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BROOKE TAYLOR:
Have you ever run away before?

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Yeah, but my grandma found me,
and you know what happens

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to a Black girl
when she doesn't act right.

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TAYLOR: What happens?

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You have to pick the belt.

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Is that what you're trying
to run away from?

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I told you last week that things
are pretty much meaningless.

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Sometimes I go to the overlook
at night by myself.

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I feel like I've already
hurled myself off it.

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I'm a fucking idiot, Dr. Taylor.

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I'm just like,
afraid all the time.

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TAYLOR: Afraid of what?

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That I don't have what it takes.

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And what if it you did
have what it takes, Laila?

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I'd be brave enough!

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Brave enough for what?

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To just quit.

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Laila, are you thinking
about suicide?

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How fucking dare you.

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(inhales, exhales)

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(typing, sends text)

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(ice clinking)

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(car door shuts)

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(knocking)

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(door opens, footsteps approach)

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Okay, where is she?

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(light piano playing)

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♪ ♪

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I went into her room
this morning,
and everything is gone.

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Normally, it's just a few
things so I won't notice,

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but now,
she doesn't even care.

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Bags, shoes, clothes,
all of it. Gone.

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I know she must've said
something to you about her plan.

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No, you can't tell
me that, can you?

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I send you emails, I call.

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-You don't tell me
a damn thing.
-Rhonda.

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Laila's 18. She has
a right to privacy.

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But I understand you
being worried about her.

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Worried? Hardly.

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Same story, different year.

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And, bless her heart,
Laila always thinks

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this'll be
the time it sticks.

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She's crazy if she thinks
I won't find her again.

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It's only a matter of time.

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Is this the same view
from the overlook?

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It's a mile west,
as the crow flies.

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I've been checking
her Uber account.

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She's been dropped off there
almost every day this week.

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Last night even.

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-Laila tell you what
she did with her car?
-Yes.

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-She donated it.
-Donated it?

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How's she gonna do that
without the title in her name?

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That girl left
the keys in it

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over on Leimert Boulevard
and just walked away.

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(phone buzzing)

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Did you see Laila
when she came home

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from the overlook last night?

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Does it matter
when she left?

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Gone is gone.

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Please, Brooke.
Help me find her.

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-Tell me what you know.
-Rhonda.

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Have you ever considered
letting Laila go?

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-Are you out of your mind?
-I mean she's smart, capable.

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She's an adult.

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I pay you an ungodly
amount of money

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to help my granddaughter,

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and this is what
I get in return?

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-The suggestion that
I just give up on her?
-Not give up on her.

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Give in to her.

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This is clearly
what she wants.

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Maybe you should indulge her,
and I'm not talking about

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indulging her
with the latest bag

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or phone.

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I'm talking about her heart.

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You know, I can tell
you've never been a mother.

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Because if you were,

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you would know that
"a child left to himself

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bringeth his mother to shame."

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Well, would you mind
indulging me for a moment?

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I'd like to try
a thought experiment,

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if you're open to it.

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-(phone buzzing)
-Fine. What is it?

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What's the worst
that could happen

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if you don't go after Laila?

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Walk me through
your predictions,
whatever you imagine.

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Well, she wouldn't
go to college.

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What happens
if she doesn't go?

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Look at me.
Divorced three times.

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Cocktail waitressing
at the Flamingo at 50.

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(laughs) I don't wish
any of that on Laila.

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-I want her to have options.
-So,

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-college is about giving
Laila choices in her life?
-Absolutely!

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Yet, it's the only choice
you'll allow her to make.

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When my son called
and said Desiree had left,

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and he and Laila needed me,
I was on the next flight.

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I traded Vegas for
a futon in Anaheim.

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No job, no friends,
no boyfriend.

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Just a-a dirty toddler
and a sore back.

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Jamal was
nowhere around.

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Wrecked over his marriage,
working himself to the bone.

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You know, I had already
raised up my boy.

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I had made
those mistakes,

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and I was determined
to do it better.

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Laila's so smart.

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Her brain, my goodness.

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And the mouth on her.

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Mm, makes you
wanna just...

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You know.

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But she deserves
everything I never had.

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My father felt the same way.

