1 00:00:02,870 --> 00:00:03,971 - PREVIOUSLY ON AWKWARD... 2 00:00:03,971 --> 00:00:06,107 - I WAS WRAPPED UP IN MY COCOON... 3 00:00:06,107 --> 00:00:07,441 MY COCOON OF MATTY. 4 00:00:07,441 --> 00:00:09,143 - JACQUES! 5 00:00:09,143 --> 00:00:11,145 - JAKE AND I DTR'ED LAST NIGHT! 6 00:00:11,145 --> 00:00:12,813 - RICKY IS DEAD TO ME. 7 00:00:12,813 --> 00:00:19,987 - RICKY SCHWARTZ ES MUERTO. 8 00:00:19,987 --> 00:00:21,722 - * TO ALL THE GIRLS I'VE LOVED BEFORE... * 9 00:00:21,722 --> 00:00:24,425 - DEATH. IT WAS AN INEVITABLE PART OF LIFE. 10 00:00:24,425 --> 00:00:26,594 AND WHILE IT WAS A FATE THAT AWAITED US ALL, 11 00:00:26,594 --> 00:00:28,762 THE UNEXPECTED DEATH OF RICKY SCHWARTZ 12 00:00:28,762 --> 00:00:31,399 WAS A SHOCK TO EVERYONE'S SYSTEM. 13 00:00:31,399 --> 00:00:35,203 NOT TO MENTION, FOR A RITUAL CALLED "SITTING SHIVA," 14 00:00:35,203 --> 00:00:36,970 WE HAD BEEN DOING A LOT OF STANDING. 15 00:00:36,970 --> 00:00:38,639 UNFORTUNATELY, SOME PEEPS COULDN'T HELP 16 00:00:38,639 --> 00:00:40,007 BUT LOCK THEIR KNEES, 17 00:00:40,007 --> 00:00:43,777 'CAUSE EVERYONE PROCESSED LOSS IN THEIR OWN WAY. 18 00:00:43,777 --> 00:00:46,814 FOR SOME, SORROW WAS EXTERNALIZED OPENLY. 19 00:00:46,814 --> 00:00:49,083 WHILE OTHERS, SURPRISINGLY... 20 00:00:49,083 --> 00:00:50,584 KEPT IT MORE IN CHECK. 21 00:00:50,584 --> 00:00:51,785 - I'M GOOD, THANKS. 22 00:00:51,785 --> 00:00:53,020 - THERE WAS NO RIGHT OR WRONG WAY 23 00:00:53,020 --> 00:00:55,156 TO REACT TO A DEATH. 24 00:00:55,156 --> 00:00:57,358 GRIEVING WAS PERSONAL. 25 00:00:57,358 --> 00:00:58,759 - RICKY WOULD'VE BEEN TRULY WARMED 26 00:00:58,759 --> 00:01:00,761 BY THE LOVE YOU ALL BRING TO THIS ROOM TODAY. 27 00:01:00,761 --> 00:01:02,263 WHILE HE WAS AN INCREDIBLY MODEST 28 00:01:02,263 --> 00:01:05,032 AND HUMBLE YOUNG MAN AND A GIFTED MUSICIAN, 29 00:01:05,032 --> 00:01:06,567 WHAT MANY OF YOU DIDN'T KNOW 30 00:01:06,567 --> 00:01:09,303 WAS THAT HIS REAL PASSION AND LOVE WAS FOR PAINTING. 31 00:01:09,303 --> 00:01:12,206 HIS FAVORITE PIECE, A COLORFUL SELF-PORTRAIT 32 00:01:12,206 --> 00:01:17,911 OF WHAT HE SAID PERSONIFIED HIS INNER SELF. 33 00:01:17,911 --> 00:01:20,148 TO ME, IT'S THE PERFECT REFLECTION 34 00:01:20,148 --> 00:01:23,217 OF HIS SENSE OF FUN AND HUMOR. 35 00:01:23,217 --> 00:01:25,186 - OR HIS DESIRE TO BE A PIMP. 36 00:01:25,186 --> 00:01:27,455 - NOW, PLEASE, JOIN US IN CELEBRATING RICKY'S LIFE 37 00:01:27,455 --> 00:01:31,058 WITH A VIEWING OF HIS ARTWORK AND A SMORGASBORD. 38 00:01:32,726 --> 00:01:34,962 - BAGELS, LATKE, COTTON CANDY? 39 00:01:34,962 --> 00:01:37,331 - I'M NOT HUNGRY. 40 00:01:37,331 --> 00:01:39,633 - TAMARA'S BEEN TOTALLY UNCOMMUNICATIVE LATELY WHICH, 41 00:01:39,633 --> 00:01:42,236 AS YOU KNOW, IS... both: NOT NORMAL. 42 00:01:42,236 --> 00:01:44,172 - WHAT SHOULD I DO? - NOTHING. 43 00:01:44,172 --> 00:01:45,506 SHE'S PROCESSING, 44 00:01:45,506 --> 00:01:49,076 AND PROBABLY JUST TRYING TO WORK SOME THINGS OUT. 45 00:01:49,076 --> 00:01:50,478 LIKE RICKY. 46 00:01:50,478 --> 00:01:52,613 APPARENTLY HE WAS WORKING SOMETHING OUT TOO. 47 00:01:52,613 --> 00:01:54,047 - MORE LIKE RUBBING IT OUT. 48 00:01:54,047 --> 00:01:55,716 WHAT'S WITH THE LATENT FIXATION ON BOOBS? 49 00:01:55,716 --> 00:01:58,452 - IT'S NOT LATENT, IT'S BLATANT. 50 00:01:58,452 --> 00:02:00,020 RICKY'S OBSESSION FOR BREASTS 51 00:02:00,020 --> 00:02:03,056 WAS APPARENTLY HOMEGROWN. 52 00:02:03,056 --> 00:02:04,792 - I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS POSSIBLE 53 00:02:04,792 --> 00:02:06,460 TO DIE OF AN ALLERGIC REACTION TO PEANUTS. 54 00:02:06,460 --> 00:02:08,529 DID YOU KNOW HE WAS ALLERGIC? ME NEITHER. 55 00:02:08,529 --> 00:02:10,431 HOW COULD HE PROTECTED IF HE DIDN'T TELL ANYONE? 56 00:02:10,431 --> 00:02:13,367 - HOW'S SADIE? - PREGNANT... 57 00:02:13,367 --> 00:02:17,004 WITH RICKY'S LOVE CHILD. - SHE'S NOT PREGNANT. 58 00:02:17,004 --> 00:02:19,740 - DID SHE ABORT THAT MISSION? - NO! SHE WAS NEVER PREGNANT. 59 00:02:19,740 --> 00:02:20,841 SHE'S DEPRESSED, 60 00:02:20,841 --> 00:02:22,643 AND NOW THINGS HAVE ONLY GOTTEN WORSE. 61 00:02:22,643 --> 00:02:24,878 WHICH IS PROBABLY WHY SHE COULDN'T HANDLE IT TODAY. 62 00:02:24,878 --> 00:02:27,315 SO HAVE A HEART. RICKY IS DEAD! 63 00:02:29,850 --> 00:02:31,118 - GEFILTE FISH. 64 00:02:31,118 --> 00:02:32,720 MY PEOPLE SAY IT'S GOOD LUCK IF YOU EAT IT. 65 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:35,088 IT CAN PROTECT YOU FROM YOUR DARK SIDE. 66 00:02:35,088 --> 00:02:37,291 IF YOU WANT PROTECTION. 67 00:02:37,291 --> 00:02:39,460 OH, YOU FORGOT TO TEAR YOUR SHIRT. 68 00:02:41,094 --> 00:02:44,365 KRIAH. IT'S TRADITION. 69 00:02:44,365 --> 00:02:46,667 [eerie atmospheric music] 70 00:02:46,667 --> 00:02:48,502 - HEY, DO YOU WANNA HEAR SOMETHING CREEPY? 