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Who are you?

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I'm your husband. Ben.

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What?

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We got married in 1999.

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That's 14 years ago.

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Christine, you're 40.

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You had an accident.

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It was a bad accident.
You had head injuries.

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And you have problems
remembering things.

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What things? What...

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Everything. You store up
information for a day

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and when you wake up in
the morning, it's all gone,

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you're back to your early 20s.

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It'll be okay.

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Just... trust me.

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- I'm scared.
- I know.

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I know, it's all right.

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I love you.

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I love you, Christine.

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We've been married for 14 years.

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We met during your last term at King's.

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You were doing an MA in History

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and we got married a couple
of years after that.

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I'd have been perfectly happy
with the registry office...

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but you wanted a white wedding.

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I hated every moment of it

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until I saw you walking down the aisle.

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Is every day like this?

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Is every day the same?

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That's just a list of
everything you might need.

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And where you'll find it.

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Aspirin, first aid,
sanitary towels, toiletries.

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Couple of things you're allergic to.

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And...

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Well, it's a list of things to do.
You like to keep busy.

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"Pack bag."

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Today's our anniversary.

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I'm taking you away.

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- Tonight. After work.
- Where?

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That's a surprise.

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A nice one.

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You'll understand when
we get there, I promise.

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I love you, Christine.

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Christine?

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Yes?

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It's Dr Nasch.

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That'll mean nothing to you,
I know, but don't worry.

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We've been doing some work
on your memory. All right?

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Trying to figure out precisely
what's caused your problem

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and whether there's anything
we can do to fix it.

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Ben didn't say anything about this.

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I'm not certain that Ben knows.

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I don't understand.

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Christine, I want you
to do something for me.

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I want you to open the
wardrobe in your bedroom.

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Your wardrobe in the bedroom.

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We're looking for something.

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Hidden at the bottom of the wardrobe,
at the back, in a drawer.

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- What am I looking for?
- We're looking for a shoe box.

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- Can you see it?
- No.

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The right-hand wardrobe
nearest the bathroom.

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Have you found the camera, Christine?

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Yes.

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On the top, right-hand side of
the camera is a power button.

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I want you to switch the camera on.

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Now I want you to hit the "play"
button on the back of the camera.

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My name is Christine, Christine Lucas.

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I'm 40 years old and I'm an amnesiac.

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Tonight, as I sleep, my mind

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will erase everything,

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everything that I know today.

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Everything that I did today.

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And I will wake up tomorrow,
like I did this morning,

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thinking that I have my
whole life ahead of me.

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And the truth is...

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The truth is half my life is over.

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Oh, shit. He's coming.

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Admittedly,

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this isn't a run-of-the-mill
doctor-patient relationship.

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Picking you up at home,
driving you to my office.

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Seeing you without your
husband's knowledge.

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Are you all right?

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I saw you in the park six
months ago, quite by chance.

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You'd been referred to me by a colleague

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but I'd had absolutely no luck
getting hold of you. In fact,

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I recognised you from your
photograph in the file.

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I explained that I was
a neuropsychologist

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and that I was preparing a paper
on atypical psychogenic amnesia,

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and that I was prepared to
treat you on a pro bono basis.

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You agreed to give me
the telephone numbers

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you had written in your diary.

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I called you a few days later.

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You didn't remember
meeting me, of course,

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but you did consent to see me again.

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Later that day you told me

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you'd mentioned the possibility
of further treatment to Ben,

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who made it very clear to you

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you'd received extensive
attention in the past

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and it had done nothing
other than to upset you.

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After you.

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I want you to keep a visual diary.

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I've set the time and the date,

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I've put in the biggest
memory chip I can find.

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It'll allow you to hold on to
the previous day's memories.

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And even if the periods
before and after the attack

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remain blank, at least this
will bring some continuity...

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Attack?

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What attack?

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Ten years ago...

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you were found on an industrial estate

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not far from here.

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According to the medical report,

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your injuries were commensurate
with repeated blows to the head.

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No. No, my husband said
that I had an accident.

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I'm sure of it.

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I have a copy of the
medical report here.

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Some newspaper articles. Mostly tabloid.

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There's very little information
about the actual attack.

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"Left for dead"?

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Someone tried to kill me?

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Who? Who tried to kill me?

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No one knows.

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- What?
- No one but you.

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I don't think Ben should
know about the camera.

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It's your diary.

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I think it's important you don't feel...

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constrained by the thought
of Ben checking up

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on your innermost thoughts and feelings.

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If I don't tell Ben, how will I
know the camera even exists?

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You could hide it at the
bottom of your wardrobe.

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At the back.

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I'll call you in the
morning to remind you.

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Was that a yes or a no?

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I want to get well.

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♪ You still wanna be just friends

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♪ But how can we still be friends
when seeing you...

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♪ And there ain't nothing
I can do about it

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My name...

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My name is Christine Lucas.
I'm 40, 40 years old

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and I'm an amnesiac.

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♪ Get out my life why don't ya, babe?

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Tonight, as I sleep, my mind
will erase everything I know,

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everything I did today.
And I will wake up tomorrow...

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And the truth is half my life is over.

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And I...

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Oh, shit. He's coming.

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Christine?

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We've been married for 14 years.

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We met during your last term at King's.

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You were doing an MA in History.

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We got married a couple
of years after that.

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I still teach at a school
round the corner.

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I'm the head of the
chemistry department.

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What do I do?

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You stay at home.

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What, I don't do anything? I don't...

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I don't study? I don't work from home?
I just sit around all day?

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You store up information for a day.

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And when you wake up in
the morning, it's all gone.

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You're back to your early 20s, Chris.

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And tonight, as I sleep, my mind...

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My mind will erase
everything that I know,

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everything that I did today.

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And I will wake up tomorrow,
like I did this morning,

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thinking that I have my
whole life ahead of me.

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God, without this, I would believe
anything that he says. Anything.

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That you had a car accident?

168
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I wonder what else he lies about?

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If we want to keep this
between ourselves,

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I can't risk calling on the
house phone when Ben's home.

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Why is he hiding the attack?

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Perhaps it's just easier.

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- God!
- Sorry.

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I wish I wasn't so
frightened all of the time.

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Do you really think this is a good idea?

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There are plenty of case
histories of patients

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going back to where
they suffered trauma.

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Actually, it's very rarely effective.

179
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So why are we doing it?

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We're building trust.

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Hang on a minute.

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- Mr Nancarrow?
- Yeah.

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I'm Dr Nasch, we spoke on the phone.

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Dr Nasch, yeah.

185
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I'll have to call you back.

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Careful.

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Got quite a fright when I first saw you.

188
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Here, just down here.

189
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That's where I found you.

190
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Would you describe exactly what you saw?

191
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I don't know, it was a long time ago.

192
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Well, just tell us what you remember.

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I'd just come off shift.

194
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Miss Lucas was naked.

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- Naked?
- Apart from a sheet.

196
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A bed sheet or a plastic sheet?

197
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I'd have said if it was plastic.

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Where did I come from?

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You couldn't remember.

200
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You were very confused.

201
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There was blood.

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My blood?

203
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Where?

204
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Everywhere.

205
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What was I doing by the airport?

206
00:18:27,833 --> 00:18:30,990
Well, there are a lot
of hotels in the area.

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Dozens.

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Hotels?

209
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It would explain the bed sheet.

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I live here. Why would
I be staying in a hotel?

