- Have you spoken to Luis? - No.
- Again, he left the baby flat.
- If I pull Luis out of the equation,
she's gonna wonder.
And if I let Luis continue doing what he's doing,
and coming when he wants, it's also gonna hurt her.
I'm happy that you're getting surgery, 'cause I know...
- It was bothering me.
- It's bothering you.
- I don't want this fat ass. - I don't like my boobs.
Dr. Miami, he's like, "Let's just fix your breasts
so that you feel better about yourself."
- I have a lump in my breast.
They didn't seem to think that it was cancerous.
They said they wanted to keep monitoring it,
Being an addict and owning my addiction,
any kind of-any kind of surgery is terrifying for me.
- You guys are gonna go to your dad's afterward.
- Am I going to my dad's?
- Mm, you're gonna go to your dad's next weekend.
What are some of your favorite things
that you like to do at your dad's?
- Play Madden, play football, and train.
- What do you like to do at your dad's?
- Just try to keep your head up.
I know it's frustrating,.
- After this term, I just have one more term to do.
- But, with that being said, I start school on Monday.
I'm excited.
- So what's your plans for your birthday?
- I don't really have any, honestly.
What?
Hey, this is nice.
I love you.
- I love you, too.
- My mom left hours ago with all my prescriptions and...
- Your mom's here.
- She's here. Just pulled up.
- Jade wants to go.
- So disgusted with how my-my parents not even pretend
attempted to even care about my life or care about me.
- Was it crazy with your family there?
- Just with my parents, like, [bleep] was just off,
and I felt like there was just something going on.
[sighs]
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
- It's been a few months
since I last saw the doctor about my tumor.
But I have an appointment this week
to see if it's grown.
And even though my girls know about it,
we haven't discussed it lately.
Since we can't go to the nail salon, I'm the nail tech.
What do you think? Girl time. Girl mom.
- You're a woman, not a girl.
- Thank you. I am a woman. You guys will be women one day.
[laughter]
Do you guys miss any of your friends at school?
- Yeah. - Uh-huh.
- You do?
What about you, Grace? You missing that crush?
- I don't--
- You missing that crush?
- Mom, what about your crushes?
- What about my crushes? I don't have a crush.
Are you trying to tell me to date, Aleeah?
- You do need to go on a date soon.
You need to actually find someone nice.
- What would be the benefit of me dating?
That's what I want to know.
- Well, you wouldn't have to, like, take out the trash.
- Is that all the guys are good for?
- Me and Mommy take the trash can down.
- We do.
It's very important to me that I bring people around you guys
that are gonna be a role model, a positive role model
in you guys' life, not just anyone.
So even if I "went on a date," it's not like you would "meet"
someone that I went on a date with.
But you know what, I'm okay with being alone too.
I got you guys.
- You have your cats. And me.
- Okay, I'll just remember not to let them meet Addie
until much, much, much later.
I don't feel pressure to date right now.
I know my girls keep talking about it.
I want to be physically, mentally 100 percent
before I add anyone else to my life.
I have my follow-up doctor's appointment
for the tumor on my breast coming up--and figuring out
what steps I need to take moving forward.
It's so important that I show my daughters
a healthy relationship.
Hopefully they do it completely differently
than I did.
- ♪ I've been having trouble sleepin' ♪
♪ 'Cause I can't seem to reset ♪
- Isaac and Lincoln are at their dad's this week,
and Lux and Creed see their dad every other weekend.
The transitions can be tricky,
so I do what I can to make things as smooth as possible.
Hello, Nat.
- Hey. How are you?
- I'm good.
- What's Isaac been up to?
- Isaac was not happy about going to his dad's.
- What is he not happy about?
- Joe and I have very different...
- Maybe, like, just the plan or--
- Parenting styles... - Mm-hmm.
- When it comes to, like,
school and stuff like that.
So I think he didn't really like what his dad
was wanting him to do, as far as, like, schools goes.
- Schoolwork or extra schoolwork?
- I think extra schoolwork as a punishment for Isaac
not doing what he's supposed to be doing.
And I don't do that at my house.
- And the conversation's been had,
if you do what you're supposed to do,
you won't have this problem.
- I--that's what I keeping telling him--is, like,
do what you have to do
so you can do what you want to do.
- Right. - And there will be less of...
- Yeah.
- You know, your dad, like,
basically reprimanding you with more work.
But Lincoln is starting two football leagues,
and I just wanted to get on the same page with Javi.
