1 00:00:04,367 --> 00:00:08,467 [Wess] If nobody wants me, then nobody can hurt me. 2 00:00:16,600 --> 00:00:20,066 [woman 1] Somewhere in me is this little glimmer of hope. 3 00:00:20,066 --> 00:00:22,600 I just want to be a normal person. 4 00:00:22,667 --> 00:00:23,967 [exhaling heavily] 5 00:00:33,767 --> 00:00:36,600 [man] You can't do it and then I just get mad. 6 00:00:36,667 --> 00:00:38,400 [woman 2] If I don't make a change now, 7 00:00:38,467 --> 00:00:39,800 I'm scared it's gonna be too late. 8 00:00:44,800 --> 00:00:45,667 [groaning] 9 00:00:46,166 --> 00:00:47,200 It hurts. 10 00:00:47,266 --> 00:00:49,567 [woman 3] I refuse to stop fighting. 11 00:00:49,567 --> 00:00:51,800 I have to do this for my children. 12 00:00:57,467 --> 00:01:00,000 You've part of this system that fundamentally 13 00:01:00,000 --> 00:01:00,667 You've part of this system that fundamentally 14 00:01:00,667 --> 00:01:04,400 refuses to acknowledge core parts of your existence. 15 00:01:38,000 --> 00:01:40,767 [Wess] My first thought waking up every morning usually is, 16 00:01:40,767 --> 00:01:43,667 "Thank you for letting me wake up the next day." 17 00:01:44,867 --> 00:01:47,667 Every day you wake up is a blessing, 18 00:01:48,300 --> 00:01:49,700 especially at my size. 19 00:01:56,166 --> 00:02:00,000 I am very grateful that I'm as mobile as I am. 20 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:00,066 I am very grateful that I'm as mobile as I am. 21 00:02:00,066 --> 00:02:03,300 But I'm scared that it's getting to be less and less. 22 00:02:04,266 --> 00:02:06,100 [groans] 23 00:02:06,166 --> 00:02:09,867 Over the last few months, my walking ability 24 00:02:09,867 --> 00:02:11,600 has decreased more and more. 25 00:02:11,667 --> 00:02:13,066 And that scares me. 26 00:02:13,066 --> 00:02:14,800 'Cause I never wanna be bedbound. 27 00:02:17,600 --> 00:02:19,867 Because of my lymphedema, I have to keep my legs 28 00:02:19,867 --> 00:02:21,600 elevated as much as possible. 29 00:02:21,667 --> 00:02:24,867 And so I spend most of my time in my adjustable bed. 30 00:02:29,967 --> 00:02:30,000 The last time my doctor examined it, 31 00:02:30,000 --> 00:02:32,400 The last time my doctor examined it, 32 00:02:32,467 --> 00:02:37,467 he told me just on its own, the mass weighs 40 pounds. 33 00:02:37,467 --> 00:02:39,767 So when I walk, it gets in the way. 34 00:02:39,767 --> 00:02:42,700 And I can only move at a glacial pace. 35 00:02:44,900 --> 00:02:47,500 Have you ever seen a penguin walk where they... 36 00:02:47,567 --> 00:02:48,967 They walk side to side. 37 00:02:48,967 --> 00:02:50,567 That's what I feel like when I walk. 38 00:02:53,867 --> 00:02:57,400 On a good day, I can walk maybe 50 feet 39 00:02:57,467 --> 00:02:59,367 and then I have to rest. 40 00:02:59,367 --> 00:03:00,000 On a bad day, just the physical act 41 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:02,000 On a bad day, just the physical act 42 00:03:02,000 --> 00:03:03,900 of carrying all the weight on my stomach 43 00:03:03,967 --> 00:03:06,600 while my lymphedema is tugging me down, 44 00:03:06,667 --> 00:03:09,500 creates a pain that is so intense, 45 00:03:09,567 --> 00:03:11,367 I wanna pass out. 46 00:03:11,367 --> 00:03:13,000 I remember growing up, we always saw those 47 00:03:13,066 --> 00:03:15,100 commercials of those old people that are like, 48 00:03:15,100 --> 00:03:16,867 "Help, I've fallen. I can't get up." 49 00:03:16,867 --> 00:03:18,000 And you always laugh at it. 50 00:03:18,066 --> 00:03:19,567 You think, "Oh, ha-ha, how funny." 51 00:03:24,300 --> 00:03:27,567 Now let me tell you, at this size, I have fallen 52 00:03:27,567 --> 00:03:30,000 and I have fallen where I couldn't get up right away, 53 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:30,400 and I have fallen where I couldn't get up right away, 54 00:03:30,467 --> 00:03:32,500 and the first thing that runs through your mind is, 55 00:03:33,500 --> 00:03:35,467 "Oh, my God. I'm gonna die." 56 00:03:39,967 --> 00:03:43,100 I make sure that my front door is unlocked 57 00:03:43,100 --> 00:03:44,867 so that if I fell in the bathtub 58 00:03:44,867 --> 00:03:46,800 while I was taking a shower, 59 00:03:46,867 --> 00:03:50,667 I could scream loud enough for my phone to dial 911. 60 00:03:50,667 --> 00:03:53,367 And then 911 could come over because my door 61 00:03:53,367 --> 00:03:55,367 was unlocked and they could get me up. 62 00:04:02,867 --> 00:04:05,100 Because when the water's running and it's soapy, 63 00:04:05,100 --> 00:04:08,400 even the smallest movement poses a risk that I could slip. 64 00:04:11,500 --> 00:04:13,266 Because sometimes my lymphedema 65 00:04:13,266 --> 00:04:15,867 can pull me backwards and throw me off balance, 66 00:04:17,166 --> 00:04:20,567 and I've got a lot of body folds to move and to clean. 67 00:04:20,567 --> 00:04:23,367 And so I've gotta hold the stomach up 68 00:04:23,367 --> 00:04:24,767 and I've gotta get in there 69 00:04:24,767 --> 00:04:26,367 and clean under all the crevices 70 00:04:26,367 --> 00:04:28,500 and all the nooks and crannies. 71 00:04:35,567 --> 00:04:38,100 After a few minutes of bending and balancing, 72 00:04:38,100 --> 00:04:41,266 my breath gets really shallow, 73 00:04:41,266 --> 00:04:43,166 and then my legs start to shake, 74 00:04:43,166 --> 00:04:45,100 and so it's a very difficult process. 75 00:04:45,100 --> 00:04:46,166 But it has to be done. 76 00:04:51,967 --> 00:04:53,200 [breathing heavily] 77 00:05:08,000 --> 00:05:09,333 [sighs in relief] 78 00:05:10,767 --> 00:05:14,367 After I get out of the shower, I just kinda like to air dry. 79 00:05:14,367 --> 00:05:18,266 So, also then I'll... I'll, like, towel dry my hair, 80 00:05:18,266 --> 00:05:21,300 my arms, and like, my regular, like, body. 81 00:05:23,100 --> 00:05:25,900 And then I got a little fan that really helps me 82 00:05:25,967 --> 00:05:29,467 to dry the places that I can't reach with the towel. 83 00:05:29,467 --> 00:05:30,000 But, mainly I'll just kinda sit 84 00:05:30,000 --> 00:05:31,467 But, mainly I'll just kinda sit 85 00:05:31,467 --> 00:05:34,266 and think about what I'll order for breakfast. 86 00:05:34,266 --> 00:05:37,100 And oh my, the thought of eating, 87 00:05:37,166 --> 00:05:38,767 especially the first time in the morning, 88 00:05:38,767 --> 00:05:41,900 is so exhilarating. 89 00:05:44,467 --> 00:05:47,867 I don't love the way my body looks, 90 00:05:47,867 --> 00:05:50,900 it's hard to deal with everybody scrutinizing me. 91 00:05:50,967 --> 00:05:53,400 So I'm grateful I can always rely 92 00:05:53,467 --> 00:05:55,567 on ordering through the app on my phone. 93 00:05:55,567 --> 00:05:58,066 One of the perks of living by yourself 94 00:05:58,066 --> 00:06:00,000 is being able to eat breakfast naked. 95 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:01,867 is being able to eat breakfast naked. 96 00:06:01,867 --> 00:06:05,300 I don't enjoy clothes 'cause clothes can be quite restrictive, 97 00:06:05,367 --> 00:06:09,700 especially at this size, there's not very many clothes for you. 98 00:06:09,767 --> 00:06:12,767 So, I wear clothes when I leave the house obviously, 99 00:06:12,767 --> 00:06:16,700 but when I'm home, I do what I need to do to be comfortable. 100 00:06:19,667 --> 00:06:22,367 There's never a limit to how many breakfast burritos 101 00:06:22,367 --> 00:06:24,467 I can eat after my morning shower 102 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:28,767 It's like I like to eat them so much, 103 00:06:28,767 --> 00:06:30,000 that when I'm chewing, 104 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:30,600 that when I'm chewing, 105 00:06:30,667 --> 00:06:33,700 I cram it in and I get this high off of it. 106 00:06:33,767 --> 00:06:34,967 And I just like... 107 00:06:34,967 --> 00:06:36,867 it's like float... I don't know how to describe it, 108 00:06:36,867 --> 00:06:38,300 it's like floating in the sky. 109 00:06:44,867 --> 00:06:47,200 Growing up, my parents didn't have a lot of money 110 00:06:47,266 --> 00:06:49,900 but my dad did love to cook good food. 111 00:06:51,367 --> 00:06:53,700 And the portions that he served my sister and I 112 00:06:53,767 --> 00:06:56,867 were generous to say the least. 113 00:06:56,867 --> 00:06:59,667 My idea of what a portion was growing up is 114 00:06:59,667 --> 00:07:00,000 way jacked up. 115 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:01,367 way jacked up. 116 00:07:02,367 --> 00:07:04,600 And I grew up associating 117 00:07:04,667 --> 00:07:07,467 large meals with my father's love. 118 00:07:12,100 --> 00:07:15,567 Outside of eating, my childhood was all doom and gloom. 119 00:07:16,467 --> 00:07:18,700 My parents divorced when I was three. 120 00:07:18,767 --> 00:07:21,567 And my dad got custody because my mother 121 00:07:21,567 --> 00:07:23,600 is an alcoholic. 122 00:07:23,667 --> 00:07:26,667 He was an over the road truck driver so he was gone a lot. 123 00:07:26,667 --> 00:07:29,567 So my older sister... I'm six years old, 124 00:07:29,567 --> 00:07:30,000 my sister's 13, 14. 125 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:32,367 my sister's 13, 14. 126 00:07:32,367 --> 00:07:34,600 And she really stepped in when I was growing up. 127 00:07:34,667 --> 00:07:36,266 She's seven years older than I am. 128 00:07:36,867 --> 00:07:38,967 We're so spaced out in age 129 00:07:38,967 --> 00:07:41,600 that it almost feels like I'm a single kid somewhat. 130 00:07:41,667 --> 00:07:44,867 And so I was home a lot by myself. 131 00:07:44,867 --> 00:07:46,900 That's when a family member 132 00:07:46,967 --> 00:07:49,600 was very sexually abusive towards me. 133 00:07:49,667 --> 00:07:51,700 And it took my childhood away from me. 134 00:07:53,100 --> 00:07:56,100 He did a lot of horrible, horrible things. 135 00:07:56,100 --> 00:08:00,000 Things that I would never wish upon a child, upon my worst enemy. 136 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:01,166 Things that I would never wish upon a child, upon my worst enemy. 137 00:08:01,166 --> 00:08:04,166 I hope that they've gotten the help that they need, 138 00:08:04,166 --> 00:08:06,567 because I will never get over it. 139 00:08:07,667 --> 00:08:09,667 When you suffer 140 00:08:09,667 --> 00:08:12,367 a traumatic childhood or a traumatic event 141 00:08:13,200 --> 00:08:14,600 when you're that young, 142 00:08:14,667 --> 00:08:16,166 whatever age it happens, 143 00:08:16,166 --> 00:08:18,867 it's almost like you get stuck emotionally there. 144 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:21,600 And you have to cope with that somehow 145 00:08:21,667 --> 00:08:24,100 and so I just ate. 146 00:08:24,100 --> 00:08:26,300 And just ate and ate and ate and ate. 147 00:08:29,767 --> 00:08:30,000 But I didn't care because being fat kept people away. 148 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:33,467 But I didn't care because being fat kept people away. 149 00:08:33,467 --> 00:08:35,467 I never want someone to hurt me. 150 00:08:35,467 --> 00:08:38,166 So the best way to avoid being hurt 151 00:08:38,166 --> 00:08:40,967 is to just isolate yourself, 152 00:08:40,967 --> 00:08:42,667 not form attachments, 153 00:08:42,667 --> 00:08:45,166 and the best way not to form an attachment 154 00:08:45,166 --> 00:08:47,166 is to make yourself undesirable. 155 00:08:48,100 --> 00:08:50,100 If nobody wants me, 156 00:08:50,100 --> 00:08:52,567 then nobody can hurt me. 157 00:08:52,567 --> 00:08:56,467 So, I would gorge myself on food. 158 00:09:01,100 --> 00:09:02,867 It was hard for me to entertain the thought 159 00:09:02,867 --> 00:09:04,266 that someone would ever flirt with me 160 00:09:04,266 --> 00:09:05,567 or find me attractive. 161 00:09:06,100 --> 00:09:07,634 But I was curious. 162 00:09:07,634 --> 00:09:10,400 So when I was 13, I started fooling around on the Internet. 163 00:09:10,467 --> 00:09:12,400 And my dad caught me talking to this older man 164 00:09:12,467 --> 00:09:14,200 that I was attracted to. 165 00:09:14,266 --> 00:09:15,667 So I had no choice but to come out 166 00:09:15,667 --> 00:09:17,200 to my dad that I was gay. 167 00:09:22,367 --> 00:09:25,200 And it was met with resistance. 168 00:09:25,266 --> 00:09:30,000 It was made very known to me that that is not... acceptable. 169 00:09:30,000 --> 00:09:30,266 It was made very known to me that that is not... acceptable. 170 00:09:30,266 --> 00:09:34,567 And was asked to go to my local pastor and talk about it. 171 00:09:34,567 --> 00:09:37,300 And I had a couple of conversations with him. 172 00:09:37,367 --> 00:09:39,567 My inner monologue was like, "This is bull [bleep]." 173 00:09:39,567 --> 00:09:42,367 But you know, you see what you wanna see. 174 00:09:42,367 --> 00:09:46,467 But I was left feeling like I had been abandoned emotionally, 175 00:09:46,467 --> 00:09:49,400 just like I felt after I was molested. 176 00:09:49,467 --> 00:09:52,567 Which did nothing to help with my issues with food. 177 00:09:52,567 --> 00:09:55,467 It just became an even bigger source of comfort. 178 00:09:55,467 --> 00:10:00,000 Going into my freshman year, I was 345 pounds. 179 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:01,000 Going into my freshman year, I was 345 pounds. 180 00:10:01,066 --> 00:10:04,066 But I didn't wanna come out that I was gay to my classmates. 181 00:10:04,066 --> 00:10:07,800 In my sophomore year, I started auditioning for school plays. 182 00:10:07,867 --> 00:10:10,867 And in my senior year, I was cast in a lead part. 183 00:10:10,867 --> 00:10:13,266 And that's when I fell in love with performing on stage. 184 00:10:14,567 --> 00:10:16,367 When I graduated from high school, 185 00:10:16,367 --> 00:10:18,400 the local junior college had a drama department 186 00:10:18,467 --> 00:10:20,867 and I got chosen for another major role in this play. 187 00:10:22,467 --> 00:10:24,900 There were some other gay kids in my theater class 188 00:10:24,967 --> 00:10:26,500 and they invited me to hang with them, 189 00:10:26,567 --> 00:10:28,266 and we started going to bars together. 190 00:10:29,500 --> 00:10:30,000 I discovered how to party 191 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:31,500 I discovered how to party 192 00:10:31,567 --> 00:10:34,266 and, uh, it was on. 193 00:10:42,266 --> 00:10:45,100 And before I knew it, I had blown through my college loans 194 00:10:45,100 --> 00:10:49,066 partying and binge eating fast foods when I was living with my friends. 195 00:10:49,066 --> 00:10:51,066 And I wasn't going to school anymore. 196 00:10:52,100 --> 00:10:53,600 I just fell into this rut. 197 00:10:55,100 --> 00:10:57,100 I was not accomplishing anything. 