♪
We're going to have to pull you
for medical reasons.
, man.
Man!
At least I can say I gave it hell.
It hurts to know it's over.
Yes!
Whoa.
Mm. Good fat.
I just have too much on the line out here.
I don't think I can tap out. I just don't have it in me.
Oh, my God.
I just got another squirrel!
It's so time for a woman to win this.
♪
In "Alone's" coldest location ever...
ten participants fight to survive the Arctic.
The Arctic is one of the most
physically demanding places on earth.
So freaking cold right now.
Battling subzero temperatures...
This climate's harsh, it's extreme,
it's mean. It's got teeth.
Get caught out here in a whiteout,
you're in trouble.
Vicious predators...
Heard something big moving back there.
It's me against the wolverine right now.
And isolation.
There's nothing to fill that void.
It's just you left alone with your thoughts.
How long will they endure?
House is on fire!
I'm scared, but I don't want to tap.
This is the most unforgiving landscape I've ever seen.
The last one standing wins.
This environment will strip away everything and anything
you thought you had.
♪
Hey, buddy.
What's up, little guy?
He's trying to steal a rabbit hide.
There he goes.
Oh, no.
He's getting too comfortable.
We'll see. He might be back tonight.
Wouldn't be surprised.
Stupid little marten.
♪
Hmm...
Inside it feels pretty nice and then I come out and, "Ahh!"
It's colder than I thought it was.
♪
I don't dislike the cold, but...
it's real tough.
The hardest thing has been feeling like I could
survive out here but not really being able to.
My weight loss is a problem.
I'm gonna go get a piece of meat
to cut up.
I have a protein overload here
but about out of fat.
I just have that one fish I caught.
I have to just eat it slowly
and stretch it out.
Oh, my gosh.
Look what happened.
Ahh!
♪
I left the ladder up. Ah!
What an idiot.
Shoot.
These are the mistakes you can't make
when you're the skinniest person out here.
The wolverine is back.
How much food have they stolen?
How many weeks have they taken from me?
♪
Ah, man.
Stupid wolverine.
All my defense systems don't work very well
when the ladder's up.
♪
Oh, my gosh. Just scraping the fat
off of everything.
So annoying. I can't believe I did that.
♪
Golly, this one they really pillaged.
They took all the food value out of it.
Look at all--they stripped all the skin off of it.
That's all I need is the skin,
Ugh. Can you believe it?
♪
Okay, I've decided I need to put
my belt on...
my pants that I'm wearing underneath my bibs
because my pants keep falling down.
But I wanted to see how many holes I have...
um...
shrunk.
And, um, it looks like...
from there...
to there I have gone down...
um...
Let's see. One, two, three,
four, five, six...
Potentially seven holes in my belt...
since I got here.
♪
I feel like I almost have, like,
multiple personalities inside me right now.
One that wants to go home, be home,
and is just over it, and then one who is kind of
the voice of reason just saying,
"Hey, you just got to be here for a bit longer.
Promise we'll get home and everything will be
just the way we want it.
♪
Yeah, I think I'm going to hang out for a minute
and then go out and check the gill net.
The weather sounds like it's trying to act up
a little bit out there.
♪
So as you can see,
conditions got a little bit rugged last night
and, uh...
still are.
We got a few inches of ice probably
on the end of my gillnet.
Still don't know how--
How easy it's going to be to get out of here
and, uh...
Hope--hope for the best.
♪
In a survival situation,
when you're flustered in a bad way,
when you have not eaten,
that's the most important time to eat.
When you are cold, that's the most important time
it is to get warm,
When you are distracted
by a storm or by whatever,
that's when you have to be most focused.
And that's survival,
The harder it gets, the harder you have to get.
♪
That is, um...
utterly disappointing.
The, uh...
end of my gill net...
near the fat end of the pole was locked into the ice
when I was pulling it out
and, um...
I just ripped the heck out of that end of it.
Right down the line. I don't know the extent
of the damage vet, but, uh...
I might have just totally ruined my gill net.
♪
I started thinking about a biscuit.
Just a biscuit.
How excited I would be
just to eat a biscuit.
Which then brought me to thinking about butter,
and I remembered butter.
And the taste of butter,
and I got so excited
about the idea of eating a biscuit with butter on it.
Oh, my God. The little things.
Just the little things.
♪
I got three squirrels yesterday.
But with the cold temperatures
I'm just really concerned about running out of food.
♪
I recognize that I'm at that point where I'm starting
to metabolize my muscle.
I don't have any fat left to give.
I'm holding out hope for ice fishing.
And I know that the land is going to continue
its trend of recognizing me and taking care of me,
and feeding me.
Certainly that means that the lake has some fish
it wants to offer up.
