[narrator] Previously on Return To Amish.
- [squealing] - Hey, Rosanna, let's do it together!
One, two, three!
[whoops, laughing]
Do you wanna go out sometime?
[Rosanna laughs] Yeah.
[speaking in Pennsylvania Dutch]
[Maureen in English] Danny is an amazing kisser.
I don't know if I can wait till marriage
to be fully with him.
[Sabrina] I literally have nobody down here.
You're [bleep] just ditching me.
[sniffles]
[Sabrina] Well, I'll think about it. I don't know what to do.
Yeah, is this John?
[John speaking]
[Jeremiah] I believe we are related.
My father would've been Larry Hiltabidel.
["Summer Rain" playing]
♪ I can't explain the many ways ♪
♪ How your love became my fame ♪
[Sabrina] Ada invited me to come stay with her
in PA because...
I don't know anybody in Florida.
And I knew it wasn't healthy for me to sit in a big house all alone
with two kids.
I called Jethro and told him
I would be staying with Ada,
and he wants to see me and the kids.
I don't know. I...
I'm not going to...
have Zekiah around Jethro
until I know for sure that we're going to be a family again.
♪ In a sky that we are ♪
[Ada speaking in Pennsylvania Dutch]
[speaking in Pennsylvania Dutch]
[knock at door]
[door creaking]
[Sabrina] Hey.
[baby cooing]
[in English] I talked to Sabrina and I told her she can come to my house.
She can bring the kids and...
I'm here for her.
I would do anything for her to help her out
because I feel really bad for her
that Jethro up and left her.
Why don't you sit down?
All right, thank you.
[sighs]
We need to look out for each other
and we need to take care of each other.
I don't know how I did it. I just decided to leave.
I started driving 'cause I couldn't sit there anymore.
I was gonna go to my mom's
and then, I just decided to come her because...
[exhales deeply]
I don't know-- My mom's mad at me.
Because...
[sniffles]
I don't have anybody, man.
[Ada] Well, Sabrina, you have us. [Rosanna] Yes.
- You have us. - [Ada] We have your back.
I'm always here for you.
We're family and we have your back.
Thank you.
Now that I don't have Jethro anymore, like...
What am I doing?
I'm, all of a sudden, a single mom and I've got two under two.
Well, you know what? Jethro's a piece of [bleep]
that he left you with the kids,
all the way in Florida, and you drove all the way up here.
You can stay here as long as you want.
That means a lot that you guys are willing to help me.
I'm sorry.
I just didn't-- I didn't know what else to do.
Well, I love taking care of the kids, so...
- [Rosanna] Yeah. - [Skylar makes sound]
I'll gladly help you.
[Maureen] I feel bad for her.
Jethro should've never done that.
But I think it's a good thing
that she came out to Pennsylvania to stay with us,
so we can help with the two children.
- [Ada] Relax. - Grandma, I need a paper towel,
- she just puked. - [chuckles]
Oh, she's good at that lately.
Well, I will always be here for you and Zekiah.
- I really like him and... - [Zekiah cooing]
I would do anything for you.
Thank you. That means a lot.
The world is a cold, hard, unforgiving place,
and coming into the house
and having everybody just shower me with love and affection
made me feel so warm
and calm and comforted and cherished.
You can stay here until you figure things out.
[quietly] Thank you.
[Rosanna speaking]
I am so excited. [chuckles softly]
Do I look okay?
[Maureen] Well, yes.
You look perfectly fine.
[Rosanna] I never had a date before
or a date with an English boy.
This is exactly what I want in the English world,
is to be the girl that goes out on a date with the boy that likes me.
[chuckles]
["When We Were Young" playing]
♪ I think of days when we were young ♪
♪ Lying together beneath the summer sun ♪
[horse clopping]
♪ When we were young ♪
♪ You are there to hold me close... ♪
[Nick] We're here.
- I think it's gonna be a lot of fun. - [Rosanna] Yeah.
