1 00:00:02,042 --> 00:00:03,458 [upbeat music] 2 00:00:03,542 --> 00:00:05,833 - Four newlywed couples took a daring leap 3 00:00:05,875 --> 00:00:07,875 of faith to find love. 4 00:00:07,958 --> 00:00:09,667 They married complete strangers. 5 00:00:09,750 --> 00:00:12,708 ♪ 6 00:00:12,792 --> 00:00:15,375 - ♪ There's nowhere else I'd rather be ♪ 7 00:00:15,500 --> 00:00:19,250 - Last time, the honeymoons continued in Mexico. 8 00:00:21,208 --> 00:00:24,333 - What is this? - Oh, thank you! 9 00:00:24,375 --> 00:00:27,625 - We've spent so much time talking about ways 10 00:00:27,708 --> 00:00:28,958 of showing affection. 11 00:00:29,042 --> 00:00:30,167 - Yeah. 12 00:00:30,292 --> 00:00:31,458 - I decided to go back to basics. 13 00:00:31,542 --> 00:00:32,875 - That was so, so sweet. 14 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:35,333 I will not cry, but that was sweet. 15 00:00:35,417 --> 00:00:36,250 ♪ 16 00:00:38,500 --> 00:00:41,167 - I sometimes am a little too sarcastic, 17 00:00:41,208 --> 00:00:42,667 and I'm used to speaking my mind 18 00:00:42,750 --> 00:00:44,083 and not having any repercussions 19 00:00:44,167 --> 00:00:45,708 on anyone but myself. 20 00:00:45,792 --> 00:00:47,167 But I really want to be more cognizant of, like, 21 00:00:47,250 --> 00:00:48,833 the effects it has on us together. 22 00:00:48,917 --> 00:00:50,250 - Yeah, I appreciate that. 23 00:00:52,542 --> 00:00:55,333 - I was raised Jewish, but I'm personally agnostic. 24 00:00:55,458 --> 00:00:58,542 - We might have differences in those areas. 25 00:00:58,625 --> 00:01:01,125 - I feel like, by us building a foundation on all 26 00:01:01,208 --> 00:01:02,750 of the other aspects of our relationship, 27 00:01:02,875 --> 00:01:06,000 we will be able to get through a lot. 28 00:01:06,042 --> 00:01:08,542 - I agree 100%. 29 00:01:10,667 --> 00:01:13,542 - There's nothing I can do. - Yeah. 30 00:01:13,667 --> 00:01:16,375 - I don't know what more I can say to really explain it, 31 00:01:16,458 --> 00:01:18,750 but I can't move past this. 32 00:01:18,833 --> 00:01:20,083 - I'm sorry to hear that. 33 00:01:20,167 --> 00:01:22,333 [dramatic music] 34 00:01:22,417 --> 00:01:24,583 - [crying] 35 00:01:24,667 --> 00:01:26,333 - ♪ Going home 36 00:01:26,333 --> 00:01:29,292 - Tonight, our couples return home to Denver... 37 00:01:29,375 --> 00:01:31,875 - You ready to see our new apartment? 38 00:01:31,958 --> 00:01:33,833 - And move in together... 39 00:01:33,875 --> 00:01:35,333 - Hello! 40 00:01:35,417 --> 00:01:37,917 - As real life is about to begin. 41 00:01:38,042 --> 00:01:39,042 - There we go! 42 00:01:39,125 --> 00:01:41,083 - Giddyap, cowboy! - You look good. 43 00:01:41,167 --> 00:01:42,625 - Gee, I didn't know this about you. 44 00:01:42,708 --> 00:01:45,125 - If you'd just ask. 45 00:01:45,208 --> 00:01:47,125 - We do live pretty close to each other, 46 00:01:47,208 --> 00:01:49,167 so I was just thinking we'd, like, move 47 00:01:49,250 --> 00:01:51,000 back into our normal spots. 48 00:01:51,083 --> 00:01:52,625 - What would probably make more sense 49 00:01:52,625 --> 00:01:54,125 is to move into my place while we wait 50 00:01:54,208 --> 00:01:55,167 to maybe buy something. 51 00:01:55,208 --> 00:01:56,583 [dramatic music] 52 00:01:56,667 --> 00:01:57,917 - I just need you to tell me if you're physically 53 00:01:58,042 --> 00:01:59,167 attracted to me or not. 54 00:01:59,208 --> 00:02:00,875 - I just can't do it. 55 00:02:01,000 --> 00:02:03,667 - I didn't ever really anticipate, like, 56 00:02:03,708 --> 00:02:05,583 a lot of what's happening. 57 00:02:05,708 --> 00:02:09,333 - There is no romance within me anymore. 58 00:02:09,375 --> 00:02:10,833 ♪ 59 00:02:10,875 --> 00:02:13,625 - Do you want a divorce? 60 00:02:13,708 --> 00:02:16,833 ♪ 61 00:02:16,875 --> 00:02:18,333 - ♪ It's all or nothing 62 00:02:18,417 --> 00:02:20,833 - This is "Married at First Sight." 63 00:02:20,917 --> 00:02:22,958 - ♪ There's no other way 64 00:02:23,042 --> 00:02:24,583 [Louise Dowd's "All or Nothing"] 65 00:02:24,708 --> 00:02:26,667 ♪ It's all or nothing 66 00:02:26,708 --> 00:02:29,750 - [singing in Spanish] 67 00:02:29,833 --> 00:02:31,500 [upbeat music] 68 00:02:31,583 --> 00:02:32,875 - ♪ You look so fine, you're a... ♪ 69 00:02:32,958 --> 00:02:34,000 [singing in Spanish] 70 00:02:34,042 --> 00:02:35,083 ♪ All mine 71 00:02:35,167 --> 00:02:36,208 [singing in Spanish] 72 00:02:36,292 --> 00:02:37,625 ♪ You look so fine 73 00:02:37,708 --> 00:02:40,167 - [singing in Spanish] 74 00:02:40,208 --> 00:02:41,667 - Are we, um-- 75 00:02:41,750 --> 00:02:43,083 - Ready to bounce? 76 00:02:43,167 --> 00:02:45,500 - Missing one or two? 77 00:02:45,583 --> 00:02:47,708 - I'm excited to go home, but I also, like, wish we had 78 00:02:47,792 --> 00:02:49,375 a little bit more time here. 79 00:02:49,458 --> 00:02:51,167 But I think we're both very excited to go home and, like, 80 00:02:51,250 --> 00:02:52,792 just get into a little bit of normalcy, 81 00:02:52,875 --> 00:02:55,250 and figure out, like, how our life is actually 82 00:02:55,375 --> 00:02:56,667 gonna start merging together. 83 00:02:56,750 --> 00:02:57,875 - What up? - Hello! 84 00:02:58,000 --> 00:02:59,500 - Hey, darling! 85 00:02:59,542 --> 00:03:02,000 - 'Cause this is not gonna be an easy, smooth-sailing 86 00:03:02,083 --> 00:03:03,000 ride for any of us. 87 00:03:03,083 --> 00:03:04,667 - How you doing? 88 00:03:04,750 --> 00:03:06,125 - Been better. - Yeah? 89 00:03:06,208 --> 00:03:08,167 - If I'm being honest. - Aw. 90 00:03:08,292 --> 00:03:09,583 - But I love that you're being honest. 91 00:03:09,667 --> 00:03:11,750 - Love that I'm being honest. - No, for real. 92 00:03:11,833 --> 00:03:13,292 - What's up, guys? - Hello. 93 00:03:13,375 --> 00:03:14,750 - Hi. - Hey. 94 00:03:14,833 --> 00:03:16,208 - Oh, sorry. 95 00:03:16,333 --> 00:03:18,750 Let me move some of these bags around. 96 00:03:18,750 --> 00:03:20,542 - Sure, thank you. 97 00:03:21,667 --> 00:03:23,583 - Lauren's not wearing her ring. 98 00:03:23,667 --> 00:03:25,875 And I know Orion is wearing his, 99 00:03:25,958 --> 00:03:28,375 so I'm a little confused. 100 00:03:28,375 --> 00:03:29,875 - Yeah. both: Fingers crossed. 101 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:31,458 - Though, that it's not the-- 102 00:03:31,542 --> 00:03:33,542 - Jinx. 103 00:03:33,625 --> 00:03:35,500 - In sync. 104 00:03:35,583 --> 00:03:40,083 - I'm excited to move in and, like, just start combining 105 00:03:40,167 --> 00:03:41,583 some stuff, slowly and surely, 106 00:03:41,667 --> 00:03:44,208 stock up our fridge this weekend. 107 00:03:44,292 --> 00:03:46,167 - And as couples, we all get to see what 108 00:03:46,250 --> 00:03:47,542 our day-to-day life is like. 109 00:03:47,625 --> 00:03:48,833 - Yeah. 110 00:03:48,917 --> 00:03:49,958 - So what are you guys gonna do? 111 00:03:50,042 --> 00:03:51,792 - I don't know. We'll figure it out. 112 00:03:51,875 --> 00:03:55,625 We're having irreconcilable differences. 113 00:03:55,708 --> 00:03:58,542 - No, I would say that we're just dealing with topics 114 00:03:58,625 --> 00:04:00,333 we've never really dealt with before, 115 00:04:00,458 --> 00:04:03,833 and so it can get really murky. 116 00:04:03,875 --> 00:04:05,708 - I think we have different perspectives of what happened. 117 00:04:05,833 --> 00:04:08,500 - Yeah, so I think we're trying to see eye to eye first, 118 00:04:08,542 --> 00:04:10,375 before you know, we start, I guess, 119 00:04:10,375 --> 00:04:11,833 you know, letting that out. 120 00:04:11,958 --> 00:04:13,375 - We respect that. 121 00:04:13,375 --> 00:04:15,375 Whenever you're ready, we're here for you. 122 00:04:15,500 --> 00:04:17,958 - I don't feel like Orion has been 123 00:04:18,042 --> 00:04:21,167 able to afford me the same grace that I've given him. 124 00:04:21,250 --> 00:04:22,750 I'm sure that's for his-- 125 00:04:22,833 --> 00:04:24,667 because of his own internal struggles, 126 00:04:24,750 --> 00:04:26,375 but it does feel a little unfair. 127 00:04:26,458 --> 00:04:28,167 Like, OK, there are some things that I 128 00:04:28,208 --> 00:04:31,333 could have done better, things that I could have said better. 129 00:04:31,375 --> 00:04:33,583 I don't know, it just feels very up and down 130 00:04:33,667 --> 00:04:35,542 in this marriage already. 131 00:04:35,667 --> 00:04:37,500 It's like, I can't really keep up 132 00:04:37,542 --> 00:04:40,167 with all the altercations that happen, 133 00:04:40,292 --> 00:04:42,625 because the honeymoon was a lot. 134 00:04:43,542 --> 00:04:45,000 - Should we go catch that plane? 135 00:04:45,083 --> 00:04:46,208 - Yeah. - Yeah. 136 00:04:46,333 --> 00:04:47,333 - Let's get it. - This way. 137 00:04:47,417 --> 00:04:48,917 - Can you hold my empty glass? 138 00:04:49,000 --> 00:04:51,667 - Gladly. - OK. 139 00:04:51,750 --> 00:04:54,625 [soft music] 140 00:04:54,708 --> 00:05:00,500 ♪ 141 00:05:00,583 --> 00:05:04,333 - ♪ Give it time, time, time 142 00:05:04,417 --> 00:05:06,208 - So we are heading back to Denver. 143 00:05:06,333 --> 00:05:08,292 I can't wait to see my family, my dog. 144 00:05:08,375 --> 00:05:10,333 I've been missing that a lot. 145 00:05:10,458 --> 00:05:13,542 - And I'm looking forward to moving in with my new wife 146 00:05:13,625 --> 00:05:15,417 in our new apartment. 147 00:05:15,500 --> 00:05:17,292 - Yeah, it's gonna be an adjustment, 148 00:05:17,375 --> 00:05:19,167 but we're looking forward to it. 149 00:05:19,208 --> 00:05:20,958 - How are you feeling? - Really tired. 150 00:05:21,042 --> 00:05:23,000 I'm exhausted, so-- 151 00:05:23,083 --> 00:05:24,708 It's been a long [bleep] week. 152 00:05:24,792 --> 00:05:26,750 - I'm excited to go back to Denver. 153 00:05:26,833 --> 00:05:28,625 - Get us out of this... - See our friends. 154 00:05:28,708 --> 00:05:30,833 - Humidity. - See our new apartment. 155 00:05:30,875 --> 00:05:32,500 - We want dryness. 156 00:05:32,542 --> 00:05:37,667 - We want a cold, dry environment. 157 00:05:37,750 --> 00:05:40,042 - See you all in snowy Colorado. 158 00:05:40,125 --> 00:05:44,417 ♪ 159 00:05:44,500 --> 00:05:47,167 - ♪ Everything is all right now ♪ 160 00:05:47,250 --> 00:05:49,833 - Are we excited or are we excited? 161 00:05:49,917 --> 00:05:52,125 - We're excited! 162 00:05:52,208 --> 00:05:54,625 - Ready to see our new apartment. 163 00:05:54,708 --> 00:05:56,458 ♪ 164 00:05:56,542 --> 00:05:58,583 That's really nice... - Home sweet home. 165 00:05:58,667 --> 00:05:59,958 - If I can remember the code. 166 00:06:00,042 --> 00:06:01,833 - Ooh! 167 00:06:01,875 --> 00:06:03,333 - Whoa! 168 00:06:03,417 --> 00:06:06,250 This is nice. 169 00:06:06,333 --> 00:06:09,333 [upbeat music] 170 00:06:09,417 --> 00:06:11,333 - [bleep] 171 00:06:11,417 --> 00:06:13,250 Look at our view of Union Station! 172 00:06:13,333 --> 00:06:14,792 - Damn! - Wow! 173 00:06:14,875 --> 00:06:16,542 - Whoa. 174 00:06:16,625 --> 00:06:19,750 - We provided each couple with a neutral living space 175 00:06:19,833 --> 00:06:22,333 to begin their married life, free from the distraction 176 00:06:22,375 --> 00:06:24,208 of their old single life. 177 00:06:24,292 --> 00:06:26,750 - Are you pro TV in the bedroom or anti TV in the bedroom? 178 00:06:26,833 --> 00:06:28,333 - I don't have a TV in my bedroom. 179 00:06:28,375 --> 00:06:30,042 - Neither do I. 180 00:06:30,125 --> 00:06:31,500 - Anti TV in the bedroom. 181 00:06:31,542 --> 00:06:33,542 It's been established. 182 00:06:33,625 --> 00:06:39,167 ♪ 183 00:06:39,250 --> 00:06:40,875 - Ooh, we've got a candle. 184 00:06:41,000 --> 00:06:43,833 Oh, my God, and it's my favorite scent. 185 00:06:43,875 --> 00:06:45,333 Amber and vanilla. 186 00:06:45,417 --> 00:06:47,083 Bathroom. 187 00:06:47,167 --> 00:06:49,500 I love organized bathrooms. 188 00:06:49,583 --> 00:06:53,875 Nice, clean bed, so we can cuddle. 189 00:06:53,958 --> 00:06:58,667 I really love the plan, and the decor, and this blanket. 190 00:06:58,708 --> 00:07:00,750 Have you felt this blanket? 191 00:07:00,833 --> 00:07:02,750 - Oh, it's nice. 192 00:07:02,875 --> 00:07:04,625 - I know. 193 00:07:04,708 --> 00:07:06,083 - OK. 194 00:07:06,208 --> 00:07:07,833 So-- 195 00:07:07,917 --> 00:07:10,125 - Now I think we just need to like fill in the blanks 196 00:07:10,208 --> 00:07:11,250 with random stuff. 197 00:07:11,375 --> 00:07:13,042 - Yeah. 198 00:07:13,125 --> 00:07:16,750 - Like, some cleaning stuff, laundry stuff, comfy clothes, 199 00:07:16,875 --> 00:07:19,708 because that's all I really wear. 200 00:07:19,792 --> 00:07:23,375 This is the first time we've both ever lived with someone 201 00:07:23,500 --> 00:07:25,000 that, like, isn't a roommate. 202 00:07:25,042 --> 00:07:26,500 So are you nervous at all? 203 00:07:26,542 --> 00:07:29,500 Excited? - I am excited. 204 00:07:29,583 --> 00:07:33,667 I feel like we have, like, a mutual respect, and, like, 205 00:07:33,750 --> 00:07:35,125 know how to live with other people. 