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Previously on queen sugar...
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I got accepted into this
really cool school
in washington dc.
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Mom and pop said
that I can go.
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You know deep down that
that boy is mine
as much as he is yours!
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That's not your son,
aunt vi!
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It was really good of you
to drop everything.
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You say that like
I had a choice.
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There's no place
I'll ever be if you
ever need me.
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[andre] you think I'll forget
the cops' faces
who did this to me?
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You thanked him in your book.
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What?
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Calvin gaston.
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He's the one who
did this to me.
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Great.
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You put the snacks in the car?
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Indeed. Close all
them windows?
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I did.
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Where our little man at?
Probably should get going.
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He said he had
to look for something.
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-Found her.
-[darla] mmm!
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Couldn't leave
without kenya, huh?
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She'll probably
miss you too much.
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Oh, I'm not bringing kenya.
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I want her to stay here
so she can look
after you guys.
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Are you worried about us?
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I heard pops in the bathroom
this morning.
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He sounded upset.
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[ralph] upset?
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I'm not upset.
I'm happy for you.
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But are you happy for you?
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We're sad that we won't
get to see you every day.
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But I'm happy you get
to live your life.
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Well, whenever you are sad,
kenya will keep you company.
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How about when I'm sad...
[chuckles] ...I just call you?
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But I might be too busy
doing homework.
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Too busy?
Busy saving the world, huh?
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-You know it.
-That's right.
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All right. We gotta go.
Long drive.
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We gotta go.
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Long, long, long drive.
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[darla] so...
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♪ even though
it's wet and cold ♪
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♪ it shows you
what you need to know ♪
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♪ I intend this world
this whole world ♪
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♪ for you ♪
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-[darla] slide along a little.
-Oh.
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Come on.
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-Traffic waits for nobody.
Put your seatbelt on.
-All right.
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Washington dc...
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[all] here we come!
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[engine starts]
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♪ it won't always be easy ♪
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♪ it's not supposed to be ♪
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♪ you're right
it won't always be ♪
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♪ easy ♪
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♪ it's not supposed to be ♪
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♪ dreams never die
take flight
as the world turns
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♪ dreams never die
take flight
as the world turns
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♪ keep the colors in the lines
take flight ♪
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♪ dreams never die ♪
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♪ keep the colors
in the lines ♪
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♪ keep the colors in the lines
take flight ♪
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[violet] micah needs to bring
himself home.
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He does not need to be
out there in them streets.
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I want everybody
home and safe.
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Hell, home ain't safe.
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Well, I'm just glad
for the homes that we got.
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I've been watching this
reports on these evictions.
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People losing their jobs.
Healthcare's a mess.
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Those fools.
Trying to fight about
wearing a simple mask.
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Being brainwashed
to fight against
their own survival.
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Surreal.
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[violet] don't get me started.
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I tell hollywood to turn
that crap off the tv.
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Gets my pressure up.
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It's infuriating.
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We gotta get this vote out.
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I just hate that I...
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I can't be out there
getting people registered
and...
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...Staffing the polls.
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Yeah, well, you can't,
so stop it.
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That cold you had
could've been worse.
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Nova's out there
on behalf of the family
doing all of that.
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Micah, hollywood,
driving seniors.
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The bordelons
are doing their part.
We always do.
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We always do.
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Can I ask you a completely
random question?
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Go on.
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Is there anything
that jimmy dale could do
right now...
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...For you
to see him differently?
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What?
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What on earth would make you
ask me
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some stupid shit like that?
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I...
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I'm... I'm sorry, aunt vi.
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You didn't answer me.
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What on earth would make you
ask me--
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I'm just wondering.
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Why in all the hell
would you wonder that?
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Ain't enough going on
to wonder t?
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I mean, where did that
come from?
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I asked you a question,
charley.
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Davis came by here last week
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to pick something up
that micah needed
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and ship it to him.
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And, uh...
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We got to talking.
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And he seemed...
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He seemed different.
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And it got me thinking
about change.
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Can people really change?
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And forgiveness.
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And I guess I was wondering
what you felt about all that.
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Charley...
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Jimmy dale is an evil man...
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...Who gets off
on inflicting pain,
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physical, emotional,
on any and everybody.
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He's a dark soul.
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Thinks love is weakness
and feeds
on hate and treachery.
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And he made sure that I lived
inside of his hell.
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For so long it almost
destroyed me entirely.
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So there is nothing
in this world
that he could do
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to make me forget what
he did to me...
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...Or think he's changed ever.
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Davis, on the other hand,
is just damn stupid.
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Huh?
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He's not a bad person.
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He's a foolish man
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who took the good life
you gave him for granted
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and made dumb,
hurtful choices.
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But he ain't jimmy dale.
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He loved you
even though he blew it.
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And he loves that boy.
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So if you saw change in him,
that's worth looking at.
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Y'all can at least
be civil to each other.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, at least.
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Hey, you all right?
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What's wrong?
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Is everything okay?
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What's this?
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[file closes]
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his name is andre nixon.
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He was only 19 years old
the night he said you
and your cop friends
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beat him until he could
no longer walk.
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-Wait a minute, nova--
-please don't say
you don't know this man.
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Because he definitely
knows you.
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And once I started digging
into his case,
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it wasn't that hard
to put it all together.
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All someone had to do
was look,
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see,
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care enough.
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And no one did until now.
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Nova--
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look me in my eye
and tell me you had
nothing to do with this!
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That you weren't there
that night.
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And I'll believe you.
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Because I want to believe you.
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I think...
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I tried to convince myself
it was somebody else's memory
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just lodged in the back
of my mind.
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I was the son of a cop.
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I was having a real hard time.
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And everyone said
I had to prove that
I could make it on my own.
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They got ahold
of this kid--
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his name is andre.
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Right.
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Andre.
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Andre...
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...Got dragged
into an abandoned building.
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They beat him real good.
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They said it was...
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They said it was
good practice.
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I stood in the back,
I was scared.
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I knew what they were doing
was wrong.
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Then they called my name
and they said, "get up here
and prove you're one of us."
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I knew what they were asking
me to do.
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And you did it.
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I hit him once.
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Maybe twice.
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But that's all, I swear.
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I barely touched him.
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But you did touch him, calvin.