I need Javi to be encouraging Lincoln
doing his schoolwork over there and make sure
that we're prioritizing school over football,
because I know that that, like--
- It's, like, flop at the dad's.
- I mean, he's the cool dad. - Right.
- So he gets to go over there and, like, play football
with his dad all day, and then Javi will, like--
- Right.
- About schoolwork. I get more excited
than I should when Javi and I have a good parenting moment,
because it's so hot and cold and so up and down.
I know what we're capable of. - Right.
- We can have a conversation and it be friendly
and not cross boundaries and not blur lines...
- Yes.
- And be friends, as much as friends as we can be.
- There's no reason not to be.
- So I just--I don't know. It's really, really hard.
But I hope that--I hope, for 2021,
there's more good days than bad days.
[upbeat music]
- Brittany and I just got to Miami
for our cosmetic surgeries tomorrow.
Our procedures are less invasive than Jade's,
so our recovery time will be shorter,
and my mom's watching the girls until we're back home.
- Hey, ladies. both: Hey.
- Nice to see you guys again. - How are you?
- Nice to see you too. How are you doing?
- All right. So what are we doing?
- The lipo on the outer thighs
to correct the unevenness of my butt.
- Of course. - Okay, that's all.
- That's easy. - You.
- Yeah.
- I know you like big boobs. But me...
- Guilty. - I don't. I don't.
- Okay. - I don't like them.
I have 200 in right now.
- Okay.
- A little bit bigger. 275.
- Just a little bit. Not too much.
- Yeah. 300 is pushing it.
I feel like they just droop
no matter what.
- I don't think they're gonna go much lower
than they are now,
and all the extra volume will go to the top now.
I want to make sure we fill out enough skin...
- Yeah. - So that they don't look like
they're hanging, you know what I mean?
- I don't want--yeah, I don't want that.
- Yeah. So we'll see.
- Okay. - We'll negotiate...
- Okay. - The final size.
But I promise you it won't be too big.
It won't be crazy over the top, okay?
- Okay. All right. That works. - All right. Cool.
Have a good night's sleep.
I'll see you tomorrow. - Yes.
- All right? - Okay.
Thank you so much. - You're welcome.
- I appreciate everything. - See you tomorrow.
- All right, guys. both: Bye.
- ♪ I'm trying lately ♪
- Brittany and I have both had surgeries before,
but we still get nervous about it.
- I know the pain that's coming.
- I won't be able to lift my arms for like--maybe, like,
two, three weeks, I can't carry Stella.
- My mom's calling me. - Oh, she's calling?
- Hi. - Are you okay?
- Yeah, we're just here waiting to go inside.
- Shae is here, and Brittany's here.
- Are you girls nervous?
- Just a little bit. I think we're a little nervous.
- Hello, we're about to be put under.
- I know.
- Yeah. And Shae will keep you updated.
- I'll keep you updated. I'll let you know.
- Brittany. Come on in.
- Do you need a hug? - No. I'm good.
- We love you, girl. - See y'all later.
- Bye. - Bye.
- Love you. - Bye.
- I've been under the knife a few times already.
I definitely didn't think
I would be getting four surgeries, but here I am.
The recovery--I never really experienced anything too crazy.
I think that's why I keep doing it.
But it is very scary.
Brittany just got out of surgery.
Everything went well, and she's in recovery.
So now I'm waiting to go in.
- So you nervous? What are you feeling?
A little bit? - Nervousness.
- What are you most nervous about?
- Getting put under.
- Why? - I don't know.
'Cause I feel like I'm not gonna wake up.
- You're gonna wake. Up. - I know I'm gonna wake up.
- You're stressing yourself out.
- I know I'm gonna wake up, but it's--once
you're under--once you're under, like,
you have no control of anything, obviously.
- Yeah. So you've done this before.
You're gonna be fine.
- Yeah, I know.
- All right, Briana. Come on back.
- I don't think nobody likes to get put under.
It's a very weird feeling. Bye.
- Good luck, girl. Love you. See you when you get out.
- I don't want to psych myself out,
'cause I definitely want to get the surgery done.
But it's just very, very scary, like, walking up to the table
and them talking to you, and you're laying down.
And the only thing I can think about is Nova and Stella.
- Hey. You're gonna do great, okay?
- Yes.
Then, all of a sudden, that's it.
Lights out.
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
[beeping]
- ♪ I don't wanna go back ♪
♪ Down ♪
♪ ♪
- Klo. Come here. Get your bacon.
