1 00:00:01,268 --> 00:00:02,501 Previously on queen sugar... 2 00:00:02,603 --> 00:00:05,104 I got accepted into this really cool school in washington dc. 3 00:00:05,222 --> 00:00:07,306 Mom and pop said that I can go. 4 00:00:07,391 --> 00:00:11,310 You know deep down that that boy is mine as much as he is yours! 5 00:00:11,395 --> 00:00:13,445 That's not your son, aunt vi! 6 00:00:13,564 --> 00:00:16,365 It was really good of you to drop everything. 7 00:00:16,450 --> 00:00:18,233 You say that like I had a choice. 8 00:00:18,319 --> 00:00:21,370 There's no place I'll ever be if you ever need me. 9 00:00:21,455 --> 00:00:23,489 [andre] you think I'll forget the cops' faces who did this to me? 10 00:00:23,574 --> 00:00:24,823 You thanked him in your book. 11 00:00:24,909 --> 00:00:25,908 What? 12 00:00:25,993 --> 00:00:27,376 Calvin gaston. 13 00:00:27,461 --> 00:00:28,827 He's the one who did this to me. 14 00:00:34,085 --> 00:00:35,167 Great. 15 00:00:35,252 --> 00:00:36,468 You put the snacks in the car? 16 00:00:36,587 --> 00:00:38,554 Indeed. Close all them windows? 17 00:00:38,639 --> 00:00:40,089 I did. 18 00:00:40,174 --> 00:00:42,424 Where our little man at? Probably should get going. 19 00:00:43,844 --> 00:00:44,893 He said he had to look for something. 20 00:00:44,979 --> 00:00:47,229 -Found her. -[darla] mmm! 21 00:00:47,314 --> 00:00:49,231 Couldn't leave without kenya, huh? 22 00:00:49,316 --> 00:00:50,566 She'll probably miss you too much. 23 00:00:50,651 --> 00:00:53,018 Oh, I'm not bringing kenya. 24 00:00:53,104 --> 00:00:55,604 I want her to stay here so she can look after you guys. 25 00:00:56,357 --> 00:00:57,990 Are you worried about us? 26 00:00:58,109 --> 00:01:00,159 I heard pops in the bathroom this morning. 27 00:01:01,028 --> 00:01:02,361 He sounded upset. 28 00:01:03,280 --> 00:01:04,113 [ralph] upset? 29 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:08,834 I'm not upset. I'm happy for you. 30 00:01:10,838 --> 00:01:12,621 But are you happy for you? 31 00:01:15,342 --> 00:01:16,959 We're sad that we won't get to see you every day. 32 00:01:17,962 --> 00:01:20,596 But I'm happy you get to live your life. 33 00:01:20,681 --> 00:01:24,133 Well, whenever you are sad, kenya will keep you company. 34 00:01:27,354 --> 00:01:30,522 How about when I'm sad... [chuckles] ...I just call you? 35 00:01:31,725 --> 00:01:33,058 But I might be too busy doing homework. 36 00:01:33,144 --> 00:01:36,228 Too busy? Busy saving the world, huh? 37 00:01:36,313 --> 00:01:37,446 -You know it. -That's right. 38 00:01:37,531 --> 00:01:39,148 All right. We gotta go. Long drive. 39 00:01:39,233 --> 00:01:40,199 We gotta go. 40 00:01:40,317 --> 00:01:42,317 Long, long, long drive. 41 00:01:46,157 --> 00:01:47,790 [darla] so... 42 00:01:47,875 --> 00:01:50,576 ♪ even though it's wet and cold ♪ 43 00:01:50,661 --> 00:01:54,880 ♪ it shows you what you need to know ♪ 44 00:01:54,999 --> 00:01:57,666 ♪ I intend this world this whole world ♪ 45 00:01:57,751 --> 00:02:01,053 ♪ for you ♪ 46 00:02:01,172 --> 00:02:02,888 -[darla] slide along a little. -Oh. 47 00:02:03,557 --> 00:02:05,090 Come on. 48 00:02:05,176 --> 00:02:08,093 -Traffic waits for nobody. Put your seatbelt on. -All right. 49 00:02:08,179 --> 00:02:09,678 Washington dc... 50 00:02:09,763 --> 00:02:11,263 [all] here we come! 51 00:02:12,433 --> 00:02:13,348 [engine starts] 52 00:02:13,434 --> 00:02:18,187 ♪ it won't always be easy ♪ 53 00:02:18,272 --> 00:02:21,490 ♪ it's not supposed to be ♪ 54 00:02:21,575 --> 00:02:26,361 ♪ you're right it won't always be ♪ 55 00:02:26,447 --> 00:02:28,113 ♪ easy ♪ 56 00:02:28,866 --> 00:02:32,084 ♪ it's not supposed to be ♪ 57 00:02:35,256 --> 00:02:38,924 ♪ dreams never die take flight as the world turns 58 00:02:39,043 --> 00:02:42,628 ♪ dreams never die take flight as the world turns 59 00:02:42,713 --> 00:02:45,931 ♪ keep the colors in the lines take flight ♪ 60 00:02:47,101 --> 00:02:48,634 ♪ dreams never die ♪ 61 00:02:54,725 --> 00:02:57,226 ♪ keep the colors in the lines ♪ 62 00:02:58,562 --> 00:03:01,446 ♪ keep the colors in the lines take flight ♪ 63 00:03:03,050 --> 00:03:04,700 [violet] micah needs to bring himself home. 64 00:03:04,785 --> 00:03:07,202 He does not need to be out there in them streets. 65 00:03:07,288 --> 00:03:09,321 I want everybody home and safe. 66 00:03:09,406 --> 00:03:11,456 Hell, home ain't safe. 67 00:03:11,575 --> 00:03:14,877 Well, I'm just glad for the homes that we got. 68 00:03:14,962 --> 00:03:17,796 I've been watching this reports on these evictions. 69 00:03:17,915 --> 00:03:20,382 People losing their jobs. Healthcare's a mess. 70 00:03:20,467 --> 00:03:24,219 Those fools. Trying to fight about wearing a simple mask. 71 00:03:24,305 --> 00:03:26,805 Being brainwashed to fight against their own survival. 72 00:03:27,424 --> 00:03:28,340 Surreal. 73 00:03:28,425 --> 00:03:29,975 [violet] don't get me started. 74 00:03:30,094 --> 00:03:32,427 I tell hollywood to turn that crap off the tv. 75 00:03:32,513 --> 00:03:33,812 Gets my pressure up. 76 00:03:33,931 --> 00:03:35,097 It's infuriating. 77 00:03:35,983 --> 00:03:37,599 We gotta get this vote out. 78 00:03:38,152 --> 00:03:39,685 I just hate that I... 79 00:03:39,770 --> 00:03:41,987 I can't be out there getting people registered and... 80 00:03:42,940 --> 00:03:44,439 ...Staffing the polls. 81 00:03:44,525 --> 00:03:45,941 Yeah, well, you can't, so stop it. 82 00:03:46,944 --> 00:03:48,860 That cold you had could've been worse. 83 00:03:48,946 --> 00:03:52,080 Nova's out there on behalf of the family doing all of that. 84 00:03:52,166 --> 00:03:54,783 Micah, hollywood, driving seniors. 85 00:03:54,868 --> 00:03:57,169 The bordelons are doing their part. We always do. 86 00:03:57,288 --> 00:03:58,337 We always do. 87 00:04:04,111 --> 00:04:08,380 Can I ask you a completely random question? 88 00:04:09,133 --> 00:04:10,132 Go on. 89 00:04:12,052 --> 00:04:16,388 Is there anything that jimmy dale could do right now... 90 00:04:17,725 --> 00:04:18,974 ...For you to see him differently? 