1 00:00:02,292 --> 00:00:04,250 - The experts matched five couples 2 00:00:04,250 --> 00:00:06,292 to be married at first sight. 3 00:00:06,375 --> 00:00:07,458 - Oh. 4 00:00:07,542 --> 00:00:09,292 - One marriage ended before it began. 5 00:00:09,375 --> 00:00:10,833 But for the first time, 6 00:00:10,917 --> 00:00:13,958 the experts gave Michael a second chance 7 00:00:14,042 --> 00:00:15,667 at love with Chloe. 8 00:00:15,750 --> 00:00:17,083 - This is perfect. 9 00:00:17,208 --> 00:00:18,792 And there's enough room for a sanctuary out here. 10 00:00:18,875 --> 00:00:20,375 [chuckles] 11 00:00:20,458 --> 00:00:22,167 - Now that I've really started to evaluate, 12 00:00:22,250 --> 00:00:24,083 I'm really questioning this marriage. 13 00:00:24,208 --> 00:00:28,625 - I do not want us to give up too quickly. 14 00:00:28,708 --> 00:00:31,333 I want to ask of you 15 00:00:31,417 --> 00:00:33,625 not to make your decision until Decision Day. 16 00:00:33,708 --> 00:00:36,250 - Okay. 17 00:00:36,333 --> 00:00:38,583 - ♪ You know you want it 18 00:00:38,667 --> 00:00:41,917 - I think we all lost sight of how beautiful we all are, 19 00:00:42,042 --> 00:00:44,833 and I wanted to celebrate that. 20 00:00:44,917 --> 00:00:48,833 - While our other four couples have already chosen divorce, 21 00:00:48,958 --> 00:00:50,417 Chloe and Michael 22 00:00:50,500 --> 00:00:53,208 will make their own life-altering choice. 23 00:00:53,292 --> 00:00:55,042 - If we say yes tomorrow, 24 00:00:55,125 --> 00:00:57,125 it gives us a chance to keep going 25 00:00:57,125 --> 00:00:58,875 and making it something even more awesome. 26 00:00:58,958 --> 00:01:01,250 - I feel confident and feel good 27 00:01:01,375 --> 00:01:03,625 to, like, say that we can continue this marriage. 28 00:01:03,708 --> 00:01:06,167 - My opinion, I say yes. 29 00:01:06,292 --> 00:01:08,667 - [crying] It's hard for me to imagine my life without him. 30 00:01:08,750 --> 00:01:09,917 And yet at the same time, 31 00:01:10,000 --> 00:01:11,667 I don't know that we're meant to be. 32 00:01:11,750 --> 00:01:14,000 [dramatic music] 33 00:01:14,083 --> 00:01:16,375 I've never been so torn in my entire life. 34 00:01:16,458 --> 00:01:18,167 - You're trying to make me out to be the villain, 35 00:01:18,292 --> 00:01:21,000 when all I do is [bleep] try. 36 00:01:21,125 --> 00:01:23,333 And every time I pull back, you pull me back in. 37 00:01:23,417 --> 00:01:25,458 And I'm like, all right, well, let me try some more, 38 00:01:25,542 --> 00:01:27,333 and then you literally give me nothing. 39 00:01:27,417 --> 00:01:28,833 ♪ 40 00:01:28,958 --> 00:01:30,833 - Do you feel there's possibilities to fight for it, 41 00:01:30,875 --> 00:01:32,208 to fight for it here? 42 00:01:32,333 --> 00:01:34,833 - I'm the all-in, or I'm the all-out. 43 00:01:34,875 --> 00:01:40,042 ♪ 44 00:01:40,125 --> 00:01:42,125 - ♪ It's all or nothing 45 00:01:42,208 --> 00:01:44,167 - This is "Married at First Sight." 46 00:01:44,250 --> 00:01:46,625 - ♪ There's no other way 47 00:01:46,708 --> 00:01:48,000 ♪ 48 00:01:48,042 --> 00:01:50,000 ♪ It's all or nothing 49 00:01:50,125 --> 00:01:52,708 [upbeat pop music] 50 00:01:52,708 --> 00:01:58,750 ♪ 51 00:02:01,167 --> 00:02:02,542 - Hello. [chair scrapes] 52 00:02:02,542 --> 00:02:04,458 - [laughing] 53 00:02:04,542 --> 00:02:06,375 ♪ 54 00:02:06,458 --> 00:02:09,042 - Oh, my God. It's good to see you. 55 00:02:09,125 --> 00:02:10,417 - Oh, you too. - My God. 56 00:02:10,500 --> 00:02:12,333 - How you doing? - I am great. 57 00:02:12,375 --> 00:02:14,000 I want to know about you. 58 00:02:14,125 --> 00:02:16,208 How are you doing? That's the question. 59 00:02:16,208 --> 00:02:17,667 - Oh, it's always a question, isn't it? 60 00:02:17,708 --> 00:02:19,000 - It is. 61 00:02:19,083 --> 00:02:20,500 - Decision Day is coming up quick. 62 00:02:20,625 --> 00:02:23,167 - Oh, my God. Are you ready for that? 63 00:02:23,250 --> 00:02:25,500 - [sighs] No. 64 00:02:25,625 --> 00:02:26,708 ♪ 65 00:02:26,792 --> 00:02:28,292 No, I'm not. 66 00:02:28,417 --> 00:02:31,000 - Afraid I was going to hear you say that. 67 00:02:31,042 --> 00:02:33,833 - We're just in this really... 68 00:02:33,958 --> 00:02:36,667 [sighs, clicks tongue] 69 00:02:36,708 --> 00:02:39,333 Mysterious place. 70 00:02:39,417 --> 00:02:40,417 - Hmm. 71 00:02:40,542 --> 00:02:42,792 Last night I wake up to... 72 00:02:42,875 --> 00:02:44,667 Michael... 73 00:02:44,750 --> 00:02:47,500 saying that he feels that he was not built for marriage. 74 00:02:47,542 --> 00:02:49,625 ♪ 75 00:02:49,708 --> 00:02:51,042 - Hmm. 76 00:02:51,125 --> 00:02:52,917 It probably lowered your confidence 77 00:02:53,000 --> 00:02:54,417 in the relationship. - [sighs] 78 00:02:54,500 --> 00:02:56,458 It not only lowered my confidence, 79 00:02:56,542 --> 00:02:58,750 but I'm wondering how he feels about me. 80 00:02:58,833 --> 00:03:01,125 And it started bringing feelings of uncertainty. 81 00:03:01,208 --> 00:03:02,458 ♪ 82 00:03:02,542 --> 00:03:04,458 - Do you... 83 00:03:04,542 --> 00:03:07,875 if you were to guess, do you think he would say no? 84 00:03:07,875 --> 00:03:10,667 - Um... 85 00:03:10,708 --> 00:03:12,958 yeah. 86 00:03:13,042 --> 00:03:14,375 - Really? - Mm-hmm. 87 00:03:14,458 --> 00:03:17,333 ♪ 88 00:03:17,458 --> 00:03:19,708 - I really feel like you wouldn't have said that 89 00:03:19,708 --> 00:03:21,625 two weeks ago. - Mm-mm. 90 00:03:21,708 --> 00:03:23,500 No. 91 00:03:23,583 --> 00:03:27,083 - How did it all change so much? 92 00:03:27,167 --> 00:03:28,833 - I think he's scared. 93 00:03:28,958 --> 00:03:30,958 - Are you? 94 00:03:31,042 --> 00:03:33,833 [indistinct chatter] 95 00:03:33,958 --> 00:03:35,042 ♪ 96 00:03:35,125 --> 00:03:36,667 - Yeah. 97 00:03:36,750 --> 00:03:38,458 - Chloe... [chuckles] 98 00:03:38,542 --> 00:03:40,500 I didn't see that coming. [chuckles] 99 00:03:40,583 --> 00:03:41,833 But-- 100 00:03:41,917 --> 00:03:43,500 - I didn't see it coming either. 101 00:03:43,583 --> 00:03:45,667 - Not long ago, you were in the happiest place. 102 00:03:45,750 --> 00:03:49,792 And I know you are giving everything and more 103 00:03:49,875 --> 00:03:51,167 for this to work. 104 00:03:51,208 --> 00:03:54,250 And I believe he is, too. 105 00:03:54,375 --> 00:03:58,000 So, now, don't you think that you guys could... 106 00:03:58,042 --> 00:03:59,667 try? 107 00:03:59,792 --> 00:04:02,333 Don't you think it's worth at least trying 108 00:04:02,417 --> 00:04:04,167 to see if you guys can get back 109 00:04:04,250 --> 00:04:06,583 to that place where you were not long ago? 110 00:04:06,667 --> 00:04:08,667 - I don't know. 111 00:04:08,750 --> 00:04:13,542 ♪ 112 00:04:13,667 --> 00:04:16,125 [crying] It's hard for me to imagine my life without him. 113 00:04:16,208 --> 00:04:17,458 ♪ 114 00:04:17,542 --> 00:04:19,000 And yet at the same time, 115 00:04:19,042 --> 00:04:21,125 I don't know that we're meant to be. 116 00:04:21,208 --> 00:04:23,000 ♪ 117 00:04:23,083 --> 00:04:24,833 Ah. 118 00:04:24,875 --> 00:04:27,542 - ♪ We could cry, we could cry for yesterday ♪ 119 00:04:27,625 --> 00:04:29,792 - I've never been so torn in my entire life. 120 00:04:29,875 --> 00:04:31,625 ♪ 121 00:04:31,708 --> 00:04:35,667 ♪ So we will cry, we will cry for yesterday ♪ 122 00:04:35,750 --> 00:04:36,833 ♪ 123 00:04:38,333 --> 00:04:41,500 [upbeat music] 124 00:04:41,625 --> 00:04:43,333 ♪ 125 00:04:43,375 --> 00:04:46,333 - Getting ready to take off for the... 126 00:04:46,417 --> 00:04:49,708 last group meetup. 127 00:04:49,792 --> 00:04:51,667 ♪ 128 00:04:51,750 --> 00:04:53,125 I'm not gonna lie, 129 00:04:53,208 --> 00:04:55,292 I'm a little nervous about going. 130 00:04:55,375 --> 00:04:56,958 - It feels bittersweet. 131 00:04:57,042 --> 00:05:00,250 It feels like this could have ended so differently 132 00:05:00,250 --> 00:05:01,833 compared to how it's ending. 133 00:05:01,875 --> 00:05:05,750 - Well, Becca and I have texted a few times. 134 00:05:05,875 --> 00:05:09,042 And that went well, so I'm hoping that, like... 135 00:05:09,042 --> 00:05:10,750 ♪ 136 00:05:10,833 --> 00:05:13,833 when we meet up today, we can just, like, have a good time 137 00:05:13,875 --> 00:05:18,042 and kind of laugh about the things 138 00:05:18,167 --> 00:05:22,875 that have happened to us and not, like, be hurt by them. 139 00:05:23,000 --> 00:05:26,583 - I just need to make sure that I remind myself 140 00:05:26,583 --> 00:05:29,583 that I am not what's best for him 141 00:05:29,667 --> 00:05:34,250 and this is the best way that I can love him-- 142 00:05:34,333 --> 00:05:37,833 is to let him go and go find what he needs. 143 00:05:37,917 --> 00:05:41,750 - If I have any intention or goal for tonight personally, 144 00:05:41,875 --> 00:05:45,208 it's to personally go out on a good note 145 00:05:45,208 --> 00:05:48,208 and not dwell on the past 146 00:05:48,292 --> 00:05:51,042 and just enjoy each other's company 147 00:05:51,167 --> 00:05:52,833 and have a good night. 148 00:05:52,917 --> 00:05:55,250 We're not even sure, like, who's going to show up. 149 00:05:55,333 --> 00:05:57,833 Like, will Brennan show up? We will see. 150 00:05:57,875 --> 00:06:02,042 ♪ 151 00:06:02,125 --> 00:06:03,833 - Hi. - It's such a cute bar. 152 00:06:03,875 --> 00:06:06,167 ♪ 153 00:06:06,250 --> 00:06:07,417 - We got some friends here. 154 00:06:07,500 --> 00:06:08,792 - Hi. - Hello. 155 00:06:08,875 --> 00:06:10,667 - We got some friends. - "Kiss the floor." 156 00:06:10,750 --> 00:06:12,125 I love it. 157 00:06:12,208 --> 00:06:13,333 - Pretty in pink. - You look so-- 158 00:06:13,375 --> 00:06:14,333 - What's up, baby? - So good. 159 00:06:14,417 --> 00:06:15,583 - Oh, I love this power top. 160 00:06:15,667 --> 00:06:17,042 - Oh, thank you. Thank you. 161 00:06:17,167 --> 00:06:18,500 It's a power top. 162 00:06:18,583 --> 00:06:20,333 - Yeah, it's definitely giving power top. 163 00:06:20,417 --> 00:06:22,792 - Inner Lauren, baby. - [laughs] 164 00:06:22,875 --> 00:06:25,333 - Hi. How you doing? - You guys look nice. 165 00:06:25,375 --> 00:06:28,042 - Thanks. We try. We try. - Wow. 166 00:06:28,125 --> 00:06:29,875 - Lauren, how are you? 167 00:06:29,958 --> 00:06:32,125 [dramatic music] 168 00:06:32,125 --> 00:06:34,167 - Last to arrive. - [laughs] 169 00:06:34,208 --> 00:06:35,917 - Hey. - Hello. 170 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:38,792 - Mm. Hey. You look great. - It's soft. 171 00:06:38,792 --> 00:06:40,000 Thank you. - Yeah, it is soft. 172 00:06:40,083 --> 00:06:42,000 - Hello. - Hey. 173 00:06:42,083 --> 00:06:43,417 - How are you? - Good. 174 00:06:43,542 --> 00:06:44,917 How are you guys? - How are you? 175 00:06:45,000 --> 00:06:46,833 - What's up, guys? 176 00:06:46,917 --> 00:06:49,833 It's nice to see her, but it's hard. 177 00:06:49,875 --> 00:06:53,208 You know, there's, like-- you know, our-- 178 00:06:53,292 --> 00:06:54,833 I guess I can't speak for her. 179 00:06:54,917 --> 00:06:59,292 But, like, you know, your feelings don't just go away. 180 00:06:59,375 --> 00:07:00,833 I mean, like, I'm still not over it. 181 00:07:00,958 --> 00:07:02,750 Like, you know, every day is getting better, 182 00:07:02,833 --> 00:07:04,500 but, like, it's still hard. 183 00:07:04,583 --> 00:07:07,333 - What's everybody drinking? - Martinis. 184 00:07:07,375 --> 00:07:09,250 I'm just gonna go out with a bang, so... 185 00:07:09,333 --> 00:07:11,250 - Let's go out with a bang. 186 00:07:11,333 --> 00:07:14,750 - Claire isn't coming because she has to work tonight. 187 00:07:14,833 --> 00:07:16,333 - Oh, Claire's missing out? 188 00:07:16,458 --> 00:07:18,000 - Who wants to have therapy this late at night? 189 00:07:18,083 --> 00:07:20,667 That's sad. I feel like everyone should be here. 190 00:07:20,750 --> 00:07:22,333 It's the last hurrah. - I can't believe it. 191 00:07:22,417 --> 00:07:24,292 - Yeah, everyone should be here. 192 00:07:24,375 --> 00:07:25,750 - But do you guys have any insight 193 00:07:25,875 --> 00:07:27,333 into why the others aren't here? 194 00:07:27,417 --> 00:07:28,542 - Brennan only told me he wasn't coming here. 195 00:07:28,667 --> 00:07:30,125 He had softball to do today. 196 00:07:30,208 --> 00:07:32,000 That's all I know about Brennan. 197 00:07:32,125 --> 00:07:34,333 - Dedication to the team, man. - [chuckles] 198 00:07:34,458 --> 00:07:37,167 - Can't let that intramural sports team down. 199 00:07:37,208 --> 00:07:38,958 Okay, that's fair, I guess. 200 00:07:39,042 --> 00:07:40,792 I feel like we have so much to actually catch up on... 201 00:07:40,875 --> 00:07:42,167 - Yeah. 202 00:07:42,250 --> 00:07:43,958 - Because we haven't been together. 203 00:07:44,042 --> 00:07:46,125 - And you guys are still together, right? 204 00:07:46,208 --> 00:07:48,042 ♪ 205 00:07:48,125 --> 00:07:50,125 - Yeah. - [chuckles] Okay. 206 00:07:50,208 --> 00:07:51,500 - That's a valid question. 207 00:07:51,583 --> 00:07:54,167 - Not all of us are separated, but, yeah, no. 208 00:07:54,292 --> 00:07:56,417 - Not yet. - We still got-- 209 00:07:56,542 --> 00:07:58,333 we still got a handful of days. 210 00:07:58,417 --> 00:08:00,667 - I just didn't want to, like, miss something that was huge. 211 00:08:00,750 --> 00:08:01,958 Yeah. 212 00:08:02,042 --> 00:08:03,917 - I can't believe your Decision Day 213 00:08:04,000 --> 00:08:05,500 is, like, so close. 214 00:08:05,542 --> 00:08:07,208 Time flies when you're having fun. 215 00:08:07,333 --> 00:08:10,167 [laughter] 216 00:08:10,250 --> 00:08:12,042 - Yeah, I mean, there obviously have been challenging moments 217 00:08:12,167 --> 00:08:14,125 that we've encountered. 