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That's right.
I'm sure he did.

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We all know the best defense
against this world,

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in this skin, is excellence.

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It makes us
impossible to deny.

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-Look at you now.
-I don't agree with that
philosophy, Rhonda.

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-You don't?
-Sitting in this chair,

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I often witness
the mental burden of the idea

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that just by virtue
of being Black,

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we are obligated to excel.

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That our excellence
is the basis upon which

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our humanity
is seen and respected.

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That's right,
it shouldn't be.

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But I live in the real world.

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And that's just
the thing, Rhonda.

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That's not reality

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to believe that
some abstract

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definition of excellence,

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defined by whiteness, no less,

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is the key to our freedom?

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That is a fantasy.

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And what makes Laila

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very much her grandmother's
granddaughter.

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-In what way?
-Well, you both seem to concoct

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these grand ideas of

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how things should go,
and if what is

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doesn't match up
with what should be,

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-all is lost.
-She's supposed to be good.

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She's supposed to do right.

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She's supposed to be
devoted and grateful

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-and--
-And that's what
the belt is for.

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She tell you I beat her.
I never beat her. Ever.

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A spanking, yes.

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(laughs) Absolutely,

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but that is educational.

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She needs to know what is
accepted and what is not.

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And as you well know,
Ms. Taylor,

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us Black folk are held

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to a different
standard in this life.

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And I'm the villain.

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I didn't say you were a villain.

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It's a legacy of trauma
that our people
are constantly asked

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to reckon with.

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You'll never know
what it's like.

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The number of times
Laila has had me

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dead to rights
with worry.

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The number of years
she has shaved off my life

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with the stunts she's pulled.

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If I didn't love
her so much, I'd...

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(sighs) Every time,
in moments like these,

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I pray, "Dear Lord,

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please keep Laila safe."

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And at the same time,
I am so angry.

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In my heart,

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how dare she.

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Instead of how dare she,

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what if you framed it as,

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"She dared."

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(phone buzzing)

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Rhonda, your phone.
Do you want to check it?

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Oh, it's not mine.

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Wait, you have Laila's phone?

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It was charging in her room
when I went in this morning.

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Keeps going off with
all these notifications.

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I don't know
how she stands it.

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I found all these
old texts from...

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Cara.

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Can't read a one of 'em.

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♪ ♪

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And you don't find it strange
that she left it behind?

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I chalk it up to her
getting smarter.

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Same with the credit cards.

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No plane fares, no rental cars.

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I checked in with
her school, friends.

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Have you reached out to Cara?

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I spoke to her
mother this morning,

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though a lot of good it did me.

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It's over between them.

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They haven't spoken
in over a week.

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Might be the one thing you
did right in here, Doctor.

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Anyone else that Laila
might reach out to?

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Another friend?
A cousin? Family member?

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-Brooke, you're starting
to scare me.
-That's not my intention.

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I'm just-- I'm trying to,
uh, piece together...

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And the car, Rhonda.
She just walked away from it?

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-Mm-hmm.
-As far as you know,

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things are over
between her and Cara.

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That's what her mother told me.

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And the last place
the Uber dropped her

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was the overlook.

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So how did she get home?

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What about, um, social media?

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Is there any activity
in the last 24 hours?

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Well, there was
something last night.

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Uh, I couldn't make
any sense of it though.

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Brooke:
Ave atque vale.

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Hail and farewe...

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farewell.

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(inhales)

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Rhonda, did you report
Laila missing this morning?

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They'll say what
they always say.

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That it's a voluntary
disappearance,
and that means...

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Wait.

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-Why?
-Now, I'm not
saying that Laila--

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That-that Laila what?
What-what are you saying?

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Rhonda, I think it's time for
us to call emergency services.

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(kettle screeching loudly)

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(kettle slowly stops)

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(puts down cup)

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Rhonda, I'd like to talk about
what we might expect, alright?

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We requested a welfare check.
Are you familiar with that?

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It's a request friends
and family can make

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when they fear for
someone's mental state.

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I requested that they go check
on Laila at the overlook,

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and I stressed that they send
mental health responders,

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-not the police.
-Ugh!

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Never should've
brought her here. Hm.

