1 00:00:01,134 --> 00:00:03,969 [somber music playing] 2 00:00:14,047 --> 00:00:16,148 [Bear speaking] 3 00:00:26,259 --> 00:00:29,094 [911 speaking] 4 00:00:29,096 --> 00:00:31,196 [crew speaking] 5 00:00:34,401 --> 00:00:36,535 [911 speaking] 6 00:00:36,537 --> 00:00:39,238 [crew speaking] 7 00:00:39,240 --> 00:00:41,440 [ambulance sirens] 8 00:00:41,442 --> 00:00:42,541 [Gabriel speaking] 9 00:00:42,543 --> 00:00:44,476 [911 speaking] 10 00:00:44,478 --> 00:00:45,944 [Gabriel speaking] 11 00:00:45,946 --> 00:00:47,746 [911 speaking] 12 00:00:47,748 --> 00:00:49,848 [Gabriel speaking] 13 00:01:07,667 --> 00:01:09,802 [Ami speaking] 14 00:01:09,804 --> 00:01:11,403 [Bear speaking] 15 00:01:11,405 --> 00:01:12,671 [Ami speaking] 16 00:01:15,742 --> 00:01:19,445 It was midday when I got a message 17 00:01:19,447 --> 00:01:22,414 from mom saying that Da, uh, had a really bad seizure 18 00:01:22,416 --> 00:01:24,016 and that something was really wrong, 19 00:01:24,018 --> 00:01:25,651 and that we needed to be there. 20 00:01:27,954 --> 00:01:30,422 When, uh, when we arrived, uh, 21 00:01:30,424 --> 00:01:32,224 the paramedics were there. 22 00:01:32,226 --> 00:01:33,592 And then, Da was on the floor. 23 00:01:33,594 --> 00:01:35,961 And they were trying to resuscitate him 24 00:01:35,963 --> 00:01:37,362 and keep his heart going. 25 00:01:39,299 --> 00:01:42,067 It was just a waiting game for a while. 26 00:01:42,069 --> 00:01:44,903 And then, the decision to bring in a helicopter 27 00:01:44,905 --> 00:01:46,538 came in and that's when... 28 00:01:48,741 --> 00:01:51,176 I guess, we thought it would be okay. 29 00:01:51,178 --> 00:01:54,213 [suspense music playing] 30 00:02:00,587 --> 00:02:04,623 When the helicopter came, they assessed it, 31 00:02:04,625 --> 00:02:06,825 and it was too bad to take him in the helicopter. 32 00:02:10,697 --> 00:02:12,998 They couldn't continue to do CPR on him 33 00:02:14,634 --> 00:02:16,301 and take him somewhere, 34 00:02:16,303 --> 00:02:19,171 because his heart wouldn't be on his own. 35 00:02:19,173 --> 00:02:21,240 And so, they told us while he was still alive 36 00:02:21,242 --> 00:02:22,774 that we should say our goodbyes. 37 00:02:31,084 --> 00:02:34,086 [somber music playing] 38 00:02:42,162 --> 00:02:44,730 One of the last times he was actually conscious, 39 00:02:44,732 --> 00:02:46,832 I put my hand on his cheek like this 40 00:02:46,834 --> 00:02:49,067 and he just leaned his head in. 41 00:03:00,446 --> 00:03:03,248 He smiled and he said I love you. 42 00:03:04,951 --> 00:03:07,653 And closed his eyes 43 00:03:07,655 --> 00:03:10,556 and just leaned his head into my hand. 44 00:03:19,966 --> 00:03:22,601 And when he leaned back down 45 00:03:22,603 --> 00:03:24,603 and I pulled the curtain back, 46 00:03:24,605 --> 00:03:28,006 and there were little flakes of snow falling, 47 00:03:28,008 --> 00:03:29,975 and from there, you could look up and see the mountain. 48 00:03:31,144 --> 00:03:34,146 [somber music playing] 49 00:03:41,654 --> 00:03:43,522 I told him, look, Da, 50 00:03:43,524 --> 00:03:44,890 do you see the mountain up there? 51 00:03:44,892 --> 00:03:47,192 It's covered in snow. 52 00:03:47,194 --> 00:03:48,794 And he looked out 53 00:03:48,796 --> 00:03:50,462 and he kinda got a peaceful look. 54 00:03:52,232 --> 00:03:54,566 And I think, that's when his spirit left. 55 00:04:04,010 --> 00:04:07,012 [people howling] 56 00:04:16,322 --> 00:04:17,856 [Bear peaking] 57 00:04:17,858 --> 00:04:19,124 [Rain speaking] 58 00:04:19,126 --> 00:04:20,425 [Snowbird speaking] 59 00:04:33,072 --> 00:04:36,074 [somber music playing] 60 00:04:52,525 --> 00:04:54,459 [Bear] So, we lost Da. 61 00:04:54,461 --> 00:04:57,562 My family and I, we've always believed what the Bible says, 62 00:04:57,564 --> 00:05:00,198 that everybody has their time, that when they pass away, 63 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:03,101 that God just takes them home. 64 00:05:03,103 --> 00:05:05,404 So, I know that Da is up in heaven now and he's, uh, 65 00:05:05,406 --> 00:05:07,873 building a ranch up there, you know, 66 00:05:07,875 --> 00:05:09,274 trying to get it as nice as he can 67 00:05:09,276 --> 00:05:11,443 for when mom and everybody else comes up, too. 68 00:05:11,445 --> 00:05:13,111 And, uh, you can bet 69 00:05:13,113 --> 00:05:15,047 that he's definitely watching over us. 70 00:05:19,185 --> 00:05:23,422 He was my best friend, uh, my mentor, uh, my hero. 71 00:05:23,424 --> 00:05:26,158 We got a lot in front of us. We got a lot to do. 72 00:05:26,160 --> 00:05:27,726 And you all know as well as I do, 73 00:05:27,728 --> 00:05:30,295 he's gonna drop a rock on us tomorrow, probably. 74 00:05:30,297 --> 00:05:34,366 But, you know, faith in God, it works. 75 00:05:34,368 --> 00:05:36,735 I just want you all to carry that all the time. 76 00:05:38,538 --> 00:05:41,073 [Bear] Not a day went by that I wasn't by his side. 77 00:05:42,308 --> 00:05:43,809 He was everything to me. 78 00:05:45,845 --> 00:05:47,145 I just miss him. 79 00:05:50,083 --> 00:05:53,518 [grunting] 80 00:05:53,520 --> 00:05:56,488 [dramatic music playing] 81 00:05:56,490 --> 00:05:59,491 [Gabe] Time is not promised. Tomorrow is not a given. 82 00:05:59,493 --> 00:06:02,127 We all knew that... that this day would come 83 00:06:02,129 --> 00:06:04,663 but you can't prepare for it. 84 00:06:04,665 --> 00:06:06,465 Every time we would go anywhere, 85 00:06:06,467 --> 00:06:09,935 you know, you say bye, you say I love you, you say more, 86 00:06:09,937 --> 00:06:12,637 because you never know when it's gonna be the last time. 87 00:06:12,639 --> 00:06:14,106 And the last time is never the time 88 00:06:14,108 --> 00:06:15,540 that you would want it to be. 89 00:06:17,777 --> 00:06:19,778 [Gabe] He and I had, like, this magic together. 90 00:06:19,780 --> 00:06:22,180 Like, it didn't matter what Da and I were doing. 91 00:06:22,182 --> 00:06:24,649 Uh, we just always had the best of times. 92 00:06:24,651 --> 00:06:26,318 - You're not nervous, are you? - No. 93 00:06:26,320 --> 00:06:27,786 Oh, my gosh. I've never seen you this nervous. 94 00:06:27,788 --> 00:06:29,254 - Me? - [Billy laughing] 95 00:06:29,256 --> 00:06:32,124 - [Gabe] Of course not. - My goodness, bro. 96 00:06:32,126 --> 00:06:34,826 [Gabe] Da is the main reason that I am like I am. 97 00:06:34,828 --> 00:06:36,695 [Billy speaking] 98 00:06:36,697 --> 00:06:37,829 Of course. 99 00:06:37,831 --> 00:06:39,097 [Billy speaking] 100 00:06:39,099 --> 00:06:40,132 [Gabe laughs] 101 00:06:42,802 --> 00:06:45,303 He leaves a lot of grief in his wake. 102 00:06:45,305 --> 00:06:46,938 But there are also good things. 103 00:06:46,940 --> 00:06:48,540 You just have to focus on those. 104 00:06:48,542 --> 00:06:50,008 And that's what I would say to anybody 105 00:06:50,010 --> 00:06:51,576 going through the same thing. 106 00:06:51,578 --> 00:06:54,079 And what I'll tell my kids is the same thing Da told me. 107 00:06:54,081 --> 00:06:56,648 You... you don't let their memory be a bad thing. 108 00:06:56,650 --> 00:06:58,683 [birds chirping] 109 00:07:05,958 --> 00:07:08,593 [Rain] The last couple of days have been really hard. 110 00:07:08,595 --> 00:07:11,930 Uh, it's hard to keep composure, 111 00:07:11,932 --> 00:07:14,533 and one of the only ways that I can do that 112 00:07:14,535 --> 00:07:16,535 is through working out. 113 00:07:20,239 --> 00:07:22,574 I'm glad that he's not in pain anymore 114 00:07:22,576 --> 00:07:24,876 but this is definitely the hardest thing 115 00:07:24,878 --> 00:07:26,445 I've ever been through. 