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SO...

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SWARTHMORE IS DUE
ON FRIDAY. HEY.

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AND THEN BARNARD AND VASSAR
ARE NEXT WEDNESDAY.

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THEN IT'S SARAH LAWRENCE,
SANTA CRUZ,

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HAMPSHIRE, OBERLIN
AND TUFTS ALL BY THE 15th.

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- IT'S INSANITY.
- I'D SKIP SANTA CRUZ--

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TOO SUNNY.

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YOU COULD COME VISIT.
AND, YOU KNOW,

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YOU COULD GET
SOME FRESH AIR.

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YOU COULD HIT
THE BEACH, YOU KNOW.

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YOU COULD EVEN
GO SURFING.

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OH YEAH,
THAT'S ME ALL RIGHT.
YEAH, SURFING--

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THAT'S A GOOD ONE.

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LISTEN, THANKS FOR--
THANKS FOR DRIVING
MAX BACK.

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SURE.

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SO HOW WAS HE?
HOW WAS HIS MOOD?

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I DIDN'T SPEND
THAT MUCH TIME WITH HIM,

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BUT HE SEEMED GOOD.
HE SAID D.C. WAS AWESOME.

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D.C.?
HE WENT TO D.C.?

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WITH STEVE,
ON SATURDAY.

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DIDN'T HE TELL YOU?

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UH, NO, HE DIDN'T
MENTION THAT.

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YEAH, STEVE TOOK MAX
TO SEE THIS CALDER EXHIBIT
AT THE NATIONAL

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THAT THEY'VE BEEN
WANTING TO SEE.

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IS THAT WEIRD
FOR YOU?

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NO, IT'S FINE.
IT'S FINE.

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IT DOESN'T
EXACTLY FIT

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WITH WHAT MAX HAS BEEN
SAYING ABOUT STEVE.

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- WHAT'S HE BEEN SAYING?
- NOTHING MUCH.

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JUST THAT HE FINDS STEVE
MORE OR LESS REPULSIVE,

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BORDERLINE DEMONIC.

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( chuckles )

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WHAT DO YOU THINK
OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP?

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I DON'T KNOW.
I MEAN, YOU KNOW,

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THE FIRST BRUNCH
WAS SLIGHTLY AWKWARD.

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MAX TOLD STEVE
HE THOUGHT

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HIS HOUSE LOOKED LIKE
A GIANT HABITRAIL.

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BUT THEN, YOU KNOW,
THINGS JUST--

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IT'S OKAY, ROSIE.

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I MEAN, I--

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I'D PREFER THAT THEY
GOT ALONG TOGETHER.

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YEAH, I THINK
THEY JUST LIKE CONNECT

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- ON THE ART THING,
YOU KNOW?
- MM-HMM.

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LIKE STEVE HAS THAT
STUDIO IN HIS HOUSE.

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AND HE'S BEEN TEACHING
MAX DRAFTING, YOU KNOW.

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HE HAS THOSE LIKE
SIDE-BY-SIDE

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DESKS THINGIES
THAT ARE SLANTED.

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YEAH.

49
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YOU SHOULD GET GOING.

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I DON'T WANT YOU
DRIVING AFTER DARK.

51
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YOU KNOW
MAX LOVES YOU, DAD.

52
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HE CAME
TO LIVE WITH YOU.

53
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YEAH.
YEAH.

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OKAY, SO SEND ME
YOUR ESSAY ON FRIDAY--

55
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UNLESS STEVE'S GOT
THAT COVERED TOO.

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DAD.

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I'M JUST KIDDING.

58
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ANYWAY, I LOVE YOU.

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LOVE YOU TOO.

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- SEAT BELT.
- YEAH YEAH.

61
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NO TALKING ON THE PHONE
WHEN YOU'RE DRIVING, OKAY?

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LOVE YOU.

63
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LOVE YOU TOO.

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( theme music playing )

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YOU CUT YOUR HAIR.

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IT'S DIFFERENT.
IT'S LIGHTER.

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DARKER,
FOR THE PLAY.

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IT'S VERY--
VERY BECOMING.

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WELL, IT'S BECOMING
MAXINE, NOT ME.

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YOU KNOW,
I LOOK IN THE MIRROR,

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WEAR THE SHIRT.
IT HELPS ME TO FIND
HER REALITY.

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NOT THAT
THAT REALITY IS

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ALL THAT DIFFERENT
THAN MY REALITY, BUT...

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

75
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SHE'S RECENTLY
WIDOWED,

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ALL ALONE
IN THE WORLD,

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SEX-STARVED.

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YOU KNOW, I AM--
WELL, THERE ARE OVERLAPS.

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OVERLAPS?

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DO YOU THINK THAT HAS
ANYTHING TO DO

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WITH WHY YOU MIGHT BE
STRUGGLING WITH YOUR LINES?