198 00:10:59,000 --> 00:11:00,000 So I left my hometown to take an office job in Houston. 199 00:11:00,000 --> 00:11:02,800 So I left my hometown to take an office job in Houston. 200 00:11:02,867 --> 00:11:05,000 But moving to the heart of a big city where 201 00:11:05,000 --> 00:11:08,467 I didn't know anybody was no ticket to paradise. 202 00:11:08,467 --> 00:11:11,000 And I just started descending into this depression. 203 00:11:12,767 --> 00:11:15,467 I would eat two medium pizzas 204 00:11:15,467 --> 00:11:17,400 an eight piece of chicken, 205 00:11:17,467 --> 00:11:19,266 and wash it down with two sodas 206 00:11:20,100 --> 00:11:21,567 in one sitting. 207 00:11:21,567 --> 00:11:23,600 It was not a good time in my life. 208 00:11:25,000 --> 00:11:28,400 You know, I was already teetering with depression 209 00:11:28,467 --> 00:11:30,000 from my weight and everything, 210 00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:30,400 from my weight and everything, 211 00:11:30,467 --> 00:11:33,667 and so the stress just got to be a lot. 212 00:11:34,166 --> 00:11:35,567 I lost my job, 213 00:11:36,166 --> 00:11:38,166 lost my apartment, 214 00:11:38,166 --> 00:11:39,567 lost my car, 215 00:11:39,567 --> 00:11:41,367 had to move in with my parents. 216 00:11:41,367 --> 00:11:43,867 That's not a easy thing to do, I should say, at 33. 217 00:11:43,867 --> 00:11:45,266 It's kind of embarrassing. 218 00:11:46,166 --> 00:11:48,467 And kind of had a little bit of a... 219 00:11:48,467 --> 00:11:50,367 a nervous breakdown, if you wanna say that. 220 00:11:51,567 --> 00:11:53,900 And even though I knew there wasn't a job 221 00:11:53,967 --> 00:11:56,367 for someone my size in our little town, 222 00:11:56,367 --> 00:11:58,100 I would still look everyday. 223 00:11:58,100 --> 00:12:00,000 And then, high speed Internet came to town. 224 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:01,567 And then, high speed Internet came to town. 225 00:12:01,567 --> 00:12:04,467 And finally, after several months, 226 00:12:04,467 --> 00:12:06,300 I found a job working from home. 227 00:12:06,900 --> 00:12:08,900 And I did that job 228 00:12:09,266 --> 00:12:10,867 and, uh, 229 00:12:10,867 --> 00:12:14,000 that gave me the funds to be able to pay rent to live on my own. 230 00:12:15,867 --> 00:12:17,300 -Hello. -You ready? 231 00:12:17,367 --> 00:12:18,367 Yes, sir. 232 00:12:19,567 --> 00:12:21,100 My dad takes me to the store 233 00:12:21,166 --> 00:12:23,200 to help me go and get groceries. 234 00:12:24,400 --> 00:12:26,300 -Some help? -No, I got it. 235 00:12:27,567 --> 00:12:30,000 Because I am too big to fit behind a steering wheel 236 00:12:30,000 --> 00:12:30,367 Because I am too big to fit behind a steering wheel 237 00:12:30,367 --> 00:12:31,667 and to drive my car. 238 00:12:43,066 --> 00:12:45,567 -You got it, Wess? -I got it. [sighs] 239 00:12:50,300 --> 00:12:51,767 -[Rick] You gonna make it? -[Wess] Uh-huh. 240 00:12:53,066 --> 00:12:54,200 I'm gonna try. 241 00:13:02,467 --> 00:13:04,767 My legs are hurting. 242 00:13:04,767 --> 00:13:07,066 [Rick] You wanna go back outside and sit down? 243 00:13:07,066 --> 00:13:08,133 Yeah. 244 00:13:11,867 --> 00:13:14,166 Standing and, like, leaning against the wall 245 00:13:14,166 --> 00:13:17,567 if I have no support, my stomach is gonna start pulling me and 246 00:13:17,567 --> 00:13:20,100 you'll see me like lean forward, go down. 247 00:13:21,200 --> 00:13:22,266 Okay, I'm done. 248 00:13:25,367 --> 00:13:26,667 I gotta go outside and sit down. 249 00:13:26,667 --> 00:13:28,066 I can't do this anymore. 250 00:13:34,967 --> 00:13:35,767 [grunts] 251 00:13:38,800 --> 00:13:39,767 [sighs] 252 00:13:42,000 --> 00:13:43,700 -Hello. -[Wess] Hey. 253 00:13:43,767 --> 00:13:45,400 You think you're gonna be much longer, uh, 254 00:13:45,467 --> 00:13:46,567 I'm ready to go 255 00:13:46,567 --> 00:13:48,367 [stutters] and I need to eat some lunch or something. 256 00:13:48,367 --> 00:13:50,667 Okay, I'll... I'll, uh, be out in a minute. 257 00:13:50,667 --> 00:13:52,200 All right, thank you. 258 00:13:55,667 --> 00:13:59,767 My family is very good at ignoring the elephant in the room. 259 00:13:59,767 --> 00:14:00,000 So we've never addressed the food addiction. 260 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:02,000 So we've never addressed the food addiction. 261 00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:05,166 -$116.66. Is that it? -That's it. 262 00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:10,567 But for me, food is a huge comfort. 263 00:14:11,200 --> 00:14:12,367 It is... 264 00:14:13,467 --> 00:14:14,667 my drug of choice. 265 00:14:14,667 --> 00:14:16,867 Food was euphoric for me. 266 00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:19,567 [Rick] Are you feeling all right, Wess? 267 00:14:20,266 --> 00:14:23,166 Mm, no, I'm not, I'm... 268 00:14:24,166 --> 00:14:25,266 I'm embarrassed. 269 00:14:26,066 --> 00:14:28,166 I actually feel like a loser. 270 00:14:28,166 --> 00:14:30,000 A grown man, I can't even buy groceries on my own, 271 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:30,800 A grown man, I can't even buy groceries on my own, 272 00:14:31,200 --> 00:14:32,467 you know. 273 00:14:32,467 --> 00:14:34,166 [Rick] Well, you're not a loser 274 00:14:34,166 --> 00:14:36,667 -by any means. -I know, thank you. 275 00:14:40,667 --> 00:14:42,467 I have triggers when it comes to eating 276 00:14:42,467 --> 00:14:44,900 and a lot of it is just stress related. 277 00:14:44,967 --> 00:14:46,467 Any time I feel like I'm stressed, 278 00:14:46,467 --> 00:14:49,266 the first thing I head for is food. 279 00:14:49,266 --> 00:14:51,166 It's that vicious cycle of, 280 00:14:51,166 --> 00:14:54,367 I eat 'cause I feel bad and then I get big 'cause I eat. 281 00:14:54,367 --> 00:14:56,600 But I get big 'cause I eat, but I eat 'cause I feel bad. 282 00:14:59,166 --> 00:15:00,000 But even with my family, I prefer to eat alone 283 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,100 But even with my family, I prefer to eat alone 284 00:15:02,100 --> 00:15:03,667 because food is my 285 00:15:03,667 --> 00:15:05,867 security blanket. 286 00:15:05,867 --> 00:15:09,667 I use it as a reward and I eat so much and I cram it in. 287 00:15:09,667 --> 00:15:11,767 But I usually don't stop until the food is gone. 288 00:15:15,767 --> 00:15:18,500 [sighs] Thank you, Dad. I sure do appreciate it. 289 00:15:19,100 --> 00:15:20,266 I don't mind helping. 290 00:15:21,867 --> 00:15:23,567 I'm gonna put these in the icebox. 291 00:15:24,467 --> 00:15:26,200 Those go in that cupboard over there. 292 00:15:26,266 --> 00:15:29,567 There's never a moment in my life where I'm not thinking about food. 293 00:15:32,166 --> 00:15:35,567 It's very hard for me to admit I have a problem. 294 00:15:35,567 --> 00:15:37,166 'Cause it's like any addiction. 295 00:15:37,166 --> 00:15:38,500 Your mind 296 00:15:38,567 --> 00:15:40,367 creates the addiction 297 00:15:40,367 --> 00:15:43,200 and then you use that as an excuse to keep eating. 298 00:15:43,266 --> 00:15:45,400 And then you just want more and more and more 299 00:15:45,467 --> 00:15:46,767 and you're never satisfied. 300 00:15:49,266 --> 00:15:52,800 I would say without a doubt, 100%, I am a food addict. 301 00:15:52,867 --> 00:15:56,000 I have lost control and my food controls me. 302 00:15:56,700 --> 00:15:58,200 I have imprisoned myself 303 00:15:58,266 --> 00:16:00,000 in this body, in this lifestyle. 304 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:00,500 in this body, in this lifestyle. 305 00:16:01,100 --> 00:16:02,166 And 306 00:16:02,967 --> 00:16:05,867 I need to serve my time 307 00:16:05,867 --> 00:16:08,300 and do the work, pay my debt back, 308 00:16:08,367 --> 00:16:11,767 and that's gonna be through exercising and diet, 309 00:16:11,767 --> 00:16:13,800 so that I can get out of this prison. 310 00:16:13,867 --> 00:16:15,467 Instead of telling my family 311 00:16:15,467 --> 00:16:17,600 and friends that I have a problem, 312 00:16:17,667 --> 00:16:20,000 I just won't have them come over. 313 00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:21,100 And I'll ask them not to come over 314 00:16:21,166 --> 00:16:22,367 and I won't invite them over. 315 00:16:22,367 --> 00:16:25,800 I've walled myself off so I don't get hurt. 316 00:16:25,867 --> 00:16:28,367 And that's just part of this journey that I'm going through, 317 00:16:28,367 --> 00:16:30,000 that I'm gonna have to break those walls down 318 00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:30,767 that I'm gonna have to break those walls down 319 00:16:30,767 --> 00:16:32,667 and... and learn to let people back in. 320 00:16:36,100 --> 00:16:38,767 I need to get serious about... about this. 321 00:16:38,767 --> 00:16:40,000 You know, I need help. 322 00:16:56,266 --> 00:16:58,367 -Let's go. -[clears throat] 323 00:17:02,500 --> 00:17:05,767 [Wess] Today I'm finally gonna do something about my weight problem. 324 00:17:07,767 --> 00:17:09,266 Just about an hour from here 325 00:17:09,266 --> 00:17:12,266 there is a world class surgeon who works on people my size. 326 00:17:12,266 --> 00:17:13,669 And I've known about him for a while 327 00:17:13,669 --> 00:17:14,100 And I've known about him for a while 328 00:17:14,166 --> 00:17:16,767 and I finally decided that it's time for me to go see him 329 00:17:16,767 --> 00:17:18,100 to try to get his help. 330 00:17:23,667 --> 00:17:25,467 Oh, it's cold in here. 331 00:17:28,567 --> 00:17:31,000 [Rick] Think a eighth of a tank get you to Rosenberg? 332 00:17:31,600 --> 00:17:34,767 -Sorry? -[Rick speaking] 333 00:17:35,767 --> 00:17:37,600 Yeah. 78 miles. 334 00:17:37,667 --> 00:17:40,000 [Wess panting] 335 00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:42,367 -[Rick] You okay? -[Wess] Yeah. 336 00:17:42,367 --> 00:17:43,669 [Wess panting] 337 00:17:43,669 --> 00:17:45,300 [Wess panting] 338 00:17:45,367 --> 00:17:46,967 [Wess] Just catching my breath. 339 00:17:48,266 --> 00:17:51,500 [panting] 340 00:17:54,467 --> 00:17:56,300 [grunts] 341 00:17:58,066 --> 00:17:59,800 -You all right? -Yeah. 342 00:18:06,700 --> 00:18:09,066 [Wess] It's nice and cold in this damn car, isn't it? 343 00:18:09,066 --> 00:18:10,467 [Rick] I turned it on a little bit early. 344 00:18:10,467 --> 00:18:12,166 [both laugh] 345 00:18:12,166 --> 00:18:13,669 [Rick] Hey Wess, how... Are you worried about this? 346 00:18:13,669 --> 00:18:15,066 [Rick] Hey Wess, how... Are you worried about this? 347 00:18:15,066 --> 00:18:18,200 Are you scared to go up here or what? 348 00:18:18,266 --> 00:18:19,800 [Wess sighs] 349 00:18:19,867 --> 00:18:22,800 I'm ready to see Dr. Now. It's... 350 00:18:22,867 --> 00:18:24,800 I'm ready just to start this whole process 351 00:18:24,867 --> 00:18:27,200 and get it over with. 352 00:18:28,567 --> 00:18:31,767 And... I'm ready to make this change. 353 00:18:33,166 --> 00:18:36,000 [Rick] And a big change it will be. 354 00:18:36,066 --> 00:18:38,166 -Yup. -It's just gonna be 355 00:18:38,166 --> 00:18:40,367 a great feeling for me to see you... 356 00:18:41,400 --> 00:18:43,669 ...being able to do normal things again. 357 00:18:43,669 --> 00:18:45,000 ...being able to do normal things again. 358 00:18:46,667 --> 00:18:50,066 Yeah, you'll be able to walk where you wanna walk now. 359 00:18:50,066 --> 00:18:51,467 Be able to get the hell away from y'all, 360 00:18:51,467 --> 00:18:52,767 that's what I'll be able to do. 361 00:18:52,767 --> 00:18:54,266 [laughs] 362 00:18:55,700 --> 00:18:57,600 Are you okay back there, Wess? 363 00:18:57,667 --> 00:18:59,100 Are you comfortable? 364 00:18:59,100 --> 00:19:00,767 About as comfortable as I can be 365 00:19:00,767 --> 00:19:02,567 but I'm a little too tall to sit back here. 366 00:19:03,700 --> 00:19:07,266 -Squat down. -Feel like the... 367 00:19:07,266 --> 00:19:09,000 [Rick] You have to squat down a little bit. 368 00:19:09,066 --> 00:19:11,266 [Rick laughs] 369 00:19:24,300 --> 00:19:26,567 [Wess] Pretty much everything gives me anxiety. 370 00:19:26,567 --> 00:19:28,000 So, something like this 371 00:19:28,066 --> 00:19:29,767 where there's everything on the line, 372 00:19:29,767 --> 00:19:32,567 my health, my future, my whole life... 373 00:19:32,567 --> 00:19:34,900 I feel like I have a pit in my stomach. 374 00:19:34,967 --> 00:19:40,700 More than anything, I'm just afraid to hear what Dr. Now has to say. 375 00:19:57,166 --> 00:20:00,800 Now we're here and my anxiety is really, really bad. 376 00:20:01,400 --> 00:20:02,667 Dr. Now might be 377 00:20:02,667 --> 00:20:04,967 the last chance that I have to save my life 378 00:20:04,967 --> 00:20:07,300 and stop from eating myself to death. 379 00:20:08,900 --> 00:20:11,066 I'm desperate for his help 380 00:20:11,066 --> 00:20:13,669 and I just hope to God that he doesn't turn me away 381 00:20:13,669 --> 00:20:14,400 and I just hope to God that he doesn't turn me away 382 00:20:14,467 --> 00:20:16,600 and tell me that he can't help me. 383 00:20:29,800 --> 00:20:33,200 [breathing heavily] 384 00:20:34,166 --> 00:20:36,900 [grunts softly and panting] 385 00:20:50,266 --> 00:20:51,600 Wess... 386 00:20:54,100 --> 00:20:56,667 [Wess] It's been a long time since I weighed myself. 387 00:20:56,667 --> 00:20:59,400 And back then, I was in the low 600s. 388 00:20:59,467 --> 00:21:00,500 So, I think I've gained 389 00:21:00,567 --> 00:21:02,000 a little bit of weight since then. 390 00:21:02,066 --> 00:21:04,166 I'm just hoping I'm below 650. 391 00:21:18,266 --> 00:21:19,467 I'm gonna get lower. 392 00:21:28,867 --> 00:21:30,600 [nurse] You're weight is 705. 393 00:21:33,100 --> 00:21:34,467 [Wess speaking] 394 00:21:35,800 --> 00:21:37,467 Thank you. 395 00:21:37,467 --> 00:21:39,166 [nurse] We'll be going to room five. 396 00:21:39,166 --> 00:21:41,000 Okay. [panting] 397 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:46,867 [Wess] That's a lot worse than I thought. 398 00:21:46,867 --> 00:21:48,100 [sighs] 399 00:21:48,166 --> 00:21:50,767 I've wasted too much time before getting help. 400 00:21:50,767 --> 00:21:53,800 My situation has gotten so much worse. 401 00:21:53,867 --> 00:21:56,567 I just pray that Dr. Now can help me. 402 00:21:57,100 --> 00:21:58,900 [panting] 403 00:22:11,100 --> 00:22:12,367 [grunts] 404 00:22:20,967 --> 00:22:22,400 [knock on door] 405 00:22:24,867 --> 00:22:26,700 Hello. How are you all doing? 