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[Wess] If nobody wants me,
then nobody can hurt me.
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[woman 1] Somewhere
in me is this little
glimmer of hope.
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I just want to be
a normal person.
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[exhaling heavily]
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[man] You can't do it
and then I just get mad.
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[woman 2] If I don't
make a change now,
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I'm scared
it's gonna be too late.
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[groaning]
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It hurts.
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[woman 3] I refuse
to stop fighting.
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I have to do this
for my children.
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You've part of this system
that fundamentally
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You've part of this system
that fundamentally
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refuses to acknowledge
core parts of your existence.
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[Wess] My first thought waking
up every morning usually is,
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"Thank you for letting me
wake up the next day."
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Every day you wake up
is a blessing,
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especially at my size.
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I am very grateful that
I'm as mobile as I am.
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I am very grateful that
I'm as mobile as I am.
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But I'm scared that
it's getting to be
less and less.
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[groans]
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Over the last few months,
my walking ability
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has decreased
more and more.
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And that scares me.
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'Cause I never wanna
be bedbound.
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Because of my lymphedema,
I have to keep my legs
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elevated as much
as possible.
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And so I spend
most of my time
in my adjustable bed.
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The last time
my doctor examined it,
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The last time
my doctor examined it,
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he told me just on its own,
the mass weighs 40 pounds.
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So when I walk,
it gets in the way.
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And I can only move
at a glacial pace.
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Have you ever seen
a penguin walk where they...
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They walk side to side.
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That's what I feel
like when I walk.
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On a good day, I can
walk maybe 50 feet
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and then I have to rest.
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On a bad day,
just the physical act
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On a bad day,
just the physical act
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of carrying all the weight
on my stomach
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while my lymphedema
is tugging me down,
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creates a pain
that is so intense,
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I wanna pass out.
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I remember growing up,
we always saw those
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commercials of those
old people that are like,
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"Help, I've fallen.
I can't get up."
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And you always
laugh at it.
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You think, "Oh,
ha-ha, how funny."
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Now let me tell you,
at this size, I have fallen
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and I have fallen where
I couldn't get up right away,
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and I have fallen where
I couldn't get up right away,
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and the first thing that
runs through your mind is,
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"Oh, my God.
I'm gonna die."
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I make sure that
my front door is unlocked
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so that if I fell
in the bathtub
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while I was
taking a shower,
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I could scream loud enough
for my phone to dial 911.
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And then 911 could come
over because my door
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was unlocked and they
could get me up.
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Because when the water's
running and it's soapy,
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even the smallest
movement poses a risk
that I could slip.
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Because sometimes
my lymphedema
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can pull me backwards
and throw me off balance,
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and I've got a lot
of body folds to move
and to clean.
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And so I've gotta
hold the stomach up
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and I've gotta get in there
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and clean under
all the crevices
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and all the nooks
and crannies.
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After a few minutes
of bending and balancing,
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my breath gets
really shallow,
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and then my legs
start to shake,
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and so it's a very
difficult process.
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But it has to be done.
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[breathing heavily]
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[sighs in relief]
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After I get out of the shower,
I just kinda like to air dry.
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So, also then I'll...
I'll, like, towel dry my hair,
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my arms, and like,
my regular, like, body.
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And then I got a little fan
that really helps me
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to dry the places
that I can't reach
with the towel.
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But, mainly
I'll just kinda sit
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But, mainly
I'll just kinda sit
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and think about what
I'll order for breakfast.
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And oh my,
the thought of eating,
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especially the first time
in the morning,
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is so exhilarating.
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I don't love the way
my body looks,
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it's hard to deal with
everybody scrutinizing me.
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So I'm grateful
I can always rely
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on ordering through
the app on my phone.
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One of the perks
of living by yourself
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is being able to eat
breakfast naked.
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is being able to eat
breakfast naked.
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I don't enjoy clothes
'cause clothes can be
quite restrictive,
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especially at this size,
there's not very many
clothes for you.
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So, I wear clothes
when I leave
the house obviously,
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but when I'm home,
I do what I need to do
to be comfortable.
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There's never a limit
to how many
breakfast burritos
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I can eat after
my morning shower
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It's like I like
to eat them so much,
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that when I'm chewing,
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that when I'm chewing,
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I cram it in
and I get this
high off of it.
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And I just like...
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it's like float...
I don't know
how to describe it,
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it's like
floating in the sky.
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Growing up, my parents
didn't have a lot of money
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but my dad did love
to cook good food.
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And the portions that
he served my sister and I
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were generous
to say the least.
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My idea of what
a portion was
growing up is
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way jacked up.
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way jacked up.
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And I grew up
associating
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large meals with
my father's love.
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Outside of eating,
my childhood was
all doom and gloom.
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My parents divorced
when I was three.
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And my dad got custody
because my mother
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is an alcoholic.
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He was an over
the road truck driver
so he was gone a lot.
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So my older sister...
I'm six years old,
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my sister's 13, 14.
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my sister's 13, 14.
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And she really
stepped in when
I was growing up.
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She's seven years
older than I am.
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We're so spaced out in age
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that it almost feels like
I'm a single kid somewhat.
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And so I was home
a lot by myself.
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That's when
a family member
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was very sexually
abusive towards me.
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And it took my
childhood away from me.
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He did a lot
of horrible,
horrible things.
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Things that I would
never wish upon a child,
upon my worst enemy.
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Things that I would
never wish upon a child,
upon my worst enemy.
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I hope that they've gotten
the help that they need,
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because I will
never get over it.
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When you suffer
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a traumatic childhood
or a traumatic event
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when you're that young,
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whatever age it happens,
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it's almost like you get
stuck emotionally there.
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And you have to cope
with that somehow
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and so I just ate.
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And just ate and ate
and ate and ate.
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But I didn't care because
being fat kept people away.
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But I didn't care because
being fat kept people away.
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I never want
someone to hurt me.
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So the best way
to avoid being hurt
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is to just isolate yourself,
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not form attachments,
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and the best way not
to form an attachment
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is to make
yourself undesirable.
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If nobody wants me,
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then nobody can hurt me.
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So, I would gorge
myself on food.
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It was hard for me
to entertain the thought
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that someone would
ever flirt with me
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or find me attractive.
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But I was curious.
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So when I was 13,
I started fooling
around on the Internet.
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And my dad caught me
talking to this older man
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that I was attracted to.
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So I had no choice
but to come out
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to my dad
that I was gay.
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And it was met
with resistance.
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It was made very known
to me that that is not...
acceptable.
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It was made very known
to me that that is not...
acceptable.
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And was asked to go
to my local pastor
and talk about it.
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And I had a couple
of conversations with him.
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My inner monologue
was like,
"This is bull [bleep]."
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But you know, you see
what you wanna see.
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But I was left feeling
like I had been
abandoned emotionally,
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just like I felt after
I was molested.
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Which did nothing to help
with my issues with food.
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It just became an even
bigger source of comfort.
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Going into my
freshman year,
I was 345 pounds.
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Going into my
freshman year,
I was 345 pounds.
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But I didn't wanna
come out that I was gay
to my classmates.
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In my sophomore year,
I started auditioning
for school plays.
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And in my senior year,
I was cast in a lead part.
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And that's when
I fell in love with
performing on stage.
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When I graduated
from high school,
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the local junior college
had a drama department
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and I got chosen
for another major role
in this play.
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There were some other
gay kids in my theater class
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and they invited me
to hang with them,
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and we started going
to bars together.
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I discovered
how to party
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I discovered
how to party
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and, uh, it was on.
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And before I knew it,
I had blown through
my college loans
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partying and binge eating
fast foods when I was
living with my friends.
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And I wasn't going
to school anymore.
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I just fell into this rut.
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I was not
accomplishing anything.
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So I left my hometown
to take an office job
in Houston.
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So I left my hometown
to take an office job
in Houston.
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But moving to the heart
of a big city where
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I didn't know anybody
was no ticket to paradise.
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And I just started descending
into this depression.
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I would eat
two medium pizzas
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an eight piece
of chicken,
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and wash it down
with two sodas
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in one sitting.
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It was not a good
time in my life.
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You know, I was already
teetering with depression
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from my weight
and everything,
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from my weight
and everything,
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and so the stress
just got to be a lot.
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I lost my job,
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lost my apartment,
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lost my car,
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had to move in
with my parents.
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That's not a easy thing
to do, I should say, at 33.
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It's kind of embarrassing.
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And kind of had
a little bit of a...
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a nervous breakdown,
if you wanna say that.
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And even though
I knew there wasn't a job
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for someone my size
in our little town,
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I would still
look everyday.
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And then, high speed
Internet came to town.
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And then, high speed
Internet came to town.
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And finally,
after several months,
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I found a job
working from home.
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And I did that job
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and, uh,
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that gave me the funds
to be able to pay rent
to live on my own.
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-Hello.
-You ready?
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Yes, sir.
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My dad takes me
to the store
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to help me go
and get groceries.
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-Some help?
-No, I got it.
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Because I am too big
to fit behind a steering wheel
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Because I am too big
to fit behind a steering wheel
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and to drive my car.
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-You got it, Wess?
-I got it. [sighs]
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-[Rick] You gonna make it?
-[Wess] Uh-huh.
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I'm gonna try.
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My legs are hurting.
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[Rick] You wanna go
back outside and sit down?
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Yeah.
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Standing and, like,
leaning against the wall
245
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if I have no support,
my stomach is gonna
start pulling me and
246
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you'll see me like
lean forward, go down.
247
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Okay, I'm done.
248
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I gotta go outside
and sit down.
249
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I can't do this anymore.
250
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[grunts]
251
00:13:38,800 --> 00:13:39,767
[sighs]
252
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-Hello.
-[Wess] Hey.
253
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You think you're gonna
be much longer, uh,
254
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I'm ready to go
255
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[stutters] and I need to eat
some lunch or something.
256
00:13:48,367 --> 00:13:50,667
Okay, I'll... I'll, uh,
be out in a minute.
257
00:13:50,667 --> 00:13:52,200
All right, thank you.
258
00:13:55,667 --> 00:13:59,767
My family is very good
at ignoring the elephant
in the room.
259
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So we've never addressed
the food addiction.
260
00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:02,000
So we've never addressed
the food addiction.
261
00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:05,166
-$116.66. Is that it?
-That's it.
262
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But for me, food
is a huge comfort.
263
00:14:11,200 --> 00:14:12,367
It is...
264
00:14:13,467 --> 00:14:14,667
my drug of choice.
265
00:14:14,667 --> 00:14:16,867
Food was euphoric for me.
266
00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:19,567
[Rick] Are you feeling
all right, Wess?
267
00:14:20,266 --> 00:14:23,166
Mm, no, I'm not, I'm...
268
00:14:24,166 --> 00:14:25,266
I'm embarrassed.
269
00:14:26,066 --> 00:14:28,166
I actually feel
like a loser.
270
00:14:28,166 --> 00:14:30,000
A grown man, I can't even
buy groceries on my own,
271
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A grown man, I can't even
buy groceries on my own,
272
00:14:31,200 --> 00:14:32,467
you know.
273
00:14:32,467 --> 00:14:34,166
[Rick] Well,
you're not a loser
274
00:14:34,166 --> 00:14:36,667
-by any means.
-I know, thank you.
275
00:14:40,667 --> 00:14:42,467
I have triggers when
it comes to eating
276
00:14:42,467 --> 00:14:44,900
and a lot of it
is just stress related.
277
00:14:44,967 --> 00:14:46,467
Any time I feel
like I'm stressed,
278
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the first thing
I head for is food.
279
00:14:49,266 --> 00:14:51,166
It's that vicious cycle of,
280
00:14:51,166 --> 00:14:54,367
I eat 'cause I feel bad
and then I get big
'cause I eat.
281
00:14:54,367 --> 00:14:56,600
But I get big 'cause I eat,
but I eat 'cause I feel bad.
282
00:14:59,166 --> 00:15:00,000
But even with my family,
I prefer to eat alone
283
00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,100
But even with my family,
I prefer to eat alone
284
00:15:02,100 --> 00:15:03,667
because food is my
285
00:15:03,667 --> 00:15:05,867
security blanket.
286
00:15:05,867 --> 00:15:09,667
I use it as a reward
and I eat so much
and I cram it in.
287
00:15:09,667 --> 00:15:11,767
But I usually don't stop
until the food is gone.
288
00:15:15,767 --> 00:15:18,500
[sighs] Thank you, Dad.
I sure do appreciate it.
289
00:15:19,100 --> 00:15:20,266
I don't mind helping.
290
00:15:21,867 --> 00:15:23,567
I'm gonna put these
in the icebox.
291
00:15:24,467 --> 00:15:26,200
Those go in that
cupboard over there.
292
00:15:26,266 --> 00:15:29,567
There's never a moment
in my life where I'm not
thinking about food.
293
00:15:32,166 --> 00:15:35,567
It's very hard for me
to admit I have a problem.
294
00:15:35,567 --> 00:15:37,166
'Cause it's like
any addiction.
295
00:15:37,166 --> 00:15:38,500
Your mind
296
00:15:38,567 --> 00:15:40,367
creates the addiction
297
00:15:40,367 --> 00:15:43,200
and then you use that
as an excuse to keep eating.
298
00:15:43,266 --> 00:15:45,400
And then you just want
more and more and more
299
00:15:45,467 --> 00:15:46,767
and you're never satisfied.
300
00:15:49,266 --> 00:15:52,800
I would say without a doubt,
100%, I am a food addict.
301
00:15:52,867 --> 00:15:56,000
I have lost control
and my food controls me.
302
00:15:56,700 --> 00:15:58,200
I have imprisoned myself
303
00:15:58,266 --> 00:16:00,000
in this body,
in this lifestyle.
304
00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:00,500
in this body,
in this lifestyle.
305
00:16:01,100 --> 00:16:02,166
And
306
00:16:02,967 --> 00:16:05,867
I need to serve my time
307
00:16:05,867 --> 00:16:08,300
and do the work,
pay my debt back,
308
00:16:08,367 --> 00:16:11,767
and that's gonna be
through exercising and diet,
309
00:16:11,767 --> 00:16:13,800
so that I can get out
of this prison.
310
00:16:13,867 --> 00:16:15,467
Instead of telling
my family
311
00:16:15,467 --> 00:16:17,600
and friends that
I have a problem,
312
00:16:17,667 --> 00:16:20,000
I just won't have
them come over.
313
00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:21,100
And I'll ask them
not to come over
314
00:16:21,166 --> 00:16:22,367
and I won't
invite them over.
315
00:16:22,367 --> 00:16:25,800
I've walled myself off
so I don't get hurt.
316
00:16:25,867 --> 00:16:28,367
And that's just part
of this journey that
I'm going through,
317
00:16:28,367 --> 00:16:30,000
that I'm gonna have
to break those walls down
318
00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:30,767
that I'm gonna have
to break those walls down
319
00:16:30,767 --> 00:16:32,667
and... and learn to let
people back in.
320
00:16:36,100 --> 00:16:38,767
I need to get serious
about... about this.
321
00:16:38,767 --> 00:16:40,000
You know, I need help.
322
00:16:56,266 --> 00:16:58,367
-Let's go.
-[clears throat]
323
00:17:02,500 --> 00:17:05,767
[Wess] Today
I'm finally gonna do something
about my weight problem.
324
00:17:07,767 --> 00:17:09,266
Just about an hour from here
325
00:17:09,266 --> 00:17:12,266
there is a world class surgeon
who works on people my size.
326
00:17:12,266 --> 00:17:13,669
And I've known
about him for a while
327
00:17:13,669 --> 00:17:14,100
And I've known
about him for a while
328
00:17:14,166 --> 00:17:16,767
and I finally decided that
it's time for me to go see him
329
00:17:16,767 --> 00:17:18,100
to try to get his help.
330
00:17:23,667 --> 00:17:25,467
Oh, it's cold in here.
331
00:17:28,567 --> 00:17:31,000
[Rick] Think a eighth
of a tank
get you to Rosenberg?
332
00:17:31,600 --> 00:17:34,767
-Sorry?
-[Rick speaking]
333
00:17:35,767 --> 00:17:37,600
Yeah. 78 miles.
334
00:17:37,667 --> 00:17:40,000
[Wess panting]
335
00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:42,367
-[Rick] You okay?