I've been home for over a week and recovering pretty well.
Sean's been helping me a lot,
but the doctor finally cleared me to go back to work.
- Mama, I want all the bacon.
- You can't have all the bacon.
♪ ♪
You like bath bombs for your bathtub?
This is a lot of freeing instructions
for this damn thing. Be careful.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
What--no. Kloie.
- What's she doing?
- She's literally pouring it out.
Stop. How was your day?
- It was good. How was yours?
- Boring. I just cleaned.
- So what's up with the salon?
I know your lease was almost up.
- Yeah. It's basically up right now, like this month.
But I can still stay there and pay the rent.
My salon--pour that back in there.
Pour that back in there now. It's not ready yet. 'Cause--
- Mommy said not to do that yet. So stop.
- Stop, Sis. I said hold on.
I told you, if you're not gonna be a big girl and listen,
you're not gonna do this with me.
- I just want to do it myself. - Okay.
Well you're not old enough to do it by yourself.
- Yes, I can. - No, you can't.
That's apparent.
- Yes, I can.
- Because you're making mess, and you're not listening to me.
- I'm sorry. - Okay, well stop for a minute.
I just want to make sure
that you're gonna be there and help out.
- Yeah, of course. - And I want to make sure
that you're gonna help with Kloie a lot.
I can't work from home, or remotely, you know.
- Yeah.
- So I'm just gonna be out. I'm gonna be busy.
- Yeah. - Okay, look.
Ready to see our creation?
- Yeah. - Whoa.
- Wow.
- Oh my goodness.
You want to use these in your bath tomorrow?
- Yeah. - Oh, nice. Nice.
- What's the matter?
- What's wrong?
- What the heck?
- She's mad, 'cause it's over.
- I want to take a bath.
- You just took a bath earlier.
- I want to take a bath.
- Oh, someone's tired.
- I'm not tired!
- You want some milk or something?
You want some milk and want to lay down?
- No!
- I'm ready for her to go to bed.
It's been very stressful having, like, you know,
just work anxiety,
trying to get back into the mix of everything,
and I'm trying to get my normal schedule together.
I feel like, lately, Kloie's been going through,
like, this phase.
She hasn't been, you know, around anybody besides us.
Like, my parents--I've cut them off.
She hasn't really been around them.
So I honestly think she might just be acting up
from being just kind bored and in the house.
I don't really know.
- Now that Bar and I are both in school,
we're doing our best to balance everything,
but we've also been dealing with something upsetting.
- Racism has always been a thing.
I mean, we've both experienced it growing up.
But most of it kind of picked up from
when we started speaking up
on the Black Lives Matter movement.
- Since that white man sat on that Black man's neck
for eight minutes, and I spoke up about it,
that's when the racist [bleep] blew up.
- Yeah.
- People know we're Black,
but when we put it in their face, they're like,
"Oh, that's too Black. Like, that's too much Black."
- We usually get hateful DMs anyway.
But I've seen a little bit more of an increase
in it, as far as, like,
the blatant disrespect and racism.
- I don't know how people can think like that.
Like, what's wrong with your brain?
- What happened to you that made you such a hateful person?
'Cause that's what--at this point-at this point,
that's what I look at it as. It's, like,
something that you got going on in your life has to be...
- So sad. - The reason behind it.
- We're a young, Black family that is on TV,
that is trying to do something with our lives.
And that upsets people for whatever reason.
It's a history of people feeling like Black people
do not deserve opportunities. - It is.
- And so for you to sit your white self on the couch...
- For us to be-- - And watch my Black ass
on this couch with my Black-ass baby daddy...
- It's upsetting.
- With his Black-ass face tattoos, I know you're mad.
- Right. - And that's fine.
But my Black ass being here is the reason
why another little Black girl is gonna understand...
- Is gonna get that--
- That she's not alone. She can have a baby.
She can go to school. She can want more for herself.
- What woke you up this morning and you said, "I'm gonna
"go to this person's page and then tell them
how much--many monkeys they are"
and how they hope you die and you get raped
and all this other crazy [bleep]?
It's-it's confusing, honestly. I didn't just wake up and go,
"Oh my God, you're white. I hate you,"
or "You're Mexican. I hate you." Like--
- Well, we're not taught that.
Where I get concerned is when threats come in.
Because, you know, people do say
they want me to get raped or they want to hang me
or they want to kill me when they see me.
I just don't know what kind of person
says something racist to a child.