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I've never done anything
like that before or since.
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You gotta believe me.
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I believed you when you
told me you had never done
anything like this at all!
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Remember?
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Remember what you told me?
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Those were lies, calvin!
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It was over 20 years ago.
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I'm not that person.
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It was yesterday to him!
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[door slams shut]
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have you heard from him
since they got back?
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Ralph angel is not
speaking to me.
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And you ain't talking to him.
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How long is that
gonna go on?
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It'll work itself out.
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Wondering what my baby's doing
right now.
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He's with his grandmother...
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...Who is trifling,
but she loves him.
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And she ain't gonna let
no harm come to him.
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That's where he is.
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I just don't want him
to change.
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He's perfect. He's us.
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Baby, that's not gonna happen.
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That boy's got a good soul.
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And blue is gonna stay blue.
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We pray for that,
we manifest that,
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and we know that, okay?
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Okay.
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And maybe you should
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think about apologizing
to ralph angel.
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Blue is the whole reason
he got his life together.
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So if he sent him away,
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it's probably
because he thinks
the promise of tomorrow
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outweighs the pain right now.
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So my pain and love
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for a child I helped raise
don't matter?
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Baby, you can't honestly say
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that your pain
is worse than ralph angel's.
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That's his son.
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Baby, you call ralph angel
a boy.
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You said his father would be
ashamed of him.
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I believe that's the truth.
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But was it kind, vi?
Was it necessary?
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Maybe you should consider
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being the adult in the room
on this one.
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That's all I'm saying.
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[charley] when micah
left for college, I was lost.
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It's kinda stunning to realize
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that I didn't know how
to live without thinking
about his daily needs.
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I didn't know how to...
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...Just be.
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I mean, it's gonna
take some time.
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I mean, when I get down,
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I think about how much
blue loved his new room
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and how he took
to all the kids in the class.
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They really loved him.
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I mean, just being
in a classroom again,
he was on cloud nine.
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And mom loves him so much.
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It was really beautiful
to see.
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I mean, that's what I start
thinking about when
I'm getting in my feelings.
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-Hmm.
-Thank you for the talk,
charley.
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I don't wanna keep you.
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Oh, actually, um...
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I wanted to ask you something.
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I've come to think of you
as one of the strongest women
I know.
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You've been through so much.
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And yet here you are.
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Thank you.
That means a lot coming
from you, charley.
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I need some advice.
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Advice? From me?
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Well, I'll certainly try.
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I've been thinking
about davis.
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Thinking what about davis?
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Oh, oh. I see. Um, I mean,
I would never do that.
258
00:14:18,875 --> 00:14:19,958
You wouldn't? [chuckles]
259
00:14:21,595 --> 00:14:22,994
ouch.
260
00:14:23,096 --> 00:14:27,131
No, no, no. I mean,
I would never give you advice
about your man.
261
00:14:27,217 --> 00:14:30,134
I mean, just for me
from experience,
262
00:14:30,220 --> 00:14:34,055
I've found that no one really
knows your relationship
but you.
263
00:14:35,275 --> 00:14:39,010
No one knows your heart.
No one knows his.
264
00:14:39,112 --> 00:14:43,514
I mean, everyone else's
opinion doesn't really matter
in the end
265
00:14:43,617 --> 00:14:46,317
because it's the two
of you that have to look
at each other every day,
266
00:14:47,287 --> 00:14:48,820
have to love each other
every day.
267
00:14:50,657 --> 00:14:51,489
You're right.
268
00:14:52,492 --> 00:14:53,324
Has he changed?
269
00:14:55,629 --> 00:14:56,461
I think...
270
00:15:00,500 --> 00:15:03,167
Yeah. Yeah, he has.
271
00:15:06,339 --> 00:15:08,006
Is that even possible?
272
00:15:08,091 --> 00:15:09,474
Look at me
and ralph angel.
273
00:15:09,559 --> 00:15:11,676
We are completely different
people than we were
in the beginning.
274
00:15:12,345 --> 00:15:14,062
We made every mistake.
275
00:15:14,180 --> 00:15:16,881
We hurt each other,
we fell away
from each other.
276
00:15:16,983 --> 00:15:20,518
And somehow we ended up
back in each other's arms.
277
00:15:21,321 --> 00:15:23,154
So yes, it is possible.
278
00:15:24,357 --> 00:15:28,610
If you see a chance
at something real
279
00:15:28,695 --> 00:15:32,363
with someone who knows you
and truly cares about you...
280
00:15:34,117 --> 00:15:35,450
...Step out in faith.
281
00:15:36,486 --> 00:15:37,835
It might be everything
you hope it is.
282
00:15:42,559 --> 00:15:45,076
The fact that the hashtag
"defund the police"
is trending
283
00:15:45,178 --> 00:15:46,794
and on news outlets everywhere
284
00:15:46,880 --> 00:15:49,597
and that people in
this country and countries
around the world
285
00:15:49,716 --> 00:15:51,966
are taking to the streets
is just like...
286
00:15:52,052 --> 00:15:55,086
I don't know,
it's just monumental.
287
00:15:55,188 --> 00:15:57,755
You know what I mean? It just
feels really, really
meaningful. Don't you think?
288
00:15:57,857 --> 00:16:01,559
I do. I have never seen
anything like it.
289
00:16:02,529 --> 00:16:05,063
Never felt anything
like it.
290
00:16:05,148 --> 00:16:07,315
I'm just catching up
to everything now and...
[sighs]
291
00:16:07,400 --> 00:16:10,818
I am totally and completely
blown away.
292
00:16:12,872 --> 00:16:14,539
Wait, catching up
to everything?
What do you mean?
293
00:16:17,327 --> 00:16:19,043
I... I, uh...
294
00:16:19,579 --> 00:16:20,411
What's going on?
295
00:16:24,334 --> 00:16:25,917
Uh...
296
00:16:26,002 --> 00:16:30,672
I've... I've been
under the weather
the past few days.
297
00:16:30,774 --> 00:16:32,757
What do you mean
"under the weather"?
What was wrong?
298
00:16:38,264 --> 00:16:39,097
Mom.
299
00:16:40,850 --> 00:16:43,634
I, uh... I have covid.
300
00:16:43,737 --> 00:16:44,802
-What?
