- ♪♪ MTV ♪♪
- Previously on "Love and Hip Hop Atlanta"...
- Welcome to Canada.
- OK, OK.
- Yeah.
- Oh no.
- There's a particular song that I've never performed.
It's very special to me.
But, Karlie, could you please join me on the stage?
- I can't do it.
- This is so beautiful.
- My sister, she's going to donate her eggs.
- Wait, hold on. Wait, time-out.
I thought we was off that.
- You're not going to deny this of me.
- The decisions you make, it affect the household first.
- What is it that you need?
- I'm asking you to [bleep] pay attention to your household.
- I seen all the [bleep] text messages.
- Yeah, I'm still hollering at girls I want to see.
I don't know if you I are going to work out.
- You lied about what you're doing.
- See why I didn't have time and didn't answer that phone?
- Bitch don't say that this happened because of me.
Bitch, I [bleep].
- You sitting at this table because of me.
- I'll slap you, bitch.
[bleep]
[funky music]
- ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪
- ♪♪ It's the life that we're livin' ♪♪
- ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪
- ♪♪ It's the life that we chose ♪♪
- ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪
♪♪ It's the life that we're livin' ♪♪
- ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪
- ♪♪ It's the life that we chose ♪♪
- ♪♪ Made my way to the top ♪♪
♪♪ And it ain't no stoppin' ♪♪
- ♪♪ There's got to be another way that we can work it out ♪♪
♪♪ Love's under attack ♪♪
- Why you ain't tell me about the party ?
- The video release?
- Yeah.
- Oh, baby, listen.
Diamond kept saying to us about some triangle.
- I don't want to talk about Diamond no more.
- All right. - It's over with.
- OK. - That's done.
- So y'all can't be friends?
- Not doing stuff like that.
- ♪♪ I put it all up on the line ♪♪
♪♪ Just to see you one more time ♪♪
♪♪ Just to have you in my arms ♪♪
♪♪ Know you always on my mind ♪♪
- I know I didn't show up to meet with you and Renni,
but I wanted to invite you to my release party.
I'm getting ready to drop my project.
- Now that we have some sort of understanding,
I think I can make it.
As long as you promise to be there too.
- ♪♪ They don't know ♪♪
♪♪ They don't know ♪♪
♪♪ No, they don't really know about love ♪♪
♪♪ About love ♪♪
♪♪ No, they don't really know about love ♪♪
- Renni!
both: Mmm.
- Now that we back from Canada, I love
this new, new vibe, just--
- Way.
- --out having fun with your man.
- Yeah.
- He good for you.
It's like you so much yourself.
- I am.
Like, I'm so not nervous.
But I just don't want to just jump into something
just yet because I keep going from relationship
to relationship.
All of this ruckus is going around about Sierra
keep a mangate, of course, because they
caught a little glimpse of me and my friend
kissing in the kitchen.
Yes, I have someone that I'm seeing.
But like, I'm keeping this relationship
as private as possible.
And we just be rocking out.
We be-- it-- it's like a-- a vibe.
And I like that for me.
I really do.
But the reason why I like [bleep] with Zay
is because Zay have been trying to get with me
since we was 16 years old.
He loved me for me.
He liked the fat Sierra.
He liked the Sierra with no lip injections.
He liked Sierra with no money.
And that's why I [bleep] with him.
And that's why I respect him.
- I love that for you.
- In the past, I feel like I had
to tuck a lot of my emotions to the back of my head.
And I really didn't get a chance to vent and talk
about it because I didn't want to sound like the little girl
who cried wolf.
You know what I'm saying?
So it's like, I'm not going to lie.
It was, like, a bit difficult.
No, it's OK.
I just don't like talking about it because--
- But you got to talk about it, though.
- Yeah, but like, I went through two other
crazy public relationships.
So it's like, oh, Sierra is being crazy again.
But no, like, I almost lost my mind.
Like, this time, I'm just really not listening
to nobody but myself.
- It's over with now.
- It's over.
My divorce finalized.
And I've been such in a better space.
You know, I just feel like I learned
so much about myself, to really take my time,
to really love on me.
I had to go through it to grow through it.
And I'm just so glad that I had the strength.
- What's going on with you and Zay, like--
- You look like you [bleep] glowing or some [bleep].
- Well, so you know how when we was in Canada,
I wasn't really feeling good and stuff?
- Yeah.
- I think I need to take a test.
So I am feeling sick.
I am a little late.
And I'm kind of adding up like when I started feeling sick,
and the type of sicknesses I have
and also the type of grown folk stuff I like to do.
So it's just a real moment like, what's going on?
- My-- my nerve be bad. Come on.
Let's go get some food.
I'm hungry.
Bitch, you not going to stress me out.
- We don't stress.
- Uh-uh, get somebody else to do it.