- It's like, you-you say this type of [bleep]
and don't even know the type of mental effect
that it's gonna have on that parent like that.
You saying it 'cause it's just some hateful [bleep]
for you to say.
But you don't understand the hatred
that you just threw into this person's head behind you
talking about their kid like that.
- Mm-hmm. When you go and say stuff like that to a child--
- Like, Holly doesn't even know what--
- Racism is.
- She doesn't even know what racism is.
She doesn't know what hate is.
She's not thinking about [bleep] like that.
And honestly, she's not supposed to.
It sucks that we have to do--
- She will. When she walk out this by herself...
- I know. But it sucks that-- - She'll be ready to handle it.
- It sucks that we have to prepare our kid for that,
because in actuality,
she--we shouldn't have to tell her about that,
because it shouldn't exist.
♪ ♪
- ♪ Can't stop ♪
♪ You see the sun is coming up ♪
♪ I feel it too ♪
- I'm seeing the doctor in a few days,
and I'm glad to finally be getting some answers.
- Time to get your freak on. - Okay, Missy.
- I wish. It's been a year. I'll just keep dreaming.
- Oh my gosh.
I'm thinking of a Missy Elliott song,
and you're talking about the real thing.
Jesus.
- Anyways, how have you been?
- I've been doing great.
- Did you ever go to the doctor to get the lump
on your breast looked at?
- Well, they were gonna monitor it.
He told me that he would let me think about
after-after the ultrasound. And--
- Let you think about what? Removing it?
- Yeah. You hear "procedure," and it's like, oh my gosh.
You know what I mean? Like, that--and that scares me.
Everyone knows that I was addicted to the pain medication
that they prescribed me before.
I know how addictive that medication is.
- They're not gonna give you pain medication for this.
- I don't want anything like that.
- They're not. - Nothing.
I'm sure they'll do a biopsy on it.
- Yeah. - If they remove it.
- They'll want to know if it's cancerous or just a mass.
- Yeah.
Believe it or not, I know it sounds so petty of me,
but I really am worried about what my boob will look like.
- What, if--boob look like if what?
- I don't know, like,
what my breast will look like if I had, like, a cut in it?
Like, does it deflate?
I don't know why I overthink everything.
- Did you just say it would deflate?
Stop. Dude.
- Will it look funny?
- It's not gonna look funny.
- I mean, at the end of the day,
if it's what needs to happen, that's what's gonna happen.
[bleep] my appearance. But it does suck.
Like, it's like, [bleep]. Like, yo, I'm single.
For real.
It'd be different if I was a whole married woman.
- Don't necessarily forget about your appearance,
but forget about it,
and make sure you take care of yourself.
- Mm-hmm. - Get that checked out.
- I mean, breasts are an important part of our bodies--
- Yes, but it's not--
- Of a woman's body.
And I'm thinking about when I go put a bathing suit on.
I know that sounds so funny to you,
but it does--it bothers me in a way.
♪ ♪
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- She's snoring.
She's having a good nap.
[phone beeping] Hey.
- How is she? - She just got out now.
She's waking up now.
- Bri. You can breathe?
Make sure you drink fluids.
All right, I love you.
- I'm gonna keep you updated, okay?
- All right, thank you. - Okay.
- All right. Bye.
- Bye.
- We're staying overnight in Miami to recover,
and we'll be heading home tomorrow.
- Hey. So how you feeling?
- I'm okay.
Just tired and sore. Ready to go home.
- About to get a massage soon? - Yeah, a massage.
- Because I'm so swollen that she said she has to massage me.
- Have you talked to your mom, the girls?
Everyone's doing good at home?
- Yeah, I spoke to the-spoke to the girls.
- You guys are feeling okay to go home?
- Yeah. We'll be fine.
- ♪ Frozen, I'm in no state to fight them ♪
♪ Generations of eyes ♪
- Bye, Miami. - Bye-ee.
- What a [bleep] trip.
- What a trip.
- I'm ready to go home to my children.
- I know.
- Speaking of the-- - Kids.
- Luis texted me, like, right after I got out of surgery,
and he was just like, "Is Stella home?
I want to see her." I said a few things.
I said, "You just can't come in and out of Stella's life
"whenever you feel like it.
"You need--you know, you're either in or you're either out.
Like, you can't-you can't do this to her."
- Mm-hmm.
- And he was like, "I just want to see Stella."
And I was just like, "Well, I'm not home,
"so if you want to see Stella,
you have to coordinate that with my mother."
- Right.