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MAYBE.

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SO HOW--
HOW DID THE WEEK GO?

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FINE.

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ANY LAPSES?

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NOT REALLY.

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YOU LEFT HERE LAST WEEK
AND YOU WERE TERRIFIED

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THAT YOU WERE
GOING TO FAIL

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IN FRONT OF THE AUDIENCE
IN THE THEATER.

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YEAH WELL, THERE ARE STILL
MOMENTS WHEN I'M ONSTAGE

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THAT I WORRY ABOUT STUMBLING
ON THIS SCENE OR THAT,

92
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BUT I MANAGE.
I GET THROUGH.

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IS ONE OF THOSE SCENES
THE ONE YOU ASKED ME

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TO READ WITH YOU
LAST WEEK?

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YOU WERE PRETTY ANGRY
WHEN YOU LEFT.

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NO, I UNDERSTOOD
WHY YOU KICKED ME OUT.

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KICKED YOU OUT?

98
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YEAH, IT WAS INAPPROPRIATE.
YOU WERE NOT COMFORTABLE.

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WELL, THAT'S--
THAT'S TRUE.

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BUT THE WAY
I REMEMBER IT,

101
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YOU STORMED OUT
OF THE ROOM.

102
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HOW DO YOU REMEMBER
THAT MOMENT?

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I ASKED YOU
TO RUN LINES

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AND YOU REFUSED
TO HELP ME.

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I FELT SORRY FOR YOU.

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REALLY?

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YEAH, I MEAN
IT MUST BE STRANGE,

108
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YOU KNOW, TREATING
SOMEONE LIKE ME.

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YOU MEAN SOMEBODY
FAMOUS LIKE YOU.

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YOU KNOW, ULTIMATELY
IT'S NOT THAT INTERESTING

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TO READ A SCENE, SO...

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IS THAT SOMETHING
THAT YOU'VE BEEN FEELING--

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THAT YOUR WORK
ISN'T THAT INTERESTING?

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BECAUSE YOU HAVE
SPOKEN ABOUT IT
PASSIONATELY IN THE PAST.

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YEAH WELL,
THERE ARE TIMES.

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WOULD YOU LIKE TO TALK
ABOUT ONE OF THESE TIMES?

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NO.

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WELL, IT'S JUST THAT
I WOULD--

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I'D LIKE TO UNDERSTAND
WHAT IT IS

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THAT YOU ARE
EXPERIENCING,

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WHAT YOU'RE FEELING.

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I'VE NEVER DONE IT,
SO I'M CURIOUS.

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WELL, YOU KNOW I FELT
REALLY DISCONNECTED

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ALL THAT TIME
IN REHEARSAL.

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AND THIS WEEK--

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THIS WEEK
IN PREVIEWS,

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I REALLY FELT
LIKE I UNDERSTOOD

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SOMETHING NEW
ABOUT WHAT I--

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WHAT SHE NEEDED,
YOU KNOW, IN A MOMENT.

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AND IT JUST CLICKED
INTO PLACE.

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IT WAS--

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WELL, I WAS
TOTALLY IN TIME--

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PRESENT.

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MAYBE IT WAS
JUST THE HAIRCUT.

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AND THIS FEELING
OF FEELING PRESENT--

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WAS IT MOMENTARY?

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NO, IT LASTED
TILL THE END.

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AND IT WAS PALPABLE.
I MEAN,

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THE APPLAUSE WAS...

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- WHAT?
- LOUD.

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THAT MUST HAVE
FELT GOOD.

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THINK OF WHERE YOU WERE.

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YOU WERE TERRIFIED.

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YOU WERE DREADING
THE WEEK OF PREVIEWS.

145
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THEN THE PLAY GOES ON.
IT'S A SUCCESS.

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YOU MAKE THIS CONNECTION.

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YOU MUST FEEL
A SATISFACTION.

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WHAT HAPPENS
BETWEEN THEN AND NOW?

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I GO HOME.

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THE APARTMENT'S DARK.
THE FRIDGE IS EMPTY.

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I OPEN A CAN OF SOUP.

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IT'S A NASTY HANGOVER--

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MY LIFE.

154
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DO YOU WANT TO COME
TO OPENING NIGHT?

155
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I HAVE A SET OF TICKETS
AND I WAS JUST THINKING,

156
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YOU KNOW, WHY DON'T
YOU JUST COME?

157
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WHY WOULD YOU
WANT ME THERE?

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I DON'T KNOW.
YOU SOUND INTERESTED, SO...

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ANY OTHER REASONS?

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YOU COULD SEE
THAT I'M GOOD.

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WELL, I KNOW THAT.

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WHY?

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BECAUSE I'VE SEEN
YOUR FILMS.

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WHICH ONES?

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ALL OF THEM.

