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GIRL
<i>I believe we have a choice in this world</i>

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<i>about how to tell sad stories.</i>

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<i>On the one hand,
you can sugarcoat it</i>

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<i>the way they do in movies</i>

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<i>and romance novels,
where beautiful people</i>

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<i>learn beautiful lessons,
where nothing is too messed up</i>

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<i>that can't be fixed with an apology
and a Peter Gabriel song.</i>

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<i>I like that version as much
as the next girl does, believe me.</i>

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<i>It's just not the truth.</i>

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<i>This is the truth.</i>

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<i>Sorry.</i>

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<i>Late in the winter
of my 17th year...</i>

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<i>...my mother decided
that I was depressed.</i>

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She just eats like a bird,
she barely leaves the house.

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I am not depressed, Mom.

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She's reading the same
book over and over.

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-She's depressed.
-I'm not depressed!

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<i>
The booklets and the Web sites</i>

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<i>always list depression
as a side effect of cancer.</i>

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<i>Depression's not
a side effect of cancer.</i>

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<i>It's a side effect of dying.</i>

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Here you go, sweetie.

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<i> Which is what
was happening to me.</i>

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Hi. Can I help you?

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Would you like anything
to drink with that?

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Um, just a cup of water
if you could.

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I may switch you to Zoloft

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or Lexapro.

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And twice a day
instead of once.

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Why stop there?

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-Hmm?
-Really. Just keep them coming.

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I'm like the Keith Richards
of cancer kids.

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Have you been going to
that support group I suggested?

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-Yeah, it's not my thing.
-Support groups can be

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a great way for you to connect
with people who are...

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Who are... what?

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On the same journey.

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"Journey," really?

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Give it a chance.

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Who knows, you might even
find it enlightening.

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All right.

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You guys ready?

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We are gathered here today
literally...

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...in the heart of Jesus.

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We're here with J.C.

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Who wants to share their story
with the group?

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I'm Angel.
I have acute myeloid leukemia.

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Sid.
Acute lymphoblastic leukemia.

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Hi. I'm P.J.
Um, I have neuroblastoma.

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I'm Patrick.
Testicular.

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<i> I'll spare you the gory details
of Patrick's ball cancer.</i>

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<i>Basically,
they found it in his nuts.</i>

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<i>They cut most of it out,</i>

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<i>and he almost died,
but he didn't die.</i>

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<i>So now here he is, divorced,
friendless,</i>

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<i>living on his parents' couch,</i>

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<i>exploiting
his cancer-tastic past</i>

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<i>in the heart of Jesus,
literally,</i>

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<i>to show us that one day,
if we're lucky,</i>

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<i>we could be just like him.</i>

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Who's next?

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Hazel?

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Um... I'm Hazel.

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Uh, thyroid originally, but now

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with quite the impressive
satellite colony in my lungs.

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And... and...
and how are you doing?

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<i> Uh, you mean
besides the terminal cancer?</i>

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All right, I guess.

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We're here for you, Hazel.

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Why don't I play another song?

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Hey, sweet pea.

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So... was it awesome?

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"Yeah, Mom, it was awesome."

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<i> And that was my life:
Reality shows,</i>

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<i>doctor's appointments,</i>

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<i>eight prescription drugs,
three times a day.</i>

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<i>But worst, worst,
worst of all, support group.</i>

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-You cannot make me.
-Of course we can.

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-We're you're parents.
-Come on, we've been through this.

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You need to go.
You need to make friends.

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-Be a teenager.
-Mom, if you want me

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to be a teenager, you don't
send me to support group.

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You got to, like, get me

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a fake I.D.
so that I can go to clubs

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and drink gimlets and take pot.

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Uh, you don't "take" pot.

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-Um...
-Okay, well,

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that is the kind of thing
I would know with a fake I.D.

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Can you just get
in the car, please?

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<i> And so I went.</i>

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<i>Not because I wanted to</i>

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<i>or because I thought
it would help me,</i>

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<i>but for the same reason
I did anything these days:</i>

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<i>to make my parents happy.</i>

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I really don't understand
why I can't just drive myself.

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It's not like
you're gonna do anything.

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You're just gonna sit here
and wait again.

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Of course I'm not.

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No, I'm, I've got stuff to do.

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I'm gonna do errands.

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-Yeah.
-I love you.

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-I love you, too.
-Have fun.

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<i> The only thing worse
than biting it from cancer</i>

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<i>is having a kid
bite it from cancer.</i>

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Hey!
Make some friends.

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Oh, sorry.

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-I'll take the stairs.
-No problem.

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Thank you.

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-Sorry.

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My bad.

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I'm sorry.

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Oh, my God.

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<i>So, who'd like to start?</i>

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Does anyone want to start?

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Who wants to kick it off?

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Go ahead.

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I'm Beth. I have
spindle cell sarcoma.

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It's been an okay week.

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I've, uh,
I've been sleeping a lot more.

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I'm not as sluggish...

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We're here for you, Beth.

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Isaac, I know
that you're facing

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some challenges right now.

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Do you want to, uh,
share with the group?

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Or maybe your friend here?

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No, I'll share.

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Hey, guys.

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Uh, hi. Uh, I'm Isaac.

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I have, uh, retinoblastoma.

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We had surgery on one eye
when I was younger,

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so this is a glass eye,
and then I'm going

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into the hospital
to have another surgery

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to take out the other eye.

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Um, so after that surgery,
I'm just gonna be totally blind.

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But I'm lucky
'cause I have this beautiful,

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smoking-hot girlfriend
who's way out of my league.

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Monica.

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And, uh,
I have great friends like

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Augustus Waters to,
you know, help me out.

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So that's what's up.

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Thanks.

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We're here for you, Isaac.

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Thank you.

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Your turn, Gus.

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Yeah, sure.

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Uh, I'm, uh,
I'm Augustus Waters.

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I'm 18 years old, and, um,

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I had a touch of osteosarcoma
about a year and a half ago.

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So I... I lost this baby
as a result.

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And, uh, now I'm part cyborg,
which is awesome.

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But, really,
I'm just here at Isaac's request.

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-Yep.
-And, uh, how are you feeling, Gus?

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I'm grand, yeah.

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I'm on a roller coaster
that only goes up, my friend.

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Maybe you'd like to
share your fears with the group.

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My fears?

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Oblivion.

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-Oblivion?
-Yeah.

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You see, I intend to live
an extraordinary life, to be remembered.

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So I'd say if I have any fears,
it would be to not do that.

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Would anyone else in the group
like to speak to that?

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Hazel?

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Unexpected.

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Yeah, I just wanted
to say that, you know,

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there's gonna come a time
when all of us are dead.

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There was a time before
humans, and there's

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gonna be a time after,
and it could be tomorrow,

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it could be a million years
from now.

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And when it does,
there will be no one left

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to remember Cleopatra
or Muhammad Ali or Mozart,

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let alone any of us.

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Oblivion's inevitable,
and if that scares you,

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then I suggest you ignore it.

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God knows it's what
everyone else does.

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Well,
that's some good advice.

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I like all this,
'cause it's... it's really...

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...nice to hear everybody

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tell each other
how they feel.

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-Thank you.
-Mm-hmm.

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-Always.
-Always.

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-- Always.
-- Always.

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-Always.
-Always.

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"Literally."

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I thought we were in a
church basement, but apparently,

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we were literally
in the heart of Jesus.

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Oh, yeah.

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What's your name?

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Hazel.

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No, what's your full name?

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Hazel Grace Lancaster.

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What?

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-I didn't say anything.
-Why are you looking at me like that?

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-Because you're beautiful.
-Oh, my God.

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I enjoy looking
at beautiful people.

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-I...
-See, I decided a while back

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not to deny myself the simpler
pleasures of existence,

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particularly, as you so
astutely pointed out,

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we're all gonna
die pretty soon.

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Okay, well, that's great,

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-but I am not beautiful.
-Hey, Gus.

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Hi, Lisa.

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I like it when
you say it first.

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-I like it when you say it first.
-Okay.

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-Always.
-Always.

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What's with the "always"?

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"Always" is, like,
their thing,

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like they'll always
love each other and whatnot.

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-- Always?
-- Always.

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They probably texted
"always" to each other, like,

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14 million times this year.

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He's got to be hurting
her boob.

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Let's go watch a movie.

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What?

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-Hmm?
-Huh?

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Um, I'm...
I'm free later this week.

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-We could...
-No, I mean now.

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You could be an ax murderer.

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There's always that possibility.

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Come on, Hazel Grace,
take a risk.

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I don't...

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Really?

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That is disgusting!

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What?

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What, do you think that
that's cool or something?

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You just ruined
this whole thing.

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-The whole thing?
-Yes! This whole thing.

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Oh, man.

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You were doing really well, too.

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God. There's always a hamartia,
isn't there?

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And yours is, even though
you had freaking cancer,

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you're willing to give money
to a corporation

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for the chance to acquire
even more cancer?

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Let me just tell you that
not being able to breathe sucks.

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It totally sucks!

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"Hamartia"?

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It's a fatal flaw.

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Ah, fatal...

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Hazel Grace, they don't actually
hurt you unless you light them.

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Hmm?

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I never lit one.

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It's a metaphor, see?

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You put the thing
that does the killing

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right between your teeth,

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but you never give it the power
to kill you.

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A metaphor.

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Hey, sweetheart.

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Is it<i> Top Model </i>time?

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No.

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Uh, I've made
plans with Augustus Waters.

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00:13:04,455 --> 00:13:05,498
Oh!

251
00:13:05,498 --> 00:13:06,791
Oh, my God.

252
00:13:06,791 --> 00:13:09,043
Whew.

253
00:13:09,043 --> 00:13:10,962
Yeah, I failed my test
a couple times.

254
00:13:10,962 --> 00:13:12,505
You don't say?

255
00:13:12,505 --> 00:13:14,048
Actually, the fourth time
I took the test,

256
00:13:14,048 --> 00:13:15,800
it was going
about how this is going,

257
00:13:15,800 --> 00:13:18,136
and when it was over,

258
00:13:18,136 --> 00:13:20,388
the instructor looks over at me,
and she says,

259
00:13:20,388 --> 00:13:23,933
"Your driving, while unpleasant,
is not technically unsafe."

260
00:13:23,933 --> 00:13:25,268
Cancer perk.

261
00:13:25,268 --> 00:13:26,769
Total cancer perk.

262
00:13:28,688 --> 00:13:30,440
So, tell me about you.

263
00:13:30,440 --> 00:13:34,027
Um,
I was 13 when they found it.

264
00:13:34,027 --> 00:13:36,738
<i>Pretty much
worst-case scenario.</i>

265
00:13:36,738 --> 00:13:39,532
<i>Thyroid, stage four.</i>

266
00:13:39,532 --> 00:13:41,117
<i>Not much they could do,</i>

267
00:13:41,117 --> 00:13:43,453
<i>which didn't stop them,
of course.</i>

268
00:13:43,453 --> 00:13:47,373
<i>Surgery, radiation,</i>

269
00:13:47,373 --> 00:13:49,584
<i>chemo, more radiation.</i>

270
00:13:51,711 --> 00:13:55,048
<i>All of which worked
for a while,</i>

271
00:13:55,048 --> 00:13:58,634
<i>but then stopped working.</i>

272
00:13:58,634 --> 00:14:01,387
<i>-And then one day, my lungs</i>

273
00:14:01,387 --> 00:14:03,222
<i>-started filling up with water.
</i>-Nurse!

274
00:14:03,222 --> 00:14:04,807
We need a nurse right now!

275
00:14:04,807 --> 00:14:06,851
<i>I couldn't breathe.</i>

276
00:14:06,851 --> 00:14:08,644
<i>No one could get it
under control.</i>

277
00:14:08,644 --> 00:14:10,521
You can let go, sweetie.

278
00:14:10,521 --> 00:14:12,690
Don't be afraid.

279
00:14:12,690 --> 00:14:14,233
<i>That should've been the end.</i>

280
00:14:14,233 --> 00:14:16,402
Oh, my God.

281
00:14:16,402 --> 00:14:19,363
<i>But then something strange happened.</i>

282
00:14:19,363 --> 00:14:21,282
<i>The antibiotics kicked in.</i>

283
00:14:21,282 --> 00:14:23,117
<i>They drained the fluid
from my lungs.</i>

284
00:14:23,117 --> 00:14:25,119
<i>I got some strength back.</i>

285
00:14:25,119 --> 00:14:26,913
<i>Next thing I know,
I found myself</i>

286
00:14:26,913 --> 00:14:28,998
<i>in an experimental trial.</i>

287
00:14:28,998 --> 00:14:30,625
<i>You know,
the ones that are famous</i>

288
00:14:30,625 --> 00:14:32,710
<i>in the Republic of Cancervania
for not working?</i>

289
00:14:32,710 --> 00:14:34,879
<i>It's called Phalanxifor.</i>

290
00:14:34,879 --> 00:14:37,256
<i>It didn't work
in over 70% of the patients,</i>

291
00:14:37,256 --> 00:14:39,550
<i>but for some reason,
it's been working for me.</i>

292
00:14:39,550 --> 00:14:41,385
So they called it the miracle.

293
00:14:41,385 --> 00:14:43,012
Of course, my lungs
still suck at being lungs,

294
00:14:43,012 --> 00:14:44,889
but theoretically,
they could continue

295
00:14:44,889 --> 00:14:48,643
to suck like this for,
I don't know, a while maybe.

296
00:14:48,643 --> 00:14:50,061
So are you back in school?

297
00:14:50,061 --> 00:14:51,896
I... I got my GED,

298
00:14:51,896 --> 00:14:54,232
so I'm taking classes at MCC.

299
00:14:54,232 --> 00:14:56,150
Whoa! A college girl.

300
00:14:56,150 --> 00:14:58,820
Well, that explains
the aura of sophistication.

301
00:14:58,820 --> 00:14:59,862
Oh, careful!

302
00:15:05,493 --> 00:15:06,702
Oops.

303
00:15:09,622 --> 00:15:12,583
Welcome to my humble abode.

304
00:15:18,089 --> 00:15:20,800
Uh, my folks
call them encouragements.

305
00:15:23,052 --> 00:15:24,512
Don't ask.

306
00:15:26,180 --> 00:15:27,348
Hi, guys!

307
00:15:27,348 --> 00:15:28,474
Hey.

308
00:15:28,474 --> 00:15:29,851
Augustus, hi.

309
00:15:29,851 --> 00:15:30,893
New friend?

310
00:15:32,186 --> 00:15:34,897
Yeah. Uh,
this is Hazel Grace.

311
00:15:34,897 --> 00:15:36,274
Hey. Oh, it's just Hazel.

312
00:15:36,274 --> 00:15:37,692
How's it going, Just Hazel?

313
00:15:37,692 --> 00:15:39,402
Hi, Hazel. How are you?

314
00:15:39,402 --> 00:15:41,571
Yeah, we're going
downstairs. Bye.

315
00:15:41,571 --> 00:15:43,156
-Nice to meet you guys.
-Bye.

316
00:15:43,156 --> 00:15:44,866
-Bye. Nice to meet you, too.
-Nice to meet you, too.

317
00:15:50,872 --> 00:15:52,915
This is it. Augusto World.

318
00:15:54,417 --> 00:15:57,253
-This is my room.
-Wow.

319
00:15:59,172 --> 00:16:00,965
That's an impressive
collection.

320
00:16:00,965 --> 00:16:02,550
Yeah, I used to play.

321
00:16:04,051 --> 00:16:05,887
Do you mind if I sit down?

322
00:16:05,887 --> 00:16:08,014
Yeah, make yourself at home.

323
00:16:08,014 --> 00:16:11,601
<i>Mi casa es tu casa.</i>

324
00:16:13,519 --> 00:16:17,231
Sorry, the, um,
stairs and the...

325
00:16:17,231 --> 00:16:18,941
...the standing.

326
00:16:18,941 --> 00:16:20,359
It's...

327
00:16:20,359 --> 00:16:23,362
Yeah, I... I understand.

328
00:16:24,989 --> 00:16:26,199
Uh, seriously, though,
are you okay?

329
00:16:26,199 --> 00:16:27,283
Yeah, yeah.

330
00:16:27,283 --> 00:16:29,076
All right.

331
00:16:29,076 --> 00:16:30,369
What's your story?

332
00:16:30,369 --> 00:16:33,581
I already told you.

333
00:16:33,581 --> 00:16:35,875
I, um, was diagnosed
when I was 13.

334
00:16:35,875 --> 00:16:39,003
No, no, no, not your cancer
story. Your real story.

335
00:16:39,003 --> 00:16:40,463
Your interests, your hobbies,

336
00:16:40,463 --> 00:16:42,340
your passions,
your weird fetishes.

337
00:16:42,340 --> 00:16:44,634
-Weird fetishes?
-Come on, just think of something.

338
00:16:44,634 --> 00:16:45,718
The first thing
that pops in your head.

339
00:16:45,718 --> 00:16:47,094
Something you love.

340
00:16:48,346 --> 00:16:50,181
<i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

341
00:16:50,181 --> 00:16:53,351
Okay. What's that?

342
00:16:53,351 --> 00:16:55,895
It's a novel.
It's my favorite novel.

343
00:16:55,895 --> 00:16:58,522
Wait, wait, does it have
zombies in it?

344
00:16:58,522 --> 00:16:59,690
Zombies? No!

345
00:16:59,690 --> 00:17:00,942
Stormtroopers?

346
00:17:00,942 --> 00:17:02,360
No, it's...

347
00:17:02,360 --> 00:17:03,819
It's not that kind of a book.

348
00:17:03,819 --> 00:17:05,780
Okay, what's it about?

349
00:17:05,780 --> 00:17:07,531
Uh, cancer.

350
00:17:07,531 --> 00:17:09,492
It's about cancer?

351
00:17:09,492 --> 00:17:11,452
But not like that;
trust me, it's...

352
00:17:11,452 --> 00:17:13,079
It's amazing.

353
00:17:13,079 --> 00:17:16,582
Um, the author...
his name is Peter Van Houten.

354
00:17:16,582 --> 00:17:19,377
He's the only person
I've ever come across in my life

355
00:17:19,377 --> 00:17:22,838
who: A, understands what
it's like to be dying,

356
00:17:22,838 --> 00:17:25,216
but B, hasn't actually died.

357
00:17:25,216 --> 00:17:29,553
Okay. I will read this horrible
book with this very boring title

358
00:17:29,553 --> 00:17:32,098
that does not include zombies
or Stormtroopers,

359
00:17:32,098 --> 00:17:33,891
and in exchange...

360
00:17:36,435 --> 00:17:37,895
...you will read this.

361
00:17:37,895 --> 00:17:39,105
This haunting,

362
00:17:39,105 --> 00:17:40,523
yet brilliant novelization

363
00:17:40,523 --> 00:17:42,024
of my favorite video game.

