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My name is RJ Smith.

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My name is RJ Smith

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or Elder Smith now.

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I'm a member of the Church
of Jesus Christ of

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the Latter-Day Saints

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or you can use the
acronym IDS if you wish.

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I'm 20 years old.

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And in two days, I will
leave for my mission.

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This is my mother,

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my father

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and my sister Mary Anne.

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We are told at a young age
that it is our duty as men.

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We are told at a young age
that it is our duty as men

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to serve God in two
years in missionary service.

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Mormons are told, if you serve
our mission faithfully,

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and well, you will be
a better husband,

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father, student and a
better worker

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in your chosen vocation.

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I've been brought
up to believe this.

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I know the Church is true.

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And I say these things in
the name of Jesus Christ,

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amen.

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This is my farewell party.

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This is my girlfriend Elise.

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We've never done
anything past a few pecks,

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some nuzzling and
some dry humping.

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She's a real sweetheart.

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This is how I
end every night...

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with a prayer.

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This is how I
begin every morning...

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still praying.

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John!

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Hey, thanks for coming.

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I appreciate it.
I appreciate it.

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Enjoy that food.

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It's great to see you.

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Remember when he was this tall?

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Yeah.

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Whatever, you're-
you're looking great.

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And he's gonna be
quite the world's traveler.

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Family home evening:
Food, board games,

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charades, scripture reading.

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Mormon faith truly is a
benefactor of wholesomeness.

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Mormon faith truly is a
benefactor of wholesomeness.

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This is the MTC,

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or "Missionary Training Center".

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Where elders prepare
for the mission field.

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At first, I held some
animosity about only going

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six hours away from
home from my mission work.

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Six hours away from
home from my mission work.

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But I realized,
our Heavenly Father

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has sent me there for a reason.

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That's the building.

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How was the bus ride?

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Good.

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Kind of smell like diaper the
whole way but, you know...

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You get your own set of keys.

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So bathroom...

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closet.

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This is it.

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Yeah, kitchen in there.

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It's perfect.

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Yeah. It's a great
neighborhood too.

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You'll love it.

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So, I hear you're
quite the athlete.

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Uh, I'm okay.

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Well, I've always heard it
said don't be so modest.

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You're not that
great, you know?

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So, this is Elder Merrill's
bed and this one is yours,

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so keep it tidy.

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Where is Elder
Merrill by the way?

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Uh, he's should
be in a meeting.

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But, uh, you'll
meet him soon enough.

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So, tell me about
him. What's he like?

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So, tell me about
him. What's he like?

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Elder Merrill?

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Um, his father is the
member of the first quorum,

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but I'm sure you
already knew that.

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Um, he reads a lot.

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He eats "Lucky Charms" like
they're going out of style.

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I don't... is it... is
there something specific

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you want to know?

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No, I was just wondering.

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Oh.

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Well, you'll meet
him soon enough.

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But sometimes, companionships
don't work out.

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If that's the case, then,
we'll find somebody you are

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more compatible with or you
can just wait a few months

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and you may have a new
mission companion anyhow.

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Hey.

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Hey.

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Elder Harris.

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And you must be
my new companion.

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Uh, Elder Smith.

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Yes.

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And you must be Elder Merrill.

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Yeah, that's me.
Glad to meet you.

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So, uh, did Elder Harris show
you around a little bit?

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Yeah, a little.

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Well, I should let you
guys get more acquainted.

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I look forward to getting
your reports

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and I'm sure I'll
see you around.

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Goodbye, Elder Harris.

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Thanks for the ride.

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No problem.

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He's nice.

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Yeah.

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I have to tell you how
happy I am to be here...

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very excited.

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Uh, I'm also looking forward to
starting my missionary work.

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Good.

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Good that's, uh, good to know.

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Would you like to start
this companionship off

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with a prayer?

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Yes, definitely.

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- Are you all right?
- Yeah.

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So, where are you from again?

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- Salt Lake City.
- Oh.

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- You're from Idaho, right?
- Yeah, yeah.

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Where were you
serving before you're here?

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I was on the coast.

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Oh, uh, cool.

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So, what would you like to do?

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Uh, I like sports.

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Besides competition,
I'm a drummer.

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Um, I'm learning how
to play the guitar.

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Kind of, I didn't
bring it down or anything.

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How about you?

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I don't know.

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I'm just been doing the
missionary thing for so long.

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Um, I guess being a
missionary is all I do.

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Do you have a girlfriend
back at home?

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No. Fortunately.

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No. Fortunately.

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Do you have a girlfriend?

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Oh, yeah.

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We've been together
for a while.

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What's her name?

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Elise.

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Oh.

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How long you guys
have been dating?

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Um, three years.

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Wow.

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- You got a picture?
- Oh, yeah.

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Oh, she's pretty.

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I know thanks.

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- Are you done?
- Oh, yeah. Thanks.

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We just have a lot to
go over so...

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Okay...

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Okay...

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so, I have some
planning to do for tomorrow.

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Um, we need to get
you a bike first thing.

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So, how about, why don't you go
ahead and just get some sleep.

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I know you've had a long drive.

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And we will start bright
early tomorrow morning.

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The drive actually
wasn't that bad.

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Are you sure you don't
need help with anything?

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Oh, no, no. It's okay.

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You get some rest
and... oh, by the way,

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the left side of the dresser
is yours and also

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the top shelf of the fridge is
yours if you need it.

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- Thanks.
- Yep.

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Have you reached
a stopping point, Elder?

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Yeah. I think so.

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Okay. So, today, we
have a meeting at noon

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with David Fellows,

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but first, I wanted to
take you and get a bike.

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Um, then from 2:00 o' clock on,

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I'm gonna take you out
and do some tracting.

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Next week, we have a
couple of meetings

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with some investigators.

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One of which is Lydia Davis,
who is a possible convert.

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Okay.

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That's pretty much it.
Are you ready?

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I'm ready.

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All right.

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How are you doing, ma'am?

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I'm alright.

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- Yeah? You're doing alright?
- Yeah.

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Having a good day?

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- So far.
- Good, good.

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Well, my name is Elder Merrill.

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I'm with the Jesus Christ of
Latter-Day Saints.

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Oh. Oh, hello.

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- Trina.
- Trina.

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Okay. And there's a card inside
with my name and number on it,

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Okay. And there's a card inside
with my name and number on it,

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if you like to give me a call.

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- But this is yours to keep.
- Okay.

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Please don't feel...
I mean, no pressure, really.

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But, I really thank you
for your time.

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- It was a pleasure to meet you.
- You're very welcome.

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- Have a nice day.
- Okay.

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- Thank you.
- God bless you.

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Really good job.

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Thank you.

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- I'm gonna get another.
- Hello...

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- Hi. How ya doing?
- Good. My name is Elder Smith.

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How did you... how
did you do that?

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Hi, my name is Elder Smith.

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I am with the Church of Jesus
Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

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I am with the Church of Jesus
Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

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Nice dog.

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How did you do that?

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How I do what?

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That lady?

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No. I mean... It, it's unreal,
I mean...

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It... it does... What
you need to do...

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I did it!

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First one.

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Congratulations!

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- All right.
- Good for you.

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Hug?

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It's all right.

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- Okay.
- Okay.

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It's that... you know,
we just don't want to...

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Yeah. I just got of
energy, all right.

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Yeah. I just got of
energy, all right.

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How'd that feel? You feel good?

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Yeah. Yeah.

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I got these tablets,
transcribed them into

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what we have today...
the Book of Mormon.

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Do you guys subscribe
to any religion?

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No. No.

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Well...

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- Actually, we kinda need to go.
- Alright.

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I didn't think it was gonna take
this long.

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Thanks anyway.

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All right. All right.
Nice meeting you.

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Not bad.

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No, you could have
offered them...

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- The Book?
- Bible passage.

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But, I don't know if they
would have taken it.

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- Yes.
- You are? Okay, so, good.

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Can-can you tell us a
little bit about what you know?

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Can-can you tell us a
little bit about what you know?

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Well, I know that
it's not anything

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I'm interested in.

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Okay.

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I'm Christian, very
strong Christian.

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I don't know.

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Okay. Well, do you know
who Joseph Smith is?

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No.

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Actually, you know,
I was getting ready

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to go to this concert.

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Oh, okay.

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Hi, how'd it go?

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It was good.
We did some tracting.

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Any Baptisms? Conversions?

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00:15:05,947 --> 00:15:06,989
Not yet.

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00:15:08,741 --> 00:15:11,828
Well, uh, maybe you're not cut
out for this Elder Smith.

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I'm just kidding.

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Uh, sisters, there's a gentleman
I'd like you all to meet.

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Sister Tulsa, Sister Bran,
Sister Olsen.

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Hi.

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This is Elder Smith.

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Nice to meet you Sisters.

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It's nice meeting you, too.

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And you all know Elder Merrill,
of course.

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How are you Sisters?

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How are you doing?

262
00:15:26,384 --> 00:15:27,968
Very well, thanks.

263
00:15:27,969 --> 00:15:28,477
Sister Tulsa was just about to
show a visitor around the ward.

264
00:15:28,478 --> 00:15:29,594
Sister Tulsa was just about to
show a visitor around the ward.

265
00:15:29,595 --> 00:15:30,846
Would you like a tour perhaps?

266
00:15:30,847 --> 00:15:32,097
- Oh, sure.
- Oh, great.

267
00:15:32,098 --> 00:15:33,140
Well, come this way.

268
00:15:33,141 --> 00:15:34,434
That's great.

269
00:16:46,255 --> 00:16:47,673
Watch the steps.

270
00:17:00,019 --> 00:17:02,230
At least, we're getting...
we'll be here later.

271
00:17:06,776 --> 00:17:07,859
Um, six, six?

272
00:17:07,860 --> 00:17:08,694
Yeah.

273
00:17:20,206 --> 00:17:21,331
Are you boys selling something?

274
00:17:21,332 --> 00:17:22,792
- No, sir.
- No.

275
00:17:23,334 --> 00:17:24,793
What do you want then?

276
00:17:24,794 --> 00:17:26,378
Are you, uh, Jehovah's
Witnesses or something?

277
00:17:26,379 --> 00:17:28,046
Oh, no, we're from
the Church of.

278
00:17:28,047 --> 00:17:30,215
Jesus Christ of
Latter-Day Saints.

279
00:17:30,216 --> 00:17:32,717
Oh. Thank you boys
for coming by

280
00:17:32,718 --> 00:17:35,345
but I'm not a very
religious man.

281
00:17:35,346 --> 00:17:36,369
Oh, well, maybe I could just,

282
00:17:36,370 --> 00:17:36,722
Oh, well, maybe I could just,

283
00:17:36,723 --> 00:17:38,306
maybe a Book of Mormon?

284
00:17:38,307 --> 00:17:41,309
And highlight some scriptures
for you to read and,

285
00:17:41,310 --> 00:17:45,939
uh, I'll leave you my number
and you... and you guys and

286
00:17:45,940 --> 00:17:47,941
you can get a hold of
us anytime you have any

287
00:17:47,942 --> 00:17:50,152
questions or concerns.

288
00:17:50,528 --> 00:17:52,488
That-that'd be
all right, I guess.

289
00:17:53,155 --> 00:17:54,572
Thank you boys for coming by,

290
00:17:54,573 --> 00:17:55,782
have-have a nice day.

291
00:17:55,783 --> 00:17:56,825
Yeah. Here you go. You too.

292
00:17:56,826 --> 00:17:57,702
Thanks.

293
00:18:02,206 --> 00:18:04,791
Dear Mom, Dad, and Mary Anne,

294
00:18:04,792 --> 00:18:06,369
mission life has
been going well.

295
00:18:06,370 --> 00:18:06,794
Mission life has
been going well.

296
00:18:06,795 --> 00:18:09,130
And I think I'm getting
into the swing of things.

297
00:18:09,463 --> 00:18:12,049
The life of a missionary
is very routined.

298
00:18:12,341 --> 00:18:13,925
We rise early.

299
00:18:13,926 --> 00:18:17,138
After we pray, Elder Merrill
and I will go on a run.

300
00:18:18,180 --> 00:18:20,265
After we had breakfast
and washed up,

301
00:18:20,266 --> 00:18:22,143
we do our scriptures study.

302
00:18:22,935 --> 00:18:24,812
We are usually out
the door by 8 AM.

303
00:18:27,023 --> 00:18:30,901
Missionaries will talk about
their gospel anywhere, anytime.

304
00:18:31,402 --> 00:18:35,196
We spent most of our
day giving lessons,

305
00:18:35,197 --> 00:18:36,369
tracting for those
interested in the

306
00:18:36,370 --> 00:18:36,741
tracting for those
interested in the

307
00:18:36,742 --> 00:18:39,868
truthfulness of
the Book of Mormon,

308
00:18:39,869 --> 00:18:43,331
upholding appointments
with investigators,

309
00:18:44,874 --> 00:18:47,543
and planning for
upcoming meetings.