91 00:04:21,195 --> 00:04:22,027 What? 92 00:04:23,731 --> 00:04:26,865 What on earth would make you ask me 93 00:04:26,984 --> 00:04:28,734 some stupid shit like that? 94 00:04:29,320 --> 00:04:30,152 I... 95 00:04:31,405 --> 00:04:33,205 I'm... I'm sorry, aunt vi. 96 00:04:34,658 --> 00:04:36,074 You didn't answer me. 97 00:04:36,160 --> 00:04:39,044 What on earth would make you ask me-- 98 00:04:39,163 --> 00:04:40,295 I'm just wondering. 99 00:04:40,381 --> 00:04:43,265 Why in all the hell would you wonder that? 100 00:04:43,350 --> 00:04:45,017 Ain't enough going on to wonder t? 101 00:04:45,102 --> 00:04:46,768 I mean, where did that come from? 102 00:04:50,741 --> 00:04:52,240 I asked you a question, charley. 103 00:04:55,112 --> 00:04:58,413 Davis came by here last week 104 00:04:58,532 --> 00:05:01,416 to pick something up that micah needed 105 00:05:02,036 --> 00:05:03,368 and ship it to him. 106 00:05:04,872 --> 00:05:05,921 And, uh... 107 00:05:06,957 --> 00:05:07,923 We got to talking. 108 00:05:08,592 --> 00:05:09,541 And he seemed... 109 00:05:10,961 --> 00:05:11,877 He seemed different. 110 00:05:13,881 --> 00:05:16,431 And it got me thinking about change. 111 00:05:18,719 --> 00:05:19,968 Can people really change? 112 00:05:22,873 --> 00:05:23,722 And forgiveness. 113 00:05:25,442 --> 00:05:29,728 And I guess I was wondering what you felt about all that. 114 00:05:32,149 --> 00:05:33,732 Charley... 115 00:05:35,235 --> 00:05:37,152 Jimmy dale is an evil man... 116 00:05:38,989 --> 00:05:42,124 ...Who gets off on inflicting pain, 117 00:05:42,242 --> 00:05:46,078 physical, emotional, on any and everybody. 118 00:05:46,163 --> 00:05:47,796 He's a dark soul. 119 00:05:49,249 --> 00:05:52,334 Thinks love is weakness and feeds on hate and treachery. 120 00:05:53,470 --> 00:05:56,922 And he made sure that I lived inside of his hell. 121 00:05:59,426 --> 00:06:02,427 For so long it almost destroyed me entirely. 122 00:06:02,513 --> 00:06:06,431 So there is nothing in this world that he could do 123 00:06:06,517 --> 00:06:08,850 to make me forget what he did to me... 124 00:06:10,521 --> 00:06:12,821 ...Or think he's changed ever. 125 00:06:15,109 --> 00:06:18,944 Davis, on the other hand, is just damn stupid. 126 00:06:19,997 --> 00:06:20,912 Huh? 127 00:06:20,998 --> 00:06:22,497 He's not a bad person. 128 00:06:23,534 --> 00:06:25,534 He's a foolish man 129 00:06:25,619 --> 00:06:28,837 who took the good life you gave him for granted 130 00:06:28,956 --> 00:06:32,040 and made dumb, hurtful choices. 131 00:06:33,127 --> 00:06:35,710 But he ain't jimmy dale. 132 00:06:35,796 --> 00:06:38,346 He loved you even though he blew it. 133 00:06:38,465 --> 00:06:40,632 And he loves that boy. 134 00:06:40,717 --> 00:06:44,719 So if you saw change in him, that's worth looking at. 135 00:06:45,973 --> 00:06:48,557 Y'all can at least be civil to each other. 136 00:06:52,229 --> 00:06:53,728 Yeah. 137 00:06:55,065 --> 00:06:56,231 Yeah, at least. 138 00:07:02,206 --> 00:07:03,705 Hey, you all right? 139 00:07:09,496 --> 00:07:10,545 What's wrong? 140 00:07:15,002 --> 00:07:16,668 Is everything okay? 141 00:07:25,262 --> 00:07:26,094 What's this? 142 00:07:40,043 --> 00:07:40,859 [file closes] 143 00:07:43,347 --> 00:07:45,030 his name is andre nixon. 144 00:07:48,118 --> 00:07:51,703 He was only 19 years old the night he said you and your cop friends 145 00:07:51,788 --> 00:07:53,788 beat him until he could no longer walk. 146 00:07:56,260 --> 00:07:59,711 -Wait a minute, nova-- -please don't say you don't know this man. 147 00:08:02,466 --> 00:08:04,216 Because he definitely knows you. 148 00:08:05,936 --> 00:08:07,802 And once I started digging into his case, 149 00:08:07,888 --> 00:08:09,888 it wasn't that hard to put it all together. 150 00:08:11,892 --> 00:08:14,976 All someone had to do was look, 151 00:08:15,062 --> 00:08:15,894 see, 152 00:08:17,064 --> 00:08:19,030 care enough. 153 00:08:19,116 --> 00:08:21,399 And no one did until now. 154 00:08:21,902 --> 00:08:23,185 Nova-- 155 00:08:23,287 --> 00:08:25,787 look me in my eye and tell me you had nothing to do with this! 156 00:08:32,913 --> 00:08:34,579 That you weren't there that night. 157 00:08:36,083 --> 00:08:37,632 And I'll believe you. 158 00:08:38,969 --> 00:08:40,752 Because I want to believe you. 159 00:08:48,762 --> 00:08:49,928 I think... 160 00:08:53,150 --> 00:08:56,434 I tried to convince myself it was somebody else's memory 161 00:08:56,520 --> 00:08:59,437 just lodged in the back of my mind. 162 00:09:02,025 --> 00:09:03,942 I was the son of a cop. 163 00:09:04,027 --> 00:09:06,194 I was having a real hard time. 164 00:09:06,280 --> 00:09:10,448 And everyone said I had to prove that I could make it on my own. 165 00:09:17,457 --> 00:09:19,341 They got ahold of this kid-- 166 00:09:19,459 --> 00:09:21,293 his name is andre. 167 00:09:29,636 --> 00:09:30,468 Right. 168 00:09:32,139 --> 00:09:32,971 Andre. 169 00:09:35,058 --> 00:09:35,890 Andre... 170 00:09:37,194 --> 00:09:39,311 ...Got dragged into an abandoned building. 171 00:09:42,199 --> 00:09:43,648 They beat him real good. 172 00:09:46,737 --> 00:09:48,036 They said it was... 173 00:09:50,040 --> 00:09:51,573 They said it was good practice. 174 00:09:56,496 --> 00:09:58,380 I stood in the back, I was scared. 175 00:10:00,050 --> 00:10:01,800 I knew what they were doing was wrong. 176 00:10:01,885 --> 00:10:04,819 Then they called my name and they said, "get up here and prove you're one of us." 177 00:10:06,556 --> 00:10:08,006 I knew what they were asking me to do. 178 00:10:10,177 --> 00:10:11,426 And you did it. 179 00:10:15,182 --> 00:10:16,264 I hit him once. 180 00:10:17,017 --> 00:10:17,899 Maybe twice. 181 00:10:18,018 --> 00:10:19,351 But that's all, I swear. 182 00:10:19,853 --> 00:10:21,353 I barely touched him. 183 00:10:21,438 --> 00:10:23,071 But you did touch him, calvin. 184 00:10:23,190 --> 00:10:25,407 I've never done anything like that before or since. 185 00:10:26,576 --> 00:10:28,159 You gotta believe me. 186 00:10:28,245 --> 00:10:30,245 I believed you when you told me you had never done anything like this at all! 187 00:10:32,199 --> 00:10:33,114 Remember? 