- It's, like, he says he's gonna come,
then he doesn't come, then he comes five days later,
and then he goes missing again. It's just, like, ridiculous.
- What do you tell Stella when that stuff happens?
- It's really hard. Like, I just--I don't think
I'm ever gonna tell her that he's coming over or not,
unless, like, he shows up, 'cause it's not fair to her.
- Yeah.
- So I don't know if he texted my mom or not.
So I have no idea.
We home, bitches. - [laughing]
Is that Luis's car?
- Luis's car is literally right there.
[upbeat music]
♪ ♪
- Javi's bringing Lincoln back soon,
and since he signed him for a second football league,
I want to make sure we're on the same page
about managing his time.
Brothers are gonna be home soon.
- Hello. - Let's go outside.
I want to talk to your dad really quick. Come on. Okay.
So what days are practices? What days are games?
- Games Friday nights. - Okay.
- Practices, I don't have a schedule yet.
- Okay. - So that's Friday night.
- So Friday night games.
Don't know when practices are yet.
- Yeah. Not yet.
It's 45 minutes away, so we have to both be
on the same page that it's a commitment.
It's a lot of driving.
- Okay, well, from you, if I can't make it
to a practice or something,
are you gonna be able to take him?
- Yes. - Okay.
So I'm gonna--I'll be keeping you updated on that,
just 'cause Creed's schedule is rough.
Could potentially have a babysitter, but if I don't,
I'm gonna--you're gonna have to take him.
- Yeah.
- I just don't want him to get burnt out.
And I also want him to make sure
that he is focusing on schoolwork, sir.
- Yeah. 'Cause I just asked him 32 minus 21,
and he didn't know it.
- Come look at me.
If you don't keep your grades up and you're not reading
and doing your math, you're not gonna play football.
And that's-that's a decision
that your dad and I are making together.
We're gonna be on the same page.
- Yep. - I'm serious, Lincoln.
- Yeah. For real, for real.
- You hear me? - Yeah.
- All right, let's do our handshake.
Say bye to your dad.
- All right. Love you.
Be good, all right? This is it. Last week.
- I'll see you on Saturday at training.
- Hey. One, two, three, uhh.
It felt really good to actually have a conversation with Javi
and being on the same page with school before football.
I definitely was pleasantly surprised
that he was willing to have,
you know, a civil, friendly coparenting conversation.
You got all these papers in two days.
- My dad didn't empty it. It's not my fault.
- I want to make sure that Holly understands
the reality of racism in our world.
But I also want her to feel safe.
It's made me think a lot about my own childhood
and how I was raised.
So we're going over to my parents' later,
and I'm hoping to get a chance to discuss this with them.
- Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
- How's that?
- Okay. Pretty soon, here, it's gonna be too hot.
So how's that? Okay?
- ♪ Ooh, in a bad way ♪
♪ And the day that sunshine left, my soul changed ♪
♪ Oh, no ♪
- So I want to just check in,
like, from generation to generational.
Today, I believe it's the anniversary of Breonna Taylor.
It's a lot this happened in a--in this entire year.
- I'm happy I'm a part of the generation
that's really fighting and [bleep] on this level.
I'm happy to be a part of it.
I'm happy to go out and go to protests.
- Right. - It makes me feel good.
It makes me feel good, not--
- And I'm proud of watching you guys, too,
'cause I've seen you guys trying to keep up
with some of this stuff. And then you get what I seen
what I went down them comments today.
- Oh, okay.
- Oh, today? You mean what I get every day in my DMs?
- And we all have had our fair share.
- This has been the most racist time
that I've ever experienced in my life.
I feel like, because I'm the only Black mom
on a predominantly white show, I don't have no choice
but to go hard, get an education, get all A's,
give my daughter everything she want.
I don't have no room to slack.
I don't have room for that. I can't do that.
You don't think it was hard for me, pregnant, depressed,
stressed out, going to school? Still did it.
I don't have that luxury to sit and be sad
and be [bleep] crying and stressed out and all that.
As soon as I do that, people gonna eat me the [bleep] up.
- I can remember you coming up, Ashley,
and I would try to tell you stuff, and you'd be like,
"Mom, you don't know what you're talking about, Mom.
You're just being racist." - "You're crazy."
- And I'll say, "No"--and I'll say, "No, Ashley."
- Like, "Nah, this is what it is.
That's what I'm trying to tell you."
- "This is what it is." And you just like,
"No, Mama, the world is not like that anymore."