71 00:02:48,502 --> 00:02:50,238 - CREEPIER THAN HAVING MY SHIRT ASSAULTED? 72 00:02:50,238 --> 00:02:51,539 - IT'S TRADITION. 73 00:02:51,539 --> 00:02:53,241 SO GET THIS, RICKY'S GRANDMA 74 00:02:53,241 --> 00:02:56,009 JUST TOLD ME THAT RICKY WAS BREAST-FED TILL HE WAS EIGHT. 75 00:02:56,009 --> 00:02:57,010 - [choking] 76 00:02:57,010 --> 00:02:58,679 ARE YOU [bleep]ING ME? 77 00:02:58,679 --> 00:03:00,748 IT'S INSANE HOW MUCH WE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT THAT KID. 78 00:03:00,748 --> 00:03:03,551 - IT WASN'T INSANE. IT WAS UNDERSTANDABLE. 79 00:03:03,551 --> 00:03:04,985 THERE WERE A LOT OF THINGS 80 00:03:04,985 --> 00:03:06,954 WE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT THE PEOPLE AROUND US, 81 00:03:06,954 --> 00:03:09,357 INCLUDING THE THINGS MATTY DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT ME. 82 00:03:09,357 --> 00:03:12,260 'CAUSE MATTY STILL DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT MY PREGNANCY SCARE, 83 00:03:12,260 --> 00:03:14,495 AND HOPEFULLY HE NEVER WOULD. 84 00:03:14,495 --> 00:03:17,398 - GIRLS, DON'T BE ANGRY OR UPSET. 85 00:03:17,398 --> 00:03:19,467 RICKY'S DEATH WAS AN ACCIDENT. 86 00:03:19,467 --> 00:03:22,636 - BUT MY ALMOST SOCIAL-DEATH BY PREGNANCY WASN'T. 87 00:03:22,636 --> 00:03:24,738 AND TO ENSURE IT NEVER HAPPENED AGAIN, 88 00:03:24,738 --> 00:03:28,576 I NEEDED TO INGEST SOME GOOD LUCK... 89 00:03:31,279 --> 00:03:33,947 AND MATURITY. 90 00:03:33,947 --> 00:03:37,551 IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO BE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND... 91 00:03:37,551 --> 00:03:39,820 - ANY LAST WORDS FOR RICKY? 92 00:03:42,423 --> 00:03:44,958 - RESPONSIBILITY WAS A PROCESS. 93 00:03:44,958 --> 00:03:46,694 [keys clacking] 94 00:03:46,694 --> 00:03:48,796 [bang] 95 00:03:48,796 --> 00:03:50,864 [school bell rings] 96 00:03:50,864 --> 00:03:52,333 IT HAD BEEN FOUR DAYS 97 00:03:52,333 --> 00:03:54,201 SINCE THE NEWS OF RICKY'S DEATH BY PEANUT 98 00:03:54,201 --> 00:03:56,103 HAD HIT THE HALLS OF PALOS HILLS. 99 00:03:56,103 --> 00:03:57,671 AND BY THE LOOK OF IT, 100 00:03:57,671 --> 00:04:01,509 NO ONE WAS READY TO MOVE ON ANYTIME SOON. 101 00:04:01,509 --> 00:04:04,177 - STEP AWAY FROM THE LOCKERS. 102 00:04:04,177 --> 00:04:05,379 NOT YOU, THE FELLAS. 103 00:04:05,379 --> 00:04:07,147 ARE YOU HEARTLESS? 104 00:04:07,147 --> 00:04:08,349 HAVE A LITTLE RESPECT. 105 00:04:08,349 --> 00:04:10,418 - BUT I CAN'T GET TO MY BOOKS. 106 00:04:10,418 --> 00:04:11,919 - YOU EVER THINK OF HOW HARD IT IS 107 00:04:11,919 --> 00:04:13,186 FOR RICKY TO GET TO THEM? 108 00:04:13,186 --> 00:04:14,555 YOUR BUDDY IS DEAD. 109 00:04:14,555 --> 00:04:16,223 AND YOU NEED TO THINK ABOUT THE CHALLENGES 110 00:04:16,223 --> 00:04:18,091 HE NOW FACES AS A GHOST. 111 00:04:18,091 --> 00:04:19,527 JUST IMAGINE. 112 00:04:19,527 --> 00:04:21,695 HIS LITTLE VAPOR ARMS, 113 00:04:21,695 --> 00:04:23,364 THE ONES THAT CAN NEVER HOLD A BOOK AGAIN 114 00:04:23,364 --> 00:04:25,433 OR EVER JOSTLE OPEN A LOCKER. 115 00:04:25,433 --> 00:04:28,135 THINK ABOUT THAT. 116 00:04:28,135 --> 00:04:31,672 OH, MY GIRL. 117 00:04:31,672 --> 00:04:33,240 HOW ARE YOU HANGING IN THERE? 118 00:04:33,240 --> 00:04:35,376 - I'M FINE. - JUST FINE? 119 00:04:35,376 --> 00:04:37,645 IS THAT ANY WAY TO BE AFTER A LOVER DIES? 120 00:04:37,645 --> 00:04:39,246 - RICKY WASN'T MY LOVER. 121 00:04:39,246 --> 00:04:40,781 - BUT I HEARD HE GOT AROUND. 122 00:04:40,781 --> 00:04:43,116 AND WELL, SINCE WE KNOW YOU DO, I JUST FIGURED-- 123 00:04:43,116 --> 00:04:45,386 - YOU FIGURED WRONG. 124 00:04:45,386 --> 00:04:48,088 - WHAT IS THIS? 125 00:04:48,088 --> 00:04:49,757 - IT'S FOR A VIGIL. TONIGHT. 126 00:04:49,757 --> 00:04:51,459 WE'RE GONNA PAY TRIBUTE TO RICKY. 127 00:04:51,459 --> 00:04:53,761 [whispering] OR CONVERSE WITH THE DEVIL. 128 00:04:53,761 --> 00:04:56,797 EITHER WAY, IT SHOULD BE FUN. - VIGIL? I LOVE IT. 129 00:04:56,797 --> 00:04:58,466 WHERE I COME FROM, A VIGIL USUALLY MEANS 130 00:04:58,466 --> 00:05:00,568 SOMEONE'S BURNING THE BODY AND GRILLING SOME RIBS. 131 00:05:00,568 --> 00:05:02,235 - WHERE YOU FROM? 132 00:05:02,235 --> 00:05:05,105 - MISSOURI. - HUH. COOL. 133 00:05:05,105 --> 00:05:07,508 MAYBE THAT'S WHERE I'LL GO TO COLLEGE. 134 00:05:07,508 --> 00:05:10,844 - FOR TEENAGERS, DEATH TOOK ON DIFFERENT MEANINGS. 135 00:05:10,844 --> 00:05:12,680 FOR SOME, IT WAS A REASON TO PARTY. 136 00:05:12,680 --> 00:05:15,549 FOR OTHERS... 137 00:05:15,549 --> 00:05:18,386 IT WAS A CALLING TO COMMIT TO A HIGHER POWER. 138 00:05:18,386 --> 00:05:22,255 AND FOR THE REST OF US, IT WAS A TIME TO REFLECT. 139 00:05:22,255 --> 00:05:23,724 BUT REFLECTION POST-DEATH 140 00:05:23,724 --> 00:05:26,093 TOOK ON ALL DIFFERENT SHAPES AND SIZES. 