310
00:18:48,002 --> 00:18:50,963
Once a week we have
"P-day" or "Personal Day."

311
00:18:51,589 --> 00:18:53,298
We send letters to
our family and do

312
00:18:53,299 --> 00:18:56,009
extra-curricular activities.

313
00:18:56,010 --> 00:18:58,410
Despite being called every name
in the book on a daily basis,

314
00:18:59,430 --> 00:19:03,267
things overall are going well
and have been smooth thus far.

315
00:19:04,393 --> 00:19:06,369
I miss you all
and love you all.

316
00:19:06,370 --> 00:19:07,229
I miss you all
and love you all.

317
00:19:07,521 --> 00:19:08,481
RJ.

318
00:19:17,865 --> 00:19:19,240
You must be Elder Merrill.

319
00:19:19,241 --> 00:19:20,116
Yes, sir.

320
00:19:20,117 --> 00:19:21,242
I'm Jim.

321
00:19:21,243 --> 00:19:22,327
Nice to meet you.

322
00:19:22,328 --> 00:19:23,244
And you are?

323
00:19:23,245 --> 00:19:24,412
Elder Smith.

324
00:19:24,413 --> 00:19:25,330
Yeah. Come on in.

325
00:19:25,331 --> 00:19:26,457
Thank you.

326
00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:35,423
So, Joseph Smith retired
to the forest on a beautiful

327
00:19:35,424 --> 00:19:36,369
clear spring day in year 1823.

328
00:19:36,370 --> 00:19:38,636
Clear spring day in year 1823.

329
00:19:39,470 --> 00:19:42,806
He knelt down and he began
to offer the desires of his

330
00:19:42,807 --> 00:19:46,810
heart to God when all of a
sudden he was seized upon by

331
00:19:46,811 --> 00:19:49,437
a power that
completely overcame him.

332
00:19:49,438 --> 00:19:53,858
It was so strong he-
he couldn't speak...

333
00:19:53,859 --> 00:19:57,028
and exerting all of his
energy to call upon God to

334
00:19:57,029 --> 00:20:02,367
deliver him from the grasp
of the enemy that had taken

335
00:20:02,368 --> 00:20:03,868
a hold of him.

336
00:20:03,869 --> 00:20:06,369
At the moment that he was
ready to sink into despair...

337
00:20:06,370 --> 00:20:07,914
At the moment that he was
ready to sink into despair...

338
00:20:07,915 --> 00:20:11,459
to completely give
himself into annihilation,

339
00:20:11,460 --> 00:20:16,464
not to some imaginary ruin
but to the power of some

340
00:20:16,465 --> 00:20:20,343
actual being from an unseen
world with miraculous powers

341
00:20:20,344 --> 00:20:25,433
that he had never felt at
that moment of greatest alarm.

342
00:20:26,434 --> 00:20:32,605
He saw a pillar of light
directly above his head

343
00:20:32,606 --> 00:20:34,983
and brighter than
the sun until it

344
00:20:34,984 --> 00:20:36,369
descended gradually onto him.

345
00:20:36,370 --> 00:20:38,446
Descended gradually onto him.

346
00:20:40,781 --> 00:20:43,909
Then, two personages
appeared unto him.

347
00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:47,912
One pointed to
the other and said,

348
00:20:47,913 --> 00:20:53,794
"This is my beloved
son. Hear Him."

349
00:20:55,921 --> 00:20:57,965
This was the first vision.

350
00:21:02,928 --> 00:21:06,369
We know the Book
of Mormon is true.

351
00:21:06,370 --> 00:21:06,682
We know the Book
of Mormon is true.

352
00:21:06,683 --> 00:21:09,100
Elder Smith and I can tell
you in detail how it has

353
00:21:09,101 --> 00:21:12,562
changed our lives and
the lives of our families.

354
00:21:12,563 --> 00:21:15,023
It's brought us closer
together and I know it will

355
00:21:15,024 --> 00:21:17,735
do the same for
you and your family.

356
00:21:22,406 --> 00:21:24,492
Maybe I can be more specific.

357
00:21:25,451 --> 00:21:26,535
Sure.

358
00:21:29,121 --> 00:21:33,500
Where does Jesus, tell us
that we need to be married

359
00:21:33,501 --> 00:21:36,369
in a temple for eternity to get
to the highest level of glory?

360
00:21:36,370 --> 00:21:37,713
In a temple for eternity to get
to the highest level of glory?

361
00:21:38,672 --> 00:21:41,674
Uh, that's in the
Doctrine of Covenants.

362
00:21:41,675 --> 00:21:43,844
Can I look at your
scriptures for a minute?

363
00:21:44,345 --> 00:21:45,429
Yeah.

364
00:21:51,143 --> 00:21:53,020
See it's uh...

365
00:21:54,480 --> 00:21:55,481
Thank you.

366
00:22:06,992 --> 00:22:08,494
Okay, this is it.

367
00:22:13,290 --> 00:22:16,502
Isn't this a
revelation on polygamy?

368
00:22:17,086 --> 00:22:18,419
Uh, no.

369
00:22:18,420 --> 00:22:20,506
It's, uh, it's on
eternal marriage.

370
00:22:21,924 --> 00:22:25,469
It states that under certain
circumstances

371
00:22:26,470 --> 00:22:27,972
it allows plural marriages.

372
00:22:29,265 --> 00:22:30,349
Okay.

373
00:22:31,433 --> 00:22:36,369
So, under what circumstances
does God allow it under?

374
00:22:36,370 --> 00:22:36,647
So, under what circumstances
does God allow it under?

375
00:22:37,606 --> 00:22:39,482
Joseph Smith was
practicing polygamy

376
00:22:39,483 --> 00:22:41,025
long before this revelation.

377
00:22:41,026 --> 00:22:44,362
Well, polygamy here was only
accepted for the purpose of

378
00:22:44,363 --> 00:22:46,614
spreading seed as
it states in Jacob.

379
00:22:46,615 --> 00:22:48,074
Okay.

380
00:22:48,075 --> 00:22:50,285
So, how many children did
Joseph Smith have outside of

381
00:22:50,286 --> 00:22:52,454
his marriage to Emma?

382
00:22:54,623 --> 00:22:56,375
I don't see how
that's important.

383
00:22:57,293 --> 00:22:59,419
To see if he was
practicing polygamy to

384
00:22:59,420 --> 00:23:01,422
spread his seed...

385
00:23:05,009 --> 00:23:06,369
Do you know what
they called him?

386
00:23:06,370 --> 00:23:07,650
Do you know what
they called him?

387
00:23:07,886 --> 00:23:09,470
I've heard a few of
the names, yes.

388
00:23:09,471 --> 00:23:11,640
They called him the
Glass Looker.

389
00:23:13,267 --> 00:23:17,729
Glass Lookers weren't uncommon
in New York around 1820.

390
00:23:17,730 --> 00:23:19,647
They were con men.

391
00:23:19,648 --> 00:23:21,399
Shisters.

392
00:23:21,400 --> 00:23:25,404
They claimed they could find
treasure buried by Native Americans.

393
00:23:25,696 --> 00:23:30,658
They would look into stone or
glass and peer into a hat and...

394
00:23:30,659 --> 00:23:32,410
find the imaginary treasure.

395
00:23:32,411 --> 00:23:33,494
We've all heard that.

396
00:23:33,495 --> 00:23:34,663
Well have you heard this?

397
00:23:35,581 --> 00:23:36,369
One of his wives was
thirteen years old.

398
00:23:36,370 --> 00:23:38,626
One of his wives was
thirteen years old.

399
00:23:39,251 --> 00:23:43,130
So not only was he a polygamist,
he was a pedophile.

400
00:23:46,967 --> 00:23:47,968
Well.

401
00:23:50,721 --> 00:23:52,765
It's clear that we have been...

402
00:23:53,599 --> 00:23:56,518
brought here under
false pretenses.

403
00:23:57,561 --> 00:23:59,979
It's also clear that you have
done some preparation

404
00:23:59,980 --> 00:24:02,023
for our meeting tonight.

405
00:24:02,024 --> 00:24:06,369
And are far more knowledgeable in our
scriptures than you have led us to believe.

406
00:24:06,370 --> 00:24:06,570
And are far more knowledgeable in our
scriptures than you have led us to believe.

407
00:24:07,613 --> 00:24:10,449
I'm sorry, but, I don't...

408
00:24:10,783 --> 00:24:13,284
I don't think we can
go any further.

409
00:24:13,285 --> 00:24:14,827
Wait a minute, I'm
not trying to...

410
00:24:14,828 --> 00:24:16,204
Let's go Elder.

411
00:24:16,205 --> 00:24:18,285
You know, nothing that I've said
is untrue. Elders...

412
00:24:43,691 --> 00:24:45,150
Elder Merrill...

413
00:24:49,780 --> 00:24:52,032
- Elder Merrill.
- Yes?!

414
00:24:55,744 --> 00:24:57,204
Are you okay?

415
00:25:01,667 --> 00:25:02,876
I'm fine.

416
00:25:06,213 --> 00:25:06,370
Are you sure?

417
00:25:06,371 --> 00:25:07,423
Are you sure?

418
00:25:10,843 --> 00:25:12,636
I'll be okay, I just...

419
00:25:15,597 --> 00:25:16,931
I just can't believe
some of the things

420
00:25:16,932 --> 00:25:18,517
that that guy was saying.

421
00:25:22,938 --> 00:25:24,022
I'm sorry.

422
00:25:27,943 --> 00:25:30,279
I'm supposed to
be your Senior Elder.

423
00:25:31,321 --> 00:25:32,531
I'm sorry that...

424
00:25:33,866 --> 00:25:36,034
you saw me lose control there.

425
00:25:36,326 --> 00:25:36,370
It's okay.

426
00:25:36,371 --> 00:25:37,535
It's okay.

427
00:25:37,536 --> 00:25:39,288
You didn't lose control.

428
00:25:46,253 --> 00:25:49,589
Why would that guy
invite us to dinner

429
00:25:49,590 --> 00:25:51,717
just to ambush us like that?

430
00:25:55,345 --> 00:25:56,847
I'm not sure.

431
00:26:04,980 --> 00:26:06,273
Hmm...

432
00:26:07,232 --> 00:26:09,067
I wanted some dessert.

433
00:26:12,446 --> 00:26:13,739
What?

434
00:26:15,783 --> 00:26:17,408
I wanted some dessert.

435
00:26:17,409 --> 00:26:19,411
Those brownies smelled amazing.

436
00:26:21,830 --> 00:26:22,831
What?

437
00:26:24,082 --> 00:26:25,250
What?

438
00:26:25,751 --> 00:26:29,004
I- I've never been so serious.

439
00:26:29,880 --> 00:26:31,255
I-I know, I believe you.

440
00:26:31,256 --> 00:26:32,590
This is my serious face.

441
00:26:32,591 --> 00:26:35,093
That's your serious face. Yeah.

442
00:26:35,094 --> 00:26:36,369
I love, I would love to see
your serious face someday.

443
00:26:36,370 --> 00:26:38,490
I love, I would love to see
your serious face someday.

444
00:26:41,058 --> 00:26:42,434
Is that it?

445
00:26:43,227 --> 00:26:44,603
Is that your serious face?

446
00:26:46,104 --> 00:26:47,773
It's a good serious face.

447
00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:57,532
Now, there are
three degrees of glory,

448
00:26:57,533 --> 00:27:00,618
first, the celestial kingdom
which is the highest kingdom.

449
00:27:00,619 --> 00:27:03,121
The terrestrial kingdom is
for people who refuse to

450
00:27:03,122 --> 00:27:06,791
accept the gospel but
still live honorably

451
00:27:06,792 --> 00:27:09,169
and the telestial kingdom
for the sinners.

452
00:27:10,212 --> 00:27:11,838
And even though the
celestial kingdom is full of

453
00:27:11,839 --> 00:27:14,508
murderers and thieves,
it's-it's still a paradise.

454
00:27:15,300 --> 00:27:17,511
Well, that sounds really nice.

455
00:27:20,138 --> 00:27:21,609
The idea is to be in the
highest kingdom with God.

456
00:27:21,610 --> 00:27:24,268
The idea is to be in the
highest kingdom with God.

457
00:27:25,144 --> 00:27:26,979
All three sound okay.

458
00:27:27,396 --> 00:27:30,565
Still, your safest bet is
to earn your way into the

459
00:27:30,566 --> 00:27:32,484
celestial kingdom.

460
00:27:35,737 --> 00:27:39,657
So, Ms. Sainbourn, as you
continue to read the Book of.

461
00:27:39,658 --> 00:27:42,160
Mormon, we think you
will find it that it is true

462
00:27:42,161 --> 00:27:44,745
as Elder Merrill and
I have discovered.