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ANYWAY, YOU'VE NEVER
SEEN ME ONSTAGE, RIGHT?

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NO, I HAVE NOT
SEEN YOU ONSTAGE.

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SO THERE YOU GO.
YOU COULD COME AND SEE
WHAT IT IS THAT I DO.

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I MEAN,
IS THAT SO STRANGE?

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YOU JUST SAID
YOU WANTED TO--

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IT'S NOT STRANGE
AT ALL.

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BUT I'M GONNA
HAVE TO SAY NO.

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OKAY, WELL,

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IS THAT BECAUSE OF ME
OR SOME POLICY OR--?

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WELL YES, IT IS
A KIND OF POLICY.

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I THINK THAT--

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I THINK THAT IT WOULD
INTERFERE WITH THE WORK

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THAT WE'RE TRYING TO DO
HERE IN THIS ROOM.

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BUT PLEASE DON'T
TAKE THAT PERSONALLY.

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NO, THAT'S FINE.
I UNDERSTAND.

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I'LL SELL THEM
ON eBAY.

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( chuckles )

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YOU WERE CONSIDERING
INVITING PATRICIA.

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00:09:04,444 --> 00:09:06,079
DID YOU DO THAT?

185
00:09:07,581 --> 00:09:09,216
WHY NOT?

186
00:09:11,118 --> 00:09:13,553
HAVE YOU SPOKEN
TO PATRICIA THIS WEEK?

187
00:09:13,654 --> 00:09:16,857
I DID WHAT YOU
TOLD ME TO DO.

188
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WHAT DID I
TELL YOU TO DO?

189
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YOU TOLD ME THAT
IT WASN'T TOO LATE
TO MAKE AMENDS.

190
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SO I WENT TO HER
AND I APOLOGIZED.

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FOR TELLING HER
NOT TO BE AN ACTRESS.

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SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW
WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT.

193
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SHE HARDLY REMEMBERED
BEING IN THAT PLAY.

194
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YOU KNOW,
I TOLD HER

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THAT I THOUGHT
SHE WAS WONDERFUL

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AND THAT
IT WAS WRONG OF ME
TO DISSUADE HER.

197
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AND SHE SAID,
"OH, DON'T WORRY
ABOUT THAT."

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AND THEN
SHE THANKED ME.

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SHE SAID, "I DON'T
KNOW HOW YOU BEAR
ALL THAT BULLSHIT."

200
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SHE SAID
I SAVED HER.

201
00:09:49,957 --> 00:09:52,559
AND THEN--
THIS IS THIS BEST--
SHE SAID,

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"I'M GLAD I GOT
TO LEAD A REAL LIFE."

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A REAL LIFE--
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?

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IT MUST HAVE BEEN
HURTFUL.

205
00:10:01,468 --> 00:10:03,937
YOU THINK?
HUMILIATING.

206
00:10:04,037 --> 00:10:06,707
I MEAN, I WAS TRYING
TO APOLOGIZE.

207
00:10:06,807 --> 00:10:09,643
AND DID YOU TELL HER THAT?
THAT IT FELT PAINFUL?

208
00:10:11,278 --> 00:10:13,213
OF COURSE NOT.

209
00:10:13,313 --> 00:10:16,183
AND CAN I ASK WHY?

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SHE'S SICK, PAUL.

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I WENT THERE
TO MAKE AMENDS,

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00:10:19,653 --> 00:10:21,388
NOT PICK A FIGHT.

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00:10:21,488 --> 00:10:23,456
I-- I--
I WAS JUST AWARE

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THAT YOU FELT GUILTY.

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I THOUGHT THAT
TALKING TO PATRICIA
MIGHT BE HELPFUL.

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00:10:29,697 --> 00:10:31,498
I'M SORRY
IT WASN'T.

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00:10:31,598 --> 00:10:33,633
AT LEAST NOW I KNOW
WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME,

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WHAT SHE THINKS
OF THE LIFE I CHOSE.

219
00:10:38,138 --> 00:10:40,808
WHAT DO YOU THINK
OF THE LIFE YOU CHOSE?

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THE LAST TIME WE SPOKE
I HAD THE FEELING

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THAT YOU ARE
VERY INVESTED

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00:10:49,049 --> 00:10:51,551
IN THE WAY
OTHER PEOPLE SEE YOU.

223
00:10:51,651 --> 00:10:54,054
AND YOUR SISTER'S
JUDGMENT HAS--

224
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IT'S CLEARLY HAD
A BIG IMPACT

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ON HOW YOU VIEW
YOURSELF.

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00:10:59,827 --> 00:11:02,062
LOOK, YOU KNOW,

227
00:11:02,162 --> 00:11:05,398
I UNDERSTAND THAT
TRICIA WOULDN'T WANT
MY LIFE ANYWAY.

