[tense music]
♪ ♪
[all cheering]
- It's a boy!
- Lincoln, are you so excited?
[chatter]
- I definitely want to go on a trip
over their spring break to the Bahamas before the baby comes.
I think they're going to be super excited.
It's like the last family of four trip.
- Congratulations, you are now a licensed professional.
[cheers and applause]
- So you're looking to open a salon?
- Yeah, like, have my own walls
so I can do my own thing, basically.
- Okay, this is a standard sized studio.
- I'll take it.
- I feel like I'm doing everything by myself,
and I don't want it to be like that anymore.
- All right, I do want to help out some way, somehow.
- That works, for sure.
- I've just been seeing somebody.
It's not gonna go anywhere. We're just having a good time.
It was supposed to be a secret.
- You're posting [bleep] though.
It's not really a secret. Up to a point it's a secret.
- The person is a secret. - Yes, the person is.
- Is he married, have kids, divorced?
- I'm not giving you no information, sorry.
- How's Frederico?
Are you falling in love with him, Briana?
- I'm not in love with him.
I may be a little infatuated and definitely in lust.
I wonder what's going to happen after this trip
when we come back home.
- Now, how long have you been working on your book?
- Two months. It's an autobiography
and, like, a self-help book. It has become way different
than what I thought it was going to be.
Have you been seeing everything on the news
with this coronavirus?
Ali has a compromised immune system.
She couldn't fight it like you and I could.
Corey was like, you know, keep the girls.
He's still working.
He could be exposed to who knows what.
But they're going to stay with me
so that way they're safe. Ali was lying in bed
the other night and she just was sobbing.
She was just like, "I really miss my dad."
I heard, like, how you were feeling.
And I promise you,
I'm going to get you to see your dads ASAP.
- This is, well, exactly where I wanted to be.
Lori is going to be like a work trip to LA.
Lori is keeping us healthy.
- I mean, I hope not.
- After reading all the news things,
I was like, "Dang, I don't wanna travel."
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
- ♪ Look up ♪
♪ No more crying, no more hiding ♪
- You have a Gusher in your hair.
- Ew. - Lux.
- How did you get a Gusher in your hair?
- Come on, I just washed your hair.
How did you get a candy in your hair?
- I don't know. - I don't know, either.
I'm taking the boys to the Bahamas in a few weeks,
so we can do something special before the baby arrives.
I'm not sure if the coronavirus
will affect our plans, but I'm trying to be positive,
and I just had a 20 week checkup for my pregnancy.
Let's start with how hot the doctor was.
- [laughs]
- Oh, thanks.
- I can't believe you're halfway there.
- The first 3 months were hell.
We all know I was alone for my pregnancy with Lux,
and Chris was not great.
Chris didn't come to my last ultrasound
because he slept through his alarm.
- For you to let somebody
continue to pull you down is like, sad,
but you can't continue to be sad when you have me
and, like, everybody. You're not alone.
- And then when I went into this one, I was like,
"I don't want him there.
I don't want him in the delivery room.
I don't want him on the birth certificate.
I don't want anything to do with him."
- Well, maybe by that time, since it's still months out,
the way you feel will lessen.
- But the boys are excited to go on vacation.
If this coronavirus gets in the goddamn way,
I'm suing everyone. I'm pissed.
- We need to leave n - And just stay there until--
- Stay until the-- That would be horrible.
- They're just, they're making such a [bleep] out of it,
and it's pissing me off.
I'm going to have before I have four [bleep] kids.
You know what I mean?
- Well, if worse comes to worst,
we just get stuck there.
- Well, I don't know--
in 30 days they could shut travel down.
- That's true, and then what?
- I will take a [bleep] boat.
I'm going to the Bahamas.
♪ ♪
- ♪ I played around with her ♪
- Things have been busy with my clothing line
since LA last week,
but the coronavirus has been spreading in the US,
and I'm starting to worry.
Let's go.
Feeling okay?
- Yeah. - We have to stop at Target
'cause I did an online order of cleaning supplies.
Like at first, I didn't think this whole coronavirus thing
was actually a big deal,
but I'm starting to get a little--
- It's a huge deal.
- Well, I'm getting scared now.
- I heard a bunch of people have died here.
- No, that's not true.
- No deaths. - People have it, though.
I know people who have it. - Yes, that's true.
