♪ Oh, no, I'll never let go ♪
♪ Can't pry my fingers From the end of this rope ♪
[Marissa] It's, like, surreal to know we have Decision Day coming up.
I definitely want Marissa to be my, like, forever person.
This conversation that Shawn and I had,
he was like, "You may be a ten in Seattle,
- but in New York you'd be a seven." - [Belléjolie] Jesus.
- [Michelle] He thinks he's a ten? - [Nikki] He thinks he's a ten.
- [Michelle] Shut the fuck up. - He thinks he's a ten. He thinks he's a ten.
We made a decision to go into Decision Day saying yes.
- Wow. - You did?
- [Cameron] Is Bellé your dream girl? - No.
So what are you doing here then?
- [Mecca] Is Michelle your dream girl? - Yes!
[Belléjolie] It is insecurity because there's no way
you're going to have to feel like you have to humble me in any type of way.
If we can just commit
to being each other's safe space, then I want to try.
For sure I can.
Conversations cannot go like that.
- Yeah, like, I mean-- - Well, let me finish my point.
That's something that I cannot have.
I cannot be shut down. Because that's unacceptable.
We have nothing to hold onto in this relationship.
- Obviously. - You have given me nothing.
I think calling it is the best choice, so I'm good here.
I don't need anything else from you.
♪ I get lost all the time ♪
["Savage" by I, Us, & We playing]
- [Cameron] Oh, morning everyone! - [all] Morning!
You know what, I considered coming up at 7:00 a.m.
and blasting shitty fucking 2010s rap music?
♪ Bad, you know She gon' act up, act up ♪
♪ That new form When you see me back up ♪
- Cameron! - I remembered my first drink!
- Late 2010s. - [Felipe laughing]
- [Marissa] What? Wild. - I wasn't even drinking, brother.
- [Cameron] What's up, man? - [Mecca scoffs]
- How you feeling? - I'm feeling great. I'm-- I'm good.
- Morning. - Good Morning!
[Tori] Good morning.
[Cameron] Oh, we're all back together! Everyone's okay?
Uh, me and Cait are calling it.
[dramatic music playing]
We're not staying together. I'm heading back to Seattle.
[Mecca] Shit. Based on what?
[Devin] We don't see eye to eye.
Our communication is not up to par.
It's just a continual power struggle of who needs to be right.
I don't want to keep playing into that toxic pattern.
It's emotionally draining.
[Marissa] Holy shit. I did not expect that.
Caitlin seemed like she was going to turn over a new leaf
and really give it a go.
Then, to just be leaving the couples retreat,
they are no longer, is crazy.
I'm tired of, like, the emotional weight
that, like, I feel like I've been carrying
of just, like, us, like, constantly arguing.
We weren't even arguing in the same conversation last night.
Like, I have no i-- like, when we had our talk, I was so confused.
'Cause you don't listen. You don't listen to the other side.
- Okay. - [Devin] I'm tired of being disrespected in conversation.
That's what I'm done with.
[Cameron] Mecca, there's rumors you were trying to do a couple swap last night.
What's up with that?
Couple swap? No, no.
- [Cameron] I thought he was. - [Tori] You give him an inch and he takes a mile.
- Couple swap is crazy. - [Cameron] Why'd I hear you yapping about it then?
[Mecca] No, no, no.
[Adam] All right, what is-- what is this?
We're just going to watch your girl just get rizzed up by Mecca for 15 minutes?
I mean, like, I see Caitlin as like,
you know, a really, really, really good friend.
There may have been a point in the night where,
for Devin, it went too far.
I've had a great time, but it seems as though
it's been at the expense of other people.
♪ Slowly, softly, sweetly You pull me in ♪
I can't believe you guys are, like, done.
You're just going home.
- Yeah. - Packing up.
If it wasn't last night, it would have been today.
- [Marissa] Yeah. - There would have been another argument or something.
Like, I was just at-- I'm at my wit's end with it.
- Like, I can't communicate. - Yeah, it would have been
just you guys going to the end and then both saying no.
And then just being like, "No." And I'm like, "Well, I'm not going to do that to do that."
At least you don't have to get into these, like, screaming arguments.
No, and that's why it feels relieving.
Like, you can breathe.
Can I hitch a ride back with someone?
[Michelle] You should ride with us.
[Caitlin] Okay, cool.
♪ Little does everyone know I'm wide awake dreaming ♪
- I'm going to head out. So... - [Mecca laughs]
I can't help but-- I can't help but think that I'm responsible for that.
[Devin] You're not responsible. At the end of the day, our problems are our problems.
It was the straw that broke the camel's back
- because of how she responded to it or reacted to it. - [Mecca] Correct.
- [Belléjolie] Yeah. - [Mecca] Correct.
It was a mis-- misunderstanding, a misinterpretation.
It's not your fault.
Mecca overstepped.
Last night I confronted him about it.
So he apologized and he went away.
No hard feelings.
- [Belléjolie] Hugs. - I'm going to remove myself now.
- Mm-hmm. - You know?
Heard. Heard.
- Much love, brother. - Cheers, brother.
- [Mecca] Thank you. - [Devin] Yeah.
Putting in the effort and knowing that it failed,
it stings a little bit right now,
But at the end of the day, like, I know that I tried.
