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Previously on The Big C...

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So, the hospice, huh?

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How does this feel?

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I really like it here.

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This is how I want to go.

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It hasn't been easy not having you around.

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Over my dead body

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are you not graduating on time.

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You're doing a great deed

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donating your kidney to a stranger.

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- We need to go see dad.
- You hate dad.

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He's not that bad, Sean.

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I think it is incredibly big of you

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- to make amends with dad.
- Fuck him!

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I have to turn in some
"Just Clothes" designs

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to sir Isaac Mizrahi.

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He's fashion royalty.

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- Too much?
- No. Love.

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How long do most of us stick around for?

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Some people go for months.

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You never really know what's coming.

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- Yeah!
- Fantastic!

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Whoo!

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I want you to play that at my funeral

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just to prove that it's never too late

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to start something new.

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I also... I have a list.

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There's a caterer that will do the spread

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for the two-day viewing.

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- Great, can we be done now?
- Almost.

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I don't know what to do about dad.

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Fuck dad.

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It's like an automated response with you.

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Fuck, yeah. Asshole.

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- I need to call him.
- Fuck him!

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We haven't talked to him

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since we went to his house
last year and told him off.

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I mean, he doesn't even know I'm sick.

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He's not even an asshole.
He's the whole ass.

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Okay, just stop. Stop!

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Adam, I don't want you talking
like that when I'm gone.

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Whoa. Are you okay?

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Yeah.

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You want me to call him for you, honey?

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No. I should do it.

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Not like I'm his favorite guy anyway.

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I could call him if you want.

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No, it's okay, Adam. It's just...

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it's a shame you don't have

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a relationship with your grandpa.

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Yeah, it's a real shame
you don't get to hang around

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with this really mean guy we know.

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What if we never see him again?

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- Fuck him.
- Okay, I got to go.

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Where are you going?

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I'm going to hang out

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with Lydia and Jeff and some friends.

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- Where?
- Uh, Jeff's house.

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We're gonna play some video games,

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you know, smoke some pot, do some blow,

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maybe some speedballs, and
then go for a drive, so...

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Well, then do you think

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maybe you could squeeze some homework

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in between speedball and the joyride?

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Uh... yeah, I will.

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- I love you.
- Bye.

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- See you, dad.
- See you, Sean.

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- See you.
- Buddy.

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Why is he always rushing out of here?

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Maybe it's because you're
talking about your funeral

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like it's a grocery list.

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It was a little cavalier.

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Well, you know how much I love
crossing things off a list.

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Oh, I get it. God, I so get it.

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You're active. You're doing something.

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That's what keeps you
from totally losing it.

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You know, I'm doing all these tests

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right now for the transplant.

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And it feels so good

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to be actively moving towards a goal.

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I'm thinking about what I can give next...

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bone marrow, blood, for sure.

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You know, I might even get my tonsils out.

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Not to donate,

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but I don't really need them.

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Yeah, see?

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That's how I feel.

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There you are.

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Here I am. Nice pocket square.

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You know, Andrea,

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my first week here, I
looked around the classroom.

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I studied everybody's first sketches,

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and I made some snap judgments.

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And how did I do?

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Well, I thought you were gonna
be my big attitude problem

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who thought she was God's gift to design.

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I envisioned us in a big fashion fight...

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feathers flying, beads thrown,

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words said that can't be taken back.

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We can still do that.

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But you surprised me.

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You amused me. You took my breath away.

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- Are you gonna propose to me?
- Yes, I am.

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I propose that you come
to New York this summer

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and intern for me.

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I'll pay you just enough to put you

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in a bug-infested apartment
the size of a closet.

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You'll be living the dream.

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That is my dream.

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Oh, my God! That's my dream!

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- Yay!
- Yay.

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I know what it is.

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- It's an "s."
- Mm-hmm. Ha.

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Damn it.

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I wish there was a way I
could check on you guys.

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Let's make a signal.

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If your electric toothbrush

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goes off when you're not using it,

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- it's just me saying hi.
- Okay.

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But what if that really freaks me out?

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♪ Knock, knock

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Hi, Cathy. Paul.

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Hello.

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I have some information

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I wanted to share with you.

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Would now be a good time for a chat?

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Have a seat.

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So, your insurance covers four months

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of on-site hospice care.

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And next Friday, you will have been with us

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exactly four months.

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So, we need to make a plan.

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A plan for what?

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Where you're going to go.

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What do you mean where am I gonna go?

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I don't want to go anywhere.

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Do we just have the worst insurance ever?

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Actually, this is very standard.

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And your insurance does
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which would start as soon as you get home.

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And that would include a hospice nurse

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coming in to check on
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Okay, what if we wanted to stay here?

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How much would it cost
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Well, unfortunately,

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we are an insurance-based hospice,

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so we can only provide
care through your plan.

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- You don't take cash?
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Who doesn't take cash?

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I mean, look, we... we
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I mean, that bed's been empty for months.

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You know what? It's okay, Cath.

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It's actually great.

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I get to take my bride home again.

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Actually, I thought you might
be excited about going home.

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I'm excited. I'll get
you all set up, honey.

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You can curl up with your own blanket.

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We had a woman here a few months ago

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who begged to go home

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just to sit in her favorite rocker

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on her sun-porch.

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And her husband said that
that is where she passed

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with a smile on her face.

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If I wanted to sit on
my frickin' sun-porch,

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I would never have come here.

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But I did come here,

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because I don't want our
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with the place where his mother died.

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"Oh, that's the room she fell down in.

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That's the room where she finally passed."

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I came here to die.

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Well, you have until Friday.

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He said that I inspire him.

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I'm not surprised.

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You inspire me.

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I figured at first that
he was, like, creating

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some new big-gal line,

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but it's regular skinny clothes.

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Are you winking at me?

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I'm sorry.

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It helps me focus. Go on.

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And this is really cool.

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We both get good news on the same day.

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I get a job, and you're going home.

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Yep.

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What do you mean I'm shellfish?

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I like seeing you guys on my rounds.

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Oh, my God.

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It's like a joke.

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A priest, a rabbi, and a Muslim dude...

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No, an imam.

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- All walk into a bar.
- A hospice.

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Andrea, would you ask
them to come over here?

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Where do you think we go when we die?

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It's the question I'm most often asked,

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second only to, "how long is the service?"

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I get that one too.

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Catholic thought is that you go to heaven,

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where believers enjoy the presence of God

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and the freedom from suffering and sin.

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That sounds nice.

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All right, rabbi, what you got?

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Well, the torah does
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We focus on olam ha ze... this world...

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the here and now.

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Well, my "here and now"
is about to get up and go.

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So, can you give me something
to get excited about?

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Well, there is a famous midrash

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that describes souls in the afterlife

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at a huge banquet table,

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sharing delicious food.

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- That's better.
- I like Jewish food.

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Oh, same here.

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Our paradise, Jannah, is pretty nice.

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You get to wear fancy robes,

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and you can recline on couches.

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I might be Muslim.

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But the sick and the dying
have to wait their turn to go.

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It's a big tease.

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The essence of faith

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is surrendering to God's will.

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And his timing.

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I take great comfort

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in knowing that my life and death

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is no more important than others.

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But if I have to stay here

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and wait for God to decide
when he's ready to let me go,

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why does it have to be so painful?

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Your illness is not just to test you,

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but to test the charity of others.

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Have you seen generosity and kindness

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in the people around you?

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Well, we believe that beauty

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and the knowledge of
that goodness is Allah.

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We believe it's God.

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We're not sure.

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Oh, lord Jesus Christ,
most merciful lord of earth,

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we ask that you receive
this child into your arms,

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that she may pass in
safety from this crisis.

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As thou hast told us
with infinite compassion,

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let not your heart be troubled.

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Ye believe in God, believe also in me.

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How you doing, Adam?

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I'm tired.

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You look tired.

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All my friends are partying

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because they're almost out of school,

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and I'm still taking tests.

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Well, you dug your own hole.

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Now jump in.

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I'm ready.

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I don't want it to get any more painful...

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not for me,

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but more importantly for my family.

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I apologize

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if I didn't have enough faith in my life

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or the right kind of faith.

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But right now...

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I believe in you.

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I believe you can help me.

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Now I lay me down to sleep.

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I pray the lord my soul to keep.

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If I should die before I wake...

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that'd be good.

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00:12:58,520 --> 00:13:02,022
God damn it.

267
00:13:04,426 --> 00:13:07,528
Not only did you think
that you could get everyone

268
00:13:07,562 --> 00:13:09,997
and everything under
control before you died,

269
00:13:10,031 --> 00:13:12,599
but you actually thought
that you could control

270
00:13:12,634 --> 00:13:15,102
when you died?

271
00:13:15,136 --> 00:13:17,171
Well, not just me.

272
00:13:17,205 --> 00:13:19,206
I thought I could invoke
a little divine help.

273
00:13:19,240 --> 00:13:22,176
Yeah, but isn't having
faith largely defined

274
00:13:22,210 --> 00:13:25,112
by surrendering control?

275
00:13:25,146 --> 00:13:27,348
I have surrendered control.

276
00:13:27,382 --> 00:13:29,917
I need someone to help
me go to the bathroom.

277
00:13:29,951 --> 00:13:32,286
I've completely given
up trying to look cute.

278
00:13:32,320 --> 00:13:34,221
I'm reconciling the fact

279
00:13:34,255 --> 00:13:36,023
that my dad and I will never be close.

280
00:13:36,057 --> 00:13:38,525
And I won't get to see Adam
graduate from high school.

281
00:13:38,560 --> 00:13:39,860
Yeah, but you're also afraid

282
00:13:39,894 --> 00:13:42,196
that your death might screw up Adam.

283
00:13:42,230 --> 00:13:44,198
That's not the same as trusting

284
00:13:44,232 --> 00:13:46,467
in a higher plan for a greater good.

285
00:13:46,501 --> 00:13:50,704
I thought therapy was supposed
to make you feel better.

286
00:13:50,739 --> 00:13:52,206
- Not necessarily.
- Hmm.

287
00:13:52,240 --> 00:13:54,074
Then you're doing great.

288
00:13:54,109 --> 00:13:56,744
Why, thank you.

