[dramatic music]
♪
- Oh, man.
I'm not feeling well at all.
I realized today that my body could not be pushed
as much as I thought it could.
So I'm gonna double up on my food.
I'm so full right now.
- I'll take a little quick walk around here.
I set out to adapt to this land.
And I've achieved that.
Squirrel.
Knock on wood, I'm feeling really strong
in this game now.
- I stabbed myself in the arm.
I pulled about 1 1/2 inch piece of wood out.
Oh.
I probably shouldn't have done that.
I've got all the other stuff out of it, I'm sure.
- I want to stay out here for as long as I can
and push myself.
[gasps] It's a giant pike.
The days to push are coming. I know.
Oh!
He just took my lure.
- This is disgusting. Ugh.
This was my food, like, for the next ten days.
Maggots.
I don't know what to do now.
[sighs]
♪
- I'm gonna do this, man. I'm gonna do this.
I'm gonna fight this thing out to the last breath.
♪
- OK.
Game on. [bear growls]
- [groans]
- I got him.
narrator: In "Alone's" most remote location yet...
- Yes!
narrator: Ten participants set out to survive at all costs...
- [groans] - My goal is stay alive.
♪
- [inhales sharply] Ah!
narrator: Battling extreme isolation...
- There is no camera crews.
You are really alone. [sighs]
- It'll eat at you, tear you up.
- God, why? - It's a battle.
Nobody ever comes out the same.
- Oh, man.
- It'd be impossible to.
narrator: And fierce predators.
- A big bear is right outside my shelter.
- Predators like that damn sure gonna kill you.
- Please don't rip my face off. [animal screeches]
- He bit the hell out of me.
narrator: They'll endure merciless wind...
- It's been over 60 hours, and it has not let up.
- I can hear the trees falling down around me.
narrator: And bitter cold.
- This whole place has turned into a frozen hell.
narrator: Last one standing...
- It's a moose. Wow.
- Whoo-hoo-hoo-hoo!
- No, no.
narrator: Wins.
♪
- That's it.
I've taken all I can stand.
And I just can't stand no more.
These rats are getting on my nerves.
Kept me up late last night.
I set up a prop stick and string.
And they were chewing on the top of my damn pan.
And so it was really loud. [imitates screeching]
And whenever I'd hear that, I'd pull the string.
And it actually caught me four rats.
I guess I'm gonna skin and gut them, cook 'em.
[soft music]
I think these are the smallest animals
I've ever skinned in my life.
I think I won the rat war for now.
I was told to be thankful for everything.
One little cleaned rat.
I'm thankful for being here. This is a dream come true.
Wish I had more food.
♪
Two down, two to go.
I tell you what, by the end of this,
I'm gonna be a rat skinning expert.
That squirrel was good.
Make a tasty little snack.
♪
That's three.
Getting the little damn thing started
is the hardest [bleep] part here,
pulling out his fur.
There's four little skinned out rats.
Two of these guys will be cooking today.
Mm, rat brains.
Skewered a rat.
♪
Eating rats...
♪
It's basically a mind over matter thing.
If you don't mind, it don't matter.
One day, I hope I can sit down with my son
and do some more bushcraft.
I want to be able to do something with him,
even go shoot a bow.
Of course, he can't do that right now.
I want to take him out, get his first deer.
It's a big moment in a boy's life.
It's a big moment in a daddy's life.
Some things will be harder for him.
Some things will be easier for him.
But he doesn't have a tap out button.
That's why I'm here,
to make the rest of his life a lot easier.
All I have to do is win.
Another whole rat.
And I've got two put away.
[burps]
[dramatic music]
♪
- I was kind of half asleep, laying in my bed,
and a critter ran over my arm.
That's right. It was a mouse.
You know what he was doing?
Staring at me like this.
Just, with his beady little black eyes.
And I've named him Scotty.
Look at this.
This is the sweater that my wife knit me.
And he chewed the hell out of it.
Like, that's not good.
He's going to chew my sleeping bag, right?
Man, this guy's dead. It's on.
[tense music]
It's time to put together my deadfall mouse trap.
♪
Find the flattest side of the rock.
That should do the trick.
OK.
Now I need my little trigger mechanism.
