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It's not a lot of non-patient
visitors coming by.

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RITA:
Is Adam one of those visitors?

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♪ (PENSIVE MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

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When did it start?

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Around when my father died.

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-Did Adam have anything to do--
-Mm-mm, mm-mm, mm-mm.

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I've started searching
for my son.

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Do you want to be a mom, Brooke?
'Cause we can do it.

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This could be the thing
that finally makes us an us.

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You need closure
on this chapter.

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And when you're ready,
all you have to do is call me.

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You think that by lowering
yourself,

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you become more lovable.

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The only way for you
to experience real love

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is if you stop dimming
your light.

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Brooke:
You can probably imagine
how I've wrestled with this.

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I knew it would come completely
out of the blue for you.

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I didn't know how
you'd feel. Um...

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I still don't.

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♪ ♪

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But before I finish
and let you respond,

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I just, um...

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You should know that I'm open to

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whatever communication
you're comfortable with.

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I am not attached
to an outcome here.

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It's just that
it's been 27 years of...

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wondering, and I...

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couldn't go another day
without knowing you.

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How does it sound?

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Adam:
Well, it...

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It's not very different from
the last version, right?

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Well-- I-I added the part--

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About not being
attached. Yeah.

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Do you like it?

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I mean, it sounds
good, but...

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But what?

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(sighs) I mean,
come on, Brooke.

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You're very attached
to the outcome here.

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I'm not. Really, I'm not.

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You've been obsessing
over this speech

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since the day the file arrived.

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What-what's this,
the sixth draft? Seventh?

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Those are just
the ones I've heard.

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And how many times have
I run lines with you?

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I mean, that Celebrex audition
still haunts my dreams.

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"Look at me. I'm free."

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(soft laugh)

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I'm nervous, okay?

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Which means
I'm obviously attached.

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I just don't know how
to do this any other way.

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What if you just...

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let it be what it's gonna be?

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Don't over-think
and over-plan.

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Just pick up the phone,
see what happens.

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Because I'm not you.

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Huh. Alright, well,
I'm gonna get another one.

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-You want anything?
-Please stop asking
me that every night.

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-Only being a gentleman.
-I think there's more
to it than that.

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Yeah. Of course you do.

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Hey. Hey.

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-Come here. (laughs)
-(soft laugh)

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Let me make us dinner.

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You mean, I make us dinner.

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-Yes. That.
-Yes.

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(both laugh)

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(light piano music playing)

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♪ ♪

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Brooke: (sighs)
It is like watching someone

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swing from a trapeze or
swim the English Channel.

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It's just not something
I'm ever gonna be able to do.

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Bullshit. Even you
can slice a baguette.

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(soulful song playing)

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Can't I just tear
it into pieces?

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♪ Oh darling... ♪

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-Fine.
-(grabs knife)

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Thin slices or thick?

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-Baguette slice-sized,
thank you. Yes.
-(laughs)

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Did you know in Peru,
there's a city of bread?

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-Oropesa, it's called.
-Oropesa.

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-Mm-hmm.
-I did not.
How do you know that?

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It's, uh, just
outside of Cusco.

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My teenaged patient sent me

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-a selfie from there.
-Yeah?

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-She's really
making her way, huh?
-Yeah, she is.

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-Very proud of her.
-(song continues)

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You see yourself
in her, don't you?

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From one girl who's
always leaving to another.

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♪ Tell me that you want me ♪

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Is that true?

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(laughs) I mean,
certainly is to me.

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Every few years, I go to
bed thinking all is well,

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and then I open my eyes
in the morning...

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She's gone.

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(song continues)

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See? What do you need
Rita and Paul for?

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I'm all the insight
you need, baby.

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(soft laugh)

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(puts down bowl)

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-What? No, no, no,
hey, hey, hey, no!
-No, Adam?

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Do not insult this wine
with a water glass.

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Shit. Sheesh.

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-There you go.
-(soft laugh)

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(cutlery clinking)

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(contented sigh)

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-I think I, um,
overestimated your abilities.
-Oh.

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-What-what? Tragedy.
-(laughs)

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-(slicing)
-Mm!

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♪ Oh! Tell me that you want me ♪

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-Both: Mm!
-(slicing)

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-Bam. (laughs)
-Mm!

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(both laughing)

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Please make this one
better than the last one.

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There's literally nothing better
than G. Love & Special Sauce.

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Oh.

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Wait, where's the rest of the
"Never Forget Philly" collection

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-I put together when you moved?
-It's in there somewhere.

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Everything's alphabetized.

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(soft laugh)

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Oh yes.