I'm proud of the effort that I put in.
♪ This is Where we say goodbye ♪
I'm moving out.
I'm disappointed because of how I came into this so ready.
Ready to work through it. Ready to dive both feet in.
And I got someone who was one toe in.
♪ Did you even try ♪
♪ Will it keep you Up at night ♪
- See you later, man. - Catch you, man. It was great.
[Devin] I've been trying to show up
as the most authentic version of myself.
And, like, if she can't handle that, I'm not going to dim my light.
- We'll see each other. - Absolutely.
- Catch you, bro. - For sure.
- Bye. - I'll miss ya.
- Happy for you guys. - Yeah, thank you.
[Devin] I saw the potential of what this could have been.
I think she's amazing. But, like, you have to let me in a bit.
And she never let me in.
At the end of the day, like, I can't be delusional.
At what point am I forcing it to try and work?
I just got to learn from that and carry it into whatever the next, like, relationship is.
♪ This is Where we say goodbye ♪
[Michelle] How you doing? You okay?
Yeah. I just want to go home.
[Michelle] Oh, my gosh.
This experience, like, really pushed me in a lot of really positive ways.
It's also been, like, the most vulnerable I've ever been in my entire life.
♪ And I ♪
["Say Something" by A Great Big World featuring Christina Aguilera]
♪ Am feeling so small ♪
I just don't think, like, I've ever just felt
so, like, misunderstood by, like, someone in my life.
I'm feeling misunderstood because I am misunderstood.
He probably also feels misunderstood.
That's a hard thing to, like, walk away from and not try to work out.
♪ Anywhere I would've followed you ♪
He tried so hard, but, like, didn't really see, like, a lot of me for me.
♪ And I'm sorry That I couldn't get to you ♪
I just...
would have loved for it to have worked out.
Like, the way he treated me,
the way he, like, looked out for me.
Easy things that, like, every guy should do,
but, like, maybe has never happened for me.
Like, that's hard to walk away from, too.
♪ And I'm saying goodbye ♪
Do you need anything?
- What? - Do you need anything?
No.
♪ Say something I'm giving up on you ♪
Hope's gone. [laughs]
Hope has left the building.
♪ Say something I'm giving up on you ♪
[Felipe] Even though you're a divorcee, I still hang out with you.
Thank you, Felipe. Is there room in your car?
- Oh, bye, Cay-Cay. - [Caitlin] Bye.
- I love you. - [Caitlin] I love you, too.
Thank you so much for everything.
[Cameron] Come on, Caitlin, let's go.
[Marissa] She's, like, their little kid.
[Cameron] She's in trouble.
It's like you picked me up from a really bad sleepover.
[Cameron] Yeah. [laughs]
[Cameron grunts]
See you. Bye.
["Bringing the House Down" by 11 One/Music playing]
- [Nikki] Goodbye, couples retreat. - Goodbye, house.
- Thanks for being part of our journeys. - [Belléjolie] Yes.
♪ Don't matter If you try to doubt me ♪
♪ You don't really know A thing about me ♪
[Mecca] At a certain point,
motherfuckers just gotta be honest with themselves.
- And who's the motherfuckers? - [Mecca] I'm an idiot.
- Mecca, please stop calling yourself an idiot. - [Nikki] Well--
Yeah, please stop. Like, let's be kind to ourselves.
That filter is non-existent.
I'm just, like, saying whatever, doing whatever
at the expense of other individuals,
- which is, you know, it's-- it's a problem. - [Nikki] Yeah.
♪ I'm bringing the house down ♪
♪ Baby, your love On this cross sounds ♪
I'm sorry it all blew up, guys.
- Oh, my gosh, no, it's fine. - It's all good.
[Michelle] At the end of the day, despite all the chaos,
it's good that you came to this realization
before Decision Day.
Yeah, thank-- thank you.
♪ Not another way That this can go ♪
What was your guys' favorite part of the weekend?
- [Tori] Oh, fighting for sure. - [laughter]
- [Tori] I won. - Love a good fight.
[Felipe] Did you win?
Yeah, I feel like she won that fight for sure.
- [Tori] Yeah. Yeah. - [laughter]
- Wasn't even close. - [Tori] Yeah.
[Marissa] Yeah, you guys really kicked off the weekend
with a nice tiff.
You guys walked so Devin and Caitlin could run.
[laughter]
♪ Life's much better When we're falling in love ♪
♪ Not falling apart ♪
[Nikki chuckles] Hi.
- [Nikki] Hi. - So many ways.
- How are you? - I'm great, how are you?
- Look, you coming with food? - Yeah, I know.
Yeah, I drank some Earl Grey tea to stay awake for you.
Oh, you did? For me?
♪ So much better when you're Breaking the floor ♪
♪ Not breaking my heart Stop breaking my ♪
- [Nana] Hey. - [Felipe] Hi.
Hi. You shaved, baby.
- Hi, Mom. - Hey, baby.
- Check on you. - [Nana] Hi.
- Hi, Nana. - [Nana] How's it going?
- So good to see you guys. - [Nana] Good to see you too.
How is it going?
Oh, it's going good.
- Yeah. - It's a lot of things to do?
Yeah, feels like a lot.
Okay, tell us.
Yeah, um...