188 00:10:34,084 --> 00:10:35,533 Remember what you told me? 189 00:10:36,370 --> 00:10:37,752 Those were lies, calvin! 190 00:10:37,871 --> 00:10:39,204 It was over 20 years ago. 191 00:10:40,457 --> 00:10:41,456 I'm not that person. 192 00:10:44,211 --> 00:10:46,428 It was yesterday to him! 193 00:10:55,389 --> 00:10:56,221 [door slams shut] 194 00:11:02,562 --> 00:11:04,229 have you heard from him since they got back? 195 00:11:06,416 --> 00:11:09,851 Ralph angel is not speaking to me. 196 00:11:10,754 --> 00:11:11,853 And you ain't talking to him. 197 00:11:12,773 --> 00:11:13,938 How long is that gonna go on? 198 00:11:14,608 --> 00:11:16,241 It'll work itself out. 199 00:11:17,861 --> 00:11:20,144 Wondering what my baby's doing right now. 200 00:11:20,247 --> 00:11:21,830 He's with his grandmother... 201 00:11:21,948 --> 00:11:24,616 ...Who is trifling, but she loves him. 202 00:11:24,701 --> 00:11:26,301 And she ain't gonna let no harm come to him. 203 00:11:26,937 --> 00:11:27,769 That's where he is. 204 00:11:29,756 --> 00:11:31,256 I just don't want him to change. 205 00:11:32,092 --> 00:11:33,708 He's perfect. He's us. 206 00:11:33,794 --> 00:11:35,260 Baby, that's not gonna happen. 207 00:11:36,096 --> 00:11:37,462 That boy's got a good soul. 208 00:11:38,465 --> 00:11:40,548 And blue is gonna stay blue. 209 00:11:40,634 --> 00:11:43,802 We pray for that, we manifest that, 210 00:11:43,887 --> 00:11:45,270 and we know that, okay? 211 00:11:46,139 --> 00:11:46,971 Okay. 212 00:11:51,611 --> 00:11:52,610 And maybe you should 213 00:11:53,647 --> 00:11:56,231 think about apologizing to ralph angel. 214 00:11:58,568 --> 00:12:00,285 Blue is the whole reason he got his life together. 215 00:12:01,655 --> 00:12:03,905 So if he sent him away, 216 00:12:03,990 --> 00:12:06,825 it's probably because he thinks the promise of tomorrow 217 00:12:06,910 --> 00:12:08,493 outweighs the pain right now. 218 00:12:12,466 --> 00:12:13,998 So my pain and love 219 00:12:15,335 --> 00:12:17,168 for a child I helped raise don't matter? 220 00:12:17,254 --> 00:12:20,221 Baby, you can't honestly say 221 00:12:20,340 --> 00:12:23,758 that your pain is worse than ralph angel's. 222 00:12:24,845 --> 00:12:26,010 That's his son. 223 00:12:28,148 --> 00:12:30,515 Baby, you call ralph angel a boy. 224 00:12:30,600 --> 00:12:32,767 You said his father would be ashamed of him. 225 00:12:32,853 --> 00:12:34,102 I believe that's the truth. 226 00:12:34,187 --> 00:12:37,105 But was it kind, vi? Was it necessary? 227 00:12:38,775 --> 00:12:40,825 Maybe you should consider 228 00:12:41,862 --> 00:12:43,995 being the adult in the room on this one. 229 00:12:45,449 --> 00:12:46,331 That's all I'm saying. 230 00:12:51,788 --> 00:12:55,623 [charley] when micah left for college, I was lost. 231 00:12:57,043 --> 00:12:59,794 It's kinda stunning to realize 232 00:12:59,880 --> 00:13:03,298 that I didn't know how to live without thinking about his daily needs. 233 00:13:04,050 --> 00:13:04,883 I didn't know how to... 234 00:13:06,219 --> 00:13:08,052 ...Just be. 235 00:13:08,138 --> 00:13:09,938 I mean, it's gonna take some time. 236 00:13:10,040 --> 00:13:12,423 I mean, when I get down, 237 00:13:12,526 --> 00:13:15,610 I think about how much blue loved his new room 238 00:13:15,729 --> 00:13:18,196 and how he took to all the kids in the class. 239 00:13:18,899 --> 00:13:20,598 They really loved him. 240 00:13:20,700 --> 00:13:23,935 I mean, just being in a classroom again, he was on cloud nine. 241 00:13:24,037 --> 00:13:26,955 And mom loves him so much. 242 00:13:27,073 --> 00:13:28,823 It was really beautiful to see. 243 00:13:28,909 --> 00:13:32,961 I mean, that's what I start thinking about when I'm getting in my feelings. 244 00:13:33,079 --> 00:13:34,996 -Hmm. -Thank you for the talk, charley. 245 00:13:35,098 --> 00:13:35,964 I don't wanna keep you. 246 00:13:36,082 --> 00:13:37,415 Oh, actually, um... 247 00:13:39,669 --> 00:13:41,169 I wanted to ask you something. 248 00:13:44,174 --> 00:13:48,259 I've come to think of you as one of the strongest women I know. 249 00:13:49,346 --> 00:13:50,712 You've been through so much. 250 00:13:51,515 --> 00:13:52,647 And yet here you are. 251 00:13:52,766 --> 00:13:55,850 Thank you. That means a lot coming from you, charley. 252 00:13:57,187 --> 00:13:58,603 I need some advice. 253 00:13:59,439 --> 00:14:01,439 Advice? From me? 254 00:14:02,609 --> 00:14:04,275 Well, I'll certainly try. 255 00:14:05,412 --> 00:14:06,778 I've been thinking about davis. 256 00:14:08,114 --> 00:14:09,564 Thinking what about davis? 257 00:14:13,453 --> 00:14:17,455 Oh, oh. I see. Um, I mean, I would never do that. 258 00:14:18,875 --> 00:14:19,958 You wouldn't? [chuckles] 259 00:14:21,595 --> 00:14:22,994 ouch. 260 00:14:23,096 --> 00:14:27,131 No, no, no. I mean, I would never give you advice about your man. 261 00:14:27,217 --> 00:14:30,134 I mean, just for me from experience, 262 00:14:30,220 --> 00:14:34,055 I've found that no one really knows your relationship but you. 263 00:14:35,275 --> 00:14:39,010 No one knows your heart. No one knows his. 264 00:14:39,112 --> 00:14:43,514 I mean, everyone else's opinion doesn't really matter in the end 265 00:14:43,617 --> 00:14:46,317 because it's the two of you that have to look at each other every day, 266 00:14:47,287 --> 00:14:48,820 have to love each other every day. 267 00:14:50,657 --> 00:14:51,489 You're right. 268 00:14:52,492 --> 00:14:53,324 Has he changed? 269 00:14:55,629 --> 00:14:56,461 I think... 270 00:15:00,500 --> 00:15:03,167 Yeah. Yeah, he has. 271 00:15:06,339 --> 00:15:08,006 Is that even possible? 272 00:15:08,091 --> 00:15:09,474 Look at me and ralph angel. 273 00:15:09,559 --> 00:15:11,676 We are completely different people than we were in the beginning. 274 00:15:12,345 --> 00:15:14,062 We made every mistake. 275 00:15:14,180 --> 00:15:16,881 We hurt each other, we fell away from each other. 276 00:15:16,983 --> 00:15:20,518 And somehow we ended up back in each other's arms. 277 00:15:21,321 --> 00:15:23,154 So yes, it is possible. 