463
00:27:44,746 --> 00:27:48,791
We believe that you too
deserve to be in the highest

464
00:27:48,792 --> 00:27:51,609
of kingdoms with
our Heavenly Father.

465
00:27:51,610 --> 00:27:51,795
Of kingdoms with
our Heavenly Father.

466
00:27:52,588 --> 00:27:54,839
So, Ms. Sainbourn, we
would like to ask you as you

467
00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:57,800
to continue to find truth in
our scriptures as it seems

468
00:27:57,801 --> 00:28:01,762
that you are, would you
like to be baptized

469
00:28:01,763 --> 00:28:03,265
and join our Church?

470
00:28:03,891 --> 00:28:05,309
Um...

471
00:28:05,559 --> 00:28:06,893
I'm not sure.

472
00:28:06,894 --> 00:28:08,729
There's a singles ward.

473
00:28:11,857 --> 00:28:13,065
It's not the same thing.

474
00:28:13,066 --> 00:28:15,026
Karl Malone was on the
original Dream Team.

475
00:28:15,027 --> 00:28:17,153
I mean he, I...

476
00:28:17,154 --> 00:28:19,780
Look, all I'm saying is that Stockton played
in an era of better basketball players.

477
00:28:19,781 --> 00:28:21,282
I mean, he has Larry Byrd,

478
00:28:21,283 --> 00:28:21,610
Magic Johnson, Jordan, Kareem...

479
00:28:21,611 --> 00:28:22,700
Magic Johnson, Jordan, Kareem...

480
00:28:22,701 --> 00:28:23,659
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Alright.

481
00:28:23,660 --> 00:28:25,745
Have you seen Williams play?

482
00:28:25,746 --> 00:28:27,788
Okay, yeah. The guy can jump
out of the stadium.

483
00:28:27,789 --> 00:28:29,957
He's like three inches
taller and twice as fast...

484
00:28:29,958 --> 00:28:34,795
What are you... Stockton
was known for his quickness.

485
00:28:34,796 --> 00:28:36,422
Plus, I mean, the eyes
at the back of his head,

486
00:28:36,423 --> 00:28:38,007
he didn't need to be.

487
00:28:38,008 --> 00:28:39,425
He didn't even need to be tall.

488
00:28:39,426 --> 00:28:40,843
Exactly.

489
00:28:40,844 --> 00:28:42,678
I have been talking more
with Sister Tulsa lately

490
00:28:42,679 --> 00:28:43,930
who is very sweet.

491
00:28:43,931 --> 00:28:45,973
She has been
teaching me sign language.

492
00:28:45,974 --> 00:28:48,100
Yeah, well then, I'll know for
sure I'll see you before I leave.

493
00:28:48,101 --> 00:28:49,518
Yeah, definitely.

494
00:28:49,519 --> 00:28:51,187
But are you going to the
conference later this year?

495
00:28:51,188 --> 00:28:51,610
Yeah, I think we have that.

496
00:28:51,611 --> 00:28:52,396
Yeah, I think we have that.

497
00:28:52,397 --> 00:28:53,356
It's all in here.

498
00:28:53,357 --> 00:28:54,231
It's not not in here...

499
00:28:54,232 --> 00:28:55,232
But you're planning on.

500
00:28:55,233 --> 00:28:56,150
- Yes, of course.
- Okay, good.

501
00:28:56,151 --> 00:28:58,779
I'm planning on it if
it's in my planner.

502
00:29:02,866 --> 00:29:04,368
Hello.

503
00:29:06,954 --> 00:29:09,247
Well, um, I should
probably get going.

504
00:29:09,915 --> 00:29:10,916
Okay.

505
00:29:10,958 --> 00:29:11,999
Uh, so, but, um...

506
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:13,501
Thank you, friend.

507
00:29:13,502 --> 00:29:14,377
Yeah.

508
00:29:14,378 --> 00:29:15,252
Is that good?

509
00:29:15,253 --> 00:29:16,504
Yeah, yeah. You're welcome.

510
00:29:16,505 --> 00:29:18,005
- Remember...
- Yeah.

511
00:29:18,006 --> 00:29:19,048
I'm a missionary.

512
00:29:19,049 --> 00:29:21,093
Of course. I am as well.

513
00:29:24,888 --> 00:29:25,931
Mmm.

514
00:29:43,740 --> 00:29:46,618
Hello, it's Elder Smith.

515
00:29:47,619 --> 00:29:50,956
Just... yeah, I am right here.

516
00:29:52,416 --> 00:29:53,541
Okay.

517
00:29:53,542 --> 00:29:55,001
Are you ready?

518
00:29:55,002 --> 00:29:57,879
Um, we have two discussions.

519
00:29:59,131 --> 00:30:01,466
15 Books of Mormon handed out.

520
00:30:02,884 --> 00:30:05,762
Zero challenges
and zero baptisms.

521
00:30:07,097 --> 00:30:08,849
Yeah, okay.

522
00:30:10,308 --> 00:30:11,518
Thank you.

523
00:30:14,688 --> 00:30:15,731
Hey.

524
00:30:18,900 --> 00:30:20,068
Hey.

525
00:30:21,111 --> 00:30:21,610
Where were you this morning?

526
00:30:21,611 --> 00:30:22,732
Where were you this morning?

527
00:30:23,155 --> 00:30:26,908
Oh, I did the community service
thing with Sister Tulsa.

528
00:30:28,493 --> 00:30:30,161
You know, we're not supposed
to be alone with girls

529
00:30:30,162 --> 00:30:31,913
while you're on our mission,
right?

530
00:30:34,499 --> 00:30:36,335
There were other people there.

531
00:30:37,544 --> 00:30:40,505
You're also not supposed to
leave your companion's side.

532
00:30:42,215 --> 00:30:44,133
You okay, man?

533
00:30:44,134 --> 00:30:45,135
Fine.

534
00:30:47,512 --> 00:30:49,180
Oh, here.

535
00:30:49,181 --> 00:30:50,515
This came for you.

536
00:30:56,021 --> 00:30:57,939
You were supposed
to be there too.

537
00:31:41,233 --> 00:31:44,110
Would you uh, would you
like something to drink?

538
00:31:44,111 --> 00:31:45,028
No, I'm okay.

539
00:31:45,278 --> 00:31:46,570
Uh, yeah. I think
we;Re both okay.

540
00:31:46,571 --> 00:31:47,696
Are you sure about that?

541
00:31:47,697 --> 00:31:48,698
Yeah.

542
00:31:49,825 --> 00:31:50,908
Sorry about the mess.

543
00:31:50,909 --> 00:31:51,609
It's all right.

544
00:31:51,610 --> 00:31:52,210
It's all right.

545
00:32:45,463 --> 00:32:46,756
Sorry about that.

546
00:32:47,090 --> 00:32:49,258
I know that's
probably rude of me but,

547
00:32:49,259 --> 00:32:51,609
uh, um, I'm pretty nervous.

548
00:32:51,610 --> 00:32:53,637
Uh, um, I'm pretty nervous.

549
00:32:53,638 --> 00:32:57,642
I haven't had guests in
my home much lately.

550
00:32:58,518 --> 00:33:01,104
I'm sure you have a medical
marijuana card for that, right?

551
00:33:03,273 --> 00:33:04,649
No, no. I don't.

552
00:33:06,109 --> 00:33:07,234
It's fine.

553
00:33:07,235 --> 00:33:08,153
We're not the police.

554
00:33:09,070 --> 00:33:10,030
I hope not.

555
00:33:10,739 --> 00:33:12,100
They don't dress as
nice as you do.

556
00:33:12,532 --> 00:33:13,533
That's true.

557
00:33:16,369 --> 00:33:19,539
Oh, well, thank you for
getting back in touch with us.

558
00:33:20,248 --> 00:33:21,249
Yeah.

559
00:33:23,752 --> 00:33:29,298
I, uh... after you've left,
last time I took that book

560
00:33:29,299 --> 00:33:32,176
that you gave me, I tossed
it right there on the table

561
00:33:32,177 --> 00:33:33,969
and there it sat for days.

562
00:33:33,970 --> 00:33:35,138
Well, I just ignored it.

563
00:33:36,890 --> 00:33:41,185
Then, a few days later, I
was sitting here and I was

564
00:33:41,186 --> 00:33:46,398
watching the TV, but there
was nothing good on it.

565
00:33:46,399 --> 00:33:49,528
Over a hundred channels,
nothing good on the TV at all.

566
00:33:50,195 --> 00:33:51,609
So, I picked it up and
I started reading and,

567
00:33:51,610 --> 00:33:55,199
So, I picked it up and
I started reading and,

568
00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:56,493
uh, well, it wasn't too bad.

569
00:33:57,285 --> 00:34:00,246
There are some, uh,
some wars in there,

570
00:34:00,247 --> 00:34:01,622
and a bunch of stuff
I didn't understand,

571
00:34:01,623 --> 00:34:05,125
so I thought I call you boys
up and give you the chance to

572
00:34:05,126 --> 00:34:07,170
explain it to me, tell
me... tell me more about it.

573
00:34:07,754 --> 00:34:08,963
Sure.

574
00:34:08,964 --> 00:34:10,756
Well, do you currently
practice a religion?

575
00:34:10,757 --> 00:34:13,008
Well, I was raised
Catholic. But, uh,

576
00:34:13,009 --> 00:34:14,219
I no longer practice it.

577
00:34:14,970 --> 00:34:15,971
Don't tell my momma.

578
00:34:17,055 --> 00:34:18,056
No.

579
00:34:22,269 --> 00:34:24,271
Oh, were you... were
you in the military?

580
00:34:25,146 --> 00:34:26,982
Yes, yes I was.

581
00:34:27,232 --> 00:34:28,316
Iraq?

582
00:34:29,359 --> 00:34:30,609
Yes, sir.

583
00:34:30,610 --> 00:34:32,111
Iraq.

584
00:34:32,112 --> 00:34:34,155
Well, you've done your
country a great service.

585
00:34:35,365 --> 00:34:36,407
Thank you.

586
00:34:36,408 --> 00:34:38,784
Are you still military active?

587
00:34:38,785 --> 00:34:41,329
No, I was honorably discharged.

588
00:34:42,330 --> 00:34:43,415
Were you injured?

589
00:34:46,418 --> 00:34:47,794
Not physically.

590
00:34:52,257 --> 00:34:53,465
What happened?

591
00:34:53,466 --> 00:34:54,842
Elder, I don't think he
wants to talk about it.

592
00:34:54,843 --> 00:34:56,553
No, it's all right.

593
00:34:58,680 --> 00:35:00,639
Most of the guys don't like
to talk about this kind of

594
00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:03,143
stuff but I-I don't mind.

595
00:35:07,647 --> 00:35:11,234
I, uh, I enlisted with
my-my brother Mark.

596
00:35:13,486 --> 00:35:16,322
He was stationed in
Ash Shura in Iraq.

597
00:35:16,323 --> 00:35:18,408
He'd been there for a while.

598
00:35:19,659 --> 00:35:21,285
We're getting close, you know,

599
00:35:21,286 --> 00:35:21,610
counting the days
before we got to go home.

600
00:35:21,611 --> 00:35:23,580
Counting the days
before we got to go home.

601
00:35:25,832 --> 00:35:27,834
He said there's a
new lieutenant.

602
00:35:29,336 --> 00:35:30,879
Green is money
fresh out of college.

603
00:35:33,214 --> 00:35:37,676
We weren't just moving
from one place to another,

604
00:35:37,677 --> 00:35:38,678
you know?

605
00:35:40,805 --> 00:35:45,017
It came to a point where we
believed that we were in

606
00:35:45,018 --> 00:35:46,478
a mine field.

607
00:35:47,479 --> 00:35:49,938
What they teach you is
to, just turn around,

608
00:35:49,939 --> 00:35:51,609
step up back in your
footsteps, you know?

609
00:35:51,610 --> 00:35:53,211
Step up back in your
footsteps, you know?

610
00:35:53,401 --> 00:35:55,444
That way you don't
accidentally step somewhere

611
00:35:55,445 --> 00:35:57,447
you didn't step before.

612
00:35:59,282 --> 00:36:04,329
Mark... he was... he was
right in front of me.

613
00:36:05,246 --> 00:36:08,875
We made our way back,
I don't know what happened.

614
00:36:12,295 --> 00:36:15,298
I stepped too far to the right
or the left or something.

615
00:36:17,884 --> 00:36:21,609
Suddenly I-I was
just all covered in red,

616
00:36:21,610 --> 00:36:22,846
Suddenly I-I was
just all covered in red,

617
00:36:22,847 --> 00:36:24,390
you know, covered in blood.

618
00:36:24,391 --> 00:36:26,309
I thought I had been killed.

619
00:36:29,187 --> 00:36:33,608
And then, I looked up,
I saw what happened.

620
00:36:36,194 --> 00:36:38,988
It really was my own blood.

