,
1119
01:02:17,793 --> 01:02:19,000
you've got to--
1120
01:02:19,000 --> 01:02:20,000
it's hard.
1121
01:02:20,000 --> 01:02:22,034
It's hard to keep safe.
1122
01:02:22,172 --> 01:02:24,241
Unsavable, all that.
1123
01:02:24,379 --> 01:02:25,517
♪
1124
01:02:25,655 --> 01:02:27,689
I've got a week
of food right there.
1125
01:02:27,827 --> 01:02:29,655
Plus, I've got a
freaking two weeks
1126
01:02:29,655 --> 01:02:32,482
probably on that damn inconnu.
1127
01:02:32,482 --> 01:02:35,862
Like, every bit of food I
have, I need, man, to make
1128
01:02:35,862 --> 01:02:39,103
it to the end of this thing.
1129
01:02:39,103 --> 01:02:41,931
Don't know how much
I can handle here.
1130
01:02:42,068 --> 01:02:43,137
♪
1131
01:02:43,275 --> 01:02:46,689
If I wasn't so stubborn,
I'd tap right now.
1132
01:02:46,689 --> 01:02:48,758
♪
1133
01:02:48,896 --> 01:02:51,413
Oh, Jesus, it did move.
1134
01:02:51,551 --> 01:02:54,241
♪
1135
01:02:54,379 --> 01:02:55,965
Whoa! Oh!
1136
01:02:55,965 --> 01:02:57,689
Yeah!
1137
01:02:57,827 --> 01:02:59,586
Something making a weird
noise with my food cache.
1138
01:02:59,586 --> 01:03:01,344
♪
1139
01:03:01,482 --> 01:03:04,344
I'm going to go look.
1140
01:03:04,482 --> 01:03:05,758
♪
1141
01:03:05,896 --> 01:03:10,689
♪ I think it's about time
for me to go ♪
1142
01:03:10,689 --> 01:03:13,551
♪ ♪
1143
01:03:13,689 --> 01:03:16,724
[bleep]. [bleep].
1144
01:03:16,724 --> 01:03:21,758
♪