141 00:05:26,093 --> 00:05:28,095 AND FOR MATTY, IT MEANT FITTING HIS SQUARE PEG 142 00:05:28,095 --> 00:05:29,597 INTO MY ROUND HOLE. 143 00:05:29,597 --> 00:05:32,400 - OH, HEY, MAYBE WE SHOULD GO SOMEWHERE MORE PRIVATE. 144 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:33,834 - I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. 145 00:05:33,834 --> 00:05:36,003 I JUST WANNA BE AS CLOSE AS TWO PEOPLE CAN POSSIBLY BE. 146 00:05:36,003 --> 00:05:37,905 LET'S DO IT HERE, NOW. 147 00:05:37,905 --> 00:05:40,874 YEAH! YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE, RIGHT? 148 00:05:40,874 --> 00:05:41,909 - OH! - YEP! 149 00:05:41,909 --> 00:05:44,044 - AS SUSPECTED, MATTY WAS YOLO-ING. 150 00:05:44,044 --> 00:05:47,047 AND WHILE I WANTED TO CELEBRATE THAT I WASN'T 16 AND PREGNANT, 151 00:05:47,047 --> 00:05:50,718 JUST BEING 16 MEANT I COULD STILL GET PREGNANT. 152 00:05:50,718 --> 00:05:53,120 I WASN'T READY TO RISK LOADING A BABY ON BOARD. 153 00:05:53,120 --> 00:05:56,524 YOU KNOW WHAT'LL MAKE US FEEL MORE ALIVE THAN HAVING SEX? 154 00:05:56,524 --> 00:05:59,960 SKIPPING...BACKWARD! WHAT. 155 00:05:59,960 --> 00:06:03,096 BUT I COULDN'T SKIP OUT ON THE SEX FOREVER. 156 00:06:03,096 --> 00:06:05,265 - HEY! 157 00:06:05,265 --> 00:06:08,569 - MOM, I KNOW I'M WHISPERING, BUT I'M TRYING TO BE DISCREET. 158 00:06:08,569 --> 00:06:11,772 CAN YOU TAKE ME TO SEE THE, UH... 159 00:06:11,772 --> 00:06:15,042 LADY DOCTOR? 160 00:06:15,042 --> 00:06:18,979 SOON. LIKE...TODAY. 161 00:06:18,979 --> 00:06:20,548 [playing Taps] 162 00:06:20,548 --> 00:06:24,585 - THIS IS GETTING RIDICULOUS. 163 00:06:24,585 --> 00:06:26,454 THANK YOU. 164 00:06:26,454 --> 00:06:28,489 BUT YOU CAN STUFF THIS UP YOUR ASS. 165 00:06:28,489 --> 00:06:30,257 I'M NOT IN MOURNING, 166 00:06:30,257 --> 00:06:33,927 AND WHAT THE HELL WOULD A [bleep] PENGUIN DO IF I WAS? 167 00:06:33,927 --> 00:06:35,863 [screams] 168 00:06:35,863 --> 00:06:37,665 - ARE YOU GOING TO THE VIGIL FOR RICKY TONIGHT? 169 00:06:37,665 --> 00:06:39,700 - NO! - BECAUSE IT'S TOO HARD FOR YOU? 170 00:06:39,700 --> 00:06:41,268 - NO, BECAUSE I DON'T WANNA PARTICIPATE 171 00:06:41,268 --> 00:06:43,003 IN SOME STUPID CHARADE. 172 00:06:43,003 --> 00:06:44,237 JESUS. 173 00:06:44,237 --> 00:06:45,773 WHY THE HELL ARE YOU CRYING? 174 00:06:45,773 --> 00:06:47,575 - BECAUSE I CAN SEE HOW MUCH PAIN YOU'RE IN. 175 00:06:47,575 --> 00:06:49,943 - THE ONLY THING PAINED ON ME ARE MY CUTICLES, 176 00:06:49,943 --> 00:06:52,045 BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD MY WEEKLY MANICURES ANYMORE, 177 00:06:52,045 --> 00:06:54,482 AND CONSUELA DOESN'T KNOW WHEN TO STOP CUTTING. 178 00:06:54,482 --> 00:06:57,985 AND SINCE WHEN DID YOU START CARING SO MUCH ABOUT RICKY? 179 00:06:57,985 --> 00:07:00,488 YOU BARELY KNEW HIM. - THAT'S NOT TRUE. 180 00:07:00,488 --> 00:07:01,889 I SAW HIM ALMOST EVERY DAY 181 00:07:01,889 --> 00:07:03,891 WHEN HE CAME IN TO GET FRO YO FOR YOU OVER THE SUMMER. 182 00:07:03,891 --> 00:07:07,294 RICKY LOVED YOU MORE THAN HE LOVED HIMSELF. 183 00:07:07,294 --> 00:07:09,229 - LIKE I SAID, YOU-- 184 00:07:09,229 --> 00:07:10,498 - BARELY KNEW HIM. 185 00:07:10,498 --> 00:07:11,965 - THAT DOESN'T MEAN WE DON'T FEEL BAD. 186 00:07:11,965 --> 00:07:13,501 - IT'S NOT THE SAME, JENNA. 187 00:07:13,501 --> 00:07:16,604 PEOPLE ARE USING THIS AS AN EXCUSE TO OUT-MOURN EACH OTHER. 188 00:07:16,604 --> 00:07:18,071 LIKE STEPHANIE LOPEZ. 189 00:07:18,071 --> 00:07:20,140 SHE HANDED OUT COOKIES IN HOMEROOM FOR CONSOLATION. 190 00:07:20,140 --> 00:07:21,675 - THAT SOUNDS NICE. 191 00:07:21,675 --> 00:07:24,512 - THEY WERE PEANUT BUTTER! HOW MESSED UP IS THAT? 192 00:07:24,512 --> 00:07:27,180 SHE CLEARLY DIDN'T KNOW HIM, AND SHE STILL DOESN'T. 193 00:07:27,180 --> 00:07:29,249 EVERYONE JUST NEEDS TO STEP OFF THEIR SAD BUS 194 00:07:29,249 --> 00:07:30,818 WHILE SOME OF US ARE ACTUALLY MOURNING. 195 00:07:30,818 --> 00:07:32,252 - OH, HEY, HEY, HEY. 196 00:07:32,252 --> 00:07:33,887 LET ME GET YOU SOME FRENCH FRIES. 197 00:07:33,887 --> 00:07:35,088 FRIES! THEY'RE A CURE-ALL, 198 00:07:35,088 --> 00:07:36,524 LIKE A JENNA LIP-DIP. 199 00:07:36,524 --> 00:07:38,826 HEY-OH! 200 00:07:38,826 --> 00:07:41,228 AHH. 201 00:07:41,228 --> 00:07:43,931 - MATTY'S YOLO-ING. HE'S BEEN ALL OVER ME. 202 00:07:43,931 --> 00:07:45,933 APPARENTLY DEATH HAS GIVEN HIM A NEW LEASE ON LIFE. 203 00:07:45,933 --> 00:07:48,168 - HE'S SO DISGUSTINGLY INSENSITIVE. 204 00:07:48,168 --> 00:07:49,703 - HEY, BABE! HEY. 205 00:07:49,703 --> 00:07:50,971 SO I JUST HEARD FROM WHITEY 206 00:07:50,971 --> 00:07:52,640 WHO TOLD LUCAS THAT FIFTH AND SIXTH PERIOD 207 00:07:52,640 --> 00:07:53,907 AREN'T MANDATORY TODAY. 