So I'm out here on the ice
and it is sunset.
Come winter, the things in the salmon family,
including lake trout become increasingly nocturnal.
So dusk is kind of a good time
for ice fishing.
And it's clearly...
like, over a foot thick.
Dang, it's really, really thick.
It's super, super thick ice.
Got my tackle, I got my rabbit's stomach...
for bait.
Well, guess the thing is just to pick a spot and go for it.
So I'm going to pick this spot.
♪
I don't know how good my chances
of getting through this ice are.
Yeah, it's impossible to say how thick it is,
'cause all I can judge by
is the closest crack.
If I can't get through to the fish...
I don't know what I can do.
All I have left is my snares.
♪
Please, please, please.
Oh, come on.
♪
Oh, man. It is getting super cold.
♪
It is getting dark.
Maybe if I had had a hatchet or an axe,
I could get through.
Please, please, please.
Oh, my God. My face is s
I think it's just not going to happen.
♪
Just don't think I'm going to make it with the tool I have
and how thick the ice is.
♪
The amount of work to get through this hole
versus the likely calories...
Not all that great an equation, really.
Really don't want to just, like, give up,
but it's just not worth the energy.
Gets you every time, the ol" Arctic.
♪
Completely iced in right now.
All that noise is crunchy ice on my parka and pants.
But...
got the lines in the water.
Hopefully it pays off.
Gill netting is out, so I decided to just go all in
with my hooks and ice fish.
I've baited up six lines with double hooks
and a chunk of intestine on each one.
And I'm still feeling pretty damn confident.
You know, I have cold soup that I got started last night
so it's not very well cooked right now.
And I have one last piece of smoked fish.
So what I think I'm going to do
is have the soup just before I go to bed.
♪
Before I came out here,
I had a conversation with my grandfather.
Him and Natalie are my two biggest fans
out here right now, and there's some words
ringing in my head that Grandpa said that just...
are heavy in my mind right now.
He said, "All you have to do is not quit."
And...
he's right. That's...
that's what it comes down to,
and, uh...
I gotta tell you, Grandpa, I love you very much, man.
You are...
you are a big part of the rean
of why I've been able to make it this far.
You're definitely a big part of the reason
of why I'm going to continue on.
♪
I want to do a lot of important things
with this money.
It would be awesome to be able to just take off
for a couple of weeks and go see family.
And I'd like to be able to do that
at least once a season 'cause I have all these nieces
and nephews that are growing up
and I don't really get to see them.
So, that's a goal of mine.
And winning this thing would make that happen.
♪
All right, soup is hot.
Tastes like fish.
Holy..
Ah! I can't--
♪
Ugh!.
♪
Oh, God.
♪
Uh...
No...
♪
There it is.
$1/2 million up in smoke.
♪
Oh, man.
♪
My bedding caught on fire.
And that was the end of it. I couldn't put it out.
I didn't have water.
The tarp caught on fire, and that was that.
It's too much dry grass and bedding in there.
♪
I'm.
Oh, man. I'm out of here.
♪
Hey, this is Nathan.
My shelter caught fire in a big way.
I'm not hurt, but my shelter
is in 15 foot flames right now.
♪
And I'm in exposed situation.
♪
That was probably the bear can--the bear--
I don't know what that was.
But I gotta move more away from this fire.
♪
It's nighttime, and they can't fly the helicopter at night,
and there's no way to get here by boat or any other way.
So I have to survive the night out here
and basically use the blaze as a heat source.
♪
This really sucks.
I'm gonna go stand near the fire.
♪
Ahh,
I don't think sunrise is till around 8:00 a.m. or...
or so these days. Could be later.
So I've got at least a seven hour wait.
And this isn't going to burn for seven hours.
And it's only going to get colder.
♪
I have my axe. I have my boots.
And I have this big fire,
but a lot of my required safety equipment is gone.
What do you do?
♪
Okay, so I am beginning construction
of a shelter.
So I am in the process
of putting together some tripods.
I'll put a ridge pole across the top of those.
And then hopefully there's enough trusses
in this fire left to salvage as the back of a lean-to.
♪
Hey, this should be good.
Ah, my feet are getting cold.
Super sad.
God, I lost some precious items in that fire.
Including a pretty sweet future...
that I'm going to have to work for
in a different way now.
♪
72 days.
Burns up in half an hour.
♪
It's so cold.
♪
I knew it was an emergency situation and I needed--
I needed to alert you guys.
It was a no-brainer.
Um...
That's just...
just the nature of the beast when you're standing inside
of a shelter that's burning down around you.
Um, it needed to happen.
♪
I did not see myself leaving like this.
Only one person wins a prize big enough
to change the rest of their life.
And I'm having a real difficult time realizing that
I am going home with nothing.
