1 00:00:05,375 --> 00:00:08,583 -(birds chirping) -(car approaching) 2 00:00:18,875 --> 00:00:20,083 (brakes creaking) 3 00:00:22,792 --> 00:00:24,750 (engine revving) 4 00:00:33,959 --> 00:00:36,125 -Is this it? -Mm-hmm. 5 00:00:37,709 --> 00:00:39,875 Pull into the driveway, baby. 6 00:00:39,959 --> 00:00:41,125 You think I'm walking one step 7 00:00:41,208 --> 00:00:42,792 more than I have to in this heat? 8 00:00:48,583 --> 00:00:50,792 Look, I really don't wanna do this. 9 00:00:52,291 --> 00:00:54,792 Yeah. Well, neither do I. 10 00:00:56,250 --> 00:00:57,834 Pull in. 11 00:01:06,709 --> 00:01:09,417 Woman (on voicemail): And it's probably best to reach me in the mornings. 12 00:01:09,500 --> 00:01:11,583 Oh! And I was referred by Yvonne White. 13 00:01:11,667 --> 00:01:14,417 -(Brooke laughs) -She loves you. 14 00:01:14,500 --> 00:01:16,333 I look forward to speaking. 15 00:01:16,417 --> 00:01:18,959 Man (on voicemail): Hello, Ms. Taylor. This is John Keene 16 00:01:19,041 --> 00:01:20,542 from Beacon Funeral Home. 17 00:01:20,625 --> 00:01:22,500 We're still hoping to hear how you'd like to collect 18 00:01:22,583 --> 00:01:23,750 your father's cremains. 19 00:01:23,834 --> 00:01:25,417 We can personally deliver the urn, 20 00:01:25,500 --> 00:01:27,750 or we're open for pickup seven days a week. 21 00:01:27,834 --> 00:01:30,542 Thank you, Ms. Taylor, and God bless. 22 00:01:33,667 --> 00:01:35,375 (car doors shut) 23 00:01:37,667 --> 00:01:39,750 (light music playing) 24 00:01:39,834 --> 00:01:41,959 ♪ 25 00:01:57,041 --> 00:01:58,750 (footsteps approaching) 26 00:02:01,417 --> 00:02:03,291 Hello. 27 00:02:03,375 --> 00:02:06,041 -So, this is your home? -It is. 28 00:02:07,667 --> 00:02:10,959 Why are you standing there, letting out all the cold air? 29 00:02:11,041 --> 00:02:12,542 Hello. 30 00:02:12,625 --> 00:02:14,625 Please come in. 31 00:02:14,709 --> 00:02:16,458 Uh, you both can help yourself 32 00:02:16,542 --> 00:02:18,041 to the hand sanitizer right there. 33 00:02:18,125 --> 00:02:19,792 Mm. 34 00:02:19,875 --> 00:02:21,250 Rhonda: I've heard so much about 35 00:02:21,333 --> 00:02:23,792 -your office in Santa Monica. -Hmm! 36 00:02:23,875 --> 00:02:26,959 -Marilyn Hudson says it's gorgeous. -You know Marilyn! 37 00:02:27,041 --> 00:02:31,333 Everyone knows everyone around here, sweetheart. You know that. 38 00:02:31,417 --> 00:02:35,750 Hm. I had a dietitian once where I went to her house. 39 00:02:35,834 --> 00:02:38,834 Couldn't afford the rent on an office. 40 00:02:38,917 --> 00:02:41,917 Well, unfortunately, my office is in a medical building. 41 00:02:42,000 --> 00:02:44,834 I still have concerns about reopening there. 42 00:02:44,917 --> 00:02:48,250 -But, this has worked out well enough. -Rhonda: Mm-hmm. 43 00:02:51,250 --> 00:02:53,208 I'm very sorry to hear about your father. 44 00:02:53,291 --> 00:02:55,375 I admired him. 45 00:02:55,458 --> 00:02:57,250 Thank you, Rhonda. 46 00:02:57,333 --> 00:03:00,166 Is-is this all his original design? 47 00:03:00,250 --> 00:03:03,500 Would you like to see my silverware drawer? 48 00:03:03,583 --> 00:03:06,667 When I was young, my mom wouldn't let me sleep over 49 00:03:06,750 --> 00:03:09,083 at my friend's house, until she checked the forks 50 00:03:09,166 --> 00:03:11,417 to make sure they were all clean. 51 00:03:13,959 --> 00:03:15,375 (laughs) 52 00:03:17,500 --> 00:03:19,291 -Why don't we have a seat? -Mm. 53 00:03:23,959 --> 00:03:26,041 So, how does this work? 54 00:03:26,125 --> 00:03:28,041 Two sessions? Three? 55 00:03:28,125 --> 00:03:30,959 Ideally, I like to think of it as a process. 56 00:03:31,041 --> 00:03:34,125 Sure, sure, but we're here for a specific problem. 57 00:03:34,208 --> 00:03:37,125 -Uh, aren't we, Laila? -(pats couch) 58 00:03:44,500 --> 00:03:47,792 My granddaughter here is choosing to be... 59 00:03:49,875 --> 00:03:52,166 lesbian. 60 00:03:52,250 --> 00:03:55,000 And this little girl needs to understand the consequences 61 00:03:55,083 --> 00:03:58,625 of that choice in the real world. 