1 00:00:08,256 --> 00:00:15,229 ♪ 2 00:00:15,263 --> 00:00:18,197 -Oh, hallelujah. -I got another fish. 3 00:00:18,232 --> 00:00:19,854 Short of an emergency, 4 00:00:19,888 --> 00:00:22,305 I'm not leaving here until they come get me. 5 00:00:22,339 --> 00:00:26,136 -Uh-oh. -My whole gallon tub 6 00:00:26,171 --> 00:00:28,518 of kidney fat is gone. 7 00:00:28,552 --> 00:00:31,141 The fox is running my trap lines. 8 00:00:31,176 --> 00:00:32,522 Oh. 9 00:00:32,556 --> 00:00:34,386 He's out there hunting my rabbits. 10 00:00:34,420 --> 00:00:35,697 Ow! 11 00:00:35,732 --> 00:00:36,940 Ah, 12 00:00:36,974 --> 00:00:39,460 There's blood everywhere. 13 00:00:39,494 --> 00:00:46,501 ♪ 14 00:00:47,882 --> 00:00:50,712 In "Alone's" coldest location ever, 15 00:00:50,747 --> 00:00:53,888 ten participants fight to survive the Arctic... 16 00:00:53,922 --> 00:00:55,303 The Arctic is one 17 00:00:55,338 --> 00:00:57,271 of the most physically demanding places on Earth. 18 00:00:57,305 --> 00:00:58,582 So frickin' cold right now. 19 00:00:58,617 --> 00:01:00,757 Battling subzero temperatures... 20 00:01:00,791 --> 00:01:03,622 -This climate's harsh. -It's extreme. It's mean. 21 00:01:03,656 --> 00:01:05,002 It's got teeth. 22 00:01:05,037 --> 00:01:06,970 Get caught out here in a whiteout, you're in trouble. 23 00:01:07,004 --> 00:01:08,213 Vicious predators... 24 00:01:08,247 --> 00:01:10,249 Just heard something big moving back there. 25 00:01:10,284 --> 00:01:12,631 It's me against a wolverine right now. 26 00:01:12,665 --> 00:01:13,942 And isolation. 27 00:01:13,977 --> 00:01:15,530 There's nothing to fill that void. 28 00:01:15,565 --> 00:01:17,670 It's just you left alone with your thoughts. 29 00:01:17,705 --> 00:01:20,294 How long will they endure? 30 00:01:20,328 --> 00:01:21,812 House is on fire! 31 00:01:21,847 --> 00:01:24,470 I'm scared, but I don't want to tap. 32 00:01:24,505 --> 00:01:27,197 This is the most unforgiving landscape I've ever seen. 33 00:01:27,232 --> 00:01:29,717 The last one standing wins. 34 00:01:29,751 --> 00:01:31,753 This environment will strip away 35 00:01:31,788 --> 00:01:34,031 everything and anything you thought you had. 36 00:01:34,066 --> 00:01:41,108 ♪ 37 00:01:59,195 --> 00:02:00,886 Med check tomorrow. 38 00:02:00,920 --> 00:02:03,992 Victory, swift victory. 39 00:02:04,027 --> 00:02:06,202 My wife is coming. I know it. 40 00:02:06,236 --> 00:02:09,170 It seems like that's when they kind of have them show up 41 00:02:09,205 --> 00:02:12,380 is on med-check days, you know what I mean? 42 00:02:12,415 --> 00:02:14,141 'Cause they always ask them that same question, 43 00:02:14,175 --> 00:02:15,349 you know, how far do you think-- 44 00:02:15,383 --> 00:02:16,660 You think you can still go the distance? 45 00:02:16,695 --> 00:02:18,559 "Oh, yeah." 46 00:02:18,593 --> 00:02:21,527 And then usually the significant other shows up, 47 00:02:21,562 --> 00:02:24,772 and they get the good news and big emotional scene. 48 00:02:24,806 --> 00:02:26,256 I cry. 49 00:02:26,291 --> 00:02:27,809 But I'm gonna win this. 50 00:02:27,844 --> 00:02:29,121 I'm outlasting everybody. 51 00:02:29,156 --> 00:02:30,605 There's no way I'm going home. 52 00:02:30,640 --> 00:02:33,160 There's no quit in me, man. None. 53 00:02:33,194 --> 00:02:35,300 Zip. 54 00:02:35,334 --> 00:02:39,787 ♪ 55 00:02:39,821 --> 00:02:41,306 Tomorrow's gonna be a great day, 56 00:02:41,340 --> 00:02:44,550 but today I've got some work to do. 57 00:02:44,585 --> 00:02:46,103 I need to go check my traps, 58 00:02:46,138 --> 00:02:48,865 and if I've learned anything out here, 59 00:02:48,899 --> 00:02:51,385 it's you don't go anywhere without your bow. 60 00:02:51,419 --> 00:02:53,041 I feel my wife, you know? 61 00:02:53,076 --> 00:02:54,388 I feel her love here. 62 00:02:54,422 --> 00:02:57,460 I know it's close, real close. 63 00:02:57,494 --> 00:02:59,116 Can't be too many of us left. 64 00:02:59,151 --> 00:03:01,843 Hell, I may be the only one. I just don't even know it. 65 00:03:01,878 --> 00:03:04,052 That's the crazy part right there. 66 00:03:07,401 --> 00:03:09,092 My wife is coming. 67 00:03:09,126 --> 00:03:11,681 Next check, she's coming to get me. 68 00:03:11,715 --> 00:03:13,545 ♪ 69 00:03:13,579 --> 00:03:15,409 I am the winner... 70 00:03:15,443 --> 00:03:17,894 of season six, "Alone." 71 00:03:17,928 --> 00:03:20,690 ♪ 72 00:03:20,724 --> 00:03:22,588 Look at this right here. 73 00:03:22,623 --> 00:03:24,832 Look at those little guys. 74 00:03:24,866 --> 00:03:26,937 Little squirrel. 75 00:03:26,972 --> 00:03:29,975 ♪ 76 00:03:33,841 --> 00:03:40,882 ♪ 77 00:03:43,713 --> 00:03:46,129 How did that miss him? 78 00:03:46,163 --> 00:03:48,994 ♪ 79 00:03:49,028 --> 00:03:50,098 Next one, I'm gonna put it 80 00:03:50,133 --> 00:03:52,100 right through his chest. 81 00:03:52,135 --> 00:03:54,344 ♪ 82 00:04:01,834 --> 00:04:04,734 ♪ 83 00:04:04,768 --> 00:04:07,875 I really thought that first shot had him. 84 00:04:07,909 --> 00:04:09,428 I'll be honest-- it doesn't matter 85 00:04:09,463 --> 00:04:11,534 because I've already won this. 86 00:04:11,568 --> 00:04:14,261 ♪ 87 00:04:14,295 --> 00:04:17,540 Tomorrow my wife comes around the corner-- 88 00:04:17,574 --> 00:04:20,474 Beautiful, sparkling. 89 00:04:20,508 --> 00:04:22,372 Just can't wait for her to be here 90 00:04:22,407 --> 00:04:24,995 and wrap my arms around her. 91 00:04:25,030 --> 00:04:27,929 Ain't that a wonderful thought, huh? 92 00:04:27,964 --> 00:04:30,138 Everything works out for me. 93 00:04:30,173 --> 00:04:31,347 ♪ 94 00:04:31,381 --> 00:04:33,970 I am the winner of season six, "Alone." 