- ♪♪ I'm good ♪♪ ♪♪ I'm good ♪♪
♪♪ I'm good ♪♪
♪♪ I'm alive ♪♪
♪♪ It's drive time ♪♪
♪♪ Got to cut ties to show 'em I really want it ♪♪
♪♪ I'm good ♪♪ ♪♪ I'm good ♪♪
[knock at door]
- Come in.
- Oh, you sick.
You don't want to get the door.
- No, I don't want to get up. - How are you feeling, boo?
- I'm OK, baby.
Oh, thank you.
- And I pay attention to detail.
So I heard some of the stuff that you like.
Today I'm checking on Jessica.
The scare in Canada, when she left the group
while we were in the slopes, I didn't
know it was that serious.
So I'm here to love on her and see
really how I can support her.
I've been thinking about you, girl, since the trip.
- Oh my God.
- First off, health-wise, how are you feeling?
- You know, I'm recovering.
- OK.
- I was really sick.
I have stage IV endometriosis.
It's like every single month, you have severe nausea.
Your cramps, nothing works.
Can't eat.
You're now dehydrated.
And you can't catch a [bleep] break.
I don't really like to talk about it
any longer because I first don't want sympathy about it.
But when I do feel good, I kind of get, like, you know,
real, real free-spirited.
Because most of the time, I'm always constantly in pain.
The big 10-centimeter cyst that was removed last year,
now it's growing back.
And it's 4 centimeters already.
And now that cyst there is hurting,
which is causing more nausea.
This is something that I deal with every 28 days of my life.
I can't continue living like this.
But how did you enjoy the trip?
- It was cool until you messed up my damn hair.
The fact that I had a girl do my face--
[both shouting]
- I'm about to kill Jessica.
- I'm just thinking we-- we in a pool.
And let's have some fun.
I didn't think it was that big of a deal.
And Zell and Bambi said something
about reading the room.
And I'm like, really?
- The pool vibe was we was chilling.
It was giving shoulder-below wet.
That's the reading the room part.
- Amy, look at these hands of mine.
- Let me look at them good.
- I've been on this Earth over 200 times.
The one thing I'm not going to do
is come back as Jessica White, and this is my last life--
- And talk about--
- And [bleep] talk about hair and lashes.
- Now look at mine.
- You haven't been here that many times.
- I haven't been-- - They soft.
- I be room reading.
- But let me mother you then.
- But mother me dry.
Sis, where you been?
And-- and what did you come back as?
Like, I don't know.
If you've been here 200 times as a Black woman,
then you know when you see this wig on,
specifically a frontal, you knew
not to dunk me in the water.
But I'm just glad that Jessica is feeling better.
So your IG story?
- Well, you know, I'm about to start in vitro.
- How are you feeling about that?
- In a couple of weeks, I go in for my first treatment.
I want children.
And if you know Jessica White,
I'm going to keep [bleep] trying.
I have been posting on my social media in vitro journey.
And I'm here to be really honest
and to be vulnerable and tell the truth
and to make space for other people
to feel comfortable with telling the truth.
It just gives me more hope.
- My situation, you're actually--
you'll be the first friend, not family member,
that I've ever shared this with.
And you being open about this is
really an inspiration to me.
I have something medically that I've
been running from for years,
even me naturally having a baby.
As a teenager, I received some bad news
about my reproductive health.
There's a canal in my vaginal area
that looks very thin, very fine.
And that is causing me to not menstruate regularly.
And I may not ever carry my own child naturally.
The worst part about all of this is,
I was with Mazi for six years, and I never told him.
It's been such a secret.
I do feel guilty sometimes not fully, you know,
disclosing my medical situation with Mazi.
Because when me and Mazi were a couple,
we definitely were planning on having kids.
So although Mazi and I are not together,
I think that he deserves to know the truth.
- What you've got to do is get rid of the emotional guilt.
It's never going to be easy, Amy, because you feel--
you feel less of a woman.
- I do.
- Especially when I was with a man that was able to get
everybody pregnant but me.
- Same thing.
I think of that with Mazi.
- It really [bleep]--
that [bleep] hurts.
I've gone through so many different emotions
to get to this point where I'm like [bleep] it,
I am about to do this.
And if I have to do it alone,
I'm going to do it alone and raise the best [bleep]
child that I possibly can.
I am going to carry my child next year.
And no devil in hell is going to stop that.
I think that you're going to be able to carry your baby.
And I touch and agree with you that that happens.
And I promise you--
- And same for you.
- Yeah, seriously, seriously.
It's going to happen.
- It's going to happen for you, too.
- It's going to happen.
- Coming up on "Love and Hip Hop Atlanta"...
- You've been actually acting a fool on social media lately.
- You know, it's a lot that's been going on.
- His ex?
- He has one of his exes.
- Who was there for you when you were at your lowest point?