364
00:17:42,024 --> 00:17:44,193
<i>"Counterinsurgence."</i>

365
00:17:47,238 --> 00:17:49,323
Yeah, don't laugh.
It... It's awesome.

366
00:17:49,323 --> 00:17:52,952
It's about honor and sacrifice
and bravery and heroism.

367
00:17:52,952 --> 00:17:55,246
It's about embracing
your destiny

368
00:17:55,246 --> 00:17:57,665
and leaving a mark on the world.

369
00:17:59,417 --> 00:18:01,002
Well, thank you.

370
00:18:01,002 --> 00:18:04,004
Wait, wait.
Your hands are so cold.

371
00:18:04,004 --> 00:18:07,466
Well, they're not so much cold
as just under-oxygenated.

372
00:18:07,466 --> 00:18:09,385
-Hazel Grace?
-Hmm?

373
00:18:09,385 --> 00:18:11,137
I love it when you
talk medical to me.

374
00:18:19,687 --> 00:18:20,855
That's different.

375
00:18:22,690 --> 00:18:25,318
Did he give it to you?

376
00:18:25,318 --> 00:18:27,570
By "it," do you mean herpes?

377
00:18:27,570 --> 00:18:29,238
Wow.

378
00:18:29,238 --> 00:18:31,073
Yes, I did.

379
00:18:31,073 --> 00:18:33,659
It's a mother's dream.

380
00:18:47,923 --> 00:18:49,216
Hey.

381
00:18:49,216 --> 00:18:50,343
Don't worry.

382
00:18:50,343 --> 00:18:52,136
Oh, my God, Mom,
I'm not worried.

383
00:18:52,136 --> 00:18:53,387
It's not a big deal.

384
00:18:53,387 --> 00:18:55,222
Yeah.

385
00:18:55,222 --> 00:18:58,934
We just hung out. It's not like
I'm waiting for him to call me.

386
00:19:37,556 --> 00:19:39,517
-- Is that what...
-- Yeah.

387
00:19:39,517 --> 00:19:40,810
Because I thought
those were peppers.

388
00:19:40,810 --> 00:19:43,604
All right.
Today, in China,

389
00:19:43,604 --> 00:19:45,272
-International Goji Berry Day.

390
00:19:45,272 --> 00:19:47,650
-Isn't that great?

391
00:19:47,650 --> 00:19:49,068
-- I like the color.
-- Mm-hmm.

392
00:19:49,068 --> 00:19:50,820
This is the dried.

393
00:19:50,820 --> 00:19:52,154
Uh-huh. They're very good.

394
00:19:52,154 --> 00:19:54,323
-They're good, right?
-Mm-hmm.

395
00:19:54,323 --> 00:19:55,825
-So do they... they eat

396
00:19:55,825 --> 00:19:57,785
a lot of goji berries
on Goji Berry Day?

397
00:19:57,785 --> 00:19:59,578
-- We do.
-- They must.

398
00:19:59,578 --> 00:20:01,831
We do. We're gonna do it
for them. We're gonna decide.

399
00:20:01,831 --> 00:20:04,083
I did something
with the dessert even,

400
00:20:04,083 --> 00:20:05,835
just to try to keep the
goji berry theme going.

401
00:20:05,835 --> 00:20:07,545
-Oh, my God.

402
00:20:07,545 --> 00:20:09,296
Because they're
an amazing antioxidant.

403
00:20:09,296 --> 00:20:10,923
I didn't even know we
were having dessert.

404
00:20:10,923 --> 00:20:13,467
Mm-hmm, got to
celebrate things in this family.

405
00:20:13,467 --> 00:20:15,469
-- Well, I like it.
-- It's gonna be a big deal

406
00:20:15,469 --> 00:20:17,012
-in our house every year.
-We should do it every year.

407
00:20:17,012 --> 00:20:18,931
-Every year. I know.
-We should do it every year.

408
00:20:18,931 --> 00:20:21,100
-I really do like these.

409
00:20:22,768 --> 00:20:25,354
Honey, would you like
to be excused?

410
00:20:25,354 --> 00:20:27,231
What?

411
00:20:32,069 --> 00:20:33,946
Hazel Grace!

412
00:20:33,946 --> 00:20:35,573
Welcome to the sweet torture

413
00:20:35,573 --> 00:20:37,616
of reading
<i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

414
00:20:40,035 --> 00:20:41,495
What is... Are you okay?

415
00:20:43,372 --> 00:20:45,249
Um, me? Yeah,
I am excellent.

416
00:20:47,126 --> 00:20:49,044
I am, however,
with Isaac and...

417
00:20:49,044 --> 00:20:52,298
Isaac, does Support Group Hazel
make this better or worse?

418
00:20:54,925 --> 00:20:57,344
Isaac... focus on me.

419
00:20:58,804 --> 00:21:00,723
How fast can you get here?

420
00:21:00,723 --> 00:21:02,308
Um...

421
00:21:02,308 --> 00:21:03,517
Great, all right,
well, the door's open.

422
00:21:03,517 --> 00:21:04,852
So I... I got to run. Bye.

423
00:21:10,983 --> 00:21:12,776
Hello?

424
00:21:12,776 --> 00:21:14,945
Hazel.

425
00:21:14,945 --> 00:21:18,115
Isaac, yo, Hazel Grace
from the support group is here.

426
00:21:18,115 --> 00:21:19,283
-Hi.
-Hi.

427
00:21:20,910 --> 00:21:23,913
Uh, gentle reminder.

428
00:21:23,913 --> 00:21:26,499
Isaac's in the midst of
a psychotic episode right now.

429
00:21:26,499 --> 00:21:27,833
You look very nice, by the way.

430
00:21:27,833 --> 00:21:29,001
I like this color on you.

431
00:21:29,001 --> 00:21:30,419
Thank you.

432
00:21:30,419 --> 00:21:31,879
Isaac.

433
00:21:37,092 --> 00:21:39,720
-Isaac. Hazel's here.

434
00:21:39,720 --> 00:21:41,222
Hi, Isaac.

435
00:21:41,222 --> 00:21:42,890
Hey, Hazel.

436
00:21:47,895 --> 00:21:49,897
How you doing?

437
00:21:49,897 --> 00:21:52,525
I'm doing okay.

438
00:21:52,525 --> 00:21:55,694
It seems Isaac and Monica
are no longer a going concern.

439
00:21:55,694 --> 00:21:58,364
Oh, Isaac, I'm so sorry.

440
00:21:58,364 --> 00:21:59,949
Do you want to talk
about it?

441
00:21:59,949 --> 00:22:02,618
No, I just want to cry
and play video games.

442
00:22:02,618 --> 00:22:05,412
However, you know,
it doesn't hurt to talk to him

443
00:22:05,412 --> 00:22:09,083
if you have any sage words
of feminine advice.

444
00:22:09,083 --> 00:22:10,334
I actually think
that his response

445
00:22:10,334 --> 00:22:12,086
is fairly appropriate.

446
00:22:12,086 --> 00:22:13,879
"Pain demands to be felt."

447
00:22:13,879 --> 00:22:15,714
You're quoting my book.

448
00:22:15,714 --> 00:22:17,716
She said she wanted
to break up with me

449
00:22:17,716 --> 00:22:22,388
before the surgery,
'cause she couldn't handle it.

450
00:22:22,388 --> 00:22:26,141
I'm about to lose my eyesight,
and<i> she </i>can't handle it.

451
00:22:26,141 --> 00:22:28,269
I kept saying "always"
to her, you know, like,

452
00:22:28,269 --> 00:22:29,895
"always," and she kept, like,

453
00:22:29,895 --> 00:22:34,066
talking over me and not saying
it back, and, like...

454
00:22:34,066 --> 00:22:36,318
...and it was like
I was gone already, you know?

455
00:22:36,318 --> 00:22:39,071
-And...
-You know, sometimes

456
00:22:39,071 --> 00:22:42,283
people don't understand
the promises that they're making

457
00:22:42,283 --> 00:22:43,617
when they make them.

458
00:22:43,617 --> 00:22:46,829
I know, but...
I feel like such a loser.

459
00:22:46,829 --> 00:22:48,622
I still have her necklace on.

460
00:22:48,622 --> 00:22:51,000
-Take it off.
-Dude, take that off.

461
00:22:52,334 --> 00:22:53,669
-Yeah.

462
00:22:53,669 --> 00:22:55,546
Here we go, man,
here we go.

463
00:22:55,546 --> 00:22:57,881
I just want to kick something.

464
00:23:00,467 --> 00:23:02,094
Don't... don't hit that!
Don't hit that! Here, dude.

465
00:23:02,094 --> 00:23:03,345
Hey, uh...

466
00:23:04,722 --> 00:23:06,223
-Hit this.
-Sorry.

467
00:23:14,148 --> 00:23:15,899
I've been wanting to call
you for a few days now,

468
00:23:15,899 --> 00:23:17,985
but I've been waiting until
I could form a coherent thought

469
00:23:17,985 --> 00:23:18,986
about<i> Imperial Affliction.</i>

470
00:23:21,989 --> 00:23:23,449
One second.

471
00:23:23,449 --> 00:23:24,742
Isaac!

472
00:23:25,618 --> 00:23:26,827
Pillows don't break.

473
00:23:26,827 --> 00:23:28,829
You need to break something.

474
00:23:28,829 --> 00:23:31,665
Try this.

475
00:23:31,665 --> 00:23:33,584
-Wait, the trophy?
-Yeah.

476
00:23:33,584 --> 00:23:35,586
-I... I've been looking
-Are you sure?

477
00:23:35,586 --> 00:23:37,838
for a way to tell my father
I kind of hate basketball.

478
00:23:37,838 --> 00:23:39,882
Go to town!

479
00:23:45,471 --> 00:23:47,431
Always!

480
00:23:47,431 --> 00:23:49,266
<i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

481
00:23:49,266 --> 00:23:51,185
Yes. I'm so glad
that you liked it.

482
00:23:51,185 --> 00:23:53,979
-Yes, I did, but the ending.

483
00:23:53,979 --> 00:23:55,689
I-I know, it is rather abrupt.

484
00:23:55,689 --> 00:23:58,067
"Rather abrupt"?
Are you kidding? It's evil!

485
00:23:58,067 --> 00:24:00,069
I... I mean,
I understand that she dies,

486
00:24:00,069 --> 00:24:02,529
but there's... there's
an unwritten contract...

487
00:24:02,529 --> 00:24:04,198
-...between author and... Yeah?
-Gus?

488
00:24:04,198 --> 00:24:05,532
-Cool?
-Sure.

489
00:24:05,532 --> 00:24:06,909
Between an author and reader,

490
00:24:06,909 --> 00:24:08,661
and I feel like ending your book

491
00:24:08,661 --> 00:24:09,995
in the middle of a sentence
sort of violates that contract,

492
00:24:09,995 --> 00:24:11,288
-don't you think?
-Always! Always!

493
00:24:11,288 --> 00:24:13,165
Okay, yes, I...
I know what you mean,

494
00:24:13,165 --> 00:24:14,458
but I mean, to be
completely honest,

495
00:24:14,458 --> 00:24:16,293
I think it's just so truthful.

496
00:24:16,293 --> 00:24:18,837
You know, you just die
in the middle of life.

497
00:24:18,837 --> 00:24:20,464
You die in the middle
of a sentence.

498
00:24:20,464 --> 00:24:23,217
-And I don't know.

499
00:24:23,217 --> 00:24:25,052
I kind of... But I really...

500
00:24:25,052 --> 00:24:26,929
I would like to know
what happens to the rest of...

501
00:24:26,929 --> 00:24:29,014
To, you know,
everyone after Anna dies.

502
00:24:29,014 --> 00:24:30,182
Like Anna's mother.

503
00:24:30,182 --> 00:24:31,892
Yes, and the Dutch Tulip Man.

504
00:24:31,892 --> 00:24:33,519
And Sisyphus the Hamster.

505
00:24:33,519 --> 00:24:34,770
Yes.

506
00:24:36,522 --> 00:24:39,400
Have you tried contacting
this Peter Van Houten fella?

507
00:24:39,400 --> 00:24:40,734
I have written him
so many letters,

508
00:24:40,734 --> 00:24:42,277
but he's never responded.

509
00:24:42,277 --> 00:24:44,029
Apparently,
he moved to Amsterdam

510
00:24:44,029 --> 00:24:45,864
and became a recluse and...

511
00:24:46,657 --> 00:24:49,034
-Shame.
-Yeah.

512
00:24:49,034 --> 00:24:53,205
Isaac. You, uh,
you feeling better, buddy?

513
00:24:53,205 --> 00:24:55,040
That's the thing about pain.

514
00:24:56,500 --> 00:24:57,960
It demands to be felt.

515
00:24:57,960 --> 00:24:59,211
I'll help you pick...

516
00:24:59,211 --> 00:25:01,213
I'll help you clean this up.

517
00:25:03,298 --> 00:25:05,008
GUS
Hazel Grace.

518
00:25:05,008 --> 00:25:07,386
-Augustus Waters.
-I cannot stop thinking

519
00:25:07,386 --> 00:25:08,887
about this goddamned book.

520
00:25:08,887 --> 00:25:10,305
You're welcome.

521
00:25:10,305 --> 00:25:13,016
However, we do need closure,
don't you think?

522
00:25:13,016 --> 00:25:16,061
That is exactly what I was
asking Van Houten for in my letters.

523
00:25:16,061 --> 00:25:18,063
But he never responded.

524
00:25:18,063 --> 00:25:19,523
Nope.

525
00:25:20,733 --> 00:25:22,484
"Dear Mr.

526
00:25:22,484 --> 00:25:25,863
I'm writing to thank you for
your electronic correspondence.

527
00:25:25,863 --> 00:25:27,990
I am grateful to anyone
who sets aside

528
00:25:27,990 --> 00:25:29,533
the time to read my book."

529
00:25:29,533 --> 00:25:30,826
Augustus?

530
00:25:30,826 --> 00:25:32,828
Yes?

531
00:25:32,828 --> 00:25:33,829
What are you doing?

532
00:25:33,829 --> 00:25:35,330
I may have found

533
00:25:35,330 --> 00:25:37,708
Van Houten's assistant,
e-mailed her...

534
00:25:37,708 --> 00:25:38,709
Augustus!

535
00:25:38,709 --> 00:25:40,669
...and she may have forwarded
that e-mail on to Van Houten.

536
00:25:40,669 --> 00:25:42,129
Shall I continue?

537
00:25:42,129 --> 00:25:43,589
Oh, my God, yeah, go, go, go.

538
00:25:43,589 --> 00:25:46,133
"I am particularly indebted
to you, sir..."

539
00:25:46,133 --> 00:25:48,927
Hazel Grace,
he just called me "sir."

540
00:25:48,927 --> 00:25:51,889
Augustus, keep reading!
Keep reading.

541
00:25:51,889 --> 00:25:54,391
"...both for your kind words
about<i> An Imperial Affliction</i>

542
00:25:54,391 --> 00:25:56,351
and for taking the time
to tell me

543
00:25:56,351 --> 00:25:58,395
that the book, and here
I quote you directly,

544
00:25:58,395 --> 00:26:00,939
meant a great deal to you
and your friend, Hazel Grace."

545
00:26:00,939 --> 00:26:03,192
You did not! You did not!

546
00:26:03,192 --> 00:26:05,360
-You did not. You did not.
-Of course I did.

547
00:26:05,360 --> 00:26:06,862
"To answer your question,

548
00:26:06,862 --> 00:26:09,364
no, I have not written
anything else, nor will I.

549
00:26:09,364 --> 00:26:11,450
I do not feel like continuing
to share my thoughts

550
00:26:11,450 --> 00:26:13,368
with readers would benefit
either them or me.

551
00:26:13,368 --> 00:26:16,330
However, thank you
for your generous e-mail.

552
00:26:16,330 --> 00:26:19,458
Yours most sincerely,
Peter Van Houten."

553
00:26:21,293 --> 00:26:23,921
So, yeah, that just happened.

554
00:26:23,921 --> 00:26:25,839
Oh, my God.

555
00:26:25,839 --> 00:26:28,550
I've been trying to tell you,
I'm kind of awesome.

556
00:26:28,550 --> 00:26:29,927
Do you...

557
00:26:29,927 --> 00:26:31,678
Do you think that I...

558
00:26:31,678 --> 00:26:32,679
Check your inbox.

559
00:26:32,679 --> 00:26:34,807
Oh, my God.

560
00:26:39,436 --> 00:26:41,897
Oh, my God, Augustus.

561
00:26:41,897 --> 00:26:43,690
I'm freaking out.
I'm freaking out.

562
00:26:43,690 --> 00:26:45,442
<i>"Dear Mr. Peter Van </i>

563
00:26:45,442 --> 00:26:47,569
<i>My name is
Hazel Grace Lancaster.</i>

564
00:26:47,569 --> 00:26:49,905
<i>My friend, Augustus Waters,</i>

565
00:26:49,905 --> 00:26:52,407
<i>who read your book
at my recommendation,</i>

566
00:26:52,407 --> 00:26:54,493
<i>just received an e-mail
from you at this address.</i>

567
00:26:54,493 --> 00:26:57,788
<i>I hope you will not mind that
he shared that e-mail with me.</i>

568
00:26:57,788 --> 00:27:00,666
<i>I was wondering if you wouldn't mind
answering a few questions</i>

569
00:27:00,666 --> 00:27:02,960
<i>I have about what happens
after the end of the book.</i>

570
00:27:02,960 --> 00:27:04,795
<i>Specifically,
the following:</i>

571
00:27:04,795 --> 00:27:07,798
<i>Does Anna's mom marry
the Dutch Tulip Man?</i>

572
00:27:07,798 --> 00:27:10,092
<i>And is the Dutch Tulip Man
up to something,</i>

573
00:27:10,092 --> 00:27:12,511
<i>or is he just
completely misunderstood?</i>

574
00:27:12,511 --> 00:27:15,389
<i>Lastly, I was hoping
you could shed some light</i>

575
00:27:15,389 --> 00:27:17,182
<i>on Sisyphus the Hamster.</i>

576
00:27:17,182 --> 00:27:19,768
<i>These questions have
haunted me for years,</i>

577
00:27:19,768 --> 00:27:24,022
<i>and I don't know how long
I have left to get answers to them.</i>

578
00:27:24,022 --> 00:27:26,149
<i>I know that these are not
important literary questions,</i>

579
00:27:26,149 --> 00:27:28,318
and that your book is full
of important literary questions,

580
00:27:28,318 --> 00:27:30,070
but I would just really
like to know.

581
00:27:30,070 --> 00:27:32,447
And, of course, if you ever do
decide to write anything else,

582
00:27:32,447 --> 00:27:34,116
I would love to read it.

583
00:27:34,116 --> 00:27:35,993
Frankly, I'd read
your grocery lists.

584
00:27:35,993 --> 00:27:39,454
Yours with great admiration,
Hazel Grace Lancaster."

