1 00:00:01,586 --> 00:00:03,000 [narrator] Previously on Sister Wives... 2 00:00:05,620 --> 00:00:07,344 I'm not ready. I'm scared. 3 00:00:07,379 --> 00:00:09,482 He's the only man I've ever kissed. 4 00:00:09,517 --> 00:00:11,482 Oh, my God, what if I'm second kissing? 5 00:00:11,517 --> 00:00:13,482 What if I'm second everything like that? 6 00:00:13,517 --> 00:00:17,379 I am going to downsize and move, 7 00:00:17,413 --> 00:00:19,827 uh, my clothing business out to the B and B. 8 00:00:19,862 --> 00:00:21,172 I wanna build a barndominium 9 00:00:21,206 --> 00:00:23,448 and you could live in that loft. 10 00:00:23,482 --> 00:00:26,620 He just wants to put me out there with all this stuff 11 00:00:26,655 --> 00:00:28,931 that he doesn't wanna see, he doesn't wanna deal with. 12 00:00:28,965 --> 00:00:32,034 The cars, the storage, the Meri... 13 00:00:32,827 --> 00:00:34,413 It's just insulting. 14 00:00:37,034 --> 00:00:38,310 I'm pregnant. 15 00:00:41,620 --> 00:00:42,793 Oh, my gosh, yes. 16 00:00:42,827 --> 00:00:43,862 -Now? -Yes. 17 00:00:45,379 --> 00:00:47,689 I've never seen a sonogram of twins before, 18 00:00:47,724 --> 00:00:48,689 ever, ever, ever. 19 00:00:48,724 --> 00:00:50,103 Oh, my God. 20 00:00:50,137 --> 00:00:52,310 I already love them so much. 21 00:01:21,033 --> 00:01:25,448 So today, we're having a 1950s themed 50th birthday party. 22 00:01:25,482 --> 00:01:27,068 I'm 50 years old. 23 00:01:27,103 --> 00:01:28,206 Aah! 24 00:01:28,241 --> 00:01:32,275 Oh, you are so strong. 25 00:01:32,310 --> 00:01:35,378 Janelle, Savanah, Garrison and Gabe are coming for my birthday. 26 00:01:35,413 --> 00:01:37,241 Janelle's sister and her husband 27 00:01:37,275 --> 00:01:38,896 and their kids are coming. 28 00:01:38,931 --> 00:01:40,620 All my kids who live here are coming. 29 00:01:40,655 --> 00:01:42,172 Isabelle is in town. 30 00:01:42,206 --> 00:01:45,758 We have one food truck and then we're having soda and shakes. 31 00:01:45,793 --> 00:01:49,723 'Kay, table settings are like this. 32 00:01:49,758 --> 00:01:53,758 No, I don't feel old. I feel fantastic. I feel great. 33 00:01:54,586 --> 00:01:55,655 -'Kay. -'Kay. 34 00:01:55,689 --> 00:01:57,033 -Two minutes we're out. -We're done? 35 00:01:57,068 --> 00:01:58,689 We have to look beautiful. Let's go. 36 00:01:58,723 --> 00:02:01,862 I love being single. 37 00:02:02,724 --> 00:02:05,448 I'm dating a bit, just having fun, 38 00:02:05,482 --> 00:02:07,931 just, all very... just fun. 39 00:02:07,965 --> 00:02:09,205 Aspyn, let's see. 40 00:02:09,931 --> 00:02:12,206 Oh, hey! 41 00:02:12,241 --> 00:02:14,068 Oh, my gosh, that's perfect. 42 00:02:14,103 --> 00:02:16,103 So I know Christine told us a couple of months ago 43 00:02:16,137 --> 00:02:18,379 that she'd been working with a matchmaker. 44 00:02:18,413 --> 00:02:20,206 Um, good. More power to you. 45 00:02:20,241 --> 00:02:24,413 I think Christine has been looking for a companion in her life. 46 00:02:24,448 --> 00:02:26,827 And Kody was not able to give her that. 47 00:02:26,862 --> 00:02:29,413 And so I think now, in this new life permutation, 48 00:02:29,448 --> 00:02:32,241 she's... she wants to find a partner to do it with. 49 00:02:32,275 --> 00:02:33,655 Come to Mama. 50 00:02:33,689 --> 00:02:34,758 Come on. 51 00:02:34,793 --> 00:02:36,965 Yeah. Whoo! 52 00:02:37,000 --> 00:02:38,275 [laughs] 53 00:02:38,310 --> 00:02:41,172 I'm so excited for my party, but also 54 00:02:41,206 --> 00:02:43,862 Mykelti has some very exciting news to share. 55 00:02:43,896 --> 00:02:46,137 I'm very excited about that too. 56 00:02:46,172 --> 00:02:47,413 Hey. Hey. 57 00:02:47,448 --> 00:02:49,620 Hey, you gotta show everybody, you know, 58 00:02:49,655 --> 00:02:51,103 you know, your thing, your thing. 59 00:02:51,137 --> 00:02:53,586 -Your secret. Your secret. -I don't have the thingy with me. 60 00:02:53,620 --> 00:02:56,344 -You have it? Where is it? -I have it in my phone. 61 00:02:56,965 --> 00:02:58,172 Okay. 62 00:02:58,206 --> 00:03:00,344 Okay, here's my... Here's my thingy. 63 00:03:00,379 --> 00:03:03,000 But I have something that makes my thingy cooler. 64 00:03:03,689 --> 00:03:05,413 That makes my thingy cooler. 65 00:03:05,448 --> 00:03:08,068 'Cause guess what? There's two! 66 00:03:08,103 --> 00:03:09,000 There's two. 67 00:03:09,034 --> 00:03:10,413 So Tony and I are pregnant 68 00:03:10,448 --> 00:03:12,103 -with twins. -With twins. 69 00:03:12,137 --> 00:03:15,310 Look, there's identical and fraternal and they are fraternal twins. 70 00:03:15,344 --> 00:03:17,379 They're not identical. They're gonna be different. 71 00:03:17,413 --> 00:03:19,344 They're having twins. [laughs] 72 00:03:19,379 --> 00:03:21,379 I don't feel like four arms are gonna be enough. 73 00:03:21,413 --> 00:03:24,000 I'm here. You guys live like 20 minutes away from me. 74 00:03:24,034 --> 00:03:27,551 Mykelti and Tony are gonna have three kids under the age of two. 75 00:03:27,586 --> 00:03:30,448 Oh, my gosh, that is so much work. 76 00:03:30,482 --> 00:03:32,965 But the doctors were like, "Oh, you're not supposed 77 00:03:33,000 --> 00:03:34,965 to be able to get pregnant while you're breastfeeding 78 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:37,862 and you're not supposed to be able to get twins without some help. 79 00:03:37,896 --> 00:03:40,067 And how did you do all that?" And we were like, 80 00:03:40,103 --> 00:03:41,930 uh, we just had sex, so. 81 00:03:41,965 --> 00:03:43,689 [both laughing] 82 00:03:43,724 --> 00:03:44,758 Nice. 83 00:03:44,793 --> 00:03:46,827 Way to go, guys. Way to excel. 84 00:03:46,862 --> 00:03:49,241 On Tony's side of the family, no twins. 85 00:03:49,275 --> 00:03:53,034 Uh, Kody has nieces that are twins. 86 00:03:53,067 --> 00:03:55,793 And my dad has brothers that are twins. 87 00:03:55,827 --> 00:03:58,896 Anyway, there are twins in the family. 88 00:03:58,930 --> 00:04:02,068 So Robyn and Dad know right now that we're expecting twins. 89 00:04:02,103 --> 00:04:05,517 We told them actually first 'cause, um, 90 00:04:05,551 --> 00:04:06,965 I needed help. [laughs] 91 00:04:07,000 --> 00:04:10,241 Uh, so, I know that Robyn, with her pregnancy, 92 00:04:10,275 --> 00:04:12,758 she had a lot of morning sickness and my mom didn't. 93 00:04:12,793 --> 00:04:15,379 So I talked to Robyn to basically like, 94 00:04:15,413 --> 00:04:18,413 what do I do? So they know. 95 00:04:18,447 --> 00:04:23,689 Um, I guess we were the first people that she told and I just... 96 00:04:23,724 --> 00:04:27,172 I mean, of course, I feel honored 97 00:04:27,206 --> 00:04:30,620 and like, I'm glad she feels safe doing that 98 00:04:30,655 --> 00:04:32,793 and we're just really excited for her. 99 00:04:32,827 --> 00:04:34,551 You know, more grand babies. 100 00:04:34,586 --> 00:04:37,068 You know, so, yeah. 101 00:04:37,103 --> 00:04:40,517 [Christine] Mykelti has an awesome relationship with Robyn and Kody. 102 00:04:40,551 --> 00:04:43,896 And it's going to be like that for the rest of their life. 103 00:04:43,931 --> 00:04:47,758 There is going to be things that she's going to tell Robyn and Kody first 104 00:04:47,793 --> 00:04:50,517 and there's gonna be things that she tells me first. 105 00:04:50,551 --> 00:04:54,103 It doesn't matter how I feel personally 106 00:04:54,137 --> 00:04:56,103 towards Robyn or towards Kody. 107 00:04:56,137 --> 00:04:58,482 That has no place here. 108 00:04:58,517 --> 00:04:59,931 Nothing to do with me. 109 00:04:59,965 --> 00:05:02,896 This is Mykelti's story, Mykelti's life. 110 00:05:02,931 --> 00:05:05,655 So tonight we're gonna tell everybody. 111 00:05:05,689 --> 00:05:07,000 We're gonna tell Janelle and her kids, 112 00:05:07,034 --> 00:05:08,689 everybody else that we're expecting twins. 113 00:05:09,862 --> 00:05:12,586 This will be perfect 'cause Mykelti can tell Janelle 114 00:05:12,620 --> 00:05:14,896 and my mom that she's pregnant with twins 115 00:05:14,931 --> 00:05:16,758 at my party, right? That's gonna be perfect. 116 00:05:16,793 --> 00:05:18,724 I mean, come on, that's amazing. 117 00:05:19,793 --> 00:05:21,482 Janelle's gonna be so excited. 118 00:05:21,517 --> 00:05:23,517 All Janelle and I care about are more grandchildren. 