208 00:07:53,907 --> 00:07:55,709 YOU KNOW, IN CASE YOU'RE HAVING A HARD TIME. 209 00:07:55,709 --> 00:07:57,578 WHICH I'M JUST GONNA SAY THAT I AM. 210 00:07:57,578 --> 00:07:58,879 SO... [taps table] 211 00:07:58,879 --> 00:08:00,347 WHAT ARE WE DOING? WHERE ARE WE GOING? 212 00:08:00,347 --> 00:08:03,383 - TO HELL, YOU EXPLOITATIVE PIECE OF [bleep]. 213 00:08:03,383 --> 00:08:05,085 YOU'RE GONNA SKIP CLASS AND GO TO THE BEACH? 214 00:08:05,085 --> 00:08:06,720 - OR THE MOVIES. - [gasps] 215 00:08:06,720 --> 00:08:08,055 - WHAT--HEY, HEY. 216 00:08:08,055 --> 00:08:09,623 I'M SORRY. I THOUGHT YOU HATED RICKY. 217 00:08:09,623 --> 00:08:11,559 - YOU KNOW NOTHING, AND YOU TOTALLY DON'T KNOW ME. 218 00:08:11,559 --> 00:08:13,694 IT'S OVER! - WHAT-- 219 00:08:13,694 --> 00:08:16,096 WHAT WAS THAT? - MOURN-MONES. 220 00:08:16,096 --> 00:08:17,665 HER WORDS, NOT MINE. 221 00:08:17,665 --> 00:08:19,032 JUST LET HER SETTLE DOWN. 222 00:08:19,032 --> 00:08:21,735 AND REMEMBER, EVERYONE GRIEVES...DIFFERENTLY. 223 00:08:21,735 --> 00:08:23,671 - WELL, CAN YOU GO SEE IF SHE REALLY JUST DUMPED ME? 224 00:08:23,671 --> 00:08:25,038 - DO I HAVE TO? SHE HAD CRAZY EYES. 225 00:08:25,038 --> 00:08:27,575 - PLEASE. 226 00:08:27,575 --> 00:08:29,577 - [groans] 227 00:08:29,577 --> 00:08:31,044 - I THINK TAMARA JUST TRASHED MY ASS. 228 00:08:31,044 --> 00:08:32,580 - NEED A HUG? - NO. 229 00:08:32,580 --> 00:08:34,615 - THEN GO AND TELL HER YOU LOVE HER. 230 00:08:34,615 --> 00:08:36,083 - REALLY? 231 00:08:36,083 --> 00:08:37,818 AREN'T YOU THE GUY WHO SAID THE "L" WORD 232 00:08:37,818 --> 00:08:39,953 IS THE CARROT YOU DANGLE TO GET SEX? 233 00:08:39,953 --> 00:08:41,221 - NO, NO. NOT ANYMORE, MAN. 234 00:08:41,221 --> 00:08:42,590 UNDANGLE THAT CARROT. 235 00:08:42,590 --> 00:08:44,858 LIFE IS JUST TOO SHORT. - ARE YOU FEELING OKAY? 236 00:08:44,858 --> 00:08:46,126 - YES, I AM. YOU KNOW WHY? 237 00:08:46,126 --> 00:08:48,195 BECAUSE I'M ALIVE. 238 00:08:48,195 --> 00:08:51,799 AND I [bleep]ING LOVE YOU. 239 00:08:51,799 --> 00:08:53,867 - [whimpering] 240 00:08:53,867 --> 00:08:55,335 - WHAT'S WRONG? 241 00:08:55,335 --> 00:08:57,638 - I KILLED HIM! - I KNOW, I SAW HIS FACE. 242 00:08:57,638 --> 00:08:58,739 HE WAS CRUSHED. 243 00:08:58,739 --> 00:09:01,174 - NO, NOT JAKE. RICKY. 244 00:09:01,174 --> 00:09:03,611 I KILLED RICKY SCHWARTZ. 245 00:09:07,414 --> 00:09:09,249 - WHAT DO YOU MEAN, YOU "KILLED RICKY?" 246 00:09:09,249 --> 00:09:11,051 - AS IN I STOPPED, DROPPED, AND ROLLED HIM INTO THE GRAVE. 247 00:09:11,051 --> 00:09:12,620 I KNOW EVERYBODY SAID IT WAS AN ACCIDENT, 248 00:09:12,620 --> 00:09:13,654 BUT I KNOW IT WASN'T. 249 00:09:13,654 --> 00:09:15,388 IT WAS MY FAULT. - I DON'T UNDERSTAND. 250 00:09:15,388 --> 00:09:18,325 HOW DID YOU-- - WITH THIS! 251 00:09:18,325 --> 00:09:20,828 AND WITH THESE. 252 00:09:20,828 --> 00:09:22,029 I OOODOO-VOODOOED HIM. 253 00:09:22,029 --> 00:09:23,697 IT'S NOT FUNNY! 254 00:09:23,697 --> 00:09:26,499 I BOUGHT OVER 200 ANCIENT WICCAN SPELLS. 255 00:09:26,499 --> 00:09:29,302 - YOU BOUGHT SPELLS? WHERE? - ON THE INTERNET. 256 00:09:29,302 --> 00:09:31,538 AT FIRST, I JUST WANTED TO DISFIGURE RICKY, 257 00:09:31,538 --> 00:09:33,006 OR MAKE HIS THYROID STOP WORKING 258 00:09:33,006 --> 00:09:34,642 SO HE'D GET REALLY [growls] FAT. 259 00:09:34,642 --> 00:09:37,510 BUT THEN, WHEN I SAW HIM AT THE BLACK HEARTS PARTY WITH SADIE, 260 00:09:37,510 --> 00:09:41,281 I SORTA KINDA CAST A SPELL THAT WOULD MAKE HIM WANNA DIE. 261 00:09:41,281 --> 00:09:42,650 JENNA! 262 00:09:42,650 --> 00:09:44,217 I MIGHT BE A WITCH. 263 00:09:44,217 --> 00:09:45,552 - DROP THE "W" AND REPLACE IT WITH A "B," 264 00:09:45,552 --> 00:09:47,487 WHICH IS JUST A FLEETING TITLE, 265 00:09:47,487 --> 00:09:49,322 BECAUSE YOU ARE A TOTAL SWEETHEART. 266 00:09:49,322 --> 00:09:51,792 TRUST ME, WHAT YOU'RE FEELING IS JUST GRIEF GUILT. 267 00:09:51,792 --> 00:09:53,160 AND I GET IT. 268 00:09:53,160 --> 00:09:54,494 BUT RICKY'S DEATH WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. 269 00:09:54,494 --> 00:09:56,496 YOU HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. - REALLY? 270 00:09:56,496 --> 00:09:58,699 - REALLY. - SO I'M NOT GONNA ROT IN HELL? 271 00:09:58,699 --> 00:10:00,367 - UNLIKELY. - BUT POSSIBLE? 272 00:10:00,367 --> 00:10:01,802 - NO, NO. 273 00:10:01,802 --> 00:10:03,570 - OKAY. THANK YOU. 274 00:10:03,570 --> 00:10:04,705 I NEEDED THAT. 275 00:10:04,705 --> 00:10:06,239 NOW IF YOU'LL EXCUSE ME, 276 00:10:06,239 --> 00:10:09,509 I'M STILL AT DEFCON ONE, AND I NEED TO WALK IT OFF. 277 00:10:09,509 --> 00:10:12,479 - AS TAMARA WALKED OFF HER FEELINGS OF GUILT, 278 00:10:12,479 --> 00:10:14,081 MINE WERE LEFT UNCHECKED. 