289
00:13:58,513 --> 00:14:01,048
So, if I sign something

290
00:14:01,082 --> 00:14:02,416
saying I'm willing to meet the person

291
00:14:02,450 --> 00:14:04,284
that I'm donating my kidney to

292
00:14:04,319 --> 00:14:06,220
and they sign something saying
they're willing to meet me,

293
00:14:06,254 --> 00:14:08,222
then it doesn't have to be anonymous.

294
00:14:08,256 --> 00:14:09,289
And guess what.

295
00:14:09,324 --> 00:14:10,891
We both signed.

296
00:14:10,925 --> 00:14:13,627
I'm meeting him. His name is Ray.

297
00:14:13,661 --> 00:14:15,129
You don't even seem nervous.

298
00:14:15,163 --> 00:14:18,298
No, no. I'm over that part now.

299
00:14:18,333 --> 00:14:19,967
Hey, you know how you hear these stories

300
00:14:20,001 --> 00:14:22,069
that sometimes donors and donees

301
00:14:22,103 --> 00:14:23,904
become lifelong friends?

302
00:14:23,938 --> 00:14:27,574
Well, maybe now that he'll have
a little piece of me in him,

303
00:14:27,609 --> 00:14:30,010
maybe he'll become like a brother.

304
00:14:30,045 --> 00:14:32,346
- You know?
- Sean...

305
00:14:32,380 --> 00:14:37,418
Now, I know that I've judged
you for not being typical,

306
00:14:37,452 --> 00:14:39,853
but you do amazing things.

307
00:14:39,888 --> 00:14:42,489
You help people, which is why

308
00:14:42,524 --> 00:14:45,426
you're the person I'm
asking to help me now.

309
00:14:45,460 --> 00:14:46,527
With what?

310
00:14:46,561 --> 00:14:48,996
I'm ready to go.

311
00:14:49,030 --> 00:14:51,598
Uh, where?

312
00:14:51,633 --> 00:14:55,202
On my adventure to the great beyond.

313
00:14:55,236 --> 00:14:57,438
And if I don't die
naturally in here by Friday,

314
00:14:57,472 --> 00:14:59,440
I have to die in the
house in front of Adam,

315
00:14:59,474 --> 00:15:01,008
and I don't want to do that.

316
00:15:01,042 --> 00:15:02,776
And most importantly,

317
00:15:02,811 --> 00:15:05,879
I want to do this last hurrah with you.

318
00:15:05,914 --> 00:15:09,716
But I'm relying on your
amazing ability not to judge.

319
00:15:09,751 --> 00:15:11,518
And I love you,

320
00:15:11,553 --> 00:15:13,720
which is why...

321
00:15:13,755 --> 00:15:16,457
my dying wish is that...

322
00:15:20,428 --> 00:15:23,230
you help me die.

323
00:15:24,599 --> 00:15:28,902
Y... you are a fucking crazy lady!

324
00:15:28,937 --> 00:15:31,405
Hey. Hey, crazy lady,

325
00:15:31,439 --> 00:15:32,539
what did you just do with my sister?

326
00:15:32,574 --> 00:15:33,874
Did you eat her?

327
00:15:33,908 --> 00:15:35,209
If I looked in your mouth right now,

328
00:15:35,243 --> 00:15:36,810
would Cathy be down there screaming,

329
00:15:36,845 --> 00:15:39,012
"hey, this crazy bitch just gobbled me up,

330
00:15:39,047 --> 00:15:41,582
but I'm totally sane, and I'm down here"?

331
00:15:41,616 --> 00:15:43,250
Just keep it down, Sean.

332
00:15:43,284 --> 00:15:45,819
I'm not gonna help you kill yourself, Cath.

333
00:15:45,854 --> 00:15:48,989
What do you think vegan
kidney donors do, huh?

334
00:15:49,023 --> 00:15:51,692
We save lives, not destroy them.

335
00:15:51,726 --> 00:15:54,495
- I just want to...
- What?

336
00:15:54,529 --> 00:15:56,930
Participate in my own death,

337
00:15:56,965 --> 00:15:58,832
acknowledge it, accept it.

338
00:15:58,867 --> 00:16:00,734
It's not like I'm cutting my life short.

339
00:16:00,768 --> 00:16:02,002
I know my time is up.

340
00:16:02,036 --> 00:16:03,604
You don't know that.

341
00:16:03,638 --> 00:16:07,174
You could have ten days, or
you could have six months.

342
00:16:07,208 --> 00:16:09,743
I can't walk, Sean.

343
00:16:09,777 --> 00:16:11,445
My vision is so messed up.

344
00:16:11,479 --> 00:16:13,580
I'm terrified of going
blind and hearing your voice

345
00:16:13,615 --> 00:16:15,749
and not being able to see your face.

346
00:16:15,783 --> 00:16:17,217
The pain medication they give me...

347
00:16:17,252 --> 00:16:18,685
it doesn't take it all away anymore.

348
00:16:18,720 --> 00:16:20,754
And I'm hurting all the time now, Sean.

349
00:16:20,788 --> 00:16:22,222
Now, look, I might be weak-minded,

350
00:16:22,257 --> 00:16:24,024
or maybe I'm just not framing this right,

351
00:16:24,058 --> 00:16:26,193
but I want to go...

352
00:16:26,227 --> 00:16:27,394
now.

353
00:16:29,697 --> 00:16:31,698
Well, why me? Huh?

354
00:16:31,733 --> 00:16:33,567
Why not... why not Paul?

355
00:16:33,601 --> 00:16:35,435
You're supposed to be partners with him

356
00:16:35,470 --> 00:16:37,037
in sickness and in health.

357
00:16:37,071 --> 00:16:39,506
Paul definitely wouldn't get it.

358
00:16:39,541 --> 00:16:41,508
I'm worried he's not gonna honor

359
00:16:41,543 --> 00:16:43,076
the DNR I signed.

360
00:16:43,111 --> 00:16:45,279
Well, I don't get it either.

361
00:16:45,313 --> 00:16:48,515
Okay. That's fine.

362
00:16:54,055 --> 00:16:56,924
Her birthday is in two months.

363
00:16:56,958 --> 00:16:59,059
We have to plan something
really meaningful, you know?

364
00:16:59,093 --> 00:17:00,194
Great idea.

365
00:17:02,063 --> 00:17:03,730
Hey, everybody.

366
00:17:03,765 --> 00:17:06,200
- Hey, man.
- Hey, Sean.

367
00:17:06,234 --> 00:17:08,202
Check out this cashmere
blanket I got for Cathy.

368
00:17:08,236 --> 00:17:09,736
It's like sleeping with a bunny.

369
00:17:09,771 --> 00:17:11,471
Yeah. It's nice.

370
00:17:11,506 --> 00:17:13,440
Who's, uh, gonna go see her tonight?

371
00:17:13,474 --> 00:17:15,709
- I am.
- I'm going tomorrow.

372
00:17:15,743 --> 00:17:17,411
Me too.

373
00:17:17,445 --> 00:17:19,046
Why? Is she worse?

374
00:17:19,080 --> 00:17:21,248
No. No. She... same.

375
00:17:21,282 --> 00:17:23,951
Just... you never know, so, you know...

376
00:17:23,985 --> 00:17:26,386
it's good to say what you want to say.

377
00:17:26,421 --> 00:17:27,888
That's all I'm saying.

378
00:17:27,922 --> 00:17:29,890
What's that?

379
00:17:29,924 --> 00:17:32,426
It's just to keep track of her medications.

380
00:17:32,460 --> 00:17:33,894
One of the nurses at the hospice

381
00:17:33,928 --> 00:17:35,395
taught me how they make their charts.

382
00:17:35,430 --> 00:17:37,231
Buddy, you left off Tuesday.

383
00:17:37,265 --> 00:17:41,001
Oh, shit.

384
00:17:44,038 --> 00:17:46,173
- It won't come off.
- Why not?

385
00:17:46,207 --> 00:17:48,976
It's permanent marker.

386
00:17:49,010 --> 00:17:50,410
Damn it, Adam. What the hell?

387
00:17:50,445 --> 00:17:51,578
I just reached into the drawer.

388
00:17:51,613 --> 00:17:53,180
I didn't think about it.

389
00:17:53,214 --> 00:17:54,982
Yeah, well, you should've thought about it.

390
00:17:55,016 --> 00:17:56,917
- It's not a big deal, is it?
- Oh, I don't know.

391
00:17:56,951 --> 00:17:59,253
Is it a big deal if she
doesn't get the right pills?

392
00:17:59,287 --> 00:18:00,921
You know what? Let's just skip Tuesday.

393
00:18:00,955 --> 00:18:02,756
Who cares, right?

394
00:18:02,790 --> 00:18:04,591
I mean, if she doesn't get
her pain medication on time

395
00:18:04,626 --> 00:18:06,460
and I'm in the garage and
I can't hear her scream,

396
00:18:06,494 --> 00:18:07,995
who cares, right?

397
00:18:08,029 --> 00:18:09,496
Yeah, you're right. Fuck it. No big deal.

398
00:18:09,530 --> 00:18:11,298
W... whoa, Paul.

399
00:18:11,332 --> 00:18:13,000
I mean, why are we even trying
to make this place look nice?

400
00:18:13,034 --> 00:18:15,602
I know. Let's let her
drag herself up the stairs,

401
00:18:15,637 --> 00:18:17,704
and if she falls down...

402
00:18:26,814 --> 00:18:28,315
Oh, God!

403
00:18:28,349 --> 00:18:30,684
It's okay, buddy.

404
00:18:30,718 --> 00:18:33,186
It's okay. It's okay.

405
00:18:33,221 --> 00:18:34,354
It's okay.

406
00:18:39,894 --> 00:18:41,528
I'm scared.

407
00:18:41,562 --> 00:18:43,497
I know.

408
00:18:47,235 --> 00:18:50,237
She doesn't want to come home, you know.

409
00:18:50,271 --> 00:18:53,473
Can I tell you something?

410
00:18:53,508 --> 00:18:56,176
And I hate myself for this.

411
00:18:57,619 --> 00:19:00,213
I don't want her to come home either.

412
00:19:09,357 --> 00:19:11,825
If you still want to do this thing,

413
00:19:11,859 --> 00:19:15,162
I'll help you.