218 00:08:14,208 --> 00:08:16,125 But regardless of how challenging those moments 219 00:08:16,208 --> 00:08:18,500 have gotten, I am very thankful that I got to face 220 00:08:18,542 --> 00:08:20,500 those challenges with Chloe 221 00:08:20,542 --> 00:08:23,000 because I think that it's very difficult 222 00:08:23,083 --> 00:08:25,500 for me to imagine having had navigate 223 00:08:25,542 --> 00:08:27,208 any of this without her. 224 00:08:27,292 --> 00:08:29,500 ♪ 225 00:08:29,625 --> 00:08:31,833 - For every challenge that we've had, 226 00:08:31,917 --> 00:08:34,333 it has been absolutely beautiful. 227 00:08:34,458 --> 00:08:36,667 And I'm grateful for that. 228 00:08:36,708 --> 00:08:39,667 And I feel like I've found a partner 229 00:08:39,708 --> 00:08:41,750 who's always thinking, and he's always feeling, 230 00:08:41,833 --> 00:08:44,333 and he's always willing to talk about it. 231 00:08:44,417 --> 00:08:45,958 I think that's the differentiating factor 232 00:08:46,042 --> 00:08:49,667 between being actively engaged in a relationship 233 00:08:49,667 --> 00:08:51,917 and actively disengaged. 234 00:08:52,042 --> 00:08:53,833 ♪ 235 00:08:53,917 --> 00:08:57,208 Anyway, I am curious about you guys. 236 00:08:59,042 --> 00:09:00,625 - Us? - Yeah. 237 00:09:00,708 --> 00:09:02,208 - Well, I guess, you know, 238 00:09:02,292 --> 00:09:04,250 we've shared some text messages, 239 00:09:04,333 --> 00:09:06,000 but I think things have been good... 240 00:09:06,042 --> 00:09:07,333 - Yeah. 241 00:09:07,417 --> 00:09:09,375 - Because I feel like the texts we've-- 242 00:09:09,458 --> 00:09:13,333 few texts we've shared have been good ones. 243 00:09:13,417 --> 00:09:15,125 - Yeah. 244 00:09:15,208 --> 00:09:19,417 Yeah, like, when I fall for someone, I fall hard. 245 00:09:19,500 --> 00:09:22,833 And so, typically, for me, I have to really remove myself 246 00:09:22,917 --> 00:09:25,875 from that situation in order to really move forward. 247 00:09:26,000 --> 00:09:28,292 Like, seeing him right now is really hard for me. 248 00:09:28,417 --> 00:09:30,042 But, like, I know that we... - Same. 249 00:09:30,167 --> 00:09:31,875 - [voice breaking] I love him as a person. 250 00:09:31,958 --> 00:09:34,167 I just know that, like, we're not supposed to be together. 251 00:09:34,208 --> 00:09:37,542 And that's really hard, but I'm moving forward every day. 252 00:09:37,625 --> 00:09:40,000 And I wish him the best, like, and he knows that. 253 00:09:40,083 --> 00:09:41,458 - Yeah. 254 00:09:41,542 --> 00:09:43,333 - And I think he wishes the same for me. 255 00:09:43,417 --> 00:09:45,458 It's hard seeing Austin tonight. 256 00:09:45,542 --> 00:09:47,292 It makes my heart hurt. 257 00:09:47,292 --> 00:09:51,167 It's weird not to, like, kiss him or just be with him. 258 00:09:51,250 --> 00:09:52,833 I miss him. 259 00:09:52,958 --> 00:09:54,708 ♪ 260 00:09:54,833 --> 00:09:57,125 Makes me sad. [chuckles] 261 00:09:57,208 --> 00:10:00,833 - You did your best, and you're doing better 262 00:10:00,917 --> 00:10:02,583 than you'll ever give yourself credit for, 263 00:10:02,667 --> 00:10:04,083 and you're being a better friend 264 00:10:04,167 --> 00:10:06,333 than you give yourself credit for. 265 00:10:06,458 --> 00:10:08,667 - Thanks. - She's great. 266 00:10:08,792 --> 00:10:10,583 - You're all great. 267 00:10:10,667 --> 00:10:12,625 And, Lauren, I want to give a moment to really 268 00:10:12,708 --> 00:10:14,875 have a moment for you to feel seen. 269 00:10:14,958 --> 00:10:17,667 Lauren is always sending, like, daily affirmations. 270 00:10:17,750 --> 00:10:19,167 She's sending books. - Yeah, and... 271 00:10:19,292 --> 00:10:21,708 Not even, like, being with us in the process 272 00:10:21,792 --> 00:10:23,292 because hers got cut short. 273 00:10:23,375 --> 00:10:24,875 - Yeah, but she's still with us. 274 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:27,333 - She goes above and beyond, gives me a book 275 00:10:27,375 --> 00:10:30,375 about needing help when I don't even know I need help. 276 00:10:30,458 --> 00:10:32,083 - Yeah. - Yeah, I love y'all. 277 00:10:32,208 --> 00:10:34,708 - And just--honestly, just to piggyback the vibe, 278 00:10:34,792 --> 00:10:36,167 you know, Lauren and I, 279 00:10:36,208 --> 00:10:38,250 we've definitely gone through our [bleep]. 280 00:10:38,375 --> 00:10:40,667 I mean, it has been seen in various moments. 281 00:10:40,750 --> 00:10:42,833 But, you know, one thing that is clear 282 00:10:42,917 --> 00:10:45,583 is that I do hold you in very high regard. 283 00:10:45,667 --> 00:10:47,125 You're a very smart, beautiful woman. 284 00:10:47,208 --> 00:10:48,500 - She's incredible. 285 00:10:48,583 --> 00:10:50,792 - And everybody is very lucky to have you. 286 00:10:50,875 --> 00:10:52,833 - I'm really happy to have had this experience 287 00:10:52,917 --> 00:10:54,417 with all of you all. 288 00:10:54,542 --> 00:10:57,458 I think it was necessary for my journey, 289 00:10:57,542 --> 00:10:59,000 and I don't regret any of it. 290 00:10:59,042 --> 00:11:00,583 ♪ 291 00:11:00,667 --> 00:11:02,792 As far as, like, my dynamic 292 00:11:02,875 --> 00:11:06,167 in my now-dissolved marriage, 293 00:11:06,250 --> 00:11:09,750 I've kind of checked out because I'm just tired 294 00:11:09,875 --> 00:11:14,083 of waiting for follow-through with things. 295 00:11:14,167 --> 00:11:16,375 So I've kind of just set boundaries 296 00:11:16,500 --> 00:11:17,667 and checked out myself. 297 00:11:17,792 --> 00:11:19,375 - Yeah, still trying to wrap my head 298 00:11:19,500 --> 00:11:21,375 around that message, but... 299 00:11:21,458 --> 00:11:24,083 - Hey, take as long as you want--nine days, nine years. 300 00:11:24,167 --> 00:11:26,792 - Do you want him to? - I don't care. 301 00:11:26,875 --> 00:11:29,375 - It kind of seems like that's not true. 302 00:11:29,542 --> 00:11:32,167 - No, it's true. I don't care. 303 00:11:32,208 --> 00:11:34,000 ♪ 304 00:11:34,125 --> 00:11:36,667 I finally thought about it and sent him a message 305 00:11:36,708 --> 00:11:38,208 just setting boundaries. 306 00:11:38,292 --> 00:11:41,500 And the text actually didn't require a response. 307 00:11:41,625 --> 00:11:43,333 That's the ironic part. 308 00:11:43,375 --> 00:11:46,292 But I felt like Orion still decided to respond. 309 00:11:46,375 --> 00:11:48,417 And I looked and said, oh, he really hasn't text back 310 00:11:48,542 --> 00:11:49,958 in over a week. 311 00:11:50,042 --> 00:11:52,583 - You're just clocking the days? 312 00:11:52,667 --> 00:11:54,500 - I mean, I feel like you offer things 313 00:11:54,583 --> 00:11:56,208 that you don't follow through on. 314 00:11:56,292 --> 00:11:58,000 - I wanted to give you a thorough response, 315 00:11:58,042 --> 00:12:00,000 but I'm still trying to put that message together 316 00:12:00,083 --> 00:12:02,833 because it seems like a lot of just psychoanalyzing 317 00:12:02,875 --> 00:12:04,667 and, honestly, a little bit of projection. 318 00:12:04,708 --> 00:12:06,167 - I was not psychoanalyzing. 319 00:12:06,208 --> 00:12:08,875 I was being very compassionate in that text message. 320 00:12:08,958 --> 00:12:11,167 I was being very understanding in that text message. 321 00:12:11,250 --> 00:12:14,792 I offered room for us to still chat about this 322 00:12:14,875 --> 00:12:16,417 if necessary. 323 00:12:16,500 --> 00:12:18,167 Like, I offered all of that in that text message. 324 00:12:18,208 --> 00:12:19,958 - Yeah, you have all your bases covered. 325 00:12:20,042 --> 00:12:22,333 - So what's the problem? 326 00:12:22,375 --> 00:12:25,583 - The problem is that there's an expectation to it. 327 00:12:25,583 --> 00:12:27,542 - No, there is no expectation. 328 00:12:27,625 --> 00:12:29,167 I didn't even expect you to respond 329 00:12:29,250 --> 00:12:31,792 until you literally said, I want to respond. 330 00:12:31,875 --> 00:12:34,958 I didn't even ask for that. You gave it, Orion. 331 00:12:35,042 --> 00:12:36,333 ♪ 332 00:12:36,458 --> 00:12:38,792 I'm trying to give you what you asked me for. 333 00:12:38,875 --> 00:12:40,625 [chuckles] I didn't ask. - Which is what? 334 00:12:40,708 --> 00:12:42,167 - I didn't come to you at the couples' retreat 335 00:12:42,292 --> 00:12:43,958 asking for a friendship. 336 00:12:44,042 --> 00:12:45,375 - You can't even have a tough conversation about anything. 337 00:12:45,500 --> 00:12:46,875 And so... 338 00:12:46,958 --> 00:12:48,958 - Okay, I feel very attacked for some reason. 339 00:12:49,042 --> 00:12:50,750 I don't understand why I'm feeling attacked 340 00:12:50,875 --> 00:12:53,083 for trying to give you what you wanted. 341 00:12:53,208 --> 00:12:55,500 - I don't feel like I'm getting anything of what I wanted. 342 00:12:55,625 --> 00:12:57,625 - I feel like you guys haven't had the chance to talk 343 00:12:57,708 --> 00:13:00,875 about, like, your communication styles and, like, what you need 344 00:13:00,958 --> 00:13:02,833 or, like, how you like to express yourselves. 345 00:13:02,917 --> 00:13:04,667 - So she's been checked out for a while. 346 00:13:04,750 --> 00:13:06,167 - I know you're not talking 347 00:13:06,250 --> 00:13:08,167 I've been checked out for a while. 348 00:13:08,208 --> 00:13:10,333 - You have been. You started dating-- 349 00:13:10,417 --> 00:13:12,167 - You checked out, Orion. - I have a question. 350 00:13:12,250 --> 00:13:14,833 Like, it seems like neither of you 351 00:13:14,958 --> 00:13:16,958 really want to, like, be in each other's lives. 352 00:13:17,042 --> 00:13:18,833 - And that's what my message said. 353 00:13:18,917 --> 00:13:21,000 It wasn't an attack. It wasn't a psychoanalyst. 354 00:13:21,125 --> 00:13:22,917 It was, like, I literally said, 355 00:13:23,042 --> 00:13:24,667 the only reason we would have to talk 356 00:13:24,708 --> 00:13:27,042 is if we actually want to be a part of each other's lives, 357 00:13:27,042 --> 00:13:29,500 and it doesn't seem like we actually do. 358 00:13:29,583 --> 00:13:31,292 ♪ 359 00:13:31,375 --> 00:13:33,500 [indistinct chatter] 360 00:13:33,583 --> 00:13:34,500 - Okay. 361 00:13:36,208 --> 00:13:38,417 - Okay. 362 00:13:38,542 --> 00:13:41,875 - Well, on the note of not wanting to be friends 363 00:13:42,000 --> 00:13:44,875 with your ex-husband or having any line of communication, 364 00:13:44,958 --> 00:13:46,292 that is where I am at. 365 00:13:46,375 --> 00:13:48,625 It's like, I feel like Brennan and I are living 366 00:13:48,708 --> 00:13:50,417 in two different realities 367 00:13:50,417 --> 00:13:52,250 and seeing the same things that happen 368 00:13:52,333 --> 00:13:54,417 but from totally different perspectives, 369 00:13:54,417 --> 00:13:57,500 and so just don't see where each other's coming from. 370 00:13:57,583 --> 00:13:58,625 ♪ 371 00:13:58,708 --> 00:14:01,083 And... 372 00:14:01,167 --> 00:14:03,417 yeah, it sucks, and it kind of makes me question everything. 373 00:14:03,500 --> 00:14:05,458 I'm like, did I ever really have feelings for him? 374 00:14:05,542 --> 00:14:07,292 Like, I don't really know. 375 00:14:07,375 --> 00:14:10,042 It seemed like it was just too calculated. 376 00:14:10,125 --> 00:14:12,125 - Calculated? What was calculated? 377 00:14:12,208 --> 00:14:15,667 - It's like, you cannot get married, spill your heart out, 378 00:14:15,750 --> 00:14:17,875 know you're gonna have to be your raw and authentic self, 379 00:14:17,875 --> 00:14:20,125 and then decide once you're there 380 00:14:20,250 --> 00:14:22,000 to, like, put up guardrails 381 00:14:22,042 --> 00:14:25,167 and then decide that there is... 382 00:14:25,250 --> 00:14:27,250 like, a plot to be followed. 383 00:14:27,375 --> 00:14:28,875 ♪ 384 00:14:28,958 --> 00:14:31,375 I personally feel--and I think I can speak on behalf 385 00:14:31,458 --> 00:14:33,250 of everyone but you guys-- 386 00:14:33,333 --> 00:14:36,833 is, like, we just felt like you guys cut our process short, 387 00:14:36,917 --> 00:14:39,500 and you decided the trajectory of everything, 388 00:14:39,625 --> 00:14:40,625 and we had no shot. 389 00:14:40,708 --> 00:14:42,500 ♪ 390 00:14:42,625 --> 00:14:45,667 - I guess, speaking for myself, I didn't cut anything short. 391 00:14:45,792 --> 00:14:47,000 It's just not what I wanted, 392 00:14:47,125 --> 00:14:48,833 and I found that out on day two. 393 00:14:48,917 --> 00:14:50,708 ♪ 394 00:14:50,792 --> 00:14:52,000 - At the end of the day, 395 00:14:52,083 --> 00:14:55,750 it feels like the women came... 396 00:14:55,833 --> 00:14:58,667 armed and ready to make these marriages work, 397 00:14:58,750 --> 00:15:01,292 and what was always going to come first was the marriage. 398 00:15:01,375 --> 00:15:03,208 And it feels like that level of commitment 399 00:15:03,292 --> 00:15:05,125 was not matched by the men. 400 00:15:05,208 --> 00:15:06,333 ♪ 401 00:15:08,125 --> 00:15:11,000 - I hear you. I just, like-- I feel personally attacked 402 00:15:11,083 --> 00:15:12,667 because I definitely came into this 403 00:15:12,708 --> 00:15:14,125 with the right intentions. - Yeah. 404 00:15:14,208 --> 00:15:15,875 - I think every single one of us did. 405 00:15:16,042 --> 00:15:18,500 And whether you believe me or not, like, 406 00:15:18,542 --> 00:15:21,917 I did my best to try to, like, make us work. 407 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:23,167 I really did. 408 00:15:23,292 --> 00:15:25,125 And I know I made mistakes. 