228
00:11:05,498 --> 00:11:08,401
ALL MY CONNECTIONS

229
00:11:08,501 --> 00:11:11,471
ARE, YOU KNOW,
FICTION.

230
00:11:11,571 --> 00:11:13,440
MAYBE THEY ALWAYS
HAVE BEEN.

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00:11:13,540 --> 00:11:15,442
DO YOU REALLY
BELIEVE THAT?

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00:11:18,245 --> 00:11:20,347
I MEAN, WHEN YOU MET RUSSELL,
YOU TOLD ME

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00:11:20,447 --> 00:11:23,150
THAT YOU HAD A REALLY
DEEP CONNECTION WITH HIM.

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00:11:23,250 --> 00:11:26,186
YEAH WELL, I THINK
WE DID AT FIRST.

235
00:11:28,255 --> 00:11:30,724
I JUST-- I ALWAYS FELT
LIKE I HAD TO PROVE
MYSELF TO RUSSELL.

236
00:11:30,824 --> 00:11:32,392
PROVE YOURSELF?

237
00:11:32,492 --> 00:11:34,561
YEAH, TO RUSSELL
AND HIS FRIENDS--

238
00:11:34,661 --> 00:11:36,663
YOU KNOW,
THESE ACADEMICS,

239
00:11:36,764 --> 00:11:39,399
SHRINKS,
POLITICAL SCIENTISTS.

240
00:11:39,499 --> 00:11:42,970
I ALWAYS THOUGHT
THEY WERE GONNA SEE
RIGHT THROUGH ME.

241
00:11:43,070 --> 00:11:46,339
AND WHAT DO YOU THINK
THEY WOULD SEE?

242
00:11:49,977 --> 00:11:52,279
THAT THERE'S
NO THERE THERE.

243
00:11:52,379 --> 00:11:55,248
THAT'S WHAT RUSSELL
USED TO SAY ABOUT L.A.

244
00:11:55,348 --> 00:11:58,618
YOU WERE AFRAID THAT
THAT'S HOW RUSSELL SAW YOU,

245
00:11:58,718 --> 00:12:01,521
AND HIS FRIENDS--
"NO THERE THERE."

246
00:12:01,621 --> 00:12:04,657
YEAH, RUSSELL'S SHALLOW
ACTRESS WIFE.

247
00:12:04,758 --> 00:12:06,259
OH, BUT HOW THE FUCK
WOULD THEY KNOW?

248
00:12:06,359 --> 00:12:09,830
THEY'VE NEVER COME
TO A PERFORMANCE EITHER.

249
00:12:09,930 --> 00:12:12,900
ARE YOU UPSET WITH ME

250
00:12:13,000 --> 00:12:16,503
BECAUSE I SAID I WOULDN'T
COME TO YOUR PLAY?

251
00:12:16,603 --> 00:12:20,507
YOU INVITED ME
TO AN IMPORTANT EVENT--

252
00:12:20,607 --> 00:12:22,776
YOUR OPENING NIGHT.

253
00:12:22,876 --> 00:12:27,480
AND I THANK YOU
FOR THAT.

254
00:12:27,580 --> 00:12:30,183
BUT ISN'T THERE SOMEBODY ELSE
YOU'D LIKE TO ASK INSTEAD?

255
00:12:30,283 --> 00:12:33,053
WE TALKED ABOUT TRICIA.
WHAT ABOUT IZZY?

256
00:12:33,153 --> 00:12:36,156
ISN'T SHE SOMEONE
YOU'D LIKE TO TAKE WITH YOU?

257
00:12:36,256 --> 00:12:38,391
HAVE YOU THOUGHT
ABOUT ASKING HER?

258
00:12:38,491 --> 00:12:42,195
NO, THAT WOULD REQUIRE US
TO BE IN THE SAME BUILDING.

259
00:12:42,295 --> 00:12:43,964
WELL, SURELY YOU KNOW

260
00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:46,133
THAT THE RELATIONSHIP
WITH IZZY

261
00:12:46,233 --> 00:12:48,601
WILL SURVIVE
THIS TEENAGE ANGST.

262
00:12:48,701 --> 00:12:50,203
I'M NOT SURE
ABOUT THAT.

263
00:12:50,303 --> 00:12:52,940
I KNOW IT MAY NOT FEEL
THAT WAY, BUT...

264
00:12:53,040 --> 00:12:55,108
YOU KNOW, SOMETIMES I THINK
THAT HAVING A TEENAGER

265
00:12:55,208 --> 00:12:57,044
IS LIKE GOING TO THE DARK
SIDE OF THE MOON.

266
00:12:57,144 --> 00:13:00,948
THE PERSON THAT YOU KNOW
AND THAT YOU LOVE
JUST DISAPPEARS.

267
00:13:01,048 --> 00:13:03,316
AND YOU JUST HAVE TO TRUST
THAT EVENTUALLY

268
00:13:03,416 --> 00:13:05,252
THEY WILL COME BACK.

