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( door opens )

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WHAT'S THE MATTER?

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I HAVE
AN EATING DISORDER.

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THAT BLOWS.

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WHAT ABOUT YOU?

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OH, PAUL'S MY UNCLE.

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HE'S JUST TAKING ME OUT
FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

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YOU DON'T GO
TO ST. ANN'S, DO YOU?

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PACKER?

10
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NO.

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YOU LOOK FAMILIAR.

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WELL, I LIVE IN MILWAUKEE.

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WELL, HAVE
A GOOD BIRTHDAY.

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THANKS.

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- ( door opens )
- HEY.

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I THINK
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

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JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.

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( theme music playing )

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* HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

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* HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO ME *

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* HAPPY BIRTHDAY
DEAR JESSE *

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* HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO ME. *

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MILLIONS OF CHAT SITES
ARE REJOICING

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BECAUSE 17 IS
THE AGE OF CONSENT
IN NEW YORK STATE.

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I'M NOT KIDDING.

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IT'S LIKE A NEW
GAY HOLIDAY.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JESSE.

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IT'S JUST HOW
I ALWAYS DREAMED
IT WOULD BE.

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SO...

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WHAT HAPPENED
LAST WEEK?

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WAS THERE A FIRE?

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DID YOUR SON INTENTIONALLY
SET THE HOUSE ON FIRE?

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NO NO, IT WAS JUST--
JUST AN ACCIDENT.

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IS YOUR SON OKAY?

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YES.

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GOOD.

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I'M GLAD.

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ACTUALLY, I'M GLAD
YOU BROUGHT IT UP.

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I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU
ABOUT WHY YOU--

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WHY YOU RAN OFF.

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I SHOULD HAVE NEVER
BEEN HERE, OKAY?

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IT WAS STUPID.
IT WAS LATE AND...

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YOU SHOULD HAVE
JUST KICKED ME OUT
WHEN I FIRST SHOWED UP.

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BUT I DIDN'T
KICK YOU OUT, JESSE.

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YEAH, BUT YOU
WANTED TO.

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NOW WHY WOULD YOU
THINK THAT?

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PAUL, CAN I ASK YOU
SOMETHING?

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SURE.

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WHY DID YOU BECOME
A THERAPIST?

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I--

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I GUESS BECAUSE
I WANTED TO--

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TO HELP PEOPLE.

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ARE YOU
A GOOD THERAPIST?

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DO YOU THINK
I'M A GOOD THERAPIST?

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IS THERE SOME WAY

56
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THAT I COULD BE
A BETTER THERAPIST FOR YOU?

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PROBABLY NOT.

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I GUESS I JUST--
I DON'T REALLY SEE
WHAT THE POINT IS.

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I DON'T KNOW
WHY YOU DO IT.

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YOU DON'T FEEL
IT'S WORKING FOR YOU?

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DOES IT MAKE
ANYONE HAPPY?

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WELL, THE POINT IS
NOT ALWAYS TO BE HAPPY.

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OKAY, THEN
WHAT'S THE POINT?

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WELL, IT DIFFERS
FROM PERSON TO PERSON.

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YOU KNOW,
A LOT OF PEOPLE--

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THEY SPEND
THEIR WHOLE LIVES

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IN A KIND OF A FOG.

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I THINK THAT THERAPY,
WHEN IT WORKS,

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WHEN IT REALLY WORKS--

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IT HELPS PEOPLE

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TO, WELL,
UNLOCK THEMSELVES.

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WELL, I RAN INTO
THE GIRL BEFORE ME
IN THE WAITING ROOM.

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SHE SAID SHE HAD
AN EATING DISORDER.

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WHAT ARE YOU
TELLING HER?

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WELL, I'M TRYING
TO HELP HER IDENTIFY

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WHY SHE SEES HERSELF
IN THAT WAY.

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DO YOU KNOW WHY?

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I HAVE SOME IDEAS,
OBVIOUSLY,

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BUT, YOU KNOW,
ULTIMATELY

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WHAT I THINK
DOESN'T REALLY MATTER.

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IT'S WHAT SHE THINKS
THAT MATTERS.

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WHAT, THAT DOESN'T SOUND
CREDIBLE TO YOU?