And I'll say, "Yeah, Ashley, it is."
- I was raised by Black people who were wealthy.
So for me, I didn't see no racism growing up.
- No, you didn't see any racism because it was being
shielded from you. But if you asked--
- Why? Because I had the money to be there. That's why.
- No, Ashley.
- No.
- Because stuff was going on right there.
I personally was slapped
and was called a [bleep] bitch in a store.
- But what I'm saying is it wasn't all that other [bleep]
that occurred to me
until I got older and I realized,
even if you have money, depending on your color...
- You still gotta go through it.
- You still gotta go through [bleep].
But I didn't understand that.
I did not understand that it was a privilege.
It was a normal thing for me to be the only Black girl
- We knew-we knew--as a adults, we knew it was an-white school.
That's why you were there. And so that's why I was like,
"Okay, we gotta get in with the white people,"
because then you get a chance.
Then you get a chance to get a job.
Then you get a chance to go to a good school.
And we skip districts
and go, you know, to different districts.
'Cause once they draw up the resources, and dry it up,
you gonna go out looking for water elsewhere.
So that's what we do. We go out looking for elsewhere,
because you depleted our neighborhoods.
- And that's how we-- the neighborhoods.
- Right. And that's what we did.
That's what we did for Ashley.
And it sounds disgusting just hearing myself say it.
The opportunity should be given to her no matter where I live.
But unfortunately,
that's the dream that most Black people are chasing.
♪ ♪
- ♪ But maybe I can shoulder that ♪
- I'm on my way to the doctor, and I'm nervous.
But looking forward to finally having some answers
about my tumor.
- Hello.
- Hey, what are you doing?
- Working. - Working?
I'm on my way to the gynecologist.
- How do you feel about it? - Anxious as [bleep].
- I'm proud of you for going. Don't be nervous.
- I get so caught up in taking care of my kids,
but I know that taking care of myself is also a priority.
- Just stay positive.
- I'm--I mean, I'm positive,
I'm just, like, [bleep].
- ♪ But maybe I can ♪
♪ Shoulder that ♪
♪ To the sun ♪ [indistinct singing]
- The film crew isn't allowed inside,
so I'm self-shooting my exam.
The doctor is going to do a regular check-up
and then tell me if I need surgery.
- Hi, there. Nice to see you. - Hi.
- Thanks for being here. - How are you?
- How's life treating you?
- It's going well.
- I sure hope so, the family's all good?
- Yeah.
- With your breast, do you still feel that area,
or did it stay away?
- No. It definitely has gotten worse.
- Okay. So remember, it's a benign finding,
based on what they saw. But they want to have follow-up
to prove that it wasn't changing.
- Okay.
- So we'll get your exam real quick.
Then we can talk some more, okay?
- Okay. - So lean back.
There's a pillow for you. Just like that.
There we go. Pull this out.
Yeah, so that's real small.
- I feel it, like, underneath my arm--like,
right here, where you're touching.
- Yeah. - That's so sore.
- I don't mean to hurt you.
- No, you're fine.
- Well, we definitely need to re-image it, okay?
- Okay.
- Let me get you dressed, and I'll talk some more, okay?
- Yes, sir. - I'll be right with you here.
[somber music]
♪ ♪
Theoretically, it might growing.
- If it has grown, what would your advice be then?
Like, pros, cons?
- I mean, it's just a judgment. I do have
a fair amount of patients that have had the excision.
- Mm-hmm.
- You know, and they have a scar,
but it's not, a big, big scar.
- It does bother me a little bit, like,
emotionally, you know what I mean?
Like, if I don't have to have something like that,
then I don't want that.
- Well, we'll just re-image it.
Then we'll make a decision about that, okay?
- Okay.
I think it's looming over me a little bit.
And I really don't know if I want to have the surgery
unless it's necessary. I really don't want a scar.
I don't want to have to pay that money
if it's not necessary-- medically necessary.
But I ultimately
don't want to be the one to make the decision.
I would want to follow whatever recommendations
and guidelines that the doctor feels is best.
But I really don't know. I guess we'll see.
- Today's my first day back at work,
and with everything that's going down
over the past few weeks,
it feels great to be in the salon.
Sean is staying home with Kloie.
But lately, she's been acting out,
and it's stressing him out.
- Hey, be careful before you spill your cereal. Stop.
- ♪ One, two, three, four ♪
♪ Come on and fight ♪
♪ ♪
- I'm home.