-But I'm recovering.
301
00:16:44,904 --> 00:16:47,071
What are you saying right now?
You took a test?
302
00:16:48,241 --> 00:16:49,306
No.
303
00:16:49,409 --> 00:16:50,858
Then what are you
basing that on?
304
00:16:50,944 --> 00:16:52,076
[exhales] well...
305
00:16:52,862 --> 00:16:53,961
I was pretty out of it.
306
00:16:54,064 --> 00:16:55,113
What does that mean?
307
00:16:56,282 --> 00:16:57,448
Is aunt vi there?
308
00:16:57,534 --> 00:17:00,651
No, no. She's not.
And I'm okay now.
309
00:17:00,754 --> 00:17:02,253
What is aunt nova saying?
310
00:17:02,338 --> 00:17:05,039
What was your temperature
at the highest?
Let me talk to aunt nova.
311
00:17:05,125 --> 00:17:08,292
Micah, nova's not here.
And I didn't call her over.
312
00:17:08,378 --> 00:17:09,210
Uncle ra?
313
00:17:09,462 --> 00:17:10,327
No.
314
00:17:10,430 --> 00:17:12,046
Then how do you know
you have covid?
315
00:17:13,049 --> 00:17:15,216
Mom, what's happening?
[stuttering] why...
316
00:17:15,301 --> 00:17:17,218
Why aren't you telling me?
Like, why am I pulling teeth
right now?
317
00:17:17,320 --> 00:17:19,804
Please, please stop
yelling at me.
318
00:17:20,640 --> 00:17:22,306
I shouldn't have come here.
319
00:17:22,809 --> 00:17:25,643
I just... [exhales]
320
00:17:25,729 --> 00:17:27,228
I left you alone
and now you...
321
00:17:27,897 --> 00:17:29,781
No, I wasn't alone.
322
00:17:33,153 --> 00:17:35,319
I couldn't call the family
for various reasons,
323
00:17:35,405 --> 00:17:38,156
so when things got
pretty bad...
324
00:17:39,826 --> 00:17:40,825
...I called your father.
325
00:17:42,679 --> 00:17:43,494
[micah scoffs]
326
00:17:47,584 --> 00:17:48,816
I'm on my way.
327
00:17:48,918 --> 00:17:49,751
[disconnects]
328
00:17:54,758 --> 00:17:55,757
[sighs deeply]
329
00:17:59,462 --> 00:18:00,328
[indistinct chatter]
330
00:18:00,430 --> 00:18:02,997
here you go, here you go.
Uh-huh.
331
00:18:03,099 --> 00:18:04,665
And that's this one.
332
00:18:04,768 --> 00:18:08,069
You've seen me at home,
now you've seen me at work!
333
00:18:08,171 --> 00:18:10,004
[laughing]
334
00:18:10,106 --> 00:18:13,224
-ten!
-Oh, I guess we are making
a little noise, huh?
335
00:18:13,309 --> 00:18:16,344
A little.
I can hear you cackling
from across the way.
336
00:18:16,446 --> 00:18:19,213
I had missed everybody
at this place so much.
337
00:18:19,315 --> 00:18:21,415
So I'm doing it
like the kids say.
I'm getting it in.
338
00:18:21,518 --> 00:18:23,518
-That's right.
-Yeah, I miss her, too.
339
00:18:23,620 --> 00:18:26,037
You know, it's just good
to know we got each other.
340
00:18:26,122 --> 00:18:29,907
-Mmm-hmm.
-Mmm! Indeed, indeed.
341
00:18:30,009 --> 00:18:32,710
-And to get it on
sitting down. Come on!
-Okay!
342
00:18:32,796 --> 00:18:34,095
[laughing]
343
00:18:41,187 --> 00:18:43,354
-oh!
-[both chuckle]
344
00:18:43,439 --> 00:18:45,690
happy reopening.
345
00:18:45,775 --> 00:18:48,109
-Sort of.
-Yeah, sort of.
346
00:18:49,195 --> 00:18:50,761
Thank you.
347
00:18:50,864 --> 00:18:52,396
Is ralph angel popping?
348
00:18:52,866 --> 00:18:54,198
No, he, um...
349
00:18:55,735 --> 00:18:56,567
He couldn't make it.
350
00:18:58,371 --> 00:18:59,203
I see.
351
00:19:01,124 --> 00:19:02,406
But the flowers
are from both of us.
352
00:19:03,376 --> 00:19:04,325
Mmm-hmm.
353
00:19:05,461 --> 00:19:07,461
-How's blue?
-So far so good.
354
00:19:08,298 --> 00:19:10,948
He's still adjusting
to my mom's
355
00:19:11,034 --> 00:19:12,967
rules and ways
about her house.
356
00:19:13,086 --> 00:19:15,286
But I think...
357
00:19:15,388 --> 00:19:17,955
I think the real test
is gonna come when he starts
school in a couple of days.
358
00:19:18,057 --> 00:19:19,674
So we shall see.
359
00:19:21,094 --> 00:19:21,926
[door opens]
360
00:19:25,415 --> 00:19:28,516
well, I should probably
get going.
361
00:19:29,319 --> 00:19:30,151
Of course. [chuckles]
362
00:19:31,070 --> 00:19:32,236
I understand.
363
00:19:32,989 --> 00:19:34,155
Congratulations.
364
00:19:35,191 --> 00:19:36,324
Thank you, baby.
365
00:19:40,864 --> 00:19:41,696
[door opens]
366
00:19:44,367 --> 00:19:46,534
[nova] I ask my ancestors
for wisdom.
367
00:19:47,787 --> 00:19:49,420
I ask for guidance.
368
00:19:51,507 --> 00:19:54,992
I ask for the capacity to love
from a place of truth
369
00:19:55,094 --> 00:19:56,427
and healing.
370
00:19:58,514 --> 00:20:00,715
[inhales deeply]
371
00:20:07,357 --> 00:20:10,308
all right. I hope you know
how sorry I am for what I did.
372
00:20:12,362 --> 00:20:14,228
Your feelings
aren't the issue.
373
00:20:20,370 --> 00:20:22,653
[sighs]
374
00:20:24,374 --> 00:20:25,873
am I allowed to get better?
375
00:20:27,577 --> 00:20:29,810
To be better than I was.
