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SUNIL,
IT'S PAUL CALLING--

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PAUL WESTON.

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UM, IT'S NOW

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3:15

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AND I WAS JUST WONDERING
WHERE YOU ARE.

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I'M PRETTY CERTAIN
WE AGREED YOU'D BE
COMING BACK THIS WEEK.

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JULIA, THIS IS--

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THIS IS DR. WESTON

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CALLING AGAIN.

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I-- I'M TRYING TO REACH
YOUR FATHER-IN-LAW.

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AND HE DOESN'T SEEM
TO BE RESPONDING

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TO ANY OF MY MESSAGES
ON HIS CELL.

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I WONDER
IF YOU COULD PLEASE

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HAVE HIM BE IN TOUCH

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OR LET ME KNOW
HOW I MIGHT REACH HIM.

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I'D APPRECIATE THAT.

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THANK YOU.

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( theme music playing )

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SO DO YOU THINK
I DID THE WRONG THING?

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WHY DO YOU
ALWAYS ASSUME

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THAT I'M JUDGING YOU
NEGATIVELY?

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ISN'T THAT
A NEGATIVE JUDGMENT?

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FRANCES, PLEASE,
LET'S NOT START THIS AGAIN.

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IT'S JUST THE WAY
THAT IT FEELS.

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YOU KNOW,
I THINK THAT YOU

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JUDGE YOURSELF NEGATIVELY
MOST OF THE TIME.

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I THINK YOU EXPECT PEOPLE
TO THINK THE WORST OF YOU--

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IZZY, RUSSELL,
PATRICIA.

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- YOU.
- YES, ME.

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THEN YOU WANT ME
EITHER TO CONFIRM

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WHAT AN EMPTY,
IRRESPONSIBLE...

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NARCISSISTIC.

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...PERSON YOU ARE...

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IS THAT
WHAT YOU THINK?

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...OR YOU WANT ME TO
REFUTE IT IN SOME WAY

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THAT WILL VALIDATE YOU
ONCE AND FOR ALL

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IN THE EYES
OF THE WORLD.

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THAT'S NOT MY JOB.

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SO WHAT IS YOUR JOB?

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MY JOB IS
TO HELP YOU

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DISCOVER WHAT YOU
THINK OF YOURSELF

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AND IF YOU'RE DISPLEASED
WITH WHAT YOU DISCOVER,

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TO HELP YOU
CHANGE THAT.

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RIGHT.

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LET ME REPHRASE:

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WHAT DO YOU THINK
OF WHAT I DID?

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PATRICIA WAS
IN DEEP DISTRESS

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AND YOU HAD
TO MAKE A CHOICE.

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I THINK WHAT YOU DID
SOUNDS REASONABLE.

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WELL, IZZY DOESN'T
THINK SO.

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SHE SAYS TRISH
WANTED TO BE AT HOME,

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WE HAD FINALLY
GOTTEN HER HOME,

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AND I WAS WRONG
TO SEND HER BACK.

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WELL, IZZY WASN'T THERE
ON SUNDAY NIGHT,

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SO IT'S EASY FOR HER
TO STAND IN JUDGMENT.

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SHE THINKS I SHOULD
HAVE JUST HELD HER,

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HELD ON TO HER,
DONE NOTHING

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UNTIL TRICIA,
I DON'T KNOW,

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LOST CONSCIOUSNESS,
WENT INTO A COMA,

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FUCK,

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DIED IN MY ARMS,
I GUESS.

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IT SOUNDS SIMPLE
IN THEORY--

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NO EXTRAORDINARY
MEASURES.

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YEAH, AND THE CRAZY
PART IS

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IT WAS GOING OKAY
THIS WEEK--

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I MEAN BETTER THAN
OKAY EVEN-- FINE.

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TRICIA WANTED
TO DIE AT HOME

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AND THAT'S,

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I GUESS,
WHAT SHE WAS DOING.

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AND SUNDAY--

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SUNDAY STARTED OUT
THE SAME.

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IZZY HAD SPENT
THE WHOLE DAY WITH HER

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AND THEN I CAME TO BE
WITH HER FOR THE NIGHT.

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AND WHEN
THE HOSPICE NURSE LEFT,

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SHE QUIZZED ME
ON EVERYTHING.

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SHE GAVE ME
HER NUMBER

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TO CALL HER AT HOME
IN CASE I NEEDED TO.