621
00:36:40,699 --> 00:36:46,329
Anything I can think about,
how I gonna tell momma.

622
00:36:58,341 --> 00:37:00,009
You boys sure you
don't want some?

623
00:37:00,927 --> 00:37:01,928
No, thank you.

624
00:37:02,387 --> 00:37:03,221
All right.

625
00:37:04,973 --> 00:37:08,225
Maybe we should just talk
about your thing, right?

626
00:37:08,226 --> 00:37:09,852
Yeah, get out of Iraq
and Jesus wasn't there.

627
00:37:09,853 --> 00:37:12,564
I can tell you
that for sure, so.

628
00:37:14,607 --> 00:37:16,776
Yeah, Jesus, uh,
is pretty cool.

629
00:37:17,527 --> 00:37:19,446
That's what all the
kids say, right?

630
00:37:26,536 --> 00:37:28,788
Elder Merrill has been
slacking out a bit lately.

631
00:37:29,748 --> 00:37:31,624
He slept in again today.

632
00:37:34,169 --> 00:37:36,170
And during our zone conference,

633
00:37:36,171 --> 00:37:38,131
he just sat there in silence.

634
00:37:51,436 --> 00:37:51,656
You okay?

635
00:37:51,657 --> 00:37:52,645
You okay?

636
00:37:53,521 --> 00:37:55,064
What?

637
00:37:55,648 --> 00:37:57,984
You-you just seem
distracted recently.

638
00:37:58,485 --> 00:37:59,527
What do you mean?

639
00:38:01,279 --> 00:38:02,781
I don't know, you
know what I mean.

640
00:38:03,072 --> 00:38:04,282
No, no go on.

641
00:38:06,576 --> 00:38:08,620
It seems that you don't
want to be here sometimes.

642
00:38:09,579 --> 00:38:10,830
Why would you say that?

643
00:38:11,372 --> 00:38:12,748
I don't know.

644
00:38:12,749 --> 00:38:14,291
When we started out, you're
up at 5:30 in the morning

645
00:38:14,292 --> 00:38:16,293
and you're excited about
teaching but...

646
00:38:16,294 --> 00:38:17,295
But what?

647
00:38:19,631 --> 00:38:21,655
It just seems like you're kind
of slacking off a little bit.

648
00:38:21,656 --> 00:38:24,469
It just seems like you're kind
of slacking off a little bit.

649
00:38:26,971 --> 00:38:32,060
Well, thank you for bringing
that to my attention, Elder.

650
00:38:34,395 --> 00:38:38,942
I appreciate your
honesty and you're right.

651
00:38:40,485 --> 00:38:41,903
You're right.

652
00:38:42,403 --> 00:38:43,779
I'm gonna get back
on track and...

653
00:38:43,780 --> 00:38:45,531
Elder, I was just
making an observation,

654
00:38:45,532 --> 00:38:47,450
I wasn't judging.

655
00:38:49,577 --> 00:38:51,655
I just want to make sure
that you're all right.

656
00:38:51,656 --> 00:38:53,497
I just want to make sure
that you're all right.

657
00:38:57,794 --> 00:39:01,631
It's not something I can
explain easily. I'm sorry.

658
00:39:02,715 --> 00:39:04,342
It's just... I don't...

659
00:39:07,512 --> 00:39:08,471
I don't know.

660
00:39:13,476 --> 00:39:16,020
It's just I've been
thinking a lot lately.

661
00:39:20,441 --> 00:39:21,655
I mean, take our dinner that we
had with Mr. Davis last week.

662
00:39:21,656 --> 00:39:24,056
I mean, take our dinner that we
had with Mr. Davis last week.

663
00:39:26,573 --> 00:39:29,491
All right, here is a
man who is pretty

664
00:39:29,492 --> 00:39:31,869
comfortable with his life.

665
00:39:31,870 --> 00:39:34,455
And content without
any organized religion.

666
00:39:36,833 --> 00:39:42,588
We go into his
house, 20 years old

667
00:39:42,589 --> 00:39:45,257
with the intention of
teaching him and his family,

668
00:39:45,258 --> 00:39:47,593
to rethink their
entire existence?

669
00:39:47,594 --> 00:39:49,720
Yeah. But that's what
missionaries do I mean,

670
00:39:49,721 --> 00:39:50,972
that's what we've always done.

671
00:39:51,598 --> 00:39:51,656
Well, three weeks of
training at the MTC doesn't.

672
00:39:51,657 --> 00:39:53,974
Well, three weeks of
training at the MTC doesn't

673
00:39:53,975 --> 00:39:55,892
make me qualified for that.

674
00:39:55,893 --> 00:39:58,187
Elder, it's okay to have
doubts. Everybody does.

675
00:40:00,356 --> 00:40:01,399
I know.

676
00:40:03,484 --> 00:40:04,736
I know it's difficult.

677
00:40:05,570 --> 00:40:07,280
I know it's
difficult for you too.

678
00:40:08,114 --> 00:40:10,908
But I-I hear you
listening to secular music

679
00:40:10,909 --> 00:40:13,201
on your headphones.

680
00:40:13,202 --> 00:40:14,996
I saw the way you
look at Sister Tulsa.

681
00:40:15,496 --> 00:40:16,747
What? No, no, no...
I don't have a...

682
00:40:16,748 --> 00:40:18,582
You can't... you can't
tell me that your

683
00:40:18,583 --> 00:40:21,127
testimony isn't being tested...

684
00:40:22,670 --> 00:40:24,297
all the time.

685
00:40:29,010 --> 00:40:31,012
Of course it is.

686
00:40:37,018 --> 00:40:38,603
So, how are you holding up?

687
00:40:40,897 --> 00:40:42,482
I'm okay sometimes.

688
00:40:44,317 --> 00:40:46,444
Sometimes, I
want to be at home,

689
00:40:46,819 --> 00:40:48,404
sometimes I want
to be at school.

690
00:40:48,905 --> 00:40:51,655
All and all I like being here.

691
00:40:51,656 --> 00:40:52,856
All and all I like being here.

692
00:40:53,493 --> 00:40:54,994
I like being here too.

693
00:40:58,206 --> 00:40:59,749
I like being here with you.

694
00:41:02,627 --> 00:41:04,462
You're a good companion.

695
00:41:05,588 --> 00:41:06,631
Thank you.

696
00:41:09,175 --> 00:41:11,511
Everything's
gonna be all right.

697
00:41:18,184 --> 00:41:19,310
Hey!

698
00:41:20,436 --> 00:41:21,655
You two always that friendly.

699
00:41:21,656 --> 00:41:21,896
You two always that friendly.

700
00:41:22,730 --> 00:41:24,273
Excuse me?

701
00:41:25,191 --> 00:41:28,403
I just noticed he was, uh,
rubbing up on his arm there.

702
00:41:30,071 --> 00:41:31,488
It's cool with me. You know,

703
00:41:31,489 --> 00:41:33,491
I just want to know if
you're all like that.

704
00:41:35,785 --> 00:41:37,245
You're Mormon, right?

705
00:41:44,627 --> 00:41:45,961
I got this.

706
00:41:45,962 --> 00:41:46,878
Yeah, thanks.

707
00:41:46,879 --> 00:41:48,381
IDS?

708
00:41:48,840 --> 00:41:51,466
Church of Jesus Christ
the Latter-Day.

709
00:41:51,467 --> 00:41:51,656
Saints, right?

710
00:41:51,657 --> 00:41:52,634
Saints, right?

711
00:41:52,635 --> 00:41:54,010
Where are you going?

712
00:41:54,011 --> 00:41:55,513
Don't leave.

713
00:41:56,305 --> 00:41:59,100
Are you guys supposed to
try and convert me, right?

714
00:41:59,475 --> 00:42:00,685
Give me the lessons?

715
00:42:06,107 --> 00:42:07,708
So, I got a letter
from my mom yesterday.

716
00:42:08,067 --> 00:42:09,068
Oh, yeah.

717
00:42:10,403 --> 00:42:12,443
She was trying to set me
up for this girl back home.

718
00:42:13,489 --> 00:42:14,906
Do you know her?

719
00:42:14,907 --> 00:42:16,199
Yeah.

720
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:17,452
Yeah, yeah, for my whole life.

721
00:42:18,703 --> 00:42:21,456
I don't know, maybe if I
just ignore her, you know?

722
00:42:21,789 --> 00:42:24,667
She'll just get married before
I can say, "No, thank you."

723
00:42:26,878 --> 00:42:28,087
I don't know man.

724
00:42:28,671 --> 00:42:30,298
It's dropping like
flies back home.

725
00:42:32,717 --> 00:42:34,117
Maybe you should
keep tabs on Elise.

726
00:42:34,635 --> 00:42:35,636
Oh, I know.

727
00:42:36,179 --> 00:42:38,055
It is what it is,
plus, I always said,

728
00:42:38,056 --> 00:42:39,640
"If it's meant to
be, it's meant to be."

729
00:42:40,224 --> 00:42:41,864
You noticed what happened
to Elder Harris?

730
00:42:41,976 --> 00:42:43,769
What?

731
00:42:43,770 --> 00:42:46,062
When we're living together, his
then girlfriend sent him a

732
00:42:46,063 --> 00:42:48,023
letter saying, "Hey,
I met somebody else,

733
00:42:48,024 --> 00:42:49,107
I'm gonna marry him."

734
00:42:49,108 --> 00:42:49,983
And that was it.

735
00:42:49,984 --> 00:42:50,985
Wow, that's tough.

736
00:42:55,448 --> 00:42:56,991
- Oh shit.
- What?

737
00:42:57,533 --> 00:42:59,034
It's those guys from
the restaurant.

738
00:42:59,035 --> 00:42:59,952
Just keep walking.

739
00:43:05,792 --> 00:43:07,210
Hey.

740
00:43:07,752 --> 00:43:10,837
Where you all heading?
You need a ride?

741
00:43:10,838 --> 00:43:12,340
No, no we're good. Thanks.

742
00:43:15,218 --> 00:43:17,052
You know, you shouldn't
be out so late,

743
00:43:17,053 --> 00:43:19,055
uh, unsafe people
come out at night.

744
00:43:19,889 --> 00:43:21,129
- Let's just go.
- Hey, hold on.

745
00:43:26,270 --> 00:43:27,896
Once you get in, we'll-
we'll take you over.

746
00:43:27,897 --> 00:43:28,981
It'll be safer.

747
00:43:31,818 --> 00:43:32,819
Come on.

748
00:43:32,860 --> 00:43:34,027
Come on get in.

749
00:43:34,028 --> 00:43:35,029
Let's just go, Craig.

750
00:43:38,407 --> 00:43:40,283
You know, it's all
right with us if,

751
00:43:40,284 --> 00:43:41,953
uh, you all like to
touch each other.

752
00:43:43,913 --> 00:43:45,123
You're from Utah, right?

753
00:43:45,456 --> 00:43:46,415
What part?

754
00:43:48,876 --> 00:43:50,502
I'm from Utah.

755
00:43:50,503 --> 00:43:51,655
A little town called, Ferron.

756
00:43:51,656 --> 00:43:51,796
A little town called, Ferron.

757
00:43:51,797 --> 00:43:53,130
You ever heard of it?

758
00:43:59,720 --> 00:44:02,013
You know my father, my
father couldn't get a job

759
00:44:02,014 --> 00:44:07,602
'cause of you people, drank
himself into oblivion.

760
00:44:07,603 --> 00:44:09,813
Y'all take care of your own,
don't care about nobody else.

761
00:44:09,814 --> 00:44:10,773
Hypocrites.

762
00:44:15,570 --> 00:44:16,988
Faggots.

763
00:44:22,660 --> 00:44:24,662
That don't make you
angry, faggot, huh?

764
00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:32,086
Elder, what are you doing?

765
00:44:34,255 --> 00:44:35,882
C'mon. Let him go.

766
00:44:36,632 --> 00:44:38,759
Don't hold him back. Let him go.

767
00:44:48,519 --> 00:44:49,853
Are you okay?

768
00:44:49,854 --> 00:44:51,655
Yeah. I'm still a
little shaken up.

769
00:44:51,656 --> 00:44:53,017
Yeah. I'm still a
little shaken up.

770
00:44:54,358 --> 00:44:56,819
I've never seen
you angry before.

771
00:44:58,946 --> 00:45:00,823
I'm usually passive-aggressive.

772
00:45:01,282 --> 00:45:03,618
You probably just sent him
out of the emergency room.

773
00:45:05,119 --> 00:45:06,996
I know it's terrible.

774
00:45:18,007 --> 00:45:20,343
Well, I hate to say this...

775
00:45:26,933 --> 00:45:28,684
but he deserved it.

776
00:45:32,480 --> 00:45:34,732
Mormons aren't
supposed to fight.

777
00:45:38,736 --> 00:45:41,572
(whispers) Mormons aren't
supposed to do a lot of things.

