1 00:00:12,346 --> 00:00:15,315 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:15,382 --> 00:00:21,622 ♪ 3 00:00:21,688 --> 00:00:23,457 - Oh, man. 4 00:00:23,524 --> 00:00:25,459 I'm not feeling well at all. 5 00:00:25,459 --> 00:00:29,096 I realized today that my body could not be pushed 6 00:00:29,096 --> 00:00:30,697 as much as I thought it could. 7 00:00:30,697 --> 00:00:32,900 So I'm gonna double up on my food. 8 00:00:32,966 --> 00:00:34,501 I'm so full right now. 9 00:00:34,568 --> 00:00:36,536 - I'll take a little quick walk around here. 10 00:00:36,637 --> 00:00:38,472 I set out to adapt to this land. 11 00:00:38,538 --> 00:00:41,108 And I've achieved that. 12 00:00:41,174 --> 00:00:42,676 Squirrel. 13 00:00:42,743 --> 00:00:44,778 Knock on wood, I'm feeling really strong 14 00:00:44,878 --> 00:00:46,079 in this game now. 15 00:00:46,146 --> 00:00:49,149 - I stabbed myself in the arm. 16 00:00:49,216 --> 00:00:52,119 I pulled about 1 1/2 inch piece of wood out. 17 00:00:52,185 --> 00:00:53,554 Oh. 18 00:00:53,620 --> 00:00:55,422 I probably shouldn't have done that. 19 00:00:55,489 --> 00:00:57,891 I've got all the other stuff out of it, I'm sure. 20 00:00:57,991 --> 00:01:00,294 - I want to stay out here for as long as I can 21 00:01:00,394 --> 00:01:01,495 and push myself. 22 00:01:01,562 --> 00:01:03,096 [gasps] It's a giant pike. 23 00:01:03,163 --> 00:01:05,432 The days to push are coming. I know. 24 00:01:05,499 --> 00:01:06,466 Oh! 25 00:01:06,533 --> 00:01:07,868 He just took my lure. 26 00:01:07,935 --> 00:01:09,803 - This is disgusting. Ugh. 27 00:01:09,870 --> 00:01:12,005 This was my food, like, for the next ten days. 28 00:01:12,072 --> 00:01:13,206 Maggots. 29 00:01:13,273 --> 00:01:15,175 I don't know what to do now. 30 00:01:15,275 --> 00:01:17,945 [sighs] 31 00:01:17,945 --> 00:01:24,351 ♪ 32 00:01:24,418 --> 00:01:27,220 - I'm gonna do this, man. I'm gonna do this. 33 00:01:27,220 --> 00:01:29,489 I'm gonna fight this thing out to the last breath. 34 00:01:29,590 --> 00:01:33,560 ♪ 35 00:01:33,627 --> 00:01:35,829 - OK. 36 00:01:35,896 --> 00:01:38,298 Game on. [bear growls] 37 00:01:38,298 --> 00:01:39,266 - [groans] 38 00:01:39,333 --> 00:01:40,801 - I got him. 39 00:01:40,867 --> 00:01:43,136 narrator: In "Alone's" most remote location yet... 40 00:01:43,236 --> 00:01:45,205 - Yes! 41 00:01:45,272 --> 00:01:48,442 narrator: Ten participants set out to survive at all costs... 42 00:01:48,508 --> 00:01:50,711 - [groans] - My goal is stay alive. 43 00:01:50,777 --> 00:01:52,279 ♪ 44 00:01:52,346 --> 00:01:54,314 - [inhales sharply] Ah! 45 00:01:54,381 --> 00:01:56,850 narrator: Battling extreme isolation... 46 00:01:56,950 --> 00:01:58,418 - There is no camera crews. 47 00:01:58,418 --> 00:02:00,520 You are really alone. [sighs] 48 00:02:00,587 --> 00:02:02,055 - It'll eat at you, tear you up. 49 00:02:02,055 --> 00:02:04,057 - God, why? - It's a battle. 50 00:02:04,124 --> 00:02:05,359 Nobody ever comes out the same. 51 00:02:05,425 --> 00:02:06,460 - Oh, man. 52 00:02:06,460 --> 00:02:07,694 - It'd be impossible to. 53 00:02:07,694 --> 00:02:09,596 narrator: And fierce predators. 54 00:02:09,663 --> 00:02:13,667 - A big bear is right outside my shelter. 55 00:02:13,734 --> 00:02:16,236 - Predators like that damn sure gonna kill you. 56 00:02:16,303 --> 00:02:18,538 - Please don't rip my face off. [animal screeches] 57 00:02:18,638 --> 00:02:20,941 - He bit the hell out of me. 58 00:02:20,941 --> 00:02:22,709 narrator: They'll endure merciless wind... 59 00:02:22,776 --> 00:02:25,545 - It's been over 60 hours, and it has not let up. 60 00:02:25,545 --> 00:02:28,281 - I can hear the trees falling down around me. 61 00:02:28,348 --> 00:02:30,350 narrator: And bitter cold. 62 00:02:30,417 --> 00:02:33,787 - This whole place has turned into a frozen hell. 63 00:02:33,854 --> 00:02:35,489 narrator: Last one standing... 64 00:02:35,589 --> 00:02:37,858 - It's a moose. Wow. 65 00:02:37,858 --> 00:02:39,393 - Whoo-hoo-hoo-hoo! 66 00:02:39,459 --> 00:02:41,395 - No, no. 67 00:02:41,461 --> 00:02:43,030 narrator: Wins. 68 00:02:43,096 --> 00:02:50,070 ♪ 69 00:03:09,056 --> 00:03:10,390 - That's it. 70 00:03:10,457 --> 00:03:12,392 I've taken all I can stand. 71 00:03:12,459 --> 00:03:14,895 And I just can't stand no more. 72 00:03:15,829 --> 00:03:18,498 These rats are getting on my nerves. 73 00:03:18,565 --> 00:03:20,634 Kept me up late last night. 74 00:03:22,335 --> 00:03:25,238 I set up a prop stick and string. 75 00:03:25,305 --> 00:03:28,975 And they were chewing on the top of my damn pan. 76 00:03:29,076 --> 00:03:32,145 And so it was really loud. [imitates screeching] 77 00:03:32,212 --> 00:03:35,348 And whenever I'd hear that, I'd pull the string. 78 00:03:37,751 --> 00:03:41,621 And it actually caught me four rats. 79 00:03:41,688 --> 00:03:44,891 I guess I'm gonna skin and gut them, cook 'em. 80 00:03:44,991 --> 00:03:47,894 [soft music] 81 00:03:47,894 --> 00:03:49,696 I think these are the smallest animals 82 00:03:49,763 --> 00:03:52,499 I've ever skinned in my life. 83 00:03:52,566 --> 00:03:56,536 I think I won the rat war for now. 84 00:03:56,636 --> 00:04:00,140 I was told to be thankful for everything. 85 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:04,778 One little cleaned rat. 86 00:04:04,878 --> 00:04:08,682 I'm thankful for being here. This is a dream come true. 87 00:04:08,748 --> 00:04:11,017 Wish I had more food. 88 00:04:11,017 --> 00:04:12,419 ♪ 89 00:04:12,486 --> 00:04:15,589 Two down, two to go. 90 00:04:15,655 --> 00:04:17,224 I tell you what, by the end of this, 91 00:04:17,290 --> 00:04:19,693 I'm gonna be a rat skinning expert. 92 00:04:19,793 --> 00:04:21,294 That squirrel was good. 93 00:04:21,361 --> 00:04:23,597 Make a tasty little snack. 94 00:04:23,663 --> 00:04:24,798 ♪ 95 00:04:24,865 --> 00:04:27,601 That's three. 96 00:04:27,667 --> 00:04:30,837 Getting the little damn thing started 97 00:04:30,904 --> 00:04:34,541 is the hardest [bleep] part here, 98 00:04:34,541 --> 00:04:36,676 pulling out his fur. 99 00:04:38,712 --> 00:04:41,014 There's four little skinned out rats. 100 00:04:41,114 --> 00:04:43,950 Two of these guys will be cooking today. 101 00:04:44,017 --> 00:04:46,620 Mm, rat brains. 102 00:04:47,621 --> 00:04:49,556 Skewered a rat. 103 00:04:49,623 --> 00:04:55,729 ♪ 104 00:04:55,829 --> 00:04:57,731 Eating rats... 105 00:04:57,831 --> 00:05:00,100 ♪ 106 00:05:00,167 --> 00:05:03,069 It's basically a mind over matter thing. 107 00:05:05,972 --> 00:05:09,543 If you don't mind, it don't matter. 108 00:05:09,609 --> 00:05:12,345 One day, I hope I can sit down with my son 109 00:05:12,345 --> 00:05:15,348 and do some more bushcraft. 110 00:05:15,415 --> 00:05:17,217 I want to be able to do something with him, 111 00:05:17,217 --> 00:05:20,053 even go shoot a bow. 112 00:05:20,153 --> 00:05:23,590 Of course, he can't do that right now. 113 00:05:23,657 --> 00:05:27,060 I want to take him out, get his first deer. 114 00:05:27,060 --> 00:05:30,297 It's a big moment in a boy's life. 115 00:05:30,297 --> 00:05:33,466 It's a big moment in a daddy's life. 116 00:05:33,533 --> 00:05:35,302 Some things will be harder for him. 117 00:05:35,368 --> 00:05:37,304 Some things will be easier for him. 118 00:05:37,304 --> 00:05:41,141 But he doesn't have a tap out button. 119 00:05:41,141 --> 00:05:42,576 That's why I'm here, 120 00:05:42,676 --> 00:05:45,745 to make the rest of his life a lot easier. 121 00:05:45,745 --> 00:05:47,948 All I have to do is win. 122 00:05:49,983 --> 00:05:52,118 Another whole rat. 123 00:05:53,820 --> 00:05:56,590 And I've got two put away. 124 00:05:56,656 --> 00:05:58,425 [burps] 125 00:06:00,994 --> 00:06:03,897 [dramatic music] 126 00:06:03,964 --> 00:06:10,937 ♪ 127 00:06:15,108 --> 00:06:18,745 - I was kind of half asleep, laying in my bed, 128 00:06:18,745 --> 00:06:21,548 and a critter ran over my arm. 129 00:06:21,615 --> 00:06:24,117 That's right. It was a mouse. 130 00:06:24,184 --> 00:06:25,585 You know what he was doing? 131 00:06:25,652 --> 00:06:28,855 Staring at me like this. 132 00:06:28,855 --> 00:06:33,560 Just, with his beady little black eyes. 133 00:06:34,894 --> 00:06:37,264 And I've named him Scotty. 134 00:06:38,265 --> 00:06:40,200 Look at this. 135 00:06:40,267 --> 00:06:42,702 This is the sweater that my wife knit me. 136 00:06:42,702 --> 00:06:44,738 And he chewed the hell out of it. 137 00:06:44,838 --> 00:06:46,106 Like, that's not good. 138 00:06:46,106 --> 00:06:48,842 He's going to chew my sleeping bag, right? 139 00:06:48,908 --> 00:06:51,378 Man, this guy's dead. It's on. 140 00:06:51,478 --> 00:06:54,714 [tense music] 141 00:06:54,781 --> 00:06:59,519 It's time to put together my deadfall mouse trap. 142 00:06:59,586 --> 00:07:01,154 ♪ 143 00:07:01,221 --> 00:07:05,025 Find the flattest side of the rock. 144 00:07:05,091 --> 00:07:07,060 That should do the trick. 145 00:07:07,060 --> 00:07:08,295 OK. 146 00:07:08,361 --> 00:07:10,063 Now I need my little trigger mechanism. 147 00:07:10,130 --> 00:07:13,333 I need a thin piece of wood. 148 00:07:13,433 --> 00:07:17,103 So far, this challenge has been quite enjoyable. 149 00:07:17,103 --> 00:07:21,107 But every day there was a challenging moment. 150 00:07:21,107 --> 00:07:23,743 And I just have ten items to survive 151 00:07:23,810 --> 00:07:25,745 in a harsh environment. 152 00:07:25,745 --> 00:07:28,415 So when a mouse starts impacting your ability 153 00:07:28,515 --> 00:07:30,583 to stay warm and wrecking your stuff, 154 00:07:30,650 --> 00:07:33,019 I've got to get rid of this little mouse. 