-[Wess] Yeah.
336
00:17:42,367 --> 00:17:43,669
[Wess panting]
337
00:17:43,669 --> 00:17:45,300
[Wess panting]
338
00:17:45,367 --> 00:17:46,967
[Wess]
Just catching my breath.
339
00:17:48,266 --> 00:17:51,500
[panting]
340
00:17:54,467 --> 00:17:56,300
[grunts]
341
00:17:58,066 --> 00:17:59,800
-You all right?
-Yeah.
342
00:18:06,700 --> 00:18:09,066
[Wess] It's nice and cold
in this damn car, isn't it?
343
00:18:09,066 --> 00:18:10,467
[Rick] I turned it on
a little bit early.
344
00:18:10,467 --> 00:18:12,166
[both laugh]
345
00:18:12,166 --> 00:18:13,669
[Rick] Hey Wess, how...
Are you worried about this?
346
00:18:13,669 --> 00:18:15,066
[Rick] Hey Wess, how...
Are you worried about this?
347
00:18:15,066 --> 00:18:18,200
Are you scared
to go up here or what?
348
00:18:18,266 --> 00:18:19,800
[Wess sighs]
349
00:18:19,867 --> 00:18:22,800
I'm ready
to see Dr. Now. It's...
350
00:18:22,867 --> 00:18:24,800
I'm ready just to start
this whole process
351
00:18:24,867 --> 00:18:27,200
and get it over with.
352
00:18:28,567 --> 00:18:31,767
And... I'm ready
to make this change.
353
00:18:33,166 --> 00:18:36,000
[Rick]
And a big change it will be.
354
00:18:36,066 --> 00:18:38,166
-Yup.
-It's just gonna be
355
00:18:38,166 --> 00:18:40,367
a great feeling
for me to see you...
356
00:18:41,400 --> 00:18:43,669
...being able to do
normal things again.
357
00:18:43,669 --> 00:18:45,000
...being able to do
normal things again.
358
00:18:46,667 --> 00:18:50,066
Yeah, you'll be able to
walk where you wanna walk now.
359
00:18:50,066 --> 00:18:51,467
Be able to
get the hell away from y'all,
360
00:18:51,467 --> 00:18:52,767
that's what
I'll be able to do.
361
00:18:52,767 --> 00:18:54,266
[laughs]
362
00:18:55,700 --> 00:18:57,600
Are you okay back there, Wess?
363
00:18:57,667 --> 00:18:59,100
Are you comfortable?
364
00:18:59,100 --> 00:19:00,767
About as comfortable
as I can be
365
00:19:00,767 --> 00:19:02,567
but I'm a little too tall
to sit back here.
366
00:19:03,700 --> 00:19:07,266
-Squat down.
-Feel like the...
367
00:19:07,266 --> 00:19:09,000
[Rick] You have to
squat down a little bit.
368
00:19:09,066 --> 00:19:11,266
[Rick laughs]
369
00:19:24,300 --> 00:19:26,567
[Wess] Pretty much
everything gives me anxiety.
370
00:19:26,567 --> 00:19:28,000
So, something like this
371
00:19:28,066 --> 00:19:29,767
where there's
everything on the line,
372
00:19:29,767 --> 00:19:32,567
my health,
my future, my whole life...
373
00:19:32,567 --> 00:19:34,900
I feel like
I have a pit in my stomach.
374
00:19:34,967 --> 00:19:40,700
More than anything,
I'm just afraid to hear
what Dr. Now has to say.
375
00:19:57,166 --> 00:20:00,800
Now we're here and my anxiety
is really, really bad.
376
00:20:01,400 --> 00:20:02,667
Dr. Now might be
377
00:20:02,667 --> 00:20:04,967
the last chance
that I have to save my life
378
00:20:04,967 --> 00:20:07,300
and stop
from eating myself to death.
379
00:20:08,900 --> 00:20:11,066
I'm desperate for his help
380
00:20:11,066 --> 00:20:13,669
and I just hope to God
that he doesn't turn me away
381
00:20:13,669 --> 00:20:14,400
and I just hope to God
that he doesn't turn me away
382
00:20:14,467 --> 00:20:16,600
and tell me
that he can't help me.
383
00:20:29,800 --> 00:20:33,200
[breathing heavily]
384
00:20:34,166 --> 00:20:36,900
[grunts softly and panting]
385
00:20:50,266 --> 00:20:51,600
Wess...
386
00:20:54,100 --> 00:20:56,667
[Wess]
It's been a long time
since I weighed myself.
387
00:20:56,667 --> 00:20:59,400
And back then,
I was in the low 600s.
388
00:20:59,467 --> 00:21:00,500
So, I think I've gained
389
00:21:00,567 --> 00:21:02,000
a little bit of weight
since then.
390
00:21:02,066 --> 00:21:04,166
I'm just hoping I'm below 650.
391
00:21:18,266 --> 00:21:19,467
I'm gonna get lower.
392
00:21:28,867 --> 00:21:30,600
[nurse] You're weight is 705.
393
00:21:33,100 --> 00:21:34,467
[Wess speaking]
394
00:21:35,800 --> 00:21:37,467
Thank you.
395
00:21:37,467 --> 00:21:39,166
[nurse]
We'll be going to room five.
396
00:21:39,166 --> 00:21:41,000
Okay. [panting]
397
00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:46,867
[Wess] That's
a lot worse than I thought.
398
00:21:46,867 --> 00:21:48,100
[sighs]
399
00:21:48,166 --> 00:21:50,767
I've wasted too much time
before getting help.
400
00:21:50,767 --> 00:21:53,800
My situation
has gotten so much worse.
401
00:21:53,867 --> 00:21:56,567
I just pray
that Dr. Now can help me.
402
00:21:57,100 --> 00:21:58,900
[panting]
403
00:22:11,100 --> 00:22:12,367
[grunts]
404
00:22:20,967 --> 00:22:22,400
[knock on door]
405
00:22:24,867 --> 00:22:26,700
Hello.
How are you all doing?
406
00:22:26,767 --> 00:22:28,400
-Good. How are you?
-Good. How are you?
407
00:22:28,467 --> 00:22:29,900
I'm doing well.
408
00:22:29,967 --> 00:22:32,567
All right.
So, you must be Wess, huh?
409
00:22:32,567 --> 00:22:35,400
-Yes, sir.
-And who is this
young man with you?
410
00:22:35,467 --> 00:22:37,767
This is my dad, Rick.
411
00:22:37,767 --> 00:22:42,767
Nice to meet you guys.
All right, you are 705 lbs.
412
00:22:42,767 --> 00:22:43,669
How long
have you been at that weight?
413
00:22:43,669 --> 00:22:44,266
How long
have you been at that weight?
414
00:22:46,266 --> 00:22:49,667
Um, I know a few years ago,
415
00:22:49,667 --> 00:22:53,400
the last time
I weighed was probably
three or four years ago,
416
00:22:53,467 --> 00:22:56,400
and I was, like,
650 lbs at that time.
417
00:22:57,000 --> 00:22:59,567
So between now and then
418
00:22:59,567 --> 00:23:02,266
it's been anywhere
between 650 and 700.
419
00:23:02,266 --> 00:23:05,567
So what is going on
in the past few years
420
00:23:05,567 --> 00:23:07,467
that you
gained all that weight?
421
00:23:07,467 --> 00:23:10,100
On and off
for the last ten years,
real bad depression.
422
00:23:10,100 --> 00:23:12,867
I see. Have you
seen anybody for that?
423
00:23:13,667 --> 00:23:13,669
-Any therapist?
-No. No.
424
00:23:13,669 --> 00:23:15,600
-Any therapist?
-No. No.
425
00:23:15,667 --> 00:23:17,700
When you eat food,
you feel better.
426
00:23:17,767 --> 00:23:20,000
You find food to comfort you.
427
00:23:20,000 --> 00:23:24,567
-Mm-hmm.
-So, what issue are you
trying to avoid by doing that?
428
00:23:24,567 --> 00:23:27,967
Um, there's
a lot of things in my past
429
00:23:27,967 --> 00:23:29,166
that I'm probably
working through
430
00:23:29,166 --> 00:23:32,066
and I probably
use food to deal with that.
431
00:23:32,066 --> 00:23:35,800
All right.
So, do you stay home all day?
432
00:23:35,867 --> 00:23:36,800
Yes, sir.
433
00:23:36,867 --> 00:23:39,066
Who else is
in the household beside you?
434
00:23:39,066 --> 00:23:41,767
I live by myself
but I live close to my family,
435
00:23:41,767 --> 00:23:43,669
my dad and my aunts and so
they're over pretty regularly.
436
00:23:43,669 --> 00:23:45,266
my dad and my aunts and so
they're over pretty regularly.
437
00:23:45,266 --> 00:23:46,700
So, you sit at home,
438
00:23:46,767 --> 00:23:49,367
-alone most of the time
and eat.
-Yeah.
439
00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:52,767
So, your BMI's 112.
440
00:23:53,667 --> 00:23:56,300
Normal BMI is 18 to 25.
441
00:23:56,367 --> 00:24:00,467
And being over
100 BMI is very high.
442
00:24:00,467 --> 00:24:04,000
Your weight
is putting a lot of strain
on your body right now.
443
00:24:04,066 --> 00:24:06,266
-How old are you right now?
-36.
444
00:24:06,266 --> 00:24:09,600
36 and you've got
a pretty serious issue
with your weight
445
00:24:09,667 --> 00:24:12,000
and you're
tolerating that at the moment
446
00:24:12,066 --> 00:24:13,467
but you're getting older,
447
00:24:13,467 --> 00:24:13,669
on top of wear and tear
from the strain of your weight
448
00:24:13,669 --> 00:24:16,767
on top of wear and tear
from the strain of your weight
449
00:24:16,767 --> 00:24:18,667
on your body for years.
450
00:24:18,667 --> 00:24:21,200
So, very soon
things are gonna change
451
00:24:21,266 --> 00:24:23,667
and your body
is gonna get to a point
452
00:24:23,667 --> 00:24:26,367
where you can't
go on like this anymore.
453
00:24:26,367 --> 00:24:29,467
Then everything
is going to wrong direction
454
00:24:29,467 --> 00:24:31,367
and you're not
pulling out of that.
455
00:24:31,367 --> 00:24:34,166
So you have to decide
if you want to change.
456
00:24:34,166 --> 00:24:35,200
Because if you don't,
457
00:24:35,266 --> 00:24:37,500
then you're not gonna
be able to even walk.
458
00:24:37,567 --> 00:24:38,867
You're gonna stay in your bed,
459
00:24:38,867 --> 00:24:40,200
then you're
gonna be bedridden,
460
00:24:40,266 --> 00:24:42,266
depending on people
to come and help you out.
461
00:24:42,266 --> 00:24:43,669
And then once you get
bedridden, then it's over.
462
00:24:43,669 --> 00:24:44,800
And then once you get
bedridden, then it's over.
463
00:24:44,867 --> 00:24:47,967
Your health is gonna
go downhill really quick
464
00:24:47,967 --> 00:24:50,066
and that's gonna
happen really soon
465
00:24:50,066 --> 00:24:51,667
if you keep going like this.
466
00:24:51,667 --> 00:24:54,300
So are you willing
to make the changes?
467
00:24:54,367 --> 00:24:56,767
100%, yes sir.
I want to get to
468
00:24:56,767 --> 00:25:00,266
where I can live
and do things on my own again.
469
00:25:00,266 --> 00:25:02,767
What is something
you want to do with your life?
470
00:25:02,767 --> 00:25:06,767
I've always... I always
wanted to be on stage.
471
00:25:06,767 --> 00:25:10,166
-Be in front of people.
Talk, act, whatever...
-Acting.
472
00:25:10,166 --> 00:25:11,500
...things like that.
I always loved it.
473
00:25:11,567 --> 00:25:12,767
It was always
a passion of mine.
474
00:25:12,767 --> 00:25:13,669
Hopefully this will allow me
to get up and do that again.
475
00:25:13,669 --> 00:25:16,700
Hopefully this will allow me
to get up and do that again.
476
00:25:16,767 --> 00:25:18,100
Well, keep that dream
477
00:25:18,100 --> 00:25:20,500
in front of you
to keep you motivated.
478
00:25:20,567 --> 00:25:22,266
Because you're gonna
have to work hard
479
00:25:22,266 --> 00:25:23,767
if you want to succeed
480
00:25:23,767 --> 00:25:26,066
and turn your
life around. Okay?
481
00:25:26,066 --> 00:25:29,767
-Okay.
-The first step is to show me
that you're ready for this
482
00:25:29,767 --> 00:25:32,467
by losing some weight
and with your current weight,
483
00:25:32,467 --> 00:25:34,500
you have to lose
at least 100 lbs.
484
00:25:34,567 --> 00:25:37,567
And this is not something
that is gonna be easy
485
00:25:37,567 --> 00:25:39,767
but you're gonna have to
bite the bullet and do that.
486
00:25:39,767 --> 00:25:42,567
You need to stick to
the 1200 calories a day,
487
00:25:42,567 --> 00:25:43,669
high protein, low carb diet
that I'm going to give you
488
00:25:43,669 --> 00:25:45,500
high protein, low carb diet
that I'm going to give you
489
00:25:45,567 --> 00:25:47,500
and if you do that,
then we might consider you
490
00:25:47,567 --> 00:25:48,567
for weight loss surgery.
491
00:25:48,567 --> 00:25:50,600
But if you're unable
to lose that weight,
492
00:25:50,667 --> 00:25:53,266
not only we won't be
able to do your surgery,
493
00:25:53,266 --> 00:25:55,800
because of how
compromised your system is,
494
00:25:55,867 --> 00:25:58,400
but there would be no point
of doing weight loss surgery
495
00:25:58,467 --> 00:26:01,100
because if you
aren't willing to work at this
496
00:26:01,166 --> 00:26:04,000
then the surgery
will eventually fail
497
00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:05,767
and won't change anything.
498
00:26:05,767 --> 00:26:07,100
-Right. Okay.
-Okay?
499
00:26:07,100 --> 00:26:09,300
So at this point you need to
500
00:26:09,367 --> 00:26:11,667
start working hard
to change your life.
501
00:26:11,667 --> 00:26:13,400
-Okay.
-You think you can do that?
502
00:26:13,467 --> 00:26:13,669
-Yes, sir.
-All right, any questions?
503
00:26:13,669 --> 00:26:16,567
-Yes, sir.
-All right, any questions?
504
00:26:16,567 --> 00:26:18,266
No. No, sir.
505
00:26:18,266 --> 00:26:20,867
All right. So,
I'm gonna bring you some stuff
506
00:26:20,867 --> 00:26:23,800
and see if we can get you
going in the right direction.
507
00:26:23,867 --> 00:26:26,367
-All right. Thank you, sir.
-Okay. I'll be back.
508
00:26:26,367 --> 00:26:28,166
-Thank you, sir.
-You're welcome.
509
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:34,100
I don't care
how much weight I lose,
510
00:26:34,100 --> 00:26:36,600
I'm not gardening
and I'm not going hunting.
511
00:26:36,667 --> 00:26:39,100
-I can't force you.
-No.
512
00:26:41,300 --> 00:26:43,300
Wess has let himself get to
513
00:26:43,367 --> 00:26:43,669
a very dangerous place
with his health
514
00:26:43,669 --> 00:26:45,867
a very dangerous place
with his health
515
00:26:45,867 --> 00:26:47,400
and I'm concerned about him
516
00:26:47,467 --> 00:26:51,667
because he is over 700 lbs
and his BMI is over 100
517
00:26:51,667 --> 00:26:54,800
and he's been
at that size for a while now.
518
00:26:54,867 --> 00:26:58,667
So it is
just a matter of time
before his body gives up.
519
00:26:58,667 --> 00:27:02,100
So it's very important that
Wess turn things around now
520
00:27:02,100 --> 00:27:04,900
if we wants to prevent
that from happening.
521
00:27:04,967 --> 00:27:05,867
All right.
522
00:27:08,400 --> 00:27:10,266
I got a few things for you.
523
00:27:10,266 --> 00:27:12,900
Okay. First thing
I want you to do is
524
00:27:12,967 --> 00:27:13,669
read that
very carefully. Okay?