I need a thin piece of wood.
So far, this challenge has been quite enjoyable.
But every day there was a challenging moment.
And I just have ten items to survive
in a harsh environment.
So when a mouse starts impacting your ability
to stay warm and wrecking your stuff,
I've got to get rid of this little mouse.
♪
All right, let's see.
Set this bad boy,
just like so.
♪
Don't move, Mister.
♪
OK.
We have it set.
I just need some bait.
It's mouse wars with Alan and Scotty.
Well, let's get to some fishing.
[upbeat music]
♪
Guys, big news.
This is the new and improved lake trout baby.
And it's pike proof.
See that?
I didn't have a--
my leader only came to about there.
So the pike grabbed it.
And he got really sharp teeth, so my line was--
so went to set the hook, it cut it.
So now, lake trout baby two, pike proof.
He's got two smaller razor sharp hooks.
And the body is smaller,
so it's gonna get swallowed up more.
I just need to get a strike, or two, or three, you know.
On a cold day like this, somehow, I doubt it.
But you just never know.
I think if you want to just focus on the negative
out here, it would be really easy.
But my wife said to me, "Al, find something each morning
to be thankful for, gifts that the land gives you."
Even though it sounds kind of corny like that,
but every time I fish, it's just so gorgeous
seeing all the wildlife, the birds,
and memorizing their songs.
And that's a gift.
Come on, lake trout.
Let's try one over here.
And even though I didn't get that pike,
man, it was a gift.
I'm never gonna forget that.
It was pretty cool.
Geez, that's a good long gust.
Holy moly.
Oh.
[tense music]
Right up there.
♪
I just heard a bunch of grouse flying up here.
♪
These things have been my nemesis, though.
I can never see them.
♪
Where did they go?
♪
Here, I see one.
He's spread far.
♪
[dramatic music]
♪
- Oh, God, yeah. [laughs]
Oh, my God.
That drilled him.
[laughs] What?
Wow, what a treat, man.
These things have been my nemesis.
Oh, finally.
I finally caught up with one.
Whoo!
Yeah, they've been--
I've been pretty frustrated hunting these guys
because they just have been so evasive for me.
And just, I can't see them.
And by the time I know that they're there,
they're already flying away because that's the only reason
I know that they were there.
Yeah, super pumped.
We got a little chicken for tomorrow.
[dramatic music]
♪
- Good morning.
Just going out for fishing now.
The food I have, I can stretch it for like five, six days.
I want to go hunting.
I want to try hard to get a moose for the winter.
And for that, I really need to eat a lot.
Otherwise, I walk, and I'm tripping.
I don't want to get hurt and be pulled out.
♪
[bleep]
And I was depending just on active fishing
with my rod and reel.
We need $1/2 million.
It's what I want.
So fishing is crucial.
But I grew up in a fishing village,
so the odds are in my favor here.
[vocalizing]
[laughs]
♪ Fish
[vocalizing]
♪
If I get some more fish and more small game,
then I can chase the big game
because that's the ticket.
At that point, the possibility of winning, it's big.
♪
Oh, my God.
Yes, yes.
♪
Got a pike, my friend.
I got a pike.
Beautiful.
♪
We got fish.
It's fish head soup day.
Fish head soup, fish head soup.
If you ration in the point that you're not productive,
it just doesn't make sense
because if you're weak, you don't go hunting.
If you don't go hunting, you don't get food.
But if I eat now, feel better,
then I'm gonna go hunting,
or I'm gonna go fishing.
I got to protect this food because everyone wants it.
Getting big game is very important,
but you have to use a lot of energy to get to it,
so I need to eat.
There we go.
♪
And let's have some food.
Mm, rich, warm broth.
[animal chirping]
♪
What's that?
♪
Here it is.
[marten screeches]
[impact]
[dramatic music]
- Here it is. [marten screeches]
[impact]
[sighs]
We got a marten.
There we go.
I knew you were gonna come back.
Probably was, like, the smell of the fish.
My trout stealer.
My trout robber.
Revenge!
He ate a whole trout.
But I finally got the marten.
Now my food is gonna be safe.
For now.
♪
Well, that trout that you stole turned into nice fat there.