119 00:05:23,551 --> 00:05:25,724 It's true. In life, that's what we want. 120 00:05:25,758 --> 00:05:28,310 Welcome to my party! 121 00:05:28,344 --> 00:05:29,724 [all cheering] 122 00:05:30,896 --> 00:05:32,551 How are you, sweetheart? 123 00:05:33,862 --> 00:05:36,000 [Janelle] There was no question. I wanted to be there. 124 00:05:36,034 --> 00:05:40,551 Fun to celebrate with her in this amazing new life she's got, and 50. 125 00:05:40,586 --> 00:05:44,137 I'm 53, but you know, who's counting? [laughs] 126 00:05:44,172 --> 00:05:46,275 Janelle looks perfect! 127 00:05:46,310 --> 00:05:47,344 I love it. 128 00:05:48,103 --> 00:05:49,206 Janelle dressed up! 129 00:05:49,241 --> 00:05:51,000 Okay, I hoped she would dress up, 130 00:05:51,034 --> 00:05:52,517 I didn't know she would really dress up. 131 00:05:52,551 --> 00:05:55,034 And Savanah dressed up, and Garrison and Gabe. 132 00:05:55,068 --> 00:05:56,172 Everybody dressed up. 133 00:05:56,206 --> 00:05:57,896 [both laughing] 134 00:05:57,931 --> 00:05:59,310 Hi! 135 00:05:59,344 --> 00:06:00,655 This is my mom! 136 00:06:00,689 --> 00:06:03,068 My mom came too and she looks so cute! 137 00:06:03,103 --> 00:06:04,379 Oh, my God, that's Ashley. 138 00:06:04,413 --> 00:06:06,896 [squealing] 139 00:06:06,931 --> 00:06:09,724 -[Christine laughs] -[Ashley] Happy birthday! 140 00:06:09,758 --> 00:06:13,586 I'm gonna tell you I have this amazing full life here. 141 00:06:13,620 --> 00:06:14,586 It's beautiful. 142 00:06:14,620 --> 00:06:16,931 [Christine] Thank you! Fifty! 143 00:06:18,275 --> 00:06:19,413 Thank you. 144 00:06:21,724 --> 00:06:23,517 When we still lived in Flagstaff, 145 00:06:23,551 --> 00:06:26,482 they decriminalized plural marriage in Utah. 146 00:06:26,517 --> 00:06:30,206 And as soon as I found out, I was instantly excited 147 00:06:30,241 --> 00:06:32,413 to move back to Utah. Instantly. 148 00:06:32,448 --> 00:06:34,034 Polygamy got decriminalized. 149 00:06:34,827 --> 00:06:38,655 And I wonder why we're still here. 150 00:06:38,689 --> 00:06:40,413 We can move back home. 151 00:06:40,448 --> 00:06:42,758 We can move back home. 152 00:06:42,793 --> 00:06:47,275 We can be by family again, we can be back home. 153 00:06:48,413 --> 00:06:51,310 I wonder if we would've moved back. 154 00:06:51,344 --> 00:06:54,068 What we would look like now. 155 00:06:54,103 --> 00:06:56,379 I wonder where we would've settled. 156 00:06:56,413 --> 00:06:59,655 I wonder if I would've stayed. 157 00:06:59,689 --> 00:07:04,034 And to be honest, I think it would've just prolonged me leaving. 158 00:07:04,068 --> 00:07:06,758 I really don't think that where we lived, 159 00:07:06,793 --> 00:07:10,965 whether it would be Vegas or Flagstaff, or in Utah 160 00:07:11,000 --> 00:07:13,068 would've ever made a difference on 161 00:07:13,103 --> 00:07:15,137 our family and what has happened. 162 00:07:15,172 --> 00:07:20,793 You know, sometimes, I think about our decisions that we made in the past. 163 00:07:20,827 --> 00:07:24,448 And I think maybe if we wouldn't have moved to Flagstaff 164 00:07:24,482 --> 00:07:27,379 or maybe if we would've moved when Christine wanted to move to Utah, 165 00:07:27,413 --> 00:07:30,379 or we would've built faster on the property. 166 00:07:30,413 --> 00:07:33,965 I wonder if we'd still be together. 167 00:07:34,000 --> 00:07:35,896 [Janelle] You know, the writing was already on the wall. 168 00:07:35,931 --> 00:07:37,758 Kody really drove some big wedges 169 00:07:37,793 --> 00:07:39,655 in our family relationships. 170 00:07:39,689 --> 00:07:42,620 Kody's preference for Robyn became 171 00:07:42,655 --> 00:07:45,517 even more pronounced during that time. 172 00:07:45,551 --> 00:07:47,448 I don't think anything would've been different, 173 00:07:47,482 --> 00:07:49,517 we'd have just been in Utah. 174 00:07:49,551 --> 00:07:51,655 Everybody, really, really quick. 175 00:07:51,689 --> 00:07:54,344 Of course you guys see there's hamburgers and fries. 176 00:07:54,379 --> 00:07:56,413 Put in your order for what you would like. 177 00:07:56,448 --> 00:07:58,241 You guys can, like, help yourself. 178 00:07:58,275 --> 00:08:01,379 You can go in, there's places to sit down and thank you for coming. 179 00:08:01,413 --> 00:08:03,896 [all cheering] 180 00:08:03,931 --> 00:08:06,551 Are we gonna sing happy birthday now? 181 00:08:06,586 --> 00:08:09,379 I have a really... I have a really good exciting gift for you. 182 00:08:09,413 --> 00:08:10,758 -Yes. -Like I have something 183 00:08:10,793 --> 00:08:11,896 -that you're gonna like a lot. -Yes. 184 00:08:11,931 --> 00:08:14,310 Uh, it's your daughter pregnant with twins. 185 00:08:14,344 --> 00:08:16,068 [all cheering] 186 00:08:17,862 --> 00:08:20,379 -What? -I will take that present. 187 00:08:20,413 --> 00:08:21,551 With twins? 188 00:08:21,586 --> 00:08:23,551 I'm pregnant with twins. There's two of them right now. 189 00:08:24,724 --> 00:08:26,655 I'm pregnant with twins. 190 00:08:26,689 --> 00:08:28,137 [laughing] 191 00:08:29,551 --> 00:08:34,136 I'm excited and surprised and it's just everything. 192 00:08:34,172 --> 00:08:37,482 Like, I just, I'm sure they didn't either expect it to be so soon, 193 00:08:37,517 --> 00:08:39,309 but come on, twins! 194 00:08:39,344 --> 00:08:40,448 Twins! 195 00:08:40,482 --> 00:08:42,551 I'm so excited about this. 196 00:08:43,861 --> 00:08:46,517 -I'm so excited. -Thank you. 197 00:08:46,551 --> 00:08:47,655 Oh! 198 00:08:47,689 --> 00:08:50,275 Janelle cried a little bit. It was kind of sweet. 199 00:08:50,310 --> 00:08:53,482 Um, it's cool 'cause she's gonna be a grandma to twins as well. 200 00:08:53,517 --> 00:08:55,344 So it's really fun and sweet. It's cute. 201 00:08:55,379 --> 00:08:57,655 -And she doesn't cry a lot. -No. 202 00:08:57,689 --> 00:08:59,206 So it's extra special. 203 00:08:59,241 --> 00:09:01,827 Okay, now I think I need to have a house here or something. 204 00:09:01,862 --> 00:09:03,827 Yeah, there you go, yeah. 205 00:09:05,724 --> 00:09:08,344 -Party's going great. -Yeah, it's a fun party. 206 00:09:08,379 --> 00:09:10,448 I like the costumes. 207 00:09:10,482 --> 00:09:12,137 My mom's definitely having a good time. What do you think? 208 00:09:12,172 --> 00:09:13,379 -Yeah, she's loving it. -Yeah. 209 00:09:13,413 --> 00:09:15,103 This is great for her. 210 00:09:15,137 --> 00:09:17,448 Hey, guys, we're gonna start going inside. 211 00:09:17,482 --> 00:09:19,413 I wanna sit down to eat. 212 00:09:19,448 --> 00:09:22,862 You know what, this is such a fun party theme 213 00:09:22,896 --> 00:09:25,275 and she's completely decked it out inside. 214 00:09:25,310 --> 00:09:27,000 Like, she's got all this stuff on the walls 215 00:09:27,034 --> 00:09:28,620 and she's got a place to take pictures 216 00:09:28,655 --> 00:09:30,620 and everybody's dressed up. 217 00:09:30,655 --> 00:09:32,655 In a way, this feels like, 218 00:09:34,137 --> 00:09:37,862 a big declaration of independence in a way 219 00:09:37,896 --> 00:09:39,758 for this new life that she's got. 220 00:09:39,793 --> 00:09:41,068 [woman] Deck it out for like-- 221 00:09:41,103 --> 00:09:45,827 [all] ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 222 00:09:45,862 --> 00:09:50,275 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 223 00:09:50,310 --> 00:09:54,551 Kody and I, and our kids were not invited to Christine's birthday party. 224 00:09:54,586 --> 00:09:57,310 It's really hard for my kids and I 225 00:09:57,344 --> 00:10:00,655 when we find out that the family's gathering and doing things. 226 00:10:01,448 --> 00:10:03,551 It stings when we find out. 227 00:10:03,586 --> 00:10:05,551 I think it would be great to have Robyn's kids here 228 00:10:05,586 --> 00:10:07,862 because they should see their siblings. 229 00:10:07,896 --> 00:10:10,103 And Isabelle would be so flipping excited. 230 00:10:10,137 --> 00:10:11,310 She would love it. 231 00:10:11,344 --> 00:10:13,000 This isn't just, this isn't a place 232 00:10:13,034 --> 00:10:15,620 for a reunion like that anyway. It's just not. 233 00:10:16,379 --> 00:10:21,551 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 234 00:10:21,586 --> 00:10:23,103 [all cheering] 235 00:10:24,827 --> 00:10:26,517 Thank you so much for coming. 