406 00:22:26,767 --> 00:22:28,400 -Good. How are you? -Good. How are you? 407 00:22:28,467 --> 00:22:29,900 I'm doing well. 408 00:22:29,967 --> 00:22:32,567 All right. So, you must be Wess, huh? 409 00:22:32,567 --> 00:22:35,400 -Yes, sir. -And who is this young man with you? 410 00:22:35,467 --> 00:22:37,767 This is my dad, Rick. 411 00:22:37,767 --> 00:22:42,767 Nice to meet you guys. All right, you are 705 lbs. 412 00:22:42,767 --> 00:22:43,669 How long have you been at that weight? 413 00:22:43,669 --> 00:22:44,266 How long have you been at that weight? 414 00:22:46,266 --> 00:22:49,667 Um, I know a few years ago, 415 00:22:49,667 --> 00:22:53,400 the last time I weighed was probably three or four years ago, 416 00:22:53,467 --> 00:22:56,400 and I was, like, 650 lbs at that time. 417 00:22:57,000 --> 00:22:59,567 So between now and then 418 00:22:59,567 --> 00:23:02,266 it's been anywhere between 650 and 700. 419 00:23:02,266 --> 00:23:05,567 So what is going on in the past few years 420 00:23:05,567 --> 00:23:07,467 that you gained all that weight? 421 00:23:07,467 --> 00:23:10,100 On and off for the last ten years, real bad depression. 422 00:23:10,100 --> 00:23:12,867 I see. Have you seen anybody for that? 423 00:23:13,667 --> 00:23:13,669 -Any therapist? -No. No. 424 00:23:13,669 --> 00:23:15,600 -Any therapist? -No. No. 425 00:23:15,667 --> 00:23:17,700 When you eat food, you feel better. 426 00:23:17,767 --> 00:23:20,000 You find food to comfort you. 427 00:23:20,000 --> 00:23:24,567 -Mm-hmm. -So, what issue are you trying to avoid by doing that? 428 00:23:24,567 --> 00:23:27,967 Um, there's a lot of things in my past 429 00:23:27,967 --> 00:23:29,166 that I'm probably working through 430 00:23:29,166 --> 00:23:32,066 and I probably use food to deal with that. 431 00:23:32,066 --> 00:23:35,800 All right. So, do you stay home all day? 432 00:23:35,867 --> 00:23:36,800 Yes, sir. 433 00:23:36,867 --> 00:23:39,066 Who else is in the household beside you? 434 00:23:39,066 --> 00:23:41,767 I live by myself but I live close to my family, 435 00:23:41,767 --> 00:23:43,669 my dad and my aunts and so they're over pretty regularly. 436 00:23:43,669 --> 00:23:45,266 my dad and my aunts and so they're over pretty regularly. 437 00:23:45,266 --> 00:23:46,700 So, you sit at home, 438 00:23:46,767 --> 00:23:49,367 -alone most of the time and eat. -Yeah. 439 00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:52,767 So, your BMI's 112. 440 00:23:53,667 --> 00:23:56,300 Normal BMI is 18 to 25. 441 00:23:56,367 --> 00:24:00,467 And being over 100 BMI is very high. 442 00:24:00,467 --> 00:24:04,000 Your weight is putting a lot of strain on your body right now. 443 00:24:04,066 --> 00:24:06,266 -How old are you right now? -36. 444 00:24:06,266 --> 00:24:09,600 36 and you've got a pretty serious issue with your weight 445 00:24:09,667 --> 00:24:12,000 and you're tolerating that at the moment 446 00:24:12,066 --> 00:24:13,467 but you're getting older, 447 00:24:13,467 --> 00:24:13,669 on top of wear and tear from the strain of your weight 448 00:24:13,669 --> 00:24:16,767 on top of wear and tear from the strain of your weight 449 00:24:16,767 --> 00:24:18,667 on your body for years. 450 00:24:18,667 --> 00:24:21,200 So, very soon things are gonna change 451 00:24:21,266 --> 00:24:23,667 and your body is gonna get to a point 452 00:24:23,667 --> 00:24:26,367 where you can't go on like this anymore. 453 00:24:26,367 --> 00:24:29,467 Then everything is going to wrong direction 454 00:24:29,467 --> 00:24:31,367 and you're not pulling out of that. 455 00:24:31,367 --> 00:24:34,166 So you have to decide if you want to change. 456 00:24:34,166 --> 00:24:35,200 Because if you don't, 457 00:24:35,266 --> 00:24:37,500 then you're not gonna be able to even walk. 458 00:24:37,567 --> 00:24:38,867 You're gonna stay in your bed, 459 00:24:38,867 --> 00:24:40,200 then you're gonna be bedridden, 460 00:24:40,266 --> 00:24:42,266 depending on people to come and help you out. 461 00:24:42,266 --> 00:24:43,669 And then once you get bedridden, then it's over. 462 00:24:43,669 --> 00:24:44,800 And then once you get bedridden, then it's over. 463 00:24:44,867 --> 00:24:47,967 Your health is gonna go downhill really quick 464 00:24:47,967 --> 00:24:50,066 and that's gonna happen really soon 465 00:24:50,066 --> 00:24:51,667 if you keep going like this. 466 00:24:51,667 --> 00:24:54,300 So are you willing to make the changes? 467 00:24:54,367 --> 00:24:56,767 100%, yes sir. I want to get to 468 00:24:56,767 --> 00:25:00,266 where I can live and do things on my own again. 469 00:25:00,266 --> 00:25:02,767 What is something you want to do with your life? 470 00:25:02,767 --> 00:25:06,767 I've always... I always wanted to be on stage. 471 00:25:06,767 --> 00:25:10,166 -Be in front of people. Talk, act, whatever... -Acting. 472 00:25:10,166 --> 00:25:11,500 ...things like that. I always loved it. 473 00:25:11,567 --> 00:25:12,767 It was always a passion of mine. 474 00:25:12,767 --> 00:25:13,669 Hopefully this will allow me to get up and do that again. 475 00:25:13,669 --> 00:25:16,700 Hopefully this will allow me to get up and do that again. 476 00:25:16,767 --> 00:25:18,100 Well, keep that dream 477 00:25:18,100 --> 00:25:20,500 in front of you to keep you motivated. 478 00:25:20,567 --> 00:25:22,266 Because you're gonna have to work hard 479 00:25:22,266 --> 00:25:23,767 if you want to succeed 480 00:25:23,767 --> 00:25:26,066 and turn your life around. Okay? 481 00:25:26,066 --> 00:25:29,767 -Okay. -The first step is to show me that you're ready for this 482 00:25:29,767 --> 00:25:32,467 by losing some weight and with your current weight, 483 00:25:32,467 --> 00:25:34,500 you have to lose at least 100 lbs. 484 00:25:34,567 --> 00:25:37,567 And this is not something that is gonna be easy 485 00:25:37,567 --> 00:25:39,767 but you're gonna have to bite the bullet and do that. 486 00:25:39,767 --> 00:25:42,567 You need to stick to the 1200 calories a day, 487 00:25:42,567 --> 00:25:43,669 high protein, low carb diet that I'm going to give you 488 00:25:43,669 --> 00:25:45,500 high protein, low carb diet that I'm going to give you 489 00:25:45,567 --> 00:25:47,500 and if you do that, then we might consider you 490 00:25:47,567 --> 00:25:48,567 for weight loss surgery. 491 00:25:48,567 --> 00:25:50,600 But if you're unable to lose that weight, 492 00:25:50,667 --> 00:25:53,266 not only we won't be able to do your surgery, 493 00:25:53,266 --> 00:25:55,800 because of how compromised your system is, 494 00:25:55,867 --> 00:25:58,400 but there would be no point of doing weight loss surgery 495 00:25:58,467 --> 00:26:01,100 because if you aren't willing to work at this 496 00:26:01,166 --> 00:26:04,000 then the surgery will eventually fail 497 00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:05,767 and won't change anything. 498 00:26:05,767 --> 00:26:07,100 -Right. Okay. -Okay? 499 00:26:07,100 --> 00:26:09,300 So at this point you need to 500 00:26:09,367 --> 00:26:11,667 start working hard to change your life. 501 00:26:11,667 --> 00:26:13,400 -Okay. -You think you can do that? 502 00:26:13,467 --> 00:26:13,669 -Yes, sir. -All right, any questions? 503 00:26:13,669 --> 00:26:16,567 -Yes, sir. -All right, any questions? 504 00:26:16,567 --> 00:26:18,266 No. No, sir. 505 00:26:18,266 --> 00:26:20,867 All right. So, I'm gonna bring you some stuff 506 00:26:20,867 --> 00:26:23,800 and see if we can get you going in the right direction. 507 00:26:23,867 --> 00:26:26,367 -All right. Thank you, sir. -Okay. I'll be back. 508 00:26:26,367 --> 00:26:28,166 -Thank you, sir. -You're welcome. 509 00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:34,100 I don't care how much weight I lose, 510 00:26:34,100 --> 00:26:36,600 I'm not gardening and I'm not going hunting. 511 00:26:36,667 --> 00:26:39,100 -I can't force you. -No. 512 00:26:41,300 --> 00:26:43,300 Wess has let himself get to 513 00:26:43,367 --> 00:26:43,669 a very dangerous place with his health 514 00:26:43,669 --> 00:26:45,867 a very dangerous place with his health 515 00:26:45,867 --> 00:26:47,400 and I'm concerned about him 516 00:26:47,467 --> 00:26:51,667 because he is over 700 lbs and his BMI is over 100 517 00:26:51,667 --> 00:26:54,800 and he's been at that size for a while now. 518 00:26:54,867 --> 00:26:58,667 So it is just a matter of time before his body gives up. 519 00:26:58,667 --> 00:27:02,100 So it's very important that Wess turn things around now 520 00:27:02,100 --> 00:27:04,900 if we wants to prevent that from happening. 521 00:27:04,967 --> 00:27:05,867 All right. 522 00:27:08,400 --> 00:27:10,266 I got a few things for you. 523 00:27:10,266 --> 00:27:12,900 Okay. First thing I want you to do is 524 00:27:12,967 --> 00:27:13,669 read that very carefully. Okay? 525 00:27:13,669 --> 00:27:16,066 read that very carefully. Okay? 526 00:27:16,900 --> 00:27:18,367 So, go through that, 527 00:27:18,367 --> 00:27:19,700 make a note, 528 00:27:19,767 --> 00:27:21,967 make sure you understand every line 529 00:27:22,700 --> 00:27:24,700 and if you have any questions, 530 00:27:24,767 --> 00:27:29,300 then you're gonna have to ask about it. 531 00:27:29,367 --> 00:27:32,200 [Dr. Now] So we got our work cut out for us with Wess. 532 00:27:32,266 --> 00:27:34,567 Ideally he should be around 200 lbs. 533 00:27:34,567 --> 00:27:37,400 So, he's got 4-500 lbs to lose 534 00:27:37,467 --> 00:27:40,500 and that's gonna be a big challenge for him and us 535 00:27:40,567 --> 00:27:41,900 to get him to the point that 536 00:27:41,967 --> 00:27:43,669 it's gonna be safe to do weight loss surgery on him. 537 00:27:43,669 --> 00:27:44,700 it's gonna be safe to do weight loss surgery on him. 538 00:27:44,767 --> 00:27:46,166 Your frequency should be 539 00:27:46,166 --> 00:27:48,200 three times a day, no snacking between the meal, 540 00:27:48,266 --> 00:27:51,867 amount should be around 400 calories if you eat three time a day 541 00:27:51,867 --> 00:27:53,567 and if you eat two time a day, 542 00:27:53,567 --> 00:27:55,166 it will be 600 calories. 543 00:27:55,166 --> 00:27:59,667 I'm gonna give you a copy of my book to do this chapter 12, the exercise. 544 00:27:59,667 --> 00:28:04,467 And these exercise is geared to do for a person like you. 545 00:28:04,467 --> 00:28:09,100 And you work on this one hour in the morning 546 00:28:10,367 --> 00:28:12,367 and one hour in the evening. 547 00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:13,669 That won't be easy 548 00:28:13,669 --> 00:28:14,567 That won't be easy 549 00:28:14,567 --> 00:28:16,567 and it's gonna take a lot of effort 550 00:28:16,567 --> 00:28:18,767 and hard work to make that happen. 551 00:28:18,767 --> 00:28:21,467 But regardless, what happens from here 552 00:28:21,467 --> 00:28:22,867 is all up to Wess. 553 00:28:22,867 --> 00:28:26,066 No one but him can make the choice to change. 554 00:28:26,066 --> 00:28:29,266 And he doesn't have any time to waste. 555 00:28:29,266 --> 00:28:33,066 You got to lose at least 100 lbs over the next two months. 556 00:28:33,066 --> 00:28:35,867 If you do that, then we'll consider weight loss surgery. 557 00:28:35,867 --> 00:28:38,467 -Okay. -So read the stuff that I gave you every night, 558 00:28:38,467 --> 00:28:40,800 make the changes and stick to it. 559 00:28:40,867 --> 00:28:41,967 Yes, sir. 560 00:28:41,967 --> 00:28:43,367 -Okay? -Okay. 561 00:28:44,100 --> 00:28:46,100 All right. In the mean time 562 00:28:46,166 --> 00:28:47,400 if you need anything, give me a call. 563 00:28:47,467 --> 00:28:48,767 -Yes, sir. Thank you. -All right. 564 00:28:48,767 --> 00:28:50,900 -Nice to see you guys. -You too. 565 00:28:50,967 --> 00:28:52,467 -[Rick] Thank you. -[Wess] Thank you. 566 00:28:52,467 --> 00:28:53,667 You're welcome. 567 00:28:57,300 --> 00:28:59,367 -You ready to get out of here? -I'm ready. 568 00:28:59,367 --> 00:29:01,600 -Let's go. -Need some help? 569 00:29:01,667 --> 00:29:02,900 No, I got it. 570 00:29:08,667 --> 00:29:10,867 [Wess] I think the meeting with Dr. Now went well. 571 00:29:10,867 --> 00:29:12,467 As good as to be expected. 572 00:29:12,467 --> 00:29:13,669 I think what Dr. Now told me is doable. 573 00:29:13,669 --> 00:29:15,166 I think what Dr. Now told me is doable. 574 00:29:15,166 --> 00:29:17,767 It's gonna take some hard work on my end 575 00:29:17,767 --> 00:29:20,767 and doing some things I haven't done in a few years. 576 00:29:20,767 --> 00:29:22,700 So... You know, it's all a mental game, right? 577 00:29:22,767 --> 00:29:25,500 I think this is gonna be very hard for me to do 578 00:29:25,567 --> 00:29:28,367 but I have no other option. This is my last resort. 579 00:29:28,367 --> 00:29:30,667 Leaving this meeting with Dr. Now, 580 00:29:30,667 --> 00:29:33,700 I know that he has given me the tools that I need 581 00:29:33,767 --> 00:29:35,200 and if I use what he's given me 582 00:29:35,266 --> 00:29:36,367 and build upon them, 583 00:29:36,367 --> 00:29:38,200 then I will probably have a better future. 584 00:29:38,266 --> 00:29:41,467 Hopefully it will get me to a place where I can imagine living in that future. 585 00:29:48,367 --> 00:29:49,467 [grunts] 586 00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:04,166 [knock on door] 587 00:30:04,166 --> 00:30:05,767 Come in. 588 00:30:05,767 --> 00:30:07,767 -Wesley? -Yes, sir. 589 00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:11,467 What's going on? 590 00:30:11,467 --> 00:30:12,900 Nothing. What are you doing? 591 00:30:14,100 --> 00:30:17,467 I've come to help you out a little bit. 592 00:30:17,467 --> 00:30:21,000 -With what? -We're gonna clean out your cupboards today. 593 00:30:24,900 --> 00:30:25,460 -Yeah. -It's time. 594 00:30:25,460 --> 00:30:26,967 -Yeah. -It's time. 595 00:30:26,967 --> 00:30:28,467 The time is here. 596 00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:32,367 -Well... -You ready? 597 00:30:32,367 --> 00:30:33,567 [Wess] Let's get her done. 598 00:30:35,266 --> 00:30:37,967 [Wess] It's been two days since I've seen Dr. Now. 599 00:30:37,967 --> 00:30:39,767 We came back that same day 600 00:30:39,767 --> 00:30:41,800 and my dad gave me time to rest 601 00:30:41,867 --> 00:30:44,166 and prepare for the big cleanse. 602 00:30:44,166 --> 00:30:46,300 Where do you want to start in at? 603 00:30:46,367 --> 00:30:47,967 [Wess] Let's do the cupboard. 604 00:30:48,767 --> 00:30:51,567 Everything but the soups 605 00:30:51,567 --> 00:30:53,500 and the chicken broth. 606 00:30:53,567 --> 00:30:55,460 [Wess] All the junk food, all the crap that I eat, 607 00:30:55,460 --> 00:30:57,000 [Wess] All the junk food, all the crap that I eat, 608 00:30:57,066 --> 00:30:59,000 it is now gonna go bye-bye. 609 00:31:00,867 --> 00:31:02,266 [Rick exclaims] 610 00:31:02,266 --> 00:31:03,700 I don't know what you're talking about. 611 00:31:03,767 --> 00:31:05,300 -I don't see anything. -They were hidden back there. 