[narrator] Previously on Sister Wives...
I'm not ready. I'm scared.
He's the only man I've ever kissed.
Oh, my God, what if I'm second kissing?
What if I'm second everything like that?
I am going to downsize and move,
uh, my clothing business out to the B and B.
I wanna build a barndominium
and you could live in that loft.
He just wants to put me out there with all this stuff
that he doesn't wanna see, he doesn't wanna deal with.
The cars, the storage, the Meri...
It's just insulting.
I'm pregnant.
Oh, my gosh, yes.
-Now? -Yes.
I've never seen a sonogram of twins before,
ever, ever, ever.
Oh, my God.
I already love them so much.
So today, we're having a 1950s themed 50th birthday party.
I'm 50 years old.
Aah!
Oh, you are so strong.
Janelle, Savanah, Garrison and Gabe are coming for my birthday.
Janelle's sister and her husband
and their kids are coming.
All my kids who live here are coming.
Isabelle is in town.
We have one food truck and then we're having soda and shakes.
'Kay, table settings are like this.
No, I don't feel old. I feel fantastic. I feel great.
-'Kay. -'Kay.
-Two minutes we're out. -We're done?
We have to look beautiful. Let's go.
I love being single.
I'm dating a bit, just having fun,
just, all very... just fun.
Aspyn, let's see.
Oh, hey!
Oh, my gosh, that's perfect.
So I know Christine told us a couple of months ago
that she'd been working with a matchmaker.
Um, good. More power to you.
I think Christine has been looking for a companion in her life.
And Kody was not able to give her that.
And so I think now, in this new life permutation,
she's... she wants to find a partner to do it with.
Come to Mama.
Come on.
Yeah. Whoo!
[laughs]
I'm so excited for my party, but also
Mykelti has some very exciting news to share.
I'm very excited about that too.
Hey. Hey.
Hey, you gotta show everybody, you know,
you know, your thing, your thing.
-Your secret. Your secret. -I don't have the thingy with me.
-You have it? Where is it? -I have it in my phone.
Okay.
Okay, here's my... Here's my thingy.
But I have something that makes my thingy cooler.
That makes my thingy cooler.
'Cause guess what? There's two!
There's two.
So Tony and I are pregnant
-with twins. -With twins.
Look, there's identical and fraternal and they are fraternal twins.
They're not identical. They're gonna be different.
They're having twins. [laughs]
I don't feel like four arms are gonna be enough.
I'm here. You guys live like 20 minutes away from me.
Mykelti and Tony are gonna have three kids under the age of two.
Oh, my gosh, that is so much work.
But the doctors were like, "Oh, you're not supposed
to be able to get pregnant while you're breastfeeding
and you're not supposed to be able to get twins without some help.
And how did you do all that?" And we were like,
uh, we just had sex, so.
[both laughing]
Nice.
Way to go, guys. Way to excel.
On Tony's side of the family, no twins.
Uh, Kody has nieces that are twins.
And my dad has brothers that are twins.
Anyway, there are twins in the family.
So Robyn and Dad know right now that we're expecting twins.
We told them actually first 'cause, um,
I needed help. [laughs]
Uh, so, I know that Robyn, with her pregnancy,
she had a lot of morning sickness and my mom didn't.
So I talked to Robyn to basically like,
what do I do? So they know.
Um, I guess we were the first people that she told and I just...
I mean, of course, I feel honored
and like, I'm glad she feels safe doing that
and we're just really excited for her.
You know, more grand babies.
You know, so, yeah.
[Christine] Mykelti has an awesome relationship with Robyn and Kody.
And it's going to be like that for the rest of their life.
There is going to be things that she's going to tell Robyn and Kody first
and there's gonna be things that she tells me first.
It doesn't matter how I feel personally
towards Robyn or towards Kody.
That has no place here.
Nothing to do with me.
This is Mykelti's story, Mykelti's life.
So tonight we're gonna tell everybody.
We're gonna tell Janelle and her kids,
everybody else that we're expecting twins.