95 00:04:34,004 --> 00:04:41,046 ♪ 96 00:04:54,162 --> 00:04:57,580 85 kilograms. 97 00:04:57,614 --> 00:05:01,687 36.9 degrees. 98 00:05:01,722 --> 00:05:03,206 How you feeling, by the way? 99 00:05:03,240 --> 00:05:05,346 Any other bruises? 100 00:05:24,676 --> 00:05:26,850 I was hoping, I guess, 101 00:05:26,885 --> 00:05:29,025 against common sense 102 00:05:29,059 --> 00:05:31,959 that my wife was gonna be here. 103 00:05:31,993 --> 00:05:34,548 But it didn't happen. 104 00:05:34,582 --> 00:05:37,136 It's tough out here, man. 105 00:05:37,171 --> 00:05:40,519 And I don't care how tough you are. 106 00:05:41,831 --> 00:05:43,280 It can get to you. 107 00:05:43,315 --> 00:05:44,937 ♪ 108 00:05:44,972 --> 00:05:47,388 And IL... 109 00:05:47,423 --> 00:05:49,148 do all the best I can 110 00:05:49,183 --> 00:05:51,496 with the emotional work. 111 00:05:51,530 --> 00:05:53,843 But some days... 112 00:05:53,877 --> 00:05:55,810 it's just a little harder than others. 113 00:05:58,848 --> 00:06:04,957 ♪ 114 00:06:06,545 --> 00:06:09,445 I'm calling on my wife today. 115 00:06:09,479 --> 00:06:12,309 I really need your strength today. 116 00:06:12,344 --> 00:06:18,074 ♪ 117 00:06:20,110 --> 00:06:24,874 ♪ 118 00:06:24,908 --> 00:06:27,911 I know why I'm here. I know why I have to be here. 119 00:06:27,946 --> 00:06:31,121 I want to be here. 120 00:06:31,156 --> 00:06:34,608 I just need your strength today. 121 00:06:34,642 --> 00:06:36,610 I know... 122 00:06:36,644 --> 00:06:38,439 I know we're 1,000 miles away, 123 00:06:38,474 --> 00:06:40,441 but I need your strength today. 124 00:06:40,476 --> 00:06:44,618 ♪ 125 00:06:44,652 --> 00:06:47,310 I need you to tell me it's going to be okay. 126 00:06:49,277 --> 00:06:51,659 Ah... 127 00:06:51,694 --> 00:06:55,456 I need to know that I'm doing good... 128 00:06:55,491 --> 00:06:57,113 and it's gonna be enough. 129 00:07:00,150 --> 00:07:02,532 ♪ 130 00:07:02,567 --> 00:07:06,018 I'm so used to having you right here... 131 00:07:06,053 --> 00:07:08,745 right here... 132 00:07:08,780 --> 00:07:11,196 where I can wrap my arms around you. 133 00:07:11,230 --> 00:07:14,441 I need to know I'm your hero. 134 00:07:14,475 --> 00:07:16,028 ♪ 135 00:07:16,063 --> 00:07:18,479 I need to know I'm your hero. 136 00:07:18,514 --> 00:07:25,555 ♪ 137 00:07:32,942 --> 00:07:35,392 So, I'm gonna... 138 00:07:35,427 --> 00:07:38,430 sharpen... 139 00:07:38,465 --> 00:07:41,398 my knife on this rock. 140 00:07:47,232 --> 00:07:49,406 Wow. 141 00:07:49,441 --> 00:07:52,030 Like, so... 142 00:07:52,064 --> 00:07:56,759 I just spit on the rock, and it's frozen. 143 00:07:56,793 --> 00:08:01,349 Like, it's absolutely frozen to ice already. 144 00:08:02,937 --> 00:08:04,283 That's... 145 00:08:04,318 --> 00:08:06,872 crazy. 146 00:08:06,907 --> 00:08:09,047 Sucks, too, 'cause that was, like, the best spot, 147 00:08:09,081 --> 00:08:12,499 right where all the spit's frozen. 148 00:08:12,533 --> 00:08:17,020 ♪ 149 00:08:17,055 --> 00:08:19,885 I feel like with getting food, 150 00:08:19,920 --> 00:08:22,750 there's a little bit of a urgency. 151 00:08:22,785 --> 00:08:25,270 Med checks are not a friendly thing 152 00:08:25,304 --> 00:08:27,652 if you're too skinny. 153 00:08:27,686 --> 00:08:29,274 They will pull me 154 00:08:29,308 --> 00:08:32,553 if I get below a certain weight. 155 00:08:32,588 --> 00:08:34,486 And I'm losing weight. 156 00:08:34,521 --> 00:08:39,560 ♪ 157 00:08:39,595 --> 00:08:42,218 Well, I'm just checking sets, and... 158 00:08:42,252 --> 00:08:45,670 I so need a hare. 159 00:08:45,704 --> 00:08:48,431 It's always in here. It's a weird place. 160 00:08:48,465 --> 00:08:51,745 Oh, my gosh. I got one. 161 00:08:51,779 --> 00:08:54,437 My gosh. 162 00:08:54,471 --> 00:08:56,025 I got one. 163 00:08:56,059 --> 00:08:57,923 ♪ 164 00:08:57,958 --> 00:09:01,271 You beautiful hare. I needed you so bad today. 165 00:09:01,306 --> 00:09:05,966 ♪ 166 00:09:06,000 --> 00:09:09,521 Thank you so much. 167 00:09:09,556 --> 00:09:12,213 I'm just so grateful. 168 00:09:12,248 --> 00:09:14,837 I have more time here. 169 00:09:14,871 --> 00:09:17,391 This hare is... 170 00:09:17,425 --> 00:09:20,049 It's gonna get me through. 171 00:09:20,083 --> 00:09:27,125 ♪ 172 00:09:28,851 --> 00:09:32,268 So I'm a bit concerned 173 00:09:32,302 --> 00:09:34,926 about my mineral and vitamin intake. 174 00:09:34,960 --> 00:09:37,618 I mean, I've been drinking teas and stuff, but... 175 00:09:37,653 --> 00:09:39,413 like, where do you get your greens. 176 00:09:39,447 --> 00:09:41,829 Like, where do you get your fiber? 177 00:09:41,864 --> 00:09:45,005 I read that people would eat 178 00:09:45,039 --> 00:09:48,560 the caribou stomach contents. 179 00:09:48,595 --> 00:09:52,184 You're able to eat that material 180 00:09:52,219 --> 00:09:54,635 because they regurgitate 181 00:09:54,670 --> 00:09:56,913 and chew their cud, 182 00:09:56,948 --> 00:10:01,746 and also hares do the same thing. 183 00:10:01,780 --> 00:10:05,473 And so I'm going to try 184 00:10:05,508 --> 00:10:07,096 eating the contents 185 00:10:07,130 --> 00:10:09,650 of this hare's stomach. 