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♪

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The wind is really
picking up.

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I need to get the hell off
of this rock.

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♪

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Oh, I'm having leg cramps.!

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Holy.

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I got a fire.

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I don't really have time
to around

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and feel sorry for myself.

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There is something screaming
outside.

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♪

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♪

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male announcer: In "Alone's"
coldest location ever,

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ten participations fight
to survive the Arctic.

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The Arctic is one of

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the most physically
demanding places on Earth.

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So fricking cold right now.

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Announcer: Battling
subzero temperatures...

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This climate's harsh,
it's extreme, it's mean.

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It's got teeth.

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Get caught out here in
a whiteout, you're in trouble.

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Announcer:
Vicious predators...

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Just heard something big
moving back there.

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Me against the wolverine
right now.

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Announcer: And isolation.

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There's nothing to fill
that void.

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It's just you left alone
with your thoughts.

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Announcer:
How long will they endure?

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The post is on fire!

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I'm scared,
but I don't want to die.

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This is the most unforgiving
landscape I've ever seen.

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Announcer:
The last one standing wins.

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This environment will strip
away everything and anything

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you thought you had.

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♪

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♪

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♪

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So I need to deal with
this scenario here.

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'Cause it's pretty freaking
disgusting.

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I'm gonna show you the survival
manicure Arctic-style.

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♪

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First I need a soak.

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Imagine if I went into
a spa right now?

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♪

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I can hear the soft music
playing,

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all the colors of nail polish
you get to choose from.

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And the lady's horrifying face
looking at my nails.

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Look at that.
Like look at that.

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That's pretty good.

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Now I'm gonna rinse that out.

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I'm gonna make
a squirrel soup tonight.

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Oh!

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♪

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You know, there's just
these highs and lows

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that I'm going through.

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And frankly, I'm coming out
of the lows really good.

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I'm just, like, trying to focus
on all the great things.

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Like I have food gathered.

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Only mushrooms,
crowberries, blueberries,

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and a squirrel soup.

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I'm gonna try
just a little chunk.

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I gotta say,
it's actually pretty good.

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♪

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You know, I've had
some injuries

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that could've gone south.

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And to have them heal
so quickly

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has been miraculous
for me, really.

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♪

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I feel like I've been taught
something there about...

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♪

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Holy!

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Oh,!

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I've got a fire.

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♪

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Holy.

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♪

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Oh,.

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♪

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The post is on fire.

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I gotta push it over.

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♪

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All in there.

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God.

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♪

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Come on.

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Come on!

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Come on, fire!

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♪

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Oh! Stop burning.

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♪

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This is...!

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Raging!

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♪

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Come on, snow.

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♪

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Put the fire out.

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♪

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Come on, fire.
Stop burning.

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♪

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Oh!

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Oh,.

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[panti
Oh! "ol

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♪

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I just, uh--it started
my house on fire.

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I--everything's on fire
and I think I got it out.

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It was blazing around me,
like...

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That was seriously so scary,
like...

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I have no idea how
I'm not burnt.

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Maybe I am.
I don't know.

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But I was seriously pulling off
burning logs.

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Look at my hands.
They're just trashed.

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Like...

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Oh, it's just terrible.

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I saw that fire
and it was just high.

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And before I knew it, like,
I was too late.

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♪

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♪

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♪

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Who's a good girl?

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I hate when people talk
to their dogs like that.

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I don't hate it.
It just drives me batty.

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Who's a good girl?

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Would you want a biscuit?
You want a biscuit?

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Good girl.
Good girl.

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Although if somebody talked
to me like that right now

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and they were like,
"You want a biscuit?"

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I'd be like, "Yeah, man."

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Yeah, I do.
Yeah, I do, yeah, I do.

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Give me a biscuit.

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♪

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I couldn't sleep last night
and this morning.

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♪

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Probably nothing
in my sets today

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because of the storm
last night.

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But I'm still gonna go check
Swamp Grass Suzie.

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♪

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Well, guys, I got both
good news and bad news.

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Good news is we didn't lose
our barrel.

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Bad news is,
got trashed.

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Every step I take
feels like failure.

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The only thing keeping me here
is stubbornness

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and the hope that my trap lines
are gonna produce

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something more for me
in the next couple of days.

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Like that's--that's it.

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If I don't get some
proper food, I'm.

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For sure.

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♪

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I've got to get to
those trapping grounds

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and see if there's any more
snares I could set.

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♪

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I don't have a boat.

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So I can't hunt big game.

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And with fishing out,

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trapping is my only
food source.

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It's the only thing
that's gotten me any food.

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And at this point,
it's the only thing

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that is going to get me
any food.

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♪

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So I see there's nothing
in my first set down there.

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No tracks, still nothing.

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It's going to be useless
to set that one.

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I don't know why I leave
it up--wishful thinking.

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And I thought I'd have
a little bit more

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trapping opportunities.

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Turns out,
not really so much, eh?

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Haven't really had that before.

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Uh-oh.

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Oh, you guys,
I want this so bad.

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Oh,.

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♪

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It doesn't matter
how hard my resolve is.

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It doesn't matter
how hard my heart is.

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♪

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It needs more
of that food in it.

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♪

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♪

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♪

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God, I can't believe I burned
down my shelter last night.

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I--I can't believe
I'm laughing about it.

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It was really scary.

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Considering
the big windstorm we had,

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it's like some sort
of miracle I'm okay.

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♪

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I need to work really
hard today

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and work on fixing
this shelter up.

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The older the poles get,
creosote and char happens

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to the bark.

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So I'm just gonna have
to try to pack tightly.

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Branches and trees.
Green ones only.

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♪

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But all the ash and the soot
will get caught on the bark

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and it'll form
this kind of dust

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that I'm gonna just scrape off
every five days or so

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to make sure that
it doesn't hold a spark.

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Right now, I'm just walking
at a slow-ass pace.

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I just have to.

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♪

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This shelter setback
is gonna take me

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two, three days.

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And I'm gonna have to put out
a lot of energy.

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It's gonna take something
a little off of me.

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♪

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I'm happy with the work
I got done.

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But it was, like,
a lot of effort.