278 00:15:24,357 --> 00:15:28,610 If you see a chance at something real 279 00:15:28,695 --> 00:15:32,363 with someone who knows you and truly cares about you... 280 00:15:34,117 --> 00:15:35,450 ...Step out in faith. 281 00:15:36,486 --> 00:15:37,835 It might be everything you hope it is. 282 00:15:42,559 --> 00:15:45,076 The fact that the hashtag "defund the police" is trending 283 00:15:45,178 --> 00:15:46,794 and on news outlets everywhere 284 00:15:46,880 --> 00:15:49,597 and that people in this country and countries around the world 285 00:15:49,716 --> 00:15:51,966 are taking to the streets is just like... 286 00:15:52,052 --> 00:15:55,086 I don't know, it's just monumental. 287 00:15:55,188 --> 00:15:57,755 You know what I mean? It just feels really, really meaningful. Don't you think? 288 00:15:57,857 --> 00:16:01,559 I do. I have never seen anything like it. 289 00:16:02,529 --> 00:16:05,063 Never felt anything like it. 290 00:16:05,148 --> 00:16:07,315 I'm just catching up to everything now and... [sighs] 291 00:16:07,400 --> 00:16:10,818 I am totally and completely blown away. 292 00:16:12,872 --> 00:16:14,539 Wait, catching up to everything? What do you mean? 293 00:16:17,327 --> 00:16:19,043 I... I, uh... 294 00:16:19,579 --> 00:16:20,411 What's going on? 295 00:16:24,334 --> 00:16:25,917 Uh... 296 00:16:26,002 --> 00:16:30,672 I've... I've been under the weather the past few days. 297 00:16:30,774 --> 00:16:32,757 What do you mean "under the weather"? What was wrong? 298 00:16:38,264 --> 00:16:39,097 Mom. 299 00:16:40,850 --> 00:16:43,634 I, uh... I have covid. 300 00:16:43,737 --> 00:16:44,802 -What? -But I'm recovering. 301 00:16:44,904 --> 00:16:47,071 What are you saying right now? You took a test? 302 00:16:48,241 --> 00:16:49,306 No. 303 00:16:49,409 --> 00:16:50,858 Then what are you basing that on? 304 00:16:50,944 --> 00:16:52,076 [exhales] well... 305 00:16:52,862 --> 00:16:53,961 I was pretty out of it. 306 00:16:54,064 --> 00:16:55,113 What does that mean? 307 00:16:56,282 --> 00:16:57,448 Is aunt vi there? 308 00:16:57,534 --> 00:17:00,651 No, no. She's not. And I'm okay now. 309 00:17:00,754 --> 00:17:02,253 What is aunt nova saying? 310 00:17:02,338 --> 00:17:05,039 What was your temperature at the highest? Let me talk to aunt nova. 311 00:17:05,125 --> 00:17:08,292 Micah, nova's not here. And I didn't call her over. 312 00:17:08,378 --> 00:17:09,210 Uncle ra? 313 00:17:09,462 --> 00:17:10,327 No. 314 00:17:10,430 --> 00:17:12,046 Then how do you know you have covid? 315 00:17:13,049 --> 00:17:15,216 Mom, what's happening? [stuttering] why... 316 00:17:15,301 --> 00:17:17,218 Why aren't you telling me? Like, why am I pulling teeth right now? 317 00:17:17,320 --> 00:17:19,804 Please, please stop yelling at me. 318 00:17:20,640 --> 00:17:22,306 I shouldn't have come here. 319 00:17:22,809 --> 00:17:25,643 I just... [exhales] 320 00:17:25,729 --> 00:17:27,228 I left you alone and now you... 321 00:17:27,897 --> 00:17:29,781 No, I wasn't alone. 322 00:17:33,153 --> 00:17:35,319 I couldn't call the family for various reasons, 323 00:17:35,405 --> 00:17:38,156 so when things got pretty bad... 324 00:17:39,826 --> 00:17:40,825 ...I called your father. 325 00:17:42,679 --> 00:17:43,494 [micah scoffs] 326 00:17:47,584 --> 00:17:48,816 I'm on my way. 327 00:17:48,918 --> 00:17:49,751 [disconnects] 328 00:17:54,758 --> 00:17:55,757 [sighs deeply] 329 00:17:59,462 --> 00:18:00,328 [indistinct chatter] 330 00:18:00,430 --> 00:18:02,997 here you go, here you go. Uh-huh. 331 00:18:03,099 --> 00:18:04,665 And that's this one. 332 00:18:04,768 --> 00:18:08,069 You've seen me at home, now you've seen me at work! 333 00:18:08,171 --> 00:18:10,004 [laughing] 334 00:18:10,106 --> 00:18:13,224 -ten! -Oh, I guess we are making a little noise, huh? 335 00:18:13,309 --> 00:18:16,344 A little. I can hear you cackling from across the way. 336 00:18:16,446 --> 00:18:19,213 I had missed everybody at this place so much. 337 00:18:19,315 --> 00:18:21,415 So I'm doing it like the kids say. I'm getting it in. 338 00:18:21,518 --> 00:18:23,518 -That's right. -Yeah, I miss her, too. 339 00:18:23,620 --> 00:18:26,037 You know, it's just good to know we got each other. 340 00:18:26,122 --> 00:18:29,907 -Mmm-hmm. -Mmm! Indeed, indeed. 341 00:18:30,009 --> 00:18:32,710 -And to get it on sitting down. Come on! -Okay! 342 00:18:32,796 --> 00:18:34,095 [laughing] 343 00:18:41,187 --> 00:18:43,354 -oh! -[both chuckle] 344 00:18:43,439 --> 00:18:45,690 happy reopening. 345 00:18:45,775 --> 00:18:48,109 -Sort of. -Yeah, sort of. 346 00:18:49,195 --> 00:18:50,761 Thank you. 347 00:18:50,864 --> 00:18:52,396 Is ralph angel popping? 348 00:18:52,866 --> 00:18:54,198 No, he, um... 349 00:18:55,735 --> 00:18:56,567 He couldn't make it. 350 00:18:58,371 --> 00:18:59,203 I see. 351 00:19:01,124 --> 00:19:02,406 But the flowers are from both of us. 352 00:19:03,376 --> 00:19:04,325 Mmm-hmm. 353 00:19:05,461 --> 00:19:07,461 -How's blue? -So far so good. 354 00:19:08,298 --> 00:19:10,948 He's still adjusting to my mom's 355 00:19:11,034 --> 00:19:12,967 rules and ways about her house. 356 00:19:13,086 --> 00:19:15,286 But I think... 357 00:19:15,388 --> 00:19:17,955 I think the real test is gonna come when he starts school in a couple of days. 358 00:19:18,057 --> 00:19:19,674 So we shall see. 359 00:19:21,094 --> 00:19:21,926 [door opens] 360 00:19:25,415 --> 00:19:28,516 well, I should probably get going. 361 00:19:29,319 --> 00:19:30,151 Of course. [chuckles] 362 00:19:31,070 --> 00:19:32,236 I understand. 363 00:19:32,989 --> 00:19:34,155 Congratulations. 364 00:19:35,191 --> 00:19:36,324 Thank you, baby. 365 00:19:40,864 --> 00:19:41,696 [door opens] 366 00:19:44,367 --> 00:19:46,534 [nova] I ask my ancestors for wisdom. 367 00:19:47,787 --> 00:19:49,420 I ask for guidance. 368 00:19:51,507 --> 00:19:54,992 I ask for the capacity to love from a place of truth 369 00:19:55,094 --> 00:19:56,427 and healing. 370 00:19:58,514 --> 00:20:00,715 [inhales deeply] 371 00:20:07,357 --> 00:20:10,308 all right. I hope you know how sorry I am for what I did. 372 00:20:12,362 --> 00:20:14,228 Your feelings aren't the issue. 