186 00:10:09,685 --> 00:10:13,240 And it absolutely is the grossest thing ever. 187 00:10:13,274 --> 00:10:15,552 Like, I can't believe I'm even considering doing it 188 00:10:15,587 --> 00:10:16,933 or about to, 189 00:10:16,968 --> 00:10:20,109 but I'm gonna try it tonight and see what it's like. 190 00:10:20,143 --> 00:10:22,767 ♪ 191 00:10:22,801 --> 00:10:24,665 You know, there's something that happens in you 192 00:10:24,700 --> 00:10:27,979 when you have a really great need. 193 00:10:28,013 --> 00:10:29,394 It's like you can do things 194 00:10:29,428 --> 00:10:32,984 that you never could do before. 195 00:10:33,018 --> 00:10:36,781 Oh, my goodness. It's yellow and brown. 196 00:10:36,815 --> 00:10:38,092 ♪ 197 00:10:38,127 --> 00:10:41,233 I have this absolute faith in knowing 198 00:10:41,268 --> 00:10:44,789 that I will be provided what I need. 199 00:10:44,823 --> 00:10:47,895 So I'm trying to just eat everything, 200 00:10:47,930 --> 00:10:50,726 and I don't want anything to go to waste. 201 00:10:50,760 --> 00:10:52,417 ♪ 202 00:10:52,451 --> 00:10:55,075 Oh, my gosh. 203 00:10:55,109 --> 00:10:57,664 I can't believe it. 204 00:10:57,698 --> 00:11:00,770 Okay, this is--this is gonna sound weird, but... 205 00:11:00,805 --> 00:11:05,223 It smells really good. 206 00:11:05,257 --> 00:11:09,054 ♪ 207 00:11:09,089 --> 00:11:10,746 So here goes. 208 00:11:18,236 --> 00:11:21,101 And it tastes just like that. 209 00:11:21,135 --> 00:11:25,933 It tastes like a flowery woodland perfume soup. 210 00:11:25,968 --> 00:11:27,694 Wow. 211 00:11:27,728 --> 00:11:30,041 ♪ 212 00:11:30,075 --> 00:11:32,422 Honestly, I can't believe I'm saying 213 00:11:32,457 --> 00:11:34,735 that stomach contents of hare... 214 00:11:34,770 --> 00:11:38,083 Actually smells like flowery woodland perfume 215 00:11:38,118 --> 00:11:39,533 and tastes like it, 216 00:11:39,567 --> 00:11:42,709 with a sharp-ish... 217 00:11:42,743 --> 00:11:45,159 piney, sappy taste to it. 218 00:11:45,194 --> 00:11:47,748 And it's really good. 219 00:11:49,508 --> 00:11:51,545 I can't believe it. 220 00:11:51,579 --> 00:11:55,135 ♪ 221 00:11:55,169 --> 00:11:58,655 I don't mind a good salt-and-vinegar chip, though. 222 00:11:58,690 --> 00:12:01,106 Oh, that would be nice right now, wouldn't it, 223 00:12:01,141 --> 00:12:02,418 just some salt? 224 00:12:08,527 --> 00:12:15,569 ♪ 225 00:12:26,718 --> 00:12:30,101 So I had my med check. 226 00:12:30,135 --> 00:12:32,966 I hadn't really lost significant weight 227 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:36,072 since the last one, which is amazing, 228 00:12:36,107 --> 00:12:38,765 'cause I haven't had very much to eat. 229 00:12:38,799 --> 00:12:42,251 Definitely been a lot more discouraged 230 00:12:42,285 --> 00:12:43,977 and having a harder time recently 231 00:12:44,011 --> 00:12:47,739 since the fox and the poor trapping. 232 00:12:47,774 --> 00:12:51,743 Okay, let's go and collect some rabbits. 233 00:12:51,778 --> 00:12:53,020 What is this? 234 00:12:53,055 --> 00:12:55,885 It looks like fox tracks. 235 00:12:55,920 --> 00:12:58,681 Whoa. 236 00:12:58,715 --> 00:13:01,097 Damn it. 237 00:13:01,132 --> 00:13:03,444 I think I've got competition. 238 00:13:03,479 --> 00:13:05,653 ♪ 239 00:13:05,688 --> 00:13:09,312 I know that I just can only starve for so long. 240 00:13:09,347 --> 00:13:16,388 ♪ 241 00:13:21,877 --> 00:13:24,672 I never expected to be this hungry. 242 00:13:24,707 --> 00:13:26,157 And that's an issue. 243 00:13:26,191 --> 00:13:28,676 I'm going to go and check snares. 244 00:13:28,711 --> 00:13:30,782 This whole fox situation, 245 00:13:30,817 --> 00:13:32,888 it's definitely getting to me. 246 00:13:32,922 --> 00:13:35,476 So I'm kind of in trouble. 247 00:13:35,511 --> 00:13:39,239 ♪ 248 00:13:39,273 --> 00:13:42,759 All right, I can see my rock still hanging. 249 00:13:42,794 --> 00:13:47,316 And I can see my spring pole still bent. 250 00:13:47,350 --> 00:13:49,974 So nothing in this area. 251 00:13:50,008 --> 00:13:51,872 ♪ 252 00:13:51,907 --> 00:13:55,496 Oh. Whoa. I got a squirrel. 253 00:13:55,531 --> 00:13:57,119 ♪ 254 00:13:57,153 --> 00:13:59,569 Wow. 255 00:13:59,604 --> 00:14:01,778 Huh. 256 00:14:01,813 --> 00:14:03,919 Well, that's great. That's food. 257 00:14:03,953 --> 00:14:06,197 That is my first snared squirrel. 258 00:14:06,231 --> 00:14:08,268 Oh, my goodness. It's not a rabbit. 259 00:14:08,302 --> 00:14:10,166 I really wanted a rabbit. 260 00:14:10,201 --> 00:14:12,928 But, oh, my God. 261 00:14:12,962 --> 00:14:15,482 I got a squirrel. 262 00:14:15,516 --> 00:14:17,898 The challenges of my snaring 263 00:14:17,933 --> 00:14:21,039 mean that I'm constantly having to rethink, 264 00:14:21,074 --> 00:14:22,972 re-strategize all the time. 265 00:14:23,007 --> 00:14:25,423 ♪ 266 00:14:25,457 --> 00:14:30,048 That gives me renewed hope about my trapping. 267 00:14:30,083 --> 00:14:37,124 ♪ 268 00:14:49,171 --> 00:14:51,656 71 kilograms. 269 00:14:51,690 --> 00:14:53,382 ♪ 270 00:14:55,108 --> 00:14:58,387 Well, we had our med check. 271 00:14:59,698 --> 00:15:03,633 It was such a shock and a bit of a disappointment. 272 00:15:11,641 --> 00:15:14,092 ♪ 273 00:15:14,127 --> 00:15:15,749 When I first came out here, 274 00:15:15,783 --> 00:15:18,372 my strategy was to do everything I could 275 00:15:18,407 --> 00:15:20,340 to get as much food as I could, 276 00:15:20,374 --> 00:15:24,068 and I've got hundreds of pounds of meat, 277 00:15:24,102 --> 00:15:26,967 and I can't even live off of it. 278 00:15:27,002 --> 00:15:28,555 ♪ 279 00:15:28,589 --> 00:15:31,523 I think the moose is too lean a meat. 280 00:15:31,558 --> 00:15:33,008 Mmm. 281 00:15:33,042 --> 00:15:34,906 ♪ 282 00:15:34,941 --> 00:15:37,771 Those cracklins are the best. 283 00:15:37,805 --> 00:15:39,807 I can't believe you can just sit there 284 00:15:39,842 --> 00:15:42,465 and eat tons of moose and starve to death. 