I have this huge weight on my shoulders.
- I have a few days to decide... - [Ana] What other things?
...whether I'm going to be with this person
for the rest of my life or not, okay?
And I guess I'm not quite certain
what my answer is yet. [chuckles]
She's honestly, like, really incredible.
But it's not perfect.
["Love Me the Right Way" by Stevie Gold playing]
It's hard for me
to be my, like, true self around Tori.
Sometimes, like, I get into trouble
when I am my true self around her.
- ♪ It's real love ♪ - ♪ It's real love ♪
- ♪'Cause we have enough ♪ - ♪ Have enough ♪
- [Macee] Hi. - [Tori] Hi, babe.
- [Macee] What's up? - Quick update.
We went to a couples retreat this past weekend.
The first night, we had, like, a big fight.
We, like, literally almost broke up.
[Macee] Oh, my gosh.
"Most likely to flirt with the waiter while their partner is right there."
- Whoa. - [Caitlin] Okay, ready?
[all] Felipe!
[laughter]
Okay, wait, so you give a shit that they think I'm a slut.
You're not considering me in your behavior.
Everyone else's perception of you is--
But who gives a shit about everyone else's perception? That's what I'm trying to say.
What matters to me is your perception.
[Tori] I just was like, "How would you feel in my circumstance?"
He didn't really see where I was coming from.
He said maybe we're incompatible.
That's wild.
[Felipe] I get it.
I'm not perfect in the words that I choose.
But, like, for the rest of my life, I'm going to say stupid shit, like.
- We know. - You know. Like, it's just--
I've known you for, like, what, like, seven, eight years now?
[Felipe] We've known each other for, like, eight years now.
My second sister, my favorite sister.
[laughter]
Like, I told you when I first met you,
I thought you were super mean.
Like, you do say some things that are stupid.
But for us, it's like, we know you.
We know you don't mean no harm.
And maybe for Tori,
it's just a matter of time to get there.
I just am so torn. It's good we've had arguments.
I think it's more of a green flag than a red flag.
And I don't think you should just end something because there's hard stuff.
Because it's all going to be hard at some point.
I do feel like this could be my husband forever.
Yeah.
There's a lot to think about, I think. [sighs]
I'm here to support you either way.
[Tori sighs]
[Felipe] I do understand how amazing she is. Beautiful inside and out.
People say stuff to me like, "You're never going to find someone like her again."
Our romantic moments are magical.
What life do I think is better
between my single life or my married life with Tori?
Like, legitimately, like,
it's going to require a leap of faith either way.
For me and your daddy, we love you guys together.
She's going to be good for you. But I know you have to decide.
- It's not me. - [laughter]
♪ Baby come back ♪
♪ Is the only thing I wanna say ♪
♪ Baby come back ♪
[Belléjolie] That's super cute. What the heck?
"Daddy and Bellé."
- [Belléjolie] What the heck? That's insane. - [Mecca] Oh.
- [Mecca] Wait, have we been here before? - [Belléjolie] That's crazy.
♪ Is what I want to say ♪
- Quite the wild weekend. - Definitely.
- It just was all bad as a whole, honestly. - Yeah.
It's probably a large part of you that feels like
you shouldn't have to be put in those situations,
or you shouldn't have to be thinking certain things.
Yeah, I shouldn't have to, but at the same time,
it's happening for a reason, and it's helping me,
like, learn more about myself
and figure out, like, how I need to react
- and respond in-- in those situations. - [Mecca] Yeah.
Your sentiments of being like, "I don't deserve this.
Like, I don't-- I shouldn't have to keep putting up with this. It's disrespect."
And I'm thinking like, "Ah, shit, yeah, she's right."
And that's all damage that I've created.
So I was...
beating myself up about that all day.
I know that like, I'm a deeply flawed individual.
And the sad and unfortunate part about it is,
coming into this, my goal and my intention
was to not let any of that show at all.
You know, be the best version of myself that I know I can be.
I just need to check my energy, to be honest.
My energy was...
all the way off.
Cocky too, which is ugly to say,
because it's just-- That's really just not who I am.
I'm not a cocky or arrogant person.
You could, you know, think and feel otherwise,
- which is totally-- which is totally fine. - No, I don't. No, I don't.
That's why it was like a...
dang type of moment,
- because I know that's not who you are. - Yeah.
At the end of the day, my answer is still going to be yes,
because I know how I feel about you,
and I also know that I know how to treat you
and I know how to be respectful.
I do want it to work, and I do want you to say yes,
you know, when the time comes,
but you have to make the right decision that's best for yourself.
If the totality of my actions and words
has equated to you saying no,
then I have no choice
but to be understanding of that because I get it.
["Don't Give Up On This" by Jenn Bostic playing]
♪ Getting lost in the details ♪
♪ So worried That you might fail ♪
[Belléjolie] I know it's not my job to heal him
or go through all of this torture first
before I'm loved correctly, so I don't want to do that,
but there is a part of me that wants to stay in it,
because I actually feel like I can contribute, you know,
into him being a better person and-- and who he's trying to be,
so I'm just weighing out everything.
The ball is in my court.
I think I just got to, like, be better in those moments, man,
because I'm sure you love
the person that I am outside of all that nonsense.