155 00:07:33,019 --> 00:07:35,255 ♪ 156 00:07:35,322 --> 00:07:37,257 All right, let's see. 157 00:07:37,257 --> 00:07:40,660 Set this bad boy, 158 00:07:40,660 --> 00:07:42,729 just like so. 159 00:07:42,829 --> 00:07:43,997 ♪ 160 00:07:44,064 --> 00:07:46,232 Don't move, Mister. 161 00:07:46,299 --> 00:07:47,500 ♪ 162 00:07:47,500 --> 00:07:48,501 OK. 163 00:07:48,568 --> 00:07:50,303 We have it set. 164 00:07:50,370 --> 00:07:52,505 I just need some bait. 165 00:07:52,572 --> 00:07:57,577 It's mouse wars with Alan and Scotty. 166 00:07:57,677 --> 00:07:59,579 Well, let's get to some fishing. 167 00:07:59,679 --> 00:08:02,582 [upbeat music] 168 00:08:02,649 --> 00:08:05,018 ♪ 169 00:08:05,085 --> 00:08:06,853 Guys, big news. 170 00:08:06,953 --> 00:08:10,423 This is the new and improved lake trout baby. 171 00:08:10,490 --> 00:08:13,460 And it's pike proof. 172 00:08:13,526 --> 00:08:14,461 See that? 173 00:08:14,527 --> 00:08:15,628 I didn't have a-- 174 00:08:15,695 --> 00:08:17,697 my leader only came to about there. 175 00:08:17,697 --> 00:08:19,032 So the pike grabbed it. 176 00:08:19,099 --> 00:08:21,034 And he got really sharp teeth, so my line was-- 177 00:08:21,101 --> 00:08:22,502 so went to set the hook, it cut it. 178 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:26,106 So now, lake trout baby two, pike proof. 179 00:08:26,106 --> 00:08:28,908 He's got two smaller razor sharp hooks. 180 00:08:28,975 --> 00:08:30,744 And the body is smaller, 181 00:08:30,810 --> 00:08:32,645 so it's gonna get swallowed up more. 182 00:08:32,712 --> 00:08:36,983 I just need to get a strike, or two, or three, you know. 183 00:08:38,551 --> 00:08:40,920 On a cold day like this, somehow, I doubt it. 184 00:08:40,987 --> 00:08:44,224 But you just never know. 185 00:08:45,859 --> 00:08:47,761 I think if you want to just focus on the negative 186 00:08:47,827 --> 00:08:50,330 out here, it would be really easy. 187 00:08:50,430 --> 00:08:53,900 But my wife said to me, "Al, find something each morning 188 00:08:53,900 --> 00:08:58,104 to be thankful for, gifts that the land gives you." 189 00:08:58,104 --> 00:09:00,206 Even though it sounds kind of corny like that, 190 00:09:00,273 --> 00:09:03,176 but every time I fish, it's just so gorgeous 191 00:09:03,276 --> 00:09:05,512 seeing all the wildlife, the birds, 192 00:09:05,578 --> 00:09:07,080 and memorizing their songs. 193 00:09:07,147 --> 00:09:09,182 And that's a gift. 194 00:09:09,249 --> 00:09:11,785 Come on, lake trout. 195 00:09:11,851 --> 00:09:14,421 Let's try one over here. 196 00:09:14,421 --> 00:09:16,856 And even though I didn't get that pike, 197 00:09:16,856 --> 00:09:18,758 man, it was a gift. 198 00:09:18,825 --> 00:09:20,260 I'm never gonna forget that. 199 00:09:20,326 --> 00:09:22,095 It was pretty cool. 200 00:09:22,162 --> 00:09:23,897 Geez, that's a good long gust. 201 00:09:23,897 --> 00:09:25,532 Holy moly. 202 00:09:29,969 --> 00:09:31,404 Oh. 203 00:09:31,471 --> 00:09:32,705 [tense music] 204 00:09:32,705 --> 00:09:34,441 Right up there. 205 00:09:34,507 --> 00:09:35,942 ♪ 206 00:09:38,311 --> 00:09:40,980 ♪ 207 00:09:41,080 --> 00:09:44,017 I just heard a bunch of grouse flying up here. 208 00:09:44,017 --> 00:09:46,553 ♪ 209 00:09:46,619 --> 00:09:48,154 These things have been my nemesis, though. 210 00:09:48,221 --> 00:09:49,856 I can never see them. 211 00:09:49,923 --> 00:09:52,459 ♪ 212 00:09:52,525 --> 00:09:54,561 Where did they go? 213 00:09:54,627 --> 00:09:59,699 ♪ 214 00:09:59,699 --> 00:10:02,335 Here, I see one. 215 00:10:02,435 --> 00:10:04,204 He's spread far. 216 00:10:07,307 --> 00:10:14,314 ♪ 217 00:10:27,794 --> 00:10:30,697 [dramatic music] 218 00:10:30,763 --> 00:10:34,767 ♪ 219 00:10:34,834 --> 00:10:38,004 - Oh, God, yeah. [laughs] 220 00:10:38,071 --> 00:10:39,839 Oh, my God. 221 00:10:39,906 --> 00:10:41,941 That drilled him. 222 00:10:42,041 --> 00:10:44,344 [laughs] What? 223 00:10:50,583 --> 00:10:53,520 Wow, what a treat, man. 224 00:10:54,587 --> 00:10:58,758 These things have been my nemesis. 225 00:10:58,825 --> 00:11:00,093 Oh, finally. 226 00:11:00,193 --> 00:11:03,329 I finally caught up with one. 227 00:11:03,429 --> 00:11:04,697 Whoo! 228 00:11:04,697 --> 00:11:06,132 Yeah, they've been-- 229 00:11:06,232 --> 00:11:09,836 I've been pretty frustrated hunting these guys 230 00:11:09,903 --> 00:11:15,208 because they just have been so evasive for me. 231 00:11:15,275 --> 00:11:16,976 And just, I can't see them. 232 00:11:17,076 --> 00:11:19,879 And by the time I know that they're there, 233 00:11:19,946 --> 00:11:21,915 they're already flying away because that's the only reason 234 00:11:21,981 --> 00:11:23,783 I know that they were there. 235 00:11:23,783 --> 00:11:26,219 Yeah, super pumped. 236 00:11:27,654 --> 00:11:30,456 We got a little chicken for tomorrow. 237 00:11:30,456 --> 00:11:33,459 [dramatic music] 238 00:11:33,459 --> 00:11:40,466 ♪ 239 00:11:56,316 --> 00:11:57,951 - Good morning. 240 00:11:58,017 --> 00:12:00,453 Just going out for fishing now. 241 00:12:13,499 --> 00:12:17,704 The food I have, I can stretch it for like five, six days. 242 00:12:19,906 --> 00:12:21,274 I want to go hunting. 243 00:12:21,341 --> 00:12:24,244 I want to try hard to get a moose for the winter. 244 00:12:24,310 --> 00:12:28,147 And for that, I really need to eat a lot. 245 00:12:28,214 --> 00:12:30,783 Otherwise, I walk, and I'm tripping. 246 00:12:30,850 --> 00:12:34,621 I don't want to get hurt and be pulled out. 247 00:12:34,687 --> 00:12:35,989 ♪ 248 00:12:36,055 --> 00:12:37,657 [bleep] 249 00:12:46,733 --> 00:12:48,668 And I was depending just on active fishing 250 00:12:48,668 --> 00:12:50,403 with my rod and reel. 251 00:12:53,072 --> 00:12:54,641 We need $1/2 million. 252 00:12:54,707 --> 00:12:55,942 It's what I want. 253 00:12:55,942 --> 00:12:58,745 So fishing is crucial. 254 00:12:58,811 --> 00:13:00,280 But I grew up in a fishing village, 255 00:13:00,346 --> 00:13:03,282 so the odds are in my favor here. 256 00:13:03,349 --> 00:13:06,386 [vocalizing] 257 00:13:20,066 --> 00:13:21,267 [laughs] 258 00:13:21,334 --> 00:13:23,736 ♪ Fish 259 00:13:23,836 --> 00:13:26,839 [vocalizing] 260 00:13:36,783 --> 00:13:38,051 ♪ 261 00:13:38,151 --> 00:13:41,621 If I get some more fish and more small game, 262 00:13:41,688 --> 00:13:44,257 then I can chase the big game 263 00:13:44,324 --> 00:13:45,892 because that's the ticket. 264 00:13:45,992 --> 00:13:49,862 At that point, the possibility of winning, it's big. 265 00:13:49,929 --> 00:13:51,898 ♪ 266 00:13:51,898 --> 00:13:54,200 Oh, my God. 267 00:13:54,267 --> 00:13:56,869 Yes, yes. 268 00:13:56,936 --> 00:13:59,505 ♪ 269 00:14:01,240 --> 00:14:04,744 ♪ 270 00:14:04,744 --> 00:14:07,246 Got a pike, my friend. 271 00:14:07,313 --> 00:14:09,982 I got a pike. 272 00:14:09,982 --> 00:14:12,618 Beautiful. 273 00:14:12,618 --> 00:14:14,220 ♪ 274 00:14:14,220 --> 00:14:16,856 We got fish. 275 00:14:16,923 --> 00:14:19,659 It's fish head soup day. 276 00:14:19,659 --> 00:14:23,062 Fish head soup, fish head soup. 277 00:14:24,364 --> 00:14:27,533 If you ration in the point that you're not productive, 278 00:14:27,633 --> 00:14:29,702 it just doesn't make sense 279 00:14:29,769 --> 00:14:32,905 because if you're weak, you don't go hunting. 280 00:14:32,905 --> 00:14:35,508 If you don't go hunting, you don't get food. 281 00:14:35,508 --> 00:14:38,378 But if I eat now, feel better, 282 00:14:38,478 --> 00:14:39,679 then I'm gonna go hunting, 283 00:14:39,746 --> 00:14:42,482 or I'm gonna go fishing. 284 00:14:42,548 --> 00:14:47,854 I got to protect this food because everyone wants it. 285 00:14:47,954 --> 00:14:51,190 Getting big game is very important, 286 00:14:51,257 --> 00:14:53,793 but you have to use a lot of energy to get to it, 287 00:14:53,860 --> 00:14:56,496 so I need to eat. 288 00:14:56,562 --> 00:14:58,531 There we go. 289 00:14:58,631 --> 00:15:01,434 ♪ 290 00:15:05,471 --> 00:15:08,741 And let's have some food. 291 00:15:15,348 --> 00:15:18,918 Mm, rich, warm broth. 292 00:15:26,259 --> 00:15:28,661 [animal chirping] 293 00:15:28,728 --> 00:15:31,230 ♪ 294 00:15:31,297 --> 00:15:32,698 What's that? 295 00:15:32,765 --> 00:15:38,738 ♪ 296 00:15:46,946 --> 00:15:53,853 ♪ 297 00:15:53,953 --> 00:15:55,154 Here it is. 298 00:15:55,221 --> 00:15:56,756 [marten screeches] 299 00:15:56,823 --> 00:15:58,224 [impact] 300 00:16:04,697 --> 00:16:06,933 [dramatic music] 301 00:16:07,033 --> 00:16:09,869 - Here it is. [marten screeches] 302 00:16:09,869 --> 00:16:11,237 [impact] 303 00:16:15,107 --> 00:16:17,143 [sighs] 304 00:16:17,143 --> 00:16:19,512 We got a marten. 305 00:16:20,513 --> 00:16:21,948 There we go. 306 00:16:22,014 --> 00:16:24,617 I knew you were gonna come back. 307 00:16:24,684 --> 00:16:27,553 Probably was, like, the smell of the fish. 308 00:16:28,588 --> 00:16:32,458 My trout stealer. 309 00:16:32,525 --> 00:16:35,261 My trout robber. 310 00:16:35,261 --> 00:16:36,462 Revenge! 311 00:16:36,529 --> 00:16:38,598 He ate a whole trout. 312 00:16:38,664 --> 00:16:41,300 But I finally got the marten. 313 00:16:41,300 --> 00:16:43,469 Now my food is gonna be safe. 314 00:16:43,536 --> 00:16:44,704 For now. 315 00:16:44,770 --> 00:16:46,072 ♪ 316 00:16:56,182 --> 00:17:00,419 Well, that trout that you stole turned into nice fat there. 317 00:17:00,486 --> 00:17:05,157 And food insecurity really creates long-lasting trauma. 318 00:17:05,224 --> 00:17:06,592 [sighs] 319 00:17:15,701 --> 00:17:17,536 I'm gonna eat the organs. 320 00:17:17,637 --> 00:17:19,038 ♪ 321 00:17:33,419 --> 00:17:36,222 Fry the guts there. 