62 00:03:58,709 --> 00:04:01,250 I'm not saying I have any problem with it. 63 00:04:01,333 --> 00:04:02,583 Love is love. 64 00:04:02,667 --> 00:04:05,625 But Laila needs to understand that she was born Black, 65 00:04:05,709 --> 00:04:07,375 she was born a woman, 66 00:04:07,458 --> 00:04:10,166 and all that is hard enough without... 67 00:04:10,250 --> 00:04:12,291 this other thing on top of it. 68 00:04:12,375 --> 00:04:13,667 You see the news. 69 00:04:13,750 --> 00:04:17,375 The gays and the lesbians are at higher risk for everything. 70 00:04:17,458 --> 00:04:20,583 Failure, depression, addiction, 71 00:04:20,667 --> 00:04:23,291 failure. And that... 72 00:04:25,333 --> 00:04:28,417 Laila here is just too good for all that. 73 00:04:28,500 --> 00:04:29,875 (scoffs) 74 00:04:29,959 --> 00:04:32,917 Rhonda: Hand to God, Laila, you are. 75 00:04:33,000 --> 00:04:35,750 It has been my privilege 76 00:04:35,834 --> 00:04:37,583 to raise you up. 77 00:04:37,667 --> 00:04:39,834 And there hasn't been one minute when I didn't want 78 00:04:39,917 --> 00:04:42,166 the very best for you. 79 00:04:42,250 --> 00:04:44,041 I know, Grandma. 80 00:04:44,917 --> 00:04:47,000 Rhonda. 81 00:04:47,083 --> 00:04:49,208 I have to ask what you're expecting 82 00:04:49,291 --> 00:04:51,667 because this will not be any sort of 83 00:04:51,750 --> 00:04:53,125 conversion therapy. 84 00:04:53,208 --> 00:04:55,667 Who said conversion? I didn't say that. 85 00:04:55,750 --> 00:04:58,959 I just want you to provide Laila with some tools and whatnot 86 00:04:59,041 --> 00:05:00,792 for the real world. 87 00:05:00,875 --> 00:05:03,458 She leaves for college in the fall, 88 00:05:03,542 --> 00:05:05,875 out from under my roof. 89 00:05:05,959 --> 00:05:08,417 And I want her to be ready. 90 00:05:08,500 --> 00:05:11,125 That's the long and the short of it. 91 00:05:11,208 --> 00:05:13,083 And my hope for Laila 92 00:05:13,166 --> 00:05:14,458 is for her 93 00:05:14,542 --> 00:05:17,792 to gain the clearest, fullest understanding of who she is 94 00:05:17,875 --> 00:05:20,041 and who she wants to be. 95 00:05:20,917 --> 00:05:22,041 Nothing more. 96 00:05:25,250 --> 00:05:26,583 Well... 97 00:05:28,125 --> 00:05:31,166 I have to get someone to look at these cuticles. 98 00:05:31,250 --> 00:05:32,500 (giggling) 99 00:05:32,583 --> 00:05:35,458 I'll be back in an hour. Keys. 100 00:05:38,250 --> 00:05:39,583 (sighs) 101 00:05:40,750 --> 00:05:42,834 Love you, baby. 102 00:05:42,917 --> 00:05:46,291 (footsteps departing) 103 00:05:46,375 --> 00:05:48,792 (door opens, shuts) 104 00:05:57,667 --> 00:05:59,250 So... 105 00:06:01,166 --> 00:06:04,417 Laila, what school are you going to in the fall? 106 00:06:10,500 --> 00:06:14,041 Berkeley, Yale, doesn't matter. 107 00:06:14,125 --> 00:06:17,792 -Why wouldn't it matter? -Well, is there really any difference between 'em? 108 00:06:19,333 --> 00:06:21,125 Doesn't sound like you're too excited 109 00:06:21,208 --> 00:06:23,500 about the prospect of college. 110 00:06:23,583 --> 00:06:26,208 I mean, whatever Grandma wants, Grandma gets, right? 111 00:06:26,291 --> 00:06:27,625 Ah. 112 00:06:28,792 --> 00:06:30,583 Listen, Laila? 113 00:06:30,667 --> 00:06:33,041 Time we spend in here, it's yours. 114 00:06:33,125 --> 00:06:36,208 Doesn't matter who brought you or whatever 115 00:06:36,291 --> 00:06:37,500 their goals are. 116 00:06:37,583 --> 00:06:39,250 You can talk about... 117 00:06:39,333 --> 00:06:40,959 whatever you want. 118 00:06:42,291 --> 00:06:43,625 (scoffs) 119 00:06:43,709 --> 00:06:45,291 Are you worried that I might 120 00:06:45,375 --> 00:06:49,500 be uncomfortable discussing your sexual identity or preferences? 121 00:06:50,375 --> 00:06:52,166 I don't know. 122 00:06:52,250 --> 00:06:53,959 Let's find out. 123 00:06:54,041 --> 00:06:57,500 Let's talk about the fact that I'm a sex addict. 124 00:06:59,208 --> 00:07:01,667 What's the definition of a sex addict? For you. 125 00:07:01,750 --> 00:07:05,083 Well, I imagine it's the same as yours. 