♪ But hope waitin' On the other side ♪
♪ Saying don't give up ♪
["Crack The Code" by Mic Drop playing]
[Nikki] Hi.
[Shawn] Two for dinner, please.
- Two for dinner? All right. I've got a table right up there. - Yes.
- Great. - Awesome. Thanks.
♪ Just the way you look at me ♪
Can we talk about this dress?
Uh... a little commotion.
Thank you.
[Shawn] This is a good appetizer.
[both laughing]
I obviously missed you this weekend.
- Thank you. - [Shawn] You know.
I felt the same way.
- Yeah. - I learned a lot.
- [Shawn] You learned a lot? - I learned a lot.
[Nikki] Tell me everything. Start from the beginning. Go.
So, um...
the theme of the weekend was we're with these men
who have showed that they can be disrespectful,
particularly on matters of appearance,
- which we're really sensitive to women, and... - Yeah.
...like, how do we feel about that and what's acceptable
- versus what's not acceptable. - I gotcha.
[Nikki] There's a lot going on with Bellé and Mecca.
She's had some instances where, and you've seen some of them, where he's been disrespectful.
She's really hurt by some of the things he's said,
and it-- it stirred up for me the comment that you made
about me being a seven in New York, but a ten in Seattle.
- I hadn't shared that with anybody because... - Oh, yeah.
...like, when it happened, it stung.
Now, do you remember right before I said that,
you grabbing my belly fat and being like, "Look at you."
- Do you remember that moment? - No.
We were in the pool, and you were like, "Look at you."
And I was like, "Yeah, but like, we're-- we're both not all that."
- You don't remember that moment? - No.
- I don't remember that. - I remember that, like, yesterday.
- I'm not making this up at all, I promise you. - Okay.
And at the end of that was when I was like,
"Oh, yeah, but, like, I think, you know, here,
you're probably perceived as a ten,
but like, there's a lot of people in New York
that look kind of like you.
You could be a seven in New York, right?"
- Okay. - And it was a response to that moment.
Um...
Our food is here.
- Oh, my gosh. - Yeah.
Awesome. Thank you.
All right.
So, whether you remember that moment or not, doesn't matter.
I was hurt. That's why I said what I said.
Um, I apologize for that.
Well, thank you for the apology,
and I apologize for insulting you.
For me, it's-- I really leaned into just being intentional
about pouring my everything into this relationship.
What I know now is that we should always endeavor
to fight fair and fight kindly.
I can see when Nikki shows up fully as herself
in her soft person, it's, like, so loving and endearing
and it's someone I want to be around.
But can I see that long enough, consistently enough,
that allows me to feel like I can get to a "yes" at Decision Day?
I don't know.
I don't hold anything against you.
- Thank you. - So we're good. I've--
It's squashed.
["In This Together" by Markus Hughes playing]
♪ The sun is coming over ♪
♪ Across the barren fields ♪
♪ Just like I said it'd be ♪
♪ The storm is almost over ♪
- [Marissa] Are you sleeping? - Mm-hmm.
- You are? - Yeah.
You're so cute.
How is it being sick with me?
It's way better being sick with you
because it just feels like we're in it together.
Yeah. You're so sweet.
Marissa and I are absolutely fighting for our lives right now.
We're deep in the trenches. You know, we could not be sicker.
Like, I took a rapid test and, you know,
was told I was diagnosed with influenza B and COVID at the same time
And it feels like both of those
in addition to getting, like, hit by a truck
and then dragged behind my jet ski underwater for an hour.
My headache is so crazy.
[Adam] I know.
It's nice being sick together.
Adam is able to slow down.
He made me chicken noodle soup
and he brought me tea and medicine.
It feels good when he's, like, zoning in and,
like, locking in and, like, having those, like, genuine moments.
That's not something, like, he shows to everybody.
Here you go.
- Thank you. - New tea bag.
[Marissa] Cheers.
Cheers.
It's nice, though.
[Marissa] I know. This view is insane right now.
Yeah, it's crazy.
Decision Day is coming up and...
like, we last talked about you moving in with me,
but I know it's a big move.
- I know. - I kind of live under a tarp and you're in a concrete,
- you know, building. - Yeah.
And even everything else aside, like,
you have to keep going into work.
Like, if I were you, I wouldn't move away
if I lived five minutes to my work, like...
- Yeah. - ...commuting is the worst thing ever.
[Marissa] Do you think we should just get a new place?
[Adam] New place together and then...
I don't know, I could try living out downtown
and then we could maybe join, like, a new gym together and do,
like, workouts and see, like, how that works for both of us.
Like, it's a little compromise.
We're still living close to your work,
but then you're coming to the gym with me.
- See if it'll, like, work for us, you know? - Yeah.
It's been made clear in this experience that,
you know, we have, like, big lifestyle differences
and we both want to find a compromise
that we both are happy with.
You don't think we're too late on the compromise stuff?
[Adam] I don't think we're too late.
I think it's something that, again,
just takes time to see if it'll, like, work for us.
[Marissa] Yeah.
He said, "You are the normal one in this situation.
I'm the ridiculous one."
And I was like, "Okay, you know you're the ridiculous one.
There must be a way for you to, like, come down to reality."
But yeah, I'm, like, a hopeless romantic, like,
part of me is, like, hoping for a miracle.