525
00:27:13,669 --> 00:27:16,066
read that
very carefully. Okay?
526
00:27:16,900 --> 00:27:18,367
So, go through that,
527
00:27:18,367 --> 00:27:19,700
make a note,
528
00:27:19,767 --> 00:27:21,967
make sure
you understand every line
529
00:27:22,700 --> 00:27:24,700
and if you have any questions,
530
00:27:24,767 --> 00:27:29,300
then you're gonna
have to ask about it.
531
00:27:29,367 --> 00:27:32,200
[Dr. Now] So we got our work
cut out for us with Wess.
532
00:27:32,266 --> 00:27:34,567
Ideally he should be
around 200 lbs.
533
00:27:34,567 --> 00:27:37,400
So, he's got
4-500 lbs to lose
534
00:27:37,467 --> 00:27:40,500
and that's gonna be
a big challenge for him and us
535
00:27:40,567 --> 00:27:41,900
to get him to the point that
536
00:27:41,967 --> 00:27:43,669
it's gonna be safe to do
weight loss surgery on him.
537
00:27:43,669 --> 00:27:44,700
it's gonna be safe to do
weight loss surgery on him.
538
00:27:44,767 --> 00:27:46,166
Your frequency should be
539
00:27:46,166 --> 00:27:48,200
three times a day,
no snacking between the meal,
540
00:27:48,266 --> 00:27:51,867
amount should be
around 400 calories
if you eat three time a day
541
00:27:51,867 --> 00:27:53,567
and if you eat two time a day,
542
00:27:53,567 --> 00:27:55,166
it will be 600 calories.
543
00:27:55,166 --> 00:27:59,667
I'm gonna give you
a copy of my book to do
this chapter 12, the exercise.
544
00:27:59,667 --> 00:28:04,467
And these exercise is
geared to do
for a person like you.
545
00:28:04,467 --> 00:28:09,100
And you work on this
one hour in the morning
546
00:28:10,367 --> 00:28:12,367
and one hour in the evening.
547
00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:13,669
That won't be easy
548
00:28:13,669 --> 00:28:14,567
That won't be easy
549
00:28:14,567 --> 00:28:16,567
and it's gonna
take a lot of effort
550
00:28:16,567 --> 00:28:18,767
and hard work
to make that happen.
551
00:28:18,767 --> 00:28:21,467
But regardless,
what happens from here
552
00:28:21,467 --> 00:28:22,867
is all up to Wess.
553
00:28:22,867 --> 00:28:26,066
No one but him
can make the choice to change.
554
00:28:26,066 --> 00:28:29,266
And he doesn't have
any time to waste.
555
00:28:29,266 --> 00:28:33,066
You got to lose
at least 100 lbs
over the next two months.
556
00:28:33,066 --> 00:28:35,867
If you do that,
then we'll consider
weight loss surgery.
557
00:28:35,867 --> 00:28:38,467
-Okay.
-So read the stuff
that I gave you every night,
558
00:28:38,467 --> 00:28:40,800
make the changes
and stick to it.
559
00:28:40,867 --> 00:28:41,967
Yes, sir.
560
00:28:41,967 --> 00:28:43,367
-Okay?
-Okay.
561
00:28:44,100 --> 00:28:46,100
All right. In the mean time
562
00:28:46,166 --> 00:28:47,400
if you need anything,
give me a call.
563
00:28:47,467 --> 00:28:48,767
-Yes, sir. Thank you.
-All right.
564
00:28:48,767 --> 00:28:50,900
-Nice to see you guys.
-You too.
565
00:28:50,967 --> 00:28:52,467
-[Rick] Thank you.
-[Wess] Thank you.
566
00:28:52,467 --> 00:28:53,667
You're welcome.
567
00:28:57,300 --> 00:28:59,367
-You ready to get out of here?
-I'm ready.
568
00:28:59,367 --> 00:29:01,600
-Let's go.
-Need some help?
569
00:29:01,667 --> 00:29:02,900
No, I got it.
570
00:29:08,667 --> 00:29:10,867
[Wess] I think the meeting
with Dr. Now went well.
571
00:29:10,867 --> 00:29:12,467
As good as to be expected.
572
00:29:12,467 --> 00:29:13,669
I think what Dr. Now
told me is doable.
573
00:29:13,669 --> 00:29:15,166
I think what Dr. Now
told me is doable.
574
00:29:15,166 --> 00:29:17,767
It's gonna take
some hard work on my end
575
00:29:17,767 --> 00:29:20,767
and doing some things
I haven't done in a few years.
576
00:29:20,767 --> 00:29:22,700
So... You know, it's all
a mental game, right?
577
00:29:22,767 --> 00:29:25,500
I think this is gonna be
very hard for me to do
578
00:29:25,567 --> 00:29:28,367
but I have no other option.
This is my last resort.
579
00:29:28,367 --> 00:29:30,667
Leaving this meeting
with Dr. Now,
580
00:29:30,667 --> 00:29:33,700
I know that he has
given me the tools that I need
581
00:29:33,767 --> 00:29:35,200
and if I use
what he's given me
582
00:29:35,266 --> 00:29:36,367
and build upon them,
583
00:29:36,367 --> 00:29:38,200
then I will probably
have a better future.
584
00:29:38,266 --> 00:29:41,467
Hopefully it will get me to
a place where I can imagine
living in that future.
585
00:29:48,367 --> 00:29:49,467
[grunts]
586
00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:04,166
[knock on door]
587
00:30:04,166 --> 00:30:05,767
Come in.
588
00:30:05,767 --> 00:30:07,767
-Wesley?
-Yes, sir.
589
00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:11,467
What's going on?
590
00:30:11,467 --> 00:30:12,900
Nothing. What are you doing?
591
00:30:14,100 --> 00:30:17,467
I've come to
help you out a little bit.
592
00:30:17,467 --> 00:30:21,000
-With what?
-We're gonna clean out
your cupboards today.
593
00:30:24,900 --> 00:30:25,460
-Yeah.
-It's time.
594
00:30:25,460 --> 00:30:26,967
-Yeah.
-It's time.
595
00:30:26,967 --> 00:30:28,467
The time is here.
596
00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:32,367
-Well...
-You ready?
597
00:30:32,367 --> 00:30:33,567
[Wess] Let's get her done.
598
00:30:35,266 --> 00:30:37,967
[Wess] It's been two days
since I've seen Dr. Now.
599
00:30:37,967 --> 00:30:39,767
We came back that same day
600
00:30:39,767 --> 00:30:41,800
and my dad
gave me time to rest
601
00:30:41,867 --> 00:30:44,166
and prepare
for the big cleanse.
602
00:30:44,166 --> 00:30:46,300
Where do you
want to start in at?
603
00:30:46,367 --> 00:30:47,967
[Wess] Let's do the cupboard.
604
00:30:48,767 --> 00:30:51,567
Everything but the soups
605
00:30:51,567 --> 00:30:53,500
and the chicken broth.
606
00:30:53,567 --> 00:30:55,460
[Wess] All the junk food,
all the crap that I eat,
607
00:30:55,460 --> 00:30:57,000
[Wess] All the junk food,
all the crap that I eat,
608
00:30:57,066 --> 00:30:59,000
it is now gonna go bye-bye.
609
00:31:00,867 --> 00:31:02,266
[Rick exclaims]
610
00:31:02,266 --> 00:31:03,700
I don't know
what you're talking about.
611
00:31:03,767 --> 00:31:05,300
-I don't see anything.
-They were hidden back there.
612
00:31:05,367 --> 00:31:06,667
[Wess] I don't see
anything in your hands.
613
00:31:06,667 --> 00:31:07,767
I don't know
what you're talking about.
614
00:31:07,767 --> 00:31:11,767
Get rid of 'em. Bye.
615
00:31:11,767 --> 00:31:14,367
I don't think I should've
taken my dad to see Dr. Now
616
00:31:14,367 --> 00:31:15,600
because now my dad thinks
617
00:31:15,667 --> 00:31:16,767
that he has carte blanche
618
00:31:16,767 --> 00:31:18,667
to tell me what to eat
and what not to eat.
619
00:31:19,367 --> 00:31:21,100
And I like control.
620
00:31:21,166 --> 00:31:23,066
[Rick] You can't have
this pasta, can you?
621
00:31:23,066 --> 00:31:25,460
-[Rick] Nope.
-[Wess] Oh, God, that hurts.
622
00:31:25,460 --> 00:31:25,667
-[Rick] Nope.
-[Wess] Oh, God, that hurts.
623
00:31:25,667 --> 00:31:27,367
I'll leave you
the wire basket.
624
00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:29,100
I know.
625
00:31:34,100 --> 00:31:35,166
Gone.
626
00:31:37,367 --> 00:31:39,867
-Cookie pop popcorn, no good.
-You know,
627
00:31:41,100 --> 00:31:43,000
this was okay
when you first came over
628
00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:44,600
but now you're really, like...
629
00:31:44,667 --> 00:31:47,266
[Rick] I'm the junk food
junkie police.
630
00:31:47,266 --> 00:31:48,667
You're doing it now.
631
00:31:48,667 --> 00:31:51,900
-What is that?
-It's a chocolate bar
with almonds.
632
00:31:52,767 --> 00:31:54,266
[Rick]
You've got a stash in there?
633
00:31:55,900 --> 00:31:58,000
-Just go find out.
-[Rick laughs]
634
00:32:04,800 --> 00:32:07,200
[wrappers crinkling]
635
00:32:07,266 --> 00:32:08,767
What do you got in here, Wess?
636
00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:15,467
[Rick clears throat] Wow.
637
00:32:18,166 --> 00:32:19,467
It's gonna be all right, Wess.
638
00:32:21,867 --> 00:32:23,367
[Wess] My dad does love me
639
00:32:23,367 --> 00:32:25,460
but sometimes
I just wanna be left alone.
640
00:32:25,460 --> 00:32:27,600
but sometimes
I just wanna be left alone.
641
00:32:28,867 --> 00:32:31,000
Wess, I'm gonna
take this to the food bank.
642
00:32:33,100 --> 00:32:34,967
He needs a little boot
every once in a while.
643
00:32:34,967 --> 00:32:37,066
You know,
help him stay started
644
00:32:37,066 --> 00:32:38,867
but he's gonna do good.
645
00:32:38,867 --> 00:32:39,867
I know he will.
646
00:32:53,367 --> 00:32:55,166
[Wess] It's been
almost five weeks
647
00:32:55,166 --> 00:32:55,460
since I started
on Dr. Now's program
648
00:32:55,460 --> 00:32:57,467
since I started
on Dr. Now's program
649
00:32:57,467 --> 00:32:59,600
and it hasn't been
a walk in the park
650
00:32:59,667 --> 00:33:02,467
but I've been
working hard at it.
651
00:33:02,467 --> 00:33:03,900
My dad has been coming over
652
00:33:03,967 --> 00:33:06,967
just about every day
to help me with my exercises,
653
00:33:06,967 --> 00:33:10,467
eat with me
and keep me accountable.
654
00:33:10,467 --> 00:33:13,100
But I don't wanna
be a burden to my dad.
655
00:33:13,100 --> 00:33:15,266
So I told him
this is what we'll do for now,
656
00:33:15,266 --> 00:33:19,000
I'll take his help but after
I get approved for surgery.
657
00:33:19,066 --> 00:33:21,667
I need to be able
to do this on my own.
658
00:33:23,266 --> 00:33:24,900
My dad does love me.
659
00:33:24,967 --> 00:33:25,460
He's a good dad
and he looks out for me.
660
00:33:25,460 --> 00:33:27,500
He's a good dad
and he looks out for me.
661
00:33:28,600 --> 00:33:30,300
But I know
that I'm going to
662
00:33:30,367 --> 00:33:32,667
have to get by without
my dad's help as well.
663
00:33:41,467 --> 00:33:43,166
-Hey, Wess.
-Hello.
664
00:33:43,166 --> 00:33:44,667
You ready? You ready
to go for a walk?
665
00:33:44,667 --> 00:33:46,266
Imma try. Let's go.
666
00:33:46,266 --> 00:33:47,367
Here you go.
667
00:33:47,367 --> 00:33:49,000
I brought you some relief.
668
00:33:49,066 --> 00:33:51,600
Thank you.
Let me see your arm.
669
00:33:54,467 --> 00:33:55,460
Thank you, sir.
670
00:33:55,460 --> 00:33:55,567
Thank you, sir.
671
00:33:55,567 --> 00:33:57,000
-You got it?
-Yes.
672
00:33:57,066 --> 00:33:58,667
-You wanna walk on the road?
-Yeah.
673
00:33:59,900 --> 00:34:02,066
-It's easier
than walking here.
-Yes, sir.
674
00:34:03,266 --> 00:34:05,300
[Wess] In the morning
we do my exercises.
675
00:34:05,367 --> 00:34:07,000
And it takes a lot out of me
676
00:34:07,066 --> 00:34:08,500
but I'm getting
better at it now.
677
00:34:09,467 --> 00:34:11,400
I can walk
to the dumpster and back.
678
00:34:11,467 --> 00:34:14,567
Whereas before,
I could barely
even walk outside.
679
00:34:16,967 --> 00:34:19,100
-Gotta get that blood going.
-[Wess laughs]
680
00:34:20,367 --> 00:34:22,166
How many times a day
can you do this?
681
00:34:23,200 --> 00:34:24,467
Twice.
682
00:34:25,667 --> 00:34:27,300
Two times. It's hard on you.
683
00:34:27,367 --> 00:34:28,367
Yeah.
684
00:34:29,867 --> 00:34:32,166
You'll get in shape.
You'll get used to it.
685
00:34:32,767 --> 00:34:34,567
I'm trying my best.
686
00:34:34,567 --> 00:34:36,900
[Wess] The lymphedema
on my leg is miserable.
687
00:34:36,967 --> 00:34:39,266
But I know I have
to fight through the pain.
688
00:34:39,266 --> 00:34:42,000
So it's a lot.
But I feel good
about how I'm doing.
689
00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:45,367
And I still have about
another month to go
before I see the doctor.
690
00:34:45,367 --> 00:34:47,667
-Are you okay?
-Let's stop.
691
00:34:47,667 --> 00:34:49,800
You wanna wait a minute
before you go back?
692
00:34:49,867 --> 00:34:51,000
Yeah.
693
00:34:52,166 --> 00:34:54,867
-Let me catch my breath.
-All right.
694
00:34:55,266 --> 00:34:55,460
[panting]
695
00:34:55,460 --> 00:34:57,266
[panting]
696
00:35:02,900 --> 00:35:03,900
How was that walk?
697
00:35:04,500 --> 00:35:05,600
[Wess] I'm ready to die.
698
00:35:05,667 --> 00:35:07,467
No. Come on.
699
00:35:07,467 --> 00:35:09,900
Pretty soon you'll be able
to do that without even
thinking about it.
700
00:35:09,967 --> 00:35:12,400
-Yeah. I know.
-You won't even breathe hard.
701
00:35:12,467 --> 00:35:13,600
I'll get there.
702
00:35:13,667 --> 00:35:15,900
-You'll be jogging
pretty soon.
-Let's go back.
703
00:35:16,867 --> 00:35:17,667
You're ready?
704
00:35:20,467 --> 00:35:21,767
As I'm ever gonna be.
705
00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:24,967
Well, just keep
it in your mind
706
00:35:24,967 --> 00:35:25,460
it's a positive thing for you.
707
00:35:25,460 --> 00:35:26,567
it's a positive thing for you.
708
00:35:26,567 --> 00:35:27,767
Yeah.
709
00:35:29,166 --> 00:35:30,266
[Rick] Since
the doctor's visit
710
00:35:30,266 --> 00:35:32,367
Wess has really
been doing good.
711
00:35:32,367 --> 00:35:35,100
He's really trying
to stay on his diet.
712
00:35:35,100 --> 00:35:37,467
It makes me happy
to see Wess losing weight
713
00:35:37,467 --> 00:35:41,166
and really caring
about himself again.
714
00:35:45,100 --> 00:35:46,100
Oh, damn.
715
00:35:47,300 --> 00:35:48,400
Use the post.
716
00:35:48,467 --> 00:35:50,367
[panting]
717
00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:53,066
Oh.