269
00:13:05,352 --> 00:13:08,922
MAYBE DIFFERENT,
BUT THEY WILL COME BACK.

270
00:13:09,022 --> 00:13:10,991
DID THAT HAPPEN
TO YOU?

271
00:13:12,960 --> 00:13:15,128
YES, WITH MY DAUGHTER, YES.

272
00:13:15,728 --> 00:13:17,364
YEAH.

273
00:13:18,698 --> 00:13:21,634
YEAH WELL,
I'M STILL READING MY
DAUGHTER'S EMAILS, SO...

274
00:13:21,734 --> 00:13:23,470
( chuckles )

275
00:13:23,570 --> 00:13:25,605
I DON'T KNOW.
IT'S AN ADDICTION,
YOU KNOW?

276
00:13:25,705 --> 00:13:27,374
LIKE A JUNKIE
JUST WAITING

277
00:13:27,474 --> 00:13:31,178
FOR HITS OF INFORMATION
ABOUT MY OWN KID.

278
00:13:31,278 --> 00:13:33,746
YOU KNOW, SHE SIGNS
SOME OF THEM "ISABEL" NOW.

279
00:13:33,847 --> 00:13:36,316
I MEAN, WHEN DID SHE
BECOME ISABEL?

280
00:13:39,219 --> 00:13:41,388
YOU MIGHT BE
CURIOUS TO KNOW

281
00:13:41,488 --> 00:13:44,357
THAT HER AND YOUNG MILLER
HAVE NOT YET HAD SEX.

282
00:13:44,457 --> 00:13:47,427
THEY TALK ABOUT IT,
HOWEVER, ALL THE TIME.

283
00:13:47,527 --> 00:13:49,930
I KIND OF WANT
TO TELL HER,

284
00:13:50,030 --> 00:13:53,000
"TRY TO PRESERVE
SOME OF THE MYSTERY."

285
00:13:53,100 --> 00:13:57,137
BUT I WANT TO TELL HER
A LOT OF THINGS.

286
00:13:57,237 --> 00:13:59,206
( sighs )

287
00:13:59,306 --> 00:14:00,773
SHE DID SAY
SOMETHING NICE.

288
00:14:00,874 --> 00:14:03,143
MILLER HAD SEEN
A MOVIE OF MINE ON TV

289
00:14:03,243 --> 00:14:06,646
AND HE SAID,
"YOUR MOTHER WAS AMAZING."

290
00:14:06,746 --> 00:14:11,118
AND IZZY WROTE BACK,
"SHE IS AMAZING."

291
00:14:11,218 --> 00:14:13,253
WERE YOU SURPRISED
BY THAT COMMENT?

292
00:14:13,353 --> 00:14:16,489
OH, IT WAS A SILLY MOVIE.
I GOT GOOD ENOUGH REVIEWS,

293
00:14:16,589 --> 00:14:18,291
BUT IT WASN'T
MY BEST WORK.

294
00:14:18,391 --> 00:14:20,260
WHAT I MEANT WAS,
WERE YOU SURPRISED

295
00:14:20,360 --> 00:14:22,996
THAT IZZY WOULD
COMPLIMENT YOU LIKE THAT?

296
00:14:23,096 --> 00:14:24,731
SHE WASN'T
SPEAKING OF ME.

297
00:14:24,831 --> 00:14:26,967
SHE WAS SPEAKING
OF THE PERFORMANCE.

298
00:14:28,936 --> 00:14:31,138
IZZY REVEALED HOW SHE FELT
IN THAT EMAIL.

299
00:14:31,238 --> 00:14:33,140
SHE SAID SOMETHING
VERY KIND ABOUT YOU.

300
00:14:33,240 --> 00:14:34,975
SHE SAID
YOU WERE AMAZING.

301
00:14:35,075 --> 00:14:37,844
BUT YOU DISMISSED
HER COMMENT.

302
00:14:37,945 --> 00:14:39,913
I'VE NOTICED
THAT AGAIN AND AGAIN

303
00:14:40,013 --> 00:14:42,015
YOU PUT YOURSELF DOWN

304
00:14:42,115 --> 00:14:45,118
WITH REMARKABLE
CONSISTENCY.

305
00:14:45,218 --> 00:14:47,320
AND THE MORE SUCCESS
YOU HAVE,

306
00:14:47,420 --> 00:14:49,756
THE MORE APPLAUSE YOU GET
FOR PLAYING OTHER PEOPLE,

307
00:14:49,856 --> 00:14:51,491
THE MORE CONVINCED
YOU ARE

308
00:14:51,591 --> 00:14:54,527
THAT YOU HAVE NOTHING
TO OFFER AS YOURSELF.