This will be perfect 'cause Mykelti can tell Janelle
and my mom that she's pregnant with twins
at my party, right? That's gonna be perfect.
I mean, come on, that's amazing.
Janelle's gonna be so excited.
All Janelle and I care about are more grandchildren.
It's true. In life, that's what we want.
Welcome to my party!
[all cheering]
How are you, sweetheart?
[Janelle] There was no question. I wanted to be there.
Fun to celebrate with her in this amazing new life she's got, and 50.
I'm 53, but you know, who's counting? [laughs]
Janelle looks perfect!
I love it.
Janelle dressed up!
Okay, I hoped she would dress up,
I didn't know she would really dress up.
And Savanah dressed up, and Garrison and Gabe.
Everybody dressed up.
[both laughing]
Hi!
This is my mom!
My mom came too and she looks so cute!
Oh, my God, that's Ashley.
[squealing]
-[Christine laughs] -[Ashley] Happy birthday!
I'm gonna tell you I have this amazing full life here.
It's beautiful.
[Christine] Thank you! Fifty!
Thank you.
When we still lived in Flagstaff,
they decriminalized plural marriage in Utah.
And as soon as I found out, I was instantly excited
to move back to Utah. Instantly.
Polygamy got decriminalized.
And I wonder why we're still here.
We can move back home.
We can be by family again, we can be back home.
I wonder if we would've moved back.
What we would look like now.
I wonder where we would've settled.
I wonder if I would've stayed.
And to be honest, I think it would've just prolonged me leaving.
I really don't think that where we lived,
whether it would be Vegas or Flagstaff, or in Utah
would've ever made a difference on
our family and what has happened.
You know, sometimes, I think about our decisions that we made in the past.
And I think maybe if we wouldn't have moved to Flagstaff
or maybe if we would've moved when Christine wanted to move to Utah,
or we would've built faster on the property.
I wonder if we'd still be together.
[Janelle] You know, the writing was already on the wall.
Kody really drove some big wedges
in our family relationships.
Kody's preference for Robyn became
even more pronounced during that time.
I don't think anything would've been different,
we'd have just been in Utah.
Everybody, really, really quick.
Of course you guys see there's hamburgers and fries.
Put in your order for what you would like.
You guys can, like, help yourself.
You can go in, there's places to sit down and thank you for coming.
[all cheering]
Are we gonna sing happy birthday now?
I have a really... I have a really good exciting gift for you.
-Yes. -Like I have something
-that you're gonna like a lot. -Yes.
Uh, it's your daughter pregnant with twins.
[all cheering]
-What? -I will take that present.
With twins?
I'm pregnant with twins. There's two of them right now.
I'm pregnant with twins.
[laughing]
I'm excited and surprised and it's just everything.
Like, I just, I'm sure they didn't either expect it to be so soon,
but come on, twins!
Twins!
I'm so excited about this.
-I'm so excited. -Thank you.
Oh!
Janelle cried a little bit. It was kind of sweet.
Um, it's cool 'cause she's gonna be a grandma to twins as well.
So it's really fun and sweet. It's cute.
-And she doesn't cry a lot. -No.
So it's extra special.
Okay, now I think I need to have a house here or something.
Yeah, there you go, yeah.
-Party's going great. -Yeah, it's a fun party.
I like the costumes.
My mom's definitely having a good time. What do you think?
-Yeah, she's loving it. -Yeah.
This is great for her.
Hey, guys, we're gonna start going inside.
I wanna sit down to eat.
You know what, this is such a fun party theme
and she's completely decked it out inside.
Like, she's got all this stuff on the walls
and she's got a place to take pictures
and everybody's dressed up.
In a way, this feels like,
a big declaration of independence in a way
for this new life that she's got.
[woman] Deck it out for like--
[all] ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
Kody and I, and our kids were not invited to Christine's birthday party.
It's really hard for my kids and I
when we find out that the family's gathering and doing things.
It stings when we find out.
I think it would be great to have Robyn's kids here
because they should see their siblings.