585
00:27:39,454 --> 00:27:42,583
-Not bad.
-You think?

586
00:27:42,583 --> 00:27:44,877
Yeah, I mean it's a bit
pretentious, but then again,

587
00:27:44,877 --> 00:27:47,087
Van Houten uses words
like "tendentious"

588
00:27:47,087 --> 00:27:49,339
-and "bacchanalia," so...

589
00:27:49,339 --> 00:27:50,632
I think he'll like it.

590
00:27:55,888 --> 00:27:58,181
Is it really00 a.m.?

591
00:27:58,181 --> 00:28:01,560
Is it?
Yeah, I guess it is.

592
00:28:03,937 --> 00:28:06,773
I should probably go to sleep.

593
00:28:08,734 --> 00:28:10,694
Okay.

594
00:28:11,945 --> 00:28:13,697
Okay.

595
00:28:17,618 --> 00:28:19,703
Okay.

596
00:28:22,331 --> 00:28:23,498
Okay.

597
00:28:25,500 --> 00:28:28,128
Perhaps "okay"
will be our "always."

598
00:28:34,343 --> 00:28:36,470
Okay.

599
00:29:06,500 --> 00:29:09,378
Oh, my God.

600
00:29:30,983 --> 00:29:32,734
What?

601
00:29:36,738 --> 00:29:38,532
Peter Van...

602
00:29:38,532 --> 00:29:39,700
Oh, my God!

603
00:29:39,700 --> 00:29:40,826
What is this life?

604
00:29:40,826 --> 00:29:42,244
Hazel!

605
00:29:42,244 --> 00:29:43,787
-Mom!
-Hazel, what's wrong?

606
00:29:43,787 --> 00:29:45,414
Mom, look at this.

607
00:29:45,414 --> 00:29:46,790
No, it... Come here,
come here, come here.

608
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:49,251
Look.

609
00:29:50,794 --> 00:29:53,046
-What?
-Yeah, Peter Van Houten.

610
00:29:53,046 --> 00:29:55,215
Look what he said!

611
00:29:55,215 --> 00:29:57,134
"Should ever you find yourself
in Amsterdam"?

612
00:29:57,134 --> 00:29:58,677
-That's...
-I have to go!

613
00:29:58,677 --> 00:29:59,886
That's incredible.

614
00:29:59,886 --> 00:30:01,388
He invited us to Amsterdam.

615
00:30:01,388 --> 00:30:02,848
Amsterdam!

616
00:30:02,848 --> 00:30:05,100
-Wow.
-Can we go?

617
00:30:05,100 --> 00:30:07,519
I mean, do you think... do you
think we could actually go?

618
00:30:07,519 --> 00:30:11,648
I mean, Amsterdam. I want you to have
everything you want in the world,

619
00:30:11,648 --> 00:30:14,234
but we don't have the money.

620
00:30:14,234 --> 00:30:16,111
You know, just like getting
all the equipment over there.

621
00:30:16,111 --> 00:30:17,738
I don't know,
how do we do that?

622
00:30:17,738 --> 00:30:20,949
I'm just, yeah, no, duh.
I'm sorry.

623
00:30:27,622 --> 00:30:30,917
Hey, you...
I am so sorry.

624
00:30:31,960 --> 00:30:34,296
It's okay. It's okay.

625
00:30:39,051 --> 00:30:40,635
So...

626
00:30:51,980 --> 00:30:54,608
Why don't you just ask
the Genies? Use your wish.

627
00:30:54,608 --> 00:30:56,777
I already used it,
pre-miracle.

628
00:30:56,777 --> 00:30:58,487
What'd you use it on?

629
00:31:01,364 --> 00:31:03,366
Not Disney.

630
00:31:03,366 --> 00:31:05,452
Hazel Grace,

631
00:31:05,452 --> 00:31:07,996
you... you did not go
to Disney World.

632
00:31:07,996 --> 00:31:10,207
-I was 13.
-You did not use your last dying wish

633
00:31:10,207 --> 00:31:11,625
to go to Disney World.

634
00:31:11,625 --> 00:31:12,626
And Epcot Center!

635
00:31:12,626 --> 00:31:14,169
Oh, my God.

636
00:31:14,169 --> 00:31:15,921
It was actually
a really fun trip.

637
00:31:15,921 --> 00:31:17,547
That's the saddest thing I've
ever heard in my entire life.

638
00:31:17,547 --> 00:31:19,216
-No, I met Goofy.
-Now I'm just embarrassed.

639
00:31:19,216 --> 00:31:20,509
Why are you embarrassed?

640
00:31:20,509 --> 00:31:22,427
I can't believe
I have a crush on a girl

641
00:31:22,427 --> 00:31:24,513
-with such cliché wishes.

642
00:31:24,513 --> 00:31:26,056
Terrible.

643
00:31:27,474 --> 00:31:28,683
You coming?

644
00:31:33,105 --> 00:31:36,525
<i> The most
important thing in any MRI</i>

645
00:31:36,525 --> 00:31:39,277
<i>is to lie completely still.</i>

646
00:31:39,277 --> 00:31:43,949
<i>But that day,
it was almost impossible.</i>

647
00:31:56,128 --> 00:32:00,090
-Hey, Gus! How are you?
-Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.

648
00:32:01,174 --> 00:32:04,344
Hey. Rik Smits jersey?

649
00:32:04,344 --> 00:32:05,804
-Yeah, it is indeed.
-I love that guy.

650
00:32:05,804 --> 00:32:06,930
I'm Augustus Waters.

651
00:32:06,930 --> 00:32:08,598
Nice to meet you.
I'm Michael.

652
00:32:11,518 --> 00:32:13,728
-Good to see you.
-Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.

653
00:32:13,728 --> 00:32:15,355
-Good to see you.
-Good to see you.

654
00:32:17,816 --> 00:32:19,401
Hi, Hazel Grace.

655
00:32:19,401 --> 00:32:21,319
Hi.

656
00:32:21,319 --> 00:32:23,363
How would you like
to go on a picnic with me?

657
00:32:25,031 --> 00:32:28,451
Um, I... I would love to
go on a picnic with you.

658
00:32:30,370 --> 00:32:32,038
Shall we?

659
00:32:32,038 --> 00:32:33,999
No, we, well, I, uh...

660
00:32:33,999 --> 00:32:35,458
Let me... I'm...

661
00:32:35,458 --> 00:32:38,253
I smell like hospital,
so I should just change.

662
00:32:44,926 --> 00:32:48,763
So, uh, you're a...
you're a survivor

663
00:32:48,763 --> 00:32:50,974
-yourself, huh?
-Yeah.

664
00:32:50,974 --> 00:32:52,893
You know, I... I didn't cut this
fella off for the hell of it.

665
00:32:54,853 --> 00:32:57,314
Although it does make an
excellent weight-loss strategy.

666
00:32:57,314 --> 00:32:59,399
Uh, legs are very heavy.

667
00:33:01,359 --> 00:33:03,153
How's your, uh,
how's your health now?

668
00:33:03,153 --> 00:33:05,655
It's great.
NEC for 14 months.

669
00:33:05,655 --> 00:33:08,033
-Really? That's fantastic.
-Yeah, yeah.

670
00:33:08,033 --> 00:33:10,160
I'm very lucky.

671
00:33:15,457 --> 00:33:17,834
Hey, listen, Gus, um...

672
00:33:20,128 --> 00:33:22,297
Yeah, I mean,
you have to understand.

673
00:33:22,297 --> 00:33:25,091
Hazel's still pretty sick,

674
00:33:25,091 --> 00:33:27,802
and she will be
the rest of her life.

675
00:33:27,802 --> 00:33:30,513
I mean, she's gonna want
to keep up with you.

676
00:33:30,513 --> 00:33:32,599
She's that kind of girl,
but the truth is her lungs...

677
00:33:32,599 --> 00:33:33,725
Ready, Gus?

678
00:33:33,725 --> 00:33:35,393
Yeah.

679
00:33:37,562 --> 00:33:39,022
All right.

680
00:33:39,022 --> 00:33:40,482
See you soon.

681
00:33:40,482 --> 00:33:41,775
All right.

682
00:33:44,027 --> 00:33:45,862
Oh.

683
00:33:45,862 --> 00:33:49,157
-Such a beautiful day.
-Yeah.

684
00:33:49,157 --> 00:33:51,576
Is this where you take all
of your romantic conquests?

685
00:33:51,576 --> 00:33:52,744
Yeah, every last one of them.

686
00:33:54,204 --> 00:33:56,039
That's probably why
I'm still a virgin.

687
00:33:57,832 --> 00:33:59,542
You are not still a virgin.

688
00:34:01,795 --> 00:34:03,213
Are you really?

689
00:34:03,213 --> 00:34:05,507
Let me show you
something.

690
00:34:09,010 --> 00:34:10,762
See this circle?

691
00:34:14,516 --> 00:34:18,144
-That is a circle of virgins.
-Uh-huh.

692
00:34:18,979 --> 00:34:21,731
And... this...

693
00:34:23,775 --> 00:34:26,152
...is 18-year-old dudes
with one leg.

694
00:34:28,989 --> 00:34:30,782
-Aw.
-So, yeah.

695
00:34:35,620 --> 00:34:38,790
<i>Funky Bones,
</i>by Joep Van Lieshout.

696
00:34:41,918 --> 00:34:43,920
-He sounds quite Dutch.
-And he is.

697
00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:45,714
Much like Rik Smits.

698
00:34:45,714 --> 00:34:47,424
And tulips.

699
00:34:49,884 --> 00:34:51,344
Sandwich?

700
00:34:51,344 --> 00:34:52,429
Let me guess.

701
00:34:52,429 --> 00:34:55,265
Dutch cheese and tomato.

702
00:34:55,265 --> 00:34:57,225
Sorry, the tomatoes are Mexican.

703
00:34:57,225 --> 00:34:59,060
How dare you.

704
00:35:00,312 --> 00:35:01,980
Hmm.

705
00:35:01,980 --> 00:35:04,107
How cool is this?

706
00:35:04,107 --> 00:35:06,443
They're using a skeleton
as a playground.

707
00:35:06,443 --> 00:35:08,194
Think about that.

708
00:35:10,030 --> 00:35:11,990
You do love your symbols.

709
00:35:11,990 --> 00:35:13,867
Speaking of which,
you're probably wondering

710
00:35:13,867 --> 00:35:15,827
why you're sitting here
eating a bad cheese sandwich

711
00:35:15,827 --> 00:35:18,079
and drinking orange juice with
a guy in a Rik Smits jersey.

712
00:35:18,079 --> 00:35:19,956
It actually has
crossed my mind.

713
00:35:19,956 --> 00:35:23,293
Well, Hazel Grace,
like so many before you,

714
00:35:23,293 --> 00:35:26,755
and listen, I say this
with the utmost of affection,

715
00:35:26,755 --> 00:35:28,757
you used your wish moronically.

716
00:35:28,757 --> 00:35:30,967
-Okay, we've been through this. I was 13.
-All right, hush!

717
00:35:30,967 --> 00:35:33,845
I am in the midst
of a grand soliloquy here.

718
00:35:33,845 --> 00:35:36,264
You were young, impressionable,

719
00:35:36,264 --> 00:35:38,224
the Grim Reaper staring you
right in the face,

720
00:35:38,224 --> 00:35:41,269
and it led you to rush into making a wish
you didn't really want.

721
00:35:41,269 --> 00:35:43,021
But how could
little Hazel Grace,

722
00:35:43,021 --> 00:35:44,814
having never read
<i>An Imperial Affliction,</i>

723
00:35:44,814 --> 00:35:46,316
know that her one true wish

724
00:35:46,316 --> 00:35:47,984
was to visit
Mr. Peter Van Houten

725
00:35:47,984 --> 00:35:50,362
in his Amsterdam exile?

726
00:35:50,362 --> 00:35:53,073
But I didn't save it, so...

727
00:35:54,657 --> 00:35:57,077
It's a good thing I saved mine.

728
00:35:58,828 --> 00:36:01,748
So you're saying...

729
00:36:01,748 --> 00:36:03,208
I'm not gonna give you
my wish or anything, Hazel.

730
00:36:03,208 --> 00:36:05,251
-If that's what you're thinking.

731
00:36:05,251 --> 00:36:09,631
However, you know,
I... I, too, have an interest

732
00:36:09,631 --> 00:36:11,591
in meeting this
Mr. Peter Van Houten,

733
00:36:11,591 --> 00:36:15,387
and... I don't really think
it would make much sense to meet him

734
00:36:15,387 --> 00:36:16,846
without the girl
who introduced me to the book

735
00:36:16,846 --> 00:36:18,390
in the first place,
now, would it?

736
00:36:18,390 --> 00:36:21,351
So I talked to the Genies,
and they're all for it.

737
00:36:21,351 --> 00:36:23,144
We leave in a month.

738
00:36:24,396 --> 00:36:25,939
No.

739
00:36:25,939 --> 00:36:28,525
Mm-hmm.

740
00:36:28,525 --> 00:36:30,402
Oh, my God.

741
00:36:31,569 --> 00:36:33,196
Oh, my God!

742
00:36:33,196 --> 00:36:35,073
Augustus!

743
00:36:35,073 --> 00:36:36,908
Thank you.

744
00:36:39,994 --> 00:36:41,621
<i> And then this happened.</i>

745
00:37:29,335 --> 00:37:30,837
Hey.

746
00:37:30,837 --> 00:37:32,172
Hi.

747
00:37:32,172 --> 00:37:35,008
-Hey.
-You're okay.

748
00:37:36,009 --> 00:37:37,427
So what happened?

749
00:37:37,427 --> 00:37:39,387
Usual.

750
00:37:39,387 --> 00:37:43,224
Fluid in the lungs
preventing oxygenation.

751
00:37:43,224 --> 00:37:45,268
They put a tube in.

752
00:37:45,268 --> 00:37:48,813
They drained, like, a liter
and a half last night.

753
00:37:48,813 --> 00:37:54,360
Good news is no tumor growth,
no new tumors in your body.

754
00:37:54,360 --> 00:37:57,322
We're so relieved.

755
00:37:57,322 --> 00:38:00,200
This is just a thing, Hazel.

756
00:38:00,200 --> 00:38:02,535
It's a thing
we can live with.

757
00:38:08,208 --> 00:38:10,460
Mr. Lancaster.

758
00:38:10,460 --> 00:38:13,129
-How's she doing?
-Better.

759
00:38:13,129 --> 00:38:15,590
Yeah, thank you.
Much, much better.

760
00:38:15,590 --> 00:38:18,218
Oh, they won't let me in.
It's, like, family only.

761
00:38:18,218 --> 00:38:22,222
-Yeah, sorry.
-Yeah, no, I get it.

762
00:38:22,222 --> 00:38:25,642
Um... well, could you just
tell her I was here?

763
00:38:25,642 --> 00:38:28,228
Yeah, of course.
Of course I will.

764
00:38:28,228 --> 00:38:30,146
-Okay.
-Hey, Gus, listen,

765
00:38:30,146 --> 00:38:33,816
why don't you go home?
Get some rest.

766
00:38:33,816 --> 00:38:35,485
Okay?

767
00:38:42,325 --> 00:38:44,953
Normally the tumors
start resisting the treatment,

768
00:38:44,953 --> 00:38:48,623
and that hasn't happened here...
yet.

769
00:38:48,623 --> 00:38:53,336
On the other hand,
the drug may be worsening the edema.

770
00:38:53,336 --> 00:38:56,548
Truth is, very few people
have been on Phalanxifor

771
00:38:56,548 --> 00:38:58,424
as long as Hazel has.

772
00:38:58,424 --> 00:39:00,343
We really don't know
the long-term effects.

773
00:39:00,343 --> 00:39:03,304
What we're trying to do
is prevent endothelial growth,

774
00:39:03,304 --> 00:39:05,348
which, when over expressed,

775
00:39:05,348 --> 00:39:08,393
can contribute
to disease, decay,

776
00:39:08,393 --> 00:39:12,647
vascular inhibition
and the spread of the tumors

777
00:39:12,647 --> 00:39:15,191
we're working so hard
to eradicate.

778
00:39:15,191 --> 00:39:17,569
The survival rate of patients
with severe endothelial growth

779
00:39:17,569 --> 00:39:21,406
decreases exponentially the
more the condition advances.

780
00:39:22,949 --> 00:39:25,952
You can let go, sweetie.

781
00:39:25,952 --> 00:39:27,537
Don't be afraid.

782
00:39:29,038 --> 00:39:31,207
Oh, my God.

783
00:39:33,126 --> 00:39:35,795
I'm not gonna be a mom anymore.

784
00:39:41,551 --> 00:39:43,177
I have a question.

785
00:39:44,429 --> 00:39:46,222
Yes, Hazel?

786
00:39:46,222 --> 00:39:48,016
Can I still go to Amsterdam?

787
00:39:48,016 --> 00:39:50,727
That would, uh,
not be wise at this juncture.

788
00:39:50,727 --> 00:39:52,353
-Why not?
-Is there any way

789
00:39:52,353 --> 00:39:53,605
we can make that trip happen?

790
00:39:53,605 --> 00:39:55,773
It would increase some risks.

791
00:39:55,773 --> 00:39:59,319
-But so does going to the mall.
-Yes, but an airplane?

792
00:39:59,319 --> 00:40:01,154
But they have oxygen
on airplanes.

793
00:40:01,154 --> 00:40:03,114
-You're stage four.
-This is an opportunity

794
00:40:03,114 --> 00:40:04,824
that I may never get again.

795
00:40:04,824 --> 00:40:06,701
Ever.

796
00:40:06,701 --> 00:40:08,453
If the medication is working,
I don't understand why...

797
00:40:08,453 --> 00:40:09,787
Perhaps there's a scenario.

798
00:40:09,787 --> 00:40:11,331
No.

799
00:40:11,331 --> 00:40:14,834
I don't know any other way
to say this, Hazel.

800
00:40:14,834 --> 00:40:16,002
You're just too sick.

801
00:40:16,002 --> 00:40:18,254
I'm sorry.

802
00:40:38,858 --> 00:40:40,485
Hello?

803
00:40:40,485 --> 00:40:42,904
Yeah, just a sec.

804
00:40:43,738 --> 00:40:45,031
Hi.

805
00:40:45,031 --> 00:40:46,741
Gus... again.

806
00:40:49,243 --> 00:40:51,412
Sorry. She's asleep.

807
00:40:51,412 --> 00:40:53,831
Yeah, uh, okay.

808
00:40:53,831 --> 00:40:55,249
All right, bye-bye.

809
00:41:00,213 --> 00:41:02,131
I know what you're thinking.

810
00:41:04,008 --> 00:41:05,718
It's not fair to him.

811
00:41:05,718 --> 00:41:07,679
It's not.

812
00:41:07,679 --> 00:41:09,305
He doesn't need this
in his life.

