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[somber music playing]
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[Bear speaking]
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[911 speaking]
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[crew speaking]
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[911 speaking]
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[crew speaking]
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[ambulance sirens]
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[Gabriel speaking]
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[911 speaking]
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[Gabriel speaking]
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[911 speaking]
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[Gabriel speaking]
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[Ami speaking]
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[Bear speaking]
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[Ami speaking]
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It was midday
when I got a message
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from mom saying that Da, uh,
had a really bad seizure
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and that something
was really wrong,
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and that we needed to be there.
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When, uh, when we arrived, uh,
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the paramedics were there.
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And then, Da was on the floor.
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And they were trying
to resuscitate him
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and keep his heart going.
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It was just a waiting game
for a while.
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And then, the decision
to bring in a helicopter
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came in and that's when...
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I guess, we thought
it would be okay.
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[suspense music playing]
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When the helicopter came,
they assessed it,
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and it was too bad
to take him in the helicopter.
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They couldn't continue
to do CPR on him
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and take him somewhere,
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because his heart
wouldn't be on his own.
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And so, they told us
while he was still alive
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that we should say our goodbyes.
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[somber music playing]
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One of the last times
he was actually conscious,
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I put my hand on his cheek
like this
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and he just leaned his head in.
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He smiled
and he said I love you.
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And closed his eyes
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and just leaned his head
into my hand.
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And when he leaned back down
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and I pulled the curtain back,
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and there were little flakes
of snow falling,
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and from there, you could
look up and see the mountain.
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[somber music playing]
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I told him, look, Da,
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do you see
the mountain up there?
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It's covered in snow.
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And he looked out
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and he kinda got
a peaceful look.
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And I think,
that's when his spirit left.
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[people howling]
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[Bear peaking]
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[Rain speaking]
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[Snowbird speaking]
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[somber music playing]
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[Bear] So, we lost Da.
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My family and I, we've always
believed what the Bible says,
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that everybody has their time,
that when they pass away,
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that God just takes them home.
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So, I know that Da is up
in heaven now and he's, uh,
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building a ranch up there,
you know,
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trying to get it as nice
as he can
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for when mom and everybody
else comes up, too.
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And, uh, you can bet
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that he's definitely
watching over us.
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He was my best friend,
uh, my mentor, uh, my hero.
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We got a lot in front of us.
We got a lot to do.
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And you all know
as well as I do,
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he's gonna drop a rock
on us tomorrow, probably.
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But, you know, faith in God,
it works.
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I just want you all
to carry that all the time.
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[Bear] Not a day went by
that I wasn't by his side.
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He was everything to me.
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I just miss him.
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[grunting]
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[dramatic music playing]
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[Gabe] Time is not promised.
Tomorrow is not a given.
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We all knew that...
that this day would come
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but you can't prepare for it.
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Every time we would go anywhere,
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you know, you say bye, you say
I love you, you say more,
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because you never know when
it's gonna be the last time.
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And the last time
is never the time
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that you would want it to be.
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[Gabe] He and I had, like,
this magic together.
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Like, it didn't matter
what Da and I were doing.
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Uh, we just always had
the best of times.
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- You're not nervous, are you?
- No.
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Oh, my gosh. I've never seen
you this nervous.
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- Me?
- [Billy laughing]
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- [Gabe] Of course not.
- My goodness, bro.
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[Gabe] Da is the main reason
that I am like I am.
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[Billy speaking]
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Of course.
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[Billy speaking]
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[Gabe laughs]
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He leaves a lot
of grief in his wake.
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But there are also good things.
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You just have to focus on those.
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And that's what I would say
to anybody
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going through the same thing.
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And what I'll tell my kids
is the same thing Da told me.
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You... you don't let
their memory be a bad thing.
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[birds chirping]
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[Rain] The last couple of days
have been really hard.
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Uh, it's hard to keep composure,
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and one of the only ways
that I can do that
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is through working out.
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I'm glad that he's not
in pain anymore
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but this is definitely
the hardest thing
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I've ever been through.
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Da was my guardian angel.
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He was my...
my biggest supporter.
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[Billy] You did good.
Nothing to it.
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Oh, please.
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He just... He taught me
through life
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and through his love of life.
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I hope to one day be a sliver
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of as wonderful as he was.
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You know, I'm just trying
to do things
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that make me not think, really,
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you know, about much
or that make me angry.
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I've just...
I've gotten so sad
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that I've gotten mad.
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You would think
with how much snow there is,
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it's like good snowman weather.
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No, this is very dry snow.
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So, I'm trying to get it
around the fire
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because it's nice and moist.
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Uh, it's harder
to make it actually stick.
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I think Da knew for a while
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that he wasn't gonna be here
very long.
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He actually told me
before last Christmas
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that he... he knows he's not
gonna make it to the next one.
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Because he told me
a lot that when he does go,
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he wanted us all to be together
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still doing what we all
wanted to do with the ranch
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and living the way we wanna be,
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which is why
he wanted the cattle
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and he wanted
the big house for mom.
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And he wanted me
to go to Alaska,
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because he knew
how much it meant to me.
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We could actually
use their help here.
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We're good here.
Don't worry about it.
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- [Snowbird] No.
- We... we... We'll be okay.
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It is really good for all of you
to be honest, kinda reboot.
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You know, Da definitely
taught me a lot of things.
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Uh, I think, the most meaningful
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is he would always put me
in situations
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and believe in me when I
didn't believe in myself.
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[Billy] Look, I don't want
any fussing and all of that,
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you know, we just need to go
do this job and get it done.
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So, you know, I want you all
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to just take your lead from her.
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- Me?
- Yeah.
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You're great at it, Bird,
I mean, you know,
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everybody starts
to argue and stuff,
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and you get in the middle of it,
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and they'll listen to you.
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Da and I
were always very similar,
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and so I am glad
that he passed down
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the love of the bush,
and the love of animals,
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and the love of our
lifestyle, and the dream.
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I know what Da would want,
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is for us to not be sad
and to go on.
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But honestly, going for it
seems impossible,
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because every day
seems like a nightmare
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that I can't wake up from.
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Or hell.
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[speaking]
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[narrator] Coming up.
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How are you all hanging?
Anyone sleeping very good?
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We've had Da in our ears,
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kind of, following his vision.
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We need him to be able
to tell us what we need to do.
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[somber music playing]
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[Bear] Are we ready?
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[Gabe] Yeah, I think so.
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[Bear] Are you ready, mom?
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As ready as I'll ever be.
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[narrator] After the passing
of their family patriarch,
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mother Ami and her children
journey to the nearby town
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of Oroville to set
Billy's funeral arrangements.
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He'll never go away.
Now he and Cuppy,
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they're all together.
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After everyone sees him
and he's about to go in,
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I would like
to keep Fu Manchu moustache.
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And I would like
to see him put into the final,
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uh, cremation act, kinda like
a Viking burial type of thing.
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Of course.
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I think it's over here.
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[indistinct chatter]
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[Bear] I might hang out here.
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- I'm just gonna hang out here.
- Okay.
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[Bear] Thank you very much.
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Thank you.
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[somber music playing]
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Well, for me, it's sometimes
important to be off by myself,
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to process things,
especially when it's stuff
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that's, like, uh,
really, really hard.
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Da was always there for me
no matter what,
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you know, even if I messed
something up,
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Da was always, always there, uh,
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always knew just want to say.
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I would definitely like to be
like that for my son as well.