236 00:10:26,551 --> 00:10:27,758 [woman cheering] 237 00:10:29,758 --> 00:10:31,758 [all cheering] 238 00:10:33,896 --> 00:10:35,379 Look, I can't tell you what I wished for, 239 00:10:35,413 --> 00:10:38,413 but it has something to do with being in a romantic relationship again. 240 00:10:38,448 --> 00:10:41,275 Um, but I can't say anything because it won't come true. 241 00:10:41,310 --> 00:10:44,344 So we're just gonna leave it at that. 242 00:10:44,379 --> 00:10:46,724 -Okay, there's two cakes. -There's two cakes. 243 00:10:46,758 --> 00:10:49,103 Mykelti made them both from scratch. 244 00:10:49,137 --> 00:10:51,413 She's ridiculously perfect. 245 00:10:51,448 --> 00:10:54,344 Um, this one is heavily alcohol'd. 246 00:10:55,379 --> 00:10:57,655 This one is not alcohol'd at all. 247 00:10:57,689 --> 00:10:58,965 They're both chocolate. 248 00:10:59,000 --> 00:11:01,068 -Yay! -[all cheering] 249 00:11:01,103 --> 00:11:02,172 Chocolate! 250 00:11:03,310 --> 00:11:06,586 I had the alcohol one. [laughs] 251 00:11:06,620 --> 00:11:09,344 I had the alcohol one. I'm not a fool. [laughing] 252 00:11:09,379 --> 00:11:11,655 Whatever. I'm having a good time at my party. 253 00:11:11,689 --> 00:11:12,620 Hello. 254 00:11:12,655 --> 00:11:14,758 I had both. I had both cakes. 255 00:11:21,344 --> 00:11:24,517 What I will say is this is the easiest party I've been to. 256 00:11:24,551 --> 00:11:28,413 No politics, no waiting on somebody to come 'cause they're late. 257 00:11:28,448 --> 00:11:31,172 It's so easy to be here with just Christine and her kids. 258 00:11:31,206 --> 00:11:32,758 And it was a success. 259 00:11:32,793 --> 00:11:35,000 Brr! 260 00:11:37,000 --> 00:11:38,000 We're a family. 261 00:11:38,965 --> 00:11:41,344 Janelle and I, and our kids are a family. 262 00:11:41,379 --> 00:11:42,517 We're just gonna stick together 263 00:11:42,551 --> 00:11:44,586 and it means a lot to me that they're here. 264 00:11:50,413 --> 00:11:52,206 [Kody] I don't know how to define the relationship, 265 00:11:52,241 --> 00:11:56,758 but I feel pathetically that she commonly rejects me. 266 00:11:56,793 --> 00:11:58,931 [Janelle] I think if he was dying to get back with me, 267 00:11:58,965 --> 00:12:00,137 he would've called the counsellor. 268 00:12:00,172 --> 00:12:02,724 He would be actively pursuing that, 269 00:12:02,758 --> 00:12:05,724 but there's no communication or conversation about that. 270 00:12:15,689 --> 00:12:18,448 So not too long ago, I decided it would be better for me 271 00:12:18,482 --> 00:12:21,896 to move my clothing business up here to the B and B. 272 00:12:21,931 --> 00:12:27,172 I did mention it to Kody and he responded exactly 273 00:12:27,206 --> 00:12:29,172 how I thought that he would. 274 00:12:29,206 --> 00:12:31,793 He really just didn't care. 275 00:12:31,827 --> 00:12:34,068 My plan is to renovate the carriage house 276 00:12:34,103 --> 00:12:36,344 and just kinda run my business out of there. 277 00:12:36,379 --> 00:12:40,413 So my friend Blair is coming to show us 278 00:12:40,448 --> 00:12:42,517 the plans that he has 279 00:12:42,551 --> 00:12:44,896 for the carriage house renovation. 280 00:12:44,931 --> 00:12:47,241 -Hello. -Hi. 281 00:12:47,275 --> 00:12:48,586 -How are you? -Welcome. 282 00:12:48,620 --> 00:12:51,275 Blair's business is interior design. 283 00:12:51,310 --> 00:12:55,206 So of course, I'm hiring him to do this job for me. 284 00:12:55,241 --> 00:12:56,758 I'm really excited about it. 285 00:12:56,793 --> 00:12:59,586 We have to wait until Jenn gets back to actually show us. 286 00:12:59,620 --> 00:13:00,620 Okay. 287 00:13:00,655 --> 00:13:02,413 -But we can go look at the-- -Let's do it. 288 00:13:02,448 --> 00:13:03,413 -You wanna do that? -Yes. 289 00:13:03,448 --> 00:13:04,551 -Let's go. -Okay, awesome. 290 00:13:04,586 --> 00:13:07,931 Jenn is very important to this process. 291 00:13:07,965 --> 00:13:11,896 She's my best friend and she's talked me through a lot of, like, 292 00:13:11,931 --> 00:13:15,310 the questions and a lot of the ideas and options. 293 00:13:15,344 --> 00:13:19,241 So she definitely needs to be involved in this whole process. 294 00:13:19,275 --> 00:13:22,517 -It's so good to have you back. -I'm so excited to be here. 295 00:13:22,551 --> 00:13:26,000 So I've kind of talked about, like, the theme that I want 296 00:13:26,034 --> 00:13:28,310 and that is industrial. 297 00:13:28,344 --> 00:13:30,896 Industrial, steam punk, I love that. 298 00:13:30,931 --> 00:13:34,241 Like, all the gears and all the, like, 299 00:13:34,275 --> 00:13:36,413 wood and brick. 300 00:13:36,448 --> 00:13:37,517 It's what I like. 301 00:13:38,172 --> 00:13:39,896 There's the carriage house. 302 00:13:39,931 --> 00:13:44,000 I know that Meri is in a plural family and, um, 303 00:13:44,034 --> 00:13:47,275 honestly, it doesn't faze me. She's no different than 304 00:13:47,310 --> 00:13:48,931 any of my other close friends. 305 00:13:48,965 --> 00:13:51,137 Um, you know, she's got a heart of gold 306 00:13:51,172 --> 00:13:53,793 and she's a great lady, so. 307 00:13:53,827 --> 00:13:58,068 I've known Blair and his husband for probably four or five years. 308 00:13:58,103 --> 00:14:01,206 Um, we did meet online initially, 309 00:14:01,241 --> 00:14:03,137 but eventually in person. 310 00:14:03,172 --> 00:14:06,689 We've been kind of cautiously talking just because 311 00:14:06,724 --> 00:14:09,275 there's so many people, obviously... [laughs] 312 00:14:09,310 --> 00:14:14,620 put themselves out there as being somebody other than they really are. 313 00:14:14,655 --> 00:14:17,896 So you have to be very careful with people that you meet online. 314 00:14:20,068 --> 00:14:22,965 So I was catfished quite a few years ago 315 00:14:23,000 --> 00:14:26,172 with a big fat liar. 316 00:14:26,206 --> 00:14:30,137 That whole story was so completely blown out of proportion, 317 00:14:30,172 --> 00:14:32,379 so much crap was made up about it 318 00:14:32,413 --> 00:14:37,206 and I still kind of have a hard time talking about it just because 319 00:14:37,241 --> 00:14:40,793 everybody has their opinions about it, but like, I know my truth. 320 00:14:40,827 --> 00:14:43,241 Like, even with our families, some of our own family 321 00:14:43,275 --> 00:14:44,551 has their own opinions about it. 322 00:14:44,586 --> 00:14:46,655 It's like, I know my truth. 323 00:14:46,689 --> 00:14:50,000 So I talked to people online for business all the time 324 00:14:50,034 --> 00:14:52,379 and one of my prerequisites 325 00:14:52,413 --> 00:14:54,931 is that I do a video chat with them. 326 00:14:54,965 --> 00:14:58,034 I just wanna make sure that they are a legit person. 327 00:15:00,655 --> 00:15:02,931 Okay, so, in here, 328 00:15:02,965 --> 00:15:05,689 this used to be like so full. 329 00:15:05,724 --> 00:15:09,482 [Blair] It's actually much emptier than it was last time I was here. 330 00:15:09,517 --> 00:15:13,379 Okay, so you wanna do kind of, like, a workspace here 331 00:15:13,413 --> 00:15:16,655 and then a main island where you can do 332 00:15:16,689 --> 00:15:18,827 -all your-- -Yeah, I need a big workspace. 333 00:15:18,862 --> 00:15:19,965 [Blair] With a lot of storage. 334 00:15:20,000 --> 00:15:21,379 [Meri] And then... yes. 335 00:15:21,413 --> 00:15:25,482 And the dressing room, fitting room will go on this wall. 336 00:15:25,517 --> 00:15:28,931 My business mostly is online, but I also wanna have 337 00:15:28,965 --> 00:15:32,689 the option if I want to bring people into the space 338 00:15:32,724 --> 00:15:34,172 for them to be able to shop there. 339 00:15:34,206 --> 00:15:37,241 So definitely having a fitting room is important. 340 00:15:38,551 --> 00:15:40,862 -[Blair] She's here. -Hi. 341 00:15:40,896 --> 00:15:42,310 We've been waiting for you. 342 00:15:42,344 --> 00:15:43,310 [Jenn] I'm sorry. 343 00:15:43,344 --> 00:15:46,103 -[Blair laughs] -I almost told him 344 00:15:46,137 --> 00:15:48,137 -could we just do without her? -She did. 345 00:15:48,172 --> 00:15:50,068 -She was begging me. -No, that's not an option. 346 00:15:50,103 --> 00:15:53,172 I know Jenn from when we used to live in Las Vegas. 