1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:31,281 [ Sync'd & Uploaded By ] [ Ozeb14 ] 2 00:02:02,477 --> 00:02:04,918 Friday, 30 November, 1962 3 00:03:18,073 --> 00:03:21,775 Waking up begins with saying ''am'' and ''now''. 4 00:03:21,869 --> 00:03:24,277 Jennifer, I'm not gonna tell you again. 5 00:03:43,682 --> 00:03:47,978 For the past eight months waking up has actually hurt. 6 00:03:52,106 --> 00:03:56,485 The cold realization that I'm still here slowly sets in. 7 00:03:57,904 --> 00:04:00,771 I was never teribly fond of waking up. 8 00:04:00,865 --> 00:04:04,316 I was never one to jump out of bed and greet the day with a smile like Jim was. 9 00:04:05,536 --> 00:04:09,916 I used to want to punch him sometimes in the morning he was so happy. 10 00:04:09,999 --> 00:04:13,753 I always used to tell him that only fools greet the day with a smile... 11 00:04:13,836 --> 00:04:16,756 ...that only fools possibly escape the simple truth. 12 00:04:16,839 --> 00:04:19,707 That now isn't simply now. 13 00:04:21,010 --> 00:04:24,013 It's a cold reminder. One day later than yesterday. 14 00:04:24,847 --> 00:04:27,683 One year later than last year. 15 00:04:27,767 --> 00:04:32,094 And that sooner or later it will come. 16 00:04:32,813 --> 00:04:35,566 He used to laugh at me and then give me kiss on the cheek. 17 00:04:37,109 --> 00:04:40,394 It takes time in the morning for me to become George. 18 00:04:40,488 --> 00:04:44,898 The time to adjust to what is expected of George and how he is to behave. 19 00:04:46,493 --> 00:04:49,579 By the time I have dressed and put the final layer of polish... 20 00:04:49,663 --> 00:04:54,042 ...on the now slightly stiff but quite perfect George... 21 00:04:55,502 --> 00:04:57,545 ...I know fully what part I'm supposed to play 22 00:05:10,183 --> 00:05:13,551 Looking in the mirror staring back at me isn't so much as a face... 23 00:05:13,645 --> 00:05:16,898 ...as the expression of a predicament. 24 00:05:16,982 --> 00:05:20,183 Just get through the goddamn day. 25 00:05:23,029 --> 00:05:25,021 A bit melodramatic, I guess. 26 00:05:25,115 --> 00:05:26,491 But then again... 27 00:05:28,285 --> 00:05:30,662 ...my heart has been broken. 28 00:05:30,745 --> 00:05:34,113 I feel as if I am sinking, drowning... 29 00:05:34,916 --> 00:05:36,543 ...can't breathe. 30 00:06:29,970 --> 00:06:34,016 Aren't you going to say something? Are you kidding? It's spectacular. 31 00:06:34,099 --> 00:06:35,433 What are you doing? 32 00:06:35,516 --> 00:06:38,008 Just stop it. Stop it. 33 00:06:38,102 --> 00:06:40,313 I don't think that you're quite ready for life in a glass house. 34 00:06:41,230 --> 00:06:43,191 Drapes, old man. 35 00:06:45,360 --> 00:06:48,613 You're the one who is always saying that we are invisible. 36 00:06:49,864 --> 00:06:52,189 That's not exactly what I meant. 37 00:07:14,972 --> 00:07:18,142 For the first time in my life I can't see my future. 38 00:07:19,644 --> 00:07:22,105 Every day goes by in a haze. 39 00:07:23,272 --> 00:07:26,223 But today I have decided will be different. 40 00:07:36,952 --> 00:07:40,069 Finally. You know it's been raining here all day. 41 00:07:40,205 --> 00:07:42,833 I've been trapped in this house waiting for you to call. 42 00:07:42,916 --> 00:07:46,534 I'm sorry, I must have the wrong number. I'm calling for Mr. George Falconer. 43 00:07:48,130 --> 00:07:51,716 I'm sorry, I was expecting someone else. Yes sir, you have indeed called the... 44 00:07:51,800 --> 00:07:54,834 ...correct number. How may I help you? - This is Harold Ackerley. 45 00:07:54,928 --> 00:07:56,586 I'm Jim's cousin. 46 00:07:56,680 --> 00:08:00,016 Of course. Yes, good evening Mr. Ackerley. 47 00:08:00,100 --> 00:08:03,520 I'm afraid I'm calling with some bad news. 48 00:08:04,980 --> 00:08:07,107 There has been a car accident. 49 00:08:07,941 --> 00:08:09,452 An accident? 50 00:08:09,488 --> 00:08:12,549 There has been a lot of snow here lately and the roads have been icy. 51 00:08:13,864 --> 00:08:17,367 On his way into town, Jim lost control of his car. 52 00:08:18,744 --> 00:08:20,620 It was instantaneous apparently. 53 00:08:25,458 --> 00:08:29,618 It happened late yesterday, but his parents didn’t want to call you. 54 00:08:32,339 --> 00:08:33,830 I see. 55 00:08:33,924 --> 00:08:36,166 In fact, they don't that I'm calling you now. 56 00:08:36,260 --> 00:08:38,752 But I thought that you should know. 57 00:08:44,477 --> 00:08:46,718 Thank you. 58 00:08:46,812 --> 00:08:51,192 I know this must be quite a shock. It was for all of us. 59 00:08:53,152 --> 00:08:54,810 Yes, indeed. 60 00:08:58,657 --> 00:09:01,525 - Will there be a service? - The day after tomorrow. 61 00:09:05,915 --> 00:09:08,834 Well, I suppose I should get off the phone... 62 00:09:09,835 --> 00:09:11,962 ...and book a plane flight. 63 00:09:12,046 --> 00:09:15,049 The service is just for family. 64 00:09:17,843 --> 00:09:19,636 For family, of course. 65 00:09:22,722 --> 00:09:24,766 Well, thank you for calling. 66 00:09:26,351 --> 00:09:28,061 - Mr. Ackerley? - Yes? 67 00:09:28,978 --> 00:09:32,065 - May I ask what happened to the dogs? - Dogs? 68 00:09:32,148 --> 00:09:36,528 There was a dog with him but he died. Was there another one? 69 00:09:36,611 --> 00:09:39,614 Yes, there was a small female. 70 00:09:39,697 --> 00:09:41,606 I don't know, I'm sorry. 71 00:09:41,699 --> 00:09:44,410 I haven't heard anyone mentioning another dog. 72 00:09:52,001 --> 00:09:55,088 - Well, thank you for calling Mr. Ackerley. - Goodbye, Mr. Falconer. 73 00:13:45,439 --> 00:13:46,555 Hello, Charley. 74 00:13:46,649 --> 00:13:48,473 How did you know it was me? 75 00:13:48,567 --> 00:13:51,402 Charlotte, nobody else calls me before eight in the morning. 76 00:13:51,486 --> 00:13:55,406 I didn't call too early, did I? You sound grumpy. 77 00:13:55,490 --> 00:13:57,064 No, I have a headache. 78 00:13:57,158 --> 00:14:01,454 Listen, I was going to call you actually. Is too late to change my mind about tonight. 79 00:14:01,579 --> 00:14:05,281 No, of course not. I haven't seen you all week. 80 00:14:05,375 --> 00:14:09,243 - I'm dying for a dose of you. - I know, I'm sorry. 81 00:14:09,337 --> 00:14:12,048 So great, I'll see you tonight. 82 00:14:12,131 --> 00:14:13,956 I have to run. I'm late for the work. 83 00:14:14,092 --> 00:14:16,333 I'll call you later from school. 84 00:14:16,427 --> 00:14:18,419 Alright, I see you then. 85 00:14:18,513 --> 00:14:21,005 - Bye, kiddo. - Bye, old man. 86 00:15:05,642 --> 00:15:07,519 Good morning, Mr. George. 87 00:15:09,229 --> 00:15:11,648 Sir, you don't look so good today. 88 00:15:11,685 --> 00:15:13,921 Good morning, Alva. No, I didn't sleep very well. 89 00:15:14,568 --> 00:15:16,861 You forgot to take the bread out of the freezer this morning. 90 00:15:16,897 --> 00:15:18,313 It stays fresh that way. 91 00:15:18,530 --> 00:15:20,824 It was a little too fresh this morning. 92 00:15:20,907 --> 00:15:22,564 There are some papers laid out on my desk... 93 00:15:22,601 --> 00:15:24,755 ...which need to stay there. Please don't move them. 94 00:15:25,078 --> 00:15:28,582 - I'm afraid my pen leaked all over the bed. - It's okay, sir. 95 00:15:28,665 --> 00:15:30,490 - Alva? - Yes, sir? 96 00:15:30,584 --> 00:15:33,295 Thank you, you're a wonderful. 97 00:16:42,799 --> 00:16:47,094 This government, as promised, has maintained the closest surveillance... 98 00:16:47,130 --> 00:16:51,356 ...of the Soviet military buildup on the Island of Cuba. 99 00:16:52,234 --> 00:16:55,362 Within the past week unmistakable evidence... 100 00:16:55,641 --> 00:16:57,793 ...has established the fact... 101 00:18:07,529 --> 00:18:08,997 - Professor Falconer? - Yes? 102 00:18:09,034 --> 00:18:11,433 There was a student here this morning asking for your address. 