Cole and I cleaned today. - Okay.
- And we're going to clean some more.
Like, even if we didn't film at the house
because I'm being a psychopath--
because the crew travels a lot,
and that makes me nervous,
you know, having them in the house.
- Yeah. - I'm sorry, I feel so bad
saying that. I just--
I'm panicky, obviously. But so anyways,
plan on hanging with me this weekend at home.
- The girls and I are still filming ourselves,
and we've been self-quarantining for 3 weeks
now because of Ali's condition.
The twins haven't seen their dad,
but Corey and I spoke and came up with a plan.
- We haven't had Ali and Aleeah here at our house
for probably right at a month. We miss them very bad.
Leah reached out to me the other day
and said that the girls were having a very hard time
with it mentally,
and that they missed us all here.
She said that if we took the appropriate precautions,
that she felt and I agreed that it would be fine for them
to come here for a day or two this weekend.
- You guys ready to go see your daddy?
- Yes, we are.
- Yes, you are. - I'm taking a nap.
- Take a nap, honey. - Okay, you need it.
- I'm sure your dad is very exhausted, too.
- Yeah, cause he works.
- You guys ready? - Yup.
- Kay. - Here's my phone.
[indistinct chatter]
- I dropped the girls off at Corey's
so they can be there when he gets off of work.
- Hey girls. - Hi, Daddy.
- Missed y'all. - Missed you, too.
- Like, what are you, like 20 foot taller?
Oh you, too?
- She's 5 foot... [overlapping chatter]
- It's very scary that Ali could be exposed
to the coronavirus.
- Does it look different here? - Yeah?
- No.
- Because she does have muscular dystrophy,
which makes her a part of that vulnerable population.
- Feeling weird being here?
Does it feel like you got, like--
does it feel weird being somewhere else?
- No. - But I trust Corey.
We're raising kids in a split home.
They need both units always, even during the pandemic.
- I love you. I missed you.
- I mean, who knows how long this will go?
We can't go a year and them not see their dad.
Whatever we have to do, even during a flipping pandemic,
that's what we'll do.
♪ ♪
- ♪ I like you ♪
♪ Do you like me too? ♪
- Sean's sister got home safely,
but Indiana is shutting down, and the crew can't come out,
so I'm self-shooting. Are you hungry?
- Yeah. - Yeah.
You want to make breakfast?
Oh, you want waffles and some syrup?
- Yeah. - Yeah, open it over the bowl.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, okay.
I've been trying to be safe at work,
but today I got some bad news about the salon.
[line rings]
- Hello? - Hey, it's Jade.
I just wanted to call and let you know
that our governor has shut down our county
for any salon appointments.
So all I'm doing right now is just sending back
anyone that's been booked for the next like month,
sending back their deposits.
- Okay, and is there a time
I can reschedule my appointment?
- Probably not right now
because they haven't really given us a day of
when we can open up, so when I know something,
I'll make sure to message all of my clients
with any information that I'm getting.
- Okay, sounds good. - Okay, thank you, bye-bye.
- Thank you, bye.
- So our governor's actually
closing our county,
so I'm not going to be able to go into work,
and they don't have a reopen date set yet.
But I know that I'm not going to be able to go into work.
I'm not going to be able to take clients.
And right now, I'm just, like, freaking out.
Like, my whole world is, like, falling apart,
'cause I'm scared I'm going to, like,
go behind on all of my bills.
And there's no one that's going to, like,
be able to help me or, like, be there for me
or help me financially if I needed it
'cause everyone in my family, like,
has it hard financially already.
I contacted the place where I lease my salon.
They said that they weren't going to charge
people late fees,
but you still have to pay rent,
so everything still has to be paid.
It's, like, scary 'cause it's kind of out of my control
and there's nothing I can do about it
but, like, sit around my house
and just wait for someone to tell me
I'm allowed to go back to work.
So I'm basically going to get everything,
like, draped up and cleaned and disinfected
for the next time that I come in.
Then everything will be clean and I basically just have
to put everything back up where it goes.
Okay, I think everything's all done and disinfected.
- ♪ See you later alligator ♪
- After I got back from Puerto Rico,
the coronavirus got a lot month serious.
The crew isn't allowed to travel right now,
so the producer sent us some gear to film ourselves.