Was it me?
Or was it Erica?
- I don't want to play no games with you.
He had me bring out the three best rings I had.
- I don't like him.
She's not happy.
- ♪♪ Made my way to the top, and it ain't no stoppin' ♪♪
[gentle piano music]
- ♪♪ Tears fall on my pillowcase ♪♪
♪♪ Don't say it's too late to say ♪♪
♪♪ Because I know ♪♪
- Returning from Canada, I hope that I'd
be able to snap my fingers and wash away
all that this year has been.
- I feel that we are in a dark place.
If this is going to be, if it's not,
then you got to let it go.
- Letting it go is not an option.
- You gotta be willing to put the work in.
- I'm dealing with my husband that doesn't feel loved,
doesn't feel like I prioritize him or the kids.
And it's been hard.
How was school?
- Good.
- It was good?
At this point, with Keisha, I can't turn back.
But I don't want to lose my marriage because of that.
- I don't feel like we're in a relationship.
- What is it that you need?
- Pay attention to the love that's needed in this house.
- I really want to do what I need to do for Keisha.
But I also want to make sure my husband feels valued and heard,
because I cannot lose him.
So listen, I have to go to Erica Banks' release party.
- I don't think he's coming.
Part of me feels like I want to still make decisions,
because I am my own person.
And I don't want to feel penalized for doing that.
But I have not lost hope in my marriage.
And I am going to keep fighting.
[upbeat funky music]
- ♪♪ He doesn't wear a cape ♪♪
♪♪ Yo, I'm a savage so far from average ♪♪
♪♪ Where a big crown which shows I'm a maverick ♪♪
- OK.
- ♪♪ Black girl magic ♪♪
♪♪ But at the Birk Friday ♪♪
♪♪ My queens get ratched ♪♪
- So tonight, we are at my album release party.
I'm excited for everybody to hear it.
The biggest part about it for me
is that I spent my own money into this entire project
without the help of 1501.
- You look good, bitch.
- How you doing? - I'm good. What's up?
- Congratulations.
- Thank you.
- I know you going to kill it tonight.
Let's toast.
Let's toast to you.
- This is the type of time I'm on right now.
- I'm trying to get lit.
I'm outside.
- Don't think I didn't see your little social media posts.
You've been actually acting a fool on social media lately.
- You know, it's a lot that's been going on.
- What?
- Y'all don't see "Sister, Sister"?
- The show?
- No, Santana and one of his exes, two [bleep] with BBL,
and wigs, and--
- Was that fake to aggravate you?
- I think he feels like it's going to get under my skin.
Santana is the one being difficult.
He just kept antagonizing me on the internet,
even though I'm out doing my own single thing right now.
I'm not posting [bleep] on the internet
trying to like do [bleep] to make you mad.
That's weird.
You're weird.
- I thought y'all would have fixed things by now.
- I think it's both of us just being like stubborn.
But I'm not going as far as Lincoln with an ex.
They look like Mr. and Mrs. Potato.
- I haven't seen it.
- I'm definitely talking trash out of hurt.
They're picking with me.
So I'm going to say whatever to hurt or to hit back.
I'm just like, hey, I'm focused on my fashion show.
- Well, your brand is more important.
It's like she here doing her business.
I'm working on my business.
But I wouldn't let that overshadow what we done
worked so hard for.
- You know what?
- [squealing]
Despite what's going on between Lisa and I,
I'm excited to come out and celebrate
Erica Banks' album release.
And I hope that this break of me going out
doesn't cause more turmoil in my house.
But I just need some mental clarity and just a
moment away.
- ♪♪ Girl, the whole crew lit ♪♪
♪♪ Don't be foolish ♪♪
♪♪ Baby, it's the movement ♪♪
♪♪ Girl, the whole crew lit ♪♪
♪♪ We be rocking, baby, popping, baby ♪♪
♪♪ Shopping, baby, options, baby ♪♪
- We got a real queen in the building
that we celebrating tonight.
I want to hear one clap for my girl, E. Banks.
- Yes, yes, yes, the mother[bleep] soul queen
is back in the mother[bleep] building.
♪♪ Which one you want? ♪♪
♪♪ Is it Keisha? ♪♪
♪♪ Is it Tiffy? ♪♪
♪♪ Is it Jason ♪♪
♪♪ Is it Britney? ♪♪
♪♪ Is it drugs? ♪♪
♪♪ Is it TT? ♪♪
♪♪ And if you want 'em ♪♪
♪♪ I can show you what it mean, mean ♪♪
♪♪ Iced out ♪♪
♪♪ Creed up ♪♪
♪♪ Jealous bitches gave up ♪♪
♪♪ [bleep] like the devil shall never ♪♪
♪♪ And if you want 'em, I can show you ♪♪
♪♪ What means in real life ♪♪
When I say Erica, y'all say Banks.