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To be honest,
part of me is afraid
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that I won't be able to live up
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to be as good of a dad
as my dad was.
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That's one of my main concerns,
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would only hope
that River would look at me
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the same that I look
at as... as my dad.
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[somber music playing]
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Everybody, yeah,
deals with this sort of thing,
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definitely, and we've never
experienced the loss,
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uh, quite so great before.
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[narrator] The next morning,
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hours before
the funeral service,
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the Brown siblings
worry for eldest brother Bam.
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- [Snowbird speaking]
- Uh, no. He's been, like, MIA.
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He just called to make
sure that everyone was okay,
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and just said
that he just can't be
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around everyone right now.
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You know, Bam seems
to be taking Da's passing
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very, very difficult.
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We are all but Bam
can't even come to the house.
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I'm definitely worried,
because I feel like
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he needs to not
just shut everybody out.
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He needs to let everybody in.
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I understand needing
some space to an extent
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just to feel how you're feeling
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without everybody else.
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But I feel, like...
like, it's not...
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Bam shouldn't just be
out there by himself.
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I feel, like, he wants to be
that strong older brother.
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None of us
are that are right now.
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I couldn't say for sure
why Bam is isolating himself
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like he is and having
such a difficult time.
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But my mind does go to he
probably just regrets a lot.
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You know, he's very gruff
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a lot of the time,
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and he's mad a lot of the time,
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and this is what I would
tell Bam if he would listen,
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is that everyone has regrets
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and everybody has really
painful moments,
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and there's nothing that's
ever gonna take that away,
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you just have to understand
that it's normal
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and that it's human, and I hope
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that that's something
that Bam realizes.
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We're a wolf pack.
Bam is not alone,
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you are not alone,
she's not alone.
255
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[Rain] I'm never alone
thanks to you.
256
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Right?
257
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- That's how we move forward.
- [Bear] Yeah.
258
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All for one and one for all.
259
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[somber music playing]
260
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Hi, chicken, you're gonna have
261
00:14:56,196 --> 00:14:58,329
to live on hay
for the moment, okay?
262
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We got a busy day.
263
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You know, everyone in the family
264
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is doing I guess as best
they can for the situation.
265
00:15:07,440 --> 00:15:09,641
I know everyone's
definitely strained,
266
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you know, there's a giant loss,
267
00:15:12,279 --> 00:15:14,145
because it just feels impossible
268
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to continue
even though we have to.
269
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[somber music playing]
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When I was a kid,
Da would do my makeup,
271
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and so getting ready and knowing
272
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I'm getting ready
to go to his funeral,
273
00:15:27,594 --> 00:15:29,827
it's really hard.
274
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I was his little princess
and he treated me like that.
275
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I'd get on my little
princess dress
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and he'd pick me up
and he'd dance with me,
277
00:15:38,505 --> 00:15:40,705
and we always talked about
going to a daddy-daughter dance.
278
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One last dance, Da.
279
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[Bear] Today is a really, uh,
big and important day.
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I'm just been trying
to keep as strong
281
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as I can
for everybody else and, uh,
282
00:15:56,623 --> 00:15:59,324
don't wanna like breakdown
or anything.
283
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So, I'm gonna try to hold it
together as much as I can.
284
00:16:12,638 --> 00:16:15,340
[Ami] Has anybody heard
if Bam is gonna make it?
285
00:16:15,342 --> 00:16:18,309
I heard that he was going
to try to come, he said.
286
00:16:18,311 --> 00:16:21,646
To be honest, even now,
like, it's very hard
287
00:16:21,648 --> 00:16:22,981
and there was a time
that I didn't know
288
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if I was gonna be able to.
289
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But I just don't want Bam
to have any regrets
290
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later down the line.
291
00:16:29,788 --> 00:16:31,656
[Ami] They all have
such strong relationships
292
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with Billy and they miss him.
293
00:16:34,160 --> 00:16:36,327
One can't help
but have regrets of things
294
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you wish you'd done or said.
295
00:16:39,465 --> 00:16:42,400
I think, each of the kids
are struggling with it.
296
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But I keep telling them,
297
00:16:44,804 --> 00:16:47,505
you keep Da with you
in the good memories.
298
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That's where Da is.
299
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Hmm, here we go, Da.
300
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[Snowbird] Ready?
301
00:16:52,846 --> 00:16:54,212
[Gabe] Ready as you can be
in this situation.
302
00:16:54,214 --> 00:16:56,681
[Ami] Yeah, tell me about it.
303
00:16:56,683 --> 00:16:58,649
[Bear] Y'all can go ahead
and go in, for sure.
304
00:16:58,651 --> 00:17:00,084
Thank you very much, guys.
305
00:17:03,856 --> 00:17:04,789
All beginning this year.
306
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[dramatic music playing]
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[Bam] I knew that someday
when I lost Da
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that would be the hardest thing
309
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that I ever went through.
310
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It's just impossible to ever
fully prepare yourself
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losing someone
that means so much to you,
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someone that is a cornerstone
or foundation
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of every day of your life.
314
00:17:32,085 --> 00:17:33,551
I've dug a couple
of holes myself and...
315
00:17:33,553 --> 00:17:34,752
I know.
And you did it barefooted
316
00:17:34,754 --> 00:17:36,754
and you did it with a shovel
that was broken in half...
317
00:17:36,756 --> 00:17:38,689
- Yeah.
- had a nail sticking through it.
318
00:17:38,691 --> 00:17:40,158
Yeah.
319
00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:42,660
I just want you
to remember everything.
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Remember its family,
remember where you come from.
321
00:17:44,831 --> 00:17:47,265
Remember how to get home.
322
00:17:47,267 --> 00:17:48,499
And what's a good Skipper?
323
00:17:48,501 --> 00:17:50,368
You guy's got a good crew.
324
00:17:50,370 --> 00:17:54,672
That's just the way it is.
325
00:17:54,674 --> 00:17:57,775
[Bam] All you can do
is just keep going.
326
00:17:57,777 --> 00:17:59,677
Just keep reminding
yourself to breathe.
327
00:18:00,946 --> 00:18:04,282
My dad is, was,
and always will be my hero.
328
00:18:04,284 --> 00:18:06,417
Not a second will go
by that I don't miss him.
329
00:18:06,419 --> 00:18:09,120
And it is definitely
the hardest thing in my life
330
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to continue
going on without him.
331
00:18:17,629 --> 00:18:20,431
[somber music playing]
332
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[Ami] It's over. Thank God.
333
00:18:39,017 --> 00:18:40,651
[Bear] Uh, I think Da
would have liked that.
334
00:18:40,653 --> 00:18:42,086
[Rain] I think so too.
335
00:18:42,088 --> 00:18:44,956
[Ami] I think he would have
liked that as well, very much so.
336
00:18:44,958 --> 00:18:46,390
That was a very
beautiful service
337
00:18:46,392 --> 00:18:48,526
to represent
a very beautiful man.
338
00:18:48,528 --> 00:18:50,094
[Ami] Bam gave
a very nice speech.
339
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[Rain] It was very beautiful.
340
00:18:51,631 --> 00:18:54,432
Everyone had the kindest
things to say.
341
00:18:55,734 --> 00:18:58,069
One way, it felt good
to see Billy today.
342
00:18:59,138 --> 00:19:01,873
But in another way,
that wasn't Billy.