211
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All sorts of reasons.

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The medical examination indicated
recent sexual intercourse.

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There was no trace of semen

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or anything to help the police
identify the man you slept with.

215
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Was I raped?

216
00:19:10,458 --> 00:19:14,615
The police report suggested not.

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I'm married. I don't think I
would be the kind of person

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who would cheat on my husband.

219
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How do you know?

220
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Whatever happened that night,

221
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whatever I've done,

222
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I have to remember.

223
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I know I do.

224
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I have to, for us.

225
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For us.

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Chris?

227
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No.

228
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No!

229
00:22:23,458 --> 00:22:26,199
Christine, could you
open your eyes, please?

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00:22:26,541 --> 00:22:29,275
We're going to show you some pictures.
And I want you to look at each one

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and tell yourself what or who it is.

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Go ahead.

233
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Are you okay?

234
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Some of the photographs
were taken from random,

235
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others from your file.

236
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This caused distinct neural excitation.

237
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Who is she?

238
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Did I have a friend?

239
00:23:38,041 --> 00:23:40,615
Of course. You had a lot.
You were very popular.

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With red hair?

241
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- Not that I recall.
- Called Claire.

242
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Claire? It doesn't ring a bell. Why?

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You're absolutely certain?

244
00:23:56,250 --> 00:23:58,907
Well, I mean, it's possible.
You had a lot of friends. Why?

245
00:24:01,458 --> 00:24:03,566
It's just, I...

246
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I had a memory.

247
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A memory?

248
00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:12,407
Well, sort of. I guess.

249
00:24:12,658 --> 00:24:14,857
That's great. What kind of memory?

250
00:24:15,916 --> 00:24:19,449
Claire. She had red hair.
She was a friend.

251
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A good friend, I think.

252
00:24:22,208 --> 00:24:23,990
Well, I mean...

253
00:24:24,541 --> 00:24:27,824
I suppose you might
have done, once. Years ago.

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Claire...

255
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There might have been a Claire.

256
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A friend from college.

257
00:24:35,916 --> 00:24:36,983
There was a girl you were close to.

258
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I mean, she might have
been called Claire.

259
00:24:39,750 --> 00:24:41,699
So what happened to her?

260
00:24:43,750 --> 00:24:45,365
What?

261
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This isn't the first time
you've remembered Claire.

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I don't understand.

263
00:24:54,083 --> 00:24:55,990
It's not something we talk about.

264
00:24:57,166 --> 00:24:58,782
Why not?

265
00:24:59,666 --> 00:25:01,532
You drifted apart.

266
00:25:02,708 --> 00:25:04,025
Why?

267
00:25:04,125 --> 00:25:06,858
A couple of years after
your accident, she moved away.

268
00:25:06,958 --> 00:25:09,150
- Where to?
- Canada, I think.

269
00:25:09,250 --> 00:25:10,650
You think?

270
00:25:10,750 --> 00:25:12,316
Truth is it didn't really
matter to you where she went.

271
00:25:12,416 --> 00:25:13,691
You couldn't remember
her from one day to...

272
00:25:13,791 --> 00:25:15,949
It matters. It matters now.

273
00:25:22,166 --> 00:25:24,365
Don't say I didn't warn you.

274
00:25:37,750 --> 00:25:39,657
I keep them in my study.

275
00:25:45,250 --> 00:25:47,115
You hide them?

276
00:25:47,583 --> 00:25:49,400
They upset you.

277
00:25:49,500 --> 00:25:51,025
You hide a piece of my past from me?

278
00:25:51,125 --> 00:25:52,865
- To protect you.
- From what?

279
00:25:54,583 --> 00:25:55,983
She couldn't handle it, Chris.

280
00:25:56,083 --> 00:25:57,900
She couldn't handle knowing
that 15 minutes after she left,

281
00:25:58,000 --> 00:25:59,990
you had no idea she even existed.

282
00:26:02,083 --> 00:26:04,574
After a while, she stopped
calling or even...

283
00:26:06,458 --> 00:26:10,824
- She wasn't the only one, Chris.
- How can I trust you if you lie to me?

284
00:26:13,291 --> 00:26:16,449
I live with you. With this.

285
00:26:17,291 --> 00:26:19,316
Sometimes, when the truth
is painful or complicated,

286
00:26:19,416 --> 00:26:20,608
I don't always have the strength.

287
00:26:20,708 --> 00:26:22,990
Usually I do, but not always. I'm sorry.

288
00:26:23,750 --> 00:26:27,115
- So, what, you edit my life?
- This isn't just about you!

289
00:26:27,375 --> 00:26:29,108
Sometimes this is a question
of what I can handle

290
00:26:29,208 --> 00:26:31,324
and I can't always handle everything!

291
00:26:31,958 --> 00:26:33,657
Not every day.

292
00:26:34,875 --> 00:26:37,657
Sometimes we both need a day off.

293
00:26:45,208 --> 00:26:46,650
He's keeping Claire from you.

294
00:26:46,750 --> 00:26:49,490
He says he's protecting you but he...

295
00:26:50,083 --> 00:26:51,566
Don't trust him.

296
00:26:51,666 --> 00:26:53,449
Don't trust Ben.

297
00:27:21,541 --> 00:27:23,740
- Hello?
- Christine?

298
00:27:24,125 --> 00:27:26,282
Hello, it's Dr Nasch.

299
00:27:26,916 --> 00:27:30,441
You won't remember me, but we've
been meeting almost every day

300
00:27:30,541 --> 00:27:32,691
for the last few weeks... A camera...

301
00:27:32,791 --> 00:27:34,233
It's in a shoe box

302
00:27:34,333 --> 00:27:37,275
somewhere on the bottom shelf of
the cupboard nearest the bathroom.

303
00:27:37,375 --> 00:27:39,483
He's keeping Claire from you.

304
00:27:39,583 --> 00:27:41,532
He says he's protecting...

305
00:27:42,166 --> 00:27:43,566
Claire...

306
00:27:43,666 --> 00:27:44,983
He's keeping Claire...

307
00:27:45,083 --> 00:27:48,525
He says he's protecting you,
but he's keeping Claire from you.

308
00:27:48,625 --> 00:27:52,949
Don't trust Ben.

309
00:28:15,375 --> 00:28:16,574
Bastard.

310
00:29:14,083 --> 00:29:15,907
Are you all right?

311
00:29:17,166 --> 00:29:18,949
I'm pregnant.

312
00:29:45,583 --> 00:29:47,449
"When you wake up in the morning, Pooh,

313
00:29:47,875 --> 00:29:50,490
"what's the first thing
you say to yourself?"

314
00:29:50,833 --> 00:29:54,782
"'What's for breakfast?'
What do you say, Piglet?"

315
00:29:58,958 --> 00:30:02,865
"I say, 'I wonder what's going
to happen exciting today?"'

316
00:30:08,416 --> 00:30:10,025
- We have a child.
- Chris...

317
00:30:10,125 --> 00:30:12,400
We have a child, a little boy, don't we?

318
00:30:12,500 --> 00:30:14,115
Don't we?

319
00:30:14,666 --> 00:30:28,032
Where is he?

320
00:30:28,958 --> 00:30:31,650
- Come inside. Come inside.
- No. Where is he?

321
00:30:31,750 --> 00:30:33,275
I can't talk to you
standing in the rain.

322
00:30:33,375 --> 00:30:37,066
Why are you hiding him from me?
Where is my son?