612 00:31:05,367 --> 00:31:06,667 [Wess] I don't see anything in your hands. 613 00:31:06,667 --> 00:31:07,767 I don't know what you're talking about. 614 00:31:07,767 --> 00:31:11,767 Get rid of 'em. Bye. 615 00:31:11,767 --> 00:31:14,367 I don't think I should've taken my dad to see Dr. Now 616 00:31:14,367 --> 00:31:15,600 because now my dad thinks 617 00:31:15,667 --> 00:31:16,767 that he has carte blanche 618 00:31:16,767 --> 00:31:18,667 to tell me what to eat and what not to eat. 619 00:31:19,367 --> 00:31:21,100 And I like control. 620 00:31:21,166 --> 00:31:23,066 [Rick] You can't have this pasta, can you? 621 00:31:23,066 --> 00:31:25,460 -[Rick] Nope. -[Wess] Oh, God, that hurts. 622 00:31:25,460 --> 00:31:25,667 -[Rick] Nope. -[Wess] Oh, God, that hurts. 623 00:31:25,667 --> 00:31:27,367 I'll leave you the wire basket. 624 00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:29,100 I know. 625 00:31:34,100 --> 00:31:35,166 Gone. 626 00:31:37,367 --> 00:31:39,867 -Cookie pop popcorn, no good. -You know, 627 00:31:41,100 --> 00:31:43,000 this was okay when you first came over 628 00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:44,600 but now you're really, like... 629 00:31:44,667 --> 00:31:47,266 [Rick] I'm the junk food junkie police. 630 00:31:47,266 --> 00:31:48,667 You're doing it now. 631 00:31:48,667 --> 00:31:51,900 -What is that? -It's a chocolate bar with almonds. 632 00:31:52,767 --> 00:31:54,266 [Rick] You've got a stash in there? 633 00:31:55,900 --> 00:31:58,000 -Just go find out. -[Rick laughs] 634 00:32:04,800 --> 00:32:07,200 [wrappers crinkling] 635 00:32:07,266 --> 00:32:08,767 What do you got in here, Wess? 636 00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:15,467 [Rick clears throat] Wow. 637 00:32:18,166 --> 00:32:19,467 It's gonna be all right, Wess. 638 00:32:21,867 --> 00:32:23,367 [Wess] My dad does love me 639 00:32:23,367 --> 00:32:25,460 but sometimes I just wanna be left alone. 640 00:32:25,460 --> 00:32:27,600 but sometimes I just wanna be left alone. 641 00:32:28,867 --> 00:32:31,000 Wess, I'm gonna take this to the food bank. 642 00:32:33,100 --> 00:32:34,967 He needs a little boot every once in a while. 643 00:32:34,967 --> 00:32:37,066 You know, help him stay started 644 00:32:37,066 --> 00:32:38,867 but he's gonna do good. 645 00:32:38,867 --> 00:32:39,867 I know he will. 646 00:32:53,367 --> 00:32:55,166 [Wess] It's been almost five weeks 647 00:32:55,166 --> 00:32:55,460 since I started on Dr. Now's program 648 00:32:55,460 --> 00:32:57,467 since I started on Dr. Now's program 649 00:32:57,467 --> 00:32:59,600 and it hasn't been a walk in the park 650 00:32:59,667 --> 00:33:02,467 but I've been working hard at it. 651 00:33:02,467 --> 00:33:03,900 My dad has been coming over 652 00:33:03,967 --> 00:33:06,967 just about every day to help me with my exercises, 653 00:33:06,967 --> 00:33:10,467 eat with me and keep me accountable. 654 00:33:10,467 --> 00:33:13,100 But I don't wanna be a burden to my dad. 655 00:33:13,100 --> 00:33:15,266 So I told him this is what we'll do for now, 656 00:33:15,266 --> 00:33:19,000 I'll take his help but after I get approved for surgery. 657 00:33:19,066 --> 00:33:21,667 I need to be able to do this on my own. 658 00:33:23,266 --> 00:33:24,900 My dad does love me. 659 00:33:24,967 --> 00:33:25,460 He's a good dad and he looks out for me. 660 00:33:25,460 --> 00:33:27,500 He's a good dad and he looks out for me. 661 00:33:28,600 --> 00:33:30,300 But I know that I'm going to 662 00:33:30,367 --> 00:33:32,667 have to get by without my dad's help as well. 663 00:33:41,467 --> 00:33:43,166 -Hey, Wess. -Hello. 664 00:33:43,166 --> 00:33:44,667 You ready? You ready to go for a walk? 665 00:33:44,667 --> 00:33:46,266 Imma try. Let's go. 666 00:33:46,266 --> 00:33:47,367 Here you go. 667 00:33:47,367 --> 00:33:49,000 I brought you some relief. 668 00:33:49,066 --> 00:33:51,600 Thank you. Let me see your arm. 669 00:33:54,467 --> 00:33:55,460 Thank you, sir. 670 00:33:55,460 --> 00:33:55,567 Thank you, sir. 671 00:33:55,567 --> 00:33:57,000 -You got it? -Yes. 672 00:33:57,066 --> 00:33:58,667 -You wanna walk on the road? -Yeah. 673 00:33:59,900 --> 00:34:02,066 -It's easier than walking here. -Yes, sir. 674 00:34:03,266 --> 00:34:05,300 [Wess] In the morning we do my exercises. 675 00:34:05,367 --> 00:34:07,000 And it takes a lot out of me 676 00:34:07,066 --> 00:34:08,500 but I'm getting better at it now. 677 00:34:09,467 --> 00:34:11,400 I can walk to the dumpster and back. 678 00:34:11,467 --> 00:34:14,567 Whereas before, I could barely even walk outside. 679 00:34:16,967 --> 00:34:19,100 -Gotta get that blood going. -[Wess laughs] 680 00:34:20,367 --> 00:34:22,166 How many times a day can you do this? 681 00:34:23,200 --> 00:34:24,467 Twice. 682 00:34:25,667 --> 00:34:27,300 Two times. It's hard on you. 683 00:34:27,367 --> 00:34:28,367 Yeah. 684 00:34:29,867 --> 00:34:32,166 You'll get in shape. You'll get used to it. 685 00:34:32,767 --> 00:34:34,567 I'm trying my best. 686 00:34:34,567 --> 00:34:36,900 [Wess] The lymphedema on my leg is miserable. 687 00:34:36,967 --> 00:34:39,266 But I know I have to fight through the pain. 688 00:34:39,266 --> 00:34:42,000 So it's a lot. But I feel good about how I'm doing. 689 00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:45,367 And I still have about another month to go before I see the doctor. 690 00:34:45,367 --> 00:34:47,667 -Are you okay? -Let's stop. 691 00:34:47,667 --> 00:34:49,800 You wanna wait a minute before you go back? 692 00:34:49,867 --> 00:34:51,000 Yeah. 693 00:34:52,166 --> 00:34:54,867 -Let me catch my breath. -All right. 694 00:34:55,266 --> 00:34:55,460 [panting] 695 00:34:55,460 --> 00:34:57,266 [panting] 696 00:35:02,900 --> 00:35:03,900 How was that walk? 697 00:35:04,500 --> 00:35:05,600 [Wess] I'm ready to die. 698 00:35:05,667 --> 00:35:07,467 No. Come on. 699 00:35:07,467 --> 00:35:09,900 Pretty soon you'll be able to do that without even thinking about it. 700 00:35:09,967 --> 00:35:12,400 -Yeah. I know. -You won't even breathe hard. 701 00:35:12,467 --> 00:35:13,600 I'll get there. 702 00:35:13,667 --> 00:35:15,900 -You'll be jogging pretty soon. -Let's go back. 703 00:35:16,867 --> 00:35:17,667 You're ready? 704 00:35:20,467 --> 00:35:21,767 As I'm ever gonna be. 705 00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:24,967 Well, just keep it in your mind 706 00:35:24,967 --> 00:35:25,460 it's a positive thing for you. 707 00:35:25,460 --> 00:35:26,567 it's a positive thing for you. 708 00:35:26,567 --> 00:35:27,767 Yeah. 709 00:35:29,166 --> 00:35:30,266 [Rick] Since the doctor's visit 710 00:35:30,266 --> 00:35:32,367 Wess has really been doing good. 711 00:35:32,367 --> 00:35:35,100 He's really trying to stay on his diet. 712 00:35:35,100 --> 00:35:37,467 It makes me happy to see Wess losing weight 713 00:35:37,467 --> 00:35:41,166 and really caring about himself again. 714 00:35:45,100 --> 00:35:46,100 Oh, damn. 715 00:35:47,300 --> 00:35:48,400 Use the post. 716 00:35:48,467 --> 00:35:50,367 [panting] 717 00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:53,066 Oh. 718 00:35:55,900 --> 00:35:57,166 You all right? 719 00:35:57,166 --> 00:35:58,567 Yeah. I just gotta catch my breath. 720 00:35:59,567 --> 00:36:02,800 I'm moving 700 pounds. It ain't easy. 721 00:36:03,700 --> 00:36:05,033 I know. 722 00:36:13,467 --> 00:36:17,800 You know, I am a little nervous to see Dr. Nowzaradan today. 723 00:36:17,867 --> 00:36:20,266 I certainly hope that I've lost enough weight. 724 00:36:20,266 --> 00:36:24,166 If I didn't lose enough weight I think he'll be mad at me 725 00:36:24,166 --> 00:36:25,460 and I hope he'll still let me have the surgery 726 00:36:25,460 --> 00:36:26,867 and I hope he'll still let me have the surgery 727 00:36:26,867 --> 00:36:29,000 cause I desperately need this. 728 00:36:32,166 --> 00:36:34,066 [Wess] I know I haven't been perfect everyday 729 00:36:34,066 --> 00:36:36,166 and I've strayed off the diet more than once. 730 00:36:36,166 --> 00:36:38,066 But almost everyday I was good. 731 00:36:38,066 --> 00:36:39,467 I didn't compromise or cheat. 732 00:36:39,467 --> 00:36:41,500 And I know I worked hard on my exercises 733 00:36:41,567 --> 00:36:44,166 because my stamina is much better now. 734 00:36:44,166 --> 00:36:46,800 I'm feeling as good as I felt in a long time. 735 00:37:28,900 --> 00:37:29,767 Wess? 736 00:37:33,266 --> 00:37:34,867 -Hello. -How are you? 737 00:37:34,867 --> 00:37:36,867 -[Wess] How are you? -[indistinct conversation] 738 00:37:48,767 --> 00:37:50,667 [Wess] I know I'm getting better. 739 00:37:50,667 --> 00:37:52,367 I just don't know if my progress 740 00:37:52,367 --> 00:37:54,200 is fast enough for Dr. Now. 741 00:37:58,100 --> 00:37:59,867 And there is only one way to find out. 742 00:38:14,266 --> 00:38:17,567 [Wess] I'm at Dr. Nowzaradan's clinic for my first follow up 743 00:38:17,567 --> 00:38:20,667 to see if I've lost enough weight for him to move forward with me. 744 00:38:22,266 --> 00:38:24,000 At my last appointment, 745 00:38:24,066 --> 00:38:27,200 I was 705 pounds. 746 00:38:27,266 --> 00:38:30,567 Dr. Now told me to lose 100 pounds in two months 747 00:38:30,567 --> 00:38:32,700 to get down to 605 today. 748 00:38:35,367 --> 00:38:35,449 [woman] Your weight is 695. 749 00:38:35,449 --> 00:38:37,066 [woman] Your weight is 695. 750 00:38:43,800 --> 00:38:45,867 [Wess] That's really disappointing. 751 00:38:45,867 --> 00:38:47,500 Okay. We'll be going to room five. 752 00:38:47,567 --> 00:38:49,033 Thank you. 753 00:38:49,967 --> 00:38:52,967 [Wess] I really thought I had done much better than that. 754 00:38:52,967 --> 00:38:56,467 And the fact that I haven't is very discouraging. 755 00:38:56,467 --> 00:38:59,266 And frankly, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do 756 00:38:59,266 --> 00:39:02,066 because that was as hard as I knew how to work. 757 00:39:20,867 --> 00:39:22,600 [breathing heavily] 758 00:39:26,367 --> 00:39:27,500 -Hello. -Hello. 759 00:39:27,567 --> 00:39:28,900 How are you doing? 760 00:39:28,900 --> 00:39:30,467 -[Wess] Good. How are you doing? -[Rick] Good, ow are you? 761 00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:33,967 All right. So, Wess, 762 00:39:33,967 --> 00:39:35,449 at 695. In two months you only lost a whole 10 pound of weight. 763 00:39:35,449 --> 00:39:40,300 at 695. In two months you only lost a whole 10 pound of weight. 764 00:39:40,367 --> 00:39:42,100 -[Wess] Yes, sir. -So, what's going on with that? 765 00:39:42,100 --> 00:39:44,667 Guess I didn't follow the diet correctly. I don't know. 766 00:39:44,667 --> 00:39:48,767 That's all I can say, is I didn't follow the best of the way I could have. 767 00:39:48,767 --> 00:39:52,500 In what way? Tell me what you did that you shouldn't have. 768 00:39:52,567 --> 00:39:54,100 There's been a couple of days 769 00:39:54,166 --> 00:39:55,800 that I have cheated on my diet. 770 00:39:55,867 --> 00:39:57,567 I will admit that. 771 00:39:57,567 --> 00:39:59,467 Several days that I have cheated on my diet. 772 00:39:59,467 --> 00:40:02,600 So, I already explained the danger 773 00:40:02,667 --> 00:40:05,166 if you stay at the weight you are in. 774 00:40:05,166 --> 00:40:05,449 So, what are you waiting for? 775 00:40:05,449 --> 00:40:06,867 So, what are you waiting for? 776 00:40:06,867 --> 00:40:08,467 I don't have... 777 00:40:08,467 --> 00:40:10,300 I don't know what to say other than 778 00:40:11,100 --> 00:40:12,000 I messed up. 779 00:40:12,567 --> 00:40:13,667 And all I can do is... 780 00:40:15,667 --> 00:40:16,667 try harder. 781 00:40:16,700 --> 00:40:19,467 Why didn't you do it already? What happened? 782 00:40:19,467 --> 00:40:22,266 [stutters] I'm telling you I didn't stick with the diet. 783 00:40:22,266 --> 00:40:23,266 You asked me what happened. 784 00:40:23,266 --> 00:40:24,667 I'm telling you I didn't stick with the diet. 785 00:40:24,667 --> 00:40:26,867 What's the purpose of coming and telling me that? 786 00:40:28,800 --> 00:40:30,266 To hold me accountable. 787 00:40:30,266 --> 00:40:32,300 So, you want me to be the one 788 00:40:32,367 --> 00:40:34,100 to motivate you to lose weight 789 00:40:34,166 --> 00:40:35,449 and keep you from gaining? 790 00:40:35,449 --> 00:40:35,667 and keep you from gaining? 791 00:40:35,667 --> 00:40:37,300 Do I need to call you everyday 792 00:40:37,367 --> 00:40:40,266 and ask you please follow the diet so you can live? 793 00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:42,000 No, sir. 794 00:40:42,066 --> 00:40:43,600 I guess I need... 795 00:40:44,667 --> 00:40:47,867 I need it... How do I say this? 796 00:40:47,867 --> 00:40:51,500 I need it in my face. Does that make sense? 797 00:40:51,567 --> 00:40:52,567 I need it like... 798 00:40:52,567 --> 00:40:55,166 I get what you're saying but if you depend on me 799 00:40:55,166 --> 00:40:58,300 to make a difference then you are never gonna succeed. 800 00:40:58,367 --> 00:41:00,066 You have to motivate yourself 801 00:41:00,066 --> 00:41:02,367 to want to do this, you know, to save your life. 802 00:41:02,367 --> 00:41:05,449 But this is your life and your future. 803 00:41:05,449 --> 00:41:06,000 But this is your life and your future. 804 00:41:06,000 --> 00:41:07,367 And you have to decide 805 00:41:07,367 --> 00:41:10,367 if it is worth more to you than food. 806 00:41:10,367 --> 00:41:12,000 It is. 807 00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:14,500 I am happy that I'm losing some weight. 808 00:41:14,567 --> 00:41:15,567 It's not enough. 809 00:41:16,667 --> 00:41:20,266 Um, it needs to be more. 810 00:41:20,266 --> 00:41:24,100 But I am happy that I have lost even 10 pounds at this point. 811 00:41:24,100 --> 00:41:27,266 Well, you know, you need some perfecting on that. 812 00:41:27,266 --> 00:41:29,867 If you lose at this rate, five pounds a month, 813 00:41:29,867 --> 00:41:32,767 then it's gonna take 10 years to get your weight down. 814 00:41:34,066 --> 00:41:35,449 That's never gonna happen. 815 00:41:35,449 --> 00:41:36,166 That's never gonna happen. 816 00:41:36,166 --> 00:41:38,000 You know, you're not gonna stick with that. 817 00:41:38,066 --> 00:41:39,900 And you're gonna start to gain again 818 00:41:39,967 --> 00:41:41,667 and you won't survive that long. 819 00:41:41,667 --> 00:41:43,400 So, it's good that you are losing 820 00:41:43,400 --> 00:41:47,400 but you need to understand you're still not doing what you need to save your life. 821 00:41:47,467 --> 00:41:48,467 -[Wess] Yes, sir. -Okay? 822 00:41:48,467 --> 00:41:51,266 So, are you happy that at least you're losing 823 00:41:51,266 --> 00:41:54,467 because your expectation is that you should be gaining weight, right? 