343
00:19:01,875 --> 00:19:03,407
That was merely the vessel
344
00:19:03,409 --> 00:19:06,410
that he traveled upon
the earth in.
345
00:19:06,412 --> 00:19:09,013
My Billy is in Heaven
waiting at the gate for me.
346
00:19:13,252 --> 00:19:15,620
[Rain] Does anybody else
feel lighter?
347
00:19:17,055 --> 00:19:19,023
Yeah.
348
00:19:19,025 --> 00:19:21,893
I don't know,
like I feel, like, he's fine,
349
00:19:21,895 --> 00:19:24,462
he's free now.
350
00:19:24,464 --> 00:19:25,863
And that's the main thing, too,
351
00:19:25,865 --> 00:19:27,532
is that
he's not in pain anymore.
352
00:19:27,534 --> 00:19:29,066
And Da was in a lot of pain.
353
00:19:33,038 --> 00:19:34,372
[Rain] For as long
as I can remember,
354
00:19:34,374 --> 00:19:36,307
Da has been sick.
355
00:19:36,309 --> 00:19:38,309
But the last few years
356
00:19:39,478 --> 00:19:44,048
had just been so hard on him.
357
00:19:44,050 --> 00:19:45,283
But he never felt that way
358
00:19:45,285 --> 00:19:47,285
because he had such
a strong spirit.
359
00:19:47,287 --> 00:19:50,288
You didn't know true strength
unless you met my dad.
360
00:19:51,790 --> 00:19:53,191
[man] You okay? Come on.
361
00:19:53,193 --> 00:19:55,626
- Let's get you inside, Da.
- [Billy] Yeah.
362
00:19:55,628 --> 00:19:57,395
[man] Breathe.
363
00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:59,397
- [man] Guys, clear this area.
- [Ami] Can you see me?
364
00:19:59,399 --> 00:20:02,099
- Can you hear me?
- [man] Don't crowd around him.
365
00:20:02,101 --> 00:20:05,102
Production has a team
ready to take Da to Seattle,
366
00:20:05,104 --> 00:20:07,405
- if, uh, anything happens.
- [Billy] No.
367
00:20:07,407 --> 00:20:08,606
No. This is where I belong.
368
00:20:08,608 --> 00:20:10,174
I belong in the forest.
369
00:20:10,176 --> 00:20:11,642
This is where I was born to be,
370
00:20:11,644 --> 00:20:13,844
this is what God wants me to be.
371
00:20:13,846 --> 00:20:15,279
Give me sails on a boat
372
00:20:15,281 --> 00:20:16,948
so I can make one
more adventure,
373
00:20:17,749 --> 00:20:19,283
Got a bush heart.
374
00:20:19,285 --> 00:20:21,986
[dramatic music playing]
375
00:20:21,988 --> 00:20:23,854
[Bear] Da was never really
one to let people
376
00:20:23,856 --> 00:20:25,823
see him bleed.
377
00:20:25,825 --> 00:20:27,558
I used to see him
on the bows of our boats,
378
00:20:27,560 --> 00:20:29,493
just wave after wave
crashing over me.
379
00:20:29,495 --> 00:20:33,264
He's holding on to these ropes
and he didn't even flinch.
380
00:20:33,266 --> 00:20:36,534
[dramatic music playing]
381
00:20:40,405 --> 00:20:44,408
Da, never did anything
for himself, ever.
382
00:20:44,410 --> 00:20:47,612
Everything he ever did
was for us and for mom.
383
00:20:50,382 --> 00:20:52,250
No matter what happens,
384
00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:55,319
we have to keep going
385
00:20:55,321 --> 00:20:57,388
but I don't know
how we live without Da.
386
00:20:57,390 --> 00:21:00,925
[somber music playing]
387
00:21:10,836 --> 00:21:13,371
[dramatic music playing]
388
00:21:14,673 --> 00:21:16,374
[Ami] How are you all hanging?
389
00:21:16,376 --> 00:21:17,908
Is anyone sleeping very good?
390
00:21:18,744 --> 00:21:19,777
No.
391
00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:23,781
[Noah] We've had Da
in our ears telling us,
392
00:21:23,783 --> 00:21:25,683
"You jelly head,
get to work."
393
00:21:25,685 --> 00:21:27,485
We need to do this,
we need to do this.
394
00:21:27,487 --> 00:21:29,220
We've been doing it for so long,
395
00:21:29,222 --> 00:21:30,855
kind of following his vision.
396
00:21:30,857 --> 00:21:32,790
He's gone and it's our turn.
397
00:21:32,792 --> 00:21:34,392
But we need him
398
00:21:34,394 --> 00:21:36,494
to be able to tell us
what we need to do.
399
00:21:38,664 --> 00:21:40,498
[Ami] As sad as it may be,
400
00:21:40,500 --> 00:21:42,867
Da is not right here with us.
401
00:21:42,869 --> 00:21:45,736
Not physically,
but we know in spirit, he is.
402
00:21:46,705 --> 00:21:48,472
And we know what all Da wanted.
403
00:21:49,641 --> 00:21:51,475
We have to go on.
404
00:21:51,477 --> 00:21:53,110
That's what we do.
405
00:21:56,481 --> 00:21:58,516
It's sad. We miss him.
406
00:21:58,518 --> 00:22:00,985
And we wish
he were still with us
407
00:22:00,987 --> 00:22:04,221
but you have to be strong
and continue with life.
408
00:22:05,590 --> 00:22:08,359
And dream hasn't died
nor has it changed.
409
00:22:08,361 --> 00:22:11,929
Billy want the ranch
to continue with more vigor
410
00:22:11,931 --> 00:22:13,798
and make it even bigger
and better than it was
411
00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:14,965
going to be.
412
00:22:16,702 --> 00:22:20,071
First step to me is I drew up
a really cute little plan
413
00:22:20,073 --> 00:22:23,074
for a small Little House
On The Prairie type barn.
414
00:22:25,777 --> 00:22:28,212
Da really liked it. That's why
I'm gonna go with it.
415
00:22:28,214 --> 00:22:29,880
Are we able to get a barn up
416
00:22:29,882 --> 00:22:31,415
with all the snow that we have
still up there?
417
00:22:31,417 --> 00:22:32,850
Don't we have to wait
until it melts off
418
00:22:32,852 --> 00:22:34,719
so that we get
proper foundation?
419
00:22:34,721 --> 00:22:36,620
We'll build fires on it
and stuff.
420
00:22:36,622 --> 00:22:38,656
I'll help you shovel.
We have a lot of shovels.
421
00:22:38,658 --> 00:22:40,191
Noah has a tractor.
422
00:22:40,193 --> 00:22:42,927
We can do what we can to try
and build a barn.
423
00:22:42,929 --> 00:22:44,195
- Clear out the land.
- We'll try and get it
424
00:22:44,197 --> 00:22:45,529
ready to bring the animals
back up
425
00:22:45,531 --> 00:22:47,064
because we need to bring up
all the horses.
426
00:22:48,667 --> 00:22:50,368
We couldn't finish the corral
427
00:22:50,370 --> 00:22:52,503
but it's of course still
important to get the animals
428
00:22:52,505 --> 00:22:53,771
out there as soon as we can
429
00:22:53,773 --> 00:22:55,306
because we're still doing this.
430
00:22:55,308 --> 00:22:57,041
This will be a working ranch
and farm.
431
00:22:57,043 --> 00:22:58,876
It will be everything
that he said it would be
432
00:22:58,878 --> 00:23:02,079
and we will make it work
no matter what happens.