414
00:19:19,634 --> 00:19:22,202
Once you have the plastic tubing

415
00:19:22,236 --> 00:19:23,770
and the plastic hood,

416
00:19:23,805 --> 00:19:27,507
you need 2 helium tanks
for 50 party balloons,

417
00:19:27,542 --> 00:19:31,011
uh, which you can rent or buy.

418
00:19:31,045 --> 00:19:33,347
If I rent them, you have to return them.

419
00:19:33,381 --> 00:19:36,683
The first tank should kill you.

420
00:19:36,718 --> 00:19:39,186
But the second tank is just
in case something goes wrong.

421
00:19:39,220 --> 00:19:41,688
God almighty, how do you sleep at night?

422
00:19:41,723 --> 00:19:43,090
Really well.

423
00:19:43,124 --> 00:19:44,624
I could hardly sleep at all when my wife

424
00:19:44,659 --> 00:19:46,760
was in the final stages of lymphoma

425
00:19:46,794 --> 00:19:49,129
and begged me not to let
her die in the hospital.

426
00:19:49,163 --> 00:19:50,564
W-we found this group,

427
00:19:50,598 --> 00:19:52,299
and they told us about some options.

428
00:19:52,333 --> 00:19:53,967
And then we found a sympathetic doctor

429
00:19:54,001 --> 00:19:57,537
who gave us some drugs that I mixed...

430
00:19:57,572 --> 00:20:01,808
I mean, that she mixed into her coffee.

431
00:20:01,843 --> 00:20:05,312
And her final words
were, "thank you, love."

432
00:20:05,346 --> 00:20:07,714
The hood...

433
00:20:07,749 --> 00:20:09,716
doesn't seem very discreet.

434
00:20:09,751 --> 00:20:11,885
And... and then Adam would know.

435
00:20:11,919 --> 00:20:13,487
Is there anything less dramatic?

436
00:20:13,521 --> 00:20:16,623
Well, some people take as
much morphine as they can

437
00:20:16,657 --> 00:20:18,892
and then have someone else
place a bag over their head

438
00:20:18,926 --> 00:20:20,660
when they've fallen asleep

439
00:20:20,695 --> 00:20:24,564
and then dispose of the bag after.

440
00:20:24,599 --> 00:20:26,400
No! Whoa.

441
00:20:26,434 --> 00:20:29,302
I am not suffocating my own sister.

442
00:20:29,337 --> 00:20:30,570
Remember at camp?

443
00:20:30,605 --> 00:20:32,406
You loved to hold me underwater.

444
00:20:32,440 --> 00:20:34,608
Oh, my God, Cathy. Don't say that.

445
00:20:34,642 --> 00:20:37,310
I was trying to torture you, not kill you.

446
00:20:37,345 --> 00:20:40,213
So, how do we get in touch

447
00:20:40,248 --> 00:20:42,382
with one of these sympathetic doctors?

448
00:20:42,417 --> 00:20:43,817
We're not allowed to give out names.

449
00:20:43,851 --> 00:20:45,218
Too bad you don't live in Oregon.

450
00:20:45,253 --> 00:20:46,720
Yeah, that's one of a few things

451
00:20:46,754 --> 00:20:49,055
I feel bad about right now.

452
00:20:49,090 --> 00:20:51,558
It's a lot to take in. Here's my card.

453
00:20:51,592 --> 00:20:53,493
If you have any questions
or want to talk some more,

454
00:20:53,528 --> 00:20:54,961
just give me a call.

455
00:20:54,996 --> 00:20:57,130
Hey, totally great and weird to meet you.

456
00:20:59,200 --> 00:21:00,434
All right.

457
00:21:00,468 --> 00:21:02,736
Look, I have got to go now

458
00:21:02,770 --> 00:21:05,572
and meet my kidney brother Ray.

459
00:21:05,606 --> 00:21:11,011
And we'll talk more about
this when I get back, okay?

460
00:21:11,045 --> 00:21:12,746
Oh, hey.

461
00:21:12,780 --> 00:21:16,616
Don't go to the party
store before I come back.

462
00:21:34,302 --> 00:21:37,370
Mr. Tolke, this is Ray Milson.

463
00:21:37,405 --> 00:21:40,540
Uh, Sean. Sean. Call me Sean.

464
00:21:40,575 --> 00:21:41,942
This is my wife Janelle.

465
00:21:41,976 --> 00:21:45,445
Can I just give you a hug?

466
00:21:45,480 --> 00:21:47,113
If you don't mind, I'm going
to take care of a few things,

467
00:21:47,148 --> 00:21:50,617
and let you all get acquainted.

468
00:21:52,987 --> 00:21:55,555
Well, I really appreciate
what you're doing, Sean.

469
00:21:55,590 --> 00:21:58,225
Oh, it's my pleasure, Ray.

470
00:21:58,259 --> 00:22:02,028
Um, this has been a really
good experience for me.

471
00:22:02,063 --> 00:22:03,697
My sister's dying.

472
00:22:03,731 --> 00:22:05,565
So, being able to focus
on something positive

473
00:22:05,600 --> 00:22:08,168
like kidney surgery...
it's been just great.

474
00:22:08,202 --> 00:22:09,803
I'm so sorry to hear that.

475
00:22:09,837 --> 00:22:11,705
If there's anything
you or your family need,

476
00:22:11,739 --> 00:22:14,374
we'd love to help you
out in any way we can.

477
00:22:14,408 --> 00:22:17,244
That's very nice of you, but we're okay.

478
00:22:17,278 --> 00:22:18,478
Thanks.

479
00:22:18,513 --> 00:22:20,580
We're just so grateful to you.

480
00:22:20,615 --> 00:22:23,483
- We brought you a gift.
- It's sort of a thank-you.

481
00:22:23,518 --> 00:22:25,252
No matter what happens,

482
00:22:25,286 --> 00:22:27,621
the fact that you're willing
to do this for a stranger

483
00:22:27,655 --> 00:22:30,156
means the world.

484
00:22:30,191 --> 00:22:32,692
Oh.

485
00:22:32,727 --> 00:22:35,295
I'm sorry. I... I don't want that.

486
00:22:35,329 --> 00:22:36,730
I... it's just a token.

487
00:22:36,764 --> 00:22:39,633
I don't value material goods.

488
00:22:39,667 --> 00:22:42,135
Well, they say once you go
Rolex, you never go back.

489
00:22:44,405 --> 00:22:47,874
Are you trying to buy
my kidney with a watch?

490
00:22:47,909 --> 00:22:49,309
Absolutely not.

491
00:22:49,343 --> 00:22:51,378
It's just a thank-you.

492
00:22:51,412 --> 00:22:53,079
No, "thank you" is just a thank-you.

493
00:22:53,114 --> 00:22:54,981
That's a watch,

494
00:22:55,016 --> 00:22:57,484
the cash value of which could
go to pay somebody's health care

495
00:22:57,518 --> 00:22:59,019
who will die of their kidney disease

496
00:22:59,053 --> 00:23:00,687
without ever being able to go to the doctor

497
00:23:00,721 --> 00:23:02,055
to find out what's killing them.

498
00:23:02,089 --> 00:23:03,990
We didn't mean to insult you.

499
00:23:04,025 --> 00:23:05,492
If you don't want the watch...

500
00:23:05,526 --> 00:23:08,428
You insulted humanity.

501
00:23:08,462 --> 00:23:10,997
You know, you're the
reason I, just this minute,

502
00:23:11,032 --> 00:23:13,333
decided to go live back on the streets.

503
00:23:13,367 --> 00:23:15,569
- You're homeless?
- No, I am a freegan.

504
00:23:15,603 --> 00:23:18,572
I am occasionally homeless by choice.

505
00:23:18,606 --> 00:23:21,174
Well, all homeless people
are homeless by choice.

506
00:23:21,208 --> 00:23:23,376
What the Rolex is that supposed to mean?

507
00:23:23,411 --> 00:23:24,878
There are plenty of people

508
00:23:24,912 --> 00:23:26,846
who don't take proper
advantage of opportunity.

509
00:23:26,881 --> 00:23:28,682
Holy fuck, Ray.

510
00:23:28,716 --> 00:23:30,884
If your head's that far up your ass,

511
00:23:30,918 --> 00:23:33,019
you should be able to
kiss your kidney good-bye

512
00:23:33,054 --> 00:23:36,856
on its way out.

513
00:23:49,637 --> 00:23:51,204
Guess what.

514
00:23:51,238 --> 00:23:53,306
I got Wesley to cough up the name

515
00:23:53,341 --> 00:23:55,375
of a Kevorkian-type doctor in Oregon.

516
00:23:55,409 --> 00:23:58,044
They are so civilized there.

517
00:23:58,079 --> 00:24:01,715
If you are terminal, they...
they write you a prescription,

518
00:24:01,749 --> 00:24:03,717
you drink a little drink, you go to sleep.

519
00:24:03,751 --> 00:24:05,218
Wow. Sounds great.

520
00:24:05,252 --> 00:24:07,220
And that wonderful doctor

521
00:24:07,254 --> 00:24:09,789
is going to give me that drink.

522
00:24:09,824 --> 00:24:11,458
But he won't put it in the mail.

523
00:24:11,492 --> 00:24:14,127
So, I need you, please.
You need to get to Oregon.

524
00:24:14,161 --> 00:24:16,463
You need to show him my scans

525
00:24:16,497 --> 00:24:18,398
and bring back the goods.

526
00:24:18,432 --> 00:24:20,634
It'll give you plenty of time
before your surgery on Monday.

527
00:24:20,668 --> 00:24:22,469
It doesn't matter,

528
00:24:22,503 --> 00:24:24,304
'cause I'm... I'm not
doing the surgery anymore.

529
00:24:24,338 --> 00:24:27,107
So, uh, where am I supposed to go

530
00:24:27,141 --> 00:24:28,842
to meet your
doctor feel-no-more?

531
00:24:28,876 --> 00:24:30,276
Why aren't you doing the surgery?

532
00:24:30,311 --> 00:24:32,979
Just found out my kidney brother, Ray,

533
00:24:33,014 --> 00:24:35,081
is a fucking elitist bigot.