Erica-- [together] Banks.
- Erica--
[together] Banks.
- I love y'all so much.
[cheers and applause]
Performing period for me is always a good time.
My heart is filled.
And my jeans are a little tight,
but I'm still having a good time.
- Congratulations, beautiful.
- Thank you. - It sounds good.
- What's going on with you and Scrappy?
I see you here, Momma Dee, your whole family, your ex family--
- It's family.
It's family. - Oh, OK.
- Who you came with? You came by yourself?
- I did.
I don't want the vibe to be weird.
- Khaotic, Khaotic, Scrappy.
- Hi. Hello. - Momma Dee.
- Mother[bleep] East Coast [bleep] to the West Coast?
- God damn.
- Seeing Khaotic tonight is so funny.
It's my first time seeing him since we broke up,
- Hey, ya'll.
- Just him being here to still support me
is very sweet of him.
Don't get me wrong.
He was a terrible boyfriend.
But he was a great lover and he was a great friend,
so I can't forget that.
- You just snapped her.
- Yes, you did.
- I want to do something right now.
Let me tell y'all something.
When Erica separated herself from me emotionally,
I didn't take it the best way. - Oh, my God.
- And I want to apologize.
- You was acting crazy too when Amy dropped you for her man.
- I want to apologize to Amy, because I let a lot of things
come between our friendship.
And it was just like a lot of misunderstandings.
- Forgiven, friend.
- I came a long way.
I mean, I was polyester.
Then I was in a full-fledged relationship,
while being boo bae bestie.
Now I'm bro?
This is like ancestrial.com.
- Did you guys speak to my sister?
- I am.
I'm talking to her right now.
- Nothing.
- Oh, yeah.
No, there's not going to be two kings.
- Oh I see--
I didn't even know Diamond was in here.
- So Amy? - Yes.
- So Amy, I had a video release party--
- OK.
- --not too long ago.
- OK.
- All this stuff kicked off with Diamond.
- Can we have a conversation?
- Uh-huh, come on.
- I have not talked to Momma Dee
since her video release party.
And Momma Dee was real upset with the way I acted.
- I ain't scared of you.
- I'm not scared of you neither.
- You know you need the cameras on, sweetie.
- Y'all wouldn't let me goddamn talk and I'm done.
- So I want to mend things with Momma Dee
and clear the air with her.
So I want to talk.
As far as your party, I apologize.
- I don't understand why it had to come to blows like this.
- I'm trying to figure out what made her come sit down
with me and you talking.
I didn't say anything about Erica.
I don't know if it's because the fact
that my father is on life support,
I've just been in a daze. - Yeah.
- You have been the only person that has been reaching
out to me, not even your son.
- I don't like that.
'Cause I didn't raise him to be like that.
And that hurt me, because at least
he could still be a friend.
How your daddy?
- This is what my father's looking like right now.
- Oh, Diamond.
I'm sorry.
- My father is my best friend.
He's my everything.
[somber music]
It's just unbelievable.
It's like a really, really, really bad dream.
But this has really shown me who's really down for me,
who is genuine, who is in my corner.
It's allowing me to see the real from the fake.
I thank you for reaching out to me because you didn't have to
and ask me if I need--
- Because I know how it feel to lose a parent.
My mama gone, so I know how it feels.
- What's going on?
- Her father not doing well.
I'm sorry.
You know her dad.
It ain't good.
- You know I love you. You know what I'm saying?
- You love me? - I love you.
Yeah, I love you.
- Well, show that; prove that you love me then.
Who was there for you when you was at your lowest point
when you was going through your divorce?
Was it me or was it Erica?
OK, right.
- Say it.
Yeah, say it.
- I never spoke bad on you.
- I just want to hug you, because I just want
to give you that energy, all right?
- Uh-huh.
- Aw.
- Man, right now, it's about being there for somebody
that was there for me.
And I just want to be there for her.
Like beyond me and her having a relationship
or anything, like, this is me being a friend.
Let's cheer to Papi.
- Cheers to Papi.
- Cheers to Papi and more life.
- Yes.
- More love.
- Coming up on "Love and Hip Hop Atlanta"...
- I'm trying to take care of her.
- I didn't know she was there.
I'm coming home to have some dinner.
- Honey, you don't come into her home
and speak to her in a manner like that.
- I went out and got some tests earlier.
I'm gonna find out.
- I want you-- you got them already?
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Made my way to the top, and it ain't no stoppin' ♪♪
- ♪♪ If I say I hate the weather ♪♪
♪♪ Then it's rain clouds that I see ♪♪
♪♪ If I say I'll ♪♪
- Oh, Lord.
- Oh, baby.
Thank you.
Earlier, I went to the emergency room
to go get checked out, because once again,
I wasn't feeling well.
So I just got out the hospital.