And food insecurity really creates long-lasting trauma.
[sighs]
I'm gonna eat the organs.
♪
Fry the guts there.
It's mostly the fear of starving
that gets to your head.
♪
OK, this is the head.
♪
You have an acquired taste, I must say.
This is this marten tongue.
♪
Mm.
♪
Mm, brain.
♪
I feel better.
I'm full.
Just made me feel like, whew, I want more.
It make me feel like I want to hunt a moose.
♪
- God.
OK.
I'm trying to get some sleep.
And I just keep feeling this vibration, this...
[imitating screeching] Oh, these damn mouse.
They're just like--but then, it felt really, really close.
Really close.
And I roll over, and I look.
On my bed, chewing, Scotty.
So I got my revenge.
♪
I killed him with my bare hands.
I smacked him like a bug.
Like, what a bold little bugger.
I feel no remorse for killing you, sir.
♪
His chewing days are over.
[dramatic music]
♪
- Well, it's not snow.
But it did blow half a gale last night.
Absolutely crazy.
But today's a new day from wild and windy wonderland.
♪
Lighting a fire is very difficult
when it's very windy.
I mean, I don't mind. I'm a pyro.
So for me, I just go for it, and it kind of happens.
But at the same time, you want to think
about conserving energy and doing things quickly.
I am eager to finish my fire shelter.
I really want to get that done.
♪
I'm just so happy I have a good store of berries.
And, you know, with this weather,
the berries will start dying.
One cup of berries, 200 calories.
And I have lots of cups of berries.
I just want to do things the easiest way
because I don't want to lose calories needlessly.
I love working hard, but I also want to work smart.
That's really as about as tall as I'm going for height-wise.
♪
I definitely use my knowledge of how
people survived in history to help myself in the present.
I remembered something which I'd learnt when I was studying
the soldiers, both the French and the English,
during the wars in the 1750s.
So this is birch, and it's absolutely saturated.
And what you can do is use it as a temporary putty on gaps.
And right now, with this wind,
that's exactly what I'm gonna do with it.
I learned it from an account of a soldier's journey
from one fort to another.
And the punky wood really is so malleable,
you can just press it into the crevices like this.
And it creates this airtight barrier.
It's amazing.
OK.
That looks good.
I want to make a fire, boil some water...
Part of this "Alone" experience is your head.
It's always your mind that gives up on you.
Busy hands and busy minds are very important.
'Cause it's when people get bored,
that's when they start thinking negative thoughts.
I find that most humans need other humans to feel sane.
If they don't have companionship,
if they don't have someone to talk to, then they--
they tap out.
Water's boiling.
I'll take that inside when I'm ready.
There we go.
I know I should get up.
[laughs]
But I'm so comfy.
The sky is an interesting color.
♪
These are snow clouds.
They're heavy.
♪
And they have sunlight in them too.
♪
Can't allow yourself to dwell too much on home.
♪
Otherwise, it gets you.
♪
You sit looking at that direction.
And you know that's where it is over the horizon.
♪
It's tough, man.
All the things I love are over there.
♪
[sniffles]
♪
[crying]
[exhales sharply]
Deep breaths.
Pull yourself together.
You'll be there soon enough.
[dramatic music]
♪
- So I've got some meat and some bones
that I'm wanting to grind.
It'll grind.
I found a stone with a divot in it,
and I found a stone with a round end.
So I can use them as my pestle and mortar.
I have all kinds of dried out meat and bones.
I had been saving 'em from my grouse and rats
that I killed and stuff like that.
I'm going to grind 'em all up and make my pemmican.
It's the nastiest [bleep] you'll ever put in your mouth.
It is terrible, but it's full of fat,
and it's full of protein.
My God, that's just awesome.
So far, I have that much powdered meat.
I just need a little fat.
I wonder if anybody else out here has got
a powdered meat bag.
I'm almost willing to say that they don't.
♪
All right.
See if we can't go find something to eat.
All your protein around here is made to get away from you.
It has natural camouflage that has kept it alive.
Anything that can kill it, it has evolved to avoid that.
♪
Well, I found some berries, which is awesome.
Edibles don't run.
Edibles don't fly.
Not a whole lot of berries left around here.