323
00:30:37,166 --> 00:30:38,900
- I'm not hiding. Come inside, please.
- Where is he?

324
00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:41,025
- Would you just come inside now...
- No, I'm not coming inside!

325
00:30:41,125 --> 00:30:43,983
Come here... Come here. Come here
and I'll tell you, I'll tell you.

326
00:30:44,083 --> 00:30:45,824
- Come here.
- Where...

327
00:30:46,041 --> 00:30:48,400
He died. We have a son
but he's dead. He died.

328
00:30:48,500 --> 00:30:51,074
- No!
- He died. Please.

329
00:30:51,333 --> 00:30:53,150
No!

330
00:30:53,250 --> 00:30:54,608
Chris...

331
00:30:54,708 --> 00:30:56,824
Chris, here. Come on.

332
00:31:04,291 --> 00:31:05,949
How?

333
00:31:07,000 --> 00:31:08,615
Meningitis.

334
00:31:12,250 --> 00:31:13,865
How old?

335
00:31:14,041 --> 00:31:15,657
Eight.

336
00:31:17,125 --> 00:31:19,824
Adam died about three weeks
before his ninth birthday.

337
00:31:37,666 --> 00:31:40,365
I keep these in the garage for safety.

338
00:31:44,708 --> 00:31:46,650
There are some things it wouldn't
be good for you to stumble on

339
00:31:46,750 --> 00:31:48,365
when you're by yourself, Christine.

340
00:31:48,583 --> 00:31:50,824
Some things it's better
I explain to you.

341
00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:57,032
This is Adam as a baby.

342
00:32:07,291 --> 00:32:09,115
That's my baby?

343
00:32:10,958 --> 00:32:12,657
Adam.

344
00:32:18,958 --> 00:32:22,525
He would have been about
three months old there.

345
00:32:22,625 --> 00:32:26,324
- When was he born?
- August 4th, 1999.

346
00:32:38,958 --> 00:32:40,574
Adam.

347
00:32:44,666 --> 00:32:46,699
Adam Thomas Lucas.

348
00:32:51,166 --> 00:32:53,157
Beautiful.

349
00:33:09,875 --> 00:33:12,282
"I am sick, please come home."

350
00:33:13,875 --> 00:33:15,282
Where was I?

351
00:33:15,541 --> 00:33:17,907
In and out of hospitals.

352
00:33:24,250 --> 00:33:26,407
- Chris.
- No.

353
00:33:29,416 --> 00:33:32,824
I can't do it.
I can't do this, I'm so sorry.

354
00:33:40,416 --> 00:33:42,907
Ben's been through all this before.

355
00:33:43,083 --> 00:33:45,115
His grief isn't new.

356
00:33:45,916 --> 00:33:47,865
But it's new for me.

357
00:33:53,916 --> 00:33:56,157
And it'll be new tomorrow.

358
00:33:57,530 --> 00:34:00,275
And it'll be new the next day
and it'll be new the next day

359
00:34:00,375 --> 00:34:03,199
and the next, and the
next and every day.

360
00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:06,615
Every day for the rest of my life.

361
00:34:22,750 --> 00:34:24,407
No!

362
00:34:43,541 --> 00:34:46,074
His grief isn't new. Mine is.

363
00:34:47,208 --> 00:34:48,824
Mine is.

364
00:34:51,291 --> 00:34:55,240
This isn't new for him.
His grief isn't new. Mine is.

365
00:34:57,791 --> 00:34:59,407
Mine is.

366
00:35:02,000 --> 00:35:04,115
And it'll be new tomorrow.

367
00:35:05,441 --> 00:35:07,984
And it'll be new the next day
and it'll be new the next day

368
00:35:08,084 --> 00:35:11,282
and the next and the next and every day.

369
00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:14,615
Every day for the rest of my life.

370
00:36:21,125 --> 00:36:25,865
- Did you know about Adam?
- We've spoken about Adam.

371
00:36:27,416 --> 00:36:31,032
Maybe Ben's right.
Maybe it's better I don't know.

372
00:36:40,208 --> 00:36:42,282
Can we just sit here a while?

373
00:36:45,583 --> 00:36:47,449
Of course.

374
00:36:57,166 --> 00:36:59,032
Should I tell Ben?

375
00:37:02,166 --> 00:37:03,824
About us?

376
00:37:05,958 --> 00:37:07,824
About the therapy?

377
00:37:21,541 --> 00:37:25,615
Was I a good mother?
I mean, before the injury.

378
00:37:27,916 --> 00:37:30,115
You were a wonderful mother.

379
00:37:34,958 --> 00:37:38,282
It must have been awful for him,
me not knowing who he was.

380
00:37:44,041 --> 00:37:46,157
You loved Adam very much.

381
00:38:07,250 --> 00:38:10,407
I understand why you would
hide this from me, I do.

382
00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:13,775
And you've probably lived through
this more times than you can bear.

383
00:38:13,875 --> 00:38:15,566
And I understand there
must be days when you say,

384
00:38:15,666 --> 00:38:18,699
"I can't, I can't go
through this again."

385
00:38:20,208 --> 00:38:23,566
But if you care about this marriage,
and I have to assume you do,

386
00:38:23,666 --> 00:38:27,240
never try to hide my son from me again.

387
00:38:30,375 --> 00:38:37,449
I'm sorry.

388
00:39:14,333 --> 00:39:16,032
Adam?

389
00:39:35,083 --> 00:39:36,532
Mike.

390
00:39:45,666 --> 00:39:48,740
Good morning, Christine. It's Dr Nasch.

391
00:39:49,541 --> 00:39:51,941
I'm a neuropsychologist at
University College, London,

392
00:39:52,041 --> 00:39:54,066
and I've been calling you
every morning to remind you

393
00:39:54,166 --> 00:39:57,907
to look for the camera hidden
in the back of your wardrobe.

394
00:39:58,333 --> 00:40:00,615
You've been keeping a video diary...

395
00:40:00,916 --> 00:40:04,074
Get ready, then I can come
and pick you up from home.

396
00:40:12,291 --> 00:40:13,816
Mike.

397
00:40:13,916 --> 00:40:15,316
What?

398
00:40:15,416 --> 00:40:18,407
I'm not sure but I
think that's his name.

399
00:40:20,083 --> 00:40:21,699
Whose name?

400
00:40:24,166 --> 00:40:26,865
The man who did this to me.

401
00:40:28,416 --> 00:40:30,574
Come here.

402
00:40:31,625 --> 00:40:33,240
Come on.

403
00:40:33,833 --> 00:40:35,865
Come here, come on. It's okay.

404
00:40:36,458 --> 00:40:38,449
It's okay.

405
00:40:53,875 --> 00:40:56,740
You're the only one who
makes me feel good.

406
00:40:58,625 --> 00:41:01,365
I want you to feel good.

407
00:41:19,625 --> 00:41:20,865
Christine, I'm sorry.

408
00:42:07,625 --> 00:42:10,407
Christine, my name is Dr Nasch.

409
00:42:11,458 --> 00:42:13,949
- I know.
- How do you feel?

410
00:42:14,875 --> 00:42:16,490
Shitty.

411
00:42:16,666 --> 00:42:18,400
I only administered a mild sedative.

412
00:42:18,500 --> 00:42:21,657
Just something to calm you down,
not put you to sleep.

413
00:42:23,208 --> 00:42:25,699
- I remember.
- You were confused.