778
00:45:50,581 --> 00:45:51,655
I think we should
keep this to ourselves.

779
00:45:51,656 --> 00:45:53,257
I think we should
keep this to ourselves.

780
00:45:55,002 --> 00:45:55,836
I agree.

781
00:46:00,675 --> 00:46:01,883
Are you sure you're okay?

782
00:46:01,884 --> 00:46:04,886
Yeah. I'll be all right.

783
00:46:04,887 --> 00:46:06,639
Your hands are all bruised up.

784
00:46:31,998 --> 00:46:32,999
Come here.

785
00:46:36,002 --> 00:46:36,960
I'm sorry.

786
00:46:36,961 --> 00:46:37,920
That's okay - thanks.

787
00:46:49,557 --> 00:46:50,933
Did I look cool?

788
00:46:52,101 --> 00:46:53,977
Yeah, actually.

789
00:46:53,978 --> 00:46:55,521
Pretty cool.

790
00:46:56,480 --> 00:46:58,982
Anyone's gonna look
cool fighting 2 guys in

791
00:46:58,983 --> 00:47:00,442
a long sleeve white
shirt red tie.

792
00:47:00,443 --> 00:47:02,945
- It's gonna be you.
- It's gonna be me.

793
00:47:07,033 --> 00:47:08,158
This is really cold.

794
00:47:08,159 --> 00:47:09,993
Yes, it's ice.

795
00:47:09,994 --> 00:47:10,910
Yeah. You got it
from the freezer.

796
00:47:10,911 --> 00:47:13,330
I did get it from the freezer.

797
00:48:22,650 --> 00:48:25,903
Elder Merrill's indifference
has been contagious.

798
00:48:26,570 --> 00:48:29,073
We haven't been teaching
much this week or last.

799
00:48:29,490 --> 00:48:31,866
And we're not supposed to but

800
00:48:31,867 --> 00:48:34,036
we decided to see
a movie tonight.

801
00:48:35,037 --> 00:48:36,996
I figure it's not worth
being on a mission if you're

802
00:48:36,997 --> 00:48:39,041
not going to
have fun sometimes.

803
00:48:39,625 --> 00:48:41,665
So, why do you never talk
about the wrestling thing?

804
00:48:42,169 --> 00:48:43,796
No need, it's
just something I do.

805
00:48:46,298 --> 00:48:47,899
But thanks for your
help the other night.

806
00:48:48,467 --> 00:48:50,107
You would have done
the same thing for me.

807
00:48:53,222 --> 00:48:55,582
You're kind of scrawny for a
champion to be brutally honest.

808
00:48:57,518 --> 00:48:59,144
And you talk more
about basketball

809
00:48:59,145 --> 00:49:00,025
than you do wrestling.

810
00:49:04,108 --> 00:49:06,527
I'm sorry I was being such
an idiot that night too...

811
00:49:07,111 --> 00:49:08,153
I don't know.

812
00:49:08,154 --> 00:49:10,114
You're not being an idiot.

813
00:49:11,949 --> 00:49:13,310
Well, thanks for
listening, anyway.

814
00:49:14,410 --> 00:49:15,452
No problem.

815
00:49:16,954 --> 00:49:20,416
Your feelings were completely
valid and totally normal.

816
00:49:21,208 --> 00:49:22,334
What feelings?

817
00:49:24,044 --> 00:49:26,046
Doubt, confusion.

818
00:49:28,048 --> 00:49:29,925
So you have those two.

819
00:49:30,426 --> 00:49:31,468
Of course.

820
00:49:40,060 --> 00:49:43,146
Have you ever been tempted
out in a mission field?

821
00:49:43,147 --> 00:49:45,482
Tempted to do what?

822
00:49:46,150 --> 00:49:48,110
I don't know... anything,

823
00:49:50,196 --> 00:49:51,697
anything a missionary
shouldn't do.

824
00:49:52,990 --> 00:49:53,991
Yes.

825
00:50:02,666 --> 00:50:04,627
You have to excuse me Elder,

826
00:50:06,921 --> 00:50:10,007
I'll be right, um,
probably use the restroom.

827
00:50:45,251 --> 00:50:45,874
- Hey.
- Hey.

828
00:50:45,875 --> 00:50:46,377
- Hey.
- Hey.

829
00:50:47,294 --> 00:50:48,671
Sorry, I have to go too.

830
00:51:05,604 --> 00:51:08,315
I guess we just felt that little
bit of stage fright, huh?

831
00:51:10,276 --> 00:51:11,360
Probably.

832
00:51:16,198 --> 00:51:17,783
Well, false alarm.

833
00:51:20,411 --> 00:51:21,662
Wait.

834
00:51:23,289 --> 00:51:24,290
Yeah?

835
00:51:27,835 --> 00:51:31,880
I guess what I'm really
trying to get at is...

836
00:51:32,298 --> 00:51:33,299
Yeah?

837
00:51:36,885 --> 00:51:38,220
Were you gonna
kiss me that night?

838
00:51:41,223 --> 00:51:42,557
What?

839
00:51:42,558 --> 00:51:44,478
I was half asleep but I
saw you standing over me.

840
00:51:47,938 --> 00:51:49,732
I, um, I don't...

841
00:51:50,733 --> 00:51:52,234
Hey, hey.

842
00:51:53,193 --> 00:51:55,237
It's okay if you were.

843
00:51:57,865 --> 00:52:00,117
Elder...

844
00:52:44,536 --> 00:52:45,874
I try and keep these
feelings at a distance.

845
00:52:45,875 --> 00:52:47,595
I try and keep these
feelings at a distance.

846
00:52:47,873 --> 00:52:51,376
I've prayed to God in tears
before and hopes that I may

847
00:52:51,377 --> 00:52:55,422
one day love a woman and
want to take her as my wife.

848
00:52:57,466 --> 00:52:59,426
That I might want to kiss her,

849
00:52:59,802 --> 00:53:04,390
hold her and have sex
with her but I can't.

850
00:53:05,808 --> 00:53:07,810
It's not how I'm built.

851
00:53:10,270 --> 00:53:13,273
When we were done,
we both prayed,

852
00:53:16,693 --> 00:53:18,069
and got on our bikes,

853
00:53:18,070 --> 00:53:20,072
and rode back to our apartment.

854
00:53:23,492 --> 00:53:25,786
We didn't talk about it
for the rest of the evening.

855
00:53:58,819 --> 00:53:59,987
What bad Mormons are we?

856
00:54:05,200 --> 00:54:06,201
Yeah.

857
00:54:06,452 --> 00:54:07,828
I think so.

858
00:54:09,496 --> 00:54:11,790
I think we're heading
for outer darkness.

859
00:54:12,791 --> 00:54:15,874
Mm, I don't know.

860
00:54:15,875 --> 00:54:16,919
Mm, I don't know.

861
00:54:16,920 --> 00:54:17,921
What do you think?

862
00:54:18,630 --> 00:54:20,132
I think we're a shoe-in.

863
00:54:22,509 --> 00:54:23,635
So...

864
00:54:25,429 --> 00:54:26,763
RJ,

865
00:54:29,183 --> 00:54:30,476
You ever been with girls?

866
00:54:31,477 --> 00:54:32,478
No not really.

867
00:54:33,145 --> 00:54:34,646
What about the...
what's her name?

868
00:54:35,481 --> 00:54:36,732
Well, we came close but no.

869
00:54:38,775 --> 00:54:42,154
The first time I kissed a girl,

870
00:54:43,071 --> 00:54:45,874
I set myself up for
failure because I prayed and

871
00:54:45,875 --> 00:54:46,449
I set myself up for
failure because I prayed and

872
00:54:46,450 --> 00:54:49,118
prepared myself to like it
and then weren't happened.

873
00:54:49,119 --> 00:54:50,244
I mean, it was just a kiss.

874
00:54:50,245 --> 00:54:51,496
That's it, you know.

875
00:54:51,497 --> 00:54:52,498
Nothing else.

876
00:54:54,082 --> 00:54:55,375
That's when you knew.

877
00:54:57,002 --> 00:55:01,130
I always knew
how I felt but well,

878
00:55:01,131 --> 00:55:06,845
there's, uh, there's a park near
my home called Hope Grove.

879
00:55:08,931 --> 00:55:12,892
It sits near bank
on-on the falls

880
00:55:12,893 --> 00:55:15,020
and I didn't know
what the purpose for.

881
00:55:16,438 --> 00:55:19,065
One morning I woke up really
early and I couldn't fall

882
00:55:19,066 --> 00:55:24,862
back to sleep so I just got
up to go shoot hoops and

883
00:55:24,863 --> 00:55:26,532
I started to hear something.

884
00:55:28,283 --> 00:55:30,284
And I looked around to see where
the noise was coming from

885
00:55:30,285 --> 00:55:33,455
but I couldn't see anything
so I walked towards it.

886
00:55:35,666 --> 00:55:37,501
And I saw two men,

887
00:55:39,628 --> 00:55:41,045
one was on his knees and the

888
00:55:41,046 --> 00:55:42,673
other was pinned up
against the tree.

889
00:55:44,758 --> 00:55:45,874
And I just stood
there and watched...

890
00:55:45,875 --> 00:55:47,886
And I just stood
there and watched...

891
00:55:50,597 --> 00:55:52,515
And one of the guys noticed me

892
00:55:52,516 --> 00:55:55,269
so I-I walked closer.

893
00:56:00,274 --> 00:56:05,486
I had been affectionate with
men before that but that

894
00:56:05,487 --> 00:56:11,492
was very different, I mean,
feeling a long-long way down.

895
00:56:11,493 --> 00:56:13,787
No. That's okay.

896
00:56:14,997 --> 00:56:15,874
I like it when you talk.

897
00:56:15,875 --> 00:56:16,835
I like it when you talk.

898
00:56:18,834 --> 00:56:20,752
I get the feeling you
don't get a chance to.

899
00:56:26,550 --> 00:56:31,012
I remember, I would have
to eat with my family.

900
00:56:31,013 --> 00:56:33,682
I was about nine years old.

901
00:56:34,641 --> 00:56:39,353
At the restaurant. I was
sitting next to my dad.

902
00:56:39,354 --> 00:56:42,440
A few tables down I saw
this really good looking boy

903
00:56:42,441 --> 00:56:43,317
about my age.

904
00:56:46,945 --> 00:56:49,447
So and I said in
front of my mom and dad,

905
00:56:49,448 --> 00:56:53,744
brother and sister, "Hey,
he's a really handsome boy."

906
00:56:56,663 --> 00:56:59,248
They completely ignored
me but when I got home,

907
00:56:59,249 --> 00:57:04,378
my dad pulled me inside and
yelled at me and told me I

908
00:57:04,379 --> 00:57:06,839
shouldn't think
things like that.

909
00:57:06,840 --> 00:57:10,218
Then I shouldn't ever say
something like that ever again.

910
00:57:14,431 --> 00:57:15,874
It had always been a
rift between me and my dad.

911
00:57:15,875 --> 00:57:16,974
It had always been a
rift between me and my dad

912
00:57:16,975 --> 00:57:21,396
because I think
he's always known.

913
00:57:47,506 --> 00:57:48,423
Hey.

914
00:57:51,176 --> 00:57:52,802
What took you guys
so long to answer?

915
00:57:52,803 --> 00:57:54,804
Oh, we're just reading
through scriptures

916
00:57:54,805 --> 00:57:56,045
and we're really into it today.

917
00:57:58,475 --> 00:57:59,725
Really?

918
00:57:59,726 --> 00:58:01,310
What, uh, what verse?

919
00:58:01,311 --> 00:58:03,647
1 Nephi 2:15.

920
00:58:08,985 --> 00:58:10,903
It's a good one.

921
00:58:10,904 --> 00:58:12,988
So what are you guys up to?

922
00:58:12,989 --> 00:58:14,491
Just studying like we said.

923
00:58:15,450 --> 00:58:15,875
Yeah. Yeah.

924
00:58:15,876 --> 00:58:16,451
Yeah. Yeah.

925
00:58:17,369 --> 00:58:19,621
Well, uh, let's go
shoot some hoops.

926
00:58:21,665 --> 00:58:23,946
I-I actually don't feel like
playing basketball right now.

927
00:58:26,545 --> 00:58:30,006
Well, I really wanna go
and, uh, it's Monday.

928
00:58:30,549 --> 00:58:33,551
You guys, don't really have
any meetings scheduled today so

929
00:58:33,552 --> 00:58:34,760
let's get shoot some hoops.

930
00:58:34,761 --> 00:58:36,303
Yeah okay. Cool.

931
00:58:36,304 --> 00:58:38,098
We'll be out there.

932
00:58:42,352 --> 00:58:44,521
Oh, my God.

933
00:58:56,158 --> 00:58:57,451
Dang it.