279 00:10:14,081 --> 00:10:15,448 WAS I BEING TOO HARD ON MYSELF 280 00:10:15,448 --> 00:10:17,617 TO BEAR THE FULL BRUNT OF RESPONSIBILITY 281 00:10:17,617 --> 00:10:19,486 FOR MY CLOSE CALL WITH PARENTHOOD? 282 00:10:19,486 --> 00:10:21,855 MAYBE I NEEDED SOME CONSOLING FOR MYSELF. 283 00:10:21,855 --> 00:10:24,892 VAL'S OFFICE HOURS WERE AT AN ALL-TIME HIGH. 284 00:10:24,892 --> 00:10:27,460 EVERY KID WANTED TO SHARE THEIR ANXIETY 285 00:10:27,460 --> 00:10:31,398 AND/OR USE RICKY'S DEATH AS AN EXCUSE TO GET OUT OF P.E. 286 00:10:31,398 --> 00:10:33,801 EITHER WAY, IT WAS AN ANNOYING MISUSE OF THE SYSTEM, 287 00:10:33,801 --> 00:10:37,237 BECAUSE I WAS RELEGATED TO THE BACK OF THE LINE. 288 00:10:37,237 --> 00:10:39,172 - IT'S GONNA BE OKAY. 289 00:10:39,172 --> 00:10:42,542 NO ONE EVER DIED GETTING TOUCHED BY THEIR UNCLE. 290 00:10:42,542 --> 00:10:44,411 MY GIRL! [whispering] GET UP HERE. 291 00:10:44,411 --> 00:10:46,379 HEY, HEY, HEY. HOLD UP. 292 00:10:46,379 --> 00:10:47,815 DON'T BE HATERS. 293 00:10:47,815 --> 00:10:49,116 JENNA HAD A RESERVATION. 294 00:10:49,116 --> 00:10:52,485 YEAH, I KNOW THERE'S A LIST, SCOTT. 295 00:10:52,485 --> 00:10:53,821 BUT SHE USED INVISIBLE INK. 296 00:10:53,821 --> 00:10:55,856 IT'S HOW I MAINTAIN CONFIDENTIALITY. 297 00:10:55,856 --> 00:10:57,424 BELIEVE ME, YOU'LL APPRECIATE IT 298 00:10:57,424 --> 00:11:00,060 WHEN YOU NEED TO GO BLACK OPS ONE DAY TOO. 299 00:11:00,060 --> 00:11:01,962 HOW YOU HANGING IN THERE? 300 00:11:01,962 --> 00:11:03,230 IS RICKY'S DEATH BRINGING UP 301 00:11:03,230 --> 00:11:04,732 SOME INTENSE STUFF FOR YOU? 302 00:11:04,732 --> 00:11:06,399 - ACTUALLY, IN A WEIRD WAY, IT IS. 303 00:11:06,399 --> 00:11:08,601 - ARE YOU BEING SAFE? - FUNNY YOU SHOULD ASK. 304 00:11:08,601 --> 00:11:11,004 THAT'S SORT OF WHY I'M HERE. 305 00:11:11,004 --> 00:11:12,172 - CAN YOU HOLD UP YOUR ARMS? 306 00:11:12,172 --> 00:11:14,842 - OH, OKAY. WHY? 307 00:11:14,842 --> 00:11:16,543 - I JUST WANT 'EM TO STAY WHERE I CAN SEE THEM, 308 00:11:16,543 --> 00:11:18,746 SO WE DON'T HAVE ANY MORE...ACCIDENTS. 309 00:11:18,746 --> 00:11:20,313 - ARE YOU SUGGESTING THAT RICKY'S DEATH 310 00:11:20,313 --> 00:11:21,448 WASN'T AN ACCIDENT? 311 00:11:21,448 --> 00:11:23,183 - I'M NOT SUGGESTING ANYTHING. 312 00:11:23,183 --> 00:11:26,219 I-I JUST DON'T WANT ANY MORE BLOOD SPILLED ON MY WATCH. 313 00:11:26,219 --> 00:11:27,520 OR CARPET. 314 00:11:27,520 --> 00:11:29,289 ESPECIALLY SINCE IT JUST GOT STEAM CLEANED, 315 00:11:29,289 --> 00:11:30,758 WHICH TOOK MONTHS TO GET APPROVED. 316 00:11:30,758 --> 00:11:32,960 [scoffs] DISTRICT BUDGETS ARE RETARDED. 317 00:11:32,960 --> 00:11:34,762 ANYWHO, SO BREAK IT DOWN. 318 00:11:34,762 --> 00:11:37,630 OR BREAK DOWN. YOU CAN CRY IN HERE. 319 00:11:37,630 --> 00:11:39,399 - I DON'T REALLY WANNA CRY. 320 00:11:39,399 --> 00:11:43,303 I JUST WANNA TALK ABOUT HOW I'VE BEEN BLAMING MYSELF 321 00:11:43,303 --> 00:11:44,938 FOR A LITTLE SEXUAL INDISCRETION. 322 00:11:44,938 --> 00:11:46,840 - WITH RICKY? - NO! 323 00:11:46,840 --> 00:11:48,408 I WASN'T INVOLVED WITH RICKY, 324 00:11:48,408 --> 00:11:50,410 EXCEPT FOR THIS ONE SUPER DRUNK AND DRUGGED MOMENT 325 00:11:50,410 --> 00:11:51,945 WE HAD AT A PARTY. 326 00:11:51,945 --> 00:11:53,781 - WERE YOU GUYS FREE BASING? 327 00:11:53,781 --> 00:11:58,318 - NO! THAT STORY ISN'T REALLY RELEVANT TO WHY I'M HERE. 328 00:11:58,318 --> 00:11:59,787 I WANNA TALK ABOUT MATTY AND ME. 329 00:11:59,787 --> 00:12:02,856 - OKAY, BUT WHERE DOES RICKY FIT INTO THIS EQUATION? 330 00:12:02,856 --> 00:12:04,457 - HE DOESN'T. 331 00:12:04,457 --> 00:12:06,126 - THEN WHY ARE YOU IN MY OFFICE? 332 00:12:06,126 --> 00:12:07,560 [scoffs] 333 00:12:07,560 --> 00:12:09,229 THERE ARE PEOPLE WAITING OUTSIDE 334 00:12:09,229 --> 00:12:10,697 TO TALK ABOUT A DEAD PERSON, 335 00:12:10,697 --> 00:12:13,466 AND YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT YOURSELF? 336 00:12:13,466 --> 00:12:15,268 SHAME ON YOU, JENNA. 337 00:12:15,268 --> 00:12:17,537 SHAME...ON...YOU. 338 00:12:21,074 --> 00:12:24,644 KIDS, I'M MAKING AN ANNOUNCEMENT. 339 00:12:24,644 --> 00:12:28,849 I AM DOWNGRADING MYSELF FROM VP... 340 00:12:28,849 --> 00:12:30,217 TO GC. 341 00:12:30,217 --> 00:12:31,885 WHAT THIS TRAGEDY HAS PROVED 342 00:12:31,885 --> 00:12:35,889 IS THAT YOU ALL NEED ME TO BE MORE SELFLESS FOR ALL OF YOU. 343 00:12:35,889 --> 00:12:39,827 WHOEVER BUYS ME A CANDY BAR CAN GO NEXT. 344 00:12:39,827 --> 00:12:43,130 SEE, JENNA, NOT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE ABOUT YOU. 345 00:12:43,130 --> 00:12:45,065 - VAL MADE A GOOD POINT. 346 00:12:45,065 --> 00:12:47,434 NOT EVERYTHING WAS ABOUT ME. - YEAH, YOU, LET'S GO. 347 00:12:47,434 --> 00:12:48,969 - IT TOOK TWO TO TANGO, 348 00:12:48,969 --> 00:12:51,604 AND IT WAS TIME TO RATIONALLY EXPLAIN THAT TO MATTY. 