I've been taking every opportunity
that I can out here.
So I carry forage bags on me at all times.
♪
Here's some more berries.
If you have a wealth of knowledge
of the basic edibles in an area,
then you can live for a long time
and not have to worry so much about proteins.
And you can sustain yourself until you have an opportunity
to get those proteins.
I don't want to go without food,
but I want to reserve just in case,
if I can't go outside for three days.
Temperature is starting to drop again.
Fingers are starting to get cold.
And when I get back to the Sasquatch hut,
maybe try to make a little fruit leather.
Then I can have pemmican and fruit leather.
♪
I didn't get grass.
But I did get a [bleep] ton of berries,
which is awesome because berries are real hard
to find right now.
All right.
So I've got about a handful of cranberries in my pot.
Gonna crush 'em up and then strain 'em.
♪
This is just my skill set.
I'm a modern day caveman.
I can do this, and I can swing a hammer.
Haven't made $500,000 swinging a hammer,
nor will I ever.
I know my purpose out here. I know why I'm here.
I can't afford the therapy that my son needs.
That's why.
There's my goo.
♪
All right, I'm gonna start by putting one twist
in this thing right here,
shoving the whole damn thing in the jar.
♪
I'd say that's most of the juice out of that one.
I know that there's groups online and stuff
that just bash everybody that's been on "Alone."
And I'm sure that I'm gonna hear about it
with my special needs child.
I think people take for granted all the things
that they can do with their kids.
So here I am out here in the woods all alone.
And if I do win this, in all of his life,
he'll never have to want for anything.
He's the reason I want to leave.
He's the reason I want to stay.
See that?
That's fruit leather. Look.
Look at that.
Man, that's awesome.
I feel like I'm making progress here.
♪
- Heading out.
Should go check my snares and go check the spot
that I've seen moose tracks.
A few days ago, I went through a big marsh.
And I could see footprints.
Everything was moose.
You can survive here without big game.
But if you get a big game, I mean,
your job is just to eat and sleep.
And with the winter coming, that's what I want.
And today as well.
And I think that was a good choice
because you have to use a lot of energy
to go hunting and hike a lot.
[leaves rustling]
The wind is blowing right through my scene location here.
All right. Let's get out of the wind.
I'm gonna go back to the shelter
and work on my project.
♪
Oh.
Let's continue.
Hey.
So this is the soundboard.
It's a board I found
on the shore.
And this is the sound box, and the neck,
and the place you put the pegs to hold the strings.
♪
Music is something actually new in my life.
But acting was for years my job.
I really value and love the arts.
There is a human connection.
I have to be very careful because I know
it's been a lot of work already.
So I'll run it through myself.
I had very good support in that from my mother.
But my stepfather, you know,
he was not accepting the way I was.
He was rough around the edges, and he was firm.
This is good.
I needed to work more hours on the field
to plant cassava and stuff like that.
There was that expectation.
Now I'm adding a string to test,
a test string here.
♪
[plucks string]
For example, he didn't like I played soccer.
It was a waste of time.
♪
There we go.
We have three holes where you can
put the strings through.
Let's tune it.
Today, what I see of him in me,
it's being resilient.
What we are different is the level of creativity.
[plucking strings]
And I'm hoping that, watching this,
and he see my journey, and the challenges, and the successes,
I hope he feel proud
because he has taught me many skills needed
to survive in the woods.
And maybe this could be healing,
not just for me, but also for him.
All right.
Some improvement to be made.
But nevertheless, a fun start.
[plays guitar]
[dramatic music]
♪
What's she look like?
Ah.
It doesn't look too bad anymore.
♪
Oh.
♪
Ugh.
Look, she still got a--ugh.
♪
Still got a fair bit of stuff in it though.
♪
Be a thing of beauty.
I think I'm gonna leave that.
Nah.
I probably should put a Band-Aid on it.
Come this far, may as well keep it as clean
as we can.
There.
Now you got stuff for the fire. [chuckles]
Biohazard.
♪
Now that that's done,
let's go see if the fishing gods
will smile upon us once more.
Brr.
It is cold out there, campers.
♪
Let's catch a fish.
You ready, little devil?
I'm ready too.
There we go.