[grunts]
♪ When we were close ♪
[Rosanna] Nick picked me up to play miniature golf.
I never really played it,
but he said he'll learn me how to play,
and I'm excited to try it
'cause it's something that I've never done before.
Choose your weapon.
[both chuckle]
[Nick] Okay.
I hope you know I'm about to be very competitive.
- Oh, yeah? - Oh, yeah.
And I don't know how, so.
Like, I know kinda how, like,
I never played it,
- but, like, people told me about it, so... - Yeah, sure.
All right, so, first basic thing that you wanna learn,
grab it with your right hand first
and then, take your other hand
and interlock your pinky...
and your pointer finger together.
Uh-huh.
[Nick] Then, you wanna line it up
with that little line on your putter.
And then, you don't really wanna move your wrist at all.
It's all just...
- in the shoulders. - [Rosanna] Yeah.
Nice and easy.
But you'll get it. It's super easy game.
- [chuckles nervously] - You'll probably kill it though. Let's see.
Pinky and index.
There you go. Perfect.
Ooh! Too powerful, you got those big muscles.
[laughs]
So how does dating work for you guys?
[Rosanna] We go hang out, but with friends and stuff.
It's, like, we go to different communities,
and then, there's, like, all the young folks that are there
and we get to meet all, like,
all these different people, like, I don't know, it's just...
- That's just the way it is. - [Nick] Okay.
So, it's more like group activities
- rather than just, like, one-on-one? - Yeah.
Okay.
- That's kinda interesting. - Yeah.
[Rosanna] I haven't told Nick this
but I was never alone with a boy before.
Because, in Amish community,
we are not allowed to be with a boy alone.
[Nick] Awesome. I think you're beating me on this hole.
Yeah, I'm trying to impress you with my golf skills
but I don't think it's working very well.
I think he was just, like, letting me win.
[Nick] Ooh, too much tilt.
Like I really do.
[Nick] I swear, you're better at this than me already.
You got a lot of hidden talents.
Good at golf...
Pretty.
I think, that was, like, the way he went, like,
to it, like, to let me win,
so he can tell me how amazing I am.
[giggles]
- [Nick] So, you having fun so far? - Oh, yeah.
[clears throat]
[Nick] Ooh!
[man speaking]
[chuckles]
Come on, grow up, dude!
Real mature.
You're a big tough guy, nice.
Nick is really jealous
'cause someone told me they like my dress
and he flipped out on them.
[Nick] I'm sorry about that.
You shouldn't have to deal with that type of stuff.
- That guy's just a stupid jerk. - [Rosanna] Yeah. I don't care.
[chuckles]
Ooh!
[Nick] Nice and easy.
Beautiful, beautiful shot.
- Mm, thank you. - Not as beautiful as you,
but a beautiful shot.
Oh, look, our balls are kissing.
Maybe that's a sign.
- I don't think so. - No?
- [Rosanna] No. - Oh.
Sometimes these lines work on English girls,
but I guess, not on you.
I'm smart, like, I know what's weird and what's not weird.
[Nick] Hey! There we go.
All right, we finished, we're done.
- One high five. - [claps]
- There we go. - [chuckles]
- Wasn't too bad, right? - No.
Well...
Gosh, you really are so pretty, though.
Well, thank you.
[chuckles nervously]
Can I give you a kiss?
No.
[Nick] Oh.
Yeah, no.
[Rosanna] I did have fun,
but he was trying too hard
to, I think, to turn me on or something.
"Our balls are kissing.
Can I kiss you? You're so pretty."
Look, I'm sorry. I really am.
Oh, it's okay.
It's, it was just, it's just awkward.
I had some fun, but...
It was... it was not for me.
[Nick] I think I moved a little too fast.
It's just...
A cultural difference that I really didn't fully understand,
but I'm happy to know now.
And I wish I didn't cross those boundaries.
[Rosanna] The Bishop always said
that guys are only after sex.
And I think he was right.
If I ever hang out with him again, I hope...
