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So what am I supposed
to do with you, Professor?

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Why are you supposed to do anything?

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Well, like I said,
this ain't none of my doing.

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When I left out of here
going to work this morning

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you were no part of my plans,

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but here you is.

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Doesn't mean anything.
Everything that happened doesn't

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mean something else.

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What's it mean then?

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Doesn't mean anything.
You run into people.

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And maybe some of them are
in trouble or whatever,

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but it doesn't mean
you're responsible for them.

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Mm-hmm!

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Anyway people are always
looking out for perfect strangers

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are very often people who won't
look out for the ones

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they're supposed to look out for,
in my opinion.

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If you're just doing what
you're supposed to,

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you don't get to be a hero.

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And that would be me?

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I don't know. Would it?

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I can see how there might be
some truth in that,

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but in this particular case
I got to say I didn't know

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what sort of person I was supposed
to be on the lookout for

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or what I was supposed to do
when I found them.

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In this particular case
but one thing to go by.

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And that was?

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That was that they is standing there.

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You don't look like my brother.
But there he is,

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so maybe you'd better look again.

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And that's what you did?

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Well, I got to say

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you was kind of hard to ignore.

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Your approach was pretty direct.

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I didn't approach you.
I didn't even see you.

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What I don't understand, is how you
come to get yourself in such a fix.

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Yeah.

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Are you all right?
Did you sleep last night?

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No.

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Well,

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when did you decide
that today was the day?

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Was there something special about it?

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No.

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Well, today is my birthday,

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but I certainly don't
regard that as special.

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Well... Happy birthday, Professor.

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Thank you.

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So, you seen your birthday was coming

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and that seemed like a good day?

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Who knows?
Maybe birthday are dangerous,

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like Christmas.

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Ornaments hanging from the trees,
reeds from the doors

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and bodies from the steampipes
all over America.

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That don't say much for
Christmas, do it?

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Christmas is not what it used to be.

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Now I believe that to be a true
statement. I surely do.

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I've got to go.

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You always put your coat on like that?

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What's wrong with the way
I put my coat on?

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I ain't said nothing was
wrong with it,

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I'm just saying is that your
regular method.

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I don't have a regular method.

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- I just put it on.
- Mm-hmm.

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- It's what-- effeminate?
- What?

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I'm just studying the
of the professor.

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Well, I've got to go.

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Let me get my coat.

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What do you mean? Going with me where?

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Going with you wherever
it is you're going.

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- No, you're not.
- Yeah, I am.

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- I'm going home.
- All right.

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All right? But you're not going
home with me.

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Sure I am. Let me get my coat.

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You can't go home with me.

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- Why?
- You can't!

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Oh... what,

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you can go home with me
but I can't go home with you?

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No. I mean...no, that's not it.

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I just need to go home.

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- You live in an apartment?
- Yes.

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What, they don't let black folk
in there?

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No. I mean...

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Yes, of course they do.

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Look, no more jokes.
I've got to go. I'm very tired.

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All right, long as you don't run into
no hassle about getting me in there.

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- You're serious.
- Oh, I think you know I'm serious.

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- You can't be serious.
- I'm serious as a heart attack.

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- Why are you doing this?
- Me? I ain't got no choice.

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- Of course you have a choice.
- No, I ain't.

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Who appointed you my guardian angel?

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You know who appointed me
your guardian angel.

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Now look, I ain't ask for you
to jump into my arms

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- down at the subway this morning.
- I didn't jump into your arms.

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- You didn't?
- No.

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Well, how'd you get there then?

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What? Now we ain't going?

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Do you really think
Jesus is in this room?

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No.

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I don't think he's in this room.

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I know he's in this room.

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It's made me asking you if you think,
you got your coat off.

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It's not the same thing.
It's a matter of agreement.

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If you and I say that I have
my coat on

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and Cecil says that I'm naked and
have green skin and a tail,

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we might want to think about
where we should put Cecil

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so he doesn't hurt himself.

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Who's Cecil?

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He's not anybody.
He's just a hypothetical.

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There's not any Cecil.
He's just a character

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I made up to illustrate a point.

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- Made up?
- Yes.

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So his view of things don't count?

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No. That's why I made him up.

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I could have changed things around.
I could have made you the one

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who didn't think I was wearing a coat.

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And was green and all that other
shit you said?

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- Yes.
- But you didn't.

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- No.
- You load it all off on Cecil.

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Yes.

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But Cecil can't defend himself

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on account that he ain't in agreement
with everybody else,

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so his word don't count,
aside from the fact that

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you made him up and he's green
and everything.

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He's not the one who's green. I am.
Where is this going?

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I'm just trying to find
out about Cecil.

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Can you see Jesus?

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No, I can't see him.

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- But you talk to him.
- Don't miss a day.

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- And he talks to you.
- I have heard him, yes.

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Do you hear him, like, out loud?

130
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No no, not out loud ,
I don't hear a voice.

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I don't hear my own for that matter,

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but I have heard.

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Why coudn't Jesus just be
in your head?

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He is in my head.

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Well, then I don't understand
what it is you're trying to tell me.

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I know you don't honey. Look...

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First thing you got to understand is

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I ain't got original thought
in my head.

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If it ain't got the lingering scent
of divinty to it,

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- I ain't interested in it.
- The lingering scent of divinity.
of divinit

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- Yeah, you like that.
- It's not bad.

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Heard it on the radio--
a black preacher.

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The point is, if I don't try it
the other way,

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I don't mean no chip-in either.

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I mean blindfold, running
through the woods.

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Biting in my teeth, Lord...
didn't I tried.

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If you can find us somebody that
gave it better shot than me,

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I'd like to meet him, I surely would.

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And what do you think that got him?

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I don't know what it gave you.

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Life in death, is what it get me.

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Life in death.

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Too dead to even know
enough to lay down.

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I see.

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I don't think so.

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Let me ask you a question.

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Alright.

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You ever read this book?

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I've read parts of it.
I've read in it.

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Have you ever read it?

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Read the Book of Job.

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Have you ever read it?

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No.

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- But you read much books?
- Yes.

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- How many, you say?
- I ve no idea.

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Ballpark!

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Two a week,

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maybe 100 a year
for close to 40 years.

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Two a week...

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40 times 100 is 4000.

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I'm just messing with you, Professor.

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Tell you what-- give me a number,

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any number you like,
and I'll give you 40 times it back.

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- 26.
- 1040.

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- 118.
- 4720.

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- 4720.
- Yep.

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- The answer is the question.
- Say what?

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- That's your new number.
- 4720?

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- That's a big number, Professor.
- Yes it is.

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- You know the answer?
- No, I don't.

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188,800.

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Let me see that.

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How do you do that?

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Butter and eggs, crap table.

185
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You quick with numbers,
you can work the mojo on your brother,

186
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confiscate the contents
of his pocketbook.

187
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You get a lot of time to practice
that shit in the jailhouse.

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Let's get back to you
and all these books you read.

189
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- You say you had read 4000 books.
- Probably maybe more than that.

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But not this book.

191
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Uh, no, not the whole--

192
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- Why is that?
- I don't know.

193
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Well, what would you say
is the best book ever wrote?

194
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- I have no idea.
- Well, take a shot.

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- There are a lot of good books.
- Pick one.

196
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- Maybe "War and peace."
- All right.

197
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You think that book is
as good as this one?

198
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I don't know. They're different
kinds of books.

199
00:10:00,316 --> 00:10:03,201
This "War and peace" book--
it's a book somebody made up, right?

200
00:10:03,252 --> 00:10:04,452
Well, yes.

201
00:10:04,486 --> 00:10:06,421
So is that what makes it different
from this here book?

202
00:10:08,624 --> 00:10:10,792
Ain't neither one of them true?

203
00:10:10,826 --> 00:10:12,544
Not in the historical sense, no.

204
00:10:12,595 --> 00:10:14,179
Hmm.

205
00:10:14,213 --> 00:10:15,764
Well, what would be a true book?

206
00:10:15,798 --> 00:10:18,433
I suppose maybe a history book.

207
00:10:18,467 --> 00:10:21,136
Gibbon's "Decline and fall of the
Roman empire" might be one.

208
00:10:21,170 --> 00:10:23,138
At least the events would
be actual events.

209
00:10:23,172 --> 00:10:24,639
They would be things
that had happened.

210
00:10:24,673 --> 00:10:26,141
Hmm.

211
00:10:26,175 --> 00:10:29,394
So you think that book is as good
a book as this book?

212
00:10:29,445 --> 00:10:31,346
- The Bible?
- The Bible.

213
00:10:31,364 --> 00:10:34,149
I don't know. Gibbon's is
a cornerstone. It's a major book.

214
00:10:34,183 --> 00:10:36,684
- And a true book. Don't forget that.
- And a true book, yes.

215
00:10:36,702 --> 00:10:38,203
But is it as good a book?

216
00:10:38,237 --> 00:10:41,406
I don't know.

217
00:10:41,457 --> 00:10:43,425
I don't know as you can
make the comparison.

218
00:10:43,459 --> 00:10:44,859
We're talking about apples and pears.

219
00:10:44,877 --> 00:10:46,961
We ain't talking about no apples
and pears, Professor.

220
00:10:46,996 --> 00:10:48,163
We're talking about books.

221
00:10:48,197 --> 00:10:50,165
Is that "decline and fall" book

222
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as good a book as this here book?

223
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Answer the question.

224
00:10:54,069 --> 00:10:55,370
I'm gonna have to say no.

225
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Used to say, right hand on the cover

226
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before it got wore down.

227
00:11:00,559 --> 00:11:02,060
"The greatest book ever written."

228
00:11:02,062 --> 00:11:04,346
- Think that might be true?
- Don't know.

229
00:11:04,380 --> 00:11:07,532
- You read the book.
- I tried to, yes.

230
00:11:07,566 --> 00:11:09,684
But you ain't read the best book.

231
00:11:09,718 --> 00:11:12,320
- Why is that?
- I've got to go.

232
00:11:12,355 --> 00:11:14,989
You don't need to go, Professor.
Just stay here and visit with me.

233
00:11:15,024 --> 00:11:17,392
You're afraid I'll go back to
the train station.

234
00:11:17,410 --> 00:11:19,527
You might, so just stay here with me.

235
00:11:19,561 --> 00:11:20,995
What if I promised I wouldn't?

236
00:11:21,030 --> 00:11:22,280
You might anyway.

237
00:11:22,331 --> 00:11:24,249
Don't you need to go to work?

238
00:11:24,283 --> 00:11:25,784
I was on my way to work.

239
00:11:25,835 --> 00:11:27,735
A funny thing happened to you
on the way to work.

240
00:11:27,753 --> 00:11:29,254
Yes, it did.

241
00:11:29,288 --> 00:11:30,488
Will they fire you?

242
00:11:30,523 --> 00:11:32,374
No, they won't fire me.

243
00:11:32,408 --> 00:11:34,576
- You could call in.
- Ain't got no phone.

244
00:11:34,643 --> 00:11:36,811
Anyhow, they know
if I ain't there by now,

245
00:11:36,812 --> 00:11:38,763
I ain't coming. I ain't a late
sort of person.

246
00:11:38,798 --> 00:11:40,715
- Why don't you have a phone.
- Don't need one.

247
00:11:40,750 --> 00:11:44,119
- Junkies would steal it anyway.
- Get a cheap one.

248
00:11:44,403 --> 00:11:46,921
Don't get too cheap for a junkie.

249
00:11:48,470 --> 00:11:49,774
Let's get back to you.

250
00:11:50,810 --> 00:11:52,193
Just stick with me for a minute.

251
00:11:58,534 --> 00:12:00,485
- Can I ask you something?
- Sure you can.

252
00:12:00,536 --> 00:12:03,405
Where were you standing?
I never saw you.

253
00:12:03,439 --> 00:12:05,457
You mean when you took
your amazing leap?

254
00:12:05,491 --> 00:12:08,276
- Yes.
- I was on the platform.

255
00:12:08,294 --> 00:12:09,711
- On the platform?
- Yeah.

256
00:12:09,745 --> 00:12:11,212
Well, I didn't see you.

257
00:12:11,247 --> 00:12:13,748
I was standing on the platform,
minding my own business.

258
00:12:13,782 --> 00:12:15,884
Here you come, haulin' ass.

259
00:12:15,918 --> 00:12:18,136
I looked all around to make sure
there was no one there,

260
00:12:18,170 --> 00:12:20,388
particularly no children.

261
00:12:20,423 --> 00:12:22,223
There was nobody around.

262
00:12:22,258 --> 00:12:23,591
No, just me.

263
00:12:23,625 --> 00:12:26,627
Well, I don't know where
you could have been.

264
00:12:26,645 --> 00:12:29,347
Trying to get spooky on
me here, Professor?

265
00:12:29,398 --> 00:12:30,932
Maybe I was behind a post
or something.

266
00:12:30,966 --> 00:12:32,851
There wasn't any post.

267
00:12:32,902 --> 00:12:35,153
So what're you saying--
You're looking at some big black angel

268
00:12:35,187 --> 00:12:37,856
guy sent down here to snatch your
honky ass out of there

269
00:12:37,907 --> 00:12:39,908
at the last possible minute
and save you from destruction?

270
00:12:39,942 --> 00:12:41,493
No, I don't think that.

271
00:12:41,527 --> 00:12:43,745
- Such a thing ain't possible?
- No, it isn't.

272
00:12:43,779 --> 00:12:45,246
Well, you're the one suggested it.

273
00:12:45,248 --> 00:12:46,781
I never suggested any such thing.

274
00:12:46,815 --> 00:12:48,533
You are the one who put in
the stuff about angels.

275
00:12:48,584 --> 00:12:51,286
I never said anything about angels.
I don't believe in angels.

276
00:12:51,320 --> 00:12:54,088
Well, what is it you believe in?

277
00:12:54,090 --> 00:12:55,790
A lot of things.

278
00:12:55,824 --> 00:12:57,292
All right!

279
00:12:57,326 --> 00:12:59,677
- All right what?
- All right, what things?

280
00:12:59,712 --> 00:13:02,997
- I believe in things.
- Give me for instance.

281
00:13:03,015 --> 00:13:06,551
Um, cultural things, for instance,

282
00:13:06,602 --> 00:13:09,554
books, music, art, things like that.

283
00:13:09,605 --> 00:13:11,523
All right.

284
00:13:11,557 --> 00:13:14,559
Those are the things that
have value to me.

285
00:13:14,610 --> 00:13:16,844
They're the foundations
of civilization.

286
00:13:16,862 --> 00:13:18,846
Well, they used to have value to me.

287
00:13:18,864 --> 00:13:21,516
They don't have so much
value anymore, I guess.

288
00:13:25,571 --> 00:13:28,156
To a certain extent...

289
00:13:28,190 --> 00:13:30,158
I'm not sure I can tell you why.

290
00:13:30,192 --> 00:13:33,294
That world is largely gone now.

291
00:13:33,329 --> 00:13:35,363
Soon it will be wholly gone.

292
00:13:35,381 --> 00:13:37,966
I'm not sure I'm following you,
Professor.

293
00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:40,201
There's nothing to follow.
It's all right.

294
00:13:40,236 --> 00:13:42,870
The things I loved were very frail,

295
00:13:42,888 --> 00:13:44,806
very fragile.

296
00:13:44,840 --> 00:13:47,375
I didn't know that.
I thought they were indestructible.

297
00:13:47,393 --> 00:13:49,143
They weren't.

298
00:13:49,178 --> 00:13:51,312
And that's what sent you off the
edge of the platform?

299
00:13:51,347 --> 00:13:52,730
It wasn't nothing personal?

300
00:13:52,765 --> 00:13:54,899
Oh, it's personal.
That's what an education does.

301
00:13:54,934 --> 00:13:57,685
It makes the world personal.

302
00:13:57,719 --> 00:14:00,605
Well, them's some very
powerful words, Professor.

303
00:14:00,656 --> 00:14:03,825
And I can't say that I got an
answer to any of that

304
00:14:03,859 --> 00:14:05,994
and it might be that there
ain't no answer.

305
00:14:06,028 --> 00:14:08,446
But still, I got to ask.

306
00:14:08,497 --> 00:14:11,282
What's the use of having
notions of such a thing,

307
00:14:11,333 --> 00:14:13,451
if they won't keep you glued down
to the platform

308
00:14:13,485 --> 00:14:16,321
when the Sunset Limited is
coming through at 80mph?

309
00:14:16,355 --> 00:14:18,423
- Good question.
- I thought so.

310
00:14:18,457 --> 00:14:21,009
I don't have an answer
to any of that either.

311
00:14:21,043 --> 00:14:23,962
Maybe it's not logical.
I don't know. I don't care.

312
00:14:24,013 --> 00:14:25,930
I've been asked, didn't I think it odd

313
00:14:25,965 --> 00:14:28,716
that I should be around to
witness the death of everything?

314
00:14:28,750 --> 00:14:30,718
I do think it's odd.

315
00:14:30,752 --> 00:14:33,421
But that doesn't mean it isn't so.

316
00:14:33,439 --> 00:14:35,306
Somebody has to be here.

317
00:14:35,357 --> 00:14:38,031
But you don't intend to
hang around for it?

318
00:14:38,041 --> 00:14:39,527
No, I don't.

319
00:14:41,363 --> 00:14:43,264
Let me see if I got this straight.

320
00:14:43,282 --> 00:14:46,234
You're saying that all
this culture stuff

321
00:14:46,268 --> 00:14:49,454
is the only thing between you and
the Sunset Limited.

322
00:14:49,488 --> 00:14:51,489
- It's a lot.
- But it busted out on you.

323
00:14:51,540 --> 00:14:52,740
Yes.

324
00:14:52,775 --> 00:14:55,176
You're a culture junkie.

325
00:14:58,047 --> 00:14:59,731
Maybe you're right.

326
00:14:59,765 --> 00:15:03,835
Maybe I have no beliefs.

327
00:15:03,886 --> 00:15:07,555
I believe in the Sunset Limited.

328
00:15:07,590 --> 00:15:09,557
Damn, Professor.

329
00:15:09,592 --> 00:15:11,309
Damn indeed.

330
00:15:11,343 --> 00:15:13,544
No beliefs?

331
00:15:13,579 --> 00:15:17,565
The things I believed in

332
00:15:17,600 --> 00:15:20,685
no longer exist.

333
00:15:20,736 --> 00:15:23,021
It's foolish to pretend they do.

334
00:15:23,072 --> 00:15:26,524
Western civilization
finally went up in smoke

335
00:15:26,575 --> 00:15:28,493
in the chimneys of Dachau,

336
00:15:28,527 --> 00:15:31,496
and I was too infatuated to see it.

337
00:15:31,530 --> 00:15:33,915
I see it now.

338
00:15:37,786 --> 00:15:39,704
Hoo!

339
00:15:39,755 --> 00:15:41,789
You're a challenge, Professor,
you know that.

340
00:15:41,823 --> 00:15:43,491
Well, there's no reason for you

341
00:15:43,509 --> 00:15:47,095
to become involved in my problems.

342
00:15:47,129 --> 00:15:49,631
I should go.

343
00:15:53,135 --> 00:15:55,670
- Have you got any friends?
- No.

344
00:15:55,688 --> 00:15:57,772
- Come on, Professor, not one?
- Not really, no.