♪
I'm not ready for snow yet,
but it's not gonna be long.
The winter is coming.
♪
Come on, fish.
Where is the fish?
Where's the fish?
It's been cold.
And the fish have really been down.
They're just not hitting.
Yeah, I haven't even seen a follow up.
Nothing this morning.
They've shut down on the lures for a bit.
And it's been a couple days,
and nothing in the gill net.
[blowing]
Wow, it's amazing how quick the hands cool off.
My reel, my rod, they don't work with gloves,
so it's cold.
So fishing's gonna kind of suck.
But the hands need a quick warm up.
Wow.
♪
Try this again, shall we?
♪
I'm on the last loop on my belt,
so I've lost some weight.
I was hoping I wouldn't do it quite this quickly,
but we are counting up on day 40.
No fish.
Damn.
So we can hunker down, you know,
keep my portions smaller.
And we'll see what this weather does.
It's got the potential to really drop in temperature.
She won't be long, and we'll be ice fishing.
Brr.
♪
- Last night, I had a massive bout of homesickness
as I was sitting by the fire.
Oh, man.
Really tough.
Just being away makes you really appreciate someone,
you know?
So, yeah, just missing him
and missing our amazing life up on the mountain.
♪
I'm gonna go make myself some nice hot drink,
add some carbs and starches into it,
and sit by the fire.
Oh, my God.
[groans]
Oh, I have to show you something.
[chuckles]
That is unfortunate.
That's my thermals.
[chuckles] Oh, my God.
Do they actually stand up by themselves?
Wow, put a dent in it.
[laughs]
I guess I'm gonna have to hang this over the fire pit.
♪
Make a little rack.
Hang it over.
Keep it away from the flames.
The weather is changing. It definitely is changing.
That's for sure. Winter is coming.
And that means I have to prepare.
My God, this is probably how I'm gonna be drying
my clothes from now on in.
It's almost dry. Almost completely dry.
That's amazing.
The most important thing to prepare for winter
is your food.
Reindeer moss is really cool.
But it doesn't taste good, whereas the rock tripe
actually has a consistency and a taste
that I'm really enjoying.
It's like a toasty, nutty flavor.
So chewy.
Crazy.
And it's a survival food.
It's what they survived on in the 1750s
during the French and Indian War.
And I'm gonna survive on it too
because if they can, I can.
♪
It's like ten days' worth plus what's in the pan,
which is another three for 13 days.
So I have a good amount of reindeer moss.
And I'm just gonna let those dry
and bake it to evaporate every single ounce of moisture,
and then turn it into flour.
So the flour gives me the carbs and the starches.
But it also dissolves into the liquid.
And if I mix that with the rock tripe,
no problem at all,
which is important psychologically
to enjoy eating your food out here.
♪
Oh, I miss Brian.
Brian asked me to marry him before we left.
We'd been having problems with bears.
So I knew there were bears around.
One day, he runs up to me.
He's like, "Mel, come, come!
"I think I found a bear track, found a bear trail.
I think I know where they are."
So we grabbed the guns.
And I'm like, oh, hell yeah. Let's go.
We're, like, following this track.
And there's, like, a big trail.
And it's like, whoa, yeah, it's really obvious.
It's a [bleep] bear. It's amazing.
And then, we get to the top of the mountain.
He's like, "Yeah, it's around here somewhere.
It must be around here somewhere."
So I was, like, looking around.
Brian's like--he's behind me. He's like, "Mel, look down."
[chuckles] And I look down.
And on the ground...
[chuckles]
♪
[breathes shakily]
♪
There's a blanket with a bottle
of champagne and two roses.
[sniffles] And I'm like, "Wait, what?"
And I turn around to him, and he's on one knee.
And he's got the ring out.
And I'm like, oh.
It wasn't a bear.
And he asked me to marry him.
I mean, really lovely ring.
Can't wait to wear it again.
Not allowed to wear my ring here.
I wonder why not.
I know why.
It's part of the psychological warfare.
We will wear you down.
We will make you homesick.
I think I'm doing a good enough job myself of that.