718
00:35:55,900 --> 00:35:57,166
You all right?
719
00:35:57,166 --> 00:35:58,567
Yeah. I just gotta
catch my breath.
720
00:35:59,567 --> 00:36:02,800
I'm moving 700 pounds.
It ain't easy.
721
00:36:03,700 --> 00:36:05,033
I know.
722
00:36:13,467 --> 00:36:17,800
You know, I am
a little nervous to see
Dr. Nowzaradan today.
723
00:36:17,867 --> 00:36:20,266
I certainly hope
that I've lost enough weight.
724
00:36:20,266 --> 00:36:24,166
If I didn't lose enough weight
I think he'll be mad at me
725
00:36:24,166 --> 00:36:25,460
and I hope he'll still
let me have the surgery
726
00:36:25,460 --> 00:36:26,867
and I hope he'll still
let me have the surgery
727
00:36:26,867 --> 00:36:29,000
cause I desperately need this.
728
00:36:32,166 --> 00:36:34,066
[Wess] I know I haven't
been perfect everyday
729
00:36:34,066 --> 00:36:36,166
and I've strayed off
the diet more than once.
730
00:36:36,166 --> 00:36:38,066
But almost everyday
I was good.
731
00:36:38,066 --> 00:36:39,467
I didn't compromise or cheat.
732
00:36:39,467 --> 00:36:41,500
And I know I worked hard
on my exercises
733
00:36:41,567 --> 00:36:44,166
because my stamina
is much better now.
734
00:36:44,166 --> 00:36:46,800
I'm feeling as good
as I felt in a long time.
735
00:37:28,900 --> 00:37:29,767
Wess?
736
00:37:33,266 --> 00:37:34,867
-Hello.
-How are you?
737
00:37:34,867 --> 00:37:36,867
-[Wess] How are you?
-[indistinct conversation]
738
00:37:48,767 --> 00:37:50,667
[Wess] I know
I'm getting better.
739
00:37:50,667 --> 00:37:52,367
I just don't know
if my progress
740
00:37:52,367 --> 00:37:54,200
is fast enough for Dr. Now.
741
00:37:58,100 --> 00:37:59,867
And there is only
one way to find out.
742
00:38:14,266 --> 00:38:17,567
[Wess] I'm at Dr. Nowzaradan's
clinic for my first follow up
743
00:38:17,567 --> 00:38:20,667
to see if I've lost
enough weight for him
to move forward with me.
744
00:38:22,266 --> 00:38:24,000
At my last appointment,
745
00:38:24,066 --> 00:38:27,200
I was 705 pounds.
746
00:38:27,266 --> 00:38:30,567
Dr. Now told me to lose
100 pounds in two months
747
00:38:30,567 --> 00:38:32,700
to get down to 605 today.
748
00:38:35,367 --> 00:38:35,449
[woman] Your weight is 695.
749
00:38:35,449 --> 00:38:37,066
[woman] Your weight is 695.
750
00:38:43,800 --> 00:38:45,867
[Wess] That's really
disappointing.
751
00:38:45,867 --> 00:38:47,500
Okay. We'll be going
to room five.
752
00:38:47,567 --> 00:38:49,033
Thank you.
753
00:38:49,967 --> 00:38:52,967
[Wess] I really thought
I had done much
better than that.
754
00:38:52,967 --> 00:38:56,467
And the fact that I haven't
is very discouraging.
755
00:38:56,467 --> 00:38:59,266
And frankly, I'm not sure
what I'm gonna do
756
00:38:59,266 --> 00:39:02,066
because that was as hard
as I knew how to work.
757
00:39:20,867 --> 00:39:22,600
[breathing heavily]
758
00:39:26,367 --> 00:39:27,500
-Hello.
-Hello.
759
00:39:27,567 --> 00:39:28,900
How are you doing?
760
00:39:28,900 --> 00:39:30,467
-[Wess] Good.
How are you doing?
-[Rick] Good, ow are you?
761
00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:33,967
All right. So, Wess,
762
00:39:33,967 --> 00:39:35,449
at 695. In two months you
only lost a whole
10 pound of weight.
763
00:39:35,449 --> 00:39:40,300
at 695. In two months you
only lost a whole
10 pound of weight.
764
00:39:40,367 --> 00:39:42,100
-[Wess] Yes, sir.
-So, what's
going on with that?
765
00:39:42,100 --> 00:39:44,667
Guess I didn't follow
the diet correctly.
I don't know.
766
00:39:44,667 --> 00:39:48,767
That's all I can say,
is I didn't follow the best
of the way I could have.
767
00:39:48,767 --> 00:39:52,500
In what way? Tell me what you
did that you shouldn't have.
768
00:39:52,567 --> 00:39:54,100
There's been a couple of days
769
00:39:54,166 --> 00:39:55,800
that I have cheated
on my diet.
770
00:39:55,867 --> 00:39:57,567
I will admit that.
771
00:39:57,567 --> 00:39:59,467
Several days that
I have cheated on my diet.
772
00:39:59,467 --> 00:40:02,600
So, I already
explained the danger
773
00:40:02,667 --> 00:40:05,166
if you stay
at the weight you are in.
774
00:40:05,166 --> 00:40:05,449
So, what are you waiting for?
775
00:40:05,449 --> 00:40:06,867
So, what are you waiting for?
776
00:40:06,867 --> 00:40:08,467
I don't have...
777
00:40:08,467 --> 00:40:10,300
I don't know what
to say other than
778
00:40:11,100 --> 00:40:12,000
I messed up.
779
00:40:12,567 --> 00:40:13,667
And all I can do is...
780
00:40:15,667 --> 00:40:16,667
try harder.
781
00:40:16,700 --> 00:40:19,467
Why didn't you do it already?
What happened?
782
00:40:19,467 --> 00:40:22,266
[stutters] I'm telling you
I didn't stick with the diet.
783
00:40:22,266 --> 00:40:23,266
You asked me what happened.
784
00:40:23,266 --> 00:40:24,667
I'm telling you I didn't
stick with the diet.
785
00:40:24,667 --> 00:40:26,867
What's the purpose of coming
and telling me that?
786
00:40:28,800 --> 00:40:30,266
To hold me accountable.
787
00:40:30,266 --> 00:40:32,300
So, you want me to be the one
788
00:40:32,367 --> 00:40:34,100
to motivate you to lose weight
789
00:40:34,166 --> 00:40:35,449
and keep you from gaining?
790
00:40:35,449 --> 00:40:35,667
and keep you from gaining?
791
00:40:35,667 --> 00:40:37,300
Do I need to call you everyday
792
00:40:37,367 --> 00:40:40,266
and ask you please follow
the diet so you can live?
793
00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:42,000
No, sir.
794
00:40:42,066 --> 00:40:43,600
I guess I need...
795
00:40:44,667 --> 00:40:47,867
I need it...
How do I say this?
796
00:40:47,867 --> 00:40:51,500
I need it in my face.
Does that make sense?
797
00:40:51,567 --> 00:40:52,567
I need it like...
798
00:40:52,567 --> 00:40:55,166
I get what you're saying
but if you depend on me
799
00:40:55,166 --> 00:40:58,300
to make a difference
then you are never
gonna succeed.
800
00:40:58,367 --> 00:41:00,066
You have to motivate yourself
801
00:41:00,066 --> 00:41:02,367
to want to do this,
you know, to save your life.
802
00:41:02,367 --> 00:41:05,449
But this is your life
and your future.
803
00:41:05,449 --> 00:41:06,000
But this is your life
and your future.
804
00:41:06,000 --> 00:41:07,367
And you have to decide
805
00:41:07,367 --> 00:41:10,367
if it is worth more
to you than food.
806
00:41:10,367 --> 00:41:12,000
It is.
807
00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:14,500
I am happy that
I'm losing some weight.
808
00:41:14,567 --> 00:41:15,567
It's not enough.
809
00:41:16,667 --> 00:41:20,266
Um, it needs to be more.
810
00:41:20,266 --> 00:41:24,100
But I am happy that I have
lost even 10 pounds
at this point.
811
00:41:24,100 --> 00:41:27,266
Well, you know, you need
some perfecting on that.
812
00:41:27,266 --> 00:41:29,867
If you lose at this rate,
five pounds a month,
813
00:41:29,867 --> 00:41:32,767
then it's gonna take 10 years
to get your weight down.
814
00:41:34,066 --> 00:41:35,449
That's never gonna happen.
815
00:41:35,449 --> 00:41:36,166
That's never gonna happen.
816
00:41:36,166 --> 00:41:38,000
You know, you're not
gonna stick with that.
817
00:41:38,066 --> 00:41:39,900
And you're gonna
start to gain again
818
00:41:39,967 --> 00:41:41,667
and you won't
survive that long.
819
00:41:41,667 --> 00:41:43,400
So, it's good that
you are losing
820
00:41:43,400 --> 00:41:47,400
but you need to understand
you're still not doing what
you need to save your life.
821
00:41:47,467 --> 00:41:48,467
-[Wess] Yes, sir.
-Okay?
822
00:41:48,467 --> 00:41:51,266
So, are you happy that
at least you're losing
823
00:41:51,266 --> 00:41:54,467
because your expectation is
that you should be
gaining weight, right?
824
00:41:54,467 --> 00:41:55,367
Yes, sir.
825
00:41:55,367 --> 00:41:59,066
Okay. That is
a destructive mindset
826
00:41:59,066 --> 00:42:00,667
that you need to get out of.
827
00:42:00,667 --> 00:42:05,449
So 10 pound, you can lose
10 pound in two days.
828
00:42:05,449 --> 00:42:05,767
So 10 pound, you can lose
10 pound in two days.
829
00:42:05,767 --> 00:42:08,600
At your weight
that's nothing, okay?
830
00:42:08,667 --> 00:42:13,100
So, you're still overeating
around 6,500 calories a day.
831
00:42:13,100 --> 00:42:16,266
If you stick
to 1,200 calorie a day diet,
832
00:42:16,266 --> 00:42:19,900
you're gonna lose at least
two to five pounds a day now.
833
00:42:19,967 --> 00:42:21,467
-Mm-hmm.
-Okay?
834
00:42:21,467 --> 00:42:24,700
So, this is gonna be
a positive thing for you.
835
00:42:24,767 --> 00:42:28,700
And so that is a optimistic
way of looking at it that
836
00:42:28,767 --> 00:42:30,467
you lost 10 pounds
in two months.
837
00:42:30,467 --> 00:42:33,967
But then in reality,
you are 700 pound
838
00:42:33,967 --> 00:42:35,449
and it seems like you're
taking this very casually.
839
00:42:35,449 --> 00:42:36,900
and it seems like you're
taking this very casually.
840
00:42:36,967 --> 00:42:42,667
So, this is a situation that
you're gonna have to do
your part to lose weight.
841
00:42:42,667 --> 00:42:45,000
-Yes.
-[Dr. Now] Okay?
Work hard for it.
842
00:42:46,166 --> 00:42:48,467
So, if you don't wanna
work hard for it
843
00:42:48,467 --> 00:42:52,100
and you wanna have that
surgery done to lose weight,
844
00:42:52,166 --> 00:42:55,367
that's gonna have to take
some work from you.
845
00:42:55,367 --> 00:42:59,166
And it's gonna be
determination,
sticking with your diet,
846
00:42:59,166 --> 00:43:01,467
doing your part and all that.
847
00:43:01,800 --> 00:43:02,667
Yes, sir.
848
00:43:02,667 --> 00:43:03,900
-Okay?
-Okay.
849
00:43:05,100 --> 00:43:05,449
So I'm gonna give you another
two months to lose 90 pounds
850
00:43:05,449 --> 00:43:08,166
So I'm gonna give you another
two months to lose 90 pounds
851
00:43:08,166 --> 00:43:09,300
that you still owe me
852
00:43:09,367 --> 00:43:12,367
and if you don't make
the changes,
853
00:43:12,367 --> 00:43:15,400
and if you're not able
to lose the weight,
854
00:43:16,400 --> 00:43:18,867
then the surgery
is out of question for you.
855
00:43:18,867 --> 00:43:20,066
Yes, sir.
856
00:43:20,100 --> 00:43:23,200
But in two months,
if you haven't lost
any weight,
857
00:43:23,266 --> 00:43:25,800
there's no point
in coming back
and telling me that
858
00:43:25,867 --> 00:43:27,200
you didn't follow the diet.
859
00:43:27,266 --> 00:43:28,166
Yes, sir.
860
00:43:28,166 --> 00:43:29,367
-[Dr. Now] Okay?
-Okay.
861
00:43:29,367 --> 00:43:32,467
But if you lose that
then we can work with you.
862
00:43:33,367 --> 00:43:35,000
-All right?
-Yes, sir.
863
00:43:35,000 --> 00:43:35,449
So, at this point,
it's all up to you.
864
00:43:35,449 --> 00:43:37,367
So, at this point,
it's all up to you.
865
00:43:37,367 --> 00:43:38,800
Yes, sir.
866
00:43:38,867 --> 00:43:41,066
Dad, have you been
helping him?
867
00:43:41,066 --> 00:43:45,367
Well, I know that Wess
wants to lose the weight.
868
00:43:45,367 --> 00:43:48,200
I think that maybe I need
to help him a little bit more
869
00:43:48,266 --> 00:43:51,367
and be more, you know,
push him a little bit.
870
00:43:51,367 --> 00:43:55,600
I'm gonna have to step in
and help I think.
871
00:43:55,667 --> 00:43:57,000
Well, you know, that's good.
872
00:43:57,066 --> 00:43:59,867
But no matter what,
it is Wess's responsibility
873
00:43:59,867 --> 00:44:02,700
to be proactive
and have control over
874
00:44:02,767 --> 00:44:04,767
his eating habits. Okay?
875
00:44:05,800 --> 00:44:08,567
So, Wess, stick with the
healthy eating habit
876
00:44:08,567 --> 00:44:10,967
and we're gonna see how
you're doing in two months.
877
00:44:10,967 --> 00:44:11,867
Yes, sir.
878
00:44:11,867 --> 00:44:13,166
-Okay?
-Okay.
879
00:44:13,166 --> 00:44:14,266
Any questions?
880
00:44:14,266 --> 00:44:16,000
No, sir, thank you.
881
00:44:16,066 --> 00:44:18,500
Okay. You're gonna
have to eventually deal
882
00:44:18,567 --> 00:44:21,767
with your emotional issues
behind your overeating.
883
00:44:21,767 --> 00:44:24,100
But right now you have
to take the first step
884
00:44:24,100 --> 00:44:26,967
and show me that you're
willing to work on this.
885
00:44:26,967 --> 00:44:30,567
If you are then we'll give you
the tools to keep you going.
886
00:44:30,567 --> 00:44:33,767
But if not then nothing
we do will last for you.
887
00:44:33,767 --> 00:44:35,300
So, you have to do this.
888
00:44:35,867 --> 00:44:37,266
-Okay?
-All right.
889
00:44:37,266 --> 00:44:40,200
All right. We're gonna see
how we do next time
when we see you.
890
00:44:40,266 --> 00:44:41,166
Okay.
891
00:44:41,166 --> 00:44:42,967
And if you need
anything let me know.
892
00:44:42,967 --> 00:44:44,967
-Thank you.
-All right.
See you in two months.
893
00:44:44,967 --> 00:44:46,367
-[Wess] All right. Thank you.
-Okay.
894
00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:55,467
What do you think?
895
00:44:55,467 --> 00:44:57,100
I think I got
my ass handed to me.
896
00:44:57,166 --> 00:44:59,500
[laughs] Well, I know that.
897
00:44:59,567 --> 00:45:03,500
Wess doesn't seem to believe
the reality of his situation
898
00:45:03,567 --> 00:45:05,449
and how dangerous
it is for him to continue
at this weight.
899
00:45:05,449 --> 00:45:07,467
and how dangerous
it is for him to continue
at this weight.
900
00:45:07,467 --> 00:45:11,166
So, he's still choosing food
over his life and dreams.
901
00:45:11,166 --> 00:45:13,100
But if he doesn't
wake up right now
902
00:45:13,166 --> 00:45:15,000
and start doing what he needs,
903
00:45:15,000 --> 00:45:19,867
then it's not gonna be long
before everything I'm warning
him of starts to happen
904
00:45:19,867 --> 00:45:22,467
and once he does,
he's gonna be out of time.