309
00:14:58,966 --> 00:15:01,801
WHEN I SAID BEFORE
THAT I DIDN'T HAVE ANYONE

310
00:15:01,901 --> 00:15:04,837
TO BE THERE FOR ME
AT THE OPENING--

311
00:15:04,938 --> 00:15:07,774
I THINK WHAT I MEAN
IS THAT I'D REALLY LIKE

312
00:15:07,874 --> 00:15:10,110
FOR MY MOTHER TO BE ABLE
TO BE THERE.

313
00:15:10,210 --> 00:15:12,745
YOU KNOW,
I'VE DONE A LOT OF MOVIES
SINCE MOTHER DIED,

314
00:15:12,845 --> 00:15:14,414
BUT THIS WILL BE
THE FIRST TIME

315
00:15:14,514 --> 00:15:17,750
THAT I'LL BE ONSTAGE
WITHOUT HER WATCHING.

316
00:15:17,850 --> 00:15:20,420
YOU REALLY DO MISS HER,
DON'T YOU?

317
00:15:20,520 --> 00:15:23,957
WELL, IT WAS REALLY
LIKE A SPECIAL LIGHT

318
00:15:24,057 --> 00:15:26,526
THAT SHONE JUST ON ME

319
00:15:26,626 --> 00:15:28,461
WHEN SHE WAS
IN THE AUDIENCE.

320
00:15:31,264 --> 00:15:32,932
I MEAN, SHE CAME
TO EVERYTHING

321
00:15:33,033 --> 00:15:34,634
EVEN WHEN
I WAS A KID.

322
00:15:34,734 --> 00:15:37,904
AND THEN WHEN I MOVED
TO NEW YORK, SHE USED TO
TAKE THE TRAIN UP.

323
00:15:38,005 --> 00:15:41,408
AND I FLEW HER TO LONDON
FOR THE WEEKEND.

324
00:15:41,508 --> 00:15:43,276
SHE SAT THROUGH
ALL FOUR PERFORMANCES.

325
00:15:43,376 --> 00:15:45,345
THAT'S NINE HOURS
OF BECKETT.

326
00:15:45,445 --> 00:15:47,614
WELL, THAT'S LOVE.

327
00:15:47,714 --> 00:15:51,351
EVEN AT THE VERY END--
I HAD A PREMIERE
HERE IN TOWN.

328
00:15:51,451 --> 00:15:54,387
AND SHE JUST DIDN'T
WANT TO MISS IT.

329
00:15:54,487 --> 00:15:57,557
SHE WAS SO SICK BY THEN,
SHE WAS IN AND OUT
OF THE HOSPITAL.

330
00:15:57,657 --> 00:15:59,826
BUT SHE INSISTED.

331
00:15:59,926 --> 00:16:03,263
AND TRICIA HAD TO
BRING HER.

332
00:16:05,598 --> 00:16:08,935
I REMEMBER SHE WORE
THIS AMAZING BLUE GOWN.

333
00:16:09,036 --> 00:16:10,937
IT HAD THIS, LIKE,
PLUNGING NECKLINE.

334
00:16:11,038 --> 00:16:13,940
AND SHE WORE, OF COURSE,
HER RED LIPSTICK

335
00:16:14,041 --> 00:16:17,044
AND A BLACK WIG
WITH THIS CLASSIC UPDO.

336
00:16:17,144 --> 00:16:19,012
SHE HANDLED
HERSELF BEAUTIFULLY.

337
00:16:19,112 --> 00:16:22,082
SHE CHARMED THE HELL
OUT OF EVERYONE.

338
00:16:22,182 --> 00:16:24,384
I MEAN, IT WAS HARD
TO BELIEVE SHE WAS SICK,

339
00:16:24,484 --> 00:16:26,819
LET ALONE DYING.

340
00:16:26,919 --> 00:16:28,855
WE WENT BACK
TO THE HOTEL AFTERWARDS.

341
00:16:28,955 --> 00:16:32,792
I'D GOTTEN THIS GREAT
ROOM WITH A VIEW OF
THE PARK AND...

342
00:16:32,892 --> 00:16:35,762
( exhales )
ORDERED CHAMPAGNE--

343
00:16:35,862 --> 00:16:37,497
JUST A GREAT TIME.

344
00:16:40,867 --> 00:16:42,602
IT WAS--

345
00:16:43,970 --> 00:16:46,239
IT WAS THE LAST TIME
I SAW HER.

346
00:16:51,711 --> 00:16:54,081
BUT YOU TOLD ME

347
00:16:54,181 --> 00:16:57,050
THAT YOU WERE GOING
BACK AND FORTH

348
00:16:57,150 --> 00:16:58,718
TO THE HOSPITAL A LOT.

349
00:17:02,222 --> 00:17:04,457
I KNOW
THAT'S WHAT I SAID,

350
00:17:06,493 --> 00:17:09,462
BECAUSE HONESTLY THAT'S
WHAT IT FELT LIKE INSIDE.