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- IT SOUNDS LIKE--
- IT SOUNDS LIKE WHAT?

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NEVER MIND.

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NO, GO ON.
PLEASE TELL ME.

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IT SOUNDS
LIKE THOSE GUYS
ON CANAL STREET

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THAT ARE SELLING
FAKE ROLEXES.

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LIKE, WHAT DOES IT MATTER
IF IT ISN'T A ROLEX

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AS LONG AS YOU THINK
IT'S A ROLEX, YOU KNOW?

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BUT IT STILL
ISN'T A ROLEX.

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IT'S STILL JUST
A CHEAP PIECE OF SHIT,

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NO MATTER
WHAT YOU THINK.

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WELL, IT'S NOT A ROLEX.
THAT'S TRUE.

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BUT IT'S NOT
A PIECE OF SHIT EITHER.

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BECAUSE OBJECTS
ARE WORTH

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THE MEANING THAT WE
INVEST IN THEM,

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WHAT WE ASCRIBE
TO THEM,

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AND SO ARE PEOPLE.

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( sighs )
I GOT AN EMAIL
FROM KEVIN.

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AND WHAT DID HE SAY?

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HE SAYS...

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THAT IT WAS A MISTAKE
TO CONTACT ME PREMATURELY,

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THAT IT WAS
IRRESPONSIBLE,

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THAT HE WON'T ATTEMPT
TO CONTACT ME AGAIN,

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BUT HE HOPES I'LL GET
BACK IN TOUCH WITH THEM

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WHEN I THINK
I'M READY.

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I'M SO SORRY, JESSE.

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WHY?

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IT MUST BE

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TREMENDOUSLY
DISAPPOINTING.

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NOT REALLY.

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WHAT DO YOU--

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WHAT DO YOU FEEL
ABOUT THAT?

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NOTHING.

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DID YOU
EMAIL HIM BACK?

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NO, THERE'S NO POINT.
IT'S OVER.

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YOU DON'T ANTICIPATE
EVER GETTING BACK
IN TOUCH WITH THEM?

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NO, THEY DON'T
WANT ME TO.

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GOD, IT'S MY
FUCKING BIRTHDAY.

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( scoffs )

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17--

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17 YEARS AGO I CAME OUT
OF KAREN SCOTT'S VAGINA.

123
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AND NOW ALL SHE HAS
TO SAY TO ME

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IS THAT SHE CONTACTED ME
PREMATURELY.

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GOD.

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WHY IS EVERYTHING
SUCH BULLSHIT?

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HEY, HOW LONG DO YOU
THINK I'LL LIVE?

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I DON'T KNOW, JESSE.

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I MEAN, IF I DON'T
FALL OFF A BUILDING
OR SHOOT MYSELF OR WHATEVER,

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HOW LONG IS THE AVERAGE?

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UM, 80-- 80 YEARS.

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JESUS.

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THAT MEANS
I HAVE TO MAKE IT

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THROUGH ANOTHER
63 YEARS.

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YOU KNOW...

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YOU'RE NOT ALWAYS
GONNA FEEL

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THE WAY YOU'RE FEELING
RIGHT NOW.

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YOU MEAN IT'S GOING TO
GET BETTER?

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MM-HMM.

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YEAH, BUT THE THING IS,

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I'VE ALWAYS FELT
LIKE THIS,

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EVEN BEFORE I MET
KEVIN AND KAREN.

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YOU FELT LIKE--
LIKE WHAT WAY EXACTLY?

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I HAVE THIS FRIEND, OKAY?
NAMED BARRETT.

145
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AND HE HAS
A REALLY BIG NOSE.

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AND EVEN WHEN WE WERE,
LIKE, EIGHT

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AND ALL THE OTHER KIDS
HAD LITTLE KID NOSES,

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BARRETT HAD
THIS HONKER.

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AND I'VE JUST--

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I'VE ALWAYS THOUGHT
THAT IF I WERE BARRETT,

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I WOULD BE REALLY
EMBARRASSED BY MY NOSE.

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BUT BARRETT ISN'T.

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HE DOESN'T EVEN
NOTICE IT.

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AND HE'S ALWAYS
REALLY HAPPY.

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AND EVERYONE
REALLY LIKES HIM.