813
00:41:09,305 --> 00:41:11,224
Nobody does.

814
00:41:11,224 --> 00:41:13,059
A lot more trouble
than it's worth.

815
00:41:13,059 --> 00:41:15,978
No, you're right.

816
00:41:15,978 --> 00:41:18,564
Your mom and I were just saying
the same thing.

817
00:41:18,564 --> 00:41:21,317
I mean, it could be time
we tossed you out on the street.

818
00:41:22,610 --> 00:41:23,986
Drop you off at an
orphanage somewhere.

819
00:41:23,986 --> 00:41:25,488
Make you their problem.

820
00:41:25,488 --> 00:41:27,740
I'm serious.

821
00:41:29,033 --> 00:41:31,285
We're not sentimental people.

822
00:42:24,922 --> 00:42:26,591
Hazel Grace.

823
00:42:28,426 --> 00:42:30,511
Hi, Augustus.

824
00:42:30,511 --> 00:42:32,889
Are you... are you okay?

825
00:42:40,813 --> 00:42:42,523
No.

826
00:42:43,775 --> 00:42:47,069
What's the matter?

827
00:42:47,069 --> 00:42:48,780
Talk to me.

828
00:42:50,239 --> 00:42:51,908
I don't know.

829
00:42:54,702 --> 00:42:56,496
Everything.

830
00:43:02,084 --> 00:43:05,254
I want to go to Amsterdam, Gus.

831
00:43:05,254 --> 00:43:07,298
And I want Van Houten

832
00:43:07,298 --> 00:43:09,383
to tell us what happens
after his book.

833
00:43:15,348 --> 00:43:18,267
I also don't really want
this particular life.

834
00:43:23,606 --> 00:43:25,566
But it's really just the sky.

835
00:43:25,566 --> 00:43:27,652
The sky is making me sad,
and there's this...

836
00:43:27,652 --> 00:43:29,487
...pathetic old swing set

837
00:43:29,487 --> 00:43:31,322
that my dad built
for me when I was a kid,

838
00:43:31,322 --> 00:43:33,366
and...

839
00:43:36,452 --> 00:43:38,704
It's just everything, I guess.

840
00:43:38,704 --> 00:43:42,333
Well, I demand to see
this swing set of tears.

841
00:43:45,586 --> 00:43:47,547
I do see your point.

842
00:43:47,547 --> 00:43:49,257
This is one sad swing set.

843
00:43:54,554 --> 00:43:57,557
Hazel Grace,
I... I hope you realize

844
00:43:57,557 --> 00:44:00,142
that you trying to keep
your distance from me in no way

845
00:44:00,142 --> 00:44:02,144
lessens my affection for you.

846
00:44:02,144 --> 00:44:06,357
All your efforts to keep me
from you are gonna fail.

847
00:44:06,357 --> 00:44:09,569
Look...

848
00:44:09,569 --> 00:44:11,445
I like you.

849
00:44:13,114 --> 00:44:15,992
And I like hanging out
with you and...

850
00:44:15,992 --> 00:44:17,493
...everything, but I...

851
00:44:17,493 --> 00:44:19,495
I can't let this go on
any further.

852
00:44:19,495 --> 00:44:21,664
Uh, why not?

853
00:44:21,664 --> 00:44:24,000
Because I don't want
to hurt you.

854
00:44:24,000 --> 00:44:26,210
-I... I wouldn't mind.
-No, you don't understand.

855
00:44:26,210 --> 00:44:27,753
-I do understand.
-No, you don't.

856
00:44:27,753 --> 00:44:29,297
No, I know what you're
trying to say, and I... I...

857
00:44:29,297 --> 00:44:31,215
Hazel, I'm saying
I wouldn't mind.

858
00:44:31,215 --> 00:44:34,010
It'd be a privilege to have
my heart broken by you.

859
00:44:34,010 --> 00:44:35,678
-Hazel, I'm...
-Gus, I'm a grenade.

860
00:44:41,017 --> 00:44:42,643
One day, I'm gonna explode,

861
00:44:42,643 --> 00:44:46,230
and I'm gonna obliterate
everything in my wake, and...

862
00:44:46,230 --> 00:44:48,566
I don't know, I just, I feel
like it's my responsibility

863
00:44:48,566 --> 00:44:50,151
to minimize the casualties.

864
00:44:52,111 --> 00:44:54,488
A grenade.

865
00:46:08,229 --> 00:46:11,232
-Mom?
-Yeah?

866
00:46:11,232 --> 00:46:12,775
Mom!

867
00:46:13,901 --> 00:46:15,444
-What's wrong?
-Sorry.

868
00:46:15,444 --> 00:46:17,279
No, I was just taking a bath,

869
00:46:17,279 --> 00:46:19,448
-for, like, five seconds.
-Um, did you e-mail the Genies

870
00:46:19,448 --> 00:46:21,367
to tell them
that the trip was off?

871
00:46:21,367 --> 00:46:23,244
Because Van Houten's assistant
just e-mailed me,

872
00:46:23,244 --> 00:46:26,163
and she said that
she thinks we're still coming.

873
00:46:26,163 --> 00:46:27,790
Well...

874
00:46:28,874 --> 00:46:30,626
What?

875
00:46:30,626 --> 00:46:34,213
I was supposed
to tell you with your dad.

876
00:46:34,213 --> 00:46:35,798
Mom.

877
00:46:35,798 --> 00:46:37,883
We're going to Amsterdam.

878
00:46:37,883 --> 00:46:39,552
You're... you're ser...

879
00:46:39,552 --> 00:46:41,512
We're...
we're going to Amsterdam?

880
00:46:41,512 --> 00:46:43,180
We're going to Amsterdam.

881
00:46:43,180 --> 00:46:44,557
I... We figured
the whole thing out.

882
00:46:44,557 --> 00:46:45,975
-We're going.
-Oh, my God.

883
00:46:45,975 --> 00:46:48,561
Dr. Maria,
everybody knows, but only

884
00:46:48,561 --> 00:46:50,813
-for three days, not six.
-Oh, my God.

885
00:46:50,813 --> 00:46:53,941
But everything,
an oncologist is set there.

886
00:46:53,941 --> 00:46:55,776
Everything.
We're just so good.

887
00:46:55,776 --> 00:46:57,570
I love you.

888
00:46:57,570 --> 00:47:00,781
I love you so much.

889
00:47:00,781 --> 00:47:02,491
I love you.

890
00:47:10,958 --> 00:47:12,835
-Here, sit down.
-We're going to Amsterdam.

891
00:47:12,835 --> 00:47:14,545
We're going to Amsterdam.

892
00:47:21,844 --> 00:47:23,387
-We're going to Amsterdam.
-You can come talk to me,

893
00:47:23,387 --> 00:47:24,805
but you've got
a phone call to make.

894
00:47:27,433 --> 00:47:29,185
Call him!

895
00:47:36,317 --> 00:47:38,277
Okay, lungs,

896
00:47:38,277 --> 00:47:40,488
you keep your shit together
for one week, you got it?

897
00:47:40,488 --> 00:47:42,198
One more week.

898
00:48:15,606 --> 00:48:17,900
Here we go!

899
00:48:19,318 --> 00:48:20,986
Oh, oh, wait, the food.

900
00:48:20,986 --> 00:48:22,822
-What'd you forget?
-What are you doing?

901
00:48:22,822 --> 00:48:24,573
-She's got it; we're all good.
-Do you have my passport?

902
00:48:24,573 --> 00:48:25,825
Yeah, I've got it!

903
00:48:25,825 --> 00:48:26,951
Got it in my bag.

904
00:48:26,951 --> 00:48:28,994
Okay, go.

905
00:48:36,836 --> 00:48:39,004
It's like I said to the Genies,

906
00:48:39,004 --> 00:48:41,298
I travel in style
or I don't travel at all.

907
00:48:41,298 --> 00:48:42,341
You didn't know?

908
00:48:42,341 --> 00:48:44,844
Mom, we're going to Amsterdam!

909
00:48:44,844 --> 00:48:47,972
We are going to Amsterdam
right now.

910
00:48:47,972 --> 00:48:49,890
Hello, Lancasters.

911
00:48:50,558 --> 00:48:51,851
Gus.

912
00:48:51,851 --> 00:48:54,145
Hey, nice to see you.

913
00:48:54,145 --> 00:48:55,312
I'll take that, sir.

914
00:48:55,312 --> 00:48:56,981
Gus, you're so inventive.

915
00:48:56,981 --> 00:48:59,066
Okay, Hazel Grace?

916
00:48:59,066 --> 00:49:01,652
Okay!

917
00:49:09,118 --> 00:49:11,745
Have you never been
on a plane before?

918
00:49:11,745 --> 00:49:13,539
No.

919
00:49:13,539 --> 00:49:15,541
It's exciting.

920
00:49:21,755 --> 00:49:23,674
-Sir.
-Uh-huh?

921
00:49:23,674 --> 00:49:26,468
There's no smoking
on this plane or any plane.

922
00:49:26,468 --> 00:49:28,137
I... I don't smoke.

923
00:49:28,137 --> 00:49:29,722
Yeah, no, it's just a metaphor.

924
00:49:29,722 --> 00:49:31,348
He puts the killing
thing in his mouth,

925
00:49:31,348 --> 00:49:33,267
but he doesn't actually give
it the power to kill him.

926
00:49:33,267 --> 00:49:35,811
Well, that metaphor, it's
prohibited on today's flight.

927
00:49:35,811 --> 00:49:37,313
-Flight attendants,

928
00:49:37,313 --> 00:49:38,397
prepare for takeoff, please.

929
00:49:38,397 --> 00:49:40,149
Thanks.

930
00:49:41,942 --> 00:49:43,277
Okay?

931
00:49:43,277 --> 00:49:45,362
Gus, this is what it's like

932
00:49:45,362 --> 00:49:47,156
to drive in a car with you.

933
00:49:50,159 --> 00:49:52,745
Oh.

934
00:49:58,667 --> 00:50:00,002
Oh!

935
00:50:00,002 --> 00:50:01,962
Oh, my God, we're flying.

936
00:50:01,962 --> 00:50:05,090
Oh, my God, we're flying.
We're... we're flying.

937
00:50:05,090 --> 00:50:06,926
-Look at the ground! Look!

938
00:50:06,926 --> 00:50:08,636
Ladies and gentlemen...

939
00:50:08,636 --> 00:50:10,888
Nothing has ever looked like
this in all of human history.

940
00:50:12,431 --> 00:50:14,725
Look at the cars.
They're like...

941
00:50:16,560 --> 00:50:18,062
You two are so adorable.

942
00:50:18,062 --> 00:50:19,813
We're just friends.

943
00:50:19,813 --> 00:50:22,816
-Well, she is.
-I'm not.

944
00:50:24,193 --> 00:50:27,112
Oh, my... Whoa.

945
00:50:42,002 --> 00:50:44,171
Get away from her, you bitch!

946
00:51:09,863 --> 00:51:12,408
Look at this, Hazel.

947
00:51:12,408 --> 00:51:14,368
This is so crazy.

948
00:51:44,356 --> 00:51:45,941
Whoa.

949
00:51:45,941 --> 00:51:47,568
-What?

950
00:51:47,568 --> 00:51:50,279
Look at the stained glass.

951
00:51:50,279 --> 00:51:51,613
It's so amazing.

952
00:51:51,613 --> 00:51:53,657
Oh, I'm gonna check us in.

953
00:51:53,657 --> 00:51:56,035
Welcome to Amsterdam.

954
00:52:01,665 --> 00:52:05,085
We better get you dressed,
because you have reservations

955
00:52:05,085 --> 00:52:08,589
for two tonight for dinner
at Oranjee.

956
00:52:08,589 --> 00:52:10,007
-Ooh.
-Yeah, and it says,

957
00:52:10,007 --> 00:52:13,344
"Enjoy. Mr. Peter Van Houten."

958
00:52:13,344 --> 00:52:16,972
So I looked it up,
and it sounds amazing.

959
00:52:16,972 --> 00:52:20,976
The guidebook says it's fancy
and very romantic.

960
00:52:21,935 --> 00:52:24,146
Right, fancy.

961
00:52:24,146 --> 00:52:26,231
Oh, God.

962
00:52:26,231 --> 00:52:28,901
But okay, what...

963
00:52:29,943 --> 00:52:32,071
...will you wear?

964
00:52:32,071 --> 00:52:33,364
Hmm.

965
00:52:33,364 --> 00:52:35,574
Is that for me?

966
00:52:40,913 --> 00:52:43,415
Oh, my God.
It's so beautiful.

967
00:52:43,415 --> 00:52:45,209
I'm just saying.

968
00:52:46,585 --> 00:52:48,253
You're just saying?

969
00:52:48,253 --> 00:52:49,922
What, you're saying
that you're totally fine

970
00:52:49,922 --> 00:52:53,384
with your teenage daughter
running free with an older boy

971
00:52:53,384 --> 00:52:55,594
in a city that's famous
for its vice and debauchery

972
00:52:55,594 --> 00:52:58,055
is totally fine with you?

973
00:52:58,055 --> 00:53:01,934
Yeah, that's... that's pretty
much exactly what I'm saying.

974
00:53:08,148 --> 00:53:10,943
Gus!

975
00:53:10,943 --> 00:53:12,152
Oh.

976
00:53:12,152 --> 00:53:13,737
You look so handsome.

977
00:53:13,737 --> 00:53:15,322
Thank you, ma'am.

978
00:53:15,322 --> 00:53:18,367
Wow. Hazel,
Gus is here!

979
00:53:18,367 --> 00:53:19,952
Looking incredible.

980
00:53:21,829 --> 00:53:25,290
I hear this restaurant
is unbelievable.

981
00:53:35,551 --> 00:53:37,344
Wow.

982
00:53:37,344 --> 00:53:39,555
What?

983
00:53:42,307 --> 00:53:43,851
You look gorgeous.

984
00:53:47,104 --> 00:53:49,690
Thanks.

985
00:53:59,158 --> 00:54:00,868
Whoa!

986
00:54:10,711 --> 00:54:12,212
Wow.

987
00:54:30,856 --> 00:54:32,691
This is it.

988
00:54:32,691 --> 00:54:34,276
Oran-Oranjee.

989
00:54:34,276 --> 00:54:35,694
-Yeah, this is it.
-Okay.

990
00:54:43,702 --> 00:54:46,163
Your table, Mr. and Mrs. Waters.

991
00:54:46,163 --> 00:54:47,956
Thank you.

992
00:54:50,292 --> 00:54:51,460
Thanks, Gus.

993
00:54:51,460 --> 00:54:52,711
You are very welcome.

994
00:54:58,217 --> 00:54:59,801
The champagne is our gift.

995
00:54:59,801 --> 00:55:01,929
-Enjoy.
-Thank you.

996
00:55:01,929 --> 00:55:03,430
Good evening.

997
00:55:14,900 --> 00:55:16,151
Voila.

998
00:55:19,196 --> 00:55:21,281
-Okay?
-Okay.

999
00:55:30,207 --> 00:55:32,125
Whoa.

1000
00:55:34,378 --> 00:55:36,338
That is amazing.

1001
00:55:36,338 --> 00:55:37,923
Do you know what
Dom Pérignon said

1002
00:55:37,923 --> 00:55:39,633
after he invented champagne?

1003
00:55:39,633 --> 00:55:43,971
"Come quickly," he said,
"I'm tasting the stars."

1004
00:55:43,971 --> 00:55:47,099
-Welcome to Oranjee.

1005
00:55:47,099 --> 00:55:48,809
Would you like a menu

1006
00:55:48,809 --> 00:55:51,228
or will you have
the chef's choice?

1007
00:55:51,228 --> 00:55:54,356
-Um...
-Chef's choice sounds wonderful.

1008
00:55:54,356 --> 00:55:57,985
-Hmm.
-And, sir, um, something tells me

1009
00:55:57,985 --> 00:56:00,737
we are gonna need
a little bit more of this.

1010
00:56:00,737 --> 00:56:05,200
We have bottled all the stars
for you this evening, my young friends.

1011
00:56:10,747 --> 00:56:12,374
-- Ooh.
-- I think that's ours.

1012
00:56:14,293 --> 00:56:16,378
Dragon carrot risotto
for the lady.

1013
00:56:16,378 --> 00:56:18,213
Thank you.

1014
00:56:18,213 --> 00:56:20,173
And for the gentleman.

1015
00:56:20,173 --> 00:56:21,508
Thank you.

1016
00:56:21,508 --> 00:56:22,968
Enjoy.

1017
00:56:29,099 --> 00:56:30,767
-Mmm.
-Mmm.

1018
00:56:32,936 --> 00:56:36,732
I want this dragon carrot
risotto to become a person

1019
00:56:36,732 --> 00:56:38,859
so that I can take it to Vegas
and marry it.

1020
00:56:45,073 --> 00:56:46,992
I like your suit.

1021
00:56:46,992 --> 00:56:49,494
Thank you. It's the first time
I've ever worn it.

1022
00:56:49,494 --> 00:56:50,871
That's not the suit
you wear to funerals?

1023
00:56:50,871 --> 00:56:52,205
No.

1024
00:56:52,205 --> 00:56:53,874
That one is not nearly
this nice.

1025
00:56:53,874 --> 00:56:56,335
When I first got sick,

1026
00:56:56,335 --> 00:56:59,504
they told me I had an 85% chance
of being cancer-free.

1027
00:56:59,504 --> 00:57:03,925
Great odds, but that meant
a year of torture,

1028
00:57:03,925 --> 00:57:07,220
the loss of my leg and still
a 15% chance it might fail.

1029
00:57:07,220 --> 00:57:09,348
Just before the surgery,

1030
00:57:09,348 --> 00:57:13,560
I asked my parents if I could
buy a really nice suit.

1031
00:57:13,560 --> 00:57:15,395
So it's your death suit.

1032
00:57:15,395 --> 00:57:16,938
That's what it is.

1033
00:57:16,938 --> 00:57:19,399
I have one of those.
I got it for my 15th birthday.

1034
00:57:19,399 --> 00:57:21,985
A dress.

1035
00:57:21,985 --> 00:57:25,364
I don't... necessarily think
I'd wear it on a date, though.

1036
00:57:27,449 --> 00:57:28,617
So we're on a date?

1037
00:57:31,328 --> 00:57:33,455
Hey, you watch it.

1038
00:57:34,790 --> 00:57:36,625
We are Mr. and Mrs. Waters.

1039
00:57:36,625 --> 00:57:39,169
Oh, that's just
because she can't speak English.

1040
00:57:39,169 --> 00:57:41,254
We should be, I mean,
if they ask.

1041
00:57:41,254 --> 00:57:42,673
You know?

1042
00:57:42,673 --> 00:57:44,174
Oh, hey, remember
what you said about Vegas?

1043
00:57:44,174 --> 00:57:45,175
Yeah.