Claudia is, like...
with us 'cause I'm not gonna hang out with him by myself.
[Jeremiah] Right now, we're on our way to meet
my biological cousin, John,
and honestly, I don't know how to feel.
I mean, what if we don't get along?
What if he doesn't like me? Like...
What if he can't accept me? I don't know.
- [Carmella] You nervous? - Yeah.
Very nervous.
[door opens]
[bleep]
[knocking on door]
[Maureen] I trust Danny.
So I'm ready to take the next step in our relationship.
[clicks]
[laughs]
Nobody on our side of the family
knew of your existence.
[Sabrina] You left me.
It was [bleep] calculated and don't tell me it wasn't.
[sniffles]
[knocking on door]
[door creaks]
[Jeremiah] Oh, my God. You're John?
- Yeah. - [Jeremiah] Wow.
- I'm Jeremiah. - Nice to meet you.
- Hi. - I'm Carmela.
- [Jeremiah] That's Carmela. - Nice to meet you.
- [Jeremiah] Wow. - Wanna come in?
[Jeremiah] Oh, absolutely.
Go ahead.
We're meeting up with John, my biological cousin.
I was in shock when my cousin opened the door.
We look so much alike.
[floorboard creaking]
- Wow. - [John] You guys want something to drink?
I'll take whatever you bring.
[John clears throat]
- Wow. - [whispers] It's so nice.
Oh, my God.
[thuds]
[Sabrina whispers]
[John] You, uh, look familiar.
- Huh. - [chuckles]
- Thank you. - [John] There you go.
Did you guys drive the whole way or fly?
[Jeremiah] We drove.
[whispers]
- You guys look like twins. - [chuckles]
- Except I'm shorter. - Yeah.
By a lot.
[both laughing]
I found some old pictures.
This is your dad.
Larry.
[Jeremiah] Look at his nose.
[Carmela] Your chin... right here, your body...
[Jeremiah] I'm not the only one who stands, kinda,
- with my head, like... - Yes!
My head's always tilted.
My brother does that too.
- Are you serious? - I'm dead serious.
- Yep. - Yeah.
[John] He reminds me a lot of
a mix of my dad and my brother.
Um, he's about a little tiny bit shorter than my dad.
My dad has the same build.
Um...
[chuckles] Yeah, there's definitely a resemblance there.
So, um... what all do you actually know?
The guy that I thought was my father,
he told me a few things, he told me that...
Uh...
Sheila, which would be my aunt, murdered my father.
[John] Yeah.
- [rustling] - Here's some newspaper articles
and that shows the indictment of her.
And then, she denied it.
Um, and then, she admitted it.
Oh.
[John] Um, it goes in here in depth and talks about
how they just got back from the bar,
and they were having a good time with my grandfather,
which would've been his father.
Um, and then it just happened.
Do you think she did it when she found out about me?
Um...
The fact that she pleaded guilty to manslaughter,
um...
I'm assuming that that's what it was, is she found out
about you.
It was a...
She lost her mind type thing and...
stabbed him and he died.
December 23rd, 1981.
[Jeremiah] John pretty much confirmed
that my father was murdered
because Sheila found out about the affair when I was born.
[Carmela] That's not your fault.
She was the one that murdered him.
She could've walked away but she didn't.
I know, it just hurts that, you know,
knowing that...
me being born was...
part of the reason that, you know, he got murdered.
[softly] Yeah.
I mean, the whole story's tragic
and horrible.
[Jeremiah] And then, what happened to my aunt?
She died in 1986.
[sighs]
This is her death...
[Carmela] She was 33.
Now, just so you know, my mother,
my biological mother...
She told me she wants nothing to do with me,
that she has all the kids that she loves.
- [sniffles] - Hm.
And that was coming directly from my mother.
[John] Well... I... I can't judge.
Honestly,
she's young, she makes a mistake...
She has a child with her sister's husband,
which, then, causes a whole chain of things to happen.
I... I imagine that
she's...
had a lot to deal with in her life.