409 00:15:25,208 --> 00:15:27,333 I know I didn't always do the right thing and-- 410 00:15:27,417 --> 00:15:28,958 - I believe it. 411 00:15:29,042 --> 00:15:31,958 I just think the priorities and the prioritization 412 00:15:32,042 --> 00:15:34,667 for the men versus the women was in different areas. 413 00:15:34,750 --> 00:15:37,000 Like, we were-- marriage, priority one. 414 00:15:37,083 --> 00:15:40,833 Priorities for you individually-- 415 00:15:40,875 --> 00:15:43,500 your reputations, you wanting to give up, 416 00:15:43,583 --> 00:15:45,125 you taking the easy way out, 417 00:15:45,208 --> 00:15:47,125 like, you wanting to make yourself feel better 418 00:15:47,250 --> 00:15:49,417 by making us feel [bleep]. - Well, I mean... 419 00:15:49,500 --> 00:15:50,833 if I'm going to speak-- 420 00:15:50,875 --> 00:15:52,500 I mean, what it came down to was a boundary. 421 00:15:52,583 --> 00:15:54,167 I mean-- 422 00:15:54,208 --> 00:15:56,417 - I'm finding some emotional discomfort right now 423 00:15:56,417 --> 00:15:58,458 by you saying, I was done on day two. 424 00:15:58,458 --> 00:16:00,708 But on day three, you tell me you're catching feelings. 425 00:16:00,833 --> 00:16:02,167 On day four, you're crying in my arms. 426 00:16:02,292 --> 00:16:03,875 On day five, you're taking a-- 427 00:16:04,000 --> 00:16:05,542 - That was a pretty stressful honeymoon. 428 00:16:05,667 --> 00:16:06,625 - Can I finish? 429 00:16:06,708 --> 00:16:08,125 On day five, you're telling me, 430 00:16:08,208 --> 00:16:10,292 thank you for your patience with me. 431 00:16:10,375 --> 00:16:13,000 On day six, you're saying I don't have your back. 432 00:16:13,042 --> 00:16:16,042 So how can you say you tried when you're lying to me 433 00:16:16,125 --> 00:16:17,583 the whole honeymoon, Orion? 434 00:16:17,667 --> 00:16:19,833 Because if you checked out day two, then check out. 435 00:16:19,875 --> 00:16:21,125 - All right. - Check out. Leave. 436 00:16:21,208 --> 00:16:22,500 - So this is what it is. - Leave. 437 00:16:22,583 --> 00:16:25,292 ♪ 438 00:16:29,417 --> 00:16:30,833 ♪ 439 00:16:30,875 --> 00:16:32,458 - This is what it is. 440 00:16:32,458 --> 00:16:34,542 I was trying really hard to stay in it and not leave. 441 00:16:34,542 --> 00:16:36,000 - I would have rather you been honest-- 442 00:16:36,167 --> 00:16:37,958 - Hey, let me finish. Let me finish. 443 00:16:38,042 --> 00:16:39,667 - No, because I never get to finish with you, Orion. 444 00:16:39,708 --> 00:16:41,417 That's the problem--we didn't get to finish the marriage. 445 00:16:41,500 --> 00:16:42,958 I don't get to finish [bleep] with you. 446 00:16:43,042 --> 00:16:44,417 - I think we should-- 447 00:16:44,500 --> 00:16:46,167 - No, I'm really tired of y'all always interject-- 448 00:16:46,250 --> 00:16:47,500 I didn't interject on you and Becca's stuff. 449 00:16:47,583 --> 00:16:49,292 - Oh, I'm sorry. - I never interject. 450 00:16:49,375 --> 00:16:51,667 So I'm going to talk my [bleep] right now because it's valid, 451 00:16:51,708 --> 00:16:53,875 because I'm not going to sit here and listen to you-- 452 00:16:53,958 --> 00:16:55,417 - I'm not saying it's invalid. - Oh, my gosh. 453 00:16:55,542 --> 00:16:57,375 Can I [bleep] finish? 454 00:16:57,458 --> 00:16:59,500 You put me on an emotional roller coaster. 455 00:16:59,625 --> 00:17:01,167 I got off. 456 00:17:01,208 --> 00:17:03,833 You dragged me back in very publicly 457 00:17:03,875 --> 00:17:05,500 at the couples' retreat. 458 00:17:05,583 --> 00:17:08,542 And you can make your face, but everyone was there. 459 00:17:08,625 --> 00:17:09,875 I asked for nothing. 460 00:17:09,958 --> 00:17:11,625 I literally said, I'm here just to vibe out. 461 00:17:11,708 --> 00:17:14,083 You kept bringing me back into this [bleep]. 462 00:17:14,208 --> 00:17:15,875 So, finally, I was, like, well, [bleep], 463 00:17:15,958 --> 00:17:19,125 maybe since Orion does want to be friends, maybe I'll try. 464 00:17:19,208 --> 00:17:22,042 And then, of course, I try, and you give nothing. 465 00:17:22,167 --> 00:17:24,083 And you're trying to make me out to be the villain... 466 00:17:24,208 --> 00:17:26,458 - Nothing? - When all I do is [bleep] try. 467 00:17:26,542 --> 00:17:27,917 All I do is try. 468 00:17:28,000 --> 00:17:29,167 All I do is give you compassion. 469 00:17:29,208 --> 00:17:30,750 All I do is take accountability. 470 00:17:30,833 --> 00:17:32,333 Like, you're trying to make me out 471 00:17:32,375 --> 00:17:34,167 to seem like this combative, crazy person. 472 00:17:34,292 --> 00:17:35,750 - I'm really not. - And it's, like, 473 00:17:35,833 --> 00:17:37,250 I'm actually just an emotional person 474 00:17:37,333 --> 00:17:39,125 that's been trying this whole time. 475 00:17:39,208 --> 00:17:41,417 And every time I pull back, you pull me back in, 476 00:17:41,542 --> 00:17:43,417 and I'm like, all right, well, let me try some more, 477 00:17:43,542 --> 00:17:45,333 and then you literally give me nothing. 478 00:17:45,417 --> 00:17:49,833 ♪ 479 00:17:49,917 --> 00:17:53,875 [indistinct chatter] 480 00:17:53,958 --> 00:17:56,625 - Lauren, I'm very sorry I did that. 481 00:17:56,708 --> 00:17:58,583 I'm very sorry I did that. 482 00:17:58,708 --> 00:18:01,667 Something I found out in my own self-reflective time 483 00:18:01,667 --> 00:18:04,167 of talking to everybody... 484 00:18:04,250 --> 00:18:06,208 I generalize a lot of statements. 485 00:18:06,333 --> 00:18:09,167 I'm not clear and concise about the things that I talk about. 486 00:18:09,250 --> 00:18:13,000 And I'm so sorry if I misled you 487 00:18:13,083 --> 00:18:15,708 in any conversation or in any situation. 488 00:18:15,792 --> 00:18:17,958 I'm very sorry about that. 489 00:18:18,042 --> 00:18:21,167 I'm not trying to change your perspective 490 00:18:21,292 --> 00:18:22,667 on how you see things. 491 00:18:22,750 --> 00:18:24,167 ♪ 492 00:18:24,208 --> 00:18:27,083 And I'm very sorry if it came off like that. 493 00:18:27,167 --> 00:18:29,042 I do hold you in very high regard. 494 00:18:29,042 --> 00:18:31,167 You're a very smart, beautiful woman. 495 00:18:31,208 --> 00:18:34,750 And even if we're not friends, that's okay. 496 00:18:34,875 --> 00:18:37,625 - I mean, I think we all want the best for everyone. 497 00:18:37,708 --> 00:18:38,750 both: Yeah. 498 00:18:38,875 --> 00:18:40,125 - I mean, this was [bleep] hard. 499 00:18:40,208 --> 00:18:42,292 Like, I was coming into this 500 00:18:42,375 --> 00:18:44,333 hoping that, like, we could all, like, reminisce 501 00:18:44,375 --> 00:18:47,875 on happy times and kind of, like, re-bond as a group, 502 00:18:48,000 --> 00:18:49,542 even though it is hard, 503 00:18:49,625 --> 00:18:52,208 because, like, so many of us are disconnected. 504 00:18:52,292 --> 00:18:54,000 But, like, that's not what I want. 505 00:18:54,083 --> 00:18:57,625 I want us to, like, still see each other as, like, friends, 506 00:18:57,708 --> 00:19:01,208 as, like, companions and people who tried 507 00:19:01,208 --> 00:19:03,708 one of the craziest things in the [bleep] world. 508 00:19:03,792 --> 00:19:05,708 ♪ 509 00:19:05,833 --> 00:19:09,417 - So, although we talked out some negatives, 510 00:19:09,500 --> 00:19:11,667 I still think that was actually very productive. 511 00:19:11,750 --> 00:19:14,167 And, hopefully, everyone feels a little bit more clear. 512 00:19:14,292 --> 00:19:16,292 And, like, I do not want to discount 513 00:19:16,375 --> 00:19:19,667 the very important decision 514 00:19:19,750 --> 00:19:20,875 coming up. 515 00:19:20,958 --> 00:19:22,333 ♪ 516 00:19:22,417 --> 00:19:24,500 You guys are in the best place possible, 517 00:19:24,500 --> 00:19:26,542 even though it doesn't seem that way. 518 00:19:26,667 --> 00:19:28,833 And I want you guys to really soak up every minute. 519 00:19:28,917 --> 00:19:31,167 ♪ 520 00:19:31,250 --> 00:19:32,708 - And no matter what decision you make, 521 00:19:32,792 --> 00:19:34,250 it will be a green flag. 522 00:19:34,333 --> 00:19:35,792 We're all where we're supposed to be. 523 00:19:35,875 --> 00:19:37,875 - And you either join the club, or you start your new one. 524 00:19:37,958 --> 00:19:42,000 ♪ 525 00:19:42,083 --> 00:19:45,000 - ♪ Oh, I 526 00:19:45,042 --> 00:19:47,250 ♪ It's lighting up my radar 527 00:19:47,375 --> 00:19:50,125 ♪ I feel it coming, feel it coming ♪ 528 00:19:50,208 --> 00:19:51,958 - What's up, playboy? - Good to see you, man. 529 00:19:52,042 --> 00:19:53,708 - I'm not gonna lie. 530 00:19:53,792 --> 00:19:55,333 When they brought the water out in there 531 00:19:55,417 --> 00:19:56,667 and she started pouring it, 532 00:19:56,750 --> 00:19:58,333 I was like, man, I'm trying to get crazy today. 533 00:19:58,375 --> 00:19:59,375 - I thought it was straight tequila. 534 00:19:59,500 --> 00:20:00,708 - I'm trying to get crazy today. 535 00:20:00,792 --> 00:20:02,375 - Now we're really gonna go in deep here. 536 00:20:02,458 --> 00:20:04,000 - Mm. Ahh. - [chuckles] 537 00:20:04,083 --> 00:20:06,167 - Well, no, thanks for making it out. 538 00:20:06,208 --> 00:20:07,667 - Yeah, of course. 539 00:20:07,750 --> 00:20:09,500 - You... 540 00:20:09,583 --> 00:20:13,958 you are my only friend out here that's married. 541 00:20:14,042 --> 00:20:16,125 - [chuckles] 542 00:20:16,208 --> 00:20:17,625 - So I couldn't think of anyone better 543 00:20:17,750 --> 00:20:21,000 to, you know, pick their brain than yours. 544 00:20:21,083 --> 00:20:22,333 - Yeah. 545 00:20:22,417 --> 00:20:24,042 - Old Fashioned and a jalapeño margarita? 546 00:20:24,125 --> 00:20:25,333 - Yeah. That's me. both: Thank you. 547 00:20:25,417 --> 00:20:26,417 - Enjoy. - Cheers to that. 548 00:20:26,542 --> 00:20:28,333 - Cheers. 549 00:20:28,375 --> 00:20:30,333 - Decision Day is coming up. 550 00:20:30,500 --> 00:20:33,167 And, I mean, my disconnect right now 551 00:20:33,292 --> 00:20:36,000 is, like, I'm trying to get to a place emotionally 552 00:20:36,083 --> 00:20:38,125 where I feel-- - Thank you. Holy cow. 553 00:20:38,208 --> 00:20:40,125 - Where I feel confident and feel good 554 00:20:40,208 --> 00:20:44,417 and feel optimistic enough 555 00:20:44,500 --> 00:20:46,375 to, like, say that we can continue this marriage. 556 00:20:46,458 --> 00:20:48,333 - Okay. - And I want to be at a place 557 00:20:48,417 --> 00:20:49,958 where these things are stronger. 558 00:20:50,042 --> 00:20:51,750 And she, to her credit, like-- 559 00:20:51,833 --> 00:20:53,542 - You want to be a place where these things are stronger? 560 00:20:53,625 --> 00:20:55,000 - The positive feelings are stronger. 561 00:20:55,042 --> 00:20:56,458 - Okay. 562 00:20:56,542 --> 00:20:58,333 - When I refer to the positives and negatives, 563 00:20:58,417 --> 00:21:00,500 it's not like the positives and negatives in Chloe. 564 00:21:00,583 --> 00:21:02,208 It's like the positive and negative emotions 565 00:21:02,333 --> 00:21:04,250 that I'm feeling. 566 00:21:04,250 --> 00:21:05,958 - Okay. - So, like, negative emotions 567 00:21:06,042 --> 00:21:08,667 would be, like, when thinking about Decision Day... 568 00:21:08,750 --> 00:21:10,167 - Yeah. 569 00:21:10,250 --> 00:21:12,667 - Fear, uncertainty, 570 00:21:12,708 --> 00:21:16,000 discomfort, like, concern. - Yeah. 571 00:21:16,083 --> 00:21:19,708 - You know, those would be, like, an example of, like, 572 00:21:19,792 --> 00:21:21,542 the negative elements, right? - Okay. 573 00:21:21,625 --> 00:21:24,167 - The positive elements would be like the excitement, 574 00:21:24,208 --> 00:21:26,667 the optimism, you know, the joy, 575 00:21:26,750 --> 00:21:31,333 all those things that I feel like would... 576 00:21:31,417 --> 00:21:34,458 propel our marriage after Decision Day. 577 00:21:34,458 --> 00:21:36,583 - Yeah. - So that's what I'm hoping-- 578 00:21:36,667 --> 00:21:39,292 that those feelings will outweigh the negative feelings. 579 00:21:39,292 --> 00:21:40,833 - Do they right now? 580 00:21:40,917 --> 00:21:44,292 - I don't have a clear answer at this point in time 581 00:21:44,292 --> 00:21:46,083 of whether I'm going to say yes or no. 582 00:21:46,167 --> 00:21:47,500 - Really? - Yeah. 583 00:21:47,625 --> 00:21:50,333 - You just don't strike me as a guy that's fearful. 584 00:21:50,417 --> 00:21:52,583 - Well, number one, thank you for noticing my bravery. 585 00:21:52,667 --> 00:21:54,167 - [laughs] - That's first and foremost. 586 00:21:54,208 --> 00:21:55,708 - You're the bravest man I know. 587 00:21:55,833 --> 00:21:57,208 I mean, let's be honest. - Yeah, it's-- 588 00:21:57,333 --> 00:21:59,417 - Besides me, of course. - Yeah, that's right. 589 00:21:59,500 --> 00:22:01,500 It's a different kind of fear, you know, 590 00:22:01,542 --> 00:22:04,042 and that, to me, is what I'm trying to work through. 591 00:22:04,125 --> 00:22:06,000 - Because you're not going to live up to the expectations? 592 00:22:06,083 --> 00:22:07,625 ♪ 593 00:22:07,708 --> 00:22:09,417 - I mean, I think there's definitely elements of that. 594 00:22:09,500 --> 00:22:11,542 The expectations of, like-- 595 00:22:11,625 --> 00:22:14,292 And not just, like, expectations, 596 00:22:14,375 --> 00:22:15,667 like, on paper and stuff. 597 00:22:15,750 --> 00:22:17,667 It's like, expectations of, like, 598 00:22:17,708 --> 00:22:19,542 what we're supposed to feel, 599 00:22:19,625 --> 00:22:22,333 how we're supposed to feel, how it's supposed to progress, 600 00:22:22,375 --> 00:22:24,667 you know, where we go from here. 601 00:22:24,750 --> 00:22:26,458 - That's part of the beauty of it, man. 602 00:22:26,542 --> 00:22:28,042 - I know. - You don't know. 603 00:22:28,125 --> 00:22:30,000 ♪ 604 00:22:30,042 --> 00:22:31,667 I mean... [chuckles] 605 00:22:31,708 --> 00:22:34,333 As a husband, as a dad, you always doubt yourself. 