534
00:24:35,116 --> 00:24:37,584
So, I'm just going to
let him die, go to Oregon,

535
00:24:37,618 --> 00:24:39,586
get the stuff to come back and kill you.

536
00:24:39,620 --> 00:24:41,788
As a pacifist, I'm gonna
have a lot blood on my hands,

537
00:24:41,822 --> 00:24:43,490
but it feels right.

538
00:24:43,524 --> 00:24:45,191
Sean, you can't let this man die.

539
00:24:45,226 --> 00:24:47,827
No, no, it's okay. He's completely crazy.

540
00:24:47,862 --> 00:24:50,030
He doesn't believe in homeless people.

541
00:24:50,064 --> 00:24:51,598
Look, you don't know.

542
00:24:51,632 --> 00:24:54,601
I mean, maybe there's a lot
of good things that Ray does.

543
00:24:54,635 --> 00:24:55,869
I doubt it.

544
00:24:55,903 --> 00:24:58,038
He might give to an animal charity.

545
00:24:58,072 --> 00:25:01,708
Look, even if he isn't generous,

546
00:25:01,742 --> 00:25:04,344
maybe your act of
generosity will change him.

547
00:25:04,378 --> 00:25:05,845
You'll be giving him years

548
00:25:05,880 --> 00:25:08,048
to have the opportunity to change.

549
00:25:08,082 --> 00:25:09,282
I...

550
00:25:09,316 --> 00:25:10,717
Even if he doesn't,

551
00:25:10,751 --> 00:25:14,954
maybe there are other people who love Ray,

552
00:25:14,989 --> 00:25:17,791
warts and all, very much.

553
00:25:17,825 --> 00:25:20,293
You'd be giving them
at least the opportunity

554
00:25:20,327 --> 00:25:22,295
to have more holidays with him,

555
00:25:22,329 --> 00:25:27,300
to feel that love before
it turns to heartache.

556
00:25:27,334 --> 00:25:30,870
I can't do both, not by Friday.

557
00:25:30,905 --> 00:25:32,739
I'm supposed to have
another round of blood work.

558
00:25:32,773 --> 00:25:34,074
And they asked me not to travel

559
00:25:34,108 --> 00:25:36,476
to avoid any last-minute disease.

560
00:25:36,510 --> 00:25:38,411
- Oh.
- See?

561
00:25:38,446 --> 00:25:39,979
Let me do this.

562
00:25:40,014 --> 00:25:44,317
It's more important you die than he live.

563
00:25:44,351 --> 00:25:47,053
No, it isn't.

564
00:25:47,088 --> 00:25:49,155
My life or my death

565
00:25:49,190 --> 00:25:51,091
are no more important than anyone else's.

566
00:25:51,125 --> 00:25:53,827
W... what are you gonna do, then?

567
00:25:53,861 --> 00:25:56,996
I've been having this real...

568
00:25:57,031 --> 00:26:00,100
push-pull thing with God lately

569
00:26:00,134 --> 00:26:02,669
and the reason for his or her timing.

570
00:26:02,703 --> 00:26:04,571
You know, I've never really died before,

571
00:26:04,605 --> 00:26:08,441
so maybe I just need to
play the whole thing out.

572
00:26:10,144 --> 00:26:11,644
Take it as it comes.

573
00:26:30,698 --> 00:26:34,501
What? What's wrong?

574
00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:43,009
A pacifist with blood on his hands.

575
00:26:43,043 --> 00:26:45,345
I... I mean...

576
00:26:45,379 --> 00:26:48,081
I never even killed a spider before.

577
00:26:48,115 --> 00:26:52,519
And here I was, ready
to take two people out.

578
00:27:04,498 --> 00:27:08,535
Your home hospice nurse
is coming this afternoon.

579
00:27:08,569 --> 00:27:10,203
I think her name is Ina.

580
00:27:10,237 --> 00:27:12,238
It's "ee-na." I talked
to her on the phone.

581
00:27:12,273 --> 00:27:14,207
Oh, yeah? Is she nice?

582
00:27:14,241 --> 00:27:16,776
- Yeah, she sounded awesome.
- She's supposed to be terrific.

583
00:27:16,811 --> 00:27:19,646
You're going home 'cause you're a fighter.

584
00:27:19,680 --> 00:27:20,780
Hmm?

585
00:27:20,815 --> 00:27:22,382
'Cause you told your cancer

586
00:27:22,416 --> 00:27:23,750
that you're gonna fight till the end.

587
00:27:23,784 --> 00:27:25,485
That's why you get to go home.

588
00:27:25,519 --> 00:27:27,320
They didn't expect you to
live for four more months,

589
00:27:27,354 --> 00:27:28,755
but you did.

590
00:27:28,789 --> 00:27:30,256
And now you could be one of those stories

591
00:27:30,291 --> 00:27:31,491
where you leave hospice,

592
00:27:31,525 --> 00:27:34,227
and you live for years and get cured

593
00:27:34,261 --> 00:27:35,829
and beat this thing for good.

594
00:27:35,863 --> 00:27:37,597
You know, healthy people, they've really...

595
00:27:37,631 --> 00:27:40,633
they've got to stop saying things like,

596
00:27:40,668 --> 00:27:42,569
"she fought to the end,"

597
00:27:42,603 --> 00:27:44,838
or, "he battled cancer,"

598
00:27:44,872 --> 00:27:48,441
because then when they
die, you have to say...

599
00:27:48,475 --> 00:27:51,444
"they lost their battle to cancer."

600
00:27:53,347 --> 00:27:55,248
You're saying they're a loser.

601
00:27:55,282 --> 00:27:58,084
They're a loser because they died?

602
00:27:58,118 --> 00:27:59,652
And what were their choices?

603
00:27:59,687 --> 00:28:01,254
I just meant that...

604
00:28:01,288 --> 00:28:03,423
did you ever think that
if we all live forever,

605
00:28:03,457 --> 00:28:04,958
no one would ever have babies.

606
00:28:04,992 --> 00:28:06,726
There'd be no space.

607
00:28:06,760 --> 00:28:09,929
Dying's necessary. It's important.

608
00:28:09,964 --> 00:28:11,564
It sucks.

609
00:28:11,599 --> 00:28:14,901
So, when we do...

610
00:28:14,935 --> 00:28:17,103
don't criticize us on the way out.

611
00:28:17,137 --> 00:28:19,572
Just say...

612
00:28:19,607 --> 00:28:21,908
"Good-bye,"

613
00:28:21,942 --> 00:28:25,411
and, "thank you,"

614
00:28:25,446 --> 00:28:28,982
and, "you're not a loser."

615
00:28:39,627 --> 00:28:41,928
Here are your morphine patches,

616
00:28:41,962 --> 00:28:45,198
and I brought an extra blanket here,

617
00:28:45,232 --> 00:28:46,866
in case you want.

618
00:28:46,901 --> 00:28:49,035
Lord, it's chilly here for me.

619
00:28:49,069 --> 00:28:51,437
I guess that global
warning hasn't come to us

620
00:28:51,472 --> 00:28:54,607
- here in Minnesota.
- It's "warming."

621
00:28:54,642 --> 00:28:56,276
I believe we were discussing
my wife's schedule.

622
00:28:56,310 --> 00:28:58,278
Of course. Right.

623
00:28:58,312 --> 00:29:01,014
I'll be by every morning to check on you.

624
00:29:01,048 --> 00:29:03,116
You can always administer
your pain meds yourself.

625
00:29:03,150 --> 00:29:05,685
Now, are you... are you
comfortable here, hon?

626
00:29:05,719 --> 00:29:07,287
Yeah. Thank you.

627
00:29:07,321 --> 00:29:09,289
How do you say your name?

628
00:29:09,323 --> 00:29:12,058
Oh. "Ee-na." It was my grandma's name.

629
00:29:12,092 --> 00:29:14,560
I hated it growing up.

630
00:29:14,595 --> 00:29:16,963
Then I realized it could've been worse.

631
00:29:16,997 --> 00:29:19,132
I could've have been named
after my other grandmother.

632
00:29:19,166 --> 00:29:20,300
Her name was Hortense.

633
00:29:20,334 --> 00:29:22,235
Hortense.

634
00:29:22,269 --> 00:29:23,803
Can you even imagine?

635
00:29:23,837 --> 00:29:25,371
You know what I can't imagine?

636
00:29:25,406 --> 00:29:27,407
Is getting through this
checklist in the next hour.

637
00:29:27,441 --> 00:29:29,742
Paul.

638
00:29:29,777 --> 00:29:32,578
Morphine patches as needed.

639
00:29:32,613 --> 00:29:34,314
Expect some wooziness.

640
00:29:34,348 --> 00:29:35,748
Wooziness I can handle.

641
00:29:35,783 --> 00:29:37,550
She might seem almost drunk.

642
00:29:37,584 --> 00:29:40,553
I wish.

643
00:29:40,587 --> 00:29:42,088
I had a patient once...

644
00:29:42,122 --> 00:29:44,324
a real nice older gentleman...

645
00:29:44,358 --> 00:29:46,659
he used to drink a whole bottle of gin

646
00:29:46,694 --> 00:29:47,727
every morning.

647
00:29:47,761 --> 00:29:49,429
He called it his medicine.

648
00:29:49,463 --> 00:29:51,597
By the time I got there,

649
00:29:51,632 --> 00:29:55,501
he'd be naked and dancing
to his old burl ives records.

650
00:29:55,536 --> 00:29:57,503
- Do you ever stop talking?
- Paul.

651
00:29:57,538 --> 00:29:58,838
I don't care about drunken old men

652
00:29:58,872 --> 00:30:00,006
and grandma Ina.

653
00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:01,507
- "Ee-na."
- Whatever!

654
00:30:01,542 --> 00:30:03,009
My wife is sick.

655
00:30:03,043 --> 00:30:05,411
Can we please just cut to the chase here?

656
00:30:05,446 --> 00:30:07,480
You'll be fine.

657
00:30:07,514 --> 00:30:10,483
And you have my number, S.

658
00:30:10,517 --> 00:30:13,319
And I will see you tonight, Cathy.

659
00:30:13,354 --> 00:30:17,590
Thank you, Ina.

660
00:30:17,624 --> 00:30:19,726
Holy shit. I want to strangle that woman.