322 00:17:36,289 --> 00:17:38,157 It's mostly the fear of starving 323 00:17:38,224 --> 00:17:40,259 that gets to your head. 324 00:17:40,259 --> 00:17:44,530 ♪ 325 00:17:44,630 --> 00:17:46,899 OK, this is the head. 326 00:17:50,937 --> 00:17:53,839 ♪ 327 00:17:53,906 --> 00:17:56,542 You have an acquired taste, I must say. 328 00:17:56,642 --> 00:17:59,345 This is this marten tongue. 329 00:17:59,345 --> 00:18:02,081 ♪ 330 00:18:02,148 --> 00:18:04,183 Mm. 331 00:18:04,183 --> 00:18:06,953 ♪ 332 00:18:07,019 --> 00:18:09,522 Mm, brain. 333 00:18:09,588 --> 00:18:14,260 ♪ 334 00:18:14,327 --> 00:18:15,895 I feel better. 335 00:18:15,995 --> 00:18:17,296 I'm full. 336 00:18:17,296 --> 00:18:21,534 Just made me feel like, whew, I want more. 337 00:18:21,634 --> 00:18:24,837 It make me feel like I want to hunt a moose. 338 00:18:24,904 --> 00:18:31,911 ♪ 339 00:18:42,221 --> 00:18:44,423 - God. 340 00:18:44,490 --> 00:18:46,359 OK. 341 00:18:46,425 --> 00:18:49,095 I'm trying to get some sleep. 342 00:18:49,195 --> 00:18:53,699 And I just keep feeling this vibration, this... 343 00:18:53,766 --> 00:18:56,669 [imitating screeching] Oh, these damn mouse. 344 00:18:56,669 --> 00:19:00,339 They're just like--but then, it felt really, really close. 345 00:19:00,439 --> 00:19:02,008 Really close. 346 00:19:02,074 --> 00:19:04,276 And I roll over, and I look. 347 00:19:04,343 --> 00:19:09,582 On my bed, chewing, Scotty. 348 00:19:09,682 --> 00:19:12,818 So I got my revenge. 349 00:19:12,818 --> 00:19:14,353 ♪ 350 00:19:14,420 --> 00:19:16,155 I killed him with my bare hands. 351 00:19:16,222 --> 00:19:18,691 I smacked him like a bug. 352 00:19:18,791 --> 00:19:21,394 Like, what a bold little bugger. 353 00:19:21,460 --> 00:19:24,430 I feel no remorse for killing you, sir. 354 00:19:24,497 --> 00:19:31,470 ♪ 355 00:19:32,071 --> 00:19:35,274 His chewing days are over. 356 00:19:38,210 --> 00:19:41,147 [dramatic music] 357 00:19:41,213 --> 00:19:48,254 ♪ 358 00:19:54,727 --> 00:19:56,562 - Well, it's not snow. 359 00:19:56,629 --> 00:19:58,497 But it did blow half a gale last night. 360 00:19:58,497 --> 00:19:59,999 Absolutely crazy. 361 00:20:00,066 --> 00:20:04,503 But today's a new day from wild and windy wonderland. 362 00:20:04,570 --> 00:20:05,905 ♪ 363 00:20:05,905 --> 00:20:08,808 Lighting a fire is very difficult 364 00:20:08,874 --> 00:20:10,509 when it's very windy. 365 00:20:10,576 --> 00:20:12,344 I mean, I don't mind. I'm a pyro. 366 00:20:12,344 --> 00:20:14,747 So for me, I just go for it, and it kind of happens. 367 00:20:14,814 --> 00:20:16,549 But at the same time, you want to think 368 00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:19,385 about conserving energy and doing things quickly. 369 00:20:19,452 --> 00:20:22,521 I am eager to finish my fire shelter. 370 00:20:22,588 --> 00:20:24,056 I really want to get that done. 371 00:20:24,056 --> 00:20:29,662 ♪ 372 00:20:29,662 --> 00:20:33,499 I'm just so happy I have a good store of berries. 373 00:20:33,566 --> 00:20:35,968 And, you know, with this weather, 374 00:20:36,035 --> 00:20:38,304 the berries will start dying. 375 00:20:38,370 --> 00:20:41,440 One cup of berries, 200 calories. 376 00:20:41,507 --> 00:20:43,676 And I have lots of cups of berries. 377 00:20:43,742 --> 00:20:46,378 I just want to do things the easiest way 378 00:20:46,479 --> 00:20:50,149 because I don't want to lose calories needlessly. 379 00:20:50,149 --> 00:20:53,252 I love working hard, but I also want to work smart. 380 00:20:53,352 --> 00:20:57,690 That's really as about as tall as I'm going for height-wise. 381 00:20:57,790 --> 00:20:59,859 ♪ 382 00:20:59,859 --> 00:21:03,262 I definitely use my knowledge of how 383 00:21:03,262 --> 00:21:09,268 people survived in history to help myself in the present. 384 00:21:09,268 --> 00:21:13,806 I remembered something which I'd learnt when I was studying 385 00:21:13,873 --> 00:21:16,475 the soldiers, both the French and the English, 386 00:21:16,542 --> 00:21:19,745 during the wars in the 1750s. 387 00:21:19,745 --> 00:21:23,482 So this is birch, and it's absolutely saturated. 388 00:21:23,549 --> 00:21:28,654 And what you can do is use it as a temporary putty on gaps. 389 00:21:28,754 --> 00:21:31,590 And right now, with this wind, 390 00:21:31,657 --> 00:21:34,160 that's exactly what I'm gonna do with it. 391 00:21:34,226 --> 00:21:38,097 I learned it from an account of a soldier's journey 392 00:21:38,097 --> 00:21:40,099 from one fort to another. 393 00:21:40,166 --> 00:21:42,268 And the punky wood really is so malleable, 394 00:21:42,334 --> 00:21:46,005 you can just press it into the crevices like this. 395 00:21:46,071 --> 00:21:48,307 And it creates this airtight barrier. 396 00:21:48,374 --> 00:21:50,743 It's amazing. 397 00:21:51,544 --> 00:21:52,545 OK. 398 00:21:52,611 --> 00:21:54,180 That looks good. 399 00:21:54,280 --> 00:21:56,715 I want to make a fire, boil some water... 400 00:22:01,787 --> 00:22:05,090 Part of this "Alone" experience is your head. 401 00:22:05,191 --> 00:22:08,494 It's always your mind that gives up on you. 402 00:22:08,594 --> 00:22:11,697 Busy hands and busy minds are very important. 403 00:22:11,764 --> 00:22:13,632 'Cause it's when people get bored, 404 00:22:13,699 --> 00:22:17,536 that's when they start thinking negative thoughts. 405 00:22:17,636 --> 00:22:23,108 I find that most humans need other humans to feel sane. 406 00:22:23,108 --> 00:22:25,578 If they don't have companionship, 407 00:22:25,678 --> 00:22:30,049 if they don't have someone to talk to, then they-- 408 00:22:30,115 --> 00:22:31,951 they tap out. 409 00:22:34,386 --> 00:22:36,822 Water's boiling. 410 00:22:36,889 --> 00:22:39,892 I'll take that inside when I'm ready. 411 00:22:41,193 --> 00:22:43,596 There we go. 412 00:22:43,662 --> 00:22:45,698 I know I should get up. 413 00:22:45,698 --> 00:22:48,200 [laughs] 414 00:22:48,267 --> 00:22:50,703 But I'm so comfy. 415 00:22:54,273 --> 00:22:56,609 The sky is an interesting color. 416 00:22:56,675 --> 00:22:57,977 ♪ 417 00:22:58,077 --> 00:22:59,945 These are snow clouds. 418 00:22:59,945 --> 00:23:01,947 They're heavy. 419 00:23:02,014 --> 00:23:03,949 ♪ 420 00:23:04,016 --> 00:23:08,520 And they have sunlight in them too. 421 00:23:08,587 --> 00:23:15,461 ♪ 422 00:23:15,461 --> 00:23:19,298 Can't allow yourself to dwell too much on home. 423 00:23:19,298 --> 00:23:21,400 ♪ 424 00:23:21,467 --> 00:23:23,802 Otherwise, it gets you. 425 00:23:23,869 --> 00:23:27,006 ♪ 426 00:23:27,072 --> 00:23:29,508 You sit looking at that direction. 427 00:23:29,508 --> 00:23:32,478 And you know that's where it is over the horizon. 428 00:23:32,544 --> 00:23:34,313 ♪ 429 00:23:34,380 --> 00:23:36,949 It's tough, man. 430 00:23:36,949 --> 00:23:40,219 All the things I love are over there. 431 00:23:40,219 --> 00:23:42,121 ♪ 432 00:23:42,187 --> 00:23:43,555 [sniffles] 433 00:23:43,622 --> 00:23:50,629 ♪ 434 00:23:52,298 --> 00:23:55,267 [crying] 435 00:24:03,175 --> 00:24:05,744 [exhales sharply] 436 00:24:05,811 --> 00:24:08,547 Deep breaths. 437 00:24:08,614 --> 00:24:11,550 Pull yourself together. 438 00:24:11,617 --> 00:24:14,553 You'll be there soon enough. 439 00:24:26,732 --> 00:24:29,868 [dramatic music] 440 00:24:29,868 --> 00:24:36,875 ♪ 441 00:24:40,746 --> 00:24:46,652 - So I've got some meat and some bones 442 00:24:46,752 --> 00:24:48,620 that I'm wanting to grind. 443 00:24:52,992 --> 00:24:54,960 It'll grind. 444 00:24:56,462 --> 00:24:59,131 I found a stone with a divot in it, 445 00:24:59,231 --> 00:25:01,133 and I found a stone with a round end. 446 00:25:01,233 --> 00:25:04,903 So I can use them as my pestle and mortar. 447 00:25:05,004 --> 00:25:08,006 I have all kinds of dried out meat and bones. 448 00:25:08,073 --> 00:25:11,110 I had been saving 'em from my grouse and rats 449 00:25:11,110 --> 00:25:13,545 that I killed and stuff like that. 450 00:25:13,612 --> 00:25:17,249 I'm going to grind 'em all up and make my pemmican. 451 00:25:18,784 --> 00:25:21,453 It's the nastiest [bleep] you'll ever put in your mouth. 452 00:25:21,553 --> 00:25:24,022 It is terrible, but it's full of fat, 453 00:25:24,022 --> 00:25:26,158 and it's full of protein. 454 00:25:28,494 --> 00:25:31,497 My God, that's just awesome. 455 00:25:31,597 --> 00:25:35,434 So far, I have that much powdered meat. 456 00:25:35,501 --> 00:25:38,237 I just need a little fat. 457 00:25:38,303 --> 00:25:40,038 I wonder if anybody else out here has got 458 00:25:40,105 --> 00:25:42,074 a powdered meat bag. 459 00:25:42,141 --> 00:25:44,476 I'm almost willing to say that they don't. 460 00:25:44,543 --> 00:25:50,382 ♪ 461 00:25:50,482 --> 00:25:52,217 All right. 462 00:25:52,284 --> 00:25:55,354 See if we can't go find something to eat. 463 00:25:55,421 --> 00:25:59,291 All your protein around here is made to get away from you. 464 00:25:59,391 --> 00:26:03,195 It has natural camouflage that has kept it alive. 465 00:26:03,262 --> 00:26:06,832 Anything that can kill it, it has evolved to avoid that. 466 00:26:06,899 --> 00:26:09,201 ♪ 467 00:26:09,268 --> 00:26:12,237 Well, I found some berries, which is awesome. 468 00:26:12,304 --> 00:26:15,140 Edibles don't run. 469 00:26:15,240 --> 00:26:17,910 Edibles don't fly. 470 00:26:17,910 --> 00:26:20,746 Not a whole lot of berries left around here. 471 00:26:20,813 --> 00:26:22,181 I've been taking every opportunity 472 00:26:22,281 --> 00:26:23,682 that I can out here. 473 00:26:23,749 --> 00:26:26,952 So I carry forage bags on me at all times. 474 00:26:27,019 --> 00:26:29,188 ♪ 475 00:26:29,254 --> 00:26:31,123 Here's some more berries. 