103 00:18:11,470 --> 00:18:12,649 My address? 104 00:18:14,411 --> 00:18:17,039 - Did you give it to him? - Yes, sir. 105 00:18:17,122 --> 00:18:18,373 I did. 106 00:18:18,457 --> 00:18:20,115 I hope that's okay. 107 00:18:20,209 --> 00:18:24,045 I realize that I probably shouldn't have but he was very nice. 108 00:18:24,128 --> 00:18:26,589 Before I knew it he... 109 00:18:27,632 --> 00:18:30,582 Your hair looks great up like that. I really fits suits you. 110 00:18:32,178 --> 00:18:33,836 You always look so beautiful... 111 00:18:33,930 --> 00:18:36,171 ...really fresh... 112 00:18:36,265 --> 00:18:38,809 You have such a lovely smile. 113 00:18:46,275 --> 00:18:48,350 - Arpège? - Sir? 114 00:18:50,404 --> 00:18:51,979 Really beautiful. 115 00:19:01,982 --> 00:19:04,744 ...that a series of offensive missile sites... 116 00:19:05,336 --> 00:19:07,546 - Good morning, Don. - Good morning, George. 117 00:19:22,936 --> 00:19:24,677 Good morning, George. 118 00:19:25,563 --> 00:19:27,305 Good morning, Grant. 119 00:19:28,149 --> 00:19:30,694 You look awful. What have you been doing? 120 00:19:34,447 --> 00:19:35,563 Look around you, Grant. 121 00:19:35,657 --> 00:19:38,775 Most of these students aspire to nothing more than corporate job... 122 00:19:38,868 --> 00:19:42,403 ...and a desire to raise coke-drinking, TV-watching children... 123 00:19:42,497 --> 00:19:44,822 ...who as soon as they can speak start chanting TV jingles... 124 00:19:44,916 --> 00:19:48,034 ...and smashing things with hammers. - You're really scaring me today, George. 125 00:19:48,128 --> 00:19:50,131 Don't tell me. You have easy time with these students. 126 00:19:50,167 --> 00:19:52,966 I found them staring at me in a kind of bovine stupor... 127 00:19:53,049 --> 00:19:54,624 ...as if I were lecturing in a foreign language. 128 00:19:54,718 --> 00:19:57,178 Remind me why we shouldn't all just be annihilated. 129 00:19:57,262 --> 00:19:58,762 You seem to think this is all a joke. 130 00:19:58,912 --> 00:20:01,586 We're living in a world where nuclear war is a real threat. 131 00:20:01,622 --> 00:20:03,644 I don't understand how that doesn't concern you. 132 00:20:03,681 --> 00:20:05,426 You're serious, aren't you? 133 00:20:05,520 --> 00:20:06,386 Yes, I'm serious. 134 00:20:06,479 --> 00:20:09,764 George did you even read the article I gave you on bomb shelters? 135 00:20:09,858 --> 00:20:11,673 Our is almost done. We had 3 contractors work on it... 136 00:20:11,710 --> 00:20:13,335 ...so none of them know what we've got. 137 00:20:13,694 --> 00:20:16,405 I'm having the outside of it landscaped so no one will that it's there. 138 00:20:16,488 --> 00:20:17,354 Really? 139 00:20:20,793 --> 00:20:22,667 If word gets out that you've got a better shelter... 140 00:20:22,704 --> 00:20:24,903 ...then everyone will try to get in when something happens. 141 00:20:24,997 --> 00:20:26,332 So? 142 00:20:26,415 --> 00:20:29,533 There will be no time for sentiment when the Russians fire a missile at us. 143 00:20:29,907 --> 00:20:32,766 If it's going to be a world with no time for sentiment Grant... 144 00:20:32,803 --> 00:20:34,453 ...the it's not a world that I want to live in. 145 00:21:20,093 --> 00:21:23,012 After Many a Summer Dies the Swan. 146 00:21:28,142 --> 00:21:29,563 I think you've all... 147 00:21:31,033 --> 00:21:34,024 ...read the Huxley novel I assigned more than three weeks ago? 148 00:21:38,403 --> 00:21:40,561 How does the title relate to our story? 149 00:21:41,489 --> 00:21:43,647 - Yes, Mr. Mong. - It doesn't. 150 00:21:43,741 --> 00:21:48,652 It's about a rich guy who's too afraid that he's too old for this girl... 151 00:21:48,746 --> 00:21:51,666 ...and thinks that a young guy... 152 00:22:19,484 --> 00:22:20,517 Russ. 153 00:22:32,748 --> 00:22:35,500 Russ? 154 00:22:52,601 --> 00:22:54,175 Yes, Mr. Hirsch. 155 00:22:54,269 --> 00:22:57,803 Sir, on page 79, Mr. Propter says that... 156 00:22:57,897 --> 00:23:01,650 ...the stupidest text in the Bible is “they hated me without a cause.” 157 00:23:01,734 --> 00:23:04,508 Does that mean the Nazis were right to hate the Jews? 158 00:23:04,545 --> 00:23:06,780 - Is Huxley an anti-Semite? - No. 159 00:23:15,247 --> 00:23:17,917 No, Mr. Huxley is not an anti-Semite. 160 00:23:19,043 --> 00:23:21,007 Of course, the Nazis were wrong to hate the Jews. 161 00:23:21,044 --> 00:23:23,132 But their hating the Jews was not without a cause. 162 00:23:26,050 --> 00:23:27,791 It's just that the cause wasn't real. 163 00:23:29,178 --> 00:23:30,836 The cause was imagined. 164 00:23:30,930 --> 00:23:33,641 The cause was fear. 165 00:23:35,476 --> 00:23:37,937 Let's leave the Jews out o this just for a moment. 166 00:23:39,647 --> 00:23:42,514 Let's think of another minority. One that... 167 00:23:42,608 --> 00:23:44,819 One that can go unnoticed if it needs to. 168 00:23:47,446 --> 00:23:50,898 There are all sorts of minorities, blondes for example... 169 00:23:50,990 --> 00:23:53,201 ...or people with freckles. 170 00:23:54,619 --> 00:23:57,486 But a minority is only thought of as one... 171 00:23:57,580 --> 00:24:00,917 ...when it constitutes some kind of threat to the majority. 172 00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:03,461 A real threat or an imagined one. 173 00:24:03,545 --> 00:24:05,870 And therein lies the fear. 174 00:24:08,132 --> 00:24:12,053 If the minority is somehow invisible... 175 00:24:13,346 --> 00:24:15,922 ...and the fear is much greater. 176 00:24:17,016 --> 00:24:19,995 That fear is why the minority is persecuted. 177 00:24:20,032 --> 00:24:21,551 So, you see there always is a cause. 178 00:24:21,588 --> 00:24:22,739 The cause is fear. 179 00:24:23,273 --> 00:24:24,983 Minorities are just people. 180 00:24:26,693 --> 00:24:27,861 People like us. 181 00:24:35,326 --> 00:24:37,318 I can see that I've lost you a bit. 182 00:24:37,954 --> 00:24:41,572 So tell you what? We're gonna forget about Mr. Huxley today... 183 00:24:42,625 --> 00:24:45,378 ...and we're gonna talk about fear. 184 00:24:45,460 --> 00:24:47,588 Fear, after all, is our real enemy. 185 00:24:48,255 --> 00:24:50,799 Fear is taking over our world. 186 00:24:50,883 --> 00:24:54,751 Fear is being used as a tool of manipulation in our society. 187 00:24:54,845 --> 00:24:58,432 It's how politicians peddle policy. 188 00:24:58,515 --> 00:25:01,299 It's how Madison Avenue sells us things that we don't need. 189 00:25:01,393 --> 00:25:02,968 Think about it. 190 00:25:04,313 --> 00:25:05,856 Fear of being attacked. 191 00:25:07,441 --> 00:25:10,611 Fear of that there are communists lurking around every corner. 192 00:25:10,694 --> 00:25:12,849 Fear of that some little Caribbean country... 193 00:25:12,886 --> 00:25:15,399 ...that doesn't believe in our way of life poses a threat to us. 194 00:25:15,449 --> 00:25:17,675 Fear that black culture may take over the world. 195 00:25:17,711 --> 00:25:20,829 Fear of Elvis Presley's hips. 196 00:25:22,039 --> 00:25:24,197 Actually, maybe that one is a real fear. 197 00:25:27,127 --> 00:25:30,631 Fear that our bad breath might ruin our friendships. 198 00:25:33,342 --> 00:25:35,886 Fear of growing old and being alone. 199 00:25:43,309 --> 00:25:47,521 The of that we're useless and that no one cares what we have to say. 200 00:25:52,109 --> 00:25:53,767 Have a good weekend. 201 00:26:00,034 --> 00:26:02,985 Sir! May I talk to you for a minute? 202 00:26:03,079 --> 00:26:05,831 Why don't you always talk to us like that? 203 00:26:05,915 --> 00:26:07,740 I don't think it went over very well. 204 00:26:07,833 --> 00:26:10,075 Man, fear of things gets to me all the time. 205 00:26:10,169 --> 00:26:13,120 But you can't talk about it with anyone or you just sound like a fool. 206 00:26:13,214 --> 00:26:17,051 - You can't even talk about it with Lois? - I don't think she's afraid of anything. 