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♪

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I don't know how many
calories I burnt today

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but it was way too many.

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♪

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You should not
be wasting energy

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rebuilding shelters
so late in the game.

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♪

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♪

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♪

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So I'm trying
this new thing out here.

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Apparently, it's all the rage.

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It's called breakfast!

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Oh, my goodness.

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♪

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Oh, mama.
Whoo-hee!

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You know, the funny thing is I
want more than anything else

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for my wife and kids
to be out here.

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♪

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I'm gonna miss
my little girl's birthday.

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My wife,
she's big into birthdays.

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She is good at it.

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My daughter wanted
a camping birthday.

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She made this cake.

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It looked exactly like a fire.

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I mean, it was so cool.

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She's a good mom.

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♪

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Well, now what?

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♪

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♪

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♪

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<i>Give me a "V,"
give me an "I,"</i>

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give me a "C,"
give me a "T,"

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00:14:07,612 --> 00:14:11,996
give me an "O,"
give me an "R,"

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00:14:12,030 --> 00:14:13,929
give me a "Y"!

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00:14:13,963 --> 00:14:16,034
What's that spell?

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Victory!

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♪

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As of late, the fishing--
it's hit or miss.

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So I'm gonna check
my trap line.

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♪

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I've been having a hard time.

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My lethargic,
I've had severe leg cramps,

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and I know that's due
to a deficiency.

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I--I'm missing something.

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♪

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I need to get some food in me.

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All right, so it's that time
again to check my trap line.

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I'm going to go into
the forest here a little bit

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and see what I can see.

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I'm also looking for,
you know, paw marks, prints,

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anything like that.

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So let's head on out.

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00:15:03,806 --> 00:15:06,291
Well, I'll be damned!

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00:15:06,326 --> 00:15:09,156
Look what I got myself.

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That's a snow hare.

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Look at that.

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♪

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Outstanding.

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♪

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My heart is so full.

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I'm so grateful
for the abundance here.

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This means so many things.

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This means longevity
in the game.

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00:15:37,253 --> 00:15:42,500
This means more days out here
without cringing hunger pains.

275
00:15:42,534 --> 00:15:44,260
♪

276
00:15:44,295 --> 00:15:45,606
That's quite a bit of meat.

277
00:15:46,745 --> 00:15:49,783
Its entrails means
that I have bait.

278
00:15:49,817 --> 00:15:53,062
I'm just so grateful.

279
00:15:53,097 --> 00:15:55,754
I have such an attitude of
gratitude for this abundance.

280
00:15:55,789 --> 00:15:57,894
♪

281
00:15:57,929 --> 00:15:59,620
It smells amazing.

282
00:16:00,897 --> 00:16:02,727
Buon appetito!

283
00:16:02,761 --> 00:16:05,005
Yes, uh-huh,
Enjoy.

284
00:16:06,593 --> 00:16:08,526
One of its kidneys.

285
00:16:14,808 --> 00:16:18,191
Man, it just feels good
to have...

286
00:16:18,225 --> 00:16:21,366
meat sustenance, you know,
just happening in your mouth.

287
00:16:21,401 --> 00:16:23,679
It's so freaking fantastic.

288
00:16:24,714 --> 00:16:27,234
Oh! This is all meat
right here.

289
00:16:28,891 --> 00:16:31,790
Oh!

290
00:16:31,825 --> 00:16:38,797
♪

291
00:16:38,832 --> 00:16:40,799
Today was a good day.

292
00:16:40,834 --> 00:16:42,767
I feel good.
I'm in a great headspace.

293
00:16:42,801 --> 00:16:46,598
And I, uh, put together
a better plan for--

294
00:17:02,752 --> 00:17:09,794
♪

295
00:17:16,697 --> 00:17:18,975
There a bear coming to get my.

296
00:17:19,010 --> 00:17:20,322
♪

297
00:17:20,356 --> 00:17:22,117
They could just be feet away,
waiting.

298
00:17:22,151 --> 00:17:25,085
♪

299
00:17:25,120 --> 00:17:26,776
I feel like I want to launch
a bear banger

300
00:17:26,811 --> 00:17:29,607
off the top of my shelter just
to make sure it moves away.

301
00:17:29,641 --> 00:17:32,230
♪

302
00:17:42,102 --> 00:17:44,725
Holy.

303
00:17:44,760 --> 00:17:46,658
A bear came to my shelter.

304
00:17:47,314 --> 00:17:50,835
And, uh, circled it
numerous times.

305
00:17:50,869 --> 00:17:54,080
Unafraid of making noise.
Any of that.

306
00:17:54,114 --> 00:17:56,047
Began trying to find a way in,

307
00:17:56,082 --> 00:17:59,050
kind of scratching at my
barrels around the sides.

308
00:17:59,085 --> 00:18:01,466
Messing with some cans
that I have.

309
00:18:02,122 --> 00:18:03,951
My arrow is ready.

310
00:18:03,986 --> 00:18:05,608
I thought about just taking
a shot at it over--

311
00:18:05,643 --> 00:18:06,747
When it was over here.

312
00:18:06,782 --> 00:18:09,371
You know,
this side of my shelter but...

313
00:18:09,405 --> 00:18:11,821
♪

314
00:18:11,856 --> 00:18:14,617
I didn't know where
to shoot at. High, low.

315
00:18:14,652 --> 00:18:16,343
♪

316
00:18:16,378 --> 00:18:18,104
, that was eye-opening.

317
00:18:18,138 --> 00:18:19,588
♪

318
00:18:19,622 --> 00:18:22,763
It now knows I'm here and it
now knows I have food,

319
00:18:22,798 --> 00:18:24,731
which means I'm gonna
probably have to make

320
00:18:24,765 --> 00:18:26,422
a few changes here around camp.

321
00:18:27,630 --> 00:18:29,839
I'm gonna have to wait
till first light.

322
00:18:29,874 --> 00:18:36,915
♪

323
00:18:39,401 --> 00:18:41,092
♪

324
00:18:41,127 --> 00:18:44,164
Out here, you often wonder

325
00:18:44,199 --> 00:18:47,374
are you predator or prey?