She could've started out...
you know, carefree and...
a good person, and over the years,
the whole weight of everything just...
But I believe that the decisions that your mother made
and the things she said had...
They weren't about you.
[sighs] They concerned you, but they weren't about you.
I mean, how... how can you say
an infant, a year and a half old
is a piece of [bleep].
You can't.
It's impossible.
There was a lot of stuff going on.
I mean, could you imagine being that person, making that mistake?
I mean...
How would that-- What would that turn you into?
You... do you like you?
Do you like who you are?
[John] Mm, that's sad because...
you are the person you are because of everything that you've gone through.
I don't know. I just don't let anybody get close.
[John] Hm.
[Jeremiah] And it's a problem I've always had.
My entire life, I was just on my own.
So when somebody actually does step up,
you know, and, and tries to be there,
I know, over the years,
I have pushed every single one of them out
because it's just...
It's just a let-down in the end.
In order for me to drop my walls
and open up,
- I have to have answers. - [Carmela] Yeah.
And that's what's gonna drop the walls.
-[Carmela] You're getting them. -'Cause then I know
who I actually am.
[John] Jeremiah's mother,
she made decisions based on a lot of other factors
that really didn't have much to do with him.
And once he realizes it, I think he's gonna be happier.
So, if he gets anything out of this help,
he can heal a little bit.
Move on.
Nobody on our side of the family
knew of your existence...
at all.
We were shocked when we found out
because your father, Larry, um...
didn't have children.
You would be his only child.
So, we are first cousins.
Our grandparents is Ronald Hiltabidel and Mona Lee Posey.
Um...
Mona, she's alive still
and she lives in Vegas.
In fact, um, we discussed you on the phone.
She would love to meet you.
So...
We could actually call and talk to her, if you'd like.
[Jeremiah] Absolutely.
[John] I'm sure she-- She'd love to talk to you.
[exhales]
And there's a whole bunch of people
that wanna meet you.
So, you get to meet, um, my brothers and sisters
and their wives and...
- Oh, wow. - Nice.
It was amazing to meet John and get all this information.
It was just...
It was just mind-blowing.
[Rosanna] You should get Grandma's lamp.
[blows]
Maureen and I told Ada
that we're gonna go outside and camp in the yard tonight.
[both giggling]
[Maureen] Tonight, I'm gonna go see Daniel,
and I'm camping because it's easier to sneak out,
because Grandma's room is right across the hallway,
and she would catch me.
[indistinct]
I'm a virgin and I take that very seriously.
But I love Danny so much,
and I know there's no one else that could make me feel this way.
[Rosanna] What?
[Maureen] I have really strong feelings for Danny.
I've never felt this way before.
I feel super happy
and I have butterflies.
He just makes me...
Daniel just makes me really happy.
I finally feel like I found the one.
[Danny] Maureen's really smart.
I mean, she don't take too long to figure stuff out.
And...
She's got all her teeth which is like
something very rare under the Amish.
[Maureen] I'm nervous, but I trust Danny.
So, I'm ready to take the next step in our relationship.
[giggles]
[Daniel speaking in Pennsylvania Dutch]
[kissing]
[Maureen giggles]
[continues kissing]
[Sabrina] I'm always up early with the baby,
but this morning, Rosanna was up early too.
And she said that Maureen was out all night,
and that she thinks Maureen must've lost her virginity.
And we decided to wait up
and make sure that Maureen doesn't try to sneak back into the house
without going past us.
- [Skylar cooing] - So, how was your date?
It wasn't a date.
He turned me off, in every way.
- [Skylar coos] - [door opens]
Hey, where do you think you're going?
Maureen, what are you doing?
Yo.
Get your ass over here.
- Maureen-- - Looks like she got mauled over.
[giggling]
[Sabrina] Let me see her.
- Maureen. - [laughing] Damn.
Half of her dress is still open.
[chuckles]
What are you guys doing still up this time?
You've been unpinned.
You've been deflowered.
You guys need to be in bed.