285 00:15:42,500 --> 00:15:45,123 It doesn't make any sense to me. 286 00:15:45,158 --> 00:15:47,091 So I guess in order to open up 287 00:15:47,125 --> 00:15:49,265 the potential of all that meat, 288 00:15:49,300 --> 00:15:53,269 you got to have a backpack full of fat. 289 00:15:53,304 --> 00:15:56,065 I'm looking to what could possibly be 290 00:15:56,100 --> 00:15:59,896 a future source of fat for me. 291 00:15:59,931 --> 00:16:03,935 I have very little options. 292 00:16:03,970 --> 00:16:06,765 Fish have a sustainable amount of fat in them. 293 00:16:06,800 --> 00:16:09,113 These lake trout are pretty oily. 294 00:16:09,147 --> 00:16:10,321 ♪ 295 00:16:10,355 --> 00:16:13,876 So... I'm gonna try to go catch some fish. 296 00:16:13,910 --> 00:16:20,538 ♪ 297 00:16:20,572 --> 00:16:21,988 So... 298 00:16:22,022 --> 00:16:24,024 it's spinning, and it's spinning. 299 00:16:24,059 --> 00:16:25,439 ♪ 300 00:16:25,474 --> 00:16:27,614 Let's see... 301 00:16:27,648 --> 00:16:32,205 ♪ 302 00:16:35,242 --> 00:16:36,416 ♪ 303 00:16:36,450 --> 00:16:38,590 My time is running out. 304 00:16:38,625 --> 00:16:42,215 I'm losing weight. I need my fat. 305 00:16:42,249 --> 00:16:43,837 If this doesn't work, 306 00:16:43,871 --> 00:16:46,460 I'm so screwed. 307 00:16:46,495 --> 00:16:48,014 I'm never super down. 308 00:16:48,048 --> 00:16:50,499 I'm just looking at the glass a little half empty. 309 00:16:50,533 --> 00:16:52,363 But I'd say I'm a positive person, 310 00:16:52,397 --> 00:16:54,848 so that's kind of a strange paradox, 311 00:16:54,882 --> 00:16:56,884 but I guess the way I remain positive 312 00:16:56,919 --> 00:16:58,955 is by expecting a negative outcome. 313 00:16:58,990 --> 00:17:06,066 ♪ 314 00:17:08,448 --> 00:17:10,519 Here we go. 315 00:17:10,553 --> 00:17:17,595 ♪ 316 00:17:19,321 --> 00:17:20,839 Oh, man. 317 00:17:20,874 --> 00:17:23,083 Come, come out. 318 00:17:23,118 --> 00:17:27,984 ♪ 319 00:17:28,019 --> 00:17:30,401 Oh, no! 320 00:17:30,435 --> 00:17:32,472 Dog gone it! 321 00:17:34,612 --> 00:17:36,545 ♪ 322 00:17:39,030 --> 00:17:40,273 Man... 323 00:17:40,307 --> 00:17:43,897 He just stole my lure that I made, 324 00:17:43,931 --> 00:17:46,244 that was all nice. 325 00:17:46,279 --> 00:17:47,694 My little eyelets 326 00:17:47,728 --> 00:17:51,801 that came off of my lure that I found... 327 00:17:51,836 --> 00:17:55,081 my last good hook-- J hook. 328 00:17:55,115 --> 00:17:56,668 ♪ 329 00:17:59,223 --> 00:18:00,465 ♪ 330 00:18:00,500 --> 00:18:03,365 I can't tell you how mad I am. 331 00:18:03,399 --> 00:18:05,194 ♪ 332 00:18:05,229 --> 00:18:07,023 I don't know what to do. 333 00:18:07,058 --> 00:18:10,820 ♪ 334 00:18:10,855 --> 00:18:13,237 I'm not starving yet, but... 335 00:18:13,271 --> 00:18:15,653 will be soon, 336 00:18:15,687 --> 00:18:18,656 ♪ 337 00:18:18,690 --> 00:18:22,349 The fact that I was so close makes it that much tougher. 338 00:18:22,384 --> 00:18:24,144 Like, "Dog gone it." 339 00:18:24,179 --> 00:18:25,318 ♪ 340 00:18:25,352 --> 00:18:27,285 Ah! 341 00:18:27,320 --> 00:18:34,361 ♪ 342 00:18:39,470 --> 00:18:41,920 If I was watching this in @ movie, 343 00:18:41,955 --> 00:18:44,820 I would think, "That is so unrealistic. 344 00:18:44,854 --> 00:18:47,892 "That guy just killed a moose, 345 00:18:47,926 --> 00:18:51,275 "and he's eating it, and he's dying of starvation. 346 00:18:51,309 --> 00:18:53,139 That's dumb.” 347 00:18:53,173 --> 00:18:56,107 Hey, no, that's reality apparently. 348 00:18:56,142 --> 00:18:58,074 ♪ 349 00:18:58,109 --> 00:19:01,250 Apparently the way it is. 350 00:19:01,285 --> 00:19:03,528 If I would have known it was this absurd, 351 00:19:03,563 --> 00:19:06,359 I would have just fished, I guess. 352 00:19:06,393 --> 00:19:09,534 ♪ 353 00:19:09,569 --> 00:19:12,434 So... 354 00:19:12,468 --> 00:19:15,678 that's where my knowledge came short out here, guys. 355 00:19:15,713 --> 00:19:16,783 ♪ 356 00:19:16,817 --> 00:19:20,683 I thought you could live off of... 357 00:19:20,718 --> 00:19:24,825 off of land mammals, but you can't. 358 00:19:24,860 --> 00:19:28,622 I'm losing a pound a day, no matter what I do. 359 00:19:28,657 --> 00:19:30,659 I have no plan... 360 00:19:30,693 --> 00:19:33,006 no idea what to do. 361 00:19:33,040 --> 00:19:40,082 ♪ 362 00:19:59,101 --> 00:20:01,241 I'm not interested in having dreadlocks, 363 00:20:01,276 --> 00:20:03,692 so I cut my hair. 364 00:20:05,107 --> 00:20:07,523 There it all is. 365 00:20:07,558 --> 00:20:10,043 I thought it'd be, like, twice that much, but... 366 00:20:10,077 --> 00:20:11,838 How did I do? 367 00:20:21,019 --> 00:20:23,056 Not too bad for using a knife, eh? 368 00:20:23,090 --> 00:20:24,713 ♪ 369 00:20:24,747 --> 00:20:29,027 Next on the agenda is to go check... 370 00:20:29,062 --> 00:20:31,720 the... gill net. 371 00:20:31,754 --> 00:20:34,274 ♪ 372 00:20:34,309 --> 00:20:36,380 My body's feeling it more. I can tell. 373 00:20:36,414 --> 00:20:39,348 Now that I'm getting below my ideal body weight, 374 00:20:39,383 --> 00:20:40,763 the hunger is different. 375 00:20:40,798 --> 00:20:43,352 It's changed a little bit. 376 00:20:43,387 --> 00:20:44,974 It's just there more, I guess. 