905
00:45:22,467 --> 00:45:24,367
So, the clock
is ticking for him
906
00:45:24,367 --> 00:45:27,967
and if he doesn't want to get
to a point of no return,
907
00:45:27,967 --> 00:45:30,900
he has to take
responsibility for his life
908
00:45:30,967 --> 00:45:32,500
and actions now.
909
00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:39,600
[Wess] I think Dr. Now
did what I needed.
910
00:45:39,667 --> 00:45:42,266
I think it was
a shock to my system.
911
00:45:42,266 --> 00:45:44,667
I have to remind myself that
912
00:45:44,667 --> 00:45:46,400
it comes from
a place of caring.
913
00:45:46,467 --> 00:45:48,300
People don't get
to be 700 pounds
914
00:45:48,367 --> 00:45:51,266
without living in a world
of their own creating,
915
00:45:51,266 --> 00:45:53,900
without being able
to deny reality. Right?
916
00:45:53,967 --> 00:45:56,700
They don't get to be this size
without having enablers
in their life.
917
00:45:57,667 --> 00:46:00,900
Dr. Now has to be that person
918
00:46:00,967 --> 00:46:03,100
that pulls them out of that
919
00:46:03,100 --> 00:46:05,449
false world they have
and brings them to reality.
920
00:46:05,449 --> 00:46:05,900
false world they have
and brings them to reality.
921
00:46:05,967 --> 00:46:09,166
And he does that because he
doesn't wanna see them hurt.
922
00:46:09,166 --> 00:46:12,100
He doesn't wanna see them die.
He wants them to live.
923
00:46:12,100 --> 00:46:13,400
And I'm not blaming
anybody else.
924
00:46:13,467 --> 00:46:15,400
It is my fault
that I got this size.
925
00:46:43,567 --> 00:46:46,667
[Wess] It's been a month since
my follow up with Dr. Now.
926
00:46:46,667 --> 00:46:48,700
And in many ways,
that appointment
927
00:46:48,767 --> 00:46:51,266
was a bigger wakeup call
than my first one
928
00:46:51,266 --> 00:46:51,403
because I am finally trying
to turn my life around.
929
00:46:51,403 --> 00:46:55,200
because I am finally trying
to turn my life around.
930
00:46:55,266 --> 00:46:57,300
And I thought
I was doing better.
931
00:46:57,367 --> 00:47:00,700
But then to see that
I had only lost 10 pounds,
932
00:47:00,767 --> 00:47:02,266
I was mortified.
933
00:47:02,266 --> 00:47:04,300
I know I have to do
a lot better than that
934
00:47:04,367 --> 00:47:06,667
and I'm determined
to make sure that I do.
935
00:47:06,667 --> 00:47:09,367
I don't want another repeat
when I go back to Dr. Now
936
00:47:09,367 --> 00:47:11,500
and have the same
lousy progress.
937
00:47:13,266 --> 00:47:14,767
I can't disappoint
him like that.
938
00:47:15,767 --> 00:47:17,000
That look he gives you,
939
00:47:17,066 --> 00:47:19,367
you don't ever
wanna get that look.
940
00:47:19,367 --> 00:47:20,700
[laughing]
941
00:47:21,600 --> 00:47:22,900
Once was enough.
942
00:47:26,100 --> 00:47:28,667
So, I am taking
responsibility for myself.
943
00:47:28,667 --> 00:47:31,367
I am not looking for anyone
else to motivate me.
944
00:47:31,367 --> 00:47:32,567
I heard him tell my dad
945
00:47:32,567 --> 00:47:34,567
that it's not
his responsibility
946
00:47:34,567 --> 00:47:38,166
or anyone else's to make me do
what I need to do.
947
00:47:38,166 --> 00:47:41,100
The way he was
checking on me everyday
948
00:47:41,166 --> 00:47:43,567
was only gonna be
for a couple of months
949
00:47:43,567 --> 00:47:47,467
until I lost the weight
I needed to for the surgery.
950
00:47:47,467 --> 00:47:49,767
And I didn't do that.
So that's on me.
951
00:47:49,767 --> 00:47:51,403
My dad shouldn't
have to keep bearing
the responsibility for that.
952
00:47:51,403 --> 00:47:53,100
My dad shouldn't
have to keep bearing
the responsibility for that.
953
00:47:53,100 --> 00:47:55,767
And other people
in my family need him too.
954
00:47:55,767 --> 00:47:57,266
So, I told my dad
this is something
955
00:47:57,266 --> 00:47:59,200
I need to do on my own.
956
00:47:59,266 --> 00:48:01,700
I need to be the one
to make the changes
957
00:48:01,767 --> 00:48:03,266
like Dr. Now said.
958
00:48:03,266 --> 00:48:05,166
I'm sticking to the program.
959
00:48:05,166 --> 00:48:07,367
It's kicking my butt
but I'm still doing it
960
00:48:07,367 --> 00:48:09,900
and I'm doing
all the exercises each day.
961
00:48:18,367 --> 00:48:19,867
And more importantly,
962
00:48:19,867 --> 00:48:21,403
I've cut back on my eating
a whole lot more.
963
00:48:21,403 --> 00:48:23,367
I've cut back on my eating
a whole lot more.
964
00:48:23,367 --> 00:48:25,667
Close to 1,200 calories a day.
965
00:48:25,667 --> 00:48:28,400
I stay away from sugar, carbs
966
00:48:28,467 --> 00:48:30,967
and there's been no cheating
with that at all.
967
00:48:30,967 --> 00:48:34,467
It's hard but I've stuck
to it with the whole month.
968
00:48:34,467 --> 00:48:36,867
I plan to stick with it
for the next month too
969
00:48:36,867 --> 00:48:41,100
and way beyond because
I'm serious about this.
970
00:48:41,166 --> 00:48:44,000
And I really hope
when I go back to see
Dr. Now in a month
971
00:48:44,066 --> 00:48:46,800
that the scale says
I'm serious too.
972
00:48:55,767 --> 00:48:58,467
[Wess] Well, we're headed back
to Dr. Now's again.
973
00:48:58,467 --> 00:49:00,166
I am really, really nervous
974
00:49:00,166 --> 00:49:03,767
because a lot is riding on
what the scale has to say.
975
00:49:03,767 --> 00:49:06,867
I can't mess it up again
like I did last time.
976
00:49:06,867 --> 00:49:10,367
And I've worked extra hard
to make sure it's gonna
be different today.
977
00:49:10,367 --> 00:49:12,367
I know if I haven't lost
enough weight this time,
978
00:49:12,367 --> 00:49:14,166
I'm gonna be really screwed
979
00:49:14,166 --> 00:49:15,767
because I've done
everything I could
980
00:49:15,767 --> 00:49:17,467
possibly do this time around.
981
00:49:48,300 --> 00:49:49,400
Next.
982
00:49:50,400 --> 00:49:51,403
[Wess] At my last weigh in,
I was 694 pounds
983
00:49:51,403 --> 00:49:53,700
[Wess] At my last weigh in,
I was 694 pounds
984
00:49:53,767 --> 00:49:56,266
and Dr. Now said
I had to lose 90 pounds
985
00:49:56,266 --> 00:49:57,567
in two months.
986
00:50:02,667 --> 00:50:06,400
And if I did that, I'd be
down to at least 604 today.
987
00:50:25,667 --> 00:50:27,166
That's good.
988
00:50:27,166 --> 00:50:29,367
-Well...
-Going down.
989
00:50:29,367 --> 00:50:32,000
-It's there-- it's something.
-[both laughing]
990
00:50:34,000 --> 00:50:35,000
Thank you.
991
00:50:36,066 --> 00:50:38,000
[Wess] That feels really good,
992
00:50:38,066 --> 00:50:41,467
I've never lost
that much weight
in my entire life
993
00:50:42,767 --> 00:50:44,867
and I'm really proud
of myself for doing that.
994
00:50:46,300 --> 00:50:48,567
I just really hope
that Dr. Now,
995
00:50:48,567 --> 00:50:51,403
can look past the fact
that I was a couple of pounds
short of my goal.
996
00:50:51,403 --> 00:50:51,767
can look past the fact
that I was a couple of pounds
short of my goal.
997
00:51:06,800 --> 00:51:08,166
[knock on door]
998
00:51:11,567 --> 00:51:13,867
Hello, how are you all doing?
999
00:51:13,867 --> 00:51:15,367
-Hello.
-[Rick] Good. How are you?
1000
00:51:15,367 --> 00:51:16,700
I'm good, thank you.
1001
00:51:17,200 --> 00:51:18,767
All right, Wess.
1002
00:51:18,767 --> 00:51:21,403
So, it looks like you
figured out what to do,
to lose some weight, right?
1003
00:51:21,403 --> 00:51:21,600
So, it looks like you
figured out what to do,
to lose some weight, right?
1004
00:51:22,066 --> 00:51:23,066
Yes, sir.
1005
00:51:23,066 --> 00:51:25,100
So you're down to 606?
1006
00:51:25,467 --> 00:51:26,567
Yes, sir.
1007
00:51:26,567 --> 00:51:29,367
So you lost 100 lbs
like you needed.
1008
00:51:29,367 --> 00:51:30,934
Yes, sir.
1009
00:51:30,934 --> 00:51:33,600
You kicked my butt last time
I was here, I didn't want
to do that again.
1010
00:51:33,667 --> 00:51:36,266
-You're right.
-[laughing]
1011
00:51:36,266 --> 00:51:38,667
So we'll go ahead then
and approve you for surgery.
1012
00:51:38,667 --> 00:51:40,100
-Thank you.
-Okay?
1013
00:51:40,100 --> 00:51:41,300
[Rick] Cool.
1014
00:51:41,367 --> 00:51:44,266
So, we're gonna set you
up for surgery for next month
1015
00:51:44,266 --> 00:51:46,567
and until then,
continue to lose weight.
1016
00:51:46,567 --> 00:51:47,900
-Okay.
-'Cause if you go to
the hospital
1017
00:51:47,967 --> 00:51:49,600
and you haven't lost
any weight,
1018
00:51:49,667 --> 00:51:50,867
we're gonna send you home.
1019
00:51:50,867 --> 00:51:51,403
Yeah. [laughing]
1020
00:51:51,403 --> 00:51:52,367
Yeah. [laughing]
1021
00:51:52,367 --> 00:51:54,100
-Okay?
-Yes, sir.
1022
00:51:54,100 --> 00:51:59,400
All right. Also, continue
to work on your exercises too,
don't forget about those.
1023
00:51:59,467 --> 00:52:02,367
And see if you can improve
your stamina, okay?
1024
00:52:02,367 --> 00:52:03,967
-Okay, I'll do it.
-All right then.
1025
00:52:03,967 --> 00:52:05,900
-Any questions?
-No, sir.
1026
00:52:05,967 --> 00:52:08,900
All right, I'm proud of
your progress, so keep it up,
1027
00:52:08,967 --> 00:52:10,166
until the surgery.
1028
00:52:10,166 --> 00:52:11,467
-Okay?
-Yes, sir.
1029
00:52:11,467 --> 00:52:13,000
Thank you for everything.
1030
00:52:13,000 --> 00:52:15,367
-You're welcome.
-[Rick] Thank you, doc.
1031
00:52:21,300 --> 00:52:21,403
I'm very happy to see
that Wess got serious
about his health and his life
1032
00:52:21,403 --> 00:52:26,166
I'm very happy to see
that Wess got serious
about his health and his life
1033
00:52:26,166 --> 00:52:29,767
and start taking
responsibility for
his choices.
1034
00:52:29,767 --> 00:52:32,266
He's taken the first step
and shown me,
1035
00:52:32,266 --> 00:52:35,800
he's willing to work,
to do what he needs
to improve his life.
1036
00:52:35,867 --> 00:52:38,667
So we can move ahead
with him and give him
more tools,
1037
00:52:38,667 --> 00:52:40,166
to help him get healthy.
1038
00:52:40,166 --> 00:52:42,100
He still has a long road ahead
1039
00:52:42,100 --> 00:52:45,367
but weight loss surgery is
going to be an important step
1040
00:52:45,367 --> 00:52:47,400
that will help him
get to his goal.
1041
00:52:47,467 --> 00:52:50,166
But the real hard work
is still ahead for him.
1042
00:52:50,166 --> 00:52:51,403
So, it's not time for him
to let up at all,
1043
00:52:51,403 --> 00:52:52,700
So, it's not time for him
to let up at all,
1044
00:52:52,767 --> 00:52:56,266
he needs to keep working hard
and do everything he needs.
1045
00:52:56,266 --> 00:53:00,500
If he expects to succeed
and improve his health
for the long term.
1046
00:53:01,367 --> 00:53:03,200
I got approved for my surgery.
1047
00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:09,634
[Wess] I am elated,
1048
00:53:09,634 --> 00:53:15,000
I-- Words cannot describe
how I feel, I think
I'm in shock right now.
1049
00:53:15,066 --> 00:53:17,767
When I came last time,
those numbers were
a wakeup call.
1050
00:53:21,200 --> 00:53:21,403
With such
a world of delusion,
that I was living in,
1051
00:53:21,403 --> 00:53:23,867
With such
a world of delusion,
that I was living in,
1052
00:53:23,867 --> 00:53:26,367
I vowed to myself
that was never gonna
happen again.
1053
00:53:29,567 --> 00:53:33,400
So I'm not gonna let myself
do anything to waste
this chance.
1054
00:53:57,367 --> 00:53:58,667
Bye.
1055
00:53:58,667 --> 00:54:00,066
I'll see you when you get out.
1056
00:54:02,100 --> 00:54:03,667
[laughs] Bye.
1057
00:54:05,500 --> 00:54:07,667
-I love you.
-I love you too, bye.
1058
00:54:12,600 --> 00:54:17,000
I am feeling trepidacious,
I guess the best word
to describe it.
1059
00:54:17,066 --> 00:54:19,166
I'm anxious, I'm excited,
1060
00:54:20,367 --> 00:54:22,600
nervous, it's scary.
1061
00:54:22,667 --> 00:54:25,000
You know the unknown is
scary, plus...
1062
00:54:25,000 --> 00:54:28,800
You know I think
at the end of the day,
this represents a change
1063
00:54:28,867 --> 00:54:30,500
and this is a culmination of,
1064
00:54:30,567 --> 00:54:35,166
everything that I have
been scared to dream
about for years now.
1065
00:54:35,166 --> 00:54:37,667
I finally decided
to commit to that and do it
1066
00:54:37,667 --> 00:54:39,174
and this is like,
gonna make it real.
1067
00:54:39,174 --> 00:54:40,567
and this is like,
gonna make it real.
1068
00:54:40,567 --> 00:54:45,100
And for someone
who tends to always expect
the worst,
1069
00:54:45,100 --> 00:54:48,300
of something to happen,
this is a challenge
to fight that,
1070
00:54:48,367 --> 00:54:50,200
monster in
your head of anxiety
1071
00:54:50,266 --> 00:54:52,066
and that's what I'm dealing
with right now.
1072
00:55:02,000 --> 00:55:04,800
[Dr. Now] Today we're
gonna do a sleeve gastrectomy
on Wess.
1073
00:55:04,867 --> 00:55:08,367
He continued to lose weight
and he's down to 582,
1074
00:55:08,367 --> 00:55:09,174
so he lost another
24 lbs, this past month.
1075
00:55:09,174 --> 00:55:11,767
so he lost another
24 lbs, this past month.
1076
00:55:11,767 --> 00:55:15,166
So, he's working hard
and he's ready for
this operation.
1077
00:55:15,166 --> 00:55:17,467
But this is
a very risky surgery
1078
00:55:17,467 --> 00:55:21,667
because doing surgery
on somebody that size is
still very risky.
1079
00:55:21,667 --> 00:55:25,300
If we have any issues
with anesthesia,
with the blood pressure
1080
00:55:25,367 --> 00:55:26,567
or oxygen saturation,
1081
00:55:26,567 --> 00:55:28,867
then we may have
to stop the surgery.
1082
00:55:28,867 --> 00:55:30,367
Okay, let's begin.