You should've been sleeping
- a long time ago-- - [Sabrina] Oh! What about you?
Did you make any babies tonight?
[laughs] Oh, my G--
Why are you guys still up?
You need to be in bed right now.
[Sabrina] Seems like you just got out of bed, man.
That must've been intense.
I would feel like slapping both of you that you're not in bed.
[Sabrina] Yeah, but you can't slap us
'cause your pins will fly out the rest of the way
and you'll be naked.
I'm not naked.
[Sabrina] Well, you're not fully clothed either.
- [Maureen] Yes, I am! - No, you're not.
- What are you wearing under... - [Sabrina] Where are your pins?
Did you lose your pins?
No.
[Rosanna] She had a rough night, you can see that.
[Sabrina] Who were you with?
Who would I...
- [Sabrina] Danny? - Yes.
Well, we know you had sex,
so you might as well tell us how it went.
[laughing]
I hope you used protection.
You guys are asking way too many questions.
I'm just curious 'cause I don't get any anymore, so.
I gotta live vicariously through other people.
You don't ask anyone about their sex life.
That's personal.
[Rosanna] We wouldn't have asked you if you wouldn't look like...
something went through your hair.
You look terrible.
[chuckles] Are you jealous?
Hell, no.
I was just saying.
[Sabrina] Was this your first time?
Yes.
And?
And it's none of your business.
Damn, you guys are nosy.
[all laughing]
- [Rosanna] I think I smell something. - [all laughing]
Yeah, don't you?
All of a sudden you smell this...
weird thing...
[Maureen] Don't-- Stop it!
[laughing]
I swear to God, go wash,
go wash your freaking hands.
Please stop this right now.
You guys are asking all these weird questions, now stop it.
Oh, you stink, cow. [laughing]
Damn, doesn't she stink?
She has this weird smell.
[Sabrina] It was fun teasing Maureen,
but Rosanna seems to have taken it just a little bit too far.
She is just acting like a jealous boyfriend.
[Maureen] Okay!
Yes, I did have sex and it was great.
Now, is that what you wanted to know?
That's why you smell how you do.
Did you ever strike a match
and lit a propane lamp?
'Cause that's how it felt.
So, you mean to tell me your vagina is on fire now?
[Maureen chuckles] No, it's not on fire.
It felt amazing,
so, do you need to know anything else?
[Sabrina] Did you use protection? [Maureen] Absolutely!
Why are you asking me all these questions?
Because you don't wanna get knocked up.
Do you?
Or are you trying to, like, have a litter?
I did the traditional Amish way,
I jumped up and down.
20 times.
You did jumping jacks after you had sex?
Yes, 20 times.
[Sabrina] Obviously, Amish and Mennonites
do not teach sex-ed.
Maureen is a community schoolteacher
and that's what she's teaching the class.
Skylar.
[whispers] Don't say that stuff around her.
She's a baby.
This is the dumbest conversation I've ever had.
And seriously, I'm going to bed.
Itch?
[laughs]
Are you gonna give me a hug or what?
[Sabrina] Rosanna is really upset about how her date went.
And so, I really need to get to the bottom
of why Rosanna's date went so badly.
This...
boy, he...
Like, he asked me if I wanna hang out,
and I was like, yeah, I might as well, like, hang out, you know,
make some English friends.
And he was so creepy and so weird, like,
he asked me if he can kiss me.
And then he put our, like, golf balls together and he was like,
"See, our balls are kissing."
Like, he was so weird, he was...
[Sabrina] He said that you guys' balls
- were kissing? - [Rosanna] Yeah, yeah.
He put our balls, like, against each other,
and he's like, "See, our balls are kissing."
And he didn't just say, "See, our balls are kissing." He's like,
[high-pitched] "See, our balls are kissing."
Like, in the creepiest way, like the...
This, he thought, yeah, the...
I wanted to punch that boy, like, uh...
Is that how, like, all English boys are?
- No. - [thuds]
Well, this boy was nasty.