345
00:15:57,806 --> 00:15:59,674
- Tell me about that one.
- What one?

346
00:15:59,692 --> 00:16:03,144
- The "not really" one.
- I have a friend at the university--

347
00:16:03,178 --> 00:16:05,947
not a close friend.
We have lunch from time to time.

348
00:16:05,981 --> 00:16:09,083
But that's as good as it gets?

349
00:16:09,118 --> 00:16:10,218
Yes.

350
00:16:10,252 --> 00:16:12,070
What'd you do to him?

351
00:16:12,104 --> 00:16:14,122
- What'd I do to him?
- Yeah.

352
00:16:14,156 --> 00:16:16,124
I didn't do anything to him.

353
00:16:16,158 --> 00:16:18,126
What makes you think I did
something to him?

354
00:16:18,160 --> 00:16:19,410
I don't know. Did you?

355
00:16:19,461 --> 00:16:20,662
No.

356
00:16:20,696 --> 00:16:22,747
What is it you think I did to him?

357
00:16:22,798 --> 00:16:24,499
I don't know. Maybe you can tell me.

358
00:16:24,533 --> 00:16:26,918
There's nothing to tell.

359
00:16:26,969 --> 00:16:29,203
You didn't leave him a note or nothing

360
00:16:29,221 --> 00:16:31,305
- to tell him you've taken the train?
- No!

361
00:16:31,340 --> 00:16:33,257
- Your best friend?
- He's not my best friend.

362
00:16:33,308 --> 00:16:35,259
I thought we just got done
deciding he was.

363
00:16:35,310 --> 00:16:38,012
You just got done deciding he--

364
00:16:38,046 --> 00:16:40,565
Did you ever tell him you was
thinking about this?

365
00:16:40,599 --> 00:16:43,151
- No. Why should I?
- 'Cause he's your best friend.

366
00:16:43,185 --> 00:16:45,103
He's-- I told you,
we're not all that close.

367
00:16:45,154 --> 00:16:46,854
- You're not all that close?
- No!

368
00:16:46,888 --> 00:16:48,740
He's your best friend,
only you ain't all that close?

369
00:16:48,774 --> 00:16:50,224
If you'd like.

370
00:16:50,242 --> 00:16:53,194
Not the way you'd want to bother
him with a little thing like

371
00:16:53,228 --> 00:16:54,812
...suicide?

372
00:16:56,031 --> 00:16:57,898
Look,

373
00:16:57,916 --> 00:17:02,903
suppose I were to give you my word

374
00:17:02,921 --> 00:17:05,540
that I would just go home

375
00:17:05,574 --> 00:17:09,010
and I wouldn't try to kill
myself enroute.

376
00:17:23,592 --> 00:17:27,261
Supposed I was to give you my word

377
00:17:27,296 --> 00:17:30,565
that I wouldn't listen
to none of your bullshit.

378
00:17:35,704 --> 00:17:37,455
You know better than that.

379
00:17:39,374 --> 00:17:41,776
You was a prisoner before
you got here--

380
00:17:44,379 --> 00:17:47,215
A death row prisoner.

381
00:17:49,951 --> 00:17:52,220
What did your daddy do?

382
00:17:52,254 --> 00:17:53,337
What?

383
00:17:53,388 --> 00:17:56,023
I said what did your daddy do--

384
00:17:56,058 --> 00:17:57,842
What kind of work?

385
00:18:02,297 --> 00:18:03,431
He was a lawyer.

386
00:18:03,465 --> 00:18:04,766
- A lawyer?
- Yeah.

387
00:18:04,800 --> 00:18:06,734
What kind of law did he do?

388
00:18:06,769 --> 00:18:09,987
He was a government lawyer. He didn't
do criminal law or anything like that.

389
00:18:10,022 --> 00:18:12,373
What would be a thing
like criminal law?

390
00:18:12,407 --> 00:18:14,275
I don't know. Divorce law maybe.

391
00:18:16,311 --> 00:18:18,813
Mm-h. Maybe you got a point.

392
00:18:18,831 --> 00:18:20,331
What'd he die of?

393
00:18:20,365 --> 00:18:21,999
Who said he was dead?

394
00:18:22,034 --> 00:18:24,786
- Is he dead?
- Yes.

395
00:18:24,820 --> 00:18:26,437
What did he die of?

396
00:18:26,472 --> 00:18:27,738
Cancer.

397
00:18:27,773 --> 00:18:29,640
Cancer. So he was sick for a while?

398
00:18:29,675 --> 00:18:31,159
Yes, he was.

399
00:18:31,193 --> 00:18:33,327
- Did you go see him?
- No.

400
00:18:33,362 --> 00:18:35,797
- How come?
- I didn't want to.

401
00:18:35,831 --> 00:18:37,698
How come you didn't want to?

402
00:18:37,733 --> 00:18:41,068
I don't know. I just didn't.

403
00:18:41,103 --> 00:18:43,171
Maybe I didn't want to
remember him that way.

404
00:18:43,205 --> 00:18:45,356
Mm, bullshit.

405
00:18:45,390 --> 00:18:46,891
Did he ask you to come?

406
00:18:48,527 --> 00:18:50,812
- But your mama did.
- She may have. I don't remember.

407
00:18:50,846 --> 00:18:53,047
Come on, Professor.
You know she asked you to come.

408
00:18:53,081 --> 00:18:54,382
Okay, yes.

409
00:18:54,416 --> 00:18:56,734
- What did you tell her?
- I said I would.

410
00:18:56,785 --> 00:18:58,753
- But you didn't?
- No.

411
00:18:58,787 --> 00:19:01,622
- How come?
- He died.

412
00:19:01,657 --> 00:19:03,374
No no, that ain't it.

413
00:19:03,408 --> 00:19:05,309
You had time to go see him,
but you didn't do it.

414
00:19:05,344 --> 00:19:07,011
I suppose.

415
00:19:07,045 --> 00:19:08,513
You waited till he was dead.

416
00:19:08,547 --> 00:19:10,131
Okay,

417
00:19:10,165 --> 00:19:12,500
so I didn't go see my father.

418
00:19:14,052 --> 00:19:17,054
Your father is laying on his deathbed
dying of cancer.

419
00:19:17,089 --> 00:19:19,173
Your mama's sitting there with him,
holding his hand.

420
00:19:19,207 --> 00:19:21,041
He's in all kind of pain.

421
00:19:21,059 --> 00:19:24,395
They ask you to come see him
one last time before he died.

422
00:19:24,429 --> 00:19:26,380
And you tell him,
"No, I ain't coming."

423
00:19:26,398 --> 00:19:28,499
Please tell me I got some part
of this wrong.

424
00:19:28,534 --> 00:19:30,384
If that's the way you want to put it.

425
00:19:30,402 --> 00:19:32,553
- Well, how would you put it?
- I don't know.

426
00:19:32,571 --> 00:19:34,221
Well, that's the
way it is then, ain't it?

427
00:19:34,239 --> 00:19:36,958
- I suppossed.
- No, ain't no suppose.

428
00:19:36,992 --> 00:19:39,694
- Is it or ain't it?
- Yes.

429
00:19:42,331 --> 00:19:43,497
Whoo!

430
00:19:43,532 --> 00:19:45,833
Let me see if can find
my train schedule,

431
00:19:45,835 --> 00:19:49,069
see when that next
uptown express is due.

432
00:19:52,754 --> 00:19:54,828
I'm not sure I see the humour.

433
00:19:56,536 --> 00:19:58,045
I'm glad to hear you say that,
Professor...

434
00:19:58,079 --> 00:19:59,347
'Cause I ain't sure either.

435
00:19:59,381 --> 00:20:02,967
I get more amazed by the minute.

436
00:20:07,422 --> 00:20:09,423
How come you can't see yourself?

437
00:20:09,441 --> 00:20:10,892
You're clear as glass.

438
00:20:10,926 --> 00:20:13,361
I could see the wheels in there,
turning the gears.

439
00:20:13,395 --> 00:20:15,947
I can see light too-- Good light,

440
00:20:15,981 --> 00:20:19,033
true light. Can't you see it?

441
00:20:19,067 --> 00:20:21,319
No, I can't.

442
00:20:22,321 --> 00:20:24,939
Well, bless you, brother.

443
00:20:24,957 --> 00:20:27,041
Bless and keep you,

444
00:20:42,257 --> 00:20:46,761
When were you in the penitentiary

445
00:20:46,795 --> 00:20:49,129
- A long time ago.
- What were you in for?

446
00:20:49,147 --> 00:20:52,183
- Murder.
- Really?

447
00:20:52,234 --> 00:20:54,735
Now who would claim to be a murderer

448
00:20:54,770 --> 00:20:56,904
that wasn't one?

449
00:21:04,479 --> 00:21:06,447
You called it the jailhouse.

450
00:21:06,481 --> 00:21:07,999
Yeah.

451
00:21:08,033 --> 00:21:09,601
Do most black people call

452
00:21:09,822 --> 00:21:12,486
the penitentiary, the jailhouse?

453
00:21:12,504 --> 00:21:15,289
No, just us old country niggers.

454
00:21:17,659 --> 00:21:19,927
We make a point to call things
what they is.

455
00:21:19,962 --> 00:21:23,464
I'd hate to think how many names
there is for the jailhouse.

456
00:21:26,334 --> 00:21:27,969
I'd hate to have to count them.

457
00:21:28,003 --> 00:21:29,971
Do you have
a lot of jailhouse stories?

458
00:21:30,005 --> 00:21:32,189
- Jailhouse stories?
- Yeah...

459
00:21:34,226 --> 00:21:36,176
I don't know.

460
00:21:36,194 --> 00:21:38,178
I used to tell jailhouse stories,

461
00:21:38,196 --> 00:21:41,649
but they kind of lost their charm.

462
00:21:41,683 --> 00:21:43,484
Why don't we talk about something

463
00:21:43,518 --> 00:21:45,019
that's a little more cheerful?

464
00:21:45,037 --> 00:21:46,854
You ever been married?

465
00:21:46,872 --> 00:21:47,955
Married?

466
00:21:47,990 --> 00:21:49,924
- Yeah!
- Oh, man.

467
00:21:49,958 --> 00:21:51,909
What?

468
00:21:55,530 --> 00:21:58,699
Maybe we ought to take another
look at them jailhouse stories.

469
00:21:58,717 --> 00:22:01,368
Oh my.

470
00:22:01,386 --> 00:22:02,636
Oo!

471
00:22:02,671 --> 00:22:04,005
Do you have any children?

472
00:22:04,039 --> 00:22:06,307
No, Professor. I ain't got nobody.

473
00:22:06,341 --> 00:22:08,309
Everybody in my family's dead.

474
00:22:08,343 --> 00:22:11,545
I had two boys, but they died
a long time ago.

475
00:22:11,563 --> 00:22:15,483
Just about everybody I ever
know has died for that matter.

476
00:22:15,517 --> 00:22:17,435
You ought to think about that.

477
00:22:17,486 --> 00:22:19,219
I might be a hazard to your health.

478
00:22:19,237 --> 00:22:21,522
Were you always in a lot of trouble?

479
00:22:21,556 --> 00:22:22,990
Yeah, I was.

480
00:22:23,025 --> 00:22:25,242
I liked it.

481
00:22:25,277 --> 00:22:27,661
I think I still do.

482
00:22:27,663 --> 00:22:29,663
I done seven years hard times.

483
00:22:29,698 --> 00:22:31,732
Could have done a lot more.
Hurt a lot of people.

484
00:22:31,750 --> 00:22:34,785
I used to smack 'em around,
and they wouldn't get up no more.

485
00:22:34,836 --> 00:22:36,837
- But you don't get in trouble now?
- No.

486
00:22:36,872 --> 00:22:38,372
But you still like it?

487
00:22:38,407 --> 00:22:41,509
Well, maybe I'm just condemned to it,

488
00:22:41,543 --> 00:22:43,878
bit in the ass by my own karma.

489
00:22:43,912 --> 00:22:45,763
But I'm on the other side now.

490
00:22:45,797 --> 00:22:47,598
You want to help folk
that's in trouble,

491
00:22:47,632 --> 00:22:49,633
you put in as much got to go
where the troubles at,

492
00:22:49,684 --> 00:22:52,486
you ain't got a lot of choice.

493
00:22:52,521 --> 00:22:53,854
How long have you been here?

494
00:22:53,889 --> 00:22:56,524
Oh, six going on to seven years.

495
00:22:56,558 --> 00:22:58,159
I don't understand why you live here.

496
00:23:00,112 --> 00:23:01,195
Anywhere.

497
00:23:01,229 --> 00:23:04,565
This pretty much here is anywhere.

498
00:23:04,599 --> 00:23:08,035
I could live in another building,
I suppose, but...

499
00:23:08,070 --> 00:23:10,604
...It's all right.

500
00:23:10,622 --> 00:23:13,457
I got my bedroom over yonder

501
00:23:13,492 --> 00:23:15,442
where I can get away,

502
00:23:15,460 --> 00:23:17,444
got a sofa where folk can crash--

503
00:23:17,462 --> 00:23:19,547
junkies and crackheads mostly.

504
00:23:19,581 --> 00:23:22,550
Of course, they're gonna walk off
with all your portables,

505
00:23:22,584 --> 00:23:25,302
so you can't own nothing.
But that's good.

506
00:23:25,337 --> 00:23:27,304
You hang out with the right crowd,

507
00:23:27,339 --> 00:23:30,057
you pretty much get over
all your worldly craving.

508
00:23:30,092 --> 00:23:32,059
They took the refrigerator one time,

509
00:23:32,094 --> 00:23:34,061
but somebody caught them
out there on the stairs,

510
00:23:34,096 --> 00:23:35,729
made them bring it back up.

511
00:23:35,831 --> 00:23:38,489
Now I got that big sucker
over yonder, traded up.

512
00:23:42,487 --> 00:23:44,905
Only thing I miss,

513
00:23:44,940 --> 00:23:46,273
is the music.

514
00:23:46,307 --> 00:23:49,476
I aim to get me a steel door.

515
00:23:49,494 --> 00:23:52,029
Then I can have me some music here.

516
00:23:52,080 --> 00:23:56,167
But you got to buy the door and
the frame at the same time.

517
00:23:56,201 --> 00:23:58,152
I'm working on that.

518
00:23:59,921 --> 00:24:02,790
I don't care nothing about television,

519
00:24:02,824 --> 00:24:05,910
but I sure do miss the music.

520
00:24:05,944 --> 00:24:09,647
You don't think
this is a terrible place?

521
00:24:09,681 --> 00:24:12,099
A terrible place?

522
00:24:12,134 --> 00:24:13,517
Yes.

523
00:24:13,552 --> 00:24:14,969
What are you talking about?

524
00:24:15,003 --> 00:24:18,139
This place. It's a horrible place
full of horrible people.

525
00:24:18,173 --> 00:24:19,356
Oh my.

526
00:24:19,391 --> 00:24:21,642
You must know that these people
are not worth saving,

527
00:24:21,676 --> 00:24:24,845
even if they could be saved,
which they can't. You must know that.

528
00:24:24,863 --> 00:24:27,565
Well, I like a challenge.

529
00:24:27,616 --> 00:24:30,284
I started a ministry 'fore I got out
of prison.

530
00:24:30,318 --> 00:24:31,952
Now, that was a challenge.

531
00:24:31,987 --> 00:24:33,954
There was a lot of brothers
who showed up.

532
00:24:33,989 --> 00:24:35,522
They ain't care nothing about it.

533
00:24:35,540 --> 00:24:37,908
They ain't really care nothing about
the word of God.

534
00:24:37,959 --> 00:24:39,359
They just wanted it on the resume.

535
00:24:39,377 --> 00:24:41,028
- Resume?
- Resume.

536
00:24:41,046 --> 00:24:44,131
You got some brothers in there
does some real bad shit.

537
00:24:44,166 --> 00:24:46,917
And they weren't sorry about
a damn thing except getting caught.

538
00:24:46,968 --> 00:24:51,055
But the funny thing was,
a lot of them did believe in God.

539
00:24:51,089 --> 00:24:54,208
Even more so than a lot of these
people out here on the outside.

540
00:24:54,226 --> 00:24:55,976
I know I did.

541
00:24:56,011 --> 00:24:57,678
You ought to think
about that, Professor.

542
00:24:57,712 --> 00:25:00,064
- I think I'd better go.
- Oh hey!

543
00:25:00,098 --> 00:25:02,099
You ain't got to go, Professor.

544
00:25:02,101 --> 00:25:04,068
Let me ask you something.

545
00:25:04,102 --> 00:25:06,187
Do you ever had one of them days

546
00:25:06,221 --> 00:25:10,157
where everything was just
weird all the way around,

547
00:25:10,192 --> 00:25:12,826
when things just kind of
fell into place?

548
00:25:12,861 --> 00:25:14,078
I'm not sure what you mean.

549
00:25:14,112 --> 00:25:17,114
Just one of them days, you know,
kind of magic,

550
00:25:17,165 --> 00:25:20,734
one of them days where everything
turned out right.

551
00:25:20,752 --> 00:25:22,536
I don't know. Maybe. Why?

552
00:25:22,570 --> 00:25:24,955
Well, I'm just wondering
if it ain't been

553
00:25:25,006 --> 00:25:28,626
maybe sort of long dry spell for you

554
00:25:28,677 --> 00:25:30,628
till you took up with the notion

555
00:25:30,679 --> 00:25:32,079
that, that's the way the world is.

556
00:25:32,097 --> 00:25:33,597
- The way the world is?
- Yeah.

557
00:25:33,632 --> 00:25:36,050
- And how is that?
- You know, long and dry.

558
00:25:36,084 --> 00:25:38,018
But the point is

559
00:25:38,053 --> 00:25:40,054
that even if you feel that way,

560
00:25:40,088 --> 00:25:42,022
what you got to understand

561
00:25:42,057 --> 00:25:44,558
is that the sun don't shine
up the same dog's ass every day.

562
00:25:44,592 --> 00:25:46,560
You understand what I'm saying?

563
00:25:46,562 --> 00:25:47,796
If what you're saying
is that I'm simply

564
00:25:47,797 --> 00:25:49,029
having a bad day, that's ridiculous.

565
00:25:49,064 --> 00:25:51,232
I ain't saying you're having
a bad day, Professor...

566
00:25:51,266 --> 00:25:52,566
I'm saying you're having a bad life.

567
00:25:52,600 --> 00:25:54,601
You think I should change my life?

568
00:25:54,635 --> 00:25:56,570
- What, you shitting me?
- I have to go

569
00:25:56,604 --> 00:25:59,123
Look, look, just hang with me
a little while longer.

570
00:26:01,409 --> 00:26:03,377
What about my jailhouse story?

571
00:26:03,411 --> 00:26:06,130
You don't need no jailhouse story.

572
00:26:06,164 --> 00:26:07,498
Why not?

573
00:26:07,549 --> 00:26:10,284
Well, you're suspicious
about everything already.

574
00:26:10,302 --> 00:26:12,419
You think I'm trying to put you
in the trick bag.

575
00:26:12,453 --> 00:26:13,504
And you're not?

576
00:26:13,555 --> 00:26:15,839
Well yeah, but I don't want you
to know it.