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AND THEN SHE CHECKED
TO MAKE SURE

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THE RESCUE KIT WAS
STOCKED-- MORPHINE,

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SOMETHING FOR NAUSEA,
SOMETHING ELSE FOR FEVER.

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TRICIA HAS THIS PORT
NOW, YOU KNOW,

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THAT YOU CAN INJECT
WHATEVER INTO.

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IT'S A LOT
OF RESPONSIBILITY.

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IT'S NOT SO HARD.

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WE HAD A DECENT NIGHT
ACTUALLY.

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YOU KNOW,
TRICIA SEEMED

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ALMOST STRONGER.

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YOU KNOW, HER TEMPERATURE
WAS WAY DOWN.

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SHE STARTED ASKING
ABOUT DADDY.

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SHE WAS SO YOUNG
WHEN HE DIED.

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SHE HARDLY HAS
ANY MEMORY OF HIM--
NONE REALLY.

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SUDDENLY
SHE WAS CURIOUS.

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AND WHAT DID YOU TELL HER
ABOUT YOUR FATHER?

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THAT'S THE ALARMING PART.

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I MEAN HE'S REALLY
FADED FOR ME TOO.

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I TOLD HER I HAD
THIS VIVID MEMORY

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OF HIM PICKING HER UP
WHEN SHE WAS
A LITTLE BABY.

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HE WAS LAUGHING
AND SMILING

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AND HOLDING HER UP
TO THE SKY.

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SHE WAS LAUGHING.

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EVERYBODY WAS SAYING
HOW BEAUTIFUL SHE WAS,

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YOU KNOW,
WHAT A GORGEOUS BABY.

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THAT'S A LOVELY MEMORY
TO HAVE.

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WELL, I DON'T KNOW
THAT I REALLY REMEMBER IT

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OR IF MAMA
TOLD IT TO ME

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OR IT'S FROM
AN OLD PHOTO.

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EITHER WAY,
THE IMAGE IS

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CLEARLY IMPORTANT
TO YOU.

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I HOPE IT'S REAL.

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I HOPE
IT REALLY HAPPENED.

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THE REST OF THE NIGHT
IS A BLUR.

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THE WAY
I REMEMBER IT,

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WE WENT FROM, YOU KNOW,
CHILDHOOD REMINISCING--

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THESE HAPPY MEMORIES
BY THE BEDSIDE,

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TO FIVE PARAMEDICS
SHOVING A TUBE DOWN
TRICIA'S THROAT.

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AND IT HAPPENED
JUST THAT FAST,
IN AN INSTANT.

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I KNOW
IT WASN'T, BUT--

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BUT THAT'S
WHAT IT FELT LIKE.

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YES, IT WAS AWFUL.

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I MEAN SHE JUST
SAT UP IN THE BED
GASPING FOR BREATH

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LIKE SHE WAS DROWNING
OR SOMETHING.

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I GAVE HER
MORE MORPHINE,
BUT IT DIDN'T HELP.

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AND I CALLED THE NURSE
AND SHE DIDN'T ANSWER.

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AND TRICIA'S SAYING,
"HELP ME. HELP ME."

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AND WHAT AM I SUPPOSED
TO DO? NOTHING?

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YOU KNOW,
LATER IN THE AMBULANCE

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I'M LOOKING AT HER
AND I'M THINKING,
"OH SHIT,

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IZZY'S GONNA BE SO MAD
WITH ME. I SHOULD NOT
HAVE LET THEM DO THAT."

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BUT IT WAS-- IT WAS
BEYOND YOUR CONTROL.

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THAT'S WHAT
IZZY DOESN'T GET.

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IN THE HOSPITAL SHE WAS
JUST SCREAMING AT ME--

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"WHY DIDN'T YOU
CALL ME?

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HOW COULD YOU NOT HONOR
PATRICIA'S WISHES?

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YOU ALWAYS DO EXACTLY
WHAT YOU WANT TO DO,"

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ON AND ON.
IT WAS LIKE AN ASSAULT.

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AND YOU KNOW
WHAT THE FINAL THING
SHE SAID TO ME

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BEFORE SHE WALKED OFF
IN A RAGE WAS?

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"YOU REALLY
FUCKED THIS UP, MOM."

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SO--

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SO HOW IS PATRICIA?

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SHE'S, YOU KNOW, SEDATED,

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ON THE VENTILATOR.

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IS SHE CONSCIOUS?

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IN AND OUT.
MOSTLY OUT.

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AND WHEN SHE COMES AROUND,
DOES SHE KNOW WHO YOU ARE?