116 00:07:29,449 --> 00:07:32,417 Da was my guardian angel. 117 00:07:32,419 --> 00:07:35,554 He was my... my biggest supporter. 118 00:07:35,556 --> 00:07:38,390 [Billy] You did good. Nothing to it. 119 00:07:38,392 --> 00:07:40,125 Oh, please. 120 00:07:40,127 --> 00:07:42,661 He just... He taught me through life 121 00:07:42,663 --> 00:07:44,529 and through his love of life. 122 00:07:45,998 --> 00:07:48,500 I hope to one day be a sliver 123 00:07:48,502 --> 00:07:50,235 of as wonderful as he was. 124 00:08:01,214 --> 00:08:02,380 You know, I'm just trying to do things 125 00:08:02,382 --> 00:08:04,683 that make me not think, really, 126 00:08:04,685 --> 00:08:09,588 you know, about much or that make me angry. 127 00:08:09,590 --> 00:08:11,356 I've just... I've gotten so sad 128 00:08:11,358 --> 00:08:12,858 that I've gotten mad. 129 00:08:15,495 --> 00:08:17,295 You would think with how much snow there is, 130 00:08:17,297 --> 00:08:19,397 it's like good snowman weather. 131 00:08:19,399 --> 00:08:21,967 No, this is very dry snow. 132 00:08:21,969 --> 00:08:23,568 So, I'm trying to get it around the fire 133 00:08:23,570 --> 00:08:24,970 because it's nice and moist. 134 00:08:24,972 --> 00:08:27,372 Uh, it's harder to make it actually stick. 135 00:08:32,078 --> 00:08:35,747 I think Da knew for a while 136 00:08:36,816 --> 00:08:39,017 that he wasn't gonna be here very long. 137 00:08:40,319 --> 00:08:42,354 He actually told me before last Christmas 138 00:08:43,656 --> 00:08:46,992 that he... he knows he's not gonna make it to the next one. 139 00:08:50,363 --> 00:08:53,298 Because he told me a lot that when he does go, 140 00:08:53,300 --> 00:08:55,033 he wanted us all to be together 141 00:08:56,602 --> 00:08:59,137 still doing what we all wanted to do with the ranch 142 00:08:59,139 --> 00:09:01,439 and living the way we wanna be, 143 00:09:03,609 --> 00:09:05,577 which is why he wanted the cattle 144 00:09:05,579 --> 00:09:07,812 and he wanted the big house for mom. 145 00:09:09,115 --> 00:09:10,549 And he wanted me to go to Alaska, 146 00:09:10,551 --> 00:09:12,384 because he knew how much it meant to me. 147 00:09:13,920 --> 00:09:16,454 We could actually use their help here. 148 00:09:16,456 --> 00:09:17,822 We're good here. Don't worry about it. 149 00:09:17,824 --> 00:09:20,425 - [Snowbird] No. - We... we... We'll be okay. 150 00:09:20,427 --> 00:09:24,029 It is really good for all of you to be honest, kinda reboot. 151 00:09:26,432 --> 00:09:28,867 You know, Da definitely taught me a lot of things. 152 00:09:28,869 --> 00:09:31,036 Uh, I think, the most meaningful 153 00:09:31,038 --> 00:09:33,872 is he would always put me in situations 154 00:09:33,874 --> 00:09:36,308 and believe in me when I didn't believe in myself. 155 00:09:36,310 --> 00:09:39,110 [Billy] Look, I don't want any fussing and all of that, 156 00:09:39,112 --> 00:09:41,112 you know, we just need to go do this job and get it done. 157 00:09:41,114 --> 00:09:42,347 So, you know, I want you all 158 00:09:42,349 --> 00:09:43,715 to just take your lead from her. 159 00:09:43,717 --> 00:09:45,850 - Me? - Yeah. 160 00:09:45,852 --> 00:09:47,385 You're great at it, Bird, I mean, you know, 161 00:09:47,387 --> 00:09:49,721 everybody starts to argue and stuff, 162 00:09:49,723 --> 00:09:50,855 and you get in the middle of it, 163 00:09:50,857 --> 00:09:52,490 and they'll listen to you. 164 00:09:52,492 --> 00:09:54,826 Da and I were always very similar, 165 00:09:54,828 --> 00:09:56,962 and so I am glad that he passed down 166 00:09:56,964 --> 00:09:59,831 the love of the bush, and the love of animals, 167 00:09:59,833 --> 00:10:01,800 and the love of our lifestyle, and the dream. 168 00:10:05,838 --> 00:10:07,339 I know what Da would want, 169 00:10:07,341 --> 00:10:10,342 is for us to not be sad and to go on. 170 00:10:12,845 --> 00:10:15,714 But honestly, going for it seems impossible, 171 00:10:15,716 --> 00:10:17,782 because every day seems like a nightmare 172 00:10:17,784 --> 00:10:19,351 that I can't wake up from. 173 00:10:21,921 --> 00:10:22,721 Or hell. 174 00:10:38,237 --> 00:10:39,404 [speaking] 175 00:10:53,219 --> 00:10:54,586 [narrator] Coming up. 176 00:10:54,588 --> 00:10:56,488 How are you all hanging? Anyone sleeping very good? 177 00:10:57,523 --> 00:10:59,124 We've had Da in our ears, 178 00:10:59,126 --> 00:11:00,892 kind of, following his vision. 179 00:11:00,894 --> 00:11:03,528 We need him to be able to tell us what we need to do. 180 00:11:05,798 --> 00:11:09,000 [somber music playing] 181 00:11:09,002 --> 00:11:10,135 [Bear] Are we ready? 182 00:11:10,137 --> 00:11:11,636 [Gabe] Yeah, I think so. 183 00:11:11,638 --> 00:11:13,104 [Bear] Are you ready, mom? 184 00:11:13,106 --> 00:11:14,806 As ready as I'll ever be. 185 00:11:16,876 --> 00:11:19,878 [narrator] After the passing of their family patriarch, 186 00:11:19,880 --> 00:11:22,881 mother Ami and her children journey to the nearby town 187 00:11:22,883 --> 00:11:26,451 of Oroville to set Billy's funeral arrangements. 188 00:11:26,453 --> 00:11:29,854 He'll never go away. Now he and Cuppy, 189 00:11:29,856 --> 00:11:31,322 they're all together. 190 00:11:34,860 --> 00:11:38,263 After everyone sees him and he's about to go in, 191 00:11:38,265 --> 00:11:41,700 I would like to keep Fu Manchu moustache. 192 00:11:41,702 --> 00:11:45,203 And I would like to see him put into the final, 193 00:11:45,205 --> 00:11:49,541 uh, cremation act, kinda like a Viking burial type of thing. 194 00:11:49,543 --> 00:11:50,809 Of course. 195 00:11:55,247 --> 00:11:56,548 I think it's over here. 196 00:11:58,684 --> 00:11:59,918 [indistinct chatter] 197 00:11:59,920 --> 00:12:01,753 [Bear] I might hang out here. 198 00:12:01,755 --> 00:12:02,854 - I'm just gonna hang out here. - Okay. 199 00:12:02,856 --> 00:12:03,922 [Bear] Thank you very much. 200 00:12:03,924 --> 00:12:04,923 Thank you. 201 00:12:04,925 --> 00:12:07,225 [somber music playing] 202 00:12:07,227 --> 00:12:10,361 Well, for me, it's sometimes important to be off by myself, 203 00:12:11,931 --> 00:12:13,698 to process things, especially when it's stuff 204 00:12:13,700 --> 00:12:15,967 that's, like, uh, really, really hard. 205 00:12:17,737 --> 00:12:19,871 Da was always there for me no matter what, 206 00:12:19,873 --> 00:12:21,139 you know, even if I messed something up, 207 00:12:21,141 --> 00:12:23,274 Da was always, always there, uh, 208 00:12:23,276 --> 00:12:24,642 always knew just want to say. 209 00:12:26,345 --> 00:12:30,749 I would definitely like to be like that for my son as well. 210 00:12:30,751 --> 00:12:32,817 To be honest, part of me is afraid 211 00:12:32,819 --> 00:12:34,185 that I won't be able to live up 212 00:12:34,187 --> 00:12:36,421 to be as good of a dad as my dad was. 213 00:12:37,990 --> 00:12:40,391 That's one of my main concerns, 214 00:12:40,393 --> 00:12:42,293 would only hope that River would look at me 215 00:12:42,295 --> 00:12:44,662 the same that I look at as... as my dad. 216 00:12:49,301 --> 00:12:52,303 [somber music playing] 217 00:12:58,277 --> 00:13:00,779 Everybody, yeah, deals with this sort of thing, 218 00:13:00,781 --> 00:13:04,382 definitely, and we've never experienced the loss, 219 00:13:04,384 --> 00:13:06,551 uh, quite so great before. 