577
00:26:15,890 --> 00:26:17,641
Well, in any case, I have to go.

578
00:26:17,676 --> 00:26:19,643
You ain't ready to go back out
there on them streets.

579
00:26:19,678 --> 00:26:21,204
- I have to.
- I know you ain't

580
00:26:21,205 --> 00:26:22,730
got nothing you got to do.

581
00:26:22,764 --> 00:26:24,240
- How do you know that?
- 'Cause you ain't

582
00:26:24,241 --> 00:26:25,716
even supposed to be here.

583
00:26:25,750 --> 00:26:29,136
I see your point.

584
00:26:29,154 --> 00:26:31,155
What if I tell you a jailhouse story?

585
00:26:31,189 --> 00:26:33,324
Will you stay then?

586
00:26:36,244 --> 00:26:38,529
All right. I'll stay a while.

587
00:26:38,580 --> 00:26:43,984
All right! The man says all right.

588
00:26:44,002 --> 00:26:45,586
Is it a true story?

589
00:26:45,620 --> 00:26:48,059
Oh yeah, it's a true story.
I don't know no other kind.

590
00:26:49,007 --> 00:26:52,343
One day, I'm in the chow line
and I'm getting my chow.

591
00:26:52,377 --> 00:26:54,345
When the nigger in the line behind me

592
00:26:54,379 --> 00:26:56,764
gets into it with the server,
says the beans is cold.

593
00:26:56,798 --> 00:26:59,466
So he throws the ladle
down in the beans.

594
00:26:59,500 --> 00:27:00,934
Well, when he done that

595
00:27:00,969 --> 00:27:02,936
there was beans splashed up on me.

596
00:27:03,515 --> 00:27:05,845
Well, I didn't want to get
into it over no beans,

597
00:27:05,846 --> 00:27:08,175
but he kind of piss me off some.

598
00:27:08,193 --> 00:27:10,027
I'd just put on a clean uniform--

599
00:27:10,061 --> 00:27:12,363
you know, khakis, shirt and trousers.

600
00:27:12,397 --> 00:27:14,114
You know, and you only get two a week.

601
00:27:14,149 --> 00:27:16,033
so I said something to him

602
00:27:16,067 --> 00:27:18,986
like "Hey man, watch it"
or something like that.

603
00:27:19,020 --> 00:27:21,538
But I went on. I'm telling myself,

604
00:27:21,573 --> 00:27:26,144
"Just let it go. Just let it go."
But then that nigger said something.

605
00:27:27,302 --> 00:27:29,663
So I turned back.

606
00:27:29,697 --> 00:27:31,332
And when I done that,

607
00:27:31,366 --> 00:27:33,200
he stuck a knife in me.

608
00:27:33,218 --> 00:27:38,088
I ain't even it coming.
Blood's just flying everywhere.

609
00:27:38,139 --> 00:27:40,707
This was one of them
Italian switchblades,

610
00:27:40,725 --> 00:27:42,593
one of them black-and-silver jobs.

611
00:27:42,644 --> 00:27:44,428
Well, I ain't do a thing but duck

612
00:27:44,479 --> 00:27:46,730
and step back onto the rail.

613
00:27:46,765 --> 00:27:49,900
And I reached out and I got hold of
this table leg.

614
00:27:49,934 --> 00:27:53,354
And come off in my hand just as easy.

615
00:27:53,388 --> 00:27:55,189
It had this long screw

616
00:27:55,223 --> 00:27:57,224
sticking out the end of it.

617
00:27:57,242 --> 00:28:00,694
And I went to wailing on
that nigger's head!

618
00:28:00,728 --> 00:28:02,446
And I ain't quit!

619
00:28:02,448 --> 00:28:04,865
And I ain't quit till
you couldn't tell it was

620
00:28:04,899 --> 00:28:07,084
a head no more.

621
00:28:07,118 --> 00:28:09,437
That screw was stick in
his head and I have to

622
00:28:09,438 --> 00:28:11,755
put my foot on it to pull it out.

623
00:28:15,593 --> 00:28:18,545
- What he say?
- What he say?

624
00:28:18,579 --> 00:28:20,130
I mean in the line, what he say?

625
00:28:20,181 --> 00:28:22,266
- I ain't gonna repeat it.
- That doesn't seem fair.

626
00:28:22,300 --> 00:28:23,684
- Don't seem fair?
- No.

627
00:28:23,718 --> 00:28:25,352
Here I am telling you

628
00:28:25,387 --> 00:28:28,389
a bona fide blood-and-guts tale,
from the big house,

629
00:28:28,391 --> 00:28:30,274
the genuine article and
I can't get you to

630
00:28:30,308 --> 00:28:32,226
fill in the blanks about
what the nigger said.

631
00:28:32,260 --> 00:28:34,228
- Do you have to use that word?
- Use that word?

632
00:28:34,230 --> 00:28:35,497
- Yes.
- We ain't making much

633
00:28:35,498 --> 00:28:36,763
progress here, is we?

634
00:28:36,781 --> 00:28:38,532
It just seem unneccessary.

635
00:28:38,566 --> 00:28:41,085
You don't want to hear nigger
but you about to bail on me

636
00:28:41,106 --> 00:28:43,641
cause I won't tell you some
ugly shit the nigger said.

637
00:28:43,651 --> 00:28:44,987
- Is you sure about this?
- I just don't

638
00:28:44,988 --> 00:28:46,323
see why you have to use that word.

639
00:28:46,374 --> 00:28:48,492
It's my story, ain't it?

640
00:28:48,543 --> 00:28:51,245
Anyway, I don't remember there
being no African- American,

641
00:28:51,279 --> 00:28:52,779
people of color in there.

642
00:28:52,797 --> 00:28:57,251
To my recollection there
was only a bunch of niggers.

643
00:28:58,136 --> 00:28:59,536
Go ahead.

644
00:29:01,306 --> 00:29:03,090
Now at some point,

645
00:29:03,124 --> 00:29:05,676
I musta pulled the knife out and--

646
00:29:05,727 --> 00:29:07,294
and dropped it on the floor
somewhere.

647
00:29:07,312 --> 00:29:10,764
Meanwhile, I'm still wailing
on this nigger's head,

648
00:29:10,798 --> 00:29:13,434
but his friend has got
a hold of me from behind.

649
00:29:13,468 --> 00:29:16,019
But I got one hand on the rail,

650
00:29:16,070 --> 00:29:18,238
so I ain't going nowhere.

651
00:29:18,273 --> 00:29:20,991
But what I don't know
is that this dude

652
00:29:21,025 --> 00:29:22,693
must have picked up the knife

653
00:29:22,744 --> 00:29:24,644
and he's trying to gut me.

654
00:29:24,646 --> 00:29:27,181
I felt the blood, I turned around

655
00:29:27,215 --> 00:29:29,166
and I bust him in the head.

656
00:29:29,200 --> 00:29:31,335
And he went skittering off
across the floor.

657
00:29:31,590 --> 00:29:35,756
And by now, somebody went and push
the button and the alarm is going.

658
00:29:35,790 --> 00:29:37,657
Everybody's down on the floor

659
00:29:37,675 --> 00:29:39,960
and we in lock down.

660
00:29:39,994 --> 00:29:42,129
The guard up on the rail,

661
00:29:42,163 --> 00:29:44,714
he got his shotgun pointed at me

662
00:29:44,716 --> 00:29:46,216
and he's hollering...

663
00:29:46,267 --> 00:29:48,969
"You! Get on the floor,
drop the weapon!"

664
00:29:49,003 --> 00:29:50,971
He's about to shoot me

665
00:29:51,005 --> 00:29:52,306
when the lieutenant tells him,

666
00:29:52,340 --> 00:29:56,326
"Hold your fire!
You! Throw down that club!"

667
00:29:56,328 --> 00:29:58,729
I looked around

668
00:29:58,780 --> 00:30:00,981
and I was the only one standing.

669
00:30:01,015 --> 00:30:03,788
I see the nigger's feet sticking out
from under the counter

670
00:30:03,798 --> 00:30:08,368
where he'd crawled,
so I throwed the thing down.

671
00:30:09,874 --> 00:30:12,242
I don't remember much after that.

672
00:30:12,293 --> 00:30:14,661
They-- they told me

673
00:30:14,695 --> 00:30:19,366
I had lost almost half my blood.

674
00:30:19,384 --> 00:30:25,839
I remember slipping around in it,
but I thought it was the other dude.

675
00:30:30,562 --> 00:30:32,062
Did the man died?

676
00:30:32,096 --> 00:30:35,399
No, he didn't.

677
00:30:35,433 --> 00:30:37,821
Everybody lived.

678
00:30:38,631 --> 00:30:44,224
They thought he was dead, but
he won't. He wasn't right after that.

679
00:30:44,242 --> 00:30:47,861
So I ain't really had
no more trouble out of him.

680
00:30:47,895 --> 00:30:50,948
He walked around with his head
kinda to the side,

681
00:30:50,999 --> 00:30:52,749
lost one eye,

682
00:30:52,784 --> 00:30:55,669
arm's hanging down, didn't talk right.

683
00:30:55,703 --> 00:30:58,956
They shipped him off to
another facility.

684
00:30:59,007 --> 00:31:01,174
But that's not the whole story.

685
00:31:01,209 --> 00:31:03,760
- No, it ain't.
- So what happened?

686
00:31:03,795 --> 00:31:05,629
I woke up in the infirmary.

687
00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:07,581
They had already done operated on me.

688
00:31:07,599 --> 00:31:09,883
My spleen was cut open,

689
00:31:09,917 --> 00:31:11,935
liver, I don't know what all.

690
00:31:11,970 --> 00:31:14,771
I come pretty close to dying.

691
00:31:14,806 --> 00:31:17,891
I had 280 stitches holding me together

692
00:31:17,925 --> 00:31:22,095
and, whoo, I was hurting.

693
00:31:22,113 --> 00:31:24,398
I didn't know you could
hurt that much.

694
00:31:24,432 --> 00:31:26,433
And still, they had me in leg irons

695
00:31:26,451 --> 00:31:29,286
and had me handcuffed to the bed,
if you can believe it.

696
00:31:29,320 --> 00:31:31,655
Now as I lay there,

697
00:31:31,706 --> 00:31:34,575
I heard this voice just as clear,

698
00:31:34,609 --> 00:31:36,209
couldn't have been no clearer.

699
00:31:36,244 --> 00:31:38,378
And the voice said,

700
00:31:38,413 --> 00:31:42,466
"If it was not for the grace of God,

701
00:31:42,500 --> 00:31:44,618
you would not be here."

702
00:31:44,636 --> 00:31:47,254
Man, I tried to sit up

703
00:31:47,288 --> 00:31:49,740
and look around, but I couldn't.

704
00:31:49,774 --> 00:31:52,392
Wasn't no need to no how,
'cause wasn't nobody there.

705
00:31:52,427 --> 00:31:54,961
I mean, there was somebody
there all right,

706
00:31:54,979 --> 00:31:57,648
but wasn't no need for me looking
around to see if I could see him.

707
00:31:57,682 --> 00:32:00,350
You don't think this is a strange
kind of story?

708
00:32:00,401 --> 00:32:03,403
Yeah, I do think
it's a strange kind of story.

709
00:32:03,438 --> 00:32:06,773
No, what I mean is, that you didn't
feel sorry for this man.

710
00:32:06,807 --> 00:32:08,742
Oh, you getting ahead of the story.

711
00:32:08,776 --> 00:32:12,029
The story of how a fellow inmate
became a crippled one-eyed halfwit

712
00:32:12,080 --> 00:32:13,780
so you could find God.

713
00:32:13,814 --> 00:32:15,549
- Whoa-ho.
- Well, isn't it?

714
00:32:15,583 --> 00:32:17,651
- I don't know.
- You hadn't thought of it that way?

715
00:32:17,669 --> 00:32:20,087
Oh yeah, hell,
I thought of it that way.

716
00:32:20,121 --> 00:32:22,706
Well, isn't that the true story?

717
00:32:22,757 --> 00:32:25,825
Look, Professor, I don't want
to get on the wrong side of you.

718
00:32:25,843 --> 00:32:27,827
And you seem to have a powerful wish

719
00:32:27,845 --> 00:32:29,496
for that to be the story,

720
00:32:29,514 --> 00:32:33,300
so I got to say, that is one way
of looking at it.

721
00:32:33,334 --> 00:32:36,219
I gotta concede that.
Gotta keep you interested.

722
00:32:36,270 --> 00:32:38,805
- String me along.
- You all right with that?

723
00:32:38,839 --> 00:32:42,025
And then put me in the...
what's it, the trick bag.

724
00:32:42,060 --> 00:32:43,860
- Yeah!
- Right.

725
00:32:43,895 --> 00:32:45,729
You got to remember,

726
00:32:45,731 --> 00:32:47,514
- this is a jailhouse story--
- All right.

727
00:32:47,532 --> 00:32:49,983
- which you specifically asked for.
- All right.

728
00:32:50,017 --> 00:32:51,985
The point is, Professor,

729
00:32:52,019 --> 00:32:54,037
I ain't got the first notion
in the world

730
00:32:54,072 --> 00:32:57,190
about what makes God tick.
I don'know why he spoke to me.

731
00:32:57,192 --> 00:32:59,242
- i know I wouldn't.
- But you listened.

732
00:32:59,293 --> 00:33:02,028
- What choice would you have?
- I don't know.

733
00:33:02,046 --> 00:33:03,914
Not listen.

734
00:33:03,965 --> 00:33:07,751
You think he goes around
talking to people,

735
00:33:07,802 --> 00:33:10,954
he knows ain't gonna listen to him
in the first place?

736
00:33:13,874 --> 00:33:17,210
You think he got that kind
of free time?

737
00:33:17,245 --> 00:33:20,180
Why is it you people
can't just accept it

738
00:33:20,182 --> 00:33:22,386
that some people don't even
want to believe in God?

739
00:33:23,000 --> 00:33:25,112
- I can accept that.
- You can?

740
00:33:25,153 --> 00:33:28,522
Sure I can.
Meaning I believe that to be a fact.

741
00:33:28,556 --> 00:33:30,991
I mean I'm looking at it every day,

742
00:33:31,025 --> 00:33:32,609
so I'd better accept it.

743
00:33:32,660 --> 00:33:34,161
Then why can't you leave us alone?

744
00:33:34,195 --> 00:33:37,030
Oh, to be hanging from steampipes
and all that?

745
00:33:37,064 --> 00:33:40,066
If that's what we want to do, yes.

746
00:33:40,084 --> 00:33:44,788
Because he said not to.

747
00:33:47,575 --> 00:33:50,143
It's in here.

748
00:33:53,881 --> 00:33:56,516
- Don't you want to be happy?
- Happy?

749
00:33:56,551 --> 00:33:58,351
What, you got something
against being happy?

750
00:33:58,386 --> 00:33:59,175
God help us.

751
00:33:59,185 --> 00:34:02,661
What, I done opened up a can of worms?
What's you got against being happy?

752
00:34:02,671 --> 00:34:04,357
It's contrary to the human condition.

753
00:34:04,392 --> 00:34:06,727
Contrary to your condition,
I gotta agree with that.

754
00:34:06,761 --> 00:34:07,805
Happy?

755
00:34:08,646 --> 00:34:12,432
What, like there ain't no such thing.
Not for nobody.

756
00:34:12,450 --> 00:34:13,533
No.

757
00:34:13,568 --> 00:34:15,569
How did we get ourselves
in such a fix as this?

758
00:34:15,603 --> 00:34:18,071
We were born in such a fix as this,

759
00:34:18,105 --> 00:34:20,841
suffering and human destiny
are the same thing.

760
00:34:20,875 --> 00:34:22,676
Each is a description of the other.

761
00:34:22,710 --> 00:34:24,411
We ain't talking about no suffering.

762
00:34:24,445 --> 00:34:26,046
We're talking about being happy.

763
00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:27,164
You can't be happy if you're in pain.

764
00:34:27,165 --> 00:34:28,248
Why not?

765
00:34:28,282 --> 00:34:29,583
You're not making any sense.

766
00:34:29,617 --> 00:34:32,786
Oh, them is some hard words
from the Professor.

767
00:34:32,804 --> 00:34:36,647
The preacher has fell back.
He's clutching his eyes.

768
00:34:36,907 --> 00:34:39,342
His eyes is rolled back in his head.

769
00:34:39,393 --> 00:34:43,463
Wait a minute. Wait a minute, folks.

770
00:34:43,708 --> 00:34:49,611
The preacher's blinking.
He is coming back. He is coming back.

771
00:34:50,272 --> 00:34:52,239
The point is, Professor,

772
00:34:52,273 --> 00:34:54,441
if you ain't got no pain in your life,

773
00:34:54,475 --> 00:34:56,976
how would you even know
when you was happy?

774
00:34:56,994 --> 00:34:58,278
As compared to what?

775
00:34:58,312 --> 00:35:00,580
You don't have anything to drink
around here, do you?

776
00:35:00,615 --> 00:35:03,083
No, I don't.

777
00:35:03,117 --> 00:35:05,018
Is you a drinking man?

778
00:35:05,052 --> 00:35:06,420
Are we about to get
a temperance lecture?

779
00:35:06,421 --> 00:35:07,788
Not from me.

780
00:35:07,822 --> 00:35:09,840
It's been a difficult day.

781
00:35:09,874 --> 00:35:11,675
I take it you don't drink.

782
00:35:11,709 --> 00:35:14,177
No, I don't.

783
00:35:14,212 --> 00:35:16,930
I've done my share of it
my time though.

784
00:35:16,964 --> 00:35:18,215
Are you an A.A?

785
00:35:18,266 --> 00:35:21,101
No, no, no A.A. I just quit.

786
00:35:22,437 --> 00:35:25,222
I'd a lot of friends who were drinkers
though, most of them for that matter.

787
00:35:26,109 --> 00:35:27,902
- Most of them dead too.
- From drinking?

788
00:35:28,392 --> 00:35:31,278
Well, from drinking and reasons
not too far from it.

789
00:35:31,312 --> 00:35:35,014
I had a friend get run down not
too long ago by a taxicab.

790
00:35:35,032 --> 00:35:37,751
Now where you think
he was headed drunk?

791
00:35:37,785 --> 00:35:39,536
I don't know. Where was he going?

792
00:35:39,570 --> 00:35:41,838
To get more whisky.

793
00:35:41,840 --> 00:35:43,657
He had plenty at the house,

794
00:35:43,691 --> 00:35:46,376
but drunks are always scared
they're gonna run out.

795
00:35:46,410 --> 00:35:47,878
Was he killed?

796
00:35:47,912 --> 00:35:49,696
I hope so. We buried him.

797
00:35:49,714 --> 00:35:52,299
I supposed there's a moral
to this story.

798
00:35:54,385 --> 00:35:57,504
Just a story about what you get,
what you want.

799
00:35:57,538 --> 00:35:59,656
Pain-- happiness.

800
00:36:03,377 --> 00:36:06,847
Let me tell you another one.

801
00:36:06,881 --> 00:36:08,865
One Sunday,

802
00:36:08,900 --> 00:36:13,052
we's all sitting around the house,
drinking-- a Sunday morning.

803
00:36:13,070 --> 00:36:15,722
Well, here comes this friend
of our with his girl, Evelyn.