And I'm just really happy that Karlie is here for me.
She sees me.
And she takes care of me, especially when I'm sick.
- So OK, what exactly happened?
- The pain is so severe I throw up.
And once I start throwing up, it's literally nonstop.
- Karlie?
- Yeah.
- What's good? What's the vibe?
- Hey.
- I'm in an awkward position right now because Kai
and I are still working together
but we're also living together.
Of course I still love Kai.
Yes, I want to be with him.
But he has to learn it's me, and that's it.
This is just a serious entanglement.
- You know what I'm saying? What's good?
Don't have no dinner. What's up?
- Well, Jess just came out.
I was trying to take care of her.
- I didn't know she was here. What's she doing here?
- My friend, I got to be there for her.
- So you're a caretaker now, respectfully?
- I didn't think I needed to tell you that my best
friend is at the house.
- Not a requirement, but what are we doing?
I'm expecting dinner.
- "Yo, Karlie."
Who the [bleep] walks in the house screaming
a person's name like that?
You walked in mad?
Ooh, he makes me sick.
- She just came to see me.
I wanted to take care of her.
- I understand that.
But let me know, especially if I'm going
to come through the door. I'm expecting dinner.
You don't let me know nothing.
I could have picked up food for us, anything.
Text me what you want to eat. I order to go pick it up.
It's all good. It's healing.
- It's healing?
You just brought unhealing energy.
- I was concerned about you. How is it unhealing?
- How are you trying to bring healing
energy to me when you said you didn't even know I was here.
- Because I just walked in here.
She informed me why you were here, then I activated.
- I want to--
I understand.
His mouth runs for days.
I mean, like, good Lord, shut up.
You acting like this, Kai, is not
helping win over my friends.
They already don't like you.
- So I apologize it's a trigger.
- Actually, if you want to talk about a trigger,
you didn't trigger me.
You're triggering her by speaking to her in the manner
of which that you are.
Kings don't do that to their queens.
- I'm coming home to some dinner.
- Honey, you don't come into her home
and speak to her in a manner like that.
- Now first and foremost, you're
not the corrections officer.
- No, no, no, I don't need to be.
But I can correct when I see some things that are wrong.
It's as simple as that.
- Cool, well guess what.
I'm not going back and forth.
We're going to save that for the, you know, record.
- You ain't ever going to go back--
- I don't do that for women.
Tell me what y'all want to eat.
Y'all enjoy your evening and I'll make
sure I'm accommodating to you.
I hope you feel better.
[funky music]
- I can't believe that Kai would do this.
He's just so disrespectful.
At this point, it just feels like a whole game.
- He's a bitch.
My [bleep] veins are boiling right now.
That [bleep] just sent me through the roof, girl.
- My ass wanted this moving so bad.
But now I'm like, oh [bleep], what did I just do?
- If that he will do that [bleep] in front of me,
what is he doing in private?
[funky music]]
- ♪♪ My new baby he protect me ♪♪
♪♪ Never stress me ♪♪
♪♪ I never felt a love like this ♪♪
- Baby, what you got going?
- So I haven't seen Zacc since I've been to Canada.
So I've been here just kind of, you know,
anticipating him getting back so we can figure
out what's going on with me.
You know, we got something to talk about.
While I was in Canada, we were supposed
to do a lot more other stuff.
But you know, you had me sick.
I was so sick without you.
I was sick without you today.
- I missed you too.
- I'm definitely in love with Zacc.
And I'm ready to settle down and have
me a nice rock on this hand.
This the one for me.
Like, he get me in a different kind of way.
I think I got something new for me and you to talk about.
- What you got for us to talk about?
- You've been a little sleepy?
You know the country folk say that means
you got a baby on the way.
You want to find out?
- I want you-- you got them already?
- Well, I went and got some tests earlier.
- I know Zacc has, like, talked about having a baby together.
But actually being in this moment where
we're about to take a test and it
could possibly be about to happen, I'm a little nervous.
And I'm not going to lie, my anxiety is through the roof.
I have older kids.
So the thought of starting over,
that's a little different.
[tense music]
♪♪ ♪♪
[bleep]. - [laughs]
Um...
like, I'm about to have to change diapers again?
I don't even know if I remember how to do that.
I don't know--
I don't even remember what it feels like to be pregnant.
This is not my body anymore.
This is literally the body of someone else.
And I have to follow their rules.
Whew, it's a lot.
But I'm excited.
And I'm very appreciative and thankful that this situation
has happened with Zacc and the type of man
that he is, because I'm looking forward
to actually, like, growing a family with somebody
in a very healthy way.
I think this is just like the perfect time for me
to, you know, experience being a mom again.
I get to experience it with somebody I love.
And I've been on this healing journey, as you know.
I feel like I'm a better version of myself.