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AND EVEN SINCE

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WE'VE BEEN IN HIGH SCHOOL,
HE HAS GIRLFRIENDS.

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AND IT WAS ALL JUST
REALLY CONFUSING TO ME

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UNTIL I MET HIS DAD.

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HE'S THIS FANCY
WALL STREET GUY,

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A REALLY GOOD DRESSER,

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BUT HE HAS
THE SAME NOSE.

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IT'S HUGE.

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AND I MET HIS MOTHER.

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00:09:01,609 --> 00:09:04,244
SHE'S REALLY BEAUTIFUL.

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THEY JUST SEEM LIKE
THE PERFECT FAMILY.

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AND NOW I GET IT.

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WHERE BARRETT GOT
HIS CONFIDENCE FROM.

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YEAH, EXACTLY.

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HE LOOKS
JUST LIKE HIS DAD.

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AND HIS DAD
IS REALLY HAPPY.

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SO WHY SHOULDN'T
BARRETT BE HAPPY?

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I USED TO SPEND HOURS
WHEN I WAS A KID

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JUST LOOKING
IN THE MIRROR,

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TRYING TO FIGURE OUT
IF I WAS HANDSOME OR NOT.

176
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AND WHAT
DID YOU DECIDE?

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WELL, IT JUST DEPENDED
ON THE DAY.

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IF SOMEONE TOLD ME
I WAS HANDSOME,

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THEN I WAS HANDSOME.

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AND IF SOMEONE TOLD ME
I WAS UGLY,

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THEN I BELIEVED THAT.

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I HARDLY EVER
LOOK IN THE MIRROR
ANYMORE THOUGH,

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00:10:01,935 --> 00:10:03,637
NOT IF I CAN
HELP IT.

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00:10:06,006 --> 00:10:07,875
IT'S JUST
TOO STRESSFUL.

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00:10:07,975 --> 00:10:11,779
WHEN YOU MET
YOUR BIRTH PARENTS...

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00:10:14,181 --> 00:10:15,482
DID YOU-- DID YOU--

187
00:10:15,582 --> 00:10:19,319
DID YOU SEE YOURSELF
IN THEIR FACES?

188
00:10:21,321 --> 00:10:22,522
WERE THEY--

189
00:10:22,622 --> 00:10:25,158
WERE THEY GOOD-LOOKING,
DID YOU THINK?

190
00:10:26,660 --> 00:10:28,395
AND RICH

191
00:10:28,495 --> 00:10:30,297
AND HAPPY,

192
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UNTIL THEY
KICKED ME OUT.

193
00:10:32,299 --> 00:10:34,334
KICKED YOU OUT?

194
00:10:36,336 --> 00:10:37,437
IS THAT--

195
00:10:37,537 --> 00:10:39,039
THAT'S HOW YOU REMEMBER
THE EXPERIENCE?

196
00:10:43,210 --> 00:10:46,113
I IMAGINE YOU'VE BEEN
THINKING QUITE A LOT

197
00:10:46,213 --> 00:10:48,248
ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED

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00:10:48,348 --> 00:10:51,318
AT KEVIN AND KAREN'S
LAST WEEK.

199
00:10:51,418 --> 00:10:52,920
YEAH.

200
00:10:53,020 --> 00:10:55,622
AND WHEN YOU WERE
TELLING THE STORY
OF BARRETT'S FATHER,

201
00:10:55,723 --> 00:10:57,624
CAN I TELL YOU
WHAT I THOUGHT OF?

202
00:10:57,725 --> 00:10:59,893
SURE.

203
00:10:59,993 --> 00:11:02,830
HOW LAST WEEK
YOU WERE CONSIDERING

204
00:11:02,930 --> 00:11:04,698
DONATING YOUR KIDNEY

205
00:11:04,798 --> 00:11:07,701
TO YOUR--
TO YOUR BROTHER.

206
00:11:10,137 --> 00:11:13,006
DID KEVIN MENTION ANYTHING
ABOUT THAT IN HIS EMAIL?

207
00:11:13,106 --> 00:11:14,274
NO.

208
00:11:17,210 --> 00:11:19,612
I GUESS I WAS WRONG
ABOUT ALL THAT.