606 00:22:34,375 --> 00:22:36,083 I doubt myself to this day. 607 00:22:36,208 --> 00:22:37,750 I mean, are you worried that, like, hey, 608 00:22:37,833 --> 00:22:39,875 all right, we're going to stay together, 609 00:22:39,875 --> 00:22:42,208 and we're going to go to Decision Day, whatever it is, 610 00:22:42,333 --> 00:22:44,792 say yes, move on, 611 00:22:44,875 --> 00:22:48,292 and then things just don't progress? 612 00:22:48,375 --> 00:22:49,667 You know, on some level, Mike, 613 00:22:49,750 --> 00:22:51,625 you're going to have to put yourself out there. 614 00:22:51,625 --> 00:22:53,917 At some point, you got to put your trust in someone. 615 00:22:54,042 --> 00:22:55,500 - Sure. 616 00:22:55,542 --> 00:22:57,417 - You know, you have to put yourself out there 617 00:22:57,500 --> 00:22:59,167 and just trust in all the factors that you know. 618 00:22:59,250 --> 00:23:00,667 Is she kind? Is she kind to others? Yeah. 619 00:23:00,750 --> 00:23:02,292 You know, does she make you laugh? 620 00:23:02,375 --> 00:23:04,000 Do you make her laugh? 621 00:23:04,042 --> 00:23:06,583 You know, and I get that your problems are more internal, 622 00:23:06,667 --> 00:23:08,208 and I totally understand that. 623 00:23:08,208 --> 00:23:09,667 You know what I mean? 624 00:23:09,750 --> 00:23:11,125 But you got to trust in yourself, too. 625 00:23:11,208 --> 00:23:12,417 ♪ 626 00:23:12,542 --> 00:23:14,250 I know you've got the skills to do that. 627 00:23:14,375 --> 00:23:16,125 I know you got the skills to be a great husband, 628 00:23:16,208 --> 00:23:17,625 be a great partner. 629 00:23:17,708 --> 00:23:19,625 You know, wherever that leads beyond that, 630 00:23:19,708 --> 00:23:21,250 I know you've got it. 631 00:23:21,333 --> 00:23:25,125 So, my opinion-- I'd probably say, yes. 632 00:23:25,250 --> 00:23:29,708 - ♪ It's all coming to me, it's all coming to me ♪ 633 00:23:29,708 --> 00:23:31,042 ♪ It's all coming to me 634 00:23:35,042 --> 00:23:40,000 ♪ 635 00:23:40,083 --> 00:23:42,833 - ♪ Brave-hearted, brave-hearted, brave-hearted ♪ 636 00:23:42,875 --> 00:23:44,292 [line trilling] 637 00:23:44,375 --> 00:23:45,958 - Hi. 638 00:23:46,042 --> 00:23:49,042 - Hey, how are you? - Good. How are you? 639 00:23:49,167 --> 00:23:52,167 - Doing pretty good. - Yeah? 640 00:23:52,208 --> 00:23:54,375 - How's things over there? 641 00:23:54,500 --> 00:23:57,375 - Things are okay. 642 00:23:57,458 --> 00:24:00,875 So last night I had to see Austin. 643 00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:03,167 And I think... 644 00:24:03,250 --> 00:24:06,042 seeing him was just difficult 645 00:24:06,125 --> 00:24:09,000 because he looked cute and I wanted to kiss him. 646 00:24:09,083 --> 00:24:10,917 [somber music] 647 00:24:11,042 --> 00:24:12,417 - Aw. - [chuckles] 648 00:24:12,500 --> 00:24:15,417 And I'm just wondering if my anxiety 649 00:24:15,542 --> 00:24:18,750 was too high for him. 650 00:24:18,875 --> 00:24:21,083 - The relationship didn't end because of your anxiety. 651 00:24:21,208 --> 00:24:22,167 Correct? 652 00:24:22,250 --> 00:24:23,542 ♪ 653 00:24:23,625 --> 00:24:25,833 - I don't think so. I hope not. 654 00:24:25,958 --> 00:24:27,333 [scoffs] 655 00:24:27,417 --> 00:24:29,542 I mean, it ended because of so many other things, 656 00:24:29,667 --> 00:24:32,667 but I do think that my anxiety played a role in the issues 657 00:24:32,750 --> 00:24:34,708 that I was having with the on-camera 658 00:24:34,792 --> 00:24:36,750 versus the off-camera conversations 659 00:24:36,833 --> 00:24:38,458 and feeling like I was protecting him 660 00:24:38,542 --> 00:24:39,917 and feeling silenced. 661 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:42,208 Like, I think the gravity of that hit me harder 662 00:24:42,292 --> 00:24:43,792 because I have anxiety 663 00:24:43,792 --> 00:24:47,833 and because of all the rumination that I do. 664 00:24:47,833 --> 00:24:50,333 - But I asked you a specific question last week of... 665 00:24:50,417 --> 00:24:52,000 - Yeah. 666 00:24:52,042 --> 00:24:54,917 - Was there a way for you to ever feel trust 667 00:24:55,042 --> 00:24:56,542 or go forward? 668 00:24:56,625 --> 00:24:58,583 And you said... 669 00:25:01,083 --> 00:25:02,500 - No. [sniffles] 670 00:25:02,583 --> 00:25:04,667 - So my question would be, 671 00:25:04,708 --> 00:25:08,333 what do you do now to get the Becca back 672 00:25:08,458 --> 00:25:10,333 that I spoke to last week? 673 00:25:10,375 --> 00:25:13,333 - I just need to remember that, like... 674 00:25:13,417 --> 00:25:15,250 ♪ 675 00:25:15,333 --> 00:25:16,875 [sniffles] 676 00:25:17,000 --> 00:25:18,708 My gut is so strong. 677 00:25:18,833 --> 00:25:23,708 And although my brain tries to, like, make me feel bad 678 00:25:23,833 --> 00:25:26,583 about what I've done or maybe the role that I've played 679 00:25:26,667 --> 00:25:28,625 in my marriage with Austin, 680 00:25:28,708 --> 00:25:31,375 like, I need to remember that, like... 681 00:25:31,458 --> 00:25:32,625 ♪ 682 00:25:32,708 --> 00:25:34,708 My anxiety speaks to me. 683 00:25:34,792 --> 00:25:39,042 Like, if I don't feel safe, it goes even more haywire. 684 00:25:39,125 --> 00:25:41,000 And, like, I just have to have peace 685 00:25:41,083 --> 00:25:42,667 in, like, remembering those times as well 686 00:25:42,750 --> 00:25:44,292 because I know I often... 687 00:25:44,375 --> 00:25:46,167 ♪ 688 00:25:46,208 --> 00:25:49,167 Will put on rose-colored glasses for people that I've... 689 00:25:49,208 --> 00:25:50,833 dated. 690 00:25:50,875 --> 00:25:52,542 I mean, there's a million things 691 00:25:52,625 --> 00:25:54,542 I would have done differently, but at the same time, 692 00:25:54,625 --> 00:25:56,167 I wouldn't have because I wouldn't have learned 693 00:25:56,250 --> 00:25:57,750 the way that I've learned. 694 00:25:57,875 --> 00:25:59,333 I think... 695 00:25:59,375 --> 00:26:01,667 I just have to keep celebrating, like, 696 00:26:01,750 --> 00:26:03,792 who I was and, like, how far I've come 697 00:26:03,875 --> 00:26:05,667 and, like, how brave that is. 698 00:26:05,750 --> 00:26:08,667 So I'm still happy it was Austin. 699 00:26:08,708 --> 00:26:11,167 Out of all people in this world... 700 00:26:11,208 --> 00:26:12,833 ♪ 701 00:26:12,875 --> 00:26:15,542 Austin will be a great husband to someone, 702 00:26:15,625 --> 00:26:16,625 to the right person. 703 00:26:16,625 --> 00:26:18,208 He really will. 704 00:26:18,292 --> 00:26:19,792 But I still feel hopeful, 705 00:26:19,875 --> 00:26:24,042 and I still think that marriage is a great gift. 706 00:26:24,167 --> 00:26:26,625 If I were to put together my perfect human, 707 00:26:26,708 --> 00:26:28,333 he would definitely look like Austin. 708 00:26:28,417 --> 00:26:29,833 Austin's hot. [scoffs] 709 00:26:29,917 --> 00:26:32,000 [chuckles] 710 00:26:32,083 --> 00:26:36,417 But maybe just someone who has honesty as a priority 711 00:26:36,500 --> 00:26:38,333 and who has me as a priority. 712 00:26:38,375 --> 00:26:40,750 - It is about, you know, diving back into you 713 00:26:40,833 --> 00:26:44,833 and kind of rebranding yourself... 714 00:26:44,958 --> 00:26:46,333 - Yeah. 715 00:26:46,458 --> 00:26:48,958 - And channeling who you are and your confidence. 716 00:26:48,958 --> 00:26:51,875 All you ever talked about is wanting to empower women 717 00:26:51,958 --> 00:26:55,333 and wanting to talk about mental health 718 00:26:55,458 --> 00:26:59,042 and, you know, this very positive approach to things. 719 00:26:59,125 --> 00:27:02,000 And I think you're starting to finally do that for yourself. 720 00:27:02,083 --> 00:27:05,500 - Yeah. I know that if I just, like, keep up with the things 721 00:27:05,625 --> 00:27:08,333 that I need to do and not falter on those, 722 00:27:08,458 --> 00:27:10,167 like, I know it'll be okay. 723 00:27:10,208 --> 00:27:13,167 And that's confidence that you've given me 724 00:27:13,292 --> 00:27:15,167 that I didn't always once know. 725 00:27:15,208 --> 00:27:18,333 It's, like, the tools to be able to be okay. 726 00:27:18,417 --> 00:27:20,208 [sniffles] 727 00:27:20,292 --> 00:27:21,792 ♪ 728 00:27:21,875 --> 00:27:23,667 - Well, now you just have to use them. 729 00:27:23,708 --> 00:27:25,167 - [sniffles] I will. 730 00:27:25,292 --> 00:27:26,667 - With baby steps. 731 00:27:26,750 --> 00:27:28,292 - Baby steps. 732 00:27:28,375 --> 00:27:29,667 - Not all at once. 733 00:27:29,750 --> 00:27:31,083 - Baby steps. 734 00:27:31,167 --> 00:27:33,583 Not even toddler steps but baby steps. 735 00:27:33,667 --> 00:27:35,000 [both laugh] 736 00:27:35,042 --> 00:27:36,708 Yeah. 737 00:27:36,708 --> 00:27:39,833 [upbeat music] 738 00:27:39,917 --> 00:27:46,875 ♪ 739 00:27:47,000 --> 00:27:49,083 - This is pretty. - Yeah. 740 00:27:49,167 --> 00:27:53,250 - Oh, it's beautiful. I love Boulder. 741 00:27:53,333 --> 00:27:56,167 - [grunts] 742 00:27:56,250 --> 00:27:58,083 I'm ready to check this space out. 743 00:27:58,208 --> 00:27:59,667 - Yeah. 744 00:27:59,750 --> 00:28:02,250 This last week has been super rocky. 745 00:28:02,333 --> 00:28:05,333 And this is really one of the last times 746 00:28:05,500 --> 00:28:09,292 that Michael and I will be together before Decision Day. 747 00:28:09,375 --> 00:28:12,250 So I rented this gorgeous little cabin for us. 748 00:28:12,333 --> 00:28:13,833 Oh, wow. 749 00:28:13,917 --> 00:28:16,083 After my conversation with Cesar, 750 00:28:16,167 --> 00:28:19,333 I realized that I care very, very deeply about Michael. 751 00:28:19,458 --> 00:28:21,667 So I... 752 00:28:21,750 --> 00:28:23,750 wanted to do everything I could 753 00:28:23,833 --> 00:28:27,458 to see if we could get back to a romantic place. 754 00:28:27,542 --> 00:28:29,042 ♪ 755 00:28:29,125 --> 00:28:30,917 - Well, thank you. - Yeah. 756 00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:32,833 Will you hand me that blanket? 757 00:28:32,958 --> 00:28:36,250 - Yeah, I can and will. - Oh, thank you. 758 00:28:36,375 --> 00:28:38,083 That's so kind of you. 759 00:28:40,792 --> 00:28:42,333 Thanks. - There. 760 00:28:42,375 --> 00:28:44,500 Boom. 761 00:28:44,583 --> 00:28:47,042 - So we're headed into Decision Day. 762 00:28:47,125 --> 00:28:48,625 - We are. - It's coming up hot. 763 00:28:48,708 --> 00:28:50,792 - Mm-hmm. 764 00:28:50,875 --> 00:28:53,000 - What are some of the things that you're weighing 765 00:28:53,083 --> 00:28:56,208 as we think about going in? 766 00:28:56,292 --> 00:28:58,625 - I think... 767 00:28:58,708 --> 00:29:01,250 there is a level of comfort 768 00:29:01,375 --> 00:29:04,917 that I have to develop with the uncertainty and fear. 769 00:29:05,000 --> 00:29:07,167 - Mm-hmm. - I think that's a deficiency. 770 00:29:07,250 --> 00:29:09,500 I think that... 771 00:29:09,542 --> 00:29:11,333 I've... 772 00:29:11,417 --> 00:29:12,750 ♪ 773 00:29:12,875 --> 00:29:16,458 Celebrated my independence 774 00:29:16,542 --> 00:29:18,333 for so long. - Mm-hmm. 775 00:29:18,417 --> 00:29:21,250 - I never thought, for example, 776 00:29:21,375 --> 00:29:23,833 that marriage equals sacrificing your independence. 777 00:29:23,958 --> 00:29:25,417 I don't believe that, 778 00:29:25,500 --> 00:29:28,125 but I do believe it looks a little different, right? 779 00:29:28,208 --> 00:29:30,000 And sometimes I have a hard time seeing 780 00:29:30,042 --> 00:29:32,500 what that looks like for me 781 00:29:32,542 --> 00:29:36,167 and what that means for how I see our lives together. 782 00:29:36,208 --> 00:29:39,042 Like, all of that-- this is my first time 783 00:29:39,125 --> 00:29:42,708 ever really processing that, you know. 784 00:29:42,792 --> 00:29:45,292 - We are... 785 00:29:45,375 --> 00:29:48,000 really, really, really, really great together. 786 00:29:48,042 --> 00:29:49,583 ♪ 787 00:29:49,667 --> 00:29:51,542 And we've been through so much together, 788 00:29:51,542 --> 00:29:53,417 and it all happened so quickly. 789 00:29:53,417 --> 00:29:55,375 ♪ 790 00:29:55,458 --> 00:29:59,500 So I think, for me, I just want you to know that... 791 00:29:59,583 --> 00:30:01,375 I am... 792 00:30:01,458 --> 00:30:02,667 - Wait. 793 00:30:02,708 --> 00:30:05,542 ♪ 794 00:30:05,667 --> 00:30:07,792 Continue. - [chuckles] 795 00:30:07,875 --> 00:30:09,417 Whatever Decision Day holds for us, 796 00:30:09,500 --> 00:30:12,792 I am just... 797 00:30:12,875 --> 00:30:15,958 deeply, deeply, deeply, deeply moved and grateful. 798 00:30:16,042 --> 00:30:19,583 So thank you for making this really fun 799 00:30:19,667 --> 00:30:23,417 and making me realize just how much 800 00:30:23,500 --> 00:30:25,542 I want to do life with someone. 801 00:30:25,625 --> 00:30:27,333 ♪ 802 00:30:27,417 --> 00:30:28,333 - ♪ Here's to the ones that keep on fighting ♪ 803 00:30:28,417 --> 00:30:29,708 - Oh, my God. 804 00:30:29,833 --> 00:30:32,333 - ♪ Even though they are afraid ♪ 805 00:30:32,458 --> 00:30:33,542 ♪ 806 00:30:33,542 --> 00:30:34,333 - Thank you. 807 00:30:38,250 --> 00:30:39,708 - ♪ Baby, come and make me go ♪ 808 00:30:39,708 --> 00:30:41,625 ♪ Oh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh 809 00:30:41,708 --> 00:30:43,458 ♪ Baby, come and make me go... ♪ 810 00:30:43,542 --> 00:30:45,500 - I am really happy that you all agreed to do this, 811 00:30:45,583 --> 00:30:46,958 because it's one of the things 812 00:30:47,042 --> 00:30:49,000 that I'm the most passionate about, 813 00:30:49,083 --> 00:30:51,083 and I'm also passionate about how much I love you guys. 814 00:30:51,167 --> 00:30:53,583 So, to combine those two, it's very special. 