[laughs]
[dramatic music]
♪
[guitar playing]
- ♪ In the morning
♪ I'm gonna make some lavender tea ♪
♪ In the morning
♪ I'm gonna eat some pike
♪ Oh, in the morning
♪ I won't let my spirit fall down ♪
♪ In the morning
♪ I'm gonna get some trout
♪ I will, a trout here, my friends ♪
♪ In the morning
♪ I will keep trying
Needs some improvement, but hey,
you get grooving, and I guess things work out.
[dramatic music]
I'm very hungry.
I need fish to fuel me.
I want to take the canoe out on the water
because right now it's calm,
and I can get to fish in deeper water.
All right.
I'm going to go up there in the entrance of the cove
and see how it goes.
Flotation device on.
So far, so good.
♪
I have food for tomorrow and then zero food.
I was hoping it was going to last longer.
But one day, your body is OK.
The other day, your body needs more food.
And we have to catch something.
I'm scared that I'm not gonna be able
to stay as long as I want
because a few days ago, I went hunting.
I was, like, so weak, so not productive.
Just giving it some action, see if we can attract.
Then there is the aspect of being alone.
The thing about being alone is this--
it's when you fail on stuff.
That is the challenge for me, though.
I don't have anyone to even share that.
And the impact, it's huge.
We need an anchor, so we can stay put.
While I am in my lowest point, I think of my kids.
They live in Brazil, but I want to win the prize
to get them here to live with me.
It's a good spot here.
I'm the person that they call to talk
about anything, really,
helping them with homework and high school,
and just guiding them
through very different situations and tough times.
But it's hard being away from them.
They're 18.
And pretty soon, they're gonna be adults
and go on their lives.
And for every day that I am away from them,
I'm losing that window into the formation
of their personality.
♪
Whew.
I need a sense of family in this new country,
where I am alone.
I didn't think things would be that easy.
Not at all.
Things are hard.
♪
Hello.
I'm tired.
I'm hungry.
And I'm just, like, walking in the woods
and thinking about the people that I love.
And, you know--
[sniffles] It takes a toll on you.
You know?
♪
I miss the rhythm of my life back home and...
♪
That's what happen, you know, when you're hungry and alone.
[laughs]
That's what happens when you're hungry,
and you're alone, you know.
It's--whew!
Man, there's nothing else left
but you and your feelings.
♪
We just know when we don't have, you know.
Let's get some food.
Today is a struggling day.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go back to fishing.
♪
- So it just [bleep] started raining.
Weather changes around here like crazy.
Sounds like it's snowing ice again.
Sleet and hail.
I just wish, if it was gonna snow,
it'd go ahead and snow, so I could do some tracking.
I hate just being stuck in my shelter.
This is the worst times when you're just stuck here.
Hate this [bleep].
I'm gonna take my boots off and just lay here
in the sleeping bag, get warmed up good,
make a piece for my dreamcatcher.
♪
I wanted to make a puzzle piece for my son.
♪
And it means so much to me.
♪
It really does.
♪
God, I miss that little boy.
I miss him with all my heart.
He's about to turn five.
And I'm not gonna be there.
[groans]
♪
I already miss so much just working all the time.
I usually take off of work just for his birthday.
Even if we don't do anything that day,
I'm always there on his birthday.
Always.
I've really done a whole lot of nothing today,
and I'm tired.
It's ridiculous.
[bleep] got to stop.
♪
This is the first birthday that I won't be there.
It kind of makes you feel like a horrible, horrible parent.
There.
♪
A little puzzle piece.
I chose this style of puzzle piece
because I made it look kind of like a little man.
And that's what he represents.
He's my little man.
[sniffles]
Now I got to put it on my dream catcher.
And there it is, on my dream catcher.
That little piece of wood right there represents...
♪
The most sincerest form of innocence
and the sweetest boy you ever meet.
♪
I miss him so bad.
I swear to God, it's a physical pain.
♪
It really is.
[dramatic music]
♪
- Well, brr morning.
It is cold.
I don't know how cold,
but it's cold.
[rattling]
That's the ice.
I had to break ice on my water
this morning to brush my teeth.
The wind is blowing out of the North again.
It's not an overly strong wind,
but it's a cool wind.
And I'm adjusting.
Ready to go.
Day 40, day 40, yes.