1044
00:57:45,175 --> 00:57:47,427
Do you think I could
join in on that deal?

1045
00:57:47,427 --> 00:57:48,804
God?

1046
00:57:48,804 --> 00:57:50,097
Maybe.

1047
00:57:50,097 --> 00:57:51,181
How about angels?

1048
00:57:51,181 --> 00:57:52,808
Hmm, no.

1049
00:57:52,808 --> 00:57:54,935
-Afterlife?
-Hmm.

1050
00:57:54,935 --> 00:57:57,229
No. Well, maybe.
I don't know.

1051
00:57:57,229 --> 00:57:59,272
I guess I wouldn't go
as far as to say no,

1052
00:57:59,272 --> 00:58:01,942
but... I would like
some evidence.

1053
00:58:02,943 --> 00:58:04,736
What about you?

1054
00:58:04,736 --> 00:58:06,738
-Absolutely.
-Really?

1055
00:58:06,738 --> 00:58:08,240
I mean,
not like a Heaven where

1056
00:58:08,240 --> 00:58:09,825
you ride on a unicorn all day

1057
00:58:09,825 --> 00:58:11,493
and live in a mansion
made of clouds,

1058
00:58:11,493 --> 00:58:15,330
but, yes, I definitely believe
in something.

1059
00:58:15,330 --> 00:58:19,084
I mean, otherwise,
what's the point?

1060
00:58:21,086 --> 00:58:24,881
-Maybe there is no point.
-I won't accept that.

1061
00:58:30,887 --> 00:58:32,723
I am in love with you.

1062
00:58:35,934 --> 00:58:37,686
You heard me.

1063
00:58:42,482 --> 00:58:45,819
-Augustus...
-I am in love with you.

1064
00:58:45,819 --> 00:58:47,612
And I know that love
is just a shout into the void

1065
00:58:47,612 --> 00:58:50,866
and that oblivion is inevitable,
and that we're all doomed.

1066
00:58:50,866 --> 00:58:54,453
And that... one day,

1067
00:58:54,453 --> 00:58:57,914
all of our labors
will be returned to dust.

1068
00:58:59,166 --> 00:59:01,293
And I know that the sun
will swallow

1069
00:59:01,293 --> 00:59:03,462
the only earth
we will ever have.

1070
00:59:03,462 --> 00:59:05,380
And I am in love with you.

1071
00:59:08,675 --> 00:59:10,469
Sorry.

1072
00:59:21,938 --> 00:59:22,981
More stars?

1073
00:59:24,399 --> 00:59:25,817
No, no, thank you.

1074
00:59:25,817 --> 00:59:27,736
I think... I think we'll
just have the check.

1075
00:59:27,736 --> 00:59:31,656
No, sir. Your meal has been
paid by Mr. Van Houten.

1076
00:59:36,620 --> 00:59:38,455
What?

1077
00:59:48,965 --> 00:59:50,675
Augustus.

1078
01:00:28,004 --> 01:00:31,174
I don't...
really get that shirt.

1079
01:00:31,174 --> 01:00:32,551
Hm.

1080
01:00:32,551 --> 01:00:34,511
But Van Houten will get it.

1081
01:00:34,511 --> 01:00:37,222
There are, like,
50 Magritte references

1082
01:00:37,222 --> 01:00:39,015
in<i> An Imperial Affliction.</i>

1083
01:00:39,015 --> 01:00:41,434
"This is not a pipe."

1084
01:00:41,434 --> 01:00:42,894
But it is a pipe.

1085
01:00:42,894 --> 01:00:45,313
But it's not.

1086
01:00:45,313 --> 01:00:46,731
It is a drawing of a pipe.

1087
01:00:46,731 --> 01:00:48,149
See?

1088
01:00:48,149 --> 01:00:50,443
A drawing of a thing
is not the thing itself

1089
01:00:50,443 --> 01:00:54,739
nor is a T-shirt of a drawing
of a thing the thing itself.

1090
01:00:54,739 --> 01:00:56,408
-Hey, you.
-What?

1091
01:00:56,408 --> 01:00:58,410
-When'd you get so grown up?

1092
01:01:02,664 --> 01:01:04,249
Who's ready for some answers?

1093
01:01:04,249 --> 01:01:06,501
Me!

1094
01:01:29,691 --> 01:01:31,693
This is it.

1095
01:01:31,693 --> 01:01:34,487
I'm so excited
I can barely breathe.

1096
01:01:34,487 --> 01:01:37,324
As opposed to normal?

1097
01:01:37,324 --> 01:01:38,825
-Get out of here.

1098
01:01:44,205 --> 01:01:46,333
Lidewij!

1099
01:01:49,127 --> 01:01:50,712
-Hi.
-Hi. I'm Augustus.

1100
01:01:51,713 --> 01:01:52,714
Lidewij.

1101
01:01:52,714 --> 01:01:54,507
Uh, Hazel.

1102
01:01:54,507 --> 01:01:56,801
-Please, come in.
-Thank you.

1103
01:01:56,801 --> 01:01:59,012
Peter, they're here!

1104
01:01:59,012 --> 01:02:01,681
Who the hell is "they," Lidewij?

1105
01:02:01,681 --> 01:02:06,102
"They" are Augustus and Hazel,
the young fans

1106
01:02:06,102 --> 01:02:07,979
with whom you've
been corresponding.

1107
01:02:07,979 --> 01:02:09,648
The Americans?

1108
01:02:09,648 --> 01:02:12,233
You invited them.

1109
01:02:12,233 --> 01:02:13,985
Please, come in.

1110
01:02:13,985 --> 01:02:16,780
Do you know why
I left America, Lidewij?

1111
01:02:16,780 --> 01:02:19,824
To never have
to encounter Americans.

1112
01:02:19,824 --> 01:02:22,494
You're American.

1113
01:02:22,494 --> 01:02:24,287
Incurably so.

1114
01:02:24,287 --> 01:02:26,539
Get rid of them.

1115
01:02:26,539 --> 01:02:28,875
I will not do this, Peter.

1116
01:02:28,875 --> 01:02:30,794
Please be nice.

1117
01:02:30,794 --> 01:02:32,712
Come in, please.

1118
01:02:40,845 --> 01:02:43,807
Sorry. Let me...
clear this for you.

1119
01:02:47,686 --> 01:02:49,396
Thank you.

1120
01:02:53,024 --> 01:02:55,777
Which of you is Augustus Waters?

1121
01:02:55,777 --> 01:02:57,112
I am.

1122
01:02:59,030 --> 01:03:00,532
And that's Hazel.

1123
01:03:03,451 --> 01:03:06,955
Mr. Van Houten, thank you so
much for writing back to us.

1124
01:03:06,955 --> 01:03:08,707
Clearly an error in judgment.

1125
01:03:08,707 --> 01:03:10,333
Yours are the first missives

1126
01:03:10,333 --> 01:03:12,585
to which I've replied,
and look where it got me.

1127
01:03:12,585 --> 01:03:13,920
Scotch?

1128
01:03:13,920 --> 01:03:15,755
Uh...

1129
01:03:15,755 --> 01:03:16,756
No, thank you.

1130
01:03:16,756 --> 01:03:19,384
Eh, just me, then, Lidewij.

1131
01:03:19,384 --> 01:03:21,219
Another scotch
and soda, please.

1132
01:03:24,514 --> 01:03:26,433
Perhaps some breakfast
first, Peter?

1133
01:03:26,433 --> 01:03:28,393
She thinks I have
a drinking problem.

1134
01:03:30,020 --> 01:03:32,105
I also think the Earth is round.

1135
01:03:38,153 --> 01:03:41,322
So, you like my book.

1136
01:03:41,322 --> 01:03:42,574
-We love your book.
-Yeah.

1137
01:03:42,574 --> 01:03:44,409
We love it. Um...

1138
01:03:44,409 --> 01:03:46,995
Augustus, he made
his wish meeting you

1139
01:03:46,995 --> 01:03:48,621
so that we could talk.

1140
01:03:48,621 --> 01:03:49,789
No pressure.

1141
01:03:51,291 --> 01:03:53,835
Did you dress like her
on purpose?

1142
01:03:55,045 --> 01:03:56,504
Kind of.

1143
01:03:56,504 --> 01:03:58,590
And incidentally, sir,

1144
01:03:58,590 --> 01:04:01,092
we both really wanted
to thank you

1145
01:04:01,092 --> 01:04:03,762
for dinner last night,
and for the champagne.

1146
01:04:03,762 --> 01:04:05,096
It was amazing.

1147
01:04:05,096 --> 01:04:06,806
-It was magical.
-Thank you.

1148
01:04:06,806 --> 01:04:08,683
We bought them dinner
last night?

1149
01:04:08,683 --> 01:04:10,393
It was our pleasure.

1150
01:04:15,565 --> 01:04:18,318
You've come a long way.

1151
01:04:18,318 --> 01:04:20,278
What can I do for you?

1152
01:04:20,278 --> 01:04:22,447
We have some questions,

1153
01:04:22,447 --> 01:04:25,283
obviously about what happens
at the end of your book.

1154
01:04:25,283 --> 01:04:28,369
Uh, specifically, to those
who Anna leaves behind.

1155
01:04:28,369 --> 01:04:30,455
Like, you know, her mom,
the Dutch Tulip Man...

1156
01:04:30,455 --> 01:04:32,874
How familiar are you
with Swedish hip-hop?

1157
01:04:34,626 --> 01:04:37,170
I would say limited.

1158
01:04:37,170 --> 01:04:41,299
Uh, Lidewij, play
"Bomfalleralla" immediately.

1159
01:04:42,592 --> 01:04:44,094
Okay.

1160
01:05:37,522 --> 01:05:39,858
We don't speak Swedish, sir.

1161
01:05:39,858 --> 01:05:41,359
Who the hell speaks Swedish?

1162
01:05:41,359 --> 01:05:42,610
The important thing is not

1163
01:05:42,610 --> 01:05:44,821
what nonsense the voices
are saying,

1164
01:05:44,821 --> 01:05:47,407
but what the voices are feeling.

1165
01:05:59,502 --> 01:06:01,087
Are... are you messing with us?

1166
01:06:01,087 --> 01:06:03,548
Like, is this some sort
of performance?

1167
01:06:03,548 --> 01:06:05,258
Gus, sit down.

1168
01:06:14,309 --> 01:06:16,561
All right, so at the end
of the book, Anna's...

1169
01:06:16,561 --> 01:06:19,689
Let's imagine
you're racing a tortoise.

1170
01:06:19,689 --> 01:06:22,692
The tortoise has
a ten-yard head start.

1171
01:06:22,692 --> 01:06:24,777
In the time it takes you
to run ten yards,

1172
01:06:24,777 --> 01:06:28,156
the tortoise has moved maybe
one yard, and so on forever.

1173
01:06:28,156 --> 01:06:29,616
You're faster
than the tortoise,

1174
01:06:29,616 --> 01:06:31,868
but you can never
catch him, you see.

1175
01:06:31,868 --> 01:06:33,995
You can only decrease his lead.

1176
01:06:33,995 --> 01:06:37,081
Now, certainly you can run
past the tortoise

1177
01:06:37,081 --> 01:06:40,835
as long as you don't contemplate
the mechanics involved,

1178
01:06:40,835 --> 01:06:45,006
but the question of how
turns out to be so complicated

1179
01:06:45,006 --> 01:06:47,258
that no one really solved it

1180
01:06:47,258 --> 01:06:50,720
until Cantor's proof
that some infinities

1181
01:06:50,720 --> 01:06:53,014
are bigger
than other infinities.

1182
01:06:54,682 --> 01:06:59,395
I assume...
that answers your question.

1183
01:07:01,314 --> 01:07:03,733
Hazel, I'm sorry.
I have no idea what's going on.

1184
01:07:03,733 --> 01:07:07,111
Yet you seem
so intelligent in print, Mr. Waters.

1185
01:07:07,111 --> 01:07:10,281
Has the cancer found its way
into your brain?

1186
01:07:11,741 --> 01:07:12,784
Peter!

1187
01:07:14,911 --> 01:07:18,706
Can we for one second
just focus on Anna, please?

1188
01:07:18,706 --> 01:07:21,167
I understand
that the story ends

1189
01:07:21,167 --> 01:07:23,711
in the middle of a sentence
because she dies,

1190
01:07:23,711 --> 01:07:25,713
or that she becomes too sick
to continue.

1191
01:07:25,713 --> 01:07:27,298
I am not interested in talking
about that book.

1192
01:07:27,298 --> 01:07:28,841
But that doesn't mean
that her family and her friends

1193
01:07:28,841 --> 01:07:31,052
don't have a future, right?
Right?

1194
01:07:33,012 --> 01:07:35,390
-I said I'm not interested.
-But you promised!

1195
01:07:35,390 --> 01:07:37,725
Nothing happens!
They're fiction.

1196
01:07:37,725 --> 01:07:39,978
They cease to exist
the moment the novel ends.

1197
01:07:39,978 --> 01:07:41,688
But they can't.

1198
01:07:41,688 --> 01:07:43,606
I get it in a literary
sense or whatever, but...

1199
01:07:43,606 --> 01:07:45,525
-I can't do this, Lidewij.
-...but there's...

1200
01:07:45,525 --> 01:07:47,902
-It's impossible not to imagine...
-I will not indulge

1201
01:07:47,902 --> 01:07:50,238
your childish whims.
I refuse to pity you

1202
01:07:50,238 --> 01:07:51,864
in the manner
in which you're accustomed.

1203
01:07:51,864 --> 01:07:53,908
-Pity? I do not want your pity.
-Of course you do.

1204
01:07:53,908 --> 01:07:56,494
Like all sick kids,
your existence depends on it.

1205
01:07:56,494 --> 01:07:59,163
-You are fated to live out your days...
-Peter!

1206
01:07:59,163 --> 01:08:01,541
...as the child you were
when diagnosed,

1207
01:08:01,541 --> 01:08:03,668
the child who believes
there is a life

1208
01:08:03,668 --> 01:08:06,838
after a novel ends,
and we as adults, we pity this.

1209
01:08:06,838 --> 01:08:10,383
So we pay for your treatments,
your oxygen machines.

1210
01:08:10,383 --> 01:08:12,552
-Peter, that's enough.
-You are a...

1211
01:08:12,552 --> 01:08:15,972
...a side effect
to an evolutionary process

1212
01:08:15,972 --> 01:08:18,266
that cares little
for individual lives.

1213
01:08:18,266 --> 01:08:21,477
You are a failed experiment
in mutation.

1214
01:08:23,896 --> 01:08:25,648
Listen, douche pants.

1215
01:08:25,648 --> 01:08:27,608
There's nothing
that you're gonna tell me

1216
01:08:27,608 --> 01:08:29,527
about my disease
that I don't already know.

1217
01:08:29,527 --> 01:08:32,447
Okay, I came here for one thing
and one thing only.

1218
01:08:32,447 --> 01:08:35,241
That is for you to tell me
what happens at the end

1219
01:08:35,241 --> 01:08:38,328
-of this goddamn book!
-I can't tell you.

1220
01:08:38,328 --> 01:08:39,746
-Bullshit.
-I can't.

1221
01:08:39,746 --> 01:08:40,955
Then make something up!

1222
01:08:43,082 --> 01:08:44,542
I want you to leave.

1223
01:09:02,060 --> 01:09:04,062
Have you ever stopped
to ask yourself why you

1224
01:09:04,062 --> 01:09:06,356
care so much about
your silly questions?

1225
01:09:06,356 --> 01:09:08,149
Go fuck yourself.

1226
01:09:21,162 --> 01:09:23,289
Hey, it's okay.

1227
01:09:23,289 --> 01:09:25,958
It's okay.

1228
01:09:25,958 --> 01:09:28,002
I'll write you a sequel.

1229
01:09:28,002 --> 01:09:30,004
All right, I'll write you...
I'll write you a sequel.

1230
01:09:30,004 --> 01:09:31,381
It'll be better
than any piece of shit

1231
01:09:31,381 --> 01:09:33,257
that drunk guy could write.

1232
01:09:33,257 --> 01:09:36,219
It'll have blood
and guts and sacrifice.

1233
01:09:36,219 --> 01:09:37,970
You'll love it.

1234
01:09:39,931 --> 01:09:42,392
I'm so sorry that I spent
your wish on that asshole.

1235
01:09:42,392 --> 01:09:45,478
No, you did not spend it on him;
you spent it on us.

1236
01:09:49,982 --> 01:09:51,859
Hazel and Augustus!

1237
01:09:53,069 --> 01:09:55,988
I'm very sorry.

1238
01:09:55,988 --> 01:09:58,533
Circumstance
has made him cruel.

1239
01:09:58,533 --> 01:10:01,160
I thought meeting you
would help him,

1240
01:10:01,160 --> 01:10:04,414
that he could see that his work
has shaped real lives,

1241
01:10:04,414 --> 01:10:06,582
but...

1242
01:10:06,582 --> 01:10:09,627
I'm very sorry.

1243
01:10:09,627 --> 01:10:11,295
Perhaps we can do
some sightseeing?

1244
01:10:11,295 --> 01:10:13,089
Have you been
to the Anne Frank House?

1245
01:10:13,089 --> 01:10:14,757
I'm not going anywhere
with that man.

1246
01:10:14,757 --> 01:10:17,718
No. He is not invited.

1247
01:10:27,603 --> 01:10:29,480
I'm afraid there's no elevator.

1248
01:10:31,315 --> 01:10:33,526
Oh, that's all right.
I mean...

1249
01:10:33,526 --> 01:10:34,694
Well, there are many stairs.

1250
01:10:34,694 --> 01:10:36,070
-Steep stairs.
-I can do it.

1251
01:10:36,070 --> 01:10:37,113
You know, Hazel,
we don't have to do it.

1252
01:10:37,113 --> 01:10:38,906
I can do it.

1253
01:10:38,906 --> 01:10:40,199
Let's go.

1254
01:10:43,953 --> 01:10:45,788
ANNOUNCER
The Frank family came

1255
01:10:45,788 --> 01:10:48,124
from Frankfurt in Germany.

1256
01:10:48,124 --> 01:10:51,836
Anne Frank's diary
would become world-famous.

1257
01:10:51,836 --> 01:10:55,631
GIRL
It's difficult in times like these.

1258
01:10:55,631 --> 01:10:59,969
It's a wonder I haven't
abandoned all my ideals.

1259
01:10:59,969 --> 01:11:02,930
They seem so absurd
and impractical.

1260
01:11:02,930 --> 01:11:07,185
Yet I cling to them
because I still believe,

1261
01:11:07,185 --> 01:11:08,978
in spite of everything,

1262
01:11:08,978 --> 01:11:12,273
that people are truly good
at heart.

1263
01:11:12,273 --> 01:11:15,485
It's utterly impossible
for me to build my life...

1264
01:11:20,323 --> 01:11:21,824
Shall we?

1265
01:11:21,824 --> 01:11:23,409
-Yeah.
-Yeah.