476 00:26:31,190 --> 00:26:32,825 If you have a wealth of knowledge 477 00:26:32,891 --> 00:26:34,860 of the basic edibles in an area, 478 00:26:34,860 --> 00:26:37,463 then you can live for a long time 479 00:26:37,463 --> 00:26:40,199 and not have to worry so much about proteins. 480 00:26:40,265 --> 00:26:43,669 And you can sustain yourself until you have an opportunity 481 00:26:43,669 --> 00:26:46,238 to get those proteins. 482 00:26:46,305 --> 00:26:47,940 I don't want to go without food, 483 00:26:48,040 --> 00:26:51,877 but I want to reserve just in case, 484 00:26:51,944 --> 00:26:55,347 if I can't go outside for three days. 485 00:26:55,414 --> 00:26:57,449 Temperature is starting to drop again. 486 00:26:57,516 --> 00:26:59,785 Fingers are starting to get cold. 487 00:26:59,852 --> 00:27:02,187 And when I get back to the Sasquatch hut, 488 00:27:02,254 --> 00:27:04,523 maybe try to make a little fruit leather. 489 00:27:05,224 --> 00:27:08,193 Then I can have pemmican and fruit leather. 490 00:27:08,260 --> 00:27:14,399 ♪ 491 00:27:14,466 --> 00:27:16,068 I didn't get grass. 492 00:27:16,068 --> 00:27:21,607 But I did get a [bleep] ton of berries, 493 00:27:21,673 --> 00:27:24,209 which is awesome because berries are real hard 494 00:27:24,276 --> 00:27:26,678 to find right now. 495 00:27:26,745 --> 00:27:28,080 All right. 496 00:27:28,146 --> 00:27:32,818 So I've got about a handful of cranberries in my pot. 497 00:27:32,885 --> 00:27:36,622 Gonna crush 'em up and then strain 'em. 498 00:27:36,688 --> 00:27:38,590 ♪ 499 00:27:38,657 --> 00:27:40,659 This is just my skill set. 500 00:27:40,726 --> 00:27:43,629 I'm a modern day caveman. 501 00:27:43,695 --> 00:27:47,099 I can do this, and I can swing a hammer. 502 00:27:47,166 --> 00:27:49,902 Haven't made $500,000 swinging a hammer, 503 00:27:50,002 --> 00:27:52,404 nor will I ever. 504 00:27:52,471 --> 00:27:55,807 I know my purpose out here. I know why I'm here. 505 00:27:55,874 --> 00:27:59,511 I can't afford the therapy that my son needs. 506 00:27:59,578 --> 00:28:01,547 That's why. 507 00:28:01,613 --> 00:28:03,182 There's my goo. 508 00:28:03,282 --> 00:28:04,750 ♪ 509 00:28:04,816 --> 00:28:07,119 All right, I'm gonna start by putting one twist 510 00:28:07,186 --> 00:28:09,955 in this thing right here, 511 00:28:10,022 --> 00:28:12,257 shoving the whole damn thing in the jar. 512 00:28:12,324 --> 00:28:19,264 ♪ 513 00:28:19,331 --> 00:28:22,868 I'd say that's most of the juice out of that one. 514 00:28:22,935 --> 00:28:26,305 I know that there's groups online and stuff 515 00:28:26,371 --> 00:28:30,475 that just bash everybody that's been on "Alone." 516 00:28:30,542 --> 00:28:33,145 And I'm sure that I'm gonna hear about it 517 00:28:33,145 --> 00:28:36,148 with my special needs child. 518 00:28:36,214 --> 00:28:38,584 I think people take for granted all the things 519 00:28:38,650 --> 00:28:41,119 that they can do with their kids. 520 00:28:41,186 --> 00:28:44,323 So here I am out here in the woods all alone. 521 00:28:44,389 --> 00:28:47,359 And if I do win this, in all of his life, 522 00:28:47,426 --> 00:28:50,262 he'll never have to want for anything. 523 00:28:50,329 --> 00:28:52,664 He's the reason I want to leave. 524 00:28:52,731 --> 00:28:55,200 He's the reason I want to stay. 525 00:28:55,267 --> 00:28:56,868 See that? 526 00:28:56,935 --> 00:28:59,471 That's fruit leather. Look. 527 00:28:59,538 --> 00:29:01,473 Look at that. 528 00:29:01,540 --> 00:29:03,342 Man, that's awesome. 529 00:29:03,442 --> 00:29:06,144 I feel like I'm making progress here. 530 00:29:07,145 --> 00:29:14,186 ♪ 531 00:29:21,426 --> 00:29:23,295 - Heading out. 532 00:29:23,395 --> 00:29:26,398 Should go check my snares and go check the spot 533 00:29:26,465 --> 00:29:29,801 that I've seen moose tracks. 534 00:29:30,936 --> 00:29:34,106 A few days ago, I went through a big marsh. 535 00:29:34,172 --> 00:29:36,408 And I could see footprints. 536 00:29:36,475 --> 00:29:38,877 Everything was moose. 537 00:29:38,944 --> 00:29:41,280 You can survive here without big game. 538 00:29:41,346 --> 00:29:43,482 But if you get a big game, I mean, 539 00:29:43,548 --> 00:29:46,251 your job is just to eat and sleep. 540 00:29:46,351 --> 00:29:49,988 And with the winter coming, that's what I want. 541 00:29:58,697 --> 00:29:59,831 And today as well. 542 00:29:59,898 --> 00:30:02,067 And I think that was a good choice 543 00:30:02,067 --> 00:30:04,202 because you have to use a lot of energy 544 00:30:04,269 --> 00:30:06,304 to go hunting and hike a lot. 545 00:30:18,583 --> 00:30:20,218 [leaves rustling] 546 00:30:20,218 --> 00:30:25,123 The wind is blowing right through my scene location here. 547 00:30:31,797 --> 00:30:34,266 All right. Let's get out of the wind. 548 00:30:35,367 --> 00:30:36,668 I'm gonna go back to the shelter 549 00:30:36,668 --> 00:30:38,403 and work on my project. 550 00:30:38,470 --> 00:30:45,477 ♪ 551 00:30:54,419 --> 00:30:55,787 Oh. 552 00:31:07,833 --> 00:31:10,102 Let's continue. 553 00:31:11,503 --> 00:31:13,638 Hey. 554 00:31:13,705 --> 00:31:17,075 So this is the soundboard. 555 00:31:17,142 --> 00:31:20,345 It's a board I found 556 00:31:20,345 --> 00:31:21,913 on the shore. 557 00:31:21,980 --> 00:31:27,753 And this is the sound box, and the neck, 558 00:31:27,819 --> 00:31:32,858 and the place you put the pegs to hold the strings. 559 00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:35,560 ♪ 560 00:31:35,627 --> 00:31:39,698 Music is something actually new in my life. 561 00:31:39,698 --> 00:31:44,503 But acting was for years my job. 562 00:31:44,603 --> 00:31:47,406 I really value and love the arts. 563 00:31:47,472 --> 00:31:49,875 There is a human connection. 564 00:31:49,941 --> 00:31:54,746 I have to be very careful because I know 565 00:31:54,813 --> 00:31:56,948 it's been a lot of work already. 566 00:31:57,015 --> 00:32:02,020 So I'll run it through myself. 567 00:32:02,020 --> 00:32:04,589 I had very good support in that from my mother. 568 00:32:04,656 --> 00:32:06,625 But my stepfather, you know, 569 00:32:06,691 --> 00:32:10,028 he was not accepting the way I was. 570 00:32:10,095 --> 00:32:15,000 He was rough around the edges, and he was firm. 571 00:32:15,066 --> 00:32:17,702 This is good. 572 00:32:17,803 --> 00:32:20,472 I needed to work more hours on the field 573 00:32:20,539 --> 00:32:23,275 to plant cassava and stuff like that. 574 00:32:23,341 --> 00:32:25,911 There was that expectation. 575 00:32:25,977 --> 00:32:29,080 Now I'm adding a string to test, 576 00:32:29,147 --> 00:32:30,916 a test string here. 577 00:32:30,982 --> 00:32:32,417 ♪ 578 00:32:32,484 --> 00:32:34,019 [plucks string] 579 00:32:34,085 --> 00:32:36,221 For example, he didn't like I played soccer. 580 00:32:36,288 --> 00:32:37,756 It was a waste of time. 581 00:32:49,401 --> 00:32:51,036 ♪ 582 00:33:11,623 --> 00:33:12,657 There we go. 583 00:33:12,724 --> 00:33:14,259 We have three holes where you can 584 00:33:14,259 --> 00:33:16,494 put the strings through. 585 00:33:30,475 --> 00:33:32,944 Let's tune it. 586 00:33:33,011 --> 00:33:35,547 Today, what I see of him in me, 587 00:33:35,614 --> 00:33:37,182 it's being resilient. 588 00:33:37,282 --> 00:33:39,918 What we are different is the level of creativity. 589 00:33:39,985 --> 00:33:42,153 [plucking strings] 590 00:33:42,220 --> 00:33:44,623 And I'm hoping that, watching this, 591 00:33:44,623 --> 00:33:47,626 and he see my journey, and the challenges, and the successes, 592 00:33:47,692 --> 00:33:49,761 I hope he feel proud 593 00:33:49,828 --> 00:33:52,697 because he has taught me many skills needed 594 00:33:52,697 --> 00:33:54,266 to survive in the woods. 595 00:33:54,332 --> 00:33:56,468 And maybe this could be healing, 596 00:33:56,468 --> 00:33:59,638 not just for me, but also for him. 597 00:34:01,473 --> 00:34:03,508 All right. 598 00:34:03,508 --> 00:34:04,843 Some improvement to be made. 599 00:34:04,910 --> 00:34:09,714 But nevertheless, a fun start. 600 00:34:09,781 --> 00:34:10,882 [plays guitar] 601 00:34:14,419 --> 00:34:17,355 [dramatic music] 602 00:34:17,422 --> 00:34:24,429 ♪ 603 00:34:33,004 --> 00:34:35,273 What's she look like? 604 00:34:36,841 --> 00:34:38,643 Ah. 605 00:34:40,178 --> 00:34:42,547 It doesn't look too bad anymore. 606 00:34:42,614 --> 00:34:45,717 ♪ 607 00:34:45,784 --> 00:34:47,218 Oh. 608 00:34:47,285 --> 00:34:53,558 ♪ 609 00:34:53,625 --> 00:34:55,794 Ugh. 610 00:34:55,860 --> 00:34:58,596 Look, she still got a--ugh. 611 00:34:58,663 --> 00:35:00,665 ♪ 612 00:35:00,732 --> 00:35:03,368 Still got a fair bit of stuff in it though. 613 00:35:03,435 --> 00:35:10,442 ♪ 614 00:35:13,078 --> 00:35:15,246 Be a thing of beauty. 615 00:35:16,214 --> 00:35:19,718 I think I'm gonna leave that. 616 00:35:19,784 --> 00:35:21,519 Nah. 617 00:35:22,620 --> 00:35:25,156 I probably should put a Band-Aid on it. 618 00:35:26,257 --> 00:35:29,160 Come this far, may as well keep it as clean 619 00:35:29,227 --> 00:35:33,064 as we can. 620 00:35:37,002 --> 00:35:38,837 There. 621 00:35:39,804 --> 00:35:42,874 Now you got stuff for the fire. [chuckles] 622 00:35:44,142 --> 00:35:45,710 Biohazard. 623 00:35:45,777 --> 00:35:49,314 ♪ 624 00:35:49,381 --> 00:35:51,149 Now that that's done, 625 00:35:51,216 --> 00:35:53,385 let's go see if the fishing gods 626 00:35:53,451 --> 00:35:56,621 will smile upon us once more. 627 00:35:56,688 --> 00:35:57,822 Brr. 628 00:35:57,889 --> 00:36:01,092 It is cold out there, campers. 629 00:36:01,192 --> 00:36:03,228 ♪ 630 00:36:05,030 --> 00:36:07,198 Let's catch a fish. 631 00:36:08,333 --> 00:36:10,468 You ready, little devil? 