206 00:07:35,208 --> 00:07:38,125 - Yeah, I feel the same, and I just feel like I would 207 00:07:38,208 --> 00:07:40,000 rather you tell me, like-- 208 00:07:40,083 --> 00:07:42,875 like, I'd rather you say, like, oh, this is kind of bothering 209 00:07:42,958 --> 00:07:46,125 me, instead of, like, tomorrow, versus, like, even just 210 00:07:46,208 --> 00:07:48,167 a few days because you feel like you can't bring that up, 211 00:07:48,292 --> 00:07:49,958 because it's been a day. 212 00:07:50,042 --> 00:07:52,625 And I think, for us, something to think about too is, like, 213 00:07:52,708 --> 00:07:55,250 if we're angry, like, it's an easy thing 214 00:07:55,375 --> 00:07:57,333 to do to just leave this place and like 215 00:07:57,458 --> 00:07:59,250 go back to our other ones. 216 00:07:59,375 --> 00:08:01,833 If you need a minute, sure, but I think 217 00:08:01,917 --> 00:08:04,542 it will be better if we, like, stay trapped here to, 218 00:08:04,625 --> 00:08:06,125 like, work things out. 219 00:08:06,250 --> 00:08:08,042 - Yeah. 220 00:08:09,333 --> 00:08:11,417 So you're gonna work here. 221 00:08:11,542 --> 00:08:13,250 - Yeah. 222 00:08:13,375 --> 00:08:16,333 - Yeah, I think I'll probably, like, if I have a morning call, 223 00:08:16,417 --> 00:08:19,375 take that here, if that's OK. 224 00:08:19,375 --> 00:08:20,792 - Yeah. 225 00:08:20,917 --> 00:08:23,083 - And then take that, make some breakfast, 226 00:08:23,167 --> 00:08:26,208 and then head to my house because I don't want 227 00:08:26,292 --> 00:08:27,458 to be in traffic either, so-- 228 00:08:27,542 --> 00:08:29,208 - Yeah. 229 00:08:29,208 --> 00:08:30,833 - But, tonight, yeah, I definitely want to go back, 230 00:08:30,958 --> 00:08:34,750 tidy up the house, and then my work week is crazy. 231 00:08:34,833 --> 00:08:36,583 So maybe we should, like, reconvene in, like, 232 00:08:36,708 --> 00:08:39,250 a few days before moving into our new place. 233 00:08:39,333 --> 00:08:42,833 [tense music] 234 00:08:42,917 --> 00:08:44,958 - Yeah. 235 00:08:45,042 --> 00:08:47,833 I'm just, like, caught off guard. 236 00:08:47,875 --> 00:08:50,833 I'm just like, OK, if you think that's best, sure, 237 00:08:50,958 --> 00:08:52,833 but we're still trying to get to know each other. 238 00:08:52,958 --> 00:08:54,833 Like, I wanted to move in together with him, 239 00:08:54,917 --> 00:08:57,000 and I thought he felt the same. 240 00:08:57,042 --> 00:08:58,083 ♪ 241 00:08:58,208 --> 00:08:59,500 It's been a long week. 242 00:08:59,583 --> 00:09:02,125 But it was so fun, so much fun. 243 00:09:02,208 --> 00:09:07,167 - We spent every day, 24/7, the last week together, 244 00:09:07,208 --> 00:09:09,875 you know, and I was, like, starting to notice, 245 00:09:09,958 --> 00:09:11,750 like, I was getting drained. 246 00:09:11,833 --> 00:09:15,333 And I've gotta take a step back and just digest how I 247 00:09:15,375 --> 00:09:17,833 feel before we move in together. 248 00:09:17,917 --> 00:09:21,500 All right, this is where we part ways for a bit. 249 00:09:21,583 --> 00:09:26,625 ♪ 250 00:09:26,708 --> 00:09:28,750 - ♪ Real love comes out after dark ♪ 251 00:09:28,750 --> 00:09:31,500 - Oh, this looks like a cozy bed right here. 252 00:09:31,583 --> 00:09:33,708 Oh, and it is! - Is that a queen? 253 00:09:33,792 --> 00:09:36,208 - Oh, it is a cozy bed. 254 00:09:36,292 --> 00:09:37,833 - Which side do you want? 255 00:09:37,917 --> 00:09:40,542 - Well, because I know you go up to the bathroom 256 00:09:40,542 --> 00:09:42,667 a lot more than I do-- see, I don't know. 257 00:09:42,708 --> 00:09:45,167 This is hard because I also wake up earlier, so it 258 00:09:45,250 --> 00:09:46,792 could be easy for me to just-- 259 00:09:46,875 --> 00:09:49,458 - But you get up once, whereas I get up many times. 260 00:09:49,542 --> 00:09:51,000 - So which would you prefer? 261 00:09:51,125 --> 00:09:52,500 - I would always prefer to sleep on the side-- 262 00:09:52,583 --> 00:09:54,167 - OK. - That's that side. 263 00:09:54,167 --> 00:09:56,000 - Then, yeah, that works. - But I don't have to. 264 00:09:56,083 --> 00:09:57,417 - No. 265 00:09:57,500 --> 00:09:58,792 Marriage is about compromise, right? 266 00:09:58,875 --> 00:10:00,333 - Mm. 267 00:10:00,417 --> 00:10:01,958 Did you read that in a book somewhere? 268 00:10:02,042 --> 00:10:04,875 [laughter] 269 00:10:04,875 --> 00:10:06,625 This is definitely the beginning 270 00:10:06,708 --> 00:10:10,583 of a new chapter in the book that is our marriage. 271 00:10:10,708 --> 00:10:11,875 - I feel like I should put my Pjs on 272 00:10:11,958 --> 00:10:13,667 because I am just like, I need 273 00:10:13,750 --> 00:10:14,958 to get out of this outfit. 274 00:10:15,042 --> 00:10:17,958 - And I'm hoping, going forward, 275 00:10:18,042 --> 00:10:22,333 as we get into our routines, that we can kind of just 276 00:10:22,375 --> 00:10:25,125 continue to be more of ourselves. 277 00:10:25,208 --> 00:10:26,417 - What do you think? 278 00:10:26,542 --> 00:10:28,250 I'm excited. 279 00:10:29,708 --> 00:10:31,292 These shorts are so short. 280 00:10:31,375 --> 00:10:32,750 Sorry. 281 00:10:32,833 --> 00:10:33,833 - Do you want them a little shorter? 282 00:10:33,875 --> 00:10:37,083 - No, no, please, please. 283 00:10:37,167 --> 00:10:39,667 Yeah, I mean, I think this is a really beautiful space. 284 00:10:39,750 --> 00:10:41,625 I mean, I know we were both really nervous about this, 285 00:10:41,708 --> 00:10:43,042 and I still am. 286 00:10:43,125 --> 00:10:45,667 I mean, again, I have not lived with another-- 287 00:10:45,792 --> 00:10:47,250 - Well, you just did for the last week. 288 00:10:47,333 --> 00:10:48,875 - Yeah, I know. 289 00:10:48,875 --> 00:10:51,500 It's just the unknown that I'm scared about, like, 290 00:10:51,583 --> 00:10:53,875 the unknown of navigating how to, 291 00:10:54,000 --> 00:10:56,208 you know, wake up and not wake you up, 292 00:10:56,333 --> 00:10:57,333 and the cooking, and cleaning. 293 00:10:57,375 --> 00:10:58,792 Like, all those sorts of things, 294 00:10:58,875 --> 00:11:02,000 like, I don't know how to do that with another person. 295 00:11:02,083 --> 00:11:04,792 Also, like, you know, when you're dating someone, 296 00:11:04,875 --> 00:11:07,125 and in a fight or something, you can leave. 297 00:11:07,208 --> 00:11:10,125 But, here, it's like, this is where we're at. 298 00:11:10,208 --> 00:11:13,917 - Yeah, I'd say 299 00:11:14,000 --> 00:11:16,625 I'm probably less nervous than you. 300 00:11:16,708 --> 00:11:18,667 - Well, you've also lived with a partner. 301 00:11:18,750 --> 00:11:22,417 - Yeah, the situation that I was in was more difficult 302 00:11:22,500 --> 00:11:25,042 because her family lived in the house. 303 00:11:25,042 --> 00:11:27,167 So, the kitchen, I wasn't just sharing with my girlfriend. 304 00:11:27,292 --> 00:11:30,125 Like, I was sharing with her siblings and her parents. 305 00:11:30,208 --> 00:11:33,708 Like, that's why I have very little fears and worries 306 00:11:33,792 --> 00:11:35,417 about us doing this. 307 00:11:35,500 --> 00:11:39,375 You'd have to be very different than who I think you are 308 00:11:39,458 --> 00:11:42,750 for you to get on my nerves. 309 00:11:42,833 --> 00:11:46,375 I'm not worried about you annoying me, at the moment. 310 00:11:46,458 --> 00:11:48,958 But I am worried because, you know, 311 00:11:49,042 --> 00:11:51,167 you haven't lived with a partner. 312 00:11:51,208 --> 00:11:52,875 You know, what are the things that I'm 313 00:11:52,958 --> 00:11:56,083 going to do to annoy you? 314 00:11:56,167 --> 00:11:58,333 - And there will probably be things, you know... 315 00:11:58,375 --> 00:11:59,792 - Sure. - That come up. 316 00:11:59,875 --> 00:12:00,958 I just need to be transparent, like, hey, 317 00:12:01,042 --> 00:12:02,542 that bothers me, and I will be. 318 00:12:02,625 --> 00:12:03,833 - Yeah. 319 00:12:03,875 --> 00:12:06,250 I'm more inclined, like, naturally, 320 00:12:06,333 --> 00:12:07,750 to just see how bad it gets. 321 00:12:07,833 --> 00:12:09,375 - Hmm. That's not good. 322 00:12:09,458 --> 00:12:10,833 - No, I like to see-- 323 00:12:10,917 --> 00:12:12,375 - That's a terrible way to do things. 324 00:12:12,458 --> 00:12:13,917 - I like to see where the limit is, sometimes. 325 00:12:14,042 --> 00:12:15,708 - I feel like that's not being preventative, 326 00:12:15,792 --> 00:12:17,167 and that's not helpful. 327 00:12:17,292 --> 00:12:18,500 - No, but I like to-- 328 00:12:18,583 --> 00:12:19,458 - Well, can we not do that, so that-- 329 00:12:19,542 --> 00:12:21,042 - OK, OK. 330 00:12:21,208 --> 00:12:22,708 - All we have to do is be open to communicate. 331 00:12:22,708 --> 00:12:25,000 If something is bothering us, just say it. 332 00:12:25,125 --> 00:12:28,083 - I think we'll know very soon how 333 00:12:28,167 --> 00:12:33,167 we are going to work together in terms of living together. 334 00:12:33,208 --> 00:12:34,792 It's gonna go one way or the other-- 335 00:12:34,917 --> 00:12:36,250 - Make or break. - And we're gonna find out. 336 00:12:36,333 --> 00:12:38,500 - Right. - Yeah. 337 00:12:38,625 --> 00:12:41,667 ♪ 338 00:12:41,708 --> 00:12:44,417 - I'm a fan of our digs. 339 00:12:44,500 --> 00:12:46,042 How do you feel? - I like it. 340 00:12:46,125 --> 00:12:50,042 - After telling me that he cannot see us moving forward 341 00:12:50,125 --> 00:12:53,583 in the marriage, on the plane ride back, 342 00:12:53,708 --> 00:12:55,167 my husband had a flip of his emotions, 343 00:12:55,208 --> 00:12:57,333 and we discussed that he would like 344 00:12:57,375 --> 00:13:00,667 to try to do a full reset. 345 00:13:00,708 --> 00:13:02,708 ♪ 346 00:13:02,708 --> 00:13:04,333 You know, he kind of drags me this way, 347 00:13:04,417 --> 00:13:07,875 then drags me that way, so I'm trying to be hopeful 348 00:13:08,042 --> 00:13:13,333 that my husband is able to forgive me, 349 00:13:13,375 --> 00:13:15,292 as I have forgiven him. 350 00:13:15,375 --> 00:13:19,333 But, honestly, I don't know at this point. 351 00:13:19,417 --> 00:13:20,917 [instrumental music playing] 352 00:13:21,000 --> 00:13:24,333 Do you feel like you actually can do a full reset? 353 00:13:24,417 --> 00:13:29,833 Because you went from, I can't move forward in this marriage, 354 00:13:29,875 --> 00:13:34,833 and I'm unmoving, to, I want a full reset. 355 00:13:34,875 --> 00:13:37,000 - You know, talking with the experts, 356 00:13:37,042 --> 00:13:41,083 it seems like that is what needs to happen, 357 00:13:41,167 --> 00:13:43,583 which is kind of why I want to take, you know, the night, 358 00:13:43,667 --> 00:13:45,458 or a couple of days, or whatever we're 359 00:13:45,542 --> 00:13:49,917 comfortable with, just to just be away from everything, 360 00:13:50,042 --> 00:13:52,542 think about it, you know, and just really come back 361 00:13:52,542 --> 00:13:54,167 together with a clear mind. 362 00:13:54,250 --> 00:13:56,958 - Yeah, I think that could be helpful for us. 363 00:13:57,042 --> 00:13:59,000 Because I actually do like you. I do care about you. 364 00:13:59,042 --> 00:14:02,333 Like, there are genuine feelings that have grown, 365 00:14:02,417 --> 00:14:04,333 and I don't want us to be stuck in Cancun. 366 00:14:04,417 --> 00:14:05,792 - Yeah, that is-- 367 00:14:05,875 --> 00:14:07,750 I mean, you know, it's definitely the goal-- 368 00:14:07,833 --> 00:14:09,167 - That's the goal. 369 00:14:09,208 --> 00:14:10,667 - To work out of that, you know, 370 00:14:10,708 --> 00:14:12,083 because it's easy to say that, you know, 371 00:14:12,167 --> 00:14:13,375 we just leave it there-- 372 00:14:13,458 --> 00:14:14,833 - That's why I'm, like-- 373 00:14:14,875 --> 00:14:17,167 - But we also have to take the right steps 374 00:14:17,250 --> 00:14:18,708 to actually leave it there. 375 00:14:18,792 --> 00:14:20,250 - Right. 376 00:14:20,333 --> 00:14:22,042 - But, you know what, also, there's definitely 377 00:14:22,167 --> 00:14:24,708 things working for us to support the things 378 00:14:24,708 --> 00:14:28,000 that we're trying to get back to. 379 00:14:28,167 --> 00:14:31,875 And so, yeah, so, yeah, I really do feel hopeful. 380 00:14:31,958 --> 00:14:35,083 I still want to try a reset, you know, 381 00:14:35,167 --> 00:14:39,375 but we do need to take some space from each other. 382 00:14:39,458 --> 00:14:40,833 All right, wifey. 383 00:14:40,917 --> 00:14:42,500 I will--I'll talk to you soon. 384 00:14:42,542 --> 00:14:43,667 Yeah? 385 00:14:43,750 --> 00:14:45,083 - See ya. 386 00:14:45,208 --> 00:14:48,000 - See ya! 387 00:14:48,083 --> 00:14:50,875 We just need time to think, so that, when we do take 388 00:14:50,958 --> 00:14:52,875 this big step, you know, in living together, 389 00:14:52,958 --> 00:14:56,833 you know, we're two feet in, not just one. 390 00:14:56,958 --> 00:14:59,833 - See you later, house. 391 00:14:59,917 --> 00:15:01,625 Maybe. 392 00:15:01,708 --> 00:15:06,000 ♪ 393 00:15:09,875 --> 00:15:11,667 [upbeat music] 394 00:15:11,708 --> 00:15:14,542 ♪ 395 00:15:14,542 --> 00:15:17,875 - So, I know we only, like, just moved in, and haven't 396 00:15:17,958 --> 00:15:20,125 really figured out what we needed, 397 00:15:20,208 --> 00:15:21,917 but it definitely seems like there are some things 398 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:23,667 missing that we should bring. 399 00:15:23,708 --> 00:15:25,250 Plants, number one. - Real plants. 