414
00:42:26,666 --> 00:42:28,150
We call it confabulation,

415
00:42:28,250 --> 00:42:31,275
your imagination filling in
the gaps in your memory,

416
00:42:31,375 --> 00:42:34,400
turning me into the man who did
this to you. Do you understand?

417
00:42:36,166 --> 00:42:38,449
- I want to talk to Ben.
- No.

418
00:42:39,541 --> 00:42:41,191
No, I just found something out

419
00:42:41,291 --> 00:42:43,199
and I need to talk to you
about it face-to-face.

420
00:42:43,666 --> 00:42:45,332
Christine...

421
00:42:46,100 --> 00:42:48,365
It's about Ben.

422
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:05,657
Who were you talking to?

423
00:43:06,875 --> 00:43:08,490
When?

424
00:43:08,958 --> 00:43:11,316
When I called earlier.
It went straight to voicemail.

425
00:43:11,416 --> 00:43:13,657
Oh, I was trying to call you.

426
00:43:22,333 --> 00:43:24,525
My name is Christine, Christine Lucas.

427
00:43:24,625 --> 00:43:27,275
I'm 40 years old and I'm an amnesiac.

428
00:43:27,375 --> 00:43:31,191
Tonight, as I sleep,
my mind will erase everything...

429
00:43:31,291 --> 00:43:34,407
This isn't new for him.
His grief isn't new. Mine is.

430
00:43:34,541 --> 00:43:36,407
You're vulnerable.

431
00:43:37,666 --> 00:43:40,900
Vulnerable patients often develop
feelings for their psychiatrists.

432
00:43:41,000 --> 00:43:43,365
It's common.

433
00:43:44,083 --> 00:43:47,782
What's less common nowadays is
when those feelings are reciprocated.

434
00:43:52,500 --> 00:43:55,407
We call it counter-transference.
It's unprofessional.

435
00:43:57,708 --> 00:43:59,865
Completely unprofessional.

436
00:44:00,166 --> 00:44:02,532
On my video, I say that
you're my only hope.

437
00:44:03,333 --> 00:44:06,740
I'm referring you to an excellent
neuropsychiatrist at St Thomas's.

438
00:44:07,541 --> 00:44:10,032
I say that we're making progress.

439
00:44:10,291 --> 00:44:14,858
Christine, I can't go on treating you.
It wouldn't be ethical.

440
00:44:14,958 --> 00:44:17,074
- Please.
- Christine.

441
00:44:18,750 --> 00:44:22,441
She works out of the university
department at King's College.

442
00:44:22,541 --> 00:44:23,941
- She's very good.
- I don't want her.

443
00:44:24,041 --> 00:44:26,032
I want you. You're fixing me.

444
00:44:27,416 --> 00:44:29,407
When I called you this morning,

445
00:44:30,375 --> 00:44:32,699
you'd already watched your video diary.

446
00:44:34,375 --> 00:44:36,115
You remembered.

447
00:44:38,541 --> 00:44:41,316
Yes. Yes!

448
00:44:41,416 --> 00:44:43,191
Unfortunately, what you remember one day

449
00:44:43,291 --> 00:44:45,740
you may not necessarily
remember the next.

450
00:44:46,583 --> 00:44:48,282
Even the most significant things.

451
00:44:49,708 --> 00:44:51,574
What things?

452
00:44:53,958 --> 00:44:58,191
Ben had you transferred from
the psychiatric hospital in 2007

453
00:44:58,291 --> 00:45:01,108
to an adult community care centre.

454
00:45:01,208 --> 00:45:04,157
I rang the administrator the
other day to arrange a visit.

455
00:45:04,291 --> 00:45:08,699
It seems your friend Claire has
been trying to get in touch.

456
00:45:10,375 --> 00:45:12,282
This is her number.

457
00:45:19,416 --> 00:45:22,941
The administrator asked how
you were and I told her.

458
00:45:23,041 --> 00:45:25,199
She became extremely confused.

459
00:45:26,416 --> 00:45:27,775
Why?

460
00:45:27,875 --> 00:45:30,032
Well, according to her records,

461
00:45:32,166 --> 00:45:33,949
Ben divorced you four years ago.

462
00:45:39,708 --> 00:45:42,324
Hi, you've reached Claire.
Leave a message.

463
00:45:42,541 --> 00:45:43,983
Claire, it's...

464
00:45:44,083 --> 00:45:45,907
It's Christine Lucas.

465
00:45:46,583 --> 00:45:49,275
I really need to talk to you.

466
00:45:49,375 --> 00:45:51,324
Can you call me, please?
My number is, zero...

467
00:46:08,125 --> 00:46:11,490
- We're divorced, aren't we?
- Who told you?

468
00:46:12,375 --> 00:46:15,025
Who told me? No one.
I'm remembering things.

469
00:46:15,125 --> 00:46:16,358
- Really?
- Yes.

470
00:46:16,458 --> 00:46:18,108
- You sure?
- Yes.

471
00:46:18,208 --> 00:46:20,990
- You're remembering an awful lot lately.
- Stay away.

472
00:46:22,208 --> 00:46:24,441
Just tell me the fucking truth.

473
00:46:24,541 --> 00:46:26,740
Why did you divorce me?

474
00:46:27,708 --> 00:46:29,858
- Why did you divorce me?
- You want the truth?

475
00:46:29,958 --> 00:46:31,358
- Yes.
- I'll tell you the truth!

476
00:46:31,458 --> 00:46:39,032
We had a little boy.

477
00:46:39,500 --> 00:46:43,115
And he got very sick very
suddenly and we lost him.

478
00:46:51,583 --> 00:46:54,240
I walked away. I was in bits.

479
00:47:01,541 --> 00:47:03,657
I came back and I'm here.

480
00:47:06,583 --> 00:47:09,407
I'll never leave you, Chris. Never.

481
00:47:13,833 --> 00:47:15,615
I'm sorry.

482
00:47:50,833 --> 00:47:52,358
Hello?

483
00:47:52,458 --> 00:47:54,157
Chrissy?

484
00:47:58,250 --> 00:47:59,858
Claire?

485
00:47:59,958 --> 00:48:02,574
Oh, my God, Chrissy,
darling, is that really you?

486
00:48:07,083 --> 00:48:08,949
Yes, it's me.

487
00:48:11,083 --> 00:48:13,407
You call me Chrissy.

488
00:48:14,750 --> 00:48:17,400
I kept ringing the care centre.
Did they tell you?

489
00:48:17,500 --> 00:48:20,740
They gave me your old address
and all my letters were returned.

490
00:48:21,541 --> 00:48:23,275
Every day, every single day,

491
00:48:23,375 --> 00:48:26,657
I've been waiting for this phone
to ring, hoping it might be you.

492
00:48:28,125 --> 00:48:31,191
They... They told me
that you moved away.

493
00:48:31,291 --> 00:48:32,691
- Moved away?
- Yes.

494
00:48:32,791 --> 00:48:34,525
Whatever gave you that idea?

495
00:48:34,625 --> 00:48:37,816
Oh, my God, Chrissy.
I've missed you so much.

496
00:48:37,916 --> 00:48:40,949
- Oh...
- How are you?

497
00:48:44,250 --> 00:48:47,400
Well, I can't remember a fucking
thing but otherwise I'm fine.

498
00:48:50,458 --> 00:48:52,782
Where are you?