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I THINK SO.

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I DON'T KNOW.

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AND WHAT'S HER PROGNOSIS?

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WILL SHE GO HOME AGAIN?

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THE DOCTORS SAY NO.

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I REALLY DID
FUCK THIS UP.

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YOU DID
THE BEST YOU COULD.

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NO, BUT MY BEST WAS
PRETTY FUCKING PATHETIC,
WASN'T IT?

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I DON'T THINK SO,

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NOT AT ALL.

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HER LIVING WILL.

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LOOK AT WHAT IT SAYS
AT THE VERY BOTTOM.

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"I HEREBY APPOINT

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FRANCES GREER

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AS MY HEALTH CARE AGENT

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TO MAKE ALL HEALTH CARE
DECISIONS FOR ME

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IN CONFORMITY
WITH THE GUIDELINES

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I HAVE EXPRESSED
IN THIS DOCUMENT."

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SHE NAMED YOU.

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ARE YOU SURPRISED?

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THAT SHE CHOSE YOU?

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NO, I'M NOT.

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CLEARLY YOU ARE.

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YOU'D SEEN THIS
BEFORE SUNDAY.

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UGH, THAT'S
PART OF THE REASON
IZZY'S SO FURIOUS.

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SHE SAYS
TRICIA TRUSTED ME
AND THAT I FAILED HER.

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I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO HER
WHAT IT FELT LIKE
IN THE MOMENT.

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THIS WAS THE LAST THING
I WAS THINKING ABOUT,

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THE LAST THING THAT TRICIA
WAS THINKING ABOUT.

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SHE WANTED ME
TO CALL.

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DID SHE?

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YES, SHE DID.
SHE WAS BEGGING ME--

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"PLEASE GET HELP.
GET HELP, FRANCES."

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BUT THAT'S NOT
WHAT YOU SAID EARLIER.

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FUCK, I DON'T KNOW.

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MAYBE THAT ISN'T
WHAT SHE WAS SAYING.

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MAYBE I JUST HEARD
WHAT I WANTED TO HEAR.

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CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW--

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HOW WE MOVE FORWARD
FROM HERE?

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YOU'VE DEALT
WITH ONE EXTREMELY
PAINFUL SITUATION

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AND NOW YOU'RE
FACING ANOTHER.

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WHAT DID
THE DOCTORS SAY?

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WELL, THEY SAID
I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT

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A COUPLE OF THINGS,
YOU KNOW--

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WHETHER TO TAKE HER
OFF THE VENTILATOR.

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I DON'T THINK
I CAN DO IT.

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I KEEP WONDERING
WHY TRICIA CHOSE ME.

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SHE MUST HAVE KNOWN

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THAT I DON'T
HAVE THIS IN ME.
I'M NOT UP TO IT.

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WHO DO YOU THINK
SHE SHOULD HAVE CHOSEN?

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THIS IS SUCH A MESS.

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I DON'T KNOW
WHAT TO DO.

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I IMAGINE
IZZY IS FOR IT--

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TAKING HER
OFF THE VENTILATOR.

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THAT'S THE BEWILDERING
THING-- SHE'S NOT.

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NOW IT'S ALL,
"DON'T YOU DARE.

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SHE COULD RALLY
AND COME HOME.

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DON'T YOU DARE THINK
ABOUT KILLING HER."

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IS THAT REALLY
HOW SHE PUT IT?

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LAST NIGHT
SHE SAID I--

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NO, I CAN'T EVEN
REPEAT IT.

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WHAT?

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SHE SAID THAT I'VE
ALWAYS HATED TRICIA

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AND THAT I WANT HER
TO DIE.

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WELL...

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I HOPE THAT YOU CAN
PUT THAT REMARK
IN PERSPECTIVE.

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YOU'VE GOT TO REMEMBER
SHE'S JUST A TEENAGER

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AND SHE'S DEALING WITH
THE IMMINENT DEATH

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OF SOMEBODY THAT
SHE LOVES VERY MUCH.

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OF COURSE
SHE'S GONNA BE ANGRY.

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AND OF COURSE SHE'S GONNA
TAKE IT OUT ON YOU.

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I WANT TO MAKE SURE
THAT YOU HEAR THIS CLEARLY:

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IT WOULD BE NORMAL,
WHEN ALL THIS IS OVER,

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TO FEEL A SENSE
OF RELIEF.

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YOU SAID THERE WERE
A COUPLE OF DECISIONS
TO BE MADE.