373 00:20:20,370 --> 00:20:22,653 [sighs] 374 00:20:24,374 --> 00:20:25,873 am I allowed to get better? 375 00:20:27,577 --> 00:20:29,810 To be better than I was. 376 00:20:29,913 --> 00:20:33,414 You didn't know it was wrong to stomp a 19-year-old in the back until it cracked? 377 00:20:35,835 --> 00:20:37,385 You knew. 378 00:20:37,503 --> 00:20:39,703 And you decided not to be better in that moment 379 00:20:39,806 --> 00:20:41,305 and then to deny it 380 00:20:41,391 --> 00:20:42,890 and then to hide it. 381 00:20:44,394 --> 00:20:46,978 Yes. Yes, what I did was wrong and I knew it, 382 00:20:48,848 --> 00:20:50,181 to fit in, 383 00:20:51,651 --> 00:20:53,684 -to protect myself-- -he's paralyzed. 384 00:20:53,770 --> 00:20:57,104 I know. I've been trying to keep up with him from afar. 385 00:21:07,333 --> 00:21:08,916 I want to yell 386 00:21:09,869 --> 00:21:11,118 and fight. 387 00:21:11,788 --> 00:21:13,838 I want to scream and... 388 00:21:15,925 --> 00:21:17,541 I want to hurt you. 389 00:21:19,212 --> 00:21:21,545 I want you to know how much you've hurt me. 390 00:21:21,631 --> 00:21:24,598 -Please-- -but I can't. I can't scream. 391 00:21:26,302 --> 00:21:27,385 Can't yell. 392 00:21:29,522 --> 00:21:31,472 Can't even write about this. 393 00:21:35,478 --> 00:21:37,445 I feel like I can't move. 394 00:21:39,032 --> 00:21:41,065 Like I'm paralyzed, too. 395 00:21:44,187 --> 00:21:46,454 I'm ashamed that I'm so scared. 396 00:21:48,658 --> 00:21:51,709 [sobs] I'm ashamed that I want to protect you. 397 00:22:00,003 --> 00:22:03,170 I'm the only one who should be ashamed for what I did. 398 00:22:05,475 --> 00:22:08,809 What I did was in my past. It's far in my past. 399 00:22:10,646 --> 00:22:12,346 It's not me. 400 00:22:13,599 --> 00:22:15,649 It never was. 401 00:22:16,769 --> 00:22:19,737 [sobs, breathes shakily] 402 00:22:19,822 --> 00:22:20,905 you know me. 403 00:22:20,990 --> 00:22:21,989 Mm. 404 00:22:24,110 --> 00:22:25,743 I'm yours. 405 00:22:31,584 --> 00:22:33,117 You know who I am. 406 00:22:39,008 --> 00:22:41,258 -I'm yours, baby. -[sobs] 407 00:22:42,712 --> 00:22:44,178 I'm so sorry. 408 00:22:52,672 --> 00:22:53,938 You ready for today? 409 00:22:54,040 --> 00:22:56,874 Mm. Yeah. How about you? 410 00:22:56,976 --> 00:23:00,444 Oh, baby, I'm so excited about the real spot zone. 411 00:23:00,546 --> 00:23:01,528 [laughs] 412 00:23:01,631 --> 00:23:02,880 micah taught me everything I needed to know 413 00:23:02,999 --> 00:23:05,332 about how to run a session. 414 00:23:05,418 --> 00:23:06,917 Rsvps are coming in nice. 415 00:23:07,019 --> 00:23:09,453 I'm thinking we're gonna get six or seven guys. 416 00:23:09,555 --> 00:23:11,055 No, baby. 417 00:23:11,157 --> 00:23:12,423 We up to 46. 418 00:23:12,525 --> 00:23:14,725 Oh! [laughing] 419 00:23:14,844 --> 00:23:16,660 you are doing it. 420 00:23:16,763 --> 00:23:17,645 Mm. 421 00:23:17,730 --> 00:23:20,481 You are doing what you always do. 422 00:23:20,566 --> 00:23:22,066 Shine. 423 00:23:22,185 --> 00:23:23,317 I'm so proud of you. 424 00:23:23,403 --> 00:23:25,069 Ah, thank you, baby. 425 00:23:25,188 --> 00:23:28,939 No, we just can't wait for the bad to be over. 426 00:23:29,025 --> 00:23:30,858 No, we got to live through it 427 00:23:30,943 --> 00:23:33,194 and find pieces of joy along the way. 428 00:23:36,032 --> 00:23:37,198 You're right. 429 00:23:39,585 --> 00:23:41,001 I'm gonna call ralph angel. 430 00:23:41,087 --> 00:23:42,753 It's the right thing to do. 431 00:23:42,855 --> 00:23:46,207 And I'm sorry if I had to talk a little tough for you to hear it. 432 00:23:47,293 --> 00:23:48,926 But I'll make it up to you. 433 00:23:49,796 --> 00:23:51,395 What you got in mind? 434 00:23:52,265 --> 00:23:53,597 You. 435 00:23:53,699 --> 00:23:54,598 [chuckles] 436 00:23:54,717 --> 00:23:56,600 -I got you in mind. -[laughing] 437 00:23:57,386 --> 00:23:58,886 [hollywood grunts] 438 00:24:01,557 --> 00:24:03,641 mm, but not right now. 439 00:24:03,726 --> 00:24:05,359 Right now, you're gonna finish doing this. 440 00:24:05,445 --> 00:24:07,144 I'll finish doing what I'm doing. 441 00:24:07,230 --> 00:24:08,362 We'll link back up later. 442 00:24:08,448 --> 00:24:09,730 [laughing] 443 00:24:09,816 --> 00:24:11,065 uh-huh. 444 00:24:12,652 --> 00:24:13,734 Get out of here. 445 00:24:13,820 --> 00:24:15,069 -Mm. -[laughing] 446 00:24:19,959 --> 00:24:22,626 so, how are you feeling? Back to 100%? 447 00:24:22,745 --> 00:24:25,079 I'd say... 87%. 448 00:24:25,164 --> 00:24:26,747 Mm. [chuckles] 449 00:24:26,833 --> 00:24:28,749 it's the precision for me. 450 00:24:29,168 --> 00:24:30,301 [laughing] 451 00:24:31,921 --> 00:24:32,920 [sighs lightly] 452 00:24:34,307 --> 00:24:35,422 so... 453 00:24:37,260 --> 00:24:39,510 Do you have any idea why I asked you to meet? 454 00:24:40,313 --> 00:24:41,312 Not for sure, 455 00:24:41,430 --> 00:24:44,265 but I'm hoping it's not what I hope it's not. 456 00:24:45,768 --> 00:24:47,151 What do you hope it's not? 457 00:24:48,321 --> 00:24:50,020 Something tough about micah 458 00:24:50,106 --> 00:24:51,689 you didn't want to talk about on the phone. 459 00:24:54,110 --> 00:24:55,109 Is keke pregnant? 460 00:24:55,194 --> 00:24:56,410 [laughs] 461 00:24:56,496 --> 00:24:57,495 no. 462 00:24:57,613 --> 00:25:01,532 As far as I'm aware, keke is not pregnant. 463 00:25:02,285 --> 00:25:03,784 Not by micah anyway. 464 00:25:06,339 --> 00:25:07,838 You don't know that they broke up? 465 00:25:09,675 --> 00:25:11,458 I did not know that, no. 466 00:25:13,679 --> 00:25:15,796 He stopped talking to me 467 00:25:15,882 --> 00:25:19,633 about girls and stuff a while back, understandably. 468 00:25:25,141 --> 00:25:27,141 It's interesting that... 469 00:25:27,226 --> 00:25:29,059 Micah and keke having a baby at their age 470 00:25:29,145 --> 00:25:31,362 is your worst fear for him. 471 00:25:32,398 --> 00:25:34,532 Nah, I wouldn't say that's my worst fear. 472 00:25:35,818 --> 00:25:38,035 You know, him being hurt physically 473 00:25:38,154 --> 00:25:39,537 is definitely my worst fear, 474 00:25:39,655 --> 00:25:43,908 but a baby... Would be a close second. 