And Isabelle would be so flipping excited.
She would love it.
This isn't just, this isn't a place
for a reunion like that anyway. It's just not.
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
[all cheering]
Thank you so much for coming.
[woman cheering]
[all cheering]
Look, I can't tell you what I wished for,
but it has something to do with being in a romantic relationship again.
Um, but I can't say anything because it won't come true.
So we're just gonna leave it at that.
-Okay, there's two cakes. -There's two cakes.
Mykelti made them both from scratch.
She's ridiculously perfect.
Um, this one is heavily alcohol'd.
This one is not alcohol'd at all.
They're both chocolate.
-Yay! -[all cheering]
Chocolate!
I had the alcohol one. [laughs]
I had the alcohol one. I'm not a fool. [laughing]
Whatever. I'm having a good time at my party.
Hello.
I had both. I had both cakes.
What I will say is this is the easiest party I've been to.
No politics, no waiting on somebody to come 'cause they're late.
It's so easy to be here with just Christine and her kids.
And it was a success.
Brr!
We're a family.
Janelle and I, and our kids are a family.
We're just gonna stick together
and it means a lot to me that they're here.
[Kody] I don't know how to define the relationship,
but I feel pathetically that she commonly rejects me.
[Janelle] I think if he was dying to get back with me,
he would've called the counsellor.
He would be actively pursuing that,
but there's no communication or conversation about that.
So not too long ago, I decided it would be better for me
to move my clothing business up here to the B and B.
I did mention it to Kody and he responded exactly
how I thought that he would.
He really just didn't care.
My plan is to renovate the carriage house
and just kinda run my business out of there.
So my friend Blair is coming to show us
the plans that he has
for the carriage house renovation.
-Hello. -Hi.
-How are you? -Welcome.
Blair's business is interior design.
So of course, I'm hiring him to do this job for me.
I'm really excited about it.
We have to wait until Jenn gets back to actually show us.
Okay.
-But we can go look at the-- -Let's do it.
-You wanna do that? -Yes.
-Let's go. -Okay, awesome.
Jenn is very important to this process.
She's my best friend and she's talked me through a lot of, like,
the questions and a lot of the ideas and options.
So she definitely needs to be involved in this whole process.
-It's so good to have you back. -I'm so excited to be here.
So I've kind of talked about, like, the theme that I want
and that is industrial.
Industrial, steam punk, I love that.
Like, all the gears and all the, like,
wood and brick.
It's what I like.
There's the carriage house.
I know that Meri is in a plural family and, um,
honestly, it doesn't faze me. She's no different than
any of my other close friends.
Um, you know, she's got a heart of gold
and she's a great lady, so.
I've known Blair and his husband for probably four or five years.
Um, we did meet online initially,
but eventually in person.
We've been kind of cautiously talking just because
there's so many people, obviously... [laughs]
put themselves out there as being somebody other than they really are.
So you have to be very careful with people that you meet online.
So I was catfished quite a few years ago
with a big fat liar.
That whole story was so completely blown out of proportion,
so much crap was made up about it
and I still kind of have a hard time talking about it just because
everybody has their opinions about it, but like, I know my truth.
Like, even with our families, some of our own family
has their own opinions about it.
It's like, I know my truth.
So I talked to people online for business all the time
and one of my prerequisites
is that I do a video chat with them.
I just wanna make sure that they are a legit person.
Okay, so, in here,
this used to be like so full.
[Blair] It's actually much emptier than it was last time I was here.
Okay, so you wanna do kind of, like, a workspace here
and then a main island where you can do
-all your-- -Yeah, I need a big workspace.
[Blair] With a lot of storage.
[Meri] And then... yes.
And the dressing room, fitting room will go on this wall.
My business mostly is online, but I also wanna have
the option if I want to bring people into the space
for them to be able to shop there.
So definitely having a fitting room is important.
-[Blair] She's here. -Hi.
We've been waiting for you.
[Jenn] I'm sorry.