347 00:15:53,206 --> 00:15:57,103 I wish that, like, Meri and I could be more light. 348 00:15:57,137 --> 00:15:59,620 Like her and Jenn are with each other. 349 00:15:59,655 --> 00:16:02,068 I really do, but I know that 350 00:16:02,103 --> 00:16:04,379 the role that we have with each other 351 00:16:04,413 --> 00:16:06,344 is sort of consoling each other 352 00:16:06,379 --> 00:16:09,344 and helping each other through that trauma that we've gone through 353 00:16:09,379 --> 00:16:10,827 with everything. 354 00:16:10,862 --> 00:16:12,862 And I'm not jealous. I'm just... 355 00:16:13,862 --> 00:16:15,379 I just want more, too. 356 00:16:15,758 --> 00:16:16,931 Yeah. 357 00:16:16,965 --> 00:16:18,793 All right. I'm gonna go set up in here. 358 00:16:18,827 --> 00:16:20,000 It won't be long. 359 00:16:20,034 --> 00:16:22,448 -[Meri] Be quick, sir. -Okay, I'll be real quick. 360 00:16:22,482 --> 00:16:24,172 You didn't cheat and look, did you? 361 00:16:24,206 --> 00:16:25,275 -No. -Okay. 362 00:16:25,310 --> 00:16:28,689 No, I did not cheat. I wanted to, 363 00:16:28,724 --> 00:16:32,103 but I knew that our friendship was more important than that. 364 00:16:32,137 --> 00:16:33,275 [both laugh] 365 00:16:33,310 --> 00:16:36,103 Jenn is completely invested in this. 366 00:16:36,137 --> 00:16:39,758 It's really fun for me because she's somebody that I can share this with. 367 00:16:42,689 --> 00:16:47,103 I don't think, really, anybody in the family knows about it. 368 00:16:47,137 --> 00:16:50,482 I want to share exciting things in my life 369 00:16:50,517 --> 00:16:52,689 with people who are as excited for me 370 00:16:52,724 --> 00:16:54,965 in those things. 371 00:16:55,000 --> 00:16:58,068 So I just have kept this project close to me 372 00:16:58,103 --> 00:17:01,241 and only shared it with the people who really care. 373 00:17:01,275 --> 00:17:05,550 Obviously, my kiddos know about it, but other than that, 374 00:17:05,586 --> 00:17:08,275 you know, nobody else in the family knows about it. 375 00:17:21,586 --> 00:17:23,931 You know, so, Kody wants to come over 376 00:17:23,964 --> 00:17:26,000 and see the new apartment that I've moved into. 377 00:17:26,034 --> 00:17:27,205 It's fine. 378 00:17:27,241 --> 00:17:29,379 [Kody] I don't know how to define the relationship 379 00:17:29,413 --> 00:17:34,000 but I feel pathetically that she commonly rejects me. 380 00:17:34,034 --> 00:17:36,482 Do you wanna reconcile? Not really. 381 00:17:36,517 --> 00:17:38,517 It's almost that simple. 382 00:17:38,551 --> 00:17:40,896 [Janelle] I think if he was dying to get back with me, 383 00:17:40,931 --> 00:17:42,172 he would've called the counsellor, 384 00:17:42,206 --> 00:17:44,620 he would be actively pursuing that, 385 00:17:44,655 --> 00:17:47,758 but there's no communication or conversation about that. 386 00:17:49,206 --> 00:17:50,896 [Kody] Neither of us was that interested. 387 00:17:50,931 --> 00:17:52,965 Like, I'm trying to be interested 388 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:55,482 and I'm trying to talk about reconciliation. 389 00:17:55,517 --> 00:17:59,724 I can't tell if the reason that I'm kind of being shy about it 390 00:17:59,758 --> 00:18:03,689 is because she's constantly saying, well, I don't wanna reconcile, 391 00:18:03,724 --> 00:18:05,310 or if I'm just kinda happy about 392 00:18:05,344 --> 00:18:07,379 her not wanting to reconcile, so I'm like, well, 393 00:18:07,413 --> 00:18:11,241 hey, let's go out next week and just talk about things. 394 00:18:11,689 --> 00:18:13,206 [knock on door] 395 00:18:15,448 --> 00:18:16,517 -Hi. [laughs] -Hi. 396 00:18:16,551 --> 00:18:17,793 How's it going, sweetheart? 397 00:18:17,827 --> 00:18:19,034 -Fine. -Good. 398 00:18:19,068 --> 00:18:22,344 Kody has been making effort with Savanah. 399 00:18:22,379 --> 00:18:25,000 He takes her out to dinner every couple of weeks. 400 00:18:25,034 --> 00:18:26,931 He's seeing her more frequently than he was 401 00:18:26,965 --> 00:18:28,586 at the beginning of the year, for sure. 402 00:18:29,724 --> 00:18:32,758 Wow. Pretty cool place. [laughs] 403 00:18:32,793 --> 00:18:34,551 -It's a lot bigger, huh? -Well, look at this. 404 00:18:34,586 --> 00:18:36,931 This kitchen's awesome. 405 00:18:36,965 --> 00:18:42,034 Ugh, okay. I guess, in a way, this is been a nice space because 406 00:18:42,068 --> 00:18:44,000 he's not ever been into this space, 407 00:18:44,034 --> 00:18:45,896 so it feels like it's kinda, like, my space. 408 00:18:45,931 --> 00:18:48,172 I think it's better than anything I've had 409 00:18:48,206 --> 00:18:50,000 probably in Flagstaff so far. 410 00:18:50,034 --> 00:18:53,724 I've sort of, like, having it as, kind of, my little sanctuary. 411 00:18:53,758 --> 00:18:55,137 -Do you like it? -Yeah. 412 00:18:55,172 --> 00:18:56,655 -So you like this place a lot? -Yeah. 413 00:18:56,689 --> 00:18:58,517 -Do you like it more than last place? -Yeah. 414 00:18:58,551 --> 00:19:00,172 Like, more than the RV? 415 00:19:00,206 --> 00:19:01,896 -Yeah. -[both laugh] 416 00:19:01,931 --> 00:19:04,241 My relationship with Savanah is sweet. 417 00:19:04,275 --> 00:19:06,137 Gentle. 418 00:19:06,172 --> 00:19:09,655 I haven't been in touch with Gabriel and Garrison for quite a while. 419 00:19:09,689 --> 00:19:13,344 I'm pretty sad that I'm not close anymore. There was just... 420 00:19:13,379 --> 00:19:16,517 so many things in our lives that we did that were rich together, you know, 421 00:19:16,551 --> 00:19:18,379 just special experiences. 422 00:19:18,413 --> 00:19:21,000 And I think and hope that in time, 423 00:19:21,689 --> 00:19:23,827 we'll just get over this. 424 00:19:23,862 --> 00:19:26,620 And that we'll be safe being back around each other. 425 00:19:26,655 --> 00:19:28,689 Right now, there's not really an open door 426 00:19:28,724 --> 00:19:30,379 with Gabe and Garrison between-- 427 00:19:30,413 --> 00:19:34,068 They're not willing to engage me. 428 00:19:34,103 --> 00:19:36,896 I need you to help me hang the art if you could 429 00:19:36,931 --> 00:19:38,827 'cause you're better hanging pictures. 430 00:19:38,862 --> 00:19:40,103 Okay. 431 00:19:40,137 --> 00:19:41,310 I don't know. 432 00:19:41,344 --> 00:19:42,551 I don't know how weird this is. 433 00:19:42,586 --> 00:19:43,896 I mean, maybe it's just a test. 434 00:19:43,931 --> 00:19:45,379 Hey, will you come over and hang pictures? 435 00:19:45,413 --> 00:19:46,517 Sure, okay. 436 00:19:46,896 --> 00:19:48,068 I mean... 437 00:19:48,103 --> 00:19:51,275 Being married to four women, everything's a test. 438 00:19:51,310 --> 00:19:54,862 "Pick me. Pick me. Do something for me. Do something for me." 439 00:19:54,896 --> 00:19:58,000 That's what plural marriage can feel like sometimes. 440 00:19:59,620 --> 00:20:02,137 -Go look at the bathroom. -Wow, it's huge. 441 00:20:02,172 --> 00:20:04,103 Compared to what, other stuff we've had. 442 00:20:04,137 --> 00:20:06,206 That's amazing. 443 00:20:06,241 --> 00:20:08,931 A totally... wow. 444 00:20:08,965 --> 00:20:10,344 Yeah, I like this place. 445 00:20:10,379 --> 00:20:12,931 Uh, the other apartment was pretty cramped. 446 00:20:12,965 --> 00:20:17,000 It was just dawning on me that maybe the whole reason Janelle moved here was because 447 00:20:17,034 --> 00:20:19,586 the other apartment was our place. 448 00:20:19,620 --> 00:20:21,517 And I was living there with her. 449 00:20:21,551 --> 00:20:25,310 And she's moved here and doesn't look like I'll be living here with her. 450 00:20:25,344 --> 00:20:27,758 -Is this a storage closet? -Laundry. 451 00:20:27,793 --> 00:20:29,344 Wow. 452 00:20:29,379 --> 00:20:32,206 It's "her" apartment. It's not "ours." 453 00:20:32,241 --> 00:20:35,448 But there's no room for me. It's not about me and her. 454 00:20:35,482 --> 00:20:38,034 Honestly, don't know why she's showing me. 455 00:20:38,068 --> 00:20:41,275 Other than, well, I mean, our daughter lives there. 456 00:20:46,517 --> 00:20:48,965 What is the shape of that? 457 00:20:49,000 --> 00:20:50,620 -Round. -Circle? 458 00:20:50,655 --> 00:20:52,310 [Meri] I don't like circles. 459 00:20:52,344 --> 00:20:55,965 I've always been very well aware that I'm a control freak. 