804
00:36:15,740 --> 00:36:18,391
Now Evelyn was drunk
when she got there,

805
00:36:18,425 --> 00:36:20,327
but we told her

806
00:36:20,361 --> 00:36:22,028
get yourself a stiff drink.

807
00:36:22,062 --> 00:36:28,174
Well, directly, my buddy Reg, he go in
the kitchen to fix his self a drink.

808
00:36:30,400 --> 00:36:32,990
Only now, the bottle is gone.

809
00:36:33,687 --> 00:36:36,527
Now, Reg has been around
a few drinking people in his time

810
00:36:36,537 --> 00:36:38,178
commences to hunt for the bottle.

811
00:36:38,212 --> 00:36:40,547
He looks in the cabinet,
looks behind everything,

812
00:36:40,581 --> 00:36:42,132
but he can't find it.

813
00:36:42,134 --> 00:36:44,250
Of course he knows what's
happened to it.

814
00:36:44,268 --> 00:36:46,753
So he comes back in the living room,
sat down,

815
00:36:46,771 --> 00:36:50,150
looks at Evelyn sitting there on
the sofa drunk as a goat.

816
00:36:50,160 --> 00:36:53,654
And he says,
"Evelyn, where you put the whisky?"

817
00:36:54,500 --> 00:36:59,013
And Evelyn says... ( slurring )

818
00:36:59,613 --> 00:37:04,110
He says, "Evelyn. where did you
hide the whisky?"

819
00:37:05,000 --> 00:37:09,044
She says... ( slurring )

820
00:37:09,577 --> 00:37:12,545
Well, Reg is sitting there and this
is beginng to piss him off a little,

821
00:37:12,546 --> 00:37:18,028
so he gets on her face and he says,
( slurring )

822
00:37:18,619 --> 00:37:19,953
And she said,

823
00:37:19,971 --> 00:37:21,972
"I hid it in the toilet."

824
00:37:29,463 --> 00:37:30,597
That's pretty funny.

825
00:37:30,631 --> 00:37:32,232
Oh, I thought you'd like that.

826
00:37:32,266 --> 00:37:33,967
And is that where the whisky was?

827
00:37:33,985 --> 00:37:35,652
Oh, yeah yeah. That's a favorite
place for drunks

828
00:37:35,686 --> 00:37:37,570
to hide the bottle.

829
00:37:37,605 --> 00:37:40,573
But the point,
is that the drunk's concern

830
00:37:40,608 --> 00:37:43,860
ain't that he's going to die from
drinking, which he is--

831
00:37:43,911 --> 00:37:46,279
but that he's going to
run out of whisky

832
00:37:46,313 --> 00:37:48,348
before he get a chance to do it.

833
00:37:48,382 --> 00:37:50,033
Is you hungry?

834
00:37:50,084 --> 00:37:52,285
'Cause I can come back to this.
I ain't gonna lose my place.

835
00:37:52,319 --> 00:37:53,820
No, I'm all right. Go ahead.

836
00:37:53,838 --> 00:37:56,089
If you was to hand a drunk a drink

837
00:37:56,123 --> 00:37:58,458
and tell him, you don't want it,
what do you think he'd say?

838
00:37:58,492 --> 00:38:00,126
I think I know what he would say.

839
00:38:00,160 --> 00:38:01,761
Sure you do. And you would be right.

840
00:38:01,796 --> 00:38:03,380
- About him not really wanting it?
- Yes.

841
00:38:03,431 --> 00:38:06,216
Because what he wants he can't get,
or thinks he can't get,

842
00:38:06,267 --> 00:38:09,219
so what he really don't want,
he can't enough of.

843
00:38:09,270 --> 00:38:11,104
So what is it he really wants?

844
00:38:11,138 --> 00:38:13,473
Well, you know what he really wants.

845
00:38:13,507 --> 00:38:14,691
- No, I don't.
- Yes, you do.

846
00:38:14,725 --> 00:38:16,109
No, I don't.

847
00:38:16,143 --> 00:38:18,111
You don't know what he wants?

848
00:38:18,145 --> 00:38:19,813
No, I do not.

849
00:38:19,847 --> 00:38:22,348
He wants what everybody wants.

850
00:38:22,366 --> 00:38:23,483
And that is?

851
00:38:23,517 --> 00:38:25,184
He wants to be loved by God.

852
00:38:25,202 --> 00:38:27,037
Ha! Ha! I don't want to
be loved by God.

853
00:38:27,071 --> 00:38:29,456
See, I love that.
I love the way you cut right to it.

854
00:38:29,490 --> 00:38:31,624
See, he don't either,
according to him.

855
00:38:31,659 --> 00:38:34,411
All he wants is to drank a whisky.

856
00:38:36,213 --> 00:38:38,248
Doesn't that tell me, which one
makes sense and which one don't.

857
00:38:38,299 --> 00:38:39,916
I don't want a drink of whisky either.

858
00:38:39,967 --> 00:38:41,534
I thought you just got down
asking for one.

859
00:38:41,552 --> 00:38:43,336
I mean as a general proposition.

860
00:38:43,370 --> 00:38:44,688
We ain't talking about no
general proposition.

861
00:38:44,689 --> 00:38:46,006
We're talking about a drink.

862
00:38:46,040 --> 00:38:48,558
- I don't have a drinking problem.
- You got some kind of problem.

863
00:38:48,592 --> 00:38:51,061
Well, whatever kind of problem I have,
it is not something

864
00:38:51,095 --> 00:38:53,713
that I imagine can be addressed
with a drink of liquor.

865
00:38:53,731 --> 00:38:57,434
Mm! I love the way you put that.

866
00:38:57,485 --> 00:38:59,436
Well, what can it be addressed with?

867
00:38:59,487 --> 00:39:02,555
I think you know what
it can be addressed with.

868
00:39:02,573 --> 00:39:04,524
The Sunset Limited.

869
00:39:06,560 --> 00:39:08,495
- That's what you really want.
- Yes.

870
00:39:08,529 --> 00:39:11,064
That is what I want, yes.

871
00:39:12,566 --> 00:39:14,951
Well, that's a mighty big
drink of whisky, Professor.

872
00:39:15,002 --> 00:39:17,570
- That I don't really want?
- That you don't really want, yes.

873
00:39:17,588 --> 00:39:20,423
- Well, I think I do want it.
- Of course you do, honey.

874
00:39:20,458 --> 00:39:22,092
If you didn't,
we wouldn't be sitting here.

875
00:39:22,126 --> 00:39:23,626
I disagree with you.

876
00:39:23,677 --> 00:39:25,628
All right, but that's the
hand I'm playing.

877
00:39:25,679 --> 00:39:27,947
I don't think you understand
that people such as myself

878
00:39:27,982 --> 00:39:30,917
look upon this yearning for God
as something lacking in these people.

879
00:39:30,935 --> 00:39:33,386
Sure I do. I couldn't agree more.

880
00:39:33,421 --> 00:39:34,587
You agree with that?

881
00:39:34,589 --> 00:39:38,141
Yes. What's lacking is God.

882
00:39:38,192 --> 00:39:41,361
I am sorry, but to me this whole idea
of God is just a load of crap.

883
00:39:41,395 --> 00:39:44,030
Oh Lord have mercy!

884
00:39:44,065 --> 00:39:45,698
Jesus help us.

885
00:39:45,733 --> 00:39:48,768
The Professor's done gone and
blasphemed all overs.

886
00:39:48,786 --> 00:39:51,437
We ain't never gonna be save now.

887
00:39:53,290 --> 00:39:55,208
You don't find that an
evil thing to say?

888
00:39:55,242 --> 00:39:58,111
No, Professor, I don't. But you does.

889
00:39:58,129 --> 00:39:59,796
No, I don't. It's simply a fact.

890
00:39:59,830 --> 00:40:01,381
No, it ain't simply no fact.

891
00:40:01,415 --> 00:40:02,895
That's the biggest fact about you.

892
00:40:03,048 --> 00:40:05,536
In fact, it might just be
the only fact.

893
00:40:05,890 --> 00:40:06,857
But you don't seem to think it so bad.

894
00:40:07,221 --> 00:40:09,622
No, 'cause I know it to be curable.

895
00:40:09,640 --> 00:40:11,624
Now if you're asking me

896
00:40:11,642 --> 00:40:14,293
what the man up there thinks about it,

897
00:40:14,311 --> 00:40:17,597
well, I imagine he done
heard it so much

898
00:40:17,631 --> 00:40:20,133
that it don't bother him
all that much.

899
00:40:20,151 --> 00:40:22,135
I mean,

900
00:40:22,153 --> 00:40:25,021
what if somebody told you
you didn't exist

901
00:40:25,055 --> 00:40:26,706
and you was sitting right there

902
00:40:26,740 --> 00:40:29,042
listening to him say it?

903
00:40:29,076 --> 00:40:31,027
That wouldn't piss you off, would it?

904
00:40:31,078 --> 00:40:32,946
No, you'd just feel sorry for them.

905
00:40:32,980 --> 00:40:35,081
Right, and you might even try to
get some help for them.

906
00:40:35,116 --> 00:40:38,501
Now in my case
he had to holler out loud,

907
00:40:38,536 --> 00:40:41,671
me laying on a slab in two pieces,

908
00:40:41,705 --> 00:40:43,790
sewed back together
where some nigger done tried

909
00:40:43,824 --> 00:40:45,508
to core me like an apple.

910
00:40:45,543 --> 00:40:49,512
But God being God,

911
00:40:49,547 --> 00:40:52,632
he can speak to your heart
at any time.

912
00:40:52,666 --> 00:40:55,334
And furthermore, if he spoke to me--

913
00:40:55,352 --> 00:40:57,303
which he did--

914
00:40:57,337 --> 00:41:00,173
he can speak to anybody.

915
00:41:16,857 --> 00:41:19,325
"Wonder what this crazy nigger's

916
00:41:19,360 --> 00:41:21,728
fixing to do now.

917
00:41:21,762 --> 00:41:24,130
He's liable to put the mojo on me.

918
00:41:24,165 --> 00:41:27,800
He'll be speaking in tongues
here directly.

919
00:41:27,835 --> 00:41:31,004
I need to get my ass out of here.

920
00:41:31,038 --> 00:41:33,706
He's liable to steal my pocketbook.

921
00:41:33,724 --> 00:41:37,427
I need to get my ass
on down to that depot

922
00:41:37,478 --> 00:41:40,379
'fore something bad happens to me."

923
00:41:41,732 --> 00:41:44,934
Hey!

924
00:41:44,985 --> 00:41:47,604
What are we gonna do with you,
Professor?

925
00:41:47,655 --> 00:41:50,056
Look, I know I owe you a great deal,

926
00:41:50,074 --> 00:41:52,391
at least in the eyes of the world.

927
00:41:52,409 --> 00:41:55,278
Couldn't I just give you something
and we could call it square?

928
00:41:57,010 --> 00:42:01,567
I'll give you some money,
something like.. I can give you $1000.

929
00:42:01,585 --> 00:42:03,086
Well, that's not very much, I guess.

930
00:42:03,120 --> 00:42:04,704
I can give you $3000, say.

931
00:42:04,738 --> 00:42:07,140
You ain't got no notion of
the trouble you're in, do you?

932
00:42:07,174 --> 00:42:09,125
- I don't know what you mean.
- I know you don't.

933
00:42:09,159 --> 00:42:11,461
I'd just like to
settle this in some way.

934
00:42:11,512 --> 00:42:13,513
Ain't me you got to settle with.

935
00:42:13,547 --> 00:42:16,516
Do you really think
I was sent to you by God?

936
00:42:16,550 --> 00:42:18,851
No, it's worse than that.

937
00:42:20,808 --> 00:42:26,392
- What do you mean?
- Belief ain't like unbelief.

938
00:42:26,426 --> 00:42:28,377
If you're a believer

939
00:42:28,379 --> 00:42:31,948
and you finally got to come
to the well of belief itself,

940
00:42:31,982 --> 00:42:35,268
then you ain't got to look further.
They ain't no further.

941
00:42:35,286 --> 00:42:37,403
But the unbeliever's got a problem.

942
00:42:37,437 --> 00:42:39,438
He's set out to unravel the world.

943
00:42:39,456 --> 00:42:41,791
For everything he can point to
that ain't true,

944
00:42:41,825 --> 00:42:43,793
he leaves two things laying there.

945
00:42:53,220 --> 00:42:56,455
Do you really believe everything
that's in there-- the Bible?

946
00:42:56,473 --> 00:42:58,758
The literal truth?

947
00:42:58,792 --> 00:43:00,093
Yes!

948
00:43:00,127 --> 00:43:04,314
Probably not, but they already
know I'm an outlaw.

949
00:43:04,348 --> 00:43:08,234
What is it you would disagree with?

950
00:43:08,269 --> 00:43:10,303
Probably the notion of original sin--

951
00:43:10,321 --> 00:43:12,772
You know, when Eve ate the apple,

952
00:43:12,774 --> 00:43:14,691
turned everybody bad.

953
00:43:14,742 --> 00:43:16,693
I don't see people that way.

954
00:43:16,744 --> 00:43:18,695
I think for the most part

955
00:43:18,746 --> 00:43:20,813
people was good to begin with.

956
00:43:20,831 --> 00:43:24,000
I think evil is something you bring
on your ownself,

957
00:43:24,034 --> 00:43:26,252
most of them from wanting things
you ain't suppose to have.

958
00:43:26,287 --> 00:43:28,788
But I ain't gonna stand here and
tell you about me being a heretic

959
00:43:28,822 --> 00:43:30,823
when'm trying to get you
to quit being one.

960
00:43:30,841 --> 00:43:32,792
Are you a heretic?

961
00:43:32,826 --> 00:43:35,628
Is you trying to put me
in the trick bag, Professor?

962
00:43:35,662 --> 00:43:37,297
No, I'm not.

963
00:43:37,331 --> 00:43:38,581
Are you?

964
00:43:42,936 --> 00:43:46,055
No more than what a man ought to be,

965
00:43:46,106 --> 00:43:50,109
even a man with a powerful believer.

966
00:43:50,144 --> 00:43:53,780
I ain't a doubter,
but I am questioning.

967
00:43:53,848 --> 00:43:59,319
- What's the difference?
- A questioner wants the truth.

968
00:43:59,353 --> 00:44:03,189
A doubter wants to be told
there ain't no such thing.

969
00:44:03,207 --> 00:44:05,382
You don't think you have to believe
everything that's in there

970
00:44:05,383 --> 00:44:08,027
- in order to be saved?
- No, not at all.

971
00:44:08,045 --> 00:44:10,246
I don't even think you
have to read it.

972
00:44:10,297 --> 00:44:12,248
I ain't even for sure you
even got to know

973
00:44:12,299 --> 00:44:13,750
there is such a book.

974
00:44:13,801 --> 00:44:16,753
I think whatever truth
is wrote in the pages of this book

975
00:44:16,804 --> 00:44:19,422
is wrote in the human heart too,
and was wrote there a long time ago,

976
00:44:19,473 --> 00:44:21,758
and will be wrote there
a long time hence,

977
00:44:21,809 --> 00:44:24,977
even if every copy of this book
is burned-- every copy of it.

978
00:44:25,012 --> 00:44:28,214
And what Jesus said--
I don't think he made up a word of it.

979
00:44:28,232 --> 00:44:29,766
He just told it.

980
00:44:29,817 --> 00:44:31,684
This book is a guide

981
00:44:31,718 --> 00:44:33,886
for the ignorant and
the sick at heart.

982
00:44:33,904 --> 00:44:35,738
A whole man wouldn't need it at all.

983
00:44:35,773 --> 00:44:37,479
And if you was to read this book,

984
00:44:37,705 --> 00:44:40,774
you're gonna find there's more
talking here about the wrong way

985
00:44:40,861 --> 00:44:43,072
than there is the right way.
Why is it?

986
00:44:43,247 --> 00:44:44,614
I don't know. Why is it?

987
00:44:44,665 --> 00:44:46,032
Why don't you tell me?

988
00:44:46,066 --> 00:44:48,501
I'd have to think about it.

989
00:44:48,535 --> 00:44:49,619
- Okay.
- Okay what?

990
00:44:49,670 --> 00:44:51,371
Okay, go on and think about it.

991
00:44:51,405 --> 00:44:54,207
It might take me a little longer than
you to think about something.

992
00:44:54,241 --> 00:44:56,592
- That's all right.
- That's all right?

993
00:44:56,627 --> 00:44:59,545
Yeah. I mean, I can take that
statement in one or two ways.

994
00:44:59,579 --> 00:45:01,848
I'm going to take it the good way
'cause that's my nature.

995
00:45:01,882 --> 00:45:03,883
That way I got to live
in my world and not yours.

996
00:45:03,917 --> 00:45:05,685
What makes you think mine is so bad?

997
00:45:05,719 --> 00:45:08,284
I don't think it's so bad.
I just know it's brief.

998
00:45:09,850 --> 00:45:10,556
All right.

999
00:45:10,590 --> 00:45:13,059
I think the answer to your question is

1000
00:45:13,093 --> 00:45:14,894
that the dialect of the Kamahadileo

1001
00:45:14,928 --> 00:45:17,029
always presupposes a ground of evil.

1002
00:45:17,064 --> 00:45:19,015
- Man.
- How's that?

1003
00:45:19,049 --> 00:45:21,567
That's strong as a mare's
breath, Professor.

1004
00:45:21,601 --> 00:45:23,069
Why wouldn't I love

1005
00:45:23,103 --> 00:45:25,738
to lay some shit like that
on the brothers.

1006
00:45:25,772 --> 00:45:29,742
it's just the two of us sitting here
in private, talking.

1007
00:45:29,776 --> 00:45:31,994
What'd you just say?

1008
00:45:33,997 --> 00:45:37,083
The Bible is full
of cautionary tales--

1009
00:45:37,117 --> 00:45:38,801
all of literature, for that matter--

1010
00:45:38,836 --> 00:45:41,587
telling us to be careful.
Careful of what?

1011
00:45:41,621 --> 00:45:43,589
Taking the wrong turn, the wrong path.

1012
00:45:43,623 --> 00:45:45,475
How many wrong paths are there?

1013
00:45:45,509 --> 00:45:47,477
Their number is legion.

1014
00:45:47,511 --> 00:45:49,645
How many right paths? Just one.

1015
00:45:49,680 --> 00:45:53,316
Hence the imbalance that you spoke of.

1016
00:45:53,350 --> 00:45:55,351
Man.

1017
00:45:55,402 --> 00:45:57,422
You know you could go on TV,
Professor,

1018
00:45:57,432 --> 00:45:59,084
good looking man like yourself,
you know that.

1019
00:45:59,152 --> 00:46:01,403
- Stop.
- I'm serious.

1020
00:46:01,710 --> 00:46:04,911
I wasn't even sure you was a Professor
till you laid that shit on me.

1021
00:46:04,945 --> 00:46:06,829
Now I think you're having fun
at my expense.

1022
00:46:06,864 --> 00:46:08,647
- No, I ain't.
- Well, I think you are.

1023
00:46:08,665 --> 00:46:11,083
Honey, I swear I ain't.

1024
00:46:11,804 --> 00:46:15,532
I couldn't say a thing like you
just got done saying. I admire it.