- ♪ One, two, three, four, come on and fight ♪
♪ ♪
Kloie. Little girl!
- She's been like this all day.
- Where's your apple? What'd you do with the apple?
- Where?
- So if I go in your room right now,
and I--I'm not gonna find an apple?
What is this?
The apple you just told me you threw away?
- It's been all over the floor, so it's...
- You're not getting it.
- Going in the trash. - Learn how to ask, nicely, with some respect.
Say you're sorry and ask nicely.
- Yeah, you know what,
you're not getting a snack right now,
until you learn how to ask correctly.
- No, I'm not.
- Cut it out. Go play in your room.
- No!
- You're going in time-out. Right now.
- No! - Stop it. Stop it.
You better cut this out. Cut it out!
Quit doing that, man! You're not the boss!
- Let go.
- Do you want to go to bed? - Stop!
- Do you want to go to bed?
- No!
- Then you better quit it.
- Stop yelling at me!
- I'm not yelling at you. You're yelling at me.
- No!
- That's it. - No!
- Stop talking over me!
- No! - Stop talking over me!
- No!
- Okay, stop. 'cause this isn't working, obviously.
- Okay, well you are cutting me off,
and it's gonna work, okay,
if you would just let me [bleep] parent.
- 'Cause this is--she's not responding to this.
- All right, well then you be the--you [bleep] parent
and [bleep] discipline, then,
'cause I'm not doing it anymore.
- Kloie, I just said--
- I'm not [bleep] sit there and discipline her
and have you cut me off when I'm [bleep] doing it.
- [screaming] Let me go!
- You're in time-out. - No!
- That's how you're gonna act, you're done.
- No!
- I'm shocked that Luis actually showed up,
but I'm not convinced he's changed his ways.
You gonna hang out with your dad?
Luis doesn't want to be on camera,
so he's staying outside with Stella.
Go on. Play with your dad.
- When did Luis come, and, like, how did that happen?
- I think his mom must have spoke to him.
- Why?
- 'Cause I called her again.
- What did you say to her?
- I said, "My daughter's doing her job.
Your son is not." She didn't like it very much.
But you know what, she needs to tell him to step up,
or he needs to decide what he's gonna do.
'Cause the coming and going is not healthy for her.
She has no idea what type of dad he is.
- Of course, she doesn't.
- He's left her flat too many times to count.
- I do want to talk to him, though.
Let me ask him what his plans are.
Get Kai and bring Maddox inside.
Oh, I miss--I missed you, Maddox.
Ma, he's too rough for me. Go. I can't--yeah, I can't.
[speaking Spanish]
So what is--what's-what's your schedule like for this weekend?
- Well, she has daycare during the week.
So I just got surgery done,
so I may need some help with her,
'cause my mom's been with the girls all weekend,
so I need your assistance.
- All right.
Whatever.
I feel like, if my mom didn't call
Luis' mom, then Luis would have never came to see Stella.
So now it kind of felt like a forced visit,
which is very upsetting, because I feel like,
if you want to see your daughter, you would just come.
After everything is said and done, right now,
I still feel like I need to call a lawyer
and figure out my options,
because it's very upsetting watching
Stella not know if her dad is gonna come that day.
- Hi. What's the matter?
You okay? Come on. Are you done with your daddy?
- No, your father's outside.
You have to go hang out with him.
- Go-go play with your daddy... - Come on.
- For five more minutes. - Come on.
- No. - So then say bye to him,
give him a kiss, and then go upstairs and shower.
- No. - Go say bye to your dad.
- No. - Why?
- No. - That's your dad. Be nice.
- No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No.
♪ ♪
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- Okay, so, Ashley, we know how you were raised,
but how is now--that now going to pour on to Holly
or not pour at all?
Is this something that you feel like
you talk to a kid early about?
- Well, I mean, it's only so much you can give to her.
But also, there has to be a balance, 'cause she is mixed.
- I plan on teaching her what I grew up in.
- Okay.
- That's how I plan on dealing with it.
I'm showing you the same way that I grew up,
except when you're light as hell
and you go to a school in the hood,
you get treated like the white kid.
Like, you get pointed out more.
So I caught the [bleep] end of the stick.
I couldn't me myself as much as what I would normally be.
And then when I got back home, I was myself more,
but I still had to go to school,
and all my problems was like, "You the white boy."
- So I'm listening. I'm just thinking,
how much trauma has that got to play on a person's life?
- A lot.
- It does.
- Because you can't just be born and be free.
That's a lot of trauma.