349 00:12:51,604 --> 00:12:52,906 YOU NEED TO STOP BEING SO HORNY. 350 00:12:52,906 --> 00:12:54,574 I AM NOT JUST SOME LADY OF THE AFTERNOON, 351 00:12:54,574 --> 00:12:55,976 AND I AM MORE THAN JUST 352 00:12:55,976 --> 00:12:57,310 YOUR PERSONAL JOLLY JUICE RECEPTACLE, MATTY. 353 00:12:57,310 --> 00:12:58,611 - I KNOW. 354 00:12:58,611 --> 00:12:59,847 - AND I DON'T WANNA START THINKING 355 00:12:59,847 --> 00:13:01,448 ABOUT BEING AN ADULT RIGHT NOW, 356 00:13:01,448 --> 00:13:02,649 OR DEALING WITH MY OWN ISSUES OF LIFE AND DEATH. 357 00:13:02,649 --> 00:13:04,284 FOLLOWING? - SORT OF. 358 00:13:04,284 --> 00:13:05,853 - GOOD, BECAUSE I NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN THIS FOR ME 359 00:13:05,853 --> 00:13:08,121 AND NOT JUST MY...FUNHOUSE. 360 00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:11,324 [car horn honks] 361 00:13:11,324 --> 00:13:13,260 I HAVE TO GO. 362 00:13:13,260 --> 00:13:14,694 BUT BEFORE THE VIGIL TONIGHT, 363 00:13:14,694 --> 00:13:19,666 YOU NEED TO RUMINATE ON THE ERROR OF YOUR WAYS. 364 00:13:19,666 --> 00:13:21,668 - WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH THESE GIRLS? 365 00:13:24,905 --> 00:13:27,207 - HONEY, IT'S OKAY. 366 00:13:27,207 --> 00:13:28,541 NOTHING TO BE NERVOUS ABOUT. 367 00:13:28,541 --> 00:13:29,709 YOU GET ON THAT TABLE, 368 00:13:29,709 --> 00:13:31,378 YOU PUT YOUR LEGS IN THE STIRRUPS, 369 00:13:31,378 --> 00:13:33,881 AND ONCE THEY CRANK YOU OPEN, 370 00:13:33,881 --> 00:13:35,415 THE SWABBING HAPPENS LICKETY-SPLIT. 371 00:13:35,415 --> 00:13:37,017 - WHAT ARE THEY GONNA SWAB? - YOUR CERVIX. 372 00:13:37,017 --> 00:13:39,786 IT'S STANDARD, UNCOMFORTABLE. 373 00:13:39,786 --> 00:13:41,254 BUT YOU ONLY HAVE TO DO IT ONCE A YEAR. 374 00:13:41,254 --> 00:13:42,789 - EVERY YEAR? - MM-HMM. 375 00:13:42,789 --> 00:13:44,157 - THEY CAN'T JUST GIVE ME THE PILL? 376 00:13:44,157 --> 00:13:46,393 - MM-MM. - MAYBE WE SHOULD GO. 377 00:13:46,393 --> 00:13:47,527 I'LL JUST TELL MATTY ABOUT THE SCARE, 378 00:13:47,527 --> 00:13:48,761 AND WE CAN BE EXTRA CAREFUL. 379 00:13:48,761 --> 00:13:50,197 - NO, NO. NO. 380 00:13:50,197 --> 00:13:51,364 YOU CAN'T TELL HIM. 381 00:13:51,364 --> 00:13:52,665 HE'S 16 AND A BOY. 382 00:13:52,665 --> 00:13:54,902 HE CAN'T DEAL WITH THAT INFO. 383 00:13:54,902 --> 00:13:56,669 - BUT WHY SHOULD I BE THE ONE TO BEAR ALL THE RESPONSIBILITY? 384 00:13:56,669 --> 00:13:58,238 - BECAUSE YOU'RE A GIRL. - SO? 385 00:13:58,238 --> 00:14:01,308 - IT'S OUR BURDEN AS GIRLS TO BE THE VIGILANT ONES, 386 00:14:01,308 --> 00:14:04,144 BECAUSE IT'S OUR BODIES THAT BEAR THE FRUITS OF LABOR. 387 00:14:04,144 --> 00:14:06,379 - I KNOW, BUT-- - BUT NOTHING. 388 00:14:06,379 --> 00:14:07,981 IF YOU WANNA HAVE SEX, 389 00:14:07,981 --> 00:14:09,917 THEN YOU, AS THE GIRL, 390 00:14:09,917 --> 00:14:12,385 HAVE TO TAKE ALL THE RISK AND PRECAUTIONS. 391 00:14:12,385 --> 00:14:16,089 THE SAFETY CHECKS ARE YOURS AND YOURS ALONE. 392 00:14:16,089 --> 00:14:19,092 AND IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE TO STOP BEING YOUNG 393 00:14:19,092 --> 00:14:20,593 OR LOVING MATTY. 394 00:14:20,593 --> 00:14:23,463 IT JUST MEANS YOU HAVE TO TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR DESTINY 395 00:14:23,463 --> 00:14:24,932 AND YOUR BODY, 396 00:14:24,932 --> 00:14:27,067 BECAUSE... 397 00:14:27,067 --> 00:14:29,169 BOYS DON'T GET PREGNANT. 398 00:14:29,169 --> 00:14:30,938 GIRLS DO. 399 00:14:30,938 --> 00:14:33,440 ALWAYS PROTECT YOURSELF. 400 00:14:33,440 --> 00:14:35,175 - IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR. 401 00:14:35,175 --> 00:14:37,810 I DIDN'T NEED TO BLAME MATTY OR MYSELF. 402 00:14:37,810 --> 00:14:39,546 I JUST NEEDED TO TAKE ACTION. 403 00:14:39,546 --> 00:14:41,949 SOMETIMES MY MOTHER WAS ASTOUNDING 404 00:14:41,949 --> 00:14:46,286 AND COULD SURPRISE ME WITH WISDOM. 405 00:14:46,286 --> 00:14:48,121 THAT SHE'D READ OFF A WALL. 406 00:14:48,121 --> 00:14:51,124 [rock music] 407 00:14:51,124 --> 00:14:55,562 - THANKS. 408 00:14:55,562 --> 00:14:57,164 - I'M NOT GONNA SAY ANYTHING. - WHY? 409 00:14:57,164 --> 00:14:59,632 - BECAUSE I'M WORRIED THAT NO MATTER WHAT I SAY, 410 00:14:59,632 --> 00:15:01,001 IT'S THE WRONG THING. 411 00:15:01,001 --> 00:15:02,435 - I'M SORRY. 412 00:15:02,435 --> 00:15:04,404 I'VE JUST BEEN GOING THROUGH ALL THESE WEIRD EMOTIONS. 413 00:15:04,404 --> 00:15:07,007 AND FREAKING OUT ABOUT-- - US? 414 00:15:07,007 --> 00:15:09,376 - MAYBE. YEAH. 415 00:15:09,376 --> 00:15:10,643 - WELL... 416 00:15:10,643 --> 00:15:12,645 YOU DON'T HAVE TO. 417 00:15:12,645 --> 00:15:15,048 BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT THIS THING 418 00:15:15,048 --> 00:15:16,449 IS NOT JUST SEX. 419 00:15:16,449 --> 00:15:18,986 AND TO PROVE IT, I WANT TO SHOW YOU SOMETHING. 