Everything we've gone through these past couple of months
just as far as healing and facing traumas,
I'm in a better space mentally, emotionally.
So I think, like, everything is happening how
it's supposed to happen and right
when it's supposed to happen.
Well, I don't think we should tell the kids and stuff yet.
But I'm going to call Sierra.
Where are you at? - Renni...
I just got done eating.
You looking all glowy and dewy.
- You know, me and you been kind of
talking about how I ain't been feeling good and stuff?
- What the [bleep]?
Oh my God, you are pregnant.
I am an auntie.
Oh, my goodness. - [giggles]
- Oh my God, this is about to be our little baby.
I got to get on my rich auntie duties.
That's it.
So now I'm thinking about the baby shower,
I'm thinking about the push gift.
I'm thinking about the maternity pictures
and how, like, can I--
can I be in the maternity pictures with her and her
baby daddy?
- I'm excited.
- We got so much [bleep] we got to do.
You pregnant, bitch.
- Coming up on "Love and Hip Hop Atlanta"...
- I went to a doctor.
And the news that they gave me, I was scared to hear.
You've been asking for years.
- ♪♪ Made my way to the top, and it ain't no stoppin' ♪♪
[funky music]
- ♪♪ Big dogs on me, never smile ♪♪
♪♪ Watch what you say ♪♪
♪♪ Ain't got a mouth ♪♪
♪♪ I'm a big dog ♪♪
- You know, after talking to Jessica
about my infertility issues, it has been weighing on my
spirit heavily.
You smell those treats, don't you, buddy?
Jessica definitely gave me a confidence boost that I
don't have to be embarrassed.
I am not alone.
I don't have to feel like something is wrong with me.
And I need to let it out.
Sit, Admiral.
- Oh, look at you go.
- I asked Mazi to meet up with me
so that I can finally be able to tell him
about this secret burden that I've been
carrying around for years.
- Come on.
- I really want closure with Mazi.
And now I'm starting to realize whatever Mazi's issues are,
at the end of the day, I probably was projecting
my own personal thoughts and secrets
and fear about my own body on our relationship.
- How was your trip?
- Ooh, let me tell you, it was better
than I thought it would be.
Me and Renni hit it off really good.
- That's good.
- But the other day, I pulled up on Jessica.
And she just shared with me something that almost felt
like, boom, if you need another sign
that you need to talk about what you're going through--
I'm already choking up thinking about it.
Truth of the matter is, when I was in high school,
I went to a doctor.
And the news that they gave me,
I was scared to hear that I possibly
can't have children naturally.
I've honestly been in denial about the news
that I may never conceive.
I definitely did everything to avoid that, which included
not going to my appointments.
I did not want to believe that this was my reality.
So you're not shooting blanks.
You've been asking for years.
It was me.
- Like, damn.
- I-- I just don't want to accept that
none of that is my future.
So I just decided to never share it with you.
I just thought you deserved to know.
- Just to hear this, it's like [bleep].
I know this is devastating for Amy.
I wish I would have knew some of this, you know?
Because I would have been able to carry some of the weight
with you, because you know you got this on your mind,
and this on your mind
that can cause a relationship to collapse.
And now I see it may be more than just me.
- That's hard.
I can't even believe I just said it out of my mouth.
I got to face it, and I got to accept it.
Like, instead of why would God make me like this?
Instead I could be like, it might be a bigger reason
why this is happening to me.
But I'm actually ready to face the music.
- Well, I'm behind you.
Let's face it.
- To see him respond in such a compassionate way,
honestly, I'm looking at him in a much different light.
Because I expected the response to be, you're a liar.
What about all those times where
we talked about having kids, and why haven't
you gotten pregnant yet?
Like, he didn't talk about any of that.
I just feel like so much weight just got lifted off of me.
- So you ain't gotta just get down on yourself
or beat yourself down about it.
- [sighs]
- And I know you're a strong woman.
You know what I'm saying?
Like, I done seen you overcome a lot of stuff.
- Well, I feel so much lighter.
- You should.
I'm glad that you told me that, though.
- Mmm.
- I know that was a big one.
- Coming up on "Love and Hip Hop Atlanta"...
- [bleep] disturb the happiness that you've been experiencing.
And it ain't have [bleep] to do with him.
Tell the [bleep] world.
- Karlie, what the [bleep] is going on?
- ♪♪ Made my way to the top, and it ain't no stoppin' ♪♪
[funky music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ No shoes, no whip, no bag ♪♪
♪♪ Any time you see her, she bad ♪♪
♪♪ Yeah, she bad ♪♪
- Yo, this is my East Avenue fashion show, y'all.
This is my first drop in Atlanta.
So I'm really nervous about this.
♪♪ ♪♪
I've been working on this line for about four or five months.
You're going to get to see a lot of, like, streetwear.
Every garment is hand-painted.