499
00:48:53,333 --> 00:48:55,949
I'm at home. I'm with Ben.

500
00:48:57,125 --> 00:49:00,199
And I really need to see you.
Can I see you?

501
00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:02,441
Yeah.

502
00:49:02,541 --> 00:49:05,282
I'd rather not come to you, Chris.

503
00:49:05,583 --> 00:49:06,775
Why?

504
00:49:07,468 --> 00:49:10,115
It's difficult to
explain over a phone...

505
00:49:10,500 --> 00:49:13,157
How about we meet at the Observatory?

506
00:49:15,083 --> 00:49:16,775
- The Observe...
- In Greenwich.

507
00:49:16,875 --> 00:49:18,740
I could be there in an hour.

508
00:49:21,625 --> 00:49:23,782
Will you be okay?

509
00:49:29,833 --> 00:49:32,699
Yes, I'm fine and I'll be there.

510
00:50:07,791 --> 00:50:09,574
Chrissy?

511
00:50:11,833 --> 00:50:14,699
Chrissy, darling, it's me, Claire.

512
00:50:16,333 --> 00:50:24,490
Claire.

513
00:50:29,000 --> 00:50:30,990
I remember you.

514
00:50:37,875 --> 00:50:39,574
Yeah?

515
00:50:43,958 --> 00:50:45,875
I've missed you, I've missed you,
I've missed you!

516
00:50:45,975 --> 00:50:48,324
I remember you.

517
00:50:49,875 --> 00:50:52,490
I've missed you so much.

518
00:50:55,208 --> 00:50:57,459
This is amazing.

519
00:51:01,583 --> 00:51:03,608
Was I a good mother?

520
00:51:03,708 --> 00:51:07,740
Oh, Chrissy. Nobody was
more loved than Adam.

521
00:51:08,083 --> 00:51:11,115
Ben used to rush home from
work just to see his little boy.

522
00:51:11,291 --> 00:51:14,032
Adam was so like him at that age.

523
00:51:14,541 --> 00:51:17,407
Even then he was just as
handsome as his daddy.

524
00:51:21,750 --> 00:51:24,157
Who did this to me?

525
00:51:27,666 --> 00:51:30,199
Things were tough.

526
00:51:30,916 --> 00:51:33,275
You were juggling looking after Adam

527
00:51:33,375 --> 00:51:35,574
and starting a new teaching job.

528
00:51:37,250 --> 00:51:39,074
You and Ben were arguing a lot.

529
00:51:39,375 --> 00:51:42,657
I said I'd look after Adam
two afternoons a week.

530
00:51:43,875 --> 00:51:48,032
After a month or so back at work,
you seemed to get better, you...

531
00:51:49,083 --> 00:51:51,699
You even started dressing differently.

532
00:51:52,333 --> 00:51:54,733
I didn't realise what
it was at the time.

533
00:51:54,833 --> 00:51:56,740
I met someone?

534
00:51:57,250 --> 00:51:59,032
I asked you.

535
00:52:01,000 --> 00:52:04,407
You denied it at first but
you knew I wasn't stupid.

536
00:52:05,750 --> 00:52:07,740
We had an argument.

537
00:52:08,250 --> 00:52:10,150
Eventually, you told me the truth.

538
00:52:10,250 --> 00:52:11,775
I didn't tell you his name?

539
00:52:11,875 --> 00:52:14,115
You wouldn't give me
any details about him.

540
00:52:14,250 --> 00:52:16,066
Did Ben know?

541
00:52:16,166 --> 00:52:18,025
Not until the police found you.

542
00:52:18,125 --> 00:52:20,199
Oh, Jesus.

543
00:52:21,826 --> 00:52:24,775
- Oh, poor Ben.
- I had to tell him, Chrissy.

544
00:52:24,875 --> 00:52:27,699
I'd already told the police.
I had no choice.

545
00:52:28,208 --> 00:52:30,691
No wonder he keeps lying to me.

546
00:52:30,791 --> 00:52:32,615
Well, that's Ben.

547
00:52:32,958 --> 00:52:35,365
- Protecting you.
- Maybe.

548
00:52:36,333 --> 00:52:39,949
Or maybe he thinks we just can't
come to terms with the truth.

549
00:52:40,416 --> 00:52:42,108
I mean, he still lies
to me about the attack

550
00:52:42,208 --> 00:52:43,990
and he never talks to me about you.

551
00:52:46,083 --> 00:52:47,740
Well...

552
00:52:48,666 --> 00:52:53,449
There's a reason why he
doesn't talk about me to you.

553
00:52:54,291 --> 00:52:55,949
Why?

554
00:52:57,458 --> 00:52:59,657
After your accident,

555
00:53:00,375 --> 00:53:02,566
I tried to help out.

556
00:53:02,666 --> 00:53:05,532
You can imagine how hard it
was for Ben looking after Adam.

557
00:53:05,666 --> 00:53:07,740
I did what I could.

558
00:53:08,708 --> 00:53:10,400
We spent a lot of time together.

559
00:53:10,500 --> 00:53:12,782
One day, after visiting you, he just...

560
00:53:13,833 --> 00:53:16,699
collapsed. He said he
couldn't go on any more.

561
00:53:18,000 --> 00:53:19,782
I...

562
00:53:20,541 --> 00:53:22,657
I put my arms around him.

563
00:53:22,916 --> 00:53:25,032
We got carried away.

564
00:53:25,500 --> 00:53:27,782
It only happened once.

565
00:53:29,583 --> 00:53:31,615
I felt so bad.

566
00:53:32,333 --> 00:53:34,615
We both felt so bad.

567
00:53:35,375 --> 00:53:37,650
I decided I owed it to
both of you to stay away

568
00:53:37,750 --> 00:53:39,740
so I just...

569
00:53:41,458 --> 00:53:43,407
disappeared.

570
00:53:45,791 --> 00:53:47,574
I'm so sorry.

571
00:53:50,625 --> 00:53:53,740
Well, you can hardly blame us,
Christine, after your affair.

572
00:53:54,333 --> 00:53:56,400
You don't know how lucky you are.

573
00:53:56,500 --> 00:53:59,532
You have never known how
lucky you are to have Ben.

574
00:54:01,125 --> 00:54:03,233
- I have to go.
- Oh, Chrissy...

575
00:54:03,333 --> 00:54:05,400
- Ben will be home soon and...
- Please.

576
00:54:05,500 --> 00:54:08,449
- He'll worry if I'm not there.
- Look, just wait.

577
00:54:11,416 --> 00:54:14,782
Ben sent this to me shortly
before you separated.

578
00:54:16,000 --> 00:54:19,490
He asked me to give it to you if you
were ever well enough to read it.

579
00:54:23,208 --> 00:54:25,441
I'm so glad that you are.

580
00:54:25,541 --> 00:54:28,532
I don't expect you to believe me
but I care about you, Christine.

581
00:54:28,916 --> 00:54:30,574
A lot.

582
00:54:32,583 --> 00:54:34,449
It's all right.

583
00:54:44,583 --> 00:54:46,449
"My darling Christine,

584
00:54:48,083 --> 00:54:50,615
"I can't bear to say the words

585
00:54:50,916 --> 00:54:53,532
"but I have decided to leave you.

586
00:54:53,791 --> 00:54:57,157
"I've tried so hard to
find another way, Chris.

587
00:54:57,458 --> 00:54:59,407
"Please believe me.