400 00:15:25,333 --> 00:15:26,208 - Real plants. 401 00:15:26,208 --> 00:15:27,792 Our plants. - Yeah. 402 00:15:27,875 --> 00:15:30,417 - Board games. - Oh, yeah. 403 00:15:30,500 --> 00:15:31,875 - N64 has to come. 404 00:15:31,958 --> 00:15:33,333 - Which one? 405 00:15:33,417 --> 00:15:36,667 - Yours because the one at my house is garbage. 406 00:15:36,708 --> 00:15:39,042 - OK, so I'll bring my N64. 407 00:15:40,458 --> 00:15:41,833 So you have a roommate right now. 408 00:15:41,958 --> 00:15:43,042 - Mm-hmm. 409 00:15:43,125 --> 00:15:46,292 - How do you guys split up chores? 410 00:15:46,375 --> 00:15:50,167 - I think we mostly just like take care of our own messes, 411 00:15:50,208 --> 00:15:53,083 and then kind of, like, help out every once in a while, 412 00:15:53,167 --> 00:15:55,875 although I pretty much take out all the trash and recycling. 413 00:15:56,042 --> 00:15:57,958 - That makes sense. 414 00:15:58,042 --> 00:16:01,500 Are you very clean? 415 00:16:01,542 --> 00:16:02,833 - I'm definitely clean. 416 00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:05,000 I'd say, like, kitchen and bathroom cleanliness 417 00:16:05,083 --> 00:16:06,458 are very important to me. 418 00:16:06,542 --> 00:16:08,958 - Same. 419 00:16:09,042 --> 00:16:12,250 We'll probably have growing pains and difficulties. 420 00:16:12,333 --> 00:16:15,042 I think living with anyone is hard, even your best 421 00:16:15,125 --> 00:16:16,500 friend, your parents. 422 00:16:16,583 --> 00:16:20,083 But, for me, because I'm feeling drawn to connect 423 00:16:20,167 --> 00:16:23,667 with Austin deeper, I'm looking forward 424 00:16:23,750 --> 00:16:29,292 to just, like, unfiltered time, focusing on each other, 425 00:16:29,375 --> 00:16:32,875 and doing a deep dive, rather than, like, a little tread 426 00:16:32,958 --> 00:16:34,875 in the shallow pool. 427 00:16:34,958 --> 00:16:36,667 We're gonna rock this. - This is gonna be easy. 428 00:16:36,750 --> 00:16:38,250 - I love this. 429 00:16:38,333 --> 00:16:39,625 [knocking] 430 00:16:39,708 --> 00:16:41,250 [laughter] 431 00:16:41,333 --> 00:16:42,542 We're just gonna play this back, 432 00:16:42,667 --> 00:16:44,500 and just be like, ha-ha! 433 00:16:44,542 --> 00:16:46,208 Suckers! 434 00:16:46,292 --> 00:16:48,958 Didn't know what they were getting themselves into. 435 00:16:50,667 --> 00:16:52,917 - ♪ Every day the sun rises 436 00:16:53,000 --> 00:16:56,500 ♪ Only like the good surprises ♪ 437 00:16:56,542 --> 00:16:58,125 - Good morning. 438 00:16:58,208 --> 00:17:03,750 Today is my first day waking up without Brennan. 439 00:17:03,833 --> 00:17:05,833 It's really sad, but also so tired 440 00:17:05,917 --> 00:17:07,708 last night that I literally put on the TV 441 00:17:07,833 --> 00:17:09,167 and immediately fell asleep. 442 00:17:09,292 --> 00:17:11,708 So, today, I'm getting my life together. 443 00:17:11,792 --> 00:17:15,458 Can't wait, but also can't wait, but it needs to happen, 444 00:17:15,542 --> 00:17:17,250 because then I'm going to start slowly getting 445 00:17:17,333 --> 00:17:20,833 reorganized to move in and hopefully 446 00:17:20,875 --> 00:17:22,583 see Brennan later tonight. 447 00:17:22,667 --> 00:17:25,708 - Our first night in our apartment is over. 448 00:17:25,833 --> 00:17:27,333 It is now the morning. 449 00:17:27,417 --> 00:17:28,917 - Yep. 450 00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:30,542 We slept. 451 00:17:30,667 --> 00:17:32,500 [yawning] 452 00:17:32,542 --> 00:17:34,583 - Baby dinosaur! 453 00:17:34,708 --> 00:17:36,292 ♪ 454 00:17:37,708 --> 00:17:39,542 - Mm. 455 00:17:39,625 --> 00:17:42,417 Looks like someone left some dirty dishes out! 456 00:17:42,500 --> 00:17:43,875 - Sorry. 457 00:17:43,958 --> 00:17:45,958 I'll get to it. I'm sorry. 458 00:17:46,042 --> 00:17:47,667 I was gonna do 'em. 459 00:17:47,708 --> 00:17:49,708 - I'm just saying, if it was the other way around, 460 00:17:49,792 --> 00:17:51,333 I would have gotten yelled at. 461 00:17:51,417 --> 00:17:55,583 - Oh, OK. It's three, three dishes. 462 00:17:55,667 --> 00:17:57,000 Maybe four. 463 00:17:57,083 --> 00:17:59,500 I will clean that up, though. 464 00:17:59,583 --> 00:18:06,583 ♪ 465 00:18:08,208 --> 00:18:10,083 - We obviously haven't moved in together, 466 00:18:10,167 --> 00:18:13,208 so I'm really looking forward just to see 467 00:18:13,292 --> 00:18:16,167 how Brennan lived before we got married. 468 00:18:17,542 --> 00:18:19,708 [knock at door] 469 00:18:21,167 --> 00:18:23,625 I'm very much hoping that this brings us together 470 00:18:23,708 --> 00:18:25,333 to hopefully move things forward 471 00:18:25,417 --> 00:18:29,250 and makes us excited to move in with each other. 472 00:18:29,375 --> 00:18:31,708 both: Hello. - Welcome. 473 00:18:31,833 --> 00:18:34,833 - Oh, my gosh. It's so clean. 474 00:18:34,958 --> 00:18:37,000 Is this a shoes-off environment? 475 00:18:37,167 --> 00:18:38,667 - Uh, sure. 476 00:18:38,750 --> 00:18:40,667 - OK. 477 00:18:40,750 --> 00:18:42,833 Let's do a tour. 478 00:18:42,875 --> 00:18:45,542 Like the green couch. 479 00:18:45,667 --> 00:18:46,792 This is nice. 480 00:18:46,875 --> 00:18:49,083 - Yeah, it's a record player. 481 00:18:49,167 --> 00:18:50,292 I really like the bar cart. 482 00:18:50,292 --> 00:18:52,667 I like this plant too. 483 00:18:52,750 --> 00:18:54,417 ♪ 484 00:18:54,500 --> 00:18:56,667 Tried to do live plants, my roommate and I, 485 00:18:56,750 --> 00:18:57,917 and then they died. 486 00:18:58,042 --> 00:19:00,083 - Hmm. 487 00:19:01,333 --> 00:19:03,333 - Is this is your office? - Mm-hmm. 488 00:19:03,417 --> 00:19:05,333 So this is where I spend most of my time. 489 00:19:05,500 --> 00:19:07,250 - What's that car? Is that a Ferrari? 490 00:19:07,375 --> 00:19:09,833 - Yeah. - This is a really nice desk. 491 00:19:09,875 --> 00:19:11,208 - Thank you. Thank you. 492 00:19:11,375 --> 00:19:12,792 - This makes me want to expand mine. 493 00:19:12,875 --> 00:19:14,583 - Mm-hmm. 494 00:19:14,708 --> 00:19:17,125 Yeah, it's nice. 495 00:19:17,208 --> 00:19:21,875 - I can just feel a little sense of awkwardness. 496 00:19:21,958 --> 00:19:26,500 He's, like, just not his usual self. 497 00:19:26,583 --> 00:19:31,125 So it creates kind of a confusing atmosphere. 498 00:19:31,208 --> 00:19:34,250 - And then, here, we have the bedroom. 499 00:19:34,250 --> 00:19:35,875 - Oh, it's so nice. 500 00:19:35,958 --> 00:19:38,000 - Yeah. 501 00:19:38,083 --> 00:19:40,250 I've got everything we need, which is the TV. 502 00:19:40,250 --> 00:19:42,708 - Yeah, I have to watch, like, two hours. 503 00:19:42,792 --> 00:19:45,250 Just, like, can't just go to bed right away. 504 00:19:46,375 --> 00:19:48,000 - Mm. 505 00:19:48,083 --> 00:19:50,833 ♪ 506 00:19:50,917 --> 00:19:53,208 Here we have the kitchen. 507 00:19:53,292 --> 00:19:54,875 - I think, when the kitchen's clean, that says a lot. 508 00:19:54,958 --> 00:19:56,875 - Yep. 509 00:19:56,958 --> 00:19:59,167 ♪ 510 00:19:59,250 --> 00:20:02,792 - And I really am impressed with this middle 511 00:20:02,875 --> 00:20:04,708 living room situation. 512 00:20:04,792 --> 00:20:08,708 And it looks, like, less boyish than I imagined. 513 00:20:11,542 --> 00:20:15,375 How do you, like, envision the living situation? 514 00:20:15,458 --> 00:20:18,833 - Yeah, it's been nice having some time to myself. 515 00:20:21,208 --> 00:20:23,958 So we will reevaluate in a few days, 516 00:20:24,042 --> 00:20:25,958 we actually want to move in. 517 00:20:28,208 --> 00:20:30,042 - I'm starting to get the sense 518 00:20:30,042 --> 00:20:33,333 that he might have shut off completely, 519 00:20:33,417 --> 00:20:36,208 and, like, what the [bleep]? 520 00:20:36,292 --> 00:20:38,833 Like, something is off. Like, what happened? 521 00:20:38,875 --> 00:20:40,833 - Yeah. 522 00:20:40,875 --> 00:20:44,625 ♪ 523 00:20:44,708 --> 00:20:47,583 [upbeat music] 524 00:20:47,583 --> 00:20:53,750 ♪ 525 00:20:53,833 --> 00:20:55,667 - Hello. - Hello! 526 00:20:55,708 --> 00:20:57,417 - How are you? - How's it going? 527 00:20:57,500 --> 00:21:00,542 - I am really excited to see Cameron's living space, 528 00:21:00,667 --> 00:21:05,042 and I think that it'll be pretty similar to him 529 00:21:05,125 --> 00:21:07,750 as a person, but I might be surprised. 530 00:21:07,833 --> 00:21:09,750 I don't know. 531 00:21:09,833 --> 00:21:12,042 This is nice! 532 00:21:12,125 --> 00:21:14,667 It's very homey, very cozy. 533 00:21:14,792 --> 00:21:16,042 - It's warm. 534 00:21:16,125 --> 00:21:17,500 - I was surprised. 535 00:21:17,583 --> 00:21:18,833 You were like, I don't have anything, 536 00:21:18,875 --> 00:21:20,208 and I feel like you have lots of things. 537 00:21:20,292 --> 00:21:21,708 - Maybe it's just spread out. 538 00:21:21,708 --> 00:21:23,417 - You've got a lot of your bike-- 539 00:21:23,500 --> 00:21:25,667 - Yeah, this is just my little workstation right here. 540 00:21:25,750 --> 00:21:27,042 - OK. 541 00:21:27,167 --> 00:21:29,208 - And then a kitchen. - Right. 542 00:21:29,292 --> 00:21:30,917 Oh, you like rice cakes too! 543 00:21:31,042 --> 00:21:32,208 - Oh, yeah. 544 00:21:32,292 --> 00:21:33,458 - This is, like, my favorite snack. 545 00:21:33,542 --> 00:21:34,833 I eat this with, like, almond butter. 546 00:21:34,875 --> 00:21:36,667 - So I put honey on it. 547 00:21:36,792 --> 00:21:38,542 - OK. 548 00:21:38,667 --> 00:21:40,167 Have you tried--so, this peanut butter, and bananas-- 549 00:21:40,292 --> 00:21:42,250 - Oh, do you want to try Vegemite? 550 00:21:42,333 --> 00:21:44,417 - Can I just smell it first? 551 00:21:44,500 --> 00:21:45,875 - Oh, yeah, mate. That's a little bit-- 552 00:21:45,958 --> 00:21:47,167 - [gags] 553 00:21:47,208 --> 00:21:48,375 That's terrible! 554 00:21:48,458 --> 00:21:49,708 - [laughing] You have to try it! 555 00:21:49,833 --> 00:21:55,375 Vegemite is a fermented yeast product. 556 00:21:55,500 --> 00:21:59,042 In New Zealand and Australia, we grow up on the stuff. 557 00:21:59,167 --> 00:22:01,500 I like that Clare's a good sport. 558 00:22:01,542 --> 00:22:05,500 She's up for anything, and I think we both have 559 00:22:05,542 --> 00:22:07,333 a sense of adventure. 560 00:22:07,417 --> 00:22:10,375 But it is an acquired taste. 561 00:22:11,542 --> 00:22:14,583 - OK, I'll try a sliver, like, the tiniest-- 562 00:22:14,708 --> 00:22:15,833 oof. 563 00:22:17,208 --> 00:22:19,625 - That's gonna-- it tastes like beer. 564 00:22:19,708 --> 00:22:21,042 - Ugh. 565 00:22:21,125 --> 00:22:22,833 It's terrible. That's bad. 566 00:22:22,917 --> 00:22:24,958 Bad, bad, bad. 567 00:22:25,042 --> 00:22:27,208 It's OK. We're fine, ooh. 568 00:22:27,292 --> 00:22:29,083 - That's delicious! 569 00:22:29,167 --> 00:22:30,917 - Gross. I would never eat that. 570 00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:33,792 I do like rice cakes, though, but, ew. 571 00:22:33,875 --> 00:22:35,708 - So-- - I need water. 572 00:22:35,792 --> 00:22:37,167 - You need water? 573 00:22:37,250 --> 00:22:38,500 How about a sparkling water? 574 00:22:38,583 --> 00:22:40,167 - Yeah, anything. 575 00:22:40,250 --> 00:22:41,708 - Why don't you help yourself? - Sorry. 576 00:22:41,833 --> 00:22:44,167 Anyway-- 577 00:22:44,333 --> 00:22:46,125 can you open it? 578 00:22:46,208 --> 00:22:48,125 These nails. 579 00:22:48,208 --> 00:22:50,667 Ooh, and the aftertaste. 580 00:22:50,667 --> 00:22:53,417 - That's the best part. - It's really gross. 581 00:22:53,500 --> 00:22:55,917 - That with cheese is amazing. 582 00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:57,500 - This is very-- 583 00:22:57,542 --> 00:22:59,625 I feel like this makes sense for your personality. 584 00:22:59,708 --> 00:23:01,042 - OK. 585 00:23:01,125 --> 00:23:03,667 - [laughs] So--I like it, though. 586 00:23:03,750 --> 00:23:05,167 ♪ 587 00:23:05,292 --> 00:23:06,708 Insect trap. 588 00:23:06,792 --> 00:23:08,125 Have you got, like, insects down here? 589 00:23:08,208 --> 00:23:10,083 - Spiders, yeah. - Oh, Lord, OK. 590 00:23:10,167 --> 00:23:10,958 - Do you want to see the spiders? 591 00:23:11,042 --> 00:23:12,292 - Oh, no! 592 00:23:12,375 --> 00:23:13,792 Cameron, why? - What? 593 00:23:13,875 --> 00:23:15,417 - You did not need to bring that up like that. 594 00:23:15,542 --> 00:23:16,750 - What? - Come on! 595 00:23:16,833 --> 00:23:18,625 - They'll get you. 596 00:23:18,708 --> 00:23:20,667 - Yeah, I will not be staying here ever, it's safe to say. 597 00:23:20,750 --> 00:23:22,625 Spiders, I don't care for. 598 00:23:22,708 --> 00:23:24,667 I was not expecting that. 599 00:23:24,750 --> 00:23:27,375 He grabbed it like it was his pets, which was a little 600 00:23:27,458 --> 00:23:28,917 like, ooh. 601 00:23:29,000 --> 00:23:30,292 Like, are you friends with the spiders? 602 00:23:30,375 --> 00:23:31,750 I'm confused. 603 00:23:31,833 --> 00:23:33,292 But there's traps everywhere, so he's 604 00:23:33,375 --> 00:23:34,500 got a lot of spider friends. 605 00:23:34,542 --> 00:23:35,833 What do we have here? 606 00:23:35,958 --> 00:23:37,417 Oh, these are all races you've done. 607 00:23:37,500 --> 00:23:38,708 - Yeah, Pikes Peak. 608 00:23:38,792 --> 00:23:40,667 - Wow. 609 00:23:40,750 --> 00:23:42,500 - And these are other mountain bike races. 