420 00:15:18,986 --> 00:15:21,654 CLOSE YOUR EYES. - DOESN'T THAT DEFEAT THE POINT? 421 00:15:21,654 --> 00:15:23,423 - JUST KEEP 'EM CLOSED. 422 00:15:23,423 --> 00:15:25,492 [zipper rasps] - OH! HEY! 423 00:15:25,492 --> 00:15:27,594 HEY! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? - [bleep] 424 00:15:27,594 --> 00:15:29,262 - I THOUGHT YOU SAID THIS WASN'T ABOUT SEX. 425 00:15:29,262 --> 00:15:30,797 - NO, NO, NO, NO! IT'S NOT. 426 00:15:30,797 --> 00:15:31,864 HOLD ON. 427 00:15:31,864 --> 00:15:34,067 LOOK! 428 00:15:34,067 --> 00:15:35,535 HEH? 429 00:15:35,535 --> 00:15:37,037 - YOU GOT A TATTOO? - YEAH. 430 00:15:37,037 --> 00:15:40,373 AND I HAD THEM FACE IT TOWARDS ME SO I CAN LOOK AT IT. 431 00:15:40,373 --> 00:15:43,243 - THAT IS SO WEIRD. - AWESOME. 432 00:15:43,243 --> 00:15:45,012 - [laughs] 433 00:15:45,012 --> 00:15:48,615 - OKAY. YEAH, MAYBE IT'S A LITTLE IMPULSIVE 434 00:15:48,615 --> 00:15:51,018 AND INCREDIBLY IRRESPONSIBLE. 435 00:15:51,018 --> 00:15:53,120 - MATTY WAS PROVING HIS AFFECTION 436 00:15:53,120 --> 00:15:55,222 IN THE MOST PERMANENT WAY POSSIBLE. 437 00:15:55,222 --> 00:15:56,256 I LOVE IT. 438 00:15:56,256 --> 00:16:00,827 AND YOU. 439 00:16:00,827 --> 00:16:04,731 - SO WE'LL PUT THE BRAKES ON FOR A LITTLE BIT. 440 00:16:04,731 --> 00:16:06,499 - IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE TOO LONG. 441 00:16:06,499 --> 00:16:10,037 JUST SEVEN TO TEN DAYS. 442 00:16:10,037 --> 00:16:11,171 - WHAT? 443 00:16:11,171 --> 00:16:14,107 - OH, YOU KNOW, LIKE THE COMMERCIALS SAY, 444 00:16:14,107 --> 00:16:17,277 "ONE A DAY, KEEPS THE BABY AWAY." 445 00:16:17,277 --> 00:16:20,713 - OH. YES. 446 00:16:20,713 --> 00:16:22,882 - SO I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW RICKY, 447 00:16:22,882 --> 00:16:24,084 BUT I FELT HIM. 448 00:16:24,084 --> 00:16:25,585 THESE ARE HIS ASHES. 449 00:16:25,585 --> 00:16:26,886 HE'S CHARRED, TOP TO BOTTOM. 450 00:16:26,886 --> 00:16:28,855 I'M GONNA PASS HIM AROUND. 451 00:16:28,855 --> 00:16:31,191 FEEL FREE TO SNORT A LITTLE OF HIM. 452 00:16:31,191 --> 00:16:33,460 IT WAS EPIC. 453 00:16:33,460 --> 00:16:35,895 THE MIC IS NOW FREE IF ANYONE WOULD LIKE TO TALK. 454 00:16:35,895 --> 00:16:37,430 ANYONE? 455 00:16:37,430 --> 00:16:38,431 - I WOULD. 456 00:16:38,431 --> 00:16:40,167 [crowd ohs] 457 00:16:40,167 --> 00:16:44,071 [eerie music] 458 00:16:44,071 --> 00:16:45,438 I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE. 459 00:16:51,278 --> 00:16:52,412 - I... 460 00:16:52,412 --> 00:16:53,780 - THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD. 461 00:16:53,780 --> 00:16:55,948 - HATED RICKY SCHWARTZ. 462 00:16:55,948 --> 00:16:58,185 HE WAS A CHEATER AND A LIAR. 463 00:16:58,185 --> 00:17:01,154 AND I WANTED HIM TO DIE. 464 00:17:01,154 --> 00:17:03,156 I PRAYED FOR HIM TO DIE. 465 00:17:03,156 --> 00:17:05,725 AND I THOUGHT ABOUT IT EVERY DAY. 466 00:17:05,725 --> 00:17:07,794 I EVEN ONCE PAID SOMEONE MONEY 467 00:17:07,794 --> 00:17:11,931 TO CAST A SPELL ON HIM SO THAT HE WOULD DIE. 468 00:17:11,931 --> 00:17:13,300 - [mouthing] ME TOO. 469 00:17:13,300 --> 00:17:14,867 - AND I FEEL GUILTY... 470 00:17:14,867 --> 00:17:16,803 THAT I DON'T FEEL GUILTY. 471 00:17:16,803 --> 00:17:20,006 AND THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY. 472 00:17:20,006 --> 00:17:22,542 - I HATED RICKY SCHWARTZ TOO! 473 00:17:24,577 --> 00:17:27,214 RICKY IS A SCUM-SUCKING PSYCHO, 474 00:17:27,214 --> 00:17:30,617 AND HE MADE MY LIFE MISERABLE FOR THREE YEARS, 475 00:17:30,617 --> 00:17:32,419 TOYING WITH MY HEART. 476 00:17:32,419 --> 00:17:33,453 I'M GLAD HE'S DEAD, 477 00:17:33,453 --> 00:17:35,388 BECAUSE HE CAN SUCK MY ASS. 478 00:17:35,388 --> 00:17:36,789 - AND MINE TOO! 479 00:17:36,789 --> 00:17:39,326 RICKY AND I HAVE BEEN HOOKING UP 480 00:17:39,326 --> 00:17:40,593 SINCE THE SIXTH GRADE. 481 00:17:40,593 --> 00:17:42,295 HE TOLD ME HE LOVED ME, 482 00:17:42,295 --> 00:17:43,563 AND THEN HE BETRAYED THAT LOVE 483 00:17:43,563 --> 00:17:45,365 BY HOOKING UP WITH A BUNCH OF HUSSIES. 484 00:17:45,365 --> 00:17:47,634 NO OFFENSE. - NONE TAKEN. 485 00:17:47,634 --> 00:17:49,369 - I HATED HIM! I HATED HIM, I HATED HIM. 486 00:17:49,369 --> 00:17:51,704 [girls screaming] 487 00:17:51,704 --> 00:17:54,141 - HEY! HEY! HEY! HEY! 488 00:17:54,141 --> 00:17:55,342 [flare whizzes] 489 00:17:55,342 --> 00:17:57,210 [flare pops] 490 00:17:57,210 --> 00:17:59,279 THANK YOU. 491 00:17:59,279 --> 00:18:02,749 COME ON, THIS WAS NOT THE POINT OF TONIGHT'S VIGIL. 492 00:18:02,749 --> 00:18:05,452 CLEARLY, WE ALL HAVE REASONS TO BE HERE. 493 00:18:05,452 --> 00:18:08,621 FOR STARTERS--AND I THINK I SPEAK FOR A LOT OF GIRLS-- 494 00:18:08,621 --> 00:18:10,423 WE FINALLY HAVE SOLID CLOSURE. 