126 00:07:05,166 --> 00:07:07,458 A person who suffers from an intimacy disorder, 127 00:07:07,542 --> 00:07:10,208 characterized by compulsive sexual thoughts and acts. 128 00:07:10,291 --> 00:07:12,500 And why do you think that describes you? 129 00:07:14,709 --> 00:07:17,125 Um, well, I don't know, 130 00:07:17,208 --> 00:07:19,291 I feel like I'm addicted to sex. 131 00:07:20,125 --> 00:07:22,041 Like I... 132 00:07:22,125 --> 00:07:24,083 wanna have sex all the time, so yeah. 133 00:07:24,166 --> 00:07:25,750 I feel like I'm addicted. 134 00:07:25,834 --> 00:07:29,125 What does sex mean to you? As in... 135 00:07:29,208 --> 00:07:31,000 how do you define sex? 136 00:07:33,250 --> 00:07:35,917 I mean, anything. Everything. 137 00:07:36,000 --> 00:07:38,917 Is watching pornography, is that sex? 138 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:41,333 Sure. I love porn. 139 00:07:41,417 --> 00:07:45,083 Mostly just sex positive stuff, but... 140 00:07:45,875 --> 00:07:49,417 also other stuff. 141 00:07:49,500 --> 00:07:53,291 Sometimes I get bored when everyone's all soft and happy. 142 00:07:53,375 --> 00:07:55,792 -Mm. -So it depends on my mood. 143 00:07:55,875 --> 00:07:58,750 It's like what flavor of the patriarchy 144 00:07:58,834 --> 00:08:00,792 do I want on my tongue today? 145 00:08:00,875 --> 00:08:03,417 And do you masturbate while watching pornography? 146 00:08:03,500 --> 00:08:04,792 Well, does anyone not? 147 00:08:04,875 --> 00:08:06,750 How often do you masturbate? 148 00:08:07,458 --> 00:08:08,917 Every day. 149 00:08:12,667 --> 00:08:14,792 I mean... (scoffs) 150 00:08:14,875 --> 00:08:16,333 sometimes, it's... 151 00:08:16,417 --> 00:08:17,834 some days, most days. 152 00:08:17,917 --> 00:08:21,667 And how often do you have sex with a partner? IRL. 153 00:08:21,750 --> 00:08:23,166 Wow. 154 00:08:23,250 --> 00:08:24,750 "IRL." 155 00:08:24,834 --> 00:08:26,417 Relatable. 156 00:08:27,917 --> 00:08:30,750 Ugh! My God! I'm joking! 157 00:08:30,834 --> 00:08:34,000 -Fuck. Every day. Mm. -Every day? 158 00:08:34,083 --> 00:08:36,917 I mean, sometimes it's less, but on average... 159 00:08:38,583 --> 00:08:40,500 Let's be judicious. 160 00:08:40,583 --> 00:08:42,959 Maybe five to six times a week. 161 00:08:43,041 --> 00:08:46,375 How are you navigating that during the pandemic? 162 00:08:46,458 --> 00:08:49,583 What, are you asking me if I'm safe? 163 00:08:49,667 --> 00:08:52,542 'Cause there are ways. I'm... I'm always safe. 164 00:08:52,625 --> 00:08:55,959 And does sex get in the way of school or... 165 00:08:56,041 --> 00:08:58,709 Not... really. 166 00:08:58,792 --> 00:09:00,417 So, you have enough time 167 00:09:00,500 --> 00:09:03,291 between your schoolwork, 168 00:09:03,375 --> 00:09:05,834 all your extracurricular activities, 169 00:09:05,917 --> 00:09:09,083 the obligations a top-tier university require 170 00:09:09,166 --> 00:09:13,333 to also engage in near-daily sexual activities? 171 00:09:15,917 --> 00:09:17,000 Well... 172 00:09:18,125 --> 00:09:21,333 I never have as much sex as I want to. 173 00:09:23,291 --> 00:09:24,458 Hm. 174 00:09:24,542 --> 00:09:27,125 Are you fulfilled by the sex you do have? 175 00:09:31,375 --> 00:09:33,041 Sometimes. 176 00:09:33,125 --> 00:09:35,875 Well then, why have sex if you're not fulfilled? 177 00:09:37,041 --> 00:09:40,500 That is such a straight lady thing to say. 178 00:09:40,583 --> 00:09:43,333 You know, I bet you have some romance novels around here 179 00:09:43,417 --> 00:09:45,959 -somewhere. -Do you think anyone is straight? 180 00:09:46,959 --> 00:09:48,667 Um... 181 00:09:48,750 --> 00:09:51,125 I don't know. (scoffs) Probably not. 182 00:09:51,208 --> 00:09:54,000 But you do think I am. Why? 183 00:09:54,083 --> 00:09:56,291 (scoffs) Um, 184 00:09:56,375 --> 00:09:58,959 I mean, you and me, we're not the same. 185 00:09:59,041 --> 00:10:01,000 I mean, you're not... 186 00:10:01,083 --> 00:10:03,083 you know. 187 00:10:03,166 --> 00:10:05,208 -Not what? -In touch. 188 00:10:06,125 --> 00:10:07,250 With your sexuality. 189 00:10:07,333 --> 00:10:09,333 And why do you think you can tell me 190 00:10:09,417 --> 00:10:11,500 anything about my sexuality? 191 00:10:15,500 --> 00:10:17,250 You're right. I can't. 192 00:10:18,375 --> 00:10:20,166 Sorry. 