475 00:25:43,993 --> 00:25:45,409 We were his age. 476 00:25:47,079 --> 00:25:48,579 Wasn't that awful. 477 00:25:49,549 --> 00:25:51,498 No, it wasn't awful at all. 478 00:25:52,668 --> 00:25:55,052 If only for one reason. 479 00:25:55,171 --> 00:25:59,006 Half of the couple in question was charley bordelon. 480 00:25:59,091 --> 00:26:03,727 I mean, don't get me wrong. Keke is cool and all, but she ain't you. 481 00:26:03,846 --> 00:26:06,814 And micah is a very, very smart kid, 482 00:26:06,899 --> 00:26:08,849 but he ain't you either. 483 00:26:09,936 --> 00:26:11,518 I mean, you were the only part of us 484 00:26:11,604 --> 00:26:15,773 that made it possible for that situation to be the opposite of awful. 485 00:26:15,858 --> 00:26:18,576 You know? It was probably the most beautiful time of my life. 486 00:26:21,747 --> 00:26:23,030 I've never heard you talk about it that way. 487 00:26:25,534 --> 00:26:27,952 Your decision to keep micah, 488 00:26:28,037 --> 00:26:30,955 you know, face your mother, ernest, 489 00:26:31,040 --> 00:26:34,008 everyone who was looking at you to excel 490 00:26:34,093 --> 00:26:37,461 and become the quintessential black woman scholar you were destined to be. 491 00:26:37,546 --> 00:26:39,346 -[charley chuckles] -you know, come on. 492 00:26:39,432 --> 00:26:42,266 Single mother did not figure into that plan. 493 00:26:44,303 --> 00:26:45,519 But you never wavered. 494 00:26:45,605 --> 00:26:49,139 And you had this kind of resolve and... And fortitude 495 00:26:49,225 --> 00:26:50,891 that I had never seen in a person. 496 00:26:50,977 --> 00:26:52,610 Before or since. 497 00:26:57,233 --> 00:26:59,400 I wish I would have told you that before now. 498 00:27:00,569 --> 00:27:02,236 You should have heard it every day. 499 00:27:08,911 --> 00:27:10,411 [telephone ringing] 500 00:27:11,964 --> 00:27:13,163 oh... 501 00:27:14,166 --> 00:27:15,582 It's the blue bordelon. 502 00:27:15,668 --> 00:27:18,302 -Hey, pops. It's good to see you. -It's good to see you, too. 503 00:27:18,421 --> 00:27:21,055 -How you doin', buddy? -Everything is great. 504 00:27:21,140 --> 00:27:24,725 It is amazing, terrific. I promise. How are you and mom? 505 00:27:24,810 --> 00:27:27,728 -Is that blue? Hi. [chuckles] -hey, ma! 506 00:27:27,813 --> 00:27:29,813 I had my first day of school yesterday. 507 00:27:29,932 --> 00:27:33,183 I can't wait to show you all the cool stuff I'm working on 508 00:27:33,269 --> 00:27:34,685 when I come home for the holidays. 509 00:27:34,787 --> 00:27:37,237 My teachers are so so cool. 510 00:27:37,323 --> 00:27:40,274 -Oh, blue... [chuckles] -I know you miss me 511 00:27:40,359 --> 00:27:43,110 and I miss you too, but in a good way. 512 00:27:43,195 --> 00:27:45,112 Hey, we miss you too in a good way. 513 00:27:45,197 --> 00:27:46,530 In a good way, yes. 514 00:27:46,615 --> 00:27:47,614 How was your first day? 515 00:27:47,700 --> 00:27:49,416 -How was everything? -Were they nice to you? 516 00:27:49,502 --> 00:27:51,001 It is amazing. 517 00:27:51,120 --> 00:27:53,604 I love it. I love everything about it here. 518 00:27:53,706 --> 00:27:54,672 [chuckles] 519 00:27:54,790 --> 00:27:55,756 that's so wonderful, baby. 520 00:27:55,841 --> 00:27:57,291 I'm so happy that you're this happy. 521 00:27:57,376 --> 00:27:59,093 Thank you, guys, for letting me come here. 522 00:27:59,178 --> 00:28:01,679 Thank you so so much. 523 00:28:01,797 --> 00:28:04,682 Grandma's calling me for breakfast. So I'll see you guys later. 524 00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:05,766 -Love you. -Love you, too. 525 00:28:05,851 --> 00:28:08,052 And make sure you call us again soon, blue. 526 00:28:08,137 --> 00:28:10,187 -We love you, sweetheart. -We love you so much. 527 00:28:10,306 --> 00:28:11,221 Have a good day! 528 00:28:11,307 --> 00:28:12,306 [phone beeps] 529 00:28:12,391 --> 00:28:13,974 -just like that. -[chuckles] 530 00:28:16,195 --> 00:28:17,361 -[sighs] -just like that. 531 00:28:21,367 --> 00:28:23,650 -He's happy. -Yeah, I know. 532 00:28:25,988 --> 00:28:27,821 He'll be all right. 533 00:28:28,657 --> 00:28:29,873 [sighs] 534 00:28:32,044 --> 00:28:33,827 I remember feeling like... 535 00:28:34,714 --> 00:28:36,463 No expectation made of me 536 00:28:36,549 --> 00:28:41,051 was as strong as my mission to make a family with you and michael. 537 00:28:41,170 --> 00:28:43,420 [chuckles] yeah. 538 00:28:43,506 --> 00:28:45,639 You were definitely on a mission. 539 00:28:45,725 --> 00:28:47,674 I mean, strong. 540 00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:50,010 You made me believe we could do it. 541 00:28:51,180 --> 00:28:52,563 I thought... 542 00:28:55,935 --> 00:28:58,769 I could build this fortress 543 00:28:58,854 --> 00:29:01,572 around us that was so strong, 544 00:29:01,690 --> 00:29:03,190 so undeniable... 545 00:29:04,026 --> 00:29:06,577 That nothing could ever touch us, 546 00:29:06,695 --> 00:29:09,613 nothing could ever take you away from me. 547 00:29:13,536 --> 00:29:15,202 And you did that. 548 00:29:17,206 --> 00:29:19,289 [sighs] you just didn't calculate 549 00:29:19,375 --> 00:29:22,126 that the monster was already inside the fortress with you. 550 00:29:26,766 --> 00:29:29,133 You had children with other people. 551 00:29:29,218 --> 00:29:31,301 -One. -That's enough. 552 00:29:31,387 --> 00:29:33,937 Yeah. It's too much. 553 00:29:34,056 --> 00:29:37,474 It shouldn't have happened and I shouldn't have hidden it when it did happen. 554 00:29:41,614 --> 00:29:43,230 Melina goldie. 555 00:29:46,402 --> 00:29:48,068 I defended you. 556 00:29:49,572 --> 00:29:51,238 I paid her off. 557 00:29:53,742 --> 00:29:57,411 That was the biggest failure of my life. 558 00:30:08,674 --> 00:30:12,426 I remember longing... 559 00:30:12,511 --> 00:30:15,512 I mean, longing to be with you when you were on the road. 560 00:30:18,934 --> 00:30:21,518 It was the same feeling 561 00:30:21,604 --> 00:30:23,970 of wanting to be with my father when I was younger. 562 00:30:24,690 --> 00:30:27,191 I wanted his love so desperately. 