I think it's first making the compromise
and the second step is giving it time to see if we're both,
- like, happy and enjoying it. - [Marissa] I know.
[sighs] Yeah.
["Hey My Love" by Johnny Lloyd and Nathan Coen]
♪ I'll move the world for you ♪
♪ Anything That you want me to ♪
Hey, baby.
What are you doing?
[Felipe] Doing foot therapy.
Oh, is your foot okay?
Oh. It's holding on.
I do have a big health issue. Um...
I suffer something called...
it's kind of rare, but it's, like, being too sexy.
- Oh, my God. Lord. - And...
There's just no cure.
Well, thank you for being honest.
[Felipe laughing hysterically]
Let's go to bed.
After the couples retreat, I-- I feel like we're stronger.
Fighting has showed me that we can work through hard things
and we can have those hard conversations.
I think it brought us closer and it gives me hope
for the future of our marriage.
I feel like we both try for the other person...
to see the other side.
Yeah. We really do.
We seem to overcome the negative stuff...
and we had an incredible fucking experience
and one of the many highlights...
was our wedding day.
So...
[gasps] No, you didn't.
F and T.
[Tori] Oh, my gosh.
- [Felipe] Oh! - [Tori] Oh, my gosh.
I look so fucking happy.
[Tori] How pretty.
I love this one.
Aw.
[Felipe] It's so special seeing where our love sort of started.
I would feel closer to the man I want to be
if I had a serious companion like Tori.
I can sense myself...
falling for you and it doesn't even feel like it's too fast.
It's because...
of everything that we've gone through.
♪ You came along ♪
You honestly...
♪ The brightest light I've seen ♪
...complete me in so many ways.
♪ I knew that I needed you near ♪
I need someone that's more disciplined and organized and...
just has this...
overflowing just love and kindness.
♪ Darling, it's you ♪
♪ It's always you ♪
You make life feel softer.
Mm. Baby.
You have such a big heart.
I feel very lucky.
Me too.
Even after everything. Especially after everything.
♪ 'Cause if it's not you ♪
Me too.
♪ Then it's no one ♪
♪ Always you ♪
♪ Let's just enjoy the ride ♪
♪ 'Cause we're living in the moment ♪
♪ Don't let it pass us by ♪
[Cameron] I got something special planned for you.
- [Michelle] Really? - A very Seattle experience.
The guy from Portland
- is planning a Seattle date for me? - See? I know.
- I'm a planner, I told you that. - Wow.
Today we're on our final date before Decision Day
and this relationship with Michelle has been amazing.
The women that I've dated, I've never felt this secure
and I've never felt like a woman had my back.
This is so nice. [gasping]
- God, I literally had that... - Oh, my gosh.
...in my hand the whole time.
- Really? - Literally the whole time.
No way.
But coming into this, I was a little worried about
commitment and would it, like, take away my independence or freedom?
So if we do decide to stay married,
you know, that's gonna be challenging.
[chuckling] Oh, my gosh.
This is beautiful.
Damn. Who would have thought?
- Who would have thought? - That was the first day of this.
- We'll put it in our West Seattle home... - Yes.
...until we figure it out.
I think what I'm most nervous about, I guess,
- would be the distance. - Yeah.
Ooh. Oh, God.
- [Michelle laughs] - [Cameron] Thank you.
[Michelle] We knew going into this that we were gonna have
a tough few months just being apart
until we can figure out the job situation.
You know what? You like your job though.
I mean, but I like you more.
And, you know, I've been talking about
trying to find, um, another job anyway,
so it doesn't really change my plans.
- It's just more of an extra push. - [Cameron] Yeah.
[Cameron] So, you're not nervous at all about Decision Day?
Maybe just like 5% of me is nervous.
Like if your fears of like...
if you ever feel you're trapped,
or if you're gonna lose your freedom
or something like that or anything,
like, obviously just communicate that with me.
If you don't talk through your feelings,
then the other person really isn't able
to like, give you the validation that you need.
Yeah, I'm an over thinker too.
So I think, you know, I'm always...
no matter what it is, I'm gonna kind of be...
- overthinking things and... - Mm-hmm.
- ...thinking about what ifs. - Yeah.
But I also do know how it's felt a lot different.
Like, I-- I don't feel like I'm like freaked out
or, like, emotional about it.
- Uh-huh. - You know, and...
'Cause, like, you're my ride or die.
- [laughs] - I feel the same way about you.
I said that in my vows to you
and like I wanted to be someone's ride or die,
and I knew that like...
that's, like, what I wanted to be able to offer.
- [sniffles] - [Michelle chuckles, sniffles]
But, um...
it's also nice to feel like it's reciprocated too.
Definitely.
- 'Cause I haven't really... - Geez.
I haven't felt that way...
before, ever.
You deserve that. You're incredible.
[Michelle] Obviously, so are you.
- [Cameron groans] - [laughs]
I don't know if like everyone always is lucky enough
to like... find their person, you know?
Totally.
All that matters in life is that we love each other.
And we haven't said it to each other yet,
but I keep thinking too,
like, he's never been in a serious relationship.
So maybe I should say it first. [laughing]
Are you scared of heights?
- [Michelle] I am. - [Cameron] Oh, gosh.