And he was-- Everything about him was weird
and he wasn't even cute either. He was...
Like, he was fat.
And bi-- I don't, I don't even know why,
why I told him I wanna hang out with...
And then he figured it was a date.
He's like, "You know, when we're done playing,
can I, like, can we go get a milkshake?"
I was like, "No."
[Sabrina] Rosanna's really upset about this guy.
He didn't really do anything that...
should've or would've made her so upset,
but she's upset.
I honestly wonder if the English world is even for her
because she doesn't have the right reactions
to the situations that she's in.
[sighs] He was creepy.
- [thuds] - [exhales]
- Good morning. - [Rosanna] Good morning.
[Sabrina] How is your vagina doing this morning?
[Rosanna laughs]
[Maureen] I don't even wanna talk about it.
Why?
Couldn't even pee.
- Really? - It burns.
Why does it burn? Was Danny too hard on you?
- [Sabrina] It burns? - Yes.
[Sabrina] Is there, like, any stuff coming out of it?
[snorts]
No, it just...
I can't pee 'cause it burns.
Does your stomach hurt?
No.
Not like it did last night.
Like, when I was sleeping, when it woke me up.
So, is it normal for it to itch
and... just feel weird?
Itch?
[laughs]
No, it's not supposed to itch. Um...
Are you serious?
- [Maureen] No, I'm actually-- - Is it itchy?
Well, yes.
In general, Amish have never had a reputation
for...
sanitary body hygiene.
So, you know, it's easy for an Amish guy
to get STDs because they [bleep] everything and anything.
So, this is why some Amish guys have dirty [bleep].
Well, I mean, Amish and Mennonite guys don't really use condoms.
No wonder they have so many kids.
[speaking in Pennsylvania Dutch]
[in English] I don't know what you're saying.
[in English] She was out till three o'clock this morning with Danny,
and I wanna know what she was doing.
[Sabrina] I don't know. Apparently, Danny made her itchy.
Not really itchy, what did I tell you?
[Sabrina] Well, you said burn, it burns.
- It's sore. - [Sabrina] And itchy.
Don't talk like that to your grandma
or in front of her!
You came and asked me.
I don't wanna talk about it,
that's my granddaughter.
I'm not gonna talk about anything like that.
No, cross that one out.
Nope.
- Let's have an anatomy lesson. - [clears throat]
[Maureen] Rosanna, Sabrina, seriously?
Here, this is what you do.
I will show you.
This literally...
Put a condom on it!
If you're gonna do it, put a condom on it.
[Ada] Sabrina, she's only 19 years old
and she shouldn't be out there having sex.
Well, I didn't tell her to go have sex,
she did it already, so I'm just trying to help her.
Ada is typical Amish.
If you don't talk about it, it ain't true.
The fact that nobody taught Maureen how to have safe sex,
and she thinks that doing jumping jacks
is going to keep her from getting pregnant,
way to go, Ada. Good job.
[speaking in Pennsylvania Dutch]
[in English] I think that Maureen needs to be careful
because she's very naive.
She has everything all figured out.
She thinks she's got Danny,
she's going to have babies, they're gonna get married,
blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
But...
That's what I thought too when I was 18.
And then life hits you, and...
I just hope that she knows what she's doing.
You didn't do anything wrong, just wrap it.
And make sure he's clean.
[Sabrina] You left me.
It was [bleep] calculated and don't tell me it wasn't.
[sniffles]
"I don't wanna get married to you. I never wanna get married to you."
Oh, but then, the second I [bleep] step aside, I get a text,
- "I said I'd marry you." You never said that. -I did.
[cries]
[Sabrina] Losing Jethro made me realize
that I really do miss him.
So, I'm meeting up with him without the kids
to see whether or not we can work things out.
- How you've been? - [Sabrina] Good.
- How are you? - I'm all right, I suppose.
Are you gonna give me a hug or what?
You're the one that left.
[Jethro] I'm trying to make things work with Sabrina.
I just felt like coming back would be the best thing,
and try to work things out.