460 00:20:56,000 --> 00:20:59,206 I need to take care of me because nobody else is going to. 461 00:20:59,241 --> 00:21:01,310 We still have to pay off the land this year. 462 00:21:01,344 --> 00:21:02,896 Yep. 463 00:21:02,931 --> 00:21:05,448 I don't know if Kody will ever get his poop in a group and build out there. 464 00:21:05,482 --> 00:21:07,379 So maybe they build, maybe they don't, 465 00:21:07,413 --> 00:21:10,103 but guess what, there is such a thing as a really good high fence 466 00:21:10,137 --> 00:21:11,793 and we can put those between the property. 467 00:21:11,827 --> 00:21:13,517 So I don't even have to interact with them. 468 00:21:23,379 --> 00:21:24,448 I'm ready. 469 00:21:24,482 --> 00:21:25,517 Hey! 470 00:21:25,551 --> 00:21:26,689 -Okay. -So are we. 471 00:21:26,724 --> 00:21:30,068 I've always wanted to do something with this building. 472 00:21:30,103 --> 00:21:34,931 And so it's kinda fun that it is now going to be usable space. 473 00:21:34,965 --> 00:21:37,965 Wow, you, like, kinda went crazy. 474 00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:42,068 -No. I designed a carriage house for you. -This is awesome. Oh! 475 00:21:42,103 --> 00:21:44,655 -[Blair] So the office is in the corner here. -[Jenn] Okay. 476 00:21:44,689 --> 00:21:47,413 These are gonna be the hanging shelves, the program-- 477 00:21:47,448 --> 00:21:50,275 -So that we can, like, hang clothes line. -Correct. All of that. 478 00:21:50,310 --> 00:21:53,241 [Blair] All of these will be, you'll be able to hang clothes, yeah. 479 00:21:53,275 --> 00:21:55,448 So far, I am loving it. 480 00:21:55,482 --> 00:21:58,206 It looks so cool. It's really hard to imagine 481 00:21:58,241 --> 00:22:01,758 that this space could look this awesome 482 00:22:01,793 --> 00:22:03,965 because it just doesn't right now. 483 00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:05,068 It's a cement floor and... 484 00:22:06,172 --> 00:22:07,482 couple of walls. 485 00:22:07,517 --> 00:22:10,241 [Blair] Uh, I mean I know we talked about this countertop, 486 00:22:10,275 --> 00:22:12,655 but I still think you should do 487 00:22:12,689 --> 00:22:15,068 a nice white granite or... 488 00:22:15,103 --> 00:22:17,310 And you were against the white granite? 489 00:22:17,344 --> 00:22:19,689 -She was, but look-- -I don't like white. 490 00:22:19,724 --> 00:22:22,275 No, no, no. No white. 491 00:22:22,310 --> 00:22:24,620 I do not want a solid white... 492 00:22:25,551 --> 00:22:27,482 countertop on the island. 493 00:22:27,517 --> 00:22:28,793 I don't like white. 494 00:22:28,827 --> 00:22:30,655 -I like some pink sparkle. -Should we go like a nice gray? 495 00:22:30,689 --> 00:22:32,172 -Pink sparkle? -Yeah. 496 00:22:32,206 --> 00:22:33,551 I wasn't told about that. 497 00:22:33,586 --> 00:22:36,896 Yeah, of course she's gonna suggest pink sparkle. 498 00:22:36,931 --> 00:22:39,000 Because she is all kinds of pink 499 00:22:39,034 --> 00:22:43,448 and sparkly and she knows that I am absolutely not. 500 00:22:43,482 --> 00:22:48,965 Damn it. I'm wearing a frickin' pink shirt today. [laughs] 501 00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:50,379 This is what she picked out. 502 00:22:50,413 --> 00:22:52,137 Really? You didn't pick out that one? 503 00:22:52,172 --> 00:22:53,206 [Blair] That's what I said. 504 00:22:53,241 --> 00:22:54,206 [Jenn] Really? 505 00:22:54,241 --> 00:22:57,413 I don't know why they're ganging up on me. 506 00:22:57,448 --> 00:23:00,413 What is the shape of that? 507 00:23:00,448 --> 00:23:02,068 -Round. -Circle? 508 00:23:02,103 --> 00:23:03,724 What shape is that? 509 00:23:03,758 --> 00:23:05,379 -More square. -Not circle? 510 00:23:05,413 --> 00:23:07,172 I don't like circles. 511 00:23:07,206 --> 00:23:09,655 Don't circle, don't sparkle. Don't circle, don't sparkle. 512 00:23:09,689 --> 00:23:11,655 Circles are dumb. 513 00:23:11,689 --> 00:23:14,275 Like, I get that we live on a round Earth. 514 00:23:14,310 --> 00:23:17,620 But when you're trying to be like, efficient, 515 00:23:17,655 --> 00:23:21,931 and using every bit of space, circles are the dumbest shape. 516 00:23:21,965 --> 00:23:24,275 And this was originally circle 517 00:23:24,310 --> 00:23:27,000 -as you'll see in my drawings, but we had to... -[Jenn laughs] 518 00:23:27,034 --> 00:23:29,103 ...quickly change that. 519 00:23:29,137 --> 00:23:32,275 I never said I was an easy person to live with. 520 00:23:32,310 --> 00:23:33,482 Listen. 521 00:23:33,517 --> 00:23:36,655 Y'all saw me when I built my house in Las Vegas. 522 00:23:37,551 --> 00:23:38,862 I see a boo boo. 523 00:23:38,896 --> 00:23:41,482 I'm not having a sliding door, Kody. 524 00:23:41,517 --> 00:23:42,758 I have said that from the beginning. 525 00:23:42,793 --> 00:23:44,344 -Bye. -So what do you think? 526 00:23:44,379 --> 00:23:46,310 It is a mistake. 527 00:23:46,344 --> 00:23:48,586 Yes, you're right, it is. 528 00:23:48,620 --> 00:23:50,275 Are these even? 529 00:23:50,310 --> 00:23:51,793 I don't need more bedrooms. 530 00:23:51,827 --> 00:23:52,793 All right, well... 531 00:23:52,827 --> 00:23:54,965 But I might want a wet bar or a deck. 532 00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:56,827 You can sit here and squabble about 533 00:23:56,862 --> 00:24:01,482 whether it's off 1/13th or 24th of an inch... 534 00:24:01,517 --> 00:24:03,000 -I'm not-- -...in six feet. 535 00:24:03,034 --> 00:24:06,724 Meri really wants to be in charge of where things are placed. 536 00:24:06,758 --> 00:24:09,586 And where... where, like... [chuckles] 537 00:24:09,620 --> 00:24:11,655 She wants to be in charge of everything, yes. 538 00:24:11,689 --> 00:24:14,931 She's a little bit of a control freak. 539 00:24:14,965 --> 00:24:18,068 You know, the really cool thing about doing this project? 540 00:24:19,034 --> 00:24:20,448 It's all mine. 541 00:24:20,482 --> 00:24:24,482 Like, I don't have to worry about what Kody thinks or likes. 542 00:24:24,517 --> 00:24:26,413 I mean, not that I had to for a really long time 543 00:24:26,448 --> 00:24:29,172 'cause he's totally distanced himself from me 544 00:24:29,206 --> 00:24:31,413 in our relationship, but, like, 545 00:24:32,482 --> 00:24:34,793 this project gets to be my project. 546 00:24:35,586 --> 00:24:37,965 And this wood on the floor. 547 00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:39,137 -[Blair] For the floor, yep. -[Jenn] Yep. 548 00:24:41,758 --> 00:24:43,034 [Blair] These are... 549 00:24:43,068 --> 00:24:44,413 [Jenn] Are those island colors? 550 00:24:44,448 --> 00:24:46,827 These are the wall colors, these three. 551 00:24:48,172 --> 00:24:50,241 And these are the island colors. 552 00:24:50,275 --> 00:24:53,724 And then look how well the white countertop goes with that. 553 00:24:53,758 --> 00:24:55,137 [Blair] Please do a white countertop. 554 00:24:55,172 --> 00:24:58,586 -I promise you once it's in and you see it -It looks really nice. 555 00:24:58,620 --> 00:25:01,137 against the floor, against the brick. 556 00:25:01,793 --> 00:25:03,241 You're gonna love it. 557 00:25:03,275 --> 00:25:09,103 I have envisioned more of, like, a wood grain, a wood tone. 558 00:25:09,137 --> 00:25:11,689 And he says that's not gonna be good. 559 00:25:11,724 --> 00:25:15,172 But I say white is not gonna be good, so. 560 00:25:16,310 --> 00:25:19,793 I think we're gonna have to be doing some searching. 561 00:25:19,827 --> 00:25:21,241 Countertops. 562 00:25:21,275 --> 00:25:24,068 You're not gonna see any of anything before the final reveal. 563 00:25:24,103 --> 00:25:25,137 You understand that, right? 564 00:25:25,172 --> 00:25:27,482 -Um... -Once all the hard stuff is done, 565 00:25:27,517 --> 00:25:30,413 I'm gonna come in and put all the finishing touches on 566 00:25:30,448 --> 00:25:32,000 and you're not gonna be able to come out 567 00:25:32,034 --> 00:25:33,517 until we do the final reveal. 568 00:25:33,551 --> 00:25:38,965 [laughs] He's not gonna let me even in to see it past a certain point. 569 00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:43,931 And it'll probably be all pink and circles with a white countertop. 570 00:25:43,965 --> 00:25:45,758 Yes, I love that. 571 00:25:45,793 --> 00:25:47,310 -You can't. -I get to. 572 00:25:47,344 --> 00:25:50,965 -No. Nobody does. -I'm gonna sneak in the window like that night. 