495 00:18:10,423 --> 00:18:14,161 CLEARLY RICKY KNEW HOW TO SPREAD THE LOVE. 496 00:18:14,161 --> 00:18:16,729 A LITTLE TOO MUCH, BUT IT WAS LOVE NONE THE LESS. 497 00:18:16,729 --> 00:18:20,400 RICKY SCHWARTZ WAS THE FIRST BOY I FELL IN LOVE WITH. 498 00:18:20,400 --> 00:18:23,603 OR AT LEAST THE FIRST BOY I THOUGHT I WAS IN LOVE WITH. 499 00:18:23,603 --> 00:18:25,205 WHATEVER. 500 00:18:25,205 --> 00:18:26,739 DOESN'T MATTER, BECAUSE THE POINT IS, 501 00:18:26,739 --> 00:18:28,775 HE SHOWED ME I COULD REALLY LOVE SOMEONE. 502 00:18:28,775 --> 00:18:30,977 AND I THINK I MIGHT HAVE THAT LOVE AGAIN. 503 00:18:30,977 --> 00:18:34,314 ONLY BETTER. - HE WAS MY FIRST LOVE TOO! 504 00:18:34,314 --> 00:18:36,183 - ENOUGH. IT'S NOT A COMPETITION. 505 00:18:36,183 --> 00:18:39,852 - ON THAT NOTE, LET'S CELEBRATE THE LIFE OF RICKY SCHWARTZ. 506 00:18:39,852 --> 00:18:40,920 - REST IN PEACE, RICKY. 507 00:18:40,920 --> 00:18:42,189 YOU DOUCHE BAG. 508 00:18:42,189 --> 00:18:43,590 all: TO THE DOUCHE BAG! 509 00:18:43,590 --> 00:18:44,924 - ALL RIGHT, LET'S PARTY! 510 00:18:44,924 --> 00:18:47,427 [all cheering] 511 00:18:47,427 --> 00:18:49,429 [rock and roll music] 512 00:18:49,429 --> 00:18:52,199 - SUDDENLY, THE VIGIL HAD BECOME AN ALL-OUT BACCHANAL. 513 00:18:52,199 --> 00:18:54,767 IT WAS A FREE-FOR-ALL OF SEIZING THE MOMENT. 514 00:18:54,767 --> 00:18:56,836 EVERYONE WAS EMBRACING THEIR YOUTH, 515 00:18:56,836 --> 00:18:58,538 AND CELEBRATING BEING ALIVE. 516 00:18:58,538 --> 00:19:00,006 AND IN THAT MOMENT, 517 00:19:00,006 --> 00:19:02,642 I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE I HAD TO PLAY IT SAFE 518 00:19:02,642 --> 00:19:04,110 OR BE RESPONSIBLE. 519 00:19:04,110 --> 00:19:05,812 BECAUSE I WASN'T DRIVING. 520 00:19:09,816 --> 00:19:12,252 - WHOA, HAMILTON, WAY TO GO. 521 00:19:12,252 --> 00:19:14,053 BUT YOU MIGHT WANT TO SLOW DOWN. - WHY? 522 00:19:14,053 --> 00:19:15,755 - [laughs] RIGHT. WHY? 523 00:19:15,755 --> 00:19:17,056 - I'M NOT PREGNANT. 524 00:19:17,056 --> 00:19:19,226 TOTALLY THOUGHT I WAS, BUT I'M NOT. 525 00:19:19,226 --> 00:19:23,230 AND NOW I'M GONNA TEAR IT UP. 526 00:19:26,433 --> 00:19:27,900 - YO. 527 00:19:27,900 --> 00:19:31,070 MY MOM HAS BEEN UP MY ASS. I COULDN'T GET OFF THE PHONE. 528 00:19:31,070 --> 00:19:33,606 SO WHAT'D I MISS? - NOT MUCH. 529 00:19:33,606 --> 00:19:35,575 JUST SOME CRAZY CHICKS. 530 00:19:35,575 --> 00:19:39,045 AND YOUR GIRLFRIEND TELLING ME THAT SHE'S NOT PREGNANT. 531 00:19:39,045 --> 00:19:41,381 SHE JUST THOUGHT SHE WAS. 532 00:19:41,381 --> 00:19:44,551 * 533 00:19:48,255 --> 00:19:51,891 [rock and roll music] 534 00:19:51,891 --> 00:19:53,393 - EXCUSE ME. 535 00:19:56,963 --> 00:19:59,165 UH, I'M GONNA GO HOME. 536 00:19:59,165 --> 00:20:01,234 CAN YOU GET A RIDE WITH SOMEONE? - WHAT? WHY? 537 00:20:01,234 --> 00:20:03,870 - JUST WANNA HEAD HOME. - COME ON, STAY, IT'S FUN. 538 00:20:03,870 --> 00:20:08,007 - WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE PREGNANT? 539 00:20:08,007 --> 00:20:09,776 - I'M...NOT. 540 00:20:09,776 --> 00:20:12,144 - BUT YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE. 541 00:20:12,144 --> 00:20:15,648 - ONLY FOR A FEW DAYS. 542 00:20:15,648 --> 00:20:17,016 DO YOU WANT TO GO TO YOUR TRUCK? 543 00:20:17,016 --> 00:20:20,887 - UH, YEAH, I DO. ALONE. - PLEASE, TALK TO ME. 544 00:20:20,887 --> 00:20:22,889 - I CAN RESPECT THAT YOU DIDN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT BEFORE. 545 00:20:22,889 --> 00:20:25,157 SO CAN YOU PLEASE RESPECT THAT I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT NOW? 546 00:20:25,157 --> 00:20:26,493 GOOD NIGHT, JENNA. 547 00:20:26,493 --> 00:20:30,930 - * GOOD-BYE, LIKE THE FIRST TIME * 548 00:20:30,930 --> 00:20:32,799 * GOOD-BYE, GOOD-BYE 549 00:20:32,799 --> 00:20:34,667 * GOOD-BYE, GOOD-BYE, LIKE THE FIRST TIME * 550 00:20:38,671 --> 00:20:40,006 - NEXT ON AWKWARD... 551 00:20:40,006 --> 00:20:41,674 SOMETHING IS DEFINITELY OFF IN MY RELATIONSHIP. 552 00:20:41,674 --> 00:20:43,175 - I'D SAY IT'S PRETTY CLEAR-BLUE EASY. 553 00:20:43,175 --> 00:20:44,944 MATTY'S FREAKED OUT OVER THE PREGNANCY SCARE. 554 00:20:44,944 --> 00:20:46,646 - MATTY DOESN'T WANT TO GET LAID, HE WANTS TO TALK. 555 00:20:46,646 --> 00:20:47,647 I CAN'T BE ALONE WITH HIM. 556 00:20:47,647 --> 00:20:49,482 - B-F G-F B-F-F. 557 00:20:49,482 --> 00:20:51,551 THE "BOYFRIEND, GIRLFRIEND, BEST FRIENDS FOREVER" DOUBLE DATE. 558 00:20:51,551 --> 00:20:53,520 - THAT IS COMPLETELY INSANE AND I AM ALL-IN. 559 00:20:53,520 --> 00:20:54,921 - I WOULD SWING BY, 560 00:20:54,921 --> 00:20:56,323 BUT I HAVE TO HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH JENNA. 561 00:20:56,323 --> 00:20:57,890 - SO HAVE IT.