-[Blair laughs] -I almost told him
-could we just do without her? -She did.
-She was begging me. -No, that's not an option.
I know Jenn from when we used to live in Las Vegas.
I wish that, like, Meri and I could be more light.
Like her and Jenn are with each other.
I really do, but I know that
the role that we have with each other
is sort of consoling each other
and helping each other through that trauma that we've gone through
with everything.
And I'm not jealous. I'm just...
I just want more, too.
Yeah.
All right. I'm gonna go set up in here.
It won't be long.
-[Meri] Be quick, sir. -Okay, I'll be real quick.
You didn't cheat and look, did you?
-No. -Okay.
No, I did not cheat. I wanted to,
but I knew that our friendship was more important than that.
[both laugh]
Jenn is completely invested in this.
It's really fun for me because she's somebody that I can share this with.
I don't think, really, anybody in the family knows about it.
I want to share exciting things in my life
with people who are as excited for me
in those things.
So I just have kept this project close to me
and only shared it with the people who really care.
Obviously, my kiddos know about it, but other than that,
you know, nobody else in the family knows about it.
You know, so, Kody wants to come over
and see the new apartment that I've moved into.
It's fine.
[Kody] I don't know how to define the relationship
but I feel pathetically that she commonly rejects me.
Do you wanna reconcile? Not really.
It's almost that simple.
[Janelle] I think if he was dying to get back with me,
he would've called the counsellor,
he would be actively pursuing that,
but there's no communication or conversation about that.
[Kody] Neither of us was that interested.
Like, I'm trying to be interested
and I'm trying to talk about reconciliation.
I can't tell if the reason that I'm kind of being shy about it
is because she's constantly saying, well, I don't wanna reconcile,
or if I'm just kinda happy about
her not wanting to reconcile, so I'm like, well,
hey, let's go out next week and just talk about things.
[knock on door]
-Hi. [laughs] -Hi.
How's it going, sweetheart?
-Fine. -Good.
Kody has been making effort with Savanah.
He takes her out to dinner every couple of weeks.
He's seeing her more frequently than he was
at the beginning of the year, for sure.
Wow. Pretty cool place. [laughs]
-It's a lot bigger, huh? -Well, look at this.
This kitchen's awesome.
Ugh, okay. I guess, in a way, this is been a nice space because
he's not ever been into this space,
so it feels like it's kinda, like, my space.
I think it's better than anything I've had
probably in Flagstaff so far.
I've sort of, like, having it as, kind of, my little sanctuary.
-Do you like it? -Yeah.
-So you like this place a lot? -Yeah.
-Do you like it more than last place? -Yeah.
Like, more than the RV?
-Yeah. -[both laugh]
My relationship with Savanah is sweet.
Gentle.
I haven't been in touch with Gabriel and Garrison for quite a while.
I'm pretty sad that I'm not close anymore. There was just...
so many things in our lives that we did that were rich together, you know,
just special experiences.
And I think and hope that in time,
we'll just get over this.
And that we'll be safe being back around each other.
Right now, there's not really an open door
with Gabe and Garrison between--
They're not willing to engage me.
I need you to help me hang the art if you could
'cause you're better hanging pictures.
Okay.
I don't know.
I don't know how weird this is.
I mean, maybe it's just a test.
Hey, will you come over and hang pictures?
Sure, okay.
I mean...
Being married to four women, everything's a test.
"Pick me. Pick me. Do something for me. Do something for me."
That's what plural marriage can feel like sometimes.
-Go look at the bathroom. -Wow, it's huge.
Compared to what, other stuff we've had.
That's amazing.
A totally... wow.
Yeah, I like this place.
Uh, the other apartment was pretty cramped.
It was just dawning on me that maybe the whole reason Janelle moved here was because
the other apartment was our place.
And I was living there with her.
And she's moved here and doesn't look like I'll be living here with her.
-Is this a storage closet? -Laundry.
Wow.
It's "her" apartment. It's not "ours."
But there's no room for me. It's not about me and her.
Honestly, don't know why she's showing me.