610 00:23:42,542 --> 00:23:43,833 - That's very impressive. 611 00:23:43,958 --> 00:23:45,083 - Again, most of these knots are 612 00:23:45,167 --> 00:23:47,333 from my mountaineering days. 613 00:23:47,333 --> 00:23:48,458 And then I just kept some of the stuff 614 00:23:48,542 --> 00:23:49,500 because I did search and rescue. 615 00:23:49,542 --> 00:23:50,833 - Oh, that's very cool. 616 00:23:50,875 --> 00:23:52,250 See, I didn't know this about you. 617 00:23:52,375 --> 00:23:53,875 You learn new things every day. 618 00:23:54,000 --> 00:23:57,417 - Yep, well, you know, if you'd just ask. 619 00:23:57,542 --> 00:23:59,958 - Well, I've asked about your hobbies. 620 00:23:59,958 --> 00:24:03,125 Like, you just have never told me that you used to do this. 621 00:24:03,208 --> 00:24:06,833 It's gonna be really nice to be in a neutral space 622 00:24:06,875 --> 00:24:09,083 with Cameron because that strips 623 00:24:09,167 --> 00:24:12,458 away all of, like, the things we bring into our own spaces. 624 00:24:12,542 --> 00:24:15,000 And that way, we can create a space together. 625 00:24:15,083 --> 00:24:17,583 And we can each bring the things that we appreciate, 626 00:24:17,667 --> 00:24:19,958 but also, like, make it ours. 627 00:24:20,042 --> 00:24:21,667 Like, it's a clean slate. 628 00:24:21,750 --> 00:24:23,375 We have the opportunity to do that as a couple. 629 00:24:23,375 --> 00:24:25,167 - Let's get out of here. 630 00:24:25,208 --> 00:24:26,750 - Yeah, for real, honestly. 631 00:24:26,875 --> 00:24:29,167 I don't like that I'm barefoot in this situation. 632 00:24:29,208 --> 00:24:31,167 I feel in danger. 633 00:24:31,250 --> 00:24:32,708 Stop! 634 00:24:32,875 --> 00:24:34,208 Ooh! 635 00:24:34,208 --> 00:24:35,833 I'm feeling itchy all of a sudden. 636 00:24:39,667 --> 00:24:41,083 - ♪ Hey, Cinderella 637 00:24:41,083 --> 00:24:43,042 ♪ This ain't forever 638 00:24:43,125 --> 00:24:44,792 - This is Mr. Lenny! 639 00:24:44,875 --> 00:24:48,375 - Looks like Lenny is a small package. 640 00:24:48,458 --> 00:24:49,792 - Right. 641 00:24:49,792 --> 00:24:51,208 - And he's not a yappy dog because I 642 00:24:51,375 --> 00:24:52,417 think you were scared of that. 643 00:24:52,542 --> 00:24:54,000 - Well, I guess we'll find out. 644 00:24:54,083 --> 00:24:56,000 - [laughs] - Lenny! 645 00:24:56,083 --> 00:24:59,125 - Len-man. Lenny, what do you think? 646 00:24:59,208 --> 00:25:01,833 But he really isn't paying much attention to you. 647 00:25:01,917 --> 00:25:04,333 That's just because he doesn't know you yet. 648 00:25:04,417 --> 00:25:05,958 - I'm invisible. 649 00:25:06,042 --> 00:25:08,083 - [laughs] 650 00:25:08,167 --> 00:25:09,792 - So this is my place. 651 00:25:09,875 --> 00:25:11,750 Yeah, no, this is the bike. 652 00:25:11,833 --> 00:25:13,083 - Can I look at it? - Yeah. 653 00:25:13,083 --> 00:25:16,125 I mean, it's a nice bike, but it's got its-- 654 00:25:16,208 --> 00:25:18,167 it needs a little pump. 655 00:25:18,167 --> 00:25:20,000 [laughs] This cannot be normal. 656 00:25:20,083 --> 00:25:22,458 - Yeah, that's what they call a "flat tire." 657 00:25:22,542 --> 00:25:24,917 - Yeah, and if you rode on this-- 658 00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:27,292 well, also, this doesn't fit me, because it's, 659 00:25:27,375 --> 00:25:28,458 like, way too tall. 660 00:25:28,542 --> 00:25:30,000 - They're both flat. 661 00:25:30,083 --> 00:25:31,917 - Yeah, the seat doesn't go down any lower, so that's-- 662 00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:35,208 - Yeah, the frame is too large for you. 663 00:25:35,333 --> 00:25:36,708 - Right, right. 664 00:25:36,792 --> 00:25:38,292 Lenny, you're being a good boy. 665 00:25:38,375 --> 00:25:39,375 Do you want to just sit for a second? 666 00:25:39,458 --> 00:25:40,667 - Yeah. 667 00:25:40,708 --> 00:25:41,583 - Do you want water or anything? 668 00:25:41,708 --> 00:25:43,167 - I'm OK. - OK. 669 00:25:43,250 --> 00:25:44,875 - Hey, Lenny. 670 00:25:44,958 --> 00:25:46,167 Is that-- 671 00:25:46,250 --> 00:25:47,750 - You are invisible! 672 00:25:47,875 --> 00:25:51,167 - Lenny is a little standoffish. 673 00:25:51,250 --> 00:25:53,292 I hope he'll warm to me. 674 00:25:53,375 --> 00:25:57,458 I am a dog person, provided they're not super annoying. 675 00:25:57,542 --> 00:25:58,708 - [laughs] 676 00:25:58,792 --> 00:26:00,000 He doesn't like you! 677 00:26:00,083 --> 00:26:03,750 - Maybe Lenny's just not a people person. 678 00:26:03,833 --> 00:26:05,500 [laughs] 679 00:26:05,625 --> 00:26:07,167 Do you have, like, a routine? 680 00:26:07,208 --> 00:26:08,875 Like, do you take him out at the same time every day? 681 00:26:09,000 --> 00:26:11,500 - Yeah, like, we'll go out right when I wake up. 682 00:26:11,583 --> 00:26:13,250 But outside of our apartment, it's, like, not 683 00:26:13,333 --> 00:26:15,792 a very good dog place, you know? 684 00:26:15,875 --> 00:26:17,167 - No. It's a concrete jungle. 685 00:26:17,250 --> 00:26:18,625 - Right? 686 00:26:18,708 --> 00:26:20,125 So that's what I'm a little worried about. 687 00:26:20,208 --> 00:26:22,125 Because here, it's like we can go a lot of different trails, 688 00:26:22,208 --> 00:26:23,792 different paths. 689 00:26:23,875 --> 00:26:26,792 But as far as, like, Lenny's, like, responsibilities 690 00:26:26,875 --> 00:26:29,292 and stuff, I don't want to put that on you. 691 00:26:29,375 --> 00:26:32,667 So maybe my sister can watch him. 692 00:26:32,750 --> 00:26:34,125 - I mean, yeah, we'll just have to-- 693 00:26:34,208 --> 00:26:35,542 we'll just have to see. 694 00:26:35,625 --> 00:26:36,958 - We'll figure it out, which is fine. 695 00:26:37,042 --> 00:26:37,833 - Yeah. - OK. 696 00:26:37,917 --> 00:26:39,167 - So what do you need to bring? 697 00:26:39,208 --> 00:26:43,000 - A few clothes, maybe, like, some pictures, 698 00:26:43,125 --> 00:26:45,042 maybe some of my books. 699 00:26:45,125 --> 00:26:46,292 ♪ 700 00:26:46,375 --> 00:26:48,167 - Catholic, huh? 701 00:26:48,250 --> 00:26:51,208 - Mm-hmm, yes. 702 00:26:51,292 --> 00:26:52,583 - Are you Catholic? 703 00:26:52,708 --> 00:26:53,833 - So, yeah, no, I've told you this. 704 00:26:53,875 --> 00:26:55,458 So I was raised Catholic. 705 00:26:55,542 --> 00:26:56,792 - Well, you said you were faithful. 706 00:26:56,875 --> 00:26:58,250 You didn't say you were Catholic. 707 00:26:58,333 --> 00:27:01,250 - Right, so when I was younger, it didn't really-- 708 00:27:01,333 --> 00:27:03,042 like, I would go to church, but I wasn't, like, 709 00:27:03,167 --> 00:27:04,542 fully connected to it. 710 00:27:04,667 --> 00:27:06,583 And then, I told you, I lost my brother. 711 00:27:06,583 --> 00:27:08,500 That's when my faith really started to, like, 712 00:27:08,542 --> 00:27:10,000 come into play. 713 00:27:10,042 --> 00:27:11,833 I think, you know, when you lose somebody, 714 00:27:11,875 --> 00:27:13,333 that changes everything. 715 00:27:13,417 --> 00:27:15,500 And so then I tried to connect to my religion, 716 00:27:15,542 --> 00:27:18,167 like, my roots and how I was raised. 717 00:27:18,208 --> 00:27:22,708 - I'm open to being with anyone from any religion, 718 00:27:22,833 --> 00:27:27,917 and I'm looking forward to seeing how Clare and I 719 00:27:28,042 --> 00:27:30,667 can build a life together. 720 00:27:30,708 --> 00:27:33,583 Yeah, I have not perused those books. 721 00:27:33,667 --> 00:27:35,542 Maybe I'll have to look. 722 00:27:35,625 --> 00:27:36,875 - Well, I know you're not religious at all. 723 00:27:36,958 --> 00:27:38,750 - No. - That's OK with me. 724 00:27:38,833 --> 00:27:41,542 I am open to hear the way that you view 725 00:27:41,625 --> 00:27:43,208 the world and all of that. 726 00:27:43,292 --> 00:27:46,292 I'm just letting you know that I am faithful. 727 00:27:46,375 --> 00:27:48,458 Obviously, we're gonna have to talk about that. 728 00:27:48,542 --> 00:27:50,000 - Yeah, yeah, maybe move-in day 729 00:27:50,042 --> 00:27:51,375 is not the day to talk about it. 730 00:27:51,458 --> 00:27:53,292 - Yeah. 731 00:27:55,542 --> 00:27:57,000 - ♪ What you stopping for 732 00:27:57,083 --> 00:27:58,542 ♪ What are you loving for 733 00:27:58,625 --> 00:28:00,667 ♪ All we say is yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 734 00:28:00,750 --> 00:28:02,500 - Are you excited to see my place? 735 00:28:02,583 --> 00:28:03,333 - I'm excited to see your place. 736 00:28:03,458 --> 00:28:05,708 - Heck yeah. 737 00:28:05,792 --> 00:28:08,542 - The suspense. [laughter] 738 00:28:08,667 --> 00:28:11,042 - My place is, like, you know, a little messy. 739 00:28:11,125 --> 00:28:13,667 And I have, like, a bunch of garage 740 00:28:13,708 --> 00:28:16,958 shelving in it because my garage is 741 00:28:17,042 --> 00:28:18,875 being demolished and rebuilt. 742 00:28:18,958 --> 00:28:20,667 - Do you like your place? 743 00:28:20,750 --> 00:28:24,958 - Eh, enough. 744 00:28:25,042 --> 00:28:26,833 - I don't think there would be anything that would really 745 00:28:26,917 --> 00:28:28,917 turn me off that I would see inside, 746 00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:31,875 unless there's, like, snakes all over the place, 747 00:28:31,958 --> 00:28:34,750 or, like, a murder room. 748 00:28:34,875 --> 00:28:36,333 That would be scary. 749 00:28:36,417 --> 00:28:38,375 Wow! Look at how cute! 750 00:28:38,458 --> 00:28:40,500 Did you build this yourself? 751 00:28:40,542 --> 00:28:43,000 - This is 100 years old. 752 00:28:43,042 --> 00:28:45,250 - You're 100 years old? - It was repainted. 753 00:28:45,375 --> 00:28:50,625 ♪ 754 00:28:50,708 --> 00:28:53,167 - Wow! - Wow! 755 00:28:53,250 --> 00:28:54,667 - Wow! 756 00:28:54,708 --> 00:28:56,083 Look at how cute! 757 00:28:56,167 --> 00:28:58,167 Look at how big! 758 00:28:58,292 --> 00:29:00,500 Look at all this space. 759 00:29:00,583 --> 00:29:02,292 What do you do with all this space? 760 00:29:02,375 --> 00:29:03,458 - Activities. 761 00:29:03,542 --> 00:29:04,958 - Like, look at this. 762 00:29:05,042 --> 00:29:06,500 You could fit a whole other table here. 763 00:29:06,583 --> 00:29:08,125 - You could. - You made these? 764 00:29:08,208 --> 00:29:10,208 - Yeah. Made these little boxes. 765 00:29:10,292 --> 00:29:12,542 - Cute. You made this? 766 00:29:12,667 --> 00:29:14,500 - Used these from old candles. 767 00:29:14,583 --> 00:29:16,250 - Cute. - Drilled holes in them. 768 00:29:16,375 --> 00:29:17,625 - He's a handy guy. 769 00:29:17,708 --> 00:29:20,250 - Just quick, easy stuff. 770 00:29:20,333 --> 00:29:21,833 Should we bring more plants, or no? 771 00:29:21,875 --> 00:29:23,500 - This one's wild. 772 00:29:23,542 --> 00:29:24,875 - Yeah. 773 00:29:24,958 --> 00:29:27,417 - That one's not real. 774 00:29:27,500 --> 00:29:29,208 - Nope. Not real. 775 00:29:30,875 --> 00:29:34,000 - Wow. - Wow. 776 00:29:34,083 --> 00:29:35,333 - So, this is normally what's in the garage. 777 00:29:35,417 --> 00:29:36,792 - Yeah. 778 00:29:36,875 --> 00:29:38,583 - I think I knew how many hats you had. 779 00:29:38,667 --> 00:29:40,292 - Just wait. 780 00:29:40,417 --> 00:29:41,750 More is coming. 781 00:29:41,750 --> 00:29:43,500 - I want this one. - Cowboy hat? 782 00:29:43,583 --> 00:29:45,167 Go for it. 783 00:29:45,292 --> 00:29:47,458 - There we go. - Giddyap, cowboy. 784 00:29:47,542 --> 00:29:49,083 - You look good. - Thanks. 785 00:29:49,208 --> 00:29:50,250 She's a cowgirl. 786 00:29:50,333 --> 00:29:53,500 Go check out the bathing quarters. 787 00:29:53,500 --> 00:29:55,333 [laughter] 788 00:29:55,417 --> 00:29:56,500 [door creaking] 789 00:29:56,542 --> 00:29:57,625 Looks nice. 790 00:29:57,708 --> 00:29:59,750 Yeah, clean bathroom. 791 00:29:59,875 --> 00:30:01,875 Good standards. - Yeah. 792 00:30:01,958 --> 00:30:04,500 - How often do you wash your towels? 793 00:30:04,542 --> 00:30:06,375 - When necessary. 794 00:30:06,458 --> 00:30:08,292 - Cool. 795 00:30:09,708 --> 00:30:11,375 I wash everything once a week. - Do you really? 796 00:30:11,458 --> 00:30:12,667 - Mm-hmm. - Yeah. 797 00:30:12,792 --> 00:30:14,000 I just, like, don't love doing laundry 798 00:30:14,083 --> 00:30:15,833 as much as you, apparently. 799 00:30:15,917 --> 00:30:17,167 - She loves it. 800 00:30:17,250 --> 00:30:19,250 - I only do it, like, once a month. 801 00:30:19,333 --> 00:30:20,917 [laughter] 802 00:30:21,042 --> 00:30:22,583 - All of your laundry? 803 00:30:22,667 --> 00:30:23,833 - Mm-hmm. 804 00:30:23,875 --> 00:30:24,958 Maybe. I don't know. 805 00:30:25,042 --> 00:30:26,583 I don't keep a schedule. 806 00:30:26,667 --> 00:30:27,833 - OK. No, no, no, it's good. 807 00:30:27,917 --> 00:30:29,917 It's good. Round low, aim high. 808 00:30:30,917 --> 00:30:32,417 But I feel like-- 809 00:30:32,500 --> 00:30:33,333 I like a lot about your house. 810 00:30:33,375 --> 00:30:34,833 - Yeah? - Yeah. 811 00:30:34,917 --> 00:30:37,583 I like how it's not just, like, a cookie-cutter house. 812 00:30:37,667 --> 00:30:40,208 Like, I like a little bit of character in my houses. 813 00:30:40,292 --> 00:30:42,000 I like some old, creaky floors. 