815 00:30:53,667 --> 00:30:56,917 Today we are doing a boudoir shoot with lingerie. 816 00:30:57,042 --> 00:31:00,000 Like, I think we all lost sight 817 00:31:00,083 --> 00:31:03,917 of how wonderful and beautiful we all are. 818 00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:06,750 And I wanted to be able to celebrate that. 819 00:31:06,750 --> 00:31:09,500 We went on this journey 820 00:31:09,583 --> 00:31:11,750 to focus on our husbands. 821 00:31:11,833 --> 00:31:13,875 And, unfortunately, 822 00:31:13,958 --> 00:31:16,083 that didn't turn out the way that we deserved. 823 00:31:16,208 --> 00:31:17,583 - Mm-hmm. 824 00:31:17,667 --> 00:31:19,875 - And so this is kind of about taking that power back. 825 00:31:20,042 --> 00:31:22,417 And this whole experience is supposed to show you 826 00:31:22,500 --> 00:31:25,292 what you look like from somebody else's eyes, 827 00:31:25,375 --> 00:31:27,208 because the way that we see ourselves 828 00:31:27,333 --> 00:31:29,292 is not an accurate representation of who we are. 829 00:31:29,375 --> 00:31:30,750 I want to take 830 00:31:30,875 --> 00:31:32,708 whatever the least favorite part is about you, 831 00:31:32,792 --> 00:31:35,167 and I want to make you love it. both: Amen. 832 00:31:35,208 --> 00:31:36,875 - Love that. 833 00:31:36,958 --> 00:31:40,417 - I think that I'm self-conscious of my tummy. 834 00:31:40,500 --> 00:31:44,167 I had that surgery, and, like, I'm still swollen, 835 00:31:44,208 --> 00:31:46,000 and I have a lot of scar tissue happening. 836 00:31:46,083 --> 00:31:48,125 So I'm going to celebrate that today. 837 00:31:48,208 --> 00:31:51,042 My favorite part about myself is probably my eyes. 838 00:31:51,125 --> 00:31:53,500 - Oh, I love your eyes, too. - Yeah. 839 00:31:53,542 --> 00:31:56,958 - My least favorite part is probably, like, my hips. 840 00:31:57,042 --> 00:31:59,625 They're just wide and big. 841 00:31:59,708 --> 00:32:01,167 And then I think my favorite part 842 00:32:01,250 --> 00:32:02,792 is I just like, like, my overall shape. 843 00:32:02,875 --> 00:32:04,167 - Right. 844 00:32:04,250 --> 00:32:06,042 - I'll be sure to celebrate that today. 845 00:32:06,167 --> 00:32:08,583 - I would say my least favorite part 846 00:32:08,667 --> 00:32:11,000 is probably my saggy boobs. 847 00:32:11,042 --> 00:32:12,167 [laughing] - Oh, shut up. 848 00:32:12,208 --> 00:32:14,167 You have "Game of Thrones" [bleep]. 849 00:32:14,250 --> 00:32:17,000 - Like, literally, no, you guys don't know. 850 00:32:17,125 --> 00:32:20,333 And then I would say my favorite part is my legs, 851 00:32:20,458 --> 00:32:22,500 because I just feel strong when I'm squatting, 852 00:32:22,625 --> 00:32:24,667 and, like, they can hold a lot of weight. 853 00:32:24,708 --> 00:32:27,167 And so, to me, I just feel so powerful in the moments 854 00:32:27,292 --> 00:32:29,042 when I use my legs, so... 855 00:32:29,125 --> 00:32:30,667 - Yeah, they hold the weight of the world. 856 00:32:30,750 --> 00:32:32,042 - Yeah. - I love that. 857 00:32:32,125 --> 00:32:33,833 - I would say my least favorite part is my ass... 858 00:32:33,875 --> 00:32:35,500 - Yeah. 859 00:32:35,583 --> 00:32:37,167 - Because I feel like in, like, the Black community, 860 00:32:37,250 --> 00:32:38,625 it's like, you don't have an ass. 861 00:32:38,708 --> 00:32:40,083 And then for other races, 862 00:32:40,167 --> 00:32:41,667 they're like, your ass is too big. 863 00:32:41,708 --> 00:32:43,375 So I was like, I felt like I was always floating 864 00:32:43,458 --> 00:32:45,167 through a space where I just didn't like it 865 00:32:45,250 --> 00:32:46,625 no matter what it looked like. 866 00:32:46,708 --> 00:32:48,375 And my favorite part 867 00:32:48,458 --> 00:32:50,375 is, actually, I would say, my skin. 868 00:32:50,500 --> 00:32:51,833 - Yeah, skin. 869 00:32:51,917 --> 00:32:53,500 - I just love the way I look in it. 870 00:32:53,583 --> 00:32:55,333 I love the way I feel in it. - It's a good thing to love. 871 00:32:55,417 --> 00:32:56,875 It's the biggest organ on the body. 872 00:32:56,958 --> 00:32:58,208 - Yeah. - It is glowing. 873 00:32:58,292 --> 00:33:00,042 She really is glowing. - Oh, my gosh, okay. 874 00:33:00,125 --> 00:33:02,083 So yeah, Em, do you want to go first? 875 00:33:02,208 --> 00:33:04,833 - Yes. - Yay. 876 00:33:04,875 --> 00:33:06,917 - ♪ It's the girl power 877 00:33:07,042 --> 00:33:09,208 ♪ The kids with all the attitude ♪ 878 00:33:09,333 --> 00:33:12,000 ♪ We got to shout louder 879 00:33:12,042 --> 00:33:14,625 ♪ There's nothing we can't do ♪ 880 00:33:14,708 --> 00:33:17,000 - With one hand, you're going to, like, really play. 881 00:33:17,042 --> 00:33:18,333 - She's a babe. - With the other hand, 882 00:33:18,417 --> 00:33:19,833 you can either, like, put it back behind you. 883 00:33:19,958 --> 00:33:21,542 - Brittany, baby. - Yes. 884 00:33:21,542 --> 00:33:22,708 Yes. 885 00:33:22,792 --> 00:33:24,417 [camera shutter clicks] 886 00:33:24,500 --> 00:33:25,958 - ♪ We break the mold, forget the old ♪ 887 00:33:26,042 --> 00:33:27,500 - You look hot. 888 00:33:27,583 --> 00:33:29,333 - Oh, yeah, grab on to the bedsheet a little bit. 889 00:33:29,375 --> 00:33:30,542 Hell, yeah. 890 00:33:30,625 --> 00:33:33,417 - ♪ With you by my side 891 00:33:33,500 --> 00:33:37,250 ♪ I feel your voices sang the planet to life ♪ 892 00:33:37,333 --> 00:33:38,750 - Lean forward with that hand again. 893 00:33:38,833 --> 00:33:40,542 - Oh, that's fire. 894 00:33:40,625 --> 00:33:42,208 - ♪ It's the girl power 895 00:33:42,292 --> 00:33:44,750 - Arching your back. 896 00:33:44,833 --> 00:33:46,583 - ♪ We got to shout louder 897 00:33:46,667 --> 00:33:48,542 - Yeah, and spin towards me even more. 898 00:33:48,625 --> 00:33:50,833 - ♪ There's nothing we can't do ♪ 899 00:33:50,875 --> 00:33:53,875 - Gosh, these eyes. - She's a stunner. 900 00:33:53,958 --> 00:33:56,417 - ♪ Nothing in the world could stop a bit of girl power ♪ 901 00:33:56,500 --> 00:33:59,083 - Now whip that hair, baby. - Whoo! 902 00:33:59,167 --> 00:34:02,375 - ♪ Believe and make it better, oh, oh ♪ 903 00:34:02,500 --> 00:34:04,292 - And then look straight out the window, Lauren. 904 00:34:04,375 --> 00:34:05,458 Yes. 905 00:34:05,542 --> 00:34:12,292 ♪ 906 00:34:21,125 --> 00:34:23,167 - Oh. - There she is. 907 00:34:23,208 --> 00:34:26,042 - Okay, bow down to the queen. [laughter] 908 00:34:26,125 --> 00:34:28,667 - Mama. - You look like a real queen. 909 00:34:28,750 --> 00:34:30,833 - Yes! - Wow! 910 00:34:30,917 --> 00:34:32,375 - Come on, booty. 911 00:34:32,500 --> 00:34:34,208 - I'll bet that was not easy to get into. 912 00:34:34,292 --> 00:34:36,500 - Chef's kiss, like, mwah. - Oh, wait, that's so cute. 913 00:34:36,583 --> 00:34:38,000 - This was the outfit that Austin... 914 00:34:38,042 --> 00:34:39,625 - Oh, my gosh. 915 00:34:39,625 --> 00:34:41,292 - Walked away from couples' retreat weekend. 916 00:34:41,375 --> 00:34:42,833 - That's what he passed up on? 917 00:34:42,958 --> 00:34:44,417 - I was literally holding it in my hand 918 00:34:44,542 --> 00:34:46,167 when I asked him if I should come with him. 919 00:34:46,208 --> 00:34:48,083 - Sad. - You look great. 920 00:34:48,167 --> 00:34:49,833 - Missed opportunities. Missed opportunities. 921 00:34:49,917 --> 00:34:51,333 - Right. 922 00:34:51,417 --> 00:34:53,167 - All right, I'm going to take your first one. 923 00:34:53,250 --> 00:34:54,583 I want you to come, like, a little here. 924 00:34:54,667 --> 00:34:56,333 - I like that, with the green in the back. 925 00:34:56,417 --> 00:34:57,875 - Yeah, the green is nice. - Yeah. Yeah, that's cute. 926 00:34:58,000 --> 00:34:59,333 Ooh. 927 00:34:59,458 --> 00:35:01,000 ♪ 928 00:35:01,083 --> 00:35:03,333 - Stunning. Hot. 929 00:35:03,375 --> 00:35:05,375 Someone beat that. - I want you on the bed. 930 00:35:05,458 --> 00:35:08,333 - Yeah, you do. - Yeah, I do. 931 00:35:08,500 --> 00:35:13,375 I think after the chaos that our marriages were, 932 00:35:13,458 --> 00:35:15,833 all of us lost a little bit of our spark. 933 00:35:15,875 --> 00:35:19,292 And today, I feel like, was just the first step 934 00:35:19,375 --> 00:35:21,708 for a lot of us finding that spark 935 00:35:21,792 --> 00:35:24,500 and seeing ourselves in just a totally different light, 936 00:35:24,542 --> 00:35:27,292 'cause when I look around the room, 937 00:35:27,375 --> 00:35:30,208 the self-love is flowing through this room right now. 938 00:35:30,292 --> 00:35:32,250 It makes me feel really good about my future. 939 00:35:32,333 --> 00:35:34,417 It makes me feel really good about Becca 940 00:35:34,500 --> 00:35:37,292 and Claire's and Emily's future. 941 00:35:37,375 --> 00:35:41,167 There's a lot out there to be had is all I'm saying. 942 00:35:41,208 --> 00:35:44,333 Our husbands weren't it, but it's out there. 943 00:35:44,417 --> 00:35:46,167 I think this was definitely a good activity 944 00:35:46,250 --> 00:35:47,667 in choosing ourselves... - yeah. 945 00:35:47,708 --> 00:35:49,333 - And in loving ourselves. 946 00:35:49,417 --> 00:35:52,083 Like, regardless of those men, 947 00:35:52,083 --> 00:35:54,625 regardless of any man that comes after this... 948 00:35:54,708 --> 00:35:56,167 - Yeah. 949 00:35:56,208 --> 00:35:57,792 - This is a good reminder to always choose yourself. 950 00:35:57,792 --> 00:35:59,667 - Absolutely. 951 00:35:59,792 --> 00:36:01,958 ♪ 952 00:36:02,042 --> 00:36:04,667 - ♪ We keep coming back for more ♪ 953 00:36:04,750 --> 00:36:07,042 ♪ Coming back for more 954 00:36:07,125 --> 00:36:09,542 - Even he wants to know what's going on. 955 00:36:09,625 --> 00:36:11,458 - I know, guys. We're getting out of here. 956 00:36:11,542 --> 00:36:13,208 - I know, boy. 957 00:36:13,292 --> 00:36:15,583 Are you looking forward to getting back to your place? 958 00:36:15,667 --> 00:36:17,500 - [sighs] It's going to feel weird, 959 00:36:17,583 --> 00:36:21,167 but, yeah, it'll give us a chance to think... 960 00:36:21,292 --> 00:36:23,625 - Yeah. Mm-hmm. - Before the big day. 961 00:36:23,708 --> 00:36:26,042 - No, it's probably good for us to be 962 00:36:26,125 --> 00:36:29,083 in, like, our familiar space with our thoughts 963 00:36:29,167 --> 00:36:30,417 and feelings and everything like that. 964 00:36:30,542 --> 00:36:31,917 - Yeah. - I have a feeling that 965 00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:33,417 that'll help us. 966 00:36:33,500 --> 00:36:35,167 I wouldn't want to be here by myself 967 00:36:35,208 --> 00:36:36,792 kind of thinking through everything. 968 00:36:36,875 --> 00:36:38,667 - Me too. Me too. 969 00:36:38,708 --> 00:36:41,542 - Pretty bittersweet, separating for the night, 970 00:36:41,625 --> 00:36:44,750 but I am looking forward to just having this opportunity, 971 00:36:44,833 --> 00:36:47,667 you know, to be immersed in my own thoughts and feelings 972 00:36:47,708 --> 00:36:49,500 back at my apartment. 973 00:36:49,542 --> 00:36:51,958 I need to weigh what it means to me to be married 974 00:36:52,042 --> 00:36:54,667 so I can be certain about my decision on Decision Day, 975 00:36:54,750 --> 00:36:57,500 because, literally, the trajectory of my life 976 00:36:57,583 --> 00:36:59,167 could change. 977 00:36:59,250 --> 00:37:01,667 - You nervous? - Of course. 978 00:37:01,750 --> 00:37:03,417 - I am, too. - Yeah. 979 00:37:03,500 --> 00:37:06,750 I've never navigated my emotions this deeply before 980 00:37:06,833 --> 00:37:08,333 with so much intent. 981 00:37:08,417 --> 00:37:10,417 There's no way I could have done it with anyone else. 982 00:37:10,542 --> 00:37:12,333 The kind of chemistry we have 983 00:37:12,417 --> 00:37:14,708 and how easy things have been, 984 00:37:14,792 --> 00:37:18,000 I think that is a great beacon of hope 985 00:37:18,125 --> 00:37:19,750 if we were to say yes... - Mm-hmm. Yeah. 986 00:37:19,833 --> 00:37:22,708 - That we are a great fit for each other 987 00:37:22,833 --> 00:37:24,958 and we know how to appreciate each other 988 00:37:25,042 --> 00:37:26,500 and prioritize each other. 989 00:37:26,583 --> 00:37:27,917 So there are a lot of things that-- 990 00:37:28,000 --> 00:37:29,958 If we do decide to continue on with this marriage, 991 00:37:30,042 --> 00:37:32,083 I think there are a lot of things 992 00:37:32,167 --> 00:37:35,667 we could lean on and continue to enjoy and even make better. 993 00:37:35,750 --> 00:37:36,917 - Yeah. 994 00:37:37,042 --> 00:37:38,500 ♪ 995 00:37:38,583 --> 00:37:40,333 I think if we say yes tomorrow, 996 00:37:40,417 --> 00:37:43,500 it gives us a chance to keep going and... 997 00:37:43,583 --> 00:37:45,708 making it something even more awesome. 998 00:37:45,833 --> 00:37:48,167 - Mm-hmm. It'll be how it's supposed to be. 999 00:37:48,292 --> 00:37:49,833 - Yeah. 1000 00:37:49,917 --> 00:37:51,333 - What's that you always say? 1001 00:37:51,417 --> 00:37:53,250 What's supposed to hit you doesn't pass you by 1002 00:37:53,333 --> 00:37:55,250 or some [bleep] like that? - [chuckles] 1003 00:37:55,333 --> 00:37:56,542 - Is that how it goes? 1004 00:37:56,625 --> 00:37:58,167 - Yeah, it's just like a Mack truck... 1005 00:37:58,250 --> 00:37:59,500 - Yeah, right? 1006 00:37:59,583 --> 00:38:01,125 - Driving furiously down the road. 1007 00:38:01,208 --> 00:38:03,167 - That's what it is, right? I got it. 1008 00:38:03,208 --> 00:38:04,750 - What's meant for you will never pass you. 1009 00:38:04,833 --> 00:38:05,958 - I like mine better-- 1010 00:38:06,042 --> 00:38:07,917 what's meant for you will hit you and not pass you. 1011 00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:09,333 That one's better. 