220 00:13:07,620 --> 00:13:09,053 [narrator] The next morning, 221 00:13:09,055 --> 00:13:11,256 hours before the funeral service, 222 00:13:11,258 --> 00:13:14,526 the Brown siblings worry for eldest brother Bam. 223 00:13:16,295 --> 00:13:19,264 - [Snowbird speaking] - Uh, no. He's been, like, MIA. 224 00:13:19,266 --> 00:13:21,633 He just called to make sure that everyone was okay, 225 00:13:21,635 --> 00:13:23,067 and just said that he just can't be 226 00:13:23,069 --> 00:13:25,336 around everyone right now. 227 00:13:25,338 --> 00:13:29,073 You know, Bam seems to be taking Da's passing 228 00:13:29,075 --> 00:13:30,775 very, very difficult. 229 00:13:30,777 --> 00:13:35,180 We are all but Bam can't even come to the house. 230 00:13:35,182 --> 00:13:36,915 I'm definitely worried, because I feel like 231 00:13:36,917 --> 00:13:39,584 he needs to not just shut everybody out. 232 00:13:39,586 --> 00:13:41,853 He needs to let everybody in. 233 00:13:41,855 --> 00:13:45,824 I understand needing some space to an extent 234 00:13:45,826 --> 00:13:47,826 just to feel how you're feeling 235 00:13:47,828 --> 00:13:50,461 without everybody else. 236 00:13:50,463 --> 00:13:53,331 But I feel, like... like, it's not... 237 00:13:53,333 --> 00:13:55,300 Bam shouldn't just be out there by himself. 238 00:13:56,802 --> 00:14:00,672 I feel, like, he wants to be that strong older brother. 239 00:14:00,674 --> 00:14:03,408 None of us are that are right now. 240 00:14:03,410 --> 00:14:07,011 I couldn't say for sure why Bam is isolating himself 241 00:14:07,013 --> 00:14:10,148 like he is and having such a difficult time. 242 00:14:10,150 --> 00:14:13,685 But my mind does go to he probably just regrets a lot. 243 00:14:13,687 --> 00:14:15,320 You know, he's very gruff 244 00:14:15,322 --> 00:14:16,454 a lot of the time, 245 00:14:16,456 --> 00:14:17,956 and he's mad a lot of the time, 246 00:14:17,958 --> 00:14:19,757 and this is what I would tell Bam if he would listen, 247 00:14:19,759 --> 00:14:22,360 is that everyone has regrets 248 00:14:22,362 --> 00:14:24,729 and everybody has really painful moments, 249 00:14:24,731 --> 00:14:27,131 and there's nothing that's ever gonna take that away, 250 00:14:27,133 --> 00:14:29,000 you just have to understand that it's normal 251 00:14:29,002 --> 00:14:30,501 and that it's human, and I hope 252 00:14:30,503 --> 00:14:32,337 that that's something that Bam realizes. 253 00:14:32,339 --> 00:14:34,939 We're a wolf pack. Bam is not alone, 254 00:14:34,941 --> 00:14:37,575 you are not alone, she's not alone. 255 00:14:37,577 --> 00:14:39,244 [Rain] I'm never alone thanks to you. 256 00:14:39,246 --> 00:14:40,912 Right? 257 00:14:40,914 --> 00:14:43,781 - That's how we move forward. - [Bear] Yeah. 258 00:14:43,783 --> 00:14:45,583 All for one and one for all. 259 00:14:47,453 --> 00:14:50,421 [somber music playing] 260 00:14:54,593 --> 00:14:56,194 Hi, chicken, you're gonna have 261 00:14:56,196 --> 00:14:58,329 to live on hay for the moment, okay? 262 00:14:58,331 --> 00:15:01,299 We got a busy day. 263 00:15:01,301 --> 00:15:02,834 You know, everyone in the family 264 00:15:02,836 --> 00:15:07,438 is doing I guess as best they can for the situation. 265 00:15:07,440 --> 00:15:09,641 I know everyone's definitely strained, 266 00:15:09,643 --> 00:15:12,277 you know, there's a giant loss, 267 00:15:12,279 --> 00:15:14,145 because it just feels impossible 268 00:15:14,147 --> 00:15:16,314 to continue even though we have to. 269 00:15:17,616 --> 00:15:19,684 [somber music playing] 270 00:15:19,686 --> 00:15:22,220 When I was a kid, Da would do my makeup, 271 00:15:22,222 --> 00:15:24,889 and so getting ready and knowing 272 00:15:24,891 --> 00:15:27,592 I'm getting ready to go to his funeral, 273 00:15:27,594 --> 00:15:29,827 it's really hard. 274 00:15:29,829 --> 00:15:34,565 I was his little princess and he treated me like that. 275 00:15:34,567 --> 00:15:36,167 I'd get on my little princess dress 276 00:15:36,169 --> 00:15:38,503 and he'd pick me up and he'd dance with me, 277 00:15:38,505 --> 00:15:40,705 and we always talked about going to a daddy-daughter dance. 278 00:15:42,007 --> 00:15:43,608 One last dance, Da. 279 00:15:46,412 --> 00:15:49,113 [Bear] Today is a really, uh, big and important day. 280 00:15:50,816 --> 00:15:52,250 I'm just been trying to keep as strong 281 00:15:52,252 --> 00:15:56,621 as I can for everybody else and, uh, 282 00:15:56,623 --> 00:15:59,324 don't wanna like breakdown or anything. 283 00:15:59,326 --> 00:16:01,426 So, I'm gonna try to hold it together as much as I can. 284 00:16:12,638 --> 00:16:15,340 [Ami] Has anybody heard if Bam is gonna make it? 285 00:16:15,342 --> 00:16:18,309 I heard that he was going to try to come, he said. 286 00:16:18,311 --> 00:16:21,646 To be honest, even now, like, it's very hard 287 00:16:21,648 --> 00:16:22,981 and there was a time that I didn't know 288 00:16:22,983 --> 00:16:24,816 if I was gonna be able to. 289 00:16:24,818 --> 00:16:26,551 But I just don't want Bam to have any regrets 290 00:16:26,553 --> 00:16:27,919 later down the line. 291 00:16:29,788 --> 00:16:31,656 [Ami] They all have such strong relationships 292 00:16:31,658 --> 00:16:34,158 with Billy and they miss him. 293 00:16:34,160 --> 00:16:36,327 One can't help but have regrets of things 294 00:16:36,329 --> 00:16:38,129 you wish you'd done or said. 295 00:16:39,465 --> 00:16:42,400 I think, each of the kids are struggling with it. 296 00:16:43,535 --> 00:16:44,802 But I keep telling them, 297 00:16:44,804 --> 00:16:47,505 you keep Da with you in the good memories. 298 00:16:47,507 --> 00:16:48,606 That's where Da is. 299 00:16:50,376 --> 00:16:51,676 Hmm, here we go, Da. 300 00:16:51,678 --> 00:16:52,844 [Snowbird] Ready? 301 00:16:52,846 --> 00:16:54,212 [Gabe] Ready as you can be in this situation. 302 00:16:54,214 --> 00:16:56,681 [Ami] Yeah, tell me about it. 303 00:16:56,683 --> 00:16:58,649 [Bear] Y'all can go ahead and go in, for sure. 304 00:16:58,651 --> 00:17:00,084 Thank you very much, guys. 305 00:17:03,856 --> 00:17:04,789 All beginning this year. 306 00:17:11,563 --> 00:17:14,532 [dramatic music playing] 307 00:17:16,735 --> 00:17:18,469 [Bam] I knew that someday when I lost Da 308 00:17:18,471 --> 00:17:19,504 that would be the hardest thing 309 00:17:19,506 --> 00:17:21,739 that I ever went through. 310 00:17:21,741 --> 00:17:25,009 It's just impossible to ever fully prepare yourself 311 00:17:25,011 --> 00:17:27,578 losing someone that means so much to you, 312 00:17:27,580 --> 00:17:29,714 someone that is a cornerstone or foundation 313 00:17:29,716 --> 00:17:32,083 of every day of your life. 314 00:17:32,085 --> 00:17:33,551 I've dug a couple of holes myself and... 315 00:17:33,553 --> 00:17:34,752 I know. And you did it barefooted 316 00:17:34,754 --> 00:17:36,754 and you did it with a shovel that was broken in half... 317 00:17:36,756 --> 00:17:38,689 - Yeah. - had a nail sticking through it. 318 00:17:38,691 --> 00:17:40,158 Yeah. 319 00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:42,660 I just want you to remember everything. 320 00:17:42,662 --> 00:17:44,829 Remember its family, remember where you come from. 321 00:17:44,831 --> 00:17:47,265 Remember how to get home. 322 00:17:47,267 --> 00:17:48,499 And what's a good Skipper? 