207 00:26:17,134 --> 00:26:19,126 Everyone's afraid of something, Kenny. 208 00:26:19,220 --> 00:26:21,013 What are you afraid of, sir? 209 00:26:21,097 --> 00:26:22,807 Cars. 210 00:26:22,890 --> 00:26:25,374 How can you live in Los Angeles and be afraid of cars? 211 00:26:25,410 --> 00:26:26,589 Maybe you can't. 212 00:26:27,200 --> 00:26:31,305 Sometimes my fear of things can almost paralyze me. 213 00:26:31,399 --> 00:26:35,641 It's like I get really panic stricken and I feel like I might explode or something. 214 00:26:36,653 --> 00:26:39,228 - May I ask you a personal question, sir? - If you like. 215 00:26:40,532 --> 00:26:42,242 Do you ever get high? 216 00:26:42,951 --> 00:26:47,028 - How old do I look to you? - Have you ever taken any drugs? 217 00:26:47,622 --> 00:26:48,821 Of course, Kenny. 218 00:26:49,457 --> 00:26:50,573 Like what? 219 00:26:51,543 --> 00:26:54,827 I don't feel I should be discussing this with you on campus Mr. Potter. 220 00:26:54,921 --> 00:26:58,174 It's the only way I get by sometimes. 221 00:26:58,258 --> 00:27:01,709 - Have you ever tried mescaline? - Not my drug of choice. 222 00:27:01,803 --> 00:27:05,755 I shaved off one of my eyebrows once on mescaline. Not a good look for me. 223 00:27:05,849 --> 00:27:08,601 - Sir? - I looked in the mirror. 224 00:27:08,685 --> 00:27:10,426 Big mistake if you're high on mescaline. 225 00:27:10,520 --> 00:27:13,189 I decided that my eyebrows were taking over my face. 226 00:27:13,273 --> 00:27:14,573 Before I knew it, I had shaved one off. 227 00:27:14,610 --> 00:27:17,372 I wore a band-aid over my eye for about six weeks while my brow grew back. 228 00:27:17,408 --> 00:27:18,267 Very embarrassing. 229 00:27:18,778 --> 00:27:21,531 - You didn't take it again after that? - Kenny, have you been listening to me? 230 00:27:21,614 --> 00:27:23,940 I shaved off my eyebrow. 231 00:27:24,034 --> 00:27:27,068 I wanted an experience Mr. Potter, not a career on stage. 232 00:27:30,414 --> 00:27:34,032 If you ever want to get high sir, I usually have some dope. 233 00:27:34,126 --> 00:27:36,201 You're really mad aren't you? 234 00:27:43,302 --> 00:27:46,788 I'm sorry, sir. I guess you don't feel very comfortable talking like this. 235 00:27:46,824 --> 00:27:48,297 What makes you say that? 236 00:27:48,390 --> 00:27:51,842 Lois thinks you're kind of cagey. Like this morning... 237 00:27:51,935 --> 00:27:54,886 ...when you were listening to all that crap we were talking about Huxley. 238 00:27:54,980 --> 00:27:56,065 Well, not all of you. 239 00:27:56,148 --> 00:27:58,192 I didn't notice you open your mouth once. 240 00:27:58,275 --> 00:27:59,985 I was watching you. 241 00:28:00,069 --> 00:28:04,782 You let us ramble on and on and then you straighten us out. 242 00:28:04,865 --> 00:28:08,202 But you never really tell us everything you know about something. 243 00:28:09,161 --> 00:28:12,529 Well, maybe that's true up to a point. 244 00:28:13,916 --> 00:28:15,709 It's not that I want to be cagey. 245 00:28:16,710 --> 00:28:20,954 It's just that I can't really discuss things completely openly... 246 00:28:21,048 --> 00:28:22,330 ...at school. 247 00:28:22,424 --> 00:28:24,550 Someone would misunderstand. 248 00:28:26,302 --> 00:28:29,420 I tried that today. It didn't really work out. 249 00:28:35,770 --> 00:28:38,262 What was it you wanted to get, sir? 250 00:28:38,356 --> 00:28:40,681 Nothing. I was on my way to the dean's office. 251 00:28:40,775 --> 00:28:43,444 You mean you walked all the way down here just to talk to me? 252 00:28:43,528 --> 00:28:45,436 - Why not? - Well... 253 00:28:45,530 --> 00:28:48,647 I think you deserve something for that, sir. 254 00:28:48,741 --> 00:28:49,773 Here sir, take your pick. 255 00:28:51,702 --> 00:28:53,830 - It's on me. - Thank you. 256 00:28:57,500 --> 00:28:59,127 I thought you'd probably pick blue. 257 00:29:00,128 --> 00:29:03,214 - Why blue? - Isn't blue supposed to be spiritual? 258 00:29:03,297 --> 00:29:05,007 What makes you think I'm spiritual? 259 00:29:08,553 --> 00:29:09,960 And you? Red? 260 00:29:12,014 --> 00:29:14,590 - What is red stand for? - A lot of things. 261 00:29:14,684 --> 00:29:16,675 Rage, lust. 262 00:29:18,270 --> 00:29:19,354 No kidding? 263 00:29:25,152 --> 00:29:26,528 Well sir, I... 264 00:29:26,611 --> 00:29:28,102 I guess I see you around. 265 00:30:50,611 --> 00:30:51,643 Hello? 266 00:30:51,737 --> 00:30:53,478 What are you up to, kiddo? 267 00:30:53,572 --> 00:30:57,326 Just trying to finish up a book. How's your day going? 268 00:30:57,409 --> 00:30:58,577 Fine. 269 00:30:58,661 --> 00:31:02,373 I was just leaving school and wanted to know if you needed anything for tonight. 270 00:31:02,456 --> 00:31:04,667 Thanks, you're sweet. 271 00:31:04,750 --> 00:31:06,961 But I think I'm all set. 272 00:31:08,002 --> 00:31:09,493 Be a darling and... 273 00:31:09,587 --> 00:31:14,749 ...pick up gin for me, Tangueray. I love the color of the bottle. 274 00:31:15,635 --> 00:31:18,419 You love what's in it. What time do you want me? 275 00:31:19,639 --> 00:31:22,048 7 would be great if that's ok with you. 276 00:31:22,141 --> 00:31:24,926 Perfect. I'll see you then. 277 00:31:25,019 --> 00:31:27,011 I'll see you then. Bye, Geo. 278 00:31:27,105 --> 00:31:28,273 Bye, kiddo. 279 00:31:50,879 --> 00:31:52,870 Beautiful. 280 00:32:47,851 --> 00:32:50,395 - Yes, Mr. Potter? - Are you going somewhere, sir? 281 00:32:50,479 --> 00:32:53,430 That is usually why people get into their cars. 282 00:32:53,523 --> 00:32:55,729 No, I mean are you going on vacation or something? 283 00:32:55,765 --> 00:32:58,058 - What? - I saw you cleaning out your office. 284 00:33:03,240 --> 00:33:06,191 What exactly is it that you want, Kenny? 285 00:33:07,995 --> 00:33:11,530 I was just hoping that perhaps we could get together for a drink or something sometime. 286 00:33:12,458 --> 00:33:14,033 Why is that? 287 00:33:15,461 --> 00:33:16,796 I don't know, sir. 288 00:33:17,630 --> 00:33:19,590 Because I think you might like it. And... 289 00:33:21,384 --> 00:33:23,042 ...because you seem as though you could use a friend. 290 00:33:23,135 --> 00:33:25,680 - Oh really? - Yes, sir. You do. 291 00:33:30,434 --> 00:33:32,311 They may be right. 292 00:33:33,854 --> 00:33:36,482 It will have to be another time. I'm late. 293 00:33:37,984 --> 00:33:39,360 But thank you for the invitation. 294 00:33:40,569 --> 00:33:42,863 And thank you for the talk earlier. 295 00:33:44,323 --> 00:33:46,398 And stay away from the mescaline. 296 00:34:18,898 --> 00:34:20,358 Hello, Mr. Falconer. 297 00:34:20,442 --> 00:34:22,819 - Hello. How are you today? - I'm fine, sir. 298 00:34:22,902 --> 00:34:25,447 - Do you need to get into your box? - Yes, I do. 299 00:34:25,530 --> 00:34:26,865 Follow me. 300 00:34:35,415 --> 00:34:36,750 Here you are, sir. 301 00:34:39,044 --> 00:34:41,004 If you could please sign here... 302 00:34:49,762 --> 00:34:51,096 - Thank you. - Thank you. 303 00:35:58,830 --> 00:36:01,322 So explain your friend Charlotte to me. 304 00:36:02,667 --> 00:36:04,627 What would you like to know? 305 00:36:04,710 --> 00:36:07,255 I don't know. You seem very intimate I guess. 306 00:36:08,589 --> 00:36:11,509 Like you were once together or something. 307 00:36:12,635 --> 00:36:14,846 - You haven't slept with her, have you? - Yes. 308 00:36:17,640 --> 00:36:18,756 And? 309 00:36:20,143 --> 00:36:22,301 A few times when we were young. 310 00:36:22,348 --> 00:36:24,325 I wouldn't say that it meant nothing to me... 311 00:36:24,361 --> 00:36:27,026 ...but it certainly meant a great deal more to Charley. 312 00:36:27,108 --> 00:36:29,266 It was a long time ago in London. 