♪
- Ooh, winter is here, my friend.
Winter is really here, so--
and we're gonna go fishing because I've got to get food.
Yeah, we're gonna hike up to the fishing spot.
But I'm not so--
I'm not so positive about that.
I think the wind is blowing on the other side.
Well, you know what?
We're gonna do it. Gonna take a little walk, easy.
♪
- Snow. I knew it would be here.
♪
Holy cow.
♪
- I'm gonna be taking extra slow time.
Now it's crucial not to get sweaty.
♪
I do have one dry pair of change of clothes.
♪
And we have to keep that that way.
♪
- Hope I don't trip.
I feel sluggish.
So I need to not do a lot of exhaustive work.
♪
Eh, are you sure?
♪
Should I go far?
♪
I just don't think that's the best choice.
♪
- Main goal is to get as many berries as we can.
Because it keeps getting white around here.
♪
And I don't see it getting any better.
♪
I'm down to a handful of bear berries.
There's virtually no crow berries around.
I'm almost down to protein only.
It's getting that cold.
Thing about berries is, they'll give me my vitamin C,
a couple other vitamins, a few calories.
So I need to get all of 'em.
OK.
Back at the berry patch.
I think I'm gonna start down here and work my way this way.
♪
How cold can it get here?
Minus 30s, guaranteed.
Minus 50 is a very strong probability.
This place can be cruel.
A lot of them are covered in snow already.
♪
Mother Nature is one that you have to work with her.
If you ever think you're gonna beat her, you're a fool.
♪
Days that the weather is rough,
I'm gonna have to find something to do.
- It's freezing [bleep] cold.
♪
That's amazing.
The ground's frozen in here.
Piece of wood is frozen.
♪
Ain't that just some [bleep].
- It's kind of like a process.
It's not even a day at a time. It's a moment at a time.
And I believe that the land will tell me
what I should do next.
- Got one or two more reindeer mosses to process.
I'll do that today, just keep the fire going.
And I can come back and get warm if I need it too.
♪
- Nature doesn't judge.
Nature gives you every opportunity to succeed
and every chance to fail.
It's what you do with it that makes a difference.
- Let's walk down to the water,
see how it looks.
♪
Oh, look at that.
♪
The fishing hole is calling me,
even though that's my fishing rock down there,
the one jutting out there, just covered in snow
almost right down to the shore.
I'm hoping that the part down by the water
is not covered in ice.
♪
It's hard to know how many people are left.
What adventures have they had?
Have they got food stored?
Have they got two weeks of fish?
- I think that's good.
♪
But I think I'm gonna throw the gloves on for a bit,
warm the body back up.
- Days like this really test your will to be here,
let me tell you.
Because you know you can just leave.
I could press that button.
It's tempting, knowing that it's that easy
to be this close to comfort.
We'll see how my body feels.
Like, I've come this far.
I might as well go all the way,
as far as I can push it.
♪
[dramatic music]
♪
- I don't have a lot of energy to go hunting.
♪
Oh, I can barely walk.
♪
[sighs]
♪
People can just, like, fall and stay there on the ground.
[groans]
♪
And I don't know how long I can keep up with that.
♪
[groans] God.
This challenge has been making me reflect a lot.
♪
It's a pressure of survival.
And the stress of not having food for the future
makes you reflect on your own life.
I miss home.
But then I ask, but where is home?
♪
Is home the tree house where I live in in the birch trees?
♪
Is home Brazil, with my family?
♪
I miss my kids.
I've been living away from their lives
since they were three.
I'm doing this with the hope of winning
$1/2 million to bring my kids to live with me.
But I think I have a little window.
My kids are gonna go away soon,
building their own family.
And the fear is turning this epic adventure
into a great regret.
My legs are wobbly and barely can walk around.
And I do not want long-term health complications.
But I love this place.
And I want to go as far as I can.
♪
I don't know.
♪
[beeping]
Hi, this is Taz, and I am officially tapping out.
♪
I tried my best, but it's time to go back.
♪
I'll figure out a different way to bring you guys here
and to help you guys explore this new world.
♪
I'm tapping out because I'm weak.
I cannot procure food effectively.
And without food, if you're sluggish,
feel tired, and you feel more emotional--
yeah, and that's a very hard thing.