326
00:18:47,409 --> 00:18:50,170
And I think whenever
you take on the mentality

327
00:18:50,205 --> 00:18:51,378
of a predator...

328
00:18:51,413 --> 00:18:53,277
I am going out here.
I am gonna hunt.

329
00:18:53,311 --> 00:18:55,900
I'm gonna Kill.
I'm gonna feed myself.

330
00:18:55,934 --> 00:18:59,006
It switches the way
you behave.

331
00:18:59,041 --> 00:19:02,078
You're far more aware,
you're far more focused,

332
00:19:02,113 --> 00:19:04,253
you're looking for that
opportunity to pounce.

333
00:19:05,910 --> 00:19:10,639
What I need to do is
get creative.

334
00:19:10,673 --> 00:19:13,745
It's hard to hear them
walk through.

335
00:19:13,780 --> 00:19:16,300
So I need some kind
of detection system.

336
00:19:16,334 --> 00:19:17,853
♪

337
00:19:17,887 --> 00:19:19,924
So what I wanna do is
I wanna overload my offense

338
00:19:19,958 --> 00:19:21,581
to the right side.

339
00:19:21,615 --> 00:19:25,101
I'm gonna--I'm gonna take this,
uh, rabbit carcass, right?

340
00:19:25,136 --> 00:19:28,622
And I might just put it
under a big rock

341
00:19:28,657 --> 00:19:30,900
and that way he'll have
to kind of dig for it

342
00:19:30,935 --> 00:19:33,282
and--and--and kind of
root for it.

343
00:19:33,317 --> 00:19:36,285
But he'll--but he'll--but he'll
stay in that area.

344
00:19:36,320 --> 00:19:39,115
Make it easier to get
a shot off.

345
00:19:39,150 --> 00:19:41,946
So what I'm gonna do is I'm
gonna take all my bait

346
00:19:41,980 --> 00:19:44,811
and I'm gonna just pile it
right here.

347
00:19:44,845 --> 00:19:47,607
Put this big rock on top.

348
00:19:47,641 --> 00:19:49,125
I want it to make some noise.

349
00:19:49,160 --> 00:19:50,748
So what I'm gonna do is

350
00:19:50,782 --> 00:19:54,200
I'm gonna put small stones
in this can.

351
00:19:54,234 --> 00:19:56,271
So whenever it gets disturbed,
I'll hear it.

352
00:19:57,582 --> 00:20:00,206
Even if I have waves and wind,
hopefully.

353
00:20:01,517 --> 00:20:03,243
So there's my setup.

354
00:20:03,278 --> 00:20:04,934
I'm putting all my eggs
in one basket

355
00:20:04,969 --> 00:20:07,592
right here outside my tent.

356
00:20:07,627 --> 00:20:09,180
I have a shooting lane
right here

357
00:20:09,215 --> 00:20:11,562
if he comes down this trail.

358
00:20:11,596 --> 00:20:13,909
I have a shooting lane here.

359
00:20:14,634 --> 00:20:15,945
If this freaking works,

360
00:20:15,980 --> 00:20:18,120
I'll go down in
the hillbilly hall of fame.

361
00:20:21,641 --> 00:20:28,682
♪

362
00:20:31,340 --> 00:20:38,382
♪

363
00:20:47,460 --> 00:20:49,807
I'm just kind of scanning
the area.

364
00:20:49,841 --> 00:20:51,533
Today is certainly nice out.

365
00:20:51,567 --> 00:20:53,293
♪

366
00:20:53,328 --> 00:20:56,710
There's lighter colored
patches.

367
00:20:56,745 --> 00:20:58,264
They're all ice.

368
00:20:58,298 --> 00:20:59,506
♪

369
00:20:59,541 --> 00:21:01,336
It's neat to finally get
to the bottom of, like,

370
00:21:01,370 --> 00:21:03,027
all these sounds I've
been hearing at night.

371
00:21:03,061 --> 00:21:05,409
'Cause at night,
when it gets really cold,

372
00:21:05,443 --> 00:21:07,549
that's when things
kind of go crazy out here.

373
00:21:07,583 --> 00:21:12,864
It's just loud slams
and it sounds like rockfall.

374
00:21:12,899 --> 00:21:14,314
Except it's consistent.

375
00:21:14,349 --> 00:21:16,523
♪

376
00:21:16,558 --> 00:21:20,216
Okay, just coming up on
the, uh, fishing area.

377
00:21:22,080 --> 00:21:23,461
Ooh, is there a fish in there?

378
00:21:23,496 --> 00:21:25,429
Is that the guts?

379
00:21:25,463 --> 00:21:27,603
Oh, hallelujah.

380
00:21:27,638 --> 00:21:30,054
I got another fish.

381
00:21:30,088 --> 00:21:31,745
Sweet!

382
00:21:31,780 --> 00:21:34,438
I am--I'm experiencing
goose bumps right now

383
00:21:34,472 --> 00:21:36,094
on my entire body.

384
00:21:36,129 --> 00:21:40,236
Everything is tingly right now
at how much this means.

385
00:21:40,271 --> 00:21:42,549
Oh, man, that was so sweet.

386
00:21:47,278 --> 00:21:51,386
Hypothermia is definitely
what I think about a lot.

387
00:21:51,420 --> 00:21:55,079
I'd say it got more people
outdoors than anything else.

388
00:21:55,113 --> 00:21:58,427
So got a, uh, P.F.D.

389
00:21:58,462 --> 00:22:00,222
Just don't want to end up

390
00:22:00,256 --> 00:22:03,087
not being able to get out
if I goin'.

391
00:22:15,410 --> 00:22:19,966
I'd say that's about a, ooh...

392
00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:23,176
19 or 20 inch fish?

393
00:22:23,210 --> 00:22:26,144
And, uh, hopefully
it's pretty tasty.

394
00:22:26,179 --> 00:22:27,698
I hear these are delicious,
actually.

395
00:22:27,732 --> 00:22:29,803
So I'm looking forward
to eating this guy.

396
00:22:29,838 --> 00:22:35,361
♪

397
00:22:35,395 --> 00:22:37,570
I have a week's worth
of food there.