573 00:25:51,000 --> 00:25:53,482 -I will have fogged-- -You'll have like, no trespassing signs 574 00:25:53,517 --> 00:25:55,448 and I'll have like a no trespass order. 575 00:25:55,482 --> 00:25:57,620 The anxiety you're causing me right this second. 576 00:25:57,655 --> 00:26:00,000 [Jenn] But I'm loving it. I love this so much. 577 00:26:00,034 --> 00:26:02,103 [Blair] You're getting a big reveal. 578 00:26:02,137 --> 00:26:03,344 You're getting a big reveal. 579 00:26:03,379 --> 00:26:06,896 I've always been very well aware that I'm a control freak. 580 00:26:06,931 --> 00:26:09,655 I just wanna be in charge and I want it my way. 581 00:26:09,689 --> 00:26:12,206 But what I've been understanding is 582 00:26:12,241 --> 00:26:14,862 that comes from 583 00:26:15,793 --> 00:26:18,448 kind of a place of self-protection, 584 00:26:18,482 --> 00:26:20,931 like, I need to... 585 00:26:20,965 --> 00:26:23,724 I need to take care of me because nobody else is going to. 586 00:26:23,758 --> 00:26:26,275 And I know that that's something that I need to... 587 00:26:27,034 --> 00:26:28,103 I need to, kind of, 588 00:26:29,034 --> 00:26:30,862 let go of a little bit. 589 00:26:30,896 --> 00:26:32,862 -This makes me so happy! -I can't wait to see it all. 590 00:26:34,000 --> 00:26:35,931 I can't wait until it's done. 591 00:26:35,965 --> 00:26:39,517 This day is a very good day. 592 00:26:39,551 --> 00:26:42,827 Blair's designs are beautiful. I have no idea 593 00:26:42,862 --> 00:26:45,965 what kind of countertop we're gonna have at this point, 594 00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:48,241 but you know, I'm super excited. 595 00:26:53,586 --> 00:26:55,827 Or maybe we could build a house, 596 00:26:55,862 --> 00:26:59,137 a 1,500 sq ft house if you wanted. 597 00:26:59,172 --> 00:27:02,068 He's not putting any money up for the house that I'm building. 598 00:27:02,103 --> 00:27:03,965 So I don't understand this "we" thing. 599 00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:05,896 [Kody] Looking at this apartment, I'm like, 600 00:27:05,931 --> 00:27:08,862 it's really obvious to me I'm never gonna live in it. 601 00:27:08,896 --> 00:27:10,551 I'm not even welcome here, I don't think. 602 00:27:10,586 --> 00:27:12,034 That's why it's so awkward. 603 00:27:24,827 --> 00:27:28,241 -I want a peek in your room. -She has another big bathroom. 604 00:27:28,275 --> 00:27:30,586 [Kody] I have no idea why Janelle switched apartments. 605 00:27:30,620 --> 00:27:32,482 If Janelle told me why she's moved, 606 00:27:32,517 --> 00:27:34,655 I have forgotten because off the top of my head, 607 00:27:34,689 --> 00:27:36,586 I don't remember why she moved. 608 00:27:36,620 --> 00:27:38,137 Wow. 609 00:27:38,172 --> 00:27:39,965 All right, this is pretty cool. 610 00:27:40,000 --> 00:27:42,620 -How many square feet's the whole thing? -1,500. 611 00:27:42,655 --> 00:27:45,448 -So it's bigger than the house design. -Yeah. 612 00:27:45,482 --> 00:27:48,241 So right now, the house plans that I'm having drawn 613 00:27:48,275 --> 00:27:52,482 for what I want to build on Coyote pass are 1,200 sq ft. 614 00:27:52,517 --> 00:27:54,655 So this is actually a little bit bigger. 615 00:27:54,689 --> 00:27:56,965 I don't think I wanna go with the design that, 616 00:27:57,000 --> 00:28:00,551 you know, like, just doing a casita over a house if we're... 617 00:28:01,620 --> 00:28:03,172 over a garage. 618 00:28:03,206 --> 00:28:05,206 If we're, um, 619 00:28:05,241 --> 00:28:07,103 if we're doing something bigger, 620 00:28:07,137 --> 00:28:08,551 we might as well have the space. 621 00:28:08,586 --> 00:28:10,655 It's either build a casita 622 00:28:10,689 --> 00:28:13,517 or build the main house and the casita later. 623 00:28:13,551 --> 00:28:15,206 And now that she's got this apartment, 624 00:28:15,241 --> 00:28:17,310 maybe she just wants to build the main house. 625 00:28:17,344 --> 00:28:20,172 [Janelle] He's not putting any money up for the house that I'm building. 626 00:28:20,206 --> 00:28:22,172 So I don't understand this "we" thing. 627 00:28:22,206 --> 00:28:24,413 I'm the one doing the financing. 628 00:28:24,448 --> 00:28:27,034 I think it's a throwback to when we really did consider 629 00:28:27,068 --> 00:28:30,241 all the family stuff belonging to the whole family. 630 00:28:30,275 --> 00:28:32,758 But that really doesn't apply anymore. 631 00:28:32,793 --> 00:28:37,172 Uh, we could build a house, a 1,500 sq ft house 632 00:28:37,206 --> 00:28:40,689 or a 2,000 sq ft house with a garage if you wanted. 633 00:28:40,724 --> 00:28:43,620 Instead of just building it small. 634 00:28:43,655 --> 00:28:45,758 The point I'm trying to make is I think it's a waste 635 00:28:45,793 --> 00:28:48,965 to just make the one house that she ever has out there, 636 00:28:49,000 --> 00:28:51,689 a garage with a casita over it. 637 00:28:51,724 --> 00:28:54,551 I mean, 1,200 sq ft on a full two acres? 638 00:28:54,586 --> 00:28:57,827 It's just kind of, like, what's the point? 639 00:28:57,862 --> 00:28:59,724 It doesn't work for me. 640 00:28:59,758 --> 00:29:03,310 But I'm not... It's not even up to me anymore. 641 00:29:03,344 --> 00:29:04,758 I just have opinions. 642 00:29:05,965 --> 00:29:07,103 I don't know. 643 00:29:07,137 --> 00:29:09,413 We just have to pay off the land this year. 644 00:29:09,448 --> 00:29:11,000 Yeah. 645 00:29:11,034 --> 00:29:13,482 Look, right now, I'm still seriously consider 646 00:29:13,517 --> 00:29:17,344 building on the property because it represents 647 00:29:17,379 --> 00:29:21,379 pretty much my estate, like, what I have to show for all these years. 648 00:29:21,413 --> 00:29:24,413 And, um, the reality is, 649 00:29:24,448 --> 00:29:27,586 I don't know if Kody will ever get his poop in a group and build out there. 650 00:29:27,620 --> 00:29:29,241 So maybe they build, maybe they don't, 651 00:29:29,275 --> 00:29:30,655 but guess what, there's such a thing as 652 00:29:30,689 --> 00:29:33,862 a really good high fence and we can put those between the property. 653 00:29:33,896 --> 00:29:35,620 So I don't even have to interact with them. 654 00:29:37,034 --> 00:29:38,931 I think I'm gonna work on going through the storage unit 655 00:29:38,965 --> 00:29:40,310 and working on fitting in the space. 656 00:29:40,344 --> 00:29:42,034 I'm never gonna, I'm gonna be like, 657 00:29:42,068 --> 00:29:45,206 if I build, that's gonna be this size. 658 00:29:45,241 --> 00:29:48,689 So I might as well get rid of all the extra furniture and stuff. 659 00:29:50,724 --> 00:29:52,586 At this point, I don't really see Kody 660 00:29:52,620 --> 00:29:55,413 in the equation. I really just don't. 661 00:29:55,448 --> 00:29:56,862 Cool. 662 00:29:56,896 --> 00:29:58,793 -They'll let you hang pictures here? -Yeah. 663 00:29:58,827 --> 00:30:00,620 -They're not worried about-- -Mm-mm. 664 00:30:00,655 --> 00:30:02,310 They don't... 665 00:30:02,344 --> 00:30:03,620 No, they fix it when you move out. 666 00:30:03,655 --> 00:30:05,793 It's awesome. Cool. 667 00:30:11,689 --> 00:30:14,448 I mean, this whole situation has been really awkward 668 00:30:14,482 --> 00:30:17,310 and so we've kinda run out of the superficial things 669 00:30:17,344 --> 00:30:20,034 to talk about now, so now we're all kinda like, uh... 670 00:30:21,517 --> 00:30:23,103 It's really cool. 671 00:30:23,137 --> 00:30:25,068 So why different countertops, I wonder. 672 00:30:26,896 --> 00:30:28,379 Oh, I didn't ever notice. 673 00:30:28,413 --> 00:30:29,517 I don't know. 674 00:30:29,551 --> 00:30:31,275 A light one and a dark one. 675 00:30:31,310 --> 00:30:32,931 -It's interesting. -I don't know. Who knows. 676 00:30:34,379 --> 00:30:36,448 What if somebody broke it and they couldn't replace it? 677 00:30:36,482 --> 00:30:40,344 -They just thought, "Let's get creative." -I didn't even notice, so. 678 00:30:41,620 --> 00:30:43,620 I don't know what else to say. 679 00:30:44,965 --> 00:30:46,655 I'm not even welcome here, I don't think. 680 00:30:46,689 --> 00:30:48,379 That's why it's so awkward. 