1266
01:11:28,039 --> 01:11:29,624
Hazel, I'll...
I'll carry it if you want.

1267
01:11:29,624 --> 01:11:31,250
I got it.

1268
01:11:47,225 --> 01:11:49,143
Wow.

1269
01:11:49,143 --> 01:11:52,813
So this is the actual bookcase
that hid the Frank family.

1270
01:11:54,815 --> 01:11:55,816
Whoa.

1271
01:12:15,336 --> 01:12:16,379
I got it.

1272
01:12:16,379 --> 01:12:17,880
Thank you.

1273
01:12:19,840 --> 01:12:22,301
GIRL
We're much too young

1274
01:12:22,301 --> 01:12:24,178
to deal with these problems,

1275
01:12:24,178 --> 01:12:26,847
but they keep
thrusting themselves on us...

1276
01:12:26,847 --> 01:12:28,558
-...until finally,

1277
01:12:28,558 --> 01:12:31,185
we're forced to think
of a solution.

1278
01:12:31,185 --> 01:12:32,436
You okay, Hazel?

1279
01:12:32,436 --> 01:12:33,854
Yeah.

1280
01:12:33,854 --> 01:12:35,523
Don't worry, take your time.

1281
01:12:35,523 --> 01:12:36,774
-Sorry.
-No problem.

1282
01:12:36,774 --> 01:12:37,984
Yeah?

1283
01:12:37,984 --> 01:12:39,110
Yeah.

1284
01:12:48,035 --> 01:12:52,039
GIRL
And yet, when I look up at the sky,

1285
01:12:52,039 --> 01:12:55,668
I somehow feel that everything
will change for the better.

1286
01:12:55,668 --> 01:12:58,004
That this cruelty, too,
will end.

1287
01:12:58,004 --> 01:12:59,630
You okay?

1288
01:12:59,630 --> 01:13:01,340
Yeah.

1289
01:13:20,234 --> 01:13:22,069
Hazel, I think...
I think that's enough.

1290
01:13:22,069 --> 01:13:23,529
You don't need... you know?

1291
01:13:23,529 --> 01:13:24,947
Uh-uh.

1292
01:13:24,947 --> 01:13:26,782
I got this.

1293
01:13:34,248 --> 01:13:37,585
GIRL
All is as it should be.

1294
01:13:42,465 --> 01:13:45,134
God wishes to see people happy.

1295
01:13:47,219 --> 01:13:48,512
Where there's hope...

1296
01:13:48,512 --> 01:13:49,555
Hazel?

1297
01:13:52,308 --> 01:13:54,018
GIRL
...there is life.

1298
01:14:08,532 --> 01:14:09,950
Well done.

1299
01:14:09,950 --> 01:14:11,285
Yeah.

1300
01:14:11,285 --> 01:14:13,579
-You okay?
-Yeah.

1301
01:14:13,579 --> 01:14:16,624
This is it. Look.

1302
01:14:18,542 --> 01:14:20,503
Wow.

1303
01:14:20,503 --> 01:14:23,422
-All right?
-Whoa, yeah.

1304
01:14:23,422 --> 01:14:26,175
Oh, my God.

1305
01:14:26,175 --> 01:14:27,927
Thanks.

1306
01:14:29,261 --> 01:14:30,971
Whew.

1307
01:14:38,312 --> 01:14:41,399
The only member of
the Frank family to survive

1308
01:14:41,399 --> 01:14:44,902
was Otto, Anne's father.

1309
01:14:47,196 --> 01:14:48,864
GIRL
At such moments,

1310
01:14:48,864 --> 01:14:52,410
I can't think about the misery,

1311
01:14:52,410 --> 01:14:55,788
but about the beauty
that still remains.

1312
01:14:57,748 --> 01:15:01,377
Try to recapture
the happiness within yourself.

1313
01:15:01,377 --> 01:15:07,091
Think of all the beauty
in everything around you

1314
01:15:07,091 --> 01:15:08,801
and be happy.

1315
01:15:52,094 --> 01:15:53,304
Bravo.

1316
01:16:07,485 --> 01:16:10,321
<i> I fell in love with him
the way you fall asleep.</i>

1317
01:16:11,572 --> 01:16:15,659
<i>Slowly, and then all at once.</i>

1318
01:16:38,140 --> 01:16:40,309
It just sort of, like,

1319
01:16:40,309 --> 01:16:42,561
ends right above
where the knee would be...

1320
01:16:42,561 --> 01:16:44,438
and, like, tapers off.

1321
01:16:44,438 --> 01:16:46,440
What?

1322
01:16:46,440 --> 01:16:47,441
My leg.

1323
01:16:48,943 --> 01:16:50,861
You know,
just... just so you're prepared.

1324
01:16:50,861 --> 01:16:55,533
Gus, get over yourself.

1325
01:17:11,340 --> 01:17:12,800
Wait.

1326
01:17:12,800 --> 01:17:15,135
I can't. It's stuck.

1327
01:17:25,062 --> 01:17:28,065
I love you so much,
Augustus Waters.

1328
01:17:28,065 --> 01:17:30,901
I love you, too, Hazel Grace.

1329
01:17:30,901 --> 01:17:32,987
So, so much.

1330
01:17:41,245 --> 01:17:43,330
Augustus, I can't breathe.

1331
01:17:45,291 --> 01:17:46,959
It's okay.

1332
01:17:56,176 --> 01:17:57,636
Hazel.

1333
01:18:02,641 --> 01:18:04,268
You're so beautiful.

1334
01:18:04,268 --> 01:18:05,853
Stop.

1335
01:18:05,853 --> 01:18:07,646
No, you're so beautiful.

1336
01:18:08,856 --> 01:18:10,482
I'm so lucky.

1337
01:18:11,483 --> 01:18:12,860
I'm so lucky.

1338
01:19:28,268 --> 01:19:29,478
HAZEL
<i>Oh, my God.</i>

1339
01:19:32,022 --> 01:19:34,066
I can't believe you
called him "douche pants."

1340
01:19:34,066 --> 01:19:35,359
-- I know!
-- You did?

1341
01:19:35,359 --> 01:19:36,902
How'd you come up with that?

1342
01:19:36,902 --> 01:19:38,654
I don't know,
it just came out.

1343
01:19:38,654 --> 01:19:40,531
I was so angry.

1344
01:19:40,531 --> 01:19:41,699
What a monster.

1345
01:19:41,699 --> 01:19:42,908
Mom, he was awful.

1346
01:19:42,908 --> 01:19:44,493
Then what happened?

1347
01:19:44,493 --> 01:19:45,744
We just,
we went to Anne Frank House.

1348
01:19:45,744 --> 01:19:47,621
Oh, you did?

1349
01:19:47,621 --> 01:19:48,831
-It was really awesome.
-Was that incredible?

1350
01:19:48,831 --> 01:19:50,791
-So awesome.
-And after that?

1351
01:19:50,791 --> 01:19:53,794
Oh, we just...
we just walked around.

1352
01:19:57,423 --> 01:19:58,966
That sounds lovely.

1353
01:19:58,966 --> 01:20:00,634
Oh, my gosh,

1354
01:20:00,634 --> 01:20:02,094
we probably
still have a few hours, right?

1355
01:20:02,094 --> 01:20:03,762
Should we go to the
Van Gogh Museum?

1356
01:20:03,762 --> 01:20:05,305
Whatever you want.

1357
01:20:05,305 --> 01:20:07,725
Probably don't have time
to do everything, but...

1358
01:20:07,725 --> 01:20:10,644
Just gonna have
to come back is all.

1359
01:20:12,938 --> 01:20:15,357
Could you just not be ridiculous
right now, please?

1360
01:20:15,357 --> 01:20:21,071
Hazel, I'm not being ridiculous.
I'm being positive.

1361
01:20:24,867 --> 01:20:27,411
-Mrs. Lancaster?
-Yeah?

1362
01:20:27,411 --> 01:20:29,371
Do you think
Hazel and I can just have...

1363
01:20:29,371 --> 01:20:30,622
...just, like,
a little time alone?

1364
01:20:33,292 --> 01:20:35,085
Sure, Gus.

1365
01:20:35,085 --> 01:20:37,629
Um, I am gonna run to the room,

1366
01:20:37,629 --> 01:20:42,468
and, um, I'll be ready
whenever you guys want to do something.

1367
01:20:48,223 --> 01:20:50,184
Want to go for a walk?

1368
01:21:35,687 --> 01:21:37,648
What is it?

1369
01:21:40,317 --> 01:21:41,985
So, just before you went
into the hospital,

1370
01:21:41,985 --> 01:21:44,696
there was this...

1371
01:21:49,451 --> 01:21:51,120
I felt an ache in my hip.

1372
01:21:54,790 --> 01:21:57,084
So I had a PET scan.

1373
01:22:00,003 --> 01:22:02,589
And it lit up
like a Christmas tree.

1374
01:22:08,846 --> 01:22:14,643
The lining of my chest,
my liver, just... everywhere.

1375
01:22:22,943 --> 01:22:24,695
I'm sorry.

1376
01:22:28,949 --> 01:22:30,659
I should've told you.

1377
01:22:48,093 --> 01:22:49,928
It's so unfair.

1378
01:22:57,144 --> 01:22:59,813
Apparently the world is not
a wish-granting factory.

1379
01:23:14,578 --> 01:23:15,704
Hey, listen.

1380
01:23:17,122 --> 01:23:19,791
Don't you worry about me,
Hazel Grace, okay?

1381
01:23:19,791 --> 01:23:21,418
I'm gonna find a way
to hang around here

1382
01:23:21,418 --> 01:23:22,794
and annoy you for a long time.

1383
01:23:32,721 --> 01:23:34,014
Are you in pain?

1384
01:23:34,014 --> 01:23:35,057
No.

1385
01:23:37,226 --> 01:23:38,977
I'm okay.

1386
01:23:40,270 --> 01:23:41,855
Okay.

1387
01:23:44,608 --> 01:23:46,318
Okay.

1388
01:23:53,700 --> 01:23:56,328
I don't suppose you can
just forget about this?

1389
01:23:56,328 --> 01:23:58,455
-You know, just treat me

1390
01:23:58,455 --> 01:24:00,123
like I'm not dying.

1391
01:24:02,292 --> 01:24:05,337
I don't think you're
dying, Augustus.

1392
01:24:05,337 --> 01:24:07,673
You've just got
a touch of cancer.

1393
01:24:14,346 --> 01:24:20,519
Would it be absolutely ludicrous
if we just made out?

1394
01:24:20,519 --> 01:24:23,188
Right now?

1395
01:24:23,188 --> 01:24:24,982
Probably.

1396
01:25:00,851 --> 01:25:03,687
Oh!

1397
01:25:33,633 --> 01:25:35,344
So, how are your eyes, Isaac?

1398
01:25:35,344 --> 01:25:38,764
They're good. They're not in
my head is the only problem.

1399
01:25:38,764 --> 01:25:40,724
-Besides that...

1400
01:25:40,724 --> 01:25:44,269
Well, um, it appears my entire
body is made out of cancer now,

1401
01:25:44,269 --> 01:25:46,104
so sorry to one-up you, dude.

1402
01:25:46,104 --> 01:25:48,148
Did you, uh...

1403
01:25:48,148 --> 01:25:49,983
-...did you write his eulogy yet?
-Dude.

1404
01:25:49,983 --> 01:25:51,318
-What?
-What? The thing...

1405
01:25:51,318 --> 01:25:53,111
I haven't told her yet, Isaac.

1406
01:25:53,111 --> 01:25:54,654
What are you talking about?

1407
01:25:54,654 --> 01:25:57,199
Oh. Sorry.

1408
01:25:57,199 --> 01:25:58,992
Augustus?

1409
01:25:58,992 --> 01:26:02,162
I need speakers at my funeral.

1410
01:26:02,162 --> 01:26:04,956
So I was hoping
that you and Isaac,

1411
01:26:04,956 --> 01:26:09,586
but mostly you,
would be, um...

1412
01:26:09,586 --> 01:26:12,381
...would be kind enough
to whip something up.

1413
01:26:12,381 --> 01:26:14,174
I would love to do that.

1414
01:26:17,844 --> 01:26:20,347
Thank you.

1415
01:26:25,268 --> 01:26:28,897
You guys are cute.
Makes me sick.

1416
01:26:30,690 --> 01:26:33,985
-You guys are gross.
-Have you heard from Monica?

1417
01:26:33,985 --> 01:26:36,655
-Nope, not a thing.
-She hasn't even texted you

1418
01:26:36,655 --> 01:26:38,240
-to, like, make sure you're okay?
-Not once.

1419
01:26:38,240 --> 01:26:39,533
-Not once.
-I hate that girl.

1420
01:26:39,533 --> 01:26:40,909
But there are tons
of other girls.

1421
01:26:40,909 --> 01:26:42,452
You guys don't have
to worry about me.

1422
01:26:42,452 --> 01:26:44,955
And, like, in support group,
there's this new girl,

1423
01:26:44,955 --> 01:26:46,706
and she has these humongous...

1424
01:26:46,706 --> 01:26:49,668
How do you even know that?

1425
01:26:49,668 --> 01:26:52,170
I'm blind,
but I'm not that blind.

1426
01:26:52,170 --> 01:26:55,215
-Hazel Grace?
-Hmm?

1427
01:26:55,215 --> 01:26:57,342
You happen to have
five dollars?

1428
01:27:09,271 --> 01:27:11,106
Okay, so now what?

1429
01:27:11,106 --> 01:27:12,357
Hey, guys?

1430
01:27:12,357 --> 01:27:14,484
I smell eggs. That eggs?

1431
01:27:21,867 --> 01:27:23,326
Is it there?

1432
01:27:23,326 --> 01:27:26,580
-It's there.
-Mm-hmm.

1433
01:27:26,580 --> 01:27:28,123
I'm nervous.

1434
01:27:28,123 --> 01:27:30,917
-Nervous?
-Is Monica in there?

1435
01:27:30,917 --> 01:27:32,836
-It doesn't matter where Monica is.
-Okay.

1436
01:27:32,836 --> 01:27:34,045
This is not about Monica.
This is about you.

1437
01:27:34,045 --> 01:27:35,338
I just feel like
she's gonna be...

1438
01:27:35,338 --> 01:27:36,965
-Okay. Can I have an egg?
-Hazel Grace?

1439
01:27:36,965 --> 01:27:38,049
Egg me.

1440
01:27:38,049 --> 01:27:39,551
Egged.

1441
01:27:39,551 --> 01:27:41,011
Isaac?

1442
01:27:44,806 --> 01:27:46,641
All right, here we go.

1443
01:27:46,641 --> 01:27:47,684
-You got this.
-All right, come on.

1444
01:27:51,688 --> 01:27:52,731
I didn't hear anything.

1445
01:27:52,731 --> 01:27:54,524
It's all right.

1446
01:27:54,524 --> 01:27:55,567
-Did I hit anything?
-Little more to your left.

1447
01:27:55,567 --> 01:27:57,402
Wait, throw to my left

1448
01:27:57,402 --> 01:27:59,112
-or should aim a little left?
-Aim left.

1449
01:27:59,112 --> 01:28:01,198
-Okay.
-Lefter.

1450
01:28:01,198 --> 01:28:03,074
Gus, I think we should wait
until dark.

1451
01:28:03,074 --> 01:28:05,035
It's all dark to Isaac.

1452
01:28:05,035 --> 01:28:06,828
Dude, I'm... I'm...
I'm not deaf;

1453
01:28:06,828 --> 01:28:08,288
I'm just blind,
so I can hear

1454
01:28:08,288 --> 01:28:09,539
when you make fun
of my disability...

1455
01:28:09,539 --> 01:28:11,041
-I'm sorry.
-...and I don't love it.

1456
01:28:11,041 --> 01:28:12,459
-I'm sorry. Just throw.
-Okay. Where do I throw?

1457
01:28:12,459 --> 01:28:13,752
-Throw hard.
-This way?

1458
01:28:13,752 --> 01:28:14,961
Yes. Yes!

1459
01:28:14,961 --> 01:28:16,338
-Yes!
-What?!

1460
01:28:16,338 --> 01:28:17,964
-What?! I hit it!
-Come on. Keep it going.

1461
01:28:17,964 --> 01:28:19,466
-Keep going, dude.
-I hit it!

1462
01:28:19,466 --> 01:28:21,426
Now I know
exactly where to line it up.

1463
01:28:21,426 --> 01:28:23,053
-Keep throwing, dude. Keep throwing.
-That was so exhilarating!

1464
01:28:23,053 --> 01:28:24,846
-Keep... keep it going.

1465
01:28:24,846 --> 01:28:26,181
-More? More?
-Go again. Go again.

1466
01:28:26,181 --> 01:28:27,682
Keep going.

1467
01:28:27,682 --> 01:28:29,059
-Okay!
-Keep throwing, keep throwing.

1468
01:28:29,059 --> 01:28:30,143
Give me more, give me more,
give me more.

1469
01:28:31,144 --> 01:28:32,354
What...?

1470
01:28:33,522 --> 01:28:34,940
Oh, stop, stop, stop, stop.

1471
01:28:34,940 --> 01:28:37,526
-Isaac.
-Whoa!

1472
01:28:37,526 --> 01:28:39,236
-Hello.

1473
01:28:39,236 --> 01:28:40,987
Are you Monica's mother?

1474
01:28:40,987 --> 01:28:42,906
-I am.
-Hello, ma'am.

1475
01:28:42,906 --> 01:28:44,866
Uh, your daughter,
she's done a great injustice.

1476
01:28:44,866 --> 01:28:46,952
So we've come here
seeking revenge.

1477
01:28:46,952 --> 01:28:48,954
You see, we may not
look like much,

1478
01:28:48,954 --> 01:28:51,122
but between the three of us,
we have five legs,

1479
01:28:51,122 --> 01:28:53,833
four eyes and two and a half
working pairs of lungs,

1480
01:28:53,833 --> 01:28:56,086
but we also have
two dozen eggs.

1481
01:28:56,086 --> 01:29:00,215
So if... if I were you,
I would go back inside.

1482
01:29:04,886 --> 01:29:06,596
-It... it actually worked?
-Yep.

1483
01:29:06,596 --> 01:29:07,931
That was the stupidest
speech I've ever...

1484
01:29:07,931 --> 01:29:09,099
That actually worked?

1485
01:29:09,099 --> 01:29:11,643
There you go. Hold on.

1486
01:29:19,734 --> 01:29:22,404
This feels so good!

1487
01:29:52,434 --> 01:29:54,185
Augustus?

1488
01:29:54,185 --> 01:29:55,562
Hazel Grace?

1489
01:29:55,562 --> 01:29:56,980
Hi.

1490
01:29:56,980 --> 01:29:58,940
Oh, my God, hi.

1491
01:29:58,940 --> 01:30:00,650
Hi. I love you.