I made some pretty massive plans
that would have been very well helped with that money.
♪
But going into this,
I very much wanted to have
an experience out here of engagement.
Whatever it is you're doing, if it makes you present
and gives you something to care about,
then that's what's important.
Happiness is not circumstantial.
It's your attitude and what
you're going to decide to do with it.
And the only currency that we have is gratitude.
♪
And if you don't have gratitude in your life
you better figure out how to get it
'cause this is as good as it gets.
♪
When I go back,
I'm going to make those...
bone marrow--I'm going to get bone marrow...
and I think 80%
cacao chocolate,
cut it into nice little slices and melt--
Put some melted chocolate around the outside.
Oh, man, that's going to be good.
That's going to be my signature treat.
Nobody's going to know how I did it.
It's going to be so good.
Don't steal my idea.
Uhh...
Mm, I thought about that this morning.
Couldn't stop thinking about it.
Almost had to hit the red button
just to go try it out.
♪
A few days ago, a wolverine came back
and ate a big side out of that fish,
which really sucks.
Predators are bad here. It's really tough for me.
I can't do anything about 'em.
I thought I had enough food to be out here a long time.
That was my dietary knowledge lacking.
It's looking pretty grim. Like, I don't know
what options I have.
But what can I do?
Quit?
Here we are. Another unproductive day
ice fishing is our prediction, but...
you never know.
It's worth a shot.
I'm gonna try another trick today.
I'm just making it up. I don't know if it works.
But I'm gonna...
shine my flashlight into the hole.
Now that it's dark all around, shine it right on my bait.
And maybe...
it'll draw a fish over, huh?
Yeah...
Glow...
Then...
I don't know if this will provide any light
into the depths, but we're going to try.
Just drop it in there.
Plink.
I feel like I have the skill to continue.
And I have the will to continue.
But I don't have the body fat
because I didn't know the moose wasn't a sustainable
amount of food, and I don't know exactly
in what way that fish are better but I'm guessing
they're a better fat source because,
you know, there's, like, a lot of native tribes
and stuff living exclusively off fish.
♪
I think my flashlight's not going to do
any good I hate to say.
Not bright enough.
♪
Unbelievable.
Un-be-lieve-a-ble.
That is energy being wasted right there.
Maybe I should just go home.
Ahh.
♪
It is interesting what hunger does.
I have been boiling a lovely little mixed soup
of whatever I could find
that actually had some amount of edibility.
So I've got this pot going.
It's got several squirrel tails,
a bunch of...
rabbit front feet and a whole bunch of bones.
But I thought you might enjoy watching me eat
my weird ass soup.
I gotta get creative with edible things
I have on hand, 'cause not eating
is starting to become an issue for sure.
Here's a rabbit paw.
I assume I'm getting some amount of calorie from it.
Every single day I'm hungry,
but every single day I make it
is another amazing day.
♪
There's no part of me that wants to leave.
I freaking love this place.
I just don't want to starve any more in it.
All right, let's get out and check my rabbit snares.
♪
Striking out on fishing is affecting my confidence.
I'm committed to being here as long as possible
and that means making use of every food resource
I possibly can.
But there's just nothing to work with,
which is not good.
♪
Fingers crossed. I really need those traps
to have some rabbits in 'em.
So there's nothing here.
That is really frustrating.
♪
So I've been sitting
and thinking.
I know how freaking skinny I am.
I know it's not sustainable.
So I know I have
a really profound choice.
What do I want to give to myself
and what do I want to honor most.
The idea of staying longer because I might have a chance
at winning, and a chance at a pile of money.
Is that what I want?
$500,000 would change my life profoundly.
Growing up, we were always really poor and my mom
poured herself into being an amazing parent for me
and I know it was a struggle.
And I really wanna give back to my mama.
There's a big part of me that's thinking,
"I need to stay.”
But, you know, I'm not going to lie,
it's getting harder.
I'm freaking starving,
and I have been asking so much of my body.
And it has been doing everything I ask of it.
My body has given its all.
And if it's getting to a point where it feels
there is going to be long term damage,
that's a point past which I don't want to push it.
♪
It's a lot of back-and-for thing.
It's a lot to think about, but that's where I'm at.
♪
Last night my mind was very active.
Thinking about all the...
Tough hand I was dealt.
I had a lot of weight to make up
on everybody else and then
I feel like I almost did.
Then the wolverine struck.
Stole...
who knows how many pounds of fat.
It's hard to estimate how much they ate,
but at least probably 15 pounds in total.
And that was just tough luck for me.
Then the fact that my fishing spot was tough.
♪
Tough hand.
♪
I feel a great urgency.
I don't have the body fat.
I can't protect my meat.
I'm helpless right now.