814 00:30:42,083 --> 00:30:43,375 - Yeah. 815 00:30:43,458 --> 00:30:45,625 - I like a lot of windows, and you've got that. 816 00:30:45,708 --> 00:30:47,333 And I like-- 817 00:30:47,417 --> 00:30:50,708 - I mean, I know this is, like, a long ways down the line. 818 00:30:50,792 --> 00:30:54,000 I mean, I guess, like, what I was originally thinking was, 819 00:30:54,083 --> 00:30:56,958 after decision day, even if things are, like, 820 00:30:57,042 --> 00:30:59,125 still going really well, I mean, we do live 821 00:30:59,208 --> 00:31:01,000 pretty close to each other. 822 00:31:01,083 --> 00:31:02,625 So I was just thinking we'd, like, move back 823 00:31:02,708 --> 00:31:06,375 into our normal spots while we, like, finished up our leases, 824 00:31:06,458 --> 00:31:09,833 and then sorted out what we're gonna do after that. 825 00:31:11,542 --> 00:31:14,458 - My lease is month by month, so I'm flexible. 826 00:31:14,458 --> 00:31:18,000 - I mean, I live with a roommate, obviously, 827 00:31:18,083 --> 00:31:19,583 and you live by yourself. 828 00:31:19,667 --> 00:31:21,667 So I don't know why you'd want to move in here. 829 00:31:21,750 --> 00:31:24,333 ♪ 830 00:31:24,375 --> 00:31:28,083 - But I feel like what would probably make more sense 831 00:31:28,208 --> 00:31:30,000 is, once your lease is up, to move into my place, 832 00:31:30,125 --> 00:31:32,000 while we wait to maybe buy something. 833 00:31:33,042 --> 00:31:34,625 - That would make sense. 834 00:31:34,708 --> 00:31:36,125 Yeah. 835 00:31:37,250 --> 00:31:39,667 For sure. Do you have a garage? 836 00:31:39,792 --> 00:31:42,500 - We'll work on it. 837 00:31:42,542 --> 00:31:46,333 ♪ 838 00:31:46,458 --> 00:31:50,500 - At this point, I honestly never know 839 00:31:50,583 --> 00:31:51,833 what to say to my husband 840 00:31:51,917 --> 00:31:55,000 because after our, you know, 841 00:31:55,125 --> 00:31:57,667 day of calling out the D word, 842 00:31:57,750 --> 00:32:00,042 and after talking to Pastor Cal, 843 00:32:00,125 --> 00:32:02,333 he reached out to me via text. 844 00:32:02,417 --> 00:32:06,875 And he does not want to continue the marriage, 845 00:32:06,958 --> 00:32:09,958 but he wants to continue the process, 846 00:32:10,042 --> 00:32:11,875 which I guess I'm confused, because I thought 847 00:32:11,958 --> 00:32:15,333 the process was a marriage. 848 00:32:15,417 --> 00:32:17,250 I don't know what I'm supposed to do with that at this point. 849 00:32:17,333 --> 00:32:20,042 At this point, I am feeling a little bit 850 00:32:20,042 --> 00:32:25,292 emotionally distressed, emotionally overwhelmed. 851 00:32:25,375 --> 00:32:29,208 And at this point, who knows what's gonna happen, y'all. 852 00:32:29,208 --> 00:32:30,583 ♪ 853 00:32:34,542 --> 00:32:37,042 - ♪ And I always hit the bottle ♪ 854 00:32:37,125 --> 00:32:41,833 ♪ Drown my sorrow when you leave me ♪ 855 00:32:41,875 --> 00:32:43,958 - Nice and cool. 856 00:32:44,042 --> 00:32:46,417 [soft music] 857 00:32:46,542 --> 00:32:49,167 Pastor Cal is coming to our place tonight, 858 00:32:49,208 --> 00:32:51,292 which is good timing because I feel like Brennan 859 00:32:51,375 --> 00:32:52,917 has been closed off since coming back 860 00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:54,167 from the honeymoon. 861 00:32:54,208 --> 00:32:55,500 - Ready for this? 862 00:32:55,542 --> 00:32:57,208 - I'm ready. 863 00:32:57,292 --> 00:32:58,667 That's nice. - You like it? 864 00:32:58,750 --> 00:33:00,333 - Mm-hmm. - We're matching sweaters. 865 00:33:00,375 --> 00:33:01,833 - Yeah. 866 00:33:01,917 --> 00:33:06,708 Brennan's not really showing or expressing much emotion. 867 00:33:06,792 --> 00:33:08,708 How was your day? 868 00:33:08,833 --> 00:33:10,958 - Swamped. 869 00:33:11,042 --> 00:33:12,708 - There's a lot going through my head. 870 00:33:12,792 --> 00:33:15,208 I feel like there's been a lot going on, like, all week, 871 00:33:15,292 --> 00:33:18,667 but I'm just really trying to give him 872 00:33:18,708 --> 00:33:21,667 what he needs in order to get us back to where 873 00:33:21,708 --> 00:33:23,333 I know we were before. 874 00:33:23,375 --> 00:33:26,000 But I personally could use, like, someone 875 00:33:26,042 --> 00:33:27,750 to help figure this out. 876 00:33:27,833 --> 00:33:29,375 [knock at door] 877 00:33:29,458 --> 00:33:31,208 Go get it. 878 00:33:33,083 --> 00:33:34,583 - I was gonna to ask who it was, but I had a feeling. 879 00:33:34,708 --> 00:33:36,125 - What's up, man? - What's going on, buddy? 880 00:33:36,208 --> 00:33:38,833 - How you doing, man? - Good, man, you? 881 00:33:38,875 --> 00:33:40,125 - I'm good. How are you? 882 00:33:40,208 --> 00:33:41,833 - Good, man. - Hello! 883 00:33:41,958 --> 00:33:43,375 - Hello! How are you? 884 00:33:43,500 --> 00:33:44,833 - Oh, my God, we're matching today! 885 00:33:44,875 --> 00:33:46,583 - I know, right? Good to see you. 886 00:33:46,667 --> 00:33:48,417 - Good to see you. - OK. 887 00:33:48,500 --> 00:33:51,958 This looks really nice and put together, 888 00:33:52,042 --> 00:33:55,208 not lived in, right? 889 00:33:55,375 --> 00:33:56,833 - Correct. 890 00:33:56,917 --> 00:33:58,292 ♪ 891 00:33:58,375 --> 00:34:00,625 - Let's jump right in and talk about that. 892 00:34:00,708 --> 00:34:02,458 What is going on? 893 00:34:02,542 --> 00:34:03,833 - Like, it's just been so go, go, go. 894 00:34:03,917 --> 00:34:05,500 We both have crazy work weeks. 895 00:34:05,542 --> 00:34:07,375 - Yeah, we had the wedding, we had the honeymoon, and then, 896 00:34:07,458 --> 00:34:08,792 all of a sudden, we come back, and we were like, 897 00:34:08,875 --> 00:34:11,000 oh, [bleep], like, we've got the real 898 00:34:11,042 --> 00:34:12,458 world to come back to. 899 00:34:12,542 --> 00:34:14,625 So we were just like, let's take a minute, 900 00:34:14,708 --> 00:34:16,292 gather ourselves. 901 00:34:16,375 --> 00:34:19,125 - We just didn't see the need to, like, rush it. 902 00:34:19,208 --> 00:34:23,458 - Do you feel invested in the marriage? 903 00:34:23,542 --> 00:34:25,875 ♪ 904 00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:27,583 - I feel invested in the marriage, yes. 905 00:34:27,667 --> 00:34:28,708 - Do you feel like you're getting back 906 00:34:28,792 --> 00:34:29,792 what you're putting in? 907 00:34:29,875 --> 00:34:32,917 - I do. 908 00:34:32,917 --> 00:34:34,833 - You gave me a very musical "do." 909 00:34:34,917 --> 00:34:36,500 - I do. - And that's--no. 910 00:34:36,583 --> 00:34:38,667 No, no, no, your first reaction. 911 00:34:38,667 --> 00:34:43,208 - I just feel like there is a lot to figure out. 912 00:34:43,292 --> 00:34:46,792 And I think we're 913 00:34:46,875 --> 00:34:49,750 in different spots as of now. 914 00:34:49,833 --> 00:34:51,333 - OK, OK, stop for a second. 915 00:34:51,333 --> 00:34:52,792 I don't--this is not-- 916 00:34:52,875 --> 00:34:54,375 I don't want you guys to be politically correct. 917 00:34:54,458 --> 00:34:55,833 - No. 918 00:34:55,958 --> 00:34:57,083 - I don't want you guys to pull punches. 919 00:34:57,208 --> 00:34:58,583 I don't want you guys to even worry 920 00:34:58,708 --> 00:35:00,333 about whether or not the other person will be offended. 921 00:35:00,417 --> 00:35:02,333 - No, yeah, I'm literally speaking what's, 922 00:35:02,417 --> 00:35:03,542 like, coming to my mind, yeah. 923 00:35:03,667 --> 00:35:05,708 - Serious, OK. 924 00:35:07,167 --> 00:35:09,125 - Like, I like him. I'm attracted to him. 925 00:35:09,208 --> 00:35:12,000 And I felt like he really liked me in the beginning, 926 00:35:12,125 --> 00:35:14,375 but then I started feeling, like, unsure, 927 00:35:14,458 --> 00:35:16,917 and, like, I'm trying to understand how to, 928 00:35:17,000 --> 00:35:19,958 like, move forward with that. 929 00:35:20,042 --> 00:35:21,875 - Do you want to speak to that? 930 00:35:21,958 --> 00:35:23,583 - Yeah, I think, you know, 931 00:35:23,667 --> 00:35:25,500 during the honeymoon and the wedding, 932 00:35:25,583 --> 00:35:28,208 like, you're kind of just, like, overcome with all 933 00:35:28,333 --> 00:35:31,000 this adrenaline and everything, and you really don't 934 00:35:31,083 --> 00:35:32,333 know how you feel. 935 00:35:32,375 --> 00:35:33,667 You're just, like, going with the flow, 936 00:35:33,708 --> 00:35:35,625 and riding, and riding, and riding. 937 00:35:35,708 --> 00:35:37,458 And then, like, it just hit me, like, 938 00:35:37,542 --> 00:35:40,542 a few days later, where I was just like, something's off, 939 00:35:40,667 --> 00:35:42,208 like, between us. 940 00:35:42,208 --> 00:35:44,042 And when I, like, look back at how, 941 00:35:44,167 --> 00:35:45,833 like, we were interacting everything, like, 942 00:35:45,875 --> 00:35:47,083 all that was good. 943 00:35:47,167 --> 00:35:48,958 But, like, I didn't, like, feel that, 944 00:35:49,042 --> 00:35:50,667 like, romantic connection. 945 00:35:50,708 --> 00:35:52,875 And over time, with the honeymoon, 946 00:35:52,958 --> 00:35:54,500 it got less and less. 947 00:35:54,542 --> 00:35:56,625 I don't know, like, what to do about it. 948 00:35:56,708 --> 00:35:59,458 Like, here I have, like, the most amazing girl. 949 00:35:59,542 --> 00:36:02,417 And, like, we're aligned on everything, 950 00:36:02,500 --> 00:36:05,792 and I, like, don't know what's wrong. 951 00:36:05,875 --> 00:36:07,458 ♪ 952 00:36:07,542 --> 00:36:11,417 I just--I don't feel any type of, 953 00:36:11,417 --> 00:36:14,542 like, romance right now. 954 00:36:14,625 --> 00:36:16,417 I'm not saying the door is closed. 955 00:36:16,500 --> 00:36:17,875 I'm just saying-- - Sure, sure, sure. 956 00:36:17,958 --> 00:36:19,292 You're saying, right now, you don't feel that. 957 00:36:19,292 --> 00:36:21,250 - Yeah. - How do you feel about that? 958 00:36:21,333 --> 00:36:22,667 - I just, like-- 959 00:36:22,750 --> 00:36:25,333 I really do believe there is something here. 960 00:36:25,417 --> 00:36:28,000 And like I feel like, yeah, I've done my best 961 00:36:28,083 --> 00:36:29,833 to be very open and honest. 962 00:36:29,917 --> 00:36:31,708 But I need some more, like, emotions in order 963 00:36:31,792 --> 00:36:35,542 to figure out, like, how to progress. 964 00:36:35,625 --> 00:36:37,917 - Tell me, what feeling do you want? 965 00:36:37,917 --> 00:36:39,792 Tell me what you're looking for. 966 00:36:39,875 --> 00:36:43,583 - I'm looking to, like, just gravitate towards her, 967 00:36:43,667 --> 00:36:45,833 and want to, like, touch her, and, like, 968 00:36:45,917 --> 00:36:49,125 do the things that, like, a romantic partner should do. 969 00:36:49,208 --> 00:36:52,375 And I'm just not able to do that because I 970 00:36:52,458 --> 00:36:55,333 don't feel like I can do it. 971 00:36:55,375 --> 00:36:57,708 - So you don't want to touch her? 972 00:36:57,833 --> 00:37:01,000 - I mean, that's a pretty [bleep] way to say it, 973 00:37:01,083 --> 00:37:02,833 but yeah. 974 00:37:04,333 --> 00:37:07,208 I mean, just not there. 975 00:37:07,292 --> 00:37:09,375 - OK, but have you pushed yourself to see? 976 00:37:09,458 --> 00:37:10,792 - Yeah. 977 00:37:10,875 --> 00:37:12,792 The whole honeymoon, it's all I was trying to do. 978 00:37:12,875 --> 00:37:15,917 - So during the honeymoon, you didn't feel it either? 979 00:37:16,042 --> 00:37:20,375 ♪ 980 00:37:20,458 --> 00:37:23,917 - I try, and then I'm like, I don't feel anything. 981 00:37:24,042 --> 00:37:25,417 OK. 982 00:37:26,625 --> 00:37:28,583 Like, I want to touch her leg. 983 00:37:28,583 --> 00:37:30,000 I'm touching her leg. - OK. 984 00:37:30,083 --> 00:37:31,458 But have you ever wanted to? - Yeah. 985 00:37:31,542 --> 00:37:32,958 - You have wanted to? - Yeah. 986 00:37:33,042 --> 00:37:34,667 - When? - I don't know. 987 00:37:34,750 --> 00:37:36,667 Whenever we have, like, good moments between us. 988 00:37:36,708 --> 00:37:38,542 - So, when you have good-- OK, OK. 989 00:37:38,667 --> 00:37:40,250 When you have good moments between you, 990 00:37:40,333 --> 00:37:42,167 you do feel like being affectionate? 991 00:37:42,292 --> 00:37:43,625 - Yeah. 992 00:37:43,708 --> 00:37:47,167 But it hasn't gotten me anywhere in terms 993 00:37:47,167 --> 00:37:48,833 of how I want to feel. 994 00:37:48,917 --> 00:37:50,708 ♪ 995 00:37:50,792 --> 00:37:54,333 - The difference here is that, because you're married, 996 00:37:54,375 --> 00:37:56,333 you've given yourself a goal, you know, this is how 997 00:37:56,417 --> 00:37:59,167 I should be feeling, right? 998 00:37:59,208 --> 00:38:02,083 I want you to kind of erase that and start 999 00:38:02,208 --> 00:38:04,333 building your norm here. 1000 00:38:04,417 --> 00:38:06,792 This is a completely different situation from anything 1001 00:38:06,875 --> 00:38:08,917 you've ever experienced. 1002 00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:13,542 And so your emotional closeness is going to come differently. 1003 00:38:13,625 --> 00:38:17,500 Your intimacy is going to come differently. 1004 00:38:17,583 --> 00:38:20,167 Does that make sense? - Mm-hmm. 1005 00:38:20,208 --> 00:38:22,167 - It's sort of like you're digging a hole for yourself, 1006 00:38:22,250 --> 00:38:24,375 and it becomes self-sabotaging. 