681 00:30:48,413 --> 00:30:51,586 We have a much deeper sink too. 682 00:30:51,620 --> 00:30:52,793 -Yeah. -The sink. 683 00:30:52,827 --> 00:30:54,655 -Do you like that? -It's not so shallow. 684 00:30:57,241 --> 00:30:58,655 [laughs] 685 00:30:58,689 --> 00:31:03,241 We are all just trying to fill the space here, including Savanah. 686 00:31:03,275 --> 00:31:06,034 [Kody] I'm looking at this apartment and I'm like, 687 00:31:06,068 --> 00:31:08,344 it's really obvious to me I'm never gonna live in it. 688 00:31:09,517 --> 00:31:11,620 Like, why am I talking about a deep sink? 689 00:31:11,655 --> 00:31:13,965 Who cares because I'll never do dishes in there. 690 00:31:15,275 --> 00:31:16,620 It's awesome. 691 00:31:16,655 --> 00:31:18,000 Dog friendly. 692 00:31:19,034 --> 00:31:20,103 So... 693 00:31:22,172 --> 00:31:24,896 Here's the thing. It's like this double life that I'm living. 694 00:31:24,931 --> 00:31:27,724 It's like being a polygamous. I'm sure some polygamous deal with this. 695 00:31:27,758 --> 00:31:31,172 But I didn't have this experience in plural marriage, 696 00:31:31,206 --> 00:31:32,344 till now. 697 00:31:32,379 --> 00:31:36,241 I have a whole life outside of Savanah and Janelle. 698 00:31:36,275 --> 00:31:38,620 But whenever I'm with them, 699 00:31:38,655 --> 00:31:41,482 I don't talk about any of my other life. 700 00:31:41,517 --> 00:31:43,413 And because that consumes most of my time 701 00:31:43,448 --> 00:31:45,793 and most of my life, 702 00:31:45,827 --> 00:31:47,965 I don't have anything to talk about. 703 00:31:48,000 --> 00:31:49,586 Well, I don't know what else to say. 704 00:31:49,620 --> 00:31:50,862 Should we go get something to eat? 705 00:31:50,896 --> 00:31:52,068 -You wanna go... -Sure. 706 00:31:52,103 --> 00:31:53,068 ...get some dinner? 707 00:31:54,275 --> 00:31:55,862 Kody came over, 708 00:31:55,896 --> 00:31:57,482 it went better than I expected. 709 00:31:57,517 --> 00:32:01,586 This is the first time he's been in my house since we had our fight. 710 00:32:01,620 --> 00:32:04,379 So I think there's still echoes of that in my mind. 711 00:32:04,413 --> 00:32:06,862 But there was no fireworks, there were no cross words, 712 00:32:06,896 --> 00:32:09,172 we were all friendly, it went well. 713 00:32:09,206 --> 00:32:11,517 It went better than I could have hoped for. 714 00:32:14,103 --> 00:32:15,551 I asked Janelle once. 715 00:32:16,862 --> 00:32:19,620 What is like, why can't we reconcile? 716 00:32:19,655 --> 00:32:21,620 Let's try and reconcile. Why can't we... 717 00:32:22,482 --> 00:32:23,724 Well... [sighs] 718 00:32:23,758 --> 00:32:25,724 I don't know what your relationship with Robyn 719 00:32:25,758 --> 00:32:27,655 and Meri are, but I'm just not interested 720 00:32:27,689 --> 00:32:29,551 in being involved with those people. 721 00:32:30,965 --> 00:32:33,034 And that's sad 722 00:32:33,068 --> 00:32:36,241 'cause that's the deal we made about plural marriage. 723 00:32:37,517 --> 00:32:38,896 If we're not together, then I don't know 724 00:32:38,931 --> 00:32:42,689 why I would nurture relationship with Robyn and Meri. 725 00:32:42,724 --> 00:32:45,724 There's not a lot in common, there's nowhere that we cross over. 726 00:32:45,758 --> 00:32:48,000 I don't know why I would do that. 727 00:32:48,034 --> 00:32:49,758 You know, so, like, it feels like something 728 00:32:49,793 --> 00:32:52,724 he's trying to use to excuse his behavior. 729 00:32:52,758 --> 00:32:54,517 Why would I wanna get back together with you? 730 00:32:54,551 --> 00:32:57,034 It's your fault. You'll be a bad sister wife. 731 00:32:57,068 --> 00:32:59,448 If I have to protect Robyn, you know, 732 00:32:59,482 --> 00:33:01,344 this isn't a relationship with Meri. 733 00:33:01,379 --> 00:33:03,000 I have to protect Robyn against you, 734 00:33:03,034 --> 00:33:04,517 you're a bad sister wife. 735 00:33:04,551 --> 00:33:06,655 When reality is, 736 00:33:07,620 --> 00:33:09,655 he's never come to me and said, 737 00:33:09,689 --> 00:33:13,137 "Hey, I love you. I miss you. 738 00:33:13,172 --> 00:33:15,206 I wanna get this back together." 739 00:33:15,241 --> 00:33:19,068 It's always about, "Don't you wanna get the family back together?" 740 00:33:19,103 --> 00:33:21,137 So that his life can run smoothly again 741 00:33:21,172 --> 00:33:23,241 and I'm done with that, I really am. 742 00:33:25,206 --> 00:33:27,206 [Kody] It's sad, but it's unwound. 743 00:33:28,896 --> 00:33:31,103 I can't get the puzzle pieces back together. 744 00:33:36,827 --> 00:33:38,620 But I'm gonna ask her again next week if... 745 00:33:40,586 --> 00:33:43,965 we might be able to reconcile. 746 00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:47,241 [chuckles] And it's painful every time. 747 00:33:49,448 --> 00:33:51,310 Maybe I should get more serious about it. 748 00:33:53,137 --> 00:33:55,413 But every time, it's like, nope. 749 00:33:57,172 --> 00:33:58,517 [sighs wearily] 750 00:34:03,413 --> 00:34:06,275 [Meri] We really haven't had 751 00:34:06,310 --> 00:34:09,103 any sort of marriage for, like, eight years. 752 00:34:09,137 --> 00:34:13,655 Why don't we just be curious about each other and learn about each other and... 753 00:34:13,688 --> 00:34:17,068 figure some things out? He's like, "I don't want to." 754 00:34:17,103 --> 00:34:18,827 I don't know what's gonna happen, 755 00:34:18,862 --> 00:34:20,896 I don't know what the future looks like. 756 00:34:21,793 --> 00:34:23,793 Screw him. He's not worth it. 757 00:34:35,724 --> 00:34:37,724 [Meri] So the last couple of months 758 00:34:37,757 --> 00:34:41,413 has just been me doing a lot of processing and thinking. 759 00:34:41,447 --> 00:34:43,068 I'm trying to figure things out. 760 00:34:43,103 --> 00:34:48,379 Kody basically told me that he was never going to have a relationship 761 00:34:48,413 --> 00:34:50,275 with me, and to... 762 00:34:52,068 --> 00:34:55,172 Basically don't have any hope for it 'cause it's never gonna happen. 763 00:34:55,206 --> 00:34:57,896 You know, and at this point, I don't know what I'm gonna do. 764 00:34:57,931 --> 00:35:00,068 I'm on my way up to Parowan again. 765 00:35:01,172 --> 00:35:02,862 [sighs] Because... 766 00:35:05,793 --> 00:35:09,896 some trees are being torn down. 767 00:35:11,034 --> 00:35:13,034 At my B and B. 768 00:35:13,068 --> 00:35:17,448 I have to have two of the three, big, 769 00:35:17,482 --> 00:35:20,758 huge pine trees in the front yard taken down. 770 00:35:20,793 --> 00:35:24,275 They are leaning, the root structure is 771 00:35:24,310 --> 00:35:26,655 a little bit compromised. 772 00:35:26,689 --> 00:35:31,517 They're just huge and heavy, and for safety purposes, 773 00:35:31,551 --> 00:35:33,068 they need to be removed. 774 00:35:33,103 --> 00:35:38,206 It's gonna just change the whole look of the front yard of that house. 775 00:35:39,344 --> 00:35:41,517 But they're old, but it makes me sad. 776 00:35:42,517 --> 00:35:44,310 Like, super, super sad. 777 00:35:45,275 --> 00:35:47,310 You know, here's the thing. 778 00:35:47,344 --> 00:35:50,068 We all know I love trees. [chuckles] 779 00:35:50,103 --> 00:35:52,344 Trees. Meri, you wanna be in the trees, right? 780 00:35:52,379 --> 00:35:55,793 I like the trees, but I'm noticing with the house that I'm in, 781 00:35:55,827 --> 00:35:59,586 it's like right in the trees and the house is really dark. 782 00:35:59,620 --> 00:36:02,310 Like, who knows how long they've been here? 783 00:36:02,344 --> 00:36:04,241 I literally have no idea. 784 00:36:05,241 --> 00:36:08,379 They're massive. So I can only imagine 785 00:36:08,413 --> 00:36:10,689 that they were here when Lizzy lived here. 786 00:36:10,724 --> 00:36:13,206 Lizzy is my grandmother's mother. 787 00:36:13,241 --> 00:36:14,931 So Lizzy did not have a sister wife. 788 00:36:14,965 --> 00:36:16,655 They were not in a plural family. 789 00:36:16,689 --> 00:36:20,137 However, Lizzy was raised in a plural family. 790 00:36:20,172 --> 00:36:21,758 She had two moms. 791 00:36:21,793 --> 00:36:24,965 Just the thought of tearing something down that was 792 00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:27,068 here when my grandma was a kid, 793 00:36:27,103 --> 00:36:28,620 that's really, really sad. 794 00:36:28,655 --> 00:36:29,793 It's really sad. 795 00:36:30,241 --> 00:36:31,344 Well, 796 00:36:32,241 --> 00:36:33,344 this is it. 797 00:36:34,344 --> 00:36:35,620 Look at that. 798 00:36:38,517 --> 00:36:40,413 I'm so sad. 799 00:36:41,724 --> 00:36:44,103 It looks kind of bare and empty. 