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A FEEDING TUBE--

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THAT'S THE NEXT
BIG ONE.

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IZZY'S ALL FOR IT,
PARADOXICALLY.

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AND YOU?

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I HAVEN'T MADE UP
MY MIND.

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WHAT ABOUT PATRICIA?

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I CAN'T NOT
FEED HER, PAUL.

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THE IDEA OF STARVING
MY SISTER TO DEATH--

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IT'S JUST NOT
SOMETHING I CAN DO.
I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH.

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YOUR SISTER THOUGHT
YOU WERE.

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YOU SAY YOU DON'T KNOW
WHY SHE CHOSE YOU,

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BUT PATRICIA KNEW
WHAT SHE WAS DOING.

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SHE PUT YOU
IN CHARGE

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OF THESE EXTREMELY
DIFFICULT DECISIONS.

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AND THAT MEANS
THAT SHE TRUSTED YOU--

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TRUSTS YOU

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TO MAKE
THE RIGHT CHOICES.

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SHE BELIEVES THAT
YOU HAVE IT IN YOU.

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WHAT IF IZZY'S RIGHT?

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SHE KEEPS SENDING
ME THESE ARTICLES,
STUFF FROM THE INTERNET

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WHERE PEOPLE
GO OFF THE VENTILATOR

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AND THEY BREATHE
ON THEIR OWN.
THEY WAKE UP.

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LET ME ASK YOU AGAIN--

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WHAT WOULD
PATRICIA WANT?

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IF SHE WAS SITTING
RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU,

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WHAT DO YOU THINK
SHE WOULD SAY?

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THE WILL THAT YOU HAVE
THERE IN YOUR HAND--

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WHAT DOES IT SAY ABOUT
EXTRAORDINARY MEASURES?

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PLEASE READ IT TO ME.

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THE PART IN BOLD
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PAGE.

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PLEASE.

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"I DO NOT WANT
CARDIAC RESUSCITATION.

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I DO NOT WANT MECHANICAL
RESPIRATION.

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I DO NOT WANT
TUBE FEEDING.

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I DO NOT
WANT ANTIBIOTICS.

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I DO WANT
MAXIMUM PAIN RELIEF."

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THEN IT'S CLEAR,
ISN'T IT?

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SHE WANTED
TO DIE AT HOME.

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I KNOW.

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IF I PULL THE PLUG,
AS IZZY SAYS,

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THERE'S NO CHANCE
FOR THAT.

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I MEAN, MAYBE--

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I KNOW THAT YOU WANT
TO GIVE YOUR SISTER

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THE DEATH THAT SHE
ENVISIONED FOR HERSELF,

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BUT IT'S A FANTASY.

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AND IN THAT FANTASY

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YOU GET TO REDEEM
YOURSELF.

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AND THAT'S WHY
YOU CLING TO IT.

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IT SEEMS TO ME
THAT PATRICIA'S WISHES

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ARE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU
IN THAT LETTER

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AND WHAT SHE'S ASKING
YOU TO DO

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IS TO FOLLOW
HER INSTRUCTIONS.

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WHAT AM I GONNA DO
WHEN SHE'S NOT HERE?

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YOU KNOW, 'CAUSE I HAVE
NO ONE REALLY--

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NOBODY--

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NOBODY THAT KNEW ME
WHEN I WAS A KID. SHE--

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IT'S LIKE THAT TIME
WHEN WE WERE KIDS

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WON'T EXIST ANYMORE,
YOU KNOW.

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IT WILL JUST BE
STORIES.

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I WON'T EVEN KNOW
WHICH ONES ARE REAL
AND WHICH ONES I MADE UP,

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LIKE THAT PICTURE
OF MY FATHER

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HOLDING HER UP
IN THE AIR.

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WITHOUT HER
I DON'T KNOW.

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YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT?

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00:15:31,464 --> 00:15:34,067
NO, IT'S JUST SHE
GROUNDED ME, YOU KNOW?

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SHE-- SHE BELIEVES
IN ME.

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YOU SAID IT, PAUL.

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REMEMBER LAST WEEK
I TOLD YOU

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THAT SHE SAID,
"I LOVE YOU"?

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00:15:45,312 --> 00:15:47,214
YOU KNOW, I CANNOT
REMEMBER THE LAST TIME

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THAT SOMEBODY
SAID THAT TO ME.

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YOU KNOW WHAT THAT
FEELS LIKE TO LOSE THAT,

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TO BE COMPLETELY ALONE?