We've got an extra phone, extra camera,
you know, tripods.
And we're excited to start filming, right?
- Yeah. - Our story.
Just try to do this and down, down, down, down.
We'll figure it out. I don't know how this works,
but I'll figure it out. - Somehow.
- Mine! Mine!
- Luis and Devoin had agreed to give me 250 a month
for the girls starting this week.
Luis was able to, but Devoin hasn't yet.
- Hi. - Hi.
- Is that Stella? - Say hi.
We made cupcakes, right?
- Yes...and you missed these cupcakes.
- Yeah, we all been home.
My job told me I'm laid off for 30 days.
My mom's job told her she's laid off for 30 days.
- So what is the latest with Devoin?
- Nothing. He told me that his job
laid him off, so he's not doing anything right now.
And Luis, Luis came over to say bye to Stella,
because Luis got laid off from his construction job,
and he went back to trucking.
And I texted them both in the group chat,
and I was like, "Listen, my job
just laid me off, so help me out."
Like, I'm not expecting anything really right now
because I know they're struggling just as much,
but like, I need them to know
that I'm not working right now.
- Oh, 100 percent.
So you just got back from Puerto Rico
with your secret bae.
How's that been going?
- To be honest, once I put Stella to sleep...
We're under quarantine right now,
so it's kind of hard. I don't know if
it's serious enough to introduce people to him.
I don't know where it's going to go.
But right now I need to mentally figure it out
before people know about what's going on.
This whole coronavirus is crazy
because it's finally made its way down to Florida.
- Have you explained to the kids what's going on?
- Nova has an idea of what's going on
because, I don't know, she just knows.
Like, I didn't even tell her about the coronavirus.
I was just like, yeah, we're staying home
because of the coronavirus.
I'm like, "Oh, okay."
I don't know what I would do
if any of my family members got sick from this.
- ♪ Come on up to the place you're feeling ♪
♪ Come on up to the place you're needing ♪
- At first, I didn't realize what big deal this virus is,
but it's starting to affect everything.
Delaware issued a stay-at-home order,
so the boys are doing distance learning. With the quarantine,
the boys still have to do their schoolwork.
Okay, so how do you feel about the quarantine?
- I think I'm kind of happy because we get to sleep in,
and we don't have to, like, wake up so early,
and we don't have to rush a lot.
- It's more fun at the house because why?
- Because we do funner work.
- You do stuff that you like to do? So--
- And that work, all we do is do papers and cut out stuff.
- Well, that's because they're preparing you for life.
- With the coronavirus spreading,
I had to tell the boys some bad news.
- So before we start your schoolwork,
I want to tell you that we're out of school for how long?
- Two months. - Okay. And--
- Until May 15th.
- And Isaac asked an important question in the car,
which was what?
- Will we still be able to go to the Bahamas?
- So unfortunately, we're not going to go.
- Until the corona is done?
- Well, so after the coronavirus quarantine,
I can't travel anymore because of the baby.
- So we're not going to the Bahamas?
- No. - At all?
- Mm-hmm.
- We can't travel at all, never?
- Well--
- Well, once the baby comes, then we can travel.
- What, the baby in your belly? - Yeah, once he's born.
- We can travel? - Mm-hmm.
- We have to wait until July?
- Mm-hmm. - Mm-hmm.
- [groans] - You guys have any questions?
- Why did this have to happen?
- Because the baby's in the belly?
- No, no, no. - No. Stop it.
- I think the kids were really looking forward to this trip
just because we do one big trip every year,
and that was our trip.
So it sucks because, I don't know,
I feel like that would have been a really cool way to,
like, end the chapter of having three kids
and get ready for the new chapter of having four kids.
To be perfectly honest,
I don't think that I took corona seriously
when I first heard about it. It was just, like,
I never anticipated it being what it is today.
COVID could have affected us a lot more negatively
than a few canceled trips.
I'm thankful that we have each other
and our health right now.
- West Virginia is now officially
under a stay-at-home order.
But earlier this week, I took Addie to Jeremy's,
and the twins are still with Corey.
- So, it's day 4,000 of quarantine.
What do y'all think?
- Mm-hmm. - Huh?
- Yeah.
- Aleeah, what do you think? - Yeah.
- You don't like it? - Yeah.
- I don't like it, either.
- My book releases tomorrow,
and I'm just taking the emotions as they come.