323 00:17:48,501 --> 00:17:50,368 You guy's got a good crew. 324 00:17:50,370 --> 00:17:54,672 That's just the way it is. 325 00:17:54,674 --> 00:17:57,775 [Bam] All you can do is just keep going. 326 00:17:57,777 --> 00:17:59,677 Just keep reminding yourself to breathe. 327 00:18:00,946 --> 00:18:04,282 My dad is, was, and always will be my hero. 328 00:18:04,284 --> 00:18:06,417 Not a second will go by that I don't miss him. 329 00:18:06,419 --> 00:18:09,120 And it is definitely the hardest thing in my life 330 00:18:09,122 --> 00:18:10,988 to continue going on without him. 331 00:18:17,629 --> 00:18:20,431 [somber music playing] 332 00:18:34,413 --> 00:18:36,848 [Ami] It's over. Thank God. 333 00:18:39,017 --> 00:18:40,651 [Bear] Uh, I think Da would have liked that. 334 00:18:40,653 --> 00:18:42,086 [Rain] I think so too. 335 00:18:42,088 --> 00:18:44,956 [Ami] I think he would have liked that as well, very much so. 336 00:18:44,958 --> 00:18:46,390 That was a very beautiful service 337 00:18:46,392 --> 00:18:48,526 to represent a very beautiful man. 338 00:18:48,528 --> 00:18:50,094 [Ami] Bam gave a very nice speech. 339 00:18:50,096 --> 00:18:51,629 [Rain] It was very beautiful. 340 00:18:51,631 --> 00:18:54,432 Everyone had the kindest things to say. 341 00:18:55,734 --> 00:18:58,069 One way, it felt good to see Billy today. 342 00:18:59,138 --> 00:19:01,873 But in another way, that wasn't Billy. 343 00:19:01,875 --> 00:19:03,407 That was merely the vessel 344 00:19:03,409 --> 00:19:06,410 that he traveled upon the earth in. 345 00:19:06,412 --> 00:19:09,013 My Billy is in Heaven waiting at the gate for me. 346 00:19:13,252 --> 00:19:15,620 [Rain] Does anybody else feel lighter? 347 00:19:17,055 --> 00:19:19,023 Yeah. 348 00:19:19,025 --> 00:19:21,893 I don't know, like I feel, like, he's fine, 349 00:19:21,895 --> 00:19:24,462 he's free now. 350 00:19:24,464 --> 00:19:25,863 And that's the main thing, too, 351 00:19:25,865 --> 00:19:27,532 is that he's not in pain anymore. 352 00:19:27,534 --> 00:19:29,066 And Da was in a lot of pain. 353 00:19:33,038 --> 00:19:34,372 [Rain] For as long as I can remember, 354 00:19:34,374 --> 00:19:36,307 Da has been sick. 355 00:19:36,309 --> 00:19:38,309 But the last few years 356 00:19:39,478 --> 00:19:44,048 had just been so hard on him. 357 00:19:44,050 --> 00:19:45,283 But he never felt that way 358 00:19:45,285 --> 00:19:47,285 because he had such a strong spirit. 359 00:19:47,287 --> 00:19:50,288 You didn't know true strength unless you met my dad. 360 00:19:51,790 --> 00:19:53,191 [man] You okay? Come on. 361 00:19:53,193 --> 00:19:55,626 - Let's get you inside, Da. - [Billy] Yeah. 362 00:19:55,628 --> 00:19:57,395 [man] Breathe. 363 00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:59,397 - [man] Guys, clear this area. - [Ami] Can you see me? 364 00:19:59,399 --> 00:20:02,099 - Can you hear me? - [man] Don't crowd around him. 365 00:20:02,101 --> 00:20:05,102 Production has a team ready to take Da to Seattle, 366 00:20:05,104 --> 00:20:07,405 - if, uh, anything happens. - [Billy] No. 367 00:20:07,407 --> 00:20:08,606 No. This is where I belong. 368 00:20:08,608 --> 00:20:10,174 I belong in the forest. 369 00:20:10,176 --> 00:20:11,642 This is where I was born to be, 370 00:20:11,644 --> 00:20:13,844 this is what God wants me to be. 371 00:20:13,846 --> 00:20:15,279 Give me sails on a boat 372 00:20:15,281 --> 00:20:16,948 so I can make one more adventure, 373 00:20:17,749 --> 00:20:19,283 Got a bush heart. 374 00:20:19,285 --> 00:20:21,986 [dramatic music playing] 375 00:20:21,988 --> 00:20:23,854 [Bear] Da was never really one to let people 376 00:20:23,856 --> 00:20:25,823 see him bleed. 377 00:20:25,825 --> 00:20:27,558 I used to see him on the bows of our boats, 378 00:20:27,560 --> 00:20:29,493 just wave after wave crashing over me. 379 00:20:29,495 --> 00:20:33,264 He's holding on to these ropes and he didn't even flinch. 380 00:20:33,266 --> 00:20:36,534 [dramatic music playing] 381 00:20:40,405 --> 00:20:44,408 Da, never did anything for himself, ever. 382 00:20:44,410 --> 00:20:47,612 Everything he ever did was for us and for mom. 383 00:20:50,382 --> 00:20:52,250 No matter what happens, 384 00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:55,319 we have to keep going 385 00:20:55,321 --> 00:20:57,388 but I don't know how we live without Da. 386 00:20:57,390 --> 00:21:00,925 [somber music playing] 387 00:21:10,836 --> 00:21:13,371 [dramatic music playing] 388 00:21:14,673 --> 00:21:16,374 [Ami] How are you all hanging? 389 00:21:16,376 --> 00:21:17,908 Is anyone sleeping very good? 390 00:21:18,744 --> 00:21:19,777 No. 391 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:23,781 [Noah] We've had Da in our ears telling us, 392 00:21:23,783 --> 00:21:25,683 "You jelly head, get to work." 393 00:21:25,685 --> 00:21:27,485 We need to do this, we need to do this. 394 00:21:27,487 --> 00:21:29,220 We've been doing it for so long, 395 00:21:29,222 --> 00:21:30,855 kind of following his vision. 396 00:21:30,857 --> 00:21:32,790 He's gone and it's our turn. 397 00:21:32,792 --> 00:21:34,392 But we need him 398 00:21:34,394 --> 00:21:36,494 to be able to tell us what we need to do. 399 00:21:38,664 --> 00:21:40,498 [Ami] As sad as it may be, 400 00:21:40,500 --> 00:21:42,867 Da is not right here with us. 401 00:21:42,869 --> 00:21:45,736 Not physically, but we know in spirit, he is. 402 00:21:46,705 --> 00:21:48,472 And we know what all Da wanted. 403 00:21:49,641 --> 00:21:51,475 We have to go on. 404 00:21:51,477 --> 00:21:53,110 That's what we do. 405 00:21:56,481 --> 00:21:58,516 It's sad. We miss him. 406 00:21:58,518 --> 00:22:00,985 And we wish he were still with us 407 00:22:00,987 --> 00:22:04,221 but you have to be strong and continue with life. 408 00:22:05,590 --> 00:22:08,359 And dream hasn't died nor has it changed. 409 00:22:08,361 --> 00:22:11,929 Billy want the ranch to continue with more vigor 410 00:22:11,931 --> 00:22:13,798 and make it even bigger and better than it was 411 00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:14,965 going to be. 412 00:22:16,702 --> 00:22:20,071 First step to me is I drew up a really cute little plan 413 00:22:20,073 --> 00:22:23,074 for a small Little House On The Prairie type barn. 414 00:22:25,777 --> 00:22:28,212 Da really liked it. That's why I'm gonna go with it. 415 00:22:28,214 --> 00:22:29,880 Are we able to get a barn up 416 00:22:29,882 --> 00:22:31,415 with all the snow that we have still up there? 417 00:22:31,417 --> 00:22:32,850 Don't we have to wait until it melts off 418 00:22:32,852 --> 00:22:34,719 so that we get proper foundation? 419 00:22:34,721 --> 00:22:36,620 We'll build fires on it and stuff. 420 00:22:36,622 --> 00:22:38,656 I'll help you shovel. We have a lot of shovels. 421 00:22:38,658 --> 00:22:40,191 Noah has a tractor. 422 00:22:40,193 --> 00:22:42,927 We can do what we can to try and build a barn. 423 00:22:42,929 --> 00:22:44,195 - Clear out the land. - We'll try and get it 424 00:22:44,197 --> 00:22:45,529 ready to bring the animals back up 425 00:22:45,531 --> 00:22:47,064 because we need to bring up all the horses. 426 00:22:48,667 --> 00:22:50,368 We couldn't finish the corral 427 00:22:50,370 --> 00:22:52,503 but it's of course still important to get the animals 428 00:22:52,505 --> 00:22:53,771 out there as soon as we can 429 00:22:53,773 --> 00:22:55,306 because we're still doing this. 430 00:22:55,308 --> 00:22:57,041 This will be a working ranch and farm. 431 00:22:57,043 --> 00:22:58,876 It will be everything that he said it would be 432 00:22:58,878 --> 00:23:02,079 and we will make it work no matter what happens. 