376
00:20:29,913 --> 00:20:33,414
You didn't know it was wrong
to stomp a 19-year-old
in the back until it cracked?
377
00:20:35,835 --> 00:20:37,385
You knew.
378
00:20:37,503 --> 00:20:39,703
And you decided
not to be better
in that moment
379
00:20:39,806 --> 00:20:41,305
and then to deny it
380
00:20:41,391 --> 00:20:42,890
and then to hide it.
381
00:20:44,394 --> 00:20:46,978
Yes.
Yes, what I did was wrong
and I knew it,
382
00:20:48,848 --> 00:20:50,181
to fit in,
383
00:20:51,651 --> 00:20:53,684
-to protect myself--
-he's paralyzed.
384
00:20:53,770 --> 00:20:57,104
I know. I've been trying
to keep up with him from afar.
385
00:21:07,333 --> 00:21:08,916
I want to yell
386
00:21:09,869 --> 00:21:11,118
and fight.
387
00:21:11,788 --> 00:21:13,838
I want to scream and...
388
00:21:15,925 --> 00:21:17,541
I want to hurt you.
389
00:21:19,212 --> 00:21:21,545
I want you to know
how much you've hurt me.
390
00:21:21,631 --> 00:21:24,598
-Please--
-but I can't. I can't scream.
391
00:21:26,302 --> 00:21:27,385
Can't yell.
392
00:21:29,522 --> 00:21:31,472
Can't even write about this.
393
00:21:35,478 --> 00:21:37,445
I feel like I can't move.
394
00:21:39,032 --> 00:21:41,065
Like I'm paralyzed, too.
395
00:21:44,187 --> 00:21:46,454
I'm ashamed
that I'm so scared.
396
00:21:48,658 --> 00:21:51,709
[sobs] I'm ashamed
that I want to protect you.
397
00:22:00,003 --> 00:22:03,170
I'm the only one who should
be ashamed for what I did.
398
00:22:05,475 --> 00:22:08,809
What I did was in my past.
It's far in my past.
399
00:22:10,646 --> 00:22:12,346
It's not me.
400
00:22:13,599 --> 00:22:15,649
It never was.
401
00:22:16,769 --> 00:22:19,737
[sobs, breathes shakily]
402
00:22:19,822 --> 00:22:20,905
you know me.
403
00:22:20,990 --> 00:22:21,989
Mm.
404
00:22:24,110 --> 00:22:25,743
I'm yours.
405
00:22:31,584 --> 00:22:33,117
You know who I am.
406
00:22:39,008 --> 00:22:41,258
-I'm yours, baby.
-[sobs]
407
00:22:42,712 --> 00:22:44,178
I'm so sorry.
408
00:22:52,672 --> 00:22:53,938
You ready for today?
409
00:22:54,040 --> 00:22:56,874
Mm. Yeah. How about you?
410
00:22:56,976 --> 00:23:00,444
Oh, baby, I'm so excited
about the real spot zone.
411
00:23:00,546 --> 00:23:01,528
[laughs]
412
00:23:01,631 --> 00:23:02,880
micah taught me
everything I needed to know
413
00:23:02,999 --> 00:23:05,332
about how to run a session.
414
00:23:05,418 --> 00:23:06,917
Rsvps are coming in nice.
415
00:23:07,019 --> 00:23:09,453
I'm thinking we're gonna get
six or seven guys.
416
00:23:09,555 --> 00:23:11,055
No, baby.
417
00:23:11,157 --> 00:23:12,423
We up to 46.
418
00:23:12,525 --> 00:23:14,725
Oh! [laughing]
419
00:23:14,844 --> 00:23:16,660
you are doing it.
420
00:23:16,763 --> 00:23:17,645
Mm.
421
00:23:17,730 --> 00:23:20,481
You are doing
what you always do.
422
00:23:20,566 --> 00:23:22,066
Shine.
423
00:23:22,185 --> 00:23:23,317
I'm so proud of you.
424
00:23:23,403 --> 00:23:25,069
Ah, thank you, baby.
425
00:23:25,188 --> 00:23:28,939
No, we just can't wait
for the bad to be over.
426
00:23:29,025 --> 00:23:30,858
No, we got to live through it
427
00:23:30,943 --> 00:23:33,194
and find pieces of joy
along the way.
428
00:23:36,032 --> 00:23:37,198
You're right.
429
00:23:39,585 --> 00:23:41,001
I'm gonna call ralph angel.
430
00:23:41,087 --> 00:23:42,753
It's the right thing to do.
431
00:23:42,855 --> 00:23:46,207
And I'm sorry if I had
to talk a little tough
for you to hear it.
432
00:23:47,293 --> 00:23:48,926
But I'll make it up to you.
433
00:23:49,796 --> 00:23:51,395
What you got in mind?
434
00:23:52,265 --> 00:23:53,597
You.
435
00:23:53,699 --> 00:23:54,598
[chuckles]
436
00:23:54,717 --> 00:23:56,600
-I got you in mind.
-[laughing]
437
00:23:57,386 --> 00:23:58,886
[hollywood grunts]
438
00:24:01,557 --> 00:24:03,641
mm, but not right now.
439
00:24:03,726 --> 00:24:05,359
Right now, you're gonna
finish doing this.
440
00:24:05,445 --> 00:24:07,144
I'll finish doing
what I'm doing.
441
00:24:07,230 --> 00:24:08,362
We'll link back up later.
442
00:24:08,448 --> 00:24:09,730
[laughing]
443
00:24:09,816 --> 00:24:11,065
uh-huh.
444
00:24:12,652 --> 00:24:13,734
Get out of here.
445
00:24:13,820 --> 00:24:15,069
-Mm.
-[laughing]
446
00:24:19,959 --> 00:24:22,626
so, how are you feeling?
Back to 100%?
447
00:24:22,745 --> 00:24:25,079
I'd say... 87%.
448
00:24:25,164 --> 00:24:26,747
Mm. [chuckles]
449
00:24:26,833 --> 00:24:28,749
it's the precision for me.
450
00:24:29,168 --> 00:24:30,301
[laughing]
451
00:24:31,921 --> 00:24:32,920
[sighs lightly]
452
00:24:34,307 --> 00:24:35,422
so...