398
00:22:37,604 --> 00:22:40,158
♪

399
00:22:40,193 --> 00:22:42,402
I was just thinking about,
you know,

400
00:22:42,437 --> 00:22:44,128
how my life would be different

401
00:22:44,162 --> 00:22:45,750
with the prize money
from this

402
00:22:45,785 --> 00:22:48,408
and making it less abstract.

403
00:22:48,443 --> 00:22:50,134
Making it less of the, like,

404
00:22:50,168 --> 00:22:51,860
"Oh, yeah!
You're gonna be wealthy."

405
00:22:51,894 --> 00:22:53,344
What--what does that mean,
really?

406
00:22:53,379 --> 00:22:55,346
There's a lot of people who
are wealthy in the world

407
00:22:55,381 --> 00:22:56,727
who have miserable lives

408
00:22:56,761 --> 00:22:58,522
and they squander whatever
they have anyways.

409
00:22:58,556 --> 00:23:01,939
So I don't want to squander
any of it.

410
00:23:01,973 --> 00:23:04,113
If I'm gonna have money,

411
00:23:04,148 --> 00:23:08,083
I'm gonna buy some land
and I'm gonna work that land.

412
00:23:08,117 --> 00:23:12,501
To be able to put all my work
in one place

413
00:23:12,536 --> 00:23:17,886
where I can see it accumulate
and turn into my life...

414
00:23:17,920 --> 00:23:20,129
oh, I want it so bad.

415
00:23:20,164 --> 00:23:21,959
♪

416
00:23:21,993 --> 00:23:24,064
I'm just gonna have
to remember that

417
00:23:24,099 --> 00:23:29,000
if I do this, it'll be the
last time I have to survive.

418
00:23:29,035 --> 00:23:32,418
No more worrying about
whether I can pay rent.

419
00:23:32,452 --> 00:23:35,248
I can just live.

420
00:23:35,282 --> 00:23:38,700
Short of an emergency,
I'm not leaving here

421
00:23:38,734 --> 00:23:41,565
until they come get me.

422
00:23:41,599 --> 00:23:44,809
My first bite of lake
whitefish right here.

423
00:23:49,883 --> 00:23:51,609
Mmm, very light.

424
00:23:51,644 --> 00:23:53,059
Good.

425
00:23:56,890 --> 00:24:04,001
♪

426
00:24:06,659 --> 00:24:13,493
♪

427
00:24:13,528 --> 00:24:16,427
Little frosty out here.

428
00:24:16,462 --> 00:24:19,050
Lake's freezing over.

429
00:24:19,085 --> 00:24:21,501
Look at that business, guys.

430
00:24:23,158 --> 00:24:25,643
I have to really be careful
not to slip.

431
00:24:25,678 --> 00:24:28,543
My back can't handle it.

432
00:24:28,577 --> 00:24:30,510
Oh, she's slick.

433
00:24:30,545 --> 00:24:36,516
♪

434
00:24:38,553 --> 00:24:41,487
♪

435
00:24:46,906 --> 00:24:51,186
Fresh water, man.
Oh, my God.

436
00:24:51,220 --> 00:24:52,670
And I'm still tired.

437
00:24:52,705 --> 00:24:56,018
But I'm gonna go check
my snares.

438
00:24:56,053 --> 00:24:59,746
♪

439
00:24:59,781 --> 00:25:02,024
They tell you about
the hunger,

440
00:25:02,059 --> 00:25:04,924
they tell you about
the loneliness,

441
00:25:04,958 --> 00:25:07,443
but I've never heard
anybody talk about

442
00:25:07,478 --> 00:25:08,997
how weak they are.

443
00:25:09,031 --> 00:25:11,965
I've got to take it slow
and easy, that's for sure.

444
00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:14,140
I've got no energy.

445
00:25:16,314 --> 00:25:19,041
I've got to get some more
calories in me for sure.

446
00:25:19,076 --> 00:25:22,044
My body's not going to be able
to withstand that for long

447
00:25:22,079 --> 00:25:24,668
if I don't start getting
some protein inside of me.

448
00:25:25,600 --> 00:25:27,222
I'm just gonna go through
this area.

449
00:25:27,256 --> 00:25:28,982
And find something hidden
in these

450
00:25:29,017 --> 00:25:31,502
spruce trees
I haven't seen before.

451
00:25:33,055 --> 00:25:35,886
Oh, hold on.

452
00:25:35,920 --> 00:25:38,992
There's a little rabbit trap
down there.

453
00:25:39,027 --> 00:25:45,896
♪

454
00:25:45,930 --> 00:25:48,484
You dirty.
Look at that, I got him.

455
00:25:49,485 --> 00:25:52,281
Look at, you guys.
Look at that!

456
00:25:52,316 --> 00:25:54,249
Look what mama got.

457
00:25:54,283 --> 00:25:56,044
Look it.

458
00:26:00,496 --> 00:26:02,740
I got him.

459
00:26:09,575 --> 00:26:11,128
Oh!

460
00:26:13,406 --> 00:26:16,858
Oh,.
I caught a rabbit.

461
00:26:19,067 --> 00:26:21,587
Oh, frick.

462
00:26:21,621 --> 00:26:24,866
I need more of these rabbits,
that's for sure.

463
00:26:24,900 --> 00:26:28,041
But for today...

464
00:26:28,076 --> 00:26:29,767
today I get food.

465
00:26:29,802 --> 00:26:31,493
♪

466
00:26:31,527 --> 00:26:35,324
And today I have extra
for a while.

467
00:26:35,359 --> 00:26:38,017
Oh, my God!

468
00:26:38,051 --> 00:26:40,157
♪

469
00:26:42,090 --> 00:26:45,024
As I said before, mentally
I'm in this game, you guys.

470
00:26:45,058 --> 00:26:49,476
Like I'm in it.
I want this so bad!

471
00:26:49,511 --> 00:26:50,788
So bad!

472
00:26:50,823 --> 00:26:53,239
I want to be here
and I want this.

473
00:26:53,273 --> 00:26:55,655
I want all of this.