1012 00:38:09,417 --> 00:38:10,667 - Yours sounds a lot like a car accident. 1013 00:38:10,750 --> 00:38:12,208 - No, mine's better. You're right. 1014 00:38:12,292 --> 00:38:13,792 - Yeah. Mm. 1015 00:38:13,875 --> 00:38:15,333 - What's meant for you will hit you and not pass you. 1016 00:38:15,375 --> 00:38:17,333 We did it. - Okay. 1017 00:38:17,375 --> 00:38:19,375 - There we go. - Mm. 1018 00:38:19,500 --> 00:38:22,333 - And I know we've had a lot of good conversations 1019 00:38:22,417 --> 00:38:24,333 on where our feelings have been at, 1020 00:38:24,458 --> 00:38:28,167 where our heads have been at kind of leading to this day. 1021 00:38:28,250 --> 00:38:31,000 I'm very grateful that you've given me 1022 00:38:31,042 --> 00:38:34,375 you know, the grace to kind of talk through what I'm feeling. 1023 00:38:34,458 --> 00:38:35,667 - At the end of the day, 1024 00:38:35,750 --> 00:38:37,667 I think in the amount of time we've spent, 1025 00:38:37,750 --> 00:38:39,500 the one question that we probably both have is, 1026 00:38:39,583 --> 00:38:41,750 has enough of that connection built 1027 00:38:41,750 --> 00:38:44,458 that we feel like we need forever? 1028 00:38:44,542 --> 00:38:49,292 And are we in a place where we want to keep working on it? 1029 00:38:49,375 --> 00:38:51,792 A lot to think about. - Mm-hmm. 1030 00:38:51,875 --> 00:38:53,333 ♪ 1031 00:38:53,417 --> 00:38:55,250 I haven't had to face forever before. 1032 00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:57,458 - Mm. - [laughs] 1033 00:38:57,542 --> 00:38:59,625 - Ah, and that's a lot to think about. 1034 00:38:59,708 --> 00:39:02,208 So I might not sleep tonight. - Yeah. 1035 00:39:02,333 --> 00:39:04,208 - [laughs] 1036 00:39:04,333 --> 00:39:06,833 Well, you want to blow this pop stand? 1037 00:39:06,875 --> 00:39:10,208 - I'm going to hang back to get all my animals wrangled up. 1038 00:39:10,208 --> 00:39:11,333 - Sounds like a plan. 1039 00:39:11,417 --> 00:39:12,833 - You got all your stuff? - Got it all. 1040 00:39:12,875 --> 00:39:17,250 - And the old man? All right. - Mm. Ooh. 1041 00:39:17,333 --> 00:39:20,000 - Mm-hmm. - Eek. 1042 00:39:20,125 --> 00:39:21,667 ♪ 1043 00:39:21,792 --> 00:39:23,875 - ♪ Happy and fine in the sunlight ♪ 1044 00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:25,125 ♪ Light 1045 00:39:25,208 --> 00:39:26,875 ♪ 1046 00:39:30,875 --> 00:39:32,708 [serious music] 1047 00:39:32,708 --> 00:39:39,292 ♪ 1048 00:39:39,375 --> 00:39:42,500 - ♪ Never thought I could feel this way ♪ 1049 00:39:42,583 --> 00:39:44,833 - All right, we're here. Decision Day is upon us. 1050 00:39:44,917 --> 00:39:47,833 You know, I'm feeling good about where I'm at. 1051 00:39:47,917 --> 00:39:49,583 You know, obviously, I took this time 1052 00:39:49,667 --> 00:39:51,208 to do a lot of introspection, 1053 00:39:51,292 --> 00:39:53,917 a lot of just, you know, self-reflection, 1054 00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:56,833 really kind of hone in on how I feel. 1055 00:39:56,875 --> 00:40:01,667 - ♪ I'll hold you close, I'll be here until the end ♪ 1056 00:40:01,708 --> 00:40:05,583 - This morning I'm feeling a little apprehension, 1057 00:40:05,667 --> 00:40:07,708 definitely feeling nervous, 1058 00:40:07,833 --> 00:40:09,500 definitely feeling a little scared, 1059 00:40:09,583 --> 00:40:11,500 definitely feeling a little overwhelmed. 1060 00:40:11,583 --> 00:40:14,500 I'm really hoping that I make the right decision. 1061 00:40:14,583 --> 00:40:16,417 - I feel really good coming into this Decision Day. 1062 00:40:16,542 --> 00:40:18,458 I feel really confident about where I stand. 1063 00:40:18,542 --> 00:40:22,292 You know, I feel just almost a level of at peace. 1064 00:40:22,375 --> 00:40:23,875 And so, yeah, we'll see how everything goes. 1065 00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:26,000 - It's just this incredible feeling 1066 00:40:26,042 --> 00:40:27,917 and something that I know 1067 00:40:28,000 --> 00:40:29,667 is going to all work out in the end, 1068 00:40:29,750 --> 00:40:31,208 but it's that fear of the unknown. 1069 00:40:31,208 --> 00:40:32,958 ♪ 1070 00:40:33,042 --> 00:40:34,292 [sighs] I don't know where we'll land. 1071 00:40:34,375 --> 00:40:37,750 ♪ 1072 00:40:37,833 --> 00:40:40,583 - ♪ It's our time, it's our life ♪ 1073 00:40:40,667 --> 00:40:43,375 ♪ And we're all we can want 1074 00:40:43,542 --> 00:40:46,417 ♪ It's too short not to try 1075 00:40:46,500 --> 00:40:48,667 ♪ You've already won 1076 00:40:48,708 --> 00:40:51,208 ♪ 1077 00:40:51,333 --> 00:40:52,458 - [sighs] 1078 00:40:52,542 --> 00:40:54,042 - Wow. - All right. 1079 00:40:54,125 --> 00:40:55,667 - I know. 1080 00:40:55,708 --> 00:40:57,792 - Well, here we are again. 1081 00:40:57,875 --> 00:41:00,333 It's Decision Day. Never done this before. 1082 00:41:00,375 --> 00:41:02,333 - Well, I hope we never have to do it again. 1083 00:41:02,417 --> 00:41:03,792 [laughter] - I know, right. 1084 00:41:03,875 --> 00:41:05,333 Oh, my goodness. 1085 00:41:05,375 --> 00:41:08,000 - It was such a shock, and I'm just so glad 1086 00:41:08,042 --> 00:41:10,417 that there's second chances, right? 1087 00:41:10,500 --> 00:41:12,417 - Yeah. I don't know-- how you guys think 1088 00:41:12,500 --> 00:41:13,792 that things are looking for them? 1089 00:41:13,875 --> 00:41:16,208 - You know, they had this idyllic period 1090 00:41:16,292 --> 00:41:18,875 where I thought, you know, he's our Cinderfella. 1091 00:41:18,958 --> 00:41:20,667 You know, it's just going to be great. 1092 00:41:20,708 --> 00:41:22,083 - Yeah. - But there feels, like, 1093 00:41:22,167 --> 00:41:23,625 a shift in the mood. - Yeah. 1094 00:41:23,708 --> 00:41:25,625 I know that he has had some questions 1095 00:41:25,708 --> 00:41:27,667 about whether or not he's ready for marriage. 1096 00:41:27,708 --> 00:41:31,458 And I don't understand. - I don't either. 1097 00:41:31,542 --> 00:41:33,583 - I don't get it. - I mean, the three of us sat 1098 00:41:33,708 --> 00:41:35,625 and listened to him--about how much he was willing 1099 00:41:35,625 --> 00:41:37,750 to be rematched... - Yes. 1100 00:41:37,875 --> 00:41:39,667 - Yeah. - And how articulate 1101 00:41:39,708 --> 00:41:41,750 he was about now he knew he wanted to be married. 1102 00:41:41,833 --> 00:41:43,708 - Mm-hmm. - He thought he wanted before, 1103 00:41:43,792 --> 00:41:45,292 but now he knows it. - Mm-hmm. 1104 00:41:45,375 --> 00:41:47,958 - And he was just exactly 1105 00:41:48,042 --> 00:41:49,708 what we would hope for... - Absolutely. 1106 00:41:49,833 --> 00:41:51,917 - A level of commitment we would hope for. 1107 00:41:52,000 --> 00:41:55,000 So what about him has made him unready now? 1108 00:41:55,083 --> 00:41:56,625 - I don't know. 1109 00:41:56,708 --> 00:41:58,375 But we know what the successful marriages look like. 1110 00:41:58,458 --> 00:42:00,042 - Right. 1111 00:42:00,125 --> 00:42:01,875 - And I believe that they could be one of those. 1112 00:42:02,000 --> 00:42:03,333 - Mm. - Totally. 1113 00:42:03,417 --> 00:42:05,375 - Because we've seen people succeed with less 1114 00:42:05,458 --> 00:42:08,292 going for them than they have. - Mm. Sure. 1115 00:42:08,375 --> 00:42:09,875 - You know? 1116 00:42:10,000 --> 00:42:11,750 - And I think we've seen a different level of maturity 1117 00:42:11,875 --> 00:42:13,917 with the two of them, right, in that-- 1118 00:42:14,000 --> 00:42:16,042 the way that they're looking at life, 1119 00:42:16,125 --> 00:42:17,833 the way that they're looking at each other, 1120 00:42:17,875 --> 00:42:19,708 the way that they're being introspective. 1121 00:42:19,792 --> 00:42:21,917 - I hope they can just see the value in what they have. 1122 00:42:22,000 --> 00:42:23,292 - I hope so, too. 1123 00:42:23,375 --> 00:42:25,667 ♪ 1124 00:42:25,750 --> 00:42:29,208 - ♪ So long I've waited for a chance to shine ♪ 1125 00:42:29,292 --> 00:42:33,333 ♪ I've been so patient, I've been so patient ♪ 1126 00:42:33,375 --> 00:42:35,875 ♪ Hmm, hmm 1127 00:42:35,958 --> 00:42:38,083 - Right when I saw Chloe walk down the aisle, 1128 00:42:38,208 --> 00:42:40,000 I thought she was beautiful. 1129 00:42:40,125 --> 00:42:42,833 I saw those pink Chucks, so I already liked the vibe 1130 00:42:42,917 --> 00:42:44,542 that she was coming up there with. 1131 00:42:44,625 --> 00:42:46,583 May I? - Yes. 1132 00:42:46,708 --> 00:42:50,333 - ♪ More than a thousand times ♪ 1133 00:42:50,417 --> 00:42:52,792 - What I really like about Chloe is just how caring 1134 00:42:52,875 --> 00:42:54,375 and selfless she is. 1135 00:42:54,458 --> 00:42:56,042 She always puts others first. 1136 00:42:56,125 --> 00:42:58,792 She's so mindful of, like, how everyone feels. 1137 00:42:58,875 --> 00:43:00,417 She's just really one of the most selfless people 1138 00:43:00,542 --> 00:43:01,708 I've ever met. 1139 00:43:01,792 --> 00:43:05,542 - We have made it back to the apartment. 1140 00:43:05,667 --> 00:43:08,458 All of the babies are doing so great. 1141 00:43:08,542 --> 00:43:09,833 - It's crazy. 1142 00:43:10,000 --> 00:43:12,625 The easiest parts about being married to Chloe 1143 00:43:12,708 --> 00:43:14,708 were what I thought were going to be the hardest parts. 1144 00:43:14,792 --> 00:43:16,500 - I'm gonna give you the closet choice. 1145 00:43:16,583 --> 00:43:17,958 - Okay. - Welcome home, Michael. 1146 00:43:18,042 --> 00:43:19,542 - Thank you. 1147 00:43:19,625 --> 00:43:21,167 Living together-- I thought that [bleep] 1148 00:43:21,208 --> 00:43:23,500 was going to be a struggle, and it was so easy. 1149 00:43:23,542 --> 00:43:25,167 This is your morning routine right? 1150 00:43:25,208 --> 00:43:27,167 - That's really sweet. 1151 00:43:27,250 --> 00:43:28,583 - I think a lot of the times 1152 00:43:28,667 --> 00:43:30,500 we just have fun with each other. 1153 00:43:30,625 --> 00:43:32,583 And the thing with fun is, it's infectious. 1154 00:43:32,667 --> 00:43:34,667 - I am in it to win it. 1155 00:43:34,750 --> 00:43:37,333 - ♪ Best day of my life 1156 00:43:37,375 --> 00:43:39,500 - Oh, I have to go forward? - You have to come to me. 1157 00:43:39,542 --> 00:43:41,500 ♪ 1158 00:43:41,542 --> 00:43:43,333 - I know the way we kind of envisioned 1159 00:43:43,417 --> 00:43:45,167 our lives independently 1160 00:43:45,208 --> 00:43:47,792 before we met each other was a lot different. 1161 00:43:47,875 --> 00:43:50,208 - So my dream, actually, has always been 1162 00:43:50,333 --> 00:43:53,250 since I was a little kiddo, to have an animal sanctuary. 1163 00:43:53,375 --> 00:43:57,292 - Our values are aligned, but the key differentiator 1164 00:43:57,375 --> 00:43:59,000 is that there are certain things 1165 00:43:59,083 --> 00:44:00,833 that she's just much more passionate about than I am. 1166 00:44:00,958 --> 00:44:03,333 How many foster children are in this dream of yours? 1167 00:44:03,375 --> 00:44:05,667 - Maybe five at a time. 1168 00:44:05,750 --> 00:44:08,375 - Chloe is the best partner possible. 1169 00:44:08,458 --> 00:44:11,792 - If Decision Day was tomorrow, 1170 00:44:11,875 --> 00:44:14,417 you might be feeling like it's a no. 1171 00:44:14,542 --> 00:44:18,333 - I would be feeling like I have insufficient data. 1172 00:44:18,417 --> 00:44:21,667 But I just don't know if I'm in an emotional place 1173 00:44:21,792 --> 00:44:24,083 to continue building this marriage. 1174 00:44:24,208 --> 00:44:26,708 ♪ 1175 00:44:26,792 --> 00:44:29,667 - ♪ Now the feeling of 1176 00:44:29,708 --> 00:44:32,042 ♪ Finally got me out 1177 00:44:32,125 --> 00:44:34,333 - When I first met Michael, I thought, 1178 00:44:34,417 --> 00:44:36,583 my husband knows how to dress. 1179 00:44:36,708 --> 00:44:39,583 - Blazer, dress shirts, sweater, 1180 00:44:39,667 --> 00:44:41,667 more sweaters, extra shoes. - [laughs] 1181 00:44:41,750 --> 00:44:46,542 Michael is intelligent, kind, funny, and thoughtful. 1182 00:44:46,625 --> 00:44:48,208 - With the impact you're going to make 1183 00:44:48,292 --> 00:44:49,708 on this world versus me, 1184 00:44:49,792 --> 00:44:51,833 you are a much better human than I am. 1185 00:44:51,917 --> 00:44:54,417 - Bring those out. Dang. 1186 00:44:54,500 --> 00:44:58,542 Like, this is probably the healthiest relationship 1187 00:44:58,625 --> 00:45:00,958 I've ever been in in my entire life. 1188 00:45:01,042 --> 00:45:04,625 As much as Michael has made me feel comfortable and at home, 1189 00:45:04,708 --> 00:45:06,792 we are both very different. 1190 00:45:06,875 --> 00:45:09,000 - An animal sanctuary doesn't scare me. 1191 00:45:09,167 --> 00:45:12,167 An animal sanctuary with 500 animals scares me. 1192 00:45:12,250 --> 00:45:14,667 Fostering children doesn't scare me. 1193 00:45:14,708 --> 00:45:17,375 Fostering five of them scares me. 1194 00:45:17,375 --> 00:45:19,708 ♪ 1195 00:45:19,792 --> 00:45:24,500 - He and I may not have the same goals or align 1196 00:45:24,542 --> 00:45:27,583 in the ways that we need to when we look at the future. 1197 00:45:27,667 --> 00:45:29,708 And I'm afraid that could complicate 1198 00:45:29,792 --> 00:45:32,000 continuing to forge a relationship. 1199 00:45:32,042 --> 00:45:34,208 But despite Michael and I being different, 1200 00:45:34,292 --> 00:45:36,000 I can't imagine my life without him, 1201 00:45:36,083 --> 00:45:37,750 and I'm still so conflicted. 