453
00:24:37,260 --> 00:24:39,510
Do you have any idea
why I asked you to meet?
454
00:24:40,313 --> 00:24:41,312
Not for sure,
455
00:24:41,430 --> 00:24:44,265
but I'm hoping it's not
what I hope it's not.
456
00:24:45,768 --> 00:24:47,151
What do you hope it's not?
457
00:24:48,321 --> 00:24:50,020
Something tough about micah
458
00:24:50,106 --> 00:24:51,689
you didn't want
to talk about on the phone.
459
00:24:54,110 --> 00:24:55,109
Is keke pregnant?
460
00:24:55,194 --> 00:24:56,410
[laughs]
461
00:24:56,496 --> 00:24:57,495
no.
462
00:24:57,613 --> 00:25:01,532
As far as I'm aware,
keke is not pregnant.
463
00:25:02,285 --> 00:25:03,784
Not by micah anyway.
464
00:25:06,339 --> 00:25:07,838
You don't know
that they broke up?
465
00:25:09,675 --> 00:25:11,458
I did not know that, no.
466
00:25:13,679 --> 00:25:15,796
He stopped talking to me
467
00:25:15,882 --> 00:25:19,633
about girls and stuff
a while back, understandably.
468
00:25:25,141 --> 00:25:27,141
It's interesting that...
469
00:25:27,226 --> 00:25:29,059
Micah and keke
having a baby at their age
470
00:25:29,145 --> 00:25:31,362
is your worst fear for him.
471
00:25:32,398 --> 00:25:34,532
Nah, I wouldn't say
that's my worst fear.
472
00:25:35,818 --> 00:25:38,035
You know,
him being hurt physically
473
00:25:38,154 --> 00:25:39,537
is definitely my worst fear,
474
00:25:39,655 --> 00:25:43,908
but a baby...
Would be a close second.
475
00:25:43,993 --> 00:25:45,409
We were his age.
476
00:25:47,079 --> 00:25:48,579
Wasn't that awful.
477
00:25:49,549 --> 00:25:51,498
No, it wasn't awful at all.
478
00:25:52,668 --> 00:25:55,052
If only for one reason.
479
00:25:55,171 --> 00:25:59,006
Half of the couple in question
was charley bordelon.
480
00:25:59,091 --> 00:26:03,727
I mean, don't get me wrong.
Keke is cool and all,
but she ain't you.
481
00:26:03,846 --> 00:26:06,814
And micah
is a very, very smart kid,
482
00:26:06,899 --> 00:26:08,849
but he ain't you either.
483
00:26:09,936 --> 00:26:11,518
I mean, you were
the only part of us
484
00:26:11,604 --> 00:26:15,773
that made it possible
for that situation
to be the opposite of awful.
485
00:26:15,858 --> 00:26:18,576
You know? It was probably
the most beautiful time
of my life.
486
00:26:21,747 --> 00:26:23,030
I've never heard you
talk about it that way.
487
00:26:25,534 --> 00:26:27,952
Your decision to keep micah,
488
00:26:28,037 --> 00:26:30,955
you know,
face your mother, ernest,
489
00:26:31,040 --> 00:26:34,008
everyone who was
looking at you to excel
490
00:26:34,093 --> 00:26:37,461
and become the quintessential
black woman scholar
you were destined to be.
491
00:26:37,546 --> 00:26:39,346
-[charley chuckles]
-you know, come on.
492
00:26:39,432 --> 00:26:42,266
Single mother
did not figure into that plan.
493
00:26:44,303 --> 00:26:45,519
But you never wavered.
494
00:26:45,605 --> 00:26:49,139
And you had this kind of
resolve and... And fortitude
495
00:26:49,225 --> 00:26:50,891
that I had never seen
in a person.
496
00:26:50,977 --> 00:26:52,610
Before or since.
497
00:26:57,233 --> 00:26:59,400
I wish I would have
told you that before now.
498
00:27:00,569 --> 00:27:02,236
You should have heard it
every day.
499
00:27:08,911 --> 00:27:10,411
[telephone ringing]
500
00:27:11,964 --> 00:27:13,163
oh...
501
00:27:14,166 --> 00:27:15,582
It's the blue bordelon.
502
00:27:15,668 --> 00:27:18,302
-Hey, pops.
It's good to see you.
-It's good to see you, too.
503
00:27:18,421 --> 00:27:21,055
-How you doin', buddy?
-Everything is great.
504
00:27:21,140 --> 00:27:24,725
It is amazing, terrific.
I promise.
How are you and mom?
505
00:27:24,810 --> 00:27:27,728
-Is that blue? Hi. [chuckles]
-hey, ma!
506
00:27:27,813 --> 00:27:29,813
I had my first day of school
yesterday.
507
00:27:29,932 --> 00:27:33,183
I can't wait to show you
all the cool stuff
I'm working on
508
00:27:33,269 --> 00:27:34,685
when I come home
for the holidays.
509
00:27:34,787 --> 00:27:37,237
My teachers are so so cool.
510
00:27:37,323 --> 00:27:40,274
-Oh, blue... [chuckles]
-I know you miss me
511
00:27:40,359 --> 00:27:43,110
and I miss you too,
but in a good way.
512
00:27:43,195 --> 00:27:45,112
Hey, we miss you too
in a good way.
513
00:27:45,197 --> 00:27:46,530
In a good way, yes.
514
00:27:46,615 --> 00:27:47,614
How was your first day?
515
00:27:47,700 --> 00:27:49,416
-How was everything?
-Were they nice to you?
516
00:27:49,502 --> 00:27:51,001
It is amazing.
517
00:27:51,120 --> 00:27:53,604
I love it. I love everything
about it here.
518
00:27:53,706 --> 00:27:54,672
[chuckles]
519
00:27:54,790 --> 00:27:55,756
that's so wonderful, baby.
520
00:27:55,841 --> 00:27:57,291
I'm so happy
that you're this happy.
521
00:27:57,376 --> 00:27:59,093
Thank you, guys,
for letting me come here.
522
00:27:59,178 --> 00:28:01,679
Thank you so so much.
523
00:28:01,797 --> 00:28:04,682
Grandma's calling me
for breakfast.
So I'll see you guys later.
524
00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:05,766
-Love you.
-Love you, too.