661
00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:22,161
She's kind, Paul.

662
00:30:22,196 --> 00:30:25,398
She's chatty and kind. Be nice.

663
00:30:25,432 --> 00:30:28,001
Oh, my God, I've already
lost her number. Fuck.

664
00:30:28,035 --> 00:30:32,338
Paul.

665
00:30:32,373 --> 00:30:34,273
I'm sorry, honey.

666
00:30:34,308 --> 00:30:36,075
I'm just freaked out

667
00:30:36,110 --> 00:30:38,077
that I'm not gonna be able
to take care of you right.

668
00:30:38,112 --> 00:30:40,079
And, you know, chatty fatty...
she knows everything anyway.

669
00:30:40,114 --> 00:30:42,548
And so what's left except for
me to just screw something up?

670
00:30:42,583 --> 00:30:44,283
I need your help.

671
00:30:44,318 --> 00:30:46,686
I need you to get my dad.

672
00:30:46,720 --> 00:30:48,621
I was thinking...

673
00:30:48,655 --> 00:30:51,657
maybe I'm hanging on because
I don't have closure with him.

674
00:30:51,692 --> 00:30:53,393
He doesn't even know I'm sick.

675
00:30:53,427 --> 00:30:55,228
He doesn't return my calls.

676
00:30:55,262 --> 00:30:58,331
I need you to get him and bring him here.

677
00:30:58,365 --> 00:30:59,932
But he hates me.

678
00:30:59,967 --> 00:31:01,667
You hate Ina.

679
00:31:01,702 --> 00:31:04,737
At least it gets you out of the house.

680
00:31:17,818 --> 00:31:19,752
Who died?

681
00:31:19,787 --> 00:31:21,354
Hey, bud.

682
00:31:21,388 --> 00:31:23,389
- Been a while.
- Sure has.

683
00:31:23,424 --> 00:31:25,691
Last time I saw you,
you asked me for money.

684
00:31:25,726 --> 00:31:28,361
That was a loan, right?

685
00:31:28,395 --> 00:31:29,929
It was a while ago, and I paid you back,

686
00:31:29,963 --> 00:31:32,532
with interest, remember?

687
00:31:32,566 --> 00:31:35,068
You've gotten hefty.

688
00:31:35,102 --> 00:31:38,771
Can I come in?

689
00:31:38,806 --> 00:31:41,707
So, what's the occasion?
You need some more cash?

690
00:31:41,742 --> 00:31:43,376
Well...

691
00:31:43,410 --> 00:31:46,212
I'm actually pretty successful now.

692
00:31:46,246 --> 00:31:50,283
I'm a, uh, motivational speaker of sorts.

693
00:31:50,317 --> 00:31:51,884
That sounds gay.

694
00:31:51,919 --> 00:31:53,453
I'm gonna get right to the point.

695
00:31:53,487 --> 00:31:54,787
I need you to come back

696
00:31:54,822 --> 00:31:56,722
to Minneapolis with me to see Cathy.

697
00:31:56,757 --> 00:31:58,658
Last time I saw Cathy, she showed up here

698
00:31:58,692 --> 00:32:00,393
to tell me what an asshole I was.

699
00:32:00,427 --> 00:32:03,429
Yeah. Let bygones be bygones, right?

700
00:32:03,464 --> 00:32:05,431
And now she keeps leaving messages for me

701
00:32:05,466 --> 00:32:08,000
like she's got some more
crap she wants to lay on me.

702
00:32:08,035 --> 00:32:10,002
Nah, I don't need to see her.

703
00:32:10,037 --> 00:32:11,737
Bud, it's very important.

704
00:32:11,772 --> 00:32:13,506
Disrespecting her father like that?

705
00:32:13,540 --> 00:32:15,074
No. I'm done with her.

706
00:32:15,109 --> 00:32:17,176
She's pretty much done with all of us, bud.

707
00:32:17,211 --> 00:32:19,812
She's dying.

708
00:32:19,847 --> 00:32:23,649
Cathy is dying, and she needs to see you,

709
00:32:23,684 --> 00:32:25,685
and you need to see her.

710
00:32:26,185 --> 00:32:28,053
She wanted to tell you that herself,

711
00:32:28,087 --> 00:32:30,889
but oops, too late...
the cat's out of the bag.

712
00:32:30,923 --> 00:32:34,392
- Jesus.
- You owe this to her.

713
00:32:34,427 --> 00:32:37,729
You're her father. Your daughter is dying.

714
00:32:37,763 --> 00:32:39,497
And I don't even like you.

715
00:32:39,532 --> 00:32:41,166
But I do know if you don't go see her,

716
00:32:41,200 --> 00:32:43,301
it'll probably haunt you
the rest of your life,

717
00:32:43,336 --> 00:32:45,236
which, for some very unfair reason,

718
00:32:45,271 --> 00:32:49,441
is gonna be a lot longer than hers.

719
00:32:49,475 --> 00:32:51,643
I got a card game tonight.

720
00:32:51,677 --> 00:32:53,345
Are you shitting me?

721
00:32:53,379 --> 00:32:55,246
I'm gonna go outside,

722
00:32:55,281 --> 00:32:58,249
and I'm gonna wait in my car
until you do the right thing

723
00:32:58,284 --> 00:33:01,286
and get your asshole ass
into the seat next to me.

724
00:33:27,179 --> 00:33:31,650
How long is this gonna take?

725
00:33:31,684 --> 00:33:33,485
Are you drunk?

726
00:33:33,519 --> 00:33:38,323
Yep. I'm planning to stay that way.

727
00:33:38,357 --> 00:33:42,060
So, the secret is plain old lard.

728
00:33:42,094 --> 00:33:44,963
That's what makes the crust
so crispy and delicious.

729
00:33:44,997 --> 00:33:47,699
These days, lard is a dirty word,

730
00:33:47,733 --> 00:33:50,335
but I won't make a pie without it.

731
00:33:50,369 --> 00:33:53,338
I'm sorry my husband was rude to you, ina.

732
00:33:53,372 --> 00:33:56,107
Oh, honey, don't you worry about that.

733
00:33:56,142 --> 00:33:58,910
I've got thick thighs and a thick skin.

734
00:33:58,944 --> 00:34:02,347
Besides, he's not wrong.
I am a big old chatterbox.

735
00:34:02,381 --> 00:34:05,250
- You're an angel.
- Oh, no.

736
00:34:05,284 --> 00:34:07,285
I feel lucky every day to have a chance

737
00:34:07,319 --> 00:34:09,087
to work with people like you.

738
00:34:09,121 --> 00:34:11,923
It's a blessing to be around the dying.

739
00:34:11,957 --> 00:34:13,858
Come on.

740
00:34:13,893 --> 00:34:17,762
It doesn't get to you...
all the gloom and doom?

741
00:34:17,797 --> 00:34:20,632
My husband and I... we try to squeeze in

742
00:34:20,666 --> 00:34:22,434
a little fun vacation now and then,

743
00:34:22,468 --> 00:34:24,102
but it doesn't happen much.

744
00:34:24,136 --> 00:34:25,770
But it's okay.

745
00:34:25,805 --> 00:34:27,439
I like what I do.

746
00:34:27,473 --> 00:34:29,274
When people are close to death,

747
00:34:29,308 --> 00:34:31,109
they open up like flowers.

748
00:34:31,143 --> 00:34:33,178
They teach me so much,

749
00:34:33,212 --> 00:34:37,949
and that I can provide a little comfort,

750
00:34:37,983 --> 00:34:41,920
well, it sure makes me feel good.

751
00:34:43,989 --> 00:34:45,790
All right, young lady.

752
00:34:45,825 --> 00:34:48,860
I will see you tomorrow.

753
00:34:48,894 --> 00:34:50,862
Ina?

754
00:34:50,896 --> 00:34:51,963
Yes?

755
00:34:51,997 --> 00:34:53,832
Will you make me a pie?

756
00:34:53,866 --> 00:34:56,201
I would be honored.

757
00:34:56,235 --> 00:34:57,802
Special delivery!

758
00:34:57,837 --> 00:34:59,003
Oh, dear.

759
00:34:59,038 --> 00:35:00,572
Is he... is he all right?

760
00:35:00,606 --> 00:35:03,174
- I'm fine. How are you?
- He's soused.

761
00:35:03,209 --> 00:35:05,043
Hey, I know you.

762
00:35:05,077 --> 00:35:06,478
Here we go.

763
00:35:06,512 --> 00:35:08,346
There.

764
00:35:08,380 --> 00:35:10,849
- What happened?
- I told him.

765
00:35:10,883 --> 00:35:12,050
I told him you were sick.

766
00:35:12,084 --> 00:35:13,718
He pissed me off, and I told him.

767
00:35:13,753 --> 00:35:15,053
I'm sorry.

768
00:35:15,087 --> 00:35:17,555
He drank most of his liquor cabinet

769
00:35:17,590 --> 00:35:19,390
and two zimas at the mini mart

770
00:35:19,425 --> 00:35:20,859
while I was gassing up.

771
00:35:20,893 --> 00:35:24,562
It's okay.

772
00:35:24,597 --> 00:35:27,432
Hi, daddy!

773
00:35:27,466 --> 00:35:30,235
Hey. You're pretty.

774
00:35:33,539 --> 00:35:35,807
Well, you got him here.

775
00:35:35,841 --> 00:35:37,242
Yeah.

776
00:35:37,276 --> 00:35:39,244
"A new study concludes

777
00:35:39,278 --> 00:35:41,446
that most Americans now believe

778
00:35:41,480 --> 00:35:43,515
that global warming is a real thing... "

779
00:35:43,549 --> 00:35:44,616
Did you hear that?

780
00:35:44,650 --> 00:35:46,584
"And that people are causing it."

781
00:35:46,619 --> 00:35:48,253
Okay, I said you could use my laptop,

782
00:35:48,287 --> 00:35:49,587
not read out loud from it.

783
00:35:49,622 --> 00:35:51,589
I'm in crisis mode, my boy.

784
00:35:51,624 --> 00:35:53,458
I got to school my
kidney on the lefty world

785
00:35:53,492 --> 00:35:55,894
before it ends up embedded
in a right-wing asshole.