- [Michelle] But not as scared as you are. - [Cameron] I know.
I'm kinda scared.
Oh, shoot.
How are you feeling about it all?
What do you mean about it all?
Decision Day.
I'm excited to decide.
Decide?
I am obsessed with Cameron.
He's my person.
I think Cameron will say yes,
but there's a chance that he won't.
When he's expressed fears around commitment,
it makes me nervous because I'm so confident in us.
I really have found the one for me.
We've had quite the-- quite the adventures
and I think we needed each other.
That's how I feel.
["Sunrise Love" by Bleeding Fingers]
♪ Let's hold this new feeling Don't let it go ♪
♪ It goes through the night ♪
♪ As you're losing Track of time ♪
♪ And you don't wanna stop it ♪
♪ Because that's sunrise love ♪
[Mecca] Since Decision Day is, you know, right around the corner,
looks like Michelle and Cameron are the only ones on the Yes Island.
Feeling better about Tori and Felipe though.
I think they're on the Yes Island.
I think Marissa and Adam are on the Yes Island.
I think we're...
swimming around Yes Island.
Still on that yacht, swimming around it.
Just-- just cruising around.
We?
- Okay, more so me. - [Mecca] Or-- or you?
More so me.
Do you have any, like, feelings or thoughts
of like, where my mind is right now?
Because you love-- You just swear you can read my mind.
Yeah, I do actually.
"I really like this dude, man.
- He's handsome." - Mm-hmm.
- "You know, definitely attracted to this guy." - [Belléjolie] Mm-hmm.
- "Definitely have some feelings for him." - Mm-hmm.
"But he get on my damn nerves
and has gotten on my damn nerves."
- Mm-hmm. - "Mind you...
we've had some great times."
Great times.
"There's just, you know, certain things
that have happened one too many times.
And he got some things that he gotta work out."
This is you responding as me.
- [Mecca] Correct. Correct, yes. - Yeah, I'm seeing that, okay.
Because I meant what I said.
You know, I really do, you know...
I do want it to work.
You know, I do want it to be, you know, a "yes" on your behalf.
What would you need to see or even hear from me to,
you know, help you be on the same page as me?
[Belléjolie] Of course, I'm thinking about respecting myself
and self-value and all of those things,
but I'm also thinking about the way you've handled me
in the positive ways too.
Even when you do do something that was like...
could have been wrong or whatever,
just how you've handled the situations plays a big part for me.
To take an accountability that all of that
is just like, I'm thinking about all of that stuff
within everything that-- that's happened.
So, it's a very interesting place to be in for me. [chuckles]
For me, honestly, this has been a-- this has been a process of, you know,
consistent growth in, you know, feelings and attraction.
I've definitely, you know...
fallen in love with who you are as a person,
- like in your heart of hearts... - [Belléjolie] Yeah.
...you know, the-- the core of you as a person.
Definitely, you know, falling in love with, like,
the way you care and the way you-- the way you nurture.
I...
I adore you. I care about you immensely. Um...
You know, there's times where you-- you'll ask me like,
"What are you looking at? Why are you looking at me?"
I'm like, "I'm just admiring."
It's literally what I'll be doing.
Just-- just admiring all there is, taking it-- taking it in.
I definitely, you know, could see, you know,
a future happening between me and you, 1000%.
And although you can see that, you might not...
be here-- Be there right now in this moment,
- which is totally understandable. - Hm.
He said, I'm in love with these things about you,
but those things about me are me.
Maybe he's just scared or not wanting to say,
"I am in love with you," but you literally
mentioned everything that creates Bellé.
Be real and be honest with yourself.
- [Belléjolie] Yeah. - You know?
That's all I'll say.
♪ The time has come To face the worst ♪
He's just been doing a lot of self-reflecting,
so I can tell that he's definitely working on these things,
but I still have to take into account like,
is this something that my heart can continue to deal with?
My feelings are still there for him,
and I have a soft spot for him, so none of that has went away.
I understand you and I understand where you're at.
I'm just gonna use the remaining timing that's left to get...
To get where I need to get with this.
♪ Can't catch my breath ♪
♪ If I said I loved you ♪
♪ Would you follow me ♪
♪ Follow me To the end of this ♪
We make a good pair.
- For sure, it's been easy. - [Cameron] Yeah.
[Michelle] Tomorrow is Decision Day,
and all of us couples have to move out of this place.
We have to spend tonight apart to have time to think.
I'm gonna miss you.
[Michelle] I know.
I still am confident in us,
but does Cameron have doubts?
You haven't even left yet and I feel lonely.
- Really? - [Cameron] Yeah.
There's always nerves of committing my life to someone
and losing a bit of my independence.
Is it gonna blow up in flames in a couple months,
and then it's gonna be embarrassing?
All those thoughts kinda creep into my head.
I'll miss ya.
♪ Crossed every ocean To follow you ♪
[Adam] Sad that it's coming to an end.
[Marissa] Yeah.
Final night before we go to Decision Day.
Oh, he's so sad.
[Adam] You don't want your mama to leave?
[Marissa chuckles]
It's heartbreaking seeing her pack her stuff up and move out.
I ideally would wanna just keep living with her
for months on end, and not have this whole thing kinda wrap up and stop.
Bye.
- [Adam] Bye. - Bye.