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(record player clicking)

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-("I'll Make Love To You"
by Boyz II Men playing)
-Oh no!

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-Oh yes! Oh yes.
-(laughs) No!

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-Oh... Oh.
-And you're gonna dance
with me. Come on.

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Come on now.

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-(both laugh)
-(puts down glass)

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You know, the tall,
skinny guy was my favorite.

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-Shawn? Shawn was your dude?
-Yeah!

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-I know, I know.
I can't explain it.
-(laughs)

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-Especially after the braces.
-(laughs)

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-You know? (laughs)
-Yeah.

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I think about it a lot actually.
(laughs) I mean, imagine...

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being at the height of
your fame and getting

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adult braces!

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(both laugh)

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Poor guy! Oh!

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Both (singing):
And I will not let go!

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-Till you tell me to...
-(both laughing)

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Oh, this is ridiculous!

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-(both laugh)
-Oh!

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This makes me think of
junior year homecoming dance.

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-You know, I-I'd do it
all over again.
-Hm?

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Junior high,

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high school, all of it.

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-You would? Why?
-Yeah.

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-Shit was easy.
All I had to do was coast.
-(laughs)

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(both laugh)

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And it'd mean that,

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eventually,

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I'd get to meet you for
the first time all over again.

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-Oh, you are so full of shit.
-(laughs)

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-Am I?
-Yes! (laughs)

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-Yes!
-(both laugh)

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-Oh, are you okay?
-(laughs)

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-That's enough of that.
-Yeah, that was enough of that.

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(sighing) Oh.
Oh man.

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Uh...

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-I don't know how you did it.
-(turns off record)

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-Did what?
-Makes you think of how
the worlds we grow up in

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sink their teeth
into us. (laughs)

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Hey, Philly's tough.

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Big city.
Horrible weather.

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And your neighborhood...

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Yeah, I-I think
I know what you mean.

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I-I bet meeting you
so young though,

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-I wasn't a fully formed
dickhead yet, so...
-Mm.

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I'll never forget it.

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You walked into The 'Vous,
that was it for me.

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(laughs) You have a strange
way of showing it.

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I was with the whole cast.
You know,
I had to play it cool.

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No, you were with Amanda.

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-Who? Who?
-(clicks tongue, scoffs)

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-(whispers): Amanda.
-(both laugh)

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This place...

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did a number on you,
didn't it?

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But still, you came back.

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Yeah.

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I'll be honest, uh...

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fucked me up when
you broke the news.

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Well, leaving you
was the hardest part.

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(laughs) Yeah.

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I-I-I'm not talking
about you and me.

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Like, the whole thing just
fucked me up. The...

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It proved that if-if
you're moving back here,

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(laughs) then we're all just
continuous suckers for our pain.

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(ice clinking)

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You know?

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Yeah.

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Make me another one and...

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-meet me outside?
-Mm-hmm.

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(ice clinking)

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-(insects chirping)
-(light breeze blowing)

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(singing):
Abide with me...

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♪ Fast ♪

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♪ Falls the ♪

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♪ Eventide ♪

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♪ The darkness ♪

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♪ Deepens ♪

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♪ Lord, with me ♪

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♪ Abide ♪

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♪ When other ♪

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♪ Helpers ♪

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♪ Fail to comfort ♪

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♪ Me ♪

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♪ Help all the ♪

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♪ Helpless, Lord ♪

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♪ Abide with ♪

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♪ Me ♪

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I sang that at my mom's funeral.

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-Beautiful.
-Hm.

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I don't know how
I got through it.

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So young.

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Or that was exactly
how I got through it.

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First time I lost someone.

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I had no concept.

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Death means something different
to me now the older I get.

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I've found a perfect solution.

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-I just don't think about it.
-Hm.

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At my dad's funeral, I...

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this feeling washed over me.

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It wasn't grief. It was, um...

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recognition?

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This... crazy deep sadness that

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I'd entered this new phase.

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Birthdays,

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who cares?

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The time in life where your
friends are getting married,

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that's over.

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Now (laughs),

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just about all the babies
have been born, so...

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now, life is just
a series of funerals

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until it's your own.

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Why-why-why you,
why you talking like this?

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(wind chimes ringing)

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We've been a witness to each
other's lives, haven't we?

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A w-witness?

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Hell, hell yeah, we have.
You know? It...

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Next year, we'll have
known each other

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for longer than we haven't
known each other.

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(laughs) I can picture you--

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I know you can picture
me when, but what...

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what about now, Adam?

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What do you...

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How do you see me now
when you look at me?

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-What-what do I see?
-Mm-hmm. I need to know.

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-Look at me.
-(sighs)

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Tell me.