786
00:35:55,928 --> 00:35:58,930
I've only got about 12 hours left.

787
00:35:58,964 --> 00:36:00,765
This morning, I read a handbook

788
00:36:00,800 --> 00:36:02,600
on how to make hemp clothing.

789
00:36:02,635 --> 00:36:04,769
Tonight, it's a little
mother Jones and some yoga.

790
00:36:04,804 --> 00:36:06,604
If I were this guy,

791
00:36:06,639 --> 00:36:09,073
I'd be worried that your kidney
was gonna make me go crazy.

792
00:36:09,108 --> 00:36:10,308
Yeah, so what if it did?

793
00:36:10,342 --> 00:36:11,643
I'd be doing that guy a favor.

794
00:36:11,677 --> 00:36:16,281
He's as dull as a compost heap.

795
00:36:16,315 --> 00:36:18,950
You know, if you ever need to talk

796
00:36:18,984 --> 00:36:20,952
about what's going on with your mom...

797
00:36:20,986 --> 00:36:23,087
No, I'm good.

798
00:36:23,122 --> 00:36:25,557
Okay.

799
00:36:25,591 --> 00:36:28,459
Hey, uh, do me a favor.

800
00:36:28,494 --> 00:36:29,794
Pull my ass.

801
00:36:29,829 --> 00:36:31,129
No.

802
00:36:31,163 --> 00:36:34,132
He looks so sweet.

803
00:36:34,166 --> 00:36:38,136
All his worry lines go
away when he's sleeping.

804
00:36:38,170 --> 00:36:43,474
You'd never know he's such a motherfucker.

805
00:36:43,509 --> 00:36:45,109
I never should have asked him

806
00:36:45,144 --> 00:36:46,778
for that loan to buy the house.

807
00:36:46,812 --> 00:36:48,346
You paid him back.

808
00:36:48,380 --> 00:36:49,914
He gets to hold it over my head forever.

809
00:36:49,949 --> 00:36:51,649
You know, "my
no-good son-in-law

810
00:36:51,684 --> 00:36:53,952
couldn't even afford to buy
his family a damn house."

811
00:36:53,986 --> 00:36:57,155
God, I feel like punching
him in his passed-out face.

812
00:36:58,357 --> 00:36:59,991
Plumbers.

813
00:37:04,997 --> 00:37:07,599
You know, this is just
so like him, you know?

814
00:37:07,633 --> 00:37:09,968
You're the one that's sick. He gets drunk.

815
00:37:10,002 --> 00:37:11,636
So he gets all the attention.

816
00:37:11,670 --> 00:37:13,471
I mean, couldn't he put you first for once?

817
00:37:13,505 --> 00:37:15,673
- Would it kill him?
- Before it kills me?

818
00:37:15,708 --> 00:37:17,242
I doubt it.

819
00:37:17,276 --> 00:37:18,843
It's like the flowers at our wedding.

820
00:37:18,878 --> 00:37:21,813
All you wanted were some peonies.

821
00:37:21,847 --> 00:37:22,847
That's all you wanted.

822
00:37:22,882 --> 00:37:25,350
He got carnations...

823
00:37:25,384 --> 00:37:27,518
'cause they're cheaper, and he was paying.

824
00:37:27,553 --> 00:37:30,521
You deserved the peonies.

825
00:37:30,556 --> 00:37:32,857
But, hey...

826
00:37:32,892 --> 00:37:36,027
I got you...

827
00:37:36,061 --> 00:37:39,664
the man who married me despite my...

828
00:37:39,698 --> 00:37:43,301
drunk, cheap, narcissistic father.

829
00:37:45,037 --> 00:37:49,007
Low bar.

830
00:37:51,431 --> 00:37:53,933
I'm so pissed...

831
00:37:53,967 --> 00:37:56,936
that you're going.

832
00:38:10,317 --> 00:38:13,586
Oh.

833
00:38:13,620 --> 00:38:16,322
I always loved your hands.

834
00:38:16,356 --> 00:38:19,625
Even when I hated your
guts, I loved your hands.

835
00:38:19,660 --> 00:38:22,295
They still make me feel safe.

836
00:38:22,329 --> 00:38:25,331
You should be proud of those hands.

837
00:38:25,365 --> 00:38:27,900
They built me that
playhouse in the backyard.

838
00:38:27,935 --> 00:38:29,669
Remember that?

839
00:38:29,703 --> 00:38:33,773
The one the raccoon moved into
when I went to high school?

840
00:38:33,807 --> 00:38:36,642
Goddamn raccoons... they
ate all your mother's basil.

841
00:38:36,677 --> 00:38:40,204
Thank you for building that house for me.

842
00:38:42,115 --> 00:38:44,283
So, you're sick.

843
00:38:46,887 --> 00:38:50,423
Yeah.

844
00:38:50,457 --> 00:38:51,691
I'm sorry about all the crap

845
00:38:51,725 --> 00:38:53,826
I said to you the last time I saw you.

846
00:38:54,635 --> 00:38:57,061
I was just... I was so angry

847
00:38:57,183 --> 00:39:00,752
about how you raised us or didn't raise us.

848
00:39:00,786 --> 00:39:02,254
But the truth is...

849
00:39:02,288 --> 00:39:04,956
you did your best, I think.

850
00:39:04,991 --> 00:39:08,260
I know you loved us.

851
00:39:10,263 --> 00:39:13,098
I mean, I wish you could've
said it more, but I know.

852
00:39:13,132 --> 00:39:15,600
And in the end,

853
00:39:15,635 --> 00:39:17,936
you only raise yourself, right?

854
00:39:17,970 --> 00:39:20,972
And I'm pretty happy where I ended up.

855
00:39:21,007 --> 00:39:22,774
I have a wonderful son.

856
00:39:22,808 --> 00:39:25,610
You haven't see him
since he was a little boy.

857
00:39:25,645 --> 00:39:28,613
And God knows I haven't
been the perfect parent,

858
00:39:28,648 --> 00:39:30,248
but I try.

859
00:39:30,283 --> 00:39:32,791
I try and teach him some of
the things you taught me...

860
00:39:32,911 --> 00:39:35,248
And a lot of the things you didn't.

861
00:39:36,124 --> 00:39:39,894
But, yeah, I got to be here and try it out.

862
00:39:41,997 --> 00:39:45,299
So, thank you...

863
00:39:45,333 --> 00:39:47,635
you know...

864
00:39:47,669 --> 00:39:50,437
for giving me life.

865
00:39:53,275 --> 00:39:56,277
I don't know what to say.

866
00:39:58,813 --> 00:40:01,115
I love you, dad.

867
00:40:01,149 --> 00:40:05,753
Why are you being so nice to me?

868
00:40:05,787 --> 00:40:11,158
'Cause I don't have anything left to lose.

869
00:40:11,192 --> 00:40:13,661
You always had the bluest eyes,

870
00:40:13,695 --> 00:40:16,497
just like your mom.

871
00:40:16,531 --> 00:40:19,667
I remember the day we brought
you home from the hospital.

872
00:40:19,701 --> 00:40:22,303
And I hired this fancy photographer,

873
00:40:22,337 --> 00:40:24,104
you know, to take photographs.

874
00:40:24,139 --> 00:40:25,439
That's what we did in those days.

875
00:40:25,473 --> 00:40:26,941
We took photographs, okay?

876
00:40:26,975 --> 00:40:30,678
Not the shit that they have on cell phones.

877
00:40:30,712 --> 00:40:32,680
So, anyway, he was there.

878
00:40:32,714 --> 00:40:36,016
And, of course, you were sound asleep.

879
00:40:36,051 --> 00:40:39,687
And your mom wouldn't let me wake you up.

880
00:40:39,721 --> 00:40:43,824
So, right after the guy goes, you wake up.

881
00:40:43,858 --> 00:40:45,726
Those big beautiful eyes.

882
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:47,861
I chased the guy down the street two blocks

883
00:40:47,896 --> 00:40:51,398
and dragged him back...

884
00:40:51,433 --> 00:40:53,968
because he needed to get your eyes.

885
00:40:54,002 --> 00:40:57,671
You were like this little angel.

886
00:40:57,706 --> 00:41:00,708
I wanted to give you everything.

887
00:41:00,742 --> 00:41:04,011
Except peonies for my wedding.

888
00:41:04,045 --> 00:41:06,347
Oh, come on, who pays that
kind of money for flowers?

889
00:41:06,381 --> 00:41:08,816
What? It was just $400 more.

890
00:41:08,850 --> 00:41:10,117
Yeah, $400.

891
00:41:10,151 --> 00:41:12,553
I was getting married.

892
00:41:15,824 --> 00:41:20,794
It shouldn't be you checking out.

893
00:41:20,829 --> 00:41:23,197
It should be me.

894
00:41:33,508 --> 00:41:35,342
- Uncle Sean, wake up.
- Mm.

895
00:41:35,377 --> 00:41:38,112
- Operation day.
- Oh, God.

896
00:41:38,146 --> 00:41:39,546
Whoa.

897
00:41:39,581 --> 00:41:42,616
Oh, I was having the most amazing dream.

898
00:41:42,650 --> 00:41:45,119
I was... I was frolicking in the surf

899
00:41:45,153 --> 00:41:47,488
with a naked Gloria steinem.

900
00:41:47,522 --> 00:41:48,689
Oh.

901
00:41:48,723 --> 00:41:50,491
You know, I think this kidney

902
00:41:50,525 --> 00:41:52,292
might be just run out
of that operating room

903
00:41:52,327 --> 00:41:53,861
and join a commune.

904
00:41:53,895 --> 00:41:56,130
Who's Gloria steinem?

905
00:41:56,164 --> 00:41:57,831
Let's go.

906
00:41:57,866 --> 00:41:59,366
Oh.

907
00:41:59,401 --> 00:42:01,869
Boom, I'm telling you,
right through the pump.

908
00:42:01,903 --> 00:42:03,337
He drops like a stone.

909
00:42:03,371 --> 00:42:04,805
He's gonna dress out at 180 pounds.

910
00:42:04,839 --> 00:42:06,640
I'll fill up your fridge. Good morning.

911
00:42:06,674 --> 00:42:08,342
Holy shit. He actually came.