313 00:36:31,070 --> 00:36:33,145 I love Charley. 314 00:36:33,239 --> 00:36:36,241 - And We were very close friends but that's all. - Well, I'm confused. 315 00:36:37,576 --> 00:36:39,619 If you sleep with women then why are you with me? 316 00:36:39,703 --> 00:36:41,778 Because I fall in love with men. 317 00:36:41,872 --> 00:36:43,947 Because I fell in love with you. 318 00:36:46,251 --> 00:36:48,545 Anyway, doesn't everyone sleep with women when they're young? 319 00:36:48,628 --> 00:36:51,173 - I haven't. - You're joking. 320 00:36:51,256 --> 00:36:53,498 No, I'm not. 321 00:36:53,592 --> 00:36:55,451 It was just never anything that interested me. 322 00:36:55,487 --> 00:36:58,420 Well, you're awfully modern aren't you? 323 00:36:58,430 --> 00:37:01,516 You know, I think that was the first thing that I noticed about you... 324 00:37:02,726 --> 00:37:04,936 ...was how sure of yourself you were. 325 00:37:07,522 --> 00:37:10,473 How can you be so sure about everything at your age? 326 00:37:11,610 --> 00:37:13,487 You think I'm sure of myself? 327 00:37:14,070 --> 00:37:15,614 Of course, you are. 328 00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:39,418 I'm finished now. Thank you. 329 00:37:45,267 --> 00:37:47,009 Yes, Mr. Falconer? 330 00:37:48,229 --> 00:37:49,939 Is there something else we can help you with today? 331 00:37:50,022 --> 00:37:53,473 I can't find my check book and I need some cash. 332 00:37:53,567 --> 00:37:55,893 Not my day I'm afraid. Excuse me a minute. 333 00:38:49,664 --> 00:38:54,210 Mommy says bushy eyebrows are pedestrian, but I think yours are pretty. 334 00:38:55,587 --> 00:38:57,547 I think yours are pretty too. 335 00:38:57,630 --> 00:39:01,707 Why do you look so sad? Would you like to meet Charlton Heston? 336 00:39:03,386 --> 00:39:04,762 Ben Hur. 337 00:39:07,473 --> 00:39:09,548 He's our scorpion. 338 00:39:09,642 --> 00:39:13,803 Every night we throw in something new to him and watch him kill it. 339 00:39:13,897 --> 00:39:18,223 Daddy says it's like the colosseum. So my brother Tom put on all the columns in here. 340 00:39:18,317 --> 00:39:20,027 He wants to be a set designer. 341 00:39:21,028 --> 00:39:22,796 He hasn't eaten the spider yet... 342 00:39:22,833 --> 00:39:25,673 ...cause he's still full from the moth we gave him last night. 343 00:39:26,617 --> 00:39:29,567 Daddy says he wants to throw you in to the colosseum. 344 00:39:29,661 --> 00:39:31,872 No kidding? Why? 345 00:39:31,955 --> 00:39:34,906 He says you're light in your loafers... 346 00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:37,044 ...but you aren't even wearing loafers. 347 00:39:37,127 --> 00:39:39,254 I think my brother Tom is light in his loafers too... 348 00:39:39,338 --> 00:39:41,746 ...but he wears Keds. 349 00:39:43,508 --> 00:39:47,888 He made me do a hair conditioning treatment on my hair with eggs. 350 00:39:48,597 --> 00:39:50,474 Does it look shiny? 351 00:39:50,557 --> 00:39:52,935 Sweetheart, what are you doing bothering Mr. Falconer? 352 00:39:53,018 --> 00:39:55,687 She's not bothering me at all Susan. How are you? 353 00:39:55,771 --> 00:39:58,232 I'm glad to see you George. 354 00:39:59,691 --> 00:40:02,043 George, we're having a few people over tonight for drinks... 355 00:40:02,079 --> 00:40:03,905 ...and would love to have you join us if you could. 356 00:40:03,987 --> 00:40:08,867 - Thank you. That's very kind of you but I have plans. - Another time then. 357 00:40:08,951 --> 00:40:11,526 Jennifer, let's let Mr. Falconer get back to his banking. 358 00:40:11,620 --> 00:40:12,901 Goodbye, George. 359 00:40:12,995 --> 00:40:14,872 Bye, Susan. Bye, Jennifer. 360 00:40:24,465 --> 00:40:28,302 - May I help you, sir? - I'd like to buy some bullets for this gun, please. 361 00:40:28,386 --> 00:40:32,223 Yes, sir. This is a really old gun, sir. 362 00:40:32,306 --> 00:40:34,631 We have a two for one sale on handguns at the moment. 363 00:40:34,725 --> 00:40:38,969 - Perhaps one for the little lady? - No thank you. Just the bullets, please. 364 00:40:40,940 --> 00:40:43,776 - Here you go. Anything else? - No, thank you. 365 00:40:43,859 --> 00:40:45,903 That would be $2.29, sir. 366 00:40:48,698 --> 00:40:50,241 Thank you. 367 00:41:28,069 --> 00:41:31,072 I'm sorry. I hope she didn't growl at you. 368 00:41:31,156 --> 00:41:33,366 She goes a little crazy sometimes when I have to leave her in the car. 369 00:41:33,450 --> 00:41:35,274 She's perfect. What's her name? 370 00:41:35,368 --> 00:41:37,193 India. 371 00:41:37,287 --> 00:41:38,861 Let's go there. 372 00:41:43,543 --> 00:41:45,952 You little baby. 373 00:41:48,673 --> 00:41:52,886 I used to have smooth fox terriers. You don't see them very often. 374 00:42:13,530 --> 00:42:15,522 The very smell of buttered toast. 375 00:42:16,825 --> 00:42:18,233 She's still a puppy isn't she? 376 00:42:24,708 --> 00:42:25,991 Well. 377 00:42:26,085 --> 00:42:28,295 - Have a nice evening. - You too. 378 00:42:28,379 --> 00:42:29,755 Good night, India. 379 00:42:42,893 --> 00:42:45,385 - I'm sorry about that. - No, It's ok. 380 00:42:45,479 --> 00:42:49,858 - It's my fault. I'll get you another pack. - It's ok. Don't worry. 381 00:42:49,942 --> 00:42:51,902 No, no I insist. 382 00:42:56,781 --> 00:42:58,324 Thank you. 383 00:42:58,408 --> 00:43:00,149 I'm sorry about the broken glass. 384 00:43:00,910 --> 00:43:02,703 - Here you go. - Thanks man. 385 00:43:04,414 --> 00:43:05,957 You want one? 386 00:43:06,749 --> 00:43:08,741 No, thanks. 387 00:43:09,836 --> 00:43:11,629 Actually, yes. Why not? 388 00:43:12,296 --> 00:43:13,496 Thank you. 389 00:43:45,163 --> 00:43:46,956 - Carlos. - What did you say? 390 00:43:47,039 --> 00:43:49,532 Carlos. You asked me my name. 391 00:43:49,625 --> 00:43:51,585 Are you okay? 392 00:43:51,668 --> 00:43:53,409 Yeah. 393 00:43:54,379 --> 00:43:55,839 Yeah, I'm sorry. 394 00:44:00,225 --> 00:44:01,734 You're really something. 395 00:44:02,178 --> 00:44:04,430 You have an incredible face. 396 00:44:04,741 --> 00:44:07,361 Enjoy that. It's a great gift. 397 00:44:07,410 --> 00:44:08,851 Your Spanish is perfect. 398 00:44:08,977 --> 00:44:10,312 Thank you. 399 00:44:13,867 --> 00:44:16,099 I should have used it more. 400 00:44:16,599 --> 00:44:17,646 Well... 401 00:44:17,896 --> 00:44:19,759 It's not too late. 402 00:44:46,889 --> 00:44:48,171 What are you doing? 403 00:44:49,141 --> 00:44:51,550 Aren't we going somewhere? 404 00:44:51,644 --> 00:44:54,480 No. But, thanks. 405 00:45:00,070 --> 00:45:03,286 You know, it's the smog that makes it that color. 406 00:45:03,322 --> 00:45:05,491 I've never seen a sky like this before. 407 00:45:06,942 --> 00:45:10,685 Sometimes awful things have their own kind of beauty. 408 00:45:15,668 --> 00:45:17,159 Could I have another cigarette? 409 00:45:17,253 --> 00:45:18,827 Sure. 410 00:45:47,073 --> 00:45:49,909 - Are sure that you don't want to go for a drive? - I'm sure. 411 00:45:53,496 --> 00:45:55,321 - Where are you from? - Madrid. 412 00:45:55,415 --> 00:45:58,126 Madrid? How did you get here? 413 00:45:58,209 --> 00:46:00,034 It's a long story. 414 00:46:00,128 --> 00:46:03,214 I met a guy from LA at the hotel where I worked... 415 00:46:03,298 --> 00:46:06,801 ...who told me I could live with him and that he could get me an agent. 416 00:46:06,885 --> 00:46:09,554 But he never realized that I have a Spanish accent. 417 00:46:11,139 --> 00:46:14,507 I like your accent. You speak very well. 418 00:46:15,768 --> 00:46:20,815 - How did you learn English? - My mom had an American boyfriend when I was little. 419 00:46:20,899 --> 00:46:23,057 Is your mother in Madrid? 