193 00:10:20,250 --> 00:10:23,333 So, if you're not always fulfilled 194 00:10:23,417 --> 00:10:26,291 by your sexual encounters, 195 00:10:26,375 --> 00:10:30,709 are you focused on others' arousal? 196 00:10:30,792 --> 00:10:33,750 -I know what I am, and that ain't it. -No? 197 00:10:35,625 --> 00:10:37,333 What are you, Laila? 198 00:10:37,417 --> 00:10:39,125 I thought that was your job. 199 00:10:39,208 --> 00:10:42,625 To help me understand myself. 200 00:10:42,709 --> 00:10:45,125 Do you want me to, like, do your job for you? 201 00:10:45,208 --> 00:10:47,083 Honestly, it's been a week. 202 00:10:47,166 --> 00:10:49,709 I would love that. (laughs) 203 00:10:54,750 --> 00:10:56,542 Alright. Um... 204 00:10:58,458 --> 00:11:00,208 (sighs) Let me, uh... 205 00:11:01,959 --> 00:11:03,917 I'm 5-foot-6. 206 00:11:04,917 --> 00:11:07,667 Mm, I'm a 4.4 GPA. 207 00:11:07,750 --> 00:11:11,083 I'm a textbook Pisces. Love anime, 208 00:11:11,166 --> 00:11:13,750 and Mia McKenzie. 209 00:11:13,834 --> 00:11:16,750 I played Mrs. Lambchop in my fifth grade production 210 00:11:16,834 --> 00:11:19,500 of "The Musical Adventures of Flat Stanley." 211 00:11:19,583 --> 00:11:21,333 Wait, uh... 212 00:11:21,417 --> 00:11:23,750 -what's your sign? -Virgo. 213 00:11:24,417 --> 00:11:26,250 Of course it is. 214 00:11:26,333 --> 00:11:28,667 All grounded and analytical 215 00:11:28,750 --> 00:11:29,959 and earthy and shit. 216 00:11:30,041 --> 00:11:32,500 Oh, and also plays well with Pisces. 217 00:11:32,583 --> 00:11:35,792 Oh! You know about astrology? 218 00:11:35,875 --> 00:11:38,792 I have been single long enough that I have had to learn. 219 00:11:40,500 --> 00:11:41,625 Hm. 220 00:11:44,166 --> 00:11:46,667 (sniffs) Alright. 221 00:11:48,917 --> 00:11:50,625 What else... 222 00:11:51,750 --> 00:11:52,959 (sighs) 223 00:11:53,041 --> 00:11:55,792 I mean, you met my grandma, so you know that's... 224 00:11:55,875 --> 00:11:58,667 -(laughs) The whole thing. -Hmm. 225 00:11:58,750 --> 00:12:00,375 You're never gonna meet my dad. 226 00:12:00,458 --> 00:12:02,875 Mm, sad face. 227 00:12:02,959 --> 00:12:04,625 Because, uh, 228 00:12:04,709 --> 00:12:06,834 I'm the only child of a workaholic, 229 00:12:06,917 --> 00:12:09,625 so my daddy cares more about his cars at his dealership 230 00:12:09,709 --> 00:12:11,583 than he does about me, and certainly more than 231 00:12:11,667 --> 00:12:13,291 he ever did about my mom. 232 00:12:13,375 --> 00:12:15,041 Which is how he ran her off, but 233 00:12:15,125 --> 00:12:17,709 he makes up for it by buying me whatever I want 234 00:12:17,792 --> 00:12:19,041 whenever I want it. 235 00:12:19,125 --> 00:12:21,250 So I'm a poor little rich girl with daddy issues. 236 00:12:21,333 --> 00:12:23,834 Hence, and therefore, the sex addiction. 237 00:12:28,041 --> 00:12:30,917 So, did I, like... 238 00:12:31,000 --> 00:12:34,208 did I do it? Did I... do I get a prize? 239 00:12:34,291 --> 00:12:36,250 Honestly, Laila, it doesn't seem like 240 00:12:36,333 --> 00:12:38,959 you welcome my perspective. I imagine... 241 00:12:39,041 --> 00:12:41,458 you expect me to disapprove. 242 00:12:41,542 --> 00:12:43,625 (giggles) I mean, of course you're gonna, 243 00:12:43,709 --> 00:12:45,917 -like, disapprove. -Why? 244 00:12:46,000 --> 00:12:47,917 I mean, how old are you? 245 00:12:48,000 --> 00:12:50,083 Um, sorry, that's rude. But, like, 246 00:12:50,166 --> 00:12:52,542 (scoffs) I mean, you gotta be like at least, like, 50. 247 00:12:52,625 --> 00:12:54,583 Thank you. I'm 72. 248 00:12:54,667 --> 00:12:55,792 Good Black don't crack. 249 00:12:55,875 --> 00:12:57,959 Oh. (giggles) 250 00:12:59,250 --> 00:13:02,000 I am 42. 251 00:13:02,083 --> 00:13:03,875 So, that makes you, like, 252 00:13:03,959 --> 00:13:05,500 Gen X? 253 00:13:05,583 --> 00:13:07,000 Mm-hmm. 254 00:13:07,083 --> 00:13:09,959 Apathetic, depressed, 255 00:13:10,041 --> 00:13:12,834 -keeping it real when you were my age. -Well, that's the stereotype. 256 00:13:12,917 --> 00:13:17,000 Yeah, I mean, like, keeping it so real, you didn't do shit. 257 00:13:17,083 --> 00:13:19,458 You didn't do shit about the environment. 258 00:13:19,542 --> 00:13:21,250 About global warming. 