632 00:36:10,535 --> 00:36:12,437 I'm ready too. 633 00:36:16,374 --> 00:36:18,143 There we go. 634 00:36:18,243 --> 00:36:19,511 ♪ 635 00:36:19,511 --> 00:36:21,346 I'm not ready for snow yet, 636 00:36:21,413 --> 00:36:23,515 but it's not gonna be long. 637 00:36:23,581 --> 00:36:25,250 The winter is coming. 638 00:36:25,316 --> 00:36:26,618 ♪ 639 00:36:26,718 --> 00:36:28,119 Come on, fish. 640 00:36:28,186 --> 00:36:30,355 Where is the fish? 641 00:36:30,422 --> 00:36:32,457 Where's the fish? 642 00:36:32,557 --> 00:36:33,858 It's been cold. 643 00:36:33,858 --> 00:36:35,827 And the fish have really been down. 644 00:36:35,894 --> 00:36:38,863 They're just not hitting. 645 00:36:38,863 --> 00:36:40,698 Yeah, I haven't even seen a follow up. 646 00:36:40,765 --> 00:36:42,500 Nothing this morning. 647 00:36:42,567 --> 00:36:45,036 They've shut down on the lures for a bit. 648 00:36:45,103 --> 00:36:47,472 And it's been a couple days, 649 00:36:47,539 --> 00:36:49,941 and nothing in the gill net. 650 00:36:50,041 --> 00:36:52,877 [blowing] 651 00:36:54,145 --> 00:36:58,316 Wow, it's amazing how quick the hands cool off. 652 00:36:58,383 --> 00:37:01,386 My reel, my rod, they don't work with gloves, 653 00:37:01,453 --> 00:37:03,021 so it's cold. 654 00:37:03,021 --> 00:37:06,324 So fishing's gonna kind of suck. 655 00:37:06,391 --> 00:37:08,860 But the hands need a quick warm up. 656 00:37:08,860 --> 00:37:10,662 Wow. 657 00:37:10,662 --> 00:37:12,630 ♪ 658 00:37:18,069 --> 00:37:19,671 Try this again, shall we? 659 00:37:19,671 --> 00:37:24,709 ♪ 660 00:37:24,709 --> 00:37:26,878 I'm on the last loop on my belt, 661 00:37:26,945 --> 00:37:30,281 so I've lost some weight. 662 00:37:30,348 --> 00:37:33,218 I was hoping I wouldn't do it quite this quickly, 663 00:37:33,318 --> 00:37:37,222 but we are counting up on day 40. 664 00:37:37,288 --> 00:37:38,590 No fish. 665 00:37:38,656 --> 00:37:40,658 Damn. 666 00:37:40,725 --> 00:37:43,762 So we can hunker down, you know, 667 00:37:43,828 --> 00:37:46,064 keep my portions smaller. 668 00:37:46,064 --> 00:37:47,866 And we'll see what this weather does. 669 00:37:47,932 --> 00:37:51,669 It's got the potential to really drop in temperature. 670 00:37:51,669 --> 00:37:55,206 She won't be long, and we'll be ice fishing. 671 00:37:55,273 --> 00:37:56,808 Brr. 672 00:37:59,477 --> 00:38:06,518 ♪ 673 00:38:21,232 --> 00:38:25,470 - Last night, I had a massive bout of homesickness 674 00:38:25,537 --> 00:38:27,639 as I was sitting by the fire. 675 00:38:27,705 --> 00:38:29,040 Oh, man. 676 00:38:29,107 --> 00:38:30,675 Really tough. 677 00:38:30,742 --> 00:38:35,313 Just being away makes you really appreciate someone, 678 00:38:35,380 --> 00:38:36,915 you know? 679 00:38:38,216 --> 00:38:40,752 So, yeah, just missing him 680 00:38:40,818 --> 00:38:45,423 and missing our amazing life up on the mountain. 681 00:38:45,490 --> 00:38:52,430 ♪ 682 00:38:52,497 --> 00:38:55,934 I'm gonna go make myself some nice hot drink, 683 00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:58,636 add some carbs and starches into it, 684 00:38:58,703 --> 00:39:01,806 and sit by the fire. 685 00:39:01,873 --> 00:39:04,442 Oh, my God. 686 00:39:04,509 --> 00:39:07,145 [groans] 687 00:39:07,145 --> 00:39:09,547 Oh, I have to show you something. 688 00:39:09,547 --> 00:39:12,383 [chuckles] 689 00:39:12,383 --> 00:39:14,986 That is unfortunate. 690 00:39:15,053 --> 00:39:17,121 That's my thermals. 691 00:39:19,157 --> 00:39:23,494 [chuckles] Oh, my God. 692 00:39:23,595 --> 00:39:26,364 Do they actually stand up by themselves? 693 00:39:30,401 --> 00:39:32,870 Wow, put a dent in it. 694 00:39:32,870 --> 00:39:34,305 [laughs] 695 00:39:34,305 --> 00:39:37,709 I guess I'm gonna have to hang this over the fire pit. 696 00:39:37,709 --> 00:39:43,748 ♪ 697 00:39:43,815 --> 00:39:46,184 Make a little rack. 698 00:39:46,251 --> 00:39:48,419 Hang it over. 699 00:39:48,486 --> 00:39:51,656 Keep it away from the flames. 700 00:39:51,756 --> 00:39:53,758 The weather is changing. It definitely is changing. 701 00:39:53,825 --> 00:39:56,561 That's for sure. Winter is coming. 702 00:39:56,628 --> 00:39:59,063 And that means I have to prepare. 703 00:39:59,063 --> 00:40:00,698 My God, this is probably how I'm gonna be drying 704 00:40:00,698 --> 00:40:03,868 my clothes from now on in. 705 00:40:04,936 --> 00:40:07,305 It's almost dry. Almost completely dry. 706 00:40:07,372 --> 00:40:09,107 That's amazing. 707 00:40:09,173 --> 00:40:11,709 The most important thing to prepare for winter 708 00:40:11,709 --> 00:40:13,611 is your food. 709 00:40:25,990 --> 00:40:27,692 Reindeer moss is really cool. 710 00:40:27,792 --> 00:40:31,262 But it doesn't taste good, whereas the rock tripe 711 00:40:31,329 --> 00:40:33,898 actually has a consistency and a taste 712 00:40:33,898 --> 00:40:35,199 that I'm really enjoying. 713 00:40:35,266 --> 00:40:37,769 It's like a toasty, nutty flavor. 714 00:40:37,835 --> 00:40:39,704 So chewy. 715 00:40:39,804 --> 00:40:41,606 Crazy. 716 00:40:41,673 --> 00:40:43,141 And it's a survival food. 717 00:40:43,241 --> 00:40:45,209 It's what they survived on in the 1750s 718 00:40:45,276 --> 00:40:46,611 during the French and Indian War. 719 00:40:46,678 --> 00:40:49,714 And I'm gonna survive on it too 720 00:40:49,781 --> 00:40:51,549 because if they can, I can. 721 00:40:51,616 --> 00:40:53,084 ♪ 722 00:40:53,151 --> 00:40:56,187 It's like ten days' worth plus what's in the pan, 723 00:40:56,254 --> 00:40:58,723 which is another three for 13 days. 724 00:40:58,790 --> 00:41:00,625 So I have a good amount of reindeer moss. 725 00:41:00,692 --> 00:41:02,226 And I'm just gonna let those dry 726 00:41:02,293 --> 00:41:06,230 and bake it to evaporate every single ounce of moisture, 727 00:41:06,297 --> 00:41:07,999 and then turn it into flour. 728 00:41:08,066 --> 00:41:11,636 So the flour gives me the carbs and the starches. 729 00:41:11,703 --> 00:41:14,205 But it also dissolves into the liquid. 730 00:41:14,272 --> 00:41:16,140 And if I mix that with the rock tripe, 731 00:41:16,240 --> 00:41:17,909 no problem at all, 732 00:41:17,976 --> 00:41:19,911 which is important psychologically 733 00:41:19,978 --> 00:41:22,513 to enjoy eating your food out here. 734 00:41:22,580 --> 00:41:25,950 ♪ 735 00:41:26,017 --> 00:41:28,019 Oh, I miss Brian. 736 00:41:28,886 --> 00:41:31,789 Brian asked me to marry him before we left. 737 00:41:32,623 --> 00:41:35,693 We'd been having problems with bears. 738 00:41:35,793 --> 00:41:38,062 So I knew there were bears around. 739 00:41:38,062 --> 00:41:40,898 One day, he runs up to me. 740 00:41:40,898 --> 00:41:43,968 He's like, "Mel, come, come! 741 00:41:44,035 --> 00:41:46,871 "I think I found a bear track, found a bear trail. 742 00:41:46,871 --> 00:41:49,006 I think I know where they are." 743 00:41:49,073 --> 00:41:50,875 So we grabbed the guns. 744 00:41:50,942 --> 00:41:53,845 And I'm like, oh, hell yeah. Let's go. 745 00:41:53,911 --> 00:41:55,713 We're, like, following this track. 746 00:41:55,780 --> 00:41:57,081 And there's, like, a big trail. 747 00:41:57,148 --> 00:41:58,750 And it's like, whoa, yeah, it's really obvious. 748 00:41:58,750 --> 00:42:01,386 It's a [bleep] bear. It's amazing. 749 00:42:02,453 --> 00:42:05,056 And then, we get to the top of the mountain. 750 00:42:05,156 --> 00:42:07,058 He's like, "Yeah, it's around here somewhere. 751 00:42:07,158 --> 00:42:09,093 It must be around here somewhere." 752 00:42:09,193 --> 00:42:10,661 So I was, like, looking around. 753 00:42:10,661 --> 00:42:13,598 Brian's like--he's behind me. He's like, "Mel, look down." 754 00:42:13,664 --> 00:42:16,200 [chuckles] And I look down. 755 00:42:16,267 --> 00:42:17,835 And on the ground... 756 00:42:17,902 --> 00:42:20,104 [chuckles] 757 00:42:20,204 --> 00:42:22,607 ♪ 758 00:42:22,673 --> 00:42:24,509 [breathes shakily] 759 00:42:24,575 --> 00:42:26,044 ♪ 760 00:42:26,110 --> 00:42:27,578 There's a blanket with a bottle 761 00:42:27,678 --> 00:42:29,313 of champagne and two roses. 762 00:42:29,380 --> 00:42:34,452 [sniffles] And I'm like, "Wait, what?" 763 00:42:34,552 --> 00:42:36,621 And I turn around to him, and he's on one knee. 764 00:42:36,621 --> 00:42:38,056 And he's got the ring out. 765 00:42:38,156 --> 00:42:41,058 And I'm like, oh. 766 00:42:41,125 --> 00:42:43,661 It wasn't a bear. 767 00:42:43,661 --> 00:42:46,798 And he asked me to marry him. 768 00:42:46,864 --> 00:42:51,869 I mean, really lovely ring. 769 00:42:51,936 --> 00:42:54,205 Can't wait to wear it again. 770 00:42:54,272 --> 00:42:57,141 Not allowed to wear my ring here. 771 00:42:57,241 --> 00:42:58,810 I wonder why not. 772 00:42:58,876 --> 00:42:59,911 I know why. 773 00:42:59,977 --> 00:43:02,747 It's part of the psychological warfare. 774 00:43:02,814 --> 00:43:04,949 We will wear you down. 775 00:43:06,818 --> 00:43:08,986 We will make you homesick. 776 00:43:10,655 --> 00:43:12,924 I think I'm doing a good enough job myself of that. 777 00:43:12,990 --> 00:43:14,692 [laughs] 778 00:43:21,899 --> 00:43:24,802 [dramatic music] 779 00:43:24,869 --> 00:43:31,876 ♪ 780 00:43:32,443 --> 00:43:34,912 [guitar playing] 781 00:43:34,979 --> 00:43:38,483 - ♪ In the morning 782 00:43:38,549 --> 00:43:42,186 ♪ I'm gonna make some lavender tea ♪ 783 00:43:42,253 --> 00:43:46,190 ♪ In the morning 784 00:43:46,257 --> 00:43:49,994 ♪ I'm gonna eat some pike 785 00:43:50,061 --> 00:43:53,498 ♪ Oh, in the morning 786 00:43:53,598 --> 00:43:57,668 ♪ I won't let my spirit fall down ♪ 787 00:43:57,735 --> 00:44:01,439 ♪ In the morning 788 00:44:01,506 --> 00:44:04,108 ♪ I'm gonna get some trout 789 00:44:04,108 --> 00:44:08,279 ♪ I will, a trout here, my friends ♪ 790 00:44:08,346 --> 00:44:11,582 ♪ In the morning 791 00:44:11,682 --> 00:44:15,586 ♪ I will keep trying 792 00:44:17,889 --> 00:44:20,424 Needs some improvement, but hey, 793 00:44:20,491 --> 00:44:23,628 you get grooving, and I guess things work out. 794 00:44:26,531 --> 00:44:28,266 [dramatic music] 795 00:44:28,266 --> 00:44:29,901 I'm very hungry. 