377 00:20:45,009 --> 00:20:47,114 Earlier, I was just kind of, like, 378 00:20:47,149 --> 00:20:49,600 burning off the excess, and now I'm not. 379 00:20:49,634 --> 00:20:52,741 ♪ 380 00:20:52,775 --> 00:20:55,433 Yep. 381 00:20:55,468 --> 00:20:57,470 Nothing in the gill net. 382 00:20:57,504 --> 00:21:01,508 ♪ 383 00:21:01,543 --> 00:21:03,510 Oh, there's a big lake trout. 384 00:21:03,545 --> 00:21:05,512 I don't know, maybe two of 'em. 385 00:21:05,547 --> 00:21:12,588 ♪ 386 00:21:15,867 --> 00:21:22,909 ♪ 387 00:21:30,157 --> 00:21:33,782 ♪ 388 00:21:36,163 --> 00:21:43,205 ♪ 389 00:21:57,840 --> 00:22:04,951 ♪ 390 00:22:19,345 --> 00:22:26,352 ♪ 391 00:22:39,744 --> 00:22:46,786 ♪ 392 00:22:50,030 --> 00:22:51,722 It's a lot harder to keep count 393 00:22:51,756 --> 00:22:53,931 without a partner and without music. 394 00:22:53,965 --> 00:22:55,898 Oh. 395 00:22:55,933 --> 00:22:57,935 Mm. 396 00:22:57,969 --> 00:23:01,387 Thank you, Sun, for being my partner in my solo waltz. 397 00:23:05,805 --> 00:23:07,220 ♪ 398 00:23:07,254 --> 00:23:10,913 No sign of rabbits around here since the fox, 399 00:23:10,948 --> 00:23:13,951 but I'm not worrying about that now, 400 00:23:13,985 --> 00:23:16,781 because today I have basically, 401 00:23:16,816 --> 00:23:18,024 like, a ball of yarn, 402 00:23:18,058 --> 00:23:20,785 a ball of rabbit yarn essentially. 403 00:23:20,820 --> 00:23:23,892 And that ball is probably the size of a basketball, 404 00:23:23,926 --> 00:23:26,757 I think I could make a rabbit scarf now. 405 00:23:26,791 --> 00:23:28,414 ♪ 406 00:23:28,448 --> 00:23:31,969 My entire life I've been obsessed with making things 407 00:23:32,003 --> 00:23:35,110 from raw materials. 408 00:23:35,144 --> 00:23:36,801 I've decided to take this opportunity 409 00:23:36,836 --> 00:23:38,527 to finish my slingshot. 410 00:23:38,562 --> 00:23:40,080 Check it out! 411 00:23:40,115 --> 00:23:42,773 My squirrel-skin-covered knife sheath. 412 00:23:42,807 --> 00:23:44,084 ♪ 413 00:23:44,119 --> 00:23:46,466 A little harvest basket. 414 00:23:46,501 --> 00:23:49,711 Boom. Ready to go. 415 00:23:49,745 --> 00:23:51,575 ♪ 416 00:23:51,609 --> 00:23:54,060 Super excited to work on this rabbit rope... 417 00:23:54,094 --> 00:23:58,340 because this is the nicest day we've had in forever 418 00:23:58,374 --> 00:24:01,481 and it could easily be another couple weeks 419 00:24:01,516 --> 00:24:02,931 before we get a day like this, 420 00:24:02,965 --> 00:24:06,486 so got to kind of seize the moment right now. 421 00:24:06,521 --> 00:24:08,971 ♪ 422 00:24:09,006 --> 00:24:11,180 One of the biggest things is that I'm here 423 00:24:11,215 --> 00:24:13,355 representing women 424 00:24:13,389 --> 00:24:15,426 and representing a different approach to survival-- 425 00:24:15,461 --> 00:24:18,084 One that includes femininity. 426 00:24:18,118 --> 00:24:20,431 I've struggled so much with my relationship 427 00:24:20,466 --> 00:24:22,640 with being a woman in my life. 428 00:24:22,675 --> 00:24:26,644 Look at all of this furry, fluffy amazing-ness. 429 00:24:26,679 --> 00:24:29,785 I'm just gonna wind back and forth 430 00:24:29,820 --> 00:24:32,961 around these poles. 431 00:24:32,995 --> 00:24:36,309 Spent my 20s really denying my own femininity 432 00:24:36,343 --> 00:24:38,898 to show that I was, like, tough and capable 433 00:24:38,932 --> 00:24:40,313 in a man's world. 434 00:24:40,347 --> 00:24:42,867 And then my whole 30s looking at that 435 00:24:42,902 --> 00:24:44,420 and repairing that relationship 436 00:24:44,455 --> 00:24:46,008 and, finally, in my 40s 437 00:24:46,043 --> 00:24:48,528 super being in my femininity 438 00:24:48,563 --> 00:24:50,081 and myself as a woman 439 00:24:50,116 --> 00:24:52,325 and feeling empowered in that 440 00:24:52,359 --> 00:24:54,569 and like I don't have anything to prove. 441 00:24:54,603 --> 00:24:56,674 Instead of tying a knot, 442 00:24:56,709 --> 00:25:00,747 I'm going to use paracord and tie them together well. 443 00:25:00,782 --> 00:25:02,266 ♪ 444 00:25:02,300 --> 00:25:05,752 Women have the fortitude to survive very trying times. 445 00:25:05,787 --> 00:25:09,100 And I'd like to show that to the world. 446 00:25:09,135 --> 00:25:11,551 ♪ 447 00:25:11,586 --> 00:25:14,209 Pretty exciting. Ah! 448 00:25:14,243 --> 00:25:15,555 Check it out! 449 00:25:15,590 --> 00:25:19,766 Beautiful, woven rabbit scarf. 450 00:25:19,801 --> 00:25:24,599 And may it get longer and longer and become 451 00:25:24,633 --> 00:25:27,049 a rabbit shawl and then a rabbit blanket. 452 00:25:27,084 --> 00:25:28,292 Whoo-hoo! 453 00:25:28,326 --> 00:25:35,368 ♪ 454 00:25:50,417 --> 00:25:52,696 It's like I get drugged out here. 455 00:25:59,703 --> 00:26:02,119 Here I go again, passing out. 456 00:26:02,153 --> 00:26:04,190 It's like every intention of just getting up 457 00:26:04,224 --> 00:26:05,743 and getting to work, and then it's like, 458 00:26:05,778 --> 00:26:07,469 I just lay here thinking of what I'm gonna do. 459 00:26:07,503 --> 00:26:10,265 Out cold again. 460 00:26:13,371 --> 00:26:15,788 It's just this nice, toasty-warm bed, I think, 461 00:26:15,822 --> 00:26:18,618 and, you know, like... 462 00:26:18,653 --> 00:26:20,931 just lack of calories and... 463 00:26:33,737 --> 00:26:37,188 -Mm. -Oh,. 464 00:26:39,087 --> 00:26:42,021 So drained of all just resources. 465 00:26:48,855 --> 00:26:50,995 Okay, I got to go. 466 00:26:51,030 --> 00:26:53,239 I was sleeping again. 