351
00:17:11,898 --> 00:17:15,535
I'VE BEEN TELLING MYSELF
THAT STORY FOR SO LONG...

352
00:17:22,475 --> 00:17:25,445
THAT YOU'VE CONVINCED
YOURSELF THAT IT'S TRUE.

353
00:17:25,545 --> 00:17:28,081
I MEAN, WHEN SHE
CAME TO NEW YORK,
SHE LOOKED SO MUCH BETTER.

354
00:17:28,181 --> 00:17:29,782
I THOUGHT--

355
00:17:29,882 --> 00:17:31,518
I DON'T KNOW
WHAT I THOUGHT.

356
00:17:31,618 --> 00:17:35,488
WELL, MAYBE YOU WANTED
TO REMEMBER HER LIKE THAT.

357
00:17:35,588 --> 00:17:37,757
I HATED TO SEE HER
IN THAT BED.

358
00:17:37,857 --> 00:17:39,292
THAT WAS NOT HER.

359
00:17:39,392 --> 00:17:42,162
YOU SAID THAT
YOU FELT OUT OF PLACE
AT THE HOSPITAL.

360
00:17:42,262 --> 00:17:43,996
OH, I WAS INEPT.

361
00:17:44,097 --> 00:17:47,567
WHAT DO YOU MEAN,
YOU WERE INEPT?

362
00:17:47,667 --> 00:17:50,203
SHE WAS IN PAIN.

363
00:17:50,303 --> 00:17:52,305
I WANTED TO HELP,
YOU KNOW,

364
00:17:52,405 --> 00:17:55,275
SO I PUT ON
HER MAKEUP,

365
00:17:55,375 --> 00:17:57,577
'CAUSE THAT'S WHAT
I KNOW HOW TO DO.

366
00:17:57,677 --> 00:17:59,679
AND THEN?

367
00:17:59,779 --> 00:18:03,116
THE MEDS WOULD WEAR OFF
AND SHE WOULD START
TO SCREAM.

368
00:18:03,216 --> 00:18:05,718
I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING.

369
00:18:08,388 --> 00:18:10,357
NOTHING.
I-- I THREW UP.

370
00:18:10,457 --> 00:18:14,294
I VOMITED IN THE SINK
AT THE HOSPITAL.

371
00:18:14,394 --> 00:18:16,863
TRICIA SAID
IT GOT EVEN WORSE
AFTER THE PREMIERE.

372
00:18:16,963 --> 00:18:19,999
SHE, I THINK,
BLAMED ME, YOU KNOW,

373
00:18:20,099 --> 00:18:22,735
FOR PUSHING HER
TOO HARD.

374
00:18:22,835 --> 00:18:25,705
NEW YORK
WAS EXHAUSTING.

375
00:18:25,805 --> 00:18:27,740
WHY DID I
NEED HER TO BE

376
00:18:27,840 --> 00:18:30,743
AT THIS RIDICULOUS
PREMIERE?

377
00:18:30,843 --> 00:18:32,645
DID SHE REALLY
SAY THAT?

378
00:18:35,315 --> 00:18:39,085
WE'RE BACK
ON FAMILIAR GROUND
REALLY, AREN'T WE?

379
00:18:39,186 --> 00:18:42,155
YOU THINK THAT
PATRICIA BLAMES YOU,

380
00:18:42,255 --> 00:18:44,791
THAT SHE'S
PUNISHING YOU.

381
00:18:44,891 --> 00:18:47,894
AND YOU BLAME
YOURSELF.

382
00:18:50,029 --> 00:18:52,399
IN THE END
TRICIA TOLD ME

383
00:18:52,499 --> 00:18:54,234
THAT MOM WAS DELIRIOUS
IN THE HOSPITAL.

384
00:18:54,334 --> 00:18:58,905
SHE WAS TALKING

385
00:19:00,072 --> 00:19:01,974
ABOUT HER DAUGHTERS,
YOU KNOW--

386
00:19:02,074 --> 00:19:03,710
HOW MUCH SHE LOVED US,
HER LITTLE ANGELS,

387
00:19:03,810 --> 00:19:06,213
HER SWEETHEARTS.
THAT WAS THE WORD SHE
ALWAYS USED--

388
00:19:06,313 --> 00:19:09,182
SWEETHEARTS,
HER BEST GIRLS.

389
00:19:09,282 --> 00:19:11,318
"I LOVE YOU,
MY DAUGHTERS,

390
00:19:11,418 --> 00:19:14,454
MY BEST GIRLS,
MY ANGELS."

391
00:19:14,554 --> 00:19:17,857
SHE WAS TALKING AS IF
BOTH OF US WERE THERE.

392
00:19:17,957 --> 00:19:19,526
BUT...