796 00:44:29,901 --> 00:44:32,403 I need fish to fuel me. 797 00:44:32,470 --> 00:44:34,872 I want to take the canoe out on the water 798 00:44:34,872 --> 00:44:36,274 because right now it's calm, 799 00:44:36,340 --> 00:44:40,011 and I can get to fish in deeper water. 800 00:44:40,077 --> 00:44:41,512 All right. 801 00:44:41,579 --> 00:44:44,949 I'm going to go up there in the entrance of the cove 802 00:44:45,016 --> 00:44:47,718 and see how it goes. 803 00:44:49,420 --> 00:44:52,390 Flotation device on. 804 00:44:57,595 --> 00:44:59,297 So far, so good. 805 00:44:59,397 --> 00:45:05,403 ♪ 806 00:45:05,469 --> 00:45:09,407 I have food for tomorrow and then zero food. 807 00:45:09,473 --> 00:45:11,709 I was hoping it was going to last longer. 808 00:45:11,709 --> 00:45:13,911 But one day, your body is OK. 809 00:45:13,911 --> 00:45:15,980 The other day, your body needs more food. 810 00:45:16,080 --> 00:45:18,516 And we have to catch something. 811 00:45:27,625 --> 00:45:29,860 I'm scared that I'm not gonna be able 812 00:45:29,860 --> 00:45:33,064 to stay as long as I want 813 00:45:33,064 --> 00:45:36,334 because a few days ago, I went hunting. 814 00:45:36,434 --> 00:45:41,005 I was, like, so weak, so not productive. 815 00:45:41,072 --> 00:45:46,744 Just giving it some action, see if we can attract. 816 00:45:46,844 --> 00:45:50,047 Then there is the aspect of being alone. 817 00:45:50,114 --> 00:45:53,351 The thing about being alone is this-- 818 00:45:53,417 --> 00:45:56,354 it's when you fail on stuff. 819 00:45:56,420 --> 00:45:58,923 That is the challenge for me, though. 820 00:45:58,990 --> 00:46:03,060 I don't have anyone to even share that. 821 00:46:03,127 --> 00:46:06,564 And the impact, it's huge. 822 00:46:08,099 --> 00:46:11,636 We need an anchor, so we can stay put. 823 00:46:15,072 --> 00:46:20,044 While I am in my lowest point, I think of my kids. 824 00:46:20,111 --> 00:46:23,447 They live in Brazil, but I want to win the prize 825 00:46:23,514 --> 00:46:25,683 to get them here to live with me. 826 00:46:25,750 --> 00:46:27,785 It's a good spot here. 827 00:46:27,852 --> 00:46:30,021 I'm the person that they call to talk 828 00:46:30,021 --> 00:46:32,189 about anything, really, 829 00:46:32,256 --> 00:46:34,425 helping them with homework and high school, 830 00:46:34,425 --> 00:46:36,093 and just guiding them 831 00:46:36,193 --> 00:46:40,031 through very different situations and tough times. 832 00:46:40,097 --> 00:46:43,300 But it's hard being away from them. 833 00:46:43,401 --> 00:46:44,869 They're 18. 834 00:46:44,935 --> 00:46:47,038 And pretty soon, they're gonna be adults 835 00:46:47,104 --> 00:46:49,306 and go on their lives. 836 00:46:49,373 --> 00:46:53,244 And for every day that I am away from them, 837 00:46:53,310 --> 00:46:55,946 I'm losing that window into the formation 838 00:46:56,013 --> 00:46:57,848 of their personality. 839 00:47:02,219 --> 00:47:03,921 ♪ 840 00:47:12,296 --> 00:47:13,664 Whew. 841 00:47:15,866 --> 00:47:18,302 I need a sense of family in this new country, 842 00:47:18,402 --> 00:47:20,905 where I am alone. 843 00:47:21,939 --> 00:47:25,309 I didn't think things would be that easy. 844 00:47:25,309 --> 00:47:27,111 Not at all. 845 00:47:27,178 --> 00:47:29,046 Things are hard. 846 00:47:29,113 --> 00:47:36,153 ♪ 847 00:47:43,327 --> 00:47:45,362 Hello. 848 00:47:45,429 --> 00:47:47,665 I'm tired. 849 00:47:47,732 --> 00:47:49,734 I'm hungry. 850 00:47:52,636 --> 00:47:54,271 And I'm just, like, walking in the woods 851 00:47:54,338 --> 00:47:56,107 and thinking about the people that I love. 852 00:47:56,107 --> 00:47:59,210 And, you know-- 853 00:47:59,276 --> 00:48:02,380 [sniffles] It takes a toll on you. 854 00:48:02,480 --> 00:48:04,348 You know? 855 00:48:04,348 --> 00:48:10,221 ♪ 856 00:48:10,221 --> 00:48:13,591 I miss the rhythm of my life back home and... 857 00:48:13,657 --> 00:48:18,462 ♪ 858 00:48:18,462 --> 00:48:23,667 That's what happen, you know, when you're hungry and alone. 859 00:48:23,667 --> 00:48:27,705 [laughs] 860 00:48:27,805 --> 00:48:29,673 That's what happens when you're hungry, 861 00:48:29,740 --> 00:48:31,142 and you're alone, you know. 862 00:48:31,242 --> 00:48:33,844 It's--whew! 863 00:48:33,911 --> 00:48:37,348 Man, there's nothing else left 864 00:48:37,348 --> 00:48:40,618 but you and your feelings. 865 00:48:40,718 --> 00:48:44,221 ♪ 866 00:48:44,288 --> 00:48:47,925 We just know when we don't have, you know. 867 00:48:52,430 --> 00:48:54,832 Let's get some food. 868 00:48:54,899 --> 00:48:57,501 Today is a struggling day. 869 00:48:58,736 --> 00:49:01,705 Tomorrow I'm gonna go back to fishing. 870 00:49:01,806 --> 00:49:08,779 ♪ 871 00:49:25,329 --> 00:49:28,399 - So it just [bleep] started raining. 872 00:49:28,466 --> 00:49:30,801 Weather changes around here like crazy. 873 00:49:30,868 --> 00:49:33,204 Sounds like it's snowing ice again. 874 00:49:33,270 --> 00:49:35,806 Sleet and hail. 875 00:49:35,873 --> 00:49:37,241 I just wish, if it was gonna snow, 876 00:49:37,308 --> 00:49:40,077 it'd go ahead and snow, so I could do some tracking. 877 00:49:41,345 --> 00:49:44,081 I hate just being stuck in my shelter. 878 00:49:45,950 --> 00:49:50,421 This is the worst times when you're just stuck here. 879 00:49:50,421 --> 00:49:52,189 Hate this [bleep]. 880 00:49:54,291 --> 00:49:56,994 I'm gonna take my boots off and just lay here 881 00:49:57,061 --> 00:49:59,864 in the sleeping bag, get warmed up good, 882 00:49:59,864 --> 00:50:02,666 make a piece for my dreamcatcher. 883 00:50:02,733 --> 00:50:04,301 ♪ 884 00:50:04,401 --> 00:50:07,238 I wanted to make a puzzle piece for my son. 885 00:50:07,304 --> 00:50:08,706 ♪ 886 00:50:08,772 --> 00:50:11,408 And it means so much to me. 887 00:50:11,475 --> 00:50:13,344 ♪ 888 00:50:13,444 --> 00:50:15,446 It really does. 889 00:50:15,512 --> 00:50:17,481 ♪ 890 00:50:17,548 --> 00:50:19,350 God, I miss that little boy. 891 00:50:19,416 --> 00:50:22,219 I miss him with all my heart. 892 00:50:22,286 --> 00:50:25,356 He's about to turn five. 893 00:50:25,422 --> 00:50:27,424 And I'm not gonna be there. 894 00:50:27,491 --> 00:50:29,260 [groans] 895 00:50:29,260 --> 00:50:33,097 ♪ 896 00:50:33,197 --> 00:50:38,035 I already miss so much just working all the time. 897 00:50:38,102 --> 00:50:42,506 I usually take off of work just for his birthday. 898 00:50:42,573 --> 00:50:45,743 Even if we don't do anything that day, 899 00:50:45,843 --> 00:50:49,713 I'm always there on his birthday. 900 00:50:49,780 --> 00:50:52,316 Always. 901 00:50:52,383 --> 00:50:55,152 I've really done a whole lot of nothing today, 902 00:50:55,219 --> 00:50:57,388 and I'm tired. 903 00:50:57,454 --> 00:50:59,990 It's ridiculous. 904 00:51:00,057 --> 00:51:02,059 [bleep] got to stop. 905 00:51:02,159 --> 00:51:04,194 ♪ 906 00:51:04,261 --> 00:51:08,098 This is the first birthday that I won't be there. 907 00:51:08,198 --> 00:51:11,635 It kind of makes you feel like a horrible, horrible parent. 908 00:51:11,702 --> 00:51:13,437 There. 909 00:51:13,504 --> 00:51:18,309 ♪ 910 00:51:18,309 --> 00:51:20,945 A little puzzle piece. 911 00:51:21,045 --> 00:51:22,913 I chose this style of puzzle piece 912 00:51:22,980 --> 00:51:25,716 because I made it look kind of like a little man. 913 00:51:27,584 --> 00:51:28,852 And that's what he represents. 914 00:51:28,953 --> 00:51:31,322 He's my little man. 915 00:51:31,388 --> 00:51:32,523 [sniffles] 916 00:51:32,590 --> 00:51:35,192 Now I got to put it on my dream catcher. 917 00:51:38,028 --> 00:51:42,499 And there it is, on my dream catcher. 918 00:51:44,401 --> 00:51:49,239 That little piece of wood right there represents... 919 00:51:49,306 --> 00:51:52,343 ♪ 920 00:51:52,443 --> 00:51:58,349 The most sincerest form of innocence 921 00:51:58,415 --> 00:52:01,085 and the sweetest boy you ever meet. 922 00:52:01,151 --> 00:52:08,158 ♪ 923 00:52:08,859 --> 00:52:10,260 I miss him so bad. 924 00:52:10,327 --> 00:52:12,696 I swear to God, it's a physical pain. 925 00:52:12,796 --> 00:52:15,933 ♪ 926 00:52:16,033 --> 00:52:18,035 It really is. 927 00:52:24,441 --> 00:52:27,344 [dramatic music] 928 00:52:27,444 --> 00:52:34,485 ♪ 929 00:52:45,662 --> 00:52:48,432 - Well, brr morning. 930 00:52:49,900 --> 00:52:52,069 It is cold. 931 00:52:52,069 --> 00:52:55,005 I don't know how cold, 932 00:52:55,072 --> 00:52:57,307 but it's cold. 933 00:52:58,575 --> 00:53:00,077 [rattling] 934 00:53:00,144 --> 00:53:01,211 That's the ice. 935 00:53:01,278 --> 00:53:05,516 I had to break ice on my water 936 00:53:05,582 --> 00:53:07,718 this morning to brush my teeth. 937 00:53:08,852 --> 00:53:12,022 The wind is blowing out of the North again. 938 00:53:12,089 --> 00:53:14,558 It's not an overly strong wind, 939 00:53:14,625 --> 00:53:16,827 but it's a cool wind. 940 00:53:18,028 --> 00:53:21,198 And I'm adjusting. 941 00:53:21,265 --> 00:53:22,633 Ready to go. 942 00:53:22,700 --> 00:53:25,769 Day 40, day 40, yes. 943 00:53:25,836 --> 00:53:32,843 ♪ 944 00:53:34,712 --> 00:53:37,948 - Ooh, winter is here, my friend. 