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-I really don't wanna do this.
-Please?

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What do I see? Wh... What do
you want me to say, Brooke?

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Th-th-that you look sad?

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00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:06,250
Yeah, we're all fuckin' sad.

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00:14:06,333 --> 00:14:09,250
It's been a shit year
for every human on Earth.

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Sad?

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00:14:12,458 --> 00:14:14,625
Yeah. Sad.

254
00:14:14,709 --> 00:14:17,208
I'm not a thesaurus.

255
00:14:17,291 --> 00:14:20,291
And you're sad, too?

256
00:14:22,333 --> 00:14:23,875
Yeah. Sure.

257
00:14:23,959 --> 00:14:27,709
I mean, sometimes.
I mean, it's not like,
you know, just...

258
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Baby (clears throat).
Don't listen to me.

259
00:14:32,834 --> 00:14:35,959
I'm sorry. Don't listen to me.
I'm a mess.

260
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I mean, you don't have to
apologize. I mean, like...

261
00:14:38,875 --> 00:14:41,250
-you're going through it,
you know?
-Oh!

262
00:14:41,333 --> 00:14:44,166
I am. I really am.

263
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(sighs)

264
00:14:47,166 --> 00:14:49,834
Let's just hope your
son doesn't inherit

265
00:14:49,917 --> 00:14:52,709
all this doom and gloom of
yours, you know? (soft laugh)

266
00:15:02,000 --> 00:15:03,709
No...

267
00:15:03,792 --> 00:15:05,917
-Brooke.
-I'm going to get a refill.

268
00:15:06,000 --> 00:15:08,166
-It was a joke!
-Okay.

269
00:15:09,542 --> 00:15:10,709
Ugh...

270
00:15:16,125 --> 00:15:18,709
Stop acting like a victim.

271
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I can't so much as roll over in
bed without you mentioning him.

272
00:15:22,250 --> 00:15:23,875
Talking about how much
you want to see him,

273
00:15:23,959 --> 00:15:25,291
going over your speech
over and over again.

274
00:15:25,375 --> 00:15:27,291
It-it's not fair
for you now to act like

275
00:15:27,375 --> 00:15:30,208
-he's some third rail
that can't be discussed.
-Not as a joke!

276
00:15:30,291 --> 00:15:31,959
I was trying to
lighten the mood.

277
00:15:32,041 --> 00:15:34,166
Oh, well, how about this
for lightening the mood?

278
00:15:34,250 --> 00:15:37,166
I hope your kids never
inherit your laziness,

279
00:15:37,250 --> 00:15:40,083
your arrogance, or any of
your other fuckboy tendencies

280
00:15:40,166 --> 00:15:42,834
-that I fell for.
-That you fell for?

281
00:15:42,917 --> 00:15:45,750
Yeah, like I'm some
fuckboy mastermind.

282
00:15:45,834 --> 00:15:47,959
Mastermind wouldn't be
the word I'd use.

283
00:15:48,041 --> 00:15:50,959
Oh, Brooke, you think
I haven't figured out that

284
00:15:51,041 --> 00:15:53,000
you're smarter than me?

285
00:15:53,083 --> 00:15:56,417
I did that math years ago, and
I'm totally comfortable with it.

286
00:15:56,500 --> 00:15:59,542
-How nice for you.
-No, I think it's nice for you.

287
00:15:59,625 --> 00:16:03,083
Zero competition, right?
No one can be as smart

288
00:16:03,166 --> 00:16:05,375
or as deep or
as hurt as you.

289
00:16:05,458 --> 00:16:09,000
-You own it all!
-Oh, that is true,
at least between us.

290
00:16:09,083 --> 00:16:12,333
I will always be more
whatever than you

291
00:16:12,417 --> 00:16:15,834
because I am willing
to have real feelings.

292
00:16:15,917 --> 00:16:18,000
I see them and I feel them,

293
00:16:18,083 --> 00:16:20,000
and I make meaning
out of my pain.

294
00:16:20,083 --> 00:16:21,500
I try.

295
00:16:21,583 --> 00:16:24,709
-I really try.
-Until you don't.

296
00:16:26,166 --> 00:16:27,250
(sighs)

297
00:16:31,959 --> 00:16:34,583
-.(puts down glass)
-I'm going to bed.

298
00:16:42,166 --> 00:16:45,291
(clattering)

299
00:16:57,583 --> 00:17:00,667
(runs water)

300
00:17:02,250 --> 00:17:05,667
-(shuts off water)
-See, this is exactly
what I'm talking about!

301
00:17:07,583 --> 00:17:10,125
There she goes, folks!