912
00:42:08,376 --> 00:42:10,844
- We're having breakfast.
- Yeah, I can't eat.

913
00:42:10,879 --> 00:42:12,379
I'm having an operation in four hours,

914
00:42:12,414 --> 00:42:14,882
so, uh, no food, no liquids.

915
00:42:14,916 --> 00:42:16,550
Ah, they're gonna fix your brain?

916
00:42:16,584 --> 00:42:18,652
Dad, he's giving away his kidney.

917
00:42:18,686 --> 00:42:19,720
To a total stranger.

918
00:42:19,754 --> 00:42:21,488
Well, now, that's crazy.

919
00:42:21,523 --> 00:42:24,358
Says the man who only
slept in army-issue pajamas.

920
00:42:24,392 --> 00:42:26,493
They're marine corps-issue skivvies...

921
00:42:26,528 --> 00:42:27,861
That's shorts, for you civilians.

922
00:42:27,896 --> 00:42:29,730
I'm a veteran.

923
00:42:29,764 --> 00:42:31,198
- Hey.
- Hey.

924
00:42:31,232 --> 00:42:33,734
Yeah, I know Adam. Look
at the... come here.

925
00:42:33,768 --> 00:42:36,070
Look at the size of this guy.

926
00:42:36,104 --> 00:42:37,738
You're big like me, huh?

927
00:42:37,772 --> 00:42:39,907
Hey, you probably wouldn't remember this...

928
00:42:39,941 --> 00:42:41,108
You caught your first trout with me.

929
00:42:41,142 --> 00:42:42,709
You were this big.

930
00:42:42,744 --> 00:42:44,411
This fish almost yanked
you right out of the dinghy.

931
00:42:44,446 --> 00:42:46,246
- I totally remember that. Yeah.
- Do you, really?

932
00:42:46,281 --> 00:42:47,748
Listen, you ought to
come fishing this summer.

933
00:42:47,782 --> 00:42:48,949
Come on up. You should.

934
00:42:48,983 --> 00:42:50,417
- I'd love to.
- Great. Great.

935
00:42:50,452 --> 00:42:52,252
Bring your colored friend with you.

936
00:42:52,287 --> 00:42:54,054
- Whoa!
- Oh, lovely.

937
00:42:54,089 --> 00:42:55,856
It's okay. It's okay.

938
00:42:55,890 --> 00:42:59,726
- I'd love to, Mr. Tolke.
- There you go.

939
00:42:59,761 --> 00:43:01,228
Adam, set the table.

940
00:43:01,262 --> 00:43:04,031
We're having my favorite... grits and eggs.

941
00:43:04,065 --> 00:43:06,800
I can't. I have to go.

942
00:43:06,835 --> 00:43:08,635
Where?

943
00:43:08,670 --> 00:43:10,704
I'm going to play basketball
with some buddies of mine.

944
00:43:10,738 --> 00:43:11,905
Dude.

945
00:43:11,940 --> 00:43:14,575
Adam, the whole family is here.

946
00:43:14,609 --> 00:43:17,127
Andrea leaves tomorrow for New York.

947
00:43:17,130 --> 00:43:18,779
We're all together. Stay.

948
00:43:18,813 --> 00:43:20,114
I can't. They're, uh, waiting for me.

949
00:43:20,148 --> 00:43:22,249
- Adam.
- Mom, I'm sorry, okay?

950
00:43:22,283 --> 00:43:26,587
I got to go.

951
00:43:26,621 --> 00:43:28,455
Sorry.

952
00:43:28,490 --> 00:43:31,592
He just keeps rushing off.

953
00:43:31,626 --> 00:43:33,293
I don't know where he's...

954
00:43:33,328 --> 00:43:35,262
Time to eat.

955
00:43:35,296 --> 00:43:39,166
Or not.

956
00:43:42,270 --> 00:43:43,804
You know what I've been thinking about?

957
00:43:43,838 --> 00:43:45,939
That time dad forgot us at the racetrack?

958
00:43:45,974 --> 00:43:48,642
I remembered. I came back, didn't I?

959
00:43:48,676 --> 00:43:50,644
Last words.

960
00:43:50,678 --> 00:43:52,980
That's sick.

961
00:43:53,014 --> 00:43:54,281
Well, it's important.

962
00:43:54,315 --> 00:43:57,317
They can sum up a whole life perfectly.

963
00:43:57,352 --> 00:43:59,786
And the good ones get recorded for history.

964
00:43:59,821 --> 00:44:01,955
You know what Elizabeth I said?

965
00:44:01,990 --> 00:44:07,327
"All my possessions for a moment of time."

966
00:44:07,362 --> 00:44:09,363
How lovely is that?

967
00:44:09,397 --> 00:44:13,500
And George Harrison
said, "love one another."

968
00:44:13,535 --> 00:44:15,602
Oh, someone's been doing some research.

969
00:44:15,637 --> 00:44:20,707
And Steve Jobs said, "oh, wow...

970
00:44:20,742 --> 00:44:23,043
Oh, wow,"

971
00:44:23,077 --> 00:44:25,279
like he'd seen something magical.

972
00:44:25,313 --> 00:44:27,714
His checking account.

973
00:44:27,749 --> 00:44:28,849
Good one.

974
00:44:28,883 --> 00:44:30,784
Thank you, bud.

975
00:44:30,818 --> 00:44:33,353
I am in need of last words.

976
00:44:33,388 --> 00:44:35,822
I am soliciting opinions.

977
00:44:35,857 --> 00:44:37,591
Well, you do know you have to die

978
00:44:37,625 --> 00:44:38,926
right after you say them,

979
00:44:38,960 --> 00:44:40,661
or they're otherwise not technically

980
00:44:40,695 --> 00:44:41,962
your last words.

981
00:44:41,996 --> 00:44:43,530
Or I just... I repeat them a lot,

982
00:44:43,565 --> 00:44:44,932
and I hope for the best.

983
00:44:44,966 --> 00:44:46,700
How about, "don't grieve for me.

984
00:44:46,734 --> 00:44:48,335
"My art remains, like a dart

985
00:44:48,369 --> 00:44:53,040
from the speaker to your heart"?

986
00:44:53,074 --> 00:44:56,276
It's Jay-Z.

987
00:44:56,311 --> 00:44:58,011
Fine. I'll keep it for myself.

988
00:44:58,046 --> 00:45:00,948
Mine would be, "hey, I got a big one."

989
00:45:01,486 --> 00:45:03,020
I'm talking about fishing.

990
00:45:03,054 --> 00:45:05,522
I got a big one on the
line just before I die.

991
00:45:05,557 --> 00:45:07,458
That would make me happy, anyway.

992
00:45:07,492 --> 00:45:09,893
If I died right now,
my last words would be,

993
00:45:09,928 --> 00:45:11,862
"I'm starving."

994
00:45:11,896 --> 00:45:15,532
It means so much to have
my whole family here.

995
00:45:15,567 --> 00:45:17,334
Lucky me.

996
00:45:17,368 --> 00:45:19,203
Everyone except our deadbeat son.

997
00:45:19,237 --> 00:45:23,207
Maybe that should be my line...

998
00:45:23,241 --> 00:45:25,409
"Lucky me."

999
00:45:29,080 --> 00:45:30,881
Nope. Too soon.

1000
00:45:33,384 --> 00:45:36,320
Adam?

1001
00:45:36,354 --> 00:45:39,323
He went upstairs.

1002
00:45:39,357 --> 00:45:41,558
I wanted us to speak privately first.

1003
00:45:41,593 --> 00:45:43,060
Oh, God. Oh, God.

1004
00:45:43,094 --> 00:45:44,595
Did Adam finally flunk out of school?

1005
00:45:44,629 --> 00:45:46,163
I tried everything.

1006
00:45:46,197 --> 00:45:48,665
Cathy, as you know, in three weeks,

1007
00:45:48,700 --> 00:45:51,068
Adam's class becomes seniors.

1008
00:45:51,102 --> 00:45:53,403
He won't be joining them.

1009
00:45:53,438 --> 00:45:56,540
Oh. He didn't fail. I failed.

1010
00:45:56,574 --> 00:45:58,709
Honey, it's not your fault.

1011
00:45:58,743 --> 00:46:00,544
Connie, there's got to be something

1012
00:46:00,578 --> 00:46:02,112
that we could do about this, right?

1013
00:46:02,147 --> 00:46:03,747
Maybe... I don't know... some testing

1014
00:46:03,782 --> 00:46:05,282
or some summer school, a
little bit of tutoring maybe?

1015
00:46:05,316 --> 00:46:08,085
Mr. Jamison, he did all that already.

1016
00:46:08,119 --> 00:46:10,521
In fact, he did much more than that.

1017
00:46:10,555 --> 00:46:12,689
I don't know when he slept,

1018
00:46:12,724 --> 00:46:14,691
but he managed to acquire

1019
00:46:14,726 --> 00:46:18,095
a year's worth of high-school credits

1020
00:46:18,129 --> 00:46:20,230
online in a few months,

1021
00:46:20,265 --> 00:46:23,400
which I reviewed, signed off on,

1022
00:46:23,434 --> 00:46:25,235
which is why...

1023
00:46:27,238 --> 00:46:29,339
- Oh, shit.
- Oh, my God, buddy.

1024
00:46:29,374 --> 00:46:31,508
Ladies and gentlemen,

1025
00:46:31,543 --> 00:46:33,877
honored guests, proud parents,

1026
00:46:33,912 --> 00:46:36,947
it is with the greatest
of pleasure and relief

1027
00:46:36,981 --> 00:46:40,617
that I present this
diploma of completion today

1028
00:46:40,652 --> 00:46:42,586
to Adam Jamison.

1029
00:46:42,620 --> 00:46:44,755
Congratulations!

1030
00:46:44,789 --> 00:46:46,890
- Adam!
- Whoo!

1031
00:46:54,966 --> 00:46:59,770
Mom, I know how much you
wanted to see me graduate.

1032
00:46:59,804 --> 00:47:01,772
I'm gonna let you folks celebrate in peace.

1033
00:47:01,806 --> 00:47:04,141
I have a truant I need to check on.

1034
00:47:04,175 --> 00:47:07,945
If only every home visit were this fun.