945 00:53:38,015 --> 00:53:40,718 Winter is really here, so-- 946 00:53:40,784 --> 00:53:45,422 and we're gonna go fishing because I've got to get food. 947 00:53:45,489 --> 00:53:48,826 Yeah, we're gonna hike up to the fishing spot. 948 00:53:48,826 --> 00:53:51,895 But I'm not so-- 949 00:53:51,995 --> 00:53:53,664 I'm not so positive about that. 950 00:53:53,730 --> 00:53:56,834 I think the wind is blowing on the other side. 951 00:53:56,900 --> 00:53:59,603 Well, you know what? 952 00:53:59,670 --> 00:54:03,040 We're gonna do it. Gonna take a little walk, easy. 953 00:54:03,107 --> 00:54:04,475 ♪ 954 00:54:04,541 --> 00:54:06,810 - Snow. I knew it would be here. 955 00:54:06,877 --> 00:54:08,812 ♪ 956 00:54:08,879 --> 00:54:10,514 Holy cow. 957 00:54:10,581 --> 00:54:12,750 ♪ 958 00:54:12,816 --> 00:54:15,953 - I'm gonna be taking extra slow time. 959 00:54:16,019 --> 00:54:19,022 Now it's crucial not to get sweaty. 960 00:54:19,022 --> 00:54:21,125 ♪ 961 00:54:21,191 --> 00:54:24,895 I do have one dry pair of change of clothes. 962 00:54:24,995 --> 00:54:26,263 ♪ 963 00:54:26,330 --> 00:54:29,066 And we have to keep that that way. 964 00:54:29,066 --> 00:54:32,069 ♪ 965 00:54:32,069 --> 00:54:34,505 - Hope I don't trip. 966 00:54:34,605 --> 00:54:37,007 I feel sluggish. 967 00:54:37,074 --> 00:54:42,312 So I need to not do a lot of exhaustive work. 968 00:54:42,312 --> 00:54:43,680 ♪ 969 00:54:43,747 --> 00:54:47,384 Eh, are you sure? 970 00:54:47,451 --> 00:54:51,955 ♪ 971 00:54:52,022 --> 00:54:54,658 Should I go far? 972 00:54:54,758 --> 00:54:55,959 ♪ 973 00:54:56,026 --> 00:54:58,495 I just don't think that's the best choice. 974 00:54:58,595 --> 00:55:01,431 ♪ 975 00:55:01,498 --> 00:55:05,869 - Main goal is to get as many berries as we can. 976 00:55:05,869 --> 00:55:08,705 Because it keeps getting white around here. 977 00:55:08,806 --> 00:55:10,307 ♪ 978 00:55:10,307 --> 00:55:13,443 And I don't see it getting any better. 979 00:55:13,510 --> 00:55:14,812 ♪ 980 00:55:14,878 --> 00:55:17,648 I'm down to a handful of bear berries. 981 00:55:17,714 --> 00:55:20,417 There's virtually no crow berries around. 982 00:55:20,517 --> 00:55:23,987 I'm almost down to protein only. 983 00:55:24,054 --> 00:55:27,024 It's getting that cold. 984 00:55:27,024 --> 00:55:30,861 Thing about berries is, they'll give me my vitamin C, 985 00:55:30,861 --> 00:55:34,264 a couple other vitamins, a few calories. 986 00:55:34,264 --> 00:55:37,267 So I need to get all of 'em. 987 00:55:38,468 --> 00:55:40,304 OK. 988 00:55:40,404 --> 00:55:42,773 Back at the berry patch. 989 00:55:44,107 --> 00:55:47,411 I think I'm gonna start down here and work my way this way. 990 00:55:47,477 --> 00:55:48,846 ♪ 991 00:55:48,912 --> 00:55:51,248 How cold can it get here? 992 00:55:51,315 --> 00:55:53,584 Minus 30s, guaranteed. 993 00:55:53,650 --> 00:55:56,954 Minus 50 is a very strong probability. 994 00:55:57,020 --> 00:55:59,656 This place can be cruel. 995 00:55:59,756 --> 00:56:02,459 A lot of them are covered in snow already. 996 00:56:02,559 --> 00:56:04,661 ♪ 997 00:56:04,661 --> 00:56:08,398 Mother Nature is one that you have to work with her. 998 00:56:08,465 --> 00:56:12,069 If you ever think you're gonna beat her, you're a fool. 999 00:56:12,069 --> 00:56:13,370 ♪ 1000 00:56:13,437 --> 00:56:15,505 Days that the weather is rough, 1001 00:56:15,606 --> 00:56:18,909 I'm gonna have to find something to do. 1002 00:56:18,909 --> 00:56:20,410 - It's freezing [bleep] cold. 1003 00:56:20,477 --> 00:56:22,246 ♪ 1004 00:56:22,312 --> 00:56:25,115 That's amazing. 1005 00:56:25,182 --> 00:56:28,318 The ground's frozen in here. 1006 00:56:28,385 --> 00:56:31,421 Piece of wood is frozen. 1007 00:56:34,491 --> 00:56:37,594 ♪ 1008 00:56:37,661 --> 00:56:41,198 Ain't that just some [bleep]. 1009 00:56:41,265 --> 00:56:43,867 - It's kind of like a process. 1010 00:56:43,934 --> 00:56:47,404 It's not even a day at a time. It's a moment at a time. 1011 00:56:47,471 --> 00:56:50,908 And I believe that the land will tell me 1012 00:56:50,974 --> 00:56:53,877 what I should do next. 1013 00:56:53,944 --> 00:56:58,548 - Got one or two more reindeer mosses to process. 1014 00:56:58,548 --> 00:57:01,618 I'll do that today, just keep the fire going. 1015 00:57:01,718 --> 00:57:04,821 And I can come back and get warm if I need it too. 1016 00:57:04,821 --> 00:57:08,158 ♪ 1017 00:57:08,225 --> 00:57:10,394 - Nature doesn't judge. 1018 00:57:10,460 --> 00:57:14,898 Nature gives you every opportunity to succeed 1019 00:57:14,998 --> 00:57:17,367 and every chance to fail. 1020 00:57:17,434 --> 00:57:20,971 It's what you do with it that makes a difference. 1021 00:57:21,038 --> 00:57:22,639 - Let's walk down to the water, 1022 00:57:22,706 --> 00:57:24,007 see how it looks. 1023 00:57:24,074 --> 00:57:26,109 ♪ 1024 00:57:26,109 --> 00:57:27,544 Oh, look at that. 1025 00:57:27,644 --> 00:57:29,546 ♪ 1026 00:57:29,646 --> 00:57:30,981 The fishing hole is calling me, 1027 00:57:31,081 --> 00:57:33,583 even though that's my fishing rock down there, 1028 00:57:33,650 --> 00:57:36,119 the one jutting out there, just covered in snow 1029 00:57:36,186 --> 00:57:37,421 almost right down to the shore. 1030 00:57:37,487 --> 00:57:39,790 I'm hoping that the part down by the water 1031 00:57:39,856 --> 00:57:41,591 is not covered in ice. 1032 00:57:41,658 --> 00:57:42,993 ♪ 1033 00:57:43,060 --> 00:57:45,862 It's hard to know how many people are left. 1034 00:57:45,929 --> 00:57:48,432 What adventures have they had? 1035 00:57:48,498 --> 00:57:49,800 Have they got food stored? 1036 00:57:49,866 --> 00:57:52,202 Have they got two weeks of fish? 1037 00:57:52,269 --> 00:57:53,804 - I think that's good. 1038 00:57:53,870 --> 00:57:56,006 ♪ 1039 00:57:56,073 --> 00:58:00,077 But I think I'm gonna throw the gloves on for a bit, 1040 00:58:00,143 --> 00:58:02,913 warm the body back up. 1041 00:58:02,980 --> 00:58:05,749 - Days like this really test your will to be here, 1042 00:58:05,749 --> 00:58:07,584 let me tell you. 1043 00:58:07,651 --> 00:58:09,386 Because you know you can just leave. 1044 00:58:09,386 --> 00:58:11,822 I could press that button. 1045 00:58:11,822 --> 00:58:14,424 It's tempting, knowing that it's that easy 1046 00:58:14,491 --> 00:58:17,427 to be this close to comfort. 1047 00:58:17,494 --> 00:58:19,963 We'll see how my body feels. 1048 00:58:20,030 --> 00:58:21,264 Like, I've come this far. 1049 00:58:21,331 --> 00:58:23,600 I might as well go all the way, 1050 00:58:23,667 --> 00:58:25,469 as far as I can push it. 1051 00:58:25,535 --> 00:58:28,505 ♪ 1052 00:58:32,376 --> 00:58:35,512 [dramatic music] 1053 00:58:35,512 --> 00:58:42,552 ♪ 1054 00:58:57,367 --> 00:58:59,870 ♪ 1055 00:58:59,936 --> 00:59:02,305 - I don't have a lot of energy to go hunting. 1056 00:59:02,406 --> 00:59:07,711 ♪ 1057 00:59:07,778 --> 00:59:10,947 Oh, I can barely walk. 1058 00:59:11,048 --> 00:59:12,149 ♪ 1059 00:59:12,149 --> 00:59:13,917 [sighs] 1060 00:59:13,984 --> 00:59:16,286 ♪ 1061 00:59:16,353 --> 00:59:19,656 People can just, like, fall and stay there on the ground. 1062 00:59:19,756 --> 00:59:21,391 [groans] 1063 00:59:21,458 --> 00:59:23,827 ♪ 1064 00:59:23,827 --> 00:59:27,864 And I don't know how long I can keep up with that. 1065 00:59:27,931 --> 00:59:32,769 ♪ 1066 00:59:32,836 --> 00:59:36,239 [groans] God. 1067 00:59:42,045 --> 00:59:45,315 This challenge has been making me reflect a lot. 1068 00:59:45,382 --> 00:59:46,983 ♪ 1069 00:59:46,983 --> 00:59:49,086 It's a pressure of survival. 1070 00:59:49,152 --> 00:59:51,655 And the stress of not having food for the future 1071 00:59:51,755 --> 00:59:55,826 makes you reflect on your own life. 1072 00:59:55,826 --> 00:59:57,194 I miss home. 1073 00:59:57,260 --> 01:00:00,163 But then I ask, but where is home? 1074 01:00:00,230 --> 01:00:02,299 ♪ 1075 01:00:02,399 --> 01:00:05,368 Is home the tree house where I live in in the birch trees? 1076 01:00:05,435 --> 01:00:06,636 ♪ 1077 01:00:06,703 --> 01:00:09,473 Is home Brazil, with my family? 1078 01:00:09,539 --> 01:00:10,974 ♪ 1079 01:00:11,041 --> 01:00:13,710 I miss my kids. 1080 01:00:13,777 --> 01:00:16,079 I've been living away from their lives 1081 01:00:16,146 --> 01:00:18,281 since they were three. 1082 01:00:23,587 --> 01:00:25,822 I'm doing this with the hope of winning 1083 01:00:25,822 --> 01:00:30,427 $1/2 million to bring my kids to live with me. 1084 01:00:30,494 --> 01:00:33,296 But I think I have a little window. 1085 01:00:33,396 --> 01:00:35,265 My kids are gonna go away soon, 1086 01:00:35,332 --> 01:00:38,502 building their own family. 1087 01:00:38,602 --> 01:00:42,305 And the fear is turning this epic adventure 1088 01:00:42,405 --> 01:00:46,209 into a great regret. 1089 01:00:46,276 --> 01:00:50,914 My legs are wobbly and barely can walk around. 1090 01:00:50,914 --> 01:00:55,752 And I do not want long-term health complications. 1091 01:00:55,819 --> 01:00:57,988 But I love this place. 1092 01:00:58,054 --> 01:01:01,625 And I want to go as far as I can. 1093 01:01:01,691 --> 01:01:06,029 ♪ 1094 01:01:06,096 --> 01:01:08,465 I don't know. 1095 01:01:08,532 --> 01:01:12,869 ♪ 1096 01:01:12,869 --> 01:01:15,872 [beeping] 1097 01:01:17,207 --> 01:01:20,911 Hi, this is Taz, and I am officially tapping out. 1098 01:01:20,977 --> 01:01:25,148 ♪ 1099 01:01:25,148 --> 01:01:29,519 I tried my best, but it's time to go back. 1100 01:01:29,586 --> 01:01:30,987 ♪ 1101 01:01:31,054 --> 01:01:34,024 I'll figure out a different way to bring you guys here 1102 01:01:34,024 --> 01:01:37,427 and to help you guys explore this new world. 1103 01:01:37,494 --> 01:01:44,467 ♪ 1104 01:01:46,870 --> 01:01:49,673 I'm tapping out because I'm weak. 1105 01:01:49,739 --> 01:01:53,677 I cannot procure food effectively. 