824 00:41:54,467 --> 00:41:55,367 Yes, sir. 825 00:41:55,367 --> 00:41:59,066 Okay. That is a destructive mindset 826 00:41:59,066 --> 00:42:00,667 that you need to get out of. 827 00:42:00,667 --> 00:42:05,449 So 10 pound, you can lose 10 pound in two days. 828 00:42:05,449 --> 00:42:05,767 So 10 pound, you can lose 10 pound in two days. 829 00:42:05,767 --> 00:42:08,600 At your weight that's nothing, okay? 830 00:42:08,667 --> 00:42:13,100 So, you're still overeating around 6,500 calories a day. 831 00:42:13,100 --> 00:42:16,266 If you stick to 1,200 calorie a day diet, 832 00:42:16,266 --> 00:42:19,900 you're gonna lose at least two to five pounds a day now. 833 00:42:19,967 --> 00:42:21,467 -Mm-hmm. -Okay? 834 00:42:21,467 --> 00:42:24,700 So, this is gonna be a positive thing for you. 835 00:42:24,767 --> 00:42:28,700 And so that is a optimistic way of looking at it that 836 00:42:28,767 --> 00:42:30,467 you lost 10 pounds in two months. 837 00:42:30,467 --> 00:42:33,967 But then in reality, you are 700 pound 838 00:42:33,967 --> 00:42:35,449 and it seems like you're taking this very casually. 839 00:42:35,449 --> 00:42:36,900 and it seems like you're taking this very casually. 840 00:42:36,967 --> 00:42:42,667 So, this is a situation that you're gonna have to do your part to lose weight. 841 00:42:42,667 --> 00:42:45,000 -Yes. -[Dr. Now] Okay? Work hard for it. 842 00:42:46,166 --> 00:42:48,467 So, if you don't wanna work hard for it 843 00:42:48,467 --> 00:42:52,100 and you wanna have that surgery done to lose weight, 844 00:42:52,166 --> 00:42:55,367 that's gonna have to take some work from you. 845 00:42:55,367 --> 00:42:59,166 And it's gonna be determination, sticking with your diet, 846 00:42:59,166 --> 00:43:01,467 doing your part and all that. 847 00:43:01,800 --> 00:43:02,667 Yes, sir. 848 00:43:02,667 --> 00:43:03,900 -Okay? -Okay. 849 00:43:05,100 --> 00:43:05,449 So I'm gonna give you another two months to lose 90 pounds 850 00:43:05,449 --> 00:43:08,166 So I'm gonna give you another two months to lose 90 pounds 851 00:43:08,166 --> 00:43:09,300 that you still owe me 852 00:43:09,367 --> 00:43:12,367 and if you don't make the changes, 853 00:43:12,367 --> 00:43:15,400 and if you're not able to lose the weight, 854 00:43:16,400 --> 00:43:18,867 then the surgery is out of question for you. 855 00:43:18,867 --> 00:43:20,066 Yes, sir. 856 00:43:20,100 --> 00:43:23,200 But in two months, if you haven't lost any weight, 857 00:43:23,266 --> 00:43:25,800 there's no point in coming back and telling me that 858 00:43:25,867 --> 00:43:27,200 you didn't follow the diet. 859 00:43:27,266 --> 00:43:28,166 Yes, sir. 860 00:43:28,166 --> 00:43:29,367 -[Dr. Now] Okay? -Okay. 861 00:43:29,367 --> 00:43:32,467 But if you lose that then we can work with you. 862 00:43:33,367 --> 00:43:35,000 -All right? -Yes, sir. 863 00:43:35,000 --> 00:43:35,449 So, at this point, it's all up to you. 864 00:43:35,449 --> 00:43:37,367 So, at this point, it's all up to you. 865 00:43:37,367 --> 00:43:38,800 Yes, sir. 866 00:43:38,867 --> 00:43:41,066 Dad, have you been helping him? 867 00:43:41,066 --> 00:43:45,367 Well, I know that Wess wants to lose the weight. 868 00:43:45,367 --> 00:43:48,200 I think that maybe I need to help him a little bit more 869 00:43:48,266 --> 00:43:51,367 and be more, you know, push him a little bit. 870 00:43:51,367 --> 00:43:55,600 I'm gonna have to step in and help I think. 871 00:43:55,667 --> 00:43:57,000 Well, you know, that's good. 872 00:43:57,066 --> 00:43:59,867 But no matter what, it is Wess's responsibility 873 00:43:59,867 --> 00:44:02,700 to be proactive and have control over 874 00:44:02,767 --> 00:44:04,767 his eating habits. Okay? 875 00:44:05,800 --> 00:44:08,567 So, Wess, stick with the healthy eating habit 876 00:44:08,567 --> 00:44:10,967 and we're gonna see how you're doing in two months. 877 00:44:10,967 --> 00:44:11,867 Yes, sir. 878 00:44:11,867 --> 00:44:13,166 -Okay? -Okay. 879 00:44:13,166 --> 00:44:14,266 Any questions? 880 00:44:14,266 --> 00:44:16,000 No, sir, thank you. 881 00:44:16,066 --> 00:44:18,500 Okay. You're gonna have to eventually deal 882 00:44:18,567 --> 00:44:21,767 with your emotional issues behind your overeating. 883 00:44:21,767 --> 00:44:24,100 But right now you have to take the first step 884 00:44:24,100 --> 00:44:26,967 and show me that you're willing to work on this. 885 00:44:26,967 --> 00:44:30,567 If you are then we'll give you the tools to keep you going. 886 00:44:30,567 --> 00:44:33,767 But if not then nothing we do will last for you. 887 00:44:33,767 --> 00:44:35,300 So, you have to do this. 888 00:44:35,867 --> 00:44:37,266 -Okay? -All right. 889 00:44:37,266 --> 00:44:40,200 All right. We're gonna see how we do next time when we see you. 890 00:44:40,266 --> 00:44:41,166 Okay. 891 00:44:41,166 --> 00:44:42,967 And if you need anything let me know. 892 00:44:42,967 --> 00:44:44,967 -Thank you. -All right. See you in two months. 893 00:44:44,967 --> 00:44:46,367 -[Wess] All right. Thank you. -Okay. 894 00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:55,467 What do you think? 895 00:44:55,467 --> 00:44:57,100 I think I got my ass handed to me. 896 00:44:57,166 --> 00:44:59,500 [laughs] Well, I know that. 897 00:44:59,567 --> 00:45:03,500 Wess doesn't seem to believe the reality of his situation 898 00:45:03,567 --> 00:45:05,449 and how dangerous it is for him to continue at this weight. 899 00:45:05,449 --> 00:45:07,467 and how dangerous it is for him to continue at this weight. 900 00:45:07,467 --> 00:45:11,166 So, he's still choosing food over his life and dreams. 901 00:45:11,166 --> 00:45:13,100 But if he doesn't wake up right now 902 00:45:13,166 --> 00:45:15,000 and start doing what he needs, 903 00:45:15,000 --> 00:45:19,867 then it's not gonna be long before everything I'm warning him of starts to happen 904 00:45:19,867 --> 00:45:22,467 and once he does, he's gonna be out of time. 905 00:45:22,467 --> 00:45:24,367 So, the clock is ticking for him 906 00:45:24,367 --> 00:45:27,967 and if he doesn't want to get to a point of no return, 907 00:45:27,967 --> 00:45:30,900 he has to take responsibility for his life 908 00:45:30,967 --> 00:45:32,500 and actions now. 909 00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:39,600 [Wess] I think Dr. Now did what I needed. 910 00:45:39,667 --> 00:45:42,266 I think it was a shock to my system. 911 00:45:42,266 --> 00:45:44,667 I have to remind myself that 912 00:45:44,667 --> 00:45:46,400 it comes from a place of caring. 913 00:45:46,467 --> 00:45:48,300 People don't get to be 700 pounds 914 00:45:48,367 --> 00:45:51,266 without living in a world of their own creating, 915 00:45:51,266 --> 00:45:53,900 without being able to deny reality. Right? 916 00:45:53,967 --> 00:45:56,700 They don't get to be this size without having enablers in their life. 917 00:45:57,667 --> 00:46:00,900 Dr. Now has to be that person 918 00:46:00,967 --> 00:46:03,100 that pulls them out of that 919 00:46:03,100 --> 00:46:05,449 false world they have and brings them to reality. 920 00:46:05,449 --> 00:46:05,900 false world they have and brings them to reality. 921 00:46:05,967 --> 00:46:09,166 And he does that because he doesn't wanna see them hurt. 922 00:46:09,166 --> 00:46:12,100 He doesn't wanna see them die. He wants them to live. 923 00:46:12,100 --> 00:46:13,400 And I'm not blaming anybody else. 924 00:46:13,467 --> 00:46:15,400 It is my fault that I got this size. 925 00:46:43,567 --> 00:46:46,667 [Wess] It's been a month since my follow up with Dr. Now. 926 00:46:46,667 --> 00:46:48,700 And in many ways, that appointment 927 00:46:48,767 --> 00:46:51,266 was a bigger wakeup call than my first one 928 00:46:51,266 --> 00:46:51,403 because I am finally trying to turn my life around. 929 00:46:51,403 --> 00:46:55,200 because I am finally trying to turn my life around. 930 00:46:55,266 --> 00:46:57,300 And I thought I was doing better. 931 00:46:57,367 --> 00:47:00,700 But then to see that I had only lost 10 pounds, 932 00:47:00,767 --> 00:47:02,266 I was mortified. 933 00:47:02,266 --> 00:47:04,300 I know I have to do a lot better than that 934 00:47:04,367 --> 00:47:06,667 and I'm determined to make sure that I do. 935 00:47:06,667 --> 00:47:09,367 I don't want another repeat when I go back to Dr. Now 936 00:47:09,367 --> 00:47:11,500 and have the same lousy progress. 937 00:47:13,266 --> 00:47:14,767 I can't disappoint him like that. 938 00:47:15,767 --> 00:47:17,000 That look he gives you, 939 00:47:17,066 --> 00:47:19,367 you don't ever wanna get that look. 940 00:47:19,367 --> 00:47:20,700 [laughing] 941 00:47:21,600 --> 00:47:22,900 Once was enough. 942 00:47:26,100 --> 00:47:28,667 So, I am taking responsibility for myself. 943 00:47:28,667 --> 00:47:31,367 I am not looking for anyone else to motivate me. 944 00:47:31,367 --> 00:47:32,567 I heard him tell my dad 945 00:47:32,567 --> 00:47:34,567 that it's not his responsibility 946 00:47:34,567 --> 00:47:38,166 or anyone else's to make me do what I need to do. 947 00:47:38,166 --> 00:47:41,100 The way he was checking on me everyday 948 00:47:41,166 --> 00:47:43,567 was only gonna be for a couple of months 949 00:47:43,567 --> 00:47:47,467 until I lost the weight I needed to for the surgery. 950 00:47:47,467 --> 00:47:49,767 And I didn't do that. So that's on me. 951 00:47:49,767 --> 00:47:51,403 My dad shouldn't have to keep bearing the responsibility for that. 952 00:47:51,403 --> 00:47:53,100 My dad shouldn't have to keep bearing the responsibility for that. 953 00:47:53,100 --> 00:47:55,767 And other people in my family need him too. 954 00:47:55,767 --> 00:47:57,266 So, I told my dad this is something 955 00:47:57,266 --> 00:47:59,200 I need to do on my own. 956 00:47:59,266 --> 00:48:01,700 I need to be the one to make the changes 957 00:48:01,767 --> 00:48:03,266 like Dr. Now said. 958 00:48:03,266 --> 00:48:05,166 I'm sticking to the program. 959 00:48:05,166 --> 00:48:07,367 It's kicking my butt but I'm still doing it 960 00:48:07,367 --> 00:48:09,900 and I'm doing all the exercises each day. 961 00:48:18,367 --> 00:48:19,867 And more importantly, 962 00:48:19,867 --> 00:48:21,403 I've cut back on my eating a whole lot more. 963 00:48:21,403 --> 00:48:23,367 I've cut back on my eating a whole lot more. 964 00:48:23,367 --> 00:48:25,667 Close to 1,200 calories a day. 965 00:48:25,667 --> 00:48:28,400 I stay away from sugar, carbs 966 00:48:28,467 --> 00:48:30,967 and there's been no cheating with that at all. 967 00:48:30,967 --> 00:48:34,467 It's hard but I've stuck to it with the whole month. 968 00:48:34,467 --> 00:48:36,867 I plan to stick with it for the next month too 969 00:48:36,867 --> 00:48:41,100 and way beyond because I'm serious about this. 970 00:48:41,166 --> 00:48:44,000 And I really hope when I go back to see Dr. Now in a month 971 00:48:44,066 --> 00:48:46,800 that the scale says I'm serious too. 972 00:48:55,767 --> 00:48:58,467 [Wess] Well, we're headed back to Dr. Now's again. 973 00:48:58,467 --> 00:49:00,166 I am really, really nervous 974 00:49:00,166 --> 00:49:03,767 because a lot is riding on what the scale has to say. 975 00:49:03,767 --> 00:49:06,867 I can't mess it up again like I did last time. 976 00:49:06,867 --> 00:49:10,367 And I've worked extra hard to make sure it's gonna be different today. 977 00:49:10,367 --> 00:49:12,367 I know if I haven't lost enough weight this time, 978 00:49:12,367 --> 00:49:14,166 I'm gonna be really screwed 979 00:49:14,166 --> 00:49:15,767 because I've done everything I could 980 00:49:15,767 --> 00:49:17,467 possibly do this time around. 981 00:49:48,300 --> 00:49:49,400 Next. 982 00:49:50,400 --> 00:49:51,403 [Wess] At my last weigh in, I was 694 pounds 983 00:49:51,403 --> 00:49:53,700 [Wess] At my last weigh in, I was 694 pounds 984 00:49:53,767 --> 00:49:56,266 and Dr. Now said I had to lose 90 pounds 985 00:49:56,266 --> 00:49:57,567 in two months. 986 00:50:02,667 --> 00:50:06,400 And if I did that, I'd be down to at least 604 today. 987 00:50:25,667 --> 00:50:27,166 That's good. 988 00:50:27,166 --> 00:50:29,367 -Well... -Going down. 989 00:50:29,367 --> 00:50:32,000 -It's there-- it's something. -[both laughing] 990 00:50:34,000 --> 00:50:35,000 Thank you. 991 00:50:36,066 --> 00:50:38,000 [Wess] That feels really good, 992 00:50:38,066 --> 00:50:41,467 I've never lost that much weight in my entire life 993 00:50:42,767 --> 00:50:44,867 and I'm really proud of myself for doing that. 994 00:50:46,300 --> 00:50:48,567 I just really hope that Dr. Now, 995 00:50:48,567 --> 00:50:51,403 can look past the fact that I was a couple of pounds short of my goal. 996 00:50:51,403 --> 00:50:51,767 can look past the fact that I was a couple of pounds short of my goal. 997 00:51:06,800 --> 00:51:08,166 [knock on door] 998 00:51:11,567 --> 00:51:13,867 Hello, how are you all doing? 999 00:51:13,867 --> 00:51:15,367 -Hello. -[Rick] Good. How are you? 1000 00:51:15,367 --> 00:51:16,700 I'm good, thank you. 1001 00:51:17,200 --> 00:51:18,767 All right, Wess. 1002 00:51:18,767 --> 00:51:21,403 So, it looks like you figured out what to do, to lose some weight, right? 1003 00:51:21,403 --> 00:51:21,600 So, it looks like you figured out what to do, to lose some weight, right? 1004 00:51:22,066 --> 00:51:23,066 Yes, sir. 1005 00:51:23,066 --> 00:51:25,100 So you're down to 606? 1006 00:51:25,467 --> 00:51:26,567 Yes, sir. 1007 00:51:26,567 --> 00:51:29,367 So you lost 100 lbs like you needed. 1008 00:51:29,367 --> 00:51:30,934 Yes, sir. 1009 00:51:30,934 --> 00:51:33,600 You kicked my butt last time I was here, I didn't want to do that again. 1010 00:51:33,667 --> 00:51:36,266 -You're right. -[laughing] 1011 00:51:36,266 --> 00:51:38,667 So we'll go ahead then and approve you for surgery. 1012 00:51:38,667 --> 00:51:40,100 -Thank you. -Okay? 1013 00:51:40,100 --> 00:51:41,300 [Rick] Cool. 1014 00:51:41,367 --> 00:51:44,266 So, we're gonna set you up for surgery for next month 1015 00:51:44,266 --> 00:51:46,567 and until then, continue to lose weight. 1016 00:51:46,567 --> 00:51:47,900 -Okay. -'Cause if you go to the hospital 1017 00:51:47,967 --> 00:51:49,600 and you haven't lost any weight, 1018 00:51:49,667 --> 00:51:50,867 we're gonna send you home. 1019 00:51:50,867 --> 00:51:51,403 Yeah. [laughing] 1020 00:51:51,403 --> 00:51:52,367 Yeah. [laughing] 1021 00:51:52,367 --> 00:51:54,100 -Okay? -Yes, sir. 1022 00:51:54,100 --> 00:51:59,400 All right. Also, continue to work on your exercises too, don't forget about those. 