1025
00:46:15,539 --> 00:46:17,173
And why do you keep calling me honey?

1026
00:46:17,207 --> 00:46:19,376
That's just the old South talking.

1027
00:46:19,377 --> 00:46:21,544
It don't mean nothing.
I'll try to stop if it bothers you.

1028
00:46:21,595 --> 00:46:24,680
- I'm just not sure what it means.
- It means you're among friends.

1029
00:46:24,715 --> 00:46:26,632
It mean quit worrying
about everything...

1030
00:46:26,666 --> 00:46:28,718
That might be easier said than done.

1031
00:46:28,769 --> 00:46:30,686
Yeah... you're right, it might

1032
00:46:30,721 --> 00:46:33,189
but we're just talking-- talking.

1033
00:46:36,310 --> 00:46:38,361
- Tell me something.
- Sure.

1034
00:46:38,395 --> 00:46:41,013
Why are you here?
What do you get out of this?

1035
00:46:41,031 --> 00:46:42,465
You seem like a smart man.

1036
00:46:42,499 --> 00:46:44,350
Me?

1037
00:46:44,368 --> 00:46:46,986
I'm just a dumb country nigger
from Louisiana.

1038
00:46:46,988 --> 00:46:49,405
I ain't told you. I never have
the first thought in my head.

1039
00:46:49,456 --> 00:46:53,025
if it ain't in here, I don't know it.

1040
00:46:53,043 --> 00:46:55,628
Sometimes I think
you're having fun with me.

1041
00:46:57,130 --> 00:47:00,967
<i>You're an asshole.
A-s-s hole! Asshole!</i>

1042
00:47:02,653 --> 00:47:05,421
<i>Now what the fuck are you doing
in my motherfucking bed?</i>

1043
00:47:08,759 --> 00:47:10,393
I don't see how you can live here.

1044
00:47:10,427 --> 00:47:11,844
I don't know how you can feel safe.

1045
00:47:11,879 --> 00:47:14,564
Well, you got a point, Professor,
about being safe anyway.

1046
00:47:14,598 --> 00:47:17,049
You ever stopped any of these
people from taking drugs?

1047
00:47:17,067 --> 00:47:19,068
Not that I know of.

1048
00:47:19,102 --> 00:47:21,354
Then what is the point?
I don't get it.

1049
00:47:21,388 --> 00:47:24,390
I mean, it's hopeless. This places is
a moral leper colony.

1050
00:47:24,408 --> 00:47:26,576
Damn.

1051
00:47:26,610 --> 00:47:29,829
Moral leper colony.
Where's my pencil at?

1052
00:47:29,863 --> 00:47:32,782
I ain't never gonna want you to leave.
Put this in my book.

1053
00:47:35,869 --> 00:47:37,336
I like the sound of that.

1054
00:47:39,873 --> 00:47:41,791
I still don't see
how you can live here.

1055
00:47:41,842 --> 00:47:45,578
Why not go someplace where you
can do the world some good?

1056
00:47:45,596 --> 00:47:48,431
As opposed to someplace
where good is needed?

1057
00:47:48,465 --> 00:47:50,299
Even God gives up at some point.

1058
00:47:50,350 --> 00:47:52,168
There's no ministry in hell
I've ever heard of.

1059
00:47:52,202 --> 00:47:54,971
No, there ain't. And that's well put.

1060
00:47:55,022 --> 00:47:57,139
Ministry is for the living.

1061
00:47:57,190 --> 00:47:59,425
That's why you're responsible
for your brother.

1062
00:47:59,443 --> 00:48:01,394
Once he quit breathing
you can't help him no more.

1063
00:48:01,428 --> 00:48:02,895
He's in the hands of other parties.

1064
00:48:02,929 --> 00:48:04,864
So you got to look after him now.

1065
00:48:04,898 --> 00:48:08,067
You might even want to monitor
his train schedule.

1066
00:48:08,101 --> 00:48:09,768
You think you're your brother keeper?

1067
00:48:09,786 --> 00:48:11,837
No, I don't believe think
quite cover it.

1068
00:48:11,872 --> 00:48:13,372
And Jesus is part of this enterprise?

1069
00:48:13,407 --> 00:48:15,308
That all right with you?

1070
00:48:15,342 --> 00:48:17,743
And he's interested in coming
here to this cesspool

1071
00:48:17,777 --> 00:48:20,446
and salvaging what everybody knows
is unsalvageable.

1072
00:48:20,464 --> 00:48:23,466
Why would he do that? You said
he didn't have a lot of free time.

1073
00:48:23,500 --> 00:48:25,384
Why would he come here?

1074
00:48:25,419 --> 00:48:28,120
What would the difference be to him

1075
00:48:28,138 --> 00:48:30,756
between a building that was
spiritually and morally vacant

1076
00:48:30,790 --> 00:48:32,341
and one that was just plain empty?

1077
00:48:32,392 --> 00:48:36,462
Mm, Professor, you're a theologian
here and I ain't even know it.

1078
00:48:36,480 --> 00:48:38,864
You're being facetious.

1079
00:48:38,899 --> 00:48:40,816
I don't know that word.

1080
00:48:40,851 --> 00:48:42,602
But don't be afraid to
talk down to me.

1081
00:48:42,636 --> 00:48:44,403
You ain't here to hurt my feelings.

1082
00:48:44,438 --> 00:48:46,072
It means-- I guess it means

1083
00:48:46,106 --> 00:48:47,940
you're not being sincere,
that you're being--

1084
00:48:47,974 --> 00:48:50,976
you don't mean what you're saying
in a cynical sort of way.

1085
00:48:50,994 --> 00:48:52,745
Mm, you don't think I mean what I say?

1086
00:48:52,779 --> 00:48:55,314
I think you say things
for effect sometimes.

1087
00:48:55,332 --> 00:48:58,150
Mm, well, let me say this for effect.

1088
00:48:58,168 --> 00:48:59,502
Go ahead.

1089
00:48:59,536 --> 00:49:01,487
Suppose I was to tell you

1090
00:49:01,505 --> 00:49:04,707
that if you could bring yourself to
unlatch your hands

1091
00:49:04,758 --> 00:49:06,492
from around your brother's throat,

1092
00:49:06,510 --> 00:49:09,128
you could have life everlasting?

1093
00:49:09,162 --> 00:49:11,013
There's no such thing. Everybody dies.

1094
00:49:11,048 --> 00:49:12,515
That ain't what he said.

1095
00:49:12,549 --> 00:49:17,336
He said you could have
life everlasting,

1096
00:49:17,354 --> 00:49:20,339
have it now, today,

1097
00:49:20,357 --> 00:49:23,225
hold it in your hands,

1098
00:49:23,276 --> 00:49:25,678
see it. It gives off a light,

1099
00:49:25,696 --> 00:49:30,299
got a little weight to it-- not much.

1100
00:49:30,334 --> 00:49:34,537
Warm to the touch just a little--

1101
00:49:34,571 --> 00:49:38,541
Life, and it's forever.

1102
00:49:38,575 --> 00:49:41,026
And you can have it

1103
00:49:41,044 --> 00:49:44,163
now, today.

1104
00:49:44,197 --> 00:49:45,915
But you don't want it.

1105
00:49:45,966 --> 00:49:48,156
You don't want it 'cause to get it,

1106
00:49:48,639 --> 00:49:50,084
you've got to let your
brother off the hook.

1107
00:49:50,284 --> 00:49:54,299
You've got to actually take him
in your arms and hold him

1108
00:49:54,566 --> 00:49:57,295
and it don't matter what color he is,
or what he smells like

1109
00:49:57,345 --> 00:49:59,261
or even if he don't want to be held.

1110
00:49:59,312 --> 00:50:01,347
And you won't do it

1111
00:50:01,381 --> 00:50:03,549
'cause you don't think he deserved it.

1112
00:50:03,567 --> 00:50:05,384
And about that
there ain't no argument.

1113
00:50:05,402 --> 00:50:07,553
He don't!

1114
00:50:07,571 --> 00:50:09,572
You won't do it 'cause it ain't just.

1115
00:50:09,606 --> 00:50:11,574
Ain't that so?

1116
00:50:11,608 --> 00:50:14,026
Ain't it?

1117
00:50:14,060 --> 00:50:15,728
I don't think in those terms.

1118
00:50:15,746 --> 00:50:19,131
Just answer the question, Professor.

1119
00:50:19,166 --> 00:50:20,950
I don't believe in that sort of thing.

1120
00:50:21,001 --> 00:50:24,870
I know you don't.
Just answer the question.

1121
00:50:24,904 --> 00:50:28,874
There may be some truth
in what you say.

1122
00:50:28,909 --> 00:50:30,593
That's all I'm going to get?

1123
00:50:30,627 --> 00:50:31,794
Yes.

1124
00:50:31,845 --> 00:50:33,746
All right, all right. I'll take it.

1125
00:50:33,764 --> 00:50:36,549
Some is a lot.
We down to breadcrumbs here.

1126
00:50:36,583 --> 00:50:37,767
I really have to go home.

1127
00:50:37,801 --> 00:50:40,052
No, no, no, just stay, just a little.

1128
00:50:40,086 --> 00:50:42,104
We can talk about something else.

1129
00:50:42,139 --> 00:50:43,973
You like baseball?

1130
00:50:45,425 --> 00:50:47,943
Tell you what-- why don't I fix us
something to eat?

1131
00:50:47,978 --> 00:50:50,696
- I'm not hungry.
- How about some coffee?

1132
00:50:50,731 --> 00:50:52,481
All right.

1133
00:50:52,532 --> 00:50:54,233
But then I really have to go.

1134
00:50:54,267 --> 00:50:57,403
All right. The man says all right.

1135
00:51:03,894 --> 00:51:07,830
You know,
ordinarily I wouldn't be this rude--

1136
00:51:07,881 --> 00:51:10,382
A man come into my house,
sit at my table...

1137
00:51:10,384 --> 00:51:12,334
me not offering nothing.

1138
00:51:12,385 --> 00:51:15,821
But with you, I got to strategize,

1139
00:51:15,856 --> 00:51:17,840
play the cards right,

1140
00:51:17,891 --> 00:51:19,958
keeping you from slipping off
into the night.

1141
00:51:19,976 --> 00:51:21,960
It's not night.

1142
00:51:21,978 --> 00:51:24,263
Depends on what kind of night
you're talking about.

1143
00:51:24,297 --> 00:51:26,465
Let me ask you a kind of
personal question.

1144
00:51:26,483 --> 00:51:28,851
This will be good.

1145
00:51:28,853 --> 00:51:32,071
What you think is wrong with you

1146
00:51:32,105 --> 00:51:35,441
that you finally narrowed all your
choices down to the Sunset Limited?

1147
00:51:35,475 --> 00:51:37,309
I don't think there's
anything wrong with me.

1148
00:51:37,327 --> 00:51:39,662
I think I've just been driven to
finally face the truth.

1149
00:51:39,696 --> 00:51:41,447
If I'm different it doesn't mean
I'm crazy.

1150
00:51:41,481 --> 00:51:42,531
- Different?
- Yeah.

1151
00:51:42,582 --> 00:51:44,166
- Different from who?
- Anybody.

1152
00:51:44,201 --> 00:51:46,285
What about all them other folk out
there trying to off themself?

1153
00:51:46,319 --> 00:51:47,387
- What about 'em?
- Well, maybe them's

1154
00:51:47,388 --> 00:51:48,454
the folk you would like.

1155
00:51:48,488 --> 00:51:49,704
Maybe they're your natural kin,

1156
00:51:49,705 --> 00:51:51,262
only y'all don't get together
all that much.

1157
00:51:51,424 --> 00:51:53,008
- I don't think so.
- Don't think so?

1158
00:51:53,043 --> 00:51:55,327
No, I've been in group therapy
with those people.

1159
00:51:55,345 --> 00:51:57,930
I've never found anyone there that
I felt any kinship with.

1160
00:51:57,964 --> 00:52:00,966
Hmm, what about all them professors?
There ain't no kinship there?

1161
00:52:01,000 --> 00:52:03,719
- Good God.
- I'll take that as a no.

1162
00:52:03,770 --> 00:52:05,688
I loathe them and they loathe me.

1163
00:52:05,690 --> 00:52:08,357
Well, just 'cause you don't like them,

1164
00:52:08,391 --> 00:52:10,559
don't mean you ain't like them.

1165
00:52:10,610 --> 00:52:12,278
And what's that word "loathe"?

1166
00:52:12,312 --> 00:52:13,339
Loathe.

1167
00:52:13,340 --> 00:52:14,730
That a pretty powerful word, ain't it?

1168
00:52:14,781 --> 00:52:16,181
Not powerful enough, I'm afraid.

1169
00:52:16,199 --> 00:52:18,317
How come you be loathing
these other professors?

1170
00:52:18,351 --> 00:52:20,486
- I know what you're thinking.
- What am I thinking?

1171
00:52:20,520 --> 00:52:23,122
You're thinking that I loathe them
because I'm like them,

1172
00:52:23,156 --> 00:52:24,540
and I loathe myself.

1173
00:52:24,574 --> 00:52:27,025
Let me ask you this--

1174
00:52:27,043 --> 00:52:29,027
is you on any kind of medication?

1175
00:52:29,045 --> 00:52:30,830
- No.
- There ain't no medication

1176
00:52:30,864 --> 00:52:32,665
for pilgrims out there waiting
to take the Limited?

1177
00:52:32,699 --> 00:52:34,633
- For suicidal depression?
- Yeah.

1178
00:52:34,668 --> 00:52:36,802
- Yeah, there is. I've tried them.
- And what happened?

1179
00:52:36,837 --> 00:52:38,370
- Nothing happened.
- You ain't get no relief?

1180
00:52:38,388 --> 00:52:40,890
- No. Your coffee's percolated.
- Yeah, I know.

1181
00:52:40,924 --> 00:52:43,759
Does these drugs work for
other people?

1182
00:52:43,810 --> 00:52:45,728
Yes, for most.

1183
00:52:45,762 --> 00:52:47,897
- But not for you?
- Not for me, no.

1184
00:52:47,931 --> 00:52:50,065
Hmm, what you make of that?

1185
00:52:50,100 --> 00:52:51,267
I don't know what am I
supposed to make of it?

1186
00:52:51,287 --> 00:52:52,538
I don't know Professor.

1187
00:52:52,548 --> 00:52:56,271
I'm just trying to see if we can find
find you some constituents out here.

1188
00:52:56,273 --> 00:52:58,274
- Constituents?
- Yeah! You like that?

1189
00:52:58,325 --> 00:53:00,276
Is that the word they used
on the streets?

1190
00:53:00,327 --> 00:53:02,695
No, I learned that word
in the jailhouse.

1191
00:53:02,729 --> 00:53:05,447
You hear things from the
jailhouse lawyer

1192
00:53:05,449 --> 00:53:07,416
and then it gets used around.

1193
00:53:07,450 --> 00:53:09,952
Be talking about your constituents,

1194
00:53:09,986 --> 00:53:12,755
some other cat's constituents,

1195
00:53:12,789 --> 00:53:16,926
your wife's constituents.
You take cream and sugar?

1196
00:53:16,960 --> 00:53:18,294
No, just black.

1197
00:53:18,345 --> 00:53:19,845
Just black.

1198
00:53:23,750 --> 00:53:28,721
Why do I have to have constituents?

1199
00:53:28,755 --> 00:53:30,756
I ain't saying you got to, Professor.

1200
00:53:30,774 --> 00:53:32,308
I'm just wondering if maybe you do

1201
00:53:32,359 --> 00:53:34,193
and we just ain't looked
hard enough for them.

1202
00:53:34,227 --> 00:53:36,896
I mean, they could be out there.
There could be some other

1203
00:53:36,930 --> 00:53:39,264
drug-proof terminal commuters out
there, could be your friends.

1204
00:53:39,282 --> 00:53:41,500
- Terminal commuters?
- Mm-hmm, you like the sound of that?

1205
00:53:41,534 --> 00:53:43,819
It's all right.

1206
00:53:43,870 --> 00:53:45,103
Nobody?

1207
00:53:45,121 --> 00:53:47,206
- Nobody, no.
- Hmm.

1208
00:53:47,240 --> 00:53:49,608
I'm not a member. Never wanted
to be and never was.

1209
00:53:49,626 --> 00:53:51,606
- Not a member?
- No.

1210
00:53:52,545 --> 00:53:54,546
Look, I could eat a bite.

1211
00:53:54,581 --> 00:54:00,586
And I think you could too.

1212
00:54:00,620 --> 00:54:03,255
You break bread with a man,

1213
00:54:03,289 --> 00:54:05,925
you've moved on to another level
of friendship.

1214
00:54:05,959 --> 00:54:08,644
I heard that's true the world over.

1215
00:54:08,678 --> 00:54:09,929
Probably.

1216
00:54:09,963 --> 00:54:11,463
Probably?

1217
00:54:11,481 --> 00:54:13,182
I like probably.

1218
00:54:13,233 --> 00:54:15,184
Probably from you is worth

1219
00:54:15,235 --> 00:54:17,019
a couple of damn rights anywhere else.

1220
00:54:17,070 --> 00:54:19,154
Why? Because I don't
believe in anything?

1221
00:54:19,189 --> 00:54:23,141
Well, I don't think that's
the problem.

1222
00:54:23,159 --> 00:54:26,028
I think it's what you do believe

1223
00:54:26,079 --> 00:54:27,579
that's carrying you off,

1224
00:54:27,614 --> 00:54:30,616
not what you don't.

1225
00:54:30,650 --> 00:54:32,651
Let me ask you this.

1226
00:54:32,669 --> 00:54:34,319
Go ahead.

1227
00:54:34,337 --> 00:54:36,288
You ever think about Jesus?

1228
00:54:36,322 --> 00:54:37,456
Here we go.

1229
00:54:39,509 --> 00:54:42,711
What makes you think I'm not Jewish?

1230
00:54:42,762 --> 00:54:45,047
What, Jews ain't allowed
to think about Jesus?

1231
00:54:45,098 --> 00:54:47,299
No, but they might think
about him differently.

1232
00:54:48,601 --> 00:54:50,052
Is you Jewish?

1233
00:54:50,103 --> 00:54:51,637
No, as it happens I'm not.

1234
00:54:51,671 --> 00:54:53,806
Had me going there for a minute.

1235
00:54:53,840 --> 00:54:55,691
What, you don't like Jews?

1236
00:54:55,725 --> 00:54:58,143
I thought of pulling your chain,
Professor.

1237
00:54:58,177 --> 00:55:00,145
Just pulling your chain.

1238
00:55:00,179 --> 00:55:03,198
I don't know why
I like to mess with you,

1239
00:55:03,233 --> 00:55:06,184
but I do.

1240
00:55:06,202 --> 00:55:08,654
Now you need to listen

1241
00:55:08,688 --> 00:55:10,572
or you need to believe
what you're hearing,

1242
00:55:10,623 --> 00:55:12,458
'cause the point of where
this is going

1243
00:55:12,492 --> 00:55:14,326
which you wanted to know is--

1244
00:55:14,702 --> 00:55:15,812
that there ain't no Jews,

1245
00:55:15,813 --> 00:55:17,883
there  ain't no whites,
there ain't no niggers...