I never imagined that writing
a book would be so cathartic.
I'm just excited that all of my hard work is completed
and ready to be released.
But I'm a little anxious because a lot of the stuff
that's covered in the book happened
while I was with Jeremy.
There are things in my book
that Jeremy and I have discussed privately,
but he is extremely, you know, nervous about it
being released publicly.
It was hard enough putting all of me out on paper
and reliving that, and now when my book releases,
I'm going to be reliving it again.
But it's all like a healing process for me.
- Leah, I am now recording, okay?
- Okay.
My book released today, "Hope, Grace, & Faith."
And it is the number one new release on Amazon,
just saying.
I'm going to go live and connect
with every single person that has purchased my book
and supported me along this journey.
- You can't promote your book in the conventional way
that we're used to seeing
people, you know, go on the road and sign books.
How are you going to promote and publicize your book?
- Initially, I hired an entire team
to kind of help support me with the book launch.
But being quarantined,
and not being able to travel and do book signings
and speaking engagements and things like that,
kind of shifted everything to being virtual.
And what I'm most excited about
is others sharing their journeys as well
and knowing that, by reading my book, they're not alone.
- Well, without further ado,
I don't want to make you late for it--
so if you want to set up those two camera shots.
So Leah, if you could put one tripod in the dining room,
so I can get an over the shoulder shot
of your Instagram video.
- I work better under pressure than I do--
- Now Leah, can you bring that one over to me, now?
That tripod?
I want to position that where this laptop is.
- Do you want it up high?
- You can come down a little bit
because it's up pretty high right now.
Okay, nice job on the setup.
- Teamwork to make the dream work.
- Amen.
- Best-selling author.
Y'all don't make me cry on this live, okay?
Don't make me cry.
I fought with anxiety, depression, addiction,
low self-esteem, and I just want to say,
it was the hardest battle that I've ever fought in my life.
And to know that someone else may be fighting that battle
and feel alone or feel like they're not worthy enough,
I couldn't live with myself.
That was the reason why I wrote my book.
Anyways, I love you guys so much.
Thanks for hopping on here.
Don't forget to order "Hope, Grace, & Faith"
on Amazon, anywhere.
I love you guys so much and I will be live again.
I'm not--yeah. Love you guys.
- ♪ Blown around with the wind ♪
- South Dakota doesn't have an official
stay-at-home order,
but my family has been quarantining.
[indistinct chatter]
- 17, 17, 18, 17!
Here come!
Where's Daddy? Dad!
- The family is playing hide-and-seek,
and Aubree is doing her first day
of homeschooling, right?
Show me your laptop.
Working hard, or hardly working?
- I have to read this and then do a quiz.
- Okay. We haven't had
a lot of coronavirus cases in South Dakota,
so the contractors were able to continue to work
on our house safely.
They put out some stakes
where exactly the house is going to go.
We just want to make sure we get the perfect spot.
It is a muddy mess, but it's looking so good.
A few days ago, I started feeling sick,
and I'm not sure what's going on.
Yesterday I was in bed all day,
and so this morning I messaged my doctor
'cause I had a bit of a fever,
and I was just like, "I think I have a stomach bug."
Like, "Should I come in, or is it not worth it?"
And I explained my symptoms, and she was like,
"I think you need to go in."
That's where I'm going now. I'm going to the COVID swab,
like a test, I guess.
Rather be safe than sorry.
Hi.
- Chelsea DeBoer.
- Yes.
- Okay.
- Okay, thank you. - All right, thanks.
- [bleep] I'm scared.
I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared.
- Okay. Okay.
- Oh!
Thank you. - Yeah.
- [coughing]
Holy [bleep], I've never had anything
so far up my nose.
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- So I'm out at the grocery store
and there's literally nothing on this side, nothing.
Now there's nothing on the aisles,
no toilet paper, no Lysol wipes.
There's literally nothing in these aisles, you see?
Absolutely nothing.
Right now, I'm not working. Devoin is also not working.
And the only person that is working right now is Luis.
Devoin has been coming over some days.
He's been trying to do his best.
Let me see, Stella. What's that , bubbles? Whoo!
- Good job, you did it. - Right now,
I'm not asking Devoin to pay for anything,
the 250, nothing, because his restaurant closed down,
so he's not making any money.