467 00:26:53,273 --> 00:26:58,554 ♪ 468 00:26:58,589 --> 00:27:00,867 I have to go check my traps 469 00:27:00,902 --> 00:27:02,731 before that fox does. 470 00:27:02,766 --> 00:27:05,492 He's got my rabbit, and there's nothing I can do 471 00:27:05,527 --> 00:27:06,977 to get it back. 472 00:27:07,011 --> 00:27:09,324 I know that that's not going to be the only animal 473 00:27:09,358 --> 00:27:11,050 that that fox steals from me 474 00:27:11,084 --> 00:27:14,398 because now that he knows my scent brought him food, 475 00:27:14,432 --> 00:27:16,572 he's never gonna stop. 476 00:27:19,230 --> 00:27:22,199 Tired already. Hardly started working. 477 00:27:22,233 --> 00:27:24,650 I need to keep providing for myself. 478 00:27:24,684 --> 00:27:26,893 My fear every night before going to bed 479 00:27:26,928 --> 00:27:29,378 is that if I'm not performing well enough, 480 00:27:29,413 --> 00:27:31,760 I'm going to have to go home. 481 00:27:31,795 --> 00:27:33,037 This trap line's taking me 482 00:27:33,072 --> 00:27:35,074 four times longer than it should have. 483 00:27:35,108 --> 00:27:38,733 And I can't find my... trail that I use. 484 00:27:38,767 --> 00:27:40,079 ♪ 485 00:27:40,113 --> 00:27:42,598 I don't know what's going on with me. 486 00:27:42,633 --> 00:27:46,602 ♪ 487 00:27:46,637 --> 00:27:50,054 Oh, man, I'm gonna have to take a break... 488 00:27:50,089 --> 00:27:52,125 'cause I am... 489 00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:54,438 Like, my vision is going blurry. 490 00:27:58,200 --> 00:27:59,995 Not only is my vision going blurry, 491 00:28:00,030 --> 00:28:01,721 I'm having, like-- 492 00:28:01,756 --> 00:28:03,758 I can't find my snares. 493 00:28:03,792 --> 00:28:06,105 I don't know exactly what's wrong with me. 494 00:28:06,139 --> 00:28:10,005 I'm severely constipated. My stomach is rock hard. 495 00:28:10,040 --> 00:28:13,284 Just multiple things coming at me all at once. 496 00:28:13,319 --> 00:28:14,527 ♪ 497 00:28:14,561 --> 00:28:16,840 I need to find my snares. 498 00:28:16,874 --> 00:28:19,877 ♪ 499 00:28:19,912 --> 00:28:23,122 My body's wasting away. 500 00:28:23,156 --> 00:28:25,572 I'm hanging on by my fingernails, 501 00:28:25,607 --> 00:28:27,609 and my fingernails are starting to rip out. 502 00:28:27,643 --> 00:28:30,681 ♪ 503 00:28:30,716 --> 00:28:33,546 And, no, that's not me being a wuss. 504 00:28:33,580 --> 00:28:36,031 My heart is strong. My mind is stro-- 505 00:28:36,066 --> 00:28:37,412 Like, I'm in it. 506 00:28:37,446 --> 00:28:39,138 ♪ 507 00:28:39,172 --> 00:28:41,278 We can't go without food. 508 00:28:43,349 --> 00:28:45,938 Where the did it go? 509 00:28:45,972 --> 00:28:51,529 ♪ 510 00:28:51,564 --> 00:28:54,740 Like I'm getting lost up here. 511 00:28:54,774 --> 00:28:56,431 I can't find my trail. 512 00:28:56,465 --> 00:29:00,538 ♪ 513 00:29:00,573 --> 00:29:02,644 My stomach really hurts. 514 00:29:02,678 --> 00:29:03,783 Oh. 515 00:29:03,818 --> 00:29:06,027 Now here comes the chills, now. 516 00:29:06,061 --> 00:29:08,926 ♪ 517 00:29:08,961 --> 00:29:10,963 Yep. 518 00:29:10,997 --> 00:29:14,760 Oh, boy. I can't do this. 519 00:29:14,794 --> 00:29:17,486 ♪ 520 00:29:17,521 --> 00:29:20,489 I'm turning in circles. I'm getting lost. 521 00:29:20,524 --> 00:29:22,768 Sweat's pouring off of me. I'm nauseous. 522 00:29:22,802 --> 00:29:26,564 I can't hardly see anything and focus on anything. 523 00:29:26,599 --> 00:29:28,497 It's frustrating. 524 00:29:28,532 --> 00:29:35,573 ♪ 525 00:29:40,820 --> 00:29:43,512 Whoa. 526 00:29:43,547 --> 00:29:44,341 Whoa! 527 00:29:47,240 --> 00:29:48,794 Oh. 528 00:29:48,828 --> 00:29:50,657 ♪ 529 00:29:50,692 --> 00:29:52,314 Ouch. 530 00:29:52,349 --> 00:29:53,488 ♪ 531 00:29:53,522 --> 00:29:54,938 Whew, 532 00:29:54,972 --> 00:29:56,836 Hold on. 533 00:29:56,871 --> 00:29:59,149 I'm safe now but barely. 534 00:30:00,667 --> 00:30:04,292 Whew, that's how close I came-- diving into the water. 535 00:30:04,326 --> 00:30:08,158 ♪ 536 00:30:11,195 --> 00:30:14,198 ♪ 537 00:30:16,235 --> 00:30:17,650 ♪ 538 00:30:17,684 --> 00:30:19,307 All right, I got to put this camera away. 539 00:30:19,341 --> 00:30:20,929 It's too dangerous. 540 00:30:20,964 --> 00:30:24,899 ♪ 541 00:30:33,148 --> 00:30:36,945 ♪ 542 00:30:36,980 --> 00:30:39,189 My mom died when I was seven. 543 00:30:39,223 --> 00:30:41,570 She had cancer. 544 00:30:41,605 --> 00:30:43,469 I have gone through a lot of stuff. 545 00:30:43,503 --> 00:30:45,885 And so I had developed this drive 546 00:30:45,920 --> 00:30:49,095 where you can pull yourself up if you have the means. 547 00:30:49,130 --> 00:30:52,443 So here I am, struggling. 548 00:30:52,478 --> 00:30:54,376 And my body is coming unraveled 549 00:30:54,411 --> 00:30:57,828 at the seams right now. 550 00:30:57,863 --> 00:31:00,866 Wiping out out here, I hurt my tailbone. 551 00:31:03,316 --> 00:31:04,697 Now comes to the point of the story 552 00:31:04,731 --> 00:31:07,010 why we need to talk about it. 553 00:31:07,044 --> 00:31:08,977 I haven't pooped in 14 days. 554 00:31:09,012 --> 00:31:10,220 ♪ 555 00:31:10,254 --> 00:31:12,981 I have a big, heavy weight there. 556 00:31:13,016 --> 00:31:15,604 Dragging on my pelvic floor. 