433
00:23:02,081 --> 00:23:05,149
One of the last things that Da
and I talked about doing
434
00:23:05,151 --> 00:23:06,917
was trying to find gold
on the mountain.
435
00:23:06,919 --> 00:23:08,853
- Definitely.
- And I was just wondering
436
00:23:08,855 --> 00:23:11,655
if we can just go forward
with that.
437
00:23:11,657 --> 00:23:13,190
[Ami] Of course.
438
00:23:13,192 --> 00:23:15,459
[Rain] I really am
more determined than ever
439
00:23:15,461 --> 00:23:17,828
to pursue gold
on North Star Ranch.
440
00:23:17,830 --> 00:23:20,297
The old prospectors,
they didn't stop
441
00:23:20,299 --> 00:23:22,733
gold mining on the mountain
because there wasn't gold.
442
00:23:22,735 --> 00:23:24,869
They stopped because
it became too expensive,
443
00:23:24,871 --> 00:23:26,737
and then people would move
on to panning
444
00:23:26,739 --> 00:23:28,272
and other ways to get gold
445
00:23:28,274 --> 00:23:29,907
opposed to hard-rock mining.
446
00:23:29,909 --> 00:23:33,677
It's a very barbaric,
uh, outdated process,
447
00:23:33,679 --> 00:23:37,047
but it's one that we are
very interested in.
448
00:23:37,049 --> 00:23:40,084
Okay y'all,
there's so much we can do.
449
00:23:40,086 --> 00:23:41,519
I think we should do everything.
450
00:23:41,521 --> 00:23:42,753
- I agree. Yes.
- You know, we should just do
451
00:23:42,755 --> 00:23:43,921
everything we planned out.
452
00:23:43,923 --> 00:23:45,189
I don't see why we change.
453
00:23:45,191 --> 00:23:46,490
Da gave us the plan,
454
00:23:46,492 --> 00:23:48,159
all we have to do is to do it.
455
00:23:48,161 --> 00:23:51,162
It's just a closing,
I guess a closing
456
00:23:51,164 --> 00:23:52,830
and an end of an era,
457
00:23:53,665 --> 00:23:56,367
and the beginning
of another new life.
458
00:23:59,371 --> 00:24:02,373
[dramatic music playing]
459
00:24:03,175 --> 00:24:05,109
I'm Bear.
This is my sister Rain
460
00:24:05,111 --> 00:24:06,343
and my brother Gabe.
461
00:24:06,345 --> 00:24:07,311
What's your name?
462
00:24:09,014 --> 00:24:10,181
[Bear] Okay, Blake.
463
00:24:10,183 --> 00:24:11,949
[narrator]
With renewed ambition,
464
00:24:11,951 --> 00:24:14,485
siblings, Bear, Gabe, and Rain
465
00:24:14,487 --> 00:24:17,688
traveled 25 miles to the town
of Nighthawk
466
00:24:17,690 --> 00:24:19,957
to chase down a lead
on mining equipment
467
00:24:19,959 --> 00:24:22,159
set up for them by Father Billy
468
00:24:22,161 --> 00:24:24,295
days prior to his death.
469
00:24:24,297 --> 00:24:26,030
[dramatic music playing]
470
00:24:26,032 --> 00:24:27,431
I think I know you guys.
471
00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:30,601
Uh, you've probably
seen us around.
472
00:24:32,270 --> 00:24:33,270
Uh...
473
00:24:35,307 --> 00:24:36,941
[Bear] We call him
the bearded wonder.
474
00:24:36,943 --> 00:24:38,375
The bearded wonder.
475
00:24:46,084 --> 00:24:48,686
[narrator]
Dating back to the 1860s,
476
00:24:48,688 --> 00:24:51,322
the town of Nighthawk
is one of the oldest
477
00:24:51,324 --> 00:24:53,824
mining districts
in Washington State.
478
00:24:53,826 --> 00:24:56,126
The once booming mining center,
479
00:24:56,128 --> 00:24:58,028
now a registered ghost town
480
00:24:58,030 --> 00:25:00,231
with a population of only five,
481
00:25:00,233 --> 00:25:03,167
was known for an abundance
of silver and lead,
482
00:25:03,169 --> 00:25:05,002
as well as supplying materials
483
00:25:05,004 --> 00:25:06,637
to other local mines.
484
00:25:07,973 --> 00:25:10,574
I had heard that your family
485
00:25:10,576 --> 00:25:13,210
might have some old
mining equipment.
486
00:25:13,212 --> 00:25:14,545
Yeah.
487
00:25:14,547 --> 00:25:16,280
Something you might be willing
to part with?
488
00:25:17,315 --> 00:25:18,749
Yeah.
489
00:25:18,751 --> 00:25:20,918
Mind if we take a look at it?
490
00:25:20,920 --> 00:25:22,019
Uh...
491
00:25:28,059 --> 00:25:30,327
[Bear] My first impression
of Blake, uh...
492
00:25:30,329 --> 00:25:33,764
he's definitely been a miner
for a long time, I would say.
493
00:25:33,766 --> 00:25:37,368
He's probably done it a little
bit too long, in my opinion.
494
00:25:37,370 --> 00:25:38,636
This is it?
495
00:25:38,638 --> 00:25:40,638
- [Blake] Yeah.
- [Rain] Oh, wow.
496
00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:41,705
[Bear] Big Machine.
497
00:25:45,477 --> 00:25:47,011
[Bear] It comes out that fine?
498
00:25:47,013 --> 00:25:48,078
[Blake] Yeah.
499
00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:49,880
- [Rain] Wow.
- [Gabe] Wow.
500
00:25:49,882 --> 00:25:53,484
Most of our gold mining never
involved this kind of stuff.
501
00:25:53,486 --> 00:25:54,885
I can't look it over and go,
502
00:25:54,887 --> 00:25:56,820
"Oh, yeah, well,
the fire rod is a little..."
503
00:25:56,822 --> 00:25:59,657
You know, uh, I don't know
that much about it.
504
00:25:59,659 --> 00:26:01,458
Is this part of it, too?
505
00:26:01,460 --> 00:26:02,726
[Blake] Yeah.
506
00:26:02,728 --> 00:26:03,761
[Gabe] Dang.
507
00:26:03,763 --> 00:26:05,663
So this is the first step?
508
00:26:08,500 --> 00:26:11,235
[upbeat music playing]
509
00:26:11,237 --> 00:26:12,703
[Gabe] Sheesh,
510
00:26:12,705 --> 00:26:14,838
I didn't know the machinery
was going to be so big.
511
00:26:15,807 --> 00:26:17,541
Like, you don't really get
the grasp of it
512
00:26:17,543 --> 00:26:19,143
from looking at just
the bottom piece
513
00:26:19,145 --> 00:26:21,145
but it's, uh, quite a thing.
514
00:26:21,147 --> 00:26:23,247
I thought taking down
the windmill was a big feat.
515
00:26:23,249 --> 00:26:25,349
[Rain] It's only gonna need
to be busted down to,
516
00:26:25,351 --> 00:26:26,550
like, eight pieces.
517
00:26:26,552 --> 00:26:28,519
That's not bad
when you look at it.
518
00:26:29,487 --> 00:26:31,722
Uh, to be honest,
I'm not 100% confident
519
00:26:31,724 --> 00:26:33,724
that we should get
this machinery from Blake.