420 00:46:23,818 --> 00:46:25,612 Yes, she is. She cuts hair. 421 00:46:25,695 --> 00:46:29,032 She cut my hair before I left. Do you like it? 422 00:46:30,867 --> 00:46:34,202 - I thought it made me look like James Dean. - You are better than James Dean. 423 00:46:34,286 --> 00:46:35,746 Really? 424 00:46:35,829 --> 00:46:37,404 Thanks. 425 00:46:41,585 --> 00:46:44,452 No one has ever picked me up and not wanted something. 426 00:46:44,546 --> 00:46:46,204 I think you picked me up. 427 00:46:48,258 --> 00:46:50,052 This is kind of a serious day for me. 428 00:46:51,094 --> 00:46:54,514 Come on. What could be so serious for a guy like you? 429 00:46:55,891 --> 00:46:59,968 I'm just trying to get over an old love I guess. 430 00:47:01,647 --> 00:47:05,067 My mother says that lovers are like buses. 431 00:47:05,150 --> 00:47:07,903 You just have to wait a little while and another one comes along. 432 00:47:14,576 --> 00:47:16,317 I have to go. 433 00:47:17,695 --> 00:47:18,919 You're a nice guy. 434 00:47:19,252 --> 00:47:20,904 I hope you find... 435 00:47:21,105 --> 00:47:22,854 ...someone like you. 436 00:47:22,876 --> 00:47:24,701 Thanks. 437 00:47:24,795 --> 00:47:27,203 I'm going away. 438 00:48:24,310 --> 00:48:26,771 It's your turn to change it. 439 00:48:26,855 --> 00:48:29,482 Yeah, I'm not changing it. It's your turn. 440 00:48:29,566 --> 00:48:31,974 Besides, you never like what I put on anyway. 441 00:48:32,068 --> 00:48:34,988 I'll give you five dollars if you change it. I'm too old to get up. 442 00:48:35,071 --> 00:48:37,063 You're only old when it's convenient for you to be old. 443 00:48:37,157 --> 00:48:39,909 What are you reading anyway? 444 00:48:39,993 --> 00:48:42,401 Oh God. Not that depressing crap again. 445 00:48:42,495 --> 00:48:44,122 It's for my class. 446 00:48:45,665 --> 00:48:47,792 What highbrow work of fiction might you be reading? 447 00:48:50,545 --> 00:48:52,672 Don't be so smug. 448 00:48:56,301 --> 00:48:57,927 Man, what a life he has. 449 00:48:59,054 --> 00:49:01,097 - Don't you just envy him? - Why? 450 00:49:01,181 --> 00:49:03,224 Because he can sniff anyone's arse he wants? 451 00:49:04,684 --> 00:49:06,509 Nice. 452 00:49:06,603 --> 00:49:10,555 No, because he just does what he wants. Like yesterday... 453 00:49:10,648 --> 00:49:13,651 ...I was standing in the front yard and Susan came over to talk. 454 00:49:13,735 --> 00:49:16,196 And that little brat of hers Christopher came... 455 00:49:16,232 --> 00:49:18,396 ...running over waving that damned gun of his around. 456 00:49:18,489 --> 00:49:22,618 And our little dog walked right up, hiked his leg... 457 00:49:22,701 --> 00:49:25,245 ...and peed all over Christopher's new tennis shoes. 458 00:49:25,329 --> 00:49:27,956 All over Christopher actually. 459 00:49:28,040 --> 00:49:30,532 And of course, I had to act like I was upset 460 00:49:30,626 --> 00:49:33,660 It was so perfectly executed you should have seen it. 461 00:49:33,754 --> 00:49:36,538 After all the times those kids have tortured that poor dog. 462 00:49:37,883 --> 00:49:40,094 I mean, you should take a lesson from him. They don't... 463 00:49:40,177 --> 00:49:42,846 They don't stay up all night worrying. 464 00:49:42,930 --> 00:49:46,631 They figured out how to get the two of us to do exactly what they want. 465 00:49:46,725 --> 00:49:51,477 They are basically very sophisticated little parasites when you think about it. 466 00:49:51,513 --> 00:49:55,317 Well, the dumbest creatures are the happiest. Just look at your mother. 467 00:49:58,404 --> 00:50:00,447 He's really just living the moment. 468 00:50:02,533 --> 00:50:04,243 It's like now. 469 00:50:04,326 --> 00:50:06,954 What could be better than being tucked up here with you? 470 00:50:10,833 --> 00:50:14,335 If I died right now it would be OK. 471 00:50:16,421 --> 00:50:21,551 Well, it wouldn't be OK with me so why don't you shut up and go change the record. 472 00:50:23,428 --> 00:50:25,638 Good answer. 473 00:50:26,497 --> 00:50:27,897 You know what? I was thinking about taking them up... 474 00:50:27,933 --> 00:50:30,894 ...to Denver with me next week if it's okay with you. 475 00:50:31,102 --> 00:50:32,510 It's my mom. She loves them. 476 00:50:32,603 --> 00:50:36,023 Probably that recognition of a similar mind. 477 00:50:39,527 --> 00:50:41,487 You stay there, old man. 478 00:54:26,625 --> 00:54:31,036 No, I did not forget the gin. I'll see you in ten minutes. 479 00:55:15,381 --> 00:55:18,175 Christopher, would you like it if I killed you? 480 00:55:18,212 --> 00:55:19,354 I don't know. 481 00:55:19,390 --> 00:55:21,971 If you keep this up we're going to find out. 482 00:55:22,054 --> 00:55:25,141 So, why don't you go home and stop shooting people? 483 00:55:56,087 --> 00:55:57,881 I'm so happy to see you. 484 00:56:03,178 --> 00:56:04,752 Come on in. 485 00:56:07,515 --> 00:56:10,352 It smells wonderful. I'm very hungry. Where is Lois? 486 00:56:10,435 --> 00:56:13,104 I gave her the night off. I'm cooking myself. 487 00:56:13,188 --> 00:56:15,346 - You are? - Yes, I'm trying something new. 488 00:56:15,440 --> 00:56:18,276 - Charley darling, ''you cooking' is new. - Don't be smart. 489 00:56:18,360 --> 00:56:21,196 I'm in a good mood tonight. I'm going to be fun. 490 00:56:21,279 --> 00:56:23,948 I've already made two New Year's resolutions. 491 00:56:24,032 --> 00:56:27,388 Resolution one: No more talk that of awful ex-husbands... 492 00:56:27,425 --> 00:56:29,330 ..and children who don't give a damn. 493 00:56:29,412 --> 00:56:30,695 - And the other one? - One what? 494 00:56:30,789 --> 00:56:32,499 Resolution. 495 00:56:32,582 --> 00:56:37,461 Resolution two: More smoking and more drinking and screw it all! So come on... 496 00:56:37,544 --> 00:56:39,004 ...mix me up a drink. 497 00:56:39,088 --> 00:56:41,079 I'll have a gin and tonic, please. 498 00:56:41,173 --> 00:56:43,300 - And watch out baby! - Coming up. 499 00:56:48,138 --> 00:56:52,351 - It was sweet of you to come tonight. - Sweet had nothing to do with it. 500 00:56:53,310 --> 00:56:57,439 - I needed to see you. - Come off it. 501 00:56:57,523 --> 00:57:00,807 Whenever you do something sweet you're too ashamed to admit it. 502 00:57:02,277 --> 00:57:05,030 Here is to our early New Year's resolutions. 503 00:57:07,241 --> 00:57:09,065 Cheers. 504 00:57:10,494 --> 00:57:12,486 What are your resolutions by the way? 505 00:57:14,123 --> 00:57:19,034 To let go of the past completely, entirely, and forever. 506 00:57:21,255 --> 00:57:22,881 Light me up, will you? 507 00:57:31,055 --> 00:57:33,839 Darling, you don’t look well. 508 00:57:33,933 --> 00:57:36,712 Do you remember that little heart attack you had last year? 509 00:57:36,748 --> 00:57:39,064 - It wasn’t a heart attack. - Well whatever it was darling... 510 00:57:39,147 --> 00:57:40,971 ...you don’t look so hot. 511 00:57:41,065 --> 00:57:44,350 I’m fine. I never felt better. 512 00:57:44,444 --> 00:57:48,395 - I'm a little tired. I haven't been sleeping... - Geo, it's normal. 513 00:57:48,489 --> 00:57:50,397 You were with Jim for 16 years. 514 00:57:50,491 --> 00:57:53,202 I think about Richard every day. 515 00:57:53,286 --> 00:57:55,027 It’s hard being alone. 516 00:57:56,497 --> 00:57:59,584 At least you have a job and a life. 517 00:58:00,877 --> 00:58:03,285 Let’s have a bit of dinner shall we? 518 00:58:03,379 --> 00:58:07,790 Because I’ve worked so very hard. 519 00:58:09,260 --> 00:58:12,346 - What are you talking about? - Seriously, there no such thing as old anymore. 520 00:58:12,430 --> 00:58:16,434 The other day one of my students has called me a senior citizen. 521 00:58:16,517 --> 00:58:18,425 I wouldn't mind if old didn't exist... 522 00:58:18,462 --> 00:58:21,513 ...but I'm not sure senior is what I'm aiming for either. 523 00:58:21,606 --> 00:58:24,149 It's all becoming so bland. It's not why I came to America. 