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Never.

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I thought it might
help make her stronger.

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Now, look-look what you've done.
You were supposed to help her.

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You're not alone in your
skepticism about what I do.

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Therapy's not exactly

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a time-honored tradition
in our community.

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It's hard to get over the stigma
when there's so few therapists

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who look like us,
who understand... us.

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There are plenty of
explanations, Brooke.

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You know that, right?

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Good ones. Plenty. I mean,

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what about Laila taking
her mother's ring?

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That has to mean something.

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Maybe she went
looking for her.

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-Would she where to start?
-Nah.

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Not much worth knowing, frankly.

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That woman's off raising
a white man's babies and...

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made herself a whole white
family, and that was that.

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Did she try keeping
in contact with Laila?

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Oh sure. She tried.

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But it was all
so damn confusing.

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Eventually, she just
couldn't do it anymore.

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Decided it was better for
everyone in the long run.

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I'll never understand...

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how she could just
walk away.

252
00:13:34,834 --> 00:13:39,041
My son, he's not perfect,
but no man is.

253
00:13:40,750 --> 00:13:43,291
But that sweet baby girl.

254
00:13:43,375 --> 00:13:46,792
How could you not want
to know her every minute?

255
00:13:47,417 --> 00:13:49,542
I mean, she's...

256
00:13:50,208 --> 00:13:52,041
she's everything.

257
00:13:53,333 --> 00:13:54,792
Is that true?

258
00:13:56,291 --> 00:13:58,834
Why else would I do
so much for her?

259
00:13:58,917 --> 00:14:01,750
I want Laila's every
last dream to come true.

260
00:14:01,834 --> 00:14:03,375
You sure they're her dreams?

261
00:14:03,458 --> 00:14:05,667
Well, they sure
as hell aren't mine.

262
00:14:05,750 --> 00:14:06,917
Berkeley?

263
00:14:08,542 --> 00:14:09,625
That's her dream?

264
00:14:09,709 --> 00:14:12,417
Berkeley, yes.
Absolutely yes.

265
00:14:13,583 --> 00:14:15,250
Ask her.

266
00:14:19,875 --> 00:14:23,083
My son? He works all the time.

267
00:14:25,583 --> 00:14:29,792
Misses out on a lot,
but he provides.

268
00:14:29,875 --> 00:14:31,750
You know, we have a life.

269
00:14:31,834 --> 00:14:35,625
I couldn't have thought to
imagine back where I came from.

270
00:14:37,250 --> 00:14:41,125
We were poor people,
Brooke. Poor people.

271
00:14:41,208 --> 00:14:45,834
And even now,
it's not the house, the cars.

272
00:14:45,917 --> 00:14:48,250
The real luxury Jamal's success

273
00:14:48,333 --> 00:14:49,875
has given to this family

274
00:14:49,959 --> 00:14:52,917
is the opportunity to dream.

275
00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:55,000
What do you mean?

276
00:14:55,083 --> 00:14:57,542
Laila, being all in
her head all the time.

277
00:14:57,625 --> 00:15:00,208
In some ways, that's success.

278
00:15:00,291 --> 00:15:02,083
She's not stuck
somewhere thinking about

279
00:15:02,166 --> 00:15:05,000
where her next meal
is coming from.

280
00:15:05,083 --> 00:15:08,959
Not counting the hours
before the power's cut off.

281
00:15:09,041 --> 00:15:11,417
You think anybody
ever asked me

282
00:15:11,500 --> 00:15:14,208
what my hopes were
when I was growing up?

283
00:15:14,291 --> 00:15:17,250
They're gonna care what
a half-starved little Black girl

284
00:15:17,333 --> 00:15:20,166
out of east Texas in the '60s

285
00:15:20,250 --> 00:15:22,667
wants out of life?

286
00:15:22,750 --> 00:15:24,750
(scoffs) Come on, now.

287
00:15:24,834 --> 00:15:27,959
And if they had asked,

288
00:15:28,041 --> 00:15:30,959
-what did you want?
-That's what I'm saying, Brooke.

289
00:15:31,041 --> 00:15:33,291
I didn't have dreams.