474
00:26:55,690 --> 00:26:58,313
♪

475
00:26:58,347 --> 00:27:00,867
Thank goodness.

476
00:27:07,115 --> 00:27:14,156
♪

477
00:27:15,123 --> 00:27:21,647
♪

478
00:27:24,132 --> 00:27:26,652
Holy crap, check it out.

479
00:27:26,686 --> 00:27:28,412
If you can see behind me,

480
00:27:28,446 --> 00:27:31,622
the shoreline
is totally iced up.

481
00:27:31,657 --> 00:27:34,625
The weather has
super freaking shifted.

482
00:27:34,660 --> 00:27:36,523
So, as often happens,

483
00:27:36,558 --> 00:27:38,594
all of a sudden
I'm really motivated

484
00:27:38,629 --> 00:27:41,218
to jump on
some shelter things.

485
00:27:41,252 --> 00:27:44,842
There is no questioning
that all of a sudden

486
00:27:44,877 --> 00:27:48,121
it is Arctic winter.

487
00:27:48,156 --> 00:27:51,677
Let's go harvest
some poles then.

488
00:27:51,711 --> 00:27:56,440
I am not prepared for it
to be fully snowed in yet.

489
00:27:56,474 --> 00:27:58,684
♪

490
00:27:58,718 --> 00:28:01,514
I just have to haul these up.

491
00:28:01,548 --> 00:28:03,136
I mean, I've been preparing.

492
00:28:03,171 --> 00:28:07,934
I knew this was on its way
anytime now.

493
00:28:07,969 --> 00:28:10,350
It's just...

494
00:28:10,385 --> 00:28:11,938
I can only do so much at once

495
00:28:11,973 --> 00:28:15,804
and there's always more
preparing one can do.

496
00:28:17,633 --> 00:28:20,222
Hard work.

497
00:28:23,501 --> 00:28:29,231
All right, so I have this whole
pile of poles down here.

498
00:28:29,266 --> 00:28:32,200
All for the exterior wall.

499
00:28:32,234 --> 00:28:36,135
Let's get going,
'cause time is a-wastin'.

500
00:28:36,169 --> 00:28:37,757
♪

501
00:28:37,792 --> 00:28:41,312
Log cabins are nice in that
you can seal them well.

502
00:28:41,347 --> 00:28:43,245
But wood is not
very insulative.

503
00:28:43,280 --> 00:28:45,558
You're losing a ton
of your heat,

504
00:28:45,592 --> 00:28:48,423
so in order to have it be
actually insulative

505
00:28:48,457 --> 00:28:50,805
and hold heat, you need
airspace in the middle.

506
00:28:50,839 --> 00:28:53,877
So I'm doing double walls.

507
00:28:53,911 --> 00:28:57,466
So it's basically like a
log cabin inside a log cabin.

508
00:28:57,501 --> 00:29:00,607
So lovely to be outside
right now

509
00:29:00,642 --> 00:29:02,989
in this clear night.

510
00:29:03,024 --> 00:29:07,338
Definitely cold,
but I'm working hard.

511
00:29:07,373 --> 00:29:08,857
Ooh.

512
00:29:08,892 --> 00:29:10,790
The temperatures are plunging
a lot at night,

513
00:29:10,825 --> 00:29:13,413
which is part of why I end up
doing a lot of construction

514
00:29:13,448 --> 00:29:16,002
in the dusk
because being active

515
00:29:16,037 --> 00:29:17,832
is really helping me
stay warm

516
00:29:17,866 --> 00:29:20,317
and it's making the night
feel way less long

517
00:29:20,351 --> 00:29:21,836
and oppressive.

518
00:29:21,870 --> 00:29:27,013
Okay, well, it is late and my
headlamp is about to die.

519
00:29:27,048 --> 00:29:31,362
But I am pretty darned psyched
with this job.

520
00:29:31,397 --> 00:29:38,438
♪

521
00:29:42,684 --> 00:29:45,238
♪

522
00:29:45,273 --> 00:29:47,206
All right, check it out.

523
00:29:49,311 --> 00:29:52,694
My beautiful east wall.

524
00:29:52,728 --> 00:29:56,180
Just like
I've been picturing it.

525
00:29:56,215 --> 00:30:01,116
All nicely insulated in between
with spruce boughs

526
00:30:01,151 --> 00:30:03,843
and chinked with sphagnum moss.

527
00:30:03,878 --> 00:30:08,503
You can see the double layer
effect here

528
00:30:08,537 --> 00:30:13,508
and the interior peeled wall,
all nicely chinked.

529
00:30:13,542 --> 00:30:15,855
One of the big things is
to get it totally sealed,

530
00:30:15,890 --> 00:30:18,547
so the dual wall system with
insulation in between

531
00:30:18,582 --> 00:30:19,997
and trying to get
that everywhere.

532
00:30:20,032 --> 00:30:22,793
My hope is that, once I have
the cabin more dialed in,

533
00:30:22,828 --> 00:30:27,142
that I'll do more serious
big game hunting missions.

534
00:30:27,177 --> 00:30:30,732
So yeah,
I've got big plans still.

535
00:30:30,766 --> 00:30:37,808
♪

536
00:30:43,849 --> 00:30:45,436
It was a nice little nap.

537
00:30:45,471 --> 00:30:48,232
I was able to get myself
recentered.

538
00:30:48,267 --> 00:30:52,443
I came outside and you see
where this can is?

539
00:30:52,478 --> 00:30:55,101
Right here?

540
00:30:55,136 --> 00:30:56,723
Right there?

541
00:30:56,758 --> 00:30:59,554
That's where the other one was
and it's out here now.

542
00:30:59,588 --> 00:31:01,867
See?

543
00:31:01,901 --> 00:31:03,489
I didn't hear a thing.

544
00:31:03,523 --> 00:31:06,699
But then again,
I was sleeping so deeply.

545
00:31:06,733 --> 00:31:10,634
So I'm trying
to look around here and...

546
00:31:10,668 --> 00:31:13,740
let's see what else I can see.

547
00:31:13,775 --> 00:31:15,742
Yeah, here's...

548
00:31:15,777 --> 00:31:18,331
♪

549
00:31:18,366 --> 00:31:19,677
Yeah.