524 00:58:24,232 --> 00:58:26,526 It's like a complete breakdown of culture and manners. 525 00:58:26,610 --> 00:58:29,321 The young ones have no manners. 526 00:58:29,404 --> 00:58:33,481 The other day at the car wash a young man looked me up and down... 527 00:58:33,575 --> 00:58:35,952 ...and actually asked me if I was a natural blonde. 528 00:58:36,036 --> 00:58:38,027 - What did you say? - I looked him straight in the eye... 529 00:58:38,121 --> 00:58:41,823 ...and said: ''Let's just say if I stood on my head... 530 00:58:41,917 --> 00:58:43,627 ...I would be a natural brunette with lovely breath.” 531 00:58:43,710 --> 00:58:45,754 - You didn't! - I did! 532 00:58:47,714 --> 00:58:52,542 And the amusing thing was that it went right over his head! 533 00:58:52,636 --> 00:58:55,128 You know, you had a mouth on you even back in London. 534 00:58:55,222 --> 00:58:57,849 Do you remember that old lesbian who threw her drink over your head... 535 00:58:57,933 --> 00:59:00,644 ...because you asked her if she was hung like a donut. 536 00:59:10,987 --> 00:59:12,614 Geo. 537 00:59:12,697 --> 00:59:15,189 We could always go back to London. The two of us. 538 00:59:15,283 --> 00:59:18,869 - No, thanks. - You know you miss it. 539 00:59:18,953 --> 00:59:19,901 I miss it sometimes. 540 00:59:21,288 --> 00:59:23,363 Maybe if Jim had lived. 541 00:59:23,457 --> 00:59:26,377 He loved being in England. He asked us to stay the last time we were there. 542 00:59:26,460 --> 00:59:28,952 Do you really think you would have moved? 543 00:59:30,881 --> 00:59:33,801 I don't know. It's silly to even talk about it. It was only a fantasy. 544 00:59:42,142 --> 00:59:43,884 What's this? 545 00:59:43,978 --> 00:59:46,105 It's my mother's wedding ring. 546 00:59:46,981 --> 00:59:49,306 I found it a drawer when I was cleaning out. 547 00:59:56,282 --> 00:59:59,034 Charley my dear, you and I are both in need of another drink. 548 01:01:30,874 --> 01:01:32,834 Wait! Wait, wait! 549 01:01:42,386 --> 01:01:44,377 I love this! 550 01:01:44,471 --> 01:01:46,848 - You're insane! - Come on, old man! 551 01:03:06,593 --> 01:03:08,167 Don't move. 552 01:03:16,770 --> 01:03:18,344 Thank you. 553 01:03:28,114 --> 01:03:32,243 - Very smooth cigarette move. - I've always wanted to do that. 554 01:03:33,912 --> 01:03:35,194 You don't even smoke. 555 01:03:35,288 --> 01:03:37,832 Well, not for the last sixteen years. Jim hated it. 556 01:03:38,833 --> 01:03:41,701 What's to stop me now? It's not as if he's gonna to kill me. 557 01:03:48,009 --> 01:03:51,678 This is so nice, lying here with you. 558 01:03:53,764 --> 01:03:55,450 Don't you ever miss this? 559 01:03:56,452 --> 01:03:58,693 What we could have been to each other? 560 01:03:59,269 --> 01:04:02,106 Having a real relationship and kids? 561 01:04:05,401 --> 01:04:09,780 - I had Jim. - I know, but I mean a real relationship. 562 01:04:10,716 --> 01:04:14,827 Geo, let's be honest, what you and Jim had together was wonderful but... 563 01:04:16,186 --> 01:04:18,956 ...wasn't it really just a substitute for something else? 564 01:04:22,209 --> 01:04:25,045 Is that really what you think after all of these years? 565 01:04:27,214 --> 01:04:31,625 You think Jim was just some kind of substitute for real love? 566 01:04:35,431 --> 01:04:38,965 Jim was not a substitute for anything. 567 01:04:40,102 --> 01:04:41,562 Do you understand? 568 01:04:41,645 --> 01:04:43,739 There is no substitute for Jim... 569 01:04:43,775 --> 01:04:45,638 ...anywhere! 570 01:04:45,731 --> 01:04:48,532 And by the way, what is so real about your relationship with Richard? 571 01:04:48,569 --> 01:04:51,519 He left you after nine years! 572 01:04:52,530 --> 01:04:54,715 Jim and I were together for sixteen years! 573 01:04:54,752 --> 01:04:57,066 And if he hadn't died we would still be together! 574 01:04:57,160 --> 01:04:58,703 What the hell is not real about that? 575 01:04:58,786 --> 01:05:01,330 I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 576 01:05:01,414 --> 01:05:04,041 I know how much the two of you loved each other. 577 01:05:05,084 --> 01:05:08,702 I suppose I'm just jealous that you and I never had that kind of love. 578 01:05:11,924 --> 01:05:15,011 Actually, I've never had that kind of love with anybody. 579 01:05:16,804 --> 01:05:19,182 I don't think Richard ever loved me... 580 01:05:19,678 --> 01:05:20,748 ...except for the way I looked. 581 01:05:21,728 --> 01:05:22,706 And Clay... 582 01:05:22,742 --> 01:05:24,962 I don't know. You raise a child and love it... 583 01:05:24,999 --> 01:05:27,052 ...and then when they are old enough they just leave. 584 01:05:27,997 --> 01:05:29,832 Charley, there is nothing wrong with your life. 585 01:05:29,948 --> 01:05:32,870 You just like feeling sorry for yourself. It's one of your great pleasures. 586 01:05:32,907 --> 01:05:34,979 And it's not one of yours? 587 01:05:35,102 --> 01:05:37,048 You're as pathetic as I am. 588 01:05:37,085 --> 01:05:40,043 Feeling sorry for myself is definitely not one of my great pleasures. 589 01:05:40,080 --> 01:05:43,292 Well, it's not one of mine either. I don't like feeling sorry for myself one bit. 590 01:05:43,329 --> 01:05:45,113 I tried to hold onto Richard for so long... 591 01:05:45,207 --> 01:05:47,334 ...even when it was obvious to everyone but me that it was over. 592 01:05:47,417 --> 01:05:48,875 And now Clay is grown up. 593 01:05:48,911 --> 01:05:51,421 I mean, what am I doing here Geo? Tell me, what? 594 01:05:51,505 --> 01:05:53,830 You have plenty of friends. You'll be fine. 595 01:05:53,924 --> 01:05:56,591 Yes, I have friends. But none of them need me. 596 01:05:56,627 --> 01:06:00,232 And yes I have you and if you weren't such a goddamn poof we could have all been happy! 597 01:06:06,895 --> 01:06:09,304 I only have you now because you lost Jim. 598 01:06:09,397 --> 01:06:12,567 Soon I'll lose you to someone else. It's not as easy for a woman. 599 01:06:12,651 --> 01:06:14,482 I've done everything the way I was supposed to and... 600 01:06:14,518 --> 01:06:16,738 ...all I have to keep me company is a bottle of gin. 601 01:06:16,822 --> 01:06:18,941 Maybe you should try donuts with your gin. 602 01:06:20,408 --> 01:06:22,202 Screw you. 603 01:06:24,871 --> 01:06:27,655 Charlotte, you are dramatic. 604 01:06:27,749 --> 01:06:29,094 I swear you really almost had me. 605 01:06:29,131 --> 01:06:33,088 A tiny tear was beginning to form in the corner of my eye. 606 01:06:33,170 --> 01:06:34,797 Now stop it. 607 01:06:34,880 --> 01:06:37,883 You are still breathtakingly beautiful. 608 01:06:39,176 --> 01:06:41,159 When you can be bothered to get up and out of bed... 609 01:06:41,196 --> 01:06:44,266 ...and you stop whimpering about everything for five minutes. 610 01:06:44,974 --> 01:06:47,924 Go to London. Change your life. 611 01:06:48,018 --> 01:06:50,479 If you're not happy being a woman then stop acting like one. 612 01:06:50,563 --> 01:06:52,022 You have all the answers. 613 01:06:53,482 --> 01:06:55,776 No, I don't have any to mention. 614 01:06:55,860 --> 01:06:58,727 If you're so smart why don't you have something new in your life? 615 01:06:58,821 --> 01:07:00,051 Take that position at Stanford. 616 01:07:00,088 --> 01:07:03,075 You complain about that little school but you could go anywhere you want. 617 01:07:03,112 --> 01:07:05,567 I think what I've done has been worthwhile. 618 01:07:05,661 --> 01:07:07,903 I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 619 01:07:07,997 --> 01:07:10,155 I shouldn't have said that. 620 01:07:11,125 --> 01:07:13,700 As much as I dread it, I think I will go back to London. 621 01:07:13,794 --> 01:07:15,702 Why do you dread it? 622 01:07:15,796 --> 01:07:19,331 When I lived in London last I was young. I was fresh, I was everything. 