1202 00:45:37,833 --> 00:45:41,000 [dramatic music] 1203 00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:42,833 ♪ 1204 00:45:46,625 --> 00:45:48,000 - ♪ I'm going to try 1205 00:45:48,000 --> 00:45:49,833 ♪ 1206 00:45:49,917 --> 00:45:52,292 ♪ Up to the mountaintop 1207 00:45:52,375 --> 00:45:56,458 ♪ Up to the mountaintop to say ♪ 1208 00:45:56,542 --> 00:46:02,542 ♪ No, I'm gonna try 1209 00:46:02,667 --> 00:46:05,833 [dramatic music] 1210 00:46:05,958 --> 00:46:07,125 - What's going on, man? 1211 00:46:07,208 --> 00:46:08,500 - How are you guys? - Hey, hey. 1212 00:46:08,542 --> 00:46:10,000 - We're good. 1213 00:46:10,083 --> 00:46:12,125 - Man, you're always stepping it up. 1214 00:46:12,208 --> 00:46:14,333 - Before thinking of the weather, I committed to this. 1215 00:46:14,417 --> 00:46:15,875 - Yeah - It works. 1216 00:46:15,958 --> 00:46:17,167 - You're always stepping it up, man. 1217 00:46:17,250 --> 00:46:19,500 - Hello. So good to see you again. 1218 00:46:19,625 --> 00:46:21,250 - Nice to see you. - Good to see you. 1219 00:46:21,375 --> 00:46:23,833 - Oh, I love the velvet. - Oh, thank you. 1220 00:46:23,917 --> 00:46:25,875 - I don't have the legs for that. 1221 00:46:25,958 --> 00:46:27,833 - Neither do I, but I'm forcing it. 1222 00:46:27,875 --> 00:46:29,667 [laughter] I'm trying to make it happen. 1223 00:46:29,792 --> 00:46:31,875 I'm willing it into existence. - There you go. 1224 00:46:32,000 --> 00:46:34,208 - I like it. - Thank you. 1225 00:46:34,292 --> 00:46:36,417 - It's like she's on a runway. - Yes. 1226 00:46:36,500 --> 00:46:38,375 - Hello. - You better walk. 1227 00:46:38,458 --> 00:46:39,833 - You better walk, girl. 1228 00:46:39,917 --> 00:46:41,750 [laughter] 1229 00:46:41,833 --> 00:46:43,917 - Look at you looking gorgeous. 1230 00:46:44,042 --> 00:46:45,625 - Hello. - She's back. 1231 00:46:45,708 --> 00:46:47,000 - Hi. 1232 00:46:47,083 --> 00:46:49,708 [indistinct chatter] 1233 00:46:49,792 --> 00:46:52,042 - [laughs] 1234 00:46:52,125 --> 00:46:54,833 - Oh, it's so good to see you. It truly is. 1235 00:46:54,917 --> 00:46:57,083 How are you feeling today? 1236 00:46:57,167 --> 00:46:59,292 Where's your head, and where's your heart at? 1237 00:46:59,375 --> 00:47:01,667 - You know, I... 1238 00:47:01,750 --> 00:47:04,917 I can say that I've just loved every moment. 1239 00:47:04,917 --> 00:47:08,375 I've really enjoyed getting to know Michael 1240 00:47:08,458 --> 00:47:12,000 and spending time with him and waking up next to him. 1241 00:47:12,083 --> 00:47:13,000 ♪ 1242 00:47:13,125 --> 00:47:15,375 You know, it's funny. 1243 00:47:15,458 --> 00:47:19,000 I mean, I had anxiety attacks and panic attacks 1244 00:47:19,083 --> 00:47:21,583 and every other darn attack you could imagine 1245 00:47:21,667 --> 00:47:25,833 leading into us moving into that apartment together. 1246 00:47:25,917 --> 00:47:28,292 And then it was just easy. - Yeah. 1247 00:47:28,375 --> 00:47:32,167 And for me, like, just getting to learn about Chloe, 1248 00:47:32,250 --> 00:47:34,917 getting to know her, getting to see 1249 00:47:35,042 --> 00:47:37,667 all the wonderful qualities that she possesses, 1250 00:47:37,792 --> 00:47:39,292 things that overlapped, 1251 00:47:39,375 --> 00:47:42,708 like, oh, I think I'm a pretty strong communicator. 1252 00:47:42,792 --> 00:47:45,750 She's a very effective communicator. 1253 00:47:45,833 --> 00:47:50,333 I want to be more empathetic. She is the model of empathy. 1254 00:47:50,375 --> 00:47:53,500 And when you're around someone that you can honestly say 1255 00:47:53,583 --> 00:47:57,708 is, like, a better human than you, 1256 00:47:57,833 --> 00:48:00,167 like, it touches you. 1257 00:48:00,250 --> 00:48:03,000 ♪ 1258 00:48:03,042 --> 00:48:05,042 - That was really beautiful. 1259 00:48:05,125 --> 00:48:06,833 - That's an extraordinary compliment. 1260 00:48:06,875 --> 00:48:08,333 - Yeah, it is. 1261 00:48:08,458 --> 00:48:10,292 I was looking at Chloe's face as you were saying that. 1262 00:48:10,375 --> 00:48:11,958 I don't know that you got to see her expressions. 1263 00:48:12,042 --> 00:48:13,333 But, Chloe, what was it like to hear that? 1264 00:48:13,417 --> 00:48:15,958 - [sighs] 1265 00:48:16,042 --> 00:48:18,833 It's just a really... 1266 00:48:18,917 --> 00:48:22,000 it's a beautiful thing when someone sort of sees you 1267 00:48:22,042 --> 00:48:24,000 and hears you and understands you. 1268 00:48:24,083 --> 00:48:26,333 - So where are the challenges? 1269 00:48:26,417 --> 00:48:28,500 - I think Michael-- 1270 00:48:28,625 --> 00:48:31,125 it was probably a little more difficult for him 1271 00:48:31,208 --> 00:48:33,750 to settle in and let all of his walls down. 1272 00:48:33,833 --> 00:48:35,500 And I feel like, once they came down, 1273 00:48:35,625 --> 00:48:38,500 that's probably where things got a little scary for him. 1274 00:48:38,583 --> 00:48:39,917 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1275 00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:42,167 - That's where the seeds of doubt were planted. 1276 00:48:42,250 --> 00:48:44,583 So the further into the journey that we got, 1277 00:48:44,667 --> 00:48:46,917 the more Michael was overwhelmed 1278 00:48:47,042 --> 00:48:49,500 with the idea of marriage. 1279 00:48:49,583 --> 00:48:50,833 ♪ 1280 00:48:50,875 --> 00:48:52,458 - Hmm. - Hmm. 1281 00:48:52,542 --> 00:48:54,958 - Michael is... 1282 00:48:55,042 --> 00:48:58,125 has been very clear as the days have gone on 1283 00:48:58,208 --> 00:49:01,875 that it's just been more than he was expecting. 1284 00:49:02,000 --> 00:49:03,667 - How does that-- 1285 00:49:03,750 --> 00:49:05,125 You know, I can just see you say that 1286 00:49:05,208 --> 00:49:08,583 with some emotion. - Yeah. 1287 00:49:08,667 --> 00:49:11,208 - How does that make you feel? 1288 00:49:11,292 --> 00:49:12,833 - [sighs] It's just difficult to verbalize. 1289 00:49:12,875 --> 00:49:15,042 I... 1290 00:49:15,125 --> 00:49:16,792 Natural inclination 1291 00:49:16,875 --> 00:49:18,542 is to personalize, right? - Mm. 1292 00:49:18,667 --> 00:49:20,042 - It's like, oh, well, if you don't want to be married 1293 00:49:20,125 --> 00:49:21,625 and you're married, 1294 00:49:21,708 --> 00:49:23,750 it's got to be that you don't want to be married to me. 1295 00:49:23,833 --> 00:49:25,875 And then, automatically, empath. 1296 00:49:26,000 --> 00:49:27,833 - Yeah. - Seeds of doubt are felt. 1297 00:49:27,917 --> 00:49:30,958 Well, holy cow, now I've got to plant my own. 1298 00:49:31,042 --> 00:49:32,792 They were there. 1299 00:49:32,875 --> 00:49:34,667 I just didn't water them. [laughs] 1300 00:49:34,750 --> 00:49:36,333 And now they're being watered. 1301 00:49:36,375 --> 00:49:38,000 ♪ 1302 00:49:38,042 --> 00:49:40,083 I think the red flags that we ignore in the beginning 1303 00:49:40,083 --> 00:49:42,208 are what ends us eventually. 1304 00:49:42,333 --> 00:49:45,500 Maybe we... 1305 00:49:45,583 --> 00:49:48,792 aren't the match that we have been up to this point 1306 00:49:48,875 --> 00:49:50,500 because we, you know, 1307 00:49:50,583 --> 00:49:52,792 just spent too much time in our heads. 1308 00:49:52,875 --> 00:49:54,792 - I would urge you... 1309 00:49:54,875 --> 00:49:56,375 whatever its issues are, 1310 00:49:56,500 --> 00:49:59,125 that if you feel there's possibilities, 1311 00:49:59,208 --> 00:50:01,708 to fight for it, to fight for it here. 1312 00:50:01,708 --> 00:50:04,000 From my point of view... 1313 00:50:04,042 --> 00:50:06,167 what you two have had deserves that. 1314 00:50:06,250 --> 00:50:09,083 - I'm the all-in, or I'm the all-out. 1315 00:50:09,167 --> 00:50:11,500 And I need a partner that is very much the same. 1316 00:50:11,542 --> 00:50:13,375 ♪ 1317 00:50:17,208 --> 00:50:18,750 [dramatic music] 1318 00:50:18,750 --> 00:50:22,292 ♪ 1319 00:50:22,375 --> 00:50:24,458 - In this process, we often ask people 1320 00:50:24,542 --> 00:50:26,583 to exchange their hopes and dreams. 1321 00:50:26,667 --> 00:50:29,708 And I wonder if those hopes and dreams start to sound 1322 00:50:29,792 --> 00:50:34,000 like requirements as opposed to just hopes and dreams. 1323 00:50:34,083 --> 00:50:37,000 I wonder if, to some extent, they were scary. 1324 00:50:37,083 --> 00:50:40,000 - Yeah, I think... 1325 00:50:40,083 --> 00:50:42,375 the blessing and the curse of this journey is, 1326 00:50:42,458 --> 00:50:44,792 we don't have the gift of time, 1327 00:50:44,875 --> 00:50:46,458 and, therefore, we have got to show 1328 00:50:46,458 --> 00:50:48,125 every single last possible element 1329 00:50:48,208 --> 00:50:49,667 of who it is that we are 1330 00:50:49,750 --> 00:50:52,208 to make sure that we are a good match for each other. 1331 00:50:52,292 --> 00:50:54,625 And I would imagine having an animal sanctuary 1332 00:50:54,708 --> 00:50:57,000 is a little scary for someone that isn't necessarily looking 1333 00:50:57,083 --> 00:50:59,042 to have an animal sanctuary. 1334 00:50:59,125 --> 00:51:01,417 And adopting kiddos and fostering kiddos-- 1335 00:51:01,500 --> 00:51:04,167 I mean, these were all me journeys. 1336 00:51:04,250 --> 00:51:08,458 But then when I became a we, things change, you know. 1337 00:51:08,542 --> 00:51:11,083 These things were meaningful to me when I was a me. 1338 00:51:11,208 --> 00:51:13,833 And now as a we, we navigate things differently. 1339 00:51:13,833 --> 00:51:15,875 ♪ 1340 00:51:15,958 --> 00:51:18,250 - Yeah, and for me, like... 1341 00:51:18,333 --> 00:51:21,042 Obviously, we have a strong connection. 1342 00:51:21,125 --> 00:51:24,667 Obviously, we built a really good emotional bond 1343 00:51:24,667 --> 00:51:25,833 and trust with each other. 1344 00:51:25,875 --> 00:51:28,125 Like, I have... 1345 00:51:28,208 --> 00:51:30,542 nothing that I could point to at Chloe 1346 00:51:30,625 --> 00:51:34,167 and be, like, you know, this is what's causing me doubt. 1347 00:51:34,250 --> 00:51:36,917 I think, for me, it was like... 1348 00:51:37,000 --> 00:51:39,333 there is a different intention 1349 00:51:39,375 --> 00:51:41,250 with marriage and, quite frankly, for me, 1350 00:51:41,333 --> 00:51:43,000 a different expectation. - Mm-hmm. 1351 00:51:43,083 --> 00:51:47,292 - You know, I want to be in a place 1352 00:51:47,375 --> 00:51:51,458 with, like, a confidence and desire to continue a marriage. 1353 00:51:51,542 --> 00:51:53,125 - Yeah. 1354 00:51:53,208 --> 00:51:54,833 - And I think that's what's challenging for me. 1355 00:51:54,875 --> 00:51:56,875 - I think that sometimes 1356 00:51:56,875 --> 00:52:00,000 we can sort of overanalyze and-- 1357 00:52:00,042 --> 00:52:01,750 - It is one of my biggest faults. 1358 00:52:01,833 --> 00:52:04,167 - [groans] Yeah. 1359 00:52:04,250 --> 00:52:07,167 It's the paralysis of analysis. 1360 00:52:07,292 --> 00:52:08,333 You know? - Yeah. 1361 00:52:08,458 --> 00:52:10,417 - That's a good way to put it. 1362 00:52:10,500 --> 00:52:12,792 - It's like you think yourself out of a thing... 1363 00:52:12,875 --> 00:52:14,167 - Yeah. 1364 00:52:14,208 --> 00:52:17,042 - You know, instead of stepping back 1365 00:52:17,125 --> 00:52:19,208 and looking at the value, 1366 00:52:19,292 --> 00:52:21,250 looking at the beauty and saying, you know what? 1367 00:52:21,333 --> 00:52:24,667 This is good. Just empirically, this is good. 1368 00:52:24,750 --> 00:52:26,208 - Yeah. 1369 00:52:26,333 --> 00:52:29,542 - I mean, my gut, my guiding compass in all this 1370 00:52:29,708 --> 00:52:31,667 is how it made me feel. 1371 00:52:31,750 --> 00:52:34,417 And how do I feel coming into the day? 1372 00:52:34,500 --> 00:52:36,833 How do I feel about thinking about the future? 1373 00:52:36,917 --> 00:52:38,208 What does that make me feel? 1374 00:52:38,333 --> 00:52:40,167 It becomes difficult 1375 00:52:40,292 --> 00:52:42,833 to be able to fully explain that, 1376 00:52:42,917 --> 00:52:46,458 but I would want to at least make the concerted effort 1377 00:52:46,542 --> 00:52:49,542 to say that I am using that as my compass. 1378 00:52:49,625 --> 00:52:52,000 - May I challenge you just a little bit on that? 1379 00:52:52,042 --> 00:52:53,500 - Please do. I'm always here for it. 1380 00:52:53,542 --> 00:52:55,167 - Okay. I think it's really important for us 1381 00:52:55,250 --> 00:52:56,542 to listen to our feelings. 1382 00:52:56,625 --> 00:52:58,542 How are you feeling when you're with Chloe? 1383 00:52:58,625 --> 00:53:00,000 - Mm-hmm. 1384 00:53:00,125 --> 00:53:01,917 I mean, when I'm with Chloe, 1385 00:53:02,042 --> 00:53:05,500 I mean, I think it's very easy to see, 1386 00:53:05,542 --> 00:53:07,667 like, we really enjoy each other's company. 1387 00:53:07,708 --> 00:53:10,667 I enjoy my time with Chloe. Chloe does make me happy. 1388 00:53:10,750 --> 00:53:12,917 Chloe makes me feel, you know, very secure. 1389 00:53:13,000 --> 00:53:15,542 A lot of the things that I personally wanted to work on, 1390 00:53:15,625 --> 00:53:18,333 like, she exemplifies them, so-- 1391 00:53:18,417 --> 00:53:20,333 - Can I pause you for a moment and have you check in 1392 00:53:20,458 --> 00:53:22,542 with yourself and recognize when you just started talking 1393 00:53:22,625 --> 00:53:24,458 about Chloe, you started to glow? 1394 00:53:24,542 --> 00:53:25,625 - You did. 1395 00:53:25,708 --> 00:53:27,667 - You started to smile in a different way. 1396 00:53:27,792 --> 00:53:29,750 You let that guard down. You stopped being in your head. 1397 00:53:29,833 --> 00:53:32,917 You stopped intellectualizing, and you talked from your heart. 1398 00:53:33,000 --> 00:53:34,875 Like, I'm just looking at the two of you right now 1399 00:53:34,958 --> 00:53:37,417 and how you're holding on to one another, right? 