520
00:26:33,726 --> 00:26:35,759
I know Rain is definitely
totally for it,
521
00:26:35,761 --> 00:26:38,028
but it is gigantic.
522
00:26:38,030 --> 00:26:39,563
There's a lot of parts to it,
523
00:26:39,565 --> 00:26:41,999
so that's making me
a little bit hesitant.
524
00:26:42,001 --> 00:26:43,734
And you said it's runnable?
525
00:26:47,339 --> 00:26:48,405
All right.
526
00:26:49,808 --> 00:26:52,009
Bear and Gabe are so skeptical,
527
00:26:52,011 --> 00:26:54,011
but you're not going to find
528
00:26:54,013 --> 00:26:55,713
a piece of mining equipment
529
00:26:55,715 --> 00:26:57,481
with all of the pieces here.
530
00:26:57,483 --> 00:27:00,718
This is, like,
literally the jackpot.
531
00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:02,152
[Gabe] What do you all think?
532
00:27:02,154 --> 00:27:03,420
Oh, I think, we should get it.
533
00:27:03,422 --> 00:27:05,456
It sure as heck beats doing this
534
00:27:05,458 --> 00:27:07,391
with five-gallon buckets
and shovels.
535
00:27:09,995 --> 00:27:12,696
So, then, the question is,
do you want gold?
536
00:27:12,698 --> 00:27:15,232
[upbeat music playing]
537
00:27:18,403 --> 00:27:20,671
[intense music playing]
538
00:27:21,606 --> 00:27:22,973
[Snowbird]
It's weird looking at it now.
539
00:27:22,975 --> 00:27:25,442
It doesn't look like
it was on fire not long ago.
540
00:27:25,444 --> 00:27:26,744
I know.
541
00:27:26,746 --> 00:27:28,679
Couple of places
look a little crispy still.
542
00:27:28,681 --> 00:27:30,514
I mean, a couple places,
there's quite a bit of ash
543
00:27:30,516 --> 00:27:31,682
still but you know what I mean.
544
00:27:32,751 --> 00:27:34,251
[narrator] With plans in place
545
00:27:34,253 --> 00:27:36,787
to push progress
on the ranch forward,
546
00:27:36,789 --> 00:27:39,990
mother Ami makes a difficult
trek up the mountain
547
00:27:39,992 --> 00:27:42,493
without patriarch Billy.
548
00:27:44,562 --> 00:27:46,664
[Rain] It is a beautiful day
for this.
549
00:27:46,666 --> 00:27:47,931
Isn't it?
550
00:27:49,634 --> 00:27:50,968
It's really weird.
551
00:27:50,970 --> 00:27:52,036
Yeah.
552
00:27:53,004 --> 00:27:55,172
[dramatic music playing]
553
00:27:55,174 --> 00:27:56,740
Well, I'm driving up
the mountain
554
00:27:56,742 --> 00:27:58,742
for the first time
since Billy's passing
555
00:27:58,744 --> 00:28:01,645
and, uh, it's very odd.
556
00:28:03,381 --> 00:28:05,215
He should be sitting
next to me driving
557
00:28:05,217 --> 00:28:07,151
and me holding his hands.
558
00:28:08,119 --> 00:28:09,253
Happy trip.
559
00:28:09,255 --> 00:28:11,622
Happy trip, big girl.
560
00:28:11,624 --> 00:28:13,157
[Ami] I try to be strong.
561
00:28:13,159 --> 00:28:15,859
I can't just go cry
in the corner and sit all day.
562
00:28:16,695 --> 00:28:18,562
That doesn't accomplish anything
563
00:28:18,564 --> 00:28:20,230
and I know he wouldn't
want that.
564
00:28:21,900 --> 00:28:24,134
[laughing]
565
00:28:25,637 --> 00:28:28,172
[Ami] So, I had to stay strong
for the family right now
566
00:28:28,174 --> 00:28:31,175
because I have to show them
that life goes on.
567
00:28:31,177 --> 00:28:32,776
I have to be supportive of them.
568
00:28:32,778 --> 00:28:34,378
They may need me.
569
00:28:34,380 --> 00:28:36,080
[Snowbird]
There is no one in the world
570
00:28:36,082 --> 00:28:38,615
that is more heartbroken
than mom right now.
571
00:28:38,617 --> 00:28:41,685
But mom is also the strongest
person I've ever met.
572
00:28:42,921 --> 00:28:44,621
You know, Da always said
that mom was the glue
573
00:28:44,623 --> 00:28:46,757
that held the family together,
574
00:28:46,759 --> 00:28:48,859
and that's who she is right now.
575
00:28:48,861 --> 00:28:50,127
She's the mom that's standing up
576
00:28:50,129 --> 00:28:51,428
and taking care of everything.
577
00:28:53,364 --> 00:28:56,366
I am glad that we're
continuing with everything
578
00:28:56,368 --> 00:28:58,202
that we had already had planned.
579
00:28:58,204 --> 00:28:59,703
- [Ami] Yes.
- Me, too.
580
00:28:59,705 --> 00:29:01,805
Because I know we wanna do,
like, zip lines,
581
00:29:01,807 --> 00:29:04,541
and gold, and animals,
I guess, is number one.
582
00:29:04,543 --> 00:29:06,376
All I'm asking basically
is when is the zip line
583
00:29:06,378 --> 00:29:07,978
gonna be closed.
584
00:29:07,980 --> 00:29:10,013
Probably, at the end of summer.
585
00:29:10,015 --> 00:29:11,215
It's a play thing.
586
00:29:11,217 --> 00:29:12,483
[Gabe] It's too much to do
right now.
587
00:29:12,485 --> 00:29:14,551
- [Ami] Yeah.
- But we gotta remember
588
00:29:14,553 --> 00:29:16,153
what we were always told,
589
00:29:16,155 --> 00:29:18,021
- we have to have fun.
- [Ami] We have to play.
590
00:29:18,023 --> 00:29:19,556
You know, it's just like always,
591
00:29:19,558 --> 00:29:20,991
we've been up against it before
592
00:29:20,993 --> 00:29:22,960
but it's important
to remember to laugh.
593
00:29:22,962 --> 00:29:26,296
Uh, it seems like a betrayal
to Da but just, you know,
594
00:29:26,298 --> 00:29:27,931
got all depressed all the time,
595
00:29:27,933 --> 00:29:30,000
you have to remember to laugh
and stay happy,
596
00:29:30,002 --> 00:29:31,635
you know, that's for Da.
597
00:29:35,807 --> 00:29:37,207
[Rain] I'm a turtle!
598
00:29:38,710 --> 00:29:40,377
[Snowbird] I'm safe!
599
00:29:43,214 --> 00:29:44,248
I'm so tired.
600
00:29:44,250 --> 00:29:45,682
Got frostbite over here.
601
00:29:45,684 --> 00:29:47,751
[panting]
602
00:29:48,686 --> 00:29:50,854
[Snowbird] Okay. We're done.
603
00:29:50,856 --> 00:29:52,456
- It looked like fun.
- [Snowbird] For now.
604
00:29:52,458 --> 00:29:54,324
I've never had a snowball fight.
605
00:29:55,260 --> 00:29:57,227
Hit him.
He's good. Hit him.
606
00:29:57,229 --> 00:29:59,062
[Ami] this is my sore arm,
don't forget.
607
00:29:59,064 --> 00:30:00,798
- Oh.
- [Ami] Got you.