800 00:36:45,172 --> 00:36:49,068 But, you know, it's gotta get done. 801 00:36:49,103 --> 00:36:51,827 Being here at the B and B in Parowan 802 00:36:51,862 --> 00:36:55,655 has kind of become my safe space right now. 803 00:36:55,689 --> 00:37:01,620 Kody and I had a conversation on our anniversary of all days. 804 00:37:01,655 --> 00:37:07,172 I called him and I said, hey, happy anniversary, and he's like, thanks. 805 00:37:07,206 --> 00:37:09,344 Happy anniversary to you, too. 806 00:37:10,551 --> 00:37:13,310 So I'm like, hey, we should go out on a drive. 807 00:37:13,344 --> 00:37:15,206 We'll go to dinner or something. He's like, 808 00:37:16,344 --> 00:37:19,689 I mean, I'm watching Ariella and Solomon. 809 00:37:19,724 --> 00:37:21,689 I'd have to ask Robyn. 810 00:37:21,724 --> 00:37:25,034 [laughs] If she has any plans. I'm like, all right. 811 00:37:25,068 --> 00:37:28,275 Ask Robyn if she has any plans. That was weird. 812 00:37:28,310 --> 00:37:31,034 I actually talked to Robyn later 813 00:37:31,068 --> 00:37:32,827 and I told her that he said that 814 00:37:32,862 --> 00:37:37,517 and she's like, he's so dumb. I wouldn't make plans on that day. [laughs] 815 00:37:37,551 --> 00:37:40,517 And at one point, he said, I don't even know 816 00:37:40,551 --> 00:37:42,931 why you called me to say happy anniversary. 817 00:37:42,965 --> 00:37:45,344 Meri, you know that we're never gonna have 818 00:37:45,379 --> 00:37:47,758 a relationship again, right? And I said, 819 00:37:47,793 --> 00:37:52,068 well, I'm okay with working on something. 820 00:37:52,103 --> 00:37:55,689 He says, I don't wanna ever go back to what we were. 821 00:37:55,724 --> 00:37:57,862 And I said, I'm good with that. 822 00:37:57,896 --> 00:38:00,137 I don't believe in moving back. 823 00:38:00,172 --> 00:38:01,862 Let's move forward. 824 00:38:03,206 --> 00:38:05,379 Like, you and I are different people. 825 00:38:05,413 --> 00:38:08,793 We don't even know who each other are right now. 826 00:38:08,827 --> 00:38:10,965 Why don't we just be curious about each other 827 00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:13,793 and learn about each other and figure some things out? 828 00:38:13,827 --> 00:38:15,172 He's like, I don't want to. 829 00:38:15,206 --> 00:38:18,344 Your life is not one that I wanna insert myself into. 830 00:38:19,344 --> 00:38:20,586 I'm like... 831 00:38:21,551 --> 00:38:23,172 okay, then. 832 00:38:23,206 --> 00:38:25,793 [chainsaw whirring] 833 00:38:28,034 --> 00:38:29,758 Let's clear out here. 834 00:38:29,793 --> 00:38:33,034 You know, it's been a couple of months since that conversation 835 00:38:33,068 --> 00:38:37,344 and I think about it often and also, I just don't wanna think about it. 836 00:38:37,379 --> 00:38:40,655 We really haven't had 837 00:38:40,689 --> 00:38:43,310 any sort of marriage for, like, eight years. 838 00:38:45,103 --> 00:38:48,310 It's disappointing to me because 839 00:38:48,344 --> 00:38:50,827 I know the person that he was when we got married. 840 00:38:50,862 --> 00:38:54,103 I know the couple that we were. 841 00:38:54,137 --> 00:38:56,620 [Christine] I was 18 when I met Kody and Meri. 842 00:38:56,655 --> 00:38:58,379 They were so cute. 843 00:38:58,413 --> 00:39:00,517 And everybody wanted to be around them. 844 00:39:00,551 --> 00:39:02,137 They were the "it" couple. 845 00:39:02,172 --> 00:39:06,620 He was so charming with her and just sweet with her. 846 00:39:06,655 --> 00:39:09,310 That's why I became interested in Kody, 847 00:39:09,344 --> 00:39:11,586 was because how well he treated Meri. 848 00:39:11,620 --> 00:39:13,758 And I was like, yeah, sign me up for that. 849 00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:17,655 When you come into a family as a plural wife, 850 00:39:17,689 --> 00:39:21,551 you're looking to see how the relationships that came before you 851 00:39:21,586 --> 00:39:24,448 are faring 'cause you're not coming into a relationship 852 00:39:24,482 --> 00:39:27,379 if a man can't manage his family already. 853 00:39:27,413 --> 00:39:28,655 Why would you sign up for that? 854 00:39:28,689 --> 00:39:29,827 That's like, 855 00:39:30,482 --> 00:39:33,000 all kinds of danger signs. 856 00:39:33,034 --> 00:39:36,103 When I entered the family, Kody and Meri, they were in love. 857 00:39:36,137 --> 00:39:38,551 They were attached. They were connected. 858 00:39:38,586 --> 00:39:41,586 They did things together. They were always together. 859 00:39:41,620 --> 00:39:43,379 They were a couple, for sure. 860 00:39:51,344 --> 00:39:53,896 [Meri] I'm proud of myself. I'm proud of the person that I am. 861 00:39:53,931 --> 00:39:57,206 It's just sad to me that 862 00:39:57,241 --> 00:40:01,379 he couldn't see that there is value to, 863 00:40:01,413 --> 00:40:03,551 you know, three decades of history. 864 00:40:08,655 --> 00:40:10,517 I don't know what's gonna happen, 865 00:40:10,551 --> 00:40:12,551 I don't know what the future looks like. 866 00:40:12,586 --> 00:40:15,034 I don't know... 867 00:40:15,068 --> 00:40:19,655 if I'm gonna stick around and just keep living... 868 00:40:21,275 --> 00:40:23,620 life in this family. 869 00:40:23,655 --> 00:40:27,448 Like I have been doing for quite a few years, like, 870 00:40:27,482 --> 00:40:32,413 not a wife, just a member of the family, right? I could do that. 871 00:40:34,689 --> 00:40:37,931 Or I could completely terminate it 872 00:40:37,965 --> 00:40:40,586 or I could just, you know, stay in Flagstaff 873 00:40:40,620 --> 00:40:42,517 and just keep doing what I'm doing and still just 874 00:40:42,551 --> 00:40:44,206 kinda hope, you know, like... 875 00:40:44,241 --> 00:40:46,517 He's made it clear that there's no point to hope. 876 00:40:46,551 --> 00:40:51,206 So I just, yeah, I don't know what I'm gonna do. 877 00:40:51,241 --> 00:40:54,000 There's a lack of real interest. 878 00:40:56,655 --> 00:40:58,172 Not on my part. 879 00:40:59,344 --> 00:41:01,517 Screw him. He's not worth it. 880 00:41:02,310 --> 00:41:03,724 [chuckles] 881 00:41:04,620 --> 00:41:06,275 [laughs] 882 00:41:06,310 --> 00:41:08,862 It's scary to think about it. 883 00:41:08,896 --> 00:41:12,344 I mean, it really is 'cause it's not what I wanted. 884 00:41:12,379 --> 00:41:14,655 I didn't want him to come to me and be like, 885 00:41:14,689 --> 00:41:17,586 mm, I really just don't wanna ever have a relationship with you again 886 00:41:17,620 --> 00:41:19,758 and I really didn't want the trees to come down. 887 00:41:21,068 --> 00:41:22,344 And yet, here we are. 888 00:41:31,172 --> 00:41:33,000 Now that the trees are down, 889 00:41:34,862 --> 00:41:37,896 it's not as bad as I expected it to be. 890 00:41:39,103 --> 00:41:41,103 It's really not. It's weird. 891 00:41:43,413 --> 00:41:44,827 It's not what I feared. 892 00:41:44,862 --> 00:41:47,517 It's not as bad as I thought it was gonna be. 893 00:41:52,896 --> 00:41:54,655 [Kody reading] 894 00:41:56,620 --> 00:41:57,862 Everyone comes with a past. 895 00:41:57,896 --> 00:41:59,517 Mine's really complicated. 896 00:42:03,551 --> 00:42:05,758 [Kody] We're two desperate guys on the farm, 897 00:42:05,793 --> 00:42:08,827 just trying to get the equipment work long enough for the harvest. 898 00:42:08,862 --> 00:42:10,275 [laughs] 899 00:42:12,206 --> 00:42:15,034 I don't miss Kody. I don't really miss Robyn. 900 00:42:15,068 --> 00:42:17,655 I haven't talked to Meri in almost a year. 901 00:42:17,689 --> 00:42:21,482 I mean, Janelle and I, we're the only part of our plural family that survived. 902 00:42:22,793 --> 00:42:24,689 Change is good. 903 00:42:24,724 --> 00:42:26,965 Kody and Robyn are living in monogamy. 904 00:42:27,000 --> 00:42:30,241 Meri's not part of the equation with their family. 905 00:42:30,275 --> 00:42:33,689 I'm having to fight hard to get my estate separated. 906 00:42:33,724 --> 00:42:36,000 Robyn and I are gonna be like this. 907 00:42:36,034 --> 00:42:37,413 You're not gonna separate us.