1400 00:53:37,500 --> 00:53:39,125 And I'm wondering if you are even aware of that, 1401 00:53:39,208 --> 00:53:41,500 even in this moment, 1402 00:53:41,542 --> 00:53:44,000 of the connection that the two of you have? 1403 00:53:44,083 --> 00:53:45,875 Like, it's the nonverbals there, right? 1404 00:53:46,000 --> 00:53:47,833 Like, that's the authenticity that I'm talking about, right? 1405 00:53:47,917 --> 00:53:50,208 Because both of you are so smart, like we've been saying, 1406 00:53:50,292 --> 00:53:52,333 you can intellectualize by the words that you're using. 1407 00:53:52,417 --> 00:53:54,833 But I would encourage you to look at the nonverbals, 1408 00:53:54,875 --> 00:53:57,542 because that, to me, speaks volumes above the verbal. 1409 00:53:57,625 --> 00:53:58,667 - It does. 1410 00:53:58,750 --> 00:54:01,083 ♪ 1411 00:54:01,208 --> 00:54:03,375 - I mean, I... 1412 00:54:03,458 --> 00:54:06,208 I'm aware when it's brought, like, to our attention. 1413 00:54:06,292 --> 00:54:08,167 - [clears throat] Yeah. - But I think sometimes 1414 00:54:08,292 --> 00:54:11,083 it's kind of just, like, I guess, subconscious... 1415 00:54:11,208 --> 00:54:13,417 - Mm-hmm. - To a certain degree. 1416 00:54:13,500 --> 00:54:16,333 It's like, the deference of, like, when she speaks. 1417 00:54:16,417 --> 00:54:18,500 Like, I kind of-- just by default, you know, 1418 00:54:18,542 --> 00:54:20,417 my attention will go to her. - Right. 1419 00:54:20,542 --> 00:54:22,292 - But it's not like something I'm thinking of. 1420 00:54:22,375 --> 00:54:23,833 But, like, when you bring it up, 1421 00:54:23,958 --> 00:54:26,167 it's like, oh, yeah, no, I recognize it now. 1422 00:54:26,208 --> 00:54:27,458 Yeah. - Yeah. 1423 00:54:27,542 --> 00:54:29,833 - Well, the time has come. 1424 00:54:29,917 --> 00:54:32,333 ♪ 1425 00:54:32,417 --> 00:54:35,500 You will decide if you want to stay married... 1426 00:54:35,542 --> 00:54:36,875 ♪ 1427 00:54:36,958 --> 00:54:38,167 Or get a divorce. 1428 00:54:38,250 --> 00:54:39,958 - Oh, that happened fast. 1429 00:54:40,042 --> 00:54:41,000 ♪ 1430 00:54:41,042 --> 00:54:42,625 Oh, gracious. 1431 00:54:42,708 --> 00:54:43,750 ♪ 1432 00:54:43,833 --> 00:54:45,125 My heart's racing. 1433 00:54:45,208 --> 00:54:46,708 [chuckles] 1434 00:54:46,792 --> 00:54:51,792 ♪ 1435 00:54:51,875 --> 00:54:54,708 I... 1436 00:54:54,833 --> 00:54:57,333 came into this journey 1437 00:54:57,417 --> 00:55:01,042 believing in... 1438 00:55:01,125 --> 00:55:03,500 love being a choice 1439 00:55:03,542 --> 00:55:05,833 and not something that we're going to feel 1440 00:55:05,958 --> 00:55:08,917 at every moment of every day. 1441 00:55:09,000 --> 00:55:12,208 And as we think about... 1442 00:55:12,208 --> 00:55:14,208 marriage, every day being a choice 1443 00:55:14,292 --> 00:55:15,792 and really we're saying... 1444 00:55:15,875 --> 00:55:17,167 ♪ 1445 00:55:17,250 --> 00:55:20,667 Is this a period at the end of this story, 1446 00:55:20,750 --> 00:55:24,333 or is it a comma with more to tell? 1447 00:55:24,375 --> 00:55:28,583 And I made a promise to you that I would not make 1448 00:55:28,667 --> 00:55:30,875 this decision until I was sitting right here 1449 00:55:31,000 --> 00:55:32,750 looking at you. 1450 00:55:32,833 --> 00:55:35,500 And I'm really glad I made that promise 1451 00:55:35,625 --> 00:55:38,417 because I'm feeling really differently 1452 00:55:38,500 --> 00:55:41,167 than I anticipated feeling. 1453 00:55:41,250 --> 00:55:44,417 ♪ 1454 00:55:44,500 --> 00:55:47,667 And I think I want to see... 1455 00:55:47,792 --> 00:55:49,667 if we have more story to tell. 1456 00:55:49,708 --> 00:55:52,167 [bright music] 1457 00:55:52,208 --> 00:55:55,167 So I want to keep going. 1458 00:55:55,250 --> 00:56:02,042 ♪ 1459 00:56:08,875 --> 00:56:10,542 - I came into this 1460 00:56:10,625 --> 00:56:15,458 knowing that I was going to be leaning heavily on you. 1461 00:56:15,542 --> 00:56:17,500 I was going to be leaning heavily on this journey 1462 00:56:17,542 --> 00:56:20,833 to put me in a position where... 1463 00:56:20,917 --> 00:56:22,792 [dramatic music] 1464 00:56:22,875 --> 00:56:25,125 I could feel... 1465 00:56:25,208 --> 00:56:29,958 confident and optimistic enough, 1466 00:56:30,042 --> 00:56:32,167 because I knew there was going to always be a level of doubt-- 1467 00:56:32,208 --> 00:56:34,750 there was always going to be a level of concern that I have-- 1468 00:56:34,875 --> 00:56:36,875 but just enough to where I could say, 1469 00:56:36,958 --> 00:56:39,333 let's continue working... 1470 00:56:39,417 --> 00:56:40,500 ♪ 1471 00:56:40,542 --> 00:56:42,042 On this marriage. 1472 00:56:42,167 --> 00:56:44,125 And I... 1473 00:56:46,083 --> 00:56:49,250 Feel that... 1474 00:56:49,333 --> 00:56:53,250 I, in this moment, feel like I have to lean 1475 00:56:53,333 --> 00:56:55,333 into what my compass has been, 1476 00:56:55,375 --> 00:56:57,375 and that's just how I feel 1477 00:56:57,458 --> 00:57:01,000 about the ability to... 1478 00:57:01,083 --> 00:57:03,292 develop and work on a marriage. 1479 00:57:03,375 --> 00:57:04,667 ♪ 1480 00:57:04,708 --> 00:57:06,000 And I... 1481 00:57:06,083 --> 00:57:08,375 ♪ 1482 00:57:12,250 --> 00:57:13,667 [dramatic music] 1483 00:57:13,667 --> 00:57:15,750 ♪ 1484 00:57:15,833 --> 00:57:18,250 I feel that... 1485 00:57:18,333 --> 00:57:21,708 I... 1486 00:57:21,792 --> 00:57:25,833 I have to lean into what my compass has been, 1487 00:57:25,875 --> 00:57:28,833 and that's just how I feel about the ability 1488 00:57:28,875 --> 00:57:32,333 to develop and work on a marriage. 1489 00:57:32,458 --> 00:57:34,792 - Mm-hmm. 1490 00:57:34,875 --> 00:57:37,833 - And I just don't feel that I can do that 1491 00:57:37,833 --> 00:57:39,875 to the degree 1492 00:57:39,958 --> 00:57:43,708 that I would be comfortable and confident in, 1493 00:57:43,792 --> 00:57:46,042 but, more importantly, that you would deserve. 1494 00:57:46,125 --> 00:57:47,958 ♪ 1495 00:57:48,042 --> 00:57:51,208 And even though I'm choosing divorce, 1496 00:57:51,333 --> 00:57:56,167 I hope you understand that that doesn't change anything 1497 00:57:56,250 --> 00:57:57,875 that I said about you... - I know. 1498 00:57:57,958 --> 00:58:00,167 - And how I feel about you as a person. 1499 00:58:00,250 --> 00:58:02,167 - Yep. I know. 1500 00:58:02,250 --> 00:58:03,833 ♪ 1501 00:58:03,875 --> 00:58:06,625 Same. 1502 00:58:06,708 --> 00:58:08,750 That never ever, ever, ever will. 1503 00:58:08,875 --> 00:58:10,083 ♪ 1504 00:58:10,167 --> 00:58:12,917 And I... 1505 00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:15,667 I will think the world of you forever. 1506 00:58:15,708 --> 00:58:17,917 And I hope you're in my life forever in some capacity, 1507 00:58:18,042 --> 00:58:20,000 but you are a good man. 1508 00:58:20,125 --> 00:58:21,500 ♪ 1509 00:58:21,583 --> 00:58:23,458 - Wow. - [scoffs] 1510 00:58:23,542 --> 00:58:25,042 [chuckles] - Yeah. 1511 00:58:25,208 --> 00:58:26,583 ♪ 1512 00:58:28,875 --> 00:58:31,292 - I won't lie 1513 00:58:31,375 --> 00:58:34,500 and say that I'm not disappointed, 1514 00:58:34,542 --> 00:58:39,458 because I see so much. 1515 00:58:39,542 --> 00:58:41,500 I see so much. - Yeah. 1516 00:58:41,542 --> 00:58:43,417 - Yeah, I mean, me too. 1517 00:58:43,500 --> 00:58:44,667 I feel... 1518 00:58:44,750 --> 00:58:47,000 [serious music] 1519 00:58:47,083 --> 00:58:49,167 Sad. 1520 00:58:49,250 --> 00:58:50,917 Sad. 1521 00:58:51,042 --> 00:58:54,875 ♪ 1522 00:58:54,958 --> 00:58:58,958 Obviously, hearing Chloe's desire 1523 00:58:59,042 --> 00:59:00,833 to move forward and... 1524 00:59:00,917 --> 00:59:02,500 ♪ 1525 00:59:02,583 --> 00:59:05,875 Hitting that realization of, like... 1526 00:59:05,958 --> 00:59:09,917 you strive to be this person, but in this defining moment, 1527 00:59:10,042 --> 00:59:12,500 like, you're not... 1528 00:59:12,625 --> 00:59:14,875 that person, at least not yet. 1529 00:59:14,958 --> 00:59:16,833 [stammers] 1530 00:59:16,875 --> 00:59:19,375 There's a tremendous amount of sadness 1531 00:59:19,500 --> 00:59:22,167 that kind of goes with that. 1532 00:59:22,208 --> 00:59:23,167 - Yeah. 1533 00:59:23,292 --> 00:59:25,542 - Uh... 1534 00:59:25,625 --> 00:59:27,708 well, thank you both for the bravery 1535 00:59:27,792 --> 00:59:29,125 and heart you've shown. 1536 00:59:29,208 --> 00:59:33,250 And we just wish the best for both of you. 1537 00:59:33,333 --> 00:59:35,250 We have a lot of admiration. 1538 00:59:35,333 --> 00:59:36,625 So thank you. 1539 00:59:36,708 --> 00:59:39,833 - Even though I feel sad saying no, 1540 00:59:39,958 --> 00:59:42,750 I also feel that that's the right choice for me. 1541 00:59:42,833 --> 00:59:45,583 You know, as clear and confident in my decision 1542 00:59:45,583 --> 00:59:47,208 as I feel, 1543 00:59:47,292 --> 00:59:49,583 down the road, I may look back on this and think, 1544 00:59:49,583 --> 00:59:52,042 wow, I should have done something different. 1545 00:59:52,125 --> 00:59:56,042 But, you know, as I search through how I feel 1546 00:59:56,125 --> 00:59:58,917 and hone in on that, 1547 00:59:59,000 --> 01:00:01,167 I know that I can't say yes. 1548 01:00:01,250 --> 01:00:03,083 - Ah... 1549 01:00:04,542 --> 01:00:06,500 Mm. 1550 01:00:06,625 --> 01:00:08,250 ♪ 1551 01:00:08,375 --> 01:00:11,167 - For me, I'm not surprised hearing him say no. 1552 01:00:11,208 --> 01:00:13,875 He's not ready to give me 1553 01:00:13,958 --> 01:00:15,958 everything it is that I need from him. 1554 01:00:16,042 --> 01:00:19,833 ♪ 1555 01:00:19,833 --> 01:00:22,667 And I don't want to waste any time 1556 01:00:22,708 --> 01:00:25,333 building a relationship with someone that's not ready 1557 01:00:25,375 --> 01:00:27,208 to reciprocate what I need. 1558 01:00:27,292 --> 01:00:28,750 ♪ 1559 01:00:28,833 --> 01:00:32,458 But that's not to say that I didn't believe 1560 01:00:32,542 --> 01:00:34,375 there could have been something more. 1561 01:00:34,500 --> 01:00:36,875 And I still do. And I will believe that. 1562 01:00:37,000 --> 01:00:40,792 - ♪ Somewhere in your heart 1563 01:00:40,875 --> 01:00:45,042 ♪ I know there exists 1564 01:00:45,125 --> 01:00:50,333 ♪ A hand that wants to reach out ♪ 1565 01:00:50,417 --> 01:00:54,042 ♪ And break the silence 1566 01:00:54,042 --> 01:01:01,083 ♪ 1567 01:01:01,167 --> 01:01:04,583 - Next week on "Married at First Sight"... 1568 01:01:04,708 --> 01:01:07,042 - I was actually called the B-I-T-C-H word. 1569 01:01:07,125 --> 01:01:10,792 - This is "Cast Tell All." - I have a new man. 1570 01:01:10,875 --> 01:01:14,458 - Now and then, we'll make whoopee together, you know. 1571 01:01:14,542 --> 01:01:17,667 - I'm here with some of my favorite "MAFS" alumni... 1572 01:01:17,708 --> 01:01:21,292 What's new with you? - Besides the baby on the way? 1573 01:01:21,375 --> 01:01:25,000 - Who have seen it all and are here to spill the tea, honey. 1574 01:01:25,125 --> 01:01:27,625 - He was taking a secret medication that he hid from me. 1575 01:01:27,708 --> 01:01:29,208 - I literally was flabbergasted. 1576 01:01:29,292 --> 01:01:31,000 Like, my mouth dropped on the floor. 1577 01:01:31,083 --> 01:01:33,375 - Wow, you really can't make this stuff up. 1578 01:01:33,500 --> 01:01:35,875 - Who's sliding into your DMs? 1579 01:01:36,000 --> 01:01:38,083 - You just need to grab a boob or grab a [bleep]. 1580 01:01:38,167 --> 01:01:40,292 - This is too much. I need to get off this stage. 1581 01:01:40,375 --> 01:01:42,167 - And in two weeks... 1582 01:01:42,250 --> 01:01:45,000 - The entire Denver cast has returned. 1583 01:01:45,083 --> 01:01:46,375 - There's two sides to every story. 1584 01:01:46,458 --> 01:01:48,500 - Do you feel like you're being manipulated right now? 1585 01:01:48,583 --> 01:01:50,750 - Always. 1586 01:01:50,875 --> 01:01:52,833 - Emotions are still at an all-time high, 1587 01:01:52,958 --> 01:01:54,958 and they have a lot to hash out. 1588 01:01:55,042 --> 01:01:58,792 What did she do that made doubt creep into your mind? 1589 01:01:58,875 --> 01:02:00,083 - Just say it. 1590 01:02:00,167 --> 01:02:02,042 - I wanted marriage. I wanted a wife. 1591 01:02:02,167 --> 01:02:03,708 - With me? 1592 01:02:03,792 --> 01:02:05,625 - You told me that if I left you, 1593 01:02:05,708 --> 01:02:07,208 you would make my life a living hell. 1594 01:02:07,292 --> 01:02:08,625 [dramatic music] 1595 01:02:08,708 --> 01:02:11,500 - This is my first experience with being gaslit. 1596 01:02:11,542 --> 01:02:13,542 - Oh. - Oh, my God. 1597 01:02:13,625 --> 01:02:15,500 - It's a powerful two-part reunion 1598 01:02:15,583 --> 01:02:17,125 that you don't want to miss. 1599 01:02:17,208 --> 01:02:19,167 - The horse is dead, so it's time to stop beating it. 1600 01:02:19,292 --> 01:02:22,167 - Keep poking the bear, and I'll bite the [bleep] back. 1601 01:02:22,292 --> 01:02:24,125 - Claire shared that she was in love with her boyfriend. 1602 01:02:24,208 --> 01:02:25,667 ♪ 1603 01:02:25,792 --> 01:02:27,500 You were [bleep] someone else. 1604 01:02:27,583 --> 01:02:29,750 - [crying] Go ahead, continue to lie. 1605 01:02:29,833 --> 01:02:31,792 - I never [bleep] anyone. - [crying] Please, please. 1606 01:02:31,875 --> 01:02:33,000 - Hold on for a second. 1607 01:02:33,042 --> 01:02:34,458 - I'm not dealing with this [bleep]. 1608 01:02:34,542 --> 01:02:35,833 I'm done. 1609 01:02:35,875 --> 01:02:38,292 I'm just disgusted with everything today. 1610 01:02:38,375 --> 01:02:39,500 [sobs] 1611 01:02:39,542 --> 01:02:41,250 ♪