433 00:23:02,081 --> 00:23:05,149 One of the last things that Da and I talked about doing 434 00:23:05,151 --> 00:23:06,917 was trying to find gold on the mountain. 435 00:23:06,919 --> 00:23:08,853 - Definitely. - And I was just wondering 436 00:23:08,855 --> 00:23:11,655 if we can just go forward with that. 437 00:23:11,657 --> 00:23:13,190 [Ami] Of course. 438 00:23:13,192 --> 00:23:15,459 [Rain] I really am more determined than ever 439 00:23:15,461 --> 00:23:17,828 to pursue gold on North Star Ranch. 440 00:23:17,830 --> 00:23:20,297 The old prospectors, they didn't stop 441 00:23:20,299 --> 00:23:22,733 gold mining on the mountain because there wasn't gold. 442 00:23:22,735 --> 00:23:24,869 They stopped because it became too expensive, 443 00:23:24,871 --> 00:23:26,737 and then people would move on to panning 444 00:23:26,739 --> 00:23:28,272 and other ways to get gold 445 00:23:28,274 --> 00:23:29,907 opposed to hard-rock mining. 446 00:23:29,909 --> 00:23:33,677 It's a very barbaric, uh, outdated process, 447 00:23:33,679 --> 00:23:37,047 but it's one that we are very interested in. 448 00:23:37,049 --> 00:23:40,084 Okay y'all, there's so much we can do. 449 00:23:40,086 --> 00:23:41,519 I think we should do everything. 450 00:23:41,521 --> 00:23:42,753 - I agree. Yes. - You know, we should just do 451 00:23:42,755 --> 00:23:43,921 everything we planned out. 452 00:23:43,923 --> 00:23:45,189 I don't see why we change. 453 00:23:45,191 --> 00:23:46,490 Da gave us the plan, 454 00:23:46,492 --> 00:23:48,159 all we have to do is to do it. 455 00:23:48,161 --> 00:23:51,162 It's just a closing, I guess a closing 456 00:23:51,164 --> 00:23:52,830 and an end of an era, 457 00:23:53,665 --> 00:23:56,367 and the beginning of another new life. 458 00:23:59,371 --> 00:24:02,373 [dramatic music playing] 459 00:24:03,175 --> 00:24:05,109 I'm Bear. This is my sister Rain 460 00:24:05,111 --> 00:24:06,343 and my brother Gabe. 461 00:24:06,345 --> 00:24:07,311 What's your name? 462 00:24:09,014 --> 00:24:10,181 [Bear] Okay, Blake. 463 00:24:10,183 --> 00:24:11,949 [narrator] With renewed ambition, 464 00:24:11,951 --> 00:24:14,485 siblings, Bear, Gabe, and Rain 465 00:24:14,487 --> 00:24:17,688 traveled 25 miles to the town of Nighthawk 466 00:24:17,690 --> 00:24:19,957 to chase down a lead on mining equipment 467 00:24:19,959 --> 00:24:22,159 set up for them by Father Billy 468 00:24:22,161 --> 00:24:24,295 days prior to his death. 469 00:24:24,297 --> 00:24:26,030 [dramatic music playing] 470 00:24:26,032 --> 00:24:27,431 I think I know you guys. 471 00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:30,601 Uh, you've probably seen us around. 472 00:24:32,270 --> 00:24:33,270 Uh... 473 00:24:35,307 --> 00:24:36,941 [Bear] We call him the bearded wonder. 474 00:24:36,943 --> 00:24:38,375 The bearded wonder. 475 00:24:46,084 --> 00:24:48,686 [narrator] Dating back to the 1860s, 476 00:24:48,688 --> 00:24:51,322 the town of Nighthawk is one of the oldest 477 00:24:51,324 --> 00:24:53,824 mining districts in Washington State. 478 00:24:53,826 --> 00:24:56,126 The once booming mining center, 479 00:24:56,128 --> 00:24:58,028 now a registered ghost town 480 00:24:58,030 --> 00:25:00,231 with a population of only five, 481 00:25:00,233 --> 00:25:03,167 was known for an abundance of silver and lead, 482 00:25:03,169 --> 00:25:05,002 as well as supplying materials 483 00:25:05,004 --> 00:25:06,637 to other local mines. 484 00:25:07,973 --> 00:25:10,574 I had heard that your family 485 00:25:10,576 --> 00:25:13,210 might have some old mining equipment. 486 00:25:13,212 --> 00:25:14,545 Yeah. 487 00:25:14,547 --> 00:25:16,280 Something you might be willing to part with? 488 00:25:17,315 --> 00:25:18,749 Yeah. 489 00:25:18,751 --> 00:25:20,918 Mind if we take a look at it? 490 00:25:20,920 --> 00:25:22,019 Uh... 491 00:25:28,059 --> 00:25:30,327 [Bear] My first impression of Blake, uh... 492 00:25:30,329 --> 00:25:33,764 he's definitely been a miner for a long time, I would say. 493 00:25:33,766 --> 00:25:37,368 He's probably done it a little bit too long, in my opinion. 494 00:25:37,370 --> 00:25:38,636 This is it? 495 00:25:38,638 --> 00:25:40,638 - [Blake] Yeah. - [Rain] Oh, wow. 496 00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:41,705 [Bear] Big Machine. 497 00:25:45,477 --> 00:25:47,011 [Bear] It comes out that fine? 498 00:25:47,013 --> 00:25:48,078 [Blake] Yeah. 499 00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:49,880 - [Rain] Wow. - [Gabe] Wow. 500 00:25:49,882 --> 00:25:53,484 Most of our gold mining never involved this kind of stuff. 501 00:25:53,486 --> 00:25:54,885 I can't look it over and go, 502 00:25:54,887 --> 00:25:56,820 "Oh, yeah, well, the fire rod is a little..." 503 00:25:56,822 --> 00:25:59,657 You know, uh, I don't know that much about it. 504 00:25:59,659 --> 00:26:01,458 Is this part of it, too? 505 00:26:01,460 --> 00:26:02,726 [Blake] Yeah. 506 00:26:02,728 --> 00:26:03,761 [Gabe] Dang. 507 00:26:03,763 --> 00:26:05,663 So this is the first step? 508 00:26:08,500 --> 00:26:11,235 [upbeat music playing] 509 00:26:11,237 --> 00:26:12,703 [Gabe] Sheesh, 510 00:26:12,705 --> 00:26:14,838 I didn't know the machinery was going to be so big. 511 00:26:15,807 --> 00:26:17,541 Like, you don't really get the grasp of it 512 00:26:17,543 --> 00:26:19,143 from looking at just the bottom piece 513 00:26:19,145 --> 00:26:21,145 but it's, uh, quite a thing. 514 00:26:21,147 --> 00:26:23,247 I thought taking down the windmill was a big feat. 515 00:26:23,249 --> 00:26:25,349 [Rain] It's only gonna need to be busted down to, 516 00:26:25,351 --> 00:26:26,550 like, eight pieces. 517 00:26:26,552 --> 00:26:28,519 That's not bad when you look at it. 518 00:26:29,487 --> 00:26:31,722 Uh, to be honest, I'm not 100% confident 519 00:26:31,724 --> 00:26:33,724 that we should get this machinery from Blake. 520 00:26:33,726 --> 00:26:35,759 I know Rain is definitely totally for it, 521 00:26:35,761 --> 00:26:38,028 but it is gigantic. 522 00:26:38,030 --> 00:26:39,563 There's a lot of parts to it, 523 00:26:39,565 --> 00:26:41,999 so that's making me a little bit hesitant. 524 00:26:42,001 --> 00:26:43,734 And you said it's runnable? 525 00:26:47,339 --> 00:26:48,405 All right. 526 00:26:49,808 --> 00:26:52,009 Bear and Gabe are so skeptical, 527 00:26:52,011 --> 00:26:54,011 but you're not going to find 528 00:26:54,013 --> 00:26:55,713 a piece of mining equipment 529 00:26:55,715 --> 00:26:57,481 with all of the pieces here. 530 00:26:57,483 --> 00:27:00,718 This is, like, literally the jackpot. 531 00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:02,152 [Gabe] What do you all think? 532 00:27:02,154 --> 00:27:03,420 Oh, I think, we should get it. 533 00:27:03,422 --> 00:27:05,456 It sure as heck beats doing this 534 00:27:05,458 --> 00:27:07,391 with five-gallon buckets and shovels. 535 00:27:09,995 --> 00:27:12,696 So, then, the question is, do you want gold? 536 00:27:12,698 --> 00:27:15,232 [upbeat music playing] 537 00:27:18,403 --> 00:27:20,671 [intense music playing] 538 00:27:21,606 --> 00:27:22,973 [Snowbird] It's weird looking at it now. 539 00:27:22,975 --> 00:27:25,442 It doesn't look like it was on fire not long ago. 540 00:27:25,444 --> 00:27:26,744 I know. 541 00:27:26,746 --> 00:27:28,679 Couple of places look a little crispy still. 