623 01:07:20,551 --> 01:07:24,336 Coming to America was such a dream, it was the icing on the cake. 624 01:07:24,430 --> 01:07:26,807 Going home is defeat. 625 01:07:26,891 --> 01:07:29,517 None of it really worked out the way I'd planned. 626 01:07:29,601 --> 01:07:32,604 Most things don't work out the way people plan. 627 01:07:34,606 --> 01:07:37,692 You're just living in the past. You need to start thinking about your future. 628 01:07:37,775 --> 01:07:40,862 Living in the past is my future. 629 01:07:41,696 --> 01:07:44,616 It doesn't have to be yours. You're a man. 630 01:07:45,950 --> 01:07:48,192 And you're a bore tonight. 631 01:07:49,287 --> 01:07:52,571 Can't we just feel sorry for ourselves a little bit longer? 632 01:07:52,665 --> 01:07:54,437 Let's have another drink. 633 01:07:54,473 --> 01:07:57,546 - I don't think so. I have to go. Come on. Walk me out. - Please, please! 634 01:07:57,629 --> 01:08:00,128 - Come on, I have to! - No, this was such fun! No. 635 01:08:09,432 --> 01:08:11,007 When will I see you again? 636 01:08:13,311 --> 01:08:16,512 - Aren't you going to England? - I'll never do that! 637 01:08:16,606 --> 01:08:18,566 It's far too much effort. 638 01:08:19,400 --> 01:08:24,477 Besides, I don't think Jim would want me to leave you here in LA all alone. 639 01:08:25,130 --> 01:08:28,632 Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I've got all the answers. Remember? 640 01:08:29,493 --> 01:08:31,370 What are you doing this weekend? 641 01:08:32,663 --> 01:08:35,290 I think I might just be very quiet. 642 01:08:37,125 --> 01:08:40,629 You never really did take me seriously, did you George? 643 01:08:40,712 --> 01:08:43,830 I tried to Charley. Remember? A long time ago. 644 01:08:45,592 --> 01:08:47,552 It didn't really work out, did it? 645 01:08:49,846 --> 01:08:51,254 No, Charley. 646 01:08:58,313 --> 01:08:59,856 Sleep tight. 647 01:09:43,566 --> 01:09:47,153 Patrick, a beer and a packet of Lucky Strike, please. 648 01:10:31,810 --> 01:10:33,241 Excuse me. 649 01:10:48,463 --> 01:10:50,673 It's too hot in there. 650 01:10:50,757 --> 01:10:52,217 Yes, it is. 651 01:10:52,300 --> 01:10:54,969 - Would you like a cigarette? - No thanks, I don't smoke. 652 01:10:56,596 --> 01:11:00,517 - This place is really crowded. - Well, it is Saturday night. 653 01:11:01,726 --> 01:11:03,201 It's usually as bad as this. 654 01:11:03,237 --> 01:11:07,314 People normally just stop by and pick someone up and then head on down the beach. 655 01:11:07,398 --> 01:11:09,389 Yeah. It's pretty wild out there. 656 01:11:09,483 --> 01:11:12,267 I'm surprised the cops don't break it up. 657 01:11:12,361 --> 01:11:14,905 - Is it always like that? - Since the war ended. 658 01:11:15,989 --> 01:11:18,489 It's pretty great actually. It's kind of pagan. 659 01:11:19,993 --> 01:11:22,121 - I'm Jim. - I'm George. 660 01:11:22,204 --> 01:11:23,281 Pleased to meet you Jim. 661 01:11:23,318 --> 01:11:26,532 I'm sorry, I'm supposed to meet some friends but I can't find them. 662 01:11:26,625 --> 01:11:31,255 I just needed to get out of the house but the lure of a cold beer got to me. 663 01:11:31,929 --> 01:11:33,155 Do you live hereby? 664 01:11:33,191 --> 01:11:34,789 Canyon. 665 01:11:34,883 --> 01:11:37,042 - For how long? - Since 38. 666 01:11:37,136 --> 01:11:39,294 - Where are you from? - Colorado. 667 01:11:40,806 --> 01:11:44,040 I really like it here. It's close to beach. 668 01:11:45,853 --> 01:11:48,178 I think I might stay after I'm discharged. 669 01:11:48,981 --> 01:11:51,932 I don't know, maybe I'm a bit of a pagan. 670 01:11:56,455 --> 01:11:58,257 - After you. - No. 671 01:12:04,704 --> 01:12:06,278 Sorry. 672 01:12:13,796 --> 01:12:16,174 - Well, hello. - Hi. 673 01:12:17,800 --> 01:12:19,959 Do you buy me a drink? 674 01:12:21,721 --> 01:12:23,629 I think I'm taken. 675 01:12:25,016 --> 01:12:28,050 Too bad, too bad. 676 01:12:30,605 --> 01:12:33,065 Do you want another beer? 677 01:13:29,412 --> 01:13:33,708 Patrick, a bottle of scotch and a pack of Lucky Strikes to go, please? 678 01:13:43,552 --> 01:13:45,209 Patrick, cancel that. 679 01:13:56,939 --> 01:13:58,764 Well, hello Mr. Potter. 680 01:13:58,857 --> 01:14:00,901 Hello, sir. 681 01:14:02,403 --> 01:14:04,895 - What are we drinking? - Scotch. 682 01:14:05,739 --> 01:14:06,938 Okay. 683 01:14:13,372 --> 01:14:18,033 I come here all the time. I live just around the corner, but then you knew that. 684 01:14:18,127 --> 01:14:19,920 On Camphor Tree Lane. 685 01:14:26,093 --> 01:14:28,053 You're still carrying that around. 686 01:14:30,097 --> 01:14:32,641 One must always appreciate life's little gifts. 687 01:14:37,563 --> 01:14:38,898 So, what are you doing here? 688 01:14:39,690 --> 01:14:41,706 - Just out for a ride on my bike. - Is that all? 689 01:14:42,943 --> 01:14:43,974 I don't know. 690 01:14:44,068 --> 01:14:45,726 Were you looking for me? 691 01:14:46,613 --> 01:14:48,604 Maybe. I don't know. 692 01:14:49,240 --> 01:14:51,148 I feel like my head's stopped up with stuff. 693 01:14:51,242 --> 01:14:52,430 What kind of stuff? 694 01:14:52,466 --> 01:14:54,919 Like, the stuff you were talking about today in class. 695 01:14:54,955 --> 01:14:56,738 That is definitely not important. 696 01:14:56,831 --> 01:14:59,323 No, it is important. Your class is great. 697 01:14:59,417 --> 01:15:03,963 But somehow we always seem to get stuck talking about the past. 698 01:15:04,047 --> 01:15:05,673 The past just doesn't matter to me. 699 01:15:05,757 --> 01:15:09,594 - The present? - I can't wait for the present to be over. 700 01:15:09,677 --> 01:15:11,669 It's a total drag. 701 01:15:12,513 --> 01:15:14,724 Well, tonight is the exception. 702 01:15:16,184 --> 01:15:18,092 What? 703 01:15:18,186 --> 01:15:21,189 Tonight, yes! The present, no! 704 01:15:21,981 --> 01:15:23,316 Let's drink to tonight. 705 01:15:23,399 --> 01:15:25,610 Tonight. 706 01:15:27,487 --> 01:15:29,621 So if the past doesn't matter and the present is a total drag. 707 01:15:29,658 --> 01:15:31,565 What about the future? 708 01:15:31,658 --> 01:15:35,328 What future? Cuba might just blow us up. 709 01:15:35,411 --> 01:15:37,042 Death is the future. 710 01:15:37,079 --> 01:15:38,970 I'm sorry. I don't mean to be depressing. 711 01:15:39,039 --> 01:15:41,276 It's not depressing. It's not depressing, it's true. 712 01:15:41,312 --> 01:15:44,405 It may not be your immediate future but it's what we all share. 713 01:15:45,170 --> 01:15:46,578 Death is the future. 714 01:15:46,672 --> 01:15:48,747 You're right, I guess. 715 01:15:48,840 --> 01:15:51,860 If one is not enjoying one's present there isn't a great deal to... 716 01:15:51,897 --> 01:15:53,927 ...suggest that the future should be any better. 717 01:15:54,627 --> 01:15:56,448 Yeah, I've thought that before. 718 01:15:57,182 --> 01:16:00,467 But the thing is you just never know. 719 01:16:01,353 --> 01:16:02,635 Look at tonight. 720 01:16:06,775 --> 01:16:08,485 Actually... 721 01:16:08,568 --> 01:16:11,061 ...I feel really alone most of the time. 722 01:16:11,631 --> 01:16:13,313 - You do? - Yeah. 723 01:16:14,324 --> 01:16:15,968 I've always felt this way. 724 01:16:16,004 --> 01:16:19,444 I mean we're born alone, we die alone. 725 01:16:19,538 --> 01:16:24,084 And while we're here we are absolutely, completely sealed in our own bodies. 726 01:16:25,168 --> 01:16:26,826 Really weird. 727 01:16:27,921 --> 01:16:30,590 Kinda freaks me out to think about it. 728 01:16:30,674 --> 01:16:35,584 We can only experience the outside world through our own slanted perception of it. 729 01:16:37,304 --> 01:16:39,463 Who knows what you're really like? 730 01:16:39,557 --> 01:16:43,936 - I just see what I think you're like. - I'm exactly what I appear to be. 731 01:16:46,689 --> 01:16:49,066 If you look closely. 