1492
01:30:00,650 --> 01:30:01,901
Oh, my God.

1493
01:30:01,901 --> 01:30:03,403
I'm at the gas station.

1494
01:30:03,403 --> 01:30:04,487
You're what?

1495
01:30:04,487 --> 01:30:06,114
Um, something is wrong.

1496
01:30:06,114 --> 01:30:07,907
You... you got to...

1497
01:30:07,907 --> 01:30:09,284
Can you come?

1498
01:30:09,284 --> 01:30:10,327
Can you come and help me?

1499
01:30:23,214 --> 01:30:25,091
Gus!

1500
01:30:26,343 --> 01:30:27,385
Gus.

1501
01:30:28,762 --> 01:30:30,472
Babe, what's going on?

1502
01:30:32,641 --> 01:30:35,185
-Look.
-Gus, it's infected.

1503
01:30:38,521 --> 01:30:40,231
Take a deep breath.

1504
01:30:43,026 --> 01:30:44,527
Gus, I have to call somebody.

1505
01:30:44,527 --> 01:30:46,738
No, no, please don't call 911.

1506
01:30:46,738 --> 01:30:48,406
Please, don't call my parents
or nine...

1507
01:30:48,406 --> 01:30:50,200
I will never forgive you
if you call them.

1508
01:30:50,200 --> 01:30:51,368
Gus, what are you doing?

1509
01:30:51,368 --> 01:30:53,036
What are you doing here?

1510
01:30:53,036 --> 01:30:55,538
I wanted to buy cigarettes.

1511
01:30:55,538 --> 01:30:57,332
I don't know what happened
to my pack.

1512
01:30:57,332 --> 01:30:59,334
I... I might have lost it
or something,

1513
01:30:59,334 --> 01:31:01,711
or they took it,
but I just...

1514
01:31:01,711 --> 01:31:05,423
I wanted to do something
for myself, you know?

1515
01:31:05,423 --> 01:31:06,966
I wanted to do it myself.

1516
01:31:06,966 --> 01:31:08,259
Babe, I have to call 911.

1517
01:31:08,259 --> 01:31:09,302
-No!
-I have to.

1518
01:31:09,302 --> 01:31:11,054
No.

1519
01:31:12,764 --> 01:31:15,141
Hi. 911? Um...

1520
01:31:15,141 --> 01:31:16,351
-We need an ambulance.
-I hate myself!

1521
01:31:16,351 --> 01:31:17,602
My boyfriend has cancer.

1522
01:31:17,602 --> 01:31:18,812
On First Avenue.
Tube in his stomach.

1523
01:31:18,812 --> 01:31:20,855
My name is Hazel
Grace Lancaster.

1524
01:31:20,855 --> 01:31:22,482
-Please hurry.

1525
01:31:22,482 --> 01:31:24,651
We're in a silver Jeep
at the gas station.

1526
01:31:24,651 --> 01:31:26,444
<i> I wish I could say that</i>

1527
01:31:26,444 --> 01:31:29,406
<i>Augustus Waters kept his sense
of humor until the end.</i>

1528
01:31:29,406 --> 01:31:34,077
<i>That not for a single moment
did his courage waver,</i>

1529
01:31:34,077 --> 01:31:36,871
<i>but that is not
what happened.</i>

1530
01:31:52,721 --> 01:31:54,389
Hi, sweetie.

1531
01:31:56,349 --> 01:31:57,559
Hi.

1532
01:32:04,441 --> 01:32:06,025
How's he doing?

1533
01:32:06,025 --> 01:32:08,278
He's had a tough night, Hazel.

1534
01:32:08,278 --> 01:32:10,780
His blood pressure's low.

1535
01:32:10,780 --> 01:32:12,532
His heart...

1536
01:32:14,033 --> 01:32:15,910
What about the chemo?

1537
01:32:15,910 --> 01:32:18,329
They are gonna stop the chemo.

1538
01:32:24,878 --> 01:32:26,296
Can I see him?

1539
01:32:29,299 --> 01:32:31,676
We'll tell him you were here.

1540
01:32:31,676 --> 01:32:33,094
-Yeah.
-Okay.

1541
01:32:33,094 --> 01:32:34,846
Yeah.

1542
01:32:34,846 --> 01:32:36,639
I'm... I'm just gonna...

1543
01:32:36,639 --> 01:32:38,558
...hang out for a while,
if you don't mind.

1544
01:32:38,558 --> 01:32:40,018
Yeah, of course.

1545
01:32:59,537 --> 01:33:02,749
GUS'
Okay, hon. Take your time.

1546
01:33:11,257 --> 01:33:13,468
Here we go, bud.

1547
01:33:16,471 --> 01:33:18,431
Good?

1548
01:33:18,431 --> 01:33:19,557
All right, sweetie.

1549
01:33:19,557 --> 01:33:21,434
Okay.

1550
01:33:27,732 --> 01:33:29,359
Hi.

1551
01:34:08,106 --> 01:34:09,649
What are you thinking about?

1552
01:34:10,859 --> 01:34:11,860
Oblivion.

1553
01:34:13,987 --> 01:34:16,865
I know it's... it's kid stuff
or whatever, but...

1554
01:34:20,076 --> 01:34:22,453
You know, I always thought
I would be a hero.

1555
01:34:22,453 --> 01:34:24,664
I always thought I'd have
a grand story to tell.

1556
01:34:24,664 --> 01:34:27,125
You know, something they'd
publish in all the papers.

1557
01:34:28,918 --> 01:34:31,462
I mean,
I was supposed to be special.

1558
01:34:32,672 --> 01:34:34,549
You are special, Augustus.

1559
01:34:34,549 --> 01:34:35,925
Yeah, I know, but...

1560
01:34:35,925 --> 01:34:38,553
You know what I mean.

1561
01:34:38,553 --> 01:34:41,973
I do know what you mean;
I just don't agree with you.

1562
01:34:46,352 --> 01:34:49,188
You know this obsession
you have with being remembered?

1563
01:34:49,188 --> 01:34:52,901
-Don't get mad.
-I am mad.

1564
01:34:52,901 --> 01:34:54,694
I'm mad because
I think you're special,

1565
01:34:54,694 --> 01:34:56,279
and is that not enough?

1566
01:34:58,489 --> 01:35:00,783
You think that the only way
to lead a meaningful life

1567
01:35:00,783 --> 01:35:02,869
is for everyone to remember you.

1568
01:35:02,869 --> 01:35:04,662
For everyone to love you.

1569
01:35:04,662 --> 01:35:06,998
Guess what, Gus.

1570
01:35:06,998 --> 01:35:08,291
This is your life, okay?

1571
01:35:08,291 --> 01:35:10,043
This is all you get.

1572
01:35:10,043 --> 01:35:12,003
You get me,
and you get your family,

1573
01:35:12,003 --> 01:35:14,672
and you get this world,
and that's it.

1574
01:35:14,672 --> 01:35:16,925
And if that's not enough
for you, then...

1575
01:35:16,925 --> 01:35:19,093
I'm sorry, but it's not nothing.

1576
01:35:21,763 --> 01:35:23,514
Because I love you.

1577
01:35:25,642 --> 01:35:27,560
And I'm gonna remember you.

1578
01:35:31,397 --> 01:35:34,150
I'm sorry, all right?

1579
01:35:34,150 --> 01:35:36,402
I just wish you would be happy
with that.

1580
01:35:36,402 --> 01:35:37,528
Hey.

1581
01:35:54,003 --> 01:35:55,672
It's a good life, Hazel Grace.

1582
01:36:00,051 --> 01:36:01,803
It's not over yet.

1583
01:36:12,355 --> 01:36:13,940
Augustus.

1584
01:36:13,940 --> 01:36:15,900
<i> One of the less
bullshitty conventions</i>

1585
01:36:15,900 --> 01:36:19,028
<i>of the cancer genre
is the convention known as</i>

1586
01:36:19,028 --> 01:36:21,030
<i>"The Last Good Day."</i>

1587
01:36:21,030 --> 01:36:23,282
<i>When it seems like
the inexorable decline</i>

1588
01:36:23,282 --> 01:36:25,284
<i>has suddenly plateaued.</i>

1589
01:36:25,284 --> 01:36:28,121
<i>When the pain is,
just for a minute, bearable.</i>

1590
01:36:28,121 --> 01:36:30,289
<i>The problem, of course,</i>

1591
01:36:30,289 --> 01:36:32,083
<i>is that there's no way
of knowing</i>

1592
01:36:32,083 --> 01:36:35,545
<i>that your last good day
is your last good day.</i>

1593
01:36:35,545 --> 01:36:38,339
<i>At the time,
it's just another decent day.</i>

1594
01:36:44,804 --> 01:36:46,556
Hello, Augustus.

1595
01:36:47,765 --> 01:36:49,225
Good evening, Hazel Grace.

1596
01:36:50,560 --> 01:36:52,353
A quick question for you.

1597
01:36:52,353 --> 01:36:54,731
Did you ever write that eulogy
I asked you to prepare?

1598
01:36:54,731 --> 01:36:56,524
I may have.

1599
01:36:56,524 --> 01:36:58,693
Do you think
you could find your way down

1600
01:36:58,693 --> 01:37:00,862
to the literal heart of Jesus
in the next few minutes?

1601
01:37:00,862 --> 01:37:05,241
-Maybe. Is everything okay?
-I love you, Hazel Grace.

1602
01:37:07,910 --> 01:37:09,287
Can I have the keys?

1603
01:37:09,287 --> 01:37:11,497
Oh, where are you going?

1604
01:37:11,497 --> 01:37:12,790
-We're gonna eat something.
-I have to go.

1605
01:37:12,790 --> 01:37:14,667
Hazel, you have to be hungry.

1606
01:37:14,667 --> 01:37:16,377
-You didn't even eat lunch.
-I'm just not hungry.

1607
01:37:16,377 --> 01:37:17,712
Have a little salad
or something.

1608
01:37:17,712 --> 01:37:19,380
Hazel, you can't...
you cannot not eat.

1609
01:37:19,380 --> 01:37:20,882
-I am aggressively un-hungry.
-Hazel, I know Gus is sick,

1610
01:37:20,882 --> 01:37:22,175
but you got to take care
of yourself.

1611
01:37:22,175 --> 01:37:23,509
Mom, this has nothing
to do with Gus.

1612
01:37:23,509 --> 01:37:24,719
Well, then you've got
to stay healthy.

1613
01:37:24,719 --> 01:37:26,637
Come on,
just eat something, honey.

1614
01:37:26,637 --> 01:37:28,556
"Stay healthy"?

1615
01:37:28,556 --> 01:37:31,684
Okay, I'm not healthy,
and I'm gonna die.

1616
01:37:31,684 --> 01:37:33,770
Do you realize that I'm dying,
and you're gonna be here,

1617
01:37:33,770 --> 01:37:36,397
and you're not gonna have anyone
to look after or hover around,

1618
01:37:36,397 --> 01:37:38,066
and you're not gonna be
a mother anymore, and I'm sorry,

1619
01:37:38,066 --> 01:37:39,400
but there's nothing
I can do about that.

1620
01:37:39,400 --> 01:37:40,902
So can I please go?

1621
01:37:40,902 --> 01:37:43,279
-Why would you say that to me?
-Hazel, do not...

1622
01:37:43,279 --> 01:37:45,948
-Because you said that.
-What are you talking about?

1623
01:37:45,948 --> 01:37:48,242
In the ICU.

1624
01:37:48,242 --> 01:37:50,411
Hazel...

1625
01:37:52,121 --> 01:37:54,332
That's not the truth.
I was wrong.

1626
01:37:54,332 --> 01:37:56,876
All right?

1627
01:37:56,876 --> 01:37:58,878
Even if you died...

1628
01:37:58,878 --> 01:38:00,088
When.

1629
01:38:04,050 --> 01:38:06,344
Even when you die...

1630
01:38:08,721 --> 01:38:10,932
...I'll always be your mother.

1631
01:38:13,893 --> 01:38:15,728
It's the greatest thing
I'll ever be.

1632
01:38:17,438 --> 01:38:19,482
That is my biggest fear, Mom.

1633
01:38:19,482 --> 01:38:23,903
When I am gone, you're not
gonna have a life anymore.

1634
01:38:23,903 --> 01:38:26,030
You're just gonna sit
and you're gonna stare at walls,

1635
01:38:26,030 --> 01:38:27,657
or you're gonna
off yourselves or...

1636
01:38:27,657 --> 01:38:32,245
Hazel, honey,
we're not gonna do that.

1637
01:38:32,245 --> 01:38:36,541
Losing you...

1638
01:38:36,541 --> 01:38:39,210
...that is gonna hurt like hell.

1639
01:38:40,837 --> 01:38:44,465
But you of all people
know it's possible

1640
01:38:44,465 --> 01:38:46,843
to live with pain.

1641
01:38:49,095 --> 01:38:51,681
You just do it.

1642
01:38:55,059 --> 01:38:59,480
I'm taking classes
in social work.

1643
01:38:59,480 --> 01:39:01,357
Wait, you're what?

1644
01:39:01,357 --> 01:39:03,067
Yeah, I'm...

1645
01:39:05,027 --> 01:39:07,029
You know, if I can take
what we've been through

1646
01:39:07,029 --> 01:39:10,783
and help other people,
maybe counsel families...

1647
01:39:10,783 --> 01:39:12,451
Mom, how could you
not tell me this?

1648
01:39:12,451 --> 01:39:15,538
We didn't... we didn't want you
to feel abandoned.

1649
01:39:15,538 --> 01:39:17,248
"Feel abandoned"?

1650
01:39:19,083 --> 01:39:20,918
You guys, this is...

1651
01:39:23,754 --> 01:39:25,923
This is the best news.

1652
01:39:25,923 --> 01:39:27,675
You go.

1653
01:39:28,885 --> 01:39:30,303
Okay?

1654
01:39:32,013 --> 01:39:33,681
Baby.

1655
01:39:36,058 --> 01:39:39,103
Straight ahead, yeah.
To your left a little bit.

1656
01:39:39,103 --> 01:39:40,855
-That's a step, right?
-Yeah.

1657
01:39:40,855 --> 01:39:42,190
Put your hand out.

1658
01:39:42,190 --> 01:39:43,649
There's a podium to your right.

1659
01:39:43,649 --> 01:39:45,359
Yeah, perfect.

1660
01:39:54,076 --> 01:39:55,828
Beautiful.

1661
01:39:55,828 --> 01:39:58,706
-Hi.
-Hi.

1662
01:39:58,706 --> 01:39:59,999
You're late.

1663
01:39:59,999 --> 01:40:01,083
How are you doing?

1664
01:40:01,083 --> 01:40:02,251
You look ravishing, Hazel Grace.

1665
01:40:02,251 --> 01:40:04,045
I know, right?

1666
01:40:09,217 --> 01:40:10,718
What's going on, guys?

1667
01:40:10,718 --> 01:40:12,470
Tell her, Gus.

1668
01:40:12,470 --> 01:40:15,014
I wanted to attend
my own funeral.

1669
01:40:16,224 --> 01:40:18,184
I mean, I'm hopeful

1670
01:40:18,184 --> 01:40:19,602
that I'll be able to
attend as a ghost, but...

1671
01:40:21,354 --> 01:40:23,773
However, just in case
that doesn't work out,

1672
01:40:23,773 --> 01:40:26,609
I decided to plan
this pre-funeral.

1673
01:40:28,069 --> 01:40:29,153
Ready?

1674
01:40:32,949 --> 01:40:35,493
Augustus Waters was
a cocky son of a bitch...

1675
01:40:35,493 --> 01:40:37,245
-...but we forgave him,

1676
01:40:37,245 --> 01:40:40,373
not because
of his superhuman good looks

1677
01:40:40,373 --> 01:40:44,168
or because he only got 19 years
when he should've gotten way more...

1678
01:40:44,168 --> 01:40:46,879
-18 years, buddy.
-Dude, come on, really?

1679
01:40:46,879 --> 01:40:49,548
I'm assuming you have a little more time,
you interrupting bastard.

1680
01:40:49,548 --> 01:40:51,092
Interrupt me in the middle
of my eulogy.

1681
01:40:51,092 --> 01:40:52,134
You're supposed to be dead.

1682
01:40:53,803 --> 01:40:56,305
But, um, when the scientists

1683
01:40:56,305 --> 01:40:59,058
from the future come to my house

1684
01:40:59,058 --> 01:41:01,435
with robot eyes,

1685
01:41:01,435 --> 01:41:04,146
and they tell me
to try them on...

1686
01:41:06,440 --> 01:41:08,025
...I'm gonna tell
those scientists

1687
01:41:08,025 --> 01:41:10,111
to piss off 'cause...

1688
01:41:10,111 --> 01:41:13,364
...'cause, Gus, I don't even
want to see a world without you.

1689
01:41:15,116 --> 01:41:18,703
I don't. I don't want to see
a world without Augustus Waters.

1690
01:41:21,831 --> 01:41:23,791
Then having made my point,

1691
01:41:23,791 --> 01:41:25,376
I'll probably put
the robot eyes on,

1692
01:41:25,376 --> 01:41:27,169
'cause, you know,
come on, they're robot eyes.

1693
01:41:27,169 --> 01:41:28,838
-Sounds awesome.

1694
01:41:30,089 --> 01:41:32,258
Yeah, I don't know.

1695
01:41:32,258 --> 01:41:35,678
Um, I just...
This is just so hard.

1696
01:41:35,678 --> 01:41:38,848
Um... Godspeed.

1697
01:41:40,391 --> 01:41:42,893
-Yeah.
-Hazel, can I get a hand here?

1698
01:41:52,528 --> 01:41:54,530
To the right a little bit.

1699
01:41:56,782 --> 01:41:58,951
Uh, yeah.
Now turn around, sit down.

1700
01:41:58,951 --> 01:42:00,745
There you go.

1701
01:42:04,749 --> 01:42:06,709
It's down to you, Hazel Grace.

1702
01:42:31,484 --> 01:42:33,319
Hello.

1703
01:42:33,319 --> 01:42:38,449
My name
is Hazel Grace Lancaster,

1704
01:42:38,449 --> 01:42:40,284
and Augustus Waters

1705
01:42:40,284 --> 01:42:43,329
was the star-crossed love
of my life.

1706
01:42:43,329 --> 01:42:45,414
Ours was an epic love story,

1707
01:42:45,414 --> 01:42:48,084
and I probably
won't be able to get

1708
01:42:48,084 --> 01:42:50,169
more than a sentence out
without disappearing

1709
01:42:50,169 --> 01:42:52,171
into a puddle of tears.

1710
01:42:54,298 --> 01:42:56,425
Like all real love stories,

1711
01:42:56,425 --> 01:43:00,262
ours will die with us,
as it should.

1712
01:43:03,015 --> 01:43:07,645
You know, I'd kind of hoped that
he'd be the one eulogizing me,

1713
01:43:07,645 --> 01:43:09,814
because there's really
no one else...