1007 00:38:26,042 --> 00:38:28,000 How can I ask this? 1008 00:38:28,083 --> 00:38:30,667 Is there anything about her that-- 1009 00:38:30,750 --> 00:38:32,875 that you are not attracted to? 1010 00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:34,250 - We're not doing that. 1011 00:38:34,333 --> 00:38:36,042 - We're not doing that? 1012 00:38:36,167 --> 00:38:37,833 I'm asking you this because I'm trying to get deeper. 1013 00:38:37,917 --> 00:38:39,417 - Yeah. 1014 00:38:39,500 --> 00:38:42,833 - You're very careful, and almost-- 1015 00:38:42,875 --> 00:38:45,500 I'm going to use the word "fearful"-- 1016 00:38:45,625 --> 00:38:49,167 to pull back and get too deep in your emotions. 1017 00:38:49,250 --> 00:38:51,458 Tell me if I'm right or wrong here. 1018 00:38:51,542 --> 00:38:54,250 - No, I think, when you're on TV, you always 1019 00:38:54,333 --> 00:38:56,333 want to be mindful of how you come across. 1020 00:38:56,375 --> 00:38:59,167 I open up when I feel a sense of comfort, 1021 00:38:59,208 --> 00:39:01,667 and this is very new for me. 1022 00:39:01,708 --> 00:39:03,542 - OK. 1023 00:39:03,625 --> 00:39:06,417 What do you like about her? 1024 00:39:06,500 --> 00:39:10,625 - I like how spontaneous she is, how bubbly she is, 1025 00:39:10,708 --> 00:39:14,917 how energetic you are, how fun you are to be around, 1026 00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:18,000 how open-minded you are. 1027 00:39:18,083 --> 00:39:21,500 And I love that we have the same food interests. 1028 00:39:21,583 --> 00:39:24,125 - That's important. 1029 00:39:24,208 --> 00:39:26,708 - Good, good, good. I appreciate that. 1030 00:39:28,292 --> 00:39:31,583 Emily, your parents have been married forever. 1031 00:39:31,667 --> 00:39:33,375 - Ever, yeah. - And your parents-- 1032 00:39:33,458 --> 00:39:35,542 - Same. - Same. 1033 00:39:35,625 --> 00:39:38,542 I will guarantee you that, if you talk to them, 1034 00:39:38,542 --> 00:39:42,458 they will tell you, they don't always good about-- 1035 00:39:42,542 --> 00:39:44,708 we don't always feel good about each other, 1036 00:39:44,792 --> 00:39:47,500 but we're here because of something much deeper. 1037 00:39:47,542 --> 00:39:50,208 And that's what we're trying to do here. 1038 00:39:50,292 --> 00:39:52,167 Going forward, what do you think are some of the things 1039 00:39:52,250 --> 00:39:54,125 that you could do? 1040 00:39:54,208 --> 00:39:55,333 - I want to move in together. 1041 00:39:55,417 --> 00:39:56,958 ♪ 1042 00:39:57,042 --> 00:40:01,500 I want to see if that changes anything. 1043 00:40:01,542 --> 00:40:04,583 And take it a day at a time. 1044 00:40:04,667 --> 00:40:06,458 - And what you're going to find, honestly, 1045 00:40:06,542 --> 00:40:09,083 is that moving in together is actually 1046 00:40:09,167 --> 00:40:11,000 going to go a long way. 1047 00:40:11,042 --> 00:40:12,875 It honestly is. 1048 00:40:12,958 --> 00:40:14,625 And I want you to just trust me on this one, OK? 1049 00:40:14,708 --> 00:40:17,917 Just being in the same space is going to help. 1050 00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:20,667 - I agree. 1051 00:40:20,750 --> 00:40:24,500 I don't know what I can change to help the situation, 1052 00:40:24,542 --> 00:40:28,125 but I think, like, today, just talking about feelings 1053 00:40:28,208 --> 00:40:30,292 is, like, a huge step. 1054 00:40:30,375 --> 00:40:31,958 Because the only way, like, I think 1055 00:40:32,042 --> 00:40:34,167 we can figure this out is continuing 1056 00:40:34,208 --> 00:40:37,792 to open up about emotions, which I know is hard, but-- 1057 00:40:37,875 --> 00:40:39,667 - Yeah, it's tough. It's tough. 1058 00:40:39,750 --> 00:40:41,208 - It's really, I think, the only way, like, 1059 00:40:41,292 --> 00:40:43,500 we can really figure this out. 1060 00:40:43,583 --> 00:40:45,292 - ♪ One deep breath 1061 00:40:45,375 --> 00:40:47,500 ♪ One big step 1062 00:40:47,542 --> 00:40:49,417 ♪ Closer to dream 1063 00:40:53,042 --> 00:40:54,958 - ♪ Can we make this last forever ♪ 1064 00:40:55,042 --> 00:40:57,333 ♪ You and me together 1065 00:40:57,375 --> 00:41:00,000 ♪ End this night, your hand in mine ♪ 1066 00:41:00,042 --> 00:41:01,333 - Are we gonna sit here? 1067 00:41:01,458 --> 00:41:02,208 - Yeah, if you'd like to sit here. 1068 00:41:02,292 --> 00:41:03,583 - OK, thank you. 1069 00:41:03,667 --> 00:41:05,375 So anything happening since I saw you last? 1070 00:41:05,375 --> 00:41:07,250 - No. - No, nothing. 1071 00:41:07,333 --> 00:41:09,000 Life's been the same, you know? 1072 00:41:09,083 --> 00:41:11,958 - Oh, I got married. 1073 00:41:12,042 --> 00:41:13,250 - No kidding! - Yeah. 1074 00:41:13,375 --> 00:41:14,292 - Believe it or not... - Congratulations. 1075 00:41:14,375 --> 00:41:15,667 - Yeah. - Me too. 1076 00:41:15,792 --> 00:41:17,333 - OK, ooh! 1077 00:41:17,375 --> 00:41:18,958 - Yeah. 1078 00:41:19,042 --> 00:41:21,750 So, you know, married life is going well. 1079 00:41:21,833 --> 00:41:23,500 - It's different. - It's definitely different. 1080 00:41:23,542 --> 00:41:27,583 I think it's been a huge time of transition. 1081 00:41:27,667 --> 00:41:30,083 And we're just trying to, like, navigate that together. 1082 00:41:30,167 --> 00:41:33,500 - So tell me a little bit about some of the things 1083 00:41:33,583 --> 00:41:37,833 that you'd like some support on or some guidance on. 1084 00:41:37,875 --> 00:41:39,333 - Yeah. 1085 00:41:39,458 --> 00:41:41,792 - I can go. - Yeah. 1086 00:41:41,875 --> 00:41:45,375 - I think the thing that Clare and I maybe struggled 1087 00:41:45,500 --> 00:41:47,500 with the most during the honeymoon 1088 00:41:47,583 --> 00:41:50,708 was trying to build a comfortable space 1089 00:41:50,833 --> 00:41:52,375 for physical intimacy. 1090 00:41:52,458 --> 00:41:53,875 - I agree with that. 1091 00:41:54,000 --> 00:41:56,292 It was hard for me to express my love 1092 00:41:56,292 --> 00:41:57,875 and affection, whatever. 1093 00:41:57,958 --> 00:42:00,042 But, realistically, in my past, that hasn't 1094 00:42:00,167 --> 00:42:01,833 been something that I've done. 1095 00:42:01,875 --> 00:42:04,000 You know, for me, it's, like, if that emotional side is not 1096 00:42:04,042 --> 00:42:06,500 there, then I can't give myself to someone physically, 1097 00:42:06,583 --> 00:42:08,417 if, emotionally, I feel like there's a block there. 1098 00:42:08,500 --> 00:42:11,000 I am moving at a turtle pace, and I am sorry. 1099 00:42:11,125 --> 00:42:16,500 - No, but just even vocalizing, you know, what you just did, 1100 00:42:16,583 --> 00:42:17,708 it means a lot. 1101 00:42:17,792 --> 00:42:19,625 - Yeah. 1102 00:42:19,708 --> 00:42:21,833 - There's so many little things that can be done in that area, 1103 00:42:21,875 --> 00:42:24,833 and that could be holding his hands, touching his shoulder, 1104 00:42:24,875 --> 00:42:27,125 stroking his back, just things that, 1105 00:42:27,208 --> 00:42:31,000 when you're feeling warm, to show it physically that way. 1106 00:42:31,083 --> 00:42:32,208 - Yeah. 1107 00:42:32,292 --> 00:42:33,833 - I think it's really great 1108 00:42:33,875 --> 00:42:36,000 that he feels that way about you. 1109 00:42:36,083 --> 00:42:38,417 You know, I think you want to be desired. 1110 00:42:38,500 --> 00:42:39,958 - Right. 1111 00:42:40,042 --> 00:42:41,625 - But maybe showing him a little more 1112 00:42:41,708 --> 00:42:45,000 in affectionate ways. 1113 00:42:45,042 --> 00:42:48,042 - I mean, I think holding hands feels comfy, 1114 00:42:48,125 --> 00:42:49,375 or, like, you know-- 1115 00:42:49,542 --> 00:42:51,833 I mean, does it for you? - Yeah, yeah. 1116 00:42:51,917 --> 00:42:53,500 - Or do I need to ask you, like, is this comfortable? 1117 00:42:53,625 --> 00:42:55,042 - No, I'm-- 1118 00:42:55,125 --> 00:42:57,750 - I think he's good to go. - Yeah. 1119 00:42:57,833 --> 00:42:59,208 - I think that whole conversation pretty much-- 1120 00:42:59,333 --> 00:43:00,333 - I'm just saying! - Yeah. 1121 00:43:00,375 --> 00:43:01,667 - Yeah. 1122 00:43:01,792 --> 00:43:04,125 No, this does not feel weird to me. 1123 00:43:04,208 --> 00:43:07,125 So, yeah, I'll make sure that I'm displaying 1124 00:43:07,208 --> 00:43:09,667 more visible affection. 1125 00:43:09,750 --> 00:43:11,792 - Yeah, I think that's really good. 1126 00:43:11,875 --> 00:43:14,333 So there's a couple other things I want to cover. 1127 00:43:14,375 --> 00:43:16,708 Well, let's talk about religion 1128 00:43:16,833 --> 00:43:21,667 because I know that you come to it from different traditions. 1129 00:43:21,792 --> 00:43:23,667 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1130 00:43:23,708 --> 00:43:27,292 I was raised Christian. 1131 00:43:27,375 --> 00:43:30,042 I was actually kicked out of church when I was ten. 1132 00:43:30,125 --> 00:43:32,542 I spoke out against something that needed to be spoken 1133 00:43:32,667 --> 00:43:34,667 out against, as a ten-year-old. 1134 00:43:34,792 --> 00:43:39,417 I had to rediscover 1135 00:43:39,500 --> 00:43:42,083 what life meant to me. 1136 00:43:42,167 --> 00:43:47,875 And for me personally, the best tools I could give my children 1137 00:43:47,958 --> 00:43:50,792 is the understanding that the world 1138 00:43:50,875 --> 00:43:52,667 is gray, many shades of gray. 1139 00:43:52,750 --> 00:43:55,625 And I feel that religion does not 1140 00:43:55,708 --> 00:43:58,333 prepare my children adequately for the world 1141 00:43:58,375 --> 00:43:59,917 that they are facing. 1142 00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:02,917 - I totally respect. Don't agree, but I do respect. 1143 00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:05,708 - I also think that families can contain 1144 00:44:05,792 --> 00:44:08,333 people who don't agree. 1145 00:44:08,375 --> 00:44:13,542 But my sense of is there shared values about, you know, 1146 00:44:13,625 --> 00:44:15,875 what's respectful, and what's humane, 1147 00:44:15,958 --> 00:44:18,708 and how do you want to live an ethical life, 1148 00:44:18,833 --> 00:44:21,167 and those kinds of things, they can be expressed 1149 00:44:21,250 --> 00:44:22,667 in lots of different ways. 1150 00:44:22,750 --> 00:44:23,917 - Yeah, I really appreciate you saying that. 1151 00:44:24,000 --> 00:44:25,917 That's, I think, really helpful for us. 1152 00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:27,833 - We're still finding out that there's a lot 1153 00:44:27,917 --> 00:44:29,667 we don't know about each other. 1154 00:44:29,708 --> 00:44:31,708 But I'm glad that we're going slow 1155 00:44:31,833 --> 00:44:35,542 and that we're taking the time to get to know each other. 1156 00:44:35,625 --> 00:44:37,167 - Well, I think you guys have come a long way. 1157 00:44:37,250 --> 00:44:39,083 - I think so too. 1158 00:44:39,167 --> 00:44:41,375 - ♪ And I'm standing here on top of the world ♪ 1159 00:44:41,500 --> 00:44:45,625 ♪ Can't believe that I've never been here before ♪ 1160 00:44:45,708 --> 00:44:47,500 [soft music] 1161 00:44:47,625 --> 00:44:49,167 - ♪ All alone 1162 00:44:49,250 --> 00:44:52,167 ♪ I wouldn't want it any other way ♪ 1163 00:44:52,250 --> 00:44:54,792 - What did you think about what Pastor Cal said? 1164 00:44:54,875 --> 00:44:56,000 - I agreed with a lot. 1165 00:44:56,083 --> 00:44:57,583 And a lot of what he said is what I have 1166 00:44:57,667 --> 00:45:01,000 been analyzing and thinking. 1167 00:45:01,083 --> 00:45:02,167 ♪ 1168 00:45:02,208 --> 00:45:03,750 - Yeah. 1169 00:45:03,833 --> 00:45:05,375 - Specifically the self-sabotaging, that's what 1170 00:45:05,458 --> 00:45:06,542 I think you're doing. 1171 00:45:06,667 --> 00:45:09,042 - Oh, OK. - Mm-hmm. 1172 00:45:09,125 --> 00:45:10,792 Like, I just need you to--like, 1173 00:45:10,875 --> 00:45:13,583 you don't have to tell me, like, why not, but, like, 1174 00:45:13,708 --> 00:45:15,250 I just need you to tell me if you're physically 1175 00:45:15,333 --> 00:45:17,000 attracted to me or not. 1176 00:45:17,083 --> 00:45:18,917 Because I think that's a big, important piece of this. 1177 00:45:19,042 --> 00:45:21,500 And, like, you won't answer it directly. 1178 00:45:21,583 --> 00:45:23,417 - Because I just don't think that's nice. 1179 00:45:23,500 --> 00:45:26,250 - But, like, that's, like, a piece of this for me 1180 00:45:26,333 --> 00:45:29,125 to understand to, like, figure out. 1181 00:45:29,208 --> 00:45:31,667 ♪ 1182 00:45:31,708 --> 00:45:33,167 - I hear you. 1183 00:45:33,208 --> 00:45:35,042 I'm just also trying to protect you, so-- 1184 00:45:35,125 --> 00:45:36,917 ♪ 1185 00:45:37,042 --> 00:45:38,208 - Don't think you're gonna hurt my feelings. 1186 00:45:38,292 --> 00:45:39,667 You're hurting my feelings when you 1187 00:45:39,750 --> 00:45:42,708 just don't tell me everything. 1188 00:45:45,208 --> 00:45:47,667 - I just can't. 1189 00:45:47,750 --> 00:45:50,167 ♪ 1190 00:45:50,208 --> 00:45:53,542 I would never want someone to tell me that in any capacity, 1191 00:45:53,625 --> 00:45:55,500 so I just can't do it. 1192 00:45:55,625 --> 00:45:57,167 ♪ 1193 00:45:57,292 --> 00:45:59,458 - So you just answered that question by, like, 1194 00:45:59,458 --> 00:46:01,042 not answering the question. 1195 00:46:01,125 --> 00:46:03,958 - No, I don't-- I'm just not saying anything. 