1246
00:55:18,152 --> 00:55:20,992
people of color.
There ain't none of that.

1247
00:55:21,468 --> 00:55:23,419
At the deep bottom of the mine
where the gold is at,

1248
00:55:26,006 --> 00:55:28,307
it's just the pure ore that

1249
00:55:28,341 --> 00:55:30,208
forever thing

1250
00:55:30,226 --> 00:55:31,927
that you don't think is there,

1251
00:55:31,978 --> 00:55:34,596
that thing that keeps people
nailed down to the platform

1252
00:55:34,647 --> 00:55:36,548
when the Sunset Limited
is coming through,

1253
00:55:36,566 --> 00:55:38,517
even if they think
they want to get aboard,

1254
00:55:38,551 --> 00:55:40,903
that thing that allows you

1255
00:55:40,937 --> 00:55:42,938
to ladle out benediction

1256
00:55:42,989 --> 00:55:44,990
on the heads of strangers

1257
00:55:45,025 --> 00:55:47,076
instead of curses.

1258
00:55:47,110 --> 00:55:49,111
And it's all one thing.

1259
00:55:49,162 --> 00:55:52,297
And it ain't but one thing, just one.

1260
00:55:52,332 --> 00:55:53,866
And that would be Jesus.

1261
00:55:53,900 --> 00:55:57,036
I got to think about how
to answer that.

1262
00:56:02,792 --> 00:56:05,794
Maybe one more heresy won't hurt you.

1263
00:56:05,845 --> 00:56:08,881
Pretty loaded up on them already.

1264
00:56:08,915 --> 00:56:11,467
Here's what I would say.

1265
00:56:11,518 --> 00:56:12,684
I would say--

1266
00:56:12,719 --> 00:56:14,586
Mmm!

1267
00:56:14,604 --> 00:56:16,755
I would say

1268
00:56:16,773 --> 00:56:19,224
that thing we're
talking about is Jesus,

1269
00:56:19,258 --> 00:56:21,060
but Jesus as understood

1270
00:56:21,094 --> 00:56:23,529
as that gold at the bottom
of the mine.

1271
00:56:23,563 --> 00:56:25,781
He could not come down here

1272
00:56:25,815 --> 00:56:27,933
and assume the shape of a man

1273
00:56:27,951 --> 00:56:31,653
and if that form was not done
shaped to accommodate him.

1274
00:56:31,704 --> 00:56:34,289
And if I said ain't no way for
Jesus to be every man

1275
00:56:34,324 --> 00:56:35,991
without every man being Jesus,

1276
00:56:36,042 --> 00:56:38,944
well now, I think that would be
a pretty big heresy.

1277
00:56:38,962 --> 00:56:41,046
But that's all right.
It ain't as big a heresy

1278
00:56:41,081 --> 00:56:44,049
as saying like man ain't
no different from a rock,

1279
00:56:44,084 --> 00:56:46,468
which is how I see your point of view.

1280
00:56:46,503 --> 00:56:48,954
It's not my point of view. I believe
in the primacy of the intellect.

1281
00:56:48,972 --> 00:56:50,622
Mm, and what's that word?

1282
00:56:50,640 --> 00:56:53,392
Primacy? It means first.
It means what you put first.

1283
00:56:53,426 --> 00:56:56,311
And that would be intellect?

1284
00:56:56,346 --> 00:56:57,896
Yes.

1285
00:56:57,931 --> 00:57:00,015
Well, what about the primacy of
the Sunset Limited?

1286
00:57:00,066 --> 00:57:01,600
Yes, that too.

1287
00:57:01,634 --> 00:57:04,937
But not the primacy of the people
waiting on a later train?

1288
00:57:04,971 --> 00:57:07,773
No, no primacy there.

1289
00:57:07,807 --> 00:57:11,160
Hmm.

1290
00:57:11,194 --> 00:57:13,612
You tough, Professor.

1291
00:57:13,646 --> 00:57:16,498
You tough.

1292
00:57:19,452 --> 00:57:22,254
You see yourself as a questioner.

1293
00:57:22,288 --> 00:57:25,324
But about that, I got my doubts.

1294
00:57:25,358 --> 00:57:29,344
The quest of your life is your quest.

1295
00:57:29,379 --> 00:57:31,546
And you're on the road that you laid.

1296
00:57:31,548 --> 00:57:34,967
And that fact alone might be all the
reason you need for sticking to it.

1297
00:57:35,001 --> 00:57:38,137
As long as you're on that road,
you can't get lost.

1298
00:57:38,171 --> 00:57:40,672
I'm not sure I understand
what you're saying.

1299
00:57:40,690 --> 00:57:43,308
Oh, I got my doubts about
you not understanding

1300
00:57:43,342 --> 00:57:45,677
either anything I say, Professor.

1301
00:57:45,950 --> 00:57:50,983
I'm gonna say grace. Lord,
we thank you for this food

1302
00:57:51,017 --> 00:57:54,236
and for the many blessings
we have received from your hand.

1303
00:57:54,287 --> 00:57:55,663
We thank you for the life
of the Professor

1304
00:57:55,664 --> 00:57:56,889
which you have returned to us

1305
00:57:57,021 --> 00:58:00,232
and ask that you would look after
him 'cause we need him.

1306
00:58:01,000 --> 00:58:02,213
I don't know why we need him.

1307
00:58:03,261 --> 00:58:04,362
I just know we do.

1308
00:58:04,380 --> 00:58:06,999
Amen.

1309
00:58:07,033 --> 00:58:09,051
Tell me how you like this.

1310
00:58:09,085 --> 00:58:14,973
It looks good.

1311
00:58:15,008 --> 00:58:16,592
This is good.

1312
00:58:19,729 --> 00:58:22,181
This is very good.

1313
00:58:22,215 --> 00:58:24,349
Supposed to be good.
It's soul food, my man.

1314
00:58:24,383 --> 00:58:26,602
It's got what in it? Molasses?

1315
00:58:26,653 --> 00:58:28,437
- Mm, you a chef, Professor?
- Not really.

1316
00:58:28,488 --> 00:58:29,905
- But some?
- Some, yes.

1317
00:58:29,939 --> 00:58:33,242
Bananas, of course. Mangos?

1318
00:58:33,276 --> 00:58:36,394
- Got a mango or two in it, rutabagas.
- Rutabagas?

1319
00:58:36,412 --> 00:58:38,614
Rutabagas. Them's hard to find.

1320
00:58:38,665 --> 00:58:40,616
It's very good.

1321
00:58:40,667 --> 00:58:43,835
You know, it gets better
after a day or two.

1322
00:58:43,870 --> 00:58:45,754
I just fixed this last night.

1323
00:58:45,788 --> 00:58:48,573
You gotta heat it up a few times
to get the flavors right.

1324
00:58:48,591 --> 00:58:49,708
Like chili.

1325
00:58:49,742 --> 00:58:51,510
Like chili. Yeah, that's right.

1326
00:58:51,544 --> 00:58:53,545
You know where I learned to fix this?

1327
00:58:53,579 --> 00:58:55,080
- In Louisiana?
- Mm-mm.

1328
00:58:55,098 --> 00:58:57,716
Right here in the ghettos
of New York City.

1329
00:58:57,750 --> 00:59:01,386
There's a lot of different
influences in a dish like this.

1330
00:59:01,420 --> 00:59:03,222
Many parts of the world
in that pot over yonder,

1331
00:59:03,256 --> 00:59:05,307
a lot of different countries,
different people.

1332
00:59:05,358 --> 00:59:06,975
Any white people?

1333
00:59:07,026 --> 00:59:08,560
Not if you can help it.

1334
00:59:08,562 --> 00:59:09,811
Really...

1335
00:59:09,862 --> 00:59:11,697
I'm just messing with you, Professor,

1336
00:59:11,731 --> 00:59:13,431
just messing with you.

1337
00:59:13,449 --> 00:59:15,450
You know them chefs
in them uptown restaurants?

1338
00:59:15,485 --> 00:59:17,986
- Not personally, no.
- You know what they like to fix?

1339
00:59:18,037 --> 00:59:19,571
- No.
- Sweetbreads,

1340
00:59:19,606 --> 00:59:22,274
brains, tripe, all that shit don't
nobody like to eat.

1341
00:59:22,308 --> 00:59:23,775
You know why that is?

1342
00:59:23,777 --> 00:59:26,444
Because it's a challenge.
You have to innovate.

1343
00:59:26,462 --> 00:59:28,163
You're pretty smart for a honky.

1344
00:59:28,214 --> 00:59:29,798
That's right. It's a challenge.

1345
00:59:29,832 --> 00:59:31,883
The stuff they fix--, dead cheap.

1346
00:59:31,918 --> 00:59:34,303
Most folks throw it out,
give it to the cat.

1347
00:59:34,337 --> 00:59:36,922
But poor folks--
don't throw thing out.

1348
00:59:36,956 --> 00:59:38,290
I guess that's right.

1349
00:59:38,308 --> 00:59:40,625
Anybody can make a Porterhouse
steak taste good.

1350
00:59:40,643 --> 00:59:42,477
But if you can't buy
no Porterhouse steak

1351
00:59:42,512 --> 00:59:45,130
and you still wants to eat something
that tastes good, what do you do then?

1352
00:59:45,164 --> 00:59:46,865
- Innovate!
- Innovate, that's right...

1353
00:59:46,899 --> 00:59:48,600
and who is it that's got to innovate?

1354
00:59:48,634 --> 00:59:51,303
- Poor people.
- That's right, poor people.

1355
00:59:51,321 --> 00:59:53,739
You fixing to get an A+.

1356
00:59:53,773 --> 00:59:55,907
So how you like this?

1357
00:59:55,942 --> 00:59:58,410
It's very good.

1358
01:00:02,615 --> 01:00:05,701
You don't think a glass of wine
would have been good with this?

1359
01:00:05,752 --> 01:00:07,536
I do think a glass of wine
would have been good with it.

1360
01:00:07,587 --> 01:00:09,071
But you wouldn't drink it.

1361
01:00:09,105 --> 01:00:11,923
Oh, I might. Just one glass.

1362
01:00:11,958 --> 01:00:14,710
Jesus drank wine.
He and his disciples.

1363
01:00:14,761 --> 01:00:17,296
Yes, he did. Says so
right here in the Bible.

1364
01:00:17,298 --> 01:00:19,631
Of course it don't say nothing about
him having it in the toilet.

1365
01:00:19,665 --> 01:00:21,600
Is that really a favorite
hiding place?

1366
01:00:21,634 --> 01:00:23,602
Oh yeah. I've known drunks

1367
01:00:23,636 --> 01:00:25,637
to lift the lids off toilets

1368
01:00:25,671 --> 01:00:27,606
in strange places
just on the off chance.

1369
01:00:27,616 --> 01:00:29,898
- Is that true?
- No, could be though.

1370
01:00:29,900 --> 01:00:31,288
Won't surprised me none.

1371
01:00:34,364 --> 01:00:36,531
What is the worst thing you ever did?

1372
01:00:40,703 --> 01:00:43,021
- More jailhouse stories?
- Why not?

1373
01:00:43,039 --> 01:00:44,823
Which why not you want to hear?

1374
01:00:44,857 --> 01:00:46,592
Is bludgeoning the man in
the prison cafeteria

1375
01:00:46,593 --> 01:00:48,327
the worst thing you ever did?

1376
01:00:48,361 --> 01:00:49,878
No, it ain't.

1377
01:00:49,912 --> 01:00:52,214
It isn't? What's the worst?

1378
01:00:52,248 --> 01:00:54,299
- I ain't gonna tell you.
- Why not?

1379
01:00:54,334 --> 01:00:57,135
'Cause you'll jump up,
run out the door hollering.

1380
01:00:57,170 --> 01:00:58,703
It must be pretty bad.

1381
01:00:58,721 --> 01:01:00,722
It is.That's why I ain't telling you.

1382
01:01:00,757 --> 01:01:03,842
- Now, I'm afraid to ask.
- No, you ain't.

1383
01:01:03,876 --> 01:01:05,293
Did you ever tell anyone?

1384
01:01:05,328 --> 01:01:07,712
Yeah.

1385
01:01:07,730 --> 01:01:09,748
It wouldn't leave me alone.

1386
01:01:09,782 --> 01:01:11,233
Who did you tell it to?

1387
01:01:11,267 --> 01:01:13,352
I told it to a man of God
who was my friend.

1388
01:01:13,386 --> 01:01:15,921
- What did he say?
- He didn't say a word.

1389
01:01:15,955 --> 01:01:18,740
But you're not curious about the
worst thing I ever did.

1390
01:01:19,311 --> 01:01:19,933
Yeah, I am.

1391
01:01:20,559 --> 01:01:22,661
- But you won't ask me what it is?
- I don't have to.

1392
01:01:22,804 --> 01:01:25,851
- Why is that?
- 'Cause I was there. I've seen it.

1393
01:01:27,094 --> 01:01:29,234
Well, I might have a different view.

1394
01:01:29,252 --> 01:01:31,470
Yeah, you might.

1395
01:01:32,939 --> 01:01:34,423
You want some more?

1396
01:01:34,457 --> 01:01:36,758
No, I'm stuffed.

1397
01:01:36,793 --> 01:01:38,176
Hungrier than you thought?

1398
01:01:38,211 --> 01:01:39,544
Yes, I was.

1399
01:01:39,578 --> 01:01:40,912
Good.

1400
01:01:50,640 --> 01:01:52,607
Is this some kind of test
of your faith?

1401
01:01:52,642 --> 01:01:55,143
- What, you?
- Me, yes.

1402
01:01:55,194 --> 01:01:58,397
It ain't my faith you're testing.

1403
01:01:58,431 --> 01:02:01,116
You see everything in black and white.

1404
01:02:01,150 --> 01:02:02,868
It is black and white.

1405
01:02:05,604 --> 01:02:07,572
You be surprised how little
time I spend

1406
01:02:07,606 --> 01:02:08,907
trying to understand the world.

1407
01:02:08,941 --> 01:02:11,076
You try to understand God.

1408
01:02:11,110 --> 01:02:13,044
No, I don't.

1409
01:02:13,079 --> 01:02:15,347
I tried to understand what
he wants from me.

1410
01:02:15,381 --> 01:02:17,048
And that's everything you need?

1411
01:02:17,083 --> 01:02:20,218
If God ain't everything you need,

1412
01:02:20,253 --> 01:02:22,587
then you in a world of trouble.

1413
01:02:22,621 --> 01:02:24,589
I don't make a move without Jesus.

1414
01:02:24,623 --> 01:02:26,308
When I get up in the morning,

1415
01:02:26,342 --> 01:02:28,894
I try to grab a hold to his belt.

1416
01:02:28,928 --> 01:02:32,314
Sometime I go into a manual override.

1417
01:02:32,348 --> 01:02:33,631
I catch myself.

1418
01:02:33,649 --> 01:02:35,901
- Manual override?
- Yeah, you like that?

1419
01:02:35,935 --> 01:02:38,570
- It's okay.
- I thought it was pretty good.

1420
01:02:38,604 --> 01:02:41,156
So you come to the end of your rope

1421
01:02:41,190 --> 01:02:43,942
and you admit defeat and
you're in despair.

1422
01:02:43,976 --> 01:02:47,496
And in this state you seize upon this,
whatever it is,

1423
01:02:47,530 --> 01:02:49,448
that has neither sense nor substance,

1424
01:02:49,482 --> 01:02:53,318
and you grab hold of it
and you hang on for dear life.

1425
01:02:53,336 --> 01:02:54,652
Is that a fair portrayal?

1426
01:02:54,670 --> 01:02:56,171
That might be one way to say it.

1427
01:02:56,205 --> 01:02:58,957
It doesn't make any sense.

1428
01:02:58,991 --> 01:03:00,842
Well, I thought when we was
talking earlier

1429
01:03:00,877 --> 01:03:03,011
you was saying that there were
none of it that made no sense--

1430
01:03:03,045 --> 01:03:05,197
talking about the history
of the world and some such.

1431
01:03:05,231 --> 01:03:07,349
Well, it doesn't on a larger scale.

1432
01:03:07,383 --> 01:03:10,135
But what you're telling me
is not a view of things.

1433
01:03:10,169 --> 01:03:12,637
It's a view of one thing
and I find it nonsensical.

1434
01:03:12,671 --> 01:03:14,606
What would you do
if Jesus was to speak to you?

1435
01:03:14,640 --> 01:03:16,725
Do you imagine that he might?

1436
01:03:16,776 --> 01:03:18,343
No, I don't! But I don't know.

1437
01:03:18,361 --> 01:03:20,312
I'm not virtuous enough.

1438
01:03:20,346 --> 01:03:22,531
No, Professor,
it ain't nothing like that.

1439
01:03:22,565 --> 01:03:24,282
You ain't got to be virtuous.

1440
01:03:24,317 --> 01:03:26,234
You just has to be quiet.

1441
01:03:26,285 --> 01:03:28,537
Now I can't speak for the lord,

1442
01:03:28,571 --> 01:03:30,539
but it has been my experience

1443
01:03:30,573 --> 01:03:33,875
that he will talk to
anybody who will listen.

1444
01:03:33,910 --> 01:03:35,744
You damn sure ain't got to be virtous.

1445
01:03:35,795 --> 01:03:37,829
If I heard God talking to me,

1446
01:03:37,863 --> 01:03:39,998
I would be ready for you
to take me up to Bellevue,

1447
01:03:40,032 --> 01:03:41,249
as you suggested.

1448
01:03:41,300 --> 01:03:42,884
What if what he said made sense?

1449
01:03:42,919 --> 01:03:45,887
Wouldn't make any difference.
Craziness is craziness.

1450
01:03:45,902 --> 01:03:46,851
Don't make no difference
if it makes sense?

1451
01:03:46,852 --> 01:03:47,576
No.

1452
01:03:49,141 --> 01:03:52,394
Well, that's about as big a case
of the primacy as I ever heard.

1453
01:03:52,428 --> 01:03:54,563
I've always gone my own way.

1454
01:03:54,597 --> 01:03:56,681
<i>Ich kann nicht anders</i>

1455
01:03:56,715 --> 01:03:57,849
What's that you talking?

1456
01:03:57,883 --> 01:04:00,268
- It's German.
- You talk German?

1457
01:04:00,319 --> 01:04:02,153
Not really. A little.
It's a quotation.

1458
01:04:02,188 --> 01:04:04,673
Ah well, it didn't do them Germans
much good though, did it?

1459
01:04:04,707 --> 01:04:06,658
I don't know.
The Germans contributed

1460
01:04:06,692 --> 01:04:09,661
a great deal to civilization
before Hitler.

1461
01:04:09,695 --> 01:04:11,830
And then they contributed Hitler.

1462
01:04:11,864 --> 01:04:13,782
Yeah, if you like.

1463
01:04:13,833 --> 01:04:17,369
I gather it to be your belief

1464
01:04:17,403 --> 01:04:20,622
that culture tends to contribute
to human misery,

1465
01:04:20,673 --> 01:04:24,676
that the more one knows,
the unhappier one is likely to be.

1466
01:04:24,710 --> 01:04:27,345
As in the case of certain parties
known to us.

1467
01:04:27,380 --> 01:04:29,080
In the case.

1468
01:04:29,098 --> 01:04:30,599
Well, I don't believe I said that.