And I don't know when I will start asking Devoin for money
because I don't know how long we will all be out of the job.
And you know, I also have to take care of the kids,
so it's just a really tricky situation.
I put all of my money into this house,
so I don't have any savings.
Like, I don't have any money to spare.
So to not know--like, the uncertainty of, like,
what's going to happen next in our future is really scary.
- It's really hard not working,
and Sean doesn't have a job right now, either.
So I'm worried about how we'll make money.
- Wanna make a puzzle?
- No, don't wanna make a puzzle.
I'm going to say that,
I hate that there's no, like, definite answer of
when things are going to get back to normal.
And I hate seeing the news
and seeing all of the stuff online.
- Yeah. - I'm just, like, depressed.
- Yeah. - We don't have any money,
like, coming in like it was
with, like, me working at the salon.
But I have, like, a little money put back in our savings,
and that's basically what I'm going to have to use
to pay the bills here.
The people that I rent my salon from, like,
right, my salon space,
they're still making us pay rent.
And you know, I would have at least thought
that they would have paused, like, on our rent
or something, but they're not.
So I'm like, what the [bleep]?
There's so many places, like,
that are going out of business.
Like, there's so many companies, restaurants
and places that are, like, done.
Like, they're going because they can't
afford to stay knowing
- And don't reopen. - Yeah, or to reopen.
I mean, they can't afford to.
So I mean, I feel like it's scary for me
because, I mean, I own my own business.
So it's not like I work for a company
where I can just collect unemployment and whatever.
I mean, I can't do that. It's not even an option.
But I mean, it's so early and so hard to tell.
We could have a whole nother wave of this epidemic
where people are [bleep] they're getting sick.
So I mean, we don't know.
- I hope so.
- ♪ I've been wondering if we should get together ♪
- The boys were so bummed about canceling our family vacation,
but the weather's been really nice,
so I thought I'd give them a surprise.
- What are you doing?
- I have a little surprise for you.
- I wonder what it is. - How much do you love me?
- A lot. - 2,100.
- Do you love me? Okay. - [whines]
- I hope this cheers up your quarantine week.
[kids cheering]
- Thank you!
- It's gotta shock for a couple of hours,
so we should be able to get into it later today.
- ♪ You spent a lifetime out on the sidelines ♪
- I'm glad the kids are excited about the pool,
but I've still got a lot going on.
So despite this quarantine and having to social distance,
I do have to keep up with my OBGYN appointments,
and I had an ultrasound.
So I want to show you the pictures
of the last ultrasound.
So here we have a foot,
and a face, another face right here.
I was the first person to not think that this whole thing
was as serious as it is in the very beginning,
when we learned about everything that was going on.
Now it is--it's concerning because giving birth
in a hospital is scary.
Even if the coronavirus is, you know,
more under control in July, I mean, that doesn't mean
that the entire hospitals are completely sanitized.
And the pregnant are vulnerable.
Newborns are vulnerable. That's terrifying.
- It feels great that my story is helping people,
but my struggle with addiction
wasn't the only secret that came out in my book.
I also revealed the truth about a miscarriage
that was documented on this show.
- Even though it was only 8 weeks pregnant,
it was still my baby, and I still loved
that baby more than anything else in this world.
- All right, so let's get a clap sink.
- One, two, three.
I totally expected it to blow up
because there's a lot of raw, vulnerable information
that I released in my book. It was like,
the miscarriage that played out on TV was an abortion.
I was not married to Jeremy. We were dating.
But still, Corey was kind of really,
really in my head around that time.
- What's the rumor about you being pregnant?
- Maybe.
- You can answer with a Y or an N.
- Oh, jeez, uh...
You've obviously moved on pretty serious.
I mean, any cracked doors are now shut.
- Both of us had mixed feelings about our relationship,
and I felt like I had [bleep] up
by getting pregnant.
And I had a rep at that time that was like,
"Leah, this is going to look so bad on you.
"There's this pill that you can go take,
and it will--like, it's just like a miscarriage."
And I was like, "Okay," 'cause you had to do it
before you were 8 weeks pregnant.
- Why did you make up the story about a miscarriage
and not just come right out and say you had an abortion?
- Because I was ashamed.
I was ashamed of the choice that I'd made,
and that I allowed others to influence
my decision-making at that time.