259 00:13:21,333 --> 00:13:23,583 About mass incarceration. 260 00:13:23,667 --> 00:13:25,834 About civil rights. 261 00:13:25,917 --> 00:13:29,625 About deportations. About fucking racism. About anything. 262 00:13:29,709 --> 00:13:32,500 All you did was just make your macramé and smoke your crack 263 00:13:32,583 --> 00:13:35,959 and, like, I don't know, go to clubs or something? 264 00:13:36,041 --> 00:13:38,750 -Crack and macramé? -Oh yeah. 265 00:13:38,834 --> 00:13:41,125 Y'all were like, "Whatever. I can just drink. 266 00:13:41,208 --> 00:13:44,583 "I can do drugs. I can throw out all of this plastic shit. 267 00:13:44,667 --> 00:13:48,083 I can sit by and let niggas die as long as I'm gettin' mine." 268 00:13:48,166 --> 00:13:50,625 I mean, you guys did that forever, 269 00:13:50,709 --> 00:13:52,625 while the rest of the world burned. 270 00:13:54,000 --> 00:13:55,250 Wow. 271 00:13:56,542 --> 00:13:57,709 I mean, that's cute. 272 00:13:57,792 --> 00:13:59,667 What's cute about that? 273 00:13:59,750 --> 00:14:03,834 The fact that you have the nerve to try to tell me anything. 274 00:14:03,917 --> 00:14:07,000 About how I choose to enjoy myself or my body. 275 00:14:07,083 --> 00:14:10,166 Y'all left me with no hope, no fucking planet, 276 00:14:10,250 --> 00:14:11,458 (scoffs) no future. 277 00:14:11,542 --> 00:14:13,834 So this, my body, that's all I have. 278 00:14:13,917 --> 00:14:15,083 Why shouldn't I enjoy it 279 00:14:15,166 --> 00:14:18,000 while you fuck the rest of the world? 280 00:14:18,083 --> 00:14:20,959 Someone who brings up 281 00:14:21,041 --> 00:14:25,375 global warming and racial injustice to defend sex 282 00:14:25,458 --> 00:14:29,792 doesn't sound like someone who actually enjoys it. 283 00:14:31,083 --> 00:14:32,917 Aw... 284 00:14:33,000 --> 00:14:35,083 So you're saying that queer girls don't like sex? 285 00:14:35,166 --> 00:14:37,166 I'm not talking about sex. 286 00:14:38,417 --> 00:14:40,834 I'm talking about pleasure. 287 00:14:40,917 --> 00:14:42,834 There's sexual pleasure. 288 00:14:42,917 --> 00:14:45,083 Contact, pressure, release. 289 00:14:45,166 --> 00:14:47,208 Yeah. I love all that. 290 00:14:47,291 --> 00:14:50,291 But there's also the pleasure of comfort. 291 00:14:51,125 --> 00:14:53,709 Understanding. 292 00:14:53,792 --> 00:14:57,667 People talk about butterflies, about electricity. 293 00:14:58,959 --> 00:15:00,375 It's that... 294 00:15:00,458 --> 00:15:02,542 feeling that can only be described 295 00:15:02,625 --> 00:15:05,667 by the things we see so vibrantly, 296 00:15:05,750 --> 00:15:07,709 we feel them. 297 00:15:10,083 --> 00:15:12,917 Yeah, that kind of pleasure. 298 00:15:13,000 --> 00:15:15,458 What's that you were thinking there? 299 00:15:15,542 --> 00:15:17,500 What? 300 00:15:17,583 --> 00:15:18,959 That look. 301 00:15:19,500 --> 00:15:21,166 Wasn't... 302 00:15:21,667 --> 00:15:23,834 Nothing. 303 00:15:27,709 --> 00:15:29,834 Wow, uh, it's just... 304 00:15:30,792 --> 00:15:33,166 (giggles) Sorry. This girl. 305 00:15:35,291 --> 00:15:36,917 Tell me about this girl. 306 00:15:37,000 --> 00:15:38,542 (giggles) Yeah, I mean, she's just... 307 00:15:38,625 --> 00:15:41,000 uh... Sorry. 308 00:15:41,083 --> 00:15:44,000 I just... I don't know what to say. I really don't. 309 00:15:46,083 --> 00:15:47,834 What's her name? 310 00:15:50,208 --> 00:15:52,709 Why don't you just tell me what you like about her? 311 00:15:53,667 --> 00:15:56,208 Do I, like, have to? 312 00:15:57,250 --> 00:15:59,583 (laughs) Do you have to? No, of course not. 313 00:16:00,709 --> 00:16:03,875 But, honestly, Laila, 314 00:16:04,834 --> 00:16:07,041 kinda seems like you want to. 315 00:16:15,208 --> 00:16:18,125 It's, um... 316 00:16:18,208 --> 00:16:20,917 It's just the last thing I need, you know? 317 00:16:21,000 --> 00:16:22,417 What's that? 318 00:16:22,500 --> 00:16:25,583 Another know-it-all telling me what to do all the time. 319 00:16:25,667 --> 00:16:28,583 The only thing I know, Laila, is that I don't know it all. 320 00:16:28,667 --> 00:16:30,625 So is that how you get all of your patients 321 00:16:30,709 --> 00:16:32,417 to do what you want? 322 00:16:33,834 --> 00:16:35,583 You play dumb? 323 00:16:38,083 --> 00:16:39,875 (inhales) 324 00:16:39,959 --> 00:16:41,291 Come with me to the kitchen. 