1469
01:04:30,633 --> 01:04:32,467
I think maybe it was you who said it.

1470
01:04:32,518 --> 01:04:34,102
- I never said it.
- Do you believe it?

1471
01:04:34,136 --> 01:04:35,470
- No.
- No?

1472
01:04:35,521 --> 01:04:37,188
I don't know. It could be true.

1473
01:04:37,223 --> 01:04:39,757
Well, why is that?
That don't seem right, do it?

1474
01:04:39,775 --> 01:04:42,193
It's the first thing in
that book there--

1475
01:04:42,228 --> 01:04:44,062
The Garden of Eden.

1476
01:04:44,096 --> 01:04:46,948
Knowledge is destructive to
the spirit, destructive to goodness.

1477
01:04:46,983 --> 01:04:48,613
I thought you ain't read that book.

1478
01:04:48,623 --> 01:04:49,723
Everybody knows that story.

1479
01:04:49,733 --> 01:04:51,176
It's probably the most famous
story in there.

1480
01:04:51,505 --> 01:04:52,800
Hmm, why you think that is?

1481
01:04:52,872 --> 01:04:55,957
I suppose from the God's point
of view, all knowledge is vanity.

1482
01:04:55,992 --> 01:04:58,610
Or maybe it just gives people

1483
01:04:58,628 --> 01:05:01,613
the unhealthy illusion that
they can outwit the devil.

1484
01:05:01,631 --> 01:05:04,924
Damn, Professor.
Where was you when I needed you?

1485
01:05:05,084 --> 01:05:07,619
You'd better be careful.
You see where it's gotten me.

1486
01:05:07,637 --> 01:05:10,955
Oh, I see. That's the topic
of discussion here.

1487
01:05:13,643 --> 01:05:16,895
The darker picture
is always the correct one.

1488
01:05:16,929 --> 01:05:18,763
When you read the history of the world

1489
01:05:18,797 --> 01:05:22,300
you are reading a saga of
bloodshed and greed and folly

1490
01:05:22,318 --> 01:05:25,136
the import of which
is impossible to ignore.

1491
01:05:25,154 --> 01:05:28,156
And yet we imagine

1492
01:05:28,190 --> 01:05:30,942
that the future will
somehow be different.

1493
01:05:30,976 --> 01:05:33,144
I've no idea why we are
even still here.

1494
01:05:33,162 --> 01:05:35,497
In all probability we won't
be here much longer.

1495
01:05:35,531 --> 01:05:38,316
Them's some pretty
powerful words, Professor.

1496
01:05:38,334 --> 01:05:40,251
That's what's in your
heart though, ain't it?

1497
01:05:40,286 --> 01:05:42,837
Yes.

1498
01:05:42,872 --> 01:05:45,123
All right, well, I can
relate to them thoughts.

1499
01:05:45,157 --> 01:05:47,008
- You can?
- Sure I can.

1500
01:05:47,043 --> 01:05:48,460
That surprises me.

1501
01:05:48,494 --> 01:05:51,463
But you could be wrong, you know.

1502
01:05:51,497 --> 01:05:52,931
I don't think so.

1503
01:05:52,965 --> 01:05:55,183
That ain't something you have
a lot of in your life, is it?

1504
01:05:55,217 --> 01:05:56,718
- What isn't?
- Being wrong.

1505
01:05:56,769 --> 01:06:01,005
- I admit it when I'm wrong.
- Oh, I don't know about that.

1506
01:06:01,023 --> 01:06:03,525
Well, you're entitled to
your own opinion.

1507
01:06:08,748 --> 01:06:10,848
Oh yeah, here it is.

1508
01:06:10,866 --> 01:06:12,467
Story on page 3.

1509
01:06:12,501 --> 01:06:17,122
Ah. "Friends reported

1510
01:06:17,156 --> 01:06:20,325
that the man had ignored all advice

1511
01:06:20,359 --> 01:06:22,661
and stated that he intended

1512
01:06:22,695 --> 01:06:24,996
to pursue his own course."

1513
01:06:25,030 --> 01:06:27,666
A close confidant stated

1514
01:06:27,700 --> 01:06:30,034
and this here is in quotations--

1515
01:06:30,052 --> 01:06:34,806
"you couldn't tell that
son of a bitch nothing."

1516
01:06:34,840 --> 01:06:37,258
Now can you say that in the paper--

1517
01:06:37,309 --> 01:06:39,394
"Son of a bitch"?

1518
01:06:44,383 --> 01:06:47,902
"Blood spattered spectators at
the 155th street station--

1519
01:06:47,937 --> 01:06:51,606
continued on page four--"

1520
01:06:51,657 --> 01:06:54,659
155th street station--

1521
01:06:54,694 --> 01:06:58,563
"who were interviewed
at the scene said

1522
01:06:58,581 --> 01:07:01,399
that the man's last words

1523
01:07:01,417 --> 01:07:06,121
as he hurtled toward the oncoming
commuter train were,

1524
01:07:06,407 --> 01:07:09,821
"I am right."

1525
01:07:15,300 --> 01:07:16,019
Very funny.

1526
01:07:18,934 --> 01:07:22,887
Oh, Professor, you an amazing man.

1527
01:07:22,921 --> 01:07:24,856
I'm glad you find me entertaining.

1528
01:07:24,890 --> 01:07:27,275
- Oh, I think you're pretty special.
- I don't think I'm special.

1529
01:07:27,309 --> 01:07:29,427
- You don't?
- No, I don't.

1530
01:07:29,445 --> 01:07:31,730
You don't think you view
those other commuters

1531
01:07:31,764 --> 01:07:33,264
from a certain height?

1532
01:07:33,282 --> 01:07:36,201
I view those other commuters
as fellow occupants

1533
01:07:36,235 --> 01:07:38,436
of the same abyssal pit
in which I find myself.

1534
01:07:38,454 --> 01:07:40,371
And if they see it
as something different,

1535
01:07:40,406 --> 01:07:42,624
I don't know how that
makes me special.

1536
01:07:42,658 --> 01:07:43,892
Mm.

1537
01:07:48,764 --> 01:07:50,665
I hear what you're saying.

1538
01:07:50,716 --> 01:07:53,668
But still I keep coming back
to these commuters,

1539
01:07:53,719 --> 01:07:56,337
them that's waiting on the sunset.

1540
01:07:56,388 --> 01:07:58,590
I can't help but think there's got
to be something

1541
01:07:58,624 --> 01:08:01,125
a little special about their selves.

1542
01:08:01,143 --> 01:08:04,462
I mean, they got to be in a deeper pit

1543
01:08:04,480 --> 01:08:07,482
than us day travelers--
deeper and darker.

1544
01:08:07,516 --> 01:08:09,267
I ain't saying they
down as deep as you,

1545
01:08:09,301 --> 01:08:11,436
- but pretty deep maybe.
- So?

1546
01:08:11,470 --> 01:08:13,822
So maybe they your brothers

1547
01:08:13,856 --> 01:08:17,692
in self-destruction and despair.

1548
01:08:17,743 --> 01:08:19,694
I thought misery loved company.

1549
01:08:19,745 --> 01:08:21,996
I'm sure I don't know.

1550
01:08:22,031 --> 01:08:25,500
Let me take a shot at it.

1551
01:08:25,534 --> 01:08:27,502
What I think is

1552
01:08:27,536 --> 01:08:30,088
that you got better reasons than them.

1553
01:08:30,122 --> 01:08:33,124
See, their reasons is that they
just don't like it here,

1554
01:08:33,158 --> 01:08:35,927
but yours says what it is not to like

1555
01:08:35,961 --> 01:08:38,296
and why not to like it.

1556
01:08:38,330 --> 01:08:42,050
You got more intelligent reasons,
more elegant reasons.

1557
01:08:42,101 --> 01:08:43,935
- You making fun of me?
- No, I ain't.

1558
01:08:43,969 --> 01:08:46,387
- But you think I'm full of shit?
- No, I don't think that.

1559
01:08:46,438 --> 01:08:49,691
But I don't doubt what it's possible
to die from being full of shit.

1560
01:08:49,725 --> 01:08:51,676
But I don't think that's what we're
looking at here.

1561
01:08:51,694 --> 01:08:53,311
What do you think we're looking at?

1562
01:08:53,345 --> 01:08:57,482
I don't know.
You got me in uncharted territory.

1563
01:08:57,516 --> 01:09:00,368
You got these world-class reasons

1564
01:09:00,402 --> 01:09:03,071
for taking the limited

1565
01:09:03,122 --> 01:09:05,039
where these other dudes--
all they got is,

1566
01:09:05,074 --> 01:09:07,075
well, maybe they just don't feel good.

1567
01:09:07,126 --> 01:09:09,961
It might could be that you ain't even
all that unhappy.

1568
01:09:09,995 --> 01:09:12,330
You think my education is driving
me to suicide.

1569
01:09:12,364 --> 01:09:14,666
No, I'm just posing the question.

1570
01:09:14,700 --> 01:09:17,001
Well, wait a minute 'fore you answer.

1571
01:09:24,176 --> 01:09:26,845
I think that's the most ridiculous
thing I ever heard.

1572
01:09:30,232 --> 01:09:32,734
"I think that's the most ridiculous
thing I ever heard."

1573
01:09:32,768 --> 01:09:34,819
Very clever. What's the point?

1574
01:09:34,854 --> 01:09:38,072
The light is all around you

1575
01:09:38,107 --> 01:09:39,991
but you don't see nothing but shadow.

1576
01:09:40,025 --> 01:09:41,659
And you're the one causing it.

1577
01:09:41,694 --> 01:09:44,028
It's you. You're the shadow.

1578
01:09:44,062 --> 01:09:45,363
That's the point.

1579
01:09:45,397 --> 01:09:46,948
Well, I don't have your faith.

1580
01:09:46,999 --> 01:09:48,733
Why don't we just leave it at that?

1581
01:09:48,751 --> 01:09:50,835
You ain't never thought
about just starting over?

1582
01:09:50,870 --> 01:09:52,837
I did at one time. I don't anymore.

1583
01:09:52,872 --> 01:09:55,340
Well, maybe faith is just a case

1584
01:09:55,374 --> 01:09:58,193
of not having nothing else left.

1585
01:09:58,227 --> 01:10:02,914
Well, I do have something else.

1586
01:10:02,932 --> 01:10:05,884
Well, why don't you just
keep that in reserve?

1587
01:10:05,918 --> 01:10:09,520
Just take a shot at starting over.

1588
01:10:09,555 --> 01:10:12,140
I don't mean starting again.
Everybody's done that.

1589
01:10:12,191 --> 01:10:15,476
Over means over, just walk away.

1590
01:10:15,527 --> 01:10:19,530
I mean everything you are

1591
01:10:19,565 --> 01:10:22,483
and everything you have
and everything you done

1592
01:10:22,534 --> 01:10:25,403
has brought you at last
to the bottom of a whisky bottle

1593
01:10:25,437 --> 01:10:28,456
or bought you a one-way ticket
on the Sunset Limited,

1594
01:10:28,490 --> 01:10:32,493
you can't give me one good reason
on God's green earth

1595
01:10:32,544 --> 01:10:36,481
for salvaging none of it,
'cause there ain't none.

1596
01:10:36,515 --> 01:10:38,466
If you can bring yourself

1597
01:10:38,500 --> 01:10:42,119
to close the door on all of that,

1598
01:10:42,137 --> 01:10:45,623
it will be cold and it will be lonely

1599
01:10:45,641 --> 01:10:49,627
and there will be
a fierce wind blowing.

1600
01:10:49,645 --> 01:10:52,764
But you don't say nothing.

1601
01:10:52,798 --> 01:10:56,133
You just turn your collar up

1602
01:10:56,151 --> 01:10:57,769
and keep walking.

1603
01:10:57,803 --> 01:11:01,406
I can't. I can't.

1604
01:11:06,019 --> 01:11:07,870
- You want some more coffee?
- No, thank you.

1605
01:11:12,668 --> 01:11:15,169
Why do you think it is
folks take their own life?

1606
01:11:15,204 --> 01:11:17,338
I don't know. Different reasons.

1607
01:11:17,340 --> 01:11:19,757
Is there anything these different
reasons has got in common?

1608
01:11:19,792 --> 01:11:21,759
I can't speak for others.

1609
01:11:21,794 --> 01:11:23,761
My own reasons center around

1610
01:11:23,796 --> 01:11:25,763
a gradual loss of make-believe,

1611
01:11:25,798 --> 01:11:28,349
a gradual enlightenment
as to the nature

1612
01:11:28,384 --> 01:11:31,352
of reality, of the world.

1613
01:11:31,387 --> 01:11:33,838
- Them worldly reasons.
- If you like.

1614
01:11:33,872 --> 01:11:36,841
- Them elegant reasons.
- That was your description.

1615
01:11:36,859 --> 01:11:38,676
You ain't disagreed with it.

1616
01:11:38,711 --> 01:11:42,296
It's them reasons that your brother
don't know nothing about

1617
01:11:42,298 --> 01:11:45,984
hanging from his necktie from
a steampipe down in the basement.

1618
01:11:46,018 --> 01:11:48,352
He's got his own dumbass reasons

1619
01:11:48,370 --> 01:11:51,489
but if we could find a way
to educate him

1620
01:11:51,523 --> 01:11:53,491
to them more elegant reasons

1621
01:11:53,525 --> 01:11:56,294
and make them available
to him and his buddies,

1622
01:11:56,328 --> 01:11:58,246
then there'd be a lot
of folk out there

1623
01:11:58,297 --> 01:12:01,466
could off themselves with more
joy in their hearts. What you think?

1624
01:12:01,500 --> 01:12:03,751
Now I know you' being facetious.

1625
01:12:03,802 --> 01:12:08,923
I think you're right. I think you
done finally drove me to it.

1626
01:12:08,957 --> 01:12:12,677
Professor done gone
to laying mm-hmms on me.

1627
01:12:12,711 --> 01:12:14,045
I guess I'd better watch my step.

1628
01:12:14,079 --> 01:12:15,847
You better had.
I might be warming up the trick bag.

1629
01:12:15,881 --> 01:12:19,400
You think your reasons
is about the world,

1630
01:12:19,435 --> 01:12:21,486
and his is mostly about him.

1631
01:12:21,520 --> 01:12:23,771
I think that's probably true.

1632
01:12:23,822 --> 01:12:27,224
I think I see a different truth
sitting across the table from me.

1633
01:12:27,242 --> 01:12:28,760
Which is?

1634
01:12:28,794 --> 01:12:31,446
That you must
love your brother or die.

1635
01:12:31,497 --> 01:12:33,164
I don't know what that means.

1636
01:12:33,198 --> 01:12:36,000
It's another world
from anything I know.

1637
01:12:36,035 --> 01:12:38,786
Well, well, tell me how your world is.

1638
01:12:38,837 --> 01:12:40,121
You don't want to hear it.

1639
01:12:40,172 --> 01:12:42,173
- Sure I do.
- I don't think so.

1640
01:12:45,344 --> 01:12:47,261
All right., go ahead.

1641
01:12:47,296 --> 01:12:50,181
It's that the world is basically
a forced labor camp

1642
01:12:50,215 --> 01:12:52,416
from which the workers,
perfectly innocent,

1643
01:12:52,434 --> 01:12:54,769
are led forth by lottery,
a few each day,

1644
01:12:54,803 --> 01:12:56,754
to be executed.

1645
01:12:56,772 --> 01:12:59,123
I don't think that's
just the way I see it.

1646
01:12:59,158 --> 01:13:01,109
I think that's the way it is.

1647
01:13:01,143 --> 01:13:03,728
Are there alternative views? Yes.

1648
01:13:03,762 --> 01:13:06,263
Will any of them stand close scrutiny?

1649
01:13:06,281 --> 01:13:07,899
No.

1650
01:13:08,817 --> 01:13:11,452
So do you want to take a look

1651
01:13:11,487 --> 01:13:14,238
at that train schedule again?

1652
01:13:21,830 --> 01:13:24,749
If this ain't the life you wanted,
what was?

1653
01:13:24,783 --> 01:13:27,218
I don't know. Not this.

1654
01:13:27,252 --> 01:13:30,288
Are you living the life
you had planned?

1655
01:13:30,322 --> 01:13:31,722
No, it ain't.

1656
01:13:31,757 --> 01:13:34,125
But I got what I needed
instead of what I wanted.

1657
01:13:34,143 --> 01:13:36,160
Sometimes that's the best
kind of luck to have.

1658
01:13:36,195 --> 01:13:38,096
Yeah, well..

1659
01:13:38,130 --> 01:13:42,733
You can't compare your life to mine
though, can you?

1660
01:13:42,768 --> 01:13:46,337
No, I can't.

1661
01:13:46,371 --> 01:13:48,106
I just can't.

1662
01:13:48,140 --> 01:13:52,076
Oh, I'm sorry. I should go.

1663
01:13:52,111 --> 01:13:54,829
- You don't have to go.
- I've offended you.

1664
01:13:54,863 --> 01:13:56,480
Look, my hide is thicker than that.

1665
01:13:56,498 --> 01:13:58,366
Don't go. You ain't hurt my feelings.

1666
01:13:58,417 --> 01:14:00,655
I know you think I should be thankful,
I'm sorry not to be.

1667
01:14:00,848 --> 01:14:02,630
- No, there ain't no such thing.
- I should go--

1668
01:14:02,704 --> 01:14:04,071
I'm digging a dry hole, ain't I?

1669
01:14:04,106 --> 01:14:05,623
I admire your persistence.

1670
01:14:05,657 --> 01:14:08,292
What can I do to get you
to just stay, just a bit?

1671
01:14:08,326 --> 01:14:11,345
Why? Are you hoping that if I stay
long enough God might talk to me?

1672
01:14:11,380 --> 01:14:13,548
No, I'm hoping he'll speak to me.

1673
01:14:13,599 --> 01:14:17,218
I know you think I at least owe you
a little more of my time.

1674
01:14:17,220 --> 01:14:19,053
I know I'm ungrateful.

1675
01:14:19,055 --> 01:14:21,572
But ingratitude is not the same

1676
01:14:21,607 --> 01:14:25,143
to a spiritual bankrupt,
that it is to a man of God.

1677
01:14:25,177 --> 01:14:26,811
I don't think you owe me
nothing, Professor.

1678
01:14:26,845 --> 01:14:28,345
- You really think that?
- Yeah, I do.

1679
01:14:28,363 --> 01:14:30,781
Well, you're very kind. And I wish
there was something I could do

1680
01:14:30,816 --> 01:14:32,483
to repay you, but there isn't.

1681
01:14:32,517 --> 01:14:35,019
So why don't we just say goodbye?
You can get on with your life.

1682
01:14:35,037 --> 01:14:37,521
Suppose--

1683
01:14:37,555 --> 01:14:39,574
Suppose I've to tell you,
you could wake up tomorrow

1684
01:14:39,625 --> 01:14:41,659
and you wouldn't want to be jumping
in front of no train.

1685
01:14:41,693 --> 01:14:43,511
Suppose all you had to do was ask.
Would you do it?

1686
01:14:43,545 --> 01:14:46,047
That just depends on what I would
have to give up.

1687
01:14:46,081 --> 01:14:48,166
See, I started to write that down
on a piece of paper.