Other than, well, I mean, our daughter lives there.
What is the shape of that?
-Round. -Circle?
[Meri] I don't like circles.
I've always been very well aware that I'm a control freak.
I need to take care of me because nobody else is going to.
We still have to pay off the land this year.
Yep.
I don't know if Kody will ever get his poop in a group and build out there.
So maybe they build, maybe they don't,
but guess what, there is such a thing as a really good high fence
and we can put those between the property.
So I don't even have to interact with them.
I'm ready.
Hey!
-Okay. -So are we.
I've always wanted to do something with this building.
And so it's kinda fun that it is now going to be usable space.
Wow, you, like, kinda went crazy.
-No. I designed a carriage house for you. -This is awesome. Oh!
-[Blair] So the office is in the corner here. -[Jenn] Okay.
These are gonna be the hanging shelves, the program--
-So that we can, like, hang clothes line. -Correct. All of that.
[Blair] All of these will be, you'll be able to hang clothes, yeah.
So far, I am loving it.
It looks so cool. It's really hard to imagine
that this space could look this awesome
because it just doesn't right now.
It's a cement floor and...
couple of walls.
[Blair] Uh, I mean I know we talked about this countertop,
but I still think you should do
a nice white granite or...
And you were against the white granite?
-She was, but look-- -I don't like white.
No, no, no. No white.
I do not want a solid white...
countertop on the island.
I don't like white.
-I like some pink sparkle. -Should we go like a nice gray?
-Pink sparkle? -Yeah.
I wasn't told about that.
Yeah, of course she's gonna suggest pink sparkle.
Because she is all kinds of pink
and sparkly and she knows that I am absolutely not.
Damn it. I'm wearing a frickin' pink shirt today. [laughs]
This is what she picked out.
Really? You didn't pick out that one?
[Blair] That's what I said.
[Jenn] Really?
I don't know why they're ganging up on me.
What is the shape of that?
-Round. -Circle?
What shape is that?
-More square. -Not circle?
I don't like circles.
Don't circle, don't sparkle. Don't circle, don't sparkle.
Circles are dumb.
Like, I get that we live on a round Earth.
But when you're trying to be like, efficient,
and using every bit of space, circles are the dumbest shape.
And this was originally circle
-as you'll see in my drawings, but we had to... -[Jenn laughs]
...quickly change that.
I never said I was an easy person to live with.
Listen.
Y'all saw me when I built my house in Las Vegas.
I see a boo boo.
I'm not having a sliding door, Kody.
I have said that from the beginning.
-Bye. -So what do you think?
It is a mistake.
Yes, you're right, it is.
Are these even?
I don't need more bedrooms.
All right, well...
But I might want a wet bar or a deck.
You can sit here and squabble about
whether it's off 1/13th or 24th of an inch...
-I'm not-- -...in six feet.
Meri really wants to be in charge of where things are placed.
And where... where, like... [chuckles]
She wants to be in charge of everything, yes.
She's a little bit of a control freak.
You know, the really cool thing about doing this project?
It's all mine.
Like, I don't have to worry about what Kody thinks or likes.
I mean, not that I had to for a really long time
'cause he's totally distanced himself from me
in our relationship, but, like,
this project gets to be my project.
And this wood on the floor.
-[Blair] For the floor, yep. -[Jenn] Yep.
[Blair] These are...
[Jenn] Are those island colors?
These are the wall colors, these three.
And these are the island colors.
And then look how well the white countertop goes with that.
[Blair] Please do a white countertop.
-I promise you once it's in and you see it -It looks really nice.
against the floor, against the brick.
You're gonna love it.
I have envisioned more of, like, a wood grain, a wood tone.
And he says that's not gonna be good.
But I say white is not gonna be good, so.
I think we're gonna have to be doing some searching.
Countertops.
You're not gonna see any of anything before the final reveal.
You understand that, right?
-Um... -Once all the hard stuff is done,
I'm gonna come in and put all the finishing touches on
and you're not gonna be able to come out
until we do the final reveal.