588
00:55:00,750 --> 00:55:02,907
"You loved Adam,

589
00:55:03,583 --> 00:55:06,157
"even if you couldn't
consciously remember him.

590
00:55:06,833 --> 00:55:09,740
"He would run into your arms
and you would pick him up

591
00:55:10,291 --> 00:55:13,115
"and for a while, you sensed who he was.

592
00:55:14,291 --> 00:55:15,775
"Then you started to believe

593
00:55:15,875 --> 00:55:19,115
"that Adam had been taken away
from you when he was a baby.

594
00:55:19,583 --> 00:55:22,782
"Every time you saw him,
you thought it was for the first time.

595
00:55:24,916 --> 00:55:28,365
"I'd ask him to tell you when
he last saw you, and he'd say,

596
00:55:28,958 --> 00:55:30,691
"'Yesterday, Mummy.'

597
00:55:30,791 --> 00:55:33,199
"But you wouldn't believe him.

598
00:55:33,583 --> 00:55:36,949
"One day you attacked me,
grabbed Adam and ran.

599
00:55:37,250 --> 00:55:39,191
"He started screaming.

600
00:55:39,291 --> 00:55:42,400
"Later, I tried to explain
but he didn't understand.

601
00:55:42,500 --> 00:55:44,990
"He became frightened
to come and see you.

602
00:55:46,625 --> 00:55:50,108
"I left it a few days and then
called to find out how you were.

603
00:55:50,208 --> 00:55:52,615
"They said you were happy.

604
00:55:53,458 --> 00:55:56,316
"When I asked them if you remembered us,

605
00:55:56,416 --> 00:55:58,365
"they said no.

606
00:56:01,041 --> 00:56:03,650
"I love you so much, Chris.

607
00:56:03,750 --> 00:56:07,657
"I love you more than I love
anything or anyone in this world.

608
00:56:08,583 --> 00:56:11,407
"But our son is only eight years old.

609
00:56:12,750 --> 00:56:15,282
"He's desperately unhappy, Chris.

610
00:56:15,875 --> 00:56:19,574
"And I just can't put him through
that kind of trauma again.

611
00:56:20,958 --> 00:56:23,566
"I want you both to be happy,

612
00:56:23,666 --> 00:56:27,240
"even if you can only find
that happiness without us.

613
00:56:28,125 --> 00:56:30,740
"Forgive me. Ben."

614
00:56:36,958 --> 00:56:39,115
I forgive you.

615
00:56:40,125 --> 00:56:42,407
Can you forgive me?

616
00:56:45,916 --> 00:56:49,490
You're my lover. You're my protector.

617
00:56:49,916 --> 00:56:53,282
And my life is nothing,
nothing without you.

618
00:56:56,833 --> 00:57:00,324
By the time you see this,
you will know everything.

619
00:57:02,750 --> 00:57:07,032
And you will know that there is nothing
inside me for you now but love.

620
00:57:10,000 --> 00:57:13,740
And the hope that we can finally
find a way to truly be together.

621
00:57:16,250 --> 00:57:17,990
Hello?

622
00:57:19,333 --> 00:57:21,032
Chris?

623
00:57:21,166 --> 00:57:22,865
I forgive you.

624
00:57:24,750 --> 00:57:26,983
Can you forgive me?

625
00:57:27,083 --> 00:57:31,025
You're my lover. You're my protector.
You're my... You're my everything.

626
00:57:31,125 --> 00:57:34,233
So by the time you see this,
you will know everything.

627
00:57:34,333 --> 00:57:35,949
You will know that there...

628
00:57:36,916 --> 00:57:38,699
No, I want you to watch it
from the beginning.

629
00:57:39,083 --> 00:57:41,615
What do you mean,
"you will know everything"?

630
00:57:45,458 --> 00:57:48,532
I've been seeing a doctor, Dr Nasch.

631
00:57:49,333 --> 00:57:51,282
For a few weeks.

632
00:57:52,791 --> 00:57:54,990
He gave me the camera.

633
00:57:57,000 --> 00:58:00,324
He's been calling me every
morning to remind me.

634
00:58:01,291 --> 00:58:03,282
Why would you do that?

635
00:58:04,125 --> 00:58:05,566
To hold on to my memories.

636
00:58:05,666 --> 00:58:07,316
No, I mean, why would
you keep it a secret?

637
00:58:07,416 --> 00:58:09,615
Because I wasn't sure
if I could trust you.

638
00:58:13,125 --> 00:58:15,483
- I know now I can.
- Are you having an affair?

639
00:58:15,583 --> 00:58:18,941
No.

640
00:58:19,041 --> 00:58:21,532
I know how much I hurt you.

641
00:58:21,875 --> 00:58:25,525
I know what it's taken for
you to forgive me and I...

642
00:58:25,625 --> 00:58:29,449
I understand why you left.
I understand everything now.

643
00:58:29,625 --> 00:58:31,407
Ben...

644
00:58:32,083 --> 00:58:35,858
You're so good to me.
I love you. I love you so...

645
00:58:53,000 --> 00:58:54,949
He did what?

646
00:58:55,250 --> 00:58:56,983
Let me talk to him.

647
00:58:57,083 --> 00:59:00,199
He... He left.

648
00:59:01,375 --> 00:59:03,490
I'm going to call him.

649
00:59:04,000 --> 00:59:05,525
I don't think that's a good idea.

650
00:59:05,625 --> 00:59:07,066
Look, I love you both.

651
00:59:08,199 --> 00:59:09,674
God.

652
00:59:11,083 --> 00:59:12,907
I'll call you right back.

653
00:59:23,083 --> 00:59:25,115
Ben hit me.

654
00:59:25,625 --> 00:59:27,275
I...

655
00:59:27,375 --> 00:59:30,740
told him everything and he hit me.

656
00:59:32,500 --> 00:59:35,157
And nothing can alter that, so...

657
00:59:42,916 --> 00:59:45,532
- Hello?
- I spoke to Ben.

658
00:59:46,666 --> 00:59:49,782
He says he's been living alone, Chris.

659
00:59:50,041 --> 00:59:51,108
What?

660
00:59:51,208 --> 00:59:54,816
Ben says he hasn't seen
you for four years.

661
00:59:54,916 --> 00:59:56,824
Christine,

662
00:59:57,458 --> 00:59:59,657
describe Ben to me.

663
01:00:02,166 --> 01:00:05,449
- What?
- Describe Ben to me.

664
01:00:05,583 --> 01:00:07,108
What does he look like?

665
01:00:07,208 --> 01:00:09,115
Is he tall?

666
01:00:11,625 --> 01:00:13,108
Yes.

667
01:00:13,208 --> 01:00:14,990
Black hair?

668
01:00:17,083 --> 01:00:20,400
No. No, he has brown hair.

669
01:00:22,583 --> 01:00:24,525
Does he have a scar?

670
01:00:26,166 --> 01:00:29,316
- A scar?
- Yeah. He had a skiing accident.

671
01:00:29,416 --> 01:00:32,532
He should have a scar across
the right side of his face.

672
01:00:49,125 --> 01:00:50,907
Chrissy?

673
01:00:54,000 --> 01:00:57,066
No. No, he doesn't.

674
01:00:57,166 --> 01:00:58,782
Ben doesn't have a scar.

675
01:01:02,208 --> 01:01:04,074
The man you're living with,

676
01:01:04,250 --> 01:01:06,407
I don't know who he is, Christine.