290
00:15:33,375 --> 00:15:35,625
All I have are
the people I make,

291
00:15:35,709 --> 00:15:39,000
and I put every single
thing I have into them.

292
00:15:40,542 --> 00:15:43,500
My child and the child
of my child.

293
00:15:43,583 --> 00:15:46,709
And now, look.
He-he's dead inside,

294
00:15:46,792 --> 00:15:48,500
and she...

295
00:15:49,834 --> 00:15:52,000
is in the wind.

296
00:15:55,750 --> 00:15:59,458
I can feel how deep
your pain runs, Rhonda.

297
00:15:59,542 --> 00:16:01,792
I spent over half
my life in service

298
00:16:01,875 --> 00:16:04,250
of other people's dreams.

299
00:16:04,333 --> 00:16:06,375
My father put me
through the paces,

300
00:16:06,458 --> 00:16:09,333
and I resented him
my entire life.

301
00:16:10,250 --> 00:16:12,625
Never got to make peace.

302
00:16:12,709 --> 00:16:14,875
I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

303
00:16:17,333 --> 00:16:19,709
You mean you wouldn't
wish it on me and Laila.

304
00:16:19,792 --> 00:16:22,375
I'm glad you made
the connection.

305
00:16:22,959 --> 00:16:24,041
(sighs)

306
00:16:25,542 --> 00:16:28,667
You're a real piece of work,
Brooke Taylor.

307
00:16:28,750 --> 00:16:31,333
That girl
breaks my heart.

308
00:16:31,417 --> 00:16:32,667
She tears me to pieces,

309
00:16:32,750 --> 00:16:35,458
which makes me want
to tear her to pieces,

310
00:16:35,542 --> 00:16:38,250
and you try to make me
feel sorry for her?

311
00:16:39,458 --> 00:16:41,166
-Sitting there, judging me...
-No.

312
00:16:41,250 --> 00:16:43,125
for the way
I raise my grandbaby?

313
00:16:43,208 --> 00:16:45,000
For the way
I have loved her?

314
00:16:45,083 --> 00:16:47,834
And all the while,
she's missing.

315
00:16:47,917 --> 00:16:50,667
Maybe hurt. Maybe worse.

316
00:16:50,750 --> 00:16:52,917
-I don't wanna hear it, Brooke.
-No, Rhonda.

317
00:16:53,000 --> 00:16:55,792
I was only going
to say that...

318
00:16:55,875 --> 00:16:59,291
it's always so much
easier to be mad

319
00:16:59,375 --> 00:17:01,041
than scared.

320
00:17:05,709 --> 00:17:08,875
(phone ringing, buzzing)

321
00:17:15,291 --> 00:17:16,625
Dr. Brooke Taylor.

322
00:17:16,709 --> 00:17:19,500
Laila (on phone):
(giggles) Oh, so formal.

323
00:17:19,583 --> 00:17:22,625
What's up, Dr. T?
Do you have a moment?

324
00:17:25,041 --> 00:17:26,583
Of course, Laila.

325
00:17:26,667 --> 00:17:28,333
Laila: I'm sorry,
but I was gonna call you

326
00:17:28,417 --> 00:17:30,834
at the beginning
of our session,
but, uh, got confused

327
00:17:30,917 --> 00:17:32,583
at the time zones
and everything.

328
00:17:32,667 --> 00:17:34,125
Give me the phone.

329
00:17:36,083 --> 00:17:40,375
-Sounds like you're okay.
-Laila: I am, actually.

330
00:17:40,458 --> 00:17:42,792
I'm good. Really good.

331
00:17:45,041 --> 00:17:47,250
(footsteps receding)

332
00:17:49,417 --> 00:17:50,542
(shuts door)

333
00:17:50,625 --> 00:17:53,667
What did you mean by time zones?

334
00:17:53,750 --> 00:17:56,125
Laila:
Well, I did it.  (chuckles)

335
00:17:56,208 --> 00:17:58,750
I left. I'm-I'm in Lima.

336
00:17:58,834 --> 00:18:01,125
Can you FaceTime?
I can show you.

337
00:18:07,000 --> 00:18:11,458
So, I am here, alone.

338
00:18:11,542 --> 00:18:14,959
That is really something.