1023 00:51:59,467 --> 00:52:02,367 And see if you can improve your stamina, okay? 1024 00:52:02,367 --> 00:52:03,967 -Okay, I'll do it. -All right then. 1025 00:52:03,967 --> 00:52:05,900 -Any questions? -No, sir. 1026 00:52:05,967 --> 00:52:08,900 All right, I'm proud of your progress, so keep it up, 1027 00:52:08,967 --> 00:52:10,166 until the surgery. 1028 00:52:10,166 --> 00:52:11,467 -Okay? -Yes, sir. 1029 00:52:11,467 --> 00:52:13,000 Thank you for everything. 1030 00:52:13,000 --> 00:52:15,367 -You're welcome. -[Rick] Thank you, doc. 1031 00:52:21,300 --> 00:52:21,403 I'm very happy to see that Wess got serious about his health and his life 1032 00:52:21,403 --> 00:52:26,166 I'm very happy to see that Wess got serious about his health and his life 1033 00:52:26,166 --> 00:52:29,767 and start taking responsibility for his choices. 1034 00:52:29,767 --> 00:52:32,266 He's taken the first step and shown me, 1035 00:52:32,266 --> 00:52:35,800 he's willing to work, to do what he needs to improve his life. 1036 00:52:35,867 --> 00:52:38,667 So we can move ahead with him and give him more tools, 1037 00:52:38,667 --> 00:52:40,166 to help him get healthy. 1038 00:52:40,166 --> 00:52:42,100 He still has a long road ahead 1039 00:52:42,100 --> 00:52:45,367 but weight loss surgery is going to be an important step 1040 00:52:45,367 --> 00:52:47,400 that will help him get to his goal. 1041 00:52:47,467 --> 00:52:50,166 But the real hard work is still ahead for him. 1042 00:52:50,166 --> 00:52:51,403 So, it's not time for him to let up at all, 1043 00:52:51,403 --> 00:52:52,700 So, it's not time for him to let up at all, 1044 00:52:52,767 --> 00:52:56,266 he needs to keep working hard and do everything he needs. 1045 00:52:56,266 --> 00:53:00,500 If he expects to succeed and improve his health for the long term. 1046 00:53:01,367 --> 00:53:03,200 I got approved for my surgery. 1047 00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:09,634 [Wess] I am elated, 1048 00:53:09,634 --> 00:53:15,000 I-- Words cannot describe how I feel, I think I'm in shock right now. 1049 00:53:15,066 --> 00:53:17,767 When I came last time, those numbers were a wakeup call. 1050 00:53:21,200 --> 00:53:21,403 With such a world of delusion, that I was living in, 1051 00:53:21,403 --> 00:53:23,867 With such a world of delusion, that I was living in, 1052 00:53:23,867 --> 00:53:26,367 I vowed to myself that was never gonna happen again. 1053 00:53:29,567 --> 00:53:33,400 So I'm not gonna let myself do anything to waste this chance. 1054 00:53:57,367 --> 00:53:58,667 Bye. 1055 00:53:58,667 --> 00:54:00,066 I'll see you when you get out. 1056 00:54:02,100 --> 00:54:03,667 [laughs] Bye. 1057 00:54:05,500 --> 00:54:07,667 -I love you. -I love you too, bye. 1058 00:54:12,600 --> 00:54:17,000 I am feeling trepidacious, I guess the best word to describe it. 1059 00:54:17,066 --> 00:54:19,166 I'm anxious, I'm excited, 1060 00:54:20,367 --> 00:54:22,600 nervous, it's scary. 1061 00:54:22,667 --> 00:54:25,000 You know the unknown is scary, plus... 1062 00:54:25,000 --> 00:54:28,800 You know I think at the end of the day, this represents a change 1063 00:54:28,867 --> 00:54:30,500 and this is a culmination of, 1064 00:54:30,567 --> 00:54:35,166 everything that I have been scared to dream about for years now. 1065 00:54:35,166 --> 00:54:37,667 I finally decided to commit to that and do it 1066 00:54:37,667 --> 00:54:39,174 and this is like, gonna make it real. 1067 00:54:39,174 --> 00:54:40,567 and this is like, gonna make it real. 1068 00:54:40,567 --> 00:54:45,100 And for someone who tends to always expect the worst, 1069 00:54:45,100 --> 00:54:48,300 of something to happen, this is a challenge to fight that, 1070 00:54:48,367 --> 00:54:50,200 monster in your head of anxiety 1071 00:54:50,266 --> 00:54:52,066 and that's what I'm dealing with right now. 1072 00:55:02,000 --> 00:55:04,800 [Dr. Now] Today we're gonna do a sleeve gastrectomy on Wess. 1073 00:55:04,867 --> 00:55:08,367 He continued to lose weight and he's down to 582, 1074 00:55:08,367 --> 00:55:09,174 so he lost another 24 lbs, this past month. 1075 00:55:09,174 --> 00:55:11,767 so he lost another 24 lbs, this past month. 1076 00:55:11,767 --> 00:55:15,166 So, he's working hard and he's ready for this operation. 1077 00:55:15,166 --> 00:55:17,467 But this is a very risky surgery 1078 00:55:17,467 --> 00:55:21,667 because doing surgery on somebody that size is still very risky. 1079 00:55:21,667 --> 00:55:25,300 If we have any issues with anesthesia, with the blood pressure 1080 00:55:25,367 --> 00:55:26,567 or oxygen saturation, 1081 00:55:26,567 --> 00:55:28,867 then we may have to stop the surgery. 1082 00:55:28,867 --> 00:55:30,367 Okay, let's begin. 1083 00:55:34,767 --> 00:55:36,000 [indistinct] 1084 00:55:41,166 --> 00:55:42,300 [Dr. Now] Go up. 1085 00:55:44,266 --> 00:55:45,667 Look at that... 1086 00:55:46,567 --> 00:55:47,767 [Dr. Now] Hold it there. 1087 00:55:50,467 --> 00:55:51,767 Bring the robot. 1088 00:55:51,767 --> 00:55:54,467 But if we are able to complete the surgery, 1089 00:55:54,467 --> 00:55:58,166 it's gonna be a great help for him to be able to lose weight. 1090 00:55:59,100 --> 00:56:01,767 [robot] Dock the remaining arms. 1091 00:56:01,767 --> 00:56:05,967 [Dr. Now] All right. I'm gonna transition to robot. 1092 00:56:05,967 --> 00:56:08,767 Because we're doing an operation that we're gonna take almost 1093 00:56:08,767 --> 00:56:09,174 about 80 percent of the stomach out 1094 00:56:09,174 --> 00:56:10,800 about 80 percent of the stomach out 1095 00:56:10,867 --> 00:56:14,900 and leave him with a small narrow 20 percent stomach volume 1096 00:56:14,967 --> 00:56:18,500 that is gonna help him to eat less and be able to lose more weight. 1097 00:56:24,900 --> 00:56:26,000 [machine beeps] 1098 00:56:29,166 --> 00:56:30,367 [machine beeps] 1099 00:56:39,300 --> 00:56:40,867 Do that again for me. 1100 00:56:40,867 --> 00:56:41,900 [indistinct conversation] 1101 00:56:43,700 --> 00:56:46,266 I'm a little anxious, 1102 00:56:46,266 --> 00:56:49,467 to see how, how it goes, to see how he does. 1103 00:56:49,467 --> 00:56:53,000 It must have been hard for him, you know, of course, 1104 00:56:53,000 --> 00:56:56,867 it's been hard for him to get around, to just be-- live a normal life. 1105 00:56:58,266 --> 00:57:00,166 But it's fixing to get better. 1106 00:57:00,700 --> 00:57:02,367 I am very hopeful 1107 00:57:02,367 --> 00:57:06,700 and I think it will, because it took a lot... on Wess, 1108 00:57:06,767 --> 00:57:09,174 you know, on Wess's part, to even be here. 1109 00:57:09,174 --> 00:57:10,066 you know, on Wess's part, to even be here. 1110 00:57:14,700 --> 00:57:17,700 [Dr. Now] Okay, we're removing the detached portion. 1111 00:57:18,767 --> 00:57:20,166 It's big, isn't it? 1112 00:57:25,667 --> 00:57:27,467 Keep pulling, keep pulling. Keep pulling. 1113 00:57:28,100 --> 00:57:29,000 All right. 1114 00:57:32,166 --> 00:57:33,166 Got it. 1115 00:57:34,000 --> 00:57:36,367 He had a long stomach. Huh? 1116 00:57:36,367 --> 00:57:38,300 -[assistant] Mm. -Put that on the table over there. 1117 00:57:39,367 --> 00:57:41,467 [digital beeping] 1118 00:57:44,867 --> 00:57:46,700 Okay, we can suture him up. 1119 00:58:02,100 --> 00:58:04,500 Wess's surgery went very well. 1120 00:58:04,567 --> 00:58:07,767 Luckily, we didn't have any issue with the surgery 1121 00:58:07,767 --> 00:58:09,174 and we were able to complete gastric sleeve on him. 1122 00:58:09,174 --> 00:58:10,700 and we were able to complete gastric sleeve on him. 1123 00:58:10,767 --> 00:58:14,467 And after this operation, he's gonna be able to lose more weight 1124 00:58:14,467 --> 00:58:19,100 and it's gonna be much easier for him to be able to control his eating habit. 1125 00:58:19,166 --> 00:58:21,767 He's gonna be on a liquid diet for the next month 1126 00:58:21,767 --> 00:58:24,567 and be able to lose 40 lbs in the first month, 1127 00:58:24,567 --> 00:58:26,767 and after that, 25 lbs a month, 1128 00:58:26,767 --> 00:58:30,200 and each month, until he gets closer to his ideal body weight. 1129 00:58:30,266 --> 00:58:33,100 This was an important step for Wess today, 1130 00:58:33,100 --> 00:58:36,166 but he still has a lot of work to do to get to his goal. 1131 00:58:36,166 --> 00:58:39,174 Wess has a big lipo lymphedema masses in both thigh 1132 00:58:39,174 --> 00:58:40,000 Wess has a big lipo lymphedema masses in both thigh 1133 00:58:40,066 --> 00:58:42,567 and one side is much bigger than the other one, 1134 00:58:42,567 --> 00:58:45,967 as he loses some weight we're gonna have to remove those for him, 1135 00:58:45,967 --> 00:58:47,767 to get that lymphedema corrected. 1136 00:58:47,767 --> 00:58:50,266 But the most important thing is that he's gonna have 1137 00:58:50,266 --> 00:58:53,000 to start to deal with his emotional issues, 1138 00:58:53,066 --> 00:58:54,567 that driving him to eat, 1139 00:58:54,567 --> 00:58:57,266 or it's gonna be just a matter of time 1140 00:58:57,266 --> 00:58:59,400 before he's starts to overeat again. 1141 00:58:59,467 --> 00:59:03,266 So, we will start him going to therapy soon, to keep him on track. 1142 00:59:03,266 --> 00:59:05,400 But at this point, he's doing very well 1143 00:59:05,467 --> 00:59:08,000 and hopefully, next 12 to 18 months, 1144 00:59:08,000 --> 00:59:09,174 he's gonna be very close to his ideal body weight. 1145 00:59:09,174 --> 00:59:11,100 he's gonna be very close to his ideal body weight. 1146 00:59:11,100 --> 00:59:13,567 But he has a lot of work to do to get there. 1147 00:59:35,467 --> 00:59:36,867 Come on, let's go water. 1148 00:59:36,867 --> 00:59:39,166 Okay, let's go water. 1149 00:59:40,967 --> 00:59:44,900 [Wess] It's been a month since my weight loss surgery and I'm feeling really good. 1150 00:59:44,967 --> 00:59:47,467 -Do you wanna water, I'll hand you the water hose. -Yeah. 1151 00:59:50,367 --> 00:59:52,166 Need to water this one too. 1152 00:59:52,166 --> 00:59:53,667 [Wess] We'll do this one first. 1153 00:59:53,667 --> 00:59:56,000 [Wess] I went back to see Dr. Now, for my one month 1154 00:59:56,066 --> 00:59:58,166 post op follow up appointment. 1155 00:59:58,166 --> 01:00:02,567 Dr. Now cleared me to work out and do all my physical activity again. 1156 01:00:02,567 --> 01:00:04,567 So, I've actually been trying to get out and do more. 1157 01:00:06,367 --> 01:00:09,174 They're only making it because it gets shady half the day. 1158 01:00:09,174 --> 01:00:09,667 They're only making it because it gets shady half the day. 1159 01:00:09,667 --> 01:00:12,400 -Right. -Look at my asparagus, man. 1160 01:00:12,467 --> 01:00:14,567 [Wess] And I've lost 34 lbs since surgery, 1161 01:00:14,567 --> 01:00:16,100 which wasn't bad. 1162 01:00:16,100 --> 01:00:18,300 But Doc said it should be more like 40. 1163 01:00:20,100 --> 01:00:21,500 Straighten my hose out. 1164 01:00:21,500 --> 01:00:23,500 [Wess] So he was a little concerned and he told me, 1165 01:00:23,567 --> 01:00:27,667 that I needed to lose at least 25 lbs over the course of the next month 1166 01:00:27,667 --> 01:00:28,900 to stay on track. 1167 01:00:28,967 --> 01:00:31,000 About 15 more feet and I'll be good. 1168 01:00:34,600 --> 01:00:36,300 Done. 1169 01:00:36,300 --> 01:00:39,000 [Wess] And I don't want anything to slow down how much I should be losing. 1170 01:00:40,867 --> 01:00:42,800 Because I wanna keep making all the progress 1171 01:00:42,867 --> 01:00:45,200 I need with my weight loss and my stamina. 1172 01:00:47,667 --> 01:00:48,767 I need to go sit down. 1173 01:00:51,266 --> 01:00:53,300 So, I'm very happy I'm able to do this, 1174 01:00:53,367 --> 01:00:54,867 and spend some time with my dad, 1175 01:00:54,867 --> 01:00:58,266 doing something other than him helping me or looking after me. 1176 01:00:59,767 --> 01:01:01,367 Oh, I like to garden. 1177 01:01:01,367 --> 01:01:05,200 You reap your rewards you know, when you harvest your... 1178 01:01:05,266 --> 01:01:08,000 what you worked hard at all the spring and stuff. 1179 01:01:10,767 --> 01:01:13,900 [Rick] I feel sad to know that if he doesn't turn his life around that 1180 01:01:13,967 --> 01:01:15,166 he could die. 1181 01:01:15,166 --> 01:01:16,967 You know, that doesn't have to happen. 1182 01:01:18,100 --> 01:01:19,700 It'll work out for good for him, 1183 01:01:19,767 --> 01:01:23,000 it's just a matter of him putting his mind and doing it. 1184 01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:24,767 I can only do so much. 1185 01:01:24,767 --> 01:01:27,100 -What's this for? -Taste it. 1186 01:01:28,900 --> 01:01:31,667 I'll make you a deal, you take it home, chop it up and fry it. 1187 01:01:31,667 --> 01:01:33,567 You can't fry them, it's too hard. 1188 01:01:34,600 --> 01:01:36,000 [Wess] Stubborn old man. 1189 01:01:36,000 --> 01:01:37,266 [Rick laughs] 1190 01:01:58,567 --> 01:02:00,567 [Wess] I'm a little bit scared about my weigh-in today. 1191 01:02:02,567 --> 01:02:05,867 I really just want to stay on track and not disappoint Dr. Now, 1192 01:02:05,867 --> 01:02:08,800 so I'm hoping I lost what I should be losing. 1193 01:02:08,867 --> 01:02:11,200 I'm paying attention to what I eat and how much, 1194 01:02:11,266 --> 01:02:13,491 and making sure I'm not grazing or snacking throughout the day. 1195 01:02:13,491 --> 01:02:13,900 and making sure I'm not grazing or snacking throughout the day. 1196 01:02:15,166 --> 01:02:17,767 And I think I've been doing well enough but we'll see. 1197 01:02:35,100 --> 01:02:36,667 [door closes] 1198 01:02:44,667 --> 01:02:45,667 Wess. 1199 01:02:49,367 --> 01:02:51,100 Hello. How are you? 1200 01:02:51,100 --> 01:02:54,667 -How are you? -[sighs in relief] Glad I made it just past the rain. 1201 01:02:54,667 --> 01:02:56,467 -I see it's raining. -[Wess chuckles] 1202 01:02:58,100 --> 01:03:00,467 At my last appointment I was 548 1203 01:03:00,467 --> 01:03:03,767 and I'm supposed to be losing at least 25 lbs a month. 1204 01:03:03,767 --> 01:03:06,867 So, that means I should be down to 523 today. 1205 01:03:26,367 --> 01:03:27,166 Okay. 1206 01:03:30,567 --> 01:03:32,867 Okay. Pretty good, huh? 1207 01:03:34,000 --> 01:03:36,166 -Real good. -[chuckles] Yeah, let's go. 1208 01:03:36,166 --> 01:03:38,367 Okay, down the hall to the right, room five 1209 01:03:38,367 --> 01:03:40,166 -and I'll let the doctor know you're ready. Okay? -Thank you. 1210 01:03:41,867 --> 01:03:43,491 [Wess] That's not bad, but it's not 25, 1211 01:03:43,491 --> 01:03:43,867 [Wess] That's not bad, but it's not 25, 1212 01:03:43,867 --> 01:03:45,867 so I'm worried because I wanna stay on track 1213 01:03:45,867 --> 01:03:47,567 and be where I need to be right now. 1214 01:03:48,567 --> 01:03:49,900 And it doesn't look like I am. 1215 01:04:05,800 --> 01:04:06,900 [knock on door] 1216 01:04:11,066 --> 01:04:12,500 Hello. How are you all doing? 