550
00:31:19,712 --> 00:31:23,889
That's a fresh track here
and here

551
00:31:23,923 --> 00:31:25,925
and through here.

552
00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:28,134
And it's--it's smaller.

553
00:31:28,169 --> 00:31:30,688
So it looks like a fox.

554
00:31:30,723 --> 00:31:32,587
♪

555
00:31:32,621 --> 00:31:35,003
So a little old fox came in,

556
00:31:35,038 --> 00:31:37,178
tried to give himself
a quick meal.

557
00:31:38,489 --> 00:31:40,906
They're making the effort
to come by

558
00:31:40,940 --> 00:31:42,666
and grab whatever's available.

559
00:31:42,700 --> 00:31:47,498
And it's screwing up my plan
to try and attract a bear.

560
00:31:47,533 --> 00:31:50,674
♪

561
00:31:50,708 --> 00:31:53,021
I really need that bear
to come to my camp.

562
00:31:53,056 --> 00:31:54,471
♪

563
00:31:54,505 --> 00:31:56,093
Love to have it.

564
00:31:56,128 --> 00:31:58,130
Come on, man.

565
00:32:04,274 --> 00:32:11,315
♪

566
00:32:12,109 --> 00:32:17,839
♪

567
00:32:17,873 --> 00:32:20,600
Holy, am I happy
about that bunny.

568
00:32:21,877 --> 00:32:24,259
I know that if I can
just keep some food

569
00:32:24,294 --> 00:32:25,605
inside my belly,

570
00:32:25,640 --> 00:32:28,574
that nothing will send me
home from here.

571
00:32:28,608 --> 00:32:30,369
Game change for Michelle.

572
00:32:33,648 --> 00:32:35,891
I'd love for my husband
to come find me here.

573
00:32:35,926 --> 00:32:37,307
You know?

574
00:32:37,341 --> 00:32:39,102
I hope he remembers to bring
back my wedding ring.

575
00:32:39,136 --> 00:32:41,104
I miss wearing it.

576
00:32:41,138 --> 00:32:44,383
♪

577
00:32:44,417 --> 00:32:45,867
I made him take it off in
the airport

578
00:32:45,901 --> 00:32:48,525
before I got on a plane
to come here.

579
00:32:48,559 --> 00:32:50,837
He says you put that ring
on me,

580
00:32:50,872 --> 00:32:54,013
Nobody's allowed to take it off
but you, you know?

581
00:32:54,048 --> 00:32:56,671
♪

582
00:32:56,705 --> 00:32:58,328
I didn't bring a picture
of my family

583
00:32:58,362 --> 00:33:00,468
because they're with me
in my heart,

584
00:33:00,502 --> 00:33:01,917
yes, and all those things.

585
00:33:01,952 --> 00:33:03,919
But they're not with me
here on this journey.

586
00:33:03,954 --> 00:33:05,300
I'm here by myself.

587
00:33:05,335 --> 00:33:06,819
I'd like to pretend
that they're here with me,

588
00:33:06,853 --> 00:33:08,165
but they're not.

589
00:33:08,200 --> 00:33:09,822
They're waiting for me
to be done.

590
00:33:09,856 --> 00:33:11,927
And that's the way
I look at it, like,

591
00:33:11,962 --> 00:33:13,964
you don't look back,
you've already been there.

592
00:33:13,999 --> 00:33:16,518
You look forwards 'cause
that's the way you're going.

593
00:33:16,553 --> 00:33:18,417
And I'm not done here yet.

594
00:33:19,487 --> 00:33:21,558
I have something for you guys.

595
00:33:26,977 --> 00:33:29,048
J It's unfortunate
that I got caught ;

596
00:33:29,083 --> 00:33:31,844
♪ But she's going
to enjoy all of me

597
00:33:35,192 --> 00:33:37,229
I hope there's more bunnies
where this one came from.

598
00:33:37,263 --> 00:33:40,508
I got his ears up
but now his face is flat.

599
00:33:40,542 --> 00:33:42,682
Look at it, he's got
his little whiskers on there.

600
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,445
His little mouth hole.

601
00:33:46,479 --> 00:33:47,963
See?

602
00:33:47,998 --> 00:33:49,724
It looks like a little tongue.

603
00:33:49,758 --> 00:33:52,313
Whiskers, eyeballs,
that's right.

604
00:33:52,347 --> 00:33:54,004
I know what I'm doing.

605
00:33:54,039 --> 00:33:56,938
I didn't want to forget to do
the puppet show for you guys.

606
00:33:59,941 --> 00:34:02,323
♪ Pop goes the weasel

607
00:34:02,357 --> 00:34:09,399
♪

608
00:34:13,920 --> 00:34:20,962
♪

609
00:34:26,036 --> 00:34:32,974
♪

610
00:34:34,562 --> 00:34:37,565
Okay, um, good morning.

611
00:34:39,636 --> 00:34:42,501
Last night, I went fishing.
Got skunked.

612
00:34:42,535 --> 00:34:43,778
They weren't even biting
though.

613
00:34:43,812 --> 00:34:45,159
They--they were--
there was nothing.

614
00:34:45,193 --> 00:34:46,884
So I think I went out
a little too late.

615
00:34:46,919 --> 00:34:47,920
So I'll go out earlier.

616
00:34:47,954 --> 00:34:49,266
Other than that...

617
00:34:51,855 --> 00:34:53,753
Miss the family.

618
00:34:54,754 --> 00:34:57,240
Miss the family like crazy.

619
00:34:57,274 --> 00:34:59,138
Oh, I'm excited to see them.

620
00:34:59,173 --> 00:35:02,176
My new favorite to lay in
your sleeping b-bag

621
00:35:02,210 --> 00:35:04,799
and dream about
is Thanksgiving.

622
00:35:04,833 --> 00:35:06,145
We went camping
for Thanksgiving

623
00:35:06,180 --> 00:35:09,769
with the grandparents
and--and, uh, the kids.

624
00:35:09,804 --> 00:35:13,394
So in my mind, I set it up
where the tents are gonna go,

625
00:35:13,428 --> 00:35:16,224
you know, which sleeping bags
are gonna go to which kids.