677
01:01:07,000 --> 01:01:09,990
But it's not Ben!

678
01:01:44,875 --> 01:01:46,150
Help me.

679
01:01:46,250 --> 01:01:49,657
I need your address, Christine.
I need to know where you're living.

680
01:01:51,083 --> 01:01:53,816
I can't... I can't remember.

681
01:02:01,166 --> 01:02:03,407
I'll be right out.

682
01:02:04,000 --> 01:02:07,407
Find out quickly and I'll call
you back on your mobile.

683
01:05:13,500 --> 01:05:15,282
Who are you?

684
01:05:15,500 --> 01:05:18,365
I'm your husband. Ben.

685
01:05:27,500 --> 01:05:29,733
- Christine?
- Yes?

686
01:05:29,833 --> 01:05:33,066
It's Dr Nasch. That'll mean
nothing to you, I know...

687
01:05:33,166 --> 01:05:34,816
We've been doing some
work on your memory.

688
01:05:34,916 --> 01:05:37,608
Trying to figure out precisely what...
Have you found the camera, Christine?

689
01:05:37,708 --> 01:05:39,108
Yes.

690
01:05:39,208 --> 01:05:41,233
Watch it and I'll call you back.

691
01:05:41,333 --> 01:05:44,324
You're my lover. You're my protector.

692
01:05:44,583 --> 01:05:47,074
My life is nothing without you.

693
01:05:48,041 --> 01:05:50,775
By the time you see this,
you will know everything

694
01:05:50,875 --> 01:05:55,407
and you will know that there is nothing
inside me for you now but love.

695
01:05:57,916 --> 01:06:02,324
And the hope that we can finally
find a way to truly be together.

696
01:06:26,833 --> 01:06:28,233
Hello?

697
01:06:28,333 --> 01:06:31,865
Christine, it's me. Is everything okay?

698
01:06:32,583 --> 01:06:34,907
Everything's fine.

699
01:06:41,416 --> 01:06:43,199
Ben?

700
01:06:43,750 --> 01:06:46,782
Sorry, yes, I heard. I'm in traffic.

701
01:06:50,125 --> 01:06:52,400
Just wanted to make sure
you remembered to pack

702
01:06:52,500 --> 01:06:54,365
for our anniversary.

703
01:06:55,250 --> 01:06:57,074
To pack?

704
01:06:57,958 --> 01:07:01,324
- I wrote it on the board in the kitchen.
- Yes, I remember.

705
01:07:01,750 --> 01:07:03,574
Ben...

706
01:07:05,666 --> 01:07:07,657
I love you.

707
01:07:09,583 --> 01:07:12,240
I love you, too, Christine.

708
01:07:41,958 --> 01:07:44,941
Dr Nasch, please come to main reception.

709
01:07:45,041 --> 01:07:47,532
Dr Nasch, please come to main reception.

710
01:07:58,666 --> 01:08:00,407
Dr Nasch?

711
01:08:01,666 --> 01:08:03,282
Can I help you?

712
01:08:06,500 --> 01:08:08,115
I'm Ben Lucas.

713
01:08:09,875 --> 01:08:13,032
Oh, Mr Lucas. How's Christine?

714
01:08:14,166 --> 01:08:15,949
How is she?

715
01:08:17,791 --> 01:08:20,532
Stay the fuck away from my wife.

716
01:09:11,000 --> 01:09:13,650
- Is this really our anniversary?
- Yes.

717
01:09:17,958 --> 01:09:20,365
Our wedding anniversary?

718
01:09:21,041 --> 01:09:22,699
No.

719
01:09:23,208 --> 01:09:25,657
It's a different kind of anniversary.

720
01:09:58,208 --> 01:10:00,574
Why have you brought me here?

721
01:10:25,041 --> 01:10:26,657
I want you to remember.

722
01:10:27,208 --> 01:10:31,358
Oh, Mike, I can't do this,
I can't. I'm married.

723
01:10:31,458 --> 01:10:33,365
Oh, Mike, I can't.

724
01:10:33,958 --> 01:10:35,865
How about this?

725
01:10:37,666 --> 01:10:45,407
Mike?

726
01:10:48,291 --> 01:10:49,949
Where's Ben?

727
01:10:50,333 --> 01:10:52,324
Ben left you.

728
01:10:56,791 --> 01:10:58,532
I didn't.

729
01:10:58,708 --> 01:11:00,865
I stayed close by.

730
01:11:01,333 --> 01:11:04,782
Watching over you. Protecting you.

731
01:11:04,916 --> 01:11:06,766
Protecting me?

732
01:11:07,166 --> 01:11:10,650
While your so-called husband
left you to rot in a care home,

733
01:11:10,750 --> 01:11:13,740
I watched you wither
and die, day by day.

734
01:11:14,750 --> 01:11:17,240
I couldn't stand it any longer.

735
01:11:18,625 --> 01:11:20,574
I had to get you out of there.

736
01:11:21,083 --> 01:11:22,691
They let you take me home?

737
01:11:22,791 --> 01:11:26,199
False documents and a fake smile.
I got you out in half an hour.

738
01:11:28,000 --> 01:11:29,608
Do you honestly think I'd
have got away with this

739
01:11:29,708 --> 01:11:31,657
if anyone else gave a shit
about you, Christine?

740
01:11:33,625 --> 01:11:36,275
You know, this whole Ben
charade wasn't the point.

741
01:11:36,375 --> 01:11:42,699
The point...

742
01:11:45,583 --> 01:11:47,865
...was to care for you.

743
01:11:48,416 --> 01:11:52,199
Was to look after you. Was to love you.

744
01:11:58,083 --> 01:12:01,990
I honestly meant to tell you the truth
but you were so distraught and then...

745
01:12:03,333 --> 01:12:06,574
then the lie just got
bigger and bigger...

746
01:12:08,333 --> 01:12:10,858
You know what? I'm sick of explaining.

747
01:12:10,958 --> 01:12:13,240
And I'm tired of lying.

748
01:12:15,708 --> 01:12:18,865
That's why I brought you here.
To put an end to this.

749
01:12:20,375 --> 01:12:23,775
We're going to leave here,
not as Christine and Ben

750
01:12:23,875 --> 01:12:25,483
but as Christine and Mike.

751
01:12:25,583 --> 01:12:27,240
I can't keep doing this.

752
01:12:27,833 --> 01:12:30,865
Well, call Ben and tell him the truth.

753
01:12:34,333 --> 01:12:36,691
- No.
- Tell him.

754
01:12:36,791 --> 01:12:38,983
Don't be ridiculous. I can't do that.

755
01:12:39,083 --> 01:12:40,449
Then I will.

756
01:12:41,958 --> 01:12:43,608
If I were Ben, I'd want to know.

757
01:12:43,708 --> 01:12:45,108
Don't be a prick, Mike.

758
01:12:49,250 --> 01:12:50,865
You did this.

759
01:12:53,833 --> 01:12:54,858
No.

760
01:12:57,250 --> 01:12:58,775
No! No!

761
01:12:58,875 --> 01:13:00,566
What did you expect me to do?

762
01:13:00,666 --> 01:13:02,816
I tried talking to you,
you wouldn't listen.

763
01:13:02,916 --> 01:13:04,907
I'd never hurt you.

764
01:13:06,291 --> 01:13:07,574
I hate myself for what happened.

765
01:13:11,166 --> 01:13:13,699
It's all right. Please don't leave.