1217 01:04:12,567 --> 01:04:13,491 Good. How are you? 1218 01:04:13,491 --> 01:04:13,767 Good. How are you? 1219 01:04:14,767 --> 01:04:17,300 -You all doing okay? -I am, yes, sir. 1220 01:04:17,367 --> 01:04:20,667 All right. So how do you feel like your progress coming on? 1221 01:04:20,667 --> 01:04:23,667 I think it's doing pretty good I'm sticking to the diet. 1222 01:04:23,667 --> 01:04:25,166 Dad, how's he doing at home? 1223 01:04:25,166 --> 01:04:27,266 -Behaving? -Yeah, he's doing good. 1224 01:04:27,266 --> 01:04:29,200 -He's doing good. Are you happy with that? -I think he's doing good. 1225 01:04:29,266 --> 01:04:30,200 Oh, yeah. 1226 01:04:30,266 --> 01:04:33,500 All right, Wess. So, you're down to 530. 1227 01:04:33,567 --> 01:04:34,467 Yes, sir. 1228 01:04:34,467 --> 01:04:36,200 So you lost 18 pounds this month, 1229 01:04:36,266 --> 01:04:40,266 which isn't bad but you should be losing at least 25 lbs a month, 1230 01:04:40,266 --> 01:04:42,100 this soon after weight loss surgery. 1231 01:04:42,166 --> 01:04:43,491 And so, you must be grazing a little during the day huh? 1232 01:04:43,491 --> 01:04:45,767 And so, you must be grazing a little during the day huh? 1233 01:04:47,066 --> 01:04:49,400 Hmm. No. 1234 01:04:49,467 --> 01:04:51,967 You may not realize it but you are. 1235 01:04:51,967 --> 01:04:54,100 The surgery will only prevent you 1236 01:04:54,166 --> 01:04:56,100 from eating too much at one time. 1237 01:04:56,166 --> 01:04:59,367 And get rid of your hunger and physical drive to eat, 1238 01:04:59,367 --> 01:05:03,100 but you can still eat a little at a time here and there 1239 01:05:03,100 --> 01:05:04,467 and that can add up. 1240 01:05:04,467 --> 01:05:07,700 And you're doing that because of emotional eating. 1241 01:05:07,767 --> 01:05:10,000 For somebody in your weight range that, 1242 01:05:10,066 --> 01:05:13,200 you started with, you have to have some emotional issues... 1243 01:05:13,266 --> 01:05:13,491 -Yes. -...that driving you to eating. 1244 01:05:13,491 --> 01:05:14,800 -Yes. -...that driving you to eating. 1245 01:05:14,800 --> 01:05:19,867 And after surgery, those emotional issues may come to surface even more. 1246 01:05:19,867 --> 01:05:22,567 So I think right now, is the appropriate time to get you 1247 01:05:22,567 --> 01:05:25,500 to a see a therapist and work on those issues. 1248 01:05:25,567 --> 01:05:28,000 -Yes, sir. -So, we'll have a long term result 1249 01:05:28,066 --> 01:05:29,667 with your weight loss surgery. 1250 01:05:29,667 --> 01:05:33,367 We don't want you to temporarily lose weight and gain it back, 1251 01:05:33,367 --> 01:05:36,100 because you go back to the same emotional issues 1252 01:05:36,100 --> 01:05:38,100 that drive you to eat like you did, till you get 1253 01:05:38,166 --> 01:05:40,166 to be over 700 lbs. 1254 01:05:40,166 --> 01:05:43,000 -Mmm-hmm. -This is going to be an important factor 1255 01:05:43,066 --> 01:05:43,491 for you to work with the therapist, 1256 01:05:43,491 --> 01:05:45,166 for you to work with the therapist, 1257 01:05:45,166 --> 01:05:46,900 to get everything under control. 1258 01:05:46,967 --> 01:05:48,166 -Yes, sir. -Okay? 1259 01:05:48,166 --> 01:05:51,166 In the meantime, if you need anything, give me a call. 1260 01:05:51,166 --> 01:05:52,800 -Yes, sir. -All right. 1261 01:05:52,867 --> 01:05:54,400 I'll see you all soon. 1262 01:05:54,467 --> 01:05:55,700 -Yes, sir. Thank you. -Thank you. 1263 01:06:02,667 --> 01:06:05,767 Overall I think Wess is doing well right now. 1264 01:06:05,767 --> 01:06:07,900 His weight loss is a little slow 1265 01:06:07,967 --> 01:06:09,667 and my concern is that 1266 01:06:09,667 --> 01:06:13,491 that is a crack in the foundation we need to pay attention to. 1267 01:06:13,491 --> 01:06:13,767 that is a crack in the foundation we need to pay attention to. 1268 01:06:13,767 --> 01:06:17,767 Anyone who's made it to Wess's size is eating compulsively. 1269 01:06:17,767 --> 01:06:21,166 Because of emotional issues driving them to eat. 1270 01:06:21,166 --> 01:06:25,500 And if we don't address that, they won't be successful in the long term. 1271 01:06:25,567 --> 01:06:27,100 After weight loss surgery, 1272 01:06:27,100 --> 01:06:28,967 physical hunger is gone 1273 01:06:28,967 --> 01:06:32,667 and when the patient still have drive to eat after that 1274 01:06:32,667 --> 01:06:35,700 at that point they cannot deny that there's not 1275 01:06:35,767 --> 01:06:39,100 a significant emotional component behind that. 1276 01:06:39,100 --> 01:06:43,166 So, that is the best time to start therapy with them to address that. 1277 01:06:43,166 --> 01:06:43,491 And Wess is at that point. 1278 01:06:43,491 --> 01:06:45,266 And Wess is at that point. 1279 01:06:51,100 --> 01:06:53,266 [Wess] So, I think starting therapy is a good idea 1280 01:06:53,266 --> 01:06:55,700 and I agree, it's something I need. 1281 01:06:55,767 --> 01:06:59,266 I'm still not necessarily looking forward to it, 1282 01:06:59,266 --> 01:07:02,000 but I'm ready to do it because the alternative is 1283 01:07:02,000 --> 01:07:05,400 for my weight loss to start slowing down and I start gaining again. 1284 01:07:05,467 --> 01:07:06,800 And that's not gonna work for me. 1285 01:07:21,767 --> 01:07:25,767 Today we are going to our first appointment with Dr. Paradise. 1286 01:07:27,367 --> 01:07:31,567 I'm excited, so I think Dr. Paradise could help me today 1287 01:07:31,567 --> 01:07:33,200 with my emotional problems. 1288 01:07:33,266 --> 01:07:35,300 You know, I've got a lot of, uh, 1289 01:07:35,367 --> 01:07:38,266 emotional things that I need to work through. 1290 01:07:38,266 --> 01:07:40,867 And I think Dr. Paradise will, uh, 1291 01:07:40,867 --> 01:07:43,491 hopefully help me learn to 1292 01:07:43,491 --> 01:07:45,567 hopefully help me learn to 1293 01:07:45,567 --> 01:07:48,467 not cope with my emotions through eating. 1294 01:07:48,467 --> 01:07:50,967 That's gonna be my biggest hope out of all of this. 1295 01:07:50,967 --> 01:07:52,967 I'm ready to get this started 1296 01:07:52,967 --> 01:07:55,000 and, um, see where it takes me. 1297 01:08:17,300 --> 01:08:18,467 [Dr. Paradise] Wess? 1298 01:08:18,467 --> 01:08:21,700 -Hello. -Hi, I'm Dr. Paradise. Come on in. 1299 01:08:21,767 --> 01:08:23,667 -Come on in. You can have a seat right over there. -Yes, sir. Thank you. 1300 01:08:31,900 --> 01:08:33,367 -Welcome. -Hello. 1301 01:08:33,367 --> 01:08:35,367 I'm glad you're here. 1302 01:08:35,367 --> 01:08:37,166 Tell me about your childhood, who was in your house? 1303 01:08:37,166 --> 01:08:38,967 What was going on with your parents? 1304 01:08:38,967 --> 01:08:42,367 My parents had a volatile relationship. 1305 01:08:43,467 --> 01:08:43,491 -And they divorced when I was three. -Okay. 1306 01:08:43,491 --> 01:08:45,700 -And they divorced when I was three. -Okay. 1307 01:08:45,767 --> 01:08:48,867 My dad got custody in the divorce, so I lived with him. 1308 01:08:48,867 --> 01:08:50,667 And then, um, 1309 01:08:50,667 --> 01:08:52,667 -shortly after there. -Mm-hmm. 1310 01:08:52,667 --> 01:08:57,100 Um, another family member of mine lived close to us. 1311 01:08:57,166 --> 01:09:00,500 Consequently, he ended up molesting me. 1312 01:09:00,567 --> 01:09:03,767 What do you remember as a kid? How did you process that? 1313 01:09:05,000 --> 01:09:07,166 I think I just ignored it. 1314 01:09:07,166 --> 01:09:08,667 What do you think that did to you? 1315 01:09:09,567 --> 01:09:11,567 Well, I got to 700 pounds, 1316 01:09:11,567 --> 01:09:13,491 [laughing] so, apparently not very well. 1317 01:09:13,491 --> 01:09:13,867 [laughing] so, apparently not very well. 1318 01:09:13,867 --> 01:09:16,166 How do you talk to your parents about the abuse? 1319 01:09:16,767 --> 01:09:17,700 I don't. 1320 01:09:19,166 --> 01:09:22,066 My father told me when I was probably... 1321 01:09:22,066 --> 01:09:24,867 11 or 12 that nobody wanted to hear about it. 1322 01:09:26,567 --> 01:09:28,567 That it makes people sad, so don't talk about it. 1323 01:09:28,567 --> 01:09:30,000 I came out at 13. 1324 01:09:30,066 --> 01:09:33,600 I was told in no uncertain terms that it was not acceptable. 1325 01:09:33,667 --> 01:09:36,667 Wess, I feel like you're still 1326 01:09:36,667 --> 01:09:39,667 part of the system that fundamentally 1327 01:09:39,667 --> 01:09:43,491 refuses to acknowledge core parts of your existence. 1328 01:09:43,491 --> 01:09:43,700 refuses to acknowledge core parts of your existence. 1329 01:09:43,767 --> 01:09:45,867 -Yeah. -The fact that you were abused. 1330 01:09:45,867 --> 01:09:47,867 The fact that you're gay, like, 1331 01:09:47,867 --> 01:09:52,567 big, huge parts of your identity are just swept under the rug. 1332 01:09:52,567 --> 01:09:54,400 How do we make you own your truth? 1333 01:09:55,100 --> 01:09:56,567 [Wess] I don't know. 1334 01:09:56,567 --> 01:09:58,700 [Dr. Paradise] Could you talk to either of your parents about the abuse? 1335 01:09:58,767 --> 01:10:00,367 Could you have a conversation? 1336 01:10:02,100 --> 01:10:03,667 Probably not at this point. 1337 01:10:03,667 --> 01:10:08,200 Wess, you are a strong, confident guy. 1338 01:10:08,266 --> 01:10:11,200 And I think you could make a very persuasive argument 1339 01:10:11,266 --> 01:10:13,491 to whoever in your family you're talking to. 1340 01:10:13,491 --> 01:10:14,000 to whoever in your family you're talking to. 1341 01:10:14,066 --> 01:10:15,867 That, you know what, "Our secrets are 1342 01:10:15,867 --> 01:10:17,867 -keeping us down." -Yes. 1343 01:10:17,867 --> 01:10:22,700 "And the secrets that you have kept about me have kept me down 1344 01:10:22,767 --> 01:10:25,700 and they're part of the reason that I got this big." 1345 01:10:25,767 --> 01:10:30,200 And it will facilitate your believing that you're worth 1346 01:10:31,467 --> 01:10:34,266 the life that you deserve. 1347 01:10:34,266 --> 01:10:37,667 That can certainly take the form of conversations with your dad. 1348 01:10:37,667 --> 01:10:38,700 [Wess] I would... 1349 01:10:40,667 --> 01:10:42,166 ...be willing to do that. 1350 01:10:42,166 --> 01:10:43,491 -I think this is a big deal, man. -Mm-hmm. 1351 01:10:43,491 --> 01:10:44,567 -I think this is a big deal, man. -Mm-hmm. 1352 01:10:44,567 --> 01:10:46,500 I think it's all, 1353 01:10:46,567 --> 01:10:48,467 it's all positive after this. 1354 01:10:49,767 --> 01:10:50,900 I hope. 1355 01:10:50,900 --> 01:10:53,400 -I'm so glad you came in. -Thank you for having me. 1356 01:10:53,467 --> 01:10:55,500 -Good to meet you. -Yes, sir. 1357 01:10:55,567 --> 01:10:57,367 [Wess] Today, the session went pretty well. 1358 01:10:57,367 --> 01:11:01,800 We talked about some hard emotional things that I haven't faced in a while. 1359 01:11:02,767 --> 01:11:04,333 But I think all in all, it went pretty well. 1360 01:11:07,600 --> 01:11:11,567 Part of my homework is having to have conversations with my dad 1361 01:11:11,567 --> 01:11:13,200 that we probably haven't had, ever. 1362 01:11:14,000 --> 01:11:15,767 So, um, that makes me nervous. 1363 01:11:17,100 --> 01:11:19,266 But that's something that I'm gonna have to push through. 1364 01:11:20,767 --> 01:11:22,200 -Thank you, sir. -Take care. 1365 01:11:39,567 --> 01:11:43,100 It's been a couple of days since I saw Dr. Paradise. 1366 01:11:43,100 --> 01:11:45,867 And today, I'm going to do my work somewhere out in the world. 1367 01:11:45,867 --> 01:11:48,700 And I'm nervous about it, 'cause I'm not used to going out into public. 1368 01:11:52,767 --> 01:11:55,767 Staying in my bed all day doesn't lead to good things for me. 1369 01:11:56,467 --> 01:11:58,066 It leads to a lazy life 1370 01:11:58,066 --> 01:11:59,618 and it's part of how I got to where I was. 1371 01:11:59,618 --> 01:12:00,066 and it's part of how I got to where I was. 1372 01:12:07,166 --> 01:12:09,567 But now that I've lost some weight, I'm feeling better about it. 1373 01:12:09,567 --> 01:12:12,467 I'm still big enough that people will stare 1374 01:12:12,467 --> 01:12:14,266 and I'm still afraid of breaking the furniture. 1375 01:12:15,567 --> 01:12:17,967 But as hard as this was, 1376 01:12:17,967 --> 01:12:21,867 I know it's nothing compared to the other stuff that Dr. Paradise wants me to do. 1377 01:12:21,867 --> 01:12:25,266 So I'm planning on talking to my father in the next couple of days 1378 01:12:25,266 --> 01:12:27,166 and starting a conversation. 1379 01:12:27,166 --> 01:12:28,800 There's part of me that's scared, 1380 01:12:28,867 --> 01:12:29,618 but I know that I want to go through with it. 1381 01:12:29,618 --> 01:12:30,867 but I know that I want to go through with it. 1382 01:12:43,266 --> 01:12:44,500 [Wess] Come on in. 1383 01:12:46,367 --> 01:12:50,467 -Woo-hoo, look at all that food. -[Rick] Lunch time. 1384 01:12:50,467 --> 01:12:53,467 Lunch time for you, you enjoy it while I have my damn Jell-O. 1385 01:12:53,467 --> 01:12:54,767 [laughing] 1386 01:12:56,166 --> 01:12:57,000 What did y'all make? 1387 01:12:57,867 --> 01:12:59,166 Oh, some pork ribs and... 1388 01:13:00,600 --> 01:13:01,500 ...sausage. 1389 01:13:01,567 --> 01:13:03,800 [Wess] Mmm, let me smell it, that'll, 1390 01:13:03,867 --> 01:13:05,300 that'll help me. 1391 01:13:06,500 --> 01:13:08,367 I asked my dad to come over for lunch 1392 01:13:08,367 --> 01:13:10,266 and I told him I wanna talk about some stuff. 1393 01:13:11,500 --> 01:13:13,400 But he doesn't know what it's about 1394 01:13:13,467 --> 01:13:16,166 and he probably would never guess. 1395 01:13:16,166 --> 01:13:19,000 I'm nervous and I really hope this goes well. 1396 01:13:19,000 --> 01:13:21,800 Because I don't wanna hurt my dad's feelings. 1397 01:13:21,867 --> 01:13:24,767 But there's plenty I need to get off my chest if I'm gonna heal. 1398 01:13:25,967 --> 01:13:27,900 Gotta love my Jell-O. 1399 01:13:29,967 --> 01:13:32,166 [Rick chuckles] All right. 1400 01:13:32,166 --> 01:13:34,867 Did you wanna get a smell of this? 1401 01:13:34,867 --> 01:13:36,667 -I could smell it from here. -[Rick laughing] 1402 01:13:40,000 --> 01:13:41,900 Don't eat it too fast, it might give you indigestion. 1403 01:13:43,600 --> 01:13:45,233 Yummy, yummy, yummy. 1404 01:13:46,967 --> 01:13:50,567 So, you know, the other day I had a therapist appointment with Dr. Paradise. 1405 01:13:50,567 --> 01:13:51,934 Uh-huh. 1406 01:13:53,266 --> 01:13:55,700 And we talked about some stuff, you know, from my childhood, 1407 01:13:55,767 --> 01:13:58,867 you know I had some bad things happen, but who doesn't? 1408 01:13:58,867 --> 01:13:59,618 And part of my homework was he wanted me to talk to you about it. 1409 01:13:59,618 --> 01:14:02,867 And part of my homework was he wanted me to talk to you about it. 1410 01:14:02,867 --> 01:14:04,100 See how you felt about it. 1411 01:14:05,467 --> 01:14:07,667 Well, I'm sorry that it happened. 