1196 00:46:04,042 --> 00:46:06,667 ♪ 1197 00:46:06,750 --> 00:46:10,125 - I know, like, this isn't a reflection on me. 1198 00:46:10,208 --> 00:46:14,917 And, like, I feel like I've always been really confident, 1199 00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:16,792 and, like, I know this. 1200 00:46:16,875 --> 00:46:20,083 But it still just sucks to, like, deal with. 1201 00:46:20,167 --> 00:46:22,958 It's just, like, I didn't ever really anticipate, 1202 00:46:23,042 --> 00:46:25,542 like, a lot of what's happening, like, 1203 00:46:25,625 --> 00:46:27,667 in this scenario with this. 1204 00:46:27,708 --> 00:46:31,167 ♪ 1205 00:46:31,208 --> 00:46:34,333 That doesn't mean I'm gonna stop trying. 1206 00:46:34,417 --> 00:46:37,792 I just really need to see what he does after today. 1207 00:46:37,875 --> 00:46:42,875 - I'm still here, right, so, like, not 100% there, 1208 00:46:43,000 --> 00:46:45,000 but I'm still willing to try. 1209 00:46:45,042 --> 00:46:47,417 ♪ 1210 00:46:51,458 --> 00:46:52,500 - ♪ Come so far 1211 00:46:52,500 --> 00:46:53,625 ♪ And look at where we are 1212 00:46:53,708 --> 00:46:56,708 ♪ Gonna lead the way 1213 00:46:56,792 --> 00:46:59,458 - Aw! - Good to see you! 1214 00:46:59,542 --> 00:47:01,625 - So what's up, guys? 1215 00:47:01,708 --> 00:47:03,583 Look at you guys, looking all married! 1216 00:47:03,667 --> 00:47:05,417 - We are. 1217 00:47:05,500 --> 00:47:06,792 - Pretty rad. 1218 00:47:06,875 --> 00:47:07,833 - You're all snuggly and everything. 1219 00:47:07,875 --> 00:47:09,250 - Oh, yeah. 1220 00:47:09,333 --> 00:47:11,500 - So how long did it take you to actually 1221 00:47:11,625 --> 00:47:14,000 become close physically? 1222 00:47:14,083 --> 00:47:15,958 Because, like, this seems so natural. 1223 00:47:16,083 --> 00:47:18,042 - Yeah, pretty instantaneous. 1224 00:47:18,125 --> 00:47:20,292 - Have you consummated the marriage? 1225 00:47:20,375 --> 00:47:22,333 ♪ 1226 00:47:22,417 --> 00:47:23,875 - The short answer is no. 1227 00:47:23,958 --> 00:47:25,167 - No, yeah. - Not yet. 1228 00:47:25,208 --> 00:47:26,667 - OK. 1229 00:47:26,750 --> 00:47:28,958 - I just, you know, want to connect and bond 1230 00:47:29,042 --> 00:47:32,292 on, like, other things before taking that, like, step. 1231 00:47:32,375 --> 00:47:34,000 I just need more time. 1232 00:47:34,083 --> 00:47:35,833 I've always been that way. 1233 00:47:35,958 --> 00:47:37,167 - There's a desire there. - Yeah. 1234 00:47:37,208 --> 00:47:39,833 - Yeah. - For both of you, OK. 1235 00:47:39,958 --> 00:47:41,333 And not that we want to-- 1236 00:47:41,417 --> 00:47:44,167 look, the only reason we ask is that it's just 1237 00:47:44,250 --> 00:47:47,833 another barometer to measure, you, know your intimacy level. 1238 00:47:47,917 --> 00:47:49,833 - Yeah. - And how you're getting along. 1239 00:47:49,917 --> 00:47:52,708 And have you talked about children? 1240 00:47:52,792 --> 00:47:54,542 - Yeah. 1241 00:47:54,625 --> 00:47:57,458 - I have always been OK not having biological children. 1242 00:47:57,542 --> 00:48:00,625 But if my partner really wanted biological children, 1243 00:48:00,708 --> 00:48:03,083 I would also be happy to do that, 1244 00:48:03,167 --> 00:48:04,625 and, like, go on that adventure with my partner. 1245 00:48:04,708 --> 00:48:06,125 - Yeah. 1246 00:48:06,208 --> 00:48:08,125 Like, I also want to have a family. 1247 00:48:08,208 --> 00:48:10,583 But one thing we wanted to ask you, 1248 00:48:10,667 --> 00:48:14,208 actually, was kind of, because we talked about religion, 1249 00:48:14,292 --> 00:48:18,708 and we definitely have some differing opinions about that. 1250 00:48:18,792 --> 00:48:20,917 - What is at the core of your faith? 1251 00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:25,875 - I guess, like, it is based on, like, God's love, 1252 00:48:25,958 --> 00:48:29,500 you know, really, like, caring for everyone 1253 00:48:29,583 --> 00:48:30,958 that, like, is in your life. 1254 00:48:31,042 --> 00:48:32,958 Like, it's really based on love. 1255 00:48:33,042 --> 00:48:35,250 - It's based on love. 1256 00:48:35,333 --> 00:48:39,042 Tell me, what is the basis of your spirituality, 1257 00:48:39,125 --> 00:48:40,375 your spiritual journey. 1258 00:48:40,458 --> 00:48:44,167 - Kindness, and understanding, and-- 1259 00:48:44,250 --> 00:48:45,750 and love. 1260 00:48:45,833 --> 00:48:47,500 - Is it any different from what he said? 1261 00:48:47,583 --> 00:48:48,958 - No. 1262 00:48:49,042 --> 00:48:50,958 [laughter] 1263 00:48:51,042 --> 00:48:56,042 - And that kind of belief, I felt, was enough. 1264 00:48:56,167 --> 00:49:00,792 - In my experience, I don't often meet Christians 1265 00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:02,167 who don't want to change my mind. 1266 00:49:02,292 --> 00:49:04,167 - Rebecca, meet Austin. OK? 1267 00:49:04,208 --> 00:49:05,750 - Yeah. 1268 00:49:05,833 --> 00:49:08,833 - Because, for most people, we tend to attach, you know, 1269 00:49:08,917 --> 00:49:10,708 as a Christian, well, look, if you 1270 00:49:10,833 --> 00:49:11,875 don't believe the way I believe, 1271 00:49:11,958 --> 00:49:13,833 you're going to burn in hell. 1272 00:49:13,917 --> 00:49:17,833 And I think, a lot of times, we forget that, 1273 00:49:17,917 --> 00:49:21,000 if you actually 1274 00:49:21,042 --> 00:49:24,125 are living out the positive spirituality that you're 1275 00:49:24,208 --> 00:49:28,167 living, and it's moral, and it's good, and it's gentle, 1276 00:49:28,250 --> 00:49:32,583 and it's peaceful, then it's OK, you know. 1277 00:49:32,667 --> 00:49:36,833 Because you should never let anybody think and make 1278 00:49:36,875 --> 00:49:38,667 you feel as though you're doomed. 1279 00:49:38,750 --> 00:49:40,125 - Yeah. 1280 00:49:40,125 --> 00:49:41,333 - Do you understand what I'm saying? 1281 00:49:41,417 --> 00:49:42,833 Why are you getting emotional? 1282 00:49:42,917 --> 00:49:45,333 - Because that has been a lot of-- 1283 00:49:45,417 --> 00:49:47,500 like, especially being raised Jewish, 1284 00:49:47,542 --> 00:49:50,000 like, Christians just typically think, 1285 00:49:50,083 --> 00:49:52,000 because you haven't accepted Jesus into your heart, 1286 00:49:52,083 --> 00:49:54,708 that, like, you're to hell. 1287 00:49:54,792 --> 00:49:57,667 And, like, I've heard that, like, from close friends. 1288 00:49:57,750 --> 00:50:00,667 And it's hard, because it's like, 1289 00:50:00,750 --> 00:50:02,167 I don't think I'm going to hell. 1290 00:50:02,250 --> 00:50:03,583 - Yeah. 1291 00:50:03,667 --> 00:50:06,500 - And so, when I found out that I was paired with-- 1292 00:50:06,500 --> 00:50:08,500 - Yeah, it scared the crap out of you, didn't it? 1293 00:50:08,542 --> 00:50:10,167 - Yeah. 1294 00:50:10,208 --> 00:50:11,917 - I mean, he obviously cares a lot about you. 1295 00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:13,250 - I know. I know. 1296 00:50:13,375 --> 00:50:15,875 - If he did not care deeply for you, 1297 00:50:15,958 --> 00:50:18,417 he wouldn't be here, comforting you. 1298 00:50:18,500 --> 00:50:21,292 - Yeah. No, he's a good egg. 1299 00:50:21,375 --> 00:50:23,083 - Yeah, do you think this woman's compatible to you? 1300 00:50:23,083 --> 00:50:24,375 - Yeah, absolutely. 1301 00:50:24,458 --> 00:50:27,333 Yeah, the values were, like, very similar. 1302 00:50:27,458 --> 00:50:29,083 - The labels are the problem. 1303 00:50:29,167 --> 00:50:31,125 - The labels is--yeah. 1304 00:50:31,208 --> 00:50:34,917 I mean, it's something that, like, we are going-- 1305 00:50:34,917 --> 00:50:36,875 that, like, I'm going to have to work on, 1306 00:50:36,958 --> 00:50:40,375 and, like, I'm not saying that I can't, like, overcome it. 1307 00:50:40,500 --> 00:50:43,667 I just haven't had time to really, like, dive into it. 1308 00:50:43,750 --> 00:50:46,458 And, like, I understand, and, like, absorbing everything 1309 00:50:46,458 --> 00:50:48,292 you're saying, and I do agree with it. 1310 00:50:48,375 --> 00:50:51,625 - Yeah, do you feel like you're growing, 1311 00:50:51,708 --> 00:50:54,000 you're still in like with each other, or where-- 1312 00:50:54,083 --> 00:50:55,792 - Yeah, yeah. 1313 00:50:55,875 --> 00:50:57,042 - Yeah, I've got a crush on him. 1314 00:50:57,167 --> 00:50:58,875 - You have a crush on him? - Yeah. 1315 00:50:58,958 --> 00:51:01,833 - Can you see love in the future? 1316 00:51:01,875 --> 00:51:03,833 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1317 00:51:03,917 --> 00:51:07,875 - I already have told him that, like, I love him as a person. 1318 00:51:07,958 --> 00:51:09,333 - Yeah, no, I feel the same way. 1319 00:51:09,417 --> 00:51:11,750 Like, she's an amazing person, and we do say 1320 00:51:11,833 --> 00:51:13,417 that to each other frequently. 1321 00:51:13,542 --> 00:51:15,167 - But you're falling short of "I love you." 1322 00:51:15,250 --> 00:51:17,167 - Yeah, well, because we're not in love yet. 1323 00:51:17,250 --> 00:51:19,667 - And how do you know that? 1324 00:51:19,708 --> 00:51:21,500 - I-- 1325 00:51:21,542 --> 00:51:22,958 - I still don't even know how many speeding tickets he got. 1326 00:51:23,042 --> 00:51:25,000 You've gotta know that before you're in love with someone. 1327 00:51:25,083 --> 00:51:27,167 - Yeah, that's never been a requirement. 1328 00:51:27,250 --> 00:51:28,833 How do you know you're not in love? 1329 00:51:28,875 --> 00:51:31,208 - I don't know. 1330 00:51:31,333 --> 00:51:32,792 And like, I just feel like you know when you know, you know? 1331 00:51:32,875 --> 00:51:34,500 - Yeah. 1332 00:51:34,542 --> 00:51:37,250 - I think you guys have already planted the seeds, 1333 00:51:37,250 --> 00:51:39,250 and you're already growing in love. 1334 00:51:39,333 --> 00:51:41,958 And expressing it is the big thing. 1335 00:51:42,042 --> 00:51:43,500 - Yeah. 1336 00:51:43,542 --> 00:51:46,250 - I think you guys are really on a good track. 1337 00:51:46,375 --> 00:51:50,167 - ♪ Feeling good, good 1338 00:51:54,000 --> 00:51:56,542 - ♪ Is it love, is it love 1339 00:51:56,667 --> 00:51:59,458 [soft music] 1340 00:51:59,542 --> 00:52:01,875 ♪ 1341 00:52:01,875 --> 00:52:03,750 ♪ Is it love, is it love 1342 00:52:03,750 --> 00:52:06,333 - Hey, come on in. 1343 00:52:06,375 --> 00:52:09,708 I was completely blindsided with Orion 1344 00:52:09,833 --> 00:52:13,458 texting me to get a divorce. 1345 00:52:13,458 --> 00:52:16,000 - Hello, hi! - Hi, how are you? 1346 00:52:16,125 --> 00:52:18,167 - Being with him has been very inconsistent, 1347 00:52:18,208 --> 00:52:20,792 so I'm definitely going into the meeting with Dr. Pia 1348 00:52:20,875 --> 00:52:23,958 hoping that we can at least be honest with each other, 1349 00:52:24,042 --> 00:52:27,042 but I don't know if he's able to see 1350 00:52:27,125 --> 00:52:28,833 the good in this marriage. 1351 00:52:28,917 --> 00:52:30,708 ♪ 1352 00:52:30,792 --> 00:52:34,833 - I am grateful that you all both have decided 1353 00:52:34,958 --> 00:52:37,625 to meet with me tonight. 1354 00:52:37,708 --> 00:52:39,833 When was the last time that the two of you 1355 00:52:39,917 --> 00:52:42,292 spoke to one another, or even saw each other in person? 1356 00:52:42,375 --> 00:52:44,083 - A few texting here and there. 1357 00:52:44,208 --> 00:52:47,333 We actually tried to meet up before all of this. 1358 00:52:47,458 --> 00:52:49,708 It just didn't work out with timing and things like that. 1359 00:52:49,792 --> 00:52:51,500 - I don't really think there was a lot 1360 00:52:51,583 --> 00:52:55,042 of effort put into meeting up. 1361 00:52:55,167 --> 00:52:57,167 He reached out and asked to meet up. 1362 00:52:57,250 --> 00:53:00,583 I gave him my availability, and that was that. 1363 00:53:00,708 --> 00:53:02,042 - Does that mean there was no response after you 1364 00:53:02,125 --> 00:53:03,125 gave your availability? 1365 00:53:03,208 --> 00:53:04,792 - No, there wasn't. 1366 00:53:04,875 --> 00:53:07,417 The next response was telling me that he wanted a divorce. 1367 00:53:09,042 --> 00:53:11,000 - OK. 1368 00:53:11,083 --> 00:53:13,125 What are you feeling right now, Orion? 1369 00:53:13,125 --> 00:53:16,958 - I am not looking to hurt her with this. 1370 00:53:17,042 --> 00:53:20,750 You know, honestly, I thought that it would give us both 1371 00:53:20,833 --> 00:53:23,333 a chance to heal from this. 1372 00:53:23,417 --> 00:53:27,958 Because, at this point, I don't know what would help. 1373 00:53:28,042 --> 00:53:31,083 ♪ 1374 00:53:31,208 --> 00:53:32,667 - What I would hate is for there 1375 00:53:32,708 --> 00:53:35,208 to be a missed opportunity for the two of you 1376 00:53:35,292 --> 00:53:37,250 to have a repair. 1377 00:53:37,333 --> 00:53:39,542 - I do still want to be here. 1378 00:53:39,625 --> 00:53:42,042 I do still feel like my husband and I can make this work. 1379 00:53:42,125 --> 00:53:44,583 But I don't feel like he wants to. 1380 00:53:46,042 --> 00:53:48,458 You came back to me and said you want to do a reset, 1381 00:53:48,542 --> 00:53:51,750 I don't hold this against you, we can move through this. 1382 00:53:51,833 --> 00:53:54,083 And then the next day it's, you don't want to continue 1383 00:53:54,167 --> 00:53:55,792 the marriage, even though you literally 1384 00:53:55,875 --> 00:53:58,292 sent me a text saying you want to focus on the future. 