[laughs] He's not gonna let me even in to see it past a certain point.
And it'll probably be all pink and circles with a white countertop.
Yes, I love that.
-You can't. -I get to.
-No. Nobody does. -I'm gonna sneak in the window like that night.
-I will have fogged-- -You'll have like, no trespassing signs
and I'll have like a no trespass order.
The anxiety you're causing me right this second.
[Jenn] But I'm loving it. I love this so much.
[Blair] You're getting a big reveal.
I've always been very well aware that I'm a control freak.
I just wanna be in charge and I want it my way.
But what I've been understanding is
that comes from
kind of a place of self-protection,
like, I need to...
I need to take care of me because nobody else is going to.
And I know that that's something that I need to...
I need to, kind of,
let go of a little bit.
-This makes me so happy! -I can't wait to see it all.
I can't wait until it's done.
This day is a very good day.
Blair's designs are beautiful. I have no idea
what kind of countertop we're gonna have at this point,
but you know, I'm super excited.
Or maybe we could build a house,
a 1,500 sq ft house if you wanted.
He's not putting any money up for the house that I'm building.
So I don't understand this "we" thing.
[Kody] Looking at this apartment, I'm like,
it's really obvious to me I'm never gonna live in it.
I'm not even welcome here, I don't think.
That's why it's so awkward.
-I want a peek in your room. -She has another big bathroom.
[Kody] I have no idea why Janelle switched apartments.
If Janelle told me why she's moved,
I have forgotten because off the top of my head,
I don't remember why she moved.
Wow.
All right, this is pretty cool.
-How many square feet's the whole thing? -1,500.
-So it's bigger than the house design. -Yeah.
So right now, the house plans that I'm having drawn
for what I want to build on Coyote pass are 1,200 sq ft.
So this is actually a little bit bigger.
I don't think I wanna go with the design that,
you know, like, just doing a casita over a house if we're...
over a garage.
If we're, um,
if we're doing something bigger,
we might as well have the space.
It's either build a casita
or build the main house and the casita later.
And now that she's got this apartment,
maybe she just wants to build the main house.
[Janelle] He's not putting any money up for the house that I'm building.
So I don't understand this "we" thing.
I'm the one doing the financing.
I think it's a throwback to when we really did consider
all the family stuff belonging to the whole family.
But that really doesn't apply anymore.
Uh, we could build a house, a 1,500 sq ft house
or a 2,000 sq ft house with a garage if you wanted.
Instead of just building it small.
The point I'm trying to make is I think it's a waste
to just make the one house that she ever has out there,
a garage with a casita over it.
I mean, 1,200 sq ft on a full two acres?
It's just kind of, like, what's the point?
It doesn't work for me.
But I'm not... It's not even up to me anymore.
I just have opinions.
I don't know.
We just have to pay off the land this year.
Yeah.
Look, right now, I'm still seriously consider
building on the property because it represents
pretty much my estate, like, what I have to show for all these years.
And, um, the reality is,
I don't know if Kody will ever get his poop in a group and build out there.
So maybe they build, maybe they don't,
but guess what, there's such a thing as
a really good high fence and we can put those between the property.
So I don't even have to interact with them.
I think I'm gonna work on going through the storage unit
and working on fitting in the space.
I'm never gonna, I'm gonna be like,
if I build, that's gonna be this size.
So I might as well get rid of all the extra furniture and stuff.
At this point, I don't really see Kody
in the equation. I really just don't.
Cool.
-They'll let you hang pictures here? -Yeah.
-They're not worried about-- -Mm-mm.
They don't...
No, they fix it when you move out.
It's awesome. Cool.
I mean, this whole situation has been really awkward
and so we've kinda run out of the superficial things
to talk about now, so now we're all kinda like, uh...
It's really cool.
So why different countertops, I wonder.
Oh, I didn't ever notice.
I don't know.
A light one and a dark one.
-It's interesting. -I don't know. Who knows.
What if somebody broke it and they couldn't replace it?