339
00:18:15,041 --> 00:18:16,417
-I'm--
-What?

340
00:18:16,500 --> 00:18:18,208
Shocked? Upset?

341
00:18:21,083 --> 00:18:22,792
I'm proud.

342
00:18:24,291 --> 00:18:27,625
I'm so glad you
called to check in.

343
00:18:27,709 --> 00:18:29,667
I was worried
when you didn't show.

344
00:18:29,750 --> 00:18:32,000
(traffic noise in distance)

345
00:18:32,083 --> 00:18:33,291
Brooke:
And there's...

346
00:18:33,375 --> 00:18:36,041
someone else you should be
in contact with.

347
00:18:37,250 --> 00:18:39,125
Grandma?
So she can come down here

348
00:18:39,208 --> 00:18:41,875
and drag me back?
Nah, I'm not doing that.

349
00:18:41,959 --> 00:18:43,709
Well, just call her
and tell her you

350
00:18:43,792 --> 00:18:46,500
-aren't ready to come home.
-She's gonna, like,

351
00:18:46,583 --> 00:18:48,750
straight-up choke me
through the phone. No way.

352
00:18:48,834 --> 00:18:50,250
Brooke:
Listen, Laila.

353
00:18:50,333 --> 00:18:53,834
You made it to a new country.
You found a place to sleep.

354
00:18:53,917 --> 00:18:56,250
-You, what, you bought
that phone there?
-Yeah.

355
00:18:56,333 --> 00:18:58,709
I had to. Rhonda's had
tracking apps on my phone

356
00:18:58,792 --> 00:19:00,166
since I was, like, 10.

357
00:19:00,250 --> 00:19:03,959
You're navigating a city
you've never been in before.
You!

358
00:19:04,041 --> 00:19:05,959
And you're telling me
you're incapable of calling

359
00:19:06,041 --> 00:19:08,458
your grandmother to tell her
you don't want her to worry,

360
00:19:08,542 --> 00:19:10,583
but you want to stay
where you are?

361
00:19:12,208 --> 00:19:14,792
Look, she doesn't
care where I am.

362
00:19:14,875 --> 00:19:17,917
-(imitates buzzer)
-(giggles)

363
00:19:18,000 --> 00:19:21,750
-Can I ask you
a question, Laila?
-Hm.

364
00:19:21,834 --> 00:19:23,875
Why'd you take
your mother's ring?

365
00:19:24,333 --> 00:19:25,417
(scoffs)

366
00:19:26,875 --> 00:19:29,917
Um... I'm scared.

367
00:19:31,417 --> 00:19:34,625
But, um, but she did it.
You know?

368
00:19:35,417 --> 00:19:37,125
Did what?

369
00:19:37,208 --> 00:19:40,875
Well, my mom needed to go,
and she did.

370
00:19:42,750 --> 00:19:45,875
I was mad at her
for so long, but...

371
00:19:46,917 --> 00:19:51,000
I think I sort of
understand now.

372
00:19:51,083 --> 00:19:53,250
I... sort of.

373
00:19:55,375 --> 00:19:59,125
Maybe she's a little
like my hero.

374
00:20:01,959 --> 00:20:03,083
Okay, look.

375
00:20:03,166 --> 00:20:07,041
How about I promise to
think about calling Rhonda?

376
00:20:07,125 --> 00:20:10,709
-I'll take it.
-(giggles) Okay.

377
00:20:10,792 --> 00:20:12,417
Well, I need to go
to the train station,

378
00:20:12,500 --> 00:20:14,333
figure out if buying
a ticket in person

379
00:20:14,417 --> 00:20:15,917
is easier than
buying one online

380
00:20:16,000 --> 00:20:18,834
because it was, like,
a mess the first time.

381
00:20:19,750 --> 00:20:21,125
Ave atque vale.

382
00:20:21,208 --> 00:20:23,792
Ah! You saw my post?

383
00:20:23,875 --> 00:20:26,417
(laughs)
Was it too cryptic?
I don't know.

384
00:20:26,500 --> 00:20:28,417
Like, I-I thought it was cool,
but, you know,

385
00:20:28,500 --> 00:20:31,667
just like saying goodbye
to the city and all.