302
00:17:10,208 --> 00:17:12,750
Always fuckin leaving me
high and dry!

303
00:17:12,834 --> 00:17:15,458
(clattering)

304
00:17:16,709 --> 00:17:17,709
(click)

305
00:17:17,792 --> 00:17:20,375
-Not tonight, Brooke.
-(mumbling) I'm tired.

306
00:17:20,458 --> 00:17:22,583
-Hey. Sit up.
-No. No, I don't want to.

307
00:17:22,667 --> 00:17:25,792
-I'm gonna make
you go through it.
-I don't wanna go through it.

308
00:17:25,875 --> 00:17:27,458
Why? 'Cause it's
so much fun?

309
00:17:27,542 --> 00:17:30,083
-It's no fun at all.
-Yeah, so we're lucky then.

310
00:17:30,166 --> 00:17:32,250
Lucky, yeah.

311
00:17:32,333 --> 00:17:33,917
You know, thank God

312
00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:37,417
we never made a real run for it.

313
00:17:37,500 --> 00:17:40,291
Never got married,
never got pregnant.

314
00:17:40,375 --> 00:17:43,083
Me having the forethought
to take that

315
00:17:43,166 --> 00:17:44,834
morning-after pill.

316
00:17:47,333 --> 00:17:48,500
You did that?

317
00:17:54,792 --> 00:17:56,458
Why did you do that?

318
00:17:59,250 --> 00:18:01,750
-Tell me.
-(scoffs)

319
00:18:01,834 --> 00:18:03,417
I mean, look at us.

320
00:18:03,500 --> 00:18:05,917
Who deserves
us as parents?

321
00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:08,458
Well, you clearly...

322
00:18:08,542 --> 00:18:10,458
think your son
deserves you as a mother.

323
00:18:10,542 --> 00:18:12,166
So, the real question is

324
00:18:12,250 --> 00:18:14,125
who deserves me as a father?

325
00:18:14,208 --> 00:18:15,917
(sighs)

326
00:18:16,000 --> 00:18:19,208
How many more times are
you gonna underestimate me?

327
00:18:21,709 --> 00:18:23,083
-I...
-You do.

328
00:18:23,166 --> 00:18:25,542
You always have.
Every audition I go to.

329
00:18:25,625 --> 00:18:27,041
I can see it in your eyes.

330
00:18:27,125 --> 00:18:29,750
-You don't think
I'm gonna get the part.
-Can we sit down?

331
00:18:33,083 --> 00:18:34,959
And I know what you think.

332
00:18:35,041 --> 00:18:37,250
Brooke:
Think about what?

333
00:18:37,333 --> 00:18:39,542
(sighs) I know you,
Brooke Taylor.

334
00:18:41,875 --> 00:18:44,542
I knew you since
before you got all those

335
00:18:44,625 --> 00:18:46,709
fancy letters after your name.

336
00:18:46,792 --> 00:18:50,417
-I know how you frame it
in your mind.
-I'm confused.

337
00:18:50,500 --> 00:18:53,000
You think I like it
when you're drunk.

338
00:18:53,083 --> 00:18:54,875
Oh! I know that you do!

339
00:18:54,959 --> 00:18:56,625
-I like it when
you've had a drink.
-(scoffs)

340
00:18:56,709 --> 00:18:58,041
When we're laughing,

341
00:18:58,125 --> 00:19:00,625
-having fun, we're relaxed.
-Mm.

342
00:19:00,709 --> 00:19:01,750
But you think I like it

343
00:19:01,834 --> 00:19:04,458
because it gives me
an advantage.

344
00:19:05,667 --> 00:19:09,333
That you're dulled,
so I can shine.

345
00:19:09,417 --> 00:19:11,417
-I don't think that.
-Let's be clear here.
I never put

346
00:19:11,500 --> 00:19:13,583
put a goddamn drink in your
hand that you didn't ask for.

347
00:19:13,667 --> 00:19:16,333
Yeah, but you never care to
come around when I'm sober.

348
00:19:16,417 --> 00:19:17,792
No, because that's
when you leave me!

349
00:19:17,875 --> 00:19:20,000
Oh, oh, so we're gonna pretend
like you could stop drinking

350
00:19:20,083 --> 00:19:21,917
-when I decided to stop?
-You never asked me to!

351
00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:23,417
Get out!

352
00:19:23,500 --> 00:19:26,375
I'm not the alcoholic here.
You are! But somehow,

353
00:19:26,458 --> 00:19:28,375
I get cast in the role as

354
00:19:28,458 --> 00:19:31,250
the fuck-up,
the-the fuckboy, the loser.