- [Adam] See you on Decision Day. - See you on decision day.
- [Adam] Goodbye. - Have a good sleep.
♪ Nothing ♪
♪ That I'm holding you close ♪
[Mecca] It was pretty difficult to say goodbye tonight.
[Belléjolie groans]
I know she's like, feeling sad.
[Belléjolie sighing]
[Belléjolie] I don't know what's gonna happen between me and Mecca.
So it's all of those emotions just hitting me,
but I'm trying my best not to cry,
in front of him, at least.
- Go. - [Mecca chuckles]
- See you on the other side, sir. - Mm-hmm.
♪ Now that we're here ♪
[Felipe] Little sad.
It's gonna be my first night sleeping alone.
It's gonna be hard to just not cuddle with her
and wake up next to her.
It's gonna be a little...
A little tough.
But I do feel like...
my, I guess, fear of commitment,
is just really working overtime right now.
It's like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, you're not gonna--
you're not-- you're not gonna stay married to this person.
And I'm trying to fight back.
I'll see you on D-day.
[Tori] See you on D-Day.
♪ I know I'm feeling That something's off ♪
- Bye. - Bye.
Say bye.
♪ It can't mean nothing ♪
♪ 'Cause you're showing me You ♪
I don't really know how I'm gonna fit this all in the suitcase.
How much new stuff do you have you didn't wear?
A lot. [chuckles]
- Oh, my God. - [Nikki chuckling]
Do you feel like you...
have already made a decision in your head?
[Nikki] I haven't made a decision.
Because there's so many layers, there's so much nuance.
And so, I just need time to kind of process
and think about it and pray on it and...
Oh, you're gonna pray?
- Oh, you've never said that before? Okay. - [Nikki] Yeah.
- Yeah, I pray on, like, biggest decisions. - [Shawn] Pray, girl.
[Nikki] Like, I don't pray every night or anything, but...
- [Nikki chuckles] - Yeah, you pray on it.
Whenever you're ready to start moving some stuff out,
- I'll help you out. - [Nikki] Okay, sounds good, I appreciate it.
Roll this to the front of the house.
- Let's do it. - [Nikki] Teamwork.
- Thank you so much. - You're welcome.
[Nikki] Would you help me with this?
- My dress! - Yes.
Oh, it's getting real now.
[Nikki] I have, like, this garment bag.
Wow.
How's it feel to, like, be packing up your wedding dress?
[Nikki] It's the end of a chapter.
- Mm-hmm. - And now it's a question of like,
what does that next chapter look like?
[Shawn] Now I'm gonna ask you to answer with a feeling word.
Proud of taking this really hard step
to participate in this wild experience...
- Wild experience? - ...to find love
and to morph and change and grow
and all that this experience is gonna give me to make a decision.
And that's why for me, it's like reflecting
on you as a person, who you've grown to be in this experience.
I feel like you've been...
You don't have to give a whole speech.
- [Shawn laughing] - I feel like you've been-- Can I give...
- You can give a speech, yes. - Okay, I won't, okay.
- You can. [laughing] - I won't give a speech.
- Well, we'll cancel the speech. - I'm just like, "How you feel?"
You're like, "Let me tell you all of my thoughts
- for the next..." - Okay, okay, I'm not saying anything else.
[somber guitar music]
[sighs]
Um, I feel like you're a little frustrated.
- Oh, I'm frustrated. - [Shawn] Okay, why are you frustrated?
Because you cut me off.
There was a point where my brain was starting to just get lost in the sauce.
And I was like, "Okay, girl, you ain't gotta tell a long story."
But I could say that playfully to all my friends
and it would not become a fight.
The communication I prefer from you
is for you to be empathetic and kind and compassionate.
For you to let me say my piece. Don't cut me off. Don't tell me to--
- Can you lower your tone? - [Nikki] Let me answer that question again.
Please. Please lower your tone. Don't start screaming at me, please.
Don't do that. That's not gonna help us.
- Noted. Noted. - You understand what I'm saying?
- How do we get out of this right now? - [Nikki] I'm not sure.
How about we use a tool?
Which tool would you like to pull out?
How you feel, how you were impacted,
and then we process this together and validate.
I'm frustrated by you cutting me off when I was trying to relay
how I was feeling to you in response to your question.
I would like to be able to show up as my full authentic self
with my husband and him receive that.
And not try to control it,
especially during a sensitive time like this.
How do you feel? Like even that didn't feel personal.
Didn't feel like I was speaking to my husband.
It felt like I was speaking to a therapist or someone at work.
[Shawn] My intent was actually to understand you better.
If I'm asking my wife, how does she feel,
and I don't know if I understand what she's saying,
then my heart is, as a husband, to say,
"No, honey, I really want to know how you actually feel."
So that was what I was searching for in that moment.
My intent was not to govern you,
but obviously it came across that way.
So, I'm sorry for that.
- I accept your apology. - Okay.
[Nikki] And I'm also happy to have time apart
and so I can have space to really think deeply
and be really clear about what I want forever.
- On Decision Day. - Okay, sounds good.
♪ Your footsteps walk In heartbeats like a dream ♪
[Nikki] I did not imagine
our last night together to be like this.
And I'm just disappointed that I got here tonight.