766
01:13:15,416 --> 01:13:18,032
I'm scared.

767
01:13:23,299 --> 01:13:24,615
Don't leave.

768
01:13:30,708 --> 01:13:32,532
Go.

769
01:13:33,291 --> 01:13:34,907
Go, then.

770
01:13:35,250 --> 01:13:36,532
Thank you.

771
01:13:39,541 --> 01:13:42,066
What did you have to go and do that for?
You see, this is what I'm talking about.

772
01:13:42,166 --> 01:13:43,269
This is what happens!

773
01:13:45,500 --> 01:13:48,949
- God, I'm sorry.
- And will you stop fucking apologising!

774
01:13:52,166 --> 01:13:54,865
I just don't want to be Ben any more.

775
01:13:55,916 --> 01:13:58,907
Nothing... I've nothing to
live for except for you.

776
01:14:01,333 --> 01:14:03,115
Understand?

777
01:14:06,250 --> 01:14:07,483
Please let me go.

778
01:14:07,583 --> 01:14:10,566
No, we leave together
or we don't leave at all.

779
01:14:14,750 --> 01:14:21,824
Now...

780
01:14:22,166 --> 01:14:23,782
No more guilt.

781
01:14:28,375 --> 01:14:30,032
No more grief.

782
01:14:32,208 --> 01:14:34,074
No more battles to fight.

783
01:14:47,541 --> 01:14:49,199
Now...

784
01:14:50,708 --> 01:14:52,657
You're free.

785
01:15:00,333 --> 01:15:02,157
Come here.

786
01:15:04,737 --> 01:15:06,282
Come on.

787
01:15:09,083 --> 01:15:10,699
Come.

788
01:15:19,416 --> 01:15:21,074
Here.

789
01:15:26,458 --> 01:15:28,282
Come here.

790
01:15:33,041 --> 01:15:34,782
Kiss me.

791
01:15:43,291 --> 01:15:45,074
Again.

792
01:15:56,833 --> 01:15:58,699
Forget Ben.

793
01:15:59,541 --> 01:16:01,449
He's forgotten you.

794
01:16:02,458 --> 01:16:04,574
You must forget Adam.

795
01:16:05,250 --> 01:16:07,324
He's forgotten you.

796
01:16:08,458 --> 01:16:10,615
Adam's forgotten you.

797
01:16:11,333 --> 01:16:15,282
Adam?

798
01:16:21,625 --> 01:16:23,490
My son is alive?

799
01:16:55,625 --> 01:16:58,775
We leave together or
we don't leave at all.

800
01:16:58,875 --> 01:16:59,979
Do you understand me?

801
01:17:01,250 --> 01:17:03,740
Let me go, please. Let me go.

802
01:18:19,458 --> 01:18:24,066
My name is Christine Lucas.
I'm 40 years old and I'm an amnesiac.

803
01:18:24,166 --> 01:18:28,316
Tonight, as I sleep, my mind will
erase everything that I know,

804
01:18:28,416 --> 01:18:30,900
everything that I did today.

805
01:18:31,000 --> 01:18:33,525
And I will wake up tomorrow
like I did this morning,

806
01:18:33,625 --> 01:18:36,574
thinking that I have my
whole life ahead of me.

807
01:18:38,541 --> 01:18:40,691
And the truth is, the truth is

808
01:18:40,791 --> 01:18:44,441
I will never let anyone
take my life from me again.

809
01:18:44,541 --> 01:18:48,365
And I will not wake up tomorrow
thinking that my son is dead.

810
01:18:48,833 --> 01:18:54,615
I will not.

811
01:19:24,083 --> 01:19:26,032
Christine?

812
01:19:28,333 --> 01:19:30,816
Christine, my name is Dr Nasch.

813
01:19:30,916 --> 01:19:34,157
I'm a neuropsychologist.
I treated you for several weeks.

814
01:19:37,791 --> 01:19:40,532
But I'm not here today as your doctor,

815
01:19:41,375 --> 01:19:43,574
I'm here as a friend.

816
01:19:45,791 --> 01:19:49,490
You have two cracked ribs,
mild concussion,

817
01:19:50,041 --> 01:19:53,574
so you'll need someone to keep an eye
on you but you're going to be fine.

818
01:19:54,041 --> 01:19:56,316
Your friend Claire is
coming by this afternoon

819
01:19:56,416 --> 01:19:58,865
to pick you up, to take
you home with her.

820
01:20:02,583 --> 01:20:04,532
Do you remember Claire?

821
01:20:12,625 --> 01:20:14,407
Red hair.

822
01:20:17,291 --> 01:20:19,199
That's very good.

823
01:20:21,250 --> 01:20:23,407
And you're safe now.

824
01:20:23,666 --> 01:20:26,150
The man that did this to
you is in police custody.

825
01:20:26,250 --> 01:20:28,990
He's going to be in prison
for a very long time.

826
01:20:32,083 --> 01:20:34,532
Can you recall anything
at all about last night?

827
01:20:46,750 --> 01:20:49,532
Christine, I've brought you a visitor.

828
01:20:49,791 --> 01:20:53,657
I'm hoping this may be the
breakthrough we've been looking for.

829
01:21:02,625 --> 01:21:04,699
That gentleman is Ben.

830
01:21:05,875 --> 01:21:08,782
You were married but you've
been apart for four years.

831
01:21:28,666 --> 01:21:30,865
She's awake.

832
01:21:31,125 --> 01:21:32,949
Thank you.

833
01:21:46,333 --> 01:21:48,157
Christine.

834
01:21:49,125 --> 01:21:50,865
It's Ben.

835
01:21:53,291 --> 01:21:55,240
Your Ben.

836
01:21:59,666 --> 01:22:02,949
If I'd have known you were
in any kind of danger,

837
01:22:03,125 --> 01:22:05,949
I'd never have stayed away.

838
01:22:06,750 --> 01:22:08,699
I had to.

839
01:22:11,083 --> 01:22:13,324
For Adam's sake.

840
01:22:28,958 --> 01:22:30,282
He's our son, Chris.

841
01:22:35,750 --> 01:22:38,282
And he loves you very much.

842
01:22:40,541 --> 01:22:42,615
We both do.

843
01:23:54,375 --> 01:24:00,032
Hi.

844
01:24:09,541 --> 01:24:11,365
I'm Adam.

845
01:24:16,000 --> 01:24:17,657
Adam.

846
01:24:25,083 --> 01:24:26,400
"When...

847
01:24:26,500 --> 01:24:28,025
"When you wake up in the morning, Pooh,

848
01:24:28,125 --> 01:24:30,824
"what's the first thing
you say to yourself?"

849
01:24:35,208 --> 01:24:36,990
"I say...

850
01:24:39,041 --> 01:24:41,199
"'What's for breakfast?'

851
01:24:42,625 --> 01:24:44,907
"What do you say, Piglet?"

852
01:24:48,208 --> 01:24:50,699
"I say... I say...

853
01:24:52,375 --> 01:24:56,365
"'I wonder what's going to
happen exciting today?"'

854
01:25:04,041 --> 01:25:06,115
You remembered.

855
01:25:13,208 --> 01:25:20,532
Adam.

856
01:25:23,083 --> 01:25:36,574
I remember.

857
01:25:49,916 --> 01:25:51,699
Adam.

858
01:25:52,583 --> 01:25:54,782
My Adam.

859
01:31:48,958 --> 01:31:51,157
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