355
00:19:31,333 --> 00:19:32,583
'Cause that's easier for you.

356
00:19:32,667 --> 00:19:34,083
As long as you
can keep on assuming

357
00:19:34,166 --> 00:19:35,709
that I can't give
you what you need,

358
00:19:35,792 --> 00:19:39,041
you can keep me at arm's length.
You get to stay safe.

359
00:19:39,125 --> 00:19:42,291
But what if that
makes you bad for me?

360
00:19:48,291 --> 00:19:51,792
-Can we just sit down?
-All I'm saying is, we
both know what this is,

361
00:19:51,875 --> 00:19:55,417
and it pisses me off when
you act like the innocent.

362
00:19:55,500 --> 00:19:59,083
-Y-you called me six weeks ago!
-And you came running!

363
00:19:59,166 --> 00:20:01,834
You're welcome, 'cause
that's the dance we do.

364
00:20:01,917 --> 00:20:04,125
But you know what
the fucked-up part is?

365
00:20:08,333 --> 00:20:09,792
I'm good with it.

366
00:20:09,875 --> 00:20:14,208
I'll drift in and out
of your life
like a fuckin' tumbleweed.

367
00:20:14,291 --> 00:20:16,291
I'll respond to your texts
when you feel lonely,

368
00:20:16,375 --> 00:20:20,041
and I'll slink away when you
come to your senses because...

369
00:20:20,125 --> 00:20:21,709
I know that...

370
00:20:23,125 --> 00:20:25,000
one of these times...

371
00:20:28,000 --> 00:20:29,875
you won't need to go.

372
00:20:32,500 --> 00:20:34,000
You'll want to stay with me.

373
00:20:37,041 --> 00:20:39,291
Because me
being there...

374
00:20:40,500 --> 00:20:43,208
won't be seen as a bad thing...

375
00:20:46,375 --> 00:20:48,500
but as a good thing.

376
00:20:52,667 --> 00:20:54,166
Because we love each other.

377
00:20:58,834 --> 00:21:00,625
We love each other.

378
00:21:00,709 --> 00:21:03,709
(light piano playing)

379
00:21:03,792 --> 00:21:05,875
♪ ♪

380
00:21:22,000 --> 00:21:25,166
(heavy breathing)

381
00:21:35,208 --> 00:21:38,417
(heavy breathing continues)

382
00:21:42,583 --> 00:21:45,542
(inaudible)

383
00:21:45,625 --> 00:21:47,750
♪ ♪

384
00:21:59,834 --> 00:22:02,917
♪ ♪

385
00:22:59,417 --> 00:23:02,500
♪ ♪

386
00:23:57,542 --> 00:24:00,458
♪ ♪

387
00:24:00,542 --> 00:24:03,709
(birds chirping)

388
00:24:15,375 --> 00:24:18,583
(wind chimes ringing)

389
00:24:42,917 --> 00:24:46,041
(line ringing)

390
00:25:00,166 --> 00:25:02,125
(ringing stops)

391
00:25:04,667 --> 00:25:07,000
Rita (on phone):
Hello?

392
00:25:07,083 --> 00:25:08,792
Rita.

393
00:25:08,875 --> 00:25:11,959
♪ ♪

394
00:25:16,792 --> 00:25:18,417
I'm ready.

395
00:25:20,417 --> 00:25:24,000
Rita:
Hallelujah. That's my girl.

396
00:25:25,750 --> 00:25:27,625
I'm on my way.

397
00:25:35,750 --> 00:25:38,834
♪ ♪

398
00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:57,959
♪ Abide with me ♪

399
00:25:59,625 --> 00:26:02,792
♪ Fast falls ♪

400
00:26:02,875 --> 00:26:06,667
♪ The eventide ♪

401
00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:13,083
♪ The darkness ♪

402
00:26:13,166 --> 00:26:16,333
♪ Deepens ♪

403
00:26:18,500 --> 00:26:21,250
♪ Lord, with me ♪

404
00:26:21,333 --> 00:26:24,542
♪ Abide ♪

405
00:26:26,709 --> 00:26:30,166
♪ When other ♪

406
00:26:31,875 --> 00:26:34,375
♪ Helpers ♪

407
00:26:34,458 --> 00:26:38,375
♪ Fail to comfort me ♪

408
00:26:43,500 --> 00:26:46,291
♪ Help all ♪

409
00:26:46,375 --> 00:26:49,709
♪ The helpless, Lord  ♪

410
00:26:51,667 --> 00:26:54,917
♪ Abide with ♪

411
00:26:56,625 --> 00:26:59,709
♪ Me ♪