325 00:16:41,375 --> 00:16:44,458 ♪ ♪ 326 00:16:44,542 --> 00:16:47,208 And, yes. You have to. 327 00:16:55,041 --> 00:16:56,625 (scoffs) 328 00:16:56,709 --> 00:16:58,959 My first year of college 329 00:16:59,041 --> 00:17:02,083 was the first time the Easter Bunny didn't show. 330 00:17:03,750 --> 00:17:05,417 Sad face. 331 00:17:05,500 --> 00:17:07,417 (laughs) 332 00:17:07,500 --> 00:17:10,375 So, I went and I cleared the aisle at Walgreens, 333 00:17:10,458 --> 00:17:12,959 and... tradition was born. 334 00:17:14,750 --> 00:17:17,291 -Where'd you go to school? -Stanford. 335 00:17:17,834 --> 00:17:19,542 Obviously. 336 00:17:19,625 --> 00:17:21,583 -Obviously? -Well, 337 00:17:21,667 --> 00:17:23,625 there's a picture of me 338 00:17:23,709 --> 00:17:26,959 at six months in a Stanford onesie. 339 00:17:27,041 --> 00:17:28,667 -Oof. -(laughs) 340 00:17:31,959 --> 00:17:34,917 I didn't like having to do all the applications. 341 00:17:35,000 --> 00:17:36,542 -Hm. -But, 342 00:17:36,625 --> 00:17:38,417 I liked the essays. 343 00:17:38,500 --> 00:17:40,166 -Hm? -Some of the questions were, like, 344 00:17:40,250 --> 00:17:42,291 so dumb that they were smart. 345 00:17:42,959 --> 00:17:44,375 Sometimes. 346 00:17:44,458 --> 00:17:46,375 -Like what? -Well, 347 00:17:46,458 --> 00:17:48,625 one was imagining if you could 348 00:17:48,709 --> 00:17:50,083 email an object. 349 00:17:51,125 --> 00:17:52,792 There was, like, a whole story about why, 350 00:17:52,875 --> 00:17:56,166 but basically, it was if you could 351 00:17:56,250 --> 00:17:59,875 pick your favorite thing in the world and... 352 00:18:01,667 --> 00:18:03,250 tell it anything you wanted. 353 00:18:03,333 --> 00:18:04,750 Hm. 354 00:18:04,834 --> 00:18:06,208 Sounds like an interesting essay. 355 00:18:06,291 --> 00:18:08,000 -What did you write about? -(scoffs) 356 00:18:08,083 --> 00:18:09,458 I ended up... 357 00:18:09,542 --> 00:18:11,458 I mean, maybe it's stupid, 358 00:18:11,542 --> 00:18:13,750 -but I ended up writing to my Barbie. -Hm. 359 00:18:13,834 --> 00:18:17,291 And I'm fully aware that Barbie is highly problematic, 360 00:18:17,375 --> 00:18:19,417 and I wrote about that, too. 361 00:18:19,500 --> 00:18:23,458 Like how the waist-to-breast ratio is insane. 362 00:18:23,542 --> 00:18:25,709 She doesn't have any organs and would like fall over 363 00:18:25,792 --> 00:18:28,458 -if she was a real person. -(laughs) 364 00:18:28,542 --> 00:18:30,417 It's like fake diversity 365 00:18:30,500 --> 00:18:32,125 because they just make the white ones into 366 00:18:32,208 --> 00:18:34,000 all of these different colors. 367 00:18:34,083 --> 00:18:37,750 -And just pour different flavors into the same mold. -Hm. 368 00:18:38,875 --> 00:18:41,083 It's like setting up girls to have, 369 00:18:41,166 --> 00:18:43,458 like, a million different problems. 370 00:18:43,542 --> 00:18:44,375 But, 371 00:18:44,458 --> 00:18:46,709 I didn't know that when I was 6. 372 00:18:49,667 --> 00:18:51,125 I wrote that 373 00:18:51,208 --> 00:18:54,417 the reason that I played with Barbies when I was little 374 00:18:54,500 --> 00:18:57,667 was because I got to be leader. 375 00:18:58,208 --> 00:18:59,166 Hm. 376 00:18:59,250 --> 00:19:01,291 They played whatever game I wanted to play, 377 00:19:01,375 --> 00:19:04,375 and playing with dolls means you can do whatever you want. 378 00:19:05,250 --> 00:19:07,125 So... 379 00:19:07,208 --> 00:19:10,750 Sometimes, it's nice to be in charge of something. 380 00:19:10,834 --> 00:19:13,333 Sometimes. 381 00:19:13,417 --> 00:19:18,000 (scoffs) I guess I got to feel what it was like to be in a... 382 00:19:18,083 --> 00:19:20,250 "leadership" position. 383 00:19:22,750 --> 00:19:24,583 Sounds like it was a good essay. 384 00:19:25,375 --> 00:19:26,792 Yeah. 385 00:19:27,917 --> 00:19:30,375 I guess... 