209
00:11:19,713 --> 00:11:22,382
YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU TALK
ABOUT BARRETT

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00:11:22,482 --> 00:11:24,952
IT SOUNDS LIKE
YOU SAW HIS NOSE

211
00:11:25,052 --> 00:11:27,821
AS LIKE A PROMISE,
SOME KIND OF CONTRACT

212
00:11:27,921 --> 00:11:29,723
PASSED DOWN
FROM FATHER TO SON:

213
00:11:29,823 --> 00:11:32,025
YOU HAVE MY NOSE;
YOU ARE MY SON;

214
00:11:32,125 --> 00:11:34,862
I AM A HAPPY MAN
THEREFORE YOU ARE
A HAPPY MAN.

215
00:11:37,497 --> 00:11:40,067
SO MAYBE YOU WERE
TRYING TO CREATE

216
00:11:40,167 --> 00:11:43,203
YOUR OWN CONTRACT
WITH KEVIN.

217
00:11:43,303 --> 00:11:45,172
MAYBE YOU THOUGHT,

218
00:11:45,272 --> 00:11:47,908
IF YOU GAVE YOUR BROTHER
A KIDNEY, THEY'D HAVE--

219
00:11:48,008 --> 00:11:51,611
THEY'D REALLY HAVE TO BE
YOUR PARENTS FINALLY

220
00:11:51,711 --> 00:11:54,614
AND RECOGNIZE YOU

221
00:11:54,714 --> 00:11:58,251
AS PART OF THEM,

222
00:12:00,253 --> 00:12:02,189
YOU KNOW?

223
00:12:02,289 --> 00:12:03,490
YOU'RE PROBABLY RIGHT.

224
00:12:05,959 --> 00:12:07,727
THAT SOUNDS SMART.

225
00:12:10,163 --> 00:12:11,464
THANKS.

226
00:12:11,564 --> 00:12:13,466
YOU KNOW, JESSE,
THERE'S NO REASON

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00:12:13,566 --> 00:12:17,137
WHY YOU CAN'T
WRITE KEVIN BACK

228
00:12:17,237 --> 00:12:19,139
AND JUST SAY TO HIM

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00:12:19,239 --> 00:12:21,842
HOW PAINFUL IT WAS

230
00:12:21,942 --> 00:12:25,612
TO RECEIVE HIS EMAIL.

231
00:12:25,712 --> 00:12:29,216
HE HAS LEFT THE DOOR OPEN
TO COMMUNICATION.

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00:12:29,316 --> 00:12:31,384
YEAH, WHEN I FEEL
THAT I'M READY.

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00:12:31,484 --> 00:12:34,021
YEAH, I THINK
THAT'S UP TO YOU
TO DECIDE WHAT THAT MEANS.

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00:12:34,121 --> 00:12:36,523
WELL, HE BASICALLY
JUST TOLD ME TO GO
FUCK MYSELF.

235
00:12:36,623 --> 00:12:40,427
OKAY, I CAN SEE

236
00:12:40,527 --> 00:12:42,529
WHY YOU WOULD
THINK THAT.

237
00:12:42,629 --> 00:12:45,098
MAYBE HE'S TRYING
TO GIVE YOU SPACE

238
00:12:45,198 --> 00:12:47,767
IF YOU NEED IT,

239
00:12:47,868 --> 00:12:51,138
BUT STILL MAINTAIN
A CONNECTION.

240
00:12:51,238 --> 00:12:54,341
LOOK, IF HE REALLY WANTED
TO MAINTAIN A CONNECTION
WITH ME

241
00:12:54,441 --> 00:12:58,145
HE SHOULDN'T
HAVE GIVEN ME UP
FOR FUCKING ADOPTION.

242
00:13:18,832 --> 00:13:20,333
YOU HAVE PLANS
FOR TONIGHT,

243
00:13:20,433 --> 00:13:22,202
FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?

244
00:13:31,344 --> 00:13:33,746
I MIGHT GO
TO THE MARRIOTT
IN TIMES SQUARE

245
00:13:33,847 --> 00:13:35,849
TO RIDE
THE ELEVATORS.

246
00:13:36,783 --> 00:13:38,318
YOU CAN RIDE THEM
FOR FREE.

247
00:13:38,418 --> 00:13:40,187
THEY'RE GLASS.