In West Virginia, abortion is a very controversial topic.
So to me, it was like,
"I don't want anyone to know I did this."
- Did you tell Jeremy it was a miscarriage, also?
- At first, yeah.
At first, I told Jeremy it was a miscarriage.
I don't think anyone understands the guilt.
Like, I thought I was going to hell.
And you know, I thought I was, like, burning to death
for the rest of my life,
that I would never be forgiven.
I was also afraid that he would be like,
"You're a murderer."
[crying]
What I've learned
is that I get to love myself no matter what.
Like, I get to love myself even beyond the mistakes
that I've made in my life, you know?
And I get to forgive myself
because we're all perfectly imperfect.
- When did you tell Jeremy?
- Jeremy and I did, like, this release,
like, tell-all when we were going through our divorce.
I'm so grateful for him
because he never held my kids over--
like Addie, over my head.
I will, like, forever be grateful of him for that.
♪ ♪
[tense music]
- I feel like I miss work and want to go back to work.
I feel like it's something that's super terrifying,
and I live with a lot of anxiety.
So I feel like this is just something else that's, like,
piling onto my worries.
It's super sad having to shut down something
that's a huge part of your life,
and I feel like me and Sean and Kloie
haven't really been doing anything
because, I mean, we're just stuck in the house.
We're not going anywhere. So we thought that
it would be a good idea to get a little puppy.
- Yeah. - You ready?
- Yeah, I'm ready. - You want to meet the puppy?
- It's a good puppy.
- I found our dog online.
Are you excited, Sissy?
- Yeah!
[laughter] - Go get her!
- Her name is Keetah, and she has a really good personality.
Go give her love, go touch her.
Say, "Love you."
- Love you. - Aw.
- She's an awesome, fun addition to our family.
- Good girl.
- What're you guys eatin'?
- Raspberries. - [laughs]
You got raspberries?
- Mm-hmm.
- In South Dakota, we don't get hit with all these things.
And sometimes we're just, like,
in our own little bubble, and so going there and seeing
how serious everything really is,
that definitely was scary.
To go and, like, see other cars,
like, going through to get tested
and, like, that was really the first place that I went into.
And they were, like, waiting at the door
to check your temperature.
You're wearing a mask, like-- it was like, "Oh dang.
Like, this is a different world right now.
And that made it really sink in.
But I do not have COVID, which is great.
It was a relief to find out, like, I'm good.
But then, you still have that feeling for other people.
Like, there's people actually going through,
and being tested, and positive,
and so sick and losing family members.
Like, it is so sad and so scary.
[phone ringing]
- My sister got home from visiting her boyfriend
a few days ago, and she's not feeling well.
But it's hard to actually get tested for COVID-19,
so we have to call the doctor.
[line ringing]
- Hi, I have my sister here
who thinks she has the virus, and we were wondering
if we can make an appointment to get tested for her.
- She's not feeling good,
and she has, like, a really bad cough.
- Okay.
- Okay. Thank you so much.
- Bye.
- [coughing]
- Her doctor said Brittany qualifies for a COVID test,
so my mom's watching the girls
and we're heading to a drive-through center.
- Out of everybody in my family,
it'd have to be me, though.
- She'll be okay, right? You'll be okay?
You'll be okay.
This is like, intense. Look at that.
It's [bleep] crazy.
Can I record this, by any chance?
Okay.
- You okay?
- Okay, thank you. Have a good day.
- Oh my God, I'm so sorry. - Oh my God.
- I'm so sorry. - [coughing]
[bleep] My nose hurts.
That was not cute at all.
- If she is positive, we have to come up with a game plan
on what we're going to do
because I don't think she can stay here in this house.
No idea.
This is, like, so crazy.
Let's just see what the [bleep] happens.
I'm stressed. I'm really, really stressed.
- I'm really appreciative of Jeremy,
and I want to talk to him about my book
when I pick up Addie
because I know some of the content
hasn't been easy for him now that it's public.
- Yes. - Was that in both cameras?
- Yeah. You can see both of my--
You can see my hand on both clap, yeah.
- Alright, that's awesome. - So did she do good?
- Yeah, she's good.
- Was she excited to see you? - I think so.
- I know the girls were excited to see Corey.
You quarantined your ass
before I let Addie come over here.