386 00:19:30,458 --> 00:19:32,417 that's the thing. (laughs softly) 387 00:19:33,333 --> 00:19:34,959 What? 388 00:19:35,041 --> 00:19:37,000 The thing I like about Cara. 389 00:19:37,083 --> 00:19:38,250 Oh. 390 00:19:38,333 --> 00:19:41,291 -That's the name of your girl? Cara? -Mm. 391 00:19:41,375 --> 00:19:43,083 She wants me to make the plans, 392 00:19:43,166 --> 00:19:45,041 and she's cool to, like, let me be in charge. 393 00:19:45,625 --> 00:19:46,667 Hm. 394 00:19:46,750 --> 00:19:49,542 Sounds like she likes the ideas you have. 395 00:19:49,625 --> 00:19:52,792 Maybe it's that she looks up to me a little bit. 396 00:19:53,667 --> 00:19:55,875 Cara younger than you, Laila? 397 00:19:57,208 --> 00:19:58,417 What? 398 00:20:01,667 --> 00:20:03,000 I mean, like, 399 00:20:03,083 --> 00:20:05,750 not in like a weird way. She's a freshman. 400 00:20:05,834 --> 00:20:08,291 So that makes her how old? 401 00:20:11,083 --> 00:20:12,709 Well, age ain't nothing but a number. 402 00:20:12,792 --> 00:20:14,625 Do you know who wrote that song? 403 00:20:14,709 --> 00:20:16,959 I don't know. It's, like, from before I was born. 404 00:20:17,041 --> 00:20:18,750 You should Google it. 405 00:20:18,834 --> 00:20:20,208 I ask 406 00:20:20,291 --> 00:20:22,792 because you realize you're... 407 00:20:22,875 --> 00:20:24,959 18, and she's what? 408 00:20:25,625 --> 00:20:27,250 14? 15? 409 00:20:27,333 --> 00:20:30,375 -I mean, she's not, like, a little kid. -I understand that. 410 00:20:30,458 --> 00:20:33,208 -I'm not-- -We're, like, the same exact person, so... 411 00:20:33,291 --> 00:20:36,333 But, based on your description of your sexual habits, 412 00:20:36,417 --> 00:20:39,834 I'm assuming you're in an intimate relationship. 413 00:20:39,917 --> 00:20:41,458 Yeah, but we're both in high school, 414 00:20:41,542 --> 00:20:44,875 so I don't understand why you're, like, making it... 415 00:20:44,959 --> 00:20:47,583 I mean, do you just wanna tell me what to say? 416 00:20:47,667 --> 00:20:49,000 What to say? What do you mean? 417 00:20:49,083 --> 00:20:51,750 Just give me a script and I can say it, and we can be done! 418 00:20:51,834 --> 00:20:54,083 I wouldn't do that, Laila. 419 00:20:54,166 --> 00:20:56,458 Then what am I supposed to do? 420 00:20:57,667 --> 00:20:58,709 Are... 421 00:20:58,792 --> 00:21:01,667 Are you asking me how therapy works? 422 00:21:06,083 --> 00:21:07,542 Whatever. 423 00:21:08,458 --> 00:21:10,834 (sighs) 424 00:21:10,917 --> 00:21:14,041 Well, if I could sum up the best version in one word, 425 00:21:14,834 --> 00:21:16,667 it would be authenticity. 426 00:21:17,542 --> 00:21:19,625 You know what that means? 427 00:21:19,709 --> 00:21:22,458 -Genuine. Real. -Mm-hmm. 428 00:21:22,542 --> 00:21:25,291 The sense that things or people are 429 00:21:25,375 --> 00:21:27,583 what they claim or appear to be. 430 00:21:30,333 --> 00:21:31,458 So does that go for you, too? 431 00:21:31,542 --> 00:21:33,208 You get all real when you're in here? 432 00:21:34,333 --> 00:21:35,917 -Sometimes to a fault. -Hm. 433 00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:37,625 Well, I did that today, and it, uh, 434 00:21:37,709 --> 00:21:39,500 didn't make me feel any better, so... 435 00:21:39,583 --> 00:21:42,166 So you were completely authentic in here today? 436 00:21:42,250 --> 00:21:44,458 Well, I told you about my sex addiction. 437 00:21:44,542 --> 00:21:47,208 I mean, who would tell you it in all of that detail 438 00:21:47,291 --> 00:21:49,375 -if it wasn't real? -Hm... 439 00:21:51,542 --> 00:21:52,875 And I told you about Cara, 440 00:21:52,959 --> 00:21:54,959 so if you don't recognize the truth in that, 441 00:21:55,041 --> 00:21:56,417 I don't know what to tell you. 442 00:21:57,583 --> 00:22:00,500 But what have you told me about you? 443 00:22:01,333 --> 00:22:03,083 Outside of the labels, 444 00:22:03,166 --> 00:22:04,667 or the relationships you have, 445 00:22:04,750 --> 00:22:07,875 or your GPA. None of that is capital "Y" you. 446 00:22:08,917 --> 00:22:10,500 Okay. 447 00:22:10,583 --> 00:22:12,959 Here's me being real. 448 00:22:13,041 --> 00:22:14,500 I don't feel like I'm getting 449 00:22:14,583 --> 00:22:16,375 the full picture from you, Laila. 