608
00:30:00,800 --> 00:30:02,166
That was for Da.
609
00:30:02,168 --> 00:30:04,334
Y'all through playing
and ready to work now?
610
00:30:04,336 --> 00:30:05,702
- [Snowbird] Yes.
- [Rain laughs]
611
00:30:08,540 --> 00:30:09,907
[Ami] How much further
can you go?
612
00:30:09,909 --> 00:30:11,275
- [Snowbird] Not much.
- [Gabe] A couple feet.
613
00:30:11,277 --> 00:30:13,777
[Rain] It's so hard
to walk on this.
614
00:30:13,779 --> 00:30:15,813
[Snowbird]
Okay. Are we good here? Mom?
615
00:30:15,815 --> 00:30:17,147
- [Ami] No.
- [Snowbird] No?
616
00:30:17,982 --> 00:30:19,616
[Ami] Further.
617
00:30:19,618 --> 00:30:21,952
Further, Gabe, march.
618
00:30:21,954 --> 00:30:23,787
Building the new horse barn
is a priority
619
00:30:23,789 --> 00:30:25,222
before the horses can come up,
620
00:30:25,224 --> 00:30:26,857
so Rain, Gabe, mom, and I
621
00:30:26,859 --> 00:30:28,458
are looking around
where mom wants to put
622
00:30:28,460 --> 00:30:31,128
the special barn
and she has a grand vision
623
00:30:31,130 --> 00:30:33,030
of what she wants
for it because it's...
624
00:30:33,032 --> 00:30:34,731
You know, it's the barn
that her and dad drew out.
625
00:30:34,733 --> 00:30:37,034
She just wants the stalls
for all the horses,
626
00:30:37,036 --> 00:30:38,702
and then a little area
for them outside,
627
00:30:38,704 --> 00:30:40,938
and she wants it to be
right by the house,
628
00:30:40,940 --> 00:30:42,973
so she can just step out
and see.
629
00:30:42,975 --> 00:30:44,508
Are these each... Is...
630
00:30:44,510 --> 00:30:46,343
- Each one of those are stalls?
- [Ami] Mmm-hmm.
631
00:30:46,345 --> 00:30:48,445
This area
that we're in right here,
632
00:30:48,447 --> 00:30:51,481
this will be where we walk
to get to each mare stall.
633
00:30:51,483 --> 00:30:53,884
It's gonna be a large rectangle.
634
00:30:53,886 --> 00:30:55,752
You all are about to be
digging all this out.
635
00:30:55,754 --> 00:30:58,589
- All right.
- [Ami] Mmm-hmm.
636
00:30:58,591 --> 00:31:00,324
I'm trying to get the kids
and, uh, everyone
637
00:31:00,326 --> 00:31:01,859
back on track and motivated
638
00:31:01,861 --> 00:31:05,062
because it is a difficult time
with a long mourning period.
639
00:31:05,064 --> 00:31:08,599
But everything that I'm
asking the kids to do now
640
00:31:08,601 --> 00:31:11,068
are things that Billy and I
sat and talked about
641
00:31:11,070 --> 00:31:13,003
of what we want to do
for the ranch.
642
00:31:13,005 --> 00:31:14,972
- Find where the edges...
- So this is the edge.
643
00:31:14,974 --> 00:31:16,607
Whoa. Maybe this is it.
644
00:31:16,609 --> 00:31:17,774
[Ami] Yup, that's the edge.
645
00:31:17,776 --> 00:31:19,376
[Snowbird]
We found the edge, mom.
646
00:31:19,378 --> 00:31:23,080
So I'm going to fulfill
and see to it that everything
647
00:31:23,082 --> 00:31:25,649
that Billy wanted done
will be done...
648
00:31:26,784 --> 00:31:28,452
for Billy.
649
00:31:28,454 --> 00:31:31,221
We had a general plan
and it is changeable.
650
00:31:31,223 --> 00:31:32,856
- But this is the basic design.
- [Snowbird] And?
651
00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:34,391
If you think about
it long enough,
652
00:31:34,393 --> 00:31:35,726
there might not be snow
by the time
653
00:31:35,728 --> 00:31:38,061
- we're done thinking.
- I won't think that long.
654
00:31:38,063 --> 00:31:39,363
Horse, Da, and God.
655
00:31:39,365 --> 00:31:41,064
Okay. One, two three,
656
00:31:41,066 --> 00:31:42,566
Horse, Da, and God.
657
00:31:42,568 --> 00:31:44,768
- Yay.
- [Ami] Okay. Let's go.
658
00:31:44,770 --> 00:31:48,205
[dramatic music playing]
659
00:31:58,116 --> 00:32:00,250
[Bear] I'm just trying to
clear my head a little bit.
660
00:32:03,588 --> 00:32:05,956
I'm just trying to hold
together as much as I can
661
00:32:05,958 --> 00:32:09,726
to be as strong as possible
for River, for everybody,
662
00:32:09,728 --> 00:32:12,963
you know, no one wants
a weepy dad, right?
663
00:32:13,831 --> 00:32:15,365
It's hard, it's not easy
664
00:32:15,367 --> 00:32:20,070
because my Dad was there
for my whole life, uh...
665
00:32:20,072 --> 00:32:22,005
But now it really makes you
think and puts everything
666
00:32:22,007 --> 00:32:24,074
into perspective
a little bit more.
667
00:32:25,810 --> 00:32:27,477
And so I'm just thinking about
668
00:32:27,479 --> 00:32:29,346
what to do about Raiven
and I's wedding,
669
00:32:30,415 --> 00:32:33,350
it's supposed to be
a happy time,
670
00:32:33,352 --> 00:32:35,218
somewhere you should be
laughing and smiling,
671
00:32:35,220 --> 00:32:37,955
and, you know, have fun
and I just...
672
00:32:37,957 --> 00:32:40,324
don't think I can smile
too much right now.
673
00:32:40,326 --> 00:32:42,659
[dramatic music playing]
674
00:32:49,834 --> 00:32:51,902
This is the best thing
for me to do,
675
00:32:51,904 --> 00:32:53,737
is just get up as high as I can
676
00:32:53,739 --> 00:32:56,206
and breathe in the fresh air.
677
00:32:57,375 --> 00:32:58,608
Think about everything.
678
00:32:58,610 --> 00:33:01,411
[dramatic music playing]
679
00:33:04,315 --> 00:33:06,950
Just try to remember
everything...
680
00:33:06,952 --> 00:33:09,086
that dad that taught me
and taught all of us.
681
00:33:11,322 --> 00:33:13,657
I'm just gonna concentrate
on being the best dad
682
00:33:13,659 --> 00:33:15,359
that I possibly can.
683
00:33:15,361 --> 00:33:16,793
With recent events,
684
00:33:16,795 --> 00:33:18,862
it's gonna be a little bit
more difficult.
685
00:33:18,864 --> 00:33:22,132
I'm gonna try to be there
for River as much as I can be.
686
00:33:23,368 --> 00:33:25,068
[howling]
687
00:33:25,070 --> 00:33:28,171
[dramatic music playing]
688
00:33:34,612 --> 00:33:37,180
[upbeat music playing]
689
00:33:37,182 --> 00:33:38,849
[Gabe] Are you ready, mom?
690
00:33:38,851 --> 00:33:41,785
As ready as I'll ever be.
691
00:33:41,787 --> 00:33:43,020
[narrator] Two weeks ago,
692
00:33:43,022 --> 00:33:45,088
on the way to the funeral home,
693
00:33:45,090 --> 00:33:47,791
Brown luck strikes again.