Like, I'm really proud of this.
And I really think East Avenue could really take off here.
♪♪ ♪♪
- I'm at Zell's fashion show.
And oh my gosh, Zell has been working
on this for a long time.
So I'm excited to see his vision finally come to life.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Hey.
- Come here.
Come on one minute.
- Where are we going?
- A lot of action over here, so step over here one sec.
♪♪ ♪♪
- I'm really shocked that Kai showed up.
We've just been in a weird space.
You know, I didn't invite him.
- You know, I came here for real for real
because I really felt like I owed you more than an apology.
You know, you put something in my phone, way out of pocket.
This is the first step to me accepting accountability.
- Kai, thank you.
Thank you so much.
- You know my man Wafi, I think you know my jeweler.
The second step is me not only professing
my love and my trust for you and understanding
that I don't want to play no games with you.
I want to go all the way live with you.
- He had me bring out the three best rings I had
and let you choose which one you like.
[tense music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- Come on, Mama.
- Oh, Karlie.
- Come on, Mama, no, no, come on, come on, come on, Mama.
- When Kai showed up with the ring, I'm shocked.
And when I get shocked, I fall.
- It's not that.
It's just that I see a ring and fall out.
For some reason, I couldn't stand up anymore.
I just had to get to the ground and just pray.
It wasn't about me falling out.
It was about me praying.
- Come on.
Come on.
Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on.
- No, we ain't gonna do that.
- Karlie, this is too much.
The acting, the falling on the floor,
that is a clear sign of the answer is no.
- We ain't gonna do that.
We ain't gonna do that.
Mama, Mama, let me talk to my lady.
Let me talk to my lady.
This is me right here supposed to be hugging her.
No, no, no, no, no, come here, come here, baby.
Come here, come here, come here, come here, come here,
come here, come here, come here, come here,
come here, come here.
OK, OK, OK, I got you.
I told you, I always got you.
- I don't know what this whole charade is about.
But what I do know is I don't trust him.
I don't like him.
And I know a user when I see one.
- We don't have anything if we ain't got trust.
And ain't nobody can take my place.
And nobody can take yours.
So we're going to do what we do.
We're going to go down to Wafi, make sure
that ring size right.
- For Kai, this is a really big deal.
I've been wanting Kai to change for some time now.
And I really love Kai.
So if he's ready for the next step,
I'm ready for the next step.
I may fall for a ring, but I never turn it down.
- Which one you like?
- 12 carats, 10 carats, 12 carats.
- How about that one?
Yeah. - This one.
- OK, fair shake.
- You bring your lying ass, make a whole scene
with some fake-ass rings?
Seriously?
Kai is not buying any of these rings.
Kai not even driving his own goddamn cars.
He driving Karlie's car.
I support anything that you do, but I got to get back.
- You're OK.
You all right.
- All right. Is she OK, though?
- Of course, big love.
There's love over here.
- Big love, polyamorous love?
- I have no idea what you're talking about.
Have a great one, though.
- Jessica's opinion means a lot to me.
That's my best friend.
But she's telling me something because
she had to deal with it in her previous relationship.
I get it, because even though Kai gives me this ring,
he's claiming me.
But he might still have bitches.
The problem is this.
I still love Kai.
- Yo, [bleep] is in there getting proposed to,
flowers on the ground, all types of [bleep].
I don't even know what's going on.
- Engaged?
I need to see this.
- Love, that's somebody that's hurt.
Because you need to know, I'm dedicated, though.
Like, we ain't going to do all this, you know,
this fake marriage.
And go Ame, Ame, you hurt?
- And this is the one she chose.
- Jessica was trying to hate.
- Hold up. Huh?
What the [bleep]?
I am so confused right now.
Because there's been a lot of stuff going on in the streets
with Karlie and this guy, OK?
Kai, you got 25, 28, 30 other women,
and now you want to propose?
Make it make sense, brah.
- What did he do yesterday? - [bleep].
Did some wild [bleep] yesterday.
No, he is not the one, I'm sorry.
Karlie is just blinded by the moment.
I think that Karlie is over his bull[bleep]
to be honest with you.
And he can feel her slipping away.
And what does a narcissist do when
you're not feeding their ego?
They [bleep] go crazy to try to bring you back in.
It's not going to happen on my watch.
She's a sister to me.
And I'm really [bleep] passionate about that.
She's not happy.
- ♪♪ Made my way to the top, and it ain't no stoppin' ♪♪
[dramatic music]
- Karlie is a sister to me.
And I'm really [bleep] passionate about that.
She's not happy.
- Karlie been proposed more than anybody I know.
- If there was any doubts, I went and did that.
- Let me just say it like this, look.
♪♪ ♪♪
- One thing about Karlie, that [bleep]
is going to get her a ring.
She even went ahead and married one of these bozos.