[Sabrina] You smell like your grandma's house.
- Huh? - You smell like your grandmother's house.
Yeah, no [bleep].
[grunts]
Sit down.
- How are the kids doing? - [Sabrina] They're good.
[Jethro sighs]
[Sabrina] You know, like...
[voice breaking] I'm really, really, really hurt.
From what?
[sighs]
This is why I don't wanna talk about it 'cause you don't get it.
[Jethro] Well, tell me. You just say you're hurt and you don't talk to me.
[sniffles]
[Sabrina] You left me.
It was [bleep] calculated and don't tell me it wasn't.
[sniffles]
You left me 'cause you didn't wanna be with me.
So...
Point blank, nothing counts anymore.
Because you've chosen to continue to lie to me
over and over, and not be honest.
I'm being honest.
- No, you're not. - Yeah.
You are not being honest!
And that's fine, but just remember this.
Yeah, I am remembering this.
"I don't wanna get married to you. I never wanna get married to you."
Oh, but then the second I [bleep] step aside, I get a text,
"Oh, I said I'd marry you, I said I'd marry you."
- I did-- - You never said that.
- And I talked to you privately-- - Now, you're gonna
make up all kinds of [bleep], see?
And then you say I'm a liar.
[Jethro] A lot of the things that made wanna go back to Pennsylvania was
everybody just packed up and left
and left us with an empty, quiet house,
and it just all hit me all at once
and then I just got overwhelmed.
And she's constantly nagging at me
and, like, getting after me for certain things.
[Sabrina] I know, for a fact, you're lying,
and if you can lie to me about [bleep] like that,
- then you're also lying about cheating. - How am I lying?
- What am I lying about? - You're lying about everything.
[sighs]
[Jethro] Well, that's 'cause of a bunch of reasons.
It wasn't you, I might've said that, but it wasn't.
And everybody just left, and I [bleep] felt some type of way.
I made a spur-of-the-moment decision, like...
I'm sorry I left.
It's not that I don't wanna be with you, like,
I wanna be with you.
I just had a lot of stuff going on in my head and stuff.
And I thought that if I go to Pennsylvania for a little while,
I'd somehow escape whatever was going on in my head and stuff.
And I didn't really think about, like...
How it would affect you... I mean, yeah.
Like, I don't, I don't know what you want.
I don't... [sighs]
I'm trying to give you as much grace as I can right now.
And I'm trying to have empathy for you.
Because I understand, like...
You know...
[bleep] happens.
And I guess, at the end of the day, that's what...
love is.
[voice breaks] Putting your own feelings aside
and caring about the other person's more than your own.
[sniffles]
It just sucks.
[breath shudders]
I can't go through the [bleep] that I went through...
ever again.
[Jethro] Look, I'm sorry I left.
I'm gonna try to do better.
And not try to run...
from my problems.
[clicks tongue]
I love you, like I wanna be with you, I just...
was going through a bunch of [bleep] and I acted out on it.
["Change Any Moment" playing]
♪ Now everything that was ever meant to be ♪
♪ Feels real, It's right in front of me ♪
This is the first time I've been happy in a few weeks,
and the last couple of weeks were pure hell,
but I'm so glad that me and Jethro are back together.
Yes, it's good to be back together again.
[Jethro speaking]
[Sabrina speaking]
[narrator] On the next episode of Return to Amish.
Me and Maureen, we're gonna go for it.
[Maureen] Oh, my gosh. I am so nervous.
And we're gonna get our GED.
I'd like you to just read the first sentence
of the first paragraph.
[Sabrina] Jethro and I finally talked things out
and we're getting our relationship back on track,
but, I haven't taken him back to the house yet
because I'm kind of worried because I know everybody was, like, really mad at him.
[Jeremiah] My cousin, John, invited us back to meet
the rest of his brothers and sisters.
And I'm nervous because they could blame me for my father's death.
[John] Guys, this is, uh, Jeremiah
and his wife, Carmela.