626
00:35:16,259 --> 00:35:19,296
Oh, no, uh, what do I do about
pads for them to sleep on?

627
00:35:19,331 --> 00:35:20,987
And I just think through
the whole process

628
00:35:21,022 --> 00:35:22,506
and I love it.

629
00:35:22,541 --> 00:35:25,302
I can sit in my sleeping bag
and think about that for hours.

630
00:35:25,337 --> 00:35:31,170
♪

631
00:35:31,205 --> 00:35:33,724
It is a hard day today.

632
00:35:33,759 --> 00:35:35,278
I missed
my daughter's birthday

633
00:35:35,312 --> 00:35:38,073
so that kind of sucked.

634
00:35:38,108 --> 00:35:40,041
She's getting really good
at reading.

635
00:35:40,075 --> 00:35:42,319
And, uh, God, I just want
to listen to her

636
00:35:42,354 --> 00:35:43,769
read a book to me.

637
00:35:43,803 --> 00:35:46,220
♪

638
00:35:46,254 --> 00:35:48,498
Other than that,
it's sunny, beautiful.

639
00:35:48,532 --> 00:35:50,879
Yeah, let's go fishing.

640
00:35:50,914 --> 00:35:52,778
'Cause that's kind of
the most exciting thing

641
00:35:52,812 --> 00:35:54,814
in my life right now.

642
00:35:54,849 --> 00:35:58,059
♪

643
00:35:58,093 --> 00:36:01,407
You know, I have food
in my food storage.

644
00:36:01,442 --> 00:36:03,237
I can get more food.

645
00:36:03,271 --> 00:36:04,997
All my physical needs
are met.

646
00:36:05,031 --> 00:36:06,688
There's nothing that is--

647
00:36:06,723 --> 00:36:08,103
That needs to be conquered.

648
00:36:08,138 --> 00:36:10,451
There's nothing other
than this--this absence,

649
00:36:10,485 --> 00:36:12,142
this void, this emptiness.

650
00:36:12,177 --> 00:36:13,385
That's the time.

651
00:36:13,419 --> 00:36:15,387
Time has now become my enemy.

652
00:36:15,421 --> 00:36:20,564
♪

653
00:36:20,599 --> 00:36:22,877
I'm really bored.

654
00:36:22,911 --> 00:36:26,570
Like on a scale from one
to ten, I'm, like, a 12.

655
00:36:26,605 --> 00:36:29,021
Well, the fish aren't biting.

656
00:36:29,055 --> 00:36:33,301
♪

657
00:36:33,336 --> 00:36:35,372
There's moments where you
just--you think what the heck

658
00:36:35,407 --> 00:36:36,822
am I doing out here?
This is stupid.

659
00:36:36,856 --> 00:36:38,617
I've got a life I love,
you know?

660
00:36:38,651 --> 00:36:40,446
The most important things
in the world to me

661
00:36:40,481 --> 00:36:41,620
are somewhere else.

662
00:36:41,654 --> 00:36:43,898
Why did I leave them?

663
00:36:43,932 --> 00:36:45,279
But the flip side of that is

664
00:36:45,313 --> 00:36:46,970
I don't want to embarrass them
or shame them.

665
00:36:47,004 --> 00:36:49,352
So you're kind of stuck.

666
00:36:49,386 --> 00:36:50,698
You're gonna stay.

667
00:36:50,732 --> 00:36:52,976
No wife wants to watch
her husband quit.

668
00:36:53,010 --> 00:36:55,185
♪

669
00:36:55,220 --> 00:36:57,325
I'm over this place.

670
00:36:57,360 --> 00:36:59,362
♪

671
00:37:01,156 --> 00:37:03,193
♪

672
00:37:03,228 --> 00:37:05,126
I mean, I got six fillets
still to eat.

673
00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:07,232
So it doesn't matter about
the fish, but...

674
00:37:07,266 --> 00:37:11,995
♪

675
00:37:12,029 --> 00:37:14,377
There's just nothing here,
just...

676
00:37:14,411 --> 00:37:16,241
♪

677
00:37:16,275 --> 00:37:19,347
Time. Just killing time.
Just wasting time.

678
00:37:19,382 --> 00:37:20,521
♪

679
00:37:20,555 --> 00:37:23,178
Waiting for something.

680
00:37:23,213 --> 00:37:25,353
I'm going nuts.

681
00:37:25,388 --> 00:37:27,735
I'm going absolutely nuts.

682
00:37:27,769 --> 00:37:30,910
♪

683
00:37:48,618 --> 00:37:55,072
♪

684
00:37:55,659 --> 00:37:59,905
I'm getting prepared to move
inside a little bit more.

685
00:38:01,216 --> 00:38:04,185
Use this shelter
to its fullest.

686
00:38:05,704 --> 00:38:08,707
So I'm gonna move
my drying rack over

687
00:38:08,741 --> 00:38:11,710
into the smoke
a little bit more.

688
00:38:11,744 --> 00:38:14,678
This is my life now.

689
00:38:14,713 --> 00:38:17,267
This is what I do with my time.

690
00:38:17,302 --> 00:38:21,409
And there is a lot of it.
Time.

691
00:38:21,444 --> 00:38:24,654
♪

692
00:38:25,965 --> 00:38:27,588
Sometimes you could
put movies in

693
00:38:27,622 --> 00:38:30,625
and watch four movies that
night to kind of tune out.

694
00:38:30,660 --> 00:38:32,282
You could touch base with
the kids.

695
00:38:32,317 --> 00:38:34,974
You know how their day was.
You know what's going on.

696
00:38:35,009 --> 00:38:37,114
But here there's nothing.

697
00:38:37,149 --> 00:38:40,704
♪

698
00:38:40,739 --> 00:38:42,948
So you've got this catch-22.

699
00:38:42,982 --> 00:38:44,570
'Cause if you sit here

700
00:38:44,605 --> 00:38:46,227
and you don't spend
your calories,

701
00:38:46,261 --> 00:38:47,504
then you get really
depressed

702
00:38:47,539 --> 00:38:48,988
and miss your family.