1106 01:01:53,743 --> 01:01:56,012 And without food, if you're sluggish, 1107 01:01:56,079 --> 01:01:59,282 feel tired, and you feel more emotional-- 1108 01:01:59,349 --> 01:02:02,085 yeah, and that's a very hard thing. 1109 01:02:02,152 --> 01:02:04,554 That's just hard. 1110 01:02:06,389 --> 01:02:10,026 I think I have not spent enough quality time 1111 01:02:10,026 --> 01:02:13,263 with my friends and family, you know. 1112 01:02:13,263 --> 01:02:16,800 I'm always like, get things done, and conquer things, 1113 01:02:16,866 --> 01:02:19,569 and not slowing down to spend quality time. 1114 01:02:19,636 --> 01:02:23,106 And that's something that I have to put in place 1115 01:02:23,206 --> 01:02:27,310 because time passes, you know. 1116 01:02:27,310 --> 01:02:31,114 That's something that this place showed me. 1117 01:02:31,181 --> 01:02:33,984 ♪ 1118 01:02:34,050 --> 01:02:36,987 Through my life, I feel that I have displaced 1119 01:02:36,987 --> 01:02:39,222 different chunks of time. 1120 01:02:39,222 --> 01:02:42,359 For example, at a young age to be a father, 1121 01:02:42,425 --> 01:02:45,862 you end up missing out on being a kid 1122 01:02:45,929 --> 01:02:49,666 because you have responsibility very early on. 1123 01:02:49,733 --> 01:02:52,469 But being here in the woods was a great opportunity 1124 01:02:52,535 --> 01:02:54,671 to shuffle things into a different order 1125 01:02:54,738 --> 01:02:58,308 that give me a little bit of control of my future. 1126 01:02:58,375 --> 01:03:00,043 I came to win. 1127 01:03:00,110 --> 01:03:04,080 And that didn't really pan out for me. 1128 01:03:04,147 --> 01:03:05,482 But you know what, 1129 01:03:05,548 --> 01:03:08,985 I grew up in the tiniest state of Brazil. 1130 01:03:09,052 --> 01:03:12,188 And against all odds, 11 years ago, 1131 01:03:12,255 --> 01:03:15,191 I came to the U.S. and didn't speak a word in English. 1132 01:03:15,258 --> 01:03:17,394 Now I'm on this show, and surviving, 1133 01:03:17,460 --> 01:03:18,895 and speaking in English. 1134 01:03:18,995 --> 01:03:21,398 And if I can make all that happen, 1135 01:03:21,464 --> 01:03:24,567 what I would like to say to my kids is, I love you, 1136 01:03:24,634 --> 01:03:27,771 and that we're gonna be together in this new chapter 1137 01:03:27,837 --> 01:03:30,173 of our lives soon. 1138 01:03:30,240 --> 01:03:33,510 [Wind whistling] 1139 01:03:33,576 --> 01:03:35,278 - Are you ready to check the deadfall? 1140 01:03:35,345 --> 01:03:37,347 Three, two, one. 1141 01:03:37,447 --> 01:03:39,883 Yes, we have a mouse. 1142 01:03:39,949 --> 01:03:41,918 Is there actually any meat on you? 1143 01:03:41,985 --> 01:03:43,486 No, not really. 1144 01:03:43,553 --> 01:03:45,021 - I'm worried I'm not eating enough. 1145 01:03:45,088 --> 01:03:46,656 I just feel really weak. 1146 01:03:46,756 --> 01:03:48,324 There's bears in the area. 1147 01:03:48,391 --> 01:03:50,560 I don't want to take any chances. 1148 01:03:50,627 --> 01:03:52,062 ♪ 1149 01:03:52,128 --> 01:03:53,430 Whoo! 1150 01:03:53,496 --> 01:03:55,665 Happy birthday! 1151 01:03:55,665 --> 01:03:57,267 - Holy [bleep]. 1152 01:03:57,267 --> 01:04:01,371 My arm, I feel discomfort. 1153 01:04:01,438 --> 01:04:03,373 I squeeze this. 1154 01:04:03,440 --> 01:04:06,543 ♪ 1155 01:04:06,643 --> 01:04:09,012 Oh, [bleep]. 1156 01:04:09,079 --> 01:04:12,515 ♪ 1157 01:04:17,253 --> 01:04:20,156 [dramatic music] 1158 01:04:20,256 --> 01:04:27,163 ♪ ♪ 1159 01:04:27,263 --> 01:04:29,566 - The weather is picking up, and I went on a hunt 1160 01:04:29,666 --> 01:04:33,803 and I barely made it back. 1161 01:04:33,903 --> 01:04:35,839 This experience has been 1162 01:04:35,939 --> 01:04:37,807 illuminating for me, for my life. 1163 01:04:37,907 --> 01:04:40,777 Have revealed need for family. 1164 01:04:40,877 --> 01:04:42,912 My daughter, she was going to come to pick me up, 1165 01:04:43,012 --> 01:04:45,348 you know, when I win this. 1166 01:04:45,448 --> 01:04:47,984 It's gonna be hard to tell her, like, 1167 01:04:48,084 --> 01:04:49,652 I was not able to make it, you know? 1168 01:04:49,753 --> 01:04:53,256 ♪ ♪ 1169 01:04:53,356 --> 01:04:56,259 Sorry, guys. It's the end of the road. 1170 01:04:56,359 --> 01:04:58,695 ♪ ♪ 1171 01:04:58,795 --> 01:05:02,499 I was betting on fishing and the big game. 1172 01:05:02,599 --> 01:05:06,469 So I was hiking far, even on empty, to get big game. 1173 01:05:06,569 --> 01:05:08,171 But the weather has been, like, 1174 01:05:08,271 --> 01:05:11,541 very chaotic and, like, you know, unpredictable, 1175 01:05:11,641 --> 01:05:13,877 and with extreme winds, it's really, you know, hard 1176 01:05:13,977 --> 01:05:17,580 on hunting and fishing, for sure. 1177 01:05:17,680 --> 01:05:20,683 How can I hunt if I just walk, you know, a mile 1178 01:05:20,784 --> 01:05:23,686 and I barely can come back to the shelter now? 1179 01:05:23,787 --> 01:05:25,288 ♪ ♪ 1180 01:05:25,388 --> 01:05:27,624 Feel a little bit like a failure, you know? 1181 01:05:27,724 --> 01:05:30,727 ♪ ♪ 1182 01:05:30,827 --> 01:05:35,298 You know, and disappointing friends that think that-- 1183 01:05:35,398 --> 01:05:37,233 thought I would win. 1184 01:05:37,333 --> 01:05:40,403 I thought I would win too, but... 1185 01:05:40,503 --> 01:05:43,706 didn't happen, and... 1186 01:05:43,807 --> 01:05:46,543 I feel like, "Damn it, man." 1187 01:05:46,643 --> 01:05:48,945 Really wanted to go further. 1188 01:05:49,045 --> 01:05:51,614 But it's hard when you don't have food 1189 01:05:51,714 --> 01:05:55,251 or the energy to continue. 1190 01:05:55,351 --> 01:05:58,888 ♪ ♪ 1191 01:05:58,988 --> 01:06:00,390 Thank you. 1192 01:06:00,490 --> 01:06:06,796 ♪ ♪ 1193 01:06:06,896 --> 01:06:09,499 Ah. 1194 01:06:09,599 --> 01:06:12,302 Sorry, man, I didn't stay longer. 1195 01:06:12,402 --> 01:06:16,806 ♪ ♪ 1196 01:06:16,906 --> 01:06:19,209 This so good. What is this, bone broth? 1197 01:06:19,309 --> 01:06:20,877 - Beef. - Beef broth. 1198 01:06:20,977 --> 01:06:23,513 - Beef bone broth, yeah. 1199 01:06:23,613 --> 01:06:25,181 - Five days, I've been thinking about carrots. 1200 01:06:25,281 --> 01:06:29,052 [laughing] 1201 01:06:29,152 --> 01:06:30,587 Weird, right? 1202 01:06:30,687 --> 01:06:33,456 ♪ ♪ 1203 01:06:33,556 --> 01:06:35,925 This is place is a beautiful place. 1204 01:06:36,025 --> 01:06:39,229 And it's my little home out here. 1205 01:06:39,329 --> 01:06:41,231 I do not want to leave. 1206 01:06:41,331 --> 01:06:43,700 But nature made her decision. 1207 01:06:43,800 --> 01:06:46,202 And it's time 1208 01:06:46,302 --> 01:06:50,540 to go and embrace the decision I have made. 1209 01:06:50,640 --> 01:06:51,741 ♪ ♪ 1210 01:06:51,841 --> 01:06:53,877 I want to leave this experience 1211 01:06:53,977 --> 01:06:56,279 with a sense of accomplishment, 1212 01:06:56,379 --> 01:07:00,817 not with a sense of resentment. 1213 01:07:00,917 --> 01:07:03,853 So my story continues. 1214 01:07:03,953 --> 01:07:06,990 And this experience makes me grow, 1215 01:07:07,090 --> 01:07:11,661 adds to my arsenal of adventure 1216 01:07:11,761 --> 01:07:16,866 that took me out of tough times in life. 1217 01:07:16,966 --> 01:07:19,636 - It's nice and warm in here. - Wow. 1218 01:07:19,736 --> 01:07:24,874 ♪ ♪ 1219 01:07:24,974 --> 01:07:26,576 - And the heart's felt fine the whole time? 1220 01:07:26,676 --> 01:07:28,077 No issues with it racing? - No issue. 1221 01:07:28,177 --> 01:07:29,579 - No issues with having to catch your breath 1222 01:07:29,679 --> 01:07:31,414 on exertion or anything? - No. 1223 01:07:31,514 --> 01:07:33,249 - Is the weakness localized anywhere? 1224 01:07:33,349 --> 01:07:34,884 Is it just kind of entire body? 1225 01:07:34,984 --> 01:07:36,719 Is it more legs? Is it more arms? 1226 01:07:36,819 --> 01:07:38,288 - More legs. - More legs. 1227 01:07:38,388 --> 01:07:40,690 - More legs, yeah. 1228 01:07:40,790 --> 01:07:42,759 Does it mean anything, more legs, no? 1229 01:07:42,859 --> 01:07:45,228 - No, these are things that I would expect. 1230 01:07:45,328 --> 01:07:46,763 Basically, you're not putting 1231 01:07:46,863 --> 01:07:49,132 as much nutrients into your body as you need. 1232 01:07:49,232 --> 01:07:50,700 - Okay. 1233 01:07:50,800 --> 01:07:54,637 - So take your left arm. 1234 01:07:54,737 --> 01:07:57,740 [both speaking Portuguese] 1235 01:08:03,346 --> 01:08:05,682 - I'm pretty happy with how you're looking right now. 1236 01:08:05,782 --> 01:08:08,484 I like seeing people come out in your state 1237 01:08:08,584 --> 01:08:09,986 because you could do 1238 01:08:10,086 --> 01:08:12,855 significantly more damage to your body. 1239 01:08:12,956 --> 01:08:15,325 And then we'll get all your gear 1240 01:08:15,425 --> 01:08:17,026 transferred over to your new place. 1241 01:08:17,126 --> 01:08:18,628 - Okay. - And then we'll get you set up 1242 01:08:18,728 --> 01:08:19,796 so you can have a nice hot shower 1243 01:08:19,896 --> 01:08:20,830 and get cooking later. 1244 01:08:20,930 --> 01:08:23,933 - Oh. Is that a thing? 1245 01:08:24,033 --> 01:08:25,335 Hot shower? - Hot shower. 1246 01:08:25,435 --> 01:08:28,771 - Is a thing? Does it exist? - We have a hot shower. 1247 01:08:28,871 --> 01:08:32,041 I can promise. - Okay, neat. 1248 01:08:32,141 --> 01:08:36,612 Being out here, I realized that what keeps me going is, 1249 01:08:36,713 --> 01:08:38,781 you know, loved ones and family 1250 01:08:38,881 --> 01:08:41,284 and that energy that I know they are thinking of me, 1251 01:08:41,384 --> 01:08:44,153 and I want to go back home and feel heard 1252 01:08:44,253 --> 01:08:47,156 and to be cared for and that sense of connection. 1253 01:08:47,256 --> 01:08:54,263 ♪ ♪