694
00:33:47,793 --> 00:33:50,160
[beeping]
695
00:33:50,162 --> 00:33:52,863
It's oil pressure low.
Stop engine.
696
00:33:53,931 --> 00:33:56,466
[Snowbird] The car starts
having problems.
697
00:33:56,468 --> 00:33:58,568
It's par for the course.
My entire life,
698
00:33:58,570 --> 00:34:01,371
we've had some kind of
mechanical issue.
699
00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:03,240
We may have a bigger
problem, guys.
700
00:34:03,242 --> 00:34:04,841
- How's the radiator?
- [Snowbird] Yeah.
701
00:34:04,843 --> 00:34:07,511
It's smoking now
and it's very warm.
702
00:34:07,513 --> 00:34:09,546
I wonder if there's a leak.
703
00:34:09,548 --> 00:34:11,148
You know, as we're trying
to fix the car
704
00:34:11,150 --> 00:34:13,083
and find oil and do all this,
705
00:34:13,085 --> 00:34:14,651
I definitely feel
like dad's here.
706
00:34:14,653 --> 00:34:16,620
Like, he's calling us
jelly heads
707
00:34:16,622 --> 00:34:18,221
and he's thinking
the same thing we are,
708
00:34:18,223 --> 00:34:20,590
that we're Browns, of course,
something has to break down.
709
00:34:20,592 --> 00:34:22,159
We might have to get a ride
with production
710
00:34:22,161 --> 00:34:23,760
to make it there on time.
711
00:34:23,762 --> 00:34:25,062
Kind of, funny if we break down
712
00:34:25,064 --> 00:34:26,329
on the way here and, you know,
713
00:34:26,331 --> 00:34:27,664
now dad's up there with God
714
00:34:27,666 --> 00:34:29,032
helping him with the pranks.
715
00:34:30,001 --> 00:34:31,301
[Bear] Car's dead.
716
00:34:31,303 --> 00:34:32,736
Dad's laughing.
717
00:34:34,305 --> 00:34:36,039
[dramatic music playing]
718
00:34:37,608 --> 00:34:39,443
[Bear] Let me check
the stability of this thing.
719
00:34:40,244 --> 00:34:41,778
She seems pretty stable.
720
00:34:41,780 --> 00:34:44,381
Okay. It's not meant
to be climbed on, no.
721
00:34:44,383 --> 00:34:47,050
No, it's meant to have
large rocks dropped into it.
722
00:34:47,052 --> 00:34:48,819
Not as large as you.
723
00:34:50,254 --> 00:34:51,955
[narrator] The Brown family
grieves the death
724
00:34:51,957 --> 00:34:55,325
of their father
the only way they know how,
725
00:34:55,327 --> 00:34:58,528
continuing his legacy
on North Star Ranch.
726
00:34:59,330 --> 00:35:00,864
Where do you want to start at?
727
00:35:00,866 --> 00:35:02,966
We need to start
from the top down.
728
00:35:02,968 --> 00:35:05,669
[narrator] And after a salvage
mission to Nighthawk,
729
00:35:05,671 --> 00:35:08,038
they've decided to acquire
an entire
730
00:35:08,040 --> 00:35:10,574
75-ton gold processor
731
00:35:10,576 --> 00:35:14,211
to build a mining operation
on their mountain.
732
00:35:14,213 --> 00:35:16,746
[Bear] [groans] Okay.
733
00:35:16,748 --> 00:35:18,615
[Rain] This piece
of mining equipment
734
00:35:18,617 --> 00:35:21,551
is definitely a risk,
but it's worth it.
735
00:35:21,553 --> 00:35:23,954
Being that we're building up
the ranch from ground up,
736
00:35:23,956 --> 00:35:26,189
if we were able to get gold
on the mountain,
737
00:35:26,191 --> 00:35:28,892
it would be a huge help
to the family.
738
00:35:32,530 --> 00:35:33,530
Jackpot.
739
00:35:34,398 --> 00:35:36,199
[Rain] Taking the gold
processor down
740
00:35:36,201 --> 00:35:38,235
is a humongous task.
741
00:35:39,036 --> 00:35:40,070
Now.
742
00:35:40,072 --> 00:35:41,138
There you go.
743
00:35:41,140 --> 00:35:42,973
[man] Timber.
744
00:35:42,975 --> 00:35:44,641
[Rain] It's very important
to salvage
745
00:35:44,643 --> 00:35:46,543
as much as we possibly can
on this processor,
746
00:35:46,545 --> 00:35:48,211
I mean, every bolt
747
00:35:48,213 --> 00:35:50,413
could be the difference
in between us getting gold
748
00:35:50,415 --> 00:35:52,816
and us just making a huge fool
out of ourselves.
749
00:35:55,620 --> 00:35:57,053
Oh, no. The metal.
750
00:35:58,589 --> 00:35:59,723
It's fine.
751
00:35:59,725 --> 00:36:02,626
This processor is extremely old.
752
00:36:02,628 --> 00:36:05,328
It is almost 80 something
years old.
753
00:36:05,330 --> 00:36:07,497
It's gigantic and it's rusty.
754
00:36:07,499 --> 00:36:09,799
[Rain] Bear, that's really
freaking me out, man.
755
00:36:11,702 --> 00:36:13,703
[grunts]
756
00:36:15,640 --> 00:36:17,374
But if it's, you know,
if it's good enough,
757
00:36:17,376 --> 00:36:18,909
you know, to work back then,
758
00:36:18,911 --> 00:36:20,577
so hopefully it still works now.
759
00:36:20,579 --> 00:36:21,711
One more.
760
00:36:22,813 --> 00:36:23,813
Uh-oh.
761
00:36:23,815 --> 00:36:26,149
- Oh, no.
- That one got split.
762
00:36:27,451 --> 00:36:30,387
We need as much reinforcements
as we can get.
763
00:36:30,389 --> 00:36:32,355
We have to pop every single
one of these.
764
00:36:32,357 --> 00:36:34,524
All the metal,
the conveyor belt, the engine,
765
00:36:34,526 --> 00:36:36,393
the other conveyor belt,
the other engine,
766
00:36:36,395 --> 00:36:38,728
the other conveyor belt,
and the gigantic metal thing
767
00:36:38,730 --> 00:36:40,130
it just keeps going on and on.
768
00:36:40,132 --> 00:36:41,531
We need back up.
769
00:36:42,500 --> 00:36:44,434
[Rain] We're definitely
gonna need some help
770
00:36:44,436 --> 00:36:46,836
getting the gold processor
up the mountain.
771
00:36:46,838 --> 00:36:50,407
This equipment is very
difficult to take apart.
772
00:36:50,409 --> 00:36:52,876
I'm a little bit nervous
that I may have bitten off
773
00:36:52,878 --> 00:36:55,078
more than I can chew.
774
00:36:55,080 --> 00:36:57,414
Do you think we should get
like a truck or something?
775
00:36:59,784 --> 00:37:03,853
[dramatic music playing]
776
00:37:13,364 --> 00:37:16,233
[Bear] I don't know,
it's gray clouds everywhere
777
00:37:16,235 --> 00:37:17,667
except for straight
in front of me,
778
00:37:17,669 --> 00:37:19,669
got the sun kind of peeking out.