- I feel like it's a forbidden subject as well, though,
when it comes to you having to talk to your kid about it,
'cause she walked in the room, and she was like-she was like,
"Daddy, I'm Black."
And I was like, "You are." But it was like, "Oh, [bleep]."
- Yeah. - "Oh my God. How do I--
- And you don't want to know... - "How do I-how do I--"
- Just, like, "Why did she say that to me?"
- "How do I address this?"
The reason that I have to have the conversation
with her to understand that she's Black is strictly
because she has some type of Black in her
that she has--her safety is a risk.
Her safety and her sketch
of what she can do in life is a risk.
So I have to inform her, "Yes, you are Black.
"But because you're gonna go through these trials in life
"that are gonna--they're gonna throw at you
"because you're Black, you need to understand
you're Black, and you're strong."
You know, I don't want it to be like, "You're Black.
You're Black, you're Black, you're Black, you're Black."
Like, I don't--but I also feel like I have to--
- But you don't have to tell her, to be honest.
- She's learning about it herself.
- And he's gonna--the world
is gonna teach her that she's Black.
- But I want her to understand that she's Black,
but I also want her to understand
that there's nothing wrong with being white,
and I also want her to understand
there's nothing wrong with being Black.
It is okay no matter what color you are.
- Right. - God damn.
- I appreciate the fact that my parents tried
really hard to shield me from racism
and things like that growing up.
I feel like my mom did the best she could.
And I'm gonna try to do the best I can with Holly.
But ultimately, I think, at the appropriate age,
I will tell Holly some of the racist things I've experienced.
I feel like, right now, it's too much of a burden on her.
But I think it's important that she know,
because I don't want her heart to be shattered
when it happens to her.
And I'm gonna start with just teaching her Black history
and letting her know that she stands
on the shoulders of giants.
And hopefully, that will start instilling some self-esteem
about who she is as a person.
♪ ♪
- ♪ Holly, oh, Holly ♪
- It's upsetting to not get clear answers
from the doctor about surgery.
But I did schedule a second ultrasound appointment,
so hopefully the tumor hasn't grown.
- What up?
- What up? How are you?
- Good. My hair is really greasy.
- You look cute.
- So how do you feel after your appointment?
- Well, it went well.
I told him that the tumor was still bothering me.
And he was like, "Let's check the size of it."
- But does it hurt when you're just sitting here?
- Yeah.
- When's your next appointment?
- In two weeks. If it's grown and there's concern about it,
he said that he wanted to do a tissue sample,
which is a muscle biopsy, and we'll just go from there.
I'm just kind of following his lead with it.
If the tumor has grown, I will do whatever he suggest.
But if I don't have to have the incision,
I really don't want to.
It's just scary. It's a lot to think about
when you're fully responsible for three kids.
- Right.
- You're going in time-out.
I feel like me and Sean have been colliding, you know,
and butting heads about, like, parenting.
Sometimes we're on different pages,
so that's making our communication really messed up.
Okay, can you go use your toilet, please?
And then you can have your cereal chips.
Go use your toilet.
- I just went to potty.
- No, you went like an hour ago.
You need to go again.
I'm hoping that soon Kloie
kind of gets out of this little grouchy phase.
Us trying to parent her but not really agreeing or being
on the same page about stuff
is just throwing off our communication
and just our whole vibe right now.
- You're [bleep] embarrassing me on [bleep] camera.
- I'm not trying to--
- Like-like I don't know how to [bleep] parent my kid.
- I'm just trying to do stuff--
- No, [bleep] made me look like a [bleep] idiot.
- But I'm saying, she's not responding to that.
- Well, an I'm not responding to this.
- Okay. Fine. I mean, you're the one sounding psycho.
- You're the one who [bleep] acts like you know everything.
♪ ♪
[sighs]
[dramatic music]
- ♪ The sense that you are them ♪
♪ Throw down my walls ♪
♪ Time's always slippin' ♪
♪ This life is no ♪
♪ Mirrors and visions ♪
♪ Lead me astray ♪
♪ Run over bridges ♪
♪ I'll break away ♪
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
♪ Ooh ♪
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
♪ Ooh ♪
♪ Mm-mm-mm ♪
- Your dad is gonna come
and you're gonna spend time with him.
- No!
- I missed a midterm. Oh, my God, bro.
- I have a checkup for the tumor on my breast.
- It's embarrassing 'cause to the world looks like
we have a demon kid and we're [bleep] parents or something.
- You're half right.