703
00:38:49,023 --> 00:38:52,026
But if you go do something,

704
00:38:52,060 --> 00:38:54,028
you're burning all
your calories.

705
00:38:54,062 --> 00:38:57,445
♪

706
00:38:57,480 --> 00:38:58,895
When I joined the military,

707
00:38:58,929 --> 00:39:00,414
you know, I was
an unattached, single guy.

708
00:39:00,448 --> 00:39:02,899
Now I've built this life
around these kids

709
00:39:02,933 --> 00:39:05,108
that are my universe,
my world, you know?

710
00:39:05,142 --> 00:39:08,042
And my--my wife that I
absolutely love and cherish.

711
00:39:08,076 --> 00:39:10,147
In my suit of armor that I'm
building up for this show,

712
00:39:10,182 --> 00:39:12,253
I never realized that that
was the biggest chink

713
00:39:12,287 --> 00:39:14,048
that was gonna get me.

714
00:39:15,152 --> 00:39:22,194
♪

715
00:39:27,751 --> 00:39:34,793
♪

716
00:39:40,523 --> 00:39:42,939
-I don't know what happened.
-I woke up this morning.

717
00:39:45,459 --> 00:39:47,288
Just trying to think about
things to film.

718
00:39:47,322 --> 00:39:48,910
Think about the routine.

719
00:39:48,945 --> 00:39:51,119
Go fishing, chop wood.

720
00:39:51,154 --> 00:39:53,087
♪

721
00:39:53,121 --> 00:39:54,847
I keep thinking
how long will you stay?

722
00:39:54,882 --> 00:39:57,436
How many days is good enough?

723
00:39:57,471 --> 00:39:59,127
And I pull out the picture
of those kids

724
00:39:59,162 --> 00:40:00,439
and I look at them

725
00:40:00,474 --> 00:40:03,891
and I think who the hell
cares about ego, pride?

726
00:40:03,925 --> 00:40:05,444
♪

727
00:40:05,479 --> 00:40:08,378
I miss knowing
how their day was.

728
00:40:08,413 --> 00:40:11,208
♪

729
00:40:11,243 --> 00:40:13,210
Anyways, I think I'm done.

730
00:40:13,245 --> 00:40:14,764
♪

731
00:40:16,490 --> 00:40:18,975
♪

732
00:40:20,425 --> 00:40:23,807
-It's Nicholls.
-I am officially tapping out.

733
00:40:24,636 --> 00:40:31,677
♪

734
00:40:34,231 --> 00:40:37,027
-Hi, Brady.
-Hello.

735
00:40:37,062 --> 00:40:38,304
I thought--I mean,

736
00:40:38,339 --> 00:40:40,134
I--I--I was really confident
coming into this.

737
00:40:40,168 --> 00:40:42,067
I thought it was going to be
about who could outlast

738
00:40:42,101 --> 00:40:43,620
the hunger and the--and
the cold and all that.

739
00:40:43,655 --> 00:40:46,416
But that stuff's easy; like
I'm warm, dry, comfortable.

740
00:40:46,451 --> 00:40:49,039
I got another week and a half's
worth of food stored up there.

741
00:40:49,074 --> 00:40:50,282
It's not that.

742
00:40:50,316 --> 00:40:55,252
It's just sitting here waiting
for time to pass

743
00:40:55,287 --> 00:40:57,945
while the--my little kids
are doing their thing

744
00:40:57,979 --> 00:41:00,154
somewhere else
and it's just driving me nuts.

745
00:41:00,188 --> 00:41:02,363
Screw the ego.
I don't care anymore, you know?

746
00:41:02,397 --> 00:41:04,296
I'm done--
done waiting for time.

747
00:41:04,330 --> 00:41:07,161
♪

748
00:41:07,195 --> 00:41:09,197
Originally I thought I was
doing this for the money.

749
00:41:09,232 --> 00:41:10,440
I thought I'd come out here

750
00:41:10,475 --> 00:41:11,924
and this money would be
life-changing.

751
00:41:11,959 --> 00:41:13,926
But it's just--
money comes and money goes.

752
00:41:13,961 --> 00:41:15,445
It doesn't change who I am.

753
00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:17,205
I'm not gonna sell myself
for it.

754
00:41:17,240 --> 00:41:18,828
The money would be great,
but I got a job.

755
00:41:18,862 --> 00:41:21,486
I do well.
I just--I don't need it.

756
00:41:21,520 --> 00:41:23,867
I miss being happy,
I miss being a dad,

757
00:41:23,902 --> 00:41:25,973
and I'm missing
my kids' life.

758
00:41:26,007 --> 00:41:29,494
And 100% being a husband
and being a dad

759
00:41:29,528 --> 00:41:31,496
are my joy in life.

760
00:41:31,530 --> 00:41:34,257
That's what I live for.
That's what I love.

761
00:41:34,291 --> 00:41:36,639
That's what makes life
worthwhile to me.

762
00:41:36,673 --> 00:41:38,226
So now I'm going home,

763
00:41:38,261 --> 00:41:40,297
and there's going to be some
little three-foot boogers

764
00:41:40,332 --> 00:41:41,540
that are gonna come running

765
00:41:41,575 --> 00:41:42,886
and I get to go
play with those kids.

766
00:41:42,921 --> 00:41:44,543
You know what I mean?
And life continues.

767
00:41:44,578 --> 00:41:46,683
♪

768
00:41:47,995 --> 00:41:49,548
You son of a bitch!

769
00:41:49,583 --> 00:41:51,654
A dirty fox got my rabbit.

770
00:41:51,688 --> 00:41:52,931
I'm gonna let him wear
himself out

771
00:41:52,965 --> 00:41:54,139
as much as I can here.

772
00:41:54,173 --> 00:41:55,381
Hope everything holds.

773
00:41:55,416 --> 00:41:56,935
No, no, no, no, no!

774
00:41:59,593 --> 00:42:02,388
It bit me, like, bad.

775
00:42:02,423 --> 00:42:06,427
Now I really want to kill
that wolverine.

776
00:42:12,571 --> 00:42:15,850
♪