525
00:28:05,851 --> 00:28:08,052
And make sure
you call us again soon, blue.
526
00:28:08,137 --> 00:28:10,187
-We love you, sweetheart.
-We love you so much.
527
00:28:10,306 --> 00:28:11,221
Have a good day!
528
00:28:11,307 --> 00:28:12,306
[phone beeps]
529
00:28:12,391 --> 00:28:13,974
-just like that.
-[chuckles]
530
00:28:16,195 --> 00:28:17,361
-[sighs]
-just like that.
531
00:28:21,367 --> 00:28:23,650
-He's happy.
-Yeah, I know.
532
00:28:25,988 --> 00:28:27,821
He'll be all right.
533
00:28:28,657 --> 00:28:29,873
[sighs]
534
00:28:32,044 --> 00:28:33,827
I remember feeling like...
535
00:28:34,714 --> 00:28:36,463
No expectation made of me
536
00:28:36,549 --> 00:28:41,051
was as strong as my mission
to make a family
with you and michael.
537
00:28:41,170 --> 00:28:43,420
[chuckles] yeah.
538
00:28:43,506 --> 00:28:45,639
You were definitely
on a mission.
539
00:28:45,725 --> 00:28:47,674
I mean, strong.
540
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:50,010
You made me believe
we could do it.
541
00:28:51,180 --> 00:28:52,563
I thought...
542
00:28:55,935 --> 00:28:58,769
I could build this fortress
543
00:28:58,854 --> 00:29:01,572
around us that was so strong,
544
00:29:01,690 --> 00:29:03,190
so undeniable...
545
00:29:04,026 --> 00:29:06,577
That nothing
could ever touch us,
546
00:29:06,695 --> 00:29:09,613
nothing could ever take you
away from me.
547
00:29:13,536 --> 00:29:15,202
And you did that.
548
00:29:17,206 --> 00:29:19,289
[sighs]
you just didn't calculate
549
00:29:19,375 --> 00:29:22,126
that the monster was already
inside the fortress with you.
550
00:29:26,766 --> 00:29:29,133
You had children
with other people.
551
00:29:29,218 --> 00:29:31,301
-One.
-That's enough.
552
00:29:31,387 --> 00:29:33,937
Yeah. It's too much.
553
00:29:34,056 --> 00:29:37,474
It shouldn't have happened
and I shouldn't have hidden it
when it did happen.
554
00:29:41,614 --> 00:29:43,230
Melina goldie.
555
00:29:46,402 --> 00:29:48,068
I defended you.
556
00:29:49,572 --> 00:29:51,238
I paid her off.
557
00:29:53,742 --> 00:29:57,411
That was the biggest failure
of my life.
558
00:30:08,674 --> 00:30:12,426
I remember longing...
559
00:30:12,511 --> 00:30:15,512
I mean, longing to be with you
when you were on the road.
560
00:30:18,934 --> 00:30:21,518
It was the same feeling
561
00:30:21,604 --> 00:30:23,970
of wanting
to be with my father
when I was younger.
562
00:30:24,690 --> 00:30:27,191
I wanted his love
so desperately.
563
00:30:28,027 --> 00:30:29,610
And it felt like...
564
00:30:31,614 --> 00:30:32,946
Somehow I...
565
00:30:34,033 --> 00:30:35,833
I never could grasp it.
566
00:30:36,952 --> 00:30:38,452
I remember
what that felt like.
567
00:30:38,537 --> 00:30:42,005
Imagining daddy with this
family I wasn't part of.
568
00:30:44,009 --> 00:30:49,129
Nova and ralph angel being
able to see him every day.
569
00:30:52,635 --> 00:30:54,134
Them all happy...
570
00:30:55,387 --> 00:30:56,803
Without me.
571
00:30:57,973 --> 00:30:59,306
Like you...
572
00:31:00,226 --> 00:31:02,809
Happier
with these other women...
573
00:31:02,895 --> 00:31:04,561
And having children...
574
00:31:05,481 --> 00:31:06,813
Without me.
575
00:31:09,985 --> 00:31:14,121
I was never happier
when I wasn't
with you, charley.
576
00:31:14,206 --> 00:31:15,906
Then why?
577
00:31:15,991 --> 00:31:18,659
Why did you do that, davis?
578
00:31:19,495 --> 00:31:21,828
Why did you do that to us?
579
00:31:23,549 --> 00:31:25,332
[sniffles]
580
00:31:33,008 --> 00:31:34,892
uh... Look...
581
00:31:38,230 --> 00:31:41,181
The only reason
a person actively destroys
582
00:31:41,267 --> 00:31:44,101
everything good in their life
is because...
583
00:31:45,404 --> 00:31:47,354
Is... Because...
584
00:31:53,862 --> 00:31:56,079
Because they hate
who they are.
585
00:31:58,951 --> 00:32:01,702
I hated myself, charlie.
586
00:32:04,423 --> 00:32:08,375
I've had to
face myself head-on
over the last four years.
587
00:32:10,045 --> 00:32:12,879
Oh, we've...
We've all got these
588
00:32:12,965 --> 00:32:16,099
corners of our mind
where we keep
all the bad stuff,
589
00:32:16,218 --> 00:32:19,636
the memories, the guilt
we don't want to face.
590
00:32:20,723 --> 00:32:22,889
But I've gone to my corners...
591
00:32:25,894 --> 00:32:29,396
And I've taken all that
stuff out, one by one...
592
00:32:31,450 --> 00:32:33,066
And I've looked at it all.
593
00:32:34,403 --> 00:32:35,736
All of it...
594
00:32:36,572 --> 00:32:37,904
For what it is...
595
00:32:38,741 --> 00:32:40,791
And for what
it says about me.
596
00:32:42,962 --> 00:32:45,462
I was the monster
inside our fortress.
597
00:32:52,638 --> 00:32:54,838
And I am not that anymore.
598
00:32:56,842 --> 00:32:59,309
Who are you now then, davis?
599
00:33:01,764 --> 00:33:03,597
That's why I asked you here.
600
00:33:04,767 --> 00:33:08,685
I need to know
if that kind selfless man
601
00:33:08,771 --> 00:33:11,104
who was there for me
when I was sick...
602
00:33:12,608 --> 00:33:14,358
Who went above and beyond...