563 00:30:28,027 --> 00:30:29,610 And it felt like... 564 00:30:31,614 --> 00:30:32,946 Somehow I... 565 00:30:34,033 --> 00:30:35,833 I never could grasp it. 566 00:30:36,952 --> 00:30:38,452 I remember what that felt like. 567 00:30:38,537 --> 00:30:42,005 Imagining daddy with this family I wasn't part of. 568 00:30:44,009 --> 00:30:49,129 Nova and ralph angel being able to see him every day. 569 00:30:52,635 --> 00:30:54,134 Them all happy... 570 00:30:55,387 --> 00:30:56,803 Without me. 571 00:30:57,973 --> 00:30:59,306 Like you... 572 00:31:00,226 --> 00:31:02,809 Happier with these other women... 573 00:31:02,895 --> 00:31:04,561 And having children... 574 00:31:05,481 --> 00:31:06,813 Without me. 575 00:31:09,985 --> 00:31:14,121 I was never happier when I wasn't with you, charley. 576 00:31:14,206 --> 00:31:15,906 Then why? 577 00:31:15,991 --> 00:31:18,659 Why did you do that, davis? 578 00:31:19,495 --> 00:31:21,828 Why did you do that to us? 579 00:31:23,549 --> 00:31:25,332 [sniffles] 580 00:31:33,008 --> 00:31:34,892 uh... Look... 581 00:31:38,230 --> 00:31:41,181 The only reason a person actively destroys 582 00:31:41,267 --> 00:31:44,101 everything good in their life is because... 583 00:31:45,404 --> 00:31:47,354 Is... Because... 584 00:31:53,862 --> 00:31:56,079 Because they hate who they are. 585 00:31:58,951 --> 00:32:01,702 I hated myself, charlie. 586 00:32:04,423 --> 00:32:08,375 I've had to face myself head-on over the last four years. 587 00:32:10,045 --> 00:32:12,879 Oh, we've... We've all got these 588 00:32:12,965 --> 00:32:16,099 corners of our mind where we keep all the bad stuff, 589 00:32:16,218 --> 00:32:19,636 the memories, the guilt we don't want to face. 590 00:32:20,723 --> 00:32:22,889 But I've gone to my corners... 591 00:32:25,894 --> 00:32:29,396 And I've taken all that stuff out, one by one... 592 00:32:31,450 --> 00:32:33,066 And I've looked at it all. 593 00:32:34,403 --> 00:32:35,736 All of it... 594 00:32:36,572 --> 00:32:37,904 For what it is... 595 00:32:38,741 --> 00:32:40,791 And for what it says about me. 596 00:32:42,962 --> 00:32:45,462 I was the monster inside our fortress. 597 00:32:52,638 --> 00:32:54,838 And I am not that anymore. 598 00:32:56,842 --> 00:32:59,309 Who are you now then, davis? 599 00:33:01,764 --> 00:33:03,597 That's why I asked you here. 600 00:33:04,767 --> 00:33:08,685 I need to know if that kind selfless man 601 00:33:08,771 --> 00:33:11,104 who was there for me when I was sick... 602 00:33:12,608 --> 00:33:14,358 Who went above and beyond... 603 00:33:16,195 --> 00:33:17,995 Who cared... 604 00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:23,033 I need to know if he's real. 605 00:33:24,536 --> 00:33:27,170 If that's the real you, davis. 606 00:33:28,957 --> 00:33:30,924 It's me. 607 00:33:31,010 --> 00:33:33,010 It's me, I'm real and I'm here. 608 00:33:34,797 --> 00:33:36,546 I'm here for you, charlie. 609 00:33:40,219 --> 00:33:42,803 And I can finally love you the way you always deserved. 610 00:33:44,323 --> 00:33:46,189 If you'll let me. 611 00:33:46,308 --> 00:33:48,308 ♪ give me what I want when I'm ready ♪ 612 00:33:48,394 --> 00:33:51,645 ♪ you always hold it down ♪ 613 00:33:51,730 --> 00:33:55,115 ♪ anybody else I'd be gone by now ♪ 614 00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:58,402 ♪ does it really matter? All that really matters ♪ 615 00:33:58,487 --> 00:34:00,620 ♪ second I'm with you all my love pour out ♪ 616 00:34:00,706 --> 00:34:04,491 ♪ serve it on a platter, all that really matters ♪ 617 00:34:04,576 --> 00:34:09,713 ♪ all that really matters is you keep showing up ♪ 618 00:34:11,050 --> 00:34:16,253 ♪ promise I'll remind you that you are more than enough ♪ 619 00:34:20,159 --> 00:34:21,091 is this payback from your dinner? 620 00:34:21,193 --> 00:34:22,709 When you gonna tell me where we're going? 621 00:34:22,811 --> 00:34:24,845 Look, it's what the latins call a quid pro quo. 622 00:34:24,930 --> 00:34:26,496 A surprise for a surprise. 623 00:34:26,598 --> 00:34:28,932 [chuckles] well, I know it ain't a restaurant, 624 00:34:29,034 --> 00:34:30,934 because half of them are closed down, 625 00:34:31,019 --> 00:34:33,670 and the numbers are surging in new orleans, so... 626 00:34:33,772 --> 00:34:36,406 Baby, I know all that. Can you just hold off for a second? 627 00:34:36,508 --> 00:34:37,941 All right? 628 00:34:38,026 --> 00:34:40,861 Because your chariot awaits. 629 00:34:40,946 --> 00:34:43,363 [laughs] I know you don't think I'm getting on that thing. 630 00:34:43,449 --> 00:34:44,898 A-ha-ha! Yes, I do! 631 00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:47,784 You can't have joy in life without taking a little risk, right? 632 00:34:47,870 --> 00:34:49,419 -No. -You know all this already. 633 00:34:49,538 --> 00:34:51,037 [laughing] 634 00:34:51,123 --> 00:34:52,589 ah, look at it. 635 00:34:52,708 --> 00:34:54,124 Let me hear you say "no" now. 636 00:34:54,209 --> 00:34:56,293 -[all laughing] -mm-hmm. 637 00:34:56,378 --> 00:34:58,578 There you go, get right on in there. 638 00:34:58,680 --> 00:35:00,964 Oh. Oh, no, you didn't. 639 00:35:01,049 --> 00:35:04,067 -Yes, I did. Yes, I did. -[laughing] 640 00:35:04,169 --> 00:35:06,436 now, I just want you to know, don't get jealous... 641 00:35:06,555 --> 00:35:07,971 -Oh, you gonna beat me? -...When I smoke you. 642 00:35:08,056 --> 00:35:09,422 Hey, you call me evel knievel. 643 00:35:09,525 --> 00:35:11,274 -When I smoke you. -Let's go. 644 00:35:11,393 --> 00:35:12,776 Leave you trying to catch up with me. 645 00:35:12,895 --> 00:35:14,644 -Oh, lord, I can't even get the-- -bye! 646 00:35:14,746 --> 00:35:16,730 -Oh! Stop! -[laughing] 647 00:35:18,517 --> 00:35:19,916 I love you, vi. 648 00:35:20,018 --> 00:35:22,786 I love you more, hollywood! 649 00:35:22,888 --> 00:35:24,788 [both laughing] 650 00:35:24,907 --> 00:35:26,923 yeah, baby, we gonna be all right. 651 00:35:27,025 --> 00:35:30,594 Yes, yes, yes. We gonna be all right! 652 00:35:30,696 --> 00:35:32,496 [laughing] 653 00:35:39,888 --> 00:35:41,755 micah, 654 00:35:41,840 --> 00:35:44,090 this is really good work, son. 655 00:35:44,176 --> 00:35:45,342 Thanks. 