542 00:27:28,681 --> 00:27:30,514 I mean, a couple places, there's quite a bit of ash 543 00:27:30,516 --> 00:27:31,682 still but you know what I mean. 544 00:27:32,751 --> 00:27:34,251 [narrator] With plans in place 545 00:27:34,253 --> 00:27:36,787 to push progress on the ranch forward, 546 00:27:36,789 --> 00:27:39,990 mother Ami makes a difficult trek up the mountain 547 00:27:39,992 --> 00:27:42,493 without patriarch Billy. 548 00:27:44,562 --> 00:27:46,664 [Rain] It is a beautiful day for this. 549 00:27:46,666 --> 00:27:47,931 Isn't it? 550 00:27:49,634 --> 00:27:50,968 It's really weird. 551 00:27:50,970 --> 00:27:52,036 Yeah. 552 00:27:53,004 --> 00:27:55,172 [dramatic music playing] 553 00:27:55,174 --> 00:27:56,740 Well, I'm driving up the mountain 554 00:27:56,742 --> 00:27:58,742 for the first time since Billy's passing 555 00:27:58,744 --> 00:28:01,645 and, uh, it's very odd. 556 00:28:03,381 --> 00:28:05,215 He should be sitting next to me driving 557 00:28:05,217 --> 00:28:07,151 and me holding his hands. 558 00:28:08,119 --> 00:28:09,253 Happy trip. 559 00:28:09,255 --> 00:28:11,622 Happy trip, big girl. 560 00:28:11,624 --> 00:28:13,157 [Ami] I try to be strong. 561 00:28:13,159 --> 00:28:15,859 I can't just go cry in the corner and sit all day. 562 00:28:16,695 --> 00:28:18,562 That doesn't accomplish anything 563 00:28:18,564 --> 00:28:20,230 and I know he wouldn't want that. 564 00:28:21,900 --> 00:28:24,134 [laughing] 565 00:28:25,637 --> 00:28:28,172 [Ami] So, I had to stay strong for the family right now 566 00:28:28,174 --> 00:28:31,175 because I have to show them that life goes on. 567 00:28:31,177 --> 00:28:32,776 I have to be supportive of them. 568 00:28:32,778 --> 00:28:34,378 They may need me. 569 00:28:34,380 --> 00:28:36,080 [Snowbird] There is no one in the world 570 00:28:36,082 --> 00:28:38,615 that is more heartbroken than mom right now. 571 00:28:38,617 --> 00:28:41,685 But mom is also the strongest person I've ever met. 572 00:28:42,921 --> 00:28:44,621 You know, Da always said that mom was the glue 573 00:28:44,623 --> 00:28:46,757 that held the family together, 574 00:28:46,759 --> 00:28:48,859 and that's who she is right now. 575 00:28:48,861 --> 00:28:50,127 She's the mom that's standing up 576 00:28:50,129 --> 00:28:51,428 and taking care of everything. 577 00:28:53,364 --> 00:28:56,366 I am glad that we're continuing with everything 578 00:28:56,368 --> 00:28:58,202 that we had already had planned. 579 00:28:58,204 --> 00:28:59,703 - [Ami] Yes. - Me, too. 580 00:28:59,705 --> 00:29:01,805 Because I know we wanna do, like, zip lines, 581 00:29:01,807 --> 00:29:04,541 and gold, and animals, I guess, is number one. 582 00:29:04,543 --> 00:29:06,376 All I'm asking basically is when is the zip line 583 00:29:06,378 --> 00:29:07,978 gonna be closed. 584 00:29:07,980 --> 00:29:10,013 Probably, at the end of summer. 585 00:29:10,015 --> 00:29:11,215 It's a play thing. 586 00:29:11,217 --> 00:29:12,483 [Gabe] It's too much to do right now. 587 00:29:12,485 --> 00:29:14,551 - [Ami] Yeah. - But we gotta remember 588 00:29:14,553 --> 00:29:16,153 what we were always told, 589 00:29:16,155 --> 00:29:18,021 - we have to have fun. - [Ami] We have to play. 590 00:29:18,023 --> 00:29:19,556 You know, it's just like always, 591 00:29:19,558 --> 00:29:20,991 we've been up against it before 592 00:29:20,993 --> 00:29:22,960 but it's important to remember to laugh. 593 00:29:22,962 --> 00:29:26,296 Uh, it seems like a betrayal to Da but just, you know, 594 00:29:26,298 --> 00:29:27,931 got all depressed all the time, 595 00:29:27,933 --> 00:29:30,000 you have to remember to laugh and stay happy, 596 00:29:30,002 --> 00:29:31,635 you know, that's for Da. 597 00:29:35,807 --> 00:29:37,207 [Rain] I'm a turtle! 598 00:29:38,710 --> 00:29:40,377 [Snowbird] I'm safe! 599 00:29:43,214 --> 00:29:44,248 I'm so tired. 600 00:29:44,250 --> 00:29:45,682 Got frostbite over here. 601 00:29:45,684 --> 00:29:47,751 [panting] 602 00:29:48,686 --> 00:29:50,854 [Snowbird] Okay. We're done. 603 00:29:50,856 --> 00:29:52,456 - It looked like fun. - [Snowbird] For now. 604 00:29:52,458 --> 00:29:54,324 I've never had a snowball fight. 605 00:29:55,260 --> 00:29:57,227 Hit him. He's good. Hit him. 606 00:29:57,229 --> 00:29:59,062 [Ami] this is my sore arm, don't forget. 607 00:29:59,064 --> 00:30:00,798 - Oh. - [Ami] Got you. 608 00:30:00,800 --> 00:30:02,166 That was for Da. 609 00:30:02,168 --> 00:30:04,334 Y'all through playing and ready to work now? 610 00:30:04,336 --> 00:30:05,702 - [Snowbird] Yes. - [Rain laughs] 611 00:30:08,540 --> 00:30:09,907 [Ami] How much further can you go? 612 00:30:09,909 --> 00:30:11,275 - [Snowbird] Not much. - [Gabe] A couple feet. 613 00:30:11,277 --> 00:30:13,777 [Rain] It's so hard to walk on this. 614 00:30:13,779 --> 00:30:15,813 [Snowbird] Okay. Are we good here? Mom? 615 00:30:15,815 --> 00:30:17,147 - [Ami] No. - [Snowbird] No? 616 00:30:17,982 --> 00:30:19,616 [Ami] Further. 617 00:30:19,618 --> 00:30:21,952 Further, Gabe, march. 618 00:30:21,954 --> 00:30:23,787 Building the new horse barn is a priority 619 00:30:23,789 --> 00:30:25,222 before the horses can come up, 620 00:30:25,224 --> 00:30:26,857 so Rain, Gabe, mom, and I 621 00:30:26,859 --> 00:30:28,458 are looking around where mom wants to put 622 00:30:28,460 --> 00:30:31,128 the special barn and she has a grand vision 623 00:30:31,130 --> 00:30:33,030 of what she wants for it because it's... 624 00:30:33,032 --> 00:30:34,731 You know, it's the barn that her and dad drew out. 625 00:30:34,733 --> 00:30:37,034 She just wants the stalls for all the horses, 626 00:30:37,036 --> 00:30:38,702 and then a little area for them outside, 627 00:30:38,704 --> 00:30:40,938 and she wants it to be right by the house, 628 00:30:40,940 --> 00:30:42,973 so she can just step out and see. 629 00:30:42,975 --> 00:30:44,508 Are these each... Is... 630 00:30:44,510 --> 00:30:46,343 - Each one of those are stalls? - [Ami] Mmm-hmm. 631 00:30:46,345 --> 00:30:48,445 This area that we're in right here, 632 00:30:48,447 --> 00:30:51,481 this will be where we walk to get to each mare stall. 633 00:30:51,483 --> 00:30:53,884 It's gonna be a large rectangle. 634 00:30:53,886 --> 00:30:55,752 You all are about to be digging all this out. 635 00:30:55,754 --> 00:30:58,589 - All right. - [Ami] Mmm-hmm. 636 00:30:58,591 --> 00:31:00,324 I'm trying to get the kids and, uh, everyone 637 00:31:00,326 --> 00:31:01,859 back on track and motivated 638 00:31:01,861 --> 00:31:05,062 because it is a difficult time with a long mourning period. 639 00:31:05,064 --> 00:31:08,599 But everything that I'm asking the kids to do now 640 00:31:08,601 --> 00:31:11,068 are things that Billy and I sat and talked about 641 00:31:11,070 --> 00:31:13,003 of what we want to do for the ranch. 642 00:31:13,005 --> 00:31:14,972 - Find where the edges... - So this is the edge. 643 00:31:14,974 --> 00:31:16,607 Whoa. Maybe this is it. 644 00:31:16,609 --> 00:31:17,774 [Ami] Yup, that's the edge. 645 00:31:17,776 --> 00:31:19,376 [Snowbird] We found the edge, mom. 646 00:31:19,378 --> 00:31:23,080 So I'm going to fulfill and see to it that everything 647 00:31:23,082 --> 00:31:25,649 that Billy wanted done will be done... 648 00:31:26,784 --> 00:31:28,452 for Billy. 649 00:31:28,454 --> 00:31:31,221 We had a general plan and it is changeable. 