386
00:20:32,959 --> 00:20:36,208
It was cryptic. And cool.

387
00:20:36,291 --> 00:20:38,792
Hm. (soft laugh)

388
00:20:40,458 --> 00:20:42,041
Well, um,

389
00:20:42,125 --> 00:20:44,583
enjoy the rest of your, uh,

390
00:20:44,667 --> 00:20:46,959
night or day or...

391
00:20:47,041 --> 00:20:50,291
Yeah.
Bruh, like, time zones?

392
00:20:51,667 --> 00:20:55,417
Call me. Anytime.

393
00:20:55,500 --> 00:20:58,291
Thanks, Dr. Taylor.

394
00:21:01,583 --> 00:21:02,709
(beeping)

395
00:21:08,875 --> 00:21:10,041
(claps thigh)

396
00:21:15,667 --> 00:21:18,834
(sobbing)

397
00:21:20,959 --> 00:21:22,375
(gasping)

398
00:21:28,041 --> 00:21:29,458
She's safe, Rhonda.

399
00:21:29,542 --> 00:21:31,875
-She's safe.
-(crying)

400
00:21:33,291 --> 00:21:35,792
(gasping)

401
00:21:35,875 --> 00:21:38,542
-Where is she?
-You think you can let Laila

402
00:21:38,625 --> 00:21:41,375
-be where she is?
-Which is where, damn it?!

403
00:21:41,458 --> 00:21:44,959
Even if she doesn't
make the right choices?

404
00:21:45,041 --> 00:21:47,625
Even if she messes up. Even,

405
00:21:47,709 --> 00:21:51,875
God forbid,
she gets herself hurt.

406
00:21:51,959 --> 00:21:56,625
It's important for Laila
to do this on her own.

407
00:21:56,709 --> 00:21:59,542
I've done a good long time
on this Earth, Brooke,

408
00:21:59,625 --> 00:22:02,834
but I have never been
as mad at-at anyone

409
00:22:02,917 --> 00:22:05,667
as I am at you
this very minute.

410
00:22:05,750 --> 00:22:08,250
Or you've never
been so scared.

411
00:22:10,583 --> 00:22:12,750
We've talked about
the worst thing

412
00:22:12,834 --> 00:22:15,542
that could happen
if you let Laila go,

413
00:22:15,625 --> 00:22:17,417
but the best thing
that could happen

414
00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:20,083
is Laila finds her purpose

415
00:22:20,166 --> 00:22:23,125
and you finally
know yours.

416
00:22:40,917 --> 00:22:44,291
I saw your car in
the garage on the way in.

417
00:22:44,375 --> 00:22:46,583
You think you're some
kind of professional,

418
00:22:46,667 --> 00:22:49,291
out here driving
around in a Prius?

419
00:22:53,291 --> 00:22:56,208
What's wrong with a Prius?

420
00:22:56,291 --> 00:22:58,333
Honey, they got all kinds of

421
00:22:58,417 --> 00:23:00,250
environmental cars these days.

422
00:23:00,333 --> 00:23:02,792
You don't have to
punish yourself.

423
00:23:03,625 --> 00:23:05,542
Come to the dealership,

424
00:23:05,625 --> 00:23:09,000
and I'll make sure you
drive away in a real car.

425
00:23:12,625 --> 00:23:15,875
(phone ringing)

426
00:23:15,959 --> 00:23:18,792
What if it's her?
What do I do?

427
00:23:19,458 --> 00:23:21,000
You listen.

428
00:23:21,083 --> 00:23:24,166
♪ ♪

429
00:23:25,542 --> 00:23:27,125
(ringing stops)

430
00:23:30,000 --> 00:23:31,625
Hello?

431
00:23:34,500 --> 00:23:35,667
(sighs)

432
00:23:36,959 --> 00:23:39,125
(footsteps receding)

433
00:23:43,875 --> 00:23:45,000
(door shuts)

434
00:23:58,667 --> 00:24:01,792
♪ ♪

435
00:24:28,458 --> 00:24:31,542
♪ ♪

436
00:24:58,500 --> 00:25:01,583
♪ ♪