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YES.

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I DON'T THINK
IT'S QUITE TRUE THOUGH

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THAT YOU'RE GOING TO BE
COMPLETELY ALONE.

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YOU HAVE IZZY.

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IZZY HATES ME.

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YOU'RE HER MOTHER.
SHE NEEDS YOU.

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SHE NEEDS YOU
TO BE THERE FOR HER
WHEN PATRICIA PASSES.

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WE'VE TALKED ABOUT THIS.

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I BELIEVE THAT RELATIONSHIP
CAN BE REPAIRED.

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I'M NOT SO SURE
OF THAT.

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IT'LL TAKE TIME,

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BUT YOU CAN DO IT.

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YOU HAVE YOUR WORK.
YOU HAVE YOUR CAREER.

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PLEASE, THE PLAY
IS GONNA CLOSE.

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IT'S NOT GONNA EXTEND
PAST THE LIMITED RUN AND--

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I'VE READ THE REVIEWS.

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YOU READ THEM?

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MM-HMM.

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THEY'RE GOOD,
ESPECIALLY FOR YOU.

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NOT GOOD ENOUGH
TO KEEP IT

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PAST THE LIMITED RUN.

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LOOK, I ASKED YOU
SOMETHING LAST WEEK

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AND YOU DIDN'T GET
A CHANCE TO ANSWER
BECAUSE IZZY INTERRUPTED US.

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WHAT WAS THAT?

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SHE SAID THAT THERAPY
WOULDN'T DO ME ANY GOOD.

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00:17:16,403 --> 00:17:18,438
OH YES.
YES, I REMEMBER.

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- SHE DIAGNOSED YOU.
- A TRUE NARCISSIST.

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00:17:22,342 --> 00:17:24,844
WHERE DID IZZY
GET HER DEGREE?

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( both chuckle )

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DO YOU AGREE WITH HER?

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THAT YOU ARE
A NARCISSIST?

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00:17:32,585 --> 00:17:34,287
NO,

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THAT I CAN'T BE HELPED,
I CAN'T CHANGE.

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00:17:44,664 --> 00:17:46,099
TELL ME THIS--

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00:17:46,199 --> 00:17:48,301
BECAUSE I NEED TO KNOW

329
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THAT YOU'LL BE HERE
FOR ME.

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00:17:50,403 --> 00:17:53,406
WILL YOU
BE HERE FOR ME?

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00:17:55,775 --> 00:17:57,344
I WILL.

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YOU HESITATED.

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00:17:59,712 --> 00:18:02,415
IT'S JUST--

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00:18:04,151 --> 00:18:05,485
EARLIER ON WE--

335
00:18:05,585 --> 00:18:07,720
WE KIND OF
TOUCHED ON THIS--

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WHY YOU CHOSE ME.

337
00:18:11,958 --> 00:18:14,327
ARE YOU STILL CERTAIN

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00:18:14,427 --> 00:18:16,763
THAT THAT WAS
THE RIGHT DECISION?

339
00:18:16,863 --> 00:18:19,566
YEAH, YOU KNEW TRISH

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00:18:19,666 --> 00:18:23,903
AND TRISH KNEW ME.

341
00:18:24,003 --> 00:18:26,239
I WANTED
THAT CONNECTION.

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00:18:26,339 --> 00:18:28,608
I WANT TO KEEP
THAT CONNECTION.
DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?

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00:18:28,708 --> 00:18:30,510
MM-HMM.

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00:18:34,781 --> 00:18:36,349
YES.

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00:18:39,886 --> 00:18:41,754
SO WHAT ARE YOU
GOING TO DO?

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00:18:43,022 --> 00:18:44,524
ABOUT TRICIA?

347
00:18:45,225 --> 00:18:47,026
I DON'T KNOW.

348
00:18:47,126 --> 00:18:49,296
I GUESS I'LL TELL YOU
NEXT WEEK.

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00:18:58,004 --> 00:19:00,240
TELL ME SOMETHING,
PAUL--

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WERE YOU
IN LOVE WITH HER?

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00:19:04,944 --> 00:19:10,450
I CARED ABOUT HER
A GREAT DEAL.

352
00:19:10,550 --> 00:19:12,452
SHE WAS--

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00:19:12,552 --> 00:19:14,587
SHE WAS
A STRIKING WOMAN.

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00:19:15,222 --> 00:19:17,924
YEAH, SHE WAS.

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