- Well, yeah, but still. - Just because you don't know.
- You never know.
- And then I switched everything with my book around
to being virtually.
Remember the last conversation we had about my book?
- I still wanted to have a face to face conversation with you,
kind of see where you're at with things.
- I mean, you already told me about the abortion
possibly going to be in the book,
so I really wasn't surprised.
I've been dreading that since you told me
about that [bleep] a year ago.
- Well, I mean, it's something
that no one should be ashamed of,
no one should be afraid to speak about.
- I ain't talking about that [bleep], we're done.
- No, we can talk about it, it's--
- I don't want to talk about it.
- It's nothing like--
- I just don't want to talk about it.
- But it is-- That is what happened.
So if I would have left that out of my book,
I would have been lying.
- I just feel like there's certain things
you could probably [bleep] like,
left out, sugar-coated a little bit better.
I don't know.
- No, that's not owning my [bleep].
It's sad that I felt ashamed or fearful
to talk about that decision.
- Well, you had plenty of people in your [bleep] head
telling you all kinds of [bleep],
if I remember correctly, and you told me one night,
driving up I-79, right about there--
- No, I told you right in front of your mom and dad's house.
- I remember a lot of this time in my life,
almost to the second and place--
- I'm going to give it to you.
I'm going to give it to you, I was very blacked out.
- And then, like, I just never brought it back up to you.
I never talked about it.
And we got back together, and I was kind
and just left it alone.
I mean, it was [bleep] up.
Like, I was not happy with you that night.
Like, that night, man, it was just like something flipped.
And you just started, just like, you had had enough
of trying to hide [bleep].
- And we had the conversation.
- You told me about the abortion.
We stayed together for another five months
after the cheating [bleep].
I was kind of, like, not wanting to, like,
not believe you 100 percent.
But then I didn't know to believe these other people,
is kind of what I mean. - But I'm owning my mistake.
- But it's proof of [bleep] happening.
- That's what I've been saying.
Mind you, I'm on pain medication pretty hardcore.
That's also in my book, me talking about being an addict.
And even the Suboxone, I had to pull myself off
that [bleep]. - I was there, Leah.
I remember all of that [bleep].
- You would hold the medication
and give it to me as it was prescribed.
- Because you started going nuts.
- But still, that's not a good idea because it's still--
- What else was I supposed to do?
- It's--
I'm not saying you're guilty, but I'm saying--
- I shouldn't let you drive off and get it from Billy Bob
that might not be giving you the correct [bleep].
At least I knew what is in our [bleep] house at the time.
Everybody in the world acts like I left you
because you had anxiety and depression.
I got to deal with [bleep] about a year and a half long.
- You did, but it doesn't matter
what other people think.
- I left you mostly because-- - It was toxic.
- It was horrible. - It was toxic.
Just admit it, it was toxic.
- Well, you literally made one statement to me
at the park-and-ride. You said, Leah,
if you can't love yourself, you can't love anyone else.
- Yeah, and I meant it.
You can't love me
if you don't love yourself.
- Sorry, I don't want to cry, I just want to do better.
I was like, damn. - Yeah well, you couldn't.
- Like, for it to be coming from Jeremy,
that was some good words to hold onto.
And it doesn't matter how things are going,
we always communicate well.
- We're always good. - Yeah, always.
- I love you. - I love you, Jer.
- What?
- All right, I gotta go. - We're about to leave.
All right.
♪ ♪
- ♪ Home, growing like a flower ♪
♪ Got me missing you ♪
♪ I need the sun to see me through ♪
♪ Illuminate the skies ♪
♪ Like neon fireflies ♪
♪ Light up, light up ♪
♪ For the dreamers and for the lovers ♪
♪ Hear the thunder, undercover ♪
♪ For the reckless and the believers ♪
♪ For the lovers ♪
♪ Hear the thunder, undercover ♪
♪ For the reckless and the believers ♪
♪ For the heartless ♪
♪ This is for the dreamers ♪
♪ ♪
♪ This is for the dreamers ♪
♪ ♪
- It's legit.
- She was running a fever yesterday of 103.6.
- Things are going to be very different this school year.
- I've decided to do home birth.
I'm gonna make the full switch from the OB to the midwife.
- I want you to have, like, more drive
and more aspirations. - I have drive.
- No one's just gonna hand you an opportunity.