1688
01:14:48,200 --> 01:14:49,634
What is it you think I'm
holding on to?

1689
01:14:49,668 --> 01:14:51,002
I don't know!

1690
01:14:51,036 --> 01:14:53,804
What is it, the terminal commuter
cherishes

1691
01:14:53,806 --> 01:14:55,890
- that he would die for?
- I don't know.

1692
01:14:55,924 --> 01:14:58,795
No, no.

1693
01:14:59,478 --> 01:15:01,345
You don't.

1694
01:15:01,347 --> 01:15:03,214
You don't want to talk
to me no more, do you?

1695
01:15:03,232 --> 01:15:05,233
I thought you had a thick skin.

1696
01:15:05,267 --> 01:15:08,186
It is, but it ain't hide to the bone.

1697
01:15:08,220 --> 01:15:12,356
Why do you think there is something
that I won't give up?

1698
01:15:21,233 --> 01:15:26,478
I think, any man anxious to get
run over by a train

1699
01:15:26,505 --> 01:15:28,572
has got to have
something on his mind.

1700
01:15:28,590 --> 01:15:30,424
I mean most of us would just settle

1701
01:15:30,459 --> 01:15:32,576
for maybe a slap upside the head.

1702
01:15:32,594 --> 01:15:34,929
You say you don't care about nothing,

1703
01:15:34,963 --> 01:15:36,847
but I don't believe that.

1704
01:15:36,882 --> 01:15:39,600
I don't think death
is ever about nothing.

1705
01:15:39,635 --> 01:15:43,087
You asked me what I think
you're holding on to

1706
01:15:43,105 --> 01:15:45,723
and I got to say I don't know.

1707
01:15:45,757 --> 01:15:48,259
Or maybe I just don't have
the words to say it.

1708
01:15:48,277 --> 01:15:49,944
And maybe you know

1709
01:15:49,978 --> 01:15:52,196
but you just ain't telling.

1710
01:15:52,231 --> 01:15:54,148
What I believe is

1711
01:15:54,199 --> 01:15:56,317
that when you took
your celebrated leap,

1712
01:15:56,368 --> 01:15:58,069
you was taking it with you

1713
01:15:58,103 --> 01:16:00,071
and you was holding on to it,

1714
01:16:00,105 --> 01:16:03,457
holding on for grim death.

1715
01:16:04,793 --> 01:16:07,578
I'm just looking for
the words, Professor.

1716
01:16:07,612 --> 01:16:10,214
I'm looking for the words
'cause I know the words

1717
01:16:10,249 --> 01:16:12,917
is just the way to your heart.

1718
01:16:12,951 --> 01:16:15,086
Well, I can't help you.

1719
01:16:15,120 --> 01:16:16,721
Letting it all go

1720
01:16:16,755 --> 01:16:18,472
is the place I finally got to.

1721
01:16:18,507 --> 01:16:20,808
It took a lot of work to get there.
And if there's one thing

1722
01:16:20,842 --> 01:16:23,261
I would be unwilling to give up,
it is exactly that.

1723
01:16:23,295 --> 01:16:25,462
Is there another way you can say that?

1724
01:16:25,480 --> 01:16:28,516
The one thing I won't give up
is giving up.

1725
01:16:28,567 --> 01:16:30,484
I expect that to carry me through.

1726
01:16:30,519 --> 01:16:32,653
I'm depending on it.

1727
01:16:32,688 --> 01:16:34,655
The things I believe in

1728
01:16:34,690 --> 01:16:36,691
were very frail, as I've said.

1729
01:16:36,742 --> 01:16:38,909
They won't be around very long
and neither will I.

1730
01:16:38,944 --> 01:16:41,996
But I don't think that's really
the reason for my decision.

1731
01:16:42,030 --> 01:16:44,498
I think it goes deeper than that.

1732
01:16:44,533 --> 01:16:46,917
You can acclimate yourself to loss.

1733
01:16:46,952 --> 01:16:49,870
You have to. I mean...

1734
01:16:49,921 --> 01:16:51,488
You like music, right?

1735
01:16:51,506 --> 01:16:53,524
Yeah, yeah, I do.

1736
01:16:53,558 --> 01:16:56,660
Who is the greatest composer
that you know of?

1737
01:16:56,678 --> 01:16:58,662
John Coltrane, hands down.

1738
01:16:58,680 --> 01:17:00,381
Do you think his work
will last forever?

1739
01:17:00,415 --> 01:17:02,499
Well,

1740
01:17:02,517 --> 01:17:04,685
forever's a long time, Professor.

1741
01:17:04,720 --> 01:17:06,520
So I got to say no.

1742
01:17:06,555 --> 01:17:08,773
That doesn't mean
it's worthless, does it?

1743
01:17:08,807 --> 01:17:10,941
No, it don't.

1744
01:17:10,976 --> 01:17:14,278
You give up the world line by line.

1745
01:17:14,313 --> 01:17:17,365
You become an accomplice
to your own annihilation.

1746
01:17:17,399 --> 01:17:18,899
There's nothing you can do about it.

1747
01:17:18,934 --> 01:17:22,753
Everything you do closes a door
somewhere ahead of you.

1748
01:17:22,788 --> 01:17:26,190
Finally there's only one door left.

1749
01:17:26,208 --> 01:17:28,409
That's a dark world, Professor.

1750
01:17:28,460 --> 01:17:32,580
Maybe you just need to admit
that you're in over your head.

1751
01:17:32,631 --> 01:17:35,249
I do admit it, but that don't let
me off the hook.

1752
01:17:35,300 --> 01:17:38,369
I got no choice.

1753
01:17:38,387 --> 01:17:39,887
Okay.

1754
01:17:39,921 --> 01:17:42,873
Maybe you're right.

1755
01:17:42,891 --> 01:17:47,378
Well, here is my news, Reverend.

1756
01:17:47,396 --> 01:17:49,713
I long for the darkness.

1757
01:17:49,731 --> 01:17:52,149
I pray for death, real death.

1758
01:17:52,184 --> 01:17:54,902
And if I thought that in death I would
meet the people I knew in life,

1759
01:17:54,936 --> 01:17:57,554
I don't know what I would do,
that would be the ultimate horror,

1760
01:17:57,572 --> 01:17:59,523
the ultimate nightmare.
If I thought I was gonna

1761
01:17:59,557 --> 01:18:01,776
meet my mother again
and start at all over,

1762
01:18:01,827 --> 01:18:05,663
only this time without the prospect
of death to look forward to,

1763
01:18:05,697 --> 01:18:08,366
that would be the final nightmare,

1764
01:18:08,400 --> 01:18:10,401
Kafka on wheels.

1765
01:18:10,435 --> 01:18:12,903
Man, Ppressor. You don't want see
your own mama?

1766
01:18:12,938 --> 01:18:14,622
No, I don't.

1767
01:18:14,673 --> 01:18:18,075
I want the dead to be dead

1768
01:18:18,093 --> 01:18:20,044
forever.

1769
01:18:20,078 --> 01:18:22,079
I don't want to be one of them,

1770
01:18:22,097 --> 01:18:23,300
Except of course you can't
be one of them.

1771
01:18:23,301 --> 01:18:24,309
You can't be one of the dead

1772
01:18:24,310 --> 01:18:27,885
because that which, has no existence
can have no community.

1773
01:18:27,919 --> 01:18:30,688
No community.

1774
01:18:30,722 --> 01:18:32,756
My heart warms
just thinking about it--

1775
01:18:32,774 --> 01:18:35,276
blackness, aloneness,

1776
01:18:35,310 --> 01:18:39,113
silence, peace,

1777
01:18:39,147 --> 01:18:42,049
and all of it only a heartbeat away.

1778
01:18:45,270 --> 01:18:48,939
I don't regard my state of mind

1779
01:18:48,957 --> 01:18:51,575
as some pessimistic view of the world.

1780
01:18:51,609 --> 01:18:54,211
I regarded it as the world itself.

1781
01:18:54,246 --> 01:18:57,114
Evolution cannot avoid

1782
01:18:57,149 --> 01:18:59,166
bringing intelligent life

1783
01:18:59,168 --> 01:19:02,505
ultimaly, to an awareness of 1 thing,
and one thing above all else

1784
01:19:02,787 --> 01:19:06,457
and that one thing is futility.

1785
01:19:06,475 --> 01:19:09,727
If I'm understanding you
right, you're saying

1786
01:19:09,761 --> 01:19:12,980
everybody that ain't eat up with
the dumbass

1787
01:19:13,014 --> 01:19:14,632
ought to be suicidal.

1788
01:19:14,666 --> 01:19:16,800
- Yes.
- You ain't shitting me?

1789
01:19:16,818 --> 01:19:20,070
No, I am not shitting you.

1790
01:19:20,105 --> 01:19:23,357
If people could see the world
for what it truly is,

1791
01:19:23,408 --> 01:19:25,976
see their lives for what
they truly are,

1792
01:19:25,994 --> 01:19:28,729
without dreams or illusions,

1793
01:19:28,764 --> 01:19:31,358
I don't believe they could offer the
first reason why they should not be

1794
01:19:31,359 --> 01:19:33,951
let to die as soon as possible

1795
01:19:33,985 --> 01:19:36,820
I don't believe in God.
Can you understand that?

1796
01:19:36,822 --> 01:19:41,719
Look around you, man. Can't you see?
The clever and dare to those torment

1797
01:19:41,843 --> 01:19:44,595
has to be the sound most
pleasing to his ears.

1798
01:19:44,629 --> 01:19:46,797
And I loathe these discussions--

1799
01:19:46,831 --> 01:19:49,300
the argument of the village atheist

1800
01:19:49,334 --> 01:19:52,770
whose single passion
is to revile endlessly

1801
01:19:52,804 --> 01:19:56,390
that which he denies the existence
of in the first place.

1802
01:19:56,441 --> 01:19:58,192
Your fellowship

1803
01:19:58,226 --> 01:20:00,511
is a fellowship of pain and
nothing more.

1804
01:20:00,529 --> 01:20:02,363
And if that pain were collective

1805
01:20:02,397 --> 01:20:04,064
instead of merely reiterative,

1806
01:20:04,115 --> 01:20:06,317
the sheer weight of it would
drag the world

1807
01:20:06,351 --> 01:20:08,202
from the walls of the universe

1808
01:20:08,236 --> 01:20:10,871
andd send it crashing and burning down

1809
01:20:10,906 --> 01:20:14,458
through whatever night it might
yet be capable of engendering

1810
01:20:14,493 --> 01:20:17,328
until it was not even ash.

1811
01:20:17,362 --> 01:20:20,364
And brotherhood,

1812
01:20:20,382 --> 01:20:24,418
justice, eternal life?

1813
01:20:24,469 --> 01:20:26,637
Good God, man.

1814
01:20:26,671 --> 01:20:29,223
Show me a religion that prepares one

1815
01:20:29,257 --> 01:20:31,141
for nothingness, for death.

1816
01:20:31,176 --> 01:20:32,810
That's a church I want to enter.

1817
01:20:32,844 --> 01:20:36,764
Yours prepares one only for more life,

1818
01:20:36,815 --> 01:20:40,401
for dreams and illusions and lies.

1819
01:20:41,278 --> 01:20:46,574
There is a fear of death from man
mostly who wouldn't live a day.--

1820
01:20:46,608 --> 01:20:49,026
who would want this nightmare

1821
01:20:49,060 --> 01:20:52,329
but for fear of the next.

1822
01:20:52,364 --> 01:20:54,898
The shadow of the axe

1823
01:20:54,916 --> 01:20:58,035
hangs over every joy.

1824
01:20:58,069 --> 01:21:01,071
Every road ends in death,

1825
01:21:01,089 --> 01:21:03,958
every friendship, every love.

1826
01:21:04,009 --> 01:21:08,596
Torment, lost, betrayal,

1827
01:21:08,630 --> 01:21:12,850
pain, suffering,

1828
01:21:12,884 --> 01:21:15,519
age,

1829
01:21:15,554 --> 01:21:17,938
indignity,

1830
01:21:17,973 --> 01:21:23,143
hideous lingering illness--

1831
01:21:23,194 --> 01:21:27,898
and all of it with a single conclusion

1832
01:21:27,932 --> 01:21:29,867
for you

1833
01:21:29,901 --> 01:21:31,935
and every one and every thing

1834
01:21:31,953 --> 01:21:35,239
you have ever chosen to care for.

1835
01:21:35,273 --> 01:21:37,541
That is the true brotherhood,
the true fellowship.

1836
01:21:37,576 --> 01:21:39,660
And everybody is a member for life.

1837
01:21:41,092 --> 01:21:44,130
You tell me that my brother
is my salvation?

1838
01:21:44,140 --> 01:21:47,524
My salvation, well then... damn hell.

1839
01:21:47,920 --> 01:21:51,338
Damn him in every shape
and guise and form.

1840
01:21:51,389 --> 01:21:53,457
Do I see myself in him? Yes, I do.

1841
01:21:53,475 --> 01:21:57,061
And what I see sickens me.

1842
01:21:57,095 --> 01:22:00,314
Do you understand me?

1843
01:22:00,348 --> 01:22:02,733
Can you understand me?

1844
01:22:11,643 --> 01:22:13,410
I'm sorry.

1845
01:22:15,363 --> 01:22:16,997
How long you felt like this?

1846
01:22:17,032 --> 01:22:19,149
All my life.

1847
01:22:19,167 --> 01:22:21,285
- Is that true?
- It's worse than that.

1848
01:22:21,319 --> 01:22:23,537
I don't see what could be
worse than that.

1849
01:22:23,539 --> 01:22:27,458
Rage is really only for the good days.

1850
01:22:27,492 --> 01:22:29,510
The truth is there's
little of that left.

1851
01:22:29,544 --> 01:22:33,097
The truth is that the forms I see

1852
01:22:33,131 --> 01:22:35,683
have been slowly emptied out.

1853
01:22:35,717 --> 01:22:37,668
They no longer have any content.

1854
01:22:37,686 --> 01:22:40,771
They're shapes only-- a train, a wall,

1855
01:22:40,805 --> 01:22:43,557
a world, a man--

1856
01:22:43,559 --> 01:22:46,060
a thing dangling

1857
01:22:46,111 --> 01:22:49,113
in senseless articulation
in a howling void,--

1858
01:22:49,115 --> 01:22:51,315
no meaning to it's life,

1859
01:22:51,349 --> 01:22:54,034
its words.

1860
01:22:56,705 --> 01:23:00,708
Why would I seek out
the company of such a thing?

1861
01:23:00,742 --> 01:23:02,109
Why?

1862
01:23:03,628 --> 01:23:05,963
Damn.

1863
01:23:05,997 --> 01:23:08,865
So you see what it is you've saved?

1864
01:23:08,883 --> 01:23:11,335
Tried to save.
Still trying... trying hard.

1865
01:23:11,369 --> 01:23:14,471
- Who is your brother?
- Who is my brother, yes.

1866
01:23:14,506 --> 01:23:16,423
Is that the reason I'm here
in your apartment?

1867
01:23:16,474 --> 01:23:19,343
No, that's why I'm here.

1868
01:23:19,377 --> 01:23:22,179
You asked me what I'm a Professor of.

1869
01:23:22,213 --> 01:23:24,548
I am a Professor of darkness,

1870
01:23:24,566 --> 01:23:27,434
the night and in day's clothing.

1871
01:23:27,485 --> 01:23:30,521
And now I wish you all the very best,

1872
01:23:30,555 --> 01:23:32,656
but I must go.

1873
01:23:32,691 --> 01:23:34,525
Just stay a little while longer.

1874
01:23:34,559 --> 01:23:36,910
No, no more time. Goodbye.

1875
01:23:38,630 --> 01:23:40,731
We cank about something else, I swear.

1876
01:23:40,733 --> 01:23:42,616
I don't want to talk about
something else.

1877
01:23:42,667 --> 01:23:44,752
Don't go out there, Professor!
You know what's out there!

1878
01:23:47,739 --> 01:23:50,674
I know what's out there
and I know who is out there.

1879
01:23:50,709 --> 01:23:52,676
I rush to nuzzle his bony cheek.

1880
01:23:52,711 --> 01:23:55,929
No doubt he will be surprised
to find himself so cherished.

1881
01:23:55,964 --> 01:23:57,598
And as I cling to his neck

1882
01:23:57,632 --> 01:23:59,750
I will whisper in that
dry and ancient ear,

1883
01:23:59,768 --> 01:24:01,633
"Here I am. Here I am."

1884
01:24:01,634 --> 01:24:03,885
- Now open the door!
- Don't do this.

1885
01:24:04,202 --> 01:24:06,772
You're a kind man.
I've heard you out

1886
01:24:06,791 --> 01:24:08,085
and you've heard me.
There's no more to say.

1887
01:24:08,810 --> 01:24:12,229
Your God must once have stood

1888
01:24:12,263 --> 01:24:14,364
at a dawn of infinite possibilities,

1889
01:24:14,399 --> 01:24:17,117
and that is what he's made of it.

1890
01:24:17,152 --> 01:24:20,237
You tell me that I want God's love.
I don't.

1891
01:24:20,271 --> 01:24:23,407
Perhaps I want forgiveness,
but there is no one to ask it of.

1892
01:24:23,441 --> 01:24:26,210
And there's no going back.
There's no setting things right.

1893
01:24:26,244 --> 01:24:28,612
There's only the hope of nothingness.

1894
01:24:28,630 --> 01:24:30,831
And I cling to that hope.

1895
01:24:30,882 --> 01:24:33,116
- Now open the door.
- Don't do this.

1896
01:24:33,134 --> 01:24:35,736
Please open the door.

1897
01:25:13,958 --> 01:25:16,326
Thank you, goodbye.

1898
01:25:21,099 --> 01:25:23,217
Professor,

1899
01:25:23,268 --> 01:25:27,855
I know you ain't mean them words.

1900
01:25:27,889 --> 01:25:30,274
I'm gonna be there in the morning.

1901
01:25:31,726 --> 01:25:33,710
I'm gonna be there, you hear?

1902
01:25:35,547 --> 01:25:37,681
I'm gonna be there!

1903
01:25:40,118 --> 01:25:47,424
I'm gonna be there.

1904
01:25:47,426 --> 01:25:50,277
You know he ain't mean them words.

1905
01:25:52,997 --> 01:26:00,337
You know he didn't.

1906
01:26:00,371 --> 01:26:04,141
I don't understand why you sent
me down there.

1907
01:26:04,175 --> 01:26:06,059
I don't understand.

1908
01:26:06,094 --> 01:26:09,563
If you wanted me to help him, then how
come you didn't give me the words?

1909
01:26:09,597 --> 01:26:12,849
You give them to him. What about me?

1910
01:26:21,442 --> 01:26:25,445
That's all right. That's all right.

1911
01:26:25,496 --> 01:26:28,498
If you don't never speak again,

1912
01:26:28,533 --> 01:26:32,402
you know I'll keep your word.

1913
01:26:32,420 --> 01:26:36,239
You know I will.
You know I'm good for it.

1914
01:26:39,661 --> 01:26:42,012
Is that okay?

1915
01:26:48,052 --> 01:26:50,187
Is that okay?

1916
01:26:52,052 --> 01:26:58,187
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