650 00:31:31,223 --> 00:31:32,856 - But this is the basic design. - [Snowbird] And? 651 00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:34,391 If you think about it long enough, 652 00:31:34,393 --> 00:31:35,726 there might not be snow by the time 653 00:31:35,728 --> 00:31:38,061 - we're done thinking. - I won't think that long. 654 00:31:38,063 --> 00:31:39,363 Horse, Da, and God. 655 00:31:39,365 --> 00:31:41,064 Okay. One, two three, 656 00:31:41,066 --> 00:31:42,566 Horse, Da, and God. 657 00:31:42,568 --> 00:31:44,768 - Yay. - [Ami] Okay. Let's go. 658 00:31:44,770 --> 00:31:48,205 [dramatic music playing] 659 00:31:58,116 --> 00:32:00,250 [Bear] I'm just trying to clear my head a little bit. 660 00:32:03,588 --> 00:32:05,956 I'm just trying to hold together as much as I can 661 00:32:05,958 --> 00:32:09,726 to be as strong as possible for River, for everybody, 662 00:32:09,728 --> 00:32:12,963 you know, no one wants a weepy dad, right? 663 00:32:13,831 --> 00:32:15,365 It's hard, it's not easy 664 00:32:15,367 --> 00:32:20,070 because my Dad was there for my whole life, uh... 665 00:32:20,072 --> 00:32:22,005 But now it really makes you think and puts everything 666 00:32:22,007 --> 00:32:24,074 into perspective a little bit more. 667 00:32:25,810 --> 00:32:27,477 And so I'm just thinking about 668 00:32:27,479 --> 00:32:29,346 what to do about Raiven and I's wedding, 669 00:32:30,415 --> 00:32:33,350 it's supposed to be a happy time, 670 00:32:33,352 --> 00:32:35,218 somewhere you should be laughing and smiling, 671 00:32:35,220 --> 00:32:37,955 and, you know, have fun and I just... 672 00:32:37,957 --> 00:32:40,324 don't think I can smile too much right now. 673 00:32:40,326 --> 00:32:42,659 [dramatic music playing] 674 00:32:49,834 --> 00:32:51,902 This is the best thing for me to do, 675 00:32:51,904 --> 00:32:53,737 is just get up as high as I can 676 00:32:53,739 --> 00:32:56,206 and breathe in the fresh air. 677 00:32:57,375 --> 00:32:58,608 Think about everything. 678 00:32:58,610 --> 00:33:01,411 [dramatic music playing] 679 00:33:04,315 --> 00:33:06,950 Just try to remember everything... 680 00:33:06,952 --> 00:33:09,086 that dad that taught me and taught all of us. 681 00:33:11,322 --> 00:33:13,657 I'm just gonna concentrate on being the best dad 682 00:33:13,659 --> 00:33:15,359 that I possibly can. 683 00:33:15,361 --> 00:33:16,793 With recent events, 684 00:33:16,795 --> 00:33:18,862 it's gonna be a little bit more difficult. 685 00:33:18,864 --> 00:33:22,132 I'm gonna try to be there for River as much as I can be. 686 00:33:23,368 --> 00:33:25,068 [howling] 687 00:33:25,070 --> 00:33:28,171 [dramatic music playing] 688 00:33:34,612 --> 00:33:37,180 [upbeat music playing] 689 00:33:37,182 --> 00:33:38,849 [Gabe] Are you ready, mom? 690 00:33:38,851 --> 00:33:41,785 As ready as I'll ever be. 691 00:33:41,787 --> 00:33:43,020 [narrator] Two weeks ago, 692 00:33:43,022 --> 00:33:45,088 on the way to the funeral home, 693 00:33:45,090 --> 00:33:47,791 Brown luck strikes again. 694 00:33:47,793 --> 00:33:50,160 [beeping] 695 00:33:50,162 --> 00:33:52,863 It's oil pressure low. Stop engine. 696 00:33:53,931 --> 00:33:56,466 [Snowbird] The car starts having problems. 697 00:33:56,468 --> 00:33:58,568 It's par for the course. My entire life, 698 00:33:58,570 --> 00:34:01,371 we've had some kind of mechanical issue. 699 00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:03,240 We may have a bigger problem, guys. 700 00:34:03,242 --> 00:34:04,841 - How's the radiator? - [Snowbird] Yeah. 701 00:34:04,843 --> 00:34:07,511 It's smoking now and it's very warm. 702 00:34:07,513 --> 00:34:09,546 I wonder if there's a leak. 703 00:34:09,548 --> 00:34:11,148 You know, as we're trying to fix the car 704 00:34:11,150 --> 00:34:13,083 and find oil and do all this, 705 00:34:13,085 --> 00:34:14,651 I definitely feel like dad's here. 706 00:34:14,653 --> 00:34:16,620 Like, he's calling us jelly heads 707 00:34:16,622 --> 00:34:18,221 and he's thinking the same thing we are, 708 00:34:18,223 --> 00:34:20,590 that we're Browns, of course, something has to break down. 709 00:34:20,592 --> 00:34:22,159 We might have to get a ride with production 710 00:34:22,161 --> 00:34:23,760 to make it there on time. 711 00:34:23,762 --> 00:34:25,062 Kind of, funny if we break down 712 00:34:25,064 --> 00:34:26,329 on the way here and, you know, 713 00:34:26,331 --> 00:34:27,664 now dad's up there with God 714 00:34:27,666 --> 00:34:29,032 helping him with the pranks. 715 00:34:30,001 --> 00:34:31,301 [Bear] Car's dead. 716 00:34:31,303 --> 00:34:32,736 Dad's laughing. 717 00:34:34,305 --> 00:34:36,039 [dramatic music playing] 718 00:34:37,608 --> 00:34:39,443 [Bear] Let me check the stability of this thing. 719 00:34:40,244 --> 00:34:41,778 She seems pretty stable. 720 00:34:41,780 --> 00:34:44,381 Okay. It's not meant to be climbed on, no. 721 00:34:44,383 --> 00:34:47,050 No, it's meant to have large rocks dropped into it. 722 00:34:47,052 --> 00:34:48,819 Not as large as you. 723 00:34:50,254 --> 00:34:51,955 [narrator] The Brown family grieves the death 724 00:34:51,957 --> 00:34:55,325 of their father the only way they know how, 725 00:34:55,327 --> 00:34:58,528 continuing his legacy on North Star Ranch. 726 00:34:59,330 --> 00:35:00,864 Where do you want to start at? 727 00:35:00,866 --> 00:35:02,966 We need to start from the top down. 728 00:35:02,968 --> 00:35:05,669 [narrator] And after a salvage mission to Nighthawk, 729 00:35:05,671 --> 00:35:08,038 they've decided to acquire an entire 730 00:35:08,040 --> 00:35:10,574 75-ton gold processor 731 00:35:10,576 --> 00:35:14,211 to build a mining operation on their mountain. 732 00:35:14,213 --> 00:35:16,746 [Bear] [groans] Okay. 733 00:35:16,748 --> 00:35:18,615 [Rain] This piece of mining equipment 734 00:35:18,617 --> 00:35:21,551 is definitely a risk, but it's worth it. 735 00:35:21,553 --> 00:35:23,954 Being that we're building up the ranch from ground up, 736 00:35:23,956 --> 00:35:26,189 if we were able to get gold on the mountain, 737 00:35:26,191 --> 00:35:28,892 it would be a huge help to the family. 738 00:35:32,530 --> 00:35:33,530 Jackpot. 739 00:35:34,398 --> 00:35:36,199 [Rain] Taking the gold processor down 740 00:35:36,201 --> 00:35:38,235 is a humongous task. 741 00:35:39,036 --> 00:35:40,070 Now. 742 00:35:40,072 --> 00:35:41,138 There you go. 743 00:35:41,140 --> 00:35:42,973 [man] Timber. 744 00:35:42,975 --> 00:35:44,641 [Rain] It's very important to salvage 745 00:35:44,643 --> 00:35:46,543 as much as we possibly can on this processor, 746 00:35:46,545 --> 00:35:48,211 I mean, every bolt 747 00:35:48,213 --> 00:35:50,413 could be the difference in between us getting gold 748 00:35:50,415 --> 00:35:52,816 and us just making a huge fool out of ourselves. 749 00:35:55,620 --> 00:35:57,053 Oh, no. The metal. 750 00:35:58,589 --> 00:35:59,723 It's fine. 751 00:35:59,725 --> 00:36:02,626 This processor is extremely old. 752 00:36:02,628 --> 00:36:05,328 It is almost 80 something years old. 753 00:36:05,330 --> 00:36:07,497 It's gigantic and it's rusty. 754 00:36:07,499 --> 00:36:09,799 [Rain] Bear, that's really freaking me out, man. 755 00:36:11,702 --> 00:36:13,703 [grunts] 756 00:36:15,640 --> 00:36:17,374 But if it's, you know, if it's good enough, 757 00:36:17,376 --> 00:36:18,909 you know, to work back then, 758 00:36:18,911 --> 00:36:20,577 so hopefully it still works now. 759 00:36:20,579 --> 00:36:21,711 One more. 760 00:36:22,813 --> 00:36:23,813 Uh-oh. 761 00:36:23,815 --> 00:36:26,149 - Oh, no. - That one got split. 