557 00:31:15,639 --> 00:31:17,434 ♪ 558 00:31:19,781 --> 00:31:20,989 ♪ 559 00:31:23,336 --> 00:31:25,925 ♪ 560 00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:28,031 But the thing is... 561 00:31:28,065 --> 00:31:30,309 those ligaments that hold 562 00:31:30,343 --> 00:31:33,208 that pelvic floor in place, 563 00:31:33,243 --> 00:31:36,522 when I birthed Lars, I tore a couple of them. 564 00:31:36,556 --> 00:31:40,595 I mean, it's not something that they can fix. 565 00:31:40,629 --> 00:31:43,218 But if I tear... 566 00:31:43,253 --> 00:31:45,496 you know, the other side of those ligaments 567 00:31:45,531 --> 00:31:48,361 that I have left... 568 00:31:48,396 --> 00:31:51,399 straining to have a bowl movement... 569 00:31:51,433 --> 00:31:54,678 ♪ 570 00:31:54,712 --> 00:31:56,300 I... 571 00:31:56,335 --> 00:31:58,820 I probably can't carry a baby again. 572 00:31:58,854 --> 00:32:00,442 ♪ 573 00:32:03,273 --> 00:32:05,689 And I don't want that option taken from me 574 00:32:05,723 --> 00:32:07,277 for something like this. 575 00:32:07,311 --> 00:32:09,313 ♪ 576 00:32:09,348 --> 00:32:10,970 And maybe TI'll be okay, 577 00:32:11,005 --> 00:32:14,008 but today... 578 00:32:14,042 --> 00:32:16,424 Today is not a good day, man. 579 00:32:16,458 --> 00:32:18,219 ♪ 580 00:32:18,253 --> 00:32:20,566 I never... 581 00:32:20,600 --> 00:32:23,258 ever foresaw this being a problem. 582 00:32:23,293 --> 00:32:30,334 ♪ 583 00:32:36,651 --> 00:32:39,723 I'm gonna try and get a good meal in me, 584 00:32:39,757 --> 00:32:42,484 see how that affects my energy. 585 00:32:42,519 --> 00:32:44,245 I just think that I'm not getting enough 586 00:32:44,279 --> 00:32:47,593 salt and electrolytes in my diet out here. 587 00:32:47,627 --> 00:32:51,045 So... 588 00:32:51,079 --> 00:32:53,840 I got the soup reheated, re-boiled, 589 00:32:53,875 --> 00:32:55,739 and it's simmering now. 590 00:32:55,773 --> 00:32:57,396 But... 591 00:32:57,430 --> 00:33:00,744 I only have food left 592 00:33:00,778 --> 00:33:02,918 for dinner tonight, 593 00:33:02,953 --> 00:33:05,991 and breakfast tomorrow is that soup. 594 00:33:06,025 --> 00:33:08,752 So... 595 00:33:08,786 --> 00:33:10,616 It'd be super nice 596 00:33:10,650 --> 00:33:13,343 if I get something in the net today. 597 00:33:13,377 --> 00:33:15,586 And, um... 598 00:33:15,621 --> 00:33:18,589 hopefully I'm not as lightheaded as I was. 599 00:33:18,624 --> 00:33:23,180 ♪ 600 00:33:23,215 --> 00:33:24,837 Dizzy spells are a problem 601 00:33:24,871 --> 00:33:26,977 because the single most important activity 602 00:33:27,012 --> 00:33:31,361 I do out here is fish off of the edge of a rock 603 00:33:31,395 --> 00:33:35,399 above 10 or 12 feet of water, and it's probably 33 degrees. 604 00:33:35,434 --> 00:33:38,368 If I go down, I'm either gonna fall onto the rocks 605 00:33:38,402 --> 00:33:40,749 or fall into the water or both. 606 00:33:40,784 --> 00:33:43,649 And at the point where that would happen 607 00:33:43,683 --> 00:33:46,100 is 30 or 40 yards 608 00:33:46,134 --> 00:33:49,172 from a place where I can climb out of the water. 609 00:33:49,206 --> 00:33:52,382 It's a deadly place to have a dizzy spell. 610 00:33:52,416 --> 00:33:55,971 Just came to the gill net, and there is a fish in the net, 611 00:33:56,006 --> 00:33:57,352 tangled something fierce in there. 612 00:33:57,387 --> 00:33:58,940 I'm about to pull the net. 613 00:33:58,974 --> 00:34:00,735 Definitely going to put my PFD on. 614 00:34:00,769 --> 00:34:04,014 It's definitely sketchy to be down there. 615 00:34:05,498 --> 00:34:06,982 ♪ 616 00:34:07,017 --> 00:34:09,295 Got to get stable places to stand here 617 00:34:09,330 --> 00:34:10,883 on this ice and stone. 618 00:34:10,917 --> 00:34:13,334 ♪ 619 00:34:13,368 --> 00:34:15,060 All right, I've got to be very careful 620 00:34:15,094 --> 00:34:16,613 about walking around here. 621 00:34:16,647 --> 00:34:18,649 ♪ 622 00:34:18,684 --> 00:34:20,617 Oh, it's a pike! Northern pike! 623 00:34:20,651 --> 00:34:21,963 Holy crap. 624 00:34:21,997 --> 00:34:23,965 Wow. 625 00:34:23,999 --> 00:34:25,760 Oh, neat-o. 626 00:34:25,794 --> 00:34:28,487 I have never seen one of these with my own eyes before. 627 00:34:28,521 --> 00:34:30,592 It's a big one. 628 00:34:30,627 --> 00:34:32,629 Oh, wowee. 629 00:34:32,663 --> 00:34:38,911 ♪ 630 00:34:38,945 --> 00:34:42,397 It fills the entire screen from four feet away. 631 00:34:42,432 --> 00:34:45,020 That's a sweet fish. 632 00:34:45,055 --> 00:34:51,993 ♪ 633 00:34:52,027 --> 00:34:54,720 Okay, everybody. So... 634 00:34:54,754 --> 00:34:57,171 3 Duh-duh-duh-duh 635 00:34:57,205 --> 00:35:01,589 I got my first northern pike. 636 00:35:01,623 --> 00:35:04,247 This thing is a monster. 637 00:35:04,281 --> 00:35:07,526 I mean, these are the sea monster of the north. 638 00:35:07,560 --> 00:35:10,115 Look at the mouth on this thing. 639 00:35:10,149 --> 00:35:12,151 Look how big that is. 640 00:35:12,186 --> 00:35:16,259 This fish is big enough to eat another big fish. 641 00:35:16,293 --> 00:35:18,709 And the teeth inside of it are-- 642 00:35:18,744 --> 00:35:20,711 I don't know if you can see those or not. 643 00:35:20,746 --> 00:35:22,782 I got to be careful cleaning it out, but--ow, 644 00:35:22,817 --> 00:35:24,439 Damn it. 645 00:35:24,474 --> 00:35:25,958 Look at that. 646 00:35:25,992 --> 00:35:29,030 That's just how they work. 647 00:35:30,721 --> 00:35:31,964 There we go. Damn. 648 00:35:31,998 --> 00:35:35,381 I'm gonna clean it off and... 649 00:35:35,416 --> 00:35:37,763 clean it up and fillet it. 650 00:35:37,797 --> 00:35:40,317 ♪ 651 00:35:40,352 --> 00:35:42,112 Here we go. 652 00:35:42,147 --> 00:35:44,942 That gill net is everything right now. 653 00:35:44,977 --> 00:35:46,772 I'm super grateful for it. 654 00:35:46,806 --> 00:35:48,498 And until the ice thickens up, 655 00:35:48,532 --> 00:35:50,983 it will continue to be everything. 