779
00:37:20,504 --> 00:37:21,638
So, I just wish he was here,
780
00:37:21,640 --> 00:37:23,340
I wish I could talk
to him again.
781
00:37:23,342 --> 00:37:26,376
[dramatic music playing]
782
00:37:26,378 --> 00:37:27,744
When I was a kid
and even a teen,
783
00:37:27,746 --> 00:37:29,613
I always liked to go with Da.
784
00:37:30,982 --> 00:37:32,749
It's like, you know,
"Can I go with you, Da?
785
00:37:32,751 --> 00:37:33,984
You know, can I hang with you?
786
00:37:33,986 --> 00:37:35,118
Can I go on the skiff with you?
787
00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:36,920
Can I go fishing with you?"
788
00:37:36,922 --> 00:37:38,688
And right now,
I can't go with them,
789
00:37:38,690 --> 00:37:40,624
uh, so I would at least
like to send
790
00:37:40,626 --> 00:37:41,891
a piece of me with him.
791
00:37:43,561 --> 00:37:45,595
So I'm gonna cut my ponytail off
792
00:37:45,597 --> 00:37:47,864
in order to send it with Da.
793
00:37:47,866 --> 00:37:49,966
Da's the only one
that's ever cut my hair.
794
00:37:49,968 --> 00:37:52,168
And my hair was always
a big thing with me actually
795
00:37:52,170 --> 00:37:53,903
and Da knew how much
it meant to me.
796
00:37:56,207 --> 00:37:57,841
Ever since Da passed away,
797
00:37:57,843 --> 00:38:00,410
it's almost like I can hear
his voice in the wind.
798
00:38:01,512 --> 00:38:04,014
I can see him in the sunrises
and the sunsets.
799
00:38:05,316 --> 00:38:06,783
I know that if he was here,
that he'd be
800
00:38:06,785 --> 00:38:08,351
telling me
that everything's okay.
801
00:38:09,787 --> 00:38:11,388
I know he's in a better
place now
802
00:38:11,390 --> 00:38:13,590
and he's looking down on
all of us from heaven so...
803
00:38:14,859 --> 00:38:16,893
I still miss him though.
804
00:38:16,895 --> 00:38:18,528
I just wanna say to my dad
that, uh...
805
00:38:20,264 --> 00:38:23,333
I love him very much, uh,
I miss him very much, uh,
806
00:38:23,335 --> 00:38:25,468
I wish he was here
and I will, uh,
807
00:38:25,470 --> 00:38:27,504
try live up to him
as much as I can.
808
00:38:30,007 --> 00:38:33,576
[dramatic music playing]
809
00:38:47,124 --> 00:38:48,258
I love you, Da.
810
00:38:49,193 --> 00:38:50,560
See you again in heaven.
811
00:38:53,631 --> 00:38:55,332
[Ami] Here chick, chick, chick.
812
00:38:56,967 --> 00:38:58,535
- Hey, babe.
- Hey, mom.
813
00:38:58,537 --> 00:39:00,036
[chicken clucking]
814
00:39:00,038 --> 00:39:02,605
[Bear] Mom and dad had always
been a team.
815
00:39:02,607 --> 00:39:04,874
I know it must be hard on her
to be doing it by herself,
816
00:39:04,876 --> 00:39:07,110
but she definitely has
a strong face on right now.
817
00:39:08,879 --> 00:39:12,415
[Ami] Quite sentimental
and noble thing you did there.
818
00:39:12,417 --> 00:39:14,284
I'm trying not to cry about it.
819
00:39:16,420 --> 00:39:19,322
I feel him with me,
it's like he's still here.
820
00:39:19,324 --> 00:39:22,292
He's just, uh, preparing
the ranch in heaven.
821
00:39:22,294 --> 00:39:24,094
- [Ami] Oh, yeah.
- For when we get up there.
822
00:39:24,096 --> 00:39:26,363
He told me he'd wait right
outside of the gate for me,
823
00:39:26,365 --> 00:39:27,964
that he wouldn't go in
and enjoy it
824
00:39:27,966 --> 00:39:29,232
until I got there.
825
00:39:30,034 --> 00:39:33,036
[dramatic music playing]
826
00:39:34,805 --> 00:39:37,941
[Ami] Bear cutting his hair
to send off with Billy
827
00:39:37,943 --> 00:39:40,977
was kind of like
a turning of the page.
828
00:39:40,979 --> 00:39:42,545
We're in a different world now,
829
00:39:42,547 --> 00:39:44,381
it's definitely
a different journey.
830
00:39:45,449 --> 00:39:47,884
[Bear] And you know
he'd want us to, uh...
831
00:39:47,886 --> 00:39:49,819
to carry on and keep on
building the ranch
832
00:39:49,821 --> 00:39:53,056
and just keep doing
what we've been doing and all.
833
00:39:53,058 --> 00:39:56,493
[dramatic music playing]
834
00:39:56,495 --> 00:39:58,428
I'm so grateful
and blessed to have
835
00:39:58,430 --> 00:40:00,530
so much support from the kids.
836
00:40:00,532 --> 00:40:02,265
Each and every one of them
are there for me.
837
00:40:03,300 --> 00:40:05,735
I don't know what's next
for the wolf pack,
838
00:40:06,704 --> 00:40:08,138
what's next for me.
839
00:40:08,906 --> 00:40:11,374
I have my animals and God
840
00:40:11,376 --> 00:40:13,443
and I feel Billy with me.
841
00:40:13,445 --> 00:40:15,178
- I love you.
- [Bear] Love you.
842
00:40:16,313 --> 00:40:18,648
[Ami] Well, chickens,
I got to go.
843
00:40:18,650 --> 00:40:20,150
Enjoy your breakfast.
844
00:40:20,152 --> 00:40:23,186
[dramatic music playing]
845
00:40:41,839 --> 00:40:45,675
[narrator] On the next episode
of Alaskan Bush People.
846
00:40:45,677 --> 00:40:47,243
[Rain] I think dad would be
proud for the three of us
847
00:40:47,245 --> 00:40:48,645
out here doing this.
848
00:40:48,647 --> 00:40:51,314
There's a weird emptiness
when you lose a parent.
849
00:40:51,316 --> 00:40:53,616
It feels like a part of you
has been ripped away.
850
00:40:55,886 --> 00:40:57,353
[Snowbird] Mom wants
the flag pole
851
00:40:57,355 --> 00:40:58,488
to be on this ridge,
852
00:40:58,490 --> 00:41:00,957
by where the party
is actually gonna be.
853
00:41:00,959 --> 00:41:02,759
Even though it's harder now
854
00:41:02,761 --> 00:41:04,461
to start working on the ranch,
855
00:41:04,463 --> 00:41:06,229
it's made me wanna do it
even more.
856
00:41:06,231 --> 00:41:07,797
Putting up the flag pole, Da.
857
00:41:07,799 --> 00:41:09,933
It's kind of like saying,
"Goodbye, Da."
858
00:41:14,271 --> 00:41:15,371
[Bear] Come on, baby.
859
00:41:15,373 --> 00:41:16,706
I feel like if I don't
860
00:41:16,708 --> 00:41:18,508
get this gold processor
off the mountain,
861
00:41:18,510 --> 00:41:19,742
then I'm failing him.
862
00:41:19,744 --> 00:41:20,810
[Bear] That should do it.
863
00:41:20,812 --> 00:41:21,811
It's clear. Go, go.
864
00:41:21,813 --> 00:41:23,446
[suspenseful music playing]