That's just hard.
I think I have not spent enough quality time
with my friends and family, you know.
I'm always like, get things done, and conquer things,
and not slowing down to spend quality time.
And that's something that I have to put in place
because time passes, you know.
That's something that this place showed me.
♪
Through my life, I feel that I have displaced
different chunks of time.
For example, at a young age to be a father,
you end up missing out on being a kid
because you have responsibility very early on.
But being here in the woods was a great opportunity
to shuffle things into a different order
that give me a little bit of control of my future.
I came to win.
And that didn't really pan out for me.
But you know what,
I grew up in the tiniest state of Brazil.
And against all odds, 11 years ago,
I came to the U.S. and didn't speak a word in English.
Now I'm on this show, and surviving,
and speaking in English.
And if I can make all that happen,
what I would like to say to my kids is, I love you,
and that we're gonna be together in this new chapter
of our lives soon.
[Wind whistling]
- Are you ready to check the deadfall?
Three, two, one.
Yes, we have a mouse.
Is there actually any meat on you?
No, not really.
- I'm worried I'm not eating enough.
I just feel really weak.
There's bears in the area.
I don't want to take any chances.
♪
Whoo!
Happy birthday!
- Holy [bleep].
My arm, I feel discomfort.
I squeeze this.
♪
Oh, [bleep].
♪
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- The weather is picking up, and I went on a hunt
and I barely made it back.
This experience has been
illuminating for me, for my life.
Have revealed need for family.
My daughter, she was going to come to pick me up,
you know, when I win this.
It's gonna be hard to tell her, like,
I was not able to make it, you know?
♪ ♪
Sorry, guys. It's the end of the road.
♪ ♪
I was betting on fishing and the big game.
So I was hiking far, even on empty, to get big game.
But the weather has been, like,
very chaotic and, like, you know, unpredictable,
and with extreme winds, it's really, you know, hard
on hunting and fishing, for sure.
How can I hunt if I just walk, you know, a mile
and I barely can come back to the shelter now?
♪ ♪
Feel a little bit like a failure, you know?
♪ ♪
You know, and disappointing friends that think that--
thought I would win.
I thought I would win too, but...
didn't happen, and...
I feel like, "Damn it, man."
Really wanted to go further.
But it's hard when you don't have food
or the energy to continue.
♪ ♪
Thank you.
♪ ♪
Ah.
Sorry, man, I didn't stay longer.
♪ ♪
This so good. What is this, bone broth?
- Beef. - Beef broth.
- Beef bone broth, yeah.
- Five days, I've been thinking about carrots.
[laughing]
Weird, right?
♪ ♪
This is place is a beautiful place.
And it's my little home out here.
I do not want to leave.
But nature made her decision.
And it's time
to go and embrace the decision I have made.
♪ ♪
I want to leave this experience
with a sense of accomplishment,
not with a sense of resentment.
So my story continues.
And this experience makes me grow,
adds to my arsenal of adventure
that took me out of tough times in life.
- It's nice and warm in here. - Wow.
♪ ♪
- And the heart's felt fine the whole time?
No issues with it racing? - No issue.
- No issues with having to catch your breath
on exertion or anything? - No.
- Is the weakness localized anywhere?
Is it just kind of entire body?
Is it more legs? Is it more arms?
- More legs. - More legs.
- More legs, yeah.
Does it mean anything, more legs, no?
- No, these are things that I would expect.
Basically, you're not putting
as much nutrients into your body as you need.
- Okay.
- So take your left arm.
[both speaking Portuguese]
- I'm pretty happy with how you're looking right now.
I like seeing people come out in your state
because you could do
significantly more damage to your body.
And then we'll get all your gear
transferred over to your new place.
- Okay. - And then we'll get you set up
so you can have a nice hot shower
and get cooking later.
- Oh. Is that a thing?
Hot shower? - Hot shower.
- Is a thing? Does it exist? - We have a hot shower.
I can promise. - Okay, neat.
Being out here, I realized that what keeps me going is,
you know, loved ones and family
and that energy that I know they are thinking of me,
and I want to go back home and feel heard
and to be cared for and that sense of connection.
♪ ♪