But we all know how that turned out.
- What was that?
Like, you didn't get on a knee.
You didn't ask me to marry you.
You just showed me rings.
Is a proposal coming next?
I mean, like, how-- how do I explain it?
- You have to trust me, and I have to trust you.
It's not right.
- 'Cause you know I'ma take the ring.
- Oh, ain't no question. [laughter]
But I got to-- listen, that's how I let
the world know you're mine.
No, I didn't get down on one knee, because guess what.
I ain't got your trust yet.
Let me earn your trust.
That's a start to earning your trust.
- So it's a promise ring, a six-figure promise ring.
That's fine, as long as he promises
not to cheat on me anymore.
- I don't like him.
Now he want to [bleep] propose?
- Well, I need you to put all that energy into your walk.
I'm kind of pissed off.
Y'all kind of like took away from my fashion show.
I love Karlie, and I wish her the best.
I want you to get every ring from every [bleep]
that you can, just not at East Avenue Fashion Show.
Put y'all phones on mother[bleep] silent.
[funky music]
- ♪♪ One double take, camera flashing the light ♪♪
♪♪ Heads and nails tight ♪♪
♪♪ The crowd hype, we on sight ♪♪
♪♪ Ain't no shame to style on 'em ♪♪
♪♪ Ain't no, ain't no ♪♪
♪♪ Ain't no shame to style on 'em ♪♪
♪♪ Ain't no ♪♪
♪♪ Know that I'm gonna shine on it ♪♪
♪♪ I'm going to shine on it ♪♪
- Once I start seeing the models walk out
and I'm seeing my pieces, I'm just, like, so emotional.
East Avenue is one of the streets that I grew up off of.
It's a feeling.
It's a vibe.
And to see it come out on the runway as beautiful as it did,
I'm so happy.
And I just hope the world loves it, too.
- ♪♪ Ain't no shame to style on 'em ♪♪
♪♪ You know that I'm gonna shine on it ♪♪
♪♪ I'm gonna shine on it ♪♪
- I had so much fun walking in Zell's fashion show.
Everything is just giving sporty.
And it just matches Zell's fly vibe.
And the street apparel is definitely giving
high-fashion street apparel.
And I love it.
- Well, that was a vibe.
But the fact that I walked into Karlie getting proposed to.
Are you happy?
- I saw some [bleep] yesterday from that [bleep]
that I don't appreciate.
- What are you two talking about?
- We're talking about Kai, your new fiancé.
- I mean, he didn't call it a fiancée.
But he definitely called it a promise ring, which, I mean,
who doesn't want a ring?
- It's not even an engagement ring?
It's a promise ring?
What the [bleep] are we, in the third grade?
This [bleep] is a joke.
You [bleep] 50 years old and you giving out promise rings?
[bleep].
- Hey.
- Thank you.
- The man of the hour.
- Congratulations.
- I appreciate ya. I love y'all.
Whoa, hold on, before even my--
[bleep] what just happened with you?
- You know, we've been going through a lot of [bleep],
right? - She ain't going nowhere.
- I want the ring fo' sho'.
- Do you want the relationship, though?
- Other people have been making you smile.
You've been the happiest that I've ever [bleep] seen you.
And he ain't got [bleep] to do with that.
And I'm pissed, because I love you so much.
And you [bleep] deserve the happiness
that you've been experiencing.
And it ain't have [bleep] to do with him.
Tell the [bleep] world.
- Karlie, what the [bleep] is going on?
- Where the [bleep] was this niceness yesterday?
Where was it yesterday, K?
- Maybe it was a bad day.
- It ain't not [bleep] bad day when you [bleep] try to give
a person a proposal today.
I don't give a flying [bleep] about materialistic things.
I care about my friend's emotional and mental health.
I'm dead-ass serious--
I'm [bleep] done.
I'm not doing this in front of the camera.
- I just-- - [bleep] that.
I'm done.
Goodbye.
[dramatic music]
- Next time on the season finale
of "Love and Hip Hop: Atlanta"...
- We gotta kick this [bleep] off right.
Santana.
[funky music]
- What's really going on with y'all?
- I don't know how many times you tell somebody
I don't want to be with you until it register.
Now it's like, you're showing your true colors
and it's disgusting.
- Me and her ain't really been on the same page
lately with this egg thing.
We've been having a talk, you know,
if we can even make it through this.
- I found my baby daddy.
- OK. OK.
- I'm going to keep the identity quiet for a bit.
- I wish I could hide. Fine.
- I'm going--
- Now I got to go back to court for something petty.
- I'll punch him in the face for you.
- I made up with Jessica.
- That was good.
- And I also made up with Karlie.
- Can I invite her over here?
- [bleep] no.
- Bitch, look at me.
- [bleep], look at me.
- You got me [bleep] up.
You really got me [bleep] up.