-They just thought, "Let's get creative." -I didn't even notice, so.
I don't know what else to say.
I'm not even welcome here, I don't think.
That's why it's so awkward.
We have a much deeper sink too.
-Yeah. -The sink.
-Do you like that? -It's not so shallow.
[laughs]
We are all just trying to fill the space here, including Savanah.
[Kody] I'm looking at this apartment and I'm like,
it's really obvious to me I'm never gonna live in it.
Like, why am I talking about a deep sink?
Who cares because I'll never do dishes in there.
It's awesome.
Dog friendly.
So...
Here's the thing. It's like this double life that I'm living.
It's like being a polygamous. I'm sure some polygamous deal with this.
But I didn't have this experience in plural marriage,
till now.
I have a whole life outside of Savanah and Janelle.
But whenever I'm with them,
I don't talk about any of my other life.
And because that consumes most of my time
and most of my life,
I don't have anything to talk about.
Well, I don't know what else to say.
Should we go get something to eat?
-You wanna go... -Sure.
...get some dinner?
Kody came over,
it went better than I expected.
This is the first time he's been in my house since we had our fight.
So I think there's still echoes of that in my mind.
But there was no fireworks, there were no cross words,
we were all friendly, it went well.
It went better than I could have hoped for.
I asked Janelle once.
What is like, why can't we reconcile?
Let's try and reconcile. Why can't we...
Well... [sighs]
I don't know what your relationship with Robyn
and Meri are, but I'm just not interested
in being involved with those people.
And that's sad
'cause that's the deal we made about plural marriage.
If we're not together, then I don't know
why I would nurture relationship with Robyn and Meri.
There's not a lot in common, there's nowhere that we cross over.
I don't know why I would do that.
You know, so, like, it feels like something
he's trying to use to excuse his behavior.
Why would I wanna get back together with you?
It's your fault. You'll be a bad sister wife.
If I have to protect Robyn, you know,
this isn't a relationship with Meri.
I have to protect Robyn against you,
you're a bad sister wife.
When reality is,
he's never come to me and said,
"Hey, I love you. I miss you.
I wanna get this back together."
It's always about, "Don't you wanna get the family back together?"
So that his life can run smoothly again
and I'm done with that, I really am.
[Kody] It's sad, but it's unwound.
I can't get the puzzle pieces back together.
But I'm gonna ask her again next week if...
we might be able to reconcile.
[chuckles] And it's painful every time.
Maybe I should get more serious about it.
But every time, it's like, nope.
[sighs wearily]
[Meri] We really haven't had
any sort of marriage for, like, eight years.
Why don't we just be curious about each other and learn about each other and...
figure some things out? He's like, "I don't want to."
I don't know what's gonna happen,
I don't know what the future looks like.
Screw him. He's not worth it.
[Meri] So the last couple of months
has just been me doing a lot of processing and thinking.
I'm trying to figure things out.
Kody basically told me that he was never going to have a relationship
with me, and to...
Basically don't have any hope for it 'cause it's never gonna happen.
You know, and at this point, I don't know what I'm gonna do.
I'm on my way up to Parowan again.
[sighs] Because...
some trees are being torn down.
At my B and B.
I have to have two of the three, big,
huge pine trees in the front yard taken down.
They are leaning, the root structure is
a little bit compromised.
They're just huge and heavy, and for safety purposes,
they need to be removed.
It's gonna just change the whole look of the front yard of that house.
But they're old, but it makes me sad.
Like, super, super sad.
You know, here's the thing.
We all know I love trees. [chuckles]
Trees. Meri, you wanna be in the trees, right?
I like the trees, but I'm noticing with the house that I'm in,
it's like right in the trees and the house is really dark.
Like, who knows how long they've been here?
I literally have no idea.
They're massive. So I can only imagine
that they were here when Lizzy lived here.
Lizzy is my grandmother's mother.
So Lizzy did not have a sister wife.
They were not in a plural family.
However, Lizzy was raised in a plural family.
She had two moms.