1714
01:43:13,734 --> 01:43:15,903
Yeah, no. Um...

1715
01:43:17,696 --> 01:43:20,449
I'm not gonna talk about
our love story because I can't.

1716
01:43:20,449 --> 01:43:25,162
So instead,
I'm gonna talk about math.

1717
01:43:26,705 --> 01:43:31,001
I am not a mathematician,
but I do know this.

1718
01:43:31,001 --> 01:43:33,671
There are infinite numbers
between zero and one.

1719
01:43:34,880 --> 01:43:39,176
There's .1, .12 and .112,

1720
01:43:39,176 --> 01:43:41,971
and an infinite collection
of others.

1721
01:43:43,556 --> 01:43:46,809
Of course, there is
a bigger infinite set of numbers

1722
01:43:46,809 --> 01:43:48,644
between zero and two.

1723
01:43:48,644 --> 01:43:52,898
Or between zero and a million.

1724
01:43:54,567 --> 01:43:58,154
Some infinities are simply
bigger than other infinities.

1725
01:44:00,072 --> 01:44:03,784
A writer that we used to
like taught us that.

1726
01:44:03,784 --> 01:44:07,455
-You know, I want more numbers

1727
01:44:07,455 --> 01:44:09,206
than I'm likely to get.

1728
01:44:12,042 --> 01:44:18,424
And, God, do I want more days
for Augustus Waters than what he got.

1729
01:44:22,803 --> 01:44:27,391
But, Gus, my love,

1730
01:44:27,391 --> 01:44:30,561
I cannot tell you
how thankful I am...

1731
01:44:32,271 --> 01:44:34,607
...for our little infinity.

1732
01:44:46,035 --> 01:44:47,203
Hold on.

1733
01:44:55,169 --> 01:44:56,879
You gave me a forever...

1734
01:44:58,923 --> 01:45:01,634
...within the numbered days,

1735
01:45:01,634 --> 01:45:06,847
and for that, I am...
I am eternally grateful.

1736
01:45:13,479 --> 01:45:15,397
I love you so much.

1737
01:45:19,026 --> 01:45:20,736
I love you, too.

1738
01:45:37,127 --> 01:45:38,671
HAZEL'
Hello?

1739
01:45:40,881 --> 01:45:45,302
<i> Augustus Waters died
eight days later in the ICU</i>

1740
01:45:45,302 --> 01:45:49,056
<i>when the cancer,
which was made of him,</i>

1741
01:45:49,056 --> 01:45:54,061
<i>stopped his heart,
which was also made of him.</i>

1742
01:46:53,329 --> 01:46:55,331
<i>It was unbearable.</i>

1743
01:46:55,331 --> 01:46:56,915
<i>The whole thing.</i>

1744
01:46:58,626 --> 01:47:00,628
<i>Every second worse
than the last.</i>

1745
01:47:06,592 --> 01:47:09,178
<i>One of the first things
they ask you in the E.R.</i>

1746
01:47:09,178 --> 01:47:11,430
<i>is to write your pain
on a scale from one to ten.</i>

1747
01:47:13,849 --> 01:47:16,018
<i>I've been asked this question
hundreds of times,</i>

1748
01:47:16,018 --> 01:47:18,395
<i>and I remember once,</i>

1749
01:47:18,395 --> 01:47:20,022
<i>when I couldn't catch
my breath</i>

1750
01:47:20,022 --> 01:47:23,150
<i>and it felt like
my chest was on fire,</i>

1751
01:47:23,150 --> 01:47:25,319
<i>the nurse asked me
to rate the pain.</i>

1752
01:47:25,319 --> 01:47:27,404
<i>Though I couldn't speak,
I held up nine fingers.</i>

1753
01:47:29,198 --> 01:47:31,200
<i>Later, when I started
feeling better,</i>

1754
01:47:31,200 --> 01:47:34,953
<i>the nurse came in
and she called me a fighter.</i>

1755
01:47:34,953 --> 01:47:37,539
<i>"You know how I know?"
she said.</i>

1756
01:47:37,539 --> 01:47:41,460
<i>"You called a ten a nine."</i>

1757
01:47:41,460 --> 01:47:43,337
<i>But that wasn't the truth.</i>

1758
01:47:43,337 --> 01:47:47,007
<i>I didn't call it a nine
because I was brave.</i>

1759
01:47:47,007 --> 01:47:49,843
<i>The reason I called it a nine</i>

1760
01:47:49,843 --> 01:47:52,763
<i>was because
I was saving my ten.</i>

1761
01:47:54,139 --> 01:47:55,891
<i>And this was it.</i>

1762
01:47:58,435 --> 01:48:00,479
<i>This was the great
and terrible ten.</i>

1763
01:48:00,479 --> 01:48:01,897
<i>"I will fear no evil,</i>

1764
01:48:01,897 --> 01:48:03,691
<i>for you are with me.</i>

1765
01:48:03,691 --> 01:48:06,985
Your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

1766
01:48:06,985 --> 01:48:11,240
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.

1767
01:48:11,240 --> 01:48:15,828
You anoint my head with oil.
My cup overflows.

1768
01:48:15,828 --> 01:48:17,830
Surely goodness and love
will follow me

1769
01:48:17,830 --> 01:48:20,207
all the days of my life.

1770
01:48:20,207 --> 01:48:24,586
And I will dwell in the house
of the Lord forever."

1771
01:48:26,380 --> 01:48:30,467
Augustus Waters
fought hard for many years.

1772
01:48:30,467 --> 01:48:34,471
His battle was a courageous one,

1773
01:48:34,471 --> 01:48:35,973
-and his strength...

1774
01:48:35,973 --> 01:48:37,516
What a load of shit, huh, kid?

1775
01:48:37,516 --> 01:48:40,352
...was a source of inspiration
for each and every one of us.

1776
01:48:42,229 --> 01:48:43,355
Let us pray.

1777
01:48:45,399 --> 01:48:47,693
We thank you, Lord, for the
life of Augustus Waters...

1778
01:48:47,693 --> 01:48:49,778
We need to fake-pray now.

1779
01:48:49,778 --> 01:48:52,614
...for his strength
and his courage.

1780
01:48:52,614 --> 01:48:55,534
And, Lord, we ask that you
be with us today,

1781
01:48:55,534 --> 01:48:58,579
that you be close, that you
comfort his friends and family.

1782
01:48:58,579 --> 01:49:01,331
Thank you for your
presence, Lord.

1783
01:49:01,331 --> 01:49:03,625
All this we pray in Jesus' name.

1784
01:49:03,625 --> 01:49:04,918
Amen.

1785
01:49:04,918 --> 01:49:06,754
Amen.

1786
01:49:06,754 --> 01:49:11,675
Now we are going to hear
from Gus's special friend,

1787
01:49:11,675 --> 01:49:13,761
Hazel Lancaster.

1788
01:49:24,730 --> 01:49:28,609
Not that it really matters,
but I was his girlfriend.

1789
01:50:08,774 --> 01:50:12,736
There's a beautiful quote
in Gus's home that reads,

1790
01:50:12,736 --> 01:50:15,489
"If you want the rainbow,
you have to deal with the rain."

1791
01:50:18,617 --> 01:50:22,871
Even in his last few days, um...

1792
01:50:22,871 --> 01:50:24,414
<i>I didn't believe a word.</i>

1793
01:50:24,414 --> 01:50:27,251
...he was always able
to crack a smile.

1794
01:50:27,251 --> 01:50:29,253
<i>But that's okay.</i>

1795
01:50:29,253 --> 01:50:31,004
...and to make you
feel better...

1796
01:50:31,004 --> 01:50:34,383
<i>I knew this was
the right thing to do.</i>

1797
01:50:34,383 --> 01:50:39,972
<i>Funerals, I'd decided,
are not for the dead.</i>

1798
01:50:39,972 --> 01:50:41,932
<i>They're for the living.</i>

1799
01:50:41,932 --> 01:50:44,017
Hey, want some company?

1800
01:50:44,017 --> 01:50:45,435
No, I'm okay.

1801
01:50:45,435 --> 01:50:48,939
I'm just gonna drive
for a bit... by myself.

1802
01:50:48,939 --> 01:50:51,483
Love you.

1803
01:50:52,317 --> 01:50:54,069
Bye.

1804
01:50:54,069 --> 01:50:56,655
You spoke beautifully.

1805
01:50:56,655 --> 01:50:58,115
I'll see you soon. Drive safe.

1806
01:50:58,115 --> 01:50:59,825
Okay.

1807
01:51:23,307 --> 01:51:24,850
May I?

1808
01:51:27,811 --> 01:51:30,647
<i>"Omnis cellula e cellula."</i>

1809
01:51:32,733 --> 01:51:36,278
Your boy Waters and I corresponded
quite a bit in his last days.

1810
01:51:36,278 --> 01:51:38,655
Oh, so you read
your fan mail now?

1811
01:51:38,655 --> 01:51:40,741
I wouldn't exactly
call him a fan.

1812
01:51:40,741 --> 01:51:42,200
He detested me.

1813
01:51:42,200 --> 01:51:46,538
But he was quite insistent
I attend his funeral

1814
01:51:46,538 --> 01:51:48,707
and tell you what became
of Anna and her mother,

1815
01:51:48,707 --> 01:51:50,918
so here I am.

1816
01:51:50,918 --> 01:51:53,587
And that's your answer:
<i>"Omnis cellula e cellula."</i>

1817
01:51:53,587 --> 01:51:54,880
"Life comes from life."

1818
01:51:56,298 --> 01:51:57,633
I'm really not in the mood.

1819
01:51:57,633 --> 01:51:58,800
You don't want
an explanation?

1820
01:51:58,800 --> 01:52:00,260
No, I don't.

1821
01:52:00,260 --> 01:52:01,470
Thank you, though.

1822
01:52:01,470 --> 01:52:02,888
Have a great life.

1823
01:52:02,888 --> 01:52:04,723
You remind me of her.

1824
01:52:06,391 --> 01:52:08,852
I remind a lot of people
of a lot of people.

1825
01:52:10,103 --> 01:52:11,855
My daughter was eight.

1826
01:52:13,732 --> 01:52:18,195
She suffered...
beautifully for so long.

1827
01:52:20,614 --> 01:52:22,824
She have leukemia like Anna?

1828
01:52:22,824 --> 01:52:25,577
Just like Anna.

1829
01:52:27,913 --> 01:52:32,167
I'm...
very sorry for your loss.

1830
01:52:32,167 --> 01:52:35,671
And I'm sorry for yours, and I'm
sorry for ruining your trip.

1831
01:52:35,671 --> 01:52:40,425
You didn't ruin our trip.
We had an amazing trip.

1832
01:52:41,885 --> 01:52:45,889
Are you... familiar
with the trolley problem?

1833
01:52:45,889 --> 01:52:48,725
There's a thought experiment
in the field

1834
01:52:48,725 --> 01:52:51,728
of ethics known
as the trolley problem.

1835
01:52:51,728 --> 01:52:54,106
Philippa Foot
was an English philosopher...

1836
01:52:54,106 --> 01:52:55,148
Oh, my God.

1837
01:52:55,148 --> 01:52:58,068
Hazel, I... I'm trying to
explain something to you.

1838
01:52:58,068 --> 01:52:59,736
I'm trying to give you
what you wanted.

1839
01:52:59,736 --> 01:53:02,489
No, you're not. You are a drunk,
and you're a failure,

1840
01:53:02,489 --> 01:53:04,032
and I need you to get
out of my car right now

1841
01:53:04,032 --> 01:53:07,244
so that I can go home
and be by myself and grieve.

1842
01:53:08,829 --> 01:53:10,539
You'll want to read this.

1843
01:53:13,000 --> 01:53:14,209
I don't want to read anything.

1844
01:53:14,209 --> 01:53:16,003
Can you just get out of my car?

1845
01:53:21,299 --> 01:53:23,468
-Please get out of my car!
-Fine.

1846
01:54:30,660 --> 01:54:32,204
Can I come in?

1847
01:54:44,174 --> 01:54:45,926
I'm so, so sorry.

1848
01:54:48,011 --> 01:54:49,679
Yeah.

1849
01:54:56,186 --> 01:54:58,814
It was a privilege,
though, wasn't it?

1850
01:55:00,107 --> 01:55:01,900
To love him?

1851
01:55:14,121 --> 01:55:16,748
Gives you an idea
how we feel about you.

1852
01:55:24,798 --> 01:55:26,508
Hazel?

1853
01:55:26,508 --> 01:55:30,220
There's a friend here
to see you.

1854
01:55:30,220 --> 01:55:34,182
Do you know if
it hurt or whatever?

1855
01:55:34,182 --> 01:55:38,061
Apparently, he was struggling
for breath for a long time,

1856
01:55:38,061 --> 01:55:41,523
and then eventually,
he just went unconscious.

1857
01:55:41,523 --> 01:55:43,984
It wasn't great or anything.

1858
01:55:43,984 --> 01:55:46,027
Dying sucks.

1859
01:55:48,572 --> 01:55:50,407
Gus really loved you, you know?

1860
01:55:50,407 --> 01:55:52,159
I know.

1861
01:55:54,661 --> 01:55:56,496
He wouldn't
shut up about it.

1862
01:55:56,496 --> 01:55:58,248
Yeah.

1863
01:55:58,248 --> 01:56:00,458
It was annoying; he talked
about you so much.

1864
01:56:00,458 --> 01:56:02,627
I didn't find it
that annoying.

1865
01:56:02,627 --> 01:56:05,714
I know, I know you didn't.

1866
01:56:13,972 --> 01:56:16,433
Did you get that letter
from your author friend?

1867
01:56:16,433 --> 01:56:18,560
No, he's not my friend.

1868
01:56:18,560 --> 01:56:20,645
-How do you know about that?
-Well, I was talking

1869
01:56:20,645 --> 01:56:22,814
to him at the cemetery, and...

1870
01:56:22,814 --> 01:56:26,026
...he said he came all this way
to give that letter to you.

1871
01:56:26,026 --> 01:56:28,236
Yeah, well, I'm over it.

1872
01:56:28,236 --> 01:56:29,988
I have no interest
in reading another word

1873
01:56:29,988 --> 01:56:31,615
of that asshole's again.

1874
01:56:31,615 --> 01:56:33,658
No, he didn't write it;
Gus wrote it.

1875
01:56:33,658 --> 01:56:35,035
What?

1876
01:56:35,035 --> 01:56:36,494
Apparently,
Gus wrote something down,

1877
01:56:36,494 --> 01:56:38,205
and then sent it
to Van Houten.

1878
01:56:41,208 --> 01:56:43,710
Oh, my God.

1879
01:56:51,384 --> 01:56:54,054
<i>Mr. Van Houten,</i>

1880
01:56:54,054 --> 01:56:56,097
<i>I'm a good person
but a shitty writer.</i>

1881
01:56:56,097 --> 01:56:59,267
<i>You're a shitty person
but a good writer.</i>

1882
01:56:59,267 --> 01:57:01,770
<i>I think we'd make a good team.</i>

1883
01:57:01,770 --> 01:57:03,730
<i>I don't want to ask you
for any favors,</i>

1884
01:57:03,730 --> 01:57:05,398
<i>but if you have the time,</i>

1885
01:57:05,398 --> 01:57:07,025
<i>and from what I saw,
you have plenty,</i>

1886
01:57:07,025 --> 01:57:08,818
<i>please fix this for me.</i>

1887
01:57:08,818 --> 01:57:11,196
<i>It's a eulogy for Hazel.</i>

1888
01:57:14,741 --> 01:57:16,785
<i>She asked me to write one,
and I'm trying.</i>

1889
01:57:16,785 --> 01:57:20,205
<i>I just...
I could use a little flair.</i>

1890
01:57:20,205 --> 01:57:24,084
<i>See, the thing is,
we all want to be remembered.</i>

1891
01:57:26,002 --> 01:57:27,420
<i>But Hazel's different.</i>

1892
01:57:27,420 --> 01:57:28,588
My bad.

1893
01:57:28,588 --> 01:57:30,340
<i>Hazel knows the truth.</i>

1894
01:57:30,340 --> 01:57:32,259
<i>She didn't want
a million admirers.</i>

1895
01:57:32,259 --> 01:57:35,762
<i>She just wanted one,
and she got it.</i>

1896
01:57:35,762 --> 01:57:39,766
<i>Maybe she wasn't loved widely,
but she was loved deeply,</i>

1897
01:57:39,766 --> 01:57:42,143
<i>and isn't that more
than most of us get?</i>

1898
01:57:44,187 --> 01:57:47,524
<i>When Hazel was sick,
I knew I was dying,</i>

1899
01:57:47,524 --> 01:57:49,818
<i>but I didn't want to say so.</i>

1900
01:57:54,739 --> 01:57:57,617
<i>She was in the ICU,
and I snuck in for ten minutes,</i>

1901
01:57:57,617 --> 01:58:00,078
<i>and I sat with her
before I got caught.</i>

1902
01:58:02,038 --> 01:58:04,749
<i>Her eyes were closed,
her skin pale,</i>

1903
01:58:04,749 --> 01:58:08,253
<i>but her hands were still
her hands, still warm,</i>

1904
01:58:08,253 --> 01:58:11,214
<i>and her nails were painted
this dark blue-black color,</i>

1905
01:58:11,214 --> 01:58:14,301
<i>and I just held them.</i>

1906
01:58:14,301 --> 01:58:17,178
<i>And I willed myself to imagine
a world without us,</i>

1907
01:58:17,178 --> 01:58:19,556
<i>and what a worthless world
that would be.</i>

1908
01:58:22,809 --> 01:58:26,104
<i>She's so beautiful.</i>

1909
01:58:26,104 --> 01:58:28,106
<i>You don't get tired
of looking at her.</i>

1910
01:58:28,106 --> 01:58:29,816
<i>You never worry
if she's smarter than you,</i>

1911
01:58:29,816 --> 01:58:32,819
<i>'cause you know she is.</i>

1912
01:58:32,819 --> 01:58:35,196
<i>She's funny
without ever being mean.</i>

1913
01:58:37,532 --> 01:58:39,576
<i>I love her.</i>

1914
01:58:39,576 --> 01:58:43,121
<i>God, I love her. I'm so lucky
to love her, Van Houten.</i>

1915
01:58:51,129 --> 01:58:53,798
<i>You don't get to choose
if you get hurt in this world,</i>

1916
01:58:53,798 --> 01:58:57,552
<i>but you do have a say
in who hurts you,</i>

1917
01:58:57,552 --> 01:59:00,472
<i>and I like my choices.</i>

1918
01:59:00,472 --> 01:59:02,974
<i>I hope she likes hers.</i>

1919
01:59:02,974 --> 01:59:05,560
<i>Okay, Hazel Grace?</i>

1920
01:59:08,146 --> 01:59:09,898
Okay.