934
00:58:59,327 --> 00:59:00,746
So what are you
guys been up to?

935
00:59:02,247 --> 00:59:06,418
Nothing much just some tracting
challenging the usual.

936
00:59:10,505 --> 00:59:12,007
Well, your numbers are low.

937
00:59:13,633 --> 00:59:14,833
Lowest in the region, in fact.

938
00:59:16,011 --> 00:59:17,012
What's been going on?

939
00:59:17,929 --> 00:59:19,555
What are you
looking at him for?

940
00:59:19,556 --> 00:59:20,693
You're senior elder. I'm
talking to you Elder Merrill.

941
00:59:20,694 --> 00:59:21,682
You're senior elder. I'm
talking to you Elder Merrill.

942
00:59:21,683 --> 00:59:24,685
We haven't see you guys in church
and you haven't been calling

943
00:59:24,686 --> 00:59:25,644
in your numbers.
I've to practically

944
00:59:25,645 --> 00:59:27,689
pull them from you like teeth.

945
00:59:28,273 --> 00:59:29,691
We've been sick.

946
00:59:31,067 --> 00:59:32,110
You both have been sick.

947
00:59:32,694 --> 00:59:33,861
Yeah.

948
00:59:33,862 --> 00:59:36,280
I was sick and then I
give it to Elder Merrill.

949
00:59:36,281 --> 00:59:37,364
Really?

950
00:59:37,365 --> 00:59:38,366
Yeah.

951
00:59:41,077 --> 00:59:42,704
You should have said something.

952
00:59:43,872 --> 00:59:45,912
Bishop and Mission President
were getting concerned.

953
00:59:46,249 --> 00:59:47,834
I'll let them know.

954
00:59:54,925 --> 00:59:56,635
You're a whore by the way.

955
00:59:57,302 --> 00:59:58,261
What?

956
00:59:58,929 --> 01:00:01,681
Uh, you had an H
and O that was an R.

957
01:00:07,270 --> 01:00:08,146
Whore.

958
01:00:42,430 --> 01:00:43,430
Come on in.

959
01:00:43,431 --> 01:00:44,348
Hey.

960
01:00:44,349 --> 01:00:45,349
How are you boys doing?

961
01:00:45,350 --> 01:00:46,809
It's been awhile. Yeah.

962
01:00:46,810 --> 01:00:48,310
- How y'all bee?
- Really, really good.

963
01:00:48,311 --> 01:00:49,771
Good.

964
01:00:50,981 --> 01:00:52,398
All right. All right.

965
01:00:52,399 --> 01:00:54,358
I'm surprised I
haven't heard from you more.

966
01:00:54,359 --> 01:00:56,110
I thought you boys was
supposed to be hounding me

967
01:00:56,111 --> 01:00:58,320
trying to convert
me and baptize me.

968
01:00:58,321 --> 01:00:59,572
Well, we're just
glad you called.

969
01:00:59,573 --> 01:01:00,699
Yeah.

970
01:01:01,366 --> 01:01:02,992
Yeah, well, I've been
reading some of those

971
01:01:02,993 --> 01:01:05,244
scriptures you highlighted
for me in the book.

972
01:01:05,245 --> 01:01:06,245
Oh, good. Good.

973
01:01:06,246 --> 01:01:07,746
Yeah.

974
01:01:07,747 --> 01:01:09,957
You boys mind, I know you're
probably not supposed to be

975
01:01:09,958 --> 01:01:11,918
- around this, stuff...
- Uh, go ahead, it's fine.

976
01:01:31,354 --> 01:01:32,689
Rodney. Rodney.

977
01:01:33,565 --> 01:01:34,566
Yeah.

978
01:01:35,108 --> 01:01:38,903
Right the Scriptures, um, they,

979
01:01:38,904 --> 01:01:41,697
uh, uh, I've... Scriptures
that you highlighted me the

980
01:01:41,698 --> 01:01:45,284
other day were... they
were very pretty but,

981
01:01:45,285 --> 01:01:47,536
um, but a bit repetitive.

982
01:01:47,537 --> 01:01:49,788
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah.

983
01:01:49,789 --> 01:01:50,693
And, uh... And it came to pass.

984
01:01:50,694 --> 01:01:51,373
And, uh... And it came to pass.

985
01:01:51,374 --> 01:01:53,835
Yeah, yeah, yeah, same, same
thing over and over and over.

986
01:01:54,669 --> 01:01:57,296
You know Mark Twain said
that the book of Mormon was

987
01:01:57,297 --> 01:01:59,882
a prosey detail of
imaginary history and,

988
01:01:59,883 --> 01:02:03,219
uh, and a tedious plagiarism
of the New Testament.

989
01:02:07,015 --> 01:02:09,725
Well, I don't think Mark
Twain had anything good to say

990
01:02:09,726 --> 01:02:11,310
about organized religion.

991
01:02:11,311 --> 01:02:12,186
What do you think?

992
01:02:12,187 --> 01:02:14,271
I would agree. Yeah.

993
01:02:14,272 --> 01:02:15,940
Yeah. I would suppose
you're right about that.

994
01:02:15,941 --> 01:02:17,107
Where are you getting
your information from,

995
01:02:17,108 --> 01:02:18,776
by the way?

996
01:02:18,777 --> 01:02:20,693
Oh, mostly from the internet.

997
01:02:20,694 --> 01:02:21,854
Oh, mostly from the internet.

998
01:02:23,823 --> 01:02:25,784
Hey, can I see that?

999
01:02:27,369 --> 01:02:28,953
The... You gave it
to me... you guys...

1000
01:02:28,954 --> 01:02:31,580
Oh, no, the bag of...
Oh, yeah, yeah.

1001
01:02:31,581 --> 01:02:33,166
The green...

1002
01:02:37,003 --> 01:02:38,253
It smells really good.

1003
01:02:38,254 --> 01:02:39,213
Yep.

1004
01:02:39,214 --> 01:02:41,216
That's one of the
best things about it.

1005
01:02:43,426 --> 01:02:44,678
Could I see the...?

1006
01:02:45,428 --> 01:02:47,068
Oh, the pipe? Yeah.
Go for it. No problem.

1007
01:02:48,264 --> 01:02:49,265
RJ, what are you doing?

1008
01:02:49,724 --> 01:02:50,693
I just wanna... I wanna try it.

1009
01:02:50,694 --> 01:02:51,934
I just wanna... I wanna try it.

1010
01:02:52,185 --> 01:02:53,353
Why?

1011
01:02:53,853 --> 01:02:55,897
I'm just kinda
curious to see what...

1012
01:02:56,523 --> 01:02:57,940
Is there already some in there?

1013
01:02:57,941 --> 01:02:58,983
Yeah. It's already inside.

1014
01:02:58,984 --> 01:03:00,442
All right. So let me do it.

1015
01:03:00,443 --> 01:03:02,779
I saw you did this
once so I'll do that too.

1016
01:03:07,033 --> 01:03:08,575
Okay, so...

1017
01:03:08,576 --> 01:03:09,910
Alright well, you know, you
wanna hold the side there.

1018
01:03:09,911 --> 01:03:12,080
You see that little hole? It's
called the carb.

1019
01:03:12,747 --> 01:03:16,959
You wanna hold on to that and it
creates pressure in the glass.

1020
01:03:16,960 --> 01:03:19,086
And then, uh, you put
it up to your mouth.

1021
01:03:19,087 --> 01:03:20,337
You light it.

1022
01:03:20,338 --> 01:03:20,694
You suck in and then you
let go with the cob.

1023
01:03:20,695 --> 01:03:23,048
You suck in and then you
let go with the cob

1024
01:03:23,049 --> 01:03:24,968
and then it all rushes in.

1025
01:03:25,927 --> 01:03:26,927
Okay.

1026
01:03:26,928 --> 01:03:28,053
I can guide you through it.

1027
01:03:28,054 --> 01:03:29,930
Just go ahead and start.

1028
01:03:29,931 --> 01:03:31,099
Here we go.

1029
01:03:53,955 --> 01:03:57,166
You guys, what is this supposed
to make you feel like?

1030
01:03:57,167 --> 01:03:58,542
I've never done this before.

1031
01:03:58,543 --> 01:03:59,878
You've never
done any weed before?

1032
01:04:00,587 --> 01:04:01,545
I'm Mormon.

1033
01:04:01,546 --> 01:04:02,547
He is Mormon.

1034
01:04:05,967 --> 01:04:10,346
It just gonna make you
feel, uh, interesting.

1035
01:04:11,431 --> 01:04:13,016
Guys, you can feel
free if you like,

1036
01:04:13,933 --> 01:04:16,269
uh, there's no
pressure but, uh...

1037
01:04:17,270 --> 01:04:19,021
Come on. Do it.

1038
01:04:19,022 --> 01:04:19,939
All right.

1039
01:04:34,871 --> 01:04:36,121
You got it?

1040
01:04:36,122 --> 01:04:37,123
Okay.

1041
01:04:42,295 --> 01:04:43,755
Uh, I don't feel anything.

1042
01:04:45,131 --> 01:04:46,674
Well, maybe you
just didn't do enough.

1043
01:04:48,051 --> 01:04:49,969
Y'all didn't do it right.

1044
01:04:52,722 --> 01:04:55,265
You boys allowed to watch TV?

1045
01:04:55,266 --> 01:04:58,019
Uh, not, not really, I mean,

1046
01:04:59,187 --> 01:05:02,065
watched TV a long time but-

1047
01:05:03,775 --> 01:05:05,067
I suppose a little...

1048
01:05:05,068 --> 01:05:07,319
Yeah. I would even know
what time anymore but...

1049
01:05:07,320 --> 01:05:09,029
Little bit wouldn't hurt.

1050
01:05:09,030 --> 01:05:10,155
Well, you wanna watch a movie?

1051
01:05:10,156 --> 01:05:11,031
Absolutely, yeah, okay.

1052
01:05:11,032 --> 01:05:11,907
Sure.

1053
01:05:11,908 --> 01:05:15,577
All right. I've got, uh,
I've got "Finding Nemo" and,

1054
01:05:15,578 --> 01:05:17,413
uh, "Princess Bride."

1055
01:05:18,790 --> 01:05:20,124
Yeah, those are all...

1056
01:05:20,125 --> 01:05:20,693
"Saving Private Ryan."

1057
01:05:20,694 --> 01:05:21,917
"Saving Private Ryan."

1058
01:05:21,918 --> 01:05:23,210
Those are okay.

1059
01:05:23,211 --> 01:05:24,253
Well, do you wanna
watch together?

1060
01:05:24,254 --> 01:05:26,214
"Full Metal Jacket"?

1061
01:05:27,132 --> 01:05:30,008
You sound like you
got-you got increasingly violent.

1062
01:05:30,009 --> 01:05:31,052
Sound like war movies.

1063
01:05:31,636 --> 01:05:34,096
I mean, are you
okay to watch those?

1064
01:05:34,097 --> 01:05:35,390
Well, sometimes I watch them.

1065
01:05:36,850 --> 01:05:39,017
"Sex in the City"... the movie.

1066
01:05:39,018 --> 01:05:40,018
"Sex and the City?"

1067
01:05:40,019 --> 01:05:41,770
Yeah. Yeah.

1068
01:05:41,771 --> 01:05:43,647
It's about girls in New York running
around have sex with everybody.

1069
01:05:43,648 --> 01:05:46,358
Oh, isn't that that show
about the three hookers

1070
01:05:46,359 --> 01:05:48,110
and their mom?

1071
01:05:48,111 --> 01:05:49,712
You're talking about
"All in the Family".

1072
01:05:49,946 --> 01:05:50,693
No, that's "Golden Girls."

1073
01:05:50,694 --> 01:05:51,734
No, that's "Golden Girls."

1074
01:05:54,117 --> 01:05:56,118
You boys like my knife, huh?

1075
01:05:56,119 --> 01:05:57,120
Yes, it's nice.

1076
01:05:58,037 --> 01:05:59,663
Yeah. Do you have any snacks?

1077
01:05:59,664 --> 01:06:00,957
No we're
talking about his life.

1078
01:06:01,541 --> 01:06:02,876
Oh, whew!

1079
01:06:03,835 --> 01:06:05,128
This is nice.

1080
01:06:06,129 --> 01:06:07,450
Has this been
here the whole time?

1081
01:06:07,839 --> 01:06:10,299
Yeah, been there
since I moved in.

1082
01:06:10,300 --> 01:06:12,259
It was here when I moved
here in fact I didn't know

1083
01:06:12,260 --> 01:06:13,969
what the heck it's
supposed to mean.

1084
01:06:13,970 --> 01:06:16,263
Do you guys remember
raise-raising roof?

1085
01:06:16,264 --> 01:06:17,557
That was pretty cool.

1086
01:06:19,100 --> 01:06:20,661
I had no idea what
you're talking about.