762 00:36:27,451 --> 00:36:30,387 We need as much reinforcements as we can get. 763 00:36:30,389 --> 00:36:32,355 We have to pop every single one of these. 764 00:36:32,357 --> 00:36:34,524 All the metal, the conveyor belt, the engine, 765 00:36:34,526 --> 00:36:36,393 the other conveyor belt, the other engine, 766 00:36:36,395 --> 00:36:38,728 the other conveyor belt, and the gigantic metal thing 767 00:36:38,730 --> 00:36:40,130 it just keeps going on and on. 768 00:36:40,132 --> 00:36:41,531 We need back up. 769 00:36:42,500 --> 00:36:44,434 [Rain] We're definitely gonna need some help 770 00:36:44,436 --> 00:36:46,836 getting the gold processor up the mountain. 771 00:36:46,838 --> 00:36:50,407 This equipment is very difficult to take apart. 772 00:36:50,409 --> 00:36:52,876 I'm a little bit nervous that I may have bitten off 773 00:36:52,878 --> 00:36:55,078 more than I can chew. 774 00:36:55,080 --> 00:36:57,414 Do you think we should get like a truck or something? 775 00:36:59,784 --> 00:37:03,853 [dramatic music playing] 776 00:37:13,364 --> 00:37:16,233 [Bear] I don't know, it's gray clouds everywhere 777 00:37:16,235 --> 00:37:17,667 except for straight in front of me, 778 00:37:17,669 --> 00:37:19,669 got the sun kind of peeking out. 779 00:37:20,504 --> 00:37:21,638 So, I just wish he was here, 780 00:37:21,640 --> 00:37:23,340 I wish I could talk to him again. 781 00:37:23,342 --> 00:37:26,376 [dramatic music playing] 782 00:37:26,378 --> 00:37:27,744 When I was a kid and even a teen, 783 00:37:27,746 --> 00:37:29,613 I always liked to go with Da. 784 00:37:30,982 --> 00:37:32,749 It's like, you know, "Can I go with you, Da? 785 00:37:32,751 --> 00:37:33,984 You know, can I hang with you? 786 00:37:33,986 --> 00:37:35,118 Can I go on the skiff with you? 787 00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:36,920 Can I go fishing with you?" 788 00:37:36,922 --> 00:37:38,688 And right now, I can't go with them, 789 00:37:38,690 --> 00:37:40,624 uh, so I would at least like to send 790 00:37:40,626 --> 00:37:41,891 a piece of me with him. 791 00:37:43,561 --> 00:37:45,595 So I'm gonna cut my ponytail off 792 00:37:45,597 --> 00:37:47,864 in order to send it with Da. 793 00:37:47,866 --> 00:37:49,966 Da's the only one that's ever cut my hair. 794 00:37:49,968 --> 00:37:52,168 And my hair was always a big thing with me actually 795 00:37:52,170 --> 00:37:53,903 and Da knew how much it meant to me. 796 00:37:56,207 --> 00:37:57,841 Ever since Da passed away, 797 00:37:57,843 --> 00:38:00,410 it's almost like I can hear his voice in the wind. 798 00:38:01,512 --> 00:38:04,014 I can see him in the sunrises and the sunsets. 799 00:38:05,316 --> 00:38:06,783 I know that if he was here, that he'd be 800 00:38:06,785 --> 00:38:08,351 telling me that everything's okay. 801 00:38:09,787 --> 00:38:11,388 I know he's in a better place now 802 00:38:11,390 --> 00:38:13,590 and he's looking down on all of us from heaven so... 803 00:38:14,859 --> 00:38:16,893 I still miss him though. 804 00:38:16,895 --> 00:38:18,528 I just wanna say to my dad that, uh... 805 00:38:20,264 --> 00:38:23,333 I love him very much, uh, I miss him very much, uh, 806 00:38:23,335 --> 00:38:25,468 I wish he was here and I will, uh, 807 00:38:25,470 --> 00:38:27,504 try live up to him as much as I can. 808 00:38:30,007 --> 00:38:33,576 [dramatic music playing] 809 00:38:47,124 --> 00:38:48,258 I love you, Da. 810 00:38:49,193 --> 00:38:50,560 See you again in heaven. 811 00:38:53,631 --> 00:38:55,332 [Ami] Here chick, chick, chick. 812 00:38:56,967 --> 00:38:58,535 - Hey, babe. - Hey, mom. 813 00:38:58,537 --> 00:39:00,036 [chicken clucking] 814 00:39:00,038 --> 00:39:02,605 [Bear] Mom and dad had always been a team. 815 00:39:02,607 --> 00:39:04,874 I know it must be hard on her to be doing it by herself, 816 00:39:04,876 --> 00:39:07,110 but she definitely has a strong face on right now. 817 00:39:08,879 --> 00:39:12,415 [Ami] Quite sentimental and noble thing you did there. 818 00:39:12,417 --> 00:39:14,284 I'm trying not to cry about it. 819 00:39:16,420 --> 00:39:19,322 I feel him with me, it's like he's still here. 820 00:39:19,324 --> 00:39:22,292 He's just, uh, preparing the ranch in heaven. 821 00:39:22,294 --> 00:39:24,094 - [Ami] Oh, yeah. - For when we get up there. 822 00:39:24,096 --> 00:39:26,363 He told me he'd wait right outside of the gate for me, 823 00:39:26,365 --> 00:39:27,964 that he wouldn't go in and enjoy it 824 00:39:27,966 --> 00:39:29,232 until I got there. 825 00:39:30,034 --> 00:39:33,036 [dramatic music playing] 826 00:39:34,805 --> 00:39:37,941 [Ami] Bear cutting his hair to send off with Billy 827 00:39:37,943 --> 00:39:40,977 was kind of like a turning of the page. 828 00:39:40,979 --> 00:39:42,545 We're in a different world now, 829 00:39:42,547 --> 00:39:44,381 it's definitely a different journey. 830 00:39:45,449 --> 00:39:47,884 [Bear] And you know he'd want us to, uh... 831 00:39:47,886 --> 00:39:49,819 to carry on and keep on building the ranch 832 00:39:49,821 --> 00:39:53,056 and just keep doing what we've been doing and all. 833 00:39:53,058 --> 00:39:56,493 [dramatic music playing] 834 00:39:56,495 --> 00:39:58,428 I'm so grateful and blessed to have 835 00:39:58,430 --> 00:40:00,530 so much support from the kids. 836 00:40:00,532 --> 00:40:02,265 Each and every one of them are there for me. 837 00:40:03,300 --> 00:40:05,735 I don't know what's next for the wolf pack, 838 00:40:06,704 --> 00:40:08,138 what's next for me. 839 00:40:08,906 --> 00:40:11,374 I have my animals and God 840 00:40:11,376 --> 00:40:13,443 and I feel Billy with me. 841 00:40:13,445 --> 00:40:15,178 - I love you. - [Bear] Love you. 842 00:40:16,313 --> 00:40:18,648 [Ami] Well, chickens, I got to go. 843 00:40:18,650 --> 00:40:20,150 Enjoy your breakfast. 844 00:40:20,152 --> 00:40:23,186 [dramatic music playing] 845 00:40:41,839 --> 00:40:45,675 [narrator] On the next episode of Alaskan Bush People. 846 00:40:45,677 --> 00:40:47,243 [Rain] I think dad would be proud for the three of us 847 00:40:47,245 --> 00:40:48,645 out here doing this. 848 00:40:48,647 --> 00:40:51,314 There's a weird emptiness when you lose a parent. 849 00:40:51,316 --> 00:40:53,616 It feels like a part of you has been ripped away. 850 00:40:55,886 --> 00:40:57,353 [Snowbird] Mom wants the flag pole 851 00:40:57,355 --> 00:40:58,488 to be on this ridge, 852 00:40:58,490 --> 00:41:00,957 by where the party is actually gonna be. 853 00:41:00,959 --> 00:41:02,759 Even though it's harder now 854 00:41:02,761 --> 00:41:04,461 to start working on the ranch, 855 00:41:04,463 --> 00:41:06,229 it's made me wanna do it even more. 856 00:41:06,231 --> 00:41:07,797 Putting up the flag pole, Da. 857 00:41:07,799 --> 00:41:09,933 It's kind of like saying, "Goodbye, Da." 858 00:41:14,271 --> 00:41:15,371 [Bear] Come on, baby. 859 00:41:15,373 --> 00:41:16,706 I feel like if I don't 860 00:41:16,708 --> 00:41:18,508 get this gold processor off the mountain, 861 00:41:18,510 --> 00:41:19,742 then I'm failing him. 862 00:41:19,744 --> 00:41:20,810 [Bear] That should do it. 863 00:41:20,812 --> 00:41:21,811 It's clear. Go, go. 864 00:41:21,813 --> 00:41:23,446 [suspenseful music playing]