1385 00:53:58,417 --> 00:54:00,208 Like, some things you just say, 1386 00:54:00,292 --> 00:54:01,792 I don't think it's your intention, 1387 00:54:01,875 --> 00:54:04,083 but it just confuses me so much to the point 1388 00:54:04,167 --> 00:54:06,833 where I'm just like, OK. 1389 00:54:06,875 --> 00:54:09,875 ♪ 1390 00:54:11,125 --> 00:54:13,500 - I did want to focus on the future, 1391 00:54:13,583 --> 00:54:15,792 and, you know, that wasn't necessarily 1392 00:54:15,875 --> 00:54:18,292 specific to me or to us. 1393 00:54:18,375 --> 00:54:20,500 It was just the future as a whole. 1394 00:54:20,542 --> 00:54:23,583 - OK, you came in already with your mind made up of, like, 1395 00:54:23,667 --> 00:54:25,167 mm, there really isn't much that's gonna, like, 1396 00:54:25,250 --> 00:54:26,500 sway your decision. 1397 00:54:26,583 --> 00:54:28,792 You came in here, like, I want a divorce. 1398 00:54:28,875 --> 00:54:30,208 That's what's gonna happen. 1399 00:54:30,292 --> 00:54:32,208 Is that fair to say? 1400 00:54:32,208 --> 00:54:35,833 - I wouldn't-- yes, it is fair to say. 1401 00:54:35,917 --> 00:54:39,458 ♪ 1402 00:54:39,542 --> 00:54:41,500 There is chemistry between us. 1403 00:54:41,625 --> 00:54:45,083 But with that being said, it is hard 1404 00:54:45,167 --> 00:54:47,625 because a lot of things cut really deep. 1405 00:54:47,708 --> 00:54:50,667 And after the honeymoon and everything that has happened, 1406 00:54:50,792 --> 00:54:54,500 I am really just feeling heartbroken. 1407 00:54:54,542 --> 00:54:57,750 ♪ 1408 00:54:57,875 --> 00:55:01,208 And, you know, wanting to be open to this, 1409 00:55:01,333 --> 00:55:05,500 I do, but I know we're not able to constructively 1410 00:55:05,583 --> 00:55:09,625 get past or talk about things because of how you react. 1411 00:55:09,750 --> 00:55:13,292 When something comes up, or something is being 1412 00:55:13,375 --> 00:55:15,833 talked about, something is overheard, 1413 00:55:15,875 --> 00:55:19,958 it does go from 0 to 100. 1414 00:55:20,042 --> 00:55:22,833 - I think that's fair to say, but it's also unfair 1415 00:55:22,917 --> 00:55:27,292 to act like my reaction was just a reaction. 1416 00:55:27,375 --> 00:55:29,667 If there's a reaction, there's an act. 1417 00:55:29,708 --> 00:55:32,208 ♪ 1418 00:55:32,375 --> 00:55:34,250 - When we're feeling anxious, when we're 1419 00:55:34,375 --> 00:55:37,500 feeling uncomfortable, we go into protective mode. 1420 00:55:37,583 --> 00:55:42,917 Both of you react in ways that perhaps are not productive 1421 00:55:43,000 --> 00:55:46,208 when feeling defensive. 1422 00:55:46,292 --> 00:55:48,458 It takes time to develop that skill, 1423 00:55:48,542 --> 00:55:50,750 especially in a new relationship. 1424 00:55:50,833 --> 00:55:54,333 And you have not had enough time 1425 00:55:54,458 --> 00:55:56,667 to get to know one another. 1426 00:55:56,708 --> 00:56:01,917 What I am asking of both of you is to extend even more grace 1427 00:56:01,917 --> 00:56:06,333 to one another, to truly start fresh, 1428 00:56:06,375 --> 00:56:10,500 start over, let go 1429 00:56:10,542 --> 00:56:14,042 of what happened on the honeymoon. 1430 00:56:14,125 --> 00:56:17,667 It is not a characterization of who you are at your core. 1431 00:56:17,750 --> 00:56:20,917 It is not a characterization of who you are at your core. 1432 00:56:21,042 --> 00:56:22,333 ♪ 1433 00:56:22,375 --> 00:56:24,875 Lauren, do you truly forgive him? 1434 00:56:25,042 --> 00:56:26,958 - Yeah. 1435 00:56:28,458 --> 00:56:32,125 I feel like I've expressed that multiple times. 1436 00:56:32,208 --> 00:56:34,167 - What about for you? 1437 00:56:34,167 --> 00:56:39,125 - Um-- 1438 00:56:39,208 --> 00:56:42,333 I'm not sure. I'm not sure. 1439 00:56:42,417 --> 00:56:44,833 ♪ 1440 00:56:44,875 --> 00:56:49,417 - I'm having a hard time understanding 1441 00:56:49,500 --> 00:56:53,042 the rigidity behind your unwillingness 1442 00:56:53,125 --> 00:56:55,708 to provide grace. 1443 00:56:55,792 --> 00:56:57,708 - Um... 1444 00:56:57,792 --> 00:56:59,250 ♪ 1445 00:56:59,333 --> 00:57:00,833 - Do you just not want to be with me? 1446 00:57:00,875 --> 00:57:02,667 Is that, like, an overarching feeling, 1447 00:57:02,750 --> 00:57:04,208 like, I just don't want to be with Lauren? 1448 00:57:04,333 --> 00:57:05,667 You can be honest. 1449 00:57:05,708 --> 00:57:07,167 You're not gonna hurt my feelings. 1450 00:57:07,208 --> 00:57:09,375 ♪ 1451 00:57:13,292 --> 00:57:15,333 - Do you just not want to be with me? 1452 00:57:15,333 --> 00:57:17,583 - It's just, with everything that happened, 1453 00:57:17,708 --> 00:57:21,625 everything that took place, 1454 00:57:21,708 --> 00:57:24,250 I lost all romantic interest. 1455 00:57:24,375 --> 00:57:26,917 ♪ 1456 00:57:29,083 --> 00:57:32,792 - Orion, how does control show up in your life for you? 1457 00:57:32,875 --> 00:57:35,583 - Well, I'm not trying to control what's happening 1458 00:57:35,708 --> 00:57:37,083 by calling for a divorce. 1459 00:57:37,167 --> 00:57:38,833 - You are. 1460 00:57:38,833 --> 00:57:40,583 ♪ 1461 00:57:40,667 --> 00:57:43,083 You feel uncomfortable, so your part of control 1462 00:57:43,208 --> 00:57:44,750 is to remove yourself from it. 1463 00:57:44,875 --> 00:57:49,458 I do feel confident that a repair is possible, 1464 00:57:49,542 --> 00:57:51,833 but you are protecting yourself. 1465 00:57:51,917 --> 00:57:53,833 That's a certain level of vulnerability 1466 00:57:53,917 --> 00:57:57,000 that you have closed off right now. 1467 00:57:57,083 --> 00:57:58,500 - OK. 1468 00:57:58,583 --> 00:58:01,208 - There is no such thing as a perfect marriage, 1469 00:58:01,333 --> 00:58:03,917 whether y'all are married to each other or anybody else. 1470 00:58:04,042 --> 00:58:07,208 There's going to be many uncomfortable moments. 1471 00:58:07,292 --> 00:58:09,542 And I really don't want to see you 1472 00:58:09,625 --> 00:58:12,667 all give up on one another. 1473 00:58:12,750 --> 00:58:16,875 Is there any chance that the two of you 1474 00:58:16,958 --> 00:58:20,833 can be open to working through this together, 1475 00:58:20,875 --> 00:58:24,500 or is there this resolute of, this is my Decision Day, 1476 00:58:24,583 --> 00:58:26,333 and the decision is to divorce? 1477 00:58:26,417 --> 00:58:27,667 ♪ 1478 00:58:27,792 --> 00:58:29,833 - It feels so horrible that I've put you 1479 00:58:29,875 --> 00:58:33,250 in the predicament to lose romantic attraction to me 1480 00:58:33,375 --> 00:58:35,167 because, through this, I have maintained 1481 00:58:35,292 --> 00:58:37,083 my romantic attraction to you. 1482 00:58:37,167 --> 00:58:40,208 But if you don't feel like you have it in you to do it, like, 1483 00:58:40,292 --> 00:58:41,792 I don't want to twist your arm. 1484 00:58:41,875 --> 00:58:43,875 I don't want to force you to stay with me. 1485 00:58:46,667 --> 00:58:48,500 - You know, there is no doubt that there 1486 00:58:48,542 --> 00:58:50,167 is chemistry between us. 1487 00:58:50,208 --> 00:58:53,417 And when we are, you know, avoiding the big topics, 1488 00:58:53,542 --> 00:58:56,333 or trying to navigate around them, yes, 1489 00:58:56,417 --> 00:58:58,833 I mean, everything is great. 1490 00:58:58,875 --> 00:59:04,500 But there is no romance within me anymore. 1491 00:59:04,542 --> 00:59:07,000 After the honeymoon, taking time, 1492 00:59:07,125 --> 00:59:09,542 and just this conversation, and where I'm feeling, 1493 00:59:09,625 --> 00:59:11,917 and where I'm at, 1494 00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:15,458 I want to continue to follow through 1495 00:59:15,542 --> 00:59:17,375 with wanting a divorce. 1496 00:59:17,458 --> 00:59:24,125 ♪ 1497 00:59:24,208 --> 00:59:27,500 - Anything that you'd like to say to him, Lauren? 1498 00:59:27,542 --> 00:59:29,500 - No. It would be a waste. 1499 00:59:29,625 --> 00:59:32,458 - Do you want a divorce? 1500 00:59:32,583 --> 00:59:34,167 - It doesn't matter what I want. 1501 00:59:34,250 --> 00:59:35,833 - It does matter what you want. 1502 00:59:35,875 --> 00:59:40,167 Can you share with Orion what it is that you want? 1503 00:59:40,208 --> 00:59:42,667 ♪ 1504 00:59:42,792 --> 00:59:44,958 - I can only speak for myself. 1505 00:59:45,042 --> 00:59:47,333 I knew what marriage looked like, 1506 00:59:47,458 --> 00:59:49,333 and that there would be obstacles. 1507 00:59:49,375 --> 00:59:53,250 And marriage requires a lot of forgiveness, a lot of grace. 1508 00:59:53,333 --> 00:59:58,125 And I'm just thinking that I can't wait to be in a marriage 1509 00:59:58,208 --> 01:00:00,792 with someone who wants to try as hard as I do. 1510 01:00:00,875 --> 01:00:03,167 That's what I'm thinking. 1511 01:00:03,250 --> 01:00:06,292 ♪ 1512 01:00:06,375 --> 01:00:08,083 - That's fair. 1513 01:00:11,083 --> 01:00:15,000 ♪ 1514 01:00:15,042 --> 01:00:20,542 - I hope you're OK, and I wish you the best. 1515 01:00:20,667 --> 01:00:22,833 - This whole thing is stupid. 1516 01:00:22,875 --> 01:00:26,583 Both of us were robbed because of his unforgivingness, 1517 01:00:26,667 --> 01:00:28,333 and that's annoying. 1518 01:00:28,417 --> 01:00:29,625 - Thank you. - You're very welcome. 1519 01:00:29,708 --> 01:00:31,250 - Thank you for coming. - Absolutely. 1520 01:00:31,333 --> 01:00:33,708 - Because this could have went totally different if we would 1521 01:00:33,792 --> 01:00:36,333 have gave it two more weeks. 1522 01:00:36,375 --> 01:00:38,417 I understand, [bleep] happened, but when does [bleep] 1523 01:00:38,500 --> 01:00:40,875 not happen in relationships? 1524 01:00:40,958 --> 01:00:45,292 - ♪ I really tried to be my best for you ♪ 1525 01:00:45,292 --> 01:00:47,833 [soft music] 1526 01:00:47,917 --> 01:00:50,750 ♪ I just kept on falling 1527 01:00:50,833 --> 01:00:54,333 ♪ I loved you without caution ♪ 1528 01:00:54,417 --> 01:00:56,458 ♪ 1529 01:00:56,542 --> 01:00:58,083 ♪ And you dropped me 1530 01:00:58,167 --> 01:01:01,833 ♪ Like I meant nothing at all ♪ 1531 01:01:01,917 --> 01:01:03,583 - I feel like there's a lot of things 1532 01:01:03,708 --> 01:01:05,958 I could have done differently. 1533 01:01:06,042 --> 01:01:10,875 But, you know, I was very excited and hoping that-- 1534 01:01:11,000 --> 01:01:16,083 oh, excuse me-- and hoping that I would find a life partner. 1535 01:01:16,167 --> 01:01:19,333 There is absolutely no regrets in this for me, 1536 01:01:19,417 --> 01:01:23,083 nothing about this, nothing about Lauren. 1537 01:01:23,167 --> 01:01:26,667 She feels very different than I do in all of this. 1538 01:01:26,750 --> 01:01:30,375 You know, my biggest fear was hurting her, 1539 01:01:30,500 --> 01:01:33,958 but I think I did that anyways. 1540 01:01:34,042 --> 01:01:37,333 But I do truly believe that this is the best course. 1541 01:01:37,458 --> 01:01:39,750 ♪ 1542 01:01:39,875 --> 01:01:44,333 - ♪ I really tried to be my best for you ♪ 1543 01:01:44,458 --> 01:01:51,208 ♪ 1544 01:01:51,292 --> 01:01:53,667 - Next time on "Married at First Sight"... 1545 01:01:53,750 --> 01:01:54,792 - ♪ One time for the pretty little thing ♪ 1546 01:01:54,875 --> 01:01:55,958 ♪ In the back of the club 1547 01:01:56,042 --> 01:01:57,708 ♪ Getting the thing to bang 1548 01:01:57,833 --> 01:01:59,375 ♪ Two times for the DJ with some hip-hop ♪ 1549 01:01:59,458 --> 01:02:00,833 ♪ 'Cause the party don't stop till the break of dawn ♪ 1550 01:02:01,000 --> 01:02:02,667 - Our couples will get to see their friends 1551 01:02:02,750 --> 01:02:06,125 and family for the first time since the wedding. 1552 01:02:06,208 --> 01:02:07,625 - Hey. 1553 01:02:07,750 --> 01:02:10,292 This is totally rad! 1554 01:02:10,375 --> 01:02:11,583 - How's the sex life? 1555 01:02:11,667 --> 01:02:13,250 You guys getting it in on the reg here? 1556 01:02:13,375 --> 01:02:15,583 - I think it's just up to him. 1557 01:02:15,667 --> 01:02:19,750 - That is a hurdle that, like, will take time to jump over. 1558 01:02:19,833 --> 01:02:21,333 - So how is your relationship with your father? 1559 01:02:21,375 --> 01:02:22,625 Does he know you're on this? 1560 01:02:22,708 --> 01:02:24,333 - No. - [gasps] 1561 01:02:24,417 --> 01:02:26,833 - What would you like to tell a man who's on his death bed? 1562 01:02:26,917 --> 01:02:28,250 - That really threw me for a loop. 1563 01:02:28,375 --> 01:02:29,708 - Me too. - Whoa! 1564 01:02:29,792 --> 01:02:31,500 - You knew that you were gonna get married, 1565 01:02:31,583 --> 01:02:32,792 and you were gonna move in with them, 1566 01:02:32,875 --> 01:02:33,958 and it was gonna be, like, intensive. 1567 01:02:34,042 --> 01:02:36,125 - I'm still here. - By a string. 1568 01:02:36,208 --> 01:02:37,792 - I've met you guys for an hour, and you guys are 1569 01:02:37,875 --> 01:02:39,917 coming at me like it's nobody's business. 1570 01:02:40,000 --> 01:02:41,708 - Excuse me, you're married to one of my best friends, 1571 01:02:41,833 --> 01:02:43,667 so who are you? 1572 01:02:43,750 --> 01:02:45,500 Why are you here? 1573 01:02:45,625 --> 01:02:48,250 - I'm, like, at a loss actually. 1574 01:02:48,333 --> 01:02:51,250 [dramatic music] 1575 01:02:51,250 --> 01:02:54,250 ♪