248
00:13:40,287 --> 00:13:43,056
AND THEY GO UP
OVER THIS HUGE ATRIUM.

249
00:13:45,392 --> 00:13:47,060
IT'S REALLY PEACEFUL.

250
00:13:49,096 --> 00:13:52,365
SOUNDS-- SOUNDS NICE.

251
00:13:52,465 --> 00:13:55,368
WILL YOU INVITE ANYBODY
TO GO WITH YOU?

252
00:13:55,468 --> 00:13:57,804
LIKE WHO?

253
00:13:57,905 --> 00:14:00,607
JOSH, RAIF.

254
00:14:00,707 --> 00:14:02,475
THEY'RE OUT OF TOWN.

255
00:14:03,776 --> 00:14:05,278
ANYONE ELSE?

256
00:14:06,279 --> 00:14:08,115
WHAT WERE YOU
GONNA SAY?

257
00:14:09,482 --> 00:14:10,984
NOBODY.

258
00:14:14,854 --> 00:14:17,190
NATE, BUT HE WOULD
NEVER COME.

259
00:14:17,290 --> 00:14:19,226
- WHY NOT?
- HE JUST WOULDN'T.

260
00:14:19,326 --> 00:14:21,728
SO HAVE YOU TALKED
TO HIM RECENTLY?

261
00:14:21,828 --> 00:14:24,631
NOT SINCE HE BEAT
THE CRAP OUT OF ME.

262
00:14:24,731 --> 00:14:27,500
DO YOU WANT
TO SPEAK TO HIM?

263
00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:29,970
NO, HE HATES ME.

264
00:14:30,070 --> 00:14:32,439
YOU'RE CERTAIN OF THAT?

265
00:14:32,539 --> 00:14:34,107
HE PUNCHED ME.

266
00:14:34,207 --> 00:14:36,809
JESSE, DO YOU
REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED
BEFORE HE PUNCHED YOU?

267
00:14:36,910 --> 00:14:37,877
ARE YOU SAYING
THAT I DESERVED IT?

268
00:14:37,978 --> 00:14:39,312
NO, I'M NOT.

269
00:14:54,527 --> 00:14:56,997
WHY DON'T THEY WANT ME
IN THEIR LIVES?

270
00:14:58,898 --> 00:15:01,268
WHAT IS SO WRONG
WITH ME?

271
00:15:05,438 --> 00:15:07,140
I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

272
00:15:10,477 --> 00:15:11,644
AM I THAT AWFUL?

273
00:15:11,744 --> 00:15:13,680
NO, JESSE, YOU'RE NOT.

274
00:15:18,218 --> 00:15:20,287
WELL, THEN WHY DON'T
THEY WANT ME?

275
00:15:24,591 --> 00:15:26,259
I'M HIS SON.

276
00:15:29,396 --> 00:15:31,531
HE KICKED ME
OUT OF HIS HOUSE.

277
00:15:31,631 --> 00:15:32,699
I THINK
HE WAS FRIGHTENED.

278
00:15:32,799 --> 00:15:34,034
OF WHAT?

279
00:15:34,134 --> 00:15:36,069
OF THE SITUATION.

280
00:15:38,105 --> 00:15:39,706
GOD, WHAT DOES
THAT MEAN?

281
00:15:39,806 --> 00:15:41,274
JESSE, YOU WERE HIGH.

282
00:15:41,374 --> 00:15:43,977
AND YOU WERE UPSET WITH THEM
AFTER SEEING YOUR SIBLINGS.

283
00:15:44,077 --> 00:15:45,478
FROM THEIR
POINT OF VIEW

284
00:15:45,578 --> 00:15:48,348
YOU MUST HAVE SEEMED
HIGHLY VOLATILE.

285
00:15:56,556 --> 00:15:59,692
YOU'VE BEEN FANTASIZING
ABOUT KEVIN AND KAREN

286
00:15:59,792 --> 00:16:02,529
ALL YOUR LIFE.

287
00:16:02,629 --> 00:16:05,265
YOU IMAGINED
THAT THEY WOULD BE
YOUR SAVIORS.

288
00:16:05,365 --> 00:16:07,267
AND NOW THAT
YOU'VE MET THEM,

289
00:16:07,367 --> 00:16:09,369
YOU KNOW THAT THEY'RE
NOT CAPABLE OF THAT.