603
00:33:16,195 --> 00:33:17,995
Who cared...
604
00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:23,033
I need to know
if he's real.
605
00:33:24,536 --> 00:33:27,170
If that's the real you, davis.
606
00:33:28,957 --> 00:33:30,924
It's me.
607
00:33:31,010 --> 00:33:33,010
It's me, I'm real
and I'm here.
608
00:33:34,797 --> 00:33:36,546
I'm here for you, charlie.
609
00:33:40,219 --> 00:33:42,803
And I can finally love you
the way you always deserved.
610
00:33:44,323 --> 00:33:46,189
If you'll let me.
611
00:33:46,308 --> 00:33:48,308
♪ give me what I want
when I'm ready ♪
612
00:33:48,394 --> 00:33:51,645
♪ you always hold it down ♪
613
00:33:51,730 --> 00:33:55,115
♪ anybody else
I'd be gone by now ♪
614
00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:58,402
♪ does it really matter?
All that really matters ♪
615
00:33:58,487 --> 00:34:00,620
♪ second I'm with you
all my love pour out ♪
616
00:34:00,706 --> 00:34:04,491
♪ serve it on a platter,
all that really matters ♪
617
00:34:04,576 --> 00:34:09,713
♪ all that really matters is
you keep showing up ♪
618
00:34:11,050 --> 00:34:16,253
♪ promise I'll remind you that
you are more than enough ♪
619
00:34:20,159 --> 00:34:21,091
is this payback
from your dinner?
620
00:34:21,193 --> 00:34:22,709
When you gonna tell me
where we're going?
621
00:34:22,811 --> 00:34:24,845
Look, it's what the latins
call a quid pro quo.
622
00:34:24,930 --> 00:34:26,496
A surprise for
a surprise.
623
00:34:26,598 --> 00:34:28,932
[chuckles] well, I know
it ain't a restaurant,
624
00:34:29,034 --> 00:34:30,934
because half of them
are closed down,
625
00:34:31,019 --> 00:34:33,670
and the numbers are surging
in new orleans, so...
626
00:34:33,772 --> 00:34:36,406
Baby, I know all that.
Can you just hold off
for a second?
627
00:34:36,508 --> 00:34:37,941
All right?
628
00:34:38,026 --> 00:34:40,861
Because your chariot awaits.
629
00:34:40,946 --> 00:34:43,363
[laughs] I know you
don't think I'm getting
on that thing.
630
00:34:43,449 --> 00:34:44,898
A-ha-ha! Yes, I do!
631
00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:47,784
You can't have joy in life
without taking
a little risk, right?
632
00:34:47,870 --> 00:34:49,419
-No.
-You know all this already.
633
00:34:49,538 --> 00:34:51,037
[laughing]
634
00:34:51,123 --> 00:34:52,589
ah, look at it.
635
00:34:52,708 --> 00:34:54,124
Let me hear you
say "no" now.
636
00:34:54,209 --> 00:34:56,293
-[all laughing]
-mm-hmm.
637
00:34:56,378 --> 00:34:58,578
There you go,
get right on in there.
638
00:34:58,680 --> 00:35:00,964
Oh. Oh, no, you didn't.
639
00:35:01,049 --> 00:35:04,067
-Yes, I did. Yes, I did.
-[laughing]
640
00:35:04,169 --> 00:35:06,436
now, I just want you to know,
don't get jealous...
641
00:35:06,555 --> 00:35:07,971
-Oh, you gonna beat me?
-...When I smoke you.
642
00:35:08,056 --> 00:35:09,422
Hey, you call me
evel knievel.
643
00:35:09,525 --> 00:35:11,274
-When I smoke you.
-Let's go.
644
00:35:11,393 --> 00:35:12,776
Leave you trying to
catch up with me.
645
00:35:12,895 --> 00:35:14,644
-Oh, lord,
I can't even get the--
-bye!
646
00:35:14,746 --> 00:35:16,730
-Oh! Stop!
-[laughing]
647
00:35:18,517 --> 00:35:19,916
I love you, vi.
648
00:35:20,018 --> 00:35:22,786
I love you more, hollywood!
649
00:35:22,888 --> 00:35:24,788
[both laughing]
650
00:35:24,907 --> 00:35:26,923
yeah, baby,
we gonna be all right.
651
00:35:27,025 --> 00:35:30,594
Yes, yes, yes.
We gonna be all right!
652
00:35:30,696 --> 00:35:32,496
[laughing]
653
00:35:39,888 --> 00:35:41,755
micah,
654
00:35:41,840 --> 00:35:44,090
this is really
good work, son.
655
00:35:44,176 --> 00:35:45,342
Thanks.
656
00:35:55,270 --> 00:35:56,853
Thank you for...
657
00:35:56,939 --> 00:35:59,022
Being here,
when I wasn't.
658
00:36:02,694 --> 00:36:04,694
Yeah.
659
00:36:04,780 --> 00:36:07,864
Well, I'm kind of glad
that you weren't.
660
00:36:07,950 --> 00:36:10,650
Cause she would have
never wanted you
to see her like that.
661
00:36:10,752 --> 00:36:11,651
She got really bad?
662
00:36:11,753 --> 00:36:13,620
-Mm-hmm.
-But I'm not anymore.
663
00:36:14,873 --> 00:36:16,623
I'm okay.
664
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,043
I just wished
you called me,
665
00:36:20,128 --> 00:36:22,929
but I understand
why you didn't.
666
00:36:33,108 --> 00:36:34,641
Now, I just got
a taste of...
667
00:36:35,644 --> 00:36:37,360
What it's like
when someone you love
668
00:36:37,479 --> 00:36:39,329
decides to do something
that you don't agree with,
669
00:36:39,431 --> 00:36:40,630
and there's nothing
you can do about it.
670
00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:45,569
You just gotta
respect their decision,
love them anyway.
671
00:36:46,989 --> 00:36:49,239
Now, that's what you have
always done for me.
672
00:36:51,159 --> 00:36:53,493
I felt how hard it was
and I just...
673
00:36:55,747 --> 00:36:58,415
Thank you
for giving me that
all the time.
674
00:37:04,306 --> 00:37:08,708
But I do have
some more photos
to show y'all.