Just the thought of tearing something down that was
here when my grandma was a kid,
that's really, really sad.
It's really sad.
Well,
this is it.
Look at that.
I'm so sad.
It looks kind of bare and empty.
But, you know, it's gotta get done.
Being here at the B and B in Parowan
has kind of become my safe space right now.
Kody and I had a conversation on our anniversary of all days.
I called him and I said, hey, happy anniversary, and he's like, thanks.
Happy anniversary to you, too.
So I'm like, hey, we should go out on a drive.
We'll go to dinner or something. He's like,
I mean, I'm watching Ariella and Solomon.
I'd have to ask Robyn.
[laughs] If she has any plans. I'm like, all right.
Ask Robyn if she has any plans. That was weird.
I actually talked to Robyn later
and I told her that he said that
and she's like, he's so dumb. I wouldn't make plans on that day. [laughs]
And at one point, he said, I don't even know
why you called me to say happy anniversary.
Meri, you know that we're never gonna have
a relationship again, right? And I said,
well, I'm okay with working on something.
He says, I don't wanna ever go back to what we were.
And I said, I'm good with that.
I don't believe in moving back.
Let's move forward.
Like, you and I are different people.
We don't even know who each other are right now.
Why don't we just be curious about each other
and learn about each other and figure some things out?
He's like, I don't want to.
Your life is not one that I wanna insert myself into.
I'm like...
okay, then.
[chainsaw whirring]
Let's clear out here.
You know, it's been a couple of months since that conversation
and I think about it often and also, I just don't wanna think about it.
We really haven't had
any sort of marriage for, like, eight years.
It's disappointing to me because
I know the person that he was when we got married.
I know the couple that we were.
[Christine] I was 18 when I met Kody and Meri.
They were so cute.
And everybody wanted to be around them.
They were the "it" couple.
He was so charming with her and just sweet with her.
That's why I became interested in Kody,
was because how well he treated Meri.
And I was like, yeah, sign me up for that.
When you come into a family as a plural wife,
you're looking to see how the relationships that came before you
are faring 'cause you're not coming into a relationship
if a man can't manage his family already.
Why would you sign up for that?
That's like,
all kinds of danger signs.
When I entered the family, Kody and Meri, they were in love.
They were attached. They were connected.
They did things together. They were always together.
They were a couple, for sure.
[Meri] I'm proud of myself. I'm proud of the person that I am.
It's just sad to me that
he couldn't see that there is value to,
you know, three decades of history.
I don't know what's gonna happen,
I don't know what the future looks like.
I don't know...
if I'm gonna stick around and just keep living...
life in this family.
Like I have been doing for quite a few years, like,
not a wife, just a member of the family, right? I could do that.
Or I could completely terminate it
or I could just, you know, stay in Flagstaff
and just keep doing what I'm doing and still just
kinda hope, you know, like...
He's made it clear that there's no point to hope.
So I just, yeah, I don't know what I'm gonna do.
There's a lack of real interest.
Not on my part.
Screw him. He's not worth it.
[chuckles]
[laughs]
It's scary to think about it.
I mean, it really is 'cause it's not what I wanted.
I didn't want him to come to me and be like,
mm, I really just don't wanna ever have a relationship with you again
and I really didn't want the trees to come down.
And yet, here we are.
Now that the trees are down,
it's not as bad as I expected it to be.
It's really not. It's weird.
It's not what I feared.
It's not as bad as I thought it was gonna be.
[Kody reading]
Everyone comes with a past.
Mine's really complicated.
[Kody] We're two desperate guys on the farm,
just trying to get the equipment work long enough for the harvest.
[laughs]
I don't miss Kody. I don't really miss Robyn.
I haven't talked to Meri in almost a year.
I mean, Janelle and I, we're the only part of our plural family that survived.
Change is good.
Kody and Robyn are living in monogamy.
Meri's not part of the equation with their family.
I'm having to fight hard to get my estate separated.
Robyn and I are gonna be like this.
You're not gonna separate us.