290
00:16:09,469 --> 00:16:11,971
THEY'RE JUST ORDINARY PEOPLE.
WORSE THAN THAT--

291
00:16:12,072 --> 00:16:15,908
THEY'RE DEEPLY
DISAPPOINTING.

292
00:16:16,009 --> 00:16:18,678
AND THAT'S
INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT.

293
00:16:29,889 --> 00:16:32,025
I DON'T WANT
TO BE ANYWHERE.

294
00:16:32,125 --> 00:16:34,061
I DON'T WANT TO TALK
TO ANYONE.

295
00:16:34,161 --> 00:16:35,528
I JUST WANT--

296
00:16:36,663 --> 00:16:38,831
( exhales )

297
00:16:38,931 --> 00:16:41,434
I JUST WANT
TO DISAPPEAR.

298
00:17:08,061 --> 00:17:09,629
JESSE,

299
00:17:12,599 --> 00:17:14,033
AS YOUR THERAPIST,

300
00:17:14,134 --> 00:17:16,403
I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO
TELL YOU WHAT TO DO,

301
00:17:16,503 --> 00:17:19,439
BUT AS SOMEONE
WHO CARES ABOUT YOU,
I'M GOING TO.

302
00:17:21,374 --> 00:17:24,277
GO HOME TO THE PEOPLE
WHO LOVE YOU

303
00:17:24,377 --> 00:17:27,247
AND CELEBRATE YOUR
BIRTHDAY WITH THEM.

304
00:17:28,548 --> 00:17:29,782
GO HOME.

305
00:17:30,917 --> 00:17:32,585
I CAN'T GO HOME.

306
00:17:34,221 --> 00:17:36,189
I HAVE TO GET
TO RISD.

307
00:17:37,657 --> 00:17:39,626
THEY WANT TO SET UP
AN INTERVIEW.

308
00:17:41,027 --> 00:17:43,396
THAT MEANS
I'M A FINALIST.

309
00:17:43,496 --> 00:17:46,233
ROBERTO GAVE ME MONEY
FOR MY BIRTHDAY

310
00:17:46,333 --> 00:17:48,368
AND I'M GONNA USE IT
TO BUY A TRAIN TICKET.

311
00:17:48,468 --> 00:17:52,305
MM-HMM, AND HAVE YOU
FOUND A WAY TO COVER
THE TUITION?

312
00:17:53,206 --> 00:17:54,874
NO, I'M--

313
00:17:54,974 --> 00:17:58,378
I'M JUST GONNA SHOW
THEM THE PICTURES.

314
00:17:58,478 --> 00:18:00,847
- WHICH PICTURES?
- THE ONES FROM WESTCHESTER.

315
00:18:00,947 --> 00:18:03,150
- FROM THE YARD?
- YEAH.

316
00:18:05,218 --> 00:18:07,220
I'LL JUST SHOW THEM
THE PICTURES

317
00:18:07,320 --> 00:18:09,722
AND THEN I'LL TELL THEM
MY STORY.

318
00:18:11,391 --> 00:18:13,460
YOU SAID THEY DON'T
OFFER FINANCIAL AID.

319
00:18:13,560 --> 00:18:15,462
ARE YOU HOPING THEY'LL
LET YOU COME ANYWAY

320
00:18:15,562 --> 00:18:18,398
BECAUSE THEY'RE GONNA
FEEL SORRY FOR YOU?

321
00:18:18,498 --> 00:18:20,833
THAT PLACE
WAS MADE FOR ME.

322
00:18:20,933 --> 00:18:22,702
YOU SAW THE BROCHURE.

323
00:18:22,802 --> 00:18:25,472
- IT'S A SCHOOL FOR PEOPLE
JUST LIKE YOU.
- YEAH.

324
00:18:25,572 --> 00:18:28,007
A PLACE WHERE
THEY'LL FINALLY

325
00:18:28,107 --> 00:18:30,343
APPRECIATE
AND EMBRACE YOU,

326
00:18:30,443 --> 00:18:33,012
THE TRUE HOME YOU'VE
BEEN SEARCHING FOR.

327
00:18:33,112 --> 00:18:34,847
DO YOU SEE WHAT
YOU'RE DOING HERE?