1083
00:55:34,767 --> 00:55:36,000
[indistinct]
1084
00:55:41,166 --> 00:55:42,300
[Dr. Now] Go up.
1085
00:55:44,266 --> 00:55:45,667
Look at that...
1086
00:55:46,567 --> 00:55:47,767
[Dr. Now] Hold it there.
1087
00:55:50,467 --> 00:55:51,767
Bring the robot.
1088
00:55:51,767 --> 00:55:54,467
But if we are able to complete
the surgery,
1089
00:55:54,467 --> 00:55:58,166
it's gonna be a great help
for him to be able
to lose weight.
1090
00:55:59,100 --> 00:56:01,767
[robot] Dock
the remaining arms.
1091
00:56:01,767 --> 00:56:05,967
[Dr. Now] All right.
I'm gonna transition to robot.
1092
00:56:05,967 --> 00:56:08,767
Because we're doing
an operation that we're gonna
take almost
1093
00:56:08,767 --> 00:56:09,174
about 80 percent
of the stomach out
1094
00:56:09,174 --> 00:56:10,800
about 80 percent
of the stomach out
1095
00:56:10,867 --> 00:56:14,900
and leave him with
a small narrow 20 percent
stomach volume
1096
00:56:14,967 --> 00:56:18,500
that is gonna help him
to eat less and be able
to lose more weight.
1097
00:56:24,900 --> 00:56:26,000
[machine beeps]
1098
00:56:29,166 --> 00:56:30,367
[machine beeps]
1099
00:56:39,300 --> 00:56:40,867
Do that again for me.
1100
00:56:40,867 --> 00:56:41,900
[indistinct conversation]
1101
00:56:43,700 --> 00:56:46,266
I'm a little anxious,
1102
00:56:46,266 --> 00:56:49,467
to see how, how it goes,
to see how he does.
1103
00:56:49,467 --> 00:56:53,000
It must have been hard
for him, you know, of course,
1104
00:56:53,000 --> 00:56:56,867
it's been hard for him
to get around, to just be--
live a normal life.
1105
00:56:58,266 --> 00:57:00,166
But it's fixing to get better.
1106
00:57:00,700 --> 00:57:02,367
I am very hopeful
1107
00:57:02,367 --> 00:57:06,700
and I think it will,
because it took a lot...
on Wess,
1108
00:57:06,767 --> 00:57:09,174
you know, on Wess's part,
to even be here.
1109
00:57:09,174 --> 00:57:10,066
you know, on Wess's part,
to even be here.
1110
00:57:14,700 --> 00:57:17,700
[Dr. Now] Okay,
we're removing
the detached portion.
1111
00:57:18,767 --> 00:57:20,166
It's big, isn't it?
1112
00:57:25,667 --> 00:57:27,467
Keep pulling, keep pulling.
Keep pulling.
1113
00:57:28,100 --> 00:57:29,000
All right.
1114
00:57:32,166 --> 00:57:33,166
Got it.
1115
00:57:34,000 --> 00:57:36,367
He had a long stomach. Huh?
1116
00:57:36,367 --> 00:57:38,300
-[assistant] Mm.
-Put that on
the table over there.
1117
00:57:39,367 --> 00:57:41,467
[digital beeping]
1118
00:57:44,867 --> 00:57:46,700
Okay, we can
suture him up.
1119
00:58:02,100 --> 00:58:04,500
Wess's surgery went very well.
1120
00:58:04,567 --> 00:58:07,767
Luckily, we didn't have
any issue with the surgery
1121
00:58:07,767 --> 00:58:09,174
and we were able to complete
gastric sleeve on him.
1122
00:58:09,174 --> 00:58:10,700
and we were able to complete
gastric sleeve on him.
1123
00:58:10,767 --> 00:58:14,467
And after this operation,
he's gonna be able
to lose more weight
1124
00:58:14,467 --> 00:58:19,100
and it's gonna be much easier
for him to be able to control
his eating habit.
1125
00:58:19,166 --> 00:58:21,767
He's gonna be on
a liquid diet for
the next month
1126
00:58:21,767 --> 00:58:24,567
and be able to lose 40 lbs
in the first month,
1127
00:58:24,567 --> 00:58:26,767
and after that,
25 lbs a month,
1128
00:58:26,767 --> 00:58:30,200
and each month,
until he gets closer
to his ideal body weight.
1129
00:58:30,266 --> 00:58:33,100
This was an important step
for Wess today,
1130
00:58:33,100 --> 00:58:36,166
but he still has
a lot of work to do
to get to his goal.
1131
00:58:36,166 --> 00:58:39,174
Wess has a big lipo lymphedema
masses in both thigh
1132
00:58:39,174 --> 00:58:40,000
Wess has a big lipo lymphedema
masses in both thigh
1133
00:58:40,066 --> 00:58:42,567
and one side is much bigger
than the other one,
1134
00:58:42,567 --> 00:58:45,967
as he loses some weight
we're gonna have
to remove those for him,
1135
00:58:45,967 --> 00:58:47,767
to get that
lymphedema corrected.
1136
00:58:47,767 --> 00:58:50,266
But the most important thing
is that he's gonna have
1137
00:58:50,266 --> 00:58:53,000
to start to deal with
his emotional issues,
1138
00:58:53,066 --> 00:58:54,567
that driving him to eat,
1139
00:58:54,567 --> 00:58:57,266
or it's gonna be
just a matter of time
1140
00:58:57,266 --> 00:58:59,400
before he's starts
to overeat again.
1141
00:58:59,467 --> 00:59:03,266
So, we will start him
going to therapy soon,
to keep him on track.
1142
00:59:03,266 --> 00:59:05,400
But at this point,
he's doing very well
1143
00:59:05,467 --> 00:59:08,000
and hopefully,
next 12 to 18 months,
1144
00:59:08,000 --> 00:59:09,174
he's gonna be very close
to his ideal body weight.
1145
00:59:09,174 --> 00:59:11,100
he's gonna be very close
to his ideal body weight.
1146
00:59:11,100 --> 00:59:13,567
But he has a lot of work
to do to get there.
1147
00:59:35,467 --> 00:59:36,867
Come on, let's go water.
1148
00:59:36,867 --> 00:59:39,166
Okay, let's go water.
1149
00:59:40,967 --> 00:59:44,900
[Wess] It's been a month
since my weight loss surgery
and I'm feeling really good.
1150
00:59:44,967 --> 00:59:47,467
-Do you wanna water,
I'll hand you the water hose.
-Yeah.
1151
00:59:50,367 --> 00:59:52,166
Need to water this one too.
1152
00:59:52,166 --> 00:59:53,667
[Wess] We'll do
this one first.
1153
00:59:53,667 --> 00:59:56,000
[Wess] I went back
to see Dr. Now,
for my one month
1154
00:59:56,066 --> 00:59:58,166
post op follow up appointment.
1155
00:59:58,166 --> 01:00:02,567
Dr. Now cleared me
to work out and do all my
physical activity again.
1156
01:00:02,567 --> 01:00:04,567
So, I've actually been
trying to get out and do more.
1157
01:00:06,367 --> 01:00:09,174
They're only making it
because it gets shady half
the day.
1158
01:00:09,174 --> 01:00:09,667
They're only making it
because it gets shady half
the day.
1159
01:00:09,667 --> 01:00:12,400
-Right.
-Look at my asparagus, man.
1160
01:00:12,467 --> 01:00:14,567
[Wess] And I've lost 34 lbs
since surgery,
1161
01:00:14,567 --> 01:00:16,100
which wasn't bad.
1162
01:00:16,100 --> 01:00:18,300
But Doc said it should be
more like 40.
1163
01:00:20,100 --> 01:00:21,500
Straighten my hose out.
1164
01:00:21,500 --> 01:00:23,500
[Wess] So he was
a little concerned
and he told me,
1165
01:00:23,567 --> 01:00:27,667
that I needed to lose
at least 25 lbs over
the course of the next month
1166
01:00:27,667 --> 01:00:28,900
to stay on track.
1167
01:00:28,967 --> 01:00:31,000
About 15 more feet
and I'll be good.
1168
01:00:34,600 --> 01:00:36,300
Done.
1169
01:00:36,300 --> 01:00:39,000
[Wess] And I don't want
anything to slow down how much
I should be losing.
1170
01:00:40,867 --> 01:00:42,800
Because I wanna keep making
all the progress
1171
01:00:42,867 --> 01:00:45,200
I need with my weight loss
and my stamina.
1172
01:00:47,667 --> 01:00:48,767
I need to go sit down.
1173
01:00:51,266 --> 01:00:53,300
So, I'm very happy
I'm able to do this,
1174
01:00:53,367 --> 01:00:54,867
and spend some time
with my dad,
1175
01:00:54,867 --> 01:00:58,266
doing something other than
him helping me
or looking after me.
1176
01:00:59,767 --> 01:01:01,367
Oh, I like to garden.
1177
01:01:01,367 --> 01:01:05,200
You reap your rewards
you know, when you
harvest your...
1178
01:01:05,266 --> 01:01:08,000
what you worked hard
at all the spring and stuff.
1179
01:01:10,767 --> 01:01:13,900
[Rick] I feel sad to know
that if he doesn't turn
his life around that
1180
01:01:13,967 --> 01:01:15,166
he could die.
1181
01:01:15,166 --> 01:01:16,967
You know, that doesn't
have to happen.
1182
01:01:18,100 --> 01:01:19,700
It'll work out for good
for him,
1183
01:01:19,767 --> 01:01:23,000
it's just a matter of him
putting his mind and doing it.
1184
01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:24,767
I can only do so much.
1185
01:01:24,767 --> 01:01:27,100
-What's this for?
-Taste it.
1186
01:01:28,900 --> 01:01:31,667
I'll make you a deal,
you take it home,
chop it up and fry it.
1187
01:01:31,667 --> 01:01:33,567
You can't fry them,
it's too hard.
1188
01:01:34,600 --> 01:01:36,000
[Wess] Stubborn old man.
1189
01:01:36,000 --> 01:01:37,266
[Rick laughs]
1190
01:01:58,567 --> 01:02:00,567
[Wess] I'm a little bit scared
about my weigh-in today.
1191
01:02:02,567 --> 01:02:05,867
I really just want
to stay on track
and not disappoint Dr. Now,
1192
01:02:05,867 --> 01:02:08,800
so I'm hoping I lost
what I should be losing.
1193
01:02:08,867 --> 01:02:11,200
I'm paying attention to what
I eat and how much,
1194
01:02:11,266 --> 01:02:13,491
and making sure
I'm not grazing or snacking
throughout the day.
1195
01:02:13,491 --> 01:02:13,900
and making sure
I'm not grazing or snacking
throughout the day.
1196
01:02:15,166 --> 01:02:17,767
And I think I've been
doing well enough
but we'll see.
1197
01:02:35,100 --> 01:02:36,667
[door closes]
1198
01:02:44,667 --> 01:02:45,667
Wess.
1199
01:02:49,367 --> 01:02:51,100
Hello. How are you?
1200
01:02:51,100 --> 01:02:54,667
-How are you?
-[sighs in relief] Glad
I made it just past the rain.
1201
01:02:54,667 --> 01:02:56,467
-I see it's raining.
-[Wess chuckles]
1202
01:02:58,100 --> 01:03:00,467
At my last appointment
I was 548
1203
01:03:00,467 --> 01:03:03,767
and I'm supposed to be losing
at least 25 lbs a month.
1204
01:03:03,767 --> 01:03:06,867
So, that means I should be
down to 523 today.
1205
01:03:26,367 --> 01:03:27,166
Okay.
1206
01:03:30,567 --> 01:03:32,867
Okay. Pretty good, huh?
1207
01:03:34,000 --> 01:03:36,166
-Real good.
-[chuckles] Yeah, let's go.
1208
01:03:36,166 --> 01:03:38,367
Okay, down the hall
to the right, room five
1209
01:03:38,367 --> 01:03:40,166
-and I'll let the doctor know
you're ready. Okay?
-Thank you.
1210
01:03:41,867 --> 01:03:43,491
[Wess] That's not bad,
but it's not 25,
1211
01:03:43,491 --> 01:03:43,867
[Wess] That's not bad,
but it's not 25,
1212
01:03:43,867 --> 01:03:45,867
so I'm worried because
I wanna stay on track
1213
01:03:45,867 --> 01:03:47,567
and be where I need
to be right now.
1214
01:03:48,567 --> 01:03:49,900
And it doesn't look like I am.
1215
01:04:05,800 --> 01:04:06,900
[knock on door]
1216
01:04:11,066 --> 01:04:12,500
Hello. How are you all doing?
1217
01:04:12,567 --> 01:04:13,491
Good. How are you?
1218
01:04:13,491 --> 01:04:13,767
Good. How are you?
1219
01:04:14,767 --> 01:04:17,300
-You all doing okay?
-I am, yes, sir.
1220
01:04:17,367 --> 01:04:20,667
All right. So how do you feel
like your progress coming on?
1221
01:04:20,667 --> 01:04:23,667
I think it's doing pretty good
I'm sticking to the diet.
1222
01:04:23,667 --> 01:04:25,166
Dad, how's he doing at home?
1223
01:04:25,166 --> 01:04:27,266
-Behaving?
-Yeah, he's doing good.
1224
01:04:27,266 --> 01:04:29,200
-He's doing good.
Are you happy with that?
-I think he's doing good.
1225
01:04:29,266 --> 01:04:30,200
Oh, yeah.
1226
01:04:30,266 --> 01:04:33,500
All right, Wess.
So, you're down to 530.
1227
01:04:33,567 --> 01:04:34,467
Yes, sir.
1228
01:04:34,467 --> 01:04:36,200
So you lost 18 pounds
this month,
1229
01:04:36,266 --> 01:04:40,266
which isn't bad but you
should be losing at least
25 lbs a month,
1230
01:04:40,266 --> 01:04:42,100
this soon
after weight loss surgery.
1231
01:04:42,166 --> 01:04:43,491
And so, you must be
grazing a little during
the day huh?
1232
01:04:43,491 --> 01:04:45,767
And so, you must be
grazing a little during
the day huh?
1233
01:04:47,066 --> 01:04:49,400
Hmm. No.
1234
01:04:49,467 --> 01:04:51,967
You may not realize it
but you are.
1235
01:04:51,967 --> 01:04:54,100
The surgery
will only prevent you
1236
01:04:54,166 --> 01:04:56,100
from eating too much
at one time.
1237
01:04:56,166 --> 01:04:59,367
And get rid of your hunger
and physical drive to eat,
1238
01:04:59,367 --> 01:05:03,100
but you can still eat
a little at a time
here and there
1239
01:05:03,100 --> 01:05:04,467
and that can add up.
1240
01:05:04,467 --> 01:05:07,700
And you're doing that
because of emotional eating.
1241
01:05:07,767 --> 01:05:10,000
For somebody in
your weight range that,
1242
01:05:10,066 --> 01:05:13,200
you started with,
you have to have
some emotional issues...
1243
01:05:13,266 --> 01:05:13,491
-Yes.
-...that driving
you to eating.
1244
01:05:13,491 --> 01:05:14,800
-Yes.
-...that driving
you to eating.
1245
01:05:14,800 --> 01:05:19,867
And after surgery,
those emotional issues
may come to surface even more.
1246
01:05:19,867 --> 01:05:22,567
So I think right now,
is the appropriate time
to get you
1247
01:05:22,567 --> 01:05:25,500
to a see a therapist
and work on those issues.
1248
01:05:25,567 --> 01:05:28,000
-Yes, sir.
-So, we'll have
a long term result
1249
01:05:28,066 --> 01:05:29,667
with your weight loss surgery.
1250
01:05:29,667 --> 01:05:33,367
We don't want you
to temporarily lose weight
and gain it back,
1251
01:05:33,367 --> 01:05:36,100
because you go back
to the same emotional issues
1252
01:05:36,100 --> 01:05:38,100
that drive you to eat
like you did, till you get
1253
01:05:38,166 --> 01:05:40,166
to be over 700 lbs.
1254
01:05:40,166 --> 01:05:43,000
-Mmm-hmm.
-This is going
to be an important factor
1255
01:05:43,066 --> 01:05:43,491
for you to work with
the therapist,
1256
01:05:43,491 --> 01:05:45,166
for you to work with
the therapist,
1257
01:05:45,166 --> 01:05:46,900
to get everything
under control.