656 00:35:55,270 --> 00:35:56,853 Thank you for... 657 00:35:56,939 --> 00:35:59,022 Being here, when I wasn't. 658 00:36:02,694 --> 00:36:04,694 Yeah. 659 00:36:04,780 --> 00:36:07,864 Well, I'm kind of glad that you weren't. 660 00:36:07,950 --> 00:36:10,650 Cause she would have never wanted you to see her like that. 661 00:36:10,752 --> 00:36:11,651 She got really bad? 662 00:36:11,753 --> 00:36:13,620 -Mm-hmm. -But I'm not anymore. 663 00:36:14,873 --> 00:36:16,623 I'm okay. 664 00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,043 I just wished you called me, 665 00:36:20,128 --> 00:36:22,929 but I understand why you didn't. 666 00:36:33,108 --> 00:36:34,641 Now, I just got a taste of... 667 00:36:35,644 --> 00:36:37,360 What it's like when someone you love 668 00:36:37,479 --> 00:36:39,329 decides to do something that you don't agree with, 669 00:36:39,431 --> 00:36:40,630 and there's nothing you can do about it. 670 00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:45,569 You just gotta respect their decision, love them anyway. 671 00:36:46,989 --> 00:36:49,239 Now, that's what you have always done for me. 672 00:36:51,159 --> 00:36:53,493 I felt how hard it was and I just... 673 00:36:55,747 --> 00:36:58,415 Thank you for giving me that all the time. 674 00:37:04,306 --> 00:37:08,708 But I do have some more photos to show y'all. 675 00:37:08,810 --> 00:37:10,260 So this was like protest stuff, 676 00:37:10,362 --> 00:37:12,012 but we went to this church service. 677 00:37:12,848 --> 00:37:13,763 So many beautiful faces, 678 00:37:13,865 --> 00:37:16,349 and then the elders pulled up, look. 679 00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:19,853 Look at this lady. 680 00:37:20,606 --> 00:37:23,023 Singing herself off. 681 00:37:23,108 --> 00:37:25,158 -Oh, that's a good one. Go back, go back. -She's... 682 00:37:26,495 --> 00:37:28,695 Yes, I love that one. 683 00:37:28,780 --> 00:37:29,729 Look at that. 684 00:37:29,831 --> 00:37:30,730 [knocking at door] 685 00:37:30,832 --> 00:37:32,365 are you expecting someone? 686 00:37:33,669 --> 00:37:35,702 [calvin] yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 687 00:37:39,458 --> 00:37:42,125 -Hi. -[officer] nola pd. Internal affairs. 688 00:37:42,210 --> 00:37:44,761 Are you calvin gaston? 689 00:37:44,880 --> 00:37:46,746 -[calvin] yes, I am. -[officer] we're here to ask you 690 00:37:46,848 --> 00:37:49,082 to accompany us to nola pd central station 691 00:37:49,184 --> 00:37:51,134 -regarding your call. -[calvin] yes. 692 00:37:51,219 --> 00:37:52,302 What did you do? 693 00:37:54,890 --> 00:37:56,306 [calvin] the right thing. 694 00:37:58,727 --> 00:38:00,226 Finally. 695 00:38:02,864 --> 00:38:06,366 ♪ privilege disturbs my peace ♪ 696 00:38:07,869 --> 00:38:11,738 ♪ violates my freedoms constantly ♪ 697 00:38:12,207 --> 00:38:13,490 [sobbing] 698 00:38:13,592 --> 00:38:16,626 ♪ in my world of harsh reality ♪ 699 00:38:16,728 --> 00:38:22,432 ♪ you're the one safe haven where I roam free ♪ 700 00:38:36,682 --> 00:38:38,464 though we never saw them shooting stars 701 00:38:38,567 --> 00:38:41,101 blue was so excited about seeing a few weeks back, 702 00:38:42,604 --> 00:38:44,571 sky hella bright tonight. 703 00:38:45,273 --> 00:38:46,606 And it's shining bright. 704 00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:49,943 Like blue. 705 00:38:50,762 --> 00:38:52,412 It's good to see him happy, huh? 706 00:38:52,948 --> 00:38:54,331 Hmm. 707 00:38:54,449 --> 00:38:55,915 That's our little star. 708 00:38:57,119 --> 00:38:58,785 And we're letting him be that. 709 00:38:59,421 --> 00:39:00,837 [chuckles] 710 00:39:00,956 --> 00:39:02,789 thank you for making dinner. 711 00:39:03,925 --> 00:39:05,842 My chicken noodle soup came a long way, huh? 712 00:39:05,944 --> 00:39:06,843 Mm. 713 00:39:06,962 --> 00:39:08,294 [chuckles] 714 00:39:09,264 --> 00:39:10,296 it has. 715 00:39:12,300 --> 00:39:14,134 And we've come a long way too. 716 00:39:20,609 --> 00:39:21,808 You all right? 717 00:39:23,979 --> 00:39:25,645 You're gonna be fine, baby. 718 00:39:26,398 --> 00:39:27,647 I'm not sad. 719 00:39:30,452 --> 00:39:31,668 I'm happy. 720 00:39:34,172 --> 00:39:35,155 And... 721 00:39:35,991 --> 00:39:37,741 I want you to be happy too. 722 00:39:40,412 --> 00:39:42,595 I just need some time, that's all. 723 00:39:45,016 --> 00:39:46,683 Get used to all this quiet. 724 00:39:48,487 --> 00:39:50,153 No more blue 725 00:39:50,255 --> 00:39:51,688 waking me up all early. 726 00:39:51,773 --> 00:39:52,655 [both chuckle] 727 00:39:52,758 --> 00:39:53,857 talking about pops. 728 00:39:53,942 --> 00:39:54,774 [both laugh] 729 00:39:54,860 --> 00:39:56,443 "pops!" 730 00:39:56,528 --> 00:39:57,994 that little voice, 731 00:39:58,830 --> 00:40:00,330 I will miss that. 732 00:40:03,168 --> 00:40:04,451 Ralph angel... 733 00:40:06,288 --> 00:40:10,039 You are the best father to blue. 734 00:40:10,125 --> 00:40:11,374 [chuckles] 735 00:40:11,460 --> 00:40:13,293 you were exquisite. 736 00:40:15,130 --> 00:40:17,213 And you're gonna be a father again. 737 00:40:21,052 --> 00:40:22,469 I'm pregnant. 738 00:40:26,992 --> 00:40:28,892 With your child. 739 00:40:31,196 --> 00:40:32,395 Pregnant with mine. 740 00:40:32,481 --> 00:40:34,197 Yeah. [laughs] 741 00:40:34,316 --> 00:40:35,698 pregnant with my child? 742 00:40:35,817 --> 00:40:37,033 Yes. 743 00:40:37,152 --> 00:40:38,067 [laughs] 744 00:40:38,987 --> 00:40:40,320 stop playing. 745 00:40:54,753 --> 00:40:56,836 You always blessing me, doll. 746 00:41:01,560 --> 00:41:02,842 Blessing me. 747 00:41:03,728 --> 00:41:05,228 You're my blessing. 748 00:41:06,264 --> 00:41:07,730 You truly are. 749 00:41:09,184 --> 00:41:11,184 [both laugh] 750 00:41:11,269 --> 00:41:15,188 ♪ where your heart is lifted up ♪ 751 00:41:17,108 --> 00:41:21,110 ♪ look inside give it all ♪ 752 00:41:21,196 --> 00:41:23,279 ♪ all you got ♪ 753 00:41:23,365 --> 00:41:26,115 ♪ lift yourself higher ♪ 754 00:41:26,201 --> 00:41:27,450 [ralph] I love you. 755 00:41:29,921 --> 00:41:31,087 [darla] I love you.