328
00:18:34,947 --> 00:18:36,983
GO FUCK YOURSELF.

329
00:18:37,083 --> 00:18:42,222
JESSE, YOU NEED
TO STAY HERE.

330
00:18:42,322 --> 00:18:44,557
I KNOW THAT RUNNING AWAY
SEEMS LIKE A GOOD IDEA NOW,

331
00:18:44,657 --> 00:18:47,694
BUT I PROMISE YOU
YOU WILL TAKE THIS FEELING
WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU GO.

332
00:18:47,794 --> 00:18:51,264
IT WILL NOT LEAVE YOU
UNTIL YOU DEAL WITH IT.

333
00:18:51,364 --> 00:18:53,866
AND IT WON'T LEAVE YOU
EVEN THEN,

334
00:18:53,966 --> 00:18:56,469
BUT IT WILL LESSEN.

335
00:18:56,569 --> 00:18:58,638
AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT,
EVENTUALLY YOU'LL BE ABLE

336
00:18:58,738 --> 00:19:01,040
TO DRAW A STRENGTH
FROM THIS EXPERIENCE

337
00:19:01,140 --> 00:19:03,343
THAT YOU NEVER
IMAGINED POSSIBLE.

338
00:19:11,251 --> 00:19:13,220
HOW'S YOUR SON?

339
00:19:14,721 --> 00:19:17,790
YOU-- YOU'VE ASKED ME
THAT ALREADY.

340
00:19:17,890 --> 00:19:20,460
HE-- HE'S FINE.

341
00:19:21,361 --> 00:19:23,396
IS HE STILL HERE?

342
00:19:24,964 --> 00:19:26,666
NO, HE--

343
00:19:27,900 --> 00:19:29,236
HE WENT BACK
TO BALTIMORE

344
00:19:29,336 --> 00:19:31,671
TO LIVE WITH HIS--
WITH HIS MOTHER.

345
00:19:38,144 --> 00:19:41,748
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN
TO THAT ICE CREAM PLACE
BY THE WATERFRONT?

346
00:19:41,848 --> 00:19:44,517
I DON'T THINK SO.

347
00:19:44,617 --> 00:19:49,789
WELL, I WAS THINKING
OF GOING THERE LATER

348
00:19:49,889 --> 00:19:52,225
FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

349
00:19:56,229 --> 00:19:57,864
DO YOU WANT TO COME?

350
00:20:08,908 --> 00:20:11,210
WHY DON'T YOU
ASK ROBERTO?

351
00:20:11,311 --> 00:20:12,945
I CAN'T.

352
00:20:13,045 --> 00:20:14,581
YES, YOU CAN.

353
00:20:14,681 --> 00:20:16,949
- GOD, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.
- WHAT DON'T I UNDERSTAND?

354
00:20:17,049 --> 00:20:19,452
YOU SO OBVIOUSLY
DON'T GET IT.
NOBODY GETS IT.

355
00:20:19,552 --> 00:20:22,154
JESSE, LOOK AT ME.
I GET IT.

356
00:20:22,255 --> 00:20:24,691
I GET IT.

357
00:20:39,372 --> 00:20:41,374
IS THE SESSION OVER?

358
00:20:45,945 --> 00:20:49,248
OH YES.
YES, IT IS.

359
00:20:49,349 --> 00:20:51,651
DO YOU WANT ME
TO LEAVE?

360
00:20:51,751 --> 00:20:53,386
NOT ALONE.

361
00:20:57,690 --> 00:21:00,627
WITH YOUR PERMISSION,
I'D LIKE TO CALL YOUR
MOTHER AND FATHER

362
00:21:00,727 --> 00:21:02,762
- TO COME PICK YOU UP.
- PLEASE DON'T DO THAT.

363
00:21:03,463 --> 00:21:05,365
I'LL BE ALL RIGHT.

364
00:21:08,034 --> 00:21:10,403
JUST LET ME SIT HERE
FOR A MOMENT.

365
00:21:11,604 --> 00:21:12,872
OKAY.

366
00:21:16,809 --> 00:21:19,579
I WAS LOOKING FORWARD
TO THIS ALL WEEK.

367
00:21:29,322 --> 00:21:32,425
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