656 00:35:51,017 --> 00:35:53,951 Tomorrow's breakfast will be more nutritious. 657 00:35:53,986 --> 00:35:55,815 ♪ 658 00:35:55,850 --> 00:35:57,058 Whoa. 659 00:35:57,092 --> 00:35:58,577 Was wondering if I wouldn't find 660 00:35:58,611 --> 00:36:01,580 something interesting in this guy's belly. 661 00:36:01,614 --> 00:36:04,203 And there is an entire fish in it. 662 00:36:05,722 --> 00:36:07,137 Two fish. 663 00:36:07,172 --> 00:36:09,519 It's going in the soup pot right now. 664 00:36:09,553 --> 00:36:13,385 ♪ 665 00:36:13,419 --> 00:36:15,663 Two for the price of one. 666 00:36:15,697 --> 00:36:17,941 ♪ 667 00:36:23,084 --> 00:36:30,125 ♪ 668 00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:08,025 It just grips you. 669 00:37:08,060 --> 00:37:10,476 It just rolls, man. 670 00:37:10,511 --> 00:37:12,409 It's like you can't whim-- 671 00:37:12,444 --> 00:37:14,273 You just can't help it but whimper 672 00:37:14,308 --> 00:37:16,310 like a kicked dog, man. 673 00:37:19,313 --> 00:37:21,384 I think it's just toxic buildup 674 00:37:21,418 --> 00:37:23,213 in me from that waste. 675 00:37:24,352 --> 00:37:26,423 I mean, I could die tonight. 676 00:37:26,458 --> 00:37:29,737 I could go into, like, a shock. 677 00:37:29,771 --> 00:37:31,635 Wouldn't even know what happened. 678 00:37:31,670 --> 00:37:33,706 ♪ 679 00:37:33,741 --> 00:37:36,088 At least my last wishes will be recorded. 680 00:37:36,122 --> 00:37:39,574 ♪ 681 00:37:39,609 --> 00:37:41,266 Funeral pyre. 682 00:37:41,300 --> 00:37:42,681 ♪ 683 00:37:42,715 --> 00:37:45,753 Just let the wild horses run through those ashes. 684 00:37:45,787 --> 00:37:46,995 ♪ 685 00:37:47,030 --> 00:37:48,894 Sprinkle 'em in a lake. 686 00:37:48,928 --> 00:37:50,758 ♪ 687 00:37:50,792 --> 00:37:53,001 And blow from the top of mountains. 688 00:37:53,036 --> 00:37:55,901 ♪ 689 00:37:55,935 --> 00:37:58,835 Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. 690 00:37:58,869 --> 00:38:01,907 ♪ 691 00:38:01,941 --> 00:38:03,495 Food and drinks and laughter 692 00:38:03,529 --> 00:38:05,876 and music and love... 693 00:38:05,911 --> 00:38:07,913 those would be my final wishes. 694 00:38:07,947 --> 00:38:14,989 ♪ 695 00:38:27,035 --> 00:38:29,555 ♪ 696 00:38:30,901 --> 00:38:33,283 I don't want to, guys. 697 00:38:40,497 --> 00:38:43,086 Oh,. 698 00:38:45,916 --> 00:38:52,958 ♪ 699 00:39:06,558 --> 00:39:10,251 I'm--I'm gonna pull myself, um, 700 00:39:10,285 --> 00:39:12,149 from the competition. 701 00:39:12,184 --> 00:39:16,119 I've been pretty sick, and, uh... 702 00:39:16,153 --> 00:39:19,398 I think you guys need to come and get me. 703 00:39:22,608 --> 00:39:29,650 ♪ 704 00:39:32,894 --> 00:39:34,793 ♪ 705 00:39:34,827 --> 00:39:37,451 My mom died when she was 31 years old, 706 00:39:37,485 --> 00:39:39,418 and I had to provide for myself, 707 00:39:39,453 --> 00:39:42,110 and for the first time in my life, 708 00:39:42,145 --> 00:39:44,527 I can't help myself. 709 00:39:44,561 --> 00:39:46,563 And that is devastating to me. 710 00:39:46,598 --> 00:39:49,635 ♪ 711 00:39:49,670 --> 00:39:53,674 I pushed my body to its utmost limit. 712 00:39:53,708 --> 00:39:55,848 ♪ 713 00:39:55,883 --> 00:39:57,471 I need some medicine. 714 00:39:57,505 --> 00:40:04,547 ♪ 715 00:40:06,307 --> 00:40:08,482 Pretty sick. 716 00:40:10,691 --> 00:40:14,211 I can't poop and, uh... 717 00:40:16,455 --> 00:40:19,769 Fevered and chilled and... 718 00:40:23,082 --> 00:40:24,498 Really weak. 719 00:40:25,671 --> 00:40:29,675 Just--body gave out before my mind could. 720 00:40:29,710 --> 00:40:31,643 That's all. 721 00:40:31,677 --> 00:40:35,819 ♪ 722 00:40:35,854 --> 00:40:37,476 You have all these self-doubts, like, 723 00:40:37,511 --> 00:40:38,891 "Did I accomplish anything? 724 00:40:38,926 --> 00:40:40,755 Was there a point of me coming?" 725 00:40:40,790 --> 00:40:42,205 ♪ 726 00:40:42,239 --> 00:40:44,138 There's about 50 different things 727 00:40:44,172 --> 00:40:45,933 running through your head. 728 00:40:45,967 --> 00:40:47,935 None of them good. 729 00:40:47,969 --> 00:40:51,145 I didn't want to have to go home. 730 00:40:51,179 --> 00:40:53,354 I still pushed myself days longer 731 00:40:53,388 --> 00:40:56,322 than I probably should have. 732 00:40:56,357 --> 00:40:58,117 I mean, the only thing keeping me here 733 00:40:58,152 --> 00:40:59,843 is my pride and stubbornness. 734 00:40:59,878 --> 00:41:01,396 ♪ 735 00:41:01,431 --> 00:41:03,191 And that could risk my chance 736 00:41:03,226 --> 00:41:06,229 of ever carrying a baby ever again. 737 00:41:06,263 --> 00:41:07,644 ♪ 738 00:41:07,679 --> 00:41:10,958 No amount of winning is worth that to me. 739 00:41:10,992 --> 00:41:18,034 ♪ 740 00:41:19,587 --> 00:41:21,727 My fire went out last night. 741 00:41:21,762 --> 00:41:23,764 Without a fire, I could die. 742 00:41:23,798 --> 00:41:25,835 Ah,. 743 00:41:25,869 --> 00:41:27,112 Dang, dang, dang. 744 00:41:27,146 --> 00:41:28,562 All the fat is gone. 745 00:41:28,596 --> 00:41:31,944 And I looked around, and there's wolverine tracks. 746 00:41:31,979 --> 00:41:34,084 It's the first time I've seen my body 747 00:41:34,119 --> 00:41:35,465 while I've been out here. 748 00:41:35,500 --> 00:41:38,226 Whoo! Look at my bicep. 749 00:41:38,261 --> 00:41:41,644 -Holy. -My entire bay has frozen. 750 00:41:41,678 --> 00:41:43,197 It's all ice. 751 00:41:43,231 --> 00:41:44,232 ♪