1087
01:06:22,270 --> 01:06:23,979
Chris and I have never
seen these films with the

1088
01:06:23,980 --> 01:06:26,273
inappropriate parts in them,

1089
01:06:26,274 --> 01:06:28,026
Mormons watch a lot of
edited edited videos.

1090
01:06:28,943 --> 01:06:31,236
For instance, the versions of
Casino and Goodfellas I'd seen

1091
01:06:31,237 --> 01:06:34,240
were only 35 minutes.

1092
01:06:34,699 --> 01:06:37,285
We also showed Rodney
some IDS favorites.

1093
01:06:39,162 --> 01:06:40,371
This is messed up, man.

1094
01:06:47,295 --> 01:06:49,255
We began to spend a
lot of time with Rodney.

1095
01:06:49,631 --> 01:06:50,693
He's on disability and he
needed to stay at home.

1096
01:06:50,694 --> 01:06:53,342
He's on disability and he
needed to stay at home.

1097
01:06:53,343 --> 01:06:55,011
There are times
he's a little on edge.

1098
01:06:56,095 --> 01:06:58,972
He just needs some
human contact sometimes.

1099
01:06:58,973 --> 01:07:00,390
I like to think though
Chris and I are

1100
01:07:00,391 --> 01:07:04,186
straying from our duties
that we are doing some good

1101
01:07:04,187 --> 01:07:05,271
by spending time with him.

1102
01:07:06,731 --> 01:07:09,734
So what are you guys
gonna do after you get home?

1103
01:07:11,527 --> 01:07:13,279
Um, I'm not sure.

1104
01:07:14,239 --> 01:07:15,823
I still have a lot
to go on my mission.

1105
01:07:16,366 --> 01:07:17,742
School, I guess.

1106
01:07:18,243 --> 01:07:19,203
Yeah, probably the same.

1107
01:07:19,577 --> 01:07:20,693
You don't sound
very enthused about it.

1108
01:07:20,694 --> 01:07:22,214
You don't sound
very enthused about it.

1109
01:07:22,997 --> 01:07:24,164
How old are you guys, anyway?

1110
01:07:24,165 --> 01:07:25,041
I'm 20.

1111
01:07:26,000 --> 01:07:30,128
20, huh, when I was 20

1112
01:07:30,129 --> 01:07:32,339
I still hadn't joined
the military yet.

1113
01:07:32,340 --> 01:07:34,967
I'd been working with this
assembly plant for two years,

1114
01:07:34,968 --> 01:07:37,177
saving up money.

1115
01:07:37,178 --> 01:07:39,179
One day I just
walked in and quit.

1116
01:07:39,180 --> 01:07:41,139
I ain't give two weeks
notice of nothing I just-I

1117
01:07:41,140 --> 01:07:44,142
just quit and I got in my car,

1118
01:07:44,143 --> 01:07:46,353
got an oil
change, got new tires,

1119
01:07:46,354 --> 01:07:49,648
picked up my brother
Mark and then hit the 35.

1120
01:07:49,649 --> 01:07:50,693
And I just drove all over the
country for three months.

1121
01:07:50,694 --> 01:07:53,527
And I just drove all over the
country for three months.

1122
01:07:53,528 --> 01:07:54,778
Best time of my life.

1123
01:07:54,779 --> 01:07:56,259
You two should do
something like that.

1124
01:07:56,656 --> 01:07:57,948
I've always wanted to do that.

1125
01:07:57,949 --> 01:07:59,199
Yeah.

1126
01:07:59,200 --> 01:08:01,368
It'd be so cool.

1127
01:08:01,369 --> 01:08:02,327
You're 20.

1128
01:08:02,328 --> 01:08:03,620
Yeah, get out there
and live a little bit.

1129
01:08:03,621 --> 01:08:04,538
Do drugs, you know.

1130
01:08:04,539 --> 01:08:05,956
Get drunk.

1131
01:08:05,957 --> 01:08:09,293
Black out and not remember where
you are the next morning.

1132
01:08:09,294 --> 01:08:11,253
And have sex with
girls, have sex with guys,

1133
01:08:11,254 --> 01:08:14,423
have sex with both
at the same time.

1134
01:08:14,424 --> 01:08:15,966
These are the things
that you need to do.

1135
01:08:15,967 --> 01:08:18,468
You need to break in to a
library and steal the entire

1136
01:08:18,469 --> 01:08:20,680
collection of Hans
Christian Andersen books.

1137
01:08:22,223 --> 01:08:23,098
Get arrested.

1138
01:08:23,099 --> 01:08:25,268
Go to jail and
spend the night there.

1139
01:08:25,810 --> 01:08:27,060
You know, have
some life experience.

1140
01:08:27,061 --> 01:08:28,354
Eat taco bell.

1141
01:08:30,982 --> 01:08:32,343
Something's
different with you two.

1142
01:08:32,859 --> 01:08:35,277
Seriously, uh, ever since
the first time I met you,

1143
01:08:35,278 --> 01:08:37,279
I noticed that
things are different now.

1144
01:08:37,280 --> 01:08:38,281
Well, what's going on?

1145
01:08:39,198 --> 01:08:40,241
What do you mean?

1146
01:08:41,242 --> 01:08:42,993
Well, two seem to be
at a slightly different

1147
01:08:42,994 --> 01:08:45,038
disposition now
than you were then.

1148
01:08:59,302 --> 01:09:02,347
Huh, I see how it is.

1149
01:09:04,432 --> 01:09:06,059
I hope it doesn't
make you uncomfortable.

1150
01:09:06,434 --> 01:09:07,435
You kidding?

1151
01:09:09,354 --> 01:09:10,594
Nothing gayer than
the military.

1152
01:09:11,314 --> 01:09:13,024
You should see some
of the things I saw.

1153
01:09:14,442 --> 01:09:15,962
Ain't nobody's
straight in the foxhole.

1154
01:09:17,987 --> 01:09:18,988
Wow.

1155
01:09:20,239 --> 01:09:20,694
I can't believe this, you know.

1156
01:09:20,695 --> 01:09:21,935
I can't believe this, you know.

1157
01:09:22,283 --> 01:09:23,617
I got it.

1158
01:09:23,618 --> 01:09:26,328
I got these two queer pot
smoking Mormons sitting here

1159
01:09:26,329 --> 01:09:28,081
by the living
room eating tacos.

1160
01:09:36,255 --> 01:09:37,298
You okay, RJ?

1161
01:09:37,590 --> 01:09:38,757
Yeah.

1162
01:09:38,758 --> 01:09:39,759
Yeah I know.

1163
01:09:41,969 --> 01:09:43,637
Look boys.

1164
01:09:43,638 --> 01:09:46,181
I don't care if you're queer.

1165
01:09:46,182 --> 01:09:50,693
Straight or if I... you prefer
masturbation above all.

1166
01:09:50,694 --> 01:09:51,686
Straight or if I... you prefer
masturbation above all.

1167
01:09:51,687 --> 01:09:53,314
You boys are all right with me.

1168
01:09:55,274 --> 01:10:00,278
All right, well, you still, uh,

1169
01:10:00,279 --> 01:10:02,155
still want me to
read this book?

1170
01:10:02,156 --> 01:10:03,396
Still want me to
read this book?

1171
01:10:06,119 --> 01:10:07,286
So...

1172
01:10:16,754 --> 01:10:18,965
How do you feel about
about everything?

1173
01:10:21,884 --> 01:10:23,386
What do you mean everything?

1174
01:10:25,221 --> 01:10:30,435
Well, you and me
and the mission.

1175
01:10:34,230 --> 01:10:38,234
I guess I'm still trying
to make sense of it all.

1176
01:10:39,736 --> 01:10:40,570
How about you?

1177
01:10:41,487 --> 01:10:42,488
What do you feel?

1178
01:10:48,578 --> 01:10:50,037
I'm not an apostate.

1179
01:10:55,460 --> 01:10:58,546
I still have a deep
love for Jesus Christ.

1180
01:11:04,093 --> 01:11:05,428
So do I.

1181
01:11:08,598 --> 01:11:10,891
I think we're both
on the brink of

1182
01:11:10,892 --> 01:11:15,313
something new. It's
going to be rough.

1183
01:11:17,648 --> 01:11:18,649
We'll make it.

1184
01:11:21,194 --> 01:11:23,112
Everything's gonna be fine.

1185
01:12:55,538 --> 01:12:56,872
Wait.

1186
01:13:05,464 --> 01:13:06,382
Hello Elder.

1187
01:13:07,133 --> 01:13:08,509
Hello President Pearce.

1188
01:13:08,968 --> 01:13:10,469
Please have a seat.

1189
01:13:11,137 --> 01:13:13,806
Well, I'll get right to it.

1190
01:13:16,100 --> 01:13:20,103
Elder Harris reported to me
that yesterday he knocked on

1191
01:13:20,104 --> 01:13:24,774
your door then proceeded
to enter your quarters.

1192
01:13:24,775 --> 01:13:25,935
Why didn't you lock the door?

1193
01:13:26,235 --> 01:13:27,652
I thought I did.

1194
01:13:27,653 --> 01:13:28,945
Well, he obviously didn't
Chris because our zone leader

1195
01:13:28,946 --> 01:13:30,948
just walked in on
us together in bed.

1196
01:13:31,866 --> 01:13:32,156
Now I don't know how that
happened that night honestly.

1197
01:13:32,157 --> 01:13:34,701
Now I don't know how that
happened that night honestly

1198
01:13:34,702 --> 01:13:39,497
don't care but I can only
assume there's more to the

1199
01:13:39,498 --> 01:13:42,543
story than unorthodox
sleeping arrangements.

1200
01:13:43,377 --> 01:13:44,545
What are we gonna do?

1201
01:13:46,172 --> 01:13:47,173
I don't know.

1202
01:13:48,341 --> 01:13:53,762
I was also recently made
aware of your incessant

1203
01:13:53,763 --> 01:13:56,766
absence in both church
and missionary meetings.

1204
01:14:00,436 --> 01:14:02,155
Now I find this behavior
unacceptable and ungodly.

1205
01:14:02,156 --> 01:14:04,731
Now I find this behavior
unacceptable and ungodly.

1206
01:14:04,732 --> 01:14:08,818
You are not here to
entertain any subconscious

1207
01:14:08,819 --> 01:14:11,112
perversions you may be holding.

1208
01:14:11,113 --> 01:14:13,740
As a missionary, you have
done these things in the

1209
01:14:13,741 --> 01:14:16,951
eyes of our heavenly father
while serving your church.

1210
01:14:16,952 --> 01:14:17,787
God damn it.

1211
01:14:18,079 --> 01:14:18,995
Don't.

1212
01:14:18,996 --> 01:14:19,997
What?

1213
01:14:20,539 --> 01:14:21,791
Say the Lord's name in vain.

1214
01:14:22,667 --> 01:14:26,002
I've spoken to the
Stake President about this.

1215
01:14:26,003 --> 01:14:27,587
Yeah, 'cause I'm still Mormon.

1216
01:14:27,588 --> 01:14:29,631
And so am I but my
perspective has changed

1217
01:14:29,632 --> 01:14:31,633
a little since we started this.

1218
01:14:31,634 --> 01:14:32,155
And I suggest you stop
wasting your parents' money.

1219
01:14:32,156 --> 01:14:35,012
And I suggest you stop
wasting your parents' money.

1220
01:14:35,638 --> 01:14:37,431
Well, maybe mine hasn't
changed as much as yours.

1221
01:14:37,556 --> 01:14:38,556
What do you mean?

1222
01:14:38,557 --> 01:14:40,600
Maybe you're a bigger
faggot than I am.

1223
01:14:40,601 --> 01:14:42,060
Fuck you!

1224
01:14:42,061 --> 01:14:45,523
And go home and
deal with these issues.

1225
01:14:52,196 --> 01:14:55,950
Be with your family and make
things right with God.

1226
01:15:09,005 --> 01:15:14,176
So Richard, do you have
anything you'd like to say?

1227
01:15:16,762 --> 01:15:17,596
No.

1228
01:15:22,435 --> 01:15:27,940
Well, thank you
and God bless you.

1229
01:15:34,321 --> 01:15:37,867
Oh, and could you send in
Elder Harris on your way out.

1230
01:15:38,784 --> 01:15:39,994
Thank you.

1231
01:16:47,770 --> 01:16:49,063
Hey, dad.

1232
01:16:54,902 --> 01:16:56,445
RJ,

1233
01:17:00,741 --> 01:17:02,155
your mom and sister are in bed.

1234
01:17:02,156 --> 01:17:03,396
Your mom and sister are in bed.

1235
01:17:03,744 --> 01:17:04,745
Okay.

1236
01:17:07,623 --> 01:17:08,624
Hungry?

1237
01:17:09,458 --> 01:17:11,377
Yeah. Thanks.

1238
01:17:19,051 --> 01:17:22,054
I spoke to your bishop
couple of days ago.