The fact that I was-- feel like I was so close
to making it work makes it that much tougher.
At this point, barring a miracle,
I'm just done.
♪
Hi, everyone,
It's a little emotional.
It's just so much...
mixed emotion of, like, joy and sorrow right now.
I've loved being here with every fiber of my being.
And I don't really want to leave, but,
my body's done.
And I'm just more and more aware of that
as time goes on, like, all along.
And looking at my body, I can just see
how much it's given,
and know that it has given
all that I want to ask it to right now.
♪
Today's my birthday,
and it felt like the most amazing gift
I could give myself to put myself somewhere
where I have warmth and food
and the ability to care for myself.
It's hard to describe how sad I am.
I don't want to leave.
I could have done really beautiful things
that really helped the world, myself, and my loved ones
with the money.
But for me,
tapping out is an ending and a beginning
wrapped up in one.
It's an ending of what has been the most amazing
and enriching experience of my life.
I'm absolutely changed by my time here.
I've never felt so deeply connected
to any place on earth in my life.
What a thing to get to experience.
I've never been so aware
of how all humans up to a couple hundred years ago
and every wild animal lives.
We live in this culture that puts winning
and puts money on top of everything,
so to make a choice to let go of the idea of that
in favor of self care, that's the message
that I want to leave here with.
It's the beginning of a new chapter in my life.
And I'm so excited for what comes next.
♪
Okay, let's see about this.
♪
Holy cow.
Oh, my goodness.
Whoo-hoo-hoo!
Yeah!
All right!
Whoo!
Look at that pike!
Selfie.
Hey!
Oof.
It's cool. I didn't realize I had
a selfie stick until just now.
Whee!
I'm in the Arctic!
Probably the last contestant
to realize he had a selfie stick.
♪
Some fish soup for lunch.
What a difference a fish can make, eh?
Should be good broth this time.
That guy had a lot of fat on him.
Which is pretty cool.
This is what we do while we wait for a med check.
The team's coming.
I think that they're concerned about me.
So I've been thinking all night about what I'm going to say
to them to try to convince them that I'm fine.
Really don't want to lose any more weight.
I'm gonna just eat as much of the fatty stuff as I can.
See where that gets me.
Not bad. Not bad at all.
Well, here they come.
Let's go to see.
♪
Need to eat a little more.
♪
How are you feeling right now?
I'm doing pretty good.
I'm, like, one of the tallest,
thinnest...
but also strong people that I know.
Like, I know other people that are my height
but they're pretty weak.
So it's like, I'm actually really fit
when I'm lean and all that.
I think I can-- I literally think
I'm gonna be-- I can healthily be lighter
than anyone else out here.
I feel as good as any day I've been--
You know, I feel mentally crisp.
I feel good.
Initially when I showed up here I was like,
"Man, I really think if I can make it to the end of January,
January 20th..." That was my goal.
You know, like, I think people will probably quit by then.
I don't know if I'll be able to physically make it, but...
Oh, my God!
Janahlee, what?
-Oh, my goodness! -You won the game!
Oh, wow!
-I love you. -Oh, hallelujah.
I can't believe it! I really can't believe it!
What? Ahh!
-You did it. -I can't believe it.
-That's wild. -You taste like fish.
I just was eating dinner ea--lunch.
What, man?
That's so crazy.
-Wow. -You did it!
-I got more in the tank! -I got...
Oh, man, Janahlee. Wow!
I can't believe it.
Oh, my goodness.
I don't even have to miss Christmas.
-I'm so happy. -No!
This is so nice.
Oh, man. That's so weird.
No, this is where I hung the hide.
The moose hide.
You got a moose!
I got a moose. Look.
We could have mounted it.
Jordan, that's wild.
You are a wild person.
I killed a wolverine, too, with a hatchet.
What?
-Uh-huh. -You, like, threw it at it?
It's all on video.
-Oh, my God. -My floor's got moose on it.
-Look at these. -Do I have room?
-We could. -Yeah, bring the kids.
I can't believe it. That's so weird.
That is... I did not expect-- Ahh!
♪
Winning is a life-changing experience
for obvious reasons.
It means that I have freedom financially.
This is enough of a boost to help me move
in a whole different direction.
One that's more positive and fulfilling.
I value my family.
This experience gives me opportunity
to be a better father.
It's very important for me
to stay connected to my time in the Arctic.
I'll always miss it. It's, like, a part of me.
♪
In the modern world we're so distracted.
You don't ever have to really think deeply
but being out here,
you're just so connected to real life.
You can delve into your soul.
It just makes you feel alive.
And I think if I could have that in the modern world,
that would be really positive.
It just feels like a more real way of life.
It's much simpler.
It's just how we're meant to be.
♪