1258
01:05:46,967 --> 01:05:48,166
-Yes, sir.
-Okay?
1259
01:05:48,166 --> 01:05:51,166
In the meantime,
if you need anything,
give me a call.
1260
01:05:51,166 --> 01:05:52,800
-Yes, sir.
-All right.
1261
01:05:52,867 --> 01:05:54,400
I'll see you all soon.
1262
01:05:54,467 --> 01:05:55,700
-Yes, sir. Thank you.
-Thank you.
1263
01:06:02,667 --> 01:06:05,767
Overall I think Wess
is doing well right now.
1264
01:06:05,767 --> 01:06:07,900
His weight loss is
a little slow
1265
01:06:07,967 --> 01:06:09,667
and my concern is that
1266
01:06:09,667 --> 01:06:13,491
that is a crack
in the foundation
we need to pay attention to.
1267
01:06:13,491 --> 01:06:13,767
that is a crack
in the foundation
we need to pay attention to.
1268
01:06:13,767 --> 01:06:17,767
Anyone who's made it
to Wess's size
is eating compulsively.
1269
01:06:17,767 --> 01:06:21,166
Because of emotional issues
driving them to eat.
1270
01:06:21,166 --> 01:06:25,500
And if we don't address that,
they won't be successful
in the long term.
1271
01:06:25,567 --> 01:06:27,100
After weight loss surgery,
1272
01:06:27,100 --> 01:06:28,967
physical hunger is gone
1273
01:06:28,967 --> 01:06:32,667
and when the patient
still have drive
to eat after that
1274
01:06:32,667 --> 01:06:35,700
at that point they cannot deny
that there's not
1275
01:06:35,767 --> 01:06:39,100
a significant emotional
component behind that.
1276
01:06:39,100 --> 01:06:43,166
So, that is the best time
to start therapy with them
to address that.
1277
01:06:43,166 --> 01:06:43,491
And Wess is at that point.
1278
01:06:43,491 --> 01:06:45,266
And Wess is at that point.
1279
01:06:51,100 --> 01:06:53,266
[Wess] So, I think starting
therapy is a good idea
1280
01:06:53,266 --> 01:06:55,700
and I agree,
it's something I need.
1281
01:06:55,767 --> 01:06:59,266
I'm still not necessarily
looking forward to it,
1282
01:06:59,266 --> 01:07:02,000
but I'm ready to do it
because the alternative is
1283
01:07:02,000 --> 01:07:05,400
for my weight loss
to start slowing down
and I start gaining again.
1284
01:07:05,467 --> 01:07:06,800
And that's not
gonna work for me.
1285
01:07:21,767 --> 01:07:25,767
Today we are going
to our first appointment
with Dr. Paradise.
1286
01:07:27,367 --> 01:07:31,567
I'm excited, so I think
Dr. Paradise could
help me today
1287
01:07:31,567 --> 01:07:33,200
with my emotional problems.
1288
01:07:33,266 --> 01:07:35,300
You know, I've got
a lot of, uh,
1289
01:07:35,367 --> 01:07:38,266
emotional things
that I need to work through.
1290
01:07:38,266 --> 01:07:40,867
And I think Dr. Paradise
will, uh,
1291
01:07:40,867 --> 01:07:43,491
hopefully help me learn to
1292
01:07:43,491 --> 01:07:45,567
hopefully help me learn to
1293
01:07:45,567 --> 01:07:48,467
not cope with my emotions
through eating.
1294
01:07:48,467 --> 01:07:50,967
That's gonna be my biggest
hope out of all of this.
1295
01:07:50,967 --> 01:07:52,967
I'm ready to get this started
1296
01:07:52,967 --> 01:07:55,000
and, um, see
where it takes me.
1297
01:08:17,300 --> 01:08:18,467
[Dr. Paradise] Wess?
1298
01:08:18,467 --> 01:08:21,700
-Hello.
-Hi, I'm Dr. Paradise.
Come on in.
1299
01:08:21,767 --> 01:08:23,667
-Come on in. You can
have a seat right over there.
-Yes, sir. Thank you.
1300
01:08:31,900 --> 01:08:33,367
-Welcome.
-Hello.
1301
01:08:33,367 --> 01:08:35,367
I'm glad you're here.
1302
01:08:35,367 --> 01:08:37,166
Tell me about your childhood,
who was in your house?
1303
01:08:37,166 --> 01:08:38,967
What was going on
with your parents?
1304
01:08:38,967 --> 01:08:42,367
My parents had
a volatile relationship.
1305
01:08:43,467 --> 01:08:43,491
-And they divorced
when I was three.
-Okay.
1306
01:08:43,491 --> 01:08:45,700
-And they divorced
when I was three.
-Okay.
1307
01:08:45,767 --> 01:08:48,867
My dad got custody
in the divorce,
so I lived with him.
1308
01:08:48,867 --> 01:08:50,667
And then, um,
1309
01:08:50,667 --> 01:08:52,667
-shortly after there.
-Mm-hmm.
1310
01:08:52,667 --> 01:08:57,100
Um, another family member
of mine lived close to us.
1311
01:08:57,166 --> 01:09:00,500
Consequently, he ended up
molesting me.
1312
01:09:00,567 --> 01:09:03,767
What do you remember as a kid?
How did you process that?
1313
01:09:05,000 --> 01:09:07,166
I think I just ignored it.
1314
01:09:07,166 --> 01:09:08,667
What do you think
that did to you?
1315
01:09:09,567 --> 01:09:11,567
Well, I got to 700 pounds,
1316
01:09:11,567 --> 01:09:13,491
[laughing] so, apparently
not very well.
1317
01:09:13,491 --> 01:09:13,867
[laughing] so, apparently
not very well.
1318
01:09:13,867 --> 01:09:16,166
How do you talk
to your parents
about the abuse?
1319
01:09:16,767 --> 01:09:17,700
I don't.
1320
01:09:19,166 --> 01:09:22,066
My father told me
when I was probably...
1321
01:09:22,066 --> 01:09:24,867
11 or 12 that nobody
wanted to hear about it.
1322
01:09:26,567 --> 01:09:28,567
That it makes people sad,
so don't talk about it.
1323
01:09:28,567 --> 01:09:30,000
I came out at 13.
1324
01:09:30,066 --> 01:09:33,600
I was told in no
uncertain terms that it
was not acceptable.
1325
01:09:33,667 --> 01:09:36,667
Wess, I feel like you're still
1326
01:09:36,667 --> 01:09:39,667
part of the system
that fundamentally
1327
01:09:39,667 --> 01:09:43,491
refuses to acknowledge
core parts of your existence.
1328
01:09:43,491 --> 01:09:43,700
refuses to acknowledge
core parts of your existence.
1329
01:09:43,767 --> 01:09:45,867
-Yeah.
-The fact that
you were abused.
1330
01:09:45,867 --> 01:09:47,867
The fact that you're gay,
like,
1331
01:09:47,867 --> 01:09:52,567
big, huge parts of your
identity are just swept
under the rug.
1332
01:09:52,567 --> 01:09:54,400
How do we make you
own your truth?
1333
01:09:55,100 --> 01:09:56,567
[Wess] I don't know.
1334
01:09:56,567 --> 01:09:58,700
[Dr. Paradise] Could you
talk to either of your parents
about the abuse?
1335
01:09:58,767 --> 01:10:00,367
Could you have a conversation?
1336
01:10:02,100 --> 01:10:03,667
Probably not at this point.
1337
01:10:03,667 --> 01:10:08,200
Wess, you are a strong,
confident guy.
1338
01:10:08,266 --> 01:10:11,200
And I think you could make
a very persuasive argument
1339
01:10:11,266 --> 01:10:13,491
to whoever in your family
you're talking to.
1340
01:10:13,491 --> 01:10:14,000
to whoever in your family
you're talking to.
1341
01:10:14,066 --> 01:10:15,867
That, you know what,
"Our secrets are
1342
01:10:15,867 --> 01:10:17,867
-keeping us down."
-Yes.
1343
01:10:17,867 --> 01:10:22,700
"And the secrets that you
have kept about me have
kept me down
1344
01:10:22,767 --> 01:10:25,700
and they're part of the reason
that I got this big."
1345
01:10:25,767 --> 01:10:30,200
And it will facilitate
your believing
that you're worth
1346
01:10:31,467 --> 01:10:34,266
the life that you deserve.
1347
01:10:34,266 --> 01:10:37,667
That can certainly take
the form of conversations
with your dad.
1348
01:10:37,667 --> 01:10:38,700
[Wess] I would...
1349
01:10:40,667 --> 01:10:42,166
...be willing to do that.
1350
01:10:42,166 --> 01:10:43,491
-I think this is
a big deal, man.
-Mm-hmm.
1351
01:10:43,491 --> 01:10:44,567
-I think this is
a big deal, man.
-Mm-hmm.
1352
01:10:44,567 --> 01:10:46,500
I think it's all,
1353
01:10:46,567 --> 01:10:48,467
it's all positive after this.
1354
01:10:49,767 --> 01:10:50,900
I hope.
1355
01:10:50,900 --> 01:10:53,400
-I'm so glad you came in.
-Thank you for having me.
1356
01:10:53,467 --> 01:10:55,500
-Good to meet you.
-Yes, sir.
1357
01:10:55,567 --> 01:10:57,367
[Wess] Today,
the session went pretty well.
1358
01:10:57,367 --> 01:11:01,800
We talked about some
hard emotional things that
I haven't faced in a while.
1359
01:11:02,767 --> 01:11:04,333
But I think all in all,
it went pretty well.
1360
01:11:07,600 --> 01:11:11,567
Part of my homework
is having to have
conversations with my dad
1361
01:11:11,567 --> 01:11:13,200
that we probably
haven't had, ever.
1362
01:11:14,000 --> 01:11:15,767
So, um, that makes me nervous.
1363
01:11:17,100 --> 01:11:19,266
But that's something
that I'm gonna have to
push through.
1364
01:11:20,767 --> 01:11:22,200
-Thank you, sir.
-Take care.
1365
01:11:39,567 --> 01:11:43,100
It's been a couple of days
since I saw Dr. Paradise.
1366
01:11:43,100 --> 01:11:45,867
And today, I'm going
to do my work somewhere
out in the world.
1367
01:11:45,867 --> 01:11:48,700
And I'm nervous about it,
'cause I'm not used to
going out into public.
1368
01:11:52,767 --> 01:11:55,767
Staying in my bed all day
doesn't lead to good things
for me.
1369
01:11:56,467 --> 01:11:58,066
It leads to a lazy life
1370
01:11:58,066 --> 01:11:59,618
and it's part of how
I got to where I was.
1371
01:11:59,618 --> 01:12:00,066
and it's part of how
I got to where I was.
1372
01:12:07,166 --> 01:12:09,567
But now that I've lost
some weight, I'm feeling
better about it.
1373
01:12:09,567 --> 01:12:12,467
I'm still big enough
that people will stare
1374
01:12:12,467 --> 01:12:14,266
and I'm still afraid
of breaking the furniture.
1375
01:12:15,567 --> 01:12:17,967
But as hard as this was,
1376
01:12:17,967 --> 01:12:21,867
I know it's nothing compared
to the other stuff that
Dr. Paradise wants me to do.
1377
01:12:21,867 --> 01:12:25,266
So I'm planning on
talking to my father
in the next couple of days
1378
01:12:25,266 --> 01:12:27,166
and starting a conversation.
1379
01:12:27,166 --> 01:12:28,800
There's part of me
that's scared,
1380
01:12:28,867 --> 01:12:29,618
but I know that I want
to go through with it.
1381
01:12:29,618 --> 01:12:30,867
but I know that I want
to go through with it.
1382
01:12:43,266 --> 01:12:44,500
[Wess] Come on in.
1383
01:12:46,367 --> 01:12:50,467
-Woo-hoo,
look at all that food.
-[Rick] Lunch time.
1384
01:12:50,467 --> 01:12:53,467
Lunch time for you,
you enjoy it while I have
my damn Jell-O.
1385
01:12:53,467 --> 01:12:54,767
[laughing]
1386
01:12:56,166 --> 01:12:57,000
What did y'all make?
1387
01:12:57,867 --> 01:12:59,166
Oh, some pork ribs and...
1388
01:13:00,600 --> 01:13:01,500
...sausage.
1389
01:13:01,567 --> 01:13:03,800
[Wess] Mmm,
let me smell it, that'll,
1390
01:13:03,867 --> 01:13:05,300
that'll help me.
1391
01:13:06,500 --> 01:13:08,367
I asked my dad
to come over for lunch
1392
01:13:08,367 --> 01:13:10,266
and I told him I wanna
talk about some stuff.
1393
01:13:11,500 --> 01:13:13,400
But he doesn't know
what it's about
1394
01:13:13,467 --> 01:13:16,166
and he probably
would never guess.
1395
01:13:16,166 --> 01:13:19,000
I'm nervous and I really
hope this goes well.
1396
01:13:19,000 --> 01:13:21,800
Because I don't wanna
hurt my dad's feelings.
1397
01:13:21,867 --> 01:13:24,767
But there's plenty
I need to get off my chest
if I'm gonna heal.
1398
01:13:25,967 --> 01:13:27,900
Gotta love my Jell-O.
1399
01:13:29,967 --> 01:13:32,166
[Rick chuckles]
All right.
1400
01:13:32,166 --> 01:13:34,867
Did you wanna get
a smell of this?
1401
01:13:34,867 --> 01:13:36,667
-I could smell it from here.
-[Rick laughing]
1402
01:13:40,000 --> 01:13:41,900
Don't eat it too fast,
it might give you indigestion.
1403
01:13:43,600 --> 01:13:45,233
Yummy, yummy, yummy.
1404
01:13:46,967 --> 01:13:50,567
So, you know, the other day
I had a therapist appointment
with Dr. Paradise.
1405
01:13:50,567 --> 01:13:51,934
Uh-huh.
1406
01:13:53,266 --> 01:13:55,700
And we talked about
some stuff, you know,
from my childhood,
1407
01:13:55,767 --> 01:13:58,867
you know I had some
bad things happen,
but who doesn't?
1408
01:13:58,867 --> 01:13:59,618
And part of my homework
was he wanted me to
talk to you about it.
1409
01:13:59,618 --> 01:14:02,867
And part of my homework
was he wanted me to
talk to you about it.
1410
01:14:02,867 --> 01:14:04,100
See how you felt about it.
1411
01:14:05,467 --> 01:14:07,667
Well, I'm sorry
that it happened.
1412
01:14:07,667 --> 01:14:10,166
I never would've imagined
that happening.
1413
01:14:10,166 --> 01:14:14,066
You know, when you
go through some
traumatic stuff growing up,
1414
01:14:14,867 --> 01:14:15,900
it can affect your life.
1415
01:14:17,266 --> 01:14:19,166
I'm sure. I'm sure...
1416
01:14:21,100 --> 01:14:23,300
-...that it never
leaves your mind.
-No.
1417
01:14:23,367 --> 01:14:25,000
I'm sure of that.
1418
01:14:25,066 --> 01:14:28,900
And so, I think it's good that
I'm seeing Dr. Paradise now
1419
01:14:28,967 --> 01:14:29,618
so that I could start
working through those things.
1420
01:14:29,618 --> 01:14:32,400
so that I could start
working through those things.
1421
01:14:33,667 --> 01:14:36,266
And getting the help
that I need.
1422
01:14:36,266 --> 01:14:41,967
So that I don't fall back
into the old traps of
self-medicating with food.
1423
01:14:41,967 --> 01:14:45,200
You know, I've lost
quite a bit of weight already.
1424
01:14:45,266 --> 01:14:47,867
And I've done very well
and I'm proud of myself.
1425
01:14:47,867 --> 01:14:49,967
And I don't wanna go back
to the way I was.
1426
01:14:49,967 --> 01:14:51,900
-And I'm proud of you as well.
-Thank you.
1427
01:14:51,967 --> 01:14:56,066
'Cause let's be honest, eating
that much and getting
myself to the size I was,
1428
01:14:56,066 --> 01:14:58,266
that's a form of self-harm,
you know.
1429
01:14:58,266 --> 01:14:59,618
[Rick] And you know
that never crossed my mind.