393
00:19:20,360 --> 00:19:21,894
I WASN'T THERE.

394
00:19:23,630 --> 00:19:25,398
I WASN'T THERE.

395
00:19:25,498 --> 00:19:28,968
I NEVER SAID GOODBYE
TO HER.

396
00:19:29,068 --> 00:19:30,437
MY MOTHER--

397
00:19:30,537 --> 00:19:34,674
SHE JUST MUST HAVE BEEN
SO DISAPPOINTED BY ME.

398
00:19:34,774 --> 00:19:37,577
BUT YOUR MOTHER DIDN'T KNOW
YOU WEREN'T THERE.

399
00:19:37,677 --> 00:19:40,313
SHE COULDN'T HAVE BEEN
DISAPPOINTED.

400
00:19:40,413 --> 00:19:42,415
YOU WERE ONE OF HER
BEST GIRLS.

401
00:19:42,515 --> 00:19:44,417
SHE WAS YOUR
BIGGEST FAN.

402
00:19:44,517 --> 00:19:47,119
SHE WAS
SO PROUD OF YOU.

403
00:19:47,220 --> 00:19:51,824
THAT FEELING
OF DISAPPOINTMENT
COMES FROM YOU.

404
00:19:51,924 --> 00:19:54,026
20 YEARS AGO
YOU WERE AFRAID

405
00:19:54,126 --> 00:19:56,028
YOU DIDN'T HAVE
THE STRENGTH, THE HEART

406
00:19:56,128 --> 00:19:58,331
TO SEE YOUR MOTHER
THROUGH HER DEATH.

407
00:19:58,431 --> 00:20:01,834
YOU WERE SO AFRAID,
YOU DIDN'T EVEN LET
YOURSELF SHOW UP.

408
00:20:01,934 --> 00:20:04,471
NOW YOUR SISTER
IS DYING

409
00:20:04,571 --> 00:20:08,775
AND YOU'RE
TERRIFIED AGAIN.

410
00:20:08,875 --> 00:20:10,777
ARE YOU AFRAID

411
00:20:10,877 --> 00:20:14,447
THAT WHAT RUSSELL
THOUGHT OF YOU IS TRUE--

412
00:20:14,547 --> 00:20:18,951
THAT THERE'S NO
THERE THERE, HMM?

413
00:20:19,051 --> 00:20:20,753
I THINK IT'S REALLY
IMPORTANT

414
00:20:20,853 --> 00:20:23,189
THAT YOU ANSWER THIS
QUESTION ON YOUR OWN:

415
00:20:23,290 --> 00:20:26,659
WHAT IS,
OR WHAT ISN'T THERE,

416
00:20:26,759 --> 00:20:28,828
INSIDE-- INSIDE YOU?

417
00:20:28,928 --> 00:20:30,863
APART FROM
YOUR MOTHER, YOUR SISTER,
YOUR EX-HUSBAND,

418
00:20:30,963 --> 00:20:32,965
ME, NOBODY
IN THE AUDIENCE--

419
00:20:33,065 --> 00:20:35,768
HOW DO YOU, FRANCES,

420
00:20:35,868 --> 00:20:38,905
MEASURE YOUR OWN WORTH?

421
00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:49,849
IT'S TIME, RIGHT?

422
00:20:51,250 --> 00:20:54,521
( sniffles )

423
00:20:55,555 --> 00:20:57,557
JUST GIVE ME A MOMENT.

424
00:21:02,762 --> 00:21:06,265
WOW, OKAY.

425
00:21:06,366 --> 00:21:09,035
THIS IS JUST GONNA
HAVE TO DO, ISN'T IT?

426
00:21:13,306 --> 00:21:16,909
WOW, OKAY.

427
00:21:21,348 --> 00:21:25,652
OH, PAUL, LAST WEEK
WHEN I LEFT

428
00:21:25,752 --> 00:21:28,755
THERE WAS SOMEBODY
IN THE WAITING ROOM.

429
00:21:31,491 --> 00:21:35,662
I REALLY DON'T WANT
TO SEE ANYONE.

430
00:21:42,234 --> 00:21:44,404
OH GOOD.

431
00:21:44,504 --> 00:21:46,506
- SEE YOU NEXT WEEK.
- YEAH.

432
00:21:51,844 --> 00:21:53,312
( knocks on door )

433
00:21:58,785 --> 00:22:01,354
I FORGOT TO TELL YOU
THAT I GOT THE RESULTS

434
00:22:01,454 --> 00:22:04,357
OF THE BRCA1 TEST.
I HAVEN'T OPENED
THEM YET.

435
00:22:04,457 --> 00:22:07,026
IT'LL GIVE US SOMETHING
TO TALK ABOUT NEXT WEEK.

436
00:22:11,631 --> 00:22:14,333
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