Here I am, the night before Decision Day,
super conflicted with a lot of battle scars
from the early weeks
and a lot of hugs and kisses from the last two weeks.
If I say yes, am I going to get the Shawn that feels safe?
Or am I going to get what I think may be the real Shawn?
♪ Ooh, bring the fire ♪
♪ Looking back ♪
♪ Life feels like It's moving so fast ♪
♪ Steady now ♪
♪ Just take it all Take it all in ♪
Getting ready for Decision Day, it's...
just waves of emotion
around all the goodness Felipe and I had
throughout this journey and also all the rockiness.
♪ Heart beating out Your chest ♪
♪ Never knowing What lies ahead ♪
I'm conflicted.
I know for a fact that I want to be with Tori right now.
With her, I can definitely see someone
that I want to build a life with,
that I want to grow old with.
♪ Every path leads To a new adventure ♪
[Felipe] That's why I got married at first sight,
because I-- I don't want to be lonely.
But I-- I'm not sure I'm quite the man that she deserves.
♪ I was skydiving Into the blue ♪
♪ No safety net, no parachute ♪
[Tori] There's so many things I like about Felipe.
He's the life of the party and he's so funny.
I love hearing his laugh across the room.
[laughing frantically]
And I feel like our hearts are very similar.
He has a big heart.
Oh, my gosh.
Oh, they're stunning.
- I really like-- I really like roses and red flowers. - Oh.
And I feel like you just look good with red flowers.
- I don't know if you like them. - I love them.
But there are also these weird, confusing times
where he is unsure about commitment,
yet we're married.
I find myself finding reasons
of why I shouldn't be, you know, married to you.
If I'm being real with you guys, I like sleeping with a bunch of women.
It's crazy to me, like,
how naive I was in the beginning, truly.
Tori is just like the perfect person.
♪ I swear, I saw forever ♪
[Felipe] My mom has never liked any of the people
that I've been with, like, ever, and my mom loves Tori.
Like, if you were to create, like, Felipe's wife in the lab,
like, you would create Tori.
Like, you just would. Like, it's crazy.
["Borderline" by Zeplyn]
♪ Hold my life Let it burn to bright to hold ♪
[Tori] The mountain to unpack right now is really huge.
I went into this to marry a man who knows what he wants,
but I'm not sure Felipe's really ready for marriage.
And I'm trying to...
connect the dots, but it's hard.
♪ Steady is the hand That holds the head ♪
[Felipe] I tend to only learn things the hard way.
I've said some stupid shit, but I want to be with Tori,
and I need to make sure that she understands that.
I don't want to lose her.
I think I might be able to convince Tori
that, hey, this is for real.
Hey, I'm here.
Oh.
- Hi. - Hi.
I, uh, got you some flowers.
Thank you.
They're, uh, dahlias.
You look...
beautiful.
Thank you.
Okay, Tori.
Everything... [sighs]
...has led up to this.
I don't know how many 100% decisions
you've made in your life, I've probably made zero.
But I think to some extent, like...
you know, like everything requires a leap of faith, you know?
Out of...
all the things that I could think to want
in a woman and my wife and my partner,
Tori, you have that in-- in spades.
The way that you embrace my family is...
I don't have words for that.
The way that you take care of people
is also something that I love about you.
The fact that I would wake up, Tori,
at 11:00 and...
you fucking bring me breakfast, which is just stupid, okay?
Because I've been, I just woke up
and you've been fucking doing shit for hours.
That is just...
yeah.
I've been-- I don't know, I've just been thinking and...
working on it and I never did it waver to me
how I felt about you.
You're just...
You're incredible, Tori.
[exhales sharply] Yeah.
My legs are shaking like they were on wedding day.
I don't even know what to say.
I'm so confused.
After moving out,
Filipe and I had a conversation that...
I didn't anticipate.
He drops this bomb on me
and that wasn't filmed, but I was not having it.
It's so many emotions I'm feeling...
and I would say primarily hurt.
I'm so hurt.
It seems cruel and heartless.
I really liked you.
I really like you.
But I think it's important to be honest.
[scoffs]
Do you think that what you told me...
do you think that's normal?
[Felipe exhales sharply]
I-- I-- Yeah.
[tense music playing]
I regret that heavily.
[♪]
♪ Dreams of you and I ♪
[Marissa] Marriage is forever.
Forever is a long time. It's a huge decision.
♪ Give me something ♪
[Shawn] I want someone who's gonna push me to grow,
push me to be better, and Nikki could be that person.
[Nikki] I feel like I've seen a lot of positive growth
from Shawn and from us as a couple.
[Cameron] I'm really thinking about this deeply
and, you know, ready to make my decision.
[Belléjolie] I don't know what's gonna happen between me and Mecca.
What if he surprises me and says no?
My mind right now is so fucking blown. I'm-- I'm-- I don't have words.
[exhales sharply]
I am choosing to...
[♪]
[Cameron] I wanna apologize.
Is it me?
I just, I love you so much.
["Treat ME Right" by LANI]
♪ Enemies to lovers Keep it undercover ♪
♪ Know you got a soft side I'mma take a bite ♪
♪ Enemies to lovers Lost in each other ♪
♪ I'll bring you To light side ♪
♪ You can treat me right ♪
[♪]