1430
01:14:59,618 --> 01:15:00,166
[Rick] And you know
that never crossed my mind.
1431
01:15:01,300 --> 01:15:02,300
You being...
1432
01:15:03,867 --> 01:15:05,867
-...addicted to food.
-Mm-hmm.
1433
01:15:05,867 --> 01:15:09,266
But I never saw
any of the signs
1434
01:15:10,567 --> 01:15:12,867
-of depression.
-Oh, I was good at hiding it.
1435
01:15:13,667 --> 01:15:15,500
I never did and I never...
1436
01:15:16,867 --> 01:15:18,300
You know,
I feel bad about that.
1437
01:15:18,367 --> 01:15:21,100
But I think talking about it,
1438
01:15:21,166 --> 01:15:24,467
-probably the best
medicine, really.
-Yes.
1439
01:15:24,467 --> 01:15:28,867
Because there's no
physical medicine you
could take to change anything.
1440
01:15:28,867 --> 01:15:29,618
Just talking about it
and getting it out in the air
1441
01:15:29,618 --> 01:15:31,166
Just talking about it
and getting it out in the air
1442
01:15:31,166 --> 01:15:33,367
and getting it off
of your shoulders,
1443
01:15:33,367 --> 01:15:36,000
that weight you're carrying
around, that depression.
1444
01:15:37,367 --> 01:15:40,500
It makes me think back now
that if I would've known...
1445
01:15:41,700 --> 01:15:43,000
...I could've done something.
1446
01:15:43,066 --> 01:15:45,567
[Wess] You know,
as far as the trauma goes,
1447
01:15:45,567 --> 01:15:49,166
we can't blame anybody
but the person that did that.
1448
01:15:49,166 --> 01:15:53,300
That person was old enough
to know the difference
between right and wrong.
1449
01:15:55,066 --> 01:15:56,600
And they chose to do wrong.
1450
01:15:56,667 --> 01:15:58,367
And the only person
1451
01:15:58,367 --> 01:15:59,618
in this world that
is responsible for what
happened to me
1452
01:15:59,618 --> 01:16:02,100
in this world that
is responsible for what
happened to me
1453
01:16:02,166 --> 01:16:03,667
is the person that did it.
1454
01:16:03,667 --> 01:16:05,667
Just know from me, Dad,
1455
01:16:05,667 --> 01:16:08,367
and I want you to know this
sincerely from me.
1456
01:16:08,367 --> 01:16:10,667
I don't hold you
responsible for any of that.
1457
01:16:10,667 --> 01:16:13,867
-I don't blame you
for any of that.
-I'm glad.
1458
01:16:13,867 --> 01:16:16,867
And I can say to myself
who has the real blame.
1459
01:16:16,867 --> 01:16:19,500
That's not you
and that's definitely not me.
1460
01:16:19,567 --> 01:16:21,300
That's the [bleep] that did it
1461
01:16:21,367 --> 01:16:24,266
and quite frankly, if that
[bleep] burned in hell
for the rest of eternity,
1462
01:16:24,266 --> 01:16:25,200
I'd be happy.
1463
01:16:34,266 --> 01:16:35,900
[Wess] Well,
that wasn't so bad.
1464
01:16:35,967 --> 01:16:38,567
I'm proud of myself
for doing this.
1465
01:16:38,567 --> 01:16:41,266
I feel like it was a good
first step for me and my dad
1466
01:16:41,266 --> 01:16:42,867
and our relationship together.
1467
01:16:42,867 --> 01:16:46,066
I just wanna heal
and I feel like I've started
that process today.
1468
01:16:47,100 --> 01:16:48,700
I know it's gonna be
a long process,
1469
01:16:48,767 --> 01:16:50,367
but at least I've started it.
1470
01:16:50,367 --> 01:16:53,166
And I'm hoping this puts me
on the road to get where
I need to go
1471
01:16:53,166 --> 01:16:54,700
for my next appointment
with Dr. Now.
1472
01:17:16,367 --> 01:17:17,667
[Wess] Just in
time for the rain.
1473
01:17:54,200 --> 01:17:55,166
Oh, yeah.
1474
01:18:06,867 --> 01:18:08,567
[breathing heavily]
1475
01:18:24,300 --> 01:18:25,767
-Wess.
-Okay. Let's go.
1476
01:18:31,567 --> 01:18:32,867
Hello.
1477
01:18:32,867 --> 01:18:33,785
-How are you?
-I'm good.
1478
01:18:33,785 --> 01:18:34,667
-How are you?
-I'm good.
1479
01:18:36,667 --> 01:18:39,000
-Hi, how're you doing?
-Morning.
1480
01:18:39,000 --> 01:18:40,800
[Wess] At my last
weigh-in two months ago,
1481
01:18:40,867 --> 01:18:42,967
I was 530 pounds.
1482
01:18:42,967 --> 01:18:46,367
I'm supposed to be losing
around 25 pounds
a month these days.
1483
01:18:46,367 --> 01:18:48,100
So that means if
I stay on track,
1484
01:18:48,166 --> 01:18:50,867
I'll be right at around
480 pounds today.
1485
01:18:52,200 --> 01:18:53,500
All right. Step on up.
1486
01:18:59,567 --> 01:19:00,567
[nurse] Hold it.
1487
01:19:13,367 --> 01:19:14,166
477.
1488
01:19:16,300 --> 01:19:17,367
Step off for me.
1489
01:19:20,967 --> 01:19:22,000
Sounds good.
1490
01:19:22,066 --> 01:19:24,000
-That's great.
-[Wess giggles]
1491
01:19:28,200 --> 01:19:31,100
[Wess] Oh my, oh my.
It feels good to be ahead
of the curve for once.
1492
01:19:31,100 --> 01:19:32,600
Usually, I'm a little nervous
1493
01:19:32,600 --> 01:19:33,785
but today, I'm excited
to hear what the doctor
has to say.
1494
01:19:33,785 --> 01:19:35,367
but today, I'm excited
to hear what the doctor
has to say.
1495
01:20:01,166 --> 01:20:02,166
Yeah.
1496
01:20:03,967 --> 01:20:04,967
[knocking]
1497
01:20:08,166 --> 01:20:09,500
Hello, how y'all doing?
1498
01:20:09,567 --> 01:20:11,266
-[Wess] Good. Hi, Dr. Now.
-[Rick] Hi, Doctor.
1499
01:20:11,266 --> 01:20:14,667
All right, good.
Well, Wess,
you're making good progress.
1500
01:20:14,667 --> 01:20:16,767
You're down to 477.
1501
01:20:16,767 --> 01:20:19,967
So, you lost 53 pounds
over the last two months.
1502
01:20:19,967 --> 01:20:22,667
So you picked up the pace
like you needed.
1503
01:20:22,667 --> 01:20:27,667
I see that therapy is helping
you to deal with your
emotional drive to eat
1504
01:20:27,667 --> 01:20:30,000
-and help to cope
with that, right?
-Yes.
1505
01:20:30,000 --> 01:20:32,500
[Dr. Now] All right,
so keep up the good work.
1506
01:20:32,567 --> 01:20:33,785
-I'm proud of your progress.
-Thank you.
1507
01:20:33,785 --> 01:20:34,467
-I'm proud of your progress.
-Thank you.
1508
01:20:34,467 --> 01:20:38,100
[Dr. Now] Just stick with
therapy and doing what you
need with them.
1509
01:20:38,100 --> 01:20:42,367
And if you stay on track,
we'll be able to remove
the lymphedema mass.
1510
01:20:42,367 --> 01:20:44,467
And then, any extra skin...
1511
01:20:44,467 --> 01:20:47,266
-Yes.
-...that needs to come off
and then we'll work on that.
1512
01:20:47,266 --> 01:20:49,000
-Yes.
-But in the meantime,
1513
01:20:49,066 --> 01:20:51,166
I want you to keep
working hard
1514
01:20:51,166 --> 01:20:54,500
and maybe in 12 months,
you're gonna hit
your goal weight.
1515
01:20:54,567 --> 01:20:58,000
-So, keep it up.
I'm proud of your progress.
-Thank you, sir. Thank you.
1516
01:20:58,066 --> 01:21:00,600
-And Dad is proud of
your progress, too.
-[Rick] Oh, yeah.
1517
01:21:01,400 --> 01:21:03,500
-Yeah, it's wonderful.
-All right.
1518
01:21:03,567 --> 01:21:03,785
Wess, I'll see you
in two months.
1519
01:21:03,785 --> 01:21:05,400
Wess, I'll see you
in two months.
1520
01:21:05,467 --> 01:21:07,400
Your weight loss
is doing good.
1521
01:21:07,467 --> 01:21:11,867
Keep it up and lose
another 50 pounds by
your next appointment.
1522
01:21:11,867 --> 01:21:14,667
And if you need anything
before then, give me a call.
1523
01:21:14,667 --> 01:21:16,567
-Yes, sir. Thank you.
-[Rick] Thank you.
1524
01:21:16,567 --> 01:21:18,300
-Okay.
-[Wess] Thank you
for everything.
1525
01:21:18,367 --> 01:21:20,567
-You're quite welcome.
-Have a good one.
1526
01:21:20,567 --> 01:21:21,567
You too.
1527
01:21:27,867 --> 01:21:29,767
[Dr. Now] I'm very
encouraged to see
1528
01:21:29,767 --> 01:21:33,667
that Wess has made some
improvements with his
monthly weight loss.
1529
01:21:33,667 --> 01:21:33,785
He's moving in
the right direction
1530
01:21:33,785 --> 01:21:35,800
He's moving in
the right direction
1531
01:21:35,867 --> 01:21:39,567
and I'm very proud of him
for working hard
to make that happen.
1532
01:21:39,567 --> 01:21:43,266
He still has a lot of work
ahead to get to his goal.
1533
01:21:43,266 --> 01:21:48,266
But Wess has consistently
shown me he's willing to
put the hard work he needs.
1534
01:21:48,266 --> 01:21:53,166
So right now, I'm confident
that he will stay on track
for the long term.
1535
01:21:53,166 --> 01:21:57,266
He may have some off months
here and there,
but that's okay.
1536
01:21:57,266 --> 01:21:59,400
This process is a struggle
1537
01:21:59,467 --> 01:22:01,600
and it's not about
being perfect.
1538
01:22:01,667 --> 01:22:03,785
It's about getting healthy
at the rate the body needs.
1539
01:22:03,785 --> 01:22:05,200
It's about getting healthy
at the rate the body needs.
1540
01:22:05,266 --> 01:22:08,800
And turning your life around
to have a bright future
1541
01:22:08,867 --> 01:22:10,900
to start looking forward to.
1542
01:22:10,967 --> 01:22:14,467
And Wess is doing that,
so I know he's gonna
stick with it
1543
01:22:14,467 --> 01:22:18,900
and keep working at what
he needs to get to his goal
over the next year
1544
01:22:18,967 --> 01:22:20,567
and have the life he wants.
1545
01:22:20,567 --> 01:22:23,066
And I'm very
proud of him for that.
1546
01:22:25,567 --> 01:22:27,100
[Wess] Well,
that feels really good.
1547
01:22:27,166 --> 01:22:30,200
And I'm proud of myself
for doing what I needed.
1548
01:22:30,266 --> 01:22:32,800
I don't even remember the last
time I was 400 pounds.
1549
01:22:32,867 --> 01:22:33,785
What I'm doing seems
to be working, so I'm just
gonna stick to it.
1550
01:22:33,785 --> 01:22:37,467
What I'm doing seems
to be working, so I'm just
gonna stick to it.
1551
01:22:37,467 --> 01:22:39,767
You know, it feels like
I've come so far
1552
01:22:39,767 --> 01:22:43,467
and yet it really is just
the beginning of what
is going to come next.
1553
01:22:53,367 --> 01:22:56,667
It's hard to believe that
I have as many choices
now as I do.
1554
01:22:56,667 --> 01:22:59,800
And that's something
that's going to be hard
to get used to.
1555
01:22:59,867 --> 01:23:02,667
Because it's such
a different mindset
than I've had in the past.
1556
01:23:03,467 --> 01:23:03,785
Believing in myself,
1557
01:23:03,785 --> 01:23:04,700
Believing in myself,
1558
01:23:04,767 --> 01:23:06,400
believing in my future.
1559
01:23:06,400 --> 01:23:09,300
It's going to take a minute
before I really feel like
I'm worth it.
1560
01:23:09,367 --> 01:23:11,066
All the way deep down.
1561
01:23:11,066 --> 01:23:13,066
Gotta fake it until I make it.
1562
01:23:13,066 --> 01:23:15,066
So I'll start by acting
like I'm worth it.
1563
01:23:15,066 --> 01:23:16,166
Why not?
1564
01:23:16,166 --> 01:23:18,100
And we'll see
where this path takes me.
1565
01:23:34,400 --> 01:23:35,867
-[receptionist] Hi.
-Hi.
1566
01:23:35,867 --> 01:23:38,467
-How're you doing? Thank you.
-Welcome to The Plaza.
1567
01:23:40,467 --> 01:23:43,066
[Wess] So,
I did something my dad liked
1568
01:23:43,066 --> 01:23:45,367
and now my dad has agreed
to do something I like.
1569
01:23:45,367 --> 01:23:46,967
-You wanna sit over there?
-Yeah.
1570
01:23:53,767 --> 01:23:56,166
[Wess] We're gonna go see
a play together today
and I'm excited.
1571
01:23:58,767 --> 01:24:00,867
I'm always nervous
going out in public.
1572
01:24:00,867 --> 01:24:03,785
But this is something I've
wanted to do for a long time
without being able to.
1573
01:24:03,785 --> 01:24:04,867
But this is something I've
wanted to do for a long time
without being able to.
1574
01:24:05,367 --> 01:24:07,266
[applauding]
1575
01:24:07,266 --> 01:24:09,066
So, now that
I'm actually doing it,
1576
01:24:09,066 --> 01:24:10,600
I'm actually super excited.
1577
01:24:13,100 --> 01:24:16,367
Being on stage is something
I have always wanted to do.
1578
01:24:16,367 --> 01:24:19,867
It might be the only thing
that I've ever
felt called to do.
1579
01:24:19,867 --> 01:24:22,000
Like, I have a calling for it.
1580
01:24:22,066 --> 01:24:23,800
And I never had
a chance to do it.
1581
01:24:26,700 --> 01:24:29,500
Today, just seeing these
individuals up here on stage.
1582
01:24:29,567 --> 01:24:31,500
It filled me with
a sense of longing
1583
01:24:31,567 --> 01:24:33,785
but also, it felt
like something attainable.
1584
01:24:33,785 --> 01:24:34,166
but also, it felt
like something attainable.
1585
01:24:34,166 --> 01:24:37,000
And so, I got really
kind of excited.
1586
01:24:37,000 --> 01:24:38,300
A little overwhelmed.
1587
01:24:38,367 --> 01:24:40,166
And a bit of anxiety.
1588
01:24:40,166 --> 01:24:44,300
But a more hopeful anxiety
than I'm used to.
1589
01:24:44,367 --> 01:24:46,967
I'm used to feeling
doom or dread
1590
01:24:46,967 --> 01:24:48,900
and this was more
like a possibility.
1591
01:24:48,967 --> 01:24:52,967
And that feeling, like,
this is a fear I know
I should overcome.
1592
01:24:52,967 --> 01:24:55,100
-Thank y'all so much.
-Thanks for coming.
1593
01:24:55,100 --> 01:24:57,166
[Wess] I've always
wanted to be on stage
1594
01:24:57,166 --> 01:25:00,500
but when I was 700 pounds
it was scary to think about
being up there.
1595
01:25:08,367 --> 01:25:09,600
-How's that?
-[Wess] Okay.
1596
01:25:11,667 --> 01:25:14,900
-Thank you. Bye-bye.
-[woman] Bye.
Thanks for coming.
1597
01:25:14,967 --> 01:25:16,467
[Wess] Now that I'm losing
the weight...
1598
01:25:16,467 --> 01:25:17,967
[in sing-song voice] Hello!
1599
01:25:17,967 --> 01:25:19,467
Thanks.
1600
01:25:19,467 --> 01:25:21,367
I wonder if there's a stage
that can hold me.