675
00:37:08,810 --> 00:37:10,260
So this was
like protest stuff,
676
00:37:10,362 --> 00:37:12,012
but we went to
this church service.
677
00:37:12,848 --> 00:37:13,763
So many beautiful faces,
678
00:37:13,865 --> 00:37:16,349
and then the elders
pulled up, look.
679
00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:19,853
Look at this lady.
680
00:37:20,606 --> 00:37:23,023
Singing herself off.
681
00:37:23,108 --> 00:37:25,158
-Oh, that's a good one.
Go back, go back.
-She's...
682
00:37:26,495 --> 00:37:28,695
Yes, I love that one.
683
00:37:28,780 --> 00:37:29,729
Look at that.
684
00:37:29,831 --> 00:37:30,730
[knocking at door]
685
00:37:30,832 --> 00:37:32,365
are you expecting someone?
686
00:37:33,669 --> 00:37:35,702
[calvin] yeah.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
687
00:37:39,458 --> 00:37:42,125
-Hi.
-[officer] nola pd.
Internal affairs.
688
00:37:42,210 --> 00:37:44,761
Are you calvin gaston?
689
00:37:44,880 --> 00:37:46,746
-[calvin] yes, I am.
-[officer] we're here
to ask you
690
00:37:46,848 --> 00:37:49,082
to accompany us
to nola pd central station
691
00:37:49,184 --> 00:37:51,134
-regarding your call.
-[calvin] yes.
692
00:37:51,219 --> 00:37:52,302
What did you do?
693
00:37:54,890 --> 00:37:56,306
[calvin] the right thing.
694
00:37:58,727 --> 00:38:00,226
Finally.
695
00:38:02,864 --> 00:38:06,366
♪ privilege disturbs
my peace ♪
696
00:38:07,869 --> 00:38:11,738
♪ violates my
freedoms constantly ♪
697
00:38:12,207 --> 00:38:13,490
[sobbing]
698
00:38:13,592 --> 00:38:16,626
♪ in my world
of harsh reality ♪
699
00:38:16,728 --> 00:38:22,432
♪ you're the one safe haven
where I roam free ♪
700
00:38:36,682 --> 00:38:38,464
though we never saw
them shooting stars
701
00:38:38,567 --> 00:38:41,101
blue was so excited
about seeing a few weeks back,
702
00:38:42,604 --> 00:38:44,571
sky hella bright tonight.
703
00:38:45,273 --> 00:38:46,606
And it's shining bright.
704
00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:49,943
Like blue.
705
00:38:50,762 --> 00:38:52,412
It's good to see him happy,
huh?
706
00:38:52,948 --> 00:38:54,331
Hmm.
707
00:38:54,449 --> 00:38:55,915
That's our little star.
708
00:38:57,119 --> 00:38:58,785
And we're letting
him be that.
709
00:38:59,421 --> 00:39:00,837
[chuckles]
710
00:39:00,956 --> 00:39:02,789
thank you
for making dinner.
711
00:39:03,925 --> 00:39:05,842
My chicken noodle soup
came a long way, huh?
712
00:39:05,944 --> 00:39:06,843
Mm.
713
00:39:06,962 --> 00:39:08,294
[chuckles]
714
00:39:09,264 --> 00:39:10,296
it has.
715
00:39:12,300 --> 00:39:14,134
And we've come
a long way too.
716
00:39:20,609 --> 00:39:21,808
You all right?
717
00:39:23,979 --> 00:39:25,645
You're gonna be fine, baby.
718
00:39:26,398 --> 00:39:27,647
I'm not sad.
719
00:39:30,452 --> 00:39:31,668
I'm happy.
720
00:39:34,172 --> 00:39:35,155
And...
721
00:39:35,991 --> 00:39:37,741
I want you
to be happy too.
722
00:39:40,412 --> 00:39:42,595
I just need
some time, that's all.
723
00:39:45,016 --> 00:39:46,683
Get used to all this quiet.
724
00:39:48,487 --> 00:39:50,153
No more blue
725
00:39:50,255 --> 00:39:51,688
waking me up all early.
726
00:39:51,773 --> 00:39:52,655
[both chuckle]
727
00:39:52,758 --> 00:39:53,857
talking about pops.
728
00:39:53,942 --> 00:39:54,774
[both laugh]
729
00:39:54,860 --> 00:39:56,443
"pops!"
730
00:39:56,528 --> 00:39:57,994
that little voice,
731
00:39:58,830 --> 00:40:00,330
I will miss that.
732
00:40:03,168 --> 00:40:04,451
Ralph angel...
733
00:40:06,288 --> 00:40:10,039
You are the best
father to blue.
734
00:40:10,125 --> 00:40:11,374
[chuckles]
735
00:40:11,460 --> 00:40:13,293
you were exquisite.
736
00:40:15,130 --> 00:40:17,213
And you're gonna be
a father again.
737
00:40:21,052 --> 00:40:22,469
I'm pregnant.
738
00:40:26,992 --> 00:40:28,892
With your child.
739
00:40:31,196 --> 00:40:32,395
Pregnant with mine.
740
00:40:32,481 --> 00:40:34,197
Yeah. [laughs]
741
00:40:34,316 --> 00:40:35,698
pregnant with my child?
742
00:40:35,817 --> 00:40:37,033
Yes.
743
00:40:37,152 --> 00:40:38,067
[laughs]
744
00:40:38,987 --> 00:40:40,320
stop playing.
745
00:40:54,753 --> 00:40:56,836
You always blessing me, doll.
746
00:41:01,560 --> 00:41:02,842
Blessing me.
747
00:41:03,728 --> 00:41:05,228
You're my blessing.
748
00:41:06,264 --> 00:41:07,730
You truly are.
749
00:41:09,184 --> 00:41:11,184
[both laugh]
750
00:41:11,269 --> 00:41:15,188
♪ where your heart
is lifted up ♪
751
00:41:17,108 --> 00:41:21,110
♪ look inside
give it all ♪
752
00:41:21,196 --> 00:41:23,279
♪ all you got ♪
753
00:41:23,365 --> 00:41:26,115
♪ lift yourself higher ♪
754
00:41:26,201 --> 00:41:27,450
[ralph] I love you.
755
00:41:29,921 --> 00:41:31,087
[darla] I love you.