450 00:22:16,458 --> 00:22:19,667 Glimpses here and there, yes. 451 00:22:19,750 --> 00:22:23,333 But the moment things start to come into focus, it's like... 452 00:22:23,417 --> 00:22:25,458 (imitates explosion) It's gone. 453 00:22:28,125 --> 00:22:29,709 But you know what? 454 00:22:29,792 --> 00:22:31,583 That's on me. 455 00:22:33,125 --> 00:22:35,625 I know I need to earn your trust, not demand it. 456 00:22:37,166 --> 00:22:41,166 But sometimes, in my desire to help, 457 00:22:41,250 --> 00:22:44,542 I have trouble accepting that things may not happen 458 00:22:44,625 --> 00:22:47,750 on my timeline, or may not happen at all. 459 00:22:53,709 --> 00:22:56,000 You know you don't have to be here, right, Laila? 460 00:22:58,291 --> 00:23:00,125 You're 18. 461 00:23:00,208 --> 00:23:02,625 Nobody can force you into this. 462 00:23:10,959 --> 00:23:13,208 Yeah, but if I don't, like... 463 00:23:13,291 --> 00:23:15,291 play along, you'll dime me out to my grandma. 464 00:23:15,375 --> 00:23:17,291 As your therapist, anything that's said in here 465 00:23:17,375 --> 00:23:19,041 is completely confidential. 466 00:23:19,125 --> 00:23:20,667 (sighs) 467 00:23:22,125 --> 00:23:23,250 You're right. 468 00:23:23,333 --> 00:23:26,208 I am required to report any reasonable suspicion 469 00:23:26,291 --> 00:23:30,333 that a patient is a danger to themselves or others. 470 00:23:32,166 --> 00:23:33,542 But beyond that, 471 00:23:33,625 --> 00:23:37,333 if I disclose anything, I'm in danger of losing my license. 472 00:23:40,875 --> 00:23:44,417 But if I don't disclose anything, then... 473 00:23:44,500 --> 00:23:46,542 well, we're good either way. 474 00:23:47,500 --> 00:23:49,166 (laughs) 475 00:23:51,125 --> 00:23:53,667 (sighs) How about this? 476 00:23:55,458 --> 00:23:57,417 If you don't wanna be here, 477 00:23:57,500 --> 00:24:00,125 I'll dig up a few pamphlets for your grandma 478 00:24:00,208 --> 00:24:03,417 on LGBTQ+ support, 479 00:24:03,500 --> 00:24:05,750 and I'll tell her that your queer identity 480 00:24:05,834 --> 00:24:07,083 isn't an issue for you. 481 00:24:07,166 --> 00:24:09,000 I believe that is true. 482 00:24:10,250 --> 00:24:13,375 But if there is something else you wanna talk about... 483 00:24:18,583 --> 00:24:21,291 Uh... 484 00:24:21,375 --> 00:24:23,583 -(car horn) -Uh, that's Grandma. I gotta go. 485 00:24:24,834 --> 00:24:27,125 No, we still have a few more minutes. 486 00:24:27,208 --> 00:24:28,458 (scoffs) Sure. 487 00:24:28,542 --> 00:24:30,583 After you sass Rhonda and get her all on her feelings, 488 00:24:30,667 --> 00:24:33,166 she'll be cool to just, like, wait in the car? 489 00:24:33,250 --> 00:24:34,625 Are you trying to get me killed? 490 00:24:34,709 --> 00:24:36,500 Of course not. 491 00:24:37,375 --> 00:24:39,917 Aw. You look so sad! 492 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:41,875 Come on, Dr. T! This was... 493 00:24:43,125 --> 00:24:44,375 fun. 494 00:24:49,709 --> 00:24:50,834 (door slams) 495 00:24:53,250 --> 00:24:56,375 ♪ ♪ 496 00:25:21,500 --> 00:25:24,583 ♪ ♪ 497 00:25:51,542 --> 00:25:54,625 ♪ ♪ 498 00:26:18,834 --> 00:26:22,083 The thought has stuck with me from our session last week. 499 00:26:22,166 --> 00:26:25,208 You got upset when we talked about your girlfriend's age. 500 00:26:25,291 --> 00:26:28,250 LAILA: You're gonna call the feds 'cause I like to have sex? 501 00:26:28,333 --> 00:26:29,250 I'll try it. 502 00:26:29,333 --> 00:26:30,500 ♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYS) ♪ 503 00:26:30,583 --> 00:26:32,458 BROOKE LAWRENCE: You wanna talk about what happened? 504 00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:34,834 It was, like, pretty scary. 505 00:26:35,166 --> 00:26:37,417 BROOKE: You grew up in a world full of violence 506 00:26:37,500 --> 00:26:38,959 to Black women in particular. 507 00:26:39,166 --> 00:26:41,834 I mean, the world is like a fucking hate crime, right. 508 00:26:41,917 --> 00:26:43,750 It's the tension. It's the worrying. 509 00:26:43,834 --> 00:26:44,709 It's the stress. 510 00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:47,125 You wish you were the victim of a racist attack? 511 00:26:47,917 --> 00:26:49,166 All the good ones die young.