1412 01:14:07,667 --> 01:14:10,166 I never would've imagined that happening. 1413 01:14:10,166 --> 01:14:14,066 You know, when you go through some traumatic stuff growing up, 1414 01:14:14,867 --> 01:14:15,900 it can affect your life. 1415 01:14:17,266 --> 01:14:19,166 I'm sure. I'm sure... 1416 01:14:21,100 --> 01:14:23,300 -...that it never leaves your mind. -No. 1417 01:14:23,367 --> 01:14:25,000 I'm sure of that. 1418 01:14:25,066 --> 01:14:28,900 And so, I think it's good that I'm seeing Dr. Paradise now 1419 01:14:28,967 --> 01:14:29,618 so that I could start working through those things. 1420 01:14:29,618 --> 01:14:32,400 so that I could start working through those things. 1421 01:14:33,667 --> 01:14:36,266 And getting the help that I need. 1422 01:14:36,266 --> 01:14:41,967 So that I don't fall back into the old traps of self-medicating with food. 1423 01:14:41,967 --> 01:14:45,200 You know, I've lost quite a bit of weight already. 1424 01:14:45,266 --> 01:14:47,867 And I've done very well and I'm proud of myself. 1425 01:14:47,867 --> 01:14:49,967 And I don't wanna go back to the way I was. 1426 01:14:49,967 --> 01:14:51,900 -And I'm proud of you as well. -Thank you. 1427 01:14:51,967 --> 01:14:56,066 'Cause let's be honest, eating that much and getting myself to the size I was, 1428 01:14:56,066 --> 01:14:58,266 that's a form of self-harm, you know. 1429 01:14:58,266 --> 01:14:59,618 [Rick] And you know that never crossed my mind. 1430 01:14:59,618 --> 01:15:00,166 [Rick] And you know that never crossed my mind. 1431 01:15:01,300 --> 01:15:02,300 You being... 1432 01:15:03,867 --> 01:15:05,867 -...addicted to food. -Mm-hmm. 1433 01:15:05,867 --> 01:15:09,266 But I never saw any of the signs 1434 01:15:10,567 --> 01:15:12,867 -of depression. -Oh, I was good at hiding it. 1435 01:15:13,667 --> 01:15:15,500 I never did and I never... 1436 01:15:16,867 --> 01:15:18,300 You know, I feel bad about that. 1437 01:15:18,367 --> 01:15:21,100 But I think talking about it, 1438 01:15:21,166 --> 01:15:24,467 -probably the best medicine, really. -Yes. 1439 01:15:24,467 --> 01:15:28,867 Because there's no physical medicine you could take to change anything. 1440 01:15:28,867 --> 01:15:29,618 Just talking about it and getting it out in the air 1441 01:15:29,618 --> 01:15:31,166 Just talking about it and getting it out in the air 1442 01:15:31,166 --> 01:15:33,367 and getting it off of your shoulders, 1443 01:15:33,367 --> 01:15:36,000 that weight you're carrying around, that depression. 1444 01:15:37,367 --> 01:15:40,500 It makes me think back now that if I would've known... 1445 01:15:41,700 --> 01:15:43,000 ...I could've done something. 1446 01:15:43,066 --> 01:15:45,567 [Wess] You know, as far as the trauma goes, 1447 01:15:45,567 --> 01:15:49,166 we can't blame anybody but the person that did that. 1448 01:15:49,166 --> 01:15:53,300 That person was old enough to know the difference between right and wrong. 1449 01:15:55,066 --> 01:15:56,600 And they chose to do wrong. 1450 01:15:56,667 --> 01:15:58,367 And the only person 1451 01:15:58,367 --> 01:15:59,618 in this world that is responsible for what happened to me 1452 01:15:59,618 --> 01:16:02,100 in this world that is responsible for what happened to me 1453 01:16:02,166 --> 01:16:03,667 is the person that did it. 1454 01:16:03,667 --> 01:16:05,667 Just know from me, Dad, 1455 01:16:05,667 --> 01:16:08,367 and I want you to know this sincerely from me. 1456 01:16:08,367 --> 01:16:10,667 I don't hold you responsible for any of that. 1457 01:16:10,667 --> 01:16:13,867 -I don't blame you for any of that. -I'm glad. 1458 01:16:13,867 --> 01:16:16,867 And I can say to myself who has the real blame. 1459 01:16:16,867 --> 01:16:19,500 That's not you and that's definitely not me. 1460 01:16:19,567 --> 01:16:21,300 That's the [bleep] that did it 1461 01:16:21,367 --> 01:16:24,266 and quite frankly, if that [bleep] burned in hell for the rest of eternity, 1462 01:16:24,266 --> 01:16:25,200 I'd be happy. 1463 01:16:34,266 --> 01:16:35,900 [Wess] Well, that wasn't so bad. 1464 01:16:35,967 --> 01:16:38,567 I'm proud of myself for doing this. 1465 01:16:38,567 --> 01:16:41,266 I feel like it was a good first step for me and my dad 1466 01:16:41,266 --> 01:16:42,867 and our relationship together. 1467 01:16:42,867 --> 01:16:46,066 I just wanna heal and I feel like I've started that process today. 1468 01:16:47,100 --> 01:16:48,700 I know it's gonna be a long process, 1469 01:16:48,767 --> 01:16:50,367 but at least I've started it. 1470 01:16:50,367 --> 01:16:53,166 And I'm hoping this puts me on the road to get where I need to go 1471 01:16:53,166 --> 01:16:54,700 for my next appointment with Dr. Now. 1472 01:17:16,367 --> 01:17:17,667 [Wess] Just in time for the rain. 1473 01:17:54,200 --> 01:17:55,166 Oh, yeah. 1474 01:18:06,867 --> 01:18:08,567 [breathing heavily] 1475 01:18:24,300 --> 01:18:25,767 -Wess. -Okay. Let's go. 1476 01:18:31,567 --> 01:18:32,867 Hello. 1477 01:18:32,867 --> 01:18:33,785 -How are you? -I'm good. 1478 01:18:33,785 --> 01:18:34,667 -How are you? -I'm good. 1479 01:18:36,667 --> 01:18:39,000 -Hi, how're you doing? -Morning. 1480 01:18:39,000 --> 01:18:40,800 [Wess] At my last weigh-in two months ago, 1481 01:18:40,867 --> 01:18:42,967 I was 530 pounds. 1482 01:18:42,967 --> 01:18:46,367 I'm supposed to be losing around 25 pounds a month these days. 1483 01:18:46,367 --> 01:18:48,100 So that means if I stay on track, 1484 01:18:48,166 --> 01:18:50,867 I'll be right at around 480 pounds today. 1485 01:18:52,200 --> 01:18:53,500 All right. Step on up. 1486 01:18:59,567 --> 01:19:00,567 [nurse] Hold it. 1487 01:19:13,367 --> 01:19:14,166 477. 1488 01:19:16,300 --> 01:19:17,367 Step off for me. 1489 01:19:20,967 --> 01:19:22,000 Sounds good. 1490 01:19:22,066 --> 01:19:24,000 -That's great. -[Wess giggles] 1491 01:19:28,200 --> 01:19:31,100 [Wess] Oh my, oh my. It feels good to be ahead of the curve for once. 1492 01:19:31,100 --> 01:19:32,600 Usually, I'm a little nervous 1493 01:19:32,600 --> 01:19:33,785 but today, I'm excited to hear what the doctor has to say. 1494 01:19:33,785 --> 01:19:35,367 but today, I'm excited to hear what the doctor has to say. 1495 01:20:01,166 --> 01:20:02,166 Yeah. 1496 01:20:03,967 --> 01:20:04,967 [knocking] 1497 01:20:08,166 --> 01:20:09,500 Hello, how y'all doing? 1498 01:20:09,567 --> 01:20:11,266 -[Wess] Good. Hi, Dr. Now. -[Rick] Hi, Doctor. 1499 01:20:11,266 --> 01:20:14,667 All right, good. Well, Wess, you're making good progress. 1500 01:20:14,667 --> 01:20:16,767 You're down to 477. 1501 01:20:16,767 --> 01:20:19,967 So, you lost 53 pounds over the last two months. 1502 01:20:19,967 --> 01:20:22,667 So you picked up the pace like you needed. 1503 01:20:22,667 --> 01:20:27,667 I see that therapy is helping you to deal with your emotional drive to eat 1504 01:20:27,667 --> 01:20:30,000 -and help to cope with that, right? -Yes. 1505 01:20:30,000 --> 01:20:32,500 [Dr. Now] All right, so keep up the good work. 1506 01:20:32,567 --> 01:20:33,785 -I'm proud of your progress. -Thank you. 1507 01:20:33,785 --> 01:20:34,467 -I'm proud of your progress. -Thank you. 1508 01:20:34,467 --> 01:20:38,100 [Dr. Now] Just stick with therapy and doing what you need with them. 1509 01:20:38,100 --> 01:20:42,367 And if you stay on track, we'll be able to remove the lymphedema mass. 1510 01:20:42,367 --> 01:20:44,467 And then, any extra skin... 1511 01:20:44,467 --> 01:20:47,266 -Yes. -...that needs to come off and then we'll work on that. 1512 01:20:47,266 --> 01:20:49,000 -Yes. -But in the meantime, 1513 01:20:49,066 --> 01:20:51,166 I want you to keep working hard 1514 01:20:51,166 --> 01:20:54,500 and maybe in 12 months, you're gonna hit your goal weight. 1515 01:20:54,567 --> 01:20:58,000 -So, keep it up. I'm proud of your progress. -Thank you, sir. Thank you. 1516 01:20:58,066 --> 01:21:00,600 -And Dad is proud of your progress, too. -[Rick] Oh, yeah. 1517 01:21:01,400 --> 01:21:03,500 -Yeah, it's wonderful. -All right. 1518 01:21:03,567 --> 01:21:03,785 Wess, I'll see you in two months. 1519 01:21:03,785 --> 01:21:05,400 Wess, I'll see you in two months. 1520 01:21:05,467 --> 01:21:07,400 Your weight loss is doing good. 1521 01:21:07,467 --> 01:21:11,867 Keep it up and lose another 50 pounds by your next appointment. 1522 01:21:11,867 --> 01:21:14,667 And if you need anything before then, give me a call. 1523 01:21:14,667 --> 01:21:16,567 -Yes, sir. Thank you. -[Rick] Thank you. 1524 01:21:16,567 --> 01:21:18,300 -Okay. -[Wess] Thank you for everything. 1525 01:21:18,367 --> 01:21:20,567 -You're quite welcome. -Have a good one. 1526 01:21:20,567 --> 01:21:21,567 You too. 1527 01:21:27,867 --> 01:21:29,767 [Dr. Now] I'm very encouraged to see 1528 01:21:29,767 --> 01:21:33,667 that Wess has made some improvements with his monthly weight loss. 1529 01:21:33,667 --> 01:21:33,785 He's moving in the right direction 1530 01:21:33,785 --> 01:21:35,800 He's moving in the right direction 1531 01:21:35,867 --> 01:21:39,567 and I'm very proud of him for working hard to make that happen. 1532 01:21:39,567 --> 01:21:43,266 He still has a lot of work ahead to get to his goal. 1533 01:21:43,266 --> 01:21:48,266 But Wess has consistently shown me he's willing to put the hard work he needs. 1534 01:21:48,266 --> 01:21:53,166 So right now, I'm confident that he will stay on track for the long term. 1535 01:21:53,166 --> 01:21:57,266 He may have some off months here and there, but that's okay. 1536 01:21:57,266 --> 01:21:59,400 This process is a struggle 1537 01:21:59,467 --> 01:22:01,600 and it's not about being perfect. 1538 01:22:01,667 --> 01:22:03,785 It's about getting healthy at the rate the body needs. 1539 01:22:03,785 --> 01:22:05,200 It's about getting healthy at the rate the body needs. 1540 01:22:05,266 --> 01:22:08,800 And turning your life around to have a bright future 1541 01:22:08,867 --> 01:22:10,900 to start looking forward to. 1542 01:22:10,967 --> 01:22:14,467 And Wess is doing that, so I know he's gonna stick with it 1543 01:22:14,467 --> 01:22:18,900 and keep working at what he needs to get to his goal over the next year 1544 01:22:18,967 --> 01:22:20,567 and have the life he wants. 1545 01:22:20,567 --> 01:22:23,066 And I'm very proud of him for that. 1546 01:22:25,567 --> 01:22:27,100 [Wess] Well, that feels really good. 1547 01:22:27,166 --> 01:22:30,200 And I'm proud of myself for doing what I needed. 1548 01:22:30,266 --> 01:22:32,800 I don't even remember the last time I was 400 pounds. 1549 01:22:32,867 --> 01:22:33,785 What I'm doing seems to be working, so I'm just gonna stick to it. 1550 01:22:33,785 --> 01:22:37,467 What I'm doing seems to be working, so I'm just gonna stick to it. 1551 01:22:37,467 --> 01:22:39,767 You know, it feels like I've come so far 1552 01:22:39,767 --> 01:22:43,467 and yet it really is just the beginning of what is going to come next. 1553 01:22:53,367 --> 01:22:56,667 It's hard to believe that I have as many choices now as I do. 1554 01:22:56,667 --> 01:22:59,800 And that's something that's going to be hard to get used to. 1555 01:22:59,867 --> 01:23:02,667 Because it's such a different mindset than I've had in the past. 1556 01:23:03,467 --> 01:23:03,785 Believing in myself, 1557 01:23:03,785 --> 01:23:04,700 Believing in myself, 1558 01:23:04,767 --> 01:23:06,400 believing in my future. 1559 01:23:06,400 --> 01:23:09,300 It's going to take a minute before I really feel like I'm worth it. 1560 01:23:09,367 --> 01:23:11,066 All the way deep down. 1561 01:23:11,066 --> 01:23:13,066 Gotta fake it until I make it. 1562 01:23:13,066 --> 01:23:15,066 So I'll start by acting like I'm worth it. 1563 01:23:15,066 --> 01:23:16,166 Why not? 1564 01:23:16,166 --> 01:23:18,100 And we'll see where this path takes me. 1565 01:23:34,400 --> 01:23:35,867 -[receptionist] Hi. -Hi. 1566 01:23:35,867 --> 01:23:38,467 -How're you doing? Thank you. -Welcome to The Plaza. 1567 01:23:40,467 --> 01:23:43,066 [Wess] So, I did something my dad liked 1568 01:23:43,066 --> 01:23:45,367 and now my dad has agreed to do something I like. 1569 01:23:45,367 --> 01:23:46,967 -You wanna sit over there? -Yeah. 1570 01:23:53,767 --> 01:23:56,166 [Wess] We're gonna go see a play together today and I'm excited. 1571 01:23:58,767 --> 01:24:00,867 I'm always nervous going out in public. 1572 01:24:00,867 --> 01:24:03,785 But this is something I've wanted to do for a long time without being able to. 1573 01:24:03,785 --> 01:24:04,867 But this is something I've wanted to do for a long time without being able to. 1574 01:24:05,367 --> 01:24:07,266 [applauding] 1575 01:24:07,266 --> 01:24:09,066 So, now that I'm actually doing it, 1576 01:24:09,066 --> 01:24:10,600 I'm actually super excited. 1577 01:24:13,100 --> 01:24:16,367 Being on stage is something I have always wanted to do. 1578 01:24:16,367 --> 01:24:19,867 It might be the only thing that I've ever felt called to do. 1579 01:24:19,867 --> 01:24:22,000 Like, I have a calling for it. 1580 01:24:22,066 --> 01:24:23,800 And I never had a chance to do it. 1581 01:24:26,700 --> 01:24:29,500 Today, just seeing these individuals up here on stage. 1582 01:24:29,567 --> 01:24:31,500 It filled me with a sense of longing 1583 01:24:31,567 --> 01:24:33,785 but also, it felt like something attainable. 1584 01:24:33,785 --> 01:24:34,166 but also, it felt like something attainable. 1585 01:24:34,166 --> 01:24:37,000 And so, I got really kind of excited. 1586 01:24:37,000 --> 01:24:38,300 A little overwhelmed. 1587 01:24:38,367 --> 01:24:40,166 And a bit of anxiety. 1588 01:24:40,166 --> 01:24:44,300 But a more hopeful anxiety than I'm used to. 1589 01:24:44,367 --> 01:24:46,967 I'm used to feeling doom or dread 1590 01:24:46,967 --> 01:24:48,900 and this was more like a possibility. 1591 01:24:48,967 --> 01:24:52,967 And that feeling, like, this is a fear I know I should overcome. 1592 01:24:52,967 --> 01:24:55,100 -Thank y'all so much. -Thanks for coming. 1593 01:24:55,100 --> 01:24:57,166 [Wess] I've always wanted to be on stage 1594 01:24:57,166 --> 01:25:00,500 but when I was 700 pounds it was scary to think about being up there. 1595 01:25:08,367 --> 01:25:09,600 -How's that? -[Wess] Okay. 1596 01:25:11,667 --> 01:25:14,900 -Thank you. Bye-bye. -[woman] Bye. Thanks for coming. 1597 01:25:14,967 --> 01:25:16,467 [Wess] Now that I'm losing the weight... 1598 01:25:16,467 --> 01:25:17,967 [in sing-song voice] Hello! 1599 01:25:17,967 --> 01:25:19,467 Thanks. 1600 01:25:19,467 --> 01:25:21,367 I wonder if there's a stage that can hold me.