1035
00:47:07,979 --> 00:47:09,880
Oh, dude, this is awesome!

1036
00:47:09,914 --> 00:47:11,982
- Thank you.
- I'm so proud of you.

1037
00:47:12,016 --> 00:47:13,217
Thanks, dad.

1038
00:47:13,251 --> 00:47:14,785
- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

1039
00:47:14,819 --> 00:47:17,221
What he said, dude, but with real feeling.

1040
00:47:18,823 --> 00:47:21,124
Look, I'm sorry I missed breakfast, mom.

1041
00:47:21,159 --> 00:47:23,594
I had to get my cap and gown.

1042
00:47:23,628 --> 00:47:25,596
Oh...

1043
00:47:25,630 --> 00:47:29,099
Oh, sweetie.

1044
00:47:29,133 --> 00:47:30,267
That's okay.

1045
00:47:30,301 --> 00:47:32,936
Mom, don't cry.

1046
00:47:32,971 --> 00:47:36,573
I got to see you graduate.

1047
00:47:40,912 --> 00:47:44,081
Lucky me.

1048
00:47:44,115 --> 00:47:46,650
Oh, lucky me.

1049
00:47:49,954 --> 00:47:52,422
And still too soon.

1050
00:47:55,760 --> 00:47:57,728
I'm very happy I was alive

1051
00:47:57,762 --> 00:47:59,263
for this breakfast.

1052
00:47:59,297 --> 00:48:01,465
- Me too.
- Okay.

1053
00:48:01,499 --> 00:48:04,401
I am taking one Tolke to the hospital

1054
00:48:04,435 --> 00:48:06,151
and the other to the bus station.

1055
00:48:06,271 --> 00:48:09,072
Oh, dad.

1056
00:48:09,107 --> 00:48:12,376
Thank you for coming. Thank you.

1057
00:48:12,410 --> 00:48:14,912
I'm gonna drive down next
weekend to see you, okay?

1058
00:48:14,946 --> 00:48:16,546
I'll bring some of that medicine with me.

1059
00:48:16,581 --> 00:48:20,550
- I got plenty.
- Oh.

1060
00:48:20,585 --> 00:48:22,286
I would love that.

1061
00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:24,121
Please do it sober.

1062
00:48:24,155 --> 00:48:25,756
Okay.

1063
00:48:25,790 --> 00:48:27,591
Promise.

1064
00:48:27,625 --> 00:48:29,259
Take care of yourself, okay?

1065
00:48:29,294 --> 00:48:31,628
Mm-hmm.

1066
00:48:31,663 --> 00:48:35,098
Next week.

1067
00:48:36,679 --> 00:48:40,237
Adam will be with you the
whole time in the hospital.

1068
00:48:40,271 --> 00:48:41,405
You'll do great.

1069
00:48:41,439 --> 00:48:43,106
Unless I die on the table.

1070
00:48:43,141 --> 00:48:45,442
Say something fast so those
aren't your last words.

1071
00:48:45,476 --> 00:48:48,312
Oh... Gloria Steinem's tits.

1072
00:48:48,346 --> 00:48:49,613
You freak.

1073
00:48:49,647 --> 00:48:51,481
Takes one to know one.

1074
00:48:51,516 --> 00:48:54,818
- I love you, Sean.
- Back at you.

1075
00:49:02,293 --> 00:49:04,328
Andrea, I don't want you doing the dishes.

1076
00:49:04,362 --> 00:49:07,264
Ina will be here. And she can help.

1077
00:49:07,298 --> 00:49:10,300
Besides, you have to go pack.

1078
00:49:10,335 --> 00:49:14,204
Actually, I decided against New York.

1079
00:49:14,238 --> 00:49:15,505
What? What do you mean?

1080
00:49:15,540 --> 00:49:17,207
Well, I just figured you guys

1081
00:49:17,241 --> 00:49:19,209
could use my help around
here for the summer.

1082
00:49:19,243 --> 00:49:21,979
New York will always be there.

1083
00:49:22,013 --> 00:49:23,480
When I told Isaac,

1084
00:49:23,514 --> 00:49:25,882
he threw a box of buttons across the floor.

1085
00:49:25,917 --> 00:49:27,617
He'll get over it.

1086
00:49:27,652 --> 00:49:29,353
Andrea...

1087
00:49:29,387 --> 00:49:31,855
You are not giving up that internship.

1088
00:49:31,889 --> 00:49:34,558
You go. You go right now.

1089
00:49:34,592 --> 00:49:37,861
You tell Mr. Mizrahi you changed your mind.

1090
00:49:37,895 --> 00:49:40,831
I want to be here with you.

1091
00:49:40,865 --> 00:49:44,468
Andrea...

1092
00:49:44,502 --> 00:49:45,535
You...

1093
00:49:45,570 --> 00:49:47,471
you told me...

1094
00:49:47,505 --> 00:49:49,706
I had to fight for my life.

1095
00:49:49,741 --> 00:49:52,376
And that's what you have to do.

1096
00:49:52,410 --> 00:49:55,312
I will not let you give up

1097
00:49:55,346 --> 00:49:57,881
this opportunity for me.

1098
00:49:57,915 --> 00:50:00,550
Mm-mm. You are going places.

1099
00:50:00,585 --> 00:50:01,885
So am I.

1100
00:50:01,919 --> 00:50:04,054
But they're in different directions.

1101
00:50:04,088 --> 00:50:07,057
I will not let you go where I'm going.

1102
00:50:07,091 --> 00:50:11,228
But what if you...

1103
00:50:11,262 --> 00:50:14,431
You mean what if I die when you're there?

1104
00:50:17,301 --> 00:50:19,069
Most likely I will.

1105
00:50:19,103 --> 00:50:23,673
Then let me die imagining you

1106
00:50:23,708 --> 00:50:29,679
wrapped in the most
beautiful sparkly fabric

1107
00:50:29,714 --> 00:50:33,517
walking down Broadway
with your friends smiling.

1108
00:50:33,551 --> 00:50:37,354
That is how I want to think of you.

1109
00:50:37,388 --> 00:50:39,423
So...

1110
00:50:39,457 --> 00:50:43,427
You go. You find him.

1111
00:50:43,461 --> 00:50:49,099
You beg for that internship back.

1112
00:50:51,769 --> 00:50:55,105
Okay.

1113
00:50:55,139 --> 00:50:57,607
Well, you know what I
have to say now, don't you?

1114
00:50:57,642 --> 00:50:59,743
Please don't say it.

1115
00:50:59,777 --> 00:51:01,778
We'll say it together.

1116
00:51:01,813 --> 00:51:03,780
Okay.

1117
00:51:05,149 --> 00:51:07,117
Lucky me.

1118
00:51:27,638 --> 00:51:29,139
Sean

1119
00:51:29,173 --> 00:51:31,074
if you pull a goddamn
rolex out of your ass,

1120
00:51:31,109 --> 00:51:34,644
I'm getting off this gurney.

1121
00:52:06,677 --> 00:52:09,913
Hi, pretty. How you feeling?

1122
00:52:09,947 --> 00:52:12,616
Good. Tired.

1123
00:52:12,650 --> 00:52:14,251
I made you a pie.

1124
00:52:14,285 --> 00:52:17,039
It's strawberry rhubarb
made from my own rhubarb.

1125
00:52:17,159 --> 00:52:19,456
Stuff grows like weeds out back.

1126
00:52:19,490 --> 00:52:21,825
Ina, it's beautiful.

1127
00:52:25,396 --> 00:52:28,331
I have something I want to give to you.

1128
00:52:41,078 --> 00:52:42,679
I can't take this.

1129
00:52:42,713 --> 00:52:44,381
I want you to take a
little weekend vacation.

1130
00:52:44,415 --> 00:52:46,316
Get away from all this.

1131
00:52:46,350 --> 00:52:47,651
You deserve it.

1132
00:52:47,685 --> 00:52:50,820
Take your husband to a lake.

1133
00:52:50,855 --> 00:52:54,391
Swim, laugh, okay?

1134
00:52:54,425 --> 00:52:55,525
Please.

1135
00:52:55,560 --> 00:52:58,228
My brother...

1136
00:52:58,262 --> 00:53:01,998
my brother is giving
someone a kidney right now.

1137
00:53:02,033 --> 00:53:05,302
This is the least I can do.

1138
00:53:05,336 --> 00:53:08,138
All right, I'll take it,

1139
00:53:08,172 --> 00:53:10,707
but only if you have some pie.

1140
00:53:10,741 --> 00:53:13,977
Go get two forks.

1141
00:53:14,011 --> 00:53:16,379
Okay.

1142
00:53:16,414 --> 00:53:18,815
Hmm.

1143
00:53:26,591 --> 00:53:29,226
Excuse me. Do you have any peonies?

1144
00:53:29,260 --> 00:53:30,727
Yes, we do.

1145
00:53:30,761 --> 00:53:33,563
Could I just get a whole bunch of them?

1146
00:53:33,598 --> 00:53:35,031
The best ones you have?

1147
00:53:35,066 --> 00:53:37,000
Someone's a lucky lady.

1148
00:53:41,405 --> 00:53:45,475
Hello?

1149
00:53:45,509 --> 00:53:50,413
Oh, Paul, they're beautiful.

1150
00:53:50,448 --> 00:53:54,751
I'm sorry, Paul.

1151
00:53:54,785 --> 00:53:59,422
She passed about 30 minutes ago.

1152
00:53:59,457 --> 00:54:01,858
Probably an aneurysm.

1153
00:54:01,892 --> 00:54:04,227
She wasn't in any pain.

1154
00:54:37,928 --> 00:54:41,064
Well, now you know the whole story...

1155
00:54:43,100 --> 00:54:44,401
The story of my life.

1156
00:54:47,405 --> 00:54:49,072
What do you think?

1157
00:54:49,106 --> 00:54:53,610
Well, I'm not really
supposed to have an opinion.

1158
00:54:53,644 --> 00:54:57,047
But in my opinion...

1159
00:54:57,081 --> 00:54:59,049
that was a good life.

1160
00:55:01,686 --> 00:55:03,420
So, what's next?

1161
00:55:03,454 --> 00:55:05,255
Time's up.

1162
00:55:05,289 --> 00:55:08,858
You get to go.