732 01:16:54,739 --> 01:16:58,357 You know the only thing that has made the whole thing worthwhile... 733 01:16:59,410 --> 01:17:00,953 ...has been those... 734 01:17:01,662 --> 01:17:05,989 ...few times that I've been able to really, truly connect with another human being. 735 01:17:09,337 --> 01:17:11,245 I had a hunch about you, sir. 736 01:17:11,638 --> 01:17:13,247 - You did? - Yes, sir. 737 01:17:14,091 --> 01:17:16,844 I had a hunch you might be a real romantic. 738 01:17:22,266 --> 01:17:25,134 You know, everyone keeps telling you that... 739 01:17:25,227 --> 01:17:28,020 ...when you're older, that you'll have all this experience. 740 01:17:28,056 --> 01:17:29,798 Like it's some great thing. 741 01:17:29,834 --> 01:17:31,310 That's a load of shit. 742 01:17:31,868 --> 01:17:34,133 I think I've actually just gotten sillier and sillier. 743 01:17:34,170 --> 01:17:36,404 - Really? - Absolutely. 744 01:17:36,488 --> 01:17:39,272 So, all your experience is useless. 745 01:17:40,950 --> 01:17:42,608 No, I wouldn't say that. 746 01:17:43,453 --> 01:17:46,584 As our friend Mr. Huxley says: Experience is not what happens to a man. 747 01:17:46,621 --> 01:17:49,466 It is what a man does with what happens to him. 748 01:17:51,294 --> 01:17:53,171 - Let's go swimming. - Okay. 749 01:17:54,881 --> 01:17:57,425 - What? - It was a test. 750 01:17:57,509 --> 01:18:00,261 I thought you were bluffing about being silly so... 751 01:18:00,345 --> 01:18:05,256 ...I said to myself I'll suggest doing something completely outrageous. 752 01:18:05,350 --> 01:18:09,729 And if he resists, if he even hesitates then I know he's full of shit. 753 01:18:11,773 --> 01:18:13,681 Well, I wasn't. Were you? 754 01:18:14,776 --> 01:18:16,403 Hell, no! 755 01:18:34,253 --> 01:18:36,463 Come on sir. I'll help you down. 756 01:18:38,340 --> 01:18:39,883 Let's go. 757 01:19:25,970 --> 01:19:27,847 Come on, sir. 758 01:20:01,297 --> 01:20:03,289 Sir? 759 01:20:03,841 --> 01:20:05,551 Sir? 760 01:20:15,435 --> 01:20:18,011 That's enough for now, sir. 761 01:20:18,688 --> 01:20:21,358 - I'm fine. - I'm cold. Come on. 762 01:20:34,830 --> 01:20:36,571 Can we go back to your place, sir? 763 01:20:36,665 --> 01:20:39,209 Of course. Where else? 764 01:20:40,418 --> 01:20:42,546 - Where else. - Are you out of your mind? 765 01:20:42,629 --> 01:20:46,581 - What's the matter? - You can't get home like that! 766 01:20:46,675 --> 01:20:48,552 We're invisible, don't you know that? 767 01:20:50,595 --> 01:20:53,179 You know sir, they ought not to let you out on your own. 768 01:20:53,429 --> 01:20:55,340 You're liable to get into real trouble. 769 01:20:55,642 --> 01:20:57,884 I excel at it. 770 01:20:57,978 --> 01:21:00,021 Your forehead is bleeding. 771 01:21:23,919 --> 01:21:27,590 The bathroom is just down the hall if you would like to take a shower. 772 01:21:27,673 --> 01:21:30,050 Aren't you taking a shower too, sir? 773 01:21:30,134 --> 01:21:33,502 I'm fine. I'm English. We like to be cold and wet. 774 01:21:33,596 --> 01:21:36,067 First, I think that we need to take care of that cut, sir. 775 01:21:36,103 --> 01:21:37,617 Do you have any band-aids? 776 01:21:41,604 --> 01:21:44,834 - Going camping, sir? - I'm fine, really. 777 01:21:46,275 --> 01:21:48,068 Stay there. I'll be right back. 778 01:22:32,195 --> 01:22:33,853 Sit up. 779 01:22:35,365 --> 01:22:37,241 Tilt your head back. 780 01:23:02,099 --> 01:23:04,655 Well sir, I'm afraid this time you don't have... 781 01:23:04,692 --> 01:23:07,497 ...the excuse of mescaline to explain your band-aid. 782 01:23:09,272 --> 01:23:11,942 I think we should get you out of those wet clothes. 783 01:23:14,486 --> 01:23:15,977 Yes, sir. 784 01:24:49,079 --> 01:24:52,196 - You're not too cold? - I'm great. 785 01:24:52,290 --> 01:24:55,158 - Would you like a drink? - A beer, sir. If you have one. 786 01:24:55,251 --> 01:24:58,119 I'm afraid that's all we have. 787 01:24:58,213 --> 01:24:59,871 Two beers coming up. 788 01:25:14,187 --> 01:25:16,940 - You live here all by yourself, sir? - I do now. 789 01:25:17,023 --> 01:25:19,974 I used to share this place with a friend. He was an architect. 790 01:25:20,068 --> 01:25:23,959 Man, guys my age dream about the kind of setup you've got here. 791 01:25:23,996 --> 01:25:26,783 I mean, what more can you want? 792 01:25:26,866 --> 01:25:30,401 You get to be left alone and come and go as you please. 793 01:25:32,122 --> 01:25:33,906 Is that's your idea of the perfect life? 794 01:25:33,942 --> 01:25:35,993 What's the matter, sir? Don't you believe me? 795 01:25:36,543 --> 01:25:38,652 If you're so keen on the idea living by yourself... 796 01:25:38,689 --> 01:25:40,552 ...where does Lois fit into this plan? 797 01:25:40,679 --> 01:25:43,857 Lois? What's she got to do with anything? 798 01:25:44,466 --> 01:25:46,545 I got the impression that you and she were together. 799 01:25:49,805 --> 01:25:53,142 Not really. She is kind of cool and... 800 01:25:53,860 --> 01:25:55,769 ...we're good friends but... 801 01:25:57,813 --> 01:26:00,764 I think what you really want to ask me is if we sleep together. 802 01:26:02,151 --> 01:26:04,559 - And do you? - We did. Once. 803 01:26:04,653 --> 01:26:08,949 - Why only once? - I didn't say only once, I said once. 804 01:26:10,200 --> 01:26:12,984 Come on, the last thing I want to talk about right now is Lois. 805 01:26:13,078 --> 01:26:14,569 What time is it? 806 01:26:17,166 --> 01:26:19,293 My watch seems to have stopped. 807 01:26:26,258 --> 01:26:27,832 Do you want me to go? 808 01:26:28,802 --> 01:26:31,378 You must be kidding. Go, get us another beer. 809 01:26:32,972 --> 01:26:34,849 Is that an order, sir? 810 01:26:36,726 --> 01:26:37,832 You're damn right it is. 811 01:26:49,655 --> 01:26:51,365 Pathetic. 812 01:26:52,617 --> 01:26:54,660 Did you say something, sir? 813 01:26:59,081 --> 01:27:00,573 Why are you here? 814 01:27:02,752 --> 01:27:08,289 Why did you get to the office and ask secretary for my address? 815 01:27:09,801 --> 01:27:14,197 I just wanted to see you someplace other than school. 816 01:27:15,348 --> 01:27:17,089 Why? 817 01:27:20,228 --> 01:27:24,177 Sometimes I think I'm crazy cause I see things so differently than everyone else. 818 01:27:25,472 --> 01:27:27,223 I feel like I can talk to you. 819 01:27:28,650 --> 01:27:31,696 To be honest sir, I was also worried about you today. 820 01:27:36,660 --> 01:27:38,151 Me? 821 01:27:38,245 --> 01:27:41,029 What's to be worried about? 822 01:27:41,790 --> 01:27:43,333 I'm fine. 823 01:27:52,384 --> 01:27:53,958 I'm... 824 01:27:55,178 --> 01:27:56,721 I'm fine. 825 01:30:40,574 --> 01:30:45,113 A few times in my life I've had moments of absolute clarity. 826 01:30:47,931 --> 01:30:50,067 When for a few brief seconds... 827 01:30:50,934 --> 01:30:53,203 ...the silence drowns out the noise... 828 01:30:53,240 --> 01:30:56,623 ...and I can feel rather than think. 829 01:30:57,482 --> 01:30:59,641 And things seem so sharp... 830 01:31:00,610 --> 01:31:02,685 And the world seems so fresh... 831 01:31:04,323 --> 01:31:07,575 ...as though it had all just come into existence. 832 01:31:27,636 --> 01:31:29,793 I can never make these moments last. 833 01:31:30,875 --> 01:31:32,245 I cling to them... 834 01:31:32,282 --> 01:31:34,456 ...but like everything they fade. 835 01:31:36,520 --> 01:31:38,762 I've lived my live on these moments. 836 01:31:40,232 --> 01:31:42,026 They pull me back to the present... 837 01:31:44,236 --> 01:31:49,078 ...and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be. 838 01:34:09,045 --> 01:34:12,419 And just like that it came. 839 01:34:19,455 --> 01:34:23,205 Subtitles by Ruthless