1239
01:17:26,016 --> 01:17:28,394
We had a long conversation.

1240
01:17:32,273 --> 01:17:37,111
He, uh, told me a story

1241
01:17:39,488 --> 01:17:42,782
about a young missionary
who came to him

1242
01:17:42,783 --> 01:17:46,953
before his mission and
told him about the

1243
01:17:46,954 --> 01:17:51,709
thoughts he was having
towards other boys.

1244
01:17:55,462 --> 01:17:58,883
The bishop said, he
should go on his mission

1245
01:18:00,175 --> 01:18:01,260
and he'd be fine.

1246
01:18:02,136 --> 01:18:02,156
"Go on your mission," he said.

1247
01:18:02,157 --> 01:18:04,929
"Go on your mission," he said.

1248
01:18:04,930 --> 01:18:07,557
"You'll come back
and meet a wife.

1249
01:18:07,558 --> 01:18:08,601
You'll be fine."

1250
01:18:10,144 --> 01:18:13,897
He also said that he didn't
need to mention it to anyone

1251
01:18:13,898 --> 01:18:18,109
else that the Lord has a way
of working these things out

1252
01:18:18,110 --> 01:18:19,278
in due time.

1253
01:18:24,575 --> 01:18:27,619
Well, that young missionary
came back after serving an

1254
01:18:27,620 --> 01:18:32,155
honorable mission, went to
the bishop and said he was

1255
01:18:32,156 --> 01:18:32,957
honorable mission, went to
the bishop and said he was

1256
01:18:32,958 --> 01:18:37,003
still having these thoughts
but he listened to his

1257
01:18:37,004 --> 01:18:42,383
mentors as they said,
once he met the right girl,

1258
01:18:42,384 --> 01:18:43,344
everything would change.

1259
01:18:47,306 --> 01:18:51,560
And he met a beautiful young
woman three months later.

1260
01:18:53,187 --> 01:18:55,939
They were married
within six months,

1261
01:18:55,940 --> 01:18:58,232
had their first child
by the end of the year,

1262
01:18:58,233 --> 01:19:00,361
a second child the year after.

1263
01:19:01,195 --> 01:19:02,155
Dad, I don't know what to say.

1264
01:19:02,156 --> 01:19:02,529
Dad, I don't know what to say.

1265
01:19:02,821 --> 01:19:04,114
There's nothing to say, RJ.

1266
01:19:07,117 --> 01:19:08,577
I went on a mission.

1267
01:19:09,954 --> 01:19:13,915
I wanted you to go on one
so that you can have some of

1268
01:19:13,916 --> 01:19:17,585
those experiences and you
could sit at this table one

1269
01:19:17,586 --> 01:19:18,962
day and talk about them.

1270
01:19:18,963 --> 01:19:23,007
But dad, I did do
my missionary work

1271
01:19:23,008 --> 01:19:24,342
and I did have some
of those experiences

1272
01:19:24,343 --> 01:19:27,345
and I-I truly did enjoy it.

1273
01:19:27,346 --> 01:19:28,514
I know you did, son.

1274
01:19:30,391 --> 01:19:32,155
It's just...

1275
01:19:32,156 --> 01:19:32,656
It's just...

1276
01:19:36,272 --> 01:19:37,982
Dang it, Ricky!

1277
01:19:39,984 --> 01:19:42,820
You're a winner, a champion.

1278
01:19:47,408 --> 01:19:49,409
Now you chose to do
your missionary work

1279
01:19:49,410 --> 01:19:53,037
and that's very respectable

1280
01:19:53,038 --> 01:19:56,709
but, son, you've got some
hard choices to make.

1281
01:19:58,168 --> 01:20:01,422
Choices that are
gonna affect your future.

1282
01:20:01,922 --> 01:20:02,156
It's gonna be
hard on all of us.

1283
01:20:02,157 --> 01:20:03,507
It's gonna be
hard on all of us.

1284
01:20:05,801 --> 01:20:10,471
Ricky, this town and the church
know everything about you.

1285
01:20:10,472 --> 01:20:12,223
You think they're not gonna find
out what happened in Oregon?

1286
01:20:12,224 --> 01:20:13,183
I know they will.

1287
01:20:13,976 --> 01:20:15,436
So what are you gonna do?

1288
01:20:18,731 --> 01:20:20,024
Nothing.

1289
01:20:23,944 --> 01:20:27,489
I'm gonna let people's
imagination run rampant.

1290
01:20:28,032 --> 01:20:29,282
Why would you do that?

1291
01:20:29,283 --> 01:20:31,035
I don't owe anybody
an explanation.

1292
01:20:32,327 --> 01:20:37,415
You're my son and I love
you first and foremost

1293
01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:41,045
but I cannot stand
by you on this.

1294
01:20:41,879 --> 01:20:44,256
Your family can't stand by you.

1295
01:20:46,967 --> 01:20:49,011
So what are you gonna do?

1296
01:20:50,971 --> 01:20:56,059
Will you at least try to
keep your focus and maintain

1297
01:20:56,060 --> 01:20:58,019
your standing in the church?

1298
01:20:58,020 --> 01:20:59,062
Will you?

1299
01:20:59,063 --> 01:21:00,272
I don't see how I can.

1300
01:21:01,273 --> 01:21:02,155
I don't think the
church helps the members,

1301
01:21:02,156 --> 01:21:05,526
I don't think the
church helps the members,

1302
01:21:05,527 --> 01:21:06,903
have empathy for
people like me.

1303
01:21:06,904 --> 01:21:08,988
People like you? Ricky!

1304
01:21:08,989 --> 01:21:11,157
There's only ever
been speculation.

1305
01:21:11,158 --> 01:21:12,158
Speculation?

1306
01:21:12,159 --> 01:21:14,286
Dad, I am gay.

1307
01:21:22,586 --> 01:21:24,088
I didn't choose this, dad.

1308
01:21:27,049 --> 01:21:29,885
It's been in me
for a long time.

1309
01:21:54,159 --> 01:21:56,120
I told my beloved
sister what happened.

1310
01:21:57,371 --> 01:21:59,172
I didn't think she
should be left in the dark.

1311
01:22:00,582 --> 01:22:01,875
She understood.

1312
01:22:04,002 --> 01:22:07,130
I told Elise though
she had already known

1313
01:22:07,131 --> 01:22:08,371
but wanted to hear for herself.

1314
01:22:09,800 --> 01:22:11,218
She was hard to console.

1315
01:22:14,721 --> 01:22:17,141
I have a meeting with
the Stake President today.

1316
01:22:18,600 --> 01:22:21,019
I will see him before I meet
with the church council.

1317
01:22:21,603 --> 01:22:22,604
Have a seat.

1318
01:22:30,028 --> 01:22:32,656
RJ, I'd like to start off
with a prayer if that's okay?

1319
01:22:33,031 --> 01:22:34,074
Yes, sir.

1320
01:22:35,617 --> 01:22:38,077
Dear Heavenly Father,
thank you for getting RJ

1321
01:22:38,078 --> 01:22:41,080
here safely and we ask that
you please bless this young

1322
01:22:41,081 --> 01:22:44,083
man and guide him through
this rough time in the name

1323
01:22:44,084 --> 01:22:46,169
of Jesus Christ, Amen.

1324
01:22:46,170 --> 01:22:47,045
Amen.

1325
01:22:50,549 --> 01:22:52,615
RJ, I've known you
since you were a child.

1326
01:22:52,616 --> 01:22:52,718
RJ, I've known you
since you were a child.

1327
01:22:54,052 --> 01:22:55,179
I was at your baptism.

1328
01:22:56,138 --> 01:23:00,057
I've watched you grow,
go through high school,

1329
01:23:00,058 --> 01:23:03,562
college and I deemed you
worthy of your mission.

1330
01:23:07,232 --> 01:23:09,650
If anyone told me that I
would be looking at these

1331
01:23:09,651 --> 01:23:12,153
words written on this piece
of paper right here in my

1332
01:23:12,154 --> 01:23:17,158
hands ten years ago, I...

1333
01:23:17,159 --> 01:23:20,162
RJ, tell me, why are
you here today, son?

1334
01:23:22,122 --> 01:23:22,616
To talk about my future
as a member of the.

1335
01:23:22,617 --> 01:23:24,290
To talk about my future
as a member of the.

1336
01:23:24,291 --> 01:23:26,126
Church Of Jesus Christ
Of Latter-Day Saints.

1337
01:23:27,211 --> 01:23:29,086
This is a very serious matter.

1338
01:23:29,087 --> 01:23:30,755
You know this.

1339
01:23:30,756 --> 01:23:31,757
Yes.

1340
01:23:32,716 --> 01:23:35,676
And this could be
grounds for excommunication.

1341
01:23:35,677 --> 01:23:37,094
You're aware of that.

1342
01:23:37,095 --> 01:23:38,013
Yes.

1343
01:23:39,181 --> 01:23:43,517
First off, I'd like for you
to tell me in detail about

1344
01:23:43,518 --> 01:23:46,355
the relationship between
you and Elder Merrill.

1345
01:23:48,232 --> 01:23:52,194
I'm sorry, I don't-I don't
know if I can talk about this.

1346
01:23:54,488 --> 01:23:56,657
You broke a very sacred law.

1347
01:23:57,157 --> 01:23:59,700
You're right. I did.

1348
01:23:59,701 --> 01:24:01,245
I can't deny that.

1349
01:24:03,205 --> 01:24:04,830
Did you want to
go to on a mission?

1350
01:24:04,831 --> 01:24:07,000
Of course, I always have.

1351
01:24:08,335 --> 01:24:11,128
And you want to serve
even though you knew

1352
01:24:11,129 --> 01:24:12,339
this about yourself?

1353
01:24:13,340 --> 01:24:14,341
Yes.

1354
01:24:15,217 --> 01:24:18,135
I'm not the first gay man
you've sent on a mission

1355
01:24:18,136 --> 01:24:20,013
and I won't be the last.

1356
01:24:21,265 --> 01:24:22,615
The church doesn't do much
to provide a way for us to.

1357
01:24:22,616 --> 01:24:25,226
The church doesn't do much
to provide a way for us to

1358
01:24:25,227 --> 01:24:27,604
be honest about it.

1359
01:24:28,730 --> 01:24:33,318
As for Elder Merrill,

1360
01:24:37,781 --> 01:24:40,367
Elder Merrill and I were
mission companions.

1361
01:24:43,996 --> 01:24:45,580
We served our church well.

1362
01:24:50,377 --> 01:24:52,615
I cannot speak for him nor
will I go into greater detail

1363
01:24:52,616 --> 01:24:57,843
I cannot speak for him nor
will I go into greater detail

1364
01:24:58,385 --> 01:25:02,264
other than to say

1365
01:25:08,395 --> 01:25:13,317
I have great feelings
for Elder Merrill.

1366
01:25:15,944 --> 01:25:21,282
My feelings for him
are greater than for,

1367
01:25:21,283 --> 01:25:22,615
uh, any man.

1368
01:25:22,616 --> 01:25:23,116
Uh, any man.

1369
01:25:34,421 --> 01:25:37,298
And if I acted
upon my emotions,

1370
01:25:37,299 --> 01:25:43,639
I don't see any injustice in
my acts nor disgrace in them.

1371
01:25:49,061 --> 01:25:52,615
Shame on you and
shame on this church.

1372
01:25:52,616 --> 01:25:55,359
Shame on you and
shame on this church.

1373
01:26:02,449 --> 01:26:06,453
I was raised to believe I
was a part of something.

1374
01:26:07,496 --> 01:26:15,252
My family and friends and
now because of who I am,

1375
01:26:15,253 --> 01:26:17,297
I don't get to be that.

1376
01:26:19,341 --> 01:26:21,301
I'm excluded from that.

1377
01:26:29,267 --> 01:26:30,560
I'm not sorry.

1378
01:26:34,481 --> 01:26:35,941
I hope you know that.

1379
01:26:38,485 --> 01:26:40,320
I am not sorry.

1380
01:27:10,100 --> 01:27:11,475
How did it go?

1381
01:27:11,476 --> 01:27:12,686
It went okay.

1382
01:27:13,061 --> 01:27:13,937
So?

1383
01:27:15,355 --> 01:27:17,523
I told him I don't need to
regain my worthiness and I

1384
01:27:17,524 --> 01:27:19,164
don't need to see the
head council either.

1385
01:27:20,318 --> 01:27:21,153
What?

1386
01:27:24,531 --> 01:27:25,574
Why not?

1387
01:27:55,479 --> 01:27:57,022
So, where do I go from here?

1388
01:27:59,316 --> 01:28:00,733
Maybe I should just throw
a dart on the map

1389
01:28:00,734 --> 01:28:02,736
and see where I end up.

1390
01:28:06,865 --> 01:28:09,075
Or, I could just see
where the world takes me.